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Let's go ahead and get started.

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Hello, welcome, welcome, welcome.

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Hi ladies.

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If you have never been here before, and you're joining us for the first time, we always kick off with some housekeeping stuff in the beginning.

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And then we do our content we do breakout sessions, if you've never been here for a breakout session.

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The goal is for you a to just have time to talk with other sisters in this group, going through this course together you're all going to be at different places in the course.

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But God's going to be stirring things up in your spirit tonight as we do that conversation on the content. And we have just found that there's a lot of like love and benefit and safety and growth that comes from me too.

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And you will find that God will divinely put you in groups with people that you need to be with at that point in time.

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So for those of you that tend to get nervous and sign out when we do breakout sessions, please try to stay in it, I know it can be uncomfortable when you don't know people, but trusting that God led you here and that our process works.

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And so engage, you know, even if you're just scared, say I'm scared to share, like, just be real just be honest be where you're at and I believe God will really do an incredible work in you through that.

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And then also, if y'all don't know I normally and Jackie as well we give you all activations every week to work on.

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I am going to start putting those in the group, I'll announce them tonight as well. But I'm going to put those in the group because some people sign out before it's over and then I just feel like people are missing out on some of that.

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So I'm going to just see if we can kind of catch some people that way. Just be looking for that in the group. Welcome, welcome everyone that's joining.

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I did ask the ladies as y'all were signing on if you've already answered this you don't have to answer again, but I am going to save this chat and look at this later I just want to get a kind of a roll call where everybody's at what week you're working on.

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So in your phase one course, can you just put in the chat for me if you haven't answered already. What week of the course you're on some of you I know just because you answered that already in your weekly roll call but go ahead and put that in there anyways for me.

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Thank you so much. This gives me a good gauge on how y'all are doing. It's not like oh my gosh someone's in trouble if they're not moving fast enough or anything like that. This is just so we know what week you're on it helps me know kind of like to make sure I hit on content that you still need all that kind of stuff.

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If you're joining for the first time, welcome Maxine week one. Yay. Who else is new? Who else is new joining tonight? Anyone else put that in the chat for us. I think that was the only person I saw joining for the first time week one.

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All right, so I'm going to keep going on replays. I just want to do a little quick plug if you're not familiar again some of you started in the Facebook group. This is this is going to be different for you.

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But most of our group is now in the last year single app. And so when those of you that started in Facebook move to phase two, you'll get moved to the app. So don't feel like you're missing out.

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It's just easier for us to move you when you move phases. But for those that are in the app, I just want to show you and this will be in the replay so people can watch this later as well.

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Let me see which screen. I need to go.

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Sorry, I forgot to bring something up earlier before I logged in. So you're going to see my zoom.

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Okay, so when you're in the app, when you click on replays. This is where all of your replays are going to be for our heartwork live sessions when the replays are posted.

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Okay, so we're going to move on to phase three.

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So this is Supernatural Saturday. We gave you a sneak peek to what we some of what we do in our phase three. Phase three is a large part of like continued growth continued helping you guys, not just regarding your love story, but like awakening and coming fully alive in your whole entire life.

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So we're going to talk a little bit about that.

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And then we're going to talk a little bit about what our words and our thoughts are to our process, even in finding our spirit mate, or being set free in certain areas in our life.

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It's really great if you haven't seen that yet. And then the Supernatural Saturday, just be sure you all again, it's not like a, oh my gosh, if you don't watch it there, you know, that's bad.

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So we're going to talk a little bit about the processes of those that are able to make the time for this in your life in this season. And so just want you all to know those things are there for you, your coursework, of course, if you don't know.

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it's in here. You want to do the welcome first if you've just started and make sure you read through

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everything. Watch that app tech orientation. We have people skipping over that but some people

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like questions that you have or you don't know where to find something that's going to walk you

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through step by step, okay? And then your weeks will go from there. So I think everyone for the

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most part knows the rest. That app orientation will walk you through like even on this community tab

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what are these different little tabs? What do these mean? So that app orientation will walk

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you through that. And then the thing is is if you all learn it now in phase one, it carries over in

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phase two in our app and phase three. So you'll be very comfortable with it as you know you'll

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keep growing in that as you go. All right, last housekeeping thing. Why do we post in the group?

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I was thinking about this because I always encourage you all to post in the group and

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I was thinking maybe you don't know why we post in the group. So here's a couple things I want

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to share with you. A, you're posting in the group so that we can see how you're doing. So that you can

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check in. So we do that weekly roll call every Sunday. I put up what's called the weekly roll

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call post. We want you all to engage on that. How are you doing? It might seem repetitive but y'all

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don't know how much it helps us gauge. Again, how are you doing with the process that you're on?

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Are some of you checking out? Are some of you struggling? Are you doing really great?

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But also when you go in and create your own post, it's basically your space to say,

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hey, this is what I'm processing. Good, bad, ugly, hard, great, whatever it looks like for you.

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And then it helps not only you have that space to process and share but it helps us as coaches

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know how you're doing. But here's the other thing. Y'all do not realize how many times

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the ladies in this community, in this group, on this course path with you are going to get

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breakthrough because you share. Because you share something that God's doing in you or something

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God's saying to you. And not only because you share but then we're coaching you on it or talking

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to you about it and people are getting breakthrough from other sisters and what's happening in their

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lives. So never underestimate the power of your voice, the power of what you write and say.

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That's one of the ways we're able to share in this group. And some of you, your entire lives,

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you have felt shy. You have felt like your voice doesn't matter. You have felt unseen, unheard,

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unnoticed, all of these different things. And you need practice to come out of hiding. You do. You

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need practice using your voice. And some of you are like, well, I don't have a problem sharing

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my thoughts. Well, maybe you share them in a way that's not healthy and that will maybe come out

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over time and you'll get healing in that area. So there's just so many benefits. So as your coach,

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please come in and post in the group. Engage. Get the most out of this that you can get while

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you're here. Okay? All right. Let me pray for us. Father, thank you so much for this night. God,

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thank you for every one of the ladies that are here tonight live. Those that will come

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and watch the replay. God, we thank you for revealing for healings that

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happened this afternoon that have been happening today. God, and I believe that you're going to do

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tonight. We thank you that where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. There's liberty.

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We thank you, God, that your truth is what sets us free. So God, we ask you to come and just

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encounter our spirits and our souls, our bodies, our minds. Help us to have revelation and insight

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tonight, that you bring anything in darkness to the light so that we can be healed and set free,

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so that we can move forward. God, help us to come to remembrance things that we don't even know

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are holding us back. God, we don't know what we don't know until we know it. So Lord, I thank

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you that you know us better than we know ourselves. I thank you that you would protect us from

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ourselves. Lord, at times we don't even know why we do what we do, but God, I thank you that you

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do and that you love us and you guide us and you'll take us every step of the way if we'll

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continue to trust you in the process. So Lord, we surrender this process to you and Holy Spirit,

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we ask you to come in. We invite you here to have your way in our hearts and in every conversation

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live and weave in and out among us. In Jesus name, amen. All right, so tonight, y'all, I'm going to

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talk about Candice briefly. For those of you that haven't heard Jackie talk about Candice yet in the

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videos, you will. Again, for those of you that are joining for the first week, let us know in the

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chat that you're here for the first time so we can say hi to you and welcome you and show you some

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love and all of those great things. But Candice is talked about in the videos and Candice is one of

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those examples that I think just supernaturally is a great illustration of how much God cares

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about every single one of us. Candice was the woman that basically God put it on Jackie's heart.

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And so it was this story that kind of unfolded that the whole time God knew who Candace was.

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God knew how Candace was going to get to where the interaction happened and then how Jackie would then come to encounter her and then how Candace would receive the healing that she needed.

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Sarah, welcome to Zoom for the first time.

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It's great to have you.

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And so tonight the reason I bring that up is because God wants you to remember tonight that he knows what you need.

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He knows where you are.

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And he knows how to get you what you need in every single moment.

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And I want you to kind of marinate in that for a minute.

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Right now, like even today, some of you might have just felt like hopeless, like today might have been really hard.

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But I want you to know that you never walked one moment alone.

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And that God knows what you need.

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He knows where you are and he knows how to get you what you need and how to help you get the breakthrough that you need.

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And he's never going to leave you alone.

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He's never going to forsake you.

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His word promises that.

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He's not a man that he should lie.

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Listen, I want you to think about this.

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This is a very important week for all of us.

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And I'm going to talk about that a little bit tonight and unpack that.

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So I just want to kind of declare some things on you and over you all as I start preparing us for some Scripture truths,

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some other things and for what God wants to do.

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So, God, I ask you right now just to reveal to every one of the ladies here tonight.

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God, I thank you that you would help their wants align with your purposes.

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That you would help them to see any area where the enemy has come in and tried to kill, steal and destroy.

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But that you sent Jesus to give them life and give it to them abundantly.

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Help them to know the letdowns, the trauma, the unhealed wounds from the past that are causing them to view you, God,

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and other people through false filters and false lenses.

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God, I thank you that you would eliminate their minds and hearts,

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that you again just would cause these memories and things to percolate to the surface

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and help them to have truth enter in tonight in Jesus' name.

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So I want to ask you all, if you don't have paper yet, you might want to get it.

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Always come prepared with paper, even if you're not a big note taker.

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Because here's the thing, sometimes I'm just going to say to you guys,

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hey, write stuff down as it comes up, because you might think, oh, I'll remember that later.

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And nine times out of ten, you all won't.

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Because the enemy is always trying to get us to get distracted as soon as we get off this stuff.

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Some of you all are going to have distractions pop up, even while you're on the live sessions.

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And so just know that he tries to come really quick.

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He does it with me too.

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And so just be open to hearing anything.

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Some of you all, a lot of your life, you learn to dismiss even your own thoughts.

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And so I want to encourage you in this season of healing and restoration in your soul and in your body,

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that you would pay attention to yourself more.

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And so you might have a memory pop up that you might even think, well, where is that coming from?

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That doesn't even seem like a big deal.

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Why is that memory coming up?

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But I want you to trust it.

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I want you to trust the Lord in that process, because he knows why that memory is coming up.

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Maybe it's an image that you'll see.

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Sometimes you all, you might smell something.

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You know, for people that have gone through certain traumas, they might smell smoke if they went through something with a fire.

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I know that sounds interesting and different, but it really can happen.

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So just be aware and write down things as they come up for you, okay?

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And that's when you can go to the Lord and ask him really good questions.

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Like, hey, Lord, this memory came up tonight.

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Like, can you show me why this memory come up?

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Like, what are you trying to show me with this?

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And be open to that process.

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Numbers 23, verse 19 in the message version says this.

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God is not a man, one given to lies, and not a son of man changing his mind.

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Does he speak and not do what he says?

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Does he promise and not come through?

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And a lot of people get confused because, you know, it says that God became like man.

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You know, Jesus came in the form of a man, but here's the difference.

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Jesus was the only perfect one.

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While he did come in the form of a man and he can sympathize with us because he came with flesh, he was always God.

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He was always God.

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He was never like us fully.

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And so what it's trying to say here is that, you know, man, in our understanding, people like you and I, we're fickle people, aren't we?

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Sometimes we change our minds.

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Sometimes we say we're going to do something

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and then we don't do it, right?

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And it might not be that we're trying to lie

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or be misleading,

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but sometimes it's just life happens or whatever.

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But there are also times people, man on the earth,

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they will lie and they will mistreat us or betray us.

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And so when that happens, if y'all remember last week,

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if you haven't seen the replay,

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definitely want to encourage you to check that out.

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I put on those sunglasses as like a demonstration

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of when you put on the sunglasses,

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it changes everything that you're seeing, right?

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So if you imagine, if people have lied to you in the world,

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in your experience with humans,

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how often are we then projecting that onto God himself?

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Because if man did it to us and we relate to God as man,

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then if they did it, then he must be like that.

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But he isn't like that.

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He isn't a liar.

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He is not the deceiver.

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There's one deceiver.

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His name is Satan, the devil.

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Okay, so we have to start to, or continue to,

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some of y'all have grown up in the church,

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but we have to remember to separate those things.

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The enemy is the one that brings destruction and death.

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He brings the storms and heartache and pain

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and disruption and disease.

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God came to bring us life, to bring love,

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faithfulness, kindness, goodness.

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Does he bring correction and conviction?

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Absolutely.

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Why?

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Because he's a good dad.

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Good parents don't just give their kids

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everything they want, do they?

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No, because it actually would hurt their kids

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if they gave their kid every single thing they ever wanted.

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I remember as a kid, I would always wanted sugar,

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sugar, sugar, sugar.

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I could eat sugar like all day, but guess what?

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Stomach trouble came if I ate too much sugar.

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Still as an adult, if I eat too much sugar

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and God will be like, stop eating that sugar.

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but it really is true.

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He's a good father and he's nudging us.

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but along the way he was whispering

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and he was showing us red flags

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and we chose to keep going.

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some of us blame God today.

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So God is not a man that he should lie

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and he will come through and his promises for your life.

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There's a song called Sparrows by Corey Asbury

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that I love to use in this teaching now.

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For a couple of years ago, I'd never used it,

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but like God just led me to it a few months ago.

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I would encourage you to listen to it this week

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and just meditate on what it says.

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You know, and this is all based on the scripture

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that talks about God providing for the sparrows.

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But I wanna read this over you.

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The sparrow's not worried about tomorrow

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or the troubles to come.

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The lily's not thinking about the seasons,

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the drought or the flood.

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A tree that's planted by the water isn't fazed by the fire.

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Cause you, and he's referencing God here,

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take good care of me.

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You take good care of me.

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You know what I need before I even ask a thing.

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And you hold me in your hands

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with a kindness that never ends.

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I'm carried in your love no matter what the future brings.

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Yeah, you take good care of me.

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The sun's not worried about the winter

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cause soon it will pass.

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The light's not thinking about the darkness

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or the shadow that it cast.

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Because it's the light.

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The light doesn't care about the darkness

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because the light always overtakes darkness, it just shines.

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All right, I'm gonna keep going.

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A heart that's planted in forgiveness

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doesn't dwell in the past.

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Cause you take good care of me.

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You take good care of me.

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You know what I need before I even ask a thing.

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You hold me in your hands

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with a kindness that never ends.

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I'm carried in your love no matter what the future brings.

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Yeah, you take good care of me.

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I wanna go back to the first part of that song

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where it said about the sparrows not worried about tomorrow

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or the troubles to come.

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For those of you that don't know, I live in Florida.

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We just moved here at the end of June.

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And yeah, we just had our first hurricane experience,

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pretty crazy.

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Thankfully we are safe, no damage.

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But the reason I bring this up

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and I didn't even think about this today

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when I was going through this song earlier,

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but y'all when the wind was crazy, mad, crazy blowing here,

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like massive wind.

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husband, do you hear those birds out there chirping?

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Like it was kind of mind blowing.

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Like it was like, they weren't scared.

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everywhere.

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And, you know, like in my mind, I was thinking, where did the geckos go?

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Like, how do they, you know, so for whatever it's worth, like God and his

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infinite ability gives these creatures the ability to have sustained, do they,

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you know, to sustain themselves, to know what to do when a storm is coming, to

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know how to find, you know, protection and covering.

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Doesn't he?

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So my question that I'm going to post here that a lot of people say in this

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process is why is this time any different?

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Some of you may have gone around this mountain before, maybe you've been in

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other healing, you know, environments and communities before.

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And so the enemy might be like, what's going to be different?

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Is this going to work?

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What are you doing?

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Why are you even here?

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Like, he's just going to kind of spew all these lies and doubt and unbelief

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because he doesn't want you to move forward.

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I hope you all understand that you don't have to be afraid of the devil, but you

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need to understand that he will do everything he can to keep you from being

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set free, bombard your mind with thoughts, send you people that are supposed to love

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you and encourage you.

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But instead, when they hear you're doing something like this, they knock

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it down and they tear it apart.

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I want to encourage you all, be careful who you're sharing with right now.

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This is a really vulnerable time.

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You're in your heart healing process.

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I'm not saying don't share, but I'm saying just use a lot of wisdom and who

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you're sharing this with, because some people will not be able to fully

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understand it and they could be potentially that person.

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I don't know if you ever heard of the phrase border bully.

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Have you ever heard of that?

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You're about to cross over into a new land, a new place, a new space, and the

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enemy will send border bullies.

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Those people that rise up to try to keep you from crossing over, because guess

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what, you all, when we break free and we start getting victory, it automatically

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causes other people to have decisions to make, doesn't it?

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But that's not what we need to worry about.

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We need to keep moving forward and trust that God will work all those

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other things out in due time.

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If those people are supposed to continue in our life, that is sometimes people

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aren't meant to be in our next season.

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And that's true too.

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So why is this time any different?

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Here's why.

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Do you all know that today you are not the person that you were yesterday?

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And even tonight, you are not really who you were this morning.

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Now you are.

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Don't misunderstand me.

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But all day long, you've been changing, hopefully, in the sense of if you are

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continuing to partner with the Lord, you're continuing to talk to the Lord,

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you're like living and moving and having your being in him and you're

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seeking him in every moment.

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I can't do that.

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I'm just talking about like, when you fall in love with Jesus and you just

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have this really close relationship with him, it doesn't feel like work you all.

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It's just, he's my friend.

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He's my friend.

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That doesn't feel like work.

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Now I have a reverence.

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I have a reverence for the Lord.

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I don't misuse that, but I just want you to understand.

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I don't feel like I have to work at it.

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I love him and he loves me and we talk.

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you would even invite the Lord to take you to that place with him.

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Because it's fun.

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Y'all it's fun to have a relationship with the Lord.

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It's not full of religion and punishment.

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So again, he corrects me and he guides me and he will you as well, but it's

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different this time because you are different and if you will partner with

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the word yet, it will serve you so well, not only in heart work, but in the

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additional phases and other things in your life, maybe God needed you to go

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through some additional healing and growth so that you would be ready and

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have the foundation that you need to sustain a marriage that's healthy.

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And I know some of us, myself included in the past, I thought I was ready before.

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Y'all I got married before.

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I thought I was ready.

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That was not a good marriage.

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And then started dating someone before I should have and kept thinking

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I wanted to marry that person.

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Praise the Lord.

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I say this all the time that God did not allow that.

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to happen. Yo, I pleaded with God for that. And I actually

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believed that God didn't love me enough because he wasn't giving

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it to me. But that was a lie that I was believing. God was

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protecting me. God was protecting me. That relationship

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already impacted my life in a lot of very unhealthy ways.

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Praise the Lord. I've been overcoming that and God has set

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me free. I'm in a wonderful marriage now. I've been married

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over two years. God's done a work in my life. But, you know,

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if I had stayed in that, I would not be who I am today. I can

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guarantee that. So y'all, sometimes we don't fully see it

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in that moment, but God was and is protecting us. So you are

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different now and every day you're becoming someone new.

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Therefore, this time can and will be different. If you

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believe and partner with that. Okay. All right. Ecclesiastes

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3.1 says this, there's an opportune time to do things, a

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right time for everything on earth. Heart change, you all

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equals life change. Remember a couple of weeks ago, I said, we

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don't want to just work at behavior modification. We're not

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asking you to just be good. Stop that. Be good. No, we want you

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to experience healing and transformation in your heart and

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the depth of your soul. And then out of the overflow of our

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heart, our mouth will speak. We will live our lives. Joy will

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overflow out of us. And for some of you right now, you don't have

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a lot of hope. And so it feels impossible, but we don't lean

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into our feelings in that regard. We, we choose to trust

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that as we heal and as we continue to go and grow and

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fall more and more in love with the Lord, that he will fill that

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tank back up. Hope deferred makes a heart sick, but y'all

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the tree of life. It talks about, if you look at the rest

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of that scripture, I'll pull it out when y'all are in breakouts

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and I'll have it ready when you come back. But there's more to

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that scripture if you keep reading. Okay. And I'll touch on

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that. Like I said, real and lasting change is a process

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though. And that's what a lot of people don't like. We want

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instant. We, a lot of us, you know, we've grown up in this

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microwave culture and the mentalities are all built

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around. Everything's instant. We want everything super fast. We

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don't want to wait for anything. And y'all, we don't want to

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have process. Even, and I love my girls. I love them. The one

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in particular, she doesn't want to have a regular, you know,

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eight to five job. That's just like, she thinks that is like,

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and I get where she's coming from to a degree, but she wants

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to be like this instant star. And I'm like, man, I worked for

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20 years to make what you're making at your, your job. If

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they only knew now, of course there's inflation and all that

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stuff. So I keep that in mind too, but I'm using that because

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there's something happening in our culture and it is impacting

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even Christians and the way we look at things. Now, I'm not

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saying God wants you in the waiting room forever. So don't

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misunderstand what I'm saying, but there is something to this

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rejection of process. So I want to encourage you to open up to

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the process that God has you on during this time, that you are

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like Esther, you've come into the kingdom for such a time as

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this, you've come into this place of love and of safety. And

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we've been working for years on, on this course and, and making

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it what it is. And we believe because we've seen it, I've

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experienced it myself. It can, if you will apply yourself to

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it, literally transform your life and prepare you for the

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King up in heaven, the main King, but also your spirit

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mate, right? Yeah. All right. Spirit mates, cherry on top,

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ladies, everything else that you're going to experience life

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transformation, that's the real deal. Okay. And all that other

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stuff will come as a result. We believe in supernatural

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transformation in this community, but we also partner

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with God in the journey. So we keep taking imperfect action

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every day. So I always encourage you all ask the Lord

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daily, God, what's one step I can take today to take a step

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towards your healing, to take a step towards your, you know,

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this course, what's one step that you can take every day. So

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here's a question I want you to think about before we go into

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breakouts. Well, where do you currently need an upgrade in

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your understanding of God's care for you? Where do you

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currently need an upgrade and your understanding of God's care

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for you? And that's going to partner with the question. I

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want you to talk about broken promises. When was a time

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someone broke a promise?

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that they made to you, and how is that still affecting you today?

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Now here's the thing, some of you all, you feel like God broke a promise to you.

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And if that's you, that's something you need to face tonight.

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Because God's word declares that he doesn't break his promises.

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But somewhere along the way, the enemy lied to you through trauma and wounds that you

447
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went through, and led you to believe that God is not a man of his word.

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And so if that's your story, that's something you need to share.

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Now I'm not trying to tell you guys what you need to share about, but it's important to

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talk about this stuff with God.

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And a lot of Christians don't even want to talk about how they feel towards God, because

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they should just love God.

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But this is a safe place, and we do real talk here.

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So whatever your person, whoever your person is, if it's God, if it's a person, whatever,

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be open to sharing about that.

456
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Okay, so I'm going to get your breakout rooms ready.

457
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Laura, that's totally fine if you're still here.

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If you're not able to do breakout, just don't click to join the room.

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And then I can always reassign the other ladies.

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All right, so if you're joining us for the first time, breakout rooms, we encourage you

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to stay engaged.

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Some of y'all might get you really out of your comfort zone, but I promise if you will

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open yourself up to it, God uses it in really, really great ways.

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All right, I'm going to give you eight minutes.

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Again, the question that you're answering during breakout is when was a time someone

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broke a promise they made to you, and how is it still affecting you today?

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Okay.

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All right.

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And if you guys have extra time, let's say you talk about that, short, brief, and powerful.

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So both of y'all talk about it, or three of you, however many are in your room.

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And then if you have extra time, get to know each other, okay?

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Where are you from?

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What led you to join the program?

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No fixing, okay?

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So when you all are sharing, nobody has to coach anybody, advise anybody.

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This is total safe space.

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So all you're doing is sharing what God is showing you, and then the next person can

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go.

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So nobody feel like you have to step in and fix anybody, okay?

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All right, here you go.

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Go ahead and click to join.

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Okay, Father, thank you so much for this incredible group.

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Thank you so much for everything you're doing in their hearts, their minds, their spirits,

484
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and their souls, and their bodies.

485
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As they're in the breakout, some that are here with me as they're at work or going to

486
00:33:37.240 --> 00:33:40.280
meetings, God, I thank you for those that are going to watch the replay.

487
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Thank you for revealing, for healing.

488
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God, I pray that right now that you would just come in with the balm of Gilead and place

489
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it upon every wound.

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Lord, we know the balm of Gilead in the Old Testament time was a medicinal property that

491
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was used for deep healing.

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So Lord, we thank you that you would allow your healing oil to flow from heaven over

493
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us, that would just flow over all of us tonight, that you would send your angels to minister

494
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to us, your healing river flowing.

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God, I thank you that you led each one of us here at this appointed time for this appointed

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purpose to receive everything that you have for us.

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Lord, I thank you that you are transforming us by the renewing of our minds that all old

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things have passed away, and behold, everything has become new.

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Help us to partner with the new story, the new truth, your truth that is everlasting,

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that your word stands, and it is strong, and it's firm, and it's used for life and hope.

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Let it impart into us tonight, even more than ever before, an understanding of your

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00:34:52.320 --> 00:34:53.320
love.

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God, help us to know you more as love, help us to know you more as kind, help us to know

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you as love.

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and envision you as a good father. I just pray that you would come in, in every

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woman's heart where there's been any kind of a man that's been an abrasive

507
00:35:14.160 --> 00:35:18.880
example to them. God, I thank you that you would go into those memories and just bring healing

508
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and life. I pray that you would reveal God where you were at when those situations were happening

509
00:35:24.480 --> 00:35:31.360
and just minister your love to them. I thank you, God, even if it's been a mom or a woman figure

510
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of authority that's been harsh towards them. I pray that you would minister to the mother,

511
00:35:37.120 --> 00:35:43.280
wounds and hearts, minds, bodies, spirits, and souls tonight as well. We thank you, Lord, that

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Ephesians 3, 17 through 19 says, then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him.

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Your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you strong. And may you have the power

514
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to understand as all God's people should how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is.

515
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May you experience the love of Christ that is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made

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complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. So Lord, I thank you tonight

517
00:36:18.000 --> 00:36:24.000
in this word and the truth here that you would help us to grow our roots down deep in your love.

518
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That as we open our hearts to you, Lord, and we take down any do not enter signs and we allow you

519
00:36:30.640 --> 00:36:36.400
to come into the fullness of our heart, every area, God, that you don't plumble those doors

520
00:36:36.400 --> 00:36:46.080
down. You knock and you ask us to invite you in. So Lord, we thank you for an atmosphere of surrender,

521
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an atmosphere of God just choosing to trust you. Lord, even when we don't fully understand,

522
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God, I thank you that your word here says that we would have the power to understand,

523
00:37:01.440 --> 00:37:05.840
that you would give us the revelation that we need. God, I thank you that in every moment,

524
00:37:05.840 --> 00:37:11.440
you would even remind us of the truth of your word, that examples like, you know,

525
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Jesus being kept in the midst of a storm and the disciples that were afraid, but Jesus was

526
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never afraid. He was still sleeping. So Lord, we trust that you can take care of us in the same

527
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way that we don't have to fear. We don't have to be afraid because fear has to do with torment.

528
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So Lord, we thank you right now tonight that your perfect love, it casts out all fear.

529
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And we thank you, Lord, that you would, by the power of Jesus's blood and by the name of you,

530
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Jesus, that you would lose the spirit of love and of power and of a sound mind that you would

531
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release and lose spirits of healing and forgiveness and reconciliation in our hearts.

532
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Help us to choose you, Father. Thank you that where the enemies come in and he's lied to us

533
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and deceived us about who you are, God, and any part of your character. I thank you, God,

534
00:37:59.120 --> 00:38:03.840
that you would come in and breathe life into those areas and breathe truth. Thank you, Lord,

535
00:38:03.840 --> 00:38:07.360
God, that you would remove any hard and stony place of our hearts

536
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that came through brokenness and callousness. God, I thank you that you would help us to stop

537
00:38:17.120 --> 00:38:24.160
partnering with anger and grief as self-protection mechanisms, and that we would just allow you

538
00:38:24.160 --> 00:38:30.480
to take those bodyguards down and those walls down, help us to trust you more tonight.

539
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And I just thank you that you would put in the place of those hard and stony hearts,

540
00:38:35.040 --> 00:38:40.720
hearts of flesh that are soft and pliable to you, that hear what your spirit is saying and choose

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to walk in your ways. We thank you that we will not go off to the left or to the right,

542
00:38:45.520 --> 00:38:49.680
that we will stay on the pathway that you have for us, God. I thank you that you would fan the

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00:38:49.680 --> 00:38:54.800
flames of hunger and thirst for your righteousness, for your word, for divine relationship with you.

544
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God, I thank you that even as I was praying earlier, I didn't even know this was in the book

545
00:39:01.520 --> 00:39:08.000
here. In John 8, 31 and 32, it says, you are truly my disciples. If you remain faithful to my

546
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teachings, and here it is, and you will know the truth and the truth will set you free. So God,

547
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I just feel like that was a confirmation of what you were saying earlier tonight, as I was praying,

548
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God, that you are bringing truth into every area where there's a lie and you're bringing healing

549
00:39:24.640 --> 00:39:31.680
and revelation. Help us to, yes, Lord, lay aside every weight that so easily ensnares us and press

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on toward the high calling of God for our lives. We thank you that you would help us to step into

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the fullness of your original plan and design for us. God, I thank you that you would give us

552
00:39:41.200 --> 00:39:48.560
glimpses of your glory, glimpses of heaven. God, help us to smell the fragrance of heaven,

553
00:39:48.560 --> 00:39:52.640
that we would encounter you in special ways more and more in the days ahead.

554
00:39:54.080 --> 00:39:59.840
Yes, Lord. Thank you, Lord, for truth. Y'all, if we just, sometimes, I don't know.

555
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about you all, but sometimes I even have recorded myself

556
00:40:05.700 --> 00:40:09.560
doing stuff like this, not for myself intentionally.

557
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I actually went live in the middle of all this hurricane

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storm because God led me to, and I was listening to myself

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and it was ministering to my own spirit.

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And it makes me think about David in the Bible.

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And he started speaking to his spirit.

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He said, why are you downcast on my soul?

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Hope in the Lord.

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And so some of you, I want to encourage you,

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you need to speak to your spirit.

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And I'm not saying it's going to happen right away,

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but the more you speak truth into your own spirit

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and your spirit hears you out loud,

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declaring the truth of God's word,

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it will cause your spirit to align

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with the truth of God's word.

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It's super important.

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All right.

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Hi, they'll be back in like 25 seconds

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and we'll go ahead and keep going.

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So good.

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All right.

578
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That is so good, you all.

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Super thankful for how he's already here tonight

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and the ways he's working.

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It's so good.

582
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I'm going to put this I think into a glass, sorry.

583
00:41:22.580 --> 00:41:23.780
All right, welcome back.

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Let's see, do I have everyone back?

585
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Almost.

586
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Hi, hi, hi.

587
00:41:30.140 --> 00:41:32.220
Welcome back, everyone.

588
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Okay, I think we're all here.

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Awesome.

590
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Okay, so who is willing to share with the whole group

591
00:41:36.540 --> 00:41:38.900
what you shared in your private breakout group?

592
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Am I recording?

593
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Does it show recording?

594
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Oh my gosh, I just had,

595
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I was so worried there.

596
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All right, thanks ladies.

597
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I didn't see it anymore and I was like, it's gone.

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Oh, there it is.

599
00:41:53.740 --> 00:41:55.780
Okay, panic over.

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00:41:55.780 --> 00:41:58.500
All right, Mackenzie, awesome.

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Go ahead.

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Yeah, so about four years ago,

603
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my younger sister had heard from the Lord

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that of who her husband was.

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And me and my family, we all hear from the Lord

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00:42:14.420 --> 00:42:17.700
and we were like, we actually felt incongruent with it

607
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and it had been confirmed by a couple of people.

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And so for four years, we just were praying for that.

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And then this June,

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he actually ended up marrying someone else.

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And so that was really hard

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because I was sharing my breakout group.

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My word from the Lord for this year is believe,

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believe for the promises that I've given you

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because I struggle with that.

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And so I felt like we all believed for so long

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for something and then it didn't happen.

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And so even though it wasn't a promise

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that was directly broken for me,

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it was for my sister and so, yeah.

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That's a really great example.

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And I think we all need to think about this.

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We do tend to think about the promises broken to us,

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but even when we see pain happen to other people,

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it can cause wounds in us and we can take up,

626
00:43:11.900 --> 00:43:14.060
not that you're offended, but I'm just mentioning this

627
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because this can happen to you.

628
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Sometimes we can even take up offense for people, right?

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And so just be aware of that.

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One of the things I do wanna mention here, Mackenzie,

631
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is that here's the reality, God always has a plan, right?

632
00:43:27.580 --> 00:43:29.420
Now, whether or not it was God's plan,

633
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I'm not trying to say you guys didn't hear correctly.

634
00:43:32.900 --> 00:43:35.820
I will tell you that when I'm in any kind

635
00:43:35.820 --> 00:43:38.780
of prophetic trainings, they say to never prophesy

636
00:43:38.780 --> 00:43:43.500
about mates, dates and babies for a reason.

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So just be careful of that, y'all, okay?

638
00:43:48.140 --> 00:43:50.860
Because the enemy can really trip people up

639
00:43:50.860 --> 00:43:52.140
with that kind of stuff.

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And again, I'm not saying you guys heard God wrong,

641
00:43:55.020 --> 00:43:57.100
but just be careful there.

642
00:43:57.100 --> 00:43:59.700
But one of the things I felt led in particular to say

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is that here's the reality, God has a plan,

644
00:44:05.420 --> 00:44:10.420
but he also gives every man free will to choose, okay?

645
00:44:11.660 --> 00:44:16.060
And so while God's best for that guy

646
00:44:16.060 --> 00:44:18.780
might have been your sister,

647
00:44:18.780 --> 00:44:21.980
he still has free will to choose, just like we all do.

648
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And so I can understand why that would be hard

649
00:44:25.860 --> 00:44:29.580
on so many levels, but I also know,

650
00:44:29.580 --> 00:44:31.820
if I've learned anything from this hurricane storm

651
00:44:31.820 --> 00:44:34.940
is that God can use any storm to teach us so much

652
00:44:34.940 --> 00:44:37.140
about ourselves, about other people.

653
00:44:38.380 --> 00:44:41.340
And ladies, if we will allow it, an eagle,

654
00:44:41.340 --> 00:44:45.420
when they face a storm, the wind will take them higher.

655
00:44:45.420 --> 00:44:47.780
That's, they soar higher.

656
00:44:47.780 --> 00:44:50.340
And so when we go through these situations

657
00:44:50.340 --> 00:44:52.820
that even sometimes can be crushing to us

658
00:44:52.820 --> 00:44:54.460
or a family member or whatever,

659
00:44:55.540 --> 00:44:56.980
what are we gonna do with it?

660
00:44:58.540 --> 00:45:00.340
How are we gonna let it heal us?

661
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.120
us, change us, transform us, you know, versus set us back and crush us.

662
00:45:05.560 --> 00:45:06.320
That makes sense.

663
00:45:07.280 --> 00:45:07.820
Everyone.

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00:45:08.080 --> 00:45:12.300
So, um, yeah, McKenzie, you know, just keep talking to the Lord about that.

665
00:45:12.320 --> 00:45:16.260
And, um, I do want to also say, I think it's important.

666
00:45:16.260 --> 00:45:19.680
This is where a lot of people start to question their ability to hear from the

667
00:45:19.680 --> 00:45:21.900
Lord when stuff like that happens.

668
00:45:22.480 --> 00:45:27.220
And even someone who operates in the prophetic, you all, um, I get things

669
00:45:27.220 --> 00:45:31.960
right a lot, but I can tell you that there are times that it can be off too.

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And I, over the years have grown a ton.

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00:45:36.100 --> 00:45:39.620
And I can tell you that when I was first learning, I didn't

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00:45:39.620 --> 00:45:41.580
always hear the way I hear now.

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00:45:43.180 --> 00:45:43.680
Okay.

674
00:45:43.980 --> 00:45:46.780
So we do our best as we're going.

675
00:45:47.180 --> 00:45:52.220
Um, I also thought God told me that I was going to be with that

676
00:45:52.220 --> 00:45:54.460
guy that I dated for six years.

677
00:45:54.900 --> 00:45:58.620
But that isn't what God was saying.

678
00:45:59.220 --> 00:46:00.540
It was what I wanted.

679
00:46:00.700 --> 00:46:03.580
And again, I'm not saying that's the reality for your sister or your

680
00:46:03.580 --> 00:46:07.260
family or any of those things, but I just think it's important for us to

681
00:46:07.260 --> 00:46:11.460
put all of that kind of out on the table as you all are processing and

682
00:46:11.460 --> 00:46:17.460
talking to the Lord about it, how I discerned, um, that process is

683
00:46:17.460 --> 00:46:21.380
that, um, God has good gifts for us.

684
00:46:21.940 --> 00:46:27.020
And I'm not saying that person is made in his image, but that person that I

685
00:46:27.060 --> 00:46:31.300
thought I wanted to be with definitely is not living into the image of God

686
00:46:31.300 --> 00:46:33.420
right now and hasn't for many years.

687
00:46:33.820 --> 00:46:39.660
And so if I believe God has good gifts for me, why would he send me

688
00:46:39.660 --> 00:46:42.060
someone who cheats on me all the time?

689
00:46:44.180 --> 00:46:47.260
You know, and again, that may not be anything like what that guy is like,

690
00:46:47.260 --> 00:46:50.860
but do y'all, this is the way we need to kind of break some things down and

691
00:46:50.860 --> 00:46:54.860
just look at it, like factually, does that make sense?

692
00:46:55.660 --> 00:46:58.980
So it's both and we listened to the spirit, but we look at the fruit.

693
00:47:00.420 --> 00:47:00.700
Okay.

694
00:47:01.140 --> 00:47:01.540
All right.

695
00:47:01.540 --> 00:47:01.980
Awesome.

696
00:47:01.980 --> 00:47:02.300
Great.

697
00:47:02.300 --> 00:47:02.860
Sure.

698
00:47:02.980 --> 00:47:03.540
So good.

699
00:47:03.540 --> 00:47:04.540
Kristen, go ahead.

700
00:47:09.900 --> 00:47:10.420
Okay.

701
00:47:10.580 --> 00:47:11.820
I had to figure out how to unmute.

702
00:47:12.140 --> 00:47:19.980
Um, I shared that I feel actually pretty okay with people, um, but it's more with

703
00:47:19.980 --> 00:47:26.460
God, I would say, feeling disappointed that I feel like he has spoken to me many

704
00:47:26.460 --> 00:47:30.660
times over the years about having a husband and children, and I'm now 44.

705
00:47:30.660 --> 00:47:34.500
And I haven't, you know, come across that yet.

706
00:47:34.620 --> 00:47:40.020
And I was actually dating someone last year that was, um, I don't know if

707
00:47:40.020 --> 00:47:45.620
it's true, but I was dating someone last year that was, uh, the first person I

708
00:47:45.620 --> 00:47:50.180
really could have seen myself with, honestly, but I didn't have total peace.

709
00:47:50.260 --> 00:47:55.140
And there were some, like you said, with the spirit and in the natural, it was

710
00:47:55.140 --> 00:47:59.540
like, I was feeling some signs pointing towards him, but then there were certain

711
00:47:59.540 --> 00:48:03.460
things in the natural that made me hesitant, even though almost everything

712
00:48:03.460 --> 00:48:04.060
else was there.

713
00:48:04.060 --> 00:48:09.420
So, um, and then the girl that I spoke with in this, the individual

714
00:48:10.140 --> 00:48:15.580
that I spoke with in this relationship, she had a very strong sense of

715
00:48:15.580 --> 00:48:21.260
love and, uh, feeling disappointed in herself, breaking promises to herself.

716
00:48:21.260 --> 00:48:22.900
And that resonated with me too.

717
00:48:22.900 --> 00:48:29.060
And even within that relationship, there were things I did that, like that I broke

718
00:48:29.060 --> 00:48:33.100
promises I'd made to myself that like I wouldn't do, or, you know, so.

719
00:48:34.380 --> 00:48:35.140
This is so good.

720
00:48:35.140 --> 00:48:38.860
I love that the broken promises to you, to ourselves came up y'all.

721
00:48:39.060 --> 00:48:45.780
I put a sign up in my kitchen that said, keep promises to yourself today.

722
00:48:47.300 --> 00:48:50.140
And it was little, it was little things and big things.

723
00:48:50.140 --> 00:48:54.500
So like, if I said I wasn't gonna like eat a bunch of sweets, you know, cause I

724
00:48:54.500 --> 00:48:56.780
was trying to get like really work on my health.

725
00:48:56.780 --> 00:49:02.460
And like, if I told myself that I was going to do that, and then I didn't, and

726
00:49:02.460 --> 00:49:06.180
I kept bringing, I'm not saying we can't make mistakes y'all, but like when we

727
00:49:06.180 --> 00:49:11.700
continue to break those we're actually breaking and it does wear down on us on

728
00:49:11.700 --> 00:49:12.300
the inside.

729
00:49:12.300 --> 00:49:12.780
Right.

730
00:49:13.220 --> 00:49:19.420
Um, but also in the sense of, um, you know, the bigger things, you know, when

731
00:49:19.420 --> 00:49:23.300
we say we're going to set a boundary and we don't stick to that boundary, you

732
00:49:23.300 --> 00:49:24.500
know, why do we do that?

733
00:49:24.700 --> 00:49:28.340
You know, have we ever asked God to show us the why behind the what?

734
00:49:28.740 --> 00:49:30.420
Like, why do we keep doing that?

735
00:49:30.940 --> 00:49:35.820
Um, and do we need healing in an area that is causing us to not keep a boundary

736
00:49:35.820 --> 00:49:39.540
that we need to keep, you know, and y'all I'm going to bring the big one out.

737
00:49:39.820 --> 00:49:41.500
Having sex before marriage.

738
00:49:41.500 --> 00:49:46.540
There's a lot of people that, that tell themselves that guys will, there's no

739
00:49:46.540 --> 00:49:48.460
good guys that will wait until they're married.

740
00:49:49.340 --> 00:49:54.380
And there's a lot of women that, you know, don't want to wait for a lot of

741
00:49:54.380 --> 00:49:55.220
different reasons.

742
00:49:55.580 --> 00:49:59.980
And I just think it's important for us to really look at where.

743
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.120
Where are those things coming from in us?

744
00:50:03.120 --> 00:50:09.240
Is it that we believe that God's been holding out us all this time, so we deserve it?

745
00:50:09.240 --> 00:50:14.200
Or like for me, I didn't learn a lot of boundaries when I was younger because I was sexually

746
00:50:14.200 --> 00:50:15.820
abused really, really young.

747
00:50:15.820 --> 00:50:23.580
And so my body really became in a sense, powerful.

748
00:50:23.580 --> 00:50:26.240
It was, you know, something that I didn't know.

749
00:50:26.240 --> 00:50:33.120
And so I had to really learn how to, even in this courtship, how to set a lot of guardrails

750
00:50:33.120 --> 00:50:38.380
to you all, a lot of guardrails and protect both of us and us working as a team.

751
00:50:38.380 --> 00:50:41.640
And so these are things that, you know, we need to look at, but what was the root?

752
00:50:41.640 --> 00:50:47.400
The root was that I needed healing more in areas from the past, and I needed to grow

753
00:50:47.400 --> 00:50:49.200
and mature more in my self-control.

754
00:50:49.200 --> 00:50:55.000
That's the truth, you know, and I had to own that.

755
00:50:55.000 --> 00:51:00.440
But also I want to touch on when you said, you know, that you've always wanted a husband

756
00:51:00.440 --> 00:51:01.880
and children.

757
00:51:01.880 --> 00:51:03.360
And I think you said you're 46.

758
00:51:03.360 --> 00:51:05.440
And I think that's what you said.

759
00:51:05.440 --> 00:51:07.120
And it hasn't happened.

760
00:51:07.120 --> 00:51:08.120
44.

761
00:51:08.120 --> 00:51:09.120
44.

762
00:51:09.120 --> 00:51:10.120
Okay.

763
00:51:10.120 --> 00:51:11.120
Okay.

764
00:51:11.120 --> 00:51:12.120
I can remember.

765
00:51:12.120 --> 00:51:13.120
I want to get that right.

766
00:51:13.120 --> 00:51:20.280
But I want to encourage you all to really ask the Lord to show you if along the way,

767
00:51:20.280 --> 00:51:27.000
if there were times he was trying to help you, but subconsciously, I'm not saying we

768
00:51:27.000 --> 00:51:35.040
did this intentionally, but subconsciously we actually self-sabotaged in some way.

769
00:51:35.040 --> 00:51:39.800
Because typically we believe the lie that God just hasn't fulfilled the promise, but

770
00:51:39.800 --> 00:51:46.520
a lot of times what's actually happened along the way is we've either been kind of hiding

771
00:51:46.520 --> 00:51:52.760
and not fully showing up because our heart has so much brokenness or we're engaging.

772
00:51:52.760 --> 00:51:55.200
And then stuff happens because of the wounds.

773
00:51:55.200 --> 00:51:58.720
And then we self-sabotage and things fall apart.

774
00:51:58.720 --> 00:52:00.360
Or we attract people that are really unhealthy.

775
00:52:00.360 --> 00:52:04.800
There's so many dynamics, but those are three big ones, you know, so just be asking God

776
00:52:04.800 --> 00:52:10.520
to really start showing you like, when is the first time this is what I tell everyone

777
00:52:10.520 --> 00:52:16.560
when's the first time that I felt like God, you didn't fulfill your promise to me regarding

778
00:52:16.560 --> 00:52:17.560
a husband.

779
00:52:17.560 --> 00:52:18.960
Let's start there.

780
00:52:18.960 --> 00:52:24.040
So not just right now, but God, when's the first time that I believed you didn't fulfill

781
00:52:24.040 --> 00:52:26.080
your promise to me regarding a husband.

782
00:52:26.080 --> 00:52:28.880
And you don't have to answer right now, but definitely journal that down because that's

783
00:52:28.880 --> 00:52:31.680
something you want to start unpacking with him.

784
00:52:31.680 --> 00:52:35.480
We want to get to the root, okay.

785
00:52:35.480 --> 00:52:40.360
Not just the current situation, but what's the root that's feeding the current lie.

786
00:52:40.360 --> 00:52:42.760
Does that make sense?

787
00:52:42.760 --> 00:52:45.520
And we're going to go through the revealing for healing cycle tonight in a little bit

788
00:52:45.520 --> 00:52:50.040
in this, you'll, this stuff will start to be unpacked a lot more.

789
00:52:50.040 --> 00:52:53.520
Sarah, we might have to go back and watch the replay.

790
00:52:53.520 --> 00:52:58.760
Cause I don't even think I will fully remember the exact way I just said those to you all.

791
00:52:58.760 --> 00:53:04.600
Oh man, I laugh at myself because I should have wrote those down, but those just came

792
00:53:04.720 --> 00:53:06.720
up in the spirit.

793
00:53:06.720 --> 00:53:07.720
So yeah.

794
00:53:07.720 --> 00:53:08.720
Thanks for asking those.

795
00:53:08.720 --> 00:53:09.720
Okay.

796
00:53:09.720 --> 00:53:12.800
So the other Sarah who has her hand raised, go ahead and you can share Kristen.

797
00:53:12.800 --> 00:53:14.280
Thank you for sharing.

798
00:53:14.280 --> 00:53:15.280
Hi.

799
00:53:15.280 --> 00:53:16.280
Hi.

800
00:53:16.280 --> 00:53:23.360
This is my first time sharing, so I'm a little nervous.

801
00:53:23.360 --> 00:53:29.400
So I shared I couldn't think of an outright promise that someone had made that was broken,

802
00:53:29.400 --> 00:53:35.800
but what came to my mind first was my previous relationship because it felt like it was going

803
00:53:35.800 --> 00:53:44.160
towards marriage and I don't know why I'm crying right now.

804
00:53:44.160 --> 00:53:51.320
And and then when it didn't, it felt like, it felt like a sort of broken promise because

805
00:53:51.320 --> 00:53:52.760
there was a ring and everything.

806
00:53:52.760 --> 00:53:55.760
It was like really close to marriage.

807
00:53:56.360 --> 00:53:58.880
I'm really sorry to hear that.

808
00:53:58.880 --> 00:54:01.240
Y'all, this is really important.

809
00:54:01.240 --> 00:54:07.000
Just so Sarah feels really supported and anyone else y'all, if you feel emotion, I don't want

810
00:54:07.000 --> 00:54:08.000
you to get embarrassed.

811
00:54:08.000 --> 00:54:09.000
Okay.

812
00:54:09.000 --> 00:54:15.920
So if y'all cry, when you start sharing, this is, it's important to let this stuff out because

813
00:54:15.920 --> 00:54:20.840
a lot of us learn to go into survival mode.

814
00:54:20.840 --> 00:54:25.640
And what happens when we do that is we shove all these emotions down.

815
00:54:25.640 --> 00:54:29.280
And so when we start to talk about it, that stuff will start to percolate up.

816
00:54:29.280 --> 00:54:32.480
So we might not like she's saying, I don't even know why I'm crying right now, but it's

817
00:54:32.480 --> 00:54:36.880
because there's something in there that hurt you and it needs to come out.

818
00:54:36.880 --> 00:54:37.960
Okay.

819
00:54:37.960 --> 00:54:45.120
And so this is, I think this is a good one for you to just spend some time with the Lord.

820
00:54:45.120 --> 00:54:48.840
I'm like, you're saying like, you know, you had a ring, you thought you all were moving

821
00:54:48.840 --> 00:54:49.840
forward.

822
00:54:49.840 --> 00:54:54.440
Do you mind if I ask why you all decided not to move forward?

823
00:54:54.440 --> 00:54:57.560
Like, did you break up or how did that happen?

824
00:54:57.560 --> 00:55:00.040
I did because it started becoming very.

825
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.160
verbally abusive. And like, and he started, I started seeing a

826
00:55:05.160 --> 00:55:10.560
very aggressive, angry side of him that I hadn't known before

827
00:55:10.560 --> 00:55:14.600
that. And I realized that it wasn't healthy, and I needed to

828
00:55:14.600 --> 00:55:15.120
get out.

829
00:55:16.520 --> 00:55:18.320
Hey, so you were God defended.

830
00:55:19.520 --> 00:55:20.200
Say that again.

831
00:55:20.680 --> 00:55:25.080
So what the reality is here is we're God defended. Yeah.

832
00:55:25.240 --> 00:55:29.920
Because before you got married, God allowed you to see some

833
00:55:29.920 --> 00:55:34.680
stuff that was there that you didn't know was there. Yeah. And

834
00:55:34.680 --> 00:55:40.800
so I know that can be really hard. Um, but I see it as God

835
00:55:40.800 --> 00:55:46.320
actually keeping his promise to you to protect you. And so I

836
00:55:46.320 --> 00:55:49.160
want to encourage you to really lean into that in the next few

837
00:55:49.160 --> 00:55:53.240
weeks, that God is protecting you and defending you and

838
00:55:53.240 --> 00:55:57.320
therefore he revealed these things to you before you entered

839
00:55:57.320 --> 00:56:02.040
into covenant with this person. And I don't think this is the

840
00:56:02.040 --> 00:56:04.760
plan for the rest of your life. You're learning you're here,

841
00:56:04.760 --> 00:56:08.920
you're going to grow. And I believe that you can absolutely

842
00:56:08.920 --> 00:56:12.560
learn how to attract healthier people in the future. Y'all,

843
00:56:12.600 --> 00:56:18.600
it's really important to understand if you're a big

844
00:56:18.600 --> 00:56:22.560
giver. A lot of times people when we get out of balance, if

845
00:56:22.560 --> 00:56:27.000
we're big givers, we will attract takers. Okay, so and

846
00:56:27.000 --> 00:56:30.080
that can be in all kinds of relationships, not just romantic,

847
00:56:30.080 --> 00:56:34.720
it can be friendships as well. And so just be aware of kind of

848
00:56:34.720 --> 00:56:38.480
the, if y'all tend to struggle with attracting the same kind of

849
00:56:38.480 --> 00:56:42.960
people, ask the Lord, like, you know, God, why am I attracting

850
00:56:42.960 --> 00:56:46.720
this kind of person like what in me, most times it's going to go

851
00:56:46.720 --> 00:56:51.440
back to your identity, or you your low self worth. And, and

852
00:56:51.440 --> 00:56:54.640
you all and when I say that I used to like feel I was

853
00:56:54.640 --> 00:56:59.000
confident. And I was like a rock star in some areas of my

854
00:56:59.000 --> 00:57:01.640
life. I really not like pridefully saying that, but like

855
00:57:01.640 --> 00:57:06.480
I felt strong, right. And I felt like I did have a good identity

856
00:57:06.480 --> 00:57:10.320
in Christ, but there was still so much broken on the inside

857
00:57:10.320 --> 00:57:14.640
that still needed healed that it was subconsciously impacting

858
00:57:14.640 --> 00:57:20.320
how I showed up. And I definitely after I went through

859
00:57:20.320 --> 00:57:23.920
boot camp, and in my healing process showed up around men

860
00:57:23.920 --> 00:57:26.080
differently. And I'm going to go through that and share that

861
00:57:26.080 --> 00:57:29.240
here. I feel like it's a good segue. But Sarah, definitely

862
00:57:29.240 --> 00:57:32.480
lean into this. Thank you for sharing on your first time. You

863
00:57:32.480 --> 00:57:37.280
did great. You made it. Y'all, this is this is so important.

864
00:57:37.600 --> 00:57:41.480
And you might not realize Sarah, but what you just did is you

865
00:57:41.480 --> 00:57:44.840
stepped into breakthrough. You stepped into breakthrough

866
00:57:44.840 --> 00:57:48.040
tonight. So many times you all need to use your voices. And

867
00:57:48.040 --> 00:57:50.080
that's going to bring accelerated healing more than

868
00:57:50.080 --> 00:57:55.960
you know. Okay. That is so good. He knows everything we need in

869
00:57:55.960 --> 00:58:02.280
every moment. Okay, so I'm going to start to shift. And you just

870
00:58:02.280 --> 00:58:06.320
lower your hand, Sarah for now. I want to show you all the

871
00:58:06.320 --> 00:58:08.960
revealing healing for healing cycle here. I'm going to bring

872
00:58:08.960 --> 00:58:13.520
it up on the screen as I walk you through this process. And

873
00:58:13.520 --> 00:58:21.400
this is in week three, in the content in your course. And if

874
00:58:21.400 --> 00:58:24.320
you see here, we want it starts with negative emotions. And I'm

875
00:58:24.320 --> 00:58:26.720
going to kind of break this down in a minute. But the cycle

876
00:58:26.720 --> 00:58:29.320
starts with negative emotions. I'm not sure why this is

877
00:58:29.320 --> 00:58:33.280
highlighted. So I apologize, but negative emotions and painful

878
00:58:33.280 --> 00:58:37.240
memory, trauma stories, and I'll go slower in a minute. And this

879
00:58:37.240 --> 00:58:40.360
is on a sheet in your in your course. So you don't necessarily

880
00:58:40.360 --> 00:58:43.840
have to write this all down. Then lies believed are revealed

881
00:58:43.840 --> 00:58:46.720
is that next part of that cycle. And then you all we want to come

882
00:58:46.760 --> 00:58:50.760
all the way to the end. Don't forget the end God revealing the

883
00:58:50.760 --> 00:58:53.760
truth. Okay, super important. Now I'm going to walk you

884
00:58:53.760 --> 00:58:57.120
through an example. And you all your life is going to be

885
00:58:57.120 --> 00:59:01.320
different. Okay, so your stuff may be completely different than

886
00:59:01.320 --> 00:59:04.600
mine. But again, I'm just trying to give you examples tonight. So

887
00:59:04.600 --> 00:59:08.840
that when you sit down to do this yourself, that it'll give

888
00:59:08.840 --> 00:59:12.480
you some some context for how to unpack it a little bit more.

889
00:59:13.680 --> 00:59:17.440
Here's an important thing before I go through this cycle. Y'all

890
00:59:17.440 --> 00:59:21.600
we cannot replace events that happened. Okay, we can't go back

891
00:59:21.600 --> 00:59:25.800
and change things. It's done. But what we can do is we can

892
00:59:25.800 --> 00:59:29.160
replace the lies we believe because of the trauma and the

893
00:59:29.160 --> 00:59:32.680
wounds that we have gone through and experienced. So that's the

894
00:59:32.680 --> 00:59:36.840
point of this revealing for healing cycle. As you replace

895
00:59:36.840 --> 00:59:39.960
the lies with truth, it sets you free in ways that you don't

896
00:59:39.960 --> 00:59:44.280
even know that you need it. So here's an example from my life.

897
00:59:45.480 --> 00:59:48.760
Now these are things this is something that I've I've grown

898
00:59:48.760 --> 00:59:52.600
through. This is not something I struggle with anymore. So I just

899
00:59:52.600 --> 00:59:55.040
don't want you sometimes when I share these parts of my stories,

900
00:59:55.040 --> 00:59:58.600
people get worried. And I just want you to know I'm talking to

901
00:59:58.600 --> 01:00:00.080
you tonight from a place of victory.

902
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:08.000
God has redeemed my soul. He has set me free and I can talk about this stuff without pain in my heart and my spirit.

903
01:00:08.000 --> 01:00:12.000
I mean, it's kind of crazy to me that this was part of my life.

904
01:00:12.000 --> 01:00:16.000
Okay, because I just don't feel like it was a part of my life anymore.

905
01:00:16.000 --> 01:00:19.000
I know it happened, but the pain of it is not there anymore.

906
01:00:19.000 --> 01:00:21.000
Okay, but here's a negative emotion.

907
01:00:21.000 --> 01:00:31.000
This is my negative emotion that I identified and it was fear, but in particular, not just fear, but fear around men.

908
01:00:31.000 --> 01:00:35.000
So when I would get around men, I would feel insecure.

909
01:00:35.000 --> 01:00:39.000
I would feel fear. I'd feel stress and tension in my body.

910
01:00:39.000 --> 01:00:44.000
Okay, so fear, tension, stress, insecure.

911
01:00:44.000 --> 01:00:48.000
Those were my emotions and my feelings.

912
01:00:48.000 --> 01:00:50.000
Does everyone understand?

913
01:00:50.000 --> 01:00:54.000
Okay, the next thing, okay, so then what's my painful memory?

914
01:00:54.000 --> 01:01:04.000
The way I look at this is like the painful, and maybe Jackie would describe it differently, but this is just what God has shown me as I did my process.

915
01:01:04.000 --> 01:01:07.000
The painful memory is kind of like an umbrella.

916
01:01:07.000 --> 01:01:11.000
So it's kind of the overarching theme, if you will.

917
01:01:11.000 --> 01:01:15.000
So my painful memory was abused by men.

918
01:01:15.000 --> 01:01:18.000
That's my overarching thing.

919
01:01:18.000 --> 01:01:26.000
Okay, but then the trauma stories are the stories that are kind of up under that main theme.

920
01:01:26.000 --> 01:01:33.000
Okay, so here are my trauma stories, and there's more, but these are the ones I felt led to share with you all tonight.

921
01:01:33.000 --> 01:01:39.000
Sexually abused by my brothers and sister when I was younger.

922
01:01:39.000 --> 01:01:42.000
So that's one of my trauma stories.

923
01:01:42.000 --> 01:01:48.000
Emotional, mental, spiritual abuse with my husband and that former relationship I was in as well.

924
01:01:48.000 --> 01:01:52.000
I actually had another relationship in between there that also had a lot of that.

925
01:01:52.000 --> 01:01:57.000
So I had three relationships in a row that looked very, very similar.

926
01:01:57.000 --> 01:02:03.000
Additional trauma stories, kind of crazy how similar these stories are, totally different timeframes.

927
01:02:04.000 --> 01:02:14.000
But these stories kind of link up under those other abuses and, you know, getting trapped and someone trying to take advantage of my body, if you will.

928
01:02:14.000 --> 01:02:18.000
So when I was like in elementary school, I literally have no clue how old I was.

929
01:02:18.000 --> 01:02:21.000
My mom took us to someone's house for like a home interiors party.

930
01:02:21.000 --> 01:02:23.000
That's something they did back then.

931
01:02:24.000 --> 01:02:28.000
And we were, all the kids were sent upstairs to play.

932
01:02:28.000 --> 01:02:35.000
And this boy tried to lock me in this room by myself with him.

933
01:02:35.000 --> 01:02:37.000
And my sister, I mean, it was pretty traumatic.

934
01:02:37.000 --> 01:02:42.000
My sister was, because see, my sister went through a lot of the abuse with my brothers too.

935
01:02:42.000 --> 01:02:44.000
And there were times that she felt like she had to protect me.

936
01:02:44.000 --> 01:02:45.000
And so she got super triggered.

937
01:02:45.000 --> 01:02:46.000
I was triggered.

938
01:02:46.000 --> 01:02:48.000
I was trying to get out of the room.

939
01:02:48.000 --> 01:02:52.000
This kid puts this dresser and my sister's trying to knock the door, like knock it down.

940
01:02:52.000 --> 01:02:54.000
That's all I remember.

941
01:02:54.000 --> 01:03:04.000
Now, then I'm in high school years later and someone that was supposed to be my friend, I'm doing quotes there because she really wasn't a good friend.

942
01:03:04.000 --> 01:03:07.000
This is someone I spent time with, but she really was not a good friend.

943
01:03:07.000 --> 01:03:14.000
And she proved over and over and over again that she really was not a kind person to me, but I kept hanging out with her.

944
01:03:14.000 --> 01:03:17.000
And it didn't go well with me because of that.

945
01:03:17.000 --> 01:03:20.000
This was one of the examples.

946
01:03:21.000 --> 01:03:26.000
She thought it was funny to put something down in my shirt and she kind of shoved me into the bathroom.

947
01:03:26.000 --> 01:03:30.000
And then another like told a boy to come in and get that.

948
01:03:30.000 --> 01:03:32.000
And then she had him come in and lock the door.

949
01:03:32.000 --> 01:03:34.000
Y'all, I couldn't get out.

950
01:03:34.000 --> 01:03:40.000
Now, thankfully, after I like stood up for myself, he stopped, but it was after a lot.

951
01:03:41.000 --> 01:03:56.000
So I'm not sharing those things to traumatize you all, but I want you to understand like, this is how these different trauma stories and different things that we go through start to create these strongholds and these areas where all these lies are fortified in there.

952
01:03:56.000 --> 01:03:58.000
Do you see how that can work?

953
01:03:58.000 --> 01:04:00.000
Okay.

954
01:04:00.000 --> 01:04:08.000
So the lies that I believed, and again, there's more than this, but these are the two that I want to draw out tonight because these are really big in my life.

955
01:04:08.000 --> 01:04:12.000
One, all men are abusive.

956
01:04:12.000 --> 01:04:18.000
Number two, I, Bethany, need to be afraid of men.

957
01:04:18.000 --> 01:04:23.000
And three, I, Bethany, cannot trust men.

958
01:04:23.000 --> 01:04:25.000
Okay, so those were lies that I believe.

959
01:04:25.000 --> 01:04:27.000
Now here, we're going to go all the way.

960
01:04:27.000 --> 01:04:29.000
Remember, we want to go all the way to the truth because what?

961
01:04:29.000 --> 01:04:32.000
The truth is what sets us free.

962
01:04:33.000 --> 01:04:45.000
It's what sets us free, you all, and not just knowing the truth in our head, but getting it down in our heart through the healing and literally allowing God to come into these vulnerable places to set us free.

963
01:04:45.000 --> 01:04:51.000
So my truth is a declaration that's standing on scripture truth.

964
01:04:51.000 --> 01:04:57.000
Okay, so my truth declaration number one is you don't have to fear or be afraid.

965
01:04:57.000 --> 01:05:00.000
I, Bethany, and y'all, I used to declare this stuff out loud.

966
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:02.080
over myself all the time.

967
01:05:02.080 --> 01:05:03.920
I, Bethany, back then, my name was Stanko.

968
01:05:03.920 --> 01:05:06.180
I, Bethany Stanko, do not have a spirit of fear,

969
01:05:06.180 --> 01:05:07.640
but I have a spirit of love and of power

970
01:05:07.640 --> 01:05:08.760
and of a sound mind.

971
01:05:08.760 --> 01:05:10.320
So I don't have to fear or be afraid.

972
01:05:10.320 --> 01:05:13.200
Here's two scriptures in addition to the one I just quoted.

973
01:05:13.200 --> 01:05:15.440
Isaiah 41.10.

974
01:05:15.440 --> 01:05:18.240
So do not fear, for I am with you.

975
01:05:18.240 --> 01:05:20.200
Do not be dismayed, for I am your God.

976
01:05:20.200 --> 01:05:21.640
I will strengthen you and help you.

977
01:05:21.640 --> 01:05:24.040
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

978
01:05:24.040 --> 01:05:26.600
Isaiah 41.13, for I am the Lord, your God,

979
01:05:26.600 --> 01:05:29.720
who takes hold of your right hand and says to you,

980
01:05:29.760 --> 01:05:32.700
do not fear, for I will help you.

981
01:05:33.720 --> 01:05:38.400
My next truth is I can trust God to protect me.

982
01:05:39.680 --> 01:05:41.480
Psalm 121, seven through eight.

983
01:05:41.480 --> 01:05:45.000
The Lord will help, will keep you from all harm.

984
01:05:45.000 --> 01:05:46.320
He will watch over your life.

985
01:05:46.320 --> 01:05:48.440
The Lord will watch over your coming and your going

986
01:05:48.440 --> 01:05:51.720
both now and forever more.

987
01:05:51.720 --> 01:05:53.800
So I'm gonna stop the screen share.

988
01:05:53.800 --> 01:05:56.160
So I'm gonna talk to you for just another minute.

989
01:05:56.160 --> 01:05:57.680
Here's the tough thing.

990
01:05:57.680 --> 01:05:58.880
Excuse me.

991
01:05:58.880 --> 01:06:01.760
A lot of people struggle with,

992
01:06:01.760 --> 01:06:03.480
what was that?

993
01:06:03.480 --> 01:06:04.600
Oh, sorry.

994
01:06:04.600 --> 01:06:05.440
Unmute yourself again.

995
01:06:05.440 --> 01:06:06.560
Sorry, what was that?

996
01:06:06.560 --> 01:06:08.980
What was that last Bible verse?

997
01:06:08.980 --> 01:06:12.240
Oh yeah, Psalm 121, for seven through eight.

998
01:06:14.420 --> 01:06:15.260
Thank you.

999
01:06:17.920 --> 01:06:19.760
So a lot of people wrestle with,

1000
01:06:19.760 --> 01:06:22.720
well, why didn't God stop the abuse?

1001
01:06:23.840 --> 01:06:25.800
Okay, y'all, here's the truth

1002
01:06:25.800 --> 01:06:28.160
that people don't like to look at.

1003
01:06:28.160 --> 01:06:31.540
God in his infinite love, unconditional,

1004
01:06:32.600 --> 01:06:35.480
just big and wide for everybody

1005
01:06:35.480 --> 01:06:36.760
that's a part of his image,

1006
01:06:36.760 --> 01:06:38.940
gives man and woman free will.

1007
01:06:40.320 --> 01:06:41.760
And because he gives us free will,

1008
01:06:41.760 --> 01:06:44.400
we all have choices to make.

1009
01:06:45.400 --> 01:06:47.440
We can choose to do good,

1010
01:06:47.440 --> 01:06:49.200
or we can choose to do evil.

1011
01:06:50.080 --> 01:06:53.100
Every person has a choice, okay?

1012
01:06:54.260 --> 01:06:58.080
And so I don't believe that God wanted any of that

1013
01:06:58.900 --> 01:07:01.120
for my life, any of it.

1014
01:07:01.120 --> 01:07:05.360
But as I give it to him, as I surrender it to him,

1015
01:07:05.360 --> 01:07:08.920
he's absolutely turning it around for good, is he not?

1016
01:07:08.920 --> 01:07:10.880
I'm here testifying.

1017
01:07:10.880 --> 01:07:14.880
And y'all, I mean, God uses my story to set people free.

1018
01:07:16.000 --> 01:07:19.900
Do I wish, am I glad that stuff happened?

1019
01:07:19.900 --> 01:07:20.740
It's kind of awkward,

1020
01:07:20.740 --> 01:07:23.080
because no, I'm not, but like I am,

1021
01:07:23.080 --> 01:07:26.240
because now I get to see all these people

1022
01:07:26.240 --> 01:07:29.860
that get impacted because God is working in it.

1023
01:07:29.860 --> 01:07:31.360
I know that probably sounds a little crazy,

1024
01:07:31.360 --> 01:07:33.040
but that's the truth.

1025
01:07:33.040 --> 01:07:34.880
I wouldn't wish it on anybody,

1026
01:07:34.880 --> 01:07:39.800
but God is so good that he saves me

1027
01:07:39.800 --> 01:07:41.400
as well as many people alive

1028
01:07:41.400 --> 01:07:43.880
because of the things that he's done in my life.

1029
01:07:43.880 --> 01:07:45.960
And he can do that with you as well.

1030
01:07:45.960 --> 01:07:48.400
So here's my question for you for breakout.

1031
01:07:50.120 --> 01:07:53.440
What is a negative emotion or memory

1032
01:07:53.440 --> 01:07:56.040
that God is bringing up in your spirit tonight

1033
01:07:56.840 --> 01:07:57.920
that you need revealing for healing in?

1034
01:07:57.920 --> 01:08:00.280
So this is just you saying, okay,

1035
01:08:00.280 --> 01:08:03.080
this is the memory or the emotion

1036
01:08:03.080 --> 01:08:04.840
that's coming up for me tonight

1037
01:08:04.840 --> 01:08:07.040
that I need to go and do this revealing

1038
01:08:07.040 --> 01:08:09.000
for healing cycle with, okay?

1039
01:08:10.120 --> 01:08:11.560
And I want y'all to know,

1040
01:08:11.560 --> 01:08:13.520
I kind of gave you guys very high level.

1041
01:08:13.520 --> 01:08:15.520
I gave you a little bit more detail than I even,

1042
01:08:15.520 --> 01:08:18.920
like y'all don't have to go into massive details.

1043
01:08:18.920 --> 01:08:22.840
If you don't want, this is more like high level, okay?

1044
01:08:22.840 --> 01:08:25.040
Just because people can get really traumatized

1045
01:08:25.040 --> 01:08:28.240
if we overshare on like all the little details.

1046
01:08:28.240 --> 01:08:30.800
Like I shared overarching, like what happened,

1047
01:08:30.800 --> 01:08:34.080
but I didn't share like, this is how the abuse happened.

1048
01:08:34.080 --> 01:08:35.319
This is, you know what I mean?

1049
01:08:35.319 --> 01:08:37.439
Does that make sense what I'm saying, everyone?

1050
01:08:37.439 --> 01:08:38.279
Okay.

1051
01:08:38.279 --> 01:08:40.240
All right, because we want people to feel safe

1052
01:08:40.240 --> 01:08:41.080
and it's super important.

1053
01:08:41.080 --> 01:08:44.160
Remember, you don't have to advise anyone or coach anyone.

1054
01:08:44.160 --> 01:08:46.520
You're just giving each other safe space to share.

1055
01:08:46.520 --> 01:08:49.319
And then after one person shares, you know,

1056
01:08:49.319 --> 01:08:50.600
love on each other a little bit

1057
01:08:50.600 --> 01:08:53.040
and then the next person goes, okay?

1058
01:08:53.040 --> 01:08:53.920
All right, cool.

1059
01:08:53.920 --> 01:08:55.560
I'm gonna set up new breakout rooms

1060
01:08:55.560 --> 01:08:57.920
just so y'all can get to know some new people.

1061
01:09:03.600 --> 01:09:04.600
Hold on one second.

1062
01:09:04.600 --> 01:09:06.560
I need, there we go.

1063
01:09:12.040 --> 01:09:17.040
I am gonna do, I think seven minutes just because of time.

1064
01:09:17.439 --> 01:09:20.520
All right, go ahead and click to join those for me.

1065
01:09:23.920 --> 01:09:24.760
Okay.

1066
01:09:54.080 --> 01:09:57.640
And I think we've got everyone situated.

1067
01:09:57.640 --> 01:10:00.000
Father, thank you for revealing, for healing.

1068
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:02.320
Thank you that you're using our stories.

1069
01:10:02.320 --> 01:10:04.280
You're changing us from the inside out.

1070
01:10:04.280 --> 01:10:06.240
God, that there's nothing ever wasted.

1071
01:10:07.840 --> 01:10:08.160
Ladies.

1072
01:10:08.160 --> 01:10:10.840
It makes me think of the story that Jackie has in the book where

1073
01:10:10.840 --> 01:10:13.760
she talks about the jars.

1074
01:10:14.360 --> 01:10:17.160
I forget exactly how she says it, but she talks about the gold being

1075
01:10:17.160 --> 01:10:20.600
poured in and really sealing those cracks.

1076
01:10:20.600 --> 01:10:23.000
And I want you to think about your life in that regard.

1077
01:10:23.000 --> 01:10:28.200
Like every crack that we have, if you will, in our vessel as God, his

1078
01:10:28.200 --> 01:10:33.920
glory and his healing and his redemption come in and fill our jar up.

1079
01:10:34.920 --> 01:10:40.720
It fills those cracks with goals and quite a masterpiece he makes if you will.

1080
01:10:41.400 --> 01:10:46.040
So no matter what the mess has been in your life, no matter what the ashes

1081
01:10:46.040 --> 01:10:53.240
are, God can create beauty out of every amount of ash, he can bring joy and

1082
01:10:53.280 --> 01:10:57.720
where there has been mourning and healing where there's been pain.

1083
01:10:59.200 --> 01:11:03.520
Romans 8, 28 says, and we know that God causes everything to work together

1084
01:11:03.520 --> 01:11:07.000
for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for

1085
01:11:07.000 --> 01:11:13.160
them, Genesis 50, 20 says you intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good.

1086
01:11:13.720 --> 01:11:17.320
He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.

1087
01:11:17.320 --> 01:11:19.320
If y'all don't know, that's the story of Joseph.

1088
01:11:19.640 --> 01:11:25.640
That's Joseph saying that, and God raised him to a place of power and authority.

1089
01:11:25.800 --> 01:11:30.400
And it ended up, um, God used him to save not only his family, but the whole,

1090
01:11:30.840 --> 01:11:32.400
you know, that whole kingdom, if you will.

1091
01:11:33.800 --> 01:11:37.960
Isaiah 61 says this, the spirit of the sovereign Lord is upon me for the Lord

1092
01:11:37.960 --> 01:11:40.080
has anointed me to bring good news to the poor.

1093
01:11:40.640 --> 01:11:44.600
He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaim that captives will be

1094
01:11:44.600 --> 01:11:46.360
released and prisoners will be freed.

1095
01:11:46.800 --> 01:11:50.320
He has sent me to tell those who mourn that the time of the Lord's favor has

1096
01:11:50.320 --> 01:11:55.400
come and with it, the day of God's anger against their enemies to all who mourn

1097
01:11:55.400 --> 01:11:59.320
in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing

1098
01:11:59.320 --> 01:12:04.840
instead of mourning, festive praise, instead of despair and their righteousness.

1099
01:12:04.840 --> 01:12:10.040
They will be like great oaks that the Lord has planted for his own glory.

1100
01:12:10.920 --> 01:12:15.080
They will, they will rebuild the ancient ruins repairing cities destroyed long

1101
01:12:15.080 --> 01:12:17.200
ago, they will revive them though.

1102
01:12:17.200 --> 01:12:20.440
They have been deserted for many generations.

1103
01:12:20.760 --> 01:12:24.200
So basically y'all God's going to do great things in us and through us.

1104
01:12:24.240 --> 01:12:30.240
And even in generations to come, as well as just redeeming our timeline where the

1105
01:12:30.240 --> 01:12:35.720
enemies come in and he's destroyed ancient ruins that we can be that kinsmen

1106
01:12:35.720 --> 01:12:40.280
redeemer in our family line, that we can be that person that changes things for

1107
01:12:40.280 --> 01:12:46.880
history in and around, not only our family, but our communities and cities and

1108
01:12:47.080 --> 01:12:51.200
in countries that God can use us in mighty ways and big and small ways.

1109
01:12:51.200 --> 01:12:54.720
You all James one, two through four says this.

1110
01:12:54.720 --> 01:12:57.960
My fellow believers, when it seems as though you are facing nothing but

1111
01:12:57.960 --> 01:13:02.880
difficulties, see it as an invaluable opportunity to experience the greatest

1112
01:13:02.880 --> 01:13:07.760
joy that you can for, you know, that when your faith is tested, it stirs up power

1113
01:13:07.760 --> 01:13:09.920
within you to endure all things.

1114
01:13:10.280 --> 01:13:14.280
And then as your endurance grows even stronger, it will release perfection

1115
01:13:14.280 --> 01:13:20.120
into every part of your being until there is nothing missing and nothing lacking.

1116
01:13:22.120 --> 01:13:26.400
Ephesians four, 26 through 27 says this, but don't let the passion

1117
01:13:26.400 --> 01:13:28.120
of your emotions lead you to sin.

1118
01:13:28.480 --> 01:13:33.160
Don't let anger control you or be fuel for revenge, not even for a day.

1119
01:13:33.840 --> 01:13:38.640
Don't give the slanderous accuser, the devil, an opportunity to manipulate you.

1120
01:13:38.920 --> 01:13:42.800
Y'all just remember that, um, anger is hurts bodyguard.

1121
01:13:42.800 --> 01:13:46.400
If anger kicks in within us, that we would pay attention to that, that

1122
01:13:46.400 --> 01:13:48.000
we would pause and say, okay, Lord.

1123
01:13:49.440 --> 01:13:51.000
What's at the root of this anger.

1124
01:13:51.680 --> 01:13:55.720
What's the pain that I'm feeling that I'm covering up with

1125
01:13:55.720 --> 01:13:58.080
anger to protect myself right now.

1126
01:13:59.560 --> 01:14:04.520
And the Lord will show us and he'll lead us into all truth and anoint us for all

1127
01:14:04.520 --> 01:14:06.040
of our lives and walk in calling.

1128
01:14:06.040 --> 01:14:07.640
And he'll lead us deeper into Jesus.

1129
01:14:07.640 --> 01:14:10.360
If we will continue to ask him to do so.

1130
01:14:12.800 --> 01:14:15.280
I encourage you right now, just as you're listening to this.

1131
01:14:15.280 --> 01:14:18.800
And even as the ladies are in the breakout that you'll just, uh, continue

1132
01:14:18.800 --> 01:14:22.240
to pray, like, Lord, what is the emotion or memory that you are bringing up in

1133
01:14:22.240 --> 01:14:25.720
my spirit tonight that you want to reveal for healing God, that you'll

1134
01:14:25.720 --> 01:14:27.440
help me to partner with the truth.

1135
01:14:29.240 --> 01:14:33.440
That you are working on my behalf right now, even when I can't see it, Lord,

1136
01:14:33.440 --> 01:14:36.680
you're working God, your ways are above our ways.

1137
01:14:36.680 --> 01:14:39.920
Your thoughts are above our thoughts that nothing is too hard for you.

1138
01:14:40.280 --> 01:14:46.480
So where the enemy is trying to convince me or convince us that

1139
01:14:46.480 --> 01:14:47.800
it's never going to happen.

1140
01:14:47.800 --> 01:14:49.880
We thank you, God, that you're coming in tonight and you're

1141
01:14:49.880 --> 01:14:51.480
saying it is going to happen.

1142
01:14:52.800 --> 01:14:53.920
Can't you perceive it?

1143
01:14:53.920 --> 01:14:55.080
I'm doing a new thing.

1144
01:14:55.920 --> 01:14:59.920
I'm bringing streams in the, in the wasteland and rivers in the desert.

1145
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:01.600
And I might have those backwards, y'all,

1146
01:15:01.600 --> 01:15:05.280
but that's that scripture in Isaiah, I think it's 43.

1147
01:15:07.280 --> 01:15:09.040
God's doing something new.

1148
01:15:09.040 --> 01:15:10.840
Y'all, I'm looking to see if there's any other scriptures

1149
01:15:10.840 --> 01:15:13.640
from the book that just jump out at me tonight.

1150
01:15:13.640 --> 01:15:18.200
God's developing in us the ability to receive love tonight,

1151
01:15:19.240 --> 01:15:21.400
to receive his constant care,

1152
01:15:22.440 --> 01:15:25.040
to meditate on the fact that he's our defender.

1153
01:15:27.260 --> 01:15:29.920
Yes, there's a scripture in the Bible that talks about,

1154
01:15:30.120 --> 01:15:32.120
how God is like a mother hen

1155
01:15:32.960 --> 01:15:34.920
who gathers her chicks to herself.

1156
01:15:34.920 --> 01:15:36.320
I think I said I was gonna talk about

1157
01:15:36.320 --> 01:15:38.680
that other scripture too, now what was that?

1158
01:15:38.680 --> 01:15:40.440
Shoot, earlier I said I was gonna come back

1159
01:15:40.440 --> 01:15:41.480
and talk about that.

1160
01:15:47.960 --> 01:15:50.360
Now I forget what it was, y'all.

1161
01:15:50.360 --> 01:15:53.560
All right, well, maybe the Lord will help me remember.

1162
01:15:55.520 --> 01:15:58.560
Isaiah, or excuse me, Psalm 139, 14 says this,

1163
01:15:58.640 --> 01:16:00.320
I will give thanks and praise to you

1164
01:16:00.320 --> 01:16:04.080
for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

1165
01:16:04.080 --> 01:16:07.720
Wonderful are your works and my soul knows it very well.

1166
01:16:08.920 --> 01:16:11.480
Do you believe that you're fearfully and wonderfully made?

1167
01:16:11.480 --> 01:16:12.800
God says it's true.

1168
01:16:14.200 --> 01:16:17.280
1 John 3.20 says, whenever our hearts make us feel guilty

1169
01:16:17.280 --> 01:16:18.600
and remind us of our failures,

1170
01:16:18.600 --> 01:16:21.520
we know that God is much greater and more merciful

1171
01:16:21.520 --> 01:16:23.040
than our conscience.

1172
01:16:25.040 --> 01:16:27.920
And he knows everything there is to know about us.

1173
01:16:29.560 --> 01:16:34.560
Luke 12.2 says this, everything hidden and covered up

1174
01:16:35.640 --> 01:16:39.000
will soon be exposed for the fast aid is falling down

1175
01:16:39.000 --> 01:16:41.080
and nothing will be kept secret for long.

1176
01:16:42.280 --> 01:16:45.640
Revelation 21.4 says, he will wipe away every tear

1177
01:16:45.640 --> 01:16:49.400
from their eyes and eliminate death entirely.

1178
01:16:49.400 --> 01:16:52.480
No one will mourn or weep any longer.

1179
01:16:52.480 --> 01:16:55.880
The pain of wounds will no longer exist

1180
01:16:55.880 --> 01:16:58.200
for the old order has ceased.

1181
01:16:58.840 --> 01:17:01.680
Y'all, is that not a comfort just to think about like,

1182
01:17:01.680 --> 01:17:02.800
when we go to heaven,

1183
01:17:02.800 --> 01:17:07.600
like we literally will not feel pain ever again.

1184
01:17:09.880 --> 01:17:13.800
What we experience in this light and temporary moment,

1185
01:17:13.800 --> 01:17:15.840
like it feels long to us,

1186
01:17:15.840 --> 01:17:19.920
but our time on this earth is brief.

1187
01:17:19.920 --> 01:17:21.240
Let us live for eternity.

1188
01:17:21.240 --> 01:17:23.600
Jackie talks about that in Supernatural Saturday,

1189
01:17:23.600 --> 01:17:26.120
you all, if you didn't hear it,

1190
01:17:26.160 --> 01:17:28.560
we need to live for eternity.

1191
01:17:28.560 --> 01:17:30.760
What is our purpose here?

1192
01:17:30.760 --> 01:17:33.520
Yes, we want you all to have your spirit mate.

1193
01:17:33.520 --> 01:17:34.520
We want you to be blessed.

1194
01:17:34.520 --> 01:17:36.080
We believe God has led you here

1195
01:17:36.080 --> 01:17:37.920
to lead you to your spirit mate.

1196
01:17:37.920 --> 01:17:40.280
And not only to that, but kingdom, family and marriage

1197
01:17:40.280 --> 01:17:44.120
to become a part of a movement of what God is doing

1198
01:17:44.120 --> 01:17:46.920
and wants to release into the land in this season

1199
01:17:46.920 --> 01:17:48.120
and this time.

1200
01:17:48.120 --> 01:17:50.800
But even more than that, what is your purpose?

1201
01:17:50.800 --> 01:17:53.600
Who has God called you to be as a daughter?

1202
01:17:54.600 --> 01:17:56.640
What does he want to do in you

1203
01:17:57.560 --> 01:17:59.520
that will then create the things through you,

1204
01:17:59.520 --> 01:18:02.200
including that marriage covenant?

1205
01:18:03.760 --> 01:18:04.600
It's so good.

1206
01:18:04.600 --> 01:18:07.120
If y'all will meditate on those things,

1207
01:18:07.120 --> 01:18:09.120
seek first his kingdom and his righteousness

1208
01:18:09.120 --> 01:18:13.040
and all of the other things will be added unto you.

1209
01:18:15.120 --> 01:18:16.520
So good.

1210
01:18:16.520 --> 01:18:17.800
All right.

1211
01:18:17.800 --> 01:18:19.720
Who's willing to share with everyone

1212
01:18:19.720 --> 01:18:23.160
what you shared in your breakout about a memory or emotion?

1213
01:18:23.320 --> 01:18:24.160
Awesome.

1214
01:18:24.160 --> 01:18:25.000
Jennifer, go ahead.

1215
01:18:27.480 --> 01:18:29.120
Oh, you're muted.

1216
01:18:32.440 --> 01:18:33.360
Okay.

1217
01:18:33.360 --> 01:18:35.680
So even though I've been in this group for a very long time,

1218
01:18:35.680 --> 01:18:37.000
this is my first time sharing.

1219
01:18:37.000 --> 01:18:38.960
So I'm just gonna get through it.

1220
01:18:38.960 --> 01:18:43.960
I shared that around that formative years,

1221
01:18:44.880 --> 01:18:47.080
I wanna say it was like nine through 13.

1222
01:18:47.080 --> 01:18:49.280
My mom was married to a man

1223
01:18:49.280 --> 01:18:53.000
who was emotionally and verbally abusive

1224
01:18:53.840 --> 01:18:57.080
and he kept speaking or he spoke over me

1225
01:18:57.080 --> 01:18:58.640
that no man will ever want me.

1226
01:18:59.640 --> 01:19:03.400
And so thinking through that,

1227
01:19:05.280 --> 01:19:10.160
it's kind of that pattern has kind of proven true so far

1228
01:19:10.160 --> 01:19:14.120
in that anytime I have been interested romantically

1229
01:19:14.120 --> 01:19:17.440
in someone, they don't want me, they choose someone else.

1230
01:19:17.440 --> 01:19:19.480
And if I take that further

1231
01:19:19.480 --> 01:19:21.640
to like where that might've first began,

1232
01:19:21.840 --> 01:19:24.880
my biological father on the day I was born

1233
01:19:24.880 --> 01:19:28.000
walked into the hospital and said I wasn't his.

1234
01:19:28.000 --> 01:19:30.960
And so that was what I had shared in my breakout.

1235
01:19:32.280 --> 01:19:34.400
Jennifer, this is big.

1236
01:19:34.400 --> 01:19:36.640
I'm so proud of you for sharing this

1237
01:19:36.640 --> 01:19:39.240
and y'all here's the thing,

1238
01:19:40.400 --> 01:19:43.600
each one of your journeys is so special, truly.

1239
01:19:43.600 --> 01:19:46.440
And God's been doing a huge work in you

1240
01:19:46.440 --> 01:19:47.800
the entire time you've been here.

1241
01:19:47.800 --> 01:19:50.400
And I'm so excited that you just shared this.

1242
01:19:52.640 --> 01:19:54.440
I love the connections that you're making

1243
01:19:54.440 --> 01:19:56.000
and I think you're about to be

1244
01:19:56.000 --> 01:19:58.800
upon another huge breakthrough, I really do.

1245
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:02.680
There are two really big connections to be making right now.

1246
01:20:02.680 --> 01:20:04.320
And you might've already made them in the past,

1247
01:20:04.320 --> 01:20:07.800
but the fact that you're actually sharing them out loud.

1248
01:20:07.800 --> 01:20:12.400
It's interesting, this afternoon,

1249
01:20:12.400 --> 01:20:13.880
I don't know if I've shared this before

1250
01:20:13.880 --> 01:20:15.520
when you've been on Jennifer,

1251
01:20:15.520 --> 01:20:17.000
but also the other ladies that are new

1252
01:20:17.000 --> 01:20:19.840
maybe have never heard this part of my story.

1253
01:20:19.840 --> 01:20:23.440
But I shared this afternoon that when I was a teenager

1254
01:20:24.520 --> 01:20:26.160
through various different events,

1255
01:20:26.160 --> 01:20:29.560
my mom, I basically had a need.

1256
01:20:29.600 --> 01:20:30.880
I was really hungry.

1257
01:20:30.880 --> 01:20:32.760
I'd been at this thing all day.

1258
01:20:32.760 --> 01:20:34.440
She was there with me.

1259
01:20:34.440 --> 01:20:36.400
It was for something for school.

1260
01:20:36.400 --> 01:20:37.440
And then there was a craft show

1261
01:20:37.440 --> 01:20:38.920
and she wanted to stay for this craft show,

1262
01:20:38.920 --> 01:20:40.960
but I was really hungry.

1263
01:20:40.960 --> 01:20:43.560
She didn't, for whatever reason, want to buy me food.

1264
01:20:43.560 --> 01:20:45.080
I don't really know why.

1265
01:20:46.400 --> 01:20:48.000
But the reason I'm sharing this

1266
01:20:48.000 --> 01:20:49.840
is because I actually had a need.

1267
01:20:50.800 --> 01:20:54.160
And because I had a need and she, for whatever reason,

1268
01:20:54.160 --> 01:20:56.680
did not choose to fulfill that,

1269
01:20:56.680 --> 01:20:58.760
it turned into something bigger.

1270
01:20:58.800 --> 01:21:00.880
And she ended up screaming at me

1271
01:21:00.880 --> 01:21:03.600
in front of all these people about how selfish I was.

1272
01:21:03.600 --> 01:21:05.240
And then it escalated,

1273
01:21:05.240 --> 01:21:08.440
because she just stormed out and I was standing there.

1274
01:21:08.440 --> 01:21:12.640
And I just remember thinking, what do I do?

1275
01:21:12.640 --> 01:21:13.800
I just remember thinking,

1276
01:21:13.800 --> 01:21:15.680
I don't know if a lot of people were looking at me,

1277
01:21:15.680 --> 01:21:17.800
but I just remember thinking, oh my God,

1278
01:21:17.800 --> 01:21:20.200
everybody is probably looking at me.

1279
01:21:20.200 --> 01:21:22.440
And so I went after her,

1280
01:21:22.440 --> 01:21:23.840
trying to find her out in the parking lot.

1281
01:21:23.840 --> 01:21:25.440
I had no clue where she was.

1282
01:21:25.920 --> 01:21:30.920
And when I found her, she started screaming at me again.

1283
01:21:31.240 --> 01:21:33.960
And that was the day she said,

1284
01:21:33.960 --> 01:21:36.080
we never wanted you to begin with.

1285
01:21:37.600 --> 01:21:41.400
They got pregnant with me when she was on birth control.

1286
01:21:42.400 --> 01:21:45.080
And so there was a large part of my life

1287
01:21:45.080 --> 01:21:50.080
where I really battled so much with, I wasn't wanted.

1288
01:21:51.080 --> 01:21:55.280
And how that like damaged things in the core of who I was.

1289
01:21:55.280 --> 01:22:00.160
And I remember just at one point how like one day

1290
01:22:00.160 --> 01:22:01.960
that all just shifted,

1291
01:22:01.960 --> 01:22:06.240
because I finally really understood how much God wanted.

1292
01:22:07.960 --> 01:22:08.800
Yeah.

1293
01:22:09.440 --> 01:22:12.920
Y'all, I'm a miracle, like God wanted me.

1294
01:22:14.160 --> 01:22:18.080
And even when my parents didn't, he did.

1295
01:22:18.640 --> 01:22:20.640
And he formed me and he created me

1296
01:22:20.640 --> 01:22:23.440
and he predestined me for a purpose.

1297
01:22:24.720 --> 01:22:27.600
And so I just wanna, I wanna release that over you.

1298
01:22:27.600 --> 01:22:31.920
Like while your dad may not have said that you were his,

1299
01:22:32.960 --> 01:22:35.920
God is saying and has been saying

1300
01:22:35.920 --> 01:22:38.920
from the day that he made you, that you are his.

1301
01:22:38.920 --> 01:22:41.640
And he's always wanted you, Jennifer.

1302
01:22:42.720 --> 01:22:43.880
Thank you.

1303
01:22:43.880 --> 01:22:45.600
He's always wanted you.

1304
01:22:45.640 --> 01:22:49.080
And I do think that there's something with this guy

1305
01:22:49.080 --> 01:22:51.280
that was speaking that over you.

1306
01:22:51.280 --> 01:22:54.240
Okay, so one of the things I wanna encourage you

1307
01:22:54.240 --> 01:22:58.720
is that you can just, in Jesus name,

1308
01:22:58.720 --> 01:23:01.640
I don't partner with that lie over my life anymore.

1309
01:23:01.640 --> 01:23:05.000
That what that man said over me does not define my destiny.

1310
01:23:05.000 --> 01:23:08.760
So Lord, I thank you that in the days ahead,

1311
01:23:08.760 --> 01:23:11.960
as I meet the man, my spirit mate,

1312
01:23:11.960 --> 01:23:15.760
you will help him to see me and I will see him.

1313
01:23:15.760 --> 01:23:18.880
And we will know that you are leading us to each other

1314
01:23:18.880 --> 01:23:21.440
and that you all will choose each other

1315
01:23:21.440 --> 01:23:23.040
and just start partnering with the truth

1316
01:23:23.040 --> 01:23:24.760
that counteracts the lie.

1317
01:23:24.760 --> 01:23:26.440
Does that make sense?

1318
01:23:26.440 --> 01:23:27.840
It does, yes.

1319
01:23:27.840 --> 01:23:30.240
Yeah, and it can be quite powerful.

1320
01:23:30.240 --> 01:23:32.680
And you all, and the reality of this

1321
01:23:32.680 --> 01:23:34.360
is sometimes you're gonna say this stuff

1322
01:23:34.360 --> 01:23:37.240
and you're not gonna fully believe it 100% in your heart.

1323
01:23:37.240 --> 01:23:40.520
You're still gonna be growing in your faith in that area,

1324
01:23:40.520 --> 01:23:42.080
at least from my experience.

1325
01:23:42.080 --> 01:23:44.000
But the more I partnered with the truth

1326
01:23:44.000 --> 01:23:45.960
and the more that I healed,

1327
01:23:45.960 --> 01:23:48.960
the more I believed what I was saying

1328
01:23:48.960 --> 01:23:50.760
and the unbelief kept leaving.

1329
01:23:51.800 --> 01:23:53.760
One of the things I want y'all to get comfortable with

1330
01:23:53.760 --> 01:23:56.920
as well is I believe, help my unbelief.

1331
01:23:58.080 --> 01:24:01.160
I believe, help my unbelief.

1332
01:24:01.160 --> 01:24:02.960
Because the reality is you all,

1333
01:24:02.960 --> 01:24:04.760
is so many people struggle with unbelief,

1334
01:24:04.760 --> 01:24:07.600
but they just, they've never been able to pinpoint it

1335
01:24:07.600 --> 01:24:09.600
or they feel ashamed because they're Christians.

1336
01:24:09.600 --> 01:24:10.440
And so they feel like,

1337
01:24:10.440 --> 01:24:15.440
I shouldn't struggle with unbelief, but we all do.

1338
01:24:16.520 --> 01:24:19.520
That's why there's scripture that talks about that we,

1339
01:24:19.520 --> 01:24:22.480
God doesn't want us to be like a wave tossed to and fro.

1340
01:24:22.480 --> 01:24:24.680
And again, this isn't necessarily just for Jennifer.

1341
01:24:24.680 --> 01:24:27.320
I'm kind of going into a little bit of kind of teaching

1342
01:24:27.320 --> 01:24:29.240
and edifying here right now.

1343
01:24:29.240 --> 01:24:34.240
But God wants us to be firm and fixed and sure.

1344
01:24:34.400 --> 01:24:35.920
But where does that come from?

1345
01:24:36.920 --> 01:24:38.320
It comes from being rooted

1346
01:24:38.320 --> 01:24:41.080
in the knowledge of who we are in him

1347
01:24:41.080 --> 01:24:44.040
and how much, like God is love.

1348
01:24:45.800 --> 01:24:46.640
God is love.

1349
01:24:46.640 --> 01:24:50.280
He literally cannot deny himself

1350
01:24:50.280 --> 01:24:53.200
and we were created in his image.

1351
01:24:53.200 --> 01:24:57.440
So he therefore will not ever deny us.

1352
01:24:57.440 --> 01:24:59.200
Does that make sense?

1353
01:24:59.200 --> 01:25:00.040
He will, again,

1354
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:03.300
He'll protect us. He'll correct us. He'll love us. He'll guide us,

1355
01:25:03.820 --> 01:25:08.500
but he will always pursue us with his loving kindness.

1356
01:25:09.980 --> 01:25:12.740
His loving kindness is what leads us to true repentance,

1357
01:25:12.740 --> 01:25:14.340
not behavior modification.

1358
01:25:16.860 --> 01:25:21.780
Jennifer. I'm so excited. I really am. I'm just, you know, these moments as a

1359
01:25:21.780 --> 01:25:26.580
coach, we wait, we wait and we watch and we pray. And then someone shares and

1360
01:25:26.580 --> 01:25:29.740
you just, it's, it's a big moment. I celebrate you tonight.

1361
01:25:30.200 --> 01:25:33.680
For your courage. Is there anyone else that was led to share tonight?

1362
01:25:37.720 --> 01:25:41.240
Were you going to say something else, Jennifer? Okay.

1363
01:25:41.240 --> 01:25:45.120
I just want to make sure I didn't know if I cut you off. Anyone else?

1364
01:25:46.640 --> 01:25:49.640
I'll, I'll talk. Go ahead. Go ahead.

1365
01:25:50.240 --> 01:25:53.600
So this isn't the one that I shared with Joanna,

1366
01:25:53.640 --> 01:25:58.400
but it kind of came up as, as Jennifer and you were saying

1367
01:25:59.080 --> 01:26:00.360
what you did.

1368
01:26:01.680 --> 01:26:04.200
So I think it was like

1369
01:26:05.960 --> 01:26:08.080
almost when I was 30,

1370
01:26:09.240 --> 01:26:13.160
I had my first ever freedom session.

1371
01:26:14.880 --> 01:26:15.720
And,

1372
01:26:17.400 --> 01:26:20.800
and so the gal just said, I see you crying from the womb.

1373
01:26:22.400 --> 01:26:26.640
And I just broke because it was like,

1374
01:26:26.760 --> 01:26:30.320
I always knew something was off, but

1375
01:26:31.480 --> 01:26:36.360
that my mother never wanted me. And so she just,

1376
01:26:36.400 --> 01:26:41.240
this, this lady, just, she could see me crying from the womb.

1377
01:26:41.240 --> 01:26:46.160
And I'm like, Oh my gosh, that's true.

1378
01:26:48.040 --> 01:26:51.680
But but since that time,

1379
01:26:51.680 --> 01:26:55.560
the Lord has been so gracious to say,

1380
01:26:56.760 --> 01:26:58.600
you know, what you did, Bethany, that,

1381
01:26:58.760 --> 01:27:03.760
that the Lord loves us and no matter what,

1382
01:27:03.880 --> 01:27:08.280
my mother was very broken. And so

1383
01:27:09.760 --> 01:27:14.480
anyway. Yeah. Yeah. So

1384
01:27:15.600 --> 01:27:17.280
but that just, you know,

1385
01:27:18.400 --> 01:27:22.720
back then you didn't get a birth abortions or whatever. So

1386
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praise God. Cause you're here. I know.

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And, and, and he, you know, the Lord has,

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he calls me my girl when we're journaling.

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And I think I've shared this before that I ask him, you know,

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why don't you say my beautiful girl or, you know, lovely or something.

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And he said, go look up the song,

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the temptations, the old song, my girl.

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And, and so I did, and I've, you know, played it and danced to it,

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you know? And he says I'm sunshine on a,

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on a cloudy day. That's right. Yeah.

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And so he's just shown me so much love and

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just precious times and stuff.

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And so I know he wanted me and he created me and just

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something that, that I don't know,

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if it was through something that Jackie said or whatever,

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that really touched me about how much he loves us and stuff,

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you know, she's, she said so much good stuff lately,

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but anyway, just confirms, you know,

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we're all his precious creations. Yes, we are.

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And he decided, okay, the Eloise model gets this.

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And that in hazel eyes, we've got to have hazel eyes and blah, blah, blah,

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you know? So, so it's like, you know, ask him what,

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what he's seeing that he just adores about each of

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us, you know? So, yeah, I love this.

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This is going to be a good activation.

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I'm going to change one of our activations tonight. Okay.

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Thank you for sharing Eloise.

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And I do want to pray into this because I feel like there's some other people

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that maybe maybe you've never heard of that concept of like crying

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from the womb or, or getting ministry in those ways.

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But there are a lot of studies out there that if,

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even if a mom gets pregnant young or she's scared,

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or maybe she has health concerns, I mean, there's a lot of different reasons.

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It doesn't mean they always don't want us,

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but what can happen is there can be things released,

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you know, while the baby is in the womb that can lead to them, you know,

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being born with a root of rejection.

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And so I do feel led to pray into that tonight before we close.

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But here are the activations.

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Nations for this week. Number one, that just came out of what

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Eloise was saying is I do want you all to pray and ask God,

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like, like how she was saying, like, God says to her, my girl,

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like, what does God want to call you in this season? Like, what's

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that term, Lord of endearment that you want to speak to me

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when you and I talk. And I want to encourage you all if you

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don't hear it right away, don't get frustrated. Okay, just keep

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listening and leaning in and let him show you. And if you hear

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something right away, don't diminish it and think, well,

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that's just me making that up. Because some people do that. But

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it's actually the Lord whispering to you something.

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Okay. So that's your first activation. We're going to call

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it terms of endearment. Because that's how God speaks to us. And

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I hear things differently than the way Eloise does, but that

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doesn't make it any less special. Okay. God showed me as

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a long, long time ago, I'm a picture of a little girl skipping

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with blonde hair, and he was showing me who I was going to

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become. And it had nothing to do with the hair color other than I

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believe it. Blonde hair was a prophetic of symbolism of glory.

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And happiness, she was skipping and she was happy. And so God

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speaks in all different kinds of ways. So just let him show you

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for you. Okay. Number two, is this, I really want you all to

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spend some time in nature at some point this week. Okay. So I

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want you to like, ask God, don't just decide like, okay, this is

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what I'm going to go do. But I actually want you to ask God,

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01:31:46.880 --> 01:31:52.560
where does he want you to go with him? So maybe your place

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01:31:52.560 --> 01:31:55.640
that you feel close to God, maybe that's gardens, maybe it's

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01:31:55.680 --> 01:31:59.240
flowers, maybe it's actually working in your garden. Maybe

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01:31:59.240 --> 01:32:02.560
for you, it's going for a hike or by the beach, you know, really

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01:32:02.560 --> 01:32:05.280
ask the Lord, okay, these are things I love. These are places

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I feel close to you, God, where do you want me to meet with you

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01:32:07.680 --> 01:32:14.200
this week? And when you go, when you go there, I want you to talk

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to him. And I want you to ask him for revelations. You know,

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how does he feel about you? What does he want you to hear? You

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01:32:20.440 --> 01:32:22.320
know, what are some areas he wants to heal in you while

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you're there. And for those of you that are willing, I would

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love for you to take a snapshot of yourself there. Or you can

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just take a snapshot of the place if that's easier, but I

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want you to share about it in the group. Okay. And again, you

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all when you do these things, and they are really, really

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valuable to you getting freedom, but also others being

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encouraged. You know, when you start to see other people's

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posts in the group, I don't know, but you all, but it kind

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of lights up the lights up the group, doesn't it? When you see

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things people have done, and they, they lean into this stuff.

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And so just know that God wants to do a work in you. And if you

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want to share your terms of endearment, like what God says

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to you, I would love to hear this too. Again, these are all

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even listening to Eloise tell that story, didn't it kind of

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like, take you to that place a little bit. So imagine if you

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all read those kind of things that are in the group this week,

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how much that would minister to your soul. And maybe for some of

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you, it might be a revealing for healing, because if you're

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01:33:27.960 --> 01:33:30.480
struggling, and you're not hearing that, and you need

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01:33:30.480 --> 01:33:34.840
breakthroughs in some more areas to lead you to that place, lean

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01:33:34.840 --> 01:33:40.000
into that as well. Okay. So whatever happens, trust it, and

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come into the group and talk about it. All right, let me pray

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for us. Father, thank you so much for everything you did

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tonight. The things that you're going to continue to do, God,

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thank you that you are ministering to every one of

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these ladies, God, in a really supernatural ways. If anyone

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received any kind of rejection while they were in the womb,

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God, roots of rejection, we just ask you to come in and heal

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those areas, Lord. God, help them to hear what your spirit

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is saying, God. Yes, Lord, help them to have visions of what you

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01:34:10.360 --> 01:34:14.960
were doing and how you were, like, what were you saying, God,

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the day that they came into the world in the delivery room?

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What were you thinking? How are you feeling? Help them to know

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those things. God, we thank you that you celebrate us, you

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01:34:25.680 --> 01:34:28.200
celebrated us when you were forming us when we came, but

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God, help us to hear, help us to see it for ourselves and in

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supernatural ways. We thank you, God, that you're leading us into

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a deeper revelation of your love for us tonight, and your care

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and that you're a good father. Help us to see the ways you

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defend us and protect us and you're looking out for us. God,

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we ask you to reveal any areas where we have believed the lie

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of the enemy that you have not kept your word to us, that

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you've failed us, that you've let us down. God, where we have

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partnered with those lies, help us to come out of a line of

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with them and come into agreement and alignment with the truth that you are kind, that you

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rejection.

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are good, that you are faithful. We just thank you that your head of protection is around

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us, that we can trust in you. We can rely on you and we just believe it all tonight

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in Jesus name. Amen. God bless you all. I'll see you all in the group. I hope you have

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an amazing week and I'll talk to y'all again real soon. Okay. Bye. Thanks, Bethany. It

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was great. Good night.