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Hello. Welcome.

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Hello.

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Welcome last year single community. We're so glad that you're here joining us tonight for our month is a June edition of our love story. I'm so excited to have our love stories that are here with us tonight.

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For those of you who don't know my husband. This is Pastor Brian is what we call him around here, but he is my husband and just super blessed to have him joining us again for this love story edition and we have Penelope and Henry newlyweds just married April 5 super exciting.

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And then we also have Diane and John who were also just married recently. Sorry, I got to look at the date May 25. So we have two newlywed couples with us tonight. So, you know, one of the things I was thinking as I was praying for you all before we got on is just we've had a lot of people talking about discouragement.

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And I just want you to know that if that's where you're at like we understand, but we don't want you to stay there. And so I hope tonight that as we touch on different aspects of their stories that out of it, you will hear that even when they felt discouraged.

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They kept showing up. They kept coming. They kept going back to the Lord for healing as far as the two ladies that are from our community. I haven't met their spouses yet. So I'm excited to get to know these guys a little bit tonight, but they just kept coming and trusting the Lord and not giving up on what God promised them.

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And so I just wanted to start tonight off with that, like whether you're a male or female in this community, the enemy is always going to try to convince you that God isn't going to come through for you. But if you will resist those lies, no matter what comes your way and stay focused on what is God saying to you personally, I believe he's going to continue to encourage you and love you all the way through every step of the way to meet your spirit mate.

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So again, so glad that you're joining us. We're thrilled to have you as a part of our last year single community. I'm going to basically kick off tonight with Penelope and Henry first. We'll have them individually share their stories as far as like how did God work in them and heal them?

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Like what was a little bit of their story before they met? And then what was the little bit of that journey like from both of their perspectives after meeting each other? And then we'll come over to John and Diane and have them do the same thing. And then from there, we'll do kind of a round robin. So as I hear more of your all stories, which some of it I already know, but sometimes we just lean into Holy Spirit to pull out aspects of what you share as well so that the community can grow and just be encouraged through your story.

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So Penelope and Henry, hello. Welcome. We're so glad that you're here. I'm going to go ahead and pass it over to you to share a little bit of your story with us.

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Hey, everybody. We're excited to be here. So I have been a part of the community for over two years. And, you know, I had heard that Jackie had written that book, married in, what was it? Married in one year or 12 months or less or something like that. And I was like, yeah, that's what I'm going to do. That did not happen for me.

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So I, for some reason, thought that, you know, that was my timeframe. But when that passed, I continued to pray and ask the Lord to help me, you know, find my spirit mate. And so I have just to give you a little bit of backstory. I was married for 22 years.

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My first husband passed away and we had three boys together. And then a year after that, I met a guy and we were married for three years total. And there was some abuse in that relationship. And so we divorced. And so about two years ago, a little over two years ago, my good friend Heather told me about this community.

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She goes, what do you think? And we were looking at the videos and stuff. And the week prior to that, the Lord spoke the words to me, divine appointment. And so I watched a couple of Jackie's videos just to see what was going to happen and see what it was about. And she mentioned the words divine appointment.

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So I was like, Oh, I think I'm going to spend the money on this. So I was, I'm, I tell you, I told so many people about this program because God has done so many amazing things for me in this program. There was so much healing, especially right up front. I've experienced, I'm still experiencing healing, even in our relationship.

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Cause you know, Jackie says hurt in relationship, healed in relationship. So that's happening now for me. I'm still healing.

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using the revealing for healing worksheet that she gives us and that's been golden for me and so if

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you haven't used it yet please do because it's brought so much frustration for me especially

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for triggers and things like that from my past relationships of being I've been cheated on

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and then some other thing abuse as well so very helpful for that so that's a little bit about

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my backstory you want to tell a little bit of yours as well yeah mine's similar but totally

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different in that sense I had been being married to Penelope this is my third time and my first

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marriage was 25 years and disintegrated terribly in a divorce where I'm ostracized from my children

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and you know there was a terrible situation and it was excruciatingly painful

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uh you know because of the way the circumstances uh developed and and I spent

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several years basically just alone and and kind of working through my life and trying to

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to rebuild things because it had been so shattered and then as I have said before

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I met a girl of my dreams and we were married within two and a half years

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she passed away almost two years ago and and I was bereft and you know my heart was upended

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um all during that period of time uh I'm I'm I had you know as a as a young Christian

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I'm learning about things and I'm studying and reading and and acquiring under understanding and

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and and uh applying the scriptures in different ways more and more and more and then uh

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you know when when my second wife was failing so quickly uh and and then passed away very suddenly

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it was a very uh spiritual moment even as I and the extended family of 16 were crammed in the

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hospital bedroom and were praying her into the next life it was it was profound and since then

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uh you know the it's indescribable what I what was going on in my heart but I I grew in my faith

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and felt um I was humbled by so many things and um you know all this there was a lot of different

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things going on in my own personality uh and then right after the one-year anniversary of her death

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I inadvertently bumped into Penelope at an event that I didn't want to go to

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and I had been resisting on going to this event for several months and

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we almost like bumped into each other in a social setting and I asked if she wanted to sit at our

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table or or a table for 10 with nobody sitting at it and I didn't I mean I didn't even see her

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I just saw her walking by I was like would you like to join us uh and she did and

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let's back up just a little bit from there so um I I have some prophetic gifts and I talked to

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Bethany about this earlier and there's been so many times where I thought God said something

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and I totally missed it and I've gone out with a lot of guys and continue relationships with guys

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that I shouldn't have continued relationships with and I totally missed what God was saying

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and one of the things that happened recently for me um last summer I had been praying and fasting

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and I was getting ready to go on a missions trip um with the youth from my church and this was last

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July and I um wasn't even really thinking about a guy at the time but two days before the missions

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trip a friend of mine reached out to me and she said hey Penelope God spoke your name to me this

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morning and he said your future husband is coming soon and I was

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Like, oh, wow, great, that's awesome.

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You know, but then I was like, you know,

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I've been thinking about this for a couple of years.

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So I'm just gonna put this on the shelf.

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I'm gonna wait to see what happens, you know,

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because my prophetic words aren't always accurate.

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Maybe this isn't accurate.

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So, but two days later,

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we're riding on the missions trip to Tennessee

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and the conversation in the car had quieted down

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and I start thinking about what she said.

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And I know that sometimes coming soon to us

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is different than coming soon to God.

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So I asked God, I said, so soon,

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what does that mean to you?

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What does coming soon mean to you?

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And I looked out the driver's window

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and I saw this huge billboard sign that said,

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coming soon fall 2024.

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And I was like, what?

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And I was like, okay.

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I mean, big things happen when I fast and pray

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before missions trips,

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but that was a really big sign, literally.

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So I was like, okay.

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So I pull out my phone and I'm looking like,

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when's fall of this year?

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And this was July.

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So I was like, fall starts September 22nd.

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So Lord, do you mean September, October,

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November, December?

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Like I'm having this conversation in my head with him.

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And so the whole missions trip,

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I keep hearing the songs September by Earth, Wind and Fire

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over and over, like different settings.

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I keep hearing the song.

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It's a very significant song to me and my late husband

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for different reasons.

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We won't go into that.

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But I was like, okay, I think God may be saying September,

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but you know, still I'm just like, okay, we'll see.

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And cause I didn't want to like jump into anything

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cause I've done it in the past and I've made many mistakes.

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So my friend who was also a widow,

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she's a ballroom dancer and a writer like me.

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She texted me while I was on the missions trip

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and she said, Penelope, the song September,

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it keeps playing over and over.

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I think God's trying to say something.

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And I was like, oh my gosh.

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So I'm getting, you know, one from one friend

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and I'm getting from another friend.

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And so these were outside sources,

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not just seeing a vision myself.

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And that's the difference between

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what I've done in the past.

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Like I went out with a guy one time

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because I had a dream and a vision

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and they lined up with, you know,

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his circumstances lined up with my dream and vision.

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But I think God was in the past just telling me

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what was going to happen

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versus this is who you're supposed to be with.

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And so I just jumped on it thinking,

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oh, this is who I'm supposed to be with, you know?

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And then, you know, there were red flags

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and I was ignoring them.

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And so anyway, but this, I was like taking my time.

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I was like, okay, we'll see, we'll see, we'll see.

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So last summer for him,

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you want to tell a little bit about your last summer,

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getting to your dance class?

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Yeah, so I had several years ago,

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10 years ago, a friend of mine,

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he was single, I was single.

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We thought we would just take on some new skills.

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So let's go and learn some dance.

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Let's learn how to dance.

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We started learning swing, swing dancing, West Coast swing.

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And so we did that for a few years.

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I got married to my late wife, Sherry.

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And we, after a while, stopped doing that.

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And I hadn't been back for eight years.

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And so during the year after she passed,

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around this time, you know, it's going on,

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you know, 10 months after she passed

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and I'm tired of watching the paint dry in the house

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and I work out of the home.

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It's like, sometimes I wouldn't even start my car

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for five days.

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I'm like, I got to get a life.

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I got to, you know, I got to do something about this.

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And so let's go back.

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And he was back in a situation where he was single.

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And so let's go back dancing.

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And as soon as we got there,

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they're like, oh, there's this great event in September.

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And I'm like, I already heard about it a long time ago.

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And I'm not, I don't want to go.

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I knew that from this time until the end of August,

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it's going to be the memory points

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of emergency room visits at four in the morning

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with my late wife and doctor's appointments

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and terrible, terrible, worse, worse kind of circumstances.

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I was reliving some of those moments.

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It was hard.

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And, but then we would go on Tuesday night to dance

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and they'd tell me about this thing.

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I don't want to do it.

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I don't want to do it.

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Leave me alone.

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Stop talking about it.

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Stop bothering me.

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I like, you know, getting abrupt with people, you know

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and they're just being exuberant.

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It's an amazing event.

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phasing 1,000 dancers from all over the world.

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I've never done something that, you know,

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I'm not that good, you know,

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and it's like a little bit over my head.

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oh, so the leaders of the group are all excited

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because they're gonna draw two names out of the hat.

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God has a way.

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And, you know, I'm not from a world of understanding

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and anticipating prophetic gifts.

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And I just, you know, I'm dealing with the moments

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that we have to have discernment of what to do,

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what not to do.

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And I just felt overwhelmed.

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I didn't want to do it.

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I didn't want to do it.

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And they drew my name out of the hat.

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And I tried to get-

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He was the fourth, the fourth name that was drawn out.

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So everybody else put their name back in the hat

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for one reason or another.

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But they got a ticket.

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I'm gonna do that too.

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Put my name back in the hat.

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Well, my buddy was in the back of the room,

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raising his hand and say, hey, what about me?

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I'll give it away.

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And I'm arguing with the organizers

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and him in front of 45 people.

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Anyway, all right, I'll take the darn ticket.

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And so I'm miffed.

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I am beside myself.

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I didn't want to go, what's going on?

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And then as we would drive in together to that event,

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that's those lessons.

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And he says on the way home,

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hey, if you wanted to go, I'll buy my own ticket.

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You gotta be kidding me.

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All right, so we go Thursday night.

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We go on Friday.

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And some of the songs are tearing my heart out

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because my late wife and I love to dance.

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And it was really rough.

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It had been a rough year.

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Crucible is the word that's come to mind lately.

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And so he decides we're not gonna drive together

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the next day.

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He wants to spend the night at a hotel and stay local

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so that he can just pop out of bed and be ready to go.

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And I'm like, nah, I'm not doing it.

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I was in the no, no, no program.

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So I went home and then the next day,

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I know I have to go back on Saturday.

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Did they freeze for you all as well?

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Oh, there we go.

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Okay, you froze when you were saying

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you went to go back on Saturday, I think.

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I went to go back on, yeah, thank you.

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I went to go back on Saturday,

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but it was after I had done all the chores

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that I could think of doing,

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like including cleaning the toilet and really important.

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And so I get there around 4.30, four o'clock, whatever.

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And there was starting a new series of dance classes.

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They're an hour long.

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you know, 7.30, eight o'clock after I had shifted

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and I'm enjoying myself, I'm letting it out a little bit.

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And as we're walking through the concourse

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of the lobby of the hotel, I hear somebody behind me

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tell someone else behind me about a wine and cheese event

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that's 50 feet in front of me.

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And it's by invitation only.

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Well, I was feeling a little plucky.

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So let me see if I can get myself invited.

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And I walked in and I saw someone I knew.

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I went over and talked to them.

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He said, hey, I'm going to sit over here.

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There's wine over there with muffins

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and crackers and cookies, get what you want.

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I'll meet you over here.

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And when I get over there, there's this lady standing

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in front of the white wine.

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The red wine is to her right at the end of the table.

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And, but she's not moving.

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I was trying to decide if I was going to take

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some gluten-free bread or not,

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because I didn't want to take somebody's gluten-free bread.

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Hard decisions to be made.

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grabbed a glass of red wine and went to go sit down.

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Moments later, she is walking beside me.

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And I go over to the tables

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and I look at the first full table and I'm like,

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I don't know any of these people.

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I don't want to sit with anybody I don't know.

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But you know, I'm at an event to meet people, of course,

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and I'm chickening out at this point.

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to sit with these people. Now I'm going to go sit at this table by myself on the other side

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and hope my friends will come join me. And I'm thinking, why? And there's no lady that I know

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will ever want to sit at a table by herself, especially a big table like that. So I, and I

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don't even know what she looked like. I mean, I know she's short, but, but you know, that's okay.

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Which our height differences, we should mention I'm 5'4 and he's 6'5. And that was one of the

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things I took off my long list of things that we were supposed to, you know, cause Jackie's so

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short in the list. I had like 20 and that, and then I had four. So being tall was one of the

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things I took off the list, but God bonused me with that. So I'm thankful. Yeah, I know.

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So Jordan, the list is, that's kind of funny. I hadn't heard it like that.

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Short list. Anyway, so he sits down and recognizes, I said, you don't have a seat,

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or you want to join us? And she, and I think I don't even look at him cause he's over on this

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side and I'm thinking somebody's hitting on me. So I kind of freak out and freeze and I say,

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sure. And I turn around and sit down and stare at my food. And I don't even look at him because I

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don't know who it is. I thought she's pretty any stranger. It's like, well, okay, fine. Have a

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seat. And then, so this guy across from me notices me from another event and he starts talking to me

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and I say, oh yeah, I remember you. We danced together. And so we start talking and then he

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asks me what I do. And then he turns and looks at Henry who's on my right. And he says, Henry,

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are you still in real estate? And I went, oh, he's kind of cute. And the Lord had prompted me

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that morning that today was the day. And so I, you know, I was kind of expecting. So the fact

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that I saw he was kind of cute, you know what Jackie says, you know, not necessarily the hottest

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guys on the list, but you know, if they're, you know, at least, you know, in the category,

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but as Bethany says, they get more and more attractive the more that you hang out with them.

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Right. He's so handsome, isn't he? So anyway, I, so I started talking to him and asking him

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questions. And at one point I asked him a question and he had to respond.

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My late wife and I, and then I lost my voice for about 45 seconds and I'm trying not to lose my

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composure. And I sluttered something out about something and she, you know, tried to like,

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okay, it's okay. And I said to her that, no, I'm not, I'm not embarrassed. I'm not ashamed. I have

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to, I have to live out my emotions. I can't squelch them. And that was a big green flag.

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And, and shortly thereafter, she said, well, I understand I've been a widow almost 10 years

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and my story is the rabbit hole opened up, the trap door opened up and the rabbit hole

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sucked us in and we danced till 3.30 in the morning. I know. So we're going to share real

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quick about our first date because God just tied everything together to confirm things for us.

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But I gave him my number at 3.30 in the morning. I promised myself. Without asking.

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He didn't have to ask for it. That's right. And he said, he'd like to see me again. I said,

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would you like my number? So, but the next day we decided to go to Arboretum, which was in town

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because he's ended up staying the night in the hotel with his friend. He didn't want to stay in.

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And the funny thing about this event is a four day event. He and his friend both promised each

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other no chicks. No chicks. No chicks. And I'm like, no problem. That's the furthest thing from

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my mind. I'm still grieving my life. Still suffering from the one year mark. So we go,

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we meet at the Raleigh Arboretum the next day and he brings blue hydrangeas to match my eyes

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and some snacks. And I was like, this is, you know, he did a good job doing for our first date

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and he brought some Prosecco. Yeah. And yeah, thumbs up. And so we walk into the Arboretum

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and we round this corner.

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and he sees a hawk flying overhead.

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And I associate my late husband with hawks.

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And this thing was doing strange maneuvers,

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just going up and down.

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That's not how they typically fly.

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take off where they're soaring.

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And this thing was doing this.

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That's really strange.

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So the hawk lands on an arbor

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and I decided I'm not gonna talk to him

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about the association for me,

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because it's our first date.

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And so I tried to take some pictures

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just for the memory and I can't get the hawk

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because he turns its head and looks at me

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and then turns it back away and it's back is to us.

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So I mentioned it to him and he goes around

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and takes around the front and takes pictures of the hawk.

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And the hawk just sits there for the longest time.

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And Henry comes back over to me where I'm standing

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and there's a bush in front of us

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and an unusual butterfly that I've never seen before

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is flying around getting nectar

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from the flowers on the bush.

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And he says to me, his late wife's name is Sherry,

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because Sherry's family associates her

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with this type of butterfly.

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It's a black swallowtail.

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It's all black with blue dots on its lower tail.

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Yeah, and then of course I start tearing up

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because I realized about the hawk and the butterfly.

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And I say, well, I associate Patrick with hawks.

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And then he looks at me, he goes, are you okay?

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Because the emotions are starting to feel

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the Lord working through it.

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And I said, yeah.

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And so then we went on to have our little snacks

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and talk some more.

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And we find out we have some mutual friends.

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These friends of ours taught his late wife.

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This is intense.

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His late wife and him dance lessons.

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They taught me and my late husband dance lessons.

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And then when we went to an event this past January

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and they taught us some dance lessons together.

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And it's just like a full circle moment.

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And so he calls her the day after our first date

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and he says, Pam, you'll never guess who I met.

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Are there any red flags?

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So he was asking about me and red flags.

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She goes, no, I love Penelope.

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So we've had some amazing God moments

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that God's just lined up for us.

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I love this.

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This has been incredible.

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Man, I love just even hearing

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just all the different aspects

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of how God was intricately involved

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in both of your stories individually.

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So powerfully.

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And then leading you all to each other.

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And even in that, like all the ways that God was showing up

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in the small moments of y'all meeting.

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And just the intentionality.

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I wanna pull this out for the community.

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The intentionality of getting out of comfort zones,

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doing sometimes what you don't wanna do,

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listening for what is the Lord saying to you.

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I just think it's a really amazing story

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representing all of those aspects.

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And then just with what y'all went through

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with losing former spouses

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and how God let them be there with you on that day.

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I just, I think that's incredible and powerful.

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And so I'm so grateful

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that you shared that part of your story.

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We're gonna come back.

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We're gonna have you answer some more questions

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but I'm gonna come over to John and Diane.

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And you all feel free to share whatever you want

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about, again, before you met each other,

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kind of what was God doing.

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Diane, for you, even if it's before the heartwork

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but in the heartwork.

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But John, we know that you may have different aspects

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of how God was healing you.

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But doing all of that stuff

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and then how God brought you together.

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And again, anything that you all wanna share

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from your stories, backstory and all of that

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to encourage our members

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just about all the different ways God can show up

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in the before, in between and after.

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Yeah.

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Can you hear me?

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Okay.

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Yep.

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So-

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Hey, Bethany, you gotta put the great stories at the end,

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not, you know, how do we follow that?

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Oh, you're gonna do great.

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You're gonna do great.

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I love that story.

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Thanks, Penelope and Henry.

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That's amazing.

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All those God winks.

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So I'm gonna start in the summer of 2023.

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God gave me a verse and I felt like it was Isaiah 43, 19.

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And it said, see, I am doing a new thing.

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Now it springs up.

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Do you not perceive it?

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I'm making a way in the wilderness

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and streams in the wasteland.

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And I also, my husband suddenly passed away

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in October of 2021.

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So I've been widowed three and a half years now.

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And in the beginning of 2024,

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so this was probably five, six months

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after that verse struck me.

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And I knew that-

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was for me and I clung to it with hope because I, I did want to find love again.

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I just didn't believe that it could happen for me.

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Um, I had a wonderful marriage of 27 years.

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We were together one week shy of 30.

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And, um, he went on a hunting trip in Western North Dakota and had a

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massive heart attack at the age of 49.

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So I have two boys.

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Um, one is 20 now and the other one is 10.

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And so it was quite, quite a shock.

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And there were many things that he would do, um, around the house that I had no

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clue how to do, including paying my bills, but anyways, um, so that

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verse was very special to me.

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And in the beginning of 2024, so January, I learned that my job was, um, coming to

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an end and I was actually really excited about it because it was sucking the life

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out of me and I decided that was the year that I wanted to find love.

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Um, I, I was ready to start dating again.

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I had no clue how to do that after 30 years of not dating and online dating.

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I just, it was a very confusing and overwhelming.

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And so, um, but I found Jackie in May of last year.

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So it's been a little bit over a year and I signed up May 12th.

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I took part in her last year, single challenge.

462
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And I said, I'm not going to sign up for this, but I'm going

463
00:31:21.720 --> 00:31:22.720
to see what it's all about.

464
00:31:22.740 --> 00:31:27.180
Like I was pretty sure I was not going to invest in, um, this opportunity

465
00:31:27.180 --> 00:31:28.480
and I was just blown away.

466
00:31:28.480 --> 00:31:34.660
I did all the challenges and I thought Jackie is anointed for matchmaking.

467
00:31:34.680 --> 00:31:37.600
Like I need to learn how to do this the right way.

468
00:31:38.340 --> 00:31:42.100
And, um, and so I did, I joined and, um, we were married a little

469
00:31:42.100 --> 00:31:44.100
bit after your May 25th.

470
00:31:44.480 --> 00:31:46.120
So, um, that's pretty cool.

471
00:31:46.360 --> 00:31:51.120
But anyway, I live in Naperville, Illinois, and I wrote some notes.

472
00:31:51.120 --> 00:31:54.240
So I'm just kind of following where I left off here.

473
00:31:54.900 --> 00:31:55.440
Um,

474
00:32:01.960 --> 00:32:03.560
okay, so

475
00:32:10.960 --> 00:32:11.680
Oh, great.

476
00:32:14.640 --> 00:32:16.640
Um, sorry.

477
00:32:17.000 --> 00:32:17.560
Um, okay.

478
00:32:17.560 --> 00:32:24.240
So I, the heart work was really transformational for me and, you know,

479
00:32:24.400 --> 00:32:26.960
in the first 30 days, they advise you not to date.

480
00:32:26.960 --> 00:32:31.800
And so I was seeing somebody and then I decided, um, to really follow through

481
00:32:31.800 --> 00:32:34.720
with what Bethany and, um, and the team was telling me.

482
00:32:35.120 --> 00:32:36.560
And so I took that time.

483
00:32:36.560 --> 00:32:39.200
I bought the book, um, which was awesome.

484
00:32:39.200 --> 00:32:42.600
And I read through it all and I did all the heart heartwork, but there were

485
00:32:42.600 --> 00:32:44.080
times where it was just too much.

486
00:32:44.080 --> 00:32:49.120
Um, you know, I knew I had wounds that needed healing and I still do in some

487
00:32:49.120 --> 00:32:53.920
ways, but, um, I, I guess I just hadn't confronted them and talk to God about

488
00:32:53.920 --> 00:32:56.440
them in the ways that the heart work was laid out.

489
00:32:56.440 --> 00:33:03.080
So it was really great to, um, I got an upgrade in my mindset because I

490
00:33:03.080 --> 00:33:04.760
believe two things that weren't true.

491
00:33:04.920 --> 00:33:08.400
And one of them was no one else could love me the way I love myself.

492
00:33:08.400 --> 00:33:13.080
And so I just, I just, I just, I just, I just, I just, I just, I just

493
00:33:13.080 --> 00:33:14.440
was no one else could love me.

494
00:33:15.040 --> 00:33:17.400
I thought Rob was the only one that would be able to love me.

495
00:33:17.400 --> 00:33:20.240
Cause I feel sometimes like I'm a mess and I'm too much.

496
00:33:20.880 --> 00:33:25.680
And number two, even if someone did love me, could I even ask God to bless

497
00:33:25.680 --> 00:33:27.240
me with another wonderful marriage?

498
00:33:27.280 --> 00:33:31.200
I just felt like there's so many people that are looking for their spirit mate.

499
00:33:31.240 --> 00:33:34.800
I had one and part of my story is being a widow.

500
00:33:34.800 --> 00:33:39.360
And can I even, um, ask God to, to give me another love that

501
00:33:39.360 --> 00:33:40.840
would last the rest of my life.

502
00:33:41.320 --> 00:33:46.000
So I'm an achiever and I love working through the curriculum and the different.

503
00:33:46.400 --> 00:33:51.280
Levels of classes and checking them off and completing them, um, with the love

504
00:33:51.280 --> 00:33:53.320
story accelerator in the past sessions.

505
00:33:53.640 --> 00:33:57.200
So I really committed to showing up consistently, especially to the

506
00:33:57.200 --> 00:34:00.680
supernatural Saturdays and the special events they would have with the group

507
00:34:00.680 --> 00:34:05.960
coaching, and I learned so much from just listening to what others experiences

508
00:34:05.960 --> 00:34:07.800
were and the questions they were asking.

509
00:34:08.199 --> 00:34:12.000
And it was interesting because I remember kind of tuning out when they

510
00:34:12.000 --> 00:34:15.560
talked about long distance, cause I just had decided that that was not going to be

511
00:34:15.560 --> 00:34:17.880
for me, I couldn't do that with a 10 year old.

512
00:34:19.360 --> 00:34:22.440
Um, and so when I would go out and dates, I probably dated about seven

513
00:34:22.440 --> 00:34:24.520
or eight people in this process.

514
00:34:24.679 --> 00:34:29.320
And if it didn't work out, you know, I'd pick up my, myself from the

515
00:34:29.320 --> 00:34:32.840
bootstraps and go back to supernatural Saturdays discouraged.

516
00:34:32.880 --> 00:34:38.840
And I always left lighter and hopeful and just hearing everyone else's love

517
00:34:38.840 --> 00:34:41.199
stories and how God was blessing them.

518
00:34:41.239 --> 00:34:47.840
Um, really helped me hold belief for, for me and my story that was yet to show up.

519
00:34:48.400 --> 00:34:51.080
Um, so I learned so much from everyone.

520
00:34:51.520 --> 00:34:54.520
Um, uh, let's see.

521
00:34:55.719 --> 00:35:00.000
So I started the program in may and then in October.

522
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:06.440
Actually, I just found my notes yesterday on October 5th, Jackie had a session launching

523
00:35:06.440 --> 00:35:12.820
the new Hebrew year, which I didn't even know was a thing, which was the year 5785.

524
00:35:12.820 --> 00:35:24.060
And she explained, oh, I left out a little part, okay, well, let me back up a little

525
00:35:24.060 --> 00:35:25.060
bit.

526
00:35:25.060 --> 00:35:30.520
So what I appreciated most about Jackie's program, it's all amazing, but there were

527
00:35:30.520 --> 00:35:34.580
parts where you did identify what you were looking for.

528
00:35:34.580 --> 00:35:38.880
And in the dating process, I found what I wasn't looking for.

529
00:35:38.880 --> 00:35:45.260
And so I just kept coming back to that list and refining it and shortening it and identifying

530
00:35:45.260 --> 00:35:47.580
my non-negotiables.

531
00:35:47.580 --> 00:35:51.620
And I did have one date before the program that I wish I would have known to look for

532
00:35:51.620 --> 00:35:52.700
the three Ms.

533
00:35:52.700 --> 00:35:57.860
So you want someone who's masculine, marriage minded, and mature.

534
00:35:57.860 --> 00:36:04.420
And just filtering it through that lens, along with your non-negotiables, just helps you

535
00:36:04.420 --> 00:36:09.780
get to who you're supposed to be with faster, I think.

536
00:36:09.780 --> 00:36:14.780
And believing that God will guide you in that process, too.

537
00:36:14.780 --> 00:36:16.820
So that was really helpful.

538
00:36:16.820 --> 00:36:22.140
So we met on the Our Time app for 50 and over.

539
00:36:22.580 --> 00:36:26.340
And Dan actually reached out to me on July 24th, and I ignored him.

540
00:36:26.340 --> 00:36:30.700
I just got back from Europe, so I was really overwhelmed with getting back into the swing

541
00:36:30.700 --> 00:36:31.700
of things.

542
00:36:31.700 --> 00:36:35.580
And I saw that he was two hours away in Milwaukee, and I'm like, nope, can't do it.

543
00:36:35.580 --> 00:36:42.340
So I decided just to not to respond.

544
00:36:42.340 --> 00:36:46.220
And he reached out again exactly two months later on September 24th.

545
00:36:46.220 --> 00:36:47.580
And I was very curt.

546
00:36:47.580 --> 00:36:49.860
I just said, don't you think you live too far away?

547
00:36:50.580 --> 00:36:53.460
Of course, he can't hear my voice when I type that.

548
00:36:53.460 --> 00:36:57.820
But he wrote me this long book, and he said, well, if it's the right person, he's really

549
00:36:57.820 --> 00:37:04.100
it was a book, you know, if it's the right person, I'm willing to travel.

550
00:37:04.100 --> 00:37:07.780
And I said, well, I have a 10 year old, I'm not easily able to get up there, you know,

551
00:37:07.780 --> 00:37:08.780
very often.

552
00:37:08.780 --> 00:37:09.780
And he's like, no problem.

553
00:37:09.780 --> 00:37:11.740
I'll come to you.

554
00:37:11.740 --> 00:37:14.620
But then I said, he wanted to go on a date right away.

555
00:37:14.620 --> 00:37:16.620
And I said, gosh, that's a four hour round trip.

556
00:37:16.620 --> 00:37:18.940
What if there's what if that's a waste of time?

557
00:37:19.020 --> 00:37:20.540
We don't have a connection.

558
00:37:20.540 --> 00:37:25.780
So I heard Jackie in my back of my mind saying, ask for a video date.

559
00:37:25.780 --> 00:37:28.740
So I'll have him explain how that made him feel.

560
00:37:28.740 --> 00:37:32.340
But we did we got on a video date.

561
00:37:32.340 --> 00:37:37.980
And I was surprised because afterwards, I said, it was about 45 minutes, I said, you're

562
00:37:37.980 --> 00:37:41.460
much more handsome than your pictures.

563
00:37:41.460 --> 00:37:45.820
And he said, well, I couldn't take a selfie to save my life.

564
00:37:45.820 --> 00:37:51.860
And I'm not going to steal your polo thing, but um, yeah, so I was intrigued.

565
00:37:51.860 --> 00:37:53.540
And I asked for one more video date.

566
00:37:53.540 --> 00:38:00.780
And then we the day we went out was the same day of the Hebrew New Year training on October

567
00:38:00.780 --> 00:38:01.780
5.

568
00:38:01.780 --> 00:38:03.620
So that is really special to us.

569
00:38:03.620 --> 00:38:08.460
And that's one reason why we picked to get married on 525 25.

570
00:38:08.460 --> 00:38:13.940
Because five means God's grace, and the two is partnering.

571
00:38:13.940 --> 00:38:16.580
So that's really special.

572
00:38:16.580 --> 00:38:24.140
Yeah, and so and it wasn't after the first date, I wasn't like, oh, I just really want

573
00:38:24.140 --> 00:38:25.580
to see him again.

574
00:38:25.580 --> 00:38:30.940
I was intrigued, and we had a good time, but I just don't really know how I felt.

575
00:38:30.940 --> 00:38:33.740
And so, you know, it's a yes until it's a no.

576
00:38:33.740 --> 00:38:36.900
So you follow that process and trust it.

577
00:38:36.900 --> 00:38:39.140
And I'm so glad that I did.

578
00:38:39.140 --> 00:38:43.380
And yeah, so I wrote down from my notes on the Hebrew New Year.

579
00:38:43.820 --> 00:38:49.580
5785 is hey, hey, put your mouth in agreement with the Lord.

580
00:38:49.580 --> 00:38:50.580
Take action.

581
00:38:50.580 --> 00:38:58.380
Be behold, get ready for a time of manifestation, be full of hope and expectation.

582
00:38:58.380 --> 00:39:03.180
Because obedience leads to breakthrough 2025 is the year of redemption.

583
00:39:03.180 --> 00:39:08.420
And that really struck my heart because I know I knew God was about to redeem my story

584
00:39:08.420 --> 00:39:09.420
of being a widow.

585
00:39:10.420 --> 00:39:13.020
It's a year of redemption and a year of favor from the Lord.

586
00:39:13.020 --> 00:39:15.780
And it's still that year, right, until October.

587
00:39:15.780 --> 00:39:18.100
So that's exciting.

588
00:39:18.100 --> 00:39:20.620
So we got engaged on April 2nd.

589
00:39:20.620 --> 00:39:25.900
We took the Symbus class in February, and we were married on 525, and we had a beach

590
00:39:25.900 --> 00:39:31.100
ceremony in Cancun last week on 611 as well.

591
00:39:31.100 --> 00:39:38.460
So the coolest thing, though, is do you know that John means God's grace?

592
00:39:38.500 --> 00:39:41.420
So that's really awesome, too.

593
00:39:41.420 --> 00:39:43.740
I love those God winks.

594
00:39:43.740 --> 00:39:49.340
And the other thing that was really funny, because I have a thing for numbers.

595
00:39:49.340 --> 00:39:52.260
So we came home.

596
00:39:52.260 --> 00:39:56.460
So basically, he still lives in Milwaukee, I still live here, and then we spend about

597
00:39:56.460 --> 00:39:59.620
half the week together because he has to go into work for three days a week.

598
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.600
So it's hard, but we're managing it and it's working pretty well.

599
00:40:04.600 --> 00:40:06.760
Easier now that Ty's out of school,

600
00:40:06.760 --> 00:40:09.520
so we can go up there and spend more time with him.

601
00:40:09.520 --> 00:40:11.360
But we came home one time,

602
00:40:11.360 --> 00:40:13.120
I don't know where we were at,

603
00:40:13.120 --> 00:40:16.400
and I happened to look at my address and like,

604
00:40:16.400 --> 00:40:22.520
huh, 3428, and the 428 is his birthday,

605
00:40:22.520 --> 00:40:26.560
and there's three of us now with my son because my oldest is at college.

606
00:40:26.560 --> 00:40:27.720
So anyway, I'm like,

607
00:40:27.720 --> 00:40:29.960
aww, that was so cool, God.

608
00:40:29.960 --> 00:40:32.320
Yeah, there's been a lot of Godwings.

609
00:40:32.320 --> 00:40:35.000
When I met Diane, I wasn't sure I knew what a Godwing was,

610
00:40:35.000 --> 00:40:36.240
but now she's pointing them out.

611
00:40:36.240 --> 00:40:42.200
I'm like, oh, my story is a little bit different,

612
00:40:42.200 --> 00:40:44.640
I think, because I didn't take the classes and

613
00:40:44.640 --> 00:40:48.760
the first exposure to any of this was the semester class we took.

614
00:40:48.760 --> 00:40:57.680
But I have a 23-year-old daughter and a divorce for probably almost 20 years.

615
00:40:57.720 --> 00:41:02.680
Since then, I had two significant relationships,

616
00:41:02.680 --> 00:41:05.960
10 plus years and six plus years.

617
00:41:05.960 --> 00:41:09.160
It was interesting as I reflected on some of the questions

618
00:41:09.160 --> 00:41:13.920
that Brittany had prompted us to address.

619
00:41:15.080 --> 00:41:18.760
Made me think, we talked about marriage,

620
00:41:18.760 --> 00:41:23.840
but it just never happened for one reason or another.

621
00:41:23.840 --> 00:41:27.280
But I guess what led me to her was after the divorce,

622
00:41:28.280 --> 00:41:30.440
I went to a therapist.

623
00:41:30.440 --> 00:41:31.800
That was almost 20 years ago.

624
00:41:31.800 --> 00:41:32.960
So for a man to do that,

625
00:41:32.960 --> 00:41:35.200
that was interesting.

626
00:41:35.200 --> 00:41:40.560
But I thought it was helpful just to talk to someone, try to analyze it.

627
00:41:40.560 --> 00:41:42.240
I guess what led me to that more,

628
00:41:42.240 --> 00:41:44.920
because at that time, both my parents were passed.

629
00:41:44.920 --> 00:41:47.720
So stepping back further,

630
00:41:47.720 --> 00:41:50.480
maybe some of the reasons that the marriage didn't work,

631
00:41:50.480 --> 00:41:53.080
as we met probably a week before my dad had passed,

632
00:41:53.080 --> 00:41:57.680
and I was probably in it for the, not the relationship.

633
00:41:57.680 --> 00:41:59.840
I mean, we connected on so many different levels,

634
00:41:59.840 --> 00:42:03.800
but it was probably still healing for that.

635
00:42:04.200 --> 00:42:08.560
But when my mom passed at 13,

636
00:42:08.560 --> 00:42:10.520
my dad was not retired yet,

637
00:42:10.520 --> 00:42:13.680
and he worked in Illinois.

638
00:42:13.680 --> 00:42:18.080
I went to school down here and I lived down here for 10 plus years.

639
00:42:18.080 --> 00:42:19.240
So that's why for me,

640
00:42:19.240 --> 00:42:20.760
the distance wasn't really a thing.

641
00:42:20.760 --> 00:42:21.880
But when my dad got sick,

642
00:42:21.880 --> 00:42:24.360
I moved back and bought his house,

643
00:42:24.360 --> 00:42:27.240
and that's eventually where he passed.

644
00:42:27.240 --> 00:42:34.080
But I was very independent.

645
00:42:36.960 --> 00:42:41.320
I think going through those two relationships,

646
00:42:41.320 --> 00:42:45.120
I think that's how God led me to Diane,

647
00:42:45.120 --> 00:42:47.200
and maybe why those relationships didn't work,

648
00:42:47.200 --> 00:42:51.880
because it really allowed me to grow and mature emotionally,

649
00:42:51.880 --> 00:42:55.480
and I think I'm pretty mature regardless.

650
00:42:55.480 --> 00:42:59.520
But growing up very independent,

651
00:42:59.520 --> 00:43:03.720
and I always did things for myself.

652
00:43:03.720 --> 00:43:05.600
No one else was right.

653
00:43:05.600 --> 00:43:06.600
I was always right,

654
00:43:06.600 --> 00:43:10.480
and over those other relationships,

655
00:43:10.480 --> 00:43:12.840
I've just listened a lot more,

656
00:43:12.840 --> 00:43:17.480
and I'm not even sure I knew what empathetic was back then.

657
00:43:17.480 --> 00:43:22.480
But I thought I could control everything,

658
00:43:22.480 --> 00:43:25.160
and everything had to be in a certain way,

659
00:43:25.160 --> 00:43:29.360
a certain order, and now if it's meant to be, it'll happen.

660
00:43:29.360 --> 00:43:33.440
I think those relationships really taught me,

661
00:43:33.440 --> 00:43:36.960
because they were pretty long-term.

662
00:43:36.960 --> 00:43:38.800
One of them, we lived together.

663
00:43:38.800 --> 00:43:40.400
We were trying to blend a family.

664
00:43:40.400 --> 00:43:41.280
She had two kids,

665
00:43:41.280 --> 00:43:43.360
and I had my daughter,

666
00:43:43.360 --> 00:43:48.680
and you just learn what you really need,

667
00:43:48.680 --> 00:43:53.240
and what you really desire out of a relationship.

668
00:43:53.240 --> 00:43:54.720
So I thought that was,

669
00:43:54.720 --> 00:43:56.320
despite Diane's story and all that,

670
00:43:56.320 --> 00:43:59.200
that all the God-winks and stuff that she points out,

671
00:43:59.200 --> 00:44:03.720
that it was very easy for me to see relatively soon

672
00:44:03.720 --> 00:44:07.720
that she checked every box.

673
00:44:07.720 --> 00:44:10.480
Apparently, it's a thing that I met a lot on her list,

674
00:44:10.480 --> 00:44:15.360
or all things, but I'm like, there's a list?

675
00:44:15.360 --> 00:44:20.520
But, yeah, I think I lost track.

676
00:44:20.520 --> 00:44:21.360
I didn't prepare.

677
00:44:21.360 --> 00:44:23.840
I just drove two hours to get down here,

678
00:44:23.840 --> 00:44:28.280
and I'm still, you know, I didn't get a chance to go.

679
00:44:28.280 --> 00:44:29.600
You're doing great.

680
00:44:29.600 --> 00:44:30.440
No.

681
00:44:30.440 --> 00:44:31.560
You're doing great, John, yeah.

682
00:44:31.560 --> 00:44:35.920
So, yeah, I think if there's a lesson

683
00:44:35.920 --> 00:44:37.160
to pass along to everybody,

684
00:44:37.200 --> 00:44:42.120
it's, you know, it might be obvious to you guys,

685
00:44:42.120 --> 00:44:43.480
but sometimes you just got to let go,

686
00:44:43.480 --> 00:44:47.080
and let God just work his magic.

687
00:44:47.080 --> 00:44:51.360
And, you know, I wasn't,

688
00:44:51.360 --> 00:44:54.480
she gives me the business about the profile pictures.

689
00:44:54.480 --> 00:44:57.360
I'm like, well, yeah, I wasn't really serious on the app.

690
00:44:57.360 --> 00:44:58.280
You know, I'm like,

691
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:01.640
It tried other apps at some point

692
00:45:01.640 --> 00:45:03.520
and I put a lot of effort into it,

693
00:45:03.520 --> 00:45:05.960
but it was disappointment after disappointment

694
00:45:05.960 --> 00:45:08.360
after disappointment for one reason or another.

695
00:45:09.680 --> 00:45:12.120
And that's why, you know, when she wanted the video chat,

696
00:45:12.120 --> 00:45:13.160
I'm like, well, this is new.

697
00:45:13.160 --> 00:45:14.720
I'm like, what?

698
00:45:14.720 --> 00:45:17.600
You know, I just was, it was a foreign concept to me,

699
00:45:17.600 --> 00:45:20.080
even though I'm in technology and we do it all day.

700
00:45:20.080 --> 00:45:21.200
I'm like, wait, I gotta,

701
00:45:21.200 --> 00:45:23.720
I felt like it was a pre-screening thing or something.

702
00:45:23.720 --> 00:45:26.480
I'm like, and I wore a blue polo

703
00:45:26.480 --> 00:45:29.080
and apparently that's what, that just did it for her.

704
00:45:29.080 --> 00:45:32.880
So I have 20 of them now.

705
00:45:34.600 --> 00:45:35.680
That's great, John.

706
00:45:35.680 --> 00:45:38.720
Keep, keep filling the closet with those polos, man.

707
00:45:38.720 --> 00:45:43.720
But yeah, so I lost my train of thought, but yeah.

708
00:45:47.760 --> 00:45:52.000
And that's, that's why I was, you know, all about,

709
00:45:52.000 --> 00:45:54.480
you know, it's so hard to, you know,

710
00:45:54.480 --> 00:45:56.440
you're up against a checklist

711
00:45:56.440 --> 00:45:57.560
and you got to do this and that.

712
00:45:57.600 --> 00:46:00.600
And for me, it was like, what I found best is,

713
00:46:00.600 --> 00:46:02.080
I think it's with her, like,

714
00:46:02.080 --> 00:46:03.840
I think it's some of the concepts.

715
00:46:03.840 --> 00:46:04.680
I didn't take the class,

716
00:46:04.680 --> 00:46:06.480
so I don't understand all those concepts,

717
00:46:06.480 --> 00:46:11.160
but it's not a no until it's a no or whatever.

718
00:46:11.160 --> 00:46:13.800
But I think it indirectly without, you know,

719
00:46:13.800 --> 00:46:15.880
that background and all that is that's why I was like,

720
00:46:15.880 --> 00:46:18.720
well, yeah, let's just go out on a first date.

721
00:46:18.720 --> 00:46:20.040
You don't know until you know,

722
00:46:20.040 --> 00:46:23.040
and four hours is a small amount of time, you know,

723
00:46:23.040 --> 00:46:25.520
for the drive there and back for, you know,

724
00:46:25.520 --> 00:46:26.480
a lifetime of happiness.

725
00:46:26.480 --> 00:46:29.840
You got to, you know, yeah, you just,

726
00:46:29.840 --> 00:46:32.120
I was open to a lot of things and, you know,

727
00:46:32.120 --> 00:46:34.640
obviously Illinois is not unfamiliar to me.

728
00:46:34.640 --> 00:46:37.640
And I'm like, well, you know, don't worry about it.

729
00:46:37.640 --> 00:46:38.480
I'll come to you.

730
00:46:38.480 --> 00:46:39.280
It's not a big deal.

731
00:46:39.280 --> 00:46:41.120
So, sorry.

732
00:46:41.120 --> 00:46:43.040
So I would say, you know, just persevere.

733
00:46:43.040 --> 00:46:43.880
Don't give up.

734
00:46:43.880 --> 00:46:45.200
It's out there and, you know, I'm here.

735
00:46:45.200 --> 00:46:48.080
I am 56 and didn't, you know,

736
00:46:48.080 --> 00:46:50.200
had two long-term relationships, didn't work out.

737
00:46:50.200 --> 00:46:51.840
And, you know, just got to keep going

738
00:46:51.840 --> 00:46:55.160
and just know what you want and figure that out

739
00:46:55.720 --> 00:46:57.400
and take time to heal yourself.

740
00:46:58.840 --> 00:46:59.840
Yeah.

741
00:46:59.840 --> 00:47:00.680
And that's so good.

742
00:47:00.680 --> 00:47:02.240
And I want to pull out something that they,

743
00:47:02.240 --> 00:47:04.560
that John actually said,

744
00:47:04.560 --> 00:47:07.560
even though Diane mentioned his photos,

745
00:47:07.560 --> 00:47:10.560
something that John said to me,

746
00:47:10.560 --> 00:47:13.960
ladies, make sure you heard what he said.

747
00:47:13.960 --> 00:47:18.960
He was still wanted to find someone,

748
00:47:19.600 --> 00:47:21.280
but there was so much disappointment

749
00:47:21.280 --> 00:47:23.400
that when he put his photo on the app,

750
00:47:23.400 --> 00:47:26.640
he was kind of like, eh, you know, just put up whatever.

751
00:47:26.640 --> 00:47:28.920
At least that's how I'm interpreting what he's saying.

752
00:47:28.920 --> 00:47:31.120
And the reason I'm bringing that out

753
00:47:31.120 --> 00:47:34.880
is because so many people pass over people

754
00:47:34.880 --> 00:47:36.960
that are really great people

755
00:47:36.960 --> 00:47:40.200
because their photos aren't hot.

756
00:47:40.200 --> 00:47:41.040
Okay.

757
00:47:41.040 --> 00:47:44.160
And so ladies, I just want to encourage all of you.

758
00:47:44.160 --> 00:47:47.400
Let's look at the quality of the person.

759
00:47:47.400 --> 00:47:49.360
I'm not saying you can't, you know,

760
00:47:49.360 --> 00:47:51.320
like you have to pick someone

761
00:47:51.320 --> 00:47:52.960
that you're not attracted to at all,

762
00:47:53.520 --> 00:47:56.160
but what is God saying about that person?

763
00:47:56.160 --> 00:47:59.040
I remember, I remember actually,

764
00:47:59.040 --> 00:48:04.040
I had seen Brian's photo and I hadn't swiped on it.

765
00:48:04.280 --> 00:48:07.240
And then he sent me a message.

766
00:48:07.240 --> 00:48:10.240
And then I said to my friend, should I respond?

767
00:48:11.760 --> 00:48:14.160
I put my smolder photos up too.

768
00:48:14.160 --> 00:48:15.000
He did.

769
00:48:15.000 --> 00:48:16.160
He had a dog in one of his photos

770
00:48:16.160 --> 00:48:20.320
and that actually was, it drew me in because I love dogs,

771
00:48:20.320 --> 00:48:21.480
but he was handsome too.

772
00:48:21.520 --> 00:48:23.520
But just, I just want you to know,

773
00:48:23.520 --> 00:48:28.040
like sometimes you just got to get to know the person

774
00:48:28.040 --> 00:48:31.640
and be open-minded and not, again,

775
00:48:31.640 --> 00:48:34.680
not have this massive long list that you literally,

776
00:48:34.680 --> 00:48:37.000
like that person can't even get their foot

777
00:48:37.000 --> 00:48:38.040
in the door with you.

778
00:48:38.040 --> 00:48:40.320
Now, obviously if somebody is just not healthy,

779
00:48:40.320 --> 00:48:42.240
that's not what we're talking about right now.

780
00:48:42.240 --> 00:48:46.400
But because I see so much of the coaching

781
00:48:46.400 --> 00:48:48.120
that goes on in our groups,

782
00:48:48.120 --> 00:48:50.120
I know how many women are like,

783
00:48:50.120 --> 00:48:52.800
why didn't he care about, or put up a better photo?

784
00:48:52.800 --> 00:48:57.800
Or, you know, remember that those that are in our program,

785
00:48:58.000 --> 00:49:00.320
female and male, you're getting coaching

786
00:49:00.320 --> 00:49:04.240
that other people aren't getting, okay?

787
00:49:04.240 --> 00:49:06.480
We really coach you all on,

788
00:49:06.480 --> 00:49:08.480
hey, think about this, about your photos.

789
00:49:08.480 --> 00:49:11.360
And we did the profiles, a dating profile thing

790
00:49:11.360 --> 00:49:13.760
and the dating resume, whatever we called it.

791
00:49:13.760 --> 00:49:17.240
And, you know, the quality of things that we're teaching,

792
00:49:17.240 --> 00:49:18.720
not everybody's getting that.

793
00:49:18.720 --> 00:49:20.640
And so I'm not saying you have to pick someone

794
00:49:20.640 --> 00:49:24.800
that's not healthy, but what I am saying is expand,

795
00:49:24.800 --> 00:49:28.280
expand what you're open to as far as,

796
00:49:28.280 --> 00:49:31.600
hey, like this guy's talking about

797
00:49:31.600 --> 00:49:34.080
some really amazing things on his profile.

798
00:49:34.080 --> 00:49:36.200
Maybe his pictures aren't the pictures of him.

799
00:49:36.200 --> 00:49:37.960
Get to know him, you know, or whatever.

800
00:49:37.960 --> 00:49:39.560
I'm just kind of using that as an example.

801
00:49:39.560 --> 00:49:41.920
But I loved that you guys talked about that.

802
00:49:41.920 --> 00:49:44.400
And one of the other things that really stood out to me,

803
00:49:44.400 --> 00:49:48.640
Diane, is when you shared about the lies

804
00:49:48.640 --> 00:49:49.600
that you were believing,

805
00:49:49.600 --> 00:49:52.040
because when I even asked you yesterday,

806
00:49:52.040 --> 00:49:54.760
you said the one, but then you went deeper into it tonight.

807
00:49:54.760 --> 00:49:57.200
You said to me that, you know,

808
00:49:58.080 --> 00:50:00.480
you didn't know if someone could love you again.

809
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:01.340
And that's what you had said.

810
00:50:01.340 --> 00:50:06.600
But tonight you said, because you felt like you were a mess and that you were

811
00:50:06.600 --> 00:50:10.400
too much and that that's where in your mind, the enemy was lying to you,

812
00:50:10.400 --> 00:50:12.000
that only Rob could love you.

813
00:50:12.400 --> 00:50:16.440
And so I just want to say to everyone that is here listening to this tonight

814
00:50:16.440 --> 00:50:22.200
or in replay that, you know, when it's God leading you to your spirit mate,

815
00:50:22.640 --> 00:50:24.880
your spirit mate has been prepared for you.

816
00:50:25.920 --> 00:50:28.200
I remember the first time just being afraid.

817
00:50:28.200 --> 00:50:31.960
I would love for you to share about this, not maybe the content of the story,

818
00:50:31.960 --> 00:50:37.200
but there was an aspect of my testimony that I was afraid to share with Brian

819
00:50:37.200 --> 00:50:42.080
because my former husband, like when I told him it was just a nightmare, it was

820
00:50:42.280 --> 00:50:46.200
terrible. Do you remember when I was like, I got to tell you something, that

821
00:50:46.200 --> 00:50:50.760
conversation, like, can you tell everyone just kind of how that unfolded and

822
00:50:50.760 --> 00:50:51.920
maybe how you responded?

823
00:50:51.920 --> 00:50:54.960
Because I think that's helpful for them to hear as well.

824
00:50:54.960 --> 00:50:59.040
When someone's sharing a part of their story that might feel heavy a little

825
00:50:59.040 --> 00:51:00.040
bit.

826
00:51:00.160 --> 00:51:04.040
Yeah, no, I thought it was great when she said she wanted to share something

827
00:51:04.040 --> 00:51:10.040
because from my previous experience, I wasn't completely accepted for who I

828
00:51:10.040 --> 00:51:11.640
was, my passions.

829
00:51:11.880 --> 00:51:18.000
I always had to put me aside so that I could focus on her in my previous

830
00:51:18.000 --> 00:51:22.040
relationship. So one of the big things that we talked about is just being

831
00:51:22.040 --> 00:51:26.440
ourself. So when she shared that, you know, for me, it was just like, this is

832
00:51:26.440 --> 00:51:32.040
great. I get to know who she is and, you know, inside and out, you know, even

833
00:51:32.040 --> 00:51:37.600
deeper things, because part of the relationship and the dating is like what

834
00:51:37.600 --> 00:51:42.520
you're signing up for in the sense who the person really is and not pretending

835
00:51:42.520 --> 00:51:45.080
to be someone. So I felt really honored by that.

836
00:51:45.080 --> 00:51:48.720
And it was just open and was thankful that it wasn't like a body buried in the

837
00:51:48.720 --> 00:51:50.480
backyard or something that would have been awkward.

838
00:51:51.000 --> 00:51:52.800
But we get nobody to it.

839
00:51:53.920 --> 00:51:56.200
We worked through it and it was it was great.

840
00:51:56.320 --> 00:51:59.600
So, yeah. And I appreciate every member thinking, oh, this is great.

841
00:51:59.600 --> 00:52:05.880
So I'm getting to know who she really is and that she's open and willing to

842
00:52:05.880 --> 00:52:07.640
share those deep things with me, too.

843
00:52:08.200 --> 00:52:13.720
And I will say we were at a point in our relationship already that I knew he was

844
00:52:13.720 --> 00:52:15.160
a trustworthy person.

845
00:52:15.880 --> 00:52:22.240
OK, even though I felt nervous to share, he had shown himself those three M's for

846
00:52:22.240 --> 00:52:27.920
sure. Total like gifts of the spirit, fruits of the spirit, just he was solid.

847
00:52:28.200 --> 00:52:32.800
And so I knew that I could trust him.

848
00:52:33.240 --> 00:52:35.320
And so that's why I ventured out to tell him.

849
00:52:35.520 --> 00:52:39.560
And so I just, again, trying to pull out some concepts so that you all continue to

850
00:52:39.560 --> 00:52:43.840
feel hope in your journey, that you're not too much for your spirit mate.

851
00:52:43.840 --> 00:52:48.240
I believe it 100 percent that God will prepare you, though God will prepare them

852
00:52:48.400 --> 00:52:50.280
and he'll bring the two of you all together.

853
00:52:50.480 --> 00:52:54.200
Same thing, Penelope and Henry, like their stories, like if you're listening to the

854
00:52:54.200 --> 00:52:58.480
depths of things that these couples have been through, as well as many of you know,

855
00:52:58.480 --> 00:53:01.520
like Brian and I stories, you know.

856
00:53:02.480 --> 00:53:08.200
God was preparing us the whole way, even in, you know, when I went through divorce,

857
00:53:08.200 --> 00:53:11.440
he went through divorce and prior relationships.

858
00:53:11.440 --> 00:53:17.000
And so, oh, Jennifer, no, at the time that I was sharing that with Brian, I was not

859
00:53:17.000 --> 00:53:18.240
married. We were not married.

860
00:53:18.240 --> 00:53:19.560
We were actually.

861
00:53:21.240 --> 00:53:25.400
Probably about a month and a half dating, and you're still in Kentucky.

862
00:53:25.720 --> 00:53:30.560
Yeah, I think it was very early on, but he was just showing me all the signs of

863
00:53:30.560 --> 00:53:36.960
trustworthy, so I was paying very close attention to his character, not just his

864
00:53:36.960 --> 00:53:39.560
words, but his character, his actions.

865
00:53:39.800 --> 00:53:43.560
And so super important to be listening for those things, watching for those things.

866
00:53:43.760 --> 00:53:47.240
I also wanted to come back to Diane just really quick.

867
00:53:47.840 --> 00:53:51.760
You know, as you mentioned the distance, I think this is important for everyone to

868
00:53:51.760 --> 00:53:52.640
hear as well.

869
00:53:53.560 --> 00:54:00.400
Diane just was kind of like, no, it's too far, you know, almost to the point that she

870
00:54:00.400 --> 00:54:02.400
may not like in that moment.

871
00:54:02.400 --> 00:54:07.400
Obviously, she didn't move forward and wouldn't have even given him an open door.

872
00:54:07.800 --> 00:54:10.480
But John, way to go, John.

873
00:54:11.080 --> 00:54:16.320
You kept pursuing and communicated clearly what he wanted.

874
00:54:17.320 --> 00:54:20.000
Yeah, we got off topic a little bit.

875
00:54:20.000 --> 00:54:25.320
I want to lose it before you get too far, but I do a poor job when I'm not prepared.

876
00:54:25.960 --> 00:54:29.600
But I think the point why I brought up those other two relationships and what I

877
00:54:29.600 --> 00:54:34.880
learned from them is because when we used the word, it struck me like I think it was

878
00:54:34.880 --> 00:54:36.200
a third sentence in my vow.

879
00:54:36.680 --> 00:54:40.600
I felt that I said something to the fact that I felt that God has been preparing me

880
00:54:40.600 --> 00:54:45.240
for for this day to to be with her too.

881
00:54:45.760 --> 00:54:46.960
I forgot what I said, but.

882
00:54:48.400 --> 00:54:52.920
Yeah, so, yeah, I thought that was a good good point to bring up.

883
00:54:53.720 --> 00:54:54.320
I love it.

884
00:54:54.600 --> 00:54:58.560
And I'm glad you brought up the fruit, too, because it was I know that I was supposed

885
00:54:58.560 --> 00:55:00.000
to share this, so thank you for reminding me.

886
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:07.000
I was at youth night last night and I'm starting to volunteer and they were talking about look for the fruit, you know, look for God at work.

887
00:55:07.000 --> 00:55:11.000
And I'm like, yes, I remember Jackie say look for the fruit.

888
00:55:11.000 --> 00:55:16.000
And but the funny thing is, John's still pretty young in his relationship with the Lord.

889
00:55:16.000 --> 00:55:19.000
So when I said, I see all the fruit of the Spirit in you.

890
00:55:19.000 --> 00:55:21.000
And he's like, what's that?

891
00:55:21.000 --> 00:55:23.000
So I get to share what that was.

892
00:55:23.000 --> 00:55:26.000
And I just thought that was so, so unique.

893
00:55:26.000 --> 00:55:39.000
There's, yeah, there's, I'm so glad that he writes, he wrote books to me in the beginning because I got to see his heart and shame on me for just looking at the pictures first, because that's what I was used to like.

894
00:55:39.000 --> 00:55:42.000
I instantly knew I was attracted to Rob.

895
00:55:42.000 --> 00:55:45.000
You are, I love you.

896
00:55:45.000 --> 00:55:53.000
And Penelope, I noticed that when you said something about Henry being attractive or not attractive, but you were in front of the wine line.

897
00:55:54.000 --> 00:55:57.000
I don't know if anyone's picked that up.

898
00:55:57.000 --> 00:55:59.000
Did you?

899
00:55:59.000 --> 00:56:01.000
Yeah.

900
00:56:01.000 --> 00:56:04.000
No, I mean I had, you know, one glass.

901
00:56:04.000 --> 00:56:13.000
I, I turned and looked at him and I was like, Oh, he's kind of cute but then like throughout the night I was noticing how attractive he was.

902
00:56:14.000 --> 00:56:23.000
But up till the time she actually looked at me after she had been talking to the guy at the table with us for 10 minutes and like walling me off.

903
00:56:23.000 --> 00:56:33.000
Every now and then she would say something, and I would try to contribute to the conversation but I felt like I was talking to a wall, because she was just she had me shut out.

904
00:56:33.000 --> 00:56:52.000
And I mean when, when I said would you like to have a seat. She didn't turn towards me towards the chair, she went counterclockwise around behind me and like was like, you know, shielding yourself and I was like well this is odd behavior.

905
00:56:52.000 --> 00:56:54.000
So we broke through.

906
00:56:55.000 --> 00:57:09.000
So I love this, and let's segue because we want to kind of toggle back and forth now and I love that john actually kind of went to Penelope I thought that was so neat so if y'all, you know, we can kind of all kind of cycle back and forth together.

907
00:57:10.000 --> 00:57:15.000
What is one thing, since God brought you all together as couples.

908
00:57:15.000 --> 00:57:29.000
That is a piece of now john you shared one thing but feel free to share another piece of advice that you would give to those that are still single they're looking for, you know, their spirit mate.

909
00:57:30.000 --> 00:57:32.000
Some of them are discouraged.

910
00:57:32.000 --> 00:57:46.000
Some of them are tired of being on the apps all of that kind of stuff like what's something that you would just say to help them kind of get through and encourage them tonight.

911
00:57:46.000 --> 00:57:47.000
Was that directed at me.

912
00:57:47.000 --> 00:57:48.000
Yes.

913
00:57:48.000 --> 00:57:50.000
Anyone, anyone.

914
00:57:50.000 --> 00:57:54.000
I.

915
00:57:54.000 --> 00:58:10.000
I don't know if I have anything different. I mean, I wasn't the only one that brought up some stuff there was, there were some others but for me I think it was the biggest thing about, you know, you could go out on a date, and you, one of you has a good time and

916
00:58:11.000 --> 00:58:19.000
Is he going to call or is she going to call or, you know, but it you know it takes a two way street so when you find that connections really special.

917
00:58:19.000 --> 00:58:36.000
So I would say again just don't give up. I mean, be strong be persevere I think and that's what I was trying to tie it all together is sometimes you just gotta let God do his work, and, you know, that's what I was also trying to drive home like I was such a control

918
00:58:37.000 --> 00:58:51.000
Well if I, if I look this way if I dress a certain way and all this stuff and now I'm like more casual you know I would, I'm in financial service I was super high and other stuff matters it's about the connection and the connections out there.

919
00:58:51.000 --> 00:59:05.000
You know the relationship would be doomed I mean I knew that from the two longer term relationships right. There was a connection there but it was it was more superficial maybe not it was a little deeper than that but, you know, you'll know when you know, and just

920
00:59:05.000 --> 00:59:17.000
don't give up, because when you find it, it's all worth it, no matter how much time goes by. So we're going to like live the last half of our life, or a good half.

921
00:59:18.000 --> 00:59:31.000
In that same spirit I think so. I think to just trust the process that they teach because it works you see so many that are getting engaged and married and, and everyone that doesn't work out.

922
00:59:32.000 --> 00:59:48.000
Because he's holding out his best for you. You know there were, there was a guy that I met at the beginning of 2024 and I thought that we would end up together and now that I look back and I can't help but compare I'm like, I'm so glad that didn't work out.

923
00:59:48.000 --> 01:00:00.000
He didn't meet one of my non negotiables, and I grieved that for a month or two, even though we were only together for a month, and it was, I just, I can't thank God enough.

924
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:05.440
for helping me wait. And I don't think I would have been ready for John had I not gone through

925
01:00:05.440 --> 01:00:11.040
those seven or eight other people. And, you know, it's like practice, I'm practicing dating.

926
01:00:11.680 --> 01:00:16.160
And every time I would learn something that I did or did not want. And the last thing I learned

927
01:00:16.160 --> 01:00:22.240
before I met him, was I wanted a man who was okay with me talking about my late husband when I needed

928
01:00:22.240 --> 01:00:27.120
to, or I'm being understanding of those anniversaries and things like that. And that and

929
01:00:27.120 --> 01:00:31.600
I had prayed so hard. I'm like, Lord, it's going to be three years. Can you please send someone

930
01:00:31.600 --> 01:00:36.080
before that anniversary? I don't want to be alone. And that's not like, probably from the right

931
01:00:36.080 --> 01:00:43.200
place. But I just had that feeling. And we met October 5, and the anniversary was October 25.

932
01:00:43.920 --> 01:00:50.640
And he sent me like we just saw each other for three weeks, he sent me the coolest little gift

933
01:00:50.640 --> 01:00:56.640
with a candle that I could put a picture on of Rob. And we I took that with my son. And we had

934
01:00:56.640 --> 01:01:01.680
dinner together that night. Because we were together that week. But I knew it was Yeah,

935
01:01:01.680 --> 01:01:07.200
it was a Oh, I mean, who does that? Right? Like he was so thoughtful. And I had gotten sick before

936
01:01:07.200 --> 01:01:12.240
and he sent me like, a little gift in the mail. And so yeah, it's really sweet.

937
01:01:13.840 --> 01:01:18.320
He pursued me and I wanted to be pursued. Other guys did not pursue me like that.

938
01:01:19.280 --> 01:01:20.080
I love that.

939
01:01:24.080 --> 01:01:28.240
Not for all some people, we have to coach a lot of people about that, because it's not always

940
01:01:28.240 --> 01:01:33.040
common sense for people. But I love even the intentionality there, john. So again, kudos to

941
01:01:33.040 --> 01:01:39.760
you on that. And Diane, just the reminder for our community, trust the process, listen to the

942
01:01:39.760 --> 01:01:44.800
coaching. And y'all, I'm not just saying that because I coach in here. But genuinely, I also

943
01:01:44.800 --> 01:01:51.120
had to listen to the coaching, I had to listen to Jackie telling me to get back on the apps and to

944
01:01:52.240 --> 01:01:57.520
be willing to date someone that was further away. I said, as many of y'all know, I said,

945
01:01:57.520 --> 01:02:03.120
I was never moving. And God had other plans. Now we're all the way in Florida, way far away for my

946
01:02:03.120 --> 01:02:10.000
girls. But see all even in that God was preparing me for all of that and preparing us. So really

947
01:02:10.000 --> 01:02:15.120
awesome. So Penelope and Henry, how about you all? What's what's some advice or your thoughts for

948
01:02:15.120 --> 01:02:23.200
encouragement? Well, john mentioned about following or allowing God to do his work.

949
01:02:23.920 --> 01:02:32.640
And I'm going to put a point on that and say lean into your suffering. Don't shrink from it. Don't

950
01:02:33.360 --> 01:02:46.080
try to mute it, or follow into distractions or numbing yourself, which can happen so easily.

951
01:02:47.440 --> 01:02:56.160
But you've got to feel all the feelings and and deal deal with your own heart and your own thoughts.

952
01:02:57.120 --> 01:03:06.720
And, and in that sense, you got to be humble, love yourself, but be humble. And don't shirk.

953
01:03:08.320 --> 01:03:12.160
The don't shirk the training that God has you in.

954
01:03:16.400 --> 01:03:17.600
Because that's really what it is.

955
01:03:18.560 --> 01:03:26.960
I wanted to piggyback on what Diane said, you know, to continue, you know, going on dates and

956
01:03:26.960 --> 01:03:32.240
discovering what you do like and what you don't like about, you know, the people that you go out

957
01:03:32.240 --> 01:03:37.840
with. I felt like with each guy that I went out with that person had more and more character

958
01:03:37.840 --> 01:03:43.600
traits that I liked. And so I felt like I kept getting closer and closer to my spirit mate.

959
01:03:43.680 --> 01:03:52.400
And also, I kept real, I realized that if I had not found my spirit mate yet, I wasn't ready yet.

960
01:03:52.400 --> 01:03:59.680
And so I continued to ask God, what do I need to work on for myself? And one of the things that I

961
01:03:59.680 --> 01:04:08.480
noticed, probably a year before I met Henry, was I had some ladies at work that were bullying me.

962
01:04:08.480 --> 01:04:15.280
And I couldn't understand why it was happening. And so I asked God, I was like, why does this keep

963
01:04:15.280 --> 01:04:20.720
happening? You know, and I kept praying about it. And he said, it's because you don't like yourself.

964
01:04:21.680 --> 01:04:26.880
And I'm like, you know, I didn't understand all of it. But then I started realizing, you know,

965
01:04:26.880 --> 01:04:32.080
the negative thoughts I was having about myself. And so I started with some positive confession.

966
01:04:33.040 --> 01:04:39.040
And so I started doing that. And I started noticing some changes at work. And these ladies are like

967
01:04:39.040 --> 01:04:48.400
super nice to me now. And so God totally changed the situation. But the guys were rejecting me,

968
01:04:48.400 --> 01:04:54.160
and I was rejecting myself. And so God was preparing me for what was going to happen next.

969
01:04:54.160 --> 01:04:59.600
And so I started doing that. And I started noticing some changes at work. And these ladies

970
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:02.000
were preparing me for what was going to happen next. And so I started noticing some changes at work.

971
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:05.920
me for Henry, you know, a year ago, two years ago, you know, to get to the point that we're at now.

972
01:05:02.000 --> 01:05:04.000
And so I started noticing some changes at work. And so I started noticing some changes at work.

973
01:05:06.560 --> 01:05:13.920
So I want to encourage you to keep working on yourself and keep going on dates and

974
01:05:14.960 --> 01:05:18.320
don't ignore the red flags like I did.

975
01:05:18.320 --> 01:05:30.960
So good. Did y'all catch that? She was struggling to like herself or have value.

976
01:05:30.960 --> 01:05:38.000
And so there were times she was rejecting herself. And because of that, other people around her,

977
01:05:38.000 --> 01:05:42.720
not just men, but even at work, there was rejection and other things going on there.

978
01:05:42.720 --> 01:05:48.960
And so, you know, when we are not showing up in our value and our God-given identity

979
01:05:48.960 --> 01:05:53.360
and the fullness of that, it absolutely is going to impact every area of our lives,

980
01:05:53.360 --> 01:06:00.720
including our relationships. And so if y'all are attracting people, it's not your fault.

981
01:06:00.720 --> 01:06:04.720
Okay. That you're attracting people that are rejecting you, but there's something on the

982
01:06:04.720 --> 01:06:08.800
inside that needs healing. So I want to encourage you, if that's something you resonate with,

983
01:06:08.800 --> 01:06:13.520
that you'll just take some time and really ask the Lord if there's areas where you're still just

984
01:06:13.520 --> 01:06:20.560
not valuing yourself the way that he does. Okay. And that you'll ask him to show you how he sees

985
01:06:20.560 --> 01:06:27.200
you and live into that value and that truth. I love all these. And then one of the things

986
01:06:27.200 --> 01:06:33.920
I wanted to ask you all to share as well, like what's one thing you've learned about yourself?

987
01:06:33.920 --> 01:06:37.440
So Penelope, what's something you've learned about yourself? And we'll go through every person.

988
01:06:39.040 --> 01:06:44.480
Since you came into your relationship with Henry, so for you all vice versa,

989
01:06:46.640 --> 01:06:50.560
what is something you learned about yourself through being with your spirit mate?

990
01:06:50.560 --> 01:06:57.280
That's what I'm asking. One of the things that I didn't believe about myself in my last marriage

991
01:06:57.280 --> 01:07:07.840
was that I was enough. And I had a moment with Henry that I was not feeling that, and he is

992
01:07:07.840 --> 01:07:15.120
really good with his words. And that's something that's important for me is to hear calming and

993
01:07:15.840 --> 01:07:24.720
positive and peaceful words. But he talked about money and having a bag of change. And when he said

994
01:07:24.720 --> 01:07:29.360
the words that I don't remember everything that he said, but when he said what he said,

995
01:07:29.360 --> 01:07:35.680
it just like brought healing to me to see that I was enough and I was enough for him.

996
01:07:35.680 --> 01:07:45.040
And so God began restoring a place in my heart because I didn't feel like I was enough. And now

997
01:07:45.040 --> 01:07:54.160
I see that I am. I love that. That's so good. Henry, how about you?

998
01:07:56.080 --> 01:08:01.760
I'm trying to remember the question. I'm sorry. Oh, that's okay. What's a way that you personally

999
01:08:01.760 --> 01:08:05.440
have grown since God brought you and Penelope together?

1000
01:08:11.360 --> 01:08:17.439
I don't know if I can pinpoint anything.

1001
01:08:21.680 --> 01:08:30.560
But I will say, you know, during the pandemic, the church that I was attending folded

1002
01:08:31.520 --> 01:08:41.200
and then we were locked down. And I was basically a home caretaker for the next several years and

1003
01:08:41.200 --> 01:08:52.319
had become very isolated. And then when I met Penelope, she's engaged with her church. And so

1004
01:08:52.399 --> 01:09:02.800
basically, she drew me out of my shell. We had done some personality tests. And I was shocked

1005
01:09:02.800 --> 01:09:16.960
to discover I was 57% introvert, which I always didn't ever think of myself as an introvert. But

1006
01:09:17.920 --> 01:09:25.120
the circumstances of life, I think, really have changed and shaped me. And I've told Penelope that

1007
01:09:25.120 --> 01:09:34.720
I'm a different person than who I was four years ago. And then I have to qualify that I'm standing

1008
01:09:34.720 --> 01:09:43.359
who I am now. I'm standing on the shoulders of that person. But that person is not me. I'm

1009
01:09:43.359 --> 01:09:57.280
so different in ways. Through the experience of caretaking to the degree that I did and

1010
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.000
and then trying to manage all the extended family issues

1011
01:10:05.120 --> 01:10:10.120
and keep everybody from losing it or just whatever,

1012
01:10:12.200 --> 01:10:14.640
you know, being in a mess.

1013
01:10:14.640 --> 01:10:19.640
And so, I don't know if that answers the question, but.

1014
01:10:20.480 --> 01:10:22.240
It did.

1015
01:10:22.240 --> 01:10:23.480
And yes, I'm sorry.

1016
01:10:23.480 --> 01:10:27.880
And so, she specifically,

1017
01:10:27.920 --> 01:10:30.800
she drew me to her church,

1018
01:10:30.800 --> 01:10:35.800
which I have learned to love and appreciate.

1019
01:10:36.800 --> 01:10:41.800
And we might have some tremendous things

1020
01:10:44.280 --> 01:10:48.120
that we might be considering in the future

1021
01:10:49.240 --> 01:10:50.440
in church leadership.

1022
01:10:51.760 --> 01:10:53.840
That's so powerful.

1023
01:10:53.840 --> 01:10:55.720
That's a huge change.

1024
01:10:55.720 --> 01:10:56.640
Yeah.

1025
01:10:56.640 --> 01:10:59.680
And I love that you use the words,

1026
01:10:59.680 --> 01:11:02.880
she drew you out of the shell that you were in at that time.

1027
01:11:02.880 --> 01:11:06.400
And again, I just wanna, you know, like Jackie says,

1028
01:11:06.400 --> 01:11:08.320
like even when she coaches on love seats,

1029
01:11:08.320 --> 01:11:11.760
that some stuff that she's saying for that person

1030
01:11:11.760 --> 01:11:15.560
that is in that love seat is for them.

1031
01:11:15.560 --> 01:11:17.160
You can't take that and pin it

1032
01:11:17.160 --> 01:11:19.160
on everybody's love story, right?

1033
01:11:19.160 --> 01:11:20.800
So, we have to keep that in mind

1034
01:11:20.800 --> 01:11:22.840
as we're hearing everything.

1035
01:11:22.840 --> 01:11:24.560
And so, what it makes me think of,

1036
01:11:24.560 --> 01:11:25.640
and that's why I'm bringing this up,

1037
01:11:25.640 --> 01:11:29.680
is that, you know, we do wanna encourage you all

1038
01:11:29.680 --> 01:11:33.320
to be with people that have friends, they have community,

1039
01:11:33.320 --> 01:11:38.120
but the reality is, is that sometimes life happens

1040
01:11:38.120 --> 01:11:39.840
and seasons change.

1041
01:11:39.840 --> 01:11:43.000
And like when I met Brian,

1042
01:11:43.000 --> 01:11:44.840
he was pastoring in churches

1043
01:11:44.840 --> 01:11:47.480
like that he had just kind of been placed in,

1044
01:11:47.480 --> 01:11:50.680
but a lot of his friends were in California

1045
01:11:50.680 --> 01:11:51.800
because he used to live there,

1046
01:11:51.800 --> 01:11:53.480
but he didn't live there anymore.

1047
01:11:53.520 --> 01:11:56.840
And so, you can't always put that stamp on everything,

1048
01:11:56.840 --> 01:11:57.680
right?

1049
01:11:57.680 --> 01:11:59.840
And so, like when Henry's saying, you know,

1050
01:11:59.840 --> 01:12:01.520
he'd gone through all this stuff.

1051
01:12:02.480 --> 01:12:06.000
And so, meeting Penelope and them being together,

1052
01:12:06.000 --> 01:12:09.880
it's drawn him back into community through Penelope.

1053
01:12:09.880 --> 01:12:12.480
And so, I guess what I'm trying to say

1054
01:12:12.480 --> 01:12:17.040
is that some of you all, you're meeting good guys,

1055
01:12:17.040 --> 01:12:20.200
but you're so focused on they don't have friends

1056
01:12:20.200 --> 01:12:21.440
or they don't have community.

1057
01:12:22.160 --> 01:12:25.080
And let's look at the whole of the story

1058
01:12:25.080 --> 01:12:26.920
before just writing that person off.

1059
01:12:26.920 --> 01:12:28.600
And again, if they're not a healthy person,

1060
01:12:28.600 --> 01:12:30.080
that's totally different.

1061
01:12:30.080 --> 01:12:33.040
But, you know, is there a reason

1062
01:12:33.040 --> 01:12:35.520
that they don't have a lot of friends right now

1063
01:12:35.520 --> 01:12:36.360
that they hang out with?

1064
01:12:36.360 --> 01:12:39.360
Is there a reason they're not like really ingrained

1065
01:12:39.360 --> 01:12:41.400
in a church community and family?

1066
01:12:41.400 --> 01:12:45.120
And so, let's just be open to getting to know more, okay?

1067
01:12:45.120 --> 01:12:46.920
All right, John and Diane, tell us,

1068
01:12:46.920 --> 01:12:50.640
what's something that like each one of you,

1069
01:12:50.640 --> 01:12:52.960
where have you grown since you met each other?

1070
01:12:54.720 --> 01:12:55.960
Apparently, I'm going first,

1071
01:12:55.960 --> 01:13:00.960
but I so had the luxury of time here to think about this,

1072
01:13:01.080 --> 01:13:03.120
because at first I was gonna say,

1073
01:13:03.120 --> 01:13:05.680
I'm not, you know, I couldn't really pinpoint it,

1074
01:13:05.680 --> 01:13:08.640
but I would say it's community, right?

1075
01:13:09.720 --> 01:13:12.680
Another thing that I learned about is in my relationships,

1076
01:13:12.680 --> 01:13:16.200
things that I do just normal and day-to-day,

1077
01:13:18.400 --> 01:13:20.040
she's appreciative.

1078
01:13:20.440 --> 01:13:21.280
She says, thank you.

1079
01:13:21.280 --> 01:13:22.120
She says, whatever.

1080
01:13:22.120 --> 01:13:23.200
And I'm like, well, that's just what you do.

1081
01:13:23.200 --> 01:13:27.280
You open the door for, you know, a lady and all that.

1082
01:13:27.280 --> 01:13:32.280
Another thing that I learned or whatever is,

1083
01:13:32.680 --> 01:13:35.120
and she brought it up tonight when she said,

1084
01:13:35.120 --> 01:13:37.560
or I mean, it was in that same vein,

1085
01:13:37.560 --> 01:13:40.560
that same thread about how could someone love her?

1086
01:13:40.560 --> 01:13:41.760
You know, I think there was a couple of times

1087
01:13:41.760 --> 01:13:45.880
I caught her saying, you know, things to the effect of,

1088
01:13:46.880 --> 01:13:50.880
you know, I don't know what, I can't remember what it is,

1089
01:13:50.880 --> 01:13:52.440
but it's just, you know, she's,

1090
01:13:55.680 --> 01:13:59.960
she sometimes doesn't have the confidence that she should.

1091
01:13:59.960 --> 01:14:03.280
You know, when I dated others and I'm like,

1092
01:14:03.280 --> 01:14:07.840
she's more put together than she thinks she is.

1093
01:14:07.840 --> 01:14:11.560
She's, you know, she's just amazing.

1094
01:14:11.560 --> 01:14:16.080
So, you know, just, you know, that was just unique

1095
01:14:17.600 --> 01:14:20.360
for me to hear that someone could feel like that

1096
01:14:21.640 --> 01:14:24.640
and not know how amazing she is.

1097
01:14:24.640 --> 01:14:29.640
So, and, you know, I think part of it was just learning,

1098
01:14:30.080 --> 01:14:31.840
you know, all that she's been through too.

1099
01:14:31.840 --> 01:14:35.320
So I think just, you know, understanding that too

1100
01:14:35.320 --> 01:14:36.600
was something I learned.

1101
01:14:40.080 --> 01:14:41.000
Something happened.

1102
01:14:41.600 --> 01:14:43.600
Sorry, someone was just unmuted.

1103
01:14:43.600 --> 01:14:45.920
Make sure y'all are muting when you come in, okay?

1104
01:14:45.920 --> 01:14:47.200
Thanks, John.

1105
01:14:47.200 --> 01:14:48.240
That was really good.

1106
01:14:48.240 --> 01:14:52.640
And one of the things there, which is interesting,

1107
01:14:52.640 --> 01:14:54.720
because we talked about value tonight, you know,

1108
01:14:54.720 --> 01:14:57.720
and seeing the true value of who we are.

1109
01:14:57.720 --> 01:15:00.320
So Diane, I would love to hear, what do you think?

1110
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:03.600
think about the growth that you've experienced since meeting John?

1111
01:15:04.960 --> 01:15:12.240
Well, like Henry said, John's really good with his words and he just is always thoughtful about

1112
01:15:12.240 --> 01:15:18.800
and careful about what he says, intentional. And, you know, if we've had something happen

1113
01:15:18.800 --> 01:15:26.480
that upsets me, my reaction is to just be silent and not say anything because I'm afraid of being

1114
01:15:26.480 --> 01:15:32.080
rejected. And so I've been this way my whole life. And so he draws me out and he's like,

1115
01:15:32.080 --> 01:15:38.400
let's talk about it, you know? And so that's new for me to not be afraid to share how I'm feeling

1116
01:15:38.400 --> 01:15:44.160
and knowing that he's not going to go anywhere. And he's just got a peaceful way about him. I

1117
01:15:44.160 --> 01:15:48.960
can't even imagine ever there being a time where he would raise his voice like that's just not

1118
01:15:48.960 --> 01:15:56.240
his personality or character. So there's this peacefulness about it. And so I'm getting more

1119
01:15:56.960 --> 01:16:02.480
able to communicate when something's bothering me or sharing why I feel a certain way, you know,

1120
01:16:02.480 --> 01:16:07.760
and sometimes I'm off my rocker and he tells me so. That's okay because he does it in a very

1121
01:16:07.760 --> 01:16:16.160
kind way. So I'm learning and growing with him. Brian and I are going to share as well,

1122
01:16:16.160 --> 01:16:21.040
but the reason I asked you all this question, asked our couples and for our community to hear

1123
01:16:21.600 --> 01:16:26.800
is because I want everyone to understand that heartwork continues after you meet your spirit

1124
01:16:26.800 --> 01:16:32.480
mate. It's so important. I don't want you all to feel like you have to have arrived and you have

1125
01:16:32.480 --> 01:16:38.320
to be perfect before your spirit mate comes into your life. I can tell you, we've been married

1126
01:16:38.320 --> 01:16:45.440
almost three years and man, I'm still healing and growing all the time. I think for me,

1127
01:16:45.440 --> 01:16:53.120
one of the biggest things, I'm very similar to Diane actually. I have never felt more safe in

1128
01:16:53.120 --> 01:17:02.480
my life. And so I feel like I've learned another whole level of God's protection and love and

1129
01:17:02.480 --> 01:17:09.200
safety through Brian. Brian is someone that he's literally my best friend. Like I could tell him

1130
01:17:09.200 --> 01:17:17.280
anything. And even like I had a really rough day yesterday and I just felt disappointed in myself,

1131
01:17:17.280 --> 01:17:26.800
honestly. And he just let me be myself and he was supportive and he loved me in the middle of it.

1132
01:17:26.800 --> 01:17:33.680
And there's just, it's so freeing. And so I never had that either before. I actually was in an

1133
01:17:33.680 --> 01:17:39.600
abusive marriage before. And even with the girl's dad, he was very condensed. How do you say it?

1134
01:17:39.600 --> 01:17:44.720
Condensing? I'm saying it wrong. I don't know how to say it. Yeah. Condescending. Thank you.

1135
01:17:45.280 --> 01:17:52.800
And so I just would pull back a lot and not be who I really am even in the good things

1136
01:17:52.800 --> 01:17:58.640
sometimes. And so just appreciate that about being in relationship with Brian. What do you think?

1137
01:17:59.600 --> 01:18:07.440
I think for me, we had similar situations. I was kind of unhealthy situation in my last marriage

1138
01:18:07.440 --> 01:18:13.520
too, where basically I was told that I was kind of always the problem. So I was the bad communicator

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and I was the bad conflict, bad with conflict resolution. So sometimes you come out of that.

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One of the great things about coming into a healthy relationship is that you get a healing

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process through a lot of those things too, because sometimes you start believing the things that

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people say about you. So one of the things, a lot of things I've been learning is why, well,

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I actually am a good communicator. And she's really affirmed that she's been great and encouraging.

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I think I've gained more confidence and more of my abilities as well. Also, learning too that I

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I am a decent conflict resolutor. I think you made that word up. Good at conflict resolution,

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but all that to say like part of the healing process, as Bethany was saying,

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as now that we're together, we're married, that's part of the healing journey. We're kind of

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unwriting, unraveling lies and things we've been told and kind of learning that more of the truth

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because we are in a healthy, safe place. And, and so my confidence level, I feel is just really

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shot up because of that. And she's been great and affirming and supportive. And even when I have my

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crazy ideas, I have a lot of ideas. She's quick to shoot down the bad ones, which is great because

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it helps me filter. But then she's for the good one, she's super supportive, encouraging, and

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helping me pursue those. So, yeah. Yeah. So you all, just to kind of expand on that,

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I'm married to a visionary and I work for a master visionary, Jackie Dorman. So y'all,

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I get it on both sides. And sometimes I got to shoot down the ideas, even though I love them

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for both of those amazing people. But when I shoot them down, I don't mean it in the way

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that it's not good, but maybe we just can't do it right now. But.

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Yeah, so this is the fun things, you know, I want you all to see that, that, you know,

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pursuing God's plan for you may not always be easy.

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But remember, Jackie says it's worth it.

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And then one of the other things I forgot, I circled and I want to go back to when Henry

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was sharing, I loved when he said lean into the suffering.

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Don't try to mute it.

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Don't shrink the training that God has you in and you all we say it all the time.

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You got to feel the feels so that God can heal the feels.

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So if you have been dating on the apps, trying to meet someone and you're feeling, you know,

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frustrated or disappointment, maybe you just went through a breakup.

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I want to encourage you to feel the feels so that God can heal the feels.

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Don't give up.

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Don't stop going, but allow yourself to feel what's happening.

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But in that feeling, really ask God good questions.

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Remember, that's what you learned in the heart work.

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God, what are you trying to reveal to me in this moment?

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God, you know, come and meet me here.

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Help me to see what I can't see.

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Remember to keep asking him that, you know, as you keep moving, as you keep improving

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on the inner healing areas that he's showing you.

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And so I really appreciate John and Diane and Penelope and Henry for everything you've

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shared for your stories.

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You know, one of the other things I thought earlier, John was like, man, how do we follow

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that story?

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And one of the things I think is really amazing about tonight is you all, God shows up and

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bringing people together in all kinds of ways.

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Some like it's all supernatural.

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Okay.

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So I want to emphasize that it's all supernatural because God is working in it.

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Some people will hear, you know, signs and things like that.

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They will, they will hear things from the Lord and that will be a part of their story.

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But for other people, it's the daily consistency and pursuit.

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I mean, Penelope and Henry had that too, but I just want you all to see both are powerful.

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They're both powerful.

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And it's really amazing to see what God is doing in your lives as two new couples in

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our community.

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We're so excited about that.

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And for those of you that are, you know, here watching again with us live or in replay,

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we love you.

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We're praying for you.

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We believe for your love story.

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When you, when you're struggling to believe, borrow from our belief, but just keep believing.

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Don't give up on yourself and don't give up on what God has promised you.

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So we love you.

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Let me pray for us tonight as we close.

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Father, thank you so much for God, the truth of who you are, that you're a good father

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who gives good things to your children, to your sons and your daughters, God, that you're

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always working.

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Even when we can't see it, you're working.

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And we thank you, Jesus, for sitting at the right hand of the father, even right now interceding

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for every person that's a part of this last year, single community, the single individuals

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that are looking for their spirit mates, our married couples, people that are engaged.

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God, we thank you for your hedge of protection around each one of them.

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And I pray that you would breathe hope and life and truth into every one of them, that

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they would hear what your spirit is saying louder than any voice of the enemy.

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And when discouraged comes in, God, we thank you that you would just come in and really

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raise up a standard against the enemy on their behalf.

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We thank you, God, that, yes, Lord, that you would give every person that's here, that

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hears this prayer, the gift of faith to believe for more, to believe, God, that not only can

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they trust you through your word, but God, that they can trust in the fullness of your

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plans and your promises for them.

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How you originally created them to be, that that's what you're always leading them towards,

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the fullness of that person.

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So Lord, we thank you for more revealings, for healing happening where they're needed.

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We thank you, God, for, yes, Lord, just stirring up our hunger and thirst for your righteousness,

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for your word, to know you more, God.

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And we thank you that, again, those that are looking and walking towards their spirit mates

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every day, we thank you, God, that you would highlight their spirit mate to them.

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And you would also highlight them to their spirit mates.

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We thank you for kingdom families and marriages that you're raising up through this movement.

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We thank you for Jackie and David.

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We ask you to minister to them and their family, God, meet every need that they have.

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And then some, God, we thank you even while Jackie is on the Esther Experience, God, with

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some of the people from our community, God, we ask for a double portion being poured out

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on them, that which they could not even contain it.

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So Lord, we just thank you for your goodness, for your faithfulness, for all of our team

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members and volunteers, that you would continue to bless, minister, heal Teresa, God, raise

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her up, Lord, heal her lungs and make her completely whole.

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In Jesus name, amen.

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We love you all.

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We thank you again, Penelope, Henry, John, and Diane, thank you for being here and sharing

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your stories.

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If you didn't see it, it's okay.

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In the chat. People are very encouraged and super grateful for everything that you shared. I hope everyone has a great night tonight.

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Can I share a Bible verse to end

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While you're praying.

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100 some some 8411 says for the Lord God is a son and shield the Lord bestows favor and honor. No good thing. Does he withhold from those who walk up rightly so he's out there, ladies. She's out there, man.

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Yes, no.

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Amen.

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Yes, he withhold. I love it. Thank you, Diane. Good night, everyone. Thank you. Thank you, everybody. I