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Hello, welcome.

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Happy Monday.

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So glad you all are here and that you're joining us tonight to make sure the notes thing if

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y'all see that pop up I can turn that off that's not supposed to be on during our sessions

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but are the AI from zoom keeps asking us about that but so glad that you're here and here

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for another round of heart work and I'm so excited about what God has planned for tonight.

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Just a couple few little housekeeping things to get us started.

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Welcome as those are continuing to come in supernatural Saturday on Saturday was what

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is your watermark and that's where some of y'all are going to be seeing posts from people

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there's already people commenting and posting about this is their this is it statement.

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If you don't know what they mean that's from supernatural Saturday definitely encourage

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you all to check that out and just see what the Lord wants to say to you through that

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and even if that really you were there live or heard the replay and it really blessed

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you want to encourage you to listen to it again.

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Even myself I felt like God was definitely calling not just me higher but our whole community

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higher together and so I want to encourage you all to lean into what is God saying to

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you in this season.

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What is your this is it declaration and what is God saying to you about your future to

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come and the days ahead.

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If you haven't noticed in the app in the last year single app under the community tab

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every Sunday we put up what we call a roll call post those are going to go up every single

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Sunday that the kind of the goal of these it's a couple of things it's kind of morphed

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over time it's number one is to check in on you how are you doing what week are you on

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in the course.

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Hey you all even if you're not where you want to be totally still check in it's okay tell

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us about the frustrations the wins the you know where you need prayer whatever it is

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that you feel like you want to share with us we want to hear it from you but also what

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we've started doing is we're combining the content from Supernatural Saturday a little

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bit we're not going to give it all to you but just to get you all to activate that Supernatural

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Saturday very quickly because if you're not able to come to Sunday nights you know that

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we don't record those y'all we do that for a reason because we do several breakouts and

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there's a lot of sharing and I know we do that during this heart work but only the people

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in heart work hear this replay okay that's a co-ed session that there's a lot of people

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that would have access to that replay and in this season right now we're just not doing

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that maybe we'll change our mind at some point but we believe that's the best decision for

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the community at this time and so if you can't catch the replay one of the ways for Sunday

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night one of the ways you can activate Supernatural Saturday with all of us here in this group

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is to create a post about your this is it moment season and what are the declarations

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that God is giving you to say okay hopefully that made sense but I just want to encourage

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you all to partner with what's happening in the community and and you know if you had

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to choose you know out of all the things obviously I think the heart work session live your your

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actual heart work videos are super important but Supernatural Saturday y'all I'm telling

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you game changer game changer I'm a strong advocate for our prayer if you didn't know

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we have Monday through Thursday prayer with just women we just pray as sisters together

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we pray for the community we pray for what God is saying over us we pray for the men

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we pray for Jackie and David and the team and you all literally I'm here to tell you

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that things we've been praying for for years we're seeing start starting to happen in the

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community with even open doors and things that are happening for Jackie and David and

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guess what everything that happens for Jackie and David happens for us as a community so

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I hope that you all understand the impact of what God is doing in this time and season

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and what does that mean for you here in the heart work well it means that we have more

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things coming in that we can then provide for the people that are in heart work you

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know additional coaches all kinds of stuff and so we're super excited about that we also

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have faith Friday if you've never been to a faith Friday prayer call typically David

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Jackie's husband leads those they're really really awesome I used to lead it until David

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stepped in and started leading that so that I could kind of step in and do some other

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things and just because he loves to be there and it's really awesome because it's it's

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the one time we have you know a male leader praying and over the community and over the

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women and with the men but we really take a time to brag on Jesus about what what he's

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doing in our lives and so I want to encourage you all to join those when you can obviously

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understand if you can't join all the time or if you're working and you're not able we're

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so sorry about that but just join when you're able I used to work all the time and sometimes

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I would listen in and even if I couldn't talk on occasion

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So I believe that it will encourage you.

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Faith Friday's for everyone.

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Yep, it's on your calendar.

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It's in the app on your event calendar, ladies, okay?

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If you are in the HeartWork program,

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then that is in your calendar, all right?

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Awesome, so let me welcome you.

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Do we have anyone new joining us?

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This is your first session.

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You've never been here for a live session before.

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If so, put that in the chat for us

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so we can welcome you.

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We're so glad that you're here.

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For all of my ladies joining,

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again, you've been here before

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and you're coming back for more.

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I'm so, so glad to see you.

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Love seeing all of you every single Monday.

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And honestly, when you move into the other phases,

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I miss you, you're my ladies.

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And so it's so fun to see you in future parts of the program

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as you all know, I think by now I'm leading

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in different areas of the community all of the time.

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Is it Jovanya, is that how you say your name?

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Yes, that's correct.

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Awesome, I'm so glad.

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Welcome, we're so glad that you're here.

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Thank you.

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Yes, yes, yes, yes.

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Anyone else joining us new for the first time tonight?

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All right, put it in the chat for me so I can see you.

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We're gonna get moving.

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Let me pray for us.

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Father, thank you so much.

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God, just for the reminder that your grace is sufficient.

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God, in every season, and even as these ladies

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are walking through the heartwork,

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sometimes the up moments, the tough moments,

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the valley moments, God, and everything in between

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each area and aspect of that, God,

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we thank you that you would meet them in those moments

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and you would bring relief, that you would bring rest,

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that you would bring peace,

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that you would breathe life into them in a fresh way.

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God, we're asking you to come and do a supernatural work

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in their hearts tonight.

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God, we thank you for the word that you've prepared,

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just the things you've put on my heart,

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the things that even started coming to the surface

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this afternoon as I led the other session.

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Lord, we thank you, God, for bringing darkness to light.

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Lord, help us to hear what your spirit is saying.

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Help us to step into the truth and the hope

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and the revelation that brings life.

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Your truth is what sets us free.

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So, Lord, we thank you that you would help us

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to apply the blood of Jesus Christ and the truth

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to every area where we need it.

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Help us to, yeah, Lord, get out of our own way,

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to humble ourselves under your mighty hand.

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And we just thank you for deliverance.

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We thank you for healing.

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We thank you for righteousness and joy and peace

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that is ours.

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Not just, you know, one day, someday,

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but God, that you're the God of peace

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and that your peace will enter our hearts and our minds

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and our spirits, our bodies,

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even for those that have been afflicted by illnesses

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and disease and sickness for years.

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We just speak healing to their bodies.

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In Jesus name, amen and amen.

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I'm really excited tonight to be leading you all

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through the real you and some of the things

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that God has led me to put together

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for our journey this evening.

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If you don't know what that means,

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one of the things we talk about in this community

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is who God originally created us to be.

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Like when he formed us and he created us in the beginning,

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who did he originally create us to be?

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And that we wanna step further into that every day

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and come out of alignment and agreement

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with any counterfeit identities

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or anything that does not look like that original Sarah,

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that original Lori, that original Karen

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that he created us to be.

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And he's saying, yes, I want you to step into this.

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And so tonight we're gonna dive into like,

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what does that look like?

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What does that sound like?

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What are some of the ways that we can actually step in

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to the real us or hey,

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how do we even know who the real us is?

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I don't know about you all,

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but when I went through this course,

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I can remember thinking at times like,

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how do I know to trust myself?

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How do I know that that's the counterfeit

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or what's real and all of those things,

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the more that you heal,

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the more that you will discern what is true,

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noble, lovely and of good report,

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the things that are above only and not beneath

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as scripture declares,

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the more you're gonna discern the voice of God

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versus the voice of the enemy

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and sometimes even our own thoughts.

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If you all continue on in the program,

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you will get to a point where you're in the community

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where we have some of the teachings

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that we've even been doing recently

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about intrusive thoughts and taking people further

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into the understanding of how those show up in our lives.

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there's a lot more content,

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even beyond heart work that is waiting for you

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as you continue and that you're gonna have support systems

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and teachings and things to continue

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to help you come into revelation

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and understanding of all that God has for you.

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it's not gonna just stop here, okay?

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From relationship stuff, to heart work stuff,

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to mindset stuff, to graces on your face,

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well, what does that mean?

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You know, all these kind of things.

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So you have so much to look forward to.

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Tonight, as we step into the real you,

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I want you to be thinking about

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and asking God about your true identity.

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But we're gonna start tonight

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by talking about the story in Genesis very quickly.

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When God and Adam were having a conversation

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and God said to Adam, who told you that you were naked?

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I'm gonna read it for you now.

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Genesis 3, 8 through 11 says this.

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Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God

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as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day.

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And they hid from the Lord God

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among the trees of the garden.

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But the Lord God called to the man, where are you?

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Adam answered.

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He answered, I heard you in the garden

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and I was afraid because I was naked, so I hid.

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I wanna pause there.

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I didn't even catch this earlier.

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Both Adam and Eve hid.

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But in that moment, Adam is saying, I was afraid.

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I was naked, so I hid.

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Y'all, Eve went with him.

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You know, I just, I kind of think about influence there.

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And don't step into the being mad at men

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when I say this, okay?

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But men struggle too.

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Do you see the dynamic here?

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So can we have grace tonight

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and understanding that sometimes men

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have to carry the mantle and it's not always easy?

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All right, I'm gonna keep going.

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Adam's saying, I heard you in the garden

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and I was afraid because I was naked, so I hid.

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And he said, being God, saying to Adam,

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who told you that you were naked?

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Have you eaten from the tree

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that I commanded you to not eat from?

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I'm bringing this up tonight

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because there are aspects in our lives,

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things that have happened to us, things that we've done,

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where when those things have taken place

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or we've made those choices,

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they have caused us in some way, shape or form

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to go into hiding, to be afraid,

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and to show up exactly how Adam and Eve did in the garden.

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They spent so much time with God.

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They knew him, they were close with him,

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yet when they ate the fruit and their eyes were opened,

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I believe, just this is my heart,

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I don't know that I have scripture to support it,

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but genuinely, if I'm just thinking through

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the unfolding of this, what causes us to hide?

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Well, I know in my life, shame, guilt, condemnation,

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those are things that cause me to tend to wanna pull away

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or go and hide from people or situations,

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or I don't know about you all either on this,

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but sometimes even, and my husband and I don't fight,

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but on occasion, I feel like when we're both tired

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or hungry, the little bit of tensions that pop up,

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even that, I'm like, oh, I don't wanna look at him

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for a little bit, not because I don't wanna look at him,

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but what's going on in me?

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There's something that happens in me

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that when conflict happens,

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I have a hard time reconnecting.

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I grew up in a house where there was a lot of fighting,

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there was a lot of hitting,

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Brian doesn't hit me, just so y'all know,

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there was a lot of hitting and all that kind of craziness,

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and so even though it's not anything like that,

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I still struggle to recover quickly on occasion.

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but for me, I can tell there's still some healing

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to happen there so that I can continue

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to allow that to be transformed.

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Y'all understand what I'm saying?

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There's a part of me that still, even in my subconscious,

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my body will tell me to do things that I don't need to do,

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I don't need to hide, I don't need to avoid my husband,

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he's one of the most loving people I know, genuinely,

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he's the most forgiving, he is quick to,

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literally, quick to apologize, humble himself,

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bring reconciliation, bring closeness,

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and I always respond to that, but even sometimes,

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even when I'm responding to that, I feel the walls.

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Can anyone relate to me right now?

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Yeah, Katie, so what I'm saying is not staying mad

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for a long time about things, whether, you know,

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and again, we don't fight about a lot,

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but even the little things sometimes can,

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if we allow them, become, what is it,

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mall hills into mountains?

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Isn't that the saying?

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Something like that, right?

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And how do they become like that?

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Well, some of it's because we hide,

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we don't turn into relationship,

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we turn away because we're angry or hurt or frustrated.

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We all have feelings and emotions, but what do we do with them?

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That's kind of the key.

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And so the reason I'm kind of setting this stage a little bit tonight

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is that I genuinely have been thinking about this a lot the last week or so,

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because we had a situation that happened in the church

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where somebody was just causing an issue over nothing, really,

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and it was like this little scuttlebug.

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They got on the phone, they started talking to a couple other people,

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you know how that goes.

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Well, it really hurt my husband. It hurt him.

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Well, then when he got hurt, well, then I'm upset,

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because I'm a protector, you all.

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I am. I'm a mama bear, and I'm a protector for my husband.

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And so, you know, praying and talking it through

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and feeling frustrated and hurt as well myself.

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And you want to know what I said?

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And, y'all, I'm being fully transparent tonight.

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I said, man, I just don't know that I'm just going to trust them very much now.

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And I think we just need to have some walls up and be careful.

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I said that.

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Now, I'm not saying if they were repeatedly toxic, okay, at that point, yeah.

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But this was, so far, a one-time thing.

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And so thankfully, thankfully the Lord in His goodness towards me

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was, like, talking to me, nudged me to read more in this book

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that I'm reading about overcoming offense and not getting stuck in bitterness.

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And I'm just kind of biting little bites of this book

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because I'm digesting a lot at a time when I'm processing what it's saying.

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And so I happened to read in the book in literally the three pages, y'all.

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I only read three pages.

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The bait of Satan is what it's called.

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But I don't want you all to go and get that when you're in heart work,

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because it's a lot, okay.

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I want you to focus on heart work.

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It's a lot in a good way.

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After you're done with heart work, 100% go for it.

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The bait of Satan.

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Offense is one of the biggest things that the enemy will use

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to try to take us out in the body of Christ, okay.

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Yeah, I read it years ago, too, but God has me going back through it.

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Jen, I loved it then, and I'm loving it again.

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But let me not get too far off track.

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I get distracted, little bunny trails here.

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But the reason I'm saying that to you is that the Holy Spirit

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was talking to me about keeping my walls down and keeping my love on.

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That's another book.

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And it really was challenging me to not go into hiding.

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Interestingly enough, you all, I preached on Sunday,

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and part of my message was about coming out of hiding.

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God was healing me as I was writing and typing

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and putting my heart out there.

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And I meant it.

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I meant what I was saying.

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And so I was processing, like, you've got to hear your own words.

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You've got to walk in this,

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because you've got to walk in it before you can preach it, right?

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Teachers and preachers are held to higher accountability.

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And so I did.

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And I processed that out.

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And I told the Lord, like, you know, I, you know,

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thankfully these people, a couple of them made it right with my husband.

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So I got to see healing happening as we were praying

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and chose not to get angry.

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We just prayed.

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We prayed together.

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We talked and processed.

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People asked for forgiveness to Brian.

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And then the one person said, so how's Bethany?

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Is she mad at me too?

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This one person in particular, he was worried about was I mad at him too.

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And when my husband told me, I said, well, I am mad, you know?

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And I said, but I'll get there.

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I'll get there.

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And by Sunday, you all.

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I think it was like two days later, even in the morning,

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I really didn't want to have to see this person before I preached.

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I just wanted to get up there and preach and release the message.

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And it wasn't that I didn't want to see them in a mean way.

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I just didn't want to have to deal with that before I had to go up and

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preach.

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But you know what?

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I saw his wife.

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And her and I got to talk in and she shared that she was worried.

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I was going to be upset with her too, even though she hadn't done anything.

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And my heart just, you know, softened a little bit more and talking to her.

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And I kept thinking, okay, y'all, you know,

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had a good conversation with her, but I'm still not Lord.

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I'm not sure I still want to deal with this right now.

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And you all, I went up in my seat and, you know,

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We're getting ready to start worship. And, and the Lord just said, Bethany,

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do it now, do it now.

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So I walked over to him and I sat in front of him and I,

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I grabbed his hand and I just said, Hey, we're good.

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And he said, really? I said, yeah, we're good.

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And you all in that moment, his look was like relief.

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And I shared some other things with him that I don't need to go into tonight, but I want you to know in that moment, I chose to not go into hiding and I invited someone else to do the same.

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It's up to them what they do with it, but we can invite people to not go into hiding as we come out of hiding, as we choose to resist to go into hiding and put walls up.

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And, you know, understanding that people make mistakes. We all make mistakes.

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And so now if it became a toxic behavior and that person did the same kind of things again, well, then that's a different story, maybe.

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Okay.

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But as you're hearing this, I want you to understand that God might be inviting you tonight to come out of hiding and different ways.

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And maybe also ask someone else that, you know, to do the same when God opens the door for you to do so.

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What does it mean to be, to come out of hiding?

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It means to show up fully, fully, fully, fully, not holding anything back.

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Can you imagine you're just heart wide open and you're just living big.

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You're believing big, you're living big.

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You're not hunched shoulders anymore, thinking that God's not looking out for you, that he doesn't have his best for you.

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Like you're living intentionally, being authentic, present and engaged in your life.

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You're intentionally choosing to be fully present in every moment, recognizing your true self and actively participating in life with purpose and intention.

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Again, not holding anything back.

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When you, when we show up, as I was saying, as, as our authentic, genuine, true self, we often give permission, give others permission to do the same.

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So we're all on this journey every single day to grow in our understanding of who we are in Christ, as well as that original story that he wrote for us before trauma or wounds ever entered our life.

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There was a book that I read years ago, too.

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Y'all, I read a lot.

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So I talk about books and movies a lot because I read a lot and I like movies and God talks to me through movies and music.

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So you're going to hear me reference that kind of stuff often, but I almost wasn't going to say it again tonight, but it came back up in my spirit again.

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So I'm going to mention it.

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And it was about, I don't remember the title or I would tell you all, but the concept was very similar to what we're talking about, but it was in a, like about a war, war kind of torn area.

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And the government was coming in and hurting families.

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I'm going to give you guys the very edited version, uh, hurting families, you know, children, adults, all of it.

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And, uh, they came into this one house and the two children got away, brother and sister.

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They got away.

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They ran into the woods.

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Unfortunately, the parents didn't, um, they heard what was happening to their parents before they ran away and whatnot, but they go into the, they go into the forest and, uh, the brother and the sister are originally in there together.

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I can't, I can't even remember what happened to the brother, but at some point he's no longer with her.

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I can't remember if he ended up getting caught by the people, but this, this girl in the story is hiding.

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And, uh, what was known kind of as a safe place for her in that time ended up becoming kind of like a prison in a sense, because she became so afraid to leave the woods, even long after these people were gone.

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And, and that's kind of the, what I want you to be thinking about tonight.

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Like maybe some of you all you're in a safe place inside of yourself.

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Imagine the wooded area and God is actually coming.

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People that actually came to help her later on family, other family members came to look for her and they were calling out to her and she wouldn't come out.

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And I believe the Lord is calling out to some of us and he's like, it's safe.

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It's safe now.

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Like you can come out, but we're still afraid a little bit on the inside in some way, shape or form.

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And, and he, he wants you to know that it's okay.

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Like it's okay if that's how you feel, but don't stay there.

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Admit that's where you're at so that God can help you come out of that place.

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Is there any part of yourself where you tend to hold back with people, even when you are safe?

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That's also where I'm going.

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Or maybe you share part of your life, part of yourself with them, but you don't really feel like you can show them your true self.

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Now y'all keep in mind.

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I do think that, um, about a handful of people are who we can really cut up and be our, like the fool, silly leave, like no holds barred.

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You know, those things that you reserve for just the people that really see you in the ins and outs of you every day.

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Um, I'm not saying we have.

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to show every single person in the world, every aspect of ourselves.

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But what I am saying is that the coming out of hiding is even when you're safe,

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even with the, when you're with those safe people, are there things in aspects

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of yourself that you're not showing them for whatever reason, and that's what I

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want you to be thinking about writing it down on your paper.

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If something comes to mind, it's really interesting, Monica, because

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I'm about to read those lyrics.

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I'm not going to read the whole song, but this is a song that has really

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ministered to me so much over the years.

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It's called Out of Hiding by Stephanie Gretzinger.

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Come out of hiding.

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You're safe here with me.

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There's no need to cover what I already see.

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You've got your reasons, but I hold your peace.

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You've been on lockdown and I hold the key.

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I believe she's singing this.

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It's a Christian song.

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She's singing this as if this is the heart of the father singing to us.

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She goes on, because I loved you before you knew it was love.

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And I saw it all.

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So I chose the cross and you were the one that I was thinking

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of when I rose from the grave.

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Now rid of the shackles.

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My victory is yours.

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I tore the veil for you to come close.

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There's no reason to stand at a distance anymore.

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You're not far from home.

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I believe you all are not far from home.

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And the Holy Spirit is speaking to you.

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And he's, he's saying, there's no need to cover what we already see.

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God, the father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit, they three

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in one see everything about us.

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They understand the reasons that we've shut down, where we've closed the door.

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And just like, uh, what's coming to mind right now.

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And, you know, anybody that lives in, in a state that can be impacted by

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hurricane and, or, you know, ocean type storms, they put shutters and all this

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stuff, now they have windows that are special, but a lot of times they put

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all these shutters and these things over the windows to protect.

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But some of us have done that in a sense and never taken the windows back off.

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00:27:11.040 --> 00:27:16.440
You're still in protection mode as if trauma is still happening.

475
00:27:16.440 --> 00:27:18.080
And for some of you, maybe it is.

476
00:27:19.440 --> 00:27:23.120
Hey, I don't know what all of you are dealing with every single day, but I

477
00:27:23.120 --> 00:27:28.680
want to encourage you when you have a safe place to take those off because

478
00:27:28.680 --> 00:27:30.440
it's blocking God from coming in.

479
00:27:30.440 --> 00:27:33.640
And it's also blocking others from coming into your life.

480
00:27:34.360 --> 00:27:38.080
And here's why here's, here's a really amazing thing.

481
00:27:38.240 --> 00:27:40.760
Every single one of you are a supernova.

482
00:27:41.720 --> 00:27:46.080
Did you know that you actually have a solution inside of yourself

483
00:27:46.080 --> 00:27:48.080
to a problem in the world today?

484
00:27:50.400 --> 00:27:52.280
And you don't have to think just big worlds.

485
00:27:53.120 --> 00:27:56.600
You can think about your world, someone next to you.

486
00:27:58.000 --> 00:28:02.720
And it's not just about what can God get from you, but the, the reality is, is

487
00:28:02.720 --> 00:28:07.880
that you're carrying something that can change the world, you have amazing,

488
00:28:07.880 --> 00:28:13.160
intricate, like you're woven just so perfectly and beautifully and wonderfully.

489
00:28:13.160 --> 00:28:16.920
And, and God is like, he's like, yes, he put colors in you and there's

490
00:28:16.920 --> 00:28:21.880
brightness and there's light and there's hope and there's joy and whatever the

491
00:28:21.880 --> 00:28:27.480
good aspects that are in you that I hope that you can see in yourself, those are

492
00:28:27.480 --> 00:28:33.400
there because God put them there to be on display for the world to be drawn to him.

493
00:28:34.280 --> 00:28:38.640
Matthew 5, 14 through 16, the message version says this, here's another way to

494
00:28:38.640 --> 00:28:42.520
put it, you're here to be light, bringing out the God colors in the world.

495
00:28:42.800 --> 00:28:44.560
God is not a secret to be kept.

496
00:28:44.880 --> 00:28:48.720
We're going public with this as public as a city on a hill.

497
00:28:49.120 --> 00:28:52.520
If I make you light bearers, you don't think I'm going to hide you under a bucket.

498
00:28:52.520 --> 00:28:53.000
Do you?

499
00:28:53.600 --> 00:28:55.520
I'm putting you on a light stand.

500
00:28:56.080 --> 00:29:03.000
Now that I've put you there on a hilltop on a light stand, shine, keep open house,

501
00:29:03.000 --> 00:29:09.080
be generous with your lives by opening up to others, you'll prompt people to open up

502
00:29:09.080 --> 00:29:13.360
with God, this generous father in heaven.

503
00:29:14.240 --> 00:29:19.600
As I was preparing for tonight and I knew I was leading prayer this morning, I just

504
00:29:19.600 --> 00:29:24.840
quickly was like, Lord, what do you want me to, you know, do for I'd normally just open

505
00:29:24.840 --> 00:29:25.840
up and do a kickoff.

506
00:29:27.880 --> 00:29:31.720
And I just was preparing at the same time as I kind of just really quickly, Lord, I

507
00:29:31.720 --> 00:29:34.240
don't even know what I'm going to open with on prayer call this morning.

508
00:29:34.240 --> 00:29:35.240
What do you want me to open with?

509
00:29:35.240 --> 00:29:36.520
I just said it that simply.

510
00:29:37.240 --> 00:29:41.120
And then I just went about my way, continuing to prepare and I'm flipping through.

511
00:29:41.360 --> 00:29:48.360
I was looking for something and I just happened to come across that, that scripture

512
00:29:48.360 --> 00:29:49.040
and that verse.

513
00:29:49.080 --> 00:29:51.440
And the Lord was like, yep, open with that today.

514
00:29:51.960 --> 00:29:54.720
So, y'all, we did open with that in prayer this morning.

515
00:29:55.160 --> 00:29:59.480
And what came up as a part of the call today that I want to say tonight as well.

516
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:08.000
Is that, um, I don't even remember who on the call said it, but the lie that they were

517
00:30:08.000 --> 00:30:18.360
stupid or that they were weird or defective, um, Helen opened up, she's might be on here

518
00:30:18.360 --> 00:30:23.360
tonight and shared that sometimes, you know, even that thought of alien, because I don't

519
00:30:23.360 --> 00:30:26.360
know if people said that to her, if that was the thing she went through, but y'all these

520
00:30:26.440 --> 00:30:34.440
lies that we believe about who we are, you're not weird. Okay. You're not stupid. You're

521
00:30:34.440 --> 00:30:43.960
not a defective. You're not missing something. You're not an alien. You are a beloved daughter

522
00:30:43.960 --> 00:30:55.680
of the King, a daughter, a friend. And, and I want you to come out of alignment and agreement

523
00:30:55.680 --> 00:31:00.480
with all of these things. The enemy has spoken over you through the words and, and ideas

524
00:31:00.480 --> 00:31:05.440
in situations, uh, of other people, what they've said to you, the things that have happened

525
00:31:05.440 --> 00:31:10.880
that have caused you to feel weird. Um, one of my, one of my dear friends, because of

526
00:31:10.880 --> 00:31:17.960
the abuse that she had gone through, um, one of her coping mechanisms was to read a lot

527
00:31:17.960 --> 00:31:22.200
when she was younger and kids used to call her weird just cause she didn't want to go

528
00:31:22.200 --> 00:31:26.840
play with them. And she just wanted to sit and read her book. We all, there's nothing

529
00:31:26.840 --> 00:31:34.160
weird about that. Okay. She didn't want to go run and play, but because kids don't know

530
00:31:34.160 --> 00:31:38.680
any better. Okay. You know, we all make mistakes. These kids, kids are kids. And, but sometimes

531
00:31:38.680 --> 00:31:45.680
kids say really mean things. Don't they sometimes, but she's not weird, but you know what that

532
00:31:45.680 --> 00:31:50.600
kept showing up in, in things that she would say. And, and even in her interactions, sometimes

533
00:31:50.680 --> 00:31:54.000
with me, she'd be like, I'm, was that really weird? I'm so sorry. Maybe I shouldn't have

534
00:31:54.000 --> 00:31:58.640
said that. Like she would say really good stuff, but then kind of recoil. I'm like,

535
00:31:58.640 --> 00:32:03.160
there's nothing weird about what you said. And so we did heartwork a couple of times

536
00:32:03.160 --> 00:32:08.700
around that topic and multiple things came up. One of which is what I just shared with

537
00:32:08.700 --> 00:32:12.080
you that when she was in elementary school, that, that kids used to call her weird for

538
00:32:12.080 --> 00:32:17.880
reading and not playing with them. So I don't know if you all have been through any situations

539
00:32:17.880 --> 00:32:23.040
like that, where people have said stuff to you, maybe even an ex-husband, maybe you

540
00:32:23.040 --> 00:32:28.320
were different and maybe didn't do certain things that that person wanted you to do.

541
00:32:28.320 --> 00:32:33.640
And they said something harsh or hurtful about you. That wasn't true, but you keep hearing

542
00:32:33.640 --> 00:32:41.520
that that's not true about you. Okay. And so remember tonight, as we're stepping more

543
00:32:41.520 --> 00:32:47.400
into the real us, we have to come out of alignment with the counterfeit identities. Some of those

544
00:32:47.400 --> 00:32:53.640
counterfeit identities have been informed by statements like what I'm talking about.

545
00:32:53.640 --> 00:33:01.880
Okay. Romans 8, 37 through 39 says this. No, in all these things, we are more than conquerors

546
00:33:01.880 --> 00:33:06.040
through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels

547
00:33:06.040 --> 00:33:11.000
nor demons, nor the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth,

548
00:33:11.000 --> 00:33:16.500
nor anything else in all of creation will be able to separate us from the love of God

549
00:33:16.500 --> 00:33:25.940
that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. So if God is for us, who can be against us? If God is

550
00:33:25.940 --> 00:33:33.020
for us, who can be against us? Who can stop the plan of God for our lives? Well, the enemy

551
00:33:33.020 --> 00:33:42.460
can try, but we know who has the victory. Or sometimes we can give up, can't we? Put

552
00:33:42.460 --> 00:33:50.060
ourselves in the waiting room, believe the lie of the enemy and stop moving. But you

553
00:33:50.060 --> 00:33:54.620
know what? In one moment, we can start to move forward again. So I don't want you to

554
00:33:54.620 --> 00:33:59.180
shame, guilt, or receive any condemnation. If you stopped at any point, even in the heart

555
00:33:59.180 --> 00:34:06.340
work, ladies, you're still here. Praise the Lord. You're still here and you're still trying

556
00:34:06.340 --> 00:34:13.620
to move forward or you wouldn't be here. So let's kind of pat ourselves on the back

557
00:34:13.620 --> 00:34:17.900
a little bit for just a moment right now. Celebrate yourself like you're showing up

558
00:34:17.900 --> 00:34:22.620
for yourself. You're here. You're investing in your heart healing. You're trying to figure

559
00:34:22.620 --> 00:34:27.420
out how to step into healthy relationship. And that is a win. That's a win every day

560
00:34:27.420 --> 00:34:32.659
in my book. Even if you're just doing one thing every single day. Yeah, that's right,

561
00:34:32.980 --> 00:34:38.860
I saw you put your hand. I mean, seriously, we don't celebrate ourselves very much, do we? Not

562
00:34:38.860 --> 00:34:42.980
very often. So this is what we're going to do right now. I want you to go ahead and in

563
00:34:42.980 --> 00:34:48.219
the last week, go ahead and put in the chat for me a win that you had something that

564
00:34:48.219 --> 00:34:52.580
happened that was good for you. Maybe you experienced something good. When go ahead

565
00:34:52.580 --> 00:34:56.900
and see those in the chat for anyone that feels led to share doesn't have to be long.

566
00:34:56.900 --> 00:34:59.380
It can be something short, sweet, simple.

567
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:09.400
Karen, I see you, Karen Roa.

568
00:35:09.400 --> 00:35:11.320
I know, girl, but you're doing good.

569
00:35:11.320 --> 00:35:14.680
You're moving forward and you have gotten so much breakthrough.

570
00:35:14.680 --> 00:35:19.820
All right, let me see what else these are saying here.

571
00:35:19.820 --> 00:35:21.240
You went to get a massage, Laura?

572
00:35:21.240 --> 00:35:23.600
I did too, first time in like four years.

573
00:35:23.600 --> 00:35:25.640
It was a rough one, but it was good.

574
00:35:25.640 --> 00:35:27.820
All right, awesome.

575
00:35:27.820 --> 00:35:30.860
So good, so good.

576
00:35:30.860 --> 00:35:33.300
Amy's worked out four times this week.

577
00:35:33.300 --> 00:35:34.300
Woo-hoo!

578
00:35:34.300 --> 00:35:35.820
All right.

579
00:35:35.820 --> 00:35:37.420
I might not be able to read these very fast.

580
00:35:37.420 --> 00:35:38.420
They're jumping around.

581
00:35:38.420 --> 00:35:43.140
Okay, so if I missed you, please know God sees you and we will do our best to see you,

582
00:35:43.140 --> 00:35:46.300
but if I don't say out loud, it's not intentional.

583
00:35:46.300 --> 00:35:48.300
I'm just going to read a couple tonight.

584
00:35:48.300 --> 00:35:51.980
All right, Yesenia, that's so good.

585
00:35:51.980 --> 00:35:55.620
I'm so glad you're going to start living because tonight's the night of change for you.

586
00:35:55.860 --> 00:35:58.860
All right, so Sarah went through the forgiveness work.

587
00:35:58.860 --> 00:36:00.500
Somebody went and bought some new shirts.

588
00:36:00.500 --> 00:36:04.700
Yes, love it because you're opening up to the new.

589
00:36:04.700 --> 00:36:07.180
Affirmed by a supervisor.

590
00:36:07.180 --> 00:36:08.180
Hope for future restored.

591
00:36:08.180 --> 00:36:12.380
Spent time with son and his girlfriend.

592
00:36:12.380 --> 00:36:14.020
Invested in new skin care.

593
00:36:14.020 --> 00:36:16.780
God reveals I hadn't really healed from last abusive.

594
00:36:16.780 --> 00:36:17.780
Okay.

595
00:36:17.780 --> 00:36:23.260
Alana, that's okay because you're here now and you're in a great place to heal from all

596
00:36:23.260 --> 00:36:26.940
of that stuff so that you can step into new.

597
00:36:26.940 --> 00:36:27.940
Served at a church barbecue.

598
00:36:27.940 --> 00:36:28.940
Got a haircut.

599
00:36:28.940 --> 00:36:29.940
All right, Alana.

600
00:36:29.940 --> 00:36:30.940
It's in a ponytail.

601
00:36:30.940 --> 00:36:36.380
I can't see it really right now, but I'm sure it's amazing.

602
00:36:36.380 --> 00:36:37.380
Super cute.

603
00:36:37.380 --> 00:36:38.380
Look at her.

604
00:36:38.380 --> 00:36:39.380
There she is.

605
00:36:39.380 --> 00:36:40.380
Hi, beauty.

606
00:36:40.380 --> 00:36:41.380
All right.

607
00:36:41.380 --> 00:36:44.900
You looked beautiful with your hair in a ponytail too, but I just like to, I like to love on

608
00:36:44.900 --> 00:36:45.900
you all.

609
00:36:45.900 --> 00:36:46.900
I think it feels good.

610
00:36:46.900 --> 00:36:47.900
Doesn't it feel good?

611
00:36:47.900 --> 00:36:48.900
Man, I love it.

612
00:36:48.900 --> 00:36:50.180
I like to do it.

613
00:36:50.180 --> 00:36:51.180
All right.

614
00:36:51.180 --> 00:36:53.900
Really embraced preparing as a bride.

615
00:36:53.900 --> 00:36:55.340
Yes.

616
00:36:55.340 --> 00:36:56.340
Love it.

617
00:36:56.340 --> 00:36:57.340
Okay.

618
00:36:57.340 --> 00:36:58.340
Getting on here.

619
00:36:58.340 --> 00:36:59.340
Yes, Julia.

620
00:36:59.340 --> 00:37:03.060
Sometimes it can be hard, but you're getting through it.

621
00:37:03.060 --> 00:37:06.680
Went out and had fun with just my one-year-old granddaughter, Kristen said.

622
00:37:06.680 --> 00:37:07.680
You went to the rodeo.

623
00:37:07.680 --> 00:37:08.940
I haven't been to a rodeo before.

624
00:37:08.940 --> 00:37:11.540
I would like to go sometime.

625
00:37:11.540 --> 00:37:13.820
See buying flowers for yourself every week.

626
00:37:13.820 --> 00:37:15.960
I love it.

627
00:37:15.960 --> 00:37:20.880
That's a word for somebody else on here tonight.

628
00:37:21.580 --> 00:37:23.360
You need to go buy yourself flowers this week.

629
00:37:23.360 --> 00:37:27.440
And if your heart, you're like, Oh, if they, if you just felt that, even if it was like

630
00:37:27.440 --> 00:37:31.280
a little twinge, like maybe it was a little baby one, like, Ooh, was that Lord, is that

631
00:37:31.280 --> 00:37:32.280
for me?

632
00:37:32.280 --> 00:37:33.280
Yep.

633
00:37:33.280 --> 00:37:34.280
That's for you.

634
00:37:34.280 --> 00:37:39.000
Sometimes they're little, sometimes they're big, but they can be all the Lord trying to

635
00:37:39.000 --> 00:37:41.760
encourage you to do that.

636
00:37:41.760 --> 00:37:46.920
And you all, one time I went to do that and I almost cried in the store long, a couple

637
00:37:46.920 --> 00:37:50.680
years ago because it just was doing something in me.

638
00:37:50.680 --> 00:37:51.940
It was a supernatural thing.

639
00:37:51.940 --> 00:37:56.000
So understand God can work even in those small little things have been inspired to increase

640
00:37:56.000 --> 00:37:57.000
my steps.

641
00:37:57.000 --> 00:37:58.000
All right.

642
00:37:58.000 --> 00:38:00.080
She's going out walking, increasing steps.

643
00:38:00.080 --> 00:38:02.720
I love that you guys are taking care of yourselves.

644
00:38:02.720 --> 00:38:03.720
Love it.

645
00:38:03.720 --> 00:38:04.720
Love it.

646
00:38:04.720 --> 00:38:07.960
I'm trying to cut my meals in half when we get them anytime from a restaurant, I'm just

647
00:38:07.960 --> 00:38:08.960
cutting them in half.

648
00:38:08.960 --> 00:38:11.360
It's been helping a little bit.

649
00:38:11.360 --> 00:38:12.360
All right.

650
00:38:12.360 --> 00:38:13.360
I'm going to let those go.

651
00:38:13.360 --> 00:38:14.360
Cause there's a lot more.

652
00:38:14.360 --> 00:38:16.400
I love that you guys have so many wins.

653
00:38:16.400 --> 00:38:18.000
Practice this every week.

654
00:38:18.000 --> 00:38:19.000
What are your wins?

655
00:38:19.000 --> 00:38:23.520
I want you all to take time every week, even if it's just one thing that you write down,

656
00:38:23.520 --> 00:38:24.520
this is my win.

657
00:38:24.520 --> 00:38:27.200
Maybe start accumulating a list of your wins.

658
00:38:27.200 --> 00:38:28.200
Okay.

659
00:38:28.200 --> 00:38:29.200
And then read over that.

660
00:38:29.200 --> 00:38:30.200
Put that up where you can see it.

661
00:38:30.200 --> 00:38:31.200
All right.

662
00:38:31.200 --> 00:38:34.580
As a reminder, just from this last Saturday, it's time.

663
00:38:34.580 --> 00:38:35.580
Time for what?

664
00:38:35.580 --> 00:38:36.580
Well, this is your time.

665
00:38:36.580 --> 00:38:37.580
This is it.

666
00:38:37.580 --> 00:38:39.080
This is the day of turnaround.

667
00:38:39.080 --> 00:38:42.200
This is the day of change, the day of transformation.

668
00:38:42.200 --> 00:38:47.120
Every single day, we have an opportunity to heal more, to hear more truth, to step into

669
00:38:47.120 --> 00:38:49.200
greater revelation and truth.

670
00:38:49.200 --> 00:38:55.240
And it's also the time for all of the princesses within you to awaken.

671
00:38:55.240 --> 00:38:57.080
Yes, that's right.

672
00:38:57.080 --> 00:38:58.240
A princess.

673
00:38:58.240 --> 00:39:02.600
I was talking this afternoon and you all, if you call yourself a queen, I hope this

674
00:39:02.600 --> 00:39:03.760
doesn't offend you.

675
00:39:03.760 --> 00:39:06.360
So please don't get offended.

676
00:39:06.360 --> 00:39:11.800
But in the day in society that we're in, I noticed that a lot of people call themselves

677
00:39:11.800 --> 00:39:13.080
queen.

678
00:39:13.080 --> 00:39:15.640
Even men are just like, they're like, this is my queen.

679
00:39:15.640 --> 00:39:16.880
And I think that's cool.

680
00:39:17.640 --> 00:39:19.920
But at first I thought it was cute and all that.

681
00:39:19.920 --> 00:39:24.000
And I'm still not saying it's bad, but one of the revelations, and this actually happened

682
00:39:24.000 --> 00:39:30.360
live real time when I was coaching this session one other, like in the last few months.

683
00:39:30.360 --> 00:39:35.920
And I knew as soon as I said it, it was from the Lord.

684
00:39:35.920 --> 00:39:42.040
Some of us in the society, in this world are showing up and saying we're queens, but we

685
00:39:42.040 --> 00:39:44.800
don't even know how to be a princess.

686
00:39:44.800 --> 00:39:47.680
We don't even know how to be a daughter.

687
00:39:47.680 --> 00:39:50.880
So how can we be a queen?

688
00:39:50.880 --> 00:39:53.200
Think about that.

689
00:39:53.200 --> 00:39:56.360
There's progression to become a queen.

690
00:39:56.360 --> 00:39:58.040
We don't just arrive at queen.

691
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:05.400
we become a queen. So let's start at being a daughter and a

692
00:40:05.400 --> 00:40:09.480
princess awakening. Okay? What does that look like? What does

693
00:40:09.480 --> 00:40:12.160
that sound like? What does that feel like? Well, one of the

694
00:40:12.160 --> 00:40:17.440
things that can happen is that maybe you go look for a tiara.

695
00:40:18.160 --> 00:40:22.560
Maybe you get online and find a tiara order one for yourself. I

696
00:40:22.560 --> 00:40:25.880
know this might sound silly for some of you. But it's brought

697
00:40:25.880 --> 00:40:30.320
deep, deep healing for a lot of people. Like getting a tiara

698
00:40:30.320 --> 00:40:34.080
and I even feel the Holy Spirit just thinking about even for all

699
00:40:34.080 --> 00:40:38.680
of you, but Helen, I feel like that is a word for you. To

700
00:40:38.680 --> 00:40:42.840
consider getting a tiara. And not just getting it, but putting

701
00:40:42.840 --> 00:40:47.200
it on and looking at yourself in it. What does it mean for us to

702
00:40:47.200 --> 00:40:52.960
like, stand up and be like on the inside a princess? Would a

703
00:40:52.960 --> 00:40:58.480
princess let someone some guy beat her up? Would a princess

704
00:40:58.480 --> 00:41:02.600
let a guy talk down to her all the time? I don't think so.

705
00:41:05.120 --> 00:41:10.120
Would a princess talk down to herself all the time? I don't

706
00:41:10.120 --> 00:41:14.000
think so either. Queen, the one queen that became our Esther

707
00:41:14.000 --> 00:41:16.120
that became queen went through that whole season of

708
00:41:16.120 --> 00:41:20.000
preparation. Not just beauty treatments. She was doing that.

709
00:41:20.000 --> 00:41:22.320
But they were reading the word they were, you know, I think

710
00:41:22.320 --> 00:41:24.720
back then they were called the Chronicles or something like

711
00:41:24.720 --> 00:41:27.480
that. At least in one of the movies about Esther. That's what

712
00:41:27.480 --> 00:41:33.800
it says. But y'all that she was preparing the inside too. So

713
00:41:33.800 --> 00:41:37.360
what does it look like to prepare the inside and do

714
00:41:37.360 --> 00:41:40.960
activations like that where you put a tiara on or put something

715
00:41:40.960 --> 00:41:43.480
else on that makes you feel royal. If you see something in a

716
00:41:43.480 --> 00:41:47.800
store, and it's just like, wow, that feels there feels really

717
00:41:47.800 --> 00:41:50.720
special. There's something about that. I want you to start

718
00:41:50.720 --> 00:41:54.320
trusting what the Holy Spirit is doing in you. And if you can

719
00:41:54.320 --> 00:41:56.520
afford it, I don't want you to spend money you don't have. But

720
00:41:56.520 --> 00:42:00.800
get that thing and put it on and wear it. And what does it feel

721
00:42:00.800 --> 00:42:05.480
like to think of yourself sitting at the banquet table

722
00:42:05.480 --> 00:42:09.680
with the king? Well, the king of kings is who I'm talking about.

723
00:42:12.960 --> 00:42:15.560
Y'all one of the things the Lord had to help me really do was

724
00:42:15.560 --> 00:42:18.680
shift out of mindsets like I was under the table begging for

725
00:42:18.680 --> 00:42:24.160
crumbs. I didn't understand that there was a there was a

726
00:42:24.160 --> 00:42:28.240
whole banqueting table and my father God the father had a

727
00:42:28.240 --> 00:42:31.960
chair pulled out for me. Literally, this is what he said

728
00:42:31.960 --> 00:42:37.720
to me, I have a chair pulled out for you. But you have to choose

729
00:42:37.720 --> 00:42:47.680
to come out from under the table and get in the chair. So are you

730
00:42:47.680 --> 00:42:51.840
going to get in the chair tonight? Do you believe that you

731
00:42:51.840 --> 00:42:56.440
don't belong under the table, begging for crumbs? If you do

732
00:42:56.480 --> 00:43:00.040
some somewhere still inside, again, there's no shame. We're

733
00:43:00.040 --> 00:43:02.880
all being just real, because we're stepping into the real

734
00:43:02.880 --> 00:43:09.600
us. So we're gonna be real about what's going on in us. If you

735
00:43:09.600 --> 00:43:14.120
believe somewhere inside of yourself that you just always

736
00:43:14.120 --> 00:43:18.080
get the leftovers. That's what's coming up in my spirit. I just

737
00:43:18.080 --> 00:43:21.960
get the leftovers. I'm always having to work hard, hard, hard

738
00:43:21.960 --> 00:43:26.840
and I never get what I want. God gives it to everybody else. Or

739
00:43:26.840 --> 00:43:29.440
like you're just like, I don't know about you guys. There were

740
00:43:29.440 --> 00:43:32.600
times that I literally on the inside of myself, I felt like

741
00:43:32.760 --> 00:43:36.920
there was a gate. And I was like, I was just like reaching

742
00:43:36.920 --> 00:43:40.440
through the gate, this stuff that I was asking God for, but

743
00:43:40.440 --> 00:43:44.280
the gate was closed. And I couldn't get in. And so I was

744
00:43:44.280 --> 00:43:49.800
reaching and striving on the inside. And then one day, God

745
00:43:49.800 --> 00:43:57.520
just gave me this vision. And I realized the gate was open. And

746
00:43:57.520 --> 00:44:01.800
you know what he said to me? He said, Bethany, I love you. The

747
00:44:01.800 --> 00:44:07.880
gates always been open for you. But on my in my heart on the

748
00:44:07.880 --> 00:44:11.440
inside, until that moment, I didn't believe that I didn't, I

749
00:44:11.440 --> 00:44:17.800
couldn't perceive it. But the more I healed, I was able to

750
00:44:17.800 --> 00:44:22.360
receive that revelation and that truth and it changed me in a

751
00:44:22.360 --> 00:44:26.440
good way. I went literally and it was it was it wasn't like all

752
00:44:26.440 --> 00:44:29.760
in sudden one day, but the work and the time and the prayer and

753
00:44:29.760 --> 00:44:33.160
all the things all the all the steps that I had taken led me to

754
00:44:33.160 --> 00:44:42.760
that moment. And I shifted from orphan to daughter. Right then,

755
00:44:43.040 --> 00:44:45.920
as soon as that revelation came, and I realized that that gate

756
00:44:45.920 --> 00:44:52.640
was open. And God was like, you can come in. Everything that's

757
00:44:52.640 --> 00:44:58.760
mine is yours. And and I said it this afternoon, I know that a

758
00:44:58.760 --> 00:44:59.880
lot of you are like, okay, but

759
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.120
Ah, but then why don't I have my spirit mate?

760
00:45:04.120 --> 00:45:05.960
Or why don't I have the money that I need?

761
00:45:05.960 --> 00:45:12.080
Or why y'all, I still had trouble in life because we still have an enemy.

762
00:45:14.880 --> 00:45:18.200
Do you understand that the enemy can also try to block your spirit

763
00:45:18.200 --> 00:45:19.440
mate from getting to you?

764
00:45:20.440 --> 00:45:23.720
Yes, he can, but guess who's greater.

765
00:45:24.520 --> 00:45:29.980
Jesus is the blood of Christ and our ability to partner with him every day.

766
00:45:30.240 --> 00:45:31.660
Every day, just continuing.

767
00:45:31.660 --> 00:45:35.160
Even when, even when we're still encountering people, Oh yeah.

768
00:45:35.160 --> 00:45:36.440
I mean, I counter this person.

769
00:45:36.440 --> 00:45:36.640
Yeah.

770
00:45:36.640 --> 00:45:40.680
He kind of looks like something I used to fall for, but praise the Lord.

771
00:45:40.680 --> 00:45:43.480
I'm seeing this guy's got a lot of baby mama drama and I

772
00:45:43.480 --> 00:45:44.360
don't want that anymore.

773
00:45:44.360 --> 00:45:44.880
Yes, you all.

774
00:45:44.880 --> 00:45:48.040
I did say that about a guy I came into contact with.

775
00:45:48.680 --> 00:45:51.840
He was a nice guy, but he had a whole lot of baby mama drama.

776
00:45:52.200 --> 00:45:56.920
And I had already done that twice when I was married and my spiritual

777
00:45:56.920 --> 00:45:59.960
daughter's dad, and I didn't want that back in my life again.

778
00:46:00.200 --> 00:46:05.920
So while he was kind, I was just like, thank you so much for this date.

779
00:46:05.920 --> 00:46:09.280
But I just, I'm not seeing that we're a match in this season.

780
00:46:09.880 --> 00:46:13.920
And I kept moving forward and I ended up meeting Brian and

781
00:46:14.360 --> 00:46:16.600
whoa, no baby mama drama there.

782
00:46:17.480 --> 00:46:18.480
Now his kids are grown.

783
00:46:18.480 --> 00:46:22.640
There might've been, if I had known him years ago, knowing about things

784
00:46:22.640 --> 00:46:25.960
that he went through with his ex, but praise the Lord, he was out of that season.

785
00:46:26.640 --> 00:46:28.280
So I didn't have to go through that.

786
00:46:29.240 --> 00:46:32.240
It was great and glorious y'all.

787
00:46:32.240 --> 00:46:32.560
Yes.

788
00:46:32.560 --> 00:46:35.760
So I learned, do you see what I'm trying to convey to you?

789
00:46:36.320 --> 00:46:40.560
When we step into the real us and we keep learning and we keep growing,

790
00:46:41.080 --> 00:46:42.840
you can choose differently.

791
00:46:44.320 --> 00:46:45.080
What does that mean?

792
00:46:45.080 --> 00:46:47.680
What part, what part Sharon?

793
00:46:50.680 --> 00:46:52.200
Baby mama drama.

794
00:46:52.320 --> 00:46:58.240
Oh, well, I had been with a lot of guys.

795
00:46:58.280 --> 00:47:03.920
Where their exes were just, it was a lot of fighting between

796
00:47:03.920 --> 00:47:05.800
them and their exes constantly.

797
00:47:06.160 --> 00:47:10.280
There was a lot of jealousy from that person to me, even when there was no

798
00:47:10.280 --> 00:47:15.440
reason, like I never, like, I'm pretty, I'm a very respectful person about who

799
00:47:15.440 --> 00:47:22.080
the mom is, even though I will step in and be like that mom on behalf of the

800
00:47:22.080 --> 00:47:25.840
other person, when they can't be, I'm never going to call myself their mom.

801
00:47:26.080 --> 00:47:27.120
I just don't do it.

802
00:47:28.120 --> 00:47:29.000
They have a mom.

803
00:47:30.360 --> 00:47:35.160
And so I'm very respectful, but, uh, doesn't always go that way with other

804
00:47:35.160 --> 00:47:36.760
people, especially if they're struggling.

805
00:47:37.200 --> 00:47:41.760
So yeah, there was just a lot of, a lot of things that didn't have to

806
00:47:41.760 --> 00:47:43.480
happen that were going on there.

807
00:47:43.760 --> 00:47:49.720
So that's why I called it that, but not all mamas, not all

808
00:47:49.720 --> 00:47:51.440
mamas have drama you all.

809
00:47:51.480 --> 00:47:51.920
Okay.

810
00:47:51.920 --> 00:47:54.160
So please don't think I'm talking about you.

811
00:47:54.680 --> 00:47:59.680
I'm not, but it was just a lot of craziness calling cops on, on their dad.

812
00:47:59.680 --> 00:48:01.400
I mean, just nonsense stuff.

813
00:48:01.720 --> 00:48:02.800
That's what I'm talking about.

814
00:48:03.080 --> 00:48:03.600
Okay.

815
00:48:04.080 --> 00:48:04.600
All right.

816
00:48:04.800 --> 00:48:05.640
Let me keep moving.

817
00:48:05.800 --> 00:48:09.680
Ephesians 5, 14, awake, awake, go sleeper and rise up from the dead and

818
00:48:09.680 --> 00:48:15.680
Christ will shine on you and he will awaken you to true love's kiss, the

819
00:48:15.680 --> 00:48:21.120
kiss from heaven and a deeper understanding of God's absolute love and adoration for

820
00:48:21.120 --> 00:48:21.520
you.

821
00:48:22.560 --> 00:48:27.840
He's also going to awaken you to that true identity in Christ, to restoration,

822
00:48:27.840 --> 00:48:31.840
to big, bold futures, to dreams awakening within you.

823
00:48:33.840 --> 00:48:38.040
And I believe that God wants to awaken childhood dreams and cause those to come

824
00:48:38.040 --> 00:48:42.640
back to life as well as new dreams being given to you.

825
00:48:42.840 --> 00:48:46.680
Are there dreams that you wanted to do when you were a child that you can

826
00:48:46.680 --> 00:48:51.760
actually still take steps towards, but the enemy's just always trying to

827
00:48:51.760 --> 00:48:53.360
convince you that you shouldn't.

828
00:48:55.360 --> 00:48:59.560
God might be breathing right onto those dreams tonight and in this heartwork

829
00:48:59.560 --> 00:49:04.720
process, and he might be saying, Hey, go try this, go enjoy this.

830
00:49:05.240 --> 00:49:07.160
Hey, you wanted to do this when you were a kid.

831
00:49:07.160 --> 00:49:08.640
You should, you should go do this.

832
00:49:09.320 --> 00:49:12.560
Maybe it doesn't say it exactly that way, but there are going to be different ways.

833
00:49:12.560 --> 00:49:14.040
It's going to come up in your spirit.

834
00:49:14.040 --> 00:49:16.720
And I want to encourage you to take steps towards those things.

835
00:49:16.920 --> 00:49:20.520
Maybe while you're in heartwork, you started thinking about going back to

836
00:49:20.520 --> 00:49:21.920
school again, swing dancing.

837
00:49:21.920 --> 00:49:22.400
Yes.

838
00:49:22.400 --> 00:49:22.960
Go do it.

839
00:49:22.960 --> 00:49:23.640
Basketball.

840
00:49:23.640 --> 00:49:24.200
Yes.

841
00:49:24.440 --> 00:49:27.000
Whatever you all love, go do it.

842
00:49:27.000 --> 00:49:30.320
Salsa dancing, Leeanne still practicing or having fun.

843
00:49:30.320 --> 00:49:31.560
And I love it.

844
00:49:31.600 --> 00:49:32.360
I love it.

845
00:49:33.640 --> 00:49:39.520
Yes, it can be scary, but you know what can, it can also be fun and free and

846
00:49:39.520 --> 00:49:40.360
glorious.

847
00:49:40.840 --> 00:49:41.280
You know what?

848
00:49:41.720 --> 00:49:48.120
When we get on the other side of the fear, we typically experience so much more.

849
00:49:48.280 --> 00:49:52.480
And I really, Alina, I want you to look at why, um, and not in a bad way, but

850
00:49:52.680 --> 00:49:56.560
that same friend that I was talking to you about, she battled a lot of fear as

851
00:49:56.560 --> 00:49:57.000
well.

852
00:49:57.240 --> 00:50:00.160
And God kept nudging her to go do even she really.

853
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:02.020
she went to a speed dating events by herself.

854
00:50:02.020 --> 00:50:04.260
And she would have never done that before you all,

855
00:50:04.260 --> 00:50:05.180
but she went for it.

856
00:50:05.180 --> 00:50:06.100
And it wasn't always easy,

857
00:50:06.100 --> 00:50:08.740
but God really used that to help her again,

858
00:50:08.740 --> 00:50:10.400
come up, overcome the fear.

859
00:50:11.580 --> 00:50:14.680
But I really want to encourage you to ask the Lord,

860
00:50:14.680 --> 00:50:16.220
what's feeding the fear?

861
00:50:17.300 --> 00:50:18.620
Like what's making it scary?

862
00:50:18.620 --> 00:50:20.140
And see what he reveals there,

863
00:50:20.140 --> 00:50:22.340
because I believe he wants to help you overcome that.

864
00:50:22.340 --> 00:50:27.340
And to see that you can go experience new, amazing things.

865
00:50:28.320 --> 00:50:31.920
And overcome the fear of doing so.

866
00:50:31.920 --> 00:50:32.760
Yeah.

867
00:50:32.760 --> 00:50:33.680
Yeah.

868
00:50:33.680 --> 00:50:34.560
It can be good.

869
00:50:34.560 --> 00:50:36.200
You know, it happens one step at a time.

870
00:50:36.200 --> 00:50:38.700
I'm not saying I never feel fear you all,

871
00:50:38.700 --> 00:50:41.080
but I'm going to do it afraid.

872
00:50:41.080 --> 00:50:42.040
I am.

873
00:50:42.040 --> 00:50:43.560
I'm going to do it afraid.

874
00:50:43.560 --> 00:50:46.120
Zip lining, parasailing.

875
00:50:46.120 --> 00:50:47.440
Y'all, I still think,

876
00:50:47.440 --> 00:50:49.800
I still think I want to go skydiving one day.

877
00:50:49.800 --> 00:50:52.200
I don't know if I'll feel the same if I have a baby,

878
00:50:52.200 --> 00:50:54.800
but it is still on my bucket list.

879
00:50:54.800 --> 00:50:55.960
I am an adventurer.

880
00:50:55.960 --> 00:50:58.740
I like to go do fun, really kind of,

881
00:50:58.740 --> 00:51:01.500
not overly risky things, but I do like, you know,

882
00:51:01.500 --> 00:51:03.420
I'm one of those people that gets up on one of those tall

883
00:51:03.420 --> 00:51:04.980
rocks and jumps into the water.

884
00:51:04.980 --> 00:51:05.820
Yeah.

885
00:51:05.820 --> 00:51:06.940
I love that stuff.

886
00:51:06.940 --> 00:51:07.780
I love it.

887
00:51:07.780 --> 00:51:10.760
I'm afraid the first time, but once I do it and it's fun,

888
00:51:10.760 --> 00:51:13.180
then I'm like back up there and I want to keep doing it.

889
00:51:13.180 --> 00:51:14.300
Maybe that's not you.

890
00:51:14.300 --> 00:51:15.580
And that's totally fine.

891
00:51:15.580 --> 00:51:19.140
Maybe your thing is something that's still a big deal for

892
00:51:19.140 --> 00:51:22.820
you to step out and go to a painting class or a pottery

893
00:51:22.880 --> 00:51:26.560
class or like even a school class.

894
00:51:26.560 --> 00:51:29.040
Maybe some of you want to learn how to learn,

895
00:51:29.040 --> 00:51:32.920
like speak Spanish or French or, you know what I'm saying?

896
00:51:32.920 --> 00:51:36.600
I'm just saying, go do the thing, whatever it is,

897
00:51:36.600 --> 00:51:39.200
it's going to matter for you.

898
00:51:39.200 --> 00:51:40.220
Okay.

899
00:51:40.220 --> 00:51:41.360
All right.

900
00:51:41.360 --> 00:51:42.360
Let me keep going.

901
00:51:43.240 --> 00:51:46.200
So on that awakening to your true self,

902
00:51:46.200 --> 00:51:47.620
I'm going to just very quickly,

903
00:51:47.620 --> 00:51:49.520
there's a movie called Wreck-It Ralph.

904
00:51:50.600 --> 00:51:51.920
I talked about it this afternoon.

905
00:51:51.940 --> 00:51:54.500
I love to talk about it every time I do this session.

906
00:51:54.500 --> 00:51:56.940
So if you've heard this, this real you,

907
00:51:56.940 --> 00:51:58.700
some of this content before,

908
00:51:58.700 --> 00:52:00.860
I did change it up a little bit tonight,

909
00:52:00.860 --> 00:52:02.500
but if you've heard some of this before,

910
00:52:02.500 --> 00:52:04.020
you've heard me talk about Wreck-It Ralph.

911
00:52:04.020 --> 00:52:07.120
It is a kid's movie, but I recommend it.

912
00:52:08.580 --> 00:52:11.940
Wreck-It Ralph was kind of about a, like a game.

913
00:52:12.800 --> 00:52:16.340
So the whole little movie is about them inside of the game,

914
00:52:16.340 --> 00:52:18.100
the people that are inside the game.

915
00:52:18.100 --> 00:52:20.860
So Ralph is one of the people and he,

916
00:52:20.860 --> 00:52:24.080
he's going in to wreck this, he's Wreck-It Ralph.

917
00:52:24.080 --> 00:52:26.880
So he's going into, or maybe he's going in to fix it.

918
00:52:26.880 --> 00:52:28.560
I don't remember, it's been so long,

919
00:52:28.560 --> 00:52:30.880
but I just remember Vanellope

920
00:52:30.880 --> 00:52:33.240
is one of the characters in this little movie.

921
00:52:33.240 --> 00:52:35.560
Well, Vanellope, when we get introduced to her,

922
00:52:35.560 --> 00:52:37.540
she's a glitch, she's glitching.

923
00:52:37.540 --> 00:52:39.920
So if you can imagine your computers on the fritz

924
00:52:39.920 --> 00:52:42.920
and it's like glitching out, yeah, that's like what she was.

925
00:52:43.760 --> 00:52:46.600
And she's that way, almost the entire movie.

926
00:52:47.500 --> 00:52:51.620
But the more the movie goes in, the more she's glitching,

927
00:52:51.620 --> 00:52:53.500
the more it's happening.

928
00:52:53.500 --> 00:52:55.840
And so that's a part of how the story unfolds

929
00:52:55.840 --> 00:52:57.860
without giving you guys all of the details,

930
00:52:57.860 --> 00:53:00.180
there's a bad guy in the movie too.

931
00:53:00.180 --> 00:53:04.920
And we learn in the movie that she is that way

932
00:53:04.920 --> 00:53:08.520
because the bad guy took a chip out of her.

933
00:53:08.520 --> 00:53:12.860
He took something from her and it made her glitch.

934
00:53:13.840 --> 00:53:16.740
So my question for you tonight is,

935
00:53:16.740 --> 00:53:19.520
did the enemy take something from you

936
00:53:19.520 --> 00:53:21.680
that has made you glitch?

937
00:53:21.680 --> 00:53:24.320
That's made you in some way show up

938
00:53:24.320 --> 00:53:25.960
what other people would think,

939
00:53:25.960 --> 00:53:27.180
like you're missing something,

940
00:53:27.180 --> 00:53:28.620
maybe you're thinking you're missing something,

941
00:53:28.620 --> 00:53:31.580
maybe something isn't showing up the way you want it to.

942
00:53:31.580 --> 00:53:33.780
You know, and so you're kind of like,

943
00:53:33.780 --> 00:53:35.160
you keep going around the same mountain,

944
00:53:35.160 --> 00:53:36.780
you're like, you wanna go through, you wanna go through,

945
00:53:36.780 --> 00:53:40.420
but you just keep getting stuck in that same area.

946
00:53:40.420 --> 00:53:41.900
That's a glitch you all.

947
00:53:43.140 --> 00:53:44.820
It's an area where we're stuck

948
00:53:44.820 --> 00:53:46.540
and that's a revealing for healing.

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But the movie goes on from there

950
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and it's really quite wonderful.

951
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What ends up happening is they get that chip back for her

952
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and then it ends up being revealed

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that she was never a glitch,

954
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she was actually a princess.

955
00:54:04.740 --> 00:54:08.720
Yep, she was never a glitch.

956
00:54:10.140 --> 00:54:12.440
She was always a princess,

957
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but until that chip got put back in,

958
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that did not get revealed.

959
00:54:15.920 --> 00:54:19.640
She didn't even remember that she was a princess.

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Yes, that's right, hun.

961
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I feel that in the Holy Spirit.

962
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Y'all just receive that.

963
00:54:28.400 --> 00:54:30.800
You're not a glitch, you're not a mess up,

964
00:54:30.800 --> 00:54:32.240
you're not a mistake.

965
00:54:33.400 --> 00:54:35.320
Divorce doesn't define you.

966
00:54:36.600 --> 00:54:38.880
Whatever your mistake is, it doesn't define you.

967
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You are a princess.

968
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Okay?

969
00:54:45.320 --> 00:54:47.560
All right, we're about to go into breakout sessions.

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Right before we do,

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I want you to think about two other things.

972
00:54:52.200 --> 00:54:55.300
I don't want you to dumb down your shine for other people.

973
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What does that mean?

974
00:54:58.160 --> 00:55:00.800
Well, we talked about it a little bit this afternoon.

975
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and when you're really good at something and you shine bright and you feel like you have to like

976
00:55:08.080 --> 00:55:14.080
cover that up or or pull that back or not not do that thing because it might draw attention

977
00:55:14.080 --> 00:55:18.960
to you in some way and you're not sure if you're comfortable with that attention for some reason

978
00:55:20.160 --> 00:55:25.840
this afternoon it came up that one of our ladies um she got really really great grades the only

979
00:55:25.840 --> 00:55:32.480
one that she got a c in she got all a's and got a c in gym she didn't like gym but her parents

980
00:55:32.480 --> 00:55:37.920
kind of harped on her about that well her brother didn't get super good grades and so even though

981
00:55:37.920 --> 00:55:42.160
her parents harped on her for getting that c they then turned it around and harped on him

982
00:55:42.160 --> 00:55:46.960
and kind of made him feel less than his sister and it became this whole thing

983
00:55:48.160 --> 00:55:54.560
and so there were times where she would get awards for her grades you all and her she would come home

984
00:55:54.560 --> 00:55:58.240
and her mom had put those awards up on the wall and she would take them down and put them in a

985
00:55:58.240 --> 00:56:05.920
box and put them under the bed now again maybe that's not your story but some of you i believe

986
00:56:07.440 --> 00:56:12.880
there's ways that you shine and have shined over the years but things you've gone through or things

987
00:56:12.880 --> 00:56:19.200
that other people said or did have caused you to try to like put it under a bushel you know

988
00:56:20.080 --> 00:56:26.880
what's that song this little light of mine i'm gonna let it shine don't put it under a bushel

989
00:56:26.880 --> 00:56:32.560
no i'm gonna let it shine that just literally came to my mind i did not say that this afternoon but

990
00:56:32.560 --> 00:56:37.040
that that's so like that's such a simple sweet song but if y'all think about it

991
00:56:38.480 --> 00:56:45.200
like how do you need to shine like what is god trying to to say and do through you but you're

992
00:56:45.200 --> 00:56:48.800
just you keep pulling back for some reason

993
00:56:51.760 --> 00:56:58.400
and as you move forward yeah yeah don't let satan blow it out that's right it is i couldn't remember

994
00:56:58.400 --> 00:57:02.640
all the verses of that that's so good and the last thing i'm going to say before you go into

995
00:57:02.640 --> 00:57:08.320
breakout is this as you start to move forward y'all there's going to be potential crabs in the

996
00:57:08.320 --> 00:57:14.160
bucket okay and crabs in the bucket what that means if there was one crab in the bucket it

997
00:57:14.160 --> 00:57:19.040
talks about this in the heartwork book you guys can find it in there if you were just one crab in

998
00:57:19.040 --> 00:57:24.720
the bucket by yourself you could actually crawl out but if you put a bunch of crabs in the bucket

999
00:57:25.520 --> 00:57:30.640
none of them will ever get out because when one tries to get get out the others will pull it down

1000
00:57:32.480 --> 00:57:37.760
you might have some people in your life right now that when you try to move forward

1001
00:57:38.960 --> 00:57:42.880
they're not going to be comfortable with it and they're going to try to pull you back down

1002
00:57:43.680 --> 00:57:49.680
but you need to keep going just keep going you might need to find some other people to spend

1003
00:57:49.680 --> 00:57:53.600
some time with in the season doesn't mean you can you stop have to stop loving those people

1004
00:57:53.600 --> 00:57:57.760
doesn't mean you have to cut them out of your life unless the lord leads you to to kind of

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00:57:58.400 --> 00:58:06.160
maybe let that season end there but i want to encourage you to keep going okay sue it's okay

1006
00:58:06.160 --> 00:58:10.640
if you have to leave we love you so good to see you tonight all right we're going to do breakout

1007
00:58:10.640 --> 00:58:18.960
session this is your question in what ways does the enemy challenge the real you in what ways

1008
00:58:18.960 --> 00:58:23.120
does the enemy challenge the real you i'm going to give you three categories that we tend to see

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00:58:23.120 --> 00:58:31.600
this show up okay if you have others that's fine um comparison competition or imitation

1010
00:58:32.400 --> 00:58:37.600
could be all of them could be a couple of them could be one of them in what ways does the enemy

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00:58:37.600 --> 00:58:43.200
challenge the real you does he often use comparison competition or imitation and then

1012
00:58:43.200 --> 00:58:49.520
how does that show up in your life okay that's how this story came out about the other uh the lady on

1013
00:58:49.520 --> 00:58:55.520
the afternoon session with the grades have a great night jenny so glad you were here all right i'm

1014
00:58:55.520 --> 00:58:59.680
going to get these breakout rooms ready is everyone clear on what the question is and how to

1015
00:58:59.680 --> 00:59:07.920
how to talk about it um okay alina imitation would mean like uh i don't even know if this is

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00:59:07.920 --> 00:59:12.800
a fool the best explanation but i this afternoon i thought of the same thing keeping up with the

1017
00:59:12.800 --> 00:59:18.320
joneses so like what that means to me is that you know we're trying to imitate other people instead

1018
00:59:18.320 --> 00:59:24.880
of being ourselves like trying to trying to fit in all that kind of stuff like you just have to be

1019
00:59:24.880 --> 00:59:28.560
you you don't have to be like anybody else does that make sense everyone

1020
00:59:29.680 --> 00:59:33.440
all right we're gonna do seven minutes on this remember short brief and powerful

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maybe i'm gonna do eight because some of y'all have i'm gonna do eight because some of you have

1022
00:59:41.040 --> 00:59:45.920
four people in a room if you get done talking about this get to know each other a little bit

1023
00:59:45.920 --> 00:59:50.080
all right here you go go ahead and click to join those i'm gonna be praying for you click to join

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those as quick as you can

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Okay.

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Sharon, are you able to join the room?

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I'm going to find somewhere to put her.

1028
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All right.

1029
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Father, thank you so much for this night.

1030
01:00:45.000 --> 01:00:49.000
God, we thank you for the truth of your word, the power of your presence.

1031
01:00:49.000 --> 01:00:52.000
God, we thank you that your spirit is what sets us free.

1032
01:00:52.000 --> 01:00:55.000
So, Lord, we just declare freedom over these ladies tonight.

1033
01:00:55.000 --> 01:00:58.000
I thank you for revealings, for healing that are happening.

1034
01:00:58.000 --> 01:01:03.000
God, I thank you that you're helping us to come out of hiding and come into the light, God,

1035
01:01:03.000 --> 01:01:10.000
that you're helping us to step further into the princess, the daughter position in our hearts,

1036
01:01:10.000 --> 01:01:15.000
that we have to first receive the revelation of that in our hearts, our minds, our bodies, our spirits,

1037
01:01:15.000 --> 01:01:22.000
and our souls so that we can receive that revelation in our mind and fully walk in it.

1038
01:01:22.000 --> 01:01:27.000
God, we thank you that you have set us up for success.

1039
01:01:27.000 --> 01:01:31.000
God, that you have plans to prosper us, to give us a hope and a future.

1040
01:01:31.000 --> 01:01:38.000
We thank you that you have, in Psalm 139, excuse me, it's in verse 13 through 16, it says,

1041
01:01:38.000 --> 01:01:43.000
you made all the delicate inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother's womb.

1042
01:01:43.000 --> 01:01:45.000
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex.

1043
01:01:45.000 --> 01:01:47.000
Your workmanship is marvelous.

1044
01:01:47.000 --> 01:01:49.000
How well I know it.

1045
01:01:49.000 --> 01:01:55.000
You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.

1046
01:01:55.000 --> 01:01:57.000
You saw me before I was born.

1047
01:01:57.000 --> 01:02:00.000
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.

1048
01:02:00.000 --> 01:02:04.000
Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.

1049
01:02:04.000 --> 01:02:06.000
God, we thank you.

1050
01:02:06.000 --> 01:02:09.000
You have fearfully and wonderfully made us.

1051
01:02:09.000 --> 01:02:14.000
God, we thank you that you intricately wove us together.

1052
01:02:14.000 --> 01:02:19.000
God, we thank you that you are the master craftsman, that you are the potter and wear the clay.

1053
01:02:19.000 --> 01:02:22.000
God, that you're molding us and making us brand new.

1054
01:02:22.000 --> 01:02:27.000
We thank you that you're healing us and restoring us, rebuilding us.

1055
01:02:27.000 --> 01:02:33.000
God, we thank you that you take all the broken and fallen places and you lift them up and you make them straight again.

1056
01:02:33.000 --> 01:02:35.000
I thank you, Lord.

1057
01:02:35.000 --> 01:02:42.000
Yeah, in Jeremiah 1.5 in the message version, this is what it says, before I shaped you in the womb.

1058
01:02:42.000 --> 01:02:44.000
This is even before he made us.

1059
01:02:44.000 --> 01:02:46.000
I knew all about you.

1060
01:02:46.000 --> 01:02:50.000
Before you saw the light of day, I had holy plans for you.

1061
01:02:50.000 --> 01:02:52.000
Ladies, he has holy plans for us.

1062
01:02:52.000 --> 01:02:59.000
We are special vessels that God has created for his glory to be displayed in this earth.

1063
01:02:59.000 --> 01:03:02.000
We thank you, Lord, for reminding us of who we are.

1064
01:03:02.000 --> 01:03:09.000
God, we thank you that you have made us to be a new creation in Christ Jesus from 2 Corinthians 5.17.

1065
01:03:09.000 --> 01:03:13.000
All the old has passed away and behold, everything has become new in you.

1066
01:03:13.000 --> 01:03:20.000
God, we thank you that you invite us into the more of God, the more of heaven, the good, good life.

1067
01:03:20.000 --> 01:03:25.000
We know that the enemy, Satan, the devourer has come to kill, steal, and destroy.

1068
01:03:25.000 --> 01:03:31.000
But we thank you that you sent Jesus and he chose to come to give us life and give it to us more abundantly.

1069
01:03:31.000 --> 01:03:37.000
And that he has defeated the devil and he has placed him under our feet.

1070
01:03:37.000 --> 01:03:45.000
We thank you that you're giving us the ability tonight to step further into the truth of who you originally created us to be

1071
01:03:45.000 --> 01:03:48.000
and who you're calling us into in the days to come.

1072
01:03:48.000 --> 01:03:52.000
Romans 8.30-32 in the Passion Translation says this,

1073
01:03:52.000 --> 01:03:59.000
Having determined our destiny ahead of time, he called us to himself and transferred his perfect righteousness to everyone he called.

1074
01:03:59.000 --> 01:04:04.000
And those who possess his perfect righteousness, he glorified with his Son.

1075
01:04:05.000 --> 01:04:06.000
So what does all this mean?

1076
01:04:06.000 --> 01:04:11.000
If God has determined to stand with us, tell me, who then could ever stand against us?

1077
01:04:11.000 --> 01:04:17.000
For God has proved his love by giving us his greatest treasure, the gift of his Son.

1078
01:04:17.000 --> 01:04:27.000
And since God freely offered him up as the sacrifice for us all, he certainly won't withhold from us anything else he has to give.

1079
01:04:28.000 --> 01:04:34.000
We thank you, God, for the truth that you don't withhold any good thing from us.

1080
01:04:34.000 --> 01:04:41.000
God, there are times where you don't open the door for us on something or someone because it's actually not good for us.

1081
01:04:41.000 --> 01:04:45.000
And I thank you for being a good father and protecting us, providing for us,

1082
01:04:45.000 --> 01:04:51.000
helping us to step further into the fullness of everything that you have for us.

1083
01:04:51.000 --> 01:05:00.000
I thank you that you would heal every wound and remove every lie that we've believed that has led us to think that you would dangle the cross.

1084
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:06.300
like carrot in front of us to tease us, to torment us or anything that is like that,

1085
01:05:06.300 --> 01:05:14.600
your word declares that, you know, fear has to do with torment and punishment, but perfect

1086
01:05:14.600 --> 01:05:15.920
love casts out fear.

1087
01:05:15.920 --> 01:05:21.060
So Lord, I pray that you would help us to step further into the perfection of who you

1088
01:05:21.060 --> 01:05:26.560
are, God, as love tonight, that we would have a fresh upgrade in our understanding

1089
01:05:26.560 --> 01:05:34.520
of your love, of your truth, of your life, of your hope, that you would help us, Lord,

1090
01:05:34.520 --> 01:05:37.400
to hear the whispers, the still small voice.

1091
01:05:37.400 --> 01:05:42.880
Yes, Lord, help us to discern between the voice of the enemy and your voice.

1092
01:05:42.880 --> 01:05:48.300
Lord, I thank you for your word and your truth, and the more that we read your word and get

1093
01:05:48.300 --> 01:05:53.040
to know who you are through your word, the more that we will discern your voice, God.

1094
01:05:53.040 --> 01:05:56.160
We thank you that you call us into the secret places with you.

1095
01:05:56.160 --> 01:06:00.360
You love to spend time with us, and so Lord, I thank you that you'll help us to receive

1096
01:06:00.360 --> 01:06:04.560
that truth and to step further into that tonight.

1097
01:06:04.560 --> 01:06:11.820
Yes, yes, yes, Ephesians 3, 17 through 19, and the NLT version says this, then Christ

1098
01:06:11.820 --> 01:06:14.840
will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him.

1099
01:06:14.840 --> 01:06:19.320
Your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you strong, and may you have the

1100
01:06:19.320 --> 01:06:25.880
power to understand as all God's people should, how wide, how long, how high and how deep

1101
01:06:25.880 --> 01:06:27.660
his love is.

1102
01:06:27.660 --> 01:06:32.560
May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully.

1103
01:06:32.560 --> 01:06:38.560
Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from

1104
01:06:38.560 --> 01:06:39.560
God.

1105
01:06:39.560 --> 01:06:45.480
Yes, Lord, we thank you for the fullness of life that comes from God.

1106
01:06:45.480 --> 01:06:53.600
We thank you for leading us into your destiny and your plan for us, the higher reality than

1107
01:06:53.600 --> 01:06:54.920
we currently exist in.

1108
01:06:54.960 --> 01:06:55.960
We thank you, God.

1109
01:06:55.960 --> 01:07:02.960
Yes, Lord, that you would help us to come to you in every area we felt stuck and surrender

1110
01:07:02.960 --> 01:07:07.880
those things and those places and spaces to you and allow you to place the balm of Gilead

1111
01:07:07.880 --> 01:07:09.760
upon every single one of them.

1112
01:07:09.760 --> 01:07:11.640
God, we can't do this without you.

1113
01:07:11.640 --> 01:07:13.240
Apart from you, we can do nothing.

1114
01:07:13.240 --> 01:07:14.880
You're the vine where the branches.

1115
01:07:14.880 --> 01:07:18.720
Help us to surrender to your will, to your way.

1116
01:07:18.720 --> 01:07:20.840
I thank you, God, that you would help us to.

1117
01:07:24.160 --> 01:07:29.720
Yeah, remember that I just saw this in the heart workbook, ladies, it says another enemy

1118
01:07:29.720 --> 01:07:34.840
of the real you will that will come to challenge your new revelation of self is comparison,

1119
01:07:34.840 --> 01:07:36.600
competition and imitation.

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That's why we're talking about what we're talking about in the breakout session.

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01:07:39.560 --> 01:07:44.080
So if you're catching this replay, I hope that you'll come into the group in the last

1122
01:07:44.080 --> 01:07:49.200
or single app group on the community tab and write a post about your takeaway regarding

1123
01:07:49.200 --> 01:07:53.160
how does the enemy try to challenge the real you?

1124
01:07:53.160 --> 01:07:55.280
Is it comparison, competition or imitation?

1125
01:07:55.280 --> 01:07:57.080
How does that show up in your life?

1126
01:07:57.080 --> 01:08:00.320
Just because you weren't able to be here for the live session doesn't mean we don't want

1127
01:08:00.320 --> 01:08:01.320
to hear from you.

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01:08:01.320 --> 01:08:06.400
We absolutely want to hear what you have to say and what God is showing you about your

1129
01:08:06.400 --> 01:08:08.440
situation in your life.

1130
01:08:08.440 --> 01:08:12.120
We believe that God has a turnaround story for every single one of you.

1131
01:08:12.160 --> 01:08:18.399
And it's so exciting to see it unfolding and the healing process that's playing a role

1132
01:08:18.399 --> 01:08:19.399
in all of that.

1133
01:08:19.399 --> 01:08:24.760
It's just an honor and a pleasure to see that part of your lives.

1134
01:08:24.760 --> 01:08:28.000
Revelation 12, 9 through 11 says this in the Passion Translation.

1135
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Then I heard a triumphant voice in heaven proclaiming, now salvation and power are set

1136
01:08:32.359 --> 01:08:37.160
in place in the kingdom reign of our God and the ruling authority of his anointed one are

1137
01:08:37.160 --> 01:08:41.359
established for the accuser of our brothers and sisters who relentlessly accused them

1138
01:08:41.359 --> 01:08:48.120
day and night before our God has now been defeated, cast out once and for all.

1139
01:08:48.120 --> 01:08:52.120
John 3, 16 says this, for this is how much God loved the world.

1140
01:08:52.120 --> 01:08:56.120
He gave his one and only unique son as a gift.

1141
01:08:56.120 --> 01:09:03.819
So now everyone who believes in him will never perish, but experience everlasting life.

1142
01:09:03.819 --> 01:09:08.399
Thank you, Father, for enabling us to experience everlasting life in Jesus name.

1143
01:09:08.399 --> 01:09:09.399
Welcome back.

1144
01:09:09.399 --> 01:09:10.920
Welcome back.

1145
01:09:10.920 --> 01:09:12.760
So glad y'all are here.

1146
01:09:12.760 --> 01:09:16.520
Would love for some of you to share with the whole group what you shared in your private

1147
01:09:16.520 --> 01:09:17.520
breakout session.

1148
01:09:17.520 --> 01:09:19.520
Who would be willing to share that tonight?

1149
01:09:19.520 --> 01:09:20.520
Ruth, go ahead.

1150
01:09:20.520 --> 01:09:21.520
Thanks, Bethany.

1151
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I like sharing.

1152
01:09:22.520 --> 01:09:23.520
Mine, a big one, was comparison.

1153
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And Vern shared something powerful in our group and that really resonated with me too.

1154
01:09:37.080 --> 01:09:43.520
But yeah, just growing up and which most of my growing up was overseas and being the

1155
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oldest and just kind of in my family, like in my immediate family, I'm the oldest of

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three.

1157
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So I have a younger sister and a younger brother.

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Both of whom are married.

1159
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My sister, 12 years, three kids.

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My brother, six and a half years, three kids.

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But that's not even the main issue.

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It's just even in my larger extended family.

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So my mom is one of eight kids and, well, seven now.

1164
01:10:06.360 --> 01:10:09.960
My aunt's gone, but I was one of like 14 grandchildren

1165
01:10:09.960 --> 01:10:11.160
from my mom's parents.

1166
01:10:11.160 --> 01:10:13.520
And so we would spend like Christmas,

1167
01:10:13.520 --> 01:10:15.520
holidays, like so much together.

1168
01:10:15.520 --> 01:10:17.400
And even in that group, you know,

1169
01:10:17.400 --> 01:10:20.840
so it's like in my nuclear family and then extended family,

1170
01:10:20.840 --> 01:10:24.160
I was always kind of like the weird, quirky one.

1171
01:10:24.160 --> 01:10:28.480
Like I kind of matched to the beat of my own drum.

1172
01:10:28.480 --> 01:10:30.760
Just to give you a very basic example, that seems silly,

1173
01:10:30.760 --> 01:10:33.000
but it was always blown out of proportion.

1174
01:10:33.000 --> 01:10:34.280
I don't eat meat.

1175
01:10:34.280 --> 01:10:35.880
And that's something I haven't as a child,

1176
01:10:35.880 --> 01:10:38.200
like from when a child starts teething

1177
01:10:38.200 --> 01:10:39.360
or you're trying to feed them food.

1178
01:10:39.360 --> 01:10:42.640
And so I was like, what kind of, what weird child is this?

1179
01:10:42.640 --> 01:10:43.480
It doesn't eat meat.

1180
01:10:43.480 --> 01:10:45.560
And it wasn't said like, what child is this like that?

1181
01:10:45.560 --> 01:10:47.080
And what child is this?

1182
01:10:47.080 --> 01:10:47.920
Like, it wasn't like that.

1183
01:10:47.920 --> 01:10:50.080
It was like, this child is weird, you know?

1184
01:10:50.080 --> 01:10:53.000
And it was just like growing up with just different things.

1185
01:10:53.000 --> 01:10:56.600
And so I kind of just always, I think internalized that.

1186
01:10:56.640 --> 01:10:58.640
And it wasn't what was said in a very,

1187
01:10:58.640 --> 01:11:00.560
the times when it was said in non-malicious ways,

1188
01:11:00.560 --> 01:11:02.000
but just in different ways.

1189
01:11:02.000 --> 01:11:04.160
So comparison was a very big one for me.

1190
01:11:04.160 --> 01:11:06.880
And feeling like I had to dump down,

1191
01:11:06.880 --> 01:11:09.040
like what you said really struck me.

1192
01:11:09.040 --> 01:11:12.000
The two things you said, divorce doesn't define you

1193
01:11:12.000 --> 01:11:14.160
and don't dump down your shine for other people.

1194
01:11:14.160 --> 01:11:16.480
That really, because I always thought I was too much,

1195
01:11:16.480 --> 01:11:20.440
too exuberant, too extroverted, too,

1196
01:11:20.440 --> 01:11:21.600
I needed to like tone it down.

1197
01:11:21.600 --> 01:11:23.200
I was too much, you know,

1198
01:11:23.200 --> 01:11:24.720
children should be seen and not heard.

1199
01:11:24.720 --> 01:11:27.960
And I was just, I wasn't not just heard, I was seen.

1200
01:11:27.960 --> 01:11:30.440
I was like on fireworks, you know,

1201
01:11:30.440 --> 01:11:31.560
like girls should see at home.

1202
01:11:31.560 --> 01:11:33.960
And then I'm the girl outside climbing a tree

1203
01:11:33.960 --> 01:11:34.800
with the boys.

1204
01:11:34.800 --> 01:11:36.080
And it was just kind of like, yeah,

1205
01:11:36.080 --> 01:11:37.400
that was a big one for me.

1206
01:11:38.760 --> 01:11:39.600
Wow.

1207
01:11:39.600 --> 01:11:41.360
And I feel like this connects to,

1208
01:11:41.360 --> 01:11:44.440
was it last week that you shared something about

1209
01:11:46.000 --> 01:11:48.480
feeling something with your friends?

1210
01:11:48.480 --> 01:11:49.480
I feel like, right?

1211
01:11:49.480 --> 01:11:51.680
Wasn't that last week we were working on that a little bit

1212
01:11:51.680 --> 01:11:54.440
with heart work, maybe two weeks ago?

1213
01:11:55.120 --> 01:11:56.160
I think it might've been two weeks ago.

1214
01:11:56.160 --> 01:11:58.920
Yeah, I feel like there's a similar thread there, Ruth,

1215
01:12:00.320 --> 01:12:01.640
to what we were kind of working on

1216
01:12:01.640 --> 01:12:03.520
when we were talking about that,

1217
01:12:03.520 --> 01:12:05.120
because I feel like there was something

1218
01:12:05.120 --> 01:12:08.440
like you felt weird about that too, or something,

1219
01:12:08.440 --> 01:12:09.920
maybe that wasn't the word you used.

1220
01:12:09.920 --> 01:12:13.200
I wish I had my notes from that session in front of me.

1221
01:12:13.200 --> 01:12:15.200
But again, I feel like God wants me

1222
01:12:15.200 --> 01:12:16.360
to make that connection for you.

1223
01:12:16.360 --> 01:12:19.440
So if you took notes from that night when I,

1224
01:12:19.440 --> 01:12:21.560
and I'll see if I can find it

1225
01:12:21.560 --> 01:12:23.960
and maybe put something in the group for you.

1226
01:12:24.720 --> 01:12:26.880
But look for that,

1227
01:12:26.880 --> 01:12:29.680
because I think there's a connection here as well

1228
01:12:29.680 --> 01:12:30.960
with what you just shared.

1229
01:12:33.360 --> 01:12:35.400
So what would it look like for you

1230
01:12:35.400 --> 01:12:37.760
to just let yourself go and do and be

1231
01:12:37.760 --> 01:12:40.800
and come out of all of the,

1232
01:12:42.480 --> 01:12:45.080
whatever the weird, because you didn't want to eat meat

1233
01:12:45.080 --> 01:12:46.960
or you go to the beat of your own drum,

1234
01:12:46.960 --> 01:12:48.600
you wanted to go climb trees

1235
01:12:48.600 --> 01:12:51.360
and you didn't want to maybe do some of the other stuff.

1236
01:12:51.360 --> 01:12:52.680
What would it look like?

1237
01:12:52.680 --> 01:12:53.800
And not that you have to answer now,

1238
01:12:54.640 --> 01:12:56.360
but this is what I want you to work on.

1239
01:12:56.360 --> 01:12:58.280
What would it look like for you, Ruth,

1240
01:12:58.280 --> 01:13:00.960
to let yourself be fully free?

1241
01:13:00.960 --> 01:13:04.080
Just to be you, just to whatever that looks like,

1242
01:13:04.080 --> 01:13:07.960
sounds like, feels like, to live fully free.

1243
01:13:07.960 --> 01:13:10.600
And ladies, sometimes we might not know

1244
01:13:10.600 --> 01:13:11.880
how to put that into words.

1245
01:13:11.880 --> 01:13:13.880
And so I want to encourage you all,

1246
01:13:13.880 --> 01:13:16.160
even if you did just like an eight and a half

1247
01:13:16.160 --> 01:13:18.000
by 11 sheet of paper,

1248
01:13:18.000 --> 01:13:20.680
and you got a magazine and just started

1249
01:13:20.680 --> 01:13:23.640
picking out pictures that, man, when I see this,

1250
01:13:24.480 --> 01:13:25.320
this is how I feel free.

1251
01:13:25.320 --> 01:13:27.120
This is how I feel like myself.

1252
01:13:27.120 --> 01:13:31.160
Pictures that represent that on a paper.

1253
01:13:31.160 --> 01:13:32.760
Like giving yourself a visual

1254
01:13:32.760 --> 01:13:34.640
and then every time you look at that,

1255
01:13:34.640 --> 01:13:38.520
you're gonna be like, yeah, okay, that's what I love.

1256
01:13:38.520 --> 01:13:39.720
That's who I am.

1257
01:13:39.720 --> 01:13:41.120
This is who I want to live into.

1258
01:13:41.120 --> 01:13:42.880
Does everyone understand?

1259
01:13:42.880 --> 01:13:46.280
It gives you that kind of thing to grab onto.

1260
01:13:46.280 --> 01:13:47.520
And yeah, it's kind of like,

1261
01:13:47.520 --> 01:13:49.440
it is like a little vision board, yeah.

1262
01:13:49.440 --> 01:13:51.320
Like a, I call them vision boards,

1263
01:13:51.360 --> 01:13:54.200
but I had a coach years ago that asked me to do that

1264
01:13:54.200 --> 01:13:57.480
regarding the relationship that I officially wanted

1265
01:13:58.560 --> 01:14:00.560
and ministry in my career.

1266
01:14:00.560 --> 01:14:03.320
Well, like, where did I really want to see myself?

1267
01:14:03.320 --> 01:14:05.840
But like even doing it for something like this,

1268
01:14:05.840 --> 01:14:08.200
that's like regarding your identity,

1269
01:14:08.200 --> 01:14:11.040
man, I feel like that can be so powerful.

1270
01:14:11.040 --> 01:14:12.200
So powerful.

1271
01:14:12.200 --> 01:14:13.600
So I want to encourage you to do that.

1272
01:14:13.600 --> 01:14:14.800
Spend some time with the Lord

1273
01:14:14.800 --> 01:14:17.880
and just see what comes out onto that paper,

1274
01:14:17.880 --> 01:14:20.080
or you can write it, you can draw it, you can,

1275
01:14:20.080 --> 01:14:21.360
it doesn't have to be pictures.

1276
01:14:21.360 --> 01:14:23.600
I'm just trying to give you ideas as you're doing,

1277
01:14:23.600 --> 01:14:25.440
because sometimes people hear something

1278
01:14:25.440 --> 01:14:27.800
and automatically the blocks come up.

1279
01:14:27.800 --> 01:14:29.640
The enemy tries to tell you, you can't do this

1280
01:14:29.640 --> 01:14:30.480
because you're not an artist.

1281
01:14:30.480 --> 01:14:32.520
You can't do, and you might be an artist, Ruth,

1282
01:14:32.520 --> 01:14:34.800
I can't remember, but do y'all understand?

1283
01:14:34.800 --> 01:14:38.040
So find another way to be able to accomplish that

1284
01:14:38.040 --> 01:14:41.200
versus just giving in to that, I can't do it.

1285
01:14:41.200 --> 01:14:42.800
Does that make sense?

1286
01:14:42.800 --> 01:14:43.640
It does.

1287
01:14:43.640 --> 01:14:45.040
I do have a quick question though.

1288
01:14:45.040 --> 01:14:47.320
Right here, when you said about praying

1289
01:14:47.320 --> 01:14:49.280
as if you're a beggar,

1290
01:14:49.280 --> 01:14:51.280
I think you mentioned that at the beginning

1291
01:14:51.280 --> 01:14:52.560
and I kind of struggle with that,

1292
01:14:52.560 --> 01:14:53.960
where giving myself permission

1293
01:14:53.960 --> 01:14:55.440
even when it comes to doing things,

1294
01:14:55.440 --> 01:14:57.760
but I feel like, okay, even if I said it,

1295
01:14:57.760 --> 01:15:00.200
that God maybe won't answer or won't.

1296
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:05.080
And once, you know, so like, that's kind of one of the ways to give yourself a visual.

1297
01:15:05.080 --> 01:15:09.840
I feel like sometimes the fear of the visual is that, well, why would I want to just set

1298
01:15:09.840 --> 01:15:13.240
myself up for failure or set myself up for disappointment?

1299
01:15:13.880 --> 01:15:17.600
Well, this is actually what's on the inside of you already.

1300
01:15:20.400 --> 01:15:24.120
So really, part of this process is, are you going to answer yourself?

1301
01:15:27.000 --> 01:15:28.960
Because God already put it in you, Ruth.

1302
01:15:29.800 --> 01:15:32.520
God's going to be a part of that process with you.

1303
01:15:32.840 --> 01:15:38.440
But this is more about letting the Ruth on the inside, the little girl Ruth that got

1304
01:15:38.440 --> 01:15:41.800
pushed down and pressed down, letting her out.

1305
01:15:43.360 --> 01:15:44.920
Does that make sense, everyone?

1306
01:15:45.800 --> 01:15:46.560
Is that helpful?

1307
01:15:46.800 --> 01:15:49.840
Now, you are going to pray and talk to God through that process.

1308
01:15:49.840 --> 01:15:53.640
But I want you to understand this is really about you partnering with yourself.

1309
01:15:54.480 --> 01:15:58.040
And owning who you are without hiding it.

1310
01:16:01.800 --> 01:16:02.320
Yeah.

1311
01:16:03.160 --> 01:16:04.320
I think it's going to be really good.

1312
01:16:04.560 --> 01:16:09.480
And to answer your actual question, though, about hearing from God, I was saying this

1313
01:16:09.480 --> 01:16:11.040
on the prayer call this morning.

1314
01:16:11.440 --> 01:16:16.280
You know, I think a lot of us, even myself years ago, I didn't know I was hearing from

1315
01:16:16.280 --> 01:16:19.600
God fully until people taught me.

1316
01:16:19.960 --> 01:16:24.920
Some of you are hearing from God right now, but you just think you're not because you're

1317
01:16:24.920 --> 01:16:28.440
looking for God to talk to you in the same way that is talking to someone else.

1318
01:16:32.160 --> 01:16:40.640
So I want you to just start encouraging yourself like, okay, Lord, I, if you have

1319
01:16:40.640 --> 01:16:46.560
that so small voice moment, like that you acknowledge that in yourself, like, okay,

1320
01:16:46.560 --> 01:16:52.800
Lord, I, if you have that so small voice moment, like that you acknowledge that in

1321
01:16:52.800 --> 01:16:58.200
yourself and not just think it's not, it's the pizza you ate or whatever, you know?

1322
01:16:59.320 --> 01:17:07.400
The other thing is this, y'all, I genuinely 100% believe that knowing God's character

1323
01:17:07.400 --> 01:17:10.600
and knowing the word helps, you know, who he is.

1324
01:17:11.000 --> 01:17:14.080
So it will help, you know, your voice, but I say this a lot too.

1325
01:17:14.080 --> 01:17:15.480
And this, I can't take credit for this.

1326
01:17:15.520 --> 01:17:17.040
This one impacted me deeply.

1327
01:17:17.040 --> 01:17:19.160
She said, put your hands on your ears.

1328
01:17:19.160 --> 01:17:20.280
So everyone do this with us.

1329
01:17:20.280 --> 01:17:21.480
We're going to all do this together.

1330
01:17:21.800 --> 01:17:22.920
Put your hands on your ears.

1331
01:17:24.240 --> 01:17:27.800
And you say, I am his sheep and I hear his voice.

1332
01:17:27.840 --> 01:17:29.000
And then you add your name into it.

1333
01:17:29.080 --> 01:17:31.760
I, Bethany Cooper, am God's sheep.

1334
01:17:33.280 --> 01:17:33.760
Yes.

1335
01:17:34.000 --> 01:17:35.120
And I hear his voice.

1336
01:17:35.760 --> 01:17:39.600
And you all I can remember doing that over and over and over again.

1337
01:17:39.600 --> 01:17:44.040
And there were times that I felt like I still didn't hear him, but you know, what

1338
01:17:44.880 --> 01:17:47.160
over time that started changing.

1339
01:17:48.400 --> 01:17:52.720
And I'm not saying I get it right all the time, but you all, I've, I feel like I'm

1340
01:17:52.720 --> 01:17:53.200
blessed.

1341
01:17:53.200 --> 01:17:58.200
Like I know that I hear him and it's not like an audible voice all the, you know,

1342
01:17:58.200 --> 01:18:04.040
like I've literally, I've heard God speak to me audibly like two times in my life.

1343
01:18:04.440 --> 01:18:06.080
And it like kind of freaked me out.

1344
01:18:06.080 --> 01:18:08.120
Cause I was dreaming and it like woke me up.

1345
01:18:08.120 --> 01:18:10.360
That's how I, that's how I recognize.

1346
01:18:10.360 --> 01:18:13.840
Like, I thought I, someone was in the room talking to me.

1347
01:18:15.040 --> 01:18:18.000
But for the most part, it is a still small voice.

1348
01:18:18.000 --> 01:18:22.720
And even when I, you know, at work in the bathroom and there's paper towels on the

1349
01:18:22.720 --> 01:18:26.200
floor that I didn't put on the floor and the Holy spirit saying to me, pick those

1350
01:18:26.200 --> 01:18:30.360
up and he's, it's, it's a thing to grow.

1351
01:18:31.080 --> 01:18:32.520
Am I going to listen to that?

1352
01:18:33.200 --> 01:18:37.720
Well, people could be like, well, what, what if that was just your own voice?

1353
01:18:37.720 --> 01:18:40.240
Don't you think that you're, you would tell yourself to do that?

1354
01:18:40.520 --> 01:18:41.040
Nope.

1355
01:18:41.400 --> 01:18:41.720
Nope.

1356
01:18:42.160 --> 01:18:42.480
Nope.

1357
01:18:42.520 --> 01:18:46.200
I sure wouldn't tell myself to pick up someone else's dirty paper towel.

1358
01:18:46.600 --> 01:18:47.800
I sure wouldn't.

1359
01:18:48.480 --> 01:18:51.840
Yo, I'm a nice person, but I don't want to touch someone else's dirty paper towel.

1360
01:18:51.880 --> 01:18:55.760
I don't know what's on that, but you know what, in that moment, because the Holy

1361
01:18:55.760 --> 01:18:57.800
spirit asked me, I didn't even think about that.

1362
01:19:00.640 --> 01:19:05.960
So I think the Holy spirit asks us to do good things all the time, but it's

1363
01:19:05.960 --> 01:19:07.440
acknowledging it and walking it.

1364
01:19:08.160 --> 01:19:11.160
So hopefully Ruth, I believe that's going to go really well, but you all

1365
01:19:11.160 --> 01:19:13.680
seriously, every day, do that.

1366
01:19:13.680 --> 01:19:17.920
If you're, I believe it will make a difference and out of the overflow of

1367
01:19:17.920 --> 01:19:20.280
our prayers, you know, God tips that out on us.

1368
01:19:20.600 --> 01:19:21.120
He does.

1369
01:19:21.560 --> 01:19:22.680
Leanne, go ahead.

1370
01:19:28.440 --> 01:19:29.200
Oh, you're muted.

1371
01:19:31.040 --> 01:19:31.360
Yes.

1372
01:19:31.360 --> 01:19:32.080
I'm still alive.

1373
01:19:33.200 --> 01:19:34.080
Can everybody hear me?

1374
01:19:34.520 --> 01:19:36.200
Cause I have a soft voice.

1375
01:19:36.200 --> 01:19:37.440
Sometimes it doesn't come across.

1376
01:19:38.440 --> 01:19:45.840
Um, one of the things we talked about in our group was, um, comparison for me and,

1377
01:19:45.840 --> 01:19:52.760
um, an incident popped in my head from when I was in high school, I was asked

1378
01:19:52.760 --> 01:19:58.880
by somebody, um, how I did on a test and I told them, and then they went around

1379
01:19:58.880 --> 01:19:59.840
and told people that I was.

1380
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:04.320
bragging about it. And I remember from that point forward,

1381
01:20:05.360 --> 01:20:05.760
like,

1382
01:20:07.840 --> 01:20:14.320
I quieted myself down, like, I wouldn't let that shine, or let

1383
01:20:14.320 --> 01:20:18.000
people know I was excited about different things, because I was

1384
01:20:18.000 --> 01:20:20.280
afraid that that was going to happen again.

1385
01:20:22.800 --> 01:20:25.800
Yeah. Have you ever forgiven that person? Leanne?

1386
01:20:25.840 --> 01:20:26.520
I have.

1387
01:20:26.880 --> 01:20:30.640
Okay, that's really awesome. Yeah, that can be really tough.

1388
01:20:30.640 --> 01:20:33.960
And so one of the things this afternoon, and I will challenge

1389
01:20:33.960 --> 01:20:36.840
you all, maybe you didn't have the awards or things like that.

1390
01:20:36.840 --> 01:20:42.840
But if there are things that you hid, which is what that, that

1391
01:20:42.840 --> 01:20:46.200
lady was doing, God led me to say to her, like, first of all,

1392
01:20:46.200 --> 01:20:48.600
I asked her, does she have any of those awards still? And she

1393
01:20:48.600 --> 01:20:52.560
didn't. So I asked her, I said, I think you need to make one. I

1394
01:20:52.560 --> 01:20:56.840
think you need to make one and hang it up. So if you have kind

1395
01:20:56.840 --> 01:21:02.320
of dumbed down your smarts or anything, I want you to consider

1396
01:21:02.360 --> 01:21:06.800
kind of putting something back up to come back in convergence,

1397
01:21:06.840 --> 01:21:10.560
if you will converge back with that part of yourself, and

1398
01:21:10.560 --> 01:21:13.760
celebrate yourself. It's not being prideful. It's not

1399
01:21:13.760 --> 01:21:18.320
bragging. I think it's good for you to embrace who you are and

1400
01:21:18.320 --> 01:21:22.960
your abilities. And I believe that when you do that, there's

1401
01:21:22.960 --> 01:21:25.200
going to be some freedom and lightness that will come from

1402
01:21:25.200 --> 01:21:27.880
that. Liam, thank you for sharing that with us. Megan, go

1403
01:21:27.880 --> 01:21:28.400
ahead.

1404
01:21:33.080 --> 01:21:42.320
Hey. Okay, so I was thinking on this this morning on comparison

1405
01:21:42.320 --> 01:21:44.760
and competition, because I did read a little bit about that in

1406
01:21:44.760 --> 01:21:48.920
the heart work this morning. But what came up to me in my heart

1407
01:21:48.920 --> 01:21:54.200
was just bitter envy, like James how it talks about that. And it

1408
01:21:54.240 --> 01:21:58.040
made me want to just like, meditate on heavenly wisdom, you

1409
01:21:58.040 --> 01:22:01.280
know, what James talks about in that passage, but I was

1410
01:22:01.280 --> 01:22:06.000
surrendering that and like asking God to just help me to

1411
01:22:06.000 --> 01:22:09.840
like rest in his grace and shine in his light without comparing.

1412
01:22:10.200 --> 01:22:14.160
And like this verse I had read this morning song of songs to

1413
01:22:14.160 --> 01:22:17.840
the passion, the passion translation, part of it this

1414
01:22:17.840 --> 01:22:20.360
morning, but what stood out to me was like sitting under his

1415
01:22:20.360 --> 01:22:24.720
gray shadow, I blossom in his shade. And so that was kind of

1416
01:22:24.720 --> 01:22:27.400
standing out to me this morning, and I read the whole thing. And

1417
01:22:27.400 --> 01:22:31.080
then I was thinking on different stuff from forgiveness about I

1418
01:22:31.120 --> 01:22:35.760
mentioned some of that in the post today about like, forgiving

1419
01:22:35.760 --> 01:22:39.440
ex boyfriends for like not continuing to pursue me and I

1420
01:22:39.440 --> 01:22:42.480
felt like he was telling like just speaking to me about taking

1421
01:22:42.480 --> 01:22:46.840
me to a higher place. And like, his ways and thoughts are higher

1422
01:22:46.840 --> 01:22:49.720
than mine. He's taking me on a path where like they couldn't

1423
01:22:49.720 --> 01:22:55.920
keep up and be in step. And so it's basically like, oh, and

1424
01:22:55.920 --> 01:23:00.080
that song from Creed. Can you take me higher? That was like,

1425
01:23:00.080 --> 01:23:03.040
really like resonating in my heart. And I was that was kind

1426
01:23:03.040 --> 01:23:05.960
of make me laugh. So I was thinking on that. And then I

1427
01:23:05.960 --> 01:23:08.320
went back to song of songs too, because that was being

1428
01:23:08.320 --> 01:23:13.520
highlighted. And so this, I feel like it's really connected

1429
01:23:13.520 --> 01:23:16.360
with this being like shining and awakening, like you were saying.

1430
01:23:16.360 --> 01:23:20.040
So the one I love calls to me arise, my dearest hurry, my

1431
01:23:20.040 --> 01:23:23.400
darling, come away with me. I've come as come as you have asked

1432
01:23:23.400 --> 01:23:26.240
to draw you to my heart and lead you out for now is the time my

1433
01:23:26.240 --> 01:23:30.160
beautiful and the season season has changed. But it like goes on

1434
01:23:30.160 --> 01:23:32.080
and on. I don't know if I have time to read all of it. So

1435
01:23:32.080 --> 01:23:37.880
there's change in the air. Come away with me. And it's the

1436
01:23:37.880 --> 01:23:45.800
where was the part? Run with me to the higher place arise my

1437
01:23:45.800 --> 01:23:49.040
love, my beautiful companion and run with me to the higher place.

1438
01:23:49.400 --> 01:23:52.640
And and it's like, it ends with you must catch the troubling

1439
01:23:52.640 --> 01:23:56.760
foxes. And like, we will do this together. So the part that was

1440
01:23:56.760 --> 01:24:02.280
standing out to me was run with me to the higher place. And then

1441
01:24:02.640 --> 01:24:05.120
we will do this together. And I was like, it was just was

1442
01:24:05.120 --> 01:24:07.920
really resonating with me. And I went on this walk, because I've

1443
01:24:07.920 --> 01:24:10.280
been trying to increase my steps. And I feel keeps on

1444
01:24:10.280 --> 01:24:14.080
speaking to me on my logs. And I only had like a little bit of

1445
01:24:14.080 --> 01:24:17.560
time before this call. So I went to this one spot in that one

1446
01:24:17.560 --> 01:24:22.440
spot. It had this sign that said move to higher ground. And like

1447
01:24:22.480 --> 01:24:25.640
I took a picture of it because I was like, Oh my gosh, I feel

1448
01:24:25.640 --> 01:24:28.040
like the Lord was just confirming that and then all of

1449
01:24:28.040 --> 01:24:32.640
what you're sharing about just shining and like, not letting

1450
01:24:32.640 --> 01:24:36.360
your light dim, like it's just kind of hitting home for me. So

1451
01:24:36.360 --> 01:24:37.760
I appreciate all what you shared.

1452
01:24:38.560 --> 01:24:43.200
I love this. Yeah, it is how God can start connecting the dots. Do

1453
01:24:43.200 --> 01:24:47.360
you see how this is happening? But she's also she's also

1454
01:24:47.400 --> 01:24:51.760
trusting what he's showing her. Like some people would hear that

1455
01:24:51.760 --> 01:24:54.880
song bubble up in their spirit. And even though they're already

1456
01:24:54.880 --> 01:24:57.200
hearing that from the Lord in other places, they would

1457
01:24:57.200 --> 01:25:00.000
dismiss that. But that was a

1458
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:04.880
part of what God was saying to her. He's connecting all these dots to encourage her

1459
01:25:04.880 --> 01:25:11.120
and speak to her about, come a little higher. Like it's an invitation. It's this fun,

1460
01:25:11.120 --> 01:25:18.080
it's playful. And God will show up in these fun ways, the more that we expect him to.

1461
01:25:18.080 --> 01:25:23.680
And we open the door to that. I'm telling you all, I literally, I would start seeing like

1462
01:25:23.680 --> 01:25:28.880
numbers on houses and God would start talking to me, like just things like license plates. And

1463
01:25:28.880 --> 01:25:33.680
he wants to be creative and speak to us in all different kinds of ways. He really, really does.

1464
01:25:34.240 --> 01:25:38.960
Megan, I love this. I love what God's doing. And I'm so glad that you also were willing to

1465
01:25:38.960 --> 01:25:45.760
surrender regarding bitter envy. And, you know, just make sure if that is still feeling like

1466
01:25:45.760 --> 01:25:50.320
there's any of that in there, just ask the Lord where that started. Remember to always ask him

1467
01:25:50.320 --> 01:25:53.760
where it started and process that out. But it sounds like you're doing a really great job.

1468
01:25:54.320 --> 01:26:01.840
Way to go. You're welcome. You're welcome. Amy, go ahead. I'm sorry. My lighting is terrible in

1469
01:26:01.840 --> 01:26:09.760
here right now, but so for me, I, every time I hear others talk about their stories, it just,

1470
01:26:09.760 --> 01:26:16.640
the Lord also validates like what I was planning on sharing too, but I come from a large family

1471
01:26:16.640 --> 01:26:22.960
and it was very competitive growing up and we would consistently compare ourselves to one another.

1472
01:26:22.960 --> 01:26:32.000
And I am a woman of many talents. I am very, very creative. And so I I've run multiple businesses

1473
01:26:32.000 --> 01:26:39.040
and done all that. And so I noticed it come out in like the corporate world where I'm extremely

1474
01:26:39.040 --> 01:26:44.320
competitive and then also compare myself with others. But the Lord today revealed to me,

1475
01:26:44.320 --> 01:26:50.080
and I'm also in week four, which is, it's just so beautiful how the Lord connects it because

1476
01:26:50.720 --> 01:26:58.080
I just did the forgiveness prayer for my mom, because I felt like I needed to,

1477
01:26:58.640 --> 01:27:03.760
even though she's still alive and I've, I've told her this in person, but it's like layers I felt.

1478
01:27:03.760 --> 01:27:11.680
So I felt like the Lord wanted me to forgive my mom because the way that our family dynamic worked,

1479
01:27:11.680 --> 01:27:17.600
it was very, very competitive for us children to seek the validation and love from our mother.

1480
01:27:17.600 --> 01:27:25.200
And so I, it's just very heartwarming the way that God connects the dots because I'm, I am in

1481
01:27:25.200 --> 01:27:31.280
week four and we just did the forgiveness prayer for that. And so that was one thing that I,

1482
01:27:32.080 --> 01:27:37.200
I noticed today. And I didn't even tell in my group that because it was just about business.

1483
01:27:37.200 --> 01:27:43.440
And then the Lord revealed to me, it's actually deeper than that. So good. And I want you you're

1484
01:27:43.440 --> 01:27:47.120
on you're you're, I think you're a hundred percent, right? I think there are additional

1485
01:27:47.120 --> 01:27:52.960
layers here that the Lord's healing. And remember to like, sometimes we will pray and say, Lord,

1486
01:27:52.960 --> 01:27:58.960
you know, I forgive my mom for hurting me. And I'm not saying that's bad, but we need to be

1487
01:27:58.960 --> 01:28:06.240
specific. Okay. So sometimes that additional layers, when we get more specific, like Lord,

1488
01:28:06.240 --> 01:28:12.720
you know, help, like, I forgive my mom for, you know, I'm just making this up as I'm going

1489
01:28:12.720 --> 01:28:18.080
create, creating and allowing an atmosphere where we as siblings competed with each other or

1490
01:28:18.080 --> 01:28:24.720
whatever the dynamic is. If moms or dads said something to you all that you would specifically

1491
01:28:24.720 --> 01:28:31.200
forgive them. If a teacher, anyone, you know, whatever was done that we would get very kind of

1492
01:28:31.200 --> 01:28:36.960
detailed about what we're forgiving them for. And then even when we do that, sometimes there's just

1493
01:28:36.960 --> 01:28:41.520
additional layers, you're in a new season, you're able to see something a little bit more.

1494
01:28:42.480 --> 01:28:47.760
And step into more healing and grace towards those that have hurt us and all of that. Amy,

1495
01:28:47.760 --> 01:28:52.640
thank you so much for sharing. That was so good. And Hey, this is why I love when y'all share in

1496
01:28:52.640 --> 01:28:57.920
breakouts and in this group coaching is because other people are getting free as you all are

1497
01:28:57.920 --> 01:29:02.480
sharing. Do you hear, do you hear that's basically Amy's like, Oh, I got revelation more because of

1498
01:29:02.480 --> 01:29:06.960
what other people were saying. This is why it's important. So y'all are doing a great job way to

1499
01:29:06.960 --> 01:29:19.520
go. Awesome. Karen, go ahead. Hey, so the comparison came to mind right away with my

1500
01:29:19.520 --> 01:29:27.280
sister growing up, but in a new light, Bethany, when you said about not hiding because of feeling

1501
01:29:27.280 --> 01:29:33.120
bad about somebody else, I never saw it that way until you said that, that I held back a lot because

1502
01:29:33.200 --> 01:29:39.360
of my not wanting to make my sister feel bad. Um, I tended to get she's older than I am.

1503
01:29:40.160 --> 01:29:48.480
Uh, I got straight A's. I tended to get attention from boys. Um, and she didn't as much. And her

1504
01:29:48.480 --> 01:29:55.280
dream was to be married with kids. And so even a guy that she really liked gave me a dozen roses

1505
01:29:55.280 --> 01:29:59.840
in college and never told her that. And I never reciprocated that interest because I know

1506
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:00.920
she liked him.

1507
01:30:03.360 --> 01:30:05.080
And so I've kind of,

1508
01:30:05.080 --> 01:30:09.040
I didn't realize how much I've held back in my life

1509
01:30:09.040 --> 01:30:10.600
because I don't want her to feel bad.

1510
01:30:10.600 --> 01:30:11.840
Like she needs to get married first.

1511
01:30:11.840 --> 01:30:12.960
She needs to have kids first.

1512
01:30:12.960 --> 01:30:17.760
So that like I took on parenting her, I think.

1513
01:30:19.680 --> 01:30:22.480
Yeah, it sounds like you were more concerned

1514
01:30:22.480 --> 01:30:26.400
with her feelings versus your own for some reason.

1515
01:30:26.400 --> 01:30:29.600
Like I would go get a friend group when we moved a lot.

1516
01:30:30.000 --> 01:30:32.480
And I was fine going and trying things by myself

1517
01:30:32.480 --> 01:30:34.120
and getting a friend group and she wasn't.

1518
01:30:34.120 --> 01:30:36.000
So I'd go get a friend group.

1519
01:30:36.000 --> 01:30:38.160
She would start asking to join.

1520
01:30:38.160 --> 01:30:39.640
I'd feel claustrophobic.

1521
01:30:39.640 --> 01:30:41.160
So I would go get a new friend group

1522
01:30:41.160 --> 01:30:43.200
and let her have the first one.

1523
01:30:43.200 --> 01:30:45.040
And that was a pattern in our lives.

1524
01:30:47.320 --> 01:30:50.240
And somehow I've gone through a lot of counseling

1525
01:30:50.240 --> 01:30:52.120
through to see some of that,

1526
01:30:52.120 --> 01:30:57.120
but like I've never thought about it as a not shining light.

1527
01:30:57.840 --> 01:31:01.840
Like I feel badly when I, even now at work,

1528
01:31:01.840 --> 01:31:04.760
I'm succeeding and I feel bad about it.

1529
01:31:05.680 --> 01:31:08.440
You know, was it last week?

1530
01:31:08.440 --> 01:31:10.080
Y'all, I can't remember when I share stuff.

1531
01:31:10.080 --> 01:31:12.320
When I read that quote about our greatest fear

1532
01:31:12.320 --> 01:31:13.720
isn't that we're inadequate,

1533
01:31:13.720 --> 01:31:17.760
but it's actually that we are capable of greatness.

1534
01:31:19.200 --> 01:31:21.160
Yeah, I wanted to know where you,

1535
01:31:21.160 --> 01:31:22.960
I want to put that up in my house somewhere,

1536
01:31:22.960 --> 01:31:23.880
but I didn't know where.

1537
01:31:23.880 --> 01:31:25.760
Sarah Shell put it up in the group.

1538
01:31:25.760 --> 01:31:26.880
You might have to search,

1539
01:31:26.880 --> 01:31:29.480
but Sarah Shell put it up last week

1540
01:31:29.480 --> 01:31:31.320
after our afternoon live session.

1541
01:31:31.320 --> 01:31:34.400
But what comes to mind as well, Karen,

1542
01:31:34.400 --> 01:31:39.400
is like at some point you believed

1543
01:31:41.840 --> 01:31:45.600
that it would be a curse if you lived,

1544
01:31:45.600 --> 01:31:47.680
like not lived as in alive,

1545
01:31:47.680 --> 01:31:50.600
but just like that you fully let yourself.

1546
01:31:50.600 --> 01:31:53.560
And so definitely want to encourage you.

1547
01:31:53.560 --> 01:31:55.560
Like now this is it.

1548
01:31:56.240 --> 01:31:57.200
Now is the time for you.

1549
01:31:57.200 --> 01:31:59.760
So if you haven't heard Supernatural Saturday yet,

1550
01:31:59.760 --> 01:32:02.120
definitely, okay, this is it.

1551
01:32:02.120 --> 01:32:05.240
This is your time to like actually step

1552
01:32:05.240 --> 01:32:08.800
into being who you are and not feeling guilty

1553
01:32:08.800 --> 01:32:11.000
for being successful or having success

1554
01:32:11.000 --> 01:32:12.680
or experiencing blessings.

1555
01:32:12.680 --> 01:32:15.960
And you not having to leave, you know,

1556
01:32:15.960 --> 01:32:17.680
people and things behind

1557
01:32:17.680 --> 01:32:21.320
because you need to make sure someone else has it.

1558
01:32:21.320 --> 01:32:24.200
Like it's your time to like focus on you.

1559
01:32:24.200 --> 01:32:27.280
And the other thing that I heard the Lord say was just,

1560
01:32:27.280 --> 01:32:29.360
I mean, have you ever forgiven yourself

1561
01:32:29.360 --> 01:32:34.360
for, you know, laying all those people and things down

1562
01:32:34.760 --> 01:32:38.440
just so that you could like take care of her feelings

1563
01:32:38.440 --> 01:32:42.520
or her, you know, taking that responsibility on yourself?

1564
01:32:44.280 --> 01:32:47.480
No, I feel like I've wasted a lot of time.

1565
01:32:47.480 --> 01:32:49.160
Yeah, I think forgiving yourself

1566
01:32:49.160 --> 01:32:52.600
for doing those things is gonna be a game changer for you.

1567
01:32:54.400 --> 01:32:56.800
Because even though like genuinely,

1568
01:32:56.800 --> 01:32:59.040
I think you were trying to like, you know,

1569
01:32:59.040 --> 01:33:01.640
just be very caring and love and all of that,

1570
01:33:01.640 --> 01:33:04.280
but there's like self-deprecation in there,

1571
01:33:05.480 --> 01:33:07.000
you know, self-deprecating thoughts,

1572
01:33:07.000 --> 01:33:11.160
like that whole feeling guilty because of being successful.

1573
01:33:11.160 --> 01:33:13.400
And I'm just wondering like were either one

1574
01:33:13.400 --> 01:33:15.360
of your parents also like that?

1575
01:33:19.280 --> 01:33:21.240
I don't know for sure motivationally,

1576
01:33:21.240 --> 01:33:25.800
but maybe my dad a bit, I don't know.

1577
01:33:25.800 --> 01:33:28.840
Or they felt guilty if something good happened to them.

1578
01:33:31.720 --> 01:33:33.160
Not that I'm aware of.

1579
01:33:33.160 --> 01:33:34.240
Okay, that's okay.

1580
01:33:34.240 --> 01:33:36.240
You may wanna pray into that a little bit

1581
01:33:36.240 --> 01:33:38.000
and it could have just started with you,

1582
01:33:38.000 --> 01:33:40.400
but it's interesting to me that that seemed

1583
01:33:40.400 --> 01:33:42.520
to start pretty young in you.

1584
01:33:42.520 --> 01:33:43.400
And so-

1585
01:33:43.400 --> 01:33:44.880
It's like always been in me.

1586
01:33:44.880 --> 01:33:47.360
So yeah, I do wonder maybe.

1587
01:33:47.360 --> 01:33:49.000
So it makes me kind of think

1588
01:33:49.000 --> 01:33:50.880
that maybe it's a generational thing

1589
01:33:51.520 --> 01:33:52.880
and it could have been grandparents.

1590
01:33:52.880 --> 01:33:55.320
It doesn't have to be your biological parents.

1591
01:33:55.320 --> 01:33:58.240
And you can pray and ask the Lord to show you that.

1592
01:33:58.240 --> 01:34:00.760
And in time, you know, if that is something,

1593
01:34:00.760 --> 01:34:03.680
if there's something to that, he'll reveal that to you.

1594
01:34:03.680 --> 01:34:05.200
Yeah, my mom has said a lot like,

1595
01:34:05.200 --> 01:34:06.560
well, what's wrong with me?

1596
01:34:06.560 --> 01:34:09.080
You know, I know that was something that I think was said

1597
01:34:09.080 --> 01:34:10.280
this last Supernatural Saturday.

1598
01:34:10.280 --> 01:34:12.720
Your mom said that about herself or to you?

1599
01:34:12.720 --> 01:34:14.560
About herself all the time.

1600
01:34:14.560 --> 01:34:16.440
What's wrong with me?

1601
01:34:16.440 --> 01:34:17.280
Okay.

1602
01:34:18.120 --> 01:34:19.600
And it would always bother me.

1603
01:34:20.880 --> 01:34:24.120
Be like, nothing's inherently wrong with you, mom.

1604
01:34:24.120 --> 01:34:26.480
So was your mom really insecure?

1605
01:34:26.480 --> 01:34:28.080
Very.

1606
01:34:28.080 --> 01:34:31.240
Okay, so if you picked up on that, even as a kid,

1607
01:34:31.240 --> 01:34:33.440
you could have also been doing that with your mom

1608
01:34:33.440 --> 01:34:35.120
as well as your sister.

1609
01:34:35.120 --> 01:34:37.800
So just keep praying into that a little bit more.

1610
01:34:37.800 --> 01:34:38.880
I don't know about you all,

1611
01:34:38.880 --> 01:34:42.280
but when I'm around people that are really insecure,

1612
01:34:42.280 --> 01:34:45.720
it's really tough sometimes to actually just be yourself

1613
01:34:45.720 --> 01:34:48.240
because you're like, I think on,

1614
01:34:48.240 --> 01:34:50.000
especially like I'm a feeler.

1615
01:34:50.000 --> 01:34:53.680
So I feel things deep that other people are feeling.

1616
01:34:53.680 --> 01:34:57.560
And if my presence, just being myself,

1617
01:34:57.560 --> 01:34:59.960
if I start to feel someone else vibing.

1618
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:03.340
I'm going to say vibing, like, but I'm just trying to give you an example.

1619
01:35:03.340 --> 01:35:07.880
Like if I feel that vibe coming weird from them or their insecurity starts

1620
01:35:07.880 --> 01:35:12.480
flaring up, I automatically am like, Oh, like on the inside.

1621
01:35:12.720 --> 01:35:17.420
And I try to just like care for them versus even myself.

1622
01:35:17.420 --> 01:35:18.660
I have to really watch that.

1623
01:35:18.660 --> 01:35:21.620
I don't, I don't pull back from who I am.

1624
01:35:22.440 --> 01:35:26.180
And that's something God's really, really been working with me on because I can go

1625
01:35:26.180 --> 01:35:30.640
into different denominations and feel like I need to shut off who I am

1626
01:35:31.760 --> 01:35:33.540
in different aspects and ways of myself.

1627
01:35:33.540 --> 01:35:34.700
And I don't need to do that.

1628
01:35:35.340 --> 01:35:40.100
I can learn how to respect that denomination and operate in my giftings

1629
01:35:40.520 --> 01:35:45.500
and respect and honor of the body and the people that I'm with at that time.

1630
01:35:45.740 --> 01:35:46.500
Does that make sense?

1631
01:35:46.700 --> 01:35:49.380
But that doesn't mean I have to turn off who I am.

1632
01:35:51.300 --> 01:35:52.540
It's a really fine line.

1633
01:35:52.620 --> 01:35:53.980
That's such a great explanation.

1634
01:35:53.980 --> 01:35:54.260
Yeah.

1635
01:35:54.580 --> 01:35:57.740
And I just heard the Lord say, as I said that, like for some of you, you need to

1636
01:35:57.740 --> 01:36:01.860
turn the switch back on, like instead of turning the switch off when you're around

1637
01:36:01.860 --> 01:36:06.540
people, you need to turn the switch on and be yourself to really be yourself.

1638
01:36:06.580 --> 01:36:06.980
Yeah.

1639
01:36:07.660 --> 01:36:09.260
So this is really good.

1640
01:36:09.260 --> 01:36:10.100
It's nine 36.

1641
01:36:10.100 --> 01:36:12.620
I want to make sure if people need to jump off so that you know what the

1642
01:36:12.620 --> 01:36:16.540
activation is for this week, but I am going to come to Yovana next.

1643
01:36:16.980 --> 01:36:19.260
Um, and we will try to finish out.

1644
01:36:19.260 --> 01:36:21.020
I have three people left.

1645
01:36:21.260 --> 01:36:21.540
Okay.

1646
01:36:21.540 --> 01:36:22.820
I'm going to let them share, please.

1647
01:36:22.820 --> 01:36:23.980
No one else put your hands up.

1648
01:36:23.980 --> 01:36:26.180
But I do want to give them the space to share.

1649
01:36:26.500 --> 01:36:29.780
Um, and if you do need to hop off, we totally understand everything that

1650
01:36:29.780 --> 01:36:31.380
everyone's sharing is really powerful.

1651
01:36:31.700 --> 01:36:35.340
Um, the activation for this week is the silhouette challenge.

1652
01:36:35.340 --> 01:36:35.740
You all.

1653
01:36:35.740 --> 01:36:36.180
Okay.

1654
01:36:36.660 --> 01:36:38.540
I want you to draw.

1655
01:36:38.620 --> 01:36:38.900
Okay.

1656
01:36:38.900 --> 01:36:40.740
You don't have to be a super fancy artist.

1657
01:36:40.780 --> 01:36:44.180
I'm going to put an example up in the group.

1658
01:36:44.180 --> 01:36:48.500
I'll put a couple examples so y'all can see them of different silhouettes that

1659
01:36:48.500 --> 01:36:52.740
people, you literally can like, I'm going to just do this real quick.

1660
01:36:53.140 --> 01:36:55.700
You can literally do, Oh, you guys can't see it.

1661
01:36:58.020 --> 01:36:58.780
Y'all see this.

1662
01:36:58.860 --> 01:37:02.180
All this is, is a little line that looks kind of like a head.

1663
01:37:02.460 --> 01:37:02.980
Okay.

1664
01:37:03.620 --> 01:37:07.140
You can do it like this, but if you're an artist and you want to draw

1665
01:37:07.140 --> 01:37:09.580
something really amazing, cool.

1666
01:37:09.980 --> 01:37:10.420
Okay.

1667
01:37:10.540 --> 01:37:12.460
Just no comparing each other.

1668
01:37:12.620 --> 01:37:13.100
Okay.

1669
01:37:13.180 --> 01:37:14.700
Everybody just be who you are.

1670
01:37:14.860 --> 01:37:18.940
If you want to draw something just like this, and I maybe like, maybe today I

1671
01:37:18.940 --> 01:37:22.340
want curly hair, you all, I might do this a little better than I am right now, but

1672
01:37:22.340 --> 01:37:24.540
I'm doing this because I want you to not be afraid.

1673
01:37:24.980 --> 01:37:26.180
Like, okay, there's my hair.

1674
01:37:26.260 --> 01:37:26.660
Great.

1675
01:37:26.700 --> 01:37:27.540
Put some eyes on.

1676
01:37:27.540 --> 01:37:31.820
Maybe, maybe not even put eyes on, but the point is this, this is the point.

1677
01:37:32.460 --> 01:37:34.340
I want you to pray and ask the Lord.

1678
01:37:35.740 --> 01:37:37.540
What does he say about you?

1679
01:37:37.580 --> 01:37:39.260
Who are you?

1680
01:37:40.300 --> 01:37:41.540
Who is the real you?

1681
01:37:41.580 --> 01:37:43.780
Not the counterfeit versions of you.

1682
01:37:44.340 --> 01:37:45.380
Who are you?

1683
01:37:45.380 --> 01:37:47.100
What is God saying about you?

1684
01:37:47.340 --> 01:37:51.140
Write down any phrases, any images, any words that you hear.

1685
01:37:51.220 --> 01:37:51.660
Okay.

1686
01:37:52.340 --> 01:37:55.420
If they are positive, they're all going to go on this.

1687
01:37:55.460 --> 01:37:57.820
And I want you to pray about where you need to put them on here too.

1688
01:37:58.380 --> 01:37:58.820
Okay.

1689
01:37:59.180 --> 01:38:01.860
God will start to show you, there's going to be different things that

1690
01:38:01.860 --> 01:38:03.100
he's going to put on there.

1691
01:38:03.260 --> 01:38:05.020
Have you put them in different places for a reason.

1692
01:38:05.340 --> 01:38:08.420
If you hear something negative, it does not go on here.

1693
01:38:09.700 --> 01:38:11.500
It goes on another piece of paper.

1694
01:38:12.420 --> 01:38:15.100
And then I want you to write it down and then cross it out.

1695
01:38:15.140 --> 01:38:19.220
And I want you to ask the Lord for the truth to replace the lie.

1696
01:38:20.220 --> 01:38:22.540
Nothing negative goes on this silhouette.

1697
01:38:22.580 --> 01:38:23.020
Okay.

1698
01:38:24.060 --> 01:38:29.460
You are a super Nova, a positive influence in the world.

1699
01:38:30.060 --> 01:38:30.460
Yes.

1700
01:38:30.460 --> 01:38:34.340
We all make mistakes and have shortcomings at times, but that

1701
01:38:34.340 --> 01:38:35.820
is not a part of your identity.

1702
01:38:36.340 --> 01:38:37.180
Do you understand?

1703
01:38:38.060 --> 01:38:38.460
All right.

1704
01:38:38.620 --> 01:38:40.540
And then I want to put them, I want y'all to put them up in the

1705
01:38:40.540 --> 01:38:42.220
group because we want to see them.

1706
01:38:42.300 --> 01:38:42.740
Okay.

1707
01:38:43.340 --> 01:38:46.300
And again, you can, you can make them fancy and artistic

1708
01:38:46.300 --> 01:38:47.700
or make them very simple.

1709
01:38:48.140 --> 01:38:50.980
I had someone the last time around that we did this.

1710
01:38:51.260 --> 01:38:55.420
Um, they, they actually literally put a picture of themselves on the

1711
01:38:55.420 --> 01:38:57.380
paper and then they put the words.

1712
01:38:57.420 --> 01:38:58.580
You can do that too.

1713
01:38:59.220 --> 01:39:03.460
The point is knowing who God says you are and walking in that and putting

1714
01:39:03.460 --> 01:39:07.780
it on that paper and then sharing it with these amazing sisters in our

1715
01:39:07.780 --> 01:39:12.540
community so that we can say, yeah, yes, I see that in you and we can

1716
01:39:12.540 --> 01:39:13.740
come alongside of you in that.

1717
01:39:13.740 --> 01:39:14.660
Does that make sense?

1718
01:39:15.500 --> 01:39:15.820
All right.

1719
01:39:15.820 --> 01:39:16.340
Awesome.

1720
01:39:16.500 --> 01:39:18.060
Yolanda, go ahead and share.

1721
01:39:18.060 --> 01:39:19.220
I would love to hear from you.

1722
01:39:20.780 --> 01:39:21.180
Okay.

1723
01:39:21.420 --> 01:39:23.580
Oh, learning how to raise my hand and lower it.

1724
01:39:24.140 --> 01:39:25.260
You're doing great.

1725
01:39:25.300 --> 01:39:26.420
I saw you.

1726
01:39:26.420 --> 01:39:27.020
That's awesome.

1727
01:39:27.020 --> 01:39:27.220
Ruth.

1728
01:39:27.220 --> 01:39:28.660
Thank you for helping her in the chat.

1729
01:39:28.900 --> 01:39:29.500
Yes.

1730
01:39:30.260 --> 01:39:36.980
Um, so what we talked about in our group, um, I was saying, um, usually

1731
01:39:36.980 --> 01:39:42.180
it shows up in imitation, but we were talking about how they kind of go together.

1732
01:39:42.300 --> 01:39:48.580
And so the other day, um, I was looking on Instagram around Mother's Day and I

1733
01:39:48.580 --> 01:39:52.940
saw this girl that I follow and she was posting all these pictures of her kids.

1734
01:39:53.740 --> 01:39:57.660
And I just got so upset and I was like, I thought I was fine.

1735
01:39:57.980 --> 01:40:00.060
But, you know, seeing that just really triggered.

1736
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:06.400
like, I want that in my life. Am I ever going to get that? And I got angry. And I just shut off

1737
01:40:06.400 --> 01:40:12.800
social media. And I went immediately to talk to God. And I was like, Why am I feeling this way?

1738
01:40:12.800 --> 01:40:18.480
And he's like, because you've believed that lie that this can't happen for you. And so a day later,

1739
01:40:18.480 --> 01:40:23.840
I got back on social media, I felt like I needed to go on there for like a minute. And I saw that

1740
01:40:23.840 --> 01:40:30.160
same woman post something and she said, I've been where you've been. And I'm sure you've

1741
01:40:30.160 --> 01:40:35.120
saw those posts, you saw my post. And you want to be happy for people, you're like,

1742
01:40:35.120 --> 01:40:41.520
I'm trying to be joyful with you. But it just hurts. And she said, but God changed my perspective

1743
01:40:41.520 --> 01:40:48.080
when he showed me what you do for others, you can do for myself, for me. And that just

1744
01:40:48.080 --> 01:40:53.600
totally shifted something for me. And I was like, that's so simple. Yes, God can do it for me.

1745
01:40:54.320 --> 01:41:00.800
And then I saw Supernatural Saturday. And it's saying this is this is it or this is my time.

1746
01:41:01.520 --> 01:41:08.640
And God reminded me today of this movie. And in this movie, they're in Austria, I don't remember

1747
01:41:08.640 --> 01:41:15.520
the name. But it was during World War Two, and it was a very wealthy family. And these soldiers

1748
01:41:15.520 --> 01:41:21.760
were coming to take them away. But the parents stayed as a distraction and let the daughters

1749
01:41:21.760 --> 01:41:28.400
get away, or a daughter and son. And the whole time they're speaking in their language. And then

1750
01:41:28.400 --> 01:41:33.760
the father came to the daughter and said, he started speaking in English and said, from now on,

1751
01:41:33.760 --> 01:41:42.000
we speak the language of your future. And God reminded me today, he said, you've been declaring

1752
01:41:42.000 --> 01:41:46.960
stuff over yourself from now on, we start speaking in the kingdom language of your future.

1753
01:41:47.600 --> 01:41:52.800
And so hearing actually heard Supernatural Saturday replay today at work, and I was like,

1754
01:41:53.840 --> 01:42:01.680
but he was reminding me, I need to start declaring the truth over myself of who God says I am,

1755
01:42:01.680 --> 01:42:08.720
which goes along with what our activation is. But that is just replaying what God can do for

1756
01:42:08.720 --> 01:42:14.960
others he can do for me. And that I'm going to speak the language of the kingdom from now on.

1757
01:42:14.960 --> 01:42:20.560
That's my future language. That's so powerful, y'all. I don't know. Man, that was like,

1758
01:42:21.680 --> 01:42:27.120
we're staying for you all that was that was like, she's preaching. That was so powerful. I felt it

1759
01:42:27.120 --> 01:42:33.840
as you said it. From now on. I want this to be kind of like a banner for this group. This is where

1760
01:42:33.840 --> 01:42:40.320
you all every time I say this all the time, not like there will never be another night,

1761
01:42:40.320 --> 01:42:44.800
just like this night with all these people that are here right now in this moment.

1762
01:42:45.760 --> 01:42:51.280
Like you're all here hearing this statement. And if you grab on to that, I mean, there's a lot in

1763
01:42:51.280 --> 01:42:56.400
there tonight, but man, that revelation that she got from the Father from now on, we start speaking

1764
01:42:56.400 --> 01:43:04.800
the kingdom language of your future. What does that sound like? What does heaven have to say

1765
01:43:04.800 --> 01:43:11.040
about your future? And partnering with that instead of believing the lie that when we

1766
01:43:11.040 --> 01:43:15.920
see someone else happy that God doesn't have beautiful, amazing things for us to

1767
01:43:17.760 --> 01:43:21.360
again, that I will tell you, Yovana, that is a switch from orphan

1768
01:43:22.000 --> 01:43:28.720
to princess. It is a shift right there. Here I have my crown. Oh, there you go. I love it. I love

1769
01:43:28.720 --> 01:43:36.080
it. Girl, wear that crown and wear it often because you are a bride. You are a bride. You are

1770
01:43:36.080 --> 01:43:42.800
chosen. You are destined. God has amazing things in store for you. And don't you ever settle for

1771
01:43:42.800 --> 01:43:48.560
less than that? Yeah. I'm so excited for you. This is going to be, it's going to be literally

1772
01:43:49.120 --> 01:43:53.600
life-changing for you if you continue to partner with that. And everybody else here is now invited

1773
01:43:53.600 --> 01:44:00.320
into that party and that partnership. So it's up to you to choose to step into it. So powerful. I

1774
01:44:00.320 --> 01:44:06.080
love this. Joy, go ahead. Praise the Lord.

1775
01:44:10.080 --> 01:44:17.840
I was sharing in the group chat. So, okay. I mentioned about when you asked this question,

1776
01:44:17.840 --> 01:44:26.640
I thought about, wow, my sister in Christ. So she told another sister in Christ say that

1777
01:44:27.440 --> 01:44:36.240
I copied her something. I kind of, I don't know what, what did she actually copy her? I forgot

1778
01:44:36.240 --> 01:44:44.960
it's copy her to blow shofar or wear something nice clothing. I could not remember. All right.

1779
01:44:44.960 --> 01:44:52.160
God is still healing my brain, the blood circulation memory. So anyway, I, I was,

1780
01:44:52.880 --> 01:44:59.760
so I need to check it myself. Do I really copy her? I know myself, I'm still.

1781
01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:03.620
Try to discern where I'm what's going on with me

1782
01:45:04.280 --> 01:45:08.480
Actually, I I said to myself I check myself. I somehow yeah

1783
01:45:08.480 --> 01:45:14.360
I do like to see other people if it may be good to have a strength or anybody have a good strength

1784
01:45:14.360 --> 01:45:18.760
I like it. Yes. I want it. I want it. So I want to be like that, too

1785
01:45:20.520 --> 01:45:25.780
So is that a consider comparison or just or imitation whatever

1786
01:45:26.680 --> 01:45:28.680
and I I

1787
01:45:28.960 --> 01:45:30.960
Because I love to

1788
01:45:31.400 --> 01:45:36.360
Before and owe me I was not, you know, I did not spend the time to shopping

1789
01:45:37.040 --> 01:45:43.200
By good clothes put on that because I can see these luxury because I can see time is so invaluable

1790
01:45:43.200 --> 01:45:45.500
I don't want to spend time to shop

1791
01:45:45.680 --> 01:45:52.920
But then God changed my mindset when I see how people dress beautiful. I think I now I dress like scriptures

1792
01:45:52.920 --> 01:45:55.200
I want to always look for

1793
01:45:56.040 --> 01:46:02.920
Scripture dress put on myself. I just so beautiful people just unmind me and then also ask me where get a clothes. So

1794
01:46:03.560 --> 01:46:04.680
so

1795
01:46:04.680 --> 01:46:06.680
I just try to

1796
01:46:06.880 --> 01:46:09.560
Get a no more deeper by myself

1797
01:46:10.600 --> 01:46:14.660
Another day the one preacher was preaching. She was

1798
01:46:16.760 --> 01:46:17.920
So

1799
01:46:17.920 --> 01:46:20.600
Are you saying that I just want to get some clarity?

1800
01:46:20.600 --> 01:46:26.320
Are you saying that you struggle with comparing yourself to someone that you go to church with?

1801
01:46:28.720 --> 01:46:30.160
I

1802
01:46:30.160 --> 01:46:32.160
actually, I got a word from

1803
01:46:32.720 --> 01:46:38.280
The three sister. I wanted to say that another sister say I copy her

1804
01:46:38.660 --> 01:46:44.440
Okay, so one of your sisters like biological sisters or in Christ in Christ in Christ

1805
01:46:44.440 --> 01:46:48.560
Okay, so a woman that you go to church with said to you that you copy her

1806
01:46:49.120 --> 01:46:53.840
Yeah, I just she said it to another sister another sister is okay, okay

1807
01:46:53.960 --> 01:46:59.920
so now I found out I don't have to find out whether I really I compare myself with her or

1808
01:47:00.920 --> 01:47:03.080
What's going on with me? I want to know myself

1809
01:47:05.040 --> 01:47:07.040
Yeah

1810
01:47:08.480 --> 01:47:14.600
So because you asked that you said that you were asking God do you do I really copy her and so I was just

1811
01:47:14.600 --> 01:47:17.720
trying to follow kind of the story and

1812
01:47:19.000 --> 01:47:23.560
How it's impacting you today. So is this someone that you still spend time with?

1813
01:47:23.560 --> 01:47:28.080
This is this someone that's this is a current thing happening. Or is this something that happened before?

1814
01:47:29.240 --> 01:47:31.640
this is a happen before and

1815
01:47:32.600 --> 01:47:34.600
and

1816
01:47:34.640 --> 01:47:39.720
Sometimes when we blow chauffeur together in the church she blow first

1817
01:47:40.560 --> 01:47:47.440
Sometimes I blows first then if I she blow first if I blow second she may consider I copy her

1818
01:47:47.440 --> 01:47:49.440
I kind you know

1819
01:47:50.760 --> 01:47:53.640
So some something going on between me and her

1820
01:47:54.720 --> 01:47:58.680
So and she kind of put a wall between me and her

1821
01:48:00.280 --> 01:48:05.840
But I know myself I know that I want to dress for Jesus and

1822
01:48:06.520 --> 01:48:10.560
Also, I want to shine for Jesus. Also, I love to celebrate

1823
01:48:11.320 --> 01:48:17.400
Anybody's wing because I consider we're one if you better than me, I celebrate you

1824
01:48:17.400 --> 01:48:24.120
I'm really happy for you. But somehow if I heard this word from another sister somebody say I copy

1825
01:48:24.920 --> 01:48:28.000
None, I'll have to find out what's going on with me

1826
01:48:30.320 --> 01:48:36.000
Let me just say this though, okay, I think it's good that you're asking the Lord do I really do this and

1827
01:48:36.880 --> 01:48:39.440
And what is God saying to you when you ask him that?

1828
01:48:41.520 --> 01:48:43.880
Is he saying that you do

1829
01:48:46.880 --> 01:48:48.880
Mmm, I

1830
01:48:50.280 --> 01:48:52.280
Don't feel like she

1831
01:48:52.560 --> 01:48:59.240
God say to me but I like my personality is like the good thing or maybe I

1832
01:48:59.800 --> 01:49:02.120
Like good. I want to copy sometimes I do

1833
01:49:02.760 --> 01:49:07.960
If somebody really do very well, I said, oh, this is good. I like it. So I want to copy

1834
01:49:08.320 --> 01:49:09.560
Something

1835
01:49:09.560 --> 01:49:16.960
different about admiring things in people and wanting to walk in something that they that they do or have

1836
01:49:17.400 --> 01:49:22.400
I think the thing that's important here is for you to really start discerning

1837
01:49:23.080 --> 01:49:25.080
Who is joy?

1838
01:49:25.360 --> 01:49:29.800
Mm-hmm, and who does joy want to become as far as like like I

1839
01:49:31.240 --> 01:49:37.200
Can remember watching Joyce Meyer years ago like literally I'd be like man. I want to be like her someday

1840
01:49:37.240 --> 01:49:38.440
Yeah

1841
01:49:38.440 --> 01:49:44.960
Okay, but when I would say that I can remember not long after that Joyce would preach and she would say, you know

1842
01:49:44.960 --> 01:49:47.200
People people think they want to be like me

1843
01:49:47.200 --> 01:49:51.000
But do they want to go through what I have to go through to get here, you know?

1844
01:49:51.000 --> 01:49:54.720
And I remember like being convicted like it wasn't wrong for me

1845
01:49:55.280 --> 01:49:59.960
To want that because she had such an amazing impact on so many people for that

1846
01:50:00.000 --> 01:50:06.400
But I also wasn't going behind her and always doing everything she was doing.

1847
01:50:06.400 --> 01:50:09.600
Now, I never met Joyce Meyer either, I didn't go to church with her.

1848
01:50:09.600 --> 01:50:13.940
So if we're in close proximity to somebody, if they're feeling like that, I mean, did

1849
01:50:13.940 --> 01:50:19.440
you ever ask her, you know, like, Hey, I heard that you said this in, you know, I just want

1850
01:50:19.440 --> 01:50:20.440
to learn more.

1851
01:50:20.440 --> 01:50:24.120
Like, what am I doing that's causing you to feel this way?

1852
01:50:24.120 --> 01:50:28.400
Have you ever talked to her about it?

1853
01:50:28.800 --> 01:50:36.000
Seriously, I wanted to talk to her, but she kind of, kind of sometimes, we had one conversation

1854
01:50:36.000 --> 01:50:37.000
before.

1855
01:50:37.000 --> 01:50:46.800
If I said something, you know, frankly, I then she, she kind of avoid to admit that.

1856
01:50:46.800 --> 01:50:50.800
Because I said something, I said that I feel that way.

1857
01:50:50.800 --> 01:50:51.800
Okay.

1858
01:50:51.800 --> 01:50:55.400
So that's why I do not have very good communication.

1859
01:50:55.400 --> 01:50:57.240
Yeah, go ahead.

1860
01:50:58.080 --> 01:50:59.080
It's okay.

1861
01:50:59.080 --> 01:51:00.080
Yeah.

1862
01:51:00.080 --> 01:51:03.880
So I think the best thing that you can do is just you move forward and maybe create

1863
01:51:03.880 --> 01:51:06.920
some distance between you and this person for now.

1864
01:51:06.920 --> 01:51:12.120
And you really just ask the Lord who is joy, who God do, like, who do you want me to be?

1865
01:51:12.120 --> 01:51:13.280
Who am I?

1866
01:51:13.280 --> 01:51:15.280
And just keep living into that.

1867
01:51:15.280 --> 01:51:19.160
And people are going to say stuff about us at times you all and there's not a lot we

1868
01:51:19.160 --> 01:51:20.180
can do about that.

1869
01:51:20.180 --> 01:51:24.760
If you try to talk to her, and it didn't seem like that conversation was going anywhere

1870
01:51:24.760 --> 01:51:25.760
healthy.

1871
01:51:25.760 --> 01:51:31.080
The only thing you can do at that point is move forward, you can on, you know, just continue

1872
01:51:31.080 --> 01:51:35.800
to to shine in who you are, and be yourself.

1873
01:51:35.800 --> 01:51:42.800
And definitely just keep asking the Lord as you go, how you can keep living as joy and

1874
01:51:42.800 --> 01:51:45.120
not living as another person.

1875
01:51:45.120 --> 01:51:46.120
You know?

1876
01:51:46.120 --> 01:51:47.120
Yeah.

1877
01:51:47.120 --> 01:51:48.120
Thank you for your word.

1878
01:51:48.120 --> 01:51:50.080
If you don't want to quickly just want to share.

1879
01:51:50.080 --> 01:51:53.080
I need to have Sherita share just because we're already at 951.

1880
01:51:53.080 --> 01:51:54.080
Okay.

1881
01:51:54.400 --> 01:51:55.400
Yeah, just real quick.

1882
01:51:55.400 --> 01:52:03.400
Just as a word of God, before you give the just worship or donation, if anybody you see

1883
01:52:03.400 --> 01:52:08.160
are not reconciled, you need to go to a person, if I went to one, one time, maybe I should

1884
01:52:08.160 --> 01:52:10.160
go second time, third time to try to get

1885
01:52:10.160 --> 01:52:14.680
Hey, joy, I don't know what you're referring to right now.

1886
01:52:14.680 --> 01:52:15.680
Okay.

1887
01:52:15.680 --> 01:52:16.680
I'm going to have you hold that.

1888
01:52:16.680 --> 01:52:19.520
Can you put it in the group for me and the last single app and then I can respond to

1889
01:52:19.520 --> 01:52:20.520
you there.

1890
01:52:20.520 --> 01:52:21.520
Okay, thank you.

1891
01:52:21.520 --> 01:52:22.520
All right.

1892
01:52:22.520 --> 01:52:23.520
All right.

1893
01:52:23.960 --> 01:52:24.960
Thank you.

1894
01:52:24.960 --> 01:52:25.960
Sherita.

1895
01:52:25.960 --> 01:52:26.960
Go ahead.

1896
01:52:26.960 --> 01:52:27.960
Hi.

1897
01:52:27.960 --> 01:52:28.960
Can you hear me?

1898
01:52:28.960 --> 01:52:29.960
Okay, great.

1899
01:52:29.960 --> 01:52:31.960
Um, so this is kind of like a two parter.

1900
01:52:31.960 --> 01:52:38.760
I'm not going to try to take up much time, but, um, I was on the, um, her call with you

1901
01:52:38.760 --> 01:52:39.760
this morning.

1902
01:52:39.760 --> 01:52:40.760
Okay.

1903
01:52:40.760 --> 01:52:45.320
And I just want to kind of like, talk about a little bit of my emotions that I've that

1904
01:52:45.320 --> 01:52:48.720
I had when we were talking about the man and then I'll get to what we were supposed to

1905
01:52:48.720 --> 01:52:50.000
do for today.

1906
01:52:50.000 --> 01:52:53.520
But, um, I've never felt this before.

1907
01:52:53.520 --> 01:53:00.680
But when we were praying for the man, like, I immediately started to feel angry.

1908
01:53:00.680 --> 01:53:02.520
And that was that was new for me.

1909
01:53:02.520 --> 01:53:04.680
I've never felt that.

1910
01:53:04.680 --> 01:53:10.000
And I was kind of asking myself, I was like, Oh my gosh, what is this feeling?

1911
01:53:10.000 --> 01:53:15.040
And it Oh my gosh.

1912
01:53:15.040 --> 01:53:17.560
I didn't know that I had some bitterness.

1913
01:53:17.560 --> 01:53:18.560
Right.

1914
01:53:18.560 --> 01:53:23.520
And I know y'all said things are going to come up as we go, right?

1915
01:53:23.520 --> 01:53:27.520
And so I'm like, Oh, I don't know.

1916
01:53:27.520 --> 01:53:29.080
But yeah, it's coming up.

1917
01:53:29.080 --> 01:53:33.520
I was like, the bitterness is, it's like, okay.

1918
01:53:33.520 --> 01:53:36.280
I know that we're all like amazing ladies, right?

1919
01:53:36.280 --> 01:53:39.960
A lot of us are getting up in age, we want to have children, all these things, right?

1920
01:53:40.920 --> 01:53:46.680
And I think the bitterness was, and I'll say how it turned around, but it was like, wow,

1921
01:53:46.680 --> 01:53:49.960
you know, we were so committed to like our self development.

1922
01:53:49.960 --> 01:53:54.240
And you know, most, most of us women are like, we want to, you know, get better and all these

1923
01:53:54.240 --> 01:53:55.240
things.

1924
01:53:55.240 --> 01:54:02.040
And it's a fact that, you know, there's, there's not so much of a push for that with the man,

1925
01:54:02.040 --> 01:54:05.080
like most of the books are for women, it's women, what we can do better.

1926
01:54:05.080 --> 01:54:09.720
And it was just, I just felt that for a moment, I was, I was angry, because I was like, man,

1927
01:54:10.480 --> 01:54:13.600
if it was such a push on the other side, maybe I wouldn't still be single right now, right?

1928
01:54:13.600 --> 01:54:16.000
Like, we'd all have great, amazing guys.

1929
01:54:16.000 --> 01:54:20.160
And I remember, but you always say, I've heard you say this several times, what you look

1930
01:54:20.160 --> 01:54:21.840
for, you will find.

1931
01:54:21.840 --> 01:54:28.160
So I try to always turn it around positive, say, No, I'm not going to focus on that.

1932
01:54:28.160 --> 01:54:31.400
We're going to look for the positives, because I do see positive examples, because I was

1933
01:54:31.400 --> 01:54:32.400
looking for them.

1934
01:54:32.400 --> 01:54:33.400
Right.

1935
01:54:33.400 --> 01:54:36.080
And so I'm doing that little shift, I just wanted to share that quickly before I get

1936
01:54:36.080 --> 01:54:42.320
to what we were doing today, that I am just going through that shift of resetting my

1937
01:54:42.320 --> 01:54:45.400
mind, right on what to focus on.

1938
01:54:45.400 --> 01:54:50.520
And although we can find many examples of that, I feel like we can also find examples

1939
01:54:50.520 --> 01:54:51.520
on the other side.

1940
01:54:51.520 --> 01:54:53.000
And that's what I'm choosing to focus on.

1941
01:54:53.000 --> 01:54:57.560
So that's just a little break.

1942
01:54:57.560 --> 01:55:00.040
And it's first of all, my assignment.

1943
01:55:00.000 --> 01:55:05.000
for this evening, my words that I had come up

1944
01:55:05.240 --> 01:55:08.560
were the comparison and delay.

1945
01:55:08.560 --> 01:55:11.880
First, the comparison of just, you know,

1946
01:55:11.880 --> 01:55:15.760
getting older and wanting to be in a certain spot

1947
01:55:15.760 --> 01:55:17.160
at this point in my life.

1948
01:55:17.160 --> 01:55:18.960
And I'm sure we all feel that way.

1949
01:55:18.960 --> 01:55:21.360
You know, you wanna be married, you wanna have the house,

1950
01:55:21.360 --> 01:55:24.000
you wanna have the kids, you know, blah, blah.

1951
01:55:24.000 --> 01:55:27.280
And just going on my own timeline,

1952
01:55:27.280 --> 01:55:32.200
but that also plays into delay because,

1953
01:55:32.200 --> 01:55:34.360
and I'm so glad I get to finally share this

1954
01:55:34.360 --> 01:55:35.880
because I was, I tried to share this.

1955
01:55:35.880 --> 01:55:37.280
This is my second time talking

1956
01:55:37.280 --> 01:55:38.420
because I don't really, you know,

1957
01:55:38.420 --> 01:55:40.560
do the whole live talking thing.

1958
01:55:42.440 --> 01:55:45.380
And I didn't get a chance to share it, but I was,

1959
01:55:47.480 --> 01:55:49.480
basically I had this spiritual dream.

1960
01:55:49.480 --> 01:55:51.000
It was very, it's very spiritual.

1961
01:55:51.000 --> 01:55:55.640
And I know God was speaking to me through this dream.

1962
01:55:55.640 --> 01:56:00.040
I'll keep it short, but I was basically in a school,

1963
01:56:00.040 --> 01:56:01.760
like I was in like high school.

1964
01:56:01.760 --> 01:56:04.100
And I think one time I was like in college,

1965
01:56:04.100 --> 01:56:06.640
but anyway, I could never get to where I was going.

1966
01:56:06.640 --> 01:56:08.840
It was like, I was going around in circles.

1967
01:56:08.840 --> 01:56:11.880
I was going from one hall to the next

1968
01:56:11.880 --> 01:56:13.440
and I could never get there.

1969
01:56:13.440 --> 01:56:16.720
And a couple of weeks ago before I joined this program,

1970
01:56:16.720 --> 01:56:21.720
I had another dream where I finally got out.

1971
01:56:22.160 --> 01:56:24.600
I was conscious that I was in a dream.

1972
01:56:24.600 --> 01:56:26.000
I said, this is a dream.

1973
01:56:26.000 --> 01:56:27.840
And I finally got out.

1974
01:56:27.840 --> 01:56:30.160
And when I did try to share this on a Tuesday,

1975
01:56:30.160 --> 01:56:32.160
I forget the lady's name, I couldn't get it out.

1976
01:56:32.160 --> 01:56:34.000
I was just like, oh yeah, I finally got out,

1977
01:56:34.000 --> 01:56:35.280
but that wasn't it.

1978
01:56:35.280 --> 01:56:36.840
And I, and this is such a good message

1979
01:56:36.840 --> 01:56:38.400
because I want, you know,

1980
01:56:38.400 --> 01:56:42.520
everybody to be able to like take something from this.

1981
01:56:42.520 --> 01:56:44.480
The delay, God is,

1982
01:56:44.480 --> 01:56:46.880
sometime God is covering you in the delay

1983
01:56:46.880 --> 01:56:49.120
because when I finally got out of that school

1984
01:56:50.120 --> 01:56:52.280
and I was like, oh yeah, I'm out of here.

1985
01:56:52.280 --> 01:56:53.120
Guess what?

1986
01:56:53.120 --> 01:56:54.360
I felt, even though I was wearing clothes,

1987
01:56:55.160 --> 01:56:56.000
I felt naked.

1988
01:56:56.000 --> 01:56:57.920
And that's the spiritual part of the dream

1989
01:56:57.920 --> 01:56:59.880
that I didn't get a chance to share.

1990
01:56:59.880 --> 01:57:01.040
I felt naked.

1991
01:57:01.040 --> 01:57:02.520
There was some guy coming towards me.

1992
01:57:02.520 --> 01:57:03.800
I didn't know if he was going to hurt me.

1993
01:57:03.800 --> 01:57:05.480
He didn't, he was passing through.

1994
01:57:05.480 --> 01:57:06.840
I was looking at these other buildings,

1995
01:57:06.840 --> 01:57:10.520
but basically what I'm trying to say is that

1996
01:57:11.440 --> 01:57:15.400
I feel like that was part of a breakthrough in itself

1997
01:57:15.400 --> 01:57:18.560
and saying, hey, it's okay to get out of this cycle.

1998
01:57:18.560 --> 01:57:19.720
But once you're out of this,

1999
01:57:19.720 --> 01:57:22.440
you still have to be covered by Jesus.

2000
01:57:22.440 --> 01:57:23.800
You still have to be covered

2001
01:57:23.800 --> 01:57:26.440
because that's where the enemy can attack you

2002
01:57:26.440 --> 01:57:27.720
when you're uncovered.

2003
01:57:27.720 --> 01:57:29.880
So yeah, I just wanted to share that.

2004
01:57:29.880 --> 01:57:31.240
That's so good.

2005
01:57:31.240 --> 01:57:33.960
You know, ladies, a lot of times when,

2006
01:57:33.960 --> 01:57:35.800
especially if you're having these dreams

2007
01:57:35.800 --> 01:57:37.200
while you're in heartwork too,

2008
01:57:37.200 --> 01:57:38.640
or even if they were before

2009
01:57:38.640 --> 01:57:39.960
and then you started having dreams,

2010
01:57:39.960 --> 01:57:41.840
when there's any kind of dream that you have

2011
01:57:41.840 --> 01:57:42.680
when you're naked,

2012
01:57:42.680 --> 01:57:45.840
a lot of times it can represent that vulnerability,

2013
01:57:45.840 --> 01:57:49.560
a fear of like being fully seen and known and loved,

2014
01:57:49.560 --> 01:57:50.720
like what we talk about,

2015
01:57:50.720 --> 01:57:52.360
like being exposed,

2016
01:57:52.360 --> 01:57:55.080
people have fear of being exposed by people.

2017
01:57:55.080 --> 01:57:58.160
So maybe you have something that's like maybe a secret

2018
01:57:58.160 --> 01:57:59.760
that you haven't confessed.

2019
01:57:59.760 --> 01:58:02.240
Sometimes, and not that I'm saying that's for you, Sharita,

2020
01:58:02.240 --> 01:58:03.080
but I'm just saying,

2021
01:58:03.080 --> 01:58:04.840
giving you all different examples of

2022
01:58:04.840 --> 01:58:06.320
if you're naked in a dream,

2023
01:58:06.320 --> 01:58:07.720
those are some different things

2024
01:58:07.720 --> 01:58:09.240
that it can represent and mean.

2025
01:58:10.760 --> 01:58:12.560
But yeah, God is always our covering

2026
01:58:12.560 --> 01:58:14.680
and he's there for us in every moment, ladies.

2027
01:58:14.680 --> 01:58:16.680
He really, really is.

2028
01:58:16.680 --> 01:58:19.320
I am gonna pray for Ruth's dad really quick.

2029
01:58:19.320 --> 01:58:20.720
I just saw that in the chat.

2030
01:58:20.720 --> 01:58:24.760
And so we're gonna pray for her dad before we close,

2031
01:58:24.760 --> 01:58:27.120
but I'm also gonna read something over you all

2032
01:58:27.120 --> 01:58:28.680
from the heartwork book.

2033
01:58:28.680 --> 01:58:33.600
And this is the declaration about the real you, okay?

2034
01:58:34.600 --> 01:58:35.640
This is what it says.

2035
01:58:35.640 --> 01:58:38.600
I am a world changer, an atmosphere shifter,

2036
01:58:38.600 --> 01:58:42.400
a light bearer, a truth teller, and a hope dealer.

2037
01:58:42.400 --> 01:58:43.840
My heart is awakening.

2038
01:58:43.840 --> 01:58:46.320
It's my time to be made whole.

2039
01:58:46.320 --> 01:58:48.480
I contain the beauty of all creation,

2040
01:58:48.480 --> 01:58:51.960
the mysteries of the entire universe reside in me.

2041
01:58:51.960 --> 01:58:54.400
I am the image of the almighty God,

2042
01:58:54.400 --> 01:58:56.680
the offspring of the great I am.

2043
01:58:56.680 --> 01:58:58.400
I am a beloved daughter of God.

2044
01:58:58.400 --> 01:59:01.720
My original heart is one of love, joy, peace,

2045
01:59:01.720 --> 01:59:03.440
hope, and innocence.

2046
01:59:03.440 --> 01:59:05.840
I was created for community.

2047
01:59:05.840 --> 01:59:08.120
I am accepted in the family of God.

2048
01:59:08.120 --> 01:59:09.840
I have been created to prosper.

2049
01:59:09.840 --> 01:59:14.200
I will not be anyone besides who love,

2050
01:59:14.200 --> 01:59:16.880
which is God the Father has made me to be.

2051
01:59:16.880 --> 01:59:19.080
From this moment forward, every day,

2052
01:59:19.080 --> 01:59:20.520
when I look in the mirror,

2053
01:59:20.520 --> 01:59:25.360
I'm going to see more and more of what God sees,

2054
01:59:25.360 --> 01:59:27.120
more and more of what God sees.

2055
01:59:28.080 --> 01:59:29.880
Glenna, it's towards the end of the book.

2056
01:59:29.880 --> 01:59:31.840
My pages are gonna be different than your all's

2057
01:59:31.840 --> 01:59:32.960
because you guys have the ebook

2058
01:59:32.960 --> 01:59:34.040
and I have a physical copy,

2059
01:59:34.040 --> 01:59:37.800
but it's towards the end of the book in the chapter.

2060
01:59:37.800 --> 01:59:39.720
Let me see what chapter.

2061
01:59:39.720 --> 01:59:41.320
I think it literally is the last chapter,

2062
01:59:41.320 --> 01:59:43.000
but I'm just gonna tell you it.

2063
01:59:43.000 --> 01:59:45.560
In chapter 14, towards the end.

2064
01:59:45.560 --> 01:59:47.040
Thank you, Amanda.

2065
01:59:47.040 --> 01:59:47.880
It's powerful.

2066
01:59:47.880 --> 01:59:51.000
You all, I put that declaration up when I was in your,

2067
01:59:51.000 --> 01:59:53.800
like what we used to call bootcamp,

2068
01:59:53.800 --> 01:59:55.960
is now called heartwork, which is what you're in.

2069
01:59:55.960 --> 01:59:57.680
I put that declaration up.

2070
01:59:57.680 --> 02:00:00.000
I typed it out, put it up, and I read that.

2071
02:00:00.000 --> 02:00:04.880
the time and I spoke it out over myself. I want to encourage you to do that as well.

2072
02:00:04.880 --> 02:00:08.640
All right. I'm going to pray for us and I'm going to pray for Ruth's dad. We're going

2073
02:00:08.640 --> 02:00:15.080
to believe for healing and a supernatural miracle. God, if you, ladies, if you didn't

2074
02:00:15.080 --> 02:00:18.680
see it in there, that's, there's something happening here. Dad's in the ER. So it's kind

2075
02:00:18.680 --> 02:00:23.520
of an emergency. So just pray with us. Father, thank you so much for who you are. God, we

2076
02:00:23.520 --> 02:00:27.880
thank you that you are the great physician. We know that you can use doctors as well.

2077
02:00:27.880 --> 02:00:34.240
God, we just ask you to send your ministering healing angels to Ruth's dad. God, that you

2078
02:00:34.240 --> 02:00:39.680
would supernaturally work in this situation, God, that where the blood and all of the things

2079
02:00:39.680 --> 02:00:44.080
are happening, that pool of blood between his brain and the dura mater, God, that you

2080
02:00:44.080 --> 02:00:50.000
would just supernaturally begin to cause that to dissipate. God, whatever caused this, God,

2081
02:00:50.000 --> 02:00:53.640
that you would get to the root of the matter, that the doctors would be able to resolve

2082
02:00:53.640 --> 02:00:59.200
it quickly. God, we speak life. We speak healing. We speak hope over her dad. We thank

2083
02:00:59.200 --> 02:01:04.600
you that you're not finished with him yet. We thank you, God, that you would bring resurrection

2084
02:01:04.600 --> 02:01:10.360
power and healing power and virtue in this moment. God, we thank you for turnaround stories

2085
02:01:10.360 --> 02:01:16.480
and situations that are going to be manifested through this. God, we thank you for just comforting

2086
02:01:16.480 --> 02:01:22.320
her mom right now and Ruth and her family. God, we speak the God of peace being present

2087
02:01:22.320 --> 02:01:28.600
with them, that you would wash over them and just bring calm and knowing, God, that

2088
02:01:28.600 --> 02:01:33.200
you're with them in a tangible way. We just thank you in advance for it. God, I thank

2089
02:01:33.200 --> 02:01:37.440
you for everything that you've accomplished tonight on this call, on this live session,

2090
02:01:37.440 --> 02:01:41.000
Lord. We thank you for revealings for healing that have happened that are going to happen.

2091
02:01:41.000 --> 02:01:44.880
We thank you for dots being connected. God, we thank you that you're going to help every

2092
02:01:44.880 --> 02:01:49.320
one of these ladies, whether they're here live or hear the replay, to step further into

2093
02:01:49.320 --> 02:01:54.200
the version of who you originally created them to be. God, that they would not fear,

2094
02:01:54.200 --> 02:02:00.800
but they would live fully and free and vibrantly. God, that they would shine and shine bright

2095
02:02:00.800 --> 02:02:06.480
and not ever put it under a cover or a bushel, that they would literally allow the light

2096
02:02:06.480 --> 02:02:11.320
of Jesus Christ to shine through them. God, that they would, yes, Lord, that they would

2097
02:02:11.320 --> 02:02:19.040
laugh and enjoy the presence of your spirit in a supernatural, fun and fresh way, that

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they are your sheep, God, and they hear your voice and Jesus name. Amen. God bless you

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all. I'm so sorry we went so late, but there it is. Love you all. Have a great night.