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Welcome, welcome. Hi. Great to see you all. Hello, where are my beautiful faces.

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If you're able to turn your camera on, I would love for you to do that low and some of y'all saw you this afternoon and I get to see you again.

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It's so great.

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Awesome.

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All right, you all I'm going to go ahead and get started. We have a lot to cover tonight.

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And for those of you that came this afternoon there's some that's similar to this afternoon but I have shifted some things for tonight.

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So I'm excited God's going to continue to move. And I'm super grateful to be here. If you have never been with us before and you're here for the first time, can you tell us either in the chat or raise your hand.

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And let us know that you're joining us for the first time. I don't know if I see some sometimes it's hard for me to read everybody's name super fast. Is anyone new you're joining for the first time ever.

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All right.

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I might circle back to this ladies because I feel like some of the new ladies might jump on in a little bit.

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All right, well, welcome back. For those of you that have been with us before you all know who I am by now I think.

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I'm going to be talking about the real you and awakening and what that means to awaken to all that God has for you in the days ahead.

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I have several people that are finishing up their phase one and I just felt like it was super important to circle back to.

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I want to also mention just real quick.

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I didn't have time this afternoon to put them up, but I am going to be putting up in your group. Some of y'all have seen one already. I was asking, like, how many of y'all have seen one already.

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And we just are so grateful that you allow us to be here with you and I'm believing for God to shift and move things in a big way.

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I want to also mention just real quick.

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I didn't have time this afternoon to put them up, but I am going to be putting up in your group. Some of y'all have seen one already. I was asking, like, hey, what week are you in?

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I did one post sometime last week and that's been going really well. So I'm going to add that to the two other groups.

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And really all this is, for those of you that it's like a check-in, like if you've fallen off, it's okay for you just to say, hey, I got distracted, I fell off.

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If you're just, you know, moving along just fine, you can just say what week you're in. You don't have to share a lot of detail unless you feel led.

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But it's more just so that we know where everybody's at and how many people, like, you know, like, let's say, for example, if there's a group of 100 and I only get 10 responses,

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I'm going to be probably start to be concerned about the other people that never respond. You know what I'm saying?

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So that helps me kind of gauge where people are at. So I want to encourage you to respond on that when I put that up in your groups.

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Also, I want to encourage you all to not just fall off because that is one of the things I've realized in one of our groups we have.

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And some people have been in there a while. And we're doing some cleanup on groups and there are some people that have just fallen off.

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You know, I think social media can be hard at times, and we're just tired of technology in general.

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But I want to encourage you all that to not, excuse me, to not just fall off.

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I'd rather you all tell us that you're struggling or something got, you know, caused a distraction or whatever versus us just wondering, like, was this just too much for them?

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You know, are they struggling and we just don't have a clue what's happening.

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If you fell down or stopped, I want to encourage you to ask God to give you the grace to get back up and keep going.

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And y'all, some days it might just feel like that for a day where you're just like, man, I just don't have the energy to do this today.

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And that is okay. I hope y'all know that. But I don't want you to stay there long.

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So if you are struggling, okay, I see you, Natasha. Yeah, just choose to not give up.

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So I try to just remind you all, even if I respond to you one-on-one like this, but I feel like it's important to say this to the whole group.

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You all, one step a day is better than no step. Okay?

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So just choose, you know, maybe you plan to do a lot.

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Someone shared this afternoon, they had planned to come in and work on the program and they were going to clean their house and just some things happened.

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And, you know, they're also struggling with some grief.

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And so I want you all to know, like, maybe just choose bite size.

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If you're feeling overwhelmed right now, let's just take a bite versus trying to eat the whole elephant, if you will.

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Y'all ever heard that before? Yeah. So just keep moving forward.

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Some of my ladies that have been in the group for a while will testify to this.

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I will always keep cheering you on.

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on just keep moving forward, just keep moving forward. Because

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again, that is better than no progress. It's not about

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perfection. It's not about like keeping up with someone else.

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This is your journey. And we just want to see you see it all

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the way through because you're going to experience life change

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if you do. All right. On that note, I'm one of the things that

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happens a lot is shame. A lot of people I've noticed a couple

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people have been mentioning, I feel shame, I feel, you know,

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just beat down, I feel really heavy and discouraged. And I was

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talking about that this afternoon. For some of you,

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depression and oppression has become a lifestyle. And it's not

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your fault. So I don't want you to receive shame when I when I

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talk about this. And I don't want you to receive shame if

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you've fallen and you know, really struggled to get back up

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to keep moving. Some of you all the enemy will try to get you to

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to avoid it at all costs moving forward, because he's trying to

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tell you it's going to be too painful to keep moving forward.

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And I want to encourage you to believe the best I want you to

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try to resist those kind of thoughts, because the enemy

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doesn't want you to move forward. So what he'll do is

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he'll send border bullies. That's, that's what we call

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them. And border bullies can be different for everybody, your

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border bully might be a lot of heavy, heavy, heavy, deep

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depression. And again, some of you all you really genuinely are

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battling that because the enemy is sending that against you. But

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some of you, because you grew up in a home where your parent was

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very depressed and oppressed a lot, you are battling that not

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just for yourself, but you might also be battling what has been

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carried down through your family line. Okay, so that was one of

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the things in my life, I had to really watch and even still

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today, if I go through something really hard, the enemy always

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tries to come and just bring like a deep despair, if you

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will. And so I have to really keep that in check and keep

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moving. And I stay accountable to my friends. And I stay

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connected to people and just stay engaged. So if that's you,

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we love you. And we don't want you to give into shame or

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isolation that is not from God. Okay. Last announcement is you

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all mark your calendars. I almost forgot to announce this

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earlier today. We have on Thursday, almost said July.

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July is almost over. I can't believe it. Thursday, August

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8, at 8pm. Eastern Time, we are doing a special live session

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dream interpretation. So you all have a recording in your

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content. But this is gonna be a totally new person coming and

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doing dream interpretation, they're going to teach you

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about it, talk to you about it, all the different dynamics that

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go into dream interpretation, probably even I don't know for

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sure if he'll touch on this. But my guess is he's going to

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also talk on we get this question a lot. How do you even

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know if a dream is like something from God or not? And

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do I need to even pay attention to my dreams, all that kind of

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stuff. So we would love to have you join us that is going to be

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open to everyone in the community. So just so y'all

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know, again, that's Thursday, August 8, at 8pm, it will be

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recorded, we always get this question, it is going to be

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recorded. So if you cannot be there live, you will be able to

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watch the replay. Okay. All right, announcements done. I'm

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going to go ahead and pray. Father, thank you so much for

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this night. God, thank you for every woman that's here live

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every woman that's going to watch the replay. Thank you Lord

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for revealings for healing that are so needed. God, thank you

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for grace and mercy that's flowing from heaven above right

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now. We thank you God that the river of life is flowing and is

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flowing into us. I just thank you that you just Holy Spirit

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would just come and wash over our hearts, our minds, our

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bodies, our spirits and our souls. That you would fill us

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afresh with your life with your power with your truth, let your

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truth come in and bring light into every dark area and

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illuminate those things that are in darkness that need to be

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brought to the light so that we can be healed that we can

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experience not only that that healing and the knowing in our

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knower, but God the breakthrough the release. We just we just

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yes, Lord, we just ask for more release and more lightheartedness

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coming into us. We thank you that you would lift the

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heaviness and the weariness that has come upon some people just

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right off of them. In Jesus name, we thank you Jesus, that

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you came, you allowed your body to be broken and your blood to

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be shed. You took the weight of our sin upon yourself as well as

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the sin of other people that they have committed against us.

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You took that all on yourself. So Lord, I just ask you to help

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us to step into freedom tonight and help us to know what freedom

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looks like. So many of us have maybe not even grown up in homes

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that that we learned what joy or

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or happiness or true freedom looks like, feels like,

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what hope living in a life of fullness and joy,

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unspeakable and full of glory looks like.

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So Lord, I pray that you would teach us

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a little bit more tonight.

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Yes, Lord.

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I thank you for unveiling any kind of mindsets,

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limiting belief systems that would keep us

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from being able to receive your truth in Jesus' name.

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Amen.

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Amen and amen.

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All right, you all.

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We're gonna start out tonight.

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I'm gonna talk to you about this giving God permission.

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I know some of you all did it weeks ago,

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but God definitely told me it's time

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to revisit the permission slip.

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Some of you all might've just started and that's okay.

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Even if you did it yesterday, God is saying,

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he wants this not to just be something that we do one time.

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He wants it to become a part of our lifestyle.

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So where we on our daily basis are thinking about,

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God, I give you permission.

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I surrender to you, Lord.

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Y'all, he is the vine and we are the branches.

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Yes, man, I feel the Holy Spirit.

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We can't do anything apart from him.

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And so I wanna encourage you

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just to kind of heart posture yourself,

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like why do I try on my own?

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Why do I strive and work and push and all these things?

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Why do I put these hard task things on myself

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and just always believe the lie that I'm not enough?

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I wanna ask you to ask yourself,

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I was gonna talk about this later,

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but I just feel the nudge to bring it up now.

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There's a scripture in the Bible

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when Adam and Eve were in the garden

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and they ate of the fruit and then God came.

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This was after they then realized they were naked

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and they were trying to cover up

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because they realized now that they were naked

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and God is coming into the garden.

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God used to walk with them every day.

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They walked with God.

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It's incredible to even fathom and think about,

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but God was looking for them and they were hiding.

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When he finds them, he's like, where are you basically?

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they basically, if you look at the scripture,

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it talks about God asking them,

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who told you that you were naked?

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whatever it is that you have been struggling with,

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identity stuff, not feeling like you're enough,

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never measuring up,

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that you have all this shame, you can't move forward.

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Some of y'all, that's the story

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that you're telling yourself on a regular basis.

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I can't do this.

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I can't move forward.

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I am never gonna be healed enough

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for someone good to love me.

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And I wanna ask you tonight from the Holy Spirit,

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who told you that?

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Because that lie entered, if you will, in the garden

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and it entered through trauma

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or it entered through maybe even a wrong choice

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that you made and you believed the lie

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when shame and condemnation and guilt came from the enemy.

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And God wants you to break free from that tonight.

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He wants you to come into the fullness

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of what he created you to be, who he created you to be.

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Like when he envisioned us,

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I imagine even when he created Adam and Eve

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and he created them to be in relationship

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and communion with him daily,

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he never wanted us to be separated from him.

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So he's always been about doing and carrying out everything

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to lead us back into that relationship with him.

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Giving God permission to access our hearts is key.

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So it's also giving God permission,

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excuse me, to bring things up and out of us, okay?

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So we don't want that junk to say, press down in there.

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We want all of that in God's timing to come up and out.

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Revelation 3.20 says,

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behold, I stand at the door and knock.

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If any man hears my voice and opens the door,

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I will come into him and he will,

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and we'll sup with him and he with me.

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Open here in this scripture,

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open here in this scripture literally means to open,

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to open it up literally and physically.

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So he's saying, I'm standing at the door and I'm knocking

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and the one who opens unto me, I will come in with them

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and I will sup with them.

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You know, I looked into this more

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than I even did for this afternoon.

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To sup means,

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Supper to dine with and then it says I will make because I had to look up. I was like, man

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I'm going to read this phrase to you. It says I will make him to share in my most intimate and blissful intercourse

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I'm asking you i'm knocking and i'm asking you to let me in and the choice

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The choice is ours. Jesus even himself gave us an example. He communed with his disciples

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Frequently didn't he he sat and he ate with them and he broke bread with them and even the night before

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He was crucified you all he's dining with

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Himself as well when jesus chose to go to the cross. He chose it for us

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He died to make everything better everything that you would ever struggle with

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He died to make that better. He died so that we can live in victory. And so what I want you guys to think about

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You know double double life, you know the good good life that jackie talks about that god talks about in his word

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Is healing so the healing in our hearts, which is why you're here

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Transformation of our minds that comes by our hearts being healed, right?

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We get rid of old thoughts orphan mentalities limiting belief systems negative mindsets anything that does not

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Partner and align with the kingdom. We want to rid ourselves of those things and we are transformed by the renewing of our minds

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and I will listen to the word and do all that but like I my most favorite is to open my bible and just

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And if I go a couple days without that I start to think differently not all the way but just these slight little things

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Love to hear from him to talk to him to read about him and to learn about how I can become more like him

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But that came through many years of prayer you all it did

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Didn't happen overnight. So for those of you that don't feel that way don't don't believe the lie that that isn't something that's for you

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It takes time. Okay, the gap can also represent revelation. We need revelation of god's love every single day

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We need an upgrade of our understanding and then also that being like that breaking free

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So learning how to embrace the victory so jesus died. He shed his blood the blood is available to us you all

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But if we don't have revelation of the things that are in darkness, how do we apply the blood of jesus christ to it?

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Into the light so that then we can apply the blood and the truth to it. That's that's the process

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God to lead the way

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To lead you out of hiding to lead you out of shame to lead you out of pain lead you out of limiting beliefs lies

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Trauma so that he can lead you into

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What into victory into the land flowing with?

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milk and honey. Do y'all read these scriptures and you're just like, what does that mean? I,

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I want to live in the land of, you know, where the honey is flowing and the milk is plentiful.

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Y'all that's abundance. That's if you go back and read some of these scriptures, you know,

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these were not, this was not common. And so, you know, when they went into that land,

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they were big giants and they were big, great. I mean, there's big fruit. So it was like way

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bigger than what they were used to experiencing. Maybe, maybe it's so that God can lead you into

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the goodness of God. Maybe it's the belief that you can experience the goodness of God in the

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land of the living now here today, that you don't have to wait another 10 years and you don't have

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to be in the waiting room and in the land of, I don't know if this is ever going to happen.

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Maybe it's leading you into security in Christ because as much as you wanted to, you just really

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struggle with insecurity and doubt and unbelief. Maybe you struggle with knowing who you really

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are in Christ. Y'all I knew who I was in Christ before, but I can promise you, I know who I am

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in Christ way more now than I did before. And so I want to encourage you, you know, one of the

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things that I think is one of the biggest resistors is our own pride. You know, we,

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especially people that were raised in church, you know, and again, I'm not saying you don't

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know your identity, but I believe God wants to give you an upgrade to your understanding of

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your identity in Christ. And the more rooted we become in the love of God, the more we

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really realize, wow, and I have so much to still learn about the love of God and what that means

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for me. So I want to encourage you just to lay aside any ideas of, I already know all of that.

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I already know who I am in Christ, know who you are, but always know that you can continue to

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become more like Christ. You can continue to become more rooted in who he's called you to be.

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So I'm going to read this permission slip over you. I'm going to encourage you. I always feel

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like if we just close our eyes, at least for me, I always focus more. I want to encourage you just

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to ask the Lord to start to show you what you need to give him permission to come into tonight.

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Maybe some of you all need to give him permission. Like you're going to surrender all over again,

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even though you did two weeks ago when you started, maybe some of you all are going to

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see an image of something that you're giving him permission to heal. So I want to invite you to,

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to kind of ponder that as I read this over you. And so you'll close your eyes. I'm going to read

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this prayer over you. Father God, I give you permission to search me and to reveal anything

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in my heart that does not belong to my true identity. Anything that is hindering me from

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living the love story that you have already written for me. Anything that's hindering me

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from living the full life, the abundant life that you have for me. Holy spirit, I invite you into

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the darkest places in my heart. Show me the areas that are still wounded, that are still hurting.

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When you reveal these broken places to me, I covenant with you to release them into your care

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and to respond with forgiveness and repentance. I set aside this season of my life for a time of

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healing and wholeness and ask Holy spirit, ask you to take charge of this process. I ask you,

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Holy spirit to dwell with me and in me, I need you. I cannot heal myself. I want to be free,

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free from the past, free to be who I truly am. Help me to become who you created me to be.

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Show me the lies I've believed about myself, my life, my surroundings, even the lies I've

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believed about you. God teach me the greater truth. Teach me your ways. Teach me how to think

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and how to live abundantly. Teach me, show me, heal me, grow me. So be it. Amen and amen.

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Y'all, before you go into breakout, I want to point out the part that says, when you reveal

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these broken places to me, I covenant with you to release them into your care. Some of you all,

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as God has been revealing some of these things to you, I feel like what he's shown me is you're just

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holding them. You don't mean to, but it's like, you don't, you just are feeling the weight of

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this stuff and you're kind of living in it. And God is saying, let me take it out of your hands

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because here's the thing you all, whether we realize it or not, some of this stuff that

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we've gone through and we've carried inside of us, it's kind of been a comfort zone. We're used to it.

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you a new, a new robe, if you will, he wants to give you a new

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bag to carry that's way lighter, and that has a lot of good stuff

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in it. But you got to be willing to give him the bag full of

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rocks or hard stuff, the pain and the trauma first. And for

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some of you, you're like, I'm trying. I'm trying to do that.

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show you how he will show you how to release those things to

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him in due season. Alright, so when you go into breakout, I

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want you to share with each other what is something that

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God's asking you to surrender to him tonight? Where is he asking

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you to give him permission? Okay.

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That's all right. If you all can't join breakout, you can.

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That's totally fine. You can stay here and I'm going to be

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praying over everybody. All right, there we go. Go ahead

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and grab that you have eight minutes, ladies. All right. Keep

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it short, brief and powerful.

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Just going to make sure we have everyone that has two people

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here. All right, Brenda, Natalia, I don't know if I

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couldn't see if you all are able to join breakout or not. Okay,

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cool. There we go. Perfect. Father, thank you so much for Oh,

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Christina, you need a room to go into. See here. What room was

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that? That's 12. Oh, there we go. I'm gonna put you in room

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12 there, Christina. All right, Jamie, were you able to click

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to join? That's pretty much everyone. All right, Father, we

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just thank you so much for your goodness. We thank you God for

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the truth that we can choose to surrender at any time that God

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you give us a new day a new clean slate every single day.

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And your mercies are new every morning God that you never hold

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anything against us God that you're not Thank you, Lord.

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You're not angry with us. You're not disappointed. Gotta thank

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you that you understand. So Lord, we just ask for the

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comfort of heaven comfort of the Father to come tonight into

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these rooms into this room where some of the people are driving

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for those that watch the replay. Just ask you to help them to

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feel the comfort of God surrounding them. We know that

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your word says that you hide us under the shadow of your wings

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and in the presence of the Almighty. We ask you Lord just

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to usher us in to the secret place with you tonight that you

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would help us to hear what your spirit is saying louder than any

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voice of the enemy that we don't have to fear we don't have to be

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afraid of what might come. Because Lord, you are always

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looking out for us. You are always on our side. You're

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always fighting on our behalf. Yes, Lord. I just thank you,

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Lord, that just like Isaiah 61 three says that you will bestow

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on us a crown of beauty instead of ashes. And so Lord, we just

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thank you that you would take every hard place in our lives

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right now. And just in a fresh way that you would just continue

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to work in those areas and that you would place the balm of

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Gilead upon our hearts, our minds, our bodies, our spirits,

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and our souls. We thank you for complete healing that we would

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lack no good thing, but also that you would turn anything

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that has felt like ash and destruction and you would turn

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it around for beauty in our lives that it would bring you

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glory. God, I thank you. Y'all that's always so funny when it

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pops up on the screen. We thank you that you would bring healing

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and closure in the areas that we need it so that we can move

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forward. We thank you that you would help us Yes, Lord, that

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you would help us to take off the grave clothes that we would

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take off those the clothes that remind us and others of mourning

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and you would help us to move into joy and restoration and

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healing. God, we thank you that nothing is too hard for you. And

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I thank you Lord right now that you would just continue to

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remind us that even like the man what can't what just came to my

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mind, ladies is like how the guy, you know, that needed

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healing, but there was no way to get into the house. And so his

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friends cut a hole into the roof and lowered him down to be in

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front of Jesus. And so Lord right now, I just thank you for

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friends that you would send good friends around each one of these

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ladies. And even if they have friends in their life right now

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that are good friends, I pray that you would remind them of

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who these people are.

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Those people that would war on their behalf.

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that you would send those kinds of friends and through their life,

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the kind of friends that would, um,

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you know, go through the hardship of climbing up on the roof,

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cutting through the roof and lowering their friend down to get them

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in front of Jesus.

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that you would help us to be that kind of friend as well,

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because those things that we want.

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Yes, ladies, that's what we've got to become.

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So Lord help us to become really, um,

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great friends to those around us.

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Hi, Jamie.

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Did it kick you out of the room you were in?

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It kicked me out again this week.

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I don't know.

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It worked earlier today.

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Sometimes it's just a tricky internet.

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Do you know what room you were in?

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I don't.

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I I'm so sorry.

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You don't have to apologize.

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I promise.

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I'm just going to go ahead and put you into any room then.

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Is that all right?

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Okay.

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That's great.

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Thank you.

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Welcome.

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Okay.

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That's there for you.

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We just ask for a blessing upon Jamie's internet connection.

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We thank you that you would just help this not be a frustration

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for her.

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We thank you that you would just surround all internet connections.

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But Lord,

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00:31:06.600 --> 00:31:08.400
I know that was something that was getting in the way for her

449
00:31:08.400 --> 00:31:09.400
last week too.

450
00:31:09.700 --> 00:31:11.100
So we just thank you for grace.

451
00:31:11.100 --> 00:31:14.000
We thank you for peace in the midst of any struggles with

452
00:31:14.000 --> 00:31:16.200
internet or connections.

453
00:31:16.200 --> 00:31:17.400
We thank you even just right now,

454
00:31:17.400 --> 00:31:20.200
just feel led to pray for safety for anybody that's a part of our

455
00:31:20.200 --> 00:31:20.800
community.

456
00:31:21.000 --> 00:31:22.900
That's driving this pandemic.

457
00:31:22.900 --> 00:31:24.000
Part of our community.

458
00:31:24.300 --> 00:31:28.000
That's driving that you would just protect them from any accidents

459
00:31:28.000 --> 00:31:28.600
or attacks.

460
00:31:28.600 --> 00:31:29.900
And I just thank you God for your head,

461
00:31:29.900 --> 00:31:31.200
your protection around us.

462
00:31:32.100 --> 00:31:33.900
I thank you Lord to Stephen.

463
00:31:33.900 --> 00:31:36.700
I'm reading ladies in Romans 828 here.

464
00:31:36.700 --> 00:31:37.100
It says,

465
00:31:37.100 --> 00:31:40.200
so we are convinced that every detail of our lives is continually

466
00:31:40.200 --> 00:31:43.800
woven together to fit into God's perfect plan of bringing good

467
00:31:43.800 --> 00:31:44.600
into our lives.

468
00:31:44.600 --> 00:31:49.900
So we are his lovers who have been called to fulfill his designed

469
00:31:49.900 --> 00:31:50.700
purpose.

470
00:31:51.000 --> 00:31:51.200
God,

471
00:31:51.200 --> 00:31:54.400
I thank you that you call us the lovers of God and that we are

472
00:31:54.400 --> 00:31:55.800
your beloved as well.

473
00:31:55.800 --> 00:31:56.300
And so Lord,

474
00:31:56.300 --> 00:31:57.000
I thank you.

475
00:31:58.200 --> 00:32:00.500
That you would just come into the recesses of our hearts,

476
00:32:00.500 --> 00:32:01.100
our minds,

477
00:32:01.100 --> 00:32:06.800
our souls and that you would heal any place that isn't that is

478
00:32:06.800 --> 00:32:07.300
broken.

479
00:32:07.300 --> 00:32:10.800
That causes us to not believe that we are your beloved that

480
00:32:10.800 --> 00:32:15.000
causes us to live underneath of where you have actually called

481
00:32:15.000 --> 00:32:16.900
us to live in our mindsets.

482
00:32:17.500 --> 00:32:19.700
And you know,

483
00:32:19.700 --> 00:32:22.800
I even think last night I released a word about the banqueting

484
00:32:22.800 --> 00:32:23.200
table.

485
00:32:23.200 --> 00:32:23.700
And so Lord,

486
00:32:23.700 --> 00:32:26.800
I thank you that you would help us to to really know that that

487
00:32:26.800 --> 00:32:28.000
banquet table is there.

488
00:32:28.000 --> 00:32:31.100
It's available for us and that we would come and sit at your

489
00:32:31.100 --> 00:32:31.700
table.

490
00:32:32.700 --> 00:32:35.900
That we would not just sit at your table and sit and watch the

491
00:32:35.900 --> 00:32:36.900
blessings in front of us,

492
00:32:36.900 --> 00:32:41.200
but that we would partake that we would taste and see that you

493
00:32:41.200 --> 00:32:45.600
God are good and that the blessings that you have for us the

494
00:32:45.600 --> 00:32:49.100
things that you want to give us are so much better than the

495
00:32:49.100 --> 00:32:51.800
temporary things that this world has to offer us.

496
00:32:53.700 --> 00:32:54.200
Let's see here.

497
00:32:54.200 --> 00:32:56.800
This one is Colossians 3 13 through 14.

498
00:32:56.800 --> 00:32:58.100
This is in the message version.

499
00:32:58.100 --> 00:33:02.800
It says so chosen by God for this new life of love dress in

500
00:33:02.800 --> 00:33:03.500
the wardrobe.

501
00:33:03.500 --> 00:33:04.400
God picked out for you.

502
00:33:04.400 --> 00:33:06.800
I feel like that's fitting because of what I was saying earlier

503
00:33:07.100 --> 00:33:07.900
compassion,

504
00:33:07.900 --> 00:33:08.500
kindness,

505
00:33:08.500 --> 00:33:09.200
humility,

506
00:33:09.500 --> 00:33:09.900
quiet,

507
00:33:09.900 --> 00:33:10.500
strength,

508
00:33:10.500 --> 00:33:11.500
discipline,

509
00:33:11.900 --> 00:33:13.400
be even tempered.

510
00:33:13.900 --> 00:33:18.400
Sorry to turn this page content with second place.

511
00:33:18.500 --> 00:33:19.100
Wow,

512
00:33:19.100 --> 00:33:20.500
be content with second place.

513
00:33:20.900 --> 00:33:23.000
I don't know if I wouldn't want to always be content with that,

514
00:33:23.000 --> 00:33:26.400
but that's a good reminder quick to forgive an offense forgive

515
00:33:26.400 --> 00:33:31.500
as quickly and completely as the master forgave you and

516
00:33:31.500 --> 00:33:35.600
regardless of what else you put on where love it's your basic

517
00:33:35.600 --> 00:33:37.200
all-purpose garment.

518
00:33:37.200 --> 00:33:41.600
Never be without it got a thank you right now that you would

519
00:33:41.600 --> 00:33:44.500
help us to forgive as quickly and completely as the master

520
00:33:44.500 --> 00:33:48.200
forgave us that there would be no lingering effects of

521
00:33:48.200 --> 00:33:51.800
unforgiveness in our hearts our minds our bodies our spirits

522
00:33:51.800 --> 00:33:56.200
and our souls that we are kinsmen Redeemers that we are we

523
00:33:56.200 --> 00:34:00.000
are bringing change and transformation into our lives into

524
00:34:00.000 --> 00:34:03.100
our families lives and we are causing ripple effects for the

525
00:34:03.100 --> 00:34:06.800
eternity for eternity that we are bringing your kingdom here

526
00:34:06.800 --> 00:34:10.300
on Earth as you desire it in heaven that every day that we

527
00:34:10.300 --> 00:34:15.900
choose to partner with you that we are ushering in those

528
00:34:15.900 --> 00:34:20.199
things that are true that are life-giving that bring healing

529
00:34:20.199 --> 00:34:25.400
that bring Redemption that we no longer have to live below

530
00:34:26.000 --> 00:34:27.000
your best for us.

531
00:34:27.000 --> 00:34:29.900
I thank you Lord that you would continue to wipe away every

532
00:34:29.900 --> 00:34:32.800
tear from our eyes and eliminate death entirely.

533
00:34:33.199 --> 00:34:35.300
No one will mourn or weep any longer.

534
00:34:35.300 --> 00:34:39.199
The pain of wounds will no longer exist for the old order

535
00:34:39.199 --> 00:34:41.500
has ceased y'all that's what it's going to be like when we

536
00:34:41.500 --> 00:34:42.300
get to Eternity.

537
00:34:42.300 --> 00:34:43.800
We're not even going to know pain.

538
00:34:43.900 --> 00:34:45.400
We're not going to think about pain.

539
00:34:45.699 --> 00:34:48.400
We're not going to miss people, you know, all the things that

540
00:34:48.400 --> 00:34:50.100
we struggle with in this world.

541
00:34:50.100 --> 00:34:54.100
So we hopefully are working for an eternal purpose while while

542
00:34:54.100 --> 00:34:57.600
we are here for us, you know, learning how to heal some of

543
00:34:57.600 --> 00:34:59.600
you all do want to find your spirit mates.

544
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:05.000
I hope that your main goal is to step into the fullness

545
00:35:05.280 --> 00:35:08.960
of God's plans and purposes for you for eternity,

546
00:35:08.960 --> 00:35:11.000
for eternal purposes.

547
00:35:11.000 --> 00:35:14.280
And y'all, the spirit made is the cherry on top.

548
00:35:14.280 --> 00:35:15.320
I promise you.

549
00:35:15.320 --> 00:35:17.160
I promise you, you're never gonna regret

550
00:35:17.160 --> 00:35:20.280
seeking first the kingdom of God and his righteousness

551
00:35:20.280 --> 00:35:24.360
and all these other things will be added unto you.

552
00:35:24.360 --> 00:35:26.200
All right, awesome.

553
00:35:26.200 --> 00:35:27.520
All right, let me hear from you.

554
00:35:27.520 --> 00:35:30.640
Who is willing to share with the whole group

555
00:35:30.640 --> 00:35:32.720
what you shared in your private breakout group?

556
00:35:32.720 --> 00:35:34.920
What are you feeling led to surrender

557
00:35:34.920 --> 00:35:37.460
or give God permission to come into tonight?

558
00:35:38.480 --> 00:35:39.640
Anyone want?

559
00:35:39.640 --> 00:35:41.080
All right, Emily, go ahead.

560
00:35:44.480 --> 00:35:46.640
Sorry, I wasn't expecting to go this fast.

561
00:35:48.040 --> 00:35:50.080
Yeah, so just when you started praying,

562
00:35:50.080 --> 00:35:54.080
I saw the phrase, things not working out.

563
00:35:54.080 --> 00:35:55.360
And I told the girls in my group,

564
00:35:55.680 --> 00:35:57.880
that makes really good sense for me.

565
00:35:58.720 --> 00:36:02.600
And so I just gave God this whole,

566
00:36:02.600 --> 00:36:05.280
I almost thought a three-dimensional sentence.

567
00:36:05.280 --> 00:36:08.120
And I just gave him that whole feeling

568
00:36:08.120 --> 00:36:09.440
and everything that that means to me.

569
00:36:09.440 --> 00:36:12.520
I'm just like, okay, God, I just surrender that.

570
00:36:13.680 --> 00:36:14.800
I love this.

571
00:36:14.800 --> 00:36:18.480
All right, who can relate to what Emily just said?

572
00:36:18.480 --> 00:36:21.360
You need to surrender and let go of things not working out.

573
00:36:21.360 --> 00:36:23.480
The lie that things are not gonna work out.

574
00:36:23.480 --> 00:36:24.820
Anyone else?

575
00:36:24.820 --> 00:36:26.320
Yeah, I think a lot of y'all.

576
00:36:27.500 --> 00:36:30.140
But see, that's the enemy's biggest lie, isn't it?

577
00:36:30.140 --> 00:36:33.220
What you're doing is never going to work.

578
00:36:33.220 --> 00:36:35.260
Why are you wasting your time?

579
00:36:35.260 --> 00:36:36.500
He's such a liar.

580
00:36:36.500 --> 00:36:37.560
He's such a liar.

581
00:36:37.560 --> 00:36:39.780
But we're gonna look more at the father, guess what?

582
00:36:39.780 --> 00:36:41.580
Who's never a liar.

583
00:36:41.580 --> 00:36:42.900
He's not a man that he should lie.

584
00:36:42.900 --> 00:36:47.740
The Bible says that God will never lie to us.

585
00:36:47.740 --> 00:36:49.020
Praise the Lord.

586
00:36:49.020 --> 00:36:51.620
And you know, Emily, I keep wanting to call you Lauren,

587
00:36:51.620 --> 00:36:53.920
because as soon as I saw your name, Lauren stood out.

588
00:36:53.920 --> 00:36:57.020
So Emily, Lauren, I feel like that's significant.

589
00:36:59.360 --> 00:37:01.180
When you said it was three-dimensional,

590
00:37:01.180 --> 00:37:02.240
that really stood out to me.

591
00:37:02.240 --> 00:37:03.840
So I wanna encourage you to lean into that.

592
00:37:03.840 --> 00:37:04.840
I've lost you on my screen.

593
00:37:04.840 --> 00:37:06.200
So I'm like looking everywhere for you.

594
00:37:06.200 --> 00:37:09.160
I don't know where you're at, but it's always,

595
00:37:09.160 --> 00:37:11.200
oh, there we are, there we are, I see you.

596
00:37:12.520 --> 00:37:13.360
I really wanna encourage you

597
00:37:13.360 --> 00:37:15.000
to lean into the three-dimensional.

598
00:37:15.000 --> 00:37:17.720
That really, I felt like there was something on that.

599
00:37:17.720 --> 00:37:18.840
Like all the different ways

600
00:37:18.840 --> 00:37:20.720
that you have experienced in your life,

601
00:37:20.720 --> 00:37:22.140
like this isn't gonna work.

602
00:37:22.140 --> 00:37:25.500
I don't know if people have said that to you as well.

603
00:37:25.500 --> 00:37:28.340
Like, you know, what you're doing isn't working

604
00:37:28.340 --> 00:37:30.420
or you should just be satisfied without this

605
00:37:30.420 --> 00:37:32.980
or like the dimensions of that.

606
00:37:32.980 --> 00:37:36.040
God wants to come in and heal each dimension.

607
00:37:36.040 --> 00:37:39.180
When you said that, that just felt super natural.

608
00:37:39.180 --> 00:37:43.020
He wants to come into that in every way, shape and form.

609
00:37:43.020 --> 00:37:44.800
Thank you so much for sharing.

610
00:37:45.980 --> 00:37:48.820
Yep, all right, Delisa, hi.

611
00:37:49.820 --> 00:37:54.820
Hello, hey, yeah, so the first thing that I heard

612
00:37:58.940 --> 00:38:03.940
is that God just wants me to release the questions

613
00:38:04.980 --> 00:38:09.380
and the concern about my spouse, who he is,

614
00:38:09.380 --> 00:38:12.780
and just release my love life to him in general,

615
00:38:12.780 --> 00:38:14.780
which for me is very difficult.

616
00:38:15.340 --> 00:38:18.980
I've probably been in a relationship

617
00:38:18.980 --> 00:38:21.060
since I was in high school.

618
00:38:21.060 --> 00:38:22.740
And one particular relationship

619
00:38:22.740 --> 00:38:25.620
that just almost completely broke me

620
00:38:26.420 --> 00:38:30.860
was I was in one relationship,

621
00:38:30.860 --> 00:38:34.740
but then when I was on the phone with a guy friend of mine,

622
00:38:34.740 --> 00:38:37.020
I heard that the guy friend was my husband

623
00:38:37.020 --> 00:38:38.900
while in that relationship.

624
00:38:38.900 --> 00:38:41.300
I heard it, I know I heard it.

625
00:38:41.300 --> 00:38:44.020
And so I'm still in the other relationship.

626
00:38:44.020 --> 00:38:45.860
I'm going on about my life.

627
00:38:45.860 --> 00:38:48.060
Me and this guy never has anything going on,

628
00:38:48.060 --> 00:38:52.060
but every so often I would remember what I heard.

629
00:38:53.300 --> 00:38:54.260
At the point that I heard it,

630
00:38:54.260 --> 00:38:56.420
I kind of just like pushed it to the back of my mind.

631
00:38:56.420 --> 00:38:59.900
Like, no, he's been my friend, that's crazy.

632
00:38:59.900 --> 00:39:03.260
Well, what happened was it came back around

633
00:39:03.260 --> 00:39:05.900
when I was in a, actually a season of healing,

634
00:39:05.900 --> 00:39:07.380
because I've been in many,

635
00:39:07.380 --> 00:39:09.540
but I was in a season of like healing, fasting,

636
00:39:09.540 --> 00:39:11.180
all of this different stuff.

637
00:39:11.180 --> 00:39:13.860
And the guy friend who I heard was my husband,

638
00:39:14.700 --> 00:39:17.220
we basically just started talking like every day.

639
00:39:17.220 --> 00:39:19.140
And so it just, it kept coming.

640
00:39:19.140 --> 00:39:21.100
It was more like prevalent.

641
00:39:21.100 --> 00:39:24.460
Like everything that I, everything was built around,

642
00:39:24.460 --> 00:39:26.380
I heard that this man was my husband.

643
00:39:27.500 --> 00:39:30.100
So pretty much, you know, got in that relationship,

644
00:39:30.100 --> 00:39:32.180
honestly forced him into a relationship

645
00:39:32.180 --> 00:39:34.580
because he didn't want to mess up the friendship.

646
00:39:34.580 --> 00:39:36.580
But because of what I thought I heard,

647
00:39:36.580 --> 00:39:38.660
which now I know was deception,

648
00:39:40.340 --> 00:39:42.060
you know, I just got into that relationship.

649
00:39:42.060 --> 00:39:45.020
And it's crazy that I heard it years before

650
00:39:45.020 --> 00:39:46.740
me and him ever even reconnected.

651
00:39:46.740 --> 00:39:49.220
I mean, literally like probably four or five years

652
00:39:49.220 --> 00:39:50.220
that I had heard it.

653
00:39:52.020 --> 00:39:55.100
And so, yeah, forced him into that relationship.

654
00:39:55.100 --> 00:39:58.020
That revealed a lot of stuff in me that was still broken.

655
00:39:59.180 --> 00:40:00.540
You know, it was just a lot.

656
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:07.640
So the area for me when it comes to love has been very like tricky because that whole situation

657
00:40:07.640 --> 00:40:10.440
made me not trust myself.

658
00:40:10.440 --> 00:40:15.920
And because I thought for sure it was God who had spoken, it just caused a lot of like

659
00:40:15.920 --> 00:40:17.360
pain and confusion.

660
00:40:17.360 --> 00:40:23.200
And so for me, one of the things that I that I know that I heard tonight is that God just

661
00:40:23.200 --> 00:40:29.600
wanted me to release my love story to him, the ending of it, how it's going to come together.

662
00:40:29.600 --> 00:40:34.680
Because whoever I'm talking to, if my husband or not, you know, I just really, for me, pray

663
00:40:34.680 --> 00:40:37.360
that it would just be ease and that the man would know.

664
00:40:37.360 --> 00:40:41.520
I mean, it's even got to the point where I've even told God, don't even tell me.

665
00:40:41.520 --> 00:40:47.080
Like I don't even have to know if you told that man that, let that man pursue me, you

666
00:40:47.080 --> 00:40:52.160
know, as his person, because it just caused so much confusion that, you know, and I don't

667
00:40:52.160 --> 00:40:56.520
even know if it's right to say that I don't want to know, but that's just where, kind

668
00:40:56.520 --> 00:41:02.920
of where I have been in like the past few years of this, like not dating and stuff.

669
00:41:02.920 --> 00:41:06.040
So yeah, that was my little thing.

670
00:41:06.040 --> 00:41:12.760
So, and you know what, that's such a real issue that a lot of people struggle with is

671
00:41:12.760 --> 00:41:13.760
like, who is it?

672
00:41:13.760 --> 00:41:14.760
When is it?

673
00:41:14.760 --> 00:41:15.760
When are, when is it going to be?

674
00:41:15.760 --> 00:41:16.760
Is it this person?

675
00:41:16.760 --> 00:41:17.760
Is it that person?

676
00:41:17.760 --> 00:41:20.760
And so really love that you're saying, I'm just, you know, God saying, Hey, surrender

677
00:41:20.760 --> 00:41:24.560
all these questions and concerns to me.

678
00:41:24.560 --> 00:41:25.560
I do.

679
00:41:25.560 --> 00:41:28.640
I think something like I really related to when you said I had been in relationships

680
00:41:28.640 --> 00:41:29.800
since high school.

681
00:41:29.800 --> 00:41:33.480
That's how, that was my story before I always had a boyfriend, you know, I never knew how

682
00:41:33.480 --> 00:41:39.640
to be by myself until then God, that last time after I dated the girl's dad, I just

683
00:41:39.640 --> 00:41:43.640
took a break for a couple of years and I, I wasn't someone, I didn't put myself in the

684
00:41:43.640 --> 00:41:44.640
waiting room.

685
00:41:44.640 --> 00:41:46.320
I really knew that I needed a break.

686
00:41:46.320 --> 00:41:54.000
I needed to find out who I was because y'all, the more that we are whole and healed, the

687
00:41:54.000 --> 00:42:00.280
more we will be able to tell if someone else is healthy and whole when we meet them.

688
00:42:00.280 --> 00:42:03.440
And I do believe like Jackie, we've talked about this in our community.

689
00:42:03.440 --> 00:42:09.840
I prayed a lot, God, thank you for helping me to recognize my spirit mate and for my

690
00:42:09.840 --> 00:42:11.920
spirit mate to recognize me.

691
00:42:11.920 --> 00:42:16.080
Like I just prayed that and I just released that and I didn't stress about it.

692
00:42:16.080 --> 00:42:17.080
Like how I used to.

693
00:42:17.080 --> 00:42:21.120
So I do want to encourage you to Lisa, I think you're onto a really good path.

694
00:42:21.120 --> 00:42:23.960
It sounds like you're continuing to surrender this.

695
00:42:23.960 --> 00:42:29.240
And even, um, it sounds like, you know, God is already restoring your ability to know

696
00:42:29.240 --> 00:42:31.840
if you hear him and to trust yourself.

697
00:42:31.840 --> 00:42:37.160
I mean, you just said, God said this to me and I started praying into this.

698
00:42:37.160 --> 00:42:41.680
So I want to encourage you like that is something God's already renewing and I believe he will

699
00:42:41.680 --> 00:42:43.740
continue to show you that.

700
00:42:43.740 --> 00:42:47.160
One of the things, this is totally unrelated, but just so y'all, I think I've told you guys

701
00:42:47.160 --> 00:42:52.880
this before, but we do not ever, when we do prophetic ministry nights, we never props

702
00:42:52.880 --> 00:42:57.200
prophesied dates, mates and babies y'all.

703
00:42:57.200 --> 00:43:03.020
We don't, because those are just things that you really need to be careful about.

704
00:43:03.020 --> 00:43:08.900
And there are people that, you know, have gotten prophecies by people in their churches

705
00:43:08.900 --> 00:43:12.960
and stuff that, you know, about a name of a person they, and then they've been stuck

706
00:43:12.960 --> 00:43:18.120
for 20 years, not dating people because they don't have the name of that person.

707
00:43:18.120 --> 00:43:19.120
Okay.

708
00:43:19.120 --> 00:43:23.040
So really want to encourage you all just, it doesn't mean you can't learn how to trust

709
00:43:23.040 --> 00:43:25.440
yourself, but just be cautious of that kind of stuff.

710
00:43:25.440 --> 00:43:29.960
Um, you know, sometimes the enemy will try to insert those things into our minds to get

711
00:43:29.960 --> 00:43:33.560
us stuck on something so that we don't move forward as well.

712
00:43:33.560 --> 00:43:38.600
But I love that you're learning how to trust yourself and hear God, and you will continue

713
00:43:38.600 --> 00:43:42.160
to grow in that staying accountable and community and reading the word of God are going to be

714
00:43:42.160 --> 00:43:43.160
key.

715
00:43:43.160 --> 00:43:44.160
Y'all.

716
00:43:44.160 --> 00:43:51.680
The word of God is how you're going to learn the voice of God even greater than hearing

717
00:43:51.680 --> 00:43:52.680
sermons preached.

718
00:43:52.680 --> 00:43:57.680
Do y'all know that reading the word of God is the greatest way to learn the voice of

719
00:43:57.680 --> 00:43:58.680
God.

720
00:43:58.680 --> 00:43:59.680
Sermons are great too.

721
00:43:59.680 --> 00:44:00.680
Obviously.

722
00:44:00.680 --> 00:44:01.680
I believe in hearing sermons.

723
00:44:01.680 --> 00:44:02.680
I love the word of God.

724
00:44:02.680 --> 00:44:08.400
My husband preaches, but learning it through the word is the most important thing you can

725
00:44:08.400 --> 00:44:09.400
do.

726
00:44:09.400 --> 00:44:10.400
Okay.

727
00:44:10.400 --> 00:44:11.400
All right.

728
00:44:11.640 --> 00:44:12.640
All right.

729
00:44:12.640 --> 00:44:13.640
Let's go.

730
00:44:13.640 --> 00:44:14.640
Hi.

731
00:44:14.640 --> 00:44:15.640
Hi.

732
00:44:15.640 --> 00:44:25.640
Um, so before we even started tonight, I was doing some hard work and, um, I finished up

733
00:44:25.640 --> 00:44:29.040
and then I was like, oh, I need to jump in on the zoom and I was like, oh, I need to

734
00:44:29.040 --> 00:44:30.040
do that.

735
00:44:30.040 --> 00:44:31.040
Uh, permission slip tonight.

736
00:44:31.040 --> 00:44:36.040
So the Lord was definitely on this for me.

737
00:44:36.040 --> 00:44:43.320
Um, but the thing that the Lord's like highlighting that I need to surrender, there's a few things,

738
00:44:43.320 --> 00:44:50.080
but the main thing which encompasses, which I think encompasses all of the things is,

739
00:44:50.080 --> 00:44:56.320
um, just my struggle with not truly governing my life.

740
00:44:56.320 --> 00:44:59.800
Um, like my life, not really being mine to control.

741
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.200
understanding that I am not my own and I've always had a problem with this like

742
00:45:04.200 --> 00:45:07.840
I used to get there's certain worship songs that I would not sing because I'm

743
00:45:07.840 --> 00:45:12.400
like this is I would be mad like I know it's the truth and I know the Lord's

744
00:45:12.400 --> 00:45:17.240
ways are far better than my ways but why can't I be the one to perfectly guide

745
00:45:17.240 --> 00:45:23.960
and control why can't my decision be the perfect one to make sure my life goes

746
00:45:23.960 --> 00:45:29.600
the way that I think it will and I know some of it is what was said earlier

747
00:45:29.600 --> 00:45:34.880
about things not working out and there's like this sense of well I'm

748
00:45:34.880 --> 00:45:39.680
gonna be disappointed if I just if I let him if I let the Lord control all the

749
00:45:39.680 --> 00:45:45.080
things then I then it's not gonna be as good as I think it will and I'm gonna be

750
00:45:45.080 --> 00:45:51.200
disappointed and so that is what the Lord has highlighted and like it is one

751
00:45:51.200 --> 00:45:55.080
of those things where it's like well I know that's a lie but also there's still

752
00:45:55.080 --> 00:46:00.360
a level of unbelief that I'm walking in because this is still something that I

753
00:46:00.360 --> 00:46:07.560
continuously struggle with. Yeah so here's my question for you is um you know if we are

754
00:46:07.560 --> 00:46:14.040
in a place of if I believe the Lord if I let the Lord choose I'm going to be

755
00:46:14.040 --> 00:46:18.160
disappointed I'm gonna end up disappointed so typically that comes

756
00:46:18.160 --> 00:46:24.520
from being disappointed by our parents or someone that was making decisions for

757
00:46:24.520 --> 00:46:30.160
us that actually we felt brought us some kind of harm or let down or they

758
00:46:30.160 --> 00:46:35.200
didn't follow through on their word or you know the other flip side of that is

759
00:46:35.200 --> 00:46:39.960
you were saying also that you really struggle to let go of control and so

760
00:46:39.960 --> 00:46:48.480
that that is a defense mechanism you know so if I let go of control this is

761
00:46:48.480 --> 00:46:53.160
going to be bad for me so I would encourage you or anyone else that is in

762
00:46:53.160 --> 00:46:56.920
those kind of places where that stuff is being revealed is always asking the

763
00:46:56.920 --> 00:47:03.600
Lord you know where did this start for me that I felt disappointed when I let

764
00:47:03.600 --> 00:47:11.920
someone else choose for me. I mean I know for me it was my childhood with both my

765
00:47:11.920 --> 00:47:19.320
parents they're just how they parented and I know now what I didn't then is

766
00:47:19.320 --> 00:47:24.840
that they didn't know what they were doing but that doesn't affect me that

767
00:47:24.840 --> 00:47:31.000
doesn't change the effect that it's had on me so I know where it comes from.

768
00:47:31.000 --> 00:47:37.360
Yeah so um so I will encourage you are what week are you in Ariel just so that

769
00:47:37.360 --> 00:47:45.920
I know? I'm at the very beginning of week five. Okay so if you remember one of the

770
00:47:45.920 --> 00:47:52.120
things that I always encourage you all to do is just to really um even if we

771
00:47:52.120 --> 00:47:56.200
know where it comes from and we've worked on that just to revisit it and

772
00:47:56.200 --> 00:47:59.640
just ask the Lord is there any other piece that you want me to see that I

773
00:47:59.640 --> 00:48:03.560
didn't see last week and it doesn't mean you have to go back all the way through

774
00:48:03.560 --> 00:48:07.800
that stuff but there might just be some lingering effects when y'all were in the

775
00:48:07.800 --> 00:48:12.280
breakout room that was one of the things I was praying over is um there was a

776
00:48:12.280 --> 00:48:15.960
scripture I read and it really stood out to me to it was about forgiving and

777
00:48:15.960 --> 00:48:22.120
like that there wouldn't be any remnant left of unforgiveness in us and uh so

778
00:48:22.120 --> 00:48:25.000
that just really stands out for whatever reason right now and it doesn't mean

779
00:48:25.000 --> 00:48:29.320
that I think that there is but I just felt led to circle back to that scripture

780
00:48:29.320 --> 00:48:36.040
um so good thank you for sharing appreciate it and uh keep letting go of

781
00:48:36.040 --> 00:48:40.600
that control and just keep surrendering it will help it really will you all will

782
00:48:40.600 --> 00:48:46.040
start to experience change you know it will get easier over time it will all

783
00:48:46.040 --> 00:48:52.920
right let's see uh is it Naysha or Nasha how do I say your name

784
00:48:54.040 --> 00:49:04.440
Naysha Naysha okay um so I know earlier um at the

785
00:49:04.520 --> 00:49:14.040
my time 12 p.m heart check-in um I shared um about my home church and just some pain

786
00:49:14.040 --> 00:49:20.440
that I have experienced there and I wanted to surrender that um to God and I noticed

787
00:49:20.440 --> 00:49:27.240
like most of the pain that I have experienced is not being able to move in the

788
00:49:27.800 --> 00:49:34.680
giftings God has given me um or and just not being trusted in them and them being questioned

789
00:49:35.640 --> 00:49:45.000
and um I know this past Sunday I experienced some pain um from my home church and just now

790
00:49:45.000 --> 00:49:51.960
while everyone else was talking I realized that it's a lot of just the rejection of it um and it

791
00:49:51.960 --> 00:49:59.880
might even stem just from childhood as well just me wanting to be me and use what

792
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:04.040
God has given me, and they're either being jealousy

793
00:50:04.040 --> 00:50:06.560
or just some type of rejection along with it.

794
00:50:07.720 --> 00:50:12.200
So I noticed like, whenever I'm questioned about it

795
00:50:12.200 --> 00:50:15.600
or there's some type of rejection, I do get down a bit

796
00:50:15.600 --> 00:50:19.520
because I did get a little sad yesterday.

797
00:50:19.520 --> 00:50:21.800
I feel really like it's super important.

798
00:50:21.800 --> 00:50:24.920
God is telling me to ask you, what are your giftings?

799
00:50:24.920 --> 00:50:28.140
I feel like you need to voice them tonight in a safe place.

800
00:50:31.000 --> 00:50:33.800
And I want you to know that we're gonna fully accept you

801
00:50:33.800 --> 00:50:36.380
and we're gonna celebrate you.

802
00:50:37.800 --> 00:50:40.080
You don't have to operate in the gift,

803
00:50:40.080 --> 00:50:43.740
just share with us what the gift is, yeah.

804
00:50:50.280 --> 00:50:51.440
It's hard.

805
00:50:51.440 --> 00:50:52.560
It's okay.

806
00:50:52.560 --> 00:50:53.400
It's hard.

807
00:50:54.800 --> 00:50:56.960
So this is where, it's okay if you're not ready

808
00:50:56.960 --> 00:51:00.120
to do it yet, but when you're ready this week,

809
00:51:00.120 --> 00:51:01.960
I would encourage you to do a post

810
00:51:01.960 --> 00:51:04.800
and just celebrate your own self a little bit.

811
00:51:04.800 --> 00:51:06.840
Because ladies, here's what's so important.

812
00:51:06.840 --> 00:51:09.400
And this is where she's, if I don't wanna push her

813
00:51:09.400 --> 00:51:11.600
because it could cause trauma.

814
00:51:11.600 --> 00:51:14.720
So as soon as I see that that's really that hard for her

815
00:51:14.720 --> 00:51:17.920
to go into that, I'm gonna encourage her to do that

816
00:51:17.920 --> 00:51:19.120
when she's ready, okay?

817
00:51:19.120 --> 00:51:20.840
So you don't have to do that right now,

818
00:51:20.840 --> 00:51:24.200
but I just, I asked because I needed to know

819
00:51:24.200 --> 00:51:26.960
if you really could publicly acknowledge it or not,

820
00:51:28.000 --> 00:51:31.760
because that shows me how deep the wound is, okay?

821
00:51:31.760 --> 00:51:34.400
So ladies, when we have wounds like this,

822
00:51:34.400 --> 00:51:39.400
where I'm gonna even call it an identity crisis

823
00:51:40.200 --> 00:51:43.800
a little bit, because somewhere along the way,

824
00:51:43.800 --> 00:51:46.460
we kind of touched on this this afternoon a little bit.

825
00:51:46.460 --> 00:51:49.120
Someone else shared about something totally different.

826
00:51:50.300 --> 00:51:52.280
She was different than all of her family.

827
00:51:52.280 --> 00:51:53.880
And I don't know if Caitlin's here tonight,

828
00:51:54.560 --> 00:51:57.000
but she was different than the way her family was.

829
00:51:57.000 --> 00:51:59.560
And so she started hate,

830
00:51:59.560 --> 00:52:01.400
like she actually verbalized this afternoon

831
00:52:01.400 --> 00:52:04.440
that she hates that quality about herself.

832
00:52:04.440 --> 00:52:07.040
But that's actually a gift that God gave

833
00:52:07.040 --> 00:52:08.640
to her and her family.

834
00:52:08.640 --> 00:52:10.480
He created her different.

835
00:52:10.480 --> 00:52:15.480
And so Naisha, God put these gifts in you for a purpose

836
00:52:17.080 --> 00:52:19.240
and they're beautiful and amazing.

837
00:52:19.240 --> 00:52:22.280
And whether or not your church or the people in your life

838
00:52:22.280 --> 00:52:26.400
currently know how to handle them and honor that in you,

839
00:52:26.400 --> 00:52:30.160
or even to a steward that gift in you really well,

840
00:52:31.640 --> 00:52:35.320
that doesn't mean that those aren't real, okay?

841
00:52:37.400 --> 00:52:39.040
And so when you're ready this week,

842
00:52:39.040 --> 00:52:42.000
I just wanna encourage you to pray about this.

843
00:52:42.000 --> 00:52:43.960
It can be next week, if you're not ready this week,

844
00:52:43.960 --> 00:52:47.120
it's when you have the courage and the grace,

845
00:52:47.120 --> 00:52:49.160
but I do feel like it's super important for you

846
00:52:49.160 --> 00:52:52.120
to begin to voice who you are.

847
00:52:52.960 --> 00:52:56.040
And I'm gonna pray for you before we move on to just real

848
00:52:56.040 --> 00:52:57.200
quick, I'll say short prayer.

849
00:52:57.200 --> 00:52:58.680
Father, thank you for Naisha.

850
00:52:58.680 --> 00:53:00.600
Thank you God for the gifts and the abilities

851
00:53:00.600 --> 00:53:01.960
that you've placed in her.

852
00:53:02.920 --> 00:53:05.400
God, I thank you that you'll help her to continue

853
00:53:05.400 --> 00:53:07.560
to come out of hiding where people have harmed her

854
00:53:07.560 --> 00:53:09.480
through their words, through their actions.

855
00:53:09.480 --> 00:53:13.080
They've minimized her, they've questioned her.

856
00:53:13.080 --> 00:53:15.720
I'm even hearing the word ridiculed.

857
00:53:15.720 --> 00:53:17.840
God, I thank you that you'll help her to come out

858
00:53:17.840 --> 00:53:20.360
of hiding where people have harmed her through their words,

859
00:53:20.640 --> 00:53:24.240
ridiculed, Lord, I thank you that you'll help her

860
00:53:24.240 --> 00:53:28.400
just to not shrink down, but to open up

861
00:53:28.400 --> 00:53:31.800
and to begin to flourish into who you've created her to be.

862
00:53:31.800 --> 00:53:35.000
And I pray Lord that you'll guide her to,

863
00:53:36.280 --> 00:53:39.200
whether it's a different group or a different church

864
00:53:39.200 --> 00:53:43.520
where she can thrive, where she can be trained up

865
00:53:43.520 --> 00:53:45.720
in these giftings and that they would be honored

866
00:53:45.720 --> 00:53:48.160
in a really safe way.

867
00:53:48.160 --> 00:53:49.680
And I just thank you God that you would guard

868
00:53:50.160 --> 00:53:52.120
and keep watch over her and ask you to heal

869
00:53:52.120 --> 00:53:54.280
every wound of rejection that's been created

870
00:53:54.280 --> 00:53:58.120
in Jesus name, amen, amen.

871
00:53:58.120 --> 00:54:01.800
Y'all, anybody that's ever experienced that on any level,

872
00:54:01.800 --> 00:54:05.720
I just, in Jesus name, those prayers are for you as well.

873
00:54:05.720 --> 00:54:08.760
Okay, y'all can receive anything that's a word given

874
00:54:08.760 --> 00:54:11.480
to anybody else, if that's resonating in your spirit,

875
00:54:11.480 --> 00:54:14.120
even last night as people were praying over Sarah

876
00:54:14.120 --> 00:54:16.960
and myself and giving us words, y'all know that you can,

877
00:54:16.960 --> 00:54:19.360
if something's really speaking to you, you can say,

878
00:54:20.040 --> 00:54:20.880
you're not taking that word from us

879
00:54:20.880 --> 00:54:22.080
because it's ours too.

880
00:54:22.080 --> 00:54:26.200
You can just say, man, I received that for myself as well.

881
00:54:26.200 --> 00:54:29.400
Okay, all right, Natasha, go ahead.

882
00:54:33.920 --> 00:54:36.560
Thank you, yes, I just wanted to briefly share

883
00:54:36.560 --> 00:54:40.560
that when you were talking about an attitude of pride

884
00:54:40.560 --> 00:54:45.560
and thinking that you already know your identity,

885
00:54:46.840 --> 00:54:48.360
who you are in Christ very well,

886
00:54:48.400 --> 00:54:50.200
that just really, really spoke to me.

887
00:54:50.200 --> 00:54:52.880
And I just felt like I needed to release that attitude

888
00:54:54.040 --> 00:54:56.480
of pride and ask the Lord for grace

889
00:54:56.480 --> 00:55:00.080
to have deeper, deeper, you know,

890
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:07.780
much deeper insights on who I am in the Lord because like you said, none of us can probably

891
00:55:07.780 --> 00:55:15.580
in this life fully walk in the truth of our identity or be satisfied that we are have

892
00:55:15.580 --> 00:55:20.580
received the full revelation of our identity. So I just wanted to share that.

893
00:55:20.580 --> 00:55:25.980
Thank you. Thank you for your courage. I love that. Y'all anybody else struggling with that

894
00:55:25.980 --> 00:55:30.180
I encourage you just to jump right into that. You don't even have to go live just right

895
00:55:30.180 --> 00:55:35.460
now. Father, I just come out of agreement with pride and pretending that I have it all

896
00:55:35.460 --> 00:55:42.060
together that I know everything about who I was created to be. And I just come into

897
00:55:42.060 --> 00:55:48.940
a full fresh understanding of your who I am and you my identity in Christ that I'll come

898
00:55:48.940 --> 00:55:56.740
out of any insecurity, fear, unbelief, and come into unity with you in Jesus name, y'all,

899
00:55:56.740 --> 00:56:02.180
it can be that, you know, we just, it's those moments where we just pause and, and we just

900
00:56:02.180 --> 00:56:07.020
say like how she just went after it was something I said just in passing and, and that that

901
00:56:07.020 --> 00:56:11.860
spoke into her spirit. And she's like, I'm going to come out of agreement with that.

902
00:56:12.020 --> 00:56:14.820
That's how we do it. So good. Erica, go ahead.

903
00:56:17.980 --> 00:56:21.940
Bethany, I hope you had a great with yesterday. I did. Thank you.

904
00:56:23.980 --> 00:56:31.780
I shared two things in our group. The first one is body image has just been one of those

905
00:56:31.780 --> 00:56:37.220
things that has stuck around for a really, really, really long time. And I think, you

906
00:56:37.220 --> 00:56:42.100
know, I've chosen to be single now for almost four years, because I really wanted to work

907
00:56:42.100 --> 00:56:50.900
on myself. But one thing that goes through my mind is, well, maybe I've been single because

908
00:56:50.900 --> 00:57:02.980
no one has wanted me. But yet, I really haven't put myself out there. And I think it's because

909
00:57:02.980 --> 00:57:11.460
I really do struggle with just feeling so inadequate body wise. And the other thing

910
00:57:12.980 --> 00:57:19.060
that I shared was that I really do feel like I'm supposed to go into this completely, I'm a

911
00:57:19.060 --> 00:57:25.940
nurse. And so there's like a million choices of nurses. And I've really felt led to pursue this

912
00:57:26.340 --> 00:57:33.940
completely different area of nursing, which really feels so out of reach, because it's just

913
00:57:33.940 --> 00:57:40.820
like a super high level of nursing. But I feel like the Lord is guiding me in that direction.

914
00:57:40.820 --> 00:57:45.300
But yet, every single day, so I have to get a certification. Every single day I sit down to

915
00:57:45.300 --> 00:57:51.380
study, I just hear this message of like, you're never going to get this. You're never going to

916
00:57:51.380 --> 00:57:57.140
understand all of that. And now that I say that out loud, it sounds like an attack from the enemy,

917
00:57:57.140 --> 00:58:06.420
right? But yet, that can be such a clear message that I hear instead of the opposite message,

918
00:58:07.140 --> 00:58:11.700
which I think is from the Lord of telling me to go for it.

919
00:58:12.740 --> 00:58:21.060
Okay, so I love this. Do you know that the enemy is never going to encourage you to move forward

920
00:58:21.060 --> 00:58:28.900
in your life in any capacity? So it doesn't mean that every time we feel led to move forward,

921
00:58:28.900 --> 00:58:32.340
I think that there's a, you know, I will always tell you all balance is key. Okay.

922
00:58:33.140 --> 00:58:39.060
So if our heart, I don't think this is why you're pursuing it, but if our heart is pursuing more

923
00:58:39.060 --> 00:58:43.380
knowledge to get another degree, to have another label behind her name, because we're getting our

924
00:58:43.380 --> 00:58:50.100
identity out of a label or, you know, a title, that's one thing, but it sounds like.

925
00:58:50.980 --> 00:58:58.420
God is calling you into something greater so that you leave behind the lies of what you cannot

926
00:58:58.420 --> 00:59:04.580
accomplish, but he might also have a higher purpose for you in that higher role. Like

927
00:59:04.580 --> 00:59:09.380
I actually am hearing the word influence. I feel like God is leading you into that

928
00:59:10.100 --> 00:59:14.340
so that you can be an influence. And I don't even know what all that role can influence,

929
00:59:14.340 --> 00:59:20.660
but that's what I'm hearing. And so I would encourage you to, when, when you hear things

930
00:59:20.660 --> 00:59:25.220
like you're never going to get this or any other kind of lie, again, those border bullies,

931
00:59:25.780 --> 00:59:30.900
this is another example. Anytime you're trying to move into something greater, even the heart

932
00:59:30.900 --> 00:59:36.980
healing, a greater revelation, a greater, you know, advancement so that you can, you know,

933
00:59:37.620 --> 00:59:42.900
be the influence that God is calling you to be. The enemy does not want you to enter that land.

934
00:59:42.900 --> 00:59:46.820
He doesn't want you to enter the land with milk and honey. So he's going to always try to keep

935
00:59:46.820 --> 00:59:51.620
you in the place where you were now, again, that balance is key. So just continue to ask

936
00:59:51.620 --> 00:59:58.260
the Holy spirit, but here's the thing you can start moving towards that. And guess what you

937
00:59:58.260 --> 00:59:59.860
all ladies, guess what?

938
01:00:00.400 --> 01:00:08.480
Even if we make a wrong step, guess what? God is big enough to redirect us onto the right path.

939
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Okay. So I would encourage you to start, you know, moving towards that. I would wait until

940
01:00:13.280 --> 01:00:17.600
you're finished with heartwork because, you know, we really encourage people to not make any big

941
01:00:17.600 --> 01:00:22.080
movements while they're in heartwork because you want to kind of make sure it's not just because

942
01:00:22.080 --> 01:00:26.800
your heart's getting so stirred up that you're mishearing. Um, but just start looking into the

943
01:00:26.800 --> 01:00:31.440
program, start praying about it during this time. Just don't get distracted. Cause you know,

944
01:00:31.440 --> 01:00:35.440
you want to finish out your heartwork really well. And then on the body image stuff, I also

945
01:00:35.440 --> 01:00:46.000
want to just say, um, years ago, um, I didn't even know I was doing it, you all, but I was eating,

946
01:00:46.000 --> 01:00:54.080
um, to hide my body. I'm not saying that's the case for you, but I remember, um, I was leaving

947
01:00:54.080 --> 01:00:58.560
work one day and these guys, I went to walk across the street and these guys that were not healthy

948
01:00:58.560 --> 01:01:02.880
guys, not all guys are like this. I want to preface this. Okay. We're not getting on the

949
01:01:02.880 --> 01:01:09.120
bash guys bandwagon, but I just, this is an example. Um, they were cat calling me kind of,

950
01:01:09.120 --> 01:01:14.160
and saying like yelling out the window and all this stuff. And I immediately just felt like,

951
01:01:14.160 --> 01:01:20.160
oh, like if I didn't look attractive, this wouldn't happen. That was the lie that came

952
01:01:20.160 --> 01:01:28.000
in my mind so fast. And I can remember after that happened, just really struggling with

953
01:01:28.000 --> 01:01:34.160
turning to food every time I felt nervous or overwhelmed and just really battling all that

954
01:01:34.160 --> 01:01:41.680
again. And so the last few years I've really learned how to give all of that to the Lord.

955
01:01:44.000 --> 01:01:46.720
I'm going to go this, I'm going to go a step further. It's not

956
01:01:47.440 --> 01:01:51.520
on me. It's not my responsibility to make someone not sin.

957
01:01:53.200 --> 01:01:58.800
Okay. Years ago in the church I was in, they didn't believe that you could wear a bikini,

958
01:01:59.440 --> 01:02:03.680
you know, you had to have every ounce of yourself covered up and I'm not knocking that y'all.

959
01:02:04.400 --> 01:02:08.640
I mean, I saw, I live by the beach now and I've seen more butts than I ever wanted to see.

960
01:02:09.200 --> 01:02:16.800
You know, that's just the way the society is now. But, but the flip side of that is that

961
01:02:17.680 --> 01:02:21.680
I felt like I couldn't even go to the beach or I would cause people to sin.

962
01:02:23.280 --> 01:02:29.280
And it, it really fed into all of my body insecurities that were already there and

963
01:02:29.280 --> 01:02:35.200
religion fed that the spirit of religion, not people got, the enemy was using people,

964
01:02:35.840 --> 01:02:39.600
but I just want to encourage you to ask the Lord, like, you know, where,

965
01:02:39.600 --> 01:02:44.880
where is this really stemming from? Is it, you know, am I not moving forward on,

966
01:02:44.880 --> 01:02:52.240
on the health things because I am hiding to some degree? And if so, Lord, why am I hiding?

967
01:02:53.360 --> 01:02:56.800
You know, and just really, it doesn't have to be a striving thing, but just,

968
01:02:56.800 --> 01:03:02.880
you know, lean into that with the Lord. You know, you said I chose to be single for four years

969
01:03:02.880 --> 01:03:10.320
and I believed no one would want me. So those, those thoughts and those beliefs came from

970
01:03:10.320 --> 01:03:15.680
somewhere along your path. So asking the Lord to reveal the beginning of those

971
01:03:15.680 --> 01:03:21.920
is going to be key for you too. And you know, what's really great. I literally,

972
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I just told a friend this one of my prayers on my Jesus cares board. You all, I wish I had my

973
01:03:27.120 --> 01:03:32.480
board to show you right now for a couple of years I had on my board that I wanted to go to the beach

974
01:03:32.480 --> 01:03:39.040
and feel completely free in my bathing suit. And you all, I just had like a moment just recently

975
01:03:39.040 --> 01:03:42.880
in the last few weeks where I was just like, Oh my gosh, like I was at the beach

976
01:03:43.840 --> 01:03:50.320
and I didn't feel insecure one time. I didn't feel like people were staring at me. I didn't

977
01:03:50.320 --> 01:03:55.840
worry. I didn't have all this weird stuff going on in my mind. Like I just was completely at

978
01:03:55.840 --> 01:04:01.120
peace. And it never like that stuff, that old stuff never even crossed my mind.

979
01:04:01.840 --> 01:04:08.960
And it was just like, it was like a breath of fresh air. And so Jesus cares board, you all,

980
01:04:08.960 --> 01:04:14.640
it's a real thing. Put these kinds of things on your Jesus cares board. Like Jesus does care

981
01:04:15.520 --> 01:04:21.840
about these kinds of things. He doesn't want us to feel like we can't go somewhere

982
01:04:21.840 --> 01:04:28.560
in public and wear a tank top or wear shorts or whatever the body image issue is. Some of you all

983
01:04:28.560 --> 01:04:35.920
don't like your face, which y'all are beautiful. So whatever it is, I know that some of like,

984
01:04:35.920 --> 01:04:40.080
that sounds funny to some of y'all, but I hear so many things you wouldn't believe. Like people

985
01:04:40.080 --> 01:04:46.560
just don't like themselves. And so that's not necessarily you Erica, but just that, that came

986
01:04:46.560 --> 01:04:51.520
up as I was explaining that. Appreciate you sharing Kelly, go ahead. And then I'm going to

987
01:04:51.520 --> 01:04:59.360
go into our next content after Kelly. Okay. So I.

988
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Let's see real quickly went through a breakup in January and I've still

989
01:05:06.560 --> 01:05:08.160
been really struggling with that.

990
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Um, I'm 51 and I was overseas as a missionary throughout my thirties.

991
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And when I moved back here to Albuquerque, I dated one Christian

992
01:05:20.000 --> 01:05:21.200
man before I went to the field.

993
01:05:21.980 --> 01:05:25.760
And then when I came back here, I've dated about foreman in the

994
01:05:26.400 --> 01:05:27.640
12 years that I've been back.

995
01:05:28.400 --> 01:05:31.880
And the most recent one, I really felt like I was going to marry him

996
01:05:31.880 --> 01:05:33.040
and I felt peace about that.

997
01:05:33.040 --> 01:05:34.240
And I've never had that happen.

998
01:05:34.280 --> 01:05:36.680
I've always been real like, no, no.

999
01:05:37.820 --> 01:05:39.560
And I felt so much peace.

1000
01:05:39.840 --> 01:05:43.680
And, um, so it's been very, very difficult, this breakup.

1001
01:05:44.120 --> 01:05:47.720
And it's equally hard because we both go to the same church.

1002
01:05:47.740 --> 01:05:53.440
One of his sons serves at my church, um, works at my church with me on staff.

1003
01:05:53.960 --> 01:05:58.080
His dad, the guy I dated served has served there for years.

1004
01:05:58.120 --> 01:06:02.160
He's been divorced for two years and separated for three and

1005
01:06:02.160 --> 01:06:03.840
they attended there as a couple.

1006
01:06:03.840 --> 01:06:08.040
And he's very involved on one of their safety teams.

1007
01:06:08.920 --> 01:06:13.480
And so I, um, as I've been going through the heart work and even

1008
01:06:13.480 --> 01:06:17.840
prior to the heart work, learning some stuff about attachment, I've really

1009
01:06:17.840 --> 01:06:22.800
started to realize some things about myself and add some big

1010
01:06:22.800 --> 01:06:28.200
breakthroughs in the past, maybe two to three weeks, but in the course

1011
01:06:28.200 --> 01:06:35.360
of that, it's also made me become aware of the things that I did that

1012
01:06:35.360 --> 01:06:37.160
were unhealthy in the relationship.

1013
01:06:38.200 --> 01:06:44.360
And then the enemy partnered with my hormones fluctuating because of

1014
01:06:44.680 --> 01:06:52.960
perimenopause has just swooped in so hard with shame and fear that I will

1015
01:06:52.960 --> 01:06:59.040
never meet anybody else and feeling anxious to go to church, which, you

1016
01:06:59.040 --> 01:07:00.960
know, usually that's your safe place.

1017
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And I feel, um, scared that I'll run into him or see some of

1018
01:07:07.640 --> 01:07:11.000
his friends who it's uncomfortable.

1019
01:07:12.000 --> 01:07:18.000
And so these past two weekends have been so unbelievably dark.

1020
01:07:18.200 --> 01:07:25.960
I can't even explain the level of like, I'm not suicidal, but a deep, like

1021
01:07:26.480 --> 01:07:30.120
I've gone through one deep depression, another time in my life, and I feel

1022
01:07:30.120 --> 01:07:37.200
like it's approaching that and it's very scary and, um, but it's coupled

1023
01:07:37.880 --> 01:07:44.200
with these moments of like major breakthroughs of understanding how I

1024
01:07:44.200 --> 01:07:46.520
would be at this place and stuff like that.

1025
01:07:46.520 --> 01:07:53.160
And so when you are asking, um, what asking the Lord to reveal the broken

1026
01:07:53.160 --> 01:07:58.600
places that I need to covenant with him or covenant to release those to him.

1027
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I feel like this is a big one.

1028
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Um, because I don't, now I'm seeing like kind of a pattern and I

1029
01:08:08.600 --> 01:08:10.040
don't really know how to fix it.

1030
01:08:10.120 --> 01:08:11.560
It's like clear now.

1031
01:08:12.200 --> 01:08:17.120
And one thing I know is that, um, and I've heard this over the last, maybe

1032
01:08:17.120 --> 01:08:22.040
six years, um, you left your first love.

1033
01:08:22.600 --> 01:08:27.479
And I, and I keep saying like, well, do the things you did at first.

1034
01:08:27.479 --> 01:08:29.080
Like I'm doing the things Lord.

1035
01:08:29.560 --> 01:08:35.640
And one thing I've realized is that I think I've less left my first love

1036
01:08:35.640 --> 01:08:37.720
because of some real big disappointments.

1037
01:08:38.439 --> 01:08:42.319
And one of those has to do with, um, losing my niece and nephew, but

1038
01:08:42.319 --> 01:08:46.720
another one has to do with this, like wanting to be married and have children.

1039
01:08:46.720 --> 01:08:53.120
And now I'm 51 and I feel like I delighted myself in the Lord for so long.

1040
01:08:53.319 --> 01:08:57.200
And it was very sincere and I wasn't worried about getting married.

1041
01:08:57.200 --> 01:08:58.560
I felt like there was always time.

1042
01:08:58.960 --> 01:09:03.560
And now it seems like we're up against the wall and he still hasn't answered.

1043
01:09:03.720 --> 01:09:09.000
And I feel like I have kind of lost my love because I feel really let down.

1044
01:09:09.800 --> 01:09:13.800
And so I feel like that is the stuff that I'm having to release to him.

1045
01:09:14.800 --> 01:09:19.800
To bring the healing, because I don't know how to be healed.

1046
01:09:19.960 --> 01:09:21.840
I don't know how to make it healed, you know?

1047
01:09:22.520 --> 01:09:23.000
Yeah.

1048
01:09:23.279 --> 01:09:28.520
So a couple things, um, as you were talking, I, I wrote this down.

1049
01:09:28.560 --> 01:09:34.479
As the Lord was saying it to me to tell you your mistakes, aren't too much for God.

1050
01:09:36.479 --> 01:09:42.160
I feel like despair set in the shame came in, but despair set in first.

1051
01:09:42.720 --> 01:09:47.359
Um, when you were focusing on the things that you, you said things that I did in

1052
01:09:47.359 --> 01:09:50.040
the relationship that were bad, okay.

1053
01:09:50.160 --> 01:09:52.120
That created the breakup.

1054
01:09:52.120 --> 01:09:53.880
If you, okay, here's the reality.

1055
01:09:53.880 --> 01:09:54.760
It takes two.

1056
01:09:56.000 --> 01:09:56.480
Okay.

1057
01:09:56.480 --> 01:09:59.840
Every relationship takes two people, whether that's a.

1058
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.160
romantic relationship, a family relationship. And so it's almost like

1059
01:10:05.160 --> 01:10:09.880
the enemy is trying to make you feel like it's all your fault, that thing

1060
01:10:09.880 --> 01:10:16.080
didn't work. Totally, because you mess up too big. And that's a lie. Okay,

1061
01:10:16.080 --> 01:10:20.400
that's a lie. And I'm going to venture to say that that is linking back to

1062
01:10:20.400 --> 01:10:24.840
something way back when you were younger, where you believed that you

1063
01:10:24.840 --> 01:10:30.200
messed up so big, that, you know, even God's, you know, God's grace and his

1064
01:10:30.320 --> 01:10:33.040
forgiveness couldn't cover it. And you really struggled with that at some

1065
01:10:33.040 --> 01:10:39.720
point. But I'm also this deep depression that you went into before. I really

1066
01:10:39.720 --> 01:10:44.720
want to encourage you. So the reason this is feeling so deep, again, is that

1067
01:10:44.720 --> 01:10:48.880
despair. Okay, there's a difference with you, ladies, when we go through

1068
01:10:48.880 --> 01:10:56.000
stuff, when we struggle with sadness, or despair, so despair can, you know,

1069
01:10:56.000 --> 01:11:01.080
from what I have experienced before in my life, I feel like despair and

1070
01:11:01.080 --> 01:11:05.200
depression is something I battled, but it's also something I learned, I kind

1071
01:11:05.200 --> 01:11:10.280
of alluded to this earlier, I don't know if you were on at the time. Kelly,

1072
01:11:10.280 --> 01:11:14.040
when I was sharing this earlier tonight, but I really believe that a lot, there

1073
01:11:14.040 --> 01:11:19.920
are several people in this phase one group in this program that are really

1074
01:11:19.920 --> 01:11:23.960
battling some deep depression and oppression. And one of the things I said

1075
01:11:23.960 --> 01:11:28.720
is, I don't believe it's just you and your battle with it. I believe it's also

1076
01:11:28.720 --> 01:11:33.240
a generational thing. A lot of us learned these kind of things from our

1077
01:11:33.240 --> 01:11:37.720
parents, like our parents didn't know how to process pain. And so there was a

1078
01:11:37.720 --> 01:11:43.200
lot of despair and depression. And again, these are spirits you all Okay, so we

1079
01:11:43.240 --> 01:11:48.160
have to remember that. But in Jesus Christ, all of those things can be cast

1080
01:11:48.160 --> 01:11:52.840
out that the struggle can be real, right? It's here happening in the physical as

1081
01:11:52.840 --> 01:11:58.560
well. So we feel these things. And when we partner with the feelings, and we let

1082
01:11:58.560 --> 01:12:03.560
our feelings take us in a line with the lies, that's where that's where we start

1083
01:12:03.560 --> 01:12:08.080
getting really caught up and tripped up. And so I would encourage you just to

1084
01:12:08.080 --> 01:12:13.520
kind of go back to that area where the things that you did in the relationship

1085
01:12:13.520 --> 01:12:18.280
that you know, were bad or messed it up in your mind. What is the truth that God

1086
01:12:18.280 --> 01:12:24.640
wants to bring to that? Okay, because the truth is what sets us free. Right? And

1087
01:12:24.640 --> 01:12:29.520
where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is what liberty and freedom. So we need

1088
01:12:29.520 --> 01:12:35.760
Holy Spirit to come in and fill you and literally to overflowing fill you with

1089
01:12:35.760 --> 01:12:41.640
hope and truth in life. And that is what will dispel all the darkness and all the

1090
01:12:41.640 --> 01:12:46.600
heaviness and the depression. But I do believe that you are one of the people

1091
01:12:46.600 --> 01:12:50.160
that this has been a generational thing in your family line, and God wants to

1092
01:12:50.160 --> 01:12:54.680
come in and redeem that. And that's partly why you're battling it because

1093
01:12:54.720 --> 01:12:58.360
it's something that you're actually going to change in your family line.

1094
01:12:58.920 --> 01:13:03.800
How Bethany and maybe this is something that you want to address later offline,

1095
01:13:03.840 --> 01:13:10.520
but that is completely true. My brother has severe PTSD from being a sniper in

1096
01:13:10.520 --> 01:13:17.400
the military. And he has lived with my parents now for probably 16 years

1097
01:13:18.040 --> 01:13:23.840
divorced. We lost like I said, my niece and nephew and my parents are in severe

1098
01:13:23.840 --> 01:13:27.720
despair. Like I say when that happened, it's like a grenade went off in our

1099
01:13:27.720 --> 01:13:34.680
family. Yeah. And we are all in despair, even though recently there has been a

1100
01:13:34.680 --> 01:13:38.640
little bit of glimmer of hope, because I've been going to a counselor. And he's

1101
01:13:38.640 --> 01:13:44.200
come with me a couple times, because he's such a big part of what all of this

1102
01:13:44.200 --> 01:13:51.080
stuff, you know? Yeah. So I do want you if you'll do a post in the group, I'll

1103
01:13:51.080 --> 01:13:56.960
respond on this more. But I as you were talking, I saw what I saw first is a life

1104
01:13:56.960 --> 01:14:01.680
preservers being thrown to you. But then what I saw is God was sending a rescue

1105
01:14:01.680 --> 01:14:07.160
boat. Okay, you don't got to save your family. God's gonna come with the rescue

1106
01:14:07.160 --> 01:14:10.680
boat, and he's saving them, you don't have to save them. He's throwing you the

1107
01:14:10.680 --> 01:14:14.520
lifeline, and he's pulling you out. Because you're trying you're in there,

1108
01:14:14.520 --> 01:14:18.640
you're trying to save everyone. And so that's why you feel like you're sinking,

1109
01:14:18.800 --> 01:14:23.360
but you're not. Hey, you're not and he's gonna send I just the Holy Spirit is all

1110
01:14:23.360 --> 01:14:28.320
up in this place tonight. It feels so good. I love when it's like this. He's

1111
01:14:28.320 --> 01:14:31.920
sending a lifeboat for your family, sweetie. So you don't you don't, you can

1112
01:14:31.920 --> 01:14:37.000
love them, you can bless them, but you you are not their Savior, and he's got it.

1113
01:14:37.000 --> 01:14:41.400
Okay, so you can I don't want to, I don't want to be but I feel like they're, I

1114
01:14:41.400 --> 01:14:45.120
feel like I'm hanging on to I live in the same town. And I feel like I'm

1115
01:14:45.120 --> 01:14:49.000
hanging on to the life preserver and they are pulling me because of their

1116
01:14:49.680 --> 01:14:54.480
and I, yeah, I'll post about it. And you post about it because I'll be able to

1117
01:14:54.480 --> 01:14:58.320
coach you a little bit more personally there, just because I want to go ahead

1118
01:14:58.320 --> 01:15:00.000
and move to our next content. But I do

1119
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:02.640
I think this is really important for a lot of people.

1120
01:15:04.120 --> 01:15:06.840
Sometimes whether we realize it or not,

1121
01:15:06.840 --> 01:15:08.520
and I don't know enough about your story

1122
01:15:08.520 --> 01:15:11.360
to speak into it too much,

1123
01:15:11.360 --> 01:15:14.920
but sometimes when we don't set boundaries

1124
01:15:14.920 --> 01:15:16.440
where we need to set boundaries,

1125
01:15:16.440 --> 01:15:21.320
that's partly where that comes into play,

1126
01:15:21.320 --> 01:15:23.400
where it feels like we're grabbing

1127
01:15:23.400 --> 01:15:24.960
that life preserver all the way,

1128
01:15:24.960 --> 01:15:28.600
but then we keep not setting healthy boundaries,

1129
01:15:28.600 --> 01:15:32.800
which can lead us into kind of that almost double-mindedness,

1130
01:15:32.800 --> 01:15:34.720
that feeling of back and forth.

1131
01:15:34.720 --> 01:15:37.080
And again, I would have to know more about your situation,

1132
01:15:37.080 --> 01:15:39.040
but those are just a couple of things

1133
01:15:39.040 --> 01:15:40.920
that come to mind for anyone

1134
01:15:40.920 --> 01:15:43.840
that is struggling with that back and forth feeling

1135
01:15:43.840 --> 01:15:45.760
like where you're trying to move forward,

1136
01:15:45.760 --> 01:15:49.200
but you feel like people are pulling you back, okay?

1137
01:15:49.200 --> 01:15:51.760
This other part might also help, Kelly.

1138
01:15:51.760 --> 01:15:55.960
I'm gonna be talking next, ladies, about the real you,

1139
01:15:55.960 --> 01:15:57.200
but before we do that,

1140
01:15:57.200 --> 01:15:59.000
I am gonna issue all a challenge

1141
01:15:59.000 --> 01:16:00.960
because I don't wanna lose anybody.

1142
01:16:00.960 --> 01:16:03.560
Some people might have to jump off a few minutes early.

1143
01:16:03.560 --> 01:16:04.640
This is your challenge.

1144
01:16:04.640 --> 01:16:06.600
This is your activation for this week.

1145
01:16:06.600 --> 01:16:08.960
I'm so excited for this, y'all.

1146
01:16:08.960 --> 01:16:10.920
I've been excited to bring this tonight.

1147
01:16:10.920 --> 01:16:14.480
All right, so this is your coming out of hiding challenge.

1148
01:16:14.480 --> 01:16:15.600
That's what we're calling it.

1149
01:16:15.600 --> 01:16:18.920
So for those of you that were with me weeks ago,

1150
01:16:18.920 --> 01:16:20.920
we did the go and find a garden,

1151
01:16:20.920 --> 01:16:22.840
find the place of rest and peace.

1152
01:16:22.840 --> 01:16:24.800
I forgot to give you all a challenge last week,

1153
01:16:24.800 --> 01:16:27.640
but we are gonna be doing these activations every week.

1154
01:16:27.640 --> 01:16:31.320
And what activations, the whole point of an activation

1155
01:16:31.320 --> 01:16:33.480
is to put into practice what you're learning

1156
01:16:33.480 --> 01:16:35.680
because that helps you retain it more

1157
01:16:35.680 --> 01:16:37.680
and helps you move forward, okay?

1158
01:16:37.680 --> 01:16:41.120
Coming out of hiding challenge looks and sounds like this,

1159
01:16:41.120 --> 01:16:42.520
and you can build on this.

1160
01:16:42.520 --> 01:16:44.520
I want you to ask the Holy Spirit

1161
01:16:44.520 --> 01:16:46.120
because I'm just giving you ideas,

1162
01:16:46.120 --> 01:16:49.920
but God needs to be the one to show you personally

1163
01:16:49.920 --> 01:16:52.360
what you need to do to come out of hiding, okay?

1164
01:16:53.320 --> 01:16:56.240
But example, if you guys remember all the time,

1165
01:16:56.240 --> 01:16:58.680
I'm like, hey, I wanna see you turn your cameras on.

1166
01:16:58.680 --> 01:17:00.840
So some of y'all are already doing that.

1167
01:17:00.840 --> 01:17:03.360
Great job, sometimes you can't because you're driving

1168
01:17:03.360 --> 01:17:05.480
or whatever, and that's totally fine.

1169
01:17:05.480 --> 01:17:07.720
But cameras on, when you come to lives

1170
01:17:07.720 --> 01:17:10.200
and not just our live, okay?

1171
01:17:10.200 --> 01:17:11.960
When you come to the other lives,

1172
01:17:11.960 --> 01:17:16.200
like prayer calls, Sunday night co-ed,

1173
01:17:16.200 --> 01:17:19.000
just turning your cameras on, being seen,

1174
01:17:19.000 --> 01:17:20.480
letting yourself be heard.

1175
01:17:20.520 --> 01:17:22.520
Some of y'all coming out of hiding,

1176
01:17:22.520 --> 01:17:24.920
we found some of y'all tonight using your voice.

1177
01:17:24.920 --> 01:17:28.160
That came up in today's session in the afternoon too.

1178
01:17:28.160 --> 01:17:30.480
Using your voice to speak stuff out

1179
01:17:30.480 --> 01:17:33.360
that you were told to not speak out before,

1180
01:17:33.360 --> 01:17:34.840
really, really important.

1181
01:17:34.840 --> 01:17:36.400
Okay, here's the next one.

1182
01:17:36.400 --> 01:17:39.680
Some of you all, and only do this if you're,

1183
01:17:39.680 --> 01:17:42.280
some of you don't have your real names

1184
01:17:42.280 --> 01:17:44.440
or your profile pictures on social media

1185
01:17:44.440 --> 01:17:47.240
because it's for safety reasons.

1186
01:17:47.240 --> 01:17:49.840
So I'm not speaking to those people right now,

1187
01:17:49.840 --> 01:17:52.760
but if that doesn't, if that's not you,

1188
01:17:52.760 --> 01:17:55.360
I wanna encourage you all on your social media,

1189
01:17:55.360 --> 01:17:58.600
I want you to post a picture of yourself.

1190
01:17:58.600 --> 01:18:02.280
I don't wanna see random pictures of your cats

1191
01:18:02.280 --> 01:18:06.480
on your profile pic or if you're on the app or whatever,

1192
01:18:06.480 --> 01:18:07.520
but here's the real thing.

1193
01:18:07.520 --> 01:18:09.040
Some people legit do that

1194
01:18:09.040 --> 01:18:13.400
because they don't like to see themselves, okay?

1195
01:18:13.400 --> 01:18:15.640
So people hide and they put these pictures

1196
01:18:15.640 --> 01:18:19.080
of just random stuff up, okay?

1197
01:18:19.080 --> 01:18:20.680
So that's one way.

1198
01:18:20.680 --> 01:18:22.360
Also, this is another way.

1199
01:18:23.240 --> 01:18:26.520
Some of us use pictures on our profiles

1200
01:18:26.520 --> 01:18:27.760
from like 10 years ago,

1201
01:18:27.760 --> 01:18:30.160
because that is our favorite picture of ourself.

1202
01:18:31.120 --> 01:18:34.680
I wanna encourage you to put a new picture up.

1203
01:18:34.680 --> 01:18:38.960
Present day, who you are, how you look.

1204
01:18:38.960 --> 01:18:41.920
Now, make it cute, right?

1205
01:18:41.920 --> 01:18:44.560
Make it one you like, but I'm just saying like,

1206
01:18:44.560 --> 01:18:45.960
be who you are.

1207
01:18:45.960 --> 01:18:48.520
Own where you're at right now.

1208
01:18:48.520 --> 01:18:51.080
Own where you're at, own who you are.

1209
01:18:51.080 --> 01:18:52.680
Just like I said, I had to show up

1210
01:18:52.680 --> 01:18:56.680
and learn how to go to the beach and embrace who I am.

1211
01:18:57.680 --> 01:18:59.360
We're becoming something else,

1212
01:18:59.360 --> 01:19:02.400
but right now this is who we are, all right?

1213
01:19:02.400 --> 01:19:05.520
Also, this was another one.

1214
01:19:05.520 --> 01:19:08.600
I think this is gonna be really big for a lot of you.

1215
01:19:08.600 --> 01:19:12.000
I wanna encourage you to get out of your regular routine.

1216
01:19:12.880 --> 01:19:16.720
Some of you all, you get up, you drive to work,

1217
01:19:17.560 --> 01:19:20.200
you maybe stop at the grocery store and you come home.

1218
01:19:21.360 --> 01:19:23.840
I want you to start going somewhere new.

1219
01:19:23.840 --> 01:19:26.120
I want you to add some new stops in.

1220
01:19:26.120 --> 01:19:28.120
I want you to go a different route.

1221
01:19:28.120 --> 01:19:30.400
I want you to start getting out of the normal

1222
01:19:30.400 --> 01:19:33.160
that you've been doing in your comfort zone.

1223
01:19:33.160 --> 01:19:34.960
So practice doing some new things.

1224
01:19:34.960 --> 01:19:37.760
Go, if some of y'all work from home,

1225
01:19:37.760 --> 01:19:40.000
go sit in a coffee shop.

1226
01:19:40.000 --> 01:19:42.120
Say hi to some people.

1227
01:19:42.120 --> 01:19:43.640
And here's the other one.

1228
01:19:43.680 --> 01:19:47.040
This is to build on what I just said there.

1229
01:19:47.040 --> 01:19:51.200
I want you all to practice saying hello to men and women

1230
01:19:51.200 --> 01:19:53.280
that you see when you're out and about,

1231
01:19:53.280 --> 01:19:56.480
whether that's a church, a store.

1232
01:19:56.480 --> 01:19:59.640
I want you to practice using people by their name.

1233
01:19:59.640 --> 01:20:00.480
I know that.

1234
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:03.320
Sounds like really small stuff, but y'all, it really is important.

1235
01:20:03.620 --> 01:20:07.280
You know, COVID it was already happening before COVID, but when we went through

1236
01:20:07.280 --> 01:20:12.020
COVID people withdrew, we quit having eye contact with people.

1237
01:20:12.020 --> 01:20:13.680
We quit saying people's names.

1238
01:20:13.860 --> 01:20:15.580
We don't even want people to look at us.

1239
01:20:15.580 --> 01:20:17.780
We like avoid people.

1240
01:20:18.800 --> 01:20:23.200
And in this next season, God, it wants to teach you how to reconnect.

1241
01:20:24.560 --> 01:20:29.000
If there's a guy smile, say hello.

1242
01:20:29.760 --> 01:20:33.020
You don't have to marry the guy you're just practicing saying hello.

1243
01:20:33.480 --> 01:20:33.880
Okay.

1244
01:20:34.480 --> 01:20:34.700
Okay.

1245
01:20:34.700 --> 01:20:36.260
You don't got to get his digits yet.

1246
01:20:36.280 --> 01:20:37.260
You're in heartwork.

1247
01:20:38.000 --> 01:20:42.640
So just, but for real, some of you all are like, I don't know if you're like me,

1248
01:20:42.640 --> 01:20:48.380
but I literally, because I had still so much shame back then, I didn't

1249
01:20:48.380 --> 01:20:49.940
like to look at guys in the eyes.

1250
01:20:49.940 --> 01:20:52.980
Like I would walk and I'd kind of do one of those, you know, you look up, you

1251
01:20:52.980 --> 01:20:56.740
see them, but you don't really look at them, but you kind of do anyone ever do

1252
01:20:56.760 --> 01:20:57.180
that?

1253
01:20:57.600 --> 01:20:58.380
I did that.

1254
01:20:59.660 --> 01:21:04.660
So I remember a group of us were in, um, Franklin, Tennessee from this

1255
01:21:04.660 --> 01:21:07.860
community, and we decided we were all going to practice together.

1256
01:21:08.880 --> 01:21:10.180
What if I already do that?

1257
01:21:10.260 --> 01:21:13.680
If you already do all that, Tammy, just keep practicing, keep doing it.

1258
01:21:14.280 --> 01:21:15.740
Cause maybe you'll do it differently.

1259
01:21:15.740 --> 01:21:18.100
Maybe this time you'll smile.

1260
01:21:18.640 --> 01:21:21.740
Hi, you know, just add to it.

1261
01:21:21.740 --> 01:21:23.020
You all, I'm being a little silly now.

1262
01:21:23.020 --> 01:21:23.260
Okay.

1263
01:21:23.260 --> 01:21:25.920
I better stick to my content, but that's your challenge.

1264
01:21:25.920 --> 01:21:26.800
Come out of hiding.

1265
01:21:26.800 --> 01:21:28.320
You're coming out of hiding.

1266
01:21:28.560 --> 01:21:29.480
It's going to be fun.

1267
01:21:30.540 --> 01:21:31.040
All right.

1268
01:21:31.240 --> 01:21:31.600
All right.

1269
01:21:31.600 --> 01:21:32.560
The real you.

1270
01:21:32.600 --> 01:21:36.560
So this is where we're going to go for a little bit tonight before we close.

1271
01:21:37.880 --> 01:21:43.360
I want to encourage you all to really be asking the Lord, who is the real me?

1272
01:21:43.760 --> 01:21:46.900
That you would lean more into your true identity.

1273
01:21:46.900 --> 01:21:50.000
I touched earlier on who told you that you were naked.

1274
01:21:50.000 --> 01:21:54.360
So we want to come out of these things that we were never intended to carry.

1275
01:21:54.760 --> 01:21:59.760
When I wrote down the true identity earlier tonight as well, I saw this

1276
01:21:59.760 --> 01:22:04.080
picture of, and this might be for more than one person, but I saw this

1277
01:22:04.080 --> 01:22:09.260
picture of a person under rubble, you know, like as if a building had

1278
01:22:09.260 --> 01:22:12.200
fallen down and they were under the rubble.

1279
01:22:12.560 --> 01:22:16.680
And what I saw was God was picking them up and he was dusting them off.

1280
01:22:18.040 --> 01:22:22.360
And so that's for one of you, maybe multiple of you tonight that you were

1281
01:22:22.360 --> 01:22:24.760
never meant to be under the rubble.

1282
01:22:25.720 --> 01:22:29.480
That God is picking you up and he's dusting you off and he's going to show

1283
01:22:29.480 --> 01:22:33.760
you your true identity and what that looks like, feels like he's going to

1284
01:22:33.760 --> 01:22:35.920
teach you how to walk in the new you.

1285
01:22:36.800 --> 01:22:39.840
Um, also you are a supernova.

1286
01:22:40.280 --> 01:22:40.680
Yes.

1287
01:22:40.680 --> 01:22:41.160
You.

1288
01:22:41.720 --> 01:22:42.040
Yes.

1289
01:22:42.040 --> 01:22:43.320
You Jen cabin.

1290
01:22:43.320 --> 01:22:44.160
I see you.

1291
01:22:44.560 --> 01:22:45.920
You are a supernova.

1292
01:22:45.920 --> 01:22:49.800
You are carrying something that can change the world.

1293
01:22:50.760 --> 01:22:51.680
That's for everyone.

1294
01:22:51.680 --> 01:22:53.600
But again, y'all, I try to follow the Holy spirit.

1295
01:22:53.600 --> 01:22:55.720
He said, say it to Jen, say her name.

1296
01:22:55.720 --> 01:22:56.760
She needs to hear it.

1297
01:22:57.680 --> 01:22:58.880
You are a supernova.

1298
01:22:58.920 --> 01:23:02.280
You all are carrying something that can change the world.

1299
01:23:02.440 --> 01:23:04.640
Do you have to change the whole world all at once?

1300
01:23:04.680 --> 01:23:05.960
No, you don't.

1301
01:23:06.840 --> 01:23:10.480
I can change one person at a time and another person at a time.

1302
01:23:10.480 --> 01:23:13.760
And no, and maybe one day, some of y'all will be doing something

1303
01:23:13.760 --> 01:23:14.680
just like what I'm doing.

1304
01:23:14.960 --> 01:23:18.040
Y'all years ago, someone gave me a word that I would reach the nations.

1305
01:23:18.040 --> 01:23:19.680
I remember thinking at that time.

1306
01:23:20.160 --> 01:23:21.400
What in the world?

1307
01:23:21.960 --> 01:23:23.640
I don't hardly know anybody.

1308
01:23:23.640 --> 01:23:26.800
I knew, I knew the couple people that were at that prayer meeting.

1309
01:23:27.840 --> 01:23:30.120
I couldn't even conceive it.

1310
01:23:30.880 --> 01:23:32.000
And here I am today.

1311
01:23:32.400 --> 01:23:33.680
Do I think this is the end?

1312
01:23:33.720 --> 01:23:37.320
No, I think God has a lot more, but some of you you're in those

1313
01:23:37.320 --> 01:23:41.120
beginning stages and you're like, I don't know, like how I could

1314
01:23:41.120 --> 01:23:42.720
even reach five people.

1315
01:23:43.000 --> 01:23:44.080
Don't worry about all that.

1316
01:23:44.080 --> 01:23:46.720
Just do the next best thing that God shows you to do.

1317
01:23:47.160 --> 01:23:49.560
And the next best thing after that, the next day.

1318
01:23:50.560 --> 01:23:51.000
All right.

1319
01:23:51.320 --> 01:23:52.440
Romans eight.

1320
01:23:52.520 --> 01:23:54.080
I forgot to get my Bible.

1321
01:23:54.080 --> 01:23:55.600
You all, I totally forgot.

1322
01:23:55.840 --> 01:23:56.160
Okay.

1323
01:23:56.160 --> 01:23:58.760
I don't have the full scripture for you, but I want you all to

1324
01:23:58.760 --> 01:24:01.680
read Romans eight 37 through 39.

1325
01:24:02.680 --> 01:24:04.240
And it talks about this is God.

1326
01:24:04.240 --> 01:24:06.360
If God is for you, who can be against you?

1327
01:24:06.680 --> 01:24:06.920
Okay.

1328
01:24:06.920 --> 01:24:09.000
So you're set to be a supernova.

1329
01:24:09.320 --> 01:24:12.680
And even I used to, you have all these beautiful gifts in you.

1330
01:24:13.320 --> 01:24:16.520
If God is for you, who can be against you?

1331
01:24:16.520 --> 01:24:18.920
No one, no one.

1332
01:24:19.160 --> 01:24:19.840
Yes, they do.

1333
01:24:19.880 --> 01:24:21.440
We encounter them in the physical realm.

1334
01:24:21.440 --> 01:24:23.960
Don't we, but praise Jesus.

1335
01:24:23.960 --> 01:24:28.120
He is the resurrector and he can protect us and defend us in

1336
01:24:28.120 --> 01:24:29.480
the midst of all of those things.

1337
01:24:29.800 --> 01:24:30.080
Okay.

1338
01:24:30.080 --> 01:24:31.360
So it's time ladies.

1339
01:24:32.720 --> 01:24:33.600
It's time.

1340
01:24:33.760 --> 01:24:38.560
Um, Kelly, I'll have you hold just cause I have so much more to get through.

1341
01:24:38.560 --> 01:24:40.320
I'm trying to rush, but thank you for that.

1342
01:24:40.800 --> 01:24:47.480
Um, it's time for you, the princess in the story to awaken the princess

1343
01:24:47.480 --> 01:24:49.680
within you to completely come alive.

1344
01:24:50.000 --> 01:24:52.000
Ephesians five 14 says awake.

1345
01:24:52.360 --> 01:24:57.880
Oh, sleeper and rise up from the dead and Christ will shine on you.

1346
01:24:58.440 --> 01:24:59.000
Ooh.

1347
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:02.600
He's so good.

1348
01:25:02.600 --> 01:25:04.280
Holy Spirit goosebumps tonight.

1349
01:25:04.280 --> 01:25:06.200
I'm loving it.

1350
01:25:06.200 --> 01:25:11.360
Awake O sleeper and rise up from the dead and Christ will shine on you.

1351
01:25:11.360 --> 01:25:13.500
Awakened by what?

1352
01:25:13.500 --> 01:25:14.840
The kiss from heaven.

1353
01:25:14.840 --> 01:25:16.760
True love's kiss awakening you.

1354
01:25:16.760 --> 01:25:22.400
The kiss from heaven tonight and in the days ahead to awaken you to what?

1355
01:25:22.400 --> 01:25:25.560
Your true identity, which is what we were just talking about.

1356
01:25:25.560 --> 01:25:29.520
God reminded me tonight of the movie Wreck-It Ralph.

1357
01:25:29.520 --> 01:25:31.880
Do y'all know Vanellope?

1358
01:25:31.880 --> 01:25:35.020
Have y'all ever seen that movie Wreck-It Ralph?

1359
01:25:35.020 --> 01:25:38.340
If you haven't, it's such a good movie.

1360
01:25:38.340 --> 01:25:45.120
You all it's a kid's movie, but I encourage y'all to see it and Vanellope.

1361
01:25:45.120 --> 01:25:46.120
She's so cute.

1362
01:25:46.120 --> 01:25:52.020
Y'all she's got this little glitch and the glitch is like, you know, like in a computer

1363
01:25:52.020 --> 01:25:55.620
glitch, like she, she keeps like not really being there.

1364
01:25:55.620 --> 01:26:00.540
And when this glitch happens, she starts disappearing a little bit more, a little bit more, a little

1365
01:26:00.540 --> 01:26:01.540
bit more.

1366
01:26:01.540 --> 01:26:06.860
The closer she's getting to her breakthrough, I feel God on the closer she's getting to

1367
01:26:06.860 --> 01:26:11.460
her breakthrough, the glitch happens more and it happens more and it happens more.

1368
01:26:11.460 --> 01:26:14.260
Y'all this story is so beautiful.

1369
01:26:14.260 --> 01:26:17.020
It's so simplistic, but it's so beautiful.

1370
01:26:17.020 --> 01:26:21.900
So I don't want to spoil it for those that haven't seen it.

1371
01:26:21.900 --> 01:26:30.620
Y'all she didn't really remember who she was because in that story, there was an enemy

1372
01:26:30.620 --> 01:26:34.620
who took something from her.

1373
01:26:34.620 --> 01:26:39.820
And because she did not have that important piece, that's what was causing the glitch.

1374
01:26:39.820 --> 01:26:45.020
And it also caused her to forget who she really was.

1375
01:26:45.020 --> 01:26:53.820
In this story, it unveils that she's actually a princess.

1376
01:26:53.820 --> 01:27:01.020
The enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy, but Jesus Christ came to give you life and

1377
01:27:01.020 --> 01:27:02.420
give it to you more abundantly.

1378
01:27:02.420 --> 01:27:08.140
The enemy is the one who has taken things from you, who has caused death and destruction

1379
01:27:08.140 --> 01:27:10.100
and abuse and harm.

1380
01:27:10.100 --> 01:27:17.460
That did not come from the father, but God is going to come in and he's going to put

1381
01:27:17.460 --> 01:27:19.300
everything all together.

1382
01:27:19.300 --> 01:27:24.780
He's working it all together for good, to save many people alive, to bring you freedom,

1383
01:27:24.780 --> 01:27:30.820
to bring freedom to your families and to awaken you to your true identity.

1384
01:27:30.820 --> 01:27:36.500
You are going to remember the princess that you were always created to be, and you can

1385
01:27:36.660 --> 01:27:38.180
live in that truth.

1386
01:27:41.860 --> 01:27:46.580
God wants to also awaken you to true restoration in every area of your life.

1387
01:27:46.580 --> 01:27:50.660
Nothing missing, nothing lacking, nothing broken, completely whole.

1388
01:27:52.260 --> 01:27:53.060
Completely whole.

1389
01:27:53.620 --> 01:27:59.940
Walking in the fullness of the gifts of God in you, walking in the beautiful body he created

1390
01:27:59.940 --> 01:28:02.980
you to live in that you are fearfully and wonderfully made.

1391
01:28:03.940 --> 01:28:04.980
You lack nothing.

1392
01:28:05.460 --> 01:28:07.780
You lack no thing, nothing.

1393
01:28:09.140 --> 01:28:11.460
God didn't mess up when he created you.

1394
01:28:14.420 --> 01:28:17.060
He wants you to awaken to your big, bold future.

1395
01:28:17.060 --> 01:28:18.740
He wants to awaken dreams in you.

1396
01:28:18.740 --> 01:28:24.420
Some of you had childhood dreams that he wants to just breathe right onto tonight, and he

1397
01:28:24.420 --> 01:28:30.100
wants to awaken those dreams within you, and he also wants to give you some new dreams.

1398
01:28:30.980 --> 01:28:38.260
Some of you are holding onto prophecies from 10 years ago, and God says it's time to receive

1399
01:28:38.260 --> 01:28:38.900
a new word.

1400
01:28:41.540 --> 01:28:46.660
It's time to let that thing go so that you can, yep, grab onto the new.

1401
01:28:47.220 --> 01:28:48.420
The new is ahead of you.

1402
01:28:50.740 --> 01:28:53.940
Letting go of false identities and views of ourselves.

1403
01:28:53.940 --> 01:28:55.380
How does this happen?

1404
01:28:55.380 --> 01:28:57.380
We can't erase this stuff, ladies.

1405
01:28:57.380 --> 01:28:58.660
We have to replace it.

1406
01:29:00.100 --> 01:29:05.060
That's where what I was talking about earlier, replacing it with the truth is so critical.

1407
01:29:07.540 --> 01:29:11.700
All of this sounds amazing, and for some of you, you're still struggling to believe.

1408
01:29:11.700 --> 01:29:13.060
Like, you're like, I hear it.

1409
01:29:13.700 --> 01:29:16.660
I believe it, but I don't feel it yet.

1410
01:29:17.700 --> 01:29:22.740
We all have a choice about what we're going to believe.

1411
01:29:24.020 --> 01:29:27.140
Do you know that the Holy Spirit is your intercessor?

1412
01:29:27.140 --> 01:29:28.180
He's your helper.

1413
01:29:28.500 --> 01:29:32.500
If you struggle to believe these things tonight, if you're struggling to have faith,

1414
01:29:32.500 --> 01:29:37.460
do you know that you can ask God to give you the gift of faith, to believe?

1415
01:29:39.700 --> 01:29:43.460
God, I need a fresh and filling of faith and hope.

1416
01:29:45.380 --> 01:29:49.060
Where hope has been deferred, and it's been making your heart sick.

1417
01:29:49.060 --> 01:29:50.740
I talked about this earlier today, too.

1418
01:29:50.740 --> 01:29:51.460
I'm going to read it.

1419
01:29:53.140 --> 01:29:56.980
Proverbs 13, 12, the rest of the scripture, you all, it doesn't stop at hope,

1420
01:29:56.980 --> 01:29:59.620
deferred makes the heart sick.

1421
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:03.900
It says, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.

1422
01:30:05.820 --> 01:30:08.640
Some of y'all, God's about to fulfill longings

1423
01:30:08.640 --> 01:30:10.540
that have long been waited for,

1424
01:30:10.540 --> 01:30:13.220
and it's gonna become a tree of life to you,

1425
01:30:13.220 --> 01:30:15.340
to your spirit mate, to your children,

1426
01:30:15.340 --> 01:30:20.140
to your grandchildren, and communities of people

1427
01:30:20.140 --> 01:30:21.900
are gonna come up under your shade.

1428
01:30:23.140 --> 01:30:24.580
As we close tonight,

1429
01:30:24.580 --> 01:30:27.780
I want you all to start thinking about this.

1430
01:30:27.780 --> 01:30:29.260
I would encourage you if you feel led

1431
01:30:29.260 --> 01:30:30.500
to do a post in the groups,

1432
01:30:30.500 --> 01:30:32.440
we don't have time to do breakout.

1433
01:30:32.440 --> 01:30:34.840
I feel like we had a lot of really great coaching time,

1434
01:30:34.840 --> 01:30:36.140
so I'm glad for that.

1435
01:30:37.080 --> 01:30:38.580
But I want you to be thinking about

1436
01:30:38.580 --> 01:30:42.260
what way does the enemy challenge the real you?

1437
01:30:43.620 --> 01:30:44.980
There's three categories

1438
01:30:44.980 --> 01:30:47.540
that he tends to challenge the real us.

1439
01:30:47.540 --> 01:30:50.580
Comparison, so he's always trying to get you

1440
01:30:50.580 --> 01:30:52.720
to compare yourself to someone else.

1441
01:30:52.720 --> 01:30:55.460
You're never good enough when you think about them.

1442
01:30:56.440 --> 01:30:58.300
Maybe it's competition.

1443
01:30:58.340 --> 01:31:00.580
Maybe you grew up with siblings or friends

1444
01:31:00.580 --> 01:31:02.380
or competing with the neighbor.

1445
01:31:02.380 --> 01:31:03.700
I don't know who it was competing

1446
01:31:03.700 --> 01:31:05.460
with someone at work right now.

1447
01:31:05.460 --> 01:31:07.020
You're always competing.

1448
01:31:08.840 --> 01:31:11.700
Maybe it's imitation for you.

1449
01:31:12.820 --> 01:31:17.620
Maybe you're imitating, you're pretending to be somebody

1450
01:31:17.620 --> 01:31:19.660
or something that you're not.

1451
01:31:21.900 --> 01:31:25.420
You want to be that, but you're not yet.

1452
01:31:25.460 --> 01:31:30.000
And so you're trying to pretend until that day comes,

1453
01:31:30.000 --> 01:31:32.540
but God wants you just to be the real you.

1454
01:31:32.540 --> 01:31:34.580
He wants you to be where you are

1455
01:31:34.580 --> 01:31:37.380
so that you can heal and grow

1456
01:31:37.380 --> 01:31:40.060
into who he's truly created you to be.

1457
01:31:40.060 --> 01:31:43.460
As we start to close, I'm gonna read something over you.

1458
01:31:43.460 --> 01:31:46.560
Again, I just want you to ask God to show you,

1459
01:31:46.560 --> 01:31:50.620
as I read this over you, a vision, a picture, a phrase.

1460
01:31:50.620 --> 01:31:55.140
However God wants to speak to you, you are a supernova.

1461
01:31:55.840 --> 01:31:56.820
I want you to ask him to show you

1462
01:31:56.820 --> 01:31:59.500
what that looks like for you today.

1463
01:31:59.500 --> 01:32:01.580
It doesn't have to be the big impact.

1464
01:32:01.580 --> 01:32:04.420
It just, what's the supernova mean for you

1465
01:32:04.420 --> 01:32:06.140
right now in your today?

1466
01:32:08.280 --> 01:32:09.220
This is from the book.

1467
01:32:09.220 --> 01:32:11.440
So y'all, you can find this in your book.

1468
01:32:11.440 --> 01:32:13.660
It's towards the end of the book and read it over yourself.

1469
01:32:13.660 --> 01:32:14.580
I would encourage you.

1470
01:32:14.580 --> 01:32:17.500
It says, use this declaration as often as necessary.

1471
01:32:17.500 --> 01:32:20.420
I would encourage you to do this daily.

1472
01:32:21.340 --> 01:32:24.300
The more you declare things out loud over yourself,

1473
01:32:24.340 --> 01:32:27.100
the more you are going to believe them, okay?

1474
01:32:27.100 --> 01:32:28.100
Okay, here we go.

1475
01:32:29.340 --> 01:32:34.260
I am a world changer, an atmosphere shifter,

1476
01:32:34.260 --> 01:32:38.940
a light bearer, a truth teller, and a hope dealer.

1477
01:32:38.940 --> 01:32:40.860
My heart is awakening.

1478
01:32:40.860 --> 01:32:43.100
It's my time to be made whole.

1479
01:32:43.100 --> 01:32:45.300
I contain the beauty of all creation.

1480
01:32:45.300 --> 01:32:49.220
The mysteries of the entire universe reside in me.

1481
01:32:49.220 --> 01:32:51.220
I am the image of the almighty God,

1482
01:32:51.220 --> 01:32:53.860
the offspring of the great I am.

1483
01:32:54.420 --> 01:32:56.060
I am a beloved daughter of God.

1484
01:32:56.060 --> 01:32:59.380
My original heart is one of love and joy,

1485
01:32:59.380 --> 01:33:01.540
peace, hope, and innocence.

1486
01:33:01.540 --> 01:33:04.380
I was created for community.

1487
01:33:04.380 --> 01:33:06.940
I am accepted in the family of God.

1488
01:33:06.940 --> 01:33:09.180
I have been created to prosper.

1489
01:33:09.180 --> 01:33:14.100
I will not be anyone besides who love God himself

1490
01:33:14.100 --> 01:33:15.580
has made me to be.

1491
01:33:15.580 --> 01:33:18.060
From this moment forward, every day,

1492
01:33:18.060 --> 01:33:19.780
when I look in the mirror,

1493
01:33:19.820 --> 01:33:24.660
I am going to see more and more of what God sees.

1494
01:33:26.340 --> 01:33:27.500
Yes.

1495
01:33:27.500 --> 01:33:30.220
Y'all, I felt power reading that to you.

1496
01:33:31.380 --> 01:33:33.380
Can I get an amen?

1497
01:33:33.380 --> 01:33:34.780
Y'all are supernovas.

1498
01:33:34.780 --> 01:33:37.580
You, I mean, you're a world changer.

1499
01:33:37.580 --> 01:33:39.340
When you come into the room,

1500
01:33:39.340 --> 01:33:42.260
if you walk in the truth that Jesus Christ,

1501
01:33:42.260 --> 01:33:44.060
the same power that rose him from the dead

1502
01:33:44.060 --> 01:33:47.420
is living in you and it's operating through you,

1503
01:33:47.420 --> 01:33:49.900
everywhere you go, you bring Jesus with you.

1504
01:33:49.900 --> 01:33:53.100
How can you not change the atmosphere?

1505
01:33:54.660 --> 01:33:57.020
He changes everything.

1506
01:33:57.020 --> 01:33:58.380
Some of you all don't even know

1507
01:33:58.380 --> 01:34:01.780
if you like your own presence in your home.

1508
01:34:01.780 --> 01:34:04.460
You don't enjoy being with yourself.

1509
01:34:04.460 --> 01:34:05.460
Guess what?

1510
01:34:05.460 --> 01:34:07.380
Jesus is with you.

1511
01:34:08.260 --> 01:34:09.300
So guess what?

1512
01:34:09.300 --> 01:34:11.500
He's coming into your house with you.

1513
01:34:11.500 --> 01:34:12.700
So you're not alone.

1514
01:34:12.700 --> 01:34:16.620
So maybe that's what you need to focus on in this next week.

1515
01:34:17.420 --> 01:34:21.420
He is with you and he's changing everything

1516
01:34:21.420 --> 01:34:23.020
and everywhere that you go.

1517
01:34:24.340 --> 01:34:27.300
That, Laura, is in the book in the end.

1518
01:34:27.300 --> 01:34:31.780
Like it's literally at the end of, let me look here.

1519
01:34:32.860 --> 01:34:34.500
Chapter 14.

1520
01:34:34.500 --> 01:34:35.340
It's okay if y'all,

1521
01:34:35.340 --> 01:34:36.780
I don't want you to read the whole book to the end,

1522
01:34:36.780 --> 01:34:38.820
but skip to that and print that.

1523
01:34:38.820 --> 01:34:39.660
You guys can't see it.

1524
01:34:39.660 --> 01:34:42.420
Print that sucker out and put that up or write it on paper.

1525
01:34:42.420 --> 01:34:44.020
Y'all don't have to have a printer.

1526
01:34:44.020 --> 01:34:45.180
If I say that, someone will be like,

1527
01:34:45.300 --> 01:34:46.140
well, I don't got a printer.

1528
01:34:46.140 --> 01:34:47.500
So I can't.

1529
01:34:47.500 --> 01:34:51.260
Y'all, I take notes like 24 seven.

1530
01:34:51.260 --> 01:34:53.060
It's not, yeah, it takes time.

1531
01:34:53.060 --> 01:34:55.940
But y'all, I used to keep things up in my house

1532
01:34:55.940 --> 01:34:56.780
all the time.

1533
01:34:56.780 --> 01:34:57.940
I still do it.

1534
01:34:57.940 --> 01:35:00.140
People that know me know, like that is the.

1535
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:05.200
stuff that changed my life. I memorize scripture that way. I

1536
01:35:05.200 --> 01:35:08.680
speak truth over myself that way. I still have to do it. I'm

1537
01:35:08.680 --> 01:35:12.080
believing for a baby. I have a sign up in my room that says

1538
01:35:12.080 --> 01:35:15.240
believe and, and, and while it's not up right now, but it was in

1539
01:35:15.240 --> 01:35:17.720
my other house. I got to put it back up. But God told me every

1540
01:35:17.720 --> 01:35:21.280
time you see that sign, tap it three times and say, I believe

1541
01:35:21.280 --> 01:35:24.480
I'm going to have a baby. I believe God that you're

1542
01:35:24.480 --> 01:35:28.000
releasing my baby from heaven. And you're going to give that to

1543
01:35:28.000 --> 01:35:33.680
us. I don't know how he's going to do it, but I trust him. Not

1544
01:35:33.680 --> 01:35:36.320
just because it's some random thing I've decided to believe,

1545
01:35:36.320 --> 01:35:40.240
but God has actually spoken to me personally about it. And I'm

1546
01:35:40.240 --> 01:35:44.440
aligning with that. Do you know what the world wants to tell me?

1547
01:35:44.920 --> 01:35:47.840
Y'all? I just turned 46. Do you want to know what the world

1548
01:35:47.840 --> 01:35:51.960
wants to tell me? It's not possible. You're too old. Well,

1549
01:35:51.960 --> 01:35:54.800
guess what? I'm still having a cycle. So something can still

1550
01:35:54.800 --> 01:36:00.720
happen up in there. Right? All right. Y'all. God is good. I'm

1551
01:36:00.720 --> 01:36:03.240
being a little funny. I like to be a little funny on occasion.

1552
01:36:03.240 --> 01:36:05.680
When we have serious stuff, we got to laugh a little bit too.

1553
01:36:05.680 --> 01:36:10.760
Right? If y'all are feeling heavy during the week this next

1554
01:36:10.760 --> 01:36:14.120
week, I, and again, these might sound like simple things, but if

1555
01:36:14.120 --> 01:36:17.120
you're feeling real heavy and depressed and just like the

1556
01:36:17.120 --> 01:36:20.200
heart work is hard. I just want you guys to on occasion, get up

1557
01:36:20.200 --> 01:36:25.000
and just, just move your body, get out, do some exercise, shake

1558
01:36:25.000 --> 01:36:28.840
it off, put on here's here. Okay. Worship is warfare. This

1559
01:36:28.840 --> 01:36:30.200
is the last thing I'm going to give you. And then I'm going to

1560
01:36:30.200 --> 01:36:34.920
pray for y'all. Worship is warfare. Some of y'all need to

1561
01:36:34.920 --> 01:36:39.280
put on a dance song and freaking dance like nobody's business. A

1562
01:36:39.280 --> 01:36:43.200
fun one, too. A fun one that just is going to make the devil

1563
01:36:43.200 --> 01:36:48.760
so mad because you're having a party in the middle of heart

1564
01:36:48.760 --> 01:36:53.960
work. Yes, you are. Y'all can do this stuff. I did this. I didn't

1565
01:36:53.960 --> 01:36:57.480
always feel like dancing, but I was like, God, I'm going to

1566
01:36:57.480 --> 01:37:00.600
dance. We're going to have a party. I love to dance though.

1567
01:37:00.600 --> 01:37:06.240
Y'all I do. I love to celebrate. I was one of those fanatics in

1568
01:37:06.240 --> 01:37:09.160
my old Pentecostal church dancing up in the front of the

1569
01:37:09.160 --> 01:37:14.520
church. Yes, I did. I did. I love Jesus. I don't go to that

1570
01:37:14.520 --> 01:37:19.400
kind of church right now, but I dance in my heart. I dance in

1571
01:37:19.400 --> 01:37:23.960
my heart. So maybe some of y'all need to sing and dance in your

1572
01:37:23.960 --> 01:37:26.600
car. You know, when people look at you and you're just having a

1573
01:37:26.600 --> 01:37:30.880
good old time and just smile and be like, yeah, I'm having a

1574
01:37:30.880 --> 01:37:34.840
good time. Some of y'all that's, that's going to be your

1575
01:37:34.840 --> 01:37:39.960
freedom. Where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom and

1576
01:37:39.960 --> 01:37:44.120
liberty. Everywhere that you go, you take the spirit of the

1577
01:37:44.120 --> 01:37:50.120
living God with you. Don't forget it. The enemy wants you

1578
01:37:50.120 --> 01:37:56.440
to feel like you're, you can't win and he's a liar. You've

1579
01:37:56.440 --> 01:38:00.520
already won. That's the truth. Jesus already won the victory

1580
01:38:00.520 --> 01:38:09.160
for you. You win. That's the end of the story. You win. Yes, some

1581
01:38:09.160 --> 01:38:12.360
of you tonight, I want it. I want you to write on a post-it

1582
01:38:12.360 --> 01:38:21.400
card. Maria Jose wins. That's the end of the story. Yes, I see

1583
01:38:21.400 --> 01:38:25.480
a girl. You're so beautiful. I love you ladies. I could party

1584
01:38:25.480 --> 01:38:30.120
with y'all all night. I was feeling tired and, and stuff

1585
01:38:30.120 --> 01:38:33.000
this afternoon here. Who was that? Michelle gave me that word

1586
01:38:33.000 --> 01:38:37.240
last night. Yes, I heard you. You had it on point girl. Some

1587
01:38:37.240 --> 01:38:40.680
of y'all don't even know how much you hear God and prophesy

1588
01:38:40.680 --> 01:38:43.400
over people. So I just, as we close tonight, I want to

1589
01:38:43.400 --> 01:38:47.400
encourage you. Yes, step into your gifts. Let God speak

1590
01:38:47.400 --> 01:38:49.960
through you. You don't even, some of you see images, you

1591
01:38:49.960 --> 01:38:53.080
don't even know it's God yet, but you're learning. You're

1592
01:38:53.080 --> 01:38:55.880
learning and you'll, you'll continue to understand and

1593
01:38:55.880 --> 01:38:59.560
discern these things. He's moving in this earth in big

1594
01:38:59.560 --> 01:39:03.400
ways and you get to be a part of it. You do. Father, thank you

1595
01:39:03.400 --> 01:39:09.720
for your beautiful, amazing daughters. Thank you God for

1596
01:39:09.720 --> 01:39:12.600
breathing life into us. Thank you that even when we feel

1597
01:39:12.600 --> 01:39:16.920
tired, God, you come in and you, you do something kind of

1598
01:39:16.920 --> 01:39:21.160
wonderful. So Lord, I ask you to do that wonderful in their

1599
01:39:21.160 --> 01:39:23.880
lives and their healing process that you would lift the

1600
01:39:23.880 --> 01:39:28.280
burdens off of them, that yokes of, of heaviness and bondages

1601
01:39:28.280 --> 01:39:33.080
of oppression would be broken tonight. Let them dance like

1602
01:39:33.080 --> 01:39:36.360
the freedom that they have always wanted to dance in. Just

1603
01:39:36.360 --> 01:39:41.480
like David danced before the Lord, unashamed. Lord, let them

1604
01:39:41.480 --> 01:39:44.520
dance before you unashamed in their apartments, in their cars,

1605
01:39:44.520 --> 01:39:48.280
before people were ever, God helped them to break free from

1606
01:39:48.280 --> 01:39:52.120
the shackles and the things that the enemy, the chains that

1607
01:39:52.120 --> 01:39:56.200
he's placed on them. We thank you for revealing for healing,

1608
01:39:56.200 --> 01:39:59.000
continuing to take place. Even while they sleep at night, God,

1609
01:39:59.000 --> 01:39:59.720
we thank you for.

1610
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:04.880
find supernatural healings, impartation of revelation.

1611
01:40:04.880 --> 01:40:07.760
God, we ask for joy unspeakable and full of glory

1612
01:40:07.760 --> 01:40:11.440
to be placed within them, that you are the God of peace.

1613
01:40:11.440 --> 01:40:14.240
So where there hasn't been hope, where it's been deferred,

1614
01:40:14.240 --> 01:40:16.040
we thank you that you would breathe the life,

1615
01:40:16.040 --> 01:40:19.520
breathe hope into them in a fresh way.

1616
01:40:19.520 --> 01:40:22.320
Awaken the princesses within.

1617
01:40:22.320 --> 01:40:25.600
Yes, Lord, give them more glimpses of how you see them.

1618
01:40:25.600 --> 01:40:28.160
We thank you that you would help them to hear your voice

1619
01:40:28.200 --> 01:40:30.320
louder than any voice of the enemy,

1620
01:40:31.520 --> 01:40:34.400
that you would shut right now the mouths of the lions

1621
01:40:34.400 --> 01:40:36.080
that have been roaring.

1622
01:40:36.080 --> 01:40:39.000
We know that the enemy prowls around like a lion,

1623
01:40:39.000 --> 01:40:42.160
but we know there's only one lion of the tribe of Judah,

1624
01:40:42.160 --> 01:40:43.560
and God, that is you.

1625
01:40:43.560 --> 01:40:46.560
And we thank you, Jesus, that you are the author

1626
01:40:46.560 --> 01:40:47.800
and the finisher of our faith,

1627
01:40:47.800 --> 01:40:49.120
that you came to give us life

1628
01:40:49.120 --> 01:40:50.480
and give it to us more abundantly,

1629
01:40:50.480 --> 01:40:52.640
that you died and you gave us freedom.

1630
01:40:52.640 --> 01:40:54.840
So help us, help us, Holy Spirit,

1631
01:40:54.840 --> 01:40:56.440
to step into that freedom this week.

1632
01:40:56.440 --> 01:41:00.080
In Jesus' name, amen.

1633
01:41:00.080 --> 01:41:01.640
Amen, amen, amen.

1634
01:41:01.640 --> 01:41:03.760
Oh, he's so good, you all.

1635
01:41:04.760 --> 01:41:07.400
Yeah, that take it back song, it is done.

1636
01:41:07.400 --> 01:41:08.240
So good.

1637
01:41:10.400 --> 01:41:12.400
Sorry, someone was saying something.

1638
01:41:12.400 --> 01:41:13.880
I just said amen.

1639
01:41:13.880 --> 01:41:15.120
Amen, amen.

1640
01:41:15.120 --> 01:41:17.640
All right, bless you, ladies.

1641
01:41:17.640 --> 01:41:18.760
Don't forget your challenge.

1642
01:41:18.760 --> 01:41:19.720
Come out of hiding.

1643
01:41:19.720 --> 01:41:20.800
You can come share about it.

1644
01:41:20.800 --> 01:41:23.320
And remember to post if you feel led

1645
01:41:23.320 --> 01:41:25.800
about the areas where you are struggling

1646
01:41:25.800 --> 01:41:27.680
to step into the real you,

1647
01:41:27.680 --> 01:41:30.800
whether that's comparison, competition, imitation.

1648
01:41:30.800 --> 01:41:32.880
I'll see you all in the groups, okay?

1649
01:41:32.880 --> 01:41:33.800
Bless you.

1650
01:41:33.800 --> 01:41:34.640
Have a good night.

1651
01:41:34.640 --> 01:41:35.480
Thanks so much.