WEBVTT

1
00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:01.920
All right, welcome.

2
00:00:01.920 --> 00:00:04.440
We are here tonight for another heart check-in.

3
00:00:04.440 --> 00:00:06.240
It's so good to see you.

4
00:00:06.240 --> 00:00:07.280
My name's Bethany Cooper.

5
00:00:07.280 --> 00:00:09.540
I'm one of the heart work coaches here

6
00:00:09.540 --> 00:00:11.600
in the group, in the community.

7
00:00:11.600 --> 00:00:14.480
And just a pleasure to get to know those of you

8
00:00:14.480 --> 00:00:15.880
that are joining us for the first time.

9
00:00:15.880 --> 00:00:18.520
If you've never been to a live heart check-in,

10
00:00:18.520 --> 00:00:20.800
can you raise your digital hand

11
00:00:20.800 --> 00:00:24.080
or put something in the chat so I can see who you are

12
00:00:24.080 --> 00:00:26.080
so that we can welcome you.

13
00:00:26.960 --> 00:00:28.900
All right, Shawnee, welcome.

14
00:00:29.820 --> 00:00:31.020
That's awesome, always love.

15
00:00:31.020 --> 00:00:33.780
I know that we are continuing to have people

16
00:00:33.780 --> 00:00:36.260
join our program all the time now.

17
00:00:36.260 --> 00:00:38.580
So that's why, ladies, some of you ask,

18
00:00:38.580 --> 00:00:41.260
do I need to have certain weeks' work done

19
00:00:41.260 --> 00:00:43.220
before I can come to a heart check-in?

20
00:00:43.220 --> 00:00:45.540
You come to a heart check-in every single week

21
00:00:45.540 --> 00:00:47.300
that you're a part of this program.

22
00:00:47.300 --> 00:00:49.980
And no matter what, whether you've read that material

23
00:00:49.980 --> 00:00:51.340
or you're on that week or not,

24
00:00:51.340 --> 00:00:53.580
I promise you're still gonna get breakthrough.

25
00:00:53.580 --> 00:00:57.960
God's gonna help you learn and hear and receive

26
00:00:57.960 --> 00:01:00.080
just what you need in that week.

27
00:01:00.080 --> 00:01:03.720
He knew exactly when you were gonna join this program.

28
00:01:03.720 --> 00:01:05.060
Do you know that?

29
00:01:05.060 --> 00:01:06.800
And he planned it perfectly

30
00:01:06.800 --> 00:01:08.440
knowing what we would already be doing.

31
00:01:08.440 --> 00:01:10.680
So praise the Lord.

32
00:01:10.680 --> 00:01:13.340
He is very intentional in everything that he does.

33
00:01:13.340 --> 00:01:15.160
So welcome to our new ladies.

34
00:01:15.160 --> 00:01:16.280
Audrey, welcome.

35
00:01:16.280 --> 00:01:18.200
I see you there too in the chat.

36
00:01:18.200 --> 00:01:19.260
That's awesome.

37
00:01:19.260 --> 00:01:22.080
Do you wanna encourage our new ladies

38
00:01:22.080 --> 00:01:25.120
as well as those that have been here before?

39
00:01:25.120 --> 00:01:27.040
We encourage, if you can,

40
00:01:27.040 --> 00:01:29.720
again, if you can't, it's totally okay,

41
00:01:29.720 --> 00:01:32.320
to come on screen, okay?

42
00:01:32.320 --> 00:01:34.280
So as you see, some of our other ladies

43
00:01:34.280 --> 00:01:35.240
are already on screen.

44
00:01:35.240 --> 00:01:37.800
If you can come on screen, we would love to see you.

45
00:01:37.800 --> 00:01:41.160
This is part of your time to let yourself be seen

46
00:01:41.160 --> 00:01:44.000
by other ladies in the community,

47
00:01:44.000 --> 00:01:45.960
during the teaching time.

48
00:01:45.960 --> 00:01:46.840
I call it teaching.

49
00:01:46.840 --> 00:01:47.960
It's really other things.

50
00:01:47.960 --> 00:01:51.560
But during your breakout and all of the things,

51
00:01:52.840 --> 00:01:54.160
I really believe it's a key part

52
00:01:54.160 --> 00:01:55.600
of the heart work healing process.

53
00:01:55.600 --> 00:01:56.440
I do.

54
00:01:57.040 --> 00:01:59.240
And that's why I say it every single week, you all.

55
00:01:59.240 --> 00:02:01.100
Cause I think for me,

56
00:02:02.240 --> 00:02:05.640
when we struggle with healing on the inside that's needed,

57
00:02:05.640 --> 00:02:07.560
we start shutting down on the outside

58
00:02:07.560 --> 00:02:09.120
in ways that we don't even realize.

59
00:02:09.120 --> 00:02:11.520
And in our culture after COVID,

60
00:02:11.520 --> 00:02:14.160
we do so many things online.

61
00:02:14.160 --> 00:02:17.600
Even team meetings that we've had the last few months,

62
00:02:17.600 --> 00:02:20.440
we've really trying to shift and be intentional

63
00:02:20.440 --> 00:02:22.080
to always turn our cameras on.

64
00:02:22.080 --> 00:02:23.880
Cause we started doing meetings every single week

65
00:02:23.880 --> 00:02:26.320
with our screens off and we didn't even see each other.

66
00:02:27.080 --> 00:02:29.040
We're just talking to the name on the screen, right?

67
00:02:29.040 --> 00:02:31.600
We can hear voices, but when you see someone's face,

68
00:02:31.600 --> 00:02:33.640
doesn't it just make you feel better?

69
00:02:33.640 --> 00:02:34.480
Yeah.

70
00:02:34.480 --> 00:02:35.480
I love seeing you all.

71
00:02:35.480 --> 00:02:37.200
I'm so glad that you're here.

72
00:02:37.200 --> 00:02:38.040
All right.

73
00:02:38.040 --> 00:02:39.800
So for those of you, let me say this too.

74
00:02:39.800 --> 00:02:42.840
For those of you that are watching on replay,

75
00:02:42.840 --> 00:02:45.560
I wanna encourage you to post a picture of yourself

76
00:02:45.560 --> 00:02:47.080
or even those of you that are live,

77
00:02:47.080 --> 00:02:49.280
post a picture of yourself this week in the group

78
00:02:49.280 --> 00:02:51.320
and say, hey, hi,

79
00:02:51.320 --> 00:02:53.720
this is the revelations God has given me this week.

80
00:02:53.720 --> 00:02:56.400
This is what God is speaking to me about this week.

81
00:02:56.400 --> 00:02:58.720
It's really delightful for you all

82
00:02:58.720 --> 00:03:01.840
to start making connections to names and faces.

83
00:03:01.840 --> 00:03:03.480
And this is your sister squad.

84
00:03:03.480 --> 00:03:06.200
Some of you don't realize that's what this group is.

85
00:03:06.200 --> 00:03:08.000
What that means to us in this community

86
00:03:08.000 --> 00:03:11.600
is that the women in the group that you're in right now

87
00:03:11.600 --> 00:03:13.440
that are on the healing journey with you,

88
00:03:13.440 --> 00:03:16.800
some of you may become very close friends

89
00:03:16.800 --> 00:03:18.880
if you'll allow yourself to.

90
00:03:18.880 --> 00:03:21.560
And some of you might end up in each other's weddings.

91
00:03:21.560 --> 00:03:24.080
I know there are people that you don't even know right now.

92
00:03:24.080 --> 00:03:26.960
It seems crazy, but that is exactly what's happened

93
00:03:26.960 --> 00:03:29.640
time and time again in this community.

94
00:03:29.640 --> 00:03:33.040
I actually was in the wedding of one of the ladies

95
00:03:33.040 --> 00:03:35.280
that is in our phase two coaching.

96
00:03:35.280 --> 00:03:38.000
When y'all get there, you'll meet Carla.

97
00:03:38.000 --> 00:03:39.600
Carla and I had never met before

98
00:03:39.600 --> 00:03:41.360
when we came into this program.

99
00:03:41.360 --> 00:03:45.960
And we both were in the same bootcamp, same healing group.

100
00:03:45.960 --> 00:03:48.320
And then we both went to Austin

101
00:03:48.320 --> 00:03:50.600
as a part of a community thing with this community

102
00:03:50.600 --> 00:03:54.160
at the same time, we ended up staying in the same room

103
00:03:54.160 --> 00:03:56.200
and we became close friends.

104
00:03:56.200 --> 00:03:58.840
And I had the pleasure of being in her wedding

105
00:03:58.840 --> 00:04:01.560
and watching her get married and all of the things.

106
00:04:01.560 --> 00:04:05.560
So you just never know who you might meet in this community

107
00:04:05.560 --> 00:04:08.360
that will be a part of your tomorrows.

108
00:04:08.360 --> 00:04:10.680
All right, what I encourage you all,

109
00:04:10.680 --> 00:04:12.880
for those of you that have been on any of our

110
00:04:12.880 --> 00:04:16.360
all community events like Supernatural Saturday

111
00:04:16.360 --> 00:04:18.680
or Sunday night when we did the prophetic night,

112
00:04:18.680 --> 00:04:21.440
or even if you listen to the replays,

113
00:04:21.440 --> 00:04:23.120
Jackie's been talking about some of the things

114
00:04:23.120 --> 00:04:24.160
that we're rolling out.

115
00:04:24.160 --> 00:04:27.040
And I just wanna make sure everyone's on the same page.

116
00:04:27.040 --> 00:04:29.800
When she talks about spirit mate match,

117
00:04:29.800 --> 00:04:32.560
that is something that we're working on launching.

118
00:04:32.560 --> 00:04:35.840
That is not for phase one, okay?

119
00:04:35.840 --> 00:04:38.160
And I don't want anyone to feel like you're gonna miss out

120
00:04:38.160 --> 00:04:40.400
because you won't, I promise, okay?

121
00:04:40.400 --> 00:04:42.440
This is gonna take a while for us

122
00:04:42.440 --> 00:04:44.680
to get everybody into the program.

123
00:04:44.720 --> 00:04:49.320
We have like 850 ladies in phase three, you all.

124
00:04:49.320 --> 00:04:51.000
It's gonna take us a little while.

125
00:04:52.360 --> 00:04:54.360
And the other aspect here is this,

126
00:04:54.360 --> 00:04:57.800
is that we don't want you to fly through your heart healing,

127
00:04:57.800 --> 00:05:00.240
trying to get to the next phase to get over there.

128
00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:04.840
do that because you're going to miss really what you need to have happen here and you

129
00:05:04.840 --> 00:05:06.720
all, what will happen during heartwork.

130
00:05:06.720 --> 00:05:11.880
I really believe if you all will really let God do what he wants to do during this time,

131
00:05:11.880 --> 00:05:14.020
it will revolutionize your life.

132
00:05:14.020 --> 00:05:17.800
And I know that some of you have done healing programs before and you're like, yeah, I've

133
00:05:17.800 --> 00:05:18.800
done stuff.

134
00:05:18.800 --> 00:05:21.520
I don't even know if this is going to really do anything for me, but I felt like I should

135
00:05:21.520 --> 00:05:22.920
try it just in case.

136
00:05:22.920 --> 00:05:27.600
I believe that you are going to experience transformation in a really supernatural, beautiful

137
00:05:27.600 --> 00:05:28.600
way.

138
00:05:28.600 --> 00:05:33.120
So I encourage you all just to get excited about that for down the road, you know, tuck

139
00:05:33.120 --> 00:05:34.120
it away.

140
00:05:34.120 --> 00:05:37.880
Know that that's there, but don't let it get you like into FOMO.

141
00:05:37.880 --> 00:05:38.880
Okay.

142
00:05:38.880 --> 00:05:43.160
Um, God knows exactly when you need to be over there doing that as well.

143
00:05:43.160 --> 00:05:48.880
Um, and then also the affiliate stuff, all of those things that she's talking about,

144
00:05:48.880 --> 00:05:52.560
we will communicate that all to you all in your groups.

145
00:05:52.560 --> 00:05:57.360
So please just want to remind people, don't email us and ask us about those things.

146
00:05:57.360 --> 00:06:00.640
And don't, don't worry about it or get too caught up in it.

147
00:06:00.640 --> 00:06:06.640
It's a very exciting stuff, but it's not the primary thing for you all in phase one right

148
00:06:06.640 --> 00:06:07.640
now.

149
00:06:07.640 --> 00:06:08.640
Okay.

150
00:06:08.640 --> 00:06:13.840
Phase one is you healing and getting to focus on yourself and let God do amazing things

151
00:06:13.840 --> 00:06:14.840
in you.

152
00:06:14.840 --> 00:06:15.880
All right.

153
00:06:15.880 --> 00:06:18.760
So this week we are going to be talking tonight.

154
00:06:18.760 --> 00:06:23.520
I'm saying this week, but tonight we're going to be talking about forgiveness and princesses

155
00:06:23.520 --> 00:06:24.520
awakening.

156
00:06:24.680 --> 00:06:30.640
Um, so I know last week got a little heavy repentance and confession can be just one

157
00:06:30.640 --> 00:06:34.320
of those weeks where, man, it goes deep, doesn't it?

158
00:06:34.320 --> 00:06:39.120
But I want you to know, um, I really felt led this week to combine forgiveness, which

159
00:06:39.120 --> 00:06:46.320
can also be heavy with something very uplifting and awakening and hopeful princesses awakening.

160
00:06:46.320 --> 00:06:47.320
That's you.

161
00:06:47.320 --> 00:06:52.440
So when I'm saying that, that means you, you awakening to all the amazing things God has

162
00:06:52.440 --> 00:06:53.440
for you.

163
00:06:53.440 --> 00:06:54.440
So let me pray for us.

164
00:06:54.440 --> 00:07:00.320
Thank you so much for your goodness, your kindness, your gentleness, your faithfulness,

165
00:07:00.320 --> 00:07:03.080
God, that you are the yes.

166
00:07:03.080 --> 00:07:04.080
And amen.

167
00:07:04.080 --> 00:07:06.920
You are the alpha and the Omega God.

168
00:07:06.920 --> 00:07:11.160
You are the Prince of peace, God Almighty, the maker and creator of heaven and earth.

169
00:07:11.160 --> 00:07:13.060
Nothing is too hard for you.

170
00:07:13.060 --> 00:07:14.840
And you are not a man that you should lie.

171
00:07:14.840 --> 00:07:18.920
Thank you God for every woman that you've drawn into this community, into the heart

172
00:07:18.920 --> 00:07:23.720
healing process for such a time as this God, I thank you for the plans and the promises

173
00:07:23.720 --> 00:07:24.720
that you have for them.

174
00:07:24.720 --> 00:07:28.920
I thank you that you would just bring anything out of darkness into light tonight so that

175
00:07:28.920 --> 00:07:33.120
there could be healing and redemptive work happening in this place.

176
00:07:33.120 --> 00:07:37.720
Yes, Lord, I believe just even right now, I heard you say in the spirit that this is

177
00:07:37.720 --> 00:07:38.720
Holy ground.

178
00:07:38.720 --> 00:07:41.960
And I believe you when you say that, but this is a Holy ground.

179
00:07:41.960 --> 00:07:43.560
It's Holy territory, Holy spirit.

180
00:07:43.560 --> 00:07:45.640
We ask you to come.

181
00:07:45.640 --> 00:07:47.680
We invite you here.

182
00:07:47.680 --> 00:07:52.720
We ask you to have your way in our hearts, our minds, our bodies, our spirits, and souls.

183
00:07:52.720 --> 00:07:57.880
Lord, if we are even in our own way in any way tonight, I pray that you would help us

184
00:07:57.880 --> 00:08:04.680
to get out of our own way so that we can hear you, experience you, understand the kingdom

185
00:08:04.680 --> 00:08:11.600
of heaven in our mind in a fresh way, that we would know you more as love, that we would

186
00:08:11.600 --> 00:08:16.680
leave the past behind and look forward and embrace the new that you have for us.

187
00:08:16.680 --> 00:08:21.760
We thank you for it in advance in Jesus name, amen.

188
00:08:21.800 --> 00:08:24.120
So tonight I want to talk about forgiveness.

189
00:08:24.120 --> 00:08:27.280
I want to start off there.

190
00:08:27.280 --> 00:08:31.200
A lot of times, some of you have been here for a while, so you've heard this a couple

191
00:08:31.200 --> 00:08:32.200
different times.

192
00:08:32.200 --> 00:08:33.960
I'm going to talk about the tether ball.

193
00:08:33.960 --> 00:08:34.960
Where's my Laura?

194
00:08:34.960 --> 00:08:38.640
Laura's heard about the tether ball, haven't you, Laura?

195
00:08:38.640 --> 00:08:42.799
But yeah, so I'm going to talk about the tether ball game.

196
00:08:42.799 --> 00:08:45.920
For some of you, you might be way younger than me.

197
00:08:45.920 --> 00:08:50.080
Some of you may have not had this on your playgrounds, but we played tether ball in

198
00:08:50.080 --> 00:08:51.280
my school.

199
00:08:51.280 --> 00:08:57.560
And tether ball was this game where the ball was attached to a pole by a rope.

200
00:08:57.560 --> 00:09:01.800
And we would just stand there, it'd be like typically one or two kids, maybe three, and

201
00:09:01.800 --> 00:09:05.820
you just hit this ball back and forth to each other.

202
00:09:05.820 --> 00:09:11.000
And I don't even remember how you win the game, but I just remember playing the game.

203
00:09:11.000 --> 00:09:16.520
But the ball, at the end of the day, at some point, the only way it could come off that

204
00:09:16.520 --> 00:09:21.200
pole was when the person that was responsible for the outdoor equipment would go and remove

205
00:09:21.360 --> 00:09:23.640
this ball, right?

206
00:09:23.640 --> 00:09:31.200
So I'm telling you this because I want you to imagine you are the ball.

207
00:09:31.200 --> 00:09:38.120
And the enemy is the one standing there hitting you back and forth and back and forth.

208
00:09:38.120 --> 00:09:39.120
With what?

209
00:09:39.120 --> 00:09:40.120
Unforgiveness.

210
00:09:40.120 --> 00:09:41.120
Okay?

211
00:09:41.120 --> 00:09:47.320
I want you to think about the trap of unforgiveness, bitterness, resentment.

212
00:09:47.320 --> 00:09:52.760
Sometimes we get into anger, wrath, and malice in our hearts in ways that we don't even know

213
00:09:52.760 --> 00:09:56.280
it's there because it's underneath the surface.

214
00:09:56.280 --> 00:09:57.680
It's brewing.

215
00:09:57.680 --> 00:09:58.680
It's brewing under there.

216
00:09:58.680 --> 00:10:00.000
And then sometimes it just, yeah.

217
00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:03.040
It does, it comes right up out like a volcano.

218
00:10:03.040 --> 00:10:05.720
For some of us, there's a lot of shame

219
00:10:05.720 --> 00:10:07.680
that some of you experience

220
00:10:07.680 --> 00:10:09.680
because you have anger outburst.

221
00:10:09.680 --> 00:10:11.480
I'm just hearing that in the spirit.

222
00:10:11.480 --> 00:10:14.460
And the Lord doesn't want you to stay there.

223
00:10:14.460 --> 00:10:17.200
The reason that those anger outbursts are happening

224
00:10:17.200 --> 00:10:19.000
is because underneath the surface,

225
00:10:19.000 --> 00:10:20.820
and there's a lot of emotions under this,

226
00:10:20.820 --> 00:10:25.680
but two of the big ones are sadness and frustration,

227
00:10:25.680 --> 00:10:27.760
disappointment comes to mind.

228
00:10:27.800 --> 00:10:30.520
Y'all, that's all underneath of anger,

229
00:10:31.560 --> 00:10:36.560
but it's all linked to unforgiveness as well, typically.

230
00:10:36.680 --> 00:10:39.280
Sometimes we feel anger because of injustice too.

231
00:10:39.280 --> 00:10:41.600
So I just wanna keep some balance there, right?

232
00:10:41.600 --> 00:10:43.880
Because injustice, we feel anger

233
00:10:43.880 --> 00:10:45.760
about things that are being done to us

234
00:10:45.760 --> 00:10:48.720
or other people that are not just.

235
00:10:48.720 --> 00:10:51.560
Okay, so now here, think about this.

236
00:10:51.560 --> 00:10:55.840
God wants to take you off that pole

237
00:10:55.840 --> 00:10:57.960
because he doesn't want you to get kicked around

238
00:10:57.960 --> 00:11:02.040
by the devil anymore because of unforgiveness.

239
00:11:02.040 --> 00:11:04.180
When we forgive other people,

240
00:11:05.080 --> 00:11:08.320
we are releasing them in the spirit realm,

241
00:11:08.320 --> 00:11:11.220
but we are also releasing ourselves.

242
00:11:12.160 --> 00:11:13.240
Okay, do y'all understand?

243
00:11:13.240 --> 00:11:14.960
Like when we forgive, it's not saying,

244
00:11:14.960 --> 00:11:16.680
okay, what you did is okay.

245
00:11:16.680 --> 00:11:21.340
It's just saying, I choose in the spirit realm right now,

246
00:11:21.340 --> 00:11:25.340
I choose to release you and let you go

247
00:11:25.340 --> 00:11:27.460
from this harm that you've done to me.

248
00:11:27.460 --> 00:11:31.940
And God, I trust you to take care of this on my behalf.

249
00:11:33.260 --> 00:11:34.460
That's what it's saying.

250
00:11:35.700 --> 00:11:38.180
So I want you to imagine if you were wearing sunglasses,

251
00:11:38.180 --> 00:11:39.460
I said to this afternoon,

252
00:11:39.460 --> 00:11:41.380
I was gonna remember to bring my sunglasses tonight

253
00:11:41.380 --> 00:11:42.540
and I forgot again.

254
00:11:42.540 --> 00:11:45.140
Let's see, I see Audrey has sunglasses on.

255
00:11:45.140 --> 00:11:47.880
She's gonna be my demonstration right now, okay?

256
00:11:49.020 --> 00:11:50.420
I was so busy this afternoon

257
00:11:50.420 --> 00:11:52.940
I forgot to get him out again, but she's my demonstration.

258
00:11:52.940 --> 00:11:54.420
She looks lovely, doesn't she?

259
00:11:54.420 --> 00:11:55.460
Hi, Audrey.

260
00:11:57.220 --> 00:11:58.460
All right, so she's walking,

261
00:11:58.460 --> 00:12:00.180
she's got these sunglasses on, right?

262
00:12:00.180 --> 00:12:02.220
It looks like she's in the sunshine,

263
00:12:02.220 --> 00:12:05.700
but sometimes y'all, the reason I wanna use sunglasses

264
00:12:05.700 --> 00:12:07.100
is because I feel like it's a real,

265
00:12:07.100 --> 00:12:09.580
like when you put sunglasses on in the next few days,

266
00:12:09.580 --> 00:12:12.700
you're gonna be thinking about this a little bit, I think.

267
00:12:12.700 --> 00:12:14.100
If it sinks in, good.

268
00:12:15.220 --> 00:12:17.340
When we put these sunglasses on,

269
00:12:17.340 --> 00:12:19.500
we see the world differently, don't we?

270
00:12:19.540 --> 00:12:22.460
The colors, depending on what kind of sunglasses you have.

271
00:12:22.460 --> 00:12:24.560
If you have sunglasses where it really protects you

272
00:12:24.560 --> 00:12:27.740
from the UV rays, I put my sunglasses on

273
00:12:27.740 --> 00:12:29.980
and it makes a bunch of stuff, not everything,

274
00:12:29.980 --> 00:12:32.380
but a bunch of stuff look pink or orange.

275
00:12:32.380 --> 00:12:35.340
My husband was like, the one day we just went away

276
00:12:35.340 --> 00:12:37.860
for this weekend trip recently.

277
00:12:37.860 --> 00:12:39.760
And I was like, man, do you see all that orange

278
00:12:39.760 --> 00:12:41.340
over there in the clouds?

279
00:12:41.340 --> 00:12:43.340
He's like, what are you talking about?

280
00:12:43.340 --> 00:12:45.500
I wasn't even thinking about it, I had my sunglasses on.

281
00:12:45.500 --> 00:12:48.380
I was like, in the clouds, don't you see that over there?

282
00:12:48.380 --> 00:12:52.100
He was like, I don't see any orange, it's white.

283
00:12:52.100 --> 00:12:53.540
And I was like, what?

284
00:12:53.540 --> 00:12:57.460
Well, then I lowered my sunglasses and it was white,

285
00:12:57.460 --> 00:13:01.140
you all, it was a white gray something.

286
00:13:01.140 --> 00:13:06.140
It was not orange, but I was seeing orange.

287
00:13:06.220 --> 00:13:08.420
Now that's kind of a funny analogy,

288
00:13:08.420 --> 00:13:11.200
but here's why I want to make that connection.

289
00:13:12.380 --> 00:13:17.380
When we have brokenness, blind spots and filters,

290
00:13:18.340 --> 00:13:20.920
hence the sunglasses, so to speak,

291
00:13:21.860 --> 00:13:25.360
they cause us to see other people differently.

292
00:13:27.300 --> 00:13:31.380
They cause us to interact with other people differently

293
00:13:31.380 --> 00:13:34.780
and it impacts our ability to truly connect.

294
00:13:34.780 --> 00:13:37.500
Now I want you to kind of differentiate the difference

295
00:13:37.500 --> 00:13:41.600
between interacting with people and connecting.

296
00:13:41.600 --> 00:13:43.420
Two different things, you all.

297
00:13:43.420 --> 00:13:46.380
I can walk into a room and interact with you

298
00:13:46.380 --> 00:13:48.620
and say, hello, how are you?

299
00:13:49.740 --> 00:13:52.980
But then I can take that a little bit deeper.

300
00:13:53.980 --> 00:13:57.180
How are you doing after your mom passed away?

301
00:13:57.180 --> 00:14:00.980
Or your kids went back to school this week,

302
00:14:00.980 --> 00:14:01.820
how's that going?

303
00:14:01.820 --> 00:14:04.420
Or your mom, your kid went away to college.

304
00:14:04.420 --> 00:14:05.900
You know, I'm connecting

305
00:14:05.900 --> 00:14:08.520
and I'm building relationship with you.

306
00:14:08.520 --> 00:14:13.100
And hopefully I'm at some point gaining trust

307
00:14:13.100 --> 00:14:16.940
and respect and love in that connection, right?

308
00:14:17.900 --> 00:14:21.580
Well, if we have unforgiveness, here's the reality.

309
00:14:21.580 --> 00:14:24.940
We go around and we connect with a lot of people

310
00:14:24.940 --> 00:14:26.940
in the interaction level,

311
00:14:26.940 --> 00:14:29.800
but we struggle to connect, don't we?

312
00:14:31.300 --> 00:14:35.140
Sometimes we will still connect with maybe one or two,

313
00:14:35.140 --> 00:14:37.300
a handful at most people.

314
00:14:37.300 --> 00:14:40.460
But if anybody reminds us remotely of those people

315
00:14:40.460 --> 00:14:42.460
that hurt us, we're like, nope.

316
00:14:43.540 --> 00:14:46.220
Like you can't come in too close.

317
00:14:46.220 --> 00:14:47.980
We hold people at an arm's length.

318
00:14:47.980 --> 00:14:50.180
So I want you to consider the fact

319
00:14:51.340 --> 00:14:53.580
that when you have unforgiveness in your heart

320
00:14:53.580 --> 00:14:57.220
in any way towards anyone, I'm sorry, I panicked.

321
00:14:57.220 --> 00:14:59.420
I thought I wasn't recording there for a minute.

322
00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:07.120
That it is causing you to not experience the fullness of what God has for you in relationships

323
00:15:07.120 --> 00:15:15.120
with other people in community on any level, as well as here's the kicker with yourself as well.

324
00:15:18.400 --> 00:15:21.680
Last night, Jackie talked briefly at the beginning of our prophetic night when you,

325
00:15:21.680 --> 00:15:25.760
if you weren't able to join us live, totally fine. If you're able to catch the replay,

326
00:15:25.760 --> 00:15:31.680
awesome. But she talked at the beginning about this is a season where our community is going

327
00:15:31.680 --> 00:15:37.360
back to school. She really believes that God is calling a lot of us back to school in a lot of

328
00:15:37.360 --> 00:15:46.000
different ways, but primarily growing closer to him, going back to school to grow deeper with God.

329
00:15:46.000 --> 00:15:50.240
And then she said this with ourselves and with other people.

330
00:15:50.640 --> 00:15:55.600
In the book, it talks briefly about blind spots and filters. I want to read something really quick

331
00:15:55.600 --> 00:16:01.680
to you all. It says this, when you, this happens so often to all of us in life, we can't see that

332
00:16:01.680 --> 00:16:07.280
bomb was already there inside of us waiting for the trigger. Let me tell you something. When you

333
00:16:07.280 --> 00:16:12.800
walk into any situation, it doesn't matter what it is, bad or good. You don't see that thing,

334
00:16:12.800 --> 00:16:19.360
that place, those people, the way that they are. You see them the way that you would see them.

335
00:16:20.640 --> 00:16:26.800
You are on the inside. I'm going to read that again. She says, let me say that again.

336
00:16:28.160 --> 00:16:33.680
So you can really get ahold of it. We don't see things the way they truly are. We see them the

337
00:16:33.680 --> 00:16:40.320
way that we are on the inside. So that's kind of why I was making the analogy of the sunglasses.

338
00:16:40.320 --> 00:16:45.680
So I want you to be asking the Lord, as I continue in this, like, what are the sunglasses,

339
00:16:45.680 --> 00:16:51.760
if you will, on my heart, what are the lenses that I'm looking at everybody and everything

340
00:16:52.480 --> 00:17:01.680
through the way that I hear stuff, receive stuff. If you hear, like even during coaching sessions,

341
00:17:01.680 --> 00:17:05.839
if you tend to hear a lot of thoughts of shame and guilt and condemnation,

342
00:17:06.720 --> 00:17:11.599
that is from the enemy. And there is a lens that's covering your heart. That's telling you,

343
00:17:11.599 --> 00:17:17.359
you're not good enough. There's healing that needs to happen so that you don't continue to

344
00:17:17.359 --> 00:17:25.280
believe and receive everything that's said through those lenses. She goes on in the book. She says,

345
00:17:25.280 --> 00:17:29.440
for instance, say you were severely hurt by a group of people. They mistreated you,

346
00:17:29.440 --> 00:17:34.560
lied about you, and then discarded you. The heart wounds and lies that were created as a result of

347
00:17:34.560 --> 00:17:40.560
that trauma will give you a skewed perception of groups in the future. You might even avoid groups

348
00:17:40.560 --> 00:17:45.280
or communities of people like the plague, convincing yourself that they are all bad.

349
00:17:46.800 --> 00:17:54.000
So instead of communities, let's insert men, right? If you're hurt by men, some of you might

350
00:17:54.560 --> 00:18:00.480
decide to avoid men like the plague and decide that all men are bad. And even if you

351
00:18:00.480 --> 00:18:07.600
enter relationships, some of you in your hearts really don't like men. You want a relationship,

352
00:18:07.600 --> 00:18:14.160
but you don't like men. And there's no judgment or shame because God knows how you got there in

353
00:18:14.160 --> 00:18:18.640
your heart. He wants to help you. She goes on or you might try again to search for community.

354
00:18:18.640 --> 00:18:24.400
But if you decide to join a similar group in the future, your most significant obstacle to

355
00:18:24.400 --> 00:18:34.880
belonging will be the filter that was created by your prior experience. Okay. So if you have a

356
00:18:34.880 --> 00:18:39.520
piece of paper with you, I want to encourage you, like, if anything's coming up for you right now,

357
00:18:39.520 --> 00:18:45.040
a previous hurt that's coming up in your heart or your spirit, I just want you, or even if you don't

358
00:18:45.040 --> 00:18:48.640
hear it right now, if there's something that comes up as I continue, I want you to write that down

359
00:18:48.640 --> 00:18:53.280
because I don't want you to forget about it because this is how the Holy Spirit reveals

360
00:18:53.280 --> 00:18:59.760
things for healing. You'll hear something, there'll be a whisper, a memory will pop up, or a thought

361
00:18:59.760 --> 00:19:05.840
will happen. And I want to encourage you to lean into those and hear what the Spirit is saying.

362
00:19:07.200 --> 00:19:15.520
Matthew 22 39 says, love your neighbor as you love yourself. So how do we love our neighbors?

363
00:19:15.520 --> 00:19:22.480
If we don't even love ourselves, I talked earlier today a little bit about how many people

364
00:19:23.440 --> 00:19:32.320
I come into contact with that really don't like themselves, like at all, and don't enjoy their

365
00:19:32.320 --> 00:19:37.840
own company. So then they're going and trying to hang out with other people and they're feeling

366
00:19:37.840 --> 00:19:43.120
just discomfort the whole time because they're uncomfortable in their own skin.

367
00:19:45.040 --> 00:19:49.440
And maybe that's not you, but maybe you're the person that looks in the mirror and you just

368
00:19:49.440 --> 00:19:55.760
constantly say mean things to yourself, or about yourself, or I'm so stupid, why did I even think

369
00:19:55.760 --> 00:20:00.000
of that, or I know this. Okay, raise a hand. Who's

370
00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:03.240
Who in this room has ever started a sentence like this?

371
00:20:03.240 --> 00:20:06.440
I know this is gonna sound stupid, but,

372
00:20:06.440 --> 00:20:08.100
and then whatever your sentence is.

373
00:20:08.100 --> 00:20:10.400
Anyone else ever said that?

374
00:20:10.400 --> 00:20:11.820
I think a lot of us.

375
00:20:12.960 --> 00:20:15.120
More of you than realize it right now.

376
00:20:15.120 --> 00:20:16.760
Maybe your phrase is different.

377
00:20:16.760 --> 00:20:18.440
Yes, a lot of us.

378
00:20:18.440 --> 00:20:19.620
Why do we do that?

379
00:20:20.520 --> 00:20:22.480
Where did that thought even come from

380
00:20:22.480 --> 00:20:25.300
that what we're about to say is stupid?

381
00:20:27.040 --> 00:20:28.760
I want you to ask yourself that this week.

382
00:20:28.760 --> 00:20:32.640
Where does that word show up for you?

383
00:20:32.640 --> 00:20:34.840
And again, maybe the word isn't stupid.

384
00:20:34.840 --> 00:20:36.440
Maybe it's something else.

385
00:20:36.440 --> 00:20:41.440
Silly, feeling bad for feeling shy.

386
00:20:43.040 --> 00:20:44.920
You know, these things that we've lived

387
00:20:44.920 --> 00:20:46.200
with our entire lives.

388
00:20:46.200 --> 00:20:48.800
Some of you, since you were kids,

389
00:20:48.800 --> 00:20:50.880
and you don't even understand or realize

390
00:20:50.880 --> 00:20:53.120
that someone said something to you along the way

391
00:20:53.120 --> 00:20:57.140
and you believed them, and now you're living that out.

392
00:20:58.140 --> 00:21:01.320
But that isn't who God originally created you to be.

393
00:21:02.380 --> 00:21:05.360
Forgiveness is not a feeling, it's a choice.

394
00:21:06.780 --> 00:21:10.300
Do you know that some of you, when you choose to forgive,

395
00:21:10.300 --> 00:21:12.460
you're not gonna feel anything at all?

396
00:21:13.660 --> 00:21:15.580
You're not gonna feel tingly.

397
00:21:15.580 --> 00:21:17.660
You're not gonna feel excited.

398
00:21:17.660 --> 00:21:22.220
It's actually gonna feel pretty like nothing.

399
00:21:23.300 --> 00:21:25.500
Like nothing is gonna feel,

400
00:21:25.540 --> 00:21:28.140
like you're not gonna feel this huge shift.

401
00:21:28.140 --> 00:21:31.260
Now, sometimes, yes, you all, that happens.

402
00:21:31.260 --> 00:21:34.040
There's this beautiful spiritual experience

403
00:21:34.040 --> 00:21:37.100
and you feel a release and it's amazing,

404
00:21:37.100 --> 00:21:40.360
but sometimes it's not like that at all.

405
00:21:40.360 --> 00:21:42.940
And I've coached long enough to know

406
00:21:42.940 --> 00:21:46.340
that some of you all are gonna have the big experience

407
00:21:46.340 --> 00:21:47.620
and some of you aren't.

408
00:21:47.620 --> 00:21:49.740
You're not gonna have all those big feelings.

409
00:21:49.740 --> 00:21:52.620
And then you start to compare yourself to someone else.

410
00:21:52.620 --> 00:21:55.200
Well, wait a minute, I don't feel that.

411
00:21:55.900 --> 00:21:56.740
What's wrong with me?

412
00:21:56.740 --> 00:21:57.560
Am I doing this wrong?

413
00:21:57.560 --> 00:21:58.400
Am I not forgiven right?

414
00:21:59.520 --> 00:22:02.680
No, you are, it's just, you gotta walk it out.

415
00:22:02.680 --> 00:22:05.840
And sometimes we just don't feel it in our body,

416
00:22:05.840 --> 00:22:09.160
but it is happening in the supernatural realm.

417
00:22:09.160 --> 00:22:12.320
So your choice to forgive makes a difference

418
00:22:12.320 --> 00:22:14.240
every time you make it.

419
00:22:14.240 --> 00:22:15.640
Okay, I'm gonna read another thing to you.

420
00:22:15.640 --> 00:22:19.580
It says here, when you think of forgiveness as a feeling,

421
00:22:19.580 --> 00:22:23.320
this is what you will do through your whole healing process.

422
00:22:23.320 --> 00:22:26.240
You will forgive and take it back,

423
00:22:26.240 --> 00:22:27.560
forgive and take it back

424
00:22:27.560 --> 00:22:30.840
because you're waiting for that feeling to arrive.

425
00:22:30.840 --> 00:22:33.080
You're waiting for there to be this release

426
00:22:33.080 --> 00:22:36.200
and it's like, oh wait, I changed my mind.

427
00:22:36.200 --> 00:22:39.480
I don't feel good about that person right now.

428
00:22:39.480 --> 00:22:41.800
So they did something else.

429
00:22:41.800 --> 00:22:43.960
And so I'm gonna take my forgiveness back.

430
00:22:43.960 --> 00:22:48.200
Y'all, some of us have had to forgive 70 times seven, huh?

431
00:22:48.200 --> 00:22:49.780
Anybody?

432
00:22:49.780 --> 00:22:51.920
I was in a situation even recently,

433
00:22:51.920 --> 00:22:53.720
I don't know if I even told you all this last week,

434
00:22:53.720 --> 00:22:55.580
my spiritual daughters talk about them all the time.

435
00:22:55.580 --> 00:22:56.900
I love them.

436
00:22:56.900 --> 00:22:58.680
Praise you Lord that they're in my life.

437
00:22:58.680 --> 00:23:01.460
I do, I love them like crazy.

438
00:23:01.460 --> 00:23:04.740
And their dad got so drunk recently,

439
00:23:04.740 --> 00:23:06.720
they were taking care of him.

440
00:23:06.720 --> 00:23:10.060
Like literally he could not function.

441
00:23:10.060 --> 00:23:13.920
And I was pretty angry about that.

442
00:23:13.920 --> 00:23:17.400
But I've learned how to understand that in his brokenness,

443
00:23:17.400 --> 00:23:19.920
he is making unhealthy choices.

444
00:23:19.920 --> 00:23:21.800
And it breaks my heart that my girls

445
00:23:21.800 --> 00:23:23.520
have to go through the things they do

446
00:23:23.520 --> 00:23:25.080
with their biological parents.

447
00:23:25.080 --> 00:23:29.720
But I know that God saved me from so many things

448
00:23:29.720 --> 00:23:32.880
and he rescued me and he's cleaned my heart up

449
00:23:32.880 --> 00:23:33.920
and he has me.

450
00:23:33.920 --> 00:23:37.780
I'm not perfect you all, but man, I get to do this.

451
00:23:37.780 --> 00:23:40.420
I get to come here every week

452
00:23:41.520 --> 00:23:43.540
and share the knowledge that I have,

453
00:23:43.540 --> 00:23:46.420
the experience that I have and hope and believe

454
00:23:46.420 --> 00:23:49.620
for other people to be set free and see it happen.

455
00:23:50.320 --> 00:23:51.980
That's incredible, right?

456
00:23:51.980 --> 00:23:55.540
So if God can do it for me, he can do it for them

457
00:23:55.540 --> 00:23:57.660
and he can do it for you, right?

458
00:23:57.660 --> 00:23:59.860
He can clean up our messes way better

459
00:23:59.860 --> 00:24:01.900
than we could ever imagine it.

460
00:24:01.900 --> 00:24:04.060
I want you to understand that true forgiveness

461
00:24:04.060 --> 00:24:09.060
is a supernatural debt canceling transaction.

462
00:24:09.180 --> 00:24:12.900
How many people in here tonight with a raise of hands

463
00:24:12.900 --> 00:24:14.780
need forgiveness?

464
00:24:14.780 --> 00:24:16.960
Anybody in here need forgiveness?

465
00:24:17.960 --> 00:24:20.200
Let me see you.

466
00:24:20.200 --> 00:24:21.560
Who needs forgiveness?

467
00:24:22.880 --> 00:24:23.920
I do too.

468
00:24:23.920 --> 00:24:24.920
Let's raise my hand.

469
00:24:26.320 --> 00:24:29.580
Sometimes when we're walking in our Christian walk,

470
00:24:29.580 --> 00:24:33.900
we may not do the same sin or choose the same sin

471
00:24:33.900 --> 00:24:35.200
that we used to before.

472
00:24:35.200 --> 00:24:38.040
And so sometimes we get into heart postures

473
00:24:38.040 --> 00:24:43.040
that we think that we're better than other people.

474
00:24:43.900 --> 00:24:46.580
Whether we'll acknowledge that or not,

475
00:24:47.260 --> 00:24:50.620
without even realizing it, pride creeps into our hearts

476
00:24:50.620 --> 00:24:54.100
and sometimes we just need to pause

477
00:24:54.100 --> 00:24:57.860
and really think about all that we've been forgiven of.

478
00:24:59.140 --> 00:24:59.980
Right?

479
00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:04.200
I want you all to think about, and I'm not saying this to shame anyone or make you feel

480
00:25:04.200 --> 00:25:11.940
bad, but it helps us remember all of the goodness that God has shown to us.

481
00:25:11.940 --> 00:25:20.720
When we refuse to forgive, it keeps us in a victim identity longer, okay?

482
00:25:20.720 --> 00:25:24.720
It actually will tether you to the trauma.

483
00:25:24.720 --> 00:25:29.800
It chains you to the hurt, the abuse, whatever the situation was.

484
00:25:29.800 --> 00:25:34.760
That's why I brought up the tether earlier.

485
00:25:34.760 --> 00:25:42.800
When we choose unforgiveness or don't choose to forgive, we remain tethered to that person

486
00:25:42.800 --> 00:25:46.640
in those situations.

487
00:25:46.640 --> 00:25:54.960
So when you think about that, imagine you were chained to the person who hurt you.

488
00:25:54.960 --> 00:25:56.680
Not a good feeling, is it?

489
00:25:56.680 --> 00:25:57.680
No.

490
00:25:57.680 --> 00:26:00.880
Man, I'm like, get me out of here.

491
00:26:00.880 --> 00:26:04.400
I don't want to be tied to those people anymore.

492
00:26:04.400 --> 00:26:10.760
So I want to encourage you to also think on, like for some of you tonight, you just need

493
00:26:10.760 --> 00:26:16.880
to think back on the cross when you first gave your life to Christ and how amazing that

494
00:26:16.880 --> 00:26:20.040
felt and how freeing that felt.

495
00:26:20.040 --> 00:26:25.760
And just ask God to give you the grace and the courage to forgive other people.

496
00:26:25.760 --> 00:26:29.120
Through the empowerment of what has already been given to you.

497
00:26:29.120 --> 00:26:34.440
Do you know that you will not have to forgive on your end, that God's grace can enable you?

498
00:26:34.440 --> 00:26:40.040
Again, you're not going to maybe feel it's a choice, but God's spirit can enable you

499
00:26:40.040 --> 00:26:41.040
to do so.

500
00:26:41.040 --> 00:26:45.720
Ephesians 4.23 says, forgive one another just as God forgave you because of what Christ

501
00:26:45.720 --> 00:26:46.720
has done.

502
00:26:46.720 --> 00:26:54.920
Colossians 3.13 says, remember the Lord forgave you, so you must also forgive others.

503
00:26:55.080 --> 00:26:58.400
You want to forgive all of the characters who played a role in the story.

504
00:26:58.400 --> 00:26:59.400
Okay.

505
00:26:59.400 --> 00:27:06.520
So what I mean by that is if what comes to mind is, let's say you were in high school

506
00:27:06.520 --> 00:27:11.280
and there were a group of girls bullying you, but the main bully is the one that you've

507
00:27:11.280 --> 00:27:12.960
kind of focused on.

508
00:27:12.960 --> 00:27:17.880
Maybe you've already forgiven her, but maybe you didn't forgive the other girls that were

509
00:27:17.880 --> 00:27:19.600
playing a role there.

510
00:27:19.600 --> 00:27:21.360
I didn't come up earlier at all today.

511
00:27:21.360 --> 00:27:22.760
So I believe that's for someone.

512
00:27:22.760 --> 00:27:28.160
I don't know if you were bullied or picked on, maybe it was even elementary school.

513
00:27:28.160 --> 00:27:33.560
Maybe it wasn't high school, but I believe God wants you to forgive all the characters

514
00:27:33.560 --> 00:27:36.240
that played a role in that story.

515
00:27:36.240 --> 00:27:43.480
Maybe for some of you, your ex, your husband, you've worked through forgiveness regarding

516
00:27:43.480 --> 00:27:47.680
him, but maybe there's family members or you get what I'm saying.

517
00:27:47.680 --> 00:27:50.400
Maybe you do have to forgive that main person still.

518
00:27:50.400 --> 00:27:52.160
Maybe there's another layer.

519
00:27:52.160 --> 00:27:55.960
And I want to encourage you all, I try to always remind you that forgiveness is in layers

520
00:27:55.960 --> 00:28:02.200
because sometimes people feel like, at least this is how I felt way back when, when I had

521
00:28:02.200 --> 00:28:06.680
already forgiven my brothers, when I had already forgiven my dad or my mom for the thing, those

522
00:28:06.680 --> 00:28:12.920
were the main people in my life that I had to really work on multiple times.

523
00:28:12.920 --> 00:28:16.240
And I remember thinking like, man, I already worked on this before.

524
00:28:16.240 --> 00:28:18.680
Like God, I thought I already forgave them.

525
00:28:18.680 --> 00:28:21.960
Why is this coming back up again?

526
00:28:21.960 --> 00:28:25.520
And God just started showing me that healing happens in layers.

527
00:28:25.520 --> 00:28:27.920
Forgiveness happens in layers.

528
00:28:27.920 --> 00:28:34.440
Sometimes I'll journey down the road and I'll see the same situation, but I'll have a little

529
00:28:34.440 --> 00:28:40.440
bit more revelation about what happened there or how I felt or the way I was treated.

530
00:28:40.440 --> 00:28:46.400
And I didn't remember this other thing that happened that was kind of connected to the

531
00:28:46.400 --> 00:28:49.280
timeframe of things that were happening.

532
00:28:49.280 --> 00:28:54.120
But back then when I dealt with it, well, I didn't remember this thing over here.

533
00:28:54.120 --> 00:29:00.880
So now it feels like it's connected to all this, but really it's a new piece, right?

534
00:29:00.880 --> 00:29:06.440
So I want to encourage you all just to be willing to take a peek up under the hood.

535
00:29:06.440 --> 00:29:11.240
If the Lord is bringing something back up that you've dealt with before, I don't want

536
00:29:11.240 --> 00:29:14.880
you to panic and worry that you're going to have to go all the way back through that thing

537
00:29:14.880 --> 00:29:16.600
unless the Lord leads you there.

538
00:29:16.600 --> 00:29:19.080
This is why revealing for healing is so important.

539
00:29:19.080 --> 00:29:24.680
You're trusting the Lord to reveal what needs healed.

540
00:29:24.680 --> 00:29:26.480
Okay.

541
00:29:26.480 --> 00:29:28.480
Super important.

542
00:29:28.480 --> 00:29:31.480
Healing takes time.

543
00:29:31.480 --> 00:29:32.840
I'm seeing a couple of hands go up.

544
00:29:32.840 --> 00:29:35.440
Do y'all have questions or are you just practicing?

545
00:29:35.440 --> 00:29:38.880
April, do you have a question?

546
00:29:38.880 --> 00:29:40.120
Oh, go ahead.

547
00:29:40.120 --> 00:29:43.120
I can't hear you.

548
00:29:43.880 --> 00:29:46.880
Okay.

549
00:29:46.880 --> 00:29:49.880
Sorry, this is only my second meeting.

550
00:29:49.880 --> 00:29:51.480
I'm still learning.

551
00:29:51.480 --> 00:29:52.960
It's all right.

552
00:29:52.960 --> 00:30:00.120
Regarding forgiveness, I feel like I can forgive.

553
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:17.000
But like, how do you forget, because that's, that's the part I struggle with, you know, like I speaking of high school, so just a short story, my best friend that I thought I, I thought she was my best friend all through high school.

554
00:30:17.000 --> 00:30:31.000
I have a disability rheumatoid arthritis, and she ended up telling me the week before we graduated high school that she didn't want to be my friend anymore.

555
00:30:32.000 --> 00:30:53.000
And then on our graduation ceremony, she received an award kind of for basically doing me a favor by being my friend is what it came across to me, like, and I have forgiven her but I cannot, I can't, I can't forget.

556
00:30:53.000 --> 00:31:10.000
And I know that it has affected me, you know, I graduated in 2000. And it has affected me as far as like I, I have a hard time getting close and letting having another close friend because that's, that's, that's how, you know, it hurts so bad.

557
00:31:10.000 --> 00:31:16.000
So, I feel like I forgiven her but I can't seem all these years to forget it.

558
00:31:16.000 --> 00:31:30.000
Okay, so what's really important here is you're not necessarily going to forget what happened. Okay. Sometimes, yeah, you'll, you'll get down the road and it'll feel like you live a whole different life, you know, at some point from that thing.

559
00:31:31.000 --> 00:31:55.000
But typically what happens from my experience is when, when, let me think about it this way, I'll describe it this way. If you think about, this is just the idea that's coming to my mind, like if a lion got a thorn in its paw, or a dog or whatever, it feels that thorn there, right?

560
00:31:55.000 --> 00:32:15.000
Well, until that thorn is taken out, that situation is going to feel that thing is going to feel very painful, right? But even after that thorn is taken out, depending on the depth of the wound, if the if it's a deeper cut, there's a scar in there, isn't there?

561
00:32:16.000 --> 00:32:44.000
Well, that scar typically isn't going to go away. It's going to be there, but it can heal over time. And the level of healing can increase the more the time goes on in that sense. Now, in our heart healing process, what typically I have come to know is that, again, if we have forgiven parts of that,

562
00:32:44.000 --> 00:33:04.000
but maybe there's another piece that we need God to reveal to help us move on and release, maybe it's what's coming up in my spirit. Sometimes it's forgiving ourselves. Like I know when I have felt betrayed by a friend before, sometimes I'm kind of like, how did I not see that coming?

563
00:33:05.000 --> 00:33:29.000
And I would get like, I felt mad at myself or even like with the girl's dad, like he was cheating on me all the time with multiple people. Y'all, I didn't, I knew something was off, but I had no clue that was going on. And I felt so foolish and ashamed. And I just got really like, I had unforgiveness even towards myself.

564
00:33:30.000 --> 00:33:39.000
I felt like I should have known better. I should have caught on to that. And so sometimes that's the thing that's holding people back from being able to move forward.

565
00:33:40.000 --> 00:33:58.000
So I believe God will show you in the next few weeks, since you're just in your second week, you're just kind of on the cusp of getting started in this heart healing process. So just be asking the Lord. That's a great question to say, Lord, you know, this situation keeps coming up for me.

566
00:33:59.000 --> 00:34:07.000
Show me what I need to understand to heal in the areas that are needed so I can move forward and be free from this thing.

567
00:34:08.000 --> 00:34:24.000
It does. And I'm glad you brought up the forgiving yourself. And like, you brought up a good point because there were signs that I was, I was just really young and just, you know, trusting people and, you know, I just didn't know any better at that time.

568
00:34:24.000 --> 00:34:43.000
So there were signs that I ignored that, you know, I, yeah, that I maybe wouldn't have been so hurt if I would have paid attention to that. So that is a part of it where I feel like, you know, don't be so foolish and pay attention to, you know, yeah.

569
00:34:43.000 --> 00:35:00.000
Yeah, that's so good. April, thank you so much for sharing. Y'all, it's really important to give a lot of grace to yourself and forgive and release. I'm going to mute you April because I'm going to start to make a shift to release yourselves from the chains that you have even put on.

570
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:03.840
on yourself at times. And here's the truth that you all need to

571
00:35:03.840 --> 00:35:10.360
remember is we didn't know what we didn't know. Until we know

572
00:35:10.360 --> 00:35:15.360
it. We can't go back and change yesterday. But we can we can

573
00:35:15.360 --> 00:35:19.080
hear what God is saying today and move forward. And praise

574
00:35:19.080 --> 00:35:23.200
God like you all are here. And you're learning and you're

575
00:35:23.200 --> 00:35:25.960
growing and you're investing in your own heart healing and

576
00:35:25.960 --> 00:35:30.480
health. And that is incredible. So you can change your tomorrows

577
00:35:30.480 --> 00:35:34.720
with the Lord. And I want to encourage you all as I prepare

578
00:35:34.720 --> 00:35:37.600
you for your breakout sessions, I'm not going to read the whole

579
00:35:37.600 --> 00:35:42.200
prayer, but I want to just encourage you to in your books.

580
00:35:43.400 --> 00:35:47.840
Even those of you that are not on this week, in your book, not

581
00:35:47.840 --> 00:35:51.520
read the chapter, but I just want you this week to I'm going

582
00:35:51.520 --> 00:35:54.240
to look to tell you the chapter, the page number will be

583
00:35:54.240 --> 00:35:58.880
different for you. But in chapter 11 of your ebook, there

584
00:35:58.880 --> 00:36:03.680
is a prayer that's called the forgiveness prayer. Okay. And

585
00:36:03.680 --> 00:36:07.080
it's, I'm just basically going to read it to you as an example.

586
00:36:07.080 --> 00:36:09.000
I'm going to read you her example version as you're

587
00:36:09.000 --> 00:36:12.240
preparing your hearts. For who is it? This is going to be the

588
00:36:12.240 --> 00:36:14.840
question when you go into breakout, who do you need to

589
00:36:14.840 --> 00:36:19.200
forgive tonight? And why? And even if you've done this

590
00:36:19.200 --> 00:36:23.160
breakout before, I want to encourage you to ask the Lord,

591
00:36:23.160 --> 00:36:25.720
is there anybody new that's come into your mind tonight that

592
00:36:25.720 --> 00:36:28.840
God is revealing to you? This is the prayer in the book, dear

593
00:36:28.840 --> 00:36:32.440
Heavenly Father, in the name of the Lord Jesus, I purpose and

594
00:36:32.440 --> 00:36:36.800
choose to forgive my father for abandoning our family. Again,

595
00:36:36.800 --> 00:36:42.200
this is her example. I release my father, I cancel their debts

596
00:36:42.200 --> 00:36:46.480
and obligations to me in this issue. Dear Lord, I ask you to

597
00:36:46.480 --> 00:36:49.960
forgive me for my bitterness towards my father in this

598
00:36:50.000 --> 00:36:54.720
situation. In the name of Jesus, I cancel all Satan's power and

599
00:36:54.720 --> 00:36:58.760
authority over me in this issue, because I have forgiven them and

600
00:36:58.760 --> 00:37:04.320
God has forgiven me. It is done and over. Holy Spirit, please

601
00:37:04.320 --> 00:37:07.880
come and heal my heart and tell me your truth about this

602
00:37:07.880 --> 00:37:12.480
situation. So you can put whoever the person is for you in

603
00:37:12.480 --> 00:37:16.560
those slots, whatever it is that they did to you, and partner

604
00:37:17.000 --> 00:37:21.560
those truths and ask God to continue to give you revelation

605
00:37:21.640 --> 00:37:24.400
so that you can be set free. All right, I'm going to get your

606
00:37:24.400 --> 00:37:27.080
breakout rooms ready. I'm excited for you all to go in for

607
00:37:27.080 --> 00:37:30.160
those that have never done breakout sessions. Basically, I'm

608
00:37:30.160 --> 00:37:32.960
going to set it up here digitally. And I'm going to push

609
00:37:32.960 --> 00:37:35.680
a button and there will be a pop up for you to join the room,

610
00:37:35.720 --> 00:37:37.920
you're going to be in there with people you've never met before,

611
00:37:37.920 --> 00:37:43.840
just get to know each other. It'll be really good. And I

612
00:37:43.840 --> 00:37:48.800
always encourage you all to take a risk, get out of your

613
00:37:48.800 --> 00:37:52.000
comfort zone and open up and just see man what God wants to

614
00:37:52.000 --> 00:37:55.800
do in your conversations. Okay, I'm praying for you all. If you

615
00:37:55.800 --> 00:37:59.240
can't go into breakouts, that's fine. If you get into a room and

616
00:37:59.240 --> 00:38:01.720
nobody else is in there yet, please wait because I'll get you

617
00:38:01.720 --> 00:38:04.880
situated. Okay, I won't leave you there by yourself alone for

618
00:38:04.880 --> 00:38:08.920
long. Here you go. Okay, so who do you need to forgive tonight

619
00:38:08.920 --> 00:38:12.520
and why? Go ahead and click to join those rooms. Oh, I didn't

620
00:38:12.520 --> 00:38:21.080
do it yet. Sorry. Here you go. Click to join those rooms. All

621
00:38:21.080 --> 00:38:22.840
right, join, join, join.

622
00:38:37.200 --> 00:38:40.760
All right, Father, we just thank you right now for everything

623
00:38:40.760 --> 00:38:45.760
that you're doing in the hearts and the minds and the bodies and

624
00:38:45.760 --> 00:38:49.040
spirits and souls of every lady that's a part of this live

625
00:38:49.040 --> 00:38:51.400
session tonight, as well as those that are watching the

626
00:38:51.400 --> 00:38:57.280
replay, or we thank you even for your goodness and your mercy

627
00:38:57.280 --> 00:39:00.080
that's new every morning. As I was praying earlier, we thank

628
00:39:00.080 --> 00:39:04.480
you for redeeming and restoring our lives, for rebuilding us

629
00:39:04.480 --> 00:39:08.320
from the fallen ashes and the rubble and the mess. And we

630
00:39:08.320 --> 00:39:12.320
thank you that you are making all things new in your perfect

631
00:39:12.320 --> 00:39:15.960
timing. We thank you, God, for transforming us by the renewing

632
00:39:15.960 --> 00:39:19.480
of our minds that all things have passed away. And behold,

633
00:39:19.480 --> 00:39:23.280
everything has become new and new. I thank you that the words

634
00:39:23.280 --> 00:39:27.080
that have been said over us by other people are null and void.

635
00:39:27.240 --> 00:39:30.040
Your voice is the one that we need to listen to. You're the

636
00:39:30.040 --> 00:39:35.280
identity giver. I thank you, God, that you are coming in and

637
00:39:35.280 --> 00:39:38.240
just speaking truth and love to your daughters tonight. I

638
00:39:38.240 --> 00:39:40.520
thank you that you're helping us to hear what your spirit is

639
00:39:40.520 --> 00:39:43.840
saying louder than any voice of the enemy. I thank you that your

640
00:39:43.840 --> 00:39:47.280
word declares that you will shut the mouths of the lion's high

641
00:39:47.280 --> 00:39:51.040
sky. Are you just joining us? Or did you get kicked out? Oh.

642
00:39:56.720 --> 00:40:00.040
Thank you, Lord, for your truth for your revelation power.

643
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:06.880
I thank you, God, that you are continuing to give us higher understanding and revelation of what

644
00:40:06.880 --> 00:40:12.240
the kingdom of heaven looks like, feels like. I thank you that you would help us, Lord, to lean

645
00:40:12.240 --> 00:40:17.680
into your truth, that we would stay alert and watch out for our great enemy, the devil. He is

646
00:40:17.680 --> 00:40:24.320
the one that prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking those in whom he might devour. But we

647
00:40:24.320 --> 00:40:29.440
thank you, God, for your hedge of protection around us, that you are guiding us into all

648
00:40:29.440 --> 00:40:34.320
truth and anointing us for all of our lives and walking, calling and leading us deeper into Jesus

649
00:40:34.320 --> 00:40:40.720
today. I thank you that we will, that Jesus yourself, you said, I will not speak with you

650
00:40:40.720 --> 00:40:47.120
much longer for the ruler of the world, Satan is coming and he has no claim on me, no power over me

651
00:40:47.120 --> 00:40:53.680
nor anything that he can use against me. Ladies, that is a revelation, powerful insight that

652
00:40:53.680 --> 00:41:00.560
nothing, no power, Satan has no power over Jesus Christ. Therefore, the same power that rose Jesus

653
00:41:00.560 --> 00:41:04.640
Christ from the dead that's living in us and operating through those of us that have accepted

654
00:41:04.640 --> 00:41:11.360
Jesus as our Lord and Savior, it's setting us free, it's transforming our lives, it can change

655
00:41:11.360 --> 00:41:18.400
any darkness into the light. When light comes into a room, darkness cannot exist there at all. All

656
00:41:18.400 --> 00:41:27.440
darkness has to flee in Jesus name. I also just feel led to read this part, it says, forgiveness has

657
00:41:27.440 --> 00:41:33.600
yet another benefit and that is protecting you from the enemy's future plans and plots against

658
00:41:33.600 --> 00:41:39.840
you. While he is disempowered by what Jesus did on the cross, we can re-empower him through our

659
00:41:39.840 --> 00:41:47.280
unwillingness to forgive. We give the enemy, Satan, legal access to our lives when we hold grudges,

660
00:41:47.280 --> 00:41:52.160
nurture anger, harbor resentment, or cultivate bitterness through unforgiveness. Ladies, you might

661
00:41:52.160 --> 00:41:57.200
hear me read this to the ladies again in the future if you are watching the replay right now.

662
00:41:57.200 --> 00:42:04.800
That's so good, I've got to bring that back to them here in a little bit. Ephesians 4 27 says, do not give

663
00:42:04.800 --> 00:42:09.680
place to the enemy, don't give him legal access to your life and your family, do not give the devil

664
00:42:09.680 --> 00:42:15.120
an opportunity to lead you into sin by holding a grudge or nurturing anger or harboring resentment

665
00:42:15.120 --> 00:42:23.520
or cultivating bitterness. I thank you Jesus for the power of your blood that comes and we lose

666
00:42:24.640 --> 00:42:30.400
every, I'm sorry, and we choose this night to bind every spirit of unforgiveness, every spirit of

667
00:42:30.400 --> 00:42:37.200
bitterness, wrath, anger, malice, outbursts of rage, violence, murder, retaliation, hatred, self-hatred,

668
00:42:37.200 --> 00:42:43.120
self-loathing, self-pity in Jesus name. And we loosen them in the name of Jesus Christ and by

669
00:42:43.120 --> 00:42:47.920
the power of your blood, a spirit of love and of power and of a sound mind, a spirit of forgiveness,

670
00:42:47.920 --> 00:42:54.080
a spirit of reconciliation, a spirit of healing, a spirit of peace in Jesus name over you and your

671
00:42:54.080 --> 00:42:59.440
family. We thank you Lord that you bestow on us a crown of beauty instead of ashes. That's from

672
00:42:59.440 --> 00:43:09.440
Isaiah 61 3 ladies. God is giving us a crown of beauty instead of ashes. I want to encourage you

673
00:43:09.440 --> 00:43:14.320
just to lean into that thought of if you can imagine in your mind's eye like what would it be

674
00:43:14.320 --> 00:43:23.120
like to to really consider being a princess in a kingdom where there's a castle and you're coming

675
00:43:23.120 --> 00:43:30.080
before the king and he's crowning you and he's restoring you and placing you in your proper

676
00:43:31.280 --> 00:43:37.680
place in the royal kingdom and that is what's happening for you in the spirit realm. Jesus is

677
00:43:37.680 --> 00:43:45.520
saying come and be set free tonight and in the days ahead. It is up to us to partner with the truth

678
00:43:47.360 --> 00:43:50.800
to partner with everything that God has for us.

679
00:43:53.520 --> 00:44:00.000
Psalms 51 10 says create in me a clean heart oh God and renew a steadfast spirit within us. Lord I

680
00:44:00.000 --> 00:44:05.200
thank you that even right now that you would soften hardened stony hearts any area of our

681
00:44:05.200 --> 00:44:09.920
heart that is not soft and pliable to you. I thank you that you would remove those parts of our hearts

682
00:44:11.120 --> 00:44:15.440
and we give you permission tonight to come in and till the soil of our hearts

683
00:44:16.320 --> 00:44:24.320
so that we can get closer to you Jesus. Ladies just a reminder that God sent his son Jesus to

684
00:44:24.320 --> 00:44:30.720
die on the cross for our sins so that we could be forgiven so that we could be healed and redeemed

685
00:44:30.720 --> 00:44:35.920
and set free but also so that we could be in relationship with Jesus Christ as he's in

686
00:44:35.920 --> 00:44:41.280
relationship with the father and with the holy spirit. So because of Jesus's sacrifice

687
00:44:41.840 --> 00:44:46.480
we have the ability to enter relationship. Hi Shirai can you hear me?

688
00:44:49.840 --> 00:44:53.760
Yes I can hear you. Okay awesome I'm going to put you in your breakout. I think you were

689
00:44:53.760 --> 00:44:58.800
your connection was a little um sticky there. They're still talking about forgiveness. Here you go.

690
00:44:58.800 --> 00:44:59.760
Okay

691
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:08.680
Thanks. Uh huh. So we just continue Lord in that heart

692
00:45:08.680 --> 00:45:13.280
posture of surrender, that you would help us Lord tonight to

693
00:45:13.280 --> 00:45:17.840
surrender the pain of the past, and to trust Lord that you're

694
00:45:17.840 --> 00:45:22.160
going to turn all of our pain into purpose, when we trust that

695
00:45:22.160 --> 00:45:25.640
all into your hands. So even the conversations that were

696
00:45:25.640 --> 00:45:28.560
happening before they went into breakouts, or even now ladies

697
00:45:28.560 --> 00:45:33.000
that are hearing your voice, Lord, I thank you that you would

698
00:45:33.000 --> 00:45:35.800
help them to hear what your spirit is saying in a fresh way.

699
00:45:35.800 --> 00:45:39.080
Hi, Nicole. They're they have like a minute and 30 seconds

700
00:45:39.080 --> 00:45:41.640
left in this breakout. They're talking about forgiveness. Do

701
00:45:41.640 --> 00:45:43.440
you want me to put you in a room anyways?

702
00:45:44.560 --> 00:45:46.920
No, I'm okay. I'll just wait. Okay. Thank you.

703
00:45:47.080 --> 00:45:49.200
Yeah, you're welcome there. They'll be back soon.

704
00:45:49.680 --> 00:45:51.760
All right. Sorry, I had to jump off the call earlier this

705
00:45:51.760 --> 00:45:53.200
afternoon. I had a call.

706
00:45:53.440 --> 00:45:57.040
It's totally fine. It's we went we went long. It's it's totally

707
00:45:57.040 --> 00:46:01.280
great that you're back. I'm just praying for everybody and

708
00:46:01.280 --> 00:46:05.320
stuff. Yeah, watch the replay. So and so Lord, we just thank

709
00:46:05.320 --> 00:46:08.320
you. I think where I was going with that is that just that

710
00:46:08.320 --> 00:46:12.560
heart attitude of surrender. God, people that you're bringing

711
00:46:12.560 --> 00:46:17.040
to our minds Lord, that we're not saying it's okay that what

712
00:46:17.040 --> 00:46:22.440
they did. But we're saying that we choose forgiveness that we

713
00:46:22.440 --> 00:46:26.560
would choose to see them through your eyes. See situations

714
00:46:26.560 --> 00:46:28.480
through your eyes. And that doesn't mean we have to come

715
00:46:28.480 --> 00:46:32.720
into close contact with them or be in close relationship. Unless

716
00:46:32.720 --> 00:46:36.480
that is where really where you lead Lord, but Lord that our

717
00:46:36.480 --> 00:46:41.920
hearts would be the key here, that we would be willing to be

718
00:46:41.920 --> 00:46:46.920
made willing to forgive, to choose life to choose hope to

719
00:46:46.920 --> 00:46:50.960
choose the higher road. Lord, your word declares that your

720
00:46:50.960 --> 00:46:54.000
ways are above our ways and your thoughts are above our thoughts.

721
00:46:54.120 --> 00:46:57.800
So Lord help us tonight to have a little bit more heavenly

722
00:46:57.800 --> 00:47:02.160
perspective a little bit more heavenly understanding of what

723
00:47:02.160 --> 00:47:05.560
your plan and your purposes for our lives as well as the lives

724
00:47:05.560 --> 00:47:10.480
of those around us. We thank you that you'll help us to release

725
00:47:10.480 --> 00:47:15.520
those that have harmed us. And just even right now I'm just

726
00:47:15.520 --> 00:47:19.040
seeing I don't know, sometimes I see funny things, but I just

727
00:47:19.040 --> 00:47:20.840
have to speak them out because I never know who's going to

728
00:47:20.840 --> 00:47:23.600
minister to I just saw someone on a little bike and another

729
00:47:23.600 --> 00:47:27.560
kid coming up and pushing the kid off the bike. So Lord, I

730
00:47:27.560 --> 00:47:30.480
don't know who that's for. I just thank you Lord that even as

731
00:47:30.480 --> 00:47:34.640
little kids when we are wounded, maybe it was a sibling that

732
00:47:34.640 --> 00:47:38.600
pushed the kid off the bike. Lord, I thank you that you'll

733
00:47:38.600 --> 00:47:42.160
help us to forgive those that have harmed us in any ways. And

734
00:47:42.160 --> 00:47:45.000
maybe even the that image, I feel like that could also

735
00:47:45.000 --> 00:47:50.840
represent dreams and ideas that we had as children or even child

736
00:47:50.840 --> 00:47:56.280
likeness that we had that was pushed and stolen, you know,

737
00:47:56.280 --> 00:48:01.080
it's pushed away and stolen by the enemy forcefully. And so

738
00:48:01.080 --> 00:48:04.040
Lord, we just thank you that you would help us to come into

739
00:48:04.280 --> 00:48:08.080
unity with where you're leading us that you would awaken us to

740
00:48:08.080 --> 00:48:13.360
new dreams to new understanding to new revelation. Lord, I thank

741
00:48:13.360 --> 00:48:16.160
you that you would help us to come a little closer to your

742
00:48:16.160 --> 00:48:19.520
heart that we would open the door and let you come in. I

743
00:48:19.520 --> 00:48:22.920
thank you that your word declares in 20, Revelation 21,

744
00:48:22.920 --> 00:48:26.240
four, he will wipe away every tear from their eyes and

745
00:48:26.240 --> 00:48:31.000
eliminate death entirely. No one will mourn or weep any longer

746
00:48:31.000 --> 00:48:35.640
the pain of wounds will no longer exist for the old order

747
00:48:35.640 --> 00:48:39.640
has passed. Oh, that's awesome. That's a good word. Welcome

748
00:48:39.640 --> 00:48:44.720
back. Um, I want someone or a couple people to get ready to

749
00:48:44.720 --> 00:48:47.800
share. We're not going to do a lot of coaching right now. I

750
00:48:47.800 --> 00:48:50.240
want a couple people just to share openly. I know it can be

751
00:48:50.240 --> 00:48:53.960
tough, but what you share tonight about who you're

752
00:48:53.960 --> 00:48:57.480
choosing to forgive might help other people break free. Okay.

753
00:48:57.640 --> 00:48:59.400
So I want to encourage you in that I want to read one more

754
00:48:59.400 --> 00:49:02.360
thing to you. It says this forgiveness has yet another

755
00:49:02.360 --> 00:49:06.280
benefit, and that is protecting you from the enemy's future

756
00:49:06.280 --> 00:49:10.960
plans and plots against you. While he is disempowered by what

757
00:49:10.960 --> 00:49:14.440
Jesus did on the cross, we can re-empower him through our

758
00:49:14.440 --> 00:49:18.680
unwillingness to forgive. We give the enemy legal access to

759
00:49:18.680 --> 00:49:23.240
our lives when we hold grudges, nurture anger, harbor resentment

760
00:49:23.280 --> 00:49:28.920
or cultivate bitterness through unforgiveness. Okay, so just I

761
00:49:28.920 --> 00:49:31.320
came across that while I was praying and I was like, Oh my

762
00:49:31.320 --> 00:49:35.240
gosh, that's really good. Um, so who is willing to share with

763
00:49:35.240 --> 00:49:38.400
the whole group who you are forgiving tonight? Awesome.

764
00:49:38.400 --> 00:49:39.440
Shirai, go ahead.

765
00:49:43.280 --> 00:49:49.720
The minute you said, uh, unforgiveness, um, I immediately

766
00:49:49.760 --> 00:49:52.600
the first thing that came to my head was my name.

767
00:49:54.520 --> 00:49:58.080
Okay. Do you want to tell us what you're forgiving yourself

768
00:49:58.080 --> 00:49:58.840
for tonight?

769
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:07.940
Um, I just feel like I've been really foolish in my relationships with men, as far as like

770
00:50:07.940 --> 00:50:19.480
changing who I am to fit them, so that I wouldn't be by myself.

771
00:50:19.480 --> 00:50:30.200
I think I blamed myself a long time for my sexual assault when I was 16 years old.

772
00:50:30.200 --> 00:50:37.200
So it's a, and I think that, excuse me, I think because of that, I put on a whole bunch

773
00:50:37.200 --> 00:50:44.840
of weight over the years and haven't been able to like, really let it let let it go.

774
00:50:44.840 --> 00:50:55.160
Because of all of that, like I've hidden underneath my, my weight, not purposely, I guess, but

775
00:50:55.160 --> 00:50:56.160
this is so good.

776
00:50:56.160 --> 00:50:57.160
Right.

777
00:50:57.160 --> 00:50:58.160
I'm so proud of you for sharing.

778
00:50:58.160 --> 00:50:59.240
This is awesome.

779
00:50:59.240 --> 00:51:04.600
So okay, when I want to ask you something, the question Stephanie K is who are you choosing

780
00:51:04.600 --> 00:51:08.640
to forgive tonight and why?

781
00:51:08.640 --> 00:51:14.200
When you said about foolish in relationships with men, the first like popped up right away,

782
00:51:14.200 --> 00:51:20.320
when is the first time you feel like you made a decision to be foolish with men?

783
00:51:20.320 --> 00:51:22.840
When's the first time that comes to mind?

784
00:51:22.840 --> 00:51:28.520
I definitely think it was with my, my first, the first relationship I ever had.

785
00:51:28.520 --> 00:51:33.880
Um, my mom warned me, I met him on key harmony.

786
00:51:33.880 --> 00:51:41.600
Um, we dated for almost three years and I thought he was the person I was going to marry.

787
00:51:41.600 --> 00:51:46.440
Um, I had never had sex outside of marriage or anything like that.

788
00:51:46.440 --> 00:51:55.560
And I, and I excused myself from that because I thought I was going to marry him.

789
00:51:55.560 --> 00:51:59.880
And I, and it didn't end up happening that way.

790
00:51:59.880 --> 00:52:07.800
And he in fact, less than six months after we broke up, he was engaged to someone else.

791
00:52:07.800 --> 00:52:13.640
And so I just feel, I guess I've carried that, I know I've carried that for a long

792
00:52:13.640 --> 00:52:22.520
time that I just feel foolish for like giving myself away and, and, and, and going against

793
00:52:22.520 --> 00:52:30.800
my own, my own values that I had, that I had that, that I had treasured since a teenager

794
00:52:30.800 --> 00:52:35.800
that I, you know, because I didn't, because I thought that he was, I thought he was the

795
00:52:35.800 --> 00:52:41.160
one I was going to marry and it didn't, and it didn't end up happening that way.

796
00:52:41.160 --> 00:52:46.200
And I've, it hurt, that hurt a lot.

797
00:52:46.200 --> 00:52:49.800
So I'm going to walk through, yeah, so I'm going to walk you through something right

798
00:52:49.800 --> 00:52:50.800
now.

799
00:52:50.800 --> 00:52:53.480
I've never done this, but I feel like I need to do this with you right now.

800
00:52:53.480 --> 00:53:00.480
So Shirai, I encourage you right now just to say, Shirai, I forgive you.

801
00:53:01.480 --> 00:53:06.480
It's so hard.

802
00:53:09.480 --> 00:53:13.480
Shirai, I forgive you.

803
00:53:13.480 --> 00:53:15.520
It's a choice, ladies.

804
00:53:15.520 --> 00:53:17.040
It's a choice.

805
00:53:17.040 --> 00:53:22.680
I also feel like it's super important to say that when we are sexually assaulted under,

806
00:53:22.680 --> 00:53:28.880
you know, at any point, okay, at any point, it's not our fault, sexual assault, right?

807
00:53:28.880 --> 00:53:35.160
When you are under the age of 18, like you all, why, why are people blaming themselves

808
00:53:35.160 --> 00:53:39.440
and taking responsibility upon themselves for that?

809
00:53:39.440 --> 00:53:43.840
That's the enemy trying to tell you, you were at fault and responsible for something that

810
00:53:43.840 --> 00:53:49.800
was not your fault.

811
00:53:49.800 --> 00:53:53.360
Super important to not take that responsibility on yourself.

812
00:53:53.880 --> 00:53:59.400
Shirai, I think God also, I felt really specifically like you needed to hear your own name and

813
00:53:59.400 --> 00:54:06.040
say, I forgive you again, remember forgiveness is not a feeling you might not feel it fully,

814
00:54:06.040 --> 00:54:07.040
but it's going to happen.

815
00:54:07.040 --> 00:54:08.200
It is happening.

816
00:54:08.200 --> 00:54:13.360
The other thought that I had is that I saw almost like a, you know, we, I kind of encouraged

817
00:54:13.360 --> 00:54:16.720
some of you all that have been here for a few weeks to do the silhouette and that whole

818
00:54:16.720 --> 00:54:17.720
exercise.

819
00:54:17.720 --> 00:54:21.960
But specifically Shirai, I want you to kind of tonight when you go home, it doesn't have

820
00:54:21.960 --> 00:54:23.240
to be a whole silhouette.

821
00:54:23.240 --> 00:54:27.320
Literally just draw an outline of your, like a head, like whatever you think your head

822
00:54:27.320 --> 00:54:28.320
looks like.

823
00:54:28.320 --> 00:54:32.680
You do a little side pony, whatever, but like literally write the word.

824
00:54:32.680 --> 00:54:33.680
Cause it's not going to stay here.

825
00:54:33.680 --> 00:54:37.200
So when I say this, don't everyone don't let me lose you.

826
00:54:37.200 --> 00:54:38.680
I want you to write the first one.

827
00:54:38.680 --> 00:54:44.160
I want you to write foolish across the top of your head, but then I want you to put a

828
00:54:44.160 --> 00:54:48.240
big old X through that.

829
00:54:48.240 --> 00:54:52.520
And I want you to create another silhouette and I want you to fill it with the truth.

830
00:54:52.520 --> 00:54:55.920
Again, this doesn't have to be an actual artist picture.

831
00:54:55.920 --> 00:54:56.920
Ladies.

832
00:54:56.920 --> 00:55:00.040
If y'all get caught up in that, you'll never do these activations.

833
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:04.840
But if some of you will do these activations, they will be the thing that like, it's going

834
00:55:04.840 --> 00:55:06.600
to make everything connect for you.

835
00:55:06.600 --> 00:55:11.080
And you're going to be set free from things that you have battled your entire lives.

836
00:55:11.080 --> 00:55:14.680
She's sitting here telling herself in a sense, I'm foolish.

837
00:55:14.680 --> 00:55:15.680
I'm foolish.

838
00:55:15.680 --> 00:55:18.240
Mom told me, no, I kept going.

839
00:55:18.240 --> 00:55:21.480
I went against my own values.

840
00:55:21.480 --> 00:55:24.700
And so I feel foolish, but she's not foolish.

841
00:55:24.700 --> 00:55:27.000
She didn't know what she didn't know back then.

842
00:55:27.000 --> 00:55:32.440
Yes, sometimes we do God's, God's warning us, you all God warned me in that prior relationship

843
00:55:32.440 --> 00:55:33.440
too.

844
00:55:33.440 --> 00:55:41.840
And I did, I felt foolish, but that doesn't mean I was not smart or that I was a foolish

845
00:55:41.840 --> 00:55:42.840
person.

846
00:55:42.840 --> 00:55:44.940
I just made a foolish decision.

847
00:55:44.940 --> 00:55:46.840
Do you see the difference?

848
00:55:46.840 --> 00:55:53.880
There's a difference between making a foolish decision and me claiming foolish me, Bethany

849
00:55:53.880 --> 00:55:59.540
foolish as a part of my identity.

850
00:55:59.540 --> 00:56:05.540
So it's, it's like separate those just like the enemy wants you to just believe that you're

851
00:56:05.540 --> 00:56:09.980
not a value that you can never make a good choice ever again, because you made a mistake

852
00:56:09.980 --> 00:56:12.940
and maybe you made a mistake more than once.

853
00:56:12.940 --> 00:56:16.480
Therefore you are foolish.

854
00:56:16.480 --> 00:56:19.060
It's an identity statement.

855
00:56:19.060 --> 00:56:20.820
Okay.

856
00:56:20.820 --> 00:56:22.860
So maybe your word isn't foolish ladies.

857
00:56:22.860 --> 00:56:27.860
Again, earlier came up stupid, whatever that identity word is that the enemy tries to get

858
00:56:27.860 --> 00:56:30.820
you to use to define yourself.

859
00:56:30.820 --> 00:56:35.920
Those are the things that we need to discard and say, okay, yeah, I struggle at times with

860
00:56:35.920 --> 00:56:42.700
making foolish decisions, but I am a daughter of the King.

861
00:56:42.700 --> 00:56:44.400
I am the beloved.

862
00:56:44.400 --> 00:56:45.400
I am loved.

863
00:56:45.400 --> 00:56:46.400
I am cherished.

864
00:56:46.400 --> 00:56:47.560
I am wise.

865
00:56:47.560 --> 00:56:49.560
I can walk in discernment.

866
00:56:49.560 --> 00:56:51.840
I can hear the words of the Lord.

867
00:56:51.840 --> 00:56:57.100
I am his sheep and I hear his voice and I obey all that he tells me to do.

868
00:56:57.100 --> 00:57:02.580
Man, do you, I mean like literally y'all, I didn't use to, to be able to shift that

869
00:57:02.580 --> 00:57:08.340
quick, but as soon as I start doing that, I want to get up in here and shout even myself

870
00:57:08.340 --> 00:57:14.540
when I start talking like that, because I'm partnering with truth where the spirit of

871
00:57:14.540 --> 00:57:15.860
the Lord is, there is freedom.

872
00:57:15.860 --> 00:57:16.860
There is liberty.

873
00:57:16.860 --> 00:57:20.660
The truth is what sets us free.

874
00:57:20.680 --> 00:57:26.400
So tonight, what truth do you need to cling to and let go of these identity statements

875
00:57:26.400 --> 00:57:28.600
that have labeled you and kept you?

876
00:57:28.600 --> 00:57:32.360
I didn't mean to go into that, but I feel like that is so paired with forgiveness tonight

877
00:57:32.360 --> 00:57:39.640
for this group, forgiving yourself and setting yourself free.

878
00:57:39.640 --> 00:57:42.720
I did this earlier today and it's coming back up in my spirit.

879
00:57:42.720 --> 00:57:43.720
So I'm going to do it again.

880
00:57:43.720 --> 00:57:48.560
I want you to close your eyes, all of you, like whoever's willing to trust me, close

881
00:57:48.560 --> 00:57:55.780
your eyes and I want you to imagine yourself sitting inside of a prison cell.

882
00:57:55.780 --> 00:58:01.100
I know it sounds crazy, but I just want you to imagine yourself there, but here's the

883
00:58:01.100 --> 00:58:02.100
kicker.

884
00:58:02.100 --> 00:58:11.780
I want you to see the door open and I want you to see the prison door open right now.

885
00:58:11.780 --> 00:58:17.900
And I want you to hear the voice of the father saying to you, come out.

886
00:58:18.240 --> 00:58:21.640
The door is already open for you.

887
00:58:21.640 --> 00:58:23.960
Jesus died.

888
00:58:23.960 --> 00:58:28.000
His blood was shed so that you could be set free.

889
00:58:28.000 --> 00:58:34.480
So come out, come out of the prison, come out and be free, come and spend time with

890
00:58:34.480 --> 00:58:35.980
me.

891
00:58:35.980 --> 00:58:36.980
Y'all can open your eyes.

892
00:58:36.980 --> 00:58:39.080
I want you to kind of carry that with you this week.

893
00:58:39.080 --> 00:58:43.520
When you're thinking about the areas that you struggle with, you're not always going

894
00:58:43.520 --> 00:58:48.980
to feel like that door's open, but that doesn't mean it's not open.

895
00:58:48.980 --> 00:58:50.980
Okay?

896
00:58:50.980 --> 00:58:55.660
Partnering with the truth is something we have to practice.

897
00:58:55.660 --> 00:59:00.220
So I don't want you to shame yourself if you struggle some days because you're going to,

898
00:59:00.220 --> 00:59:03.940
but that's why you're here in community and we can speak true to you and we can encourage

899
00:59:03.940 --> 00:59:10.900
you and coach you and love you in a safe environment, help you process things that some of you have

900
00:59:10.900 --> 00:59:14.200
never processed so that you can move forward on you.

901
00:59:14.200 --> 00:59:15.200
Go ahead.

902
00:59:15.200 --> 00:59:16.200
I'm sorry.

903
00:59:16.200 --> 00:59:17.200
I just saw your hand.

904
00:59:17.200 --> 00:59:20.080
No worries.

905
00:59:20.080 --> 00:59:24.720
So I I've been working through forgiveness stuff cause that's the week that I'm on, which

906
00:59:24.720 --> 00:59:26.360
has been good.

907
00:59:26.360 --> 00:59:31.640
And I think something that I've kind of realized is as I've been forgiving, there's been a

908
00:59:31.640 --> 00:59:37.080
couple of people where there's just been a lot of stuff surrounding some situations.

909
00:59:38.080 --> 00:59:43.780
Um, you were talking about the filter or the rose or the colored glasses, and that was

910
00:59:43.780 --> 00:59:47.380
even the language I've been using where they, they like colored my view.

911
00:59:47.380 --> 00:59:52.300
And I realized there's been a lot of these different scenarios that I feel like have

912
00:59:52.300 --> 00:59:58.780
almost compounded these beliefs in me or they like, you know, prove they're the evidence

913
00:59:58.780 --> 01:00:00.020
for why I believe what I believe.

914
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:06.300
believe in. So I, yeah, I basically got to the part where I just, I felt like it is myself,

915
01:00:06.300 --> 01:00:11.120
which the Lord was even speaking to me a couple of weeks ago. And I started to, I haven't

916
01:00:11.120 --> 01:00:15.880
touched that one yet with the forgiveness sheet, maybe because I knew there'd be a lot,

917
01:00:15.880 --> 01:00:22.760
but I'm seeing even some of the things coming up and recognizing it's like forgiving myself

918
01:00:22.760 --> 01:00:33.560
for believing those lies. Um, even for believing, maybe they didn't necessarily intentionally,

919
01:00:33.560 --> 01:00:38.640
you know, do things that they did that would make me not feel good about myself. But it's

920
01:00:38.640 --> 01:00:46.840
like, it just was like another, see, not enough, not enough, not enough. So, cause it was,

921
01:00:46.840 --> 01:00:50.420
yeah, there were, there were different scenarios for different people, but that kind of has

922
01:00:50.420 --> 01:00:58.740
been the, the theme throughout it, like me as I am not enough. And so then I have to

923
01:00:58.740 --> 01:01:06.860
either perform or I have to be perfect or I have to, if I do everything right, then

924
01:01:06.860 --> 01:01:12.380
no one can say that there's anything wrong with me or whatever, but yeah. So I, that's

925
01:01:12.380 --> 01:01:19.660
kind of where I'm getting to is just forgiving myself for believing the lies.

926
01:01:19.660 --> 01:01:24.740
That's so good. And when you were sharing Anya, I was thinking about also in church

927
01:01:24.740 --> 01:01:31.300
context. Okay. Obviously we are, we are a business tree is what Jackie calls it because

928
01:01:31.300 --> 01:01:36.020
we're not fully, we're not people's church, but we're this para ministry that God has

929
01:01:36.020 --> 01:01:41.860
called us and positioned us to bring freedom, you know, to people and it's beautiful. But

930
01:01:41.860 --> 01:01:46.780
the reason I bring it up is that even as you were talking, I was thinking about how this

931
01:01:46.780 --> 01:01:55.140
one time I went up for prayer with my former husband and we were struggling really bad.

932
01:01:55.140 --> 01:01:59.820
And I know when I say this, I want y'all to know, I know my pastor at that time didn't

933
01:01:59.820 --> 01:02:06.540
mean to cause me to like thing. I don't think he intended for me to feel what I felt. So

934
01:02:06.540 --> 01:02:12.220
I was hearing through a heart lens, kind of like what you're saying, like I was never

935
01:02:13.220 --> 01:02:20.420
enough. Um, but basically he would told, you know, he said something to my ex-husband about,

936
01:02:20.420 --> 01:02:25.340
I think loving me more. I don't even fully remember what was said to my ex, but I just

937
01:02:25.340 --> 01:02:34.340
remember him. He's like, and you need to stop striving. And I just felt so condemned, like

938
01:02:34.340 --> 01:02:43.100
in that moment, like, Oh my God, I'm trying so hard to just like make this marriage work,

939
01:02:43.100 --> 01:02:49.100
but I wasn't, I didn't know how to stop doing what he was even saying because my whole life,

940
01:02:49.100 --> 01:02:54.220
I felt like I had to work hard to make every relationship work. I didn't know how, I didn't

941
01:02:54.220 --> 01:02:59.380
know what easy look like. Not that, I mean, all relationships have little things, you

942
01:02:59.460 --> 01:03:05.620
know, but like at that point in my life, all relationships for the most part, except for

943
01:03:05.620 --> 01:03:12.900
like a couple of few ones were hard, hard work, hard, but see, that's the trip. The enemy gets

944
01:03:12.900 --> 01:03:17.780
us up, you know, it gets us to think like, that's the way it is. And so in that moment,

945
01:03:17.780 --> 01:03:23.220
the reason I bring that up in that moment, I re I received so much religious condemnation from

946
01:03:23.220 --> 01:03:30.020
the enemy, not, it wasn't that person. The enemy was the one, the accuser that was causing me to

947
01:03:30.020 --> 01:03:39.460
feel that way because of my past trauma and the lies I believed. So some of you all will have

948
01:03:39.460 --> 01:03:48.340
some shedding of religious beliefs as well, where even if you go to church, you know, and you want

949
01:03:48.340 --> 01:03:55.940
to be married, you're like told you should just be happy being single. Okay. Or whatever it is.

950
01:03:56.660 --> 01:04:01.220
And I want to encourage you all to just continue to breathe through the situations when you're

951
01:04:01.220 --> 01:04:05.300
processing forgiveness on you. It's okay that you're taking some time with that.

952
01:04:05.860 --> 01:04:11.940
Um, God will guide you through every step of the way. I will tell you though. Um,

953
01:04:11.940 --> 01:04:19.700
one of the other things I want to bring up is that avoidance is a self-defense mechanism.

954
01:04:19.700 --> 01:04:24.980
You'll learn that in your week five, it's on that self-preservation technique sheet. Avoidance is

955
01:04:24.980 --> 01:04:33.300
one of the things that we will do when we are trying to self-protect. Okay. So what you kind

956
01:04:33.300 --> 01:04:38.260
of said, you, you kind of said, I feel like this is going to kind of be a bigger one.

957
01:04:38.260 --> 01:04:42.820
So I've been waiting to deal with this, but I'm going to encourage you to go for it.

958
01:04:44.900 --> 01:04:50.100
Yeah. I've been pretty consistent. Okay. Good. Just a long list. So

959
01:04:52.020 --> 01:04:56.900
that's great. So if there's anyone else that gets to that point where you're forgiving and

960
01:04:56.900 --> 01:04:59.780
you're just like, Oh, I can't deal with this.

961
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.320
I got to avoid this one. I can forgive all these people, but I'm going to,

962
01:05:03.360 --> 01:05:04.620
I'm going to wait on that one.

963
01:05:05.120 --> 01:05:09.320
I'm going to encourage you to go right on through that sucker because forgive

964
01:05:09.340 --> 01:05:13.920
them and impress through because the enemy sometimes in the program,

965
01:05:14.240 --> 01:05:18.560
we will lose people in week four because there's one person.

966
01:05:18.560 --> 01:05:22.680
They just do not think they can forgive. I'm serious.

967
01:05:22.920 --> 01:05:25.640
So I don't want to lose you all in this process. Okay.

968
01:05:26.120 --> 01:05:28.200
We want you to stay in the game, stay engaged.

969
01:05:28.200 --> 01:05:30.720
If you get to that point and that is you,

970
01:05:30.920 --> 01:05:34.560
please come into the group and say what's happening. Don't,

971
01:05:34.560 --> 01:05:38.640
don't isolate and get taken out by the enemy. Okay. Super important. All right.

972
01:05:38.680 --> 01:05:42.160
I'm going to shift and talk about our next part because it's,

973
01:05:42.280 --> 01:05:47.040
this is also very important to forgiveness is awakening to the

974
01:05:47.040 --> 01:05:48.960
real us. Who,

975
01:05:48.960 --> 01:05:53.680
who is this real you that we are talking about in this community?

976
01:05:54.960 --> 01:05:56.320
It's your true identity.

977
01:05:56.680 --> 01:06:00.880
So if you can imagine when God was forming you in the womb,

978
01:06:02.320 --> 01:06:07.200
when he breathed life into you and he put dreams in you and he put gifts

979
01:06:07.200 --> 01:06:12.000
in you before any trauma ever entered your

980
01:06:12.000 --> 01:06:15.880
world, that was your true identity.

981
01:06:17.120 --> 01:06:21.360
And so we're asking God daily to show us our true

982
01:06:22.080 --> 01:06:22.920
identity.

983
01:06:22.960 --> 01:06:26.800
When Adam and Eve were in the garden in the beginning,

984
01:06:26.840 --> 01:06:30.440
they didn't know they were naked. Hey, because there was no,

985
01:06:30.480 --> 01:06:34.160
they hadn't sinned yet. They hadn't done,

986
01:06:34.200 --> 01:06:37.720
they were literally walking in the cool of the day, talking with God.

987
01:06:37.720 --> 01:06:39.680
They were in close relationship with him.

988
01:06:41.160 --> 01:06:43.200
And then they went through the whole, you know,

989
01:06:43.200 --> 01:06:45.880
they ate of the fruit and all that. And then they knew they were naked.

990
01:06:45.880 --> 01:06:49.080
And then they hid and then they covered themselves with leaves and the whole

991
01:06:49.080 --> 01:06:51.920
thing. When God comes back on the scene and they're in the garden,

992
01:06:51.960 --> 01:06:54.560
when he comes back on the scene and the story,

993
01:06:55.680 --> 01:07:00.280
his question to them is who told you

994
01:07:00.320 --> 01:07:01.480
that you were naked?

995
01:07:04.760 --> 01:07:07.600
The reason I bring that up right now is some of you,

996
01:07:09.000 --> 01:07:13.360
it's kind of the flip side. Like who told you that you weren't enough?

997
01:07:13.720 --> 01:07:17.720
Who told you that you were not smart? Who told you that, oh,

998
01:07:17.720 --> 01:07:20.280
you're just always shy. She never speaks up.

999
01:07:20.280 --> 01:07:23.760
Who told you that you couldn't, um,

1000
01:07:24.840 --> 01:07:27.960
I don't know, become a doctor, that you couldn't write a book,

1001
01:07:27.960 --> 01:07:32.560
that you fill in the blank for whatever it is that you feel stuck

1002
01:07:32.560 --> 01:07:33.400
in.

1003
01:07:34.640 --> 01:07:39.440
Who told you that you were that thing or that you couldn't accomplish

1004
01:07:39.840 --> 01:07:40.680
that thing.

1005
01:07:41.200 --> 01:07:46.000
It may just be the enemy or it could be someone else's voice long ago

1006
01:07:46.000 --> 01:07:49.760
that the enemy used to speak into your life, even little,

1007
01:07:49.760 --> 01:07:53.000
like even when we are little kids, you all,

1008
01:07:53.000 --> 01:07:57.440
there are people where a sibling pushed them

1009
01:07:57.440 --> 01:07:59.680
down and they fell and got hurt.

1010
01:07:59.680 --> 01:08:03.560
And they still have trauma or wound connected to that.

1011
01:08:03.560 --> 01:08:06.640
And they just didn't know it. There's so many things.

1012
01:08:07.760 --> 01:08:12.240
God doesn't want you to live under the rubble and the mess of the world or

1013
01:08:12.240 --> 01:08:16.760
your life or the circumstances that you've been through the bad choices that we

1014
01:08:16.760 --> 01:08:18.920
all have made along the way.

1015
01:08:19.880 --> 01:08:23.680
He wants you to come into your true identity. You are a supernova.

1016
01:08:23.680 --> 01:08:25.319
What the heck does that mean?

1017
01:08:25.600 --> 01:08:30.080
That means that you are carrying something that can absolutely

1018
01:08:30.080 --> 01:08:31.160
change the world.

1019
01:08:33.920 --> 01:08:38.200
You are a supernova. Some of you are like, wait, I don't even know.

1020
01:08:38.200 --> 01:08:41.200
I said this today and some people chuckled, but this is, this is true.

1021
01:08:41.399 --> 01:08:43.120
I don't even know if I want to change the world.

1022
01:08:43.200 --> 01:08:47.240
I don't know if I want to be a supernova. Let's just be real.

1023
01:08:47.279 --> 01:08:50.560
Sometimes that feels real big, doesn't it? And scary,

1024
01:08:51.000 --> 01:08:52.319
but this is the reality.

1025
01:08:52.319 --> 01:08:55.439
Sometimes changing the world is one person at a time.

1026
01:08:55.439 --> 01:08:58.880
There's all different ways to change the world. It's one conversation.

1027
01:08:58.880 --> 01:09:02.800
It's one kind word. You know, I never, I won't say,

1028
01:09:02.800 --> 01:09:07.080
I never thought I would impact a lot of people, but I,

1029
01:09:07.120 --> 01:09:11.479
I didn't envision years ago what I'm doing right now.

1030
01:09:11.520 --> 01:09:14.920
Does that make sense? Like I, when people would say,

1031
01:09:14.920 --> 01:09:18.960
there would be this part of me that like the first time someone spoke a word

1032
01:09:18.960 --> 01:09:23.080
over me and prayed and they said that I would be used to reach the nations.

1033
01:09:23.080 --> 01:09:27.920
I do remember in that moment, like, what the heck are they talking about?

1034
01:09:28.640 --> 01:09:33.399
Like, I know like 40 people, you know,

1035
01:09:33.399 --> 01:09:38.359
like you're in this at the time I was in the small church, I had, you know,

1036
01:09:38.359 --> 01:09:41.840
only been saved for maybe a handful of years at that point.

1037
01:09:42.840 --> 01:09:46.160
And I just remember thinking that is just what,

1038
01:09:47.520 --> 01:09:50.640
I don't, I don't know about that, you know, but,

1039
01:09:50.680 --> 01:09:55.040
but there was enough of this, like, wait, like, God, could that,

1040
01:09:55.400 --> 01:09:59.480
could that happen? Not because I wanted to be famous.

1041
01:09:59.480 --> 01:09:59.960
Y'all.

1042
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:02.080
I didn't care about that, I really didn't.

1043
01:10:02.080 --> 01:10:05.960
I just was like, I could change the world.

1044
01:10:05.960 --> 01:10:10.020
Like I could be used to reach the nations for you.

1045
01:10:11.520 --> 01:10:13.960
It was for him, it wasn't for me.

1046
01:10:13.960 --> 01:10:15.600
And that's what excited me.

1047
01:10:17.400 --> 01:10:21.080
Some of you, that is what God is wanting you to know tonight.

1048
01:10:22.100 --> 01:10:23.440
That's his plan for you.

1049
01:10:23.440 --> 01:10:27.180
He wants to use you to reach the nations

1050
01:10:27.180 --> 01:10:28.360
and change the world.

1051
01:10:28.460 --> 01:10:32.460
And some of you, it is enough to just reach your neighbor.

1052
01:10:33.940 --> 01:10:36.280
Everybody plays a role in this kingdom

1053
01:10:36.280 --> 01:10:39.540
and we need every person that plays a role.

1054
01:10:39.540 --> 01:10:42.060
Romans 8, 37 through 39 says,

1055
01:10:42.060 --> 01:10:43.260
"'No, in all these things,

1056
01:10:43.260 --> 01:10:46.060
"'we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.

1057
01:10:46.060 --> 01:10:48.160
"'For I am convinced that neither death nor life,

1058
01:10:48.160 --> 01:10:50.760
"'nor angels, nor demons, nor the present,

1059
01:10:50.760 --> 01:10:53.800
"'nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth,

1060
01:10:53.800 --> 01:10:56.440
"'nor anything else in all of creation

1061
01:10:56.460 --> 01:11:00.280
"'will be able to separate us from the love of God

1062
01:11:00.280 --> 01:11:03.540
"'that is in Christ Jesus, our Lord.'"

1063
01:11:04.680 --> 01:11:06.300
I read that scripture right now

1064
01:11:06.300 --> 01:11:08.900
because nothing you have ever done

1065
01:11:10.220 --> 01:11:12.680
will ever keep you from the love of God,

1066
01:11:13.900 --> 01:11:15.140
nor can it ever.

1067
01:11:16.300 --> 01:11:18.780
Also, when you partner with that truth,

1068
01:11:18.780 --> 01:11:22.260
you can lean into who you are called to be

1069
01:11:22.260 --> 01:11:23.640
in your tomorrows.

1070
01:11:24.640 --> 01:11:28.020
If God is for you, who can be against you?

1071
01:11:29.140 --> 01:11:32.940
Even this, ladies, if God is for you,

1072
01:11:32.940 --> 01:11:35.500
how can the past be against you?

1073
01:11:40.260 --> 01:11:42.460
Let that sit in for a minute.

1074
01:11:42.460 --> 01:11:44.520
If God is for you,

1075
01:11:45.820 --> 01:11:50.720
how can your past even stop you from moving forward?

1076
01:11:51.540 --> 01:11:56.540
Well, it's because we don't believe the truth somewhere.

1077
01:11:56.980 --> 01:11:58.980
And typically, it's that we don't even

1078
01:11:58.980 --> 01:12:02.340
actually fully understand the love of the Father

1079
01:12:03.660 --> 01:12:06.460
and how that can revolutionize our lives.

1080
01:12:06.460 --> 01:12:08.240
But it's time.

1081
01:12:08.240 --> 01:12:10.380
It's time for us to get fresh understanding.

1082
01:12:10.380 --> 01:12:13.140
It's time for us to envision ourselves.

1083
01:12:13.140 --> 01:12:14.920
While you all were in breakout, I was praying

1084
01:12:14.920 --> 01:12:18.460
and I saw this image of a princess

1085
01:12:18.460 --> 01:12:20.540
coming before the king, her father,

1086
01:12:21.360 --> 01:12:22.200
and being crowned.

1087
01:12:22.200 --> 01:12:26.720
The scripture was, he will give us a crown of beauty

1088
01:12:26.720 --> 01:12:29.880
for all of the ashes that we've experienced in our life.

1089
01:12:29.880 --> 01:12:33.520
So it's time for the princesses within you to awaken.

1090
01:12:33.520 --> 01:12:34.960
Ephesians 5, 14 says,

1091
01:12:34.960 --> 01:12:38.560
awake, awake, O sleeper, and rise up from the dead,

1092
01:12:38.560 --> 01:12:40.540
and Christ will shine on you.

1093
01:12:41.880 --> 01:12:44.080
I want you to think about every dead place in your life,

1094
01:12:44.080 --> 01:12:47.120
every place that you felt stuck even today.

1095
01:12:47.120 --> 01:12:48.840
And I just want you to see God

1096
01:12:49.340 --> 01:12:54.000
awakening those things and causing those to come to life.

1097
01:12:55.540 --> 01:12:58.660
He breathes on it and it just comes to life.

1098
01:13:00.500 --> 01:13:05.500
It really is that moment of heaven and earth colliding

1099
01:13:05.980 --> 01:13:08.220
and us partnering with the truth awakened

1100
01:13:08.220 --> 01:13:10.040
by also what?

1101
01:13:10.040 --> 01:13:12.780
True love's kiss, the kiss of heaven.

1102
01:13:14.420 --> 01:13:16.680
What does it mean to experience the kiss of heaven?

1103
01:13:16.700 --> 01:13:18.300
I'm not talking about God himself

1104
01:13:18.300 --> 01:13:20.140
coming down and kissing you,

1105
01:13:20.140 --> 01:13:24.640
but I want you to imagine just the moment of bliss

1106
01:13:24.640 --> 01:13:27.980
where you just fully understand

1107
01:13:28.980 --> 01:13:32.060
how much God loves you infinitely

1108
01:13:33.420 --> 01:13:35.920
and how that empowers you to move forward

1109
01:13:35.920 --> 01:13:39.380
and awaken like Snow White and Sleeping Beauty.

1110
01:13:39.380 --> 01:13:41.140
The prince comes and they're awake

1111
01:13:41.140 --> 01:13:44.820
and they're living and alive and all of these things.

1112
01:13:44.820 --> 01:13:46.100
Awaken to what?

1113
01:13:46.600 --> 01:13:49.400
Now here, what are we even awakening to?

1114
01:13:49.400 --> 01:13:51.280
Again, that true identity.

1115
01:13:51.280 --> 01:13:52.480
I use the story,

1116
01:13:52.480 --> 01:13:56.600
I just try to always make it real, tangible too.

1117
01:13:56.600 --> 01:13:59.360
And you all, you may not hear God the way I do,

1118
01:13:59.360 --> 01:14:03.440
so if this doesn't connect for you, that's totally cool.

1119
01:14:03.440 --> 01:14:06.260
But I connect with God in media a lot.

1120
01:14:06.260 --> 01:14:11.260
Movies, music, images, I just see God in creation.

1121
01:14:11.600 --> 01:14:14.880
Like he just, it's so fun to see him everywhere,

1122
01:14:14.880 --> 01:14:17.080
to hear him everywhere.

1123
01:14:17.080 --> 01:14:21.080
And years ago, I was watching Wreck-It Ralph.

1124
01:14:23.080 --> 01:14:24.040
Wreck-It Ralph.

1125
01:14:24.040 --> 01:14:25.640
Anyone seen that movie?

1126
01:14:25.640 --> 01:14:26.860
Who's seen it?

1127
01:14:26.860 --> 01:14:28.320
Okay, I see a couple people.

1128
01:14:29.640 --> 01:14:31.880
I wanna encourage you to watch it.

1129
01:14:31.880 --> 01:14:33.180
I know it's a kid's movie,

1130
01:14:33.180 --> 01:14:36.880
but I'm gonna tell you a little bit about what it's about.

1131
01:14:36.880 --> 01:14:38.080
So I'm sorry in advance,

1132
01:14:38.080 --> 01:14:40.980
but it'll still be worth it to watch the movie.

1133
01:14:41.980 --> 01:14:45.880
Vanellope is one of the main characters in the movie.

1134
01:14:45.880 --> 01:14:47.560
Even though the movie's called Wreck-It Ralph,

1135
01:14:47.560 --> 01:14:49.200
Vanellope is one of the main characters

1136
01:14:49.200 --> 01:14:50.840
in addition to Ralph.

1137
01:14:51.880 --> 01:14:56.460
Vanellope was this little girl who had this glitch.

1138
01:14:58.320 --> 01:15:00.240
And the story unfolds.

1139
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:05.040
And we start finding out why she actually had the glitch to begin with.

1140
01:15:05.920 --> 01:15:11.280
Because there was an evil man in the story who took a chip out of her, basically,

1141
01:15:12.640 --> 01:15:16.480
and it caused her to glitch. But not only did it cause her to glitch, you all,

1142
01:15:17.280 --> 01:15:20.240
she didn't remember who she was.

1143
01:15:20.240 --> 01:15:32.000
Y'all, the story, when she finally gets her chip back, she remembers and she comes back

1144
01:15:32.000 --> 01:15:38.720
into that place and that position of who she really was. But see, she was that person all along.

1145
01:15:40.000 --> 01:15:46.320
She just forgot for a little while because the enemy came in and he tried to kill,

1146
01:15:46.320 --> 01:15:51.440
steal and destroy her. But even as the word declares, Jesus came so that we could have

1147
01:15:51.440 --> 01:15:57.360
it life and have it more abundantly, you all. Guess what Vanellope was? Guess who she was?

1148
01:15:58.480 --> 01:16:06.720
She was a princess in that movie. Oh, yeah, she was. I don't know about you all, but seriously,

1149
01:16:06.720 --> 01:16:11.040
I have chills just every time I tell that story, it just moves my heart.

1150
01:16:11.840 --> 01:16:18.080
Like everybody in that game and that movie saw her like a glitch, like a mess up.

1151
01:16:19.600 --> 01:16:25.520
That was not her identity. That was not who she was. Nothing that the other people say about us

1152
01:16:26.560 --> 01:16:31.840
is true. Not even what the enemy says about us, not what other people think.

1153
01:16:32.560 --> 01:16:38.000
I'm doing this course right now and it helps you process emotions. And one person can say

1154
01:16:38.000 --> 01:16:42.800
they love us and another person can say they hate us. And the question is, who is right?

1155
01:16:45.680 --> 01:16:53.920
Who's right? One person loves me, the other person hates me. Who's right?

1156
01:16:54.800 --> 01:17:01.440
Anyone know the answer to this? Neither one. Guess who defines me?

1157
01:17:02.400 --> 01:17:08.320
It's God who defines me. It's what I believe about myself. So cool. That's awesome. That's

1158
01:17:08.320 --> 01:17:12.560
an emotion that person has towards me that loves me. It's an emotion that they have

1159
01:17:12.560 --> 01:17:22.000
if they don't like me, but that does not define who I am. Who are you? Who do you want to be in

1160
01:17:22.000 --> 01:17:28.240
the days ahead? God is the one that gives the identity. Look to him to get your identity. God

1161
01:17:29.120 --> 01:17:36.320
wants you to awaken to restoration, to rebuilding, to restoring, to reconciliation,

1162
01:17:36.960 --> 01:17:42.000
to being renewed. Jackie talks about this all the time. All the re-words you can think of.

1163
01:17:42.560 --> 01:17:47.040
God wants you to awaken to your big, bold, beautiful future. What are some ways that we

1164
01:17:47.040 --> 01:17:51.600
can do that? Well, here are some things. You're going to awaken to dreams that some of y'all

1165
01:17:51.600 --> 01:17:57.520
have had when you were children that got squashed and pushed aside by other people,

1166
01:17:57.520 --> 01:18:04.960
even your own self, because someone like, maybe you didn't fit in and maybe you felt like having

1167
01:18:04.960 --> 01:18:10.160
that dream made you stand out and you just wanted to fit in. I mean, there's all different ways that

1168
01:18:10.160 --> 01:18:16.640
we lose these dreams or the enemy came in and stole them. So that's one of the ways you're

1169
01:18:16.640 --> 01:18:20.800
going to awaken in these days ahead to some of those things. Some of you are going to get

1170
01:18:20.800 --> 01:18:26.960
new dreams. So yes, some of you will have like nighttime dreams and daydreams. That's separate

1171
01:18:26.960 --> 01:18:31.280
even from what I'm talking about right now. I'm talking about some of you are going to start to

1172
01:18:31.280 --> 01:18:40.960
have a desire to go back to school, to travel and go somewhere new, to write a book, to, I don't know,

1173
01:18:40.960 --> 01:18:47.520
name it, draw, art. I mean, there's so many things, cook. Maybe some of you have always wanted to be a

1174
01:18:47.520 --> 01:18:56.160
cook or a baker. I don't know what your dream is, what your heart's desire is or has been, but I

1175
01:18:56.160 --> 01:19:02.400
believe truly if you live into that version of yourself, you're going to awaken and come alive

1176
01:19:02.400 --> 01:19:11.040
like you never have before. We all have a choice to choose what we are going to believe. Okay. I'm

1177
01:19:11.040 --> 01:19:15.440
about to put you in your breakout. We're not going to have a lot of coaching time at the end. So I

1178
01:19:15.440 --> 01:19:19.200
just want you to know that, but you being in the breakout is super important because this is how

1179
01:19:19.200 --> 01:19:24.800
you're connecting with your sisters and you're processing what we're talking about. In what ways

1180
01:19:24.800 --> 01:19:33.040
does the enemy challenge the real you? That's the question. In what ways does the enemy challenge

1181
01:19:33.040 --> 01:19:38.720
the real you? Here are a couple examples. These are ways I see it showing up. Comparison,

1182
01:19:39.920 --> 01:19:47.200
competition, and imitation. It can show up in different ways for you, but I just want you to

1183
01:19:47.200 --> 01:19:54.640
think about those things. How does the enemy challenge the real you? All right. Let me get

1184
01:19:54.640 --> 01:20:00.320
these breakout rooms set up. Recreate these.

1185
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:05.000
All right, this is going to be short, brief, and powerful, you all, okay?

1186
01:20:05.000 --> 01:20:09.000
I'm literally giving you two, four, six, six minutes.

1187
01:20:09.000 --> 01:20:11.000
Here you go.

1188
01:20:11.000 --> 01:20:14.000
Go ahead and click to join those rooms.

1189
01:20:30.000 --> 01:20:47.000
All right, I think I've got everyone situated.

1190
01:20:47.000 --> 01:20:56.000
All right, Lord, we just thank you right now to your divine awakening in the hearts of your daughters.

1191
01:20:56.000 --> 01:21:02.000
I thank you, God, that you would even right now stir gifts and dreams, visions inside of them.

1192
01:21:02.000 --> 01:21:07.000
I thank you that you would stir up the hunger and thirst for your righteousness, for your word.

1193
01:21:07.000 --> 01:21:12.000
To know you better, but also, Lord God, that you would stir up the gifts that you've placed inside of them,

1194
01:21:12.000 --> 01:21:18.000
the gifts of the spirit, that, Lord, you would help them to remember dreams that they had as children

1195
01:21:18.000 --> 01:21:23.000
that would benefit their life, that you would breathe life back into those dreams

1196
01:21:23.000 --> 01:21:29.000
and help them to hear what your spirit is saying over them, that, Lord, you would give them new dreams,

1197
01:21:29.000 --> 01:21:36.000
new visions, new revelations, innovation ideas.

1198
01:21:36.000 --> 01:21:42.000
And we thank you, Lord, that you would help them to move into your truth

1199
01:21:42.000 --> 01:21:44.000
and that your truth would set them free.

1200
01:21:44.000 --> 01:21:56.000
Thank you for continuing to, Lord, I'm just going to lean into the vision you gave me years ago.

1201
01:21:56.000 --> 01:22:04.000
When Jackie and David were praying, I saw myself, ladies, in this cement coffin,

1202
01:22:04.000 --> 01:22:09.000
and the coffin opened and I sat up, like straight up out of there.

1203
01:22:09.000 --> 01:22:10.000
I heard the Lord say, come alive.

1204
01:22:10.000 --> 01:22:13.000
And I sat straight up in this coffin.

1205
01:22:13.000 --> 01:22:19.000
It was a vision, an image I had, but I got radically set free that night.

1206
01:22:19.000 --> 01:22:22.000
And I don't even know what all God was setting me free from,

1207
01:22:22.000 --> 01:22:27.000
but I just remember crying and like the tears were just flowing and flowing and flowing.

1208
01:22:27.000 --> 01:22:29.000
And they put us into this breakout.

1209
01:22:29.000 --> 01:22:35.000
And I remember, like, I still couldn't even open my eyes because there were so many tears.

1210
01:22:36.000 --> 01:22:40.000
And sometimes, ladies, that's going to be a process that some of you will need to embrace.

1211
01:22:40.000 --> 01:22:45.000
Like if the tears just start coming, just to let them flow, to not hold that back,

1212
01:22:45.000 --> 01:22:49.000
to not feel ashamed or embarrassed by that,

1213
01:22:49.000 --> 01:22:57.000
because there's a cleansing that's happening as we are allowing the tears to flow.

1214
01:22:57.000 --> 01:23:01.000
Excuse me, ladies, my allergies are really kicking in tonight.

1215
01:23:01.000 --> 01:23:06.000
Psalm 147, three through four says, he heals the wounds of our shattered heart.

1216
01:23:06.000 --> 01:23:12.000
He sets his stars in place, calling them all by their names.

1217
01:23:12.000 --> 01:23:16.000
So Lord, we just thank you that you heal the wounds of all of our shattered hearts,

1218
01:23:16.000 --> 01:23:21.000
that you would just come in and place the balm of Gilead upon every wound

1219
01:23:21.000 --> 01:23:27.000
and bring healing and truth and life and wholeness and all of those broken, shattered places.

1220
01:23:27.000 --> 01:23:30.000
I thank you, Lord.

1221
01:23:30.000 --> 01:23:35.000
Thank you, yes, restoring them to better than they were before they were broken, Lord.

1222
01:23:35.000 --> 01:23:41.000
And I just thank you in advance for that.

1223
01:23:41.000 --> 01:23:49.000
I'm just trying to see what else, like, Lord wants me to lean into right now, ladies.

1224
01:23:49.000 --> 01:23:54.000
I just thank you, Lord God. I just saw in my mind's eye as well, like, you know,

1225
01:23:54.000 --> 01:23:58.000
have you ever seen the drawings where it's like a, again, kind of like a silhouette

1226
01:23:58.000 --> 01:24:03.000
and the top of the head is open and there's all these colorful things like gear shifts

1227
01:24:03.000 --> 01:24:06.000
and, you know, like thought bubbles and all that.

1228
01:24:06.000 --> 01:24:11.000
And so I just want to speak that right over everybody in this group as well.

1229
01:24:11.000 --> 01:24:19.000
I thank you, God, for new thoughts, new mindsets, new, no more limiting beliefs

1230
01:24:19.000 --> 01:24:22.000
and things that hold us back, no more orphan mentalities, Lord.

1231
01:24:22.000 --> 01:24:28.000
We are asking you, Lord, to replace those things with life, with hope, with truth

1232
01:24:28.000 --> 01:24:33.000
and help us to cling and think on things that are true and noble and lovely and have good report,

1233
01:24:33.000 --> 01:24:36.000
things that are above only and not beneath.

1234
01:24:36.000 --> 01:24:43.000
I thank you, Lord, that you're going to help us to look for the gold in ourselves

1235
01:24:43.000 --> 01:24:45.000
as well as look for the gold in other people.

1236
01:24:45.000 --> 01:24:50.000
I thank you, God, that you're going to give us new lenses to see the world differently

1237
01:24:50.000 --> 01:24:57.000
and a good way that we will continue to lay aside all of the things that do not partner with heaven

1238
01:24:57.000 --> 01:24:59.000
and you'll help us to...

1239
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:02.880
walk in just, yeah.

1240
01:25:04.840 --> 01:25:07.440
I'm seeing new backpacks being given to people.

1241
01:25:07.440 --> 01:25:08.800
I'd started laughing a little bit

1242
01:25:08.800 --> 01:25:10.800
because at first I saw like an image of the people

1243
01:25:10.800 --> 01:25:11.920
like Ghostbusters, you know,

1244
01:25:11.920 --> 01:25:14.400
when they would go in to like get rid of all the ghosts,

1245
01:25:14.400 --> 01:25:16.080
they would put on those backpacks

1246
01:25:16.080 --> 01:25:18.240
and they would just shoot the ghosts

1247
01:25:18.240 --> 01:25:19.920
and they would kill them.

1248
01:25:19.920 --> 01:25:22.280
So it just kind of makes me chuckle.

1249
01:25:22.280 --> 01:25:24.240
Like I feel like in the spirit realm,

1250
01:25:24.240 --> 01:25:26.520
some people are getting some backpacks tonight

1251
01:25:26.520 --> 01:25:31.520
and they're gonna be slaying some ghost of the past,

1252
01:25:32.520 --> 01:25:33.520
so to speak.

1253
01:25:33.520 --> 01:25:37.480
Some of the things that have really hindered them.

1254
01:25:38.520 --> 01:25:40.240
And I just thank you, Lord, for truth.

1255
01:25:40.240 --> 01:25:41.960
I thank you, Lord, for life.

1256
01:25:41.960 --> 01:25:45.040
I thank you, Lord, for just fun,

1257
01:25:45.040 --> 01:25:47.200
even just the reminder, God,

1258
01:25:47.200 --> 01:25:49.440
in what you just showed me that you're just fun

1259
01:25:49.440 --> 01:25:52.440
and you'll talk to us all different kinds of ways.

1260
01:25:52.440 --> 01:25:53.280
I thank you, Lord,

1261
01:25:53.280 --> 01:25:57.240
that these ladies will continue to really partner

1262
01:25:57.240 --> 01:25:58.840
with the truth that they are your sheep

1263
01:25:58.840 --> 01:26:00.480
and they hear your voice

1264
01:26:00.480 --> 01:26:03.680
and that you are a fun God who likes to talk to us

1265
01:26:03.680 --> 01:26:06.880
in all kinds of fun and fresh ways.

1266
01:26:08.280 --> 01:26:11.680
Ephesians 3, 17 through 19 says this,

1267
01:26:11.680 --> 01:26:14.560
then Christ will make his home in your hearts

1268
01:26:14.560 --> 01:26:16.600
as you trust in him.

1269
01:26:16.600 --> 01:26:18.720
Your roots will grow down into God's love

1270
01:26:18.720 --> 01:26:19.960
and keep you strong.

1271
01:26:20.000 --> 01:26:23.280
And may you have the power to understand

1272
01:26:23.280 --> 01:26:24.520
as all God's people should,

1273
01:26:24.520 --> 01:26:26.560
how wide, how long, how high,

1274
01:26:26.560 --> 01:26:28.800
how deep is his love for us.

1275
01:26:28.800 --> 01:26:30.400
May you experience the love of Christ,

1276
01:26:30.400 --> 01:26:33.680
though it is too great to understand fully.

1277
01:26:33.680 --> 01:26:35.440
Then you will be made complete

1278
01:26:35.440 --> 01:26:37.560
with all the fullness of life

1279
01:26:37.560 --> 01:26:40.760
and power that comes from God.

1280
01:26:40.760 --> 01:26:42.280
Praise the Lord.

1281
01:26:42.280 --> 01:26:43.200
Yes, Lord, I thank you.

1282
01:26:43.200 --> 01:26:45.240
I'm just gonna read the beginning of that verse again.

1283
01:26:45.240 --> 01:26:47.760
This is Ephesians 3, verse 17.

1284
01:26:47.800 --> 01:26:50.360
I think, I don't know if it goes into 18 here.

1285
01:26:50.360 --> 01:26:52.160
Then Christ will make his home in your hearts

1286
01:26:52.160 --> 01:26:53.160
as you trust in him.

1287
01:26:53.160 --> 01:26:56.960
Your roots will go down into God's love,

1288
01:26:56.960 --> 01:27:01.240
will grow down into God's love and keep you strong.

1289
01:27:01.240 --> 01:27:02.320
So just thank you, Lord,

1290
01:27:02.320 --> 01:27:04.160
for that strength that we gain from you,

1291
01:27:04.160 --> 01:27:07.760
that we can go deep down into your love.

1292
01:27:08.760 --> 01:27:10.120
So Lord, even just right now

1293
01:27:10.120 --> 01:27:11.800
that you would help the ladies

1294
01:27:11.800 --> 01:27:14.200
just to really envision themselves

1295
01:27:14.200 --> 01:27:18.040
being like a tree planted by rivers of living water

1296
01:27:18.040 --> 01:27:20.400
and that their roots are just stretching down

1297
01:27:20.400 --> 01:27:22.440
into that water.

1298
01:27:22.440 --> 01:27:25.440
God, that you're just gonna fill them up to overflowing.

1299
01:27:25.440 --> 01:27:28.000
I don't know if you can see back there.

1300
01:27:28.000 --> 01:27:29.080
Sorry, ladies.

1301
01:27:29.080 --> 01:27:30.880
You're gonna fill them up to overflowing

1302
01:27:30.880 --> 01:27:33.600
and that they'll be transformed from the inside out.

1303
01:27:33.600 --> 01:27:35.240
And we just thank you in advance for that.

1304
01:27:35.240 --> 01:27:36.320
Welcome back.

1305
01:27:39.040 --> 01:27:39.880
There we go.

1306
01:27:39.880 --> 01:27:41.160
All right.

1307
01:27:41.160 --> 01:27:42.000
Praise the Lord.

1308
01:27:42.000 --> 01:27:42.840
We're at 9.30.

1309
01:27:42.840 --> 01:27:47.160
So I'm going to encourage you all.

1310
01:27:47.160 --> 01:27:49.120
This is your activation for this week.

1311
01:27:51.400 --> 01:27:54.000
In addition to watching Wreck-It Ralph,

1312
01:27:54.000 --> 01:27:55.560
so you have two assignments.

1313
01:27:55.560 --> 01:27:57.280
Hopefully they're both fun.

1314
01:27:57.280 --> 01:27:59.560
I want to see you all in the group this week

1315
01:27:59.560 --> 01:28:03.400
posting about the dreams or the things

1316
01:28:03.400 --> 01:28:05.800
that God is awakening you to.

1317
01:28:05.800 --> 01:28:08.200
We talk a lot about the hard stuff

1318
01:28:08.200 --> 01:28:10.720
and what God's having us process, and that's good.

1319
01:28:10.720 --> 01:28:12.000
We need to do that.

1320
01:28:12.000 --> 01:28:14.760
But I really want to encourage you all to embrace

1321
01:28:14.760 --> 01:28:17.880
what is God awakening you to?

1322
01:28:18.880 --> 01:28:21.640
What is he saying to you about the real you?

1323
01:28:21.640 --> 01:28:23.960
What is he saying about your identity

1324
01:28:23.960 --> 01:28:26.320
or whatever he leads you to share?

1325
01:28:26.320 --> 01:28:30.160
But if whatever your takeaway from that part of tonight,

1326
01:28:30.160 --> 01:28:31.000
I want to see you,

1327
01:28:31.000 --> 01:28:32.680
because we didn't have time to talk about it

1328
01:28:32.680 --> 01:28:34.000
at the end here tonight.

1329
01:28:34.000 --> 01:28:35.200
So I'd like to hear from you.

1330
01:28:35.200 --> 01:28:37.720
Like, what did you all share in your private breakout

1331
01:28:37.720 --> 01:28:41.800
that you can now go into the group and share there?

1332
01:28:42.600 --> 01:28:46.160
And I know some of you will absolutely not want to do this,

1333
01:28:46.160 --> 01:28:47.520
but I'm encouraging you.

1334
01:28:47.520 --> 01:28:50.640
Again, I can encourage you all every single week

1335
01:28:50.640 --> 01:28:52.720
to show up and post in the group,

1336
01:28:52.720 --> 01:28:54.920
and some of you will stay in hiding.

1337
01:28:54.920 --> 01:28:56.440
Some of you will just get busy.

1338
01:28:56.440 --> 01:28:57.520
The enemy will distract you.

1339
01:28:57.520 --> 01:28:59.240
There's all different reasons.

1340
01:28:59.240 --> 01:29:01.920
Again, I'm never going to be angry at you, okay?

1341
01:29:01.920 --> 01:29:04.280
But I want to encourage you, do this.

1342
01:29:04.280 --> 01:29:07.960
Do this for yourself and let God set you free

1343
01:29:07.960 --> 01:29:09.280
in ways you can't even imagine.

1344
01:29:09.280 --> 01:29:10.960
I'm going to read something over you

1345
01:29:10.960 --> 01:29:11.960
and close this out.

1346
01:29:12.840 --> 01:29:14.400
This is from the book.

1347
01:29:14.400 --> 01:29:16.800
I would encourage you all to get this out of your book.

1348
01:29:16.800 --> 01:29:18.000
It's all the way at the end.

1349
01:29:18.000 --> 01:29:20.480
Now, again, don't speed read through,

1350
01:29:20.480 --> 01:29:21.320
but I'm just saying,

1351
01:29:21.320 --> 01:29:23.400
you can flip back here and get this out.

1352
01:29:23.400 --> 01:29:25.360
Write it on a piece of paper,

1353
01:29:25.360 --> 01:29:28.480
put it up in your house and read it over yourself

1354
01:29:28.480 --> 01:29:30.640
out loud often.

1355
01:29:30.640 --> 01:29:31.880
And I want to encourage you.

1356
01:29:31.880 --> 01:29:34.160
I'm going to read it the way it is in the book,

1357
01:29:34.160 --> 01:29:37.760
but when you write it out for yourself,

1358
01:29:37.760 --> 01:29:39.080
put your name in there.

1359
01:29:40.080 --> 01:29:44.120
Declare over your own self these truths.

1360
01:29:44.120 --> 01:29:45.480
It's powerful.

1361
01:29:45.480 --> 01:29:46.360
Here we go.

1362
01:29:46.360 --> 01:29:48.960
This is a declaration that we encourage you to use

1363
01:29:48.960 --> 01:29:50.760
as often as necessary.

1364
01:29:52.040 --> 01:29:55.640
I am a world changer, an atmosphere shifter,

1365
01:29:55.640 --> 01:29:59.560
a light bearer, a truth teller, and a hope dealer.

1366
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:06.880
Whoo! My heart is awakening. It's my time to be made whole. I contain the beauty of all creation.

1367
01:30:06.880 --> 01:30:13.680
The mysteries of the entire universe reside inside of me. I am the image of the Almighty God,

1368
01:30:13.680 --> 01:30:20.800
the offspring of the Great I Am. I am a beloved daughter of God. My original heart is one of love

1369
01:30:20.800 --> 01:30:27.600
and joy and peace, hope and innocence. I was created for community. I am accepted in the

1370
01:30:27.600 --> 01:30:34.800
family of God. I have been created to prosper. I will not be anyone besides who love. God,

1371
01:30:34.800 --> 01:30:40.880
the Father, has made me to be. From this moment forward, every day, when I look in the mirror,

1372
01:30:40.880 --> 01:30:49.600
I am going to see more and more of what God sees. In Jesus' name. Yes, Lord. Yes. I love

1373
01:30:49.600 --> 01:30:55.680
that hope dealer too. I felt that all up in my body when I said it. Father, thank you for

1374
01:30:55.680 --> 01:31:02.880
reminding us of who we are. Thank you that your promises are yes and amen, that they're fixed.

1375
01:31:02.880 --> 01:31:07.920
I thank you, God, that you have plans to prosper us, to give us a hope and a future, not to bring

1376
01:31:07.920 --> 01:31:14.320
us harm, not to destroy us. God, I thank you that you take us out of the muck and the miry clay and

1377
01:31:14.320 --> 01:31:21.360
you set our feet upon the rock. You are that rock, and I thank you that nothing can separate us from

1378
01:31:21.360 --> 01:31:26.480
your love. Tonight, I pray that you would help these ladies go to bed and have dreams and visions

1379
01:31:26.480 --> 01:31:31.280
and revelations of who you have called them to be, that you would help them to hear the

1380
01:31:31.280 --> 01:31:41.600
whispers from heaven over them and saying, yes, daughter, you are my beloved. Your worth is far

1381
01:31:41.600 --> 01:31:48.720
above rubies. My heart breaks when your heart breaks, and I'm here, and I'm walking with you.

1382
01:31:48.720 --> 01:31:56.560
I've gone before you. Be strong and of good courage. Don't be afraid. So, Lord, I thank you that you

1383
01:31:56.560 --> 01:32:00.640
guard and protect and keep watch over us, that you would protect us from distractions this week,

1384
01:32:00.640 --> 01:32:05.760
that you would protect us from mindsets and limiting belief systems that would take us

1385
01:32:05.760 --> 01:32:10.960
backwards because we're going forward, and we are taking ground in our own life as well as taking

1386
01:32:11.040 --> 01:32:18.800
ground for your kingdom. In Jesus' name, amen and amen. We love you all. I can't wait to see your

1387
01:32:18.800 --> 01:32:25.040
post in the group. I get excited. I do. I celebrate you. I wish you all could see the parties I have

1388
01:32:25.040 --> 01:32:30.640
sometimes when I read your posts, so please do that as you feel led this week, and I'll see you

1389
01:32:31.280 --> 01:32:37.120
there. Have a great night, everyone. God bless you.