WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:06.240 Welcome to part three of my heart workshop, you made it here. 2 00:00:06.240 --> 00:00:08.880 This is going to be a really important part. 3 00:00:08.880 --> 00:00:13.000 And so we're starting to unpack those heart boxes and you should be feeling what I call 4 00:00:13.000 --> 00:00:14.960 that revealing for healing. 5 00:00:14.960 --> 00:00:19.200 Those aha moments that are just coming up and you're beginning to see things differently. 6 00:00:19.200 --> 00:00:22.880 You're beginning to see things that you have never seen before about yourself and about 7 00:00:22.880 --> 00:00:24.800 the patterns that you have. 8 00:00:24.800 --> 00:00:29.320 Now if you're not seeing anything, if you feel numb inside, if you feel shut down inside, 9 00:00:29.320 --> 00:00:34.360 I want to encourage you to go back all the way to the beginning and to start over. 10 00:00:34.360 --> 00:00:38.160 I know that seems like a bummer, but it's important that you give God permission to 11 00:00:38.160 --> 00:00:41.240 teach you and show you and heal you and grow you. 12 00:00:41.240 --> 00:00:45.360 Even revisit that permission slip because there's definitely things that should be coming 13 00:00:45.360 --> 00:00:46.680 up by now. 14 00:00:46.680 --> 00:00:48.600 And if they're not, we want to go back. 15 00:00:48.600 --> 00:00:53.360 We want to make sure that we are submitting to that supernatural surrender because you 16 00:00:53.360 --> 00:00:55.460 can't do this on your own. 17 00:00:55.460 --> 00:00:57.320 You're not here to do this on your own. 18 00:00:57.320 --> 00:01:00.800 You need divine assistance to help you unpack. 19 00:01:00.800 --> 00:01:04.720 And so we all have things in our hearts that are the enemies of abundance. 20 00:01:04.720 --> 00:01:05.720 All of us. 21 00:01:05.720 --> 00:01:08.680 If you're thinking, maybe I just don't have anything, let's just laugh at that. 22 00:01:08.680 --> 00:01:13.000 You definitely have something in your heart that is keeping you from the abundant life 23 00:01:13.000 --> 00:01:14.680 that God has for you. 24 00:01:14.680 --> 00:01:18.980 I remember once I was in the front of this church and they had this area where people 25 00:01:18.980 --> 00:01:23.400 went for worship and I was having a really hard time in life. 26 00:01:23.400 --> 00:01:25.080 I was, I had so many difficulties. 27 00:01:25.080 --> 00:01:30.040 I had more problems than a math book and I really wanted God to get rid of my problems. 28 00:01:30.040 --> 00:01:31.040 I did. 29 00:01:31.040 --> 00:01:32.560 I want him to fix those things. 30 00:01:32.560 --> 00:01:37.880 And I saw this painter that was painting this painting and it was a beautiful painting of 31 00:01:37.880 --> 00:01:38.880 a lion. 32 00:01:38.880 --> 00:01:41.800 And I said, God, that's what I want you to do. 33 00:01:41.800 --> 00:01:47.080 I want you to show up with the lion of Judah and I want you to just destroy all of my enemies, 34 00:01:47.080 --> 00:01:48.880 all of my problems. 35 00:01:48.880 --> 00:01:51.160 And I'll never forget what God said back to me. 36 00:01:51.160 --> 00:01:53.720 He said, Oh, he said, really? 37 00:01:53.760 --> 00:01:59.160 I would love to do that for you, Jackie, but you're going to have to get out of the way. 38 00:01:59.160 --> 00:02:00.960 You're going to have to get out of the way. 39 00:02:00.960 --> 00:02:03.680 Now let's just pause there for a moment. 40 00:02:03.680 --> 00:02:04.680 What? 41 00:02:04.680 --> 00:02:07.240 Um, am I misunderstanding you God? 42 00:02:07.240 --> 00:02:08.240 Come again. 43 00:02:08.240 --> 00:02:09.240 What are you saying? 44 00:02:09.240 --> 00:02:12.960 He said, I would love to destroy your enemies, but you're protecting them. 45 00:02:12.960 --> 00:02:13.960 You're in the way. 46 00:02:13.960 --> 00:02:16.720 And if you'll step aside, I'll be happy to take them out for you. 47 00:02:16.720 --> 00:02:18.960 And I was like, what do you mean by that God? 48 00:02:18.960 --> 00:02:23.700 And he said, they're in your heart and you're making excuses for them. 49 00:02:23.700 --> 00:02:25.140 You're standing in between me and them. 50 00:02:25.140 --> 00:02:27.820 You're harboring fugitives in your heart. 51 00:02:27.820 --> 00:02:30.660 So remember, we can't kick fear out and just rent it a room in the basement. 52 00:02:30.660 --> 00:02:32.700 We have to evict it. 53 00:02:32.700 --> 00:02:33.700 We have to. 54 00:02:33.700 --> 00:02:34.700 And that's what I was doing. 55 00:02:34.700 --> 00:02:38.020 I was allowing it to stay just in different areas of my life. 56 00:02:38.020 --> 00:02:41.820 I was confessing and declaring, and I was, you know, standing on the word of God and 57 00:02:41.820 --> 00:02:45.980 all those different churchy and religious type of activities that we do. 58 00:02:45.980 --> 00:02:50.940 But I was also allowing all kinds of lies and stinking thinking and negativity and whining 59 00:02:50.940 --> 00:02:51.940 and complaining. 60 00:02:52.180 --> 00:02:54.140 I had embraced victimhood. 61 00:02:54.140 --> 00:02:59.860 I had in so many areas of my life, and it was those squatters in my heart, that shame 62 00:02:59.860 --> 00:03:00.860 and anxiety. 63 00:03:00.860 --> 00:03:06.500 My heart had become a refuge for rejection and a sanctuary for shame and an asylum for 64 00:03:06.500 --> 00:03:07.500 addiction. 65 00:03:07.500 --> 00:03:12.100 I think oftentimes we think that addictions are just drugs and alcohol, but they're not. 66 00:03:12.100 --> 00:03:13.380 We're addicted to complaining. 67 00:03:13.380 --> 00:03:14.900 We're addicted to negative thinking. 68 00:03:14.900 --> 00:03:17.580 We're always waiting for the other shoe to drop. 69 00:03:17.580 --> 00:03:20.460 And maybe that's something that was handed down from your family. 70 00:03:20.460 --> 00:03:25.820 A lot of times these squatters in our heart that we're protecting are ideas that have 71 00:03:25.820 --> 00:03:32.460 come from our family, things that we know are not leading us to abundant life, but at 72 00:03:32.460 --> 00:03:38.780 the same time, we also don't know how to get rid of them because they're mantras and vows 73 00:03:38.780 --> 00:03:40.740 and inherited trauma. 74 00:03:40.740 --> 00:03:45.780 And so whatever that thing is that's keeping you from feeling successful, whatever that 75 00:03:45.860 --> 00:03:49.780 thing is that you're telling yourself, like, I'm too old. 76 00:03:49.780 --> 00:03:50.780 I failed. 77 00:03:50.780 --> 00:03:52.780 I'm not going to get any more chances. 78 00:03:52.780 --> 00:03:58.100 Those are all the fugitives that we're harboring in our hearts. 79 00:03:58.100 --> 00:04:00.100 And so we have to do things differently. 80 00:04:00.100 --> 00:04:02.900 We have to do things differently than the people that came before us. 81 00:04:02.900 --> 00:04:07.260 Now, this doesn't mean that your family is a bunch of outlaws or crazy people. 82 00:04:07.260 --> 00:04:12.780 It just means that we want to have a more abundant life than anybody who's come before 83 00:04:12.780 --> 00:04:13.780 us. 84 00:04:13.780 --> 00:04:19.579 And we don't want to live our lives lesser than when we know we can live it greater than, 85 00:04:19.579 --> 00:04:22.720 you know, maybe you're the black sheep of your family because you went to college. 86 00:04:22.720 --> 00:04:24.920 You did things differently than other people. 87 00:04:24.920 --> 00:04:29.300 Maybe you're the white sheep of your family because you're following after Jesus and no 88 00:04:29.300 --> 00:04:31.180 one else in your family is a Christian. 89 00:04:31.180 --> 00:04:35.020 Maybe you're a first generation Christian in your family and you're thinking, yeah, 90 00:04:35.020 --> 00:04:36.020 you know what? 91 00:04:36.020 --> 00:04:37.460 I'm not going to turn out like them. 92 00:04:37.460 --> 00:04:39.400 I'm not going to have babies out of wedlock. 93 00:04:39.400 --> 00:04:41.620 I'm not going to be an addict. 94 00:04:41.940 --> 00:04:43.740 I'm not going to drink. 95 00:04:43.740 --> 00:04:45.760 People always ask me, Jackie, why don't you drink? 96 00:04:45.760 --> 00:04:47.780 Because I come from a long line of alcoholics. 97 00:04:47.780 --> 00:04:48.780 A long line. 98 00:04:48.780 --> 00:04:51.780 Do I think that means that I'm going to become an alcoholic? 99 00:04:51.780 --> 00:04:52.780 No. 100 00:04:52.780 --> 00:04:57.620 But when I was able to get rid of the lies that you have to drink to have a good time, 101 00:04:57.620 --> 00:05:00.020 I heard God say to me, hey, that's not right. 102 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:04.960 for you. That's not right for your life. So you don't really need to mess with that. And I'm okay 103 00:05:04.960 --> 00:05:10.080 with that. So I told you, and I'm going to keep telling you that I believe that you're Kinsmen 104 00:05:10.080 --> 00:05:15.920 Redeemers. I believe that whatever's been running in your family line, poverty, addiction, just 105 00:05:15.920 --> 00:05:22.000 negative mental attitude, that it can run out with you. It can. You don't have to follow after the 106 00:05:22.000 --> 00:05:27.680 same patterns of the people that have come before you. Whether it's atheism, whether you're the 107 00:05:27.680 --> 00:05:33.520 black sheep or the white sheep of your family, no matter what it is that is not leading to abundant 108 00:05:33.520 --> 00:05:38.720 life, you do not have to follow in that path. And so it's time for us to come out of agreement 109 00:05:38.720 --> 00:05:43.200 with all of these things. And so you can see that we're harboring them and we're actually 110 00:05:43.200 --> 00:05:46.800 protecting them because a lot of times we don't even know they're bad. We don't even know that 111 00:05:46.800 --> 00:05:50.720 they're bad things. We don't know that they're things that are not leading to abundant life. 112 00:05:51.680 --> 00:05:56.160 You know, as your heart begins to unpack and those things begin to come to the surface, 113 00:05:56.160 --> 00:06:00.080 you might say, I don't even know what this is. I've never even seen this thing before. 114 00:06:01.360 --> 00:06:06.160 Have you ever helped a family or a friend, a family member or friend? Have you ever helped 115 00:06:06.160 --> 00:06:10.160 them unpack? And they're just like, you're like, Hey, where does this go? And they're like, Oh, 116 00:06:10.160 --> 00:06:13.680 I don't even know what that is. I don't even know where that's come from. And so you're going to 117 00:06:13.680 --> 00:06:17.920 begin to see a lot of that. As we have this revealing for healing, there's going to be what 118 00:06:17.920 --> 00:06:23.760 I call the knowns and the unknowns. The knowns are things that you know happened. And the unknowns 119 00:06:23.760 --> 00:06:27.920 are things that you're like, how did that even get in my box? Does that even belong to me? 120 00:06:27.920 --> 00:06:32.080 Because sometimes it's a generational thing, like what I'm talking about. Sometimes it's 121 00:06:32.080 --> 00:06:35.520 something that happened to you, but sometimes it's something that happened to your mother or 122 00:06:35.520 --> 00:06:39.520 your grandmother or your great grandmother or your father or your grandfather or your great 123 00:06:39.520 --> 00:06:43.840 grandfather, because those are lies that have been handed down for generations. You know, 124 00:06:43.840 --> 00:06:48.240 maybe you were never sexually molested, but someone in your family was. And so that same 125 00:06:48.720 --> 00:06:55.200 a lie that's been handed down of I'm not good enough, or I'm damaged goods that you feel that 126 00:06:55.200 --> 00:07:00.480 in your heart, but there's really no reason to feel that way. So a lot of people I've been working 127 00:07:00.480 --> 00:07:05.360 with a lot of students and a lot of students say, Hey, did I just forget about this? Did I repress 128 00:07:05.360 --> 00:07:10.480 it? Because the stuff that's coming up, they don't remember it ever happening to them. 129 00:07:10.480 --> 00:07:16.400 They don't remember the type of rejection or the shame or whatever it is that's coming up. 130 00:07:16.400 --> 00:07:21.360 That doesn't seem attached to a memory in their lives. And so maybe it happened in your generation 131 00:07:21.360 --> 00:07:28.560 as God is showing you that it's holding you back. It was passed down as a mindset to you from the 132 00:07:28.560 --> 00:07:33.040 people that have come before you. And now you're living in the repercussions of it. You're living 133 00:07:33.040 --> 00:07:37.600 in the shame of it, but you don't have to live in the shame of it anymore. And so I really want to 134 00:07:37.600 --> 00:07:41.840 encourage you. I feel like this is really for somebody that you're going to be unpacking these 135 00:07:41.840 --> 00:07:45.840 boxes and you're going to see things that you don't recognize and you don't expect. And you're 136 00:07:45.840 --> 00:07:51.520 going to wonder, Hey, is this even part of something God wants to heal in me? I really want to encourage 137 00:07:51.520 --> 00:07:56.720 you to bring that to God and say, Hey, where did this come from? Show me this. Show me where this 138 00:07:56.720 --> 00:08:01.360 comes from. Show me where this root is. And he may begin to talk to you about something that's 139 00:08:01.360 --> 00:08:06.560 happened, not in your life, but in the life of someone else in your family, something that's part 140 00:08:06.560 --> 00:08:13.280 of your lineage. And so all of these things that are coming up are in your heart soil, and it's 141 00:08:13.280 --> 00:08:18.720 time to clear them out. And that's what we're doing here. We want that amazing abundant life. 142 00:08:18.720 --> 00:08:24.720 And we know that in order to have that, all the good information has to make it this 18 inch 143 00:08:24.720 --> 00:08:31.200 journey from mind to heart. And so we want to know, we want to be able to look in the mirror 144 00:08:31.200 --> 00:08:35.840 and see what God says about us. We want to be able to manifest the promises of God. 145 00:08:36.640 --> 00:08:42.159 Remember the heart is a womb and whatever gets into it, it reproduces and then produces the 146 00:08:42.159 --> 00:08:46.720 quality of our lives. And there's lots of things about our lives that we don't like 147 00:08:46.720 --> 00:08:50.960 lots of areas where we know we're not living the life that God has for us. 148 00:08:51.520 --> 00:08:55.680 With our parents, maybe with your children in our communities, in our vocations, 149 00:08:55.680 --> 00:09:00.640 we get up every day and we go through the motions, but we know that there has to be more 150 00:09:01.280 --> 00:09:06.640 in our finances, in our romantic relationships. We're not satisfied. These are places where we 151 00:09:06.640 --> 00:09:15.120 know that God has a bigger promise for us. Deep down inside, we know that we are worth more than 152 00:09:15.120 --> 00:09:20.080 what we're doing with our one and only lives. And so I know that it's time for that to change. 153 00:09:20.720 --> 00:09:23.840 And it's going to change when that debris in your heart gets moved out of the way, 154 00:09:24.480 --> 00:09:30.000 because the seed is good. God's word, his promises, they are good. It's sound, 155 00:09:30.000 --> 00:09:35.440 but it's the soil of the heart that needs to be plowed up. The word of God is always 156 00:09:35.440 --> 00:09:39.200 going to bear fruit if it takes root. And so we need to allow it to get in there. 157 00:09:39.200 --> 00:09:44.240 And the way that we allow it to get in there is to allow Holy Spirit to unpack and plow and weed 158 00:09:44.960 --> 00:09:50.480 where all of these things are blocking that good, good. My daughter always likes to say 159 00:09:50.480 --> 00:09:54.720 the good, good, the good, good. We want the good, good. We want that higher level of good. 160 00:09:55.680 --> 00:09:59.840 You know, life might be good in some areas, but it's a God's definition of good. 161 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:01.000 Is it? 162 00:10:01.000 --> 00:10:06.740 Because I know that God has a good for us that will rock our worlds, that will blow 163 00:10:06.740 --> 00:10:08.240 our minds. 164 00:10:08.240 --> 00:10:09.960 And we want that. 165 00:10:09.960 --> 00:10:13.880 We want to live that version of good, God's version of good. 166 00:10:13.880 --> 00:10:17.720 And so I want to encourage you to clear your schedule out, to make room for Holy Spirit, 167 00:10:17.720 --> 00:10:19.280 to talk to you. 168 00:10:19.280 --> 00:10:24.680 Take your time to read the material, to allow yourself to really process the knowns and 169 00:10:24.680 --> 00:10:28.520 the unknowns, to see what's in these heart boxes. 170 00:10:28.520 --> 00:10:32.200 Whatever tragedy was in your family, maybe in your own life, that divorce, that hurt, 171 00:10:32.200 --> 00:10:36.080 that pain, that trauma, whatever it is that you know about, the thing that you've been 172 00:10:36.080 --> 00:10:39.960 spending your whole life trying to avoid, that's what we call the knowns. 173 00:10:39.960 --> 00:10:44.200 You don't ever want it to happen again, but you're living your life on the defense. 174 00:10:44.200 --> 00:10:49.120 You're trying to protect yourself and you're not self-defended, you're God defended. 175 00:10:49.120 --> 00:10:52.360 And so those known traumas, we can't continue to repress them. 176 00:10:52.360 --> 00:10:55.940 We can't continue to try to stuff them in the box and keep them there. 177 00:10:55.940 --> 00:11:01.220 Maybe it was a miscarriage or sexual abuse or the person that cheated on you or ghosted 178 00:11:01.220 --> 00:11:06.340 you, whatever it is, just because it's out of sight does not mean it's out of heart. 179 00:11:06.340 --> 00:11:12.060 And so we have to begin to allow this emotional healing to come. 180 00:11:12.060 --> 00:11:13.060 It's not about being re-traumatized. 181 00:11:13.060 --> 00:11:15.660 I know a lot of people are like, oh, this is going to hurt. 182 00:11:15.660 --> 00:11:18.100 And that's why I'm doing what I'm doing right now. 183 00:11:18.100 --> 00:11:22.340 That's why I'm showing up to kind of do this check in with your heart over the material 184 00:11:22.340 --> 00:11:24.340 that you're going to be going over. 185 00:11:24.340 --> 00:11:29.500 And the reason why is because it is going to hurt, but it's the pain of healing and 186 00:11:29.500 --> 00:11:31.940 not the pain of trauma. 187 00:11:31.940 --> 00:11:36.140 It's the pain of thriving instead of just surviving. 188 00:11:36.140 --> 00:11:38.260 So that has some pain attached to it. 189 00:11:38.260 --> 00:11:43.500 So grab ahold of the hand of Holy Spirit and just know that everything's going to be okay. 190 00:11:43.500 --> 00:11:47.500 No matter what kind of anxiety or fear or shame or negative emotions come out of this 191 00:11:47.500 --> 00:11:50.180 week, you're not going to stay in that place. 192 00:11:50.180 --> 00:11:51.840 That's not your new normal. 193 00:11:51.840 --> 00:11:57.040 You're just pressing through and you're pressing through that trauma to get to the other side 194 00:11:57.040 --> 00:11:59.600 of the real truth about yourself. 195 00:11:59.600 --> 00:12:04.480 So make sure that you're taking time to rest, to process and to unpack. 196 00:12:04.480 --> 00:12:10.240 And at the end of this process, you are going to be everything that God said you can be. 197 00:12:10.240 --> 00:12:11.240 And I'll see you soon. 198 00:12:11.240 --> 00:12:11.740 Bye.