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Hello, welcome. Good evening, everyone. Welcome, welcome. Hopefully some of y'all can join

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me on screen so I can see your beautiful faces. That would be amazing. Hi there. Hi, Denise.

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Welcome. All right. Well, we're going to get started. I hope to see some more of you soon.

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And as always, just try your best to come on screen when you can. I know that some of you might be

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working, some of you might be driving or eating or things like that, and that's totally fine.

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But as a part of our heartwork process, we are going to practice coming out of hiding and allowing

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ourselves to be seen. If you've never been here before, this is your first live session.

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Would love for you to say, hi, this is my first live session, and put that in the chat, so we can

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welcome you specifically. All my other ladies, welcome back. I'm really praying that not only,

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you know, I always think it's interesting doing two sessions a day because I never know how things

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are going to turn out differently, even though I have the similar content in both sessions.

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And so I was just praying, like, God knows everything that you all need tonight. He knows you

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better than I know you and better than you know yourself. And so I'm praying that he shows me

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what the spirit needs you to hear to get breakthrough. And so just know that I'm praying about that

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all the time for you all. And even in those still moments, those quick moments, God is hearing us

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and he's responding. And so I just want to remind you of that tonight as we're starting out,

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that God hears us when we're praying. And I want to encourage you also, I did not put this

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Annette in our housekeeping, I forgot. And so I wanted to touch on this real quick, and then I'm going to

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But I want to encourage you all to check out the Supernatural Saturday from this Saturday.

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As always, we're going to always remind you to listen to those. But specifically, you all,

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some of what we're talking about tonight is going to tie in to what you were hearing on Saturday.

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But in a way that Jackie addressed it so many times when we are basically called higher

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into an upgrade. So one of the things she released was a season we are entering.

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We're already in a season of first. And what she said is how many of you, when I said that,

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believe that the first, we're all going to be bad, bad things come in. And so, so many times

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we don't realize subconsciously we are believing and have fearful thoughts that are hindering us

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from moving forward in our lives, including in your love stories. You all, I live this out.

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I know it. I know it so, so well. There were things that I was doing and stepping into

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and partnering with without even realizing it. And it was affecting how I was showing up,

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not only in romantic relationships, but also in work relationships, you know, with friends,

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all different dynamics. Okay, so definitely check that out. God has a season of first for us

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in this next season. Don't miss out on what God wants to do in your life in this time.

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And then also we did Prophetic Ministry Night. If you did not know, if you're new to this community,

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that is something that we do once a month. The last Sunday of every month is typically

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when we try to do it, unless we have like, we had that big five-year anniversary a couple months ago

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and they still did Prophetic Night that night, praise the Lord. But we just had a different team

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holding down the fort that night. And I know a lot of people were blessed, but that is a time

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where we come together, our team that we have specifically prepared for that evening to do our best

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to hear from heaven, what God is saying over our movement, what God is saying to us and for all of you.

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And so I hope that that blesses you. There's a couple things tonight, if I remember how kind of it

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weaved into our message today, I will do my best to tie that in. But there was a couple things

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specifically that I believe God has for you that will help this bring Saturday, Sunday night,

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and tonight all together. So the reason I'm saying this is I would love for you all,

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in addition to your heart work this week, to take time, to make time in your schedule to listen to those.

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I really, really believe it's going to bless you and help you take a step forward.

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Okay, Annette, I'm going to pass it over to you and then Annette's going to praise in

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and then we'll jump right into the content for this evening.

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Awesome. Thank you, Bethany. Hello, ladies. Welcome. We're so glad that you're here.

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I'm glad I can join you. Yes, I still have my post Christmas tree shopping with my son and his family on.

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I'm trying to warm up. It was cold, but it was fun. And actually it was a first.

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It was the first time that they have invited me to go with them and their family to do that.

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So it was a blessing and a privilege. So I was happy to be able to do that.

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Want to encourage all of you, as Bethany was saying, I know sometimes it's hard and you want to just listen in.

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you're able to turn on your cameras.

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We love to see your faces and your smiles and the just like the head nods and the, you

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know, yeah, I understand what you're saying or I'm right there.

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That really can encourage people and not just tonight when we do the lives or during the

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afternoon lives, but also when you're on Supernatural Saturday or the prophetic nights or even prayer

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in the morning.

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I don't know how many of you are able to join that, but that's a wonderful way to start

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your day and give yourself a good foundation.

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So just show up and show out for us.

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It will help you get comfortable just stepping into all God has for you.

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And the second thing that we were going to talk about is just our heart posture as we

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go through heart work and our heart healing journey.

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The posture of our heart is everything.

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Really ask the Lord and lean in and ask him to help you to be teachable, to lay down pride,

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to lay down stubbornness, unforgiveness, anything that could be holding you back from all that

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he wants to do in your heart.

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And you just want to show up and be teachable, be humble, be attentive to the spirit and

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know that he's going to show up for you in ways that you won't even expect.

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So with all of that said, we're going to go ahead and pray and then we will get started

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on another great evening.

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Dear Heavenly Father, thank you so much for the privilege that we have to gather together

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tonight.

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And this is a divine appointment, God, that has been ordered by you.

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We ask Holy Spirit to come to speak in us, to speak through us, and to just help us to

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place our hearts in a posture before you that is open, that is receptive, that is humble,

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and that is inviting of all that you want to teach us and show us, that we would allow

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our hearts to be transformed, to walk fully into the plans and the purposes that you have

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for us as we move through this journey.

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And especially for each one on tonight, God, I pray a special blessing over each one of

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them, over the ladies that join the live, bless their time as they listen.

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And may your words penetrate down into the core and may they feel your love and your

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comfort.

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Speak through Bethany tonight and use her words.

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Thank you for her willingness to minister and to serve and in the powerful ways that

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you use her.

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In your name I pray, amen.

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Amen.

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Thank you so much, Annette.

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Again, welcome.

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If you're just joining us or joined in the last few minutes, we're so glad to have you

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here with us.

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If this is your first live session, definitely put that in the chat for us so we can welcome

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I'm going to go ahead and get you all started pretty quick here tonight, including you,

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what I mean by is what I mean.

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And so I want you to put something in the chat for me.

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And for those of you that watch the replay of this, I really want to encourage you to

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create a post on this in the group this week so that we can talk you through this as well.

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And so here's what the activation is.

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I want you to answer this question.

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What is a fear or anxious thought that you have had in the last few days?

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What is a fear or anxious thought that you have had in the last few days?

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What does that sound like for you?

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And I'll start to read those as some of them come up into the chat.

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If they start to go real quick, it's hard for me to keep up, but being rejected and

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Rebecca, in particular, tell me what that's about.

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What is that connected to?

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Thank you for sharing that.

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Anyone else?

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Ageism is my line of work as a nurse.

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My dad's recent diagnosis of cancer ending his life and how to manage helping from five

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hours away.

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So sorry to hear about that, Angie.

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That I will not have rent money in a couple of months, too much going on to be able to

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focus on LYS like the Lord is leading, financial stability, fear of not meeting my goals due

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to feeling overwhelmed with work, fear of marital delay, not getting paid, family stress,

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having to see my parents at Christmas.

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Having pain and worried I may be having a pancreas flare up again.

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We'll be praying for healing there.

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Do I have the ability to take a wise decision?

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Maybe I think you meant make, maybe make a wise decision about marriage for myself for

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a lifetime.

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how to navigate finances when I am between employment

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and have a major unexpected expenses

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and have had major unexpected expenses.

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Okay, thank you for sharing those ladies.

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You can continue to put those in the chat for me.

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And I want you just to continue to allow them

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as they come up, as I'm starting to share.

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The reason we're doing this is tonight,

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we're gonna be talking about overcoming fear and anxiety.

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Y'all, we tend to battle fear and anxiety

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on a regular basis every single day,

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but it's at an all time high during the holidays.

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And even well into the beginning of the new year,

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because there's this level of expectation.

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I've even had conversations with a friend of mine

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who has gone through the hard work, been in the community

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around the topic of when the new year starts,

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you think it's gonna be amazing.

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And especially, we hear just like what Jackie is saying,

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sometimes we hear this thing of, it's a season of first

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and you think most of us would be excited,

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but some of us on the inside feel that pit drop, right?

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Where there's something going on in our subconscious,

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there's something that we're hearing an internal dialogue

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that is informing us and leading us

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in a different direction.

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I want you to be thinking tonight around the holidays,

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instead of partnering with fear and anxiety,

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I hope tonight will not only help you

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in your long term heart healing,

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but that it will help prepare you

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to face the holidays differently this year.

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I gave the afternoon group this challenge,

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I don't even know if I'll remember it exactly

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the way I released it this afternoon,

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but I want you all to be thinking about,

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instead of fear and panic regarding this upcoming holiday,

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whether you're gonna be by yourself or with friends,

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with family, whatever that looks like for you,

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that you will partner with,

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this is gonna be one of the best holidays I've ever had.

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This is gonna be one of the best holidays I've ever had.

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Well, why?

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How can that be if you're not with your spirit mate yet?

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You might ask.

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Well, because if you're learning how to actually enjoy

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getting to know yourself and loving yourself,

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do you know that you're gonna be with the best person

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you could ever be with this holiday?

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And I'm not just trying to say

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you shouldn't want a spirit mate,

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that's not what I'm saying.

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But I'm saying one of the things God taught me

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was really how to enjoy my own presence.

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How to actually like myself.

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Some of you are actually afraid

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of being alone with yourself.

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You don't really know how to exist without a relationship.

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Raise your hand if you can relate to what I just said.

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Is there anyone here willing to admit

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that you really struggle to actually be alone?

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Anyone else?

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I see a couple ladies admitting.

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And that's causing you to get tripped up

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and you're picking people out of trying to fill the void

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of struggling to be by yourself.

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Now, some of you are on the flip side of that

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and you're like, I've been by myself for so long,

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I've not even dated, I've not had a relationship

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and I get it, I get it, I do.

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And so I know there's both things going on.

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And fear is driving both of them.

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You all, I need you to see that.

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I need you to see that connection tonight.

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The fear is driving both sides of that comment.

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We feel afraid that that end is never going to happen.

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We're never gonna end up in that spirit-made relationship.

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And on the flip side, we fear being alone

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because we think we're not enough by ourselves.

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And again, that doesn't mean

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you shouldn't want a relationship.

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I know God led you here because he has that for you.

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But we need to heal and really come to a place

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where we do not fear our own personality,

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our own existence, who we are,

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our own dreams, our own desires.

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Now, obviously those will start to merge

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with your spirit-mate when you meet them.

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It doesn't mean you lose everything that you are,

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but you start to form new dreams together.

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While you still both individually,

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hopefully keep pursuing your dreams as individuals.

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So I want you to be thinking about this.

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Literally, as I'm talking about overcoming fear and anxiety,

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some of you all need to get to know who you are

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before you enter another relationship.

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What do I mean by that?

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I mean, what do you like to do?

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What makes you happy?

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What awakens you and causes you to feel alive and excited?

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And if nothing causes that,

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I'm gonna say that's a revealing for healing right there.

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There's a difference between going through the motions

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and just, you know, even some.

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of us doing ministry or doing life and where some of y'all have jobs where you're helping

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people non-stop. There's a difference between doing that and actually feeling alive and

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excited about what we're doing and connected and engaged and not disengaged and disenfranchised

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about men or relationships or ourselves. So as you're facing this holiday, you know, what's

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looking forward to? For those of you that right now you're like, I don't know because I'm going

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to be by myself. This is what I said to the afternoon group. I want to encourage you to

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choose to find someone else that is by themselves or maybe going to be by themselves this Christmas

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and invite them to come and do something with you. Even if it's for an hour or two hours,

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y'all, the reality is none of us have to do anything alone ever. But some of you are like

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are literally choosing that. This is what the Lord showed me this afternoon. Some of us choose

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isolation out of fear. And some of you are like, yeah, I don't choose that at all. I want to be

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with people and nobody invites me over. And so this is what I said to the ladies this afternoon

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as well. I want to encourage you if you know someone that has a big family gathering and

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they're the kind of people that they just love people and they love, you know, having people

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together. Ladies, kindly in a nice way, ask that friend, do you have room for one more this holiday?

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I know that we want everybody to pay attention to us as singles and we want them to know that

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we're by ourselves. Y'all, I wanted that too. I did. But I, you know what, God started talking to me about

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not being mad at everybody because they didn't acknowledge the pain that I was feeling being

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single. And just starting to celebrate and choosing to say, hey, like, man, I would love to do

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something with you for the holidays, whether it was on Christmas Day or not, you all. So I want to

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get into the place of like, hey, this is what they should be doing for me.

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And get into the place of like, God, help me to become the one that makes the difference.

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I believe every single one of you are a change agent.

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So part of coming out of fear and overcoming anxiety is stepping into faith. It's stepping

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into love. It's stepping into the positive aspects of who do you want to become? What kind of life

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do you want to live? So on that note, our hearts are highly impressionable. Everything that we hear,

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everything that we're listening to during this time, it is making an impression on your heart.

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So some of that, you all get this, the things that you're thinking and the things that are

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replaying over and over and over in your minds, that is impressing on your heart as well.

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I go through it too. I can't tell you how many times the enemy is assaulting our minds day in

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and day out, trying to see, can I get in here? Can I get in here? Will they, will they trip up here

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again? Because I've got them in this area before. Let's just see if I can lay the bait a little bit

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differently and they'll, they'll fall for it this time. Some of you all really need to be careful

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about the shows and the movies that you're watching right now. If you are feeling deep,

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loneliness and pain, I would not recommend watching a bunch of love movies. You all,

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I know they're great. I actually love Hallmark movies. That's a tradition.

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My husband said not to tell anyone, but I'm going to tell two years ago when we went to visit family

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in Kentucky and Indiana, we started watching the Hallmark movies together. And you know,

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who asked to do it this year? He did y'all. He did. Okay. But I like it too, but here's the thing.

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One of the things I learned in my journey, along the way, some of this very early in my

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relationship with the Lord and some of this way later, is that when I am sad, I shouldn't watch

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or do things that are going to make me feel more sad. So one I learned early on, I learned this

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early on. Thank the Lord for this. In my relationship with the Lord,

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I could not drink alcohol if I was sad, just couldn't do it. And y'all I was coming out of

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a lot of things at that time that was a part of the life I grew up in. And so I had to learn that

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that wasn't a part of what God had for me, but I had to start to understand that it also the

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physicalness of it, like how it impacted my emotions and how it impacted the way I was

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thinking. The same thing.

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regarding movies and music. I'm a big feeler, so everything that I watch, everything that I see,

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I feel stuff. I can watch a literal commercial that's 30 seconds long, and if it's a moving

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commercial, you better believe your girl over here, I'm going to be shedding some tears.

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I can't help it. I cannot help it. I try not to. And so Brian and I have a running joke like,

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you're not crying, I'm crying, you know, cause sometimes I'll look over and he's, he's,

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he's got it too. But I want you to be thinking about this. I know I'm kind of, I'm trying to

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make light a little bit too, because this is a heavy topic. Cause a lot of you all are already

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feeling this stuff. And I'm not saying you can't watch some of it, but like if it's going to make,

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if it's going to feed and fuel the sadness and the lies that you might be struggling with right now,

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that's going to fuel your fear. That's what I want you to understand.

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Fear is false evidence appearing real. So even when you're watching some of these movies,

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I want you to start paying attention to, or shows or anything, or hearing other people talk.

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Y'all, I saw a woman that I went to high school with today. She's pregnant now. Do you want to,

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you want to guess for a second what the first thought I had was? It was a lie from the enemy.

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How that's never going to happen for me. You have to understand how this stuff comes in. Now,

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does that mean I can never go on social media? No, that's not what I'm saying. But you know what

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I did think I might need to not unfriend her. It's not her fault, but I might need to minimize

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how much I'm on social media right now in this season. Do you see how that works?

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When we are believing for something and the enemy is assaulting that thing, constantly telling us

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it's not going to happen. It's not going to happen. It's not going to, well, we need to

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partner with faith and protect, protect it all, protect the mind, protect the heart.

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And so I want you to be thinking about Proverbs 4.23. This is what it says.

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Keep your heart with all vigilance for from it flows the springs of life.

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Jackie talks a lot about how we have passwords on everything.

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Our phones, our homes, we have all these locks. We have three locks on our door here in our home.

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My husband locks. I'm telling on my husband a lot already tonight. He locks all three

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multiple times a day. And I'm like, why are we locking us down like Fort Knox?

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Y'all, but this is real. Three locks on this door. It's a very quiet area. Praise the Lord. We're

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not even a lock or anything closed to protect our heart. We're just letting everything in.

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We're letting every thought start to come down and trickle down into our heart and we're meditating

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on it. I want you to be thinking about what literally have you been meditating on in the

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last few days? Have they been thoughts fueled by faith and love? Things that are true, noble,

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lovely enough, good report things that are above only and not beneath like the Bible talks about,

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or are they filled with things that are below? The things that are saying you can't have this.

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You're not good enough. You're not. It's never going to work out for you.

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You're never going to find somebody that is what you need, whatever. Again, whatever it is,

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you have to get to the source. What's the source of the lie that you're believing?

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Because it's not just the lies that we're hearing. It's the root of it.

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And the root goes down to fear. The root goes down to trauma. And the root goes down to something

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that we experienced at some point that is now informing us today saying, Hey, yep. See back

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then it didn't happen for you. I had a lady this afternoon. She went through three different

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massive things. You all that literally the lie that she was hearing. I got to look at it.

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I wrote it down. She said, fear of nothing's ever going to work out. I put all this work in

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and nothing ever works out for me. And the other one is she's a big, has always been a big rule

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follower. And she said that the thing that she keeps hearing is that she's always going to get

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the short end of the stick or that she did, even when she followed the rules, she always got the

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stick instead of being blessed. That's the way she's been interpreting that. Now, one of the

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things I talked to her about is that it's not that those things didn't happen. They did, but it's the

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way that she's perceived them. That is the root of the problem. She's not the problem. It's not her

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fault. I need you to understand this. It's not our fault that we fear some of this stuff. We've been

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through some really hard things. And for some of you, you've been praying for a really long time.

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We touched on this. Shall we write it up?

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The Israelites waited 400 years for deliverance you all

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Can you imagine I can't I

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Think even of Joseph all the time like what was it like for him in prison?

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Like he knew his destiny. He knew what God showed him

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Can you imagine sitting in prison knowing that I?

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Think that would be really hard

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I try to think of people like that when I'm going through things that I need to overcome

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They must have had to really you know focus their heart in their mind on truth to get through that and have a positive

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attitude and

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He came out on the other side Joseph comes out of that

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He gets raised up and then he's what he's used to bless all of those people

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Do do do some of you ever think about the fact that your story that God is writing with your spirit mate is

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Going to be used to change

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Like many people alive it's going to impact them and heal them

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Or dare you not ever let yourself think of that

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Because what if you actually dream and think about that thing and

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It doesn't happen in the time frame that you have been expecting it in

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Vigilance with our heart guarding our heart with it with vigilance you all that means we're alertly watchful to avoid danger

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That means we're always paying attention

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Sometimes the enemy will come and try to assault us when we sleep. I talked about this a little bit last week

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I'm gonna touch on it again because I got more revelation on the dream that I had

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I'm not gonna go into dream interpretations tonight

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You also I'm just letting you know that but I feel led to share this with the group because I started this conversation last week

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I'm not gonna go into the whole dream

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You guys can go back and watch the replay to catch that part just for time's sake

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But literally I got additional revelation on why the enemy told me in the dream that I was gonna have cancer in my throat

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and lungs and

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This is it

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That the enemy is actually attacking my

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Because I need my lungs in my throat to coach to speak to pray to declare a thing

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To prophesy I need I need that

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He attacked me right after I was using my influence as a mothering

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Spirit and person in my spiritual daughter's life

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He also assaulted my best friend who was also using her motherly anointing. She's an amazing mother

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to also influence my spiritual daughter and

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The next morning we were both assaulted and the enemy was telling us both that we were terminally sick just with different things

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Then Jackie also said as because I felt led to share this dream with her like hey

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I've been continuing to pray about it all week since I I was in coaching with y'all last week and the Lord kept whispering

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Whispering to me talked asked Jackie about this one

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I don't ask her about all my dreams

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but I felt led to ask her about this one and she said not only do I believe is God showing you that this

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represents the next generation

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No, I was like, whoa, like that is that was the missing piece that I was looking for you all

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And it made so much sense to me when she said that why am I telling you that?

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well, because the enemy has really had a hard time getting my mind when I'm awake and

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So the Lord is talking to me a lot through dreams. Well now the enemy is trying to assault me in my dream state

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So for those of you that have ever had that happen I've had a few people asking about that in the group

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That's why I wanted to bring it up

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I want you to know that not every dream that you have is from the Lord and

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I want you to know the one of the first things that God said to me when I woke up out of that dream afraid

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Because I woke up it startled me awake the woman's voice was so evil and so

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angry at me

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Do I have cancer like I just started talking to God?

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I fell back asleep woke up to have like I literally this was like going on for like an hour

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I finally asked the Lord. Are you trying to warn me that I have cancer?

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or is this from the enemy and

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As I told you all last week if you didn't hear this part what he said to me was this. I

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Don't speak to you that way

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That was what he said to me and I've been thinking about this all week how what an amazing

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thing for a father to say to me. My father in heaven said to me,

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I don't speak to you that way. So I want you to be thinking

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about this. I feel the Holy Spirit. This is why I trust what

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God is telling me. I almost thought I wasn't gonna bring the

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dream up again tonight. And then I felt it. I felt it come up

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again. Some of you need to understand that your father's

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voice is not speaking to you with an evil, deep, dark tone.

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When you are hearing things in the daytime, as well as in your

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dreams, that is not the father's voice. And I know some people

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today, even one of the ladies got coaching, sometimes we're

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struggling with, I don't know if I'm hearing God's voice. And

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I'm here to tell you that God will not speak to you in an

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mean, demeaning way ever. He is not guilt. He is not shame. He

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is not condemnation. He will never use those tactics. Yes,

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God has warned me before, but he's never spoken to me in an

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evil or harsh, mean voice ever. And so as I've gotten to know

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the voice of my father better and better and better, as soon

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as he said that to me, I was like, you're right. You don't

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talk to me that way. Even when you've warned me, you have never

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spoken to me that way. That was literally a conversation I was

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having with the Lord. And so tonight, the things that you all

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have been fearing, whose voice has been informing you? Whose

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voice is informing these thoughts that you're having?

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Remember, I just said, fear is false evidence appearing real.

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Anxiety is fueled by fear and what if thoughts. So, you know,

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if you're sitting there, what if this, what if that, what if this

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happens? What if this never happens? Y'all, that's, that's

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literally the enemy trying to feed you with anxious, anxious,

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anxious thoughts. Trauma that happened to us isn't what stops

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us from living the amazing life that God has for us. It's the

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lies we believe as a result of the trauma. Fears and anxiety

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then feed off the lies. It's just like this whole cesspool.

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They just kind of hang out together. Fear, anxiety, lies,

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fear, anxiety, lies, kind of batting off of each other if we

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let it. The problem areas, the things, the places that were

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stuck the most, those are the signal areas like, hey, there

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needs to be a revealing for healing here. God doesn't want

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us to stay stuck. Y'all, I mean, literally, let's just pause and

440
00:32:42.400 --> 00:32:47.320
think about this. Do you think God actually wants us to be

441
00:32:48.600 --> 00:32:52.660
stuck? Do you think God actually doesn't want us to have his

442
00:32:52.660 --> 00:32:59.060
blessings in our life? I mean, why do we believe that he is

443
00:32:59.080 --> 00:33:10.600
withholding from us? That means he's not good. If your parents

444
00:33:10.600 --> 00:33:13.820
or someone in your life that was supposed to love you withheld

445
00:33:13.820 --> 00:33:20.780
from you, that's why you believe God withholds from you. I wasn't

446
00:33:20.780 --> 00:33:23.000
planning on talking about this and we'll weave back to the fear

447
00:33:23.000 --> 00:33:27.260
and anxiety, but I felt led to say that. So where is it that

448
00:33:27.260 --> 00:33:29.980
you're partnering with these things that do not align with a

449
00:33:29.980 --> 00:33:36.280
good father? Where did that start for you? It's time to get

450
00:33:36.500 --> 00:33:40.740
to the core. Remember, we're not digging. We're not getting out

451
00:33:40.740 --> 00:33:43.380
our shovels. We're not trying to figure it out on our own. We're

452
00:33:43.380 --> 00:33:47.700
asking the Lord to reveal things for healing so that we can be

453
00:33:47.700 --> 00:33:51.180
set free, so that we can have dots connected, so that we can

454
00:33:51.660 --> 00:33:55.480
be literally, you know, that step by step by step from glory

455
00:33:55.480 --> 00:34:00.060
to glory to glory that the Bible talks about. There's a

456
00:34:00.060 --> 00:34:02.640
part in the Heartwork book, I'm going to read it real quick to

457
00:34:02.640 --> 00:34:05.480
you. This is what it talks about. The biggest lie that you

458
00:34:05.480 --> 00:34:09.800
may believe in life is that your life is normal. Many people that

459
00:34:09.800 --> 00:34:12.440
live broken lives believe that it's reasonable to live that

460
00:34:12.440 --> 00:34:16.100
way. They have inherited that emotional debt or trauma from

461
00:34:16.100 --> 00:34:19.000
their family and they think it's normal to be overweight. They

462
00:34:19.000 --> 00:34:22.600
think it's normal to be unhappy, to be unfaithful, to be in a

463
00:34:22.820 --> 00:34:26.100
relationship where someone just mistreats you or to be sick all

464
00:34:26.100 --> 00:34:29.239
the time or to be okay, this is not in the book. I'm adding this

465
00:34:29.940 --> 00:34:34.199
one. Y'all, it's not normal to be in a relationship where

466
00:34:34.199 --> 00:34:38.699
someone wants us to compromise our values. Okay, I'm going to

467
00:34:38.699 --> 00:34:41.560
keep going. They think it's okay to have massive amounts of debt

468
00:34:41.560 --> 00:34:44.900
and spend all their energy trying to figure out how to pay

469
00:34:44.900 --> 00:34:48.719
the bills, or even more severe deception like it's normal to

470
00:34:48.719 --> 00:34:52.520
abuse and be hurt, or excuse me, abuse and hurt other people or

471
00:34:52.520 --> 00:34:55.960
yourself. Some of you, I want you to really be thinking even

472
00:34:55.960 --> 00:34:58.840
about how you think about yourself. How do you think about

473
00:34:58.840 --> 00:34:59.600
other people?

474
00:35:00.620 --> 00:35:02.520
Jackie goes on, I knew someone like that.

475
00:35:02.700 --> 00:35:04.880
They thought it was normal to be molested by family members

476
00:35:04.880 --> 00:35:07.160
because it's all they had ever known.

477
00:35:07.640 --> 00:35:09.740
When they were confronted by an outsider about the abuse,

478
00:35:09.800 --> 00:35:13.000
they said, that happens in everyone's family, doesn't it?

479
00:35:14.900 --> 00:35:17.740
She goes on, no, it does not.

480
00:35:19.340 --> 00:35:21.400
Maybe you have been confronted by people in your life,

481
00:35:21.760 --> 00:35:23.020
friends, coworkers, or even family

482
00:35:23.020 --> 00:35:26.840
that are trying to get you to see how dysfunctional

483
00:35:26.840 --> 00:35:28.340
an area of your life has become.

484
00:35:28.340 --> 00:35:30.620
I have done this for people over the years.

485
00:35:30.880 --> 00:35:32.780
Some people call it an intervention.

486
00:35:33.920 --> 00:35:36.540
It's a reality check when someone is so deep in a lie

487
00:35:36.540 --> 00:35:39.440
that their behavior has become dangerous

488
00:35:39.820 --> 00:35:42.240
to others or themselves.

489
00:35:43.160 --> 00:35:46.400
The desired outcome is that the person will wake up

490
00:35:46.400 --> 00:35:50.120
and see what they are doing and ask for help.

491
00:35:52.020 --> 00:35:56.060
The acronym for fear is false evidence appearing real.

492
00:35:56.200 --> 00:35:57.100
Oh, thanks, Tiffany.

493
00:35:58.340 --> 00:36:00.420
So I want you to even be thinking about,

494
00:36:00.860 --> 00:36:04.500
you know, where have you maybe been believing the lie

495
00:36:04.580 --> 00:36:07.920
that what you've been experiencing is normal?

496
00:36:10.400 --> 00:36:12.640
You know, it's not God's will for us

497
00:36:12.860 --> 00:36:16.080
to constantly live paycheck to paycheck, you all.

498
00:36:16.980 --> 00:36:19.180
I know that in the Christian circles,

499
00:36:20.780 --> 00:36:23.360
I've been around long enough in these circles to know

500
00:36:23.740 --> 00:36:27.500
that there are a lot of people that, you know,

501
00:36:27.500 --> 00:36:29.960
a pastor or a preacher to have any money,

502
00:36:31.500 --> 00:36:34.400
and that you're just more holy if you suffer.

503
00:36:35.520 --> 00:36:36.840
That's not true.

504
00:36:37.060 --> 00:36:39.600
I'm not saying that God wants us to always, you know,

505
00:36:39.600 --> 00:36:41.260
like just keep everything for ourselves.

506
00:36:41.320 --> 00:36:43.560
No, he blesses us so we can bless other people.

507
00:36:44.880 --> 00:36:46.600
The kingdom, if you read the Bible,

508
00:36:46.680 --> 00:36:50.100
it says in the end times that the wealthiest money

509
00:36:50.100 --> 00:36:53.920
will be transferred to the believers.

510
00:36:54.980 --> 00:36:57.920
Unbelievers who are wealthy, that's the way I should say it.

511
00:36:58.540 --> 00:36:59.720
If you look, that's what it says.

512
00:37:01.320 --> 00:37:02.700
So maybe yours is something else.

513
00:37:02.940 --> 00:37:04.340
What is it that you've been living into

514
00:37:04.340 --> 00:37:05.980
that is not God's best for you?

515
00:37:06.240 --> 00:37:08.520
When you're going through some of these fearful thoughts,

516
00:37:08.680 --> 00:37:11.320
these anxiety kind of informed thoughts,

517
00:37:11.400 --> 00:37:13.560
I want you to pause and start doing two things.

518
00:37:13.780 --> 00:37:18.040
Number one, ask God, what are the facts?

519
00:37:19.000 --> 00:37:20.040
What are the facts?

520
00:37:20.840 --> 00:37:21.920
And for some of you,

521
00:37:21.920 --> 00:37:23.120
you might not be able to discern

522
00:37:23.120 --> 00:37:24.820
what the facts are for yourself.

523
00:37:25.800 --> 00:37:26.640
You might need help.

524
00:37:27.140 --> 00:37:29.320
And one of the ways you can discern what the facts are

525
00:37:29.320 --> 00:37:30.420
is come into the community.

526
00:37:31.860 --> 00:37:33.120
Do a post in the group.

527
00:37:33.820 --> 00:37:36.900
Let yourself be known by people in this community.

528
00:37:38.240 --> 00:37:40.440
Let us help you discern what the facts are

529
00:37:40.440 --> 00:37:42.460
about that situation, about that thought.

530
00:37:43.180 --> 00:37:45.920
Number two, ask God, what is true?

531
00:37:46.860 --> 00:37:48.560
Not only what are the facts, God,

532
00:37:48.960 --> 00:37:51.300
but what is the truth from your perspective

533
00:37:51.300 --> 00:37:52.760
about this situation?

534
00:37:54.940 --> 00:37:57.120
We can overcome fears the more we heal

535
00:37:57.120 --> 00:37:58.900
and the more we become rooted in God's love

536
00:37:59.180 --> 00:38:01.060
and faithfulness to us.

537
00:38:01.620 --> 00:38:03.100
Are you someone who's always waiting

538
00:38:03.100 --> 00:38:04.280
for the other shoe to drop?

539
00:38:05.940 --> 00:38:08.320
Do you tend to think of the worst case scenario

540
00:38:08.320 --> 00:38:09.840
instead of the best case scenario,

541
00:38:10.120 --> 00:38:11.740
which is what Jackie was talking about?

542
00:38:11.900 --> 00:38:14.400
We hear these things or have these things happen.

543
00:38:15.040 --> 00:38:17.460
We get a promotion, but yet we're in trepidation

544
00:38:17.460 --> 00:38:19.800
that something bad's gonna follow right behind it.

545
00:38:21.300 --> 00:38:22.500
Maybe you hear a siren

546
00:38:22.500 --> 00:38:24.280
and think something happened to someone you love.

547
00:38:24.400 --> 00:38:26.580
I was telling the ladies this afternoon this as well.

548
00:38:26.980 --> 00:38:28.820
I mean, I used to be like this when I was younger,

549
00:38:29.020 --> 00:38:30.120
but part of it was informed

550
00:38:30.440 --> 00:38:32.120
because my family literally

551
00:38:32.120 --> 00:38:33.740
had been in multiple car accidents,

552
00:38:33.960 --> 00:38:35.900
especially like a really severe one

553
00:38:35.900 --> 00:38:39.080
where my family, my mom, my oldest brother and sister

554
00:38:39.080 --> 00:38:40.060
were hit by a drunk driver.

555
00:38:40.080 --> 00:38:41.020
It was really, really bad.

556
00:38:41.360 --> 00:38:43.460
Thankfully, they all survived, but you all,

557
00:38:43.740 --> 00:38:45.900
my brother was in a coma for a really long time

558
00:38:46.480 --> 00:38:48.820
and then had to go and learn how to walk and talk

559
00:38:48.820 --> 00:38:50.100
and do all the things over again.

560
00:38:50.100 --> 00:38:52.060
My sister had to have brain surgery,

561
00:38:52.480 --> 00:38:56.540
was never the same again fully after that, tragic.

562
00:38:56.820 --> 00:38:59.680
So yeah, when I heard sirens or even now

563
00:38:59.680 --> 00:39:00.780
when I go to hospitals,

564
00:39:00.780 --> 00:39:04.440
I have to really kind of breathe through it

565
00:39:04.440 --> 00:39:06.160
because I've been in so many hospitals

566
00:39:06.160 --> 00:39:08.700
because my family has had so many things happen.

567
00:39:10.300 --> 00:39:14.180
So yeah, sometimes when I would hear sirens, I would fear,

568
00:39:14.580 --> 00:39:15.900
especially when I had broken up

569
00:39:15.900 --> 00:39:17.220
with my spiritual daughter's dad

570
00:39:17.220 --> 00:39:20.620
and they weren't with me all the time

571
00:39:20.620 --> 00:39:21.660
because they weren't mine

572
00:39:21.820 --> 00:39:24.820
and their dad was doing really not good things

573
00:39:24.820 --> 00:39:26.640
and their mom was driving around drunk

574
00:39:26.640 --> 00:39:28.240
with them half the time.

575
00:39:28.480 --> 00:39:30.500
So yeah, like constantly I was afraid

576
00:39:30.500 --> 00:39:31.900
that every time I'd hear a siren.

577
00:39:32.320 --> 00:39:34.040
So I had to really fight against that

578
00:39:34.040 --> 00:39:36.540
and war against that coming in my mind

579
00:39:36.540 --> 00:39:37.800
and being afraid all the time.

580
00:39:37.880 --> 00:39:40.440
So for some of you, maybe it's not that extreme,

581
00:39:40.560 --> 00:39:43.640
but you're feeling that every time something happens,

582
00:39:43.640 --> 00:39:44.740
you think the worst.

583
00:39:44.740 --> 00:39:47.200
I want you to pay attention to those kinds of thoughts.

584
00:39:48.220 --> 00:39:50.320
Track your thoughts and see where they're leading you.

585
00:39:50.780 --> 00:39:52.060
Maybe are you someone who,

586
00:39:52.300 --> 00:39:54.720
like when someone doesn't respond to your text message

587
00:39:54.720 --> 00:39:57.320
in the timeframe that you think they should,

588
00:39:57.460 --> 00:39:59.820
you automatically think negative things.

589
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:01.780
I'm going to give you a couple of examples.

590
00:40:02.040 --> 00:40:03.000
Maybe yours is different.

591
00:40:03.740 --> 00:40:05.680
Again, this is just to get you thinking.

592
00:40:06.260 --> 00:40:07.060
They're mad at me.

593
00:40:07.780 --> 00:40:09.040
They don't care about me.

594
00:40:09.740 --> 00:40:10.740
They don't like me.

595
00:40:11.440 --> 00:40:13.340
He must be talking to someone else.

596
00:40:14.200 --> 00:40:15.140
I'm not pretty enough.

597
00:40:15.260 --> 00:40:16.200
I'm not good enough.

598
00:40:16.660 --> 00:40:19.980
Whatever, fill in the blank, why they're not texting you back.

599
00:40:21.300 --> 00:40:23.600
Y'all, I want you to just breathe, OK?

600
00:40:23.600 --> 00:40:27.520
I want you to start practicing this even now

601
00:40:27.520 --> 00:40:28.380
during the heart work.

602
00:40:28.380 --> 00:40:31.340
Give your friends some slack.

603
00:40:32.440 --> 00:40:33.860
If they don't get back to you right away,

604
00:40:34.300 --> 00:40:35.400
don't believe the worst.

605
00:40:37.440 --> 00:40:37.880
Guess what?

606
00:40:38.280 --> 00:40:40.780
People have jobs, and they have meetings

607
00:40:40.780 --> 00:40:42.480
that they have to go to at their jobs.

608
00:40:43.780 --> 00:40:45.860
And sometimes, you know, like I have a friend.

609
00:40:46.040 --> 00:40:46.960
She has five kids.

610
00:40:47.360 --> 00:40:48.700
She's one of my closest friends.

611
00:40:49.000 --> 00:40:50.640
And she said some of her other friends

612
00:40:50.640 --> 00:40:52.040
try to always make her feel guilty

613
00:40:52.140 --> 00:40:54.800
if she doesn't get back to them in a certain amount of time.

614
00:40:54.820 --> 00:40:55.480
I'm like, what?

615
00:40:56.240 --> 00:40:56.640
No.

616
00:40:57.160 --> 00:40:59.220
So I practice this with my friends a lot.

617
00:40:59.480 --> 00:41:01.980
If they apologize, I'm so sorry I didn't respond.

618
00:41:02.260 --> 00:41:04.100
Why are you apologizing to me about that?

619
00:41:05.040 --> 00:41:06.540
I know you love me.

620
00:41:07.040 --> 00:41:07.840
I love you.

621
00:41:09.460 --> 00:41:11.760
I know that you'll get back to me when you can.

622
00:41:11.880 --> 00:41:13.600
If it's urgent, and these are people

623
00:41:13.600 --> 00:41:15.860
I talk to all the time, y'all, I don't expect my friends

624
00:41:15.860 --> 00:41:17.440
to text me every single day.

625
00:41:19.480 --> 00:41:22.040
And if that is something you struggle with,

626
00:41:22.080 --> 00:41:24.500
I really want to encourage you to ask the Lord,

627
00:41:24.940 --> 00:41:26.040
where is that coming from?

628
00:41:26.560 --> 00:41:27.740
Because it's not healthy.

629
00:41:29.960 --> 00:41:31.200
How is this connecting to fear?

630
00:41:31.580 --> 00:41:34.480
Well, it's absolutely connected to fear and anxiety.

631
00:41:34.700 --> 00:41:37.280
When you all start to step into dating again,

632
00:41:38.200 --> 00:41:40.980
some of you all are gonna battle anxious attachment,

633
00:41:41.660 --> 00:41:42.880
and you're gonna really struggle

634
00:41:42.880 --> 00:41:44.480
if that person doesn't text you back

635
00:41:44.480 --> 00:41:45.360
within a certain time frame,

636
00:41:45.460 --> 00:41:46.520
and if they don't say a certain thing,

637
00:41:46.580 --> 00:41:47.740
and if they don't say it a certain way,

638
00:41:47.880 --> 00:41:49.960
and all this kind of stuff.

639
00:41:50.740 --> 00:41:52.700
So if you practice it now,

640
00:41:53.260 --> 00:41:56.320
allow God to heal your heart from this stuff now,

641
00:41:56.860 --> 00:41:59.500
you might struggle with it less later on.

642
00:42:00.460 --> 00:42:01.860
And some of you are the opposite.

643
00:42:02.060 --> 00:42:03.960
You're like, I don't care if I ever hear from my friend

644
00:42:03.960 --> 00:42:05.140
for a really long time,

645
00:42:05.140 --> 00:42:06.160
because you're avoidant.

646
00:42:06.240 --> 00:42:07.820
You struggle with avoidant tendencies.

647
00:42:08.160 --> 00:42:09.880
I know, I see some of y'all laughing,

648
00:42:10.420 --> 00:42:12.400
because you know, you're like, I'm good.

649
00:42:12.440 --> 00:42:15.380
I have this young lady, I was trying to disciple her,

650
00:42:15.440 --> 00:42:17.240
and she literally said to me,

651
00:42:18.340 --> 00:42:21.720
I don't care if I ever spend time with anybody, ever.

652
00:42:22.360 --> 00:42:23.180
That's what she said to me.

653
00:42:23.300 --> 00:42:24.500
I was like, what?

654
00:42:24.500 --> 00:42:26.180
That is such a foreign concept to me.

655
00:42:26.180 --> 00:42:27.920
That is not me at all.

656
00:42:28.020 --> 00:42:30.880
Now you all, I like time with people,

657
00:42:30.940 --> 00:42:32.400
but I like my time by myself.

658
00:42:32.520 --> 00:42:34.840
I like to recharge and not have anybody

659
00:42:34.840 --> 00:42:35.800
for a little bit of time.

660
00:42:35.960 --> 00:42:37.980
But when she said that, I was like, really?

661
00:42:39.120 --> 00:42:40.200
How can that be?

662
00:42:41.200 --> 00:42:43.400
Because God created you for connection.

663
00:42:46.240 --> 00:42:48.980
Some of you, your fear is connection.

664
00:42:49.980 --> 00:42:51.500
You're actually afraid of connection.

665
00:42:53.540 --> 00:42:56.000
And so I wanna encourage you to pray about that

666
00:42:56.200 --> 00:42:59.180
and ask the Lord, when was the first time

667
00:42:59.180 --> 00:43:01.340
you became afraid of connecting

668
00:43:01.860 --> 00:43:05.680
and allowing yourself to actually be known and loved

669
00:43:06.660 --> 00:43:09.260
so that you can start to heal in those areas

670
00:43:09.260 --> 00:43:11.220
and come out of that place?

671
00:43:11.380 --> 00:43:13.840
Because God always created you for family.

672
00:43:14.160 --> 00:43:15.820
God always created you for connection.

673
00:43:15.820 --> 00:43:19.080
He did not create you to live in isolation.

674
00:43:20.280 --> 00:43:22.360
Yes, God enabled some of his disciples

675
00:43:22.360 --> 00:43:24.460
and people to live in isolation,

676
00:43:24.640 --> 00:43:27.000
but that isn't what he created them for.

677
00:43:29.740 --> 00:43:31.480
Yeah, Cleo, I get it.

678
00:43:31.640 --> 00:43:32.960
Afraid to be hurt again, yeah.

679
00:43:33.540 --> 00:43:35.520
But love is always a risk, you all,

680
00:43:35.600 --> 00:43:39.940
but it's also an amazing, amazing gift, amazing gift.

681
00:43:40.300 --> 00:43:41.460
All right, I'm gonna keep going.

682
00:43:41.540 --> 00:43:44.860
1 John 4, 18, and the Amplified Version says this.

683
00:43:44.860 --> 00:43:46.120
There is no fear in love.

684
00:43:46.520 --> 00:43:47.600
Dread does not exist,

685
00:43:49.120 --> 00:43:53.720
but perfect, complete, full-grown love drives out fear

686
00:43:53.960 --> 00:43:58.660
because fear involves the expectation of divine punishment.

687
00:43:59.520 --> 00:44:01.480
So the one who is afraid of God's judgment

688
00:44:01.480 --> 00:44:03.080
is not perfected in love,

689
00:44:03.360 --> 00:44:04.820
which means has not grown

690
00:44:04.820 --> 00:44:08.300
into a sufficient understanding of God's love.

691
00:44:08.660 --> 00:44:10.280
Y'all, I had read this scripture

692
00:44:10.280 --> 00:44:12.140
over and over and over for years

693
00:44:12.140 --> 00:44:15.540
and quoted it and declared it,

694
00:44:15.580 --> 00:44:16.860
and I'm so glad I did,

695
00:44:16.960 --> 00:44:19.260
but when I read it in the Amplified Version,

696
00:44:19.580 --> 00:44:21.460
man, it convicted me.

697
00:44:23.140 --> 00:44:24.940
And this is what convicted me.

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Perfect, which means full-grown, complete love,

699
00:44:33.720 --> 00:44:34.520
drives out fear.

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And then at the end of that scripture, it says,

701
00:44:37.640 --> 00:44:42.960
the one who is afraid is not perfected in love,

702
00:44:43.680 --> 00:44:45.040
which means has not grown

703
00:44:45.040 --> 00:44:48.420
into a sufficient understanding of God's love.

704
00:44:48.760 --> 00:44:50.260
That's what it means.

705
00:44:51.920 --> 00:44:55.420
So what God was saying to me is when you are afraid

706
00:44:55.420 --> 00:44:56.960
and you partner with fear,

707
00:44:58.000 --> 00:44:59.980
you actually don't understand.

708
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:08.040
and my love for you. Not fully. I think I know why some of the

709
00:45:08.040 --> 00:45:12.340
disciples were able to do what they did. Even to the point of

710
00:45:12.160 --> 00:45:18.200
death. They knew love himself. Y'all they walked with Jesus,

711
00:45:18.240 --> 00:45:22.040
they still struggled all the time. And they walked with him.

712
00:45:24.040 --> 00:45:26.820
Do you think God doesn't understand that it's hard for us

713
00:45:26.820 --> 00:45:32.080
sometimes? But he is saying, Hey, when you're not walking in

714
00:45:32.500 --> 00:45:36.100
love, you're not walking in the full understanding of the

715
00:45:36.220 --> 00:45:40.620
understanding of who I am, like who God is, God is love. It says

716
00:45:40.620 --> 00:45:46.040
that he is absolutely love. And so you know what, we might need

717
00:45:46.040 --> 00:45:50.120
to pause and just say, Hey, this week, Lord, I'm so sorry, I was

718
00:45:50.120 --> 00:45:54.040
I was partnering with fear in this area. Like, can you show me

719
00:45:54.040 --> 00:46:00.520
like your love more in this place? John 316 says for God so

720
00:46:00.520 --> 00:46:03.080
loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son that whoever

721
00:46:03.320 --> 00:46:06.960
believes in him should not perish but have ever lasting

722
00:46:07.420 --> 00:46:10.620
life. Hebrews 12 one says therefore, since we are

723
00:46:10.620 --> 00:46:13.440
surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off

724
00:46:13.440 --> 00:46:17.080
everything that hinders in the sin that so easily entangles and

725
00:46:17.080 --> 00:46:24.020
let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. I'm

726
00:46:24.020 --> 00:46:26.140
going to ask her to share what God has put on her heart for

727
00:46:26.140 --> 00:46:28.620
tonight. And then we're going to get ready for breakout session

728
00:46:28.620 --> 00:46:29.580
right after that, ladies.

729
00:46:31.580 --> 00:46:35.300
Thank you, Bethany. As I was considering what I wanted to

730
00:46:35.300 --> 00:46:38.740
share tonight, there were a couple different things, as I

731
00:46:38.740 --> 00:46:43.280
prayed that came to mind. And one fear in particular that I

732
00:46:43.280 --> 00:46:49.380
had, that I often spoke of when I was in heartwork and in the

733
00:46:49.380 --> 00:46:55.420
process is my son and daughter in law got married when I was in

734
00:46:55.420 --> 00:47:00.000
the program. And when they started talking about having

735
00:47:01.320 --> 00:47:07.060
kids, I started joking about it at first. But I literally said,

736
00:47:07.820 --> 00:47:12.760
Hey, you need to wait to have kids until I get married. Because

737
00:47:13.340 --> 00:47:18.840
I would say, who wants to date a grandma? I mean, if you say

738
00:47:18.840 --> 00:47:22.620
grandma and her boyfriend, it sounds like I should be walking

739
00:47:22.620 --> 00:47:26.600
around in like leopard skin leggings and a pink boa, you

740
00:47:26.600 --> 00:47:29.120
know, throwing it over my shoulder talking about my

741
00:47:28.720 --> 00:47:35.440
boyfriend. And I actually I did, I worried about that. And God

742
00:47:35.440 --> 00:47:39.600
really showed me that I was moving in fear and labeling

743
00:47:39.840 --> 00:47:43.560
myself when children and grandchildren are a gift from

744
00:47:43.560 --> 00:47:48.600
the Lord. And so why would that prevent someone from wanting

745
00:47:48.840 --> 00:47:56.700
to date and or marry me? And incidentally, as worried as I

746
00:47:56.700 --> 00:48:01.160
was, and then able to release that fear, God really did show

747
00:48:01.160 --> 00:48:07.480
up in ways that I didn't give him credit for. Or that he could

748
00:48:07.480 --> 00:48:11.620
that that I believe that he could show up because when

749
00:48:11.620 --> 00:48:18.560
Arthur met my grandson, all of a sudden, we'd come through the

750
00:48:18.560 --> 00:48:22.340
door, and I was pushed to the side, and he wanted to see Papa

751
00:48:22.340 --> 00:48:28.000
Arthur, and he'd raise his hands for Papa Arthur. And Arthur

752
00:48:28.040 --> 00:48:35.480
adores him, and they have such a good relationship. And so that

753
00:48:35.480 --> 00:48:38.240
was something that I did really struggle with for a while, but

754
00:48:38.240 --> 00:48:43.200
God delivered me from and then showed me how he planned it for

755
00:48:43.200 --> 00:48:47.460
blessing, where I was afraid it was going to be something that I

756
00:48:47.460 --> 00:48:51.680
couldn't be blessed by, it actually was something that

757
00:48:51.680 --> 00:48:58.380
turned out better than I even could have imagined. And the

758
00:48:58.380 --> 00:49:03.300
second thing that I'll say, which also involves Arthur and

759
00:49:03.300 --> 00:49:07.460
being married, because ladies, when you get married, like hurt

760
00:49:07.460 --> 00:49:10.740
in relationship, healed in relationship, and here we go,

761
00:49:10.920 --> 00:49:14.960
because God continues to work on you through your heartwork and

762
00:49:14.960 --> 00:49:22.680
right on into marriage, but Arthur's green card, we have the

763
00:49:22.680 --> 00:49:30.020
interview date after 18 months of waiting. And I can see the

764
00:49:30.020 --> 00:49:32.720
end in sight. And what I've realized has happened. And I

765
00:49:32.720 --> 00:49:39.240
really just came to this, this morning, but I've been kind of

766
00:49:39.340 --> 00:49:43.140
grumpy, and really on him, like, did you do this? Did you do

767
00:49:43.140 --> 00:49:46.000
this? Have you done this? Because while we were waiting,

768
00:49:46.320 --> 00:49:49.460
we were faithful to pray faithful to pray, God showed up

769
00:49:49.460 --> 00:49:54.380
this interview is four months sooner than what they told us it

770
00:49:54.380 --> 00:49:58.320
would be. That's an answer to prayer. God has sustained us God

771
00:49:58.320 --> 00:49:59.820
has provided for us.

772
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:04.800
Through all of this and now that we have the end in sight

773
00:50:05.320 --> 00:50:11.400
It's like I want it so bad. I'm Arthur. Did you do this? Did you do this? Did you make sure you did this?

774
00:50:11.640 --> 00:50:12.940
Why don't you have this done yet?

775
00:50:13.000 --> 00:50:17.660
So I've kind of like you know, get it done get it done get it done

776
00:50:17.660 --> 00:50:22.760
Because I don't want anything to hold it back. I don't want anything to keep it from happening. And I

777
00:50:23.680 --> 00:50:27.280
realized this morning a friend was praying with me and

778
00:50:27.280 --> 00:50:32.740
She was she pointed out that God brought us to this place

779
00:50:32.740 --> 00:50:38.960
God orchestrated it to come to pass four months sooner than they anticipated

780
00:50:39.720 --> 00:50:47.820
but because I slipped into fear and anxiety about it because I want to grab on to it and I want to hold it because

781
00:50:47.820 --> 00:50:50.040
I don't want anything to delay it anymore

782
00:50:50.080 --> 00:50:54.320
rather than trusting God to continue to do what he's already been doing and

783
00:50:54.520 --> 00:51:02.460
Blessing us and providing for us. I want to take it over and do it myself because I'm afraid and so this morning

784
00:51:02.460 --> 00:51:03.560
I was able to

785
00:51:04.200 --> 00:51:11.080
to recognize that God showed me that and I laid it down and

786
00:51:11.260 --> 00:51:16.700
Repented of my heart posture of I need to take care like I'll take it from here God

787
00:51:16.700 --> 00:51:20.360
thanks for getting us here, but but I'll get us the rest of the way and

788
00:51:20.500 --> 00:51:21.200
And

789
00:51:22.480 --> 00:51:28.100
Really to come into agreement with how much he loves us and that none of this has caught him unaware

790
00:51:28.100 --> 00:51:36.240
He's been orchestrating the situation from the beginning and I need to just continue to rest in the peace that only he can bring

791
00:51:36.640 --> 00:51:39.540
so those are my two big shares for

792
00:51:40.160 --> 00:51:42.120
for the week and

793
00:51:42.180 --> 00:51:47.660
I hope they encourage you and bless you that God is for you and loves you immensely

794
00:51:48.280 --> 00:51:53.320
Thanks, go ahead Bethany, that was so great you all two things

795
00:51:53.320 --> 00:51:56.300
I heard as she was talking and then I'm gonna get your breakout groups ready

796
00:51:57.560 --> 00:51:59.860
Relinquish control was the first one

797
00:52:01.780 --> 00:52:03.900
We have to really practice

798
00:52:04.440 --> 00:52:05.560
relinquishing control

799
00:52:06.220 --> 00:52:11.220
Okay, so sometimes the container is gonna look a lot different than what we expected

800
00:52:11.540 --> 00:52:17.480
How it shows up when it shows up what we have to go through to get it all the things you all

801
00:52:17.480 --> 00:52:19.640
Before we got married

802
00:52:19.660 --> 00:52:26.760
We found out Brian's passport was being like withheld first because of something that was a total misunderstanding

803
00:52:27.260 --> 00:52:34.020
But literally we had our whole honeymoon planned and we did not know if he was gonna be able to go until literally the day

804
00:52:34.020 --> 00:52:37.080
Before we got married. He had to drive all the way to Chicago

805
00:52:37.980 --> 00:52:45.120
To get hit like his passport approved and that only happened because we just so happened in the church

806
00:52:45.120 --> 00:52:46.320
We were in in Indiana

807
00:52:46.900 --> 00:52:52.920
Somebody that went there had a brother that was in the government that made a call for us

808
00:52:54.080 --> 00:52:55.780
Y'all God did that

809
00:52:56.180 --> 00:52:58.120
God orchestrated all of that

810
00:52:58.900 --> 00:53:01.300
But y'all better believe I was a little panicked

811
00:53:01.300 --> 00:53:05.100
We had spent a lot of money on that honeymoon and I didn't want to miss our honeymoon

812
00:53:05.100 --> 00:53:10.400
There was all kinds of things. I was having fears and battling but when we relinquish control and

813
00:53:11.360 --> 00:53:15.240
Trying to figure everything out and make sure everything like just breathe

814
00:53:15.240 --> 00:53:21.160
This is what I'm trying to keep say breathe. Just breathe. Breathe breathe when the overwhelm tries to set in

815
00:53:22.160 --> 00:53:27.740
pause and ask the Lord what's really causing the overwhelm and

816
00:53:27.740 --> 00:53:31.780
Oftentimes you're gonna feel you're gonna find that it's connecting back to fear

817
00:53:32.920 --> 00:53:35.620
Or anxious thinking the other thing

818
00:53:36.060 --> 00:53:40.880
Totally left my brain. And so if I remember it, I'll share it when y'all come back

819
00:53:41.600 --> 00:53:46.220
That's what happens sometimes all right, so here's your breakout question for tonight

820
00:53:46.220 --> 00:53:51.500
What fear are you gonna ask God to help you with tonight? What fear are you gonna say or anxious thoughts?

821
00:53:51.620 --> 00:53:55.120
Are you gonna say? Hey, I'm gonna I'm gonna let this go God. I need your help with this

822
00:53:55.940 --> 00:54:02.240
And that whole relinquishing control, you know, it's not taking the wheel back when it looks like he doesn't oh

823
00:54:02.240 --> 00:54:07.560
I know what it was y'all definitely when you listen to the prophetic ministry night now when you listen I

824
00:54:07.640 --> 00:54:15.000
Did reference right in the beginning the man that was rowing the boat and God was showing me that that was a

825
00:54:15.080 --> 00:54:17.440
referencing our own human effort and

826
00:54:18.440 --> 00:54:21.140
There was a bigger boat and God said if that was the love boat

827
00:54:21.140 --> 00:54:26.220
We were ministering to all like most of our singles last night and and all of that

828
00:54:26.220 --> 00:54:27.680
And so I loved that connection

829
00:54:27.680 --> 00:54:34.240
But I want I want to also say this even I think that big boat can represent anything that seems like an obstacle for us

830
00:54:35.880 --> 00:54:36.360
and

831
00:54:36.360 --> 00:54:40.420
God wants us to step out of our human effort. So what fear or anxious thoughts?

832
00:54:40.420 --> 00:54:43.200
Are you asking God to help you with tonight? Let me get these rooms ready

833
00:54:52.080 --> 00:54:55.500
All right, you have six minutes go ahead and jump in those as quick as you can

834
00:54:58.840 --> 00:54:59.760
And I will

835
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:02.820
spray as soon as I get everyone situated.

836
00:55:03.760 --> 00:55:07.920
Y'all know I try to do both at one time and sometimes it goes

837
00:55:07.920 --> 00:55:10.000
really well and other times it just doesn't.

838
00:55:10.120 --> 00:55:13.960
So let me just try to focus and get them situated here.

839
00:55:41.340 --> 00:55:42.060
Okay, Lord.

840
00:55:42.220 --> 00:55:43.340
We just thank you so much.

841
00:55:43.400 --> 00:55:45.900
I think that was a pretty easy night getting everyone situated.

842
00:55:46.220 --> 00:55:49.320
God, I pray for every conversation that's happening right now.

843
00:55:49.460 --> 00:55:51.280
Even those that are here in the main room.

844
00:55:51.360 --> 00:55:52.640
Those are going to watch the replay.

845
00:55:52.880 --> 00:55:55.440
God, I thank you for revealings for healing that will continue

846
00:55:55.440 --> 00:56:01.120
to happen where transformation is going to come into contact

847
00:56:01.360 --> 00:56:03.320
with impartations when I'm hearing the Spirit.

848
00:56:03.500 --> 00:56:05.560
So I don't even fully I have to look up what that all even

849
00:56:05.560 --> 00:56:07.160
means, but that's just what I heard my spirit.

850
00:56:07.160 --> 00:56:08.140
So I'll speak it out.

851
00:56:08.200 --> 00:56:12.040
So Father, we just thank you for coming in and removing every

852
00:56:12.140 --> 00:56:15.100
obstacle every barrier it even right now what's coming up

853
00:56:15.100 --> 00:56:15.840
into my mind again.

854
00:56:15.840 --> 00:56:18.200
You guys will have to listen to the full replay from last

855
00:56:18.200 --> 00:56:21.920
night. But as I'm thinking about I literally was in my mind's

856
00:56:21.920 --> 00:56:25.360
eye praying Lord what what to pray about the fear and I

857
00:56:25.360 --> 00:56:28.400
just saw the word again last night from the cobwebs like

858
00:56:28.400 --> 00:56:31.100
God said he was going to come in and just remove all the

859
00:56:31.180 --> 00:56:32.800
cobwebs from the minds.

860
00:56:33.460 --> 00:56:35.980
And so I just want to speak that out again tonight God.

861
00:56:36.200 --> 00:56:40.080
We thank you for renewing us and transforming us by the

862
00:56:40.180 --> 00:56:43.640
renewing of our minds God that all old things have passed

863
00:56:43.640 --> 00:56:46.520
away and behold everything has become new and you got to

864
00:56:46.520 --> 00:56:49.640
thank you that you're rewriting our stories that you're

865
00:56:49.640 --> 00:56:53.500
helping us to be transformed from the inside out God that

866
00:56:53.500 --> 00:56:57.460
yes, I just saw the Lord placing like a new heart inside

867
00:56:57.460 --> 00:56:57.840
of us.

868
00:56:57.980 --> 00:56:59.900
So Lord, I just thank you for that truth.

869
00:57:00.120 --> 00:57:02.940
I believe that's a prophetic revelation of what you're doing

870
00:57:02.940 --> 00:57:03.280
tonight.

871
00:57:03.520 --> 00:57:06.860
God that you are coming and placing new hearts on the inside

872
00:57:06.860 --> 00:57:10.560
of us God and that it's fleshly it's it's beating it's pumping

873
00:57:10.560 --> 00:57:12.980
and and a fleshly heart is a soft heart.

874
00:57:12.980 --> 00:57:16.420
It's a symbol of there's no hardness that's resisting the

875
00:57:16.420 --> 00:57:17.820
plan of God in our lives.

876
00:57:17.820 --> 00:57:21.780
And so where we just thank you for continuing to work in

877
00:57:21.780 --> 00:57:25.100
every area where we've had lack in the past God where we

878
00:57:25.100 --> 00:57:28.180
felt this constant struggle and tension God.

879
00:57:28.340 --> 00:57:30.380
I thank you that you're removing barriers that you're

880
00:57:31.560 --> 00:57:34.340
transforming our mindsets that you're helping us to hear what

881
00:57:34.340 --> 00:57:38.700
your spirit is saying more and more clearly each and every

882
00:57:38.700 --> 00:57:39.500
day Shantella.

883
00:57:39.760 --> 00:57:44.040
Do you need me to put you into I see a W so I'm thinking

884
00:57:44.040 --> 00:57:45.500
you can't hear or share.

885
00:57:45.500 --> 00:57:49.240
So I'm going to put you in that room where the others thank

886
00:57:49.240 --> 00:57:49.560
you.

887
00:57:49.560 --> 00:57:50.420
I got there.

888
00:57:50.420 --> 00:57:51.340
You got like thank you.

889
00:57:51.580 --> 00:57:52.780
Yeah, you're welcome.

890
00:57:56.640 --> 00:57:57.320
All right.

891
00:57:57.420 --> 00:57:59.600
So what we just thank you for even just things getting

892
00:57:59.880 --> 00:58:00.560
reconnected God.

893
00:58:00.740 --> 00:58:05.180
We thank you for being the amazing dot connector that you

894
00:58:05.300 --> 00:58:09.460
are Lord that you're just literally revealing in each moment

895
00:58:09.460 --> 00:58:11.800
the things that we need to hear just like I just saw a bunch

896
00:58:11.800 --> 00:58:15.320
of thought bubbles starting to come to people's minds Lord

897
00:58:15.320 --> 00:58:18.920
where there's been things that have caused delay denial setback

898
00:58:18.920 --> 00:58:19.100
Lord.

899
00:58:19.100 --> 00:58:22.280
I thank you that you're just you're bringing revelation.

900
00:58:22.280 --> 00:58:23.320
You're bringing truth.

901
00:58:23.460 --> 00:58:24.720
You're bringing aha moments.

902
00:58:24.720 --> 00:58:27.840
You're helping people have these transformative moments and

903
00:58:27.840 --> 00:58:31.480
revelation that they're hearing from your voice Lord 2nd

904
00:58:31.480 --> 00:58:34.940
Corinthians 1 3 through 4 says this all praise to the Lord.

905
00:58:34.940 --> 00:58:37.660
Excuse me all praise to the God and father of our master

906
00:58:37.660 --> 00:58:41.480
Jesus the Messiah father of all mercy God of all healing

907
00:58:41.480 --> 00:58:41.900
counsel.

908
00:58:41.900 --> 00:58:44.740
He comes alongside of us when we go through hard times and

909
00:58:44.740 --> 00:58:48.660
before you know it he brings us alongside someone else who

910
00:58:48.660 --> 00:58:52.140
is going through hard times so that we can be there for that

911
00:58:52.140 --> 00:58:55.480
person just as God was there for us.

912
00:58:56.480 --> 00:58:59.760
Isn't it amazing that right now some of the things that you

913
00:58:59.760 --> 00:59:02.840
all are healing from the transformation that's happening in

914
00:59:02.840 --> 00:59:06.060
your heart and life one day you're going to be able to come

915
00:59:06.060 --> 00:59:09.160
alongside of someone else just like we are and you're going

916
00:59:09.160 --> 00:59:12.120
to be able to love them and cheer them on and speak truth

917
00:59:12.120 --> 00:59:15.880
to them and help them to hear God's blessings and hope for

918
00:59:15.880 --> 00:59:21.920
them Isaiah 53 Isaiah 53 verses 4 through 6 in the NLT says

919
00:59:21.920 --> 00:59:22.660
this yet.

920
00:59:22.660 --> 00:59:24.260
It was our weaknesses.

921
00:59:24.260 --> 00:59:26.700
He carried it was yet.

922
00:59:26.700 --> 00:59:28.040
It was our weaknesses.

923
00:59:28.320 --> 00:59:32.020
He carried it was our sorrows that weighed him down and he

924
00:59:32.020 --> 00:59:34.660
thought his troubles were a punishment from God a punishment

925
00:59:34.660 --> 00:59:38.260
for his own sins, but he was pierced for our rebellion crushed

926
00:59:38.260 --> 00:59:38.980
for our sins.

927
00:59:38.980 --> 00:59:43.880
He was beaten so we could be whole he was whipped so that we

928
00:59:43.880 --> 00:59:44.980
could be healed.

929
00:59:44.980 --> 00:59:45.400
God.

930
00:59:45.400 --> 00:59:48.700
I thank you for sending Jesus and Jesus.

931
00:59:48.940 --> 00:59:50.080
I thank you for coming.

932
00:59:51.660 --> 00:59:55.120
I thank you for everything that you endured so that we could

933
00:59:55.120 --> 00:59:59.560
be free so that we could be whole who le

934
01:00:01.520 --> 01:00:04.960
Completely whole, lacking no good thing.

935
01:00:07.360 --> 01:00:09.800
Yes, Lord, I thank you for all the good things.

936
01:00:10.840 --> 01:00:14.320
I thank you for all the good things that you have already done in our lives.

937
01:00:14.520 --> 01:00:19.220
Lord, help us to look back and see all the ways that you were there for us all along,

938
01:00:19.360 --> 01:00:23.740
even when we believe lies like we always get the short end of the stick,

939
01:00:23.960 --> 01:00:27.180
or that we work hard and we work hard and we never get anything.

940
01:00:27.400 --> 01:00:29.460
God, help us to look back and see the truth.

941
01:00:30.140 --> 01:00:34.820
That we wouldn't believe the lie that the enemy's been feeding to us because our hearts were broken.

942
01:00:36.060 --> 01:00:39.540
God, I thank you that you would just continue to bring things out of darkness into the light,

943
01:00:39.580 --> 01:00:45.500
that there can be more revealings for healing, that truth would continue to flood to the surface,

944
01:00:46.260 --> 01:00:49.680
not in a forceful, harsh way, but God, that it would just bubble up,

945
01:00:49.840 --> 01:00:54.540
just percolate right to the surface at the appointed time for the appointed reason and

946
01:00:54.540 --> 01:00:58.120
season for each person that they would have ears to hear what your spirit is saying.

947
01:00:58.840 --> 01:00:59.580
God, I thank you.

948
01:00:59.640 --> 01:01:04.100
I just sense a gentleness that entered this space as I was kind of praying that

949
01:01:04.100 --> 01:01:06.540
scripture about Jesus and his sacrifices for us,

950
01:01:07.400 --> 01:01:12.140
and just started thanking Jesus for everything he endured for our freedom, for our healing.

951
01:01:13.660 --> 01:01:18.340
And so I hope you all just understand like Jesus is sitting at the right hand of the Father right

952
01:01:18.340 --> 01:01:25.120
now interceding for us, interceding for our breakthrough, interceding for our life, interceding

953
01:01:25.120 --> 01:01:27.740
for the things that we're even praying for.

954
01:01:27.740 --> 01:01:29.780
He cares about what we care about.

955
01:01:30.780 --> 01:01:36.420
And so I encourage you this week, you know, as we started Advent this last week, I encourage

956
01:01:36.420 --> 01:01:44.300
you to really ask the Lord to show you the power of Jesus coming and the power of him coming in

957
01:01:44.300 --> 01:01:49.920
the form of a baby and going through what he did on the earth to relate to us, to show us how to

958
01:01:49.920 --> 01:01:55.820
walk in authority and breakthrough, but also everything he endured for our victory, because

959
01:01:55.820 --> 01:01:56.900
you already have victory.

960
01:01:58.060 --> 01:02:00.520
You're fighting from victory, not for it, ladies.

961
01:02:01.180 --> 01:02:01.340
Okay.

962
01:02:02.000 --> 01:02:02.480
All right.

963
01:02:02.500 --> 01:02:06.660
So your activations for this week, I'm going to give those to you really quickly.

964
01:02:07.160 --> 01:02:10.000
One of them, number one, is practice receiving.

965
01:02:11.620 --> 01:02:12.200
Practice receiving.

966
01:02:12.260 --> 01:02:17.160
I didn't talk about this as much tonight as I did this afternoon, but what this is, is

967
01:02:17.160 --> 01:02:21.220
you all are going to practice going up to people, asking them for help, and you are

968
01:02:21.220 --> 01:02:22.160
going to practice receiving.

969
01:02:22.160 --> 01:02:27.880
Also, if someone just tries to do something nice for you, instead of being like, no, I

970
01:02:27.880 --> 01:02:28.620
got this.

971
01:02:28.980 --> 01:02:29.560
I'm good.

972
01:02:29.700 --> 01:02:33.780
You're going to say, yes, that would be amazing.

973
01:02:34.220 --> 01:02:35.660
Or thank you so much.

974
01:02:35.660 --> 01:02:37.380
And you're going to let them open the door.

975
01:02:37.440 --> 01:02:39.660
You're going to let them carry your groceries.

976
01:02:39.900 --> 01:02:43.680
You're going to let them, you know, I don't know, pay for your cab fare.

977
01:02:43.700 --> 01:02:47.920
I don't know what the thing might be for you, but you're just going to practice receiving

978
01:02:47.920 --> 01:02:52.100
from women, from men, from everybody all around you.

979
01:02:52.300 --> 01:02:52.680
Praise the Lord.

980
01:02:53.100 --> 01:02:54.180
Unless it's something mean.

981
01:02:54.500 --> 01:02:56.500
And then you're going to say, not today, devil.

982
01:02:56.860 --> 01:02:57.500
Not today.

983
01:02:57.960 --> 01:02:58.280
All right.

984
01:02:58.660 --> 01:03:00.840
Number two is letting go.

985
01:03:01.320 --> 01:03:03.500
This is what the activation is called.

986
01:03:04.300 --> 01:03:10.000
And I want you to lean further into Supernatural Saturday Word, a prophetic ministry night,

987
01:03:10.260 --> 01:03:17.740
and ask God to help you let go of the old and the bad things so that you can welcome

988
01:03:17.740 --> 01:03:19.420
in and receive the new and good things.

989
01:03:19.560 --> 01:03:22.960
In particular, as we're starting, we still have a whole month.

990
01:03:23.160 --> 01:03:24.620
A lot can happen in a month, you all.

991
01:03:24.620 --> 01:03:24.960
Okay.

992
01:03:24.980 --> 01:03:30.320
So I'm not skipping ahead to 2026, but I feel led to go ahead and issue this because it's

993
01:03:30.320 --> 01:03:34.600
our last letting go activation of 2025 for the heartwork group.

994
01:03:35.480 --> 01:03:40.820
I want you to ask God, what does he not want you to take into 2026 with you?

995
01:03:42.240 --> 01:03:52.420
What kind of mindsets, heart postures, attitudes, belief systems, actions, whatever it is that

996
01:03:53.280 --> 01:03:58.020
you've been living in, that you've been thinking, operating in, that he does not want you to

997
01:03:58.020 --> 01:03:59.900
take into 2026 with you.

998
01:04:00.660 --> 01:04:03.260
For some of you, it's a relationship.

999
01:04:04.560 --> 01:04:08.080
You're hanging on to a relationship that isn't even a relationship.

1000
01:04:08.380 --> 01:04:09.960
It's a situation ship.

1001
01:04:09.960 --> 01:04:15.660
It's not going where it's supposed to go because that person probably is not God's best for

1002
01:04:15.880 --> 01:04:17.840
you and you have to let it go.

1003
01:04:18.440 --> 01:04:18.840
Okay.

1004
01:04:18.840 --> 01:04:20.260
I'm not going to force you.

1005
01:04:20.260 --> 01:04:21.480
God's not going to force you.

1006
01:04:21.600 --> 01:04:25.280
He's not because he's a gentleman, but he is going to nudge you and he's going to lovingly

1007
01:04:25.280 --> 01:04:28.000
say, Hey, this isn't your family.

1008
01:04:28.340 --> 01:04:30.920
He's going to say, Hey, I have better for you.

1009
01:04:31.200 --> 01:04:33.480
And he's going to invite you to leave that thing.

1010
01:04:33.760 --> 01:04:38.520
And when you do, or before you do, I even encourage you to let it go before you might

1011
01:04:38.520 --> 01:04:39.740
even physically let it go.

1012
01:04:40.020 --> 01:04:42.340
But this is the activation to operate.

1013
01:04:42.340 --> 01:04:44.260
You can, you can take one of these two ideas.

1014
01:04:44.260 --> 01:04:46.600
If God shows you to do something else, go for it.

1015
01:04:46.620 --> 01:04:46.960
Okay.

1016
01:04:46.960 --> 01:04:48.420
Go for it and tell us about it.

1017
01:04:48.460 --> 01:04:53.640
But the first one is this, write a list of the things you're going to let go of, pray

1018
01:04:54.240 --> 01:04:55.300
and let them go.

1019
01:04:55.400 --> 01:04:57.620
And then set it on fire in a safe place.

1020
01:04:57.620 --> 01:04:59.980
You all be wise about where you're lighting it on fire.

1021
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:01.700
but I want you to do evidence.

1022
01:05:01.880 --> 01:05:02.760
I wanna see it.

1023
01:05:02.760 --> 01:05:03.960
Did you burn a piece of paper?

1024
01:05:04.080 --> 01:05:06.100
I want you to take a video, a photo, whatever,

1025
01:05:06.280 --> 01:05:09.320
and post it in the group and tell us what this did in you.

1026
01:05:09.540 --> 01:05:10.280
Here's number two.

1027
01:05:10.740 --> 01:05:12.820
It's called the balloon release activation.

1028
01:05:13.040 --> 01:05:14.720
I want you to pray about.

1029
01:05:15.540 --> 01:05:16.700
You don't have to do both of these.

1030
01:05:16.880 --> 01:05:19.060
I'm giving you options you can run with.

1031
01:05:20.600 --> 01:05:22.280
What color balloon should you get?

1032
01:05:22.420 --> 01:05:23.540
What should it look like?

1033
01:05:23.640 --> 01:05:24.500
What does it represent?

1034
01:05:25.400 --> 01:05:27.280
Okay, some of you all are gonna feel led

1035
01:05:27.280 --> 01:05:28.160
to get a couple balloons

1036
01:05:28.160 --> 01:05:30.100
because there's a couple things you're letting go of.

1037
01:05:30.160 --> 01:05:32.620
I want you to follow the Holy Spirit in this.

1038
01:05:33.020 --> 01:05:35.080
I'm gonna show you two pictures really, really quickly

1039
01:05:37.220 --> 01:05:38.820
of people that have done this.

1040
01:05:39.520 --> 01:05:40.340
This is Yamina.

1041
01:05:40.760 --> 01:05:42.300
Yamina is one of our peer coaches.

1042
01:05:42.880 --> 01:05:45.340
She followed this activation and did it.

1043
01:05:45.380 --> 01:05:47.280
She was letting go of some really big things,

1044
01:05:47.380 --> 01:05:48.780
you all, that we were working on,

1045
01:05:49.640 --> 01:05:53.220
and she chose four blue star balloons.

1046
01:05:53.300 --> 01:05:54.660
That's what she felt led to pick.

1047
01:05:54.660 --> 01:05:58.120
Each one of those balloons represents something to her.

1048
01:05:58.960 --> 01:06:01.900
And she said, when she talked to me about it,

1049
01:06:01.900 --> 01:06:03.800
she said she cried and held those balloons

1050
01:06:03.800 --> 01:06:05.680
for probably about 30 minutes

1051
01:06:06.440 --> 01:06:09.040
before she was actually able to let them go.

1052
01:06:09.460 --> 01:06:10.580
And so I want you all to know,

1053
01:06:10.660 --> 01:06:12.300
it's not always easy to let go,

1054
01:06:13.460 --> 01:06:16.560
but as soon as she did, she felt a release in the Spirit.

1055
01:06:16.800 --> 01:06:18.780
Not everybody's gonna always feel something

1056
01:06:18.780 --> 01:06:20.280
right away either, and that's okay.

1057
01:06:20.700 --> 01:06:22.280
Number two, I'm gonna show you this one.

1058
01:06:22.280 --> 01:06:24.940
You can't see the person, but it's just showing you

1059
01:06:24.940 --> 01:06:26.560
people that are doing this in our community.

1060
01:06:27.300 --> 01:06:27.960
Here's another one.

1061
01:06:28.100 --> 01:06:29.100
Can you see this pink balloon?

1062
01:06:29.880 --> 01:06:30.400
Y'all see that?

1063
01:06:30.900 --> 01:06:30.900


1064
01:06:31.160 --> 01:06:33.760
She just recently, she's in a different phase

1065
01:06:33.760 --> 01:06:35.480
in our community, had been dating someone

1066
01:06:35.480 --> 01:06:37.920
for a little bit of time, really liked the guy,

1067
01:06:38.260 --> 01:06:39.580
thought it was gonna be the Spiritmate,

1068
01:06:40.000 --> 01:06:41.800
and then he broke up.

1069
01:06:42.680 --> 01:06:46.060
And so she did that balloon release to let him go

1070
01:06:46.060 --> 01:06:47.480
so that she could actually move forward

1071
01:06:47.480 --> 01:06:48.540
to start dating again.

1072
01:06:48.820 --> 01:06:51.140
And so I want you to know these activations can be done

1073
01:06:51.140 --> 01:06:51.980
for all different reasons,

1074
01:06:52.120 --> 01:06:53.660
but for you right now in the Heart Week,

1075
01:06:54.480 --> 01:06:56.620
heart work, excuse me, what does it mean for you?

1076
01:06:56.800 --> 01:06:58.160
I want you to pray about that.

1077
01:06:58.420 --> 01:07:00.740
And then y'all, I want evidence.

1078
01:07:00.860 --> 01:07:02.060
We wanna see it.

1079
01:07:02.240 --> 01:07:03.980
We wanna see you just like those photos

1080
01:07:03.980 --> 01:07:06.220
with your balloon, a picture of the balloon.

1081
01:07:06.520 --> 01:07:08.820
Tell us what you're letting go of, what you did let go of.

1082
01:07:08.880 --> 01:07:10.480
Hopefully you've already done it at that point.

1083
01:07:11.180 --> 01:07:13.420
This should be fun, hopefully, for you all.

1084
01:07:13.460 --> 01:07:17.020
And it should bring some level of release for you.

1085
01:07:17.160 --> 01:07:20.580
Again, you may not all feel it right then, and that's okay,

1086
01:07:20.580 --> 01:07:24.000
but just even knowing that you've let things go,

1087
01:07:24.440 --> 01:07:26.300
hopefully you're gonna just feel a little bit lighter.

1088
01:07:26.740 --> 01:07:27.020
All right?

1089
01:07:27.720 --> 01:07:28.320
Okay, so we-

1090
01:07:28.320 --> 01:07:29.280
Excuse me, can I ask you something?

1091
01:07:29.740 --> 01:07:30.160
Sure.

1092
01:07:31.080 --> 01:07:34.520
Yes, so the balloon is to symbolize

1093
01:07:34.600 --> 01:07:36.640
something that we wanna let go,

1094
01:07:37.220 --> 01:07:39.840
or something that we want to get in our life,

1095
01:07:40.080 --> 01:07:40.940
invite on our lives.

1096
01:07:40.940 --> 01:07:43.720
Well, you're letting a balloon go and you're releasing it.

1097
01:07:43.780 --> 01:07:44.940
You're letting it go.

1098
01:07:44.940 --> 01:07:46.500
So that's not representing something

1099
01:07:46.500 --> 01:07:48.300
that you're wanting to receive in your life.

1100
01:07:48.300 --> 01:07:50.120
This is something you're letting go of,

1101
01:07:50.140 --> 01:07:52.600
and you're saying, okay, I'm not taking this

1102
01:07:53.060 --> 01:07:54.760
into 2026 with me.

1103
01:07:55.280 --> 01:07:56.680
Y'all aren't in 2026 yet,

1104
01:07:56.740 --> 01:07:59.080
but I want you to get a headstart on this.

1105
01:07:59.480 --> 01:08:00.800
Okay, okay, got it, thank you.

1106
01:08:00.880 --> 01:08:01.600
Yeah, great question.

1107
01:08:01.780 --> 01:08:03.580
And one of the other things I do say

1108
01:08:03.580 --> 01:08:04.640
about the balloons, you all,

1109
01:08:04.860 --> 01:08:07.100
I don't encourage you all to put your list

1110
01:08:07.100 --> 01:08:10.520
of things that you're letting go of with your balloon, okay?

1111
01:08:10.560 --> 01:08:12.520
I've had people in the past tie those,

1112
01:08:12.560 --> 01:08:15.480
and I always think, what if that balloon pops

1113
01:08:15.480 --> 01:08:17.100
and that lands in the neighbor's yard?

1114
01:08:17.100 --> 01:08:17.880
There might be things

1115
01:08:17.880 --> 01:08:19.420
you don't want the neighbor to know, okay?

1116
01:08:19.740 --> 01:08:21.620
So just go ahead and rip that,

1117
01:08:21.620 --> 01:08:24.080
go ahead and rip that list up or burn that too.

1118
01:08:24.140 --> 01:08:25.939
But again, the balloon releases kind of,

1119
01:08:26.080 --> 01:08:28.899
these are just two different ways of letting go.

1120
01:08:29.020 --> 01:08:31.220
If you think of something, I had a lady at one point,

1121
01:08:31.720 --> 01:08:34.359
she felt led to go to a lake and throw some rocks

1122
01:08:34.359 --> 01:08:36.560
that represented everything she was letting go of.

1123
01:08:37.140 --> 01:08:40.279
Follow the Holy Spirit and trust where he's leading you,

1124
01:08:40.520 --> 01:08:40.880
okay?

1125
01:08:41.380 --> 01:08:42.460
All right, awesome.

1126
01:08:42.819 --> 01:08:43.660
Great question, Mel.

1127
01:08:44.000 --> 01:08:45.260
All right, Leslie, go ahead.

1128
01:08:48.140 --> 01:08:49.399
And just if you're new

1129
01:08:49.399 --> 01:08:50.680
and you don't know what we're doing right now,

1130
01:08:50.700 --> 01:08:52.580
I probably should tell you, we're doing group coaching.

1131
01:08:53.060 --> 01:08:55.319
You can come live and tell the whole group

1132
01:08:55.319 --> 01:08:56.779
what you shared in the private breakout.

1133
01:08:57.040 --> 01:08:59.580
You can ask questions regarding what's coming up

1134
01:08:59.580 --> 01:09:01.540
in your spirit during tonight's session,

1135
01:09:01.760 --> 01:09:03.520
and then we can kind of go from there.

1136
01:09:03.700 --> 01:09:04.760
All right, Leslie, go ahead.

1137
01:09:05.600 --> 01:09:11.819
Okay, so the fear I shared was that normally,

1138
01:09:11.979 --> 01:09:14.220
this is obviously for the next phase,

1139
01:09:14.279 --> 01:09:16.279
but I know that's kind of what we're working on.

1140
01:09:18.580 --> 01:09:20.479
That if, you know,

1141
01:09:20.520 --> 01:09:22.899
because so much stuff seems to be online

1142
01:09:25.020 --> 01:09:28.819
and guys tend to be attracted not to me

1143
01:09:28.880 --> 01:09:30.620
like because of what I look like,

1144
01:09:30.680 --> 01:09:32.040
but because of my personality.

1145
01:09:32.319 --> 01:09:37.340
So there's that fear that I won't be able to attract guys

1146
01:09:37.340 --> 01:09:40.380
because, you know, they'll be too busy swiping,

1147
01:09:41.100 --> 01:09:43.220
you know, a lot of them don't even,

1148
01:09:43.760 --> 01:09:46.660
I mean, I guess some read the profiles,

1149
01:09:46.660 --> 01:09:48.300
but I hear a lot of them don't.

1150
01:09:51.359 --> 01:09:54.060
So what do I do with that?

1151
01:09:55.720 --> 01:09:58.040
Like, how do I counteract that?

1152
01:10:02.120 --> 01:10:05.780
Uh-oh, I'm not hearing you.

1153
01:10:07.840 --> 01:10:11.820
I paused myself because it sounds really loud for my husband's computer over here.

1154
01:10:14.040 --> 01:10:14.900
What was I saying?

1155
01:10:14.960 --> 01:10:16.160
It was really good too.

1156
01:10:17.440 --> 01:10:23.900
I think what I was saying is that it's a really great question and this to me is the appropriate

1157
01:10:23.900 --> 01:10:27.300
place to ask something like this because this deals with identity to me.

1158
01:10:28.020 --> 01:10:28.660
Okay.

1159
01:10:29.820 --> 01:10:36.360
And it deals with identity because you believe the lie that you can't attract guys by your looks.

1160
01:10:37.440 --> 01:10:38.080
Yeah.

1161
01:10:38.280 --> 01:10:41.920
Okay, so this goes to the core of what you think about yourself.

1162
01:10:42.660 --> 01:10:43.260
Okay.

1163
01:10:43.560 --> 01:10:50.280
Number two is, here's my question for all of you that struggle with something similar to this.

1164
01:10:50.740 --> 01:10:54.920
Do you believe that God can highlight you to your spirit mate?

1165
01:10:56.780 --> 01:10:59.380
Okay, yeah, that sounds good.

1166
01:10:59.400 --> 01:11:00.200
Is that a yes?

1167
01:11:00.360 --> 01:11:01.360
Do you believe that?

1168
01:11:02.640 --> 01:11:05.800
Oh, well, I guess that's the direction I'm moving in.

1169
01:11:06.440 --> 01:11:08.220
Okay, but that's not the answer.

1170
01:11:09.440 --> 01:11:18.040
I'm literally saying to you, do you, Leslie, believe that God can highlight you to your

1171
01:11:18.040 --> 01:11:18.680
spirit mate?

1172
01:11:22.420 --> 01:11:24.000
Do you know what I mean by that?

1173
01:11:24.000 --> 01:11:29.840
I think so, yeah, that he would draw you, he would draw him to you.

1174
01:11:30.800 --> 01:11:35.060
Yes, and do you believe that if God wants to, I'm not saying you're going to meet your

1175
01:11:35.060 --> 01:11:38.680
spirit mate online, maybe you'll meet him in person, but what I am saying is, do you

1176
01:11:38.680 --> 01:11:45.900
believe that God in his creative ability can choose to bring a guy online at the same time

1177
01:11:45.900 --> 01:11:48.720
as you and highlight you to him if he is your spirit mate?

1178
01:11:50.300 --> 01:11:50.820
Yeah.

1179
01:11:50.820 --> 01:11:57.220
Okay, so the fear that you believe is rooted in your own thoughts about yourself that aren't

1180
01:11:57.220 --> 01:11:57.540
good.

1181
01:11:57.800 --> 01:12:00.100
Okay, so that's kind of number one.

1182
01:12:00.660 --> 01:12:06.580
Number two is, it's a shift that you have to make from fear to faith.

1183
01:12:06.920 --> 01:12:09.240
And it's all rooted in love.

1184
01:12:10.200 --> 01:12:16.480
It's all rooted in understanding God's ability and letting God out of the box that we put

1185
01:12:16.480 --> 01:12:17.580
him in so often.

1186
01:12:17.580 --> 01:12:21.320
And that's not just towards Leslie, that's towards all of us.

1187
01:12:22.260 --> 01:12:26.460
There's times where we don't even mean to, but we just limit God in what he can do.

1188
01:12:27.240 --> 01:12:28.460
And I get what you're saying.

1189
01:12:28.980 --> 01:12:29.720
You're not afraid.

1190
01:12:29.900 --> 01:12:34.220
You're like, I think people are just going to pass me by because this isn't how I've

1191
01:12:34.220 --> 01:12:35.280
attracted people in the past.

1192
01:12:35.620 --> 01:12:37.780
But you know what, Leslie, aren't you different now?

1193
01:12:40.040 --> 01:12:44.020
Well, if you're different now, aren't you showing up everywhere that you go different

1194
01:12:44.020 --> 01:12:44.360
now?

1195
01:12:45.320 --> 01:12:45.820
Mm-hmm.

1196
01:12:46.880 --> 01:12:51.660
So wouldn't your online dating profile potentially also end up being different now?

1197
01:12:52.820 --> 01:12:53.380
Yeah.

1198
01:12:54.080 --> 01:13:00.460
So is there potential that your online dating profile could now absolutely attract all kinds

1199
01:13:00.460 --> 01:13:01.040
of guys?

1200
01:13:02.840 --> 01:13:04.480
I suppose so.

1201
01:13:05.220 --> 01:13:05.920
Isn't this fun?

1202
01:13:05.920 --> 01:13:11.600
Like, I know I'm being real simple right now, but I want you to see, and I'm not trying

1203
01:13:11.600 --> 01:13:14.800
to minimize, this is a real struggle for a lot of people.

1204
01:13:15.460 --> 01:13:15.980
Right.

1205
01:13:15.980 --> 01:13:23.260
But what I'm trying to show you is if we just think the opposite, how quickly things can

1206
01:13:23.260 --> 01:13:24.120
start to change.

1207
01:13:24.180 --> 01:13:27.980
Am I saying everybody's going to meet their person like this quick, quick, quick, quick?

1208
01:13:28.380 --> 01:13:30.300
No, that isn't realistic.

1209
01:13:30.560 --> 01:13:31.700
Some people are.

1210
01:13:31.720 --> 01:13:35.820
I'm just going to tell you guys right now, when you get into the next phases, do not

1211
01:13:35.820 --> 01:13:39.880
freak out when someone has a very accelerated process.

1212
01:13:39.880 --> 01:13:43.380
Now, some people, they're getting connected way too fast, and they're getting married,

1213
01:13:43.480 --> 01:13:44.180
and they're not listening.

1214
01:13:44.640 --> 01:13:47.540
But what I'm saying is there are going to be some people that it's just going to be

1215
01:13:47.540 --> 01:13:48.640
a supernatural thing.

1216
01:13:49.720 --> 01:13:51.280
And everybody's story is supernatural.

1217
01:13:51.480 --> 01:13:53.220
So don't hear what I'm not saying.

1218
01:13:53.980 --> 01:13:57.920
But what I am saying is some people go into the other phases, and when that happens, they're

1219
01:13:57.920 --> 01:13:59.180
like, well, it's not happening for me.

1220
01:13:59.180 --> 01:14:02.060
And they start thinking something's wrong with them.

1221
01:14:02.360 --> 01:14:03.400
And that's not true.

1222
01:14:05.160 --> 01:14:06.840
Everybody's process is different.

1223
01:14:07.860 --> 01:14:08.240
Okay.

1224
01:14:08.240 --> 01:14:15.280
So Leslie, you need to keep praying for God to help you really get to know yourself and

1225
01:14:15.280 --> 01:14:17.280
love who you are and how you show up.

1226
01:14:17.660 --> 01:14:23.040
Maybe for you, one of the first things I would do is, hey, have our team look at your profile

1227
01:14:23.220 --> 01:14:24.440
and help you.

1228
01:14:25.200 --> 01:14:26.860
You might need to get some new photos.

1229
01:14:27.000 --> 01:14:32.300
We tell people all the time, hey, if you guys show us your profiles, we'll tell you, yeah,

1230
01:14:32.300 --> 01:14:33.700
this is not a good photo.

1231
01:14:34.160 --> 01:14:35.900
It does not look good of you.

1232
01:14:35.900 --> 01:14:39.780
And we'll lovingly tell, we're not going to be mean, but we're going to tell you like,

1233
01:14:40.040 --> 01:14:44.200
hey, you know, man, that green color you wore, that looks amazing on you.

1234
01:14:44.200 --> 01:14:47.460
But this brown just does not compliment you.

1235
01:14:47.740 --> 01:14:48.760
Don't wear sunglasses.

1236
01:14:48.800 --> 01:14:52.960
We're going to tell you all those kinds of things because guys want to see your eyes,

1237
01:14:53.060 --> 01:14:53.180
ladies.

1238
01:14:53.240 --> 01:14:57.540
So I'll just tell you now, when you get to that point, don't put a bunch of photos up

1239
01:14:57.540 --> 01:14:58.640
with you and sunglasses.

1240
01:14:59.000 --> 01:14:59.980
I know that we all.

1241
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:04.600
think it looks cool because I used to think it looks cool and it does but they want to see your

1242
01:15:05.400 --> 01:15:10.540
eyes okay they don't you don't want to put up pictures of you with your friends because then

1243
01:15:10.540 --> 01:15:16.040
they're sitting which one is it is it her is it hers and oh well maybe I think this girl's cute

1244
01:15:16.040 --> 01:15:21.260
over here why would you even do that like why would we do that to ourselves just put yourself

1245
01:15:21.260 --> 01:15:26.120
up there do you know why we do that sometimes we think we look really good in a photo and that's

1246
01:15:26.120 --> 01:15:32.280
why we want to use that photo or maybe we're afraid to be seen by ourself

1247
01:15:35.540 --> 01:15:44.400
sometimes it's that can I ask a question sure what how how like obviously I know how it works

1248
01:15:44.400 --> 01:15:50.180
in this phase how does it work in the next phase as far as we get to continue to work with you guys

1249
01:15:50.760 --> 01:15:56.380
now I won't I won't be coaching in that phase phase two I have other coaches that are working

1250
01:15:56.380 --> 01:16:04.420
in there with you all I do some work in our phase three and so we have other coaches in phase two

1251
01:16:04.420 --> 01:16:08.600
but I know I know everything that like I oversee those coaches so I know what's going on in that

1252
01:16:08.600 --> 01:16:15.220
group all the time and what is phase three is that can I ask that I can quickly talk about

1253
01:16:15.220 --> 01:16:20.260
that but then I'm going to go to Angie it's just another phase of our program where we literally

1254
01:16:20.320 --> 01:16:26.580
we have all kinds of things from nights that we do single spotlight where people get to know other

1255
01:16:26.580 --> 01:16:31.400
singles in the community to love stories where we have people that are success stories from our

1256
01:16:31.400 --> 01:16:36.940
community come on and tell their story about how they're how they met what did God do in their

1257
01:16:36.940 --> 01:16:43.880
life what has God been doing since he brought them together we do love seats where Jackie does live

1258
01:16:44.340 --> 01:16:51.020
on your relationships we do several other things lots of lots of things phase three is not scary

1259
01:16:51.280 --> 01:16:56.120
y'all it's awesome it's fun you don't need to worry too much about that right now because

1260
01:16:56.620 --> 01:17:01.160
tonight and now y'all need to focus on heart work but yeah it's totally okay that you ask that

1261
01:17:01.160 --> 01:17:04.640
question we want you to know a little bit about it and we don't want you to be afraid of it because

1262
01:17:04.640 --> 01:17:10.160
it's going to be amazing I love uh doing things in that group I do advanced heart work from time

1263
01:17:10.160 --> 01:17:17.120
to time in there as well so like basically this heart work tonight um kind of on steroids so a

1264
01:17:17.120 --> 01:17:21.760
little bit more and it's real time like whatever people are dealing with I'm not on that given

1265
01:17:21.760 --> 01:17:26.780
night and so all kinds of great things happening over there in phase three we do a lot of community

1266
01:17:26.780 --> 01:17:32.580
building and all of that as well so a lot to look forward to ladies um but great question Leslie

1267
01:17:32.640 --> 01:17:37.600
and I hope all of you understand like you know everything that we do all the coaches we really

1268
01:17:37.600 --> 01:17:44.260
are always praying for you looking out for your best and we'll be um honest with you in as kind

1269
01:17:44.260 --> 01:17:51.160
of ways as we as we can be always for sure yeah thank you you're welcome Angie go ahead

1270
01:17:53.680 --> 01:18:03.960
um I think it's hard to boil it down there's so many things but um I think you know when you said

1271
01:18:04.680 --> 01:18:10.920
um being concerned that the shoe's always going to drop I don't actively look for that but there's

1272
01:18:10.920 --> 01:18:20.680
this sense this fear that things are always going to be hard because there have been tons of

1273
01:18:22.200 --> 01:18:32.300
hard things and I'm facing lots of new hard things um what does that mean

1274
01:18:35.980 --> 01:18:39.020
um so um

1275
01:18:42.540 --> 01:18:43.260
over the past

1276
01:18:46.540 --> 01:18:52.900
well hard things in the sense of um like it's not just the hard things it's also

1277
01:18:52.900 --> 01:18:59.660
like always feeling like okay I've done 10 million inner healing things and deliverance things and

1278
01:19:01.100 --> 01:19:10.420
therapy things and it's almost like am I missing some key that I'm so deficient that um

1279
01:19:10.560 --> 01:19:18.200
somehow I know God doesn't overlook me I can I can I have lots of head knowledge and I know I

1280
01:19:18.200 --> 01:19:26.800
but I it's like that longing for an encounter with the Lord that touches the deeper things that go

1281
01:19:26.800 --> 01:19:38.740
beyond my efforts and um I mean my dad has cancer that's one thing I live almost five hours away

1282
01:19:38.740 --> 01:19:48.240
I commute eight like 80 miles almost every day between to and from work have a lot of health

1283
01:19:49.120 --> 01:19:54.140
um anniversary of my mom's death from a few years ago

1284
01:19:55.660 --> 01:19:59.980
pretty broken family I have my closer friends are where

1285
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:05.560
I used to live which is a couple hours away hasn't like I felt like the Lord's kind of

1286
01:20:05.560 --> 01:20:13.120
consecrated me since I've moved to a different area but it's lonely and so

1287
01:20:15.240 --> 01:20:20.600
right on one level I accept that he's doing something on another level I'm like but it's

1288
01:20:20.600 --> 01:20:27.800
still lonely um and it just felt like all my efforts like he just is like I guess you're

1289
01:20:27.800 --> 01:20:33.760
I'm not having you rely on people as much I know you've tried over and over and over

1290
01:20:33.960 --> 01:20:41.260
I want you to focus on me and um it's like okay Lord when do I get a breakthrough of

1291
01:20:41.260 --> 01:20:48.120
what what does it even mean to have consistent joy it's not for lack of effort it's but it's

1292
01:20:48.120 --> 01:20:54.380
like I really because I a person can go through lots of hard things

1293
01:20:56.180 --> 01:21:04.500
but if I but I just really want to have that sense of the deeper feeling of experiencing God and his

1294
01:21:07.560 --> 01:21:15.280
joy um I know this might be a sensitive topic because your dad is sick but I I need to ask you

1295
01:21:16.080 --> 01:21:23.760
how has your relationship been with your dad like I guess it's the stereotypical what um

1296
01:21:24.380 --> 01:21:30.540
he in the sense of you know what you your father affects your relationship with God well that's

1297
01:21:30.540 --> 01:21:45.260
not exactly why I'm going there I want you to understand that I literally saw a hole in your

1298
01:21:45.260 --> 01:21:53.220
touch from the Lord to radically set you free is actually based in in something that was missing

1299
01:21:53.220 --> 01:22:01.000
from before and it's not that the Lord isn't touching your life I think that the enemy is

1300
01:22:01.000 --> 01:22:09.340
trying to cause you to believe it's not enough so that is why it's not it's not because it was

1301
01:22:09.340 --> 01:22:14.740
a typical question to ask because I feel like sometimes I ask about dads sometimes I ask about

1302
01:22:15.300 --> 01:22:21.220
tonight the whole I really believe it it is connected to your dad so that's why I want to

1303
01:22:21.220 --> 01:22:31.220
know a little bit more dynamic um my dad uh just retired from farming uh he always worked um

1304
01:22:32.140 --> 01:22:39.940
and then was exhausted and he's the kind of guy who believes that his actions of providing

1305
01:22:39.940 --> 01:22:48.060
are what show love and he didn't really say I love you my whole life until I said it when I

1306
01:22:48.060 --> 01:22:53.580
went away to college um because he said well my family never said that I didn't grow up that way

1307
01:22:55.060 --> 01:23:05.840
um he's just there's there aren't a lot of words um and I lived with him for a year a few years

1308
01:23:05.840 --> 01:23:12.340
after my mom died and my health I had a lot of health issues and just a lot of stuff and

1309
01:23:13.380 --> 01:23:18.220
even then like there was a little bit of healing but there's still he just

1310
01:23:19.040 --> 01:23:27.520
it's like I don't think he even knows how to express certain things with words it's just there's

1311
01:23:29.000 --> 01:23:37.380
I okay so my next question is actually about you so when those things that your dad you know

1312
01:23:37.380 --> 01:23:42.280
it sounds like he loved you it sounds like he was providing for you all and taking care of you but

1313
01:23:42.320 --> 01:23:48.880
the need for affection was there that's evident so my question is what were the lies you were

1314
01:23:48.980 --> 01:23:56.720
hearing when you were not getting the affection that you were longing for I think at least from

1315
01:23:56.720 --> 01:24:05.880
my dad's part I just I think I really felt like don't expect anything from a man don't like don't

1316
01:24:05.880 --> 01:24:16.160
have a need don't because it won't you're invisible it won't get met um I mean basic provision will

1317
01:24:16.500 --> 01:24:22.600
but you'll you're just not I'm just not noticed so is that something a thought you had on your

1318
01:24:22.600 --> 01:24:29.300
own or is that a thought that you heard because someone else said it no no I just I think I mean I

1319
01:24:29.300 --> 01:24:39.460
figured that out later like I just never expected anything like from like I learned I'll know I don't

1320
01:24:39.460 --> 01:24:45.700
he never said you're pretty or good job or he didn't want me to get a big head he'd say something

1321
01:24:45.700 --> 01:24:51.800
or but my sister was born 12 years later and she'd pull on him and get things he was in a different

1322
01:24:51.800 --> 01:24:58.000
position um I also have a brother but I would see her get things but she would

1323
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:03.940
She was much more like, come on, dad, let's do this.

1324
01:25:03.980 --> 01:25:05.540
And he'd kind of do that,

1325
01:25:05.560 --> 01:25:09.160
but he never gave compliments or anything to her

1326
01:25:09.160 --> 01:25:10.100
or my brother either.

1327
01:25:10.840 --> 01:25:15.100
So when you come into a group or a room, Angie,

1328
01:25:15.340 --> 01:25:16.940
and there's no shame or condemnation,

1329
01:25:16.980 --> 01:25:19.020
I just want to know the honest, like how you feel.

1330
01:25:20.400 --> 01:25:23.360
Do you tend to stay in the background?

1331
01:25:27.060 --> 01:25:31.600
I tend to try to look for someone who I feel is safe

1332
01:25:32.240 --> 01:25:34.560
to try to connect one-on-one.

1333
01:25:34.740 --> 01:25:36.580
And then if I feel real,

1334
01:25:36.600 --> 01:25:39.000
if I know a group of people really well,

1335
01:25:39.760 --> 01:25:46.000
then I'm much more, but for years I was extremely shy.

1336
01:25:46.540 --> 01:25:48.940
Yeah, and when did the shyness start?

1337
01:25:48.940 --> 01:25:51.300
Cause I actually don't think God created you that way.

1338
01:25:52.100 --> 01:25:53.700
So when did that start for you?

1339
01:25:55.120 --> 01:25:57.760
Well, sort of weird two parts.

1340
01:25:57.980 --> 01:25:59.580
Like my first grade teacher said

1341
01:25:59.580 --> 01:26:01.840
I had low self-esteem to my mom.

1342
01:26:02.060 --> 01:26:05.600
And then like, I can only remember like a few years

1343
01:26:05.600 --> 01:26:07.900
where I was like, I don't know,

1344
01:26:08.120 --> 01:26:11.820
like an quote unquote normal kid, like it was outgoing.

1345
01:26:12.420 --> 01:26:17.680
And then when I was 12,

1346
01:26:17.680 --> 01:26:23.300
just like, I felt like complete depression and anxiety

1347
01:26:23.940 --> 01:26:28.160
and like hijacked personality, just completely hijacked.

1348
01:26:28.260 --> 01:26:31.240
But I was always a quiet kid.

1349
01:26:31.380 --> 01:26:34.600
I can't remember if I asked you this before about your mom,

1350
01:26:34.760 --> 01:26:36.100
was your mom the same way?

1351
01:26:36.980 --> 01:26:40.120
She was hot and cold, vacillated, you know,

1352
01:26:40.440 --> 01:26:42.860
one minute could be nurturing another minute,

1353
01:26:43.940 --> 01:26:47.200
like, you know, could be really hard on me

1354
01:26:47.200 --> 01:26:48.620
or get over it or.

1355
01:26:49.140 --> 01:26:51.420
But I'm saying like, was she someone

1356
01:26:51.420 --> 01:26:52.680
that had low self-esteem?

1357
01:26:53.060 --> 01:26:54.940
Was she someone that didn't seem?

1358
01:26:55.780 --> 01:26:55.780


1359
01:26:55.960 --> 01:26:58.380
Okay, so was she miss outgoing?

1360
01:26:58.880 --> 01:26:59.080
Tell me.

1361
01:27:02.680 --> 01:27:04.640
Okay, how about your grandparents?

1362
01:27:04.760 --> 01:27:09.200
I'm just feeling like there's a familial connection here.

1363
01:27:09.320 --> 01:27:11.760
I just think that what you're up against the reason,

1364
01:27:12.080 --> 01:27:13.560
cause you said something interesting to me.

1365
01:27:13.560 --> 01:27:18.320
You said, I've done like 10 deliverance, inner healing,

1366
01:27:18.460 --> 01:27:19.580
I've done all these things.

1367
01:27:19.660 --> 01:27:22.080
And I just, you know, I'm still trying to figure out

1368
01:27:22.480 --> 01:27:24.260
why am I deficient?

1369
01:27:24.660 --> 01:27:25.400
What am I missing?

1370
01:27:27.140 --> 01:27:30.820
And so I'm just, I just, as I'm hearing,

1371
01:27:30.900 --> 01:27:32.200
I'm asking you these questions

1372
01:27:32.200 --> 01:27:35.060
because I'm really trying to seek the Lord about what,

1373
01:27:35.420 --> 01:27:36.940
where is this coming from for you?

1374
01:27:37.900 --> 01:27:39.920
Because the shyness, I don't,

1375
01:27:40.080 --> 01:27:42.140
I genuinely don't think God created you that way.

1376
01:27:42.140 --> 01:27:44.700
I think this happened because of some kind of trauma.

1377
01:27:45.380 --> 01:27:48.340
And then you're telling me that the teacher was pointing out

1378
01:27:48.340 --> 01:27:49.400
you had low self-esteem.

1379
01:27:49.400 --> 01:27:52.420
And then you said that you weren't labeled

1380
01:27:52.420 --> 01:27:54.120
as a normal kid, essentially.

1381
01:27:54.800 --> 01:27:58.940
Well, I feel like there was only a small window

1382
01:27:58.940 --> 01:28:02.260
where I felt like a normal kid, like free.

1383
01:28:02.600 --> 01:28:04.600
Like I never, there was only a few years

1384
01:28:04.620 --> 01:28:06.440
I kind of felt free.

1385
01:28:06.460 --> 01:28:09.320
And there was some sexual abuse when I was really little

1386
01:28:09.320 --> 01:28:12.840
that I didn't know until in my third,

1387
01:28:12.840 --> 01:28:14.520
like I knew something was wrong with me,

1388
01:28:14.520 --> 01:28:17.980
but God didn't reveal it until I went through

1389
01:28:19.160 --> 01:28:21.140
major time of inner healing.

1390
01:28:21.400 --> 01:28:27.040
That was, yeah, when I was probably three or four.

1391
01:28:28.340 --> 01:28:28.720
Okay.

1392
01:28:28.720 --> 01:28:31.740
Do you all see how getting to know these things

1393
01:28:31.740 --> 01:28:32.940
is really important?

1394
01:28:33.480 --> 01:28:35.440
This is why I ask these questions.

1395
01:28:35.440 --> 01:28:37.460
Because even though you've done inner healing before,

1396
01:28:37.460 --> 01:28:38.920
I think we've gotten to the whole.

1397
01:28:41.160 --> 01:28:43.240
Remember I talked about the whole before?

1398
01:28:44.340 --> 01:28:46.280
Not only with your dad and the affection

1399
01:28:46.280 --> 01:28:47.680
and love that you needed,

1400
01:28:48.800 --> 01:28:51.720
is physical touch one of your top love languages, Angie?

1401
01:28:57.720 --> 01:29:01.000
I, no, but like I was a-

1402
01:29:01.000 --> 01:29:01.980
Have you ever done the love languages?

1403
01:29:02.300 --> 01:29:03.360
Oh yeah, yeah.

1404
01:29:03.360 --> 01:29:04.500
But I love hugs.

1405
01:29:04.500 --> 01:29:08.300
And I was afraid of them for years

1406
01:29:08.300 --> 01:29:10.540
until I went to college and made good friends

1407
01:29:10.540 --> 01:29:12.620
and then was like, oh, I like this.

1408
01:29:13.080 --> 01:29:16.400
Okay, so when I say is physical touch

1409
01:29:16.400 --> 01:29:17.560
one of your love languages,

1410
01:29:17.560 --> 01:29:20.980
it doesn't mean that because of what happened to you,

1411
01:29:21.000 --> 01:29:24.120
you're always gonna feel comfortable with receiving that.

1412
01:29:25.160 --> 01:29:27.560
But you might have a, like,

1413
01:29:27.560 --> 01:29:31.220
are you someone that it can show up a lot of different ways?

1414
01:29:31.220 --> 01:29:34.700
Like where, without realizing it,

1415
01:29:34.800 --> 01:29:37.040
you might put your hand on someone when you're talking.

1416
01:29:37.680 --> 01:29:37.860
Yeah.

1417
01:29:37.980 --> 01:29:41.400
Or, you know, like it does make you feel very loved

1418
01:29:41.400 --> 01:29:44.240
to hold someone's hand that you know loves you.

1419
01:29:44.540 --> 01:29:45.100
Yeah.

1420
01:29:45.100 --> 01:29:46.920
You know, it's not always sexual.

1421
01:29:47.220 --> 01:29:48.800
Okay, I wanna make sure that's very clear.

1422
01:29:48.820 --> 01:29:51.600
And that wasn't really part of my childhood.

1423
01:29:52.780 --> 01:29:55.700
Like my parents didn't really do that.

1424
01:29:56.360 --> 01:29:57.660
So they didn't hold hands?

1425
01:29:58.640 --> 01:29:59.980
No, not really.

1426
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:07.880
And they didn't, I mean, I mean, I got maybe a good night hug, but it wasn't a lot of physical

1427
01:30:07.880 --> 01:30:09.200
affection at all.

1428
01:30:09.360 --> 01:30:09.800
Okay.

1429
01:30:10.160 --> 01:30:14.180
And so I think part of the struggle here, and you're, you're going to be able to work

1430
01:30:14.180 --> 01:30:14.500
through this.

1431
01:30:14.560 --> 01:30:16.140
I don't want you to feel like it's too big.

1432
01:30:16.220 --> 01:30:21.380
It's not, I actually think the enemy has tried to make it seem bigger than it is, as far

1433
01:30:21.380 --> 01:30:24.500
as that, you're not going to be able to get over it because you like, again, the enemy's

1434
01:30:24.500 --> 01:30:27.340
kind of emphasizing some things to you that you've been partnering with.

1435
01:30:27.340 --> 01:30:31.120
I've done all these deliverance things, and I'm still deficient.

1436
01:30:31.420 --> 01:30:33.000
I'm still not figuring it out.

1437
01:30:33.340 --> 01:30:37.720
I want you to know that every step that you've taken has brought you here.

1438
01:30:38.380 --> 01:30:42.340
And every step you've got a little bit more free, a hundred percent believe that with

1439
01:30:42.340 --> 01:30:43.000
all my heart.

1440
01:30:43.100 --> 01:30:46.560
I don't even have to know you really, really well to know that.

1441
01:30:46.720 --> 01:30:52.640
I just know from my own life, every step of healing I took absolutely was effective.

1442
01:30:53.460 --> 01:30:58.500
And it wasn't that, Oh my gosh, I'm just still like the enemy always wants to make, wanted

1443
01:30:58.500 --> 01:31:03.080
to make me believe I wasn't enough all the time, but it wasn't that that's not truth.

1444
01:31:03.080 --> 01:31:05.980
And so I want to encourage you to come out of agreement with that lie.

1445
01:31:06.360 --> 01:31:07.640
You're not deficient.

1446
01:31:08.060 --> 01:31:08.440
Okay.

1447
01:31:08.600 --> 01:31:13.940
It's just that each time, instead of, okay, this is how I want you to kind of flip the

1448
01:31:13.940 --> 01:31:14.640
switch here.

1449
01:31:15.400 --> 01:31:20.700
Instead of believing the lie that you're missing something and you're deficient, I want you

1450
01:31:20.700 --> 01:31:23.100
to think of it as building blocks.

1451
01:31:25.640 --> 01:31:30.620
And every healing step that you've gone through was another building block to your freedom.

1452
01:31:31.500 --> 01:31:36.140
Not because you're lacking something, but because you're stepping forward, you're stepping

1453
01:31:36.420 --> 01:31:40.920
higher, you're receiving another revelation and it's getting you more and more breakthrough

1454
01:31:40.920 --> 01:31:41.560
and healing.

1455
01:31:42.060 --> 01:31:46.400
God declares that he wants us to be completely whole, lacking no good thing.

1456
01:31:46.400 --> 01:31:50.800
Do y'all know that it takes time sometimes to become completely whole?

1457
01:31:52.560 --> 01:31:55.040
Yes, God could automatically deliver us.

1458
01:31:55.380 --> 01:31:57.160
He could, but you know what?

1459
01:31:57.900 --> 01:32:02.140
Sometimes when he does that, we look back and we think we did it.

1460
01:32:03.560 --> 01:32:04.480
It's true.

1461
01:32:05.140 --> 01:32:12.400
But when he delivers us over time and we go through the process, not only are we getting

1462
01:32:12.400 --> 01:32:16.340
a massive breakthrough that we're getting revelation about, but then a lot of times

1463
01:32:16.340 --> 01:32:20.480
what happens is we tend to reach back and help somebody else too.

1464
01:32:22.180 --> 01:32:26.460
Yes, that can happen too if we get automatic deliverance and sometimes we get that in some

1465
01:32:26.460 --> 01:32:26.460


1466
01:32:26.960 --> 01:32:35.080
But I really think that the area where I know that you're saying for a long period of time,

1467
01:32:35.120 --> 01:32:37.660
there was only a little bit of time that you felt like a normal kid.

1468
01:32:37.660 --> 01:32:42.600
I want to encourage you to also come out of agreement with you're not a normal kid because

1469
01:32:42.600 --> 01:32:47.340
even though you're an adult now, I think those tapes are still playing underneath the surface

1470
01:32:47.340 --> 01:32:50.600
that you're not normal, that you have something wrong with you.

1471
01:32:51.840 --> 01:32:56.300
I forget you said something else along the way, but where you're not partnering with

1472
01:32:56.300 --> 01:33:00.360
these statements about your identity anymore, does that make sense?

1473
01:33:00.480 --> 01:33:04.180
And I know that again, I feel like there's a couple of simple things that God is having

1474
01:33:04.180 --> 01:33:11.160
me say to you all tonight, but they're going to help you really get a lot of like momentum

1475
01:33:11.300 --> 01:33:13.620
because you're going to stop partnering with the lie.

1476
01:33:15.140 --> 01:33:20.820
And that's literally the, it is the most pivotal thing we could ever do is start to say, okay,

1477
01:33:21.460 --> 01:33:24.460
that's a lie and I'm not going to partner with that anymore.

1478
01:33:24.700 --> 01:33:27.000
And I'm going to turn and go the other direction.

1479
01:33:27.000 --> 01:33:31.340
And I'm going to believe that everything that I've been doing that God has been leading

1480
01:33:31.340 --> 01:33:35.800
me to do is helping me and has been blessing my life.

1481
01:33:35.860 --> 01:33:40.780
And he's giving me the revelation I need to get to freedom, to get into the promised land,

1482
01:33:40.780 --> 01:33:45.020
to be fully blessed, to live the abundant life, the good, good life.

1483
01:33:45.020 --> 01:33:49.100
And I understand what you're saying can feel really tough sometimes when you've gone through

1484
01:33:49.100 --> 01:33:55.140
a lot of things like that, to understand the, the deep abiding joy and peace.

1485
01:33:55.820 --> 01:33:59.120
But if you were on the prophetic ministry night last night, one of the things I said

1486
01:33:59.120 --> 01:34:08.100
is that God can teach us that the more that we know him, y'all getting to know God's character

1487
01:34:08.100 --> 01:34:15.100
more and more and more is going to help you understand the things that come from him.

1488
01:34:15.500 --> 01:34:18.680
Joy, the deep abiding joy and peace.

1489
01:34:19.520 --> 01:34:20.840
That is who he is.

1490
01:34:23.640 --> 01:34:28.020
I think sometimes we think it's going to be this big earth shattering thing.

1491
01:34:29.540 --> 01:34:34.100
And sometimes it is, sometimes it feels like this big burst and we, we have this emotional

1492
01:34:34.260 --> 01:34:40.680
response and it's amazing, but you know what the biggest victories I've had have been in

1493
01:34:40.680 --> 01:34:46.380
the kind of the still small moments with God where I get another revelation of how good

1494
01:34:46.380 --> 01:34:51.300
and faithful he is and how loving and kind he is.

1495
01:34:51.820 --> 01:34:53.180
Just like that dream experience.

1496
01:34:53.340 --> 01:34:54.420
That's why I shared that tonight.

1497
01:34:54.600 --> 01:34:59.740
Like he just was like, Hey, I don't, I don't talk to you that way.

1498
01:35:00.720 --> 01:35:05.360
You know, where we start to make these shifts in realizing, okay, what we've experienced

1499
01:35:05.360 --> 01:35:07.980
in the world is not who he is.

1500
01:35:10.120 --> 01:35:14.040
So have you ever forgiven your dad for not hugging you?

1501
01:35:15.840 --> 01:35:18.220
I don't know about that specifically.

1502
01:35:19.320 --> 01:35:23.060
I guess I never even thought to forgive him for that.

1503
01:35:23.240 --> 01:35:24.120
I would.

1504
01:35:24.620 --> 01:35:25.420
I would.

1505
01:35:25.700 --> 01:35:26.940
It hurt you that he didn't.

1506
01:35:26.940 --> 01:35:31.660
Even though you know that he was providing for you and he was loving you in the way that

1507
01:35:31.660 --> 01:35:36.620
he knew how to convey love, it still wasn't enough for you.

1508
01:35:37.400 --> 01:35:38.660
You needed to be hugged.

1509
01:35:38.940 --> 01:35:41.680
You said, he never told me I was beautiful.

1510
01:35:42.140 --> 01:35:44.780
He never said I did a good job.

1511
01:35:45.140 --> 01:35:50.360
So I wouldn't be surprised if one of your love languages is words of affirmation.

1512
01:35:50.980 --> 01:35:52.400
Yeah, that's the biggest.

1513
01:35:53.240 --> 01:35:53.420
Okay.

1514
01:35:53.860 --> 01:35:56.940
So yeah, ladies, we should forgive our parents.

1515
01:35:57.160 --> 01:35:58.980
It doesn't mean they were bad people.

1516
01:35:59.720 --> 01:36:06.020
It just means maybe they didn't have the tools they needed to show you love in the way you

1517
01:36:06.020 --> 01:36:06.740
needed it, Angie.

1518
01:36:08.320 --> 01:36:10.820
You know, and I'm not excusing it.

1519
01:36:10.820 --> 01:36:14.360
I'm just saying like, yeah, we need to forgive them for that stuff.

1520
01:36:14.360 --> 01:36:16.640
Because even if they didn't mean to hurt us, it hurt us.

1521
01:36:18.440 --> 01:36:24.720
And then maybe you'll be able to close that hole a little bit more, you know, I mean,

1522
01:36:24.720 --> 01:36:25.780
it's God doing it.

1523
01:36:25.780 --> 01:36:32.260
But as we forgive them, you know, like Jesus, even on the cross, you know, he said, forgive

1524
01:36:32.260 --> 01:36:34.720
them for they don't know what they're doing.

1525
01:36:35.860 --> 01:36:40.040
And it doesn't have to on in that case, it was something, you know, kind of bad, but

1526
01:36:40.140 --> 01:36:45.320
like, it doesn't always have to be these blatant bad sins that people commit against us.

1527
01:36:45.320 --> 01:36:50.900
Sometimes it's the overt things that they don't even know that they're doing that hurt

1528
01:36:50.900 --> 01:36:51.400
us.

1529
01:36:52.140 --> 01:36:56.500
Okay, so let's process those things, ladies, I want you to be thinking about that stuff

1530
01:36:56.500 --> 01:36:57.060
as well.

1531
01:36:57.800 --> 01:37:02.900
Forgive, let it go, release and relinquish this stuff to the Lord.

1532
01:37:03.720 --> 01:37:04.720
Angie, really, really great.

1533
01:37:04.920 --> 01:37:08.820
Thank you for letting me ask you those questions and letting us kind of hear a little bit more

1534
01:37:08.820 --> 01:37:09.640
about your story.

1535
01:37:09.980 --> 01:37:14.900
I'm going to be praying for God to continue to connect the dots in the building blocks

1536
01:37:14.900 --> 01:37:20.040
for you to help you see that you're, you're stepping up, you're not going down and missing

1537
01:37:20.040 --> 01:37:24.020
something and being deficient, you're, you're building upward.

1538
01:37:24.880 --> 01:37:24.900
Okay.

1539
01:37:25.100 --> 01:37:25.640
Thank you.

1540
01:37:26.160 --> 01:37:26.680
You're welcome.

1541
01:37:27.440 --> 01:37:30.220
Ladies, though, our perspective is key, always.

1542
01:37:31.220 --> 01:37:32.560
Okay, super important.

1543
01:37:32.900 --> 01:37:35.800
Thank you, Angie, so much, Megan, go ahead.

1544
01:37:38.960 --> 01:37:44.880
Hi, um, so for me, I've had a little bit of fear that actually happened, maybe about 20

1545
01:37:44.880 --> 01:37:51.200
minutes before we met tonight, so I actually started to get a bit of pain in my back.

1546
01:37:51.240 --> 01:37:56.080
And it's kind of the area of where my pancreas is, and I've had pancreatitis before.

1547
01:37:57.520 --> 01:38:01.380
And because of it, like last year, I had to get my gallbladder removed.

1548
01:38:02.460 --> 01:38:08.420
And I'm also dealing with like, four partial tears in my shoulder right now.

1549
01:38:08.440 --> 01:38:10.420
So it's just a lot of like health stuff.

1550
01:38:11.260 --> 01:38:18.820
And so I'm just like that when like pain came in, there's just the fear of like, like going

1551
01:38:18.820 --> 01:38:20.420
through all these things with my body.

1552
01:38:20.600 --> 01:38:24.440
But then also it's like, I don't want the financial burden.

1553
01:38:25.080 --> 01:38:29.040
But I also kind of when I was just like sitting here and just listening to the other ladies

1554
01:38:29.760 --> 01:38:35.300
talk, um, I was just kind of asking God, I'm like, what, you know, does the pancreas really

1555
01:38:35.340 --> 01:38:37.280
process and a lot of it's obviously sugar.

1556
01:38:38.000 --> 01:38:44.460
And I was like, maybe in some ways, the enemy's trying to attack my body in a representation

1557
01:38:44.620 --> 01:38:52.020
of like, that he doesn't want me to receive the sweet things that God has for me in some

1558
01:38:52.100 --> 01:38:53.220
ways, too.

1559
01:38:53.560 --> 01:39:00.400
So but yeah, just kind of relinquishing that fear of like, that my body's always going

1560
01:39:00.400 --> 01:39:07.260
to be in pain, or I always have to be on edge of not trying to cause this flare up again.

1561
01:39:07.280 --> 01:39:08.660
If that makes sense.

1562
01:39:09.100 --> 01:39:09.440
So it does.

1563
01:39:10.180 --> 01:39:17.280
So are you believing or hearing any lies connected to a spirit mate not picking you because of

1564
01:39:17.800 --> 01:39:19.600
sickness to anything like that happening?

1565
01:39:21.680 --> 01:39:24.880
No, I wouldn't say more like sickness, it would be maybe more with like,

1566
01:39:26.600 --> 01:39:29.740
a debt rather than sickness.

1567
01:39:30.720 --> 01:39:31.180
Okay.

1568
01:39:31.400 --> 01:39:35.500
And so ladies, this is really important.

1569
01:39:35.500 --> 01:39:35.900
Okay.

1570
01:39:37.680 --> 01:39:41.980
I want you to really think about how some of these things are interconnected.

1571
01:39:42.220 --> 01:39:47.560
So the reason I felt led to ask her that is because sometimes we have fears because of

1572
01:39:47.560 --> 01:39:48.780
what we're going through.

1573
01:39:48.820 --> 01:39:54.600
But sometimes we also have fears that the things that we face will hinder us from receiving

1574
01:39:54.640 --> 01:39:55.960
a blessing that we want.

1575
01:39:56.440 --> 01:39:56.920
Okay.

1576
01:39:57.480 --> 01:39:59.980
And so I asked her about her body, but she said no.

1577
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:04.160
It's really more a fear that they won't choose her because of debt.

1578
01:40:05.460 --> 01:40:06.780
Do you see how the enemy is working?

1579
01:40:06.920 --> 01:40:08.220
It's two different angles there.

1580
01:40:08.360 --> 01:40:10.220
Those were two things that she mentioned.

1581
01:40:10.700 --> 01:40:15.480
The physical seemed like it was on the primary, but really the

1582
01:40:15.480 --> 01:40:18.380
debt is in the primary seat right now.

1583
01:40:18.380 --> 01:40:19.920
Do you see how that's working?

1584
01:40:20.380 --> 01:40:24.160
And so, um, the way that we would, again, we're, we're, we're

1585
01:40:24.160 --> 01:40:25.340
flipping a lot of scripts tonight.

1586
01:40:25.360 --> 01:40:25.880
Okay.

1587
01:40:25.880 --> 01:40:32.160
So Megan, I want you to think, what is the opposite of my

1588
01:40:32.160 --> 01:40:33.960
body's always going to be in pain?

1589
01:40:39.380 --> 01:40:48.560
Um, be healthy and, um, just freedom, I guess, to be able to do things

1590
01:40:48.560 --> 01:40:51.320
in life and, and have abundance in life.

1591
01:40:51.480 --> 01:40:52.120
Yeah.

1592
01:40:52.120 --> 01:40:55.440
So I want you to look up some scriptures, um, in the next

1593
01:40:55.440 --> 01:40:57.100
couple of days on vitality.

1594
01:40:58.700 --> 01:41:02.560
That word in particular vitality and long life.

1595
01:41:02.720 --> 01:41:06.380
There are several scriptures that talk about God blessing us with vitality,

1596
01:41:06.400 --> 01:41:10.240
long life, um, you know, that we would see the goodness of

1597
01:41:10.240 --> 01:41:11.580
God in the land of the living.

1598
01:41:11.740 --> 01:41:15.580
And I want you to like, to start believing and partnering with that

1599
01:41:15.580 --> 01:41:18.560
regarding your physical, uh, struggles that you've been having.

1600
01:41:18.560 --> 01:41:24.720
Um, of course, I always believe in anointing, being anointed and prayed

1601
01:41:24.720 --> 01:41:27.380
over for any kind of physical sickness.

1602
01:41:27.660 --> 01:41:32.000
So you may want to consider doing that with your church, if they believe in that.

1603
01:41:32.400 --> 01:41:33.440
Um, okay.

1604
01:41:33.460 --> 01:41:37.200
And then also, um, this is coming to mind.

1605
01:41:37.200 --> 01:41:40.920
I don't say this all the time to people, but you may want to consider taking

1606
01:41:40.920 --> 01:41:43.040
communion on a more regular basis.

1607
01:41:43.400 --> 01:41:44.920
Not only at church.

1608
01:41:45.160 --> 01:41:48.500
I don't know if you're a believer in, um, there was an old book,

1609
01:41:48.500 --> 01:41:52.060
many, many, many years ago, you all way back when I was a new believer,

1610
01:41:52.060 --> 01:41:53.780
it was called the meal that heals.

1611
01:41:53.940 --> 01:41:58.020
It's not out anymore, but, uh, it is the meal that heals.

1612
01:41:58.020 --> 01:42:00.040
Communion is the meal that heals.

1613
01:42:00.160 --> 01:42:04.480
And I believe that not only will this do something in your spirit

1614
01:42:04.480 --> 01:42:07.200
regarding your physical healing, but I believe it's going to do something

1615
01:42:07.200 --> 01:42:12.340
in you emotionally as you partner with, you know, Jesus's sacrifice for you.

1616
01:42:12.400 --> 01:42:16.820
And not from the point of, um, yes, we want to remember and have

1617
01:42:16.820 --> 01:42:22.060
that kind of reverent, you know, posture, but I want you to, when you

1618
01:42:22.060 --> 01:42:25.320
guys were coming back from your rooms, one of the things that I was saying

1619
01:42:25.320 --> 01:42:28.920
is we fight from victory, not for it.

1620
01:42:29.660 --> 01:42:30.160
Okay.

1621
01:42:30.160 --> 01:42:33.500
So I want you to know that Jesus has already won the victory for you.

1622
01:42:34.780 --> 01:42:38.820
And as you take communion that you're partnering with his victory already

1623
01:42:38.860 --> 01:42:43.440
declared for you and created for you, and that Jesus can help you step

1624
01:42:43.440 --> 01:42:47.560
into being completely debt free.

1625
01:42:49.000 --> 01:42:50.300
It might take time.

1626
01:42:50.680 --> 01:42:51.760
It takes time sometimes.

1627
01:42:52.340 --> 01:42:55.940
And did you hear on the supernatural Saturday that Jackie actually said for

1628
01:42:55.940 --> 01:43:00.480
some of you, maybe it will be your first time ever being completely debt free.

1629
01:43:01.060 --> 01:43:03.240
That comes to mind, Megan, for you.

1630
01:43:03.740 --> 01:43:04.260
Okay.

1631
01:43:04.260 --> 01:43:08.360
And, and that might, might be, maybe you're just making a big dent in that debt.

1632
01:43:08.380 --> 01:43:11.880
I don't know what that's going to look like for you, but I also want you to be

1633
01:43:12.060 --> 01:43:19.260
thinking of what's the opposite of, I'm afraid my spirit mate won't

1634
01:43:19.260 --> 01:43:20.940
choose me because of my debt.

1635
01:43:21.100 --> 01:43:22.500
What's the opposite of that?

1636
01:43:31.340 --> 01:43:35.140
That they'll choose me for who I am.

1637
01:43:38.220 --> 01:43:43.980
And I don't know that they would want to partner with God to be able to be a

1638
01:43:43.980 --> 01:43:43.980


1639
01:43:44.900 --> 01:43:45.420
Yeah.

1640
01:43:45.820 --> 01:43:50.060
I think that there's a lot of things that you can go and sit and think about

1641
01:43:50.060 --> 01:43:52.480
what's the opposite of this negative thing that I'm believing.

1642
01:43:52.680 --> 01:43:54.740
Remember fear is false evidence appearing real.

1643
01:43:55.380 --> 01:44:01.280
Your spirit mate, um, maybe really good at being strategic and crushing debt.

1644
01:44:01.280 --> 01:44:04.460
You know, like that may not even phase them at all.

1645
01:44:04.460 --> 01:44:11.140
I remember, um, you know, when I first met Brian, y'all, I had a lot

1646
01:44:11.140 --> 01:44:12.580
of school debt until I met Brian.

1647
01:44:13.140 --> 01:44:18.100
He's a, he's got a doctorate in his MDiv and he's been in, was in school for years.

1648
01:44:18.560 --> 01:44:23.360
And, uh, I remember the first time we talked about the debt conversation and

1649
01:44:23.360 --> 01:44:27.840
how, you know, the enemy really wanted to bring fear into that conversation.

1650
01:44:28.760 --> 01:44:33.860
And I remember not long after that, like I just chose to partner with like, God, I

1651
01:44:33.860 --> 01:44:35.300
just believe you're going to help us pay this off.

1652
01:44:35.480 --> 01:44:39.220
Like I just started partnering with that because I just didn't think that God was

1653
01:44:39.220 --> 01:44:43.680
going to bring us together for us to be bound under this, you know, uh, debt.

1654
01:44:44.900 --> 01:44:48.520
And so one day Brian was like, yeah, we're just going to have to pay on

1655
01:44:48.520 --> 01:44:49.740
it for the rest of our lives.

1656
01:44:49.740 --> 01:44:52.500
I said, don't you dare say that ever again.

1657
01:44:53.120 --> 01:44:56.900
And I was saying it lovingly, but just, I want to, I want to plant a

1658
01:44:56.900 --> 01:44:58.300
seed of faith in all of you.

1659
01:44:58.520 --> 01:44:58.960
Okay.

1660
01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:04.240
I do believe that God can help us be good stewards of the finances that he gives us.

1661
01:45:04.460 --> 01:45:06.680
I do believe that God can teach us how to invest.

1662
01:45:07.000 --> 01:45:13.540
I do believe that God can get us resources, give us promotions, you know, bring increase.

1663
01:45:13.780 --> 01:45:19.800
And not only have I been believing that for years, but God has been radically doing that

1664
01:45:19.800 --> 01:45:21.140
in this last year.

1665
01:45:21.420 --> 01:45:24.160
And so I believe it now more than I ever did.

1666
01:45:24.380 --> 01:45:28.300
And so I just want you to start to partner with God.

1667
01:45:28.300 --> 01:45:30.700
God, thank you that you're going to help me get out of debt.

1668
01:45:31.980 --> 01:45:34.640
And I'm going to attract a really amazing spirit mate.

1669
01:45:37.080 --> 01:45:38.560
And he's going to choose me.

1670
01:45:38.700 --> 01:45:39.360
He's going to love me.

1671
01:45:39.640 --> 01:45:44.840
You know, Proverbs 18.22 says a man who has found a wife has found a good thing.

1672
01:45:45.380 --> 01:45:47.620
He's going to see the value in you.

1673
01:45:47.920 --> 01:45:49.760
I saw the value in Brian.

1674
01:45:50.960 --> 01:45:55.260
The value in him was greater than that piece of paper that said he owed money.

1675
01:45:57.200 --> 01:46:03.540
It's funny you mentioned that because what my name means, it means Pearl.

1676
01:46:03.940 --> 01:46:06.160
And like, obviously that's something of great value.

1677
01:46:06.200 --> 01:46:06.860
It is.

1678
01:46:07.220 --> 01:46:09.220
It is something of great value.

1679
01:46:09.400 --> 01:46:11.820
And so, again, what are we partnering with?

1680
01:46:11.880 --> 01:46:17.700
Are we partnering with that we're valuable or are we just looking at some of you?

1681
01:46:17.760 --> 01:46:18.840
It's your kids.

1682
01:46:19.080 --> 01:46:19.920
I know.

1683
01:46:20.080 --> 01:46:23.760
Dare I say it out loud, but some of you are afraid that someone's not going to pick you

1684
01:46:24.340 --> 01:46:25.520
because you have kids.

1685
01:46:26.900 --> 01:46:32.300
Annette's was, if I'm a grandma, people aren't going to like, that's how it makes me sound

1686
01:46:32.300 --> 01:46:32.680
old.

1687
01:46:33.000 --> 01:46:36.240
You know, like see how the enemy gets in there and he works in these ways.

1688
01:46:36.240 --> 01:46:37.480
He's trying to get in there.

1689
01:46:37.600 --> 01:46:39.480
We just got to keep saying no.

1690
01:46:39.840 --> 01:46:45.420
It goes back to when I said, um, what's the scripture, sorry, I got to turn to it.

1691
01:46:45.680 --> 01:46:49.720
Proverbs 4.23, you know, keep your heart with all vigilance.

1692
01:46:50.040 --> 01:46:51.480
We got to protect it.

1693
01:46:51.800 --> 01:46:53.080
So praise the Lord.

1694
01:46:53.080 --> 01:46:57.100
He can heal, you know, pay attention to that, that thing on your body.

1695
01:46:57.220 --> 01:47:00.260
Of course, if you need to go to the doctor, go to the doctor.

1696
01:47:00.300 --> 01:47:00.760
Okay.

1697
01:47:01.060 --> 01:47:05.360
But you all let's sometimes it's, it is the enemy trying to make us think something's

1698
01:47:05.400 --> 01:47:08.920
coming back and partner with fear.

1699
01:47:08.960 --> 01:47:12.980
So I want to encourage you just to be really wise this week, pay attention to your body.

1700
01:47:13.740 --> 01:47:17.560
Um, but let's come out of agreement alignment with things that are not true and partner

1701
01:47:17.560 --> 01:47:19.520
with things that are true.

1702
01:47:19.520 --> 01:47:23.980
Things that are forward thinking of what God is going to provide in the days to come.

1703
01:47:25.180 --> 01:47:25.820
Really really good.

1704
01:47:26.720 --> 01:47:28.980
Oh, I love thinking about the opposite of the negative.

1705
01:47:29.180 --> 01:47:30.340
It's like one of my favorite things.

1706
01:47:30.660 --> 01:47:35.140
And obviously that's kind of the theme tonight because I didn't do that all day this afternoon.

1707
01:47:35.920 --> 01:47:38.000
Megan, thank you for sharing that with us.

1708
01:47:38.120 --> 01:47:38.440
Thank you.

1709
01:47:38.820 --> 01:47:39.400
You're welcome.

1710
01:47:39.780 --> 01:47:41.580
For those of you, you know, we're past nine 30.

1711
01:47:41.660 --> 01:47:43.260
If you need to jump off, it is okay.

1712
01:47:43.300 --> 01:47:47.920
I always love to say that just because I don't want anyone to feel kind of like, should I

1713
01:47:47.920 --> 01:47:48.120
stay?

1714
01:47:48.120 --> 01:47:48.660
Should I stay?

1715
01:47:48.660 --> 01:47:48.660


1716
01:47:48.920 --> 01:47:50.280
Will they think something bad?

1717
01:47:50.920 --> 01:47:54.740
Um, but I am going to have Chrissy share and Mel, I won't be able to take anyone else after

1718
01:47:54.740 --> 01:47:55.440
the two of them.

1719
01:47:55.820 --> 01:47:56.260
Okay.

1720
01:47:57.140 --> 01:47:58.340
Chrissy, go ahead.

1721
01:48:03.000 --> 01:48:03.440
Okay.

1722
01:48:04.100 --> 01:48:07.740
So there was, there was a few things that I shared.

1723
01:48:08.420 --> 01:48:14.260
I know it was on earlier today, just listening because I was at work, but as, um, Angie was

1724
01:48:14.260 --> 01:48:20.120
speaking and, um, and then Megan, I was just writing a lot of other things down.

1725
01:48:21.440 --> 01:48:27.840
Um, I think actually what stuck out to me, it was when you were talking to Angie, um,

1726
01:48:27.840 --> 01:48:29.320
I mentioned the physical touch.

1727
01:48:31.220 --> 01:48:40.460
Um, I do that all the time and my niece who is now 10, um, she had a conversation with

1728
01:48:40.460 --> 01:48:48.040
my mom and her mom, my sister about, um, how much teeth TT loves to touch her.

1729
01:48:48.040 --> 01:48:49.420
And she likes the personal space.

1730
01:48:49.520 --> 01:48:52.880
She doesn't want, but she doesn't tell me because she doesn't want to hurt my feelings.

1731
01:48:53.000 --> 01:48:59.800
So that was a conversation she and I had to have, but, um, but my mom told her that because

1732
01:49:01.000 --> 01:49:04.140
she said, Oh, TT, you know, she's alone all the time.

1733
01:49:04.340 --> 01:49:06.540
So she just likes to love people that way.

1734
01:49:07.160 --> 01:49:09.400
And I was like, that's sad.

1735
01:49:10.640 --> 01:49:20.120
But, um, but now that you were talking about that, um, I wondered if that was more, and

1736
01:49:20.120 --> 01:49:28.860
then the more that you kept talking about it, I kept thinking, and I don't know, I don't

1737
01:49:28.860 --> 01:49:35.360
think any human being would have said this to me, but when my father passed away and

1738
01:49:35.360 --> 01:49:44.120
I didn't realize until later, um, I held a lie that because I didn't give him a hug

1739
01:49:44.160 --> 01:49:48.160
the night before I killed him.

1740
01:49:50.120 --> 01:49:51.860
And how old were you?

1741
01:49:52.160 --> 01:49:54.240
I was two weeks before my ninth birthday.

1742
01:49:54.580 --> 01:49:55.060
Okay.

1743
01:49:58.740 --> 01:49:59.380
Um,

1744
01:50:00.000 --> 01:50:04.880
And as I grew up, obviously, you know, I understood that that wasn't the case.

1745
01:50:05.140 --> 01:50:07.980
You had sleep apnea, we didn't know that.

1746
01:50:11.180 --> 01:50:15.340
But that lie was already there.

1747
01:50:20.640 --> 01:50:26.540
And then I don't know who said it, and I don't know if it was earlier or not, somebody said

1748
01:50:26.540 --> 01:50:30.760
being a digger, like digging into things, because I feel something and I'm like,

1749
01:50:30.760 --> 01:50:32.540
oh, I gotta go dig for it.

1750
01:50:33.220 --> 01:50:38.880
And when Megan was mentioning the pain in her body, I always do that.

1751
01:50:38.940 --> 01:50:46.340
But I always, I do it as like, if something is happening physically, I immediately go

1752
01:50:46.340 --> 01:50:50.200
into the spiritual and I start praying and thinking like, okay, what is the Lord saying,

1753
01:50:50.420 --> 01:50:51.080
what is the Lord doing?

1754
01:50:51.080 --> 01:50:57.500
So like when you mentioned your dream, about the lungs and cancer, I knew like, I could

1755
01:50:57.500 --> 01:51:00.500
immediately see that that's the enemy was coming towards your voice.

1756
01:51:02.520 --> 01:51:04.840
But I never think of me first.

1757
01:51:11.320 --> 01:51:12.440
And yeah.

1758
01:51:13.040 --> 01:51:18.460
So do you feel like, okay, let me ask you a couple questions, just so I can learn a little

1759
01:51:18.460 --> 01:51:21.120
more about some of the dynamics you've been through.

1760
01:51:21.240 --> 01:51:24.900
Number one, I want to talk about the touching thing, the hug thing.

1761
01:51:26.200 --> 01:51:28.640
I don't think you're just doing that because you're alone a lot.

1762
01:51:29.480 --> 01:51:35.240
I think that, yeah, it could be, it could be, you know, exasperated a little bit, because

1763
01:51:35.240 --> 01:51:37.480
you are alone, and you are probably needing connection.

1764
01:51:37.580 --> 01:51:42.600
Because if you're a physical touch person, man, you're a lot, you need that you need

1765
01:51:42.600 --> 01:51:46.020
that physical connection, you know, you long for that.

1766
01:51:46.020 --> 01:51:52.100
And so I think just learning more about what are your love languages might inform you a

1767
01:51:52.100 --> 01:51:53.640
lot more on that, Chrissy, okay.

1768
01:51:55.020 --> 01:52:02.180
It's very interesting to me, that at nine, you would think that because you didn't hug

1769
01:52:02.180 --> 01:52:03.460
your dad that you killed him.

1770
01:52:04.160 --> 01:52:09.240
That to me sounds like, like the enemy just directly assaulted you, you know.

1771
01:52:10.660 --> 01:52:14.780
But it's interesting that it's coming up tonight because of the hug thing, you know.

1772
01:52:15.680 --> 01:52:22.860
And so I think just really coming out of agreement that that, you know, obviously, I think

1773
01:52:22.860 --> 01:52:25.440
you've probably done healing work, but it's coming back up.

1774
01:52:25.540 --> 01:52:31.740
And so I'm like, okay, so is it just on some level that you partnered with that you had

1775
01:52:31.740 --> 01:52:36.460
some effect on him, that you still are partnering with the hugging thing?

1776
01:52:37.220 --> 01:52:40.300
You know, so just be inquiring of the Lord about that.

1777
01:52:40.300 --> 01:52:46.100
Because I just think, again, like if it hadn't come up at all, I just think, okay, you're

1778
01:52:46.480 --> 01:52:47.520
past that.

1779
01:52:47.980 --> 01:52:49.140
It's not bugging you anymore.

1780
01:52:49.340 --> 01:52:50.880
It's nothing you struggle with anymore.

1781
01:52:51.060 --> 01:52:55.740
But it's come back full circle, because we're talking about physical touch.

1782
01:52:57.040 --> 01:52:57.040


1783
01:52:57.500 --> 01:53:03.420
And so just see, just ask the Lord, just real direct, Lord, why is this coming back up again?

1784
01:53:03.560 --> 01:53:05.620
Is, you know, is there something you're trying to show me?

1785
01:53:05.760 --> 01:53:07.580
And see what he says to you.

1786
01:53:08.400 --> 01:53:12.560
Regarding being a digger, I think that was this afternoon, Chrissy, which is totally

1787
01:53:13.020 --> 01:53:13.480
fine.

1788
01:53:16.820 --> 01:53:23.840
When one of the ladies was sharing, you know, sometimes we can start to feel overwhelmed,

1789
01:53:24.000 --> 01:53:27.560
and we want to know the answers of why all these different things are happening, or what

1790
01:53:27.560 --> 01:53:31.980
God is showing us about a certain person, or, you know, should we stay in that connection

1791
01:53:31.980 --> 01:53:33.560
with that friendship and all these things.

1792
01:53:33.560 --> 01:53:39.160
And so we start to try to dig, to find the answers as quick as we can, where we need

1793
01:53:39.160 --> 01:53:43.560
to just continue to pray and ask God to reveal things for healing, and trust that he's going

1794
01:53:43.560 --> 01:53:46.400
to do that in the best timing for us.

1795
01:53:46.600 --> 01:53:49.580
So I don't know if that's helpful, but I wanted to touch on that real quick.

1796
01:53:51.100 --> 01:53:56.720
But I want to, in that last thing, you said, if something is happening, I tend to think

1797
01:53:56.720 --> 01:53:57.480
of other people first.

1798
01:53:57.480 --> 01:53:58.400
I have a word for them.

1799
01:53:58.460 --> 01:54:00.280
I have, basically, that's kind of what I heard you saying.

1800
01:54:00.280 --> 01:54:09.300
So when is the first time that you can remember when you had a need?

1801
01:54:11.360 --> 01:54:17.360
Like, you knew that you had a need, but instead you felt compelled to go help somebody else

1802
01:54:17.360 --> 01:54:17.760
instead.

1803
01:54:18.760 --> 01:54:20.940
And if you don't know the answer tonight, that's okay.

1804
01:54:21.120 --> 01:54:22.580
It can be something you pray into.

1805
01:54:31.460 --> 01:54:37.340
I don't have a specific answer to that, is that I went to our need.

1806
01:54:37.800 --> 01:54:46.480
But while you were speaking, there was a specific moment in time that came up to memory.

1807
01:54:46.920 --> 01:54:55.880
I was, I don't know how old I was, maybe between 10 and 12.

1808
01:54:57.500 --> 01:54:59.900
And I was feeling really sick.

1809
01:55:00.680 --> 01:55:09.540
And I happened to be sitting at the counter and I just threw up and I very, very rare.

1810
01:55:09.640 --> 01:55:13.520
I could probably count on one hand how many times I've ever thrown up in my life.

1811
01:55:13.560 --> 01:55:14.940
And that was one of them.

1812
01:55:15.620 --> 01:55:21.960
And I called for my mother and she was, I think, must've been doing something.

1813
01:55:22.100 --> 01:55:27.040
I don't know if she was doing something with my brother or something around the house and

1814
01:55:27.040 --> 01:55:29.060
her response to me was like, what, what do you want?

1815
01:55:29.060 --> 01:55:31.240
And I was just, I was being very quiet.

1816
01:55:31.260 --> 01:55:35.860
Like I wasn't trying to bother her, even though I just threw up on myself.

1817
01:55:36.640 --> 01:55:37.980
I didn't want to be a bother.

1818
01:55:39.080 --> 01:55:39.560
All right.

1819
01:55:39.560 --> 01:55:40.980
We just tapped into it.

1820
01:55:41.000 --> 01:55:41.880
Do you know that?

1821
01:55:42.300 --> 01:55:45.240
Can anybody else feel that in the zoom room here?

1822
01:55:46.180 --> 01:55:47.700
Chrissy, this is a root here.

1823
01:55:47.860 --> 01:55:48.320
Okay.

1824
01:55:48.320 --> 01:55:50.480
You just said something super important.

1825
01:55:51.220 --> 01:55:53.800
I wasn't trying to bother her.

1826
01:55:58.840 --> 01:56:01.160
I'm really sorry that that happened.

1827
01:56:02.440 --> 01:56:06.620
And you felt like you couldn't even really say what you needed help for.

1828
01:56:08.900 --> 01:56:13.080
I think that there's probably other instances of that before that happened.

1829
01:56:19.360 --> 01:56:26.160
Um, so as you're praying this week, um, that's, that's where we're, where you're going to

1830
01:56:26.160 --> 01:56:26.400
start.

1831
01:56:26.520 --> 01:56:26.940
Okay.

1832
01:56:27.840 --> 01:56:31.620
You're going to start with the memory member, the pool, the thread, how I talk about that.

1833
01:56:31.680 --> 01:56:34.900
We pulled the thread on the memory that comes up first.

1834
01:56:35.020 --> 01:56:40.480
And so tonight the memory that's come up first is this time when you threw up and you called

1835
01:56:40.480 --> 01:56:41.060
for help.

1836
01:56:41.220 --> 01:56:46.040
And then just, you know, her response caused a response in you.

1837
01:56:47.700 --> 01:56:49.520
I didn't want to bother her.

1838
01:56:50.020 --> 01:56:51.620
And so then you were trying to be quiet.

1839
01:56:53.160 --> 01:56:59.280
Even though you knew you had just thrown up on yourself, you were afraid to bother her.

1840
01:57:00.040 --> 01:57:07.140
So that fear could have been a fear that you believed out of lies or that fear could have

1841
01:57:07.140 --> 01:57:14.340
happened and been built over time because there were things that were said, whether she meant it

1842
01:57:14.340 --> 01:57:19.000
or not, that caused you to believe that you were a bother.

1843
01:57:19.560 --> 01:57:19.960
Okay.

1844
01:57:19.960 --> 01:57:26.200
It could be either or, but we need to ask the Lord to start to reveal more of that thread line.

1845
01:57:27.800 --> 01:57:28.480
Okay.

1846
01:57:29.780 --> 01:57:31.680
Let me ask you a question.

1847
01:57:31.680 --> 01:57:41.280
Um, when you found out that your mom said it's because she's alone all the time, how did that make you feel?

1848
01:57:45.820 --> 01:57:46.380
Sad.

1849
01:57:47.320 --> 01:57:48.600
Did you say sad?

1850
01:57:49.600 --> 01:57:49.820
Sad, yeah.

1851
01:57:49.920 --> 01:57:50.260
Yeah.

1852
01:57:50.260 --> 01:57:54.640
Did it make you feel sad that she said that or thought that?

1853
01:57:54.640 --> 01:57:57.980
Or did it make you like, tell me what made you feel sad?

1854
01:57:59.480 --> 01:58:03.720
It made me feel sad that she thought that, that that was the response.

1855
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Did you tell her that?

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No.

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I think you should.

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I think you should pray about just, it doesn't have to be a big deal, but it might be the start

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of you guys talking about some things that maybe need to be talked about, you know, um, and just

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saying, Hey, like, you know, I felt now remember we want to own our feelings.

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I felt really sad when I heard that.

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That's why you thought I touch her a lot.

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I mean, you can literally just say it like that.

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Sometimes you all, I catch myself.

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I, I don't know where I was recently and oh yeah, I do.

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So I'm helping with this thing.

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01:58:45.960 --> 01:58:51.360
We have all these students coming over into our church from the school and we're teaching

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them Bible stuff and I caught myself.

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01:58:54.720 --> 01:59:02.240
I kept touching this kid on his shoulder and like, you can't, you can't do that, but because

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I'm just so like, you know, I'm around adults all the time.

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And so, you know, there's things that sometimes we have to unlearn something a little bit.

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Um, I don't mean anything by that, but literally I felt like the Lord was helping me see that

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I was doing that.

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Um, and so I do want you to know, like, you're not alone in that.

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Okay.

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And we, you know, we do need to be aware of how it might make other people feel.

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Um, so one of the things I learned early on is you should never assume when you go up,

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like someone comes up for a prayer that it's okay to touch them.

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And so I think about that all the time.

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Like you should ask permission, even with children, we really should ask permission,

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you know, um, even if they are our nieces and nephews and it's not that you can't ever hug

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01:59:49.300 --> 01:59:53.680
people, you know, but I, even with my girls, I'll say, can I give you a hug?

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Because they go through so much pain that sometimes.

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A hug for them might not be what they need right in that moment. They might need time to decompress and

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Be ready and able to receive that and so your niece

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It could be just her age and kind of where she's at, you know, but sometimes it's what the kids are going through and

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They need they need to compress things before they can receive love or they might have walls up

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I mean, there's a lot of different reasons

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But anyway, so I just want you to know you're a blessing and the way that you love people is a blessing Chrissy

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But we have to learn how to keep it in a container sometimes when we don't maybe you know realize

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We got to be careful to contain it a little bit

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But anyway, so I just I wanted to mention that too because there are other people in here

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And that you might need that help as well because you might you might you know

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Get even date someone that's a big physical touch person, you know

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I remember the first time I was sitting with Brian on a couch and he just nothing weird

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But he just like slid his hand right underneath in my leg

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He just like flat like slid it under and I was like, well, this is new. This is interesting

1898
02:01:10.360 --> 02:01:15.760
It's a physical touch like he just wanted like he just wanted to be close to me and you know

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We weren't we weren't married at the time. So we weren't like being super intimate, but that was a way he felt close and

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So yeah different people that have that love language it shows up differently for everyone

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But anyway, so just trying to help you all see

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You know how these things can show up and hopefully that's helpful for you, but pray into that Chrissy

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Start with that first memory and see where God wants to take it from there. Okay

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All right

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and then come in the group as as the Lord shows you even if it doesn't happen right away and

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Share more on that so we can kind of talk through that more. Okay

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Thank you. Awesome. Thank you

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Mel go ahead

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If you're talking you're so muted just want you to know yes, can you hear me now? Yeah, I can

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Okay, hi hi again just a quick question

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Sure, because my sister she's not a part of this community. She's not on the group and

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Actually, she's already married. She's been married for

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three or four years and with my brother-in-law for eight years and

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Recently they they started having all kinds of issues and and fights and talking about divorce

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So before we went through through these last

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Shareings and talking to these people you said that you guys do some type of coach

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Coaching for people that are married and I wanted to know if I can have my sister coming to with her husband

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That you guys didn't know

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coach before is this completely new to do that and what is the best place to

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Have them sign up and kind of go to the coach and my brother-in-law

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He believes in God. However

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he's part of all the side of the family is

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Muslim so it's a little bit of a mix of tradition and cultures and beliefs and why not me and my sister

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We're from Venezuela. We grew up in a Catholic

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Kind of race home and then later on I we both understood

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That it's not about religion. Actually, actually religion is wrong, but we still wanted to have

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that

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Relationship with with Christ, but I don't think that's the way he see it. He sees this and even though we actually

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Not too long not too long ago

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They were talking about

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Getting divorced like I said

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Thankfully and because of God he's he's been faithful to answer our prayers

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the guy it's more calmer and

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Really?

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He's a behavior has changed considerably this last couple weeks because he was about just to leave that my sister and my my

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Nephew out of one silly angry matter, right and my mother

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My sister and I we start praying but of course we want to

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We want to have this whole thing based on somebody that can help

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Being a spiritual leader. I know he wants to go to therapy

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But is that gonna help probably not no because yeah, it doesn't have the leadership

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So here here's the answer to your first question. We actually just launched heart work for couples

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That just went live

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Literally like

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week or so ago and so if you email admin at jackiedorman.com what is it called admin i'll

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put it in the chat for you okay um it'll be easier if you can see it i think so that email

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there that i just put in the chat if you email that and just let them know um you would like

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to get information for the heart work for couples for your sister okay your in-law um

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now i will tell you that our content is based on christian principles okay yes so it may be good to

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let him know that and if he's not willing to take that then there might be other avenues that we can

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direct the two of them to because we have a lot of network we do simbas coaching all most of our

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content now in the future we do plan to kind of branch out to do a content that is geared towards

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even non-believers but at this time everything that we do is connected to god and christian

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principles and is heavy in our content um and that's what we want that's that's what we want

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yes here's the thing though okay he needs to be open to that right because if you all are

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trying to force something he may kind of press against that more and so i would highly recommend

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now you know your sister and brother-in-law can work that out between them but i would highly

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recommend that you all let him know that it is a christian based course because the book reading

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and the videos and everything is going to be talking about god and jesus and all kinds of

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things um and like i said if he's not open to that then you can let us know that as well and we can

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get you connected to other resources that would be really good as well okay okay sounds good thank

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02:06:55.840 --> 02:07:01.000
you so much you're welcome great question thank you so much that's it ladies this has been a great

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night i'm gonna go ahead and pray and close this out father thank you so much for your goodness

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thank you god for your grace we thank you for revealings for healing that are already happening

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god we thank you even things tonight that people had memories pop up that they haven't thought of

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you know maybe in a really long time so lord i just thank you that you would come and just place

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the balm of gilead upon every wound upon every hurting area god that you would um yes lord make

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us completely whole god that you would wash over us with divine healing lord bring revelation bring

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insight thank you holy spirit for being our comforter our counselor our guide our ever-present

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help in time of trouble god i thank you that you're dependable yes lord

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oh god just said to tell you all he's a good hugger while we can't always feel it in the

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physical he hugs us in all kinds of ways in the supernatural and i god i just pray that you would

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help these ladies feel a tangible hug from you in some way shape or form in this next week and i just

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you in advance god for the surprises that you have for us god i ask you to continue to raise

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their hope meters their level of expectation and expectancy god that they would believe god and

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suddenlies are coming the blessings are coming into their lives god that you are going to continue

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to work and guide them into the fullness of your plan and purposes for them each and every day in

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amen god bless you all i hope you have a great night love you all amen bye