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Hi, welcome, welcome, welcome, we're going to wait for another minute or so for people

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to log in.

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So glad you all are joining us here tonight.

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My name is Bethany Cooper, I'm one of the master hardware coaches in our community and

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on the team with last year single.

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And it's my honor to be here with you tonight.

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We do want to let you all know just a couple of housekeeping things as we get started tonight.

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If you all in any way used to save zoom links for any of our prayer calls, any of our events,

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any of that stuff, y'all, those aren't going to work.

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Okay.

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So just so you know, we literally are going to be updating our zoom links in our events

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calendar that is in your app on a regular basis.

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Because sometimes we're going to be allowing people that aren't a part of the community

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to experience prayer on a morning, and then we'll change the zoom link.

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And so just want to make sure y'all aren't trying to save links and then having trouble

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getting into meetings, because those are going to change.

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So just get really comfortable with always checking the zoom links in the event that's

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in the last year single app, versus saving any links.

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And I know for some of you with your phone type, it just is kind of a struggle.

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Apologize for that.

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But unfortunately, there's not a lot we can do about that.

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But the quickest thing for you to do is to just log into zoom for all of you every single

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time my best practice recommendation for you, log into zoom first create a free profile

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if you don't have one before you ever click on the zoom links, but if the zoom links don't

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work for you, if you just go right to zoom and click join a meeting, that zoom meeting

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ID and passcode is in that event for you that's in the calendar.

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I know that might be a little longer than clicking on a link, but y'all it's super fast.

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So let's be positive and just let's get into these events, the easiest way we can.

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But yeah, just want to make sure y'all aren't saving the links and absolutely please do

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not share any of our links with someone that is not a paying person in our program.

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And I know sometimes we have people come in and go out and that's totally fine.

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We love that people know they can come and go whenever they want.

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But just want to make sure you all aren't sharing those links with people.

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Not that anybody did that necessarily recently, so no one's in trouble, but this is just something

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as we're continuing to grow, we want to make sure everyone's on the same page regarding

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all of all things last year single that are in regarding like two events and things.

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So that's my main housekeeping thing.

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I'm super excited just to see what God's going to do tonight.

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Let me go ahead and pray.

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And Oh, one other thing, Jackie's going to be on a podcast tomorrow.

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I don't know if she's telling people what it is yet or not, so I'm not going to, but

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if we can just be praying for her and we'll pray for her at the end tonight as well.

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Because this person has some views that are a little different than how we communicate

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in last year single.

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And so we're, we're asking God to really move and, and do something really great with this

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podcast.

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So God is opening doors.

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We've been praying for this for years.

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You all, and Jackie's been doing things for a long time, but significant, like for those

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that are a little newer to our community, we've been praying for three to four years

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for some of these doors that are opening now, um, to open.

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And so want y'all to know, like our prayers make a difference.

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We're seeing more men come into our program.

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There's just a lot of good stuff happening.

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So I don't know about you all, but when a lot of good stuff is happening, the enemy

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tries to bring in a lot of negativity.

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So we got a war against that stuff and keep, um, any kind of division or negative thinking

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away.

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That's my last housekeeping thing.

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It's so good to see everyone tonight.

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And looking super sharp there in your suit.

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Very, very nice.

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Love it.

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Beautiful ladies, turning your cameras on.

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I love to see you all gentlemen.

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If you're onto, would love to see some of you, um, I'm pretty big on, if you can turn

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your camera on.

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Um, there's just something about when I'm coaching a room of people while, while it

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is a computer that we're seeing each other through, I am a firm believer that community

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and connection really, man, it increases when we can see each other.

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So father, thank you so much for just everything that you're already doing, God.

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We thank you that you create atmosphere though.

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Some of us are miles and miles and miles apart, God, that in the spirit, we are one and we

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are close to each other.

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God, we thank you for revelations that are going to happen tonight.

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We thank you for revealing, uh, for healing happening.

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Lord, that anything in darkness would be brought to the light that you would even connect dots

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for people when they haven't understood why they've been having certain types of thoughts

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or things that have really caused them to be stuck in.

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They've tried to move forward and they don't know why they still are struggling to move

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God, we thank you for a supernatural grace and empowerment tonight.

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And endowment from power on heaven.

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that dunamis power just to come in, in everyone's home

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that you would help them to hear what your spirit is saying.

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God, I thank you that you give me the opportunity

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to be here tonight.

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Thank you for helping me to be a vessel

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that you can flow through.

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So help me to hear what your spirit is saying

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and convey that to your sons and your daughters,

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my brothers and sisters.

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I thank you God for not only just the teaching time

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and just bringing that truth be God,

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the people that might get into the hard work seat,

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the people that may confess

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and all the things that we believe

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that you wanna do tonight.

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So Lord, we just thank you for courage.

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We thank you for love.

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We thank you for truth.

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And then, yeah, I just don't wanna forget Father,

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just protect every mind, heart, body, spirit and soul

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from any spirits of shame, guilt and condemnation

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on any level.

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God, we thank you for freedom.

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Yes, and where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom

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and the captives are set free.

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In Jesus name, amen.

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Amen, amen you all.

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So if you saw my post about tonight,

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I'm just gonna give you a quick overview

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and then we're gonna get right into the content.

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I really don't wanna take a ton of time for content,

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but I did feel led to give some actual examples

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of some things here in a little bit.

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So I wanna do that.

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And then we're gonna have a time of confession tonight

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and I'll tell you exactly what that's gonna be about.

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And then after that, if time allows,

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we're gonna open the heartwork seat.

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You all know what love seats are.

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I think most of you, if you're brand new,

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it's similar to love seat,

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but instead of you getting advice on your love relationship,

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unless it's connected to heartwork, okay?

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That can be the caveat.

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We're gonna do heartwork coaching

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in the group setting tonight, all right?

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All right, so in that post,

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these were some of the things I just wanna kind of get you

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like in the right spirit and your right heart,

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just be thinking about these things.

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Tonight, some of the things we want to break out of.

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We wanna break through stubborn areas

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of spiritual stagnation, okay?

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So that means like maybe you're going to church

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and you're just kind of going through the ritual,

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but you're not feeling that love relationship with the Lord.

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It can come from a lot of different reasons.

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Maybe you're just not feeling even a desire to serve

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or whatever that might look like.

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Next one, find freedom from religious OCD and perfectionism.

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That can be a very big hindrance to a lot of people,

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even in your dating relationships.

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Some of you, that religious OCD is showing up

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and it's actually causing you to not even consider someone

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because they're a denomination

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that you're not familiar with

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or you have a religious judgmental mindset about it.

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And y'all, I was there, I was.

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Years ago, I almost did not date Brian

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because of his denomination.

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Praise the Lord that Jackie talked to me

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and the Lord convicted me and I allowed my heart to open

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where I would have missed out on somebody pretty amazing.

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Y'all, he's changed my life.

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All right, quiet intrusive thoughts

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that drive you into isolation.

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We want to apply the hard work principles

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to our specific spiritual challenges.

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So where are we not only having challenges in our life,

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but spiritually, where are you having challenges happen?

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Are any of you going around the same mountain

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over and over and over,

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and you're struggling to break free

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from some kind of stronghold?

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That would fall into that same category, okay?

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And then identify wounds

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that keep you trapped in negative patterns, okay?

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All right, so I want to do a refresh, just a real quick.

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This is not going to do Jackie's

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Supernatural Saturday justice by any means.

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If you haven't heard it from Saturday, please listen to it.

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Everything that I'm going to say right now

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is going to make a lot more sense

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if you hear what she was teaching.

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But I want to pull out just a couple things

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that she said on that Supernatural Saturday

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that pertain to where we're going tonight.

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And so this next part is actually Jackie talking.

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I literally took her notes and wrote them down.

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back when she first started her discipleship journey,

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and she was having all kinds of intrusive thoughts

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and obsessive thoughts, okay?

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So I'm going to explain what intrusive thoughts are

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here in a minute for those of you

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that might not even know what that means.

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And if you don't, it's totally fine

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because we're all in different places

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on our journey with the Lord

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and even understanding what some of the lingo is.

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And so I just want everyone to understand.

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It's okay if you don't know.

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Jackie feels the same way.

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We would rather you all ask a question.

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You're not going to look dumb ever, okay?

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So ask in the groups, ask us what,

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if we're teaching about something,

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coaching about something, and you're like,

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I have no clue what any of that meant

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because it's hard to understand

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how to apply it to your heart work

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if you don't know what it means, okay?

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But I am going to explain that a little bit here tonight,

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but also the obsessive thoughts.

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So over and over and over and over,

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we're thinking these kind of obsessive thoughts.

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There's something that we're really like struggling.

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Like I led prayer the other day and some.

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Someone was saying, like, just always feeling like they had to defend themselves.

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Y'all, that's, that's an obsessive thought, where you feel like you always have to defend

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yourself to everybody and prove yourself, you know, and not that this person said this,

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but this is just coming up in my spirit.

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I feel like the enemy is really big on trying to get us to always prove ourselves to people.

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That comes from insecurity and not being secure and confident in who we are in Christ.

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So we need to understand that offset there, okay, but it can also come from things that

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people have said to us in the past that we actually still are not healed from.

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So Jackie goes on.

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She said, I had what I call religious OCD.

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I was worried that I wasn't enough and that God wasn't happy with me.

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And so if those are types of thoughts that you're having as well, y'all, those are, those

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are intrusive, obsessive types of thoughts.

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She had so much anxiety about what was appropriate to wear to church, what kind of clothes, what,

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you know, what she had to buy.

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And she was telling the story about, you know, fitting in, in the church and having to get

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And then as soon as she got these two suits, then she started feeling like she had to give

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This is what she said.

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If I liked it, if it made me feel good, if it made me happy, then I couldn't have it.

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I need to give it away.

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It made me feel, if it made me feel comfortable, then I had to let it go.

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Y'all, sometimes the enemy is really busy trying to convince you all that you're not

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even allowed to be happy in a relationship or, you know, be happy going to a church or

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be happy having fun because you should be doing something religious instead and spiritual

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because you know, you're only spiritual.

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I don't know if y'all ever heard anything like this, but in my church years ago, they

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used to say the people that want the meat are here on Sundays at nighttime in addition

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to the morning time.

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You know, so let's, let's kind of even be open to what is the Lord trying to reveal

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to us even in that regard where there's messaging that we've heard people say to us through

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religion that is now still causing us to do things that the Lord may not even be asking

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us to do.

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I know for a fact in this last week, not even just in this community, but even outside of

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this community, the Lord has led me to say to people five different times.

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The Lord is saying, it's time for you to have fun.

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What what do you like to do to have fun?

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Do you know that out of those five people, none of them knew what they even like to do

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for fun.

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There's no shame in this y'all I'm mentioning it because I believe this is the opposite

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side of the religious OCD, the religious thoughts and these other intrusive thoughts like it

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steals our joy and it literally robs us of even knowing how to have fun.

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God is fun.

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So let's get on that track with him because he's funny.

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He likes to use all different kinds of ways to talk to us.

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And yeah, it's time for us to get into the fun seat with him because it's a lot better

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than being religious and guess what?

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More people are attracted to God's fun side than the religion of the world.

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I'm going to keep going.

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If you always feel condemned, this is something she was saying.

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She was always feeling condemned, always felt like it was vain for her to want nice things,

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have nice things.

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And if she wanted those things, then there was something wrong with her.

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So the encouragement tonight and this week, as you all are continuing to unpack all of

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this is stop rejecting yourself because you're not fitting into some kind of mold that you

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think you have to fit into to please God, to find a guy or a woman, this whole idea

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of what you're supposed to do.

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Now obviously I'm not talking about what we're recommending in the guidelines of this program.

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Right now I'm talking about religion.

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And this whole thing that the enemy uses to cause us to feel like we're never enough or

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we're too much.

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Those are two of the biggest lies that people battle when I'm doing heartwork with them.

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And even in myself, that was, it was always the one or the other.

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You're too much.

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You're not enough.

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You're too much.

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It was back and forth, back and forth.

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But the more that I grew in my relationship with Jesus Christ and my identity in him,

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as well as knowing his character, y'all, I talk about this all the time, but I say it

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often because those, those three things were pivotal to the transformation and the healing

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in my heart and even being ready to receive the heartwork.

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All right.

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So are you someone that beats yourself up a lot?

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Let's see your hands.

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Who, who can relate with that?

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Like you just really struggle.

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Raise your digital hand for me so I can see you.

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You struggle with beating yourself up a lot.

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All right. Awesome. So those of you that raised your hand where you really struggle with beating yourself up a lot,

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will you put into the chat for me, like, what do you tend to beat yourself up about the most?

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And it doesn't have to be a long paragraph. It can just be like a little blurb or two words or one word,

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whatever represents that for you, where this is what you tend to beat yourself up about.

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Put that in the chat for me so we can see that there. All right. I'm going to put these hands down.

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Thank you for jumping in and participating there. All right.

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So keep these in mind. I'm having you put them here in the chat. I have one.

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I'm going to read a couple of these. How they look. Not being enough.

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Not amounting to enough. Making mistakes. What others are thinking of me. Things I've said.

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We're going to touch on a lot of these here in a little bit. I'm boring.

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Which, Monica, that is a lie from from the pit of hell.

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So let's come out of alignment with that, because I think you're probably actually really fun.

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And the enemy is just trying to, like, squash that in you. Nobody wants you.

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You're not good enough. You're too much. So wait. I see wait in here.

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Making mistakes. Not doing it right. Not saying the right thing.

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All right. So a lot of different aspects about not being right about something.

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Could have, should have. That's very similar. Could have done it this way.

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Should have done it that way. All that. Eating unhealthy. Not enough. Not getting it right.

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Wait. Make the most of my life. Okay. So I'm not going to be able to read through all these,

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but keep putting them in there for me. And we'll try to look these over,

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because we're going to be praying for you all as a community regarding what we're doing tonight.

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All right. I want to really encourage you all, as we start to kind of take a little shift now

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from what Jackie was talking about on Saturday, that you don't have to worry about doing things perfectly.

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Like tonight could literally be a night where you decide, okay,

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I'm really going to choose to receive grace and understand that I don't have to be perfect.

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There's one perfect one, and his name was Jesus Christ. We don't have to strive for perfection.

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Y'all, when we have grace and we just like learn to relax and have fun,

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life in general ends up going a lot smoother, including the journey to meeting your spirit mate.

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All right. I'm going to read just a blurb from the heart work book,

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and then I'm going to start to talk about the intrusive thoughts,

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so that can educate you all a little bit on some of those.

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And I'm not going to give an exhaustive list of intrusive thoughts.

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There's so many, you all. There's so many, but I am going to give some examples tonight.

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But I felt led to read this little part from the book, from the heart work book.

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If you have the physical book, it's in page 69.

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If you don't have the physical book, I'm sorry. I don't know what the e-book page is.

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Lies disguised as problem areas.

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How can one area of our life be pretty good and another area be a total disaster?

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Remember I said we become the sum total of all of our experiences.

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The state of your life has everything to do with your experiences and your perception of those experiences.

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So not just the experiences that we have, but our perceptions of the experiences.

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She goes on. Let me explain.

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Your problem areas are the places you have the most unhealed wounds.

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So remember earlier I mentioned, hey, be thinking about where do you tend to feel stuck the most?

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Where are you, you know, identifying wounds that have kept you trapped because of negative patterns?

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This is kind of why I wanted you to do that.

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This right here. Your problem areas are the places you have the most unhealed wounds.

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These unhealed wounds that are harboring fears, lies, and false narratives create havoc in that area of your life as they mature and manifest through emotions like shame, guilt, unworthiness, and fear.

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Now it goes on, but that's all I felt led to read.

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Y'all definitely check it out.

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I cannot say enough, like not that y'all have to constantly be in the intensive heart care unit, but revisiting the heart work, whether it's videos, the book.

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I think I watched the soul ties video like four times when I was just going through my journey, because every time I heard something different from the Lord.

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And so definitely recommend that.

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And it could be any of the videos you all, but just that one stands out in my mind to me.

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If you've gone through divorce, I would recommend listening to that session a couple of times as well, because there's so much in society that is not true.

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So getting the truth in us so that we can really stand up against the lies is very, very important.

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So I'm going to give you again, a couple types of common types of intrusive thoughts.

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Now, again, this is not an exhaustive list.

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So don't hold me like, oh, there's this and that.

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Y'all, these are the ones that God told me to talk to you all about tonight.

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But first, I want you to understand intrusive thoughts are unwanted involuntary thoughts.

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Images or urges that can cause you distress.

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Let's say you're going about your merry way, maybe you're having a great time, and all

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of a sudden, I don't know if any of y'all have ever been through this, but if you've

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been in a relationship before where you had sex before marriage, or it was a different

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relationship that you were in, even if it was marriage, and you're happy down the road,

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and all of a sudden you have this thought that comes out of nowhere, and you're like,

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where did that come from?

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I'm not even thinking about this person.

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Yeah, that's an intrusive thought.

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Okay, I want to give you that example.

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Another one might be just, it could be other types of negativity, and again, I'm going

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to go through these here in a little bit, but it also can be things that we have fears

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about, things that worry us and concern us, and because we worry about them, or maybe

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there was trauma or things that happened, and then because we couldn't control those

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situations, we developed what we call in society today OCD in different ways.

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All of that kind of stuff can come and stem out of wounds and trauma that we've gone through,

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and that's the same thing that is true about these intrusive thoughts.

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So again, intrusive thoughts are unwanted, involuntary thoughts, images, or urges that

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can cause distress.

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Having intrusive thoughts doesn't mean you want to act on them, okay?

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The reason I feel like it's important to tell you all that is because I think the enemy

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is beating people up because you're feeling like you're a bad Christian or you're not

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spiritual enough because you're having thoughts like this, and that isn't true.

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The enemy is actually attacking you, and these are revealings for healing that are happening.

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When these intrusive thoughts come up, it can show us areas where we might need a little

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more healing.

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We might need to be set free and delivered from the things that are causing those thoughts

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to enter our minds, but sometimes there's nothing that we're doing to cause it, okay?

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So I want to emphasize that, all right?

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All right, so we want to recognize the patterns of these thoughts because once we recognize

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the patterns, that's when we can go to the Lord and ask for His help, and then as He's

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healing us, guess what, y'all?

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They're going to lose their power, okay?

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All right, so here are some of the categories.

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I'm going to give you the categories first, and then I'm going to give you examples in

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all of them.

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All right, health concerns.

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I'm going to try to go through these slow enough so my amazing Aaron Joy is helping

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me out doing notes in the chat there.

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Thank you, Aaron Joy.

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Health concerns, unwanted sexual thoughts, religious and or moral thoughts, perfectionism

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and or mistakes.

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Those are the categories that I'm going to cover a little bit tonight.

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Again, those are health concerns.

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She got them all, and perfectionism and mistakes.

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That's awesome.

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Okay, they're in the chat for you all, so you can grab them from there.

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All right, now I'm going to go through each one and give you some, I'm going to tell you

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kind of like an example as far as like high level, but then I'm going to give you an example

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of how it might show up in your mind.

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Does that make sense, everyone?

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So let's say you might have, and again, there's so many more, but these are the ones I put

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together for tonight, intrusive thoughts about health concerns.

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They might show up like this, excessive worries about germs, disease or contamination.

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Your thought might be something like this.

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You might walk into a public restroom and think every surface here is covered in dangerous

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bacteria that could make me severely ill.

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And not that all of you have these things, but there are some people that have had, I

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mean, they've been sick a long time and they've been battling physically, or they saw parents

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battling physically most of their life as children and all that.

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And so the enemy, because of that pain and the things they've been through, these are

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some of the ways the enemy will war against their minds, okay?

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Here's another one.

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Thoughts about, this is kind of the theme, the overarching theme.

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Thoughts about contracting serious illnesses from everyday activities.

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So excessive worries about germs, disease or contamination, and then thoughts about

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contracting serious illnesses from everyday activities.

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So this might sound like in your mind, feeling a minor twinge in your chest and thinking,

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this must be the beginning of a heart attack.

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Experiencing a headache and immediately thinking, what if this is a brain tumor?

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Experiencing a new freckle and obsessing, this could be melanoma, and by the time I

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get it checked, it might be too late.

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Y'all, it's good for us to be careful, but understand if these are thoughts that you

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have on a regular basis, those are considered intrusive thoughts that are taking up resonance

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in your mind.

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Unwanted sexual thoughts.

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You might have unwanted sexual.

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imagery that contradicts personal values.

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So it could show up in, I give you,

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I'm giving you all two examples tonight.

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And again, this is a really big topic

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and I didn't wanna go too far into this tonight

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cause it could get, it could get really tough

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with a combined co-ed group.

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So I think what we'll do is we'll unpack

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the unwanted sexual thoughts more in depth

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when it's the men with the men

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and the women with the women.

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Everyone cool on that?

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But I do wanna give you a couple so that you have them.

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All right, having intrusive sexual thoughts

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about someone you find inappropriate,

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like a teacher, religious figure, or a family member

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and thinking what kind of person am I

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to have these thoughts?

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having unwanted sexual imagery pop into your mind

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and thinking I'm desecrating something sacred

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with my horrible mind.

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Again, you're kind of like when we do that,

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we're owning as if every single thought

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that comes in our head is ours.

474
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And they're not all ours.

475
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Remember you all, we need to ask the Lord,

476
00:26:02.380 --> 00:26:03.620
God, is this my thought?

477
00:26:03.620 --> 00:26:04.620
Is this your thought?

478
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Or is this a thought from the enemy?

479
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That's one of the ways where you can continue

480
00:26:08.900 --> 00:26:10.900
to unpack the thoughts that you're having

481
00:26:10.900 --> 00:26:13.820
and understand, okay, wait a minute.

482
00:26:13.820 --> 00:26:17.140
Like, yeah, that thought came in my mind,

483
00:26:17.140 --> 00:26:19.540
but that thought didn't originate from my heart.

484
00:26:19.540 --> 00:26:22.340
I'm here worshiping the Lord

485
00:26:22.340 --> 00:26:24.980
and the enemy is trying to attack my mind.

486
00:26:24.980 --> 00:26:27.380
Y'all that happens all the time.

487
00:26:27.380 --> 00:26:28.660
It happens all the time.

488
00:26:28.660 --> 00:26:31.860
All right, so you are not a bad person.

489
00:26:31.860 --> 00:26:34.180
You don't have a horrible mind.

490
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If you need healing that is causing you

491
00:26:36.500 --> 00:26:38.500
to have thoughts like that on a regular basis,

492
00:26:38.500 --> 00:26:41.260
then you should reach out and we can work on that with you.

493
00:26:41.260 --> 00:26:43.100
But if you're literally,

494
00:26:43.100 --> 00:26:44.980
you're in a service or something like that,

495
00:26:44.980 --> 00:26:46.300
and it just comes out of nowhere,

496
00:26:46.300 --> 00:26:49.220
y'all, that's how you can recognize that's from the enemy.

497
00:26:49.220 --> 00:26:50.940
He's attacking your mind.

498
00:26:50.940 --> 00:26:54.620
All right, next one, religious and or moral.

499
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So you could have obsessive doubts

500
00:26:56.540 --> 00:26:59.380
about whether you've acted ethically.

501
00:27:00.660 --> 00:27:03.540
These are some of the ways that this can show up.

502
00:27:03.540 --> 00:27:05.780
And we talked about religious a little bit already.

503
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So this is kind of an addition to that.

504
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From the examples that Jackie gave

505
00:27:09.420 --> 00:27:12.060
to now I'm giving you some additional examples.

506
00:27:12.060 --> 00:27:14.580
After a store clerk gives you too much change,

507
00:27:14.580 --> 00:27:16.460
if you think something like,

508
00:27:16.460 --> 00:27:19.420
if I don't go back right now, I'm a thief.

509
00:27:19.420 --> 00:27:20.740
What if that person gets fired

510
00:27:20.740 --> 00:27:22.240
because their register is off?

511
00:27:22.240 --> 00:27:24.580
So like, you're just really like,

512
00:27:24.580 --> 00:27:26.740
feel like any little thing that happens

513
00:27:26.740 --> 00:27:28.180
that it's your fault.

514
00:27:28.180 --> 00:27:31.460
Y'all understand that's kind of the underlying thing there.

515
00:27:31.460 --> 00:27:33.140
Here's another one, donating to charity

516
00:27:33.140 --> 00:27:35.220
and then thinking, did I give enough?

517
00:27:35.220 --> 00:27:37.860
A truly good person would have given more.

518
00:27:37.860 --> 00:27:41.600
So again, you see that underlying, it's never enough.

519
00:27:41.600 --> 00:27:43.100
You're never enough.

520
00:27:43.100 --> 00:27:44.620
You just went and gave,

521
00:27:44.620 --> 00:27:46.440
yet the enemy is trying to convince you

522
00:27:46.440 --> 00:27:48.940
that what you did isn't good enough.

523
00:27:48.940 --> 00:27:51.580
Somebody better would have done this, okay?

524
00:27:52.420 --> 00:27:55.380
Walking past someone asking for help

525
00:27:55.380 --> 00:27:57.900
and thinking I'm fundamentally selfish

526
00:27:57.900 --> 00:28:01.620
and failing as a human because I didn't stop to help them.

527
00:28:02.740 --> 00:28:04.940
Okay, and you know, we see the example

528
00:28:04.940 --> 00:28:07.380
in the Bible of the Good Samaritan and that's amazing.

529
00:28:07.380 --> 00:28:10.140
And we know that the religious people pass that guy by.

530
00:28:10.140 --> 00:28:13.460
And this is where I believe the spirit of religion

531
00:28:13.460 --> 00:28:15.680
attacks us through stuff like this.

532
00:28:15.680 --> 00:28:20.680
Y'all, that doesn't mean that if you're not able to stop,

533
00:28:21.660 --> 00:28:24.620
that you're a bad person or that you're religious

534
00:28:24.620 --> 00:28:25.980
or that you don't care.

535
00:28:25.980 --> 00:28:28.820
I do think sometimes we do need to listen

536
00:28:28.820 --> 00:28:30.300
to the Holy Spirit and stop.

537
00:28:30.300 --> 00:28:32.800
But if you're beating yourself up over that

538
00:28:32.800 --> 00:28:34.660
on a regular basis or not feeling enough,

539
00:28:34.660 --> 00:28:37.700
and again, y'all, it could be totally different examples,

540
00:28:37.700 --> 00:28:39.340
but I'm hoping this is getting you to think

541
00:28:39.340 --> 00:28:41.660
about some things and recognize thoughts

542
00:28:41.660 --> 00:28:42.620
that you're having.

543
00:28:42.620 --> 00:28:44.900
Okay, perfectionism and or mistakes.

544
00:28:46.460 --> 00:28:49.020
What if I made a terrible mistake?

545
00:28:49.020 --> 00:28:50.940
So that's kind of the overarching,

546
00:28:51.220 --> 00:28:53.620
what if I just made a terrible mistake?

547
00:28:53.620 --> 00:28:55.620
Thoughts that go with that might sound

548
00:28:55.620 --> 00:28:59.340
like these two examples or again, other things as well.

549
00:28:59.340 --> 00:29:02.100
After making a major purchase, you think,

550
00:29:02.100 --> 00:29:05.660
what if this was the wrong choice and I've wasted money

551
00:29:05.660 --> 00:29:08.320
we needed for something more important?

552
00:29:08.320 --> 00:29:11.420
So again, there's just this undergirding

553
00:29:11.420 --> 00:29:13.440
where the enemy's always trying to chip it away

554
00:29:13.440 --> 00:29:15.940
at your confidence, chip away at your confidence.

555
00:29:15.940 --> 00:29:20.080
So maybe for the guys, maybe you just took someone

556
00:29:20.120 --> 00:29:22.440
on a really nice date and the first thing,

557
00:29:22.440 --> 00:29:24.240
the enemy's coming in like, you should have done this,

558
00:29:24.240 --> 00:29:25.280
you should have done that.

559
00:29:25.280 --> 00:29:28.360
Like nothing is ever enough, okay?

560
00:29:28.360 --> 00:29:31.240
Another one here, after giving advice to a friend,

561
00:29:31.240 --> 00:29:33.720
what if my guidance leads them to make a decision

562
00:29:33.720 --> 00:29:35.260
that ruins their life?

563
00:29:39.120 --> 00:29:41.160
Y'all, I know this sounds like such a big thing,

564
00:29:41.160 --> 00:29:43.680
but there are people that actually think things like this.

565
00:29:43.680 --> 00:29:47.360
Like they're afraid to even give their friend advice

566
00:29:47.360 --> 00:29:49.280
or be there to support their friend

567
00:29:49.280 --> 00:29:52.100
because if they say the wrong thing,

568
00:29:52.100 --> 00:29:53.660
they're afraid that like,

569
00:29:53.660 --> 00:29:55.800
let's just unpack this for a minute.

570
00:29:56.720 --> 00:29:59.980
Y'all, that kind of leads to savior syndrome.

571
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:09.600
Do you know what I mean by that? Everyone? Yes, no, yes? Savior syndrome is the time

572
00:30:09.600 --> 00:30:19.140
and place when we shift into thinking that we can save people or cause them to ruin their

573
00:30:19.140 --> 00:30:24.120
life or not. Y'all, there's one Savior, and His name is Jesus Christ, and He's the one

574
00:30:24.120 --> 00:30:29.100
that can lead their life. And, you know, hey, let's just look at it like this. We don't

575
00:30:29.100 --> 00:30:32.780
have to even give our friends, like, hey, you should do this. Hey, you should do that.

576
00:30:32.780 --> 00:30:41.200
But we could say, hey, what is the Lord saying to you about this? Do you see how that kind

577
00:30:41.200 --> 00:30:46.580
of shifts all that responsibility off of us having to give people advice? Yeah. And so

578
00:30:46.580 --> 00:30:50.860
we're going to practice that tonight here in a little bit, too. When we do the confession

579
00:30:50.860 --> 00:30:56.100
time, nobody has to give any advice or anything like that. But we are going to hear people

580
00:30:56.100 --> 00:30:59.540
say, well, I am going to finish this last part, but I just thought that would be a good

581
00:30:59.540 --> 00:31:07.180
time to mention that as well. Maybe you are someone that replays past conversations or

582
00:31:07.180 --> 00:31:13.340
actions to check for errors. So I do that sometimes. Sometimes I send people a text

583
00:31:13.340 --> 00:31:18.980
and then I read it again, or I've done a post on Facebook and that, you know, autocorrect

584
00:31:18.980 --> 00:31:22.900
isn't always my friend. I don't know about you all, but sometimes autocorrect, I'm like,

585
00:31:22.900 --> 00:31:28.060
what the heck? Why did it say that? Now that's kind of lighthearted and a little different,

586
00:31:28.060 --> 00:31:31.940
but sometimes people like obsessed and they look at it and look at it. And I should have

587
00:31:31.940 --> 00:31:35.900
said this and I should have said that. And oh my gosh, what if they, what if they get

588
00:31:35.900 --> 00:31:41.900
offended at what I said? And you know, all of that kind of stuff, that all goes in alignment

589
00:31:41.900 --> 00:31:47.340
with this replaying past conversation conversations or actions to check for errors. So some other

590
00:31:47.340 --> 00:31:51.460
examples, lying awake at night, mentally reviewing a meeting from earlier thinking, did I say

591
00:31:51.460 --> 00:31:56.940
something offensive without realizing it? It could also be not even a meeting at work.

592
00:31:56.940 --> 00:32:01.320
Maybe it's a conversation you had with a friend where you're just, you're just panicked over

593
00:32:01.320 --> 00:32:06.500
this situation and dynamic. And that's, those are intrusive thoughts. You all, the enemy

594
00:32:06.500 --> 00:32:11.340
is trying to steal people's peace. Repeatedly checking sent emails or texts, which kind

595
00:32:11.340 --> 00:32:17.620
of goes with what I was saying to see if there were typos or if your tone could be misinterpreted.

596
00:32:17.620 --> 00:32:23.300
After a social gathering, analyzing every interaction. When I made that joke, did everyone

597
00:32:23.300 --> 00:32:28.980
think I was being insensitive? Did people think I was funny? You know, all that kind

598
00:32:28.980 --> 00:32:33.340
of stuff. So we're coming out of insecurity tonight. I don't know if y'all understand

599
00:32:33.340 --> 00:32:38.180
that that's some of what we're going to be doing as we release these intrusive thoughts.

600
00:32:38.180 --> 00:32:42.900
We're going to release insecurities that come from them as well. One of the things Jackie

601
00:32:42.900 --> 00:32:48.660
also said on Saturday that I thought was really important, out of mind doesn't mean

602
00:32:48.660 --> 00:32:54.300
out of heart. So I'm going to give you some scriptures that can help you regarding the

603
00:32:54.300 --> 00:32:58.980
intrusive thoughts, but I don't want you to think that I just believe that we can always

604
00:32:58.980 --> 00:33:03.980
just quote a scripture and it will just go right away. Now I do believe, because I've

605
00:33:03.980 --> 00:33:08.780
experienced it, that when the enemy is warring against me, if I start worshiping and I just

606
00:33:08.780 --> 00:33:13.980
keep worshiping and worshiping, or I've even just got my Bible out and started reading

607
00:33:13.980 --> 00:33:19.900
scripture out loud, well the enemy can't, like I can't hear him while I'm speaking or

608
00:33:19.900 --> 00:33:25.460
worshiping at the same time. So if you do have a lot of struggle with thoughts or things

609
00:33:25.460 --> 00:33:32.900
like this, worship is warfare, you all. It really is, and it can help you. But I want

610
00:33:32.900 --> 00:33:38.300
you to understand that I also think it's so important for you to know that the more that

611
00:33:38.300 --> 00:33:46.220
your heart heals, the more freedom you're going to get over the intrusive thoughts.

612
00:33:46.220 --> 00:33:49.660
You're going to get revelation on where did these things enter. So that's what I want

613
00:33:49.660 --> 00:33:54.940
you to also be thinking about. So I've stirred up some thoughts about intrusive thoughts.

614
00:33:54.940 --> 00:33:58.740
I want you to be asking the Lord if there were any intrusive thoughts that came to your

615
00:33:58.740 --> 00:34:02.700
mind that really are, they plague you and they're just things that you're really warring

616
00:34:02.700 --> 00:34:08.100
against, I want you to start asking the Lord as I'm continuing through this content, Lord

617
00:34:08.100 --> 00:34:13.699
when did this, when did this start for me? When was the first time I had this intrusive

618
00:34:13.699 --> 00:34:20.540
thought? And if you have multiple you all, I would do that with every single one of them.

619
00:34:20.540 --> 00:34:24.199
Because we need to get to the root of the problem. Remember heart work? We want to get

620
00:34:24.199 --> 00:34:31.620
to the root. What was the wound or trauma that we went through that opened the door

621
00:34:31.620 --> 00:34:43.219
for us to believe that lie or hear that thought and partner with it? Okay. Yeah. Yeah, Hunter,

622
00:34:43.219 --> 00:34:50.340
I see you. I hear you. Sometimes they can feel on repeat, but the more that we heal

623
00:34:50.340 --> 00:34:55.420
genuinely they will and can get better. Now we'll tell you another thing that just came

624
00:34:55.420 --> 00:34:59.980
to mind reading his comment. You all, isolation is a.

625
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.200
other tactic of the enemy, and he wants to try to push people into isolation.

626
00:35:04.400 --> 00:35:08.040
That's why we also are so big in last year, single talking about

627
00:35:08.040 --> 00:35:12.000
come into community, come in and do a post, come in and get coaching, connect

628
00:35:12.200 --> 00:35:16.200
with what we're saying, stay in alignment with the program.

629
00:35:16.400 --> 00:35:20.920
Let us coach you, because if you're in the community, if you're talking,

630
00:35:21.120 --> 00:35:23.960
if you're coming and bringing things to the light, guess what?

631
00:35:23.960 --> 00:35:31.040
Darkness has to flee and like community can help you gain strength.

632
00:35:31.800 --> 00:35:35.720
We want to be stronger together, we're better together, we're stronger together.

633
00:35:35.920 --> 00:35:38.920
Isolation, too, can turn into idleness.

634
00:35:39.120 --> 00:35:40.000
You're right.

635
00:35:40.200 --> 00:35:43.880
And oftentimes when we're in isolation, those thoughts are going to come in more.

636
00:35:43.880 --> 00:35:44.200
All right.

637
00:35:44.200 --> 00:35:46.360
So I'm going to give you the scriptures next.

638
00:35:46.560 --> 00:35:49.440
These are just a couple that I pulled together.

639
00:35:49.640 --> 00:35:51.400
Y'all probably have heard them before,

640
00:35:51.400 --> 00:35:57.160
but again, let's let's almost like, Lord, help us to hear these with new ears tonight.

641
00:35:57.360 --> 00:35:59.920
Help us to see something we haven't seen before.

642
00:36:00.120 --> 00:36:01.000
In Jesus name.

643
00:36:01.200 --> 00:36:06.240
Second Corinthians ten, five and NIV says this.

644
00:36:06.440 --> 00:36:08.600
We demolish arguments and every

645
00:36:08.600 --> 00:36:11.480
pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God,

646
00:36:11.680 --> 00:36:15.960
and we take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ.

647
00:36:16.160 --> 00:36:17.880
Y'all, a lot of times I pray,

648
00:36:17.880 --> 00:36:21.520
God, help me to quickly take every thought captive because I don't like

649
00:36:21.720 --> 00:36:24.000
I don't like thinking about things for a long time.

650
00:36:24.000 --> 00:36:25.480
So I want to try to catch it quick.

651
00:36:25.680 --> 00:36:28.800
I don't always, but it does help me

652
00:36:29.000 --> 00:36:30.680
really pay attention to those thoughts.

653
00:36:30.880 --> 00:36:35.000
Isaiah 26, three in the ESV version says this.

654
00:36:35.200 --> 00:36:37.520
You keep him in perfect peace,

655
00:36:37.720 --> 00:36:43.320
whose mind is stayed on you because he trusts in you.

656
00:36:43.560 --> 00:36:47.440
Second, Timothy one, seven, for God has not given us a spirit of fear,

657
00:36:47.480 --> 00:36:50.720
but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

658
00:36:50.920 --> 00:36:53.800
That's New King James version there.

659
00:36:55.040 --> 00:36:58.000
First, Peter, five, seven, and NIV says,

660
00:36:58.200 --> 00:37:03.600
cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

661
00:37:03.880 --> 00:37:06.160
Psalm ninety four, nineteen and the NLT

662
00:37:06.360 --> 00:37:11.400
version says, when doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer.

663
00:37:11.600 --> 00:37:12.560
I loved that.

664
00:37:12.560 --> 00:37:17.400
I love all these scriptures, but that one really resonated for me tonight.

665
00:37:17.600 --> 00:37:20.720
So I'm so I'm ninety four, nineteen, I'm going to say that one again.

666
00:37:20.920 --> 00:37:28.440
NLT, when doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer.

667
00:37:28.640 --> 00:37:34.520
Psalm 139, verse twenty three and twenty four in the NIV says this.

668
00:37:34.720 --> 00:37:39.520
Search me, God, and know my heart, test me and know my anxious thoughts,

669
00:37:39.720 --> 00:37:46.280
see if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.

670
00:37:46.520 --> 00:37:49.560
That's also been one of my one of my favorite scriptures.

671
00:37:49.760 --> 00:37:51.960
And also, I don't remember where it's at,

672
00:37:51.960 --> 00:37:55.360
but what comes to mind is Psalm fifty one, where it actually is very similar,

673
00:37:55.560 --> 00:38:00.080
but created me a clean heart of God and renew a steadfast spirit in me.

674
00:38:00.280 --> 00:38:04.120
I might say something else, but that's what's coming to mind right now.

675
00:38:04.320 --> 00:38:05.840
All right, so we're going to start to step

676
00:38:06.040 --> 00:38:10.120
into kind of preparing for a time of confession.

677
00:38:10.320 --> 00:38:14.640
And as we do, I want you to be thinking about what is what is the one thing

678
00:38:14.800 --> 00:38:18.160
that you need Jesus to touch and change and transform?

679
00:38:18.360 --> 00:38:19.640
What is that one?

680
00:38:19.840 --> 00:38:21.680
Like start with one intrusive thought

681
00:38:21.880 --> 00:38:25.760
and allow him to come in and minister to you in that area tonight.

682
00:38:25.960 --> 00:38:29.360
What is the one thing that you need to bring to him and say,

683
00:38:29.560 --> 00:38:32.280
I can't do this and I can't do anything with this anymore.

684
00:38:32.480 --> 00:38:34.080
Lord, I need you.

685
00:38:34.280 --> 00:38:35.280
I need your help.

686
00:38:35.480 --> 00:38:39.280
I need you, Jesus, to come in and take care of this for me.

687
00:38:39.480 --> 00:38:43.840
And I also want to encourage you all if you do have intrusive thoughts and things

688
00:38:43.840 --> 00:38:47.160
that you're still like really battling, even after sessions like this,

689
00:38:47.360 --> 00:38:51.400
to write those intrusive thoughts out and put them on your Jesus cares board.

690
00:38:51.600 --> 00:38:54.840
And if you have kids around that, you don't want them to read it.

691
00:38:55.040 --> 00:38:58.720
I had someone once they created I don't even remember who who it was.

692
00:38:58.720 --> 00:39:00.320
And you might be on this session tonight.

693
00:39:00.520 --> 00:39:05.120
But they created this little box that they like pin to their board.

694
00:39:05.320 --> 00:39:07.520
But the thing that they were casting

695
00:39:07.520 --> 00:39:10.800
onto their board that they didn't want their kids to see was inside the box.

696
00:39:11.000 --> 00:39:13.280
I thought that was such a creative way.

697
00:39:13.440 --> 00:39:15.760
You can always fold it and tape it and that kind of thing.

698
00:39:15.960 --> 00:39:19.800
But the whole goal is to get it off of yourself and onto Jesus.

699
00:39:20.000 --> 00:39:21.040
OK,

700
00:39:21.240 --> 00:39:24.800
James 516 says, therefore, confess your sins to each other and pray

701
00:39:24.800 --> 00:39:26.760
for each other so that you may be healed.

702
00:39:26.960 --> 00:39:30.840
The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.

703
00:39:31.040 --> 00:39:34.680
So this isn't necessarily when we're going to I'm going to do coaching on the

704
00:39:34.880 --> 00:39:39.520
heartwork, but what I'm going to do is I'm going to open up for you all to share.

705
00:39:39.720 --> 00:39:42.720
Anyone that feels led to confess,

706
00:39:42.920 --> 00:39:44.240
what are you confessing?

707
00:39:44.440 --> 00:39:48.600
You're confessing about the intrusive thought that you've been struggling with

708
00:39:48.800 --> 00:39:52.240
and you're saying, and I choose to come out of agreement

709
00:39:52.240 --> 00:39:54.280
and alignment with this intrusive thought tonight.

710
00:39:54.480 --> 00:39:57.440
OK, so we're going to I'm going to open it up.

711
00:39:57.440 --> 00:40:00.040
And normally, especially in this kind of an environment.

712
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:02.520
and it takes one or two to get us going

713
00:40:02.520 --> 00:40:04.320
and then other people, you know,

714
00:40:04.320 --> 00:40:05.520
will get some courage too.

715
00:40:05.520 --> 00:40:09.920
So is there anyone that is willing to go first tonight?

716
00:40:11.800 --> 00:40:13.400
Melissa, awesome.

717
00:40:13.400 --> 00:40:14.240
Thank you.

718
00:40:15.420 --> 00:40:16.880
Hey, Bethany.

719
00:40:16.880 --> 00:40:17.720
Hi.

720
00:40:18.600 --> 00:40:21.560
So this is actually something that I've been wrestling with

721
00:40:21.560 --> 00:40:26.240
for the past few weeks before intrusive thoughts

722
00:40:26.240 --> 00:40:28.100
was even brought up on our radar.

723
00:40:29.100 --> 00:40:30.980
And that's about scarcity.

724
00:40:30.980 --> 00:40:34.500
It's really, I think some of the women in here

725
00:40:34.500 --> 00:40:36.160
probably know that I'm pretty tall.

726
00:40:36.160 --> 00:40:37.300
I'm six feet tall.

727
00:40:37.300 --> 00:40:40.460
And I recently had an encounter with a six foot 10 man

728
00:40:40.460 --> 00:40:43.740
who incidentally had a date with one of my shortest friends

729
00:40:43.740 --> 00:40:45.020
who's five foot three.

730
00:40:45.020 --> 00:40:47.300
And that sent me into a spiral of,

731
00:40:47.300 --> 00:40:48.780
oh, it's just proof.

732
00:40:48.780 --> 00:40:50.380
There's not enough tall men.

733
00:40:50.380 --> 00:40:53.180
There's not enough men because now the men that I'm seeing

734
00:40:53.180 --> 00:40:54.740
have to date my friends.

735
00:40:55.580 --> 00:40:58.780
And not only that, but the tall men don't want me.

736
00:40:58.780 --> 00:41:01.740
And so it's become this spiral into a scarcity mindset

737
00:41:01.740 --> 00:41:04.020
of these intrusive thoughts of like,

738
00:41:04.020 --> 00:41:08.380
I could be just walking anywhere and I see a tall man.

739
00:41:08.380 --> 00:41:11.140
Oh, well, he's not even gonna want me.

740
00:41:11.140 --> 00:41:15.780
Or, you know, just seeing a couple together,

741
00:41:15.780 --> 00:41:18.680
like, and thinking to myself,

742
00:41:18.680 --> 00:41:21.380
well, of course he chose her because she's tiny.

743
00:41:21.380 --> 00:41:25.660
And so it's just been like, not even thinking about dating,

744
00:41:25.660 --> 00:41:27.460
not even thinking about my own love story

745
00:41:27.460 --> 00:41:28.740
and out of the blue,

746
00:41:28.740 --> 00:41:32.980
these thoughts just are coming up over the past few weeks.

747
00:41:32.980 --> 00:41:34.540
So that's definitely,

748
00:41:34.540 --> 00:41:37.420
and then it leads me down the rabbit trail of like,

749
00:41:37.420 --> 00:41:38.820
well, no wonder I'm not married.

750
00:41:38.820 --> 00:41:40.240
There's not enough men.

751
00:41:40.240 --> 00:41:42.440
There aren't any tall men for me.

752
00:41:42.440 --> 00:41:43.580
Those sorts of things.

753
00:41:45.500 --> 00:41:47.380
Thank you for sharing.

754
00:41:47.380 --> 00:41:48.540
Powerful.

755
00:41:48.540 --> 00:41:50.140
Not powerful and good that it's happening,

756
00:41:50.140 --> 00:41:51.860
but this is gonna be a powerful night, you all.

757
00:41:51.860 --> 00:41:53.960
Charles, go ahead.

758
00:41:55.140 --> 00:41:58.180
Yeah, so I'm about to be really vulnerable.

759
00:41:58.180 --> 00:42:00.220
Jack literally just had a conversation

760
00:42:00.220 --> 00:42:01.460
with a friend about this.

761
00:42:03.340 --> 00:42:05.540
And he told me to open up, actually.

762
00:42:05.540 --> 00:42:09.860
So there's a longer context to this, but in a nutshell,

763
00:42:10.820 --> 00:42:14.780
I was looking for alternative ways

764
00:42:14.780 --> 00:42:18.420
other than muscle relaxer to like help with back pain.

765
00:42:18.460 --> 00:42:22.860
And I ended up getting a vape, a weed vape,

766
00:42:22.860 --> 00:42:26.520
and low THC, but if you hit it enough,

767
00:42:26.520 --> 00:42:28.380
it becomes higher THC.

768
00:42:28.380 --> 00:42:33.380
And at night you sleep, you know, yeah.

769
00:42:35.620 --> 00:42:38.140
Anyway, that led to, like, that dropped the walls.

770
00:42:38.140 --> 00:42:43.140
Like when, that, you don't care.

771
00:42:44.060 --> 00:42:45.680
Like, it makes you numb.

772
00:42:45.680 --> 00:42:46.520
That's the point.

773
00:42:46.520 --> 00:42:48.220
That's why people do it, you know.

774
00:42:49.020 --> 00:42:52.060
If it's not made this noise, to be numb, right?

775
00:42:52.060 --> 00:42:54.980
And so, like, those intrusive thoughts,

776
00:42:54.980 --> 00:42:57.300
like, I already struggled with them beforehand.

777
00:42:57.300 --> 00:42:58.700
Like, I'm not blaming you on that,

778
00:42:58.700 --> 00:43:03.700
but so anyway, I'm just gonna renounce it.

779
00:43:03.820 --> 00:43:08.420
So I renounce marijuana.

780
00:43:08.420 --> 00:43:13.140
I renounce intrusive thoughts regarding women

781
00:43:13.140 --> 00:43:16.360
and viewing them in a lustful way.

782
00:43:18.220 --> 00:43:23.220
Yeah, that's-

783
00:43:24.860 --> 00:43:26.820
You're doing great, Charles.

784
00:43:26.820 --> 00:43:27.860
Thank you.

785
00:43:27.860 --> 00:43:28.700
You're welcome.

786
00:43:29.820 --> 00:43:34.820
Yeah, I renounce allowing bitter thoughts

787
00:43:36.020 --> 00:43:41.020
toward people who cut me off in conversation.

788
00:43:41.340 --> 00:43:46.340
And, yeah, I'm only speaking for myself.

789
00:43:48.580 --> 00:43:52.420
We just invite you in to heal those places

790
00:43:52.420 --> 00:43:57.420
and to show us where they came from, in Jesus' name.

791
00:43:58.140 --> 00:43:59.460
Amen.

792
00:43:59.460 --> 00:44:00.300
Thank you.

793
00:44:00.300 --> 00:44:01.780
Thank you for your vulnerability.

794
00:44:01.780 --> 00:44:02.860
You're welcome.

795
00:44:02.860 --> 00:44:04.540
Thank you for listening.

796
00:44:04.540 --> 00:44:05.540
My pleasure.

797
00:44:05.540 --> 00:44:06.660
Carrie, go ahead.

798
00:44:06.660 --> 00:44:09.500
Carrie Reed, I should say, so everybody knows.

799
00:44:09.500 --> 00:44:10.980
Thank you.

800
00:44:10.980 --> 00:44:13.620
So this has actually been going on for a while

801
00:44:13.620 --> 00:44:16.340
after the last guy I dated.

802
00:44:16.340 --> 00:44:18.940
The intrusive thought is God doesn't care

803
00:44:18.940 --> 00:44:23.140
about my love life and just trying to digest that

804
00:44:23.140 --> 00:44:27.740
and getting roadblocks with just my love life

805
00:44:27.740 --> 00:44:30.660
and asking God, I have a lot of people asking,

806
00:44:30.660 --> 00:44:34.580
tell me to ask God what to do, and I hear nothing.

807
00:44:34.580 --> 00:44:37.780
And so it's just a, I don't think he cares.

808
00:44:37.780 --> 00:44:39.620
I really don't think he cares at all.

809
00:44:42.340 --> 00:44:43.500
Thank you for sharing.

810
00:44:44.420 --> 00:44:45.660
Don K., go ahead.

811
00:44:46.940 --> 00:44:49.380
Hey, hi, Bethany.

812
00:44:49.380 --> 00:44:50.700
This has been going on for maybe,

813
00:44:50.700 --> 00:44:54.700
my biggest obtrusive thought is you made a mistake.

814
00:44:54.700 --> 00:44:56.540
You dropped out of school.

815
00:44:56.540 --> 00:44:57.580
It's your fault.

816
00:44:57.580 --> 00:44:59.340
You did the wrong things.

817
00:44:59.340 --> 00:45:00.180
You messed up.

818
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.460
And then God didn't come through for you, you know for me dropping out of Bible school has really

819
00:45:05.860 --> 00:45:11.040
Affected me in such a big way, you know, I can't sleep at night. I've been very upset and frustrated

820
00:45:11.940 --> 00:45:18.860
Over the decisions I made of why I left and basically it was because financially I just couldn't handle it

821
00:45:18.860 --> 00:45:22.140
There was no money. There was no finances for it. Everything dried up

822
00:45:22.260 --> 00:45:26.940
And so, you know, it's like you beat I beat myself up over and over like I could have done better

823
00:45:27.120 --> 00:45:33.680
I should have done this. I should have done that and I stay in this period of condemning myself, you know

824
00:45:33.680 --> 00:45:34.980
and then I look at the

825
00:45:34.980 --> 00:45:40.600
Graduation photos and the banquet photos and I just start to cry because I feel like God let me down

826
00:45:40.600 --> 00:45:43.560
I feel like God. Why did you call me to this and you let me down?

827
00:45:43.720 --> 00:45:49.960
So the truth of thought is the mistake thing the religious mindset of going to the Bible school and the mistake

828
00:45:50.080 --> 00:45:55.240
You're not good enough. You won't be good enough and you know, God let you down and you let him down

829
00:45:57.280 --> 00:45:59.280
Thank you for sharing Don

830
00:45:59.760 --> 00:46:01.760
Shelly Williams, go ahead

831
00:46:02.440 --> 00:46:04.120
the

832
00:46:04.120 --> 00:46:05.360
intrusive

833
00:46:05.360 --> 00:46:12.320
Thoughts that I know to show up in dating and they're different but they're related to the same thing related to worthiness

834
00:46:13.000 --> 00:46:19.880
so sometimes it will be like a passing thought like oh, he would one of my friends would be better with this guy because

835
00:46:20.600 --> 00:46:24.720
they have more shared interests or somehow it's putting me in a position of

836
00:46:25.500 --> 00:46:27.500
Not being enough and

837
00:46:28.020 --> 00:46:31.280
the other angle of that is that I should be

838
00:46:32.520 --> 00:46:37.940
Responding X Y or Z. It's it's all like disconnect kind of strategies and I see it so I don't

839
00:46:38.540 --> 00:46:41.620
But it still pops up. So anyway, I just want to confess that

840
00:46:42.940 --> 00:46:44.940
Thank you for sharing

841
00:46:45.140 --> 00:46:47.140
Hunter go ahead

842
00:46:47.880 --> 00:46:49.480
I

843
00:46:49.480 --> 00:46:53.720
Did have to say I have a fear of even when I came to Christ's

844
00:46:54.040 --> 00:46:58.800
FOMO fear of missing out because I remember watching I remember my parents

845
00:46:58.800 --> 00:47:04.480
I would what play video games when it's a beautiful day and my parents and they say you see I'm playing World of Warcraft

846
00:47:04.480 --> 00:47:10.920
all these kids are gay Scott golden kids are gained straight A's and they're out make going to apply to college and make the

847
00:47:10.920 --> 00:47:16.520
Most of my life and I figure what would happen if I spend the next 14 years in college?

848
00:47:16.520 --> 00:47:18.740
Well, not a young 20 year olds

849
00:47:18.740 --> 00:47:22.860
What happens the next 14 years where I would be if I stayed around playing video games

850
00:47:22.860 --> 00:47:26.020
What would that amount to so I developed saying well, you know

851
00:47:26.020 --> 00:47:30.180
I gotta go get done and treat it like it's like homework when you go to school and you get homework

852
00:47:30.180 --> 00:47:32.020
You have to have it done in certain time

853
00:47:32.020 --> 00:47:37.660
Well, I want to have I want to marry did you get a job and marry and marry as young as possible?

854
00:47:37.660 --> 00:47:38.780
so I can join my

855
00:47:38.780 --> 00:47:44.540
Youthful join my youthful prime and make the most of it and I'm and I'm home with mom and dad

856
00:47:44.540 --> 00:47:51.320
I'm near mom and dad and no slowly as the years go by had to process on. Oh, I'm okay

857
00:47:51.320 --> 00:47:54.480
I didn't marry in college there. There goes the time. How do you look back?

858
00:47:54.480 --> 00:47:58.960
I blew it I blew it or how about when I went moved out of the house at 24

859
00:47:58.960 --> 00:48:05.600
I moved to another state now it's gone and then I told mom and dad say I didn't get to get I got a job

860
00:48:05.600 --> 00:48:08.920
But it's still not coming and then and I said dad

861
00:48:08.920 --> 00:48:14.280
I wanted to stay in Malvern the same town you grew up in grandpa grew up in and he goes, you know

862
00:48:14.280 --> 00:48:16.780
I think you need to go make your own way into life

863
00:48:16.780 --> 00:48:19.640
No, that may not have to be in Mount Vernon, Ohio

864
00:48:19.900 --> 00:48:25.540
And then I have all this fear think I didn't amount a much because I spent my all my old 20s

865
00:48:26.060 --> 00:48:31.940
Almost my entire 20s single. I'm 36 and I it's no not done because not done

866
00:48:31.980 --> 00:48:38.940
It's almost like I'm I'm treating romance instead of being interested in somebody I treat relationships as one

867
00:48:38.940 --> 00:48:42.460
I want to marry because there's something in it for me, too

868
00:48:42.480 --> 00:48:46.000
I'm what I have to marry because this is like an aging rat race

869
00:48:46.000 --> 00:48:49.040
you want to make that you want to live life at the fullest and

870
00:48:49.480 --> 00:48:51.480
Of course, I and I'm doing my best

871
00:48:51.480 --> 00:48:57.880
I and I if I want to spot I can go a whole of what I did all the last 14 years mounting to what?

872
00:48:57.880 --> 00:48:58.840
I can

873
00:48:58.840 --> 00:49:03.480
Yeah, you're doing great hunter. I love this. So so thankful that you shared

874
00:49:04.240 --> 00:49:09.480
We're gonna I'm gonna coach here on some of these things and a little bit appreciate everything that you just shared with us

875
00:49:10.300 --> 00:49:12.300
Debbie Gordon go ahead

876
00:49:13.860 --> 00:49:20.140
For me it has to do with I'm trying to get a business going and I know that this is what God wants me to

877
00:49:20.140 --> 00:49:23.340
Do but my struggle is really with worthiness

878
00:49:24.180 --> 00:49:31.980
Feeling like I don't know enough. I'm not smart enough. I'm not good enough. And those are the things that keep holding me back and

879
00:49:32.880 --> 00:49:38.680
I'm really, you know, it's coming. It's getting better, but it's still

880
00:49:39.200 --> 00:49:43.080
Holding me back from being visible in the way. Well, God wants me to be

881
00:49:45.680 --> 00:49:48.520
Can you tell me what those thoughts might sound like for you

882
00:49:49.160 --> 00:49:55.720
So it's like okay, for instance, I'm doing it. I'm a coach the life coach also an author

883
00:49:55.720 --> 00:49:59.800
I'm also a speaker and so it's things like well

884
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:01.760
Oh, you're not smart enough.

885
00:50:01.760 --> 00:50:02.920
You don't know enough.

886
00:50:02.920 --> 00:50:06.560
You're not ready to do this.

887
00:50:07.600 --> 00:50:09.600
It's those kinds of things

888
00:50:09.600 --> 00:50:12.640
that I've been fighting for so long.

889
00:50:12.640 --> 00:50:15.200
Or it used to be the thought

890
00:50:15.200 --> 00:50:19.140
where I had to continue to stay small

891
00:50:19.140 --> 00:50:21.720
because I felt like I wasn't safe.

892
00:50:21.720 --> 00:50:24.360
And that was how I stayed safe,

893
00:50:24.360 --> 00:50:27.120
was to stay small and invisible.

894
00:50:27.120 --> 00:50:27.960
And so I've,

895
00:50:30.880 --> 00:50:34.120
but it's still, there's still that heart wounding

896
00:50:34.120 --> 00:50:37.440
that's keeping me from being able to accomplish

897
00:50:37.440 --> 00:50:40.560
the plan that I know God has for me.

898
00:50:40.560 --> 00:50:43.840
And it's one of those things I think

899
00:50:43.840 --> 00:50:46.520
that is still obtrusive.

900
00:50:46.520 --> 00:50:48.880
It's not as bad as it used to be,

901
00:50:48.880 --> 00:50:50.240
but it holds me back.

902
00:50:50.240 --> 00:50:53.680
I second guess myself, Lord, how am I gonna do this?

903
00:50:53.680 --> 00:50:55.400
And I know God is enough.

904
00:50:55.400 --> 00:50:57.520
He will give me the wisdom.

905
00:50:57.520 --> 00:50:59.680
And I know I have the training.

906
00:51:00.360 --> 00:51:03.080
It's just sometimes those thoughts get in the way

907
00:51:03.080 --> 00:51:05.320
of me being able to step out

908
00:51:05.320 --> 00:51:08.280
and do what I know God wants me to do.

909
00:51:08.280 --> 00:51:09.520
Okay.

910
00:51:09.520 --> 00:51:11.080
Thank you so much for sharing.

911
00:51:12.120 --> 00:51:13.480
Mackenzie Miller, go ahead.

912
00:51:15.520 --> 00:51:18.680
Hey, first of all, this is very timely.

913
00:51:18.680 --> 00:51:19.560
So thank you.

914
00:51:19.560 --> 00:51:22.560
But I recently have been really struggling

915
00:51:22.560 --> 00:51:26.800
with the spirit of jealousy a little bit.

916
00:51:26.800 --> 00:51:29.160
There's a lot of people around me,

917
00:51:29.560 --> 00:51:31.040
almost all of my friends around me

918
00:51:31.040 --> 00:51:35.200
are either married or engaged or having babies.

919
00:51:35.200 --> 00:51:40.200
And I am struggling because I wanna be in a season,

920
00:51:41.000 --> 00:51:43.680
not only with them, like being able to partner with them

921
00:51:43.680 --> 00:51:45.920
in this season of their life,

922
00:51:45.920 --> 00:51:49.840
but I'm struggling with this mindset of like,

923
00:51:49.840 --> 00:51:51.480
oh, I've done all of this work

924
00:51:51.480 --> 00:51:54.520
and I want to be able to go through the work

925
00:51:54.520 --> 00:51:56.440
that they're going through right now, if that makes sense.

926
00:51:56.440 --> 00:52:00.240
And so it's been coming up the last few weeks

927
00:52:00.240 --> 00:52:02.080
and I've identified what it is.

928
00:52:02.080 --> 00:52:04.520
And so I'm just kind of submitting that to the Lord

929
00:52:04.520 --> 00:52:06.920
and passing all my cares.

930
00:52:06.920 --> 00:52:11.480
And I'm identifying that the emotions are not bad emotions,

931
00:52:11.480 --> 00:52:13.200
but when it turns into jealousy,

932
00:52:13.200 --> 00:52:14.840
that's where there's an issue.

933
00:52:14.840 --> 00:52:16.720
And so I'm just submitting that

934
00:52:16.720 --> 00:52:18.880
and laying it at the feet of Jesus tonight.

935
00:52:19.800 --> 00:52:20.640
So good.

936
00:52:20.640 --> 00:52:23.040
Thank you so much for sharing that.

937
00:52:23.040 --> 00:52:24.800
So powerful.

938
00:52:24.840 --> 00:52:26.680
All right, Carrie Oliver, go ahead.

939
00:52:28.680 --> 00:52:33.680
Hey, so I have struggled a lot in probably most of my life,

940
00:52:35.800 --> 00:52:37.680
but especially the last like 10 years,

941
00:52:37.680 --> 00:52:39.640
it's getting better, but it's still there.

942
00:52:39.640 --> 00:52:42.720
Just the fear that I'll never get married

943
00:52:42.720 --> 00:52:46.240
and that God has chosen to not give me a spouse.

944
00:52:46.240 --> 00:52:48.840
And it's definitely an intrusive thought.

945
00:52:48.840 --> 00:52:50.200
It bombards me.

946
00:52:50.200 --> 00:52:53.680
It's getting better, but it still pops up here and there

947
00:52:53.680 --> 00:52:56.880
of God is punishing me

948
00:52:56.880 --> 00:52:59.680
because I must've done something so terrible

949
00:52:59.680 --> 00:53:03.080
that he just would never want me to have a husband.

950
00:53:03.080 --> 00:53:05.320
And no matter how much I ask him,

951
00:53:05.320 --> 00:53:07.000
his answer will always be no.

952
00:53:07.960 --> 00:53:10.320
So that's always kind of been

953
00:53:10.320 --> 00:53:12.160
probably one of my biggest struggles.

954
00:53:14.400 --> 00:53:15.360
All right.

955
00:53:15.360 --> 00:53:17.920
I'm gonna come back to that one for sure.

956
00:53:17.920 --> 00:53:19.920
Okay, so just Carrie,

957
00:53:19.920 --> 00:53:22.160
actually, let me do this, a couple of people.

958
00:53:22.160 --> 00:53:24.240
And it's not that I don't wanna coach everybody,

959
00:53:24.240 --> 00:53:27.080
but there's a couple that I feel like just God's spirit

960
00:53:27.080 --> 00:53:29.880
like on, and then I'll see how many I can get through.

961
00:53:29.880 --> 00:53:31.800
Carrie Oliver, stay here.

962
00:53:31.800 --> 00:53:33.800
Mackenzie Miller, if you can put your hand back up

963
00:53:33.800 --> 00:53:35.240
just so I don't forget.

964
00:53:35.240 --> 00:53:36.840
And then I'll look back through my notes

965
00:53:36.840 --> 00:53:38.760
for the other people that I was circling some things

966
00:53:38.760 --> 00:53:39.920
that God was giving me.

967
00:53:41.200 --> 00:53:42.440
Amy B, go ahead.

968
00:53:44.360 --> 00:53:47.200
Well, I can relate to the last few people

969
00:53:47.200 --> 00:53:51.560
just with worthiness and just in general,

970
00:53:52.000 --> 00:53:56.120
I find myself feeling like I don't have anything to offer

971
00:53:56.120 --> 00:53:59.560
and that I never get chosen.

972
00:54:01.200 --> 00:54:03.840
So it always comes back to that.

973
00:54:03.840 --> 00:54:05.240
I mean, that's, and I don't know,

974
00:54:05.240 --> 00:54:07.360
I feel like there's almost a part of me

975
00:54:07.360 --> 00:54:11.440
that is disconnected from why I feel that way.

976
00:54:11.440 --> 00:54:14.280
I feel like I'm kind of disconnected from myself.

977
00:54:14.280 --> 00:54:15.880
So I either push people away

978
00:54:15.880 --> 00:54:18.000
or I don't even realize I'm doing it.

979
00:54:18.000 --> 00:54:20.040
I'm just kind of learning about it.

980
00:54:20.080 --> 00:54:22.080
I push people away or then it's,

981
00:54:22.080 --> 00:54:26.880
or it's the opposite where I might just cling to somebody.

982
00:54:27.920 --> 00:54:29.840
So anyway.

983
00:54:33.520 --> 00:54:35.320
Thank you for sharing that.

984
00:54:35.320 --> 00:54:36.400
Sorry, I'm writing my notes.

985
00:54:36.400 --> 00:54:38.120
Y'all know I'm a note taker.

986
00:54:38.120 --> 00:54:40.440
I process so much when y'all are sharing.

987
00:54:40.440 --> 00:54:42.040
Stephanie Hathaway, go ahead.

988
00:54:44.000 --> 00:54:46.800
Yeah, so I noticed these thoughts

989
00:54:46.800 --> 00:54:48.080
getting stirred up a lot more

990
00:54:48.120 --> 00:54:50.560
when I went home to my parents' house this weekend.

991
00:54:50.560 --> 00:54:52.240
So I just want to come out of agreement

992
00:54:52.240 --> 00:54:55.880
and confess the thoughts that people don't like me,

993
00:54:55.880 --> 00:54:59.440
that I have to be perfect to be acceptable,

994
00:54:59.440 --> 00:55:00.440
that I can't make.

995
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.520
mistake. And just the fear that others will be critical of me.

996
00:55:05.540 --> 00:55:09.400
So I just come on agreement with that and partnering with fear.

997
00:55:11.200 --> 00:55:15.240
Thank you. That's really good. Joshua. I don't know how to say

998
00:55:15.240 --> 00:55:17.600
your last name, Joshua. But can you go for me?

999
00:55:21.160 --> 00:55:27.800
unmute. Okay. Santo is how you say the last. Okay. Okay,

1000
00:55:27.840 --> 00:55:28.880
awesome. Thank you.

1001
00:55:29.840 --> 00:55:37.960
Yeah. So for me, I don't get this a lot. But I, I noticed

1002
00:55:37.960 --> 00:55:40.640
that throughout the course of the year, you know, there's

1003
00:55:40.640 --> 00:55:43.600
recurring things that keep coming back. And I know there.

1004
00:55:44.160 --> 00:55:47.760
I know that they're not from God. But you know, I attend a

1005
00:55:47.760 --> 00:55:51.360
Slavic church, a Russian church, but I'm not Slavic myself. And

1006
00:55:51.360 --> 00:55:55.800
I've been there for 13 or so years, you know, and just

1007
00:55:55.800 --> 00:56:00.200
diligently following what God has me set to do there. It's in

1008
00:56:00.200 --> 00:56:02.840
a hard environment. But over the years, you know, like some of

1009
00:56:02.840 --> 00:56:06.560
the folks who have spoken, you know, seasons come and go youth

1010
00:56:06.600 --> 00:56:09.800
get married, they move on. And then you know, time passes by

1011
00:56:09.800 --> 00:56:13.920
and you're 34 years old now. And you're still not married. And

1012
00:56:13.920 --> 00:56:16.920
you realize, you know, is there ever going to be anyone and God

1013
00:56:16.920 --> 00:56:22.120
I look back over these times, and I did what I've been doing

1014
00:56:22.120 --> 00:56:24.800
the things that you've said on my heart that I need to do. I've

1015
00:56:25.000 --> 00:56:28.560
I've looked at things the right way, you know, you know, just

1016
00:56:28.560 --> 00:56:32.480
like how there's a bit in the Word of God that says to look at

1017
00:56:32.480 --> 00:56:36.200
your, you know, fellow brethren as though they're married, you

1018
00:56:36.200 --> 00:56:40.280
know, and not to, you know, to be holy, and things like that,

1019
00:56:40.280 --> 00:56:43.920
you do that, and you do all the right things. But, you know, and

1020
00:56:43.920 --> 00:56:47.240
it's hard to wait for God's timing, too. And but at the same

1021
00:56:47.240 --> 00:56:50.760
time, you don't want to step over that line, lest you, you

1022
00:56:50.760 --> 00:56:54.880
know, sacrifice self respect, or, you know, being honorable

1023
00:56:54.880 --> 00:57:00.080
and things like that. And with that, you know, would come, you

1024
00:57:00.080 --> 00:57:02.640
know, there's attacks that kind of come with that, too. It's

1025
00:57:02.640 --> 00:57:05.320
like, you're not good enough, you know, you've been here,

1026
00:57:05.320 --> 00:57:08.920
nobody wanted you, you know, or, or you're not equipped with any

1027
00:57:08.920 --> 00:57:11.280
of the right things. And you'll never be equipped because

1028
00:57:11.280 --> 00:57:14.360
you've already, you know, you didn't grow up the right way or

1029
00:57:14.360 --> 00:57:19.640
get, you know, at the right times of your life. Like in my

1030
00:57:19.640 --> 00:57:24.120
teenage years, I, just because of circumstances, I became

1031
00:57:24.120 --> 00:57:28.960
isolated socially. And there, it's not like you could go over

1032
00:57:28.960 --> 00:57:31.200
to the next door neighbor, because the next door neighbor

1033
00:57:31.200 --> 00:57:36.360
was miles away. So you didn't get any opportunity to, you

1034
00:57:36.360 --> 00:57:39.360
know, socialize and practice and build those experiences when

1035
00:57:39.360 --> 00:57:44.640
human development is really driving those. But anyway, you

1036
00:57:44.640 --> 00:57:47.760
know, I've had recurring thoughts like that. And from

1037
00:57:47.760 --> 00:57:51.400
time to time, you know, sometimes it changes. It's like,

1038
00:57:51.400 --> 00:57:54.200
you know, bitterness attacks, and it's like, you know, and try

1039
00:57:54.200 --> 00:57:59.040
to shove it off. But yeah, I've kind of thought that, you know,

1040
00:57:59.080 --> 00:58:03.160
the best way is to not listen to those look forward up above and

1041
00:58:03.160 --> 00:58:06.920
ahead. And I try my best with that. But I know that there are

1042
00:58:06.920 --> 00:58:10.520
better ways than just looking at it like that. Because the best

1043
00:58:10.520 --> 00:58:13.680
story that I'm that I know that to fight things like this is

1044
00:58:13.680 --> 00:58:18.400
with the Word of God and the truth, because that's where the

1045
00:58:18.400 --> 00:58:23.880
source of truth comes from from him. So but it kind of Yeah, I

1046
00:58:23.880 --> 00:58:26.960
have a question for you. On the one where you said do all the

1047
00:58:27.120 --> 00:58:31.640
right things yet still. What's the rest of that statement yet

1048
00:58:31.640 --> 00:58:32.360
still what?

1049
00:58:38.480 --> 00:58:41.920
When you have convicted, let me try to put it this way that when

1050
00:58:41.920 --> 00:58:45.880
you have find over the years that the place that you're at,

1051
00:58:46.400 --> 00:58:51.240
has been purposefully set by the Holy Spirit as an assignment for

1052
00:58:51.240 --> 00:58:55.520
you to do whatever that mission work is, it doesn't need to be

1053
00:58:55.520 --> 00:58:58.440
remote, it can be local. And that's, you know, and you don't

1054
00:58:58.440 --> 00:59:02.240
realize it until years enough time has passed by that, then

1055
00:59:02.240 --> 00:59:04.880
you start realizing that the Holy Spirit has set me here

1056
00:59:04.880 --> 00:59:08.520
because you tried to escape it only for the Holy Spirit to

1057
00:59:08.520 --> 00:59:11.480
bring you back. And then not only bring you back, but the

1058
00:59:11.480 --> 00:59:14.720
moment he sets your foot, your foot, feet back into the place

1059
00:59:14.720 --> 00:59:19.600
he needs you to be at, he lays a very strong impression on, on

1060
00:59:19.600 --> 00:59:24.360
me, in a way that it's like, as though he is saying, No, I need

1061
00:59:24.360 --> 00:59:29.880
you to be here. I need you to be here and do this x very specific

1062
00:59:29.880 --> 00:59:32.680
thing. And it won't let me leave, you know?

1063
00:59:33.480 --> 00:59:36.120
Well, no, and I'm asking this, because we have several people

1064
00:59:36.120 --> 00:59:39.000
in the community that can relate to this actually was just

1065
00:59:39.000 --> 00:59:43.320
talking with someone else. She was in our heartwork group, but

1066
00:59:43.320 --> 00:59:48.880
very similar. But I'm wondering if the underlying is I'm doing

1067
00:59:48.880 --> 00:59:53.600
all these things for you, Lord, but you're still not meeting my

1068
00:59:53.600 --> 00:59:56.000
needs. Is that what's under that?

1069
00:59:56.480 --> 01:00:00.040
So let me clarify that. So throughout my 20s,

1070
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:06.500
I never looked at it as, you know, I'm hoping to get something from God, and it'd be this.

1071
01:00:06.500 --> 01:00:14.000
But rather, the perspective was that, God, I know that faith is the only thing that brings pleasure to you.

1072
01:00:14.000 --> 01:00:16.000
It's the only thing that pleases you.

1073
01:00:16.000 --> 01:00:20.000
God, I want to give you my life, and I want to follow you.

1074
01:00:20.000 --> 01:00:24.000
I want to do what you want me to do, where you need me to be,

1075
01:00:24.000 --> 01:00:29.500
to release the words that you put on me to the people that you need to hear certain things.

1076
01:00:29.500 --> 01:00:36.500
I believe with this, God, that if I have faith in you to focus on the Father's business,

1077
01:00:36.500 --> 01:00:44.500
that you'll take care of me in the way that you – how you know me on a personal level more than I even know myself.

1078
01:00:44.500 --> 01:00:49.500
And the idea of marriage, you know, that, God, I have a desire for marriage,

1079
01:00:49.500 --> 01:00:53.500
but, God, I will give it up to you because I know you love me.

1080
01:00:54.500 --> 01:00:58.500
When do you get to keep something, though, Joshua?

1081
01:00:58.500 --> 01:01:00.500
How do you mean?

1082
01:01:00.500 --> 01:01:03.500
Well, here's the thing I want to put out there.

1083
01:01:03.500 --> 01:01:10.500
I think that God also wants you to be happy, not like just for happiness sake,

1084
01:01:10.500 --> 01:01:15.500
but to bless you with the desires of your heart.

1085
01:01:15.500 --> 01:01:21.500
And what we've found from years now of coaching in this program, and we see it with all kinds of people,

1086
01:01:21.500 --> 01:01:26.500
but some, you know, y'all know, my life is ministry.

1087
01:01:26.500 --> 01:01:29.500
I mean, this is what I do. I do it for Last Year's Single.

1088
01:01:29.500 --> 01:01:32.500
I'm helping pastor a church with my husband.

1089
01:01:32.500 --> 01:01:43.500
But there are times where those are all amazing things, but God keeps talking to me about, for years,

1090
01:01:43.500 --> 01:01:46.500
He's like, okay, but you have to have balance.

1091
01:01:46.500 --> 01:01:48.500
We have to also have fun.

1092
01:01:48.500 --> 01:01:56.500
We also have to walk in the fullness of God's plans for us in every area of our lives, not just ministry.

1093
01:01:56.500 --> 01:02:03.500
But so many in the body of Christ, that's all we're kind of going towards.

1094
01:02:03.500 --> 01:02:07.500
And again, those are amazing things, but it can get out of balance.

1095
01:02:07.500 --> 01:02:11.500
And when we allow it to get out of balance, it's kind of like what Jackie was saying.

1096
01:02:11.500 --> 01:02:14.500
Every time we get something good, we feel like we got to give it away.

1097
01:02:15.500 --> 01:02:21.500
Where the statement that you said also, it is, it is, faith is what pleases God,

1098
01:02:21.500 --> 01:02:24.500
but there are other things that please Him as well.

1099
01:02:24.500 --> 01:02:30.500
Do you know that the Bible actually, like when Jesus got baptized,

1100
01:02:30.500 --> 01:02:36.500
and like the Lord literally spoke over Him, this is my beloved Son in whom I'm well pleased.

1101
01:02:36.500 --> 01:02:40.500
Like He literally hadn't done anything in ministry yet.

1102
01:02:41.500 --> 01:02:47.500
God's pleasure in us, you all, is because we are our daughter and a son.

1103
01:02:49.500 --> 01:02:50.500
I feel the Holy Spirit on this.

1104
01:02:50.500 --> 01:02:53.500
So I'm going to kind of linger here for a minute.

1105
01:02:53.500 --> 01:03:01.500
God's pleasure in us is literally because you're His son.

1106
01:03:03.500 --> 01:03:04.500
And it's amazing.

1107
01:03:04.500 --> 01:03:07.500
I think it's incredible, the things that you're doing, Joshua,

1108
01:03:08.500 --> 01:03:11.500
but I feel like God wanted me to linger with you for a little bit

1109
01:03:11.500 --> 01:03:17.500
because God cares about like the blessings that He wants to give you.

1110
01:03:17.500 --> 01:03:22.500
And, you know, it's okay for you to let yourself receive it.

1111
01:03:24.500 --> 01:03:25.500
Yeah.

1112
01:03:25.500 --> 01:03:26.500
I think you're right.

1113
01:03:26.500 --> 01:03:28.500
It reminds me of what you said.

1114
01:03:28.500 --> 01:03:32.500
It reminds me and also have a couple of experiences of this phrase

1115
01:03:32.500 --> 01:03:35.500
and description of being at rest in Him.

1116
01:03:36.500 --> 01:03:38.500
And what does rest look like?

1117
01:03:38.500 --> 01:03:41.500
It doesn't mean that you're not, there isn't any labor,

1118
01:03:41.500 --> 01:03:44.500
but at the same time, it's not hard.

1119
01:03:44.500 --> 01:03:49.500
Because having something to do with how much of you are surrendered

1120
01:03:49.500 --> 01:03:54.500
and submitting to Him, but yet at the same time, you know, you're at peace

1121
01:03:54.500 --> 01:03:57.500
because that's what comes with that relationship with Him.

1122
01:03:57.500 --> 01:04:02.500
And so you can be about the Father's business, not in stress like a workaholic,

1123
01:04:02.500 --> 01:04:07.500
which I think that has been easily, I would say I'm guilty.

1124
01:04:07.500 --> 01:04:08.500
It's easy to do in ministry.

1125
01:04:08.500 --> 01:04:09.500
Yep.

1126
01:04:09.500 --> 01:04:10.500
So easy.

1127
01:04:10.500 --> 01:04:14.500
But at that, you know, that balance point of drawing back a little bit

1128
01:04:14.500 --> 01:04:19.500
of that workaholism and just letting, recognizing that how much of a privilege

1129
01:04:19.500 --> 01:04:24.500
actually it is to be doing anything in the kingdom of God.

1130
01:04:24.500 --> 01:04:28.500
And that God does what you said that I don't think He wants us to just be

1131
01:04:28.500 --> 01:04:30.500
all in the game, you know, like that.

1132
01:04:30.500 --> 01:04:33.500
There was one experience, and this will be the last thing I say,

1133
01:04:33.500 --> 01:04:36.500
that I was driving home from my workplace one day,

1134
01:04:36.500 --> 01:04:39.500
and the sun hadn't set, everything was daylight.

1135
01:04:39.500 --> 01:04:44.500
But I had stayed after work for an hour or so, more than I needed to.

1136
01:04:44.500 --> 01:04:49.500
There was a lady I encountered at the driveway or close to my workplace,

1137
01:04:49.500 --> 01:04:52.500
and she had accidentally hit a pole.

1138
01:04:52.500 --> 01:04:56.500
A young lady, probably 18 or 19 years old.

1139
01:04:56.500 --> 01:04:59.500
And nobody was stopping by to help her,

1140
01:04:59.500 --> 01:05:00.500
and I was like, I don't know what's going on.

1141
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:01.480
I decided, OK, I'm turning around.

1142
01:05:01.480 --> 01:05:02.240
I'm coming back.

1143
01:05:02.240 --> 01:05:05.680
And basically, she had to pull hard enough

1144
01:05:05.680 --> 01:05:07.160
that the car turned off.

1145
01:05:07.160 --> 01:05:09.320
But she left it in the wrong gear,

1146
01:05:09.320 --> 01:05:11.200
so she couldn't turn it on.

1147
01:05:11.200 --> 01:05:13.820
But after I got her up and running,

1148
01:05:13.820 --> 01:05:17.920
she just turned to me and said that, can I have a hug?

1149
01:05:17.920 --> 01:05:21.800
And she was about in tears for how it was to her.

1150
01:05:21.800 --> 01:05:23.400
And I'm like, OK, sure.

1151
01:05:23.400 --> 01:05:25.360
And just let the hug happen.

1152
01:05:25.360 --> 01:05:28.720
But what I realized walking away from that was, you know,

1153
01:05:28.720 --> 01:05:31.080
Josh, I didn't plan for this.

1154
01:05:31.080 --> 01:05:32.520
I didn't expect.

1155
01:05:32.520 --> 01:05:33.960
I'm talking to myself.

1156
01:05:33.960 --> 01:05:36.840
I didn't expect that this would happen today.

1157
01:05:36.840 --> 01:05:40.360
I wasn't planning for, I'm going to help somebody today.

1158
01:05:40.360 --> 01:05:42.040
I was just about my own business,

1159
01:05:42.040 --> 01:05:44.560
enjoying the work I was doing and enjoying, you know,

1160
01:05:44.560 --> 01:05:46.640
life and the peace of that day.

1161
01:05:46.640 --> 01:05:49.720
This came up, and I was more than happy to help.

1162
01:05:49.720 --> 01:05:51.480
And I walk away from it.

1163
01:05:51.480 --> 01:05:56.160
It's like, God, you used me in that person's life

1164
01:05:56.160 --> 01:05:58.840
and made an impact in her.

1165
01:05:58.840 --> 01:06:02.840
And I didn't anticipate it, but it just so happened.

1166
01:06:02.840 --> 01:06:07.160
It happened so easily with so much peace and so much rest.

1167
01:06:07.160 --> 01:06:10.280
God, it was a privilege just to even be used,

1168
01:06:10.280 --> 01:06:14.000
to be intertwined for a moment in somebody's life,

1169
01:06:14.000 --> 01:06:17.800
to be there for them, to be that, a figure of some sort

1170
01:06:17.800 --> 01:06:22.080
that got them safe and secure and on their way.

1171
01:06:22.080 --> 01:06:23.760
So she, you know.

1172
01:06:23.760 --> 01:06:25.680
It's really good, Joshua.

1173
01:06:25.680 --> 01:06:28.000
Yeah, this is really good.

1174
01:06:28.000 --> 01:06:30.800
So Julie, let's see here.

1175
01:06:30.800 --> 01:06:33.320
I lost the comment here now.

1176
01:06:33.320 --> 01:06:34.640
Juliana puts in the chat,

1177
01:06:34.640 --> 01:06:38.320
so why doesn't God just give the gifts he wants to give?

1178
01:06:38.320 --> 01:06:41.120
It can't be, gosh, sorry y'all,

1179
01:06:41.120 --> 01:06:43.800
I keep losing it because the chat's popping around.

1180
01:06:43.800 --> 01:06:46.600
It can't be that we aren't receiving the right way

1181
01:06:46.600 --> 01:06:49.360
because that makes religious OCD way worse.

1182
01:06:49.360 --> 01:06:50.760
I totally agree.

1183
01:06:51.760 --> 01:06:53.720
What I said before we started talking about

1184
01:06:53.720 --> 01:06:56.280
any of these things is y'all,

1185
01:06:56.280 --> 01:06:57.400
here, I'm gonna say it again.

1186
01:06:57.400 --> 01:07:00.960
Out of mind doesn't mean out of heart.

1187
01:07:00.960 --> 01:07:05.640
Heart healing is at the core what we need to have happen.

1188
01:07:06.760 --> 01:07:09.320
So for those of us that, you know,

1189
01:07:09.320 --> 01:07:12.960
we do fall into these striving or the,

1190
01:07:12.960 --> 01:07:14.640
I'm not good enough, so I've got to do this

1191
01:07:14.640 --> 01:07:15.480
and I've got to do this.

1192
01:07:15.480 --> 01:07:18.760
And if I just get this right, then somebody will love me.

1193
01:07:19.760 --> 01:07:24.800
Y'all, all that kind of stuff, that perfectionism stuff,

1194
01:07:24.800 --> 01:07:28.520
the Lord is saying like, okay, where did this start for you?

1195
01:07:29.520 --> 01:07:31.800
And I know, I know the kickback I'm gonna get

1196
01:07:31.800 --> 01:07:34.400
is I've been doing heartwork for years now.

1197
01:07:34.400 --> 01:07:35.960
Why can't I just be past this?

1198
01:07:35.960 --> 01:07:38.800
Y'all, I've done heartwork for years.

1199
01:07:38.800 --> 01:07:42.460
I'm married, praise the Lord, but it's still hard.

1200
01:07:42.460 --> 01:07:44.100
I'm still doing heartwork.

1201
01:07:44.100 --> 01:07:46.440
There's all kinds of reasons for heartwork.

1202
01:07:47.280 --> 01:07:49.240
It's not going to end,

1203
01:07:49.240 --> 01:07:53.180
but we can continue to every day grow and heal

1204
01:07:53.180 --> 01:07:56.280
and see something different, receive insight from heaven

1205
01:07:56.280 --> 01:07:58.180
so that we can get the upgrade

1206
01:07:58.180 --> 01:08:00.580
that brings the breakthrough, you all.

1207
01:08:00.580 --> 01:08:03.340
It's not so much that you're not doing

1208
01:08:03.340 --> 01:08:05.260
a good enough job receiving,

1209
01:08:06.280 --> 01:08:07.600
but what I was kind of,

1210
01:08:07.600 --> 01:08:09.960
why I was talking to Joshua about that

1211
01:08:09.960 --> 01:08:13.120
is because I felt on what he was saying,

1212
01:08:13.120 --> 01:08:15.800
the Lord saying that he's proud of his son.

1213
01:08:17.439 --> 01:08:20.040
And that it's okay for him to take a break

1214
01:08:20.040 --> 01:08:25.040
and rest and have fun and receive, okay?

1215
01:08:25.359 --> 01:08:29.319
So that's why I was going that route with him in particular,

1216
01:08:29.319 --> 01:08:32.880
but I wanna make sure y'all hear the importance of

1217
01:08:32.880 --> 01:08:35.260
what is the Lord saying to you?

1218
01:08:36.420 --> 01:08:37.680
Because I'm coaching him

1219
01:08:37.680 --> 01:08:39.479
and that can minister to a bunch of people,

1220
01:08:39.479 --> 01:08:43.520
but make sure you're not hearing it through the lens of like

1221
01:08:43.520 --> 01:08:44.840
I'm still not doing enough

1222
01:08:44.840 --> 01:08:47.439
because I clearly can't receive what God is giving.

1223
01:08:47.439 --> 01:08:49.040
If God is giving gifts,

1224
01:08:49.040 --> 01:08:51.720
then there's something wrong with me if I can't receive him.

1225
01:08:51.720 --> 01:08:53.220
Well, I don't know about that.

1226
01:08:53.220 --> 01:08:55.120
I think that there's times in my life

1227
01:08:55.120 --> 01:08:59.160
where I just wasn't in the right position to receive it.

1228
01:09:00.260 --> 01:09:02.279
Y'all, there's financial blessing I'm receiving

1229
01:09:02.279 --> 01:09:03.120
in my life right now

1230
01:09:03.120 --> 01:09:06.000
that if I had received it even two years ago,

1231
01:09:06.000 --> 01:09:07.340
I don't know if I would have handled it

1232
01:09:07.340 --> 01:09:09.000
the same way I'm handling it now.

1233
01:09:10.840 --> 01:09:14.359
I had to be prepared to receive Brian

1234
01:09:14.359 --> 01:09:16.760
because if I had received him sooner,

1235
01:09:16.760 --> 01:09:19.300
I think I would have not handled

1236
01:09:19.300 --> 01:09:24.180
that relationship appropriately in a lot of different ways.

1237
01:09:25.399 --> 01:09:27.040
So I'm not saying you're not good enough,

1238
01:09:27.040 --> 01:09:28.680
but what I am saying is God,

1239
01:09:28.680 --> 01:09:31.840
there is a preparation and there's healing

1240
01:09:31.840 --> 01:09:34.560
that needs to take place in us

1241
01:09:34.560 --> 01:09:37.040
to get us to the place to receive.

1242
01:09:37.040 --> 01:09:38.600
Does that make sense, everyone?

1243
01:09:39.840 --> 01:09:41.399
But it's not that you're not good enough

1244
01:09:41.399 --> 01:09:42.560
or you're not doing enough.

1245
01:09:42.560 --> 01:09:45.520
It's that God wants to continue to heal your heart

1246
01:09:46.760 --> 01:09:50.479
and help you receive, okay?

1247
01:09:50.479 --> 01:09:52.200
All right, I want to make sure that's really clear.

1248
01:09:52.200 --> 01:09:53.920
Hopefully that was helpful.

1249
01:09:53.920 --> 01:09:56.140
Anna Kast, go ahead.

1250
01:09:56.140 --> 01:09:57.440
Yeah, thanks, Bethany.

1251
01:09:58.720 --> 01:10:00.120
So for me, I.

1252
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:06.360
think it's that I've squandered my childbearing age years, that

1253
01:10:06.400 --> 01:10:10.240
the men that would want to start a family are going to be worried

1254
01:10:10.240 --> 01:10:16.920
about my fertility. And the men that are my age are not going to

1255
01:10:16.920 --> 01:10:20.000
be interested in starting a family or expanding a family.

1256
01:10:23.080 --> 01:10:26.440
Thank you for sharing that. If I have time, I'm going to try to

1257
01:10:26.440 --> 01:10:29.480
come back to as many of these as I can. Tammy, go ahead.

1258
01:10:30.000 --> 01:10:40.760
All my money has to do with perfectionism, that I'm always

1259
01:10:40.760 --> 01:10:46.000
having to please authorities if there's something wrong about me

1260
01:10:46.000 --> 01:10:50.040
and I have to make up for it somehow and I have to atone for

1261
01:10:50.040 --> 01:10:53.160
my own mistakes or whatever and I had to do everything perfect.

1262
01:10:54.080 --> 01:10:57.600
And now since I've gotten older and lost a bunch of hair and I

1263
01:10:57.600 --> 01:11:00.320
don't look as good as I used to, it's a little heavier and

1264
01:11:00.320 --> 01:11:04.040
everything. And now it's like, and everybody talks about, you

1265
01:11:04.040 --> 01:11:08.720
know, dating apps and I'm thinking, no way, because I look

1266
01:11:08.720 --> 01:11:12.920
worse on the camera for some reason than I do even in real

1267
01:11:12.920 --> 01:11:15.560
life in a mirror looking at myself. It's just the light. I

1268
01:11:15.560 --> 01:11:19.000
don't know what it is. But I mean, you can like see the light

1269
01:11:19.000 --> 01:11:21.040
hits the top of my head because my hair's real thin up here

1270
01:11:21.080 --> 01:11:23.920
where my hairline used to be and it's receded. And that makes it

1271
01:11:24.040 --> 01:11:28.880
worse in real life. And I just I can't see good close up to put

1272
01:11:28.880 --> 01:11:32.320
my eyebrow makeup on so my eyebrows look like they're half

1273
01:11:32.320 --> 01:11:38.720
gone. And I just, yeah, I just feel ugly. And I don't feel like

1274
01:11:38.720 --> 01:11:42.560
anybody would want me and not they're just looking at a

1275
01:11:42.560 --> 01:11:45.360
picture and don't know me. If they base it on that. I mean,

1276
01:11:45.360 --> 01:11:49.280
they're pretty shallow anyway. But I don't know, I just feel

1277
01:11:49.280 --> 01:11:52.960
like, like even with groups of women, like a women's Bible

1278
01:11:52.960 --> 01:11:55.120
study, like, well, they all go to that church, and I don't go

1279
01:11:55.120 --> 01:11:57.320
there. So I don't really feel like I know what's going on. I

1280
01:11:57.320 --> 01:12:01.120
don't feel kind of outsider sometimes, kind of excluded

1281
01:12:01.120 --> 01:12:06.560
sometimes. There's all kinds of stuff like that. Not being good

1282
01:12:06.560 --> 01:12:11.920
enough. Not being equal to everybody else. Being less than

1283
01:12:13.200 --> 01:12:13.960
stuff like that.

1284
01:12:15.200 --> 01:12:18.680
Right. Thank you for sharing. All right, just so that I can

1285
01:12:18.680 --> 01:12:23.720
kind of I'm going to go to Margaret next Cheryl, Gina, and

1286
01:12:23.720 --> 01:12:26.240
then Victoria, but I can't have anybody else raise your hands,

1287
01:12:26.240 --> 01:12:28.160
because I am going to try to coach on some of these things.

1288
01:12:28.160 --> 01:12:29.920
Okay, Margaret, go ahead.

1289
01:12:33.280 --> 01:12:41.760
Yeah, um, the predominant life for me is, um, wow. I am my

1290
01:12:41.800 --> 01:12:44.560
heart is beating really extra fast right now. I'm like

1291
01:12:44.560 --> 01:12:53.040
shaking. Um, well, that's a trigger right there. Um,

1292
01:12:53.160 --> 01:12:59.400
obviously, the nerve has been hit here. So my past that

1293
01:12:59.400 --> 01:13:04.960
somehow, what ends up happening, or has been happening, it's kind

1294
01:13:04.960 --> 01:13:10.720
of manifesting is, once people, they meet me there, everything's

1295
01:13:10.720 --> 01:13:14.320
great, until they find out about my past. Once they find out about

1296
01:13:14.320 --> 01:13:19.920
my past, then I'm ghosted. So the lie that keeps coming back

1297
01:13:19.920 --> 01:13:34.480
is that I'm not good enough. Um, um, your past is going to ruin

1298
01:13:34.480 --> 01:13:37.480
the rest of your life, you will never be happy. So that's the

1299
01:13:37.480 --> 01:13:38.920
predominant lie. So

1300
01:13:39.480 --> 01:13:42.720
right before I come to Cheryl, just I need to say this, just

1301
01:13:42.720 --> 01:13:45.880
because this is a prophetic thing that is just to release

1302
01:13:45.880 --> 01:13:49.000
Margaret over you. As you were talking about that, I actually

1303
01:13:49.000 --> 01:13:53.680
saw God placing a blanket over your past. The blanket

1304
01:13:53.680 --> 01:13:59.520
represents his covering. So that means it's it's under his blood.

1305
01:13:59.520 --> 01:14:02.680
It's been under his blood. But just to give you a visual, like

1306
01:14:02.680 --> 01:14:05.640
literally, as you were talking, I saw him covering it with a

1307
01:14:05.840 --> 01:14:13.120
blanket. And so tonight, you can receive the truth that your past

1308
01:14:13.120 --> 01:14:17.240
is covered. And when you meet your spirit mate, they're going

1309
01:14:17.240 --> 01:14:19.360
to be in a healthy place. And you're going to be in a healthy

1310
01:14:19.360 --> 01:14:22.000
place. And they're going to be able to hear about your past and

1311
01:14:22.000 --> 01:14:28.160
love you and accept you. No matter what. Okay. Thank you.

1312
01:14:28.200 --> 01:14:29.960
You're welcome. Cheryl, go ahead.

1313
01:14:36.520 --> 01:14:41.440
Okay. First of all, I can just relate to what so many people

1314
01:14:41.440 --> 01:14:46.320
have shared tonight. So I just appreciate all the sharing. I

1315
01:14:46.320 --> 01:14:49.720
can relate a lot with the worthy, the whole worthy theme.

1316
01:14:50.240 --> 01:14:54.440
But for me, I just, I want to share just how I got really

1317
01:14:54.440 --> 01:14:57.880
triggered on Mother's Day. And then just some of the things

1318
01:14:57.880 --> 01:14:59.880
that came out from that. But I

1319
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:03.360
Went to church on Mother's Day and I'm not a mother.

1320
01:15:03.360 --> 01:15:08.360
And there was like all this prayer for mothers and flowers.

1321
01:15:08.480 --> 01:15:13.480
And I just, it really triggered that pain in me

1322
01:15:14.160 --> 01:15:15.600
of wanting to be a mom

1323
01:15:15.600 --> 01:15:18.840
and feeling like I missed marriage and motherhood.

1324
01:15:18.840 --> 01:15:23.680
And then I just, I feel like I was standing with the men.

1325
01:15:23.680 --> 01:15:26.180
I felt so embarrassed.

1326
01:15:26.180 --> 01:15:29.100
I wanted to like escape the church, honestly.

1327
01:15:30.140 --> 01:15:32.780
And I just got into like the aisle

1328
01:15:32.780 --> 01:15:34.820
just so I wasn't so noticed.

1329
01:15:36.100 --> 01:15:37.540
And then it just hit these chords,

1330
01:15:37.540 --> 01:15:42.380
like being invisible, less than, on the sidelines,

1331
01:15:42.380 --> 01:15:46.300
like left out, always kind of watching everyone else,

1332
01:15:46.300 --> 01:15:50.860
forgotten, excluded, just as empty feeling.

1333
01:15:50.860 --> 01:15:54.340
So, and it's, I think that just really got triggered

1334
01:15:54.340 --> 01:15:56.420
on Mother's Day, but there's other times

1335
01:15:56.420 --> 01:15:59.740
where that, those same kind of thoughts have come out.

1336
01:15:59.740 --> 01:16:00.580
So.

1337
01:16:02.080 --> 01:16:05.680
I just want to say on behalf of the body of Christ,

1338
01:16:05.680 --> 01:16:07.920
I'm so sorry that that was your experience

1339
01:16:07.920 --> 01:16:11.360
on Sunday, Cheryl, genuinely.

1340
01:16:11.360 --> 01:16:13.360
I've been in that position before.

1341
01:16:13.360 --> 01:16:16.400
And even though I have a stepson and spiritual daughters,

1342
01:16:16.400 --> 01:16:18.560
I've been in that position before.

1343
01:16:18.560 --> 01:16:23.000
And so every year we just literally celebrate every woman.

1344
01:16:23.000 --> 01:16:24.680
And so I just want to say just,

1345
01:16:24.680 --> 01:16:26.680
I believe on behalf of the father's heart,

1346
01:16:26.680 --> 01:16:28.840
like his heart was breaking with you on Sunday.

1347
01:16:28.860 --> 01:16:31.700
And I'm so sorry that you went through that.

1348
01:16:31.700 --> 01:16:32.540
Thank you.

1349
01:16:32.540 --> 01:16:34.940
And we're so glad that you're here.

1350
01:16:34.940 --> 01:16:35.780
Thank you.

1351
01:16:35.780 --> 01:16:38.180
Y'all, life is hard, isn't it sometimes, right?

1352
01:16:38.180 --> 01:16:39.900
Just keep coming alongside of each other.

1353
01:16:39.900 --> 01:16:41.420
God loves you all.

1354
01:16:41.420 --> 01:16:43.300
And we're so glad that you're here.

1355
01:16:43.300 --> 01:16:45.340
Let's see, I think I had two more.

1356
01:16:45.340 --> 01:16:47.060
Abby, I'm not going to be able to come to you, sweetie.

1357
01:16:47.060 --> 01:16:48.620
Okay.

1358
01:16:48.620 --> 01:16:49.720
Gina, go ahead.

1359
01:16:52.980 --> 01:16:53.820
Thank you.

1360
01:16:54.700 --> 01:16:57.860
Yeah, I've honestly, I have been struggling

1361
01:16:57.880 --> 01:17:00.260
with a ton of anxiety lately.

1362
01:17:02.960 --> 01:17:05.520
It's kind of hard to talk about without a little background,

1363
01:17:05.520 --> 01:17:09.720
but I was married for 21 years and I worked.

1364
01:17:09.720 --> 01:17:11.140
I've always worked.

1365
01:17:12.040 --> 01:17:14.280
I've kind of always been a workspace person.

1366
01:17:14.280 --> 01:17:18.160
I think I entered foster care when I was a teen.

1367
01:17:18.160 --> 01:17:20.380
And so I've always had this like mentality

1368
01:17:20.380 --> 01:17:24.240
that I've had to earn everything that I have.

1369
01:17:24.240 --> 01:17:27.900
And when I was married,

1370
01:17:27.900 --> 01:17:29.540
I would have loved to be a stay-at-home mom,

1371
01:17:29.540 --> 01:17:30.700
but I just couldn't.

1372
01:17:30.700 --> 01:17:33.880
I just wasn't in a marriage that allowed that.

1373
01:17:33.880 --> 01:17:36.740
And I remember I had a job for almost 10 years

1374
01:17:36.740 --> 01:17:38.420
that was really hard on me

1375
01:17:38.420 --> 01:17:42.040
because it wasn't a match for who I am.

1376
01:17:42.040 --> 01:17:43.760
And it caused a lot of anxiety.

1377
01:17:43.760 --> 01:17:47.020
Well, I took a job a couple of years ago,

1378
01:17:48.500 --> 01:17:51.660
just running a business for a friend of my sister's

1379
01:17:51.660 --> 01:17:56.260
and things have changed recently.

1380
01:17:57.680 --> 01:18:00.320
In fact, one of the core values of the business

1381
01:18:00.320 --> 01:18:02.120
when I first came on board

1382
01:18:02.120 --> 01:18:03.500
was that they wanted to honor God

1383
01:18:03.500 --> 01:18:06.960
and they've recently removed that from our core values.

1384
01:18:06.960 --> 01:18:11.960
So, and I feel like there's so much anxiety now.

1385
01:18:12.200 --> 01:18:16.480
Things are going in a way that I don't wanna see

1386
01:18:16.480 --> 01:18:18.160
and my job is changing.

1387
01:18:18.180 --> 01:18:23.140
And I'm just, I'm saying all of that to say that

1388
01:18:23.140 --> 01:18:25.980
because I've always worked, I've always,

1389
01:18:25.980 --> 01:18:30.660
and I'm alone, like I don't have anyone to take care of me.

1390
01:18:30.660 --> 01:18:33.880
I don't, I feel like I can't ever rest.

1391
01:18:33.880 --> 01:18:35.500
If I don't stay at this job,

1392
01:18:35.500 --> 01:18:37.580
then I have to go to another job

1393
01:18:37.580 --> 01:18:39.580
and this job is becoming so toxic.

1394
01:18:39.580 --> 01:18:43.260
And, but I don't, I just, I think it's just,

1395
01:18:43.260 --> 01:18:47.860
I've had this, I guess this thought of I'm just tired.

1396
01:18:48.200 --> 01:18:53.000
I'm tired of having to hold all of the balls.

1397
01:18:53.000 --> 01:18:57.520
I'm tired of having to be the provider all of the time

1398
01:18:57.520 --> 01:19:01.040
and I don't wanna do it anymore.

1399
01:19:02.180 --> 01:19:04.920
And I feel like I'm kind of stuck in that situation

1400
01:19:04.920 --> 01:19:09.320
and I've really, my mindset has really suffered lately

1401
01:19:09.320 --> 01:19:10.160
because of it.

1402
01:19:10.160 --> 01:19:13.080
I've just, I can't even remember the last time

1403
01:19:13.080 --> 01:19:16.060
I felt anxious and now I can't get rid of the feeling.

1404
01:19:17.040 --> 01:19:18.880
Okay, thank you for sharing that.

1405
01:19:18.880 --> 01:19:23.880
So remember that anxiety is fueled by what if statements

1406
01:19:23.920 --> 01:19:26.160
and anxiety partners fear.

1407
01:19:26.160 --> 01:19:29.240
So the anxiety fuels all the fear

1408
01:19:29.240 --> 01:19:31.680
and fear is false evidence appearing real.

1409
01:19:31.680 --> 01:19:34.200
Now you're experiencing that situation in your job

1410
01:19:34.200 --> 01:19:39.200
that is real, but all the fears and the what ifs,

1411
01:19:39.320 --> 01:19:42.120
that's just the enemy trying to run away with your mind,

1412
01:19:42.120 --> 01:19:43.040
if you will.

1413
01:19:43.060 --> 01:19:46.300
And so you wanna really get at the core

1414
01:19:46.300 --> 01:19:49.820
because as you started sharing it for you,

1415
01:19:49.820 --> 01:19:50.820
as you started sharing that,

1416
01:19:50.820 --> 01:19:52.620
it linked back to your foster care.

1417
01:19:52.620 --> 01:19:55.780
So I would even ask the Lord if there's something back

1418
01:19:55.780 --> 01:19:57.580
in the foster care that's getting triggered

1419
01:19:57.580 --> 01:20:00.380
and surfacing now because of what's happening.

1420
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:04.340
happening in the job situation. Just because out of, out of

1421
01:20:04.360 --> 01:20:07.880
everything you shared that stood out to me, not just because you

1422
01:20:07.880 --> 01:20:13.080
said you were in foster care, but because I actually wasn't

1423
01:20:13.080 --> 01:20:17.020
sure other than you've had to work your whole life, exactly

1424
01:20:17.020 --> 01:20:20.020
how that was connecting to the anxiety you're experiencing now.

1425
01:20:20.020 --> 01:20:23.360
Does that make sense? And so God basically highlighted that to me.

1426
01:20:24.140 --> 01:20:27.960
Because for me, I'm wondering what's making those two connect?

1427
01:20:28.020 --> 01:20:28.960
Does that make sense?

1428
01:20:29.740 --> 01:20:33.300
Well, yeah, I feel like explain, it's okay. Like, I just want to

1429
01:20:33.300 --> 01:20:36.060
make sure no, it's okay. I just want you to take some time and

1430
01:20:36.060 --> 01:20:38.900
pray about that and ask the Lord, is there something from

1431
01:20:38.900 --> 01:20:43.540
that time in your life that is getting triggered now in this

1432
01:20:43.540 --> 01:20:47.780
situation you're going through? Does that make sense? Yeah. Okay,

1433
01:20:47.860 --> 01:20:51.340
awesome. All right, Victoria, I need you to be short, brief and

1434
01:20:51.340 --> 01:20:52.580
powerful for me. Okay.

1435
01:20:53.400 --> 01:20:59.360
Hey, so I didn't actually hear what your question was about

1436
01:20:59.360 --> 01:21:02.480
what, what we were supposed to be sharing, but I kind of got the

1437
01:21:02.480 --> 01:21:05.480
gist from listening to everybody else. So, um, it's just, do you

1438
01:21:05.480 --> 01:21:09.760
have an intrusive thought that you're confessing tonight? I

1439
01:21:09.760 --> 01:21:14.600
think that I'm struggling maybe with having to figure out how to

1440
01:21:14.600 --> 01:21:17.560
take care of my mom by myself because my brother and his wife,

1441
01:21:17.560 --> 01:21:21.180
they do help me now, but I'm wondering if they're going to

1442
01:21:21.180 --> 01:21:23.660
drop the ball somehow at some point, and I'm going to be left

1443
01:21:23.660 --> 01:21:28.420
by myself to take care of her. Um, which my brother said, no,

1444
01:21:28.420 --> 01:21:34.740
that's not going to happen. Um, and just feeling angry towards

1445
01:21:34.900 --> 01:21:40.500
my sister in law of maybe, I don't know, she's saying I'm, I'm

1446
01:21:40.500 --> 01:21:43.740
being criticizing of her, but I'm feeling like I want more

1447
01:21:43.740 --> 01:21:46.000
care for my mom, better care for my mom.

1448
01:21:46.400 --> 01:21:47.720
But what's the intrusive thought?

1449
01:21:47.760 --> 01:21:52.960
I'm wondering if I'm like, hyper sensitive or hyper, um,

1450
01:21:53.760 --> 01:21:59.800
focusing on those things and, and, um, and also about my body,

1451
01:21:59.800 --> 01:22:02.400
not that I'm, I'm not out of shape necessarily, but I'm not

1452
01:22:02.400 --> 01:22:06.960
the way I was at 20 and 30 years old. So wondering how, when I'm

1453
01:22:06.960 --> 01:22:11.040
going to see this man that God has for me. Um, also, I'm

1454
01:22:11.040 --> 01:22:14.780
like, wow, like you're like, when's it my turn? And I'm not,

1455
01:22:14.860 --> 01:22:18.780
I'm definitely taking, um, captive those thoughts, but

1456
01:22:18.780 --> 01:22:21.300
right when it's happening and praying about it and saying, I

1457
01:22:21.300 --> 01:22:23.580
don't want to be jealous. I can't be jealous. He's not my

1458
01:22:23.580 --> 01:22:27.460
guy. It doesn't matter. It's okay. You know, but just kind

1459
01:22:27.460 --> 01:22:32.580
of feeling left out or when's it my turn? Like tired, just

1460
01:22:32.580 --> 01:22:37.340
exhausted, you know, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and,

1461
01:22:37.760 --> 01:22:43.040
um, but I know God's got it. So I'm just leaning in to his,

1462
01:22:43.360 --> 01:22:46.000
his, uh, new wine that he has for me and the water that he

1463
01:22:46.000 --> 01:22:50.440
has for me and, um, stepping into what he has. So I'm just,

1464
01:22:50.480 --> 01:22:54.440
I'm doing the best I can to not be out of sorts with whatever

1465
01:22:54.440 --> 01:22:57.840
circumstances are happening. And I'm just taking that I was

1466
01:22:57.840 --> 01:23:00.380
captive those, you know, scriptures and things like that.

1467
01:23:00.380 --> 01:23:06.440
So, um, yeah, just really, really taking those things out

1468
01:23:06.440 --> 01:23:09.100
and stepping into what he has for me and the water that he

1469
01:23:09.100 --> 01:23:12.140
has for me and the scriptures and things like that. So just

1470
01:23:12.140 --> 01:23:15.180
try not to be pulled into the junk and the devil, because

1471
01:23:15.340 --> 01:23:18.380
there's stuff happening. And I'm trying not my best not to get

1472
01:23:18.700 --> 01:23:21.260
pulled into the spiritual attacks that are happening

1473
01:23:21.260 --> 01:23:21.540
around.

1474
01:23:22.660 --> 01:23:26.420
So good. Y'all, this has been so good. I'm so thankful for

1475
01:23:26.420 --> 01:23:29.100
everything all of you have shared. I want to shift for just

1476
01:23:29.100 --> 01:23:34.180
a few minutes before I do that. I want everyone just to take a

1477
01:23:34.180 --> 01:23:37.320
minute to just open your own way. You don't need to unmute

1478
01:23:37.720 --> 01:23:41.160
just Lord, I'll let go of and say whatever your intrusive

1479
01:23:41.160 --> 01:23:44.000
thought is, because not everybody needs to open up and

1480
01:23:44.000 --> 01:23:47.720
share. But let's just like take a minute that you're going to

1481
01:23:47.720 --> 01:23:50.720
release that intrusive thought, whatever that thought for you

1482
01:23:50.720 --> 01:23:54.240
has been, even if it's been this last week, just something that

1483
01:23:54.240 --> 01:23:58.120
came out of nowhere, where you just felt attacked. And I saw

1484
01:23:58.120 --> 01:24:00.680
there was a question earlier when I was answering and talking

1485
01:24:00.680 --> 01:24:03.680
to the thing that Julia asked about, isn't surrender a big

1486
01:24:03.680 --> 01:24:06.980
yes, it is supernatural surrender, because sometimes we

1487
01:24:06.980 --> 01:24:11.860
can't do it on our own. And I want to say also, as several of

1488
01:24:11.860 --> 01:24:16.160
these individuals were talking, I heard the Lord say, let go of

1489
01:24:16.160 --> 01:24:22.180
expectations. Let go of expectations. I don't even

1490
01:24:22.180 --> 01:24:24.620
remember what I was reading yesterday. But it was talking

1491
01:24:24.620 --> 01:24:27.800
about something very similar, letting go of expectations on

1492
01:24:27.800 --> 01:24:32.340
ourselves. Hi, like unrealistic expectations. Let me let me,

1493
01:24:32.720 --> 01:24:36.320
let me correct what I was just saying. Not all expectations,

1494
01:24:36.320 --> 01:24:38.800
because we want you to have expectations of healthy people,

1495
01:24:38.820 --> 01:24:43.600
okay. But unrealistic expectations of yourself and

1496
01:24:43.600 --> 01:24:48.480
others. So if that's resonating for you tonight, like that you

1497
01:24:48.480 --> 01:24:51.480
would let go of these unrealistic expectations of

1498
01:24:51.480 --> 01:24:55.800
perfectionism, or you're comparing yourself to other

1499
01:24:55.800 --> 01:24:59.920
people, I forgot I had for Debbie Gordon, I wrote down

1500
01:24:59.920 --> 01:25:00.120
when

1501
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:06.560
You were sharing about your intrusive thoughts and you were saying you're not smart enough,

1502
01:25:06.560 --> 01:25:10.320
you're not good enough, you were saying all this stuff, and I heard in my spirit,

1503
01:25:10.320 --> 01:25:20.160
comparison trap, and the question came up in my spirit, was there or is there a sibling rivalry?

1504
01:25:20.160 --> 01:25:23.040
So not that you have to explain the whole thing, but just yes or no,

1505
01:25:23.040 --> 01:25:28.240
have you ever had sibling rivalry be an issue in your past?

1506
01:25:30.800 --> 01:25:32.560
You can unmute, Debbie.

1507
01:25:40.240 --> 01:25:41.360
Oh, there you go.

1508
01:25:42.000 --> 01:25:51.120
I have an older brother who's really smart and he could work math problems that I couldn't do.

1509
01:25:52.640 --> 01:25:58.640
When he and I took a physics class together and I asked him for help and he worked my problem,

1510
01:25:58.640 --> 01:26:02.080
but I didn't know what he did or how he got the answer he got.

1511
01:26:02.640 --> 01:26:09.760
And so I think for me, it's not so much as rivalry, it's just feeling so much

1512
01:26:12.240 --> 01:26:19.200
not as smart as he was. Math never came easy to me, school never came easy to me,

1513
01:26:19.200 --> 01:26:24.640
I worked my tail off. I learned, I was learned, I learned, but it took me work.

1514
01:26:25.200 --> 01:26:28.480
And so that comparison comes to him.

1515
01:26:29.360 --> 01:26:34.320
Right. So, okay. So think about rivalry, not in just the normal sense of it,

1516
01:26:34.320 --> 01:26:39.840
but internally and subconsciously, sometimes we are living in rivalry to someone else

1517
01:26:39.840 --> 01:26:45.440
because of that comparison. We're always wanting to be just as good at them or better than them.

1518
01:26:45.440 --> 01:26:51.520
And there's this internal driver that's leading us to try to compete still today.

1519
01:26:51.520 --> 01:26:56.480
Does that make sense? And I don't, I didn't even know if you had a sibling,

1520
01:26:56.480 --> 01:27:00.160
a hundred percent, no clue had, I didn't know, but God knew.

1521
01:27:00.160 --> 01:27:03.920
And basically I think some of these things, that's why I'm bringing it up. I think some

1522
01:27:03.920 --> 01:27:08.000
of the things that you're struggling with, because it sounds like you're like, I'm a coach,

1523
01:27:08.000 --> 01:27:13.440
I'm an author, I'm a speaker, yet you're hearing the tape, the intrusive thought,

1524
01:27:13.440 --> 01:27:19.760
you're not smart enough. And so it's not surprising to me that you felt like you

1525
01:27:19.760 --> 01:27:26.640
weren't as smart as your brother. Okay. So let's, let's ask the Lord, when is the first time you

1526
01:27:26.640 --> 01:27:34.320
did not feel like as smart as your brother, what was the situation that happened? Like specifically,

1527
01:27:34.320 --> 01:27:38.640
was there something like, you know, was there comparison between like your parents were

1528
01:27:38.640 --> 01:27:43.120
comparing you or what, you know, the Lord can tell you what that is. So you don't have to figure that

1529
01:27:43.120 --> 01:27:48.480
out on your own. Okay. And also I just want to make sure that, I love that y'all were trying to

1530
01:27:48.480 --> 01:27:56.800
help Gina about kind of like, what's that connection there that definitely Gina, make sure

1531
01:27:56.800 --> 01:28:02.320
you're asking the Lord for that. And I just want you to know, like, I, I think you connected the

1532
01:28:02.320 --> 01:28:08.000
dots just great, but I, in my, like, as I heard your story, I felt like it was God highlighting

1533
01:28:08.000 --> 01:28:13.280
that there is a connection there that he's wanting to make. And that's important for you.

1534
01:28:14.080 --> 01:28:23.440
So wanted to make sure I did touch back on that one. Also, excuse me. Okay. Mackenzie. Hello.

1535
01:28:25.600 --> 01:28:31.120
All right. So let's talk about this root of jealousy. So when's the first time that this

1536
01:28:31.120 --> 01:28:36.480
was showing up for you? Was it just recent or is this something is, has jealousy been something

1537
01:28:36.480 --> 01:28:45.200
that has been a struggle even in the past for you as well? Oh, hold on Hunter.

1538
01:28:46.560 --> 01:28:53.600
Um, I think that it like specific specifically has come up more recently in like probably the

1539
01:28:53.600 --> 01:28:58.960
last three years. And I wouldn't, I didn't necessarily identify it as jealousy more as

1540
01:28:58.960 --> 01:29:07.200
comparison because my middle sister kind of took some time away from our family. And so it became

1541
01:29:07.840 --> 01:29:17.200
like, it was almost, um, my mom and stuff began to like favor her and kind of, and so we both live

1542
01:29:17.200 --> 01:29:21.280
far away from our parents, but we live in the same area. And when they would come up,

1543
01:29:21.280 --> 01:29:26.560
it was always intentional of, they would want to hang out with her, but wouldn't be intentional

1544
01:29:26.560 --> 01:29:32.320
because I've been here. So it wasn't, I talked to them and all that kind of stuff. And recently

1545
01:29:33.120 --> 01:29:38.320
she got married, which is beautiful. Super. I'm super excited for her. That's not what it is,

1546
01:29:38.320 --> 01:29:44.080
but I think that's kind of what started stirring it up. And now I have like seven friends who are

1547
01:29:44.080 --> 01:29:49.600
getting married and also I'm like helping I'm the coordinator for several of them.

1548
01:29:49.600 --> 01:29:55.280
And so then it's coming up and then I have friends that just had babies too. So it's like

1549
01:29:55.280 --> 01:29:59.840
all of these kind of over and over again. And I'm like, okay, it's clear to me that the Lord

1550
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:03.240
is revealing it so that I can get healed.

1551
01:30:04.440 --> 01:30:08.120
Yeah, and so I wanna encourage you,

1552
01:30:08.120 --> 01:30:11.360
when this is going on with how your parents

1553
01:30:11.360 --> 01:30:15.200
wanna visit with her, what are the lies you're hearing?

1554
01:30:22.560 --> 01:30:27.560
I think that because she has more going on in her life

1555
01:30:28.560 --> 01:30:32.800
and they care more about what's going on in her life.

1556
01:30:34.800 --> 01:30:37.960
Okay, so that's step number one.

1557
01:30:37.960 --> 01:30:39.320
And then what I want you to do,

1558
01:30:39.320 --> 01:30:41.360
so spend some time with the Lord about that.

1559
01:30:41.360 --> 01:30:44.440
Like, hey, I'm believing,

1560
01:30:46.040 --> 01:30:48.280
the point would be to come out of agreement with that lie.

1561
01:30:48.280 --> 01:30:49.800
Yeah, yeah.

1562
01:30:49.800 --> 01:30:51.840
Not to partner with it anymore.

1563
01:30:51.840 --> 01:30:53.800
But the other thing is,

1564
01:30:53.800 --> 01:30:55.940
I feel like it's just the beginning, Mackenzie.

1565
01:30:55.940 --> 01:30:59.180
I think as you seek the Lord about that lie,

1566
01:30:59.180 --> 01:31:00.660
I want you to ask the Lord,

1567
01:31:00.660 --> 01:31:03.340
are there any other lies connected to this?

1568
01:31:04.620 --> 01:31:07.780
Where at some point you felt

1569
01:31:07.780 --> 01:31:10.820
like people favored your sister over you?

1570
01:31:14.100 --> 01:31:16.100
Because I'm sitting here thinking also,

1571
01:31:16.100 --> 01:31:17.300
as I'm saying that to you,

1572
01:31:17.300 --> 01:31:20.300
like you're having these friends getting married

1573
01:31:20.300 --> 01:31:25.260
and the root might be jealousy,

1574
01:31:25.260 --> 01:31:28.380
but underneath jealousy, if you guys remember,

1575
01:31:28.380 --> 01:31:31.060
underneath of anger is sadness, frustration,

1576
01:31:31.060 --> 01:31:32.420
all these other kinds of things.

1577
01:31:32.420 --> 01:31:35.340
So under jealousy is also other things.

1578
01:31:35.340 --> 01:31:38.580
So what's underneath of that?

1579
01:31:38.580 --> 01:31:39.940
Yeah.

1580
01:31:39.940 --> 01:31:42.340
So is it sadness?

1581
01:31:42.340 --> 01:31:47.340
Is it a lie that God is blessing everybody but you?

1582
01:31:47.500 --> 01:31:49.500
Like, those are the kinds of things,

1583
01:31:49.500 --> 01:31:51.220
the discovery where you,

1584
01:31:51.220 --> 01:31:54.500
remember, we're asking God really good questions, y'all.

1585
01:31:54.500 --> 01:31:56.660
We should always be asking him good questions.

1586
01:31:56.660 --> 01:31:59.840
Like, Lord, okay, like I had this hurt today.

1587
01:31:59.840 --> 01:32:01.460
Like this person said this,

1588
01:32:01.460 --> 01:32:04.380
like Brian and I just went through something

1589
01:32:04.380 --> 01:32:06.340
even in our church and like,

1590
01:32:06.340 --> 01:32:09.100
you can feel betrayed sometimes,

1591
01:32:09.100 --> 01:32:11.740
even though like, I don't know that those people

1592
01:32:11.740 --> 01:32:15.900
meant to like do something that would feel like betrayal,

1593
01:32:15.900 --> 01:32:20.900
but we gotta look, okay, why does it feel like betrayal?

1594
01:32:21.060 --> 01:32:23.420
And Lord, what do you wanna show me about it?

1595
01:32:23.420 --> 01:32:26.140
And sometimes it is betrayal, y'all, okay?

1596
01:32:26.140 --> 01:32:28.020
But I'm just, I'm using that as an example

1597
01:32:28.020 --> 01:32:32.260
because sometimes what we're feeling and thinking

1598
01:32:32.260 --> 01:32:34.940
isn't what someone else intended,

1599
01:32:34.940 --> 01:32:37.340
but it's what we're believing because of the filters

1600
01:32:37.340 --> 01:32:39.460
that are still like covering our heart.

1601
01:32:40.500 --> 01:32:41.340
Yeah.

1602
01:32:41.340 --> 01:32:42.340
And I think that as you're talking,

1603
01:32:42.340 --> 01:32:45.260
I think that the lie that is coming up is I,

1604
01:32:45.260 --> 01:32:48.340
I've always struggled not feeling chosen.

1605
01:32:48.340 --> 01:32:51.500
And so that's something that the Lord even like,

1606
01:32:51.500 --> 01:32:53.020
there's a radical story with that,

1607
01:32:53.620 --> 01:32:56.100
but just reminding myself that I am chosen.

1608
01:32:56.100 --> 01:33:00.380
And so then when it's like, they're choosing her over me,

1609
01:33:00.380 --> 01:33:03.900
I guess is probably the root of that coming up again.

1610
01:33:03.900 --> 01:33:04.740
Okay.

1611
01:33:04.740 --> 01:33:07.380
So when is the first time you felt like your parents

1612
01:33:07.380 --> 01:33:09.060
chose your sister over you?

1613
01:33:09.940 --> 01:33:11.620
That's where I would go next.

1614
01:33:11.620 --> 01:33:12.540
Okay.

1615
01:33:12.540 --> 01:33:13.540
Okay.

1616
01:33:13.540 --> 01:33:14.380
Yeah.

1617
01:33:14.380 --> 01:33:15.260
Very good, this is good.

1618
01:33:15.260 --> 01:33:16.100
Carrie Oliver.

1619
01:33:16.100 --> 01:33:16.940
Thank you.

1620
01:33:16.940 --> 01:33:17.860
You're welcome.

1621
01:33:17.860 --> 01:33:19.740
All right, so the one I wanna work on here,

1622
01:33:19.740 --> 01:33:21.740
because I feel like this is gonna resonate

1623
01:33:21.740 --> 01:33:23.260
for a lot of people,

1624
01:33:23.260 --> 01:33:26.180
because I'm hearing people say it and seeing,

1625
01:33:26.180 --> 01:33:28.380
even if they're not saying this outright

1626
01:33:28.380 --> 01:33:29.460
in some of the groups,

1627
01:33:29.460 --> 01:33:32.940
I've heard kind of similar themes coming out.

1628
01:33:32.940 --> 01:33:36.300
His answer will always be no.

1629
01:33:38.380 --> 01:33:40.180
God's answer will always be no,

1630
01:33:40.180 --> 01:33:41.580
basically is what you were saying.

1631
01:33:41.580 --> 01:33:42.820
That's a lie that you're believing.

1632
01:33:42.820 --> 01:33:44.180
That's an intrusive thought you're having.

1633
01:33:44.180 --> 01:33:47.740
So let's talk about this for a minute if you're willing to.

1634
01:33:47.740 --> 01:33:48.980
Are you okay to do that?

1635
01:33:48.980 --> 01:33:50.300
Okay, awesome.

1636
01:33:50.300 --> 01:33:53.700
So when is the first time that you heard

1637
01:33:53.700 --> 01:33:54.980
or believed that lie?

1638
01:33:56.980 --> 01:33:58.100
I remember,

1639
01:33:59.660 --> 01:34:02.060
you mean the lie that God's always gonna say no?

1640
01:34:04.740 --> 01:34:07.180
I'm trying to remember the exact moment,

1641
01:34:07.180 --> 01:34:09.660
but I do remember,

1642
01:34:09.660 --> 01:34:12.100
I grew up in kind of a legalistic church,

1643
01:34:12.100 --> 01:34:14.620
which I feel like God's been doing a lot of work

1644
01:34:14.620 --> 01:34:18.140
over the years of helping me recover from that.

1645
01:34:18.980 --> 01:34:23.980
And so I think I just grew up in a church family

1646
01:34:25.140 --> 01:34:27.220
that in some ways was really great,

1647
01:34:27.220 --> 01:34:30.180
but in other ways with the works-based religious stuff

1648
01:34:31.420 --> 01:34:33.420
caused me to believe that God,

1649
01:34:33.420 --> 01:34:36.460
there's just some things that God's gonna say no to,

1650
01:34:36.460 --> 01:34:39.620
and it doesn't matter what you say or how much you want it,

1651
01:34:39.620 --> 01:34:41.140
he's going to say no.

1652
01:34:41.140 --> 01:34:43.820
And I've had a few people in my life growing up

1653
01:34:43.820 --> 01:34:45.620
say that to me specifically.

1654
01:34:46.460 --> 01:34:51.460
That, you know, I remember one kind of mentor when I was,

1655
01:34:52.300 --> 01:34:54.300
it was just actually about 10 years ago

1656
01:34:55.260 --> 01:34:57.540
when I was not in that church anymore,

1657
01:34:58.940 --> 01:35:00.220
but she even said.

1658
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:03.360
like, you know, sometimes God says no to marriage, and you

1659
01:35:03.360 --> 01:35:06.440
just have to accept it. No matter how much you want it, you

1660
01:35:06.440 --> 01:35:09.800
just have to accept the No. And then somebody else said, I don't

1661
01:35:09.800 --> 01:35:14.080
think that God wants marriage for you. So it's, I've noticed

1662
01:35:14.120 --> 01:35:19.760
that these people you trust. Um, one person I did. And then what

1663
01:35:19.760 --> 01:35:23.000
was interesting is when she said to me, you know, I just think

1664
01:35:23.000 --> 01:35:27.680
you're too, because at the time, I was having some anxiety. And

1665
01:35:27.680 --> 01:35:32.560
she said that she felt I was too fragile for marriage. And

1666
01:35:32.560 --> 01:35:36.240
this was about also about 10 years ago, I feel like this just

1667
01:35:36.240 --> 01:35:39.720
out of curiosity, was this a friend? Was this a mentor? And

1668
01:35:39.740 --> 01:35:44.320
it was actually she is, she's older than me. And she was in a

1669
01:35:44.320 --> 01:35:47.800
Bible study I was in. So she wasn't really a mentor. But she

1670
01:35:47.800 --> 01:35:53.120
was somebody I definitely looked up to. And she met with me,

1671
01:35:53.120 --> 01:35:55.320
which was very sweet, because she knew I was going through

1672
01:35:55.320 --> 01:35:59.760
some anxiety and panic at the time was about 10 years ago. And

1673
01:35:59.800 --> 01:36:03.160
she I was just explaining, like some of my anxiety was like, you

1674
01:36:03.160 --> 01:36:08.120
know, I just I feel like God is I've got this fear that I'm

1675
01:36:08.120 --> 01:36:11.360
never going to get married. And then she said, Well, you know, I

1676
01:36:11.360 --> 01:36:13.960
just think you're with that anxiety, you're just too fragile

1677
01:36:13.960 --> 01:36:18.480
for marriage. But what is really interesting is in that moment, I

1678
01:36:18.480 --> 01:36:23.080
felt this really deep power in my spirit. And God was like, No,

1679
01:36:23.720 --> 01:36:27.680
don't believe her. And so it was really at the same time, like

1680
01:36:27.720 --> 01:36:32.680
amazing that God stepped in. And I was feeling at peace, which

1681
01:36:32.680 --> 01:36:36.520
normally I would have walked away, like kind of in fear. And

1682
01:36:36.520 --> 01:36:39.520
I didn't because I felt that presence of God in that moment.

1683
01:36:40.960 --> 01:36:43.720
Well, and I think that's really powerful. And I believe that

1684
01:36:43.720 --> 01:36:47.800
that did help you that day. But because of other wounds that

1685
01:36:47.800 --> 01:36:51.240
were already there, just from hearing you talk about it,

1686
01:36:51.240 --> 01:36:54.320
because it wouldn't come up again tonight, if it wasn't

1687
01:36:54.320 --> 01:36:57.280
still in your mind kind of running around in there a little

1688
01:36:57.280 --> 01:37:01.920
bit. But basically, I think it is because of other things that

1689
01:37:01.920 --> 01:37:05.960
you have been like been spoken over you. Like sometimes God

1690
01:37:05.960 --> 01:37:09.040
just says no, like all these different times. And I'm not

1691
01:37:09.040 --> 01:37:13.320
saying y'all there are times when I've told you all I'm so

1692
01:37:13.320 --> 01:37:17.840
thankful now that God told like, when and when I say this, God

1693
01:37:17.840 --> 01:37:21.520
didn't come and tell me no, but basically, he just defended me

1694
01:37:21.520 --> 01:37:24.840
and protected me from the girl's dad. And I didn't marry him,

1695
01:37:24.840 --> 01:37:28.120
praise the Lord. But back then I wanted to marry him. I thought

1696
01:37:28.120 --> 01:37:32.920
I wanted to marry him. But God, God didn't mark that with yes.

1697
01:37:33.280 --> 01:37:39.840
But he did it because he loved me. And so when you were

1698
01:37:39.840 --> 01:37:44.200
sharing that, you know, let's let's really ask the Lord for

1699
01:37:44.560 --> 01:37:48.880
anybody that this is resonating with. Let's ask the Lord, when

1700
01:37:48.880 --> 01:37:52.160
is the first time I actually believed God didn't love me?

1701
01:37:52.520 --> 01:38:00.040
When he said no. Because that's at the core. Genuinely, because

1702
01:38:00.040 --> 01:38:05.360
if you think about it, like, if our parents, if we know our

1703
01:38:05.360 --> 01:38:09.680
parents love us, and they tell us no, we might not like it. We

1704
01:38:09.680 --> 01:38:14.000
might not, especially as teenagers. But at the core, we

1705
01:38:14.000 --> 01:38:19.240
believe they love us. If you had parents that it wasn't safe, and

1706
01:38:19.240 --> 01:38:24.440
they controlled or manipulated and their nose were a form of

1707
01:38:24.440 --> 01:38:29.520
punishment. Well, then you would believe that God's no is also

1708
01:38:29.640 --> 01:38:33.760
punishment. And then his answer is always no. Does that make

1709
01:38:33.760 --> 01:38:37.600
sense? And so I would encourage you just to kind of ask the Lord

1710
01:38:37.600 --> 01:38:40.640
like, okay, so when's the first time I believe that God saying

1711
01:38:40.640 --> 01:38:41.880
no is a bad thing?

1712
01:38:43.160 --> 01:38:45.080
Yeah, that's good. That's a good reminder.

1713
01:38:45.240 --> 01:38:49.320
Yeah, like, because God is a good father, who gives good

1714
01:38:49.320 --> 01:38:53.040
gifts to his children. And, you know, it, he's faithful, and

1715
01:38:53.040 --> 01:38:58.200
he's kind, and he's loving. And so why would we believe that if

1716
01:38:58.200 --> 01:39:02.000
he's not saying yes to something, and he's saying no,

1717
01:39:02.000 --> 01:39:06.040
if you will, that it means he doesn't love us, or he's not

1718
01:39:06.040 --> 01:39:09.160
providing for us, or he doesn't want to give us something.

1719
01:39:10.160 --> 01:39:13.360
Because he sees way bigger than we do, right? He's seeing that

1720
01:39:13.360 --> 01:39:16.400
heavenly perspective. And so he's looking at the whole

1721
01:39:16.400 --> 01:39:20.480
scenario. And he's like, man, Carrie, like that picture. So

1722
01:39:20.480 --> 01:39:25.200
often, it's gone around on on the internet, where Jesus has

1723
01:39:25.200 --> 01:39:28.040
the big teddy bear behind his back. And the little girl, you

1724
01:39:28.040 --> 01:39:31.360
know, she's got this little tiny teddy bear. Y'all, that's one of

1725
01:39:31.360 --> 01:39:36.080
my favorite, favorite images. It literally helped me through

1726
01:39:36.320 --> 01:39:40.800
my years of not dating, because I just kept remembering, like,

1727
01:39:40.800 --> 01:39:45.600
God, you have something so much better for me. Like, I'm afraid

1728
01:39:45.600 --> 01:39:48.320
to give you my little teddy bear, but you've got something

1729
01:39:48.320 --> 01:39:52.720
better. And so that's what I think of even just talking about

1730
01:39:52.720 --> 01:39:56.920
this with you, Carrie. But I do think just for you, I believe

1731
01:39:56.920 --> 01:39:59.480
God's marking you with yes.

1732
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:06.000
I think he's actually marking you with yes, but the enemy is trying to convince you that his answer to you is always no.

1733
01:40:06.000 --> 01:40:14.000
And these people have come along in your life and it built that stronghold stronger and stronger and stronger every time.

1734
01:40:14.000 --> 01:40:25.000
And so y'all understand that we have the opportunity tonight, all of us, to not only confess, like y'all shared, so many of you shared and I'm so proud of you.

1735
01:40:25.000 --> 01:40:31.000
And even those were sharing in the chat and some of you have shared privately where you're at.

1736
01:40:31.000 --> 01:40:40.000
But the goal is to come out of alignment with this stuff and to really allow God to rewrite that part of your storyline.

1737
01:40:40.000 --> 01:40:49.000
So I want you all to like in this next week, I want you to really be asking God like, God, thank you for coming in and rewriting this part of my timeline,

1738
01:40:49.000 --> 01:41:01.000
helping me understand, you know, the root of why I believe that you don't love me and that you're withholding from me.

1739
01:41:01.000 --> 01:41:05.000
And I know I believed God loved me. I did.

1740
01:41:05.000 --> 01:41:16.000
But there was parts of myself when I really was honest with myself, where I actually didn't fully believe that.

1741
01:41:16.000 --> 01:41:22.000
Because I was still had lies in these old tapes that were telling me something different.

1742
01:41:22.000 --> 01:41:31.000
And again, it wasn't that it wasn't true. I knew God loved me, but there was a part of my heart that wasn't healed yet that was telling me he didn't.

1743
01:41:31.000 --> 01:41:34.000
Does everyone understand?

1744
01:41:35.000 --> 01:41:47.000
And so that's why even I'm always so big on let's grow further in the understanding of who God is as love to understand his character, to understand his desire to bless you.

1745
01:41:47.000 --> 01:41:52.000
And for some of you, you know, you've gone through so much and I'm so sorry that you have.

1746
01:41:52.000 --> 01:42:01.000
But it's it's caused you to believe that God is mean and he's stingy and he teases you and he's a trickster and all this stuff.

1747
01:42:01.000 --> 01:42:04.000
But he's not. He's good.

1748
01:42:04.000 --> 01:42:08.000
And so if we are struggling to believe that he's good.

1749
01:42:08.000 --> 01:42:17.000
Well, then that's the revealing for healing that we need another we need another upgrade in the understanding of his love for us.

1750
01:42:17.000 --> 01:42:20.000
And it doesn't mean it's going to, like, make it go away overnight, y'all.

1751
01:42:20.000 --> 01:42:25.000
It's not necessarily like that. Sometimes it is that supernatural, like just delivered.

1752
01:42:25.000 --> 01:42:28.000
And other times it's just walking it out one day at a time.

1753
01:42:28.000 --> 01:42:39.000
And so in the next several days, everything that you all have confessed as well, just know the enemy is going to come knocking and he's going to come see, like, knock, knock, knock on your door.

1754
01:42:39.000 --> 01:42:44.000
Are you going to open the door and partner with this again?

1755
01:42:44.000 --> 01:42:49.000
And so we have to get really good at like, you know what? No, Satan.

1756
01:42:49.000 --> 01:42:52.000
Not today. I'm not opening this door.

1757
01:42:52.000 --> 01:42:55.000
I'm believing and partnering with instead.

1758
01:42:55.000 --> 01:42:57.000
This is what God is saying.

1759
01:42:57.000 --> 01:42:59.000
So what is God saying to you?

1760
01:42:59.000 --> 01:43:05.000
Because, you know, we confess if you look back at the revealing for healing cycle, you guys pull that stuff back out.

1761
01:43:05.000 --> 01:43:07.000
That is a tool for you.

1762
01:43:07.000 --> 01:43:09.000
Remember, you're cycling all the way through.

1763
01:43:09.000 --> 01:43:11.000
What's the lie? What's the trauma?

1764
01:43:11.000 --> 01:43:15.000
What are the memories that are not healthy, but you're not stopping there.

1765
01:43:15.000 --> 01:43:18.000
You want to go all the way on the other side to the truth.

1766
01:43:18.000 --> 01:43:23.000
So what's the truth to replace the lie, that intrusive thought that you're having?

1767
01:43:23.000 --> 01:43:26.000
What's the truth that's the opposite of that?

1768
01:43:27.000 --> 01:43:29.000
What's the truth?

1769
01:43:29.000 --> 01:43:31.000
And the truth is what we stand on.

1770
01:43:31.000 --> 01:43:33.000
Yeah. Say goodbye to the lies.

1771
01:43:33.000 --> 01:43:36.000
I don't know. I don't know who said it.

1772
01:43:36.000 --> 01:43:39.000
I wish I could remember the whole not today, devil, not today.

1773
01:43:39.000 --> 01:43:42.000
But I just remember it was so impactful when I saw it.

1774
01:43:42.000 --> 01:43:45.000
And I do the hand every time because that's what they did.

1775
01:43:45.000 --> 01:43:48.000
They literally like just like a stop sign.

1776
01:43:48.000 --> 01:43:49.000
Just stop right there.

1777
01:43:49.000 --> 01:43:51.000
Like you're not coming in today.

1778
01:43:52.000 --> 01:43:56.000
And some days that is going to be harder than others, but we can do it and we can do it together.

1779
01:43:57.000 --> 01:43:58.000
Right?

1780
01:43:58.000 --> 01:44:00.000
Remember, we're better together.

1781
01:44:00.000 --> 01:44:01.000
I know we went long tonight.

1782
01:44:01.000 --> 01:44:03.000
I wanted to coach on a couple.

1783
01:44:04.000 --> 01:44:10.000
Y'all, if you have one that you really feel like you need help processing where it came from for you,

1784
01:44:10.000 --> 01:44:12.000
you can post in the group.

1785
01:44:12.000 --> 01:44:18.000
I will do my best to come in the groups as much as I can over the next few days to help with that.

1786
01:44:18.000 --> 01:44:20.000
But I'm also preaching on Sunday.

1787
01:44:20.000 --> 01:44:22.000
So if I don't get back to you right away, I will.

1788
01:44:22.000 --> 01:44:24.000
My team might respond to you first.

1789
01:44:24.000 --> 01:44:28.000
But I'm doing a lot the next few days to prepare for that.

1790
01:44:28.000 --> 01:44:30.000
But no, I love you all.

1791
01:44:30.000 --> 01:44:31.000
Jackie loves you all.

1792
01:44:31.000 --> 01:44:32.000
We're so glad that you're here.

1793
01:44:32.000 --> 01:44:35.000
We hope that tonight was insightful and helpful.

1794
01:44:35.000 --> 01:44:37.000
Remember, we're not stopping here.

1795
01:44:37.000 --> 01:44:39.000
We're going for the truth.

1796
01:44:39.000 --> 01:44:40.000
So what's the truth?

1797
01:44:40.000 --> 01:44:43.000
Well, to get to the truth, you have to know what the lie is.

1798
01:44:43.000 --> 01:44:45.000
So that's why I asked a couple of these people.

1799
01:44:45.000 --> 01:44:47.000
Okay, you feel jealousy.

1800
01:44:47.000 --> 01:44:48.000
You're struggling with jealousy.

1801
01:44:48.000 --> 01:44:54.000
But what is the lie that you're hearing, like with Mackenzie, like when her parents came to town?

1802
01:44:54.000 --> 01:44:55.000
Like what's the lie?

1803
01:44:55.000 --> 01:44:57.000
What's coming up?

1804
01:44:57.000 --> 01:45:00.000
If you are feeling rejected.

1805
01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:05.200
on the dating apps and all this stuff, okay, well, you feel rejected, but what is the lie?

1806
01:45:06.800 --> 01:45:13.040
Does everyone understand? All right, awesome. Let me pray for us. Father, thank you so much. I almost

1807
01:45:13.040 --> 01:45:18.720
said so good because I saw Shadi. Yes, Father, so good. Y'all, you can have a little party with me.

1808
01:45:18.720 --> 01:45:22.960
These are the kind of silly things that start happening when it gets late around here in Eastern

1809
01:45:22.960 --> 01:45:27.520
Time Zone. Those of you that are also in Eastern Time Zone, I'm so grateful you're here too.

1810
01:45:28.240 --> 01:45:33.280
Father, thank you so much for everything, God, that you're doing. We thank you for

1811
01:45:33.280 --> 01:45:39.120
revealings for healing that are going to continue to happen and for freedom to become manifest in

1812
01:45:39.120 --> 01:45:44.400
our lives, our hearts, our bodies. God, yes, thank you that our bodies will even shift. And I just

1813
01:45:44.400 --> 01:45:49.840
speak over Tammy right now, God, that you would create supernatural hair growth. And I pray that

1814
01:45:49.840 --> 01:45:56.320
you would just help her to find people in person that she can do community with and that will

1815
01:45:56.320 --> 01:46:01.680
accept her exactly the way that she is, but also help her just to know how you see her. God, we

1816
01:46:01.680 --> 01:46:06.960
thank you for changing us from the inside out, God. We thank you that you don't leave us how

1817
01:46:06.960 --> 01:46:13.920
you found us. You invite us into an amazing, incredible love story, God. We thank you that you

1818
01:46:15.040 --> 01:46:21.600
are taking all of the broken pieces of our lives and you're that master craftsman and you are the

1819
01:46:21.600 --> 01:46:28.960
potter and we're the clay and you're just continuing to lovingly form us into the masterpiece

1820
01:46:28.960 --> 01:46:33.280
that you created us to be. God, we thank you that you would place a hedge of protection over our

1821
01:46:33.280 --> 01:46:37.840
minds, God, that we would take every thought captive and make it obedient to Jesus Christ,

1822
01:46:37.840 --> 01:46:42.720
that we would know your truth, that your truth is what sets us free. So Lord, help us to have

1823
01:46:42.720 --> 01:46:48.880
your truth revealed that literally people would be waking up from sleep and just hear truth

1824
01:46:49.520 --> 01:46:56.000
from your voice. And Lord, whoever was earlier, one of the ladies said that she's asking God for

1825
01:46:56.000 --> 01:47:01.600
help. People are saying, ask God, ask God, and she's not hearing you, Lord. That might've been

1826
01:47:01.600 --> 01:47:07.040
Carrie Reed. I'm not sure who that was, but Lord, I thank you that you would open our open ears to

1827
01:47:07.040 --> 01:47:12.400
hear, but also God, I don't think it's necessarily that she's not hearing you, but I think she maybe

1828
01:47:12.400 --> 01:47:17.440
just isn't sure how you're talking to her because you talk to everybody differently. So Lord,

1829
01:47:17.440 --> 01:47:22.560
if for her, for anybody else on here, that's struggling with that, where it's just like,

1830
01:47:22.560 --> 01:47:27.360
God, I don't hear you and everybody's talking about this and I can't, God, I thank you that

1831
01:47:28.240 --> 01:47:33.680
you would give them dreams, that you would give them visions, God, that you would, yeah, Lord,

1832
01:47:33.680 --> 01:47:38.400
just start to highlight things for them and help them understand that. Like even one day I was on

1833
01:47:38.400 --> 01:47:42.240
a walk, God, and you just showed me an animal. And all of a sudden you started talking to me,

1834
01:47:42.880 --> 01:47:47.200
not through the animal, because it wasn't weird, but just about the animal. Like you were showing

1835
01:47:47.200 --> 01:47:51.680
me something prophetic and I had never paid attention to stuff like that before. And God,

1836
01:47:51.680 --> 01:47:56.240
all of a sudden it opened this whole other way that you were communicating with me. So God,

1837
01:47:56.240 --> 01:48:00.480
I thank you that you have made us creative and that you're creative. So God, I thank you that

1838
01:48:00.480 --> 01:48:06.880
you'll help us to understand and receive all the different ways that you speak to us. We thank you,

1839
01:48:06.880 --> 01:48:12.160
God, for your blessing upon our lives. We thank you for hedger protection around Jackie and David

1840
01:48:12.800 --> 01:48:16.880
while they're traveling. God, we ask for your blessing upon this podcast tomorrow, God,

1841
01:48:17.760 --> 01:48:21.200
and all the other things that they're on this trip for. God, we're thanking for,

1842
01:48:21.200 --> 01:48:26.880
yeah, thank you for divine favor, open windows of heaven, pouring out a blessing that which we

1843
01:48:26.880 --> 01:48:32.560
as a community could not contain it, but also Jackie and David and God, just for divine wisdom,

1844
01:48:32.560 --> 01:48:38.160
revelation. We know, God, man, she's so talented in hearing you, God, and communicating it to

1845
01:48:38.160 --> 01:48:44.080
people. But God, we ask for a double portion of that blessing tomorrow in Jesus name. Amen.

1846
01:48:44.080 --> 01:48:50.080
We love you all. Have a great night, everyone. We'll see you in the groups. Bye.