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Hello, everyone. Happy Monday. I can't believe it's already been a week since we've been here

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last week. But it's time. It's time for us to step into what God wants to do tonight. I hope

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that you all come, even just right now, just maybe where you're at. If you haven't prayed

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this already, just Lord, just kind of posture your heart. I just expect you to do the things

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that I need done tonight in my heart. Just help me to receive everything that you have for me, Lord.

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Help me to hear what your Spirit's saying. Help me to get out of my own way. I'm sorry about my

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ice machine. I totally forgot I meant to turn that off, y'all. But just where you're posturing

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with an expectation that God wants to speak to you personally every time you come, okay?

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It's really important when you engage your heart in that way and your spirit and your mind and

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your body and your soul, like it helps you come into this room and this atmosphere with a whole

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different perspective. You tend to check out less, too. So tonight, I do have a little bit of teaching

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for you, but I believe God has something really special for each one of you tonight. I am going

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to pray over you again, but I just wanted to kind of encourage you guys as you're coming in to just

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really always consider your heart. If you've never met me before, I'm Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the

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heartwork coaches here in the group. So for those of you that are new, we would love for you to,

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you can raise your digital hand. You can put it in the chat. Say, I'm new. You can raise your

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physical hand, whatever works for you. Okay, Sherry. Hi, welcome. Welcome, Diana. Hello, Suzanne.

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Hello. I think we have a couple others. Yeah, Linda. I thought you were a new face for me.

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Nice to see you. Jen is new. Anyone else? Am I missing anyone? That's awesome. Well, keep putting

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it in the chat. If you're new, we don't want to miss you. We want to say hi to you. For all of

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our other ladies that are coming back for maybe round two, three, four, five, I'm not sure,

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but we're glad you're here too. And God just loves you guys all so much. Look at all these beautiful

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faces. Hi, Seneca. I think that's how you say your name. So for you, for all of you coming in brand

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new, one of the things that I encourage you all to do when you can, obviously we understand sometimes

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you're not able, but to come on screen. So we like to see you. We like to like know that who

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we're talking to, but also the key to this is you're coming out of hiding every time you show up

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and you connect in community. And when you go into breakouts that you don't lean into being afraid,

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I know like for some of you, you're going to be brand new. I'm going to put you into a room with

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people that you've never met before. And I'm going to ask you to share things that are hard, that I

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promised you. If you will trust God in this process, this is an amazing community. It's an

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amazing group of women. I it's been a very rare thing that I've ever had anyone say that they

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didn't get blessed in breakout sessions. I've had people say they were nervous and afraid to talk,

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but I've never had anybody say to me. It, it did not go well. Okay. So just want you guys to know

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that when I do the breakout sessions, that is, we want to encourage you to engage and connect.

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And even if you feel afraid, guess what? You can just say, Hey, I'm a little,

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I'm a little nervous, or I feel like feeling a little scared tonight and let your sisters cheer

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you on. Okay. That's when we can get breakthrough is when we're honest and real. And we just kind

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of let God do what he wants to do with that. So welcome everyone. I want to encourage you again,

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no matter what week you're in, if you're brand new or you're in week three, continue to take

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your time. What I mean by that is don't rush through this one week of content a week. If you

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take longer than that, it's okay, but we really don't want you taking a shorter amount of time.

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So even for those of you, you might like watch the content and get your reading done in a few days.

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I really want to encourage you all to give yourself a full week to process what you're

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learning, what you're hearing, what you're reading. And what I mean by that, I'm going

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to give you an example tonight. Like my example is I want you to let your spirit and soul breathe.

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And what I mean by that is if you just skip right to the next thing, as soon as you finish the

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content for like example, week one, like your body and your spirit soul, haven't even really

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fully had time to kind of unpack what you just read and learned. But if you give yourself a

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little bit of breathing room, a few days to process, I typically people that do that are

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going to experience that, what I call percolation of the Holy Spirit, where he brings things to the

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surface. And then also, I've had some people say, I do, I feel great about the videos

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and I can do the reading, but the questions to journal those, you know, maybe they're just

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feeling a little bit tempted to avoid. And one of the things I mentioned in the earlier session

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today is avoid.

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is one of the self-preservation techniques you all.

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So if you find yourself even avoiding the content

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or avoiding actually doing the heart work,

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that typically is one way that you're trying

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to protect yourself from feeling pain,

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whether you realize that.

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A lot of times we do it subconsciously.

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We don't even know really why we're doing what we're doing,

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but we know that we're maybe watching,

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and I'm not saying you can't watch TV,

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but I'm just giving this as an example,

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but maybe we're watching TV for hours

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instead of doing the heart work, right?

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When we know we really probably should do the heart work.

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Yeah, I did it too, you all.

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I did, when God was unpacking some things about my dad,

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I think I might've said this last week, I was struggling.

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I was, I was on the struggle bus for a few days,

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and then I realized what was going on.

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I realized the enemy was trying to get me to avoid

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and not lean in.

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So we wanna lean in and trust the Holy Spirit.

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So take your time, let your spirit breathe.

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And for those of you that if it takes you longer

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than a week, y'all, you're not behind, okay?

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You're not behind, you're doing great.

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Everybody's process is different.

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Everybody's life is different.

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Some people experience loss in this process.

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I wish that wasn't the case, but it happens.

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We want you to know you don't have to compare yourself

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to anybody else.

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Your journey is your journey,

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and just let it be your journey, okay?

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And then the last thing is just that reminder

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to ask God really good questions.

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So when you guys have something

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that's coming to the surface,

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it could be an image that you,

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like you don't even know what it means.

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I had someone today, she was doing the one hour with God

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that Jackie recommended in our Supernatural Saturday.

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And she said she started seeing all these different colors

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and what does that mean?

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I'm sorry, I forget who wrote that,

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but I'm not even sure I know exactly

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what God's trying to do there for her.

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But the thing that I said, let's ask God,

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like, God, what do these colors mean?

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Why am I seeing this?

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Like, is this connected to a memory

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or is this just something new you're trying to show me?

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Like you just ask God good questions and let him answer.

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All right, that's all my housekeeping.

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I did it in seven minutes, you all.

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I hope that you kept up with me.

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I was tracking pretty fast.

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Let me pray for us.

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Father God, thank you so much for, again, just this night.

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Thank you for bringing us here for such a time as this.

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We thank you, God, for transformation.

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We thank you for renewing our minds

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that all old things have passed away.

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Behold, everything else can be made new.

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We thank you, God, that you are creating rivers

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in the wasteland and these streams in the desert

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and you're bringing hope into our spirits.

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Thank you, Lord.

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You're colliding heaven here on earth tonight

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in our presence.

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Help us, Father.

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Help us to know that you're a good Father.

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I ask you to heal and bind up any wound

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that would lead the ladies in this group

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to believe anything other than that.

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I pray that you would just go

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into the recesses of their spirit.

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God, you know the things that are in darkness

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that need to be brought to the light.

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You know the mindsets and the places

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that need to shift tonight.

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And we just thank you, God, for a greater revelation,

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a greater understanding of who Jesus is

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and what he died to give us,

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that he's already won the victory for us

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that we can just choose to step into.

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But Lord, sometimes we just can't see

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the things that are keeping us

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from stepping into the revelation and the truth

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and the higher upgraded life that you have for us.

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So help us to know what those obstacles are

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so we can remove them and step into that place.

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Holy Spirit, we ask you to come and have your way.

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In Jesus' name, amen.

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Amen.

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All right.

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Yeah, Sarah, I get it.

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I really do.

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I see you.

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Girl, I'm 45.

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I'm believing.

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God can do anything.

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And so, you know, I think on that note,

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let's just talk a little bit about this for a second.

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She said, I'm not getting any younger.

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My uterus grieves every month

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that it doesn't have a baby in it yet.

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The sooner I do the hard work,

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the sooner I can meet my spirit mate.

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That's legit.

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It's real.

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Here's the thing.

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I wanna encourage you guys,

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and I know you're kind of teasing a little bit,

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but like, this is real, right?

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So many times the enemy will try to get us to panic.

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I see it in every phase where people will try to rush

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or they'll get really frustrated

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if something isn't working.

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So let's just talk about that for a second.

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Let's lean into what's working, okay?

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And I don't mean to minimize.

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As I said, I'm 45.

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Brian and I, my husband now, we're believing, we're trying.

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We'll see what God wants to do.

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But here's the thing.

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In the process, even in my dating process,

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of course the enemy was,

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I mean, he was trying to make me panic like crazy,

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like my clock was running out.

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shifted into, Lord, I give this fully to you.

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Like, I just trust that if you want me to be a mom

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with a baby in my own belly,

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that that will come to pass in due season.

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And I just had to fully, like just fully surrender it

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because I just know that if that doesn't happen,

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that God still has a plan for me.

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So if we can get to that place, ladies,

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where whatever that thing that the enemy can use

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as like that carrot or that thing to cause panic,

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to really release that to the Lord,

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it will enable you to just kind of,

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it doesn't mean you're not still moving

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towards that thing, right?

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It just means that you can breathe

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and go through your process without that panic, panic,

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panic button being pushed all the time, okay?

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Because you know what?

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Here's the other thing, thank you, Lord.

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God is a time bender and he also redeems our timeline.

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So ladies, I'm serious.

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God can do all kinds of things that we don't even know

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and can't even fully comprehend that he can do.

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All right, so that was not my content for tonight,

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but I felt like it was worth the mentioning

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when she put that in there,

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because I know a lot of people struggle

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with that concept or other concepts

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in a lot of ways in this process.

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All right, so tonight, this is what the Lord told me to do.

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We're gonna go through kind of a little bit

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of a conversation, if you will.

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I'm gonna teach for a few minutes.

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Hopefully I won't take too long,

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but I'm gonna give you a lot, so just be ready.

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If you can't take notes tonight,

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go back and listen to the replay.

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But as I was praying on the last few days for you all,

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and just for the group in general,

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we have a lot of ladies that are in week one,

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we have ladies just coming in in week one,

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or excuse me, week five and then week one,

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and then we've got people all in between.

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But the Lord said to me this morning specifically,

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awaken the princesses, awaken the princesses.

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That's what he said to me specifically.

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So that's where we're going tonight.

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And I hope that you'll have some fun

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on this journey with me.

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Your first scripture tonight is Isaiah 52 verse one,

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and it's the beginning part of that scripture.

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It says, awake, awake, Zion, clothe yourself with strength.

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And sorry, my notes are over here.

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Put on your garments of splendor.

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So when it's talking about awake here,

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it's literally to arouse oneself.

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it's arousing ourself.

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It's awakening like we are a participant in that.

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Praise the Lord, Hannah.

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I hope you experience that a lot more

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as the night goes on.

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Awake, awake, yep.

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So as we are stirring up,

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we're stirring ourselves up in this stuff.

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Tonight, as you look at also this scripture,

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it talks about put on your garments of splendor, okay?

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So putting it on is an action, you guys.

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It's not just us sitting,

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waiting for God to do something for us.

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It's an action, we're doing something,

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we're partnering with the Lord.

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And in particular, it's to dress, to clothe,

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to put on, to be clothed, to be arrayed with.

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And this is like a figurative thing.

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So like, even though it is saying,

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put it on as a garment, putting on strength,

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clothe yourself with that,

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but also put on the splendor, it's figurative.

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So we can imagine what it would be like

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if you had a cloak, a coat,

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or any kind of thing that you were clothing yourself in

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that you're literally choosing every day

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to put that thing on.

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The Bible talks about the armor of God,

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putting that on too, right?

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So there's really, this is a key thing for us

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in the body of Christ.

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And so many times people aren't doing it.

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We go all through our day and many times,

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and this isn't to shame you, I've done it too.

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And we don't, we've never put on the armor of God.

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And so many times we don't put on the splendor

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because so many of us have lost our joy.

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So how do we have splendor?

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What the heck does that mean?

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All right, let's talk about it.

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Splendor is in the Hebrew, tephalra.

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Y'all, as soon as I read that,

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all I could think of was tiara, tiara.

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It's literally being crowned,

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putting that on yourself, the splendor, beautifully thy.

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Do you believe you're beautiful, ladies?

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Do you believe that God has called you to be crowned

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with a tiara because you have royalty in your blood?

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I know a lot of us are like, yeah, yeah, yeah.

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And we do, but so often you all,

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we don't live like royalty, do we?

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Would royalty let a guy hook up with us?

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No, they wouldn't.

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I don't think, maybe they do, but they shouldn't.

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All right, but here's the thing,

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and I'm not, and I'm just throwing that out

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just because that came right up in my spirit,

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but there's so many.

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where we live below who we are.

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So tonight, as you think about that,

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I want you to think about beauty, splendor, and glory,

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and what does that mean for you?

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Beauty, and as I continue to unpack this today,

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it actually represents garments, jewelry.

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Am I talking about that stuff?

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Yeah, a little bit, maybe, but it's more than that, okay?

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And I'm gonna talk about both aspects

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because I do think there is relevance to,

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you guys are gonna learn more and more and more

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about the divine feminine,

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but how do we show up in the world?

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Do we present ourself in a feminine way?

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It's not just about the clothes,

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or the earrings, or the jewelry.

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It's about an inner thing.

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It's about an inner belief that we have

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in a way that we show up,

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but I can tell you that when I,

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this is just me, and everyone's different,

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but when I put on a nice top,

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or I put on a dress, or I put on nice pants,

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and then I put jewelry on,

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I feel way different than if I'm walking around

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in my comfy pants, okay, or my gym clothes.

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That's just kind of like even business 101.

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They talk to you about that kind of stuff.

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So how many of us are showing up,

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even on dates or in life in general,

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let's just put the dates aside,

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but we're showing up in life,

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and we're so tired and worn out

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because we're carrying baggage from wounds,

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and old mindsets, and belief systems

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that don't even belong to us,

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and so we're wearing our gym clothes, if you will.

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We're walking around life in our gym clothes,

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and God tonight wants you to think about

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where do you need to shift?

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Again, I'm referencing clothes.

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This is kind of, it is literal, but it's also figurative.

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Where do you need to get an upgrade?

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Where do you need to choose to shift and to upgrade

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in the way that you think about yourself

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and the world around you?

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The other aspect of glory here, I love this.

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It's of rank and renown.

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It's an actual attribute of God.

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So when I'm talking about the splendor,

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I'm talking to you about, it's saying to us,

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in that Isaiah 52.1, put on your garments of splendor.

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Put on your garments of rank.

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Put on your garments of renown.

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Put on your garment of the attributes of God.

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So what does that mean for you?

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Who are you in Christ?

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Who are we?

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Who are we in Christ?

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And when I say this too, you guys,

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I really, to the best of my ability,

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knew who I was in Christ before I went through heartwork,

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but I can tell you that now,

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I have a whole different understanding

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of who I am in Christ than before I started this journey,

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and I had done a lot.

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I mean, I'd been saved over 22 years.

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I'd done a lot of work.

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I'd worked with counselors.

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I'd taken psychology coaching things.

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I'd taken mental health.

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I mean, I had done work,

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but it's still, there was supernatural impartation

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and grace on this movement in such a way

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that it was like, whoa.

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Like, I really still didn't value myself very much.

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I was allowing people to mistreat me

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in ways that now I'm like is unthinkable.

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Like, I still am kind of shocked like that that was me,

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and that might be some of your all story,

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and it might not just be men.

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It might be other people that you come across

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or your parents or friends, whoever.

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Okay, so do we understand our royal inheritance?

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Do we really understand that Jesus died

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to give us not only victory,

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but he gave us entrance into the family of God

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so that we could be one with Jesus

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as he is one with the Father

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and also one with the Holy Spirit?

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That we never have to be orphans.

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We are never on the outside.

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If we believe and think that we're on the outside

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and we believe and think that God isn't good,

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then there's something inside of us.

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There's wounds in there that are feeding

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into where the enemy can come in

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and he can just lie right into those spots,

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and we believe him.

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So tonight, where are those wounds for you

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that lead you to believe that you should just settle

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for less than God's best,

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or that you don't deserve to sit at the table

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with the banquet before you

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right next to God, the Father, the King

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of all majesty, of all things,

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but instead you find yourself at times,

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and I'm gonna just, this is figurative,

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but you're under the table begging for crumbs,

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or maybe you even, you believe that you belong at the table,

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but you're not choosing to sit there.

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There's all, and those are just two.

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There's so many other different things.

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These are just things I want you to be thinking about.

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So tonight it's time to partner with our divine feminine.

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What is God saying to you?

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Where does he want you to continue to flourish

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and blossom and open up?

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You know, divine feminine isn't walled off people, okay?

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Like where we shrink in

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and we stop showing up in the world.

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You know, I don't know about you guys,

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but there's definitely been times in my journey

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when I looked in the mirror

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and I felt like I looked sad.

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And even when I look back at pictures

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of some of the times when I was in that abusive relationship

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I'm like, I don't even look the same.

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Like I just looked a little bit lifeless

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because I was so sad and broken on the inside

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from the things going on there.

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And whether I wanted to or not,

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I started believing things that were being said to me.

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So we continue to shed that stuff tonight.

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I hope that's what's, yes.

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Hi, Sarah, look at that tiara.

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That's awesome.

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You guys, and I know this might seem like no big deal

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or it might seem silly to some of you.

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Well, why would I get a tiara?

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Because some of you never knew what it was like

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to be a little princess when you were a little girl.

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And so now when you're an adult, you don't know what that,

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you don't know what that looks like.

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You don't know what that feels like.

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Myself included, I've had to learn.

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I've had to learn.

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As a little girl, I learned that life was not good

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and that I couldn't trust people and I would never be safe.

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So I never felt like a princess.

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Things that should have been fun weren't.

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So yes, put those, I mean, you guys,

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these little activations, you will be surprised

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at how it will cause you to shift.

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I was talking about this earlier today.

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If you ever even think about,

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like just if you put your shoulders back

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and you sit up tall, like there's something,

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you just feel stronger.

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I tend to slouch a lot.

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I catch myself.

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It's not good for our backs either.

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But like, I know that's a small example,

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but just like even breathing

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and just taking life in a little bit,

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like you'll feel strong.

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I hope that comes into, even as I'm saying it tonight,

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it causes you to think about how you're allowing your body

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to be in at times of rest, as well as other times.

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Okay, do we know how to partner

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and activate the authority given to us from heaven?

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That's your last kind of question to be thinking about.

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Another scripture for you, Isaiah 60, verse one through five,

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arise, shine, for your light has come

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and the glory of the Lord rises upon you.

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See, darkness covers the earth

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and thick darkness is over the peoples,

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but the Lord rises upon you and his glory appears over you.

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Nations will come to your light

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and kinds to the brightness of your dawn.

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Lift up your eyes and look about you,

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all assemble and come to you.

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Your sons come from afar

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and your daughters are carried on the hip.

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Then you will look and be radiant.

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Your heart will throb and swell with joy.

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The wealth on the seas will be brought to you.

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To you, the riches of the nations will come.

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How many of us are living into that?

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I'm even feel like as I'm reading that

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and in my spirit tonight,

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like the Lord is just speaking to me.

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It's time for us to know

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that God wants to do something great in us and through us,

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not just to use us, you all,

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but because as he heals us, as he does the stuff in us,

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it draws people to us, but it's drawing people to him.

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They will see, you guys will start to,

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as you go through heartwork, people will start to ask you,

501
00:24:02.960 --> 00:24:04.480
what's different?

502
00:24:04.480 --> 00:24:05.600
What's different about you?

503
00:24:05.600 --> 00:24:06.680
What are you doing?

504
00:24:06.680 --> 00:24:09.520
Something like you're glowing, you're shining.

505
00:24:09.520 --> 00:24:12.280
Seriously, people will start to ask you guys

506
00:24:12.280 --> 00:24:13.200
as you continue to heal.

507
00:24:13.200 --> 00:24:14.720
Maybe if it doesn't happen in heartwork,

508
00:24:14.720 --> 00:24:17.680
it will probably happen at some point

509
00:24:17.680 --> 00:24:19.320
where people start to recognize

510
00:24:19.320 --> 00:24:24.320
that something is stirring inside of you that's different.

511
00:24:24.320 --> 00:24:27.080
Princesses tend to be awakened in three areas.

512
00:24:27.080 --> 00:24:30.800
So here are the three areas that I believe every woman,

513
00:24:30.800 --> 00:24:33.120
because I'm talking to you all, all of us,

514
00:24:33.120 --> 00:24:35.160
when I say princesses, that's you.

515
00:24:36.680 --> 00:24:38.280
Yes, Hannah.

516
00:24:38.280 --> 00:24:40.200
Her sister noticed, she told me,

517
00:24:40.200 --> 00:24:41.760
you looked way less depressed.

518
00:24:41.760 --> 00:24:44.480
That's a huge praise report, praise the Lord.

519
00:24:45.240 --> 00:24:46.080
That's awesome.

520
00:24:46.080 --> 00:24:47.320
All right, three areas.

521
00:24:47.320 --> 00:24:51.400
Identity in Christ, restoration,

522
00:24:52.800 --> 00:24:54.800
and some of, like all of us, I'll say this,

523
00:24:54.800 --> 00:24:57.040
I was going to say earlier today, I said some of us,

524
00:24:57.040 --> 00:25:00.240
but all of us also need in some way restitution.

525
00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:07.960
happen. Restitution is like things that were lost. And we need those things given back

526
00:25:07.960 --> 00:25:14.160
to us. Or maybe they were stolen. Maybe even at times the enemy has stolen money from you

527
00:25:14.160 --> 00:25:21.440
or other things. Those things being restored and restitution. And then our big bold future.

528
00:25:21.440 --> 00:25:27.960
Yes, the spirit mate is the cherry on top. I can't. Someone thanked me for that quote.

529
00:25:27.960 --> 00:25:33.360
It's not mine. It's Jackie's. So I can't claim that. It's so good though, isn't it? The spirit

530
00:25:33.360 --> 00:25:38.000
mate in this process is going to be the cherry on top. You guys are going to experience life

531
00:25:38.000 --> 00:25:44.000
change in every area of your life as you lean into this process and give everything to the

532
00:25:44.000 --> 00:25:49.400
Lord that he asked you to surrender and to trust him to heal. I've seen it time and time

533
00:25:49.400 --> 00:25:56.040
again. The people that really go all in, they walk away changed forever. And that can be

534
00:25:56.040 --> 00:26:00.000
you. All right, your big bold future. We'll talk a little bit more about that here in

535
00:26:00.000 --> 00:26:09.760
a little bit. Okay. So here are some princess popper stuff. A princess never strives. Princesses

536
00:26:09.760 --> 00:26:16.920
inherit. So does that mean we never have to do anything? No, we have to partner with the

537
00:26:16.920 --> 00:26:26.280
Lord. We have to do stuff. But a princess, again, as soon as she's born as a newborn baby,

538
00:26:28.040 --> 00:26:34.920
the kingdom rights in a sense belong to her. Now they don't pass to her until she comes of age,

539
00:26:34.920 --> 00:26:39.080
right? And certain circumstances, but she's royalty as soon as she's born.

540
00:26:40.200 --> 00:26:45.640
Responsibilities of a princess as things that she learns about as she grows, but she's always a

541
00:26:45.640 --> 00:26:55.880
princess as soon as she's born. And we are the same. We just don't know it sometimes to inherit

542
00:26:55.880 --> 00:27:01.960
is actually to receive it as a legacy. So for all of you that have, maybe you're, you know,

543
00:27:01.960 --> 00:27:06.200
you're building a legacy for your families, whether it's money or, you know, the way you

544
00:27:06.200 --> 00:27:11.320
live your life and you want to leave a legacy behind you. Think of it this way. The father,

545
00:27:11.320 --> 00:27:19.240
God, the father always wanted a legacy for us, right? That's why I sent Jesus.

546
00:27:20.680 --> 00:27:27.880
That's why when I prayed, like Jesus came to die on the cross for the forgiveness of our sins,

547
00:27:27.880 --> 00:27:33.560
for our freedom, for our redemption, for our healing. But he also came to literally pave the way

548
00:27:34.280 --> 00:27:39.640
for us to have an open door to the father so that we could have family so that we could have

549
00:27:39.640 --> 00:27:49.880
relationship. Okay. So that we would never be orphans. Isaiah 68, 6 says that God sets the

550
00:27:49.880 --> 00:27:58.040
solitary in family. He places us in family. So no matter how alone you feel, it's reality. We

551
00:27:58.040 --> 00:28:02.280
have to face that stuff because sometimes we do, we feel the depth of despair and loneliness,

552
00:28:03.240 --> 00:28:09.960
but God places us in family so that we don't have to live life alone.

553
00:28:11.720 --> 00:28:16.280
Here are some, now this is not a full list you all. So one of the things I want to encourage

554
00:28:16.280 --> 00:28:20.760
you because earlier today, someone was like, oh my God, which it's good. They were excited

555
00:28:20.760 --> 00:28:25.080
because they only, there was only one that they related to that was on the popper list. This is

556
00:28:25.080 --> 00:28:31.560
a very small list because I don't have time to read you all of them, but I just want to encourage

557
00:28:32.040 --> 00:28:37.800
you. Like, it's great if you only resonate with one, but just know there's a lot of other ways

558
00:28:37.800 --> 00:28:42.360
for popper mindset to show up. Okay. All right. Not that I don't want you all to be free, but I

559
00:28:42.360 --> 00:28:49.640
just want you to understand. All right. So here are some things to consider, and there's no shame

560
00:28:49.640 --> 00:28:54.760
in any of this as a reminder, this is just to help you guys understand how the popper mindset can

561
00:28:54.760 --> 00:29:02.600
show up at times in our lives. Do we only buy things on sale or at discount department stores?

562
00:29:04.840 --> 00:29:10.440
Do we ever give ourselves permission to buy something at full price?

563
00:29:12.200 --> 00:29:21.160
Here's another thing. I have people in phase two right now, a guy asked her on a date and he

564
00:29:21.160 --> 00:29:28.200
recommended a fancy restaurant and said, I want to take you to this restaurant. And she wrote

565
00:29:28.760 --> 00:29:36.440
to us, like, I don't think I'm okay with this. What? Why not? It's too soon. She said, it's too soon.

566
00:29:36.440 --> 00:29:43.800
Why is it? Why is it too soon? Guess what? It's because deep down as we unpacked that,

567
00:29:43.800 --> 00:29:52.920
guess what we found? She didn't believe she deserved it because growing up, she learned

568
00:29:52.920 --> 00:29:58.040
that, you know, they had to, there was pain, there was pain with everything financial.

569
00:29:58.040 --> 00:29:59.800
And so they just barely scraped by.

570
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:04.320
I and they couldn't afford, you know, the nice expensive

571
00:30:04.320 --> 00:30:08.480
steakhouse or whatever. And so now as an adult, she feels

572
00:30:08.480 --> 00:30:12.760
guilty going to places like that. Okay, so I'm gonna leave

573
00:30:12.760 --> 00:30:16.360
that there. I'm going to keep going. Do you struggle with

574
00:30:16.360 --> 00:30:22.800
feelings of inadequacy? Do you tend to compete with other

575
00:30:22.800 --> 00:30:25.560
people around you are often compare yourself to other

576
00:30:25.560 --> 00:30:29.880
people. And this can be at any age, right? This can happen when

577
00:30:29.880 --> 00:30:33.160
we're young. And then we grow we grow and we keep comparing

578
00:30:33.160 --> 00:30:36.200
ourselves. But if those wounds when we're young kids where we

579
00:30:36.200 --> 00:30:39.360
were comparing ourselves to another, another kid don't get

580
00:30:39.360 --> 00:30:42.440
healed. All that other stuff just builds and builds and

581
00:30:42.440 --> 00:30:45.280
builds on top of that. So you guys are so many layers to this

582
00:30:45.280 --> 00:30:49.960
comparison thing. Do you struggle to look at yourself in

583
00:30:49.960 --> 00:30:54.080
the mirror and like a do you struggle to look at yourself in

584
00:30:54.080 --> 00:31:04.080
the mirror and be to like what you see? So many women do not

585
00:31:04.080 --> 00:31:08.960
even like to look at themselves in the mirror. Okay, so it's a

586
00:31:08.960 --> 00:31:13.280
real, it's a really big issue. All right. Are you uncomfortable

587
00:31:13.280 --> 00:31:17.480
around rich or successful people? Do you tend to

588
00:31:17.480 --> 00:31:24.720
criticize rich or successful people? Or do you are you glad

589
00:31:24.720 --> 00:31:28.040
for them? You know, that's something to kind of pay

590
00:31:28.040 --> 00:31:31.200
attention to? Do you tend to feel unworthy to be friends with

591
00:31:31.200 --> 00:31:35.400
people who are successful? And there's all different levels of

592
00:31:35.400 --> 00:31:38.240
success in the world you all there is and we all think

593
00:31:38.240 --> 00:31:42.640
different people are successful in different ways. But the thing

594
00:31:42.640 --> 00:31:48.720
is, is that there is this amount this kind of level of

595
00:31:48.720 --> 00:31:53.080
like, I don't I want to be friends with that person, but I

596
00:31:53.080 --> 00:31:58.920
don't know if I'm good enough for them. And I know this

597
00:31:58.920 --> 00:32:03.320
happens because people talk to me about it. Or it could show up

598
00:32:03.320 --> 00:32:06.000
like this you all this just came up in my spirit. Sometimes you

599
00:32:06.000 --> 00:32:09.240
get around other people and you think they dress really cool and

600
00:32:09.240 --> 00:32:15.080
trendy, and you automatically feel less than. Even if you

601
00:32:15.080 --> 00:32:17.840
left your house in what you would consider some of your

602
00:32:17.840 --> 00:32:24.000
best. Okay. All right. Do you struggle to set goals because

603
00:32:24.000 --> 00:32:27.440
you actually fear that you're going to fail? So you just never

604
00:32:27.440 --> 00:32:34.200
set them to begin with? Do you tend to change your opinion

605
00:32:34.240 --> 00:32:38.840
easily to please other people? So maybe even when you go with,

606
00:32:38.840 --> 00:32:42.400
you know, friends or a guy, you have values, you have an

607
00:32:42.400 --> 00:32:46.080
opinion. But I don't know if you guys are like me, you might not

608
00:32:46.080 --> 00:32:50.840
have done this. But the one guy, my spiritual daughter's dad, one

609
00:32:50.840 --> 00:32:53.760
of it wasn't really the first time we went out, but it was a

610
00:32:53.760 --> 00:32:57.040
couple couple dates in, he introduced me to his friends.

611
00:32:57.040 --> 00:33:00.760
And I will I will like wanted to be the cool girlfriend so bad

612
00:33:01.000 --> 00:33:04.640
that there were things they were doing that I did not agree with.

613
00:33:05.440 --> 00:33:10.320
But I just acted cool with it. And I still regret that because

614
00:33:10.320 --> 00:33:15.560
that that night led to a bunch of other nights like that. Had I

615
00:33:15.560 --> 00:33:19.880
just stood up and said, You know what? You know, if these are the

616
00:33:19.880 --> 00:33:24.200
people you hang out with, I'm not sure this is gonna work out.

617
00:33:26.120 --> 00:33:29.760
Would have went a lot different for me. But I didn't I didn't

618
00:33:29.760 --> 00:33:33.040
voice how I was really feeling and I wish I would have done

619
00:33:33.040 --> 00:33:37.400
that. All right. Do you often believe others reject you and

620
00:33:37.400 --> 00:33:41.440
your ideas? Sometimes some of us believe that before we ever even

621
00:33:41.440 --> 00:33:44.320
tell people so we just decide we're never telling anybody our

622
00:33:44.320 --> 00:33:47.560
ideas because they're just going to reject them anyways.

623
00:33:49.480 --> 00:33:52.960
Have three more for you. Are you easily offended?

624
00:33:56.680 --> 00:33:59.880
Have you felt misunderstood for most of your life like nobody

625
00:33:59.880 --> 00:34:04.960
gets me? Someone in the earlier session, they they kind of said,

626
00:34:04.960 --> 00:34:08.840
Well, I just have very different ideas and point of view. So they

627
00:34:08.840 --> 00:34:13.360
kind of have put themselves in a category where nobody can

628
00:34:13.360 --> 00:34:19.520
understand them because they're in that place. Right? Well, that

629
00:34:19.520 --> 00:34:24.960
is that is self protection you all when we wall ourselves and

630
00:34:24.960 --> 00:34:29.239
we just we really pool and and probably at times maybe she did

631
00:34:29.239 --> 00:34:37.400
feel not understood, right? But the enemy now turn that into no,

632
00:34:37.440 --> 00:34:40.880
I just can't be because I have this very peculiar way of

633
00:34:40.880 --> 00:34:44.760
looking at the world in life. Therefore, no one really can

634
00:34:44.800 --> 00:34:49.520
understand me or relate to me. That is isolation, enemy

635
00:34:49.560 --> 00:34:55.719
isolation at its finest. If we if we get to that place, you

636
00:34:55.960 --> 00:34:59.680
that is proper mindset. We're alone. We're an orphan. We're on

637
00:34:59.680 --> 00:35:00.200
the outside.

638
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.800
side, and nobody understands us. And it can look a lot of

639
00:35:04.800 --> 00:35:07.920
different ways. Here's the last one. Do you struggle to love

640
00:35:07.920 --> 00:35:18.560
yourself and sense God's pleasure in you? So a popper

641
00:35:18.560 --> 00:35:23.360
mindset, so it's like a popper, P-A-U-P-E-R. So like, think of

642
00:35:23.360 --> 00:35:27.200
even in the old day movies, like I even think of Robin Hood and

643
00:35:27.200 --> 00:35:30.160
The Prince of Thieves, it's like, yeah, sorry, it's that's

644
00:35:30.160 --> 00:35:33.360
probably my northern accent coming in there a little bit.

645
00:35:33.360 --> 00:35:39.280
Yes, pop, popper. Not like a New Year's Eve popper, but a

646
00:35:39.280 --> 00:35:44.400
popper. Hopefully I'm making y'all laugh. But like Robin Hood

647
00:35:44.400 --> 00:35:47.200
and The Prince of Thieves, you know, the people that had very

648
00:35:47.200 --> 00:35:50.880
little money, and even some of them, if you think of that

649
00:35:50.880 --> 00:35:53.440
movie, I have another movie example for you, but those

650
00:35:53.440 --> 00:35:58.480
people, you know, the bad king, if you will, what was he doing?

651
00:35:58.480 --> 00:36:00.800
He was stealing from all those people. And so what did they do?

652
00:36:00.800 --> 00:36:04.880
They went to the woods and hid until Robin Hood came on the

653
00:36:04.880 --> 00:36:09.280
scene and taught them how to what? Fight back and take back

654
00:36:09.280 --> 00:36:14.480
what belonged to them. So some of this tonight, I'm trying to

655
00:36:14.480 --> 00:36:17.920
stir you all up so that you start to fight back, that you

656
00:36:17.920 --> 00:36:20.800
don't just take the enemy's crap all the time, and you don't

657
00:36:20.800 --> 00:36:24.160
listen to the things that he says to you, and you start to

658
00:36:24.160 --> 00:36:29.600
recognize your royalty. And not only know it in your head, but

659
00:36:29.600 --> 00:36:33.440
know it in your heart and live it out so that, and it's not

660
00:36:33.440 --> 00:36:36.320
like in a snubby way, like I'm better than you, but no, it's

661
00:36:36.320 --> 00:36:40.480
like it's this inner confidence that brings joy and peace, and

662
00:36:40.480 --> 00:36:44.640
you function and you know your value, therefore you don't

663
00:36:44.640 --> 00:36:48.240
settle, and you don't let people mistreat you and mishandle you

664
00:36:48.240 --> 00:36:52.160
anymore. Sorry, I hear a little bit of feedback. Let me just

665
00:36:52.160 --> 00:36:56.960
see. Close that. Okay. All right. I'm almost done.

666
00:36:56.960 --> 00:36:59.920
Princess Diaries is my other movie example. Who has seen the

667
00:36:59.920 --> 00:37:03.600
Princess Diaries movies? Even one of them. Oh, hi. Yeah, I see

668
00:37:03.600 --> 00:37:07.920
you. It's a cute movie. It's decent for all ages. I love it.

669
00:37:07.920 --> 00:37:11.040
Yeah. So in the Princess Diaries, if you guys think about

670
00:37:11.040 --> 00:37:14.880
this, Mia Thermopolis, again, this is, okay, Bethany's

671
00:37:14.880 --> 00:37:17.680
interpretation, okay? I'm not saying everybody else will feel

672
00:37:17.680 --> 00:37:20.160
this way, but this is kind of as I was thinking back on that

673
00:37:20.160 --> 00:37:25.120
movie this morning. She felt unseen a little bit, didn't she?

674
00:37:25.120 --> 00:37:28.640
In the beginning of the movie, she felt like a nobody,

675
00:37:29.360 --> 00:37:31.760
struggled to speak in front of the class. She actually got

676
00:37:31.760 --> 00:37:35.760
sick, was very nervous to talk in front of people. The other

677
00:37:35.760 --> 00:37:39.280
group of people considered her a nerd. They made fun of her,

678
00:37:39.280 --> 00:37:43.200
all that kind of stuff. She let herself go in a sense. Now, of

679
00:37:43.200 --> 00:37:46.640
course, this was a movie, so they did some of that for the

680
00:37:47.120 --> 00:37:51.440
context, but her eyebrows were super bushy, really frizzy hair.

681
00:37:51.440 --> 00:37:55.200
She wore her skirt up super high. Again, that was kind of

682
00:37:55.200 --> 00:38:00.080
over-exaggerated, but I'm bringing it out because I do

683
00:38:00.080 --> 00:38:03.440
think that some of us let ourselves go.

684
00:38:07.520 --> 00:38:12.320
We just drift into the background, and we exist, and we

685
00:38:12.400 --> 00:38:16.800
kind of go about our day every day, and sometimes don't even

686
00:38:18.400 --> 00:38:24.080
allow people to see us, if you will, but what changes when we

687
00:38:24.080 --> 00:38:27.600
show up in the world? It's not like, hey, everybody, I'm here,

688
00:38:27.600 --> 00:38:30.560
but it's just by our presence and the way we carry ourselves,

689
00:38:30.560 --> 00:38:35.680
people see us. It's how it happens, you all. It is really

690
00:38:35.680 --> 00:38:39.760
how it happens. What else did she do? You guys, she hid in her

691
00:38:39.760 --> 00:38:44.560
bedroom. Did you notice that in the movie? When things were

692
00:38:44.560 --> 00:38:48.000
hard, she always went up into her bedroom, and not that I'm

693
00:38:48.000 --> 00:38:50.800
saying we can't do that. There are times where life is hard,

694
00:38:50.800 --> 00:38:54.640
and we just need solitude. Jesus went off to be by himself, but

695
00:38:54.640 --> 00:38:57.840
there's a difference between isolation, which I mentioned.

696
00:38:57.840 --> 00:39:01.120
The enemy will always try to isolate us. He will always try

697
00:39:01.120 --> 00:39:04.400
to get you to go into hiding and not really live your full life

698
00:39:04.400 --> 00:39:08.240
and full potential because then he can most likely take you out.

699
00:39:09.120 --> 00:39:14.800
That's his plan. So, guess what, though? In the movie, I'm using

700
00:39:14.800 --> 00:39:17.760
this movie as an example, but this aligns with Jackie's word

701
00:39:17.760 --> 00:39:23.360
on Saturday. Suddenly, she's going about her life in this

702
00:39:23.360 --> 00:39:28.320
movie. This is who she thought she was, and then suddenly, her

703
00:39:28.320 --> 00:39:33.440
grandma shows up and tells her what? She's a real-life

704
00:39:33.440 --> 00:39:37.600
princess. She's a real princess, you all. She was always a

705
00:39:37.600 --> 00:39:40.800
princess, but she didn't know it until her grandma showed up

706
00:39:40.800 --> 00:39:46.640
and told her that's who she was. So, how many of us have this

707
00:39:46.640 --> 00:39:51.040
inheritance? We already are the princess, but because we don't

708
00:39:51.040 --> 00:39:53.760
believe it, we haven't had anybody tell us it, we don't

709
00:39:53.760 --> 00:39:59.680
live our lives as such. So, guess what?

710
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.880
After that happens, yes, she does.

711
00:40:04.880 --> 00:40:06.340
She says, shut up.

712
00:40:06.340 --> 00:40:07.260
It is so funny.

713
00:40:07.260 --> 00:40:08.400
It's funny when you watch the movie,

714
00:40:08.400 --> 00:40:09.620
you guys will have to watch it now

715
00:40:09.620 --> 00:40:10.460
that I've talked about this

716
00:40:10.460 --> 00:40:13.620
because this will probably mean a whole new thing to you.

717
00:40:13.620 --> 00:40:14.940
But then what happens?

718
00:40:14.940 --> 00:40:17.180
What happens after grandma shows up?

719
00:40:17.180 --> 00:40:18.240
Does anybody know?

720
00:40:19.300 --> 00:40:20.460
What begins for her?

721
00:40:20.460 --> 00:40:22.660
What begins for Mia Thermopolis?

722
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Anyone put it in the chat?

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You can even unmute yourself.

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Anyone want to guess?

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Yes.

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Transformation.

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Princess lessons, training, glow up, makeover.

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Yes, you guys put them in there.

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All the transformation things had to start to happen.

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She had to learn how to present herself,

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how to wave, how to, all these different things.

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And if you know, there's that key scene

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where grandma's trying to teach her not to slump

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and slouch while she's walking.

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And it shows her like kind of over-exaggerating it.

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And again, this is a little bit of fun tonight,

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but she also had beauty treatments, didn't she?

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They did a makeover,

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but something else that I wanted to point out.

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Do y'all remember the mattress scene on the stairwell?

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Grandma taught her how to have fun and cut a moose.

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Yeah, all kinds of stuff.

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There's so many fun aspects to this movie

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about her transformation.

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And then grandma also told her and taught her

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to not give up when things got hard, didn't she?

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So in your process of becoming the princess

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that you've always been, ladies,

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this is what I wanna kind of leave you

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before we go into breakout.

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You're becoming, you're becoming,

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you're becoming every day.

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You're becoming more like that princess,

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but it begins with surrender.

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It begins with aligning with the inner identity

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of who you were already created to be.

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And it begins with believing

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that that inheritance is already yours,

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that it belongs to you.

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And guess what?

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Typically a princess also gets what?

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A prince.

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A prince charming, not prince alarming.

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Remember, we're trying to stay away from those.

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Prince, that's Jackie's too,

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so don't quote me on that.

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Like, it's mine, it's Jackie's.

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But like, seriously,

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that was one of my favorite quotes I heard her say.

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We want prince charming.

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We don't want scary old prince,

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prince who mistreats us and does all kinds of bad stuff.

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No, we stay away from those kinds of guys

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because they're not even a prince, are they?

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Now inside somewhere they are

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because God gave them their identity,

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but they're not living into that identity of Christ.

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All right, so you're gonna go into breakout session

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and this is what I want you to talk about.

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Where do you need to shift out of pauper mindsets,

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you know, living below where God wants you to live?

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Where do you need to shift out of that tonight?

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And maybe the other question that you can answer as well

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is what areas do you struggle to partner with God

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as his daughter, as a princess,

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as a royal heir to the kingdom of heaven?

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Okay, that's what you're gonna talk about.

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I'm gonna put you in the breakouts.

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If you cannot go in the breakout because you're driving

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or you're at work or whatever,

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just stay in the main room with me.

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For those of you that are new,

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when I put you guys in breakouts,

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you'll just click the button to join the breakout.

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Stay in the room that you're in

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even if somebody is not there right away

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because some people's internet lags

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and I might have to move some people around,

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but I will get to you, okay?

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So I'm gonna put you all in there.

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I'm giving you nine minutes for this first one.

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Give me one second here.

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All right, that'll be good.

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Bethany, could you please repeat the question?

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Yeah, absolutely.

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So the question, you can answer either one or both.

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What areas do you need to shift out of

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like having those proper mindsets and heart postures?

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Where do you need to shift out of that today?

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And the other question is,

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what area do you struggle to partner with God

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as his daughter, a princess,

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and a royal heir of the kingdom of heaven, okay?

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All right, praying for you all,

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go ahead and click to join those rooms.

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I'm gonna try to make sure everybody gets situated here

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and then I'll pray for those of you

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that aren't able to go into breakouts.

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All right, April, are you able to click?

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Let me go get to there.

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All right, Carrie, are you staying with me?

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I think probably.

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I know you did last week.

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All right, Jenna, Elizabeth, make sure everybody's got people here.

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All right, I think we got everybody.

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All right, Father, thank you so much for this amazing night.

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Thank you for everything that you're doing and teaching us.

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I pray right now for those that are in the breakouts, those that will watch this recording

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and replay, as well as those that are here.

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Oh, Carrie, I might have to bump you because I didn't think you were going to go in there.

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Let me put you in a different room.

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Let's see, 17 only has two.

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The question is basically how to come out of pauper mindsets, any area where those show

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up in your life and you're going to change out of poverty mentality, pauper mindsets

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into princess.

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All right, so, Father, again, just thank you so much for the shifts that are happening

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in the spirit realm tonight.

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I thank you that you're going to continue to align every one of these ladies with the

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truth of your plan and your destiny for their lives, God.

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I thank you that you would impart supernatural revelation and upgrades that even while they're

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here talking, while they sleep tonight and this next week, that you would just continue

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to wash over them with renewing power, anointing power.

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We thank you that you would release, oh, that's okay, it's totally fine, that you would release

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just healing virtue as well.

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We know there's ladies in this phase one group that need, and phase two and phase three,

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and men that need healing.

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So Lord, we just thank you right now, and we declare complete healing and wholeness

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coming into their bodies, into their minds, their spirits, their souls.

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We thank you for continuing to renew them in every area, and we thank you that you would

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continue to remove any barriers that keep them far away from being in an intimate relationship

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with you, Lord.

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And we just thank you that it's always an invitation into an upgrade, into a closer

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relationship, into divine revelation and understanding.

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So Lord, help us to accept that invitation tonight, to take it, to come into the party,

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if you will, and sit with you and enjoy all that you have for us.

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Lord, I thank you that you would help us to continue to look in the mirror and see ourselves

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the way that you see us.

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I pray that you would help us to come into that congruence and alignment with our bodies

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and in areas where that fissure and that brokenness happened when we were children.

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God, I thank you that you would realign us and just bring that supernatural healing.

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I just see like different pieces of puzzle pieces being put together and just locked

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together one by one by one.

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So Lord, we just thank you that you would just continue to piece the puzzles of our

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hearts back together, but that they would be better than they were before they were

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broken.

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Lord, we just thank you in advance for that.

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We thank you that you hold all of our cares, our worries, our concerns in your hand and

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Lord, every one of these ladies, whether they've done a Jesus Cares Board or not, Lord, we

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thank you that you administer to every care and need that they have.

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Lord, we thank you for bringing solutions before we even have a need.

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And we thank you that you would help us to trust in you at all times.

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Lord, in your word, you say all praise to God, to the God and father of our master,

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Jesus, the Messiah, father of all mercy, God of all healing counsel.

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He comes alongside of us when we go through hard times and before we even know it.

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He brings us alongside someone else.

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So Lord, we thank you for people that you're bringing alongside of us in this community,

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that you're bringing leaders to help those that are taking this program and you're also

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bringing sisters and we call them sister squads, sister brides, where they can come

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alongside of each other and cheer each other on.

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And we just thank you that you provide for us in hard times that we don't have to do

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life alone and that we can rely on and depend on you no matter what the enemy has told us,

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no matter what the world has told us, or even our parents or people that raised us.

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We know that your word declares that you heal the wounds of every shattered heart, that

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you set all of your stars in place and you call them all by name.

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So Lord, in Psalm 147, three through four, it says that it declares that.

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So we know that you also call us by name and you're continuing to work and thank you Lord

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that you are the great physician.

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Nothing's too hard for you, that you're in the surgery room doing supernatural surgery

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on hearts, minds, spirits, bodies, and souls right now.

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And we thank you, God.

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for the things that you're doing that we can't even comprehend at this moment.

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Nadine, did it kick you out of your room?

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I'm not sure. Nadine, just let me know if it kicked you out of your room so I know if

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I need to put you back in there or if you're just joining us that's totally fine.

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All right, I'm going to keep going. So Lord, we just thank you also that you would continue to,

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thank you Lord, that you would continue to open our eyes to see where life is springing up all

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around us. That even those in the first week, second week, God, that they would just begin to

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see what you're doing. Lord, help us to not focus on what's not working but help us to focus more

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on what is working and the way that you're manifesting your presence and your blessings

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in our life. That the goodness of God, we will experience it in the land of the living. I thank

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you, Lord, that you're continuing to just right now even, Lord, I just imagine you as a happy

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good father who's excited to give gifts to us. Just like I know when I buy gifts for my girls,

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I get so excited for them to open the gifts and be surprised. So Lord, I just imagine you that way

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and I just thank you for the gifts that you're giving us and the surprises that you have in

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store. I thank you that you're going to continue to help us to, thank you, Lord, understand who

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you are as a good father like better than ever before. That we would have a fresh revelation

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of your love and your understanding and I thank you that, again, where the enemy tried to bring

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separation and isolation, I thank you that you're bringing connection and family and healing.

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Your word declares, there has never been the slightest doubt in my mind that the God who

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started this great work and you would keep at it and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very

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day Christ Jesus appears. And that's Philippians 1, 6 in the message version. So Lord, we just thank you

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that you never give up on us, that you continue to work in our lives, you continue to see things

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through, that you're not a man that you should lie, that your promises are yes and amen over our lives

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and over our destinies and help us, Lord, just to know what those things are and every single day to

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take the next best step that you're showing us. I thank you that your word also declares that this

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is not the time to pull away and neglect meeting together as some have formed the habit of doing.

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Thank you, Lord, that even tonight we're gathering together because we need each other. In fact, we

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should come together even more frequently, eager to encourage and urge each other onward as we

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anticipate that day dawning. That's Hebrews 10, 25. Ladies, I thank God for every single one of you,

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like you being in this community, you showing up to invest in yourself, to be a part of the

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conversations, to be a part of the prayer, to be a part of even posting a post on your takeaways,

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like everything is a part of God's divine plan unfolding in this group, in this community

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right now. Like even the group that was in a few weeks ago, you know, every group is different,

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every dynamic is different, and God is using you to be a part of what's happening right now. Isn't

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that glorious? It's so fun. He's so good to provide us all these beautiful blessings surrounding us

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and beautiful friends and his breakthrough power that can redeem all things. And so we just thank

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you for being a part of this family. Hi there. Thank you for investing in yourself. Oh, we got

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a dynamic duo up there in the corner. Who's that? The two ladies. Can you tell me who you are up

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there? Let's see who you are. Hi there. Hi, this is Barb and Joyce. We had to join together because

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we had a little technical difficulty. Hi Barb and Joyce. Is that what you said, Barb? Yep, yep.

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All right, good, good, good. I just always try to do a check-in when it says like a phone name

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or something so I know who it is. Yep. All right, everyone's coming back. We have like six seconds.

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Everyone will be here. Let's start to get this going because I can't believe that you all,

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we're already at five to nine. So I want to start talking about this. Who wants to share

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with the whole group what you shared in your private breakout group that you're coming out

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of these popper mindsets or areas where you really, you know, realize that you struggle to

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to be his daughter? Anyone willing to share? All right, awesome. Monica, go ahead.

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Hi, good evening, ladies. I'm excited. I've been here a couple weeks, Bethany, but this is my first

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time raising my hand. So thank you. I actually really related to the first one of buy only on

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sale or discount stores. I was really surprised.

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when you said that. But for me, I think just kind of always not

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feeling worthy enough or feeling valuable. I grew up in a

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household where my mother always bought everything on sale, cut

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the coupons and everything. So I think that mindset is ingrained.

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But I think it's really taking its toll on me just not feeling

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like I love myself knowing God's love for me. So thank you for

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Yeah, helping me see that.

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You're so welcome. And y'all just so you know, it is totally

949
00:55:32.040 --> 00:55:36.160
okay to cut coupons. It's okay. It's on discount. So I feel like

950
00:55:36.160 --> 00:55:38.160
you know, it's always really important for me to bring the

951
00:55:38.160 --> 00:55:42.200
balance in. But the reason it does matter is that some of us

952
00:55:42.200 --> 00:55:48.680
get so stuck in those places that we panic when we are put in

953
00:55:48.720 --> 00:55:54.080
a place or a scenario where things aren't on discount,

954
00:55:54.280 --> 00:55:58.800
right. So one of the things I encourage someone to do today

955
00:55:59.240 --> 00:56:02.280
is I encourage you now, obviously, we want to use

956
00:56:02.280 --> 00:56:05.880
wisdom, okay, I always want to make sure I'm being very clear.

957
00:56:06.000 --> 00:56:10.040
I'm not trying to tell you guys to go in debt, or overspend like

958
00:56:10.040 --> 00:56:13.880
crazy. But what I am saying is for those of you that can relate

959
00:56:13.880 --> 00:56:17.960
to what she just said, and you really struggle to let yourself

960
00:56:18.000 --> 00:56:22.040
buy something full price, and or when you do you feel a lot of

961
00:56:22.040 --> 00:56:26.000
guilt, I would encourage you to really pray and ask the Lord

962
00:56:27.040 --> 00:56:30.120
what you need to go buy full price and really work on the

963
00:56:30.120 --> 00:56:34.520
feelings that it invokes in you, even if it's negative, because

964
00:56:34.520 --> 00:56:37.000
it's going to bring that revealing for the healing to the

965
00:56:37.000 --> 00:56:41.080
surface probably quicker than if you just sit and think about it.

966
00:56:41.240 --> 00:56:46.320
Okay, so for some of you, um, maybe it's treating yourself at

967
00:56:46.320 --> 00:56:51.080
a spa and doing something nice and investing in yourself that

968
00:56:51.080 --> 00:56:53.360
way, but you don't really let yourself do that stuff, because

969
00:56:53.360 --> 00:56:57.800
that's for everybody else. And it's not for you. Or you're bad

970
00:56:57.800 --> 00:57:00.560
for spending money on something like that. Maybe the enemy tells

971
00:57:00.560 --> 00:57:03.640
you frivolous or whatever. So I'm just putting that out there.

972
00:57:03.920 --> 00:57:07.440
Again, I just try to say things as they come up in my spirit.

973
00:57:08.240 --> 00:57:13.000
But just be thinking about what God might want you to do and ask

974
00:57:13.000 --> 00:57:15.160
him don't just come up with your own idea, because he might

975
00:57:15.160 --> 00:57:19.440
surprise you with what he asked you to go by. And it probably

976
00:57:19.440 --> 00:57:23.240
will be exactly what you need. All right, Jen. Hi.

977
00:57:24.720 --> 00:57:29.040
Hi, what a great evening. So far. I just love freedom because

978
00:57:29.040 --> 00:57:33.800
it's partly painful, and partly exciting. For me, what came up

979
00:57:33.800 --> 00:57:37.920
was that as I was listening to you in the list, was how years

980
00:57:37.920 --> 00:57:40.640
ago, when we talked about when you talked about Bethany about

981
00:57:40.640 --> 00:57:43.560
partnering with God, so it's not just like thinking, sitting,

982
00:57:43.600 --> 00:57:48.000
ruminating, drilling, it's that thing of like, what action can I

983
00:57:48.000 --> 00:57:50.760
do in the natural that might unlock something in the spirit.

984
00:57:50.760 --> 00:57:53.960
And I remember I was telling the ladies on in my room, how years

985
00:57:53.960 --> 00:57:58.600
ago, the father said, I am setting you up to be to know how

986
00:57:58.600 --> 00:58:02.280
to, you know, sit and dine with kings. I'm like, okay, cool.

987
00:58:02.280 --> 00:58:05.160
He's like, so this is what I want you to do, Jen. I want you

988
00:58:05.160 --> 00:58:11.520
to start sitting in five star hotel lobbies, getting all

989
00:58:11.520 --> 00:58:15.600
dressed up, ordering tea, and actually becoming comfortable in

990
00:58:15.600 --> 00:58:18.480
it. And I was like, what? And I was telling ladies how there's

991
00:58:18.480 --> 00:58:20.600
this one time I walked up to this hotel, I lived in

992
00:58:20.600 --> 00:58:25.680
Vancouver, British Columbia, so lots of ritzy people. And I did

993
00:58:25.680 --> 00:58:30.400
this Sesame Street Grover thing when he goes near bar, and I

994
00:58:30.400 --> 00:58:33.000
literally walked up to this hotel door, and I started to

995
00:58:33.280 --> 00:58:37.560
feel my heart palpitating. And and I was like, Oh, and then I

996
00:58:37.560 --> 00:58:40.320
moved away. I was like, Okay, I feel comfortable. And I kept

997
00:58:40.320 --> 00:58:45.040
doing that until I broke through my own barrier. And then I began

998
00:58:45.040 --> 00:58:49.000
to like, get accustomed and comfortable. And then level two,

999
00:58:49.000 --> 00:58:51.920
he's like, Oh, I want you to go hold Renfrew, which is where all

1000
00:58:51.960 --> 00:58:55.600
you know, the big name brands are like Chanel, Prada, Louis

1001
00:58:55.600 --> 00:58:57.520
Vuitton, all this stuff. And he's like, I want you to

1002
00:58:57.520 --> 00:58:59.760
actually shop there. Not you don't have to buy anything, but

1003
00:58:59.760 --> 00:59:02.920
I want you to like sit, watch the people look at what they're

1004
00:59:02.920 --> 00:59:05.800
wearing. And he walked me through an encounter where he's

1005
00:59:05.800 --> 00:59:10.280
like, I want you to like imagine yourself having coffee with

1006
00:59:10.280 --> 00:59:13.120
them, actually talking to them about their businesses or

1007
00:59:13.120 --> 00:59:15.240
whatever it is. And I was just like, wow, this is an

1008
00:59:15.240 --> 00:59:18.680
interesting Holy Spirit school. And I just really love how as a

1009
00:59:18.680 --> 00:59:22.880
father, he was removing me from a place of, like poverty. And

1010
00:59:22.880 --> 00:59:26.520
he's like, I want you to actually learn how to love the

1011
00:59:26.520 --> 00:59:30.000
one person on earth that I died for that you didn't pick up on,

1012
00:59:30.120 --> 00:59:34.520
and it's you. And so this trajectory has been so good. And

1013
00:59:35.200 --> 00:59:37.040
I'm just gonna end with this, because what was running through

1014
00:59:37.040 --> 00:59:42.000
my spirit, even for me is like, Oh, my goodness, we I'm only

1015
00:59:42.000 --> 00:59:46.200
able to receive what I believe I'm worth. And the Lord's like,

1016
00:59:46.240 --> 00:59:49.720
that's why we're going to have to get you to that space where

1017
00:59:49.720 --> 00:59:52.800
in physically, emotionally, mentally, you're like, you're

1018
00:59:52.800 --> 00:59:56.960
just, you're just so in love with you not like a big headedness.

1019
00:59:56.960 --> 01:00:00.000
It's just a sober understanding that you are so

1020
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:05.120
beautiful. And so that's something I do regularly, ladies, which is really weird. I actually picture

1021
01:00:05.120 --> 01:00:11.920
the eternal Jen that's 100% love, 100% champion, 100% humble. And I watch her walk into a room,

1022
01:00:11.920 --> 01:00:16.560
I watch her talk to people, and I'm just like, and I just start weeping, like, that's me.

1023
01:00:17.200 --> 01:00:23.360
And, and it's just this whole thing of like, I am now becoming who I'm beholding. And so

1024
01:00:23.360 --> 01:00:26.960
I'm feeling really weepy right now, because I feel like we struggle with that. And I mean,

1025
01:00:26.960 --> 01:00:32.320
I have to keep practicing it until it becomes cellular. So anyway, I just thought that was a

1026
01:00:32.320 --> 01:00:35.840
really fun memory. We're in the looks like do you remember the day? I'm like, Oh, yeah, I do.

1027
01:00:37.520 --> 01:00:44.720
This is so good. It's so rich, you all. I'm serious. This is rich tonight. Jen, thank you.

1028
01:00:45.520 --> 01:00:51.440
I felt the Holy Spirit so much as she was giving examples and you all she's becoming

1029
01:00:52.160 --> 01:00:59.680
what she's beholding. The problem is that so many of us we don't behold ourselves.

1030
01:01:00.960 --> 01:01:06.320
We don't think we're up here. And again, this isn't about getting a big head. It's not about

1031
01:01:06.320 --> 01:01:10.800
buying expensive things. Y'all, I we are getting to the heart of the matter.

1032
01:01:12.000 --> 01:01:18.240
Tonight. If we don't think we are worth good things, guess what we're going to attract

1033
01:01:19.200 --> 01:01:26.320
unhealthy people. We attract what we become, right?

1034
01:01:29.280 --> 01:01:36.480
So what are you becoming? And how can that shift in the days ahead? How can you change

1035
01:01:36.480 --> 01:01:42.880
who you're becoming from tonight forward? Maybe your trajectory before you came tonight was one

1036
01:01:42.880 --> 01:01:46.480
way but after tonight you're going to start thinking about wait a minute like

1037
01:01:47.680 --> 01:01:51.120
would a princess let a guy treat her like this and talk to her like this?

1038
01:01:52.560 --> 01:01:57.360
Would a princess like think this way about themselves when they look in the mirror?

1039
01:01:57.360 --> 01:02:01.200
I don't know. I'm sure princesses struggle too. Okay, so let's just be real there too.

1040
01:02:03.200 --> 01:02:10.720
But I do think that there's a different level when we when we start to transform into those

1041
01:02:10.720 --> 01:02:17.360
different places. I definitely 100% carry myself differently now than I did even a year ago,

1042
01:02:17.360 --> 01:02:24.560
three years ago. You guys like God is transforming and shifting things and I could really relate

1043
01:02:26.080 --> 01:02:32.400
when you said the five-star hotel example. Sometimes y'all you'll be surprised just what

1044
01:02:32.400 --> 01:02:37.200
going and sitting in these places and then ask the Lord if you're feeling that uncomfortable

1045
01:02:37.200 --> 01:02:42.880
feeling even thinking about going to those places, start there. Just start somewhere and ask

1046
01:02:42.880 --> 01:02:51.040
Lord why is this bothering me? Where did this start in me and why do I believe that I don't belong there?

1047
01:02:54.320 --> 01:02:56.400
Why do we believe we don't belong there?

1048
01:03:00.320 --> 01:03:06.560
Yes, and I feel that in the spirit like it's time to believe that we belong.

1049
01:03:08.160 --> 01:03:13.600
I'm going to let that sit for a minute because I could linger there because it's stirring pretty

1050
01:03:13.600 --> 01:03:18.960
thick. It's beautiful. Jesus is beautiful. The Holy Spirit, the presence that's here with us

1051
01:03:18.960 --> 01:03:25.760
tonight, ladies, it's beautiful. His face is turned towards you and you know he dances.

1052
01:03:25.760 --> 01:03:31.040
It talks in Zephaniah that he dances over us. He rejoices over us, you all.

1053
01:03:31.360 --> 01:03:37.840
How do you feel like you belong? That's a good question. I think from my perspective,

1054
01:03:38.800 --> 01:03:47.040
you change on the inside first and then you start to see who you are becoming. I think

1055
01:03:47.040 --> 01:03:52.800
part of it is that partnering. It is getting around people that are beyond where you are

1056
01:03:53.200 --> 01:03:59.680
and you learn from them. I don't sit and just stay where I've been. I get around other people

1057
01:03:59.680 --> 01:04:06.080
that are like where I want to be and I learn from them because I don't want to be back there.

1058
01:04:06.080 --> 01:04:14.560
I want to go over here. I try to just talk to them, pray, and ask God to open doors

1059
01:04:14.560 --> 01:04:18.960
to get around people that have influence and understanding that I need to be there.

1060
01:04:19.760 --> 01:04:31.840
I need to get breakthrough and that is what led me to this program years ago and to other things

1061
01:04:31.840 --> 01:04:37.760
that I've now come into contact with because of what God is doing. So I think the belonging

1062
01:04:37.760 --> 01:04:44.080
feeling that way happens after we believe. We think it and we know it in our heart. The value

1063
01:04:44.080 --> 01:04:49.840
changes on the inside first. The scripture and Proverbs that talks about our worth being far

1064
01:04:49.840 --> 01:04:55.680
above rubies. How many of y'all have heard that verse? Had it spoken over you? You've read it,

1065
01:04:55.680 --> 01:04:59.920
you've written it to people, but how many believe?

1066
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:11.260
I mean, do you believe that your worth is far above rubies?

1067
01:05:11.260 --> 01:05:15.800
And if you don't, why don't you?

1068
01:05:15.800 --> 01:05:20.520
The other thing that I have one more thought, and then I'm coming over to Kelly, yes.

1069
01:05:20.520 --> 01:05:23.920
When Jen was sharing, one of the things that came to mind, and I've said this to y'all

1070
01:05:23.920 --> 01:05:26.540
before, but I'm going to say it again tonight.

1071
01:05:26.540 --> 01:05:30.600
Some of you all, because you're Christians, we all are, I think for the most part.

1072
01:05:30.600 --> 01:05:35.580
If you're not, that's totally okay that you're here too.

1073
01:05:35.580 --> 01:05:40.580
We are taught to love ourselves because we have to, because that is what you do as a

1074
01:05:40.580 --> 01:05:41.580
Christian.

1075
01:05:41.580 --> 01:05:44.500
You love other people, you love yourself, all this stuff.

1076
01:05:44.500 --> 01:05:49.480
But there's a lot of people that don't like themselves.

1077
01:05:49.480 --> 01:05:53.160
Some of you all don't like who you are.

1078
01:05:54.160 --> 01:06:02.320
If we don't even like who we are, how are we going to attract someone good?

1079
01:06:02.320 --> 01:06:05.480
Do you see how this breaks it down?

1080
01:06:05.480 --> 01:06:10.720
We can't attract something good if we don't even like us.

1081
01:06:10.720 --> 01:06:12.480
So there's no shame in any of this.

1082
01:06:12.480 --> 01:06:14.920
Again, I'm trying to remind you guys, there's no shame.

1083
01:06:14.920 --> 01:06:19.840
I've been there, and you might think, well, I don't like myself, but then when it comes

1084
01:06:19.840 --> 01:06:25.480
down to it, you tend to tear yourself down quite a bit.

1085
01:06:25.480 --> 01:06:27.320
So that's what I'm getting at tonight.

1086
01:06:27.320 --> 01:06:31.040
All right, Kelly, go ahead.

1087
01:06:31.040 --> 01:06:37.760
I would say, what I said was comparing myself with others is what I struggle with.

1088
01:06:37.760 --> 01:06:42.040
And being a teacher, especially a special ed teacher, it's really good to be analytical,

1089
01:06:42.040 --> 01:06:47.200
but often it's really hard to turn it off in everyday life.

1090
01:06:48.200 --> 01:06:52.320
Okay, so here's what I'm going to say to that.

1091
01:06:52.320 --> 01:06:54.400
I don't disagree.

1092
01:06:54.400 --> 01:06:58.440
My brain goes pretty much all the time, too.

1093
01:06:58.440 --> 01:07:06.640
But what I've had to do, Kelly, is learn how to shift it to things where I'm not analyzing

1094
01:07:06.640 --> 01:07:08.640
in negative ways.

1095
01:07:08.640 --> 01:07:10.080
Does that make sense?

1096
01:07:10.080 --> 01:07:15.920
So the scripture talks about thinking on things that are above and not beneath, things that

1097
01:07:15.920 --> 01:07:20.880
are true, noble, lovely, and of good report.

1098
01:07:20.880 --> 01:07:29.240
And so if we say things like, well, because I am this, this is just my lot, in a sense,

1099
01:07:29.240 --> 01:07:34.480
because that's kind of in a roundabout way, you're saying, I am a teacher, and this is

1100
01:07:34.480 --> 01:07:39.240
a part of my job, therefore, I analyze.

1101
01:07:39.240 --> 01:07:44.960
So basically, you're partnering with that, that that is the only way that you can be.

1102
01:07:45.000 --> 01:07:46.000
Does that make sense?

1103
01:07:46.000 --> 01:07:51.920
And so what we want to do, we want to be careful, ladies, to partner in a line with, and I'm

1104
01:07:51.920 --> 01:07:53.880
not saying it's even bad to analyze.

1105
01:07:53.880 --> 01:07:59.160
So don't don't think that I'm saying it's bad if we have analytical minds, but anything

1106
01:07:59.160 --> 01:08:04.360
good out of balance can become a weakness and a hindrance.

1107
01:08:04.360 --> 01:08:05.360
Okay.

1108
01:08:05.360 --> 01:08:14.440
And so if you are analyzing so much that you can't have peace, or you can't move forward,

1109
01:08:14.440 --> 01:08:16.720
then that's where it becomes that weakness.

1110
01:08:16.720 --> 01:08:19.160
So we want God to bring us into balance.

1111
01:08:19.160 --> 01:08:25.399
And part of that coming into balance is understanding that you are way more than your analytical

1112
01:08:25.399 --> 01:08:26.720
mind.

1113
01:08:26.720 --> 01:08:28.600
Okay.

1114
01:08:28.600 --> 01:08:34.479
And so it's creating that space in that room, like years ago, the enemy tried to tell me

1115
01:08:34.479 --> 01:08:38.680
that God created me with anxiety problems.

1116
01:08:38.680 --> 01:08:42.399
The enemy literally told me that that is how God created me.

1117
01:08:42.399 --> 01:08:49.760
And God in my car, driving to work, spoke to me and said, I did not make you that way.

1118
01:08:49.760 --> 01:08:52.640
Cause I was arguing with God, like, why did you make me this way?

1119
01:08:52.640 --> 01:08:53.640
I don't understand.

1120
01:08:53.640 --> 01:08:56.120
Like, why am I always struggling with this?

1121
01:08:56.120 --> 01:09:00.319
And he said, I didn't, I didn't make you that way.

1122
01:09:00.319 --> 01:09:01.319
Was it an audible voice?

1123
01:09:01.319 --> 01:09:05.160
No, but it was the voice on the inside and it was loud.

1124
01:09:05.160 --> 01:09:12.359
He wasn't yelling at me, but he was kindly just telling me, no, that isn't how I'm

1125
01:09:13.319 --> 01:09:16.399
And so it made me pause, like, wait a minute.

1126
01:09:16.399 --> 01:09:17.399
What do you mean?

1127
01:09:17.399 --> 01:09:25.319
And he said, Bethany, when I formed you, I never put that in you.

1128
01:09:25.319 --> 01:09:34.160
Trauma that I experienced opened the door for that stuff to enter.

1129
01:09:34.160 --> 01:09:40.319
So our analytical minds, when they go into overdrive, it tends to be, it can be, I'm

1130
01:09:40.319 --> 01:09:41.920
not saying it's always this way.

1131
01:09:42.479 --> 01:09:54.880
It can be because we're trying to have control, but if we let go and say, Lord, you know what?

1132
01:09:54.880 --> 01:09:59.760
Normally I let my mind go and go and go and go on this stuff, but tonight.

1133
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.880
I'm going to trust that you're going to bring peace into my mind and you create space for me to think something new

1134
01:10:08.360 --> 01:10:14.760
Okay, and and we just ask and we invite him so I encourage you or anybody else if you tend to struggle with

1135
01:10:15.540 --> 01:10:17.440
overanalyzing everything

1136
01:10:17.440 --> 01:10:21.560
Ask the Lord to come in and bring Sela rest to bring

1137
01:10:21.880 --> 01:10:27.720
Space and peace into your mind and don't just receive that that is just how you always have to be

1138
01:10:28.720 --> 01:10:30.720
Because that's not truth

1139
01:10:31.400 --> 01:10:37.040
So good. These are good shares. We're having some good conversation tonight Wendy. I'd love to hear what you have to say

1140
01:10:38.240 --> 01:10:45.440
um, my issue has always been feelings of inadequacy, um, I have

1141
01:10:45.960 --> 01:10:47.960
Just never felt

1142
01:10:48.840 --> 01:10:52.160
Good enough smart enough skinny enough

1143
01:10:53.360 --> 01:10:54.920
Any of it?

1144
01:10:54.920 --> 01:10:56.920
Christian enough quite frankly

1145
01:10:57.880 --> 01:10:59.520
And

1146
01:10:59.520 --> 01:11:02.040
then comparing myself to others because

1147
01:11:02.720 --> 01:11:05.200
Everyone else always seems to have what I want

1148
01:11:05.720 --> 01:11:09.560
and I feel like if I can be like them I

1149
01:11:10.280 --> 01:11:12.280
can get that too and

1150
01:11:13.240 --> 01:11:15.160
it

1151
01:11:15.160 --> 01:11:17.160
Never has worked

1152
01:11:17.720 --> 01:11:20.720
Because I still don't have what I want. Um

1153
01:11:22.400 --> 01:11:24.400
So, yeah, that's my

1154
01:11:24.920 --> 01:11:29.360
I've gotten better. I went through a breakup a few years ago and

1155
01:11:30.240 --> 01:11:32.240
did a lot of

1156
01:11:32.520 --> 01:11:36.040
healing work from my childhood and

1157
01:11:37.000 --> 01:11:41.280
I think my confidence rose a lot. I think people noticed

1158
01:11:41.920 --> 01:11:43.040
and

1159
01:11:43.040 --> 01:11:44.800
would

1160
01:11:44.800 --> 01:11:46.800
compliment me on a lot of stuff and

1161
01:11:48.400 --> 01:11:52.960
Some for some reason here lately like this morning, I woke up with a lot of anxiety and

1162
01:11:53.120 --> 01:11:55.120
and

1163
01:11:55.240 --> 01:11:59.880
Feelings of inadequacy like I've done something wrong at work. I've something's messed up

1164
01:11:59.880 --> 01:12:04.400
I hadn't even gotten to work and I'm already thinking I've screwed something up

1165
01:12:05.280 --> 01:12:08.920
Or something is screwed up, but I don't know how to fix it that kind of thing

1166
01:12:09.560 --> 01:12:13.120
What were you talking about before you went to bed last night? Just curious

1167
01:12:13.120 --> 01:12:15.120
Okay

1168
01:12:15.120 --> 01:12:19.800
Asked the Lord to help you remember not you don't have to right now, but here's here's why

1169
01:12:21.960 --> 01:12:25.480
Either you were thinking about worries and cares before you went to bed

1170
01:12:26.000 --> 01:12:28.920
Subconsciously and you were letting that kind of really

1171
01:12:30.240 --> 01:12:32.240
Stay and remain if you will

1172
01:12:33.200 --> 01:12:37.920
Or the enemy was just attacking you in your sleep. I was probably thinking

1173
01:12:38.080 --> 01:12:45.360
Oh gosh, I have to go to work tomorrow. What's gonna happen that kind of thing. Okay, something not good happening at work right now. No

1174
01:12:46.200 --> 01:12:51.560
That's the thing is no everything's fine. My manager's like you're great. You're telling me all the time. I'm great

1175
01:12:54.920 --> 01:13:01.960
Trouble when you were a kid like when you're working on schoolwork or any kind of like first job like this this cuz to me

1176
01:13:01.960 --> 01:13:05.160
What you're telling me is that I'm not good at it. I'm not good at it

1177
01:13:05.200 --> 01:13:09.120
Like this this cuz to me what you're telling me is that this is oh

1178
01:13:09.600 --> 01:13:14.000
it's totally for my dad from I was terrified of him and I

1179
01:13:16.080 --> 01:13:20.040
If he was one of those people you didn't make mad and so you

1180
01:13:23.120 --> 01:13:25.280
Did whatever you had to do to please him and

1181
01:13:28.080 --> 01:13:30.080
And he was an alcoholic so

1182
01:13:31.040 --> 01:13:35.120
If you made him mad he would have a temper and you couldn't say the wrong thing

1183
01:13:35.120 --> 01:13:37.120
But you never really knew what the wrong thing was

1184
01:13:37.880 --> 01:13:39.160
so

1185
01:13:39.160 --> 01:13:45.480
You just walked on eggshells around him all the time. And that's where so I feed off of other people's

1186
01:13:46.520 --> 01:13:48.520
emotions like

1187
01:13:48.640 --> 01:13:51.800
Are they mad at me? They're mad. Are they mad? They're mad at me

1188
01:13:52.840 --> 01:13:54.480
Okay

1189
01:13:54.520 --> 01:14:00.880
This will probably just it sounds like and I don't want to discourage you but you're on the right track, okay

1190
01:14:01.400 --> 01:14:05.560
Mm-hmm. I think it might just take a little bit of time because it sounds like

1191
01:14:06.280 --> 01:14:10.040
what I'm getting a picture in the spirit is almost like a coil and

1192
01:14:12.040 --> 01:14:14.040
It's wrapped kind of tight

1193
01:14:14.680 --> 01:14:22.240
But I want you to know that God isn't leaving you there and I believe that you're talking about this tonight by divine

1194
01:14:22.400 --> 01:14:23.560
appointment

1195
01:14:23.560 --> 01:14:28.920
Because at first I was like, okay Lord, what is it? What is it? And I didn't I wasn't sure

1196
01:14:29.400 --> 01:14:33.200
But as soon as I asked you that and you start talking about your dad, I saw the coil

1197
01:14:34.320 --> 01:14:37.000
And so the coil that it is though

1198
01:14:37.000 --> 01:14:43.200
It's the one where almost like if you can imagine tape like tape and it's wrapped and it's wrapped and it's wrapped

1199
01:14:43.520 --> 01:14:44.880
Kind of like that

1200
01:14:44.880 --> 01:14:51.680
But like you just got to take the like the piece God is taking the piece that's gonna begin to unravel that thing

1201
01:14:52.520 --> 01:14:54.960
And you've been you've been doing a lot of work

1202
01:14:54.960 --> 01:15:00.200
But I feel like in the midst of all of this the more that you lean into the forgiveness

1203
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:05.000
Or any old memory that you need to revisit and forgive.

1204
01:15:05.000 --> 01:15:07.000
Because it's causing for the fact that you woke up.

1205
01:15:07.000 --> 01:15:11.000
Like full of anxiety and afraid, but nothing's going wrong at work.

1206
01:15:11.000 --> 01:15:13.000
That's what led me to ask you that question.

1207
01:15:13.000 --> 01:15:17.000
And so there's that internal healing that still needs to happen.

1208
01:15:17.000 --> 01:15:18.000
When y'all were in the breakout.

1209
01:15:19.000 --> 01:15:24.000
I felt led to pray and speak that literally some of you would have

1210
01:15:24.000 --> 01:15:26.000
supernatural surgery while you're sleeping.

1211
01:15:26.000 --> 01:15:29.000
And, you know, I just want to encourage you all.

1212
01:15:29.000 --> 01:15:31.000
God is the great physician.

1213
01:15:31.000 --> 01:15:34.000
Like nothing is too hard for him.

1214
01:15:34.000 --> 01:15:37.000
But the, the struggle is, is that some of us have gone to church for so

1215
01:15:37.000 --> 01:15:40.000
long and we've been taught things and we are taught that we have to

1216
01:15:40.000 --> 01:15:43.000
strive to get something.

1217
01:15:43.000 --> 01:15:47.000
And I want to say to you tonight, Wendy, and anyone else.

1218
01:15:47.000 --> 01:15:51.000
You don't have to be an angel to get something.

1219
01:15:51.000 --> 01:15:53.000
You don't have to be a spiritual leader to get something.

1220
01:15:53.000 --> 01:15:55.000
You don't have to be a doctor to get something.

1221
01:15:55.000 --> 01:15:57.000
You don't have to be a nurse to get something.

1222
01:15:57.000 --> 01:15:59.000
You don't have to be a dentist to get something.

1223
01:15:59.000 --> 01:16:04.000
I want to say to you tonight, Wendy, and anyone else.

1224
01:16:04.000 --> 01:16:07.000
You don't have to strive for this.

1225
01:16:07.000 --> 01:16:09.000
I feel the Holy spirit on this.

1226
01:16:09.000 --> 01:16:15.000
You do not have to do anything to earn God's love or his affection or

1227
01:16:15.000 --> 01:16:17.000
this breakthrough.

1228
01:16:17.000 --> 01:16:19.000
God's going to teach you how to partner with him.

1229
01:16:19.000 --> 01:16:23.000
But so you're going to, you're going to take action.

1230
01:16:23.000 --> 01:16:27.000
He's going to teach you that this isn't like you having to,

1231
01:16:27.000 --> 01:16:31.000
to do something to impress him.

1232
01:16:31.000 --> 01:16:33.000
Does that make sense? Like that distinction.

1233
01:16:33.000 --> 01:16:35.000
And part of this is that,

1234
01:16:35.000 --> 01:16:39.000
that you used to be so terrified of your dad that God wants you to

1235
01:16:39.000 --> 01:16:43.000
know, like, you don't have to be afraid of him.

1236
01:16:43.000 --> 01:16:49.000
Like he's not waiting around the corner to just knock you down.

1237
01:16:50.000 --> 01:16:52.000
He's not waiting around the corner.

1238
01:16:52.000 --> 01:16:54.000
He's not waiting around the corner.

1239
01:16:54.000 --> 01:16:59.000
He's inviting you into a process with him that I really think your

1240
01:16:59.000 --> 01:17:04.000
whole, your whole understanding of who God is.

1241
01:17:04.000 --> 01:17:05.000
Is going to change.

1242
01:17:05.000 --> 01:17:06.000
And I'm going to say,

1243
01:17:06.000 --> 01:17:09.000
it's going to start to change rapidly in these next few weeks.

1244
01:17:09.000 --> 01:17:12.000
I feel like God's going to visit you. I really do. And I, you guys,

1245
01:17:12.000 --> 01:17:14.000
I don't make claims like this very often,

1246
01:17:14.000 --> 01:17:16.000
but I just feel like God's wanting to do really,

1247
01:17:16.000 --> 01:17:18.000
really good things for you guys.

1248
01:17:18.000 --> 01:17:19.000
And I'm going to say,

1249
01:17:19.000 --> 01:17:21.000
I don't want you to be afraid of anything.

1250
01:17:21.000 --> 01:17:23.000
I don't want you to be afraid of that.

1251
01:17:23.000 --> 01:17:31.000
Because it's going to help you open up.

1252
01:17:31.000 --> 01:17:34.000
And be like, it might feel awkward. Anything new, you all,

1253
01:17:34.000 --> 01:17:36.000
anytime we get something new, it's just like new shoes.

1254
01:17:36.000 --> 01:17:38.000
When you get new shoes, sometimes you get blisters.

1255
01:17:38.000 --> 01:17:41.000
So sometimes the process hurts a little bit.

1256
01:17:41.000 --> 01:17:43.000
You know, so that uncoiling might hurt. You might feel awkward.

1257
01:17:43.000 --> 01:17:45.000
It might stretch you some.

1258
01:17:45.000 --> 01:17:48.000
But I want you to know that you can learn to be like you.

1259
01:17:48.000 --> 01:17:58.000
And that you don't have to walk on eggshells all the time.

1260
01:17:58.000 --> 01:18:00.000
And you don't have to be afraid that everybody's going to be mad at

1261
01:18:00.000 --> 01:18:03.000
you. And actually in Jesus name, you're going to learn too.

1262
01:18:03.000 --> 01:18:04.000
You don't have to people, please.

1263
01:18:04.000 --> 01:18:07.000
And that it's okay if some people don't aren't happy with something

1264
01:18:07.000 --> 01:18:08.000
you do.

1265
01:18:08.000 --> 01:18:11.000
Not because you're doing something mean, but just because some people,

1266
01:18:11.000 --> 01:18:14.000
you all, we can live our best life and somebody is going to get mad.

1267
01:18:14.000 --> 01:18:15.000
And that's okay.

1268
01:18:15.000 --> 01:18:16.000
And that's okay.

1269
01:18:16.000 --> 01:18:17.000
And that's okay.

1270
01:18:17.000 --> 01:18:18.000
And that's okay.

1271
01:18:18.000 --> 01:18:19.000
And that's okay.

1272
01:18:19.000 --> 01:18:21.000
So we can never all make everybody happy.

1273
01:18:21.000 --> 01:18:38.000
Right.

1274
01:18:38.000 --> 01:18:39.000
Wendy,

1275
01:18:39.000 --> 01:18:42.000
thank you for trusting us and sharing and being vulnerable.

1276
01:18:43.000 --> 01:18:44.000
Yeah.

1277
01:18:44.000 --> 01:18:45.000
Yeah.

1278
01:18:45.000 --> 01:18:46.000
Yeah.

1279
01:18:46.000 --> 01:18:47.000
Yeah.

1280
01:18:47.000 --> 01:18:48.000
Yeah.

1281
01:18:48.000 --> 01:18:51.000
Come into agreement with it and he will do it for you as well.

1282
01:18:51.000 --> 01:18:52.000
All right.

1283
01:18:52.000 --> 01:18:53.000
You're welcome.

1284
01:18:53.000 --> 01:19:00.000
Elizabeth, go ahead.

1285
01:19:00.000 --> 01:19:02.000
Oh, I can't hear you, sweetie.

1286
01:19:02.000 --> 01:19:03.000
Oh, I didn't have my hand up.

1287
01:19:03.000 --> 01:19:04.000
I'm sorry.

1288
01:19:04.000 --> 01:19:05.000
Oh,

1289
01:19:05.000 --> 01:19:06.000
Oh, sorry.

1290
01:19:06.000 --> 01:19:08.000
Elizabeth Bach.

1291
01:19:08.000 --> 01:19:09.000
I don't know if that's how you say your name.

1292
01:19:10.000 --> 01:19:11.000
Yeah.

1293
01:19:11.000 --> 01:19:15.000
I was having difficulties.

1294
01:19:15.000 --> 01:19:18.000
Technical difficulties with turning on my.

1295
01:19:18.000 --> 01:19:19.000
Speaker.

1296
01:19:19.000 --> 01:19:20.000
That's all right.

1297
01:19:20.000 --> 01:19:28.000
So.

1298
01:19:28.000 --> 01:19:30.000
Yeah, I feel like, well, what I shared.

1299
01:19:30.000 --> 01:19:32.000
And then like, as you guys are sharing, I was like, Oh,

1300
01:19:32.000 --> 01:19:35.000
I don't really compare myself to others. And then I was like, Oh,

1301
01:19:35.000 --> 01:19:36.000
wait, I totally do.

1302
01:19:37.000 --> 01:19:38.000
Yeah.

1303
01:19:38.000 --> 01:19:41.000
I don't have a lot of time with that.

1304
01:19:41.000 --> 01:19:46.000
You should be like trying to find things on sale.

1305
01:19:46.000 --> 01:19:47.000
And some of it was even like,

1306
01:19:47.000 --> 01:19:49.000
I pride myself on getting things on sale. You know?

1307
01:19:49.000 --> 01:19:53.000
But also just realizing that.

1308
01:19:53.000 --> 01:19:57.000
Like I was resonating with.

1309
01:19:57.000 --> 01:19:59.000
A lot of these and I'm like, Oh, I don't want to have this mindset.

1310
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:01.000
Yeah.

1311
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:09.240
Yeah, like, I think the unworthiness too, like, I was just like, oh, like, um, even

1312
01:20:01.000 --> 01:20:04.000
Yeah.

1313
01:20:09.240 --> 01:20:13.360
like, as I was listening to some of the people sharing and stuff, I was like, definitely

1314
01:20:13.360 --> 01:20:25.200
feeling like the unworthy, um, and like, like, like something had come to mind where

1315
01:20:25.200 --> 01:20:30.160
it was a compliment, it was meant to be a compliment, where somebody had said to me

1316
01:20:30.160 --> 01:20:38.160
that I could charge a certain amount for my work, if I believed I was worth it. And I

1317
01:20:38.160 --> 01:20:43.640
remember feeling and this person I really admired, because they were really good at

1318
01:20:43.640 --> 01:20:49.440
what they, they did. And they charged that much. And they were saying, like, you could

1319
01:20:49.440 --> 01:20:57.160
definitely charge the same thing. And I walked away being like, I don't feel worthy. And

1320
01:20:57.160 --> 01:21:02.240
I knew that that was supposed to be, it was supposed to be a compliment, it was supposed

1321
01:21:02.240 --> 01:21:07.200
to encourage me to step into it. Like, you're supposed to step into this, like, just believe

1322
01:21:07.200 --> 01:21:17.560
in yourself, you know, just believe you're worth it. Um, and yeah, so it's like, I want,

1323
01:21:17.560 --> 01:21:19.640
I want these mind shifts, you know?

1324
01:21:20.560 --> 01:21:26.920
Yeah. So I think the first thing is, and you don't necessarily have to answer tonight,

1325
01:21:26.920 --> 01:21:36.720
just be thinking about this. Ladies, when we, in a general sense, maybe, excuse me, we

1326
01:21:36.720 --> 01:21:42.000
don't know for sure, like, why we feel unworthy, we just have this general sense of

1327
01:21:42.000 --> 01:21:47.400
unworthiness. And I encourage you to ask the Lord, when is the first time you felt

1328
01:21:47.480 --> 01:21:53.560
unworthy? Because we got to get to the root of the matter. And God wants to take you there.

1329
01:21:53.840 --> 01:21:57.480
And don't stress over this, because sometimes people are like, I don't know if I have the

1330
01:21:57.480 --> 01:22:03.680
root, I don't just go with what the Lord shows you first, let him help you unpack that. And

1331
01:22:03.680 --> 01:22:09.440
then if he wants to show you more, he will. That's just the natural organic way that that

1332
01:22:09.440 --> 01:22:15.800
will unfold. And the other thing I was going to say is that compliments in general, okay, when

1333
01:22:15.800 --> 01:22:21.520
she said that word, I was like, Oh, man, yeah. How many of you just show of hands, or you can

1334
01:22:21.520 --> 01:22:25.840
even put in the chat? Yes, yes, yes, or whatever. How many of you when someone has

1335
01:22:25.840 --> 01:22:31.480
complimented you have rejected that compliment in some way, and it can sound a lot of

1336
01:22:31.480 --> 01:22:35.400
different ways, like, they might be like, Oh, I love your shirt. And you'd be like, Oh, this

1337
01:22:35.400 --> 01:22:39.480
whole thing, I've had this thing forever. Or they'll compliment your hair, and you'll be like,

1338
01:22:39.520 --> 01:22:44.800
Oh, my gosh, I have such bad split ends, or I'm kind of making some stuff up. But like, you

1339
01:22:44.800 --> 01:22:50.960
know, like, we automatically reject the compliment that someone is giving us. Why do we do

1340
01:22:50.960 --> 01:22:58.360
that? Let's ask the Lord, like, why, Lord, why do I do that? Ask him to show you that. And I

1341
01:22:58.360 --> 01:23:04.040
know that sounds like a small thing. But even things like that, we're literally turning away

1342
01:23:04.040 --> 01:23:10.200
something kind that God is actually saying to us through someone. Okay, there's that part of

1343
01:23:10.200 --> 01:23:15.240
it. And then also, Elizabeth, when you were talking about, you know, when that person gave

1344
01:23:15.240 --> 01:23:20.360
you that compliment, they were actually encouraging you to come up higher. And I feel

1345
01:23:20.360 --> 01:23:24.600
like now the enemy is kind of making you feel bad because you want to go there. But you feel

1346
01:23:24.600 --> 01:23:30.120
like you don't know how to get there right yet. Yet is a key word, you guys comfortable with the

1347
01:23:30.120 --> 01:23:38.360
word yet? Okay. Here's the thing, it has to happen here first. It has to happen in our hearts

1348
01:23:38.360 --> 01:23:45.640
first, you all. And it's it's similar to change behavior, we can change our behavior on the

1349
01:23:45.640 --> 01:23:53.920
outside short term. So you know, even like when Wendy was saying she didn't sometimes even feel

1350
01:23:53.920 --> 01:23:59.240
good enough spiritually. You know, when we're changing spiritually, not that this is her

1351
01:23:59.240 --> 01:24:07.400
story, but any of us, sometimes we change a behavior to be good, to follow the Christian

1352
01:24:07.400 --> 01:24:12.440
guideline. And of course, you guys, I love the Lord, I believe in the Word of God, I believe

1353
01:24:12.440 --> 01:24:20.680
living according to the Word is good. But I also know that sometimes people are striving to achieve

1354
01:24:20.680 --> 01:24:28.760
some kind of Christian status. And they never feel like they reached that mark. And so we've

1355
01:24:28.760 --> 01:24:34.440
got to ask the Lord. He is the identity giver, you all, I'm going to share for a few more minutes.

1356
01:24:34.440 --> 01:24:39.400
And then I'll try to come to Nicole and Mary. So hang tight, ladies. I got to share a couple more

1357
01:24:39.400 --> 01:24:43.400
things that way. If people need to jump off at 930. They can okay, because I don't want people

1358
01:24:43.400 --> 01:24:50.680
feeling like I'm just keeping them here forever. God is the identity giver. If you don't know what

1359
01:24:50.680 --> 01:24:59.240
your true identity is, ask him, ask him to show you more every day. Father, how do you see me help

1360
01:24:59.240 --> 01:24:59.880
me to see my

1361
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:03.040
Self the way that you see me help me to know who you've called me to be

1362
01:25:03.520 --> 01:25:09.680
You even like doing spiritual gifts assessments and figuring out like what gifts has god put inside of you

1363
01:25:10.080 --> 01:25:11.520
Who has he called you to be?

1364
01:25:11.520 --> 01:25:17.200
What what are things that you love to do that cause you to just feel alive and they wake you up?

1365
01:25:17.600 --> 01:25:20.560
Maybe even like when you watch an injustice happen

1366
01:25:20.640 --> 01:25:24.480
It burns you like that just sets you on fire because you want that thing

1367
01:25:25.040 --> 01:25:31.200
To change that is telling you something about who you are on the inside and what matters to you

1368
01:25:32.800 --> 01:25:36.720
Those are all indicators of part of your current

1369
01:25:37.760 --> 01:25:39.760
Identity now. Here's the thing

1370
01:25:40.320 --> 01:25:41.920
We are all

1371
01:25:41.920 --> 01:25:43.920
becoming

1372
01:25:44.080 --> 01:25:47.680
Who you are today is not who you will be even tomorrow

1373
01:25:48.560 --> 01:25:51.680
And then tomorrow you're going to be becoming new again

1374
01:25:52.400 --> 01:25:55.600
It's like a brand new day his mercies are new every

1375
01:25:56.240 --> 01:25:59.120
Morning, we are becoming new every day

1376
01:25:59.920 --> 01:26:07.120
As we you know, that's that's all with the understanding that we are surrendering to him making us new every day

1377
01:26:07.120 --> 01:26:08.080
Okay

1378
01:26:08.080 --> 01:26:10.080
He he doesn't force anything on us

1379
01:26:10.800 --> 01:26:13.200
It's a choice to partner with him in that process

1380
01:26:14.400 --> 01:26:18.720
As we've been talking about princess's awakening. I want to tell you guys too. Here's the thing

1381
01:26:19.440 --> 01:26:23.600
As you are going in your process, you're going to have dreams of different kinds awakening

1382
01:26:23.680 --> 01:26:29.200
You're going to have spiritual dreams like, you know in the nighttime in the daytime you're gonna have that but this is something different

1383
01:26:29.280 --> 01:26:30.320
Okay

1384
01:26:30.320 --> 01:26:32.820
Some of you guys are going to have childhood dreams

1385
01:26:34.140 --> 01:26:35.520
surfacing

1386
01:26:35.520 --> 01:26:38.800
So maybe you wanted to dance when you were a kid

1387
01:26:39.760 --> 01:26:43.680
Maybe you wanted to cut hair. I don't know. I'm just kind of throwing things out there

1388
01:26:44.640 --> 01:26:50.080
Maybe you wanted to draw but you never felt like you had the space or the freedom or the safety to do so

1389
01:26:50.640 --> 01:26:52.960
um, you know, whatever your thing was

1390
01:26:53.520 --> 01:26:55.520
Some of you might start feeling

1391
01:26:56.160 --> 01:26:58.720
That awakening in you and i'm going to encourage you

1392
01:26:59.840 --> 01:27:01.120
To do it

1393
01:27:01.120 --> 01:27:05.600
To somehow use that to start activating that to start living into that

1394
01:27:06.400 --> 01:27:07.600
um

1395
01:27:07.600 --> 01:27:09.680
And just see what god where he wants to lead

1396
01:27:09.680 --> 01:27:13.360
It doesn't mean that you're necessarily going to quit your job and become an artist

1397
01:27:13.920 --> 01:27:18.000
Unless that's what god leads you to do, but i'm just saying there's there's something about

1398
01:27:19.360 --> 01:27:21.360
Coming back into agreement

1399
01:27:22.160 --> 01:27:24.160
With things that you

1400
01:27:24.240 --> 01:27:26.240
for whatever reason

1401
01:27:26.560 --> 01:27:28.560
Lost when you were a kid

1402
01:27:29.200 --> 01:27:32.560
Or maybe they got squashed by someone or whatever the case may be

1403
01:27:33.040 --> 01:27:37.440
The other thing are new dreams entering some of you guys are going to start to have

1404
01:27:38.080 --> 01:27:43.760
New desires you want to go and travel and explore to places you've never been maybe you want to do a new degree

1405
01:27:43.920 --> 01:27:47.360
Maybe you want to you know, try a different haircut

1406
01:27:47.920 --> 01:27:52.560
You know, whatever i'm just saying i'm giving there's small examples and there's big examples some of you guys

1407
01:27:52.880 --> 01:27:57.200
And we do encourage you not to make any big life changes while you're in the hard work, okay?

1408
01:27:58.000 --> 01:28:04.240
Wait until you kind of get through let that stuff settle and then you make decisions from there

1409
01:28:05.200 --> 01:28:09.840
We want you to encourage we want to encourage you to begin unwrapping gifts god has for you

1410
01:28:09.920 --> 01:28:11.920
He has a lot of gifts for you

1411
01:28:12.080 --> 01:28:16.400
And here's the thing you guys will read this in the book if you haven't already but you you

1412
01:28:17.840 --> 01:28:26.240
You jessica april you nadine you tiffany everyone on here, but I just felt led to call out a couple names sherry

1413
01:28:27.120 --> 01:28:29.440
Each one of us we are super novas

1414
01:28:29.440 --> 01:28:32.480
We are we are incredible beings that house

1415
01:28:32.880 --> 01:28:38.080
Not only the image of god, but the same power that rose jesus christ from the dead is living

1416
01:28:38.640 --> 01:28:42.400
In you it's living in you and it's operating through you

1417
01:28:42.720 --> 01:28:47.360
And the more free we become guess what you all we become like little lightning rods

1418
01:28:47.360 --> 01:28:52.720
And we're just sending the father light light of heaven out into the world everywhere we go

1419
01:28:52.800 --> 01:28:57.680
As we receive we can then give we don't give what we don't receive, okay

1420
01:28:58.800 --> 01:29:03.360
Last two things you don't need to convince someone of your value

1421
01:29:05.280 --> 01:29:06.320
Okay

1422
01:29:06.320 --> 01:29:08.320
You don't need to exaggerate your value

1423
01:29:08.320 --> 01:29:13.520
So we were talking about this whole princess thing and and it's not about having a big head

1424
01:29:13.600 --> 01:29:19.360
It's not about us lording that over people or or you know any of that stuff, but here's the thing

1425
01:29:19.440 --> 01:29:21.840
Some of us go to the other extreme

1426
01:29:22.400 --> 01:29:28.000
And and we don't really believe any of those things about ourselves and then we try to over exaggerate our value

1427
01:29:28.400 --> 01:29:32.400
So we don't really believe it, but we're trying to be that does that make sense?

1428
01:29:34.000 --> 01:29:35.600
Okay

1429
01:29:35.600 --> 01:29:41.760
So when we know our value in christ, that's why this is all so important when you know your value in christ

1430
01:29:42.480 --> 01:29:46.880
You're gonna live that out and it's gonna look genuine to other people

1431
01:29:47.200 --> 01:29:52.660
It's gonna feel like um, here's another example david when he went to the battlefield

1432
01:29:53.360 --> 01:29:57.600
They tried to put saul's armor on him, didn't they? Well, it didn't work out

1433
01:29:58.560 --> 01:30:00.560
So he went to the battlefield

1434
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:03.040
didn't fit because it wasn't David's armor.

1435
01:30:01.120 --> 01:30:05.200
And he was like, you know, I'm not gonna lie. I'm not gonna lie. I'm not gonna lie

1436
01:30:03.040 --> 01:30:05.160
It was Saul's armor.

1437
01:30:05.160 --> 01:30:10.160
So if you show up on the battlefield or in everyday life

1438
01:30:05.760 --> 01:30:08.880
I'm not gonna lie. I'm not gonna lie. I'm not gonna lie

1439
01:30:09.440 --> 01:30:12.400
I'm not gonna lie. I'm not gonna lie. I'm not gonna lie

1440
01:30:10.640 --> 01:30:13.640
in Saul's armor, well, it's not gonna fit you.

1441
01:30:13.640 --> 01:30:14.960
So you gotta show up in your armor.

1442
01:30:14.960 --> 01:30:17.080
You gotta show up in your princess gear.

1443
01:30:17.080 --> 01:30:19.080
You gotta show up in your tiara,

1444
01:30:19.080 --> 01:30:20.480
whatever that means for you guys.

1445
01:30:20.480 --> 01:30:22.200
So show up as you.

1446
01:30:22.200 --> 01:30:24.160
I'm gonna read something over you

1447
01:30:24.160 --> 01:30:26.920
and then whoever needs to hop off, you can hop off

1448
01:30:26.920 --> 01:30:29.000
because I wanna make sure to read this

1449
01:30:29.000 --> 01:30:30.680
and speak this over all of you.

1450
01:30:30.680 --> 01:30:34.000
And then I'm gonna come, if anyone wants to stay on,

1451
01:30:34.000 --> 01:30:36.760
stay on, would love to have you stay while we listen.

1452
01:30:36.760 --> 01:30:38.280
I'll only be able to take two more,

1453
01:30:38.280 --> 01:30:40.440
Nicole and Mary, okay?

1454
01:30:40.440 --> 01:30:42.000
All right.

1455
01:30:42.000 --> 01:30:44.680
So this is God's declaration over all of you.

1456
01:30:44.680 --> 01:30:46.040
This is from the book.

1457
01:30:46.040 --> 01:30:47.320
It is not mine.

1458
01:30:47.320 --> 01:30:50.280
So I just wanna make sure everyone knows this is Jackie's.

1459
01:30:51.760 --> 01:30:53.440
Here it is.

1460
01:30:53.440 --> 01:30:58.080
I am a world changer, an atmosphere shifter,

1461
01:30:58.080 --> 01:31:01.760
a light bearer, a truth teller, and a hope dealer.

1462
01:31:01.760 --> 01:31:03.600
My heart is awakening.

1463
01:31:03.600 --> 01:31:06.280
It's my time to be made whole.

1464
01:31:06.280 --> 01:31:08.240
I contain the beauty of all creation.

1465
01:31:08.240 --> 01:31:12.440
The mysteries of the entire universe reside in me.

1466
01:31:12.440 --> 01:31:14.600
I am the image of the almighty God,

1467
01:31:14.600 --> 01:31:17.080
the offspring of the great I am.

1468
01:31:17.080 --> 01:31:19.080
I am a beloved daughter of God.

1469
01:31:19.080 --> 01:31:22.560
My original heart is the one of love, joy,

1470
01:31:22.560 --> 01:31:24.920
peace, hope, and innocence.

1471
01:31:24.920 --> 01:31:27.320
I was created for community.

1472
01:31:27.360 --> 01:31:29.720
I am accepted in the family of God.

1473
01:31:29.720 --> 01:31:32.480
I have been created to prosper.

1474
01:31:32.480 --> 01:31:36.040
I will not be anyone besides who love God.

1475
01:31:36.040 --> 01:31:37.640
God love, that's what it's referring to,

1476
01:31:37.640 --> 01:31:39.320
has made me to be.

1477
01:31:39.320 --> 01:31:42.120
From this moment forward,

1478
01:31:42.120 --> 01:31:45.160
every day when I look in the mirror,

1479
01:31:45.160 --> 01:31:49.680
I am going to see more and more of what God sees.

1480
01:31:51.600 --> 01:31:54.160
Woo, you all.

1481
01:31:55.160 --> 01:32:00.160
You are everything to the Father.

1482
01:32:00.160 --> 01:32:03.160
You are everything to him.

1483
01:32:04.160 --> 01:32:11.160
Yes, Jesus left the 99 for the one.

1484
01:32:13.160 --> 01:32:16.160
You are the one tonight.

1485
01:32:19.160 --> 01:32:22.160
You are the one tonight.

1486
01:32:23.160 --> 01:32:26.160
So what do you have need of?

1487
01:32:26.160 --> 01:32:29.160
Because he cares about what you need.

1488
01:32:29.160 --> 01:32:31.160
And guess what?

1489
01:32:33.160 --> 01:32:36.160
He also cares about what you want.

1490
01:32:38.160 --> 01:32:40.160
If what you want isn't good for you,

1491
01:32:40.160 --> 01:32:43.160
he may not give it to you.

1492
01:32:43.160 --> 01:32:45.160
Praise God he protects us from ourselves,

1493
01:32:45.160 --> 01:32:47.160
you all, sometimes.

1494
01:32:47.160 --> 01:32:50.160
Praise God he didn't let that guy marry me.

1495
01:32:50.160 --> 01:32:53.160
Oh my gosh, you all, I would have ruined my life.

1496
01:32:54.160 --> 01:32:57.160
I would have ruined my life.

1497
01:32:58.160 --> 01:33:01.160
But I thought I wanted him.

1498
01:33:03.160 --> 01:33:06.160
Praise God, God knew better.

1499
01:33:06.160 --> 01:33:09.160
And he protected me from myself during that time.

1500
01:33:10.160 --> 01:33:12.160
And he's protected some of you.

1501
01:33:12.160 --> 01:33:13.160
And he's gonna help you.

1502
01:33:13.160 --> 01:33:16.160
He's gonna help you find the better path.

1503
01:33:17.160 --> 01:33:18.160
I'm gonna say one more thing

1504
01:33:18.160 --> 01:33:22.160
and I'm gonna go to our next two ladies.

1505
01:33:23.160 --> 01:33:25.160
When I read that part about my original heart

1506
01:33:25.160 --> 01:33:31.160
is one of love, joy, peace, hope, and innocence.

1507
01:33:32.160 --> 01:33:34.160
When I read that word innocence, I felt,

1508
01:33:34.160 --> 01:33:36.160
I mean, the whole thing was blessing me.

1509
01:33:36.160 --> 01:33:38.160
I just feel there's so much power when I read that.

1510
01:33:38.160 --> 01:33:39.160
It's amazing.

1511
01:33:39.160 --> 01:33:41.160
You guys might wanna start reading that out loud

1512
01:33:41.160 --> 01:33:43.160
over yourself often right now.

1513
01:33:44.160 --> 01:33:46.160
But I wanna say when I said that word innocence,

1514
01:33:46.160 --> 01:33:48.160
I felt it sweep over me.

1515
01:33:48.160 --> 01:33:49.160
Okay?

1516
01:33:49.160 --> 01:33:50.160
And so I know there's someone,

1517
01:33:50.160 --> 01:33:53.160
whether you're watching live on right now

1518
01:33:53.160 --> 01:33:55.160
or you're watching the replay,

1519
01:33:55.160 --> 01:34:01.160
that you lost innocence very young.

1520
01:34:02.160 --> 01:34:04.160
It was taken from you.

1521
01:34:04.160 --> 01:34:08.160
But I want you to know that your original heart had that.

1522
01:34:09.160 --> 01:34:11.160
And God's gonna restore that to you.

1523
01:34:12.160 --> 01:34:14.160
He's gonna restore that to you.

1524
01:34:14.160 --> 01:34:17.160
And I want you to know that God's gonna restore that

1525
01:34:17.160 --> 01:34:19.160
to you in the latter years here.

1526
01:34:19.160 --> 01:34:20.160
And it begins today.

1527
01:34:20.160 --> 01:34:22.160
It begins today for you.

1528
01:34:22.160 --> 01:34:23.160
Okay?

1529
01:34:23.160 --> 01:34:24.160
All right.

1530
01:34:24.160 --> 01:34:26.160
If you all wanna stay, stay.

1531
01:34:26.160 --> 01:34:27.160
But I just always wanna let people know

1532
01:34:27.160 --> 01:34:30.160
they can leave if they need to go ahead and sign up.

1533
01:34:30.160 --> 01:34:31.160
So, Michelle,

1534
01:34:31.160 --> 01:34:33.160
I won't be able to take your question tonight.

1535
01:34:33.160 --> 01:34:35.160
I'm only gonna be able to do Nicole and Mary

1536
01:34:35.160 --> 01:34:37.160
and then we're gonna close down for the night, okay?

1537
01:34:37.160 --> 01:34:41.160
But please put yours in the group so I can respond to you.

1538
01:34:41.160 --> 01:34:42.160
Okay, Nicole, go ahead.

1539
01:34:44.160 --> 01:34:48.160
Right there, I guess this message was for me.

1540
01:34:48.160 --> 01:34:51.160
I mean, this whole meeting tonight,

1541
01:34:51.160 --> 01:34:55.160
because I'm currently trying to see how God sees me.

1542
01:34:55.160 --> 01:34:57.160
Like, what value?

1543
01:34:57.160 --> 01:35:00.160
Because I grew up, you know, I come from poverty.

1544
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:07.480
So, it's always like, I want to be better, you know, I don't want to be in the same situation

1545
01:35:07.480 --> 01:35:10.720
that my mom was raising us.

1546
01:35:10.720 --> 01:35:17.280
And I look back and I say, okay, well, it's quite better than it was when she was raising

1547
01:35:17.280 --> 01:35:18.280
us.

1548
01:35:18.280 --> 01:35:22.640
You know, my kids this and that and they had better than I had when we was growing up.

1549
01:35:22.640 --> 01:35:31.720
But it's just, it's hard for me to see because, like, I have to try to vision myself or see

1550
01:35:31.720 --> 01:35:37.480
myself how God sees me, which is supposed to change the way I see things.

1551
01:35:37.480 --> 01:35:46.000
So, like, in certain situations, like financially, when you think about, like, spending habits

1552
01:35:46.000 --> 01:35:51.240
and stuff, you know, like me pulling back when I thought about the always going to stores,

1553
01:35:51.240 --> 01:35:54.360
I guess, in a sense for me, I have five children.

1554
01:35:54.360 --> 01:35:58.600
And so, like, I'm always bargaining and I'm always, but before then, I was always like

1555
01:35:58.600 --> 01:35:59.840
that.

1556
01:35:59.840 --> 01:36:04.600
And I think it got a lot worse when I had the kids because I would do for them and leave

1557
01:36:04.600 --> 01:36:09.280
me, you know, kind of, oh, I'll do for myself in a couple more months.

1558
01:36:09.280 --> 01:36:12.920
And then a couple more months come around and I still don't do for me because the kids

1559
01:36:12.920 --> 01:36:14.960
always need something.

1560
01:36:14.960 --> 01:36:23.000
So it's like, God, did you just make me to be a mom and just, you know, and it's kind

1561
01:36:23.000 --> 01:36:25.400
of like I put myself on a back burner.

1562
01:36:25.400 --> 01:36:31.240
And I also tend to settle with me because I'm thinking, like, maybe, well, God, I know

1563
01:36:31.240 --> 01:36:37.040
you didn't put me here to be, like, single with five kids, but what man, what good man

1564
01:36:37.040 --> 01:36:41.000
am I really going to meet that's going to accept me and my five kids and he's really

1565
01:36:41.000 --> 01:36:42.000
going to be good.

1566
01:36:42.000 --> 01:36:44.800
It's like I've always thought about, like, give and take.

1567
01:36:45.640 --> 01:36:49.480
I have to be like a give and take thing, like, oh, I have to accept this because he's accepting

1568
01:36:49.480 --> 01:36:52.480
me and my five kids or, or something like that.

1569
01:36:52.480 --> 01:36:57.640
So I'm really at a point where I'm just like, God, where do you, I mean, I'm really trying

1570
01:36:57.640 --> 01:36:59.640
to see the vision he has for me.

1571
01:36:59.640 --> 01:37:03.280
That's where I'm, that's where I'm exactly, that's where I'm at.

1572
01:37:03.280 --> 01:37:05.600
So the first thing, yeah, I love it.

1573
01:37:05.600 --> 01:37:09.840
Thank you for what you shared, Nicole, and I think there's more than just you that's

1574
01:37:09.840 --> 01:37:11.440
in this place tonight.

1575
01:37:11.440 --> 01:37:14.360
So I appreciate your courage and sharing.

1576
01:37:14.360 --> 01:37:18.280
I have a couple thoughts.

1577
01:37:18.280 --> 01:37:24.880
You know, when Jen was sharing how she like started envisioning who she was in that, that

1578
01:37:24.880 --> 01:37:29.560
other place, okay.

1579
01:37:29.560 --> 01:37:32.800
Sometimes we literally have to do that.

1580
01:37:32.800 --> 01:37:34.920
So that can look a lot of different ways.

1581
01:37:34.920 --> 01:37:42.160
It can be one of the things I did, this was a different coach had me do this and was really,

1582
01:37:42.160 --> 01:37:45.760
really helpful for me.

1583
01:37:45.760 --> 01:37:52.440
And this wasn't necessarily about my identity, but I think this will still help you.

1584
01:37:52.440 --> 01:37:59.800
She had me create a vision board for who did I want, like, what did I want my job, my life,

1585
01:37:59.800 --> 01:38:02.280
my career to look like?

1586
01:38:02.280 --> 01:38:06.920
And then she also had me do one for like, what kind of man did I actually want to be

1587
01:38:06.920 --> 01:38:07.920
with?

1588
01:38:07.920 --> 01:38:11.760
And what did I want that relationship to feel like, look like all that kind of stuff.

1589
01:38:12.360 --> 01:38:17.200
And so I spent quite a bit of time on those two boards years ago, and they, they became

1590
01:38:17.200 --> 01:38:23.800
a visual reminder for me that when other things came my way that were not in alignment with

1591
01:38:23.800 --> 01:38:29.920
those things, then it was like that visual reminder, wait a minute, no, like, this is

1592
01:38:29.920 --> 01:38:31.920
where I'm going.

1593
01:38:31.920 --> 01:38:34.760
This is who I'm becoming.

1594
01:38:34.760 --> 01:38:41.080
And so that may or may not, if you're a visual person, that probably will really help you.

1595
01:38:41.400 --> 01:38:44.200
But here's the thing.

1596
01:38:44.200 --> 01:38:50.480
It also, ladies, it begins with knowing the word more and more and more.

1597
01:38:50.480 --> 01:39:00.000
So for me, what transformed my heart internally, even beyond things like doing a vision board,

1598
01:39:00.000 --> 01:39:06.560
is I started looking up scriptures that talked about my identity, my value.

1599
01:39:06.560 --> 01:39:12.240
And after I like looked those up and read those, I would memorize them.

1600
01:39:12.240 --> 01:39:16.040
And I know this is kind of old school, but you guys, it really works.

1601
01:39:16.040 --> 01:39:17.600
It does.

1602
01:39:17.600 --> 01:39:20.320
The word of God will transform.

1603
01:39:20.320 --> 01:39:28.640
It has the power to cut through bone and marrow and rebuild and restore us like never before.

1604
01:39:28.640 --> 01:39:36.520
And then after I really let those kind of marinate in my spirit, if you will, then God

1605
01:39:36.520 --> 01:39:41.720
led me to do that with scriptures about him, his character.

1606
01:39:41.720 --> 01:39:50.720
Because what I started learning was that the more secure I became in him, the more secure

1607
01:39:50.720 --> 01:39:53.040
I became in myself.

1608
01:39:53.040 --> 01:39:57.600
Does that make sense how I said that, everyone?

1609
01:39:57.600 --> 01:39:59.680
So I started doing studies on.

1610
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:05.520
you know, the character of God. And I started with God is love. And I just started looking

1611
01:40:05.520 --> 01:40:10.400
up all kinds of scriptures about God is love and studying those and spending time with those,

1612
01:40:10.400 --> 01:40:18.160
praying about those. Um, so that's that side of it on the aspect of like,

1613
01:40:19.600 --> 01:40:26.000
when we are, when we grow up in situations, so like, I'm not saying it's the same as yours,

1614
01:40:26.000 --> 01:40:32.880
but my grandmother lived in a trailer. Um, the only reason we had a house, my mom was a single

1615
01:40:32.880 --> 01:40:37.680
mom with four kids. The only reason we had a house is because my grandparents on my dad's side paid

1616
01:40:37.680 --> 01:40:42.880
for us to live there. Um, my mom did her best, but, and I didn't know that when I was younger,

1617
01:40:42.880 --> 01:40:50.560
I found that out later, but, um, my mom struggled financially, so I didn't learn a lot of financial

1618
01:40:50.560 --> 01:41:02.480
things from her. And so, um, I, I just started taking financial classes and I know that's not

1619
01:41:02.480 --> 01:41:07.600
an easy answer ladies, when you're struggling financially, but like the only way, whether

1620
01:41:07.600 --> 01:41:15.520
it's financial or educational or regarding our bodies and our health, the only way for us to

1621
01:41:15.520 --> 01:41:22.080
change what we leave behind is to do something different than what we saw and learned from our

1622
01:41:22.080 --> 01:41:27.760
parents. And that doesn't mean that we're saying they weren't good or that they didn't try or any

1623
01:41:27.760 --> 01:41:37.760
of those things, but knowledge is your power. It really is. And so the more knowledge we gain,

1624
01:41:37.760 --> 01:41:44.880
the more power we have to shift and create a different tomorrow for our children.

1625
01:41:45.520 --> 01:41:54.000
And for ourselves. So I would, you know, in this regard, part of like growing and coming

1626
01:41:54.000 --> 01:42:04.640
out of poverty mindsets for me was me learning how to save money, learning how, like I worked

1627
01:42:04.640 --> 01:42:09.600
at a trust company at one point, if you guys don't know what that means, I worked at a company where

1628
01:42:09.600 --> 01:42:15.760
a lot of people would come to our company and we would invest their money for them.

1629
01:42:15.760 --> 01:42:19.600
And they would be like, I worked for a company where it was people with high net worth. They

1630
01:42:19.600 --> 01:42:26.720
had a lot of money. And when I started like learning and seeing how other people live,

1631
01:42:28.560 --> 01:42:34.320
it changed my whole, like, Oh my gosh, like, wait a minute. Like I don't live like this.

1632
01:42:35.280 --> 01:42:39.920
And in the cause some like, well, I don't know if I could ever have something like that,

1633
01:42:39.920 --> 01:42:44.400
but then I started having money taken out of my paycheck and put into a 401k

1634
01:42:45.120 --> 01:42:49.040
and money taken out. And it just, over time, I'm not saying I'm them yet,

1635
01:42:50.000 --> 01:42:54.720
but I definitely have a lot more money saved now because I started somewhere.

1636
01:42:56.000 --> 01:42:59.360
I had to start somewhere. You guys can start somewhere too.

1637
01:43:00.320 --> 01:43:06.480
It's committing to ourselves and choosing. So I don't know if that was helpful for you,

1638
01:43:06.480 --> 01:43:10.320
but those are just a couple of things. I know that's the financial thing isn't,

1639
01:43:10.320 --> 01:43:14.800
doesn't feel like identity, but that's how you can start to shift out of

1640
01:43:15.360 --> 01:43:20.400
those things in the physical realm. It's to arm yourself with knowledge and tools.

1641
01:43:23.680 --> 01:43:24.880
Is that good, Nicole?

1642
01:43:25.040 --> 01:43:31.200
Yeah, I guess. Cause I've always wanted better. I've always wanted better, but it's like,

1643
01:43:32.400 --> 01:43:37.280
I guess I just have to roll with the purpose that God has for my life. And I'm sooner or

1644
01:43:37.280 --> 01:43:44.400
later I'm gonna get there because it's like, no, I don't want to be in poverty. Of course,

1645
01:43:44.400 --> 01:43:50.160
nobody does. I grew up in it and I don't, I want my kids to have a better life, but it's like,

1646
01:43:50.160 --> 01:43:57.440
it's like always something is blocking it or getting in the way of it or I started and stopped.

1647
01:43:58.880 --> 01:44:06.480
Yeah. I will say you all heart healing definitely changed me regarding my finances as well.

1648
01:44:07.120 --> 01:44:12.800
It really did. And so what you're doing right now is one of the best investments you can make in

1649
01:44:12.800 --> 01:44:19.440
yourself truly. And through this process every day that I literally will ask God, God, what is

1650
01:44:19.440 --> 01:44:25.200
the thing you want me to do today? I try, of course I have to do lists with things to do for work,

1651
01:44:25.200 --> 01:44:31.840
but like, I'll try to ask God, what's the one thing you want me to do today to grow myself or,

1652
01:44:31.840 --> 01:44:35.680
you know, whatever. I kind of know what that means between God and I, God, what's the one,

1653
01:44:35.680 --> 01:44:40.400
because if we try to focus on 10, we get overwhelmed and we tend to not move forward.

1654
01:44:40.400 --> 01:44:46.720
But if we focus on one every day, just one thing, we will tend to start moving forward.

1655
01:44:47.280 --> 01:44:54.080
Does that feel more helpful? Yes. More, more small bites. I think for you and anyone else

1656
01:44:54.080 --> 01:44:59.280
that this applies to when you can get small wins in your pocket, I think that'll help.

1657
01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:05.840
create more wins for you and you'll start to feel some momentum moving forward. Yeah,

1658
01:45:06.800 --> 01:45:13.360
God's got you. He's going to help you. And you doing this and being here is a huge, huge plus.

1659
01:45:13.360 --> 01:45:14.560
Okay, Mary, go ahead.

1660
01:45:19.040 --> 01:45:24.800
Um, I just wanted to say thank you for tonight because I feel like this is what I needed this

1661
01:45:24.800 --> 01:45:30.720
week. But two things that you said that stuck in my head that I'm trying to like figure out

1662
01:45:30.720 --> 01:45:37.600
is one, sharing the story of the girl who like, when she got took into a fancy restaurant,

1663
01:45:37.600 --> 01:45:42.880
and she was like, This is weird. Why? I always been like that. I'm always been like,

1664
01:45:42.880 --> 01:45:47.520
I'm the simple girl, you can just take me to McDonald's, I will be happy. As long you know,

1665
01:45:47.520 --> 01:45:53.520
so really, because I always even when going to restaurants, like I'll order a salad if somebody

1666
01:45:53.520 --> 01:45:59.600
offered to pay because I was like, I don't want them to spend over me that and then the other

1667
01:45:59.600 --> 01:46:06.720
thing that you said that really it's like, playing in my head till now is that God can like set up

1668
01:46:06.720 --> 01:46:12.800
table by you will be like you put yourself under the table and okay to take crumbs. So I always

1669
01:46:12.800 --> 01:46:18.240
been like that where God has set up tables for me. And I'm like, No, I'll sit on the kids table.

1670
01:46:18.320 --> 01:46:22.880
I'm okay. And it's like, I don't even understand why I do that to myself.

1671
01:46:25.040 --> 01:46:33.840
Okay, two things. Um, so that I'm in I like, I'm an easy girl. I, you know, easygoing,

1672
01:46:33.840 --> 01:46:38.800
I think is what you said. Not easy, easygoing girl. I'm okay with McDonald's. I know that came

1673
01:46:38.800 --> 01:46:47.920
out so wrong. Oh, man. So here's the thing deep down somewhere. Typically, when we do that,

1674
01:46:47.920 --> 01:46:53.920
it's because we don't really think we deserve the other stuff. Or like I said, without guy,

1675
01:46:53.920 --> 01:46:59.120
I was dating, I was trying to, I was trying to be cool. And I was trying to just like,

1676
01:46:59.120 --> 01:47:05.600
I'm easygoing. Because somewhere deep down inside, I also felt like if I actually say what I want,

1677
01:47:06.400 --> 01:47:09.920
or need, this guy won't like me.

1678
01:47:10.880 --> 01:47:17.280
So we do that. We don't, we don't necessarily lean into what do we like? What do we want?

1679
01:47:17.920 --> 01:47:23.440
And is it okay to have McDonald's? Of course. But y'all, you better be going on dates that

1680
01:47:23.440 --> 01:47:28.880
are better than McDonald's. Okay, we're just gonna set that that tone right now.

1681
01:47:31.360 --> 01:47:36.000
Oh, man. I'm doing a little funny as we're getting late in the night. But just seriously,

1682
01:47:36.080 --> 01:47:39.840
we're getting late in the night. But just seriously, like, I think you just have to

1683
01:47:39.840 --> 01:47:46.080
start asking the Lord. Like, when did you start telling yourself that you had to just be okay

1684
01:47:46.080 --> 01:47:53.520
with whatever? You know, and you may need to I used to feel really uncomfortable at fancy

1685
01:47:53.520 --> 01:48:01.280
restaurants, too. And sometimes I still do. But I have found that the and I'm not like we don't

1686
01:48:01.280 --> 01:48:05.840
overspend you guys, like when we went to Hawaii recently, we saved for the whole trip,

1687
01:48:05.840 --> 01:48:12.480
we paid for it in cash, we did not go into debt, God is blessing our lives. And so I'm not big on

1688
01:48:12.480 --> 01:48:17.360
just like, I don't like to waste money. And I don't like to be frivolous. I really don't. But

1689
01:48:19.120 --> 01:48:25.040
I have found that I really enjoy from time to time going to a very nice restaurant

1690
01:48:25.600 --> 01:48:34.080
that I wouldn't normally go to. And just experiencing it and the food you all is like,

1691
01:48:35.040 --> 01:48:42.240
it is so good. It really is very different. A steak at a fancy restaurant is way different

1692
01:48:42.240 --> 01:48:46.800
than a steak at just, you know, and again, it's like a Texas Roadhouse. And those are great.

1693
01:48:47.760 --> 01:48:52.160
But there's just something really kind of wonderful about experiencing

1694
01:48:53.760 --> 01:48:59.120
finer taste, finer food. And it's not just the restaurant thing. It's kind of like what

1695
01:48:59.120 --> 01:49:06.960
Jen was sharing earlier to like, if you walk into a fancy hotel, are you comfortable there?

1696
01:49:08.160 --> 01:49:14.320
Maybe going and sitting in the lobby and letting yourself just be there and feel it

1697
01:49:14.320 --> 01:49:19.760
and experience it. So I would encourage you, Mary, I think, like I said earlier,

1698
01:49:19.760 --> 01:49:24.160
ask the Lord, what do you need to buy yourself? Where do you need to go? Do you need to go

1699
01:49:24.160 --> 01:49:30.720
somewhere that you wouldn't normally go and just start to experience that kind of upgrade environment

1700
01:49:33.280 --> 01:49:38.080
so that you start to get comfortable. And again, it doesn't mean that that's going to be your,

1701
01:49:38.080 --> 01:49:41.600
maybe it will be your normal, but it doesn't mean that that's something you have to do all the time

1702
01:49:41.600 --> 01:49:45.840
if that's not really what you like. But it's more about, again, like

1703
01:49:48.640 --> 01:49:53.760
why, what's leading you to not get up in that chair at the table, like what you said.

1704
01:49:53.760 --> 01:49:59.840
So ask the Lord, like, when's the first time that you were afraid?

1705
01:50:00.000 --> 01:50:02.840
to get up in the chair, so to speak.

1706
01:50:02.840 --> 01:50:05.080
Was there a time where there was a blessing

1707
01:50:05.080 --> 01:50:06.520
that was sitting there for you,

1708
01:50:06.520 --> 01:50:09.960
and for some reason you had fear

1709
01:50:09.960 --> 01:50:13.320
that if you actually took a hold of that,

1710
01:50:13.320 --> 01:50:15.520
that there would be consequences for it?

1711
01:50:16.400 --> 01:50:18.600
Or here's the flip side, ladies,

1712
01:50:18.600 --> 01:50:20.720
and I'm gonna start to close us.

1713
01:50:20.720 --> 01:50:25.640
Sometimes you all were afraid of our own greatness.

1714
01:50:26.160 --> 01:50:28.600
Mary, I have a feeling that might be the case.

1715
01:50:29.680 --> 01:50:33.360
I think that there is greatness on the inside of everyone,

1716
01:50:33.360 --> 01:50:35.880
but right now I just feel like that there's the,

1717
01:50:35.880 --> 01:50:38.400
if I can find the quote, I'll put it up in the group,

1718
01:50:38.400 --> 01:50:39.360
but I'm not sure.

1719
01:50:39.360 --> 01:50:41.760
But there's a quote that talks about like,

1720
01:50:41.760 --> 01:50:46.760
basically, our greatest fear is that we would have

1721
01:50:46.760 --> 01:50:48.840
all this greatness on the inside of us,

1722
01:50:48.840 --> 01:50:50.760
and that we could actually change the world,

1723
01:50:50.760 --> 01:50:53.600
that we could actually impact those around us,

1724
01:50:53.640 --> 01:50:56.000
that we could actually impact those around us.

1725
01:50:56.000 --> 01:50:58.280
I mean, I'm kind of paraphrasing now,

1726
01:50:58.280 --> 01:51:00.400
but just, I feel like the fact

1727
01:51:00.400 --> 01:51:04.160
that you recognize the chair's out,

1728
01:51:04.160 --> 01:51:05.760
but you're not getting in it,

1729
01:51:05.760 --> 01:51:07.800
it could be because you're afraid

1730
01:51:07.800 --> 01:51:10.560
of how great you're actually gonna become

1731
01:51:10.560 --> 01:51:12.560
if you let yourself get in that chair.

1732
01:51:13.560 --> 01:51:17.080
And what will you leave behind when you do?

1733
01:51:18.520 --> 01:51:22.520
So are there fears of friends, people,

1734
01:51:22.560 --> 01:51:24.480
things being left behind?

1735
01:51:24.480 --> 01:51:26.000
Do you have any, and you don't have to answer now,

1736
01:51:26.000 --> 01:51:27.280
but I'm just kind of stirring this up

1737
01:51:27.280 --> 01:51:28.920
so you can go to the Lord with it.

1738
01:51:28.920 --> 01:51:32.480
But like, or are there fears of like,

1739
01:51:32.480 --> 01:51:34.760
if you get up in the chair and you start doing well,

1740
01:51:34.760 --> 01:51:37.120
that God's gonna pull that rug out from you

1741
01:51:37.120 --> 01:51:38.240
and it's gonna be taken away.

1742
01:51:38.240 --> 01:51:39.840
So why even let yourself get up there

1743
01:51:39.840 --> 01:51:41.120
and start to enjoy it now?

1744
01:51:43.280 --> 01:51:45.160
Okay, so it could be anything.

1745
01:51:45.160 --> 01:51:46.720
It could be stuff that I never even mentioned,

1746
01:51:46.720 --> 01:51:48.280
but just start asking the Lord about it.

1747
01:51:48.280 --> 01:51:50.640
He's bringing it to your mind for purpose

1748
01:51:50.640 --> 01:51:53.360
to lead you into greater freedom.

1749
01:51:53.360 --> 01:51:55.520
I also don't wanna forget,

1750
01:51:55.520 --> 01:51:58.400
I was gonna mention to Nicole,

1751
01:51:58.400 --> 01:52:01.120
you mentioned, would there really be a guy

1752
01:52:01.120 --> 01:52:04.920
that would want to be a dad to my five kids?

1753
01:52:04.920 --> 01:52:06.560
And the answer is yes.

1754
01:52:06.560 --> 01:52:08.080
Yes, there is.

1755
01:52:08.080 --> 01:52:10.080
And here's my example for you all.

1756
01:52:11.560 --> 01:52:14.280
I have no biological children of my own.

1757
01:52:15.760 --> 01:52:18.440
Y'all wanna guess how many kids I have now though?

1758
01:52:19.440 --> 01:52:20.640
You wanna guess, Nicole?

1759
01:52:22.600 --> 01:52:23.760
Five.

1760
01:52:23.760 --> 01:52:24.600
I have five.

1761
01:52:26.240 --> 01:52:29.200
I have my stepson from my first marriage.

1762
01:52:29.200 --> 01:52:31.680
I have my two spiritual daughters that I treat as my own,

1763
01:52:31.680 --> 01:52:33.800
like literally y'all, like they're mine.

1764
01:52:33.800 --> 01:52:35.600
I've adopted them.

1765
01:52:35.600 --> 01:52:38.040
And now I have my two daughters

1766
01:52:38.040 --> 01:52:41.160
that are my husband's daughters, but they are mine now.

1767
01:52:41.160 --> 01:52:43.760
I have five total.

1768
01:52:43.760 --> 01:52:47.640
I always thought I would have two kids of my own.

1769
01:52:48.160 --> 01:52:51.840
Many years ago, but God had different plans for me.

1770
01:52:51.840 --> 01:52:54.480
So I'm saying that to you to say,

1771
01:52:55.600 --> 01:52:59.320
none of those kids are biologically mine,

1772
01:53:00.240 --> 01:53:04.680
but they are 100% mine and I love them.

1773
01:53:04.680 --> 01:53:08.280
And I'm so grateful that God gave me an opportunity

1774
01:53:08.280 --> 01:53:09.440
to have them in my life.

1775
01:53:09.440 --> 01:53:13.000
And so I believe that there are men like that out there.

1776
01:53:13.000 --> 01:53:16.640
And I've seen my own husband loving my spiritual daughters

1777
01:53:16.680 --> 01:53:17.720
and investing in them.

1778
01:53:17.720 --> 01:53:19.800
Now that that's two for him,

1779
01:53:19.800 --> 01:53:21.520
well, three counting my stepson,

1780
01:53:21.520 --> 01:53:23.600
but you know what I'm saying, right?

1781
01:53:23.600 --> 01:53:24.680
You hear what I'm saying?

1782
01:53:24.680 --> 01:53:25.600
So it's out there.

1783
01:53:25.600 --> 01:53:26.640
Ladies, believe it.

1784
01:53:26.640 --> 01:53:27.840
God has good things for you.

1785
01:53:27.840 --> 01:53:30.120
Okay, we are way late tonight.

1786
01:53:30.120 --> 01:53:31.360
I see sleepy eyes.

1787
01:53:31.360 --> 01:53:32.960
I'm getting sleepy too.

1788
01:53:32.960 --> 01:53:34.960
I hope this was a blessing for you all.

1789
01:53:34.960 --> 01:53:37.080
I'll see you all in the Facebook group.

1790
01:53:37.080 --> 01:53:38.280
I'm gonna pray real quick.

1791
01:53:38.280 --> 01:53:39.880
Father, thank you.

1792
01:53:39.880 --> 01:53:42.600
Thank you for everything that you have done tonight,

1793
01:53:42.600 --> 01:53:44.800
the things that you're gonna continue to do.

1794
01:53:45.680 --> 01:53:47.960
Jesus, just come and help.

1795
01:53:47.960 --> 01:53:50.080
And the areas that we don't know how to break free,

1796
01:53:50.080 --> 01:53:51.920
we don't know what's holding us back.

1797
01:53:51.920 --> 01:53:54.240
We just ask for you to come and help.

1798
01:53:54.240 --> 01:53:57.520
Holy Spirit, we ask you to weave in and out of minds,

1799
01:53:57.520 --> 01:53:59.760
hearts, bodies, spirits, and souls,

1800
01:53:59.760 --> 01:54:01.000
and just minister to them.

1801
01:54:01.000 --> 01:54:02.640
We thank you that you're the great comforter.

1802
01:54:02.640 --> 01:54:03.920
You're our friend.

1803
01:54:03.920 --> 01:54:05.680
You're closer to us than a brother.

1804
01:54:05.680 --> 01:54:07.120
You're our counselor.

1805
01:54:07.120 --> 01:54:09.200
So counsel us even while we sleep.

1806
01:54:10.160 --> 01:54:13.080
We thank you for healing being released in Jesus name.

1807
01:54:13.080 --> 01:54:14.120
Be with them this week.

1808
01:54:14.160 --> 01:54:16.200
Protect them from every attack of the enemy.

1809
01:54:16.200 --> 01:54:20.520
Keep watch and guard over them and their families.

1810
01:54:20.520 --> 01:54:22.040
In Jesus name.

1811
01:54:22.040 --> 01:54:22.880
Amen.

1812
01:54:22.880 --> 01:54:24.280
All right, y'all.

1813
01:54:24.280 --> 01:54:25.120
I'm checking out.