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Bye-bye.

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All right, welcome.

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Thanks ladies for patience.

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All right, welcome.

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Thanks ladies for patience.

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Hold on, we will fix this.

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That's not supposed to do that, sorry about that.

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All right, for comical laughs as we start tonight.

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Make sure you all are muted as well.

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I had a double, my new setup here with my Mac, it just, for whatever reason, turned

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Zoom mic on automatically, I forgot.

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So apologize, welcome to Monday night.

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If you're joining us for the first time, we are so glad that you're here.

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Tonight we are going to be talking about forgiveness.

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It's okay if you're not quite to that part of the material yet, because if you've just

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started, you're not going to be there yet.

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You're still going to get a lot out of tonight's session and we are glad that you're here joining

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us.

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I'm going to go ahead and pray for us.

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I have a couple of housekeeping items, but it almost sounds like the things I'm going

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to share kind of sound like content.

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So I'm going to go ahead and pray and get us started tonight.

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Father, thank you so much for your amazing goodness, God, that you had a plan long before

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we ever knew that we needed it to send your son Jesus.

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And he chose to come and allow his body to be broken for his blood to be shed for the

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forgiveness of our sins, for our freedom, for us, even in this moment tonight, for such

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a time as this, for us to come into a deeper understanding of, of what it means to choose

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forgiveness every single day, sometimes over and over again, and Lord, just to release

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people into your care, God, to trust you with the outcome.

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So Lord, we pray that you would just wash over every lady that's here live tonight,

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as well as those that would watch the recording, God, that you would help them to hear what

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your spirit is saying to them, that you would bring things to their remembrance that they

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need to release and let go God, that the things that are in darkness can be brought

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to the light so that they can step further into the fullness of who you originally created

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them to be into your healing God, into your kingdom principles.

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And just that it's not about rules.

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It's about relationship that even as they choose forgiveness, they, they lean back in

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to relationship with you and intimacy where the enemy has tried to come and steal and

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kill and destroy God.

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You sent Jesus to come and give us life and give it to us more abundantly.

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And he made a way for us to be one with you through his sacrifice.

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So Holy Spirit, we ask you also just to come and be here, be among our conversations weave

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in and out and help us to hear what you have to say tonight.

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We decrease so that you can increase and show us your glory, Lord, in Jesus name, amen.

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If you're watching on Facebook, want to encourage you to come with us on zoom, because that's

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where you're going to be able to go in the breakouts.

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So I know you guys, I'm talking to you on zoom too, but we have a lot of ladies that

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get confused.

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You can't join the breakouts if you're on Facebook, if you if you can't join on zoom tonight that's totally okay, but I just want to make that clear for anyone that is confused about that.

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That you guys come join us on zoom okay all right that's my first housekeeping thing I know there's a lot of things for some of y'all to learn.

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But hey we're all being stretched and we're growing together, some of you guys, you never know what you're learning here is going to how it's going to benefit you later on, so even if it's frustrating for you, some of you guys have mentioned that.

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Just allow God to give you the grace to learn something new and it's okay if you fumble through it sometimes you all that's part of even just the being kinder to yourselves is going to be a part of the theme tonight.

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forgiving yourself, but also being kind to yourself, so if you make a mistake or you're not sure how to do something show yourself grace and kindness don't be so hard on yourself all right.

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Okay, so healing as a journey is one of my first things I want to talk about, and the reason I want to bring this up is a lot of times what I have seen what we have found in these groups is that.

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it's like people want to win the hard work parts kind of over and we start nudging some of you that will be soon finished into the next phase is relationship accelerator.

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you'll want to keep hanging out here for a long time and that doesn't mean Facebook group i'm just talking about in the hard work phase and some of you might need some extra time in the hard work phase so it's okay if you do.

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But don't hang like don't put yourself on the shelf again Okay, because the whole journey of hard work in the healing is for you to come out of hiding.

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For you to come out of the time out that you put yourself in essentially and come back into the promise that God has for you regards.

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In regards to your spirit mate and relationship, so I want just you to understand that healing is going to continue.

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Even after you go into the love story accelerator some of you all, when you step back into dating some of you when you meet.

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People and you're you know, trying to figure out, are they my spirit mate y'all it's gonna healing is going to come, even after you marry someone new.

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Okay, so don't feel like you have to get it all done right now, and you can't move forward if you have areas that still need healed and and again we still have a little bit of time for those of you that started back on October 15.

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But I just felt like it was important for you guys to understand that now, so that you don't start pumping the brakes and getting scared and the next week and a half, for those of you that will be ready to move on all right.

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And because revealings for healing again they'll just keep continuing i've been married over a year and I don't know, three or four months now.

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And God is still revealing things for healing and sometimes it involves my spirit mate and sometimes it just is things that i'm i'm in a safe place now.

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And so it's safer for those things to come out and and God and his goodness knows the right timing and he knows the right timing for all of you as well.

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want to encourage you guys to keep using your Jesus cares board Okay, so some of you guys haven't done it yet.

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And not just the ones that are brand new some of you have been in here for a few weeks and haven't done it yet, so I want to ask you why why haven't you done it.

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You know, want to encourage you to really lean into that we're giving you guys tools that will really radically change your healing process and the way you do life for like for good.

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If you want to use them somebody asked well, what do we do like, how do we really implement these things well, this is one of the tools we're giving you.

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we're teaching you how to physically activate and cast your cares on Jesus and we would encourage you to keep visiting that Jesus cares board praying over those things releasing those.

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Every day I saw someone's post even before I came in tonight.

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And they're doing good but it's a struggle, they want to keep taking those things back but it's that reminder, yes, Lord I give these to you, thank you God that you're working in these situations.

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i'm I literally there were times I laid my hands on those that board and I just thank God for working in them in ways that I couldn't even understand.

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If you're new the Jesus cares board is going to be talked about maybe in the welcome video or the first week one and then in our first heart check in that you'll find in your portal, as well as the guide section.

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That would have been maybe October 23 maybe i'm not sure on the date on that but just go in there and look for that and there's ladies that have already done there, so you can see some examples in the group as well.

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So, as we start towards forgiveness con the concept in the conversation tonight we want.

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Let's start out with last week.

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We were talking about confession and repentance and our broken heart.

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Um, and how there's, it's the puzzle it's, you know, confusing sometimes.

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And, and what we want you to understand is that your broken heart isn't

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forward with you a lot of time.

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It's because it's leaning into these counterfeit identities,

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it's leaning into the lies.

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And so therefore a lot of times it's, it's going to mislead you.

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So understanding that when we start looking at forgiveness, there are going

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to be times where you absolutely will not feel like forgiving someone.

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And we're going to talk about that a little more in a minute, but just

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kind of tuck that away for a minute.

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Confession that we talked about last week helps us come out of isolation and hiding.

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We're saying, here are the sins that we committed.

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We confess some of those to our sisters last week.

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If you're new again, just kind of, just kind of hang out and hear it tonight.

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If you're not there yet, it's okay to just let this kind of fill in

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and absorb into just where you're at.

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But you, you're coming out of hiding.

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You're saying, okay, here I am, Lord.

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You see all of me.

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You love me, irregardless of the mistakes I've made of the things I've

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participated in, and I'm choosing to turn away from those things.

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Now tonight, what forgiveness does that we're talking about?

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It brings closure.

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Forgiveness brings closure.

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You all, it enables you to let go of that thing.

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And we're going to talk about this a little more as well and move forward.

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Ephesians 4 32 says, forgive one another, just as God forgave you

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because of what Christ has done.

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Colossians 3 13 says, remember the Lord forgave you.

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So you must also forgive others.

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And then I wanted to read a Luke 23 34.

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That was one that kind of came up at the last minute tonight.

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It felt like the Lord wanted me to share this one as well.

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Jesus said, father, forgive them for they do not know what they are doing.

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And then they divided up his clothes by casting lots.

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There are so many people you all.

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And when, and when I say this, I am not excusing when people hurt us.

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Okay.

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We're not, we're not focused on that right now.

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All we can do is take care of our own hearts and we are only responsible for us.

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So tonight we're just talking about your heart and your life.

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Okay.

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So we forgive others because there are a lot of other people.

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They are so broken and so hurt, hurt people, hurt people.

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I think I heard that from Joyce Meyer.

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So I can't claim that as my own, but you know, they don't know what they're doing.

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It's not excusing it, but that's reality.

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That's truth.

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So we have to just understand that we can't control them.

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All we can do is say, okay, Lord, how do you want to help me?

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Meet Bethany or me.

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I'm going to look here.

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Regina Chantel, Jenny, Rachel, how can you help me move forward so that I can be

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free of the effects of these things that I have gone through at the hands of other

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people at my own hands, sometimes ladies, it's things we've done postures and

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bitterness and resentment and stuff we've lived in.

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So it's all of it, all of it in one.

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And just knowing here in Colossians 3 13, we forgive because God is like, it's

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commanded, it's commanded to forgive.

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So forgiveness is a choice.

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It's not a feeling.

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So I'm going to table that again there.

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We're going to come back.

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I'm kind of giving you guys some nuggets to kind of help just start planting the

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seeds and we're going to take it a little bit deeper in a little bit here.

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What we're going to do first, we're going to do a breakout real quick tonight.

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Um, your first breakout session tonight is on vows.

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When you guys first start, we do the never will I evers.

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This is kind of similar, but it's a little different.

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An inner vow is an agreement that you make with yourself to protect yourself.

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It's like a self-preservation technique that we implement and we put up these

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walls and we say, yep, nobody's coming past the sucker.

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And these are some of the ways that we do it.

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Never will I date?

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And I'm just making this up this name.

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I never dated a Larry, but never will I date a Larry.

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Because Larry's are bad.

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All Larry's and some of y'all for real have dated.

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with the same name and multiple people with that same name have not been healthy. Don't know how

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that happens, but it does happen y'all, but I'm not necessarily saying you have to date someone

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like that again, but what I'm saying is we've got to let go of the vows. Okay. Maybe your inner vow

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is I am going to gain weight so that I don't get attention from guys that I don't want.

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I had that one earlier today and I thought, I don't know if this is really going to

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settle for anybody or hit anybody. And it really helps someone be set free. So I felt like I should

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share it again tonight. Maybe your inner vow is I am not going, I'm just going to stay like a

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wallflower in this group. And I'm going to, I'm going to read people's posts and I'm going to

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kind of watch on the lives, but I'm not going to participate. I'm not going to talk because it's,

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it's not safe for me to come into community. I vow to never let anybody hurt me again.

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So I am not, I'm going to, I'm going to keep everybody at an arm's length, you know,

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and again, no shame. I'm just, these are real things that I see and have seen over and over

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and over again. The enemy does not want you to come into community. So he will convince you,

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even in a space like this, that you are not safe. And he will feed that vow with lies that keep

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telling you that you can't, you can't, but tonight it's up to you to come out of that.

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Every single one of us have a choice to say, you know what? No, I believe that I am a daughter of

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the Lord and he has good things for me. He has good things for me. And I believe that he led me

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to this community to lead me into all kinds of good things in addition to my spirit mate. Okay.

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So I'm going to put you guys in those breakout rooms. And I see that someone thinks that was a

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little too direct. That means the Holy spirit's probably talking to you. I love you. And we're,

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I'm saying these things because the Lord's bringing them up. Y'all I do a lot of prep

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before I come live on these things. I pray and I, I, I dig into things we've done in the past.

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I look at your group and so bless you in the Lord. I hope this really ministers tonight and sets you

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free. All right. So I'm going to put you in the breakout groups. You're going to have seven

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minutes. If you've never done the breakout groups with us, yes, I am putting you in with someone

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that you may not know, and you're going to get to know your sisters. You're going to get out of your

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comfort zone and you're going to let, let the Lord help you open up and share. And it's going to be

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great for all of our ladies that have been here a couple of times. Can I see a hand raised if it's

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helped you to open up? Yep. Yep. Yep. Okay. So let's encourage our other sisters. Okay. Awesome.

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Thanks ladies. It does help other ladies not be so nervous. Trust me. Y'all I've, I've been there.

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I've been the nervous one before. So I say all these things and a lot of love. Okay. We're doing

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groups of two to three, just cause we have a lot of people. All right, here you go. Go ahead and

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accept that. And you're going to go into the room and share. I'll be praying for you guys.

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Bethany, did you share what question we're supposed to answer?

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I can put it in there for you, but you're talking about inner vows that you've made. Okay. Yep.

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Hey, it's Lily. I was just in a room by myself.

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Hi, it kept not showing my video and microphone at the bottom. I don't know if it's showing my

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name now. I tried to get that fixed. I've been having a time tonight. I got,

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I just got kicked out when I tried to fix it.

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You're muted, Bethany.

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Sorry. I was doing that so that, okay. Lily, what room were you in? I don't see where you were at.

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Oh, you were. Yes. I see you. It's because Tony's at work. Okay. I put you in a new room. Go ahead

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and accept that. And then who else needs to go into your room? I feel like I have a lot of people

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sitting in the main room with me here.

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I was in a room alone as well.

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Remy?

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Yeah, hold on one second.

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Let me find you.

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That doesn't normally happen with that many people.

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I'm not sure.

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Poor Sarah's like, why is nobody coming with me?

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All right, room 16.

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Send somebody there.

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Why can't I find you?

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Give me a second, I'll find you.

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Oh, this is weird tonight.

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I can't see all of your names like normal.

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Sorry for those watching on Facebook right now.

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This doesn't normally happen.

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Bear with us.

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All right.

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I can't find you.

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What room?

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Do you know what room you were in?

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Me?

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Yeah.

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I don't remember.

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Okay, here we go.

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Hold on, I see you guys.

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I see several of you kind of just in this one room.

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I'm not sure if the room thing messed up

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or what happened here.

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Let's just send you into rooms.

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Okay, I found you, I found you, I found you.

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Here we go.

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Okay, go into room 22.

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I think that should be...

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Okay, why do I still have so many of you here?

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I don't understand what's happening tonight.

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Sarah, okay, I saw your message several times,

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but then I sent someone into the room with you.

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Did you guys both come back out?

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Okay.

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Never came in.

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I think she was on her way.

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I was working on it.

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Yeah, that's okay.

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All right, I will put you in.

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I'm just gonna have you guys go into two different rooms.

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Go ahead and join those.

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I know Tony's staying with me.

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Kim H.

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Kim, I don't see you.

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Are you hanging out with us

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or are you wanting to go into a breakout room?

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Okay, I'm just gonna start to move forward.

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Okay, Father, thank you so much

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for every one of these ladies.

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Oh, you're back.

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Sonia, is it Sonia?

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How do you say your name, I'm asking?

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Pronounce Sonia, but yeah, I was still alone.

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Yeah, you weren't.

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I put you in a room with two other people.

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I don't know what's happening.

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Cause now I can't even find you again.

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I think I put you in 22, right?

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Yeah, so Janice, I basically, like you came back out,

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I put someone else in there with you.

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So now she's sitting in there by herself again.

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All right, so I'm gonna send you a room.

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Just go ahead.

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Like there should be someone coming on the way

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if there's not someone in there already, okay?

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All right, that's okay.

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I just sent you another request, Janice,

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because she came back out too quick.

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Do you see it or no?

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All right, let's try this one more time.

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All right, there you go.

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You should see that there for you.

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I think ladies that are watching on Facebook,

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I think we were just having a delay in IT tonight.

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Sometimes that can happen.

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Serena, come on to the Zoom with us.

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If you scroll all the way up,

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you're gonna see a Zoom link right in this Facebook thread.

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You'll also see one in the Facebook group.

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If it's too hard for you to find it in the thread here.

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But to go in the breakout sessions,

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you'll want to come on to Zoom.

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All right, Father, thank you so much

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for your amazing grace for healing.

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God, thank you for releases and forgiveness tonight.

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We know that even when there's complications with IT

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or things don't go right, God, you are in control.

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So Lord, we just thank you

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that you would bless the conversations,

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that you would bring forth healing,

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that you would bring forth a release of peace.

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God, we thank you that you're in the midst

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of just bringing things to the forefront

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so that there can be healing.

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So Lord, we just declare your grace,

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your healing, God, and your redemption

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over every one of these ladies.

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We thank you, God, for renewing them

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by transforming their hearts and their minds

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through Christ Jesus.

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I thank you.

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Thank you, God, that you would just give them a glimpse of what it meant when they were forgiven of their sins, like make it really real for them so that they're able to choose forgiveness tonight to walk in the grace of your forgiveness.

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And we just thank you, Lord, for continuing to.

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Yes, Lord fan the flames of hunger and thirst for your righteousness but also for relationship with you. God we thank you for continuing to bring anything to the surface that any remnants anything that where the enemy has had a foothold in any of these ladies

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lives, Lord, we thank you that you would bring that to the forefront so that they can choose to come out of agreement and alignment with those things so that they can go further into relationship with you, Jennifer, thank you for posting that link for me again.

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That's, that's super helpful appreciate you.

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And we'll introduce you to here. Now that I see.

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Okay, if you can't turn your video on tonight because I didn't tell you ahead of time about that.

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Welcome back ladies there's like 1617 seconds for those of you we had some tech issues.

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Not sure what was going on there but if you go into your room and nobody's there right away. Just, just wait. Okay, just wait there I know can be, it can be tough.

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I will eventually see if you're sitting there by yourself too long. What happens sometimes is some ladies, their internet is a little delayed so it takes a little longer for them to actually get into the room.

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And so sometimes you guys think you're by yourself and I don't see you so you come back and then it just creates kind of a log jam so just try to just try to stay there and if you're there for more than two minutes, and you still don't have someone, then, then you

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And poor Janice or whoever that was was message Sarah was messaging me multiple times and I saw you, but I was trying to work to get someone in your room with you so just know that I see you guys okay and welcome back.

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First want to do one thing I didn't realize Jennifer was on already with us want to introduce. We have a couple on heartwork moderators that are in helping me and Jackie Jackie and I in the group, and Annette winter you're going to see her commenting

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And Jennifer Yankevich will also be another one doing that. They are amazing ladies you're going to start to get to know them a little bit as well so want to make sure you guys know Annette winter and Jennifer are one of our helpers they're part of our team.

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So, receive them the same way that you would receive Jackie or myself as if they comment or say things to you in what you share in the group. Okay, so coming back, who is willing to share with the whole group, what you shared with your breakout group, what vow, are you choosing to come out of alignment with tonight.

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Okay, Margaret Go ahead.

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So yeah, I'm in my group.

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Neither, neither one of us really felt like we really made any vows, the never will I ever things came up, but we had some questions, actually.

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Um, what's the difference between a vow and a healthy boundary. So, like, I had never will I ever marry a man who likes horror movies casinos and drinking regularly.

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Well, that's.

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Yeah, so that's a boundary of Val is when someone has hurt you in some way, and you out of that hurt you're making an internal commitment that you're just basically saying this cannot be moved.

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Okay, so I feel, I feel like that is, that is what that I was hurt by all those three things.

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So how do I separate from a healthy boundary to say, I'm breaking the vow or, you know, well,

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here, here, let's separate it this way.

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Okay, your values and beliefs are separate than a vow that you're making like me saying, I am not going to let any woman come close to me ever again, because women hurt me is different than saying, I would rather not go to a casino or date someone that that gambles

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because my values and beliefs, do not align with that.

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That's different.

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Okay. Okay. So if you're, if you were saying I'm setting a boundary here because my values

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and beliefs, that's something that my preference, like a preference that you have versus a woman

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caused me pain. So therefore most likely all women will cause me pain. Therefore I'm making

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a vow to not let women get near to me. Okay. So I think the difference, I think I see the

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difference, but I think what's come up is, um, I feel guilty. I feel guilty about actually

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having those boundaries, like something's wrong with me, like I'm being judgmental.

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So that I think is what's being stirred up with this whole thing. So that is something

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I'm going to have to go to Holy Spirit with and find out, you know, why, why am I feeling

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guilty about having these healthy boundaries? You sharing what you just shared sounds so

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like so simple, so clear yet I'm sitting here going, I'm, I'm, my skin is crawling. My skin

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is crawling because I'm feeling like, but that's me being judgmental. That's me being

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judgmental. I can't do that. I can't tell somebody that they can't blah, blah, blah,

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blah, blah, blah kind of thing. Yeah. So there's a difference between, and I don't want to

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go too far down this road cause I want to stay over in the vow area, but there's a difference

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between saying, I personally do not want to go gamble and I don't want to date someone.

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And I'm just, I'm not telling you guys, you can't date someone that I'm just using this

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cause you brought it up as an example versus you trying to tell them what to do. Totally

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different things as well. God. So yeah. So sometimes even, even earlier when I said,

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when we start to feel stuff like in our flesh, like, yeah, I mean, if it's causing us to

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heal and deal with things, we are going to have a physical sometimes response to that.

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So yeah, just write your questions. If you have more questions about that, let's yeah,

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you're welcome. Go ahead and put those maybe in a post and we'll do our best to answer

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those for you. Okay. So let's see. I have Rachel that I see. And then, uh, is it Myla?

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Is that right? Okay. All right. So Rachel go first and then Myla, if I'm saying it wrong,

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tell me when you unmute after her. Okay. Um, for me, when you started talking about vows,

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I thought I've done a lot of breaking off of vows. So I didn't know if I had something

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specifically, but as I started just kind of asking the Lord, is there something there

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that I need to work through? I realized that at some point, and I don't know when it is,

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but I realized I can't trust my feelings. So I will not fall in love. And I was married

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for 17 years. And when my marriage ended, I realized I didn't have any change of emotion

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toward my ex-husband than I did when we were married. It was the same. It was just as easy

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to pick up my kids or drop the kids off and interact with him as it was when we were married,

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I never had feelings of being in love with him. And so it was just a very,

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I think it was a fairly, it was an extremely unhealthy marriage, but on my side, it was very

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platonic because I don't, I'm not allowed to trust my feelings. So that was my vow.

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Very good. Sure. I'm going to come back to it in a minute. Okay. Thank you so much for

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your courage to share. Okay. Is it Myla? Is that how you say it?

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It's Myla. Myla. Okay. I will try to remember that. Yeah. So the vow that I definitely have

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said that I was convicted of this week in the reading is because I've been hurt in friendships.

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One of the vows that I've made is like, I'm never going to associate myself with that person again.

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And it has definitely caused me to miss out on friendships as well as missing out on being able

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to share with that person, like how it affected me instead of just like walking away from it and

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just letting them deal with it. But then also having opportunity to have a conversation and

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maybe understand like what was going on with them. And so definitely convicted by that and want to,

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you know, totally do away with that because I want to be able to have healthier friendships

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with people. Yeah. So good ladies, both really, really great shares here. I want to touch on a

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couple of things. Um, when you were just talking Myla, um, it made me think about the scripture

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and I don't have it in front of me. Um, but it talks about being at peace wherever it's possible

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for us. So ladies, it's important to understand that again,

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we're responsible for is our part. Like we might try to make peace with someone else or understand

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why they did something they did and they may not be there yet. So that can be a tricky thing when

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you're going through heartwork. And even after like, you guys are going to probably be ready to

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like make things right with some people. And that's a great thing, but make sure you're Holy

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Spirit led. If you're going to go have a physical conversation with them or even over the phone,

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because they just might not be there yet. You might need to take some time to really pray for

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them and pray for that. You know, is God leading you back to that friendship or is he just helping

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you heal so that you have healthier friendships in the days ahead? So asking him for that clarity

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as well is going to be really important for you. Um, also on when Rachel, when you said

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can't trust my feelings, therefore I won't fall in love again. Wow. Yeah. I think the thing here

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is like when we come out of that, out of alignment and agreement with that vow, we can actually

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start trusting ourself again. You all so many times when we make mistakes and we make those

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inner vows, we actually tend to bind ourselves to the inability to trust ourselves. So think

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about that even, um, in other areas where you guys might really feel stuck. A lot of times it can be

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because you actually, um, have somewhere made a vow to yourself or some kind of internal commitment

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or shamed yourself, you know, allowed the enemy to come in and condemn you. Um, I saw Lillian had

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a question too. If I say that no one will ever hurt me like that again, is that a vow or a healthy

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boundary? It's a vow. It's a vow. A healthy boundary is, is again saying, you know, this is

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what, where for me, so for example, if I have had a friendship where someone mistreated me,

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I might say, um, this is as far as I can go in that friendship. So maybe for some friendships,

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as far as I can go is a phone call every so often, if someone mistreats me, I don't have to

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go right back close to them and allow them to mistreat me. I had a situation recently at our

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church, totally different, but, um, the person really just did something toxic and they were,

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they would message me on my direct cell phone at all random hours. And so the healthy boundary I

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put in place is I will email them when I'm working on the hours that I work at the church only,

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they cannot text my personal phone anymore. And if they do, I won't respond there. So I'm just

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00:37:50.960 --> 00:37:56.560
giving you that example because you guys might, that's a boundary. I'm, I'm saying when I work

419
00:37:56.560 --> 00:38:02.960
for the church, you can contact me through my email at the church. You can't like, you can't

420
00:38:02.960 --> 00:38:09.680
text my personal phone. That's setting a boundary. And I'm you, that's a very basic example, but like

421
00:38:09.680 --> 00:38:15.280
a vow would be me saying, I will never be in relationship with that person ever again, because

422
00:38:15.280 --> 00:38:20.720
they hurt me. Does that make sense? Do you guys, can you guys see the separation there? Okay. I'm

423
00:38:20.720 --> 00:38:26.640
just trying to help make it a little bit more clear for you. And the reality is, I know it's

424
00:38:26.640 --> 00:38:34.560
tough to hear it. Y'all people are going to hurt you. Love is a risk in any relationship. Love is a

425
00:38:34.560 --> 00:38:41.760
risk y'all, but it feels so good when it's amazing and it's going well. So to feel the amazing stuff,

426
00:38:41.760 --> 00:38:50.720
we have to be willing to also be vulnerable to people making mistakes. And at times us getting

427
00:38:50.720 --> 00:38:56.560
hurt, but because you're healing and you're growing, you're going to learn how to heal,

428
00:38:56.560 --> 00:39:04.080
handle the hurt in a more healthy way. Does that make sense? All right. Awesome. I see, um, Jen and

429
00:39:04.080 --> 00:39:08.560
I'm going to be able to take Jen and, uh, Shana now, Chantal, I see you, but I'm gonna have to

430
00:39:08.560 --> 00:39:13.600
have you hold. Cause I've got to shift us into the next part of the content. Okay. All right, go ahead

431
00:39:13.600 --> 00:39:21.600
Jen and Shana. Is that right? Um, when we first started in the breakout room talking about vows,

432
00:39:22.160 --> 00:39:28.240
um, my partner and I both didn't have any like conscious memory of vows that had been made,

433
00:39:28.240 --> 00:39:35.040
but I was like, here's a 25 year pattern of behavior, um, that I have, which, um,

434
00:39:36.320 --> 00:39:42.320
for me, I think every like quote relationship I've had since I was 14 years old, I'm 39 now,

435
00:39:42.320 --> 00:39:46.800
um, has been like a situation ship. So when I first heard that term, I'm like, I invented that,

436
00:39:46.800 --> 00:39:52.320
like, I don't do boyfriends. Like I don't commit to relationships, but I'll get into these like

437
00:39:52.320 --> 00:39:57.440
really emotionally involved situations that sometimes last for several years, but I just

438
00:39:57.440 --> 00:39:59.680
like never commit.

439
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.800
I realized something traumatic happened in my family

440
00:40:04.880 --> 00:40:06.040
when I was 14.

441
00:40:06.040 --> 00:40:08.360
And so realizing that that was my last like boyfriend,

442
00:40:08.360 --> 00:40:09.880
if you can even call it that, cause I was 14,

443
00:40:09.880 --> 00:40:13.320
but I'm like, oh, there is some sort of like,

444
00:40:15.000 --> 00:40:17.200
though there wasn't like a conscious vow,

445
00:40:17.200 --> 00:40:20.280
there is something going on in my soul

446
00:40:21.440 --> 00:40:24.680
that doesn't want to put itself into a situation

447
00:40:24.680 --> 00:40:26.280
where there could be a betrayal.

448
00:40:27.280 --> 00:40:28.120
Yes.

449
00:40:29.120 --> 00:40:30.480
Yes, let's sit there for a minute

450
00:40:30.480 --> 00:40:31.960
because I also saw in the chat,

451
00:40:31.960 --> 00:40:33.520
no one has to put up with abuse.

452
00:40:33.520 --> 00:40:35.000
Yeah, absolutely all.

453
00:40:35.000 --> 00:40:36.640
We're not talking about that right now, okay?

454
00:40:36.640 --> 00:40:40.400
So if your mind's going there, it's okay that it is,

455
00:40:40.400 --> 00:40:43.000
but understand what I'm talking about

456
00:40:43.000 --> 00:40:46.040
is within the realm of healthy relationship,

457
00:40:47.400 --> 00:40:52.080
anybody at any time can do something that hurts us.

458
00:40:52.080 --> 00:40:53.160
That's what I'm saying.

459
00:40:53.160 --> 00:40:55.000
Even in healthy relationships,

460
00:40:55.000 --> 00:40:58.680
someone can do something and we can get super triggered,

461
00:40:58.680 --> 00:41:02.960
but they're not even really doing something to hurt us.

462
00:41:02.960 --> 00:41:06.480
Sometimes it can happen and it's not a trigger,

463
00:41:06.480 --> 00:41:08.200
it's just we're hurt.

464
00:41:08.200 --> 00:41:11.840
So that's the sphere I'm talking about right now, okay?

465
00:41:12.800 --> 00:41:15.000
But on what Jen said, Jen, thank you

466
00:41:15.000 --> 00:41:17.040
for being courageous and sharing that.

467
00:41:19.040 --> 00:41:20.240
Yeah, sometimes ladies,

468
00:41:20.240 --> 00:41:22.320
these are not gonna be conscious vows.

469
00:41:22.320 --> 00:41:24.480
And I think that's a really, really good thing

470
00:41:24.960 --> 00:41:25.920
to pull out of what she said.

471
00:41:25.920 --> 00:41:29.400
Sometimes you're not gonna recognize them right now.

472
00:41:29.400 --> 00:41:30.680
And in the days ahead,

473
00:41:30.680 --> 00:41:32.440
this is gonna be something you can build on.

474
00:41:32.440 --> 00:41:33.680
You can ask the Lord about,

475
00:41:33.680 --> 00:41:37.080
and it's okay if nothing came to your mind tonight.

476
00:41:37.080 --> 00:41:40.920
But what she's seeing now is back when she was 14.

477
00:41:40.920 --> 00:41:43.480
And yes, you know what, even when you're 14,

478
00:41:43.480 --> 00:41:44.920
if you had a boyfriend,

479
00:41:44.920 --> 00:41:47.640
you can call that a legitimate boyfriend.

480
00:41:47.640 --> 00:41:50.760
You had feelings, you put something into that.

481
00:41:50.760 --> 00:41:52.480
So I just wanna validate you in that too.

482
00:41:52.480 --> 00:41:55.520
But if there's something to that,

483
00:41:56.600 --> 00:41:59.720
really encourage you to lean into the Lord

484
00:41:59.720 --> 00:42:02.800
and see what is he trying to reveal there.

485
00:42:02.800 --> 00:42:06.840
Maybe you did make a subconscious inner vow

486
00:42:06.840 --> 00:42:11.840
when you went through whatever that hurtful situation was.

487
00:42:11.880 --> 00:42:13.600
Okay, go ahead.

488
00:42:16.640 --> 00:42:17.680
Hi ladies.

489
00:42:19.200 --> 00:42:22.320
Okay, I'm gonna try to articulate this the best that I can.

490
00:42:23.160 --> 00:42:24.760
It's just kind of the Holy Spirit's stirring

491
00:42:24.760 --> 00:42:26.600
and encouraged me to share.

492
00:42:26.600 --> 00:42:28.680
But just like Jen said,

493
00:42:28.680 --> 00:42:32.680
mine I think is kind of a subconscious vow that I've given,

494
00:42:32.680 --> 00:42:34.280
but it's also been brought to surface

495
00:42:34.280 --> 00:42:35.520
in a lot of situations.

496
00:42:35.520 --> 00:42:40.520
Recently, a big thing for me is I wanna be in control

497
00:42:42.320 --> 00:42:44.880
and releasing things to the Holy Spirit

498
00:42:44.880 --> 00:42:46.800
is sometimes just a little bit of a wrestle.

499
00:42:46.800 --> 00:42:49.840
So I think right now, as I'm going through this program,

500
00:42:49.920 --> 00:42:52.680
it's been a healthy tension of understanding

501
00:42:52.680 --> 00:42:54.560
that the Holy Spirit is in charge.

502
00:42:54.560 --> 00:42:59.440
And my vow specifically would be,

503
00:42:59.440 --> 00:43:01.720
I don't wanna say anything that could be negative,

504
00:43:01.720 --> 00:43:04.400
reflective of my character or personality.

505
00:43:04.400 --> 00:43:08.720
Or it's really, I have a desire,

506
00:43:08.720 --> 00:43:10.160
I think like a lot of us do,

507
00:43:10.160 --> 00:43:13.520
and that's expressed to be valued, to be appreciated,

508
00:43:14.440 --> 00:43:18.040
and you fill in the blank.

509
00:43:19.040 --> 00:43:24.040
But I think the more I grow in the maturity of my faith,

510
00:43:26.200 --> 00:43:30.160
the more I question leaning into harder conversations,

511
00:43:30.160 --> 00:43:32.360
whether it be on scripture

512
00:43:32.360 --> 00:43:34.080
or on something that I'm processing,

513
00:43:34.080 --> 00:43:36.640
because I second guess myself, like, is that right?

514
00:43:37.720 --> 00:43:38.880
Is that scripture right?

515
00:43:38.880 --> 00:43:41.080
Am I approaching this in the right way

516
00:43:41.080 --> 00:43:42.880
if somebody questions me?

517
00:43:42.880 --> 00:43:44.320
And so I tend to clam up,

518
00:43:44.320 --> 00:43:46.520
even though I'm in community

519
00:43:46.920 --> 00:43:48.280
and I had great conversations

520
00:43:48.280 --> 00:43:50.720
and I'm not afraid to bring things up,

521
00:43:50.720 --> 00:43:53.080
the more I'm opening up,

522
00:43:53.080 --> 00:43:55.640
the more I find myself putting up walls to say,

523
00:43:55.640 --> 00:43:57.520
well, maybe they won't respond well,

524
00:43:57.520 --> 00:43:59.480
so I'm just not gonna say anything.

525
00:44:00.320 --> 00:44:03.920
And it tends to happen with people I'm closer to

526
00:44:03.920 --> 00:44:06.520
than people I'm working in ministry with,

527
00:44:06.520 --> 00:44:07.600
if that makes sense.

528
00:44:07.600 --> 00:44:08.840
So if somebody is asking me

529
00:44:08.840 --> 00:44:10.640
to help them process through something,

530
00:44:10.640 --> 00:44:12.920
I feel like I can separate the emotions,

531
00:44:12.920 --> 00:44:15.640
but when it has to do with my own relationships

532
00:44:15.640 --> 00:44:17.800
or people I'm walking through life with,

533
00:44:17.800 --> 00:44:19.880
I'm like, maybe I shouldn't say that

534
00:44:19.880 --> 00:44:23.280
because somebody might get upset or disagree with me.

535
00:44:23.280 --> 00:44:24.720
So I hope I articulated that okay.

536
00:44:24.720 --> 00:44:26.000
You did, you did.

537
00:44:26.000 --> 00:44:27.640
Yeah, it's great.

538
00:44:27.640 --> 00:44:29.040
Can anyone relate to her?

539
00:44:29.040 --> 00:44:30.920
Like you hold back saying things

540
00:44:30.920 --> 00:44:34.000
that you're feeling maybe or thinking,

541
00:44:34.000 --> 00:44:35.520
and you know, sometimes we do.

542
00:44:35.520 --> 00:44:36.640
I mean, the Bible tells us

543
00:44:36.640 --> 00:44:39.160
we need to be careful about our tongues, right?

544
00:44:39.160 --> 00:44:43.080
So again, keeping it in that healthy box of,

545
00:44:43.120 --> 00:44:44.760
yeah, we need to ask the Holy Spirit

546
00:44:44.760 --> 00:44:47.240
for wisdom and balance,

547
00:44:47.240 --> 00:44:50.800
but man, think back, okay?

548
00:44:50.800 --> 00:44:53.000
Ask the Holy Spirit if that's you

549
00:44:53.000 --> 00:44:55.320
and you're relating to what she said,

550
00:44:56.200 --> 00:44:59.440
when was the first time you felt like

551
00:44:59.440 --> 00:45:00.280
when you've-

552
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.260
waste your opinion or put your heart out there, vulnerably that someone shut you

553
00:45:05.260 --> 00:45:09.280
down, that it wasn't okay to have that thought.

554
00:45:09.280 --> 00:45:13.480
It wasn't okay to have that feeling, you know, just kind of like I shared it

555
00:45:13.480 --> 00:45:17.880
briefly, I didn't go into it in depth, but like, now that I'm in a safe and

556
00:45:17.880 --> 00:45:24.220
healthy marriage, I'm like processing stuff from my divorce, from my childhood.

557
00:45:25.060 --> 00:45:27.700
I wasn't safe enough to do that before.

558
00:45:27.700 --> 00:45:32.440
And now I'm in this safe space and have the capacity because I'm not in

559
00:45:32.440 --> 00:45:34.420
fight or flight mode all the time.

560
00:45:35.460 --> 00:45:42.440
I'm actually in a safe place so that my spirit and my soul and my body can really

561
00:45:42.440 --> 00:45:43.100
process.

562
00:45:43.280 --> 00:45:46.840
So maybe you guys are going to experience very similar things and that's okay.

563
00:45:47.740 --> 00:45:54.700
So giving yourself that space to say, okay, like, why do I think that people

564
00:45:54.700 --> 00:45:56.220
will leave me?

565
00:45:56.980 --> 00:45:59.220
Cause kind of, that's what she's saying there.

566
00:45:59.400 --> 00:46:04.140
People may not like me or accept me if I, if I say this thing.

567
00:46:05.360 --> 00:46:09.660
So I'm kind of elaborating on it, but the other thing too, uh, Shana that I

568
00:46:09.660 --> 00:46:13.940
thought of is when people are closer to us, y'all guess what?

569
00:46:14.320 --> 00:46:15.540
It's a higher risk.

570
00:46:16.660 --> 00:46:22.440
It's kind of like what I think Jen was the one that was saying, um, you know,

571
00:46:22.440 --> 00:46:25.760
you're afraid of betrayal or you're afraid of that.

572
00:46:25.800 --> 00:46:28.720
I don't know if that's exactly what she said, but like that, that risk of

573
00:46:28.720 --> 00:46:31.280
getting hurt when someone is close.

574
00:46:31.680 --> 00:46:37.920
So if you let them in closer to become a committed relationship that would move

575
00:46:37.920 --> 00:46:43.840
towards marriage, what will it mean if you actually express yourself and they're

576
00:46:43.840 --> 00:46:46.000
not okay, then what do you do?

577
00:46:46.240 --> 00:46:48.800
You know, so those are some of the things you'll have to ask the Holy

578
00:46:48.800 --> 00:46:51.160
spirit about, and he'll help you navigate that stuff.

579
00:46:51.720 --> 00:46:52.220
All right.

580
00:46:52.220 --> 00:46:53.940
It's really important for us to take a shift.

581
00:46:53.940 --> 00:46:57.180
So I'm going to kind of, we're on the same, we're on the same path.

582
00:46:57.180 --> 00:46:59.060
We're going to kind of take a little bit of a shift.

583
00:46:59.060 --> 00:47:02.980
We're going to start turning more towards the forgiveness aspect.

584
00:47:03.860 --> 00:47:04.220
Okay.

585
00:47:04.220 --> 00:47:07.300
So we start talking about forgiveness is not a feeling.

586
00:47:07.300 --> 00:47:08.540
It's a choice.

587
00:47:08.980 --> 00:47:10.140
You guys can read the book.

588
00:47:10.140 --> 00:47:11.500
Some of you guys have already read it.

589
00:47:11.780 --> 00:47:13.100
Some of you won't be here yet.

590
00:47:13.100 --> 00:47:13.740
That's okay.

591
00:47:13.740 --> 00:47:15.740
But I just want to draw this out tonight.

592
00:47:17.420 --> 00:47:21.780
When you think forgiveness is a feeling you'll tend to forgive and take it back.

593
00:47:21.860 --> 00:47:26.140
Forgive and take it back because you're basing it on how you feel.

594
00:47:27.060 --> 00:47:28.740
But forgiveness is not a feeling.

595
00:47:28.740 --> 00:47:30.060
It is a choice.

596
00:47:30.100 --> 00:47:34.140
Again, we go back to scripture and we see that it's something that we're

597
00:47:34.180 --> 00:47:38.620
asked to do it because we have also received forgiveness.

598
00:47:38.980 --> 00:47:39.260
Okay.

599
00:47:39.260 --> 00:47:40.940
So want to bring this out as well.

600
00:47:41.220 --> 00:47:45.860
True forgiveness is a supernatural debt cancellation transaction.

601
00:47:46.260 --> 00:47:51.180
You're saying I am canceling this debt that I have been

602
00:47:51.180 --> 00:47:54.260
internally saying you owe me for this.

603
00:47:55.820 --> 00:47:57.140
That's what it's doing you all.

604
00:47:57.860 --> 00:48:03.820
So you're, you're basically saying, I'm going to rip up my, I owe you or

605
00:48:03.820 --> 00:48:08.020
you owe me whichever way it goes for you tonight, because some of you guys

606
00:48:08.020 --> 00:48:11.620
have some where you feel like you owe people something, and, and some of

607
00:48:11.620 --> 00:48:14.780
those people are going to hold that toxically over your head.

608
00:48:15.060 --> 00:48:18.260
Like you owe them because you made some kind of a mistake.

609
00:48:18.580 --> 00:48:19.420
Yeah, you don't.

610
00:48:19.700 --> 00:48:20.260
Okay.

611
00:48:20.740 --> 00:48:21.140
All right.

612
00:48:21.140 --> 00:48:23.900
So we all owe debts.

613
00:48:24.020 --> 00:48:24.500
Okay.

614
00:48:24.500 --> 00:48:27.820
At some point, one, one time or another, when someone wrongs us, they

615
00:48:27.820 --> 00:48:33.260
sin against us and they, we think owe us a debt, these people in their

616
00:48:33.260 --> 00:48:38.020
debts are literally tied to you in the unseen realm when we don't forgive.

617
00:48:38.380 --> 00:48:38.900
Okay.

618
00:48:39.100 --> 00:48:42.300
So what I want you to, you guys last week, remember I talked about the

619
00:48:42.300 --> 00:48:46.260
tether pole, the tether ball game, and you got the pole and the ball on the string.

620
00:48:46.580 --> 00:48:46.860
Yeah.

621
00:48:46.860 --> 00:48:52.180
So it's the same kind of concept, but tonight and this week and this whole

622
00:48:52.180 --> 00:48:55.740
days ahead, the forgiveness journey is about cutting that string.

623
00:48:55.980 --> 00:48:57.780
You're, you're setting that ball free.

624
00:48:57.780 --> 00:48:58.940
You're setting yourself free.

625
00:48:58.940 --> 00:49:00.660
You're setting the other people free.

626
00:49:01.060 --> 00:49:08.020
And you're saying, I trust you, God, father, the father of heaven and earth,

627
00:49:08.020 --> 00:49:09.500
the maker of all things.

628
00:49:09.540 --> 00:49:13.180
I trust you to handle them.

629
00:49:15.060 --> 00:49:18.300
The Bible says that vengeance is his not ours.

630
00:49:19.500 --> 00:49:24.660
So tonight I want to encourage you guys to also understand that it's when we

631
00:49:24.660 --> 00:49:30.140
choose to forgive, it's also when we cut soul ties, we, we, it's another way of

632
00:49:30.140 --> 00:49:35.540
cutting a soul tie and releasing them as well as ourselves.

633
00:49:35.580 --> 00:49:36.100
Okay.

634
00:49:37.100 --> 00:49:39.660
So want to talk a little bit about the prayer sheet.

635
00:49:40.340 --> 00:49:45.580
Um, you guys have this in your, for those of you that are not at the current week

636
00:49:45.580 --> 00:49:47.220
yet, you will eventually have this.

637
00:49:47.220 --> 00:49:50.900
So please don't message us about this because when you get to that week,

638
00:49:50.940 --> 00:49:52.660
it'll open up automatically for you.

639
00:49:52.660 --> 00:49:56.580
So just kind of absorb this and know that this will come for you eventually.

640
00:49:56.940 --> 00:49:59.980
Um, so the forgiveness prayer sheet, you guys have that worksheet.

641
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.680
those of you that are in this week right now, you're going to want to do this forgiveness prayer

642
00:50:05.680 --> 00:50:14.080
sheet for every character of the story in any areas where you have unforgiveness. Okay. So what

643
00:50:14.080 --> 00:50:20.720
I mean by that is you're going to some, you're going to do it for others, people that have harmed

644
00:50:20.720 --> 00:50:26.480
you in some way or another that you need to forgive. And you're also going to do it for

645
00:50:26.480 --> 00:50:32.000
yourself. Now, again, if there has been any kind of abuse, when you have been under the age of

646
00:50:32.000 --> 00:50:38.480
accountability, so you're 18, like you're under 18, this does not apply to this. You do not have

647
00:50:38.480 --> 00:50:44.960
to ask for forgiveness for things that people did to you. You didn't have a choice. Those things

648
00:50:44.960 --> 00:50:52.480
were done to you. Okay. Is everyone on the same page here? I'm talking about 18 and up right now.

649
00:50:53.440 --> 00:51:00.320
If you played a role in something that there is a situation that you still feel bound to that you

650
00:51:00.320 --> 00:51:04.640
haven't been able to forgive yourself, or you haven't been able to forgive the other person,

651
00:51:04.640 --> 00:51:10.800
those are all things that you want to release and you want to let those things go. Okay. So again,

652
00:51:10.800 --> 00:51:18.240
anyone that played a role in the story, and I want you guys to think about this as well. When we don't

653
00:51:18.320 --> 00:51:23.520
choose to forgive, not only are they tethered to us and bound, like literally it's almost like

654
00:51:23.520 --> 00:51:26.800
we're handcuffing ourself to these people. It's kind of creepy if you think about it,

655
00:51:28.640 --> 00:51:31.360
but some of you also are holding yourself hostage.

656
00:51:34.000 --> 00:51:38.720
And it's like internally, without you even realizing it, it's like you feel like you can

657
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never pay the debt. You can never, you can never get out of that place. And you just keep shackling

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yourself to this stuff. The Bible declares, I said this, this morning is coming up in my spirit

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again. When we ask for forgiveness and we receive it, our sins are as far as the East is from the

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West. You guys expansive. And God says he remembers them no more, but the enemy who is the accuser of

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the brethren is the one that comes back and tries to get us to keep remembering it and not be able

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to move forward. But see, again, the enemy is the one who comes to kill, steal and destroy,

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but Jesus Christ came to give us life and give it to us more abundantly. So we can,

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by the power and the blood of Jesus Christ, step into the freedom and the authority that we have

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been given and, and forgive and, and be like literally break free tonight. Some of you all

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need to let this stuff go. And I know it's not easy. Okay. So this stuff is stuff I've dealt with.

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I still deal with it. Even people today, you know, things that happen. We have like, if we

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want to walk in eternal things, we like it's choosing to forgive it's choosing grace. It's

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choosing mercy. The mercies of heaven are new for us every single day. So why don't we want it to be

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available to other people? That's something in us that needs to shift tonight.

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Okay. Forgiveness will come for you in waves, not in a bad way, but like some of you are like, man,

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I've already done. And even some of you will say in your post, I've done counseling for years.

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And I did too. I'll just say I did too. Before I came into my boot camp, I kind of felt the same

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way, man. I've been around this mountain so many times, like I've forgiven, you know,

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all the sexual abuse and stuff that I'd been through. Like I forgave everything that I knew

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to forgive, but it was still holding me back. And I couldn't understand until I, I like,

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God just kept teaching me and teaching me and teaching me before I even came into this boot

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camp, he started talking to me about the layers, the layers of forgiveness. And it started making

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a lot more sense to you all. So I want, if any of you are beating yourself up, like I have done

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everything and I just can't break free from this thing. I'm trying to forgive them. And I don't

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understand why I still feel so bound to this thing or why is God bringing that up again?

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I'm done with that. Like I want to be done with that. I did too. I did too. So I'm saying this

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because I can resonate with you all. I really can't even still to this day, there are things

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I would rather not have to go back and revisit. And it's not even revisiting the same exact thing.

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And that's what I want to hone in on the layers are, are typically God is showing you a new aspect

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of what happened. So for example, even when Jen was sharing, I can't speak for her, but it sounded

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to me like this was a new revealing about that situation and how it impacted her and then led

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her to make an interval. So maybe your new discovery is going to be a little piece that you

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saw the situation you asked, you know, you forgave them, but, but God's trying to show

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you another piece of that, that has kept you bound. So even when it's hard, ladies, I want

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to encourage you to still, you don't have to go all full immersive back all the way into that.

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Some of you guys, I know your hearts are probably pounding. You don't have to go into every single

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detail of that, that situation. Again, you don't just ask the Lord, Lord, what are you trying to

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show me? That's new about this. Cause see, he doesn't want you to be down in this depressed

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state either. So don't feel like you have to go all the way back, only go where he's leading you

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to go. And that's why we encourage you guys to not dig. We don't want you to dig. We want you

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to ask the father to reveal things for healing. Okay. I'm going to read something over you guys.

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Yes. I think I saw a question forgiveness, prayer document. It is in your Jackie doorman.com

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portal. Again, for those of you that aren't in that week yet week four, you will get it when

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you get to week four. So that's the tough thing. When we, when we talk about this, there are some

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people that are further along than you right now, but you will get it in. And it is also in the book.

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If you want to look there as well. Um, okay. Sorry, I lost. Okay. I want to read this over

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you guys and I'm going to get you ready for your next breakout, your next breakout session. I

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forgot to tell you guys the question before you went in there the last time. Um, I will try to

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always broadcast that when you go in the groups. So, you know, it will come that way as well.

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Who do you need to forgive tonight and why, and don't feel like you have to list them all out,

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unless you really feel like you have to, but when you go in your breakout room, let's just focus

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on one person and one situation that the Holy spirit's revealing to you so that you guys have

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enough time to, you know, each of you talk. Okay. Before you go in, this is from the book,

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but I felt led to read it over you guys. Cause it kind of helps you release this stuff. Father God,

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maybe you, maybe some of you guys might even need to, that really feel anxious about this,

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put your hands out, maybe close your eyes, let this wash over you before you go into the breakout

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room. Father God, thank you for giving me a heart. That's willing to forgive.

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I choose to obey your word and release those who have hurt me and owe me debts.

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I ask you to show me the areas where I have not forgiven myself, others, or even you let them

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surface fully so that I can release them to you and be free in those areas to have an abundant

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life. Holy spirit come and plow every place in my heart that is barren right now because of hurt,

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pain, anger, or bitterness so that I can grow your fruit of peace, joy, and love in my life

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and Jesus name. Amen. Amen. All right. So I'm going to put you guys in there.

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Blessings over you guys. I'm been praying for you and I'm excited to hear breakthroughs happening

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from tonight. Okay. I'm going to recreate these rooms. Let's Lord bless our room breakouts. Let

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this work and work really well. All right. There you guys go.

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All right. Click to join. Click to join.

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Wanda, can you click to join? And Lindsay, if you can click to join.

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All right. Make sure I don't have somebody waiting.

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Lindsay, if you're able to click to join out and if you can hear me, if you're able to,

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sometimes it's delayed for some of y'all go ahead and click to join your room.

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Father, thank you so much for so many good questions and conversation tonight.

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I thank you for revealing these areas for healing. I thank you for continuing to refine us, God,

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to creating us clean hearts. Oh God. And renew steadfast spirits within us.

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God, I thank you that you would help us to see ourself through your eyes and that we wouldn't be

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in a heart posture of limiting ourselves and limiting where you want to take us in the days

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ahead. God, I thank you that you desire us just even as Psalm 68 declares that you'll set the

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solitary and families.

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So even if we've experienced pain and turmoil and struggle

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in our biological families and maybe even church families

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and friendships, God, I thank you that in this new day,

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you're doing a new thing.

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You're healing us from the inside out.

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You're restoring all the broken and fallen places.

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And Father, I thank you that you're rewriting our story.

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Help us to hear what your Holy Spirit is saying to us

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that you would shut the mouths of lions

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and help us to hear the sweet presence and fragrance

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of your Holy Spirit, your comforter.

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You are the comforter.

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You're our counselor.

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You're our guide.

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And you can lead us into all truth

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and anoint us for all of our lives

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and walk in calling and lead us deeper

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into Jesus Christ this day.

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God, I thank you that we are the head and not the tail.

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We are above only and not beneath.

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We're blessed when we go in and we're blessed

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when we go out.

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We're blessed when we rise up

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and we're blessed when we lie down.

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If we will obey all the commandments of the Lord,

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those are blessings declared over us, ladies,

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if we live for the Lord and walk in his ways.

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So Lord, we thank you for that.

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Psalm 139, excuse me, 14 from the Amplified said,

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I will give thanks and praise to you

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for I'm fearfully and wonderfully made.

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Wonderful are your works and my soul knows it very well.

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1 John 3, 20 from the Passion Translation says,

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whenever our hearts make us feel guilty

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and remind us of our failures,

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we know that God is much greater

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and more merciful than our conscience.

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And he knows everything there is to know about us.

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God, thank you that you know the inner workings of our heart.

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God, that we are the apple of your eye.

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God, and that you are continuing to lovingly invite us

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into a deeper relationship with you.

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God, you don't force us, you're a gentleman.

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God, we thank you that you would heal the wounds

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of every woman in this group that are here live,

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watching the replay,

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those that will hear it in weeks to come.

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God, that you would just allow them to sense your presence

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in a new way, that they wouldn't fear you,

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that any way that the enemy has lied to them

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and tried to defame and put down your character, God,

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that they would have a new understanding

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of who you are, God, that you are love,

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that you are good, that you are faithful,

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that you are kind, God.

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And that, yes, Lord,

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that you would even go to hell and back for them.

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Your word declares that if we were to make our bed in hell,

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you would still go there and in your search for us.

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So Lord, we just thank you for your mercy, for your grace,

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for your healing rivers to flow free from heaven tonight.

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I thank you, Lord, that you and your word declare

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in Revelation 21, four,

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that you will wipe away every tear from our eyes

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and eliminate death entirely.

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No one will mourn or weep any longer.

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The pain of wounds will no longer exist

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for the old order has ceased.

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God, I thank you that your word declares

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if we will confess our sins one to another,

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that we can be healed, that we can be restored.

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God, I thank you that you give us the courage to forgive,

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the grace and the dedication and commitment to you.

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God, that we would meditate on the truth

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that we are loved unconditionally,

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that we are forgiven by the blood of Jesus Christ, by you,

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and we can confess our sins and repent and be restored.

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And I just thank you, God,

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that you would help us to extend that same level

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of forgiveness and grace and love to others.

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Thank you, Lord God.

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I think that it actually says in Matthew 6, 14 through 15,

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but if you withhold forgiveness from others,

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your father will withhold forgiveness from you.

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Lord, help us to understand.

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We don't wanna miss out on your forgiveness

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when we need forgiveness.

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So thank you, Father, again,

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that you would help us to step into forgiveness

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and step into healing and grace and life.

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We thank you for the reality that forgiveness

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is not saying that what they did wasn't wrong.

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Forgiveness is not condoning what they did.

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Forgiveness is not letting them get away with what they did,

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but it is a supernatural law

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that operates in the spirit realm

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that says, I choose to forgive.

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I choose to release this person.

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And Father, I thank you that you can work in their lives.

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I thank you that even when I don't understand,

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I trust you with that person.

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It doesn't mean we have to invite them back into our lives.

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It doesn't mean we have to be up close

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and connected to them.

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We can set healthy boundaries, but we are required.

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As the Bible says to forgive if we want to be forgiven.

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God I thank you that in Isaiah 61 three it says to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes God I thank you that you are repairing every breach that you are giving us beauty for ashes.

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I thank you God that you're putting on our heads the oil of joy for morning, God where we have been in morning in the past maybe we've been still are walking around with sackcloth on even if it's not externally, we're walking around in the morning

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in the grave clothes internally.

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You want that for us you want us to be fully alive and fully engaged in this life. So Lord help us to come out of hiding help us to come out of the grave and come into fullness of life God.

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Yes, Lord, I thank you that a relationship with you father with you Jesus and with you Holy Spirit is fun. There's adventure there's life there's hope and there's blessings far beyond what we can ever ask think or imagine, and they can happen for us in this

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world today that we can see the goodness of God in the land of the living.

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Yes, Lord, we thank you that we're going to experience amazing blessings and eternity when we get there one day but you also say that your sons and daughters who live according to your word can receive your goodness now.

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So are we just pray that you would even increase hope tonight.

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Increase hope, help them were to keep stepping into forgiveness and freedom and life in Jesus name. Welcome back I think we have everyone back, almost, I think everyone's here.

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All right.

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You guys ready.

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We're about to, we're about to embark in the next part. Alright so who is willing to share with the group what you shared with your breakout, and on the forgiveness, especially, I want to encourage you guys just to speak for yourself maybe in how the ladies have been

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you know the conversation in the group is okay but just never step into sharing someone else's story okay. All right.

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All right, Meg, and Samantha so we'll do Meg first and then Samantha.

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And forgive me if my voice breaks a little bit or sound a little grimly. I've got major allergies today.

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So, I think for me one of the ones that came up with my daughter's father, and not so much for like what happened in our relationship like him and me like that I feel like I have forgiven pretty well over the years, but how he's hurt my daughter.

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And that came up as this like, you know, you can hurt me all you want, but it's a mama bear reaction like you hurt my kids and now we have a big issue and that's much harder to forgive.

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We had a conversation about the hard part of forgiving ourselves for all of the things and our parts and things and how easy it is to forget, like I think you forgave yourself, and then you find yourself doing the exact same thing and you're all over again.

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Yes. Thank you for sharing that and I don't you know I would just want to support the moms on here. If you're relating to what Meg said, it is hard.

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I want you to know even, you know, I don't have biological children yet I have a stepson I have two spiritual daughters and now I have two stepdaughters.

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And that's just increasing our quiver, but my quiver I guess but, you know, especially the one that I felt it the most with is my spiritual daughters watching both of their parents continuously do things that harm them and hurt them it is hard.

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But one of the things I just try to always remember, and it's not excusing their behavior I just always for me I'm not saying this will work for you guys, but I just try to remember what I said earlier hurt people hurt people.

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And, you know, trying to set boundaries when we can for our kiddos on and just always being quick to take that stuff to the Lord because if you don't take it quickly.

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That's how the bitter roots can take hold. Okay, big, especially if they do similar things over and over and over again.

865
01:09:21.000 --> 01:09:33.000
And the bitter root can actually if you guys don't know this a bitter root can actually stop the flow of the Holy Spirit into your life, it doesn't mean that it's not still flowing that that bitter root will block it for you.

866
01:09:33.000 --> 01:09:41.000
And so if any of you guys are really feeling like I don't hear God, and he's not talking to me and I don't feel this, the presence of the Holy Spirit.

867
01:09:41.000 --> 01:09:52.000
He loves you I just want you to know that first and foremost he asked the Father, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit they love you. They love you.

868
01:09:52.000 --> 01:10:01.000
And they will help you with the process of that bitter root you don't have to go in and get that out of there yourself just so you know you don't have to go in and get that out of your life to get the problem fixed.

869
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:03.880
I've got to get your shovels out tonight, ladies, but what I would encourage you to

870
01:10:03.880 --> 01:10:11.600
do is ask the Lord just to help you take the next step towards forgiveness and come out

871
01:10:11.600 --> 01:10:16.280
of alignment with those attitudes and mindsets of bitterness.

872
01:10:16.280 --> 01:10:22.940
One of the ways you can do that is really cultivating a heart of gratitude.

873
01:10:22.940 --> 01:10:27.760
You guys praise and Thanksgiving and gratitude will war against bitterness and unforgiveness

874
01:10:27.760 --> 01:10:28.760
and resentment.

875
01:10:28.760 --> 01:10:30.160
I feel that in the Holy Spirit.

876
01:10:30.160 --> 01:10:32.200
Some of you guys really need to get a hold of that.

877
01:10:32.200 --> 01:10:34.040
And I don't mean that in a bad way.

878
01:10:34.040 --> 01:10:36.960
I have to get a hold of it all the time.

879
01:10:36.960 --> 01:10:42.340
Anytime I catch myself being critical or caught up in bitterness or resenting people that

880
01:10:42.340 --> 01:10:47.240
are hurting me, or even just making bad choices, you know, that affect other people that I

881
01:10:47.240 --> 01:10:48.240
love.

882
01:10:48.240 --> 01:10:52.960
If I shift into praise and worship and start thanking God for everything he's done, everything

883
01:10:52.960 --> 01:10:57.800
he is doing, you guys, that stuff just cannot stay in the same space.

884
01:10:57.840 --> 01:11:04.960
It can't light will always overcome the darkness always, always.

885
01:11:04.960 --> 01:11:06.440
And I'm not saying it's easy.

886
01:11:06.440 --> 01:11:11.560
There are times that, you know, the Bible will talk about the sacrifice of praise.

887
01:11:11.560 --> 01:11:16.400
Y'all I've been on the altar crying.

888
01:11:16.400 --> 01:11:19.600
It like almost hurts to worship in a sense.

889
01:11:19.600 --> 01:11:22.280
It doesn't, but it's like that sacrifice.

890
01:11:22.280 --> 01:11:26.560
Sometimes it is, it is a sacrifice of praise, but God will meet you in that.

891
01:11:26.560 --> 01:11:29.880
He will, he will meet you right there.

892
01:11:29.880 --> 01:11:30.880
Thank you Meg for sharing that.

893
01:11:30.880 --> 01:11:36.320
I think that's powerful and I appreciate you sharing and we'll be praying for you and your

894
01:11:36.320 --> 01:11:39.360
daughter and for anyone else, for your, you and your kiddos.

895
01:11:39.360 --> 01:11:42.000
I'm sorry.

896
01:11:42.000 --> 01:11:45.240
I know I said who was next and I have forgotten who it was now.

897
01:11:45.240 --> 01:11:46.960
I think it was me, Napa.

898
01:11:46.960 --> 01:11:47.960
Okay.

899
01:11:47.960 --> 01:11:48.960
Yes.

900
01:11:48.960 --> 01:11:49.960
Go ahead.

901
01:11:49.960 --> 01:11:54.120
So my person, like I'm a teacher and several years ago, one of the jobs I had my principal

902
01:11:54.280 --> 01:11:58.160
for whatever reason, just had it out for me and got me fired.

903
01:11:58.160 --> 01:12:01.080
And I mean, it was an ordeal to go before the board and everything.

904
01:12:01.080 --> 01:12:06.080
And my students, parents were furious because they loved me and couldn't understand what

905
01:12:06.080 --> 01:12:07.600
was going on.

906
01:12:07.600 --> 01:12:11.000
And I just, I know, like, I hate this woman.

907
01:12:11.000 --> 01:12:14.760
Like this happened probably, I think like seven or eight years ago.

908
01:12:14.760 --> 01:12:17.560
And I still know, like if I saw her in the grocery store, I'd be like all the feelings

909
01:12:17.560 --> 01:12:20.800
would just be right there up at the surface.

910
01:12:20.800 --> 01:12:25.040
And like, I was telling my partner in the breakout room, like I have an excellent supervisor

911
01:12:25.040 --> 01:12:26.480
now and she's amazing.

912
01:12:26.480 --> 01:12:29.480
And like, even if she'll call me and be like, Hey, like, you know, give me a call.

913
01:12:29.480 --> 01:12:31.040
I need to talk to you about something immediately.

914
01:12:31.040 --> 01:12:32.040
I'm like, Oh my God, what'd I do?

915
01:12:32.040 --> 01:12:33.040
What'd I say?

916
01:12:33.040 --> 01:12:34.040
Am I getting fired?

917
01:12:34.040 --> 01:12:37.320
And it's like, I know that I need to release that and forgive her.

918
01:12:37.320 --> 01:12:38.320
So.

919
01:12:38.320 --> 01:12:39.320
So good.

920
01:12:39.320 --> 01:12:40.320
Yes.

921
01:12:40.320 --> 01:12:45.080
You all sometimes, you know, some of this stuff is spiritual warfare too.

922
01:12:45.080 --> 01:12:48.480
I was reading, I was going to try to find it, but I won't try to sit and flip through.

923
01:12:48.480 --> 01:12:52.520
I was reading in a book this morning and it was talking about how, you know, the enemy

924
01:12:52.520 --> 01:12:57.400
will actually set up assignments to hold us back where even someone can speak over us.

925
01:12:57.400 --> 01:13:01.680
Like you're not ready to be promoted or, you know, whatever.

926
01:13:01.680 --> 01:13:05.160
And this is a little different from what you're sharing, Samantha, but it made me think about

927
01:13:05.160 --> 01:13:06.160
that.

928
01:13:06.160 --> 01:13:09.840
Cause when I read that this morning, I was like, Oh my gosh, that happened to me before.

929
01:13:09.840 --> 01:13:14.440
And so even in situations like this, where it's like, wait, why, why is this person,

930
01:13:14.440 --> 01:13:16.080
why do they have it out for me?

931
01:13:16.680 --> 01:13:19.560
Sometimes you just don't understand.

932
01:13:19.560 --> 01:13:22.920
I will say a lot of times that that is spiritual warfare.

933
01:13:22.920 --> 01:13:28.120
It's an assignment against you to try to keep you from fulfilling the promise you're actually

934
01:13:28.120 --> 01:13:30.720
here to accomplish.

935
01:13:30.720 --> 01:13:34.800
And God is on our side and he will come in and defend us.

936
01:13:34.800 --> 01:13:37.840
Sometimes it, it doesn't work out the way we thought though.

937
01:13:37.840 --> 01:13:38.840
Right.

938
01:13:38.840 --> 01:13:41.760
And we're going to talk about that in a little bit.

939
01:13:41.760 --> 01:13:43.480
Sometimes it's breakthrough.

940
01:13:43.480 --> 01:13:48.320
You guys will hear more about this next week when we look back and we're just like, Whoa,

941
01:13:48.320 --> 01:13:49.320
look at everything.

942
01:13:49.320 --> 01:13:50.320
I grew God.

943
01:13:50.320 --> 01:13:54.240
It wasn't God doing that, but God will absolutely use it to transform us.

944
01:13:54.240 --> 01:13:55.240
Right.

945
01:13:55.240 --> 01:13:58.280
So forgiving them, releasing them and letting them go.

946
01:13:58.280 --> 01:13:59.280
Okay.

947
01:13:59.280 --> 01:14:00.280
Ashley, go ahead.

948
01:14:00.280 --> 01:14:05.360
And then I'm going to do our last portion of the night here.

949
01:14:05.360 --> 01:14:13.880
So I, in my breakout group, the person that I have the hardest time forgiving is me.

950
01:14:13.880 --> 01:14:20.520
And the only way that I can think of to like make an example is if you've ever seen my

951
01:14:20.520 --> 01:14:26.440
big fat Greek wedding where the dad, like take, give me any word and I can tell you

952
01:14:26.440 --> 01:14:28.000
how it's Greek.

953
01:14:28.000 --> 01:14:30.000
My daughter's father was unfaithful.

954
01:14:30.000 --> 01:14:34.840
That's my fault because I picked him and that wouldn't have happened to me if I didn't pick

955
01:14:35.320 --> 01:14:36.320
him.

956
01:14:36.320 --> 01:14:45.520
And that I take that everywhere with everything, that every bad decision that I've ever made,

957
01:14:45.520 --> 01:14:51.280
the things in my life that aren't great, aren't great because of me.

958
01:14:51.280 --> 01:14:52.280
Okay.

959
01:14:52.280 --> 01:14:57.640
I'm going to, I'm going to, you don't have to answer it now, but if this is, if anyone

960
01:14:57.640 --> 01:15:00.040
else is relating to this, first of all, thank you for sharing.

961
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:03.000
And being vulnerable.

962
01:15:03.000 --> 01:15:07.000
What I hear in my spirit is somewhere when you were younger.

963
01:15:07.000 --> 01:15:10.000
I don't know if someone told you is your fault or you thought something was

964
01:15:10.000 --> 01:15:13.000
your fault. That was not your fault.

965
01:15:13.000 --> 01:15:15.000
That's what's coming up in my spirit.

966
01:15:15.000 --> 01:15:17.000
So you might not even know right now,

967
01:15:17.000 --> 01:15:21.000
but I feel like the Lord wants to reveal something to you where you took

968
01:15:21.000 --> 01:15:23.000
something on yourself. That was,

969
01:15:23.000 --> 01:15:25.000
we kind of talked about this a little bit last week too,

970
01:15:26.000 --> 01:15:30.000
where we take things on ourself that are not our fault.

971
01:15:30.000 --> 01:15:34.000
And so then when we go into other relationships and scenarios,

972
01:15:34.000 --> 01:15:37.000
if anything goes wrong, it's all our fault.

973
01:15:37.000 --> 01:15:42.000
And sometimes, you know, some of the people, if they're really toxic,

974
01:15:42.000 --> 01:15:44.000
they will actually try to convince you that it's your fault.

975
01:15:44.000 --> 01:15:47.000
So I've been there. So just know ladies,

976
01:15:47.000 --> 01:15:52.000
I fully understand the mental games people can play. Okay.

977
01:15:53.000 --> 01:15:55.000
So Ashley, thank you for sharing.

978
01:15:55.000 --> 01:15:59.000
I would encourage you to just to really sit with the father in those

979
01:15:59.000 --> 01:16:04.000
spaces where you still are struggling with feeling like those are things are

980
01:16:04.000 --> 01:16:08.000
your fault because they're not in the Lord wants to come in and speak truth

981
01:16:08.000 --> 01:16:11.000
to those areas. So in this process, ladies,

982
01:16:11.000 --> 01:16:13.000
for those of you that haven't gotten to this part yet,

983
01:16:13.000 --> 01:16:15.000
when the revealing for healing happens,

984
01:16:15.000 --> 01:16:18.000
it's not just God revealing the area that needs healed.

985
01:16:19.000 --> 01:16:24.000
It's us asking him to also give us the truth that we can now cling to that

986
01:16:25.000 --> 01:16:26.000
will replace the lie.

987
01:16:26.000 --> 01:16:30.000
So anytime you guys have the revealing for healing,

988
01:16:30.000 --> 01:16:34.000
spending time with the Lord. And I kind of touched on this last week,

989
01:16:34.000 --> 01:16:38.000
asking him for the truth. If you don't hear God speaking to you, you know,

990
01:16:38.000 --> 01:16:42.000
whether you know, in your spirit or whatever, always the word,

991
01:16:42.000 --> 01:16:45.000
the word can, that is who he is.

992
01:16:45.000 --> 01:16:48.000
So if you don't feel like you hear from God,

993
01:16:48.000 --> 01:16:52.000
go to his word in his word is so much life and truth.

994
01:16:52.000 --> 01:16:55.000
The word will cut through bone and Merrill.

995
01:16:55.000 --> 01:17:00.000
It will bring healing and life to the most broken parts of us.

996
01:17:00.000 --> 01:17:01.000
If we will allow it to.

997
01:17:01.000 --> 01:17:04.000
And if you don't feel that way, when you open the word,

998
01:17:04.000 --> 01:17:08.000
just ask the father to help you ask him to help you receive the word in a

999
01:17:08.000 --> 01:17:12.000
fresh way. He wants, he wants to come to your aid.

1000
01:17:12.000 --> 01:17:13.000
Okay.

1001
01:17:13.000 --> 01:17:15.000
Bless you. We're going to be praying for you.

1002
01:17:15.000 --> 01:17:17.000
And I think God has some really,

1003
01:17:17.000 --> 01:17:21.000
really good things in store as you lean into that.

1004
01:17:21.000 --> 01:17:23.000
As we start to kind of turn the corner, ladies,

1005
01:17:23.000 --> 01:17:25.000
the last thing I want to talk about.

1006
01:17:25.000 --> 01:17:27.000
On this forgiveness aspect.

1007
01:17:27.000 --> 01:17:30.000
Is how do we know that we've truly forgiven someone?

1008
01:17:30.000 --> 01:17:32.000
This is how.

1009
01:17:32.000 --> 01:17:36.000
When we no longer identify them as the sin they committed.

1010
01:17:36.000 --> 01:17:38.000
And I know this is going to ruffle some feathers.

1011
01:17:38.000 --> 01:17:52.000
I get it.

1012
01:17:52.000 --> 01:17:55.000
I know there's diagnosis has been done by counselors and all of that

1013
01:17:55.000 --> 01:17:56.000
stuff.

1014
01:17:56.000 --> 01:17:58.000
But God did not create us to label people.

1015
01:17:59.000 --> 01:18:01.000
That are, that are, that are.

1016
01:18:01.000 --> 01:18:09.000
You know, narcissists, you know, whatever our label is.

1017
01:18:09.000 --> 01:18:12.000
Yes, I understand there's clinical background and support for some of

1018
01:18:12.000 --> 01:18:13.000
that stuff. I get all that.

1019
01:18:13.000 --> 01:18:20.000
But what I'm saying isn't.

1020
01:18:20.000 --> 01:18:24.000
It's not saying we can't acknowledge that those people operate in those

1021
01:18:25.000 --> 01:18:26.000
ways.

1022
01:18:26.000 --> 01:18:27.000
We can't acknowledge that.

1023
01:18:27.000 --> 01:18:28.000
We can't acknowledge that.

1024
01:18:28.000 --> 01:18:29.000
We can't acknowledge that.

1025
01:18:29.000 --> 01:18:30.000
We can't acknowledge that.

1026
01:18:30.000 --> 01:18:33.000
But they are not that.

1027
01:18:33.000 --> 01:18:36.000
And this is how I'm going to help you guys shift from there.

1028
01:18:36.000 --> 01:18:45.000
Name calling and labeling people.

1029
01:18:45.000 --> 01:18:48.000
Into where, where God wants you to, this isn't just us saying, okay,

1030
01:18:48.000 --> 01:18:50.000
you have to go this way. It's us knowing like,

1031
01:18:50.000 --> 01:18:52.000
this is the way to freedom.

1032
01:18:52.000 --> 01:18:53.000
This is the way to freedom.

1033
01:18:53.000 --> 01:18:54.000
This is the way to freedom.

1034
01:18:54.000 --> 01:18:55.000
But I want you to think about it.

1035
01:18:55.000 --> 01:18:58.000
What is the biggest mistake that you have made in your life?

1036
01:18:58.000 --> 01:19:00.000
And what is the biggest sin that you have committed?

1037
01:19:00.000 --> 01:19:03.000
I'm going to guess the answer is probably no.

1038
01:19:03.000 --> 01:19:13.000
I will speak for myself. Cause I can't speak for you.

1039
01:19:13.000 --> 01:19:16.000
I don't want to be labeled for the mistakes I've made in my life.

1040
01:19:16.000 --> 01:19:20.000
I don't want to be labeled that because I had sex before I was married

1041
01:19:21.000 --> 01:19:24.000
I don't want to be labeled that because I had sex before I was married.

1042
01:19:24.000 --> 01:19:27.000
I don't want to be labeled that because I had sex before I was married.

1043
01:19:27.000 --> 01:19:30.000
I'm perpetuating what I learned and I'm not excusing it,

1044
01:19:30.000 --> 01:19:31.000
but that's reality.

1045
01:19:31.000 --> 01:19:34.000
I don't want to be labeled by that.

1046
01:19:34.000 --> 01:19:36.000
So I don't want, I don't want to label other people. And yes,

1047
01:19:36.000 --> 01:19:37.000
it's been hard.

1048
01:19:37.000 --> 01:19:40.000
At times. Yes, it has been hard. Absolutely.

1049
01:19:40.000 --> 01:19:42.000
I'm going to tell you guys a little story here in a minute.

1050
01:19:42.000 --> 01:19:46.000
And I've been through a lot of different stuff.

1051
01:19:46.000 --> 01:19:49.000
But this is, this is part of us letting go. Okay.

1052
01:19:49.000 --> 01:19:55.000
And we realize that underneath, even the people that do all this stuff.

1053
01:19:55.000 --> 01:19:58.000
Is someone that's hurt and broken.

1054
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:05.760
they got hurt as well and they just haven't healed and that's why they do the things that they do.

1055
01:20:05.760 --> 01:20:10.000
It doesn't mean we have to invite them, come back into my life, come hang out with me. No,

1056
01:20:10.560 --> 01:20:17.440
that's not what we're saying. We're just saying for you to be free, for you to like the choice

1057
01:20:17.440 --> 01:20:24.320
to stop labeling them as you know these negative things will be a huge way that you know that

1058
01:20:24.320 --> 01:20:32.640
you've really kind of stepped into that forgiving them so you can ask God to help you see them as

1059
01:20:32.640 --> 01:20:41.360
his son and daughter. Help me father to see the gold in these people. We again we don't have to

1060
01:20:41.360 --> 01:20:46.160
go back into relationship with them but maybe God can even like in the books when she talked about

1061
01:20:46.960 --> 01:20:53.840
you know asking God just to help you have grace to forgive or I forget the story that

1062
01:20:53.840 --> 01:21:00.640
she told but it's powerful. You know the Lord understands how hard it is sometimes to do this

1063
01:21:02.080 --> 01:21:05.040
but he also knows how beneficial it is for us to do it.

1064
01:21:08.000 --> 01:21:14.800
So we can ask God to show us who he originally created them to be and we can speak into that.

1065
01:21:15.360 --> 01:21:23.920
Again it's not it's not ignoring reality but it's extending grace to them that we want to receive

1066
01:21:23.920 --> 01:21:28.160
and yes you can absolutely set those healthy boundaries that we were talking about earlier

1067
01:21:28.160 --> 01:21:34.720
and they are very needed in a lot of situations. Even some of us we're about to go into Thanksgiving

1068
01:21:34.720 --> 01:21:40.080
and Christmas soon. Some of us have some crazy family dynamics. Everybody's got a little bit

1069
01:21:41.040 --> 01:21:48.400
of crazy all right. You know it's real but let's go in with a different heart. Let's not go in

1070
01:21:48.400 --> 01:21:55.440
terrified this this season. Let's go in like God you're healing me. I've seen some breakthroughs

1071
01:21:55.440 --> 01:21:59.120
you guys have written in the group. I've been so excited about some of you guys are already

1072
01:21:59.120 --> 01:22:04.160
experiencing like yeah that person's doing and saying the same thing but you're not being impacted

1073
01:22:04.160 --> 01:22:10.640
the same way. Hallelujah. Praise the Lord. That is awesome and you're gonna you guys will all start

1074
01:22:10.640 --> 01:22:17.040
to see that and experience that and if you're not there yet it's okay. Just go back to the Lord and

1075
01:22:17.040 --> 01:22:23.360
say is there anything else I need to forgive them for because something's still triggering that

1076
01:22:23.360 --> 01:22:30.480
in you and I'm speaking to myself too. The people at the church have been really hard lately and so

1077
01:22:30.480 --> 01:22:36.240
God's trying to help me forgive a lot of people in this season as well. So where do we need to

1078
01:22:36.240 --> 01:22:41.200
take background? This is going to be my closing tonight. We're not going to do I wanted to do a

1079
01:22:41.200 --> 01:22:46.880
breakout in it but if you guys feel like you want to share it you guys can do that in the group.

1080
01:22:46.880 --> 01:22:53.120
Don't feel like you have to. This isn't homework but my story I want to close with tonight is

1081
01:22:53.440 --> 01:23:00.000
when I was the guy that I dated before I kind of took my break and before I came

1082
01:23:00.000 --> 01:23:06.160
into boot camp and everything it's my spiritual daughters their dad. He's the one I think I

1083
01:23:06.160 --> 01:23:09.760
shared with you guys for those of you that are new you wouldn't have heard this yet but he's the one

1084
01:23:09.760 --> 01:23:14.480
that I was in relationship with for almost six years. He cheated on me all the time. He put me

1085
01:23:14.480 --> 01:23:19.840
down a lot of abusive stuff a lot of a lot of he operated this is where we separate he operated in

1086
01:23:19.840 --> 01:23:27.360
a lot of narcissistic and sociopathic tendencies and so that was kind of the way I was living for

1087
01:23:27.360 --> 01:23:35.840
those six years. Towards the end about six months before I broke things off with him

1088
01:23:38.000 --> 01:23:44.000
I had this really exciting opportunity come up for work went to New York City and had an

1089
01:23:44.000 --> 01:23:48.640
incredible time. I had this rep there that was showing me around town. I mean it literally was

1090
01:23:48.640 --> 01:23:55.200
one of the best trips I've ever been on sincerely. I bought my I love New York t-shirt. I was so

1091
01:23:55.200 --> 01:24:01.280
excited. I was proud to wear it. I really did like I was like yep six months later

1092
01:24:03.360 --> 01:24:09.520
there was someone that this guy worked with that his family someone this guy was getting married

1093
01:24:09.520 --> 01:24:16.720
in New York and he kept planning this trip for New York but he wasn't like including me and it

1094
01:24:16.720 --> 01:24:22.720
was so weird at the time I was like what's going on so he took his two daughters to New York with

1095
01:24:22.720 --> 01:24:27.600
him came back I went on a totally different trip I'm like well whatever you know I'll go do my own

1096
01:24:27.600 --> 01:24:34.960
thing come to find out one of the women that he repeatedly cheated on me with he made this whole

1097
01:24:34.960 --> 01:24:38.640
elaborate plan that he was going to meet her there I don't know how he thought he was going to work

1098
01:24:38.640 --> 01:24:43.360
that out with his daughters with him and I don't want you guys to get stuck here there's there's a

1099
01:24:43.440 --> 01:24:49.280
positive point that I'm about to bring you here for a little while after that came out

1100
01:24:50.000 --> 01:24:54.480
when I would look at that I love New York shirt I couldn't even bear to look at it

1101
01:24:56.400 --> 01:24:59.840
and I didn't put it on for a really long time because all I could think

1102
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:07.400
about was what he did and that he was trying to do that in New York.

1103
01:25:07.400 --> 01:25:09.760
So here's the good part.

1104
01:25:09.760 --> 01:25:14.280
As I was going through my healing process, God started talking to me about that.

1105
01:25:14.280 --> 01:25:15.280
I love New York shirt.

1106
01:25:15.280 --> 01:25:19.000
I would see it in my drawer and he would nudge me, like, put it on.

1107
01:25:19.000 --> 01:25:20.360
I'm like, no word.

1108
01:25:20.360 --> 01:25:21.480
I don't want to put it on.

1109
01:25:21.480 --> 01:25:26.880
Like, I don't know, like, I don't like New York now, like I just, but that wasn't true.

1110
01:25:26.880 --> 01:25:31.240
And this is where those vows kind of connect to, like, I actually started telling myself,

1111
01:25:31.240 --> 01:25:33.880
I'm never going to New York again.

1112
01:25:33.880 --> 01:25:35.560
Why wouldn't I go to New York y'all?

1113
01:25:35.560 --> 01:25:38.060
I loved it there.

1114
01:25:38.060 --> 01:25:43.600
But because he did something that hurt me and it was connected to New York city, I couldn't

1115
01:25:43.600 --> 01:25:48.880
bear to even think about going there, but you know what?

1116
01:25:48.880 --> 01:25:53.200
One day I kept getting more healed and more healed and more healed.

1117
01:25:53.200 --> 01:25:55.800
And one day God nudged me to put that shirt on.

1118
01:25:55.800 --> 01:25:57.440
I was like, you know what?

1119
01:25:57.440 --> 01:25:59.920
I'm taking New York back, baby.

1120
01:25:59.920 --> 01:26:01.200
And I put that shirt on.

1121
01:26:01.200 --> 01:26:02.200
I'm serious.

1122
01:26:02.200 --> 01:26:06.340
Y'all I talked not crazy, like, but I talked to myself because it helps me.

1123
01:26:06.340 --> 01:26:11.360
You know, David talked to his own soul and spirit and said, why are you downcast on my

1124
01:26:11.360 --> 01:26:14.320
soul within the hope in the Lord?

1125
01:26:14.320 --> 01:26:15.880
Y'all I chose to hope in the Lord.

1126
01:26:15.880 --> 01:26:19.640
And I put that t-shirt on and I took that memory back.

1127
01:26:19.640 --> 01:26:21.320
I took all the good stuff back.

1128
01:26:21.320 --> 01:26:22.320
And I was like, you know what?

1129
01:26:22.320 --> 01:26:26.000
I am not, I'm not thinking about that, that anymore.

1130
01:26:26.000 --> 01:26:30.380
I'm going to focus on the good and my positive experience there.

1131
01:26:30.380 --> 01:26:32.800
And I'm going to go back to New York one day.

1132
01:26:32.800 --> 01:26:37.000
And so now when I see that shirt, every time, every single time I wear it, if that comes

1133
01:26:37.000 --> 01:26:38.960
up again, I'm like, I love New York.

1134
01:26:38.960 --> 01:26:40.720
I'm claiming New York.

1135
01:26:40.720 --> 01:26:41.720
This is good.

1136
01:26:41.720 --> 01:26:42.720
I'm good.

1137
01:26:42.720 --> 01:26:43.720
I'm in a happy marriage.

1138
01:26:43.720 --> 01:26:44.720
Praise God.

1139
01:26:44.720 --> 01:26:46.440
I did not marry that guy.

1140
01:26:46.440 --> 01:26:47.880
You all.

1141
01:26:47.880 --> 01:26:49.400
I thought I wanted to.

1142
01:26:49.520 --> 01:26:50.520
God is insane.

1143
01:26:50.520 --> 01:26:51.520
Yes.

1144
01:26:51.520 --> 01:26:53.160
God is so good.

1145
01:26:53.160 --> 01:26:55.680
So this is what we're closing on tonight.

1146
01:26:55.680 --> 01:27:01.600
I want you guys to think about what, what things do you need to take some ground back?

1147
01:27:01.600 --> 01:27:04.640
Are there any restaurants you don't go to anymore?

1148
01:27:04.640 --> 01:27:07.240
Because it reminds you of somebody.

1149
01:27:07.240 --> 01:27:08.520
Are there any movies?

1150
01:27:08.520 --> 01:27:09.760
This is real too.

1151
01:27:09.760 --> 01:27:14.880
I wouldn't even watch certain movies because he always wanted to watch them.

1152
01:27:15.520 --> 01:27:19.520
And I just felt like, Ooh, he just wants to watch them for this reason or that.

1153
01:27:19.520 --> 01:27:23.920
And I, and I think that, yes, that was why, but I just literally, I just quit doing certain

1154
01:27:23.920 --> 01:27:25.280
things, watching certain things.

1155
01:27:25.280 --> 01:27:28.880
And I just cut certain things out of my life.

1156
01:27:28.880 --> 01:27:34.480
Because I just, it hurt to even think about him or go there or whatever y'all.

1157
01:27:34.480 --> 01:27:40.320
I just recently watched a whole series of those movies with my husband and I allowed

1158
01:27:40.320 --> 01:27:43.280
God to heal me.

1159
01:27:43.280 --> 01:27:48.880
I'm not letting that old junk hold me bondage and in bondage anymore.

1160
01:27:48.880 --> 01:27:50.560
And you guys can do the same thing.

1161
01:27:50.560 --> 01:27:54.520
One of your sisters already wrote in the group tonight, right?

1162
01:27:54.520 --> 01:27:58.280
I approved it as soon as I saw it, because it was short and I could just get it done.

1163
01:27:58.280 --> 01:28:00.080
I wanted you guys to see it.

1164
01:28:00.080 --> 01:28:04.920
She already started drinking out of a water bottle that a friend gave her.

1165
01:28:04.920 --> 01:28:11.200
That is now an ex friend that she, she couldn't bring herself to drink out of the water bottle.

1166
01:28:11.200 --> 01:28:14.160
And today she started drinking out of that water bottle.

1167
01:28:14.160 --> 01:28:18.280
I mean like this, that you can't make this stuff up ladies.

1168
01:28:18.280 --> 01:28:20.920
So some of you guys have some of that stuff.

1169
01:28:20.920 --> 01:28:26.640
Some of you might also have stuff that is old notes from your ex, maybe stuff in your

1170
01:28:26.640 --> 01:28:28.120
phone, nasty things.

1171
01:28:28.120 --> 01:28:32.080
They said to you that for whatever reason, we take screenshots of this stuff.

1172
01:28:32.080 --> 01:28:36.480
Don't we, why do we do that?

1173
01:28:36.480 --> 01:28:38.120
Let's get rid of it.

1174
01:28:38.120 --> 01:28:39.720
Let's get rid of that stuff.

1175
01:28:39.720 --> 01:28:42.440
You don't need to carry that stuff into your next season with you.

1176
01:28:42.440 --> 01:28:44.640
Let's let's shed some weight.

1177
01:28:44.640 --> 01:28:49.800
Let's shed some spiritual weight this week and take back some ground.

1178
01:28:49.800 --> 01:28:55.360
So the question someone asked, the question is, what is the question?

1179
01:28:55.360 --> 01:28:59.320
Where do you need to take ground back this week?

1180
01:28:59.320 --> 01:29:02.080
And that can look at, like I said, a lot of different ways.

1181
01:29:02.080 --> 01:29:08.040
Maybe it's, and again, pray, I'm not saying automatically go back to a town that you feel

1182
01:29:08.040 --> 01:29:14.160
massive anxiety in, really trust the Holy Spirit for the right timing on that.

1183
01:29:14.160 --> 01:29:19.440
But if there are places where you feel like, okay, Holy Spirit, let's gear up and let's

1184
01:29:19.440 --> 01:29:21.360
go do this thing.

1185
01:29:21.360 --> 01:29:27.640
If it's a t-shirt, if it's a place, whatever it is, the Holy Spirit wants to help you.

1186
01:29:27.640 --> 01:29:30.360
He's your counselor, counselor, comforter, and guide.

1187
01:29:30.360 --> 01:29:35.880
He will walk with you every step of the way through that.

1188
01:29:35.920 --> 01:29:38.120
And guess what, ladies?

1189
01:29:38.120 --> 01:29:44.800
When we are full of the Holy Spirit, everywhere we go, we bring the light.

1190
01:29:44.800 --> 01:29:49.360
So even if that had darkness in it because of something someone did, we bring the light

1191
01:29:49.360 --> 01:29:51.800
there now.

1192
01:29:51.800 --> 01:29:52.880
That's who we are.

1193
01:29:52.880 --> 01:29:54.720
And that's what we do.

1194
01:29:54.720 --> 01:29:57.520
I hope tonight has been a blessing for you.

1195
01:29:57.520 --> 01:29:59.080
God is doing so much in this group.

1196
01:29:59.080 --> 01:30:00.080
I mean, I literally.

1197
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:03.400
I am so honored every time to get to be here with you all.

1198
01:30:03.860 --> 01:30:07.740
And I know that the other ladies that are in training feel the same way.

1199
01:30:08.140 --> 01:30:11.060
Um, I'm going to pray for you guys and bless you.

1200
01:30:11.060 --> 01:30:13.260
And I will see you guys this week in the group.

1201
01:30:13.280 --> 01:30:15.140
Father, thank you so much.

1202
01:30:16.420 --> 01:30:21.060
So many things, God, it's just like a dredge that you take along the, the, the

1203
01:30:21.060 --> 01:30:25.260
underbelly of the ocean and, and stuff's getting dredged up and that can be scary

1204
01:30:25.260 --> 01:30:30.360
sometimes, Laura, but I thank you, God, that you, you're not doing it to hurt us.

1205
01:30:30.360 --> 01:30:35.640
You're doing it to lovingly heal us and help us become a little more

1206
01:30:35.640 --> 01:30:37.720
restored, a little more free tonight.

1207
01:30:37.760 --> 01:30:39.120
So father, I thank you.

1208
01:30:40.200 --> 01:30:43.320
That, uh, we will trust in your perfect timing that you'll help

1209
01:30:43.320 --> 01:30:45.420
us to take background for you.

1210
01:30:45.420 --> 01:30:49.220
That we will be, um, we'll be walking in all kinds of forgiveness

1211
01:30:49.220 --> 01:30:52.760
this week, that we will have courage, that we will extend grace, that we'll

1212
01:30:52.760 --> 01:30:57.340
extend the mercy that, that, um, thank you father, that in the name of Jesus

1213
01:30:57.340 --> 01:31:01.580
Christ and by the power of your blood, we bind and break any roots of bitterness.

1214
01:31:01.620 --> 01:31:03.420
Any spirits of unforgiveness.

1215
01:31:04.200 --> 01:31:07.700
God, we will walk in a spirit of love and of power and of a sound mind by your

1216
01:31:07.700 --> 01:31:09.980
power, by your ability, by your authority.

1217
01:31:11.060 --> 01:31:15.100
God, when we feel afraid, I thank you that you would bring peace and calm

1218
01:31:15.580 --> 01:31:17.860
and wash over us in Jesus name.

1219
01:31:18.440 --> 01:31:19.420
We love you, Lord.

1220
01:31:19.760 --> 01:31:20.280
We love you.

1221
01:31:20.280 --> 01:31:21.060
And we thank you.

1222
01:31:21.700 --> 01:31:22.200
Amen.

1223
01:31:22.200 --> 01:31:23.000
And amen.

1224
01:31:23.020 --> 01:31:23.820
Amen.

1225
01:31:24.340 --> 01:31:25.460
God bless you guys.

1226
01:31:25.460 --> 01:31:29.380
I never want to say goodbye, but we need to have an amazing night.

1227
01:31:29.380 --> 01:31:31.820
So Shalom peace over all of you sleep.

1228
01:31:31.820 --> 01:31:33.340
Well, we'll see you soon.