WEBVTT 1 00:00:12.060 --> 00:00:13.580 Hello, hello. 2 00:00:17.200 --> 00:00:20.160 There's a reason you can't hear me because I was muted. 3 00:00:22.160 --> 00:00:23.080 No worries. 4 00:00:23.200 --> 00:00:25.900 I did the same thing to Rebecca when I first popped on. 5 00:00:26.540 --> 00:00:28.380 So part of the fun. 6 00:00:29.200 --> 00:00:32.820 Rebecca, did you say Angela was popping back on? 7 00:00:32.900 --> 00:00:32.980 Yeah. 8 00:00:32.980 --> 00:00:34.120 Should we wait a minute? 9 00:00:35.140 --> 00:00:38.120 She was in the lobby and said, nobody was there. 10 00:00:38.220 --> 00:00:39.000 I said, we're on. 11 00:00:39.140 --> 00:00:41.400 So she'll be, she'll be back on, but go ahead. 12 00:00:42.840 --> 00:00:43.280 Yeah. 13 00:00:43.280 --> 00:00:43.980 No problem. 14 00:00:44.320 --> 00:00:46.280 Lisa, how's your week been? 15 00:00:49.160 --> 00:00:50.760 Did I open up a can of worms? 16 00:00:51.380 --> 00:00:55.180 Well, let's just say God is teaching me things. 17 00:00:55.180 --> 00:01:05.180 I got myself in a financial situation that I was concerned about last month and it hit 18 00:01:05.260 --> 00:01:15.460 this month and then money that I've invested out of country, let's just say was the person 19 00:01:15.460 --> 00:01:20.580 who oversaw the funds, the hedge fund is in jail, so everything's frozen. 20 00:01:21.320 --> 00:01:29.420 So I've got 40,000 plus that I was supposed to receive two and a half weeks ago that I 21 00:01:29.420 --> 00:01:33.880 am not going to receive anytime soon, if at all, is my concern. 22 00:01:36.880 --> 00:01:39.200 So I prayed over it. 23 00:01:39.220 --> 00:01:41.000 I was freaking out because I couldn't pay rent. 24 00:01:41.660 --> 00:01:47.460 I put too many eggs in one basket, as they say, and I know better. 25 00:01:49.160 --> 00:01:56.220 Um, so it's, it's God's lit a fire underneath me and I prayed over it and thank God above. 26 00:01:57.120 --> 00:02:03.580 I applied for a loan at the credit union from Texas, where I'm from, and they approved a 27 00:02:03.580 --> 00:02:08.860 loan for $10,000, which will pay, um, my rent for a couple of months and give me a little 28 00:02:08.860 --> 00:02:09.300 extra. 29 00:02:11.120 --> 00:02:12.980 I, uh, that's it. 30 00:02:12.980 --> 00:02:17.220 So I've got to figure something out quickly to get income. 31 00:02:20.360 --> 00:02:24.280 So why have you not applied for a job? 32 00:02:24.860 --> 00:02:25.300 I have. 33 00:02:25.740 --> 00:02:26.020 You have. 34 00:02:26.100 --> 00:02:26.480 Okay. 35 00:02:26.600 --> 00:02:27.060 I have. 36 00:02:27.160 --> 00:02:27.500 Oh yeah. 37 00:02:27.520 --> 00:02:37.140 I've been applying and I interviewed, um, but there's, it's like either I'm way over 38 00:02:37.300 --> 00:02:38.800 the position. 39 00:02:38.960 --> 00:02:42.080 They look at me like she's not going to stay here. 40 00:02:42.860 --> 00:02:49.260 So I, I have to discern and I've been, I've got to pray over at Lord. 41 00:02:49.380 --> 00:02:51.220 How do you want me to set up my resume? 42 00:02:51.220 --> 00:03:00.100 Because I've got, I've got a boatload of skills and, um, project management, it things like 43 00:03:00.100 --> 00:03:00.420 that. 44 00:03:00.500 --> 00:03:03.120 But where I live here, there is no IT. 45 00:03:06.160 --> 00:03:07.200 That is very true. 46 00:03:08.360 --> 00:03:09.640 Yeah, that is very true. 47 00:03:10.920 --> 00:03:18.740 I'm looking, I, because I, I want to relocate as just the, yeah, the heat is too much. 48 00:03:18.860 --> 00:03:24.180 I, my, my health is not tolerating it well, the humidity and such here in Florida. 49 00:03:26.040 --> 00:03:33.040 Um, and I just haven't connected with the right people other than yourselves here. 50 00:03:33.140 --> 00:03:34.080 I get it. 51 00:03:34.540 --> 00:03:41.400 Um, I'm looking to move farther north where it's cooler, not so hot, um, and a little 52 00:03:41.400 --> 00:03:41.960 bit of winter. 53 00:03:42.060 --> 00:03:43.140 I don't want a lot of winter. 54 00:03:43.560 --> 00:03:52.980 Um, so I'm praying over it and looking at conservative states and, um, cause everybody's 55 00:03:52.980 --> 00:03:54.300 like, Oh, Pacific Northwest. 56 00:03:54.300 --> 00:03:55.580 I'm like, woke for me. 57 00:03:55.660 --> 00:03:55.800 Sorry. 58 00:03:55.860 --> 00:03:56.840 I can't go there. 59 00:03:57.000 --> 00:03:59.940 I'm not going to get it. 60 00:04:00.380 --> 00:04:02.500 Um, even though it's beautiful there. 61 00:04:03.100 --> 00:04:07.980 Um, so I've got a few places I've written down and I'm been praying over and looking 62 00:04:08.080 --> 00:04:09.340 for jobs online. 63 00:04:09.560 --> 00:04:11.600 Huntsville, Alabama is the place to be. 64 00:04:11.840 --> 00:04:18.140 I'm thinking because the, they just did a rocket city is going to be the space. 65 00:04:18.600 --> 00:04:20.339 They're moving everything there. 66 00:04:20.339 --> 00:04:23.000 So jobs are going to be abundant there. 67 00:04:23.540 --> 00:04:24.000 From what I hear. 68 00:04:24.020 --> 00:04:25.340 It's a very cool city. 69 00:04:25.340 --> 00:04:26.140 Very cool. 70 00:04:26.260 --> 00:04:27.800 And there's a lot going on. 71 00:04:28.980 --> 00:04:30.020 Um, okay. 72 00:04:31.740 --> 00:04:34.340 So you've gotten this plan together. 73 00:04:34.440 --> 00:04:35.740 You've gotten a little cushion. 74 00:04:36.800 --> 00:04:43.060 Um, do you have an idea on what that looks like for you moving forward? 75 00:04:43.060 --> 00:04:48.920 As far as, am I like, if I were asked, if I were in this position and asking myself 76 00:04:48.920 --> 00:04:56.380 these questions, am I going to get a job elsewhere and just move to that place for the job? 77 00:04:56.460 --> 00:04:59.940 Or am I going to stay put, get some savings? 78 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:05.900 things, get myself together and focus on then going where I want to go. 79 00:05:06.580 --> 00:05:08.680 Um, what is your heart telling you with that? 80 00:05:10.960 --> 00:05:13.640 Well, getting savings, I don't have an income. 81 00:05:13.940 --> 00:05:16.760 My goal was to have that $40,000. 82 00:05:17.380 --> 00:05:20.240 Actually it's a, it's over $70,000 total. 83 00:05:20.960 --> 00:05:27.940 And my goal was to have that and just go find where I want to live 84 00:05:27.940 --> 00:05:32.240 because for six, you know, 45 years of my life, I've always worked 85 00:05:32.240 --> 00:05:33.620 jobs that I don't really like. 86 00:05:37.420 --> 00:05:41.920 So we've been in this position before also, I'm sure Angela has as well. 87 00:05:42.020 --> 00:05:46.220 I'm sure Rebecca has as well, where, you know, we think that a certain amount 88 00:05:46.220 --> 00:05:51.380 of money is coming in, or we think that, you know, this is the best thing that 89 00:05:51.380 --> 00:05:56.000 we've ever done and all of a sudden it just crumbles at our feet and we 90 00:05:56.060 --> 00:05:57.480 don't even know what happened. 91 00:05:57.480 --> 00:05:58.560 How did we get here? 92 00:05:59.340 --> 00:06:07.520 And so really God doesn't care much about the places that we have, the 93 00:06:07.520 --> 00:06:10.740 things that we have, of course, the different things that we have in our 94 00:06:11.020 --> 00:06:13.220 life, but it's about the lessons. 95 00:06:13.400 --> 00:06:16.340 It's about your heart and it's about the people that you meet along the way. 96 00:06:16.400 --> 00:06:16.660 Right. 97 00:06:16.660 --> 00:06:17.660 We've talked about that. 98 00:06:18.200 --> 00:06:24.520 So I would really be praying into God, what are you trying to show me here 99 00:06:24.520 --> 00:06:26.700 so that this doesn't happen again? 100 00:06:26.700 --> 00:06:29.000 Like, how did, how did we get here? 101 00:06:29.440 --> 00:06:30.860 How did I get here? 102 00:06:31.380 --> 00:06:32.720 Was this your will for me? 103 00:06:32.900 --> 00:06:34.740 Was this something that I did on my own? 104 00:06:35.340 --> 00:06:38.340 And what lessons, I know you turn everything for good. 105 00:06:38.360 --> 00:06:42.300 So what lessons are you teaching me here in this space, in this moment? 106 00:06:43.440 --> 00:06:46.680 Because we need to know, how did we get here? 107 00:06:46.980 --> 00:06:48.180 Was it greed? 108 00:06:48.620 --> 00:06:50.100 Was it get rich quick? 109 00:06:50.340 --> 00:06:54.840 Was it, you know, a lack of, of discipline? 110 00:06:54.840 --> 00:06:59.260 Was it, I, and I, and I don't know this in any way, shape or form. 111 00:06:59.260 --> 00:07:02.600 I'm just, I'm telling you from my own experience, right? 112 00:07:02.600 --> 00:07:07.060 Like this, these are things that came up for me, um, along the way. 113 00:07:07.060 --> 00:07:15.600 Was it, um, was it that I wouldn't humble myself to just go with your will 114 00:07:15.600 --> 00:07:17.700 and go with where you wanted me to be? 115 00:07:17.700 --> 00:07:25.740 Because ultimately all of us know what his will is for us. 116 00:07:25.860 --> 00:07:26.660 We really do. 117 00:07:27.640 --> 00:07:33.040 And intuitively in our intuition, we really know what it is, but we have 118 00:07:33.040 --> 00:07:39.340 such a hard time going with it because we're too worried about fill in the 119 00:07:39.630 --> 00:07:49.370 people, money, um, tough conversations, uh, even, even, uh, uh, life or death, 120 00:07:49.410 --> 00:07:54.410 you know, we're too, we're too concerned about those things, but ultimately I 121 00:07:54.410 --> 00:08:00.750 believe that each and every one of us knows what his will is for us to a degree. 122 00:08:00.750 --> 00:08:03.870 And we're just running the other way because we're too consumed 123 00:08:03.870 --> 00:08:05.290 and worried about those things. 124 00:08:07.410 --> 00:08:17.070 And so I would just walk in this space with complete openness for the next path 125 00:08:17.070 --> 00:08:19.830 that you're the next journey that you're going to go on. 126 00:08:20.870 --> 00:08:29.430 Um, it's at points in my life, you know, I've been to the point where I am just so 127 00:08:29.430 --> 00:08:33.549 humbled, I'll put it that way, although that's a very kind of nonchalant, 128 00:08:33.549 --> 00:08:35.130 lightweight of putting it. 129 00:08:35.130 --> 00:08:42.230 I have been so humbled by God that I've told him, okay, literally, if you just 130 00:08:42.230 --> 00:08:50.710 want me to stop what I'm doing and go get a job and not focus on online at all, not 131 00:08:50.710 --> 00:08:55.810 even put any of my focus into social media and not put anything, just completely shut 132 00:08:55.810 --> 00:08:56.290 it off. 133 00:08:56.390 --> 00:08:58.170 Like that, that's where I'm at. 134 00:08:58.170 --> 00:09:03.030 I got so frustrated with the transaction, got so frustrated with where I was at in 135 00:09:03.030 --> 00:09:03.590 my business. 136 00:09:03.590 --> 00:09:06.230 One time I was just like, God, you know what? 137 00:09:06.370 --> 00:09:10.090 I don't even, it's not that I don't care about you and I don't care about the 138 00:09:10.090 --> 00:09:13.990 people in my life, but I don't even care anymore where the circumstances, when you 139 00:09:13.990 --> 00:09:18.730 get to that indifference around your circumstance and you're truly just like, 140 00:09:19.070 --> 00:09:19.750 you know what? 141 00:09:20.730 --> 00:09:21.510 I don't even care. 142 00:09:21.590 --> 00:09:24.570 If I get kicked out of this place, I'll figure it out. 143 00:09:24.730 --> 00:09:26.110 Like, I don't even care. 144 00:09:26.310 --> 00:09:31.230 I'm just going to do what I need to do, whatever that looks like and focus on the 145 00:09:31.300 --> 00:09:33.320 next path and then that's the next journey. 146 00:09:34.520 --> 00:09:36.080 We've said this over and over. 147 00:09:36.200 --> 00:09:38.060 I know I have, I'm sure Ray has as well. 148 00:09:38.380 --> 00:09:40.040 It's amazing what shows up. 149 00:09:40.140 --> 00:09:42.200 You don't do it for that expectation. 150 00:09:42.580 --> 00:09:43.440 That's the key. 151 00:09:43.540 --> 00:09:47.000 You really do get to that place, but it's amazing what shows up. 152 00:09:47.140 --> 00:09:47.620 So. 153 00:09:48.540 --> 00:09:54.100 I just feel like you're running from something you're running from, um, a 154 00:09:54.100 --> 00:09:59.420 certain identity that you don't want to step into because you're worried about 155 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:04.460 in the blank. I don't know exactly what the specifics are, but it just seems like you're 156 00:10:04.620 --> 00:10:12.280 really concerned about an identity that either you swore to yourself you'd never become or you 157 00:10:12.280 --> 00:10:20.400 swore to yourself would never happen to you. And God is so funny. He's so funny. Every time I say 158 00:10:20.470 --> 00:10:31.090 never, I honestly, I think every time he's been like, oh, yeah. Oh, really? I will never do this 159 00:10:31.090 --> 00:10:37.170 or that. I will never live there. I will never talk to that person. I we will never be best 160 00:10:37.170 --> 00:10:42.790 friends. Every time I I will never own that company. I will never take that listing. Every 161 00:10:42.790 --> 00:10:50.270 time I say never, he's like, oh, really? Never? Uh huh. That's I got you here. I got you here. 162 00:10:50.270 --> 00:10:55.790 I'm going to have some fun with you. So I think he's having fun with you so that you learn the 163 00:10:56.530 --> 00:11:04.890 lesson. And just I love Graham Cook's question that he asks and he teaches us to ask, which is, 164 00:11:05.310 --> 00:11:13.490 God, what are you inviting me into? What are you inviting me into? Whenever there's something that 165 00:11:13.490 --> 00:11:17.810 scares you, that makes you nervous, makes you uncomfortable, he's inviting you into something 166 00:11:17.810 --> 00:11:22.010 and he's right there alongside you with you, inviting you into it. 167 00:11:22.250 --> 00:11:27.530 Lord, what are you inviting me into? Are you inviting me into trusting you more? Are you 168 00:11:27.530 --> 00:11:33.430 inviting me into breaking my old identity off completely so that I step into who you are, 169 00:11:33.590 --> 00:11:40.870 who I am in you and and I step into your nature so that all of this other stuff around me is just 170 00:11:41.050 --> 00:11:47.430 not as real as you are. You know, all of these things can be answered from that simple question. 171 00:11:47.430 --> 00:11:57.510 So from my perspective, and this is just my perspective, I think there's an identity that 172 00:11:57.510 --> 00:12:07.170 he wants you to break or where you hold your identity. And so just curious on your thoughts. 173 00:12:09.370 --> 00:12:15.850 When you said you're running from something, it hit home because when I left New York State, 174 00:12:15.850 --> 00:12:23.730 where I grew up for 45 years and ran to Texas as quick as I could. Yeah, I was running away from 175 00:12:24.530 --> 00:12:30.810 toxic family talk. Everything was, you know, I had recently probably 176 00:12:32.130 --> 00:12:41.230 a year or two before I moved. I became born again. I found Jesus if 47 or something like that, 177 00:12:41.230 --> 00:12:46.990 but it's beautiful. And it was cool. And I had always dreamed of living in Texas. So 178 00:12:46.990 --> 00:12:55.630 in a way it was running away, yet I was so connected to him and I could hear God every 179 00:12:55.630 --> 00:13:06.670 moment of every day. And I and I'm wanting that I do here, but I second guess it now. 180 00:13:07.730 --> 00:13:11.490 Is that you? Is that really you? Because I don't know anymore. 181 00:13:13.170 --> 00:13:23.710 And that's the part that's challenging because I want to fully rely on God in every part of my life. 182 00:13:25.670 --> 00:13:30.210 And I'm just I tend to take control, which is not healthy. 183 00:13:34.490 --> 00:13:43.950 Well, in Graham's words, he would say that you just stop wanting, stop trying, 184 00:13:44.550 --> 00:13:53.510 stop focusing on why do I control and just be the new creation? Just be don't focus on the old. 185 00:13:54.390 --> 00:14:00.190 It doesn't matter. It's gone. It's dead. And just be just being in the new, which is very 186 00:14:00.190 --> 00:14:11.810 challenging, by the way, super challenging. And really, I just think keep leaning into 187 00:14:11.910 --> 00:14:16.710 what you just shared. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing that. I know that's 188 00:14:16.710 --> 00:14:23.710 not easy, but just keep leaning into what you just shared in that. I always want to take control. 189 00:14:23.870 --> 00:14:29.170 I'm going to lean into the new and I'm not going to focus on why that is or 190 00:14:29.170 --> 00:14:36.690 any of those past things. I'm just going to focus on leaning into the new. And that's I feel like 191 00:14:36.690 --> 00:14:42.450 with for at least my personal life, that's when he shows up the most when I when I actually 192 00:14:42.610 --> 00:14:49.170 recognize that those aren't my thoughts. When I actually become self-aware that those aren't my 193 00:14:49.270 --> 00:14:59.970 thoughts. I start leaning into how he sees me, the next path, the next step and focus. 194 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:02.360 focus on how that's just all a distraction. 195 00:15:02.800 --> 00:15:04.200 Like all this that you're going through 196 00:15:04.200 --> 00:15:05.300 is just a distraction. 197 00:15:07.400 --> 00:15:09.700 And all of a sudden you become clear. 198 00:15:10.840 --> 00:15:12.620 But you have to be self-aware 199 00:15:13.180 --> 00:15:16.300 that none of those things are your own thoughts. 200 00:15:16.780 --> 00:15:17.720 Does that make sense? 201 00:15:18.580 --> 00:15:19.000 Absolutely. 202 00:15:19.460 --> 00:15:23.700 And I've been over the past three plus months, 203 00:15:23.740 --> 00:15:26.460 I've been recognizing more and more often 204 00:15:26.640 --> 00:15:28.940 that all of a sudden these negative thoughts 205 00:15:28.940 --> 00:15:29.680 come into my head. 206 00:15:29.680 --> 00:15:31.500 And we talked about it the last time we met. 207 00:15:31.680 --> 00:15:34.280 And I went, wait a minute, what the heck? 208 00:15:34.680 --> 00:15:35.760 This is not my thoughts. 209 00:15:35.800 --> 00:15:36.960 These are not God's thoughts. 210 00:15:37.120 --> 00:15:39.720 And then I'll, what I used to do when I first got saved, 211 00:15:39.840 --> 00:15:43.180 I'd yell out, get behind these, Satan, you got no, 212 00:15:43.320 --> 00:15:46.740 and I'd be all the wild child, you know, rebuking, 213 00:15:47.340 --> 00:15:48.320 which is good. 214 00:15:50.420 --> 00:15:51.860 Yeah, and that's okay. 215 00:15:51.860 --> 00:15:54.580 See, that's where I'm like, do I need to be more calm? 216 00:15:54.620 --> 00:15:57.360 Because I see so many other people that are beautiful 217 00:15:57.360 --> 00:15:59.880 and Christ-like, and they're so calm. 218 00:15:59.940 --> 00:16:01.400 Like you and Rebecca were me. 219 00:16:01.420 --> 00:16:04.120 I'm that like, get out of my face, I'm done with you. 220 00:16:06.300 --> 00:16:08.700 So you don't need to be like anybody. 221 00:16:09.700 --> 00:16:11.600 You are who you are. 222 00:16:11.900 --> 00:16:14.080 And so I would just lean into 223 00:16:14.080 --> 00:16:16.880 what feels right in your spirit. 224 00:16:16.980 --> 00:16:20.480 There's a difference obviously between the emotions, right, 225 00:16:20.480 --> 00:16:22.280 of what feels comfortable 226 00:16:22.320 --> 00:16:24.420 and what feels right in your spirit. 227 00:16:24.420 --> 00:16:27.460 And I've noticed that certain things that I do 228 00:16:27.460 --> 00:16:29.460 feel really right for me in my spirit. 229 00:16:29.580 --> 00:16:31.760 I know in my heart of hearts, 230 00:16:31.820 --> 00:16:34.660 and it goes back to what I said 231 00:16:34.660 --> 00:16:35.740 at the beginning of this conversation, 232 00:16:35.740 --> 00:16:39.320 in that we really know in our spirit 233 00:16:39.320 --> 00:16:41.320 what God's will is for our life, 234 00:16:41.320 --> 00:16:43.700 because when we do those things, 235 00:16:44.040 --> 00:16:47.320 or when we act that way, 236 00:16:47.480 --> 00:16:52.780 or we live into that divine purpose, 237 00:16:53.740 --> 00:16:55.580 we feel it. 238 00:16:55.820 --> 00:16:58.620 We're like, yeah, this is awesome. 239 00:17:00.780 --> 00:17:02.280 I may be failing at this. 240 00:17:02.680 --> 00:17:03.960 I may be sucking at this. 241 00:17:04.240 --> 00:17:05.240 I may be horrible at this. 242 00:17:05.380 --> 00:17:07.640 This may be the most embarrassing thing I've ever done, 243 00:17:08.040 --> 00:17:11.240 but also it feels so right in my spirit. 244 00:17:11.900 --> 00:17:13.240 Like all those other things 245 00:17:13.240 --> 00:17:15.579 are distractions of emotions, right? 246 00:17:15.579 --> 00:17:16.880 But if it feels right, 247 00:17:16.920 --> 00:17:19.200 like yeah, I'm actually joyful around this, 248 00:17:19.220 --> 00:17:21.060 even though I'm kind of sucking at it, 249 00:17:22.020 --> 00:17:23.180 that's when you get better. 250 00:17:23.480 --> 00:17:26.720 He's honing you and making you become. 251 00:17:27.900 --> 00:17:30.400 He's helping you become, right? 252 00:17:31.040 --> 00:17:34.440 So the circumstances in your life currently, 253 00:17:35.100 --> 00:17:36.420 and we've been there. 254 00:17:36.720 --> 00:17:40.080 So again, I'm just speaking from personal experience, 255 00:17:40.820 --> 00:17:42.220 because that's all we have really. 256 00:17:42.640 --> 00:17:45.380 The circumstances in your life are a distraction. 257 00:17:45.940 --> 00:17:48.340 It's all a distraction and a learning lesson. 258 00:17:48.360 --> 00:17:49.180 At the same time, 259 00:17:49.180 --> 00:17:51.860 he'll take what was meant for evil 260 00:17:51.860 --> 00:17:53.680 and turn it for good, right? 261 00:17:54.600 --> 00:17:56.420 So let him turn it for good. 262 00:17:57.460 --> 00:17:59.120 Stop wasting time on the distraction 263 00:17:59.120 --> 00:18:01.220 and all the things that happened 264 00:18:01.540 --> 00:18:05.080 up until this exact moment, 10, 21 a.m. Eastern. 265 00:18:06.160 --> 00:18:08.420 The stuff previously, it's all a distraction. 266 00:18:08.600 --> 00:18:09.240 It doesn't matter. 267 00:18:10.280 --> 00:18:13.820 Start allowing him to turn it for good. 268 00:18:16.140 --> 00:18:17.900 And you'll be surprised. 269 00:18:17.900 --> 00:18:20.020 It's something that pops up on your screen. 270 00:18:20.440 --> 00:18:26.980 Maybe it's a job article or a posting advertisement, 271 00:18:27.100 --> 00:18:29.780 or maybe it's a person that you haven't seen in years, 272 00:18:29.800 --> 00:18:31.640 or maybe someone shoots you a text, 273 00:18:31.720 --> 00:18:35.320 or just really, really start paying attention 274 00:18:35.980 --> 00:18:40.460 and allowing, because I know the space that you've been in, 275 00:18:40.460 --> 00:18:43.160 and you can't be present in that space, 276 00:18:43.180 --> 00:18:45.500 and you can't allow in that space. 277 00:18:46.060 --> 00:18:48.480 And so you've got to shift 278 00:18:48.480 --> 00:18:50.720 from the fight or flight worry space 279 00:18:50.720 --> 00:18:54.520 to the, all right, 10, 21 a.m. Eastern. 280 00:18:54.860 --> 00:18:57.480 Everything previous to this moment was a distraction. 281 00:18:57.800 --> 00:18:59.520 I'm supposed to learn something from this. 282 00:18:59.720 --> 00:19:00.460 I know that, God. 283 00:19:01.140 --> 00:19:02.720 Thank you for helping me trust you, 284 00:19:02.760 --> 00:19:04.700 and I'm moving into the promise, 285 00:19:04.700 --> 00:19:07.280 and I'm moving into how you're turning this for good. 286 00:19:07.960 --> 00:19:09.980 And that waiting period, 287 00:19:09.980 --> 00:19:11.740 we don't know how long that's gonna be, 288 00:19:11.800 --> 00:19:13.380 but you're trusting in that waiting 289 00:19:13.900 --> 00:19:16.580 that it's going to be absolutely beautiful. 290 00:19:16.860 --> 00:19:19.100 And we talked about, you know, 291 00:19:19.360 --> 00:19:21.320 whenever I'm struggling trusting God, 292 00:19:22.140 --> 00:19:25.120 what helps me, which I don't know, honestly, 293 00:19:25.280 --> 00:19:27.060 if this is the best practice or not, 294 00:19:27.140 --> 00:19:29.080 but it's helped me, so I'm gonna share it, 295 00:19:29.260 --> 00:19:31.120 is looking at worst-case scenario, 296 00:19:31.960 --> 00:19:35.060 because it helps me become indifferent around the situation. 297 00:19:35.060 --> 00:19:37.520 It helps me understand who I am 298 00:19:38.120 --> 00:19:40.340 and get back to my true identity, 299 00:19:40.400 --> 00:19:42.560 because I'm not as worried about the circumstance 300 00:19:42.560 --> 00:19:45.220 or the problem or the old creation habits 301 00:19:45.220 --> 00:19:47.140 that I fell into previously. 302 00:19:47.740 --> 00:19:50.880 Now I can focus on allowing him to turn it for good. 303 00:19:51.460 --> 00:19:52.560 Does that help? 304 00:19:54.300 --> 00:19:54.680 Yes. 305 00:19:55.280 --> 00:19:56.660 Yes, it does. 306 00:19:59.140 --> 00:19:59.820 And... 307 00:20:01.700 --> 00:20:10.720 Yeah, it gives me peace and just, just you saying 10, 21am Eastern time, I'm like, wow, 308 00:20:10.720 --> 00:20:11.840 we got a timestamp. 309 00:20:12.900 --> 00:20:20.240 It was like, it's, it's like it lit something up inside me going, yes, make that decision. 310 00:20:20.960 --> 00:20:21.320 It's done. 311 00:20:21.380 --> 00:20:22.000 It's finished. 312 00:20:22.280 --> 00:20:23.340 That's what Jesus said. 313 00:20:23.500 --> 00:20:24.280 It's over. 314 00:20:25.660 --> 00:20:26.640 Love that. 315 00:20:27.640 --> 00:20:28.520 Thank you. 316 00:20:30.260 --> 00:20:31.240 Of course. 317 00:20:31.520 --> 00:20:35.760 I know the big things are happening for you, happening for you. 318 00:20:36.160 --> 00:20:36.600 Thank you. 319 00:20:37.460 --> 00:20:40.800 And I keep in this, these are thoughts that come into my head. 320 00:20:41.060 --> 00:20:42.500 I went through that. 321 00:20:43.240 --> 00:20:46.720 It's a program Ray went through with, I forget her name anyways. 322 00:20:47.220 --> 00:20:55.960 But they kept telling me I was a victim, like a victim and over the past, probably a week 323 00:20:55.960 --> 00:21:03.260 to 10 days, I've been catching my thoughts as a victim and I'm thinking to myself, I've 324 00:21:03.260 --> 00:21:06.020 been like this and I didn't even recognize it. 325 00:21:06.240 --> 00:21:07.400 So that's a good thing. 326 00:21:08.280 --> 00:21:09.240 That's a great thing. 327 00:21:09.620 --> 00:21:10.100 Yeah. 328 00:21:10.240 --> 00:21:12.320 And, and I'm like, I'm not a victim. 329 00:21:12.660 --> 00:21:18.200 I'm, I'm a, I don't know what the right word would be, but I'm a child of God. 330 00:21:18.200 --> 00:21:21.200 I am a brave, a bold and loving child of God. 331 00:21:22.200 --> 00:21:22.280 Amen. 332 00:21:22.720 --> 00:21:23.340 Own that. 333 00:21:23.600 --> 00:21:24.860 Yes, I am a victor. 334 00:21:25.620 --> 00:21:28.980 Victory is my name of my team in color street. 335 00:21:29.540 --> 00:21:30.700 I love that. 336 00:21:30.840 --> 00:21:34.860 You're, I mean, your story will be inspiring and incredible. 337 00:21:35.860 --> 00:21:36.380 Yeah. 338 00:21:36.600 --> 00:21:41.440 And that's, that's one thing Ray mentioned to me on Voxer the other day, when I sent 339 00:21:41.440 --> 00:21:45.720 out the prayer request, he sent me a private thing and he's like, Lisa, think about it. 340 00:21:45.940 --> 00:21:51.920 You've had 40 years to get here because I, I told him, I said, I keep having those negative 341 00:21:51.920 --> 00:21:57.560 thoughts and saying, look at you, you're 62 years old and you ain't got a dime, no 342 00:21:57.560 --> 00:21:58.840 retirement, you got nothing. 343 00:21:59.600 --> 00:22:02.700 And it's, it's, it hurts. 344 00:22:03.500 --> 00:22:08.440 Yet Ray, the way he worded it, just like you did Jessica's, I'm going to have the most 345 00:22:08.440 --> 00:22:09.360 amazing story. 346 00:22:09.460 --> 00:22:18.420 And it's not a get rich quick, it's, it's, it's a 40 year journey to, to get to where 347 00:22:18.420 --> 00:22:19.540 God wants me to be. 348 00:22:20.140 --> 00:22:22.880 And it's not your identity, right? 349 00:22:22.900 --> 00:22:24.100 Like it's not your money. 350 00:22:25.380 --> 00:22:28.620 So we put so much of our identity and money. 351 00:22:28.680 --> 00:22:30.340 It's just, it's not your money. 352 00:22:30.980 --> 00:22:36.840 Well, and I'm sorry to interrupt, but ironically you say that when I sold my house in Texas, 353 00:22:36.980 --> 00:22:43.060 the first lady that came to look at it, she's like, Oh, your house is so well-maintained. 354 00:22:43.060 --> 00:22:44.480 I'm like, it's not my house. 355 00:22:44.500 --> 00:22:45.280 She goes, what do you mean? 356 00:22:45.280 --> 00:22:46.100 It's not your house. 357 00:22:46.400 --> 00:22:47.780 I said, Oh, this is God's house. 358 00:22:47.780 --> 00:22:51.200 Everything I've have is God's. 359 00:22:52.320 --> 00:22:53.640 And she went, wow. 360 00:22:55.340 --> 00:22:56.520 And made an offer. 361 00:22:56.640 --> 00:23:04.900 And I moved to Florida, you know, and that's how I really believe everything is his. 362 00:23:05.140 --> 00:23:05.900 It's not mine. 363 00:23:06.540 --> 00:23:09.340 I can't take it with me when I go, why would it be mine? 364 00:23:10.300 --> 00:23:10.820 Yeah. 365 00:23:10.820 --> 00:23:21.520 So we tend to, when it goes away, we tend to blame God, but when it comes, we tend to 366 00:23:21.680 --> 00:23:26.300 just forget that that's who gave it to us in the first place, right? 367 00:23:26.900 --> 00:23:34.520 So the same God that gives it to us can take it away and vice versa, right? 368 00:23:34.560 --> 00:23:37.600 So it's just your identity isn't there. 369 00:23:37.600 --> 00:23:43.240 And that's why I think there's something there that really needs, should be honed. 370 00:23:44.080 --> 00:23:48.360 And obviously I don't know what that is, but I just know that you're just at the brink 371 00:23:48.560 --> 00:23:54.380 of some really, really incredible breakthroughs that come from this experience. 372 00:23:55.160 --> 00:23:59.740 You know, thank you for this experience because you're putting me in the furnace, God, and 373 00:23:59.740 --> 00:24:05.220 I'm going to come out a stronger, more adaptable human. 374 00:24:07.400 --> 00:24:10.100 And it sounds cliche, but it's so true. 375 00:24:10.220 --> 00:24:12.920 I mean, I'm so grateful for all of those experiences. 376 00:24:14.360 --> 00:24:16.840 They, I would have been an absolute idiot. 377 00:24:17.000 --> 00:24:25.920 I would have been a complete, just total idiot, less compassionate for, for what you're going 378 00:24:25.920 --> 00:24:26.840 through, all those things. 379 00:24:26.840 --> 00:24:30.480 If I hadn't been through it myself, I wouldn't have been able to help anybody going through 380 00:24:30.480 --> 00:24:32.100 it if I hadn't been through it myself. 381 00:24:32.700 --> 00:24:40.700 So he's just forming your story and, and you're becoming, but yeah, it's not your identity. 382 00:24:40.700 --> 00:24:47.020 You're, you're not even 62 years old, you know, your body is, but so what it's your 383 00:24:47.300 --> 00:24:55.200 body that has nothing to do with how fast or how slow your acceleration, at least 384 00:24:55.280 --> 00:24:56.720 monetarily is. 385 00:24:56.720 --> 00:24:59.980 And so the same God that, you know, created. 386 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:07.420 It's billion dollar companies in five years can create negative bank accounts. 387 00:25:07.640 --> 00:25:12.220 It's just, you don't know what this next journey is. 388 00:25:12.300 --> 00:25:17.600 So Lord, what are you welcoming me into and get excited over this new, I mean, 389 00:25:17.620 --> 00:25:22.140 he's really, he's given you a fresh start when you think about it. 390 00:25:22.380 --> 00:25:29.140 When you, when you lose everything that you've, you know, you thought you would 391 00:25:29.140 --> 00:25:30.260 be in this place. 392 00:25:30.280 --> 00:25:35.900 And I listened to an incredible sermon from Stephen Furtick, um, about this, 393 00:25:35.900 --> 00:25:40.640 but he said that the one thing that we humans always get wrong is when we say, 394 00:25:40.980 --> 00:25:44.860 I thought, I thought it would be this way. 395 00:25:44.860 --> 00:25:47.160 I thought I would be here by now. 396 00:25:47.160 --> 00:25:49.540 I thought this would happen faster. 397 00:25:49.580 --> 00:25:55.060 I thought, and that's not his thoughts. 398 00:25:55.340 --> 00:25:57.520 That's not even your thoughts. 399 00:25:57.520 --> 00:25:59.140 Those are the enemy's thoughts. 400 00:25:59.960 --> 00:26:02.960 And so put, you know, those are being placed in you. 401 00:26:02.980 --> 00:26:07.420 Like I thought that frustration I thought, and then you become more and more angry 402 00:26:07.420 --> 00:26:15.680 and mad and, and then it's getting into that space and the second thoughts that 403 00:26:15.680 --> 00:26:23.040 come into your mind that really help you to, to resonate and, and, and marinate on 404 00:26:23.040 --> 00:26:23.360 those. 405 00:26:23.380 --> 00:26:25.840 Those are the ones that you really pay attention to. 406 00:26:25.840 --> 00:26:32.420 The second thoughts of when you start praising God and you get into his, his 407 00:26:32.420 --> 00:26:38.160 nature and, and you become indifferent over the situation, those thoughts are 408 00:26:38.160 --> 00:26:39.620 the ones to take seriously. 409 00:26:39.900 --> 00:26:44.040 And that might help too, with some of the confusion that, that you're feeling, but 410 00:26:44.040 --> 00:26:45.280 it's not your identity. 411 00:26:45.880 --> 00:26:52.680 And the quicker that you recognize that, and it's not that you don't recognize it, 412 00:26:52.680 --> 00:26:56.440 but the quicker that you live, live in that, you said, everything is God's. 413 00:26:56.760 --> 00:26:58.320 Well, apparently not. 414 00:26:58.320 --> 00:26:58.740 Right. 415 00:26:58.740 --> 00:27:00.700 Cause we go step into that place of worry. 416 00:27:00.800 --> 00:27:06.120 And I'm just, again, speaking from experience, not coming down on you. 417 00:27:06.120 --> 00:27:11.580 I've done the same thing about 50,000 times, but I get it. 418 00:27:12.820 --> 00:27:16.200 When, when I get into that place, I now I get it. 419 00:27:16.200 --> 00:27:18.460 I'm like, oh yeah, I said this was yours. 420 00:27:18.480 --> 00:27:18.840 Oh yeah. 421 00:27:18.840 --> 00:27:22.700 I said my daughter after she got suspended from school the other day, true story. 422 00:27:23.060 --> 00:27:23.440 Oh yeah. 423 00:27:23.440 --> 00:27:24.680 I said, she was yours. 424 00:27:24.740 --> 00:27:26.640 I'm not going to be embarrassed over this. 425 00:27:26.940 --> 00:27:28.940 This is not, she's your child. 426 00:27:29.360 --> 00:27:31.180 She's not even mine. 427 00:27:31.220 --> 00:27:38.380 I love her with all of my heart as a human can, but she's, she's yours and I've done 428 00:27:38.380 --> 00:27:39.840 everything that you've told me to do. 429 00:27:39.840 --> 00:27:43.660 And so I can't tell you the difference she's made in the last few days. 430 00:27:48.080 --> 00:27:48.820 Thank you. 431 00:27:49.440 --> 00:27:55.560 And as I believe it is surrounding money in some way, even though I do recognize 432 00:27:55.560 --> 00:28:00.460 everything is his, the skills I've learned, the gifts I have are from God. 433 00:28:01.760 --> 00:28:06.080 Um, but it's something to do with money and it's, I'm not sure what it is. 434 00:28:06.680 --> 00:28:08.640 It's, it's, well, don't try and figure it out. 435 00:28:08.760 --> 00:28:10.420 Just walk in his obedience. 436 00:28:10.740 --> 00:28:10.980 Right. 437 00:28:11.580 --> 00:28:12.720 I think that's a lot of it. 438 00:28:13.240 --> 00:28:14.400 I'm a solution finder. 439 00:28:14.640 --> 00:28:16.700 I seem to think I have to figure everything out. 440 00:28:16.720 --> 00:28:19.580 And I wrote that down this morning, figure it out was the phrase. 441 00:28:19.660 --> 00:28:21.900 And I'm like, do I really need to? 442 00:28:23.500 --> 00:28:28.700 I was actually, and, um, thank you, Lisa, again, for, for sharing all of that. 443 00:28:28.820 --> 00:28:35.840 And Angela, I'll get to you next, but I was actually reflecting on this the other 444 00:28:35.840 --> 00:28:44.640 day, something happened where, um, the, the, the family that rebuilt the twin 445 00:28:45.060 --> 00:28:47.080 towers I've been working with. 446 00:28:47.540 --> 00:28:54.580 Um, and I was trying to be super uber aware, like, you know, what we just talked 447 00:28:54.580 --> 00:28:58.600 about, about just recognizing every little thing that's come into my, I'm 448 00:28:58.600 --> 00:29:02.540 just really working on being uber aware of where God shows up because I don't 449 00:29:02.540 --> 00:29:09.220 want to forget, you know, when things are going well, it's just instant. 450 00:29:09.300 --> 00:29:12.920 It's like an instinct that we, we tend to, you know, praise him in the moment 451 00:29:12.920 --> 00:29:14.960 and then forget, and I don't want to forget. 452 00:29:15.700 --> 00:29:20.120 So I was really being hyper aware of how did this happen? 453 00:29:21.020 --> 00:29:25.700 How in the world am I sitting here working with, I mean, there's 454 00:29:25.700 --> 00:29:29.040 celebrities up in New York, you know, working with the developers who 455 00:29:29.040 --> 00:29:32.220 rebuilt the twin towers and have done so much with New York. 456 00:29:32.220 --> 00:29:34.880 I'm like, how did this even happen? 457 00:29:35.260 --> 00:29:38.140 And reflecting on it, I was just like blown away. 458 00:29:38.340 --> 00:29:44.840 I could, I could just go, go into tears over it because I would have never seen 459 00:29:44.840 --> 00:29:50.380 that in a million years, the different things that have happened, I, I would 460 00:29:50.380 --> 00:29:57.460 have never, ever, ever put that together in my head, ever, and, you know, something 461 00:29:57.460 --> 00:29:59.500 would come into my, into my world. 462 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:06.380 and or someone and I just would blow it off like this is just a haphazardly thing that's 463 00:30:06.380 --> 00:30:11.680 happening that I'm creating or that you know just going along with daily life that just happens. 464 00:30:11.980 --> 00:30:16.800 This is just something that happens and I looked back and really connected the dots and found that 465 00:30:16.800 --> 00:30:25.620 it doesn't just happen. You know, it doesn't just happen. It's incredible the way God works 466 00:30:26.960 --> 00:30:34.180 and understand that you will never understand what's happening in the moment and until 467 00:30:34.980 --> 00:30:38.900 one of the many promises that he has for your life is fulfilled. 468 00:30:41.080 --> 00:30:48.240 So there may be somebody that you see at the CVS today, you know, that you meet and you don't even 469 00:30:48.240 --> 00:30:52.180 understand why they're in your in your world today but they're in your world for a reason. 470 00:30:52.180 --> 00:30:57.480 You will never understand it or figure it out until that promise that he has for you with 471 00:30:57.480 --> 00:31:07.780 that particular person is fulfilled. Thank you. You're beautiful. Thank you. Oh, you're beautiful. 472 00:31:11.180 --> 00:31:13.640 Angela, are you there? What's going on in your world? 473 00:31:16.600 --> 00:31:27.280 Hey, everyone. Good morning. Good morning. So yeah, so just being still 474 00:31:28.680 --> 00:31:40.540 waiting on God. Things can be really messy and God's got a plan and we're walking in victory 475 00:31:40.540 --> 00:31:55.980 because this life is but a vapor and we've already won eternity and so yeah, so just 476 00:31:58.940 --> 00:32:06.800 one of my favorites is Reinhardt Bunke and he, do you guys know who Reinhardt Bunke is? 477 00:32:07.600 --> 00:32:17.080 Oh man. How do you spell it? Oh, don't ask me to say it. So I'm sure if I just look it up at all. 478 00:32:17.340 --> 00:32:25.840 Okay. So he is the Billy Graham of Africa, Africa. So at age, he passed away at age 79, 479 00:32:25.840 --> 00:32:37.520 leading 79 million people to Jesus. And yeah, he was a German who as a little boy was showed 480 00:32:37.720 --> 00:32:45.120 through God that he was going to go to Africa and lead Africa to Jesus. And he ended his life, 481 00:32:46.760 --> 00:32:52.940 life's days in Orlando. And when I found out about him probably three years ago, 482 00:32:52.940 --> 00:32:56.860 because he died on my daughter's birthday and I thought my pastor knew him. Anyway, 483 00:32:56.900 --> 00:33:02.800 I read his autobiography, which will totally blow your socks off if you ever want an amazing read. 484 00:33:05.920 --> 00:33:10.820 But my heart's desire was I'm like, wow, I can't believe I didn't know him in life. 485 00:33:12.460 --> 00:33:16.340 My eyes, you know, I so wish I could have even just honored him in death 486 00:33:17.060 --> 00:33:20.640 and gone to his funeral. I don't know why I couldn't get that thought out of my head. 487 00:33:20.640 --> 00:33:29.880 And as I read his autobiography, January 5th, I actually was on my 5 a.m. prayer line. And someone 488 00:33:30.000 --> 00:33:37.900 says to me, Hey, the new person on the line, meet John. He's actually going to Orlando to 489 00:33:37.900 --> 00:33:48.040 Reinhardt Bunkies Memorial in Orlando. What did he just say? So anyway, long story short is I got 490 00:33:48.040 --> 00:33:53.740 to go to Reinhardt Bunkies Memorial in Orlando. So in his latter days, he wanted to film some of 491 00:33:54.300 --> 00:33:58.340 his messages. And someone said, move to Orlando. They have the best studios. And that's where he 492 00:33:58.340 --> 00:34:05.440 ended up there. But Reinhardt Bunkie had been meditating on what one of his famous phrases, 493 00:34:06.100 --> 00:34:16.920 which is God's word in my mouth is as powerful as God's word in his mouth. And so the best thing 494 00:34:17.639 --> 00:34:23.580 that I think that we all can do is get busy speaking out God's promises, because God is 495 00:34:23.580 --> 00:34:28.520 not a man that should lie. His word will not come back void. It will go out and accomplish 496 00:34:28.520 --> 00:34:33.659 all that's meant to do and no matter what the circumstances look like. And 497 00:34:36.659 --> 00:34:38.440 perhaps you've heard some of this. 498 00:34:41.179 --> 00:34:49.540 Um, I haven't. Yeah. Yeah. So I've shared them with Ray. He he usually keeps these calls very 499 00:34:49.540 --> 00:34:57.460 private, even with me. Yeah. Well, bottom line is that I'm walking in victory and I refuse to 500 00:34:57.460 --> 00:34:59.980 believe anything else. And I know I'm in the 501 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:11.080 right place in a lot of ways and you know God's word is yes and amen and so um yeah so excited 502 00:35:11.080 --> 00:35:17.460 about you know what our church is doing we're just in Chicago and I um went there for three days and 503 00:35:17.520 --> 00:35:25.300 our church was there for two weeks and we led 54,000 people to Jesus and um I personally was 504 00:35:25.300 --> 00:35:31.460 I led 14 people to Jesus so um in the grand scheme of things those are that's the real 505 00:35:31.460 --> 00:35:39.940 currency of heaven um and um money is just a tool and so um we've lost a lot of business and um 506 00:35:40.520 --> 00:35:47.020 my husband just shared some things with me that have been really hurtful and um he's not he's 507 00:35:47.020 --> 00:35:56.720 back as he can hardly walk and anyway he's um re-establishing his walk with the lord and um 508 00:35:56.720 --> 00:36:03.380 just uh moving forward and you know we've got two bible students living here my son and his 509 00:36:03.380 --> 00:36:08.720 best friend and there are nine well they're they're now 20 um they're on fire for the lord 510 00:36:08.720 --> 00:36:17.180 and um about shaking nations and um the god god has given me so much through everything and so 511 00:36:18.120 --> 00:36:25.060 um just standing on God's word because it will not come back void and um went to church last 512 00:36:25.060 --> 00:36:34.100 night and this is kind of graphic but um the pastor said um uh because pastor Rodney's still 513 00:36:34.100 --> 00:36:41.780 in Chicago went back to Chicago but um the pastor that was there said make sure you don't um commit 514 00:36:42.860 --> 00:36:49.760 um you know spiritual abortion which basically he's saying you know we make sure that your words 515 00:36:49.760 --> 00:36:57.100 are aligning and not you're not canceling what you're set out to do so um I'm I'm pregnant with 516 00:36:57.100 --> 00:37:04.580 a lot of things I'm pregnant with um you know the the vision God has um for my life and my 517 00:37:04.580 --> 00:37:12.580 family's life to really serve him and to see as many people come to Jesus as um you know God will 518 00:37:12.580 --> 00:37:20.520 put in front of me and just wanting to be pliable and the lord and um this new company that I just 519 00:37:21.240 --> 00:37:31.960 came into um you know my life in January from the Harbinians um which is a whole nother situation of 520 00:37:31.960 --> 00:37:38.180 all that that's happened I mean Satan's a liar but um I know it's the I know I'm at the right 521 00:37:38.180 --> 00:37:46.520 place at the right time this is science that um you know is off the chain incredible it's a 40 522 00:37:46.740 --> 00:37:51.080 billion dollar industry and the only reason why people are taking probiotics and not 523 00:37:51.080 --> 00:37:56.780 post-biotics is because simply marketing hasn't caught up with science and I felt like the lord 524 00:37:56.780 --> 00:38:04.180 gave me a download of just how to take the team and move that forward to create a post-biotic 525 00:38:04.180 --> 00:38:11.700 movement a post-biotic revolution to really educate people um on how post-biotics are the 526 00:38:11.960 --> 00:38:19.740 product that probiotics always desire to be and so I I I probably have never been more confident 527 00:38:19.740 --> 00:38:25.120 in stepping out and doing some Facebook lives than I ever have I feel like I just feel more 528 00:38:25.120 --> 00:38:31.140 confident and more natural than I've ever been in my life I you know promoted Arbonne for 18 years 529 00:38:31.140 --> 00:38:39.420 and it just never felt I mean I love the products but but this is like an endless supply of of uh 530 00:38:39.420 --> 00:38:47.060 just things that I can I mean content is just like off the chain and it just it's inspiring 531 00:38:47.080 --> 00:38:52.160 because you know people's limbs are being saved because this product actually increases 532 00:38:52.560 --> 00:38:57.320 microcirculation all over your body so I mean what's not affected when you you know increase 533 00:38:57.440 --> 00:39:01.560 microcirculation to your 10 billion micro capillaries so I know I'm in the right place 534 00:39:01.700 --> 00:39:06.840 there um just really I feel a little bit of pressure to to produce for the cleaning company 535 00:39:06.840 --> 00:39:12.560 we don't own it anymore and we've lost a couple huge accounts and that's a real big source of 536 00:39:12.560 --> 00:39:22.640 income for us and um so um so I'm just you know we've been given the Fort Belvoir contract 537 00:39:22.940 --> 00:39:28.360 and it's been taken away and we've been given it it's been taken away to the point where it's 538 00:39:29.280 --> 00:39:35.220 and so um the guy um and the contracting officer says it's ours 539 00:39:36.460 --> 00:39:42.360 and we're kind of on a race for a clock for one of our certificate certifications to you know run 540 00:39:42.360 --> 00:39:48.640 out so they would you know actually award it before that does kind of like a red sea moment 541 00:39:48.640 --> 00:39:56.260 I'm like hello um but I'm just um learning to rest in the lord and you know just like you said 542 00:39:56.260 --> 00:39:59.840 you know this doesn't come through like lord this is on you like 543 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:06.800 you know. Do you really want to do a bunch of things for that company anymore? 544 00:40:08.020 --> 00:40:17.460 You know, it's been really a blessing in my life. I mean, we, you know, it makes sense. I have huge 545 00:40:17.460 --> 00:40:22.600 contacts there. I don't want to do a lot of things, but the little things that we do have been 546 00:40:22.600 --> 00:40:34.680 huge, you know, huge money income for us. And so I, you know, think that it's wisdom to continue, 547 00:40:36.680 --> 00:40:40.000 you know. So, yeah. 548 00:40:42.440 --> 00:40:49.960 I get all of those things. And not that I don't, I disagree with you. I agree with you. 549 00:40:50.680 --> 00:40:53.700 I, from what you've shared with me, obviously I don't know everything, 550 00:40:53.820 --> 00:40:57.740 but from what you've shared with me, it sounds like it's been a huge blessing in your life. 551 00:40:58.320 --> 00:41:02.640 But my original question was, is this something that you feel 552 00:41:02.720 --> 00:41:08.040 is draining your energy every day or uplifting you and exciting you every day? 553 00:41:09.640 --> 00:41:14.640 Well, I don't think it's really uplifting or exciting, but like the people God's put us in 554 00:41:14.640 --> 00:41:25.280 contact with, I mean, it's been easy. It's been, you know, it's been, so right now, 555 00:41:26.440 --> 00:41:33.200 if that would go away financially, it would, you know, not be good for us. 556 00:41:34.720 --> 00:41:40.760 And so, you know, we're talking about like $30,000 a month. 557 00:41:40.760 --> 00:41:51.480 Sure. Yeah. So I'm just curious if he's, if he's work, if he is working you out of something or 558 00:41:52.820 --> 00:41:57.040 maneuvering you out of something that you would never choose to leave yourself. 559 00:41:57.600 --> 00:42:07.300 Yeah. And that could be so. And I, you know, I would be all for, you know, stepping out of that, 560 00:42:07.300 --> 00:42:16.240 you know, when this other company steps into the forefront, like a hundred percent. 561 00:42:17.840 --> 00:42:26.500 And, you know, the, the salon suite building that we have, I just got to the point where, 562 00:42:26.900 --> 00:42:31.060 well, actually a pastor told me, you know, Angela, you're not laying it down at the Lord's feet. 563 00:42:31.480 --> 00:42:34.880 You know, you just need to totally surrender. And so one day I said, 564 00:42:35.760 --> 00:42:39.980 okay, Lord, you know, it was up and running all these tenants. And then, you know, the, 565 00:42:40.520 --> 00:42:45.940 this stylist flooded the whole place, you know, $80,000 worth of damage. We got it all backed 566 00:42:45.940 --> 00:42:50.780 up and running, but we were having trouble renting it. And I'm like, okay, Lord, I give up 567 00:42:50.780 --> 00:42:56.280 like this, this building goes down. It's on you. Like, and literally that night at service, 568 00:42:57.360 --> 00:43:02.660 this woman texted me and said, I want to come check out your space. Anyway, 569 00:43:02.660 --> 00:43:09.340 four beautiful Christian women rented the five chairs. That was the major part that was piece 570 00:43:09.340 --> 00:43:15.040 that was missing to be rented in the salon. I have a couple more spaces that need to be rented, 571 00:43:15.180 --> 00:43:21.300 but we're actually using them as presentation spaces. And so, I mean, that's been a blessing. 572 00:43:22.160 --> 00:43:32.640 So. Isn't that amazing how we, and we've talked about this, but how we think we surrender. But 573 00:43:33.200 --> 00:43:39.500 okay. Whatever you've got this, this is yours. I'm giving it to you. I can't take it anymore. 574 00:43:39.900 --> 00:43:44.600 I don't know how to do it on my own anymore. And then amazing things like that happen. 575 00:43:45.200 --> 00:43:53.900 Well, it's so funny because my son is such a gem and he came with me to meet these four ladies. 576 00:43:54.220 --> 00:44:00.680 And, you know, we were always sharing the gospel, but this is, you know, and so before, you know, 577 00:44:00.680 --> 00:44:04.220 they said, yeah, I think we want this, you know, we'll, we'll get back to you, you know, later on 578 00:44:04.260 --> 00:44:09.280 today. And my son Joe goes, well, well, before you leave, there's something, you know, we ask 579 00:44:09.500 --> 00:44:16.940 everyone. And I'm thinking, oh, Joe, maybe not quite so yet. And I never do that, but I'm, you 580 00:44:16.940 --> 00:44:20.800 know, and Joe goes, you know, if you do, you know, that God loves you and has a major plan for your 581 00:44:20.800 --> 00:44:27.160 life. And they're like, yes, we love Jesus, you know? And so that's awesome. Yeah. And I'm like, 582 00:44:27.160 --> 00:44:34.480 you know, so they've been blessings. And so God is good. And we have an Airbnb there 583 00:44:35.580 --> 00:44:42.580 that there's an evangelist right now, Eric Mears, that's doing some great stuff in Lakeland this 584 00:44:42.580 --> 00:44:49.780 coming week. He's doing a revival and he's staying there. So, you know, I always open the Airbnb for 585 00:44:49.780 --> 00:44:55.640 free to any evangelist or pastor, or if you and Ray ever want to come down. 586 00:44:56.520 --> 00:44:57.720 Yeah, no, absolutely. 587 00:44:58.640 --> 00:44:59.980 So, yeah. 588 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:07.660 So, just, you know, acknowledging him in all of our ways and being still, it's hard for 589 00:45:07.660 --> 00:45:07.860 me. 590 00:45:08.260 --> 00:45:09.540 You know, I'm definitely a Martha. 591 00:45:10.080 --> 00:45:13.780 Oh, I think one of my hardest things, you know, I don't know if you ever took the Gallup 592 00:45:14.100 --> 00:45:14.980 poll test. 593 00:45:15.200 --> 00:45:18.600 You know, it gives you like the three things that you are. 594 00:45:18.780 --> 00:45:22.100 And one of them, for me, is a maximizer. 595 00:45:22.180 --> 00:45:26.740 And I maximize everything, like, if I'm watching a movie, I'm doing something else. 596 00:45:26.740 --> 00:45:30.180 You know, it's like, I can't get away from being a maximizer. 597 00:45:30.300 --> 00:45:39.140 And I think that has been my hardest challenge in really just being still, you know, I know, 598 00:45:39.140 --> 00:45:42.480 I know, someone said work, human beings, not human doings. 599 00:45:42.480 --> 00:45:48.560 And I, you know, it's hard for me not to, to be a doer, and to try to please everyone. 600 00:45:49.180 --> 00:45:51.560 And so, you know, Joel is living with us. 601 00:45:51.560 --> 00:45:54.060 He's my son's best friend that lost his leg. 602 00:45:54.220 --> 00:45:55.980 He's going to, you know, Bible college. 603 00:45:55.980 --> 00:45:57.100 It's like amazing. 604 00:45:57.820 --> 00:46:03.420 But he got this new car, and I'm just trying to please everyone, they all wanted different 605 00:46:03.420 --> 00:46:04.000 things to eat. 606 00:46:04.040 --> 00:46:06.240 And I like, oh, you know, I'm just gonna go ahead and do it. 607 00:46:06.360 --> 00:46:08.080 So I went and I didn't really go with the right attitude. 608 00:46:08.120 --> 00:46:12.060 I'm like, these kids got to learn to eat the same thing, because I'm just I can't. 609 00:46:12.560 --> 00:46:17.360 And so they drove back in and was pulling in, I called my son to help me with the groceries. 610 00:46:17.360 --> 00:46:19.320 And I saw him and he kind of distracted me. 611 00:46:20.060 --> 00:46:23.860 Anyway, I sideswiped Joel's new car. 612 00:46:23.860 --> 00:46:25.080 I'm like, really? 613 00:46:25.300 --> 00:46:25.500 Really, Lord? 614 00:46:26.000 --> 00:46:26.140 Really? 615 00:46:27.340 --> 00:46:33.900 But yeah, so I need to slow down and just be still and listen to him because he has 616 00:46:33.900 --> 00:46:34.820 it all. 617 00:46:35.760 --> 00:46:45.220 And yeah, just I, I can absolutely relate to that, that I'm I used to be and I'm working 618 00:46:45.220 --> 00:46:47.660 on it every day, honestly, such a Martha. 619 00:46:49.520 --> 00:46:55.660 And I, one day I was sitting in my bedroom, I don't know if I told you this, I was sitting 620 00:46:55.660 --> 00:47:03.160 in my bedroom and I was just praying and really honing in on hearing from him and just something 621 00:47:03.160 --> 00:47:06.800 that I don't practice enough, which is just, you know, I was in like my prayer closet, 622 00:47:06.980 --> 00:47:12.280 just silence all around me, just really focusing in on prayer for a long period of time. 623 00:47:12.960 --> 00:47:17.880 And I felt such a power of love come over me. 624 00:47:18.080 --> 00:47:20.000 I felt his presence so strong. 625 00:47:20.080 --> 00:47:23.000 And I know we've all been there, right, where you, you know, it's him. 626 00:47:23.000 --> 00:47:24.380 You feel it so strongly. 627 00:47:25.320 --> 00:47:31.660 And instantly in my mind, I started going into, you know, Lord, thank you so much for 628 00:47:31.720 --> 00:47:34.700 these gifts and thank you for what you've done in my life. 629 00:47:34.700 --> 00:47:36.980 Like, thank you for your presence. 630 00:47:36.980 --> 00:47:42.400 I'm going to, I'm going to make sure that every time I go on stage that I mention you 631 00:47:42.400 --> 00:47:48.240 and, and every time that I'm talking to somebody that I make sure that, you know, I'm, I'm 632 00:47:48.240 --> 00:47:51.480 sharing this experience that you've given me because I was praying on some things that 633 00:47:51.480 --> 00:47:55.160 had happened earlier that day and, and I'm going to do this and I'm going to do that. 634 00:47:55.160 --> 00:47:57.160 And I'm going to make sure that I honor you in this way. 635 00:47:57.360 --> 00:48:02.780 And it was so, such a strong answer that I know couldn't have been from me because I 636 00:48:02.780 --> 00:48:04.760 just didn't think this way at the time. 637 00:48:04.760 --> 00:48:10.640 But the answer that he gave me or the message that he gave me was this is no, no, no, no, 638 00:48:10.640 --> 00:48:15.400 this is this love that I'm helping you experience right now that you're feeling. 639 00:48:16.020 --> 00:48:17.900 This is just for you. 640 00:48:18.720 --> 00:48:20.920 I just want you to be with me. 641 00:48:22.660 --> 00:48:24.900 This presence is just for you. 642 00:48:25.560 --> 00:48:27.780 I don't want you to share it with anybody. 643 00:48:28.480 --> 00:48:32.700 I don't want you to think about all the ways that you're going to honor me in this moment. 644 00:48:33.500 --> 00:48:35.400 I just want to be with you. 645 00:48:36.940 --> 00:48:43.040 And I just, I, it just came on me a hundred times stronger, right? 646 00:48:43.220 --> 00:48:49.880 So sometimes I feel that he slows us down because he just wants to be with us. 647 00:48:49.940 --> 00:48:51.600 He doesn't want us to honor him. 648 00:48:51.880 --> 00:48:54.340 Think about all the ways that we can honor him in that moment. 649 00:48:54.380 --> 00:48:59.820 Not that he doesn't want us to honor him period, but he doesn't want us running on that rat 650 00:48:59.960 --> 00:49:02.480 because there's a Christian rat race too, right? 651 00:49:02.480 --> 00:49:04.720 Of like, okay, am I honoring you today? 652 00:49:04.820 --> 00:49:11.920 Which not necessarily a bad question, but sometimes he just wants us to be with him. 653 00:49:13.640 --> 00:49:20.640 And if you're like me, which it sounds like you are, that's a very challenging thing to 654 00:49:20.640 --> 00:49:27.740 the way that I I'm wired, which for me personally, I don't know if this is, you know, if you can 655 00:49:27.740 --> 00:49:33.940 this, but for me personally, that comes from my childhood past of having to control everything 656 00:49:33.940 --> 00:49:41.040 because I felt so out of control because my life was so out of control with the way that 657 00:49:41.040 --> 00:49:45.560 my mom had raised me and, and how crazy she went, I felt very out of control. 658 00:49:45.780 --> 00:49:52.660 So for me growing up into an adult that translated into, I have to, I have to be doing something. 659 00:49:52.680 --> 00:49:53.980 I have to be controlling something. 660 00:49:53.980 --> 00:49:59.980 I have to be pursuing something to be a value and to make sure out of fear that. 661 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.960 this never happens to me again, that we never lose everything that we ever had 662 00:50:05.960 --> 00:50:11.420 again, that I never don't go a day without a meal again, all the, you know, 663 00:50:11.420 --> 00:50:13.640 all those things that come up as a, as a kid. 664 00:50:15.460 --> 00:50:22.300 And so I've really learned to take an hour, which for me is like a decade and 665 00:50:22.300 --> 00:50:33.340 just be and business just comes sometimes, you know, it just, it just comes and I 666 00:50:33.340 --> 00:50:34.540 don't ever want to be seen. 667 00:50:34.820 --> 00:50:38.080 It's another thing, you know, I think there's this culture of, we don't want to 668 00:50:38.080 --> 00:50:43.200 be seen as lazy or we don't, you know, we want to be diligent with our hands, of 669 00:50:43.380 --> 00:50:49.660 course, but sometimes business just comes if we're doing what God wants, which is 670 00:50:50.100 --> 00:50:52.160 sometimes he just wants us to be with him. 671 00:50:54.360 --> 00:50:55.720 And then. 672 00:50:56.720 --> 00:50:57.400 Amen. 673 00:50:59.320 --> 00:51:00.000 Yeah. 674 00:51:02.440 --> 00:51:07.960 Well, thank you both for being vulnerable and, and sharing what's going on in your 675 00:51:07.960 --> 00:51:08.360 world. 676 00:51:10.400 --> 00:51:16.180 Um, I can't help but see, and I'm sure Rebecca agrees with me that there's a theme 677 00:51:16.280 --> 00:51:18.020 here of surrender. 678 00:51:20.540 --> 00:51:26.180 And, you know, I think, I think he's working on that and all of our lives in 679 00:51:26.440 --> 00:51:28.680 throughout the last few years, right? 680 00:51:29.180 --> 00:51:33.200 Because there are unforeseen challenges and things that are going to come our way 681 00:51:33.200 --> 00:51:40.760 that we can't even fathom, uh, that we're going to need to trust him in a much bigger 682 00:51:40.760 --> 00:51:44.200 way than, than what any of our circumstances are now. 683 00:51:46.320 --> 00:51:48.880 And I think he's working on us for that. 684 00:51:49.920 --> 00:51:52.480 And thank you, Angela, for, um, for the name. 685 00:51:52.560 --> 00:51:55.620 I'm going to look him up and, and really start studying some of his stuff. 686 00:51:55.620 --> 00:51:56.320 Sounds amazing. 687 00:51:56.460 --> 00:51:57.880 And you're absolutely right. 688 00:51:58.220 --> 00:52:01.300 Like just keeping his word on our tongue. 689 00:52:02.100 --> 00:52:05.700 Um, I don't remember exactly how he put it, but that was really, really powerful. 690 00:52:07.500 --> 00:52:07.980 Yeah. 691 00:52:07.980 --> 00:52:14.860 God's word in my mouth is the same as God's word, as, as powerful as God's word 692 00:52:14.980 --> 00:52:18.060 in his mouth, in his mouth. 693 00:52:18.380 --> 00:52:25.660 So yeah, God's word in my mouth is as powerful as God's word in his mouth. 694 00:52:27.000 --> 00:52:27.700 Yeah. 695 00:52:29.120 --> 00:52:30.420 I love that. 696 00:52:32.500 --> 00:52:37.480 We just need to send it out and not speak contrary because the devil minded man 697 00:52:37.480 --> 00:52:38.680 receives nothing from God. 698 00:52:41.080 --> 00:52:42.040 And so. 699 00:52:43.220 --> 00:52:43.240 Right. 700 00:52:43.280 --> 00:52:48.320 We don't, we don't, we don't take into account how powerful our words really are. 701 00:52:49.100 --> 00:52:53.420 So that's just so such, such an incredible statement. 702 00:52:53.840 --> 00:52:54.660 I love that. 703 00:52:54.760 --> 00:52:56.040 Thank you for sharing that. 704 00:52:57.280 --> 00:53:03.560 Um, but I'll just leave you today with let's really practice today, surrender, 705 00:53:04.060 --> 00:53:06.760 you know, and just being with him and see what shows up. 706 00:53:07.480 --> 00:53:11.040 For me, I like to make it a game, you know, I like to make it fun. 707 00:53:11.340 --> 00:53:15.800 And I think he's inviting us into things every single moment of every single day. 708 00:53:15.800 --> 00:53:21.220 And it's just, it's fun to be uber aware and hyper alert and watch what happens. 709 00:53:21.640 --> 00:53:25.300 So I just so appreciate you guys sharing. 710 00:53:26.320 --> 00:53:29.420 Um, and Rebecca, do you have any final words before we. 711 00:53:30.460 --> 00:53:33.680 No, I was just really encouraged with this, you know, on, on Lisa, when you 712 00:53:33.680 --> 00:53:37.820 were sharing too, I was thinking, man, I can relate so much to these seasons, right? 713 00:53:37.820 --> 00:53:40.340 Cause we've all had them in various degrees. 714 00:53:40.840 --> 00:53:44.740 And the times when I see God showing up the most is when I really get out of the 715 00:53:44.740 --> 00:53:49.220 way, because, and Ray reminded me last week, he said, you know, we get to sleep 716 00:53:49.220 --> 00:53:50.580 in the boat, right? 717 00:53:50.580 --> 00:53:54.440 If the one who creates the storms and controls the storms can sleep through 718 00:53:54.440 --> 00:53:59.180 them, so can we, and just resting surrender and letting him do his thing. 719 00:53:59.180 --> 00:54:03.080 It's always worked out best when I just get out of the way and 720 00:54:03.080 --> 00:54:04.760 trust him to do the heavy lifting. 721 00:54:04.980 --> 00:54:07.080 So I'm just really encouraged and reminded. 722 00:54:07.240 --> 00:54:07.400 Yeah. 723 00:54:07.400 --> 00:54:08.620 This was for me as well today. 724 00:54:10.480 --> 00:54:12.540 He's the fourth man in the fires. 725 00:54:13.700 --> 00:54:13.780 Amen. 726 00:54:14.900 --> 00:54:21.120 So, and I keep thinking of three and me that Graham cook talks about because 727 00:54:21.880 --> 00:54:28.220 there's God, there's God, the son, Jesus, and the Holy spirit, they're all in us. 728 00:54:29.060 --> 00:54:38.140 He, so we have the power to be them because they're there within us. 729 00:54:38.400 --> 00:54:39.440 That's right. 730 00:54:39.480 --> 00:54:40.220 That's right. 731 00:54:40.280 --> 00:54:48.300 And I think it'd be great if we just make a pact that it's hard to say, you know, 732 00:54:48.300 --> 00:54:54.180 for seven days, but just for today, what today is Thursday, it's 10 57 AM Eastern. 733 00:54:54.580 --> 00:54:55.440 That helps you, Lisa. 734 00:54:55.440 --> 00:54:59.560 If we just make a pact today or just agree that. 735 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:10.140 we're going to take a 30 minute span today, at least, and just be in prayer. I don't think that 736 00:55:10.760 --> 00:55:15.700 we might, you know, myself, I can speak for myself, I can't speak for you. But for myself, 737 00:55:16.740 --> 00:55:24.240 I don't block out that prayer time enough. And so do you do both of you, all the three of you 738 00:55:24.240 --> 00:55:29.120 have 30 minutes today that you could just block that out? Because I will promise to do that. If 739 00:55:29.120 --> 00:55:39.420 you if you want to join me in that? Absolutely. Yes. Okay, awesome. Awesome. I'm going to report 740 00:55:39.420 --> 00:55:45.960 back on in the group on on how that goes. And just give give to you guys what I get. And I'm 741 00:55:45.960 --> 00:55:59.100 going to pray about everybody on the call to and and see if anything comes up. I love it. I've 742 00:55:59.740 --> 00:56:07.120 me. All right, guys. Well, thanks so much for the call today. It helped me a ton. And hopefully it 743 00:56:07.120 --> 00:56:15.200 helped you. And I look forward to hearing from you after your prayers. Thank you. Thank you, 744 00:56:15.500 --> 00:56:19.200 guys. Have an amazing day. You too. Bye.