WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:13.560 Hello, welcome. Thank you so much for joining. It's eight o'clock. We're going to go ahead 2 00:00:13.560 --> 00:00:17.920 and get started with our Monday evening check in. I know that there are some people that 3 00:00:17.920 --> 00:00:23.880 are still figuring out that are new that are figuring out how to find us here. So I apologize. 4 00:00:23.880 --> 00:00:30.120 I kind of came on a little few seconds later than I normally do. But just trying to make 5 00:00:30.120 --> 00:00:35.680 sure people know where to go and how to find us. Welcome. Welcome. Welcome. If you're joining 6 00:00:35.680 --> 00:00:40.560 us for the first time, please let us know in the chat. Just say, Hey, I'm joining for 7 00:00:40.560 --> 00:00:44.700 the first time. I'll see your name. And I want to encourage you all. If you've never 8 00:00:44.700 --> 00:00:52.120 been here before, we turn our cameras on when we come to heart check in. And if you're driving 9 00:00:52.120 --> 00:00:55.840 totally understand you don't have to do that if you're eating or you're at work. That's a 10 00:00:55.840 --> 00:01:00.400 little different. But even though some of you might not have known that we would want you 11 00:01:00.400 --> 00:01:06.440 to do that would love to see your beautiful faces. And for those of you that it's just 12 00:01:06.440 --> 00:01:10.040 going to kind of stretch you to get out of your comfort zone a little bit. I want to 13 00:01:10.040 --> 00:01:14.680 encourage you to lean into that even though you might not love the way that feels. It's 14 00:01:14.680 --> 00:01:20.120 really important for y'all to come out of hiding in this heart healing process in every 15 00:01:20.120 --> 00:01:26.280 way possible. And that's going to help you in your process later on and so many ways 16 00:01:26.280 --> 00:01:31.680 more than what you can even understand right now. And so just always come you all you don't 17 00:01:31.680 --> 00:01:34.960 have to have your hair done. I have my hair done just because I'm the one that kind of 18 00:01:34.960 --> 00:01:39.960 on the video doing a lot of the teaching and stuff like that. But y'all can come any way 19 00:01:39.960 --> 00:01:44.600 you want to come don't feel any pressure. It's just us girls and we're going to have 20 00:01:44.600 --> 00:01:50.440 heart real talk. We're going to connect. And if you haven't met me before, my name is 21 00:01:50.440 --> 00:01:54.880 Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the heart work coaches in this group and community. And I 22 00:01:54.880 --> 00:02:01.080 just love being a part of what God is doing. Not just leading people to spirit mates, but 23 00:02:01.080 --> 00:02:06.080 truly transforming people's lives from the inside out. People are getting set free from 24 00:02:06.080 --> 00:02:12.360 so much stuff. And so many people are falling back in love with Jesus or more in love with 25 00:02:12.360 --> 00:02:17.120 him and God the Father and the Holy Spirit. Some people are finding out who the Holy Spirit 26 00:02:17.120 --> 00:02:23.440 is in this journey. So whatever you came here for, I want to encourage you to believe for 27 00:02:23.440 --> 00:02:28.600 more. To believe for more than the spirit mate, the spirit mates, the cherry on top, 28 00:02:28.600 --> 00:02:34.840 y'all are going to hear us say that a lot in this community. And it is so true. If y'all 29 00:02:34.840 --> 00:02:39.440 don't know my story, I did go through the boot camp. That's what we used to call it 30 00:02:39.440 --> 00:02:46.240 years ago back in 2021 in January. That was the date I'm trying to think back. And just 31 00:02:46.240 --> 00:02:51.920 so honored and blessed to have, you know, gone through all the things I went through 32 00:02:51.920 --> 00:02:57.200 leading up to the point that God brought me here. And y'all, God did a supernatural work 33 00:02:57.200 --> 00:03:04.600 in my life. And, you know, just through a lot of different things, I just felt really 34 00:03:04.600 --> 00:03:10.400 called to help this community and movement. And that's how I got to where I am right now. 35 00:03:10.400 --> 00:03:15.720 But along that journey, I also met my spirit mate, Brian Cooper. So y'all will hear a little 36 00:03:15.720 --> 00:03:21.320 bit about him and our journey here and there. But in phase one, I focus a lot on the inner 37 00:03:21.320 --> 00:03:27.480 heart healing that God led me through in all different stages of my life and my journey. 38 00:03:27.480 --> 00:03:31.520 But I want to encourage you all. The reason I'm sharing this with you is that you're going 39 00:03:31.520 --> 00:03:37.600 to have ups and downs in this process. Okay. In the heart healing process, if you stick 40 00:03:37.600 --> 00:03:41.920 around and go into phase two, phase three, there's going to be ups and downs and you're 41 00:03:41.920 --> 00:03:48.800 going to be the most important person on your journey. And what I mean by that is we believe 42 00:03:48.800 --> 00:03:54.960 that God led you here to heal, to find your spirit mate. But some of you need to even 43 00:03:54.960 --> 00:04:00.160 learn how to love yourself and to know what it really looks like to enjoy being in your 44 00:04:00.320 --> 00:04:08.400 presence, to enjoy like, Hey, who am I? What do I love doing? Because you know what, when 45 00:04:08.400 --> 00:04:11.920 you, when you start talking to guys, they want to know more about you. They want to 46 00:04:11.920 --> 00:04:16.399 know what you enjoy. And so many, we have found that come into our program. They don't 47 00:04:16.399 --> 00:04:21.040 even know who they are. They don't know what they love because that got broken down through 48 00:04:21.040 --> 00:04:26.960 trauma and wounds of the past. And so one of my favorite things is helping people reconnect 49 00:04:27.600 --> 00:04:35.040 with the little girl inside of themselves. So tonight, that is a little bit of what I 50 00:04:35.040 --> 00:04:39.840 want to start leading us to. I'm going to touch on it a little bit tonight. I'm just 51 00:04:39.840 --> 00:04:44.240 planting some seeds because next week we're going to be talking about the real you like, 52 00:04:44.240 --> 00:04:48.800 who are you really? And who did God intend for you to be? And so I really want to encourage 53 00:04:48.800 --> 00:04:54.320 you, please try to be here again, next week live. For those of you that have finished 54 00:04:54.400 --> 00:04:58.640 phase one and you're moving to phase two, some of you have probably heard me do the real you 55 00:04:59.440 --> 00:04:59.920 session before. 56 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:02.160 for and we bless you. 57 00:05:02.160 --> 00:05:04.160 Don't feel like you have to come back. 58 00:05:04.160 --> 00:05:06.400 You can always check the replay if you want to, 59 00:05:06.400 --> 00:05:08.260 but if you want to join us, feel free, 60 00:05:08.260 --> 00:05:10.120 but hopefully you all will have fun 61 00:05:10.120 --> 00:05:11.880 in your phase two live sessions 62 00:05:11.880 --> 00:05:13.520 if you're moving on to phase two. 63 00:05:14.400 --> 00:05:17.320 If you all don't know in the app, 64 00:05:17.320 --> 00:05:18.600 for those of you that joined us 65 00:05:18.600 --> 00:05:20.360 and you began in our last year single app, 66 00:05:20.360 --> 00:05:23.580 this is an app that we have created as a community. 67 00:05:23.580 --> 00:05:26.320 We are always doing things to try to improve it, 68 00:05:26.320 --> 00:05:28.120 working with the developer to do so. 69 00:05:28.160 --> 00:05:32.640 And so just excited to have this space that we've created, 70 00:05:32.640 --> 00:05:37.040 but inside of there, you're gonna have the events tab. 71 00:05:37.040 --> 00:05:38.400 You're gonna have the community tab 72 00:05:38.400 --> 00:05:41.000 where we're all kind of talking and sharing. 73 00:05:41.000 --> 00:05:42.800 And then, I mean, there's all different tabs, 74 00:05:42.800 --> 00:05:43.640 but these are the ones 75 00:05:43.640 --> 00:05:45.060 that you're gonna get real comfortable with. 76 00:05:45.060 --> 00:05:48.540 The training tab is where all your coursework is at. 77 00:05:48.540 --> 00:05:50.360 And then the replays tab. 78 00:05:50.360 --> 00:05:53.000 The replays tab is where your supernatural Saturdays 79 00:05:53.000 --> 00:05:56.400 are gonna go, where heart checking replays are gonna go. 80 00:05:56.440 --> 00:05:59.240 Sometimes we do a prophetic ministry night. 81 00:05:59.240 --> 00:06:01.800 That's the last Sunday of every month. 82 00:06:01.800 --> 00:06:04.200 Those replays will go in there as well. 83 00:06:04.200 --> 00:06:05.600 So I just wanna make sure you all know 84 00:06:05.600 --> 00:06:07.280 where to find the replays, 85 00:06:08.240 --> 00:06:11.000 whether you wanna go back and kind of re-listen. 86 00:06:11.000 --> 00:06:12.680 Cause when you all go into breakout session, 87 00:06:12.680 --> 00:06:15.640 a lot of times I just sit and pray and read scripture. 88 00:06:15.640 --> 00:06:18.080 And if you're ever having a tough day, 89 00:06:18.080 --> 00:06:19.440 I wanna encourage you like, 90 00:06:19.440 --> 00:06:21.200 go in and just listen to some of that. 91 00:06:21.200 --> 00:06:23.120 You'll have to fast forward the other teaching parts 92 00:06:23.120 --> 00:06:23.960 if you've already heard it, 93 00:06:24.800 --> 00:06:26.520 or get on the Bible app 94 00:06:26.520 --> 00:06:30.360 and just let the word of God play over you. 95 00:06:30.360 --> 00:06:32.040 Sincerely, that's one of the things 96 00:06:32.040 --> 00:06:34.260 that will help you all on the hard days. 97 00:06:34.260 --> 00:06:37.160 So I encourage you to lean in 98 00:06:37.160 --> 00:06:40.720 and get as much out of this as you can while you're here. 99 00:06:40.720 --> 00:06:42.320 I know some of you will feel like 100 00:06:42.320 --> 00:06:45.400 all I can do is just the course and that's okay. 101 00:06:45.400 --> 00:06:48.880 Okay, this is like a grab bag of all kinds of stuff 102 00:06:48.880 --> 00:06:50.960 that we are providing above and beyond 103 00:06:50.960 --> 00:06:53.820 what is that basic course. 104 00:06:54.680 --> 00:06:58.340 But I will tell you that coming to the prayer times 105 00:06:58.340 --> 00:07:01.340 when you're able, including Supernatural Saturday, 106 00:07:01.340 --> 00:07:04.060 we really believe we'll accelerate your process 107 00:07:04.060 --> 00:07:05.560 in every area of your life. 108 00:07:05.560 --> 00:07:08.660 And that God has some really special stuff to say to you. 109 00:07:08.660 --> 00:07:10.960 All right, my last two, this is my housekeeping. 110 00:07:10.960 --> 00:07:11.800 If you all didn't know, 111 00:07:11.800 --> 00:07:14.540 we do a little housekeeping, a little cleanup. 112 00:07:14.540 --> 00:07:17.380 That's kind of like our little phrase. 113 00:07:17.380 --> 00:07:18.900 And this is where we do announcements. 114 00:07:18.900 --> 00:07:20.460 And we just do this for the first few minutes 115 00:07:20.460 --> 00:07:22.180 of every session to make sure people 116 00:07:22.180 --> 00:07:24.160 kind of are all on the same page. 117 00:07:25.080 --> 00:07:28.740 So I wanna remind you all, distractions are gonna come. 118 00:07:28.740 --> 00:07:31.860 For our brand new ladies, be aware of that, okay? 119 00:07:31.860 --> 00:07:33.900 Even our ladies that have been doing this for a little bit, 120 00:07:33.900 --> 00:07:37.060 some of you all might be getting caught up in distractions 121 00:07:37.060 --> 00:07:40.020 and the enemy might be trying to take you off course 122 00:07:40.020 --> 00:07:41.180 instead of helping you, 123 00:07:41.180 --> 00:07:43.980 like really leaning into the coursework 124 00:07:43.980 --> 00:07:45.600 and where God is taking you. 125 00:07:45.600 --> 00:07:48.420 So when the distractions come, you all, 126 00:07:48.420 --> 00:07:50.500 I love to do a lot of things. 127 00:07:50.540 --> 00:07:54.220 I like to talk to myself and talk to my spirit. 128 00:07:54.220 --> 00:07:56.020 Y'all, it's not because I'm crazy. 129 00:07:56.020 --> 00:07:56.860 Guess what? 130 00:07:56.860 --> 00:07:58.580 David talked to his spirit, didn't he? 131 00:07:58.580 --> 00:08:01.380 Why are you down, Casto, my soul, hope in the Lord. 132 00:08:01.380 --> 00:08:04.100 So I take that seriously. 133 00:08:04.100 --> 00:08:05.860 I like to talk to my spirit. 134 00:08:05.860 --> 00:08:09.220 I like to tell myself what I should be thinking. 135 00:08:09.220 --> 00:08:12.360 Or if I'm not speaking out loud, Lord, like I'm praying, 136 00:08:12.360 --> 00:08:16.060 like, Lord, I don't know why that was my heart today 137 00:08:16.060 --> 00:08:16.900 in that moment. 138 00:08:16.900 --> 00:08:18.860 Like, can you help me understand that? 139 00:08:19.780 --> 00:08:22.460 So I just process, this is what I do. 140 00:08:22.460 --> 00:08:24.260 So when the distractions come, 141 00:08:24.260 --> 00:08:25.780 I want y'all to kind of, 142 00:08:25.780 --> 00:08:27.540 I want you to put your hand up just like this. 143 00:08:27.540 --> 00:08:31.660 Like, imagine this is a big old stop sign, okay? 144 00:08:31.660 --> 00:08:34.760 And it's like, I want you to get used to this phrase, 145 00:08:34.760 --> 00:08:36.880 devil, not today. 146 00:08:37.900 --> 00:08:39.740 Today, not today, devil. 147 00:08:39.740 --> 00:08:42.580 I want you to get real comfortable with that phrase, okay? 148 00:08:42.580 --> 00:08:43.419 It's gonna serve you well. 149 00:08:43.419 --> 00:08:44.420 You guys will remember, 150 00:08:44.420 --> 00:08:46.180 hopefully some of you will remember that 151 00:08:46.180 --> 00:08:47.500 when the hard days come 152 00:08:47.500 --> 00:08:51.060 because he's gonna try to lie, kill, steal, destroy, 153 00:08:51.060 --> 00:08:53.220 and he's gonna try to do it all kinds of ways. 154 00:08:53.220 --> 00:08:58.020 And so it's up to us to resist the devil. 155 00:08:58.020 --> 00:08:59.740 And when we resist the devil, 156 00:08:59.740 --> 00:09:02.800 that's when the Bible says he flees, right? 157 00:09:02.800 --> 00:09:07.460 So we participate in that whole interaction and exchange. 158 00:09:07.460 --> 00:09:10.380 And so when the distractions come, 159 00:09:10.380 --> 00:09:12.380 they might look a lot of different ways. 160 00:09:12.380 --> 00:09:15.740 They might look like old boyfriends popping back up. 161 00:09:15.740 --> 00:09:17.740 And y'all, okay, just know, 162 00:09:17.740 --> 00:09:20.100 sometimes Jackie's gonna talk about, 163 00:09:20.100 --> 00:09:22.900 God has been for some people 164 00:09:22.900 --> 00:09:26.820 bringing prior relationships that were actually healthy, 165 00:09:26.820 --> 00:09:30.060 that one or both of the people self-sabotaged 166 00:09:30.060 --> 00:09:32.620 because they were not in the right place 167 00:09:32.620 --> 00:09:34.180 at the right season. 168 00:09:34.180 --> 00:09:35.860 And God will restore those. 169 00:09:35.860 --> 00:09:38.860 Those are few and far between, okay? 170 00:09:38.860 --> 00:09:42.460 If someone is not healthy 171 00:09:42.460 --> 00:09:45.280 and they pop back up in your life, 172 00:09:45.800 --> 00:09:47.360 y'all can understand at that moment, 173 00:09:47.360 --> 00:09:49.920 if there has been nothing that has changed, 174 00:09:49.920 --> 00:09:52.040 they are still unhealthy, 175 00:09:52.040 --> 00:09:54.320 that is something the enemy is trying to use 176 00:09:54.320 --> 00:09:57.400 to distract you, okay? 177 00:09:57.400 --> 00:09:59.680 Some people, and I'm just gonna touch on this, 178 00:09:59.680 --> 00:10:00.720 not because I'm gonna lie, 179 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:04.320 Anybody did anything wrong? I always feel like people always worry. Did I do something wrong? 180 00:10:00.720 --> 00:10:03.080 I'm just gonna touch on this because I'm not gonna lie, 181 00:10:03.080 --> 00:10:05.880 but some people are not healthy and they're not in the right 182 00:10:04.320 --> 00:10:09.040 No, you didn't, but it's just a good example. So we have some people that like met someone 183 00:10:05.880 --> 00:10:07.960 place at the right time, okay? 184 00:10:07.960 --> 00:10:10.760 Some people are not healthy and they're not in the right 185 00:10:09.040 --> 00:10:12.400 not long before they started the course or right after they started the course. 186 00:10:10.760 --> 00:10:12.640 place at the right time, okay? 187 00:10:12.400 --> 00:10:16.400 And they're a really nice guy. Y'all, we want to encourage you. Press pause, 188 00:10:16.400 --> 00:10:21.200 press pause on that. Press pause on online dating, press pause on pursuing any guys, 189 00:10:21.200 --> 00:10:26.880 even if the guys kind of pursued you. Um, because here's the thing, if you get caught up with the 190 00:10:26.880 --> 00:10:30.480 guy, you're going to, you're going to get distracted from what God's trying to do in you. 191 00:10:31.200 --> 00:10:36.720 And if he's meant to be your spirit mate and you say, Hey, you know what? Um, I think you're 192 00:10:36.720 --> 00:10:40.800 a really cool guy. I just started this heart healing process though. And I really want to 193 00:10:40.800 --> 00:10:46.720 be true to that. I want to be true to what God's doing in my life. And, um, you know, if it's okay, 194 00:10:46.720 --> 00:10:53.360 I'd love to reach back out when I'm finished. Good guys, healthy guys are going to be like, 195 00:10:53.360 --> 00:11:01.280 cool. That sounds great. Okay. If they feel led to wait, if they don't y'all, we're not fighting 196 00:11:01.280 --> 00:11:07.680 for scraps. Okay. We're not fighting for scraps and you don't have to shift into orphan mentality 197 00:11:07.680 --> 00:11:14.800 or panic or fear that you're missing out on something. Okay. Cause you're not, you're not, 198 00:11:14.800 --> 00:11:20.560 God will always bring it back around. And if it's meant to be, I really do believe that. And again, 199 00:11:20.560 --> 00:11:26.000 you have to discern between the two, the devil or the, uh, or the father sending it your way. 200 00:11:26.000 --> 00:11:30.400 Okay. Those are the last of my announcements. You guys did a great job. Thanks for staying engaged 201 00:11:30.400 --> 00:11:34.960 with me for those. I saw a couple people joining for the first time. I want to give a shout out to 202 00:11:34.960 --> 00:11:43.040 you. Uh, I see Katie and let's see, it says Carl. So 96, but I'm guessing that's maybe part of your 203 00:11:43.040 --> 00:11:47.760 last name. Can you tell me what your first name is in the chat? And then Naomi's joining us for 204 00:11:47.760 --> 00:11:55.040 the second time. Welcome back. All right. Awesome. Okay. So many of you are rejoining us again. 205 00:11:55.040 --> 00:11:59.440 So glad to see all of you tonight. Let me pray for us. And we're going to dive right in father. 206 00:11:59.440 --> 00:12:05.120 Thank you so much. Thank you that you even teach us and guide us in housekeeping moments. 207 00:12:05.120 --> 00:12:10.720 Thank you, God, that your mercy is new for us every morning, every night, every moment right 208 00:12:10.720 --> 00:12:15.040 now, God, I thank you that you would meet these ladies right where they're at God, that you would 209 00:12:15.040 --> 00:12:20.480 come and encounter them in their living rooms, in their kitchens, in their cars at work, God, 210 00:12:20.480 --> 00:12:25.200 wherever they are, help them to hear what your spirit is saying to them. Yes, Lord, we thank you 211 00:12:25.200 --> 00:12:31.200 for revealing for healing. We thank you for taking us, um, deeper in our understanding of who you are 212 00:12:31.200 --> 00:12:37.200 as a good father, but also God, the one that, that helps us step further into healing step further 213 00:12:37.200 --> 00:12:41.920 into truth. We know that your word declares that we are being renewed by the transforming of our 214 00:12:41.920 --> 00:12:47.280 minds that all old things have passed away and behold, everything has become new, but we also 215 00:12:47.280 --> 00:12:53.120 have to partner with that truth inside of our spirit. So help us Lord to, to really come into 216 00:12:53.120 --> 00:12:59.680 alignment with your truth from heaven tonight. We thank you that, um, yeah, Lord, we just thank you 217 00:12:59.680 --> 00:13:06.080 that you're going to help us take off old rags. Uh, ladies, I'm just sensing the spirit old rags 218 00:13:06.080 --> 00:13:10.240 and baggage that we've been carrying from the past. So we just thank you that you'll help us 219 00:13:10.240 --> 00:13:15.120 just even right now in this spirit, just to envision ourselves putting suitcases down, 220 00:13:15.120 --> 00:13:20.000 removing old garments, and maybe a, a code of heaviness, a spirit of oppression 221 00:13:20.880 --> 00:13:25.280 coming off of us. And we just thank you father in advance for that. And Jesus name. 222 00:13:26.000 --> 00:13:31.520 Amen. Y'all that's for somebody probably more than one. Somebody's tonight. I literally, I just, 223 00:13:31.520 --> 00:13:36.400 I just saw it just like this. It was like a, not even a full coat, but like the arms had 224 00:13:36.400 --> 00:13:42.560 been ripped off and it was just like a rag, but some people are wearing that. And, uh, the Lord 225 00:13:42.560 --> 00:13:49.360 said that you, yes, Lord, he's making a brand new robe for you all. He is. And, uh, it's Royal 226 00:13:49.360 --> 00:13:54.560 garments, which is another little segue for our thing next week. So I won't give too much away, 227 00:13:54.560 --> 00:14:01.680 but man, the Holy spirit brought that up. So, so loud and clear in my spirit. So take that old 228 00:14:01.680 --> 00:14:07.280 stuff off. We're going to do that a little bit tonight. Um, I want to talk tonight about inner 229 00:14:07.280 --> 00:14:13.280 vows and what these can look like, sound like, how we can get rid of them and all of that kind 230 00:14:13.280 --> 00:14:17.120 of stuff. We're going to talk about that. And if we have time, we're also going to touch on 231 00:14:17.120 --> 00:14:21.360 confession and repentance, but I'm also remaining open because God was kind of dropping some stuff 232 00:14:21.360 --> 00:14:25.680 in my spirit before I got on tonight. So we're just gonna, we're just gonna go with the Lord 233 00:14:25.680 --> 00:14:31.760 tonight. All right. We always do, but we're going to go with what he's doing. What is an interval? 234 00:14:31.760 --> 00:14:37.440 We get this question a lot. Uh, Tammy, thank you. Uh, we get this question a lot in interval. If 235 00:14:37.440 --> 00:14:44.480 you think about it this way, it's a determination set in our mind and our heart to protect us from 236 00:14:44.480 --> 00:14:53.760 pain. So at some point in our life, we came into a situation or a dynamic, uh, scenario trauma. 237 00:14:53.760 --> 00:14:59.840 And when that happened in that moment, we made a determination in our. 238 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:04.120 part in our mind to protect us from pain. 239 00:15:04.120 --> 00:15:07.960 So basically we are erected in an internal wall 240 00:15:07.960 --> 00:15:09.280 in our spirit. 241 00:15:09.280 --> 00:15:11.280 Does that make sense, everyone? 242 00:15:11.280 --> 00:15:12.600 Okay. 243 00:15:12.600 --> 00:15:16.320 All right, so Romans 12, two is my scripture. 244 00:15:16.320 --> 00:15:18.680 We're gonna lean into this a little bit, 245 00:15:18.680 --> 00:15:20.000 but it's the one we stand on. 246 00:15:20.000 --> 00:15:23.040 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, 247 00:15:23.040 --> 00:15:26.520 but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. 248 00:15:26.560 --> 00:15:30.320 Then you will be able to test what God's will is, 249 00:15:30.320 --> 00:15:33.260 his good, pleasing, and perfect will. 250 00:15:34.280 --> 00:15:36.560 And so one of the things that's super important 251 00:15:36.560 --> 00:15:39.780 for y'all to understand is that the renewing of our minds, 252 00:15:39.780 --> 00:15:42.300 a lot of people, we just, I don't know if y'all are like me, 253 00:15:42.300 --> 00:15:45.500 but back in the day, I used to just think literal, 254 00:15:45.500 --> 00:15:48.440 like just my mind, literal, and it is that, 255 00:15:48.440 --> 00:15:53.080 but it's also down in here, okay, in our heart, in our soul. 256 00:15:53.080 --> 00:15:55.040 And if we're carrying, you know, 257 00:15:55.040 --> 00:15:59.720 whether it's subconsciously or consciously 258 00:15:59.720 --> 00:16:03.120 carrying junk around in our spirit, 259 00:16:03.120 --> 00:16:06.200 yeah, I did, Diana, thank you for sharing that with me. 260 00:16:07.600 --> 00:16:09.800 If we're carrying that stuff around in our spirit, 261 00:16:09.800 --> 00:16:14.440 it is impacting everything that we think, do, say, 262 00:16:14.440 --> 00:16:17.880 how we show up in the world, what we partner with. 263 00:16:17.880 --> 00:16:22.480 And so that's why it's super important that every day, 264 00:16:22.480 --> 00:16:24.480 y'all, even today, I literally, 265 00:16:24.480 --> 00:16:26.400 like half an hour before I logged in tonight, 266 00:16:26.400 --> 00:16:28.840 I was like, Lord, the last two days, 267 00:16:28.840 --> 00:16:32.560 I've just been really feeling like the enemy is like, 268 00:16:32.560 --> 00:16:35.200 they're just battling, warring against me. 269 00:16:35.200 --> 00:16:38.560 And everything's fine, y'all, but just, I felt it. 270 00:16:38.560 --> 00:16:42.640 I felt it in the spirit, like wake up really happy, 271 00:16:42.640 --> 00:16:44.680 and then just like out of nowhere, 272 00:16:44.680 --> 00:16:48.780 just feel like this constant stuff at my head and my mind. 273 00:16:48.780 --> 00:16:49.620 That's what I'm saying. 274 00:16:49.620 --> 00:16:50.640 That's what I'm talking about. 275 00:16:50.640 --> 00:16:52.080 So you guys are gonna face stuff like this 276 00:16:52.080 --> 00:16:53.600 as well as you go. 277 00:16:53.600 --> 00:16:56.280 And so what, when we experience it, 278 00:16:56.280 --> 00:16:58.720 we might not always react to it 279 00:16:58.720 --> 00:17:00.400 or respond to it the way we want, 280 00:17:00.400 --> 00:17:02.240 but that's where grace comes in, okay? 281 00:17:02.240 --> 00:17:05.440 And we just constantly, okay, Lord, this is what's going on. 282 00:17:05.440 --> 00:17:07.720 Can you show me like, where's that coming from? 283 00:17:07.720 --> 00:17:10.480 Is that rooted in something that needs healing? 284 00:17:10.480 --> 00:17:13.599 Or is this just the enemy and I just need to resist 285 00:17:13.599 --> 00:17:16.400 as I was talking to y'all about earlier, okay? 286 00:17:17.319 --> 00:17:19.940 Soil in our hearts is really important. 287 00:17:19.940 --> 00:17:22.859 So if you have ever heard the story, 288 00:17:22.859 --> 00:17:24.640 I'm not gonna go into the story in the Bible, 289 00:17:24.640 --> 00:17:27.380 but where it talks about the different types of soil, 290 00:17:27.380 --> 00:17:29.700 Jackie talks about it in the book as well. 291 00:17:29.700 --> 00:17:32.900 If you've not read that part yet, you'll get there, 292 00:17:32.900 --> 00:17:35.980 but the soil is really, really important. 293 00:17:35.980 --> 00:17:40.420 So I also wanna put this out there for y'all to consider. 294 00:17:40.420 --> 00:17:44.020 There are parts of your heart that have really fertile soil. 295 00:17:44.020 --> 00:17:45.140 It's really good. 296 00:17:45.140 --> 00:17:46.020 It's really rich. 297 00:17:46.020 --> 00:17:47.940 It has all the nutrients in it. 298 00:17:47.940 --> 00:17:50.260 And then there's other parts of your heart 299 00:17:50.260 --> 00:17:53.700 that have some rockiness, some hardness, 300 00:17:55.100 --> 00:17:58.940 maybe some areas where it's kind of in between the good 301 00:17:58.940 --> 00:18:02.100 and the rocky, God's been in there doing some work. 302 00:18:02.100 --> 00:18:05.340 And so just know that you can have different parts 303 00:18:05.340 --> 00:18:09.020 that need more healing to become that fertile place. 304 00:18:10.180 --> 00:18:11.680 So that's why some of you like, 305 00:18:11.680 --> 00:18:13.180 it's kind of this back and forth. 306 00:18:13.180 --> 00:18:15.140 Like you feel really strong in some areas 307 00:18:15.140 --> 00:18:17.160 and then really weak in other areas. 308 00:18:17.160 --> 00:18:20.360 It just means that you need healing in those areas 309 00:18:20.360 --> 00:18:22.760 and that maturing and that growth 310 00:18:22.760 --> 00:18:25.680 in the spirit over there, okay? 311 00:18:25.680 --> 00:18:27.440 So I wanna read something just real quick. 312 00:18:27.440 --> 00:18:30.720 This is just a little blurb I'm taking from the book. 313 00:18:30.720 --> 00:18:33.520 I'm not gonna share the page because you're all ebook. 314 00:18:33.520 --> 00:18:35.520 It's the same content as my physical book, 315 00:18:35.520 --> 00:18:37.120 but the page numbers are different, all right? 316 00:18:37.120 --> 00:18:39.360 Because people always ask me for the numbers. 317 00:18:40.320 --> 00:18:41.720 Okay, so this is what it says. 318 00:18:41.720 --> 00:18:43.920 But even though you won't be able to replace 319 00:18:43.920 --> 00:18:47.340 the actual events that happened in your life, 320 00:18:47.340 --> 00:18:49.960 you can replace the lies you believed 321 00:18:49.960 --> 00:18:52.440 and most importantly, the vows you made 322 00:18:52.440 --> 00:18:55.760 as a result of those lies, okay? 323 00:18:55.760 --> 00:18:57.560 So that's what we're getting at tonight. 324 00:18:57.560 --> 00:19:00.200 When we experience these hurts in life, they make us sad. 325 00:19:00.200 --> 00:19:02.460 And when we are sad, that's when anger shows up. 326 00:19:02.460 --> 00:19:05.240 Remember that anger is always the defender. 327 00:19:05.240 --> 00:19:08.000 The anger is the protector. 328 00:19:08.000 --> 00:19:11.200 Typically underneath, we've got sadness, frustration. 329 00:19:11.200 --> 00:19:13.520 There's other levels of emotions 330 00:19:14.120 --> 00:19:16.040 that we experience underneath. 331 00:19:16.040 --> 00:19:18.520 Anger always shows up when those wounded 332 00:19:18.520 --> 00:19:21.920 and vulnerable parts of our hearts feel threatened. 333 00:19:21.920 --> 00:19:24.280 Okay, so that's why we call it hurts bodyguard. 334 00:19:25.480 --> 00:19:29.160 When anger is around, we feel strong 335 00:19:29.160 --> 00:19:31.080 and we start to make these inner vows. 336 00:19:31.080 --> 00:19:33.240 So that's, again, that's where we're circling around 337 00:19:33.240 --> 00:19:35.000 this a little bit here. 338 00:19:35.000 --> 00:19:36.940 So here are some inner vows. 339 00:19:38.880 --> 00:19:41.320 I'm gonna read some off of the book 340 00:19:41.320 --> 00:19:42.800 and then some of my list. 341 00:19:42.800 --> 00:19:43.640 Let's see here. 342 00:19:44.760 --> 00:19:47.240 I won't be made a fool anymore. 343 00:19:47.240 --> 00:19:50.160 So maybe some of you feel like somebody made a fool of you 344 00:19:50.160 --> 00:19:51.760 in a situation. 345 00:19:51.760 --> 00:19:55.160 Nobody is ever gonna tell me what to do. 346 00:19:55.160 --> 00:19:57.160 I can't tell anybody about this. 347 00:19:57.160 --> 00:19:59.800 Maybe some of you went through certain types of trauma 348 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:05.520 even whether you thought that on your own or someone else told you not to tell, you struggle 349 00:20:05.520 --> 00:20:12.080 to tell people things now, whether it's that major wound or additional things. Sometimes it's a both 350 00:20:12.080 --> 00:20:19.280 and in that area. Some of you will tell yourself, I will be perfect from now on so that nobody can 351 00:20:19.280 --> 00:20:26.160 reject me. And so you get into these cycles of trying to be perfect and there are no perfect 352 00:20:26.160 --> 00:20:30.560 people. Okay. It's not, it's not something we can attain. Here are a couple other ones. I'm 353 00:20:30.560 --> 00:20:35.680 going to go through these pretty quick. I'll never be able to make anyone happy. I'll never date or 354 00:20:35.680 --> 00:20:42.720 marry a Larry. I just always use the name Larry. It's just easy, but maybe your name is Joe. Maybe 355 00:20:42.720 --> 00:20:49.440 your name is Derek. Maybe your name is Dominic. And the reason we use this is because typically 356 00:20:49.440 --> 00:20:56.080 what can happen is when someone that we were dating or married to, or just a trauma happened 357 00:20:56.080 --> 00:21:04.240 with that person, we label all people with that name as bad. Maybe it's a certain ethnicity. 358 00:21:04.240 --> 00:21:10.480 Maybe it's a guy with a certain type of job. If y'all didn't hear the never will I ever list, 359 00:21:10.480 --> 00:21:15.200 if you're brand new, this'll be the first time you're hearing this. A never will I ever list 360 00:21:15.200 --> 00:21:22.720 is a list that we make, um, in situations like this, I will never date someone who's a pastor. 361 00:21:22.720 --> 00:21:28.640 I will never date someone who's a police officer or is in the army. Those are not from heaven. 362 00:21:28.640 --> 00:21:36.880 You all, a lot of times those kinds of statements come from places of woundedness or hurt, or maybe 363 00:21:36.880 --> 00:21:42.080 you, you grew up as a pastor's kid or seeing someone that was a pastor's kid. Okay. So it's 364 00:21:42.080 --> 00:21:46.560 really important. If you're brand new, you need to start making your never will I ever list and 365 00:21:46.560 --> 00:21:51.520 then post it in the group. And we're going to coach you on it. Okay. Because there are certain 366 00:21:51.520 --> 00:21:58.000 things that you all will need to let go of at in your surrender process and your healing process. 367 00:21:58.000 --> 00:22:02.400 And you'll, it will also give some insight into some areas you might need additional healing. 368 00:22:02.400 --> 00:22:07.360 Okay. And I'll, I can explain more what the never will I ever list is in a little bit, 369 00:22:07.360 --> 00:22:12.320 but I just want to put that plug out there. Okay. And for those of you that heard me say 370 00:22:12.320 --> 00:22:16.160 that a couple of weeks ago, and you haven't done yours yet, be sure to go ahead and get yours done 371 00:22:16.160 --> 00:22:21.280 too. Okay. All right. Here are a couple more intervals that I've heard over the years of 372 00:22:21.280 --> 00:22:29.040 coaching and doing this hard work. I'll never trust anyone again. I'll never let my guard down again. 373 00:22:29.200 --> 00:22:35.600 I'll never be like my mother, or I'll never be like my father. Yes. Even some women. I don't 374 00:22:35.600 --> 00:22:43.600 know about you all, but for me, my dad was an addict and a, an alcoholic and he left our family 375 00:22:43.600 --> 00:22:48.080 and cheated and all these things. And so I can remember being like, I'm never going to be like 376 00:22:48.080 --> 00:22:54.000 my father. And, and in some ways that's a good thing you all, but then it can get out of balance. 377 00:22:54.000 --> 00:22:58.400 Okay. So I have to be really careful. And then I can't remember if I said this one already. 378 00:22:58.400 --> 00:23:01.760 So I'm just going to say this one too. I'll never let anyone hurt me ever again. 379 00:23:03.360 --> 00:23:07.760 All right. So I want you just to be thinking, and I always encourage all don't, don't panic. 380 00:23:07.760 --> 00:23:11.280 If you don't have paper and pen, but I just try to always bring, even if it's just a sheet of 381 00:23:11.280 --> 00:23:16.080 paper or a journal, because I'm going to, I'm going to have you guys like do stuff during 382 00:23:16.080 --> 00:23:22.000 our sessions. Cause it's, that will help you stay more engaged. Okay. So I'm going to, I'm going to 383 00:23:22.320 --> 00:23:25.520 That will help you stay more engaged with what we're talking about. Okay. 384 00:23:26.640 --> 00:23:33.200 I want you to be thinking about these intervals if you have them. Okay. So if there was anything 385 00:23:33.200 --> 00:23:38.480 that really stood out to you about what I said, or maybe something different came to mind for you, 386 00:23:38.480 --> 00:23:42.640 that's totally fine. Write down anything that might've come to mind for you. And even if you 387 00:23:42.640 --> 00:23:48.960 don't fully know yet, but a memory or something that happened in your life came to mind, 388 00:23:48.960 --> 00:23:52.160 write that down too. Okay. 389 00:23:57.600 --> 00:24:02.160 And then I'm going to activate you all in the chat in this next one. 390 00:24:04.560 --> 00:24:11.680 Do you ever make statements or have thoughts that include words like always or never? 391 00:24:12.080 --> 00:24:20.240 They always do that. I always get passed over men. Never come through for me. 392 00:24:22.000 --> 00:24:36.000 Men always abuse me. Men never pick heavier women. I'm never seen or noticed. Now these are just 393 00:24:36.000 --> 00:24:41.120 examples, but I'm trying to kind of stoke the fire here a little bit. Okay. The fire, I call it 394 00:24:41.120 --> 00:24:46.240 the fire, but it's like the, the ideas and the thoughts inside of you all, the, the areas that 395 00:24:46.240 --> 00:24:50.960 are sensitive that, you know, you're resonating with what I'm saying, or you're feeling pain. 396 00:24:50.960 --> 00:24:56.000 Okay. Those are some of the ways that you're going to know something's going on when I'm, 397 00:24:56.000 --> 00:25:00.000 when the teaching that either myself or someone else has taught me, 398 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:02.000 I'm going to be able to do that. Okay. 399 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:05.760 for Jackie or whoever are doing, and that's where you need to lean in. So in the chat for me, 400 00:25:06.720 --> 00:25:14.000 even if it was not one I said, what is a statement that you might think or have said in the past that 401 00:25:14.000 --> 00:25:19.120 has either the word always or never in it? So I would love to see those come into the chat. 402 00:25:25.200 --> 00:25:29.920 Tammy, it's okay if you don't know inner vowels. Sometimes it's a process of uncovering those 403 00:25:29.920 --> 00:25:38.240 you all. Okay. Okay. So it's always get passed up. I'll never trust anyone. I'm never chosen 404 00:25:38.240 --> 00:25:43.840 by anybody. Always a bridesmaid. That's a good one. Kristen B. All right. You always do that 405 00:25:43.840 --> 00:25:50.240 or say that people never noticed me. I'm invisible. I'll always be alone. It's never my turn. 406 00:25:50.240 --> 00:25:56.320 People never noticed me. I'll never depend on a man. These are so good. You all. I never, 407 00:25:56.320 --> 00:26:02.160 I never, sorry. I don't know why I can't read these as fast as very fast tonight. I never will 408 00:26:02.160 --> 00:26:08.400 be picked up because of my weight. Okay. I never meet anyone where there is a mutual interest. 409 00:26:09.200 --> 00:26:14.720 You know what? We're going to hone in on a couple of those because I hear that a lot. You all. Okay. 410 00:26:15.680 --> 00:26:21.040 I want to encourage you actually, before I pass that over, and this can apply to the weight stuff. 411 00:26:21.040 --> 00:26:26.640 It can apply to the mutual interest. Y'all, any of the ones that any of you all put, I want you 412 00:26:26.640 --> 00:26:31.120 to think right now, knowing what you wrote in there and I'll read the others that other people 413 00:26:31.120 --> 00:26:36.480 shared as well. Knowing what you wrote in there, I want you to just ask the Lord right now. And if 414 00:26:36.480 --> 00:26:41.120 nothing comes to you, it's okay. Just, this is how we kind of process. It might percolate up 415 00:26:41.120 --> 00:26:46.000 in your spirit later tonight or tomorrow, but with what you wrote in the chat, 416 00:26:46.400 --> 00:26:49.520 when is the first time you heard that or thought that 417 00:26:52.080 --> 00:26:57.040 was there a situation Lord? I just pray right now, father, that you would just help the ladies to know 418 00:26:57.600 --> 00:27:03.440 when is the first time they had those thoughts? Was there a trauma that happened? Did someone 419 00:27:03.440 --> 00:27:11.040 say something to them and just help them to hear what your spirit is saying and reveal that to them? 420 00:27:11.200 --> 00:27:14.960 And the reason I kind of paused and did that is because this, I'll never meet anyone where 421 00:27:14.960 --> 00:27:20.320 there's a mutual interest. Y'all, I hear this so much, and it's a growing thing that is said. 422 00:27:22.000 --> 00:27:28.000 And I have noticed, and I don't know if this will resonate for you, Nicole, but I have noticed 423 00:27:28.560 --> 00:27:35.200 a common theme with, with people that struggle with this. Somewhere along the way, their dad 424 00:27:35.840 --> 00:27:44.240 were another man in their life. Uncles, teachers, somebody that was influential spoke over them, 425 00:27:45.360 --> 00:27:55.840 that no man would ever want them or something similar to that. I feel the Holy spirit on that. 426 00:27:55.840 --> 00:28:03.280 And because that happened and they were not able to, they were not able to, you know, 427 00:28:03.280 --> 00:28:09.440 and they were not able to process what was said to them by someone that was supposed to keep them 428 00:28:09.440 --> 00:28:18.240 safe. The enemy came in and just swooped right in and they believed the lie. And because of that, 429 00:28:18.240 --> 00:28:24.880 every time they entered a relationship and it didn't work out and the enemy was like, see, 430 00:28:24.880 --> 00:28:30.400 yep, you're never going to find anybody who's interested in you. There's never going to be 431 00:28:30.400 --> 00:28:36.720 mutual interest because do you remember what so-and-so said? No man's ever going to love you. 432 00:28:37.280 --> 00:28:43.120 And it might not always sound like that full of a circle, but a lot of times that stuff is all 433 00:28:43.120 --> 00:28:48.400 in there. And if you, if there was enough pressure applied, it would all come up like a volcano. 434 00:28:49.600 --> 00:28:53.520 So just, this is where it's really important y'all in your healing process to constantly 435 00:28:54.080 --> 00:28:58.320 be talking to the Lord. Help me understand, Lord, where's that coming from? 436 00:28:58.960 --> 00:29:03.440 I believe, and you got to shift. Remember, you got to go all the way revealing for healing cycle. 437 00:29:03.440 --> 00:29:08.240 If y'all weren't on with us last week, if you've just joined this week, I would encourage you to 438 00:29:08.240 --> 00:29:12.240 check out the replay from last Monday. I walked the ladies through the revealing for healing 439 00:29:12.240 --> 00:29:18.560 cycle and how to process that with your own life in your own situations. And at the end of that 440 00:29:18.560 --> 00:29:26.800 cycle is what ladies replace the lies with the truth, right? So we got to know the truth and 441 00:29:26.800 --> 00:29:32.320 not only that, but we have to declare, we have to believe on our own. We might not always feel 442 00:29:32.320 --> 00:29:38.160 the truth or fully believe it, but we partner with the truth and we declare it of ourselves. 443 00:29:38.160 --> 00:29:45.680 So for me in that situation, I would probably start saying, God, I thank you that you're going 444 00:29:45.680 --> 00:29:50.400 to send me a spirit mate. And that when he finds me, he's going to know he is blessed 445 00:29:51.280 --> 00:29:55.360 and we're going to have mutual interest. Praise God. We are going to be excited to 446 00:29:55.360 --> 00:29:59.360 be together and we're going to have a lot of fun traveling together or whatever. 447 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:03.560 whatever it is that you find interesting, 448 00:30:03.560 --> 00:30:07.120 because you and your spirit mate can have mutual interest. 449 00:30:08.880 --> 00:30:11.280 So we have to stop partnering, 450 00:30:11.280 --> 00:30:13.360 which is why we're doing the intervals tonight, 451 00:30:13.360 --> 00:30:15.740 because whether you all realize it or not, 452 00:30:15.740 --> 00:30:18.120 the never statements or always statements 453 00:30:18.120 --> 00:30:21.280 actually are signals to you 454 00:30:21.280 --> 00:30:24.720 that you have an interval somewhere. 455 00:30:25.920 --> 00:30:29.000 So these never and always statements 456 00:30:29.040 --> 00:30:32.440 tend to partner with an intervow and wounds 457 00:30:32.440 --> 00:30:34.720 and lies that you're believing. 458 00:30:34.720 --> 00:30:36.880 So you can start with this statement 459 00:30:36.880 --> 00:30:39.260 that you put in the chat and ask the Lord. 460 00:30:39.260 --> 00:30:42.920 Again, I always say to the people in this group, 461 00:30:42.920 --> 00:30:44.280 pull the thread, okay? 462 00:30:44.280 --> 00:30:45.660 So pull the thread if you're new. 463 00:30:45.660 --> 00:30:48.360 What that means is you start with whatever comes up 464 00:30:48.360 --> 00:30:50.380 and you're like, okay, Lord, I hear you. 465 00:30:50.380 --> 00:30:52.640 I see that memory or I see that statement 466 00:30:52.640 --> 00:30:54.320 that you're revealing tonight. 467 00:30:54.320 --> 00:30:56.880 I see where you want me to come out of alignment with that. 468 00:30:56.880 --> 00:30:58.840 Can you show me where this started 469 00:30:59.680 --> 00:31:00.960 so that I can get healing in the beginning 470 00:31:00.960 --> 00:31:02.320 in that root place? 471 00:31:03.680 --> 00:31:05.760 And you just keep having these kind of conversations 472 00:31:05.760 --> 00:31:06.600 with him. 473 00:31:06.600 --> 00:31:08.000 Okay, I said I was gonna finish reading the other lady, 474 00:31:08.000 --> 00:31:09.480 so I wanna be true to that. 475 00:31:09.480 --> 00:31:11.320 I will never date someone who is unable 476 00:31:11.320 --> 00:31:13.080 to regulate their anger like my dad. 477 00:31:13.080 --> 00:31:16.180 Okay, now that is a good thing, okay? 478 00:31:16.180 --> 00:31:17.800 So this is a good example. 479 00:31:20.120 --> 00:31:22.540 When you all are making, 480 00:31:22.540 --> 00:31:26.320 like working even on the never will I ever list, 481 00:31:26.320 --> 00:31:28.500 y'all, we don't want you to date abusers. 482 00:31:29.360 --> 00:31:31.800 We don't want you to date people that have addictions. 483 00:31:31.800 --> 00:31:33.400 We don't want you to be with people 484 00:31:33.400 --> 00:31:36.160 that have massive anger problems. 485 00:31:36.160 --> 00:31:38.560 Can we all at points struggle with anger? 486 00:31:38.560 --> 00:31:41.600 Yes, okay? 487 00:31:41.600 --> 00:31:43.640 But yes, that is not, 488 00:31:43.640 --> 00:31:47.760 we want you to be with healthy people that can either, 489 00:31:47.760 --> 00:31:49.360 even if they struggle with their anger, 490 00:31:49.360 --> 00:31:51.720 that it's not unruly. 491 00:31:51.720 --> 00:31:53.360 Does that make sense? 492 00:31:53.360 --> 00:31:55.000 Like they're working on it. 493 00:31:55.000 --> 00:31:58.840 They're being accountable to other men in their life 494 00:31:58.840 --> 00:32:00.600 that are gonna love them and support them 495 00:32:00.600 --> 00:32:04.960 and encourage them to really learn how to heal as well. 496 00:32:04.960 --> 00:32:06.560 Okay, so super important. 497 00:32:06.560 --> 00:32:10.480 Okay, let's see, I'm never ready or enough. 498 00:32:10.480 --> 00:32:12.360 It's never my turn. 499 00:32:12.360 --> 00:32:14.480 I'll never be able to discern the right man for me. 500 00:32:14.480 --> 00:32:15.460 I'm never enough. 501 00:32:16.640 --> 00:32:18.800 Men always choose the other girl over me. 502 00:32:18.800 --> 00:32:20.800 Yeah, remember, come out of alignment with this stuff, 503 00:32:20.800 --> 00:32:21.640 ladies. 504 00:32:21.640 --> 00:32:24.520 I never meet someone that could be a potential match. 505 00:32:25.040 --> 00:32:26.680 Okay, so Bethel, yours kind of goes with the one 506 00:32:26.680 --> 00:32:28.040 that I did a little bit ago. 507 00:32:28.040 --> 00:32:29.800 Growing up, I saw my mom suffer. 508 00:32:29.800 --> 00:32:31.320 She had no education, no choice. 509 00:32:31.320 --> 00:32:34.040 I would tell myself I would never rely on a man. 510 00:32:34.040 --> 00:32:36.520 Okay, that's gonna be really huge too, 511 00:32:36.520 --> 00:32:39.640 because there are a lot of men you can rely on. 512 00:32:39.640 --> 00:32:43.360 And so I'm gonna actually encourage Elaine 513 00:32:43.360 --> 00:32:45.760 and anyone else that can relate to that statement. 514 00:32:45.760 --> 00:32:47.680 I will never rely on a man. 515 00:32:47.680 --> 00:32:48.720 Let's see a show of hands. 516 00:32:48.720 --> 00:32:50.960 Who can relate to that statement or resonate? 517 00:32:50.960 --> 00:32:53.160 Like you have said, 518 00:32:53.200 --> 00:32:55.360 do y'all know how to do your digital hands? 519 00:32:56.880 --> 00:32:58.720 Okay, so if you hover over the bottom of your screen, 520 00:32:58.720 --> 00:33:01.720 whether you're on a computer or on your phone, 521 00:33:01.720 --> 00:33:03.840 there's a reactions button, 522 00:33:03.840 --> 00:33:05.480 or you might just see the raise hand. 523 00:33:05.480 --> 00:33:06.560 If you click the raise hand, 524 00:33:06.560 --> 00:33:09.080 it'll let you raise your little digital hand, okay? 525 00:33:09.080 --> 00:33:11.080 Not that you have to, but I just wanna do a little, 526 00:33:11.080 --> 00:33:12.480 like help you guys know what to do. 527 00:33:12.480 --> 00:33:15.720 Okay, so a couple of you can relate to that. 528 00:33:15.720 --> 00:33:19.880 All right, so wanna encourage you to ask the Lord 529 00:33:19.920 --> 00:33:24.920 to show you ways to practice letting men help you. 530 00:33:25.440 --> 00:33:28.240 And all the ladies in this group can do that, okay? 531 00:33:28.240 --> 00:33:30.920 This isn't like, I'm gonna go try to date a man, 532 00:33:30.920 --> 00:33:32.760 but what I wanna encourage you 533 00:33:32.760 --> 00:33:34.480 is just when you're out and about, 534 00:33:35.640 --> 00:33:36.880 if you're at the grocery store 535 00:33:36.880 --> 00:33:38.800 and there's something on the top shelf 536 00:33:38.800 --> 00:33:40.200 and you really can't reach it, 537 00:33:40.200 --> 00:33:41.800 instead of you trying to reach it 538 00:33:41.800 --> 00:33:44.120 and do it all by yourself. 539 00:33:44.120 --> 00:33:45.600 Okay, this assignment's for everyone. 540 00:33:45.600 --> 00:33:46.920 I didn't plan on this activation, 541 00:33:46.920 --> 00:33:48.880 but this is what we're gonna do. 542 00:33:48.920 --> 00:33:50.000 Y'all are gonna be like, 543 00:33:50.000 --> 00:33:55.000 oh, sir, would you mind reaching that for me? 544 00:33:56.080 --> 00:33:58.920 We're gonna practice divine feminine, okay? 545 00:33:58.920 --> 00:34:02.400 Maybe it's when you're going to walk into a restaurant 546 00:34:02.400 --> 00:34:06.480 and normally you would just, you know, hold the door, 547 00:34:06.480 --> 00:34:08.320 but there's a man there and he's offering. 548 00:34:08.320 --> 00:34:11.080 And in the past, you'd be like, oh no, that's okay. 549 00:34:11.080 --> 00:34:13.760 But now you're gonna be like, oh, thank you so much. 550 00:34:13.760 --> 00:34:14.840 That's so kind of you. 551 00:34:14.840 --> 00:34:16.719 And you're gonna smile 552 00:34:16.719 --> 00:34:18.320 and you're gonna let that person hold the door for you. 553 00:34:18.760 --> 00:34:19.600 Whether it's a young boy, 554 00:34:19.600 --> 00:34:22.159 y'all, there are more and more young boys 555 00:34:22.159 --> 00:34:23.719 that their parents are teaching them 556 00:34:23.719 --> 00:34:25.679 how to hold doors for women. 557 00:34:25.679 --> 00:34:29.040 And those boys love when you say thank you so much 558 00:34:29.040 --> 00:34:30.760 and you smile at them. 559 00:34:30.760 --> 00:34:33.440 So do the grown men, okay? 560 00:34:33.440 --> 00:34:34.719 And y'all, there's all different ways. 561 00:34:34.719 --> 00:34:36.960 Some of y'all need help in your houses 562 00:34:36.960 --> 00:34:39.679 and maybe you have a friend that's a guy 563 00:34:39.679 --> 00:34:43.440 or maybe your girlfriend, your best friend's married. 564 00:34:43.440 --> 00:34:45.000 One of the things God led me to do 565 00:34:45.000 --> 00:34:47.480 was ask my best friend's husband, 566 00:34:47.480 --> 00:34:48.920 and this was years ago, 567 00:34:48.920 --> 00:34:51.280 can you come over and hang this cabinet for me 568 00:34:51.280 --> 00:34:52.679 in my bathroom? 569 00:34:53.560 --> 00:34:55.760 Y'all, I could have suffered and struggled through that 570 00:34:55.760 --> 00:34:57.320 and figured that out. 571 00:34:57.320 --> 00:34:59.000 I'm pretty crafty. 572 00:34:59.000 --> 00:34:59.840 I know how to do. 573 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:07.440 ever pretty much kind of, I do, I really kind of do, but I was 574 00:35:07.440 --> 00:35:10.780 out of practice. But it was good practice for me to say, you 575 00:35:10.780 --> 00:35:15.040 know what? He already knows how to do it. Will you come do this 576 00:35:15.040 --> 00:35:19.340 for me? And then one day I went out for work. And y'all my 577 00:35:19.340 --> 00:35:22.100 battery. I don't know what happened to the thing. It was 578 00:35:22.100 --> 00:35:27.660 fine. And then it just went dead. And so I'm so sorry. Can 579 00:35:27.660 --> 00:35:29.860 you come help me like I literally had no way to get to 580 00:35:29.860 --> 00:35:35.580 work. And I felt bad asking, but the Lord was like, don't, don't 581 00:35:35.580 --> 00:35:39.180 feel bad. Let them come help you. And not only did he come 582 00:35:39.180 --> 00:35:43.740 help me, you all, he bought the battery for me. Did I want him 583 00:35:43.740 --> 00:35:47.620 to do that in my flesh? No, I did not. But this was my best 584 00:35:47.620 --> 00:35:51.580 friend's husband. I've known her my whole life. And he's like a 585 00:35:51.580 --> 00:35:57.380 brother to me. And God wanted to use him to bless me. So these 586 00:35:57.380 --> 00:36:00.540 are things you all can practice. Okay. So that's your first 587 00:36:00.540 --> 00:36:02.860 activation. I didn't plan on issuing that tonight, but that's 588 00:36:02.860 --> 00:36:05.740 one of them. And y'all, it's not just this week, let's practice 589 00:36:05.740 --> 00:36:10.660 this ongoing. You will realize how often you know, don't be 590 00:36:10.660 --> 00:36:14.020 carrying your multiple bags out of the grocery store all by 591 00:36:14.020 --> 00:36:19.340 yourself. Let someone help you. You know, the bagpackers, they 592 00:36:19.340 --> 00:36:23.060 still do this in some stores where the guys will be like, do 593 00:36:23.060 --> 00:36:26.100 you want me to help you take that to your car? And in these 594 00:36:26.100 --> 00:36:30.940 days, we're all like, no, I got it. I mean, be careful, 595 00:36:30.940 --> 00:36:35.500 obviously, y'all. Okay, be wise. Do it in public, you know, but 596 00:36:35.500 --> 00:36:39.460 I'm just saying like, let's practice letting men help us. 597 00:36:39.980 --> 00:36:44.540 And even other women at times you all want to help us and 598 00:36:44.540 --> 00:36:49.460 we're like, no, I'm good. Let's practice being helped and 599 00:36:49.460 --> 00:36:53.940 allowing the Lord to come in and open us up to receive. Okay. 600 00:36:54.300 --> 00:36:56.780 All right, people always give up on me and move on potential 601 00:36:56.780 --> 00:37:00.380 friendships. Okay, that Yeah, this is a great example. You can 602 00:37:00.380 --> 00:37:03.460 come out of alignment with that stuff, too. All right, the ones 603 00:37:03.460 --> 00:37:07.940 I like, they never like me back and the ones they like, oh, that 604 00:37:07.940 --> 00:37:12.780 like me, I never like, okay. So same kind of things as I was 605 00:37:12.780 --> 00:37:15.500 saying earlier. Okay, I'm going to stop there. I want to go 606 00:37:15.500 --> 00:37:19.660 ahead and get you all ready for your breakout session. I want 607 00:37:19.660 --> 00:37:23.100 you to go in to the breakouts. And for those that are new, I'll 608 00:37:23.100 --> 00:37:26.220 set up the breakouts. And as soon as I push for y'all to 609 00:37:26.220 --> 00:37:28.740 join, there's going to be a button on your screen that 610 00:37:28.740 --> 00:37:33.100 you'll click to join that room. Okay. When you go in, please 611 00:37:33.100 --> 00:37:35.660 stay engaged. Don't don't if you already have your screen on, 612 00:37:35.660 --> 00:37:39.580 please don't turn your screen off, stay on screen. And if you 613 00:37:39.580 --> 00:37:41.780 don't have your screen on yet, we would encourage you to turn 614 00:37:41.780 --> 00:37:46.020 your screen on and join us and let us see your amazing faces 615 00:37:46.020 --> 00:37:49.340 because it's pretty awesome to see you. Alright, so your 616 00:37:49.340 --> 00:37:51.580 question is, what intervals do you need to come out of 617 00:37:51.580 --> 00:37:55.380 alignment with tonight? Okay. So again, if you don't know what 618 00:37:55.380 --> 00:37:59.420 your interval is yet, start with that always or never statement 619 00:37:59.420 --> 00:38:03.220 that you put in the chat, and just kind of like process it out 620 00:38:03.260 --> 00:38:05.780 loud a little bit with the ladies in your group. Now 621 00:38:05.780 --> 00:38:09.220 remember, ladies, when you go in here, y'all aren't coaches. 622 00:38:09.540 --> 00:38:12.660 You're not counselors here, you're students. So y'all get to 623 00:38:12.660 --> 00:38:15.460 take your helper hats off. Nobody has to give anybody any 624 00:38:15.460 --> 00:38:19.780 advice. This is just everybody's sharing. Yay. Thank you. So I'm 625 00:38:19.780 --> 00:38:22.180 going to practice. Camilla, thank you so much for sharing 626 00:38:22.180 --> 00:38:26.060 that. You know, we just support each other, basically is what 627 00:38:26.060 --> 00:38:30.380 I'm saying. You understand? All right, cool. We just do that so 628 00:38:30.380 --> 00:38:33.580 that people don't worry about when they share that people are 629 00:38:33.580 --> 00:38:37.420 going to try to fix them and all kinds of stuff. And it's good 630 00:38:37.420 --> 00:38:42.180 for y'all to practice just receiving. Alright, so I am 631 00:38:42.180 --> 00:38:48.100 going to do our 839. All right, seven minutes, you all. I talked 632 00:38:48.100 --> 00:38:51.980 too long. All right, there you go. Breakout rooms, go ahead and 633 00:38:51.980 --> 00:38:57.020 click to join those. We'll be praying for you all. If anybody 634 00:38:57.020 --> 00:38:59.420 is at work, and you're not able to join, please put that in the 635 00:38:59.420 --> 00:39:04.380 chat just so I can see it. I think everyone is able so far 636 00:39:04.380 --> 00:39:22.180 tonight. Okay. So I have Michelle, Shelly, Emily and 637 00:39:22.180 --> 00:39:30.140 Lena, are you all able to join those rooms? All right, I'm 638 00:39:30.140 --> 00:39:38.060 gonna go ahead. Okay, cool. So I'm just making sure for those 639 00:39:38.060 --> 00:39:41.060 on here still making sure that they're able to get into their 640 00:39:41.060 --> 00:39:48.380 rooms. All right, very good. Christy W, did you get bumped 641 00:39:48.380 --> 00:39:53.980 out? Oh, maybe she's jumped on. All right, Father, thank you so 642 00:39:53.980 --> 00:39:56.460 much for everything you're doing tonight. God, thank you for 643 00:39:56.460 --> 00:39:59.140 revealing for healing. We thank you God that you would give the 644 00:39:59.140 --> 00:39:59.980 ladies wisdom. 645 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:06.380 Insight right now into the areas where there's intervals where there needs to be healing where there needs to be freedom God 646 00:40:06.380 --> 00:40:13.200 We thank you that you would just open up the prison gates and set the caps of captives free 647 00:40:13.380 --> 00:40:17.640 God that you would help them just where there's blinders and filters and 648 00:40:18.000 --> 00:40:23.820 Counterfeit identities that have been made out of wounds of the past God. We thank you for revealing for healing 649 00:40:23.820 --> 00:40:28.380 We thank you for truth. We thank you for hope. We thank you that you can take all things 650 00:40:28.740 --> 00:40:32.540 That have happened in our lives and turn it all around for good when we give it to you 651 00:40:33.180 --> 00:40:35.180 So we just thank you 652 00:40:35.520 --> 00:40:40.300 For the reminder that you are the Potter and we are the clay and that you are 653 00:40:40.860 --> 00:40:46.060 Making us into new vessels. We thank you God that you're healing us from the inside out God that you're 654 00:40:48.000 --> 00:40:55.340 Yeah, restoring us from the foundations of the world God that just even in the days that you created us and you formed us 655 00:40:55.340 --> 00:40:56.700 out of 656 00:40:56.700 --> 00:41:01.940 The earth we thank you God that you're healing and restoring redeeming. Hi, Diana. Did you get kicked out? 657 00:41:09.860 --> 00:41:15.380 Olena it's okay. You're it's okay. If you're not able to go into break out. You can just hang out here with me, Diana 658 00:41:15.380 --> 00:41:21.940 I don't know if you can hear me. I see that you're in the room here, and I don't know if you got kicked out of 659 00:41:21.940 --> 00:41:26.020 Oh, I think you're trying to connect your audio I have a feeling 660 00:41:31.060 --> 00:41:33.060 Where did I just see your name at 661 00:41:37.740 --> 00:41:39.340 Okay 662 00:41:39.340 --> 00:41:43.860 If you can put it in the chat for me, that'll probably be easier if you're having a hard time with audio 663 00:41:43.860 --> 00:41:47.580 I I'm thinking you might be struggling with audio tonight 664 00:41:47.580 --> 00:41:52.700 With audio tonight. All right, father. Thank you. If there's any technology issues God 665 00:41:52.700 --> 00:41:56.340 I thank you that you'll help them to figure all those things out 666 00:41:57.860 --> 00:42:03.740 All right, Michelle, did you get kicked out are people getting kicked out of rooms? I'm just wondering what's happening 667 00:42:05.620 --> 00:42:07.620 You can unmute sweetie 668 00:42:08.620 --> 00:42:10.620 You 669 00:42:12.060 --> 00:42:19.700 Sarah did you get kicked out? Um, I had to leave because it wasn't working on my phone, but now I'm on computer 670 00:42:20.140 --> 00:42:22.340 Okay, what do you know? What room you were in? 671 00:42:22.860 --> 00:42:23.940 um 672 00:42:23.940 --> 00:42:26.260 with the one with Laurie la you are I 673 00:42:29.420 --> 00:42:32.740 Okay, number seven. All right, cool. Thank you 674 00:42:33.660 --> 00:42:37.180 Welcome. Thanks. Okay. All right 675 00:42:37.620 --> 00:42:41.700 I'm gonna keep praying and we'll see if you guys get situated 676 00:42:43.300 --> 00:42:49.180 So father we just thank you I love this scripture Psalm 119 verse 76 and it says 677 00:42:49.860 --> 00:42:56.100 Send your kind mercy kiss to comfort me your servant just like you promised you would oh 678 00:42:56.220 --> 00:42:59.540 You were trying to get video Diana. Okay 679 00:43:00.420 --> 00:43:04.180 Do you know how to tap on the bottom of your screen and 680 00:43:04.500 --> 00:43:08.500 Like if you're on your phone or your computer, there's an area that says video 681 00:43:09.620 --> 00:43:16.660 If you click on that that should turn your video on if your phone has video capability or computer 682 00:43:17.220 --> 00:43:21.460 And sometimes people's phones depending on what kind they are or their computers 683 00:43:22.900 --> 00:43:26.740 You might have to do the settings before you jump on zoom 684 00:43:26.740 --> 00:43:31.220 But sometimes that can be the tricky part Michelle if you're ready I can put you back into the room you were in 685 00:43:32.500 --> 00:43:37.140 I don't know if I remember which one though, and I don't want you to miss out on much more time 686 00:43:37.140 --> 00:43:39.140 So I might just put you in a room. Okay. Okay 687 00:43:40.020 --> 00:43:42.020 Awesome. You're welcome. Thank you 688 00:43:42.660 --> 00:43:44.660 All right, that's there for you 689 00:43:46.260 --> 00:43:48.260 All right 690 00:43:49.300 --> 00:43:52.500 So as I was looking at this scripture what stood out to me was 691 00:43:52.820 --> 00:43:54.420 Um 692 00:43:54.420 --> 00:43:57.940 so as I was looking at this scripture what stood out to me is that send your 693 00:43:58.580 --> 00:44:04.580 Kind mercy kiss to comfort me and I just believe that even last week as we talked in this session. So many of us don't 694 00:44:05.220 --> 00:44:09.860 Believe deep down that god is good because of the things that we have gone through and some of us are 695 00:44:10.000 --> 00:44:12.740 Conditioned because we've been raised in church. We've been around a church 696 00:44:13.220 --> 00:44:18.660 Been around church for a long time that we're just like yeah, god's good and we believe that but deep down 697 00:44:19.540 --> 00:44:23.140 There are lies that we're believing that cause us to partner with 698 00:44:23.940 --> 00:44:27.300 The lie that god isn't good. And so as I think about this 699 00:44:28.820 --> 00:44:31.620 God sending his kind mercy kiss to comfort us 700 00:44:32.180 --> 00:44:37.380 can you imagine like what comes to mind is just like when you're a kid and you scrape your knee and your 701 00:44:37.940 --> 00:44:39.940 parents like you know 702 00:44:40.100 --> 00:44:42.500 Uh, I don't know if y'all ever saw those boo-boo bunnies 703 00:44:42.500 --> 00:44:45.220 I don't even know if they still have them but that comes to mind too like 704 00:44:45.620 --> 00:44:52.420 You know, we have all these things in our in our world in our society that parents or people have used to comfort their kids 705 00:44:52.420 --> 00:44:54.520 When they get hurt, you know bandages 706 00:44:55.060 --> 00:44:59.940 Um, you know the knee is foreign the cleaning but kissing the boo-boo 707 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.320 is what was coming to mind for me. And that's what made me think of the boo-boo bunny as well. 708 00:45:04.320 --> 00:45:12.160 There's the, like, it's a comforting thing, um, for, um, people to feel that tender mercy coming 709 00:45:12.160 --> 00:45:18.320 from someone who loves them. And that is the way that God, the father loves us. Like he wants to 710 00:45:18.320 --> 00:45:24.640 come in and just have that intimate, like, I love you. And I want to kiss this not in a weird way, 711 00:45:24.640 --> 00:45:30.480 but like, like a fatherly motherly want to kiss this hurting part. And I want it to go away. I 712 00:45:30.480 --> 00:45:37.040 want it to heal. I want it to be mended. And I want you to be restored even to even greater than 713 00:45:37.040 --> 00:45:42.800 you were before you ever experienced trauma or brokenness. And so, Lord, we just thank you for 714 00:45:42.800 --> 00:45:49.040 being that kind of dad and that you really do love us at all times and all seasons and 715 00:45:49.040 --> 00:45:55.920 unconditionally completely in every way. God, you're for us. You're not against us. And I 716 00:45:55.920 --> 00:46:02.320 thank you that we fight for victory, um, or from victory, not for victory. Excuse me. 717 00:46:02.320 --> 00:46:08.720 The victories already won. Um, Psalm one three says he will be standing firm, like a flourishing 718 00:46:08.720 --> 00:46:14.800 tree planted by God's design, deeply rooted by the Brooks of bliss bearing fruit in every season of 719 00:46:14.800 --> 00:46:21.600 his life. He is never dry, never fainting, ever blessed, ever prosperous. God, I thank you that we, 720 00:46:22.880 --> 00:46:30.080 we shall be like this tree that is planted by your design, that we will become deeply rooted 721 00:46:30.960 --> 00:46:37.440 next to Brooks of bliss. God, that it would be like a river of living water flowing up into us, 722 00:46:37.440 --> 00:46:43.280 out of us, through us. God, that as we, you know, become more and more whole, that your glory would 723 00:46:43.280 --> 00:46:50.640 be like a radiance, um, on our faces. I was reading this week, you all about Moses and how 724 00:46:50.640 --> 00:46:57.040 when Moses went up onto the mountain and he spent time with God, when he came down from the mountain, 725 00:46:57.920 --> 00:47:04.560 his face was radiant. And I was thinking about man, like how much, like, if we just go, if we 726 00:47:04.560 --> 00:47:10.800 went up to the mountain, so to speak, and we spent just such a closeness with God that our face was 727 00:47:10.800 --> 00:47:15.840 radiant, like how much we would be changed on the inside. So you all caught part of that, but I was 728 00:47:15.840 --> 00:47:20.800 talking about Moses. If you, if you go and check out that story, I believe God wants to make us 729 00:47:20.800 --> 00:47:27.680 radiant in the same way as he heals us and restores us to even greater than we were before we were 730 00:47:27.680 --> 00:47:34.640 broken. Okay, radiance comes from the Father. All right, who is willing to share with the whole group 731 00:47:34.640 --> 00:47:37.040 what you shared in your private breakout group? 732 00:47:42.560 --> 00:47:44.480 Mackenzie, I'd love to have you share. Go ahead. 733 00:47:46.960 --> 00:47:55.200 Hi, um, two things, um, that I will never date or marry a pastor. That's a thing. And then people 734 00:47:55.200 --> 00:48:00.560 are like, really? Because I see you marry a pastor. And I, every time I'm like, I would never date or 735 00:48:00.560 --> 00:48:07.360 marry a pastor. So I got to come out of agreement with that. And then I will never date or marry a 736 00:48:07.360 --> 00:48:13.600 Jake, because my sister has dated two or three Jakes, and they've all been bad. And then I've 737 00:48:13.600 --> 00:48:19.200 dated two Jakes, and it was really bad. And so that was something that I need to come out of 738 00:48:19.200 --> 00:48:25.120 agreement with. Yeah, and you all, not to not to make it too kooky, but sometimes too, when we 739 00:48:25.120 --> 00:48:29.920 partner with this kind of stuff, it can actually attract those kind of unhealthy people to us with 740 00:48:29.920 --> 00:48:33.600 those names. It's kind of intriguing, but it really can happen. We don't have to be afraid of 741 00:48:33.600 --> 00:48:39.280 it. We just need to be aware when we see patterns and cycles like that happening that y'all that's 742 00:48:39.280 --> 00:48:44.960 when we're, we need, we should be like, God, this is weird. Why do you think that are unhealthy? 743 00:48:44.960 --> 00:48:50.320 Keep being attracted to my sister or myself or whatever. And he'll, he'll start to, you know, 744 00:48:50.320 --> 00:48:54.720 God's always talking. Sometimes it's just, we have to learn how he's talking to us. Everybody 745 00:48:54.720 --> 00:49:00.480 hears differently y'all. Okay. So if you hear someone else talking, even myself, like, Hey, 746 00:49:00.480 --> 00:49:05.440 I heard God say this, or God was showing me this. Don't get discouraged. If you don't hear God in 747 00:49:05.440 --> 00:49:11.120 that same way in this season, you might hear God differently, or you might be in your season of 748 00:49:11.120 --> 00:49:16.640 growing to know if, or when God is talking to you and how he is. Okay. So I'd like to plug that. 749 00:49:17.200 --> 00:49:24.800 Um, so Mackenzie on this, um, I'm curious why don't you ever want to marry or date a pastor 750 00:49:24.800 --> 00:49:31.120 is like, did this start from seeing something happen that was hard or where did that start for 751 00:49:31.120 --> 00:49:38.880 you? Um, I think even my parents were not pastors, but they were the same type of, uh, 752 00:49:39.680 --> 00:49:45.360 like role in the church that I grew up in. And so that was, that was a big thing of seeing 753 00:49:45.360 --> 00:49:52.720 the negative impacts on the children actually is part of it. So I have thought like, I don't want 754 00:49:52.720 --> 00:49:59.760 to, um, put that on my kids. And then, um, that's part of it. And then also just. 755 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:06.660 the, and this is going to set, this is like really honest, but I like to live a bougie 756 00:50:06.660 --> 00:50:12.900 life and I feel like they don't always get paid very well. So that's a real moment, but 757 00:50:12.900 --> 00:50:13.900 yeah. 758 00:50:13.900 --> 00:50:19.200 Hey, and I love this because I think this is what's really important. You all, we have 759 00:50:19.200 --> 00:50:24.720 to get really real with ourselves because I'm not saying that God is going to send 760 00:50:24.720 --> 00:50:30.540 you someone that's a pastor. Okay. We don't know. You will know when the day comes, but 761 00:50:30.540 --> 00:50:37.620 what I am going to say to you and to everyone else here is if we have these lists, what 762 00:50:37.620 --> 00:50:44.660 if God actually has an amazing person packaged with all kinds of incredible gifts, they'll 763 00:50:44.660 --> 00:50:48.900 treat you amazing, but they're a pastor or they're in ministry. 764 00:50:48.900 --> 00:50:54.420 And so you're just like, I'm not going to talk to him, you know? So it's where we surrender 765 00:50:54.420 --> 00:51:00.420 that pen to the Lord and just really ask God to lead us to the spirit mate that is 766 00:51:00.420 --> 00:51:08.020 the best for us. Okay. And then on the bougie thing, here's what I'm going to say about 767 00:51:08.020 --> 00:51:19.340 that. I don't disagree. Okay. In some places and some, it is, it is hard. Okay. Cause especially 768 00:51:19.340 --> 00:51:23.380 a smaller church, they might not have a lot of budget and all that, but here's, here's 769 00:51:23.380 --> 00:51:29.120 my honest thing that God had to really shift me out of that because I used to be terrified 770 00:51:29.120 --> 00:51:35.180 of the same thing years ago when I was actually pursuing my ministry credentials, we, we, 771 00:51:35.180 --> 00:51:39.140 we went to a pastor's house. This was when I was married before. And there was a hole 772 00:51:39.140 --> 00:51:43.660 in the person's floor in the kitchen. And I just was like, I don't ever want to live 773 00:51:43.660 --> 00:51:50.620 like that. So I just want you to know, it's a very human thing to like our nice stuff. 774 00:51:51.220 --> 00:51:57.080 Can we let go of this stuff in this world? Yeah, we can. We can. Will it, would it be 775 00:51:57.080 --> 00:52:01.900 hard at times? Yeah. For some, it'll be harder than others, but I think it's good for us 776 00:52:01.900 --> 00:52:05.820 to get to the place where we're just open. But the other thing I wanted to say that I 777 00:52:05.820 --> 00:52:12.180 think is really good. And I think this will stretch a lot of people. What if God teaches 778 00:52:12.180 --> 00:52:18.940 you and your former, like your spirit mate that was coming on the way, how to invest 779 00:52:18.980 --> 00:52:23.900 your money. And you guys are really good stewards with the money that you have. And you end 780 00:52:23.900 --> 00:52:29.220 up having more money than other people that have really bougie jobs. You know, I think 781 00:52:29.220 --> 00:52:35.300 it's a mindset shift ladies. Okay. So we got it. We have to just really, really surrender 782 00:52:35.300 --> 00:52:43.020 all these things that hinder us from just being wide open to receive. Okay. All right. 783 00:52:43.020 --> 00:52:46.860 Awesome. Share. I love it. I love when you guys get real and transparent. It's good. 784 00:52:46.860 --> 00:52:56.180 All right, Maria, go ahead. This beautiful girl in my group, she said that she, she was 785 00:52:56.180 --> 00:53:04.460 afraid of guys seeing that she was weird. And that, that kind of made me realize that 786 00:53:04.460 --> 00:53:11.300 I had that fear too. I have that fear. And I used to be like very much like that where 787 00:53:11.300 --> 00:53:18.460 I met my late husband, but then I remembered that he was hot and he was weird like me, 788 00:53:18.460 --> 00:53:27.420 but he was still hot. And then I realized like, I'm also hot. Oh, kind of cute. So it 789 00:53:27.420 --> 00:53:34.420 doesn't mean that. Oh yeah. And I'm really weird. Like I'm not. So tell me this is important. 790 00:53:34.420 --> 00:53:42.140 What does weird mean? What does that mean to you? I attend a church where they are not 791 00:53:42.140 --> 00:53:50.180 that much into the supernatural. So I have to kind of dump it down and are into the supernatural 792 00:53:50.180 --> 00:53:56.060 or they're not kind of, not really. I just couldn't hear what you said. Not really. Very 793 00:53:56.060 --> 00:54:03.260 little. Yeah. Okay. That's okay. And also I, the things I like, I guess I'm too much 794 00:54:03.300 --> 00:54:11.740 of a reader of a library mouse. How do you say it in English? I read too much. I'm studying 795 00:54:11.740 --> 00:54:22.020 all the time and I found someone like me and that was nice, but I don't see too many people 796 00:54:22.020 --> 00:54:29.420 like him around anymore. So since he, yeah, bookworm. Yeah, that I'm that. So I don't 797 00:54:29.420 --> 00:54:36.140 see a lot of people like him anymore around me. And when some guys start trying to kind 798 00:54:36.140 --> 00:54:42.460 of hit on me, I say like, I'm thinking like, yeah, if they knew how weird I am and how 799 00:54:42.460 --> 00:54:51.020 boring they are really to me that this is not going to go well. So, but then I realized 800 00:54:51.020 --> 00:54:56.300 that there are also other people like me that believe they are like bookworms too. And they 801 00:54:56.300 --> 00:54:59.980 feel they are like really weird and they expect to find someone like me. 802 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:06.000 Is it like I would like someone I could really, really talk to? 803 00:55:06.000 --> 00:55:10.000 How many people think that you're weird? 804 00:55:10.000 --> 00:55:12.000 We're going to dive into this a little bit tonight. 805 00:55:12.000 --> 00:55:13.000 Oh, hands up. 806 00:55:13.000 --> 00:55:14.000 Let's see it. 807 00:55:14.000 --> 00:55:15.000 My father, my mother. 808 00:55:15.000 --> 00:55:16.000 Oh, no. 809 00:55:16.000 --> 00:55:17.000 Hold on. 810 00:55:17.000 --> 00:55:18.000 Okay. 811 00:55:18.000 --> 00:55:19.000 Wait, Maria, hold that thought for a minute. 812 00:55:19.000 --> 00:55:21.000 I'm going to go into that with you in a minute. 813 00:55:21.000 --> 00:55:25.000 I want to see how many people in this in this live session tonight. 814 00:55:26.000 --> 00:55:31.000 You believe the lie that you are weird. 815 00:55:31.000 --> 00:55:36.000 Are there more? 816 00:55:36.000 --> 00:55:37.000 Okay. 817 00:55:37.000 --> 00:55:38.000 This is where we're going. 818 00:55:38.000 --> 00:55:41.000 I knew God was going to do something that I didn't have planned. 819 00:55:41.000 --> 00:55:43.000 We're going to go into this a little bit tonight. 820 00:55:43.000 --> 00:55:44.000 Okay. 821 00:55:44.000 --> 00:55:47.000 I want you to keep your hands up for me because I want to see all of 822 00:55:47.000 --> 00:55:49.000 you right where I can see them. 823 00:55:49.000 --> 00:55:51.000 Okay. 824 00:55:52.000 --> 00:55:53.000 Okay. 825 00:55:53.000 --> 00:55:54.000 So, 826 00:55:54.000 --> 00:55:58.000 so the question is how quirky can go along with that? 827 00:55:58.000 --> 00:56:03.000 If you think quirky is a negative thing. 828 00:56:03.000 --> 00:56:05.000 And Laurie says something interesting here. I don't think it's a lie. 829 00:56:05.000 --> 00:56:10.000 I love being weird. Okay. Well, maybe, but here's the thing. 830 00:56:10.000 --> 00:56:13.000 Do y'all know that that's also a self-protection mechanism right 831 00:56:13.000 --> 00:56:14.000 there? 832 00:56:14.000 --> 00:56:15.000 Working at its finest. 833 00:56:15.000 --> 00:56:16.000 Okay. 834 00:56:16.000 --> 00:56:18.000 And here's why I'm saying this. 835 00:56:19.000 --> 00:56:26.000 Okay. 836 00:56:26.000 --> 00:56:36.000 Who told you that liking to read books was weird? 837 00:56:36.000 --> 00:56:37.000 I know this is such a simple thing, 838 00:56:37.000 --> 00:56:39.000 but we need to talk about this because this is really important. 839 00:56:39.000 --> 00:56:41.000 I'm wanting to, I want to talk to you a little bit. 840 00:56:41.000 --> 00:56:47.000 About. 841 00:56:47.000 --> 00:56:48.000 Okay. 842 00:56:48.000 --> 00:56:49.000 So, 843 00:56:49.000 --> 00:56:52.000 so the first thing that I'm going to say is that not only did they 844 00:56:52.000 --> 00:56:54.000 not like to read books, 845 00:56:54.000 --> 00:56:56.000 but they didn't know how to cope with it. 846 00:56:56.000 --> 00:56:57.000 And funnily enough, 847 00:56:57.000 --> 00:57:00.000 they thought they were weird because they liked to read books a lot 848 00:57:00.000 --> 00:57:01.000 too, when they were younger. 849 00:57:01.000 --> 00:57:03.000 Well, when we kept unpacking it more. 850 00:57:03.000 --> 00:57:06.000 You all what happened is when they went through trauma and I'm not 851 00:57:06.000 --> 00:57:08.000 saying everybody is like this. Okay. 852 00:57:08.000 --> 00:57:09.000 But I'm just giving you an example. 853 00:57:09.000 --> 00:57:13.000 When they went through trauma, when they were very little. 854 00:57:13.000 --> 00:57:15.000 And they didn't know how to cope with it. 855 00:57:15.000 --> 00:57:17.000 And it wasn't just that they didn't know how to cope with it. 856 00:57:17.000 --> 00:57:19.000 It was because they felt like there was a problem. 857 00:57:19.000 --> 00:57:21.000 And so it's not just that they didn't know how to cope with it. 858 00:57:21.000 --> 00:57:22.000 It's that they felt like they were, 859 00:57:22.000 --> 00:57:24.000 they felt like they were in a room and reading all the time. 860 00:57:24.000 --> 00:57:26.000 Again, I'm not saying this is why everyone, 861 00:57:26.000 --> 00:57:29.000 I think there are just genuine people who love to read and it doesn't 862 00:57:29.000 --> 00:57:30.000 have to be because of trauma. Okay. 863 00:57:30.000 --> 00:57:33.000 There's there's multiple reasons why, but some of you. 864 00:57:33.000 --> 00:57:37.000 Because you turn to that and someone criticized it or made fun of 865 00:57:37.000 --> 00:57:38.000 you. 866 00:57:38.000 --> 00:57:39.000 Somewhere. 867 00:57:39.000 --> 00:57:40.000 In your path. 868 00:57:40.000 --> 00:57:42.000 You have now partnered with. 869 00:57:42.000 --> 00:57:43.000 I am weird. 870 00:57:43.000 --> 00:57:45.000 And then you tell yourself, well, I love that. I'm weird. 871 00:57:45.000 --> 00:57:48.000 I don't care if people think I'm weird because somewhere along the way, 872 00:57:48.000 --> 00:57:49.000 someone actually hurt you. 873 00:57:49.000 --> 00:57:52.000 And the only way for you to protect yourself was to tell yourself that. 874 00:57:52.000 --> 00:57:58.000 I feel the Holy spirit on this. 875 00:57:58.000 --> 00:58:00.000 So I know some people are going to get set free. 876 00:58:00.000 --> 00:58:02.000 So I want to start to talk about this a little bit more. 877 00:58:02.000 --> 00:58:04.000 I want you to start putting in the chat. 878 00:58:04.000 --> 00:58:06.000 And Maria, you can tell us out loud. 879 00:58:06.000 --> 00:58:12.000 Who told you that you were weird. 880 00:58:13.000 --> 00:58:14.000 My mom. 881 00:58:14.000 --> 00:58:15.000 My mom. 882 00:58:15.000 --> 00:58:17.000 Go ahead and put that in the chat for me and Maria, 883 00:58:17.000 --> 00:58:19.000 you can share out loud for us. 884 00:58:19.000 --> 00:58:21.000 Who was the first person that you remember? 885 00:58:21.000 --> 00:58:22.000 Saying you were weird. 886 00:58:22.000 --> 00:58:23.000 My mother. 887 00:58:23.000 --> 00:58:25.000 My father, my siblings. 888 00:58:25.000 --> 00:58:27.000 Okay. Tell me why. 889 00:58:27.000 --> 00:58:30.000 The rest of my family. 890 00:58:30.000 --> 00:58:37.000 I think we live by a different set of values, I guess. 891 00:58:37.000 --> 00:58:39.000 Was there a certain situation though, 892 00:58:40.000 --> 00:58:41.000 that made you feel weird? 893 00:58:41.000 --> 00:58:44.000 I don't know. 894 00:58:44.000 --> 00:58:47.000 They're like very, very, very social. 895 00:58:47.000 --> 00:58:49.000 And I'm not really that social. 896 00:58:49.000 --> 00:58:53.000 And. 897 00:58:53.000 --> 00:58:55.000 Yeah. 898 00:58:55.000 --> 00:59:02.000 Yeah. 899 00:59:02.000 --> 00:59:05.000 They always said like, I'm kind of too intellectual or something. 900 00:59:05.000 --> 00:59:07.000 I guess. 901 00:59:08.000 --> 00:59:09.000 Yeah. 902 00:59:09.000 --> 00:59:11.000 I was sexually abused. 903 00:59:11.000 --> 00:59:13.000 Like three times when I was a little girl. 904 00:59:13.000 --> 00:59:14.000 So. 905 00:59:14.000 --> 00:59:19.000 I was sexually abused. 906 00:59:19.000 --> 00:59:21.000 Like three times when I was a little girl. 907 00:59:21.000 --> 00:59:25.000 So social situations seemed like dangerous to. 908 00:59:25.000 --> 00:59:27.000 Okay. 909 00:59:27.000 --> 00:59:29.000 Do you see why this is. 910 00:59:29.000 --> 00:59:32.000 Can you all see what's happening here? 911 00:59:32.000 --> 00:59:36.000 I hope everyone's kind of dialed into this. 912 00:59:36.000 --> 00:59:37.000 I don't know. 913 00:59:37.000 --> 00:59:43.000 I don't know what you're seeing. It's always this stuff you all. 914 00:59:43.000 --> 00:59:44.000 But do you want to know what's interesting? 915 00:59:44.000 --> 00:59:46.000 This other woman that I was coaching about this. 916 00:59:46.000 --> 00:59:49.000 She also was sexually abused. 917 00:59:49.000 --> 00:59:54.000 And felt like she was weird. 918 00:59:54.000 --> 00:59:56.000 Because she read books a lot and people, kids, 919 00:59:56.000 --> 01:00:02.000 her parents didn't make fun of her. 920 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.080 Like they were worried that she was shutting people out. 921 01:00:02.000 --> 01:00:03.000 Her parents were worried about her. 922 01:00:03.080 --> 01:00:05.820 And so their concern and worry kind of added pressure, 923 01:00:05.820 --> 01:00:07.340 which they didn't mean to, 924 01:00:07.340 --> 01:00:10.960 but then kids at school were making fun of her. 925 01:00:13.540 --> 01:00:15.300 And so this is how the enemy comes in. 926 01:00:15.300 --> 01:00:19.480 And so here's what we're gonna do with this. 927 01:00:19.480 --> 01:00:21.340 I really want you all to really, 928 01:00:21.340 --> 01:00:23.100 those of you, especially that have your hands up, 929 01:00:23.100 --> 01:00:25.180 and maybe for those of you that don't have your hands up, 930 01:00:25.180 --> 01:00:28.180 maybe yours wasn't someone saying you're weird. 931 01:00:28.200 --> 01:00:30.480 Maybe yours was someone said you were fat. 932 01:00:30.480 --> 01:00:33.080 Maybe someone said you were too short. 933 01:00:33.080 --> 01:00:38.080 Maybe whatever someone labeled you as that was negative, 934 01:00:38.160 --> 01:00:41.480 I want you to start writing that stuff on your paper, 935 01:00:41.480 --> 01:00:43.480 because this is the stuff God wants to help you 936 01:00:43.480 --> 01:00:45.000 be set free from this week. 937 01:00:50.440 --> 01:00:53.680 So sometimes what can happen 938 01:00:54.540 --> 01:00:59.540 is people, when they don't know how to handle the trauma, 939 01:01:00.460 --> 01:01:01.300 even adults, 940 01:01:01.300 --> 01:01:03.020 when they don't know how to help their kids 941 01:01:03.020 --> 01:01:05.620 process what happened, 942 01:01:05.620 --> 01:01:08.740 and they fear that their kid is isolating 943 01:01:08.740 --> 01:01:10.380 and they're going into the books 944 01:01:10.380 --> 01:01:12.920 and they're not engaging like the other kids, 945 01:01:14.100 --> 01:01:16.700 instead of knowing what to do with that. 946 01:01:16.700 --> 01:01:18.420 And again, I'm not saying it's okay, 947 01:01:18.420 --> 01:01:20.700 but like I have compassion for those parents too, 948 01:01:20.720 --> 01:01:22.480 because y'all sometimes, 949 01:01:22.480 --> 01:01:26.120 even my spiritual daughters, 950 01:01:26.120 --> 01:01:30.120 they're 21 and soon to be 19 this week. 951 01:01:30.120 --> 01:01:32.680 And sometimes I'm like, man, 952 01:01:32.680 --> 01:01:34.800 like, what are you doing with your life? 953 01:01:34.800 --> 01:01:36.280 I mean, I don't always say that to them, 954 01:01:36.280 --> 01:01:39.580 but just, you know, it's hard as a parent to navigate 955 01:01:39.580 --> 01:01:41.960 when you know why they're making decisions 956 01:01:41.960 --> 01:01:42.800 that they're making, 957 01:01:42.800 --> 01:01:46.160 but it's still really hard to see them doing that. 958 01:01:46.160 --> 01:01:48.520 And when they're younger, again, 959 01:01:48.520 --> 01:01:50.040 how did the parents navigate it? 960 01:01:50.060 --> 01:01:52.980 Can we forgive those that said that stuff to us? 961 01:01:52.980 --> 01:01:56.140 I think that's gonna be a key part of this for all of you, 962 01:01:56.140 --> 01:01:58.740 forgiving the people that said this stuff to you, 963 01:01:58.740 --> 01:02:00.580 but I really wanna encourage you all 964 01:02:00.580 --> 01:02:03.380 to come out of partnership and agreement 965 01:02:03.380 --> 01:02:06.320 and alignment with that you're weird, 966 01:02:07.440 --> 01:02:08.380 because you're not. 967 01:02:11.580 --> 01:02:13.160 Okay. 968 01:02:13.160 --> 01:02:16.420 Y'all, I was different than the other people in my family. 969 01:02:16.420 --> 01:02:19.880 I used to go sit out in the yard and just like draw. 970 01:02:21.200 --> 01:02:22.720 I don't know if my family called me weird. 971 01:02:22.720 --> 01:02:25.120 I remember feeling like an outsider 972 01:02:25.120 --> 01:02:27.840 and I was really different from my family 973 01:02:27.840 --> 01:02:32.560 and I was creative and all these things. 974 01:02:32.560 --> 01:02:34.460 And out of all of my family, 975 01:02:34.460 --> 01:02:38.360 I was the only one that told about the abuse. 976 01:02:38.360 --> 01:02:41.480 So then I was labeled even more as like the outsider, 977 01:02:41.480 --> 01:02:43.920 didn't get invited to my oldest brother's wedding. 978 01:02:43.920 --> 01:02:45.280 All of my family was invited. 979 01:02:45.280 --> 01:02:47.100 Nobody stood up for me. 980 01:02:47.100 --> 01:02:50.460 Y'all, there's, of course, did I feel weird? 981 01:02:50.460 --> 01:02:52.020 Yes, I did. 982 01:02:52.020 --> 01:02:53.220 I felt like an outsider. 983 01:02:53.220 --> 01:02:54.220 I felt forgotten. 984 01:02:54.220 --> 01:02:55.880 It was broken, rejection. 985 01:02:55.880 --> 01:02:57.720 I mean, so many things, you name it. 986 01:02:58.620 --> 01:03:00.620 But here's the thing. 987 01:03:00.620 --> 01:03:03.360 God kept saying, you're chosen. 988 01:03:03.360 --> 01:03:04.420 You're mine. 989 01:03:04.420 --> 01:03:05.800 You're beloved. 990 01:03:05.800 --> 01:03:07.020 You're beautiful. 991 01:03:07.020 --> 01:03:09.220 You're fearfully and wonderfully made. 992 01:03:09.220 --> 01:03:11.160 He didn't make mistakes, you all. 993 01:03:12.140 --> 01:03:15.180 And so now trauma, when it entered, 994 01:03:15.180 --> 01:03:17.580 that did cause that fissure in those fractions. 995 01:03:17.580 --> 01:03:19.780 And so we can ask and invite the Lord 996 01:03:19.780 --> 01:03:22.080 to come into those areas again, 997 01:03:22.980 --> 01:03:26.340 or new areas that are getting revealed to you 998 01:03:26.340 --> 01:03:27.640 and ask for more healing. 999 01:03:27.640 --> 01:03:29.460 But I really, sincerely, y'all, 1000 01:03:29.460 --> 01:03:31.860 I don't want you saying over yourselves anymore 1001 01:03:31.860 --> 01:03:32.940 that you're weird. 1002 01:03:32.940 --> 01:03:34.620 Okay, remember this, I love you. 1003 01:03:34.620 --> 01:03:36.340 And so I'm saying this out of love. 1004 01:03:36.340 --> 01:03:38.940 I don't want you to say out loud over yourselves anymore, 1005 01:03:38.940 --> 01:03:41.200 I'm weird, or I'm so stupid. 1006 01:03:41.200 --> 01:03:42.400 Maybe that's some of you. 1007 01:03:42.400 --> 01:03:44.200 Maybe that's what you tell yourself. 1008 01:03:47.060 --> 01:03:48.520 Oh my gosh, that's such a dumb thing. 1009 01:03:48.520 --> 01:03:50.200 Why would I do that? 1010 01:03:50.200 --> 01:03:52.280 Y'all ever, does anyone ever say that? 1011 01:03:52.280 --> 01:03:53.900 Like, I used to. 1012 01:03:54.840 --> 01:03:57.520 Y'all, I used to accidentally run into a wall 1013 01:03:57.520 --> 01:03:59.180 and apologize to the wall. 1014 01:04:00.400 --> 01:04:02.640 If you think I'm joking, I'm not. 1015 01:04:04.020 --> 01:04:07.600 I was made to feel sorry for things 1016 01:04:07.600 --> 01:04:10.060 that weren't even my fault as a kid. 1017 01:04:10.960 --> 01:04:13.760 And that carried into my adulthood, 1018 01:04:14.700 --> 01:04:18.820 saying I was sorry and taking responsibility for people 1019 01:04:18.820 --> 01:04:21.340 that it wasn't my responsibility. 1020 01:04:21.340 --> 01:04:25.260 Therefore, running into, I can laugh about it now, 1021 01:04:25.260 --> 01:04:27.060 and I can remember a couple of times being like, 1022 01:04:27.060 --> 01:04:29.360 why did I just say I'm sorry to the wall? 1023 01:04:29.360 --> 01:04:32.100 That is so, as I got more healing. 1024 01:04:32.100 --> 01:04:37.100 But back in the day, I mean, I felt bad that I ran into, 1025 01:04:37.440 --> 01:04:38.280 I felt stupid. 1026 01:04:38.280 --> 01:04:40.560 That's what, at the core, that's what it was. 1027 01:04:40.560 --> 01:04:42.520 I felt stupid for running into the wall. 1028 01:04:42.520 --> 01:04:44.520 And that's why I was like, oh, sorry. 1029 01:04:44.520 --> 01:04:46.200 You know, try to play it off. 1030 01:04:48.680 --> 01:04:51.380 So I hope this is resonating for y'all a little bit. 1031 01:04:52.560 --> 01:04:55.380 I wanna kind of piggyback off of this. 1032 01:04:55.380 --> 01:04:58.360 Is there anyone else that either you have your hand up 1033 01:04:58.360 --> 01:05:00.080 or you don't, that wants- 1034 01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:05.200 to share part of what you went through. It could be related to this or it could be totally different 1035 01:05:05.200 --> 01:05:07.040 and you have a question about it tonight. 1036 01:05:11.120 --> 01:05:13.840 And you can just unmute yourself and share if you do. 1037 01:05:20.720 --> 01:05:24.160 I know I kind of left it wide open for a little bit. Y'all aren't used to this, right? 1038 01:05:24.160 --> 01:05:30.960 I'll use a quick example if that's okay. Yeah, go ahead. When I was growing up, 1039 01:05:30.960 --> 01:05:37.440 my house was very dirty and it was very embarrassing. And so I would have 1040 01:05:38.480 --> 01:05:42.640 neighbors like tell us as little kids, go home and help your parents clean. 1041 01:05:43.840 --> 01:05:50.000 Or I mean, so by the time I was in high school, I thought I'll never get a boyfriend because 1042 01:05:50.640 --> 01:05:52.800 no one's going to like me because my house isn't, 1043 01:05:56.240 --> 01:06:03.520 I don't know, a standard. It's up to standard or whatever. Yeah. So do you struggle to 1044 01:06:06.560 --> 01:06:09.520 be out of balance the other way with keeping your house clean now? 1045 01:06:10.560 --> 01:06:16.560 Yeah. Like if I hear people critique somebody's house a certain way, I like, I come home. I'm 1046 01:06:16.640 --> 01:06:24.640 always critical of every, I'm not a perfectionist, but if it doesn't look good enough, it weighs on 1047 01:06:24.640 --> 01:06:32.160 me nonstop. Okay. So this is so good. Thank you for sharing. And Maria, thank you for sharing 1048 01:06:32.160 --> 01:06:40.240 earlier as well. So while this is coming up tonight and it's connecting, I do think this 1049 01:06:40.240 --> 01:06:46.160 is connected. I love that you brought up the fact of a house and how you grew up and what 1050 01:06:46.160 --> 01:06:50.960 other people said to you because of the house that you grew up in. I mean, y'all, 1051 01:06:50.960 --> 01:06:54.880 do you see how all these things y'all, these are important things coming up tonight. 1052 01:06:57.120 --> 01:07:01.920 And so I would encourage you, like some of you need to forgive your parents for not taking care 1053 01:07:01.920 --> 01:07:10.480 of the home that you lived in. And you had to hear mean things that people said to you were about your 1054 01:07:10.480 --> 01:07:20.160 family. And that was hard, totally unrelated, but this is coming up in my spirit. So I'm going to 1055 01:07:20.160 --> 01:07:28.000 share it. My 16th birthday, we were out at this park, this beach place. My mom planned this 1056 01:07:28.000 --> 01:07:32.720 beautiful birthday party. All my friends were there. And my sister was there. My sister was 1057 01:07:33.600 --> 01:07:42.320 my family on my mom's side has struggled with their weight most of my life. And I saw my mom 1058 01:07:42.320 --> 01:07:46.320 and my sister hide food a lot. Like it was just a lot of dysfunction surrounding food. 1059 01:07:48.400 --> 01:07:53.600 My sister was really overweight. And y'all, when I say this, I'm being real transparent. 1060 01:07:53.840 --> 01:08:06.240 And I didn't like it because people made fun of her and it affected me. And all of my friends 1061 01:08:06.240 --> 01:08:14.800 were there this, this one day. And I mean, I love my sister, but we were, we were swimming 1062 01:08:14.800 --> 01:08:19.840 and, you know, she had her bathing suit on and we were all having fun. But of course, like some 1063 01:08:19.840 --> 01:08:26.000 kids who weren't healthy teenagers were, you know, we were a teenage at this time, obviously 1064 01:08:27.279 --> 01:08:33.680 we're calling her a whale. And I was so embarrassed, but I still stood up for her. 1065 01:08:33.680 --> 01:08:39.840 And I'm glad that I did, but y'all that, that I can remember just sometimes not wanting my sister 1066 01:08:39.840 --> 01:08:46.240 to go places with me. And I feel terrible for that, but this is, this is coming up for a reason 1067 01:08:46.240 --> 01:08:51.200 tonight. And I believe some of us, we need to forgive ourselves. Some of us, we need to forgive 1068 01:08:51.200 --> 01:08:55.920 other people. You know, my sister struggled with weight. It wasn't her fault. People called her 1069 01:08:55.920 --> 01:09:00.399 those things, but sometimes my sister did and said things that drew attention to herself. 1070 01:09:00.399 --> 01:09:03.760 She always had to be rough and tough and mean, and she would start fights with people and then 1071 01:09:03.760 --> 01:09:08.720 it would just escalate. And that's how that situation happened that day. I think if she 1072 01:09:08.720 --> 01:09:12.880 hadn't done some of the things she said and did, I don't know if it would have escalated to them 1073 01:09:12.880 --> 01:09:21.200 saying that to her. And so I think that, you know, the Lord is just trying to do some housekeeping 1074 01:09:21.200 --> 01:09:27.200 in your hearts and really like, maybe some of you people called you those kinds of names 1075 01:09:27.200 --> 01:09:33.760 somewhere. Forgiving those people, Lord, I just forgive them right now, those kids at that park. 1076 01:09:33.760 --> 01:09:39.200 And, and I just thank you, God, that you redeem also, he redeems all situations you all. 1077 01:09:43.200 --> 01:09:48.080 So I don't know what your situations might be, but we are going to talk a little bit about 1078 01:09:48.080 --> 01:09:53.760 confession and repentance. I think it's a good segue into it. Um, I won't go probably as far 1079 01:09:53.760 --> 01:09:58.400 into the content tonight. You guys have a ton of content on that in your book, in the coursework, 1080 01:09:58.400 --> 01:09:59.840 in the videos, but I. 1081 01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:01.440 Do you want to draw it a couple of things? 1082 01:10:01.440 --> 01:10:05.340 Cause I feel like it's like tonight's session is leading us there. 1083 01:10:05.620 --> 01:10:08.040 And so I want to be obedient to that as well. 1084 01:10:09.360 --> 01:10:14.160 So if y'all think about repentance, what it means is a literal turning away. 1085 01:10:14.600 --> 01:10:18.440 It's a turning away from something that we've been doing, something we've been 1086 01:10:18.440 --> 01:10:23.880 thinking, something we've been partnering with, you know, obviously it involves 1087 01:10:24.880 --> 01:10:31.120 in our lives and we choose to turn away from that and go towards the other thing. 1088 01:10:31.360 --> 01:10:37.080 So maybe you, maybe, um, in the past you've struggled with criticizing people. 1089 01:10:38.520 --> 01:10:44.560 Gossiping, maybe it's insecurities that you have self-hatred toward, you know, 1090 01:10:44.560 --> 01:10:45.560 hatred towards yourself. 1091 01:10:45.560 --> 01:10:49.920 That's what self-hatred is, or maybe hatred towards other people, certain 1092 01:10:50.400 --> 01:10:52.960 ethnicities, certain people, groups, whatever. 1093 01:10:53.520 --> 01:10:55.720 Maybe your struggles are overeating. 1094 01:10:55.720 --> 01:10:59.120 Maybe your struggles are negative self self-talk or negative thought 1095 01:10:59.120 --> 01:11:00.760 patterns that you get stuck in. 1096 01:11:01.080 --> 01:11:03.880 Maybe it's a sexual related struggle. 1097 01:11:03.880 --> 01:11:07.520 So this can be all kinds of stuff you all, but these are some big ones. 1098 01:11:07.520 --> 01:11:13.240 Sex before marriage, pornography, addictions, lust, fantasizing 1099 01:11:13.280 --> 01:11:15.320 about being with people. 1100 01:11:15.360 --> 01:11:15.640 Okay. 1101 01:11:15.640 --> 01:11:21.240 That's that goes with the lust struggles with authority, angry inside, and 1102 01:11:21.240 --> 01:11:23.040 then outbursts because of them. 1103 01:11:24.440 --> 01:11:29.120 We don't always know the why, like why we do these things, why we 1104 01:11:29.120 --> 01:11:32.280 struggle with these things, but God does. 1105 01:11:33.000 --> 01:11:35.200 God knows the why behind our what you all. 1106 01:11:35.280 --> 01:11:35.800 Okay. 1107 01:11:36.120 --> 01:11:40.480 And he wants to help all of you heal in all of these areas. 1108 01:11:42.240 --> 01:11:45.600 The Holy spirit is the one that's your counselor, your comforter and your 1109 01:11:45.600 --> 01:11:47.680 guide, and he will partner with you. 1110 01:11:48.160 --> 01:11:52.360 But the Holy spirit, just like I've kind of been talking to you all, God is a 1111 01:11:52.360 --> 01:11:53.080 gentleman. 1112 01:11:53.360 --> 01:11:55.120 He doesn't force the door down. 1113 01:11:55.640 --> 01:11:57.640 He doesn't come in and push his way in. 1114 01:11:57.680 --> 01:11:58.760 It's an invitation. 1115 01:11:58.760 --> 01:12:03.320 He knocks on the door of our heart and we have the choice to respond in it and an 1116 01:12:03.320 --> 01:12:05.600 answer and open the door unto him. 1117 01:12:06.600 --> 01:12:09.560 The Holy spirit is our comforter, our counselor, our guide. 1118 01:12:09.560 --> 01:12:11.360 He comes alongside of us. 1119 01:12:11.400 --> 01:12:16.240 And in my imagination, I just always envisioned like he just takes me by the 1120 01:12:17.160 --> 01:12:19.400 Like, and he just, he just shows me the way to go. 1121 01:12:21.240 --> 01:12:25.560 And so that is what he wants to do in your life, uh, tonight and in the days 1122 01:12:25.560 --> 01:12:32.360 ahead, when we repent, we, we not only change directions, but it's a change of 1123 01:12:32.360 --> 01:12:34.080 mind, body, and spirit. 1124 01:12:34.080 --> 01:12:39.920 So it's all, it's all of us, everything that we are made up of choosing to go in 1125 01:12:39.920 --> 01:12:40.920 a new direction. 1126 01:12:42.000 --> 01:12:45.800 James 5 16 says, therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each 1127 01:12:45.840 --> 01:12:47.320 other so that you might be healed. 1128 01:12:47.640 --> 01:12:54.000 The prayer of a righteous man avails much when we don't confess what we don't 1129 01:12:54.000 --> 01:12:56.720 confess, we remain tethered to. 1130 01:12:58.240 --> 01:12:58.720 Okay. 1131 01:12:59.600 --> 01:13:00.480 Y'all will hear me. 1132 01:13:00.520 --> 01:13:03.240 Um, some of my ladies that have been with me for a while, I've heard me talk 1133 01:13:03.240 --> 01:13:04.160 about the tether. 1134 01:13:04.320 --> 01:13:06.240 I talk about that a little more in detail. 1135 01:13:06.280 --> 01:13:10.360 When we go into the forgiveness week, we just did that a couple of weeks ago. 1136 01:13:10.360 --> 01:13:13.280 So I'm not going to go back into that tonight, but a tether, just the short 1137 01:13:13.280 --> 01:13:19.160 version tonight, if you can imagine yourself tied to something that you remain 1138 01:13:19.160 --> 01:13:19.760 tied to. 1139 01:13:20.080 --> 01:13:20.520 Okay. 1140 01:13:21.080 --> 01:13:26.480 So when we can, when we don't confess sin and we don't repent and turn away from 1141 01:13:26.480 --> 01:13:28.840 it, we remain tethered to that. 1142 01:13:29.880 --> 01:13:33.120 This can also cause blind spots for us. 1143 01:13:33.840 --> 01:13:34.200 Okay. 1144 01:13:34.200 --> 01:13:35.720 In all different kinds of areas. 1145 01:13:36.400 --> 01:13:42.320 So what I want you to talk about in your breakout now, is there an area you need 1146 01:13:42.320 --> 01:13:43.360 to confess tonight? 1147 01:13:43.640 --> 01:13:45.720 Is there something you need to confess about? 1148 01:13:46.960 --> 01:13:48.920 Again, you're not trying to fix anybody. 1149 01:13:49.240 --> 01:13:51.600 This is just a safe space for someone to share. 1150 01:13:51.600 --> 01:13:55.520 Hey, I've been struggling with this and I need to confess this tonight. 1151 01:13:56.440 --> 01:13:57.360 And that's, that's it. 1152 01:13:57.360 --> 01:13:57.640 Y'all. 1153 01:13:57.640 --> 01:13:58.080 Okay. 1154 01:13:58.120 --> 01:14:01.280 You don't, again, you don't have to necessarily pray for each other. 1155 01:14:01.280 --> 01:14:02.960 You don't have to convince each other. 1156 01:14:03.400 --> 01:14:06.120 Um, just love each other, give each other that safe space. 1157 01:14:06.600 --> 01:14:08.000 And I want to encourage you. 1158 01:14:08.000 --> 01:14:13.680 Um, just like, I mean, that story was about like my sister and me, but like, 1159 01:14:14.440 --> 01:14:19.560 y'all feel the impact when somebody is vulnerable and transparent, doesn't 1160 01:14:19.560 --> 01:14:22.280 it bring walls down a little bit? 1161 01:14:22.840 --> 01:14:23.200 Yeah. 1162 01:14:23.640 --> 01:14:28.440 So I'm going to encourage you, um, to do that as well. 1163 01:14:29.160 --> 01:14:31.400 Don't feel like you have to share every single detail. 1164 01:14:31.400 --> 01:14:34.360 Like there were so many other details to that story that I told you all 1165 01:14:34.440 --> 01:14:36.680 about the, the day at the beach. 1166 01:14:37.400 --> 01:14:40.960 Um, but that was high level what I was sharing with you. 1167 01:14:41.200 --> 01:14:41.560 Okay. 1168 01:14:41.760 --> 01:14:43.320 So keep things kind of higher level. 1169 01:14:43.320 --> 01:14:47.160 It's a little easier for people to hear our stories when we do. 1170 01:14:47.400 --> 01:14:47.720 Okay. 1171 01:14:48.760 --> 01:14:49.560 All right. 1172 01:14:49.880 --> 01:14:54.440 I'm going to create new rooms so you are, you all can meet some new people. 1173 01:14:58.160 --> 01:14:59.800 Um, Oh. 1174 01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:02.440 I want to go the other direction. Sorry, there we go. 1175 01:15:07.280 --> 01:15:09.560 Alright, go ahead and click to join those. 1176 01:15:30.000 --> 01:15:42.400 Hi, Kim. All right. Perfect. I think everyone's in. Awesome. 1177 01:15:42.400 --> 01:15:45.360 Thank you, Lord, so much for tonight. God, thank you for what 1178 01:15:45.360 --> 01:15:50.520 you're already doing. In all of our hearts, God, I thank you for 1179 01:15:50.520 --> 01:15:54.600 freedom and truth and revelation. God, I thank you for 1180 01:15:55.080 --> 01:15:58.640 just taking us from where we have been into where you want to 1181 01:15:58.640 --> 01:16:02.040 take us in the days ahead. God, I thank you for repentance. I 1182 01:16:02.040 --> 01:16:07.280 thank you, Jesus, that you died and you took all of our sin 1183 01:16:07.280 --> 01:16:11.320 upon yourself on the cross because you loved us and you 1184 01:16:11.320 --> 01:16:14.600 wanted to create a way for us to be one with you as you are one 1185 01:16:14.600 --> 01:16:17.920 with the Father. I thank you that your blood covers all of 1186 01:16:17.920 --> 01:16:22.440 our sin, that it takes it from that crimson red and makes us 1187 01:16:22.440 --> 01:16:24.840 white as snow. We just thank you for that redemption. We thank 1188 01:16:24.840 --> 01:16:29.080 you for that healing. We thank you for your grace, God, that 1189 01:16:29.080 --> 01:16:34.080 when we make mistakes, that you cover us. You cover all those 1190 01:16:34.080 --> 01:16:39.320 involved. We thank you for, yeah, Lord, Jesus, we thank you 1191 01:16:39.320 --> 01:16:42.560 for the power of your name and by your spirit and by your blood, 1192 01:16:42.560 --> 01:16:46.480 Jesus, we bind and break every spirit of unforgiveness, any 1193 01:16:46.480 --> 01:16:51.160 spirits of bitterness, resentment. And just as I'm 1194 01:16:51.160 --> 01:16:54.040 praying and thinking about families and places that we tend 1195 01:16:54.040 --> 01:16:59.000 to struggle, God, that you would bind and break any 1196 01:16:59.240 --> 01:17:03.560 spirits of anger, wrath, malice, any kind of outburst or rage, 1197 01:17:04.560 --> 01:17:07.960 any self-hatred, self-loathing, self-pity in Jesus' name. We 1198 01:17:07.960 --> 01:17:11.320 thank you that you bind all those up. And we thank you, 1199 01:17:11.320 --> 01:17:15.160 Jesus, that by the power of your blood, that in the heavenly 1200 01:17:15.160 --> 01:17:18.200 realm, that you will lose spirits of love and of power and 1201 01:17:18.200 --> 01:17:21.840 of a sound mind, spirits of forgiveness, spirits of 1202 01:17:21.840 --> 01:17:25.560 reconciliation, spirits of peace and of love and of joy. 1203 01:17:25.920 --> 01:17:32.120 God, I thank you that you would fill us up to overflowing, that 1204 01:17:32.120 --> 01:17:34.520 you would heal us from the inside out, that you would help 1205 01:17:34.520 --> 01:17:40.000 us to hear your spirit more clearly, that in every 1206 01:17:40.000 --> 01:17:42.640 situation, when we live and we even have our being, that it 1207 01:17:42.640 --> 01:17:47.560 would be in you. Cover us on every side from every attack of 1208 01:17:47.560 --> 01:17:52.520 the enemy and help us to know, God, that you are with us, that 1209 01:17:52.520 --> 01:17:56.640 you will hide us under the cleft of your rock. As I was 1210 01:17:56.640 --> 01:17:59.440 sharing with the ladies earlier about Moses, that was one of the 1211 01:17:59.440 --> 01:18:03.240 times that I remembered reading in the Bible about the cleft of 1212 01:18:03.240 --> 01:18:07.960 the rock, but God's glory was so powerful that he said that he 1213 01:18:07.960 --> 01:18:11.920 would hide him in the cleft of the rock when he passed by. And 1214 01:18:11.920 --> 01:18:14.720 so, Lord, I thank you that you protect us even from the power 1215 01:18:14.720 --> 01:18:18.040 of your glory, but God, you help us to be able to come close to 1216 01:18:18.040 --> 01:18:22.840 you. We thank you that you are just in my spirit, ladies. I'm 1217 01:18:22.840 --> 01:18:27.400 hearing that he's giving people new names. He's writing new 1218 01:18:27.400 --> 01:18:31.760 stories. We thank you that you are making rivers in the desert 1219 01:18:31.760 --> 01:18:34.760 and streams in the wasteland. And we thank you, God, that 1220 01:18:34.760 --> 01:18:39.360 you're helping us to, yeah, Lord, just give us an upgrade 1221 01:18:39.360 --> 01:18:43.320 in our mind and our mindsets, that you would help us just to 1222 01:18:43.320 --> 01:18:46.880 cast down every thought and imagination that's from the 1223 01:18:46.880 --> 01:18:49.280 enemy and that we would take those thoughts captive and make 1224 01:18:49.280 --> 01:18:54.720 them obedient to Jesus Christ, that we would lay aside every 1225 01:18:54.720 --> 01:18:58.280 weight that so easily ensnares us and we would press on toward 1226 01:18:58.280 --> 01:19:03.800 the high calling of God for our lives, and that we would, yeah, 1227 01:19:03.800 --> 01:19:07.760 Lord, just that we would every day say, Lord, what do you want 1228 01:19:07.760 --> 01:19:10.600 to show me about myself today? What do you want me to hear 1229 01:19:10.600 --> 01:19:13.720 about myself today? Help me to hear your voice, Lord, louder 1230 01:19:13.720 --> 01:19:17.480 than any voice of the enemy, louder than any roaring of the 1231 01:19:17.480 --> 01:19:22.280 lion. We thank you, God, that you would lift us up out of the 1232 01:19:22.280 --> 01:19:26.040 muck and the mire and the clay and set our feet upon the rock 1233 01:19:26.520 --> 01:19:29.280 that is you, God. We thank you that you would help us to think 1234 01:19:29.280 --> 01:19:33.120 on things that are pure, noble, lovely, true. I could say those 1235 01:19:33.120 --> 01:19:36.600 backwards and have good report, but you know, Lord, what I'm 1236 01:19:36.600 --> 01:19:39.720 saying. So, Lord, we thank you that you would help us to have a 1237 01:19:39.720 --> 01:19:44.280 little bit more heavenly mindset. Lord, help us to become 1238 01:19:44.280 --> 01:19:48.360 more rooted and grounded in your love every day, that we would 1239 01:19:50.120 --> 01:19:56.320 know you, God, as love, that we would partner with you in love, 1240 01:19:56.520 --> 01:20:00.000 God, that we would believe the best in people, even in 1241 01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:04.560 ourselves. Lord, so many people are so hard on themselves. Lord, 1242 01:20:04.560 --> 01:20:08.360 we thank you that you would help every one of these ladies to see 1243 01:20:08.360 --> 01:20:11.360 themselves through your lens through your eyes. God help them 1244 01:20:11.360 --> 01:20:14.000 to hear what your spirit is saying to them. We thank you, 1245 01:20:14.000 --> 01:20:20.040 God, that you are making. Yeah, just I hear all things new again 1246 01:20:20.040 --> 01:20:25.160 in my spirit. So we just thank you for that truth. Sorry, 1247 01:20:25.160 --> 01:20:28.480 ladies, I'm a little something's a little stuffy going 1248 01:20:28.480 --> 01:20:33.840 on. As I've been on this session tonight. Psalm nine, nine, all 1249 01:20:33.840 --> 01:20:37.400 who are oppressed may come to you as a shelter in the time of 1250 01:20:37.400 --> 01:20:42.080 trouble, a perfect hiding place. That guy's with that cleft of 1251 01:20:42.080 --> 01:20:44.680 the rock. So we just thank you that you're our perfect hiding 1252 01:20:44.680 --> 01:20:49.920 place in times of trouble. God, we thank you that you remember. 1253 01:20:50.920 --> 01:20:54.000 Yeah, Luke eight, 17 through 19 says this because this 1254 01:20:54.000 --> 01:20:56.560 revelation lamp now shines within you nothing will be 1255 01:20:56.560 --> 01:20:59.880 hidden from you. It will all be revealed every secret of the 1256 01:20:59.880 --> 01:21:02.800 kingdom will be unveiled and out in the open made known by the 1257 01:21:02.800 --> 01:21:06.760 revelation light. So pay careful attention to your hearts as you 1258 01:21:06.760 --> 01:21:10.480 hear my teaching. For to those who have open hearts, even more 1259 01:21:10.480 --> 01:21:14.920 revelation will be given to them until it overflows. And for 1260 01:21:14.920 --> 01:21:18.960 those who do not listen with open hearts, what little light 1261 01:21:18.960 --> 01:21:22.080 they imagine to have will be taken away. So Lord, I thank you 1262 01:21:22.080 --> 01:21:25.960 that you'll help us to have hearts that are open. That 1263 01:21:25.960 --> 01:21:30.080 aren't shut down that aren't walled up. God, we thank you 1264 01:21:30.120 --> 01:21:34.680 that you can. Yeah, you just come in the difficult places and 1265 01:21:34.680 --> 01:21:38.920 you invite us out. You invite us out of the places where we shut 1266 01:21:38.920 --> 01:21:42.520 down and shut people out and you invite us to take your hand and 1267 01:21:42.520 --> 01:21:47.600 come into the wide open spaces with you. I just saw like an 1268 01:21:47.600 --> 01:21:52.640 image as I said that in my mind's eye like in my spirit of 1269 01:21:52.640 --> 01:21:58.920 like a horse that is wild. Being led out to pasture and just 1270 01:21:58.920 --> 01:22:03.560 being in this wide open place that they can run and just be 1271 01:22:03.560 --> 01:22:08.440 free and live life and so we just thank you for helping us to 1272 01:22:08.440 --> 01:22:12.240 understand what the good good life looks like sounds like 1273 01:22:12.240 --> 01:22:16.480 feels like the abundant life that you have for us and that 1274 01:22:16.480 --> 01:22:20.280 you would help us to partner with truth in every area of our 1275 01:22:20.280 --> 01:22:24.000 life so that we can step further into that good good life that 1276 01:22:24.000 --> 01:22:28.520 you have for us. Ephesians 612 says we are we are not fighting 1277 01:22:28.520 --> 01:22:31.920 against flesh and blood enemies but against evil rulers and 1278 01:22:31.920 --> 01:22:34.560 authorities of the unseen world against mighty powers in this 1279 01:22:34.560 --> 01:22:40.400 dark world and against evil spirits in the heavenly places. 1280 01:22:41.560 --> 01:22:44.800 Y'all devil's trying to bring sickness on me even while I'm 1281 01:22:44.800 --> 01:22:47.640 coaching. It's so weird. I got this really bad earache right 1282 01:22:47.640 --> 01:22:52.120 before I came on tonight. So Lord, we just thank you for 1283 01:22:52.120 --> 01:22:55.840 healing right now. And whether it's in my body or if this is 1284 01:22:55.840 --> 01:22:58.240 just coming up because someone else on here needs healing God 1285 01:22:58.240 --> 01:23:01.880 we thank you for healing being released from heaven. I thank 1286 01:23:01.880 --> 01:23:07.160 you for divine healing oil washing over every area that we 1287 01:23:07.160 --> 01:23:10.040 need healing God for your healing balm coming on every 1288 01:23:10.040 --> 01:23:14.200 wound that you would help us Lord God to receive your joy to 1289 01:23:14.200 --> 01:23:16.840 receive your blessing to receive the gifts of heaven. 1290 01:23:18.560 --> 01:23:22.200 Psalm 119 165 says there is such a great peace and well being 1291 01:23:22.200 --> 01:23:26.320 that comes to the lovers of your word. They will never be 1292 01:23:26.360 --> 01:23:30.520 offended. God we thank you that you help us when we are offended 1293 01:23:30.520 --> 01:23:35.320 to ask you God where we can receive an upgrade because we do 1294 01:23:35.320 --> 01:23:38.560 believe that offense is an opportunity for an upgrade. Help 1295 01:23:38.560 --> 01:23:44.040 us to love your word more and more in Jesus name. Amen. Who is 1296 01:23:44.040 --> 01:23:47.520 willing to share with the whole group? What you shared in your 1297 01:23:47.520 --> 01:23:52.400 breakout? Hey, Tammy, go for it. Short, brief and powerful girl. 1298 01:23:54.840 --> 01:23:59.320 Short, brief and powerful. Hello. What I was hearing was 1299 01:23:59.320 --> 01:24:07.920 that sometimes I'm not I'm dishonoring with one of my my 1300 01:24:07.920 --> 01:24:12.120 roommates. She's older than me. And we all have to put that 1301 01:24:12.120 --> 01:24:16.560 personality. And so I tend to be like, Come on, keep going. 1302 01:24:16.560 --> 01:24:23.200 Let's go. You know, and, and, but sometimes I know, I'm quick 1303 01:24:23.200 --> 01:24:28.360 with my words and not always so compassionate. And in that, you 1304 01:24:28.360 --> 01:24:33.200 know, we all have levels of openness. And so instead of me 1305 01:24:33.520 --> 01:24:36.440 being more understanding, I'm not always understanding. And 1306 01:24:36.440 --> 01:24:41.040 then I need to get back when I was married. I got that all the 1307 01:24:41.040 --> 01:24:44.560 time with a lot of put down and stuff like that. And I'm like, 1308 01:24:45.240 --> 01:24:51.040 okay, you know, but, you know, before one can lead. This is 1309 01:24:51.040 --> 01:24:54.280 like a test for me, you know, having been passing the test 1310 01:24:54.280 --> 01:24:57.680 very well. So that's my confession. I'm done. 1311 01:24:59.080 --> 01:24:59.880 That was really good. 1312 01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:08.880 Um, so I want to encourage you to shift out of thinking that this is a test because tests 1313 01:25:08.880 --> 01:25:11.880 mean pass or fail. 1314 01:25:11.880 --> 01:25:16.360 I want you to think of it more as an opportunity to grow. 1315 01:25:16.360 --> 01:25:18.280 Okay. 1316 01:25:18.280 --> 01:25:21.280 Because you just know in your background, Tammy too, and some of the things that you've 1317 01:25:21.280 --> 01:25:26.000 come out of, you've been healing so much, but I think the enemy tries to always get 1318 01:25:26.000 --> 01:25:28.720 you back into your, your good or your bad. 1319 01:25:29.200 --> 01:25:30.600 Does that make sense? 1320 01:25:30.600 --> 01:25:35.120 And so while tests, like, I don't think you meant anything by it, that stood out to me. 1321 01:25:35.120 --> 01:25:37.680 And so I want to encourage you to shift out of that. 1322 01:25:37.680 --> 01:25:43.440 Um, while you might be struggling with this right now, I believe that God is even having 1323 01:25:43.440 --> 01:25:46.160 you share because you're about to, to break free. 1324 01:25:46.160 --> 01:25:51.840 And I think you're going to start to see a shift in even how you're feeling in the situations. 1325 01:25:51.840 --> 01:25:58.880 And, um, um, what came to mind when you were talking as well is just, again, that reminder 1326 01:25:58.880 --> 01:26:01.800 of, okay. 1327 01:26:01.800 --> 01:26:07.640 Is some of this learned behavior, you know, is it our go-to because that's what we learned 1328 01:26:07.640 --> 01:26:08.640 growing up. 1329 01:26:08.640 --> 01:26:14.160 And we kind of went into those things, you know, and so really working to build new habits 1330 01:26:14.160 --> 01:26:15.880 takes time. 1331 01:26:15.880 --> 01:26:19.760 And so I'm not making an excuse, but just be graceful towards yourself. 1332 01:26:19.760 --> 01:26:20.760 Okay. 1333 01:26:20.760 --> 01:26:25.360 So set those goals, take small little steps every day. 1334 01:26:25.360 --> 01:26:32.120 Like if you sense yourself in that dishonoring place, words, you know, really keep a short 1335 01:26:32.120 --> 01:26:38.880 account and, you know, maybe just start journaling and just, even in that journal, like flip 1336 01:26:38.880 --> 01:26:39.880 the switch. 1337 01:26:39.880 --> 01:26:40.880 Okay. 1338 01:26:40.880 --> 01:26:46.200 Instead of thinking this dishonorable thought or saying this thing with a quick, you know, 1339 01:26:46.200 --> 01:26:52.020 What's the flip side of that holding our tongue and then saying something kind, right? 1340 01:26:52.020 --> 01:26:57.440 So really practicing and building those muscles, y'all, even myself lately, I feel like the 1341 01:26:57.440 --> 01:26:58.440 enemy. 1342 01:26:58.440 --> 01:27:04.240 Uh, we used to do negativity fast in this, in this community and, uh, that's, what's 1343 01:27:04.240 --> 01:27:05.240 coming up. 1344 01:27:05.240 --> 01:27:08.940 So we might, some of us might need to practice that negativity fast. 1345 01:27:08.940 --> 01:27:13.520 That means we've, we fast negativity, saying negative things, doing negative things, thinking 1346 01:27:13.520 --> 01:27:14.920 negative things. 1347 01:27:14.920 --> 01:27:20.760 And so if you really struggle with a lot of negative negativity and self-deprecating thoughts 1348 01:27:20.760 --> 01:27:25.240 and things like that, you might want to go ahead and grab that for yourself and maybe 1349 01:27:25.240 --> 01:27:30.080 start on that journey of kind of cleansing of negativity. 1350 01:27:30.080 --> 01:27:31.080 Okay. 1351 01:27:31.080 --> 01:27:32.080 Tammy. 1352 01:27:32.080 --> 01:27:33.080 Great job. 1353 01:27:33.080 --> 01:27:35.520 Thank you so much, Katie, go ahead. 1354 01:27:35.520 --> 01:27:44.600 So what came up for me was around doubt and, you know, really choosing to continue to fight 1355 01:27:45.280 --> 01:27:51.200 against doubt that the Lord's promises are for me and what I know he's promised he's 1356 01:27:51.200 --> 01:27:52.200 going to fulfill. 1357 01:27:52.200 --> 01:28:00.960 I turned 40 in August and that's a big mile marker and never been married, no kids. 1358 01:28:00.960 --> 01:28:09.760 And what feels like delay holding onto, um, the promises and pushing against the world 1359 01:28:09.760 --> 01:28:14.460 that says whatever they're saying, I'm not listening. 1360 01:28:15.320 --> 01:28:16.740 So, um, yeah. 1361 01:28:16.740 --> 01:28:19.340 And I think what is it without faith? 1362 01:28:19.340 --> 01:28:21.340 It's impossible to please God. 1363 01:28:21.340 --> 01:28:29.220 So in ways that's, you know, choosing to not allow him being in my life or choosing to 1364 01:28:29.220 --> 01:28:33.060 not believe his goodness towards me. 1365 01:28:33.060 --> 01:28:35.580 And I see it in every other area of my life. 1366 01:28:35.580 --> 01:28:37.880 So I know he's good. 1367 01:28:37.880 --> 01:28:39.300 So what does the doubt sound like? 1368 01:28:39.300 --> 01:28:43.100 Tell me what it sounds like when it rises up for you. 1369 01:28:43.100 --> 01:28:50.140 Um, it's almost like, uh, it's not going to happen. 1370 01:28:50.140 --> 01:28:53.460 It is, especially around the children's space. 1371 01:28:53.460 --> 01:29:03.300 I still would like to have children, multiple children and, um, you know, just, I, I have 1372 01:29:03.300 --> 01:29:10.620 gone to doctors that I've talked about this and it wasn't, she just said something really 1373 01:29:10.620 --> 01:29:11.620 negative. 1374 01:29:11.620 --> 01:29:12.700 Like, oh, it's not that. 1375 01:29:13.300 --> 01:29:14.620 It's more your age that I'd be worried about. 1376 01:29:14.620 --> 01:29:19.940 And this was a couple of years ago, you know, so that's a little bit in my head. 1377 01:29:19.940 --> 01:29:28.180 Um, yeah, and most people around me are married or have been married at my age, remarried 1378 01:29:28.180 --> 01:29:29.180 best friend. 1379 01:29:29.180 --> 01:29:33.420 So what does the doubt sound like to you? 1380 01:29:33.420 --> 01:29:34.580 What does it sound like? 1381 01:29:34.580 --> 01:29:35.580 Yeah. 1382 01:29:35.580 --> 01:29:38.420 Like, so you, you said one, it's not going to happen. 1383 01:29:38.420 --> 01:29:40.680 Are there any other lies that things? 1384 01:29:40.680 --> 01:29:41.680 So that's what I mean. 1385 01:29:41.680 --> 01:29:46.200 Like, what does it sound like when you feel or struggle with doubt? 1386 01:29:46.200 --> 01:29:47.640 What does it sound like to you? 1387 01:29:47.640 --> 01:29:50.200 What are things that you think are here a lot? 1388 01:29:50.200 --> 01:29:53.240 When you feel that struggle without happening? 1389 01:29:53.240 --> 01:29:57.480 That's a good question. 1390 01:30:00.400 --> 01:30:02.160 It's definitely a negative feeling. 1391 01:30:03.520 --> 01:30:09.360 Okay. And this is, this is where you can take this and grow on this after tonight. Okay. So just 1392 01:30:09.360 --> 01:30:15.760 be asking the Lord or be really like, kind of like, okay, I, I'm feeling doubt right now. Like 1393 01:30:15.760 --> 01:30:20.400 what, uh, what other things are happening right now? Okay. Did something trigger it? Did someone 1394 01:30:20.400 --> 01:30:26.240 say something? Did you see an image on social media? You know, some of y'all I, okay. I wasn't 1395 01:30:26.240 --> 01:30:30.160 planning on saying that either. Some of y'all might need to cut back on your social media 1396 01:30:30.160 --> 01:30:37.120 scrolling in this season, because I'll know about you all, but sometimes when we see stuff, 1397 01:30:37.920 --> 01:30:43.440 we are happy for other people, but man, doesn't it tend to make feed that doubt for us? If we 1398 01:30:43.440 --> 01:30:48.400 see other people getting, and then we get into the comparison trap game, whatever it's about, 1399 01:30:48.400 --> 01:30:55.920 whether it's a job, a house, a baby, a marriage, you know? So if you're really struggling to keep 1400 01:30:55.920 --> 01:31:01.840 your mind on positive and truth, you might need to kind of just back off of the social media for 1401 01:31:01.840 --> 01:31:06.640 a little while because the enemy loves to trip people up there. The other thing that I want to 1402 01:31:06.640 --> 01:31:14.400 encourage you to do is just, um, kind of track if there are certain times that you struggle with 1403 01:31:14.400 --> 01:31:23.440 doubt more. Okay. For example, cycle time. Okay. Female cycle. What I mean, is it in the morning? 1404 01:31:23.440 --> 01:31:28.000 Is it at night? You know, like where you're really starting to see and hone in. Okay. Does 1405 01:31:28.000 --> 01:31:34.080 the enemy try to attack me with doubt at nighttime when I'm tired or after I've had a really hard 1406 01:31:34.080 --> 01:31:41.040 week at the end of the week? And I I'm typically people, it kind of is cyclical. Okay. They might 1407 01:31:41.040 --> 01:31:46.640 do really good. And then they really struggle without for like a few days or a week or whatever. 1408 01:31:46.640 --> 01:31:51.200 And it's typically around things. Sometimes people just struggle without constantly until 1409 01:31:51.200 --> 01:31:56.480 they overcome it. Okay. The one thing I want to encourage you all on as well is, um, getting 1410 01:31:56.480 --> 01:32:04.240 really comfortable and, um, feeling strong in the scripture that says, I believe help my unbelief. 1411 01:32:05.760 --> 01:32:13.680 Okay. A man wanted his daughter healed. And he said, I believe Lord helped my unbelief. Like 1412 01:32:13.680 --> 01:32:22.480 he felt both things. And I believe that when we acknowledge what we, that we are in that place, 1413 01:32:22.480 --> 01:32:28.560 we don't want to stay there. We acknowledge like, God, I don't want to feel unbelief. I don't want 1414 01:32:28.560 --> 01:32:34.800 to have unbelief, but some days it's hard. Like I believe, but help me in my unbelief. 1415 01:32:34.800 --> 01:32:38.960 And what you're saying when, when we do that, we're saying, God, I need more faith. 1416 01:32:39.520 --> 01:32:48.320 Can you impart a gift of faith in me so that I can believe y'all know that the faith is something 1417 01:32:48.320 --> 01:32:57.920 that we have, but it is also a gift that God can impart into you. Some of you might need to start 1418 01:32:57.920 --> 01:33:05.040 asking God for the gift of faith to believe, but you also need to overcome the lies. Okay. 1419 01:33:05.040 --> 01:33:11.280 Cause God can keep giving you the gift, but your lies like a hole in your pocket and all the change 1420 01:33:11.280 --> 01:33:17.600 just keeps falling out. Okay. So you gotta, you gotta have both. Okay. But when you start to feel 1421 01:33:17.600 --> 01:33:23.280 that momentum growing, it's because that hole's getting patched up and that stuff's not falling 1422 01:33:23.280 --> 01:33:28.400 right out anymore. And God's giving you that faith and he's pouring in your hopes grow in, 1423 01:33:28.400 --> 01:33:32.800 and you're in this community and, and you're getting filled with life and truth. And then 1424 01:33:32.800 --> 01:33:38.480 you're like, Oh my gosh, like if you did it for them, you can do it for me. Instead of 1425 01:33:39.280 --> 01:33:43.440 it never happens for me. It only happens for everybody else. 1426 01:33:45.920 --> 01:33:50.640 And that's the switches. Those shifts are the things that are going to be like right in front 1427 01:33:50.640 --> 01:33:58.560 of you all often. And we, we all get to choose when we come to a crossroads, which way we're 1428 01:33:58.560 --> 01:34:03.520 going to go. Okay. And there's no shame. If you're struggling, just say you're struggling. 1429 01:34:03.520 --> 01:34:07.280 I promise in the group, we're going to, we're going to rally around you and cheer you on. Okay. 1430 01:34:08.240 --> 01:34:13.040 But yeah, so Katie, go on that path with the Lord and really just start paying attention to when 1431 01:34:13.040 --> 01:34:18.400 that's happening and let's see what God reveals to you in the process. Okay. And then I'd be, 1432 01:34:18.400 --> 01:34:21.920 I'd love as God shows that to you, for you to come in the group and share a little bit more about it, 1433 01:34:22.560 --> 01:34:25.840 because I think you'll start to see other lies that you're believing and we can kind of help 1434 01:34:25.840 --> 01:34:35.200 you through that as well. Okay. Awesome. Shelley, go ahead. Okay. But I want her to, 1435 01:34:35.200 --> 01:34:40.560 I want Shelley to be able to share. Okay. So I was just sharing in the group that what came 1436 01:34:40.560 --> 01:34:45.600 to my mind when you were talking about what I needed to repent of is I feel like I am, 1437 01:34:46.400 --> 01:34:52.800 or I am overly critical of my mom. And even if I don't say it out loud, I think it in my mind, 1438 01:34:52.800 --> 01:34:59.760 but somehow my criticism of her is always to reassure myself that I'm all right, because. 1439 01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:06.760 Um, my mom was always very critical of me and like my, like who I am, we're very different. 1440 01:35:06.760 --> 01:35:14.640 She's a CPA, very practical, and I'm a kindergarten teacher and I've said, you know, um, so anyways, 1441 01:35:14.640 --> 01:35:15.640 yeah. 1442 01:35:15.640 --> 01:35:20.960 So somehow my criticism of her is like this backdoor way in of telling myself, you're 1443 01:35:20.960 --> 01:35:21.960 fine. 1444 01:35:21.960 --> 01:35:22.960 You wouldn't do that. 1445 01:35:22.960 --> 01:35:25.120 You wouldn't think about that person like that. 1446 01:35:25.120 --> 01:35:26.320 Look how judgmental she is. 1447 01:35:26.320 --> 01:35:27.320 You don't think like that. 1448 01:35:27.320 --> 01:35:32.800 You wouldn't do that, but it's to affirm myself somehow. 1449 01:35:32.800 --> 01:35:34.280 This is so good, Shelley. 1450 01:35:34.280 --> 01:35:36.480 So when do you see that normally happening? 1451 01:35:36.480 --> 01:35:39.160 Is there something in particular that she's saying? 1452 01:35:39.160 --> 01:35:42.600 I know you're saying like sometimes she'll say stuff, but are there other times that 1453 01:35:42.600 --> 01:35:45.640 you feel like that's kind of kicking into gear for you? 1454 01:35:45.640 --> 01:35:54.240 Yeah, it's, um, like I'll see, um, you know, she'll comment on someone's outfit, which 1455 01:35:54.240 --> 01:35:59.320 is not a big deal, but like she'll comment on someone's outfit or on someone's weight 1456 01:35:59.320 --> 01:36:03.360 or, um, you know, just her, her reaction. 1457 01:36:03.360 --> 01:36:07.320 Like she'll make a big deal about things that to me would be a little deal. 1458 01:36:07.320 --> 01:36:08.320 Like who cares? 1459 01:36:08.320 --> 01:36:12.780 And I'll think to myself, Oh, well, I wouldn't do that. 1460 01:36:12.780 --> 01:36:16.000 My immediate reaction is a comparison that I wouldn't do it. 1461 01:36:16.000 --> 01:36:20.560 Like I'm propping myself up as better than her, you know? 1462 01:36:20.560 --> 01:36:21.560 Yeah. 1463 01:36:21.560 --> 01:36:22.560 Okay. 1464 01:36:22.560 --> 01:36:23.720 But here's my question for you. 1465 01:36:24.200 --> 01:36:28.400 I'm not saying that's wrong because I do think God doesn't want you to judge your mom or 1466 01:36:28.400 --> 01:36:36.520 criticize her, but I don't know, let me, let me ask you this. 1467 01:36:36.520 --> 01:36:41.320 When you were younger, did you feel like your mom was really critical of you? 1468 01:36:41.320 --> 01:36:42.320 Yes. 1469 01:36:42.320 --> 01:36:43.320 Oh yeah. 1470 01:36:43.320 --> 01:36:44.420 Very much so. 1471 01:36:44.420 --> 01:36:49.960 So do you think that maybe what's happening here is actually a self-protection mechanism 1472 01:36:49.960 --> 01:36:56.200 because you are protecting yourself and other people because when she used to criticize 1473 01:36:56.200 --> 01:37:02.440 you as hurtful, so you don't like when she criticizes other people either as like a protection 1474 01:37:02.440 --> 01:37:03.440 thing. 1475 01:37:03.440 --> 01:37:04.600 Oh yeah. 1476 01:37:04.600 --> 01:37:05.960 That's possible for sure. 1477 01:37:05.960 --> 01:37:06.960 Yeah. 1478 01:37:06.960 --> 01:37:11.920 Or like I'm not validate her, um, criticism of someone, you know, like I'm not going to 1479 01:37:11.920 --> 01:37:14.240 give any validation to it. 1480 01:37:14.240 --> 01:37:15.240 Yeah. 1481 01:37:15.240 --> 01:37:17.320 I almost feel like it's more that Shelly. 1482 01:37:17.360 --> 01:37:23.480 I think that while you are saying I wouldn't do that, I think that's coming from the places 1483 01:37:23.480 --> 01:37:30.440 of trauma that still need healed where your mom said things that hurt you personally. 1484 01:37:30.440 --> 01:37:31.440 Okay. 1485 01:37:31.440 --> 01:37:32.440 Yeah. 1486 01:37:32.440 --> 01:37:33.440 Makes sense. 1487 01:37:33.440 --> 01:37:34.440 Yeah. 1488 01:37:34.440 --> 01:37:39.440 So asking the Lord, if there's any, even if you've already done some forgiveness work 1489 01:37:39.440 --> 01:37:46.200 with your mom, excuse me, if there's anything that the Lord brings up, uh, this week just 1490 01:37:46.200 --> 01:37:51.840 regarding like, Hey Lord, is, is there anything that my mom said that I don't even remember 1491 01:37:51.840 --> 01:37:58.640 that I, that's still causing me to like really feel judgmental or critical towards her or 1492 01:37:58.640 --> 01:38:02.160 to just feel really uncomfortable when she's negative. 1493 01:38:02.160 --> 01:38:05.920 Maybe it was growing up and you felt like your mom was super negative and you, so it 1494 01:38:05.920 --> 01:38:08.200 just, you kind of like are repelled by that. 1495 01:38:08.200 --> 01:38:09.840 Does that make sense? 1496 01:38:09.840 --> 01:38:10.840 It does. 1497 01:38:10.840 --> 01:38:11.840 Absolutely. 1498 01:38:11.840 --> 01:38:12.840 Yeah. 1499 01:38:12.840 --> 01:38:16.640 So I'm not going to stay in those places, ladies, but those places also happen, at least 1500 01:38:16.640 --> 01:38:18.840 from my experience. 1501 01:38:18.840 --> 01:38:20.680 And maybe that's why this stood out to me. 1502 01:38:20.680 --> 01:38:23.040 My mom was super negative. 1503 01:38:23.040 --> 01:38:24.360 My mom was manipulative. 1504 01:38:24.360 --> 01:38:25.360 I love her. 1505 01:38:25.360 --> 01:38:26.600 My mom is no longer with me. 1506 01:38:26.600 --> 01:38:31.400 So I always try to be really careful when I tell the stories about my mom, but it was 1507 01:38:31.400 --> 01:38:34.960 very hard to be around her for me. 1508 01:38:34.960 --> 01:38:36.120 Not because I'm perfect. 1509 01:38:36.120 --> 01:38:40.520 I, I have to watch my critical mind too and judgmental stuff. 1510 01:38:40.520 --> 01:38:43.480 That's where the enemy used to always try to trip me up. 1511 01:38:43.480 --> 01:38:49.400 But here's why you all, because my whole family line on my mom's side, that's how they were. 1512 01:38:49.400 --> 01:38:53.600 And I saw it growing up and I didn't like it. 1513 01:38:53.600 --> 01:38:56.160 And so I made a vow. 1514 01:38:56.160 --> 01:38:59.880 We're going to circle back around to the vows here and then we'll start to close. 1515 01:38:59.880 --> 01:39:06.760 I made a vow that I would never be like my mom. 1516 01:39:06.760 --> 01:39:12.520 So I had to forgive my mom for the things that she was saying and doing to me and to 1517 01:39:12.520 --> 01:39:18.240 other people out of her own pain and hurt, hurt people, hurt people, hurt people also 1518 01:39:18.240 --> 01:39:21.640 criticize and demean other people. 1519 01:39:21.640 --> 01:39:22.820 Okay. 1520 01:39:22.820 --> 01:39:28.160 And so forgive her, forgive the incidences that were down underneath the surface. 1521 01:39:28.160 --> 01:39:33.280 And I still work on things you all, I still do even long after my mom's passed away over 1522 01:39:33.280 --> 01:39:35.080 two years ago. 1523 01:39:35.080 --> 01:39:40.120 And God shows me things still, you know, recently just that I'm working on forgiving and letting 1524 01:39:40.120 --> 01:39:44.760 go and releasing, but yeah, really lean into that, Shelly. 1525 01:39:44.760 --> 01:39:47.840 I think there's something really important to that for you. 1526 01:39:47.840 --> 01:39:48.920 Okay. 1527 01:39:48.920 --> 01:39:52.160 And I feel like that's going to be tied to some of the healing you've been walking through 1528 01:39:52.160 --> 01:39:53.160 as well physically. 1529 01:39:53.160 --> 01:39:54.160 Okay. 1530 01:39:54.160 --> 01:39:55.160 Okay. 1531 01:39:55.160 --> 01:39:56.160 Thank you. 1532 01:39:56.160 --> 01:39:57.160 You're welcome. 1533 01:39:57.160 --> 01:39:58.160 Ladies. 1534 01:39:58.160 --> 01:39:59.520 This has been so fun. 1535 01:39:59.520 --> 01:40:00.520 I hope. 1536 01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:03.200 Hope that you are really enjoying engaging, 1537 01:40:00.520 --> 01:40:00.520 1538 01:40:03.200 --> 01:40:05.800 getting to know each other in these breakout sessions. 1539 01:40:05.800 --> 01:40:06.720 I wanna encourage you. 1540 01:40:06.720 --> 01:40:07.700 It was so fun. 1541 01:40:07.700 --> 01:40:11.000 Some of you came in and did your introduction post 1542 01:40:11.000 --> 01:40:13.400 in the group and you are amazing. 1543 01:40:13.400 --> 01:40:14.440 I love seeing you. 1544 01:40:14.440 --> 01:40:16.320 Our team loves seeing you. 1545 01:40:16.320 --> 01:40:18.640 I know, I'm pretty sure the other ladies in this group 1546 01:40:18.640 --> 01:40:19.480 love seeing you. 1547 01:40:19.480 --> 01:40:21.640 If you haven't done introduction posts yet, 1548 01:40:21.640 --> 01:40:24.960 even if you are almost finished with this course, 1549 01:40:24.960 --> 01:40:27.080 I would love for you to do an introduction post. 1550 01:40:27.080 --> 01:40:29.720 If you've already come in and shared here and there, 1551 01:40:30.640 --> 01:40:32.440 but for those of you that are still kind of like, 1552 01:40:32.440 --> 01:40:34.760 I'm not sure if I even wanna say anything, 1553 01:40:34.760 --> 01:40:37.640 I wanna encourage you to go all in. 1554 01:40:37.640 --> 01:40:41.440 Go all in, come into the group and post 1555 01:40:41.440 --> 01:40:46.440 and let yourself be seen and heard and known in every way. 1556 01:40:46.760 --> 01:40:49.280 Father, thank you so much for your amazing work tonight. 1557 01:40:49.280 --> 01:40:53.240 God, we thank you that you, God just love us so much. 1558 01:40:53.240 --> 01:40:56.280 I pray that you would just, yeah, Lord, 1559 01:40:56.280 --> 01:40:58.600 just as Jackie was saying, 1560 01:40:58.600 --> 01:41:00.760 it's not like you're reaching down from heaven up above, 1561 01:41:00.760 --> 01:41:02.160 you're heaven on Saturday. 1562 01:41:02.160 --> 01:41:06.320 She was talking about surrounds us, it's all around us. 1563 01:41:06.320 --> 01:41:07.840 But Lord, would you just help us 1564 01:41:07.840 --> 01:41:10.160 to feel a hug from you tonight? 1565 01:41:10.160 --> 01:41:11.840 Just help every one of these ladies, 1566 01:41:11.840 --> 01:41:13.680 even as they're sleeping, that you would come in 1567 01:41:13.680 --> 01:41:15.840 and do supernatural heart surgery. 1568 01:41:16.960 --> 01:41:18.760 God, that you would bring sale of rest, 1569 01:41:18.760 --> 01:41:21.680 that you would help us to just feel your love 1570 01:41:21.680 --> 01:41:23.520 and your presence and your comfort, 1571 01:41:23.520 --> 01:41:26.200 that you would take us out of these dark places, 1572 01:41:26.200 --> 01:41:29.440 these broken places, the places of pain, 1573 01:41:29.440 --> 01:41:32.440 and help us to step into the places of life 1574 01:41:32.440 --> 01:41:36.720 and renewal and redemption and healing and grace. 1575 01:41:36.720 --> 01:41:40.040 And we just thank you for it, Lord, in Jesus' name. 1576 01:41:40.040 --> 01:41:41.680 All right, y'all, activations. 1577 01:41:41.680 --> 01:41:43.120 I almost forgot. 1578 01:41:43.120 --> 01:41:46.000 Act, oh, Sarah, the introduction post. 1579 01:41:46.000 --> 01:41:49.840 Inside of the Last Year Single app group, 1580 01:41:49.840 --> 01:41:52.400 when you click on the community tab, 1581 01:41:52.400 --> 01:41:55.120 you'll see there's different tabs there. 1582 01:41:55.120 --> 01:41:57.880 The introduction post, if you do those in the All tab, 1583 01:41:57.880 --> 01:42:00.600 that's where we've been having everybody put those. 1584 01:42:00.600 --> 01:42:01.680 We'd love to see you there. 1585 01:42:01.680 --> 01:42:04.560 Okay, activations. 1586 01:42:04.560 --> 01:42:05.720 I almost forgot. 1587 01:42:07.040 --> 01:42:08.600 Practice letting men help you 1588 01:42:08.600 --> 01:42:11.440 or people in general helping you. 1589 01:42:11.440 --> 01:42:13.640 But here's the one I actually wrote on my paper. 1590 01:42:13.640 --> 01:42:15.040 So you guys have two again. 1591 01:42:15.040 --> 01:42:16.520 I keep giving y'all two. 1592 01:42:16.520 --> 01:42:18.400 Sometimes you guys do, and sometimes you don't. 1593 01:42:18.400 --> 01:42:20.040 But it's okay, they'll stay in your mind. 1594 01:42:20.040 --> 01:42:23.120 Some of you guys might do these even well into phase two. 1595 01:42:24.120 --> 01:42:26.000 I wanna activate fun this week. 1596 01:42:26.920 --> 01:42:29.800 As you all are working on heart work, 1597 01:42:29.800 --> 01:42:32.480 it can get hard, right? 1598 01:42:32.480 --> 01:42:35.600 And some days it can feel heavy. 1599 01:42:35.600 --> 01:42:39.160 And so it's important for us to get our bodies moving. 1600 01:42:39.160 --> 01:42:42.400 If you didn't know, drinking plenty of water is critical. 1601 01:42:42.400 --> 01:42:44.600 Getting extra rest is really important. 1602 01:42:44.600 --> 01:42:46.080 Treat your body well. 1603 01:42:46.080 --> 01:42:48.560 But having fun is so important too. 1604 01:42:48.560 --> 01:42:50.320 So we're gonna activate fun. 1605 01:42:50.320 --> 01:42:51.600 And this is how we're gonna do it. 1606 01:42:51.720 --> 01:42:53.840 I wanna encourage you to go out 1607 01:42:53.840 --> 01:42:55.880 and activate your inner child, 1608 01:42:55.880 --> 01:42:58.120 your inner little girl self, 1609 01:42:59.160 --> 01:43:02.560 and do something fun like get on the swings and swing. 1610 01:43:03.520 --> 01:43:06.840 If you are physically able, 1611 01:43:06.840 --> 01:43:09.360 hey, my older ladies may not be able to do this. 1612 01:43:09.360 --> 01:43:10.200 Bless you. 1613 01:43:10.200 --> 01:43:11.120 Some of you might be able to do it 1614 01:43:11.120 --> 01:43:12.160 better than the younger ones, 1615 01:43:12.160 --> 01:43:13.960 but I just want you to be careful. 1616 01:43:13.960 --> 01:43:15.040 Climb a tree. 1617 01:43:15.040 --> 01:43:16.480 That's what I was gonna say. 1618 01:43:16.480 --> 01:43:17.720 Climb a tree. 1619 01:43:17.720 --> 01:43:19.480 Jump in rain puddles. 1620 01:43:19.520 --> 01:43:22.560 Be silly and do something you love doing as a kid. 1621 01:43:22.560 --> 01:43:26.000 Maybe go buy Play-Doh and play with Play-Doh. 1622 01:43:26.000 --> 01:43:26.840 I don't know. 1623 01:43:26.840 --> 01:43:29.600 Whatever the things are that make you, 1624 01:43:29.600 --> 01:43:31.840 kind of take you to that place. 1625 01:43:33.560 --> 01:43:35.920 As a kid, maybe you need to have a PJ party 1626 01:43:35.920 --> 01:43:38.520 with a girlfriend or two and paint nails. 1627 01:43:39.400 --> 01:43:43.480 And literally like PJ party, hang out, laugh, 1628 01:43:43.480 --> 01:43:46.360 giggle, watch a funny movie, practice laughing. 1629 01:43:46.360 --> 01:43:48.320 Some of you, that's what you need to do. 1630 01:43:48.320 --> 01:43:52.800 You need to watch a clean, funny movie and laugh. 1631 01:43:52.800 --> 01:43:56.240 And when you do, some of you guys are gonna end up crying 1632 01:43:57.640 --> 01:44:00.160 because the laughter is good medicine 1633 01:44:00.160 --> 01:44:01.880 and it might open the door to the other. 1634 01:44:01.880 --> 01:44:04.120 So if that happens, don't worry. 1635 01:44:04.120 --> 01:44:04.960 It's normal. 1636 01:44:04.960 --> 01:44:07.240 But if you just laugh, that's okay too. 1637 01:44:07.240 --> 01:44:08.320 Okay? 1638 01:44:08.320 --> 01:44:11.640 And if you're brave enough, take a photo. 1639 01:44:11.640 --> 01:44:12.480 Yes. 1640 01:44:12.480 --> 01:44:14.040 Take a photo on that. 1641 01:44:14.040 --> 01:44:15.280 Don't do it when you're up in there. 1642 01:44:15.280 --> 01:44:18.040 On the swing and show us that you're swinging 1643 01:44:18.760 --> 01:44:21.360 and you're having fun and tell us how that impacted you. 1644 01:44:22.440 --> 01:44:25.680 All these things add up y'all to supernatural breakthrough. 1645 01:44:25.680 --> 01:44:27.920 We love you and we look forward to seeing you in the group. 1646 01:44:27.920 --> 01:44:29.320 I hope you guys have a great night. 1647 01:44:29.320 --> 01:44:30.160 Okay? 1648 01:44:30.160 --> 01:44:31.160 God bless you.