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Hello, welcome, welcome.

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I'm sure more people are going to be joining us here in just a little bit.

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Welcome back for another session, Monday evening, heartwork, check-in, so glad to be here with

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all of you.

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For any of you that are here with us tonight, is there anyone that is new for the first

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time?

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You've never been at a live session before?

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If so, put that in the chat for us so we can welcome you.

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My name is Bethany Cooper, I'm one of the heartwork coaches here in the community and

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just love what God is doing and the opportunity that I get to do and be a part of in this

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season.

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And tonight, I'm super excited just to go through what I believe can be really transformative

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for you all.

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Some of the things that God has been bringing up and even this afternoon, things that, you

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know, the Holy Spirit brought up that I didn't even plan for, which is a really awesome thing.

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So, is it Karishma, is that how you say it?

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Please let me know.

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Yes.

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Karishma.

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Yes.

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Thank you.

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You're welcome.

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All right.

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I'm trying to make notes of this stuff, ladies.

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So, Karishma.

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All right.

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Awesome.

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Thank you so much.

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Welcome, welcome for those that are joining us right now.

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Again, so glad that you're here.

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Our housekeeping items tonight, just a couple of really quick ones, Supernatural Saturday

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if y'all didn't hear that yet.

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Maybe you just joined us yesterday.

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I don't know.

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But either way, Supernatural Saturday was really great.

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It's called Silent Saturday is the process.

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It was powerful just talking about the middle, you know, the middle season, if you will,

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the emptiness of the tomb, you know, all the things that come after that waiting period.

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But what do we do with the waiting period?

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And so Jackie really focused on that Silent Saturday and how sometimes people walk away

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from even got things God is telling them that are going to be theirs because the middle

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season gets hard.

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And so I want to encourage you all to listen to that.

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I believe that it will really help you even in your heart healing phase one journey to

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prepare your hearts for what God is trying to lead you into.

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iPhone, welcome.

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Just so y'all know, if you when you log in, if you tap on your screen, like kind of tap

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on your picture, there should be dots that show up three little dots, and then it will

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give you an opportunity to rename your screen.

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And so we'd love for you all to put your first name in there if you can.

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That will help us when so I don't have to call you iPhone, but I'm so glad that you're

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here.

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Welcome.

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We're, we're glad to have new ladies joining us all the time.

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So Supernatural Saturday, check that out.

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That's under the replay tab in the app.

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I want to let you all know that distractions are going to come all the time throughout

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your whole heart work process into phase two and beyond.

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So what do we do with, with distractions?

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We want to stay focused.

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We want to stay focused, not give up.

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What kind of distractions?

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Well, any kind of distraction you can think of old, old guys that you broke up with.

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They might resurface.

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They might.

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Guess what?

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You can, you can really resist the urge to reach back out and go down that road unless,

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you know, after phase one, because if you didn't know, we ask you to press pause on

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dating when you're in phase one.

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Why do we do that?

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Because you need to be here to intentionally invest in yourself.

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So unless you were in a very serious long-term relationship before you came into heart work,

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we ask you to press pause on dating apps, dating, trying to meet guys so that you can

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just really have a solo conversation between you and the Lord to hear fully what he's trying

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to say to you that needs healing.

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So that can pop up.

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Sometimes things go haywire with kiddos.

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They have constant needs.

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Sometimes people get sick.

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We've had all kinds of things happen, you all, but stay focused.

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Don't give up.

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And if something happens, please let us know so we can be praying for you and come alongside

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of you on that journey on the note of distractions.

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There is one that happened today, you all, and you might, some of you might already know

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about it.

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So we're having a tech issue in our app.

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If you didn't know, courses for a lot of people went back to zero.

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Not a good thing.

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Not something we want to happen.

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So I apologize for that.

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We are working on it.

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We're going to be working with our app developer tomorrow to try to resolve that and get everybody's

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course percentages back to where they were.

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Give us grace in this process, because with having our own app, there's a lot of awesome

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things about it, and there's a lot we're learning in the process as well.

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So again, apologize for that.

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We hope that that will be fixed very soon.

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Just do your best.

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Okay, so Courtney, yours already came back.

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That's awesome.

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Did you log out and log back in?

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When I just came in tonight, it was showing zero.

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and I just refresh it a couple of times

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and it showed back my percentage of where I was.

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Okay, so ladies.

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It's true, I thought I got restarted for a second.

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Try to do that and let's hope

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that everyone's will get refreshed

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because there were a couple of people I reached out to

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before I hopped on

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because we were trying to figure out

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if we needed to make this announcement

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and that person, a couple of them,

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theirs was at zero.

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So I was like, I just got to let them know.

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I literally just did it like right before this call, so.

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All right, awesome.

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Thank you for that.

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That's super helpful.

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So, okay.

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Hopefully everyone is okay.

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I'll let my team know as well,

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but if not, log out, log back in, refresh,

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and let's see if we can get everybody's

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back to where it was.

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Last one is best practice.

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When you're going through the HeartWork course

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is one week of content per week.

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And in there, it's, you know,

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we call it part one, part two,

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but when I say week one, that's what I mean.

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Part one is week one,

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but you have one week of content per week.

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We really don't want you to go faster than that.

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If you take longer than that, that's okay,

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but we don't want you to go faster.

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If you go faster, we're just going to kindly

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just ask you to kind of hold pattern

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and revisit some videos.

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Make sure you're coming to the live sessions.

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Y'all, the live sessions are a huge part

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of this HeartWork course.

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And so those of you that are here,

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I think you know that,

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and God's been bringing a lot of breakthrough,

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a lot of revelation for people.

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And I want more people to understand that.

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So if you can, if these live sessions are helping you,

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I would love for y'all to just put a thing in the group

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so people can read them.

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Maybe they're not coming to lives.

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It might encourage them,

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because some people are afraid

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to actually come on live sessions like this.

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So want to thank you in advance

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if that is you and you feel led to do that.

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All right, let me pray for us.

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And we're going to jump right in.

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Father, thank you so much for this night.

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Thank you for the revealings, for healing

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that are going to happen tonight,

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the ones that already happened today,

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the ones that are going to continue throughout the week.

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We thank you, God, for your divine calling

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and impartation into each one of us,

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that you've placed so many beautiful things

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on the inside of every single one of us.

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I pray that if there's anything

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that the enemy is saying or doing

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that's causing us to live underneath

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of where you have called us to live,

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I pray that you'll help us to receive that upgrade

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from heaven tonight,

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that you would help us to align our hearts,

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our minds, our bodies, our spirits,

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and our souls with the kingdom of heaven,

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that we would hear what your spirit

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is saying over us tonight,

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that you would help us to hear your still small voice.

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And as things are coming to the surface,

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Lord, I thank you that you would place the balm of Gilead

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upon every wound, upon every trauma

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that any of us have ever experienced, God,

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and that you would bring not just revitalization,

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but redemption and healing and restoration, God,

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that you would just come into every crack and crevice

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and fill in those foundation places, Lord, with your love.

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Lord, let your love, Lord, envelop us

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in just a supernatural way.

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Help us to have a fresh understanding of who you are,

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God, the Father, as love, as kindness,

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goodness, faithfulness, gentleness.

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God, that you lead us into wide open spaces.

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You deliver us.

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You take us out of the muck and the mire

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and you set our feet upon the rock.

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And we just thank you in advance for that.

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In Jesus' name, amen.

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All right, you all, we're gonna do

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a couple little things tonight as we are getting started.

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I ran out of time to do this this afternoon,

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and so I really wanna do this,

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I think, on the beginning tonight.

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I wanna just start to hear from you a little bit.

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We're gonna be talking about confession and repentance.

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Some of you have already been through week three,

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but just in general,

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even if you've just started this course,

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maybe you just are on day one,

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so you might not be there yet.

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But if you're a couple days in, a weekend,

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you know, a little further,

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I wanna hear from you in the chat.

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What is something that God has been speaking to you about

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that he's leading you to confess,

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that he's leading you to repent

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and turn away from that stuff?

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You know, maybe you were going this way before,

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but now the Holy Spirit, the Lord's been working

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in your heart and he's like,

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gosh, man, you know, Aaron, I have better for you.

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You know, Michelle, I have so much better for you.

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Katie, come this direction

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because I've got something really awesome

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waiting over here for you.

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And so if that's you,

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there's something that God is asking you

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to walk away from, leave behind.

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I'm gonna talk about a couple different aspects of things.

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I would love to hear from you in the chat,

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and that can be any of you all.

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It doesn't have to just be the people I said their name.

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I only do that when I feel like

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the Holy Spirit tells me to do it,

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and I never know who.

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I just, I kind of, my eyes go,

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and when I see someone, I say their name.

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So the Lord knows why those things happen

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and who needs to hear them at,

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I believe, a point in time, so.

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But what are...

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some things what are some things that the Holy Spirit has been working on you regarding all

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right Katie says that I have to walk away from old to accept new yes all right Karen says use

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evening time for reading love that being with him okay Katie people I like that's something I was

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kind of alluding to this afternoon that the Lord was kind of speaking into so I'm trying to read

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and talk at the same time which is not effective y'all but um speaking into that some of us you

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know have old friends and it doesn't mean you can't love them it doesn't mean you can't ever

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talk to them but some of you really need to be in prayer about this new season that God's leading

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into you uh leading you into and whether or not God wants you to have all of the people in your

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life right now still in like main focus like what do I mean by that like maybe you're focusing a

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lot of intention and time with those people and maybe they're not God's best for you in this next

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season as far as the amount of time that you're spending with them Karen also says uh oh my other

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Karen Karen and Karen compromise in previous relationships not standing strongly in my faith

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and convictions okay I love it so I want y'all to be thinking about you God is the center circle

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the next circle you know if you have a center circle and then there's a circle around it

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should be your closest like relationship so your when you're married it should be your spouse

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when you're not married maybe it's a mom maybe it's a child maybe it's you know a best friend

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someone that you're really really close to and then as you go out you know those other

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relationships extended family um other friends you know and then each circle is is further out

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but we need to be thinking about that and the reason I'm bringing that up is because the closer

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circle people should have more access to you but people that are maybe acquaintances or you know

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maybe they're on that outer circle some of you all are letting them have full access 24 7 and

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they're some of the people that might be really needy they have no boundaries and they just you

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just keep letting them come right in but the Lord might even be speaking to you now that you need to

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re-establish some things and again it doesn't mean we don't love these people but maybe God

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wants you to shift your focus and attention that you continue to give to that person to someone

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else in this season okay Rosie says let go of things in the past that I thought were of value

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thinking they may still have a place in this new season thank you for sharing Michelle says

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confidence all right Aaron says to not get so attached to my identity and worldly things job

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title relationships I can relate to that and to spend more time with him so that his voice is the

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loudest in my life love that he's your first defense girl that's right not your last he's

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our first first defense he's the one we can go to for anything ladies and if you don't know that

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fully like maybe some of you know it in your head but it's not down in your heart yet we're hopefully

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going to get you there before you finish week five well really the Lord's going to get you there but

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the content's going to help too so on that note let's start to talk a little bit about confession

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and repentance tonight I want to leave I want to leave a good chunk of time for coaching

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we started getting into some really powerful stuff this afternoon and I felt like I needed to

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go long just to make sure we had that time and I don't want to have to do that tonight

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all right yeah let's let go of people pleasing Maria way to go or letting other people emotions

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affect or manipulate you yes praise the Lord all right so confession and repentance

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I want y'all to understand that there are going to be times in your life where you don't even

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understand why you're doing what you're doing okay why do you keep getting stuck in the same

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patterns why does the same person keep drawing you back into relationship when you really know

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that relationship's not good for you you know there's a lot of different things why do you turn

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to some of you hopefully not but typically this is in there some people turn to over drinking

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over eating all different kinds of stuff I'm going to go through more in here in a little bit

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but why do we do what we do we don't always know but guess what God knows the what behind the why

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he knows why we do everything that we do and he loves us no matter what okay so we don't have to

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walk in shame or guilt or condemnation but we need to understand that God is the one that can reveal

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to us what we need to know regarding what needs healed so that we don't continue to walk in those

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old patterns those old mindsets the old habits that the things that are harming us

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and they're not serving us at all.

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The things that continue to get us stuck

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and disenchanted, discouraged,

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like all the, you know, depression

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and all the things that are not, again,

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leading us into the goodness of God

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in the land of the living,

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they're actually leading us away from it.

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So it's important to turn to the Lord

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every step of the way in your process

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and just to continue to remember

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to surrender the pen to Him,

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you know, that submission activation.

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We're, if we have time,

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we're gonna read it together

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before we log off tonight.

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But man, that's a great thing

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to print that out and put that up

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where you can pray that over yourself

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on a regular basis.

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That alone, if you just pray that

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every single day and just remind your heart

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and your spirit and your mind,

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like, okay, I'm submitting to God.

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God is the one that I need.

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I can't do this by myself.

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I mean, the prayer is powerful.

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I can't do it justice by trying to paraphrase it,

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but I'm just trying to bring attention to it

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because that's one of the ways

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that you all can continue to gain traction,

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even in your daily walk right now,

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to pray that prayer and partner with the Lord

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first thing in the morning

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before you do anything else.

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that the Holy Spirit is your counselor.

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He's your guide.

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He's that ever present help in time of trouble.

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So even as you're walking and you're healing

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and you're trying to figure out,

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okay, why do I get stuck in this area?

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Why do I think these negative thoughts?

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Why do I tend to put myself down?

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Whatever the thing is,

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the Holy Spirit knows what's at the root of that.

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He knows where that came from.

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He knows how to counsel you

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and lead you into fullness and healing.

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And so inviting him into the process is key.

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All right.

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These next couple of things

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I'm gonna talk about, ladies.

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Some of them are sin patterns.

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Some of them are also...

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I just spilled water, y'all.

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Some of them are sin patterns.

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Some of them are also just,

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you know, lies and behaviors

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that we need to come out of.

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And so I want you to understand

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as not every single one of these is a sin.

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I guess that's why I'm saying all that.

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Sorry, I got distracted until I spilled water.

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All right, I'm back.

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Insecurity is one of them, okay?

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So maybe you are someone

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that really struggles with insecurity.

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And I just heard the Lord say

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that sometimes for some of you,

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it leads to jealousy.

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You know, you're becoming jealous

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and envious of other people.

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And we talked about this actually

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quite a bit this afternoon.

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And I gave the ladies an example

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of years ago,

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I would drive home the same way from work

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when I lived in Kentucky.

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And I can't tell you how many times,

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it was like days in a row,

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I would see these women

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that were just, in my mind,

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I felt like they were so pretty

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or they had certain parts of their bodies

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that I was just like,

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like I always felt like,

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okay, like that's how I wanted to be made.

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Does that make sense, anyone?

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Anyone else ever done that?

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Okay, yeah, I did.

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Transparency, fully transparent.

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But then what would happen after that

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was like kind of the first couple of days,

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I just thought I was being like sinful

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and like, you know,

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not having a good thought process in mind.

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I was being all down on myself.

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But like after I would be envious of them,

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then I would start to put them down in my mind.

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Well, this went on for like

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probably a good half of a week to almost a week.

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one day I was kind of like,

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what the heck is going on here?

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Because I don't even like,

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think like this about people.

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Like it finally dawned on me,

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like these aren't things

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that I typically think about people.

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So where is this coming from in me?

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Well, the Lord spoke to me and revealed to me

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that it actually wasn't just my own thoughts.

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The enemy was assaulting me

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with these thoughts about women.

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And this is what the Lord said.

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He said, the enemy is doing this

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because he knows you're calling to help women.

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So he's trying to get you to be against women

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instead of for them.

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People that I didn't even know,

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these were women I'd never met.

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And once I got that revelation,

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well, then I started like

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leaning into that more for healing

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because okay, well,

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I understand that's the enemy and it's his bait.

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But there had to be stuff in me that needed healing

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that would cause me to see a pretty woman

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or something about her

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and automatically feel like I was less than.

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And so I started having a little talk with the Lord.

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Okay, like, what is this?

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Show me what this is.

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Well, it went back to value.

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I believed my value was less back in the day

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if I saw someone that I thought was more beautiful.

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Honest to goodness truth.

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But that isn't truth for any of us.

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But so often the enemy is trying to get women.

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women to be in comparison with each other,

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to fight against each other, to criticize each other,

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to put each other down.

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But God is saying like, hey, in this season,

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I want you to link arms.

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You're my daughters, like love each other.

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Not just with, you know, actions on the outside,

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but internally, whether you know that woman or not,

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that woman is made in God's image and she's not your enemy.

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There's one enemy and his name is Satan.

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He's the devil, he's the liar, he's the Lucifer.

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Yeah, that's who our enemy is.

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And so what's getting us tripped up is that lack of value

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and that understanding of our own worth

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and that other people's value and worth

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doesn't minimize ours.

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And so we have to lean into that.

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I started tonight with that because insecurity is literally,

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I see it all the time.

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It's causing people to pull back in relationship,

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even in friendships,

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it's causing people to go into hiding,

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it's causing people to war against each other

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and act like there's scarcity, there's not enough men.

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Ladies, I promise,

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I know sometimes it might seem like there's not,

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but God has a man for you, okay?

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You don't have to panic.

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You don't have to go fast with some guy that's unhealthy

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just to settle because you're worried

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that you might not find someone else.

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God has his best for you, like his good, good for you.

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In every area of your life.

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And some of you even right now,

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like you're, you know, you get around other women

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and you automatically feel less than.

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And I know this is a word for some of you.

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And God wants to change that.

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He wants to help you come up out of that stuff

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so that you can literally just feel at inner,

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like that deep abiding inner peace,

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no matter who you get around.

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It is a real thing.

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I used to wonder, you know, people would talk about it,

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but I was walking towards that,

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but that insecurity stuff,

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that stuff that was still broken on the core

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because I didn't even get to know who I was

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before I was abused, literally y'all.

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I was abused that young.

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Like I didn't even get to really live my life as a kid

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and grasp any aspect of who I could become

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before the enemy swept in

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and started just tearing my identity apart.

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And that is some of your stories,

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but gosh, man, freedom is on the other side, ladies.

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Freedom is on the other side.

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I'm here to tell you tonight

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that you don't have to stay in that place.

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That God is gonna help you get to the other side

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and have that deep abiding peace

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that truly can be yours,

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because I've experienced it.

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And I'm living in that now.

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Does that mean that the enemy doesn't ever try to tempt me

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and cause me to feel insecure?

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I'd be lying if I didn't say that.

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Yes, that still happens, ladies.

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But I have that stuff now on kind of the front of my mind.

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And so I can get that stuff under submission quicker.

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Submission to who?

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Well, the Lord, because that's,

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I don't need to walk in that stuff.

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I don't need to be insecure.

508
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I don't need to be comparing myself to other women,

509
00:23:12.820 --> 00:23:13.900
other leaders.

510
00:23:13.900 --> 00:23:15.380
You know, some might, it might not be,

511
00:23:15.380 --> 00:23:17.340
look, some of you, you're comparing yourself

512
00:23:17.340 --> 00:23:20.220
to someone who's another speaker or they're a writer

513
00:23:20.260 --> 00:23:22.220
or they work in the office,

514
00:23:22.220 --> 00:23:24.180
maybe the medical field, whatever it is.

515
00:23:24.180 --> 00:23:27.100
So however this fits your story,

516
00:23:27.100 --> 00:23:29.920
I really want you to pray into this tonight, okay?

517
00:23:29.920 --> 00:23:34.660
So that one isn't necessarily sin if it's on the low end,

518
00:23:34.660 --> 00:23:36.020
but ladies, guess what?

519
00:23:37.180 --> 00:23:41.120
When insecurity grows and it keeps growing

520
00:23:41.120 --> 00:23:44.320
and it keeps growing, it can turn into self-hatred.

521
00:23:44.480 --> 00:23:49.480
Well, hating anyone, including yourself is a sin, okay?

522
00:23:51.280 --> 00:23:54.080
God asks us to love every person

523
00:23:54.080 --> 00:23:56.880
that he has created in his image, and that includes you.

524
00:23:58.320 --> 00:23:59.920
Overeating's another one.

525
00:24:01.240 --> 00:24:03.160
I've talked about this before.

526
00:24:03.160 --> 00:24:06.600
I grew up watching my mom hide food, my sister hide food.

527
00:24:06.600 --> 00:24:10.760
They fed their emotions with food and I learned that habit.

528
00:24:10.760 --> 00:24:12.880
And so that's something I really have to do

529
00:24:12.880 --> 00:24:15.640
so that's something I really have to work on

530
00:24:15.640 --> 00:24:18.760
so that when I'm stressed, I'm not eating food

531
00:24:18.760 --> 00:24:21.520
or when I'm tired at night, I'm eating stuff

532
00:24:21.520 --> 00:24:23.720
I don't even need to eat and I really don't eat.

533
00:24:23.720 --> 00:24:25.680
Half the time, I'm like, I didn't even really want that.

534
00:24:25.680 --> 00:24:27.200
I don't even know why I did that.

535
00:24:27.200 --> 00:24:29.000
And so I've been working the last,

536
00:24:29.000 --> 00:24:32.640
we just finished our initial fast in our church

537
00:24:32.640 --> 00:24:37.480
and even just working on not eating sugar,

538
00:24:37.480 --> 00:24:41.700
extra sugar during that time, it always was hard.

539
00:24:43.000 --> 00:24:44.240
But here's the thing.

540
00:24:44.240 --> 00:24:46.960
The Lord has been reminding me

541
00:24:46.960 --> 00:24:51.840
of my flesh is subject to my spirit.

542
00:24:53.720 --> 00:24:56.740
Our flesh can be subject to the spirit of God

543
00:24:56.740 --> 00:24:58.160
that lives within us.

544
00:24:58.160 --> 00:25:01.160
We need to walk in the authority of the Lord.

545
00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:07.240
That God has given us when he put Adam and Eve over the control of the earth and all the things that inhabited it

546
00:25:07.360 --> 00:25:08.080
Guess what?

547
00:25:08.080 --> 00:25:14.320
He gave us authority over our own flesh as well and we can walk in the fullness of the fruits of the Spirit which includes

548
00:25:14.560 --> 00:25:15.560
self-control

549
00:25:15.560 --> 00:25:22.280
Okay, we can we can so join me if this applies to you what I'm saying join me. Let's do this together

550
00:25:23.080 --> 00:25:28.960
I'm overcoming this thing and I really want to kick it, you know into the curb in these next several months

551
00:25:28.960 --> 00:25:34.720
And so it's interesting. I've been doing that fast and and y'all I'm not saying this like oh, I'm so great

552
00:25:34.720 --> 00:25:40.800
I did a fast, you know, I really prayed into this one this one. I didn't do a lot of like fasting all food

553
00:25:40.800 --> 00:25:44.840
I did a lot of like I'm spending more time extra time

554
00:25:45.240 --> 00:25:51.120
Reading extra books like on top of my Bible reading there were things that God really led me to do to really work on

555
00:25:51.120 --> 00:25:56.760
You know not saying anything negative to really work on getting rid of the sugar in my in my diet

556
00:25:56.760 --> 00:26:03.800
That's not healthy not doing processed foods, you know, those kind of things just to make room and I'm saying this to say

557
00:26:04.720 --> 00:26:06.720
God is nudging me to continue

558
00:26:07.920 --> 00:26:14.040
Whether my church continues or not, and it's gonna be a journey ladies, but I'm sharing this with you because

559
00:26:14.840 --> 00:26:16.840
It's an invitation

560
00:26:16.880 --> 00:26:21.680
That's what it is. It's an invitation from the Lord for me and in this time

561
00:26:21.680 --> 00:26:26.600
He's been been really showing me some awesome things and then I don't want to miss out on any of it

562
00:26:26.760 --> 00:26:32.280
And so for some of you, maybe there's gonna be some things the Lord's maybe gonna ask you to fast some stuff

563
00:26:33.320 --> 00:26:40.120
I know there's some ladies in this in this phase one group right now that they're like on a season and just not watching TV

564
00:26:40.120 --> 00:26:42.120
At all while they're doing heart work

565
00:26:42.800 --> 00:26:49.360
Because they're just making more room and they're reading and re-watching the videos and they're just even if they've already watched it once

566
00:26:49.360 --> 00:26:51.360
They're just they're just soaking it in

567
00:26:51.720 --> 00:26:55.080
I'm not saying y'all have to do that. Okay, I'm just saying if that

568
00:26:55.600 --> 00:26:57.600
Resonates in your spirit

569
00:26:58.000 --> 00:27:01.040
Walk in that because God might be asking you

570
00:27:01.360 --> 00:27:06.880
To like lean into that because there might be more than he wants to give you than you even thought

571
00:27:07.320 --> 00:27:11.680
You needed when you came into here. Okay. All right. I'm gonna keep going

572
00:27:12.480 --> 00:27:18.840
Do you struggle with gossip or slander bickering fault-finding having critical spirits and attitudes?

573
00:27:18.840 --> 00:27:20.360
These are all sins

574
00:27:20.360 --> 00:27:23.840
one of the other things I think is important to say and I said it this afternoon is

575
00:27:23.960 --> 00:27:25.960
You know in the body of Christ people

576
00:27:26.360 --> 00:27:32.280
Tend to rate sin like this sin is worse than this sin y'all sin is sin to God

577
00:27:32.520 --> 00:27:35.520
There's one that he points out that is like

578
00:27:36.000 --> 00:27:41.920
More for him and that's blasphemy of the Holy Spirit and then all the other ones he says is sin

579
00:27:42.200 --> 00:27:49.320
Okay, so God doesn't want us to rate sin and and even for some of you it might seem like well

580
00:27:49.320 --> 00:27:55.480
This isn't really that big of a deal and you just keep allowing yourself to do it. So maybe it is gossiping

581
00:27:56.040 --> 00:28:03.240
maybe it is you know, you're sitting at lunch and people start talking about somebody and before you realize that you're caught up in that conversation and

582
00:28:03.240 --> 00:28:07.040
Now you're agreeing with them, but maybe you don't even agree with them

583
00:28:07.560 --> 00:28:15.360
Those are the kind of things we we got to step away from and not continue to participate in negative self-talk or thought patterns

584
00:28:15.840 --> 00:28:22.080
Sexual related struggles, so maybe it was it is or has been sex before marriage porn addictions lust

585
00:28:22.240 --> 00:28:28.000
You know, we got to really work on getting our again our flesh into subjection. Yes, it is possible

586
00:28:28.000 --> 00:28:32.800
We Andrea and myself one of the peer coaches in training if you all see her commenting

587
00:28:32.880 --> 00:28:34.800
She is one of our peer coaches in training

588
00:28:34.800 --> 00:28:41.720
We also have a net winter and Jennifer Yankovic Yankovic that our peer coaches that will comment on your post from time to time

589
00:28:42.640 --> 00:28:47.600
But I'm Andrea commented this afternoon both of us had had to overcome

590
00:28:47.720 --> 00:28:52.280
you know years of the spirit of lust bringing havoc through my family and

591
00:28:52.880 --> 00:28:59.760
Then you know as a young girl, man, I didn't know how to control there were never boundaries around like regarding sex

592
00:28:59.760 --> 00:29:03.440
I was taught all the wrong stuff because that was enforced upon me

593
00:29:03.440 --> 00:29:08.480
So I go into a teenager not knowing how to handle any of that grow into an adult

594
00:29:08.480 --> 00:29:10.480
Yes, I had sex before marriage y'all

595
00:29:10.480 --> 00:29:15.480
That's what I'm trying to say and I had to learn how to overcome that because that wasn't God's destiny for me

596
00:29:15.560 --> 00:29:22.040
Now that was not in my marriage with Brian praise the Lord because that is where I slayed the giant

597
00:29:22.400 --> 00:29:28.380
Y'all I did it. I went all the way we went all the way we were a team and we were in covenant together to

598
00:29:28.380 --> 00:29:32.080
protect that covenant together and that's something we fought for and

599
00:29:32.360 --> 00:29:37.240
It's really important for me to share that with you because I don't want y'all to think I haven't struggled

600
00:29:38.480 --> 00:29:40.480
It was hard

601
00:29:40.840 --> 00:29:44.440
It was hard because my flesh wanted it

602
00:29:45.880 --> 00:29:51.200
But my spirit was like no you're about to slay a giant what giant you might be wondering

603
00:29:51.200 --> 00:29:51.400
well

604
00:29:51.400 --> 00:29:57.640
I'm talking about the giant of the spirit of lust that again had come down through my whole family for years and

605
00:29:58.280 --> 00:30:00.280
I knew

606
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:03.000
I knew not only was it special for Brian and I,

607
00:30:03.000 --> 00:30:07.440
but that I wanted to create a new generational blessing

608
00:30:07.440 --> 00:30:09.560
to come behind us.

609
00:30:09.560 --> 00:30:12.560
That God was allowing me the opportunity

610
00:30:12.560 --> 00:30:15.280
and the ability to overcome this,

611
00:30:15.280 --> 00:30:18.280
to continue to cut the head of that thing off.

612
00:30:18.280 --> 00:30:21.360
And it was something that we had to,

613
00:30:21.360 --> 00:30:25.200
after engagement, we had to shift our boundaries even more.

614
00:30:25.200 --> 00:30:28.000
I couldn't cuddle, I couldn't cuddle with him.

615
00:30:28.640 --> 00:30:31.280
I couldn't kiss him because like,

616
00:30:31.280 --> 00:30:34.040
I just, my body just went into full gear, you all.

617
00:30:34.040 --> 00:30:37.320
And so lovingly, we set those different boundaries

618
00:30:37.320 --> 00:30:38.240
and guardrails.

619
00:30:38.240 --> 00:30:40.320
Yep, this is real talk.

620
00:30:40.320 --> 00:30:41.400
It's important.

621
00:30:42.640 --> 00:30:43.480
Guess what?

622
00:30:43.480 --> 00:30:45.780
He mattered and so did I.

623
00:30:49.160 --> 00:30:50.640
That's what I want you to get.

624
00:30:50.640 --> 00:30:53.560
Your value matters.

625
00:30:54.560 --> 00:30:58.240
Waiting until you're married to join in covenant, you all,

626
00:30:58.240 --> 00:31:00.880
it's such an incredible thing.

627
00:31:02.720 --> 00:31:04.240
It's such an incredible thing.

628
00:31:06.280 --> 00:31:08.200
But we have to fight for it.

629
00:31:08.200 --> 00:31:09.520
We have to fight for it.

630
00:31:09.520 --> 00:31:12.360
And choosing now, even while you're in heartwork,

631
00:31:12.360 --> 00:31:14.160
will be very important for you.

632
00:31:15.080 --> 00:31:16.560
Again, no shame.

633
00:31:16.560 --> 00:31:18.680
If you all make mistakes along the way,

634
00:31:18.680 --> 00:31:21.920
it's super important for you to hear me say this.

635
00:31:21.960 --> 00:31:23.720
If you do ever make mistake,

636
00:31:23.720 --> 00:31:25.400
please do not go into hiding.

637
00:31:25.400 --> 00:31:27.780
Please do not give into guilt, condemnation, or shame.

638
00:31:27.780 --> 00:31:32.080
Please come into the group and just be real and talk to us.

639
00:31:32.080 --> 00:31:33.620
Let us come alongside of you.

640
00:31:33.620 --> 00:31:34.940
Let us help you.

641
00:31:36.840 --> 00:31:40.280
That's where freedom comes, okay?

642
00:31:41.480 --> 00:31:43.520
So another thing, couple months ago,

643
00:31:43.520 --> 00:31:47.000
gosh, maybe six months ago, we had a lady in this group.

644
00:31:47.000 --> 00:31:48.440
Honestly, I feel bad.

645
00:31:48.440 --> 00:31:51.400
I don't even know if she's in phase three right now.

646
00:31:51.920 --> 00:31:52.800
I would have to go look.

647
00:31:52.800 --> 00:31:56.040
But you all, it was really powerful.

648
00:31:56.040 --> 00:31:58.360
She went live one night after we did

649
00:31:58.360 --> 00:32:00.160
the Repentance and Confession Week

650
00:32:00.160 --> 00:32:01.540
that we're gonna go into tonight.

651
00:32:01.540 --> 00:32:04.920
That's part of the content that I'm working on with you.

652
00:32:04.920 --> 00:32:09.440
And she confessed that she had had an abortion.

653
00:32:09.440 --> 00:32:11.380
Y'all, she had never told anyone.

654
00:32:12.540 --> 00:32:15.700
And she went live in our group and trusted us.

655
00:32:15.700 --> 00:32:17.400
Made a video and confessed that

656
00:32:17.400 --> 00:32:20.440
and talked about a relationship she had had

657
00:32:20.480 --> 00:32:22.520
with a married man as well at some point.

658
00:32:23.440 --> 00:32:28.280
Huge, huge, massive breakthrough for this woman.

659
00:32:28.280 --> 00:32:32.080
So it doesn't matter what you've done.

660
00:32:32.080 --> 00:32:33.960
We love you, okay?

661
00:32:33.960 --> 00:32:34.920
I need you to hear that.

662
00:32:34.920 --> 00:32:36.880
You're safe here.

663
00:32:36.880 --> 00:32:37.720
You're safe.

664
00:32:37.720 --> 00:32:38.600
These are your sisters.

665
00:32:38.600 --> 00:32:41.120
This is your sister squad here right now.

666
00:32:41.120 --> 00:32:43.200
And some of you will move forward into phase two

667
00:32:43.200 --> 00:32:45.520
and some new people, but these are the people

668
00:32:45.520 --> 00:32:47.800
that God has brought you here for this time,

669
00:32:47.800 --> 00:32:51.800
for this season to confess and to get breakthrough

670
00:32:51.800 --> 00:32:52.920
for whatever it is.

671
00:32:52.920 --> 00:32:54.480
And not that everybody, okay,

672
00:32:54.480 --> 00:32:56.280
so maybe it's not sex for you.

673
00:32:56.280 --> 00:32:58.180
Maybe it's not having an abortion,

674
00:32:58.180 --> 00:33:00.560
but maybe for you it is the, again,

675
00:33:00.560 --> 00:33:03.000
that overeating or that gossiping

676
00:33:03.000 --> 00:33:06.360
or being super critical all the time of other people

677
00:33:06.360 --> 00:33:08.260
and putting them down.

678
00:33:08.260 --> 00:33:09.500
This came up this afternoon.

679
00:33:09.500 --> 00:33:10.600
One of the ladies confessed

680
00:33:10.600 --> 00:33:12.240
that that's something her family,

681
00:33:12.240 --> 00:33:13.700
it's come down to her family.

682
00:33:13.700 --> 00:33:17.340
They put other people down to try to like

683
00:33:17.340 --> 00:33:18.580
cause themselves to feel better.

684
00:33:18.580 --> 00:33:21.540
And that's something she learned actually from her father.

685
00:33:22.700 --> 00:33:26.060
All this is real stuff, right, that we deal with,

686
00:33:26.060 --> 00:33:28.460
but God doesn't want you to continue in that

687
00:33:28.460 --> 00:33:29.660
in the days ahead.

688
00:33:29.660 --> 00:33:30.820
I have a couple more.

689
00:33:30.820 --> 00:33:33.700
Maybe you have struggles with authority.

690
00:33:33.700 --> 00:33:35.200
Do you tend to rebel?

691
00:33:36.300 --> 00:33:38.700
Have a rebellious attitude towards other people

692
00:33:38.700 --> 00:33:41.740
and authority on any level over you?

693
00:33:41.740 --> 00:33:45.060
Well, I need to point out that the Bible says

694
00:33:45.060 --> 00:33:47.420
that rebellion is as witchcraft.

695
00:33:48.540 --> 00:33:50.180
I remember the first time I read that,

696
00:33:50.180 --> 00:33:52.900
like when I really, I'd probably read it before,

697
00:33:52.900 --> 00:33:54.620
but you know those times where you're reading it

698
00:33:54.620 --> 00:33:56.880
and it's like jumps off the page at you

699
00:33:56.880 --> 00:33:59.220
and you're like, oh Lord, are you talking,

700
00:33:59.220 --> 00:34:01.240
is that for me?

701
00:34:01.240 --> 00:34:05.680
Like, are you saying like I'm walking in this?

702
00:34:07.180 --> 00:34:08.739
No, you're not yet.

703
00:34:08.739 --> 00:34:10.820
But if you continue down this road,

704
00:34:10.820 --> 00:34:14.380
this is what it amounts to ultimately.

705
00:34:14.380 --> 00:34:16.500
And so I wanna encourage you all,

706
00:34:16.500 --> 00:34:19.420
to really check your heart on things.

707
00:34:19.420 --> 00:34:21.340
And again, there's no shame.

708
00:34:22.219 --> 00:34:23.739
We have to understand that the Lord

709
00:34:23.739 --> 00:34:25.020
is trying to call us out.

710
00:34:25.020 --> 00:34:26.820
He's inviting us to freedom.

711
00:34:26.820 --> 00:34:27.940
That's what's happening tonight.

712
00:34:27.940 --> 00:34:29.380
He's inviting you to freedom.

713
00:34:29.380 --> 00:34:34.380
He's inviting you to wholeness, W-H-O-L-E-N-E-S-S, wholeness.

714
00:34:36.659 --> 00:34:39.940
It's up to us to accept the invitation and step into it

715
00:34:40.540 --> 00:34:42.580
and if we don't have the courage, here's the thing.

716
00:34:42.580 --> 00:34:44.820
Y'all had to ask for courage all the time.

717
00:34:46.179 --> 00:34:48.659
I needed courage to walk in the fruits of the spirit

718
00:34:48.659 --> 00:34:50.219
and to walk in self-control.

719
00:34:50.219 --> 00:34:52.500
I needed grace every day to do that.

720
00:34:53.719 --> 00:34:55.679
So you can ask for the same thing.

721
00:34:56.739 --> 00:34:58.340
We can do this together.

722
00:34:59.380 --> 00:35:00.220
All right.

723
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:01.900
More angry inside.

724
00:35:01.900 --> 00:35:04.920
Maybe some of you have a lot of anger on the inside,

725
00:35:04.920 --> 00:35:07.400
and maybe some of you it's coming out.

726
00:35:07.400 --> 00:35:10.080
You're outbursts, you've got rage, you've got anger.

727
00:35:10.080 --> 00:35:12.600
We have people driving crazy on the streets now,

728
00:35:12.600 --> 00:35:14.000
more than ever.

729
00:35:14.000 --> 00:35:16.360
People cutting each other off, road rage.

730
00:35:16.360 --> 00:35:18.160
You know, somebody, you know,

731
00:35:18.160 --> 00:35:19.480
who knows if it's accidental

732
00:35:19.480 --> 00:35:20.920
or they cut someone off on purpose.

733
00:35:20.920 --> 00:35:23.560
And then the next thing you know, they're zigzagging.

734
00:35:23.560 --> 00:35:24.800
And maybe that's not you.

735
00:35:24.800 --> 00:35:26.440
I hope it's not.

736
00:35:26.440 --> 00:35:27.760
But if it is,

737
00:35:27.760 --> 00:35:31.280
let's really get to the root of why is that caught?

738
00:35:31.280 --> 00:35:33.140
Like, why is that happening in you?

739
00:35:35.000 --> 00:35:37.360
Because God wants you to drive on the roads with peace,

740
00:35:37.360 --> 00:35:38.200
y'all.

741
00:35:39.160 --> 00:35:43.060
Even if other people cut you off,

742
00:35:44.960 --> 00:35:47.240
we don't have to retaliate.

743
00:35:47.240 --> 00:35:49.980
We don't have to join them in their craziness.

744
00:35:49.980 --> 00:35:50.820
We don't.

745
00:35:53.160 --> 00:35:54.600
Yeah.

746
00:35:54.600 --> 00:35:56.360
I want to breathe that into Sarah.

747
00:35:56.360 --> 00:35:59.440
I felt that when I said it.

748
00:35:59.440 --> 00:36:01.760
We don't have to join people in their craziness,

749
00:36:01.760 --> 00:36:04.520
whether that's road rage or something else, we don't.

750
00:36:04.520 --> 00:36:08.280
So we get to choose and be in control

751
00:36:08.280 --> 00:36:12.600
in the sense of, okay, I'm going to bring my flesh

752
00:36:12.600 --> 00:36:15.560
under subjection of the Holy Spirit.

753
00:36:15.560 --> 00:36:16.400
Okay?

754
00:36:16.400 --> 00:36:18.120
All right, I'm going to keep going.

755
00:36:18.120 --> 00:36:20.720
Repentance means we're going to come out of agreement.

756
00:36:20.720 --> 00:36:22.620
So again, maybe you were going this way.

757
00:36:22.620 --> 00:36:24.000
So you're going to say internally,

758
00:36:24.000 --> 00:36:26.480
I'm coming out of agreement with this thing.

759
00:36:26.480 --> 00:36:28.600
I'm going to choose to turn away from this

760
00:36:28.600 --> 00:36:31.500
and I'm going to go in the other direction.

761
00:36:32.880 --> 00:36:34.440
Yeah, yeah, it's not worth it.

762
00:36:34.440 --> 00:36:35.320
I know, Sarah.

763
00:36:36.500 --> 00:36:37.340
Me too.

764
00:36:37.340 --> 00:36:39.000
I have a scary story when I was a teenager

765
00:36:39.000 --> 00:36:40.760
and that's why I talk to people about it.

766
00:36:40.760 --> 00:36:43.700
I will never do road rage ever again.

767
00:36:43.700 --> 00:36:45.840
Someone held a gun up to a window, you all.

768
00:36:47.240 --> 00:36:48.080
He did.

769
00:36:49.600 --> 00:36:52.020
He was riding my tail and I started brake checking him

770
00:36:52.020 --> 00:36:53.400
and I was getting mad.

771
00:36:53.960 --> 00:36:56.200
And then he went past us and you all,

772
00:36:56.200 --> 00:36:58.480
I was with a friend, I thought it was funny.

773
00:36:58.480 --> 00:37:00.160
So we went right back up on him.

774
00:37:01.440 --> 00:37:04.040
Well, then he started brake checking us.

775
00:37:04.040 --> 00:37:05.360
So when we went to go past him,

776
00:37:05.360 --> 00:37:06.860
he put a gun up to the window.

777
00:37:08.080 --> 00:37:09.360
And then when we got past him,

778
00:37:09.360 --> 00:37:12.000
he chased us through so many neighborhoods, you all.

779
00:37:12.000 --> 00:37:15.240
I literally, it was a very, very scary time.

780
00:37:15.240 --> 00:37:18.420
And we pulled into a police station and then he left.

781
00:37:18.420 --> 00:37:20.160
By the grace of God, I had enough wisdom.

782
00:37:20.160 --> 00:37:21.960
My mom had told me if I ever gotten in trouble,

783
00:37:21.960 --> 00:37:23.720
go to the police station.

784
00:37:23.720 --> 00:37:24.960
I'm not trying to scare you all tonight,

785
00:37:24.960 --> 00:37:26.040
but I want you to understand,

786
00:37:26.040 --> 00:37:29.480
you don't know someone else is crazy

787
00:37:29.480 --> 00:37:30.960
that you might encounter.

788
00:37:30.960 --> 00:37:33.760
So let's get our stuff healed up

789
00:37:33.760 --> 00:37:36.220
so that we don't react to people

790
00:37:36.220 --> 00:37:37.700
and do things that can get us

791
00:37:37.700 --> 00:37:40.460
into dangerous situations, okay?

792
00:37:41.480 --> 00:37:42.600
All right, I had no intent.

793
00:37:42.600 --> 00:37:44.720
That did not come up at all this afternoon,

794
00:37:44.720 --> 00:37:47.320
but for whatever reason, when I saw that,

795
00:37:47.320 --> 00:37:50.440
I just, that story popped right up in my spirit.

796
00:37:50.440 --> 00:37:52.960
And so I'm just gonna give it to you all.

797
00:37:52.960 --> 00:37:54.880
And that was, I mean, I was young.

798
00:37:54.880 --> 00:37:58.520
I didn't, I was very young and never did that again.

799
00:37:58.520 --> 00:37:59.560
Praise the Lord.

800
00:37:59.560 --> 00:38:02.600
All right, so here's a key.

801
00:38:02.600 --> 00:38:04.960
The repentance, you all were not looking

802
00:38:04.960 --> 00:38:08.340
for just a momentary change of behavior, okay?

803
00:38:09.440 --> 00:38:11.640
What we're looking for is heart change,

804
00:38:11.640 --> 00:38:14.820
deep, deep heart change,

805
00:38:14.820 --> 00:38:17.860
where you're literally gonna have a transformation

806
00:38:17.860 --> 00:38:19.360
from the inside out.

807
00:38:19.360 --> 00:38:24.360
So that love connection with the Lord

808
00:38:25.080 --> 00:38:28.680
is going to lead you to make healthier decisions.

809
00:38:28.680 --> 00:38:32.500
That's how that happens, okay?

810
00:38:32.500 --> 00:38:34.000
And so I don't need you all

811
00:38:34.000 --> 00:38:37.320
to try to clean yourselves up real quick, okay?

812
00:38:37.320 --> 00:38:39.320
But we're just trying to bring this stuff to the surface

813
00:38:39.320 --> 00:38:41.800
so you can confess and get it out,

814
00:38:41.800 --> 00:38:45.160
but understand that your heart healing

815
00:38:45.960 --> 00:38:50.960
is an integral part of that deep inner transformation

816
00:38:51.640 --> 00:38:53.640
that is going to last.

817
00:38:53.640 --> 00:38:55.920
Do y'all understand what I'm saying?

818
00:38:55.920 --> 00:38:57.740
Okay, I wanna make sure I didn't lose anybody.

819
00:38:57.740 --> 00:38:59.000
All right, I know it can be heavy

820
00:38:59.000 --> 00:39:01.320
when we talk about repentance and confession,

821
00:39:01.320 --> 00:39:03.520
so I wanna make sure I'm not losing you.

822
00:39:03.520 --> 00:39:06.160
I might do some silly stories here in a little bit

823
00:39:06.160 --> 00:39:09.320
or whatever if we need to, but it's gonna be really good.

824
00:39:09.320 --> 00:39:11.500
So James 5, 16 is our scripture verse

825
00:39:11.500 --> 00:39:13.360
that we're gonna lean into tonight.

826
00:39:13.400 --> 00:39:16.680
It says this, therefore confess your sins one to another,

827
00:39:16.680 --> 00:39:19.280
or excuse me, therefore confess your sins to each other

828
00:39:19.280 --> 00:39:21.480
and pray for each other so that you may be healed.

829
00:39:21.480 --> 00:39:24.000
The prayer of a righteous man avails much.

830
00:39:24.000 --> 00:39:26.860
I almost read a different translation there.

831
00:39:27.740 --> 00:39:30.400
So I want you to think about being tethered.

832
00:39:30.400 --> 00:39:32.840
And when I talk about forgiveness week,

833
00:39:32.840 --> 00:39:34.740
I'll talk about tethered in a different way,

834
00:39:34.740 --> 00:39:36.040
but when we're tethered to something,

835
00:39:36.040 --> 00:39:37.960
we're literally joined to it.

836
00:39:37.960 --> 00:39:40.680
So I want you to think about the areas

837
00:39:41.040 --> 00:39:44.000
of maybe sin in your life that you need to walk away from

838
00:39:44.000 --> 00:39:45.840
or things you need to repent for.

839
00:39:45.840 --> 00:39:47.160
If you don't repent,

840
00:39:47.160 --> 00:39:49.160
you're staying tethered to those things, okay?

841
00:39:49.160 --> 00:39:53.240
You're staying bound to them, okay?

842
00:39:53.240 --> 00:39:56.040
And also when we don't repent,

843
00:39:56.040 --> 00:39:58.400
what can happen is those unconfessed sins

844
00:39:58.400 --> 00:40:00.080
can create those blind spots.

845
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.320
filters, you know, and guess what?

846
00:40:03.320 --> 00:40:05.360
The more we let that stuff go,

847
00:40:05.360 --> 00:40:07.160
that's how these counterfeit identities

848
00:40:07.160 --> 00:40:09.080
in the fragmentation, the brokenness

849
00:40:09.080 --> 00:40:10.400
and all of that stuff together,

850
00:40:10.400 --> 00:40:12.120
that's where that stuff comes from.

851
00:40:12.120 --> 00:40:14.640
And so we're stepping into the fullness

852
00:40:14.640 --> 00:40:16.760
of who God originally created us to be,

853
00:40:16.760 --> 00:40:18.400
and we're coming out of alignment

854
00:40:18.400 --> 00:40:20.240
with those counterfeit identities.

855
00:40:20.240 --> 00:40:21.600
So in order to do that,

856
00:40:21.600 --> 00:40:24.780
we also have to repent and confess.

857
00:40:26.080 --> 00:40:28.840
All right, so I'm gonna put you into your breakout session.

858
00:40:28.840 --> 00:40:31.240
Breakout number one, your question is,

859
00:40:31.240 --> 00:40:33.520
what do you need to confess today?

860
00:40:36.640 --> 00:40:38.080
I feel very angry when I find out

861
00:40:38.080 --> 00:40:40.680
I look after the other person's back,

862
00:40:40.680 --> 00:40:42.520
but that same person did not reciprocate.

863
00:40:42.520 --> 00:40:44.840
I understand that, yeah.

864
00:40:44.840 --> 00:40:47.840
That can be, okay, let's look at candy

865
00:40:47.840 --> 00:40:50.100
underneath the surface of anger.

866
00:40:50.100 --> 00:40:52.240
Let's look at what's underneath of there.

867
00:40:53.120 --> 00:40:57.000
Because typically sadness comes first,

868
00:40:57.080 --> 00:40:59.740
then frustration, and then there's different levels,

869
00:40:59.740 --> 00:41:02.600
and anger is like one of the top ones.

870
00:41:02.600 --> 00:41:06.280
So let's look at the feelings that are underneath of there

871
00:41:06.280 --> 00:41:08.500
that need healing and need some care.

872
00:41:08.500 --> 00:41:10.600
And we'll believe that the Lord will continue

873
00:41:10.600 --> 00:41:12.120
to take you into more healing

874
00:41:12.120 --> 00:41:14.480
as you address those feelings.

875
00:41:14.480 --> 00:41:16.440
And then you'll get a little bit more freedom

876
00:41:16.440 --> 00:41:18.360
from the anger, okay?

877
00:41:18.360 --> 00:41:20.080
All right, so breakout session,

878
00:41:20.080 --> 00:41:21.280
if I didn't finish saying it,

879
00:41:21.280 --> 00:41:23.980
your question is, what do you need to confess tonight?

880
00:41:25.020 --> 00:41:26.400
What do you need to confess tonight?

881
00:41:26.400 --> 00:41:28.600
And going into these breakout rooms,

882
00:41:28.600 --> 00:41:30.500
remember, you don't have to coach each other,

883
00:41:30.500 --> 00:41:32.720
give each other advice, or any of that stuff.

884
00:41:32.720 --> 00:41:34.440
You're just listening to each other

885
00:41:34.440 --> 00:41:37.320
and talking as sisters, okay?

886
00:41:37.320 --> 00:41:40.980
Thank you for sharing and being open with us

887
00:41:40.980 --> 00:41:42.720
is a very good phrase that you can use

888
00:41:42.720 --> 00:41:43.900
when your sisters share with you,

889
00:41:43.900 --> 00:41:46.640
and then the next person can go, okay?

890
00:41:46.640 --> 00:41:49.420
All right, I'm gonna do these rooms for eight minutes.

891
00:41:49.420 --> 00:41:50.260
I want you all, again,

892
00:41:50.260 --> 00:41:52.640
talk about what do you need to confess tonight.

893
00:41:52.640 --> 00:41:53.760
If you have extra time,

894
00:41:53.760 --> 00:41:55.040
you can talk about what led you here,

895
00:41:55.040 --> 00:41:56.880
but talk about that question first.

896
00:41:56.880 --> 00:41:58.760
I'm doing two to three women in a room.

897
00:41:58.760 --> 00:42:00.340
I'm doing eight minutes.

898
00:42:00.340 --> 00:42:01.180
Here you go.

899
00:42:01.180 --> 00:42:02.920
I'm gonna be praying for you.

900
00:42:02.920 --> 00:42:05.380
I mean, once y'all get settled in your rooms,

901
00:42:05.380 --> 00:42:06.440
I'll go ahead and start praying.

902
00:42:06.440 --> 00:42:07.600
If someone's not able,

903
00:42:07.600 --> 00:42:09.960
because you're at work to join the breakout session,

904
00:42:09.960 --> 00:42:11.280
just try to let me know in the chat.

905
00:42:11.280 --> 00:42:12.440
That way I don't have ladies

906
00:42:12.440 --> 00:42:14.640
kind of hanging out in rooms by themselves.

907
00:42:20.040 --> 00:42:20.880
All right.

908
00:42:25.040 --> 00:42:25.880
Okay.

909
00:42:36.360 --> 00:42:38.880
Oh, Stephanie, that's totally fine.

910
00:42:38.880 --> 00:42:40.080
I just saw your message.

911
00:42:47.560 --> 00:42:48.440
Okay.

912
00:42:48.440 --> 00:42:49.280
Father, thank you.

913
00:42:49.280 --> 00:42:51.280
I think we've got everyone situated.

914
00:42:51.280 --> 00:42:54.320
Thank you for every one of these ladies that's here tonight.

915
00:42:54.320 --> 00:42:56.800
Thank you for those that are watching the replay.

916
00:42:57.720 --> 00:43:00.360
Ooh, Lord, things that have already come out tonight,

917
00:43:00.360 --> 00:43:02.880
I'm thankful for the stories that you even led me to share.

918
00:43:02.880 --> 00:43:05.200
I pray that you would just continue to reveal areas

919
00:43:05.200 --> 00:43:07.200
for healing for these ladies,

920
00:43:07.200 --> 00:43:10.540
help them to step into your truth,

921
00:43:10.540 --> 00:43:12.200
into the fullness of everything

922
00:43:12.200 --> 00:43:14.440
that you have in store for them.

923
00:43:14.440 --> 00:43:16.500
God, we thank you that you are,

924
00:43:18.040 --> 00:43:21.200
yeah, just renewing and transforming us.

925
00:43:21.200 --> 00:43:23.640
You're transforming us by the renewing of our minds,

926
00:43:23.680 --> 00:43:25.920
that all old things are passing away

927
00:43:25.920 --> 00:43:28.480
and behold, everything is becoming new in you.

928
00:43:28.480 --> 00:43:31.440
I pray, Lord, that you would help every one of these ladies

929
00:43:31.440 --> 00:43:33.240
that you would even, while they're in the breakouts,

930
00:43:33.240 --> 00:43:35.400
bring things to the surface that they need to confess

931
00:43:35.400 --> 00:43:38.000
and repent and turn away from those things

932
00:43:38.000 --> 00:43:41.040
so that they don't take any of that

933
00:43:41.040 --> 00:43:43.200
into the new season that you have for them.

934
00:43:43.200 --> 00:43:47.440
We thank you, God, for divine appointments

935
00:43:47.440 --> 00:43:48.960
and encounters with you,

936
00:43:48.960 --> 00:43:51.820
for supernatural breakthrough and revelation.

937
00:43:53.920 --> 00:43:56.840
We thank you, Lord, for leading us into our purpose

938
00:43:56.840 --> 00:43:58.200
and your plans for our lives

939
00:43:58.200 --> 00:44:00.160
that you don't have plans to harm us,

940
00:44:00.160 --> 00:44:03.320
but plans to prosper us and give us a hope in a future.

941
00:44:03.320 --> 00:44:07.520
We thank you, Lord, for your grace that is new

942
00:44:07.520 --> 00:44:09.240
and mercy every morning, God,

943
00:44:09.240 --> 00:44:12.040
that we can wake up and say, today's a new day.

944
00:44:12.040 --> 00:44:13.320
No matter what happened yesterday,

945
00:44:13.320 --> 00:44:17.240
God, thank you for this new day, this fresh canvas.

946
00:44:17.240 --> 00:44:21.040
God, help us to paint this canvas with your glory,

947
00:44:21.040 --> 00:44:22.960
with your kingdom principles,

948
00:44:22.960 --> 00:44:26.960
with your healing being manifest in my life.

949
00:44:26.960 --> 00:44:29.480
Help me to hear what your spirit is saying, Lord,

950
00:44:29.480 --> 00:44:32.520
that we would just align ourselves with that every day.

951
00:44:32.520 --> 00:44:34.400
2 Corinthians 1, three through four

952
00:44:34.400 --> 00:44:36.040
in the message translation says this,

953
00:44:36.040 --> 00:44:38.880
all praise to the God and father of our master,

954
00:44:38.880 --> 00:44:41.080
Jesus, the Messiah, father of all mercy,

955
00:44:41.080 --> 00:44:42.800
God of all healing counsel.

956
00:44:42.800 --> 00:44:45.560
He comes alongside of us when we go through hard times.

957
00:44:45.560 --> 00:44:46.960
And before you know it,

958
00:44:46.960 --> 00:44:49.040
he brings us alongside someone else

959
00:44:49.040 --> 00:44:50.360
who's going through hard times

960
00:44:50.680 --> 00:44:53.320
so that we can be there for that person

961
00:44:53.320 --> 00:44:55.320
just as God was there for us.

962
00:44:55.320 --> 00:44:57.560
God, thank you so much for the healing work

963
00:44:57.560 --> 00:44:59.840
that you've done in my life, in my heart.

964
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.000
and that you've brought me to this place

965
00:45:02.000 --> 00:45:04.200
to be able to share these stories

966
00:45:04.200 --> 00:45:08.680
to hopefully bring freedom and yes, Lord,

967
00:45:08.680 --> 00:45:10.640
breakthrough and restoration

968
00:45:10.640 --> 00:45:14.520
and grace into the lives of other people.

969
00:45:14.520 --> 00:45:18.120
We thank you God for redeeming our timelines

970
00:45:18.120 --> 00:45:20.600
that you would go all the way through our timelines

971
00:45:20.600 --> 00:45:23.520
and just where the enemy trying to bring destruction

972
00:45:23.520 --> 00:45:26.160
and breakdown and all of the things, God,

973
00:45:26.160 --> 00:45:29.040
that you would bring healing and life and restoration.

974
00:45:29.120 --> 00:45:31.960
Okay, wait, Karishma and Sylvia,

975
00:45:31.960 --> 00:45:34.560
did you all get kicked out of the rooms you were in?

976
00:45:36.320 --> 00:45:38.320
I was just praying away, I didn't even see you.

977
00:45:38.320 --> 00:45:39.440
Yes.

978
00:45:39.440 --> 00:45:41.680
Okay, do you know what room I had you in?

979
00:45:41.680 --> 00:45:42.560
10.

980
00:45:42.560 --> 00:45:44.680
Okay, let me put you back.

981
00:45:44.680 --> 00:45:46.840
And Sylvia, do you know what room you were in

982
00:45:46.840 --> 00:45:48.040
if you got kicked out?

983
00:45:56.920 --> 00:45:57.960
Oh, she's not there.

984
00:45:59.320 --> 00:46:01.320
All right, so Sylvia, just put in the chat,

985
00:46:01.320 --> 00:46:03.360
I'll kind of do my best to keep an eye on that.

986
00:46:03.360 --> 00:46:05.080
I wanna make sure you get in a breakout room

987
00:46:05.080 --> 00:46:07.280
if you're able to share.

988
00:46:08.760 --> 00:46:10.280
Oh, I've got two Sylvias.

989
00:46:12.080 --> 00:46:13.560
Sylvia, can you hear me now?

990
00:46:18.040 --> 00:46:19.880
Alicia, did you just get kicked out?

991
00:46:24.120 --> 00:46:26.480
No, sorry, I had to go somewhere

992
00:46:26.480 --> 00:46:27.880
and was just hopping back on.

993
00:46:27.880 --> 00:46:28.720
Oh, that's okay.

994
00:46:29.400 --> 00:46:30.240
Are they in the breakouts?

995
00:46:30.240 --> 00:46:32.560
They are, but they're talking about

996
00:46:32.560 --> 00:46:35.480
what is something you need to confess tonight?

997
00:46:35.480 --> 00:46:37.160
I have plenty of rooms to put you in.

998
00:46:37.160 --> 00:46:38.720
I'll send you in there right now.

999
00:46:38.720 --> 00:46:39.680
There you go.

1000
00:46:39.680 --> 00:46:40.520
Thank you.

1001
00:46:40.520 --> 00:46:41.360
You're welcome.

1002
00:46:42.640 --> 00:46:45.680
Sylvia, are you able to speak?

1003
00:46:45.680 --> 00:46:46.840
I can't tell.

1004
00:46:49.760 --> 00:46:51.440
All right, I'm gonna keep going

1005
00:46:51.440 --> 00:46:53.640
and I'll do my best to watch for you, okay?

1006
00:46:54.520 --> 00:46:55.840
All right, let's move on, ladies.

1007
00:46:55.840 --> 00:46:59.640
Ephesians 3, 17 through 19 in the NLT version says this,

1008
00:46:59.640 --> 00:47:01.600
then Christ will make his home in your hearts

1009
00:47:01.600 --> 00:47:02.680
as you trust in him.

1010
00:47:02.680 --> 00:47:04.680
Your roots will grow down into God's love

1011
00:47:04.680 --> 00:47:06.200
and keep you strong.

1012
00:47:06.200 --> 00:47:09.840
And may you have the power to understand

1013
00:47:09.840 --> 00:47:12.600
as all God's people should, how wide, how long,

1014
00:47:12.600 --> 00:47:16.360
how high and how deep is his love of...

1015
00:47:16.360 --> 00:47:19.120
Sorry, I see more people coming in.

1016
00:47:19.120 --> 00:47:20.840
Caroline, did you get kicked out of the room

1017
00:47:20.840 --> 00:47:22.440
that you were in?

1018
00:47:22.440 --> 00:47:23.640
Are you just joining us?

1019
00:47:26.840 --> 00:47:28.440
All right, I'm gonna keep going with the scripture.

1020
00:47:28.440 --> 00:47:29.880
Go ahead and put it in the chat for me.

1021
00:47:29.880 --> 00:47:31.160
May you experience the love of Christ,

1022
00:47:31.160 --> 00:47:33.720
though it is too great to understand fully,

1023
00:47:33.720 --> 00:47:37.000
then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life

1024
00:47:37.000 --> 00:47:39.280
and power that comes from God.

1025
00:47:39.280 --> 00:47:40.120
We thank you, Lord,

1026
00:47:40.120 --> 00:47:42.360
that you would just help the ladies continue

1027
00:47:42.360 --> 00:47:45.800
to allow their real selves to emerge

1028
00:47:45.800 --> 00:47:48.200
and that they would become more rooted and grounded

1029
00:47:48.200 --> 00:47:49.760
in the love of Jesus Christ,

1030
00:47:49.760 --> 00:47:51.920
that they would grow in their acceptance,

1031
00:47:51.920 --> 00:47:53.920
not only of themselves, but of other people,

1032
00:47:53.960 --> 00:47:54.800
but first and foremost,

1033
00:47:54.800 --> 00:47:57.560
God, that they would receive your love and acceptance

1034
00:47:58.480 --> 00:48:01.840
and your grace and your mercy in a fresh way,

1035
00:48:01.840 --> 00:48:03.640
not only tonight, but in the days to come.

1036
00:48:03.640 --> 00:48:06.240
We thank you, God, for divine revelation and insight,

1037
00:48:06.240 --> 00:48:07.880
even when they're sleeping, God,

1038
00:48:07.880 --> 00:48:09.560
that you would encounter them in the daytime

1039
00:48:09.560 --> 00:48:11.280
as well as the nighttime.

1040
00:48:11.280 --> 00:48:13.920
You would help them to hear what your spirit is saying.

1041
00:48:14.840 --> 00:48:17.880
Okay, so Caroline, you're getting kicked out too.

1042
00:48:17.880 --> 00:48:19.480
I'm not sure what's happening tonight.

1043
00:48:19.480 --> 00:48:21.440
I feel like several people have gotten kicked out.

1044
00:48:21.440 --> 00:48:23.440
Do you know what room you were in?

1045
00:48:24.400 --> 00:48:25.240
Caroline?

1046
00:48:27.360 --> 00:48:28.520
I mean, you can stay here with us

1047
00:48:28.520 --> 00:48:30.800
if you're struggling with audio, it's totally fine.

1048
00:48:30.800 --> 00:48:34.000
But if you figure out your audio,

1049
00:48:35.360 --> 00:48:37.920
I wanna make sure you have an opportunity to share.

1050
00:48:38.960 --> 00:48:42.320
Okay, I'm also gonna read Ephesians 3, 20 through 21.

1051
00:48:42.320 --> 00:48:45.280
This is from the Passion Translation, a different version.

1052
00:48:45.280 --> 00:48:46.120
This is what it says,

1053
00:48:46.120 --> 00:48:48.920
never doubt God's mighty power to work in you

1054
00:48:48.920 --> 00:48:51.200
and accomplish all of this.

1055
00:48:51.560 --> 00:48:54.920
He will achieve infinitely more than your greatest request,

1056
00:48:54.920 --> 00:48:56.480
your most unbelievable dream

1057
00:48:56.480 --> 00:48:58.480
and exceed your wildest imagination.

1058
00:48:58.480 --> 00:49:00.400
He will outdo them all

1059
00:49:00.400 --> 00:49:04.800
for his miraculous power constantly energizes you.

1060
00:49:04.800 --> 00:49:08.000
So let me just thank you that you constantly energize us,

1061
00:49:08.000 --> 00:49:11.000
God, that you have big, bold, beautiful plans for us.

1062
00:49:11.000 --> 00:49:13.840
God, I thank you that any ladies right now

1063
00:49:13.840 --> 00:49:16.480
that they just, their hope is low

1064
00:49:16.480 --> 00:49:18.520
and maybe they just really struggle

1065
00:49:19.400 --> 00:49:21.600
to believe in a beautiful life,

1066
00:49:21.600 --> 00:49:25.640
an amazing, wonderful life that you have planned for them.

1067
00:49:25.640 --> 00:49:28.400
I thank you, God, that you would help them

1068
00:49:28.400 --> 00:49:33.400
to have their eyes opened to see new things all around them,

1069
00:49:34.840 --> 00:49:36.720
to see what you have for them

1070
00:49:36.720 --> 00:49:37.920
and that you would help them to hear

1071
00:49:37.920 --> 00:49:40.520
what your spirit is saying about their life,

1072
00:49:40.520 --> 00:49:45.080
about their future and about your plans for them.

1073
00:49:46.080 --> 00:49:48.960
Yes, yes, yes, yes.

1074
00:49:50.440 --> 00:49:52.800
All right, one more from the Passion Translation,

1075
00:49:52.800 --> 00:49:55.160
Romans 8, 17, this is what it says.

1076
00:49:55.160 --> 00:49:58.160
And since we are his true children,

1077
00:49:58.160 --> 00:50:00.360
we qualify to share all his treasures.

1078
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:04.640
for indeed we are heirs of God himself. And since we are joined to Christ,

1079
00:50:07.200 --> 00:50:11.600
since we are joined to Christ, we also inherit all that he is and all that he has. We will

1080
00:50:11.600 --> 00:50:17.760
experience being co-glorified with him, provided that we accept his sufferings as our own.

1081
00:50:18.720 --> 00:50:23.360
Matthew 5, 14 through 16 message says this. Here's another way to put it. You're here to

1082
00:50:23.360 --> 00:50:27.680
be light, bringing out all the God colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept.

1083
00:50:27.680 --> 00:50:32.240
We're going public with this as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light bearers,

1084
00:50:32.240 --> 00:50:36.720
you don't think I'm going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I'm putting you on a light stand.

1085
00:50:36.720 --> 00:50:41.440
Now that I've put you there on a hilltop on a light stand, shine, keep open house,

1086
00:50:41.440 --> 00:50:47.760
be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you'll prompt people to open up with God,

1087
00:50:47.760 --> 00:50:52.800
this generous father in heaven. Isn't that powerful, y'all? God created us to spread the

1088
00:50:52.800 --> 00:50:57.120
God colors of the world all around. We have 13 seconds and then everyone will be back and we're

1089
00:50:57.120 --> 00:51:03.440
going to keep going in our session. It makes me think about something that I said this afternoon

1090
00:51:03.440 --> 00:51:09.200
that just came up as I was reading that scripture and as the additional ladies come back and want

1091
00:51:09.200 --> 00:51:14.400
to share about it real quick. I don't even remember what scripture I was just reading,

1092
00:51:14.400 --> 00:51:21.440
but Matthew 5, I think 14, 15 or something like that from the message, maybe, but y'all want to...

1093
00:51:21.440 --> 00:51:28.400
I got a little feedback from somebody. All right. I want to talk to you real briefly before

1094
00:51:29.280 --> 00:51:33.600
we have you do group shares. So get ready now. If you didn't know, if this is your first time

1095
00:51:33.600 --> 00:51:39.040
joining us, don't panic. It's whoever volunteers, okay? Whoever is willing to share with the whole

1096
00:51:39.040 --> 00:51:43.360
group what you shared in your breakout, I would love to have you share here in just a moment.

1097
00:51:43.360 --> 00:51:49.920
But as before, I have you do that. I want to talk about, there's a song by Hillsong called Wonder.

1098
00:51:49.920 --> 00:51:56.000
It's been out for a while. Before I led the session this afternoon, that song was on my

1099
00:51:56.000 --> 00:52:02.160
spirit and God wanted me to talk to you a little bit about awe and wonder. Some of you have been

1100
00:52:02.160 --> 00:52:08.000
in a season of like everywhere you look, it just kind of looks and feels gray. It just looks and

1101
00:52:08.000 --> 00:52:14.400
feels gray because on the inside, you know, you've lost a lot of hope or things are happening that

1102
00:52:14.400 --> 00:52:19.200
have really pressed you down. And the Lord is about to change all that. But one of the things

1103
00:52:19.200 --> 00:52:24.080
I want to tell you that you can do to help yourself and you all, I don't want you to think

1104
00:52:24.080 --> 00:52:29.040
this is like, I always kind of preface this. It's not new agey. This is literally something I worked

1105
00:52:29.040 --> 00:52:35.280
from, learned from a coach and had to implement. But sometimes I always like worry that people

1106
00:52:35.280 --> 00:52:39.920
are going to think something weird, but it's not. So I want you to start thinking about like

1107
00:52:39.920 --> 00:52:45.920
going on a walk and connecting with your environment. Okay? So what I mean by that

1108
00:52:46.800 --> 00:52:53.600
is look around what colors are around you. You know, are there birds? What color are they?

1109
00:52:53.600 --> 00:52:58.080
What color are the trees? What color is the sky? Not just blue, but is it light blue?

1110
00:52:58.720 --> 00:53:05.520
Are there clouds? Is the wind blowing? How does it feel? Is it humid in the air? Do you feel the

1111
00:53:05.520 --> 00:53:10.640
dampness and the humidity? Like what is going on in the environment around you, you know,

1112
00:53:10.640 --> 00:53:15.520
and really connecting with not only the environment and the colors, but what are you

1113
00:53:15.520 --> 00:53:21.200
hearing? Are there birds chirping? Do you see animals running? Do you hear dogs barking?

1114
00:53:22.080 --> 00:53:26.800
Why does this matter? Here's why it matters. Because some of you have been asleep in your

1115
00:53:26.800 --> 00:53:33.280
spirit for a long time and it's time to awaken. Remember last week, I think it was last week,

1116
00:53:33.280 --> 00:53:38.080
I used that scripture, awake, awake, O sleeper and rise up from the dead. It's time for you to

1117
00:53:38.080 --> 00:53:46.000
continue to like arise and awaken to everything that God is doing. I wish I would have remembered

1118
00:53:46.000 --> 00:53:50.640
to pull up the screenshot I took this afternoon. The Lord led me to say something and I might not

1119
00:53:50.640 --> 00:53:54.400
get it exactly right as I said it this afternoon, but I really felt like it was from him.

1120
00:53:55.760 --> 00:54:02.320
But you know, there's things that are happening in all of creation and it's like a roar of the

1121
00:54:02.320 --> 00:54:08.640
lion of the tribe of Judah. And he's trying to awaken us not to scare us ladies, but he's trying

1122
00:54:08.640 --> 00:54:16.160
to awaken our spirits to his voice. And once we're kind of quickened back to that, then we can start

1123
00:54:16.160 --> 00:54:23.920
to hear those still small whisper voices that are his more and more and more. So some of you,

1124
00:54:23.920 --> 00:54:28.880
you know, you've really just been so like in survivor mode that you've pushed your feelings

1125
00:54:28.880 --> 00:54:33.600
down. And guess what goes, when we push our emotion and our feelings down, guess what goes

1126
00:54:33.600 --> 00:54:40.480
down with it? Our sensories. What do you feel? What does it feel like? I want y'all even this week,

1127
00:54:40.480 --> 00:54:47.280
just when you touch a fabric, I want you to slow down and like, how does that feel? Is it soft?

1128
00:54:47.280 --> 00:54:52.800
Is it a little hard? You know, like pay attention around you and you're even in your house, like

1129
00:54:52.800 --> 00:54:56.960
look around, even while I'm talking to you, like look around. Do you have plants in your house?

1130
00:54:56.960 --> 00:54:59.840
Do you have a painting that you really love that?

1131
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:01.740
Maybe for the last several months,

1132
00:55:01.740 --> 00:55:03.760
it's kind of just been that thing hanging on the wall

1133
00:55:03.760 --> 00:55:06.460
that you kind of don't even pay attention to anymore.

1134
00:55:07.840 --> 00:55:09.560
And again, there's no shame in any of this ladies,

1135
00:55:09.560 --> 00:55:13.300
but the Lord has asked me to say it to you

1136
00:55:13.300 --> 00:55:15.380
because once you hear it,

1137
00:55:15.380 --> 00:55:18.480
it should hopefully help all of you become more aware

1138
00:55:19.760 --> 00:55:22.320
in the days to come, all right?

1139
00:55:22.320 --> 00:55:24.080
All right, so I released it.

1140
00:55:24.080 --> 00:55:25.340
I obeyed the Lord.

1141
00:55:25.340 --> 00:55:26.560
I don't know who all that's for,

1142
00:55:26.560 --> 00:55:29.120
but I trust the Lord in what he leads me to do.

1143
00:55:29.200 --> 00:55:30.920
Who is willing to share with the whole group

1144
00:55:30.920 --> 00:55:32.960
what you shared in your breakout session?

1145
00:55:34.880 --> 00:55:36.780
Normally takes one to get us going.

1146
00:55:42.520 --> 00:55:44.480
Okay, Joy, go ahead.

1147
00:55:44.480 --> 00:55:46.980
If nobody go, I go.

1148
00:55:46.980 --> 00:55:49.480
I am grateful that you're willing to share.

1149
00:55:52.600 --> 00:55:57.600
I confess two things that still struggling

1150
00:55:57.880 --> 00:56:00.040
to have a true faith in God.

1151
00:56:01.320 --> 00:56:04.280
Sometimes I just declare, decree things,

1152
00:56:04.280 --> 00:56:06.720
but I know so believe God says who I am,

1153
00:56:06.720 --> 00:56:11.040
but sometimes is that I am really that, you know,

1154
00:56:11.040 --> 00:56:14.760
so I can say it, I can praise it,

1155
00:56:14.760 --> 00:56:17.480
and I have no problem then,

1156
00:56:17.480 --> 00:56:20.240
but it's sometimes in real life, day by day,

1157
00:56:20.240 --> 00:56:21.760
like every second, every minute,

1158
00:56:21.760 --> 00:56:23.960
I really, really, I believe it or not.

1159
00:56:23.960 --> 00:56:26.620
Like I believe God for my income

1160
00:56:26.660 --> 00:56:28.100
because I left my previous job

1161
00:56:28.100 --> 00:56:30.180
for four or five months already,

1162
00:56:31.060 --> 00:56:32.540
but in my heart, actually,

1163
00:56:32.540 --> 00:56:36.740
I think I wanted to have a whole year to take a break,

1164
00:56:36.740 --> 00:56:39.540
to just seek the Lord and really go on and read the Bible

1165
00:56:39.540 --> 00:56:42.460
and to seek Him, even go to Bible school

1166
00:56:42.460 --> 00:56:43.740
or do something else.

1167
00:56:43.740 --> 00:56:47.220
Anyway, but then, but I know I still need income.

1168
00:56:47.220 --> 00:56:50.220
That's a fact, and then I pray to God.

1169
00:56:50.220 --> 00:56:53.800
It seems that God says to me, everything is mine,

1170
00:56:53.800 --> 00:56:56.520
and then today you may ask, I need a job.

1171
00:56:57.420 --> 00:57:01.960
And just so that in my mind, it says, you, it's job.

1172
00:57:01.960 --> 00:57:03.120
I said, what?

1173
00:57:03.120 --> 00:57:05.860
I thought, this is from me or from God?

1174
00:57:05.860 --> 00:57:09.040
It's a, I, job.

1175
00:57:09.040 --> 00:57:13.480
So it means that in my mind, it's a, I'm selfish, it's a job.

1176
00:57:13.480 --> 00:57:15.840
I need to work on myself, that's the job.

1177
00:57:15.840 --> 00:57:17.160
I don't know.

1178
00:57:17.160 --> 00:57:20.320
It makes sense, it makes sense.

1179
00:57:20.320 --> 00:57:22.320
I say, what?

1180
00:57:22.320 --> 00:57:23.640
Okay, I know it makes sense.

1181
00:57:23.640 --> 00:57:25.920
I think you should from the Lord,

1182
00:57:26.320 --> 00:57:30.400
but I could, but I really, I'm still practicing my faith,

1183
00:57:30.400 --> 00:57:32.400
building my faith, say God.

1184
00:57:32.400 --> 00:57:34.840
I'm still wait, next month my rent

1185
00:57:34.840 --> 00:57:37.820
and then my money for the food and blah, blah, blah.

1186
00:57:37.820 --> 00:57:39.800
But, you know, so I'm sad.

1187
00:57:39.800 --> 00:57:43.660
It's important to have your needs, you know, met for sure,

1188
00:57:43.660 --> 00:57:45.760
but God might be just trying to show you

1189
00:57:45.760 --> 00:57:48.920
that you are the main focus right now.

1190
00:57:48.920 --> 00:57:51.860
If I remember, you know, you had shared before

1191
00:57:51.860 --> 00:57:54.960
that sometimes you, you done really well in hard work,

1192
00:57:54.960 --> 00:57:56.880
that if it was you, it might not have been you,

1193
00:57:56.880 --> 00:57:58.560
but like where you start a course

1194
00:57:58.560 --> 00:58:00.920
and then the enemy tries to take you into other things

1195
00:58:00.920 --> 00:58:03.600
to distract you, was that you that said that?

1196
00:58:03.600 --> 00:58:06.760
I think I have that problem too.

1197
00:58:06.760 --> 00:58:09.120
Yeah, I thought I remembered you sharing that before.

1198
00:58:09.120 --> 00:58:10.960
So maybe God's just trying to say like,

1199
00:58:10.960 --> 00:58:14.640
he wants you to continue to focus on your healing

1200
00:58:14.640 --> 00:58:17.480
and just kind of stay in this vein,

1201
00:58:17.480 --> 00:58:19.320
if you will, for a little while.

1202
00:58:19.320 --> 00:58:21.440
And then I love what you said.

1203
00:58:21.440 --> 00:58:23.680
I think it's so true that so many times

1204
00:58:23.680 --> 00:58:27.080
we can decree something, we can speak it out,

1205
00:58:27.080 --> 00:58:30.000
but so often we don't actually like kind of live that out

1206
00:58:30.000 --> 00:58:31.840
in our day-to-day because we don't believe it

1207
00:58:31.840 --> 00:58:33.160
down in our heart.

1208
00:58:33.160 --> 00:58:34.840
And so I love that you shared that.

1209
00:58:34.840 --> 00:58:37.380
Thank you, Joyce, so much for going.

1210
00:58:37.380 --> 00:58:38.800
Always appreciate you.

1211
00:58:38.800 --> 00:58:41.200
And we're gonna be praying for you about that.

1212
00:58:41.200 --> 00:58:44.640
Do you mind one more, it's very quick about rebellion.

1213
00:58:44.640 --> 00:58:45.600
Sure.

1214
00:58:45.600 --> 00:58:48.920
Okay, it's about the second I shared with my group

1215
00:58:48.960 --> 00:58:52.480
is that I was maybe still in my heart,

1216
00:58:52.480 --> 00:58:57.080
actually, I admit, I still live angry at a spiritual leader.

1217
00:58:57.080 --> 00:58:58.640
I don't wanna say who-

1218
00:58:58.640 --> 00:59:00.280
It's okay, yeah, you don't need to.

1219
00:59:00.280 --> 00:59:05.280
Yeah, so because somebody told me that

1220
00:59:05.600 --> 00:59:06.840
if you continue to say this,

1221
00:59:06.840 --> 00:59:09.160
it'll be opening for the devil to attack me.

1222
00:59:09.160 --> 00:59:10.560
So just saying to me,

1223
00:59:10.560 --> 00:59:13.800
God knows who hurt you and blah, blah, blah this.

1224
00:59:13.800 --> 00:59:15.840
But it's through this last single,

1225
00:59:15.840 --> 00:59:18.260
he says we need to confess that.

1226
00:59:19.220 --> 00:59:22.500
Anyway, I'm gonna confess, I need healing,

1227
00:59:22.500 --> 00:59:27.500
because yeah, I was very surprised that person just-

1228
00:59:28.020 --> 00:59:31.340
Yeah, so you're gonna forgive that person for hurting you

1229
00:59:31.340 --> 00:59:33.460
is what you're gonna do regarding them.

1230
00:59:33.460 --> 00:59:35.220
And you're gonna write on the paper,

1231
00:59:35.220 --> 00:59:36.460
that's your private paper,

1232
00:59:36.460 --> 00:59:38.820
you don't need to show that to anyone.

1233
00:59:38.820 --> 00:59:40.680
You can write out that I forgive

1234
00:59:40.680 --> 00:59:41.940
and you would write their name

1235
00:59:41.940 --> 00:59:43.540
and you wanna write specifically,

1236
00:59:43.540 --> 00:59:45.180
what are you forgiving them for?

1237
00:59:45.180 --> 00:59:48.060
So ladies, not general statements necessarily

1238
00:59:48.820 --> 00:59:49.660
and not that that's wrong,

1239
00:59:49.660 --> 00:59:51.060
but you wanna be specific, right?

1240
00:59:51.060 --> 00:59:53.460
And then what you need to confess

1241
00:59:53.460 --> 00:59:57.180
is the anger that you've been participating in.

1242
00:59:58.420 --> 00:59:59.900
You know, and remember-

1243
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:01.820
As I was just saying a little bit ago,

1244
01:00:01.820 --> 01:00:04.720
you know, we have sadness, we have frustration,

1245
01:00:04.720 --> 01:00:07.340
you know, then it can turn to bitterness, resentment,

1246
01:00:07.340 --> 01:00:10.320
then the anger, anger can go to wrath.

1247
01:00:10.320 --> 01:00:12.800
There's all kinds of levels there.

1248
01:00:12.800 --> 01:00:14.360
And if you're in the anger place,

1249
01:00:14.360 --> 01:00:16.920
most likely you have sadness underneath of there,

1250
01:00:16.920 --> 01:00:18.640
as well as maybe some bitterness

1251
01:00:18.640 --> 01:00:20.400
regarding what they did or said.

1252
01:00:20.400 --> 01:00:24.360
And so just be sure to repent for those things.

1253
01:00:24.360 --> 01:00:26.440
Can, you know, you just confessed it to us,

1254
01:00:26.440 --> 01:00:28.440
praise the Lord, you did a great job.

1255
01:00:28.440 --> 01:00:31.840
But as you confess that and really ask the Lord again,

1256
01:00:31.840 --> 01:00:34.280
like, is it just about this person?

1257
01:00:34.280 --> 01:00:35.640
Because sometimes it is just about

1258
01:00:35.640 --> 01:00:37.640
what this one person did to us.

1259
01:00:37.640 --> 01:00:41.720
But ladies, sometimes it also links back to other people

1260
01:00:41.720 --> 01:00:43.100
and other situations.

1261
01:00:43.100 --> 01:00:45.900
And that's why we really struggle to get over stuff.

1262
01:00:45.900 --> 01:00:48.000
All right, great job, Joy.

1263
01:00:48.000 --> 01:00:49.120
Thank you again.

1264
01:00:49.120 --> 01:00:50.400
Jennifer, go ahead.

1265
01:00:59.040 --> 01:00:59.880
Hi.

1266
01:00:59.880 --> 01:01:00.700
Can you hear me?

1267
01:01:00.700 --> 01:01:01.540
Hi.

1268
01:01:01.540 --> 01:01:02.380
Okay.

1269
01:01:03.760 --> 01:01:07.760
So I wanna confess that a couple of months ago,

1270
01:01:07.760 --> 01:01:12.760
I, my heart got involved with somebody

1271
01:01:13.080 --> 01:01:18.080
and I ended up, yeah, not keeping the boundaries

1272
01:01:18.080 --> 01:01:21.280
that I had for myself.

1273
01:01:21.280 --> 01:01:24.120
And yeah, I'm not proud of it.

1274
01:01:24.640 --> 01:01:29.640
And I also, when I realized God was, you know,

1275
01:01:30.840 --> 01:01:33.920
God was very clear for me to come out of it.

1276
01:01:33.920 --> 01:01:38.920
And I, it's not been a quick like cutoff.

1277
01:01:39.320 --> 01:01:41.400
It's been a back and forth, back and forth.

1278
01:01:41.400 --> 01:01:44.360
And I was not very proud of that either.

1279
01:01:45.240 --> 01:01:49.760
But I thank God that I feel like God has just given me

1280
01:01:49.760 --> 01:01:51.480
freedom from that right now.

1281
01:01:51.800 --> 01:01:55.800
And I feel like I'm almost fully out of it.

1282
01:01:55.800 --> 01:02:00.800
And I just, yeah, I, but God has taught me a lot

1283
01:02:02.000 --> 01:02:05.200
about my wounds and the lies that I was believing

1284
01:02:05.200 --> 01:02:08.080
through how I showed up in this relationship.

1285
01:02:09.000 --> 01:02:10.840
Thank you so much for sharing that.

1286
01:02:10.840 --> 01:02:12.560
I'm gonna do kind of like a popcorn

1287
01:02:12.560 --> 01:02:14.080
so I can get as many of you all in.

1288
01:02:14.080 --> 01:02:16.800
And then I might throw in some coaching as well.

1289
01:02:16.800 --> 01:02:18.280
We'll see how many we get through.

1290
01:02:18.280 --> 01:02:20.000
Jennifer, do you wanna go first?

1291
01:02:20.040 --> 01:02:21.120
We'll see how many we get through.

1292
01:02:21.120 --> 01:02:22.480
Jennifer, thank you for sharing.

1293
01:02:22.480 --> 01:02:23.960
Angelique, go ahead.

1294
01:02:26.160 --> 01:02:29.800
Hi, so what we have spoken about,

1295
01:02:29.800 --> 01:02:31.480
I think I don't want to confess.

1296
01:02:31.480 --> 01:02:32.840
I feel like the Lord just recently

1297
01:02:32.840 --> 01:02:34.960
has been dealing with me just about,

1298
01:02:34.960 --> 01:02:36.960
and it's also partly due to a devotional

1299
01:02:36.960 --> 01:02:38.920
that I've been reading about the fear of the Lord,

1300
01:02:38.920 --> 01:02:41.440
just kind of holding onto my own fears

1301
01:02:41.440 --> 01:02:44.320
instead of holding onto like a holy fear.

1302
01:02:44.320 --> 01:02:47.480
And kind of like the fear of not getting married,

1303
01:02:47.480 --> 01:02:50.880
the fear of not, of saying single,

1304
01:02:50.880 --> 01:02:53.120
the fear of not being enough,

1305
01:02:53.120 --> 01:02:54.680
kind of like holding onto those fears

1306
01:02:54.680 --> 01:02:59.680
instead of allowing a holy fear to be preeminent in my life.

1307
01:03:01.600 --> 01:03:04.120
So that's what I had confessed.

1308
01:03:04.120 --> 01:03:07.320
And also just kind of like the fear and kind of like the worry

1309
01:03:07.320 --> 01:03:08.760
which I think is a threat for me

1310
01:03:08.760 --> 01:03:11.080
of doing things incorrectly.

1311
01:03:11.080 --> 01:03:13.600
And if I'll make one mistake,

1312
01:03:13.600 --> 01:03:15.160
I texted him or I didn't text him,

1313
01:03:15.160 --> 01:03:17.720
either way he's going to uproot God's plan,

1314
01:03:17.720 --> 01:03:22.720
which I think is just more based on fear of my insecurities

1315
01:03:22.720 --> 01:03:24.760
instead of trusting in God

1316
01:03:24.760 --> 01:03:27.360
and knowing that he could cover my mistakes.

1317
01:03:28.400 --> 01:03:30.160
That's what we talked about when we were in the groups.

1318
01:03:30.160 --> 01:03:34.280
And then afterwards, I just kind of come to mind,

1319
01:03:34.280 --> 01:03:36.960
because I've been in this phase for a while

1320
01:03:36.960 --> 01:03:38.120
just because I'm also in school.

1321
01:03:38.120 --> 01:03:39.880
So just timing-wise, it's been hard for me

1322
01:03:39.880 --> 01:03:43.680
to kind of do everything in the time that I need to.

1323
01:03:43.680 --> 01:03:45.840
So I think just also confessing that,

1324
01:03:45.840 --> 01:03:49.600
that I haven't been probably putting in as much time

1325
01:03:49.600 --> 01:03:51.080
as I need to with this kind of

1326
01:03:51.080 --> 01:03:52.520
where we talk about distractions,

1327
01:03:52.520 --> 01:03:55.760
because I should have been through phase one already.

1328
01:03:55.760 --> 01:03:58.760
So I think I have to confess that too.

1329
01:03:58.760 --> 01:04:01.120
I want to kind of help you there

1330
01:04:01.120 --> 01:04:06.080
just because you have that lie that if you make one mistake,

1331
01:04:06.080 --> 01:04:08.080
you're going to mess something up.

1332
01:04:08.080 --> 01:04:10.200
And so I want to encourage you

1333
01:04:10.200 --> 01:04:13.640
to not necessarily feel like you have to confess

1334
01:04:14.480 --> 01:04:15.480
for not getting through phase one

1335
01:04:15.480 --> 01:04:16.520
at a certain amount of time,

1336
01:04:16.520 --> 01:04:20.440
because it is a big deal when you all have school

1337
01:04:20.440 --> 01:04:22.520
and some of y'all have jobs

1338
01:04:22.520 --> 01:04:27.520
and understanding that your journey is important

1339
01:04:27.640 --> 01:04:30.880
and the hurdles that you're getting over on your process

1340
01:04:30.880 --> 01:04:34.440
and the fact that you're continuing is a really big win.

1341
01:04:34.440 --> 01:04:36.640
And so I appreciate what you shared,

1342
01:04:36.640 --> 01:04:39.400
but I want to make sure the enemy is not using that

1343
01:04:39.400 --> 01:04:43.360
to kind of go right into that lie

1344
01:04:43.360 --> 01:04:44.840
that you're already struggling with,

1345
01:04:44.840 --> 01:04:48.240
that doing one thing wrong is going to kind of

1346
01:04:48.240 --> 01:04:51.680
take God's grace or that situation away or whatever,

1347
01:04:51.680 --> 01:04:54.080
because you're doing a great job and you're here

1348
01:04:54.080 --> 01:04:57.600
and you're still showing up Angelique and that's amazing.

1349
01:04:57.600 --> 01:04:59.160
So way to go on that.

1350
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:01.640
I appreciate you sharing.

1351
01:05:01.640 --> 01:05:03.240
I'm gonna go to Anna.

1352
01:05:03.240 --> 01:05:05.120
Anna Smith, if you can share.

1353
01:05:08.000 --> 01:05:08.880
Hi.

1354
01:05:08.880 --> 01:05:09.800
Hi.

1355
01:05:09.800 --> 01:05:14.100
So I wanted to confess,

1356
01:05:14.100 --> 01:05:16.320
well, it started with jealousy,

1357
01:05:16.320 --> 01:05:17.480
and then in the group,

1358
01:05:17.480 --> 01:05:22.480
I realized that I also needed to confess unbelief and anger.

1359
01:05:25.080 --> 01:05:27.200
Oh God, I'm gonna cry.

1360
01:05:27.200 --> 01:05:28.040
Okay.

1361
01:05:31.000 --> 01:05:36.000
But similar to what Angelique was saying,

1362
01:05:36.360 --> 01:05:40.800
I feel the fear that God has forgotten me,

1363
01:05:40.800 --> 01:05:43.920
that am I not gonna get married?

1364
01:05:43.920 --> 01:05:46.440
Are these things that I want,

1365
01:05:46.440 --> 01:05:48.280
are they not gonna happen?

1366
01:05:48.280 --> 01:05:50.760
And like you were saying,

1367
01:05:50.760 --> 01:05:53.520
there's a lot of sadness that comes.

1368
01:05:53.520 --> 01:05:56.600
And then with the sadness comes anger

1369
01:05:56.600 --> 01:05:59.400
and all of these other feelings.

1370
01:05:59.400 --> 01:06:03.520
And I was in a relationship with someone

1371
01:06:03.520 --> 01:06:07.520
and I have to see him regularly because we work together.

1372
01:06:07.520 --> 01:06:09.880
And so when he interacts,

1373
01:06:09.880 --> 01:06:12.400
whenever I see him interact with other women,

1374
01:06:12.400 --> 01:06:13.480
I get really jealous.

1375
01:06:13.480 --> 01:06:15.760
And then it makes me feel insecure.

1376
01:06:15.760 --> 01:06:19.240
Like, oh, well, maybe if I looked like this person,

1377
01:06:19.240 --> 01:06:21.640
if I was like this, if I was different,

1378
01:06:21.640 --> 01:06:25.000
if I was a number of other things.

1379
01:06:25.980 --> 01:06:26.820
And I'm like,

1380
01:06:27.700 --> 01:06:28.860
there's so many things.

1381
01:06:28.860 --> 01:06:29.700
And at the root of it,

1382
01:06:29.700 --> 01:06:30.540
I'm just like,

1383
01:06:30.540 --> 01:06:34.460
I really have to believe that God has better for me

1384
01:06:34.460 --> 01:06:36.060
and he has the best.

1385
01:06:36.060 --> 01:06:38.940
But my unbelief is something that I struggle with

1386
01:06:38.940 --> 01:06:41.940
because I'm like something you said last week

1387
01:06:41.940 --> 01:06:43.100
when you were like,

1388
01:06:43.100 --> 01:06:45.420
God is, he's not,

1389
01:06:45.420 --> 01:06:47.060
I think you said he's not playing with you

1390
01:06:47.060 --> 01:06:49.420
or toying with you or something to that effect.

1391
01:06:49.420 --> 01:06:50.740
Yeah, he's not a trickster.

1392
01:06:50.740 --> 01:06:51.580
Right.

1393
01:06:51.580 --> 01:06:53.260
And it really resonated with me

1394
01:06:53.260 --> 01:06:56.100
because I feel that way often.

1395
01:06:56.180 --> 01:07:00.140
And so those are the things that I need to

1396
01:07:01.900 --> 01:07:03.180
kind of repent of,

1397
01:07:03.180 --> 01:07:04.460
repent completely of.

1398
01:07:05.900 --> 01:07:07.780
Man, I really appreciate you sharing that.

1399
01:07:07.780 --> 01:07:10.020
And ladies, I really wanna encourage you.

1400
01:07:10.020 --> 01:07:12.060
I know it can be hard

1401
01:07:12.060 --> 01:07:14.100
when you start to experience emotions

1402
01:07:14.100 --> 01:07:16.300
when you're sharing in the group

1403
01:07:16.300 --> 01:07:17.740
or even in your small breakouts.

1404
01:07:17.740 --> 01:07:22.140
I wanna encourage you that if you feel that, let it out.

1405
01:07:22.140 --> 01:07:25.420
Don't try to hide that from each other

1406
01:07:25.500 --> 01:07:26.340
or from us.

1407
01:07:26.340 --> 01:07:27.180
And I just,

1408
01:07:27.180 --> 01:07:29.100
and not that she was doing that intentionally,

1409
01:07:29.100 --> 01:07:30.020
but I know like,

1410
01:07:30.020 --> 01:07:32.660
just I've been in your seat before

1411
01:07:32.660 --> 01:07:34.420
and the Lord really taught me,

1412
01:07:34.420 --> 01:07:36.260
cause as a young girl,

1413
01:07:36.260 --> 01:07:39.220
I was made to feel like I had to hide my emotions

1414
01:07:39.220 --> 01:07:40.940
all the time.

1415
01:07:40.940 --> 01:07:44.460
Like to the point that I would go to the garage to cry

1416
01:07:44.460 --> 01:07:46.060
in the garage, behind the garage,

1417
01:07:46.060 --> 01:07:47.100
to the back of our yard.

1418
01:07:47.100 --> 01:07:50.060
I never felt like I could cry

1419
01:07:50.060 --> 01:07:51.700
and be safe in my,

1420
01:07:51.700 --> 01:07:54.580
inside my house for probably various reasons.

1421
01:07:54.580 --> 01:07:57.100
Some of which I still don't even know all of them.

1422
01:07:58.220 --> 01:08:00.580
But you know, when I got to a safe place

1423
01:08:00.580 --> 01:08:02.460
and I could let that out,

1424
01:08:02.460 --> 01:08:05.580
man, it was so healing.

1425
01:08:05.580 --> 01:08:06.980
And some of you,

1426
01:08:08.780 --> 01:08:10.660
I think Lori's on again tonight.

1427
01:08:10.660 --> 01:08:12.340
She was here this afternoon.

1428
01:08:12.340 --> 01:08:14.540
You know, when people say things over us,

1429
01:08:14.540 --> 01:08:16.300
like you're too sensitive or,

1430
01:08:16.300 --> 01:08:19.620
you know, and you're like reprimanded for your emotion.

1431
01:08:19.620 --> 01:08:20.819
Now, of course, yes,

1432
01:08:20.819 --> 01:08:25.460
we all need to learn how to have,

1433
01:08:25.460 --> 01:08:26.580
you know, boundaries,

1434
01:08:26.580 --> 01:08:28.859
even at times regarding our emotions.

1435
01:08:28.859 --> 01:08:31.899
We can't just emote all the time, right?

1436
01:08:31.899 --> 01:08:33.620
But here's the thing.

1437
01:08:33.620 --> 01:08:36.380
Some of you were not allowed to,

1438
01:08:36.380 --> 01:08:38.500
or you got in trouble for it, like I said,

1439
01:08:38.500 --> 01:08:42.020
or spoken harshly to because you had emotions.

1440
01:08:42.020 --> 01:08:47.020
And so you never really got to kind of mature in those areas

1441
01:08:47.620 --> 01:08:49.779
and actually feel what you felt

1442
01:08:49.779 --> 01:08:52.140
without it feeling bad or wrong.

1443
01:08:52.140 --> 01:08:55.460
And so here, this is like your safe place.

1444
01:08:55.460 --> 01:08:59.060
This is like a sanctuary for you, if you will,

1445
01:08:59.060 --> 01:09:01.260
to feel what comes up.

1446
01:09:01.260 --> 01:09:03.100
Some of you, if you feel numb,

1447
01:09:03.100 --> 01:09:05.180
I want you to pay attention to that too.

1448
01:09:05.180 --> 01:09:07.580
As Jackie shares, if you get to the end of week two

1449
01:09:07.580 --> 01:09:09.060
and you're still feeling numb,

1450
01:09:09.060 --> 01:09:12.020
like completely, like you're not feeling anything,

1451
01:09:12.020 --> 01:09:13.899
we really wanna encourage you to go back

1452
01:09:13.899 --> 01:09:15.460
to the beginning of week one.

1453
01:09:15.460 --> 01:09:16.300
Why?

1454
01:09:16.300 --> 01:09:18.859
Well, because some of you have been hurt for so long.

1455
01:09:18.859 --> 01:09:21.340
I mean, you've pushed things down for so long

1456
01:09:21.340 --> 01:09:24.020
that it's gonna take a little while

1457
01:09:24.020 --> 01:09:27.300
for you to feel again, okay?

1458
01:09:27.300 --> 01:09:28.660
It doesn't mean you're bad

1459
01:09:28.660 --> 01:09:29.779
and you're getting reprimanded.

1460
01:09:29.779 --> 01:09:30.819
Go back to week one.

1461
01:09:30.819 --> 01:09:31.740
That's not what it's like.

1462
01:09:31.740 --> 01:09:33.700
It's because we love you

1463
01:09:33.700 --> 01:09:37.779
and we know that you need to kind of

1464
01:09:37.779 --> 01:09:40.700
have that extra unpacking time, if you will,

1465
01:09:40.700 --> 01:09:42.260
unwrapping, you know,

1466
01:09:42.260 --> 01:09:44.899
where the Holy Spirit can just kind of help you

1467
01:09:44.899 --> 01:09:47.700
step into feeling again.

1468
01:09:48.580 --> 01:09:49.700
All right?

1469
01:09:49.700 --> 01:09:50.939
All right.

1470
01:09:50.939 --> 01:09:52.660
Samantha, go ahead.

1471
01:09:52.660 --> 01:09:53.939
Anna, thanks for sharing.

1472
01:09:53.939 --> 01:09:55.340
Appreciate you so much.

1473
01:09:59.260 --> 01:10:00.100
I was hesitant to-

1474
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:06.000
share, but I felt like I needed to. This was a common theme for our group as well,

1475
01:10:07.120 --> 01:10:13.360
but for myself, I just want to repent for my rebellion. I want to repent for my anger,

1476
01:10:14.000 --> 01:10:20.800
my bitterness, my grudges, my defensiveness, my rude words, my lack of self-control.

1477
01:10:21.520 --> 01:10:30.080
What comes to mind are my parents, which also led to outside rebellion, anger, bitterness,

1478
01:10:30.080 --> 01:10:37.680
but the root of it was just the relationship with my parents for how they treated me,

1479
01:10:38.320 --> 01:10:44.720
for how other people treated me, for the lack of time that maybe my parents took to understand me

1480
01:10:44.720 --> 01:10:50.960
if I was intense or difficult, being looked over or a second choice from others,

1481
01:10:53.120 --> 01:10:59.760
and then this spirit of rebellion and anger also was a topic in our group with Maria and with Aaron,

1482
01:11:00.640 --> 01:11:06.480
so I just wanted to also include them. I love this that you shared this,

1483
01:11:06.480 --> 01:11:13.200
Samantha. I'm so glad that you chose to share. I really want to point out something you said

1484
01:11:13.200 --> 01:11:18.240
there right at the end. You said second choice of others. I feel like there's something on that

1485
01:11:18.240 --> 01:11:23.920
for you, and what I mean when I say that, ladies, what I mean is I want you to look a little closer

1486
01:11:23.920 --> 01:11:28.880
at that this week with the Lord. I want you to talk to Him about it. I want you to ask Him to

1487
01:11:28.880 --> 01:11:33.760
reveal to you, Samantha, the first time you felt like you were someone's second choice,

1488
01:11:34.560 --> 01:11:38.800
and you might automatically have things pop up in your mind, but be sure to still ask the Lord

1489
01:11:38.800 --> 01:11:44.960
when's the first time you felt that way, and let Him come into those places and heal that,

1490
01:11:44.960 --> 01:11:51.200
and I'm so sorry that you went through some difficulties with your parents. I want to

1491
01:11:51.200 --> 01:11:56.480
encourage you to do the forgiveness prayer sheets regarding them, specifically a

1492
01:11:56.480 --> 01:12:00.720
different sheet for each one of them, and write the different things that you're going to forgive

1493
01:12:00.720 --> 01:12:06.320
them for, and asking the Lord to help you in that process is going to be really important, okay?

1494
01:12:07.280 --> 01:12:10.320
Okay, thank you. You're welcome. Alina, go ahead.

1495
01:12:22.080 --> 01:12:28.400
Hi. I'm so sorry. I didn't realize my turn was coming. Oh, that's all right. I was finishing

1496
01:12:28.480 --> 01:12:37.120
some dinner. It's been so good to talk about this topic. I've been a little bit feeling kind

1497
01:12:37.120 --> 01:12:48.560
of stuck this past week, and I don't know. I felt the need to confess again just sexual struggles

1498
01:12:48.560 --> 01:12:57.040
that my ex and I used to have, even though we broke up a little while ago, and I don't know.

1499
01:12:57.120 --> 01:13:04.160
Just after the break, I just felt kind of lost in the, like, space a little bit sometimes.

1500
01:13:06.880 --> 01:13:12.640
I'm usually able to kind of get a grip and find my purpose again. What am I getting up

1501
01:13:12.640 --> 01:13:17.760
in the morning for, or what do I want to rebuild or go after? I've been feeling like

1502
01:13:18.480 --> 01:13:24.960
really hard to get a grip of that and put boundaries with people, especially with my

1503
01:13:24.960 --> 01:13:34.080
family that I live with and baby nephew, and also hard to believe for greater things because

1504
01:13:35.760 --> 01:13:42.080
I had started declaring that to believe that God says that I'm a queen, and then when people

1505
01:13:42.080 --> 01:13:47.680
started recognizing that, I freaked out, and I didn't feel like I could carry the weight of that.

1506
01:13:48.320 --> 01:13:58.560
Like, I don't know. I just want to stay hidden, and I feel like maybe there's some trauma

1507
01:14:01.440 --> 01:14:06.560
from the relationship stuff, the breakups and things not happening.

1508
01:14:08.400 --> 01:14:15.040
Yeah, I think Alina, the hidden, the staying hidden, I think it's way before the relationships.

1509
01:14:15.120 --> 01:14:21.120
I really do. Typically, when people want to go into hiding to that depth,

1510
01:14:23.520 --> 01:14:31.360
there's somewhere internally that they find safety in, you know, going to a secret place,

1511
01:14:31.360 --> 01:14:35.680
if you will. Like, so I don't know if, like, and it's okay if nothing comes up right now,

1512
01:14:35.680 --> 01:14:39.920
but if when you were younger, if when you were growing up, if things were going on,

1513
01:14:39.920 --> 01:14:44.640
if parents were fighting, or even if they weren't fighting, but if you were afraid at any time,

1514
01:14:44.640 --> 01:14:51.360
if you had a place that you went in your house to hide and feel safe, it's not a bad thing,

1515
01:14:51.360 --> 01:14:58.480
but what happens when we do that as kids, some of us, if that is never healed, actually do that

1516
01:14:58.480 --> 01:14:59.840
even as adults when something

1517
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:06.220
I don't know if any of you ever did this, but I definitely like, even when I was dating

1518
01:15:06.220 --> 01:15:11.700
my spiritual daughter's dad, when he would like argue and he would just like yell and

1519
01:15:11.700 --> 01:15:16.840
say mean things, like I would always go sit beside the bed on the floor.

1520
01:15:16.840 --> 01:15:20.320
And that was kind of like a safe spot in his house.

1521
01:15:20.320 --> 01:15:23.940
And I've done that like as long as I can remember.

1522
01:15:23.940 --> 01:15:28.900
And so, you know, when I looked at that, even as an adult, like, why do I keep doing this?

1523
01:15:28.900 --> 01:15:33.220
The Lord just kept talking to me about like, this is one of the ways you find security

1524
01:15:33.220 --> 01:15:34.220
and safety.

1525
01:15:34.220 --> 01:15:39.000
It's like hiding in that brokenness.

1526
01:15:39.000 --> 01:15:44.540
Because I was ashamed because of things he was saying to me and about me and his daughters

1527
01:15:44.540 --> 01:15:46.640
could hear.

1528
01:15:46.640 --> 01:15:50.540
And so I went to the place that felt safe.

1529
01:15:50.540 --> 01:15:56.500
And that wasn't wrong, but we can also do that like physically, like not show up in

1530
01:15:56.500 --> 01:15:58.980
the world in our fullness.

1531
01:15:58.980 --> 01:16:06.020
Because if someone sees us in our joy, sees us in our, you know, these good things, then

1532
01:16:06.020 --> 01:16:07.620
what does that mean?

1533
01:16:07.620 --> 01:16:10.840
There's a quote, and I'll see if I can find it, ladies.

1534
01:16:10.840 --> 01:16:14.100
Probably not tonight, but tomorrow, I'll put it up in the group if I find it.

1535
01:16:14.100 --> 01:16:21.580
But it's, it's basically like some of us fear more that we have greatness within us.

1536
01:16:21.580 --> 01:16:25.600
And that's not the whole quote, but like, genuinely, some of us, that's what scares

1537
01:16:25.600 --> 01:16:29.220
us the most.

1538
01:16:29.220 --> 01:16:33.720
You know, and so what I want to encourage you, thank you for sharing what you did.

1539
01:16:33.720 --> 01:16:36.880
We're going to keep praying for you regarding the sexual struggles.

1540
01:16:36.880 --> 01:16:39.160
And I want you to know it takes time.

1541
01:16:39.160 --> 01:16:44.440
Okay, genuinely, overcoming sexual struggles for most people.

1542
01:16:44.440 --> 01:16:48.080
Some people, I'm not saying people are never automatically delivered from that.

1543
01:16:48.080 --> 01:16:53.800
But I haven't met many people that are, I believe 100% that there's something to us

1544
01:16:53.800 --> 01:17:00.160
having to learn to walk it out, and really establish that freedom, because there's strength

1545
01:17:00.160 --> 01:17:01.480
in that.

1546
01:17:01.480 --> 01:17:03.760
We get confidence in that.

1547
01:17:03.760 --> 01:17:06.400
And yeah, like, I'm not struggling with it anymore.

1548
01:17:06.400 --> 01:17:10.740
It's just I felt the need to confess because I thought maybe it's affecting my ability

1549
01:17:10.740 --> 01:17:15.000
to like step out, or maybe something in the spirit that's blocking.

1550
01:17:15.000 --> 01:17:16.000
I don't know.

1551
01:17:16.000 --> 01:17:18.400
I was just like, maybe guilt or I don't know.

1552
01:17:18.400 --> 01:17:21.320
Okay, well, I'm so glad that you're not struggling with it anymore.

1553
01:17:21.320 --> 01:17:22.320
That's awesome.

1554
01:17:22.320 --> 01:17:24.800
Thank you so much for sharing it with us.

1555
01:17:24.800 --> 01:17:29.200
And just kind of clearing that out just to make sure the enemy wasn't having an open

1556
01:17:29.200 --> 01:17:30.800
door at all.

1557
01:17:30.800 --> 01:17:35.760
But you may want to if you haven't already, make sure you do the soul ties to break all

1558
01:17:35.760 --> 01:17:36.760
of that.

1559
01:17:36.760 --> 01:17:37.760
Okay.

1560
01:17:37.760 --> 01:17:38.760
All right.

1561
01:17:38.760 --> 01:17:39.760
Awesome.

1562
01:17:39.760 --> 01:17:40.760
You're welcome.

1563
01:17:40.760 --> 01:17:41.760
Damaris, go ahead.

1564
01:17:41.760 --> 01:17:42.760
Sorry.

1565
01:17:42.760 --> 01:17:43.760
Oh, that's all right.

1566
01:17:43.760 --> 01:17:44.760
Okay.

1567
01:17:44.760 --> 01:17:45.760
Hi.

1568
01:17:45.760 --> 01:17:46.760
Hi.

1569
01:17:46.760 --> 01:17:47.760
Yes.

1570
01:17:47.760 --> 01:17:53.760
I want to confess tonight about a lot of those things that you weren't mentioning.

1571
01:17:53.760 --> 01:18:02.760
I applies to, to me, like the critical spirit and negative thinking.

1572
01:18:03.520 --> 01:18:28.560
negative for no reason, I don't know.

1573
01:18:29.360 --> 01:18:39.440
And also angry inside. I have my daughter, she just turned 27 and she lives with me,

1574
01:18:40.320 --> 01:18:48.160
with my two grandchildren. And she, you know, as she was growing up, especially in the teenage

1575
01:18:48.160 --> 01:18:55.440
years, she was very defiant and she's been very defiant. And so it was being hard to live with

1576
01:18:55.440 --> 01:19:06.000
her. And it gets better, especially if I don't say much, you know, but I've been resentful,

1577
01:19:06.000 --> 01:19:12.560
like when is, because I have prayed about her finding her own place and not being dependent

1578
01:19:12.560 --> 01:19:20.800
on me. And, and so I've been angry that when, when am I going to live in my own house as I

1579
01:19:20.800 --> 01:19:25.920
want to, because even though I'm in my own house, I feel like I cannot live like I want to,

1580
01:19:26.880 --> 01:19:33.520
because my daughter and my granddaughters are here. She, you know, she likes to speak with

1581
01:19:33.520 --> 01:19:40.160
profanity and stuff like that. And, and not that I'm, I don't say profanity, but I'm not saying

1582
01:19:40.160 --> 01:19:49.280
that I'm perfect. Right. But so I've been angry inside for a long time, you know, it has got

1583
01:19:49.280 --> 01:19:57.360
better because I used to be very resentful. Like even when I come home and I see her car,

1584
01:19:57.360 --> 01:19:59.120
Oh, she's there. You know, it's like,

1585
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:06.800
Um, it's to get is better now. I don't feel that way now. But she's pregnant with her

1586
01:20:06.800 --> 01:20:13.400
third child right now. And it's I really I really want her here. You know, it's this.

1587
01:20:13.400 --> 01:20:18.660
Does she have somewhere else to go? No, she's looking for a place. It's not like she wants

1588
01:20:18.660 --> 01:20:27.880
to be here either, you know, but it's hard sometimes to she just started working. And

1589
01:20:27.880 --> 01:20:32.840
so she's trying to look for a place to live. And I'm just praying that she can get a place

1590
01:20:32.840 --> 01:20:41.560
to live. But um, mainly is because she can't afford to go on her own, you know, and bad

1591
01:20:41.560 --> 01:20:49.680
choices that she has made and all of that. And so she's here with me. And, and that I

1592
01:20:49.680 --> 01:20:55.320
know that it has affected me because I've been angry inside. And I don't want that,

1593
01:20:55.320 --> 01:21:01.800
you know, of course, I don't want that. And sometimes I don't know how to, to heal that

1594
01:21:01.800 --> 01:21:09.640
I feel like she needs to go for me to heal. You know what I mean? I feel like she's almost

1595
01:21:09.640 --> 01:21:14.800
30. And she's still living with mommy's time to cut the umbilical cord, you know? Yeah.

1596
01:21:14.800 --> 01:21:20.000
And so here's the thing, Damaris. Okay, so this might be hard, but I'm going to give

1597
01:21:20.000 --> 01:21:24.920
it to you anyways. Okay. You need to pray about what boundaries you need to set with

1598
01:21:24.920 --> 01:21:33.600
her. Okay. Because not that I'm telling you to kick them out. I'm just saying it has to

1599
01:21:33.600 --> 01:21:40.400
start with you changing. Okay. I have, I have done that, but she straight tells me I'm not

1600
01:21:40.400 --> 01:21:44.600
going nowhere because I don't have to go. I don't have a place to go. So it's not for

1601
01:21:44.600 --> 01:21:48.200
your pretty face. I'm here. So I just not going to go until I find something. I mean,

1602
01:21:48.200 --> 01:21:55.560
she just tells me that. I mean, uh, like I said, this is, she's very bold like that

1603
01:21:55.560 --> 01:22:01.480
to tell me things and she's not going to go. She's not going to go. I mean, and I don't

1604
01:22:01.480 --> 01:22:06.720
know what to do. And I said, there's better days, you know, it's not like we're constantly

1605
01:22:06.720 --> 01:22:13.640
arguing or anything like that. It's just that I'm, I feel like it's my time. You know, I've

1606
01:22:13.640 --> 01:22:21.520
been there done that. Is this a home that you own? Yes. Okay. I might, will you post

1607
01:22:21.520 --> 01:22:27.840
in the group? I might want to share some ideas with you on how to just pray specifically

1608
01:22:27.840 --> 01:22:36.560
so that that moves forward. Okay. Because, um, I'm concerned. I under, it's tricky because

1609
01:22:36.560 --> 01:22:41.840
she's your daughter and those are your grandkids. Okay. So I understand that 100%, but I'm also

1610
01:22:41.840 --> 01:22:49.640
concerned that she is the authority in that house and it's your home. Okay. So we need

1611
01:22:49.640 --> 01:22:53.640
to work on that and let's do that through some coaching because we need to get to the

1612
01:22:53.640 --> 01:22:59.320
root of where this started with the two of you. And let's work on healing that because

1613
01:22:59.320 --> 01:23:03.160
it sounds like this started with her when she was younger and that the two of you have

1614
01:23:03.160 --> 01:23:08.080
kind of been in this place. And so what I really believe is that God's wanting to heal

1615
01:23:08.160 --> 01:23:14.960
the core of your relationship with your daughter. And as that shift happens, I think that she will,

1616
01:23:14.960 --> 01:23:20.560
she'll move on. I think that that's going to cause a shift because you're going to start to shift

1617
01:23:20.560 --> 01:23:25.520
and you're not going to show up the same way anymore. And I believe you 100% that it's already

1618
01:23:25.520 --> 01:23:30.000
been changing and that y'all aren't, you know, maybe at odds as much, but I think God wants to

1619
01:23:30.000 --> 01:23:36.720
do a lot more there. Yeah. And I think also that the reason that we don't fight as much is also

1620
01:23:36.720 --> 01:23:45.120
because I don't say things as much because if I know, if I tell her some things, she will,

1621
01:23:45.120 --> 01:23:51.520
will start an argument and it's like, I'm tired, you know? Yeah. And, um, and things like that.

1622
01:23:52.080 --> 01:23:57.120
Let's work on, you know, again, let's work on talking through that a little bit in the,

1623
01:23:57.120 --> 01:24:02.400
in the group so I can coach you more specifically. So pray into that, pray into where did this start

1624
01:24:02.400 --> 01:24:09.360
with her and ask the Lord specifically like, Lord, what, what is the core that I need like

1625
01:24:09.360 --> 01:24:14.960
healing in regarding my daughter? Okay. So it might be forgiving her even when she was younger

1626
01:24:14.960 --> 01:24:18.800
and she was rebelling and there was something that she did that hurt you. I mean, we'd got

1627
01:24:18.800 --> 01:24:24.240
to wait for the Lord to reveal that, but come in and post in the group. And then, um, also pray into,

1628
01:24:24.240 --> 01:24:32.480
um, ask the Lord. And again, he'll show you, ask him what boundaries you need to set.

1629
01:24:33.920 --> 01:24:38.160
Okay. Okay. All right. And we'll chat through it more in the group.

1630
01:24:38.800 --> 01:24:45.360
And where do I post in that? So you can put in, uh, when you go in the community tab,

1631
01:24:45.360 --> 01:24:51.280
there's one tab that says, ask a coach. Okay. Yeah. Can you put it in there for me? Okay.

1632
01:24:51.360 --> 01:24:56.000
I'll see them on any tabs ladies, but I do, I go to the ask a coach first.

1633
01:24:58.560 --> 01:24:59.840
Okay. Thank you. All right.

1634
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:02.960
You're welcome, thank you so much for sharing.

1635
01:25:02.960 --> 01:25:04.160
Lori, go ahead.

1636
01:25:11.240 --> 01:25:12.840
I was trying to unmute.

1637
01:25:12.840 --> 01:25:13.940
Oh, that's all right.

1638
01:25:15.240 --> 01:25:18.960
Yeah, the thing the Holy Spirit really highlighted

1639
01:25:18.960 --> 01:25:21.160
was the whole hiding thing.

1640
01:25:21.160 --> 01:25:26.160
That's why I'm here, it's super painful.

1641
01:25:35.280 --> 01:25:39.640
And I know that it's something still that's related

1642
01:25:39.640 --> 01:25:43.020
to my feeling of worthiness.

1643
01:25:44.400 --> 01:25:46.120
And you asked the question like,

1644
01:25:47.120 --> 01:25:49.160
when was the first time that you noticed

1645
01:25:49.160 --> 01:25:50.000
that you were hiding?

1646
01:25:50.000 --> 01:25:53.000
And I'm like, wow, where was I hiding in my house?

1647
01:25:53.000 --> 01:25:56.160
And just talking about like emotional security

1648
01:25:56.160 --> 01:25:57.200
and abandonment.

1649
01:25:58.240 --> 01:26:02.560
And I think I hid behind my doll.

1650
01:26:05.840 --> 01:26:07.840
I had a really big Raggedy Ann,

1651
01:26:07.840 --> 01:26:10.000
she was the same size as me.

1652
01:26:10.000 --> 01:26:12.320
And I literally talked through her.

1653
01:26:13.360 --> 01:26:17.360
I said things through that doll that she was feisty,

1654
01:26:17.360 --> 01:26:19.220
that Raggedy Ann.

1655
01:26:19.220 --> 01:26:22.860
I never felt like I could actually say these things myself.

1656
01:26:22.860 --> 01:26:24.020
But I'm like, oh my word,

1657
01:26:24.020 --> 01:26:25.860
like I don't think I hid anywhere in the house.

1658
01:26:25.860 --> 01:26:28.180
I'm like, that doll.

1659
01:26:30.380 --> 01:26:31.300
This is huge.

1660
01:26:31.300 --> 01:26:32.980
And so one of the things you just said

1661
01:26:32.980 --> 01:26:34.540
that I think is really important,

1662
01:26:34.540 --> 01:26:37.360
you said, I talked through the doll.

1663
01:26:38.980 --> 01:26:41.300
And the doll was really feisty.

1664
01:26:42.380 --> 01:26:44.860
But you didn't say Lori was feisty.

1665
01:26:44.860 --> 01:26:47.820
Oh, they would think it was funny coming from the doll.

1666
01:26:47.820 --> 01:26:49.260
My parents would.

1667
01:26:49.260 --> 01:26:50.620
Okay.

1668
01:26:50.620 --> 01:26:52.800
But I never really felt heard.

1669
01:26:54.620 --> 01:26:55.780
So I think that's-

1670
01:26:55.780 --> 01:26:59.220
I didn't, the doll said things I didn't dare say.

1671
01:26:59.220 --> 01:27:01.300
Yeah, well, and so here's the thing,

1672
01:27:01.300 --> 01:27:04.180
this is why I'm kind of pointing that out even more,

1673
01:27:04.180 --> 01:27:07.460
is the Lord is gonna give you opportunities

1674
01:27:07.460 --> 01:27:10.180
in the days ahead to take your voice back.

1675
01:27:10.180 --> 01:27:12.340
It's not the doll's voice, it's yours.

1676
01:27:13.220 --> 01:27:14.740
It was always your voice.

1677
01:27:15.740 --> 01:27:18.700
And I understand why you did that when you were young.

1678
01:27:18.700 --> 01:27:20.020
A lot of kids will do that

1679
01:27:20.020 --> 01:27:21.740
if they feel like they're not being heard.

1680
01:27:21.740 --> 01:27:23.220
And then when the parents think it's funny

1681
01:27:23.220 --> 01:27:24.260
and they still don't feel heard,

1682
01:27:24.260 --> 01:27:26.140
it can create all kinds of heartache.

1683
01:27:27.340 --> 01:27:30.620
And then that convergence never happens,

1684
01:27:30.620 --> 01:27:33.340
like you stay separated from yourself.

1685
01:27:33.340 --> 01:27:37.620
And so let's pray into that more,

1686
01:27:37.620 --> 01:27:42.180
ask the Lord to help you remember the first time

1687
01:27:42.700 --> 01:27:45.380
that you had the doll talk for you.

1688
01:27:47.060 --> 01:27:49.540
And again, ladies, remember when you're doing this,

1689
01:27:49.540 --> 01:27:53.460
it's okay if you're not 100% sure if it's the first time.

1690
01:27:53.460 --> 01:27:55.620
Just let the Lord show you what he shows you

1691
01:27:55.620 --> 01:27:57.180
and go with that.

1692
01:27:57.180 --> 01:27:59.820
And then if the Lord wants to show you more, he will.

1693
01:28:01.420 --> 01:28:04.580
And then once you see that memory of that first time

1694
01:28:04.580 --> 01:28:07.460
where you let the doll speak for you,

1695
01:28:07.460 --> 01:28:09.560
I wanna encourage you to,

1696
01:28:10.040 --> 01:28:12.800
I guess really what's just come into my spirit

1697
01:28:12.800 --> 01:28:16.120
is come out of alignment with that it's the doll's voice.

1698
01:28:16.120 --> 01:28:18.720
Like just say, Lord, thank you for helping me

1699
01:28:18.720 --> 01:28:19.800
get my voice back.

1700
01:28:19.800 --> 01:28:24.280
And that I'm choosing Lori tonight is saying that,

1701
01:28:24.280 --> 01:28:26.600
like just really own that that was your voice

1702
01:28:26.600 --> 01:28:27.480
in that moment.

1703
01:28:28.800 --> 01:28:32.800
Yeah, well now, so that ended up like I got

1704
01:28:32.800 --> 01:28:36.440
for Christmas and birthdays, three more large dolls.

1705
01:28:37.320 --> 01:28:40.640
And so I had four large dolls total

1706
01:28:40.640 --> 01:28:43.560
and my mom made the Raggedy Ann

1707
01:28:43.560 --> 01:28:46.040
and then she made a Raggedy Andy.

1708
01:28:46.040 --> 01:28:48.320
And while we're on the subject of personalities

1709
01:28:48.320 --> 01:28:51.320
showing up through dolls, like Raggedy Ann

1710
01:28:51.320 --> 01:28:55.600
was super feisty and outspoken

1711
01:28:55.600 --> 01:28:58.280
and the male doll was really weak.

1712
01:29:01.520 --> 01:29:02.360
And did that-

1713
01:29:02.360 --> 01:29:04.240
I think I was, you know, it goes back

1714
01:29:04.240 --> 01:29:05.680
to that whole submission thing.

1715
01:29:05.680 --> 01:29:10.080
It was probably my way of making the man weak

1716
01:29:10.080 --> 01:29:13.120
when I felt like I had to come under authority

1717
01:29:13.120 --> 01:29:15.320
when my father was not emotionally.

1718
01:29:16.720 --> 01:29:18.560
Yeah, yeah.

1719
01:29:18.560 --> 01:29:19.480
And for those of you that,

1720
01:29:19.480 --> 01:29:21.840
so we were gonna talk about submission tonight,

1721
01:29:21.840 --> 01:29:23.840
but I'm gonna bring that for next week

1722
01:29:23.840 --> 01:29:26.280
and I'll just combine it with the other material.

1723
01:29:26.280 --> 01:29:28.800
We did talk about submission this afternoon some,

1724
01:29:28.800 --> 01:29:30.360
but man, this has been really good

1725
01:29:30.360 --> 01:29:33.640
that y'all are sharing and I still want Marlena to go.

1726
01:29:33.640 --> 01:29:37.040
But Lori, you're onto some really important things here,

1727
01:29:37.040 --> 01:29:37.880
okay?

1728
01:29:38.800 --> 01:29:39.640
So be sure-

1729
01:29:39.640 --> 01:29:40.680
It sounds so silly

1730
01:29:40.680 --> 01:29:41.520
because it was- It doesn't.

1731
01:29:41.520 --> 01:29:44.880
It was my play time, but I'm like, oh my word.

1732
01:29:44.880 --> 01:29:48.160
Well, and it doesn't, you know, sound silly at all.

1733
01:29:48.160 --> 01:29:50.320
And not everybody that has a doll,

1734
01:29:50.320 --> 01:29:51.960
I wanna make sure everybody understands this,

1735
01:29:51.960 --> 01:29:55.200
not everybody that has a doll

1736
01:29:55.200 --> 01:29:58.360
has that doll kind of being their voice for them.

1737
01:29:58.360 --> 01:30:00.200
But what she's sharing is a very,

1738
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:06.520
specific separation that happened where she didn't feel like she could actually say or

1739
01:30:06.520 --> 01:30:07.520
feel.

1740
01:30:07.520 --> 01:30:10.000
And so the doll was doing it for her.

1741
01:30:10.000 --> 01:30:11.000
Okay.

1742
01:30:11.000 --> 01:30:12.600
And so that's why it's important.

1743
01:30:12.600 --> 01:30:15.760
So she's got to converge back with the little girl, Lori.

1744
01:30:15.760 --> 01:30:16.760
Okay.

1745
01:30:16.760 --> 01:30:21.080
I talked to y'all about this loving on the little girl, you, when God shows you that

1746
01:30:21.080 --> 01:30:25.940
initial time, I encourage you to ask, say, Hey Jesus, can you show me where you were

1747
01:30:25.940 --> 01:30:30.740
at in this situation and help me hear what you're saying about me.

1748
01:30:30.740 --> 01:30:35.060
Maybe he wants to comfort you if you were sad or upset, and maybe he wants to minister

1749
01:30:35.060 --> 01:30:38.620
to you as a little girl in that moment, you know?

1750
01:30:38.620 --> 01:30:42.340
So let's just, let's see what he does and see what he shows you.

1751
01:30:42.340 --> 01:30:44.300
But man, thanks so much for sharing.

1752
01:30:44.300 --> 01:30:45.300
This is ladies.

1753
01:30:45.300 --> 01:30:49.420
This is the beauty of coming to these live sessions and sharing.

1754
01:30:49.420 --> 01:30:53.100
Lori came this afternoon and there were a couple of things that I, I mentioned to her

1755
01:30:53.100 --> 01:30:57.740
after she shared, and then she's already getting additional revelation on that.

1756
01:30:57.740 --> 01:30:58.740
Okay.

1757
01:30:58.740 --> 01:31:00.900
Same thing happened in the group when y'all post.

1758
01:31:00.900 --> 01:31:07.220
If I can share one really powerful thing that the Lord showed me about hiding, and that

1759
01:31:07.220 --> 01:31:08.220
was Psalm 91.

1760
01:31:08.220 --> 01:31:13.020
And I don't know if you mentioned it in the first, but you know, the whole hiding thing

1761
01:31:13.020 --> 01:31:20.300
is like, I'm having a revelation that I can hide in a camp of fear, or I can hide in a

1762
01:31:20.300 --> 01:31:23.500
camp of love, which is God.

1763
01:31:23.500 --> 01:31:31.140
And Psalm 91 is like, when you sit enthroned under the shadow of Shaddai, you are hidden

1764
01:31:31.140 --> 01:31:33.580
in the strength of the most high.

1765
01:31:33.580 --> 01:31:38.620
He's the hope that holds me and the stronghold to shelter me.

1766
01:31:38.620 --> 01:31:42.680
The only God for me and my great confidence.

1767
01:31:42.680 --> 01:31:49.100
It even goes around and says, you'll protect me from false accusation, which I very much

1768
01:31:49.100 --> 01:31:51.100
relate with.

1769
01:31:51.100 --> 01:31:54.020
And you know, there, there's a lot, there's a lot in there.

1770
01:31:54.020 --> 01:32:01.640
It even says, I hold you secure before my safe and secure before my face at the end

1771
01:32:01.640 --> 01:32:03.820
of the psalm.

1772
01:32:03.820 --> 01:32:06.780
And I'm just like, wow, like hiding.

1773
01:32:06.780 --> 01:32:09.980
So like, we're meant to be hidden in him.

1774
01:32:09.980 --> 01:32:12.660
We're meant to find safety in him.

1775
01:32:12.660 --> 01:32:18.060
And there's a hiding that's actually feels like there's a holy form of hiding.

1776
01:32:18.260 --> 01:32:19.340
Oh, for sure.

1777
01:32:19.340 --> 01:32:26.700
And if you remember, that safety thing is, obviously we all need to feel that safety,

1778
01:32:26.700 --> 01:32:32.980
but I didn't feel safe at all emotionally, but there is this safety and this hiding within

1779
01:32:32.980 --> 01:32:33.980
the Lord.

1780
01:32:33.980 --> 01:32:40.740
That's actually like, sometimes we say the kingdom is upside down.

1781
01:32:40.740 --> 01:32:43.140
I think it's right side up.

1782
01:32:43.140 --> 01:32:44.140
Yes.

1783
01:32:44.140 --> 01:32:45.140
Yes.

1784
01:32:45.220 --> 01:32:52.060
Like this, but like, we like, we think we see rightly, but then like, and I'm like,

1785
01:32:52.060 --> 01:32:54.700
wow, that just flipped it right side up.

1786
01:32:54.700 --> 01:33:04.980
And I'm like, oh my gosh, I can hide, but not in my fear of being known, I can hide

1787
01:33:04.980 --> 01:33:11.940
in my fear of the Lord, not even fear of the Lord, but I can hide in this safe place and

1788
01:33:11.940 --> 01:33:15.820
I can, I can be hidden when I go out.

1789
01:33:15.820 --> 01:33:19.260
I can be hidden in every conversation.

1790
01:33:19.260 --> 01:33:21.880
I can be hidden all the time.

1791
01:33:21.880 --> 01:33:24.660
And I'm like, oh, I'm into that type.

1792
01:33:24.660 --> 01:33:25.660
Yes.

1793
01:33:25.660 --> 01:33:26.660
That brings life.

1794
01:33:26.660 --> 01:33:27.660
It is.

1795
01:33:27.660 --> 01:33:32.020
And, and ladies, one of the things that I did say this afternoon, um, in correlation

1796
01:33:32.020 --> 01:33:36.420
with what she's talking about is as I was, I don't even remember if I was responding

1797
01:33:36.420 --> 01:33:42.940
to someone, but I saw like God holding up a shield and he was protecting the person

1798
01:33:42.940 --> 01:33:45.180
from accusation.

1799
01:33:45.180 --> 01:33:51.620
And um, you know, there is this reminder for all of you that God is our defender.

1800
01:33:51.620 --> 01:33:53.100
He's our protector.

1801
01:33:53.100 --> 01:33:54.420
He's that ever present help.

1802
01:33:54.420 --> 01:33:58.100
He's there to protect and, and hide us in those things.

1803
01:33:58.100 --> 01:33:59.700
Lori, thank you so much for sharing that.

1804
01:33:59.700 --> 01:34:04.180
I'm going to go to Marlena real quick and we need to start to close, but I want you

1805
01:34:04.180 --> 01:34:06.540
to have time to share Marlena.

1806
01:34:06.540 --> 01:34:09.060
So we'd love to hear what you have to say.

1807
01:34:09.060 --> 01:34:15.740
I want to just introduce myself.

1808
01:34:15.740 --> 01:34:17.500
It's my first year.

1809
01:34:17.500 --> 01:34:22.780
I did watch the replays, I think the last two.

1810
01:34:22.780 --> 01:34:24.460
And I really enjoyed them.

1811
01:34:24.460 --> 01:34:28.740
I guess I just was kind of slowly making my way in.

1812
01:34:29.140 --> 01:34:34.140
And so just being familiar with what was happening and I was just enjoying it.

1813
01:34:34.140 --> 01:34:40.300
But saying that hello, I just wanted to come in and share some of the things I shared at

1814
01:34:40.300 --> 01:34:42.420
the breakout was just me.

1815
01:34:42.420 --> 01:34:50.220
I've been kind of God showing me out the walls that I built up because of being a single

1816
01:34:50.220 --> 01:35:00.060
mom for some time, you have to do a lot.

1817
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:10.520
And, and take care of a lot and some minds that if I don't get it done, then it's not

1818
01:35:10.520 --> 01:35:13.480
going to get done that I need to do it.

1819
01:35:13.480 --> 01:35:14.480
I need to fit.

1820
01:35:14.480 --> 01:35:18.280
So right now there's a lot of transition in my life.

1821
01:35:18.280 --> 01:35:23.240
So God's taking me to surrender in a whole different wedding, learning how to be vulnerable,

1822
01:35:23.240 --> 01:35:32.720
learning that just allowing myself to be in a group where I'm just, and, and just God

1823
01:35:32.720 --> 01:35:40.480
just bringing up, he's just been bringing up even in the replays, just so much that

1824
01:35:40.480 --> 01:35:43.240
that was just, he's bringing it all up to the surface.

1825
01:35:43.240 --> 01:35:50.240
So this week I've been kind of really emotional and I know it's part of the process, but I

1826
01:35:50.240 --> 01:35:52.800
told God I'm in.

1827
01:35:52.800 --> 01:35:59.600
I'm in, and I know I need this and always been, you know, I had to be strong to make

1828
01:35:59.600 --> 01:36:06.440
sure everybody else was okay, but I'm grateful that I feel like he's saying, this is your

1829
01:36:06.440 --> 01:36:07.440
time.

1830
01:36:07.440 --> 01:36:15.960
This is your time to just, just, just, I get to focus on me now.

1831
01:36:15.960 --> 01:36:21.720
I raised my kids and they're beautiful and wonderful and they're doing wonderfully.

1832
01:36:21.720 --> 01:36:27.400
I miss them, but I know God is saying, this is my time to heal in my time to prepare for

1833
01:36:27.400 --> 01:36:29.080
what he has for me.

1834
01:36:29.080 --> 01:36:37.480
So taking those walls down and being vulnerable has been a hard thing to do, but I'm here.

1835
01:36:37.480 --> 01:36:38.480
I'm great.

1836
01:36:38.480 --> 01:36:39.480
You're here.

1837
01:36:39.480 --> 01:36:40.480
I love it.

1838
01:36:40.480 --> 01:36:41.480
Marlena.

1839
01:36:41.480 --> 01:36:43.280
Gosh, it's so good to see you.

1840
01:36:43.280 --> 01:36:46.720
I hope you feel good being seen seriously, ladies.

1841
01:36:46.720 --> 01:36:54.080
I hope all of you feel the blessing of being seen while you're here and that you keep allowing

1842
01:36:54.080 --> 01:36:56.360
yourself to be seen.

1843
01:36:56.360 --> 01:36:58.640
Your voices matter.

1844
01:36:58.640 --> 01:37:03.880
When you said, Marlena, I had to be strong, man, I felt a wave of the Holy spirit and

1845
01:37:03.880 --> 01:37:08.840
I feel like that's resonating with some other single moms and even some other ladies that

1846
01:37:08.840 --> 01:37:12.560
maybe you're not moms, but you felt that in another way.

1847
01:37:12.560 --> 01:37:15.280
Maybe it was as a young girl, you had to be strong.

1848
01:37:15.280 --> 01:37:19.880
That's what the enemy told you because no one else would be strong for you.

1849
01:37:19.880 --> 01:37:21.160
No one else would protect you.

1850
01:37:21.160 --> 01:37:23.520
You had to do it or it wouldn't get done.

1851
01:37:23.520 --> 01:37:25.720
That came up on the session this afternoon.

1852
01:37:25.720 --> 01:37:29.200
And so when Marlena was saying that, I'm like, man, that's coming up again.

1853
01:37:29.200 --> 01:37:35.160
And so I want to pull that out of what she said and encourage you, Marlena, and anyone

1854
01:37:35.160 --> 01:37:44.280
else that resonates with that to really ask the Lord these next few weeks, who can you

1855
01:37:44.280 --> 01:37:47.280
ask for help?

1856
01:37:47.280 --> 01:37:51.240
I want the Lord to reveal to you who are some people that you can intentionally ask them

1857
01:37:51.240 --> 01:37:56.800
to help you, even if you can do it yourself, that you're going to ask them to help you.

1858
01:37:56.800 --> 01:37:57.800
Okay.

1859
01:37:57.800 --> 01:38:01.480
Cause you're going to start to come out of alignment and agreement with, I have to be

1860
01:38:01.480 --> 01:38:04.000
the strong one or it won't get done.

1861
01:38:04.000 --> 01:38:07.600
You're coming out of alignment with that now in agreement, and you're going to start to

1862
01:38:08.600 --> 01:38:16.040
I can depend on God to help me and I can trust other people to help me too.

1863
01:38:16.040 --> 01:38:17.680
And here's the tricky thing.

1864
01:38:17.680 --> 01:38:22.360
Sometimes ladies, they still don't help, but you have to not partner with that lie.

1865
01:38:22.360 --> 01:38:23.360
Okay.

1866
01:38:23.360 --> 01:38:24.360
Super important.

1867
01:38:24.360 --> 01:38:30.000
And so it might even be like you go to a Home Depot or Walmart or some kind of store and

1868
01:38:30.000 --> 01:38:33.600
you know, there's something up a little too high where you can't reach it.

1869
01:38:33.600 --> 01:38:37.120
And I don't know about you all, but sometimes I would jump and I would try to get that stuff

1870
01:38:37.640 --> 01:38:38.640
Cause I'm short.

1871
01:38:38.640 --> 01:38:39.640
I'm like five for you all.

1872
01:38:39.640 --> 01:38:41.800
I can't reach very much.

1873
01:38:41.800 --> 01:38:45.960
And I would stand on the shelves hoping that they wouldn't like fall.

1874
01:38:45.960 --> 01:38:46.960
Yeah.

1875
01:38:46.960 --> 01:38:47.960
That was me.

1876
01:38:47.960 --> 01:38:48.960
Yeah.

1877
01:38:48.960 --> 01:38:49.960
I don't do that.

1878
01:38:49.960 --> 01:38:50.960
Y'all.

1879
01:38:50.960 --> 01:38:54.960
I will even walk to the front of the store now to ask someone to help me.

1880
01:38:54.960 --> 01:38:55.960
I need help.

1881
01:38:55.960 --> 01:38:56.960
Can you help me?

1882
01:38:56.960 --> 01:38:57.960
Yeah.

1883
01:38:57.960 --> 01:39:06.960
And it was really great when I was saying the one thing I'd show me, go ahead, go ahead.

1884
01:39:07.800 --> 01:39:10.640
I think we just have a little delay.

1885
01:39:10.640 --> 01:39:11.640
You're breaking up just a little bit.

1886
01:39:11.640 --> 01:39:12.640
So sometimes I don't know.

1887
01:39:12.640 --> 01:39:16.640
The one thing God showed me in this too is this.

1888
01:39:16.640 --> 01:39:17.640
Okay.

1889
01:39:17.640 --> 01:39:18.640
Yeah.

1890
01:39:18.640 --> 01:39:21.680
It's kind of breaking up a little bit on my side.

1891
01:39:21.680 --> 01:39:22.680
Can you hear me?

1892
01:39:22.680 --> 01:39:23.680
Yeah.

1893
01:39:23.680 --> 01:39:24.680
I can hear you now.

1894
01:39:24.680 --> 01:39:25.680
Okay.

1895
01:39:25.680 --> 01:39:31.040
Um, part of it too, was God showing me that in this time I've been studying there and

1896
01:39:31.040 --> 01:39:36.680
God showing me the era of preparation as well.

1897
01:39:36.680 --> 01:39:42.800
And so, um, showing me that receiving and being in a place of, of surrender and learning

1898
01:39:42.800 --> 01:39:51.440
to receive from others is also part of that femininity and walking in that and myself

1899
01:39:51.440 --> 01:39:52.840
for the next season.

1900
01:39:52.840 --> 01:39:54.880
So it's just been a whole lot.

1901
01:39:54.880 --> 01:39:59.920
I'm just like, okay, God, I just feel like all this emotion, but it's, I know that.

1902
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:02.800
That's what it's part of this process.

1903
01:40:02.800 --> 01:40:05.280
And so I'm just trying to be in it

1904
01:40:05.280 --> 01:40:08.960
and not be afraid to just let the walls down

1905
01:40:08.960 --> 01:40:10.300
and be vulnerable.

1906
01:40:11.220 --> 01:40:12.160
Yes.

1907
01:40:12.160 --> 01:40:14.640
And ladies, if you didn't hear at the beginning

1908
01:40:14.640 --> 01:40:17.140
the housekeeping, Supernatural Saturday,

1909
01:40:17.140 --> 01:40:19.080
definitely want y'all to listen to that.

1910
01:40:19.080 --> 01:40:21.640
Jackie talks about the in-between season,

1911
01:40:21.640 --> 01:40:24.640
that silent Saturday, how that can often be

1912
01:40:24.640 --> 01:40:26.860
that season of preparation and the process

1913
01:40:26.860 --> 01:40:27.740
and all those things.

1914
01:40:27.740 --> 01:40:28.960
I believe that will help you all.

1915
01:40:29.020 --> 01:40:30.100
Even if you've already heard it,

1916
01:40:30.100 --> 01:40:32.540
would be a good one to listen to again.

1917
01:40:32.540 --> 01:40:35.160
Hope, I'm laughing at your comment there.

1918
01:40:35.160 --> 01:40:37.300
Hope, yeah, be a damsel.

1919
01:40:37.300 --> 01:40:38.740
That's right, y'all.

1920
01:40:38.740 --> 01:40:43.380
And it really has been awesome when,

1921
01:40:43.380 --> 01:40:45.160
I was gonna say, when I was single,

1922
01:40:45.160 --> 01:40:47.440
I wanna share this with y'all lighthearted as we end.

1923
01:40:47.440 --> 01:40:49.180
I'm gonna put the activation in the group

1924
01:40:49.180 --> 01:40:50.500
this week too, y'all.

1925
01:40:50.500 --> 01:40:51.640
I just think it's gonna be easier

1926
01:40:51.640 --> 01:40:53.860
than trying to keep y'all on here later.

1927
01:40:53.860 --> 01:40:55.140
I'll put that up in the group.

1928
01:40:55.140 --> 01:40:56.580
It'll be, guess what?

1929
01:40:56.580 --> 01:40:59.200
It's gonna be under the community tab all,

1930
01:40:59.200 --> 01:41:00.680
and it will be pinned to the top.

1931
01:41:00.680 --> 01:41:03.640
And I'll literally put as the header of the text,

1932
01:41:03.640 --> 01:41:05.240
activation for this week, okay?

1933
01:41:05.240 --> 01:41:06.720
And I'll give y'all instructions

1934
01:41:06.720 --> 01:41:08.840
and I'll tell you what to do.

1935
01:41:08.840 --> 01:41:12.000
And yeah, I'll let you know that there's examples of it

1936
01:41:12.000 --> 01:41:13.720
already in the group and that kind of thing.

1937
01:41:13.720 --> 01:41:16.980
But I wanna say this one funny thing

1938
01:41:16.980 --> 01:41:19.280
before we pray and close tonight.

1939
01:41:19.280 --> 01:41:22.720
So, I was pretty good at just doing things

1940
01:41:22.720 --> 01:41:24.500
for myself all the time.

1941
01:41:24.500 --> 01:41:28.560
And it was interesting when I did start leaning

1942
01:41:28.560 --> 01:41:30.480
into asking people for help

1943
01:41:30.480 --> 01:41:33.880
and kind of really leaning into that divine femininity

1944
01:41:33.880 --> 01:41:37.800
where like, oh, like this is kind of nice.

1945
01:41:37.800 --> 01:41:40.280
I like people doing things for me.

1946
01:41:40.280 --> 01:41:43.080
Like I don't have, and so, you know,

1947
01:41:43.080 --> 01:41:46.160
the little things like that shift would cause,

1948
01:41:46.160 --> 01:41:48.020
and y'all, I'm not kidding.

1949
01:41:48.020 --> 01:41:49.960
It was like everywhere I would go,

1950
01:41:49.960 --> 01:41:53.500
like people were, even women just opening doors for me.

1951
01:41:53.500 --> 01:41:55.560
Like, it was like, I didn't even,

1952
01:41:55.560 --> 01:41:59.560
it came to a point where I didn't even have to ask people

1953
01:41:59.560 --> 01:42:01.560
to do the stuff for me.

1954
01:42:01.560 --> 01:42:03.880
I was like, Lord, what's happening here?

1955
01:42:03.880 --> 01:42:06.480
Well, it's because he wanted me to see

1956
01:42:06.480 --> 01:42:08.800
that when we start to partner with,

1957
01:42:09.680 --> 01:42:14.060
hey, Lord, I'm gonna let you and other people help me,

1958
01:42:14.060 --> 01:42:15.460
men and women alike.

1959
01:42:16.360 --> 01:42:18.160
I'm gonna be friendly.

1960
01:42:18.160 --> 01:42:19.600
I'm gonna smile at people.

1961
01:42:19.600 --> 01:42:21.880
I'm gonna make eye contact.

1962
01:42:21.880 --> 01:42:23.360
Okay, I'm gonna give you one activation.

1963
01:42:24.180 --> 01:42:25.140
I haven't given this for a while.

1964
01:42:25.140 --> 01:42:27.060
I didn't give this this afternoon.

1965
01:42:27.060 --> 01:42:28.300
I'll put this in the group too.

1966
01:42:28.300 --> 01:42:29.500
I just thought of it.

1967
01:42:30.440 --> 01:42:33.060
I want you all to start practicing looking at people,

1968
01:42:33.060 --> 01:42:37.420
making eye contact, smiling, men and women.

1969
01:42:37.420 --> 01:42:39.200
Yes, both.

1970
01:42:39.200 --> 01:42:42.380
Some of you all are terrified of women.

1971
01:42:42.380 --> 01:42:45.860
You have massive authority, submission issues with women.

1972
01:42:45.860 --> 01:42:46.820
Some of you, it's men.

1973
01:42:46.820 --> 01:42:49.940
I used to walk past guys on the street and look down.

1974
01:42:50.920 --> 01:42:55.220
I had a hard time looking at guys in the eye.

1975
01:42:55.220 --> 01:42:59.640
And that, you don't realize how much that impacts

1976
01:42:59.640 --> 01:43:03.520
how you show up in a romantic dating.

1977
01:43:03.520 --> 01:43:05.120
Like even if it's not a relationship yet,

1978
01:43:05.120 --> 01:43:07.280
but even when you go on a date,

1979
01:43:07.280 --> 01:43:11.960
if there's a lack of confidence in us, it shows up.

1980
01:43:11.960 --> 01:43:13.680
So let's practice it now.

1981
01:43:13.680 --> 01:43:16.120
So go out this next week,

1982
01:43:16.220 --> 01:43:19.620
you know, let people open doors for you,

1983
01:43:19.620 --> 01:43:21.940
open doors for other people,

1984
01:43:21.940 --> 01:43:24.060
do for other people what you want done to you,

1985
01:43:24.060 --> 01:43:26.480
but like, don't get in the driver's seat again.

1986
01:43:26.480 --> 01:43:27.380
Cause some of y'all,

1987
01:43:27.380 --> 01:43:29.500
that's the whole point of this activation

1988
01:43:29.500 --> 01:43:32.780
is letting people help you because guess what?

1989
01:43:32.780 --> 01:43:35.840
You don't have to be the strong one anymore.

1990
01:43:36.980 --> 01:43:37.960
You don't.

1991
01:43:39.340 --> 01:43:42.980
Give yourself permission to get out of alignment with that.

1992
01:43:42.980 --> 01:43:43.980
Okay?

1993
01:43:44.000 --> 01:43:47.460
Father, thank you so much for this amazing group of women.

1994
01:43:47.460 --> 01:43:48.300
Thank you, God,

1995
01:43:48.300 --> 01:43:50.880
for everything that you're already doing in us tonight.

1996
01:43:50.880 --> 01:43:52.740
God, thank you for revealings,

1997
01:43:52.740 --> 01:43:55.160
for healing that are helping us repent and confess

1998
01:43:55.160 --> 01:43:56.920
and come out of alignment with things

1999
01:43:56.920 --> 01:43:58.260
that are not good for us.

2000
01:43:58.260 --> 01:43:59.100
Thank you, God,

2001
01:43:59.100 --> 01:44:01.000
for helping us to partner with you

2002
01:44:01.000 --> 01:44:04.340
in the heavenly perspective of things that are true

2003
01:44:04.340 --> 01:44:06.800
and noble and lovely and of good report,

2004
01:44:06.800 --> 01:44:08.760
things that are above only and not beneath God

2005
01:44:08.760 --> 01:44:11.640
that we don't have to partner with the negativity

2006
01:44:11.780 --> 01:44:14.340
and the unhealthy aspects of life anymore.

2007
01:44:14.340 --> 01:44:17.820
God, thank you that you'll show us people this week,

2008
01:44:17.820 --> 01:44:19.700
God, that you want us to reach out to,

2009
01:44:19.700 --> 01:44:22.140
to specifically ask if they will come

2010
01:44:22.140 --> 01:44:23.500
and help us do something.

2011
01:44:23.500 --> 01:44:26.140
Even if it's to come and help us pick out a dress

2012
01:44:26.140 --> 01:44:28.260
at a shop or whatever it is, Lord,

2013
01:44:28.260 --> 01:44:29.620
maybe it's to plant flowers.

2014
01:44:29.620 --> 01:44:31.740
Maybe it's to hang something in our house.

2015
01:44:31.740 --> 01:44:33.380
Maybe it's to clean our car.

2016
01:44:33.380 --> 01:44:37.920
Lord, that we would allow people to come into our story,

2017
01:44:37.920 --> 01:44:40.660
into our lives and help us.

2018
01:44:40.680 --> 01:44:43.000
Lord, that we would make room for you

2019
01:44:43.000 --> 01:44:44.800
to come and do a really amazing work.

2020
01:44:44.800 --> 01:44:48.140
Give us the courage to make eye contact with people,

2021
01:44:48.140 --> 01:44:50.280
to smile, to show up in the world,

2022
01:44:50.280 --> 01:44:55.280
to not hide or to pull back in any way any longer.

2023
01:44:55.520 --> 01:44:56.800
We just thank you, God,

2024
01:44:56.800 --> 01:44:59.360
for awakening us to the fullness of everything

2025
01:44:59.360 --> 01:45:00.360
that you have for us.

2026
01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:07.620
And we just thank you for supernatural breakthroughs this week and Jesus name. Amen. So next week you all we're going to talk about submission

2027
01:45:08.140 --> 01:45:14.580
On the evening session. I'll talk about something else too. So I think I know already what I'll combine with it, but

2028
01:45:15.580 --> 01:45:17.260
Be praying for each other this week

2029
01:45:17.260 --> 01:45:19.220
Just even if it's a little prayer like Lord

2030
01:45:19.220 --> 01:45:22.580
Will you just continue to bless all the women in the phase one group with me?

2031
01:45:22.580 --> 01:45:26.900
Just like you know as the Lord leads you to okay. God bless you. I love you all

2032
01:45:26.900 --> 01:45:29.860
We'll see you later and in the group as well. Bye