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Hello, everyone. Welcome, welcome. It's great to see you all. Bethany Cooper here, part

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work coach for phase one. Would love for y'all to turn cameras on so I can see you as well

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if you're able to. As always, it's great to connect with you all. Hi there. It's good

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to see you. Welcome, welcome. All right, ladies, we're gonna kick off tonight. Again, if you're

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joining us for the first time, I'm going to do this check in briefly at the at the beginning

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of every session. So if those of you catch the replay, just know that I'm always going

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to ask if you're joining us for the first time. So if you join us next time for your

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first time and you're not here tonight live, definitely want you to let us know that you

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are new. On that note, if you are new, or here's the other one. If you've been in this

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group for a long time, and you've never done an introduction post, I want to see those

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introduction posts. Here's why. This is why it's important because you all need to practice

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being seen. And a lot of you are afraid to even let people in this group know about you

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and see you. And so if you're going to struggle with that here, now's the time to find out

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about it. And let God do some revealing for healing so that when you go to try to, you

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know, step back into dating in the future, after you're done with heart healing, that

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will start to prepare you for that because some of you all really struggle with connecting

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with men. And so now's the time to practice connecting in general here, like I said, so

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that that will give you more courage later on. So what is a what is an introduction post?

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What I would love to see is a picture of you and a little bit, you don't have to tell

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your life story, but just a couple things about you can be, you know, what brought you

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here into this community, it could be where you're from, it could be a couple things you

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love to do. You know, here's the thing, when people learn a little bit about you, it gives

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them an idea of ways to connect with you as well. Some ladies in this community are really

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asking God for friends. And if they see that you live near them, hey, guess what, that

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might be a new friendship that could form potentially. So let's open ourselves up to

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community and continue to come out of hiding way to go on those who have been doing the

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activations and posts. On that note, y'all, I gave an issue for activation the last couple

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weeks, and we've really only had a couple people actually do them. Those people are

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getting breakthrough from doing it, I was kind of I was kind of looking forward to seeing

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more of you doing it. And so if you haven't yet, there's no shame, but I want to see you

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activating on some of those things. And again, I think some of it some of you are not

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wanting to do photos of yourself. Maybe it's just you had a busy week, it could be that

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too. Totally understand. If you don't know what the activation was for last week, I shared

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it at the end of the live session for that's in the replay. So check out that replay. It's

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in your replay tab for those in the app, those that are still in the Facebook group, it's

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in the featured tab. Okay, so definitely check that out. And, you know, really ask the Lord

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to help you take quick action on these activation items. This is another way that you can

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connect with what God is teaching you and help you step into freedom and breakthrough.

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Alright, so tonight, we're going to go right into some important content. I mean, it's all

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important, but I feel like God's really emphasizing to me for all of you, that some of you just

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don't really believe God cares about you. And that's at the core of some of your struggles

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with everything else. And so we're going to lean into that first, I'm going to go ahead and

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pray for us and we will get started. Father, thank you so much for God who you are. God,

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thank you for your character that you are a man of your word. God, I thank you that we can

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trust you. I pray Lord that you would just help every lady that's here live tonight as well as

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those that would catch the replay that they would grow in the revelation of the understanding of

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who you are, so that they can trust you a little bit more this week. I thank you God for

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revealings for healing that are happening that are going to happen that will happen in the days

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ahead. I thank you that you will bring things out of the darkness into the light so that we can

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have understanding of what is causing us to be stuck. We thank you for healing in the depths of

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our soul. God, you know us better than we know ourselves. You know everything that we need set

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free from. Lord, you know the little scrapes all the way to the deep cuts, the things that

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happened that went really deep in us. So Lord, we just thank you for your kindness and your

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gentleness and your approach to us as your daughters. I ask you to help us, Lord, to step

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further into connection and relationship with you tonight.

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Thank you for being here, we can't do this without you.

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I ask you to weave in and out of the conversations,

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in and out of the teaching, in and out of the prayer.

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Let it be powerful, let it break chains off of minds,

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hearts, bodies, spirits, and souls this night

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in Jesus' name, amen.

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Amen, so for those of you that have already heard

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the story of Candice, you will be familiar with this.

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If you haven't heard it yet, that's okay.

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You will, if you're just starting.

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Again, if you've just joined us in the last few minutes,

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we'd love for you to tell me if you're here new

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for the first time, because I wanna welcome you by name,

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super important for me.

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So go ahead and put in the chat if you're new

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and I'll keep an eye out for that.

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So one of the things we're gonna talk about

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isn't just the story of Candice,

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but I wanna preface it with something.

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As I was saying earlier, God's been talking to me a lot

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about just that there are people in this group

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that don't really fully believe that God cares about you.

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You believe it because people tell you that

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and you believe it in part,

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but God is wanting to take you further

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into the understanding of how much he cares for you.

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Yes, Joanna, it's good to have you back.

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So glad that you're here with us.

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And so tonight I felt led to bring up the story of Candice

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to kick us off, because we're gonna talk

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about broken promises a little bit tonight.

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God kept a promise regarding camera,

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Candice, excuse me, not camera.

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Jackie, if you hadn't heard this story,

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God put Candice on her heart.

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And one of the things that God specifically said to Jackie

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about Candice was at this conference

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that Candice is gonna be there and she needs healing.

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Candice is gonna be there and she needs healing.

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And the whole day, Jackie didn't know who Candice was.

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Still after the conference was over,

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Jackie didn't know who Candice was,

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but God always knew who Candice was

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and that Candice needed healing.

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Eventually God made that connection

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and Jackie was able to then meet with Candice

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and Candice was able to get the healing that she needed.

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Why am I sharing this tonight

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when I mentioned broken promises?

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Because God knows what we need.

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He knows where we are and he knows how to get it to us.

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Some of you have traveled a really long journey

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to get to where you are now,

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but God knew every step that was important to get you here.

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And so even in the spirit,

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I just heard the Holy Spirit just say,

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some of you are still just stuck in the place of

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why did it have to take this long?

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And I can tell you just from my own experience,

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I don't know about you all,

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but sometimes it took me longer because of my own choices.

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I was choosing unhealthy people.

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Some of us, maybe we lost a spouse

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and now we're having to go back around

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and try this over again.

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There's a lot of different reasons that you're here tonight,

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but God doesn't want you to believe the lies of the enemy

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that tell you that God doesn't care about you,

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that you're forgotten,

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that you're just gonna keep waiting

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and nothing's ever gonna change and this is your lot

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and all these horrible things that the enemy says

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that so often we believe.

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Isn't it interesting that oftentimes

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it's easier to believe the lies

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than it is to believe the truth?

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Do y'all know that it's actually harder

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to create a new habit than it is to create a negative one?

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Interesting, right?

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So tonight I wanna ask you a question

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and if you have pen and paper,

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you're gonna wanna keep that handy

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because I'm gonna have you jot

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a couple of things down as we go.

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I want to ask you to ask God,

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so you're asking God to reveal to you even right now,

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any areas that you are struggling to believe

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that God cares about your needs.

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Are there any areas that, you know,

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maybe this last week, today, in this moment,

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things that come to mind where you are still struggling

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to believe that God cares about your needs?

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And guess what you all?

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He doesn't only care about your needs,

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but he also cares about your wants.

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As long as they align with God's purposes,

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I wanted my spiritual daughter's dad to marry me.

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I wanted him to marry me.

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I actually pleaded with God for him to marry me,

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for him to ask me to marry him,

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for him to want to be committed to that relationship.

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I pleaded with God for that.

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But God in his goodness kept that from my life

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because that was not what was best for me, okay?

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So that was me asking God for something

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that did not align with his plan and purpose for my life.

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And because of that,

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me from that. Okay, so that's not what I'm talking about. But the ones that we have that

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align with his purposes and you know, hey, guess what? Sometimes it's just a just really

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super fun for God to bless us with something that we just want and we don't ever speak

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it out and he's just like, here you go. And it's just this surprise. We had a lady last

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night talking on the Sunday night prayer and she shared that she's been looking at these

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shoes for her graduation. She really wanted them. They're, you know, really nice, you

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know, fancy shoes and, and guess what? God, God helped her get this, but he helped her

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find them at a place that was $400 off and they were in the size, the color, and it's

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not somewhere, somewhere you would normally find them. And so it was just really fun to

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hear that last night and think about the content. I already knew that we were coming with today.

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Does God care about shoes for us? No, I think he does. I think he does. I think that we

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don't think that he does. God cares about the little bitty things and he cares about

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the big things. He cares about everything and he wants to be intimately involved in

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our lives. It's up to us to allow him to be that kind of God, to be that close in relationship.

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Again, as it's not about, it's not about stuff you all. Okay. But imagine for those of you

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that have kids, you, you might've experienced this and, and had just that true feeling of

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pure joy when you give your kids something, not only that they want it, but you surprise

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them with something that just, you know, they squeak and, you know, yell and squeal and

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they're just so excited. And do you know that we experienced those types of emotions because

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God grafted us after himself? Y'all that if that's an emotion that the father has,

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when we, when we receive a gift and we delight and we squeal and we're so excited and we're

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so blessed. So imagine tonight, some of you, I imagine tonight, some of you hear that and

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you're just not there yet. And that's okay. This is where I want you to be real honest

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with yourself and really honest with God. Some of you actually need to forgive God.

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And I get this question all the time. We have to believe God, like God doesn't do anything

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wrong. No, he doesn't. But we oftentimes blame God for things that he didn't do.

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And we hold resentment and bitterness and unforgiveness in our hearts towards God.

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And some of you need to let that go tonight and in the days ahead.

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God is good and he will come through for you. I want you to think about the letdowns and the

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trauma, unhealed wounds that are still in your heart that are causing you to view God and other

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people through filters and false lenses. You're not going to stay there. Praise the Lord. You're

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in this heart healing process for a reason, but I just want you to think about them. Think about

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even in the last few weeks, is there anything that happened where your immediate go-to was

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the worst of the worst, or that God is angry at you, or you're too bad to have a healthy marriage?

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I sat and talked at our church yesterday with a woman that has been married five times.

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And God wants to bless her with a healthy marriage, just as he does anybody else.

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So maybe that's your story you've been telling yourself because the enemy lied to you and said

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you've messed up too many times, whether it's marriage multiple times or something else.

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And that's a lie from the pit of hell to keep you from walking into the fullness of everything God

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has for you. Here's another example. I have examples from church now. I never say names,

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but I'm going to give you a scenario. We had a lady that on Sundays after church was

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not harming anyone per se, but she kept pulling the teens together to have a little powwow with

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them. And it just started catching my attention because not only were the teens sitting with her,

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but then the little kids were kind of going over and sitting too. And I'm thinking, well,

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I know she's not, she's not assigned as a youth leader. So I was kind of curious,

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what are, what are they talking about? And it had happened just a couple of times. And then

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my husband asked me the same thing one day, like, what do you think about this lady? And, you know,

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I noticed she's, I was like, I've been noticing it too. Where am I going with this? When we talked

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to a couple people trying to figure out what was going on, they ended up talking with this woman

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and she basically through kind of the connections that, and things people said to her,

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I don't know what was said fully, but all I know is when my husband was talking to her,

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She was like, I'm not a pedophile.

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And I was kind of like, when I heard that, I was like, wait a minute.

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Whoa.

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That's, that's like all the way over here.

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All we were doing was wondering, Hey, what, what's going on with that?

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We, you know, if someone's going to talk to our teenagers, they need to be trained.

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They need to go through a background check.

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They need to, you know, have permission.

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when things happen in life, don't we?

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We just, we like, we go all the way, 180 miles down the road with some story.

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That it has never even been a thought in someone else's mind, let alone God's mind.

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So that's you tonight.

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I want you to write those things down.

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Where do you tend to go full down the full speed down the road with a storyline?

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Like, where does the, where does the enemy get your goat?

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Have you ever heard people say that in the old days?

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the road really fast because that's your kind of trigger point, if you will.

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Numbers 23, 19 says this, I'm going to read this from the message translation.

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God is not a man, one given to lies and not a son of man changing his mind.

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Does he speak and not do what he says?

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Does he promise and not come through?

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I'm going to read that again.

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Numbers 23, 19, that's the message version.

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God is not a man, one who is given to lies and not a son of man changing his mind.

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Does he speak and not do what he says?

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Does he promise and not come through?

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Y'all, we look at God through the lens of man.

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He is not like man.

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He's not like the people that let you down.

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He's not like the people that oppress you.

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He's not like the people that abused you and mistreated you and lied to you and betrayed you.

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He is not them.

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God is good.

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The Bible says that he is faithful.

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He is kind, that he is love.

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Y'all, he can't even deny himself because he, that is who he is.

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you've done.

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get on the healthy path.

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There are consequences when we make unhealthy choices, but guilt, shame, and condemnation

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are from the enemy.

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I want you to think about, again, what I was saying, broken promises.

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Have you ever had a broken promise?

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their word.

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the things that come up, because sometimes you'll have something come up and you'll

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think, well, that's really weird.

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Why would I even think about that?

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I want you to lean into whatever it is, because it could be the beginning thread that leads

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you to something else.

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Some of you will think of a memory or a person and just get good at asking God good questions.

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I want to read a song lyrics to you.

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I'm not going to read the whole song, but I am going to read a couple of the stanzas

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if you will.

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It's Sparrows by Corey Asbury.

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Here are the lyrics.

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The sparrow's not worried about tomorrow or the troubles to come.

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The lily's not thinking about the seasons, the drought, or the flood.

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A tree that's planted by the water isn't fazed by the fire.

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So why should I be?

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Because you take good care of me.

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You take good care of me.

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He's talking about God.

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I hope you all know that.

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You know what I need before I even ask a thing.

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And you hold me in your hands with a kindness that never ends.

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I'm carried in your embrace.

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love no matter what the future brings yeah you take good care of me the sun's not worried about

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the winter because soon it will pass the light's not thinking about the darkness or the shadow

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that it cast a heart that's planted in forgiveness doesn't dwell in the past so why should i be

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because you take good care of me you take good care of me you know what i need before i even ask

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a thing and you hold me in your hands with a kindness that never ends i'm carried in your

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love no matter what the future brings yeah you take good care of me y'all can go and listen to

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that song this week i highly recommend it and just really let that truth marinate in your spirit

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because no matter what comes in your tomorrows it doesn't it doesn't like mean that god doesn't care

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about you but if that's the line you're believing again we want to look at the lies that we're

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hearing what is the trigger what's the go-to what are what are the negative things we tend to say

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over ourselves and align with when when the pressure is applied

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when we go around our family and somebody says something that's hurtful

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what what's the go-to in our hearts and our minds

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god wants to help you heal and he wants to help you step further into the truth of who he is

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tonight so i want to ask you a question and i get this all the time uh i'm surprised i haven't

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gotten it for a while to be honest when we have people come into this program people will say why

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is this time different why is this time any different some of y'all have been on healing

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journeys you've been in other healing programs you know divorce care you know whatever whatever

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the case may be you've tried dating and all these things here's the reality we believe this is our

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belief jackie dorman myself the team we truly believe that this is a supernatural movement of

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the lord that he has empowered them to start it other people to come along to help carry out the

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mission of this movement to to create kingdom families and marriages that we can be a part of

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changing eternity why is this time different because god makes things different his supernatural

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power and experience in your power and revelation in your life in this season in this time in this

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group in the environment that you're in it's kind of like the pool the guy was sitting by the pool

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waiting for other people to carry him in right but the whole time he was sitting right there

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by the pool now yes he was a paralytic i don't know how paralyzed he was i don't know if that

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meant he couldn't crawl be all he was sitting right there you know a woman literally touched

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the hem of the garment of jesus christ and was healed i'm not shaming that man at all because

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i was that man at one point in a sense okay i'm not talking about physically here i'm talking about

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emotionally i felt emotionally and and in my soul and in some of the parts of my heart paralyzed

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and for a long time the enemy tried to cause me to think that i could never actually have a full

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amazing life because what my brothers had done he started convincing me of that at one point

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because i would always be seen as damaged goods too much your story is too much it's too heavy

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for people no god's yes is it hard to hear some of the stuff i've been through and talk about

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yes but god in his grace and goodness he lifts all that heaviness off i don't know for you all

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if it feels like that but i don't feel heavy when i talk about those things anymore i don't feel the

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burden of the past i feel the freedom and the liberty of the holy ghost and what he's done in

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my life and he is using it to set other people free and that's pretty incredible so i feel the

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power of of jesus christ and what he's doing and what he has done and that's what i align with and

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i hope that you all will will continue to have your faith and your hope fan tonight because this

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time is different for you if that's what you partner with that's key if you choose to partner

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with that truth it will be different for you ecclesiastes 3 1 in the message message version

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says this there's an opportune time to do things the right time for everything on earth we believe

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again that god led you here the heart change that's happening can equal life change for you

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real and lasting change is a process as you know

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process is important. So I want to encourage you to really

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choose tonight to also here's one of my other things I wrote

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down super important. So make sure you catch this. Get out of

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alignment with microwave culture and mentalities. You know, we

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want instant coffee, we want instant boyfriends, instant

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family, instant relationships, y'all guess what? Wanting an

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instant family is what got me caught in that toxic

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relationship. Because I think I got caught up in the fantasy of

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what I thought it was and what I thought it could be. And it was

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never that not even from day one. Okay. And so I want you all

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to really get comfortable doesn't mean when I say this,

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it doesn't mean that it's going to take you forever. Okay. But

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don't even with your heartwork, like some of you are going to

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get frustrated with yourselves, because you just want to get

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done, you just want to get done. Some of y'all want to get done

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way faster than the five weeks. But you know, there is that

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there is this amazing process that we believe the Holy Spirit

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has led us to build, that we have seen countless people put

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into practice and have their whole lives changed. Not just

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their love story, their whole lives. I read a testimony of

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someone in phase three. Now y'all, she's been through

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heartwork, she went through phase two, and she's been in

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phase three, I'm going to say, five months, approximately. So

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that's about six, seven, about probably seven, seven and a

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half months she's been in the program. She's getting set free

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financially, in her mindsets, in orphan mentalities and things

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that have held her back literally for generations and

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her family. And she was saying how like, God started planting

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the seeds in the heartwork phase. And then he kept

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cultivating on and cultivating on and she came to an advanced

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heartwork that we did. I think I did that in July or August, I

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don't remember. And she's she got into the heartwork seed. And

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I coached her and it was all around. She was afraid God

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wasn't going to provide for finances for something. And so

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we coached through the root of the matter. And we got down to

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the core. And it was belief systems and mindsets, but also

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beliefs that she aligned with that told her that God was not

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going to provide for her that God would not come through for

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her that, that she's always going to be in lack. And she's,

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you know, like poverty stuff, y'all. So I don't know what your

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stuff is tonight. But I want to encourage you that God is in the

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business of setting people free. And that isn't reserved for

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everybody else but you. Okay? So we're about to go into

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breakouts. Where do you currently need an upgrade in

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your understanding of God's care for you? That's not your

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question for the breakout. But I want you to be thinking about

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that as well. Okay? Where do you currently need an upgrade in

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your understanding of God's care for you? Now, here's your

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question for the breakout room. Broken promises. When was the

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time someone broke a promise they made to you? And how is

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that still affecting you today? When is a time someone broke a

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promise to you that they made? And how is that still affecting

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you today? Now, if you all get in there, and I really want you

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to lean into the promises question first, because God

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asked me to ask that question tonight, and today. So I want

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you to trust God with that. But if you're in there, and you're

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really feeling like nothing is coming up, you can lean into

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the God's care part. Because either way, it's going to get

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you ultimately closer to the Father, which is the goal. All

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right. Okay, let me go ahead and do these breakout rooms.

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Alright, so I'm going to do three to four of you per room.

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I'm giving you nine minutes. Remember, short, brief and

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powerful. And here, it's really important to remember this.

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Helper hats come off, you don't have to counsel anybody give

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advice or anything like that. You just cheer each other on,

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speak truth, love each other, but like, give enough time for

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everybody to go. Okay, super important. All right, go ahead

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All right, Lord, we just thank you so much for these incredible ladies.

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We thank you, God, for healing the core of who we are.

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We thank you, God, that you would just bring revealings for healing regarding any broken

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promises.

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Lord, where the enemy came in and through other people, he led them to break their promises

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to us, and that caused us to believe the lie that, God, you are not a man that keeps his

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promises.

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So, Lord, we just thank you for truth.

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We thank you for life.

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We thank you for healing and restoration.

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We thank you for, yeah, like just pouring the healing balm of Gilead over our hearts,

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our minds, our bodies, our spirits, and our souls.

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I thank you, Lord, for helping us to hear what your spirit is saying to us tonight.

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I thank you that even right now in the breakout sessions and those that watch this replay,

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God, that you give them aha moments right now, that things will just start to bubble

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up to the surface, that they would have memories come to the surface, that they would have

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phrases and words that were said to them.

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Lord, I thank you that you would remove the dagger, and I'm just seeing like a thorn being

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removed from someone's side, and Lord, just that that resembles the pain of the promise

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that was broken.

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I just heard the Holy Spirit say, and for some of you, the promise broken is when your

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marriage vows were broken, and maybe that was that they broke them with you, or maybe

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you were the one that broke the promise, and so I just want to lean into that as well.

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So, Lord, we just thank you for forgiveness, God, that we can forgive other people, and

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you can help us to also forgive ourselves.

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If we were the ones that broke a promise in any way, I pray that you would just help us

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to release ourselves, that we would extend grace for ourselves.

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We thank you for healing, and reconciliation, and relationships, and families.

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We thank you, Lord, that you are making all things new.

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Lord, God, you're taking everything, and you're working it all together for good, for those

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who love you and live according to your purposes.

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We thank you, God, for renewing us by the transforming of our minds, that all old things

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have passed away, and behold, everything is becoming new and new.

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I thank you, God, that you would create in us clean hearts, O God, and renew steadfast

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spirits within us.

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We thank you, God, for coming in and just ministering grace, and truth, and love.

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I thank you, God, that you would just envelop us with your love tonight, that you would

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hide us under the shadow of your wings and in the presence of the Almighty.

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I thank you, God, that we would not partner with or believe the lies of the enemy that

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tell us that you have forgotten us.

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We thank you, God, that you never forget.

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Hi, Melissa.

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They're talking right now about, the question is, when was the time someone broke a promise

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they made to you, and how is that still affecting you today?

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So I'm going to go ahead and put you in a breakout room, okay?

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You can go ahead and click to join that.

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All right.

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So, Laura, we just thank you also for Melissa, who just joined us.

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We thank you, God, for working in her life.

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We thank you that you are continuing to, even as Romans 828, I just came across the scripture,

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it sounds so good.

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In the passion translation, sorry.

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So we are convinced that every detail of our lives is continually woven together to fit

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into God's perfect plan of bringing good into our lives, for we are his lovers who have

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been called to fulfill his designed purpose.

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Lord, we just thank you for your designed purpose for our lives.

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We thank you that you have a plan to prosper us, to give us a hope in a future, not to

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bring us harm, not to bring us destruction.

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So Lord, we come out of alignment and agreement with every lie of the enemy that you're just

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dangling carrots in front of us, but never following through, never getting us across

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the finish line.

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Lord, we partner with you in that.

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We know that it's not just by faith, but it's faith combined with work.

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So Lord, I thank you that you would show us this week just what is that step we can take

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to lead us closer to you in relationship with you, to allow you to be the center, help us

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to become more secure in our identity in you so that we can then be healthier spirit

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mates to come into contact with the person that you have for us, Lord, down the road.

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We thank you, God, for helping us to continue to align with the truth of having things that

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are true and noble and lovely and of good report, things that are above only and not

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beneath.

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I thank you, God, that we are your daughters and we are here and we're.

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you for the healing work that you're already doing, for the

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healing work that you will do. And I thank you that you'll give

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us grace and yes, just refreshing that you would fill

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hope tanks tonight a little bit more that you would help us this

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week to receive a fresh and filling of your Holy Spirit even

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as we prayed on the prayer call last night, if you all didn't

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catch it, it's okay. It's not a recorded one when we have normal

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prayer time, but just want to share with you that God talked a

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lot last night about filling us afresh and us choosing to be

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filled with his spirit and coming to him daily to get that

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fresh and filling. So Lord, I just thank you that you would

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help us to hunger and thirst for your righteousness, for your

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word, for your presence, that we would never be satisfied with

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anything apart from you, God, that you are the vine and we are

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the branches. So Lord, we just remember tonight our reliance on

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you, even in our heart healing process, let us not pursue this

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pathway by ourselves. Help us to partner with you in this

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process and to pause, to slow down and ask you really great

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questions to allow you to do the work deep within us that you

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know that we need to lead us into the fullness of who you

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originally created us to be. Help us to never settle for less

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than your best. Help us to continue to pursue righteousness,

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right living that we would not go off to the left or to the

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right, but they would, we would stay on the pathway that you

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have for us. And Lord, if we do make a mistake and fall, I thank

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you that your goodness and your grace and your mercy are new

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every morning and we can get back up and we can start going

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again. Help us Lord to extend that mercy to ourselves. Here's

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first John three 20 says, whenever our hearts make us feel

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guilty and remind us of our failures, we know that God is

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much greater and more merciful than our conscience. And he

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knows everything there is to know about us. So we thank you.

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We give you praise tonight. Psalm 134, excuse me, Psalm 139

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14 and the amplified amplified version says this, I will give

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thanks and praise to you for I'm fearfully and wonderfully made.

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Wonderful are your works in my soul knows it very well. Where

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we thank you that nothing is hidden from you, that you see

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everything that you love us in our weaknesses, just as much as

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you love us in our strengths. God, that you are the same

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yesterday, today, and forever. And I thank you that we can be

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confident in you, that we can rely on you to be that firm

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foundation that we can stand on. Your word declares that we can

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be as we follow you and choose pathways of righteousness and

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seek your face that we can become like trees planted by

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rivers of living water that we can always remain connected to

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you. And that when we become that tree of righteousness, that

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other people can come up under our shade and find healing and

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find rest. So Lord, I thank you that you would help us to find

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purpose in our pain and surrender all of our life to you

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and allow you to come in, even into those tender places and

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bring healing and bring truth and bring life. We thank you for

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love. We thank you for reminding us even tonight, what love

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really looks like. I pray that if there are women in this group

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that don't know what true, genuine love looks like, that

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you would give them more experiences of that in the days

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ahead that you would place healthy people on their path to

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be an example, an extension of your faithfulness and your

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loving kindness. We thank you Lord in advance for that. We

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thank you for wooing us and drawing us into all truth and

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anointing us for all of our lives and walk and calling and

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leading us deeper into Jesus every single day. Jesus, thank

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you for coming and allowing your body to be broken and your blood

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to be shed for the forgiveness of our sins, for our freedom,

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for our healing, to lead us further into relationship with

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you. Help us to receive your truth because your truth is what

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sets us free. We thank you Lord for that. Hi, welcome.

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Just waiting for everybody. We have like 20 seconds. So we just

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thank you even right now as the ladies are starting to come back

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that you will just be in our midst as I do the group

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coaching and Lord that we would hear what your spirit is saying.

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That you would help us to partner with your truth in a

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greater way tonight, the truth of heaven that we would call

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forth your kingdom this day on earth as you desire it in

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heaven in Jesus name. All right, welcome back. All right, I

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think I have everyone. Welcome back. Welcome back. Welcome

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back. All right, who is willing to share with the whole group

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what you shared and your breakout group?

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Awesome. Okay, let's go with Ruth first, and then I'll go with Laura.

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Okay, so I was sharing my thought, it's like, um, I felt left out by my family, because

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my daughter was taken away from me 2014. And I was hoping that my family can stand with

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me in the crisis. And I just felt like, because they didn't stand with me. I felt like a failure.

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I've been feeling like a failure. I've been feeling like I've been feeling shame on myself

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on my end for not being there for my daughter. And I've been feeling like, yeah, like let

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down really, because I thought this is the most important time for my family to stand

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with me. And so I've been kind of like, going uptown, uptown. Yeah, sort of like just feeling

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Yeah, why did my family not stand with me in the time I really needed them. And it's

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really been tough, really. And of course, my daughter needs my support. But at the same

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time, I feel so helpless, because I live in Germany, and I'm still trying to understand

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the system, how it works. So the last 10 years, because she was taken 2014, has been

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very tough for me.

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Okay, thank you for sharing that Ruth. Ladies, when we have situations like this, just because

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of a lot of dynamics going on here, the best thing we can do is when you when we have the

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feelings asking God to show us, okay, a it's normal to feel hurt if our family or friends

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don't stand with us in something, right. But because we don't know all the dynamics

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here, I also want to, you know, kind of be cautious of that. So, Ruth, just as you're

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processing this, I really want to encourage you to obviously, you know, we work through

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forgiveness towards family and people that don't stand with us or don't have our back

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when we need them to, or want them to or all that kind of stuff. But also like, what does

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it look like for your life to keep moving forward? Okay, no matter what people do for

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us, ladies, no matter if people are on our side or not on our side, like, what can we

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do? How can we move our life forward in a healthy way? Okay. And I know that can be

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really tough, especially when it impacts kids. They're caught in the mix. You know, not the

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same situation by any means. But my spiritual daughters, you know, I mean, I wish they

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weren't caught in the middle of any situations with their biological parents and the way

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things are happening and all that. But they're definitely they've been caught in the mix

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a very long time. And so one of the biggest things was, I have to choose to move my life

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forward. And I have to trust and believe and know that that is making an impact on their

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life. And so the healthier we become, the more that God can use that to minister to

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our kids, no matter what has happened. You're still her mama. Okay. And so we're going to

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be praying for you regarding that situation. But interestingly enough, when y'all were

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in the breakout session, I saw a thorn, like, like, almost as if a thorn was in someone's

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side. And I felt like it was a really close personal betrayal. And for whatever reason,

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I feel like whether there's someone else that applies to or not, I feel like that does apply

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to your situation here. So just believing for healing from feelings of betrayal. When

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we feel like a failure, also, we have to remember that we feel the field so God can heal the

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field. So we don't want to allow our feelings to dictate and drive our life though. Okay.

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So while we might feel a certain way, what is the truth? Like, what is God saying about us?

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And so I want to encourage you in this next week, really sit with the Lord and ask him,

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like, God, what do you say about me? Get in the word, find some scriptures. Like,

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what does God say about you? Who are you? You're his beloved. You're his daughter.

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You're a gift. You know, you're worth as far above rubies. There's, there's so many scriptures,

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you know, that talk about the good in us. And so as you lean into those and partner with the truth,

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God will continue to help you live that out. Does that make sense?

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It makes sense. I just wanted to say, Bethany, I wanted to confirm what she said because

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my sister, my youngest sister, actually.

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betrayed me. She is the one who went to the government and said that my daughter should

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be taken away. And she said, I'm not a good mother. And she said, she said lots of bad things

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anyway, but I've forgiven her even just through this program. But of course, it's been tough.

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Because I felt like I don't, I no longer want to have any contact with my sister, because I just.

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Oh, I think we lost her. I don't know what more she could do to me in this program.

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Can you not hear me? I hear you now. Yeah, it's okay. I hear you now.

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Go ahead. Yes. So I'm saying, I'm saying just being in this program, having had Jackie several

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saying that sometimes it's important to move places. I am planning to move out of the country.

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But for now, I'm just trying to work things out for my daughter to come back home fast.

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Then we can move together. Yes. Yes. I love that. I love that you are trying to rebuild your life

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and let God come into the mix set. I hope that that is on your Jesus cares board. Have you done

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your Jesus cares board? Yes, yes, yes, yes. Okay. And just the last thing. And because of that,

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I've found myself not feeling pretty and looking good. So for the last 10 years, I've not thought

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about a man or I've actually not even in the process of thinking right now of marriage. So

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right now I'm trying to heal and there's no man. And I've not even thought of love anywhere because

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I felt not looking pretty. So I don't think I really want a man right now until I'm done with

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the healing program. And just so you know, you all, when they're, especially when there's

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00:46:46.320 --> 00:46:53.120
circumstances like this, this is a great example of the best path for her right now

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is healing and focusing on getting her daughter back. Can God bring someone during that time?

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Absolutely. But that is a good goal. That's a good focus. And so that doesn't mean just,

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I feel like this is important to say. Some people really worry that when they finish phase one and

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they go into phase two, that that means they have to date right now. And that isn't the case,

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but everybody can listen to the education and the curriculum in there and learn stuff from it and

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apply it to all kinds of relationships. And then also interactions with men, you know, on any level,

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even if you don't want to date men, again, I kicked off tonight. Some people are, are even

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just afraid to interact with men. It's great practice to allow God to help you heal in those

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areas because God doesn't want us to be afraid, afraid of his sons, healthy people. Okay. Ruth,

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thank you for sharing. And as I said, we'll be definitely praying for you about that. So glad

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that you are looking to the Lord to heal and redeem that relationship with your daughter. We'll

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be praying for her to come home to you soon. Laura, go ahead.

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00:48:03.280 --> 00:48:08.320
Yeah, I just want to thank you, Bethany, for making that comment about like, that we don't

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have to like start dating as soon as we get into phase two, because that has like really been

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00:48:11.680 --> 00:48:16.160
stressing me out. I think that kind of like holds me back from actually moving forward in phase one,

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because like, it really scares me to like start dating again, because I haven't dated in like,

641
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since like the nineties or whatever. So it's like, but anyhow, that's like another topic. But

642
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yeah, so for me, the broken promises, well, the first was like my dad, my parents divorced when

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I was like six. And I just felt like, because he remarried again, like when I turned eight,

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and just like all growing up, like I just never felt that he really placed emphasis on like,

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being like an integral part of my life. Like I would spend my Christmases

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and like, well, a week at Christmastime, and then like my summers with him till I got to be like a

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certain age. And then I cramped my style. But like, after he remarried, he just kind of pawned

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off on my stepmom, like the responsibility of like staying in contact with me, like sending

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birthday presents, Christmas cards, and like calling me and whatever. And so that was him.

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And then the other was the ex. So I found out like five years into our marriage that he was

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addicted to porn. And that was like a huge issue in our marriage for like many years. I mean,

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shortly after I did find out in 99, we did get into recovery. And but yeah, I realized when I

653
00:49:27.520 --> 00:49:31.920
like told him in 2017, that I was actually filing for divorce, that he had been jumping through

654
00:49:31.920 --> 00:49:37.040
hoops for me for like years. So because he knew that I wanted him to be in recovery. I'm like,

655
00:49:37.040 --> 00:49:40.320
Oh, well, that makes sense. Because like, he always had excuses about why he

656
00:49:40.960 --> 00:49:44.960
didn't want to be in recovery. And I was like, Oh, well, that makes sense. And so I was like,

657
00:49:44.960 --> 00:49:49.360
well, that makes sense. Because like, he always had excuses about why he wasn't doing his recovery

658
00:49:49.360 --> 00:49:53.360
work, or he couldn't go to a different meeting, or he couldn't see a therapist or whatever it was.

659
00:49:53.360 --> 00:49:58.720
And so it's like, yeah, because if he was going to be in recovery, he had to do it for like himself,

660
00:49:58.720 --> 00:49:59.920
not because it was something

661
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:02.120
than that I was wanting him to do.

662
00:50:02.120 --> 00:50:03.880
So, and yeah, and so for me,

663
00:50:03.880 --> 00:50:06.300
that was like a broken promise that like,

664
00:50:06.300 --> 00:50:09.160
he couldn't love me or he wouldn't like,

665
00:50:09.160 --> 00:50:11.960
make the effort to like, to work on his recovery

666
00:50:11.960 --> 00:50:13.340
so that he could like,

667
00:50:15.280 --> 00:50:17.120
improve our marriage and our relationship

668
00:50:17.120 --> 00:50:20.120
and like, just keep our marriage together.

669
00:50:20.120 --> 00:50:21.420
So yeah.

670
00:50:21.420 --> 00:50:23.280
And something came up in my spirit

671
00:50:23.280 --> 00:50:24.520
and you weren't saying this,

672
00:50:24.520 --> 00:50:25.660
but this came up in my spirit.

673
00:50:25.660 --> 00:50:28.800
So I feel like I should say it and this is for everyone,

674
00:50:28.840 --> 00:50:31.000
but it came up as you were talking.

675
00:50:31.000 --> 00:50:33.840
You know, something for all of you to think about as well

676
00:50:34.880 --> 00:50:38.140
is maybe someone else didn't break a promise to you,

677
00:50:38.140 --> 00:50:43.080
but maybe you broke a promise to yourself along the way.

678
00:50:43.080 --> 00:50:44.200
That's coming up in my spirit.

679
00:50:44.200 --> 00:50:45.700
So I felt led to write that down

680
00:50:45.700 --> 00:50:47.760
and say it to you all as well.

681
00:50:47.760 --> 00:50:52.200
And you all, sometimes we think of promises

682
00:50:52.200 --> 00:50:54.280
as big things all the time,

683
00:50:54.280 --> 00:50:58.760
but actually promises are like small things too.

684
00:50:59.760 --> 00:51:04.080
So for example, if we say, I'm gonna do this,

685
00:51:04.080 --> 00:51:05.160
whatever this is.

686
00:51:05.160 --> 00:51:10.160
So maybe it's, I'm going to commit to working out

687
00:51:11.520 --> 00:51:13.560
and we continuously don't do it and don't do it.

688
00:51:13.560 --> 00:51:15.400
And we break our own word to ourselves.

689
00:51:15.400 --> 00:51:17.000
That's also like,

690
00:51:17.000 --> 00:51:20.040
basically we start to not even believe our own selves.

691
00:51:20.040 --> 00:51:22.320
Okay, so just felt led to point that out.

692
00:51:22.320 --> 00:51:24.280
Again, not that that had anything necessarily

693
00:51:24.280 --> 00:51:25.560
to do with Laura,

694
00:51:25.560 --> 00:51:27.120
but it was coming up in my spirit

695
00:51:27.160 --> 00:51:29.680
from some of the things she was saying there.

696
00:51:29.680 --> 00:51:32.600
One of the things, Laura, thank you so much for sharing.

697
00:51:33.600 --> 00:51:38.600
I really, as you were sharing about your dad specifically,

698
00:51:39.080 --> 00:51:42.580
the pond off, you were pond off on step-mom.

699
00:51:43.680 --> 00:51:45.300
Here's why I'm honing in on that.

700
00:51:45.300 --> 00:51:48.020
Ladies, tonight we're talking about broken promises,

701
00:51:48.020 --> 00:51:49.640
but ultimately I'm trying to talk to you

702
00:51:49.640 --> 00:51:52.280
about God's love and care for you.

703
00:51:52.280 --> 00:51:55.320
Okay, so at the core,

704
00:51:55.320 --> 00:51:58.120
if we believe that our own earthly fathers

705
00:51:58.120 --> 00:52:02.520
don't really desire to pursue relationship with us

706
00:52:02.520 --> 00:52:07.480
and they just pond us off on someone else or don't connect,

707
00:52:07.480 --> 00:52:11.700
we translate that a lot of times onto God himself.

708
00:52:15.480 --> 00:52:17.880
Okay, so if that's any of you all,

709
00:52:17.880 --> 00:52:21.080
I want to encourage you to lean into what is the truth?

710
00:52:21.080 --> 00:52:22.000
Who is God?

711
00:52:22.000 --> 00:52:23.560
Do we know his character?

712
00:52:23.560 --> 00:52:26.320
One of the things God led me to do years ago

713
00:52:26.320 --> 00:52:31.320
was to really lean into taking one of his characteristics

714
00:52:31.400 --> 00:52:34.040
and just studying scripture on it.

715
00:52:34.040 --> 00:52:36.840
And like, what did the Bible say about God is love?

716
00:52:36.840 --> 00:52:39.560
What did the Bible say about God is faithful?

717
00:52:39.560 --> 00:52:43.180
What does the Bible say about God is gentle or kind?

718
00:52:43.180 --> 00:52:45.960
Like the characteristics of God.

719
00:52:45.960 --> 00:52:48.440
And the more that I meditated on those

720
00:52:48.440 --> 00:52:51.040
and learned about what the Bible actually says

721
00:52:51.040 --> 00:52:55.820
about who he is, the more I believed him.

722
00:52:56.960 --> 00:52:58.920
Does that make sense, what I'm saying?

723
00:53:01.480 --> 00:53:03.880
Because it started getting further down

724
00:53:03.880 --> 00:53:04.980
into my heart and soul.

725
00:53:04.980 --> 00:53:07.540
And as I was healing in that process at the same time,

726
00:53:07.540 --> 00:53:08.560
like my heart was healing

727
00:53:08.560 --> 00:53:10.200
and I was getting more truth in here.

728
00:53:10.200 --> 00:53:12.520
So it was like both and happening at the same time.

729
00:53:12.520 --> 00:53:15.140
And it was this glorious, you know,

730
00:53:15.140 --> 00:53:17.080
like it just started feeling,

731
00:53:17.080 --> 00:53:19.920
I started feeling lighter and more free.

732
00:53:19.920 --> 00:53:23.440
And so Laura, in two things as well.

733
00:53:23.440 --> 00:53:25.000
So I want you to lean into this

734
00:53:25.000 --> 00:53:27.160
regarding your dad and your step-mom.

735
00:53:27.160 --> 00:53:30.320
Okay, even if you've forgiven them before,

736
00:53:30.320 --> 00:53:35.080
because unfortunately when we have these kinds of wounds,

737
00:53:35.080 --> 00:53:37.840
they can cause us to attract people that are unhealthy

738
00:53:37.840 --> 00:53:41.040
who will also break promises to us.

739
00:53:41.040 --> 00:53:42.320
You don't need to be afraid of that

740
00:53:42.320 --> 00:53:44.720
because you're here healing now.

741
00:53:44.720 --> 00:53:48.680
And as we stay in community for all of us,

742
00:53:48.680 --> 00:53:50.560
God can help community to protect us

743
00:53:50.560 --> 00:53:51.560
from that kind of stuff.

744
00:53:51.560 --> 00:53:54.040
But here's the other thing I want to say too.

745
00:53:54.040 --> 00:53:59.040
So interesting, I did not plan on mentioning

746
00:53:59.480 --> 00:54:01.360
the thing about phase two,

747
00:54:01.360 --> 00:54:03.000
but the Lord kind of just nudged me.

748
00:54:03.000 --> 00:54:05.600
And, you know, I've been encouraging you for a while,

749
00:54:05.600 --> 00:54:09.160
keep going forward, keep going forward, keep going forward.

750
00:54:09.160 --> 00:54:11.160
Y'all, sometimes we self-sabotage

751
00:54:11.160 --> 00:54:13.120
even in our heart healing process.

752
00:54:14.900 --> 00:54:18.420
Here, she's been afraid about something that,

753
00:54:19.160 --> 00:54:20.000
what week are you on right now?

754
00:54:20.000 --> 00:54:20.820
And there's no shame in this.

755
00:54:20.820 --> 00:54:21.980
Just tell us what week are you in

756
00:54:21.980 --> 00:54:24.260
in heart healing right now?

757
00:54:24.260 --> 00:54:25.300
Week three.

758
00:54:25.300 --> 00:54:26.300
Week three.

759
00:54:26.300 --> 00:54:28.660
Y'all, she still has two, well, three,

760
00:54:28.660 --> 00:54:30.020
four and five to finish,

761
00:54:30.020 --> 00:54:33.980
but she isn't giving herself permission essentially.

762
00:54:33.980 --> 00:54:35.580
Okay, in her subconscious,

763
00:54:35.580 --> 00:54:37.420
I'm not saying she's doing it intentionally.

764
00:54:37.420 --> 00:54:39.180
In her subconscious,

765
00:54:39.180 --> 00:54:42.340
she is not giving herself permission to move forward

766
00:54:42.340 --> 00:54:44.820
because she's afraid of having to date.

767
00:54:44.820 --> 00:54:47.040
And there's probably other things at play there.

768
00:54:47.080 --> 00:54:49.360
But I think it's important.

769
00:54:49.360 --> 00:54:52.680
Sincerely, I thought I was going to reach out

770
00:54:52.680 --> 00:54:53.520
to you privately.

771
00:54:53.520 --> 00:54:54.840
I didn't know you were going to share tonight,

772
00:54:54.840 --> 00:54:57.800
but God had you on my heart the last few days.

773
00:54:57.800 --> 00:55:00.000
And he told me to tell you that it's time.

774
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:03.040
for you to give yourself permission to move forward.

775
00:55:03.040 --> 00:55:04.840
I did not know that we were gonna be talking

776
00:55:04.840 --> 00:55:05.940
about this tonight.

777
00:55:08.480 --> 00:55:09.960
It's time.

778
00:55:09.960 --> 00:55:12.760
And specifically, interestingly enough,

779
00:55:13.600 --> 00:55:14.760
Hallie brought that to mind.

780
00:55:14.760 --> 00:55:18.020
I was thinking about a woman that's now in phase three.

781
00:55:19.120 --> 00:55:21.440
I had a conversation with her recently,

782
00:55:21.440 --> 00:55:25.160
and she said that I said something similar to her,

783
00:55:25.160 --> 00:55:28.000
and I just happened to be thinking about that conversation

784
00:55:28.000 --> 00:55:29.400
and how she said that impacted her.

785
00:55:29.840 --> 00:55:32.560
And I was like, man, Laura, that was such a simple thing.

786
00:55:32.560 --> 00:55:34.360
But in that moment, that helped her.

787
00:55:34.360 --> 00:55:37.360
And the Lord said, I want you to tell Laura the same thing.

788
00:55:38.920 --> 00:55:40.640
And so God sees you.

789
00:55:40.640 --> 00:55:42.320
He knows your struggle.

790
00:55:42.320 --> 00:55:44.040
He doesn't want you to be afraid.

791
00:55:44.040 --> 00:55:45.180
He's your defender.

792
00:55:45.180 --> 00:55:47.080
He's the one that's gone before you in this,

793
00:55:47.080 --> 00:55:48.800
and he's gonna give you the grace and the courage

794
00:55:48.800 --> 00:55:51.600
and the ability to walk out your heart healing

795
00:55:51.600 --> 00:55:54.980
and anything else that comes in the days ahead.

796
00:55:54.980 --> 00:55:56.760
Y'all, this is a glorious adventure.

797
00:55:56.760 --> 00:55:57.600
I'm serious.

798
00:55:57.600 --> 00:56:01.480
If you will look at it as fun, even in the hard moments,

799
00:56:01.480 --> 00:56:04.280
God will weave it all together for your good.

800
00:56:04.280 --> 00:56:05.660
He really, really will.

801
00:56:05.660 --> 00:56:07.840
All right, Laura, thanks for sharing.

802
00:56:07.840 --> 00:56:10.560
Thanks for letting me speak into those areas too.

803
00:56:10.560 --> 00:56:12.400
I know those can be tender.

804
00:56:12.400 --> 00:56:13.240
Okay.

805
00:56:14.360 --> 00:56:15.200
Is it Jaquoy?

806
00:56:16.900 --> 00:56:18.060
Did I say it right?

807
00:56:19.000 --> 00:56:19.840
Yes, you did.

808
00:56:19.840 --> 00:56:20.660
I'm so excited right now.

809
00:56:20.660 --> 00:56:21.500
Okay, go ahead.

810
00:56:23.240 --> 00:56:24.640
The first thing that came to mind

811
00:56:24.640 --> 00:56:27.440
when you talked about broken promises

812
00:56:28.280 --> 00:56:29.120
was my dad.

813
00:56:29.120 --> 00:56:31.440
My dad left, I have a twin sister.

814
00:56:31.440 --> 00:56:32.840
He left us when we were two.

815
00:56:33.800 --> 00:56:38.480
So he moved to, I'm from Illinois and he moved to Nevada.

816
00:56:38.480 --> 00:56:40.160
So he's been there to this day.

817
00:56:40.160 --> 00:56:41.320
He still lives there.

818
00:56:41.320 --> 00:56:44.080
So he would, sometimes he'll come visit us,

819
00:56:44.080 --> 00:56:48.500
but I vaguely remember him visiting or even calling.

820
00:56:49.440 --> 00:56:51.780
And he'll just make these promises to us,

821
00:56:51.780 --> 00:56:53.680
like, hey, he's gonna come visit us.

822
00:56:53.680 --> 00:56:55.160
He's gonna take us X, Y, Z,

823
00:56:55.200 --> 00:56:58.920
or he's gonna fly us out to visit him

824
00:56:58.920 --> 00:57:00.440
and he'll never show up.

825
00:57:00.440 --> 00:57:01.560
So just go ghost.

826
00:57:01.560 --> 00:57:06.120
So it affects me in my adulthood now

827
00:57:06.120 --> 00:57:08.840
because even just relationships,

828
00:57:08.840 --> 00:57:11.800
either whether friendships or even just a spouse,

829
00:57:11.800 --> 00:57:14.100
I have, I feel like I have trust issues

830
00:57:14.100 --> 00:57:17.140
because someone is telling me, hey, I'm gonna do,

831
00:57:17.140 --> 00:57:19.840
I'm gonna make sure that I show up for you

832
00:57:19.840 --> 00:57:22.440
to cut your grass or help with your kids.

833
00:57:22.440 --> 00:57:23.720
I always have a plan B.

834
00:57:24.120 --> 00:57:25.980
I'm like, well, if they don't show up,

835
00:57:25.980 --> 00:57:28.520
I need to have a plan B because I just,

836
00:57:28.520 --> 00:57:31.480
just because knowing the past that I'm like,

837
00:57:31.480 --> 00:57:33.860
well, people didn't show up for me before.

838
00:57:33.860 --> 00:57:36.380
So I think it really affects me today.

839
00:57:37.920 --> 00:57:41.080
Yeah, I do think there can be some good in that,

840
00:57:41.080 --> 00:57:43.360
but it's almost like a protect yourself

841
00:57:43.360 --> 00:57:45.760
before the hurt comes kind of thing.

842
00:57:45.760 --> 00:57:50.760
And so where I see that potentially coming into play as well

843
00:57:50.880 --> 00:57:53.840
is in relationships, not just with men,

844
00:57:53.840 --> 00:57:57.200
but keeping friends and people at arm's length

845
00:57:57.200 --> 00:58:00.320
because of being afraid of them being too close

846
00:58:00.320 --> 00:58:03.600
and hurting you or letting you down in some way.

847
00:58:03.600 --> 00:58:06.320
Y'all, here's something important for you to process

848
00:58:06.320 --> 00:58:08.160
for a little bit tonight.

849
00:58:08.160 --> 00:58:09.460
Love is a risk.

850
00:58:10.800 --> 00:58:12.200
Okay, it is.

851
00:58:12.200 --> 00:58:15.160
And Jaquoy, my heart goes out to you.

852
00:58:15.160 --> 00:58:18.000
I could tell just even as you were talking about your dad

853
00:58:18.040 --> 00:58:19.660
leaving when you were two,

854
00:58:20.640 --> 00:58:22.720
like I could hear some stuff in your voice in there.

855
00:58:22.720 --> 00:58:25.360
So I feel like there is still a lot of tenderness

856
00:58:25.360 --> 00:58:28.280
in your heart regarding that situation.

857
00:58:28.280 --> 00:58:30.560
So just make sure as you're going through this process,

858
00:58:30.560 --> 00:58:31.780
what week are you on?

859
00:58:34.440 --> 00:58:36.800
I'm just starting on week four,

860
00:58:36.800 --> 00:58:39.280
but I've been in the program for a little bit, so.

861
00:58:39.280 --> 00:58:40.120
That's okay.

862
00:58:40.120 --> 00:58:41.780
Hey, you're doing a great job.

863
00:58:41.780 --> 00:58:43.500
You're here and you're showing up

864
00:58:43.500 --> 00:58:44.800
and you're continuing to move forward.

865
00:58:44.800 --> 00:58:45.900
That's awesome.

866
00:58:45.900 --> 00:58:48.980
So this week's gonna be good for you

867
00:58:48.980 --> 00:58:51.980
with this whole thing that you brought up tonight.

868
00:58:51.980 --> 00:58:54.220
Week four is all about forgiveness.

869
00:58:56.260 --> 00:58:59.060
As you're processing this situation with your dad,

870
00:58:59.060 --> 00:59:01.220
I encourage you to use one of those forgiveness prayer

871
00:59:01.220 --> 00:59:03.800
sheets and write down anything that comes to your mind

872
00:59:03.800 --> 00:59:05.020
about your dad.

873
00:59:05.020 --> 00:59:07.860
Even if it seems like your sheet is covered in things,

874
00:59:07.860 --> 00:59:08.680
just write.

875
00:59:08.680 --> 00:59:10.100
And you don't even always have to write a full sentence.

876
00:59:10.100 --> 00:59:12.620
Ladies, you can write thoughts, you can write short things,

877
00:59:12.620 --> 00:59:15.700
but just getting it out of you onto paper

878
00:59:16.420 --> 00:59:17.260
is really important.

879
00:59:17.260 --> 00:59:20.620
And then just writing that prayer to forgive.

880
00:59:22.340 --> 00:59:27.340
And also on the plan B thing,

881
00:59:27.500 --> 00:59:29.260
I just heard the Lord say to tell you

882
00:59:29.260 --> 00:59:30.800
that he's your plan B.

883
00:59:32.700 --> 00:59:35.700
So in the days ahead, I think he's just wanting you to know,

884
00:59:35.700 --> 00:59:38.460
like, he has your back

885
00:59:38.460 --> 00:59:41.660
and he's gonna follow through for you.

886
00:59:42.580 --> 00:59:45.500
Or even earlier as I was starting us out,

887
00:59:48.300 --> 00:59:49.820
it makes me think of people waiting

888
00:59:49.820 --> 00:59:51.460
for the other shoe to drop as well.

889
00:59:51.460 --> 00:59:52.860
That just came up in my spirit too.

890
00:59:52.860 --> 00:59:55.100
So God's saying you don't have to keep waiting

891
00:59:55.100 --> 00:59:56.100
for the other shoe to drop.

892
00:59:56.100 --> 00:59:59.020
There are gonna be people that are gonna be really great

893
00:59:59.020 --> 01:00:00.420
and you're gonna meet them.

894
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.340
And you're going to be really blessed by their addition to your life.

895
01:00:03.340 --> 01:00:04.620
And that's, that's friends.

896
01:00:04.620 --> 01:00:07.200
That's, that's the family of God.

897
01:00:07.200 --> 01:00:10.700
That's men, there's so many different things that God wants to show

898
01:00:10.700 --> 01:00:14.060
you, um, how amazing life can be.

899
01:00:14.500 --> 01:00:19.460
Um, but some of that will be, the process will be the, the surrendering and

900
01:00:19.460 --> 01:00:24.320
taking down, down the do not enter signs, you know, and I believe as you

901
01:00:24.320 --> 01:00:26.940
process the stuff with your dad, you'll be able to do that a little bit

902
01:00:26.940 --> 01:00:28.740
more after this week, for sure.

903
01:00:29.060 --> 01:00:32.020
And anyone else, you know, I know we're mentioning your, your dad right now,

904
01:00:32.020 --> 01:00:36.560
but anyone else that, you know, you feel like has failed you or let you down in

905
01:00:36.560 --> 01:00:40.660
some way, um, that you would process that y'all, this is really good stuff.

906
01:00:40.660 --> 01:00:44.300
I'm going to, I saw that, uh, Kristen raised her hand, Kristen, I will

907
01:00:44.300 --> 01:00:45.220
come back to you if I can.

908
01:00:45.220 --> 01:00:47.420
I'm going to start to shift towards our next content.

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So we're going to talk a little bit about submission again, tonight.

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01:00:51.780 --> 01:00:55.940
Some of you have been here before when I talked about submission, but hang with us.

911
01:00:56.940 --> 01:00:59.500
I want to talk about submission again.

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01:01:00.100 --> 01:01:01.140
It means to yield.

913
01:01:01.140 --> 01:01:03.420
Some of you are hearing it for the first time tonight to

914
01:01:03.420 --> 01:01:05.580
yield to the power of another.

915
01:01:05.580 --> 01:01:09.140
So most importantly, we're talking tonight about yielding and

916
01:01:09.140 --> 01:01:11.500
submitting to God first and foremost.

917
01:01:11.500 --> 01:01:11.940
Okay.

918
01:01:12.300 --> 01:01:14.500
And what does that look like and feel like?

919
01:01:14.500 --> 01:01:17.340
And when you even hear the word submission, I just want to activate you all.

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01:01:17.340 --> 01:01:18.860
What does that make you think of?

921
01:01:19.540 --> 01:01:22.980
If you hear the word submission, what are the first thoughts that come to your mind?

922
01:01:22.980 --> 01:01:24.300
Go ahead and put those in the chat for me.

923
01:01:24.300 --> 01:01:27.500
I want to see what those look like and sound like for you all.

924
01:01:28.500 --> 01:01:30.420
Phrases taking away my power.

925
01:01:30.420 --> 01:01:30.860
Okay.

926
01:01:33.260 --> 01:01:34.220
Safety.

927
01:01:34.500 --> 01:01:34.700
Yeah.

928
01:01:34.700 --> 01:01:36.980
Cause some of y'all have good experience with it.

929
01:01:37.020 --> 01:01:42.260
Obey giving up helpless, no control, lesser letting go.

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01:01:45.300 --> 01:01:47.700
Anyone else scared?

931
01:01:49.460 --> 01:01:50.420
Y'all are being honest.

932
01:01:50.420 --> 01:01:51.100
I love it.

933
01:01:51.140 --> 01:01:53.100
Humbling myself, trusting another.

934
01:01:53.300 --> 01:01:53.540
Okay.

935
01:01:53.540 --> 01:01:56.500
Keeping those in there as you have them covered.

936
01:01:56.500 --> 01:02:01.060
Shelley says covered as we start to talk about this, I want to encourage you again,

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01:02:01.060 --> 01:02:07.020
just in your healing process to let go in this process and make a choice to trust God.

938
01:02:07.020 --> 01:02:11.580
Even like I was saying to Laura, like y'all don't hold yourselves in prison.

939
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Okay.

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01:02:12.980 --> 01:02:18.020
Give yourselves permission to live, to move forward, to see what God has for you.

941
01:02:18.340 --> 01:02:23.180
Submission is not about someone dominating us or controlling us.

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Okay.

943
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So I saw a lot of you all, that's kind of the story that the enemy has told you about

944
01:02:28.580 --> 01:02:33.700
submission and that's come because there have been people that had authority over

945
01:02:33.700 --> 01:02:39.780
you to some degree, if you will, and they abused it or they fell short in some way.

946
01:02:40.340 --> 01:02:43.660
Um, and you probably got hurt in the process.

947
01:02:43.660 --> 01:02:48.220
Maybe it's also because you didn't learn a healthy view of submission growing up

948
01:02:48.260 --> 01:02:52.660
because it was mishandled in your home, even as a kid.

949
01:02:52.940 --> 01:02:57.300
So submission is never, God never intended it to be about someone

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01:02:57.300 --> 01:02:59.460
dominating us or controlling us.

951
01:03:00.220 --> 01:03:06.380
Submission is about, and this is in regards to a future spirit mate, you all,

952
01:03:06.420 --> 01:03:10.220
when I'm talking about it in this regard, submission is a mutual

953
01:03:10.220 --> 01:03:13.460
surrender and respect mutual.

954
01:03:13.900 --> 01:03:16.100
You're a team you're coming together.

955
01:03:16.620 --> 01:03:17.140
Okay.

956
01:03:17.620 --> 01:03:19.620
You're, you're, you're locking arms.

957
01:03:19.940 --> 01:03:20.260
Okay.

958
01:03:20.260 --> 01:03:20.900
None of this.

959
01:03:20.900 --> 01:03:21.820
I'm above you.

960
01:03:21.820 --> 01:03:23.300
I'm pushing you down stuff.

961
01:03:23.340 --> 01:03:25.420
That's not God's view of submission.

962
01:03:25.900 --> 01:03:26.340
Okay.

963
01:03:26.620 --> 01:03:32.460
So if we believe we have to become a lesser in order to submit to a future spirit

964
01:03:32.460 --> 01:03:40.780
mate, we actually also believe that about God and we're, we're aligning with lies

965
01:03:40.780 --> 01:03:43.620
that we have believed because of trauma.

966
01:03:43.620 --> 01:03:48.300
So if that is something, you know, that you have no, we're never in control.

967
01:03:48.340 --> 01:03:50.700
Shirai, we're never in control.

968
01:03:50.700 --> 01:03:54.100
So remember that, remember, we talked about that controls and illusion.

969
01:03:54.140 --> 01:03:55.620
We're never in control.

970
01:03:56.140 --> 01:03:59.220
God in his infinite power is in control.

971
01:03:59.660 --> 01:04:00.100
Okay.

972
01:04:00.380 --> 01:04:04.580
So no matter what comes, we can trust God to defend us and protect us.

973
01:04:04.780 --> 01:04:05.940
The Bible talks about that.

974
01:04:05.940 --> 01:04:08.220
He will hide us in the cleft of his rock.

975
01:04:08.380 --> 01:04:11.180
Y'all, when we need help, he will protect us.

976
01:04:11.180 --> 01:04:11.980
He will hide us.

977
01:04:12.980 --> 01:04:15.180
And some of you, I know we've talked about this before.

978
01:04:15.180 --> 01:04:18.380
I'm not going to go into too much tonight, but some of you have not

979
01:04:18.660 --> 01:04:21.940
believed that because you experienced harm at the hands of someone else.

980
01:04:25.300 --> 01:04:26.900
That was not God's will for you.

981
01:04:26.900 --> 01:04:28.700
That was not God's will for them.

982
01:04:28.740 --> 01:04:30.620
God did not cause that harm.

983
01:04:30.620 --> 01:04:35.020
The enemy is the one that brings death, disease, destruction, disruption, all

984
01:04:35.020 --> 01:04:40.060
the, all the bad stuff that is always about bringing life and health and

985
01:04:40.060 --> 01:04:43.540
healing and, uh, repairing and rebuilding things.

986
01:04:44.700 --> 01:04:45.180
All right.

987
01:04:45.180 --> 01:04:51.980
So when we choose to submit to someone else, we are actually choosing to honor

988
01:04:51.980 --> 01:04:59.500
them, to honor the relationship and to be a part of a process with God, with God.

989
01:04:59.500 --> 01:05:04.540
So when we choose to submit to someone else, we are actually choosing to honor

990
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:08.880
with them. Okay. So one of the things I told the ladies earlier is way in the early dating

991
01:05:08.880 --> 01:05:13.360
stages, um, I didn't have this conversation with everyone. Y'all, we're not going to talk

992
01:05:13.360 --> 01:05:19.920
about dating tonight, but I do feel like this is important to mention. Okay. When I knew

993
01:05:19.920 --> 01:05:24.220
that Brian and I were, were exclusive, we had already decided we were going to only

994
01:05:24.220 --> 01:05:30.380
date each other. This is after dating some other people and things. Um, this was something

995
01:05:30.380 --> 01:05:36.380
that we talked about because I had been abused in my prior marriage. Um, I was abused in

996
01:05:36.380 --> 01:05:42.460
my home growing up. My mom was very manipulative in like lots of different ways. And then,

997
01:05:42.460 --> 01:05:49.620
um, you know, the stuff I went through with the girls, dad, and I just knew that I could

998
01:05:49.620 --> 01:05:56.380
not be with someone married to someone who would try to push me down to make themselves

999
01:05:56.380 --> 01:06:03.460
feel bigger. Okay. So I know that that stuff is out there. That is not what healthy submission

1000
01:06:03.460 --> 01:06:10.500
looks like. Okay. So Brian and I talked a lot about, um, what our beliefs about submission

1001
01:06:10.500 --> 01:06:16.100
were and, you know, I was pleasantly surprised that he had the same view that I did, that

1002
01:06:16.100 --> 01:06:21.900
it was a mutual agreement. It's a mutual respect. It's a mutual surrender to one another,

1003
01:06:21.900 --> 01:06:28.300
a partnership. Okay. All right. So I want you to think about yield signs, you know,

1004
01:06:28.300 --> 01:06:32.680
the yellow signs, that's the one, not the, well, you can think about the red and white

1005
01:06:32.680 --> 01:06:35.900
ones too. Okay. Different places have them different colors, but I just want you to think

1006
01:06:35.900 --> 01:06:42.300
about yield signs and what is their purpose. The purpose is to tell us to slow down. Why?

1007
01:06:42.300 --> 01:06:47.500
Because typically we're approaching traffic that's coming the other, you know, coming

1008
01:06:47.500 --> 01:06:51.820
the other way, or there's pedestrians that are going to walk in. So it's to protect us

1009
01:06:51.820 --> 01:07:00.700
from having what accidents or close accidents or that kind of stuff. And this is the reality.

1010
01:07:00.700 --> 01:07:06.220
Sometimes some of us just plow right through the yield sign. We see it, we see it there,

1011
01:07:06.220 --> 01:07:15.820
but we just keep going. And then we wonder why we got in an accident, right? Isn't that true?

1012
01:07:15.820 --> 01:07:21.300
Sometimes we blow, we blow right past red flags, yellow flags, and God saying, pay attention,

1013
01:07:21.300 --> 01:07:25.680
just pay attention to this. Okay. So tonight I want to encourage you don't, and in this

1014
01:07:25.680 --> 01:07:30.580
next week, I don't want you to blow past the yield signs, even in the sense of like, if

1015
01:07:30.580 --> 01:07:35.120
God is saying to you, Hey, you don't have to stop here for good, but just, Hey, let's

1016
01:07:35.120 --> 01:07:41.760
pause and look at this wound. Let's pause and look at this area. That's coming up right

1017
01:07:41.760 --> 01:07:46.920
now. This thought that you haven't had this thought in a long time about this person,

1018
01:07:46.920 --> 01:07:51.160
you know, all of a sudden someone from high school is coming up in your dream at night

1019
01:07:51.160 --> 01:07:54.600
or in the daytime. And you're like, what in the world? I haven't thought about this person

1020
01:07:54.600 --> 01:07:58.960
in ages. And they were someone that bullied you. You know, I don't know what the scenarios

1021
01:07:58.960 --> 01:08:03.080
are, but that's just what's one of them that's coming up. So whatever comes up, like ask

1022
01:08:03.080 --> 01:08:08.160
God questions about that. Don't just blow past those things. God is a reminder. He will

1023
01:08:08.160 --> 01:08:16.120
not force his way in on you. He will not plow the door down. Romans two, four says, or do

1024
01:08:16.120 --> 01:08:21.640
you show contempt for the riches of his kindness, forbearance and patience, not realizing that

1025
01:08:21.640 --> 01:08:27.720
God's kindness is intended to lead you to repentance. He stands at the door of your

1026
01:08:27.720 --> 01:08:32.880
heart, our hearts and knocks revelation three 20 says behold, I stand at the door and knock.

1027
01:08:32.880 --> 01:08:38.399
If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come to him and or her. I put in there

1028
01:08:38.399 --> 01:08:46.240
and eat with them and they with me. So I'm, I've been sharing that scripture over and

1029
01:08:46.240 --> 01:08:51.040
over and over again, the last several weeks, because it's so important. So many of you

1030
01:08:51.040 --> 01:08:55.640
believe that God is just going to come and plow the door down. He's just going to like

1031
01:08:55.640 --> 01:09:01.399
bring this bulldozer and this big ball and just wreck the whole thing. And he is not

1032
01:09:01.399 --> 01:09:06.760
like that. He's not like that with your heart. He's not like that with your life. He's not

1033
01:09:06.760 --> 01:09:11.479
saying you've messed up too much. So I just got to start all the way over. He's not saying

1034
01:09:11.479 --> 01:09:16.960
all any of that stuff. He's saying, I stand at the door and knock on the door of your

1035
01:09:16.960 --> 01:09:24.640
heart and you, each one of you, Nikki gets to choose to let them in. Sure. I gets to

1036
01:09:24.640 --> 01:09:30.160
choose to answer. God, I hear you. God, I'm going to let you come in. Even though, even

1037
01:09:30.160 --> 01:09:36.240
though I'm a little nervous, God, I'm going to let you come into this area of my heart.

1038
01:09:36.240 --> 01:09:41.040
You know, he knows what we need and when we need it and he knows how to get it to us.

1039
01:09:41.040 --> 01:09:47.880
Job 22 verse 21 says, submit to God and you will have peace. Then things will go well

1040
01:09:47.880 --> 01:09:53.760
with you. Proverbs 3, 5 in the message version says this, trust God from the bottom of your

1041
01:09:53.760 --> 01:09:58.200
heart. Don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything

1042
01:09:58.200 --> 01:10:00.000
you do, everywhere you go.

1043
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:02.440
So he's the one who will keep you on track.

1044
01:10:02.440 --> 01:10:04.340
Don't assume that you know it all.

1045
01:10:05.520 --> 01:10:08.480
So we have to listen, we have to trust him.

1046
01:10:08.480 --> 01:10:12.000
We have to believe that he is doing something good

1047
01:10:12.000 --> 01:10:13.020
in our lives.

1048
01:10:13.020 --> 01:10:14.520
I'm gonna put you into breakout rooms

1049
01:10:14.520 --> 01:10:16.860
and here's your question.

1050
01:10:16.860 --> 01:10:20.080
Do you struggle with submission and why?

1051
01:10:21.480 --> 01:10:25.480
Do you struggle with submission and why?

1052
01:10:25.480 --> 01:10:27.140
All right, let me recreate these.

1053
01:10:27.140 --> 01:10:29.580
I want y'all to meet some new people.

1054
01:10:30.940 --> 01:10:35.060
I'm gonna take it down to eight minutes

1055
01:10:35.060 --> 01:10:37.060
just because I wanna have a decent amount of time

1056
01:10:37.060 --> 01:10:38.580
to coach a couple people.

1057
01:10:38.580 --> 01:10:39.740
All right, there you go.

1058
01:10:40.580 --> 01:10:42.880
Go ahead and click to join those rooms.

1059
01:11:01.000 --> 01:11:05.000
All right, thank you, Lord, for everything that you're doing.

1060
01:11:05.920 --> 01:11:08.900
God, we thank you that you would just revitalize

1061
01:11:08.900 --> 01:11:10.420
our view of submission,

1062
01:11:10.420 --> 01:11:14.020
that you would transform the way that we look at

1063
01:11:14.020 --> 01:11:16.060
submitting to someone that is healthy,

1064
01:11:16.060 --> 01:11:17.500
someone that we can trust.

1065
01:11:17.500 --> 01:11:20.220
God, we thank you that you're also showing us

1066
01:11:20.220 --> 01:11:23.140
what it looks like as our heart heals

1067
01:11:23.140 --> 01:11:25.660
to choose to trust you more in this season.

1068
01:11:25.660 --> 01:11:30.660
We thank you for revealing the areas where we struggle

1069
01:11:31.640 --> 01:11:35.200
and we have fear, even as some of these ladies put in,

1070
01:11:35.200 --> 01:11:37.480
that they're afraid that they're gonna have to let go

1071
01:11:37.480 --> 01:11:39.300
of their protection.

1072
01:11:39.300 --> 01:11:42.640
So God, I thank you that you would reveal to them

1073
01:11:42.640 --> 01:11:47.640
the ways that you actually protect them and cover them more

1074
01:11:47.960 --> 01:11:51.320
through their choice to submit and choose you.

1075
01:11:51.320 --> 01:11:54.040
So Lord, we just thank you that you would bring truth

1076
01:11:54.060 --> 01:11:57.100
and life and redemption to these areas where,

1077
01:11:58.540 --> 01:12:02.500
yes, Lord, I just stand in the gap on behalf of leaders

1078
01:12:02.500 --> 01:12:06.460
and parents who have abused authority in the past

1079
01:12:06.460 --> 01:12:08.780
and in any way that they've harmed any of the ladies

1080
01:12:08.780 --> 01:12:09.620
in this group.

1081
01:12:10.740 --> 01:12:12.540
And not that I did those things, but God,

1082
01:12:12.540 --> 01:12:15.160
I just heard you say like to stand in the gap

1083
01:12:15.160 --> 01:12:16.500
on behalf of those people.

1084
01:12:16.500 --> 01:12:20.540
And I say to all of these ladies that I'm so sorry

1085
01:12:20.540 --> 01:12:25.540
for the harm that was caused to you through the people

1086
01:12:26.160 --> 01:12:29.540
that mishandled authority that was given to them,

1087
01:12:30.440 --> 01:12:34.000
ways they harmed you through words, through actions,

1088
01:12:34.000 --> 01:12:37.860
mistreatment, neglect, abuse of power,

1089
01:12:39.480 --> 01:12:42.120
oppressing you in one way or another.

1090
01:12:42.120 --> 01:12:45.920
So Lord, we thank you for healing and redeeming

1091
01:12:45.920 --> 01:12:48.160
the storyline of our lives.

1092
01:12:48.180 --> 01:12:50.980
We thank you that you go all throughout our timeline

1093
01:12:50.980 --> 01:12:53.120
and you can redeem anything.

1094
01:12:53.120 --> 01:12:55.180
And we thank you that right now that you would go

1095
01:12:55.180 --> 01:12:59.140
into those places where the trauma entered,

1096
01:12:59.140 --> 01:13:02.100
where someone did abuse authority and it broke us.

1097
01:13:02.100 --> 01:13:04.420
And we thank you that you had placed the balm of Gilead

1098
01:13:04.420 --> 01:13:06.860
upon those areas of our timelines,

1099
01:13:06.860 --> 01:13:09.740
those parts of our hearts, those stories,

1100
01:13:09.740 --> 01:13:11.600
that you would help us to hear everything

1101
01:13:11.600 --> 01:13:15.180
that your spirit is saying louder than the voice

1102
01:13:15.180 --> 01:13:17.620
of the enemy that spoke to us during that time of trauma.

1103
01:13:18.080 --> 01:13:21.080
And we thank you God for restoring our relationship

1104
01:13:21.080 --> 01:13:25.800
with you, help us to enter into your throne room of grace

1105
01:13:25.800 --> 01:13:27.040
in a fresh way tonight.

1106
01:13:27.040 --> 01:13:29.880
We thank you God that you would just help us Lord

1107
01:13:29.880 --> 01:13:34.880
to know your truth and that your truth

1108
01:13:35.300 --> 01:13:36.140
is what sets us free.

1109
01:13:36.140 --> 01:13:38.520
That scripture just keeps coming up in my spirit tonight.

1110
01:13:38.520 --> 01:13:43.520
Ladies, we thank you God that you in Revelation 21,

1111
01:13:43.620 --> 01:13:47.580
in Revelation 21 for it says he will wipe away every tear

1112
01:13:47.580 --> 01:13:50.460
from their eyes and eliminate death entirely.

1113
01:13:50.460 --> 01:13:53.000
No one will mourn or weep any longer.

1114
01:13:53.000 --> 01:13:56.040
The pain of wounds will no longer exist

1115
01:13:56.040 --> 01:13:58.420
for the old order has ceased.

1116
01:13:58.420 --> 01:14:02.060
So Lord, we just thank you that you are truly wiping away

1117
01:14:02.060 --> 01:14:06.700
tears from our eyes, that you are making everything new,

1118
01:14:06.700 --> 01:14:08.620
that you're giving us beauty for ashes

1119
01:14:08.620 --> 01:14:10.780
and the oil of joy for mourning.

1120
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I thank you God that we can trust and rely on you

1121
01:14:15.840 --> 01:14:17.560
in every area of our life.

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01:14:20.480 --> 01:14:21.680
Yes, Lord.

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01:14:23.160 --> 01:14:26.240
All right, ladies, I'm looking for just some other things

1124
01:14:26.240 --> 01:14:28.840
that I feel like God is saying to us tonight

1125
01:14:28.840 --> 01:14:32.360
through scripture in the book.

1126
01:14:33.560 --> 01:14:36.760
But we just thank you also for, yeah, Lord,

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01:14:36.780 --> 01:14:41.780
thank you for reminding us that our war is not with people,

1128
01:14:43.820 --> 01:14:46.220
that it's with principalities and powers.

1129
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In Ephesians 6, 12, it says your hand-to-hand combat

1130
01:14:49.100 --> 01:14:50.260
is not with human beings,

1131
01:14:50.260 --> 01:14:52.180
but with the highest principalities and authorities

1132
01:14:52.180 --> 01:14:54.680
operating in rebellion under the heavenly realms.

1133
01:14:54.680 --> 01:14:57.740
But I thank you God that you've also given us the armor.

1134
01:14:57.740 --> 01:15:00.100
You have given us the ability to close.

1135
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:04.800
ourselves truly in your presence and your protection every single day. The armor of

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01:15:04.800 --> 01:15:09.120
God is the belt of truth, the breastplate of righteousness, the shoes of the readiness of

1137
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the gospel of peace, the helmet of salvation, the shield of faith, the sword of the spirit,

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and the glory of God that is our rear guard. We thank you that you had just, you know, all about

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Lord God that you send your angels right now to minister to us in every area. We thank you that

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even as we sleep tonight that we would experience freedom and breakthrough. We thank you for

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supernatural surgeries happening as people are sleeping and that they would experience your

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truth and your revelation and your healing and your redemption. We thank you that you heal all

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the wounds of every shattered heart and you set your stars in place calling them all by name.

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That's what Psalm 147 verse 3 and 4 says. We thank you God that you know every hair on our head

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and I thank you God that nothing is out of your sight. So Lord, I thank you that you can help us to

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partner with the truth that you carry away our weaknesses and our sorrows and I thank you again

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that you just help us to embrace the joy of our salvation. I thank you that you fill us with joy

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unspeakable and full of glory and and for some that don't feel that now I thank you God that you

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would just come into those areas where the enemy stole their joy and I pray that you would just

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breathe joy into them that you would help them to experience true genuine inner joy from the inside

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out as you I just saw in the spirit Lord like the Lord's putting together puzzle pieces.

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So to speak that word over those of you that hear this replay that God is putting all the

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pieces together and he's creating a masterpiece far beyond what you could ever ask think or imagine

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and he has not forgotten you he will not forget and that's kind of a thread and theme of our

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night tonight that he will come through for you not just someone else and everybody else but for

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you yes all right here's another one Ephesians 3 17 through 19 it says then Christ will make

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his home in your hearts as you trust in him your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you

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strong and may you have the power to understand as all God's people should how wide how long

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how high and how deep his love is may experience the love of Christ though it is too great to

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understand fully then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes

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from God

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so good I love that I love that scripture

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we just thank you Lord for what you're continuing to do in the breakout rooms we thank you that

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you're continuing to help us as your sons and your daughters well it's just daughters tonight

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on here but in my spirit I just felt led to say sons uh to step into your truth and your hope

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in your life that you're rewriting storylines right now Ephesians 3 20 through 21 says never

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doubt God's mighty power to work in you and accomplish all of this he will achieve infinitely

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more than your greatest request your most unbelievable dream and exceed your wildest

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imagination all right they're starting to come back he will outdo them all for his miraculous

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power constantly energizes you isn't that such a glorious scripture I love that he will achieve

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infinitely more than your greatest request your most unbelievable dream and exceed your wildest

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imagination isn't that something just good to think about love it hi we lost you I think

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it's okay my connection like I was getting out of my car oh yeah yeah yeah it's okay I'm glad

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you're here they're gonna come back in like 20 seconds okay

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oh that's so good that's so good

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um

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welcome back hello hello hello

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all right welcome back as y'all are getting ready for whoever would be willing to share what you

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shared in your breakout I want to give you the activations for this week

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I have two for you and they're not hard. Okay. So don't panic when I say two

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All right. The first one is this I want to encourage you all in and this is different than your Jesus cares board

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Okay, because right now like the Jesus cares board is an overarching or even when you do have the cares

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You can put them on there

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but I want you some of you kind of do Jesus cares and maybe forget about it or have

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Additional things come up and you don't realize you can put them on the board

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And so I felt led for you all to do a list of three to five things. Okay, so it's this is easy three to five things

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That you are choosing tonight to partner with God in

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Saying God you care about me and you care about these things

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Three to five

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So as those come to your mind

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Tonight and this week I

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Want you to make those in a little list God

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I'm choosing to partner with you that you care about me and you care about these

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Three to five things now it cares about more than that

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But I want you to start here and then I would love for you to take a screenshot

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Of your three to five things or you can do it in text if you just want to type them into a post

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But I would like to see them in the group

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Again this is me trying to get you all to come in and embrace the community that is here for you

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Look at your sisters on the screen y'all wave at each other. Just wave at each other. Yep. There you are

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I'm kind of being a little silly

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but this is an amazing group of women and you all have every opportunity to connect with these amazing women during this time and

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The more that you are in the group posting and communicating with each other there can be really awesome

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Friendships and connections made here don't miss out on that. Some of you are still kind of like on the sidelines

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You're not really engaging yet

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I I have this in every every group every time no matter when people come there are people that you know

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They're just not sure and I understand some of y'all have been hurt before by people or you feel like ah

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The enemy is like the group's too big. He just tells you all these lies. So you don't engage. I want to encourage you to engage

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Talk to your sisters talk to each other. Let us hear what God is doing in you during this time. Okay, that's number one

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Number two. Oh, that's awesome Shrey

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Yeah, see this is so great

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This is why I mix groups up sometimes even when it might make you all a little nervous sure

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I just said yes, I found out tonight that Shelly's a kindergarten teacher just like her

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Look at that awesome connection just from one conversation

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Love that. Okay. Here's number two activation. Mm-hmm

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So one of the ways that we can experience God from my perspective not that everyone feels this way

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But even if you're not somebody that connects with God in this way

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I want you just to kind of practice this because you might become one is

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through nature any kind of nature

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So some of you all what comes to mind? I don't know if y'all it wasn't really a good movie

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But I didn't know back in the day

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Pretty woman and there's a scene where she has him take his shoes off and just walk in the grass

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Y'all ever do you remember that scene?

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But I think about that all the time because so many times just like we're so busy

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We're so busy and we're on technology all the time and we're not really getting outside as much and we're not connecting in nature

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So whether it's by water for you flowers going on a hike or a little walk

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Maybe it's just if you can't get to a beach or a big place of water

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Maybe just go by a stream and just kind of like even if it's five minutes you all

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You don't feel like this has to be this big massive outing if you want to do that. That's awesome

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but even just taking five ten minutes half an hour, whatever your time allotment can be and

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Connect with God. I want you to think about that Sparrows song that I read earlier and I want you to look around

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I want you to kind of like pay attention to what's going on in nature around you and think about God as the creator of

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the universe and

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How amazing he is and how everything he created is amazing

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including you

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He didn't mess up you all and he cares about you

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The Bible talks about like if you'll adorn a sparrow and

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The lilies in the you know fields will he not also adorn us I

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Want I want you all to think on those things this week. Okay. All right

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All right, Joanna

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Go ahead. You can go ahead and go

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Yeah, so I shared in the group before when I thought about submission. I was like I

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Like it was positive I actually viewed it as like yeah, I like I'm excited to submit to my

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has been just because I always view that as something that would be positive.

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And most recently, I was in a relationship with someone who I like, so he used submission

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as a way to control and manipulate. And so like now when I hear the word submission,

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it's more so like, it's kind of like a trigger of like, oh, like control or lesser than.

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Um, so my view on submission, I'm realizing now that it has definitely changed from

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what it used to be. Okay. Thank you for sharing that with us.

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I know how many people can relate to Joanna here? Raise your hands. Anybody? Natalie, I see,

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I see. I hate to call you iPhone three, but I don't know who you are. I'm so sorry.

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Put it in the chat for me. So I know your name. I know I've seen your face before. I feel bad

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that I don't remember your first name, but, um, there were a couple other people that raised

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hands there too. So ladies, when we're in this place where, again, someone has, um, really,

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um, misused authority and abused it on some level. I want to encourage you to ask the Lord

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to help you again, even if you've already forgiven them, go use the forgiveness prayer sheet too.

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And you all can get those. Um, I think before you get into the week that they're in, but I'm

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not a hundred percent sure that we've done some changes on the backend. So if you can't let me

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know if God is leading you to do forgiveness and you can't get that, I will get that to you, but.

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Um, God wants to repair the damage that was done there.

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And he wants to help you see that not every guy is going to be like that. And there are

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healthy men out there that will, will respect you. Um, and here's, here's one of the things

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that came up this afternoon and, and this is coming back up in my spirit now. So I want to

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share this, you all, um, there are healthy men out there that will love you even in your ugliest

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moments fully, and they won't walk out on you and they won't Lord things over you because you

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made a mistake. Okay. So those are the kinds of guys you're going to be looking for men that walk

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in the fruits of the spirit. Guess what? Fruits of the spirit. Some of them are gentleness,

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kindness, faithfulness. Does that mean men need to be weak and not masculine? No, y'all. It's not

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healthy for men to not be men. Okay. So we, as women, we want meekness and we want gentleness

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and those are good things. And we should want that should want that in our men, but men are

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chivalrous. They love to be chivalrous and do things for us and protect us. And, and from my

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experience, if I explain a problem, my husband loves, he wants to fix it for me. He wants to

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make that better, you know? And so men need to be able to be men. Now, do they need to come in

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and take over and fix it when we don't need them to know, but guess what? We get to learn

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communication. Y'all that's how it works. All right. So there are men that will come and

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Joanna, I'm saying this to you. The reason I gave that example regarding what I've learned

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and just what I've seen is in my prior marriage, my ex-husband totally misused

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authority and, and my desire to be a good wife and submit because that's what I was told. If

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you're a good wife, you submit. And this time it's just totally different. It's just totally

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different. It's genuinely us in kindness, loving one another and honoring each other in our

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thoughts and actions. And, and you know, even in our process of getting moved to a new church,

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you know, I have, I have, I don't have to choose to trust my husband, but I want to choose to trust

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my husband because I trust, I believe in him. I trust that he hears from God and that I hear

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from God too. And together, together, we made a decision to come here. Does that make sense?

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Everyone? Okay. That's what you're going to be looking for and people. Okay. All right. Let's

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see. Renee, I see you changed your name there. Okay. Kristen, go ahead. And then I'll come to Renee.

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So I shared that I have kind of a mixed feeling on submission. Like I, I think that

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growing up, well, growing up, my mom, I viewed my parents more as a matriarchy. Like my mom's

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more of the one who gets things done and, you know, has like, I don't know. I just respect

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that she follows through and.

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Um, kind of knows the wise thing to do.

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And not that my dad doesn't ever, but I kind of got from her the mentality

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that like, she knew better, you know?

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And so it's like to follow her and versus, so I didn't, I don't know that

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I really saw my mom like submitting to my dad super a lot, like if he got

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angry, you know, she would just go, okay, you know, whatever to abate the

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anger, but it wasn't usually because she like really respected and

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trusted his opinion over hers.

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And so, and then I had some abuse from my brother when I was younger.

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So it's like the two men that, um, I looked to, to respect and

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to protect and trust and lead.

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I wasn't fully seeing that really happen.

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And so I do think over time in my walk with God, that God has helped me learn

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how to honor and submit to my dad and, um, whether or not I agreed with him

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or thought that his way was right.

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And also I feel like God's helped me learn how to submit to God as, as I've

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grown in relationship and trusting him.

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But I still think there's parts of me that are like, I've got to protect

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myself and I don't, it takes a lot for me, I think, to find a man that I

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respect and trust enough that I want to submit to that leadership and like,

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and trust that he's plugged into the Lord enough and listening to the

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Lord's directives that I want to follow for you.

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Sorry to interrupt you.

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I have a question.

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It's important.

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No, it's okay.

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I feel like this is important.

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Do you feel like you respected your mom?

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Yes.

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Uh, even when mom backed down because dad got angry.

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Um, I kind of viewed it as like taking the high road, I guess.

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Okay.

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I feel like there's something to that because out of that whole

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story, God nudged me about your mom.

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So I just want to encourage you just to kind of be asking the Lord about

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that, because I think that sometimes whether we realize it or not, and I'm

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not saying you don't respect your mom.

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I think in the general sense, most of us respect our parents.

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Okay.

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Even parents that are unhealthy.

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We do our best to, to love and honor and respect our parents.

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Especially when we've done processes of healing and forgiveness, but

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subconsciously, if there is any kind of lack of disrespect towards your mom,

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because she chose to back down when dad would get angry and then you also had

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your brothers, I mean, if they were abusive towards you, I'm kind of sitting

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here wondering like, what was mom and dad doing?

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Well, when my parents said it was, I just have one brother.

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And when my parents found out about what happened, they sat down and talked with

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my brother and were basically like, this better stop and it stopped, but they

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didn't know what to do at the time.

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So they like never got me counseling or anything like that.

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It just kind of got like brushed aside.

1342
01:33:04.240 --> 01:33:04.680
So.

1343
01:33:05.240 --> 01:33:08.080
And just know, I don't mean anything bad or disrespectful to your parents.

1344
01:33:08.240 --> 01:33:12.000
These are just important questions so that I can kind of navigate you because

1345
01:33:12.000 --> 01:33:17.560
you're saying you struggled to believe that you'll ever meet a guy that you can

1346
01:33:17.560 --> 01:33:18.340
respect.

1347
01:33:18.780 --> 01:33:21.620
And so for whatever reason that led me to your mom.

1348
01:33:21.620 --> 01:33:26.180
So again, I don't always know why God puts spirit and it doesn't mean that

1349
01:33:26.180 --> 01:33:29.020
that's going to end up being the thing, but maybe it'll lead you to where you

1350
01:33:29.020 --> 01:33:29.940
need to go.

1351
01:33:30.380 --> 01:33:34.180
Um, and so just lean into that a little bit and pray about it.

1352
01:33:34.300 --> 01:33:37.180
If it ends up going nowhere, that's totally fine too, but I think it's worth

1353
01:33:37.180 --> 01:33:43.780
just asking, asking the Lord about, um, and then, um, just come back and do a

1354
01:33:43.780 --> 01:33:44.820
post for me in the group.

1355
01:33:44.820 --> 01:33:45.280
Okay.

1356
01:33:45.340 --> 01:33:45.700
On that.

1357
01:33:45.700 --> 01:33:49.260
Cause I, I feel like there might be, if something comes up, I think there will

1358
01:33:49.260 --> 01:33:49.940
be follow-up.

1359
01:33:49.940 --> 01:33:51.420
I need to help you unpack with that.

1360
01:33:52.780 --> 01:33:55.720
Where in the, when you say post in the group, what do you mean?

1361
01:33:56.300 --> 01:33:56.660
Yep.

1362
01:33:56.700 --> 01:33:59.780
Are you, did you get connected in our app group?

1363
01:34:00.060 --> 01:34:01.700
I have the app.

1364
01:34:03.340 --> 01:34:03.620
Yeah.

1365
01:34:03.620 --> 01:34:06.660
Does everyone know how to, maybe that's part of the reason I'm not seeing people

1366
01:34:06.660 --> 01:34:07.420
posting in there.

1367
01:34:07.420 --> 01:34:09.340
Does everyone know how to get in the well?

1368
01:34:09.340 --> 01:34:09.620
Okay.

1369
01:34:09.620 --> 01:34:10.960
Eloise, you're in Facebook.

1370
01:34:10.960 --> 01:34:13.500
That's why, honey, you're, you're still in Facebook.

1371
01:34:13.500 --> 01:34:14.400
So that's totally different.

1372
01:34:14.640 --> 01:34:18.600
Cause you started at a different, you started before we launched that.

1373
01:34:18.600 --> 01:34:24.960
So anybody that started like Laura still in Facebook and Shelley, anybody before

1374
01:34:24.960 --> 01:34:25.400
yeah.

1375
01:34:25.440 --> 01:34:26.520
Anya's in there.

1376
01:34:26.520 --> 01:34:29.160
We have quite a few ladies that are here live tonight.

1377
01:34:29.400 --> 01:34:30.680
So people in Facebook.

1378
01:34:31.240 --> 01:34:31.500
Yeah.

1379
01:34:31.500 --> 01:34:32.240
Hold on one second.

1380
01:34:32.560 --> 01:34:34.800
People that are in Facebook are going to post in Facebook.

1381
01:34:35.000 --> 01:34:35.440
Okay.

1382
01:34:35.440 --> 01:34:38.400
If you're in the app and just know nobody's missing out.

1383
01:34:38.600 --> 01:34:41.160
Once y'all moved to phase two, you're all going to go to the app.

1384
01:34:41.400 --> 01:34:41.920
Okay.

1385
01:34:42.260 --> 01:34:46.980
So we just, it's this, there's no other easy way to do it, but go ahead and post

1386
01:34:47.020 --> 01:34:50.740
in Facebook if you're, if you're in Facebook, if you're in the app, when you

1387
01:34:50.740 --> 01:34:53.020
click on the tab that says community.

1388
01:34:54.340 --> 01:34:54.740
Okay.

1389
01:34:54.740 --> 01:34:58.980
In there, you can click all you can click wins, ask a coach.

1390
01:34:59.340 --> 01:34:59.940
Um,

1391
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:04.960
If you have a specific question for me or one of the other coaches, you're going to want to select

1392
01:35:04.960 --> 01:35:10.800
ask a coach and then you just deselect all. If you guys are in your welcome area in the app,

1393
01:35:10.800 --> 01:35:14.960
there's a little tech video you're going to want to watch and I'll teach you how to use the

1394
01:35:14.960 --> 01:35:20.640
the app there for you, okay? All right, I'm going to go ahead and shift just so I can get to Renee.

1395
01:35:20.640 --> 01:35:25.600
If anyone needs to jump off, it's totally okay. I know we're already over time, so I want to honor

1396
01:35:25.600 --> 01:35:34.320
y'all's time. Renee, I would love to hear what you were going to share. So I am, I'm kind of

1397
01:35:34.320 --> 01:35:44.000
in between. So my original thoughts on submissive was bad, very much so. My husband, I came from a

1398
01:35:44.000 --> 01:35:51.120
very traumatic background and my husband was abusive, but I was a very type A personality,

1399
01:35:51.120 --> 01:36:00.080
so I'm a very take charge. And because my husband was a weak man, but then I wasn't a believer,

1400
01:36:00.080 --> 01:36:06.160
and then I came to Christ later on, which then like you, the church taught women were supposed

1401
01:36:06.160 --> 01:36:15.920
to be submissive. And he used that to lord over me, but I'm still a type A. I still struggle

1402
01:36:15.920 --> 01:36:21.840
with the submissive part of, I believe things have to be taken to, I have to take charge to

1403
01:36:21.840 --> 01:36:30.800
get things done in order for them to get done. And that's the way my ex-husband was in our marriage.

1404
01:36:30.800 --> 01:36:35.600
Like if anything needed to be done in the house or anything needed to be done, I was the one who

1405
01:36:35.600 --> 01:36:43.760
took charge and did it. And so being submissive, I believe in it in God's manner with marriage,

1406
01:36:43.760 --> 01:36:54.560
but it's still one of those that I'm, I'm open to, but I'm still leery about I'm more, I'm more

1407
01:36:54.560 --> 01:36:59.360
open than I've been. I look at it as a positive, but I'm not sure I can do it once I get into

1408
01:36:59.360 --> 01:37:05.840
marriage because I haven't dated in 16 years. So I have a couple, I have a couple things for you

1409
01:37:05.840 --> 01:37:13.440
here. Okay. And this can go for anybody. And when I say this, I understand why you're saying type

1410
01:37:13.440 --> 01:37:19.840
A personality. Okay. So that's my preface. Okay. But I also want to encourage you to stop partnering

1411
01:37:19.840 --> 01:37:31.280
with that. Okay. Here's why divine feminine can't come out to play when type A personalities are

1412
01:37:31.280 --> 01:37:38.880
always in charge. I'm not saying you can't be strong. I'm a boss, babe. I loved it. I love to

1413
01:37:38.880 --> 01:37:44.800
make it happen. You all I like I I'm good. I'm good at administration, but there's a difference

1414
01:37:44.800 --> 01:37:50.320
between understanding my anointing and my gifting and walking in that when I have the open door to

1415
01:37:50.320 --> 01:37:56.240
do it versus believing the lie that if I want something done, I'm the only person that can do

1416
01:37:56.240 --> 01:38:02.560
it. So I've got to do it. So I say this with a lot of love to you heard that line somewhere in your

1417
01:38:02.560 --> 01:38:10.400
life. So I am wondering if you maybe heard mom say stuff like that. Number one, that that's one

1418
01:38:10.400 --> 01:38:16.160
thing I want you to kind of ask the Lord about number two is, was there a point in your life

1419
01:38:16.160 --> 01:38:24.160
where you, there was something that needed done and you really felt like no one else stepped up

1420
01:38:24.160 --> 01:38:30.480
to do it and you felt kind of forced to do it. It could even have been a hurtful situation. I don't

1421
01:38:30.480 --> 01:38:39.280
know, like something where you felt pushed into that role. I pretty much had to raise myself since

1422
01:38:39.280 --> 01:38:47.600
I was I was on the streets pretty much most of my life from the age four on both my parents left

1423
01:38:49.840 --> 01:38:58.800
from five. My, my dad left when I was four well five and my mom left when I was five. So my dad

1424
01:38:58.800 --> 01:39:04.960
divorced my mom when I was four, let me clarify. And then my mom left when I was six. And so I was

1425
01:39:04.960 --> 01:39:10.960
left with her boyfriend. So I was pretty much raised on the streets. I didn't have parents.

1426
01:39:11.600 --> 01:39:18.400
So if I wanted food, I had to get it myself. If I needed something, I had to get it myself.

1427
01:39:18.400 --> 01:39:25.360
So pretty much it was all on me to get what I needed pretty much most of my life. Okay.

1428
01:39:25.360 --> 01:39:32.080
This makes a hundred percent sense to me. So I want you to hear me say this first from the Lord

1429
01:39:32.080 --> 01:39:39.360
to you. I'm really sorry that you went through that and that you felt like you were the only

1430
01:39:39.360 --> 01:39:44.320
one that could take care of yourself and that nobody that should have been taking care of you

1431
01:39:44.320 --> 01:39:51.440
did. That was not God's plan for you. And his heart was breaking watching that happen. And

1432
01:39:51.440 --> 01:39:59.840
so now here's the great part. Okay. The good side of this is you're here now and you're getting healing.

1433
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:04.360
and God wants to help you come out of agreement

1434
01:40:04.360 --> 01:40:08.760
with the lie that you have to do it all by yourself

1435
01:40:09.680 --> 01:40:13.760
or that no one's ever gonna partner with you to get it done.

1436
01:40:13.760 --> 01:40:16.200
And it's gonna be really important for you

1437
01:40:16.200 --> 01:40:18.340
to come out of alignment with those lies

1438
01:40:18.340 --> 01:40:23.340
because a good man that is chivalrous will come along

1439
01:40:24.220 --> 01:40:29.220
and if they don't believe the women will let them help them,

1440
01:40:33.100 --> 01:40:35.020
they won't stay.

1441
01:40:35.020 --> 01:40:36.300
Yeah.

1442
01:40:36.300 --> 01:40:38.660
Yeah, and I don't want you to be afraid of that, okay?

1443
01:40:38.660 --> 01:40:41.740
But I want you to know that it's time for you

1444
01:40:41.740 --> 01:40:44.960
to let God heal those broken places

1445
01:40:44.960 --> 01:40:48.140
where you felt neglected and abandoned and alone.

1446
01:40:48.140 --> 01:40:50.860
And he wants to start showing you

1447
01:40:50.860 --> 01:40:53.300
what his plan was for you all along

1448
01:40:54.500 --> 01:40:56.260
before that trauma ever happened,

1449
01:40:56.260 --> 01:40:59.740
before your dad left, before your mom left

1450
01:40:59.740 --> 01:41:01.700
and you were on your own.

1451
01:41:02.780 --> 01:41:07.200
And so, sorry y'all, I gotta go after this a little bit.

1452
01:41:10.020 --> 01:41:12.180
God's gonna restore your childhood to you

1453
01:41:12.180 --> 01:41:15.220
and I know some of us, we think, well, how can that be?

1454
01:41:15.220 --> 01:41:16.900
It's kind of like Nicodemus,

1455
01:41:16.900 --> 01:41:19.160
like how can I become born again?

1456
01:41:19.160 --> 01:41:21.560
How can I go back into my mother's womb?

1457
01:41:21.560 --> 01:41:23.880
And we just don't fully understand

1458
01:41:23.880 --> 01:41:28.880
and can't comprehend these things, but God does make it so.

1459
01:41:31.520 --> 01:41:33.680
I didn't feel like I had much of a childhood.

1460
01:41:33.680 --> 01:41:37.000
I kind of, in a sense, not by any means

1461
01:41:37.000 --> 01:41:39.440
what you just explained did I experience,

1462
01:41:39.440 --> 01:41:43.280
but there were times where I felt like I had to raise,

1463
01:41:43.280 --> 01:41:45.780
my mom wouldn't get out of bed, a lot of different reasons,

1464
01:41:45.780 --> 01:41:50.780
but it was hard and the abuse and all that that went on.

1465
01:41:51.940 --> 01:41:56.220
And so I remember just feeling sad

1466
01:41:56.220 --> 01:41:58.220
after I came to the Lord more so,

1467
01:41:58.220 --> 01:42:01.060
just really recognizing like, man,

1468
01:42:01.060 --> 01:42:04.020
like I didn't get to be a kid.

1469
01:42:04.020 --> 01:42:06.240
I didn't get to just be a kid.

1470
01:42:07.500 --> 01:42:10.420
And God said, I'm gonna help you.

1471
01:42:10.420 --> 01:42:12.620
I'm gonna give that back to you.

1472
01:42:12.620 --> 01:42:17.340
And you all, I laugh more now than I,

1473
01:42:17.340 --> 01:42:19.300
I mean, I think these were things that I did.

1474
01:42:19.300 --> 01:42:22.540
I felt as a kid, but I, because of all that other stuff,

1475
01:42:22.540 --> 01:42:24.420
it just got really covered up.

1476
01:42:24.420 --> 01:42:26.500
And then I didn't get to experience the fullness of it.

1477
01:42:26.500 --> 01:42:29.420
But like, I mean, even I'll tell you all a story.

1478
01:42:29.420 --> 01:42:33.520
I had this boxer and you all just imagine, just imagine.

1479
01:42:33.520 --> 01:42:34.860
I know you only see me on the screen,

1480
01:42:34.860 --> 01:42:36.420
but just picture this with me.

1481
01:42:36.420 --> 01:42:39.220
She could play hide and seek you all, I'm not joking.

1482
01:42:39.220 --> 01:42:42.900
I would hide and I would be like, Chloe.

1483
01:42:42.900 --> 01:42:45.820
And I would hide and like only say it every now and then.

1484
01:42:45.820 --> 01:42:47.580
And I taught her how to play hide and seek.

1485
01:42:47.580 --> 01:42:50.180
This is what I, this is the, this is who I am, y'all.

1486
01:42:50.180 --> 01:42:51.020
This is really who I am.

1487
01:42:51.020 --> 01:42:53.180
I'm letting you in on some secrets tonight.

1488
01:42:53.180 --> 01:42:56.900
I'm the girl, I like to, my poor husband, God bless him.

1489
01:42:56.900 --> 01:42:59.820
I like to jump out and scare him.

1490
01:42:59.820 --> 01:43:02.200
You know, why?

1491
01:43:02.200 --> 01:43:03.820
Because it's fun.

1492
01:43:03.820 --> 01:43:04.660
It's fun.

1493
01:43:05.620 --> 01:43:07.460
But I'm sharing this with you

1494
01:43:07.460 --> 01:43:09.980
because there was a lot of years in my life

1495
01:43:09.980 --> 01:43:12.580
that I was not being myself.

1496
01:43:12.580 --> 01:43:16.900
I wasn't being this person that I'm describing to you,

1497
01:43:16.900 --> 01:43:21.020
but I'm having a lot of fun figuring that out about myself.

1498
01:43:21.020 --> 01:43:23.860
And, you know, it looks a lot of different ways.

1499
01:43:23.860 --> 01:43:25.700
It might look like for you,

1500
01:43:25.700 --> 01:43:29.380
like trying some things that you have always wanted to do

1501
01:43:29.380 --> 01:43:34.220
and never done and let yourself really feel fun again.

1502
01:43:35.220 --> 01:43:38.420
And not just be the doer, doer, doer, doer.

1503
01:43:38.420 --> 01:43:39.900
Does that make sense?

1504
01:43:39.900 --> 01:43:42.020
It does, very much.

1505
01:43:42.020 --> 01:43:43.260
Okay, I think this is gonna bring

1506
01:43:43.260 --> 01:43:45.120
a lot of breakthrough for you.

1507
01:43:47.180 --> 01:43:49.260
I saw that someone asked about divine feminine.

1508
01:43:49.260 --> 01:43:50.980
I don't have time to go into that tonight.

1509
01:43:50.980 --> 01:43:53.620
You all will learn about that in phase two, for sure.

1510
01:43:53.620 --> 01:43:54.820
Hey, if you go into phase two,

1511
01:43:54.820 --> 01:43:57.380
you'll learn about it there in depth.

1512
01:43:57.380 --> 01:43:58.900
Y'all, we've gone way over.

1513
01:43:58.900 --> 01:44:00.740
And so I need to close this out.

1514
01:44:00.740 --> 01:44:03.420
Eloise, I'm not gonna be able to take your question

1515
01:44:03.460 --> 01:44:04.820
or your stuff right now,

1516
01:44:04.820 --> 01:44:06.660
but will you put it in the group for me, please?

1517
01:44:06.660 --> 01:44:08.780
And I'd love to respond to you there.

1518
01:44:09.780 --> 01:44:12.660
God's doing some awesome stuff, ladies.

1519
01:44:12.660 --> 01:44:15.000
Let him keep celebrating your wins,

1520
01:44:15.000 --> 01:44:19.160
keep celebrating the strides that you're making every day.

1521
01:44:21.040 --> 01:44:22.420
Man, it's such a blessing.

1522
01:44:22.420 --> 01:44:24.020
I feel like just a moment in time,

1523
01:44:24.020 --> 01:44:25.900
this is such a blessing to be a part

1524
01:44:25.900 --> 01:44:27.440
of this night with you all.

1525
01:44:28.460 --> 01:44:30.180
You know, all these same people right now,

1526
01:44:30.180 --> 01:44:31.180
look at the screen, y'all.

1527
01:44:31.180 --> 01:44:33.200
Look at the names, look at the people.

1528
01:44:33.940 --> 01:44:36.180
These same people may not ever be in the same room

1529
01:44:36.180 --> 01:44:38.600
ever again together at this time.

1530
01:44:40.020 --> 01:44:43.460
Now we might, but it won't be exactly these people

1531
01:44:43.460 --> 01:44:45.940
that we're here right now, okay?

1532
01:44:45.940 --> 01:44:48.020
God ordains things for a purpose.

1533
01:44:48.020 --> 01:44:52.060
So see the goodness, see the glimmer, if you will,

1534
01:44:52.060 --> 01:44:53.740
in the things that he's doing

1535
01:44:53.740 --> 01:44:56.940
and bringing you together with these people right now.

1536
01:44:56.940 --> 01:44:57.780
Let me pray for us.

1537
01:44:57.780 --> 01:45:00.140
Father, thank you so much for your healing.

1538
01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:05.800
And your grace, God, thank you, God.

1539
01:45:05.800 --> 01:45:08.120
Going after the one.

1540
01:45:08.120 --> 01:45:09.820
Going after the one, Lord.

1541
01:45:09.820 --> 01:45:14.200
That's what your word talks a lot about, that you will leave the 99 and go after the one.

1542
01:45:14.200 --> 01:45:18.820
So for those that feel and have felt like the one at times, God, thank you that you've

1543
01:45:18.820 --> 01:45:20.160
gone after each one of us.

1544
01:45:20.160 --> 01:45:25.560
I thank you that you bring us into the fold and, and you say, you are my daughter, my

1545
01:45:25.560 --> 01:45:31.220
beloved and, and you pour out your love into our lives, into our hearts, into our minds.

1546
01:45:31.220 --> 01:45:34.740
Help us to open up, to receive everything you have for us.

1547
01:45:34.740 --> 01:45:38.060
We thank you that you'll help us to step further into the fullness of who you originally created

1548
01:45:38.060 --> 01:45:42.900
us to be each and every day, one step at a time in Jesus name.

1549
01:45:42.900 --> 01:45:43.900
Amen.

1550
01:45:43.900 --> 01:45:50.300
Kelly, the answer to your question is yes, yes, there are men out there like that.

1551
01:45:50.300 --> 01:45:53.580
I'm telling you about one that lives in my house.

1552
01:45:53.600 --> 01:45:56.320
And he's not just one of a kind.

1553
01:45:56.320 --> 01:46:01.120
There are a lot of good men and God is raising up men that love him all over the world.

1554
01:46:01.120 --> 01:46:03.240
You all pray for men.

1555
01:46:03.240 --> 01:46:04.240
He's doing it.

1556
01:46:04.240 --> 01:46:05.240
He's doing it.

1557
01:46:05.240 --> 01:46:06.240
God bless you all.

1558
01:46:06.240 --> 01:46:07.240
Have a good night.

1559
01:46:07.240 --> 01:46:08.240
I'll see you all in the groups.

1560
01:46:08.240 --> 01:46:09.240
Okay.

1561
01:46:09.240 --> 01:46:10.240
Love you.

1562
01:46:10.240 --> 01:46:10.240