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Hello, welcome. I'm so glad to see all of you this evening.

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Would love to have you all come on screen if you're able, if you're not able to because

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you're eating or you're at work or whatever, totally understand. But I always like to remind

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you all that this is a time of us practicing coming out of hiding, being seen, being known,

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being heard, being loved. And the more that we practice that here in the heartwork, the more

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that we're going to be able to do that in real life when we're meeting people as well as online

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dating, potentially all kinds of things, but welcome. We're excited to dive into tonight's

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session with you. My name is Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the heartwork master hardware coaches here.

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I'm a trainer of heartwork coaches and other coaches. So it's kind of fun with the season

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that we're in and the way that we're growing. We actually normally have Annette, who is one

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our peer coaches here with us tonight, but she is in Canada right now visiting her husband.

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For those of you that have joined for a few weeks, you know that they're making some progress on his

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green card. So prayers going up for them in this season and this time. If you think of it, we would

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greatly appreciate that for God's blessing and all green lights regarding the green card moving

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forward. Praise the Lord. If you are brand new, if you've never been here before, you're joining for

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your first live session tonight, we'd love for you to put that in the chat for us so we can welcome

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you. I think maybe some of y'all were already chatting and welcoming people. So I love that.

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So glad to see and hear that. If you are returning, welcome back as always. I'm seeing some familiar

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faces. That's great. We always love to see that people are coming back. Bailey, welcome for your

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first time, Amy G's first time, Anna's first time. That's awesome. I have three so far new ladies

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tonight. A couple things just really quickly off the bat. Did I miss about something about not

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being on screen? No, I was just inviting everyone to come on screen that could. And so a couple

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housekeeping things. We on Saturday did a time of prayer because Jackie was not able to come on

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Saturday, but she did a supernatural Sunday last night. It was recorded. And if I forgot to check

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before I came on, but that should be up in the groups already. If it's not, it will be soon.

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So definitely take a listen to that. She was talking about kind of the high level of it.

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You know how it is. It'll be so good and rich. But the high level is an invitation into gifting

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forgiveness this season. Giving the gift of forgiveness this season. It's going to be

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really fantastic. Encourage you all to go ahead and check that out. When we put up the weekly

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Roll Call post every Sunday, I want to encourage you all to go ahead and read that. That is typically

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a recap of our normal Saturdays. And so I did do a recap of our prayer time. And I hope that that

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blesses you and speaks to your heart. And we would love to have you kind of comment and let us know

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what did that say to you if you were able to be there live or if you did hear that replay.

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I think they might have taken that down today. So if you didn't hear it, it's okay.

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But you can still comment on that post. A couple other things as we are leaning into tonight's

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content. I'm going to go ahead and dive right into the real you and what does that mean and how do

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we show up and step further into who God originally created us to be. But I want to start out first by

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talking about capacity. I want to talk about capacity again. I've kind of been dropping

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little seeds along the way the last few weeks regarding capacity. But this afternoon, or this

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morning, excuse me, was talking to Jackie about a session that I'm going to be doing tomorrow

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night for heart work in one of our other groups. And we were just, you know, kind of circling

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around the concept of how oftentimes there are things in our hearts that block our love story.

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It's not something we're doing intentionally. It's something subconscious in our hearts that

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is blocking our love story. And a lot of time, y'all, unforgiveness is one of those blocks. People

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don't realize how much unforgiveness stops the flow of the spirit in our lives in so many ways,

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as well as the things that God wants to give us. And one of the things that that Jackie said, and

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I loved it so much, but I even kind of felt like God was building on it in my heart and spirit

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after she said it. And she said, you know, we have to have the capacity to receive.

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And that is so true. But one of the things God was saying to me is we have to first

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have the capacity to perceive it, and then the capacity to receive it. So I want you to start

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thinking about what ways do you currently need God to shift your capacity, to increase your capacity

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to perceive that God wants to help you, you know, not only forgive, but step into the

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places and spaces that you need to heal and and get breakthrough and revelation so that you have

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the capacity to receive everything God has for you. So often we believe that God is unwilling.

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When we think of block, we tend to think that God is blocking it, that He's the one that's not

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giving it to us. So often people believe He's dangling a carrot in front of them and He's

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just tricking them. He's not going to actually fulfill His word. And so often it's just that we

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don't know how to partner with Him in the process to receive what He has for us.

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And one of the things I shared with the ladies this afternoon that I do feel led to share again

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tonight is that years ago, I was still married and at the time, and it was not going well,

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you all, it was at the time where I knew if I didn't get help and get out, it was it was going

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to end really, really badly. And I was getting a lot of prayer back in the days for that. And

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this woman, as I was up there for prayer, gives me this prophetic word about how God was going to

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use me for marriage to impact and heal marriages and families. And I remember literally in my

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spirit, kind of like I imagine, I mean, I don't know for sure, but I imagine I felt like Sarah

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when she laughed when she heard that she was going to get pregnant, because to me, it was such

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the opposite of what was going on in my life. And I remember kind of internally laughing, like,

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how can this be? How can this be? So that's word number one. Another word that I received just in

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general about God and what He was planting in me about the impact that He wanted me to have.

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The first time someone prayed over me and they said that God was going to use me to reach

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the nations. Y'all, I remember thinking, what in the world? How is that going to be possible?

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I'm just little old me here in, at the time, Mentor, Ohio, which is a little suburb of Cleveland.

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How am I going to be able to do that? And I'm planting these seeds because here's the thing,

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y'all. Back then, I didn't have the capacity to receive what God was already planning to give me.

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But along the way, over the years, God had to continue to prepare me. He had to continue to

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literally shift my capacity to perceive what He was doing. And then day by day by day,

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every single step that He led me to take, and I'm not saying I always did it perfectly, y'all,

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but I just did my best, just taking in perfect action to partner with God. And here are a couple

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things that happened that I believe are total fulfillment, not the fullness of it, but like

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stepping towards what God wants to use me for. So several years later, I was already divorced

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at this time, very, very single. It was after I broke up with my spiritual daughter's dad. So

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y'all, I had been in another bad relationship for six years, broke up with him. Y'all, I had been

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healing, but still in my mind, I was just like, okay, when this invitation came, I was serving

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in a church that's very well known. And I was asked as a single person to help the married

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conference, a conference for married people. Y'all, this stuff doesn't normally happen. Who

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as a single person typically gets an invite to be on the team to build the marriage conference?

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And so because of that, there was a lot of influence I was able to have. I was able to

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share even the aspect of, hey, like we really need to have some kind of topic that supports

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people that are being abused in relationships. This is real. What do they do? How do they

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to get the help that they need as well? And so I started bringing some aspects to the conversation

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that some of the other leaders hadn't been through that stuff. They hadn't walked in that path in

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their marriages. And so they couldn't even comprehend some of the things that I was talking

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about. And so you all, it was really awesome. We were able to bring other people on the team

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that were couples that could minister directly in that vein. And God used that in a mighty way

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to minister to a lot of married couples in all different places in space. And this was online.

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So they were able to reach a lot of people. And then what happens is a couple years later,

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God brings Jackie Dorman across my path. And I take the boot camp and I get into this community

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and I've been serving and working in all of the things. I've been serving in ministry for a long

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time. God has been preparing me and planning. And now here I am that I get to be a part of

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this incredible movement. And we have, I mean, I believe we've just begun, but we've already

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impacted so many people and you all, we are impacting people around the world and in different

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nations. It's incredible. So I'm saying all this to say to you back way, way, way back when I

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told you that I got that word about God, you know,

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using me in marriage to help heal marriages and families.

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Even before that, when I was married,

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when I thought things were good,

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my husband and I, ex-husband now,

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but back then that was my husband.

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I thought God was calling us to

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like have our own church back then.

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And I remember thinking, I'm so ready for this.

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We've got this and all of the things.

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And what I know now is that if God had given to me

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what I thought I was ready for

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at the time I thought I was ready for it,

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it actually probably would have killed me.

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Literally you all, I was not ready for the weight,

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the mantle of that ministry.

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It was many, many years later that God opened doors

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of opportunity for me to lead people at a high scale,

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a lot of people.

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And so what I'm saying to you,

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I kind of prepared all of that

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is so that you understand that God is preparing you

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for the mantle of marriage, okay?

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And it's not to scare you, marriage is fun.

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I love having my husband

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and going through the things that we're going through.

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But y'all, sometimes it is hard.

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You're growing, you're stretching,

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you're learning about someone else.

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Sometimes it's all not like roses,

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you know, we're leading a church, all kinds of stuff happens.

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But what I do know is that God prepared him

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and was making him healthy.

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And God was preparing me and making me healthier.

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And then God brought us together

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and we could work as a team

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to walk into the fullness of the things

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that God has for us as a couple.

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But praise the Lord, we prepared

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so that we could stand up under the weight

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of the mantle of marriage, okay?

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And so as you're thinking about your life,

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as you're thinking about what God has for you,

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I want you to understand that your process is important.

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Your healing is literally critical to your destiny.

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And it doesn't mean that by the time you finish heartwork

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that you literally like,

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you can't have any ounce of healing still needed.

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No, that's not what I'm saying.

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You're gonna still heal when you get into relationship

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and you date and you get engaged

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and you go, you're planning the wedding.

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Y'all, so many revealings for healing happening

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when you have all the added stress

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of even planning for fun things.

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And even long into marriage,

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but that you would just really be open

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to understanding that God is willing.

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He is willing.

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It's whether or not you perceive that he's willing

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to bless you with a spirit mate

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that is gonna be healthy

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and that you'll wait until you find that person

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that is that healthy spiritual DNA match for you

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where you're literally coming together

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and you're walking in unison together

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and literally can run and be excited.

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And one of the things that even came up

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in the coaching this afternoon

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that I feel is important to mention

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is someone shared that they felt led

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that God was telling them that they should heal first

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because they were hearing and receiving

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that God was gonna bring them into relationship

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with someone that wasn't gonna be healed yet

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and would need them to heal them.

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Okay, you all.

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The reason I wanna talk about this real quick

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is because while I said to her,

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I'm saying you don't hear from God,

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but what's happening here

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is you're hearing through a filter and a lens

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that actually is not healthy.

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Y'all, in our community,

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we encourage you all to date,

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you know, and step into marriage

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with someone who is healthy, okay?

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Someone who is marriage-minded, masculine, they're mature.

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It doesn't mean that you're going to,

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like, they're gonna be perfect,

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but they should be healthy.

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They should have some level of heartwork

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that they have done.

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And so I really want you all to be careful.

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And I can say this because I've been there, okay?

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Back in the day, I'm a big helper, you all.

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So guess what?

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I loved to help the guys that I was dating.

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And I attracted guys that always needed help.

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They just either weren't, you know,

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in my mind, they were, you know,

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they weren't spiritual.

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They were, or even if they said they were,

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they really weren't.

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And so then I had to help them be spiritual.

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I had to help them.

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I had to give them books

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and I had to give them scripture and all the things.

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Can anyone relate here?

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I see some laughs.

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I see some.

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I think this is a really important conversation

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to talk about.

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So often we are focused on helping everybody else,

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myself included, you all.

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If you are a helper who often puts yourself last,

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I'm gonna encourage you not only in the season,

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but in the weeks and months ahead

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that you will literally ask God to help you put yourself out.

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yourself first. And that you'll set healthy boundaries and not

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choose to take on the baggage of someone who is not healthy.

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Okay, so those are some couple little things that I felt really

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like lead and important to plant those seeds because here's the

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other reality. Sometimes the truth is that we have FOMO. We

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have a fear of missing out a fear of missing out on all kinds

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of things. We're afraid we're going to miss our spirit mate.

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We're afraid that if we don't keep dating this person that

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they are presenting some things that aren't healthy, but well,

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they have this and this and I feel really like I feel all this

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electricity with them. Y'all we don't say it exactly like that.

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But that's kind of when we say chemistry. Y'all we know what

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that means. I'm not saying you won't have wonderful, beautiful

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chemistry with your spirit mate. But I told the ladies this

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afternoon when I first met Brian you all on our first date, I was

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like, he's okay. That is literally the thought I had

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when because he pulled up, you know, and, and he like saw me

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sitting there and then he had to pull around to the back. So he

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kind of said something to me. And then he came around. I mean,

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he was dressed. Okay, he was dressed nice, but it wasn't

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super. He wasn't dressed trendy, or anything like that. And you

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all I don't know, like back in the day, I might have just been

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like, yeah, nah, he's really nice, but he's not for me. But

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you know what, I sat there that night and I heard the heart of

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a man that loved the Lord. That was kind to other people. And

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literally paid for me to be generous to someone else that

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night in the coffee house. And I was like, Okay, this is a man I

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want to get to know a little bit more. This is somebody I want

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to, I want to think beyond whether or not his shirt is

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trendy. And you all I'm not, I'm not a super like, judgy person

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on that kind of stuff. But when you're dating, it is, you know,

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you are kind of looking at everything about them and trying

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to, can this fit? You know, I don't know. And but anyways, it

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didn't take long for Brian to literally be set apart by the

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Lord. Every time I went out on a date with anyone else, no one

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else could compare to who he was and who he is. His character is

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amazing. His heart is very kind. And he's very funny. Don't tell

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him I said that. No, I laugh at him all the time. But the longer

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you're married, sometimes those dad jokes, they get a little old

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you all. But um, so I want you to really partner with even

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though you're not dating right now, hopefully you're not

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because you're in the heart work and we ask you to press pause on

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that. And I know that can be tough, especially around

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Christmastime. Y'all are gonna get that urge and that temptation

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potentially to go back on the dating apps because you feel

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lonely. But I want you to feel it. Okay? I want you to feel it

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and let God heal it. Get to the root of where is that loneliness

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really coming from? What's causing that to surface in you

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that's leading you to that place? Another thing is a lot of

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times during like y'all will sign up for the heart work and

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some of you it happens right away right out of the gate. Some

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of you it's a little further along something shiny, the enemy

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will bring something very shiny into your path. And he will try

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to lead you astray to go off and do something else. It even you

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all I was joking, but literally, every day, there is a new course

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that is a sponsored ad in Facebook multiple times, y'all

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things that I even have talked to people about like that I want

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information on. I literally we could turn around every single

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day and purchase a course, right? But God led you here. So

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if you're a learner, if you're someone who loves to learn, and

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you love personal development, I'm going to encourage you stay

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with this course, okay? And then when you finish here, then maybe

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add other things if you feel led to do so. But let God really

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help you focus in and even that you wouldn't read a bunch of

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other books right now, that the heart work in the Bible would be

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obviously the Bible first, but that those would be your primary

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things that you're diving into what is the Lord saying to you

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in this season? I want you to practice this quote with me. I'm

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the perfect age for everything that God has for me right now.

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I'm the perfect age for everything that God has for me

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right now. You are in the perfect place and space for

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everything that God has for you. I want you to understand

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that God can redeem time, that he can restore years that you

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think that you've lost because of something. For me, I felt

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like I lost six years of my life because I was in that

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relationship that long with my spiritual daughter's dad, but

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God has absolutely been redeeming that time. So stay

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Focus on your heart work, stay in the game and let's keep going.

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I have to officially pray.

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I forgot to do that before I started jumping in and then we'll

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keep going through the content.

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Father, thank you so much.

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God already.

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I just sensed your presence here with us tonight.

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I pray that you would help the ladies to receive everything that you have for them.

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Help them to hear exactly what they need to hear to create momentum within them

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to Lord that you would convict them in areas where they need to be convicted,

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but Lord, that you would give them the grace and the enablement that your

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power would help them to step forward into your plan and purpose for their

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lives, God, that you would reveal any counterfeit identities, any filters

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or blind spots that are causing them to hear even your voice incorrectly.

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God to lead them astray.

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Lord help them to Lord.

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Yes.

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That you would take their feet off of any pathways of pain that lead them

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away from you and that you would put their feet back onto pathways that lead

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directly into your heart, directly into your plan.

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God, I thank you that you would help them to see the real them a little bit

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more tonight, and I just thank you in advance for all that you're going to

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accomplish in Jesus name.

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So we're talking about your true identity.

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Some of you have heard this before, but I pray that you would just ask the Lord

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to help you hear something fresh and new tonight.

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If you've been here for this session content before, I want you to

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think about your true identity.

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The true identity again, as a reminder is who did God or excuse me, who

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God originally created you to be before wounds or trauma ever entered your life.

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Before you ever experienced anything bad, your true identity is

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exactly the way God created you.

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And for some of us, we've had stuff in our lives so long that we think

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it is the way God created us.

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I've, I've shared in my testimony before that I even had a mini argument with

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God about, I've always been this way regarding anxiety because I couldn't

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remember a day in my life that I didn't feel anxious, this has been years ago now.

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And I, I literally was like, God, why did you make me this way?

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I was like, wait a minute, but I've been like this forever.

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And he said, Bethany, know that when I created you, that was not in you.

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And it gave me a lot of revelation and understanding that the feelings of

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anxiety that I have are different than who God created me to be.

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But oftentimes I kind of brought those two together and I started basically

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partnering with, in aligning with subconsciously, again, this was not

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intentional, but partnering with, this is just who I am.

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This is just how I've always been.

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I don't know if I'm ever going to break free from this anxiety problem that I

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struggle with, but God had a different plan and he was speaking truth.

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And so in that, I want you all to be asking yourself who told you, and I'm

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going to explain this, but who told you that you were naked?

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So in my case, who told me that I was an anxious person who told me that I

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was always going to have fear or that I would always struggle with lust

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because those are things I thought too.

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Growing up in a family that sexually abused me as a little girl, it came so

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young that I didn't know how to have anything separate from that.

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I'm not saying it's their fault that I chose to have sex outside of marriage,

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you all, but I absolutely know that what I went through definitely led me down

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that path.

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And I didn't have the strength or the understanding, or even the knowledge of

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how to stand up against the stuff that I was encountering in the spirit realm.

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One attack after another, being raped in college, all kinds of things, you all.

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person so many times in all these different forms and ways.

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And again, yours might be different.

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Yours might be financial problems.

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I don't know what your thing is.

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But what I'm trying to say to you is that at some point in your journey, the

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enemy lied to you and he told you that you were something that you are not.

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And I want you to really be thinking about who told you that you were naked.

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When was the first time that the enemy whispered those lies to you and you

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believed them?

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Genesis 3, 8 through 11 says this,

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Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as he was walking in

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the garden in the cool of the day.

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And they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden.

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But the Lord God called to the man.

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Where are you?" Adam answered and said this,

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I heard you in the garden and I was afraid because I was naked

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and so I hid. And he said, God saying to Adam, who told you

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that you were naked? Have you eaten from the tree

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that I commanded you not to eat from? So I'm using that scripture to kind of

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build on the fact that when we go through these things,

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oftentimes not only do we believe the lie, again, sometimes it's a

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conscious thing and we don't mean to even believe the lie, but we do.

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and choices, it leads us into hiding in so many ways.

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Come out of hiding, come out of the shadows and allow yourself to be fully

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known and choose to show up fully in this

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world, fully in your life. The definition of what I'm asking you

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to continue to do in the days ahead is this,

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that you would be authentic, that you would be present,

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that you would be engaged in life. Y'all engaged in life means we're not just

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making it by, that you're feeling and experiencing joy,

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that yes, you might also experience pain, but you're

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fully alive, you're awakening and becoming more and more and more of

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who God created you to be, that you would intentionally choose to

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be fully present even, excuse me, even in this moment.

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You know, I know how the enemy works because I've been through this too.

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Some of you all will be on this session and you'll start getting text messages

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from somebody, some disruption will happen, your kids will start needing you,

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you know, the phone's ringing and somebody's got an emergency and yes,

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you all, of course, if there is a massive

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emergency, totally understand. But some of you, I want you to understand that this

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is the enemy's plot, like it's his trap for you. I cannot tell

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you how many times I would literally be on a live session,

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have no communication with my spiritual daughter's dad,

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and then guess who would text me when I would be on healing

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sessions? Their dad. It was creepy, you all, but this is how

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breaking soul ties works in the spirit. They don't even know why they're texting

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at that time, but there's things going on

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that the enemy is trying to keep you connected to people

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that God is like, no, you need to not connect.

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not responding and giving myself permission to fully

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be there, undistracted by that chaos. Fully showing up in the world also

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means that we recognize our true self, that we actively are

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participating in life with purpose and intention.

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Not holding anything back. So I want you to ask yourself, you know,

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think about the last week or two. Has there been any time or any situation

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where you have held a part of yourself back? Maybe this is,

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you know, you wanted to work on a project at work

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and you wanted to go for it and get out of your comfort zone, but your

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fear took over. Maybe it looked like, hey, you were in a difficult situation or

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conversation. Maybe your friend hurt you, maybe a sister, maybe a mom.

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I felt like sad. It hurt my feelings. You know, where you're speaking and

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using your voice and allowing yourself to be heard

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and allowing yourself to be understood, if that person is healthy, of course,

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that you're talking to. Where have you been

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holding something back? Maybe there's a gift or ability, something that God is

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putting on your heart to go and do, but you haven't been doing it.

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Because something in you says that you're not

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enough or that you'll never measure up or whatever the dialogue

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is for you. I just want you to be thinking about what

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in your life causes you to pull back from relationship,

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to pull back from things in the world and go back further into withdrawal,

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isolation, pity. A lot of self-pity keeps people from

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moving forward. It's real stuff, you all. A lot of times

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we don't think about self-pity as a sin, but when we get into patterns of

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self-pity and self-loathing and all this isolation,

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it can lead to a lot of unhealthy mindsets and heart postures.

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We're all on a journey every single day to grow in our understanding of who we

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are in Christ, as well as who he originally created.

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us to be. Again, be thinking about how you can come out of hiding. I'm going to read a couple

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lyrics from a song called Out of Hiding by Stephanie Gretzinger, and this is what it says.

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This is about like almost like her view of God speaking to her. It says,

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Come out of hiding. You're safe here with me. There's no need to cover what I already see.

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You've got your reasons, but I hold your peace. You've been on lockdown, but I hold the key.

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Because I loved you before you knew it was love. And I saw it all, still I chose the cross.

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And you were the one that I was thinking of when I rose from the grave. Now rid of the shackles,

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my victory is yours. I tore the veil for you to come close. There's no reason for you to stand

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at a distance anymore. You're not far from home. Y'all, some of you are putting up walls

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with the Lord because you're afraid to come close to Him. You're afraid to let Him into me see,

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to let you let Him see all the way into the inner places of your heart and your mind and your body

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and your spirit and your soul. He wants to help you literally come out of that lockdown phase

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that you've been in. What we align with matters. I want you to think about what thoughts you're

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aligning with. And do they sound like heaven? Does it sound like heavenly ways of talking?

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Just like I was saying, that woman was hearing that God was saying, I want you to heal so that

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you can go get matched up with somebody that's not healthy and you can help them. A good father

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would not match their daughter with someone that isn't healthy for them. I want y'all to think

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about that. For some of you, you've seen good dads and you see how lovingly protective they

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are of their daughters. They want their daughters to have the best. And God wants you to have the

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best too. Feel the Holy Spirit on that. I want you to receive that. For some of you, you know,

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it's again, I believe God is trying to help you change your mindsets about who the Father is.

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As in God, the Father towards you, not just towards everybody else, but Deidre towards you,

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Christina towards you, like God has good things for you, not just everybody else.

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And he's saying that it's your time.

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I want you to also understand that our words have power.

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The things that we're thinking and speaking have power. So remember I said right at the beginning,

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which is why I set the tone this evening with that. God wants to increase our capacity to perceive a

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thing. You know, if you think of perceiving something, it's like in your mind's eye,

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can you imagine yourself being given a spirit mate who's healthy? Can you imagine yourself

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healthy enough and happy and living more fully and able to walk into that day just full of

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lightness and joy and happiness? No more baggage holding you back. No more lies telling you that

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you can't receive it or achieve it. I will tell you that getting to the marriage, just the wedding

484
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day is not the goal. A healthy marriage and a healthy relationship is the goal.

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Sometimes we find that people are just trying to hurry to get the spirit mate and hurry to the

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wedding. And I get it. There's a lot of sexual pressure, right? But you all, I'm telling you,

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the people that are struggling the most are the people that do not give themselves time as

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individuals to heal. And then they don't give the relationship enough time to get it

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a healthy foundation of getting to know the person.

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Give yourself a blessing and allow yourself the time that you need.

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God wants you to know tonight also, let's flip this a little bit. He wants you to know that you

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are a super Nova. It's still a part of what we're talking about tonight. It's about that true

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identity. But he literally, when he created you, I love to talk about this because it's so fun. I

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just imagine like God creating each one of us. And you know, he's, he's like, Oh, I'm going to put

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this amazing, joyful smile in Lisa. Everybody has a great smile in here, but I'm just going to go

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with a couple of things coming up in my heart. And he's like, Oh, I'm going to put this little

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bubbly spirit in Denise. And I'm going to throw this gift in her and I'm going to throw this

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gift in her. And he's so excited. You all, when he's created us, I absolutely believe this with

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all my heart that God was excited. And he's like, yes, and I'm going to put this ability in her.

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And when, when she goes through this, this is how she's going to overcome it. And then she's

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going to use her story.

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To impact these people and you all this this amazing blessing of everything

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That he dreamed up on of us and he said yes, and he celebrated the day that you entered the world

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He always wanted you

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God always wanted you

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Whether or not your parents chose you or wanted you y'all I was an unplanned, baby

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My mom was on birth control and got pregnant with me. I

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Was even told by her that they did not want me

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But you know what God?

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Absolutely wanted me. He wanted me here and that's why I'm here. Praise the Lord for that. I'm so grateful

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Even when life is hard

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I am so grateful that God chose to allow me this opportunity to be in this world and

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experience everything that I get to experience to feel the grass and and see a butterfly and to

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Look at the sky and see the amazing sunshine and all of the things that we get the opportunity

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I know those are just a couple small things, but I want I'm saying this stuff as the as I'm hoping it's awakening things in you

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To cause you even if you don't feel that way ladies

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Maybe you don't find the simple joy and seeing a butterfly right now because you feel sad or you feel hopeless

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I don't know where you are tonight. But what I know is that it is possible. I

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Didn't always feel that. I mean, I've always loved butterflies all and I've always loved to sit in the Sun

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Genuinely as a kid. I used to just go sit in the backyard and

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Even back then I didn't even know who I was praying to you all but I deep down

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I believe I knew

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Without knowing if that makes sense

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And so there's always been this awe and wonder in me

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But I would tell you that the more that we heal the more we start to really just wow

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Like I get to be here. I get to be a part of this amazing thing. Look at tonight

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How many of us are here?

528
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58 people are here tonight

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Y'all none of us will ever be at this same moment ever again that is here right now tonight

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Every single person is here for a reason and God is working in your life

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And he's he's preparing you just like Esther and he's saying daughter you need this

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Daughter take the time to slow down. Let me give this to you. Let me prepare you in this way

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Let me come in and place the balm of Gilead upon that wound

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Yes, Lord

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Because he doesn't want you to keep going with that stuff you were never intended to carry that baggage I

536
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Hear the Lord saying that he's so sorry that you went through the things that you went through

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I don't know who I'm speaking to right now, but I this is not in my notes y'all

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But God wants you to know that he his heart was breaking when you were being abused or hurt in

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some way shape or form and

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He has so much better for you Matthew 5 14 through 16 the message translation says this here's another way to put it

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You're here to be light bringing out the God colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept

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We're going public with this as public as a city on a hill if I make you light bearers

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You don't think I'm gonna hide you under a bucket. Do you I'm putting you on a light stand now that I've put you

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There on a hilltop on a light stand shine

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Keep an open house be generous with your lives by opening up to others

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You'll prompt people to open up with God

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this generous Father in

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Heaven Romans 8 37 through 39 says this know when all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us for I

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Am convinced that neither death nor life neither angels nor demons nor the present nor the future nor any powers

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Neither height nor depth nor anything else in all of creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is

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In Christ Jesus our Lord if God is for you

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Chrissy

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Who can be against you?

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What can hinder the fulfillment of God's promises in your life?

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Same thing for Kelly same thing for Bambi same thing for

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Elsie if God is for us

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Who can be against us y'all yes, we're gonna face trials we're gonna face tribulations

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There's gonna be things the enemy's gonna send to try to bring an obstacle

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To hinder that promise from being fulfilled, but guess what?

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We get to stand up against that stuff and say ha Jesus already won the victory

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I get to step into that with him and he's gonna help me every step of the way. I

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Thank you God for sending me a spirit mate

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I thank you that you're

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Highlighting me to him and him to me and you're taking me one step closer every single day to him

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These are the things we partner with ladies as we move forward and we heal you may not

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00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.140
believe that yet and that's okay, you can borrow from my faith tonight.

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I am a success story from this community, I absolutely know this stuff works.

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We have several coaches that have come out of our community that now coach for us that

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are success stories.

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You all, we have tons of success stories.

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So what would cause you to believe that it cannot happen for you?

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Most importantly, again, we need to heal and become a healthy individual, us, so that we

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can come together with another healthy individual to become a team and run the race together

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to the supernatural spiritual DNA that's bringing us together.

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It is your time.

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It's time for you to awaken those princesses within you to understand that you are a co-heir

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with Christ.

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You are royalty in the kingdom of heaven.

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I'm curious tonight how many of you truly partner with that you are a princess.

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That God has abundance and it's not you get to go under the table and sit and beg for

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crumbs and maybe God, maybe he'll just drop a couple crumbs down for you.

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No, no, no.

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God wants you to understand that he is sitting at the banquet table and he's got a seat right

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next to himself.

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And he's like, sweetheart, this is for you.

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This seat is for you, but you know what?

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I know how it goes.

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You all I've come out of this stuff.

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I literally in my subconscious, even when I didn't want to believed that I was that

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person underneath the table that all I was ever going to get was crumbs.

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And in my subconscious, I would convince myself that I had to settle for people that were

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not God's best for me.

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Ephesians 514 says a wake-a-wake-a-sleeper and rise up from the dead and Christ will

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shine on you.

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What are we be being awakened by will true love's kiss the kiss of heaven, like God coming

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down and healing us from the inside out so that we can awaken more and more and more.

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There was this sweet lady.

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Her name's Lisa Grimm.

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She's in heartwork as well.

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She shared this testimony this afternoon.

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And this is what she said you all as she's sharing something that God was doing in her

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last night and speaking to her about her spirit mate.

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She said this, I must be giving off this new aura too, because all of a sudden men are

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coming up and actually talking to me.

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It was so sweet the way she said it, but y'all this is a reality.

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The more that you heal, the more his glory is going to be revealed in you and through

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you and there are going to be people that are going to be like, hey, what's different?

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What's different with you?

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What's going on?

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Like what, you know, they're going to be curious because they're going to see it.

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They're going to hear the transformation in you as you continue to heal and shift.

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I hope because it should, it should change the way that you're showing up in every relationship

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in every place and space in your life.

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It should be an automatic organic shift for you.

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I want to encourage you all to watch a movie.

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It is from Disney.

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I don't know if anybody's against Disney.

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If you are, I apologize, but it's a really cute movie.

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It's called Wreck-It Ralph.

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And I don't want to give away the story.

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I hope that you'll understand it.

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And if you take that invitation and watch that story, it's really, really a lovely,

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a lovely movie about a princess realizing who she is, but it also is a story about the

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things that tried to hinder her from knowing who she really was all along.

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So I want you to watch it.

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And if you do, I would love for you to do a post about it in the group and just let

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me know if you know what I'm talking about.

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Okay.

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The movie is called Wreck-It Ralph.

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And even if you've seen it before, I really encourage you to watch it again because you're

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going to be looking hopefully through a new lens after tonight.

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The lens of like, Hey, what, how does God want to speak to me through this movie?

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I would love for you to pray before you watch it.

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Yes, I absolutely believe God can use a Disney movie to speak to you.

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God speaks to me through movies and TV shows and songs all the time.

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You all, I believe he can speak to you too, but as you're doing this, as you are stepping

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forward, God is awakening us again to our true identity.

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The one that he gave us to restoration and not only to restoration, I really felt led

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to add onto this, the reality of redemption, reconciliation, and also restitution.

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Y'all restitution means everything that was stolen from you being given back to you, but

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not just giving back the same amount a hundred fold.

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And this isn't just a money principle, you all.

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Did someone steal your time because they were unhealthy

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and they were tricking you in some way, shape,

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or form in a relationship?

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Y'all, this is how we really think.

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I understand it because I felt that way.

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Presenting themselves as one person,

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but they actually were someone totally different,

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having a bunch of side relationships.

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Even if that isn't your story,

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the reality is, is we actually believe

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that those people stole that stuff from us.

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The reality is I chose to be with that person,

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unfortunately, I chose to live

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into some counterfeit identities.

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Praise the Lord, I got out of that,

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that Jesus broke me free from that.

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And I learned how to not do that again.

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But God absolutely has been not only restoring those years

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that the locust has eaten and the moth has destroyed,

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but God has given me restitution, you all.

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So many different ways it's showing up in my life,

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and he wants to give that to you too.

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He also wants to awaken you to big, bold future.

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He wants to awaken dreams within you.

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Some of you all had dreams as children

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that God is gonna start stirring up things in you.

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Again, now some of those things,

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I always say this caveat,

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some of those things we can't do, okay?

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Because of our age or the stage of life we're in.

673
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I kind of made a joke this afternoon,

674
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we're probably not gonna go be pro basketball players,

675
00:46:27.940 --> 00:46:29.600
most of us, right?

676
00:46:30.100 --> 00:46:31.080
That's an easy one,

677
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but hopefully you can understand what I'm trying to say.

678
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Some things we might not be able to do,

679
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but there are a lot of things

680
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that you dreamed about as children,

681
00:46:41.120 --> 00:46:43.820
that God is like, yes, I wanna stir that up in you.

682
00:46:43.880 --> 00:46:46.300
I want you to practice that

683
00:46:46.300 --> 00:46:49.280
and allow that little girl dreamer of yourself,

684
00:46:49.460 --> 00:46:51.800
that version of yourself to come out to play

685
00:46:51.800 --> 00:46:53.840
and let's talk about these things.

686
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That's what the Lord is saying to you.

687
00:46:55.900 --> 00:46:58.020
And also some of you are gonna have new dreams,

688
00:46:58.600 --> 00:47:01.180
new desires starting to bubble up inside of you.

689
00:47:01.460 --> 00:47:02.420
Some of you are gonna be like,

690
00:47:02.500 --> 00:47:05.320
man, I think God's leading me to go back to school

691
00:47:05.320 --> 00:47:09.180
or I think God's leading me to take an art class

692
00:47:09.940 --> 00:47:12.500
or a singing class or whatever.

693
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I don't know what your thing is,

694
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but God will start to stir this stuff up in you.

695
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And I really wanna encourage you to not push that down.

696
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I want you to write it down.

697
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I want you to capture it.

698
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And I want you to start to ask Him,

699
00:47:25.440 --> 00:47:27.900
what's one step I can take towards this dream?

700
00:47:28.420 --> 00:47:29.700
Maybe one of them in particular.

701
00:47:31.460 --> 00:47:34.580
We all have to choose what we are going to believe.

702
00:47:35.600 --> 00:47:36.700
What are you gonna believe tonight?

703
00:47:37.600 --> 00:47:39.260
You know, there's that scripture that says,

704
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whose report will you believe?

705
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Are you gonna believe the report of the Lord

706
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or are you gonna believe the report of the enemy

707
00:47:49.260 --> 00:47:51.980
or that naysayer, that person that's always,

708
00:47:51.980 --> 00:47:55.020
the enemy keeps using that person to stand there

709
00:47:55.020 --> 00:47:56.620
when you're trying to cross the river

710
00:47:56.620 --> 00:47:58.920
to get to the other side, to the promised land.

711
00:47:59.020 --> 00:48:00.700
And that person is sitting there,

712
00:48:01.000 --> 00:48:02.780
wah, wah, wah, wah, wah, wah.

713
00:48:03.660 --> 00:48:06.060
Literally, y'all, that's what they really are.

714
00:48:06.060 --> 00:48:07.440
They're just a voice.

715
00:48:07.940 --> 00:48:10.380
They're just a voice that at some point,

716
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God's gonna enable you to be like,

717
00:48:11.940 --> 00:48:12.540
yep, you know what?

718
00:48:12.560 --> 00:48:15.420
I love you, but that is not truth.

719
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And I don't want you to say that to me anymore.

720
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Now, again, they may or may not be healthy

721
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to receive that.

722
00:48:22.440 --> 00:48:24.400
They might react and blow up,

723
00:48:24.400 --> 00:48:26.480
but praise the Lord, you get to set a healthy boundary

724
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and say, yeah, you know what?

725
00:48:28.300 --> 00:48:31.040
Maybe I should spend less time with that person.

726
00:48:32.840 --> 00:48:34.780
Y'all didn't see the post that Jackie put up

727
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on her social media.

728
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She absolutely put one up on Instagram,

729
00:48:39.340 --> 00:48:40.700
probably on Facebook too,

730
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about how sometimes, you know,

731
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God leads us to not be with people for a reason.

732
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And sometimes it's a season.

733
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So be praying into that for yourself.

734
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All right, we're gonna go into breakout sessions.

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This is what your question is tonight.

736
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In what ways does the enemy challenge the real you?

737
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Does he often use comparison, competition, or imitation,

738
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or all of them, some of them?

739
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You get to decide.

740
00:49:12.960 --> 00:49:14.420
If it's more than one, that's okay.

741
00:49:15.460 --> 00:49:17.980
And then how do these tend to show up in your life?

742
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I'm gonna repeat the question again,

743
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and then I'm gonna give you an example, okay?

744
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In what ways does the enemy challenge the real you?

745
00:49:26.360 --> 00:49:29.960
Does he often use comparison, competition, or imitation,

746
00:49:30.580 --> 00:49:31.960
all of them, some of them?

747
00:49:31.960 --> 00:49:34.360
And how do these tend to show up in your life?

748
00:49:34.440 --> 00:49:39.740
So for example, if the enemy tends to challenge the real me

749
00:49:39.900 --> 00:49:43.800
with comparison, every time I try to step forward,

750
00:49:43.840 --> 00:49:45.840
he's always going to show me someone

751
00:49:45.840 --> 00:49:48.600
that is further than I am and try to convince me

752
00:49:48.600 --> 00:49:51.560
that I'm not good enough to become what they are.

753
00:49:51.640 --> 00:49:53.820
For example, a published author.

754
00:49:54.600 --> 00:49:57.500
I cannot tell you how many times the enemy has come to me

755
00:49:57.500 --> 00:49:59.980
and said to me, you have nothing of value.

756
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:07.060
you to say, no one is going to buy your books. I'm not kidding you all. I've heard that so

757
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many times. And so I'm getting stronger and stronger and stronger. The more that I really

758
00:50:12.200 --> 00:50:16.840
pray into this and, and really get into the place with the Lord that he's showing me why

759
00:50:16.840 --> 00:50:22.220
I have believed the enemy and literally shut down at times I would be writing and literally

760
00:50:22.220 --> 00:50:27.240
get massive writer's block. And I felt like I couldn't move forward. That's how it's been

761
00:50:27.240 --> 00:50:33.240
up in my life. So I don't know how it's showing up in your life, but I want you to talk to the

762
00:50:33.380 --> 00:50:37.360
ladies that you're in the breakout session with. I am going to try to only put two people together

763
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in a room. Um, because I re I love y'all to have a little bit more time with each other.

764
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Um, but we'll see what we can do here. And if you get in the room, just remember, um, if somebody

765
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isn't in there or they're not able to talk or whatever, I can move you all around. Um, and just

766
00:50:53.920 --> 00:50:58.540
remember that some people have internet condition connection issues. Um, that's okay. Rosie,

767
00:50:58.580 --> 00:51:04.980
if some of y'all can't join the breakout, it's totally fine. Um, if I have any coaches on here,

768
00:51:04.980 --> 00:51:10.280
I can't see everyone. Um, don't receive, or don't accept that invitation to go into the breakout

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room. All right, ladies, go ahead. And you have seven minutes. Go ahead and click to join that

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as quick as you can.

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Start to pray here in just a moment. I just need to move a couple people around here.

773
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All right, father. Thank you so much. Thank you, God, for continuing to help us connect

774
00:52:06.240 --> 00:52:11.500
and, and receive the revelation of heaven tonight for us over us. God, I thank you that you would

775
00:52:11.500 --> 00:52:16.220
help us to hear what your spirit is saying. God, I thank you that we would not be afraid,

776
00:52:16.680 --> 00:52:20.800
God, that we would walk into the fullness of everything that you have for us, Lord. I thank

777
00:52:20.960 --> 00:52:23.900
you that you would help us to leave behind, you know, all of our fears and all of our anxieties

778
00:52:24.600 --> 00:52:29.240
all the former things, Lord, where we've been held back in any way, shape or form.

779
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Calandra, I'm trying to put you in a different room. I'm sorry, I have to move you again. So I

780
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just sent you room 24. There you go. Thank you, Lord, for continuing to help all of our ladies

781
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share and open up and have divine connections and friendships even coming out of tonight.

782
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Bambi, I can't tell if you're stuck. Yeah, I'm stuck. The person, Peggy,

783
00:52:52.840 --> 00:53:00.920
I'm muted. And I can't hardly hear you. Oh, Peggy was muted. Let me Oh, okay, I see you.

784
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I think I might have. She might have dropped off. I'll just put you into a different room.

785
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Here we go. Okay, thank you. You're welcome. Thank you.

786
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All right. So Lord, I thank you just praying into those divine friendships. God, I thank you for

787
00:53:17.680 --> 00:53:21.980
sisterhood. I thank you, God, that you have called us to come out of hiding and come into

788
00:53:22.000 --> 00:53:27.760
community. I pray God that you would just continue to. Yes, Lord, just come in and just soothe

789
00:53:28.380 --> 00:53:33.260
people's minds, their hearts, their spirits, their souls. Peggy, hi. I heard that you were having a

790
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hard time on sharing because you were having a hard time on mute. Do you want to just stay here

791
00:53:38.300 --> 00:53:42.980
in the main room? You can put it in the chat for me. If you can't share or you can unmute totally

792
00:53:42.980 --> 00:53:50.040
fine either way. All right. So Lord, we just thank you that you would continue to minister

793
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to all the broken and fallen places in our hearts and our lives. God, I thank you.

794
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Yes, Lord, that you are making all things new, God, and that you're continuing to help us to

795
00:54:01.640 --> 00:54:07.720
see things through a new lens, God, that you would give us your eyes to see and your ears to hear

796
00:54:07.720 --> 00:54:13.780
what your spirit is saying to us and over us. God, I thank you that you would continue to

797
00:54:13.780 --> 00:54:23.500
anoint our hearts. Yes, Lord, with fresh grace, fresh capacity. Yes, Lord, I thank you for strength

798
00:54:23.500 --> 00:54:32.700
and endurance in this journey. God, I thank you. Yes, Lord, I thank you, God, that even in this

799
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I'm looking at this scripture right now in the Heartwork Book, John 14, 12 from the Passion

800
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Translation. And this is after she's talking about the supernova area. It says, I tell you this

801
00:54:42.880 --> 00:54:48.700
timeless truth. The person who follows me in faith, believing in me will do the same mighty

802
00:54:48.700 --> 00:54:54.800
miracles that I do even greater miracles than these because I go to be with my father. So

803
00:54:54.800 --> 00:54:59.980
interesting. I literally just watched a devotional video a couple days ago.

804
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from the chosen. And it came right after I was in a small group and we were talking about how

805
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literally, you know, it says that we're going to do mightier works than Jesus did.

806
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And the next day that video was of the disciples, like Jesus sitting with them,

807
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talking to them about this, that, that truth alone, that he was going to have them do greater

808
00:55:18.880 --> 00:55:22.520
miracles than he had done. And they were all like, what, what, like they couldn't believe it.

809
00:55:22.520 --> 00:55:28.740
It was just kind of funny the way it displayed it, but so often, you know, it just made it so real.

810
00:55:28.740 --> 00:55:34.060
Um, it had Matthew who was the tax collector at that time. He was like, wait, wait, did I

811
00:55:34.060 --> 00:55:38.520
miss something? Did I miss some kind of meeting or, you know, it just in that moment where,

812
00:55:38.820 --> 00:55:44.300
you know, I believe so often we hear things like that. We read things like that, but it's tough

813
00:55:44.300 --> 00:55:51.780
for us to comprehend that God would allow us, he would enable us to be used in that way.

814
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But praise the Lord. We can be used to be a vessel for God to work through into the lives of those

815
00:55:59.280 --> 00:56:07.460
around us in every single way. Romans 8, 30 through 32 in the passion translation says this,

816
00:56:07.580 --> 00:56:14.620
having determined our destiny ahead of time, there it is. You all, your destiny is determined

817
00:56:14.620 --> 00:56:19.380
ahead of time. He called us to himself and transferred his perfect righteousness to

818
00:56:19.380 --> 00:56:24.500
everyone he called and those who possess his perfect righteousness. He glorified with his son.

819
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So what does all of this mean? If God has determined to stand with us, tell me who then

820
00:56:30.300 --> 00:56:34.780
could ever stand against us. There's that thing that I was saying earlier for God has proved his

821
00:56:34.780 --> 00:56:42.460
love by giving us his greatest treasure, the gift of his son. And since God freely offered him up

822
00:56:42.460 --> 00:56:50.940
as a sacrifice for us, each one of us, he certainly won't withhold from us anything else he has to give.

823
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Y'all sit in that, sit in that truth for a minute.

824
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For God proved his love by giving us his greatest treasure, the gift of his son. Some of you all,

825
00:57:06.320 --> 00:57:12.160
it's kind of like even you don't mean to, but in a sense you're like wanting God to prove that he

826
00:57:12.160 --> 00:57:17.220
is faithful and that he will be faithful to you, but he's already proven himself faithful.

827
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It's whether or not we believe that he is faithful.

828
00:57:23.980 --> 00:57:28.980
He's already given us the evidence of it. And because he's given us this greatest gift,

829
00:57:29.140 --> 00:57:35.580
his son, it's saying he's not going to withhold anything else from us. Now in that, again,

830
00:57:35.580 --> 00:57:39.720
that caveat is if something isn't healthy for us, just like I was talking earlier

831
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about the weight of the ministry. If God had given that to me back then, it would have crushed me.

832
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If God had given me my spiritual daughter's dad and had him like nudged him to marry me,

833
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gosh, so much would be different. Praise the Lord. He did not

834
00:57:55.320 --> 00:57:59.040
bless that. He did not encourage that to be moved forward.

835
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I want you to really continue to pray into all that God has for you in the days ahead. Ephesians

836
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3, 17 through 19 in the NLT says this, then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in

837
00:58:12.440 --> 00:58:18.280
him. Your roots, let me click this button real quick, will grow down into God's love and keep

838
00:58:18.320 --> 00:58:24.340
you strong. And may you have the power to understand as all God's people should how wide,

839
00:58:24.540 --> 00:58:30.620
how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May you experience the love of Christ,

840
00:58:30.620 --> 00:58:36.580
though it is too great to fully understand. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness

841
00:58:36.580 --> 00:58:43.280
of life and power that comes from God. Father, I pray that and ask you, Lord, to just continue

842
00:58:43.280 --> 00:58:48.800
to give us a revelation and a fresh way of your love tonight. God, if there's anything that hinders

843
00:58:48.800 --> 00:58:53.240
us from being able to receive the revelation of your love, God, that you would remove those

844
00:58:53.240 --> 00:59:00.600
barriers, God, and you would help us to just, again, that that capacity would increase for our

845
00:59:00.600 --> 00:59:06.020
who you are, God, as love. Go ahead and try to mute yourselves for me as quick as y'all can. I'll

846
00:59:06.020 --> 00:59:11.380
help you too if I can. All right, so I'm going to give you your activations first. Go ahead and raise

847
00:59:11.380 --> 00:59:15.500
your hand if you're willing to share with the whole group what you shared in the breakout session. I

848
00:59:15.500 --> 00:59:20.220
would love for you all to talk about the question that I gave you specifically tonight because

849
00:59:20.220 --> 00:59:24.940
there's a lot of you that you need breakthrough regarding this so that you can continue to come

850
00:59:24.940 --> 00:59:29.860
out of these counterfeit identities and step further into your real identity. And so we've

851
00:59:29.860 --> 00:59:34.600
to get to the root of the comparison, the competition, or the imitation that you all

852
00:59:34.600 --> 00:59:38.640
might be facing, okay? So let's talk about that first, and then if we have more time,

853
00:59:38.700 --> 00:59:44.800
I can open it up for y'all to ask other questions. Here is activation number one.

854
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I want you to activate the princess on the inside of you. We talked about this before. Some of you

855
00:59:51.820 --> 00:59:58.460
are brand new, so you've never heard it. I want to encourage you to ask the Lord what you should do

856
00:59:58.460 --> 00:59:59.880
to partner with the princess.

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Awakening on the inside of you that you already are a princess.

858
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You already are an heir of the fullness of God's blessings.

859
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So maybe you're going to get a tiara.

860
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Maybe you're going to buy a crown.

861
01:00:11.640 --> 01:00:14.860
Maybe you're going to buy some fancy shoes or some really lovely

862
01:00:14.880 --> 01:00:19.100
jewelry because that makes you feel regal here is going to be I already

863
01:00:19.100 --> 01:00:20.340
put it up in the group this afternoon.

864
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So you are will already see it there when you go there tonight.

865
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If you haven't already seen it activation number one, there's five

866
01:00:26.840 --> 01:00:29.280
areas, but I'm going to read three of them to you.

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You can read the rest in there tonight, but this is number one.

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This is some of the ways you can activate the princess on the inside

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01:00:35.400 --> 01:00:36.000
of you one.

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I already started talking about.

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Put on that tiara or that crown look at yourself in the mirror and say

872
01:00:43.820 --> 01:00:47.560
I am a princess own it.

873
01:00:47.680 --> 01:00:48.480
Talk about it.

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See yourself in it, but also sit there and do your morning devotions

875
01:00:52.060 --> 01:00:53.760
and your prayer time with it.

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01:00:53.960 --> 01:00:57.260
Get comfortable being a princess.

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01:00:59.280 --> 01:01:03.420
Let this physical reminder anchor you in the spiritual truth that you

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01:01:03.780 --> 01:01:09.360
Carol carry royal blood through Jesus Christ number to create a royal

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morning ritual.

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Start each day by looking in the mirror and speaking your identity

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out loud.

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Good morning, and I said this already kind of good morning princess

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Anna.

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You are chosen you are beloved you are set apart.

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God is working on a spirit mate for you.

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Follow this with reading scripture.

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I added the spirit mate part y'all can add extra things if you want

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01:01:31.720 --> 01:01:35.160
follow this with reading scripture that affirms your identity like

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01:01:35.160 --> 01:01:37.780
Psalm 45 11 or first Peter 2 9.

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This will rewire your mind to see yourself as God sees you number 3

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01:01:43.120 --> 01:01:47.820
dress like royalty from the inside out.

892
01:01:48.400 --> 01:01:50.780
We got a dress like royalty on the inside.

893
01:01:50.780 --> 01:01:55.520
What that means is we have to get to know who we are and believe in

894
01:01:55.520 --> 01:01:59.500
who God has given us the identity of like the beautiful things that

895
01:01:59.500 --> 01:02:04.100
he's put in us and then also on the outside dress like royalty.

896
01:02:04.820 --> 01:02:07.940
So choose a piece of jewelry, maybe clothing item or accessory that

897
01:02:07.940 --> 01:02:11.060
makes you feel regal and wear that as a princess reminder.

898
01:02:11.360 --> 01:02:15.400
It could be our special ring and elegant scarf or even a beautiful

899
01:02:15.620 --> 01:02:18.760
posture that you begin to walk in ladies.

900
01:02:19.000 --> 01:02:22.560
How many of you walk around with your head down anyone here ever you

901
01:02:22.560 --> 01:02:23.720
don't have to raise your digital hands.

902
01:02:23.720 --> 01:02:26.100
So I don't lose these people put in the chat for me.

903
01:02:26.140 --> 01:02:29.920
I just want to see any of you struggle with looking down all the time.

904
01:02:30.240 --> 01:02:33.840
And if you apologize all the time, even when there's nothing to apologize

905
01:02:34.560 --> 01:02:37.660
for let's step into a new posture in this season.

906
01:02:38.600 --> 01:02:40.280
Let's lift our heads up.

907
01:02:40.600 --> 01:02:42.640
Let's make eye contact with people.

908
01:02:44.200 --> 01:02:44.680
Smile.

909
01:02:45.580 --> 01:02:47.340
Let yourself be seen.

910
01:02:47.700 --> 01:02:49.340
I'm going to keep going.

911
01:02:50.460 --> 01:02:53.680
Let it prompt you throughout the day to carry yourself with the dignity

912
01:02:53.680 --> 01:02:58.040
and confidence that belongs to you a daughter of the king.

913
01:02:58.340 --> 01:02:59.840
And again, you can read the other two in there.

914
01:02:59.980 --> 01:03:02.500
I didn't want to take too long, but I felt like I needed to read some

915
01:03:02.680 --> 01:03:06.740
read some of those over you because of the power that is in them.

916
01:03:06.740 --> 01:03:08.120
Just reading it out loud.

917
01:03:08.180 --> 01:03:13.740
Now I want to talk about also this dressing like royalty even on the

918
01:03:13.820 --> 01:03:14.360
outside.

919
01:03:15.700 --> 01:03:20.820
Some of you have gotten very cozy wearing sweatpants and sweatshirts

920
01:03:20.820 --> 01:03:22.380
and t-shirts all the time.

921
01:03:22.700 --> 01:03:24.600
Okay, we're going to start coming out of that.

922
01:03:24.640 --> 01:03:26.240
So you're going to activate the princess.

923
01:03:26.740 --> 01:03:28.720
Am I saying you can never wear cozy things?

924
01:03:28.820 --> 01:03:30.040
No, that's not what I'm saying.

925
01:03:30.100 --> 01:03:33.760
But what I'm saying is some of you have never worn a dress.

926
01:03:36.000 --> 01:03:38.860
Some of you used to wear dresses, but you don't anymore.

927
01:03:39.880 --> 01:03:43.400
And you need to you need to allow the divine.

928
01:03:43.400 --> 01:03:48.480
Feminine to wake up within you the princess who wears pretty frilly

929
01:03:48.480 --> 01:03:51.500
and y'all everybody's feminine is different.

930
01:03:51.500 --> 01:03:53.960
Okay, so maybe you don't like frilly.

931
01:03:53.960 --> 01:03:58.260
I love a little even feminine top that has like almost like a little

932
01:03:58.340 --> 01:04:01.620
hangover, you know sleeve that looks a little feminine.

933
01:04:02.200 --> 01:04:06.480
I like things with a little bit of lace on them that look very

934
01:04:06.480 --> 01:04:06.840
feminine.

935
01:04:07.400 --> 01:04:09.000
I love a dangly earring.

936
01:04:10.600 --> 01:04:13.280
I've been doing my having my nails done lately.

937
01:04:13.440 --> 01:04:17.240
You all this is a part of me trying to pamper myself to the

938
01:04:17.240 --> 01:04:18.800
things I ask you all to do.

939
01:04:18.800 --> 01:04:20.820
I do try to work on them.

940
01:04:21.960 --> 01:04:25.100
I really try to show up fully everywhere.

941
01:04:25.100 --> 01:04:27.240
I go if I'm going out in public.

942
01:04:27.640 --> 01:04:31.840
I try to think about like back when I was dating obviously not

943
01:04:32.140 --> 01:04:37.540
now, but I would think about like man, I might run into a like a

944
01:04:37.540 --> 01:04:38.560
really cute guy.

945
01:04:38.560 --> 01:04:41.680
So I don't want to I don't want to just run out of the house all

946
01:04:41.680 --> 01:04:43.780
the time with my hat on because I got into the place where I was

947
01:04:43.780 --> 01:04:48.760
always wearing a hat, you know, and and so God was kind of

948
01:04:48.760 --> 01:04:51.000
reminding me like hey, it's been a while since you curled your

949
01:04:51.860 --> 01:04:55.140
hair and am I saying that that stuff like you can't meet your

950
01:04:55.140 --> 01:04:56.740
spirit mate without that being done.

951
01:04:56.740 --> 01:04:57.660
No, that's not what I'm saying.

952
01:04:58.420 --> 01:04:59.840
But some of you.

953
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:05.800
you need to partner with us. It's going to help you. Because it even makes you feel better for

954
01:05:05.800 --> 01:05:11.860
you. It's not just about someone else. So show up fully for yourself in this season.

955
01:05:12.360 --> 01:05:17.100
And back in the day, I know some of you don't like to do this, but back in the day when I was

956
01:05:17.100 --> 01:05:22.540
in this community, we would literally like, if we were getting dressed up to go out, even on a date,

957
01:05:22.660 --> 01:05:26.620
or even to go out with friends, we would take a picture and share it in the chat. And we would

958
01:05:26.620 --> 01:05:31.700
talk about our Divine Feminine waking up and being like, I went shopping and I got this really

959
01:05:31.700 --> 01:05:36.840
cute dress. And this is what it looks like. And we just became sisters. And I know there's a lot

960
01:05:36.840 --> 01:05:40.960
of people in here. And if you want to partner with, there's a lot of people in here. I don't

961
01:05:40.960 --> 01:05:48.560
know if I can post that or, then that's your choice. But for those of you that post and engage

962
01:05:48.560 --> 01:05:55.160
with each other, I 100% believe that God can grow sisterhood friendships in this community through,

963
01:05:55.160 --> 01:06:01.560
you know, you all connecting. Okay. Activation number two is silhouette activation. Let me show

964
01:06:01.560 --> 01:06:07.140
it to you really quick. The way this works is you're going to pray and you're going to ask God

965
01:06:07.140 --> 01:06:16.020
to show you and tell you, who am I? Who am I God? And you're going to listen for what he's saying.

966
01:06:16.560 --> 01:06:21.200
What words is he saying? What phrases is he saying? What colors is he telling you? You're

967
01:06:21.200 --> 01:06:25.100
going to draw a little silhouette of yourself. You don't, you do not have to be an artist. I'm

968
01:06:25.100 --> 01:06:30.280
going to show you several versions here tonight. You don't have to do it exactly like this pray

969
01:06:30.280 --> 01:06:35.280
and follow the Holy spirit for yourself. Now, ladies, if you hear something negative,

970
01:06:35.280 --> 01:06:39.220
it does not go on this silhouette. You're going to write that on a separate piece of paper

971
01:06:39.620 --> 01:06:42.860
and you're going to cross that out. And you're going to actually ask the Lord

972
01:06:43.580 --> 01:06:47.920
to give you the truth to replace that lie. Remember the revealing for healing cycle.

973
01:06:47.940 --> 01:06:51.640
And if you haven't done that part yet, because you're brand new, it's okay. You'll get there

974
01:06:51.640 --> 01:06:57.020
some point, but the revealing for healing cycle walks us through identifying the lies, but also

975
01:06:57.020 --> 01:07:01.580
going all the way through to replace those with the truth. This first one here, I just want to

976
01:07:01.580 --> 01:07:06.980
point out, she felt led to put flowers on her eyes. Part of that you all symbolized for her

977
01:07:07.460 --> 01:07:14.000
that, you know, she did not like to see herself on camera on screen. And so God in the heart work

978
01:07:14.000 --> 01:07:21.000
changed her view of herself. And so that's what these flowers represent for her. Okay. And she

979
01:07:21.000 --> 01:07:26.840
blonde hair. So that's what that represents. Here's someone, this lady here, she was representing that

980
01:07:26.840 --> 01:07:32.200
her mind was beginning to flourish. That's why she has like the plants and the life coming out

981
01:07:32.200 --> 01:07:36.940
of her mind. Really, really beautiful. Awesome. Here's another one. She's wearing a crown. She's

982
01:07:36.940 --> 01:07:42.780
got these beautiful bold lips and all these really powerful words about herself. It's really

983
01:07:42.780 --> 01:07:46.760
important for y'all to lean in. Like I said, to what God is saying to you, this one is wonderful

984
01:07:46.760 --> 01:07:53.420
as well. Very simple, not a lot of color. She titled it the real me. And then she wrote everything

985
01:07:53.420 --> 01:07:59.700
that God was saying to her. And if some of you struggle, it's okay. Just continue to press

986
01:07:59.700 --> 01:08:06.580
in and let God build it for you, but don't avoid this activation. Here's another one. Very, you

987
01:08:06.580 --> 01:08:11.300
know, wonderful. She highlighted a couple words in yellow that really meant something in particular

988
01:08:11.300 --> 01:08:16.180
to her. Here's one. She's got some freckles. Again, just trying to show you guys a couple

989
01:08:16.180 --> 01:08:21.020
different ones here. She's wearing a crown and at the every point of the crown is a word.

990
01:08:21.920 --> 01:08:25.960
There's different colors and expression. This lady here is an artist, so I don't want you to be

991
01:08:25.960 --> 01:08:31.100
intimidated, but I love this. I think it's so powerful. I want you to see just her perspective

992
01:08:31.100 --> 01:08:36.080
of what God was saying to her and doing in her. And then Nari, I don't know if she's here tonight,

993
01:08:36.180 --> 01:08:42.500
but Nari, who has been live on this session, this is her silhouette that she just put up in the

994
01:08:42.700 --> 01:08:47.560
this last week. You all, I don't know if you were here last week or two weeks ago when I gave her

995
01:08:47.560 --> 01:08:52.660
the challenge to do this activation and she followed through on it. And it's absolutely

996
01:08:52.660 --> 01:08:57.420
stunning and beautiful. And I'm so, so proud of her. And so I'm hoping if she's not here live

997
01:08:57.420 --> 01:09:03.380
tonight, that she will see this and replay as I'm cheering her on with all of you. Okay. I know that

998
01:09:03.380 --> 01:09:07.520
took a little bit of time. If you have any questions, I put that up again in the community

999
01:09:07.520 --> 01:09:12.520
tab inside of the app group. Shakira, I would love to hear what you have to say.

1000
01:09:17.800 --> 01:09:25.200
Hi. Hi. So I was talking with Lisa and the main one for me is comparison.

1001
01:09:26.279 --> 01:09:38.200
Um, so we were talking about how, well, I talked about how I think the cause of the comparison is

1002
01:09:38.540 --> 01:09:47.260
just my parents and how they were really critical of me and themselves growing up. And it's been

1003
01:09:47.260 --> 01:09:56.540
a really hard habit to, to break. I think I mentioned to you once that I feared that,

1004
01:09:57.980 --> 01:09:59.980
uh, like if I married someone, it would

1005
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:07.540
be hard for me to like not compare them to someone else or for me to not compare myself

1006
01:10:07.540 --> 01:10:17.180
to other people and I didn't want that so that was what I got. Okay I just saw your your post

1007
01:10:17.180 --> 01:10:21.620
in the chat too you said I'm too cold to wear dresses lol I want to get sweater dresses eventually

1008
01:10:21.620 --> 01:10:29.080
hey yeah that's if you live somewhere cold you can absolutely wear some jeans and some cute booties

1009
01:10:29.080 --> 01:10:35.520
and a cute little sweater and a jacket y'all I totally do yeah you can totally be funny I like

1010
01:10:35.520 --> 01:10:42.080
the whole work wear vibe and people are always asking me like do you have an interview and I

1011
01:10:42.080 --> 01:10:49.700
said no it's just not casual Friday so I do like I do like that yes yeah um on the comparison

1012
01:10:50.540 --> 01:10:55.760
um I do I do agree just knowing your story and things that you've shared that yeah growing up

1013
01:10:55.760 --> 01:11:00.620
that way here in the critical things want something I was listening to today really got

1014
01:11:00.620 --> 01:11:06.120
me thinking about our our own internal dialogue though while yes those other people and the things

1015
01:11:06.120 --> 01:11:12.640
they said actually a lot of times built that internal dialogue in us but it was saying

1016
01:11:12.800 --> 01:11:19.180
something like imagine someone following you around saying to you the things that you think

1017
01:11:19.180 --> 01:11:24.080
in your own head about yourself and some of us think some really hard things don't we

1018
01:11:24.640 --> 01:11:30.360
and if we heard someone following another person around saying those things out loud to that person

1019
01:11:30.400 --> 01:11:37.820
we would feel like it's abuse and so I'm saying that to you Shakira and everyone because again I

1020
01:11:37.820 --> 01:11:44.780
want you all to be thinking about what you're thinking about so are there mindsets and thoughts

1021
01:11:44.780 --> 01:11:54.360
that you have about yourself that are critical yeah all the time okay so what does that sound

1022
01:11:54.360 --> 01:12:05.320
like for you typically um well if I'm at work it's that you know I'm I'm not able to to understand

1023
01:12:05.320 --> 01:12:14.540
the information that I'm not valuable at my job and I could get let go at any moment or

1024
01:12:14.560 --> 01:12:25.560
I don't have enough value to be able to go somewhere else and then outside of that I guess

1025
01:12:25.560 --> 01:12:31.200
like I'll be critical about like oh I should you know I've been a Christian for this long I should

1026
01:12:31.200 --> 01:12:38.340
you know already be healed I should already you know have my act together I should I should

1027
01:12:38.340 --> 01:12:45.580
already know what my purpose is and what I want to do and and you know like how can I marry someone

1028
01:12:45.580 --> 01:12:58.080
if I don't even know what my purpose is and um like I used to be um well I have Invisalign now

1029
01:12:58.080 --> 01:13:04.420
but I used to you know talk like be like oh well if I don't have straight teeth then

1030
01:13:05.200 --> 01:13:12.260
then I won't you know attract anyone and yeah or my personality and and things like that like

1031
01:13:12.380 --> 01:13:21.660
lately I've been like well you know if you're too loud or I don't know obnoxious or whatever

1032
01:13:22.300 --> 01:13:28.380
so then this is why the silhouette ladies that I just showed you I really want to encourage you

1033
01:13:28.380 --> 01:13:32.740
all I know a lot of people get intimidated by that activation but I hope that you don't

1034
01:13:33.380 --> 01:13:37.800
I hope that all of you will really step into this because I'm going to tell you what

1035
01:13:37.820 --> 01:13:44.800
some of you are going to get set free massively by doing that activation Shakira you absolutely

1036
01:13:44.800 --> 01:13:48.040
need to do that activation if you have not done it have you done it I can't remember

1037
01:13:49.380 --> 01:13:55.260
you yeah it's been a little bit but I have I still have it okay you need to put that up where

1038
01:13:55.260 --> 01:14:00.300
you can see it every day okay because these are some pretty massive things that you're still

1039
01:14:00.300 --> 01:14:07.920
hearing and so when they are presenting themselves I want you to start tracking it okay is it at a

1040
01:14:07.920 --> 01:14:16.100
certain time of the day is it you know when does it happen after something else that you've

1041
01:14:16.100 --> 01:14:20.940
experienced so is there something triggering it is what I'm saying and where you're really

1042
01:14:20.940 --> 01:14:27.640
starting to identify what where is the pattern that is you know the open door to this stuff

1043
01:14:27.740 --> 01:14:32.660
because most likely there's a root like these are all really big ones for example

1044
01:14:32.900 --> 01:14:39.140
not able to understand the info that really stood out to me obviously not valuable you were saying

1045
01:14:39.140 --> 01:14:44.580
a job and other things but value and then when you started listing off all the other things

1046
01:14:44.580 --> 01:14:50.180
too loud you know I should know this I should know that you know there's other things there

1047
01:14:50.180 --> 01:14:57.640
but the core is your own value like towards yourself like how you view your own worth and

1048
01:14:57.640 --> 01:14:59.980
value and then um on the not able

1049
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:07.340
to understand, I heard the Lord say to ask you, when is the first time

1050
01:15:07.340 --> 01:15:12.060
that you felt embarrassed for not understanding something?

1051
01:15:16.000 --> 01:15:22.040
I don't remember when, but I didn't like asking questions in school because I

1052
01:15:22.040 --> 01:15:27.120
didn't want to sound stupid. So why did you think you would sound stupid?

1053
01:15:30.380 --> 01:15:38.100
Well, I know that, like, specifically for high school, there were just, oh, I was in

1054
01:15:38.100 --> 01:15:47.120
classes with a lot of really smart people that just picked on things really easily.

1055
01:15:47.620 --> 01:15:51.460
Lots of them went to, like, Ivy League schools and stuff like that. And I guess

1056
01:15:51.540 --> 01:15:57.100
being put into that, I think even in middle school, there were some kids like

1057
01:15:57.100 --> 01:16:04.300
that. And even when I was in engineering school, I witnessed, like,

1058
01:16:06.040 --> 01:16:11.460
engineers, like, I would witness someone saying, like, oh, like, I'm helping this one girl out.

1059
01:16:11.500 --> 01:16:16.580
And I remember seeing this other guy, and he was like, what, is she stupid? And we're

1060
01:16:16.260 --> 01:16:23.360
taking, like, electrical engineering classes. And so I still kind of, like, experienced that

1061
01:16:23.360 --> 01:16:31.000
where I was asking a lot of questions. And the first review I got with my supervisor,

1062
01:16:31.200 --> 01:16:37.180
he was like, you're asking so many questions, but you're not remembering anything. Like,

1063
01:16:37.180 --> 01:16:41.480
someone said that you were asking questions and writing things down, but you're not remembering

1064
01:16:42.420 --> 01:16:48.680
anything. So, like, how, you know, how can you have value here if you're not,

1065
01:16:48.680 --> 01:16:55.560
you know, an expert on something here? And I had just started. So I feel like it just

1066
01:16:56.220 --> 01:17:03.080
keeps coming up. It comes, I feel like when I didn't get into the universities I wanted to,

1067
01:17:03.520 --> 01:17:08.900
or I haven't been able to, like, get through a program just smoothly.

1068
01:17:10.780 --> 01:17:18.460
So here's the thing, okay? So I want you to see something. So fear is immobilizing you.

1069
01:17:18.680 --> 01:17:26.880
It's causing you to freeze. Okay. And so as you continue to heal, and again, I want you to know

1070
01:17:26.880 --> 01:17:32.980
it's okay that it takes time. All right. I want you to really, I want you to really hear that

1071
01:17:32.980 --> 01:17:39.020
tonight. It's okay if it takes you time. The reason that you're forgetting stuff or not

1072
01:17:39.240 --> 01:17:44.600
retaining it, and I want you to flip the perspective, even though they said you were not

1073
01:17:44.600 --> 01:17:50.620
remembering things, the truth is you didn't have the capacity to retain it.

1074
01:17:51.260 --> 01:17:57.340
I believe that 100%, Shakira. I think that you are smart, but I think your internal dialogue

1075
01:17:57.360 --> 01:18:03.500
is convincing you that you're not capable of running with the big dogs, if you will.

1076
01:18:04.180 --> 01:18:08.740
Because you even said I was in, you basically said you were in an environment with high achievers,

1077
01:18:08.740 --> 01:18:13.240
and you, like, felt like, you know, you didn't even want to ask things out loud because you

1078
01:18:13.240 --> 01:18:19.360
were afraid that you were going to look stupid. So that tells me that started long before you

1079
01:18:19.360 --> 01:18:27.020
were even in that class. So it's getting to the root of, yeah, it's getting to the root of when

1080
01:18:27.020 --> 01:18:34.740
did I first start believing the lie that I am stupid, I'm slow, I'm not as smart as other people,

1081
01:18:34.740 --> 01:18:41.960
and all those things are kind of hanging out together. And as you identify that first thing,

1082
01:18:41.960 --> 01:18:44.920
and I don't want you to focus on anything else, because I don't want you to get overwhelmed.

1083
01:18:45.780 --> 01:18:49.280
So just focus on that this week, and let's see what comes up.

1084
01:18:51.180 --> 01:18:55.640
Because, I mean, you're, like, even in here, like, you're very intelligent, even when you're speaking

1085
01:18:55.640 --> 01:19:03.480
and talking about things. So this isn't about you not being capable of something. This is fear is

1086
01:19:03.620 --> 01:19:09.340
immobilizing you, and the fear is coming out of, like, the lie that you believe you're stupid,

1087
01:19:09.340 --> 01:19:17.340
or you're not capable of something. And that lie began somewhere. Yes, and Denise just said it,

1088
01:19:17.340 --> 01:19:26.840
electrical engineering is no joke. It is hard stuff. And so it keeps coming up. Shakira, too,

1089
01:19:26.840 --> 01:19:32.560
I just want you to kind of breathe with this. It keeps coming up because there's a wound that needs

1090
01:19:32.840 --> 01:19:38.320
healed. And I believe that as you continue to heal, and you get set free from that stuff,

1091
01:19:38.960 --> 01:19:44.320
that you're going to, like, soar. And I think it's going to be a totally different experience for you

1092
01:19:44.320 --> 01:19:50.540
at some point in the days ahead. And so pray into that this week, and come in the group,

1093
01:19:50.580 --> 01:19:55.340
and let us know kind of what comes up for you, and let's see where that might lead you to go.

1094
01:19:57.300 --> 01:19:59.660
Okay. All right. Try doing.

1095
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:01.560
but you told me last time,

1096
01:20:01.960 --> 01:20:05.820
and I tried listening to a song about grace,

1097
01:20:06.360 --> 01:20:07.900
and it was still kind of hard,

1098
01:20:08.020 --> 01:20:10.340
but I kind of paired that too with,

1099
01:20:10.980 --> 01:20:13.540
whenever I thought a negative thought,

1100
01:20:13.680 --> 01:20:18.340
I tried to say like two things I'm grateful for.

1101
01:20:18.520 --> 01:20:21.200
So I tried to pair it with that.

1102
01:20:22.020 --> 01:20:24.680
So I think that was kind of helpful, but.

1103
01:20:25.720 --> 01:20:27.260
Keep practicing that, okay ladies?

1104
01:20:27.260 --> 01:20:30.860
So this is a muscle that's really hard for her, okay?

1105
01:20:32.180 --> 01:20:34.580
So Shakira, for those of you that don't know her,

1106
01:20:35.620 --> 01:20:39.020
grew up in a lot of very critical environments

1107
01:20:39.460 --> 01:20:41.500
with her parents and other things.

1108
01:20:41.860 --> 01:20:44.520
And so basically it's created a stronghold.

1109
01:20:44.600 --> 01:20:45.860
And so strongholds are created

1110
01:20:45.860 --> 01:20:47.760
because a wound happens back here,

1111
01:20:48.520 --> 01:20:50.720
and then another wound, like, and we believe a lie,

1112
01:20:50.780 --> 01:20:52.040
and then another wound happens,

1113
01:20:52.080 --> 01:20:54.620
and then it looks and sounds similar

1114
01:20:54.880 --> 01:20:56.400
to this thing back here.

1115
01:20:56.400 --> 01:20:58.560
And so that reinforces that lie.

1116
01:20:58.720 --> 01:20:59.860
So now that's two together.

1117
01:21:00.260 --> 01:21:03.140
And think of it, every time something else happens

1118
01:21:03.140 --> 01:21:05.760
and it sounds similar and we believe that lie,

1119
01:21:06.040 --> 01:21:07.520
it reinforces it another time.

1120
01:21:07.920 --> 01:21:10.020
And so this is just a stronghold

1121
01:21:10.020 --> 01:21:13.100
that's being broken down, Shakira, okay?

1122
01:21:13.220 --> 01:21:16.640
And over time, you're literally gonna be set free

1123
01:21:16.640 --> 01:21:18.280
completely from that stronghold.

1124
01:21:18.460 --> 01:21:19.660
And you're gonna be able to go

1125
01:21:19.660 --> 01:21:21.200
and help other people be set free too.

1126
01:21:21.560 --> 01:21:24.080
But for those of you, I think I started saying that

1127
01:21:24.080 --> 01:21:27.000
because I gave her the activation

1128
01:21:27.320 --> 01:21:29.900
to listen to songs about grace,

1129
01:21:30.060 --> 01:21:31.560
to read scriptures about grace

1130
01:21:31.560 --> 01:21:35.640
so that she would practice giving herself grace.

1131
01:21:36.780 --> 01:21:41.160
And so she's doing it, but like the only way,

1132
01:21:41.180 --> 01:21:42.620
you know, we build muscles

1133
01:21:42.620 --> 01:21:45.440
is by continuing to lift the weights, you all.

1134
01:21:45.900 --> 01:21:47.020
So keep doing that too.

1135
01:21:47.120 --> 01:21:49.520
So you're gonna pray into where did the lie begin

1136
01:21:49.520 --> 01:21:50.980
that you are stupid

1137
01:21:50.980 --> 01:21:53.860
or that you can't like understand something

1138
01:21:53.860 --> 01:21:57.120
and then keep listening to the songs about grace

1139
01:21:57.260 --> 01:22:01.040
and really meditating on God's goodness towards you.

1140
01:22:01.960 --> 01:22:02.280
All right?

1141
01:22:02.920 --> 01:22:03.500
Okay, thank you.

1142
01:22:03.820 --> 01:22:04.560
Awesome, you're welcome.

1143
01:22:04.840 --> 01:22:05.500
Thank you for sharing.

1144
01:22:06.360 --> 01:22:07.060
Is it Kanye?

1145
01:22:07.800 --> 01:22:08.560
Did I say it right?

1146
01:22:09.540 --> 01:22:11.980
You can call me Kanye, that's the nickname.

1147
01:22:12.560 --> 01:22:14.380
Kanye, all right, thank you.

1148
01:22:15.920 --> 01:22:18.840
Yeah, I just wanted to say everything that Shakira,

1149
01:22:18.840 --> 01:22:19.780
everything you were saying,

1150
01:22:19.980 --> 01:22:22.360
it sounded exactly like me almost.

1151
01:22:22.540 --> 01:22:22.980
It was crazy.

1152
01:22:23.640 --> 01:22:25.600
Even down to the engineering school

1153
01:22:25.600 --> 01:22:27.720
because that same experience.

1154
01:22:28.940 --> 01:22:34.980
But yeah, what I was talking about in my group with Glenna,

1155
01:22:35.080 --> 01:22:37.300
my partner, was, you know,

1156
01:22:37.300 --> 01:22:40.080
areas that I think I feel maybe the enemy

1157
01:22:40.080 --> 01:22:41.840
is challenging my identity.

1158
01:22:42.320 --> 01:22:44.000
I think it comes up with comparison

1159
01:22:44.000 --> 01:22:45.780
and maybe competition a little bit,

1160
01:22:45.780 --> 01:22:49.180
but not necessarily like overt competition all the time.

1161
01:22:50.400 --> 01:22:52.020
But comparison, yeah,

1162
01:22:53.120 --> 01:22:56.060
like I can say at least a little bit of a testimony

1163
01:22:56.060 --> 01:22:58.440
is that going through this heart work

1164
01:22:58.720 --> 01:23:00.840
is that I feel like it's been getting better

1165
01:23:00.840 --> 01:23:04.060
and that I've been engaging with that less,

1166
01:23:05.040 --> 01:23:06.780
that bad line of thinking,

1167
01:23:06.780 --> 01:23:09.200
but definitely super, super critical of myself.

1168
01:23:09.400 --> 01:23:11.900
And I know that stems from also growing up

1169
01:23:11.900 --> 01:23:13.200
in a critical household.

1170
01:23:13.560 --> 01:23:14.300
I love my parents,

1171
01:23:14.300 --> 01:23:17.360
but they had very high standards and very critical.

1172
01:23:17.880 --> 01:23:21.360
So my inner dialogue to myself is pretty harsh.

1173
01:23:21.980 --> 01:23:24.540
And I think I also end up judging other people

1174
01:23:24.540 --> 01:23:25.400
pretty harshly too.

1175
01:23:25.480 --> 01:23:27.960
And I really wanna get away from that.

1176
01:23:28.140 --> 01:23:29.540
But even just recently,

1177
01:23:29.660 --> 01:23:32.060
like an example of this comparison thing,

1178
01:23:32.320 --> 01:23:34.320
I was sharing with Glenna that on Sunday,

1179
01:23:34.980 --> 01:23:36.160
something was happening at church

1180
01:23:37.180 --> 01:23:39.360
and they were like,

1181
01:23:39.380 --> 01:23:41.220
somebody that serves on the worship team with me,

1182
01:23:41.380 --> 01:23:43.080
people were like, oh, complimenting them,

1183
01:23:43.080 --> 01:23:45.260
whatever, giving them a compliment,

1184
01:23:45.420 --> 01:23:47.440
like just nice general things.

1185
01:23:47.680 --> 01:23:50.300
And I could feel a little twinge inside.

1186
01:23:50.440 --> 01:23:52.220
I'm like, why do I care?

1187
01:23:52.320 --> 01:23:54.020
Like, this has nothing to do with me.

1188
01:23:54.460 --> 01:23:57.220
Why am I feeling a type of way

1189
01:23:57.560 --> 01:24:00.180
when this is about somebody else, it's their moment,

1190
01:24:00.360 --> 01:24:02.280
like it has nothing to do with me.

1191
01:24:03.780 --> 01:24:06.040
And in the past, I think it would have been,

1192
01:24:06.220 --> 01:24:07.500
I would have spiraled for much longer.

1193
01:24:07.900 --> 01:24:10.640
So thank God that I'm moving past that,

1194
01:24:10.780 --> 01:24:12.680
but I at least did recognize it.

1195
01:24:12.680 --> 01:24:15.660
And I was like, no, I'm not gonna go down that path.

1196
01:24:15.760 --> 01:24:18.460
I'm not gonna give that thought anymore.

1197
01:24:20.000 --> 01:24:23.240
I'm not gonna give it any more attention, so to speak.

1198
01:24:23.940 --> 01:24:27.160
But that has been, I think, me in the past a lot where,

1199
01:24:27.980 --> 01:24:29.120
yeah, man, I can just get caught up

1200
01:24:29.120 --> 01:24:29.940
in these negative cycles.

1201
01:24:29.980 --> 01:24:32.680
And I'm like, why do I care so much?

1202
01:24:33.340 --> 01:24:34.600
Like, anyway, yeah, that's it.

1203
01:24:35.040 --> 01:24:35.720
I love it.

1204
01:24:35.820 --> 01:24:37.260
And hey, I just wanna say,

1205
01:24:37.960 --> 01:24:39.940
you're not alone in the,

1206
01:24:40.580 --> 01:24:41.600
sorry, I lost you on my screen.

1207
01:24:42.260 --> 01:24:42.960
Oh, I don't know where you are.

1208
01:24:43.140 --> 01:24:43.920
Oh, I see you now.

1209
01:24:46.260 --> 01:24:48.560
Where someone gives someone else a compliment

1210
01:24:48.560 --> 01:24:51.780
and all of a sudden we somehow feel like

1211
01:24:51.920 --> 01:24:53.760
there's something lacking in us

1212
01:24:54.720 --> 01:24:56.760
or like that we're wanting that attention.

1213
01:24:56.900 --> 01:24:59.100
And that's what came up in my spirit for you

1214
01:24:59.100 --> 01:24:59.920
is that I really-

1215
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:06.360
want you to pray into, you know, I use this example a lot, that

1216
01:25:06.400 --> 01:25:09.040
another woman's, and it's not the same as what you're saying

1217
01:25:09.040 --> 01:25:12.980
here, but I'm just using this as an example. Another woman's

1218
01:25:13.460 --> 01:25:21.880
beauty does not have to diminish my beauty. But so often, we walk

1219
01:25:21.880 --> 01:25:25.020
into a room and we think someone else is more beautiful than us.

1220
01:25:25.020 --> 01:25:29.800
And all of a sudden, we don't believe that we are

1221
01:25:29.800 --> 01:25:36.480
beautiful. And why does that happen? There's something about

1222
01:25:36.480 --> 01:25:40.200
that person, something that we love something about them, or

1223
01:25:40.200 --> 01:25:44.040
we, like for me, I'm just gonna be real honest, you all. So back

1224
01:25:44.040 --> 01:25:47.980
in the day, as you guys know, I was sexually abused my breath. I

1225
01:25:47.980 --> 01:25:51.100
don't have very big breasts. My brothers used to literally make

1226
01:25:51.100 --> 01:25:54.540
fun of me all the time. They would even like make fun of me

1227
01:25:54.540 --> 01:25:57.980
in front of my mom and my mom never like, told them to stop.

1228
01:25:57.980 --> 01:26:02.280
It was really kind of messed up anyways. And so that's that,

1229
01:26:02.420 --> 01:26:07.180
like for a long, long time, that was always like, this massive

1230
01:26:07.220 --> 01:26:12.040
insecurity in me. And I had a friend growing up, she had

1231
01:26:12.040 --> 01:26:15.100
really big breasts and people made fun of her, but I always

1232
01:26:15.100 --> 01:26:19.280
wanted to be like her in that way. Even though I didn't

1233
01:26:19.380 --> 01:26:23.700
understand the pain that she was going through. Because all I

1234
01:26:23.700 --> 01:26:28.380
knew was the pain I was going through. And so even as an adult

1235
01:26:29.120 --> 01:26:32.940
woman, I would always be so self conscious going to the beach,

1236
01:26:32.980 --> 01:26:36.920
and there'd be women, you know, and comparing myself to them.

1237
01:26:37.820 --> 01:26:41.140
And so I know that's not exactly what you brought up. But I felt

1238
01:26:41.140 --> 01:26:45.400
led to mention that because I think so many of us struggle

1239
01:26:45.400 --> 01:26:49.260
with that, in one way, shape or form, where we're walking into

1240
01:26:49.260 --> 01:26:53.680
situations and scenarios. And we hear someone compliment another

1241
01:26:53.680 --> 01:26:57.520
woman on her looks or her shirt or her voice and how she's

1242
01:26:57.520 --> 01:27:02.160
saying and we automatically, there's, again, we might not be

1243
01:27:02.160 --> 01:27:05.180
able to recognize it. But there's this drop in our hearts.

1244
01:27:06.420 --> 01:27:10.940
Like, why aren't they complimenting me? Is there

1245
01:27:10.940 --> 01:27:14.940
something lacking in me? Did I not sing as good? Like, I don't

1246
01:27:14.940 --> 01:27:16.980
know if that's what you were hearing. But like, typically,

1247
01:27:17.660 --> 01:27:20.960
we'll start to kind of go and thankfully, I love that you said

1248
01:27:20.960 --> 01:27:23.600
that you're seeing this growth in yourself. And so I hope you

1249
01:27:23.600 --> 01:27:27.480
take time to really celebrate yourself tonight at some point,

1250
01:27:27.860 --> 01:27:32.400
maybe even right after you hang up. But like, we're genuinely

1251
01:27:32.400 --> 01:27:35.480
you all I believe in hugging ourselves. Actually, I haven't

1252
01:27:35.480 --> 01:27:37.960
even done it for a long time. So I might need to do that tonight

1253
01:27:37.960 --> 01:27:40.920
too. But literally where you just pause and like hug

1254
01:27:41.200 --> 01:27:45.120
yourself. And just say Connie, like you're doing great. You've

1255
01:27:45.120 --> 01:27:47.880
come so far look at how much you've grown in the last few

1256
01:27:48.040 --> 01:27:52.340
because you are recognizing and you didn't go as far down the

1257
01:27:52.340 --> 01:27:55.960
trail as it used to take you praise the Lord for that. But if

1258
01:27:55.960 --> 01:27:59.980
it's still there, there's probably still some root inside

1259
01:27:59.980 --> 01:28:07.900
of there, where you don't feel as seen when other people are

1260
01:28:07.900 --> 01:28:12.540
seen. Does that make sense? What I'm saying? Yeah. Okay. And so

1261
01:28:12.540 --> 01:28:17.100
just I want to encourage you to ask the Lord to reveal to you

1262
01:28:17.100 --> 01:28:23.160
is there any time where what I'm hearing in the spirit is

1263
01:28:23.160 --> 01:28:26.180
that where you felt like you were in the shadow of someone

1264
01:28:29.060 --> 01:28:32.260
else? Okay, that's what I heard specifically. So I don't know

1265
01:28:32.260 --> 01:28:35.080
what that will mean for you as you pray into that. But that's

1266
01:28:35.080 --> 01:28:37.420
what I heard. And so I just want to give that to you. And let's

1267
01:28:37.420 --> 01:28:40.720
just see where it leads you. Is there any time that you ever

1268
01:28:40.720 --> 01:28:44.420
Lord, when was the first time if if there was ever any, that I

1269
01:28:44.420 --> 01:28:48.460
felt like I was in the shadow of someone else, I wasn't as

1270
01:28:48.460 --> 01:28:52.220
good as them, or they were getting all the attention and I

1271
01:28:52.220 --> 01:28:57.520
wasn't. And so I felt like I wasn't seen, I wasn't heard, I

1272
01:28:57.520 --> 01:29:00.620
wasn't acknowledged, whatever. Again, it may not be any of

1273
01:29:00.620 --> 01:29:03.760
those things. But let's just see where that takes you. Okay. Is

1274
01:29:03.760 --> 01:29:05.940
anything coming up for you as I've been saying that?

1275
01:29:07.620 --> 01:29:12.060
I think a little bit with family, not not my immediate

1276
01:29:12.060 --> 01:29:16.740
family, but like extended family a little bit. I have two, I

1277
01:29:16.740 --> 01:29:24.360
have two older sisters. And I feel like growing up and even

1278
01:29:24.360 --> 01:29:29.480
even now full adulthood, there's still feels like there's

1279
01:29:29.480 --> 01:29:34.900
comparison happening there. And that, like, I'm the least one or

1280
01:29:36.000 --> 01:29:40.020
whatever. And it was more it felt like when I think back on

1281
01:29:40.890 --> 01:29:45.030
it felt more pronounced when I was a kid. And now I'm an adult

1282
01:29:45.030 --> 01:29:48.690
that I'm trying to hope believe that that's not really people's

1283
01:29:48.690 --> 01:29:53.410
intention, or that's the case. But yeah, it's still pops up.

1284
01:29:53.510 --> 01:29:55.430
And like things will happen that I'm like, Oh, see, it's

1285
01:29:55.430 --> 01:29:57.450
confirming it. But I don't want to believe that, you know, I

1286
01:29:57.450 --> 01:29:59.970
don't want to agree. Yeah. But the reality is our

1287
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:03.680
subconscious. Do you see how that what you just said is so

1288
01:30:03.680 --> 01:30:06.160
important, ladies, I want you all to kind of pay attention to

1289
01:30:05.980 --> 01:30:11.060
this. So when something happens, let's call it a triggering

1290
01:30:11.320 --> 01:30:17.460
moment. Your subconscious is diverting to, oh, see, that just

1291
01:30:17.660 --> 01:30:21.660
proves what I've already been telling you. Now you're getting

1292
01:30:21.680 --> 01:30:26.120
stronger, and you're starting to resist that. But that tells me

1293
01:30:26.120 --> 01:30:30.160
that in your subconscious somewhere, you you said, I'm the

1294
01:30:30.160 --> 01:30:33.620
least one somewhere in your subconscious, you believe that

1295
01:30:33.620 --> 01:30:39.500
you are less than someone else. Okay. And that's why your

1296
01:30:39.460 --> 01:30:44.400
initial, like initial, like those right to that, okay, the

1297
01:30:44.400 --> 01:30:48.180
more that you heal, your go to will actually become something

1298
01:30:48.180 --> 01:30:53.800
else. It will be like, I am I am valuable just as much as, as so

1299
01:30:53.800 --> 01:30:56.540
and so or, and it's not a comparison thing. It's just

1300
01:30:56.820 --> 01:31:01.620
really recognizing that each one of you, each one of us is

1301
01:31:01.980 --> 01:31:06.520
absolutely valuable, and so worthy of just being known and

1302
01:31:06.520 --> 01:31:09.240
existing in this world. Kind of like what I was saying earlier,

1303
01:31:09.460 --> 01:31:15.440
when God was creating us, he was like, yes. I just love thinking

1304
01:31:15.440 --> 01:31:18.200
about that even talking every time I do this session, and I

1305
01:31:18.370 --> 01:31:25.630
talk about that. It helps me heal more. So I hope it helps

1306
01:31:25.630 --> 01:31:28.210
you all heal more. And I would love for you to pray into that.

1307
01:31:28.330 --> 01:31:31.670
And let's just see kind of where the Lord leads you. Okay.

1308
01:31:32.510 --> 01:31:33.470
Will do. Thank you so much.

1309
01:31:33.710 --> 01:31:36.690
You're welcome. Thank you so much for sharing. And I think I

1310
01:31:36.690 --> 01:31:39.390
forgot to say thank you to Shakira if I didn't say that

1311
01:31:40.230 --> 01:31:43.490
already. Roseanne Korgel. Did I say your last name right?

1312
01:31:46.610 --> 01:31:49.090
Yes. Awesome. Go ahead.

1313
01:31:49.630 --> 01:31:54.650
So what I shared in the breakout group was that the what the

1314
01:31:54.650 --> 01:31:58.010
enemy uses to try to come against my identity or challenge

1315
01:31:58.010 --> 01:32:06.350
my identity as comparison. And the lie that he says in me, and

1316
01:32:06.350 --> 01:32:10.630
I'm realizing more and more how far back this goes in my life is

1317
01:32:10.630 --> 01:32:18.570
that I'm not enough. And, you know, like, being single, I'm

1318
01:32:18.570 --> 01:32:21.970
not pretty enough. I'm not, you know, smart enough. I don't, I'm

1319
01:32:22.110 --> 01:32:26.050
not gregarious or outgoing enough. I'm not popular enough,

1320
01:32:26.070 --> 01:32:31.550
all those things. And even last week at work, something

1321
01:32:31.550 --> 01:32:36.290
happened. And I was out for the week of Thanksgiving, and there

1322
01:32:36.290 --> 01:32:39.790
were some changes that were made and responsibilities that I had

1323
01:32:39.790 --> 01:32:45.650
been responsible for got shifted. And there was an email

1324
01:32:45.650 --> 01:32:49.550
that was sent to more than me that my name was mentioned in

1325
01:32:49.770 --> 01:32:54.950
being needing improvement in an area. And it kind of grabbed

1326
01:32:54.950 --> 01:33:00.270
onto that, you know, I'm not enough. And so I was cycling

1327
01:33:00.270 --> 01:33:05.590
through my thoughts all weekend about it and trying to, you

1328
01:33:05.590 --> 01:33:08.870
know, really, I was like trying to figure out a good comeback

1329
01:33:09.450 --> 01:33:14.930
to my, to my boss. And I listened to a teaching of a man

1330
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and he was talking about as believers, if we're, you know,

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01:33:18.650 --> 01:33:22.950
that we can be unoffendable. Yeah, if we're walking in, you

1332
01:33:22.950 --> 01:33:26.750
know, maturity and love, then we can become unoffendable. And so

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I was like, Okay, God, I can't, I can't stay in this. And so I

1334
01:33:30.230 --> 01:33:34.710
was able to forgive my boss and you know, some of my other

1335
01:33:34.710 --> 01:33:37.750
people that were involved, and kind of got through that. But

1336
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what I shared with Anna is what I as I've been thinking about,

1337
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you know, why do I get into that place so often is that I have a

1338
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sister that's 18 months older than me. And so we kind of grew

1339
01:33:52.550 --> 01:33:59.450
up together. And my mom, a lot of times we, we were involved in

1340
01:33:59.450 --> 01:34:03.270
a lot of the same things. My mom was sewed our clothes. And so

1341
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we were dressed alike, same outfit, different fabrics. And

1342
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so I realized that I grew up not it wasn't intended, I don't

1343
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think. But I grew up in that atmosphere where it was easy to

1344
01:34:18.610 --> 01:34:22.930
fall into comparison. And I've done some, you know, a couple

1345
01:34:22.930 --> 01:34:27.990
years ago, I really was really praying through this how long

1346
01:34:27.990 --> 01:34:31.950
I've been trying to work on it, praying through it and realizing

1347
01:34:31.950 --> 01:34:35.390
that the roots of it, I think, go all the way back to the

1348
01:34:35.390 --> 01:34:40.310
garden when the enemy said to Eve, you can be like God, like

1349
01:34:41.030 --> 01:34:44.170
drawing her into that game of comparison, comparing herself

1350
01:34:44.170 --> 01:34:48.370
with God. So anyway, that's what I share.

1351
01:34:49.210 --> 01:34:51.550
It's really, really good. And there's some really important

1352
01:34:51.550 --> 01:34:54.650
things that you're mentioning in here. I want to pose a question

1353
01:34:54.650 --> 01:34:58.850
to you. You handled that really, really well, by the way, way to

1354
01:34:58.850 --> 01:34:59.710
go on forgiving.

1355
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:05.000
keeping short accounts. Remember that offense is an opportunity for an upgrade.

1356
01:35:06.940 --> 01:35:13.200
So yes, being unoffendable is a sign of maturity, but it is also these moments where God can teach

1357
01:35:13.200 --> 01:35:19.120
us so much about ourselves as well as Him and other people. But this is my question for you.

1358
01:35:20.640 --> 01:35:26.220
Why does needing improvement mean that you're not enough?

1359
01:35:31.680 --> 01:35:37.340
And we ought to think about that. If that was you getting that message, again, yes,

1360
01:35:37.340 --> 01:35:40.960
she's getting triggered because of the core wounds that are going on in her heart,

1361
01:35:41.080 --> 01:35:46.120
but I want you all to see something in this. We receive, again, we're receiving everything

1362
01:35:46.120 --> 01:35:51.220
through these filters and these blind spots, and so that's why it's hurting us when we hear it.

1363
01:35:51.220 --> 01:36:00.460
But the reality is that all of us need improvement. We all do. Hopefully we're

1364
01:36:00.460 --> 01:36:06.100
growing every day by day by day. The thing that hurts is that someone else is telling us

1365
01:36:06.100 --> 01:36:11.760
that we need improvement. And in that case, they said it in an email and other people were copied.

1366
01:36:12.000 --> 01:36:17.100
And so there's this shame aspect, I think, that's probably come into play here.

1367
01:36:17.700 --> 01:36:23.140
And so I want you just to be thinking about kind of what I'm saying.

1368
01:36:24.520 --> 01:36:28.220
Even though I think his approach could have been different 100%,

1369
01:36:33.520 --> 01:36:40.440
I know in most companies, every single year we get a performance review and they tell us things

1370
01:36:40.440 --> 01:36:45.660
that we did great. They tell us areas that they think we can improve and all the things.

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01:36:47.280 --> 01:36:52.180
I have even had moments where they would say things I needed to improve, but man,

1372
01:36:52.180 --> 01:36:55.920
I would work my guts out. And so I'd think like, why aren't we focusing more on that?

1373
01:36:57.180 --> 01:37:02.940
But inside of that needing improvement, there was something that caused me to not focus on

1374
01:37:02.940 --> 01:37:11.560
all the positive things that they said. And I would hone in on the area that they said I wasn't

1375
01:37:11.560 --> 01:37:19.660
good enough. And that's basically kind of what I hear you saying. Okay. And so at the core,

1376
01:37:20.820 --> 01:37:24.740
it's because again, and you're already kind of on this path where you're understanding this,

1377
01:37:24.880 --> 01:37:31.840
but at the core, it's because we don't believe it's okay to make a mistake.

1378
01:37:33.060 --> 01:37:39.440
We don't believe it's okay to need to grow. Society kind of gives us this idea that people

1379
01:37:39.440 --> 01:37:44.420
have to have arrived, you know, and when we get a certain degree, we've arrived or,

1380
01:37:44.560 --> 01:37:49.380
you know, when we get married now we've arrived. So when we're single, we're less than,

1381
01:37:49.420 --> 01:37:53.060
I literally was just talking about this today regarding something else.

1382
01:37:53.820 --> 01:37:58.720
And I don't know if any of you on here will relate to me, but I, I have been a step-mom.

1383
01:37:59.160 --> 01:38:04.600
I've been a spiritual mom. And all that means to me, you all is my spiritual daughters. I dated

1384
01:38:04.600 --> 01:38:09.960
their dad for six years. I've loved them like they're mine. I never tried to become their mom.

1385
01:38:10.020 --> 01:38:15.340
I never, because they had a mom, but I absolutely have loved them with a mothering spirit and been

1386
01:38:15.340 --> 01:38:21.700
there and fought for them and still fight for them. Y'all I had Dylan, my stepson. He was just

1387
01:38:21.700 --> 01:38:28.220
a baby little tiny infant cared for him day in and day out. When he was with my at the time,

1388
01:38:28.380 --> 01:38:33.740
ex-husband at one point, his mom up and literally abandoned him and left and went to another state.

1389
01:38:33.740 --> 01:38:39.920
He was with us full time. I held him when he cried because his mom wasn't there. Y'all,

1390
01:38:39.980 --> 01:38:45.200
I absolutely have been a mom, but you cannot imagine how many times people tell me

1391
01:38:45.400 --> 01:38:50.900
when you have your own baby one day and you act like you become a mom, then you'll understand.

1392
01:38:52.860 --> 01:38:56.680
I mean, I literally cannot tell you. I had someone tell me the other day

1393
01:38:57.500 --> 01:39:01.460
and you all, I don't think that some of these people are trying to offend me,

1394
01:39:01.460 --> 01:39:09.700
but they're offending me. They said to me, you know, when you have your own biological baby,

1395
01:39:09.740 --> 01:39:14.160
you're just going to want to sit there and stare at them and because you're just going to love

1396
01:39:14.160 --> 01:39:19.540
them so much. Y'all, I'm not saying that's not true, but you know what that did to me?

1397
01:39:20.740 --> 01:39:29.100
It put me in this spot of what if, what if God chooses to have me adopt a kid? So what,

1398
01:39:29.100 --> 01:39:37.880
then I'm not going to want to stare at them and love them. Why is there this divide in our society

1399
01:39:38.740 --> 01:39:43.860
that causes people to say things that literally in my mind, here it is, y'all,

1400
01:39:44.300 --> 01:39:48.840
that I think is so stupid. I don't think they're stupid, but I think what they're saying is stupid

1401
01:39:50.860 --> 01:39:59.980
and it's infuriating because somewhere, somewhere along the way, somebody decides

1402
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:09.740
that if you don't have a bio baby, you cannot experience the bond that they experience.

1403
01:40:11.780 --> 01:40:19.980
Well, it's not good. Yeah. So I'm giving that to you because when they said that to me,

1404
01:40:20.960 --> 01:40:26.880
man, it wounded me deeply. And then it caused me to sit there and think about the fact like,

1405
01:40:26.880 --> 01:40:33.720
what? I believe God's going to do a miracle. I do. There's a lot of things God needs to work out,

1406
01:40:33.840 --> 01:40:39.120
but I sat there thinking to myself, what if that never happens for me?

1407
01:40:40.040 --> 01:40:45.920
So God, do I not get to experience this really amazing love bond that I'm hearing about?

1408
01:40:49.680 --> 01:40:55.020
So it automatically put me in a place where someone was saying I'm already lacking because

1409
01:40:55.020 --> 01:41:01.860
I'm not a bio mom. Do y'all hear what I'm saying? I know that she's talking about this

1410
01:41:01.860 --> 01:41:10.300
work scenario and how, when they said something, it led to her feeling like something was missing

1411
01:41:10.300 --> 01:41:17.400
in her because they said she needed improvement. This person was saying to me what they were

1412
01:41:17.400 --> 01:41:23.740
saying. I get it. I get it. I do think there's probably this amazing, all of you moms on here

1413
01:41:23.740 --> 01:41:29.820
that have had bio children, you probably know what she was talking about. But you know what

1414
01:41:29.840 --> 01:41:38.660
I believe? I believe God can give me a supernatural bond that is just like that. That's what I believe

1415
01:41:38.660 --> 01:41:45.740
because I have these amazing spiritual daughters that you all like, there's this bond with them

1416
01:41:45.740 --> 01:41:51.880
that is amazing and wonderful. And I'm so blessed that I get to have that. Now they weren't babies

1417
01:41:51.880 --> 01:41:59.580
when they came into my life, but I think it's all about what we perceive about a situation.

1418
01:42:00.820 --> 01:42:04.600
So I hope that that's helping all of you stretch a little bit tonight,

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01:42:05.080 --> 01:42:13.080
that you'll not let what other people say cause you to think that you're less than in some way.

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Hmm.

1421
01:42:16.500 --> 01:42:23.920
We can grow, we can stretch, we can go through difficulty and we can rise. Do you know what

1422
01:42:23.920 --> 01:42:29.800
I literally, this morning I sat and thought to myself, well, shoot, I think I have another book

1423
01:42:29.800 --> 01:42:36.540
idea. I literally had that thought because somebody needs to stand up for all the moms

1424
01:42:36.540 --> 01:42:43.660
that can't have bio kids. Somebody needs to be a voice for the foster moms and the,

1425
01:42:44.740 --> 01:42:48.160
Ooh, I feel the Holy spirit and the moms that adopt and the spiritual moms and the

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01:42:48.160 --> 01:42:55.220
grandmas that are taking care of their, their grandkids. And, and I am not minimizing bio moms

1427
01:42:56.900 --> 01:43:03.160
either. And this is where I kind of was going earlier. Why does one have to minimize the other?

1428
01:43:04.120 --> 01:43:08.720
If one woman is beautiful, can't the other one also be beautiful?

1429
01:43:10.760 --> 01:43:17.000
If one kind of mom can experience this really beautiful bond, can't another one also

1430
01:43:17.800 --> 01:43:22.020
experience that? I believe we should pray for that stuff.

1431
01:43:23.800 --> 01:43:29.100
We can rise and choose to not be offended. I love how you've handled this situation,

1432
01:43:29.100 --> 01:43:34.800
I think it's pretty amazing. And I pray that this, even just me talking about this stuff tonight

1433
01:43:34.880 --> 01:43:40.140
will stir in you more and more and more and help you get to the root of the matter in you,

1434
01:43:40.880 --> 01:43:49.240
that the place that the first time that you believed the lie, that you weren't enough.

1435
01:43:51.560 --> 01:43:55.120
And when you said the thing, one last thing I want to say, and I know I went long on that,

1436
01:43:55.120 --> 01:44:01.260
but I hope it really helps some people. As you were talking about your sister and how your mom

1437
01:44:01.260 --> 01:44:08.740
dressed you alike and all the things, I kind of got the sense of that you really struggled to

1438
01:44:08.740 --> 01:44:15.720
have your own identity on some level. And so what I want you to ask the Lord is I want you to ask

1439
01:44:15.720 --> 01:44:23.540
the Lord to help you really define your identity separate from your sister. Like who is Roseanne?

1440
01:44:23.540 --> 01:44:30.320
Again, who does God say you are, but not like through the eyes of who your sister is, who is

1441
01:44:31.280 --> 01:44:41.900
Roseanne separate from, I don't know your sister's name from your sister. Okay. Awesome. All right.

1442
01:44:42.740 --> 01:44:47.640
You're welcome. Thank you for sharing that with us. I know I went really long. I'm going to take

1443
01:44:47.640 --> 01:44:51.580
one more. I'm not going to be able to take all of you. We're already at nine 45. I apologize,

1444
01:44:52.040 --> 01:44:55.060
but you can either come next week and ask me your question,

1445
01:44:55.280 --> 01:44:59.620
or you can come into the group and give me your question. I'm going to actually have Rosanna.

1446
01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:03.700
share. I've never heard from her. And so I would love for her

1447
01:45:03.700 --> 01:45:06.080
to be able to have an opportunity to share tonight.

1448
01:45:08.540 --> 01:45:13.540
Hi, hi. How are you? Good. How are you? I am well. Thank you so

1449
01:45:13.400 --> 01:45:17.200
much. I've enjoyed listening to all of you. This has been really

1450
01:45:17.100 --> 01:45:21.540
good. The thing that I I struggle with as well as the

1451
01:45:21.640 --> 01:45:28.140
common denominator is comparison. I struggle with

1452
01:45:29.640 --> 01:45:32.360
comparison. I know this may sound so silly, but with

1453
01:45:33.200 --> 01:45:40.600
technology, I get very intimidated by it. And I, I am

1454
01:45:40.600 --> 01:45:44.160
a new teacher. And my friend is an experienced seasoned teacher

1455
01:45:44.160 --> 01:45:47.640
for 10 years. And she's like, Oh, let's make your meet the

1456
01:45:47.640 --> 01:45:50.340
teacher and all these things. She's like, how's all the stuff?

1457
01:45:50.340 --> 01:45:53.380
And I'm like, ah, like, I'm always intimidated by my

1458
01:45:53.380 --> 01:45:58.160
husband. I'm a widow. My husband was the technical one. He had

1459
01:45:58.160 --> 01:46:02.060
all this stuff. And I've always just my some of my cousins are

1460
01:46:02.060 --> 01:46:05.100
very good at it. My sister, one of them are very good at it. And

1461
01:46:05.100 --> 01:46:09.420
I just I get scared. And so I feel like I'm less than with

1462
01:46:09.420 --> 01:46:12.840
that. And then I think with what Roseanne was saying, I would

1463
01:46:12.840 --> 01:46:19.380
compare myself to other girls in school. And I think I'm the I'm

1464
01:46:19.380 --> 01:46:22.680
a daughter of immigrants. And so I was in a predominantly white

1465
01:46:22.680 --> 01:46:27.880
area, and there were not many Hispanic girls around. And so

1466
01:46:27.880 --> 01:46:31.780
when I see all the blonde hair, blue eyed girls, and the Disney

1467
01:46:32.200 --> 01:46:34.700
princesses, all these things, like I really tried to put

1468
01:46:34.700 --> 01:46:38.480
myself there. And I thought, oh, blonde hair, and I had brown

1469
01:46:38.580 --> 01:46:43.060
eyes, but the blonde hair or the all these other princesses that

1470
01:46:43.060 --> 01:46:48.500
didn't look like me, you know, I really, it really put me in type

1471
01:46:48.500 --> 01:46:52.580
of like, oh, I'm not I don't look like these princesses. And

1472
01:46:52.580 --> 01:46:57.600
so I think I still struggle with comparison of what other what

1473
01:46:57.640 --> 01:47:00.060
beauty looks like. And so I've been praying that the Lord will

1474
01:47:00.060 --> 01:47:03.760
help me to see I have been praying a lot. Show me how you

1475
01:47:03.760 --> 01:47:06.160
see me. And I know don't mean that actually in a physical

1476
01:47:06.200 --> 01:47:10.260
sense. But as I'm saying it out loud, I think I need to hear

1477
01:47:10.260 --> 01:47:14.300
that as well. Like what he sees in me as beautiful. Yes, outside,

1478
01:47:14.300 --> 01:47:19.640
but I really need to hear from the inside, what he sees. And so

1479
01:47:19.640 --> 01:47:23.580
like, I think I saw a couple women saying, the critics, yes,

1480
01:47:23.640 --> 01:47:26.480
Jasmine was one of them. She was one of the first ones that I was

1481
01:47:26.480 --> 01:47:30.240
like, Oh, and then I'm Colombian. I'm Colombian and

1482
01:47:30.240 --> 01:47:33.780
Italian. So when Encanto came out, I was like, and then Moana,

1483
01:47:34.160 --> 01:47:37.060
even though I'm not Polynesian. Yes, yeah, I'm seeing it. I know

1484
01:47:37.060 --> 01:47:41.360
that little girl. I'm 42. And I was like, Yes. Oh, my gosh. And

1485
01:47:41.360 --> 01:47:43.660
then Columbia, it's like, so random. Like, how do you?

1486
01:47:44.300 --> 01:47:46.780
Anyway, I don't know. I think you're just doing a little thing

1487
01:47:46.780 --> 01:47:53.020
for me and my sisters. No, brown girls. Hey, thank you. This is

1488
01:47:53.020 --> 01:47:56.160
super important conversation right now. And you know, I want

1489
01:47:56.160 --> 01:47:59.480
you to know, even as you're telling me that God has been

1490
01:47:59.720 --> 01:48:03.860
really showing me I put together curriculum for our Children's

1491
01:48:03.860 --> 01:48:07.200
Church and Toddlers Church. And I create these little visual

1492
01:48:07.320 --> 01:48:10.680
story images for the kids or like cards, cue cards that we're

1493
01:48:10.760 --> 01:48:14.300
teaching them stuff on. And one of the things that I have grown

1494
01:48:14.300 --> 01:48:17.980
a lot in, and I want to say that when I was younger minister, I

1495
01:48:17.980 --> 01:48:22.440
didn't always think about this stuff. And I really wish I had

1496
01:48:23.280 --> 01:48:26.640
sooner. But I'm very aware of the fact that we are a

1497
01:48:26.920 --> 01:48:30.560
multicultural church. And even if we weren't, I would probably

1498
01:48:30.560 --> 01:48:35.320
still do this. But I have, I have pictures of kids of all

1499
01:48:36.200 --> 01:48:41.280
and, you know, ethnicities. And I think it's so important. So I

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just want to say that as, as we're all here tonight, hearing

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01:48:44.580 --> 01:48:49.360
this conversation, I want to invite all of you to really

1502
01:48:49.360 --> 01:48:52.760
start to shift the way that you think and say, you know, things

1503
01:48:52.880 --> 01:48:57.340
and, you know, not excluding people of different ethnicities

1504
01:48:57.360 --> 01:49:01.400
in in your description of, of something, whatever that looks

1505
01:49:01.400 --> 01:49:04.080
like for you, maybe you don't teach a kids class, but maybe it

1506
01:49:04.300 --> 01:49:07.320
show up for you somehow in some way. And you'll remember what

1507
01:49:07.320 --> 01:49:11.140
I'm saying to you right now. But regarding you, Rosanna, a couple

1508
01:49:11.200 --> 01:49:16.620
things. First and foremost, when you started, you said this

1509
01:49:16.620 --> 01:49:21.180
might sound really silly. Okay. I want you to know it wasn't

1510
01:49:21.180 --> 01:49:25.840
silly at all. And I think it's really important for you to know

1511
01:49:25.840 --> 01:49:30.360
that what you're saying is important. Okay. And there are a

1512
01:49:30.360 --> 01:49:33.540
lot of people that struggle with technology. Okay, we can probably

1513
01:49:33.540 --> 01:49:36.360
have people even put it in the chat in here. Some of our ladies

1514
01:49:36.360 --> 01:49:39.820
have really had to press through as my Eloy is Eloy still on

1515
01:49:39.820 --> 01:49:43.160
here. She's had to fight, fight, fight to get through all the

1516
01:49:43.160 --> 01:49:46.160
tech issues. And she's doing great. But it took her a little

1517
01:49:46.160 --> 01:49:48.720
while to get there. And so I just want you to know that

1518
01:49:48.720 --> 01:49:54.060
you're not alone in that. Number two, you said, I'm so sorry, by

1519
01:49:54.060 --> 01:49:59.320
the way about your husband that passed away. And but you said he

1520
01:49:59.320 --> 01:49:59.920
was the

1521
01:50:00.000 --> 01:50:03.940
technical one. And so it sounds like you know, you've had these

1522
01:50:03.940 --> 01:50:07.500
people surrounding you that have these skills and abilities. And

1523
01:50:07.500 --> 01:50:10.560
that might not be your strength, but you have a lot of other

1524
01:50:10.540 --> 01:50:14.300
strengths. And so I don't want you to be embarrassed about this

1525
01:50:14.300 --> 01:50:19.400
area that you are struggling in. And we can all as I was talking

1526
01:50:19.400 --> 01:50:24.000
about to Rosie, and we can all grow. Okay, so maybe just what

1527
01:50:24.000 --> 01:50:27.080
is one skill that you can develop, you don't have to become

1528
01:50:27.080 --> 01:50:30.580
a pro at tech. Okay, I don't want you to put that expectation

1529
01:50:30.580 --> 01:50:35.120
on yourself unless you want to become one. But take one step to

1530
01:50:35.120 --> 01:50:40.200
grow in your confidence in this area. Okay? Because what I think

1531
01:50:40.400 --> 01:50:43.860
has happened is sometimes ladies, what will happen is when

1532
01:50:43.860 --> 01:50:48.220
we're struggling with something, we will just let the other

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01:50:48.220 --> 01:50:52.820
person take the lead in that thing. Don't we do that? And I'm

1534
01:50:52.820 --> 01:50:56.320
not saying that's not okay. But even my husband, I'm going to

1535
01:50:56.320 --> 01:51:00.420
tell on him. Nobody let him watch this replay. No, I'm

1536
01:51:00.100 --> 01:51:05.520
kidding. And when we first got married, one of our biggest

1537
01:51:05.520 --> 01:51:10.560
struggles was that he was not very good at cleaning. Like

1538
01:51:10.560 --> 01:51:15.260
anything you all and this was not something I knew before we

1539
01:51:15.260 --> 01:51:19.520
were already married and living together. And, and I'm not

1540
01:51:19.520 --> 01:51:23.640
saying this to be picky, but like little simple things like, I

1541
01:51:23.640 --> 01:51:27.680
would be like, don't you see that, like, messiness right

1542
01:51:27.520 --> 01:51:31.560
there? Like, just y'all not not diminishing him. But like, we

1543
01:51:31.560 --> 01:51:33.780
would literally have conversations and he would say,

1544
01:51:34.500 --> 01:51:37.820
you know, that's just not how it was when I grew up, you know, I

1545
01:51:37.820 --> 01:51:42.680
mean, and this is real stuff. And sometimes the clothes didn't

1546
01:51:42.680 --> 01:51:45.520
get washed, and he would have to dig through these clothes pile

1547
01:51:45.520 --> 01:51:48.840
that was shoved in a closet just to find a shirt to wear and it

1548
01:51:48.960 --> 01:51:54.200
clean. So I'm not, I'm not, I'm not mocking that. That's hard.

1549
01:51:55.040 --> 01:51:58.940
But what I am saying is he would kind of say, well, I'm just not

1550
01:51:58.940 --> 01:52:03.440
good at this. And I'll be like, well, I know, but like, I'm not

1551
01:52:03.440 --> 01:52:05.700
good at some other things. But I feel like I'm coming alongside

1552
01:52:05.700 --> 01:52:09.320
of you and being a team. So I need you to try to work at this

1553
01:52:09.320 --> 01:52:13.340
a little bit. And I, you know, I really worked on because his ex

1554
01:52:13.340 --> 01:52:15.940
wife used to be really mean to him, she would ask him to help

1555
01:52:15.940 --> 01:52:17.940
clean and then she would pick everything apart. And so I've

1556
01:52:17.940 --> 01:52:22.080
been very intentional to not do that. To just thank him for what

1557
01:52:22.080 --> 01:52:25.800
he cleans, even if you all sometimes it's not as clean as I

1558
01:52:25.800 --> 01:52:31.580
might do it. But not not just be thankful. But I'm saying that to

1559
01:52:31.580 --> 01:52:37.460
you to say this. He could have just continued in that path of

1560
01:52:37.460 --> 01:52:42.720
I'm not good at this. But he chose to take my little

1561
01:52:42.900 --> 01:52:46.820
challenge. And again, I wasn't being mean to him. I gave him

1562
01:52:46.820 --> 01:52:51.180
space to share. But I also gave him like that invitation to Hey,

1563
01:52:51.220 --> 01:52:55.560
like, I need help with this. I really could use your help. And

1564
01:52:55.560 --> 01:52:58.760
I know that you might feel insecure because of what you've

1565
01:52:58.760 --> 01:53:02.700
been through. But like, I'm not going to treat you the way she

1566
01:53:02.700 --> 01:53:08.160
treated you or whatever. And so really working at not being

1567
01:53:08.160 --> 01:53:13.020
behind the scenes of someone else. And and really owning kind

1568
01:53:13.020 --> 01:53:15.820
of where you're at the giving yourself grace to move forward

1569
01:53:15.820 --> 01:53:20.860
in that thing. So that's number one. Number two, well, that's

1570
01:53:20.860 --> 01:53:23.520
number two, because I mentioned about the silly thing. So I want

1571
01:53:23.520 --> 01:53:28.160
you to really be be paying attention, Rosanna, to how often

1572
01:53:28.160 --> 01:53:31.700
do you have thoughts like, oh, this is silly, because the

1573
01:53:31.700 --> 01:53:38.540
opposite of this is silly is, this is stupid. And sometimes we

1574
01:53:38.540 --> 01:53:42.860
say, well, this is, I know this is silly, but it's because we

1575
01:53:42.900 --> 01:53:47.660
internally actually don't know what people are going to think

1576
01:53:47.660 --> 01:53:53.260
about what we're about to say. So I would even ask you to

1577
01:53:53.920 --> 01:53:57.960
consider asking the Lord, was there any time that someone else

1578
01:53:57.960 --> 01:54:03.460
put you down? Because you weren't as techie as them? Or

1579
01:54:03.460 --> 01:54:08.400
because you had a harder time picking that up. And then the

1580
01:54:08.400 --> 01:54:12.460
last thing I felt led to mention is you said, in the

1581
01:54:12.460 --> 01:54:15.420
struggle of, and it's, and you know, I imagine, I mean, I've

1582
01:54:15.420 --> 01:54:18.340
not been through what you went through being an immigrant and

1583
01:54:18.340 --> 01:54:22.900
then being in a place where everyone was Caucasian and blonde

1584
01:54:22.900 --> 01:54:26.760
hair, blue eyes, and the whole stigma, and everything. But you

1585
01:54:26.760 --> 01:54:30.340
said this, that you've been asking the Lord, what does

1586
01:54:30.340 --> 01:54:34.580
beauty look like? And as soon as you said that multiple times, I

1587
01:54:34.580 --> 01:54:37.660
felt the Holy Spirit every time I heard what God was saying in

1588
01:54:37.660 --> 01:54:40.620
response to what you were saying. And this is what he told

1589
01:54:40.620 --> 01:54:47.360
me to tell you. Beauty looks like you. You're what beauty

1590
01:54:47.600 --> 01:54:52.380
looks like, Rosanna. So when you look in the mirror, I feel the

1591
01:54:52.380 --> 01:54:58.600
Holy Spirit again. I love it. When you look in the mirror, I

1592
01:54:58.600 --> 01:54:59.800
want you to start saying

1593
01:55:00.000 --> 01:55:03.060
I, Rosanna, am what beauty looks like.

1594
01:55:05.040 --> 01:55:05.800
You are beauty.

1595
01:55:06.960 --> 01:55:11.200
Y'all, this has been a core theme tonight, and I had no intention of going into this

1596
01:55:11.200 --> 01:55:11.620
place.

1597
01:55:12.500 --> 01:55:15.920
Yeah, you guys can, you guys can all do that.

1598
01:55:17.300 --> 01:55:21.760
Every time I coach, if I say something to someone else, you can grab that thing for

1599
01:55:21.760 --> 01:55:22.180
yourself.

1600
01:55:22.980 --> 01:55:25.440
I hope that you all are practicing that.

1601
01:55:26.000 --> 01:55:28.960
But God said that specifically to you tonight, Rosanna.

1602
01:55:31.620 --> 01:55:35.560
So anytime that question comes up for you in the future, I want you to know that God

1603
01:55:35.560 --> 01:55:39.220
is saying over you that you are what beauty looks like.

1604
01:55:41.240 --> 01:55:45.100
And the more that you receive that, the more that you're going to believe it, and you're

1605
01:55:45.100 --> 01:55:46.260
going to be able to walk in it.

1606
01:55:47.980 --> 01:55:51.600
And another woman's beauty is not going to diminish yours anymore.

1607
01:55:52.560 --> 01:55:56.320
And it's not going to make you question, well, what is beauty?

1608
01:55:56.700 --> 01:55:58.360
Because you're just going to know it's you.

1609
01:56:00.840 --> 01:56:05.960
And for those of you that don't think that about yourself at all, I really want to encourage

1610
01:56:06.280 --> 01:56:08.700
you to take on activation number three.

1611
01:56:08.800 --> 01:56:12.740
It's come up twice today, so I'm just going to, I'm going to, I can't go in and update

1612
01:56:12.740 --> 01:56:16.400
the post, but those that watch this replay or those that are here tonight can just hear

1613
01:56:16.400 --> 01:56:17.280
it and walk with it.

1614
01:56:18.440 --> 01:56:24.680
I call it the mirror activation, where you literally stand in front of the mirror and

1615
01:56:25.020 --> 01:56:31.680
you not just thank God for how he created you and all of that, but I want you to think

1616
01:56:32.200 --> 01:56:36.640
of the places of yourself that you actually don't like.

1617
01:56:36.980 --> 01:56:41.240
And some of you, hopefully, you're like, I feel great about myself.

1618
01:56:41.300 --> 01:56:45.880
Every way I've been created, I like my hair, I like my nose, I like my whatever.

1619
01:56:46.640 --> 01:56:48.960
And if that's where you're at, that is awesome.

1620
01:56:50.840 --> 01:56:54.920
I don't know many people that are in that place, but if you're there, I think that's

1621
01:56:54.840 --> 01:56:58.560
great. But this is what I want you to do.

1622
01:56:58.900 --> 01:57:02.120
If there are any parts of yourself that you typically put down.

1623
01:57:03.700 --> 01:57:09.240
My butt's too big, y'all, that's something I, if I gain weight anywhere, it's my thighs

1624
01:57:09.780 --> 01:57:15.780
and well, in my 46 year old years, my stomach, I don't know what is going on.

1625
01:57:16.480 --> 01:57:21.440
I feel like I sleep and don't eat and I something's going on there, I'm gaining weight

1626
01:57:21.440 --> 01:57:22.920
and I'm not even trying to.

1627
01:57:23.720 --> 01:57:25.940
I'm joking about it tonight, but it's real.

1628
01:57:25.940 --> 01:57:31.400
You all. I don't know, I've never been this heavy in my life.

1629
01:57:33.220 --> 01:57:37.420
Anyways, so imagine I don't love looking in the mirror right now.

1630
01:57:37.480 --> 01:57:41.840
I don't. I'm being transparent, but this is what we need to do.

1631
01:57:41.840 --> 01:57:43.900
And I'm going to remind myself this week as well.

1632
01:57:43.900 --> 01:57:45.920
I'm going to do this with you all.

1633
01:57:46.180 --> 01:57:49.580
You're going to stand in front of the mirror and you're going to see yourself.

1634
01:57:50.380 --> 01:57:55.200
Yep, even the parts that you don't like, and I want you to thank God for them.

1635
01:57:57.360 --> 01:58:00.220
I want you to thank God for the way that you are.

1636
01:58:04.900 --> 01:58:09.480
Now, I have some people that are like, you know, why don't you just let your hair go

1637
01:58:09.480 --> 01:58:14.920
natural? And I'm like, well, I got a gazillion grays and I don't want to see them.

1638
01:58:15.280 --> 01:58:16.920
So I'm not doing that.

1639
01:58:17.200 --> 01:58:18.480
And I'm not being you all.

1640
01:58:18.660 --> 01:58:20.140
I just don't want to look really old.

1641
01:58:21.760 --> 01:58:26.820
I like I like feeling young, I lost a lot of my childhood, so I'm not trying to I'm not

1642
01:58:26.820 --> 01:58:29.980
trying to look advanced in my age, I'm trying to look younger.

1643
01:58:31.860 --> 01:58:33.680
So praise the Lord for hair color.

1644
01:58:33.820 --> 01:58:34.840
I'm so grateful.

1645
01:58:37.060 --> 01:58:43.860
So I want you all to just really embrace who you are and really own that you are beauty,

1646
01:58:44.200 --> 01:58:48.000
that you represent the feminine heart of the father.

1647
01:58:48.960 --> 01:58:51.640
And he loves you immensely.

1648
01:58:53.360 --> 01:58:56.960
So I'm going to pray us out, Rosanna, thank you for sharing that with us.

1649
01:58:57.060 --> 01:58:58.160
We're praying for you.

1650
01:58:58.200 --> 01:59:03.580
I'm praying for all of you, for my two ladies, Bambi and Catherine.

1651
01:59:03.580 --> 01:59:05.220
I'm sorry I didn't get to tonight.

1652
01:59:06.160 --> 01:59:10.300
Please come and post in the group or like I said, we will be live again next week.

1653
01:59:10.480 --> 01:59:14.560
You can share them. And if you raise your hands next week, I'll have you go first.

1654
01:59:14.700 --> 01:59:16.380
OK, let me pray for us.

1655
01:59:16.380 --> 01:59:18.500
Father, thank you so much for just your goodness.

1656
01:59:18.860 --> 01:59:22.620
Thank you, Lord. Even in the coaching and the things that were coming up, so much came

1657
01:59:22.620 --> 01:59:24.860
up tonight that was never mentioned this afternoon.

1658
01:59:25.080 --> 01:59:29.360
God, because you are doing something specific for this group of ladies that are here

1659
01:59:29.360 --> 01:59:31.600
tonight. God, those that are going to watch the replay.

1660
01:59:32.200 --> 01:59:36.420
God, I pray that you would just continue to remove every lie and replace it with the

1661
01:59:36.420 --> 01:59:39.860
truth. God, I thank you for revealings, for healing that are going to continue to

1662
01:59:39.860 --> 01:59:43.300
happen. And God, I'm asking for acceleration in their healing.

1663
01:59:43.900 --> 01:59:47.760
God, I'm asking for supernatural empowerment, God, that you would come in and

1664
01:59:48.400 --> 01:59:50.160
shatter and break off every chain.

1665
01:59:50.700 --> 01:59:53.780
God, where some of them have felt like they're still going around the mountain or

1666
01:59:53.780 --> 01:59:58.540
they're having a hard time receiving revelation or receiving breakthrough.

1667
01:59:58.720 --> 01:59:59.980
God, I thank you that.

1668
02:00:00.000 --> 02:00:02.620
This week is gonna be a week of change, God,

1669
02:00:02.640 --> 02:00:04.960
that you're gonna continue to help them understand

1670
02:00:04.960 --> 02:00:07.320
the revelation of who you are as love.

1671
02:00:07.660 --> 02:00:09.000
God, I thank you that you'll help them

1672
02:00:09.000 --> 02:00:11.780
to become more and more rooted and grounded in your love,

1673
02:00:12.360 --> 02:00:14.580
God, and that they would hear fully and clearly,

1674
02:00:15.220 --> 02:00:17.720
God, who you say that they are.

1675
02:00:18.580 --> 02:00:20.900
Help them to not believe the lies of the enemy,

1676
02:00:21.060 --> 02:00:22.300
but to believe your truth.

1677
02:00:22.580 --> 02:00:24.420
In Jesus name, amen.

1678
02:00:24.600 --> 02:00:25.860
God bless you all.

1679
02:00:26.160 --> 02:00:28.280
We love you and we'll see you in the group, okay?

1680
02:00:28.620 --> 02:00:29.720
Have a good night, everyone.

1681
02:00:30.180 --> 02:00:30.700
Bye-bye.