WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:07.120 We're going to jump into heart check-in number three, week three, and again, just regardless 2 00:00:07.120 --> 00:00:14.120 of where you're at in your own journey with the book and the material, no worries. 3 00:00:14.120 --> 00:00:20.000 You could be a little bit behind this or you could be in front of it, it's okay, but we're 4 00:00:20.000 --> 00:00:27.660 just going to have some time to discuss the third part, the third check-in, and this is 5 00:00:27.660 --> 00:00:29.820 dealing more with repentance and confession. 6 00:00:29.820 --> 00:00:39.500 We kind of introduced that last week a little bit just by mention, and so a couple just 7 00:00:39.500 --> 00:00:45.140 housekeeping items, just a reminder, as always, doing your heart work and everything, you're 8 00:00:45.140 --> 00:00:51.340 going to want to take one day at a time, of course, right? 9 00:00:51.340 --> 00:00:55.620 And literally, that's kind of like life as it is. 10 00:00:55.620 --> 00:00:59.500 I mean, we can really only take one day at a time. 11 00:00:59.500 --> 00:01:04.060 Scripture even says you're not really promised tomorrow. 12 00:01:04.060 --> 00:01:13.160 So the lesson and the wisdom there is that it's better to focus on right now, the present, 13 00:01:13.160 --> 00:01:19.820 one day at a time, what happened today, and keeping that in mind. 14 00:01:19.820 --> 00:01:24.180 And not that we don't long range plan, but at the same time, we take it with a grain 15 00:01:24.180 --> 00:01:25.180 of salt. 16 00:01:25.740 --> 00:01:26.740 Take it easy. 17 00:01:26.740 --> 00:01:27.740 Take it one day at a time. 18 00:01:27.740 --> 00:01:28.740 Don't quit. 19 00:01:28.740 --> 00:01:29.740 Keep going. 20 00:01:29.740 --> 00:01:36.260 I love the fact that you guys are showing up for these heart check-ins every Monday, 21 00:01:36.260 --> 00:01:37.580 so that's great. 22 00:01:37.580 --> 00:01:39.340 So I really appreciate that. 23 00:01:39.340 --> 00:01:45.860 That tells me and tells yourself that, hey, I'm continuing to go. 24 00:01:45.860 --> 00:01:51.940 I'm going through this process, and I'm seeing it to the end, so that's awesome. 25 00:01:51.940 --> 00:01:54.540 Celebrate your victories and your breakthroughs. 26 00:01:54.540 --> 00:02:00.300 And I'll give you an opportunity to maybe just kind of share a little bit about that, 27 00:02:00.300 --> 00:02:04.860 because I think it's important to celebrate those, however small or great they may be 28 00:02:04.860 --> 00:02:06.860 in this process. 29 00:02:06.860 --> 00:02:11.420 And you may not even realize, you may not even think, hey, something did happen, but 30 00:02:11.420 --> 00:02:15.820 it has nothing to do with the hard work, but that may not necessarily be true. 31 00:02:15.820 --> 00:02:20.300 So go ahead and share any of your wins or any of your breakthroughs or any victories 32 00:02:20.300 --> 00:02:23.940 that you had sometime this week. 33 00:02:23.940 --> 00:02:32.820 So we'll do that in just a moment. 34 00:02:32.820 --> 00:02:40.100 So one of the things that we want to lay down right now is the, well, let's just do that 35 00:02:40.100 --> 00:02:43.500 breakthroughs and victories first before we get into this next area. 36 00:02:43.500 --> 00:02:51.700 So anybody have a breakthrough or victory, a win this week? 37 00:02:51.700 --> 00:02:56.860 Like I said, could be great, could be even just very, very, very small. 38 00:02:56.860 --> 00:03:00.820 Maybe you think it's only something that matters to you, and actually, those are some of the 39 00:03:00.820 --> 00:03:05.060 things that matter the most, especially through this process. 40 00:03:05.060 --> 00:03:12.660 So anybody got anything that you want to share, breakthrough, victory, a win this week? 41 00:03:12.660 --> 00:03:21.780 Anything positive, something to just brag on Jesus for a moment. 42 00:03:21.780 --> 00:03:22.780 I'm happy to share. 43 00:03:22.780 --> 00:03:23.780 Go ahead, Tom. 44 00:03:23.780 --> 00:03:30.900 And if y'all saw my post on Facebook in the kind of what's going on with your heart this 45 00:03:30.900 --> 00:03:36.860 week, I shared some about this, but I was at a church retreat this weekend, and during 46 00:03:36.860 --> 00:03:45.060 one of the worship sets, I really, I felt like God said, you know, I love you, which 47 00:03:45.060 --> 00:03:51.980 he said before, but I felt myself having a very, very strong reaction of telling God, 48 00:03:51.980 --> 00:04:00.820 I don't want you to just tell me that, I want you to show me that, and kind of upset, and 49 00:04:00.820 --> 00:04:10.780 even kind of angry, and I felt a lot like the younger son in the two lost sons story, 50 00:04:10.780 --> 00:04:16.300 when I realized how much I wanted God's promises, or what the end according to that story might 51 00:04:16.300 --> 00:04:24.500 be, my inheritance kind of on my terms and on my timing, and I felt like realizing that 52 00:04:24.500 --> 00:04:29.820 that was kind of the attitude of my heart, helped me kind of have a really big breakthrough 53 00:04:29.820 --> 00:04:37.260 in terms of understanding that if I believe that God is trustworthy, then I can wait 54 00:04:37.260 --> 00:04:42.380 to experience God's promises, in God's timing and on God's terms. 55 00:04:42.380 --> 00:04:47.900 And it opened up a lot of forgiveness opportunities for my parents, where I realized that a lot 56 00:04:47.900 --> 00:04:53.460 of the words were there, but not as much kind of backup option, or backup. 57 00:04:53.460 --> 00:04:59.980 So I'm feeling, it felt like there was such a big, like thorn that came out of the 58 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:09.200 the ground of my heart and I feel like my heart is softer and I feel more way more peace and also 59 00:05:10.400 --> 00:05:18.160 I feel so grateful to learn that it's not either that the promise won't be kept or it will be 60 00:05:18.160 --> 00:05:22.240 kept but it has to be the way I want it to be. It's that the promise will be kept but maybe 61 00:05:22.240 --> 00:05:28.800 God's way is an incredible kind of breaking of the false dichotomy that I that I was. 62 00:05:30.560 --> 00:05:37.920 Now that's really good. You know it's really important. First thing that came to mind was 63 00:05:37.920 --> 00:05:44.240 you said that God spoke to you and told you that he loved you. There's a lot of people that 64 00:05:44.240 --> 00:05:50.880 really feel like they've never heard God voice or speak to them or like a still small voice 65 00:05:50.880 --> 00:05:58.800 like scripture says never even heard you know any kind of communication from God. So it's important 66 00:05:58.800 --> 00:06:05.120 it's always a win when you have a moment where you feel like genuinely God has you know communicated 67 00:06:05.120 --> 00:06:09.360 with you directly. That's really awesome and that's no small thing for sure because there's 68 00:06:09.360 --> 00:06:16.320 a lot of people that feel like they've never witnessed that. The other thing is it's important 69 00:06:16.320 --> 00:06:26.240 to just like we all we all know principally in our minds that honesty is the best policy and 70 00:06:26.240 --> 00:06:35.200 you know it's all good but from sometimes in our religious rhetoric we feel like we can't be honest 71 00:06:36.320 --> 00:06:41.840 and so you know kind of like you were saying this like you know you're like God I appreciate you 72 00:06:41.840 --> 00:06:46.640 saying this it's really awesome but I really want to feel this you know and God's not I just 73 00:06:46.640 --> 00:06:58.880 want you to know guys that God's not afraid of your real heart posture. He's not afraid of your 74 00:06:58.880 --> 00:07:07.920 emotions. He's not afraid for you to be disappointed or like let down like some people might say oh my 75 00:07:08.000 --> 00:07:14.240 gosh God spoke to you isn't that good enough and it's like well oh you know and then you would feel 76 00:07:14.240 --> 00:07:19.840 guilt and shame for like oh I feel bad for taking this a step further and I just I want to break 77 00:07:19.840 --> 00:07:24.640 that myth because it's very important especially through heartwork. These are some of the myths 78 00:07:24.640 --> 00:07:31.600 and some of the things that people deal with from a spirit of religiosity feeling like oh I couldn't 79 00:07:31.600 --> 00:07:40.240 do that I shouldn't do that and it's just like no God's not afraid of the real you and the real you 80 00:07:40.240 --> 00:07:49.520 sometimes is very has questions has trauma has pain associated these are the opportunities what 81 00:07:49.520 --> 00:07:55.040 I would say that you actually had a breakthrough in heartwork because you being honest about like 82 00:07:55.040 --> 00:07:59.600 hey that's great I'm glad you said that but I really want to feel this and then it caused you 83 00:07:59.600 --> 00:08:08.000 to go further into the inquiry in your heart as to why and as to what's happening and so you 84 00:08:08.000 --> 00:08:15.200 allowed an opportunity for there to be breakthrough because you weren't just satisfied to go oh I heard 85 00:08:15.200 --> 00:08:21.760 God that should be good enough like God's like no I want you to press in I'm okay with you 86 00:08:22.640 --> 00:08:29.760 going asking questions or like wanting more or like almost demanding more like well you know 87 00:08:30.800 --> 00:08:35.360 because he wants to be that close with you wants to be that intimate you wants to be that real 88 00:08:35.360 --> 00:08:42.400 with you and so it's okay for us to go that's great but I really kind of want it this way I 89 00:08:42.400 --> 00:08:50.080 need this because and God understands the reason he's really good that way he actually knows 90 00:08:51.040 --> 00:08:58.160 not only what we're thinking guys this is different God not only knows what we're thinking 91 00:08:59.440 --> 00:09:09.040 he understands why we're thinking what we're thinking so it's like oh just be honest with 92 00:09:09.040 --> 00:09:16.080 God because he already knows what you're thinking but the real the secret or the real awesomeness 93 00:09:16.160 --> 00:09:23.600 of that is that he actually knows the motivation of why you feel that way and so it's not until 94 00:09:23.600 --> 00:09:33.600 you voice that and you come open with that that sometimes you know he's not able to really step 95 00:09:33.600 --> 00:09:38.720 into that because it's almost like you haven't given him permission because you haven't asked 96 00:09:38.880 --> 00:09:45.040 kind of brings new meaning to the scripture that says you have not because you ask not 97 00:09:47.840 --> 00:09:54.880 you ever thought about that Thomas yeah yeah quite a bit like as in like as in 98 00:09:54.880 --> 00:09:58.400 oh usually it's like well I should ask for something like I should 99 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:02.960 and ask for things and I, because I'm just being humble 100 00:10:02.960 --> 00:10:06.640 or I'm being too, playing too small or whatever. 101 00:10:06.640 --> 00:10:09.480 It's like, no, that's actually some part of the truth. 102 00:10:09.480 --> 00:10:14.480 But part of the other truth in asking is asking 103 00:10:14.880 --> 00:10:17.080 and being willing and feeling like it's okay 104 00:10:17.080 --> 00:10:21.760 to ask for things that we don't think are right to ask 105 00:10:21.760 --> 00:10:25.400 or would be too much, it would be taboo, right? 106 00:10:25.400 --> 00:10:28.360 Or being scared that, or in my case, 107 00:10:28.400 --> 00:10:32.080 I'm frequently scared that I'll ask for the wrong thing. 108 00:10:32.080 --> 00:10:34.200 Right, right, exactly, of course. 109 00:10:34.200 --> 00:10:36.480 And that's the thing, that's the conversation. 110 00:10:36.480 --> 00:10:40.240 It's like, you know, if you were to have a conversation 111 00:10:40.240 --> 00:10:43.280 with somebody that's a person, a human being 112 00:10:43.280 --> 00:10:45.160 that you really, really trusted, 113 00:10:46.600 --> 00:10:50.760 you know, you wouldn't be afraid to ask this question. 114 00:10:50.760 --> 00:10:52.640 You could feel like, hey, I can be honest with you. 115 00:10:52.640 --> 00:10:54.920 I like, you know, this is really, 116 00:10:54.920 --> 00:10:57.920 I'm vulnerable in asking this, but I feel like this is, 117 00:10:58.400 --> 00:10:59.760 you know, something, right? 118 00:11:00.720 --> 00:11:03.240 And then you trust that person so much 119 00:11:03.240 --> 00:11:05.040 that they gave you an honest answer like, 120 00:11:05.040 --> 00:11:08.200 hey, no, no, that's not a dumb question. 121 00:11:08.200 --> 00:11:09.680 That's not a bad question. 122 00:11:09.680 --> 00:11:14.000 I understand, let me help you illuminate, you know, 123 00:11:14.000 --> 00:11:16.040 what's going on or what my response would be 124 00:11:16.040 --> 00:11:19.040 or how, you know, like, why are you feeling that way? 125 00:11:19.040 --> 00:11:24.040 That is the same kind of conversation, prayer, right? 126 00:11:24.920 --> 00:11:27.600 Prayer is just basically talking with God. 127 00:11:28.240 --> 00:11:29.080 It's the same kind of conversation 128 00:11:29.080 --> 00:11:30.840 that God wants to have with us. 129 00:11:30.840 --> 00:11:35.800 We don't always know the why behind the what. 130 00:11:37.160 --> 00:11:38.920 The Holy Spirit does. 131 00:11:40.280 --> 00:11:41.800 God the Father does. 132 00:11:42.880 --> 00:11:46.840 And so when we ask Holy Spirit to reveal things for us, 133 00:11:46.840 --> 00:11:48.800 sometimes it's more of an inquiry. 134 00:11:50.040 --> 00:11:52.440 Instead of you making a statement like I need it this way, 135 00:11:52.440 --> 00:11:54.800 sometimes you might just pose it as a question like, 136 00:11:54.800 --> 00:11:58.320 hey, it's great that you talk to me, 137 00:11:58.320 --> 00:12:01.120 but I kind of feel this way. 138 00:12:01.120 --> 00:12:03.320 Why do I feel this way? 139 00:12:03.320 --> 00:12:05.800 Why do I feel like I need for it to be shown to me 140 00:12:05.800 --> 00:12:09.920 rather than just to hear it or whatever the case may be? 141 00:12:09.920 --> 00:12:12.520 And when you have that honest conversation 142 00:12:12.520 --> 00:12:14.520 to inquire about this, it's like, 143 00:12:14.520 --> 00:12:17.680 man, that's really great, but I also feel this way. 144 00:12:17.680 --> 00:12:19.760 God, why do I feel this way? 145 00:12:19.760 --> 00:12:21.280 I feel like that's not the right way 146 00:12:21.280 --> 00:12:22.520 I'm supposed to feel, right? 147 00:12:22.520 --> 00:12:23.960 I feel that's not good. 148 00:12:23.960 --> 00:12:25.800 But at the same time, that is the way I feel. 149 00:12:25.800 --> 00:12:27.040 So I'm just being honest. 150 00:12:27.040 --> 00:12:29.360 And so I just need you to take this moment 151 00:12:29.360 --> 00:12:32.520 in this conversation that we're having 152 00:12:32.520 --> 00:12:36.040 and just do some revealing for healing. 153 00:12:36.040 --> 00:12:37.400 And that's exactly what happened to you. 154 00:12:37.400 --> 00:12:39.360 It sounds like you got some breakthrough. 155 00:12:40.520 --> 00:12:41.880 That's pretty cool. 156 00:12:41.880 --> 00:12:45.960 So it's working, it's doing, it's happening. 157 00:12:45.960 --> 00:12:46.800 Who else? 158 00:12:46.800 --> 00:12:48.440 Josh, James, you got anything 159 00:12:48.440 --> 00:12:51.280 as far as breakthroughs and victories this week? 160 00:12:52.280 --> 00:12:54.880 Great, small, anything? 161 00:13:01.680 --> 00:13:04.400 Not any big victories. 162 00:13:04.400 --> 00:13:09.400 I think maybe more, I think in the past, 163 00:13:12.560 --> 00:13:14.480 like my birthday is coming up 164 00:13:14.480 --> 00:13:17.960 and I've always, it's kind of a bittersweet day. 165 00:13:18.800 --> 00:13:21.440 You say it's in the past or it's coming up? 166 00:13:21.440 --> 00:13:22.760 Us tomorrow. 167 00:13:22.760 --> 00:13:24.560 Tomorrow, oh, happy birthday. 168 00:13:24.560 --> 00:13:25.400 Thank you. 169 00:13:26.800 --> 00:13:29.560 Yeah, I used to just really hate my birthday. 170 00:13:29.560 --> 00:13:32.280 And I would just quote Joe, 171 00:13:34.280 --> 00:13:35.120 what's that verse? 172 00:13:35.120 --> 00:13:40.120 It's really about, I wish it never existed, whatever, 173 00:13:42.280 --> 00:13:44.440 and it's really dark. 174 00:13:44.440 --> 00:13:45.800 And then I would just joke around that, 175 00:13:45.800 --> 00:13:47.200 and then I would just joke around that, 176 00:13:47.200 --> 00:13:51.560 oh yeah, it's biblical, I just don't like my birthday. 177 00:13:51.560 --> 00:13:56.000 But this year, yeah, I don't know what it is, 178 00:13:56.000 --> 00:13:58.480 but I don't love my birthday, but I don't hate it either. 179 00:13:58.480 --> 00:14:00.200 So I'm more neutral. 180 00:14:00.200 --> 00:14:02.440 I guess there's progress, a little progress. 181 00:14:02.440 --> 00:14:03.880 Progress, yeah. 182 00:14:03.880 --> 00:14:05.480 Yeah, and then yeah, just a little, 183 00:14:05.480 --> 00:14:09.800 like Josh's buddy on Sunday, he treated me out 184 00:14:09.800 --> 00:14:12.240 and then he surprised me with a cake and stuff. 185 00:14:12.240 --> 00:14:14.560 So I was like, oh, that was really great. 186 00:14:15.520 --> 00:14:16.360 It was a good time. 187 00:14:16.360 --> 00:14:20.240 So just like little small dinners have been happening 188 00:14:20.240 --> 00:14:22.840 and just feeling, yeah, in the past, 189 00:14:22.840 --> 00:14:25.320 I used to have a lot more bigger. 190 00:14:25.320 --> 00:14:28.480 I used to really have more, like a lot more friends, 191 00:14:28.480 --> 00:14:29.640 but now it's just more, 192 00:14:29.640 --> 00:14:32.280 I just enjoy like smaller groups now. 193 00:14:33.120 --> 00:14:35.240 Maybe a little more meaningful, 194 00:14:35.240 --> 00:14:38.360 meaning associated with these smaller groups. 195 00:14:38.360 --> 00:14:40.160 Sure, sure, yeah. 196 00:14:41.240 --> 00:14:44.240 And do you have any reason just really simply 197 00:14:44.800 --> 00:14:48.920 why there's such a misery 198 00:14:48.920 --> 00:14:52.600 or hatefulness around your birthday? 199 00:14:52.600 --> 00:14:57.600 Yeah, I mean, I think just being single in the 40s, 200 00:14:58.800 --> 00:15:00.120 so it kind of. 201 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:04.800 hit me, that this is not where I want it to be. And, you know, 202 00:15:04.800 --> 00:15:08.520 just losing, you know, my mom two years ago, just made it like 203 00:15:08.520 --> 00:15:12.600 worse. Okay. And then so you just kind of think like, oh, you 204 00:15:12.600 --> 00:15:17.600 know, I don't like this life. Okay, what's, you know, I'm just 205 00:15:17.640 --> 00:15:20.840 you just think about okay, a year has passed. How come I'm 206 00:15:20.840 --> 00:15:25.240 the same person? How come I feels like nothing has changed? 207 00:15:25.640 --> 00:15:30.280 I see. Yeah, so just a combination of these. Okay, 208 00:15:30.320 --> 00:15:35.320 okay. I get it. Well, maybe. Yeah. Sounds like you're having 209 00:15:35.360 --> 00:15:39.560 a little bit of progress. And it's great. Shaded even in the 210 00:15:39.560 --> 00:15:44.880 smallest way sometimes. And so that's cool. Good. Maybe there's 211 00:15:44.880 --> 00:15:48.360 some there's definitely right direction there. Yeah. Some 212 00:15:48.360 --> 00:15:51.560 friends I'll take are taking a Korean barbecue after this. So 213 00:15:51.560 --> 00:15:54.680 it's really good time. Cool. Yeah, I like Korean barbecue. I 214 00:15:54.680 --> 00:15:57.120 did that in San Francisco just recently. And then we have a 215 00:15:57.120 --> 00:16:00.120 place that is cream barbecue, too. It's really cool. Fun. 216 00:16:00.760 --> 00:16:04.040 Here in SoCal. Let me know if you're in Irvine area. Yeah, 217 00:16:04.040 --> 00:16:07.800 okay. I'll show you some spots right. Irvine. Okay. Sounds 218 00:16:07.800 --> 00:16:15.720 good. Josh, you have anything? Victory. Stretch and reach. 219 00:16:15.840 --> 00:16:22.240 Come on. I don't have much. Come on. I mean, okay, I did. Some 220 00:16:22.240 --> 00:16:26.200 cork board for the Jesus cares board. So I'm making a step 221 00:16:26.200 --> 00:16:31.600 forward. Okay. The progress on the board. All right. We'll 222 00:16:31.600 --> 00:16:35.320 leave it at that. And I read one chapter I was able to fit that 223 00:16:35.320 --> 00:16:40.960 in last week was it just had a way more overtime going on than 224 00:16:40.960 --> 00:16:44.160 usual because of a security incident that I'm dealing with 225 00:16:44.200 --> 00:16:48.560 at work. So but it's a good thing anyway. 226 00:16:49.560 --> 00:16:52.320 Okay, well, let's, let's, let's talk a little bit about 227 00:16:52.320 --> 00:16:55.480 repentance, because it's kind of like, I know, it may not seem 228 00:16:55.480 --> 00:17:00.080 like it's directly related. But, um, let's talk a little bit 229 00:17:00.080 --> 00:17:02.360 about this, because it's important to understand what 230 00:17:02.360 --> 00:17:07.200 repentance is, first and foremost. repentance, like by 231 00:17:07.200 --> 00:17:13.640 definition is really just coming out of agreement with lies. It's 232 00:17:14.000 --> 00:17:19.040 it's, it's, I don't know, whatever kind of heavy religious 233 00:17:19.040 --> 00:17:22.800 connotations that you've ever experienced or understood about 234 00:17:22.960 --> 00:17:27.680 the word repentance. But so many cultural references and even 235 00:17:27.680 --> 00:17:32.760 religious references, repent, being some sort of like, very 236 00:17:32.800 --> 00:17:38.720 contrite, very humbling, sort of like demeaning sort of scenario 237 00:17:38.720 --> 00:17:41.680 where you're coming to your knees, it's a coming to Jesus 238 00:17:41.680 --> 00:17:45.080 moment, you better repent. And if you don't, bad things are 239 00:17:45.080 --> 00:17:49.760 going to happen. repentance is usually synonymous or in the 240 00:17:49.760 --> 00:17:55.560 same connotation of, you know, really just going low, and just 241 00:17:55.560 --> 00:18:01.200 being very sorrowful or being very just down and depressing, 242 00:18:01.440 --> 00:18:06.960 sort of attitude. And I mean, it can be that's not that, you 243 00:18:06.960 --> 00:18:11.360 know, sometimes there are things that you feel so heavy about 244 00:18:11.360 --> 00:18:17.200 that it, it, it kind of goes that direction. David, when he 245 00:18:17.200 --> 00:18:21.560 repented for the Lord, laid on his face without food and water 246 00:18:21.560 --> 00:18:25.480 for I don't remember what how many, I think it was six days or 247 00:18:25.480 --> 00:18:27.760 something. I don't know, can't remember how long it was. But it 248 00:18:27.760 --> 00:18:31.360 was just an incredible amount of time. And of course, his his 249 00:18:31.360 --> 00:18:34.480 servants and his people and the priests were trying to like, you 250 00:18:34.480 --> 00:18:37.520 know, encourage him to eat and what and he just wouldn't do it 251 00:18:37.760 --> 00:18:41.920 until the child died. And then when he received the news that 252 00:18:41.920 --> 00:18:45.800 the child had passed, this was a child he had with Bathsheba. And 253 00:18:46.920 --> 00:18:56.400 and so when when the child had died, then he lifted himself up, 254 00:18:56.400 --> 00:18:58.920 dust himself off, cleaned himself and went through a whole 255 00:18:58.920 --> 00:19:01.960 cleansing ritual, and then just went back to his life and so 256 00:19:01.960 --> 00:19:05.720 forth. And so this was, you know, a very heavy sort of 257 00:19:05.720 --> 00:19:10.360 repentance sort of thing. But in actuality, repentance is 258 00:19:10.360 --> 00:19:18.880 really just coming out of agreement with lies. It is, it's 259 00:19:18.880 --> 00:19:22.960 a changing of the heart and changing of the mind to see the 260 00:19:22.960 --> 00:19:30.000 truth in a situation, the truth about you, the truth about your 261 00:19:30.680 --> 00:19:34.960 way of thinking and your behavior, a truth and revealing 262 00:19:34.960 --> 00:19:39.360 of your true identity and who you really are. And so all of 263 00:19:39.360 --> 00:19:42.800 those things, when you have a change of mindset of your change 264 00:19:42.800 --> 00:19:46.840 of heart, and you come out of agreement with the lies that are 265 00:19:46.840 --> 00:19:51.800 trying to attack you, and trying to overcome and trying to shape 266 00:19:51.800 --> 00:19:58.880 your life. You have as a result, new ways of thinking and new 267 00:19:58.880 --> 00:19:59.840 behavior, that's 268 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:04.680 the where we want to get to is the where's the behavior change. 269 00:20:05.560 --> 00:20:08.600 The mindset shift is great, and it's very important. But the 270 00:20:08.600 --> 00:20:13.680 mindset mindset shift has to come before the change behavior 271 00:20:13.680 --> 00:20:18.160 typically, because you have typically when you have a 272 00:20:18.160 --> 00:20:22.080 renewed understanding or a better understanding of what 273 00:20:22.080 --> 00:20:25.400 you're going through, or what you're up against, or what you 274 00:20:25.680 --> 00:20:28.360 the reason you've been behaving the way you've been behaving. 275 00:20:28.920 --> 00:20:32.040 New behavior comes as a result of having that change 276 00:20:32.040 --> 00:20:36.920 perspective. So that's really what repentance is. And 277 00:20:36.920 --> 00:20:42.200 repentance is something that's an ongoing process in our lives. 278 00:20:43.320 --> 00:20:48.160 So as we understand that we are living in a fallen state of 279 00:20:48.160 --> 00:20:53.080 fallen nature, there's a continual process of coming into 280 00:20:53.080 --> 00:20:57.280 renewal coming into agreement with the righteousness coming 281 00:20:57.280 --> 00:21:01.520 into agreement with heaven, coming out of agreement with 282 00:21:01.520 --> 00:21:04.400 the lies coming out of agreement with like for James the 283 00:21:04.400 --> 00:21:08.840 situation like, um, yeah, I mean, even the lamentation or 284 00:21:08.880 --> 00:21:13.000 Job's story is like he rude the day he was born. So, so for 285 00:21:13.000 --> 00:21:17.080 those very specific to job situation, I wouldn't recommend 286 00:21:17.080 --> 00:21:20.440 that as a life of verse, you know, for someone to go around 287 00:21:20.440 --> 00:21:24.600 quoting, you know, this or about your birthday. So, you know, 288 00:21:24.880 --> 00:21:28.480 you know, your birthday, the day of your birth, it should be 289 00:21:28.480 --> 00:21:32.240 celebrated, of course, it should be recognized individuals should 290 00:21:32.240 --> 00:21:36.960 be appreciated for their coming into this coming into this life. 291 00:21:36.960 --> 00:21:40.040 Typically, that's kind of how we do the even the worst of 292 00:21:40.040 --> 00:21:43.920 individuals celebrate their birthday. So it definitely 293 00:21:43.920 --> 00:21:47.320 should be something that you should come out of agreement with 294 00:21:47.320 --> 00:21:50.160 regard to the negativity surrounding your birthday. Now, 295 00:21:50.560 --> 00:21:55.920 why you are in that state is not invalid. I mean, it's, it's the 296 00:21:55.920 --> 00:22:00.760 truth. And you have done some exploration on that. But at the 297 00:22:00.760 --> 00:22:06.040 same time, you should come out of agreement with the lies 298 00:22:06.040 --> 00:22:11.520 that are associated with the, you know, the the troublesome 299 00:22:11.520 --> 00:22:15.280 day of your birthday, that should be celebrated, it should 300 00:22:15.280 --> 00:22:18.640 be a thing of joy. So as you come out of agreement with that, 301 00:22:18.640 --> 00:22:22.800 as you repent of that, things should begin to change. And I 302 00:22:22.800 --> 00:22:26.400 hope they will for you in the coming years for especially for 303 00:22:26.400 --> 00:22:34.520 that day. So it's an ongoing process. And but there are a lot 304 00:22:34.520 --> 00:22:39.240 of things when we don't repent, we continue to believe the lies. 305 00:22:39.760 --> 00:22:46.120 Um, what do we do instead? Anybody know? 306 00:22:52.280 --> 00:22:54.200 When we when we refuse to repent? 307 00:22:55.040 --> 00:22:59.200 I mean, you live and I mean, you just embrace the lies. 308 00:23:00.840 --> 00:23:04.880 Hi, guys. There she is the one and only Jackie. 309 00:23:05.880 --> 00:23:09.640 Yeah, you continue to believe the lies. I don't know what we're 310 00:23:09.640 --> 00:23:12.600 talking about. Can I say something? Repentance? Okay. But 311 00:23:12.600 --> 00:23:16.200 I want to say something to you guys real quick. Okay. I just 312 00:23:16.200 --> 00:23:19.040 the three of you. Is that all? Yeah. Where's Joseph? These are 313 00:23:19.040 --> 00:23:22.200 new guys. Joseph down here tonight. Okay. Now listen, I 314 00:23:22.200 --> 00:23:24.120 want to tell you guys something. I just shared it with the women 315 00:23:24.120 --> 00:23:27.000 because they're having heart check in tonight to guys really 316 00:23:27.000 --> 00:23:32.280 talking to me about us being very aware of the stories that 317 00:23:32.880 --> 00:23:37.840 we tell ourselves. So all of us have like a continuous stream of 318 00:23:37.840 --> 00:23:42.680 consciousness, right? And our stories take shape, they have a 319 00:23:42.680 --> 00:23:46.400 form, they usually sound a certain way. I know that when I 320 00:23:46.400 --> 00:23:50.000 get overwhelmed, I get stressed out, I will tell myself that 321 00:23:50.000 --> 00:23:53.480 it's not worth it to just quit to just give it up. You know, we 322 00:23:53.480 --> 00:23:56.840 have to pay attention to the language that we speak to 323 00:23:56.840 --> 00:23:59.400 ourselves in. And really the stories that we tell ourselves 324 00:23:59.520 --> 00:24:02.280 about what other people are thinking about us, or about 325 00:24:02.280 --> 00:24:06.200 whether we can be successful in a situation. And you have to pay 326 00:24:06.200 --> 00:24:08.520 attention not only to what you're telling yourself, but 327 00:24:08.520 --> 00:24:12.160 when you're telling yourself it. So I want you to be really 328 00:24:12.160 --> 00:24:15.000 conscious of that part of hard work is becoming very self 329 00:24:15.000 --> 00:24:18.680 aware. Because I still tell myself that stuff, because we 330 00:24:18.680 --> 00:24:23.200 can't erase, but we can replace. So even though those thoughts, 331 00:24:23.200 --> 00:24:26.160 those intrusive and obsessive thoughts still come to me, I 332 00:24:26.160 --> 00:24:29.840 recognize them. Now, I recognize when I'm having them, 333 00:24:30.040 --> 00:24:33.520 like, when am I having them? What is the scenario in which 334 00:24:33.520 --> 00:24:36.520 I'm having them, and then I'm able to replace them with truth, 335 00:24:37.120 --> 00:24:40.160 not act on them not react out of them, but replace them with 336 00:24:40.160 --> 00:24:43.800 truth. That's going to be a huge, a huge game changer for 337 00:24:43.800 --> 00:24:49.840 y'all. Good, good. Thank you. Amen. Hope you enjoy Columbia. 338 00:24:52.160 --> 00:24:53.520 Yes, it's beautiful. So 339 00:24:53.560 --> 00:24:55.800 muy caliente. Yes, very hot here. 340 00:24:57.280 --> 00:24:59.560 90s degrees, very humid. 341 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:01.920 A lot of hot women here, too. 342 00:25:01.920 --> 00:25:04.280 Jackie said there's a lot of hot women, so we might have, 343 00:25:04.280 --> 00:25:07.240 like, we might need to have a men's retreat 344 00:25:07.240 --> 00:25:08.840 to come down here and... 345 00:25:10.000 --> 00:25:11.660 Oh, from our group, she said. 346 00:25:13.120 --> 00:25:15.800 Oh, I thought you just meant the hot women here in Cardiff. 347 00:25:15.800 --> 00:25:17.440 Oh, okay, sorry. 348 00:25:19.120 --> 00:25:22.320 My bad, my mistake. 349 00:25:22.320 --> 00:25:25.320 She said there's a lot of hot women in our group, 350 00:25:25.320 --> 00:25:26.800 so that's good. 351 00:25:26.800 --> 00:25:29.320 So maybe we'll try to have some more of these things 352 00:25:29.320 --> 00:25:31.360 where we can get some people together, so. 353 00:25:33.000 --> 00:25:35.520 All right, so we're talking about repentance. 354 00:25:36.960 --> 00:25:39.400 When we continue to believe the lies, guys, 355 00:25:40.800 --> 00:25:41.920 like Jackie was saying, 356 00:25:41.920 --> 00:25:46.680 we continue to sort of not shift out of the old mindsets. 357 00:25:46.680 --> 00:25:50.760 With that comes usually the parts of our life 358 00:25:50.760 --> 00:25:53.400 where we're not too happy and pleased with ourselves. 359 00:25:53.400 --> 00:25:57.680 And so in order for us to feel happy 360 00:25:57.680 --> 00:26:01.280 and more, like, you know, satisfied, 361 00:26:01.280 --> 00:26:02.360 we begin to, what? 362 00:26:02.360 --> 00:26:04.200 We medicate ourselves. 363 00:26:04.200 --> 00:26:08.600 We medicate ourselves with so many things, right? 364 00:26:08.600 --> 00:26:13.000 We medicate ourselves with hobbies and interests 365 00:26:13.000 --> 00:26:15.880 and things that, you know, not necessarily wrong, 366 00:26:15.880 --> 00:26:19.280 but sometimes can just be unproductive. 367 00:26:19.280 --> 00:26:22.240 We medicate ourselves with, 368 00:26:22.240 --> 00:26:25.640 abuse ourselves with substances. 369 00:26:25.680 --> 00:26:28.920 We abuse ourselves with entertainment. 370 00:26:28.920 --> 00:26:33.080 We abuse ourselves with maybe too much work. 371 00:26:33.080 --> 00:26:34.720 We abuse ourselves, you know, 372 00:26:34.720 --> 00:26:37.760 and all of the taboo things, 373 00:26:37.760 --> 00:26:40.400 sexual impropriety, pornography. 374 00:26:41.600 --> 00:26:46.080 We, you know, we go into fear and loathing 375 00:26:46.080 --> 00:26:50.240 and just depression and just general, you know, 376 00:26:50.240 --> 00:26:52.320 not feeling well. 377 00:26:52.320 --> 00:26:54.280 And so we go into all these things 378 00:26:54.280 --> 00:26:56.040 and we medicate ourselves. 379 00:26:56.040 --> 00:26:58.480 And then of course, medicating ourselves 380 00:26:58.480 --> 00:27:01.360 when we come out of those situations 381 00:27:01.360 --> 00:27:02.520 and we're still medicating, 382 00:27:02.520 --> 00:27:04.600 we come to our senses for a moment. 383 00:27:04.600 --> 00:27:06.880 We feel what after we've medicated ourselves 384 00:27:06.880 --> 00:27:08.520 because we know that it's not productive. 385 00:27:08.520 --> 00:27:09.360 We know it's not good. 386 00:27:09.360 --> 00:27:10.880 We know it's not healthy. 387 00:27:10.880 --> 00:27:14.000 We have a bunch of shame and guilt 388 00:27:14.000 --> 00:27:16.240 that's associated with the things 389 00:27:16.240 --> 00:27:18.760 that we don't feel good about, 390 00:27:18.760 --> 00:27:20.720 but then we medicated ourselves with other things 391 00:27:20.720 --> 00:27:22.640 that we don't feel good about either, right? 392 00:27:22.640 --> 00:27:24.080 So then shame and guilt comes in 393 00:27:24.880 --> 00:27:26.800 and they're the by-product of our choices 394 00:27:26.800 --> 00:27:30.480 or someone else's choices put upon us, right? 395 00:27:30.480 --> 00:27:31.920 So that's what shame and guilt is, 396 00:27:31.920 --> 00:27:36.640 but shame and guilt are not productive kingdom emotions. 397 00:27:38.080 --> 00:27:38.920 They're not. 398 00:27:39.920 --> 00:27:43.080 Sometimes people can get trained to think that, 399 00:27:43.080 --> 00:27:47.520 oh, I should feel ashamed 400 00:27:47.520 --> 00:27:51.400 and therefore that would make me feel guilty enough 401 00:27:51.480 --> 00:27:55.000 to repent and to change my mind 402 00:27:55.000 --> 00:27:57.360 and then I'll be a better person for it. 403 00:27:57.360 --> 00:28:01.480 And it usually never works that way. 404 00:28:01.480 --> 00:28:06.480 Shame and guilt, especially shame as a tool of the enemy, 405 00:28:08.280 --> 00:28:11.480 is constructed in a way to isolate you, 406 00:28:11.480 --> 00:28:15.280 to bring separation in your life 407 00:28:15.280 --> 00:28:20.280 and to cut you off from people and places and things 408 00:28:21.000 --> 00:28:22.320 that will bring life to you, 409 00:28:22.320 --> 00:28:24.440 that will bring health and strength to you. 410 00:28:24.440 --> 00:28:26.760 So shame is an isolator. 411 00:28:26.760 --> 00:28:30.240 Of course, guilt is an inappropriate emotion 412 00:28:30.240 --> 00:28:32.600 because quite honestly, 413 00:28:32.600 --> 00:28:35.880 regardless of whether you jumped in to sin, 414 00:28:37.880 --> 00:28:39.120 my pastor used to say it this way, 415 00:28:39.120 --> 00:28:40.400 you didn't fall into sin. 416 00:28:42.000 --> 00:28:44.160 He said, you didn't fall into sin. 417 00:28:44.160 --> 00:28:46.520 So you'd be like, oh my gosh, I just fell into sin. 418 00:28:46.520 --> 00:28:49.160 I didn't mean to, but it happened. 419 00:28:49.160 --> 00:28:50.440 And the devil made me do it. 420 00:28:50.440 --> 00:28:51.800 You know, he's no, no, no. 421 00:28:51.800 --> 00:28:54.040 You didn't fall into sin. 422 00:28:54.040 --> 00:28:55.520 You took a thimble, 423 00:28:55.520 --> 00:28:58.560 you dug a hole in the ground with a thimble 424 00:28:58.560 --> 00:29:03.320 and then you constructed a ladder with a diving board. 425 00:29:03.320 --> 00:29:05.320 You climbed on top of that diving board. 426 00:29:05.320 --> 00:29:09.520 You filled that hole with water and you dove in. 427 00:29:09.520 --> 00:29:11.960 He said, nobody falls into sin. 428 00:29:11.960 --> 00:29:15.800 You know, we fall, we go into sin of our own volition. 429 00:29:15.800 --> 00:29:18.280 We just have to be honest with ourselves. 430 00:29:18.320 --> 00:29:19.440 We do. 431 00:29:19.440 --> 00:29:20.640 We know it. 432 00:29:20.640 --> 00:29:24.560 We are aware of it and it happens. 433 00:29:24.560 --> 00:29:27.360 So, you know, sin is definitely, 434 00:29:28.200 --> 00:29:31.040 and the things that produce shame and guilt 435 00:29:31.040 --> 00:29:33.800 are byproducts of those choices that we make 436 00:29:33.800 --> 00:29:37.080 and other people's choices that they make, 437 00:29:37.080 --> 00:29:39.000 that we allow them to make. 438 00:29:39.000 --> 00:29:43.880 But shame isolates us and guilt quite honestly 439 00:29:43.880 --> 00:29:46.240 was taken care of at the cross. 440 00:29:49.000 --> 00:29:50.400 We are not held. 441 00:29:50.400 --> 00:29:53.320 If you have received the work of the cross 442 00:29:53.320 --> 00:29:55.800 and you're living on the other side of the cross, 443 00:29:57.000 --> 00:29:59.960 you are, 444 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:05.000 to blame, or you are guilty, but you are held blameless 445 00:30:07.020 --> 00:30:08.100 because of the blood. 446 00:30:10.320 --> 00:30:14.140 So the feeling guilty doesn't make you better, 447 00:30:14.140 --> 00:30:17.240 only receiving the work of the cross makes you better. 448 00:30:18.720 --> 00:30:20.520 Because you are guilty. 449 00:30:20.520 --> 00:30:23.300 I'm guilty, you're guilty, we're all guilty. 450 00:30:23.300 --> 00:30:24.780 Scripture says that. 451 00:30:24.780 --> 00:30:27.720 For all have sinned and come short of the glory of God. 452 00:30:27.720 --> 00:30:31.080 So we're all guilty, but what the work of the cross does, 453 00:30:31.080 --> 00:30:36.000 the blood does, blood applied, it holds us blameless. 454 00:30:36.920 --> 00:30:39.320 That's scriptural truth, that's doctrinal truth. 455 00:30:40.380 --> 00:30:44.720 So it doesn't produce any good in us 456 00:30:44.720 --> 00:30:49.360 for us to allow guilt and shame to motivate us 457 00:30:49.360 --> 00:30:52.240 to do the right thing, because it just doesn't. 458 00:30:52.240 --> 00:30:53.360 It's unproductive. 459 00:30:54.420 --> 00:30:57.240 So one of the questions that we wanna ask ourselves 460 00:30:57.280 --> 00:31:00.480 is like, when we fail and when we're sort of like 461 00:31:00.480 --> 00:31:03.040 down on ourselves and sort of beating ourself up 462 00:31:03.040 --> 00:31:05.600 when we aren't perfect or when we fail, 463 00:31:05.600 --> 00:31:08.720 what are some of the things that happens in those moments? 464 00:31:08.720 --> 00:31:11.240 What are some of the things that we do? 465 00:31:11.240 --> 00:31:14.360 What are some of the things, some of the medications 466 00:31:14.360 --> 00:31:19.360 that we go to that we try to sort of fill ourselves with 467 00:31:20.520 --> 00:31:21.960 or whatever? 468 00:31:21.960 --> 00:31:25.680 Anybody want to confess any of this? 469 00:31:25.680 --> 00:31:29.840 Just meagerly, mildly, whatever it is. 470 00:31:32.200 --> 00:31:33.040 Anybody? 471 00:31:40.440 --> 00:31:45.440 I confess that there's a lot of times when I feel empty 472 00:31:46.680 --> 00:31:51.680 and I feel, I just feel too much in my head 473 00:31:52.520 --> 00:31:57.120 that I want to medicate myself with entertainment. 474 00:31:57.120 --> 00:31:59.040 I go down that social media hole. 475 00:32:01.000 --> 00:32:06.000 The other thing I do is I like to eat snack cakes 476 00:32:06.040 --> 00:32:08.040 and sugary things. 477 00:32:08.040 --> 00:32:09.000 It's the truth. 478 00:32:09.000 --> 00:32:11.080 And I've been battling my health lately. 479 00:32:11.080 --> 00:32:13.680 I was actually in the urgent care a week and a half, 480 00:32:13.680 --> 00:32:16.160 two weeks ago, to where it was like, 481 00:32:16.160 --> 00:32:19.680 I already know I have, you know, 482 00:32:19.920 --> 00:32:23.840 I already know I have a potentially high blood pressure. 483 00:32:23.840 --> 00:32:28.680 I already know that I am, what is it? 484 00:32:31.840 --> 00:32:36.840 I am insulin resistant, which is pre-diabetes. 485 00:32:38.680 --> 00:32:39.920 I have high cholesterol. 486 00:32:39.920 --> 00:32:41.920 I have had high cholesterol in the past. 487 00:32:43.480 --> 00:32:45.760 I'm overweight for sure for my build 488 00:32:45.760 --> 00:32:47.440 and for my size and everything. 489 00:32:48.160 --> 00:32:49.680 I'm considerably overweight. 490 00:32:51.920 --> 00:32:54.600 And I have family history of like heart attacks. 491 00:32:54.600 --> 00:32:57.960 Like my grandfather died of heart attack at 54 years old. 492 00:32:57.960 --> 00:32:58.960 I'm 52. 493 00:33:00.280 --> 00:33:03.880 So, I mean, there's some very real medical things like, 494 00:33:03.880 --> 00:33:07.640 hey, signposts, hello, hello. 495 00:33:07.640 --> 00:33:11.840 But yet you think that I would take any action 496 00:33:11.840 --> 00:33:14.960 to change my diet and my exercise? 497 00:33:14.960 --> 00:33:17.960 Now, I have recently in little ways 498 00:33:18.840 --> 00:33:21.040 been becoming more exercising 499 00:33:22.120 --> 00:33:26.760 and become more conscious of my diet. 500 00:33:26.760 --> 00:33:30.600 But at the same time, I still struggle with that. 501 00:33:30.600 --> 00:33:31.440 Hold on one second, 502 00:33:31.440 --> 00:33:33.280 because there's a bug in the next room. 503 00:33:33.280 --> 00:33:34.520 It's like a Colombian bug. 504 00:33:34.520 --> 00:33:35.600 I've never seen it before. 505 00:33:35.600 --> 00:33:36.440 Go over there. 506 00:33:36.440 --> 00:33:37.280 It's over there. 507 00:33:37.280 --> 00:33:38.800 Here, take one of my shoes right there. 508 00:33:38.800 --> 00:33:39.640 Okay. 509 00:33:39.640 --> 00:33:40.480 Oh, man. 510 00:33:40.480 --> 00:33:42.280 Y'all, he's going to get the bug. 511 00:33:42.280 --> 00:33:44.320 All right, ladies, now we're joining the guys. 512 00:33:44.680 --> 00:33:45.520 We're joining the guys. 513 00:33:45.520 --> 00:33:47.760 Did you take a picture of the bug? 514 00:33:47.760 --> 00:33:51.000 No, kill it and then take a picture of it. 515 00:33:51.000 --> 00:33:51.880 I just heard it. 516 00:33:51.880 --> 00:33:53.920 I just heard it being executed. 517 00:33:53.920 --> 00:33:55.640 It's being executed. 518 00:33:55.640 --> 00:33:57.080 Y'all, we need you. 519 00:33:57.080 --> 00:33:59.840 Gentlemen, we need you. 520 00:33:59.840 --> 00:34:01.320 How big is it? 521 00:34:01.320 --> 00:34:02.560 It was like this big 522 00:34:02.560 --> 00:34:04.840 and it was an unrecognizable bug to me. 523 00:34:04.840 --> 00:34:06.160 This is not an American bug. 524 00:34:06.160 --> 00:34:08.040 This is a Latin American bug. 525 00:34:08.040 --> 00:34:10.639 This is a South American bug. 526 00:34:10.639 --> 00:34:12.120 It's a little big. 527 00:34:12.120 --> 00:34:13.639 Oh, it was a cricket. 528 00:34:13.760 --> 00:34:14.960 Oh, no. 529 00:34:14.960 --> 00:34:17.960 We just killed Mulan's friend. 530 00:34:17.960 --> 00:34:19.560 What's happened? 531 00:34:19.560 --> 00:34:21.040 Wasn't it a cricket? 532 00:34:21.040 --> 00:34:23.360 Oh, it was the ugliest cricket I've ever seen. 533 00:34:27.360 --> 00:34:29.600 Yeah, that takes me back to Singapore. 534 00:34:29.600 --> 00:34:32.120 I lived in the, for a very short time, 535 00:34:32.120 --> 00:34:35.000 lived in the first floor of a red light district. 536 00:34:35.000 --> 00:34:36.199 There's a story behind it. 537 00:34:36.199 --> 00:34:41.199 But the cockroaches there, dude, those things have wings. 538 00:34:41.320 --> 00:34:44.600 They're like four inches long. 539 00:34:44.600 --> 00:34:45.440 They're big. 540 00:34:45.440 --> 00:34:46.880 And they're not afraid of humans. 541 00:34:46.880 --> 00:34:48.360 And then you're sleeping 542 00:34:48.360 --> 00:34:49.719 and they're just all over the floor 543 00:34:49.719 --> 00:34:50.880 and they're like, nope. 544 00:34:52.480 --> 00:34:53.400 All right. 545 00:34:53.400 --> 00:34:54.719 I feel for you, David. 546 00:34:56.880 --> 00:34:59.800 I'm the champion of tonight. 547 00:34:59.800 --> 00:35:00.640 So. 548 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:02.720 So, okay, so we're back. 549 00:35:02.720 --> 00:35:05.200 I'm just confess to some things. 550 00:35:06.800 --> 00:35:09.760 Anything that, you don't have to go into great detail, 551 00:35:09.760 --> 00:35:11.680 but just something that's like off the top of your head. 552 00:35:11.680 --> 00:35:13.080 It's like, yeah, this is me. 553 00:35:13.960 --> 00:35:14.800 Anybody? 554 00:35:15.720 --> 00:35:20.520 In the past for me, pornography was one of those things. 555 00:35:20.520 --> 00:35:22.400 Sometimes it's sleeping. 556 00:35:22.400 --> 00:35:25.400 Sometimes it's entertainment like movies. 557 00:35:25.400 --> 00:35:29.320 You know, just entertain your mind away through amusement 558 00:35:29.320 --> 00:35:32.640 or working extra for no reason. 559 00:35:32.640 --> 00:35:35.760 I don't have to work extra, but I enjoy my job enough. 560 00:35:35.760 --> 00:35:38.800 I'm just, you know, pouring more out of it. 561 00:35:38.800 --> 00:35:40.800 Yeah, I'll just work more and it's just time. 562 00:35:40.800 --> 00:35:42.720 Nothing wrong with working or being more productive, 563 00:35:42.720 --> 00:35:44.560 but at the same time, it's like, 564 00:35:44.560 --> 00:35:47.520 there's probably some other areas in my life or your life 565 00:35:47.520 --> 00:35:48.680 that maybe it's like, 566 00:35:48.680 --> 00:35:51.400 I could put some more attention over here, 567 00:35:51.400 --> 00:35:52.560 but yet I'm not doing that 568 00:35:52.560 --> 00:35:54.480 because I'm just kind of afraid of this 569 00:35:54.480 --> 00:35:55.720 or I don't wanna deal with this. 570 00:35:55.720 --> 00:35:58.560 And so I'm just gonna like bury myself at work, yeah. 571 00:35:58.560 --> 00:36:00.360 I often call it the skip-go card, 572 00:36:00.360 --> 00:36:01.880 just like there is in Monopoly. 573 00:36:01.880 --> 00:36:04.480 I need something to kill the next two hours 574 00:36:04.480 --> 00:36:06.600 because I don't wanna deal with the emotions 575 00:36:06.600 --> 00:36:07.680 I'm feeling now. 576 00:36:07.680 --> 00:36:09.360 I just need distraction. 577 00:36:09.360 --> 00:36:11.720 And that's really what a lot of guys are doing. 578 00:36:11.720 --> 00:36:13.480 It's an emotional thing. 579 00:36:13.480 --> 00:36:15.040 I just wanna avoid the emotion. 580 00:36:15.040 --> 00:36:18.480 I don't like, I'm a guy, I don't like conflict. 581 00:36:18.480 --> 00:36:23.360 I will avoid conflict lots of times at, you know, 582 00:36:23.360 --> 00:36:27.480 like a very high cost and it's not good. 583 00:36:27.480 --> 00:36:30.480 It's not been productive in my relationships, you know, 584 00:36:30.480 --> 00:36:34.960 where like, and there is such a thing as healthy conflict. 585 00:36:34.960 --> 00:36:38.400 You know, not all conflict is bad, you know. 586 00:36:38.400 --> 00:36:41.560 Matter of fact, if you have more healthy conflict, 587 00:36:41.560 --> 00:36:44.120 sometimes that reduces the bad conflict. 588 00:36:44.120 --> 00:36:47.200 And so lots of times you have bad conflict 589 00:36:47.200 --> 00:36:51.880 because you are unwilling to have healthy conflict, right? 590 00:36:52.960 --> 00:36:53.960 Okay, who else? 591 00:36:54.640 --> 00:36:56.320 I appreciate what both of you are sharing. 592 00:36:56.320 --> 00:37:01.320 I think for me, it was a long journey to realize 593 00:37:02.920 --> 00:37:07.240 that my watching TV wasn't an attempt to educate myself. 594 00:37:07.240 --> 00:37:09.320 It was a way of distracting myself. 595 00:37:09.320 --> 00:37:10.160 Yeah. 596 00:37:10.160 --> 00:37:14.680 And I think in my family, 597 00:37:14.680 --> 00:37:17.560 entertainment addiction and food addiction 598 00:37:17.560 --> 00:37:18.760 are also very present. 599 00:37:18.760 --> 00:37:21.120 And so I think because I was working out a lot, 600 00:37:21.120 --> 00:37:22.960 it was a way of distracting myself 601 00:37:23.080 --> 00:37:23.920 and because I was working out a lot, 602 00:37:23.920 --> 00:37:28.600 it was easy for me also to not think that I had a problem 603 00:37:28.600 --> 00:37:29.440 like with food. 604 00:37:29.440 --> 00:37:33.480 But I think that even though I've made a lot of progress 605 00:37:33.480 --> 00:37:36.880 recently in this area that in past years, 606 00:37:36.880 --> 00:37:38.680 it's been very easy for me to eat a lot 607 00:37:38.680 --> 00:37:41.560 kind of late at night, I think to avoid feeling lonely. 608 00:37:42.520 --> 00:37:44.320 Yeah, okay, okay, okay. 609 00:37:44.320 --> 00:37:46.440 And you know, yeah, you're associating it with like, 610 00:37:46.440 --> 00:37:47.600 hey, I'm not just eating. 611 00:37:47.600 --> 00:37:49.080 I'm like, this is why I'm eating. 612 00:37:49.080 --> 00:37:50.600 Yeah, like, I get it. 613 00:37:50.600 --> 00:37:53.440 So you're like, you're confessing that, 614 00:37:53.440 --> 00:37:56.320 which you're getting that out, that's good. 615 00:37:56.320 --> 00:37:58.200 James, you got anything? 616 00:37:58.200 --> 00:38:02.040 Yeah, food, lusting, just lashing out at family, 617 00:38:02.040 --> 00:38:02.880 what I meant to. 618 00:38:02.880 --> 00:38:04.640 So especially the last one 619 00:38:04.640 --> 00:38:09.080 is probably the most significant, like anger issues. 620 00:38:09.920 --> 00:38:13.400 Yeah, lashing out at family and friends, you said? 621 00:38:13.400 --> 00:38:15.680 Just family, like sister and dad. 622 00:38:16.760 --> 00:38:18.720 Okay, yeah, no, I know. 623 00:38:18.720 --> 00:38:22.720 Like, you might be surprised, 624 00:38:22.720 --> 00:38:25.880 but I can get pretty frustrated behind the wheel of a car 625 00:38:27.120 --> 00:38:29.520 and I can make that funny. 626 00:38:29.520 --> 00:38:31.600 And you know, it's true. 627 00:38:31.600 --> 00:38:35.160 But Jackie made me aware of one thing. 628 00:38:35.160 --> 00:38:37.880 She goes, yeah, she goes, it's funny. 629 00:38:37.880 --> 00:38:40.280 I can't remember if this is a comedian 630 00:38:40.280 --> 00:38:42.120 or if this was an actual news, 631 00:38:42.120 --> 00:38:45.080 some sort of like credible, like psychological study, 632 00:38:45.080 --> 00:38:49.480 but there is true psychology to people, 633 00:38:49.480 --> 00:38:52.160 sometimes people that are, 634 00:38:52.160 --> 00:38:55.160 get really frustrated, angry behind the wheel of a car. 635 00:38:56.520 --> 00:39:01.520 It is a situation where it's not necessarily the traffic 636 00:39:01.520 --> 00:39:04.000 that's causing that person's anger. 637 00:39:04.000 --> 00:39:07.240 They're really angry about something else, 638 00:39:07.240 --> 00:39:12.240 but the road rage is sort of a legalized, 639 00:39:13.240 --> 00:39:18.240 like funny sort of like way to let the rage out. 640 00:39:18.960 --> 00:39:21.320 So it's like, oh, it's just road rage, there's no big deal. 641 00:39:21.320 --> 00:39:24.720 Like nobody, no harm, no foul, right? 642 00:39:24.720 --> 00:39:26.920 Because I'm just yelling at the guy who can't hear me 643 00:39:26.920 --> 00:39:29.280 that cut me off or whatever, you know what I'm saying? 644 00:39:29.280 --> 00:39:31.560 And it's just like, no, that doesn't work. 645 00:39:31.560 --> 00:39:34.320 It's like, it's not that you're truly angry. 646 00:39:34.320 --> 00:39:38.960 Like I would venture to say if you could psychoanalyze 647 00:39:39.120 --> 00:39:42.360 every single road rage incident, 648 00:39:42.360 --> 00:39:44.800 even the situations where people literally stop 649 00:39:44.800 --> 00:39:46.800 and get out of their car and like literally 650 00:39:46.800 --> 00:39:48.480 fight each other. 651 00:39:48.480 --> 00:39:49.520 I had that happen one time, 652 00:39:49.520 --> 00:39:50.880 and I'll tell the story in a second. 653 00:39:50.880 --> 00:39:55.720 But if you were to psychoanalyze that, 654 00:39:55.720 --> 00:39:58.680 I would venture to say that an overwhelming, 655 00:39:58.680 --> 00:40:01.600 probably more than 90% of the road rage 656 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.320 times out of 10 situation is those people are just angry 657 00:40:01.600 --> 00:40:06.600 that I've seen in my life has been caused by a car. 658 00:40:04.320 --> 00:40:08.040 about other things in their life that are causing major 659 00:40:08.040 --> 00:40:13.040 frustration, major anger, major trauma, major, like relational 660 00:40:13.040 --> 00:40:16.560 issues, whatever it is, disappointment in their own 661 00:40:16.560 --> 00:40:20.880 life, just dissatisfaction with their own, you know, inability 662 00:40:20.880 --> 00:40:25.600 to get stuff together, and to whatever, that they're just 663 00:40:25.600 --> 00:40:30.400 taking it out on the road. You know, and so I've been guilty 664 00:40:30.400 --> 00:40:33.120 of that. You know, I've been like, I can't believe, you 665 00:40:33.120 --> 00:40:37.600 know, I'm in a hurry. It seems like in my life, a lot of times, 666 00:40:38.680 --> 00:40:41.880 I'm always in a hurry. It's like, why am I always in a 667 00:40:41.880 --> 00:40:46.080 hurry? My always, I'm late for this, or I've got to go be for 668 00:40:46.080 --> 00:40:48.360 this, or this, or just like, everything's like, hurry, 669 00:40:48.360 --> 00:40:51.560 hurry, hurry, hurry, hurry. It's like, why can't anything just be 670 00:40:51.560 --> 00:40:54.320 like, I'm just going to go down here, and I'm going to take as 671 00:40:54.320 --> 00:40:58.360 much time as, as it is, and the lights are going to do what 672 00:40:58.360 --> 00:41:00.480 they're going to do. And people are going to drive the way they 673 00:41:00.480 --> 00:41:04.200 drive. And it's no big deal. But it just seems to be I always 674 00:41:04.200 --> 00:41:06.840 find myself in a situation where it's just like, I'm constantly 675 00:41:06.840 --> 00:41:10.280 frustrated in these situations. So I've been there, done that, 676 00:41:10.280 --> 00:41:17.160 confess that. And, and that may be your situation to their 677 00:41:17.160 --> 00:41:22.600 teams, where it's kind of like, I'm frustrated. And so lots of 678 00:41:22.600 --> 00:41:26.360 times, we'll take our frustration out on the wrong 679 00:41:26.360 --> 00:41:35.440 places and the wrong people. Because it's okay. Not but it's, 680 00:41:35.480 --> 00:41:39.200 you know, we feel like, oh, this is, you know, I'll have grace 681 00:41:39.200 --> 00:41:42.480 here, you know, this, it's just my family or whatever, or, you 682 00:41:42.480 --> 00:41:45.480 know, these are people that really know me. So therefore, I 683 00:41:45.480 --> 00:41:50.480 can act a fool. Because they won't care. It's no big deal, or 684 00:41:50.480 --> 00:41:52.080 it's not really aimed at them, or whatever, you know, I'm 685 00:41:52.080 --> 00:41:55.880 saying. So there's a lot of times where we're taking out our 686 00:41:55.880 --> 00:42:00.720 frustration on things and people that aren't even the source of 687 00:42:00.720 --> 00:42:06.720 the frustration. And so we got to be aware of that. And we got 688 00:42:06.720 --> 00:42:09.760 to ask ourselves, we got to be honest with ourselves and have 689 00:42:09.760 --> 00:42:13.920 the conversation with Holy Spirit to say, I feel this way. 690 00:42:14.240 --> 00:42:19.360 I feel frustrated. And if you don't know why, then you ask 691 00:42:19.360 --> 00:42:21.800 why. But if you do know why, like, if you're like, okay, 692 00:42:21.800 --> 00:42:23.880 yeah, you know, this is making sense. Because actually, what I 693 00:42:23.880 --> 00:42:26.840 am is I'm frustrated at this. And I'm taking it out over 694 00:42:26.840 --> 00:42:30.440 here. And so you, you know, maybe you might even be aware. 695 00:42:30.880 --> 00:42:34.880 But then go a step further and ask, like, why? Why do I feel 696 00:42:34.880 --> 00:42:39.880 frustrated about this area of my life? Why am I frustrated about 697 00:42:39.920 --> 00:42:45.040 the non productivity? Why am I frustrated? Because I'm still 698 00:42:45.040 --> 00:42:49.400 single, and I feel like I shouldn't be because of whatever 699 00:42:49.400 --> 00:42:55.320 status or age or situation in my life long. So those are the 700 00:42:55.320 --> 00:43:00.120 things, guys, that is why confessing your faults, one to 701 00:43:00.120 --> 00:43:03.760 another, according to James 516, says, therefore confess your 702 00:43:03.760 --> 00:43:06.080 sins one to another that and pray for each other, so you may 703 00:43:06.080 --> 00:43:08.720 be healed. Prayer of a righteous person is powerful and 704 00:43:08.720 --> 00:43:13.320 effective. It's very important, as this is part of this sort of 705 00:43:13.600 --> 00:43:17.120 repentance and confession, repentance being coming out of 706 00:43:17.120 --> 00:43:19.320 the agreement with the lies first should be first of all, 707 00:43:19.320 --> 00:43:21.600 you have to know what the lies are and identify the lies that 708 00:43:21.600 --> 00:43:24.600 are happening. But you have to come out of agreement with the 709 00:43:24.600 --> 00:43:28.920 lies, so that we can have the change behavior. And then lots 710 00:43:28.920 --> 00:43:34.120 of times, we need to confess this behavior, the medicating 711 00:43:34.360 --> 00:43:38.640 the poor patterns of behavior we've been doing as a result of 712 00:43:38.640 --> 00:43:44.160 the problems we're having, and confess those things so that we 713 00:43:44.160 --> 00:43:50.120 can be healed. In this trauma, this is really the secret sort 714 00:43:50.120 --> 00:43:56.160 of sauce in the heartwork. So the first part is giving God 715 00:43:56.160 --> 00:44:00.560 permission, the very going back to part one, giving Holy Spirit 716 00:44:00.560 --> 00:44:04.960 and God permission to work with us and to show us the things, go 717 00:44:04.960 --> 00:44:08.080 through that, be willing to have that conversation. And then 718 00:44:08.080 --> 00:44:11.560 beginning to understand the lies beginning to understand our 719 00:44:11.560 --> 00:44:16.280 heart, what our heart does, what our heart doesn't do, beginning 720 00:44:16.280 --> 00:44:20.280 to understand that the heart is where the repository is for all 721 00:44:20.280 --> 00:44:23.080 of the all of the good and the bad that happens in our life, 722 00:44:23.480 --> 00:44:28.680 that even our whole our own heart sometimes deceives us. And 723 00:44:28.680 --> 00:44:32.000 then understanding that there's lies that we're believing. We're 724 00:44:32.000 --> 00:44:34.640 believing lies about this, believing lies about this 725 00:44:34.640 --> 00:44:37.840 person, believing lies about ourselves, believing lies about 726 00:44:37.840 --> 00:44:43.240 God. And then we'll be we're willing to, to go through and 727 00:44:43.240 --> 00:44:47.880 understand and and have those lies revealed to us. Then it 728 00:44:47.880 --> 00:44:52.720 comes a chance for us to repent, to see the truth, see the lies 729 00:44:52.720 --> 00:44:57.120 for what they are, and take an actual step to repent, come out 730 00:44:57.120 --> 00:44:59.920 of agreement with the lies through the 731 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.440 process of repentance and confession. 732 00:45:03.440 --> 00:45:06.200 And this is the part at which the healing starts 733 00:45:06.200 --> 00:45:09.040 to really come through. 734 00:45:09.040 --> 00:45:11.920 Because as the scripture says, when 735 00:45:11.920 --> 00:45:16.320 we confess our sins to one another 736 00:45:16.320 --> 00:45:21.000 and we pray for each other, then we're healed. 737 00:45:21.000 --> 00:45:24.960 This is where the healing starts to become really felt 738 00:45:24.960 --> 00:45:28.680 and really found in this process. 739 00:45:28.680 --> 00:45:30.080 OK? 740 00:45:30.080 --> 00:45:34.320 And we've done some confessing here tonight, all of us 741 00:45:34.320 --> 00:45:36.840 at the same time in a safe place. 742 00:45:36.840 --> 00:45:41.560 But you can do this in other places, 743 00:45:41.560 --> 00:45:43.360 places you feel safe, other people 744 00:45:43.360 --> 00:45:44.400 that you feel safe with. 745 00:45:44.400 --> 00:45:48.040 I don't know if you have a church community 746 00:45:48.040 --> 00:45:50.760 or if you have people in your life, family and friends, 747 00:45:50.760 --> 00:45:53.320 that you're trusting, individuals or accountability 748 00:45:53.320 --> 00:45:56.640 partners or people that you have already there in a place 749 00:45:56.640 --> 00:45:58.800 that you can have these discussions with. 750 00:45:58.800 --> 00:46:03.280 It's important that you do this and go through this process 751 00:46:03.280 --> 00:46:07.400 in order to really break the power of the enemy. 752 00:46:07.400 --> 00:46:09.840 Because the power of the enemy, there 753 00:46:09.840 --> 00:46:14.480 is one who is arrayed against your soul, who really 754 00:46:14.480 --> 00:46:21.400 has their purpose of your demise in their head. 755 00:46:21.400 --> 00:46:23.160 And they're coming against you, and they 756 00:46:24.000 --> 00:46:27.240 will continue to lie and to present lies, 757 00:46:27.240 --> 00:46:31.120 to present untruth, to get you in this pattern of not 758 00:46:31.120 --> 00:46:40.280 just wild, uninhibited sin, but just render you ineffective. 759 00:46:40.280 --> 00:46:42.240 All the enemy has to do is, he doesn't 760 00:46:42.240 --> 00:46:45.160 have to get you to go out on a bender. 761 00:46:45.160 --> 00:46:47.880 He doesn't have to cause you to be like a drug addict 762 00:46:47.880 --> 00:46:51.320 and just crazy wild in the streets. 763 00:46:51.320 --> 00:46:56.520 All he has to do is render you ineffective, 764 00:46:56.520 --> 00:47:01.240 get you just to do one more hour of a movie, 765 00:47:01.240 --> 00:47:05.880 one more hour of social media, one more distraction, 766 00:47:05.880 --> 00:47:09.680 one more opportunity where he's like, I don't want to engage, 767 00:47:09.680 --> 00:47:12.440 one more situation where you're unwilling to have 768 00:47:12.440 --> 00:47:17.720 unhealthy or healthy conflict in order to resolve some things. 769 00:47:17.720 --> 00:47:22.240 Just kick the can down the road of distraction 770 00:47:22.240 --> 00:47:29.120 and the things that so easily beset you. 771 00:47:29.120 --> 00:47:31.080 That is the strategy of the enemy. 772 00:47:31.080 --> 00:47:35.320 And if we can become aware of that, identify the lies, 773 00:47:35.320 --> 00:47:38.960 come out of agreement, confess our behavior because 774 00:47:38.960 --> 00:47:41.880 of the things we've been believing, 775 00:47:41.880 --> 00:47:44.120 and get some healing from it, now 776 00:47:44.160 --> 00:47:47.800 we can step into some real identity 777 00:47:47.800 --> 00:47:50.440 in terms of who we really are. 778 00:47:50.440 --> 00:47:53.160 And we begin to see some of the change we've 779 00:47:53.160 --> 00:47:56.520 been hoping for and praying for and believing 780 00:47:56.520 --> 00:47:58.880 for for such a long time. 781 00:47:58.880 --> 00:47:59.480 Amen. 782 00:47:59.480 --> 00:48:01.600 I'm actually seeing changes in my body 783 00:48:01.600 --> 00:48:06.160 as I'm actually working out for the first time. 784 00:48:06.160 --> 00:48:07.760 I mean, I've worked out before. 785 00:48:07.760 --> 00:48:10.480 And I've had seasons of where I worked out. 786 00:48:10.480 --> 00:48:13.640 And I used to say, funny, years and years and years ago, 787 00:48:13.680 --> 00:48:16.560 I used to say, yeah, working out just isn't working out for me. 788 00:48:16.560 --> 00:48:19.760 And because I didn't see the change. 789 00:48:19.760 --> 00:48:23.360 I didn't see the, I mean, I knew there was value in it, 790 00:48:23.360 --> 00:48:26.640 but I just wasn't seeing it for me. 791 00:48:26.640 --> 00:48:30.280 And so this time, I'm actually stuck with it enough 792 00:48:30.280 --> 00:48:35.520 along where I've actually seen some change. 793 00:48:35.520 --> 00:48:38.760 And I'm like, whoa, that is amazing. 794 00:48:38.760 --> 00:48:42.520 Like, I can actually, I actually can do this. 795 00:48:43.280 --> 00:48:46.600 I can look in the mirror, and I can actually see some, 796 00:48:46.600 --> 00:48:48.960 I'm liking what I see type thing. 797 00:48:48.960 --> 00:48:50.680 Like, I feel better. 798 00:48:50.680 --> 00:48:54.600 So when you see these little bits of progress, 799 00:48:54.600 --> 00:48:59.240 you begin to have hope that, oh, man, this is possible. 800 00:48:59.240 --> 00:49:02.720 This is, I'm capable of doing this, following the show. 801 00:49:02.720 --> 00:49:05.200 I just got to keep on keeping on. 802 00:49:05.200 --> 00:49:06.880 I got to keep on repenting. 803 00:49:06.880 --> 00:49:08.680 I got to keep on confessing. 804 00:49:08.680 --> 00:49:13.080 I got to keep on the journey of moving forward 805 00:49:13.080 --> 00:49:19.120 in this health development, make it part of my lifestyle. 806 00:49:19.120 --> 00:49:19.640 All right. 807 00:49:24.800 --> 00:49:27.240 And that really kind of goes to some of the fears 808 00:49:27.240 --> 00:49:30.400 that we typically see in this part, which 809 00:49:30.400 --> 00:49:38.400 is like judgment, our own selves judging ourselves, 810 00:49:38.400 --> 00:49:39.640 or other people. 811 00:49:39.640 --> 00:49:41.560 Say, if you try to make a life, how many of you 812 00:49:41.560 --> 00:49:43.960 have tried to make a life change, 813 00:49:43.960 --> 00:49:46.080 and you've had someone else criticize you? 814 00:49:46.080 --> 00:49:49.040 Like, hey, what are you doing? 815 00:49:49.040 --> 00:49:50.600 Who do you think you are type thing? 816 00:49:50.600 --> 00:49:52.280 Like, you're trying to change your life. 817 00:49:52.280 --> 00:49:54.120 You're trying to do better. 818 00:49:54.120 --> 00:49:56.440 Some people, well, I actually have family members 819 00:49:56.440 --> 00:49:59.680 and friends that discourage them from doing good things 820 00:49:59.680 --> 00:50:01.440 with their life. 821 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:04.960 life, because they don't, you know, your change of value 822 00:50:04.960 --> 00:50:10.120 begins to convict them of their own life. And so then they start 823 00:50:10.120 --> 00:50:13.680 like, hey, you know, who do you think you are? What do you think 824 00:50:13.680 --> 00:50:15.960 you're doing better than we are? Whatever, you know, you stop 825 00:50:15.960 --> 00:50:19.800 drinking, you know, like, what's wrong with you? You know, like, 826 00:50:19.840 --> 00:50:22.160 you can't come out and party with the guys a little bit or 827 00:50:22.160 --> 00:50:26.640 whatever. Like, no, I decided not to do that anymore. Oh, you 828 00:50:26.640 --> 00:50:29.600 know, and they discourage you, they judge you. We judge 829 00:50:29.600 --> 00:50:33.360 ourselves. We also get into this mindset where we feel like 830 00:50:33.360 --> 00:50:39.400 we can't do it. Like, or I've sinned too much. I've just 831 00:50:39.400 --> 00:50:43.800 messed up too much. I just can't ever get it right. And so those 832 00:50:43.800 --> 00:50:47.880 are some of the fears that we need to break during this time. 833 00:50:48.280 --> 00:50:52.000 And during this repentance and confession and confession goes a 834 00:50:52.000 --> 00:50:56.160 long way. And really battling those fears of judgment, those 835 00:50:56.160 --> 00:50:59.160 fears of I can't do it. And those fears of my sin is too 836 00:50:59.160 --> 00:51:09.800 much. Okay. So I want you to go home to the I guess the really 837 00:51:09.800 --> 00:51:12.960 the the work I want to leave you with is you know, continue to do 838 00:51:12.960 --> 00:51:19.360 the questions that are in your assignment in your in your in 839 00:51:19.360 --> 00:51:28.280 your material. And then practice that confession part. Find a 840 00:51:28.280 --> 00:51:34.000 place, find a trusted person to confess to. If you have to start 841 00:51:34.000 --> 00:51:39.880 with looking in the mirror and confessing, that might be a good 842 00:51:39.880 --> 00:51:41.800 place to start. Because sometimes you have to confess to 843 00:51:41.800 --> 00:51:46.800 yourself that this is true that this is what's been happening. 844 00:51:47.720 --> 00:51:54.960 But that might be a place to start. But definitely, if you 845 00:51:54.960 --> 00:51:59.760 find if you can find a trusted friend, somebody is a mentor, 846 00:51:59.800 --> 00:52:05.680 pastor, somebody that you that you're in league with, that you 847 00:52:05.680 --> 00:52:10.680 can confess to begin doing that and begin seeing the healing 848 00:52:11.480 --> 00:52:15.560 that you receive from that process, that repentance and 849 00:52:15.560 --> 00:52:21.480 confession process. Okay. So Father God, I just pray for 850 00:52:21.480 --> 00:52:24.400 these men tonight. I thank you for each one of them that has 851 00:52:25.280 --> 00:52:29.320 shared some of their inner thoughts and their heart and 852 00:52:29.320 --> 00:52:33.080 their minds tonight. And Lord, and I've done the same. And I 853 00:52:33.080 --> 00:52:35.920 just asked Lord that, according to your word, that there would 854 00:52:35.920 --> 00:52:40.280 just be healing that would come to each one of us in a special 855 00:52:40.280 --> 00:52:44.200 way tonight and beginning going forward. And we would continue 856 00:52:44.200 --> 00:52:48.080 in this repentance and confession process, Lord, that 857 00:52:48.080 --> 00:52:50.760 you've outlined and that you're helping us with, that we 858 00:52:50.760 --> 00:52:53.600 continue to have the real conversations, the open, honest 859 00:52:53.600 --> 00:52:57.880 conversation with you. So they get to the root of some of these 860 00:52:57.880 --> 00:53:01.760 things that are lies that we're believing, and have some 861 00:53:01.760 --> 00:53:04.480 understanding about why it is that we feel the way we feel. 862 00:53:05.360 --> 00:53:08.200 And in Jesus name, we pray. Amen. And Amen. 863 00:53:10.640 --> 00:53:14.000 Alright, guys, God bless. Have a great week. And we'll see you 864 00:53:14.000 --> 00:53:16.440 next time for another heart check in.