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Good evening, welcome everyone.

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Hi ladies with your cameras on.

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Hello everyone else.

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If you're able, turn your cameras on and let me see you.

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Love to see you all.

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Who is joining us new for the first time tonight?

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You've never been on a live session with us.

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Let us know that you're here and you're joining for the first time

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so that we can welcome you.

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And then if you all are able,

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if your screen name says something like user phone or anything like

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iPhone, if you tap on your screen, you should see three dots.

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Go ahead and click on that.

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And then you'll see an option that's renamed.

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If you can just at least put your first name in there for me,

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so I know who you are.

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Denise, welcome for your first time.

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Sophia, welcome for your first time.

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Awesome.

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Anyone else joining for the first time?

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I know a couple ladies just logged in.

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Go ahead and let us know in the chat.

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As you all start to do that, I don't know if I actually said my name.

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For those that are new, I'm Bethany Cooper.

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I am the Master Heart Work Coach in our community.

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And just love what I'm doing,

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love that God led me here to first go through what you all are going

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through.

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So I've been where you are and just super grateful for all God has done

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in my life in the last three and a half years.

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So honored to get to know all of you a little bit and get a glimpse of

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what God is doing in your life.

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But most importantly,

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just the blessing of seeing God setting so many people free through this

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community and what he's doing here and helping people, you know,

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break, breaking free and financial and jobs and career,

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family reconciliation, walking into, you know, spirit, make connections.

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And it's just been an incredible journey. And that is,

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that is what's in store for you. It is.

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But first we do the heart work because that's what works.

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It really changes. Everything's so welcome. Let's see.

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It says iPhone is first time. So let me know who you are, Sarah.

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Welcome for your first time as well.

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And then ladies who have been here, welcome back. It's so good to see you.

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A couple of little housekeeping plugs, a supernatural Saturday.

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If you all don't know what that is yet,

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that's when typically Jackie will come live and she'll just release some

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things that she's been hearing from God or God's nudging her to share with

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us. And this last Saturday was about disciplining our minds and overcoming

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negative thoughts. And you all, we kind of, we talked on that last week and,

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you know,

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Jackie had no clue what we touched on last week and she didn't know what we

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were going to talk about tonight,

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but it's really an amazing centerpiece to the bookends of last week and

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tonight. So if you haven't heard that yet,

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definitely want to encourage you to listen to that.

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That is in the replay section of the app.

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I'm going to do a quick little run through.

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I'm probably going to do shorter than I did this afternoon. Just because we,

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I cannot talk.

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We ran out of time this afternoon and I don't want to do that this evening,

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but I want to show those of you that are new and maybe even you've been here

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a week or two, and you're just not sure what our tabs in the app are for.

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So I want to do just a quick walkthrough of our app.

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So when y'all are in the community tab of the phase one app,

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what you're looking at right now, this is my desktop version of the app.

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So it looks a little different on the phone, but not a lot.

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You all won't have the settings tab. That's because I'm an admin.

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So I see different stuff, but you all have community tab.

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You have courses tab, replays, events, and resources.

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Anybody that isn't sure where to find the events.

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So these live sessions or the prayer calls, if you click on that events tab,

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it's going to bring up our calendar and it'll populate here in a minute.

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And it's going to have all of the things that are on your calendar for phase

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one in here.

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When you click on that, the zoom link is there.

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I will say as a reminder, best practice,

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ladies log into zoom before you click this link.

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If you still have trouble, when you click on this link,

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if you scroll down just like I did,

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you're going to see a meeting ID and passcode here.

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If you go directly to zoom and click, join a meeting and enter that,

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you should get right in. I know it's a couple more steps, but it will work.

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Unfortunately we can't fix we've been trying. It's not on our end,

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but there are certain types of phones that are not working as well with those

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So unfortunately it just is not something we can fix right away.

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It might just take a little while longer with the certain phone users.

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And the other thing I wanted to make sure tonight that I went over when

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you're on the community tab, we have these different tabs here at the top,

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all wins, ask a coach relationship milestone, first and foremost,

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it's okay if you don't get it in the place that you intended to get it.

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No matter what, your post will be seen,

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and one of our team members will get back to you as soon as we can.

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But I did want to let you know,

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if you have a specific question about something you're processing,

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about the program,

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maybe you can't find out where something's at,

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if you click on what's on your mind,

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I'm going to create a post.

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If I click on, ask a coach,

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it's going to highlight that gold.

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I'll want to unhighlight all,

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and then I can type in my post and whatever question I have to share.

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I'm going to give you all a pro tip too.

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I would encourage you, especially if you have

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a post that you think might be a little longer,

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I would type that in the notes on your phone,

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and then just copy it,

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and then paste it in the post.

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I've had some people,

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after they poured their hearts out,

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accidentally closed it, and they're so discouraged.

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I want to protect you all from that.

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Just sometimes people bump it and it just closes or whatever.

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Type it out, maybe copy and paste it.

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That's what I do for a lot of the pin posts that you all see.

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I type things in a totally different document and copy and paste them.

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The other one, just so you all know,

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so wins from our perspective is any win that you experience.

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Maybe you're getting breakthrough,

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maybe there's something you've been praying for,

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maybe something you put on your Jesus cares board,

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that God is starting to answer,

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you're starting to see some movement there.

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Maybe it's just, hey,

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God gave me this aha in revelation during the session tonight.

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It's whatever is a win for you, big or small.

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Relationship milestones, these are not dating.

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In phase 1, this is like when you all have people that you're praying for about

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relationship and you need reconciliation or peace or whatever the dynamic is there.

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We want you to come in here and testify about what God is doing.

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I think it's still in here.

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You might find, okay,

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so I did a post way back six months ago.

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I would encourage you all even to read this.

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I believe it'll give you a lot of hope in faith regarding reconciliation and how God

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will work even as some of you enter spirit mate relationships in the future,

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how God might use your spirit mate to bring reconciliation as well.

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If you want to check that out,

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but that's what that tab is for.

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All literally means anything,

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anything that you want to post about.

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Again, if you post and it's a win and it goes in all,

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that's totally fine.

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But I did want you all to know what the different tabs are for.

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Ask a coach if you have a question.

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We're going to see it there first.

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Every day when I go in to answer people,

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that's the first tab I go to,

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and then typically I go to all and I'll check the other ones as well.

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But just want you all to have that understanding of that side of things.

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Laura, sometimes some people just really they have to do the manual.

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I had to do that for a long time and then way back a year ago in

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a different method we were using and it eventually went away,

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so I don't know what that is.

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One other thing I wanted to tell you all,

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when you all get to the week that has divorce and remarriage session in it,

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I really want to encourage everybody to watch it,

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even if you've never been divorced.

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Okay? Here's why.

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A, you all probably know someone that has gone through divorce.

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Some of you, your spirit mates might be divorced.

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I know for some of you, you're just like,

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I'm never going to marry someone that's been divorced.

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But I'm just going to let some of you know,

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God might lead you to that person.

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Okay? But be open.

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Be open to what God wants to teach you through that.

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We have so many people that absolutely get breakthrough hearing this message.

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There's a lot of wrong teaching about divorce and remarriage

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and a lot of misunderstanding about what the Bible scriptures,

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you know, that Paul was saying, and it's been misused and mishandled.

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And so I want to encourage you all, don't skip over that.

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Okay? Make sure you're listening to that.

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Investing in your self-care throughout your journey is super important.

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Again, drinking lots of water, getting plenty of rest,

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eating healthy and moving your body.

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Okay. Let me pray for us.

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And then we're going to get started tonight.

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Father, thank you so much for this night.

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Thank you, God, for just being such a close friend.

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And Father, thank you for coming in with good gifts

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that you desire to give us from heaven.

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Even when we don't believe that, God,

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I thank you that you would impart the gift of faith into us tonight.

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I ask you to increase our faith

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through understanding the principles of heaven.

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We ask you to bring anything out of darkness into the light

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so that there can be healing and redemption and restoration, God,

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that we would be, yes, Lord,

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the book that other people would read.

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Testimonies would bring a life to those who read them.

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God, we thank you that you are working,

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even right now in our stories.

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I thank you, God, that you're weaving a tapestry

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that is going to be a masterpiece,

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far beyond what we could ever ask, think, or imagine.

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We thank you, God, for placing the balm of Gilead

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upon our hearts, our minds, our bodies,

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our spirits, and our souls,

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and restoring us from the inside out.

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We thank you, Lord.

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Yes, Lord, any place where we feel afraid

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to admit our mistakes,

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we ask you to help us to come out of shame

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and come into the fullness of your light and your love.

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We thank you, God, that you would help us

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to even be reconciled with ourselves.

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Holy Spirit, thanks for being here.

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We ask you to come and just have your way.

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Weave in and out of conversations through this teaching.

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Just give me ideas and understanding,

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even as I'm conveying what I've prepared in advance, God.

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You know the examples and the situations

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all of these women have been through.

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So Lord, help me to hear what your Spirit is saying

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and convey it to them.

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In Jesus' name, amen.

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All right, ladies, so we're going tonight

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through overcoming fear and anxiety, as well as control.

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So that's kind of what we're gonna be tracking through

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this evening.

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And I want you all just to start thinking

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about the last week or so.

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And I want you to ask the Lord to reveal to you

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any area where you have struggled with fear or anxiety.

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And I just want you to start as things,

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I don't know what's going on tonight, y'all.

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I'm getting extra words coming out of my mouth.

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Pray for me.

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Thank you, Jesus, for clarity.

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As things are coming up in your spirit,

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as I'm talking and teaching,

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I wanna encourage you to write some things down

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on your paper and just let the Holy Spirit lead you.

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Some of you might not even realize

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that anxiety and fear were the source

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of what you were encountering this past week.

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So just be open to what Holy Spirit brings up.

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As we start tonight's session,

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I want you to also think about

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how impressionable our hearts are.

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This afternoon, I have never thought of this before,

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but I thought of like when you go to the dentist

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and you have, you know, they do an impression of your teeth.

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That's so that they can know every crack

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and crevice of your teeth and all of those things.

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you're leaving an impression.

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our ear gates, everything that we've heard for years,

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as well as the things that we say to ourselves,

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they are leaving an impression on our hearts.

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is that it can impact everybody,

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but different people get impacted on different levels.

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you feel a lot, like you feel deep.

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but for example, I'm an INFJ.

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I feel things all the time.

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I can walk into a room with people,

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even in the church and feel negative things

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coming from people that I'm not even by.

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if that is something that you experience,

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you're probably gonna have to be more careful

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about what you listen to, what you watch,

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what you take in, like I said, through your eyes.

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if I start seeing a lot of negative stuff,

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I've gotta get eye log out

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because my spirit just picks up on that so quick.

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your heart is highly impressionable.

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the Lord just said, some of you need to like,

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be thinking about your friends,

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your friend circles and the things your friends are saying.

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but then you're walking away from those conversations

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with family and friends and not feeling so encouraged.

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they're not the right person to be sharing with

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about those details.

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if that's happening.

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but it just means maybe you need to be careful

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about how much you share with them.

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Proverbs 4.23 in the ESV version says this,

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"'Keep your heart with all vigilance,

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"'for from it flows the springs of life.'"

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"'Keep your heart with all vigilance,

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"'for from it flows the springs of life.'"

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Vigilance, the definition is the quality or state

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of being vigilant.

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Vigilant means alertly watchful.

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to avoid danger. If you were on Saturday, Jackie was talking about how important it is for us to

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have a door by our heart, okay? Now a door is different than a wall. A wall is going to keep

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people out. A door opens and closes on hinges, right? But not only do we need a door, she said

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we need to have a guard. Not that we wall people out and that we're afraid of everything, but we

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need to have a guard there. We need to protect our hearts from everything coming right on in.

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James 3 11 through 12 says, can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? My

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brothers and sisters, can a fig tree bear olives or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring

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produce fresh water. I'm using that scripture because we may need to also pause and ask the

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Lord to show us what parts of our hearts are producing fresh water and other parts that,

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in this sense, it's saying, you know, that salt water, but let's think of it in the sense of,

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like, things that are salty, things that are negative. It's in there. It's everything bitter,

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like the sea is kind of salty, right? I think I've heard that before. But it wasn't very good.

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Oh, did I did I just get a little bit weird there for a minute? Okay, are we all caught up? All

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right. So be thinking about what's in your heart. Is there bitterness and stuff in there that's

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contaminating the fresh water, the fresh spring? The Bible also declares that rivers of living

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water will flow up out of our bellies. They're down in there, and they can flow up and out

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when we are spending time in the presence and we're spending time with the Lord,

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and we want that stuff to come out. So we need to be careful about what we're letting in.

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I was watching the heartwork the other day with a friend of mine that I'm walking through it. And

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I've watched these heartwork videos, ladies, time and time again. But I heard something

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that I don't think I've really noticed before. And in week two, one of the videos,

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Jackie said that we don't want to leave our hearts wide open so that people with dirty shoes can walk

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right in and stomp all over our heart. You know, they're bringing all their mess in. So is there

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anybody in your life right now that you're allowing them full access, but they're stomping

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all over your heart because they're not healthy? Things that they're doing, things that they're

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saying, does it mean we need to get rid of them and get them out of our lives? No, but we do need

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to guard our hearts, being alertly watchful to avoid danger. All right, fear. What is it? Fear

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is false evidence appearing real, ladies. So I asked you kind of to start noting what was a fear

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or anxiety you struggled with in the last week. I want you to think about that fear and start to

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ask the Holy Spirit, what was the false thing in that that the enemy was trying to make look real?

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Just like when Jesus was in the wilderness and Satan came to tempt him. Again, I think I use

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this example a week or two ago. Satan tried to bring this little piece of truth, but he twisted

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it. It wasn't truth. Jesus knew it wasn't. And that's why he spoke truth to Satan and overcame

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every one of those temptations and struggles. We will also encounter similar things where the enemy

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will take a piece of truth and try to twist it so that we are confused. And then we're left with

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fears and all these things. So fear is false evidence appearing real. Anxiety is fueled by

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fear. And what if thoughts? Anxiety is fueled by fear and what if thoughts? How many what if

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thoughts have you had in the past week? What if this happens? What if that happens? What if

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what if they say this? What if they think that, you know, you post in the group and you're like,

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what if they think I'm, what if they think I'm stupid? What if they think that's weird? What if

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they, the enemy loves to get us into these what if statements and questions, and we never have

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peace when we live in those places. So we need to really, again, take that time to think about

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what we're thinking about, which is what Jackie talked about Saturday. And I talked about last

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week. Trauma that happened to us isn't what's

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stops us from living an amazing life, ladies.

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Yes, those were horrible things that we went through,

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but here's what actually keeps us

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from living an abundant life.

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It's the lies we believe as a result of the trauma.

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Fears and anxiety feed off of the lies.

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Do you see the core underneath

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of all of the fear and anxiety

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most of you are experiencing is lies,

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and the lies are connected to trauma and wounds.

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One of the things I started sharing this afternoon,

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and again, I try to tell a very, very fine line

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because I'm a coach, I'm not a counselor, I'm not a doctor,

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but there are some things that I've learned along the way

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that I think will be helpful for you.

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The reason we talk so much about investing in self-care,

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drinking the water, moving your body,

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and all of those things,

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as you're going through the heart work,

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you're processing all of this trauma

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and these things that have been stored up in your body.

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It's been stored up in your cells specifically,

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and as you are processing,

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that stuff is going to get released,

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and we need it to flush through your body, okay?

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We need it to come out of there.

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There are a lot of times where some of you,

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and when I, I think it's important to say this as well,

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I am not minimizing the struggles

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that people have with anxiety.

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I wanna be real clear on that

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because some people specifically have anxiety disorders,

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dread disorders,

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they really, really struggle with this stuff.

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It's very real to them.

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I used to have like panic attacks

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about actual fear of the dark.

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It took me a while to overcome that stuff.

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I had to train my brain, I had to train my body.

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I had to cause, teach my body to submit to truth.

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Was it easy?

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No, but was it possible?

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Yes.

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Now, everybody has a different process.

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Some people have a longer journey in that healing process.

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We believe that all anxiety and fear

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does come from the pain and the trauma and the lies.

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it typically is coming from fragmentation

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and brokenness in our spirit and soul.

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The more that you heal,

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the more you're going to be able to overcome those things.

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As I've healed over the years,

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I absolutely do not have the level of body trigger responses

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that I had years ago.

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Do I still on occasion?

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Yes, I'd be lying if I told you no,

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but they are way different

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and I'm able to recognize them so much faster

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and help my body process them so much quicker.

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One of the things I pray a lot,

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I still do, and I did years ago,

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I pray and I ask the Lord to heal me and my cells,

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to actually cause my body

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to regenerate cells supernaturally.

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I want new cells,

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because when I was a kid,

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I don't think it's fair that my cells

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had to store up all kinds of toxins

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because of unhealthy choices of other people

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that put me through abuse and all of those kinds of things.

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he loves me and he wants me

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to have an accelerated healing process.

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And so that's something I've been praying and believing.

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So I just want to put that out there for you all.

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We can pray big, we can believe big,

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and I can believe for supernatural healing.

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And if you want to as well, you can as well.

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So for some of you that have felt stuck

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in certain trigger patterns for a long time,

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in addition to the heart work,

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that might be something you want to pray,

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because there might be some things stored up in there

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that your body just doesn't know how to get rid of

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on its own.

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So you need supernatural heart physician

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and healing surgeon, which is God himself.

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So you all, he can do surgery while you sleep.

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He can, all right?

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Any areas where you feel stuck.

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I'm stuck here, I just can't move past this,

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or this is a problem area,

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I just keep having the same issue,

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I keep attracting the same kind of guy,

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or this afternoon we had a young lady that was sharing,

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she tends to have these struggles with women in particular,

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and maintaining relationships with women,

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which is a lie the enemy is trying to convince her of.

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And as we unpacked it, she was like, oh yeah,

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I did just have breakthrough like yesterday at church.

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She was looking around and she had all these women around her

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and she was having good relationship with them.

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And so God is healing her and helping her see

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that that is not true for her.

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It never was, but even more so now she's gaining revelation

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that she is able to make healthy relationships and maintain.

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them. So when we have these areas though, when we feel stuck or these problem

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areas, they are signals to us that there are lies that we're believing in those

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areas. Okay? So I want you to think about areas where you have felt stuck, problem

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areas, and start asking the Lord to reveal the lies that you've been

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believing in those areas specifically. I'm going to read a little bit to you

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from the Heartwork book. I clarified this today, I never thought about it. The only

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book I'll ever read from during our sessions is the Heartwork book. I'm never

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gonna read from another book, but some people always ask, what book are you

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reading from? Always the Heartwork, ladies. We're here for Heartwork and that's

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that's my sole focus. But I'm gonna read, it's a little bit about the biggest

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lie that we tend to believe, and I think this is super important and regarding

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the fear that some of you face as well. This is what it says, the biggest lie

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that you may believe in life is that your life is normal. Many people that

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live broken lives believe that it's reasonable to live that way. They have

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inherited that emotional debt or trauma from their family and they think it's

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normal to be overweight and unhappy, to be unfaithful, to be in a relationship

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where someone mistreats you, or to be sick all the time. They think it's okay

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to have massive amounts of debt and spend all their energy trying to figure

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out how to pay the bills, or even more severe deception, like it's normal to

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abuse and hurt others or yourself. I knew someone like that, they thought it was

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normal to be molested by family members because it's all they had ever known.

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When they were confronted by an outsider about the abuse, they said that happens

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in everyone's family, doesn't it? No, it does not. Maybe you have been

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confronted by people in your life, friends, co-workers, or even family that

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are trying to get you to see how dysfunctional an area of your life has

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00:26:54.500 --> 00:26:58.860
become. I have done this for people over the years. Some people call it an

487
00:26:58.860 --> 00:27:03.060
intervention. It's a reality check when someone is so deep in a lie that their

488
00:27:03.060 --> 00:27:08.380
behavior has become dangerous to others or themselves. The desired outcome is

489
00:27:08.380 --> 00:27:14.620
that that person will wake up and see what they are doing and ask for help. So,

490
00:27:14.620 --> 00:27:19.500
have you been convinced that your life is normal? That the pain and the trauma

491
00:27:19.500 --> 00:27:25.780
that you've been experiencing is normal? That when we overeat to hide our

492
00:27:25.780 --> 00:27:31.060
feelings and stuff, the emotions that we actually have, that that's normal? It's

493
00:27:31.060 --> 00:27:38.700
not. And so when we can actually admit that we're struggling there and start to

494
00:27:38.700 --> 00:27:45.100
ask for help and start to ask for Lord, where did this begin? I know for me, I

495
00:27:45.100 --> 00:27:49.620
learned how to stuff my feelings with food because I watched my mom and my

496
00:27:49.620 --> 00:27:55.260
sister do it. They used to hide food in their bedrooms so that they could eat in

497
00:27:55.260 --> 00:28:02.140
private when they were sad and depressed. And so whether I realized or not,

498
00:28:02.140 --> 00:28:06.460
subconsciously, I knew they were hiding the food in their rooms. I knew my mom

499
00:28:06.460 --> 00:28:09.420
and my sister were both very sad all the time. My mom didn't get out of bed a

500
00:28:09.420 --> 00:28:13.820
lot when I was younger. I mean, she went to work, y'all. She did. She took care of us

501
00:28:13.820 --> 00:28:17.500
in that regard. But on the weekends, some days she would literally never get up.

502
00:28:17.500 --> 00:28:23.740
She'd just stay up there all day. And so we start to carry these things into our

503
00:28:23.740 --> 00:28:29.940
adult lives, young adult life, you know, adult life. And we don't pause to think,

504
00:28:29.940 --> 00:28:36.540
where did this start for me? How does that connect with fear? Well, fear, again,

505
00:28:36.540 --> 00:28:41.620
is connected to the lies we believe because of the trauma that we've been

506
00:28:41.620 --> 00:28:46.500
through. If we're not addressing the pain, we're going to do all different kinds of

507
00:28:46.500 --> 00:28:52.100
things when we get triggered, potentially. I want you to pause and ask yourself

508
00:28:52.100 --> 00:28:56.820
about, you know, that fear earlier I asked you to think about. I want you to now ask

509
00:28:56.980 --> 00:29:03.620
yourself, what are the facts? What are the facts and what is true? I asked you to

510
00:29:03.620 --> 00:29:07.260
start thinking about, like, how is the enemy trying to twist the truth to cause

511
00:29:07.260 --> 00:29:12.180
you to believe his lie? But now I want you to think, what's the facts

512
00:29:12.180 --> 00:29:19.100
about this? Because fear is false evidence appearing real. So what's real?

513
00:29:19.100 --> 00:29:24.660
What's true? And we want to think on those things instead. And if we don't

514
00:29:24.660 --> 00:29:29.180
know what the truth is, all we need to do is go to the Word of God. And I'm not

515
00:29:29.180 --> 00:29:35.420
trying to simplify it, ladies, but it is genuinely your way forward. It is

516
00:29:35.420 --> 00:29:40.140
the beacon of hope in life for you. The more you know the Word and know the

517
00:29:40.140 --> 00:29:43.860
Father, most importantly, because that's who you're going to get to know, Jesus's

518
00:29:43.860 --> 00:29:48.020
voice, the Father's voice, and the voice of the Holy Spirit, the more that you

519
00:29:48.020 --> 00:29:54.060
read the Word, not out of law or checking off a list, but out of, like, man, I want

520
00:29:54.060 --> 00:29:59.900
to get to know you, Father. Jesus, I want to, I want to understand what it was like

521
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:04.380
like for you when you lived on this earth and died for me?

522
00:30:06.080 --> 00:30:07.640
When we pray those kinds of prayers,

523
00:30:07.640 --> 00:30:10.120
things begin to change from the inside out.

524
00:30:10.120 --> 00:30:12.720
We can overcome fears the more we heal

525
00:30:12.720 --> 00:30:14.080
and the more we become rooted

526
00:30:14.080 --> 00:30:16.440
in God's love and faithfulness to us.

527
00:30:17.780 --> 00:30:19.800
Are you someone who tends to always wait

528
00:30:19.800 --> 00:30:21.460
for the other shoe to drop?

529
00:30:23.400 --> 00:30:25.840
Maybe you tend to think of the worst case scenario

530
00:30:25.840 --> 00:30:27.780
instead of the best case scenario.

531
00:30:28.620 --> 00:30:31.660
Maybe you hear a siren and you automatically think

532
00:30:31.660 --> 00:30:34.660
something happened to someone that you love.

533
00:30:34.660 --> 00:30:35.500
Can I see hands?

534
00:30:35.500 --> 00:30:38.220
Does everyone know how to raise a digital hand?

535
00:30:38.220 --> 00:30:39.500
I showed everyone this afternoon

536
00:30:39.500 --> 00:30:40.460
because I think it does help.

537
00:30:40.460 --> 00:30:42.340
If you don't know, it's totally okay.

538
00:30:42.340 --> 00:30:44.300
But if you click on the bottom of your screen

539
00:30:44.300 --> 00:30:48.260
whether or tap on it, it might be under reactions for you.

540
00:30:48.260 --> 00:30:51.500
Mine's right, literally, I see raise hand.

541
00:30:51.500 --> 00:30:52.980
It might be under more.

542
00:30:52.980 --> 00:30:55.260
So everybody has them under different things

543
00:30:55.260 --> 00:30:56.660
but those should be there for you.

544
00:30:56.660 --> 00:30:57.740
Yeah, there you go.

545
00:30:58.580 --> 00:31:00.140
Okay, so I just wanna make sure everyone knew how to do it.

546
00:31:00.140 --> 00:31:01.820
So here's what I want you.

547
00:31:01.820 --> 00:31:03.420
Okay, let me lower hands.

548
00:31:03.420 --> 00:31:06.760
I'll have you all, I can do it for you.

549
00:31:06.760 --> 00:31:09.500
And then I'm gonna ask you a question.

550
00:31:09.500 --> 00:31:14.500
And if this is something you experience,

551
00:31:15.540 --> 00:31:18.400
I want you to raise your hand, okay?

552
00:31:20.140 --> 00:31:22.780
Does someone ever text you?

553
00:31:22.780 --> 00:31:25.420
I'm sorry, do you ever text someone else?

554
00:31:25.420 --> 00:31:27.620
Do you ever text, wait until I finish all the way

555
00:31:28.460 --> 00:31:29.700
because we all text, right?

556
00:31:29.700 --> 00:31:32.960
When you text someone else, do you ever struggle

557
00:31:32.960 --> 00:31:35.420
when they don't respond in the timeframe

558
00:31:35.420 --> 00:31:37.260
you think that they should with thoughts

559
00:31:37.260 --> 00:31:40.580
like they are mad at me, they don't care about me,

560
00:31:40.580 --> 00:31:42.260
they must be talking to someone else,

561
00:31:42.260 --> 00:31:44.800
I'm not good enough, I'm not pretty enough.

562
00:31:44.800 --> 00:31:46.580
Whatever the negative thought is,

563
00:31:46.580 --> 00:31:49.740
do you tend to think of the worst case scenario?

564
00:31:49.740 --> 00:31:51.300
Okay, we have a couple of you.

565
00:31:51.300 --> 00:31:56.060
So these are all things built in fear, fear, fear.

566
00:31:56.060 --> 00:31:57.340
And guess what?

567
00:31:57.340 --> 00:32:02.300
Anxious attachment is birthed out of anxious thoughts

568
00:32:02.300 --> 00:32:06.380
and partnering with those and not getting control of those.

569
00:32:06.380 --> 00:32:08.800
And then before we know it,

570
00:32:08.800 --> 00:32:11.060
we're struggling to attach securely

571
00:32:11.060 --> 00:32:13.520
because we're anxious, anxious, anxious all the time.

572
00:32:13.520 --> 00:32:14.460
We're so afraid.

573
00:32:14.460 --> 00:32:16.700
And so I wanna encourage you all,

574
00:32:16.700 --> 00:32:18.020
if this is something you struggle with,

575
00:32:18.020 --> 00:32:21.540
just so you know, I'm a former struggler in this area.

576
00:32:21.540 --> 00:32:23.700
So I'm saying that this is something

577
00:32:23.700 --> 00:32:25.220
I struggled with as well.

578
00:32:25.220 --> 00:32:27.180
I wanna encourage you this next week,

579
00:32:27.180 --> 00:32:29.060
if you're texting with someone,

580
00:32:29.060 --> 00:32:31.060
hopefully y'all aren't chatting with boys right now

581
00:32:31.060 --> 00:32:33.600
because we ask you to press pause on that.

582
00:32:33.600 --> 00:32:38.460
But even if it's with a friend, ladies, or family members,

583
00:32:38.460 --> 00:32:41.940
because I think this happens with a lot of people now.

584
00:32:41.940 --> 00:32:43.860
We notice it with my mother-in-law.

585
00:32:43.860 --> 00:32:45.740
If we don't text her when she messages us,

586
00:32:45.740 --> 00:32:49.140
she'll send us a message saying, hello,

587
00:32:49.140 --> 00:32:51.180
which we don't like that.

588
00:32:51.180 --> 00:32:53.260
Because sometimes we're literally on meetings

589
00:32:53.260 --> 00:32:55.340
or this afternoon, I was on a live session.

590
00:32:55.340 --> 00:32:57.700
She doesn't know what we're doing all the time,

591
00:32:57.700 --> 00:32:59.880
but people don't have to know

592
00:32:59.880 --> 00:33:01.740
what we're doing all the time.

593
00:33:01.740 --> 00:33:03.660
We don't need to know what other people

594
00:33:03.660 --> 00:33:05.100
are doing all the time.

595
00:33:05.100 --> 00:33:10.100
We can rest and have a stillness of mind and just say,

596
00:33:12.300 --> 00:33:13.660
I'm gonna believe the best

597
00:33:13.660 --> 00:33:14.860
and they're gonna get back to me

598
00:33:14.860 --> 00:33:17.560
when they're able to get back to me.

599
00:33:17.560 --> 00:33:20.580
So here's the thing, I want to challenge you this week.

600
00:33:20.580 --> 00:33:23.980
If you struggle in this area, set a timer

601
00:33:23.980 --> 00:33:28.500
and do not text them back until that timer goes off.

602
00:33:28.500 --> 00:33:32.300
Even if they don't text you when you want them to.

603
00:33:32.300 --> 00:33:35.580
Now, if they text you and you feel like you wanna respond

604
00:33:35.580 --> 00:33:37.780
before that timer goes off, okay.

605
00:33:37.780 --> 00:33:39.460
But some of you actually need to wait

606
00:33:39.460 --> 00:33:40.980
until after that timer goes off

607
00:33:40.980 --> 00:33:44.740
because you need to practice self-control in this area.

608
00:33:44.740 --> 00:33:47.200
And the more we practice self-control

609
00:33:47.200 --> 00:33:49.500
regarding our anxious thoughts

610
00:33:49.540 --> 00:33:51.420
and feeling like we always have to respond

611
00:33:51.420 --> 00:33:52.500
to everybody all the way.

612
00:33:52.500 --> 00:33:54.980
Y'all, especially because I do online ministry all the time,

613
00:33:54.980 --> 00:33:58.420
this is something I always, like even lately,

614
00:33:58.420 --> 00:34:00.440
I used to get really like, oh man,

615
00:34:00.440 --> 00:34:02.620
I don't want any Facebook messages

616
00:34:02.620 --> 00:34:05.380
like where it shows I have unread messages

617
00:34:05.380 --> 00:34:07.140
or unread text messages.

618
00:34:07.140 --> 00:34:10.580
And it's such a big thing because I get so many messages.

619
00:34:10.580 --> 00:34:13.500
And the last few months, the Lord is like,

620
00:34:13.500 --> 00:34:16.520
do not respond to that until you need to.

621
00:34:16.520 --> 00:34:19.060
You don't even need to open that and look at that.

622
00:34:19.900 --> 00:34:24.340
And He's like nudging me to not let that stress me out.

623
00:34:24.340 --> 00:34:27.900
And so again, it's in different levels as we go.

624
00:34:27.900 --> 00:34:30.139
For you right now, it might be one relationship,

625
00:34:30.139 --> 00:34:32.540
but who knows why God's gonna teach you

626
00:34:32.540 --> 00:34:35.540
to train yourself with this one person right now,

627
00:34:35.540 --> 00:34:39.020
why it might benefit you even more so later on.

628
00:34:39.020 --> 00:34:41.760
So be thinking about that as you're practicing this week.

629
00:34:41.760 --> 00:34:44.020
Now that goes kind of with that fear and anxiety,

630
00:34:44.020 --> 00:34:45.739
but I've just felt led to say that

631
00:34:45.739 --> 00:34:48.840
and put that out there for those of you that wanna try it.

632
00:34:49.620 --> 00:34:50.760
So I want you to think about

633
00:34:50.760 --> 00:34:53.199
what are your thoughts rooted in?

634
00:34:53.199 --> 00:34:54.199
Your typical thoughts.

635
00:34:54.199 --> 00:34:55.760
Again, we started this last week.

636
00:34:55.760 --> 00:34:58.620
So if you're just joining us, this is your first week.

637
00:34:58.620 --> 00:35:00.120
If you wanna listen to that.

638
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:03.000
Replay from last week, you're more than welcome to,

639
00:35:03.000 --> 00:35:04.680
but don't feel like you have to.

640
00:35:04.680 --> 00:35:07.260
But it also goes with Jackie's Supernatural Saturday

641
00:35:07.260 --> 00:35:08.800
and what we're talking about tonight.

642
00:35:08.800 --> 00:35:10.720
But what are your thoughts rooted in?

643
00:35:10.720 --> 00:35:15.200
Are they rooted in fear, doubt, unbelief, pain, wounds,

644
00:35:15.200 --> 00:35:19.720
anger, resentment, or are they rooted in hope,

645
00:35:19.720 --> 00:35:22.440
life, joy, peace?

646
00:35:22.440 --> 00:35:25.940
The Bible says things that are noble, worthy,

647
00:35:25.940 --> 00:35:27.280
lovely, of good report,

648
00:35:27.280 --> 00:35:29.540
things that are above only and not beneath.

649
00:35:30.500 --> 00:35:33.580
Well, above only, a lot of us, you know, for me,

650
00:35:33.580 --> 00:35:35.820
I automatically think of heaven.

651
00:35:35.820 --> 00:35:37.980
Now, Jackie talks about heaven's all around us,

652
00:35:37.980 --> 00:35:39.980
but for me, I just tend to think it's up there.

653
00:35:39.980 --> 00:35:42.460
I don't know why, that just feels normal to me.

654
00:35:42.460 --> 00:35:45.420
But what does heaven think?

655
00:35:46.500 --> 00:35:49.280
Are we thinking what heaven's thinking?

656
00:35:49.280 --> 00:35:51.580
So often we're not, and so Father,

657
00:35:51.580 --> 00:35:54.700
today help me to think more like heaven.

658
00:35:55.640 --> 00:35:59.500
What's heaven saying about my ex-husband who cheated on me?

659
00:35:59.500 --> 00:36:02.600
What's heaven saying about my friend who left?

660
00:36:02.600 --> 00:36:04.660
Does it mean we have to let them back into our lives?

661
00:36:04.660 --> 00:36:08.620
No, but what we do need to do is take care of our hearts

662
00:36:08.620 --> 00:36:11.300
regarding these people and situations.

663
00:36:12.540 --> 00:36:14.120
There's hope for us.

664
00:36:14.120 --> 00:36:15.360
1 John 4, 18 says,

665
00:36:15.360 --> 00:36:16.860
"'There is no fear in love.

666
00:36:17.720 --> 00:36:19.840
"'Dread does not exist there,

667
00:36:19.840 --> 00:36:23.160
"'but perfect, complete, full-grown love drives out fear,

668
00:36:23.180 --> 00:36:25.560
"'because fear involves the expectation

669
00:36:25.560 --> 00:36:27.900
"'of divine punishment.

670
00:36:27.900 --> 00:36:29.940
"'So the one who is afraid of God's judgment

671
00:36:29.940 --> 00:36:31.460
"'is not perfected in love,

672
00:36:31.460 --> 00:36:34.780
"'has not grown into a sufficient understanding

673
00:36:34.780 --> 00:36:36.020
"'of his love.'"

674
00:36:36.020 --> 00:36:38.320
That's the amplified version of that scripture.

675
00:36:39.540 --> 00:36:42.980
So ladies, if we're struggling with fear,

676
00:36:42.980 --> 00:36:45.220
here's the harsh reality.

677
00:36:45.220 --> 00:36:47.900
We don't know God's love enough.

678
00:36:47.900 --> 00:36:49.940
We need to know it more.

679
00:36:49.940 --> 00:36:51.180
It doesn't mean we're a failure,

680
00:36:51.200 --> 00:36:54.120
it just means, hey, Lord, I need an upgrade

681
00:36:54.120 --> 00:36:57.460
in my understanding of your love for me,

682
00:36:57.460 --> 00:37:00.040
who you are as love, as my defender,

683
00:37:00.040 --> 00:37:02.520
as my protector, as my provider.

684
00:37:02.520 --> 00:37:04.280
God, that you're good, that you're kind,

685
00:37:04.280 --> 00:37:05.600
that you're faithful.

686
00:37:05.600 --> 00:37:08.400
You're not the way that the world tells me that you are,

687
00:37:08.400 --> 00:37:13.160
or my experiences that have convinced me that you're bad

688
00:37:13.160 --> 00:37:16.840
and life is bad and life is always gonna suck and be hard.

689
00:37:16.900 --> 00:37:19.900
The enemy wants us to park in those camps,

690
00:37:19.900 --> 00:37:22.980
but we have an opportunity, ladies,

691
00:37:22.980 --> 00:37:25.020
to shift out of all of those lies

692
00:37:25.020 --> 00:37:27.420
and the ways of thinking and the patterns

693
00:37:27.420 --> 00:37:30.060
that we've allowed to overcome our hearts

694
00:37:30.060 --> 00:37:31.900
and decide that we are going to go

695
00:37:31.900 --> 00:37:34.460
in a different direction from this day forward.

696
00:37:35.820 --> 00:37:37.460
Will it always be easy?

697
00:37:37.460 --> 00:37:40.140
No, but will it be worth it?

698
00:37:40.140 --> 00:37:40.980
Yes.

699
00:37:41.860 --> 00:37:42.780
John 3.16 says,

700
00:37:42.780 --> 00:37:45.720
As I get you prepared for the breakout session,

701
00:37:45.720 --> 00:37:48.040
I'm gonna read some lyrics from a song for you.

702
00:37:48.040 --> 00:37:50.160
I encourage you to listen to this song this week.

703
00:37:50.160 --> 00:37:51.760
It's called, Fear is a Liar.

704
00:37:51.760 --> 00:37:53.200
It's by Zach Williams.

705
00:37:54.320 --> 00:37:56.120
It's powerful, you all.

706
00:37:56.120 --> 00:37:58.880
In the song, he's talking about the devil

707
00:37:58.880 --> 00:38:01.840
when he says he, just so everyone can hear him.

708
00:38:01.840 --> 00:38:02.680
He says,

709
00:38:02.680 --> 00:38:03.520
Fear is a liar.

710
00:38:03.520 --> 00:38:04.340
Fear is a liar.

711
00:38:04.340 --> 00:38:05.180
Fear is a liar.

712
00:38:05.180 --> 00:38:06.020
Fear is a liar.

713
00:38:06.020 --> 00:38:06.840
Fear is a liar.

714
00:38:06.840 --> 00:38:07.680
Fear is a liar.

715
00:38:07.680 --> 00:38:08.520
Fear is a liar.

716
00:38:08.520 --> 00:38:09.340
Fear is a liar.

717
00:38:09.340 --> 00:38:10.180
Fear is a liar.

718
00:38:10.180 --> 00:38:11.020
Fear is a liar.

719
00:38:11.020 --> 00:38:11.840
Fear is a liar.

720
00:38:12.140 --> 00:38:15.620
Just so everyone's on the same page, okay?

721
00:38:15.620 --> 00:38:17.420
And this is what he says.

722
00:38:17.420 --> 00:38:19.380
When he told you you're not good enough.

723
00:38:19.380 --> 00:38:21.480
When he told you, you're not right.

724
00:38:21.480 --> 00:38:23.320
When he told you, you're not strong enough

725
00:38:23.320 --> 00:38:25.020
to put up a good fight.

726
00:38:25.020 --> 00:38:26.620
When he told you, you're not worthy.

727
00:38:26.620 --> 00:38:28.320
When he told you you're not loved.

728
00:38:28.320 --> 00:38:30.740
When he told you, you're not beautiful.

729
00:38:30.740 --> 00:38:32.780
You'll never be enough.

730
00:38:32.780 --> 00:38:34.740
Fear, he is a liar,

731
00:38:34.740 --> 00:38:36.140
he will take your breath,

732
00:38:36.140 --> 00:38:37.560
stop you in your steps.

733
00:38:37.560 --> 00:38:39.580
Fear, he is a liar.

734
00:38:39.580 --> 00:38:41.160
He will rob your rest,

735
00:38:41.160 --> 00:38:42.540
steal your happiness,

736
00:38:42.540 --> 00:38:45.060
cast your fear in the fire

737
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because fear, he is a liar.

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When he told you that you were troubled,

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you'll forever be alone.

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When he told you that you should run away,

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that you'll never find a home.

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Some of you, he's told you

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that you'll never find a spirit mate.

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When he told you, you were dirty

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and you should be ashamed.

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When he told you that you could,

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that you could, I'm sorry.

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When he told you, you could be the one

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that grace could never change.

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Oh, fear, he is a liar.

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He will take your breath,

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stop you in your steps.

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Fear, he is a liar.

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He will rob your rest,

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steal your happiness,

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cast your fear in the fire

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because fear, he is a liar.

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Ladies, fear the enemy,

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the devourer of our souls.

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He is trying to cause you to live in fear

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and dread of your life,

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of living in this world.

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Yes, there's things that happen all the time

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in this world that are not good.

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I faced hurricanes for the first time

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in this last year.

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We moved here at the end of June.

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Was that scary?

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Absolutely.

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But you know what?

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God was my peace and firm foundation.

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the whole time. Sincerely, when the enemy was trying to breed anxiety and fear and panic,

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I had to choose which way I was going to go. Whatever your situation is, you can choose

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tonight which way you're going to go. Your question for breakout is, what fear are you

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going to ask God to help you with tonight? What fear are you going to ask God to help

776
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you with tonight? I'm going to get these breakout rooms ready. I'm going to give you all seven

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minutes. If you've got three, that gives you plenty of time. If you have extra time after

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you've answered the question, you can get to know each other a little bit. Where are

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you from? What led you here? Maybe you could share even a when you had this last week.

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Where do you feel led? Here are the rooms for you. Go ahead and click to join those.

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You have seven minutes, ladies. Click to join.

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Father, just thank you so much for every one of these ladies. We thank you, God, for

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helping us to recognize the enemy, the one that comes to kill, steal, and destroy. Thank

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you, God, that you came to give us life and give it to us more abundantly. I pray that

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you'll help us tonight to hear what your Spirit is saying, even while they're in the breakout

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sessions, those that are here in the main room, those that are going to be watching

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the replay. Father, help them to hear the whispers from your heart, the whispers that

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say to be still and know that you are God in the midst of their circumstances and situations.

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We thank you, Lord, that you would just continue to fan the flames of hunger and thirst for

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your righteousness, for your word to know you, Lord, to grow in relationship with you

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more in us every day. I thank you, Lord, that you'll continue to transform us by the

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renewing of our minds, that all old things have passed away, and behold, everything has

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become new in you. Help us to, Lord, lay aside every weight that so easily ensnares us and

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press on toward the high calling of God for our lives. And if that's fear and anxiety,

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that we would continue to choose to partner with you, Father, to discipline our minds,

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to cast down the fearful thoughts, to cast down the anxious thoughts and make them obedient

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to Jesus Christ, which is, as Jackie declared on Saturday, the fullness of his promise of

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what he accomplished on the cross. So, Lord, help us to find the truth in your word that

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overcomes those lies, to replace the lies with your truth. I thank you, Lord, that you

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would just continue to prepare a table for us in the presence of our enemies. And so

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many of us, our enemies have been fear and anxiety and panic and all these worry and

802
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dread disorders that are so prevalent. It's been depression and oppression, but God, thank

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you that you're helping us to be overcomers, kinsmen, redeemers, that you're rewriting

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our stories and helping us to step further into the fullness of your plans and your promises

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for us. We thank you that your word is yes and amen, God, that you're not a man that

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you should lie, that you're not deceiving us, you're not dangling carrots in front of

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us and leading us astray. But Lord, I thank you that with every step that we take in you,

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that you're making us stronger, that you're refining us with fire and making us as new.

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We thank you, Lord, that you would just continue to help us to perceive the new things that

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you're doing in our lives, that you are bringing those rivers and the wasteland and streams

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and the desert. Yes, Lord, we thank you that you are taking all of the ashes and turning

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them around for beauty in our lives, just like I was praying earlier tonight about the

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masterpiece that he's making in that tapestry that he's weaving in our lives, ladies, that

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there's so many good things that he's doing and the ways that he's working and he's not

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going to leave us in the middle. And what I mean by that is I just saw a picture of

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like, I don't know why I always see it this way, but a dark tunnel and it always looks

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like, it doesn't look like a train tunnel, but I always envision a train, but it kind

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of looks like a tunnel, like a bridge where you would go under and maybe be in a carriage

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or something like that that's in a park. And I typically view it that way, but it's not

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like we're going through the tunnel.

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tunnel and then on the middle of the tunnel where it's the darkest point potentially,

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God's going to leave us there. No, He comes in and He illuminates the entire place and the whole

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thing is lit up because Jesus Christ is the light of the world. And so what seemed dark to us,

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what seemed fearful to us, as soon as we invite Jesus our Savior into those areas,

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He can illuminate those situations and those feelings and help us to hear the truth.

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Let's see here. I'm going to read Luke 12 too. It says,

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everything hidden and covered up will soon be exposed for the fast aid is falling down and

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nothing will be kept secret for long. Revelation 21.4 says He will wipe away every tear from their

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eyes and eliminate death entirely. No one will mourn or weep any longer. The pain of wounds

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will no longer exist for the old order has ceased. So Lord, we thank you that you would just continue

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to heal us, redeem us, restore us. I thank you even right now that new thoughts would be imparted

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into minds, bodies, spirits, souls, that you would help us to receive fresh revelation and insight

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from heaven. Lord, help us to hear what your spirit is saying louder than any voice of the enemy.

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I thank you, Lord,

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that you are the repairer of the breach, the breach where the enemy came in and he tried to

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bring destruction, doubt, unbelief, discouragement, disease. We thank you, God, that you sent Jesus to

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be the one that would be the bridge for us to come to you, that we can be in relationship with

838
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you, we can receive that divine healing and anointing in a fresh way even tonight.

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We thank you that you would help us, Lord, to trust that you have a good plan and you are going to see

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us all the way through to the other side. I'm going to read Colossians 3, 13 through 14 in the

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message version here. It says, So chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe

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God picked out for you, compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even

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tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive us quickly and

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completely as the master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love.

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That's your basic all-purpose garment. Never be without it. Lord, I thank you that you would help

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us to love the unlovable and to walk with a heart of forgiveness, a heart of flesh that's soft and

847
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pliable to you. Father, help us to have teachable hearts and not hearts that are stony and hardened

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and walls up and offended and bitter. Lord, help us to believe the best in people. Help us to be

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aware of the things that we're doing and saying and thinking instead of just going forward and

850
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allowing the enemy to use us as a vessel to bring any kind of destruction or disruption.

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We thank you for continuing to speak the truth to us in love. Ephesians 4, 27 in the amplified

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version says, Do not give a place to the enemy. Don't give him legal access to your life and your

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family and do not give the devil an opportunity to lead you into sin by holding a grudge or

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nurturing anger or harboring resentment or cultivating bitterness. Lord, help us to be quick

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to forgive, quick to extend grace for the same way that we judge others or extend grace to others,

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also the same way we will receive it. So help us to be daughters of light, allowing Jesus to come

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fully.

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Then pouring that out to other people and allowing his love to shine through. Welcome back, ladies.

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So glad to have you back. For those that are new, I pray for you all and speak life and try to speak

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all kinds of truth while you're in breakouts so that those that hear the replay can hear that.

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Feel free to always go back and listen to that anytime if you want. Glenda, do you mean what

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verse I was reading? I think it was Ephesians 4, 27. I forget where I was at in the book that I was

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reading it from, but I think that's the one it was. Okay, so welcome back. Who is willing to

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share with the whole group what you shared in your private breakout group? I am. Okay, Michelle,

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go ahead and then I'll go. Hi. Okay, thank you. I didn't know how to do the hand thing, so I'll

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just wave my hand. I didn't realize that fear had different categories or different names.

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specifically. And so when you asked me that, just before we

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were coming on, I really had to calm down because I was getting

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very anxious. And I don't know where that was coming from, but

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explaining it now. But the fear that I know that I did deal with

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or dealt with is the unknown, not knowing things, unable to

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get an answer to things that I feel like I should know. Okay, I

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said it. Yeah, got it out.

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You did great. Okay, let me ask you a question, Michelle. You

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said you felt anxious before you came on tonight. Yes, you

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normally feel anxious before you get on with groups of people or

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no. Okay. So I don't think it's a surprise that I was teaching

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and I'm talking tonight about fear and anxiety. Are there any

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other times that anxiety like you felt that same kind of thing

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before?

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I want to say last, last week, I wasn't with this past week. I

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wasn't feeling well at all. And when you talked about the fear

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and, and the anxiety, I have a doctor's meeting. So all of

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that, all of the memories, all of the you're overweight, you're

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never going to be where you need to be. The blood work is my

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pressure was sky high this week. So this whole week, I've been

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pretty anxious. Okay.

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Out of the ordinary.

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Yeah. And then on the fear of the unknown. What kind of does

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that pair with what you just told us? Or are there other

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times this has shown up for you in specific areas?

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I want to say, I can go back as far as I can remember that from

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a little girl of just not knowing the answer to things. I

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want to go back to elementary school way back. Just not

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Yeah, yeah, it's okay. Um, so not knowing the answer to like a

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question the teacher was asking? Yes. Did you ever get in front

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in trouble or embarrassed in front of other people because

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you didn't know the answer to something?

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I'm probably just the fact that you were pointed out as one that

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did not know.

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Okay. Yeah. You ever feel that way at home or only at school?

902
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Uh, probably all my life when I can go back. Well, you know,

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just thinking that's been an issue that I've had problems

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with all all my life. I could I can say.

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Okay. Do you have siblings that you were compared to as a kid?

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No. No, I don't think we were compared until much later in

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life when I got saved.

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Okay. Okay, that's good to know. So I the first thing I would say

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is number one, you know that this happened in school. So

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that's one of the first places I believe that God's going to want

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to come in and heal those areas. Specifically, you know, asking

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the Lord to reveal to you was there a specific time that you

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were embarrassed when you didn't know the answer. So you know, in

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general, you remember feeling that way. But we want to ask the

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Lord to reveal specific times and memories and trust in his

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timing to reveal it because he will reveal it and bring it to

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the surface when it's the right time. And when he does, I want

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to encourage you to do a forgiveness prayer sheet towards

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that teacher or even if there are any kids that you know, that

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really stand out that laughed or gave you a hard time, anything

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like that, associated around being a little girl and not

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knowing the answer and feeling some kind of negative feeling

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because you didn't know the answer. Fear of the unknown can

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also partner into the whole what if this what if I don't know,

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you know, what if I you know, someone said this afternoon, it

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was such a great question, I think was actually Lisa, Lisa,

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and I was coaching her on, you know, she had said that she's

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not not been in a relationship dating before. So she had been

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afraid of making a mistake. And so I said, What if you don't?

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What if you don't make a mistake, you know, and we want

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to look at the opposite side when fear is presenting. Again,

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fear is a liar, the enemy, the devil is a liar. He's presenting

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these fears to us. But what if what's the opposite? What's the

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opposite of that? What if something happens? And it goes?

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Well, what if even if we made mistakes in the past, this time,

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we're not going to blow past red flags, this time, we're going to

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hear what the Holy Spirit's saying about someone and we're

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going to listen to that. And for those of you that might not be

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sure if you hear God correctly, because you felt like God was

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leading you before and you chose someone unhealthy. I've been

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there. Did that to know a lot of things not good, but I did a lot

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of things really good, too. Okay, I think there's balance in

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everything. And we learn as we go, hopefully, in the point of

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why I said that is that sometimes because we think God

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was leading us towards

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certain person, we start to doubt our ability to hear him correctly.

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But for me, I'm not saying this is the way for you, but for me, when I was in

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that prior situation, when I really stepped back and asked the Lord some

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things, he definitely was revealing red flags to me and I blew past them, you all.

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God did not fully lead me into that relationship with that person.

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I met that person.

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I saw things.

953
00:55:29.800 --> 00:55:31.880
I saw some good stuff for a little while.

954
00:55:31.880 --> 00:55:34.760
And then I saw a lot of not great stuff and I just kept going.

955
00:55:35.400 --> 00:55:38.360
I got entangled with the kiddos and I loved them.

956
00:55:38.760 --> 00:55:39.960
And so I just kept going.

957
00:55:40.240 --> 00:55:43.520
So anyways, that's not necessarily what Michelle was talking about, but that came

958
00:55:43.520 --> 00:55:47.200
up in my spirit from our thing this afternoon, the fear of the unknown.

959
00:55:47.200 --> 00:55:49.800
We can also face our fears, ladies.

960
00:55:50.560 --> 00:55:55.880
We can say, okay, what if the worst thing ever happens and not believing that it

961
00:55:55.880 --> 00:56:00.560
will, but God can help you no matter what happened.

962
00:56:01.760 --> 00:56:02.240
Yeah.

963
00:56:02.640 --> 00:56:06.400
And so Michelle, we'll be praying for you about the visits with the

964
00:56:06.400 --> 00:56:08.240
doctor and all of these things.

965
00:56:08.240 --> 00:56:13.280
But I encourage you to maybe sit down tonight, even if it's for five, like set

966
00:56:13.280 --> 00:56:17.440
a timer, maybe not five minutes, three minutes on your phone, set a timer and

967
00:56:17.440 --> 00:56:20.560
just do a brain dump of all the negative things that the enemy has been trying to

968
00:56:20.560 --> 00:56:22.760
torment you with regarding this health stuff.

969
00:56:23.240 --> 00:56:26.880
And then ask God to show you the truth that he wants you to stand on.

970
00:56:27.600 --> 00:56:28.200
Thank you.

971
00:56:28.400 --> 00:56:29.200
You're welcome.

972
00:56:29.240 --> 00:56:30.360
I'm so glad you shared.

973
00:56:31.520 --> 00:56:32.040
Thank you.

974
00:56:33.320 --> 00:56:34.600
You all do a great job.

975
00:56:34.600 --> 00:56:36.400
It's always, it's always lovely to hear you.

976
00:56:36.400 --> 00:56:37.480
Rebecca, go ahead.

977
00:56:39.480 --> 00:56:39.960
Hi.

978
00:56:40.000 --> 00:56:40.600
Okay.

979
00:56:41.360 --> 00:56:45.160
This is interesting that this is this week, because this last week has literally

980
00:56:45.160 --> 00:56:51.640
been torture in this department for me, like, um, massive amounts of fear.

981
00:56:52.400 --> 00:56:56.920
Mindset, battling mindset, nightmares even.

982
00:56:57.360 --> 00:57:04.520
Um, and I say today, my biggest fear I'd like to give up is the fear of rejection

983
00:57:04.520 --> 00:57:12.320
and loss, um, just once in fraud, really like to get over that, um, and quit with,

984
00:57:12.640 --> 00:57:17.560
even if I see something good and I, and I get a promise and I get confirmation

985
00:57:17.560 --> 00:57:25.920
on that or whatever, um, I, it's quickly fear of losing it or fine or fear, like

986
00:57:25.920 --> 00:57:28.960
fear of not getting it or fear of once I get it, losing it.

987
00:57:29.000 --> 00:57:31.560
So, um, that's yeah.

988
00:57:31.840 --> 00:57:35.120
The rejection is definitely a big one for me.

989
00:57:36.200 --> 00:57:36.700
Okay.

990
00:57:36.920 --> 00:57:42.240
So, um, when you were talking about the fear and the nightmares from this

991
00:57:42.240 --> 00:57:44.080
past week, I lost you on my screen now.

992
00:57:44.560 --> 00:57:46.400
I know you went away for a second too.

993
00:57:46.440 --> 00:57:46.940
Okay.

994
00:57:48.400 --> 00:57:52.360
I haven't had this thought any of the times I've coached you since you joined,

995
00:57:52.360 --> 00:57:53.640
but this came up in my spirit.

996
00:57:53.640 --> 00:57:55.080
So I just want to put it out there.

997
00:57:56.560 --> 00:57:59.400
Have you ever prayed and asked the Lord if there's anything in your

998
00:57:59.400 --> 00:58:02.920
home that isn't good to have there?

999
00:58:03.960 --> 00:58:07.280
Have you ever had anybody pray over your home or any of those kinds of things?

1000
00:58:08.440 --> 00:58:16.360
Um, well, I anointed my home and prayed over my home and, um, and everything.

1001
00:58:16.480 --> 00:58:19.120
I am really cautious.

1002
00:58:20.120 --> 00:58:20.880
I'll continue.

1003
00:58:20.920 --> 00:58:23.120
I that's a good question to always bring up.

1004
00:58:23.280 --> 00:58:25.360
Um, this is a newer home.

1005
00:58:25.440 --> 00:58:30.640
When I moved in, I purposely tried really hard not to bring in a lot.

1006
00:58:31.160 --> 00:58:33.640
Um, most everything I have in here was new.

1007
00:58:33.960 --> 00:58:38.600
Although I keep going through old stuff from my husband, um, late

1008
00:58:38.600 --> 00:58:41.080
husband, um, through the storage unit.

1009
00:58:41.080 --> 00:58:43.600
But even that I have to do little bits at a time.

1010
00:58:43.640 --> 00:58:48.800
So I do have some stuff now in my home since sorting through that, that stuff

1011
00:58:48.800 --> 00:58:50.800
and trying to know how to get rid of a lot of it.

1012
00:58:51.200 --> 00:58:54.880
Um, but though I will, I will pray about that for sure.

1013
00:58:55.160 --> 00:58:58.880
I know that I, these have been really intense this week.

1014
00:58:58.920 --> 00:59:02.400
Like, well, it makes sense now that you said, how often are you going through

1015
00:59:02.400 --> 00:59:05.160
the boxes of the stuff with your, your late husband?

1016
00:59:05.160 --> 00:59:09.680
Recently, not at all because, um, it's bad weather.

1017
00:59:09.680 --> 00:59:13.400
And so I haven't really had a chance to get to the storage unit and bring it in.

1018
00:59:13.960 --> 00:59:19.480
Um, so recently, no, I can't think of anything specific, but you know, I'm

1019
00:59:19.480 --> 00:59:23.360
open to the Holy spirit to lead me if there's something, just pray into that.

1020
00:59:23.360 --> 00:59:23.880
I don't know.

1021
00:59:23.880 --> 00:59:27.480
Again, I've never had that thought anytime I've ever been coaching you.

1022
00:59:27.480 --> 00:59:31.400
And so it might amount to nothing and I'm totally okay with that, but I'd

1023
00:59:31.400 --> 00:59:36.120
rather put it out there and let you pray about, you did say also to that

1024
00:59:36.120 --> 00:59:38.960
resonated today was on relationships.

1025
00:59:39.000 --> 00:59:42.080
So I have a boss that's new.

1026
00:59:42.080 --> 00:59:43.160
That's right over me.

1027
00:59:43.520 --> 00:59:47.560
This, um, and we get along really, really well.

1028
00:59:47.760 --> 00:59:52.480
And so recently she's invited me out to just get some dinner.

1029
00:59:52.720 --> 00:59:58.760
Um, and she's trying to help me kind of in my position at work in this new job

1030
00:59:58.760 --> 01:00:00.000
that I have, this new career that.

1031
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:05.040
I'm doing. And I kind of had a check in my spirit, I will be

1032
01:00:05.040 --> 01:00:08.840
honest of whether or not there's too much alignment there that's

1033
01:00:08.840 --> 01:00:13.280
happening at this moment. Because she opened up about some

1034
01:00:13.280 --> 01:00:19.080
of her just opened up about her some of her experiences with her

1035
01:00:19.080 --> 01:00:22.400
current husband. So I don't know if that has something to do with

1036
01:00:22.400 --> 01:00:26.320
it. But she hasn't given me anything for my home. So I'll

1037
01:00:26.320 --> 01:00:26.960
think on it.

1038
01:00:27.400 --> 01:00:29.640
Yeah, maybe because she's your boss, you might want to have

1039
01:00:29.640 --> 01:00:32.040
boundaries there with what she's sharing with you. That might be

1040
01:00:32.040 --> 01:00:35.400
the only thing I would encourage you but definitely pray into

1041
01:00:35.720 --> 01:00:39.480
just anything regarding your home. Because I know you've

1042
01:00:39.480 --> 01:00:42.080
battled, you know, and sometimes, as I've said before,

1043
01:00:42.080 --> 01:00:45.640
the enemy will just attack us in our sleep state. But you've

1044
01:00:45.640 --> 01:00:49.760
been battling with this for a while. And so that's what's

1045
01:00:49.760 --> 01:00:53.120
causing me to wonder if there's something else kind of tangible

1046
01:00:53.120 --> 01:00:56.160
that you just don't know right now. And you know, I don't want

1047
01:00:56.160 --> 01:01:02.080
to go too far into that. But pray and see what God reveals

1048
01:01:02.080 --> 01:01:04.680
and then just pray about the boss. Just make sure the Lord,

1049
01:01:04.720 --> 01:01:08.680
you know, you're following him regarding boundaries. And if

1050
01:01:09.000 --> 01:01:11.520
this will be good practice, this is something else just that

1051
01:01:11.520 --> 01:01:15.480
comes up is that, you know, even when we practice in situations

1052
01:01:15.480 --> 01:01:18.440
like this, ladies with saying, Hey, you know, thank you for

1053
01:01:18.440 --> 01:01:21.680
sharing, but probably going forward, I'm, I would be more

1054
01:01:21.680 --> 01:01:25.200
comfortable if we don't talk about our private life

1055
01:01:25.200 --> 01:01:28.240
situations with each other, just so we can keep healthy

1056
01:01:28.240 --> 01:01:31.160
boundaries in our work environment. And they might not

1057
01:01:31.160 --> 01:01:34.280
like that. Okay, so I'm just gonna put that out there. But

1058
01:01:34.280 --> 01:01:38.920
that is healthy for you as a person, since that is your boss.

1059
01:01:40.880 --> 01:01:45.320
Yeah. Okay. Yeah. All right. Rebecca, thanks for sharing.

1060
01:01:45.320 --> 01:01:48.920
I'll be praying for you about that as well. Thank you. You're

1061
01:01:48.920 --> 01:01:50.680
welcome. Rio, go ahead.

1062
01:01:51.960 --> 01:02:00.360
Hi. Hi. One of the things that I shared this evening was having

1063
01:02:00.360 --> 01:02:06.360
insecurity about my body. And so I don't really talk much about

1064
01:02:06.360 --> 01:02:09.320
it. It's kind of something that I think I silently struggle

1065
01:02:09.320 --> 01:02:13.280
with, because I'm pretty, like confident and outspoken in a lot

1066
01:02:13.280 --> 01:02:18.240
of other areas of my life. But I, I feel like it's coming a

1067
01:02:18.240 --> 01:02:23.040
lot more to the surface where it's like, you know, I think

1068
01:02:23.040 --> 01:02:27.440
that's something that God really wants to heal in my life. And I

1069
01:02:27.440 --> 01:02:32.000
was sharing with the ladies that I'm Filipino. So I don't know

1070
01:02:32.000 --> 01:02:35.680
if it's the same for other cultures. But whenever they say

1071
01:02:35.680 --> 01:02:39.720
hi to you, sometimes they don't even say hi. You know, the first

1072
01:02:39.720 --> 01:02:44.080
thing they say is, oh, you got fat. It's like, you just saw me

1073
01:02:44.080 --> 01:02:48.080
last week. And then last week, you told me I was skinny, you

1074
01:02:48.080 --> 01:02:51.360
know, they like say, they always talk about your

1075
01:02:51.360 --> 01:02:57.440
appearance. And yeah, I mean, I think I thought my way through

1076
01:02:57.440 --> 01:03:03.120
becoming really overweight. I was like, about 200 pounds, that

1077
01:03:03.120 --> 01:03:07.920
was my heaviest. And then I lost, I lost about 45 pounds of

1078
01:03:07.920 --> 01:03:10.680
that for a long time. And then I've always been kind of been

1079
01:03:10.680 --> 01:03:16.080
around that weight. And so but it's hard for me to today, like

1080
01:03:16.080 --> 01:03:19.080
when people tell me you're so beautiful, you know, Rio, you're

1081
01:03:19.080 --> 01:03:23.360
not big. And I always say, Oh, yeah, yeah. But whenever I look

1082
01:03:23.360 --> 01:03:29.440
at myself in the mirror, I look so big, that I don't wear my

1083
01:03:29.440 --> 01:03:35.560
size clothes. And, and my sister would always tell me like, stop

1084
01:03:35.560 --> 01:03:41.040
it. Or why do you keep getting extra large, extra, extra large

1085
01:03:41.040 --> 01:03:44.400
clothes? Like you're, you're like a medium? Like, why do you

1086
01:03:44.400 --> 01:03:48.040
keep getting big clothes? And one, it's not just because I

1087
01:03:48.040 --> 01:03:51.680
like the look of an oversized look sometimes. But sometimes

1088
01:03:51.680 --> 01:03:55.280
it's just because I don't like when clothes when when my body

1089
01:03:55.280 --> 01:03:59.480
can feel the clothes, because I feel like I have to hide it,

1090
01:03:59.520 --> 01:04:05.960
you know. But I don't know. So I'm really good. So okay, let me

1091
01:04:05.960 --> 01:04:08.640
ask you this. And again, ladies, anytime I ask you these

1092
01:04:08.640 --> 01:04:11.000
questions, if you don't know the answer right now, it's totally

1093
01:04:11.000 --> 01:04:16.200
fine. But, you know, I'm curious, when is the first time

1094
01:04:16.200 --> 01:04:20.120
you ever remember feeling this way about your body? Do you

1095
01:04:20.120 --> 01:04:20.720
remember?

1096
01:04:20.920 --> 01:04:27.520
Yeah, I mean, gosh, ever since I was young, I'm not from my mom,

1097
01:04:28.360 --> 01:04:32.360
not from my mom or my sister. And, and I grew up with them.

1098
01:04:34.040 --> 01:04:37.320
There are a lot of instances, my dad, whenever I would visit my

1099
01:04:37.320 --> 01:04:39.400
dad, because my parents were divorced since I was five.

1100
01:04:39.760 --> 01:04:44.360
Whenever I visit my dad, and when I was a young teenager, I

1101
01:04:44.360 --> 01:04:48.040
started having acne. And it was genetic from both sides of my

1102
01:04:48.040 --> 01:04:51.840
parents. And whenever he would pick us up from the airport or

1103
01:04:51.840 --> 01:04:54.400
something, the first thing he would say is, what's wrong with

1104
01:04:54.400 --> 01:05:00.040
your face? You know? And, yeah, I mean, I lived with

1105
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:04.000
with a ton of family members when I moved from Guam

1106
01:05:04.000 --> 01:05:07.920
to Virginia, and there was like seven other families

1107
01:05:07.920 --> 01:05:09.680
in the same household.

1108
01:05:09.680 --> 01:05:13.420
And a lot of them, especially the women,

1109
01:05:13.420 --> 01:05:16.440
they would always nitpick at my body.

1110
01:05:17.720 --> 01:05:20.040
But I was athletic growing up,

1111
01:05:20.040 --> 01:05:25.040
so I wasn't like the size zero, size two kind of Asian.

1112
01:05:25.800 --> 01:05:27.660
And I never was.

1113
01:05:27.900 --> 01:05:31.220
I think the last time I was like that

1114
01:05:31.220 --> 01:05:32.800
was when I was like five.

1115
01:05:34.140 --> 01:05:37.220
So have you ever processed forgiving those women

1116
01:05:37.220 --> 01:05:39.500
in that house for saying those things to you

1117
01:05:39.500 --> 01:05:43.300
or your dad for saying what's wrong with your face

1118
01:05:43.300 --> 01:05:45.980
or any other mean things that people said to you

1119
01:05:45.980 --> 01:05:48.400
that connected to some form

1120
01:05:48.400 --> 01:05:51.580
of your physical appearance or being?

1121
01:05:51.580 --> 01:05:54.740
Yeah, you know, now that I'm thinking about it,

1122
01:05:54.740 --> 01:05:57.100
I think I have forgiven.

1123
01:05:57.100 --> 01:06:00.020
I think I have, but maybe not completely.

1124
01:06:00.020 --> 01:06:03.780
I think what I've done is I've just kind of pushed through,

1125
01:06:03.780 --> 01:06:06.100
just saying, I'm not like that, I'm like this.

1126
01:06:06.100 --> 01:06:08.060
Like I am God's daughter.

1127
01:06:08.060 --> 01:06:10.220
Everything he makes is beautiful.

1128
01:06:10.220 --> 01:06:12.780
He did not make a mistake with me,

1129
01:06:12.780 --> 01:06:16.020
but I think it's really going back and saying,

1130
01:06:16.020 --> 01:06:18.020
I forgive that person.

1131
01:06:18.020 --> 01:06:21.060
Because sometimes when I go back home to Virginia,

1132
01:06:22.460 --> 01:06:25.180
sometimes I feel a little bit anxious about,

1133
01:06:25.180 --> 01:06:27.860
oh my gosh, how is my weight right now?

1134
01:06:27.860 --> 01:06:29.180
Am I gonna go home?

1135
01:06:29.180 --> 01:06:31.260
Maybe I should detox before I get there

1136
01:06:31.260 --> 01:06:32.540
because they're all gonna be like,

1137
01:06:32.540 --> 01:06:34.340
oh Rio, you've lost so much weight,

1138
01:06:34.340 --> 01:06:38.340
but just a little bit more, you would be beautiful.

1139
01:06:38.340 --> 01:06:40.420
So something else too, I love,

1140
01:06:40.420 --> 01:06:41.880
I appreciate everything you're sharing.

1141
01:06:41.880 --> 01:06:44.900
Something else I also think as you're processing

1142
01:06:44.900 --> 01:06:48.100
and sharing out loud is,

1143
01:06:48.100 --> 01:06:51.420
I'm gonna guess you need to feel it too.

1144
01:06:51.420 --> 01:06:53.500
Yeah, I do push through.

1145
01:06:54.500 --> 01:06:56.260
How did it make you feel

1146
01:06:56.260 --> 01:06:58.980
when these people said this stuff to you?

1147
01:06:58.980 --> 01:07:00.460
You don't wanna stay there forever,

1148
01:07:00.460 --> 01:07:03.540
but to feel it, we need to feel the feels

1149
01:07:03.540 --> 01:07:05.380
so that God can heal the feelings

1150
01:07:05.380 --> 01:07:08.660
that go in underneath all of this other stuff

1151
01:07:08.660 --> 01:07:11.300
that cause our body to keep score.

1152
01:07:11.300 --> 01:07:12.660
So it doesn't mean

1153
01:07:12.660 --> 01:07:14.140
that you haven't forgiven those people.

1154
01:07:14.140 --> 01:07:16.060
Again, ladies, I want you to remember,

1155
01:07:16.060 --> 01:07:18.200
sometimes we can forgive people,

1156
01:07:18.200 --> 01:07:19.980
but God will bring a certain thing up.

1157
01:07:19.980 --> 01:07:21.580
And the first thing you said tonight,

1158
01:07:21.580 --> 01:07:22.940
when I asked you that was your dad

1159
01:07:23.380 --> 01:07:25.700
picking you up from the airport and then those women.

1160
01:07:25.700 --> 01:07:28.620
And so to me, there's probably another layer

1161
01:07:28.620 --> 01:07:31.220
of healing and forgiveness that God is wanting to do

1162
01:07:31.220 --> 01:07:33.020
connected to those areas.

1163
01:07:33.020 --> 01:07:35.540
So I would encourage you to use the forgiveness prayer sheet

1164
01:07:35.540 --> 01:07:39.560
and process and pray and specifically ask God,

1165
01:07:39.560 --> 01:07:43.460
what are the specific things I need to forgive my dad for,

1166
01:07:43.460 --> 01:07:45.900
starting with the one that you said tonight

1167
01:07:45.900 --> 01:07:47.980
about things he said to you

1168
01:07:47.980 --> 01:07:49.500
or ways that he treated you

1169
01:07:49.500 --> 01:07:51.540
regarding your body in particular.

1170
01:07:51.540 --> 01:07:53.300
You might have other things to forgive him for

1171
01:07:53.300 --> 01:07:55.740
at some point, but starting with the body

1172
01:07:55.740 --> 01:07:59.660
and then these women or anyone else along your path

1173
01:07:59.660 --> 01:08:01.860
where there were things that were said or done

1174
01:08:01.860 --> 01:08:05.860
that caused you to not feel like you were enough

1175
01:08:05.860 --> 01:08:07.980
or that something was wrong with your body

1176
01:08:07.980 --> 01:08:09.540
and the way that you were made.

1177
01:08:10.680 --> 01:08:11.520
Thank you.

1178
01:08:11.520 --> 01:08:12.780
You're welcome.

1179
01:08:12.780 --> 01:08:15.020
Ladies, it can be tough because, you know,

1180
01:08:15.020 --> 01:08:18.939
we don't always wanna feel the pain,

1181
01:08:18.939 --> 01:08:22.580
but I promise if you will lean into the pain

1182
01:08:22.580 --> 01:08:26.020
for a little bit and let God come and meet you,

1183
01:08:26.020 --> 01:08:29.700
let Jesus come into those moments with you

1184
01:08:29.700 --> 01:08:30.939
and feel it with you,

1185
01:08:30.939 --> 01:08:34.660
he will help set you free in that time as well.

1186
01:08:34.660 --> 01:08:36.420
Thank you for sharing that with us, Rio.

1187
01:08:36.420 --> 01:08:39.020
Diana, hi.

1188
01:08:39.020 --> 01:08:40.620
Hey there, Bethany.

1189
01:08:40.620 --> 01:08:41.460
How are you?

1190
01:08:41.460 --> 01:08:42.300
Can you hear me okay?

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01:08:42.300 --> 01:08:43.120
I'm doing all right.

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01:08:43.120 --> 01:08:43.960
How are you?

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01:08:43.960 --> 01:08:45.420
Good.

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01:08:45.420 --> 01:08:47.979
Now I shared something different with my group,

1195
01:08:47.979 --> 01:08:52.180
but as I got in here, it like surfaced a fear,

1196
01:08:52.180 --> 01:08:55.100
especially in this context of being in this program

1197
01:08:55.100 --> 01:08:56.500
has been men.

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01:08:56.500 --> 01:09:00.060
Like I have this very strange fear of men,

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01:09:00.060 --> 01:09:01.740
like they're going to attack me,

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01:09:01.740 --> 01:09:03.779
like just when I trust them,

1201
01:09:03.779 --> 01:09:06.700
they're going to try to harm me in some way

1202
01:09:07.740 --> 01:09:09.540
or even like finding somebody online,

1203
01:09:09.540 --> 01:09:10.899
they're gonna be like a serial,

1204
01:09:10.899 --> 01:09:12.580
like something, and it's just,

1205
01:09:12.580 --> 01:09:14.540
I know people who have met people online.

1206
01:09:14.540 --> 01:09:18.140
I don't know why that is so prevalent in my mind.

1207
01:09:18.140 --> 01:09:19.220
When it comes to men,

1208
01:09:19.220 --> 01:09:22.800
I haven't ever been harmed physically by a man,

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01:09:24.779 --> 01:09:26.939
nobody in my family at all.

1210
01:09:26.939 --> 01:09:28.600
So I don't know where that's stemming

1211
01:09:28.600 --> 01:09:30.620
from this like fear of men.

1212
01:09:30.620 --> 01:09:33.899
Do you watch any kind of shows, crime shows about,

1213
01:09:33.899 --> 01:09:35.620
you know, stuff like that?

1214
01:09:35.620 --> 01:09:38.620
I don't, but it always surfaces that like,

1215
01:09:38.620 --> 01:09:39.819
when I was younger,

1216
01:09:39.819 --> 01:09:42.939
my mom always used to call me in for like 2020

1217
01:09:42.939 --> 01:09:44.859
and all those specials to make sure

1218
01:09:44.859 --> 01:09:48.020
that I would know what to do just in case.

1219
01:09:48.020 --> 01:09:51.620
And it was when I was like 10, 11, 12,

1220
01:09:51.620 --> 01:09:55.060
like I was very young and she would always call me in.

1221
01:09:55.060 --> 01:09:57.460
Even, you know, the Oprah specials,

1222
01:09:57.460 --> 01:09:59.460
every time it was like, how did she escape?

1223
01:09:59.460 --> 01:10:00.860
Like those kinds of things.

1224
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:04.760
things. So and I know it was out of a heart for safety, but I

1225
01:10:04.760 --> 01:10:08.240
felt like I related to you in the beginning. I am an empath. I

1226
01:10:08.240 --> 01:10:11.920
know that very well. And I have a spirit of discernment, but I

1227
01:10:11.920 --> 01:10:14.480
feel like it gets twisted sometimes. And then it just ends

1228
01:10:14.480 --> 01:10:16.800
up being fear of people.

1229
01:10:18.760 --> 01:10:22.080
Yeah, so fear, what I wrote down just now, just so y'all know, I

1230
01:10:22.080 --> 01:10:24.160
don't know if I've said this for a long time. But if y'all see me

1231
01:10:24.160 --> 01:10:27.440
looking down a lot, it's because I'm writing. I'm processing as

1232
01:10:27.440 --> 01:10:31.480
you're talking. But I wrote down fear embedded when you are

1233
01:10:31.480 --> 01:10:36.120
young, like the word embedded in particular. So, you know, any

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01:10:36.120 --> 01:10:40.520
anything, if we think about something that is planted deep

1235
01:10:40.520 --> 01:10:45.160
in, it's embedded in there. And so it might be, it might have

1236
01:10:45.160 --> 01:10:47.720
started when your mom was watching those shows and called

1237
01:10:47.720 --> 01:10:51.480
you in to watch those, trying to build, you know, knowledge into

1238
01:10:51.480 --> 01:10:54.440
you, but it caused fear. It might even be from something

1239
01:10:54.440 --> 01:10:57.160
you're not remembering that was before that. It doesn't mean

1240
01:10:57.160 --> 01:11:00.680
that something bad happened to you. But there are a lot of

1241
01:11:00.680 --> 01:11:04.800
things where, you know, as children, I can remember when

1242
01:11:04.840 --> 01:11:08.160
Michaela, my oldest spiritual daughter, this one time, we were

1243
01:11:08.160 --> 01:11:16.600
just watching the news. And this news update came on about if I

1244
01:11:16.680 --> 01:11:19.840
hope I don't trigger anyone that loves pets. I love pets, too.

1245
01:11:19.840 --> 01:11:23.480
But I think this will make sense when I tell the story. Someone

1246
01:11:23.480 --> 01:11:27.360
took an animal and, you know, dropped it over a bridge and

1247
01:11:27.360 --> 01:11:32.440
harmed the animal. And Michaela saw the description of this and,

1248
01:11:32.680 --> 01:11:38.640
and the news, and it just broke her, like so deeply broke her.

1249
01:11:40.080 --> 01:11:42.920
And she was traumatized literally from seeing that on

1250
01:11:42.920 --> 01:11:46.880
the news. And so this is a real thing. And so that's why I

1251
01:11:46.880 --> 01:11:49.400
encourage you all even be careful about, you know, of

1252
01:11:49.400 --> 01:11:53.360
course, stay up to date on the news. But, you know, if you are

1253
01:11:53.360 --> 01:11:56.680
afraid a lot, you might not want to sit and watch the news,

1254
01:11:56.680 --> 01:11:58.600
you might want to just read a news article to get the

1255
01:11:58.600 --> 01:12:03.200
information and keep it short. But I would pray into that,

1256
01:12:03.760 --> 01:12:07.760
Diana and ask the Lord to reveal if there's any other thing, you

1257
01:12:07.760 --> 01:12:11.000
know, before like when you were younger, that when your mom

1258
01:12:11.000 --> 01:12:14.240
would show you those, you know, shows that it fed into that

1259
01:12:14.280 --> 01:12:16.920
thing that was already there, or did it start there, he'll show

1260
01:12:16.920 --> 01:12:22.320
you if that was the initial time. And the other side of,

1261
01:12:22.560 --> 01:12:23.040
okay,

1262
01:12:23.480 --> 01:12:26.160
I'm gonna say sometimes I wonder, because my mom is also a

1263
01:12:26.160 --> 01:12:30.960
narcissist. And so sometimes I wonder if that even is like the

1264
01:12:30.960 --> 01:12:34.280
trust, like my inability to trust comes from the fact that

1265
01:12:34.280 --> 01:12:39.440
she's so up and down. That I just I don't know, but I don't

1266
01:12:39.440 --> 01:12:42.040
know why it would manifest in relationships with men because I

1267
01:12:42.040 --> 01:12:44.640
don't have issues with women. So yeah,

1268
01:12:44.760 --> 01:12:50.160
yeah. So a couple things, just in I understand why I used to

1269
01:12:50.160 --> 01:12:53.160
call my ex a narcissist, too. But one of the things we do in

1270
01:12:53.160 --> 01:12:56.760
this community is we do separate people, the things they struggle

1271
01:12:56.760 --> 01:13:01.200
with, from identifying them as something. So I want to

1272
01:13:01.200 --> 01:13:03.720
encourage everybody, you're not wrong for saying that a lot of

1273
01:13:03.720 --> 01:13:06.640
people say that, but I just it was a good teachable moment. And

1274
01:13:06.640 --> 01:13:10.120
so mom struggles with narcissism. Okay, so that's the

1275
01:13:10.120 --> 01:13:12.840
way I would encourage you to shift in that. But one of the

1276
01:13:12.840 --> 01:13:17.320
things with that, ladies is, um, you know, you may even want

1277
01:13:17.320 --> 01:13:21.160
to pray Diana to see if there were things that your mom said

1278
01:13:21.160 --> 01:13:26.640
about men that you took into your spirit, you know, and just

1279
01:13:26.640 --> 01:13:31.520
pray regarding. Even though it was your mom, and she struggles

1280
01:13:31.520 --> 01:13:35.200
with that there can be a lot of control and manipulation and all

1281
01:13:35.200 --> 01:13:39.680
that. And that can cause a lot of fear as well. And, you know,

1282
01:13:39.680 --> 01:13:43.840
so just yeah, keep praying into that. Definitely forgive mom, if

1283
01:13:43.840 --> 01:13:47.240
there needs to be forgiveness regarding things still. And

1284
01:13:47.280 --> 01:13:52.480
let's see where God leads you in this. Okay. So good. Alright,

1285
01:13:52.480 --> 01:13:56.000
ladies, we're at 914. So I'm going to try to keep I'm going

1286
01:13:56.000 --> 01:13:59.200
to still go to Jennifer, Stephanie. Oh, someone just took

1287
01:13:59.200 --> 01:14:02.680
their hand down. There was someone else there. But oh,

1288
01:14:02.680 --> 01:14:06.080
there you are, Sophia. So we'll just try to keep it short, brief

1289
01:14:06.080 --> 01:14:09.160
and powerful. And because I do want to go ahead and get you all

1290
01:14:09.160 --> 01:14:20.920
in. Jennifer, go ahead. Jennifer, if you're talking,

1291
01:14:20.920 --> 01:14:29.280
it's muted. Okay, we'll go to Stephanie and come back.

1292
01:14:30.240 --> 01:14:39.200
Hello. Hi, this is my first. Oh, awesome. Thank you. I'll try to

1293
01:14:39.200 --> 01:14:46.040
keep it brief. What I shared with the ladies on the in my

1294
01:14:46.040 --> 01:14:53.600
group. It's kind of intermingled together. But the fears that I'm

1295
01:14:53.600 --> 01:14:58.600
asking the Lord's help with are never going to get married.

1296
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:07.940
married, not wanted, not worthy, and that I'll never have a successful relationship.

1297
01:15:07.940 --> 01:15:13.460
So that's the bundling of those together that I'm asking God's help with.

1298
01:15:13.460 --> 01:15:14.900
Okay.

1299
01:15:14.900 --> 01:15:19.980
So has anyone ever said those things to you or are these just things that you have fearful

1300
01:15:19.980 --> 01:15:20.980
thoughts about?

1301
01:15:20.980 --> 01:15:23.020
They've been said to me.

1302
01:15:23.020 --> 01:15:24.020
Okay.

1303
01:15:24.020 --> 01:15:27.820
Who said those to you?

1304
01:15:27.820 --> 01:15:35.620
The not overtly said, but the not wanted I've

1305
01:15:35.620 --> 01:15:46.020
gotten from the absence of my dad not being around, and the not wanted just my brother

1306
01:15:46.020 --> 01:15:55.700
from a young age, just different things that he would say, and then that I'll never have,

1307
01:15:55.700 --> 01:16:01.300
that I'll be a bad wife and mother, ex-boyfriends.

1308
01:16:01.300 --> 01:16:04.500
Okay.

1309
01:16:04.500 --> 01:16:11.500
So basically what we need to really work on is rewiring, like your brain essentially,

1310
01:16:11.500 --> 01:16:14.780
and the way that you're thinking about yourself because of things other people said.

1311
01:16:14.780 --> 01:16:17.880
Again, I'm plugging Jackie's thing a lot, but it was so good.

1312
01:16:17.880 --> 01:16:23.100
If you didn't hear it Saturday, definitely she was talking in there about how other people

1313
01:16:23.100 --> 01:16:27.500
would even say things to us and then we would start living into those and we would partner

1314
01:16:27.500 --> 01:16:32.460
with the things that the enemy was saying to us through those people that were harmful.

1315
01:16:32.460 --> 01:16:36.980
And so really starting to assess like, where did this thought come from?

1316
01:16:36.980 --> 01:16:41.660
And asking God to bring truth into those situations and circumstances, obviously healing from

1317
01:16:41.660 --> 01:16:48.640
those prior circumstances with your dad, your brother, you know, exes is super important

1318
01:16:48.640 --> 01:16:49.640
in this process.

1319
01:16:49.640 --> 01:16:52.380
Stephanie, is this your first week as well?

1320
01:16:52.660 --> 01:16:53.660
Yes.

1321
01:16:53.660 --> 01:16:58.060
I signed up not this past Saturday, but the Saturday before, and I've just been just kind

1322
01:16:58.060 --> 01:16:59.060
of plugging away.

1323
01:16:59.060 --> 01:17:00.060
That's fine.

1324
01:17:00.060 --> 01:17:01.060
So, yeah.

1325
01:17:01.060 --> 01:17:02.060
That's awesome.

1326
01:17:02.060 --> 01:17:07.860
The reason I asked is it kind of helps me know content wise how much kind of where you're

1327
01:17:07.860 --> 01:17:09.940
at and things like that.

1328
01:17:09.940 --> 01:17:14.620
As you continue to go through, I believe there's going to be more layers probably revealed

1329
01:17:14.620 --> 01:17:16.420
about dad and brother.

1330
01:17:16.420 --> 01:17:17.500
Okay.

1331
01:17:17.500 --> 01:17:20.060
So just journal anything that comes up.

1332
01:17:20.060 --> 01:17:21.460
Don't minimize any thought.

1333
01:17:21.460 --> 01:17:25.860
Even if it seems like in the moment, small, like, oh, this is no big deal.

1334
01:17:25.860 --> 01:17:28.860
Write it down anyways, because the Lord is bringing it up for a purpose.

1335
01:17:28.860 --> 01:17:32.140
He doesn't want it to stay in your soul and spirit, and he wants you to be able to move

1336
01:17:32.140 --> 01:17:33.460
forward.

1337
01:17:33.460 --> 01:17:37.660
And that will also prepare you for the forgiveness prayer sheet then as well.

1338
01:17:37.660 --> 01:17:38.660
Okay.

1339
01:17:38.660 --> 01:17:39.660
Okay.

1340
01:17:39.660 --> 01:17:43.900
Ladies, so many of these things are intermingled because of things people have said to us done

1341
01:17:43.900 --> 01:17:44.900
to us.

1342
01:17:44.900 --> 01:17:49.820
A lot of thoughts that we have today were not our original thoughts.

1343
01:17:50.580 --> 01:17:51.580
They weren't.

1344
01:17:51.580 --> 01:17:58.460
I believe when we were born, you know, like Adam's day, the intention was for us to have

1345
01:17:58.460 --> 01:18:02.860
thoughts of just complete bliss and pureness.

1346
01:18:02.860 --> 01:18:04.900
We were born into, you know, sin.

1347
01:18:04.900 --> 01:18:09.500
And so that wasn't maybe what we experienced, but that was the intention for us.

1348
01:18:09.500 --> 01:18:13.460
And so I do believe God wants to help us get back there more and more and more to have

1349
01:18:13.460 --> 01:18:21.740
these minds that are so full of peace and tranquility, the essence of heaven, you know,

1350
01:18:21.740 --> 01:18:25.260
the awe and wonder of what does it look like and feel like.

1351
01:18:25.260 --> 01:18:29.340
Even when you look around at something beautiful, like, just sit and think about when you take

1352
01:18:29.340 --> 01:18:35.260
that beauty in, like, imagine that being in your mind.

1353
01:18:35.260 --> 01:18:38.980
Not just something that you're seeing, but like, that that is what's in your mind.

1354
01:18:38.980 --> 01:18:42.220
That right now, Lord, as I'm seeing, I don't know, I live by the ocean.

1355
01:18:42.220 --> 01:18:47.820
So I think of that, like, I love the way the ocean, you know, goes in and out and the

1356
01:18:47.820 --> 01:18:49.540
peace of a sunset.

1357
01:18:49.540 --> 01:18:57.260
And just thinking about that peace coming into my mind, man, everything gets better.

1358
01:18:57.260 --> 01:18:58.620
Doesn't it?

1359
01:18:58.620 --> 01:19:01.300
Maybe you don't like that, but maybe your scenery is something else.

1360
01:19:01.300 --> 01:19:06.580
Maybe it's by a river, a stream that's just like a trickle and it's very calming and peaceful.

1361
01:19:06.580 --> 01:19:11.420
I don't know what your thing is, but figuring out what that thing is for you, what brings

1362
01:19:11.420 --> 01:19:18.340
you peace to center yourself on a tough day, to just sit and think on those places that

1363
01:19:18.340 --> 01:19:24.820
brought you so much beauty and wonder can really help you in great ways, ladies.

1364
01:19:24.820 --> 01:19:26.660
Stephanie, thanks again for sharing.

1365
01:19:26.660 --> 01:19:30.380
Jennifer, go ahead.

1366
01:19:30.380 --> 01:19:37.740
So my fear that recently I feel like I've gotten in touch with is the fear of not being

1367
01:19:37.780 --> 01:19:41.700
worthy of pursuit, especially by a man.

1368
01:19:43.860 --> 01:19:56.020
And I. And I think that's why I tend to operate a lot in like a more masculine way, and I

1369
01:19:56.020 --> 01:19:58.740
think I've operated like that for so long.

1370
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:06.000
I usually become the pursuer. In relationships, even in even in

1371
01:20:06.000 --> 01:20:12.200
friendships, I initiate I pursue, I do all the work. And I think

1372
01:20:12.200 --> 01:20:17.280
that deep inside, I'm so afraid that I'm not worthy of being

1373
01:20:17.280 --> 01:20:17.920
pursued.

1374
01:20:18.680 --> 01:20:22.680
So tell me more about the worthy aspect. What is where does that

1375
01:20:22.680 --> 01:20:23.800
come from for you?

1376
01:20:24.800 --> 01:20:33.720
Um, because I, so my 22, I was married for 22 years, and I did

1377
01:20:33.720 --> 01:20:39.480
not feel pursued at all. In that, even from the beginning.

1378
01:20:41.040 --> 01:20:43.720
Where does the unworthiness come from, though?

1379
01:20:43.880 --> 01:20:48.600
I don't know. It's a I think it's a lie that probably got

1380
01:20:48.600 --> 01:20:50.360
lodged in me as a child.

1381
01:20:50.960 --> 01:20:55.360
Um, do you remember the first time you felt unworthy of love?

1382
01:20:55.400 --> 01:20:56.920
Because that's really what you're saying.

1383
01:20:57.040 --> 01:20:59.560
I've never felt worthy of love.

1384
01:21:00.480 --> 01:21:05.040
Okay. So ladies, when we have this kind of stuff, this is core

1385
01:21:05.080 --> 01:21:08.080
where we want to invite the Holy Spirit and invite Jesus to come

1386
01:21:08.080 --> 01:21:12.320
into our timeline in our story, and reveal to us the first time

1387
01:21:12.320 --> 01:21:17.440
we did not feel loved. So even though we're talking about

1388
01:21:17.560 --> 01:21:21.280
unworthy, feeling unworthy, that really the opposite of that is

1389
01:21:21.280 --> 01:21:27.240
you are worthy, but you didn't feel loved. And at some point,

1390
01:21:27.240 --> 01:21:30.960
there was probably abandonment in there that caused the

1391
01:21:31.000 --> 01:21:35.560
unworthiness to take root. And so, you know, abandonment can

1392
01:21:35.560 --> 01:21:38.680
look in a lot of different ways, ladies, it can also be neglect.

1393
01:21:39.200 --> 01:21:41.520
A lot of people don't think about abandonment like that it

1394
01:21:41.520 --> 01:21:46.760
can be like, things that people, you know, just normal things,

1395
01:21:46.880 --> 01:21:51.280
parenting, or even guardians or friends or whatever, that they

1396
01:21:51.280 --> 01:21:54.720
would do for one another. And then, you know, when they don't,

1397
01:21:54.800 --> 01:21:59.960
we believe the lie that, you know, we're unlovable, which

1398
01:22:00.000 --> 01:22:04.760
then translates into unworthy of pursuit of someone or unworthy

1399
01:22:04.760 --> 01:22:08.480
of someone's time. Typically, when we when we lean into the

1400
01:22:08.480 --> 01:22:13.160
masculine side of things as well, there's some level of I

1401
01:22:13.160 --> 01:22:22.160
can't trust men. So pray into those, I want to encourage you

1402
01:22:22.160 --> 01:22:25.760
to as you pray, ladies, if I've given you kind of some things to

1403
01:22:25.760 --> 01:22:28.480
run with this week and pray into definitely come in and do a post

1404
01:22:28.480 --> 01:22:31.840
on them as you process. And it might not be we might not have

1405
01:22:31.840 --> 01:22:34.480
the answers this week. But when you get them come back in and

1406
01:22:34.480 --> 01:22:37.480
post in the group, because most of you will probably need to

1407
01:22:37.480 --> 01:22:41.280
unpack those things more. Okay. And that's what we're here for.

1408
01:22:41.280 --> 01:22:44.400
We're here to help you keep unpacking these things. So I

1409
01:22:44.400 --> 01:22:47.280
would encourage you to pray about, you know, when's the

1410
01:22:47.280 --> 01:22:51.880
first time you didn't feel that you could trust a man? And see

1411
01:22:51.880 --> 01:22:55.200
what comes up there as well. Because it's probably the

1412
01:22:55.200 --> 01:22:57.320
marriage, but I'm gonna I'm gonna guess it's probably way

1413
01:22:57.320 --> 01:23:01.520
before that. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Thank you for sharing. I'm so

1414
01:23:01.520 --> 01:23:05.000
sorry to hear about what happened and praying for you and

1415
01:23:05.000 --> 01:23:09.360
you are absolutely worthy. God makes us all worthy ladies and

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01:23:09.360 --> 01:23:14.720
in and of itself, you know, any of us are able as we learn how

1417
01:23:14.720 --> 01:23:19.840
to heal to receive the divine feminine and activate it. So

1418
01:23:20.080 --> 01:23:22.680
we'll be we'll be talking about that the more that you go

1419
01:23:22.680 --> 01:23:26.000
through this journey, but practicing implementing the

1420
01:23:26.000 --> 01:23:29.360
divine feminine ladies can just be, you know, a lot of simple

1421
01:23:29.360 --> 01:23:34.760
things letting men help you. So Jennifer, in the next few weeks,

1422
01:23:34.760 --> 01:23:37.760
practice letting men help you even if you don't think you need

1423
01:23:37.760 --> 01:23:42.880
the help. Okay. Yeah. And ladies, it really does take

1424
01:23:42.880 --> 01:23:47.000
practice, especially like I was good. I can do I can I'm pretty

1425
01:23:47.000 --> 01:23:50.760
self sufficient. I can carry my bags. I can carry, you know,

1426
01:23:50.800 --> 01:23:53.640
open doors for myself. I can I can do all the things I can

1427
01:23:53.640 --> 01:23:58.680
carry lots of bags. I'm pretty strong. I can fix things in the

1428
01:23:58.680 --> 01:24:03.000
house. I can, you know, I just I operate and function because I

1429
01:24:03.000 --> 01:24:07.600
had to when I was young, and do a lot of things. But I don't

1430
01:24:07.600 --> 01:24:14.560
have to. I don't have to. And so I had to practice letting people

1431
01:24:14.560 --> 01:24:18.560
help me. And even still doing that, as I talked about, maybe

1432
01:24:18.560 --> 01:24:22.880
that was last week. So we can practice letting people help us.

1433
01:24:23.080 --> 01:24:25.400
Jennifer, great job. Sofia, go ahead.

1434
01:24:26.480 --> 01:24:32.000
Hi, everyone. It's also my first time here. But what I wanted to

1435
01:24:32.000 --> 01:24:34.600
share was kind of something similar that was shared earlier,

1436
01:24:34.600 --> 01:24:39.040
I think it was from Diana about the men part. And I actually had

1437
01:24:39.120 --> 01:24:41.840
something last night that I thought I wasn't planning to

1438
01:24:41.840 --> 01:24:45.000
share. But anyways, I'll keep it short. Last night, I got

1439
01:24:45.000 --> 01:24:49.080
approached in the grocery store. And it was like around, it was

1440
01:24:49.080 --> 01:24:53.640
already after dark. And I thought that was always kind of

1441
01:24:53.640 --> 01:24:56.520
one thing I thought would be cool is if I ever got approached

1442
01:24:56.560 --> 01:24:59.840
in a grocery store, like that would be the dream, right. And

1443
01:24:59.840 --> 01:25:00.000
so

1444
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:07.680
I did yesterday and I actually it was not good. I was not flattered. I was like I ended up being

1445
01:25:07.680 --> 01:25:13.360
like afraid like is he going to stop me like he asked me for my phone number and then I always

1446
01:25:13.360 --> 01:25:17.120
think the worst and he pulled out his phone and he's like here's my number and he put his phone

1447
01:25:17.120 --> 01:25:21.360
kind of close to mine because I was like well I don't get my phone number out then I'm thinking

1448
01:25:21.360 --> 01:25:25.680
the worst like oh he got my information or I don't know I just started going down this rabbit hole

1449
01:25:25.680 --> 01:25:30.720
and then I like cut my grocery trip short and I had a friend call me because we were almost

1450
01:25:30.720 --> 01:25:37.920
going to go out at the same time like it was a whole thing and I um literally went to bed

1451
01:25:37.920 --> 01:25:44.720
feeling afraid like I had a nauseous stump like feeling in my stomach about the whole deal and I

1452
01:25:44.720 --> 01:25:51.520
was like why why did I feel so afraid of this person coming up to me and asking for my phone

1453
01:25:51.520 --> 01:25:58.480
number and um you know I've been I have been um trapped like somebody put a tracker on my car

1454
01:25:58.480 --> 01:26:05.760
twice um two different men in my life and those two men I I have contact with still so like

1455
01:26:05.760 --> 01:26:11.360
these are people that I haven't like they don't go away kind of thing but I felt like I never

1456
01:26:11.360 --> 01:26:15.920
thought that would be an issue by somebody I didn't know and I I think I still have some

1457
01:26:15.920 --> 01:26:19.600
something what I'm trying to figure out is what part of that is from the trauma that I've been

1458
01:26:19.600 --> 01:26:25.120
through and what part of it is discernment to know like no maybe this was a bad feeling that

1459
01:26:25.120 --> 01:26:30.880
came from God you know or is this just my past and I don't know how to separate the two of like

1460
01:26:30.880 --> 01:26:35.600
when someone actually does approach me and it's for a good thing and I take it wrong you know

1461
01:26:36.160 --> 01:26:42.000
yeah I do let me help you a little bit um because at first I am like okay how do we tell the

1462
01:26:42.000 --> 01:26:47.120
difference I think the biggest thing is God isn't going to make you afraid but he will give you

1463
01:26:47.120 --> 01:26:54.880
wisdom and discernment that someone is not safe does that make sense so the and and here's here's

1464
01:26:54.880 --> 01:27:02.240
where that discernment and that uh line for me comes into play you went home and went to bed

1465
01:27:02.240 --> 01:27:09.680
and still felt fear that to me is different than discerning that somebody at the store

1466
01:27:10.480 --> 01:27:16.240
may not have been a healthy person to be around or you know to give your number two um and so

1467
01:27:16.880 --> 01:27:21.600
I think the biggest thing here is especially because you mentioned that you had two people

1468
01:27:21.600 --> 01:27:28.400
that put trackers on your car they both were men um I'm gonna say this guy at the store triggered

1469
01:27:28.400 --> 01:27:35.040
fear from those prior situations and um you mentioned you still have contact with these

1470
01:27:35.040 --> 01:27:43.760
people is there a reason you have contact with them well one I have kids with so that's never

1471
01:27:43.760 --> 01:27:53.760
going to change um and um the other one is just we've made amends um but he has an ex-boyfriend but

1472
01:27:53.760 --> 01:28:00.720
he we try to be friends but he just I don't know he's just always been in the background somehow

1473
01:28:00.720 --> 01:28:09.040
like he doesn't ever go away okay you said it so well because what I was kind of picking up on

1474
01:28:09.040 --> 01:28:16.800
is you've got this kind of storyline in the background that men aren't safe and you can't

1475
01:28:16.800 --> 01:28:25.360
trust them to bring you safety and protection but instead they're tracking you down and so that's

1476
01:28:25.360 --> 01:28:31.360
why your mind went into all those fearful thoughts in the store because you're going through heart

1477
01:28:31.360 --> 01:28:35.840
work and you're going to start this stuff that even though you've been through it you've processed

1478
01:28:35.840 --> 01:28:40.880
some of it before it's going to start to percolate to the surface and God's going to help

1479
01:28:40.880 --> 01:28:47.440
you know other areas that you need to heal from from those situations um not telling you what to

1480
01:28:47.440 --> 01:28:51.920
do but honestly I would really pray about whether or not even though you made amends with the ex

1481
01:28:51.920 --> 01:29:00.240
you have no kids with him correct so to me to me that seems like a pretty toxic thing that he did

1482
01:29:01.200 --> 01:29:08.240
so why leave that door open you might want to pray about that and just see if the Lord encourages you

1483
01:29:08.240 --> 01:29:14.080
to completely close that door so that he's not just hanging out in the background there anymore

1484
01:29:15.360 --> 01:29:20.960
yeah ladies sometimes we need to close doors all the way even if someone has made amends if they

1485
01:29:20.960 --> 01:29:27.680
are not you know at some point we're not a safe person and we used to date them in order to move

1486
01:29:27.760 --> 01:29:34.320
forward we have to make room I don't I don't associate with any of my exes anymore now if

1487
01:29:34.320 --> 01:29:40.640
you have a kid with someone that's totally different okay because you have to um but this

1488
01:29:40.640 --> 01:29:47.440
guy you don't and so you could totally cut ties with him yeah and again you pray about that and

1489
01:29:47.440 --> 01:29:52.640
see what God shows you but I definitely think the more that you can distance yourself from people

1490
01:29:52.640 --> 01:29:59.760
like that that that would be a good thing and then okay ladies it's

1491
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:03.600
If you need to log off, absolutely feel free to do so.

1492
01:30:03.600 --> 01:30:06.240
I am gonna go through our control content.

1493
01:30:06.240 --> 01:30:07.320
We won't do another breakout

1494
01:30:07.320 --> 01:30:08.800
just because those were really good

1495
01:30:08.800 --> 01:30:12.800
and I wanted to get all the ladies an opportunity to speak.

1496
01:30:12.800 --> 01:30:14.840
But I am gonna, it's not a lot of content

1497
01:30:14.840 --> 01:30:16.600
so I wanna go ahead and give it to you.

1498
01:30:16.600 --> 01:30:18.080
Before anyone logs off though,

1499
01:30:18.080 --> 01:30:20.200
I wanna give you your activations for this week.

1500
01:30:20.200 --> 01:30:22.240
So hang with me for just a minute.

1501
01:30:22.240 --> 01:30:24.820
The activation this week is called letting go.

1502
01:30:26.040 --> 01:30:29.260
And here's what I'm gonna encourage you all to do.

1503
01:30:29.300 --> 01:30:32.500
I want you to pray and make a list of things

1504
01:30:32.500 --> 01:30:36.520
that you are going to commit to letting go of.

1505
01:30:37.460 --> 01:30:41.980
So from 2024 and even in the beginning of January of 25,

1506
01:30:41.980 --> 01:30:46.100
these are things that are not serving you well at all.

1507
01:30:46.100 --> 01:30:47.780
And God doesn't want you to take them

1508
01:30:47.780 --> 01:30:49.820
further into 2025 with you.

1509
01:30:49.820 --> 01:30:53.060
So you're gonna agree to release these things

1510
01:30:53.060 --> 01:30:54.380
and let them go.

1511
01:30:54.380 --> 01:30:56.980
And some of the ways that I'm gonna encourage you

1512
01:30:56.980 --> 01:30:59.180
to symbolize this letting go process

1513
01:31:00.020 --> 01:31:00.860
is two things.

1514
01:31:00.860 --> 01:31:02.860
You can pick whichever one you feel the most led to do,

1515
01:31:02.860 --> 01:31:04.940
or if you come up with a different idea,

1516
01:31:05.860 --> 01:31:07.060
you can totally do that.

1517
01:31:07.060 --> 01:31:08.940
But these are two that I know,

1518
01:31:08.940 --> 01:31:11.060
I've done them with people a lot and they really work.

1519
01:31:11.060 --> 01:31:13.700
Number one is a balloon release.

1520
01:31:13.700 --> 01:31:15.660
Okay, go get a balloon.

1521
01:31:17.300 --> 01:31:19.300
I wouldn't encourage you to attach your note

1522
01:31:19.300 --> 01:31:20.940
that you've written on to the balloon

1523
01:31:20.940 --> 01:31:23.060
just because if that ends up in your neighbor's yard,

1524
01:31:23.060 --> 01:31:25.000
you know, or someone that you know,

1525
01:31:25.000 --> 01:31:26.420
they're gonna read your thing and make,

1526
01:31:26.420 --> 01:31:27.540
I don't know that they would know you,

1527
01:31:27.580 --> 01:31:30.100
but again, maybe attach something to it

1528
01:31:30.100 --> 01:31:34.220
that represents the thing that you're letting go, okay?

1529
01:31:35.260 --> 01:31:38.860
The other aspect is to make that list

1530
01:31:38.860 --> 01:31:40.860
and watch it burn, ladies.

1531
01:31:40.860 --> 01:31:44.380
Light it on fire in a safe place, of course,

1532
01:31:44.380 --> 01:31:45.780
and watch it burn.

1533
01:31:45.780 --> 01:31:49.620
And I'm gonna encourage you all to take some photos

1534
01:31:49.620 --> 01:31:51.900
to capture these moments.

1535
01:31:51.900 --> 01:31:55.140
Some people, I've had ladies take a video of things before.

1536
01:31:55.140 --> 01:31:56.220
I love telling the story.

1537
01:31:56.220 --> 01:31:57.360
This just happened recently.

1538
01:31:58.080 --> 01:31:58.920
I told it this afternoon.

1539
01:31:58.920 --> 01:32:01.160
One of the ladies that did this the last time around

1540
01:32:01.160 --> 01:32:02.800
that I issued this activation,

1541
01:32:02.800 --> 01:32:07.800
she was praying as she was lighting her paper on fire

1542
01:32:07.840 --> 01:32:10.560
and the paper was just sitting there burning.

1543
01:32:10.560 --> 01:32:14.520
And as soon as she said, Lord, I'm letting this go,

1544
01:32:14.520 --> 01:32:16.240
I agree with you, I'm letting this go.

1545
01:32:16.240 --> 01:32:19.640
And as soon as she said, letting it go,

1546
01:32:19.640 --> 01:32:21.200
literally the wind picked up

1547
01:32:21.200 --> 01:32:24.200
and it took the ashes and blew them away.

1548
01:32:24.200 --> 01:32:27.120
It's so supernatural, so cool.

1549
01:32:27.880 --> 01:32:28.920
I don't know if yours will go the same way,

1550
01:32:28.920 --> 01:32:30.040
but I wanna encourage you,

1551
01:32:30.040 --> 01:32:34.120
like these activations impact people in all different ways.

1552
01:32:34.120 --> 01:32:36.720
Some people struggle to light it on fire.

1553
01:32:36.720 --> 01:32:39.320
Some people struggle to actually release the balloons

1554
01:32:39.320 --> 01:32:40.160
in that moment.

1555
01:32:40.160 --> 01:32:43.400
And even feeling that and processing

1556
01:32:43.400 --> 01:32:46.080
why we don't maybe feel comfortable

1557
01:32:46.080 --> 01:32:48.560
letting something go is important.

1558
01:32:48.560 --> 01:32:50.280
It's an important part of your process, okay?

1559
01:32:50.280 --> 01:32:51.640
So I wanna make sure you have that.

1560
01:32:51.640 --> 01:32:54.340
Here's the content on the control.

1561
01:32:55.220 --> 01:32:57.860
So many times we think that we're not control freaks,

1562
01:32:57.860 --> 01:33:01.300
ladies, we think that, no, this doesn't apply to me.

1563
01:33:01.300 --> 01:33:03.720
I don't control anything, I'm good.

1564
01:33:03.720 --> 01:33:07.140
And I wanna encourage you just to be really open,

1565
01:33:07.140 --> 01:33:10.480
be really open to asking the Lord,

1566
01:33:10.480 --> 01:33:14.660
is there any area I struggle to control things?

1567
01:33:17.020 --> 01:33:21.340
Is there any area where I even operate in OCD's tendencies

1568
01:33:21.340 --> 01:33:24.180
to bring control to a situation

1569
01:33:24.180 --> 01:33:27.460
when I feel like things are out of control?

1570
01:33:28.960 --> 01:33:31.340
It doesn't mean we can't have those tendencies, ladies,

1571
01:33:31.340 --> 01:33:33.940
but a lot of times those happen

1572
01:33:33.940 --> 01:33:38.820
because we're trying to regain control in a situation.

1573
01:33:38.820 --> 01:33:40.980
In the book, it says, never let them see you sweat.

1574
01:33:40.980 --> 01:33:43.060
I don't know how many people reading this will remember

1575
01:33:43.060 --> 01:33:45.420
the antiperspirant commercial with the tagline,

1576
01:33:45.420 --> 01:33:47.620
never let them see you sweat.

1577
01:33:47.620 --> 01:33:52.020
Or in other words, stay unemotional, be in control

1578
01:33:52.020 --> 01:33:54.760
and never let them see your weakness.

1579
01:33:54.760 --> 01:33:57.780
If we are going to get free to be our real selves,

1580
01:33:57.780 --> 01:34:00.480
we have to throw out the cultural lies.

1581
01:34:00.480 --> 01:34:03.260
Being weak is okay.

1582
01:34:03.260 --> 01:34:05.900
It's okay to admit that you don't have it all together

1583
01:34:05.900 --> 01:34:07.820
and that you've made mistakes.

1584
01:34:07.820 --> 01:34:09.580
I will tell you this, I'll show you mine

1585
01:34:09.580 --> 01:34:11.220
if you show me yours.

1586
01:34:11.220 --> 01:34:14.020
Y'all, I'll show you mine if you show me yours

1587
01:34:14.020 --> 01:34:15.500
in this group, in this community,

1588
01:34:15.500 --> 01:34:18.860
we can show each other our stuff.

1589
01:34:18.860 --> 01:34:20.380
It's not about our highlight reels,

1590
01:34:20.380 --> 01:34:22.080
but it's about our blooper reels too.

1591
01:34:22.080 --> 01:34:24.420
Where did we make mistakes?

1592
01:34:24.420 --> 01:34:26.740
I wanna see all the skeletons in your closet.

1593
01:34:26.740 --> 01:34:29.060
You guys don't have to go into every gory detail,

1594
01:34:29.060 --> 01:34:31.820
but if there's something you need to confess,

1595
01:34:31.820 --> 01:34:33.540
here's the place to do it.

1596
01:34:33.540 --> 01:34:36.340
I promise, women have confessed things

1597
01:34:36.340 --> 01:34:40.060
they've never told anybody ever before in this community,

1598
01:34:40.060 --> 01:34:42.380
and it's been safe and we've protected them

1599
01:34:42.380 --> 01:34:46.220
and we've loved them and they were able to let things go

1600
01:34:46.220 --> 01:34:47.980
and move on for the rest of their life

1601
01:34:47.980 --> 01:34:49.120
without carrying that.

1602
01:34:50.220 --> 01:34:51.780
Your wounds, scars, weaknesses,

1603
01:34:51.780 --> 01:34:53.660
the bodies in the trunk of your car,

1604
01:34:53.660 --> 01:34:55.460
go ahead and bring them all out.

1605
01:34:55.460 --> 01:34:57.820
Somebody needs to see them.

1606
01:34:57.820 --> 01:34:59.900
Let's declare war on a culture.

1607
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:06.880
angles and filters, auto-tune in Photoshop because real freedom is found in vulnerability.

1608
01:35:08.320 --> 01:35:13.440
Real freedom is found in vulnerability, ladies. Control is just an illusion anyways.

1609
01:35:14.400 --> 01:35:19.280
It's often a misleading image. It's something that's misleading us intellectually to cause us

1610
01:35:19.280 --> 01:35:25.040
to feel that we've got it all together and if we do it this way or if we let, you know, don't

1611
01:35:25.040 --> 01:35:31.360
let that happen that everything will always go just fine. Healthy people who walk in victory

1612
01:35:31.360 --> 01:35:38.320
don't try to control other people. Is there anyone in your life right now that you are trying to

1613
01:35:38.320 --> 01:35:46.000
control? They don't know, like a lot of times people that walk in control we don't know that

1614
01:35:46.000 --> 01:35:53.440
it's actually not our job to control other people, to control outcomes of situations,

1615
01:35:53.440 --> 01:36:01.440
conversations. What areas of your life do you struggle to let go of control? People, places,

1616
01:36:02.160 --> 01:36:10.800
things, perceptions, outcome, maybe finances. Maybe some of you like have kids that are spending

1617
01:36:10.800 --> 01:36:16.800
money they shouldn't. I don't know about my girls, love them but they're making some decisions I

1618
01:36:16.800 --> 01:36:21.840
would not want them to make but I just keep reminding myself I made some bad decisions too

1619
01:36:21.840 --> 01:36:30.640
when I was young and God has got me here. We can let go ladies. Can we interject lovingly if God

1620
01:36:30.640 --> 01:36:38.880
opens that door? Absolutely but we don't always have to give our advice to people that are not

1621
01:36:38.880 --> 01:36:48.400
asking for it. Are you currently trying to control things to avoid pain, to avoid getting hurt

1622
01:36:49.120 --> 01:36:54.880
because you're afraid of loss which someone talked about that earlier, Rebecca, you know she's fear of

1623
01:36:54.880 --> 01:37:03.280
loss and the reality is the enemy is trying to convince you that if you go through pain you're

1624
01:37:03.280 --> 01:37:11.600
not going to make it and that's not true. Are you trying to keep people where you want them so that

1625
01:37:11.600 --> 01:37:19.360
they can't hurt you? If we are doing any of these things ladies this is not living in abundance.

1626
01:37:19.360 --> 01:37:26.640
This is not living the good good life that God has for us. God has so much more for us and guess what

1627
01:37:26.640 --> 01:37:32.640
when we live free and we're not trying to control our life and everything in it other people live

1628
01:37:32.640 --> 01:37:41.280
more free too. It's amazing and you're going to enjoy your life so much more truly. Here are some

1629
01:37:41.280 --> 01:37:47.200
things that we we can have control of. Our beliefs. So what are your values? What are your beliefs?

1630
01:37:47.760 --> 01:37:55.200
That's all we have control over. Our responses versus a reaction. Ladies so often in our society

1631
01:37:55.200 --> 01:38:01.200
people are reacting so quick. Everybody's mad zero to 180 and I've done this before myself.

1632
01:38:01.200 --> 01:38:07.600
I'm like why am I getting so mad so fast? What's going on here? Well there was some hurt there that

1633
01:38:07.680 --> 01:38:16.560
I hadn't dealt with yet and I needed to look at that. Are you a quick reactor? Not a responder

1634
01:38:16.560 --> 01:38:23.840
there. I said reactor where you're just blowing a top really quick. You want to think about that

1635
01:38:23.840 --> 01:38:29.040
and ask the Lord to reveal what's the hurt underneath of there. Angers, hurts, bodyguard.

1636
01:38:30.240 --> 01:38:35.440
So some kind of hurt is under that surface. Boundaries we can control as well. One of the

1637
01:38:35.440 --> 01:38:41.440
things we need to have here though is balance because some people use boundaries so much that

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they create walls and they go overboard with self-protection. So for example some one of

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the things I said this afternoon is some people don't leave their home very much

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because they're afraid and these are real things and it's happening more and more and more that

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young folks, older folks, everybody of every age you know we experienced COVID and shutdown. We

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pulled away from people because we felt like we were told we had to and some people experienced

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you know massive hard things because of COVID. Lost people. So of course fear and all that but even

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more than that just life happening but we don't need to shut down and shut people out. We can

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actually practice coming into community and connecting and you can do that even here in this

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group and then some of you will go on into the other phases and you'll start getting to meet

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people in person because we have people all around the world that are a part of this program. It's

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incredible. I want to encourage you to lean into in the days ahead that you are being God defended

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and embraced in his love. Isaiah 26 3 says this, you will keep in perfect peace those

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whose minds are steadfast, which means stayed upon.

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you, being God, because they trust in you.

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He will keep us in perfect peace as we keep our minds stayed upon Him, as we

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think on things that are true, noble, lovely, and of good report, things

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that are above only and not beneath. When we think about who God is,

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when I sit and think about God as love, God as peace, God as good, as faithful,

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it changes my perspective of things. So tonight, ladies, I want to encourage

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you to yield control, that you would lean into the supernatural

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surrender that we learned about last week and wave the white flag, concede,

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let go, and let God help you. You don't have to control things to get

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the outcome that's best for your life. Actually, oftentimes when we try to

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control things, we actually tend to lead ourselves into

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unhealthy things. Laura said, what type of stuff to let

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go of? Well, that's where you need to ask the Lord,

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what do I need to let go of? So for example,

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some of you might need to let go of a relationship,

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you know, that's not serving you. Some of you might need to let go of grief

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and the sackcloth, you know, the Bible talks about

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after people have grieved for a certain amount of time, it doesn't mean they can't

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still feel sad when they think about the loss of that

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person, but sackcloth is different.

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There is grief and then there's deep grief

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where people just really struggle to come out of it.

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Some people grieve the loss of their former husband

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and they want a spirit mate, but because they are

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grieving in that place and the enemy has convinced them that it's

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actually not good for them to move forward, even though they won't say it

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out loud, they feel guilty for moving forward.

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Those are the kind of things we can leave behind,

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leave behind regrets for mistakes that you've made, whatever,

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whatever it is that you personally need to leave behind. Maybe it's a negative

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negative mindsets, limiting belief systems and orphan mentalities

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that are not serving you.

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Yeah, Sarah said, I need to let go of the fear of rejection and approval of man.

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That's so good. We are praying for you, ladies. We're so

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glad to be on this journey with you. God is stirring.

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I can see him just even as I'm talking and saying things, ladies. I know that

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he's stirring and he's doing something really amazing in you.

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I want you to think about, as I start to pray,

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right now, the image in your head of Jesus sitting at the right hand of the

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father and he's interceding for you

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by name. Not just the group, but you.

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And he's cheering you on and he's believing

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that you can step into the victory that he's already won for you,

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one step at a time. You don't have to accomplish the whole thing

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today. Just one step. So father, I just thank you right now

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for your victory. I thank you that you died on the cross.

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You allowed your body to be broken and your blood to be shed for the forgiveness

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of our sins, for our freedom, for our healing, for our redemption, to make a way

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for us to be one with you as you are one with the father. I thank you that you

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enabled us to become overcomers, that you

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gave us the pathway forward, that your word

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declares that you will be a lamp unto our feet and a light onto our path.

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God, I thank you that you'll, yes Lord, that you will take our feet off of

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pathways of pain and put our feet onto pathways that lead to you,

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that Lord will run towards you and not be afraid of you.

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Lord, where the ladies in this group have any level of fear regarding man, I

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ask you to reveal areas for healing for them

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so that they can process those things and step into the truth. God, that you

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would show them all the ways that you've been defending them and protecting them

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all along. Lord, ways that even that you showed up

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and brought victory and truth and hope in

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desperate times. Lord, I thank you that you would just continue to

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just open our eyes and the understanding that we have

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to see your greater truth more in this week ahead. We thank you for your head,

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01:44:32.400 --> 01:44:36.480
your protection around us, where the enemy has come in with a spirit

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of fear in Jesus' name. Tonight I bind and I break the spirit of

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fear off of us, the spirit of anxiety and panic, worry and

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dread disorders in Jesus' name, that they have to go

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and they cannot habitate and get rooted into our spirits any longer. I thank you,

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Father, that you would release the spirit in Jesus' name

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of love and of power and of a sound mind.

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That we will walk in your truth and know your truth and be made whole this night and every day forward in Jesus name

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Amen ladies. He's working

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I encourage you that that scripture that we don't have a spirit of fear

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But we have a spirit of love and of power and of a sound mind ladies

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That was the scripture I declared every day over myself to overcome my fear of the dark

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Genuinely, I used to have fear come on me because I got abused in the basement

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And when I would go up the stairs from the basement when it would be dark

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I would feel like I needed to run

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And then run in other parts of my house because people were looking in the windows. That's what the enemy was telling me

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And that was when I was young and that happened again when I was in my 20s over and over again

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I would be walking up the stairs and I would feel this fear come on me

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And the lord started saying to me

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resist it

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resist it

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And I just start I just started praying and declaring that's I bet my last name was stanko back then

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I bethenny stanko do not have a spirit of fear

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But I have a spirit of love and of power and of a sound mind. I am not afraid satan

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I am not afraid I have a spirit of fear. I have a spirit of love and of power and of a sound mind

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I would just every step I did not run

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I would not let myself

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run

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I walked up every one of those steps and I walked in peace

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Ladies that took time, but it was possible. So whatever it is that you're facing it is possible for you

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too

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God bless you all. I hope you have an amazing night. I can't wait to see you in the group

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We love you, and we're so glad that you're a part of this community. Good night, everyone

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Bye