WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:02.000 There should be a more 2 00:00:02.560 --> 00:00:05.560 All right you guys it's a 3 00:00:06.000 --> 00:00:09.840 September 15th, and we have all these amazing gentlemen here, and this is Mike leading 4 00:00:11.940 --> 00:00:14.340 Yeah, hey guys. How are you all doing I? 5 00:00:16.860 --> 00:00:18.360 Kind of wanted to chat about oh 6 00:00:19.800 --> 00:00:21.180 You know I don't have my video on there we go 7 00:00:21.260 --> 00:00:25.360 I kind of wanted to chat and see how everybody was doing this week 8 00:00:25.380 --> 00:00:28.940 I know there was a lot going on last week and to see where everybody's heart was at 9 00:00:29.920 --> 00:00:33.880 So I know for me. It was a really heavy week kind of a rough week 10 00:00:34.220 --> 00:00:38.340 But I'd be open to hearing wins too, so anybody got some wins from last week 11 00:00:45.900 --> 00:00:46.860 No wins 12 00:00:48.360 --> 00:00:51.540 The market is up. That's a good one. Well. That's a good one 13 00:00:52.220 --> 00:01:01.100 That is a win a couple wins, I had a good win on Oracle, but that was nice 14 00:01:05.900 --> 00:01:06.440 I 15 00:01:06.440 --> 00:01:12.340 Think for me um I started dating again, so that's scary, but 16 00:01:13.040 --> 00:01:15.400 Yeah, so I did two zoom dates in a week 17 00:01:16.800 --> 00:01:19.420 And I've got a date coming this weekend 18 00:01:19.420 --> 00:01:24.900 So we're gonna go apple-picking it's somebody from the community they found me after my spotlight and 19 00:01:26.540 --> 00:01:31.480 She just said she's like I didn't bother with putting up my pictures and all the information because she's like they don't do anything anyway 20 00:01:31.480 --> 00:01:33.200 So I just thought I'd find you 21 00:01:36.280 --> 00:01:36.680 And 22 00:01:37.160 --> 00:01:41.580 She was like yeah, I think Jackie's taking a break, so she's like I don't think they're really doing the spotlight 23 00:01:41.580 --> 00:01:44.860 So she's like I didn't put the effort in but she's like I knew I could just find you so I 24 00:01:44.880 --> 00:01:50.780 Actually had three people say that to me they were like I didn't fill it out because I knew that they wouldn't do anything so 25 00:01:51.160 --> 00:01:53.320 yeah, I have three dates and 26 00:01:54.520 --> 00:01:58.060 One girl was funny. She's from Chicago, but she said you know what like she's like 27 00:01:58.060 --> 00:02:02.020 I would move to Canada and become a Canadian citizen for you, and I was like well 28 00:02:02.500 --> 00:02:04.400 Wait, but great, okay 29 00:02:08.560 --> 00:02:10.440 Me and I said okay 30 00:02:15.220 --> 00:02:17.240 Well, that's amazing 31 00:02:19.380 --> 00:02:25.400 So yeah, so I might be having a date soon too cuz David knows about it 32 00:02:29.760 --> 00:02:32.200 But I'm working on it 33 00:02:33.140 --> 00:02:37.620 It's a friend of David's, but I don't know if you see her that often or not David 34 00:02:37.720 --> 00:02:39.960 Do you ever see her locally in person? 35 00:02:39.960 --> 00:02:45.840 Much or no no no, but that she lived near you so you could ever see her in person 36 00:02:47.040 --> 00:02:49.060 Like once a month, maybe or something 37 00:02:50.900 --> 00:02:54.440 Yeah, I got parties. I see her. I see her every couple months 38 00:02:55.300 --> 00:02:59.200 She was my boss years ago, but I gotta yeah leave it with me 39 00:03:01.260 --> 00:03:05.380 Yeah, I'm not trying to rush you it's just that's my burning question 40 00:03:05.380 --> 00:03:09.660 I got answered and the other question that I sent that you didn't check the email is that you live in 41 00:03:09.960 --> 00:03:14.480 You personally live in Kingston, and I didn't know what she lives near there or not 42 00:03:15.400 --> 00:03:19.680 So she you don't have to tell me where she's at, but no no if you don't want you 43 00:03:20.420 --> 00:03:23.020 I don't mind so she owns property in Kingston 44 00:03:24.000 --> 00:03:27.220 That's why she's here every once in a while. She has a couple properties here 45 00:03:27.220 --> 00:03:29.820 She's a in real estate, so she has a couple properties 46 00:03:29.820 --> 00:03:35.640 And then she has a property in Toronto and then a property near Ottawa so and then she is like works 47 00:03:35.940 --> 00:03:38.940 travels in between like Ottawa and Toronto so 48 00:03:40.820 --> 00:03:46.800 So that's about a three-hour distance in three or four hours and can and geography so 49 00:03:47.620 --> 00:03:52.640 Yeah, yeah, I can relate to that because I grew up in New York State had to go to between Buffalo and Utica a lot 50 00:03:52.640 --> 00:03:53.800 That's about the same amount 51 00:03:55.660 --> 00:03:56.840 So I hear 52 00:03:58.300 --> 00:04:01.360 Both are gonna be going on dates is that what I'm understanding then 53 00:04:04.280 --> 00:04:05.360 Well that's great 54 00:04:05.360 --> 00:04:07.020 You got some 55 00:04:07.880 --> 00:04:08.760 Yeah 56 00:04:13.040 --> 00:04:14.080 Is she 57 00:04:16.360 --> 00:04:24.100 Is he is he garbled for anybody other than me he's single never married 58 00:04:25.740 --> 00:04:31.180 She's divorced but divorced like 12 years ago 59 00:04:32.380 --> 00:04:34.840 Okay, there's no kids from that marriage 60 00:04:35.560 --> 00:04:41.800 No, no kids. Yeah, so she was one of those quick ones where I think they were like, you know married at 20 61 00:04:43.800 --> 00:04:45.180 Divorce by 23 62 00:04:52.180 --> 00:04:54.220 Mm-hmm. It was an infidelity thing 63 00:04:54.220 --> 00:04:59.920 I think the guy had like she found out that there was four or five other people on on the on the go kind of 64 00:04:59.920 --> 00:04:59.980 thing 65 00:05:01.860 --> 00:05:08.120 And then they gave it a second chance and a third chance and a fourth chance, but then 66 00:05:08.120 --> 00:05:09.280 there kept being other women. 67 00:05:09.580 --> 00:05:14.560 And so by chance number like seven, she was like, Hey, I got to figure this out. 68 00:05:15.000 --> 00:05:15.360 So. 69 00:05:15.360 --> 00:05:15.680 All right. 70 00:05:15.680 --> 00:05:19.540 So let's, let's, let's wrap this up and go to, let's switch to something a little different. 71 00:05:20.440 --> 00:05:21.680 So what's cool. 72 00:05:21.680 --> 00:05:23.320 I mean, you guys can talk about this offline. 73 00:05:23.400 --> 00:05:27.560 We don't need to know all this stuff, but like, you know sorry guys. 74 00:05:28.440 --> 00:05:30.860 So any other, any other, John, how are you doing? 75 00:05:31.060 --> 00:05:35.800 How is, how is a, you're, you're up by the bay, right? 76 00:05:36.680 --> 00:05:37.100 Yeah. 77 00:05:37.220 --> 00:05:37.580 Brentwood. 78 00:05:37.820 --> 00:05:38.340 Brentwood. 79 00:05:38.460 --> 00:05:38.780 That's right. 80 00:05:38.840 --> 00:05:39.420 I didn't think of it. 81 00:05:39.420 --> 00:05:40.760 I'm like, you know, yeah. 82 00:05:40.980 --> 00:05:41.500 Somewhere. 83 00:05:41.760 --> 00:05:42.520 It's discovery. 84 00:05:42.580 --> 00:05:43.920 Is that discovery bay right there? 85 00:05:44.440 --> 00:05:44.840 Yeah. 86 00:05:44.840 --> 00:05:47.160 Like it's like a 15 minutes away. 87 00:05:47.260 --> 00:05:47.780 Yeah. 88 00:05:48.240 --> 00:05:49.120 It's a great day. 89 00:05:49.160 --> 00:05:52.260 Any, any, any exciting news on your block? 90 00:05:54.200 --> 00:05:54.680 Yeah. 91 00:05:54.680 --> 00:05:59.060 I've been going to some meetups and stuff and, and that, that's fine. 92 00:06:00.360 --> 00:06:05.560 Went with my friend, we went to concert out in Concord on Thursday night, saw a doors 93 00:06:05.560 --> 00:06:06.100 cover band. 94 00:06:06.260 --> 00:06:06.680 That was fun. 95 00:06:07.080 --> 00:06:07.800 Oh, that sounds like fun. 96 00:06:07.880 --> 00:06:08.140 Yeah. 97 00:06:08.460 --> 00:06:08.940 Yeah. 98 00:06:08.940 --> 00:06:11.900 It's like the end of the summer concert seasons and all. 99 00:06:11.900 --> 00:06:12.460 It is. 100 00:06:12.560 --> 00:06:12.820 Yeah. 101 00:06:12.820 --> 00:06:14.260 There's a lot, there's a lot of things wrapping up. 102 00:06:14.440 --> 00:06:14.540 Huh? 103 00:06:15.040 --> 00:06:15.520 Yeah. 104 00:06:15.520 --> 00:06:16.680 So did that. 105 00:06:16.800 --> 00:06:20.740 And next weekend on Saturday, I'm going on a boat cruise out in the Delta. 106 00:06:22.140 --> 00:06:23.140 Oh, that's right. 107 00:06:23.140 --> 00:06:23.360 Yeah. 108 00:06:23.360 --> 00:06:24.260 Cause you're not that far away. 109 00:06:24.520 --> 00:06:24.540 Huh? 110 00:06:24.540 --> 00:06:24.840 Yeah. 111 00:06:24.840 --> 00:06:25.120 Yeah. 112 00:06:25.120 --> 00:06:26.800 No, it's like 10 minutes. 113 00:06:27.240 --> 00:06:27.900 That's funny. 114 00:06:27.900 --> 00:06:31.100 Cause I'm like the Delta is so far away, but I'm like, Oh, I like what you live up there. 115 00:06:31.200 --> 00:06:32.440 You live next to it. 116 00:06:32.480 --> 00:06:32.880 Right. 117 00:06:33.040 --> 00:06:33.440 Yeah. 118 00:06:33.440 --> 00:06:34.040 From San Jose. 119 00:06:34.200 --> 00:06:35.660 It's probably an hour. 120 00:06:35.820 --> 00:06:36.900 It's about an hour and a half. 121 00:06:36.960 --> 00:06:42.300 Cause I used to live off Monterey and blossom and I used to, my kids were in Brentwood and 122 00:06:42.300 --> 00:06:44.580 it would take me about an hour each way. 123 00:06:44.580 --> 00:06:45.220 All right. 124 00:06:45.580 --> 00:06:46.620 So it's not bad. 125 00:06:46.720 --> 00:06:47.860 What about you, Mr. Tim? 126 00:06:47.980 --> 00:06:48.700 How has your week been? 127 00:06:52.780 --> 00:06:57.380 Not much has happened. 128 00:07:10.740 --> 00:07:12.400 I think you got me in it, Martin. 129 00:07:13.800 --> 00:07:15.160 I love this setup. 130 00:07:15.540 --> 00:07:17.580 So Tim, are you, are you, did you say something, Tim? 131 00:07:17.580 --> 00:07:18.520 I didn't really hear it. 132 00:07:18.520 --> 00:07:19.840 I was just checking in. 133 00:07:19.900 --> 00:07:21.680 I said not much has happened. 134 00:07:21.880 --> 00:07:22.420 Oh, okay. 135 00:07:22.440 --> 00:07:22.640 Cool. 136 00:07:22.660 --> 00:07:23.080 Sorry. 137 00:07:23.080 --> 00:07:24.300 I didn't hear that. 138 00:07:24.820 --> 00:07:28.160 So how are you all doing after the events of last week? 139 00:07:28.220 --> 00:07:28.940 Is everybody okay? 140 00:07:29.020 --> 00:07:29.420 I know. 141 00:07:29.420 --> 00:07:34.820 I don't know if everybody has a support system or last week was a pretty intense week for, 142 00:07:35.120 --> 00:07:35.860 for me personally. 143 00:07:35.860 --> 00:07:44.640 And I just wanted to, if you guys are, if we got, just wanted to chat about or not chat 144 00:07:44.640 --> 00:07:53.340 about it, but if you guys need to process or like just, because one of the thoughts 145 00:07:53.340 --> 00:07:59.980 I had about talking tonight is, especially after last week is, you know, living a life 146 00:08:00.020 --> 00:08:01.500 that leaves a legacy. 147 00:08:02.680 --> 00:08:07.040 You know, I mean, I remember being in Men's Fraternity and they're like, they, we had 148 00:08:07.040 --> 00:08:10.280 to write, it was super amazing. 149 00:08:10.480 --> 00:08:11.780 They're like, here, here's a headstone. 150 00:08:11.780 --> 00:08:14.020 What do you want written on it? 151 00:08:14.980 --> 00:08:15.260 Right. 152 00:08:15.520 --> 00:08:20.640 And then, and at the end it was like, okay, so, you know, that's what you want written 153 00:08:20.640 --> 00:08:21.120 on it. 154 00:08:21.120 --> 00:08:22.260 How are you going to get there? 155 00:08:22.780 --> 00:08:23.180 Right. 156 00:08:23.220 --> 00:08:25.420 And so, so I don't know. 157 00:08:25.420 --> 00:08:26.500 How are you guys doing with that? 158 00:08:26.520 --> 00:08:27.660 Anybody want to share? 159 00:08:28.140 --> 00:08:29.280 Is everybody doing okay? 160 00:08:30.480 --> 00:08:31.280 Anybody struggling? 161 00:08:37.640 --> 00:08:42.440 Yeah, I, I, I'm still in this place where like, cause I'm still pretty new. 162 00:08:42.700 --> 00:08:47.680 And so like, I don't feel like I'm fluctuating, like in between, in and out of the heartwork, 163 00:08:48.000 --> 00:08:52.760 like just a lot of unforgiveness and like, I, I literally had to take a break from social 164 00:08:52.760 --> 00:09:00.000 media for the week because it just was too much like, and, and yeah, so I just took a 165 00:09:00.220 --> 00:09:00.260 break. 166 00:09:02.140 --> 00:09:06.780 And even today I had to do a lot of like, you know, the forgiveness sheets and just 167 00:09:06.780 --> 00:09:08.500 working through a lot of stuff too. 168 00:09:10.760 --> 00:09:11.640 And yeah. 169 00:09:13.300 --> 00:09:16.160 And, and, and it's, and you guys, you know, it's okay to take a break. 170 00:09:16.440 --> 00:09:19.160 I mean, a lot of this stuff is really intense, right? 171 00:09:19.160 --> 00:09:23.700 Like, you know, when you're, when you're dealing with unforgiveness and like looking at things 172 00:09:23.700 --> 00:09:28.280 and letting things go and just even processing all that, I mean, it's exhausting. 173 00:09:29.200 --> 00:09:34.860 So it's, it's good to get, have times of a break where you can actually like breathe 174 00:09:34.860 --> 00:09:35.460 for a minute. 175 00:09:35.540 --> 00:09:36.140 Right. 176 00:09:36.820 --> 00:09:45.260 So, so yeah, so, so, but, but you took, you took kind of a break, but you're doing, you're 177 00:09:45.260 --> 00:09:48.820 kind of, are you settling in or you're just still in process? 178 00:09:51.880 --> 00:09:53.780 Yeah, I think I'm settling in. 179 00:09:53.820 --> 00:09:56.760 I'm, I'm just, you know, my anchor is set. 180 00:09:56.760 --> 00:09:59.320 And so what has been really cool is that. 181 00:10:00.860 --> 00:10:03.040 I've had a lot of friends and family just say, 182 00:10:03.400 --> 00:10:04.380 whoa, you are different. 183 00:10:04.460 --> 00:10:06.040 Your answers are way shorter now. 184 00:10:06.180 --> 00:10:08.140 And they're like, they're way more concise. 185 00:10:08.200 --> 00:10:10.060 They're like, we can have a conversation with you 186 00:10:10.060 --> 00:10:12.500 and you can talk about more than one topic for half an hour. 187 00:10:13.840 --> 00:10:15.680 So that's been kind of fun. 188 00:10:15.700 --> 00:10:18.580 And I think that's due to a lot to the heart work. 189 00:10:20.000 --> 00:10:24.180 And yeah, I recently asked them to add the, 190 00:10:24.180 --> 00:10:25.400 is it the Love Accelerator? 191 00:10:25.600 --> 00:10:26.340 Is that what it's called? 192 00:10:27.120 --> 00:10:28.240 This sounds familiar. 193 00:10:29.240 --> 00:10:30.800 Yeah, it's the women's thing 194 00:10:30.800 --> 00:10:33.120 because there were so many terms 195 00:10:34.080 --> 00:10:36.140 and even on both of my Zoom dates, 196 00:10:36.340 --> 00:10:38.360 I didn't understand any of the things 197 00:10:38.360 --> 00:10:39.400 that they were talking about. 198 00:10:40.040 --> 00:10:41.300 Like they were talking about it, 199 00:10:41.300 --> 00:10:43.780 like, oh, like I should know what these terms are. 200 00:10:43.780 --> 00:10:45.800 And I had no idea. 201 00:10:46.540 --> 00:10:47.100 So like what terms? 202 00:10:48.020 --> 00:10:49.280 You remember any of the terms? 203 00:10:50.300 --> 00:10:50.740 Yeah. 204 00:10:50.740 --> 00:10:51.300 Yeah, yeah. 205 00:10:51.760 --> 00:10:55.820 So like things like they were talking about 206 00:10:55.820 --> 00:10:57.580 some of the boundaries things 207 00:10:57.580 --> 00:11:00.320 and like, oh, Zoom dates should only be like half an hour. 208 00:11:02.160 --> 00:11:03.040 And- 209 00:11:03.040 --> 00:11:03.380 And very light. 210 00:11:05.180 --> 00:11:09.900 Very light and like, yeah, like, 211 00:11:10.600 --> 00:11:12.400 sorry, I'm trying to think, but like- 212 00:11:12.400 --> 00:11:16.220 Not to go too, not to go too deep, too soon. 213 00:11:16.260 --> 00:11:17.460 Not to go too heavy. 214 00:11:21.360 --> 00:11:22.920 And it's a little awkward 215 00:11:22.920 --> 00:11:25.900 when the person has already heard all of your answers 216 00:11:25.900 --> 00:11:27.820 from the spotlight, right? 217 00:11:27.940 --> 00:11:28.820 Like they already know. 218 00:11:31.220 --> 00:11:32.380 Yeah, and then one person, 219 00:11:32.600 --> 00:11:34.520 she did a little research on me after my spotlight, 220 00:11:34.740 --> 00:11:35.580 like from my Facebook. 221 00:11:35.780 --> 00:11:38.080 And I was like, oh, you know a lot. 222 00:11:38.160 --> 00:11:39.360 And she was like, hey, but like, 223 00:11:39.360 --> 00:11:41.960 she's like, remember Jackie, don't write me off. 224 00:11:42.800 --> 00:11:43.200 Wow. 225 00:11:43.380 --> 00:11:44.240 If it's not a yes, it's not a no. 226 00:11:44.540 --> 00:11:45.700 It's a yes, so it's a no. 227 00:11:45.700 --> 00:11:46.760 She's like, if it's not a no, it's a yes or whatever. 228 00:11:47.280 --> 00:11:50.400 And I was like, oh, okay, well, I guess she's like, 229 00:11:50.400 --> 00:11:52.680 I know I did a lot of research and I know I crossed the line 230 00:11:52.680 --> 00:11:54.120 but like, don't write me off yet. 231 00:11:54.420 --> 00:11:56.640 And I was like, okay, well. 232 00:11:57.200 --> 00:11:58.780 Well, I mean, how do they make, but like, okay. 233 00:11:59.160 --> 00:12:00.940 Can we talk about that for a minute? 234 00:12:01.780 --> 00:12:02.240 So- 235 00:12:02.240 --> 00:12:02.880 I would love to. 236 00:12:03.280 --> 00:12:04.280 How does it feel? 237 00:12:04.340 --> 00:12:05.900 Okay, so you guys, how does it feel? 238 00:12:06.660 --> 00:12:07.440 How did that make you feel? 239 00:12:07.480 --> 00:12:09.320 I mean, were you okay with it? 240 00:12:09.400 --> 00:12:10.900 Is it like, wow, you crossed boundaries 241 00:12:11.460 --> 00:12:14.260 or like, where are you at with that? 242 00:12:14.780 --> 00:12:16.880 Like her scoping you out, did you feel honored? 243 00:12:19.580 --> 00:12:21.360 I did not feel honored, no. 244 00:12:21.700 --> 00:12:22.060 Okay. 245 00:12:23.120 --> 00:12:29.380 I felt a little scared and I feel violated a little bit. 246 00:12:31.380 --> 00:12:33.340 But I just said, you know what? 247 00:12:33.440 --> 00:12:34.520 I need to let that go. 248 00:12:34.940 --> 00:12:36.600 Cause we're trying to, you know, 249 00:12:36.640 --> 00:12:39.700 like everybody's got yellow flags and just let that go. 250 00:12:42.020 --> 00:12:44.380 And yeah, and one thing I learned, I think, 251 00:12:44.480 --> 00:12:47.980 is that like a big problem I've had is that, 252 00:12:48.040 --> 00:12:49.620 and all my friends confirm this, 253 00:12:49.620 --> 00:12:53.640 is that when I pray with people who I've dated, 254 00:12:55.360 --> 00:12:57.820 I, and I don't know how else to put this, 255 00:12:57.940 --> 00:12:59.480 but basically what a friend of mine said, 256 00:12:59.520 --> 00:13:01.460 she said, you have these weird reactions with people 257 00:13:01.460 --> 00:13:02.540 where after two or three months, 258 00:13:03.020 --> 00:13:04.380 they're convinced from God 259 00:13:04.420 --> 00:13:05.900 that you are the one that they're supposed to marry. 260 00:13:05.960 --> 00:13:08.540 And they're like, and that scares the crap out of you. 261 00:13:09.580 --> 00:13:10.780 And my friend said- 262 00:13:10.780 --> 00:13:12.400 Well, I mean, that would be a little unnerving 263 00:13:12.400 --> 00:13:15.600 unless the Lord's telling you the same thing, right? 264 00:13:15.740 --> 00:13:17.340 Like, I mean, a lot of people would say, 265 00:13:17.440 --> 00:13:18.240 no, I mean, like seriously, 266 00:13:18.240 --> 00:13:19.480 it's like, you know, 267 00:13:19.780 --> 00:13:21.680 Hey, the Lord told me I'm going to marry you. 268 00:13:21.700 --> 00:13:23.160 And I'm like, well, he hasn't told me yet, 269 00:13:23.200 --> 00:13:24.880 but when he does, we'll work that out. 270 00:13:25.000 --> 00:13:26.960 You know, like, you know, but- 271 00:13:26.960 --> 00:13:26.960 272 00:13:27.020 --> 00:13:28.660 That's, that's often my line, 273 00:13:28.920 --> 00:13:31.800 but it's happened to me about 20 times in my life. 274 00:13:32.340 --> 00:13:32.820 Yeah. 275 00:13:33.040 --> 00:13:34.860 And I think a lot of it has to do 276 00:13:34.860 --> 00:13:36.120 with me praying too early. 277 00:13:37.300 --> 00:13:38.660 Yeah. Like, like praying. 278 00:13:38.800 --> 00:13:40.360 Okay. So like bringing, 279 00:13:42.300 --> 00:13:44.140 that's, you remember like keeping it light 280 00:13:44.140 --> 00:13:47.440 and making it like fun 281 00:13:48.120 --> 00:13:49.320 and not getting serious? 282 00:13:49.980 --> 00:13:53.420 Prayer brings a whole nother dynamic into the, to the thing. 283 00:13:53.500 --> 00:13:56.840 I mean, you can say like something you'd say over the table, 284 00:13:57.080 --> 00:13:59.040 like, you know, Jesus, thank you for the food, 285 00:13:59.320 --> 00:13:59.660 yada, yada, yada. 286 00:13:59.800 --> 00:14:01.240 But, but like getting, 287 00:14:02.520 --> 00:14:05.800 prayer is really intimate and it breeds a, 288 00:14:06.700 --> 00:14:09.120 a connection and an intimate, like the intimacy. 289 00:14:09.120 --> 00:14:12.040 It takes the intimacy level and jacks it straight up. 290 00:14:12.040 --> 00:14:15.800 And early on, you shouldn't be doing that stuff, right? 291 00:14:15.800 --> 00:14:17.180 You should just be getting to know 292 00:14:17.180 --> 00:14:19.920 and kind of seeing, do I like this person, right? 293 00:14:19.980 --> 00:14:21.580 You know, and by praying like that, 294 00:14:22.080 --> 00:14:25.200 you're actually creating an intimacy 295 00:14:25.460 --> 00:14:28.480 that's not equal to your relationship. 296 00:14:28.580 --> 00:14:29.220 Does that make sense? 297 00:14:30.240 --> 00:14:32.020 Yeah. And so one of the things that 298 00:14:33.080 --> 00:14:34.640 I've just struggled with is that like, 299 00:14:34.820 --> 00:14:37.740 because I, I pray on the Sunday nights, right? 300 00:14:37.780 --> 00:14:39.260 Candy, Sunday night prayer. 301 00:14:40.120 --> 00:14:40.560 Yeah. 302 00:14:40.700 --> 00:14:42.360 And some of the women were like, 303 00:14:42.640 --> 00:14:44.040 they were like, oh, I love when you pray. 304 00:14:44.040 --> 00:14:46.440 I just feel this like spiritual connection to you. 305 00:14:47.180 --> 00:14:48.760 And I'm like, I'm like, okay. 306 00:14:48.980 --> 00:14:50.560 But I'm, but I'm, and I just said it. 307 00:14:50.660 --> 00:14:51.420 I said, hey, you know what? 308 00:14:51.580 --> 00:14:53.140 Like I said to the one person, I said like, 309 00:14:53.140 --> 00:14:54.340 right now we're just getting to know each other 310 00:14:54.340 --> 00:14:55.040 and we're having fun. 311 00:14:55.100 --> 00:14:56.560 Let's just keep having fun. 312 00:14:56.900 --> 00:14:57.140 Yeah. 313 00:14:57.900 --> 00:14:58.840 That's a great, great. 314 00:14:59.120 --> 00:14:59.380 So like. 315 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:00.660 Yeah. 316 00:15:00.920 --> 00:15:01.880 And that happened twice. 317 00:15:01.960 --> 00:15:03.660 The other girl was like, oh, like, would you pray? 318 00:15:03.760 --> 00:15:04.700 Like, both asked me to pray. 319 00:15:04.780 --> 00:15:08.280 And I said, hey, you know what, right now, let's just keep it light. 320 00:15:08.340 --> 00:15:10.240 And then I said, you know, let's focus on just getting to know each other. 321 00:15:10.320 --> 00:15:12.340 And I said, I, I, yeah. 322 00:15:12.920 --> 00:15:13.640 Great job. 323 00:15:13.800 --> 00:15:15.000 No, I mean, that's great boundaries. 324 00:15:15.860 --> 00:15:16.220 Right. 325 00:15:16.520 --> 00:15:19.020 You know, and that'll keep you from going too deep. 326 00:15:19.140 --> 00:15:23.180 I mean, like developing that, that false deep intimacy really quickly, right. 327 00:15:24.880 --> 00:15:26.880 So great job, kudos. 328 00:15:26.880 --> 00:15:30.360 So anybody else's thoughts on that? 329 00:15:30.820 --> 00:15:31.680 Like, what are you guys thinking? 330 00:15:33.860 --> 00:15:36.720 Anybody want to chime in? 331 00:15:38.540 --> 00:15:41.920 Tom, you don't, you don't pray or kiss on the first date. 332 00:15:43.000 --> 00:15:51.700 Yeah, well, and, and ladies are really susceptible, I guess, like, you know, that's, that's, 333 00:15:51.900 --> 00:15:54.720 that's something that they're really looking for as a spiritual leader. 334 00:15:54.720 --> 00:16:01.500 And then they're like, oh, they, you know, and so, yeah, no, and I have to be careful 335 00:16:01.500 --> 00:16:06.960 with that, too, because, you know, I'm super gregarious and, you know, and then all of 336 00:16:06.960 --> 00:16:11.440 a sudden, I'm like, whoa, the they're like, hi, how are you? 337 00:16:11.500 --> 00:16:16.420 And I'm like, well, time out, you know, like, you know, like, I'm just being friendly. 338 00:16:16.820 --> 00:16:18.920 Not I'm not into that. 339 00:16:18.920 --> 00:16:22.540 Yeah. So so and it's just stirring their hearts well, too. 340 00:16:22.540 --> 00:16:23.080 And yours. 341 00:16:23.700 --> 00:16:28.440 So David, that's a great, so I can, I can see exactly why you would feel violated. 342 00:16:28.600 --> 00:16:31.240 And I just, I just wanted to see how you were doing in that. 343 00:16:31.300 --> 00:16:37.020 I think you're doing a great job in stewarding that and saying, hey, time out, yo, light 344 00:16:37.280 --> 00:16:41.700 and happy, you know, like, you know, we're not getting married after this first video 345 00:16:42.000 --> 00:16:46.360 15 minute video date, you know, like, you know, in a second, you know. 346 00:16:47.100 --> 00:16:51.060 And you know what, actually, so once I kind of did that, the person she backed up a bit 347 00:16:51.060 --> 00:16:52.940 and she was like, well, my bad. 348 00:16:53.020 --> 00:16:56.940 And so then we scheduled one for for tomorrow, another video date. 349 00:16:57.120 --> 00:16:58.760 And that's a great sign. 350 00:16:59.380 --> 00:17:04.859 So so here's the thing is it's not like you got and this goes both ways, right? 351 00:17:05.859 --> 00:17:07.880 If you if you miss. 352 00:17:08.480 --> 00:17:12.460 Right. And they say, hey, you know, time out, back off. 353 00:17:12.540 --> 00:17:14.400 Right. And you honor that. 354 00:17:14.400 --> 00:17:16.760 You know, it's not about whether you mess up or not. 355 00:17:16.780 --> 00:17:18.760 It's how you how you what you do with it. 356 00:17:18.760 --> 00:17:23.020 Now, you own it and you back off, that shows that you're somebody that's trustworthy. 357 00:17:24.200 --> 00:17:25.960 Right. So, I mean, that's a good sign. 358 00:17:27.060 --> 00:17:33.320 You know, if they keep coming, that's a jack sign, you know, get out, get out, run, run 359 00:17:33.320 --> 00:17:35.020 for the hills. Right. 360 00:17:36.880 --> 00:17:38.460 So you have one for tomorrow night. 361 00:17:39.320 --> 00:17:40.780 That's cool. Yeah. 362 00:17:40.780 --> 00:17:43.600 And this person, she just admitted that she said, you know what? 363 00:17:43.620 --> 00:17:47.500 It's been like she said, like, to be honest, it's been a couple of years since I've even 364 00:17:47.500 --> 00:17:49.720 had a video date. So she's like, I was just really excited. 365 00:17:50.340 --> 00:17:51.500 So I said, that's OK. 366 00:17:51.920 --> 00:17:53.100 Like, and that's fair. 367 00:17:54.180 --> 00:17:59.720 Right. I get super excited, you know, and I I have to say, Mike, chill, Mike, chill, 368 00:18:00.080 --> 00:18:05.180 Mike, chill, right, because I'm like, hello, you know, I got I got all this repressed 369 00:18:05.180 --> 00:18:06.820 energy from, you know, whatever. 370 00:18:07.080 --> 00:18:09.500 But yeah, well, and that's good that she knows. 371 00:18:09.520 --> 00:18:14.440 I mean, that's also like, you know, I'm just I'm just kind of that she knows herself and 372 00:18:14.440 --> 00:18:15.920 she expressed that. Right. 373 00:18:15.920 --> 00:18:20.060 You know, like self-awareness is a big deal. 374 00:18:20.380 --> 00:18:22.820 Right. And usually women are much more self-aware than we are. 375 00:18:23.020 --> 00:18:24.900 But like, you know, that's a good sign as well. 376 00:18:25.420 --> 00:18:27.500 Yeah. And I apologize for taking up all the time. 377 00:18:27.580 --> 00:18:31.740 I'm not trying to steal it all. The other thing she said, too, is that I actually didn't 378 00:18:31.740 --> 00:18:35.860 realize this person was in their 40s because when her picture I thought she was 25 and 379 00:18:35.860 --> 00:18:38.160 I was like, oh, they might be a bit young for me. 380 00:18:38.720 --> 00:18:41.500 Yeah. Their picture, they looked like 25. 381 00:18:41.580 --> 00:18:43.500 And then she said, oh, I'm 42. 382 00:18:43.540 --> 00:18:44.640 And I said, oh, thank goodness. 383 00:18:44.640 --> 00:18:47.160 And she laughed and she said, oh, I thought I was too old for you. 384 00:18:47.160 --> 00:18:49.940 And I was like, no, I thought you were like in your like early 20s. 385 00:18:49.940 --> 00:18:52.640 And I was like, well, I mean, you're really the day people in their 50s. 386 00:18:52.960 --> 00:18:54.020 So 42 is young. 387 00:18:54.180 --> 00:18:56.080 Right. I'm sorry. I just got to I got to play. 388 00:18:57.980 --> 00:18:59.180 Yeah, you're not wrong. 389 00:18:59.360 --> 00:19:01.040 Also, I love the mustache. 390 00:19:02.400 --> 00:19:03.340 Yeah. Oh, yeah. 391 00:19:04.900 --> 00:19:06.240 So but so. 392 00:19:06.260 --> 00:19:07.640 OK, so that's that's good stuff. 393 00:19:07.860 --> 00:19:09.520 Right. Sounds like a good point. 394 00:19:09.520 --> 00:19:14.500 I mean, just enjoy the ride, you know, and and proceed 395 00:19:14.500 --> 00:19:17.720 with honor and I mean, it sounds like you are you're doing a great job. 396 00:19:18.220 --> 00:19:21.020 Anybody else got anything that they that they're going through 397 00:19:21.020 --> 00:19:22.740 that they want to talk about or kind of 398 00:19:24.880 --> 00:19:27.820 Abram, that Abram shared a video with me. 399 00:19:27.820 --> 00:19:31.320 It's not really appropriate, but it did explain why women love horror. 400 00:19:31.400 --> 00:19:32.100 And it was pretty funny. 401 00:19:32.200 --> 00:19:33.960 But I just I got to give you that props. 402 00:19:34.040 --> 00:19:34.880 That was pretty funny, Abram. 403 00:19:35.380 --> 00:19:36.520 How are you doing? 404 00:19:41.900 --> 00:19:43.280 Oh. All right, maybe he's not around. 405 00:19:47.500 --> 00:19:48.420 Are you there, Abram? 406 00:19:51.380 --> 00:19:53.100 Where do we go? All right. 407 00:19:54.420 --> 00:19:59.980 So. So anybody else have anything before? 408 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:00.840 We jump into something. 409 00:20:02.680 --> 00:20:06.840 I'm curious, because you guys I signed up for that Facebook group. 410 00:20:08.800 --> 00:20:09.560 Which face. 411 00:20:10.320 --> 00:20:12.620 I think it's the messenger. 412 00:20:14.120 --> 00:20:16.680 The 1822 men's monthly group. 413 00:20:17.560 --> 00:20:19.480 Yeah, I think that was it. Yeah. 414 00:20:19.540 --> 00:20:21.140 You're not already in it. 415 00:20:21.260 --> 00:20:24.980 No, put me on the waitlist. I don't know if I got on there or not. 416 00:20:26.420 --> 00:20:28.080 Is anybody else in that group? 417 00:20:29.660 --> 00:20:34.980 Well, there's the 1822 challenge, but there's no, no, the monthly men's group. 418 00:20:35.040 --> 00:20:36.500 It's monthly men's group. 419 00:20:37.460 --> 00:20:38.340 1820 men's group. 420 00:20:38.340 --> 00:20:38.620 Yeah. 421 00:20:39.260 --> 00:20:44.320 Yeah. I think I put a thing in there and I said, your, your thing is, so you just, 422 00:20:44.400 --> 00:20:45.720 they just need to let you in. 423 00:20:45.720 --> 00:20:49.640 Okay. I guess that was, that was like, I think two times ago. 424 00:20:49.960 --> 00:20:51.120 I knew, I know. 425 00:20:51.960 --> 00:20:52.900 Who's the minister? 426 00:20:53.000 --> 00:20:55.720 I know Renee was going to chat with Jackie about that stuff. 427 00:20:55.720 --> 00:20:57.440 So hopefully she has that combo. 428 00:20:58.900 --> 00:21:00.020 That's cool. 429 00:21:00.040 --> 00:21:01.040 All right. 430 00:21:02.320 --> 00:21:08.620 Yeah, cause I, and I was added right away, so I just sent an email to the admin. 431 00:21:08.740 --> 00:21:09.520 Oh, you sent an email. 432 00:21:10.020 --> 00:21:14.460 Okay. I just went, I went on the group admin at Jackie doorman.com. 433 00:21:14.460 --> 00:21:15.020 Yeah. 434 00:21:15.020 --> 00:21:22.040 And when I wrote the admin, I said, Hey, can I get added to the Facebook chat 435 00:21:22.040 --> 00:21:27.420 group and the private paid, the paid men's group that I was added within like 436 00:21:27.420 --> 00:21:28.160 an hour. 437 00:21:28.920 --> 00:21:29.960 Yeah. Yeah. 438 00:21:29.960 --> 00:21:32.340 So the admins are usually who get, who get her done. 439 00:21:32.660 --> 00:21:33.180 Right. 440 00:21:34.660 --> 00:21:35.180 Yeah. 441 00:21:35.460 --> 00:21:35.980 All right. 442 00:21:36.740 --> 00:21:37.980 And it's called what? 443 00:21:38.060 --> 00:21:39.000 The monthly group? 444 00:21:39.460 --> 00:21:40.980 1822 men's monthly group. 445 00:21:41.120 --> 00:21:41.640 Yeah. 446 00:21:42.520 --> 00:21:43.040 1822. 447 00:21:44.200 --> 00:21:44.540 Okay. 448 00:21:45.600 --> 00:21:46.260 All right. 449 00:21:48.720 --> 00:21:52.400 Um, so we got, so Abram, you're back on. 450 00:21:52.440 --> 00:21:53.540 Can we hear you yet? 451 00:21:53.540 --> 00:21:54.600 Can you hear me now? 452 00:21:54.800 --> 00:21:55.320 Hello? 453 00:21:55.320 --> 00:21:55.720 Hello. 454 00:21:55.820 --> 00:21:56.420 Can you hear me? 455 00:21:56.420 --> 00:21:57.160 There you go, dude. 456 00:21:57.760 --> 00:21:58.580 What's up, bro? 457 00:21:58.880 --> 00:21:59.360 Good to see you. 458 00:21:59.680 --> 00:21:59.880 What's up, dude. 459 00:22:00.380 --> 00:22:02.600 I'm over here having to restart stuff. 460 00:22:03.080 --> 00:22:03.420 Yeah. 461 00:22:04.960 --> 00:22:06.700 I've had to do that today too. 462 00:22:06.820 --> 00:22:11.580 I came up with a new setup to like really help out and it just bombed. 463 00:22:11.700 --> 00:22:14.000 I'm like, okay, well, we'll go back to old school. 464 00:22:14.760 --> 00:22:16.400 But, uh, so how are you? 465 00:22:17.240 --> 00:22:18.280 I'm doing good. 466 00:22:19.020 --> 00:22:22.600 I'm kind of slow on the restaurant biz right now for the next week or two. 467 00:22:22.700 --> 00:22:26.060 And then the last quarter is always crazy, crazy. 468 00:22:26.060 --> 00:22:30.040 Cause you know, holidays and everyone prefers to eat a bunch of hot food, 469 00:22:30.040 --> 00:22:33.640 a hot food when it's cold outside, you know, compared to when it's like 470 00:22:33.640 --> 00:22:38.340 over here in Fresno, it's like 110, 100 degrees, 98 for months and months. 471 00:22:38.420 --> 00:22:41.340 You know, it's kind of harder to people want to eat a bunch of hot food. 472 00:22:41.440 --> 00:22:43.140 So yeah, they'd be a busy times are coming. 473 00:22:43.740 --> 00:22:44.780 So looking forward to it. 474 00:22:45.600 --> 00:22:47.100 Um, what about your pizza biz? 475 00:22:47.120 --> 00:22:48.380 Is there anything new on that? 476 00:22:49.180 --> 00:22:50.420 I'm just saving my money. 477 00:22:50.700 --> 00:22:54.900 Um, I'm trying to figure out some ways to, you know, monetize it. 478 00:22:55.420 --> 00:22:55.680 Yeah. 479 00:22:55.920 --> 00:22:57.960 Kind of like, uh, get a bag of gold coins. 480 00:22:58.280 --> 00:23:05.380 You could say, um, I'm considering doing like a Heelock and it's kind of squirming 481 00:23:05.380 --> 00:23:10.740 a little bit cause I have a bunch of equity and I can't sell my house cause I'm at 3%. 482 00:23:10.740 --> 00:23:14.160 And you know, my children probably won't see that percentage rate. 483 00:23:14.720 --> 00:23:19.300 So I feel like, uh, you know, I can't really sell unless I could pay 484 00:23:19.300 --> 00:23:21.380 something else off and then be okay. 485 00:23:21.380 --> 00:23:26.100 So I'm kind of happily content, but I have all this equity. 486 00:23:26.300 --> 00:23:27.260 I should do something with it. 487 00:23:27.500 --> 00:23:33.360 So yeah, that's kind of my, uh, maybe a solution because I need, I need about 30 488 00:23:33.480 --> 00:23:33.880 G's. 489 00:23:35.500 --> 00:23:38.960 Um, yeah, that's how my mom started her, her trailer. 490 00:23:39.040 --> 00:23:39.880 She bought it. 491 00:23:40.160 --> 00:23:42.180 I mean, she needed, she needed a hundred G's. 492 00:23:43.560 --> 00:23:43.960 Yeah. 493 00:23:44.060 --> 00:23:47.820 So mine's a kind of basic and, you know, and just, I just need to, I'm kind of 494 00:23:47.820 --> 00:23:49.320 looking at like a, like a farmer would. 495 00:23:50.080 --> 00:23:52.000 You know, I don't need to buy a new tractor. 496 00:23:52.200 --> 00:23:57.960 I need to buy an old tractor that's reliable and start farming and start 497 00:23:57.960 --> 00:24:01.980 making some money and then you could upgrade as you go, you know, you don't 498 00:24:02.460 --> 00:24:08.660 buy this massive brand new pizza oven, you know, so any who that's kind of my 499 00:24:08.660 --> 00:24:09.140 thing. 500 00:24:10.860 --> 00:24:12.960 Um, you know, I'm not trying to get political, but I've been 501 00:24:12.960 --> 00:24:14.340 processing the Charlie Kirk thing. 502 00:24:15.400 --> 00:24:18.440 Um, a lot of reflection on that. 503 00:24:18.440 --> 00:24:20.820 You guys probably know, you know, I'm a little bit more involved in that 504 00:24:20.820 --> 00:24:26.280 stuff just cause I'm bored and sometimes my tribalism takes over and, you know, 505 00:24:26.280 --> 00:24:28.760 I'm waiting for the, you know, the next crusades kind of a deal. 506 00:24:30.020 --> 00:24:31.300 So, um, you know, 507 00:24:31.600 --> 00:24:32.940 but how are you doing with that? 508 00:24:33.140 --> 00:24:34.120 I know it wrecked me. 509 00:24:34.060 --> 00:24:35.680 So, um, 510 00:24:36.640 --> 00:24:40.220 well, you know, I've kind of, I'm 40 now and I've been, I've been paying 511 00:24:40.220 --> 00:24:41.620 attention for probably like 10 years. 512 00:24:41.720 --> 00:24:42.940 Sounds like 30. 513 00:24:44.400 --> 00:24:52.440 There's a lot of, there's a lot of stupid bullshit, but, um, it's just wild 514 00:24:52.440 --> 00:24:57.020 to me, like the, like people are, um, people have lost their moral compasses. 515 00:24:57.060 --> 00:24:59.300 I'm trying to just justify any of this stuff. 516 00:24:59.340 --> 00:24:59.980 That's just kind of a. 517 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:06.940 I think everybody in here is like, that's like, you guys are just, you know, so that's 518 00:25:07.280 --> 00:25:14.220 very sad to see, um, you know, when we're supposed to pray for those people, you know? 519 00:25:15.020 --> 00:25:15.340 Yeah. 520 00:25:16.420 --> 00:25:22.940 Um, but, uh, also me, I'm, you know, I get a little, I get a little bit more angry about 521 00:25:22.940 --> 00:25:26.340 things, you know, and I'm a big justice guy. 522 00:25:27.340 --> 00:25:27.820 Yeah. 523 00:25:27.820 --> 00:25:33.240 Um, like, um, like if me and you were coworkers, you know, I would do everything in my power 524 00:25:34.200 --> 00:25:38.420 to keep things fair, you know, and if like I, if I offended you or something or something 525 00:25:38.420 --> 00:25:43.100 wasn't fair, I felt like you got irked a little bit, you know, pull you to the side, 526 00:25:43.280 --> 00:25:47.060 have a conversation, iron it out, you know, get along, make things right. 527 00:25:48.840 --> 00:25:50.500 Um, nothing's going to make this right. 528 00:25:51.000 --> 00:25:52.560 So there's really no justice. 529 00:25:52.560 --> 00:25:58.840 But, um, it's funny how people like deflect to gun control, um, you know, he, he, he got 530 00:25:58.840 --> 00:25:59.720 a victim blaming. 531 00:26:00.200 --> 00:26:05.320 Um, I mean, this is like, this is just, to me, it's just, it's insanity. 532 00:26:05.500 --> 00:26:05.740 It's insanity. 533 00:26:05.740 --> 00:26:07.280 It's, it's kind of low IQ stuff. 534 00:26:07.340 --> 00:26:07.800 I get it. 535 00:26:07.820 --> 00:26:12.180 Like just, this is not a gun control issue at the time. 536 00:26:14.240 --> 00:26:18.600 Um, and, uh, the victim blaming thing, like he had it come and that's like saying a girl 537 00:26:18.600 --> 00:26:23.160 walking out with a short skirt, you know, uh, deserve to get raped. 538 00:26:23.300 --> 00:26:24.400 I mean, give me a break here. 539 00:26:25.080 --> 00:26:26.040 So I don't know. 540 00:26:26.060 --> 00:26:31.720 It's a little frustrating, but, um, I felt like what happened to Charlie Kirk was no 541 00:26:31.720 --> 00:26:32.980 different than Dr. King. 542 00:26:34.100 --> 00:26:34.460 Exactly. 543 00:26:34.500 --> 00:26:38.120 I mean, they're, I mean, they're all killing these people cause they don't like what they 544 00:26:38.120 --> 00:26:38.940 say in the country. 545 00:26:38.940 --> 00:26:40.480 Our country's founded on that stuff. 546 00:26:41.100 --> 00:26:41.580 Yeah. 547 00:26:41.580 --> 00:26:44.020 And it's not the first time to this happened. 548 00:26:44.020 --> 00:26:49.320 Look at the twenties with, with the cute, the Ku Klux Klan was at its prime. 549 00:26:49.300 --> 00:26:54.420 And, and I'm looking at the transgender and LGBTQ, they're no different. 550 00:26:54.420 --> 00:26:55.700 They're basically the same. 551 00:26:55.760 --> 00:26:58.060 The only thing that's different is public acceptance. 552 00:26:59.240 --> 00:26:59.760 Yeah. 553 00:26:59.960 --> 00:27:03.280 What's crazy is like, I thought, um, you know, I've been listening to a few things. 554 00:27:03.620 --> 00:27:09.400 So, you know, if, if I, if we all were convinced, right, that Charlie Kirk was a super bad guy, 555 00:27:09.400 --> 00:27:17.900 let's just pretend K. Well, one of us shooting that guy, you know, that would be a good thing. 556 00:27:19.140 --> 00:27:19.540 Right. 557 00:27:19.540 --> 00:27:20.080 In our eyes. 558 00:27:20.140 --> 00:27:20.420 Right. 559 00:27:20.420 --> 00:27:25.420 You know, like if we could somehow take out, you know, the Hitler before whatever, or the 560 00:27:25.420 --> 00:27:30.900 Mao of China or, you know, Genghis Khan guys, whatever, you know, these, you know, right. 561 00:27:31.280 --> 00:27:31.440 Bolsheviks. 562 00:27:31.600 --> 00:27:35.540 I mean, if we could stop this stuff, technically we'd be kind of like heroes. 563 00:27:35.540 --> 00:27:43.740 So if you give, if you radicalize enough people to convince them that Charlie Kirk was like 564 00:27:43.740 --> 00:27:51.400 some radical guy, which really, to be honest, he was like the Christian conservative starter 565 00:27:51.400 --> 00:27:51.760 kit. 566 00:27:53.520 --> 00:27:53.760 Yeah. 567 00:27:53.760 --> 00:27:55.460 He was nice, dude. 568 00:27:55.460 --> 00:27:56.560 He was not extreme. 569 00:27:56.560 --> 00:28:05.980 And his views were very palatable, very even keel, super, super like tolerant. 570 00:28:06.480 --> 00:28:12.500 He had so much tolerance, so much grace for all his people that, you know, he had to argue 571 00:28:12.500 --> 00:28:14.080 with and coming at him constantly. 572 00:28:14.580 --> 00:28:17.000 Dude, that guy is nothing if you ask me. 573 00:28:17.020 --> 00:28:18.020 And they took him out. 574 00:28:18.280 --> 00:28:24.240 I say everybody just needs to be like the Pope, glass up, get a microphone, don't even 575 00:28:24.240 --> 00:28:27.500 give anyone a chance, you know, because security is not cutting it now. 576 00:28:27.700 --> 00:28:29.480 The local police are not cutting it. 577 00:28:30.360 --> 00:28:34.520 People don't have the money to have, you know, little drones flying around while they're 578 00:28:34.520 --> 00:28:41.100 talking to people constantly, you know, hire ex snipers like just glass up, you know, get 579 00:28:41.100 --> 00:28:43.960 the glass in front of you, sit in your box, be safe. 580 00:28:44.400 --> 00:28:46.180 No more chances with these psychos. 581 00:28:47.260 --> 00:28:48.620 Let's look at that. 582 00:28:48.620 --> 00:28:52.660 So because that was something where because I've thought because I'm always out in the 583 00:28:53.860 --> 00:28:55.700 in arms way, per se. 584 00:28:56.100 --> 00:28:56.580 Right. 585 00:28:56.580 --> 00:28:58.300 And so it kind of rattled me. 586 00:28:59.020 --> 00:29:01.180 But you know, I just come to the fact is God is my defender. 587 00:29:02.220 --> 00:29:02.700 Right. 588 00:29:02.700 --> 00:29:05.900 Like, you know, and I mean, and like a martyr, that's redemption. 589 00:29:06.120 --> 00:29:14.120 And so and that was kind of what I, you know, you guys like, like, God is our defender. 590 00:29:14.180 --> 00:29:14.800 He's our covering. 591 00:29:14.800 --> 00:29:20.760 I mean, if he tells you not to do something, you darn well better not to do it. 592 00:29:20.800 --> 00:29:21.040 Right. 593 00:29:21.040 --> 00:29:25.540 But like, you know, people because I'm called to Eastern Europe and I'm planning on going 594 00:29:25.540 --> 00:29:26.020 to Ukraine. 595 00:29:26.820 --> 00:29:27.380 Right. 596 00:29:27.380 --> 00:29:30.820 And like, that's not a that's not a cupcake place. 597 00:29:30.820 --> 00:29:31.360 Right. 598 00:29:31.400 --> 00:29:36.840 But I know that if I'm in God's under God's covering, I'm covered. 599 00:29:37.500 --> 00:29:42.080 And whether I'm, you know, really, it's absent from the body present with the Lord. 600 00:29:42.080 --> 00:29:45.720 Not that I'm planning on doing anything stupid and getting killed, because I plan on being 601 00:29:45.720 --> 00:29:46.760 around for a long time. 602 00:29:47.440 --> 00:29:54.460 But like, in our core, it's like, Jesus is our foundation. 603 00:29:54.920 --> 00:29:55.320 Right. 604 00:29:55.320 --> 00:29:56.180 He is our protector. 605 00:29:56.680 --> 00:29:58.880 Like, you know, that's it. 606 00:29:59.100 --> 00:29:59.980 I don't need a God. 607 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:06.160 any other covering, right? I don't need to be afraid of some guy with a hunting rifle 608 00:30:06.160 --> 00:30:11.580 at 200 yards, right? Or however many yards, right? I mean, like, because Charlie's with 609 00:30:11.580 --> 00:30:17.960 the Lord. I mean, now, I mean, it's brutal, right? But like, but really, Jesus is our 610 00:30:17.960 --> 00:30:22.540 refuge. He's our strength. And heaven is our home. Right? So like, yeah, he was fearless. 611 00:30:23.720 --> 00:30:28.320 Well, and we all knew he was definitely fearless. And we should all be too. Yeah. 612 00:30:28.320 --> 00:30:31.040 No, I guess I guess that's kind of what was my thing is like, 613 00:30:32.280 --> 00:30:35.940 what you can't, I think Bill Johnson says, you can't threaten me with heaven. 614 00:30:37.680 --> 00:30:44.340 Right? You know, you can't threaten me with heaven. And like, you guys, we don't we're not 615 00:30:44.340 --> 00:30:49.760 given a spirit of fear. Right. And so I just wanted to encourage you guys, like, you know, 616 00:30:49.760 --> 00:30:58.440 um, don't, don't let something like this intimidate you take away who you are, be who 617 00:30:58.440 --> 00:31:04.320 you are, you're covered, you're covered by Jesus, right? Now, I guess you can be really, I mean, 618 00:31:04.460 --> 00:31:12.920 be smart. There's wisdom, right? You know, like, but in all you know, so I don't know, 619 00:31:12.920 --> 00:31:18.400 what do you got? How are you guys with Jesus? Like, you know, for me, it's like, you know, I, 620 00:31:19.400 --> 00:31:23.520 I know he's got me regardless of what it where I walk in. I mean, you could walk down 621 00:31:23.660 --> 00:31:29.340 the street and get hit by a truck and die. Right? Right. You know, but like, 622 00:31:29.640 --> 00:31:33.520 so what do you guys how does how does that make you feel? Where you guys stand on that? 623 00:31:36.060 --> 00:31:43.600 Well, about the Charlie Kirk are about that. We don't have to be afraid because Jesus is our 624 00:31:44.400 --> 00:31:52.360 and he's our defender. I will say this. We're praying to God to protect us, but someone dies 625 00:31:52.220 --> 00:32:00.140 anyways. Well, there is a saying in terms of safety and protection. And prayer isn't a religious 626 00:32:00.360 --> 00:32:06.660 insurance policy, a bulletproof vest, a bunker or get out of jail free card. The people who 627 00:32:06.660 --> 00:32:12.460 believe that thinks that God must halt the machinations of his natural law at our convenience 628 00:32:12.460 --> 00:32:17.280 every time we wind up in trouble. I mean, I mean, he didn't halt the natural law went 629 00:32:17.800 --> 00:32:22.300 when the nail will pierce the hand and the hammer when the hammer will appear 630 00:32:22.860 --> 00:32:28.140 would hit the hand or foot or John the belay to cleave the head of John the Baptist. 631 00:32:29.180 --> 00:32:36.040 During 9-11 or COVID, the very ones before that, in time of peace, think the business of God, 632 00:32:36.100 --> 00:32:40.380 worship thinking the business of God is to ensure prosperity in American dream. 633 00:32:40.380 --> 00:32:47.640 Out of everyone through adversity, through 9-11 or COVID or the recession leave because they think 634 00:32:47.640 --> 00:32:53.500 the business of God should have been to grant immunity from harm and hardships. So that can be 635 00:32:53.380 --> 00:33:00.460 nothing. So Jesus says in this world, you'll have trials. You have, I know, right? And so, I mean, 636 00:33:00.480 --> 00:33:08.180 so there's, but do you guys feel, I mean, do you guys feel to me, I'm like, you know, I'm not going 637 00:33:08.180 --> 00:33:13.160 to change who I am or what I do. I'm going to be, I'm going to preach the gospel. I'm going to bring 638 00:33:13.260 --> 00:33:19.840 the kingdom regardless of, of what, because, you know, if I end up being in the same place as Charlie 639 00:33:19.840 --> 00:33:26.020 Kirk, great. I'm with Jesus, right? I don't know. I guess I just want to take out the, like, the fear 640 00:33:26.020 --> 00:33:37.220 from this whole thing. It's like, God's got us and whether it's either here or it's in heaven. Does 641 00:33:37.220 --> 00:33:41.340 the martyrs, as I was going to say, the martyrs of old face. 642 00:33:43.180 --> 00:33:50.020 No, there's Fox's book of martyrs. It's a brutal book. Yeah. Yeah. Yes. I know that 643 00:33:51.280 --> 00:33:56.620 they, they, they expressed, they prayed like for deliverance, like the savior and the garden. It's 644 00:33:56.440 --> 00:34:02.580 just, it's just, they wouldn't take it at the cost of faith. I'm saying is when we pray for, 645 00:34:02.580 --> 00:34:07.700 don't get me wrong. It's good to pray for safety and others, but I'm just saying, 646 00:34:07.740 --> 00:34:13.400 we shouldn't think of prayer in terms of asking to suspend his natural law or convenience, 647 00:34:13.920 --> 00:34:20.920 or as I said, a religious hocus pocus safety device. No. And that's, and that's true. Like, 648 00:34:20.920 --> 00:34:27.199 you know, we, we don't, don't not pray, but you know, like the trust that Jesus has the plan. 649 00:34:27.540 --> 00:34:29.179 David, you had your hand raised. What did you want to say? 650 00:34:29.820 --> 00:34:34.780 Yeah. So you were talking about like trusting the Lord and Hunter, I think he raised a lot 651 00:34:34.780 --> 00:34:40.820 of great points there about martyrs. And I have a friend, she was recently murdered in Ghana 652 00:34:41.159 --> 00:34:49.100 and she was four foot eight. And she said, I'm not afraid for the gospel. And she worked in 653 00:34:49.620 --> 00:34:55.179 autism research. And what was happening in West Africa was there was about hundreds of millions 654 00:34:55.179 --> 00:34:59.980 of dollars being sent for disability services and autism research in Africa. 655 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:03.680 that was not being used to help people. 656 00:35:03.860 --> 00:35:05.540 And so she created a private firm 657 00:35:05.640 --> 00:35:07.480 that made sure that those funds 658 00:35:07.480 --> 00:35:09.260 were actually getting to the agencies, 659 00:35:09.920 --> 00:35:11.480 but she created a lot of enemies. 660 00:35:13.000 --> 00:35:14.460 And in seven years, 661 00:35:15.540 --> 00:35:19.980 she reallocated over 500 million USD to all these agencies. 662 00:35:20.000 --> 00:35:22.020 And they were doing incredible things. 663 00:35:22.160 --> 00:35:23.940 And she would call me and say, 664 00:35:24.000 --> 00:35:26.340 David, this is everything the Lord says that will be done 665 00:35:26.400 --> 00:35:27.860 is now being done. 666 00:35:27.860 --> 00:35:31.320 And, but she was never afraid. 667 00:35:31.440 --> 00:35:32.840 And I said, you should have a bodyguard. 668 00:35:33.040 --> 00:35:34.400 And she said, no, Jesus is my bodyguard. 669 00:35:34.980 --> 00:35:36.740 And there was all these threats on our life. 670 00:35:36.880 --> 00:35:39.020 And her and her husband used to pray every day 671 00:35:39.020 --> 00:35:40.380 for a godly partner for me. 672 00:35:40.980 --> 00:35:42.180 And she's African. 673 00:35:42.300 --> 00:35:43.260 So she said, Lord, I pray 674 00:35:43.260 --> 00:35:45.240 that he would choose a black girl like me. 675 00:35:45.300 --> 00:35:46.240 That was always her prayer. 676 00:35:49.400 --> 00:35:52.160 And I actually told her about this course 677 00:35:52.160 --> 00:35:53.720 and she was so excited. 678 00:35:53.780 --> 00:35:56.280 And she said, finally, Lord, David's humbling himself 679 00:35:56.280 --> 00:35:59.040 to actually learn what he needs to do. 680 00:36:00.060 --> 00:36:03.660 And, and yeah, so she got murdered three weeks ago 681 00:36:04.940 --> 00:36:08.040 and we know it was foul play because of her job. 682 00:36:09.520 --> 00:36:11.860 And yeah, and so I struggled with that. 683 00:36:12.000 --> 00:36:13.840 I'm like, she was just not afraid. 684 00:36:13.880 --> 00:36:16.180 And she said, if it's my time to go, it's my time to go. 685 00:36:16.220 --> 00:36:17.240 And she had four kids. 686 00:36:19.140 --> 00:36:19.540 Yeah. 687 00:36:20.300 --> 00:36:24.760 No, I mean, you really have to do what he tells you to do. 688 00:36:24.760 --> 00:36:27.700 But she's got four kids, but she made a, 689 00:36:28.540 --> 00:36:29.840 this is kind of what I wanted, 690 00:36:30.120 --> 00:36:31.860 why one of the reasons I wanted to talk about this, 691 00:36:32.460 --> 00:36:36.040 the impact Charlie Kirk had, the impact she had, right? 692 00:36:36.040 --> 00:36:39.000 Even though she was murdered and it was a shorter time, 693 00:36:40.120 --> 00:36:42.940 like they lived, she lived a life of impact, right? 694 00:36:44.480 --> 00:36:47.620 Like, what, like, you know, I don't know about you, 695 00:36:47.700 --> 00:36:48.180 but at the end of the day, 696 00:36:48.180 --> 00:36:51.720 I want my life to count for something, right? 697 00:36:51.720 --> 00:36:54.460 You know, and so I'm like, 698 00:36:54.460 --> 00:36:57.440 how do we live lives of impact, right? 699 00:36:57.900 --> 00:37:02.900 You know, so, no, and I'm sorry that you lost a friend. 700 00:37:03.020 --> 00:37:05.320 That's, that's terrible, right? 701 00:37:06.260 --> 00:37:09.960 That's, that's really hard, but you know, 702 00:37:11.160 --> 00:37:13.440 and like, you know, you guys, 703 00:37:14.220 --> 00:37:16.640 I end up in the craziest places 704 00:37:16.640 --> 00:37:19.000 just because I'm following Jesus, right? 705 00:37:19.000 --> 00:37:21.740 You know, and I don't, it's not something that's like, 706 00:37:23.000 --> 00:37:25.740 I don't even, I'm like, it's just him and me, right? 707 00:37:25.840 --> 00:37:27.540 Like, I was like, you know, 708 00:37:28.100 --> 00:37:33.820 but like, I want to go out with my boots on, right? 709 00:37:33.820 --> 00:37:34.800 You know, I don't know about you guys, 710 00:37:34.920 --> 00:37:38.060 but I want to live a life that when I look back at it, 711 00:37:38.360 --> 00:37:40.560 I go, man, I don't have any regrets. 712 00:37:40.680 --> 00:37:42.820 I mean, I have, obviously, I want to, 713 00:37:43.160 --> 00:37:44.920 from now forward, I prefer to have, 714 00:37:45.300 --> 00:37:47.460 live a life of no regrets, right? 715 00:37:47.460 --> 00:37:49.480 You know, like, I took the shots. 716 00:37:50.540 --> 00:37:52.480 I, you know, I swung and missed, or I didn't, 717 00:37:52.700 --> 00:37:55.660 but at least I, but at least I played the game, right? 718 00:37:55.800 --> 00:37:59.320 And I think too often as men, we're passive, right? 719 00:37:59.320 --> 00:38:00.800 We're waiting for things to happen. 720 00:38:00.920 --> 00:38:03.100 And that's actually really unattractive, 721 00:38:03.200 --> 00:38:03.940 by the way, for women. 722 00:38:04.820 --> 00:38:07.740 You know, you want to be unattractive, be a passive dude, 723 00:38:07.860 --> 00:38:09.700 because they want somebody who's, 724 00:38:09.920 --> 00:38:11.980 who are strong and they're leaders, right? 725 00:38:11.980 --> 00:38:14.840 Not domineers, but leaders, right? 726 00:38:14.840 --> 00:38:20.540 And so, but yeah, no, thank you for sharing, David, 727 00:38:20.660 --> 00:38:23.400 because, oh, Tim, you want to chime in? 728 00:38:28.420 --> 00:38:32.400 I see your hands raised, or is it, or did I miss it? 729 00:38:34.320 --> 00:38:34.920 No, no, it's not. 730 00:38:38.040 --> 00:38:43.560 Before you, that it's not necessarily, 731 00:38:43.560 --> 00:38:46.540 I think myself, a lot of us, we usually think that, 732 00:38:47.020 --> 00:38:49.300 that it's, you know, living to 80 or 90 733 00:38:49.780 --> 00:38:51.420 and making a difference, but you're right, 734 00:38:51.440 --> 00:38:54.160 like Charlie Kirk or, you know, the friend in Africa, 735 00:38:54.420 --> 00:38:57.060 you know, they lived, what, 20, 30, 40 years, 736 00:38:57.820 --> 00:39:03.980 and at 31, Kirk made more impact than I might at 91. 737 00:39:04.300 --> 00:39:07.100 And so that's a good perspective that you're bringing there, 738 00:39:07.100 --> 00:39:09.400 Mike, that it's not always the number of our years, 739 00:39:09.440 --> 00:39:11.960 but hey, let's, whatever years God gives us, 740 00:39:12.520 --> 00:39:13.420 or let's make. 741 00:39:14.640 --> 00:39:16.140 Make the most of them, right? 742 00:39:18.040 --> 00:39:19.940 You guys, I had a friend, 743 00:39:21.940 --> 00:39:23.520 makes me, I'm gonna make me cry. 744 00:39:24.800 --> 00:39:27.860 One of my best friends, they found out, 745 00:39:28.080 --> 00:39:28.820 they were, they got pregnant, 746 00:39:28.920 --> 00:39:31.080 and we were super excited, right? 747 00:39:33.920 --> 00:39:37.600 And then they found out that the baby 748 00:39:37.600 --> 00:39:40.440 had been formed without a skull in the womb. 749 00:39:41.960 --> 00:39:45.160 And the doctors were like, 750 00:39:47.200 --> 00:39:50.180 hey, you need to abort this baby, it'll never survive, 751 00:39:50.560 --> 00:39:54.340 right, and I stood beside him for months, 752 00:39:54.400 --> 00:39:55.720 and we prayed, and we prayed, 753 00:39:56.260 --> 00:39:58.800 and we prayed that that skull would come into contact 754 00:39:58.800 --> 00:39:59.980 and that everything would. 755 00:40:01.820 --> 00:40:04.220 work out and like they'd be blessed. 756 00:40:05.040 --> 00:40:06.200 And she lived 45 minutes. 757 00:40:11.040 --> 00:40:14.560 But that 45 minutes of her life united a whole church. 758 00:40:15.760 --> 00:40:20.640 Because the whole church came around them and loved on them and six or seven hundred 759 00:40:20.860 --> 00:40:22.380 people were united. 760 00:40:22.480 --> 00:40:28.480 So she lived for 45 minutes but had an impact far beyond most people have in a whole lifetime. 761 00:40:33.500 --> 00:40:42.880 We were wrecked, but we don't always know the impact that we'll have. 762 00:40:43.840 --> 00:40:47.800 And so yeah, live a life well. 763 00:40:48.540 --> 00:40:48.860 I know. 764 00:40:49.160 --> 00:40:55.000 Another thing is when I think about Dr. King and comparing to Charlie Kirk, it kind of 765 00:40:55.360 --> 00:40:58.720 how their death had an impact on bringing people together. 766 00:40:59.360 --> 00:41:05.460 And it's kind of like what our blessed Lord said, and thus a seed falls into the ground 767 00:41:05.460 --> 00:41:07.420 and dies, it cannot grow. 768 00:41:07.980 --> 00:41:10.900 And so it must die in order for it to bear more fruit. 769 00:41:11.840 --> 00:41:18.440 And you know, it was interesting because I was at work and the minute I saw that Charlie 770 00:41:19.920 --> 00:41:21.920 Kirk passed, I had this vision. 771 00:41:22.860 --> 00:41:29.460 And it was a vision of like millions of seeds just exploding all over the world, all over 772 00:41:29.480 --> 00:41:29.980 the earth. 773 00:41:32.420 --> 00:41:42.660 And as his blood went in the ground, and I was like, oh my gosh, like his death was terrible. 774 00:41:42.760 --> 00:41:46.860 But like, you know, Satan got Jesus on the cross and he thought he won, right? 775 00:41:47.340 --> 00:41:50.040 You know, Satan thought he, you know, he's like, I won, I killed him, right? 776 00:41:50.040 --> 00:41:54.800 But then it ended up flipping and, you know, and I just feel like this Charlie Kirk thing 777 00:41:54.820 --> 00:41:58.040 is going to be a mass. 778 00:42:00.000 --> 00:42:03.520 So that was the vision I had, I had literally had a vision of seeds. 779 00:42:03.660 --> 00:42:09.300 And then when I heard his wife speak, I don't know if you know who Elizabeth Elliott is, 780 00:42:09.980 --> 00:42:13.920 but I was like, oh, this is a modern day Elizabeth Elliott. 781 00:42:16.040 --> 00:42:20.140 So, you know, like some people are made for such a time as this. 782 00:42:21.120 --> 00:42:25.000 You know, I don't want, there's so much stuff that has happened to me in my life. 783 00:42:25.380 --> 00:42:30.100 I wouldn't have wanted any of it, but I'm going to use it for his glory, right? 784 00:42:30.100 --> 00:42:35.540 And like in your guys's lives, you know, you know, like people share testimonies and they 785 00:42:35.540 --> 00:42:37.940 overcame them by the blood of the lamb and the power of their testimony. 786 00:42:38.420 --> 00:42:41.860 Well, you don't get testimonies unless you get a test, you go through tests, right? 787 00:42:41.860 --> 00:42:46.680 And I got plenty of stuff that I never wanted, plenty of tests that I never wanted to go 788 00:42:46.580 --> 00:42:53.640 through, but I could, I'm using those, you know, taking God's redemption of what's happened 789 00:42:53.680 --> 00:42:57.040 to me, using it for his glory, right? 790 00:42:57.040 --> 00:43:01.520 And I think in all your lives, whatever the enemy, you know, whatever the, you know, he, 791 00:43:01.560 --> 00:43:06.260 the Lord turns, Romans 8, 28, God works all things out for those who love him are called 792 00:43:06.260 --> 00:43:07.540 according to his purpose. 793 00:43:07.700 --> 00:43:10.120 He takes everything and he turns it for good, right? 794 00:43:10.120 --> 00:43:16.480 Well, that's if you give it to him to redeem, you know, you go, Jesus, here is, here's my 795 00:43:16.480 --> 00:43:16.820 hurts. 796 00:43:17.140 --> 00:43:17.980 Would you redeem them? 797 00:43:18.140 --> 00:43:18.940 Would you restore them? 798 00:43:19.020 --> 00:43:22.880 And then one day you're at a store, somebody comes in and you're like, yeah, this happened 799 00:43:22.880 --> 00:43:23.260 to me. 800 00:43:23.900 --> 00:43:25.780 And this is what Jesus did. 801 00:43:25.820 --> 00:43:29.500 And then they're delivered because you shared your testimony, right? 802 00:43:29.500 --> 00:43:34.920 And I just encourage you always, always be ready to share a testimony of what God has 803 00:43:34.920 --> 00:43:38.340 done in your life, because you never know the impact you'll have on other people. 804 00:43:38.900 --> 00:43:42.880 Charlie Kirk, really all he did was just love people, right? 805 00:43:43.080 --> 00:43:47.020 I mean, like, you know, and have conversations, right? 806 00:43:47.040 --> 00:43:53.040 And that was his, that was his, and he used his life, used his life and what God had done 807 00:43:53.040 --> 00:43:55.640 in his life to impact others. 808 00:43:55.680 --> 00:43:57.860 And each one of you guys has testimonies. 809 00:43:57.880 --> 00:43:58.580 You have story. 810 00:43:58.960 --> 00:44:03.920 You have things that Jesus wants to use to impact your world. 811 00:44:04.680 --> 00:44:09.400 You know, you guys are all positioned exactly where you're at, because, you know, Ephesians 812 00:44:09.400 --> 00:44:15.280 2, 10, for you are God's masterpiece, created anew in Christ Jesus to do the good things 813 00:44:15.280 --> 00:44:16.620 he planned for you guys long ago. 814 00:44:16.880 --> 00:44:20.260 He planned where you're going to live, where you're going to be, who your parents were, 815 00:44:20.500 --> 00:44:22.620 all because he needed you where you're going to be at. 816 00:44:22.960 --> 00:44:25.340 So you guys are all positioned with a purpose. 817 00:44:25.760 --> 00:44:31.820 And I just want to encourage you guys, like, you know, you're made for such a time as this. 818 00:44:32.500 --> 00:44:35.820 So, I don't know, let's check, make sure there's no... 819 00:44:43.320 --> 00:44:48.740 I always find it interesting how, like, biblically throughout the Bible, names, different names 820 00:44:48.740 --> 00:44:50.520 mean different things and everything else. 821 00:44:51.500 --> 00:44:56.620 And God's outside of time and that his whole ministry was called turning point, in which 822 00:44:56.620 --> 00:44:58.740 now we're seeing it is a turning point. 823 00:44:58.780 --> 00:44:59.980 You're starting to see rallies. 824 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:07.920 and in like South Korea and in the UK and everything else it's kind of like you know 825 00:45:08.220 --> 00:45:12.520 guys all oh I'm going to use you and we're going to call this turning point and then this is going 826 00:45:12.520 --> 00:45:16.680 to happen and it's going to be the turning point where we're like no we're sorry no more we're done 827 00:45:17.000 --> 00:45:23.000 you know you guys aren't going to act like fools and we're just going to sit there I mean not that 828 00:45:23.000 --> 00:45:28.720 we're going to do anything but just hold people accountable you know to just basic things the 829 00:45:28.720 --> 00:45:33.380 the whole thing that gets me sometimes like Trump shouldn't have had a sign of order that you don't 830 00:45:33.380 --> 00:45:37.600 burn the flag because we all know you don't burn things in public period you don't burn trash you 831 00:45:37.600 --> 00:45:43.320 don't burn tires you know you don't steal you don't push people you just basic laws are not 832 00:45:43.320 --> 00:45:49.920 being upheld and it's oh it's because and you know and if someone says that oh like this is 833 00:45:49.920 --> 00:45:58.280 you know Hitler or whatever I mean but but you know how how the normal people in Germany became 834 00:45:58.280 --> 00:46:04.500 like concentration camp guards because you start seeing people as not human anymore and they 835 00:46:04.500 --> 00:46:10.000 weren't really bad people and and if you think oh I would say Van Frank and have her in my 836 00:46:10.000 --> 00:46:15.260 in my attic well okay but what if you found a mega hat she had a mega hat then now what 837 00:46:15.260 --> 00:46:20.480 because now you're not upholding the right side and you know you're you're not moral now because 838 00:46:20.480 --> 00:46:27.460 this is a bad person you know and it's just it's it's crazy the stuff going on in Portland night 839 00:46:27.460 --> 00:46:34.840 after night it's like done crazy just crazy you know we let them get we're just letting people 840 00:46:34.960 --> 00:46:40.840 not follow just the basic principles that everyone loves you know I watch Mississippi 841 00:46:40.840 --> 00:46:47.000 and we've let history repeat itself too yeah instead of wearing white you hiding their face 842 00:46:47.000 --> 00:46:51.260 behind white sheets now they hide their face behind black mask and they're called Antifa 843 00:46:51.820 --> 00:46:58.360 you know and both of those stem from that side because their history is that so okay so but like 844 00:46:58.360 --> 00:47:04.080 that's what okay you know but that's what the enemy is doing right but yeah like but let's look 845 00:47:04.080 --> 00:47:09.180 at what God's you know like I mean it's easy to see what he's doing but you see all these people 846 00:47:09.180 --> 00:47:15.440 like Charlie was you know it was all about Jesus right and all these people are coming to church 847 00:47:15.440 --> 00:47:20.160 and all these things and there's a revival happening because of all of this so yeah the 848 00:47:20.160 --> 00:47:25.840 enemy is doing all kinds of crazy stuff which is that's in his mo but God is moving and I just want 849 00:47:25.840 --> 00:47:31.560 to focus on that part and like and God's all right and God's called us to love others and there's a 850 00:47:31.560 --> 00:47:38.400 lot there's a lot of people in your circles right now are really confused angry frustrated I mean 851 00:47:39.080 --> 00:47:43.760 like I'm like oh my gosh I've been following this thing for a long time and now they're celebrating 852 00:47:44.420 --> 00:47:49.780 murder right yeah isn't that crazy yeah and then they're blaming people because they're losing their 853 00:47:49.780 --> 00:47:54.960 jobs over it it's like someone told me it's like you were you play stupid games you win stupid prizes 854 00:47:54.960 --> 00:48:01.560 well but but but okay so I I understand that's but like but I I want to focus on the humanity 855 00:48:01.560 --> 00:48:07.420 like the people who around us who are are hurting because of that right like you know yeah yeah I 856 00:48:07.420 --> 00:48:11.540 mean there's the knuckleheads I mean I don't I don't like focusing on knuckleheadery because it's 857 00:48:11.800 --> 00:48:18.080 just not awesome right but I know I I do I want to focus on what God's doing versus what the enemy 858 00:48:18.080 --> 00:48:25.640 is doing right well what's what's kind of well it's not what I was tripping um because I was 859 00:48:25.640 --> 00:48:35.680 thinking okay so there'll be a thousand year reign under Christ yeah but then we turn against it 860 00:48:36.500 --> 00:48:42.720 and then I realized because it says that satan is unleashed yeah so it's it's those things that 861 00:48:43.500 --> 00:48:49.700 that tell you but you know it's it's everyone well the fact that there's a thousand year 862 00:48:49.700 --> 00:48:53.820 a thousand year reign of Christ and there's but there was there was an uprising in the 863 00:48:53.820 --> 00:48:59.780 garden in in heaven and exactly and so yeah and that's the cool thing about heaven is like 864 00:48:59.780 --> 00:49:05.020 it's going to be after all the uprisings where there's no longer that and so but like right 865 00:49:05.020 --> 00:49:11.520 there's a lot of people who really need to know who Jesus is right now yeah right take every thought 866 00:49:11.520 --> 00:49:19.080 captive and not listen to you know whatever and not focus on the enemy's agenda to decide what 867 00:49:19.080 --> 00:49:25.840 God's doing right right and because I you know I'm not I'm not a political person but I am a kingdom 868 00:49:26.140 --> 00:49:32.620 person right and right now that you know there was the the the billion soul harvest prophesied by Bob 869 00:49:32.620 --> 00:49:39.160 Jones right well I mean I see that these are a lot of the pieces of that right all these and that's 870 00:49:39.160 --> 00:49:43.140 why I'm bringing this that's why I'm belaboring this point it's not to talk about all the what 871 00:49:43.140 --> 00:49:49.200 the enemy is doing is that all these people are are literally shaken to the core and they need 872 00:49:49.200 --> 00:49:55.880 to be shown the rock of Jesus and no and and get and and share the gospel and like this is why I'm 873 00:49:55.880 --> 00:49:59.620 not shaken like I know that if I take if somebody 874 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.300 shoots me and I die, I'm with Jesus. 875 00:50:03.460 --> 00:50:04.660 I don't have that fear. 876 00:50:05.320 --> 00:50:09.000 You know, the, was it the dark ages of the bubonic plague? 877 00:50:09.600 --> 00:50:12.560 I think that was what, I think it was called 878 00:50:12.560 --> 00:50:13.540 the dark ages, right? 879 00:50:13.700 --> 00:50:16.780 Well, where the Christians shone 880 00:50:17.040 --> 00:50:20.520 because they weren't afraid to die, right? 881 00:50:20.520 --> 00:50:22.680 They would go in and love on the sick people 882 00:50:22.900 --> 00:50:26.200 and end up dying and that ended up being a huge revival. 883 00:50:27.040 --> 00:50:29.600 I mean, like that led to a lot of people coming to the Lord 884 00:50:29.780 --> 00:50:31.920 because they weren't afraid to lose their life 885 00:50:31.920 --> 00:50:36.000 because they knew this wasn't what it was all about, right? 886 00:50:36.000 --> 00:50:38.240 And I guess I just wanna tether, 887 00:50:38.500 --> 00:50:40.280 I wanted to check in and make sure everybody's, 888 00:50:40.880 --> 00:50:42.660 I mean, I was grieving last week. 889 00:50:42.740 --> 00:50:44.500 I'm still grieving, right? 890 00:50:44.500 --> 00:50:49.380 Like heavily, but I also am excited to see 891 00:50:50.100 --> 00:50:52.800 all these young people's hearts opening up 892 00:50:52.800 --> 00:50:57.360 and questioning and where I can see the Lord 893 00:50:57.360 --> 00:51:01.600 wanting to share, to do a massive revival, right? 894 00:51:02.340 --> 00:51:07.280 And so I just, I wanna focus on what the Lord is doing 895 00:51:07.280 --> 00:51:08.320 and not what the enemy is doing 896 00:51:08.920 --> 00:51:11.060 because every time I focus on what the enemy is doing, 897 00:51:11.120 --> 00:51:13.300 I get really frustrated and angry and you know, 898 00:51:13.560 --> 00:51:15.960 and then I don't end up doing what I'm supposed to do. 899 00:51:16.220 --> 00:51:18.620 And if we're gonna live lives of impact 900 00:51:18.620 --> 00:51:21.360 and we're gonna do what, and we're gonna go out 901 00:51:21.360 --> 00:51:23.220 with our boots on, we need to be doing 902 00:51:23.220 --> 00:51:24.760 what Jesus is calling us to do, 903 00:51:25.800 --> 00:51:28.680 not responding to what the enemy is doing. 904 00:51:30.120 --> 00:51:31.600 Sorry, I'm getting a little preachy, 905 00:51:31.740 --> 00:51:34.640 but like, I'm preaching to this guy too 906 00:51:34.640 --> 00:51:36.700 cause I really wanna get in and start swinging. 907 00:51:37.400 --> 00:51:38.920 Like Abram, I feel you, bro. 908 00:51:38.920 --> 00:51:39.860 I'm like, let's go. 909 00:51:39.960 --> 00:51:41.420 I wanna freak, let's drop it. 910 00:51:41.460 --> 00:51:43.240 Let's put some gloves on and let's just freaking go. 911 00:51:43.780 --> 00:51:44.960 Let's all buy a hundred acres. 912 00:51:45.120 --> 00:51:46.820 Let's restart, let's go. 913 00:51:49.020 --> 00:51:52.780 But really, it's about loving people, right? 914 00:51:52.780 --> 00:51:55.240 And there's a lot of people hurting right now, right? 915 00:51:55.240 --> 00:51:57.420 That need to know Jesus, that don't know Jesus 916 00:51:57.740 --> 00:52:00.340 of every lifestyle thing, right? 917 00:52:00.340 --> 00:52:01.680 There's a lot of scared people 918 00:52:02.160 --> 00:52:03.540 because they back something 919 00:52:03.540 --> 00:52:06.300 and they realize it's a monster, right? 920 00:52:06.300 --> 00:52:07.760 Like, I wanna talk about how 921 00:52:07.760 --> 00:52:09.640 when you're freaking core shaken, right? 922 00:52:09.640 --> 00:52:12.300 It's like, oh, I've been believing, you know, 923 00:52:12.300 --> 00:52:13.760 they've lied to me this whole time. 924 00:52:13.940 --> 00:52:15.660 I mean, that don't just, you know. 925 00:52:15.660 --> 00:52:17.700 It's gonna backfire on them, yeah, for sure. 926 00:52:18.300 --> 00:52:20.180 His voice has just been amplified. 927 00:52:21.520 --> 00:52:24.660 Yeah, and so I guess the reason why I'm also sharing this 928 00:52:24.660 --> 00:52:27.320 is just be, there's a lot of people open right now 929 00:52:27.320 --> 00:52:28.900 where you can just chat with them and like, 930 00:52:29.020 --> 00:52:29.680 hey, how are you doing? 931 00:52:30.540 --> 00:52:32.120 You know, and they're like, you know, I'm really shattered. 932 00:52:32.320 --> 00:52:34.180 It's like, you know what, it's like, yeah. 933 00:52:35.060 --> 00:52:36.380 You know, Jesus is the only thing 934 00:52:36.380 --> 00:52:38.340 that keeps me square, right? 935 00:52:38.700 --> 00:52:41.220 You know, the only reason why I'm not rattled, 936 00:52:41.720 --> 00:52:43.280 I'm upset, but I'm not rattled 937 00:52:43.280 --> 00:52:44.540 is cause I know Jesus has me. 938 00:52:45.000 --> 00:52:49.200 You know, and I mean, I felt like when Charlie passed, 939 00:52:49.480 --> 00:52:51.340 I literally was sitting there 940 00:52:51.340 --> 00:52:53.660 and I could feel the reckoning with me. 941 00:52:53.900 --> 00:52:56.240 Like, am I gonna play it safe? 942 00:52:56.360 --> 00:52:57.240 Am I gonna back down? 943 00:52:57.380 --> 00:52:58.440 And I'm like, no. 944 00:52:59.280 --> 00:53:01.840 I mean, you know, I mean, 945 00:53:01.840 --> 00:53:03.580 cause I go into some dark places, right? 946 00:53:03.580 --> 00:53:05.060 Where it's kind of spooky. 947 00:53:05.840 --> 00:53:08.180 I mean, there's been times I was in San Francisco 948 00:53:08.180 --> 00:53:11.280 where I was like, oh, is it, if it's, 949 00:53:11.460 --> 00:53:13.720 I'm taking you with me, you know? 950 00:53:13.720 --> 00:53:16.040 But like the Lord ended up being with me. 951 00:53:16.040 --> 00:53:19.180 I almost got jumped by like six guys one time. 952 00:53:19.200 --> 00:53:21.960 And I was like, well, oh my God. 953 00:53:22.540 --> 00:53:25.840 And so, but you know, but, you know, 954 00:53:26.140 --> 00:53:29.600 and in those times, just for like practical application, 955 00:53:29.620 --> 00:53:34.440 I was like, Lord, can you bring me angelic covering? 956 00:53:34.760 --> 00:53:36.380 You know, like surround me. 957 00:53:36.660 --> 00:53:38.000 And it was interesting 958 00:53:38.000 --> 00:53:39.700 cause I don't know why they didn't jump me. 959 00:53:40.940 --> 00:53:42.640 I don't know if you ever have that feeling 960 00:53:42.640 --> 00:53:43.980 where like you walk in and you're like, 961 00:53:44.040 --> 00:53:45.980 oh, this is not gonna go well, right? 962 00:53:47.680 --> 00:53:49.780 And I walked right through unscathed. 963 00:53:50.000 --> 00:53:51.380 And I have to say, it's probably 964 00:53:51.380 --> 00:53:52.740 because I was sitting there praying in tongues 965 00:53:52.740 --> 00:53:54.080 under my breath, right? 966 00:53:54.080 --> 00:53:56.660 I mean, so there's weapons of our warfare we can use 967 00:53:56.660 --> 00:53:58.740 that we don't have to just be stupidly, 968 00:53:58.740 --> 00:54:00.700 blindly walking into things, right? 969 00:54:01.560 --> 00:54:06.700 But like I say, I'm not gonna start any fights 970 00:54:06.700 --> 00:54:08.260 that he isn't calling me into. 971 00:54:09.080 --> 00:54:13.200 Does that, you know, like I'm not gonna get pulled 972 00:54:13.200 --> 00:54:16.780 into the enemy's camp because, 973 00:54:18.840 --> 00:54:20.820 it's hard to not get pulled into that camp, by the way. 974 00:54:20.940 --> 00:54:23.420 So, you know, like sometimes it's like, you know, 975 00:54:23.420 --> 00:54:25.300 I'm like, he's like, he's fishing, right? 976 00:54:25.300 --> 00:54:26.540 He's like, okay, come on. 977 00:54:27.080 --> 00:54:29.160 Because I have something that I need to do. 978 00:54:29.200 --> 00:54:32.880 I need to love on people and tell them about Jesus, right? 979 00:54:32.880 --> 00:54:36.560 I, you know, and I have a whole area, a Metron, 980 00:54:36.560 --> 00:54:39.020 a whole group of people he's surrounded me with, 981 00:54:40.300 --> 00:54:43.200 that he's entrusted all the people to me. 982 00:54:43.400 --> 00:54:45.340 Each one of you guys has a Metron 983 00:54:45.340 --> 00:54:48.180 that has been entrusted to you, right? 984 00:54:48.740 --> 00:54:51.560 I've been entrusted with 285 packages 985 00:54:51.560 --> 00:54:54.680 to deliver to people in an area. 986 00:54:55.000 --> 00:54:56.820 See, okay, so, but the packet, 987 00:54:57.280 --> 00:54:58.740 the Lord isn't interested in people, 988 00:54:58.860 --> 00:54:59.980 in packages, he's interested in. 989 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:06.800 people. I know and part of my witness is getting that package to them on time. Yeah, so um 990 00:55:08.000 --> 00:55:09.600 Can I, can I go Mike? 991 00:55:10.960 --> 00:55:13.520 Yeah, oh, oh, sorry, sorry go go for it 992 00:55:14.880 --> 00:55:17.900 Um, yeah, this is all really interesting to me 993 00:55:18.660 --> 00:55:19.180 um 994 00:55:19.180 --> 00:55:23.540 Just being Canadian like hearing you guys talk is like a it's just a totally different 995 00:55:23.700 --> 00:55:29.760 There's things i've never thought about before so thank you guys for sharing and and like and my brain is just i'm like 996 00:55:30.000 --> 00:55:34.600 Abram was talking. I was like, oh, this is like a totally perspective. I've never heard before 997 00:55:35.320 --> 00:55:37.920 um, so yeah, thank you guys for sharing and uh 998 00:55:38.760 --> 00:55:43.740 I think you're right mike. It reminded me a lot of jim elliott and elizabeth elliott, too. Um 999 00:55:44.140 --> 00:55:45.180 but uh 1000 00:55:45.180 --> 00:55:50.620 Yeah, I I have a lot now to pray about i'm like, oh man, there's so many things i've never thought about before so 1001 00:55:50.960 --> 00:55:53.600 um, but my question is is um 1002 00:55:54.680 --> 00:55:56.760 is is about purity like 1003 00:55:56.760 --> 00:56:03.760 How do we like specific because I found that like the enemy has been trying to get at me specifically since finishing the heart work 1004 00:56:03.860 --> 00:56:07.900 oh, yeah, like so just trying to be totally free from it like even 1005 00:56:08.180 --> 00:56:13.040 Like free from pornography, but even like free from social media because I feel like every time I go on social media 1006 00:56:13.440 --> 00:56:15.400 there's like a naked person or like 1007 00:56:15.900 --> 00:56:18.280 yeah, like I just have to turn it off and so 1008 00:56:19.620 --> 00:56:23.320 No, I've had to do that where I just had to shut instagram down for a while 1009 00:56:23.320 --> 00:56:24.980 Right, like my algorithm had 1010 00:56:25.480 --> 00:56:28.700 You know every time I tried to delete something it seemed to amplify it 1011 00:56:29.200 --> 00:56:34.620 Right, you know and it's just not good and you know, it's like all things are possible, but all things are profitable 1012 00:56:35.080 --> 00:56:37.400 right and like um 1013 00:56:37.400 --> 00:56:42.720 Knowing yourself and your boundaries, you know and like, um, if it's killing you cut it out 1014 00:56:43.020 --> 00:56:50.460 right, you know, you know and um, and the thing is is um, it's uh, it's 21 days 1015 00:56:50.460 --> 00:56:53.420 Uh, it's 21 days for uh 1016 00:56:55.500 --> 00:57:01.700 If you can cut it out for 21 42 or 63 days you will now have a new neural pathways 1017 00:57:01.880 --> 00:57:04.220 Which you won't be craving that any longer 1018 00:57:06.020 --> 00:57:08.320 Are you guys familiar with neuroplasticity 1019 00:57:11.620 --> 00:57:12.660 So like 1020 00:57:13.200 --> 00:57:15.060 For those who are not like so, okay 1021 00:57:15.060 --> 00:57:19.520 So you have a way that you do something it does this rut in your brain 1022 00:57:19.520 --> 00:57:22.280 So if you want, but your brain is made to change 1023 00:57:22.280 --> 00:57:29.920 So if you decide to go on a different route, so let's say like for me, um, uh, I was introduced to pornography at 1024 00:57:29.920 --> 00:57:30.920 six years old 1025 00:57:31.400 --> 00:57:37.060 Uh hardcore pornography at like seven. Um, my whole life was sexualized. So I 1026 00:57:37.160 --> 00:57:43.180 Didn't need pornography anyways, but like so most of my life that rut was really deep, right? 1027 00:57:43.420 --> 00:57:46.400 But you know, um as I got out of it 1028 00:57:46.620 --> 00:57:52.760 I would get pulled back in but I would get back out and get and the more you pull out of the rut 1029 00:57:53.140 --> 00:57:56.460 The old rut dies and the new one is burned in right? 1030 00:57:56.840 --> 00:58:02.780 So that's why I say, you know, because the enemy will bring condemnation like oh you fell just keep get back in it 1031 00:58:02.780 --> 00:58:07.240 Go go go for you know, go go roll in the mud. You're already goofed up 1032 00:58:07.240 --> 00:58:09.660 Might as well just go have a great time. Don't do that 1033 00:58:10.080 --> 00:58:13.280 Hey, if you fall off the wagon get back on the wagon, you know 1034 00:58:13.280 --> 00:58:17.500 There's no condemnation for those who are in christ jesus and when you get back on the wagon 1035 00:58:17.880 --> 00:58:25.040 You start building that new neural pathway at your freedom from them. So if you have issues with porn or lust 1036 00:58:25.480 --> 00:58:26.040 whatever 1037 00:58:26.800 --> 00:58:27.360 it 1038 00:58:27.480 --> 00:58:31.220 Whatever that you know, you've worn that that road in 1039 00:58:31.260 --> 00:58:35.460 Do a new one with purity and it may talk you may have to fast social media 1040 00:58:35.460 --> 00:58:40.040 You may have to and know your times like there's hungry angry lonely tired 1041 00:58:40.040 --> 00:58:44.800 Those are the times when you're susceptible, but the more you build that new road 1042 00:58:45.340 --> 00:58:47.260 That you're building a road to freedom 1043 00:58:47.700 --> 00:58:52.400 So you may fall back in but just get back on the road and eventually that old road will die 1044 00:58:53.160 --> 00:58:56.160 And I guess I want to encourage you. You can be free in 64 days 1045 00:58:56.700 --> 00:59:02.220 That's what it takes now if you fall back out of the rut, that's 64 days of wearing the same, right? 1046 00:59:02.460 --> 00:59:09.260 but if you're how if you have a heavy duty deep one, you know, and you're bouncing back and forth it takes a little longer, but 1047 00:59:10.040 --> 00:59:15.720 60, uh, dr. Carolyn leaf neuroplasticity 64 days. The old old one literally dies out of your brain 1048 00:59:16.260 --> 00:59:19.920 Is that is that encouraging you guys that you can be free in 64 days? 1049 00:59:20.740 --> 00:59:22.360 It's 64 is 3 times 21, right? 1050 00:59:23.280 --> 00:59:25.200 63 days. Yeah 1051 00:59:25.260 --> 00:59:28.360 For for me like I I was free for uh, 12 1052 00:59:29.540 --> 00:59:35.440 But but recently it's been kind of a bit of a struggle again. So get back on the road get back on the road 1053 00:59:36.340 --> 00:59:39.920 Yeah, you fall off the wagon get back on the road, I mean you guys like that that is it 1054 00:59:40.940 --> 00:59:42.720 Fall off get on 1055 00:59:42.720 --> 00:59:47.400 Come to the you know, and and you should be running to the father and say, you know father. I need help 1056 00:59:47.540 --> 00:59:49.380 not father, you know because I 1057 00:59:49.620 --> 00:59:51.760 I used to be like, oh i've sinned 1058 00:59:51.760 --> 00:59:54.080 Like i'm not worthy and ran 1059 00:59:54.580 --> 00:59:59.840 Right, which then propagated stupidity, right? Now I go lord. I you know 1060 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:02.560 But I need help because I screwed up. 1061 01:00:03.200 --> 01:00:04.600 So somebody else was saying something. 1062 01:00:04.780 --> 01:00:05.860 What about the neuroplasticity? 1063 01:00:06.140 --> 01:00:07.160 Anybody else that encouraging to? 1064 01:00:08.620 --> 01:00:10.740 I love that he created freedom in our brains, 1065 01:00:10.820 --> 01:00:12.380 even from the craziest things. 1066 01:00:16.540 --> 01:00:17.620 That's a really good point. 1067 01:00:17.860 --> 01:00:20.340 It's 21 days and there's a good chance 1068 01:00:20.720 --> 01:00:23.380 that you create a new habit or break a bad habit. 1069 01:00:24.380 --> 01:00:28.180 Yeah, well, 21 days is enough to create the new one. 1070 01:00:28.180 --> 01:00:31.520 42 days ingrains it more. 1071 01:00:33.340 --> 01:00:35.680 63 days is when it becomes permanent. 1072 01:00:37.460 --> 01:00:39.720 It's just how neuroplasticity works. 1073 01:00:40.240 --> 01:00:42.580 And like I say, it does change if you fall off. 1074 01:00:42.880 --> 01:00:45.280 So, okay, so like David, you said that, 1075 01:00:45.280 --> 01:00:48.880 you've been struggling now, but you have the road built. 1076 01:00:49.020 --> 01:00:49.920 Just get back on the road. 1077 01:00:50.700 --> 01:00:53.140 Stop building the bad road and get on the good road. 1078 01:00:53.200 --> 01:00:53.960 Does that make sense? 1079 01:00:56.060 --> 01:00:59.480 Also, look at why you're getting on the other road 1080 01:00:59.480 --> 01:01:00.320 in the first place. 1081 01:01:00.440 --> 01:01:01.000 What's the root? 1082 01:01:01.260 --> 01:01:03.020 That's one great thing about heart work 1083 01:01:03.020 --> 01:01:04.860 is what is the core thing? 1084 01:01:05.440 --> 01:01:07.520 Why am I going to this for comfort? 1085 01:01:08.220 --> 01:01:09.600 What is the core issue? 1086 01:01:10.420 --> 01:01:11.740 And bring it, go through the heart work 1087 01:01:11.740 --> 01:01:13.320 and figure out why. 1088 01:01:13.660 --> 01:01:16.460 See, for me, it's always something that's coming up. 1089 01:01:16.620 --> 01:01:18.440 It's something, a heart wound 1090 01:01:18.480 --> 01:01:20.180 is wanting me to go to comfort. 1091 01:01:20.180 --> 01:01:24.060 And so it's like, why am I wanting to comfort? 1092 01:01:24.240 --> 01:01:25.440 What am I trying to comfort? 1093 01:01:25.580 --> 01:01:28.940 What am I trying to, or hide or run away from? 1094 01:01:29.440 --> 01:01:30.080 Does that make sense? 1095 01:01:32.500 --> 01:01:32.820 Yeah. 1096 01:01:34.740 --> 01:01:36.180 Yes, that's good. 1097 01:01:37.180 --> 01:01:41.300 So like, if you fall off the wagon, get back on the road. 1098 01:01:41.500 --> 01:01:43.540 I mean, like you guys, like it's just, 1099 01:01:43.620 --> 01:01:45.080 and run to the father and say, 1100 01:01:45.500 --> 01:01:47.960 forgive me, father, because I screwed up. 1101 01:01:50.140 --> 01:01:53.700 And he's excited to have you back in connection 1102 01:01:53.700 --> 01:01:55.200 and relationship, right? 1103 01:01:57.060 --> 01:01:58.840 I mean, I think I shared this once before, 1104 01:01:58.920 --> 01:02:00.320 but like, I blew it. 1105 01:02:00.380 --> 01:02:02.080 You know, my roommate, oh, it was just crazy. 1106 01:02:02.920 --> 01:02:06.680 But, and I was so ashamed and like, 1107 01:02:08.940 --> 01:02:12.800 and I just was beating myself to death, right? 1108 01:02:13.620 --> 01:02:16.440 And I heard the father sobbing. 1109 01:02:17.960 --> 01:02:20.300 And I'm like, why are you sobbing? 1110 01:02:20.480 --> 01:02:22.300 He's like, because I don't care what you did. 1111 01:02:23.140 --> 01:02:25.520 I'm broken because now you're punishing yourself 1112 01:02:25.780 --> 01:02:27.820 and our relationship's broken. 1113 01:02:28.620 --> 01:02:31.260 I want you to repent and come back 1114 01:02:31.260 --> 01:02:32.340 so we can be together again. 1115 01:02:33.280 --> 01:02:37.680 And that forever changed my life, right? 1116 01:02:37.680 --> 01:02:41.140 Was I realized the father just wants me back home, right? 1117 01:02:41.220 --> 01:02:45.600 And me punishing myself is punishing him too, right? 1118 01:02:45.640 --> 01:02:47.400 And so, and it's not helpful. 1119 01:02:47.400 --> 01:02:50.380 If you think punishing yourself is gonna create 1120 01:02:51.780 --> 01:02:54.480 or shaming yourself in something, it doesn't work. 1121 01:02:55.100 --> 01:02:57.960 You can't shame yourself into new behavior. 1122 01:02:58.960 --> 01:03:00.600 You can all, you know, it just doesn't work. 1123 01:03:00.620 --> 01:03:02.320 You can love yourself in a new behavior. 1124 01:03:02.860 --> 01:03:05.820 So by getting back, you know, so if you're on the bad road 1125 01:03:05.820 --> 01:03:08.080 and you get on the new one, when you get on that new road, 1126 01:03:08.120 --> 01:03:10.180 you're loving yourself well, you realize that, right? 1127 01:03:10.240 --> 01:03:12.700 You know, that's loving yourself well. 1128 01:03:13.120 --> 01:03:15.080 So the more you love yourself well, 1129 01:03:15.080 --> 01:03:16.700 and you stay off of the bad roads 1130 01:03:16.700 --> 01:03:18.240 which are not loving yourself well, 1131 01:03:18.740 --> 01:03:20.000 the better you're gonna be off. 1132 01:03:23.840 --> 01:03:26.240 I mean, we're kind of coming up on time guys. 1133 01:03:27.900 --> 01:03:32.580 Anything anybody else wants to chat about or anything? 1134 01:03:36.220 --> 01:03:39.200 Yeah, yeah, stop the guilt and shame of those actions. 1135 01:03:39.920 --> 01:03:42.060 Get back to the healthier habits and you will be free. 1136 01:03:42.140 --> 01:03:43.800 Amen, that is completely true. 1137 01:03:48.140 --> 01:03:49.880 Thank you guys for sharing tonight. 1138 01:03:49.980 --> 01:03:51.480 I literally have learned so much, 1139 01:03:51.760 --> 01:03:54.020 especially when John and Hunter and Abram were talking. 1140 01:03:54.180 --> 01:03:56.400 I'm like, my mind is blown, so thanks guys. 1141 01:03:56.960 --> 01:04:00.520 Well, and realize that you're all warriors, dude. 1142 01:04:00.520 --> 01:04:02.520 Like, let's go, like, you know, let's just fricking, 1143 01:04:03.180 --> 01:04:06.520 you know, it's funny cause I got my fricking hammer, bro. 1144 01:04:06.520 --> 01:04:08.040 I got my sword over there. 1145 01:04:08.060 --> 01:04:10.300 Go dude, let's fricking go, you know? 1146 01:04:11.180 --> 01:04:13.740 And so, like, because we're warriors 1147 01:04:13.740 --> 01:04:15.060 and we're meant to do great things. 1148 01:04:15.060 --> 01:04:15.580 Right? 1149 01:04:16.700 --> 01:04:18.400 Hey David, did you want to say something? 1150 01:04:18.880 --> 01:04:20.620 David, PA, Penshaw. 1151 01:04:21.000 --> 01:04:23.720 I just had, I know totally different topic, 1152 01:04:23.940 --> 01:04:26.640 but I was just, I mean, if anything, 1153 01:04:26.640 --> 01:04:29.820 I want to err on the side of being, I guess, 1154 01:04:29.820 --> 01:04:32.580 too light on like a first potential video date. 1155 01:04:32.640 --> 01:04:34.580 Cause we were kind of on that topic earlier. 1156 01:04:35.020 --> 01:04:38.440 But like, but what I was thinking was two quick things 1157 01:04:38.860 --> 01:04:42.500 was just like, just focus on like me the first day, 1158 01:04:42.500 --> 01:04:45.380 just focus on like finding out at least one 1159 01:04:45.380 --> 01:04:47.900 or a few things they really like to do. 1160 01:04:48.160 --> 01:04:50.480 And then what do they like to do when they, 1161 01:04:51.620 --> 01:04:53.180 what do they like to do to relax? 1162 01:04:53.540 --> 01:04:55.840 You know, whether that's, you know, knitting 1163 01:04:56.980 --> 01:04:59.540 or walking a trail or whatever. 1164 01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:02.640 You know, hiking or what do you do to blow off steam? 1165 01:05:02.680 --> 01:05:03.500 What do you do after work? 1166 01:05:04.140 --> 01:05:06.040 You know, what's your what's your show place? 1167 01:05:06.920 --> 01:05:10.040 What if you could go anywhere in the world, where would it be? 1168 01:05:11.320 --> 01:05:15.280 You know, without like, you know, what's your dream vacation? 1169 01:05:16.080 --> 01:05:20.120 Like stuff that so OK, so you can talk about. 1170 01:05:22.500 --> 01:05:28.680 Past things after you kind of develop the now and like where you're both at 1171 01:05:28.680 --> 01:05:33.120 and and like what and can you envision a future together? 1172 01:05:33.980 --> 01:05:37.280 Hey, she she likes, you know, freaking curling. 1173 01:05:37.440 --> 01:05:40.040 I'm like, I don't know what curling is, but it looks kind of fun. 1174 01:05:40.080 --> 01:05:41.120 We can like shave the ice. 1175 01:05:41.400 --> 01:05:41.700 It can help. 1176 01:05:41.820 --> 01:05:42.600 You know, like, I don't know. 1177 01:05:42.620 --> 01:05:44.560 I'm not a Canadian or I don't know. 1178 01:05:44.560 --> 01:05:45.220 It's kind of Canadian. 1179 01:05:45.320 --> 01:05:45.720 I don't know. 1180 01:05:46.000 --> 01:05:47.900 Anyways, I we I'm in Cali. 1181 01:05:48.140 --> 01:05:49.840 We don't have a lot. 1182 01:05:50.180 --> 01:05:54.780 Yeah, so but like can this person is this person somebody like what they do 1183 01:05:54.780 --> 01:05:55.860 and what they like to do? 1184 01:05:55.860 --> 01:05:56.860 Are we a match there? 1185 01:05:57.500 --> 01:05:58.840 Do I have fun? 1186 01:05:59.300 --> 01:06:02.120 What is my nervous system saying when I'm with this? 1187 01:06:02.320 --> 01:06:02.960 That's another thing. 1188 01:06:03.040 --> 01:06:03.700 You guys pay attention. 1189 01:06:03.860 --> 01:06:04.880 What is your nervous system saying? 1190 01:06:05.680 --> 01:06:11.220 Now for me, when I went on my first date for my nervous, I was actually 1191 01:06:11.600 --> 01:06:14.760 disassociating and that was because I had hard work to do, right? 1192 01:06:14.940 --> 01:06:19.160 So be it may not necessarily be the person, but like notice your nervous 1193 01:06:19.160 --> 01:06:19.420 system. 1194 01:06:19.440 --> 01:06:20.440 I come around this person. 1195 01:06:20.500 --> 01:06:24.260 Do I like this person or am I feeling like I'm walking on eggshells? 1196 01:06:24.260 --> 01:06:27.540 And then if you feel like you're walking on eggshells, come back to 1197 01:06:27.540 --> 01:06:30.500 hard work and say, okay, why do I feel like I'm on eggshells? 1198 01:06:30.500 --> 01:06:34.080 Is it because something in my past or is it because this person is doing 1199 01:06:34.320 --> 01:06:36.620 something that triggers that it to me? 1200 01:06:36.760 --> 01:06:37.920 Does that make sense? 1201 01:06:38.640 --> 01:06:44.420 Like, okay, you're staying present feeling and just getting to know 1202 01:06:44.420 --> 01:06:47.480 what happened like having a good time, right? 1203 01:06:47.640 --> 01:06:50.540 Not getting serious and you know, not getting deep and serious. 1204 01:06:50.680 --> 01:06:52.020 Just be like, hey, you know. 1205 01:06:52.740 --> 01:06:55.680 What was your favorite childhood memory, right? 1206 01:06:56.520 --> 01:07:00.920 You know, like do you sports do you play like there's a million like 1207 01:07:01.320 --> 01:07:04.400 Google like best fun first date questions. 1208 01:07:04.400 --> 01:07:05.560 There's a million of them out there. 1209 01:07:06.020 --> 01:07:07.720 You guys like, okay, we have yeah. 1210 01:07:09.060 --> 01:07:10.760 And if it's short and light. 1211 01:07:11.980 --> 01:07:14.440 The other thing is I don't want to go too far with the questions. 1212 01:07:14.600 --> 01:07:17.080 See that that's the thing I'm struggling with in my head. 1213 01:07:17.120 --> 01:07:17.860 It's like I don't want it. 1214 01:07:18.160 --> 01:07:19.760 I don't want to do a second interview. 1215 01:07:20.400 --> 01:07:21.220 No, no, no. 1216 01:07:21.220 --> 01:07:22.080 That's why you ask. 1217 01:07:22.280 --> 01:07:22.560 Okay. 1218 01:07:22.560 --> 01:07:25.960 I said fun questions not proctology questions. 1219 01:07:26.100 --> 01:07:30.480 We're not asking for proctology or like whatever, you know, like it's 1220 01:07:30.480 --> 01:07:33.420 it's just have fun and let the question question. 1221 01:07:33.780 --> 01:07:33.780 1222 01:07:34.300 --> 01:07:36.140 So what is your favorite color? 1223 01:07:36.220 --> 01:07:38.120 Not a great question, right? 1224 01:07:38.800 --> 01:07:40.860 Because how long did that last? 1225 01:07:41.920 --> 01:07:43.540 Like like 30 seconds. 1226 01:07:44.200 --> 01:07:46.620 That's why I'm saying like, what is your like? 1227 01:07:46.620 --> 01:07:47.820 What was your dream vacation? 1228 01:07:47.920 --> 01:07:49.160 And what would you wear? 1229 01:07:49.860 --> 01:07:50.380 Or something. 1230 01:07:50.600 --> 01:07:55.920 You see how it's multi-tiered where they can kind of and found it and 1231 01:07:55.920 --> 01:07:58.040 it's not a 30-second question. 1232 01:07:59.120 --> 01:08:02.880 Yeah, and it's basically something that's current or maybe only going 1233 01:08:02.880 --> 01:08:03.680 back in the past. 1234 01:08:03.720 --> 01:08:06.780 Maybe a couple months because we're not digging into the past beyond 1235 01:08:06.780 --> 01:08:08.280 that on the first few days. 1236 01:08:08.280 --> 01:08:10.540 You shouldn't be talking about the past nothing. 1237 01:08:11.400 --> 01:08:16.779 You're talking about you for 30 minutes and from 30 minutes forward. 1238 01:08:16.899 --> 01:08:18.359 That's what we're talking about. 1239 01:08:18.359 --> 01:08:23.420 And like I think you're really, I mean, you know, you know, and you 1240 01:08:23.420 --> 01:08:26.760 can banter like, you know, I bet you I can beat you at chess or 1241 01:08:26.760 --> 01:08:31.420 something like, you know, which right and like, you know, and they 1242 01:08:31.420 --> 01:08:31.960 may go. 1243 01:08:31.960 --> 01:08:34.800 Oh, yeah, bring it big boy, right, you know, and then you know that 1244 01:08:34.800 --> 01:08:39.100 they can play right, but you know that I didn't have to ask a question. 1245 01:08:41.380 --> 01:08:44.500 Right, you know, I actually need to be taking notes because this is 1246 01:08:44.500 --> 01:08:45.540 a really good stuff guys. 1247 01:08:48.580 --> 01:08:49.960 My yeah, yeah. 1248 01:08:50.540 --> 01:08:54.020 Yeah, I guess my biggest concern is like in the past. 1249 01:08:54.180 --> 01:08:59.460 I've gone way too fast too deep and I recognize if you're dating if 1250 01:08:59.460 --> 01:09:00.380 you're dating you're dating. 1251 01:09:00.380 --> 01:09:03.420 It's not a it's not a ministry connection. 1252 01:09:04.479 --> 01:09:05.399 It's okay. 1253 01:09:05.399 --> 01:09:06.279 I'm path. 1254 01:09:06.279 --> 01:09:10.500 I can go too far too fast, but now it's your day 40,000 feet. 1255 01:09:10.500 --> 01:09:11.680 You're up above the clouds. 1256 01:09:11.680 --> 01:09:15.540 You're looking at the whole atmosphere the world, you know, you know, 1257 01:09:16.340 --> 01:09:20.319 and then if you like you want to come down a couple thousand feet, 1258 01:09:20.600 --> 01:09:26.240 you can and another day, but you want them to leave with like I had 1259 01:09:26.240 --> 01:09:27.040 a great time. 1260 01:09:27.220 --> 01:09:29.240 I really like this person. 1261 01:09:29.300 --> 01:09:36.180 And when you get into debt death and dread and this is my ex and 1262 01:09:36.180 --> 01:09:36.859 all that crap. 1263 01:09:36.859 --> 01:09:43.540 That's like you want you want a positive if you look at it like a 1264 01:09:43.540 --> 01:09:44.880 bank account, right? 1265 01:09:44.880 --> 01:09:48.760 Yeah, like you want like positive vibes or whatever a bank of 1266 01:09:48.760 --> 01:09:49.279 positivity. 1267 01:09:49.840 --> 01:09:52.899 And then when you have to bring up negative things you have something 1268 01:09:52.899 --> 01:09:53.680 to withdraw from. 1269 01:09:55.340 --> 01:09:59.220 Right, whereas most people are like, here's all my crap. 1270 01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:06.160 You know, and they're like, well, no, I don't even know you have any redeeming qualities. I just know you have a bunch of crap. 1271 01:10:07.420 --> 01:10:24.500 Yeah, right. Like and like, I don't want a relationship with a with a bunch of crap. I, you know, you know, so you just get to be you and the other other other like, David, the one thing you want to leave with that, that whole thing is that you are yourself the whole time. 1272 01:10:25.420 --> 01:10:26.720 Mm hmm. Right. 1273 01:10:27.220 --> 01:10:30.000 I learned that the hard way at the last situation shit. 1274 01:10:30.340 --> 01:10:43.060 So but like, and you learn like, okay, so, so the last situation and you've you have past mistakes you've made that are now gonna now you're learning from those and just be present, be yourself. 1275 01:10:43.060 --> 01:10:57.920 And if they don't like the real you, then great. You find that out early. But if they like the real you, then you have a real relationship. You can't come in being like Rico Suave and when you're not if you're Rico Suave be Rico Suave. 1276 01:10:58.280 --> 01:11:04.160 If you're David Henshaw be David Henshaw, but don't be somebody else what you think they want you to be. 1277 01:11:04.460 --> 01:11:10.160 Don't be pleasing and you know if there's something that they say that you don't like to see. Yeah, no, that doesn't work for me. 1278 01:11:10.720 --> 01:11:11.220 Right. 1279 01:11:11.640 --> 01:11:13.460 I mean, women don't want yes men. 1280 01:11:14.700 --> 01:11:18.200 I mean, like literally speak, you know, speak your mind. 1281 01:11:18.240 --> 01:11:23.800 Yeah, you have to have real boundaries, unless they're really broken then they don't care but then that's not good. 1282 01:11:24.160 --> 01:11:26.380 But then, but you don't want that. 1283 01:11:26.900 --> 01:11:29.840 But yeah, that's what I'm saying. I don't want that. 1284 01:11:29.840 --> 01:11:32.720 That reveals that they're not ready. 1285 01:11:33.880 --> 01:11:45.700 And then you have decisions you can make because you have information. You're on an information thing. Can I have fun with this person? Can we be polite? Do I like them? Right? Do I want another date? 1286 01:11:47.040 --> 01:11:51.540 And I would say that you guys and David or the other David. 1287 01:11:52.060 --> 01:12:00.100 I really like that you're given that gallon of the chance because sometimes first dates or the first couple times people are freaking out. 1288 01:12:01.280 --> 01:12:08.560 They're nervous, anxious, and you don't actually get to meet the real me real them right on that first date. 1289 01:12:09.520 --> 01:12:15.880 I was so sad because I couldn't I was so wound up. I wasn't actually me. 1290 01:12:15.880 --> 01:12:18.760 Right. So she never actually got to read that meet the real me. 1291 01:12:19.560 --> 01:12:25.340 And, you know, and that was on that was on me because I didn't show up in a way that I should have. Right. 1292 01:12:25.460 --> 01:12:35.280 But just just be you. Hopefully she's her. But like, you know, give it a couple rounds if unless it's horrific and there's so many red flags that you can't like. 1293 01:12:35.280 --> 01:12:47.740 But, you know, realize that, you know, not everybody. I mean, I don't have a ton of dating experience. Right. So I have nothing myself. 1294 01:12:47.740 --> 01:12:52.980 Yeah. I mean, I married my first girlfriend. So, like, you know, like that, you know, that lasted 19 years. 1295 01:12:53.220 --> 01:12:59.220 You know, I mean, if my first relationship was 21 years, but like now I'm single, single, re single. 1296 01:13:00.340 --> 01:13:06.420 I question about what you said earlier. Just real quick. You said you were dissociative with that one experience. 1297 01:13:06.940 --> 01:13:10.640 Oh, yeah. That was me by that. You were emotionally numb. I don't know what you mean. 1298 01:13:10.980 --> 01:13:17.100 No, no, no. So this is so. OK, so I have there's a lot of trauma, especially with females. 1299 01:13:17.700 --> 01:13:27.620 My ex used to explode. Right. So disassociating means you like literally are you're like, let's say if I were to disassociate right now. 1300 01:13:28.620 --> 01:13:36.040 I would just if you would I would just go silent for about for a time. I never knew how much time elapsed when I. 1301 01:13:36.420 --> 01:13:46.900 It's basically you crawl under the recesses of your protective shield until the blast goes off and then you peek out and see if everything's OK. 1302 01:13:46.900 --> 01:13:56.920 Right. So this gal got all wired. She was a fighter. She was a fighter. You know, there's fire. There's fight, fight, fight or fawn. 1303 01:13:57.020 --> 01:14:05.460 Right. And she was a fighter and she came at me and I just. Circuit breaker popped. Right. 1304 01:14:05.980 --> 01:14:11.080 And then I came back and I had no idea what had transpired and how long I'd been been gone. 1305 01:14:11.660 --> 01:14:25.140 Right. And that happened about a half a dozen times. And so when I came back, I had to do some trauma therapy because, you know, like Jackie says, you can't like what's broken in relationship has to be healed in relationship. 1306 01:14:25.320 --> 01:14:31.240 Right. So I didn't know I had that issue until I got back in relationship. 1307 01:14:31.240 --> 01:14:43.780 Then when it came up and I was realizing I was missing pieces of this whole date that I had things and it ended up being stuff that my ex would do that and my stepdad. 1308 01:14:43.820 --> 01:14:54.200 I mean, it went back to my childhood. Right. That's usually where it comes from. Right. Unless it's adulthood when you have trauma is any trauma can happen at any time. 1309 01:14:54.200 --> 01:14:59.980 But for me, it was it's a lifelong thing. And so I developed a skill of disassociation. 1310 01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:06.900 to protect myself from explosive, really painful situations. I know that's, is that, does that 1311 01:15:06.900 --> 01:15:08.300 make sense? I know that's a lot. 1312 01:15:08.340 --> 01:15:12.460 Yeah, well, one aspect of that could be some people will call that ghosting, some of that, 1313 01:15:12.760 --> 01:15:14.100 like that's a whole thing. 1314 01:15:14.160 --> 01:15:20.240 No, it's not. Ghosting is like, I, I'm just not going to deal with you. This is literally 1315 01:15:20.280 --> 01:15:27.600 my brain, you know, you've heard be triggered. So I got triggered and disappeared. Right? 1316 01:15:27.600 --> 01:15:34.360 It wasn't a conscious, it was a subconscious thing. Ghosting is a conscious thing. And 1317 01:15:34.360 --> 01:15:41.040 that's like an avoidant style thing. Right? I'm not talking about connect, about attachment 1318 01:15:41.040 --> 01:15:47.000 styles, attachment styles, right? I'm talking about, I had trauma in my life that was causing 1319 01:15:47.000 --> 01:15:54.880 me when females would get angry to come into like be a turtle and go into a shell instantaneously 1320 01:15:54.880 --> 01:16:01.660 to protect from the blast that I usually received. And then I'd take my head out and see if there 1321 01:16:01.660 --> 01:16:07.120 was any of the world left. Right? After, you know, and so, and that was a cycle that was 1322 01:16:07.120 --> 01:16:12.920 in my marriage. Right? And so I do the, I had to go through the heart work to find, 1323 01:16:13.020 --> 01:16:17.000 so I can tell you all this because I went through the heart work to get rid of it. And 1324 01:16:17.000 --> 01:16:22.700 now I am free of it. But it took a really rough first state to do that. So I guess that's 1325 01:16:22.700 --> 01:16:30.120 what I'm saying is be self aware of yourself. And I was very self aware. And I was able 1326 01:16:30.180 --> 01:16:34.640 to, things came up. So then the next date I was on, I'm no longer dealing with that 1327 01:16:34.640 --> 01:16:35.840 and I can be fully present. 1328 01:16:37.280 --> 01:16:41.680 Mm hmm. Yeah, I tend to be more either disorganized or avoidant. I don't know which is more strong, 1329 01:16:41.800 --> 01:16:43.160 but they're about the same. 1330 01:16:44.020 --> 01:16:50.120 So, and don't, and you know what? I, I love, okay, I get you guys. I love attachment styles 1331 01:16:50.840 --> 01:16:56.880 for help. I hate it because people label themselves, right? You don't know, really fully know what you 1332 01:16:56.880 --> 01:17:01.940 are. You can think you're one thing or the other and in different, different circuits. So don't 1333 01:17:01.940 --> 01:17:05.660 take labels as an identity, like attachment styles as an identity, right? 1334 01:17:06.140 --> 01:17:12.720 I see it as a road sign to like, that I have an arrow on it pointing back to secure. 1335 01:17:13.360 --> 01:17:16.560 Yeah. So, no, and that's, and that's great because you're using it as a tool, 1336 01:17:16.560 --> 01:17:23.660 but a lot of people use it as a, like a red letter, a scarlet letter, right? I'm avoidant. 1337 01:17:23.800 --> 01:17:27.960 And I'm like, no, you're not. You're just broken, right? And you can be secure because 1338 01:17:27.960 --> 01:17:32.440 Jesus came to set the captives free. So I'm going to have to wrap this up, you guys. 1339 01:17:33.900 --> 01:17:37.000 Can I pray? Can I pray us anything pressing before I pray us out? 1340 01:17:38.560 --> 01:17:41.280 Thank you all for showing up and having a great combo. 1341 01:17:42.160 --> 01:17:43.900 And thank you for doing this, Mike. 1342 01:17:44.360 --> 01:17:48.220 Yeah. So Lord Jesus, I just thank you for every man on this call. 1343 01:17:49.360 --> 01:17:54.160 Lord, we thank you for Charlie Kirk. And maybe we man that we have a legacy like he did. 1344 01:17:54.740 --> 01:17:58.440 Lord, he was only here 31 years, but he impacted the world. Would you use everybody on this call? 1345 01:17:59.040 --> 01:18:02.080 Would you call us? Would you help us walk in the fullness of our identity 1346 01:18:02.380 --> 01:18:06.500 in you and walk in the fullness of our calling? And may we shape the world. 1347 01:18:06.500 --> 01:18:11.680 And I pray that you give us a supernatural sensitivity to everything around it, 1348 01:18:11.680 --> 01:18:15.840 the people around us, and that we would bring your kingdom and we would love on people. 1349 01:18:16.220 --> 01:18:19.460 And many would come to know you just because we're just lights in the world. 1350 01:18:20.100 --> 01:18:23.100 And Lord, I pray for every man on this call, you'd help them with their hurts, 1351 01:18:23.280 --> 01:18:29.200 their hangups, their triggers. Lord, I pray for both Davids and anybody else who has a date, 1352 01:18:29.440 --> 01:18:32.920 that they would be able to show up to this themselves and they'd have a great time. 1353 01:18:33.420 --> 01:18:37.360 Lord, I pray you bring amazing spirit mates for every single person here. 1354 01:18:37.740 --> 01:18:41.340 And Lord, but most of all, that they would feel your love and how much you care for them. 1355 01:18:41.680 --> 01:18:50.300 And I just bless all these guys with joy and shalom. And Lord, I don't know, 1356 01:18:50.600 --> 01:18:54.840 would you just get Abraham the funds for his vision and his mission? 1357 01:18:55.040 --> 01:19:00.360 And anybody else on here who has a call on their lives and a passion, Lord, 1358 01:19:00.360 --> 01:19:07.880 I just pray that you would provide for that vision. And Lord, and we just thank you, 1359 01:19:07.880 --> 01:19:13.300 you're so amazing and that you love us and that no matter what we do, we can come to you. 1360 01:19:13.600 --> 01:19:20.380 And Lord, I pray that you would just encounter us in a new way this week. 1361 01:19:20.660 --> 01:19:22.240 In Jesus name, I pray. Amen. 1362 01:19:24.400 --> 01:19:29.340 Love you all. And David, make sure to end recording, please. 1363 01:19:30.720 --> 01:19:33.740 Okay. How do I do that? 1364 01:19:34.300 --> 01:19:35.060 Just hit end recording. 1365 01:19:40.260 --> 01:19:41.560 All right, buddy. 1366 01:19:42.400 --> 01:19:43.640 All right. Be blessed all. 1367 01:19:47.320 --> 01:19:49.100 Or just leave and I think it'll stop. 1368 01:19:51.140 --> 01:19:52.700 Oh, are you leaving? I'll end it. 1369 01:20:11.520 --> 01:20:12.920 . 1370 01:20:12.920 --> 01:20:12.940 .