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Hi, good evening, everyone.

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Sorry, I'm a minute or so behind.

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We have someone trying to lead a session in another group

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and they could not get in.

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I was trying to help them get situated as well.

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So thank you for your patience.

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If you've never met me before, my name is Bethany Cooper.

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I'm one of our HeartWork coaches here in last year single.

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And I know I'm thinking we have several new ladies

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on tonight.

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I think we'll have more coming to join us here soon.

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Just put in the chat if you're new so I can say hi to you,

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make sure I know, kind of see some of the names and faces

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and start making some connections there for you.

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If you're new, I'm just gonna kind of let you know

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the layout of the land.

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When we do live sessions, we always do housekeeping

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at the beginning.

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Those are just some things we need to let you know about

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or make sure you guys are keeping these

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in the forefront of your mind.

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And then I'll pray and we'll start to talk

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about some content.

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I'll do that first and then I'll open it up for y'all

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to go into breakout sessions.

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When you go into breakout sessions,

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you are probably gonna go into a room with some people

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you might not know.

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If you've been in the group for several weeks,

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you might know some people.

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But I wanna encourage you all, even if you feel fear

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or you feel scared to not stay quiet,

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I guess is all I'm trying to say,

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to encourage you to share and to open up.

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This is part of coming out of hiding.

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If you guys were on the session last week,

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encourage you guys to turn your cameras on,

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even if you don't have your makeup done.

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If you're cooking or driving, obviously I get it, we get it.

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But you guys are practicing coming out of hiding

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in the HeartWork program and journey

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so that you can get prepared to do that more and more

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in the days ahead as well.

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So that's just a little way you can activate that.

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Let us see you and it will be good.

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So tonight, welcome to our new ladies.

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I can't remember if I even already said that or not,

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but we're glad you're here.

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It's been awesome to see all the excitement with new ladies

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and even excitement with our ladies

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that have been in for a few weeks.

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Even some of you struggled, maybe got sick

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and you're hanging in there, you're doing it.

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And you're continuing to show up

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and let God work in your heart and life.

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And that is a win.

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I hope you guys celebrate yourself for that.

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The fact that you are showing up tonight,

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that you celebrate these things.

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So many times in life, we don't take enough time

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to celebrate our wins.

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And so that's what I wanna encourage you.

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Celebrate your wins.

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Yeah, you might face some struggles in this process

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because heart healing is legit, it's real.

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And sometimes it is hard, but it's gonna be worth it.

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So hang in there and God has something great

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in store for you.

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I wanna talk a little bit about distractions.

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I know Jackie covered that in the orientation

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for those of you that have already had

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and like went to the live orientation.

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You're gonna face all kinds of distractions.

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You're gonna have things coming out of the woodwork

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that you're like, where in the world is this coming from?

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I haven't talked to this person in forever.

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Maybe needy people surfacing, kids just,

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not that we don't wanna take care of our kids,

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but kids might be more needy than normal

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or have more fights or all kinds of stuff,

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distractions at work.

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Stay the course, stay the course and keep showing up

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and let God meet you in the middle of the distraction

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and help you keep moving forward.

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Evangeline, yes, our heart work check-ins

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are typically no less than an hour and 15,

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but because we start having you all share

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and we try to coach you through it,

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we typically go about an hour and a half, you all.

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So if you need to hop off before that, it is okay.

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Come back and check the rest of the replay out

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whenever you can.

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So it's not like I'm sitting here checking off who's on,

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who's off, all that kind of stuff.

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You guys gotta do that on your own,

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kind of just leading yourself in that process.

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And then the last housekeeping item

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that I really felt led to talk about

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is it's important to balance healing with care and release

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is the way I'm kind of saying it.

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And so what I mean by that is a couple different things.

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As you're going through the heart work process,

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some of you guys are gonna be processing

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some trauma you've never looked at before.

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Some of you have worked on trauma for a while

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and you're like,

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I really don't wanna go back through that again,

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but I'm trusting the Lord.

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And just need a reminder that self-care is super important.

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So you want to make sure you're drinking plenty of water,

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that you're getting extra rest.

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You all need to get like extra rest if you can.

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Even if it's an extra 30 minutes or 15

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or taking a nap here and there,

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your body as it processes trauma needs extra rest.

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extra sleep. Um, also, um, if I didn't say it already eating healthier,

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so less junk food, less sugar, getting your body moving. And, uh,

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we don't go into saying what brands or what kind we don't,

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we don't do any kind of medical advice, but one thing I,

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I want to share with you all is detox tea is very helpful in your process

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of heart healing and processing trauma. So that can be helpful.

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Um, and Epsom salt soaks and all those kinds of things that are very natural and

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healthy for your body to get rid of toxins. And, um,

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on that note,

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kind of why I mentioned that is because when you process trauma or when we go,

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let me start here. When we go through any kind of trauma, when we're young,

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when we're older, um, our body,

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our cells actually store some of that up in them. Okay.

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So as you're processing your cells are actually going to be letting go of

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trauma. That's part of what, how healing happens.

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So allow your body to process that stuff and, and get that out.

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And then the other thing is, um, have fun.

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If you didn't hear Jackie's supernatural Saturday, uh, on this past Saturday,

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some of you guys just came in on the last day or so definitely check that out.

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Um, it is so important for you to laugh, have fun.

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The Bible declares that laughter is good medicine.

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Watch some funny movies. You all, even when you don't feel like it,

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just put it on, watch some funny stuff,

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let yourself laugh and release that way as well. Okay.

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That's my housekeeping for you tonight. Again, welcome for our new ladies.

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We're so glad you're here. I'm going to go ahead and pray for us, father.

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Thank you so much for just everything you've already done in a

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short amount of time. Some of these ladies have been in here a few weeks.

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Some are just entering some a week or so Lord, wherever they're at,

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thank you God for all that you've already accomplished. Even some that, man,

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they're just, they're saying, I don't feel a breakthrough yet,

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but I'm just moving forward. Lord,

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I thank you that you are the God of the breakthrough.

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We thank you that where your spirit is, there is liberty. There's freedom.

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So Holy spirit, we ask you to come and bring freedom tonight.

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We ask you to bring things that are in darkness to the light so they can be real

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revealed for healing. So there can be restoration. There can be, um,

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just transformation from the inside out. Lord,

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we know that your word declares that by the renewing of our minds,

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God, that all things can pass away. Behold,

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everything can become new and our minds represent our hearts. So Lord,

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we thank you for healing our hearts a little bit more tonight.

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Bring insight and revelation from heaven in Jesus name. Amen.

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So I want to kick off tonight. A couple things, um, as I was kind of, again,

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just meditating and praying for you all before I came on tonight. Um,

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this was not something I shared in our daytime session,

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but I felt led to bring this up this evening.

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When y'all are reading in the book, if you're not here yet, don't worry,

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you'll read it. But it is about when, you know, the,

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the Lord of the flies, when Jackie talks about that and how, um,

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the whole process of what a fly does. And I,

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I felt led to read this tonight because late throughout the night,

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we're going to be talking about lies and some ways they can take root and

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somehow sometimes how they show up in relationships in our lives.

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But this is what I want to read to you.

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What flies do is they find an unhealed wound,

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a sore or someplace of decomposition,

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and they lay their eggs inside of that place.

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They do this. So when the eggs hatch,

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the larvae will have an unlimited food source.

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These unhealed heart wounds,

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traumas and rejections become an ideal place for the enemy to sow his seeds,

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which are the lies because our hearts are fertile wombs,

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remember, and anything that gets in there reproduces.

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So as you all are processing and we're nudging you to ask the

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Lord to reveal the root lie, where did this lie begin?

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What was the first trauma that birth that lie where that,

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like as this describes the enemy came in and he planted the lie,

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planted the larvae,

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and then it started to grow because potentially there was already trauma there.

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you were not able to comprehend it, process it, all of the things.

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it's important that you're not trying to dig in this process,

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that you're continuing to ask the Lord to reveal things for healing and to trust

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what he reveals. Sometimes when you all pray,

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um, you're going to see an image.

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You might not fully understand what it is.

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You need to journal that and write it down and ask the Lord,

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what are you trying?

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to show me through this image.

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And then sometimes that will connect to a memory.

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So be really good at not dismissing things, even if you don't think it's

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connected, because there's a lot of times where things are way more connected than

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you all really understand in that moment.

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So if you're asking the Lord and you're just not sure if you're hearing him,

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that's okay, write down what you're, what you're seeing, what you're hearing,

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the memories that are coming up and let him be the great doc connector.

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He's amazing at it.

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He will help you connect the dots over time.

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All right.

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So the next thing we're going to go into, I'm sorry, I have this little itch in my

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nose.

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This was not happening before I started.

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So I don't know what that's about, but I don't mean to keep touching my face

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while we're talking here.

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Um, I want to talk about unconscious, uh, contracts tonight.

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So we're going to go into this a little bit more.

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Um, what is an unconscious conscious contract?

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So what, what I mean by that is all relationships in our lives are based on

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our brokenness or our health, like every relationship we have, there's some kind

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of unconscious contract or agreement that we're making in connection with that

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person, whether we realize it or not, especially if you all have had any kind

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of, um, sexual relations, all of that kind of stuff.

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Now that connects to soul ties.

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We're not going to go into that tonight, but I do think, um, that just came right

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up in my spirit.

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So I felt like that was important to mention it.

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I want to say hi to all of our ladies on Facebook too.

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Hi, Larissa.

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Some of them aren't able to join us on zoom.

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And so they listen on Facebook and we love to hear from you as well.

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Um, so y'all are looking at relationships in general and you're processing the

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One of the things I really felt impressed on in the last day or so to bring up with

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you all is for you to just pause tonight and take an inventory on your current

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relationships.

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So what I mean by that is I want you to think about some of your closest

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friendships, your family, your coworkers, anybody, even with your kids.

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Um, I think I saw today I was responding.

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I'm trying to catch up on our, our heartwork check-in y'all, just so you

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know, please don't go in and delete.

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Even if, even if your thing doesn't have a response on it yet, we will get to you.

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I promise.

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So don't panic.

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Don't panic.

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Even when you post in the, in the group and it's not approved yet.

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Mondays are always real busy.

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with your children, all that kind of stuff.

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I also felt led to mention some of you have literally had friends

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that have walked out on you.

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in investing in your friendship anymore.

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God wants to heal those broken places from friendships that are broken and

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unhealthy and people that just walked out on you.

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wherever that hits tonight.

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sidebar because the Holy spirit told me someone that's going to be on tonight

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has had a friend or someone literally walk out on them and the father sees you.

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realize it or not, those wounds are holding you back.

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So as we're moving on, are the release and relationships in your life reciprocal?

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relationships, these core relationships that are in your circle, there are people

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you spend the most time with are these relationships in your life, reciprocal.

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I want you to really expand.

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of people, you're, you're, you're pouring out and pouring out and pouring out on

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them because you so deeply want family and friends and connection, and that's a

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good thing.

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he wants to heal wounds of abandonment, rejection, and people that really

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struggle with takers, people that are big givers and they struggle with takers.

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the category of a taker. Maybe it's just because on health and you're, you know, you're afraid.

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no shame in that because you're going to get healing too tonight. Okay. So wherever you

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find yourself, let's just be honest with ourselves and with the Lord and lean in and grab healing

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wherever he wants to give it to you. So what I mean by, are your relationships in your

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life reciprocal? This is what I mean. Do both people give to each other? Is there,

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it could also look like a healthy, like one person gives, they take, then the other person's

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giving like there's just a, a mutual giving and taking, you know, where it feels equal

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or are a lot of your relationships lopsided? Do you have a lot of relationships where people

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are taking more than they're giving? And even if they're not a majority, you have a

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couple big ones that that's what, what category they fall into. People that you're giving

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a lot of your time to a lot of your energy, a lot of your effort, and you just are left

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feeling empty and that it's not coming back. It's not coming back to you. And so those

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are the things I want you to be asking yourself about. Are you in the healing process at,

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or excuse me, as you're in this healing process, I want to encourage you to also ask the Lord

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to give you wisdom on who to share your process with. I'm going to encourage some of you to

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guard your hearts and your spirits during this time, because, and even, even for some

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of you, you're about to finish week five and you're about to go into phase two and

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start dating, or maybe even just processing the concept of dating. Even if you don't go

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right into dating, like really ask the Lord, who is a safe person for me to share this

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with? This community is a safe community for sure. But some of you all, you're so excited.

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You're going to be experiencing some breakthrough, some healing, all kinds of stuff. And some

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people cannot comprehend it sincerely. And they don't mean bad. They don't mean harm,

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but sometimes they will say things that are very disheartening and can totally deflate

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what God is trying to do in you. Especially if you have, uh, the love language of words

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of affirmation, or you're really needing, you know, some like solid grounding with friends

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and family. And you're looking for that affirmation from them to affirm that what you're doing

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is good. God's already told you it's good. Okay. So I want to encourage you guys to kind

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of kind of keep that in mind so that you can, it's not about putting walls up. This is about

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just kind of walking in extra wisdom during this time that not everyone is going to be

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able to cheer you on the way that you want them to or need them to during this time.

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Some of you all are going to need to set some healthy boundaries where they're needed. And

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Jackie talks a lot about, um, walls and we don't want to have a lot of walls. So as soon

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as I say the word boundaries, people kind of relate that to walls. And so this is something

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I, this came to me earlier today and I thought, well, that's really good. I don't know if

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I've ever thought about it like that. So this is what I'm going to give you tonight as well.

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Imagine a boundary is more like you're somewhere on this cement. There's two people and you

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take a piece of chalk and you just draw a line between the two of you. It's just the line.

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It's just a boundary line. You're not putting up walls. You don't have to cut everybody out.

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That's not what we're asking. That's not even wise counsel. Um, but what I'm asking you all to do

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and through the power of the Holy spirit, I'm like that you would ask him, is there anyone I need to

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set some healthy boundaries with? Do I struggle to say no to people? Do I struggle to say not

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today? And did you all know that no and not today are not bad words. They're not bad words. They're

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actually powerful and life-giving when used in the right way. And then that some of you,

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that you would start saying yes to yourself more in the body of Christ. And even in relationships,

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a lot of people will kind of use this word about selfish, you know, being humble and all this stuff.

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Yes. We want to be humble. You all we do, but here's the reality. Sometimes we can be so humble

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and so self-depleting that it becomes false humility. And then we have nothing left of

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ourselves. There's nothing left. I read a quote today. My spiritual daughter shared this on her

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Facebook page. I'm going to find it. I wasn't planning on sharing this, but I was telling my

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husband it's, it's a great quote. Let me find it. Hold on one second.

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Because it ties right into this, that's why I want to mention it.

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This quote says, you didn't become selfish, you became harder to manipulate.

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Don't confuse the two.

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And I thought that was so powerful, it's such a simple statement.

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Some of you all, you know, you tend to attract people that manipulate, that take, that tear

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you down, that try to control.

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It is okay.

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And again, I'm not asking you to cut, we're not asking you to cut everybody out of your

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life.

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We're asking you to use wisdom and all of that stuff and ask the Lord for discernment

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as you're walking this out.

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So as you all are going to go into your breakout sessions, this is what I want you to share

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with each other about, yeah, sometimes this is hard truth to swallow you all it's there's

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good stuff in this though.

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Who is someone in your life right now that is currently a taker?

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And what is one boundary that you, yes, I can put that in the chat for y'all.

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What is one healthy boundary you can put in place with them?

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Whether it's this week, soon, when a situation arises, whatever the situation is, I'll put

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that question in there for you again, who is someone, I'll say it again, sorry.

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Who is someone in your life that is currently a taker?

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And what is a boundary, like a healthy boundary you can put in place with them?

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That's what I want you to talk to each other about.

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I'll get it ready for when you all come back.

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healthy boundaries with.

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I think that'll be good.

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I'm giving you all nine minutes, that should be three people in each room, nine minutes.

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Go ahead and click to join those.

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Have fun, get to know each other.

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All right, ladies on Facebook, I'm going to come over there and see what you're saying

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real quick, as soon as I get everyone situated in the breakout rooms.

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All right, let's see, Michelle, are you able to click to join?

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I think maybe her thing is a little, there she goes.

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Ivanka, I'm not sure if you can join.

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It's okay if you guys can, if you need to stay here, just you can put that in the chat

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for me so I can see that.

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So let's see what y'all are saying on Facebook.

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I saw some people in the chat here were also saying that they had friends who just walked

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out on them.

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Okay, Paula, that's totally fine.

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Paula's driving, be safe driving.

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Joey Joy says, my best friend just vanished, I'm so sorry, I actually had that happen.

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direction on the second week.

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miss out on anything.

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But the Lord just kept saying, talk to them about relationships, talk to them about relationships.

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So I'm just trusting the Holy Spirit with this.

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Joey Joy, one of my best friends just up and just decided one day, she was like, I don't

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have time to be your friend.

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So I'm not sure how you experienced it, but just in Jesus name, Lord, we just declare

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healing for Joey Joy from that friendship.

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And just heal any areas and lies that the enemy spoke during that time that harmed Joey

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in any way.

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Lord, we just thank you for reconciliation and peace within herself.

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And Lord, we just thank you for closure as well.

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All right, Leah, I see that you're here.

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I'm going to put you in the breakout session.

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They're talking about who is someone in your life that is currently a taker.

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So they take a lot.

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And what is a healthy boundary you can put in place with them this week?

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So I'm going to go ahead and put you into room 24.

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We've got two ladies in there, so you'll have time to share.

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So, okay, I think she's getting in there.

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And then Larissa says, yes, wow, true.

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My grandmother lives with me

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and she's always asked me about my love life,

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but I don't tell her what's going on

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because she's not positive at all.

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Oh, I can relate.

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I used to, my mom used to, I love my mom.

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You all, she passed away back in 2022.

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I had to think about that.

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and when I shared it

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and that my heart was ready to share it.

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what ways to guard your heart

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and when you can release information at times.

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That quote, I will have to type it

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because I can't look at it.

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It's on my Facebook page

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and I'm looking at the Facebook feed right now.

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I'll put that in there as well in Facebook.

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I can't give credit, unfortunately.

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Karen Collins says, my assistant.

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Are you struggling in relationship?

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Your assistant's a taker?

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I think that's what you're saying.

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it's setting healthy boundaries with work.

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My career has taken such a priority in my life

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for so many years that it has prevented me

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from focusing on my heart's desires.

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Okay, that's good.

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You're recognizing that.

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So let's lean into that with the Holy Spirit

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and with the Lord in these next few weeks, Martha,

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and ask Him.

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And I think maybe I remember you and I chatting about this

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in one of your posts or in the weekly roll call

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a little bit as well.

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why did that become such, you know,

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that center and such a priority?

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A lot of times we can look for affirmation

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and confidence in our work

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if we're feeling a lack of confidence in another area.

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So this is just for me.

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This is what I experienced personally,

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is when my relationships were struggling,

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I, not even intentionally, but really pursued,

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like I ran harder after ministry.

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I always run with the Lord.

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00:27:16.660 --> 00:27:17.780
I've loved the Lord.

477
00:27:17.780 --> 00:27:19.860
I have a fire and a passion, you know,

478
00:27:19.860 --> 00:27:22.500
for full-time ministry to serve Him in every way.

479
00:27:22.500 --> 00:27:24.260
But during that season in particular,

480
00:27:24.260 --> 00:27:26.860
I can remember just feeling like,

481
00:27:26.860 --> 00:27:29.780
just trying to go, go, go, go.

482
00:27:29.780 --> 00:27:32.940
And I had no time to feel the pain

483
00:27:32.940 --> 00:27:35.820
of what I was going through with, you know,

484
00:27:35.820 --> 00:27:38.000
all the betrayal and things that were happening

485
00:27:38.000 --> 00:27:39.600
in that former relationship.

486
00:27:40.580 --> 00:27:44.100
Karen says, I've been dealing with friends leaving me too.

487
00:27:44.100 --> 00:27:46.280
Robin says, I'm limited to Facebook at the moment.

488
00:27:46.280 --> 00:27:48.460
I'm working on boundaries with my kiddo.

489
00:27:48.460 --> 00:27:49.380
Oh, that's fine, Robin.

490
00:27:49.380 --> 00:27:50.220
I think I understand.

491
00:27:50.220 --> 00:27:52.020
You're saying you can't be on Zoom tonight.

492
00:27:52.540 --> 00:27:55.140
And my parents, balancing their needs with my own

493
00:27:55.140 --> 00:27:58.380
is something I've struggled with and I'm seeking spots.

494
00:27:58.380 --> 00:28:00.380
It's okay for me to prioritize myself.

495
00:28:00.380 --> 00:28:01.300
Yeah.

496
00:28:01.300 --> 00:28:02.580
Yes, it is.

497
00:28:02.580 --> 00:28:04.000
Yes, it is.

498
00:28:04.000 --> 00:28:06.700
Y'all, that's one of the things I talk to someone

499
00:28:06.700 --> 00:28:08.380
in our daytime session.

500
00:28:08.380 --> 00:28:13.020
She mentioned that her mom has a lot of physical illness

501
00:28:13.020 --> 00:28:16.180
and she's just trying to process and keep in balance.

502
00:28:16.180 --> 00:28:18.200
Like, you know, as a 25 year old,

503
00:28:18.200 --> 00:28:22.520
is it okay for her to have wants

504
00:28:22.520 --> 00:28:25.400
and to pursue things that she needs and wants?

505
00:28:25.400 --> 00:28:28.000
And so we chatted about that for a while

506
00:28:28.000 --> 00:28:29.880
when the other ladies were in a breakout session.

507
00:28:29.880 --> 00:28:31.960
She just really needed some help with that.

508
00:28:31.960 --> 00:28:33.460
And so it's important for us.

509
00:28:33.460 --> 00:28:35.280
My mom had a physical disability

510
00:28:35.280 --> 00:28:38.560
for like half my life as well.

511
00:28:38.560 --> 00:28:41.800
And there can be times where that can feel really tricky

512
00:28:41.800 --> 00:28:43.640
and tough to navigate,

513
00:28:43.640 --> 00:28:46.920
but it's also okay for us to ask for help.

514
00:28:46.920 --> 00:28:48.560
We can ask for help.

515
00:28:48.560 --> 00:28:50.800
And, you know, a lot of people,

516
00:28:50.800 --> 00:28:52.480
their first thing is, well, I don't have the money.

517
00:28:52.480 --> 00:28:57.160
Well, do you think that we could ask God for money

518
00:28:57.160 --> 00:28:58.740
to provide for that?

519
00:28:58.740 --> 00:29:00.160
And it might not come right away,

520
00:29:00.160 --> 00:29:02.040
but I believe that that's something we could put

521
00:29:02.040 --> 00:29:03.320
on Jesus Cares Board.

522
00:29:03.320 --> 00:29:06.960
We could start asking and seeing what ways does God want

523
00:29:06.960 --> 00:29:10.080
to creatively provide for the help and assistance

524
00:29:10.080 --> 00:29:13.020
that we need, whether it's with our kids and a babysitter

525
00:29:13.020 --> 00:29:15.160
or, you know, helping with our parents,

526
00:29:15.160 --> 00:29:16.780
if we're caregivers to our parents,

527
00:29:17.640 --> 00:29:20.100
or whatever that looks like for you all.

528
00:29:20.100 --> 00:29:22.180
Karen says, do you believe that God gives you

529
00:29:22.180 --> 00:29:25.420
a Christian friend who you are friends for years

530
00:29:25.420 --> 00:29:28.540
and tell you that God told them their season with you

531
00:29:28.540 --> 00:29:30.300
is up and they just leave?

532
00:29:30.300 --> 00:29:32.500
I really don't believe that God just places them

533
00:29:32.500 --> 00:29:34.560
then just removes them for no reason.

534
00:29:35.820 --> 00:29:37.340
Here's the thing.

535
00:29:37.340 --> 00:29:40.540
We talked about this a little bit earlier today.

536
00:29:40.540 --> 00:29:43.900
I do think that there are ebbs and flows.

537
00:29:43.900 --> 00:29:46.260
There are seasons that friends and people will be

538
00:29:46.740 --> 00:29:50.900
in our lives, and it's not so much that God is telling them

539
00:29:50.900 --> 00:29:55.900
to just leave per se, but I think the natural flow of life,

540
00:29:55.940 --> 00:29:59.900
you know, we have different capacity to give to people

541
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:04.200
different times. So for example, um, years ago,

542
00:30:04.200 --> 00:30:08.240
I used to serve with a very big, well-known church online,

543
00:30:08.560 --> 00:30:11.160
and I had a lot of people I was connected to.

544
00:30:11.480 --> 00:30:14.680
And when I moved on from there, it was tough.

545
00:30:14.720 --> 00:30:16.760
It was tough to let go of some of those.

546
00:30:16.760 --> 00:30:19.280
I didn't let go of every relationship that I made there,

547
00:30:19.520 --> 00:30:23.800
but I had to let go of a lot so that I could make room for the new.

548
00:30:24.760 --> 00:30:28.480
So I do think that there are times that we have to lovingly,

549
00:30:28.480 --> 00:30:31.800
it doesn't mean I still care about those people and love them,

550
00:30:31.800 --> 00:30:35.880
but in order to turn this way and start, you know,

551
00:30:35.880 --> 00:30:37.600
letting God work over here,

552
00:30:37.800 --> 00:30:42.400
I had to be willing to surrender and let go of

553
00:30:42.400 --> 00:30:46.760
those relationships. Um, and then as far as like close friends,

554
00:30:46.760 --> 00:30:49.560
like what you're saying, um,

555
00:30:49.600 --> 00:30:54.400
I do think that God can lead us in and out of friendships as well. Um,

556
00:30:54.440 --> 00:30:57.760
on that friendship I was sharing about a little bit ago, um,

557
00:30:58.840 --> 00:31:01.160
I had, um,

558
00:31:01.280 --> 00:31:06.400
no recollection really of how codependent that friendship was until

559
00:31:06.400 --> 00:31:10.920
I started healing more and looked back at the dynamic and things that were being

560
00:31:10.920 --> 00:31:15.680
said before she just decided that she didn't have time for us to be friends and

561
00:31:15.680 --> 00:31:20.280
put a bunch of walls up. And, you know, the reality is, is, um, you know,

562
00:31:20.280 --> 00:31:23.920
obviously doing heartwork and all of this now for years,

563
00:31:24.240 --> 00:31:28.080
God has shown me a lot about, you know, when people are hurting,

564
00:31:28.080 --> 00:31:32.240
hurt people, hurt people. And they also close people out. Some people,

565
00:31:32.240 --> 00:31:36.560
their self-preservation is to go into isolation and withdraw. And they,

566
00:31:36.600 --> 00:31:41.120
they don't know how to interact when there is struggle or

567
00:31:41.120 --> 00:31:44.080
hardship. And so sometimes people just,

568
00:31:44.080 --> 00:31:48.240
because they're broken and they just don't know how to navigate, you know,

569
00:31:48.240 --> 00:31:52.880
difficulties, they will cut people out instead. Um,

570
00:31:52.920 --> 00:31:55.600
that I don't know that, you know, I wouldn't say that's healthy,

571
00:31:55.600 --> 00:32:00.600
but they're just, they don't always know how else to do it. Um,

572
00:32:01.280 --> 00:32:04.280
I'm typing this quote in here for you all. Hold on one second.

573
00:32:04.640 --> 00:32:06.520
I see your people are still coming back.

574
00:32:12.240 --> 00:32:15.640
And I was telling the people on Facebook, I don't know who wrote this quote.

575
00:32:15.960 --> 00:32:20.320
So I unfortunately cannot give, uh, them credit,

576
00:32:20.440 --> 00:32:24.040
but cause she just kind of copied it, uh,

577
00:32:24.080 --> 00:32:27.840
and shared it in a graphic, but I'll share it here with you all.

578
00:32:30.960 --> 00:32:36.200
All right. All right there. That is for you all.

579
00:32:38.200 --> 00:32:40.120
Yeah, that's right. Okay. All right.

580
00:32:40.120 --> 00:32:44.240
So who is willing to share with the whole group what you shared in your private

581
00:32:44.240 --> 00:32:48.280
breakout group? And I know some of our new ladies, you might be gasping like,

582
00:32:48.320 --> 00:32:52.320
Oh my God, she's going to ask me to share this with everyone. And I am,

583
00:32:52.480 --> 00:32:55.400
I am not. Everybody has to, but whoever's willing,

584
00:32:55.560 --> 00:32:57.800
that's where we'll start. And then we'll go from there.

585
00:32:57.840 --> 00:32:59.520
We'll follow the Holy spirit tonight.

586
00:33:02.640 --> 00:33:04.640
Awesome. Crystal, go ahead.

587
00:33:09.360 --> 00:33:11.160
Oh, I can't hear you. Yeah, there you go.

588
00:33:11.680 --> 00:33:13.800
I thought you were talking to me for a minute. I was like, Oh,

589
00:33:13.800 --> 00:33:17.040
did I raise my hand? Okay. I'll go. Crystal, you're right.

590
00:33:17.200 --> 00:33:19.080
Are you talking right now? Hi Crystal.

591
00:33:19.080 --> 00:33:24.960
Yes. Can you hear me now? Oh shoot. I had things on mute. That was crazy.

592
00:33:24.960 --> 00:33:26.880
Okay. Yes. I hear you. Okay.

593
00:33:27.560 --> 00:33:32.360
What I shared is I have a friend that I've been friends with for seven years

594
00:33:32.880 --> 00:33:36.440
and she is very much a taker and not a giver.

595
00:33:37.640 --> 00:33:41.480
Like anytime we talk on the phone, she'll tell me that, you know,

596
00:33:41.520 --> 00:33:45.560
it's always drama that she needs to tell me about. And it's always about her.

597
00:33:45.600 --> 00:33:48.400
Guess what happened today? Guess what happened this weekend?

598
00:33:48.800 --> 00:33:52.680
And a lot of times we'll be on the phone and she'll even say,

599
00:33:53.040 --> 00:33:56.320
Oh she's a nanny. She'll say, you know,

600
00:33:56.320 --> 00:34:00.080
Grayson's mom's calling and I have to call you back or so-and-so's calling.

601
00:34:00.320 --> 00:34:04.080
She's a teacher. So she'll say like, you know, the other teacher's calling.

602
00:34:04.240 --> 00:34:05.000
So I'll call you right back.

603
00:34:05.000 --> 00:34:08.199
So she always gets off the phone with me and it makes me feel unimportant.

604
00:34:08.280 --> 00:34:12.120
You know, it's like we've been friends for this long.

605
00:34:12.560 --> 00:34:17.320
And so I did set a boundary with her and I stopped

606
00:34:17.320 --> 00:34:20.480
answering every time she called. I don't know if that was a healthy boundary,

607
00:34:20.520 --> 00:34:24.400
but I did. And then if she'd call me back, when she let me go on the phone,

608
00:34:24.639 --> 00:34:26.199
I wouldn't always answer. Cause I'm like,

609
00:34:26.239 --> 00:34:29.600
I wasn't a priority in that conversation. So, you know, I'll,

610
00:34:30.120 --> 00:34:31.520
I'll call you back when I get a chance.

611
00:34:31.639 --> 00:34:35.920
So she just recently got engaged and has asked me to be a

612
00:34:36.360 --> 00:34:39.880
bridesmaid in her wedding. Of course I accepted,

613
00:34:39.920 --> 00:34:44.880
but I feel a little awkward. Cause I'm like, am I the best friend?

614
00:34:45.400 --> 00:34:45.960
You know?

615
00:34:45.960 --> 00:34:49.600
So I'm very happy for her and I want to be there for her on her day,

616
00:34:49.600 --> 00:34:54.000
but there's a little part of my heart that's that questions it a little bit,

617
00:34:54.000 --> 00:34:55.000
if that makes sense.

618
00:34:55.320 --> 00:34:57.560
So yeah, it does. It does.

619
00:34:57.560 --> 00:35:00.040
And I think it's okay to just be in that place.

620
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:03.440
And, um, you know, just keep asking the Lord.

621
00:35:03.440 --> 00:35:07.320
And, um, if you feel like you need to make a different decision, just let her

622
00:35:07.320 --> 00:35:12.200
know that sooner, probably rather than later for a bride, but, um, on what you

623
00:35:12.200 --> 00:35:13.760
shared, here's a couple of things.

624
00:35:14.160 --> 00:35:18.880
I think it, you know, and again, you guys will, will need to discern this as you go

625
00:35:18.880 --> 00:35:22.960
and ask the Lord, if you needed to tweak anything there, but from my perspective,

626
00:35:23.000 --> 00:35:26.160
I don't think there's anything wrong with you all.

627
00:35:26.160 --> 00:35:29.640
Like if something like that's going on where you just decide like, Hey, I

628
00:35:29.640 --> 00:35:34.640
don't, I don't have to pick up every time this person calls you don't guess

629
00:35:34.640 --> 00:35:37.480
what you get to choose, you get to choose.

630
00:35:37.920 --> 00:35:44.400
And, um, I think it was healthy for you to set that space because I don't think

631
00:35:44.400 --> 00:35:49.800
it does your self-esteem much good when you feel like you're not as important

632
00:35:49.800 --> 00:35:51.840
all the time, but here's the flip side.

633
00:35:51.920 --> 00:35:52.200
Okay.

634
00:35:52.200 --> 00:35:53.520
I always got to give both sides.

635
00:35:53.520 --> 00:35:55.640
You all here's the flip side.

636
00:35:56.320 --> 00:36:01.360
Why do you feel less important because she has to get off the phone.

637
00:36:02.920 --> 00:36:03.720
Does that make sense?

638
00:36:04.040 --> 00:36:07.120
Even if it's happening a lot, which I think it sounds like it probably was

639
00:36:07.120 --> 00:36:11.920
excessive and it sounds like when you all are talking, she's talking a lot about

640
00:36:11.920 --> 00:36:12.400
herself.

641
00:36:12.400 --> 00:36:17.200
So maybe you're not getting the space to share, but I would love to encourage you

642
00:36:17.200 --> 00:36:20.640
to unpack that with the Lord a little bit and just be willing to ask him.

643
00:36:20.640 --> 00:36:24.640
It doesn't mean there's anything there, but is there any lie that you're

644
00:36:24.640 --> 00:36:25.520
believing?

645
00:36:25.920 --> 00:36:29.680
Um, and even what's coming up in my spirit, like, does this link to something

646
00:36:29.680 --> 00:36:34.320
in the past where growing up or over the years where you were in a relationship

647
00:36:34.320 --> 00:36:38.120
where you just felt like somebody didn't pay attention to you and that you were

648
00:36:38.120 --> 00:36:40.040
less important than someone else?

649
00:36:40.920 --> 00:36:43.920
Um, because what can happen.

650
00:36:44.000 --> 00:36:45.800
And again, I'm not saying that's not true.

651
00:36:45.800 --> 00:36:52.200
So that she wasn't like not making you a priority, but I also think that when we

652
00:36:52.200 --> 00:36:57.160
have wounds that are unhealed, that tell us in the past that you were not

653
00:36:57.160 --> 00:37:02.360
important, you were not as important as so-and-so or, you know, you're rejected

654
00:37:02.360 --> 00:37:04.920
or abandoned or mistreated or looked aside.

655
00:37:04.920 --> 00:37:07.040
Like, you know, they don't pay as much attention to you.

656
00:37:07.040 --> 00:37:13.120
Whatever the lies are, you all, when we are in situations like that, that is

657
00:37:13.120 --> 00:37:14.520
what we're going to hear.

658
00:37:15.320 --> 00:37:17.400
We're not going to hear or think.

659
00:37:18.960 --> 00:37:20.600
My friend is really busy.

660
00:37:20.840 --> 00:37:22.280
She made time for me today.

661
00:37:23.960 --> 00:37:24.880
Does that make sense?

662
00:37:25.160 --> 00:37:29.680
But again, now, if she's never given you the space to share, then

663
00:37:29.680 --> 00:37:31.040
that's a little bit different.

664
00:37:31.080 --> 00:37:34.960
But I would encourage you to also say, Hey, I love hearing about your life.

665
00:37:35.000 --> 00:37:36.480
I would love to share something with you too.

666
00:37:37.480 --> 00:37:40.200
And just kind of segue your way right in there.

667
00:37:40.880 --> 00:37:46.960
Cause this is, this is the thing we also need to own when we let people have

668
00:37:47.000 --> 00:37:51.400
control all the time and walk on, like walk all over us in a sense.

669
00:37:51.400 --> 00:37:55.720
And not that that's what she was doing, but like, there's nothing wrong with

670
00:37:55.720 --> 00:38:01.560
you kind of figuring out how can I also, even if she's not inviting you in

671
00:38:01.560 --> 00:38:05.120
that moment, because she might not be healthy enough and that's why I'm, I'm

672
00:38:05.120 --> 00:38:08.720
asking you guys to look at your relationships, you know, where do you

673
00:38:08.720 --> 00:38:10.400
need to maybe see this person?

674
00:38:10.400 --> 00:38:15.800
Maybe isn't as healthy of a friend is what I need in this new season.

675
00:38:17.400 --> 00:38:18.280
You know what I'm saying?

676
00:38:18.600 --> 00:38:21.560
And so you're looking at all the kind of dynamics of the

677
00:38:21.560 --> 00:38:22.640
friendship room relationship.

678
00:38:22.640 --> 00:38:24.400
And again, it doesn't mean you can't be friends.

679
00:38:24.680 --> 00:38:28.720
It just might mean that your friendship shifts a little bit in the days ahead,

680
00:38:28.720 --> 00:38:33.920
because maybe not only just in general, but maybe you understand that they can't

681
00:38:34.240 --> 00:38:39.200
be the friend to you that you need them to be in this season, because we talked

682
00:38:39.200 --> 00:38:44.280
about this during the live session earlier today, seasons change, uh, what

683
00:38:44.280 --> 00:38:46.280
friends can give us change.

684
00:38:46.680 --> 00:38:48.120
It changes all the time.

685
00:38:48.520 --> 00:38:52.320
I have friends that I, I struggle sometimes because people

686
00:38:52.320 --> 00:38:54.440
want stuff from me a lot.

687
00:38:54.920 --> 00:38:59.000
My friends want, and even people that I I'm not close, close friends with

688
00:38:59.240 --> 00:39:03.160
because they got used to a season when I was leading at a bigger church and they

689
00:39:03.160 --> 00:39:07.800
were some of my leaders and, and the ministry that I was serving with long,

690
00:39:07.840 --> 00:39:11.160
um, you know, I've served with a couple of big churches, but years ago.

691
00:39:12.120 --> 00:39:16.000
And when I shifted and went to the next church, I needed to focus there.

692
00:39:16.360 --> 00:39:19.320
And those people were not, it was tough for them.

693
00:39:20.000 --> 00:39:23.280
Like some of them were struggling with feeling like I was abandoning

694
00:39:23.400 --> 00:39:24.800
them, but that's not truth.

695
00:39:25.160 --> 00:39:27.920
I was just moving to a new ministry job.

696
00:39:28.920 --> 00:39:29.440
You see?

697
00:39:29.600 --> 00:39:33.120
So sometimes life's and seasons and cycles change with friends as well.

698
00:39:33.480 --> 00:39:35.400
Crystal, that was a great share.

699
00:39:35.520 --> 00:39:39.040
So glad that you opened up and let us kind of unpack that a little bit.

700
00:39:39.400 --> 00:39:44.400
And, uh, you know, if you guys have friends that are always drama, I

701
00:39:44.400 --> 00:39:47.720
would just encourage you again, are there healthy boundaries to keep putting

702
00:39:47.720 --> 00:39:51.800
in place because maybe in this new season, maybe you want to surround

703
00:39:51.800 --> 00:39:56.640
yourself with some people that are like the people that want to get to know you

704
00:39:56.640 --> 00:39:57.040
too.

705
00:39:59.080 --> 00:39:59.440
Yeah.

706
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.000
Yeah. All right. Awesome. Let's see. Christina, go ahead.

707
00:40:07.120 --> 00:40:13.200
Hi, it's my first week, so I'm kind of new to all this. But our group, we kind of talked about

708
00:40:14.160 --> 00:40:21.040
setting boundaries with our moms and how sometimes our moms tend to overstep those boundaries or need

709
00:40:21.040 --> 00:40:28.080
a little bit more than we could give at certain times. I actually had a similar story with one

710
00:40:28.080 --> 00:40:34.080
of the other ladies about, personally, my mom, you know, always calls and tells me about how

711
00:40:34.080 --> 00:40:41.520
my dad's being acting like a jerk and this and that. And it's just hard to, you know,

712
00:40:42.400 --> 00:40:47.760
balance like being there for her, but also setting that healthy boundary.

713
00:40:49.040 --> 00:40:54.880
Whoa, this is so good. Thank you for your courage to share. Welcome to week one or two,

714
00:40:54.880 --> 00:41:02.880
whichever one you're in. So let's unpack this a little bit. Has this gone on for a long time

715
00:41:02.880 --> 00:41:07.600
with your mom calling you and telling you that things are not good with your dad? Is this like

716
00:41:07.600 --> 00:41:12.400
something that's happened since you were younger or is this recent? Oh, no, it's been going on my

717
00:41:12.400 --> 00:41:21.200
whole life. OK. All right. So this is what I would encourage you to do. You got to start shifting

718
00:41:21.200 --> 00:41:26.640
that. You do. You're not her counselor. You're her daughter. And I know that's going to be real

719
00:41:26.640 --> 00:41:32.480
tough at moments because you love her and you want to be there for her. But it's in order for you to

720
00:41:32.480 --> 00:41:39.120
have a healthy kind of view of your mom in relationship. It will be good for you to start

721
00:41:39.120 --> 00:41:46.320
shifting that some so you can lovingly say, mom, I really care about what you're sharing and I love

722
00:41:46.320 --> 00:41:51.920
you. But I want to encourage you, you know, like have you considered getting counseling?

723
00:41:54.160 --> 00:41:57.600
And just say, you know, I just I struggle when you share about dad.

724
00:41:59.440 --> 00:42:01.600
And just have you have you ever done that with her?

725
00:42:04.400 --> 00:42:10.320
I've never told her she needs counseling, but both my sister and I are have are in or have

726
00:42:10.320 --> 00:42:15.520
done therapy because of I'm not blaming my parents, but because of their dynamic of relationship,

727
00:42:15.520 --> 00:42:23.120
it kind of led us both down that path of realizing it's not healthy and we want different

728
00:42:23.120 --> 00:42:29.360
things for our lives. Yeah. OK. So key thing here, you're not going to tell your mom she needs

729
00:42:29.360 --> 00:42:34.720
counseling. You're going to say, I love you. Have you ever considered getting counseling for some

730
00:42:34.720 --> 00:42:40.880
extra support? OK, so there's a difference there because we never want to tell people they need

731
00:42:40.880 --> 00:42:45.040
counseling, even if we know they do. We want to invite them into that. We want to let the Holy

732
00:42:45.040 --> 00:42:50.640
Spirit invite them into that. They might be very resistant. Your mom might automatically be like,

733
00:42:50.640 --> 00:42:55.280
no, I don't need, you know, whatever that looks like. And maybe they'll be open to it. You never

734
00:42:55.280 --> 00:43:04.240
know. But part of it is that it's important for you to say this hurts me or whatever your feeling

735
00:43:04.240 --> 00:43:09.360
is. I lost you. Where did you go? You lowered your hand and now I can't see you. I see you're

736
00:43:09.360 --> 00:43:16.160
right in my mid screen. That's OK. Oh, that's all right. And so where you're just giving yourself

737
00:43:16.160 --> 00:43:23.200
permission to express how that is making you feel. That's what's most important, even before the,

738
00:43:23.200 --> 00:43:28.720
you know, asking her if she's considered ever getting counseling and you could even like borrow

739
00:43:28.720 --> 00:43:33.200
from like, hey, mom, I and maybe she knows this already. I don't know. But hey, mom, I've been

740
00:43:33.200 --> 00:43:37.920
going to counseling and this is how it's been helping me. And you don't even have to bring up

741
00:43:37.920 --> 00:43:42.480
the stuff with them if you don't want to. But just where you're kind of segwaying and you're

742
00:43:42.480 --> 00:43:48.880
moving and shifting out of being that support system for her in that way. And some of the other

743
00:43:48.880 --> 00:43:54.800
things, just to encourage all of you regarding your mom's, you know, I think the biggest thing

744
00:43:54.800 --> 00:44:01.840
is when we when we can shift and say and we go into even I'm learning this now with my spiritual

745
00:44:01.840 --> 00:44:10.960
daughters, you know, when she came to visit for the last few days in the last week, you know,

746
00:44:10.960 --> 00:44:16.960
shifting from she's 20 now. It's taken me a little while. She's not a little kid anymore. You know,

747
00:44:16.960 --> 00:44:24.640
she gets to invite me into things if she wants to. Now, as far as asking for my advice on something,

748
00:44:25.600 --> 00:44:33.040
I shouldn't always impose that on her. Okay. So kind of trying to shift and learn how to be,

749
00:44:33.040 --> 00:44:39.040
you know, that coach that that, you know, counselor mentor, in a sense, at times, if she needs it,

750
00:44:39.040 --> 00:44:44.000
depending on what is needed, and being there to support her and love her. But understanding that

751
00:44:44.000 --> 00:44:48.000
as she grows up, you know, there's different needs, and there's a different role there.

752
00:44:48.720 --> 00:44:56.960
But sometimes, some moms might have a lot of codependency. And so they struggle to let go.

753
00:44:57.840 --> 00:44:59.840
Some dads do that, you know, it's not

754
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.600
not just moms, but some of y'all also have mom wounds.

755
00:45:03.600 --> 00:45:06.360
And so there's moms that have been super controlling,

756
00:45:06.400 --> 00:45:08.720
manipulating all different kinds of things.

757
00:45:08.720 --> 00:45:11.000
You all, I know everybody faces something different.

758
00:45:11.000 --> 00:45:16.320
Some have had amazing moms, but whatever your scenario is, it's okay for you.

759
00:45:16.720 --> 00:45:20.600
Even when you're getting ready to get married, ladies, some of y'all

760
00:45:20.600 --> 00:45:24.000
are going to struggle to tell your mom what you really want for your wedding.

761
00:45:25.120 --> 00:45:27.800
Even especially those that have never gotten married before.

762
00:45:28.240 --> 00:45:31.840
And that's going to be something you're going to want to work on and saying

763
00:45:31.840 --> 00:45:36.080
what you need, what you want, and what you believe God has for you.

764
00:45:37.080 --> 00:45:38.680
So I hope that was helpful for you.

765
00:45:39.280 --> 00:45:41.160
We'll be praying for you about your mom.

766
00:45:41.160 --> 00:45:44.320
Even if you don't decide to have that conversation, you know, I

767
00:45:44.320 --> 00:45:46.360
always make recommend recommendations.

768
00:45:46.720 --> 00:45:48.560
I encourage you guys to do stuff.

769
00:45:48.880 --> 00:45:52.840
I will do my best to not say you should do this or you should do that.

770
00:45:52.840 --> 00:45:54.160
If I do it, I'm sorry.

771
00:45:54.160 --> 00:45:56.040
Cause I really try not to do that.

772
00:45:56.400 --> 00:46:00.720
It's more about an invitation for you to step into something that I think

773
00:46:00.720 --> 00:46:04.960
will lead you personally and to a healthier place and space.

774
00:46:05.640 --> 00:46:07.360
So thank you for sharing, Christina.

775
00:46:07.360 --> 00:46:08.160
We appreciate it.

776
00:46:08.880 --> 00:46:10.480
Thank you, Marie.

777
00:46:10.480 --> 00:46:11.000
Go ahead.

778
00:46:15.360 --> 00:46:19.800
This is also my first time on, so I'm heading into my second week.

779
00:46:20.480 --> 00:46:26.680
Um, I want to take it to the other side of it where I feel like I'm the taker.

780
00:46:28.080 --> 00:46:33.640
Um, so I, and I shared that in the call of the group too, as well.

781
00:46:33.960 --> 00:46:40.680
Um, I feel like I always have so much going on in my life and that is why I

782
00:46:40.680 --> 00:46:44.000
have stepped into this, um, phase.

783
00:46:44.000 --> 00:46:46.560
Cause I want to heal more myself.

784
00:46:47.200 --> 00:46:50.520
And actually I'm the mom that my daughter, she's 22.

785
00:46:51.040 --> 00:46:55.760
Um, and she's getting married and I've been a single mom

786
00:46:55.800 --> 00:46:58.000
really like most of her life.

787
00:46:58.640 --> 00:47:04.760
So, um, I was the mom that was always like the needy mom, like hang out with me.

788
00:47:04.800 --> 00:47:05.920
Let's talk about this.

789
00:47:05.920 --> 00:47:06.800
Let's do this.

790
00:47:07.240 --> 00:47:13.160
And, um, and I always like talked about my problems and situations with her.

791
00:47:13.560 --> 00:47:19.280
So I think I overstepped some boundaries with her and during this whole process

792
00:47:19.280 --> 00:47:24.800
of her getting married, um, you know, I wanted to do everything with her and

793
00:47:24.840 --> 00:47:30.240
we got into some little tips as moms and daughters do, and she had said to me,

794
00:47:30.280 --> 00:47:40.320
she's like, I feel like you have taken so much from me and I haven't felt that back

795
00:47:40.320 --> 00:47:46.680
from you and that was like really eyeopening, you know, like I didn't know.

796
00:47:46.680 --> 00:47:51.960
I didn't know that I was really draining her energy like that.

797
00:47:52.000 --> 00:47:56.240
You know, I thought we had this like really close mom daughter relationship.

798
00:47:56.240 --> 00:47:57.480
I thought it was like the cool mom.

799
00:47:57.480 --> 00:48:00.080
I was always the young mom with her.

800
00:48:00.080 --> 00:48:05.520
And, you know, for her to like, say that to me, like really, you know, looked

801
00:48:05.560 --> 00:48:12.160
into myself and said, maybe I do need to like heal and talk to someone and, you

802
00:48:12.160 --> 00:48:20.320
know, join some type of group to be a better mom to her and also to realize

803
00:48:20.320 --> 00:48:25.640
that she's like going, she's going to be a woman, you know, she's a woman and

804
00:48:25.840 --> 00:48:31.160
she's going to be getting married and having her own kids and, you know, and

805
00:48:31.320 --> 00:48:35.480
I just want to be more there for her in that process.

806
00:48:35.480 --> 00:48:42.800
So I feel like this also has helped me like look inside myself and want to be

807
00:48:42.800 --> 00:48:46.920
just like a better, uh, about that and not be the one that's always taking.

808
00:48:47.360 --> 00:48:50.320
I want to be more give a giver, especially to her.

809
00:48:50.320 --> 00:48:53.920
And, you know, and I have a 10 year old, so I don't want to do that to her.

810
00:48:55.560 --> 00:48:56.880
Marie, this is huge.

811
00:48:56.960 --> 00:48:58.040
This is huge.

812
00:48:58.040 --> 00:49:02.040
So I just want to thank you for the courage to just share where you're at.

813
00:49:02.720 --> 00:49:05.960
Um, you all, and that's why I say there's no shame.

814
00:49:06.000 --> 00:49:09.600
There's no shame, no matter which side you're on right now.

815
00:49:09.680 --> 00:49:10.720
And it can be different.

816
00:49:10.720 --> 00:49:13.640
Like you might be a taker in one relationship and not in another.

817
00:49:13.640 --> 00:49:14.000
Right.

818
00:49:14.560 --> 00:49:21.400
But ideally, um, anytime we're out of balance in that area where we are taking

819
00:49:21.400 --> 00:49:28.920
from someone and we're relying on them in every area, um, it is at some level

820
00:49:28.920 --> 00:49:34.920
because we have not felt like we could rely on people in our life when we were

821
00:49:34.920 --> 00:49:40.080
growing up and so we didn't learn healthy boundaries, we learned a lot of

822
00:49:40.080 --> 00:49:48.160
codependency, um, and so then when we become parents, we can then do the same

823
00:49:48.160 --> 00:49:49.560
thing with our children then.

824
00:49:49.760 --> 00:49:54.000
So basically it kind of flips what we learned from other people.

825
00:49:54.200 --> 00:49:56.720
We then flip and then do that with our kids.

826
00:49:57.080 --> 00:50:00.000
And so just want to encourage you to just, as you're.

827
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.760
kind of processing and unpacking this with the Lord this week, just really ask him, like,

828
00:50:05.760 --> 00:50:11.120
Lord, what's healthy for me to share with my daughter and what's not?

829
00:50:12.400 --> 00:50:16.720
Even as she's, you know, an adult now and she's getting ready to get married,

830
00:50:16.720 --> 00:50:24.400
you know, there's so many things that even now, like, as my spiritual daughters are grown up,

831
00:50:24.400 --> 00:50:31.360
20 and 18, you know, still just being careful, like, what I share about what their dad,

832
00:50:31.360 --> 00:50:40.000
like, put me through. Like, I still don't share a lot of what happened. And I don't think I need to

833
00:50:40.000 --> 00:50:46.640
unless I feel like there's a bit that's going to help them gain insight into something. And not

834
00:50:46.640 --> 00:50:50.320
that that's kind of like what you're doing or whatever, but I just felt like that might help

835
00:50:50.320 --> 00:50:58.160
somebody on here where you all were just leaning into, like, where do I need to learn like healthy

836
00:50:58.160 --> 00:51:04.080
connection and relationship? That's the way to look at it. Don't feel like you're bad moms or

837
00:51:04.080 --> 00:51:10.160
whatever. Let's lean into how can I become healthier? How can I make the healthier choice

838
00:51:10.160 --> 00:51:19.600
going forward? How can I, you know, grow to understand that even if my child chooses to

839
00:51:19.600 --> 00:51:26.000
not spend time with me, it doesn't mean they don't love me. It means they want to hang out

840
00:51:26.000 --> 00:51:31.760
with their friends or whoever, and that's legitimate, like what it means to them.

841
00:51:32.720 --> 00:51:38.880
And so if we feel wounded when it's, whether it's our kids or another friend or whoever,

842
00:51:39.920 --> 00:51:44.720
if they don't choose to spend time with us and they choose to spend it with someone else,

843
00:51:45.440 --> 00:51:50.160
and we're feeling rejection and abandonment, we need to look at that. You know, where's that coming

844
00:51:50.160 --> 00:51:55.600
from? It might be coming from that situation, but it's probably also coming from a situation

845
00:51:56.160 --> 00:52:01.440
from years ago, back in the future that that is now building on. Do you see? That's how the enemy

846
00:52:01.440 --> 00:52:06.160
does. He'll always try to pile on layers. And some of you all have had things happen in the same kind

847
00:52:06.160 --> 00:52:12.160
of scenario, just showing up in different ways, almost your entire lives. So for example, not

848
00:52:12.160 --> 00:52:15.600
that this is connected to what you shared about Marie, but it's just coming up in my spirit, but

849
00:52:15.600 --> 00:52:24.160
like in my life, I was sexually abused as a little kid and went through some, some things in college,

850
00:52:24.160 --> 00:52:31.520
very similar, was raped in college. A lot of other like men, one of my professors like got my number

851
00:52:31.520 --> 00:52:38.000
from the school system and like was calling me and waiting after class, kind of like stalking me,

852
00:52:38.000 --> 00:52:45.280
pretty creepy. Went into then these relationships where the men were abusive in different ways,

853
00:52:45.280 --> 00:52:50.400
but there's just the spirit of the enemy just kept showing up in similar ways. And some of you guys

854
00:52:50.400 --> 00:52:55.920
have experienced that in different areas. Like yours might not be that, but maybe it's stuff like

855
00:52:55.920 --> 00:53:00.960
this where there's never been lines and healthy relationship. And it just constantly, like,

856
00:53:00.960 --> 00:53:06.960
there's all this kind of ties where everybody's just tied together in unhealthy ways. Does that

857
00:53:06.960 --> 00:53:14.000
make sense? The soul ties and all the things where there's no emotional separation. Some of you all,

858
00:53:14.000 --> 00:53:17.520
and the last thing I'll share, and then we'll start to move on to the next segment tonight,

859
00:53:18.080 --> 00:53:28.560
but some of you all have some enmeshment. So E-N-M-E-S-H-M-E-N-T. And what that means is like

860
00:53:28.560 --> 00:53:32.640
when you went through circumstances in your life, probably when you were younger,

861
00:53:33.200 --> 00:53:37.840
like everything was kind of garbled and, and there were no boundaries and your parents didn't set

862
00:53:37.840 --> 00:53:42.720
healthy boundaries and they, they didn't, they weren't healthy and grown up enough in a sense

863
00:53:42.720 --> 00:53:48.800
to set healthy boundaries. And so it was just this big ball of mess. That's why it's mesh meshment.

864
00:53:48.800 --> 00:53:56.080
And what happens is nobody knows where the boundaries are. And when you, when they try to

865
00:53:56.320 --> 00:54:03.840
When they try to grow up and move away from that, they almost don't know how, because they're so

866
00:54:03.840 --> 00:54:11.040
enmeshed in their mind becomes really controlled by the unhealthy boundaries that are like the

867
00:54:11.040 --> 00:54:16.880
lack of boundaries that are there, if you will. So some of you might need to check into that.

868
00:54:16.880 --> 00:54:22.880
If your family has tried to control and manipulate you a lot, and you didn't feel a lot of freedom

869
00:54:22.880 --> 00:54:29.120
to go out and grow up or try things on your own without everybody trying to cause you to be afraid

870
00:54:29.120 --> 00:54:35.520
or whatever, that might be something for you to look into. Okay. All right. We're going to move

871
00:54:35.520 --> 00:54:41.920
on. So tonight, the next, the second part is about, so we've been talking about takers in people

872
00:54:42.880 --> 00:54:49.600
and sometimes how, you know, we need to grow in balance there. But I also want to talk about this.

873
00:54:49.600 --> 00:54:59.840
God is a giver. God is a giver. He is not a taker. Some of you think he's a taker.

874
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:02.440
but he's not a taker, he's a giver.

875
00:55:02.440 --> 00:55:05.920
God didn't take good things away from you.

876
00:55:08.000 --> 00:55:08.840
He didn't.

877
00:55:10.160 --> 00:55:11.880
The enemy is trying to tell some of you

878
00:55:11.880 --> 00:55:15.660
that God has in the past taken good things away from you

879
00:55:15.660 --> 00:55:18.800
and that every time you try to move

880
00:55:18.800 --> 00:55:20.860
towards something good, he takes it.

881
00:55:21.740 --> 00:55:23.640
And he's not a taker.

882
00:55:23.640 --> 00:55:25.920
So along the way, there's somewhere

883
00:55:25.920 --> 00:55:28.560
where you believe the lie that he was a taker

884
00:55:28.600 --> 00:55:32.040
and asking him where that lie began for you

885
00:55:32.040 --> 00:55:34.100
is gonna be a big deal.

886
00:55:35.160 --> 00:55:37.680
So tonight, God wants to restore

887
00:55:37.680 --> 00:55:40.060
a little bit of his character and who he is.

888
00:55:41.160 --> 00:55:44.120
God didn't and does not make you sick.

889
00:55:45.300 --> 00:55:48.640
The enemy is the one who creates sickness,

890
00:55:48.640 --> 00:55:53.480
death, disease, disruption, all of those things.

891
00:55:53.480 --> 00:55:55.440
That is not from God.

892
00:55:55.440 --> 00:55:57.120
God is not a trickster.

893
00:55:58.120 --> 00:56:01.440
God isn't trying to trick you into anything.

894
00:56:01.440 --> 00:56:05.120
He's not trying to dangle some kind of carrot

895
00:56:05.120 --> 00:56:08.120
in front of you and then take it

896
00:56:08.120 --> 00:56:10.320
because it's not really gonna be yours.

897
00:56:10.320 --> 00:56:11.920
But see, that's the enemy saying that

898
00:56:11.920 --> 00:56:13.380
to some of you as well.

899
00:56:13.380 --> 00:56:15.960
And the Lord is saying,

900
00:56:15.960 --> 00:56:19.000
tonight is the night that you can change.

901
00:56:19.000 --> 00:56:20.720
Tonight is the night that you can believe

902
00:56:20.720 --> 00:56:24.880
something different because that's not who I am.

903
00:56:24.920 --> 00:56:26.040
That's not who he is.

904
00:56:26.040 --> 00:56:28.920
And he wants you to receive the truth tonight.

905
00:56:28.920 --> 00:56:30.500
God is not a liar.

906
00:56:30.500 --> 00:56:33.100
The Bible says, God is not a man that he should lie.

907
00:56:35.080 --> 00:56:38.520
So why do we believe that God lies to us

908
00:56:38.520 --> 00:56:40.960
and tricks us and steals and takes?

909
00:56:42.160 --> 00:56:43.880
So here's the thing though.

910
00:56:43.880 --> 00:56:48.640
God doesn't take from us, but he does remove.

911
00:56:48.640 --> 00:56:49.740
What does he remove?

912
00:56:49.740 --> 00:56:50.680
We're gonna talk about that.

913
00:56:50.680 --> 00:56:52.480
I'm gonna go over it right now.

914
00:56:52.480 --> 00:56:54.240
He removes things that the enemy

915
00:56:54.240 --> 00:56:56.720
has tried to oppress you with.

916
00:56:56.720 --> 00:56:59.200
That's what he removes you all.

917
00:56:59.200 --> 00:57:03.640
So things like shame, pain, sin, death,

918
00:57:03.640 --> 00:57:08.640
guilt, condemnation, abuse, manipulation, control,

919
00:57:09.960 --> 00:57:13.680
he removes those things from your life.

920
00:57:13.680 --> 00:57:18.680
Fear, anxiety, panic disorders, but we have to ask him.

921
00:57:19.680 --> 00:57:22.520
We have to invite him to come in.

922
00:57:22.520 --> 00:57:24.720
And that's a part of someone asked the question.

923
00:57:24.720 --> 00:57:26.560
It was a great question.

924
00:57:26.560 --> 00:57:29.360
I wrote a big long response on the whole permission slip

925
00:57:29.360 --> 00:57:32.160
and well, God just does what he wants anyways.

926
00:57:32.160 --> 00:57:37.160
So why do I sign a permission slip giving him permission?

927
00:57:37.320 --> 00:57:41.000
Well, because he always invites.

928
00:57:42.200 --> 00:57:47.200
Even with Jesus Christ, he never forces his way in.

929
00:57:47.360 --> 00:57:51.000
We have to accept him as our Lord and savior.

930
00:57:51.000 --> 00:57:55.120
We have to invite him to come into our heart, right?

931
00:57:55.120 --> 00:57:57.000
Y'all, that's us giving permission.

932
00:57:57.880 --> 00:57:58.800
God is a gentleman.

933
00:57:58.800 --> 00:58:00.440
I talked about this a little bit last week

934
00:58:00.440 --> 00:58:01.440
in our session last week.

935
00:58:01.440 --> 00:58:02.880
If you all couldn't hear that,

936
00:58:02.880 --> 00:58:04.800
you can check that out in your replay.

937
00:58:04.800 --> 00:58:05.720
Don't feel like you have to.

938
00:58:05.720 --> 00:58:09.160
I'm just saying I talk about that more in that session.

939
00:58:09.160 --> 00:58:10.160
He's a gentleman.

940
00:58:10.160 --> 00:58:11.840
He knocks on the door of our hearts.

941
00:58:11.840 --> 00:58:15.780
He is not someone who just forces his way in, okay?

942
00:58:16.740 --> 00:58:19.660
Some of you might've lost something in your life,

943
00:58:19.660 --> 00:58:22.060
maybe more than one thing,

944
00:58:22.060 --> 00:58:25.980
maybe lots of things you've lost, lost, lost

945
00:58:27.380 --> 00:58:29.380
because you weren't ready to handle it.

946
00:58:30.540 --> 00:58:32.140
Some of y'all, myself included,

947
00:58:32.140 --> 00:58:35.060
I was not ready to handle the first marriage I had.

948
00:58:35.060 --> 00:58:37.380
I should have never gotten married.

949
00:58:37.380 --> 00:58:38.860
I was so not healthy

950
00:58:38.860 --> 00:58:42.500
and then I married someone way more unhealthy than me.

951
00:58:42.500 --> 00:58:43.580
It was not good.

952
00:58:44.580 --> 00:58:47.820
And I lost that.

953
00:58:47.820 --> 00:58:49.460
I lost that.

954
00:58:49.460 --> 00:58:50.940
There was never a foundation there

955
00:58:50.940 --> 00:58:52.780
that it was even built on to begin with.

956
00:58:52.780 --> 00:58:55.940
I was not able to bear up under the weight of that

957
00:58:55.940 --> 00:58:58.340
and praise God, it was a lot of abuse and stuff.

958
00:58:58.340 --> 00:59:00.380
So I'm so thankful that God rescued me

959
00:59:00.380 --> 00:59:02.380
from that situation, seriously.

960
00:59:03.580 --> 00:59:05.020
Here's the thing.

961
00:59:05.020 --> 00:59:08.820
There's nothing that you've lost that God can't restore.

962
00:59:08.820 --> 00:59:11.300
Now, I'm not saying God's gonna restore

963
00:59:11.300 --> 00:59:13.180
all of y'all's ex relationships.

964
00:59:13.780 --> 00:59:14.620
So don't hear me saying that.

965
00:59:14.620 --> 00:59:17.700
Some of you that might happen, who knows?

966
00:59:17.700 --> 00:59:20.220
But what I'm saying is,

967
00:59:20.220 --> 00:59:23.020
what did you lose when that stuff broke?

968
00:59:24.540 --> 00:59:27.140
Y'all, when I went through my first divorce,

969
00:59:27.140 --> 00:59:30.180
man, I only went through one divorce.

970
00:59:30.180 --> 00:59:31.220
I don't know why I said that that way,

971
00:59:31.220 --> 00:59:34.060
but that second relationship felt like we were married

972
00:59:34.060 --> 00:59:35.220
even though we weren't.

973
00:59:37.740 --> 00:59:42.220
I just remember feeling like all my dreams were shattered.

974
00:59:42.220 --> 00:59:44.420
All my hopes, all the things that I thought

975
00:59:44.420 --> 00:59:47.460
were gonna be, I didn't even know

976
00:59:47.460 --> 00:59:49.580
if I was ever gonna have a baby

977
00:59:49.580 --> 00:59:51.300
because my marriage fell apart

978
00:59:51.300 --> 00:59:53.340
and just all these things, right?

979
00:59:54.620 --> 00:59:56.420
So I wanna tell you that, again,

980
00:59:56.420 --> 00:59:58.100
there's nothing that you've lost

981
00:59:58.100 --> 01:00:00.940
that he can't restore for the rest of your life.

982
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:02.400
Those of you that have heard part of me share about this,

983
01:00:02.400 --> 01:00:04.000
you're going to hear it a little bit again tonight,

984
01:00:04.000 --> 01:00:05.560
but I want to share it for our new ladies.

985
01:00:06.000 --> 01:00:08.880
I went through this program several years ago,

986
01:00:08.880 --> 01:00:11.320
had done quite a bit of counseling and,

987
01:00:11.600 --> 01:00:15.040
and was doing some mental health coaching and licensing and all that kind of

988
01:00:15.040 --> 01:00:18.280
stuff. So I did a lot of research and study before I even came in.

989
01:00:18.560 --> 01:00:22.400
We used to call it bootcamp, experienced a lot of healing,

990
01:00:22.440 --> 01:00:24.800
a lot of redemption, a lot of restoration.

991
01:00:25.120 --> 01:00:29.240
God removed a lot of orphan mentalities and limiting mindsets and beliefs that I

992
01:00:29.240 --> 01:00:34.240
lived under and, you know, met my spirit mate in September of 21.

993
01:00:35.000 --> 01:00:39.320
And, uh, God, it was right from the beginning. I mean, pretty quick.

994
01:00:39.440 --> 01:00:42.880
We knew it was a God, a God thing.

995
01:00:43.080 --> 01:00:47.520
We had very similar backgrounds and stories of what we had been through and God

996
01:00:47.520 --> 01:00:51.560
just really supernaturally brought us together. Um,

997
01:00:51.600 --> 01:00:56.600
and we moved forward in that and we got married in September of 22.

998
01:00:56.720 --> 01:00:57.560
22.

999
01:00:57.840 --> 01:01:01.440
So we're about a year and a half in and God's teaching us all kinds of stuff.

1000
01:01:01.440 --> 01:01:06.280
And we, we had a great relationship and I am just so blessed,

1001
01:01:06.280 --> 01:01:10.360
so blessed you all. And so I'm sharing that with you because,

1002
01:01:11.000 --> 01:01:14.360
you know, back in the day I, I believed,

1003
01:01:14.360 --> 01:01:18.280
but there was still a part of me that was like, can you, God,

1004
01:01:18.400 --> 01:01:19.560
can you restore,

1005
01:01:20.280 --> 01:01:24.800
can you redeem and give back all the locust has eaten in the moth has

1006
01:01:24.840 --> 01:01:28.760
destroyed. I believe your word, Lord, but I don't see it yet.

1007
01:01:29.560 --> 01:01:32.520
Help me to see it. Help me to experience it. Help me to know it.

1008
01:01:32.960 --> 01:01:35.080
And God has done that. Y'all.

1009
01:01:35.120 --> 01:01:38.840
It's like my former life never happened.

1010
01:01:39.480 --> 01:01:44.120
I know in my brain it happened. I know those things took place,

1011
01:01:44.560 --> 01:01:49.200
but the joy and the peace and the grace and all of the blessings that I'm

1012
01:01:49.200 --> 01:01:53.880
experiencing now has caused that to feel like it was never

1013
01:01:54.200 --> 01:01:57.680
there. So I want to say and speak that over you all.

1014
01:01:57.680 --> 01:02:01.560
That can be your story too. It can be,

1015
01:02:01.760 --> 01:02:05.000
God is the redeemer of time. All right,

1016
01:02:05.360 --> 01:02:07.680
here's your breakout session question.

1017
01:02:09.200 --> 01:02:11.320
This one's a tough one for some of y'all,

1018
01:02:11.440 --> 01:02:15.200
but I'm going to ask you to be courageous and honest and share.

1019
01:02:16.200 --> 01:02:20.960
Is there an area that you've been blaming God for something

1020
01:02:20.960 --> 01:02:25.000
in your life that hasn't gone well?

1021
01:02:27.160 --> 01:02:31.960
Is there an area you've been blaming God in some area of your life where it has

1022
01:02:31.960 --> 01:02:33.760
not gone well?

1023
01:02:35.240 --> 01:02:38.640
And what is something that you need God to restore?

1024
01:02:39.160 --> 01:02:41.440
And we had this come up in the session earlier today.

1025
01:02:41.440 --> 01:02:43.520
So I feel like it's important to mention it.

1026
01:02:43.560 --> 01:02:44.960
One lady was saying,

1027
01:02:45.240 --> 01:02:48.160
and this can be true for some of you because of where you're at in your

1028
01:02:48.160 --> 01:02:50.920
relationship with the Lord. And it's different for everybody.

1029
01:02:51.920 --> 01:02:55.440
Shoot. I was trying to find her note. She said that she never,

1030
01:02:56.360 --> 01:02:58.000
she never felt like she blamed God.

1031
01:02:58.040 --> 01:03:00.160
She didn't really feel like she was blaming God for anything.

1032
01:03:00.160 --> 01:03:04.440
And so that might be some of you. But if you, if you do, if,

1033
01:03:04.440 --> 01:03:06.920
if when I said that your heart started pounding,

1034
01:03:07.680 --> 01:03:10.720
that's something you want to talk about that area that you're blaming God.

1035
01:03:11.000 --> 01:03:14.560
But one of the things she was struggling with was believing God,

1036
01:03:14.600 --> 01:03:17.160
like for the timing of the restoration.

1037
01:03:17.840 --> 01:03:19.920
She believed that he would do restoration,

1038
01:03:19.920 --> 01:03:22.160
but the timing of it is where she was struggling.

1039
01:03:22.480 --> 01:03:25.320
And so we started unpacking lies that she was believing.

1040
01:03:25.320 --> 01:03:29.480
And here's two things. Every time she would try to engage with men,

1041
01:03:29.520 --> 01:03:32.600
she actually would not think that she was enough for them.

1042
01:03:33.680 --> 01:03:36.360
And what would they even see in me?

1043
01:03:38.680 --> 01:03:40.880
So she right out of the gate,

1044
01:03:40.920 --> 01:03:45.240
didn't even think that she had value to bring to them. Okay.

1045
01:03:45.600 --> 01:03:48.360
So you guys might have all different kinds of things that come up,

1046
01:03:48.400 --> 01:03:51.040
share what's on your heart. I would love if you,

1047
01:03:51.040 --> 01:03:54.640
if you have something with the questions that I asked, answer those first,

1048
01:03:54.640 --> 01:03:58.160
but if you don't just let, let the Holy spirit lead you in your conversation.

1049
01:03:58.440 --> 01:04:00.320
It's good. It'll be what you need.

1050
01:04:00.880 --> 01:04:05.080
And we trust God to give you guys what you need. Every time we're here,

1051
01:04:05.080 --> 01:04:08.000
I'm going to recreate these rooms. I want to mix you guys up tonight.

1052
01:04:08.000 --> 01:04:10.960
We've got a lot of new people and, uh,

1053
01:04:11.000 --> 01:04:15.560
I want you guys to meet some new new ladies. All right, here you go.

1054
01:04:15.760 --> 01:04:20.200
I'll be praying for you all. And, uh, we'll be talking to people on Facebook.

1055
01:04:20.200 --> 01:04:24.040
So you guys can come back and watch that later. If you want click to join those.

1056
01:04:24.040 --> 01:04:24.880
Okay.

1057
01:04:39.760 --> 01:04:43.120
All right, ladies, keep clicking to join. If you can, I'm not sure, Carla,

1058
01:04:43.120 --> 01:04:46.560
if you're able to join your room, Michelle,

1059
01:04:47.520 --> 01:04:51.920
both my two Michelle's in here. And then Paula, I think you're still driving.

1060
01:04:51.960 --> 01:04:56.200
I'm guessing. All right. So make sure we have everybody in a room here.

1061
01:04:57.800 --> 01:05:00.040
I think we're good. Oh, Michelle.

1062
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:01.640
Oh, let's she get kicked back out.

1063
01:05:07.200 --> 01:05:07.680
I'm not sure.

1064
01:05:08.120 --> 01:05:08.480
All right.

1065
01:05:08.480 --> 01:05:09.960
Let's see what's going on on Facebook.

1066
01:05:09.960 --> 01:05:11.680
Y'all got a lot of catching up to do.

1067
01:05:12.480 --> 01:05:13.320
Um,

1068
01:05:19.320 --> 01:05:19.560
let's see.

1069
01:05:19.560 --> 01:05:21.540
Robin said, praying for that assistance.

1070
01:05:21.540 --> 01:05:23.560
This was from the conversation earlier.

1071
01:05:23.560 --> 01:05:25.760
So simple, but easy to overlook.

1072
01:05:25.760 --> 01:05:27.320
Thank you for that reminder.

1073
01:05:27.380 --> 01:05:29.520
Martha said, yes, this resonates Bethany.

1074
01:05:29.520 --> 01:05:29.920
Thank you.

1075
01:05:29.920 --> 01:05:33.920
It's a result of my rejection and God revealing that I have poured into areas.

1076
01:05:34.440 --> 01:05:39.840
I can be successful in and perfect in so that I can get affirmation

1077
01:05:39.840 --> 01:05:41.640
and prevent pain and rejection.

1078
01:05:41.640 --> 01:05:43.160
Thank you for sharing that Martha.

1079
01:05:43.600 --> 01:05:47.880
Holy spirit has been revealing these root issues to me, speaking to the

1080
01:05:47.880 --> 01:05:51.000
likes of rejection, needing to be perfect and performance in my life.

1081
01:05:51.000 --> 01:05:52.240
Replacing those with truth.

1082
01:05:52.240 --> 01:05:53.280
Praise the Lord.

1083
01:05:53.320 --> 01:05:54.040
Yes, Lord.

1084
01:05:54.040 --> 01:05:57.160
We just ask you to keep replacing those lies with truth.

1085
01:05:58.040 --> 01:06:00.400
Um, and that says I've learned healthy boundaries.

1086
01:06:00.400 --> 01:06:01.680
I had to let go of a friend.

1087
01:06:01.680 --> 01:06:05.760
I was, um, sorry, I just lost that growing up with, I think.

1088
01:06:05.800 --> 01:06:08.360
And she, Oh, you were growing and she was not.

1089
01:06:08.400 --> 01:06:08.760
Yeah.

1090
01:06:08.760 --> 01:06:10.000
I did not like your growth.

1091
01:06:10.000 --> 01:06:10.240
Yes.

1092
01:06:10.240 --> 01:06:11.820
That will happen at times.

1093
01:06:11.820 --> 01:06:16.360
It's tough, but we just trust God with those individuals and.

1094
01:06:17.080 --> 01:06:18.480
And with our hearts as well.

1095
01:06:18.920 --> 01:06:21.760
Let's see, Laura says, I can't think of anyone in my life

1096
01:06:21.760 --> 01:06:22.880
right now who is a taker.

1097
01:06:22.920 --> 01:06:27.040
That's good that you know, that's a real good sign, but I feel like

1098
01:06:27.040 --> 01:06:31.360
I always had a hard time standing up for myself, even saying, no, I

1099
01:06:31.360 --> 01:06:32.720
always wanted to be the good one.

1100
01:06:32.760 --> 01:06:33.440
All right.

1101
01:06:33.960 --> 01:06:38.080
So I would lean into that there and ask the Lord to reveal to you the

1102
01:06:38.080 --> 01:06:46.080
first time you felt like you weren't allowed to say no, or it could show up

1103
01:06:46.080 --> 01:06:52.200
in when you said, no, you were reprimanded for that, um, even if you

1104
01:06:52.200 --> 01:06:56.920
were, you know, not supposed to say no, but maybe you misinterpret something,

1105
01:06:56.920 --> 01:07:00.840
but I feel like it might be something where you did say no, or you wanted to

1106
01:07:00.840 --> 01:07:06.360
say no, and you got reprimanded or, um, you know, maybe mistreated

1107
01:07:06.360 --> 01:07:07.960
for saying no in some way.

1108
01:07:08.520 --> 01:07:11.520
And that might, might be something from childhood.

1109
01:07:11.520 --> 01:07:13.280
It could even been, you know, recent.

1110
01:07:15.080 --> 01:07:15.680
Uh, let's see.

1111
01:07:15.680 --> 01:07:17.000
Evangeline says, Bethany Cooper.

1112
01:07:17.000 --> 01:07:19.920
I have a girlfriend who enjoys sharing happy moments of life with me.

1113
01:07:19.920 --> 01:07:24.440
However, I feel frustrated because my friend shares without considering my

1114
01:07:24.440 --> 01:07:26.320
emotional, my current emotional state.

1115
01:07:26.800 --> 01:07:29.680
I wish she would ask me first before sharing any wisdom on

1116
01:07:29.680 --> 01:07:31.160
how to navigate this situation.

1117
01:07:31.720 --> 01:07:37.520
So I would ask you first to like, okay, let's see, what is that situation?

1118
01:07:37.520 --> 01:07:39.000
What's that tender spot for you?

1119
01:07:39.320 --> 01:07:42.960
Is there an area of her life that she's walking in blessing?

1120
01:07:42.960 --> 01:07:48.040
And in a sense, maybe you're, you're not walking in that same blessing right now.

1121
01:07:48.520 --> 01:07:49.840
Um, hi iPhone.

1122
01:07:49.840 --> 01:07:51.200
I'm not sure what your name is.

1123
01:07:51.200 --> 01:07:52.680
I'm sorry, but it just says iPhone.

1124
01:07:52.680 --> 01:07:55.320
I can put you in a breakout room so you can chat with the ladies.

1125
01:07:55.600 --> 01:08:00.120
They're talking about, is there any area in your life where.

1126
01:08:00.720 --> 01:08:05.280
Um, you have been blaming God and what is an area you need God

1127
01:08:05.280 --> 01:08:07.000
to restore something in your life.

1128
01:08:07.000 --> 01:08:08.520
So go ahead and click to join that.

1129
01:08:10.360 --> 01:08:12.960
Um, and you can jump in there if you'd like.

1130
01:08:14.040 --> 01:08:15.320
All right, let's see.

1131
01:08:15.320 --> 01:08:16.960
I was saying about Evangeline.

1132
01:08:16.960 --> 01:08:18.120
Um, yeah.

1133
01:08:18.120 --> 01:08:24.880
So I think the biggest thing is, um, really asking yourself, what is the

1134
01:08:24.880 --> 01:08:29.200
tender spot in your heart that when she is trying to share and maybe she's

1135
01:08:29.200 --> 01:08:37.000
excited, um, and you're, you're walking in brokenness or a very low hope meter,

1136
01:08:37.000 --> 01:08:38.800
maybe of hopelessness in that area.

1137
01:08:38.800 --> 01:08:40.800
And so it's hard to celebrate your friend.

1138
01:08:41.120 --> 01:08:47.720
So an example that comes to mind is before I met Brian, my now husband.

1139
01:08:48.800 --> 01:08:51.399
Um, I was already on the heartwork journey.

1140
01:08:52.279 --> 01:08:55.880
I was doing all the work and a good friend of mine.

1141
01:08:55.880 --> 01:08:59.760
And, you know, she did a lot of healing stuff too, but not nearly as an, you

1142
01:08:59.760 --> 01:09:05.000
know, intense and, and, you know, developed as this, um, she ended up

1143
01:09:05.000 --> 01:09:10.600
meeting a guy and they hit it off and got engaged long before I even met my guy.

1144
01:09:10.600 --> 01:09:13.800
And I just remember thinking like, God, is this some kind of joke?

1145
01:09:14.279 --> 01:09:18.399
Uh, and she also, I know someone in here mentioned that, uh, Crystal, I think that.

1146
01:09:18.880 --> 01:09:21.800
Uh, that lady asked her to be in her wedding, but, uh, she also

1147
01:09:21.800 --> 01:09:23.000
asked me to be in her wedding.

1148
01:09:23.439 --> 01:09:28.840
And, um, you know, I had to really work through what was in my own heart.

1149
01:09:29.479 --> 01:09:34.240
And I'm not saying this is the case for you, Evangeline, but I had jealousy.

1150
01:09:34.479 --> 01:09:35.120
I did.

1151
01:09:35.120 --> 01:09:36.760
I had jealousy in my heart.

1152
01:09:37.160 --> 01:09:40.439
I wanted what she had and I wanted it now.

1153
01:09:40.439 --> 01:09:45.240
And I was mad that I didn't have it yet and it turned into jealousy.

1154
01:09:45.319 --> 01:09:47.960
And so I had to really work on that stuff in my own heart.

1155
01:09:47.960 --> 01:09:51.000
And, and, and one of the things that I did is I actually started

1156
01:09:51.000 --> 01:09:53.439
praying blessing more blessing over her.

1157
01:09:53.800 --> 01:09:58.120
But I also do think it's okay to tell your friend, Hey, I'm really

1158
01:09:58.120 --> 01:10:00.000
struggling in this area right now.

1159
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:03.300
And sometimes I want to celebrate with you.

1160
01:10:03.540 --> 01:10:06.280
I want to, you know, be joyful with you, but I'm just really

1161
01:10:06.280 --> 01:10:09.420
struggling when you, when you share, but I would really ask

1162
01:10:09.420 --> 01:10:14.140
the Holy spirit before you have that conversation because, um,

1163
01:10:14.900 --> 01:10:17.740
you want to make sure you convey it in a way that she doesn't

1164
01:10:17.740 --> 01:10:24.120
feel, you know, like broken and hurt, um, because she's just

1165
01:10:24.120 --> 01:10:26.460
trying to share about the joy in her life.

1166
01:10:26.840 --> 01:10:31.000
Um, but maybe God will give her wisdom on maybe other places that

1167
01:10:31.000 --> 01:10:33.840
she can share those things right now in this season and not that

1168
01:10:33.840 --> 01:10:36.800
she can't share other parts of her life with you, but maybe

1169
01:10:36.800 --> 01:10:38.280
just not those parts right now.

1170
01:10:38.860 --> 01:10:40.620
So I think it's a, it's a both end.

1171
01:10:40.680 --> 01:10:41.220
Okay.

1172
01:10:42.000 --> 01:10:42.420
All right.

1173
01:10:42.420 --> 01:10:42.980
Let's see.

1174
01:10:43.000 --> 01:10:46.780
Lydia says, yes, I've been blaming God for me not being married.

1175
01:10:46.780 --> 01:10:49.580
I believe he doesn't want me married because I feel like he

1176
01:10:49.580 --> 01:10:52.380
cuts off my relationships and have them marry someone else.

1177
01:10:52.660 --> 01:10:55.220
So I feel like God doesn't want me to be married.

1178
01:10:55.400 --> 01:10:58.480
So we know that's a lie right now.

1179
01:10:58.480 --> 01:10:59.940
You're believing that lie.

1180
01:10:59.940 --> 01:11:02.480
And so I would encourage you to come out of alignment

1181
01:11:02.480 --> 01:11:03.400
tonight with that lie.

1182
01:11:03.400 --> 01:11:07.080
Even if you don't fully believe the flip side of that, just

1183
01:11:07.080 --> 01:11:09.840
choosing to come out of alignment, like you might even

1184
01:11:09.840 --> 01:11:12.880
need to write on a paper, write this out, what you said to me.

1185
01:11:13.520 --> 01:11:18.400
And how you feel and like Ross it out and say, I am coming out

1186
01:11:18.400 --> 01:11:20.680
of alignment with this lie tonight.

1187
01:11:21.040 --> 01:11:24.120
God, I pray that you would bring me the truth, help me to see the

1188
01:11:24.120 --> 01:11:27.300
truth, help me to see the blessings that you want to give me.

1189
01:11:27.300 --> 01:11:29.820
Help me to see you as a good father.

1190
01:11:29.820 --> 01:11:33.820
Who's excited to give me surprises and blessing, and also

1191
01:11:33.820 --> 01:11:35.660
help me to get to the root.

1192
01:11:36.000 --> 01:11:41.820
When is the first time I believed God that you were a taker and

1193
01:11:41.820 --> 01:11:46.100
that I blamed you for things that I don't have in my life and

1194
01:11:46.100 --> 01:11:49.220
just see what comes up and allow the Lord to help you unpack

1195
01:11:49.220 --> 01:11:53.620
that and step into healing a little bit more this week in that area.

1196
01:11:54.080 --> 01:11:57.760
And remember healing happens in layers, ladies.

1197
01:11:57.760 --> 01:12:01.240
Sometimes you're, you're making progress, but you might not have

1198
01:12:01.240 --> 01:12:05.120
the complete breakthrough, but just keep walking and keep going

1199
01:12:05.120 --> 01:12:09.760
and keep praying and surrendering and, and, uh, you know, walking

1200
01:12:09.760 --> 01:12:12.360
in and choosing forgiveness and all of those things, and it

1201
01:12:12.360 --> 01:12:13.560
will make a difference.

1202
01:12:13.560 --> 01:12:16.680
Charlotte says I'm growing and no longer doing this, but I've

1203
01:12:16.680 --> 01:12:19.520
definitely blamed God for still being single because so many

1204
01:12:19.520 --> 01:12:23.260
times I've had guys come into my life that I'm attracted to.

1205
01:12:23.260 --> 01:12:25.200
But then they ended for some reason.

1206
01:12:25.720 --> 01:12:30.280
And every day that that has been attracted to me, I've

1207
01:12:30.280 --> 01:12:31.360
not been attracted to.

1208
01:12:31.400 --> 01:12:33.880
I think maybe you're saying guy there, every guy that you've

1209
01:12:33.880 --> 01:12:36.680
been, has been attracted to you, you've not been attracted to.

1210
01:12:37.040 --> 01:12:39.520
So when you said the thing about dangling the carrot, that

1211
01:12:39.520 --> 01:12:41.080
definitely resonated with me.

1212
01:12:41.080 --> 01:12:43.000
Thank you so much for sharing.

1213
01:12:43.520 --> 01:12:46.440
I'm so glad that you opened up about that, Charlotte, we're

1214
01:12:46.440 --> 01:12:48.000
going to be praying for you about that.

1215
01:12:48.320 --> 01:12:52.080
I would encourage you also, um, just kind of follow what I, what

1216
01:12:52.100 --> 01:12:56.380
I shared with, um, Lydia about writing down kind of these

1217
01:12:56.380 --> 01:12:59.700
lies, even if you, you're not currently blaming the Lord, but

1218
01:12:59.700 --> 01:13:03.220
just this still this belief that God dangles the carrot in front

1219
01:13:03.220 --> 01:13:06.900
of you or whatever, and just put an X through that and just say

1220
01:13:07.140 --> 01:13:09.140
tonight, I come out of agreement with that lie.

1221
01:13:09.180 --> 01:13:12.460
Lord, I know that you have actually, if y'all can start to

1222
01:13:12.460 --> 01:13:15.180
picture a gift presents, you know, Christmas, lots of

1223
01:13:15.180 --> 01:13:17.180
presents, birthdays, whatever.

1224
01:13:17.560 --> 01:13:22.040
Um, if you can imagine a gift that's already wrapped and

1225
01:13:22.040 --> 01:13:26.720
waiting for you, that's who our father is and he's not going to

1226
01:13:26.720 --> 01:13:28.200
jerk that gift away.

1227
01:13:28.600 --> 01:13:32.600
He's just waiting to give it to you at the right time when he

1228
01:13:32.600 --> 01:13:34.100
knows that you're ready to handle it.

1229
01:13:34.640 --> 01:13:37.480
And, you know, sometimes that's the tough thing for us to

1230
01:13:37.480 --> 01:13:38.120
understand.

1231
01:13:38.760 --> 01:13:42.920
Um, when I was dating a couple, uh, this one guy in particular,

1232
01:13:42.920 --> 01:13:47.860
uh, months before I met my now husband, I thought I was ready

1233
01:13:47.860 --> 01:13:48.300
then.

1234
01:13:48.340 --> 01:13:53.140
And, um, man, I'm so glad I had those extra few, few months to

1235
01:13:53.140 --> 01:13:56.540
keep growing and keep, um, believing and stepping into

1236
01:13:56.540 --> 01:14:00.940
faith because by the time I met my now husband completely, I

1237
01:14:00.940 --> 01:14:02.120
mean, I was completely different.

1238
01:14:02.140 --> 01:14:05.900
I was completely different in five months time from how I

1239
01:14:05.900 --> 01:14:10.020
thought, you know, the way I thought I was ready before I

1240
01:14:10.020 --> 01:14:11.700
ladies, everybody's coming back.

1241
01:14:11.700 --> 01:14:13.600
Be sure to mute yourself.

1242
01:14:14.120 --> 01:14:15.080
Welcome back.

1243
01:14:16.400 --> 01:14:17.800
Almost everybody back.

1244
01:14:17.880 --> 01:14:19.840
They'll be here in just a second.

1245
01:14:25.600 --> 01:14:26.360
All right.

1246
01:14:26.400 --> 01:14:29.120
I think everybody should be back now.

1247
01:14:30.080 --> 01:14:30.720
Here we go.

1248
01:14:33.120 --> 01:14:33.560
Okay.

1249
01:14:34.200 --> 01:14:35.160
I think we have everybody.

1250
01:14:36.040 --> 01:14:36.480
All right.

1251
01:14:36.480 --> 01:14:38.480
Who is willing to share with the whole group?

1252
01:14:38.520 --> 01:14:41.400
What you shared in your private breakout?

1253
01:14:42.320 --> 01:14:44.240
Oh, awesome.

1254
01:14:44.240 --> 01:14:46.440
Bussolami.

1255
01:14:46.440 --> 01:14:47.440
Did I say it?

1256
01:14:47.440 --> 01:14:48.840
Ah, yeah.

1257
01:14:48.840 --> 01:14:52.440
I've been trying for weeks on this.

1258
01:14:52.440 --> 01:14:55.640
A million dollars in my account.

1259
01:14:55.640 --> 01:14:59.840
Good evening.

1260
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:06.320
Um so I shared in my group that um I don't think there was ever a time that I really blamed God

1261
01:15:06.960 --> 01:15:13.760
for things that happened to me and I said that I think that was largely related to how I grew

1262
01:15:13.760 --> 01:15:22.560
up um my culture um there's a strong belief that um Jesus um God is unquestionable right

1263
01:15:23.120 --> 01:15:27.360
and they even take it as far as you know what you can't just ask God questions things happen

1264
01:15:27.360 --> 01:15:35.280
and that's it um which that also I feel like is a lie but it but growing up that gave me like um

1265
01:15:35.280 --> 01:15:43.680
a strong a strong foundation right on on on how to approach God like if things go wrong

1266
01:15:44.640 --> 01:15:51.760
it's not it's not God that is to be blamed it's probably you know on sin forces, witches,

1267
01:15:51.760 --> 01:15:59.680
wizards or yourself but definitely not God but um when I started growing in Christ I started

1268
01:15:59.680 --> 01:16:06.160
listening to um Andrew Womack and stuff like that then I got the real image of God knowing that

1269
01:16:06.160 --> 01:16:15.840
truly God is not to be blamed but now um I got the I got the um I got the other side of I can

1270
01:16:15.840 --> 01:16:22.960
actually ask God questions when things go wrong in my life to ask him okay that what did I do wrong

1271
01:16:23.520 --> 01:16:29.360
was there something I needed to do that I didn't do was there when I needed to position myself

1272
01:16:29.360 --> 01:16:35.280
and that really helped me and I also shared the fact that okay I was I was abused at the

1273
01:16:35.280 --> 01:16:40.560
age of five but even at that when I come online and I see people say things like oh

1274
01:16:41.520 --> 01:16:49.360
somebody died of cancer where was God and all that it has never occurred to my to me ever that

1275
01:16:49.360 --> 01:16:54.800
oh you were abused as a child where was God of course it was a dead on the throne so and I and

1276
01:16:54.800 --> 01:17:02.480
I told them that I I don't take that um as something that I'm just like that no I see it as

1277
01:17:03.520 --> 01:17:09.440
even when I didn't know when I didn't have an answer to read I just saw it as the grace of God

1278
01:17:09.920 --> 01:17:16.400
just protected my heart towards him to just know that it's not his fault and even though I could

1279
01:17:16.400 --> 01:17:23.440
not place my fingers on it even though I could not um handle it right God just protected my mind

1280
01:17:23.440 --> 01:17:31.840
just to know that you know what I got you and for you and I'm never against you and I I also shared

1281
01:17:31.840 --> 01:17:38.960
at the end um that I think the only time I probably would have felt like I felt like oh

1282
01:17:38.960 --> 01:17:46.000
God why was when I was interested in a guy that seems to be interested in me and I was just

1283
01:17:46.000 --> 01:17:54.720
praying about him and God said no and I was like oh my God why and but monthly months later right

1284
01:17:55.520 --> 01:18:02.240
thank God that I didn't go into that relationship because they know he said and I'm just like okay

1285
01:18:02.240 --> 01:18:07.760
I'm not happy with this decision that you made for me but I'm just gonna go with it regardless

1286
01:18:07.760 --> 01:18:13.280
right because you are God you're my father and you know best but I'm not happy I just told God

1287
01:18:13.280 --> 01:18:17.600
I know I'm just letting you know I'm not happy with it but I'm just gonna go ahead with it

1288
01:18:17.600 --> 01:18:23.360
but thank God months later I realized why he said no and I went back to him and I said thank you

1289
01:18:23.360 --> 01:18:28.720
thank you for watching out for me you really you really do know best yeah so yeah that's what I

1290
01:18:28.720 --> 01:18:34.880
said thank you yes that's so good yeah there's so many good things in there you all let's let's

1291
01:18:34.880 --> 01:18:40.480
just kind of think about the way you're different our different cultures you know things that we

1292
01:18:40.480 --> 01:18:47.120
learn even in culture in society and the messages that society society is conveying now this isn't

1293
01:18:47.120 --> 01:18:52.480
about blaming God but some of you all you know even the shows that you watch keep telling you

1294
01:18:52.480 --> 01:19:00.160
how dumb men are and that men you know aren't leaders and they're just kind of they don't lead

1295
01:19:00.160 --> 01:19:04.320
the home and the kids can just boss them around like a majority of our tv shows that's what they

1296
01:19:04.320 --> 01:19:10.160
are now so for whatever that's worth we need to be careful what we're watching and what's feeding

1297
01:19:10.160 --> 01:19:16.080
our minds about men don't know why I needed to say that but that just came up in my spirit so

1298
01:19:16.080 --> 01:19:22.320
I'm just going to trust the Lord that's for somebody okay uh I think it's I think I worked

1299
01:19:22.320 --> 01:19:31.760
on this last week a little bit is it kritika kritika okay okay okay uh yeah so um what okay

1300
01:19:31.840 --> 01:19:37.840
so for me uh last year like I have a decent job and everything and I had like good savings and I

1301
01:19:37.840 --> 01:19:43.120
was helping my parents with building a new house because when we were kids they spent everything

1302
01:19:43.120 --> 01:19:48.800
on our education and stuff so I wanted to give back and what happened is I fell I was kind of

1303
01:19:48.800 --> 01:19:54.320
a victim to a big scam and I ended up losing so much money and then I have this huge debt on me

1304
01:19:54.320 --> 01:19:59.840
and so I I do blame God for that and after like when I used

1305
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:06.320
cry and i was in a very bad place i would ask god like what do i do and on my youtube it like i

1306
01:20:06.320 --> 01:20:12.720
would see these videos where jesus has jesus asks a little boy for a little teddy bear and in return

1307
01:20:12.720 --> 01:20:18.880
he's going to give him a big teddy bear and i'm like okay like you took the little teddy bear from

1308
01:20:18.880 --> 01:20:24.880
me where is my big teddy bear like i know uh god was trying to show me like certain patterns and

1309
01:20:24.880 --> 01:20:31.520
limiting beliefs i had but then um and i i believe something good is going to happen but i know deep

1310
01:20:31.520 --> 01:20:38.720
down every day i blame god for my current situation and secondly my relationships it's like

1311
01:20:38.720 --> 01:20:45.520
all of my friends they are moving forward having babies planning babies getting get uh like getting

1312
01:20:45.520 --> 01:20:52.080
new houses and stuff and here i am struggling financially and like you know downgrading my

1313
01:20:52.080 --> 01:20:58.800
lifestyle trying to get through my life every day and you know also like just navigating at this

1314
01:20:58.800 --> 01:21:04.000
point and i'm trying to be grateful for everything even the job market and stuff in tech it's like

1315
01:21:04.000 --> 01:21:08.880
it's difficult i'm grateful for my job and i'm grateful for still like whatever i have i still

1316
01:21:08.880 --> 01:21:17.120
have faith but i i deeply blame god for my current situation thank you for sharing in your honesty

1317
01:21:17.440 --> 01:21:25.520
y'all this is real real stuff right so here's the thing um the enemy is the one that comes to kill

1318
01:21:25.520 --> 01:21:31.040
steal and destroy but god jesus christ is the one who came to give us life and give it to us

1319
01:21:31.040 --> 01:21:36.080
more abundantly the enemy wants you to think that god's the one that took from you and didn't

1320
01:21:36.080 --> 01:21:46.560
protect you um the the tricky part here is you all is that um even when we're scammed on some

1321
01:21:46.560 --> 01:21:54.640
level we we still made decisions right and so unfortunately what can happen and i've done this

1322
01:21:54.640 --> 01:22:02.800
before um i was not regarding money but i was scammed by a lady um way back years ago when i

1323
01:22:02.800 --> 01:22:08.320
first tried doing online ministry i had this healing heart hearts retreat it was awesome

1324
01:22:08.880 --> 01:22:17.440
but i attracted this woman that was not an honest person and uh the short version is she told me

1325
01:22:17.440 --> 01:22:23.840
she was pregnant she sent me pictures that she was pregnant the whole nine yards um and she got

1326
01:22:23.840 --> 01:22:28.160
pregnant through a really bad circumstance and wanted to give this baby up for adoption this is

1327
01:22:28.160 --> 01:22:34.640
i was i was coaching this woman like literally i believed her photos to show it i introduced her

1328
01:22:34.640 --> 01:22:41.120
to friends of mine that wanted to have a baby she went to lunch with them she looked pregnant

1329
01:22:41.120 --> 01:22:46.000
they started talking to her about adopting her baby y'all can you guess where this is going

1330
01:22:47.040 --> 01:22:53.840
the lady was not pregnant ever and not only that but she sent me these photos this one day

1331
01:22:54.560 --> 01:22:59.280
saying that she lost her baby and she sent me a picture of a baby that died to my phone

1332
01:23:01.040 --> 01:23:11.040
y'all i was wrecked when i found out she lied wrecked but here's the thing full disclosure

1333
01:23:11.040 --> 01:23:15.200
there were several times along that journey that i felt like the holy spirit was telling

1334
01:23:15.200 --> 01:23:23.040
me something was up with her and i just kept going because i'm such a giver and i want to

1335
01:23:23.040 --> 01:23:30.320
believe the best in everybody and i didn't want her to not be helped i wanted to help her i wanted

1336
01:23:30.320 --> 01:23:36.480
to save her i wanted you know and i wasn't trying to intentionally do that but i let some of that

1337
01:23:36.480 --> 01:23:43.200
stuff cloud my judgment okay so totally different situation from you but i always try to use myself

1338
01:23:43.200 --> 01:23:47.520
as an example because that feels better than saying hey you should have maybe done this

1339
01:23:47.600 --> 01:23:55.360
different right so maybe just be willing to ask yourself were there any ways that you could have

1340
01:23:55.360 --> 01:24:01.440
made a different decision and then you could have ended up in a different financial situation

1341
01:24:02.000 --> 01:24:09.200
and i know that can be so hard to to own kind of our side of the street of things but that's

1342
01:24:09.200 --> 01:24:16.160
what's going to help you the most um because here's the thing when you forgive god i think

1343
01:24:16.160 --> 01:24:20.800
what's going to happen because that's what needs to happen even though god didn't do that to you

1344
01:24:20.800 --> 01:24:27.280
you need to forgive him and and let that go and when you do i think it's going to catapult you

1345
01:24:27.280 --> 01:24:32.880
forward because right now i think all the things that you feel are stuck this is kind of one of the

1346
01:24:32.880 --> 01:24:38.560
roots of it and so as that heals i believe god's going to help accelerate you and move you forward

1347
01:24:38.560 --> 01:24:42.800
and that's going to look a whole lot of different ways it might not look the same in every area

1348
01:24:42.800 --> 01:24:48.240
right so financially it could look one way and your you know romantic relationship it could look

1349
01:24:48.240 --> 01:24:55.520
another way but just really allowing yourself um to let god come in and heal that and show you

1350
01:24:55.520 --> 01:24:59.840
that that is not who he is a little bit more every day so maybe not this

1351
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:03.560
big, huge leap that you have to take, but just every day, a little bit more

1352
01:25:03.560 --> 01:25:05.320
understanding that he is good.

1353
01:25:05.600 --> 01:25:11.040
And he was not the one that stole from you and that he, he is defending you.

1354
01:25:11.040 --> 01:25:13.680
And, and y'all, this is the thing too.

1355
01:25:14.080 --> 01:25:18.520
Some of y'all need to pray for restitution, not just restoration.

1356
01:25:18.800 --> 01:25:21.840
So we're going to be praying and believing for restitution of that

1357
01:25:21.840 --> 01:25:23.680
money back to you that was stolen.

1358
01:25:23.940 --> 01:25:24.440
Okay.

1359
01:25:24.440 --> 01:25:29.640
Um, I know it takes so much courage to share and hope that that was a

1360
01:25:29.640 --> 01:25:33.040
blessing to you, uh, tonight as well.

1361
01:25:34.200 --> 01:25:37.840
Um, yeah, so Carol just sent me a note.

1362
01:25:38.000 --> 01:25:41.400
Uh, she asked me, can you talk about the part of repentance and forgiving

1363
01:25:41.400 --> 01:25:42.840
ourselves in this process too?

1364
01:25:43.320 --> 01:25:47.800
So I'm not going to go too far into repentance tonight, just because that's

1365
01:25:47.800 --> 01:25:53.880
in one of our going to be in one of our sessions in the future, but, um, you

1366
01:25:53.880 --> 01:25:58.520
know, in that situation, again, I'll use myself as an ex an example because my

1367
01:25:58.520 --> 01:26:00.840
friends were hurt in that situation too.

1368
01:26:02.200 --> 01:26:06.280
And, um, and so I had to do a lot of forgiving myself for giving

1369
01:26:06.280 --> 01:26:08.960
that lady and letting that go.

1370
01:26:09.400 --> 01:26:12.240
Um, and so it's all a choice.

1371
01:26:12.520 --> 01:26:13.480
It's always a choice.

1372
01:26:13.480 --> 01:26:14.700
Confession is a choice.

1373
01:26:14.700 --> 01:26:16.080
Repentance is a choice.

1374
01:26:16.600 --> 01:26:21.160
Repentance is literally choosing to go in the other direction tends to be a

1375
01:26:21.160 --> 01:26:23.080
part that's connected with sin.

1376
01:26:23.480 --> 01:26:26.000
And the case that I'm talking about, I had to choose to

1377
01:26:26.000 --> 01:26:27.880
forgive forgiveness as a choice.

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And so forgiving yourself, forgiving God, um, you know, the forgiveness

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prayers, that's going to be one of your weeks, you all, but that worksheet,

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you can get that out now and start doing that and using that to help you process

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and pray, I have time probably for one more, I'm sorry, I'm not going to get

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to everybody that has their hands up.

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What I want to encourage you all to do.

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If you aren't able to share tonight, create a post in the group.

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Let me kind of give some feedback on that.

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Um, just cause we're getting at nine 28.

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So I see Jana next.

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I'm just going to go in order on my screen.

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Um, so Jana, go ahead and go.

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Hi.

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Um, I, I I'm busy working through this, but my, um, biggest.

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Yeah.

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Blaming God situation was, um, I have, I've always thought, you know, this

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whole I could, um, kiss dating goodbye scenario of my first husband.

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My first boyfriend would be my husband.

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My first kiss would be the one that I marry.

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I'll never go into relationship.

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If I don't think I can marry you and this whole courtship thing.

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And then at the age of 36, um, I met someone that I thought, okay,

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let's, let's give this a try.

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And after four months, actually from the beginning, I knew that this isn't

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working and this isn't my husband.

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And obviously we had our first guests and.

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Um, I had to deal with this a bit, this whole thing of, okay, God, um,

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am I disappointing you, but wait, what's going on here.

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And with that, I went into another relationship and, um, I always had

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this thing with God where I told him.

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I want two signs.

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If I get these two signs, then I know that this guy is my husband.

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So when the next guy that I really liked, um, I prayed a lot about it and.

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I got my two signs clearly like clear as day.

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The two signs was there and it's not obvious things.

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It was really things that was, um, yeah.

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And then this guy really shattered my heart.

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Um, and I don't blame God for this relationship, not working out.

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I think I blamed God because I gave my heart to this guy because I thought that

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God was in it, that God said, yes, this is him.

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And then I realized, but it's not obviously because he, yeah.

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Um, lost interest and things just escalated, but, um, I struggled for long.

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I'm going through the process and I have asked for forgiveness because I

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think I also played a role in this.

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Um, but I asked God, the thing that I'm struggling a bit to understand is.

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Was me asking for, for two signs.

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Was that the problem?

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Was that the truth that I need to learn that, um, in a relationship, God

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is not going to give me signs.

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Cause these two signs was when I was in school, high school.

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I asked God for these two signs.

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So I really have to work through a few things with God of was I.

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01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:07.280
wrong, but I blamed him. Yeah. This is really good. Okay. So this is going to maybe kind of

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ruffle some feathers, but I'm just going to tell you my honest gut is I don't think we need to ask

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01:30:12.640 --> 01:30:20.400
God for a bunch of signs. I don't, I think we need to be in community and we need to look at

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the fruit that that person displays. We need to consider is this person running after the Lord,

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the same way I am, do our lives align? I think, um, you know, and I out, I say this with a lot

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of caution, just trust me on this. Like I came, I'm a, I'm Pentecostal. You all, I love, you know,

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charismatic. Uh, I don't, I'm not huge on, you know, big denomination stuff. I think every

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denomination is amazing, uh, in its own way. And God never created those to begin with. But what

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I'm saying is that sometimes we can get caught up in the charismatic line of things that we

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have to have a sign and we have to have, you know, this confirmation after this confirmation,

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after this confirmation, and instead of learning how to just walk in wisdom. Okay. And I know that

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might sound harsh, but for me, again, I'll use myself as an example. I thought I had signs that

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that guy I dated for six years was going to be my next husband. But here's the thing, the Holy

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01:31:33.120 --> 01:31:42.880
spirit and the Lord were telling me he's not healthy. And I kept going. So did I have a sign

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or did my counterfeit identity? Tell me I had a sign. And here's the other thing I want you all

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01:31:49.600 --> 01:31:55.360
to consider. I don't want you to be afraid of this. Um, but I just want you guys to understand

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01:31:55.360 --> 01:32:04.640
the enemy is always working too. He prowls around like a roaring lion seeking who he can devour.

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And y'all know that like he hears when we pray, he hears what we speak out.

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Have we considered that he could bring that sign just something to think about. I'm not saying I

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know one way or the other. It's just something I think that we need to consider, especially if our

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01:32:27.520 --> 01:32:36.000
unhealed heart is the one that's leading us towards that thing. Okay. So when we heal,

1451
01:32:36.000 --> 01:32:41.360
when we heal, the more that we healed again, and what we teach in this community is you're

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01:32:41.360 --> 01:32:45.280
not just looking at, and this is huge. Okay. I'm just going to go after this for a minute.

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If y'all need to jump off, it's okay. I totally understand. But I think this is super important.

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01:32:51.920 --> 01:32:55.920
You know, Jackie talks a lot about, let's not just look at spiritual gifts ladies,

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01:32:56.480 --> 01:33:00.960
because that's where some of us get tripped up. The guy that I was in that relationship with,

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went to church every week, professing as a Christian, read his Bible, but he had no

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spiritual fruit. You all, he did not walk in the fruits of the spirit.

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That should have been my sign right there, but I was looking for other signs.

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Do you see what I'm saying? And that's where, when we, when we lean into what the book of Proverbs

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says, it'll tell us, how do you tell if someone's a fool or if they're wise, it'll tell us how to

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know if someone's good with their money. It'll tell us how to know if someone's loving.

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And so if you're looking for a sign or you're looking for direction, I would encourage you

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to spend a lot of time in Proverbs, to read Proverbs on a regular basis. Like what I already

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01:33:49.840 --> 01:33:55.520
said, stay in community. This community is here. We build it. God led Jackie and David to step out

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to do this. The team's gotten on board. We're all kind of moving in the same direction to create

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this space where we can run and walk with you all so that you have a safe community to help you,

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01:34:09.360 --> 01:34:16.000
hopefully make a healthier decision in the future. Now, whether or not people heed our,

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you know, counsel or not is up to them. We have someone right now, she's in phase three.

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She's not, we're trying to help her. And she's just, she's resisting the counsel that we're

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giving her. And so there, you can't force that on someone. And so we have to really ask ourselves,

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is there a reason that I needed or wanted a sign versus just letting God give us the wisdom

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that we needed to make the decision? Is it that we don't trust ourselves

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to make a wise decision? And maybe that's the case.

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where community is going to come in. You all, this is big. I know

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01:35:05.760 --> 01:35:10.440
kind of just unleashed a big old thing for you all to think about.

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And again, I'm not saying I've got this all figured out in the

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way I just said all that, but I do as soon as it, as soon as you

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started saying it, I thought, okay, Lord, we're going to go

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01:35:20.720 --> 01:35:23.560
here. We're going to, we're just going to, we're just going to

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encourage you to not be looking for signs and wonders regarding

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01:35:28.120 --> 01:35:33.600
your spirit mate, look for the fruit, trust wisdom, ask for

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01:35:33.600 --> 01:35:38.320
community to help you. And it will go well with you. Multitude

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01:35:38.320 --> 01:35:42.320
of counselors. It tells us in the Bible to make decisions with

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01:35:42.320 --> 01:35:46.080
the multitude of counselors, wise counselors is key there.

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Okay. So that kind of goes back to where we started in the

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beginning. Make sure you're careful who you're surrounding

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01:35:52.200 --> 01:35:57.440
yourself with. Do I believe 100% in the charismatic and believing

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01:35:57.440 --> 01:36:02.320
in signs and wonders? Yes, I do. Yes, I do. You all, I do. I

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believe for God to show up and do miraculous things. But I

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learned that I could not do that regarding my spirit mate. I

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couldn't. And I learned a lot through that. I learned to look

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at when the first date I had with Brian and the amount of

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peace that I felt. And I saw him being kind and good to

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everybody. That's what stood out to me the most on the first

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01:36:31.480 --> 01:36:35.960
date. He, he was not someone I typically would have swiped

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01:36:35.960 --> 01:36:40.720
right on you all, but he was incredible. And from day one, he

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01:36:40.720 --> 01:36:44.240
stood out to me. So that's what God showed me through some of

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that. So I hope this was helpful. I know that was kind of

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big. We got a lot to think about regarding that. Um, am I saying

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if you guys choose to do that, you know, it's not going to go

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01:36:53.720 --> 01:36:57.840
well with you. No, God's got you. Guess what you all, if we

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01:36:57.840 --> 01:37:01.720
make a mistake, God is big enough to get us back on track.

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He is. But let's try to lean into community and trust what

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God wants to do in the process. Okay. All right, we're at 938.

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I'm going to close this out. This is so good. I could keep

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going. But I know we can't. We'll see you guys in the group.

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Hope that you continue to lean into the healing that God is

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01:37:22.720 --> 01:37:26.880
doing revealing for healing. Remember any image, any thought

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just jot it down. Even if you don't fully understand it, just

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01:37:29.200 --> 01:37:32.480
ask God, ask him the questions. What does this, what does this

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01:37:32.480 --> 01:37:37.120
mean? What are you trying to show me? And he will. Father,

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thank you so much for your incredible grace. God, thank you

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01:37:40.880 --> 01:37:45.680
that even at times when we blame you, God, you have nothing but

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love in your eyes for us and your heart for us. And you

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01:37:49.160 --> 01:37:53.800
understand. Yes, Lord, your shoulders are big enough to

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carry it. And we thank you for extending mercy and grace to us.

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We thank you that you'll help us to walk in forgiveness towards

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other people, towards ourselves towards you. God help us to

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understand a little bit more tonight and in the days ahead

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01:38:08.680 --> 01:38:12.600
that you are good, that you're faithful, that you're kind, that

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you are love, that you are peace, that you are joy, God,

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and that you enable us and equip us to walk in all these things

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and attract healthy spirit mates that walk in these things. God,

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01:38:23.800 --> 01:38:29.600
we thank you for redeeming our timelines, bringing restoration

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and redemption in the areas where we've lost things. God, we

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01:38:32.960 --> 01:38:38.160
thank you for restitution in every area. God, where things

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01:38:38.160 --> 01:38:41.560
have been stolen and taken by the hand of the enemy and by his

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01:38:41.560 --> 01:38:45.360
schemes and his plots and his wickedness and his deceitfulness

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01:38:45.360 --> 01:38:49.840
using men that are that don't have hearts healed by you. God,

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we thank you for for helping us to get that stuff back. And then

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01:38:54.320 --> 01:38:57.840
some God that there's there's going to be double portion. And

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we thank you for blessing your daughters, your sons help us to

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see ourselves through your eyes help us to become more rooted

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and grounded in your love every single day. In Jesus name. God

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bless you all again. See you guys in the group. Love you

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01:39:13.840 --> 01:39:16.760
again. Thank you for the courage of everyone who shared tonight.

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Be blessed. Have a good night, everyone. Bye bye.