WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:03.200 Hello, how are you? 2 00:00:03.200 --> 00:00:04.560 Welcome. 3 00:00:04.560 --> 00:00:08.960 We are here for another session of heart work 4 00:00:08.960 --> 00:00:11.340 and it's gonna be an awesome night. 5 00:00:11.340 --> 00:00:12.680 So buckle your seat belts. 6 00:00:12.680 --> 00:00:14.320 We got some good ground to cover. 7 00:00:14.320 --> 00:00:16.200 God's gonna do some awesome stuff 8 00:00:16.200 --> 00:00:19.180 in all of your hearts and minds and spirits. 9 00:00:19.180 --> 00:00:21.440 We're believing for breakthrough 10 00:00:21.440 --> 00:00:23.520 and I'm so glad that you all are here joining. 11 00:00:23.520 --> 00:00:24.920 I'm sure more will join us 12 00:00:24.920 --> 00:00:26.980 as it gets a little bit past the hour. 13 00:00:27.940 --> 00:00:30.900 As we start tonight, just a couple of housekeeping things. 14 00:00:31.980 --> 00:00:34.140 As always, welcome to our new ladies. 15 00:00:34.140 --> 00:00:37.100 Who is joining us for the first time tonight? 16 00:00:37.100 --> 00:00:40.060 That light maybe looks a little dark. 17 00:00:40.060 --> 00:00:41.100 There we go. 18 00:00:41.100 --> 00:00:42.900 Who do you wanna, let's see here. 19 00:00:42.900 --> 00:00:46.340 Tammy, well, you were here today, right, Tammy? 20 00:00:47.260 --> 00:00:48.100 Is this true? 21 00:00:48.100 --> 00:00:50.100 Yeah, I just haven't been on a night. 22 00:00:50.100 --> 00:00:50.940 Yeah, okay. 23 00:00:50.940 --> 00:00:52.900 Michelle, everybody welcome. 24 00:00:52.900 --> 00:00:53.740 Cheryl, welcome. 25 00:00:53.740 --> 00:00:55.700 Cheryl's in Indonesia, y'all. 26 00:00:55.700 --> 00:00:58.020 I was chatting with Cheryl just a little bit ago. 27 00:00:58.020 --> 00:01:01.140 She's already in tomorrow and she said, it's good. 28 00:01:01.140 --> 00:01:02.100 She said, it's good. 29 00:01:02.100 --> 00:01:04.660 So we have something to look forward to, y'all. 30 00:01:04.660 --> 00:01:06.100 Have you ever heard people talk about that 31 00:01:06.100 --> 00:01:07.740 when they travel and they talk to their kids 32 00:01:07.740 --> 00:01:09.460 and they're on a different day? 33 00:01:09.460 --> 00:01:11.060 There's a pastor that said that once. 34 00:01:11.060 --> 00:01:12.300 I just got a kick out of that. 35 00:01:12.300 --> 00:01:14.020 He was in tomorrow. 36 00:01:14.020 --> 00:01:16.780 So he was telling his little son about it 37 00:01:16.780 --> 00:01:18.700 and saying, it's gonna be a great day for you, son. 38 00:01:18.700 --> 00:01:21.660 So wanna bless you all with that. 39 00:01:21.660 --> 00:01:24.140 I enjoyed talking with her briefly about that 40 00:01:24.140 --> 00:01:25.540 before we started tonight. 41 00:01:26.380 --> 00:01:28.420 Sasha, thank you for telling us. 42 00:01:28.420 --> 00:01:29.500 Welcome. 43 00:01:29.500 --> 00:01:30.820 Hi, Sasha. 44 00:01:30.820 --> 00:01:33.020 Anyone else joining us for the first time tonight? 45 00:01:33.020 --> 00:01:34.100 Make sure you put in the chat 46 00:01:34.100 --> 00:01:35.820 so we can welcome you as well. 47 00:01:35.820 --> 00:01:37.180 I love to call people by name. 48 00:01:37.180 --> 00:01:40.300 I think that's important to do so. 49 00:01:40.300 --> 00:01:43.220 And also just as a reminder, 50 00:01:43.220 --> 00:01:48.100 myself and the coaches will also remind you all of this. 51 00:01:48.100 --> 00:01:49.260 And I think most of you know, 52 00:01:49.260 --> 00:01:52.060 but just for our newcomers, it's important that you know. 53 00:01:52.060 --> 00:01:53.860 One of the things that we highly recommend 54 00:01:53.900 --> 00:01:55.820 is that if you're in this program of heart healing, 55 00:01:55.820 --> 00:02:00.820 Raylynn, welcome, that you would press pause on dating. 56 00:02:02.740 --> 00:02:04.740 For some people, that feels very hard. 57 00:02:04.740 --> 00:02:05.900 For other people, they're like, 58 00:02:05.900 --> 00:02:08.740 shoot, I wanted that break anyways. 59 00:02:08.740 --> 00:02:11.140 But wherever you find yourself, 60 00:02:11.140 --> 00:02:14.460 we recommend that because it really works 61 00:02:14.460 --> 00:02:16.540 and it matters during this time. 62 00:02:16.540 --> 00:02:19.940 We want you to have like very minimal distraction 63 00:02:19.940 --> 00:02:21.340 as possible. 64 00:02:21.380 --> 00:02:24.260 And what I wanna, the reason I'm mentioning it today, 65 00:02:24.260 --> 00:02:26.620 I was talking briefly this afternoon, 66 00:02:26.620 --> 00:02:29.780 the word the Lord gave me specifically about this 67 00:02:29.780 --> 00:02:33.900 is that some of you are having disruption happening. 68 00:02:33.900 --> 00:02:36.740 Okay, so not just disruption 69 00:02:36.740 --> 00:02:40.060 with like a guy popping up from the past, 70 00:02:40.060 --> 00:02:42.020 but what's happening is your mind 71 00:02:42.020 --> 00:02:45.100 is getting really caught on thinking about then. 72 00:02:45.100 --> 00:02:46.020 When is this gonna happen? 73 00:02:46.020 --> 00:02:47.300 How's this gonna happen? 74 00:02:47.300 --> 00:02:49.860 And we want you to start to discern 75 00:02:49.860 --> 00:02:52.820 and separate between allowing hope to rise 76 00:02:52.820 --> 00:02:56.660 and awakening to the dreams that God has for you 77 00:02:56.660 --> 00:02:58.980 and your spirit mate and your future marriage 78 00:02:59.900 --> 00:03:02.700 versus the enemy trying to get you caught up 79 00:03:02.700 --> 00:03:05.460 in thinking and fantasizing and worrying 80 00:03:05.460 --> 00:03:07.060 and stressing, if you will. 81 00:03:07.060 --> 00:03:09.180 And so just wanna encourage you all to press pause, 82 00:03:09.180 --> 00:03:13.020 even in that regard about trying to figure it out too much 83 00:03:13.020 --> 00:03:15.500 or trying to think about men too much. 84 00:03:15.500 --> 00:03:18.380 There will be plenty of time for that, I promise you. 85 00:03:18.380 --> 00:03:20.100 And we will coach you through that as well. 86 00:03:20.100 --> 00:03:23.500 Michelle, welcome to your first time also. 87 00:03:23.500 --> 00:03:26.700 And then I wanna encourage you all not to quit. 88 00:03:26.700 --> 00:03:29.060 You're gonna have days where you just feel like it. 89 00:03:29.060 --> 00:03:30.740 You just are gonna feel like, 90 00:03:30.740 --> 00:03:32.980 I don't know if I can do this. 91 00:03:33.940 --> 00:03:35.900 This is hard, but I want you to know 92 00:03:35.900 --> 00:03:38.780 that this is what comes to mind. 93 00:03:38.780 --> 00:03:42.580 My young adult pastor used to say, war is profitable. 94 00:03:42.580 --> 00:03:43.860 And so I wanna encourage you all 95 00:03:43.860 --> 00:03:46.220 that heart healing is profitable. 96 00:03:46.220 --> 00:03:47.340 It's gonna be worth it. 97 00:03:47.340 --> 00:03:49.100 Don't give up on yourself. 98 00:03:49.100 --> 00:03:51.900 When the days get hard, come in and tell us in the chat, 99 00:03:51.900 --> 00:03:53.860 hey, I'm having a hard day today 100 00:03:53.860 --> 00:03:55.620 and let the sisters in this group 101 00:03:55.620 --> 00:03:58.180 and myself and the other coaches pray for you, 102 00:03:58.180 --> 00:04:00.540 come around you and cheer you on 103 00:04:00.540 --> 00:04:03.620 and help kind of get you through that hump. 104 00:04:03.620 --> 00:04:05.460 So avoid isolation. 105 00:04:05.460 --> 00:04:08.300 The enemy will try his hardest to get you to isolate. 106 00:04:08.300 --> 00:04:10.580 So I encourage you to lean away from that 107 00:04:10.580 --> 00:04:12.860 and come into community. 108 00:04:12.860 --> 00:04:14.740 If y'all can't hear, I don't know if you guys can hear that. 109 00:04:14.740 --> 00:04:16.019 So we have a big storm here. 110 00:04:16.019 --> 00:04:17.820 That happens all the time in Florida. 111 00:04:17.820 --> 00:04:19.459 I didn't know that until I moved here. 112 00:04:19.459 --> 00:04:22.900 So I'm hoping I don't lose any connection tonight. 113 00:04:22.900 --> 00:04:26.500 But if for some reason I get bumped off, I'll be back. 114 00:04:26.500 --> 00:04:28.020 Okay, so don't worry. 115 00:04:28.020 --> 00:04:30.060 No matter what happens, if we all get bumped off, 116 00:04:30.060 --> 00:04:31.580 again, I hope that doesn't happen. 117 00:04:31.580 --> 00:04:34.820 But if that ever were to happen, just come right back on 118 00:04:34.820 --> 00:04:37.820 and then we'll proceed from there, okay? 119 00:04:38.660 --> 00:04:39.660 All right, I'm gonna go ahead and pray. 120 00:04:39.660 --> 00:04:43.140 Father, thank you so much for who you are 121 00:04:43.180 --> 00:04:47.500 that even in the reminder of the thunderstorm above me, 122 00:04:47.500 --> 00:04:51.220 Lord, that you're above all things, 123 00:04:51.220 --> 00:04:54.620 you are in all things, that you created all things. 124 00:04:54.620 --> 00:04:56.340 Nothing is too hard for you. 125 00:04:58.220 --> 00:04:59.460 Nothing is too hard for you. 126 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:07.120 Anything was ever created, the spirit was wisdom was there help us tonight to step into wisdom, 127 00:05:07.120 --> 00:05:13.040 to have discernment, to have revelation from heaven, to experience an awakening in our minds 128 00:05:13.840 --> 00:05:19.440 that we would come out of. Yes, Lord, I'm just even in the spirit, just seeing like 129 00:05:20.640 --> 00:05:25.600 a monument crumbling. So even places of monuments, like places where we've set up 130 00:05:26.560 --> 00:05:32.400 thought patterns, systems, behaviors, mindsets, attitudes. Lord, I thank you that we're just 131 00:05:32.400 --> 00:05:40.240 going to begin or continue even to surrender to your will, your way to come out of alignment with 132 00:05:40.240 --> 00:05:46.080 those things that have led us to a place that we are stuck. Lord, I thank you for movement. I thank 133 00:05:46.080 --> 00:05:51.440 you that the crumbling, the breaking away of chains is happening. So Lord, we just ask for 134 00:05:51.440 --> 00:05:56.320 supernatural acceleration on the healing processes and the hearts and the minds, 135 00:05:56.320 --> 00:06:00.160 bodies, spirits, and souls of everyone that's a part of this community in this group. 136 00:06:00.160 --> 00:06:04.720 We thank you even tonight, Holy Spirit for coming and weaving in and out of our conversations, 137 00:06:05.280 --> 00:06:11.760 guiding and directing even examples that I give. Let it be what they need to hear. Lord, do your 138 00:06:11.760 --> 00:06:16.000 work. You're amazing, great physician. So we just thank you in advance for the healing, 139 00:06:16.800 --> 00:06:22.240 divine healing and release that's about to happen in Jesus' name. Amen. 140 00:06:23.520 --> 00:06:29.200 So tonight we're talking about stories, you all. That's where we're starting tonight. 141 00:06:29.200 --> 00:06:36.000 And when I say we're talking about stories, what I want you to think about is 142 00:06:37.520 --> 00:06:40.400 what is a common story that you tell yourself? 143 00:06:40.640 --> 00:06:45.120 So what's a common story that you grew up hearing is something else that the Lord kind of spoke to 144 00:06:45.120 --> 00:06:50.640 me about after I logged out of the session this afternoon. We didn't go into that very much, 145 00:06:51.200 --> 00:06:56.880 but some of you all have been told stories for so long that you actually don't know that it's not 146 00:06:56.880 --> 00:07:05.360 true. So what I mean by that is some of you have been told stories about men, about life, about 147 00:07:05.680 --> 00:07:14.240 about life, about what's not possible for so long that it is just a habit to think that way. 148 00:07:15.280 --> 00:07:19.840 We were talking as a team as well today that one of the things we are really 149 00:07:20.960 --> 00:07:26.000 big on in this community is like, we're okay with people having a bad day and here and there 150 00:07:26.000 --> 00:07:30.560 feeling like, okay, it's hard. They're having a bad day. They're struggling with negativity. 151 00:07:30.560 --> 00:07:36.000 But when we see someone that remains in a consistent behavior of negativity, 152 00:07:36.800 --> 00:07:41.680 and even when the coaches are trying to help and redirect, and they're just resisting, 153 00:07:41.680 --> 00:07:49.360 resisting, and they're choosing to park in negativity. Unfortunately, we will have to 154 00:07:49.360 --> 00:07:55.520 start to step in and do something because if one person is that way, y'all have you ever seen 155 00:07:55.520 --> 00:08:02.720 apples in a bunch and one apple goes bad, guess what? It affects the whole bunch, doesn't it? 156 00:08:03.280 --> 00:08:08.560 So I want to encourage you all. I don't want you to ever be afraid. We're always going to extend 157 00:08:08.560 --> 00:08:14.800 all the branches. We're always going to try to get you all to a place of like coming out of that 158 00:08:14.800 --> 00:08:21.200 negativity, coming out of the lies, but we're always going to make choices for the community 159 00:08:21.200 --> 00:08:27.120 as a whole. So just know that. And I, again, I don't want that to scare you. I want it to help 160 00:08:27.120 --> 00:08:33.600 you understand that we are here to help you to the best of our ability, but we can only go so far, 161 00:08:33.600 --> 00:08:39.840 right? So it's up to you all to then choose to receive truth and walk in it every day. And it's 162 00:08:39.840 --> 00:08:46.240 a daily thing. Some of y'all are going to battle for a while because again, you've been taught 163 00:08:46.240 --> 00:08:52.320 things your whole life and you don't maybe know how to walk in that because that muscle of 164 00:08:52.320 --> 00:08:58.000 positivity isn't that strong yet. So know that we have compassion for you and we're cheering you on 165 00:08:58.000 --> 00:09:03.520 and we're praying for you. And interestingly enough tonight, I was looking through the book 166 00:09:04.960 --> 00:09:10.400 and in the one chapter, there's a section called the biggest lie. The biggest lie that you might 167 00:09:10.400 --> 00:09:16.560 believe in life is that your life is normal. Many people that live broken lives believe that 168 00:09:16.560 --> 00:09:20.960 it's reasonable to live that way. They have inherited the emotional debt or trauma from 169 00:09:20.960 --> 00:09:25.120 their family. And they think it's normal to be overweight and unhappy, to be unfaithful, 170 00:09:25.120 --> 00:09:30.240 to be in a relationship where someone mistreats you or to be sick all the time. They think it's 171 00:09:30.240 --> 00:09:34.480 okay to have massive amounts of debt and spend all their energy trying to figure out how to pay the 172 00:09:34.480 --> 00:09:41.040 bills or even more severe deception. Like it's normal to abuse and hurt others or yourself. 173 00:09:41.840 --> 00:09:47.280 I knew someone like that. They thought it was normal to be molested by family members because 174 00:09:47.280 --> 00:09:53.840 it's all they had ever known. When they were confronted by an outsider about the abuse, 175 00:09:53.840 --> 00:09:59.520 they said, that happens in everyone's family, doesn't it? No, it doesn't. 176 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:05.560 was on and I'm bringing this story up because I'm going to give you guys an example of someone 177 00:10:05.560 --> 00:10:09.400 that said something in our group. And actually it's the person that's currently stuck in 178 00:10:09.400 --> 00:10:13.780 a very negative heart posture. And we've tried multiple people are trying to help her come 179 00:10:13.780 --> 00:10:20.520 out of that. And this is someone that has been in this place before. Um, but it's deep, 180 00:10:20.520 --> 00:10:28.740 deep, deep negativity. Okay. And so the reason I'm mentioning it is because sometimes people 181 00:10:28.740 --> 00:10:34.260 are in that place, like I said, because the family has been that way. And so therefore 182 00:10:34.260 --> 00:10:38.980 they've been that way. But one of the things when I was coaching her before, and this has 183 00:10:38.980 --> 00:10:45.900 been several months ago, um, she just said kind of in passing, well, everybody has a 184 00:10:45.900 --> 00:10:53.860 hard life. Well, no, let's talk about yours. Let's talk about, let's look at this. So I 185 00:10:53.860 --> 00:10:58.140 want to say to you, if that is one of the things that you tell yourself, and I don't 186 00:10:58.540 --> 00:11:02.660 want you all to focus on all the negative, but I just want you to be aware of these things 187 00:11:02.660 --> 00:11:08.980 because the enemy will try to get you to dismiss your pain. Because if you dismiss it, guess 188 00:11:08.980 --> 00:11:17.420 what? You all won't heal from it. That's truth. And so we have to look at it with the father 189 00:11:17.420 --> 00:11:23.260 and with his heart healing process and asking Holy spirit to come in and heal and mend. 190 00:11:23.260 --> 00:11:27.180 He's the comforter. He's the counselor. He knows what you need every step of the way. 191 00:11:27.220 --> 00:11:32.300 He knows the stories that don't lead you to truth. He knows the kingdom of heaven, right? 192 00:11:32.300 --> 00:11:36.780 He's three in one with God, the father and Jesus Christ. So they're in communion all 193 00:11:36.780 --> 00:11:44.300 the time. So he knows where God wants to take you. So tonight I encourage you to step out 194 00:11:44.300 --> 00:11:48.140 of the old stories. You've been telling yourselves the old stories. Other people have been telling 195 00:11:48.140 --> 00:11:54.820 you limiting belief systems and thoughts, and step into the new story that God is writing 196 00:11:54.820 --> 00:12:01.460 and has been writing for you. Some of you don't really fully believe that God is writing 197 00:12:01.460 --> 00:12:06.380 a new story for you yet, but you're about to. And I hope that that comes into full view 198 00:12:06.380 --> 00:12:10.900 for you tonight. I encourage you to be aware of the stories. You tell yourself the thoughts 199 00:12:10.900 --> 00:12:14.820 that you have, the reactions that you have to situations. Have you all ever just pause 200 00:12:14.820 --> 00:12:23.060 and thought, why, why did I, why did I just react that way? I do that. Sometimes something 201 00:12:23.100 --> 00:12:30.500 happens and I'm super upset real quick. Like, why did that get to me so much Lord? In the 202 00:12:30.500 --> 00:12:35.820 past, I might not have even paused. I might've just kept going and squash that down. But 203 00:12:35.820 --> 00:12:42.820 now I'm like, okay, wait, that's not love is love is a lot of things. And I know that 204 00:12:42.820 --> 00:12:48.540 that reaction didn't look like love or feel like love. So help me to know what's causing 205 00:12:48.540 --> 00:12:54.700 that what's underneath the surface. That's now causing that volcano, if you will. And 206 00:12:54.700 --> 00:12:59.300 everybody has different kinds of volcanoes. You all, some of us have very big volcano 207 00:12:59.300 --> 00:13:05.500 explosive reactions and some have like the volcanoes that are just bubbling, but it still 208 00:13:05.500 --> 00:13:10.980 feels hot. Doesn't it on the inside when that anger starts kind of brewing. Right. All right. 209 00:13:10.980 --> 00:13:15.700 So I want to give you guys some examples. I gave you one already. Well, to, you know, 210 00:13:15.700 --> 00:13:21.820 the one that I said, this, that happens to everyone's family or, you know, Hey, everybody 211 00:13:21.820 --> 00:13:29.300 has it hard. So I don't need to, I don't need to look at this and it's just normal. What 212 00:13:29.300 --> 00:13:34.780 about maybe your story is it doesn't matter. And what I mean by that is maybe you went 213 00:13:34.780 --> 00:13:42.020 through a situation and your feelings were hurt. Maybe a friend said something to you 214 00:13:42.020 --> 00:13:48.940 and you just told yourself what doesn't matter. It's no big deal, but deep down, it really 215 00:13:48.940 --> 00:13:55.420 did matter to you. And so when we do that, when we again, dismiss these things, we're 216 00:13:55.420 --> 00:14:01.580 actually shutting off our feelings. We're denying a part of ourself. Now, I'm not necessarily 217 00:14:01.580 --> 00:14:06.820 encouraging you all to just run crazy with your feelings and not have the wisdom of God 218 00:14:06.820 --> 00:14:14.420 helping you in your responses to people that might say or do hurtful things. But I don't 219 00:14:14.420 --> 00:14:19.220 believe the father wants you to tell yourself anymore that it doesn't matter. Maybe some 220 00:14:19.220 --> 00:14:24.940 of you are saying to yourselves, I didn't even want that anyways, whether it was a spouse, 221 00:14:24.940 --> 00:14:31.980 a house, a job, a new car. I saw someone in our group, y'all got a brand new car. God 222 00:14:31.980 --> 00:14:36.860 worked it out. And it was like, literally, she said, almost like to the T what she asked for. 223 00:14:37.820 --> 00:14:43.260 What? Yes. Her testimony is in the phase one app. I read it a little bit ago. 224 00:14:44.860 --> 00:14:49.980 This stuff is real. This is stuff that's happening. We talked about Christmas in July, 225 00:14:49.980 --> 00:14:54.140 and can it really happen for me? We talked about that this afternoon. I'm going to encourage you 226 00:14:54.140 --> 00:14:59.740 all to just start asking God to show you the ways he wants to surprise you and help you to see the 227 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:02.280 Little surprises and the big surprises. 228 00:15:02.640 --> 00:15:08.720 And just to see maybe write down, you know, some of your wishlist and just let 229 00:15:08.720 --> 00:15:12.400 yourself, it's not vain to want things. 230 00:15:13.080 --> 00:15:16.760 If we get caught up in that and get out of balance now, that's a different story. 231 00:15:17.720 --> 00:15:22.440 But maybe there's just even something that you you've kind of wanted, but you 232 00:15:22.440 --> 00:15:26.240 just haven't felt like you could have it for whatever reason. 233 00:15:26.520 --> 00:15:28.280 And I'm not saying God's a slot machine either. 234 00:15:28.320 --> 00:15:31.840 So just y'all, I say everything and I want you to take it in balance. 235 00:15:31.840 --> 00:15:32.080 Okay. 236 00:15:32.080 --> 00:15:38.080 We want balance, but I do want to challenge you to not just stay in the heart 237 00:15:38.080 --> 00:15:42.080 posture of God does all that for other people, but he's not going to do that for 238 00:15:42.080 --> 00:15:42.400 me. 239 00:15:44.080 --> 00:15:45.920 So maybe yours isn't a car. 240 00:15:45.960 --> 00:15:47.720 Maybe yours is just flowers. 241 00:15:48.280 --> 00:15:52.080 Maybe you haven't had anybody give you flowers and you just, you would really 242 00:15:52.080 --> 00:15:53.440 love that kind of surprise. 243 00:15:53.960 --> 00:15:58.400 You know, whatever your thing is, I encourage you to stop telling yourself 244 00:15:58.400 --> 00:16:00.040 that you didn't even want it anyway. 245 00:16:02.640 --> 00:16:04.400 All right, let's see here. 246 00:16:05.640 --> 00:16:09.040 I think I'm going to use Kim Kaufman's name right here. 247 00:16:10.440 --> 00:16:12.960 Um, the Lord told me to do this with two people. 248 00:16:12.960 --> 00:16:15.920 I did one this afternoon and Kim, you're the person tonight. 249 00:16:15.960 --> 00:16:20.200 This is the next lie that sometimes we believe, and this might be something 250 00:16:20.200 --> 00:16:22.960 the enemy, I don't know if the enemy is saying it to you, Kim or not, but God 251 00:16:22.960 --> 00:16:29.120 highlighted you to you, to me and said to use you for this, Kim, you should just 252 00:16:29.120 --> 00:16:30.640 give up on this. 253 00:16:32.040 --> 00:16:33.880 Cause it's not going to happen anyway. 254 00:16:33.880 --> 00:16:36.640 This time isn't going to be any different. 255 00:16:37.440 --> 00:16:38.120 That's the enemy. 256 00:16:38.120 --> 00:16:39.080 That's not God. 257 00:16:39.200 --> 00:16:40.920 That's not what God is saying to you. 258 00:16:40.920 --> 00:16:44.960 That's the enemy's voice trying to kill, steal and destroy. 259 00:16:44.960 --> 00:16:48.440 But Jesus Christ came to give us life and give it to us more abundantly. 260 00:16:48.760 --> 00:16:53.160 And that is the life that God has for you, Kim, as well as all of you. 261 00:16:54.680 --> 00:16:55.040 Yeah. 262 00:16:55.160 --> 00:16:57.240 See, Holy Spirit knows you all. 263 00:16:58.320 --> 00:16:59.640 He knows what you need. 264 00:16:59.680 --> 00:17:03.440 He knows what you need to hear the things that are in your heart that are hurting. 265 00:17:04.079 --> 00:17:06.720 And he knows how to get it to you in the moment that you need it. 266 00:17:06.760 --> 00:17:07.839 Keep trusting him. 267 00:17:08.480 --> 00:17:12.079 Maybe your lie that you're believing and the negative thought and story you're 268 00:17:12.079 --> 00:17:14.800 telling yourself is I never get picked. 269 00:17:16.400 --> 00:17:17.960 We talked about all these this afternoon. 270 00:17:17.960 --> 00:17:18.920 Angela, I see you. 271 00:17:19.400 --> 00:17:20.359 It was good stuff. 272 00:17:20.800 --> 00:17:26.079 Maybe your lie is God blesses everyone, but me, that's the story you're, you're 273 00:17:26.079 --> 00:17:32.000 agreeing with and God is saying to you tonight, daughter, I encourage you to 274 00:17:32.000 --> 00:17:34.440 come out of that cave is that's what it is. 275 00:17:34.960 --> 00:17:36.440 It's the cave of isolation. 276 00:17:36.440 --> 00:17:37.760 It's the cave of unbelief. 277 00:17:37.760 --> 00:17:40.800 It's the cave of death and destruction. 278 00:17:41.160 --> 00:17:42.800 And we don't belong there. 279 00:17:43.160 --> 00:17:47.960 Oh, this is not anything I said earlier today, but I'm going to go here. 280 00:17:48.280 --> 00:17:51.960 Lazarus, you all was in the tomb for how many days? 281 00:17:52.120 --> 00:17:52.760 Does anyone know? 282 00:17:55.440 --> 00:17:55.720 Yeah. 283 00:17:57.000 --> 00:17:58.680 It's three or four days, right? 284 00:17:58.680 --> 00:17:59.800 I think it was the same. 285 00:17:59.840 --> 00:18:03.240 I'm going to have to look now because now some people are saying four and I think 286 00:18:03.240 --> 00:18:06.080 it's, I think it's three, but I'm going to double check it. 287 00:18:06.320 --> 00:18:07.120 Let's look it up. 288 00:18:07.360 --> 00:18:08.800 Let's look it up and talk about it. 289 00:18:08.920 --> 00:18:10.880 But he was in the tomb for how many days? 290 00:18:11.040 --> 00:18:12.400 Let's look it up and talk about it. 291 00:18:12.560 --> 00:18:13.400 But here's the thing. 292 00:18:13.400 --> 00:18:15.840 He was in there for multiple days. 293 00:18:17.080 --> 00:18:18.320 And then Jesus shows up. 294 00:18:19.600 --> 00:18:23.600 But don't you know that in the Bible, the story, it said that Jesus kind of 295 00:18:23.600 --> 00:18:26.680 tarried that he didn't go right away. 296 00:18:26.880 --> 00:18:27.960 Doesn't that blow your mind? 297 00:18:27.960 --> 00:18:29.480 Like what, why would he do that? 298 00:18:30.320 --> 00:18:31.240 Why did he do it? 299 00:18:31.400 --> 00:18:32.120 What did he say? 300 00:18:32.320 --> 00:18:34.960 So that his glory could be revealed. 301 00:18:35.840 --> 00:18:38.640 Do we always fully understand the why? 302 00:18:38.720 --> 00:18:39.280 No. 303 00:18:39.600 --> 00:18:45.440 But what we can know is that God in his goodness and his power can raise up any 304 00:18:45.560 --> 00:18:47.640 light, anything that's dead to life. 305 00:18:47.640 --> 00:18:49.240 He can resurrect dreams. 306 00:18:49.240 --> 00:18:51.000 He can resurrect your story. 307 00:18:51.360 --> 00:18:55.920 He can make your story better in your former years than it ever was in the latter. 308 00:18:57.440 --> 00:18:59.760 So it's up to us to start to align. 309 00:18:59.760 --> 00:19:00.760 It says four days. 310 00:19:00.800 --> 00:19:01.280 Okay. 311 00:19:02.440 --> 00:19:03.160 We're back and forth. 312 00:19:03.160 --> 00:19:04.720 We'll look it up again. 313 00:19:04.800 --> 00:19:07.800 What script Jen, tell us which, which part that you're looking at. 314 00:19:08.080 --> 00:19:12.640 But I liken it to the fact that Jesus was in the tomb three days and then he got, 315 00:19:12.680 --> 00:19:14.440 he was risen as you know, as well. 316 00:19:14.680 --> 00:19:20.960 So interesting that Jesus had such a close relationship with Lazarus and Jesus 317 00:19:20.960 --> 00:19:22.520 and Lazarus had something in common. 318 00:19:22.520 --> 00:19:23.040 Didn't they? 319 00:19:24.040 --> 00:19:28.520 They were both were in a tomb and they were both raised from the dead. 320 00:19:29.000 --> 00:19:34.120 Hey, maybe your story you're telling yourself is all men only date or want 321 00:19:34.240 --> 00:19:36.000 date or want skinny women. 322 00:19:39.240 --> 00:19:40.520 Maybe that's your story. 323 00:19:42.360 --> 00:19:43.080 Here's one more. 324 00:19:43.080 --> 00:19:44.480 And then we're going to start to move on. 325 00:19:44.880 --> 00:19:47.400 This program takes too much time. 326 00:19:47.680 --> 00:19:49.600 Y'all I saw that recently. 327 00:19:50.480 --> 00:19:51.760 I know it's commitment. 328 00:19:51.960 --> 00:19:54.440 I know that it takes time, but know that this is the best time 329 00:19:54.440 --> 00:19:56.000 you're ever going to spend. 330 00:19:56.520 --> 00:19:58.440 I mean, I'm partial you all. 331 00:19:58.440 --> 00:19:59.920 I know there's a lot of healing ministries. 332 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:05.960 out there. I've done other healing ministries, but I just can't help but feel like there's 333 00:20:05.960 --> 00:20:11.020 something kind of wonderful happening here. Something different. They're all beautiful. 334 00:20:11.020 --> 00:20:18.020 Everything I've been through healing wise, I'm so grateful for it. But I feel like God's 335 00:20:18.020 --> 00:20:22.160 doing something wonderful here. So I want to encourage you, if the enemy has you focusing 336 00:20:22.160 --> 00:20:29.660 on how much time you don't have to do this, I want to encourage you to shift into God. 337 00:20:29.660 --> 00:20:34.400 Thank you so much. You're going to help me make room in my life and schedule to do this 338 00:20:34.400 --> 00:20:41.320 work that you're going to extend time as well for me. Do y'all know that he can do that? 339 00:20:41.320 --> 00:20:47.460 He can literally extend time and give us grace. Says that when Jesus arrived, he had already 340 00:20:47.460 --> 00:20:55.880 been in the tomb four days. All right. Thank you for that, John. John 11, 17. So it's never 341 00:20:55.880 --> 00:21:00.240 too late for your story to come back to life. It's never too late for the promises that 342 00:21:00.240 --> 00:21:06.800 you've always longed for to be fulfilled. All of these stories that are mentioned to 343 00:21:06.800 --> 00:21:14.000 you all, there's an underlying theme and it's called disappointment and fear. So somewhere 344 00:21:14.000 --> 00:21:21.840 along the way, you experienced disappointment, you experienced letdown, fear, maybe abuse 345 00:21:21.840 --> 00:21:27.520 through someone else or something people said to you. And you unfortunately chose to 346 00:21:27.520 --> 00:21:32.040 partner with those lies and those stories that are not true. So I want to encourage 347 00:21:32.040 --> 00:21:35.920 you to start asking yourself, even right now, some of you guys have already been thinking 348 00:21:35.920 --> 00:21:39.720 some of you ladies, I got to work on that. So y'all don't think we're co-ed. We are not 349 00:21:39.720 --> 00:21:46.320 co-ed tonight. I get relaxed and I start using the word you guys. I want to encourage you 350 00:21:46.320 --> 00:21:52.520 ladies to ask yourself, even right now, as you've thought of things, where did this language 351 00:21:52.520 --> 00:21:59.800 come from? Where did the story originate for you? The story of the lie that you've been 352 00:21:59.800 --> 00:22:07.560 believing. One of the things I want to mention as I kind of shared that story on the all 353 00:22:07.560 --> 00:22:11.520 men only date skinny women, the reason I put that in there is because this woman that I've 354 00:22:11.520 --> 00:22:16.800 kind of been alluding to tonight, and I want you all to know, I love her deeply. I've coached 355 00:22:16.800 --> 00:22:23.040 her several times. I have deep care for her. And I never share names and I would never 356 00:22:23.040 --> 00:22:27.960 do that. But I'm only sharing it because I hope that it benefits you all as well. And 357 00:22:27.960 --> 00:22:36.040 it helps set some of you free. She went through some things when she was younger. She struggles 358 00:22:36.040 --> 00:22:43.560 with body image issues. And when I've talked with her, she's always felt fat basically 359 00:22:43.560 --> 00:22:48.880 is what she told me. She's always struggled with her weight. And then she's in a profession 360 00:22:48.880 --> 00:22:56.360 where some men said some stuff to her, which wasn't kind. And then basically she just started 361 00:22:56.360 --> 00:23:01.640 telling herself that story. And maybe more than one man, I don't really know. But the 362 00:23:01.680 --> 00:23:08.240 reason I bring it up is because too many of us are telling ourselves those kinds of stories. 363 00:23:08.240 --> 00:23:13.360 Now I also don't want you all to stay there and use that as an excuse to not be the healthiest 364 00:23:13.360 --> 00:23:19.240 version of yourself. Okay, so be the best version of you. What does that mean? That 365 00:23:19.240 --> 00:23:25.560 means ask God if you need to do some things to invest in your health and your well being 366 00:23:25.560 --> 00:23:31.200 physically, mentally, emotionally, everything financially, is there anything that God wants 367 00:23:31.200 --> 00:23:37.640 you to do, like start moving your body, eating healthier, all that stuff. But I don't want 368 00:23:37.640 --> 00:23:45.200 you to believe the lie that all men only date skinny women, or I also use other things because 369 00:23:45.200 --> 00:23:49.720 it's not just about weight. Earlier, one of the things that came to me was all men only 370 00:23:49.720 --> 00:23:55.960 like women with blonde hair. I shared an example, I had this these neighbor girls, they were 371 00:23:55.960 --> 00:24:00.600 friends of mine, they both have blonde hair, I always thought they were so pretty. And 372 00:24:00.600 --> 00:24:05.320 I always compared myself to them. And the one sister in particular got she just seemed 373 00:24:05.320 --> 00:24:10.080 to always get the boys. But what I said to the ladies this afternoon, what's funny is 374 00:24:10.080 --> 00:24:15.760 I also dated guys in high school wasn't like I didn't have a boyfriend. And even if I didn't, 375 00:24:15.760 --> 00:24:21.040 that's kind of irrelevant. But it's interesting to me that I told myself the story that she 376 00:24:21.040 --> 00:24:28.720 gets all the guys. But I was dating people. And that weird. I think that's weird when 377 00:24:28.720 --> 00:24:35.240 I thought about it today. Like, why would I say that and claim that when I was experiencing 378 00:24:35.240 --> 00:24:39.040 dating? Now, I wish I would have waited a lot longer, to be honest, now that I look 379 00:24:39.040 --> 00:24:48.720 at it hindsight had no business dating that young and erect, but what is it that you're 380 00:24:48.720 --> 00:24:53.680 telling yourself? And I want to encourage you to come out of that maybe you're taller 381 00:24:53.680 --> 00:25:00.080 and you feel like, you know, guys, no guys would like you because you're tall, all 382 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:01.480 Those kind of things. 383 00:25:01.480 --> 00:25:04.200 So you don't get what you would expect. 384 00:25:04.200 --> 00:25:05.880 Let's talk about that. 385 00:25:05.880 --> 00:25:08.720 We get, we will expect things 386 00:25:08.720 --> 00:25:09.800 and a lot of people will say, 387 00:25:09.800 --> 00:25:13.880 oh, if you just claim it, name it, claim it kind of stuff. 388 00:25:13.880 --> 00:25:16.120 And God is not that way. 389 00:25:16.120 --> 00:25:20.360 And here's the tricky thing is that a lot of times 390 00:25:20.360 --> 00:25:23.880 if we expect like positive things, 391 00:25:23.880 --> 00:25:26.000 okay, let's say we expecting something positive 392 00:25:26.000 --> 00:25:28.400 but deep down inside of our hearts, 393 00:25:28.400 --> 00:25:30.960 we're telling ourself another story. 394 00:25:30.960 --> 00:25:32.000 Guess what? 395 00:25:32.000 --> 00:25:35.840 What we're expecting out here is going to be impacted 396 00:25:35.840 --> 00:25:37.640 by what's going on down here. 397 00:25:37.640 --> 00:25:39.760 So you gotta start to make these things align. 398 00:25:39.760 --> 00:25:41.160 So how do we do that? 399 00:25:41.160 --> 00:25:44.680 We get what we inspect, okay? 400 00:25:44.680 --> 00:25:46.920 So where we're going with this is I want you all 401 00:25:46.920 --> 00:25:50.280 to start inspecting your thoughts more. 402 00:25:50.280 --> 00:25:51.980 Where are your thoughts coming from? 403 00:25:51.980 --> 00:25:54.840 As I was saying earlier, where did they originate? 404 00:25:54.840 --> 00:25:56.580 Where did the stories come from? 405 00:25:57.580 --> 00:26:01.420 Who's the hero in the story? 406 00:26:01.420 --> 00:26:02.260 Who's the villain? 407 00:26:02.260 --> 00:26:03.820 All that kind of stuff. 408 00:26:03.820 --> 00:26:05.620 I want you to inspect your thoughts 409 00:26:05.620 --> 00:26:07.860 and I want you to start to align with truth 410 00:26:07.860 --> 00:26:08.980 instead of the lie. 411 00:26:10.540 --> 00:26:13.500 So where are your thoughts and heart postures leading you? 412 00:26:14.860 --> 00:26:15.820 I talked this afternoon 413 00:26:15.820 --> 00:26:17.420 and I'm gonna just say this one briefly 414 00:26:17.420 --> 00:26:19.900 because I have another example to give tonight. 415 00:26:19.900 --> 00:26:23.620 But I gave the example this afternoon of a record player. 416 00:26:23.620 --> 00:26:25.820 And some of y'all have had a record 417 00:26:25.860 --> 00:26:28.380 that's been playing in your mind and your heart 418 00:26:28.380 --> 00:26:31.860 and your spirit for 20 plus years. 419 00:26:31.860 --> 00:26:36.100 And it's time to take the record off that record player. 420 00:26:36.100 --> 00:26:38.860 And I use the example of when a record got scratched, 421 00:26:38.860 --> 00:26:41.460 man, that song didn't finish, did it? 422 00:26:41.460 --> 00:26:43.780 It would go until it hit that scratch 423 00:26:43.780 --> 00:26:45.260 and then it couldn't go past that. 424 00:26:45.260 --> 00:26:48.660 And that's where some of you all have felt over the years. 425 00:26:48.660 --> 00:26:50.900 You're getting so far, but then you just feel stuck 426 00:26:50.900 --> 00:26:55.220 and you just haven't been able to get past that scratch, 427 00:26:55.220 --> 00:26:56.180 if you will. 428 00:26:56.180 --> 00:26:58.380 But God is creating a new record. 429 00:26:58.380 --> 00:27:00.580 He's creating that new story. 430 00:27:00.580 --> 00:27:02.300 The other example I have for you 431 00:27:02.300 --> 00:27:03.460 and then I'm gonna get you guys ready 432 00:27:03.460 --> 00:27:06.700 to go into the breakout sessions. 433 00:27:06.700 --> 00:27:11.540 But this afternoon, my youngest spiritual daughter's here 434 00:27:11.540 --> 00:27:15.100 in Florida visiting and she wanted to sit out in the sun. 435 00:27:15.100 --> 00:27:17.460 And so I was putting this umbrella together. 436 00:27:17.460 --> 00:27:20.180 Y'all, if you had seen me, I was laughing at myself. 437 00:27:20.180 --> 00:27:23.260 It was kind of a ridiculous scene, to be honest. 438 00:27:23.260 --> 00:27:24.740 The umbrella was top heavy, 439 00:27:24.740 --> 00:27:26.860 but it has these things that weigh it down. 440 00:27:26.860 --> 00:27:29.300 You got to fill them with water. 441 00:27:29.300 --> 00:27:31.340 And it'll make sense why I'm telling this story 442 00:27:31.340 --> 00:27:32.620 here in a minute. 443 00:27:32.620 --> 00:27:37.620 But when we moved, I'm thinking in the move 444 00:27:38.460 --> 00:27:40.420 that these things got damaged 445 00:27:40.420 --> 00:27:43.020 because they worked just fine when we lived in Indiana. 446 00:27:43.020 --> 00:27:45.940 But I'm filling these things that are supposed to hold 447 00:27:45.940 --> 00:27:49.180 and stabilize this umbrella in place. 448 00:27:49.180 --> 00:27:50.660 I'm filling them up with water 449 00:27:50.660 --> 00:27:52.420 because that's what you're supposed to do. 450 00:27:52.420 --> 00:27:53.860 Well, as fast as I'm filling it up, 451 00:27:53.860 --> 00:27:56.140 this one, there's four parts. 452 00:27:56.140 --> 00:27:58.420 And there were other ones that had these little tiny leaks. 453 00:27:58.420 --> 00:28:00.500 And I was like, am I imagining that leak? 454 00:28:00.500 --> 00:28:02.340 Is that really like the first one? 455 00:28:02.340 --> 00:28:03.180 It was kind of like, 456 00:28:03.180 --> 00:28:05.380 I think there might be a leak in that, but I can't tell. 457 00:28:05.380 --> 00:28:06.940 But it was like, there's four parts, 458 00:28:06.940 --> 00:28:10.620 but each one, the leaks got bigger. 459 00:28:10.620 --> 00:28:11.820 No joke, you all. 460 00:28:11.820 --> 00:28:15.300 The fourth one, as fast as I was filling it up, 461 00:28:15.300 --> 00:28:17.180 that water was pouring out of it. 462 00:28:18.300 --> 00:28:21.380 And I started thinking about that today. 463 00:28:21.420 --> 00:28:24.020 Here are these things that are supposed to stabilize 464 00:28:24.020 --> 00:28:25.980 this umbrella and hold it in place. 465 00:28:27.060 --> 00:28:29.580 And they're just leaking like crazy. 466 00:28:29.580 --> 00:28:32.900 Isn't that how it is sometimes with our hearts? 467 00:28:32.900 --> 00:28:35.340 Like the Lord's pouring stuff in. 468 00:28:35.340 --> 00:28:36.460 He's pouring stuff in, 469 00:28:36.460 --> 00:28:38.940 but we've got all these leaks everywhere 470 00:28:38.940 --> 00:28:41.580 and stuff is just leaking right out. 471 00:28:41.580 --> 00:28:43.940 But that's why you're here to heal 472 00:28:43.940 --> 00:28:46.460 so that God can mend your heart. 473 00:28:46.460 --> 00:28:48.860 He can help you process. 474 00:28:48.860 --> 00:28:53.460 And he can not only put a bandaid on it to cover it 475 00:28:53.460 --> 00:28:56.620 so it doesn't leak, but actually completely heal it 476 00:28:56.620 --> 00:28:58.380 so it never leaks again. 477 00:28:59.460 --> 00:29:00.460 So I want to encourage you. 478 00:29:00.460 --> 00:29:02.140 That's a word that he gave me. 479 00:29:02.140 --> 00:29:03.380 Whoever believes that, 480 00:29:03.380 --> 00:29:05.100 I encourage you to reach up and receive it 481 00:29:05.100 --> 00:29:07.500 because God is speaking to you tonight. 482 00:29:07.500 --> 00:29:09.620 Second Corinthians 10 five says, 483 00:29:09.620 --> 00:29:11.820 we demolish arguments and every pretension 484 00:29:11.820 --> 00:29:14.500 that sets itself up against the knowledge of God. 485 00:29:15.860 --> 00:29:18.420 And we take captive every thought 486 00:29:18.980 --> 00:29:20.780 and make it obedient to Christ. 487 00:29:20.780 --> 00:29:23.540 When it says we demolish arguments in every pretension, 488 00:29:23.540 --> 00:29:26.740 that pretension word means every high thing. 489 00:29:26.740 --> 00:29:28.180 When I looked into the Greek of this, 490 00:29:28.180 --> 00:29:31.780 the shortest version you all is it's a barrier. 491 00:29:31.780 --> 00:29:33.060 It means a barrier. 492 00:29:33.060 --> 00:29:37.900 So anything, we demolish arguments in every barrier. 493 00:29:37.900 --> 00:29:41.700 So that's, if I'm saying that, I'm acknowledging, 494 00:29:41.700 --> 00:29:45.820 okay, this thing right here is a barrier. 495 00:29:45.860 --> 00:29:49.100 So it's me acknowledging whatever that is for me. 496 00:29:49.100 --> 00:29:51.620 This is a barrier between me and the father 497 00:29:51.620 --> 00:29:54.900 and me believing truth, me being free. 498 00:29:54.900 --> 00:29:58.660 And so I father right now, I do in your name 499 00:29:58.660 --> 00:30:00.260 by the power of Jesus Christ. 500 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:04.160 I demolished this thing and I choose to take these thoughts 501 00:30:04.160 --> 00:30:07.120 captive that are aligning with this lie and this bad story 502 00:30:07.120 --> 00:30:08.120 that's not true. 503 00:30:09.280 --> 00:30:12.120 And I'm choosing to not believe this anymore. 504 00:30:12.120 --> 00:30:15.080 And I'm going to choose instead to make it obedient to Christ. 505 00:30:15.080 --> 00:30:19.520 Guess what that means y'all not only to Jesus Christ who came to 506 00:30:19.520 --> 00:30:22.160 make you completely free and give you the victory you're 507 00:30:22.160 --> 00:30:24.240 fighting from victory, not for it. 508 00:30:26.160 --> 00:30:28.520 He already won the victory for you and me. 509 00:30:28.800 --> 00:30:30.800 So we're fight we're fighting from it. 510 00:30:31.000 --> 00:30:35.400 So some of it is that but the other half is the taking 511 00:30:35.400 --> 00:30:37.800 scripture and using it. 512 00:30:38.880 --> 00:30:43.200 You all we were never meant to be passive ever in the body of 513 00:30:43.200 --> 00:30:43.800 Christ. 514 00:30:44.440 --> 00:30:49.680 God called us to be ambassadors for Christ to to wield the sword 515 00:30:49.680 --> 00:30:50.520 of the spirit. 516 00:30:50.520 --> 00:30:54.400 It's so many of us and and there's no shame in it. 517 00:30:54.400 --> 00:30:55.800 But so many of us don't. 518 00:30:56.680 --> 00:30:59.680 So it's time Jackie gave the call on Saturday. 519 00:30:59.680 --> 00:31:02.280 I I think I've been given the call for a while. 520 00:31:02.280 --> 00:31:04.480 I mean, she's been given the call for a long time too, but like 521 00:31:04.480 --> 00:31:07.080 she really gave the call if y'all didn't hear Supernatural 522 00:31:07.080 --> 00:31:10.480 Saturday, there's definitely a cry of the father's heart for 523 00:31:10.480 --> 00:31:15.680 the body of Christ to awaken and to really step further into 524 00:31:15.680 --> 00:31:17.680 freedom so that we can help set other people free. 525 00:31:18.480 --> 00:31:22.680 So I want you to pause and think again about that storyline that 526 00:31:22.680 --> 00:31:23.680 you were telling yourself. 527 00:31:23.680 --> 00:31:24.880 Maybe it was this morning. 528 00:31:24.960 --> 00:31:26.360 Maybe it was yesterday. 529 00:31:27.560 --> 00:31:31.160 And I want you to think about what have they been rooted in 530 00:31:31.160 --> 00:31:35.360 where they rooted in overwhelm where they rooted in anxiety 531 00:31:35.360 --> 00:31:36.960 where they rooted in fear. 532 00:31:37.560 --> 00:31:40.560 Maybe you felt like there was some risk to it. 533 00:31:40.560 --> 00:31:44.160 Maybe God is nudging you to try to reconcile a relationship 534 00:31:44.160 --> 00:31:48.760 with a broken relationship with a family member and it feels 535 00:31:48.760 --> 00:31:52.360 risky but underneath the risk guess what that goes right back 536 00:31:52.440 --> 00:31:58.040 to fear and anxiety and panic doesn't it insecurity a lot of 537 00:31:58.040 --> 00:32:02.240 those things y'all love is always going to be a risk, but 538 00:32:02.240 --> 00:32:04.440 it's a risk worth taking I promise you. 539 00:32:05.440 --> 00:32:06.640 Here's the other one. 540 00:32:07.440 --> 00:32:09.240 Is it a place of invitation? 541 00:32:10.240 --> 00:32:12.740 The things the stories that you're believing is it a place 542 00:32:12.740 --> 00:32:17.040 of invitation and promise and hope those are the ones we want 543 00:32:17.040 --> 00:32:20.640 you to think on those are the ones we want you to be talking 544 00:32:20.720 --> 00:32:23.520 to God about more and more and more. 545 00:32:24.120 --> 00:32:25.520 I'm going to put you in your breakout and you're going to 546 00:32:25.520 --> 00:32:27.120 talk about with each other. 547 00:32:27.520 --> 00:32:30.920 What negative thought do you need to take captive today? 548 00:32:31.720 --> 00:32:34.320 Maybe there's more than one you're going to do short brief 549 00:32:34.320 --> 00:32:37.720 and powerful so that everybody in your group has time to share. 550 00:32:38.120 --> 00:32:40.420 I'm going to set you up with three to four people depending 551 00:32:40.420 --> 00:32:44.320 on how our groups to be out and not everybody can always show 552 00:32:44.320 --> 00:32:47.120 up in the group there because some people are working in stuff. 553 00:32:47.600 --> 00:32:48.600 All right, let's do that. 554 00:32:48.600 --> 00:32:50.000 I'm going to give you eight minutes. 555 00:32:55.400 --> 00:32:56.200 All right, there you go. 556 00:32:58.200 --> 00:32:59.200 That's okay, Julie. 557 00:32:59.400 --> 00:33:00.200 You can stay here. 558 00:33:01.600 --> 00:33:03.600 All right, go ahead and click to join. 559 00:33:13.200 --> 00:33:15.200 Just making sure we got people. 560 00:33:15.280 --> 00:33:18.980 Just making sure we got people, two people in every room. 561 00:33:19.780 --> 00:33:20.080 All right. 562 00:33:20.080 --> 00:33:22.280 I need somebody to join this last room. 563 00:33:23.880 --> 00:33:24.180 All right. 564 00:33:24.180 --> 00:33:26.480 I see that Julie cannot join breakout. 565 00:33:26.480 --> 00:33:31.080 How about Emily and Meg and Faustina, Ruth? 566 00:33:32.680 --> 00:33:33.180 All right, cool. 567 00:33:33.180 --> 00:33:34.280 Meg's in there. 568 00:33:35.480 --> 00:33:35.980 Awesome. 569 00:33:35.980 --> 00:33:36.280 Okay. 570 00:33:36.280 --> 00:33:38.180 I have two people almost in every group. 571 00:33:38.180 --> 00:33:38.880 That's great. 572 00:33:39.180 --> 00:33:43.680 Father, thank you so much for this incredible group of women 573 00:33:43.680 --> 00:33:46.160 of your daughters, of your beloved ones, Lord. 574 00:33:46.160 --> 00:33:48.760 I thank you that you would help them tonight to hear what your 575 00:33:48.760 --> 00:33:50.160 spirit is saying over them. 576 00:33:50.460 --> 00:33:53.660 I thank you that you would help them to not despise the day 577 00:33:53.660 --> 00:33:54.860 of small beginnings. 578 00:33:55.360 --> 00:34:00.660 And even as I pray that what I mean is the time of looking 579 00:34:00.660 --> 00:34:04.360 at their thoughts and asking you to help them discern between 580 00:34:04.360 --> 00:34:09.360 truth and lies to have revealings for healing to understand 581 00:34:09.440 --> 00:34:13.940 Lord where the story they've been told from long ago has led 582 00:34:13.940 --> 00:34:14.840 them down the path. 583 00:34:14.840 --> 00:34:16.239 That's not your best for them. 584 00:34:16.239 --> 00:34:18.239 So Lord, we thank you that you would help them to come out 585 00:34:18.239 --> 00:34:24.739 of alignment with every false story that the enemy has has 586 00:34:24.739 --> 00:34:28.239 told them from the beginning and even throughout the years 587 00:34:28.239 --> 00:34:30.840 where the things that that that they experienced and that 588 00:34:30.840 --> 00:34:34.739 they went through caused them to align with a lie that they 589 00:34:34.739 --> 00:34:37.440 believed in the past and it just kept becoming stronger and 590 00:34:37.440 --> 00:34:38.340 stronger and stronger. 591 00:34:38.420 --> 00:34:39.520 So Lord, we thank you. 592 00:34:40.620 --> 00:34:45.719 Yes, Lord, we thank you tonight for tearing down strongholds 593 00:34:46.620 --> 00:34:52.020 and breaking barriers in minds, hearts, spirits, bodies, and 594 00:34:52.020 --> 00:34:52.420 souls. 595 00:34:52.420 --> 00:34:57.620 We thank you that even just the patience that you have father 596 00:34:57.620 --> 00:35:00.220 to to for some of them, you're taking it down. 597 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:03.400 on brick by brick by brick because they just really struggle 598 00:35:03.400 --> 00:35:07.040 to trust you and I thank you God that you're meeting them 599 00:35:07.040 --> 00:35:08.240 right where they're at. 600 00:35:08.240 --> 00:35:12.280 And you remind them tonight that you are a good father, 601 00:35:12.280 --> 00:35:13.720 that you bring them good things, 602 00:35:13.720 --> 00:35:16.640 that you stand up at the door of their hearts and knock 603 00:35:16.640 --> 00:35:18.040 and you don't force your way in. 604 00:35:18.040 --> 00:35:20.920 And I'm so grateful that you're a gentleman 605 00:35:20.920 --> 00:35:25.400 and I pray that you would help them to hear that 606 00:35:25.400 --> 00:35:27.440 and experience that more every day, 607 00:35:27.440 --> 00:35:30.120 that they would find their home in you 608 00:35:30.120 --> 00:35:31.760 and their safety in you. 609 00:35:31.760 --> 00:35:35.800 The word declares that you hide us in the cleft of your rock 610 00:35:35.800 --> 00:35:38.200 and it also declares that you shield us 611 00:35:38.200 --> 00:35:40.480 under the presence of the almighty 612 00:35:40.480 --> 00:35:41.880 and under the shadow of your wings. 613 00:35:41.880 --> 00:35:45.320 So Lord, I thank you that when we have any kind of fear 614 00:35:45.320 --> 00:35:49.680 or doubt or unbelief that you would bring life and truth 615 00:35:49.680 --> 00:35:52.240 and healing and redemption. 616 00:35:52.240 --> 00:35:55.240 I'm gonna read the scripture over you all as well. 617 00:35:55.240 --> 00:35:57.360 It's from Jeremiah 29. 618 00:35:57.360 --> 00:35:59.080 A lot of people just read verse 11, 619 00:35:59.080 --> 00:36:02.120 but I'm gonna also read verse 12 through four, 620 00:36:02.120 --> 00:36:03.960 well, verse 11 through 14 all the way. 621 00:36:03.960 --> 00:36:04.800 So it says this, 622 00:36:04.800 --> 00:36:07.760 for I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, 623 00:36:07.760 --> 00:36:10.000 plans to prosper you and not to harm you, 624 00:36:10.000 --> 00:36:12.840 plans to give you a hope and a future. 625 00:36:12.840 --> 00:36:15.480 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me 626 00:36:15.480 --> 00:36:18.560 and I will listen to you. 627 00:36:18.560 --> 00:36:20.680 You will seek me and find me when you seek me 628 00:36:20.680 --> 00:36:23.080 with all of your heart. 629 00:36:23.120 --> 00:36:25.920 I will be found by you declares the Lord 630 00:36:25.920 --> 00:36:30.360 and will bring you back from captivity. 631 00:36:30.360 --> 00:36:33.280 Praise the Lord, he brings us back from captivity, 632 00:36:33.280 --> 00:36:35.840 the places where we've been slaves to sin, 633 00:36:35.840 --> 00:36:40.120 slaves to negative thinking and stinking thinking. 634 00:36:40.120 --> 00:36:43.640 And I thank you Lord that, yes, Lord, 635 00:36:43.640 --> 00:36:47.240 even the things like this that sometimes can cause 636 00:36:47.240 --> 00:36:50.480 a stinky aroma in our lives, if you will, 637 00:36:50.480 --> 00:36:52.960 God, that you create a fragrance that's beautiful. 638 00:36:53.840 --> 00:36:58.160 And I thank you that you bring the oil of joy for mourning 639 00:36:58.160 --> 00:36:59.920 that you would, anyone that, 640 00:37:01.560 --> 00:37:05.080 I'm even hearing the word say like some people in our group 641 00:37:05.080 --> 00:37:08.920 are really grieving losses of relationship, 642 00:37:08.920 --> 00:37:11.480 losses of other things. 643 00:37:11.480 --> 00:37:13.160 Did you get kicked out? 644 00:37:13.160 --> 00:37:16.000 I don't know how to say your name, a hundred percent. 645 00:37:16.000 --> 00:37:17.840 Oh, Aliyah. 646 00:37:17.840 --> 00:37:19.960 Aliyah, hi. 647 00:37:19.960 --> 00:37:21.800 Did you get kicked out of your room? 648 00:37:23.600 --> 00:37:26.480 Oh, I think her connection is slow. 649 00:37:33.240 --> 00:37:34.080 Aliyah. 650 00:37:35.240 --> 00:37:38.240 Yes, sorry, the connection is so bad. 651 00:37:38.240 --> 00:37:40.080 Is it like, is it me? 652 00:37:40.080 --> 00:37:42.560 It's okay, I think you got kicked out of your room. 653 00:37:42.560 --> 00:37:44.280 Do you know what room you were in? 654 00:37:45.320 --> 00:37:46.880 I don't remember. 655 00:37:46.880 --> 00:37:50.280 That's okay, you can hang here with us if you want, 656 00:37:50.280 --> 00:37:52.000 or I can put you back in another room. 657 00:37:52.040 --> 00:37:53.560 Do you want me to put you in a room? 658 00:37:53.560 --> 00:37:55.360 How many minutes do we have? 659 00:37:55.360 --> 00:37:56.960 Three. 660 00:37:56.960 --> 00:37:58.440 I'll just hang out. 661 00:37:58.440 --> 00:37:59.280 Okay. 662 00:38:01.080 --> 00:38:05.440 So Lord, I thank you that you are working 663 00:38:05.440 --> 00:38:06.320 in all of our lives. 664 00:38:06.320 --> 00:38:07.640 I think there was something I was gonna say there, 665 00:38:07.640 --> 00:38:08.760 but I don't even remember now, 666 00:38:08.760 --> 00:38:10.320 but Lord, I know that you'll bring it back 667 00:38:10.320 --> 00:38:11.480 if it's important. 668 00:38:11.480 --> 00:38:13.280 So Lord, I just thank you that right now, 669 00:38:13.280 --> 00:38:15.520 that as Proverbs 23, 23 says, 670 00:38:15.520 --> 00:38:17.200 that you would help us to embrace the truth 671 00:38:17.200 --> 00:38:18.640 and hold it close. 672 00:38:18.640 --> 00:38:20.680 Don't let go of wisdom and instruction 673 00:38:20.680 --> 00:38:21.920 and life-giving understanding. 674 00:38:22.800 --> 00:38:24.280 So Lord, I thank you that you'll help us 675 00:38:24.280 --> 00:38:26.720 to receive all of these things from you, 676 00:38:26.720 --> 00:38:30.520 that you'll help us to, yes, Lord, 677 00:38:30.520 --> 00:38:33.880 to spend time in the inner court 678 00:38:33.880 --> 00:38:35.840 with your heart and your spirit. 679 00:38:35.840 --> 00:38:37.840 I thank you that you're inviting some 680 00:38:37.840 --> 00:38:40.440 into the inner courts, if you will, 681 00:38:40.440 --> 00:38:41.960 and to come away with you. 682 00:38:41.960 --> 00:38:44.080 Come away, my fair one. 683 00:38:44.080 --> 00:38:48.240 And God is wanting to say something wonderful to you. 684 00:38:48.240 --> 00:38:50.240 And so I encourage you, if that's speaking to you, 685 00:38:50.240 --> 00:38:52.880 that you would just spend a little extra time 686 00:38:52.880 --> 00:38:53.840 with the Lord this week 687 00:38:53.840 --> 00:38:56.880 and just listen for what he wants to tell you. 688 00:38:56.880 --> 00:38:58.040 Philippians 4, 7 says, 689 00:38:58.040 --> 00:38:59.640 then you will experience God's peace, 690 00:38:59.640 --> 00:39:02.000 which exceeds anything we can understand. 691 00:39:02.000 --> 00:39:04.920 His peace will guard your hearts and minds 692 00:39:04.920 --> 00:39:06.560 as you live in Christ Jesus. 693 00:39:06.560 --> 00:39:09.160 So Lord, I thank you for your peace, 694 00:39:09.160 --> 00:39:11.600 that God, you are peace. 695 00:39:11.600 --> 00:39:13.080 And I thank you that your peace 696 00:39:13.080 --> 00:39:14.600 is what guards our hearts and our minds. 697 00:39:14.600 --> 00:39:17.080 So if we're struggling in our minds 698 00:39:17.080 --> 00:39:19.760 to think on things that are good, true, noble, lovely, 699 00:39:20.280 --> 00:39:22.960 and of good report, things above and not beneath, 700 00:39:22.960 --> 00:39:26.640 I thank you that you would just, yes, Lord, 701 00:39:26.640 --> 00:39:31.640 send your angels to minister to our minds, to our bodies. 702 00:39:31.680 --> 00:39:33.160 Thank you, Lord, that you, 703 00:39:34.360 --> 00:39:37.080 I just keep hearing him say, yes, setting the captives free. 704 00:39:37.080 --> 00:39:39.880 I just see him removing chains off of people's arms, 705 00:39:39.880 --> 00:39:42.080 off their legs, off their minds. 706 00:39:42.080 --> 00:39:43.080 So Lord, we just thank you. 707 00:39:43.080 --> 00:39:44.360 And we invite you to come 708 00:39:44.360 --> 00:39:47.480 and just continue to do supernatural heart surgery 709 00:39:47.480 --> 00:39:50.040 in ways that we can't even fully comprehend it right now, 710 00:39:50.040 --> 00:39:52.240 but I thank you that you're doing it. 711 00:39:52.240 --> 00:39:56.280 I thank you that where those who have been oppressed 712 00:39:56.280 --> 00:39:57.760 can come to you, 713 00:39:57.760 --> 00:40:00.360 that you are a shelter to all of those in the time. 714 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.760 I'm troubled and you are our perfect hiding place. 715 00:40:04.760 --> 00:40:07.240 I thank you, Lord, that you're showing us great 716 00:40:07.240 --> 00:40:09.840 and mighty things that you can do 717 00:40:09.840 --> 00:40:11.920 and that you are doing on our behalf 718 00:40:11.920 --> 00:40:13.720 and that we don't have to be afraid. 719 00:40:13.720 --> 00:40:15.600 We don't have to fear the future 720 00:40:15.600 --> 00:40:18.320 because it's in your hands and we can trust you. 721 00:40:18.320 --> 00:40:21.200 You are trustworthy. 722 00:40:21.200 --> 00:40:23.040 Yes, Lord. 723 00:40:23.040 --> 00:40:24.160 I thank you that, 724 00:40:24.160 --> 00:40:34.160 yes, that you just continue to weave 725 00:40:34.160 --> 00:40:37.320 the great tapestry of our lives together. 726 00:40:37.320 --> 00:40:38.720 I thank you that even right now, 727 00:40:38.720 --> 00:40:40.080 I'm just seeing in the spirit, 728 00:40:40.080 --> 00:40:42.840 just that you are, that you have gold string 729 00:40:42.840 --> 00:40:46.200 and the parts where the clothing, 730 00:40:46.200 --> 00:40:49.200 if you will, the seams were breaking. 731 00:40:49.200 --> 00:40:52.680 I thank you that you're resewing the seams together, 732 00:40:53.640 --> 00:40:56.160 that all things are being made new 733 00:40:56.160 --> 00:41:00.680 and that you know exactly the place to stitch 734 00:41:00.680 --> 00:41:02.360 and when to stitch. 735 00:41:02.360 --> 00:41:04.400 And I thank you that we won't get ahead of you, God. 736 00:41:04.400 --> 00:41:06.920 I thank you that we are gonna be like Psalm 1 3, 737 00:41:06.920 --> 00:41:09.560 which says that we will be standing firm 738 00:41:09.560 --> 00:41:13.280 like a flourishing tree planted by God's design. 739 00:41:13.280 --> 00:41:15.600 I thank you that we are planted by your design 740 00:41:15.600 --> 00:41:16.960 in all things. 741 00:41:16.960 --> 00:41:19.680 And I thank you also, God, that your word declares 742 00:41:19.720 --> 00:41:23.600 that we will be deeply rooted by the brooks of bliss, 743 00:41:23.600 --> 00:41:26.680 bearing fruit in every season of life, 744 00:41:26.680 --> 00:41:29.320 that we will never be dry, never faint, 745 00:41:29.320 --> 00:41:31.640 ever blessed and ever prosperous. 746 00:41:31.640 --> 00:41:34.680 So Lord, I declare that to be our lot, 747 00:41:34.680 --> 00:41:38.200 that we will be deeply rooted by brooks of bliss. 748 00:41:38.200 --> 00:41:41.240 I imagine bliss, ladies, is very wonderful. 749 00:41:41.240 --> 00:41:44.680 I imagine it's happiness in all kinds of things. 750 00:41:44.680 --> 00:41:48.320 Maybe even let's do a word study on bliss definition. 751 00:41:48.320 --> 00:41:49.200 What does it mean? 752 00:41:49.720 --> 00:41:52.200 What does it mean to live a life of bliss 753 00:41:52.200 --> 00:41:55.960 and to stay by the river of living water? 754 00:41:55.960 --> 00:41:59.040 Do you know that the Bible says that out of our bellies 755 00:41:59.040 --> 00:42:01.560 will flow rivers of living water? 756 00:42:02.640 --> 00:42:05.200 So in order for that to happen, 757 00:42:05.200 --> 00:42:07.040 we need to spend time with the Father 758 00:42:07.040 --> 00:42:09.440 and get filled with it first. 759 00:42:09.440 --> 00:42:10.760 So I'm gonna encourage you again, 760 00:42:10.760 --> 00:42:14.200 just to really be in a season of seeking the Lord, 761 00:42:14.200 --> 00:42:16.520 even if you don't fully know what that means yet. 762 00:42:16.560 --> 00:42:18.040 Some of you all are like, 763 00:42:18.040 --> 00:42:21.320 probably like we say things on these calls and these things, 764 00:42:22.800 --> 00:42:25.360 probably speak Christianese in some ways to some of you, 765 00:42:25.360 --> 00:42:27.080 and not that we're not all Christians, 766 00:42:27.080 --> 00:42:29.960 maybe some are, some aren't, I'm not sure, 767 00:42:29.960 --> 00:42:32.280 but like at the end of the day, 768 00:42:32.280 --> 00:42:35.120 the Father can give you understanding. 769 00:42:35.120 --> 00:42:36.960 And so it's always good to ask him. 770 00:42:38.800 --> 00:42:40.520 Luke 8, 17 and 18, 771 00:42:40.520 --> 00:42:42.200 and then I'm gonna ask you all to share. 772 00:42:42.200 --> 00:42:43.800 So get ready for those of you 773 00:42:43.800 --> 00:42:45.720 that are willing to share with the whole group. 774 00:42:45.720 --> 00:42:46.560 This is what it says, 775 00:42:46.560 --> 00:42:49.280 because this revelation lamp now shines within you, 776 00:42:49.280 --> 00:42:51.600 nothing will be hidden from you. 777 00:42:51.600 --> 00:42:53.080 It will all be revealed. 778 00:42:54.000 --> 00:42:56.360 Every secret of the kingdom will be unveiled 779 00:42:56.360 --> 00:43:00.720 and out in the open made known by the revelation light. 780 00:43:00.720 --> 00:43:02.480 So pay careful attention to your hearts 781 00:43:02.480 --> 00:43:04.120 as you hear my teaching. 782 00:43:04.120 --> 00:43:07.000 For to those who have open hearts, 783 00:43:07.000 --> 00:43:10.520 even more revelation will be given to them 784 00:43:10.520 --> 00:43:12.800 until it overflows. 785 00:43:12.800 --> 00:43:14.720 Are you seeking God for revelation 786 00:43:14.720 --> 00:43:17.840 regarding the healing that you need in this season? 787 00:43:17.840 --> 00:43:21.280 I want you to know that he sees the work that you're doing. 788 00:43:21.280 --> 00:43:23.280 And for those that have open hearts 789 00:43:23.280 --> 00:43:25.560 to hear what his spirit is saying, 790 00:43:25.560 --> 00:43:27.440 he's giving us a promise 791 00:43:27.440 --> 00:43:29.320 that he's gonna give more revelation. 792 00:43:29.320 --> 00:43:31.880 He's gonna give more enlightenment. 793 00:43:31.880 --> 00:43:34.080 Some of you have even wondered why, 794 00:43:34.080 --> 00:43:36.600 like why the spirit mate hasn't come, 795 00:43:36.600 --> 00:43:40.240 why you haven't had certain other things falling into place. 796 00:43:40.240 --> 00:43:43.080 And those things are gonna start to come into place 797 00:43:43.080 --> 00:43:45.760 more quickly in the days ahead. 798 00:43:45.760 --> 00:43:47.640 I wanna encourage you in that good things 799 00:43:47.640 --> 00:43:49.000 are on the horizon. 800 00:43:49.000 --> 00:43:52.080 Who is willing to share with the whole group 801 00:43:52.080 --> 00:43:54.440 what you shared in your private breakout group? 802 00:43:56.560 --> 00:43:57.400 I can share. 803 00:43:58.960 --> 00:44:03.920 Awesome, so Regina go first and then Nisheto. 804 00:44:03.920 --> 00:44:05.560 Did I do it right? 805 00:44:05.560 --> 00:44:06.920 All right, awesome. 806 00:44:06.920 --> 00:44:08.360 Okay, Regina, go ahead. 807 00:44:08.360 --> 00:44:10.920 I'm sorry, it says unable to access camera 808 00:44:10.920 --> 00:44:12.720 so I can't turn it on even if I want. 809 00:44:13.360 --> 00:44:16.440 Okay, yeah, so what came up in my mind, 810 00:44:16.440 --> 00:44:18.280 I'm sure there are other stories 811 00:44:18.280 --> 00:44:20.640 that are even deeper and more serious, 812 00:44:20.640 --> 00:44:22.120 but this came up in my mind 813 00:44:22.120 --> 00:44:23.880 when you mentioned that question, 814 00:44:25.200 --> 00:44:27.680 that I have no game. 815 00:44:27.680 --> 00:44:29.680 I don't know how to flirt. 816 00:44:31.040 --> 00:44:32.800 I don't know how to interact with men. 817 00:44:32.800 --> 00:44:36.760 I'm shy and it's just really awkward for me. 818 00:44:36.760 --> 00:44:39.000 So that's the story that I tell myself 819 00:44:39.000 --> 00:44:40.160 and it gets in the way. 820 00:44:40.960 --> 00:44:43.080 Hey, and here's the thing, 821 00:44:43.080 --> 00:44:46.720 y'all, it doesn't matter if it's what we consider little, 822 00:44:46.720 --> 00:44:48.640 this still gets in our way, doesn't it? 823 00:44:49.560 --> 00:44:53.240 Right, because, all right, 824 00:44:53.240 --> 00:44:54.320 I'm gonna follow after something. 825 00:44:54.320 --> 00:44:56.440 As soon as you said that I'm shy, 826 00:44:56.440 --> 00:45:00.200 so I know some people legitimately can be shy. 827 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:10.600 But I've also felt really led to challenge shyness in the last several months. 828 00:45:10.600 --> 00:45:14.480 And here's why. 829 00:45:14.480 --> 00:45:20.460 I think that we become shy because stuff that happens. 830 00:45:20.460 --> 00:45:27.040 I think some of us do have a natural tendency to be more quiet. 831 00:45:27.040 --> 00:45:32.200 But there's a difference between shyness and kind of shrieking back. 832 00:45:32.200 --> 00:45:34.480 And everybody's shyness shows up differently for everyone. 833 00:45:34.480 --> 00:45:39.380 But I will tell you that I've seen shyness show up to the point that like some children 834 00:45:39.380 --> 00:45:42.200 literally can't even speak to people. 835 00:45:42.200 --> 00:45:44.480 You know, it's all different versions. 836 00:45:44.480 --> 00:45:50.040 And again, I think some of that might be personality, but I also think there's something that might 837 00:45:50.040 --> 00:45:51.880 be causing that. 838 00:45:51.880 --> 00:45:59.160 So I really want to encourage you, for any of you that battle shyness, to look at it 839 00:45:59.160 --> 00:46:03.520 more as, hey, this is something I've battled or struggled with. 840 00:46:03.520 --> 00:46:09.000 And Lord, I really believe that you're going to help me come out of that and come into 841 00:46:09.000 --> 00:46:16.320 the light and healing and to trust that people like me. 842 00:46:16.320 --> 00:46:20.920 And I'm going to have a good experience when I when I interact with people. 843 00:46:20.960 --> 00:46:23.200 And that includes men, ladies. 844 00:46:23.200 --> 00:46:24.280 And here's why. 845 00:46:24.280 --> 00:46:32.040 I have a friend that we talk all the time about her work and whatnot. 846 00:46:32.040 --> 00:46:34.560 And she used to say she was shy too. 847 00:46:34.560 --> 00:46:41.120 And y'all, the more we've talked, the more God has uncovered. 848 00:46:41.120 --> 00:46:47.520 And there were things that she went through as a kid that caused her to shut down. 849 00:46:47.520 --> 00:46:54.800 But as the mid-30s, she really hadn't connected the dots all the way back to some of these 850 00:46:54.800 --> 00:46:57.920 things that happened in childhood. 851 00:46:57.920 --> 00:47:03.920 And so, again, I just want to encourage you, ask the Lord if, you know, God, did you create 852 00:47:03.920 --> 00:47:12.680 me to be shy or did I become shy because of things I went through and experienced? 853 00:47:12.680 --> 00:47:18.960 Some of you have kind of adopted the wallflower kind of place where you come into the group 854 00:47:18.960 --> 00:47:24.560 and you kind of hang out on the outskirts and you watch and you observe. 855 00:47:24.560 --> 00:47:26.400 And I understand it can be scary. 856 00:47:26.400 --> 00:47:29.160 You don't know everybody in the group. 857 00:47:29.160 --> 00:47:33.960 But I'm going to encourage you that if that's you, I want to encourage you to partner with 858 00:47:33.960 --> 00:47:40.840 coming out of hiding and posting and communicating with other people, even if it's cheering on 859 00:47:40.840 --> 00:47:43.200 your other sister's post. 860 00:47:43.200 --> 00:47:49.440 Because I feel like God wants to do something in that and helping you, again, come out of 861 00:47:49.440 --> 00:47:55.320 the shyness, come into the light, come into community, come into a place of healing. 862 00:47:55.320 --> 00:48:01.280 So many of us have experienced hurt and you're just not sure. 863 00:48:01.280 --> 00:48:06.360 You're just not sure yet if you can have healthy relationship even with women. 864 00:48:06.360 --> 00:48:09.960 But God wants you to know that you can. 865 00:48:10.080 --> 00:48:12.200 And it can happen now. 866 00:48:12.200 --> 00:48:15.120 So you don't have to keep waiting for that. 867 00:48:15.120 --> 00:48:17.520 God places us all as Harry and families. 868 00:48:17.520 --> 00:48:21.640 And we believe God led every one of you here divinely. 869 00:48:21.640 --> 00:48:24.400 So he's up to something pretty wonderful in your life. 870 00:48:24.400 --> 00:48:27.280 Regina, thank you for sharing. 871 00:48:27.280 --> 00:48:29.680 Also on the hat, I have no game and flirting. 872 00:48:29.680 --> 00:48:32.720 I will tell you guys, I won't say too much about it right now. 873 00:48:32.720 --> 00:48:39.000 But in phase two, if you all choose to go into that and continue on with us, we give 874 00:48:39.040 --> 00:48:41.560 all kinds of coaching on all of that. 875 00:48:41.560 --> 00:48:45.800 So just know that you're not going to have to walk that part alone either. 876 00:48:45.800 --> 00:48:52.080 So after you do the healing and you focus on that, we'll coach you on all, even if you 877 00:48:52.080 --> 00:48:56.800 all weren't on this afternoon, Judith, she's, I don't know what her age is, but she told 878 00:48:56.800 --> 00:49:02.200 me, she told us she had dated for 50 some years and, you know, she's about to finish 879 00:49:02.200 --> 00:49:03.200 phase one. 880 00:49:03.200 --> 00:49:08.080 And so she's, you know, she's about to step into the next phase, but, you know, we've 881 00:49:08.160 --> 00:49:09.160 got your back. 882 00:49:09.160 --> 00:49:15.040 And as you stay in community and you stay connected, we can coach you through that. 883 00:49:15.040 --> 00:49:19.760 And yeah, it might look different when you're older versus younger, but it can, y'all will 884 00:49:19.760 --> 00:49:20.760 be surprised. 885 00:49:20.760 --> 00:49:23.160 Y'all will be surprised. 886 00:49:23.160 --> 00:49:28.960 God does some really fun stuff and it can be a lot of fun to include your sisters and 887 00:49:28.960 --> 00:49:29.960 this family. 888 00:49:29.960 --> 00:49:30.960 Okay. 889 00:49:30.960 --> 00:49:34.560 Nisheto, I'm going to have you go next. 890 00:49:34.560 --> 00:49:36.560 Hey, thank you. 891 00:49:37.040 --> 00:49:38.040 Okay. 892 00:49:38.040 --> 00:49:44.080 I'm 51, never been married and I'm the second child. 893 00:49:44.080 --> 00:49:48.120 Everyone in my family is married and they all have children, children grown up. 894 00:49:48.120 --> 00:49:54.000 So I've been anti all over, all over and over again, you know? 895 00:49:54.000 --> 00:49:59.920 So there's a root, one part of me that feels like a failure because I'm not. 896 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:01.400 I've never gotten married. 897 00:50:01.400 --> 00:50:04.200 And I have my, sometimes my nieces and nephews 898 00:50:04.200 --> 00:50:05.600 always ask me, where's your husband? 899 00:50:05.600 --> 00:50:06.440 Where's your children? 900 00:50:06.440 --> 00:50:09.000 And I'm like, well, keep praying for me. 901 00:50:09.000 --> 00:50:12.540 But one of the lies that I'm currently struggling with is, 902 00:50:14.760 --> 00:50:16.680 there's no point, you're already old. 903 00:50:16.680 --> 00:50:19.000 You've lost your youth, you know? 904 00:50:19.000 --> 00:50:21.400 What's the testimony if you get married at this age? 905 00:50:21.400 --> 00:50:24.040 There's no point, you know? 906 00:50:24.040 --> 00:50:26.560 You're gonna have kids at this age. 907 00:50:26.560 --> 00:50:28.720 And who wants to marry an old woman? 908 00:50:29.080 --> 00:50:30.840 There's really no point. 909 00:50:30.840 --> 00:50:32.560 It isn't a testimony getting married. 910 00:50:32.560 --> 00:50:33.760 It's no testimony at all. 911 00:50:33.760 --> 00:50:38.040 No matter what way you look at it, there's no point. 912 00:50:38.040 --> 00:50:40.720 I still do desire to get married. 913 00:50:40.720 --> 00:50:41.560 I pray about it. 914 00:50:41.560 --> 00:50:44.400 But I think somewhere deep down in my subconscious, 915 00:50:44.400 --> 00:50:47.060 I just don't think it's ever gonna happen. 916 00:50:48.000 --> 00:50:50.400 Yeah, okay, so this is huge. 917 00:50:52.240 --> 00:50:55.440 I wanna really encourage you to ask the Lord 918 00:50:55.440 --> 00:50:57.280 where this started. 919 00:50:57.280 --> 00:51:00.720 Because not just because that's what we always say, 920 00:51:00.720 --> 00:51:03.560 but literally this started somewhere for you 921 00:51:03.560 --> 00:51:07.680 where you actually, to some degree, I'm hearing like, 922 00:51:07.680 --> 00:51:11.400 you experienced such deep embarrassment about something 923 00:51:11.400 --> 00:51:14.320 along the way that you just started shutting down 924 00:51:14.320 --> 00:51:16.480 and telling yourself these things because you all, 925 00:51:16.480 --> 00:51:19.400 this is self-protection at its finest. 926 00:51:19.400 --> 00:51:21.040 Do y'all recognize that? 927 00:51:21.040 --> 00:51:23.840 And I don't wanna point that out in a negative way, 928 00:51:23.840 --> 00:51:28.840 but I want you all to see not only was there one storyline 929 00:51:29.920 --> 00:51:32.880 that was really not like where God, 930 00:51:32.880 --> 00:51:36.680 leading her to where God wants her to go in this regard, 931 00:51:36.680 --> 00:51:38.400 but there were multiple storylines 932 00:51:38.400 --> 00:51:40.600 and they were all intertwined, weren't they? 933 00:51:41.480 --> 00:51:42.720 But this is how it works. 934 00:51:42.720 --> 00:51:45.520 We believe the first one and we start partnering 935 00:51:45.520 --> 00:51:47.960 with that first one and then we get hurt again. 936 00:51:47.960 --> 00:51:49.960 And then we get, we believe another one 937 00:51:49.960 --> 00:51:52.000 and that story intertwines with this story. 938 00:51:52.000 --> 00:51:53.960 And then it just keeps getting bigger, 939 00:51:53.960 --> 00:51:57.760 the web that we believe and we get caught up in. 940 00:51:57.760 --> 00:52:02.760 And so two things I'm gonna focus on right now though. 941 00:52:04.320 --> 00:52:05.920 You've lost your youth. 942 00:52:07.080 --> 00:52:11.160 At 50, I feel, maybe because I'm 45, 943 00:52:11.160 --> 00:52:12.920 I feel like 50 is pretty young. 944 00:52:14.160 --> 00:52:17.760 And I feel like you've got a whole lot of life left to live. 945 00:52:17.760 --> 00:52:21.760 And so why do we partner with my youth? 946 00:52:22.520 --> 00:52:23.360 Now, obviously I understand, 947 00:52:23.360 --> 00:52:26.240 youth is all the way we look at that, right? 948 00:52:26.240 --> 00:52:29.600 To a lot of us, youth is a certain like, okay, for me, 949 00:52:29.600 --> 00:52:32.000 when I think back, my youthful years 950 00:52:32.000 --> 00:52:35.040 were probably up until about 20, 25. 951 00:52:35.040 --> 00:52:37.800 I went through a lot of hard stuff, 25 to 35. 952 00:52:37.800 --> 00:52:42.200 And so it was just, well, yeah, approximately, maybe longer. 953 00:52:42.200 --> 00:52:43.280 It was like 15 years. 954 00:52:43.280 --> 00:52:46.080 I don't know y'all, it was hard, a lot of hard. 955 00:52:46.080 --> 00:52:51.080 And so I felt like I lost a lot of my joy 956 00:52:51.800 --> 00:52:53.800 and the youthfulness about myself. 957 00:52:53.800 --> 00:52:57.000 So you can look at it that way too, but here's the thing. 958 00:52:57.000 --> 00:53:02.000 The Bible declares that God can renew, what? 959 00:53:02.080 --> 00:53:04.680 Our youth, just like an eagle. 960 00:53:06.520 --> 00:53:07.600 What? 961 00:53:07.600 --> 00:53:10.840 So why would we believe that our youth is gone 962 00:53:10.840 --> 00:53:14.400 and we've lost it and we cannot obtain it ever again? 963 00:53:14.400 --> 00:53:16.960 I don't know about you all, 964 00:53:16.960 --> 00:53:21.960 but I feel more youthful at 45 than I did at 35 965 00:53:22.400 --> 00:53:26.440 because my heart is healing over and over and over again, 966 00:53:26.440 --> 00:53:28.440 every day, more healing, more healing. 967 00:53:28.440 --> 00:53:31.800 And I have more joy and I feel more excited, 968 00:53:33.440 --> 00:53:34.280 all the things. 969 00:53:34.280 --> 00:53:39.280 So you have so much life left to live 970 00:53:40.960 --> 00:53:43.800 and so many promises yet to be fulfilled. 971 00:53:44.720 --> 00:53:47.400 But if you continue to partner or anyone, 972 00:53:47.400 --> 00:53:51.640 if we partner with things like it's all gone 973 00:53:51.640 --> 00:53:54.600 and there's nothing left for me here, 974 00:53:56.440 --> 00:53:59.560 then that is where we will live. 975 00:54:01.400 --> 00:54:04.840 And so where do we want to partner tonight? 976 00:54:06.280 --> 00:54:09.400 The other thing is you said, 977 00:54:09.400 --> 00:54:11.320 who wants to marry an old woman? 978 00:54:12.320 --> 00:54:14.600 Again, I think you're young. 979 00:54:14.600 --> 00:54:16.960 I know it's not, I don't want to pretend 980 00:54:16.960 --> 00:54:18.760 like I know what it's like to be you, 981 00:54:18.760 --> 00:54:21.560 to be 55 and never having been married, 982 00:54:21.560 --> 00:54:23.480 but here's the thing. 983 00:54:23.480 --> 00:54:24.320 I think- 984 00:54:24.320 --> 00:54:26.120 I'm sorry, 51, I'm 51. 985 00:54:26.120 --> 00:54:28.480 I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I made you older. 986 00:54:28.480 --> 00:54:29.600 You're not that old. 987 00:54:29.600 --> 00:54:30.640 See, you're young. 988 00:54:30.640 --> 00:54:33.080 See, didn't that make you feel young just by that? 989 00:54:33.080 --> 00:54:34.680 Okay, Lord, thank you. 990 00:54:34.680 --> 00:54:36.360 I did that on accident, 991 00:54:36.360 --> 00:54:39.360 but how much younger did you just feel? 992 00:54:39.360 --> 00:54:40.200 You're like, wait a minute. 993 00:54:40.200 --> 00:54:42.560 No, I'm younger than that, right? 994 00:54:42.560 --> 00:54:43.720 That is so funny. 995 00:54:43.720 --> 00:54:45.680 I really didn't mean to say 55, 996 00:54:46.600 --> 00:54:48.960 but it gives us all a good laugh, doesn't it? 997 00:54:48.960 --> 00:54:53.000 But for real, I mean, I don't know. 998 00:54:53.000 --> 00:54:55.880 I think God wants you to let go of those garments. 999 00:54:55.880 --> 00:54:56.720 It's interesting. 1000 00:54:56.720 --> 00:54:59.560 I just didn't even make the parallel until just right now. 1001 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:02.080 While we're in the breakout session, 1002 00:55:03.360 --> 00:55:05.520 I felt like there were some people 1003 00:55:05.520 --> 00:55:09.300 that were wearing sackcloth around, like grieving. 1004 00:55:10.920 --> 00:55:14.160 But I thought it was just about lost relationships 1005 00:55:14.160 --> 00:55:15.920 in the sense of they lost someone, 1006 00:55:15.920 --> 00:55:19.640 but I feel like you maybe are one of those people. 1007 00:55:19.640 --> 00:55:21.360 And here's the thing you all, 1008 00:55:21.360 --> 00:55:25.520 we can put the sackcloth garment on, if you will, 1009 00:55:25.520 --> 00:55:27.560 that the Bible talks about, 1010 00:55:27.560 --> 00:55:29.920 and we can continue to wear it 1011 00:55:29.920 --> 00:55:34.920 and live that, but that isn't where God wants us to stay. 1012 00:55:35.880 --> 00:55:39.760 And what I mean by that is like these storylines 1013 00:55:39.760 --> 00:55:42.920 are storylines of, if you will, death, 1014 00:55:42.920 --> 00:55:44.620 for a lack of better words. 1015 00:55:46.000 --> 00:55:49.020 Destruction, there's nothing left for me here. 1016 00:55:49.020 --> 00:55:51.360 If there was nothing left for us, 1017 00:55:51.360 --> 00:55:53.360 we wouldn't be here, right? 1018 00:55:55.000 --> 00:55:56.600 And you weren't fully saying that, 1019 00:55:56.640 --> 00:55:59.160 but it can lead us even there, 1020 00:55:59.160 --> 00:56:03.160 if we continue down the path that there's no point 1021 00:56:03.160 --> 00:56:07.260 in God bringing me someone at this stage in my life. 1022 00:56:08.680 --> 00:56:13.680 But what if God's just about to unleash radical miracles 1023 00:56:15.680 --> 00:56:19.340 that you haven't even conceived in your mind? 1024 00:56:19.340 --> 00:56:22.880 What if in one day things start changing, 1025 00:56:22.880 --> 00:56:25.740 would we tell ourselves a different story? 1026 00:56:25.740 --> 00:56:28.340 You better believe we would, wouldn't we? 1027 00:56:28.340 --> 00:56:31.300 You all, so much can happen in one day. 1028 00:56:31.300 --> 00:56:34.980 Supernatural transformation in our hearts 1029 00:56:34.980 --> 00:56:37.380 and our minds and our spirits can change everything. 1030 00:56:37.380 --> 00:56:40.980 I think the tough part is when, like you explained it, 1031 00:56:40.980 --> 00:56:44.380 you were seeing your siblings getting married, 1032 00:56:44.380 --> 00:56:47.660 you have your nieces and nephews or whoever 1033 00:56:47.660 --> 00:56:50.020 asking you, where's your husband? 1034 00:56:50.020 --> 00:56:53.460 And so every time that has happened in the past, 1035 00:56:53.460 --> 00:56:58.000 it's almost like you've had to protect yourself in a sense. 1036 00:56:59.300 --> 00:57:00.340 And so I just want you to know 1037 00:57:00.340 --> 00:57:03.380 the father knows that that has been hard, 1038 00:57:05.060 --> 00:57:08.020 but he wants to come in and show up and show off 1039 00:57:08.020 --> 00:57:11.580 in these next several years in your life. 1040 00:57:11.580 --> 00:57:16.580 And while I know many are believing for babies still, 1041 00:57:17.780 --> 00:57:20.340 you all, people are having babies later and later. 1042 00:57:21.300 --> 00:57:24.420 They are, things are different now. 1043 00:57:24.420 --> 00:57:27.060 Do I know that that is possible for you? 1044 00:57:27.060 --> 00:57:29.420 I don't know, I don't know what God's gonna do in your life, 1045 00:57:29.420 --> 00:57:32.980 but we can believe depending on what your body's doing, right? 1046 00:57:32.980 --> 00:57:35.060 Because that has to come into play there. 1047 00:57:35.060 --> 00:57:39.980 But let's not write our own story 1048 00:57:39.980 --> 00:57:43.900 and tell God all the things he can't do, right? 1049 00:57:45.220 --> 00:57:47.580 So what is it that God wants to show you 1050 00:57:48.340 --> 00:57:50.780 that he's rewriting a new story? 1051 00:57:51.780 --> 00:57:52.980 And what does it sound like? 1052 00:57:52.980 --> 00:57:54.060 And what does it look like? 1053 00:57:54.060 --> 00:57:57.940 And God, God, I said this last week 1054 00:57:57.940 --> 00:57:59.580 and I'm gonna say it again tonight. 1055 00:57:59.580 --> 00:58:02.540 I believe, help my unbelief. 1056 00:58:02.540 --> 00:58:05.260 So even if you believe a little tiny bit tonight, 1057 00:58:05.260 --> 00:58:07.900 just by me saying this stuff to you, Nisheto, 1058 00:58:07.900 --> 00:58:09.820 grab onto that little bit, 1059 00:58:09.820 --> 00:58:13.180 that little simmer of hope maybe, 1060 00:58:13.180 --> 00:58:15.500 or faith that's coming into you 1061 00:58:15.500 --> 00:58:19.220 that maybe I shouldn't think this way anymore. 1062 00:58:20.220 --> 00:58:24.940 Maybe I can laugh and have joy and find a spirit mate 1063 00:58:24.940 --> 00:58:27.780 and we can go and travel and we can have adventure 1064 00:58:27.780 --> 00:58:30.740 and we can smile and have abundance 1065 00:58:30.740 --> 00:58:34.380 and maybe even have some kids, 1066 00:58:35.820 --> 00:58:38.900 whether they're biological or some other way. 1067 00:58:38.900 --> 00:58:42.100 And maybe I can have this kingdom family and marriage 1068 00:58:42.100 --> 00:58:43.340 that's been talked about. 1069 00:58:44.340 --> 00:58:46.540 I feel the Holy Spirit as I'm talking to her. 1070 00:58:46.540 --> 00:58:48.740 So I know someone's getting something. 1071 00:58:49.860 --> 00:58:52.980 Y'all grab up, reach up and grab onto it. 1072 00:58:57.300 --> 00:58:59.500 God has not forgotten you. 1073 00:59:02.940 --> 00:59:04.100 The enemy wants you to think 1074 00:59:04.100 --> 00:59:06.660 that God has absolutely forgotten you. 1075 00:59:06.660 --> 00:59:08.700 And that like Nisheto said, 1076 00:59:08.700 --> 00:59:11.180 there's no point in trying basically. 1077 00:59:12.180 --> 00:59:14.740 But I'm gonna ask you to do something Nisheto, 1078 00:59:14.740 --> 00:59:15.940 can you smile for me? 1079 00:59:15.940 --> 00:59:17.260 Just smile real big. 1080 00:59:17.260 --> 00:59:19.420 Yeah, there it is. 1081 00:59:19.420 --> 00:59:20.540 There it is you all. 1082 00:59:21.420 --> 00:59:22.860 Why did I just do that? 1083 00:59:23.700 --> 00:59:24.940 Because you know what, 1084 00:59:24.940 --> 00:59:28.700 smiling and reminding ourselves that we have joy 1085 00:59:28.700 --> 00:59:32.660 and we have life in us and we have so much to offer, 1086 00:59:32.660 --> 00:59:35.740 that smile lights up this whole room. 1087 00:59:37.140 --> 00:59:39.100 Can you imagine just one day 1088 00:59:39.100 --> 00:59:40.540 after you've gone through the healing, 1089 00:59:40.940 --> 00:59:41.780 I keep saying that 1090 00:59:41.780 --> 00:59:42.740 because I want you all to remember, 1091 00:59:42.740 --> 00:59:44.700 I don't want you trying to date right now. 1092 00:59:44.700 --> 00:59:46.660 But after you've gone through the healing, 1093 00:59:46.660 --> 00:59:50.140 one day your spirit mate's gonna see that smile 1094 00:59:50.140 --> 00:59:51.700 and he's gonna be like, 1095 00:59:51.700 --> 00:59:54.900 that's whoa man, that's my woman. 1096 00:59:54.900 --> 00:59:56.020 I see her. 1097 00:59:56.020 --> 00:59:57.740 Because God is gonna cause you 1098 00:59:57.740 --> 00:59:59.780 to shine as bright as the sun. 1099 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:05.160 him. I believe that I told the ladies this afternoon, I, you 1100 01:00:05.160 --> 01:00:08.560 know, we as a community, the coaches, we can believe all day 1101 01:00:08.560 --> 01:00:11.000 long for you all. And we have faith for you all. And we want 1102 01:00:11.000 --> 01:00:15.320 you to partner with the faith that we have for you. But it 1103 01:00:15.320 --> 01:00:18.520 also will take you all partnering with truth and not 1104 01:00:18.520 --> 01:00:22.760 lies. And telling yourselves a different story and partnering 1105 01:00:22.760 --> 01:00:28.000 with those stories. Okay, super important. Thank you for letting 1106 01:00:28.000 --> 01:00:31.920 me use your share. Thank you a lot of other things. Yeah, I'm 1107 01:00:31.920 --> 01:00:35.920 excited to see what's going to happen. I'm expected. So I'm 1108 01:00:35.920 --> 01:00:38.800 going to pray for let me let me do something right now. I 1109 01:00:38.800 --> 01:00:42.080 encourage you all just to just to just to hold out your hands. 1110 01:00:42.080 --> 01:00:44.560 I'm going to pray for the gift of faith for all of you. I just 1111 01:00:44.560 --> 01:00:47.760 feel led to pray for gift of faith. Father, thank you so 1112 01:00:47.760 --> 01:00:53.640 much. Yes, Lord. Lord in the in the things we've gone through in 1113 01:00:53.640 --> 01:00:59.200 the past, sometimes it's just so hard to believe. But Lord, I 1114 01:00:59.200 --> 01:01:02.160 know tonight that you're meeting the ladies right where they're 1115 01:01:02.160 --> 01:01:06.200 at. You're meeting them in any areas of unbelief, and you're 1116 01:01:06.200 --> 01:01:10.000 breathing life into those areas. You're breathing hope into those 1117 01:01:10.000 --> 01:01:13.960 areas. We asked Father for an impartation of the gift of 1118 01:01:13.960 --> 01:01:18.320 faith, God that you would fan the flames of faith and 1119 01:01:18.320 --> 01:01:22.760 revelation and hope in their lives. Yes, Lord, I pray that 1120 01:01:22.760 --> 01:01:24.440 you would meet them in the night hour and you would give 1121 01:01:24.440 --> 01:01:28.200 them dreams, give them visions, even in the daytime that they 1122 01:01:28.240 --> 01:01:31.320 they would come awake to the things that you want to do in 1123 01:01:31.320 --> 01:01:35.120 their lives and, and that you would help them to perceive it. 1124 01:01:36.040 --> 01:01:38.760 Thank you, Lord, that you would just continue to pour bucket 1125 01:01:38.760 --> 01:01:41.880 fulls of hope, help them just even to see it now in the 1126 01:01:41.880 --> 01:01:45.960 spirit, just as if you just took a loving, like bucket full of 1127 01:01:45.960 --> 01:01:49.560 hearts and just pour hope pour in life pour in love over them, 1128 01:01:49.920 --> 01:01:53.440 and that you would help them to receive everything that you have 1129 01:01:53.440 --> 01:01:57.320 for them. Thank you, Father, that you're continuing to work 1130 01:01:57.360 --> 01:02:02.800 on their behalf right now. In Jesus name. Amen. Amen. Amen. 1131 01:02:02.840 --> 01:02:07.720 All right. Let's see. I think Michelle had her I saw your hand 1132 01:02:07.720 --> 01:02:10.800 up. And then I know we have a couple of others. I also have 1133 01:02:10.800 --> 01:02:13.360 another breakout session for you all too. So we'll try to get 1134 01:02:13.360 --> 01:02:16.120 that in tonight as well. Michelle, go ahead. 1135 01:02:17.120 --> 01:02:19.680 Um, so a couple of us are talking in our group, and we 1136 01:02:20.240 --> 01:02:26.320 were saying that all the good guys are taken as a divorced 1137 01:02:26.680 --> 01:02:31.640 individual. And I see all these different people meeting others. 1138 01:02:31.640 --> 01:02:34.320 And I'm like, where's all the good guys? I know, I've always 1139 01:02:34.320 --> 01:02:41.560 had a track of picking the wrong ones. And so that lie of there's 1140 01:02:41.560 --> 01:02:45.160 no good guys left is one that some of us have held on to. 1141 01:02:46.120 --> 01:02:49.960 Yeah. Okay, so here's the thing, your picker was just 1142 01:02:49.960 --> 01:02:55.640 broken temporarily. Okay. I'm serious. My picker was broken 1143 01:02:55.640 --> 01:02:59.880 for a while too. It was. And I've had the same thought that 1144 01:02:59.880 --> 01:03:05.240 you are saying right now. I really thought that I was only 1145 01:03:05.240 --> 01:03:10.760 going to be able to attract unhealthy people. And then the 1146 01:03:10.760 --> 01:03:14.720 more that I healed that just that was changing. Now keep in 1147 01:03:14.720 --> 01:03:18.920 mind, when I did step into my dating season, after I went 1148 01:03:18.920 --> 01:03:23.880 through heartwork, there were guys that right in the beginning, 1149 01:03:23.880 --> 01:03:28.880 especially super unhealthy. But this time, I recognized the red 1150 01:03:28.880 --> 01:03:36.320 flags and I didn't blow past them. That was the difference. I 1151 01:03:36.320 --> 01:03:39.880 stayed in community and I was like, Okay, I think this is a 1152 01:03:39.880 --> 01:03:44.160 red flag. But is this red flag? Or is this green or yellow? Or 1153 01:03:44.160 --> 01:03:51.680 what is this? And the community just helped. And so there's 1154 01:03:51.680 --> 01:03:58.080 that my comment on that is that you can definitely find good 1155 01:03:58.080 --> 01:04:01.480 men, there are a lot of good men out there. I know sometimes we 1156 01:04:01.480 --> 01:04:06.320 struggle to believe that but what we look for we find you 1157 01:04:06.320 --> 01:04:11.200 all it's true. If you're looking for the bad guys, you're going 1158 01:04:11.200 --> 01:04:15.440 to see the bad guys. You are. If we're broken, and we're just 1159 01:04:15.440 --> 01:04:19.280 kind of a wreck in any way, even if we've got certain parts of 1160 01:04:19.280 --> 01:04:22.240 our life together, but there's just other parts that just are 1161 01:04:22.240 --> 01:04:26.840 not healed. We're going to attract unhealthy. We are. You 1162 01:04:26.840 --> 01:04:30.280 don't have to be afraid of that. Because you're here and you're 1163 01:04:30.280 --> 01:04:37.160 investing. Um, yeah, that's a good question, Julie. Um, I'll 1164 01:04:37.160 --> 01:04:43.560 comment on that. Um, but I want to encourage you to start coming 1165 01:04:43.560 --> 01:04:48.160 out of alignment and agreement with that statement. And while 1166 01:04:48.160 --> 01:04:51.280 you have experienced people in the past that have been 1167 01:04:51.280 --> 01:04:54.320 unhealthy, God, thank you that you're going to help me find a 1168 01:04:54.320 --> 01:04:57.760 spirit mate that has in walks in all the fruits of the Holy 1169 01:04:57.760 --> 01:05:00.000 Spirit, which is love, joy. 1170 01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.160 a kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, 1171 01:05:03.160 --> 01:05:03.980 and self-control. 1172 01:05:03.980 --> 01:05:04.820 I might've missed one, 1173 01:05:04.820 --> 01:05:08.500 but that's kind of like you wanna partner with those things 1174 01:05:08.500 --> 01:05:11.480 and believe that God is going to equip you 1175 01:05:11.480 --> 01:05:14.920 and enable you to grow in your wisdom, 1176 01:05:14.920 --> 01:05:16.760 to grow in your discernment, 1177 01:05:16.760 --> 01:05:19.560 to again, come into community 1178 01:05:19.560 --> 01:05:23.440 and let us also come alongside of you in that process 1179 01:05:23.440 --> 01:05:27.600 and that you'll see things more clearly this time. 1180 01:05:27.600 --> 01:05:28.880 This time will be different. 1181 01:05:28.880 --> 01:05:31.200 We believe, well, it can be, you know, again, 1182 01:05:31.200 --> 01:05:32.720 it depends on what you all partner with. 1183 01:05:32.720 --> 01:05:36.440 Some people will rush right past what we're coaching 1184 01:05:37.440 --> 01:05:38.800 and even people that were like, 1185 01:05:38.800 --> 01:05:43.100 hey, yeah, I'm concerned about this guy and this situation 1186 01:05:43.100 --> 01:05:45.360 and they'll just keep dating. 1187 01:05:45.360 --> 01:05:48.440 Now there's not much we can do there, is there? 1188 01:05:48.440 --> 01:05:49.560 Right? 1189 01:05:49.560 --> 01:05:52.840 But if the people listen to the coaching, 1190 01:05:52.840 --> 01:05:55.080 because we really have people's best interest, 1191 01:05:55.080 --> 01:05:57.520 if we see something that doesn't look good, 1192 01:05:57.520 --> 01:06:00.920 we love you enough to tell you, right? 1193 01:06:00.920 --> 01:06:03.680 But it's up to the person to then choose, 1194 01:06:03.680 --> 01:06:05.920 are they just continuing with someone 1195 01:06:05.920 --> 01:06:09.500 because they're afraid that they won't meet someone else? 1196 01:06:10.600 --> 01:06:15.600 Or are they going to choose to wait and say, you know what? 1197 01:06:15.840 --> 01:06:19.920 This one might not be the best fit for me, right? 1198 01:06:19.920 --> 01:06:21.520 It's a choice. 1199 01:06:21.520 --> 01:06:23.120 It's always a choice trust. 1200 01:06:23.120 --> 01:06:26.440 Julie says, what are you using to measure a good godly man? 1201 01:06:26.480 --> 01:06:29.040 We talk about the fruits of the spirit 1202 01:06:29.040 --> 01:06:30.780 a lot in this community. 1203 01:06:31.680 --> 01:06:34.320 So without going into that too much again, 1204 01:06:34.320 --> 01:06:36.240 because you guys will learn all kinds of stuff 1205 01:06:36.240 --> 01:06:38.200 about that in the next phase, 1206 01:06:38.200 --> 01:06:41.560 but that's kind of key. 1207 01:06:41.560 --> 01:06:42.400 It's key. 1208 01:06:43.240 --> 01:06:44.800 All right, let's see here. 1209 01:06:46.400 --> 01:06:49.840 Carissa, I'm going to have you go next. 1210 01:06:52.240 --> 01:06:53.080 Hello. 1211 01:06:53.080 --> 01:06:54.520 Oh. 1212 01:06:54.520 --> 01:06:57.080 Mine actually went right along with that. 1213 01:06:57.080 --> 01:06:59.280 I have a lot of married friends 1214 01:06:59.280 --> 01:07:02.760 and the guys that I've dated 1215 01:07:02.760 --> 01:07:06.080 have not been committed to a relationship. 1216 01:07:06.080 --> 01:07:09.920 So I believe that the ones that are left, 1217 01:07:09.920 --> 01:07:13.000 there's not any good men out left. 1218 01:07:14.720 --> 01:07:15.920 Ones that will commit. 1219 01:07:15.920 --> 01:07:19.520 And then my second one is that if I do find it, 1220 01:07:19.520 --> 01:07:21.120 then I don't deserve it. 1221 01:07:25.400 --> 01:07:27.160 Is there anything when you were a kid, 1222 01:07:27.160 --> 01:07:32.160 like where you felt like you missed out on something? 1223 01:07:34.080 --> 01:07:34.920 I don't know. 1224 01:07:34.920 --> 01:07:38.320 There's something there to that statement. 1225 01:07:38.320 --> 01:07:40.760 Like, I don't know if there was something that you wanted 1226 01:07:40.760 --> 01:07:42.080 and you missed out on it, 1227 01:07:42.080 --> 01:07:45.480 or you were late for something and you got in trouble. 1228 01:07:47.920 --> 01:07:52.920 What comes to mind is that my mother had two children 1229 01:07:53.880 --> 01:07:58.880 very close together, six years older than me. 1230 01:07:59.960 --> 01:08:02.480 And then there was me. 1231 01:08:02.480 --> 01:08:04.720 And then she didn't have two other children 1232 01:08:04.720 --> 01:08:08.160 until 10 and 11 years later. 1233 01:08:08.160 --> 01:08:11.320 And so I kind of always felt like my siblings 1234 01:08:11.320 --> 01:08:16.319 had their best, and those two grew up very, very close, 1235 01:08:16.960 --> 01:08:18.399 like best friends. 1236 01:08:18.399 --> 01:08:19.399 And I never had that. 1237 01:08:19.399 --> 01:08:24.399 I always wanted a sister that was my best friend. 1238 01:08:27.040 --> 01:08:29.439 And I wasn't very close to my dad either. 1239 01:08:31.240 --> 01:08:33.800 Do you feel like your dad was committed to you all? 1240 01:08:39.120 --> 01:08:44.120 My biological dad was not, I don't think committed to me. 1241 01:08:44.800 --> 01:08:48.680 I just think that he didn't know how to raise a girl. 1242 01:08:48.680 --> 01:08:51.920 And his two boys, my two older brothers, 1243 01:08:51.920 --> 01:08:53.520 were like his trophy boys. 1244 01:08:55.240 --> 01:09:00.200 So I didn't have a lot of attention from him at all. 1245 01:09:00.200 --> 01:09:01.960 I hardly saw him. 1246 01:09:01.960 --> 01:09:05.960 And my stepdad, he worked a lot, 1247 01:09:05.960 --> 01:09:08.680 and he's very close to my younger siblings, 1248 01:09:08.680 --> 01:09:12.200 which were the ones my mom had the two younger with. 1249 01:09:14.279 --> 01:09:16.520 Okay, so that's kind of a big deal. 1250 01:09:17.520 --> 01:09:20.520 I'm seeing, and you might've done some work 1251 01:09:20.520 --> 01:09:22.520 around this before, but I feel like, 1252 01:09:22.520 --> 01:09:25.240 I just wanna nudge you to look at this again. 1253 01:09:26.399 --> 01:09:29.439 I'm seeing that you wanted connection 1254 01:09:29.439 --> 01:09:30.800 and you didn't get it. 1255 01:09:31.760 --> 01:09:32.760 Yeah. 1256 01:09:32.760 --> 01:09:36.600 And so what can happen, and this is for everyone, 1257 01:09:36.600 --> 01:09:39.080 but I just wanna coach Carissa on this for a minute. 1258 01:09:39.080 --> 01:09:43.479 But when we believe that, 1259 01:09:44.479 --> 01:09:46.040 like even the story that you, 1260 01:09:46.040 --> 01:09:47.840 which I appreciate what you're saying, 1261 01:09:47.840 --> 01:09:50.479 like your bio dad didn't know how to connect 1262 01:09:50.479 --> 01:09:54.600 with you as a girl, so he struggled. 1263 01:09:54.600 --> 01:09:57.720 In your kindness, you're doing that, okay? 1264 01:09:57.720 --> 01:09:59.240 You're being kind enough. 1265 01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.120 statement, but underneath of that, it kind of links with what I was saying earlier about, 1266 01:10:06.080 --> 01:10:09.360 you know, and it's not so much that you're saying, I didn't want that, but it's almost 1267 01:10:09.360 --> 01:10:15.280 like the storyline you're telling yourself to help you process the fact that probably at times you 1268 01:10:15.280 --> 01:10:23.520 felt alone, that there was more that you wanted from him. And I'm going to go as far as that 1269 01:10:23.520 --> 01:10:29.680 sometimes that you might've felt guilty for wanting that from him. And so I want to encourage 1270 01:10:29.680 --> 01:10:35.360 you. The reason I'm kind of leaning into this so much is I feel like that is part of why in the 1271 01:10:35.360 --> 01:10:43.600 past you've attracted men that are not committed because dad didn't fully commit. He was there, 1272 01:10:43.600 --> 01:10:49.680 but like you never felt like you could like the commitment, the camaraderie, if you will, 1273 01:10:49.680 --> 01:10:57.680 that closeness that comes from true intimacy and connection. Does that make sense? And then 1274 01:10:59.520 --> 01:11:09.040 go ahead. Yeah. That's like, that's spot on. I, I always wanted to be with my dad and he always 1275 01:11:09.040 --> 01:11:20.880 wanted to be with his boys and in men, I've always reached for that for not attention, but the 1276 01:11:21.520 --> 01:11:32.400 desire to, to have that. And and then as, as far as siblings too, I, I always desired connection 1277 01:11:32.400 --> 01:11:38.240 with my siblings and they just, my two older had each other and they were super close and I was 1278 01:11:38.240 --> 01:11:44.800 kind of left out. And then my two younger grew up very close. And even till today, like they're 1279 01:11:45.440 --> 01:11:52.800 very close as well. So here's part of what's going to be key for you is I'm really asking 1280 01:11:52.800 --> 01:11:57.680 the Lord when you're looking at this situation, I want you to focus on the one with your bio dad 1281 01:11:57.680 --> 01:12:02.960 first. Okay. I'm going to have you do it in two phases. I want you to focus on the bio dad first. 1282 01:12:03.600 --> 01:12:09.200 And I want you to ask the Lord to reveal any vow that you made to yourself back then. 1283 01:12:11.200 --> 01:12:17.680 Okay. What do I mean by an inner vow? An inner vow are statements that we make when we are going 1284 01:12:17.680 --> 01:12:25.600 through pain and trauma where we just partner with that so that we, it's like a self-protection 1285 01:12:25.600 --> 01:12:31.200 thing so that we don't get hurt. Even though we experience hurt, it's like a way that we put up a 1286 01:12:31.200 --> 01:12:36.560 wall. And so inner vows can sound all different kinds of ways. One of the things, you know just, 1287 01:12:36.560 --> 01:12:41.760 this is the one that comes top of mind, you know, I'm never going to let a man hurt me ever again, 1288 01:12:43.040 --> 01:12:51.360 you know, or I'm never going to give my heart completely to men because men just don't commit. 1289 01:12:54.240 --> 01:12:58.720 So again, I'm just, it's kind of when, where you're making a vow is where you're 1290 01:12:58.720 --> 01:13:04.000 actually making an agreement with something. Like I'm never going to do this because of this. 1291 01:13:04.000 --> 01:13:12.800 Does that make sense? Yeah. Um, I I'll have to ponder that or pray about as far as like my dad, 1292 01:13:12.800 --> 01:13:21.200 I did do that when I was in my twenties with, um, I actually been married before and he was 1293 01:13:22.160 --> 01:13:31.040 fully committed, an amazing man of God. And I left the relationship, the marriage. And, um, I, 1294 01:13:32.400 --> 01:13:39.040 I did make a vow that I was never going to leave again. Like I never was, I would, I would, I would 1295 01:13:39.040 --> 01:13:46.240 not ever be the one to break it off. And so that is something that I have been working through, 1296 01:13:46.240 --> 01:13:50.960 working through, um, because then I get in really nasty relationships because, 1297 01:13:51.760 --> 01:13:59.120 well, for whatever reason, my pickers broken. Um, but then I stay in it way too long. Um, 1298 01:14:00.080 --> 01:14:06.880 because I told myself I was never going to do that again. Yeah. Um, yeah. Yeah. I don't, 1299 01:14:06.880 --> 01:14:14.560 I'll have to pray about as a child or younger. Yeah. And so after you do that with your bio dad 1300 01:14:14.560 --> 01:14:19.200 and just see what God uncovers. Yeah. And you don't have to do that all right now by any means. 1301 01:14:19.200 --> 01:14:22.400 Um, but then I want to encourage you to do that with your stepdad as well. 1302 01:14:23.920 --> 01:14:27.840 And you might feel led to do with your siblings along the way, like just trust the Holy spirit 1303 01:14:27.840 --> 01:14:33.200 in this process. Also, even if you've done forgiveness before towards yourself for 1304 01:14:33.200 --> 01:14:38.080 leaving that other marriage, um, I want to encourage you to do the forgiveness prayer 1305 01:14:38.080 --> 01:14:43.120 sheet for yourself. Even if you've done it before you've done healing before I just, 1306 01:14:43.120 --> 01:14:47.360 that came up as you were talking about that. I just want to make sure everything's kind of clear. 1307 01:14:48.080 --> 01:14:53.280 Um, so that as you're continuing to lean into the Lord about this, you'll, you'll be able to kind of 1308 01:14:53.280 --> 01:14:59.680 have a real clarity around, uh, kind of next steps to help you walk into freedom. 1309 01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:06.240 break free from, you know, whatever's kind of got you snagged, if you will, in this area. But, 1310 01:15:07.200 --> 01:15:12.880 yeah, so good, Carissa. Thank you for sharing and being willing to share about your life and 1311 01:15:12.880 --> 01:15:18.480 transparency, and we'll be praying for you about the connection as well. The last thing I want to 1312 01:15:18.480 --> 01:15:22.880 say is, and you guys will hear me use this scripture often because it's like one of my 1313 01:15:22.880 --> 01:15:29.200 favorite verses, Psalm 68, 6, and it's the scripture that talks about God setting the 1314 01:15:29.200 --> 01:15:36.480 solitary and family. Some of us don't feel that connection with our biological family, 1315 01:15:38.640 --> 01:15:42.880 and unfortunately, I wish that I could tell you that that pain will go away 1316 01:15:42.880 --> 01:15:49.680 completely. Sometimes it lessens, but what I can tell you is that God will absolutely place you in 1317 01:15:49.680 --> 01:15:56.480 family, whether that's friends, your local church community, this online community, and people you 1318 01:15:56.480 --> 01:16:05.520 meet here, and he can really help you feel connection, camaraderie, acceptance, like true 1319 01:16:05.520 --> 01:16:12.160 love, and like unconditional in ways that you haven't before. So just all of you be open to what 1320 01:16:12.160 --> 01:16:19.040 God wants to do in your life. Thank you again so much. Let's see if I get it right. 1321 01:16:21.200 --> 01:16:29.440 Did I do it right? No, it's okay. So if you think about Muhammad Ali, so Ali-O-Wa. 1322 01:16:30.400 --> 01:16:45.600 Ali-O-Wa. Ali-O-Wa. Okay, I love it. Thank you for helping me. You're welcome. 1323 01:16:46.640 --> 01:16:54.240 Yeah, so I was the one who put in in the chat about the thinness, but specifically like what 1324 01:16:54.240 --> 01:17:04.240 I wrote down was who will find me attractive with a big stomach. Now, I'm 5'11". If I were to 1325 01:17:04.240 --> 01:17:12.240 stand up, it's not like I have a tummy, right, because I have a little one, but I'm not quite a 1326 01:17:12.240 --> 01:17:21.920 little one, but and so I just wrote down here that my parents, I am Nigerian, and so my parents 1327 01:17:22.880 --> 01:17:31.680 whenever I come around, they would always kind of look at my stomach and talking about my weight, 1328 01:17:32.480 --> 01:17:40.720 and you said the word, Bethany, embarrassed, and I never quite put that emotion to that 1329 01:17:40.720 --> 01:17:46.080 interaction when they would look at me and be like, oh, what's going on with you? And they're 1330 01:17:47.040 --> 01:17:53.200 not looking at my face, right? They're looking at my stomach, and that it really, it made me feel as 1331 01:17:53.200 --> 01:18:02.320 though my weight was all about my stomach. It made me feel like that was the one body part that I was 1332 01:18:02.320 --> 01:18:09.760 made up of, like I didn't have any other parts of me, just my stomach, and it embarrassed me, 1333 01:18:09.760 --> 01:18:15.360 and it made me feel like the lie was like there was something wrong with me. The lie also that 1334 01:18:15.360 --> 01:18:24.320 if my stomach was flat, then a man would find me attractive, and then just in like thinking about 1335 01:18:26.000 --> 01:18:33.200 going further, I remember how my dad would always talk about, you know, when he first met my mom, 1336 01:18:33.200 --> 01:18:40.880 my mom was slim, and in fact, he nicknamed her slim, and that was like the main thing that he 1337 01:18:40.880 --> 01:18:50.000 would always talk about that really drew him to her was her figure, and so I think I'm, I believe 1338 01:18:50.000 --> 01:18:56.320 I'm carrying that template, and so once again, as you were talking, like just like more things were 1339 01:18:56.320 --> 01:19:03.040 coming around, like coming up for me, because I realized that just a lot of emphasis has always 1340 01:19:03.040 --> 01:19:10.640 been on outward appearance in my family, especially coming from my dad. He would make 1341 01:19:10.640 --> 01:19:16.160 comment like, you know, well, I married your mom because, you know, I wanted our kids to be tall 1342 01:19:16.800 --> 01:19:29.520 and slim, and so I always, you know, ended up with men, got married and divorced, but those men 1343 01:19:30.160 --> 01:19:35.520 always, they were attractive, but they kind of reaffirmed that, oh, they're attractive, 1344 01:19:36.160 --> 01:19:41.520 and I'm attractive because I have a, you know, I don't have, back then I didn't have, like, 1345 01:19:42.640 --> 01:19:48.400 it was a little tummy at that time, and so it was okay, like, that I would be with them, 1346 01:19:48.400 --> 01:19:55.440 but I still had this thing about my stuff, you know, my tummy. I hope that makes sense, 1347 01:19:55.440 --> 01:19:59.840 like it does. Okay, thank you guys for nodding. I appreciate it. 1348 01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:07.560 Um, yeah, so I just I, yeah, I think it's very deep. 1349 01:20:07.560 --> 01:20:08.560 It's very. 1350 01:20:08.560 --> 01:20:09.560 Yeah. 1351 01:20:09.560 --> 01:20:10.560 Yeah. 1352 01:20:10.560 --> 01:20:14.120 I will tell you, I love, I love the trail that you're on right now. 1353 01:20:14.120 --> 01:20:20.680 I think that there's going to bring a lot of healing and clarity for you as you continue 1354 01:20:20.680 --> 01:20:23.200 to lean into this with the Lord. 1355 01:20:23.200 --> 01:20:29.200 One thing in particular, I'm sorry, I can't tell where that sound is coming from. 1356 01:20:29.200 --> 01:20:33.280 Oh, maybe that it's okay. 1357 01:20:33.280 --> 01:20:34.520 I couldn't tell if it was someone else. 1358 01:20:34.520 --> 01:20:35.520 It's totally fine. 1359 01:20:35.520 --> 01:20:41.160 If it's if it's with your little kiddos, um, as you were telling this story, y'all, I don't 1360 01:20:41.160 --> 01:20:45.480 know if I've ever told this story in a, in a heartwork session, um, but this came to 1361 01:20:45.480 --> 01:20:51.880 mind, um, because I was really relating to you in the sense that I years ago, I went 1362 01:20:51.880 --> 01:20:56.320 on this vacation with my best friend and her mom and their family. 1363 01:20:56.320 --> 01:21:01.560 And, uh, this one day we had gone to the beach and we had come back and we were kind of sitting 1364 01:21:01.560 --> 01:21:08.640 and talking and her mom had the audacity to reach over and touch my stomach and basically 1365 01:21:08.640 --> 01:21:16.240 talk about how we both have bellies and I was mortified. 1366 01:21:16.240 --> 01:21:18.740 I could not believe it. 1367 01:21:18.740 --> 01:21:22.860 And you all, even as I'm saying this right now, I didn't even put these two things together, 1368 01:21:22.860 --> 01:21:27.900 but, um, not that long ago, I've been in the process of losing, uh, working on really kind 1369 01:21:27.900 --> 01:21:28.900 of losing weight. 1370 01:21:28.900 --> 01:21:32.300 And I had tried so many things and really just struggled. 1371 01:21:32.300 --> 01:21:35.660 Um, I also gained weight in my stomach. 1372 01:21:35.660 --> 01:21:40.100 I tend to have some struggles with hormones and digestive issues. 1373 01:21:40.100 --> 01:21:45.060 And so, um, it wasn't always easy, um, to just lose weight. 1374 01:21:45.060 --> 01:21:48.660 Like when I was younger, now, when I look back, I'm like, oh my gosh, I was thin. 1375 01:21:48.660 --> 01:21:49.660 Like, what was I thinking? 1376 01:21:49.660 --> 01:21:51.500 I was so hard on myself. 1377 01:21:51.500 --> 01:21:54.860 My entire life, um, always had body image issues. 1378 01:21:54.860 --> 01:21:59.420 I will tell you that God has been healing those body images, things, the way I look 1379 01:21:59.420 --> 01:22:03.540 at myself and just really learning how to love all of me. 1380 01:22:03.540 --> 01:22:09.580 Um, so losing the weight isn't just the key to that, but what I will tell you is that 1381 01:22:09.580 --> 01:22:14.460 interestingly enough, we went to this church that we were considering moving to before 1382 01:22:14.860 --> 01:22:15.860 we came here to Florida. 1383 01:22:15.860 --> 01:22:22.740 And the first night we were at a meeting at this church, the meeting went pretty well 1384 01:22:22.740 --> 01:22:26.700 until y'all aren't going to believe this at the end. 1385 01:22:26.700 --> 01:22:30.220 These are people I've met for the first time, potentially going to be the pastor's wife 1386 01:22:30.220 --> 01:22:31.220 in this church. 1387 01:22:31.220 --> 01:22:35.940 And this woman is talking to me and she says, are you pregnant? 1388 01:22:35.940 --> 01:22:40.140 And I was like, no, I'm not pregnant. 1389 01:22:40.140 --> 01:22:41.820 She's like, oh. 1390 01:22:41.820 --> 01:22:45.500 So, and then she thankfully did not pat my stomach y'all that would have made it so much 1391 01:22:45.500 --> 01:22:51.220 worse, but she patted her own stomach and said, oh, so you just have a belly like me. 1392 01:22:51.220 --> 01:22:55.740 And literally until I'm talking to y'all tonight, I did not put those two things together. 1393 01:22:55.740 --> 01:23:00.260 There's two different circumstances at totally different times in my life, but here's the 1394 01:23:00.260 --> 01:23:05.460 same thing being said to me. 1395 01:23:05.460 --> 01:23:06.460 We walk out of there. 1396 01:23:06.460 --> 01:23:08.380 My husband's like, you know, he didn't know that happened. 1397 01:23:08.380 --> 01:23:09.380 So he's like, what do you think? 1398 01:23:09.380 --> 01:23:10.380 How did it go? 1399 01:23:10.380 --> 01:23:11.380 And I was like, it was horrible. 1400 01:23:11.380 --> 01:23:13.500 I was like, you're not going to believe what just happened. 1401 01:23:13.500 --> 01:23:16.580 I'm like, this is the first time I've met this person. 1402 01:23:16.580 --> 01:23:17.580 What can you imagine? 1403 01:23:17.580 --> 01:23:22.380 They would say that someone new coming in this church anyways, I won't go on that rant, 1404 01:23:22.380 --> 01:23:26.580 but y'all I'm bringing this up because I think this is where the Lord wants us to go. 1405 01:23:26.580 --> 01:23:31.220 I had something else planned, but I just trust Holy spirit. 1406 01:23:31.220 --> 01:23:39.580 And I will say to all of you that if people have done that to you in any way, if they've 1407 01:23:39.580 --> 01:23:46.220 my youngest spiritual daughter, I'm not her biological mom, her biological mom has made 1408 01:23:46.220 --> 01:23:53.700 comments to her about how big her boobs are and just really, just ridiculing her, you 1409 01:23:53.700 --> 01:23:54.700 know? 1410 01:23:54.700 --> 01:24:00.780 So no matter what it is, if someone has put you down, your body's down, or you have done 1411 01:24:00.780 --> 01:24:06.660 it yourself, I really want to encourage you to ask God to come in and heal those areas 1412 01:24:06.660 --> 01:24:07.660 in those ways. 1413 01:24:07.660 --> 01:24:16.180 You know, it is going to take forgiving, you know, forgiving those people that have done 1414 01:24:16.180 --> 01:24:20.180 that stuff, said that stuff, or even the ways they look. 1415 01:24:20.180 --> 01:24:26.660 I mean, the fact that you felt like they were not looking at you, looking at your body and 1416 01:24:26.660 --> 01:24:29.940 assessing what, you know, should or shouldn't be. 1417 01:24:29.940 --> 01:24:33.700 And, you know, again, these are all things that I'm interpreting from what you were saying, 1418 01:24:33.700 --> 01:24:37.260 but y'all, we've got to forgive them. 1419 01:24:37.260 --> 01:24:41.620 They, you know, people do like, do not fully understand what they're doing. 1420 01:24:41.620 --> 01:24:47.180 That woman, I don't think for a second, fully understood the weight of what she did and 1421 01:24:47.180 --> 01:24:48.180 said in that moment. 1422 01:24:48.180 --> 01:24:53.100 I wish that she had, because I really sincerely prayed for her for weeks after that. 1423 01:24:53.100 --> 01:24:58.220 Cause I was like, Lord, like if she said that to me on my first time there, I can imagine 1424 01:24:58.220 --> 01:25:00.020 that might happen for someone else. 1425 01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:04.120 else. Of course, I don't want that to happen. But people do 1426 01:25:04.120 --> 01:25:07.800 and say things because of their own hurt, their own ignorance at 1427 01:25:07.800 --> 01:25:10.620 times, you know, and I'm not trying to put people down. But 1428 01:25:10.620 --> 01:25:14.200 sometimes it is ignorance. It literally is. It could be the 1429 01:25:14.200 --> 01:25:16.900 way they were raised as well. So just like I was saying at the 1430 01:25:16.900 --> 01:25:22.040 beginning tonight, if our family line told us a story, we're 1431 01:25:22.040 --> 01:25:25.920 going to believe it. So even our parents, some of them, their 1432 01:25:25.920 --> 01:25:30.560 family lines, told them and said these things and, and they 1433 01:25:30.560 --> 01:25:34.600 partnered with it. And that's why it's so important for us as 1434 01:25:34.600 --> 01:25:39.600 Kinsmen Redeemers in our family lines, to change things and make 1435 01:25:39.600 --> 01:25:44.280 it different for those that come behind us. How can we show up 1436 01:25:44.280 --> 01:25:48.320 and get set free, and then create freedom for other people. 1437 01:25:48.540 --> 01:25:53.000 You know, I will also say that a lot of times, people that get 1438 01:25:53.000 --> 01:25:57.120 into relationships with, like, maybe your mom and dad are 1439 01:25:57.120 --> 01:26:01.120 completely happy and blissful, who knows. But what I'm just 1440 01:26:01.160 --> 01:26:06.640 going to say here is sometimes people are hurting and never 1441 01:26:06.640 --> 01:26:10.520 saying anything. And I'm just wondering, just out of 1442 01:26:10.520 --> 01:26:17.080 curiosity, you said, my dad said when he met my mom, she was 1443 01:26:17.080 --> 01:26:21.640 slim. So he nicknamed her slim. So I'm curious, is she still 1444 01:26:21.640 --> 01:26:28.000 slim? No. Okay, my mom has a belly like she's like, yeah. So 1445 01:26:28.000 --> 01:26:36.240 maybe and I'm not excusing your mom or your dad. But I wonder if 1446 01:26:36.280 --> 01:26:43.080 she is afraid that you are becoming like her. Sometimes our 1447 01:26:43.080 --> 01:26:47.320 parents fear and they don't want us to struggle in the same way 1448 01:26:47.320 --> 01:26:51.080 as that they struggle. That maybe can be a conversation one 1449 01:26:51.080 --> 01:26:54.120 day, maybe you could let her know that, hey, mom, like I 1450 01:26:54.120 --> 01:26:57.040 felt like you were looking at my stomach, and it really hurt my 1451 01:26:57.040 --> 01:27:00.760 feelings. Now you pray before you do that, because you know, 1452 01:27:00.760 --> 01:27:03.000 you want to do it in the right timing and with the Holy 1453 01:27:03.000 --> 01:27:07.880 Spirit's leading. But there are times where things like that can 1454 01:27:07.880 --> 01:27:13.200 open up a conversation for healing, but also like, maybe, 1455 01:27:13.720 --> 01:27:17.040 you know, again, you assess someone's health. Okay, so you 1456 01:27:17.040 --> 01:27:19.520 don't want to just go in and ask someone you already know is 1457 01:27:19.520 --> 01:27:21.800 completely unhealthy. If they're not able to have a 1458 01:27:21.800 --> 01:27:25.560 healthy conversation, I wouldn't recommend just going right into 1459 01:27:25.560 --> 01:27:29.400 a conversation like that. But if you feel like your mom is in the 1460 01:27:29.400 --> 01:27:34.760 slightest open to those kind of conversations, it might be worth 1461 01:27:34.960 --> 01:27:41.800 just talking to her about it. But also really allowing God to 1462 01:27:41.800 --> 01:27:48.440 heal you. Because the other thing is, my insecurities were 1463 01:27:48.440 --> 01:27:54.880 already there about my stomach in both situations. And so when 1464 01:27:54.880 --> 01:28:00.680 those people did those things and said those things, and it 1465 01:28:00.680 --> 01:28:06.520 emphasized it because it was in me. Yeah. So the more that we 1466 01:28:06.520 --> 01:28:12.640 heal internally, and get set free, the less those kind of 1467 01:28:12.640 --> 01:28:17.720 things will impact us. Right? Have you all ever wondered in 1468 01:28:17.720 --> 01:28:20.840 and when I say this, please don't think bad of me. Okay. But 1469 01:28:20.840 --> 01:28:24.840 have you ever just seen people like, they just wear bikinis, 1470 01:28:24.840 --> 01:28:28.280 and they're on the beach, and they're just free as free can 1471 01:28:28.280 --> 01:28:32.360 be all shapes and sizes? Have you ever just thought to 1472 01:28:32.360 --> 01:28:38.000 yourself, like, how are they so free? Like they just I don't, 1473 01:28:38.400 --> 01:28:41.360 they don't, you know, again, this is all in my own head. I 1474 01:28:41.360 --> 01:28:43.800 don't even have conversations with some of these people. But 1475 01:28:43.800 --> 01:28:48.720 like, God, if they can be free, and some of them are skinny, and 1476 01:28:48.720 --> 01:28:52.040 some of them have a lot of weight, like, I want to be free 1477 01:28:52.040 --> 01:28:57.400 like that, too. Yeah. So maybe that's something God wants to do 1478 01:28:57.400 --> 01:29:01.440 for all of us this next week, few weeks, maybe he's wanting to 1479 01:29:01.680 --> 01:29:05.360 some of y'all guess what? Guess what happens when you get 1480 01:29:05.360 --> 01:29:10.960 married? Y'all guess what? You're gonna have some sex. 1481 01:29:11.360 --> 01:29:17.600 Hopefully. So here's the thing. Hopefully, you'll get 1482 01:29:17.600 --> 01:29:21.760 comfortable with your body now and heal now. So that when 1483 01:29:21.800 --> 01:29:27.880 those days come, you'll be able to handle it. And you know, 1484 01:29:27.880 --> 01:29:31.080 obviously, everybody's bodies are different. And so our bodies 1485 01:29:31.080 --> 01:29:33.760 change. So the experiences are going to be maybe different than 1486 01:29:33.760 --> 01:29:37.080 what you experienced in your 20s. And you got to figure it 1487 01:29:37.080 --> 01:29:41.640 out and not give up on each other. But I encourage you and 1488 01:29:41.640 --> 01:29:47.000 more like I feel like an almost implore like I implore you to 1489 01:29:47.040 --> 01:29:50.480 seek the Lord about healing regarding your body image and 1490 01:29:50.480 --> 01:29:54.280 what he wants to do. And how has the storyline you've been 1491 01:29:54.280 --> 01:29:59.920 telling yourself? Like how has that gone over the years? And 1492 01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:03.200 See where the Lord wants to set you free in these next days. 1493 01:30:03.200 --> 01:30:06.000 I think some people are going to get set free of some body stuff. 1494 01:30:06.760 --> 01:30:08.360 And I want to pray into that. 1495 01:30:08.960 --> 01:30:10.040 Um, let's do this. 1496 01:30:10.040 --> 01:30:12.680 I want to activate you because we didn't go into our other chat. 1497 01:30:13.840 --> 01:30:14.920 And I think it's important. 1498 01:30:15.480 --> 01:30:19.860 Um, let me think how I can bring this together. 1499 01:30:19.860 --> 01:30:22.440 Cause I don't want to not talk about it at all, but I don't want 1500 01:30:22.440 --> 01:30:24.360 to go into a lot of conversation. 1501 01:30:24.720 --> 01:30:27.640 So one of the other things I was going to talk about is control. 1502 01:30:27.640 --> 01:30:33.400 Um, and if you think about it, sometimes even regarding our bodies, um, we 1503 01:30:33.400 --> 01:30:38.800 maintain a lot of control or lack of control either way, um, but we struggle. 1504 01:30:38.800 --> 01:30:39.160 Right. 1505 01:30:39.300 --> 01:30:42.880 And so what we try to do is we try to over correct with certain things. 1506 01:30:42.880 --> 01:30:43.320 Don't we? 1507 01:30:44.160 --> 01:30:48.080 Um, so how many of you, I want to just see in the chat, I just want to activate 1508 01:30:48.080 --> 01:30:51.820 you, how many of you are struggling, even the fact that we've been talking 1509 01:30:51.820 --> 01:30:56.040 about the body stuff tonight, I want to see kind of where you're at with this. 1510 01:30:56.640 --> 01:31:00.320 Um, and also I would, would like anybody that's struggling with 1511 01:31:00.320 --> 01:31:03.360 control, any form of control. 1512 01:31:03.680 --> 01:31:05.040 I want to see it in the chat. 1513 01:31:05.240 --> 01:31:08.600 Is there anyone that might even be willing to share openly when 1514 01:31:08.600 --> 01:31:10.120 we haven't gone into the breakout? 1515 01:31:10.560 --> 01:31:13.520 But, um, maybe you're just been struggling this last week 1516 01:31:13.520 --> 01:31:15.240 with control or anything else. 1517 01:31:15.280 --> 01:31:15.760 Okay. 1518 01:31:16.360 --> 01:31:19.880 So Kelly, are you willing to share with everyone? 1519 01:31:19.880 --> 01:31:31.920 Um, yeah, I would the control I was sharing more like with the whole body 1520 01:31:31.920 --> 01:31:35.360 image thing that, well, everything that's been coming up tonight has 1521 01:31:35.360 --> 01:31:38.360 completely hit home, what Nisheto shared. 1522 01:31:38.760 --> 01:31:40.360 I feel that exact same thing. 1523 01:31:40.920 --> 01:31:47.520 Um, what just came up with Aliyah, I think I got it right. 1524 01:31:47.680 --> 01:31:52.320 Being, I mean, the tummy thing, it was weird because I did not even, I 1525 01:31:52.320 --> 01:31:55.560 wouldn't have never have voiced that or even thought it probably. 1526 01:31:55.960 --> 01:32:00.360 But when you said it, it was like, Oh my gosh, that's so true for me too. 1527 01:32:00.960 --> 01:32:08.160 Um, and so then I think control, maybe I have just gone through a season of, 1528 01:32:08.600 --> 01:32:13.200 um, weight loss and working out and I've always been real active, but I 1529 01:32:13.800 --> 01:32:17.000 injured my back a few, probably about eight years ago. 1530 01:32:17.000 --> 01:32:18.960 And so that kind of slowed things down. 1531 01:32:18.960 --> 01:32:24.920 And now I'm in perimenopause and having a whole lot of aches and pains 1532 01:32:25.640 --> 01:32:30.240 and also losing my hair and, um, in the. 1533 01:32:37.760 --> 01:32:38.760 We might've lost her. 1534 01:32:39.680 --> 01:32:40.200 Shoot. 1535 01:32:41.760 --> 01:32:42.560 Oh, there you are. 1536 01:32:42.600 --> 01:32:43.000 There you are. 1537 01:32:43.040 --> 01:32:43.400 Go ahead. 1538 01:32:43.640 --> 01:32:44.080 Okay. 1539 01:32:44.320 --> 01:32:45.440 So, um, 1540 01:32:46.040 --> 01:32:46.840 losing your hair. 1541 01:32:46.840 --> 01:32:47.960 That was the last thing we heard. 1542 01:33:00.800 --> 01:33:01.440 Yeah. 1543 01:33:01.720 --> 01:33:04.640 And then, and I had lost all this weight and I was feeling great. 1544 01:33:04.640 --> 01:33:09.840 I also went through a breakup earlier this year, the beginning of the year with 1545 01:33:09.840 --> 01:33:11.960 the person that I thought I was going to get married to. 1546 01:33:11.960 --> 01:33:16.960 And, um, in many ways felt like all the things we talk about, he's all these 1547 01:33:16.960 --> 01:33:17.400 things. 1548 01:33:17.440 --> 01:33:18.800 So it's been real crushing. 1549 01:33:18.800 --> 01:33:24.280 Like I lost him now I'm putting back on weight and my hair is falling. 1550 01:33:25.440 --> 01:33:33.120 And so with the control being, um, I do feel like I'm like, there's almost too 1551 01:33:33.120 --> 01:33:35.480 much that I don't, I can't control it. 1552 01:33:35.480 --> 01:33:36.200 If that makes sense. 1553 01:33:36.200 --> 01:33:38.120 Like there's so much happening all at one time. 1554 01:33:38.520 --> 01:33:44.760 And I do feel very helpless to control those things, or I have some idea of what 1555 01:33:44.760 --> 01:33:46.560 I should do, but it's overwhelming. 1556 01:33:47.200 --> 01:33:54.800 Um, and so, yeah, I do feel a little bit like out of control and unable to 1557 01:33:54.800 --> 01:34:04.800 control circumstances in my life, partly because of that, you know, like when 1558 01:34:04.800 --> 01:34:08.240 you're younger, it's kind of like in talking about even the tummy thing, you're 1559 01:34:08.240 --> 01:34:14.080 like, when you're in your twenties, you're like, Oh, just run extra and don't eat 1560 01:34:14.080 --> 01:34:15.360 bad food for three days. 1561 01:34:15.360 --> 01:34:18.520 And like, Oh, I lost two pounds, you know? 1562 01:34:18.920 --> 01:34:23.000 And now I just feel like I have all these obstacles against me. 1563 01:34:23.000 --> 01:34:26.560 And even like with wanting children still, I'm like, I'm 51. 1564 01:34:26.560 --> 01:34:29.760 And that is probably not going to happen. 1565 01:34:29.760 --> 01:34:33.720 Even though people still tell me, Oh, I knew somebody who was in their 1566 01:34:33.720 --> 01:34:35.440 fifties who got pregnant. 1567 01:34:35.440 --> 01:34:37.400 And then I wonder like, is it a possibility? 1568 01:34:37.400 --> 01:34:39.200 And then it's like, no, you're crazy. 1569 01:34:39.200 --> 01:34:40.200 Like, don't think like that. 1570 01:34:40.200 --> 01:34:41.080 Just get over it. 1571 01:34:41.080 --> 01:34:41.400 You know? 1572 01:34:41.920 --> 01:34:50.880 So there's a lot going on and I feel like I can't really control any of it, which 1573 01:34:50.880 --> 01:34:54.480 might be a good thing in the sense of like really trusting the Lord and just, 1574 01:34:56.880 --> 01:35:00.000 but also might be a bad thing if it causes me to. 1575 01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:01.000 Give up. 1576 01:35:01.000 --> 01:35:02.000 Yeah. 1577 01:35:02.000 --> 01:35:07.000 Kind of like what Ms. Jada was saying about like, just feeling like, why bother? 1578 01:35:07.000 --> 01:35:08.240 What's the point at this point? 1579 01:35:08.240 --> 01:35:09.240 You know? 1580 01:35:09.240 --> 01:35:10.240 Yeah. 1581 01:35:10.240 --> 01:35:15.880 One of the things I want to encourage you to do is to ask God if it's his idea. 1582 01:35:15.880 --> 01:35:17.680 Okay. 1583 01:35:17.680 --> 01:35:23.800 So on the baby thing, I want you to ask God if it's his idea or not, because you just 1584 01:35:23.800 --> 01:35:28.840 decided that you were crazy and you shouldn't, you shouldn't think like that. 1585 01:35:28.840 --> 01:35:33.640 Now, again, you know, we, we really don't want to encourage people that your body's 1586 01:35:33.640 --> 01:35:35.360 already past that point. 1587 01:35:35.360 --> 01:35:36.360 Right. 1588 01:35:36.360 --> 01:35:40.000 But I also think God can do supernatural things. 1589 01:35:40.000 --> 01:35:41.320 But there's a balance there. 1590 01:35:41.320 --> 01:35:45.480 But I also don't think you should just dismiss yourself and say, Oh, that's a crazy thought. 1591 01:35:45.480 --> 01:35:47.440 I shouldn't even think like that. 1592 01:35:47.440 --> 01:35:53.160 Because y'all sometimes God gives us these supernatural thoughts for a reason. 1593 01:35:53.160 --> 01:35:55.680 So just want to encourage you number one in that. 1594 01:35:55.680 --> 01:36:02.560 Number two, I want to also just really nudge you to ask the Lord, even though you were 1595 01:36:02.560 --> 01:36:06.800 in a season of like, you know, said weight loss and working out when you injured your 1596 01:36:06.800 --> 01:36:11.760 back and all this stuff started happening and you felt like you couldn't be in control. 1597 01:36:11.760 --> 01:36:15.920 I want you to ask the Lord, did that tap into anything from when you were younger where 1598 01:36:15.920 --> 01:36:19.640 you felt like you didn't have control? 1599 01:36:19.640 --> 01:36:24.440 Because you were talking about like the body stuff, but I just kept sensing that there's 1600 01:36:24.440 --> 01:36:31.560 somewhere underlying that you felt like you lost control or it was taken from you. 1601 01:36:31.560 --> 01:36:35.080 And the Lord wants to come in and heal that situation. 1602 01:36:35.080 --> 01:36:39.640 And that's also going to then impact some current day areas where you're struggling 1603 01:36:39.640 --> 01:36:45.160 to feel like I really am ready Lord to let go of this. 1604 01:36:45.160 --> 01:36:47.400 So I don't know what all that means. 1605 01:36:47.400 --> 01:36:50.360 But that's just what I was hearing when you were talking. 1606 01:36:50.680 --> 01:37:02.840 Yeah, I definitely in my home growing up, my dad disciplined in anger and he didn't 1607 01:37:02.840 --> 01:37:04.920 though we know knew that he loved us. 1608 01:37:04.920 --> 01:37:08.600 He didn't know how to discipline not in anger. 1609 01:37:08.600 --> 01:37:17.720 And so there was a whole lot of volatility and and I felt like I was the protector of 1610 01:37:17.720 --> 01:37:24.680 my brother and I was the one who didn't get in trouble by doing all the right things. 1611 01:37:24.680 --> 01:37:26.920 And then what they sort of protect him. 1612 01:37:28.120 --> 01:37:33.480 And so I see how that aligns right there. 1613 01:37:33.480 --> 01:37:38.680 You said I, I didn't get in trouble because I, you know, doing all the right things or 1614 01:37:38.680 --> 01:37:39.960 trying to do all the right things. 1615 01:37:39.960 --> 01:37:43.000 So even in the, you were doing really good. 1616 01:37:43.000 --> 01:37:46.920 You said I was working out, I was losing weight and then I injured my back. 1617 01:37:47.800 --> 01:37:52.600 And and so sometimes I'm not saying God caused the back injury. 1618 01:37:52.600 --> 01:37:54.280 So please don't hear me say that. 1619 01:37:54.280 --> 01:37:56.680 But there are times where I do like even myself. 1620 01:37:56.680 --> 01:38:01.880 I've wondered like, Lord, I don't think you made me sick. 1621 01:38:01.880 --> 01:38:04.600 But I feel like because I'm sick. 1622 01:38:04.600 --> 01:38:08.760 You're using this to help me get more rest because I'm a go. 1623 01:38:08.760 --> 01:38:10.280 I go, go, go, go, go. 1624 01:38:11.000 --> 01:38:11.800 And then some. 1625 01:38:12.360 --> 01:38:17.000 And so sometimes, unfortunately, I go so long until my body hits a wall. 1626 01:38:18.040 --> 01:38:19.240 Now that's not God's fault. 1627 01:38:19.240 --> 01:38:19.800 Right. 1628 01:38:19.800 --> 01:38:27.320 But sometimes even in this, I feel like there's a connection here on the do it all right. 1629 01:38:28.120 --> 01:38:34.200 I'd be, I'd be curious to know, even like, do you feel like you have that checklist 1630 01:38:34.200 --> 01:38:38.360 regarding if I do this, if I do this, if I do this, I should get this spirit made. 1631 01:38:38.360 --> 01:38:41.400 But then when that doesn't happen, exactly the timing. 1632 01:38:42.120 --> 01:38:43.480 You're kind of like, well, wait a minute. 1633 01:38:43.480 --> 01:38:45.640 I did everything you told me to do, Lord. 1634 01:38:46.600 --> 01:38:48.280 But it's not happening. 1635 01:38:49.800 --> 01:38:53.880 I do sort of feel that I didn't used to. 1636 01:38:53.880 --> 01:38:59.640 So there were some big things I had to overcome because of growing up that way. 1637 01:38:59.640 --> 01:39:03.000 I led a real rebellious, like teen and 20s. 1638 01:39:04.680 --> 01:39:08.120 And there was a lot of sin and repercussions from that. 1639 01:39:09.000 --> 01:39:11.640 Went through a broken engagement when I was 30. 1640 01:39:11.640 --> 01:39:14.920 And after that, went through counseling and addressed a lot of that stuff. 1641 01:39:14.920 --> 01:39:18.280 And at that time, I went through a forgiveness thing with my dad. 1642 01:39:18.280 --> 01:39:21.480 And then I went to the mission field and that was great. 1643 01:39:21.480 --> 01:39:27.480 And through that counseling time, I did feel like the Lord gave me a word about having children. 1644 01:39:28.600 --> 01:39:30.200 And it was really powerful. 1645 01:39:30.840 --> 01:39:34.280 And it was in the middle of doing a Bible study where you were supposed to pray about 1646 01:39:34.280 --> 01:39:39.560 the new name that the Lord would give you after, as happens with many people in the Bible. 1647 01:39:40.840 --> 01:39:43.800 And through that whole thing, he gave me a word about having children. 1648 01:39:43.800 --> 01:39:49.320 So I've clung to that for all these years of going to baby showers and celebrating 1649 01:39:49.320 --> 01:39:51.640 roommates and best friends and everybody else. 1650 01:39:51.640 --> 01:39:54.440 And now I'm at this, I'm back in America. 1651 01:39:55.160 --> 01:39:58.120 I lived in a city where a lot of people are older when they get married. 1652 01:39:58.120 --> 01:39:59.960 And then I went overseas and now I'm back in. 1653 01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:02.880 my hometown, which is not that way, it's smaller. 1654 01:40:02.880 --> 01:40:06.800 And now everybody has grandchildren 1655 01:40:06.800 --> 01:40:07.880 and I don't even have grandchildren. 1656 01:40:07.880 --> 01:40:09.880 I don't have kids or grandchildren or anything. 1657 01:40:09.880 --> 01:40:14.160 And I get that question a lot, like, oh, do you have kids? 1658 01:40:14.160 --> 01:40:15.960 No, you know, like. 1659 01:40:15.960 --> 01:40:18.120 Yet, yet, you don't have them yet. 1660 01:40:18.120 --> 01:40:21.040 I wanna encourage you all to get very comfortable 1661 01:40:21.040 --> 01:40:26.040 and practice using the word yet, okay? 1662 01:40:26.200 --> 01:40:29.200 And here's why, because the stories 1663 01:40:29.200 --> 01:40:30.520 that we're telling ourselves, 1664 01:40:30.520 --> 01:40:33.920 I know that you don't currently have them, okay? 1665 01:40:33.920 --> 01:40:36.480 Obviously we can't ignore reality, 1666 01:40:36.480 --> 01:40:41.200 but if we are believing for something, 1667 01:40:41.200 --> 01:40:44.680 then we just don't have them yet. 1668 01:40:44.680 --> 01:40:46.960 Some of you all, God is gonna bring a spirit mate 1669 01:40:46.960 --> 01:40:49.360 into your life that has kids, 1670 01:40:49.360 --> 01:40:52.960 that need a lot of love and a lot of care. 1671 01:40:52.960 --> 01:40:56.160 And some of you, God's gonna give you kids. 1672 01:40:56.160 --> 01:40:58.720 Just be open and surrendered fully 1673 01:40:59.240 --> 01:41:00.560 to what God wants to do. 1674 01:41:01.680 --> 01:41:04.000 Again, I just wanna encourage you on these things 1675 01:41:04.000 --> 01:41:06.800 that you were saying, you know, again, 1676 01:41:06.800 --> 01:41:10.440 I'm really big on you all, even if you've done work before, 1677 01:41:11.720 --> 01:41:14.120 just if there's something God is highlighting 1678 01:41:14.120 --> 01:41:17.080 while you're here, just be open 1679 01:41:17.080 --> 01:41:19.120 to taking a peek back at that stuff. 1680 01:41:19.120 --> 01:41:20.440 It doesn't mean you have to go back 1681 01:41:20.440 --> 01:41:22.200 all the way through everything 1682 01:41:22.200 --> 01:41:24.240 and comb with a fine tooth comb, 1683 01:41:24.240 --> 01:41:25.480 but just ask the Holy Spirit, 1684 01:41:25.480 --> 01:41:27.760 is there anything else with these situations 1685 01:41:27.760 --> 01:41:30.880 that I need more revealing for healing? 1686 01:41:30.880 --> 01:41:32.680 So that you can come out of alignment 1687 01:41:32.680 --> 01:41:34.440 with thinking you have to do it all right, 1688 01:41:34.440 --> 01:41:37.960 or that you're crazy if you have thoughts 1689 01:41:37.960 --> 01:41:41.000 that might be God thoughts and all that kind of stuff. 1690 01:41:41.000 --> 01:41:42.600 And also the last thing, 1691 01:41:42.600 --> 01:41:43.680 and then I'm gonna start to close. 1692 01:41:43.680 --> 01:41:45.600 I have one other thing that stood out to me in the chat 1693 01:41:45.600 --> 01:41:46.640 that I wanna mention. 1694 01:41:48.080 --> 01:41:51.800 The protector of your brother stood out a lot too. 1695 01:41:51.800 --> 01:41:54.200 And some of you all were those protectors 1696 01:41:54.200 --> 01:41:56.120 in your family as well. 1697 01:41:56.160 --> 01:42:00.920 And I just heard the word say that he wants to show you 1698 01:42:00.920 --> 01:42:05.000 how to be a receiver and to be defended by him 1699 01:42:05.000 --> 01:42:08.480 more than you've ever known what that means. 1700 01:42:08.480 --> 01:42:11.320 And so he wants to show you in his goodness, 1701 01:42:11.320 --> 01:42:13.800 how he protects. 1702 01:42:13.800 --> 01:42:18.120 And so you can surrender, you can let go of control. 1703 01:42:18.120 --> 01:42:20.040 You can wave the white flag and say, 1704 01:42:20.040 --> 01:42:22.960 Lord, I'm gonna let you do this. 1705 01:42:22.960 --> 01:42:25.120 I'm gonna let you have control 1706 01:42:25.120 --> 01:42:28.680 and I'm gonna see you work in mighty ways in my life. 1707 01:42:28.680 --> 01:42:30.760 And what stood out to me in the chat, 1708 01:42:30.760 --> 01:42:32.480 thank you for sharing, by the way, 1709 01:42:32.480 --> 01:42:34.840 and all my other ladies, thanks for sharing. 1710 01:42:34.840 --> 01:42:36.920 The one thing I wanted to say from the chat, 1711 01:42:36.920 --> 01:42:38.840 Tammy, I love what you say here. 1712 01:42:38.840 --> 01:42:40.920 She says, I don't wear shorts in public, 1713 01:42:40.920 --> 01:42:42.360 nor do I wear swimsuits. 1714 01:42:42.360 --> 01:42:45.040 Even small framed people have issues as well. 1715 01:42:45.040 --> 01:42:46.120 That's right. 1716 01:42:46.120 --> 01:42:47.240 I have veins on my legs, 1717 01:42:47.240 --> 01:42:48.840 so I'm not comfortable wearing shorts. 1718 01:42:48.840 --> 01:42:52.560 I finally wore a pair of shorts to the beach two weeks ago. 1719 01:42:52.600 --> 01:42:54.480 Praise the Lord. 1720 01:42:54.480 --> 01:42:55.360 Praise the Lord. 1721 01:42:55.360 --> 01:42:56.440 I love these victories. 1722 01:42:56.440 --> 01:42:57.480 These are huge. 1723 01:42:57.480 --> 01:43:00.280 Even though they may seem small in the moment, you all, 1724 01:43:00.280 --> 01:43:03.800 these are huge things, no matter what you, what size. 1725 01:43:03.800 --> 01:43:05.920 And hopefully you guys know, 1726 01:43:05.920 --> 01:43:07.840 I'm not just saying people struggle 1727 01:43:07.840 --> 01:43:11.200 that maybe feel like they're overweight. 1728 01:43:11.200 --> 01:43:13.160 People struggle in all different kinds of ways. 1729 01:43:13.160 --> 01:43:15.560 That's why I mentioned even like different people 1730 01:43:15.560 --> 01:43:17.920 that I know and things that they have struggled with, 1731 01:43:17.920 --> 01:43:19.160 myself included. 1732 01:43:19.320 --> 01:43:21.400 So whatever your struggle is, 1733 01:43:21.400 --> 01:43:26.400 God cares about you and he wants you to love yourself. 1734 01:43:26.720 --> 01:43:28.880 I gave a challenge a few weeks ago 1735 01:43:28.880 --> 01:43:30.920 to look at yourselves in the mirror 1736 01:43:30.920 --> 01:43:33.080 and start thanking God for the body parts 1737 01:43:33.080 --> 01:43:35.000 that you don't like about yourself. 1738 01:43:35.000 --> 01:43:36.880 And I'm gonna encourage you again. 1739 01:43:36.880 --> 01:43:39.080 I don't know if that's what led you to do that, Tammy, 1740 01:43:39.080 --> 01:43:41.760 but I'm excited for that breakthrough. 1741 01:43:41.760 --> 01:43:43.320 And I believe someone else here tonight 1742 01:43:43.320 --> 01:43:45.240 needed that challenge as well. 1743 01:43:45.240 --> 01:43:48.160 So sincerely, yes, this is how do you do it. 1744 01:43:48.320 --> 01:43:49.480 You stand in front of the mirror. 1745 01:43:49.480 --> 01:43:52.320 I'm activating you guys in this this week again. 1746 01:43:52.320 --> 01:43:54.720 So if you did this before, 1747 01:43:54.720 --> 01:43:58.040 or if you heard me say it and you didn't do it, 1748 01:43:58.040 --> 01:43:59.920 I encourage you to do this. 1749 01:43:59.920 --> 01:44:01.880 This is how we do it. 1750 01:44:01.880 --> 01:44:05.080 We stand in front of the mirror, you all, 1751 01:44:05.080 --> 01:44:06.840 without a bunch of clothes on. 1752 01:44:06.840 --> 01:44:09.800 If you wanna keep your bra and underwear on, fine. 1753 01:44:09.800 --> 01:44:13.800 But what I want you to do is look at yourself. 1754 01:44:13.800 --> 01:44:15.680 And if you start having negative thoughts 1755 01:44:16.680 --> 01:44:18.880 about any part of your body, 1756 01:44:18.880 --> 01:44:20.440 that's the part of your body 1757 01:44:20.440 --> 01:44:22.360 I want you to start thanking God for. 1758 01:44:23.480 --> 01:44:26.840 And I want you to do it often, not just once, 1759 01:44:26.840 --> 01:44:30.160 because that's gonna teach you how to love your body, 1760 01:44:30.160 --> 01:44:31.960 how to appreciate your body. 1761 01:44:31.960 --> 01:44:35.480 You all, I used to not like my legs, like at all. 1762 01:44:35.480 --> 01:44:38.040 And I kind of felt the same, Tammy. 1763 01:44:38.040 --> 01:44:40.320 I didn't wanna wear shorts. 1764 01:44:41.320 --> 01:44:43.000 I don't have the varicose veins yet. 1765 01:44:43.000 --> 01:44:44.680 I have some things that are kind of starting 1766 01:44:44.720 --> 01:44:46.640 to look like that a little bit, 1767 01:44:46.640 --> 01:44:49.040 but mine was more, I used to be really athletic. 1768 01:44:49.040 --> 01:44:50.600 And when I started feeling like 1769 01:44:50.600 --> 01:44:53.920 I was getting a little overweight and was losing muscle, 1770 01:44:53.920 --> 01:44:58.520 that muscle was not looking so good anymore, in my opinion. 1771 01:44:58.520 --> 01:44:59.520 And so, 1772 01:45:00.560 --> 01:45:04.160 You all, God led me not only to put my hands on my legs 1773 01:45:04.160 --> 01:45:08.520 and thank him for my legs, but little by little, 1774 01:45:08.520 --> 01:45:11.000 I found myself thanking God for my body 1775 01:45:11.000 --> 01:45:13.440 that was strong for me in all the years 1776 01:45:13.440 --> 01:45:17.960 that I went through abuse and torment 1777 01:45:17.960 --> 01:45:19.560 and all of the things. 1778 01:45:19.560 --> 01:45:22.160 You all, my body could have gave up on me. 1779 01:45:22.160 --> 01:45:24.640 It could have gave out and it didn't. 1780 01:45:24.640 --> 01:45:28.280 And so I felt like, God, thank you for my body. 1781 01:45:28.280 --> 01:45:29.920 And I literally, I'll be like, body, 1782 01:45:29.920 --> 01:45:32.040 thank you so much for being strong for me. 1783 01:45:32.040 --> 01:45:36.160 Thank you for legs, for being strong and mighty. 1784 01:45:36.160 --> 01:45:37.120 And I just started, 1785 01:45:37.120 --> 01:45:39.600 would just start declaring things over myself 1786 01:45:39.600 --> 01:45:43.080 and little by little, I'm not saying it's easy, you all, 1787 01:45:43.960 --> 01:45:45.320 but it was worth it. 1788 01:45:45.320 --> 01:45:49.160 And little by little, I sincerely feel differently 1789 01:45:49.160 --> 01:45:51.880 about my body and who I am. 1790 01:45:51.880 --> 01:45:53.520 And I hope that that is something 1791 01:45:53.520 --> 01:45:55.920 that you will experience as well. 1792 01:45:55.920 --> 01:45:56.880 I'm gonna pray. 1793 01:45:56.880 --> 01:45:58.080 We are way over again. 1794 01:45:58.880 --> 01:46:00.120 I gotta start cutting this back, you all. 1795 01:46:00.120 --> 01:46:01.680 I gotta get better. 1796 01:46:01.680 --> 01:46:03.520 Jackie's getting on me, 1797 01:46:03.520 --> 01:46:06.080 but I love this time with you all, I do. 1798 01:46:06.080 --> 01:46:07.760 And it's hard to cut it off, 1799 01:46:07.760 --> 01:46:10.400 but I'm gonna pray and close this up. 1800 01:46:10.400 --> 01:46:14.280 Father, thank you so much for freedom. 1801 01:46:14.280 --> 01:46:15.600 We know that your word declares 1802 01:46:15.600 --> 01:46:18.040 that where the spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty. 1803 01:46:18.040 --> 01:46:20.600 So Lord, we call forth liberty and freedom 1804 01:46:20.600 --> 01:46:23.960 from heaven tonight and to your daughter's hearts, 1805 01:46:23.960 --> 01:46:26.360 their minds, their bodies, their spirits, their souls. 1806 01:46:26.360 --> 01:46:27.960 I pray that you would help them. 1807 01:46:28.720 --> 01:46:29.560 God, when they look in the mirror, 1808 01:46:29.560 --> 01:46:32.440 help them to see themselves the way you see them. 1809 01:46:32.440 --> 01:46:36.800 I pray that you would give them supernatural declarations 1810 01:46:36.800 --> 01:46:39.480 that come from having to declare over their bodies, 1811 01:46:39.480 --> 01:46:41.840 to declare over their minds and their spirits, 1812 01:46:41.840 --> 01:46:44.840 that you would help them to catch their thoughts quickly 1813 01:46:44.840 --> 01:46:46.560 and cast down any thought 1814 01:46:46.560 --> 01:46:48.160 that does not align with your truth. 1815 01:46:48.160 --> 01:46:50.320 I thank you that they would stop meditating 1816 01:46:50.320 --> 01:46:55.320 on stories filled with lies and mistrust and hurt and pain, 1817 01:46:56.280 --> 01:46:59.560 stories that didn't come from heaven 1818 01:46:59.560 --> 01:47:01.240 that were not birthed out of your goodness 1819 01:47:01.240 --> 01:47:02.920 and your truth and your life. 1820 01:47:02.920 --> 01:47:03.760 But God, I thank you 1821 01:47:03.760 --> 01:47:05.840 that you would help them to hear your new story, 1822 01:47:05.840 --> 01:47:07.720 help them to hear the words that you're saying 1823 01:47:07.720 --> 01:47:10.080 and speaking over them and to them. 1824 01:47:10.080 --> 01:47:13.320 And I thank you that they are going to partner 1825 01:47:13.320 --> 01:47:15.640 with the truth in the days ahead. 1826 01:47:15.640 --> 01:47:19.720 I thank you that, yes, Lord, 1827 01:47:20.840 --> 01:47:23.600 just as the wind blows and we can't see it, 1828 01:47:23.600 --> 01:47:24.600 we know it's there. 1829 01:47:24.640 --> 01:47:28.040 So Lord, I thank you that you sent the Holy Spirit 1830 01:47:28.040 --> 01:47:31.160 to help us, to comfort us, to guide us 1831 01:47:31.160 --> 01:47:33.000 so that we would never have to walk alone. 1832 01:47:33.000 --> 01:47:35.440 I thank you for the Holy Spirit. 1833 01:47:35.440 --> 01:47:36.280 We love you. 1834 01:47:36.280 --> 01:47:37.720 We thank you for your power. 1835 01:47:37.720 --> 01:47:40.440 We thank you for resurrecting power in life, 1836 01:47:40.440 --> 01:47:42.680 to come into every dead area of our lives 1837 01:47:42.680 --> 01:47:47.000 and bring life and truth and redemption and restitution 1838 01:47:47.000 --> 01:47:48.720 more and more in the days ahead. 1839 01:47:48.720 --> 01:47:52.400 And we believe all these things tonight in Jesus' name. 1840 01:47:52.400 --> 01:47:54.240 God is doing something awesome 1841 01:47:54.880 --> 01:47:56.920 and I look forward to hearing about it 1842 01:47:56.920 --> 01:47:58.840 from all of you in the days ahead. 1843 01:47:58.840 --> 01:48:00.480 We love you and we'll see you in the group 1844 01:48:00.480 --> 01:48:02.440 and we'll be back next Monday, you all. 1845 01:48:02.440 --> 01:48:03.920 Have a great week. 1846 01:48:03.920 --> 01:48:04.760 Bye, everyone.