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clear and free.

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Well, like, OK, so the enemy wants to get us all wound up,

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right? So that way you're reactive versus

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responsive. Right.

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So, you know, you have this tension and

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your tension is sitting there and.

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And you're feeling it and who knows what's going on in her world, right?

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So and like with love seeks the best, love thinks the best.

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So we have to think the best and not get wound up.

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And then when we get on the call, we need to be present and not

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a reactive state because we're upset because our minds been going.

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For a week, does that make sense?

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So like you need to get present, do some breathing work, like take some deep

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breaths and just chill, put on some worship music, whatever gets you

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to whatever gets you into your

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Zen state and you being you.

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So you are present.

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See what you know, the enemy doesn't want you to be present for that call and he

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wants to ruin it all. Right.

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And and I would say that I'd never been fallen victim

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to that, but I have. Right.

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And so I just, you know, just be yourself, do something, go run

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a lap, you know, do a mile and then come in.

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I didn't know what I did was see I do something

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called Liturgy of the Hours.

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I've been getting back into it.

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So it's a lot of scripture organized in a beautiful, prayerful way, a lot of Psalms

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and stuff. So I've been doing that.

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And that's really helped me really focus on God more.

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So yeah. So does that get you to you?

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Like whatever gets you to be you.

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Yeah. Right. Like so if that is what works.

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Awesome. I'm glad you found something.

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Everybody else, you guys, for me, it's going to the gym.

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I just want to clear my head. I'll go to the gym.

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I'll pump some pump, some some iron, do some things, do some stretching.

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And then all the cortisol goes away.

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Right. And then I'm a much better person to human to be, you know, just clear.

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So I'm proud of you, Andy.

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Yeah. It sounds like you have a plan.

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Just work it. So I saw David Dorman's in the house.

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I just but yeah, just don't let the enemy steal your joy.

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Love seeks the best.

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Love thinks the best.

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So she just may be super busy.

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She may be stressing because you're coming and trying to get everything ready.

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So it's perfect for you.

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And I think she mentioned that her mom has high blood pressure.

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And so she was like worrying about her mom.

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So, yeah. And so like to.

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Yeah. And usually it's not about us, but if it is, then we have to work on that.

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But if we're in the moment and not reacting.

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To be a much better place, right?

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If I'm cranky, Mike, because I've been ruminating on the wrong stuff,

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then she's going to come in and experience that great thing

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and then not want to be around for good reason.

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Right. So I just I've just seen it.

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Don't don't let the enemy tilt you.

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And Lord Jesus, I just thank you for Andy.

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And I pray for his this date or this call tonight, this trip.

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Would you just watch over it?

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Would you release angelic protection over him?

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Would you break off all fear, all anxiety, all foreboding?

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And we just release joy, happiness, peace and just

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shalom of all kinds that she just be surrounded

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shalom and everywhere he goes in Jesus name. Amen.

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All right. I'm going to hand it over to Mr.

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Dorman. I just love Andy and I'm proud of you.

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Thank you. Thanks, Mike.

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I really appreciate you working with Andy. That's awesome.

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Thank you so much for stepping in there. I love that.

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Hey, guys, good to see you tonight.

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Welcome. Welcome.

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It is our men's heart check in December 15th.

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Twenty twenty five. So

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good to see you all here and present sort of and accounted for that kind of thing.

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I just came back from the L.A. area.

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The only part I was in L.A. was really just the airport.

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I was really in Southern California for the last few days.

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And so I was enjoying that.

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Jackie and I are part of a business

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group, a kingdom business group.

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You may or may not have heard of. It's called Hundred X.

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And we've been a part of that for, I think, going on like more than six years now.

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And that's been very instrumental in helping us

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establish a lot of things in our business.

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It gives some directional things

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be a community and friendship.

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We're part of there's a sort of a subgroup

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of the Hundred X called Master's Mind.

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And so it's like a mastermind.

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Like if you anybody ever part of a like a business development group

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or mastermind or any kind of like, you know, yeah, I'm not surprised.

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Thomas, you're kind of you're that kind of guy.

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Anybody else? David Henshaw.

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And but you've heard.

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masterminds. And sometimes they're usually business think tank sort of things. Some of

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them can be really good. Some of them can be really terrible. Some of them, depending on

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their leadership, it's just nothing more than just a big trying to make connections and trying to

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make deals and trying to just really slimy kind of stuff. But this one is kingdom-oriented,

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faith-based, obviously, business and all things business, but all things ministry as well.

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And it's pretty cool. And Pedro, our esteemed colleague, he named it The Master's Mind. So we

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are endeavoring to seek the master and the mind of the master. So that's really what it's called.

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And we do a Christmas thing every year. And so that's why we're there for that. But

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it was really cool because we do usually a whole day of working and development and stuff. We'll

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share our wins. We'll share our tragedies. It's actually really cool because one thing that we

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did the last couple of years is we've gotten really, really vulnerable. And a lot of the

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have established businesses. And they all are businesses that are a million dollars or more

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type businesses. So it's an elite group of people. And they're all just profound, deep believers in

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Jesus. And all of them have incredible testimonies and stories and histories. And it's just really

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cool to be with this group of people. However, to look at all of us, you'd look at us and you'd go,

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like, these are just regular people. I mean, there's nobody flashy. There's nobody

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crazy outstanding in terms of just their appearance, if you would. And I say that to

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say that even though I'm involved in this group, and I'd give you some credibility of what it is,

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we have, over the last two years, become really, really vulnerable.

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And each one of us have shared deep, dark moments of our lives. We've got one couple that is being

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sued for millions of dollars. And their business is literally being stripped away from them

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bit by bit. We've got one young man who's in his 30s is a $40 million business,

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like an e-com business. And his business got cut in half this year just because the economy

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and so forth. When you're dealing with a $2,000 paycheck, or you're dealing with a $200,000

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paycheck, the only difference between that $2,000 and $200,000 is a couple of zeros.

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It may seem like a lot of money, but when you've got just as much going out as you got coming in,

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$200,000 is much different $2,000. You know what I'm saying? It's all about not the money you make,

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it is all about the money you keep. So very important to understand that.

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And we've got people that their marriages have been tested and tried. We have people that

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I mean, had to decide whether they're going to, how to

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manage, what's the next pivot they're going to make when their business goes south?

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I'm just trying to think of some examples. Anyway, it's just not all like a bunch of

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happy, just happy-go-lucky, we're all just doing, everybody's doing great.

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And it's been really profound. And we just had an incredible weekend of sharing together.

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And so it was kind of cool. We did serendipitously, we did a level of version

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of like, what do you want? And I put that question towards this group months ago.

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And then I just went to a leadership development, not a conference, but it's like a leadership

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development workshop, session, whatever you want to call it last weekend. And we did a,

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what do you want? And it was kind of one of those.

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intense things where you stand up in front of the group and the facilitator's in your face a little

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bit like, hey, what do you want? No, what do you want? Well, I want world peace. Okay, that's cool.

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World peace is awesome, but what do you want? It really was driving. That's a hard thing to do,

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especially standing up in front of a group of people that you know or don't know,

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depending on the level and the environment. That's a hard question to contend with.

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Then we did it again. It wasn't planned. It wasn't anything that we were like, we kind of

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just came across that question again in this group. What do you want? We all just went around

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the room just declaring, what do we want? We were talking about big dreams. We were talking about

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big visions. Our leader was talking about, look, if you have a business,

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how many have a business, their own business? Anybody? Jesse does.

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Hey, Jesse, good to see you, man. I'm glad you're here tonight.

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Well, believe it or not, if you don't think you have a business, what you do is your business.

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I maintain that. I think my opinion is that everybody has a business. If you have a career

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and you make money with a career, that's a business. You have to decide how you're going

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to show up. You got to decide how you're going to manage your time. You got to decide on what

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moves you're going to make within the political spectrum of the work environment that you live in.

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You got to decide on who you're going to make alliances with in your workplace

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so that you don't just show up for a job. You may be employed by somebody,

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and you may be getting a payday paycheck, but that is your business. How you manage that,

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obviously, it's pretty apparent. I'm sure all of you have worked or are working at a place right

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where some people are advancing, getting promotions above you. If you've been to any

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one working place at any length of time, you've seen movement within your company.

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Why do some people move and other people don't? Maybe you're one of those people that does move.

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Maybe you're one of those people that hasn't moved in some time and you're wondering,

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why does everybody seem to be moving but I'm not? My question to you is, it comes down to

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managing your business. That core question, what do you want, is super, super integral

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to asking yourself daily, weekly, monthly, what do you want for lunch? Okay, that's pretty simple.

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What do you want to accomplish today? What is on your list of things to accomplish today?

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What do you want to do this week? What does this week mean to you? What does this month mean to you

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in your business? Maybe you're in sales. Maybe there's a monthly quota type thing, whatever.

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That's easy to quantify, especially if it's given to you by your management. But even if you're not

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like a sales quota, achievement industry, having those metrics, having those goals,

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having those laid out in front of you, it's like, what do you want? Super, super powerful.

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And last week, we talked a lot about what is something that you feel like God is asking you

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to surrender? Because sometimes there's things in our life, sometimes there's activity in our life,

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sometimes it doesn't have to be like something super ugly and bad. Sometimes it's just

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stuff that's acting as a distraction to the things that you really, really want.

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And the wisdom there being, if you're allowing things in your life to be distractions

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against what you want, if you're not clear about what you want, if you're not clear about

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the direction where your life is going, what you want your life to be in the next month,

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six months, a year even, like this is a pivotal time in everyone's year. It's very culturally

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acceptable and appropriate for coming to the end of the year and closing the year out and reflecting

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on what happened this year, what changes happened this year, what were things that you had to live

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through and that you had to live down because some of the things weren't...

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not in your in your control. Maybe there was some other

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things that you're like, hey, bro, this happened to me and it

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was my fault and whatever. It's not really about whose fault it

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is, whether it's in your control or not in your control, it

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happened and it was real to you. Right? And you live through it,

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you had to manage whatever you had to manage to get through it.

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Maybe this was the greatest year of your life for whatever

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reason. So and then on the heels of that, we have the year

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in January. And that's always a cycle of like, okay, what's

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2026 going to be like and people set goals and people like

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open up gym memberships, and they try to go to the gym, and

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they're going to get fit this year and all this kind of stuff.

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And you know, and all the things that happen around the

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whole like, you know, new year, new you sort of thing. So this

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is the time of year where all of these questions and these

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introspective things are happening in a lot of people's

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lives. And I want you to really start taking that seriously,

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because, you know, I revealed to my to this group, I revealed

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to my master's mind earlier this year, I revealed to the

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leadership summit that I was at last weekend, and I reveal it

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again, to my master's mind, that there's just a lot of things I

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feel like that I'm half asking, in my life, I'm capable of

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doing more things, not for my own exaltation, or my own ego,

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but literally compared to what I am capable of doing, the only

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measure of success, if you want to do any kind of measuring is,

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what is it that God has given you to do? And how, how much are

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you walking and fulfilling that and taking that out? And of

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course, this is said, and dealt with all the measure of grace

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that goes along with it as well. I just prophetically uttered to

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a guy the other day, we were sharing going around the room.

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And we were reflecting. So Saturday was the workshop day

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that was all day like workshopping and sharing and

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like strategizing and doing lots a lot of planning, we've got

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some teaching and instruction. And then Sunday was sort of our

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celebration of Christmas and gathering together and

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fellowshipping and breaking bread and just having an

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incredible time of just even more like we we did worship and

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we did a bunch of stuff. And I that is kind of weird because

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Heidi and Roland Baker shows up to our mastermind at Pedro's

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house. And there's, you know, 20-25 of us in a living room

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with Heidi Roland Baker. And I'll get to that story a second

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that was like craziness on wheels. Anybody know who Heidi

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Baker is? I don't know if you know.

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Couple of you know who that is. She happens that that's her

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hometown, by the way, Newport Beach, that area, I didn't know

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that. And she actually when she's in the state, she's there

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in that region. And she happened to be in the States.

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She's a friend of Pedro's. And so he asked her to come by and

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just kind of share with us. And that was that was a whole

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another level of craziness. I'll share that in just a

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moment. But I literally prophesied to this guy, because

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he was like, we were kind of in a moment of like, we weren't

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talking about regrets necessarily, but there was a

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moment where we were sharing. And we were saying we felt like

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that there was things that God had, like, maybe like, put on

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our heart some time ago, like even like prophetic words, or

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like instructions, even or maybe like, um, inklings of ideas

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that maybe were put in our heart, that we had forgotten.

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Any of you have those kind of things like something that was

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maybe spoken over you or said to you, or maybe had you had a

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dream, or an idea of what it is that you want to be or could

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become or do something or go somewhere. And it never happened

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for whatever reason. Life got in the way, you know, time

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expired, whatever it was. Maybe it was like going to college.

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And that never happened. Maybe that was being in a field of

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expertise. And something changed that trajectory. All right.

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And then it's time has gone so far that some some people have

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even forgotten. Even what that was. And here was a guy who was

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testifying. He goes, Yeah, he goes, I really feel like the

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Lord years ago, was showing me something about China. Or excuse

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me, excuse me.

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something about Africa and that I was supposed to go

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and that I was going to be doing

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some pivotal things in Africa.

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And he goes, and I never did it.

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And I'm a young man and now he has like

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electrical contracting business and he does well

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and he's got money, he's got a good family,

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beautiful family, loves the Lord, does a lot of things,

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part of our master's mind, all that kind of stuff.

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He's like, and I forgot about that word,

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I forgot about that dream.

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And then I prophetically spoke up and I said, look,

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I said, I really feel like the Lord's

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really brought that to your attention

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because it's never too late.

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Now that may sound cliche and that may sound,

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but it was a moment in time where like,

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he was just like, yeah, you know,

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he was just saying it in a way that kind of sounded like

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that ship has sailed, you know, that time came and went.

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And I was just like, no man,

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it's like it's never too late.

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Matter of fact, sometimes as he was saying

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the words about going to Africa,

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I was thinking in my heart, man,

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there's no one more that I'd like to go with

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to a place like Africa than that guy

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and the friends in this room.

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Like five, 10 years ago,

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I wouldn't have known these people because I didn't.

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But now that I do know these people,

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I'm like, I'm willing to go to the mission field.

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Now you have to understand one thing about me.

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I like to travel, I like nice places,

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I like to do things, but I am not a missionary.

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I'm just not.

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Never thought of being a missionary,

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never was excited about being a missionary,

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never had any inkling to go to a third world country.

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I have no interest, none whatsoever.

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Call me whatever you want.

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I'm just being honest with you.

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Matter of fact, I'm to the point where I'm like,

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it's intimidating and it scares me to go to a third world

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because I don't wanna go to China

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and I don't wanna be like,

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I don't know what's gonna happen.

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I don't wanna go to India.

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I'm not interested in going to India.

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I'm not interested in going to these places

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that like, oh man, I feel the calling of the Lord

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to go to the nations and all that kind of stuff.

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I'm like, somebody's gotta stay home, right?

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And that's me, I raised my hand for that one.

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And so here I am encouraging this guy

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that like, it's never too late.

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And at the same time, I mentioned this thing about like,

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me not like this, how unusual this is for me

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because I'm not interested in going to those places.

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And then somebody else in the room was like,

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yeah, actually, as soon as you said China,

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I said, I actually heard something on that for you.

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I'm like, me?

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He goes, yeah, I think there's something on China for you.

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And I'm like, oh Lord Jesus.

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Here I am getting myself mixed up into some stuff

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that I'm not sure I really wanna be mixed up in.

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Now, I'm just being honest with you guys.

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I'm being transparent with you.

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And what I'm asking you guys to do

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is to be honest with yourselves

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and transparent with this group of people

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because there's some guys that in my master's mind,

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like, they're like, man,

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I would love to come talk to your guys.

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I'd like to come talk to you men.

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I'd love to come and like, I wanna help you.

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And I'm like, yeah, they want your help.

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They need your help.

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These are a great group of guys.

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These are a bunch of amazing, talented,

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incredibly devoted, Jesus-loving men

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who are obviously not perfect, right?

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But it has nothing to do with perfection

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because I'm only saying that

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because the inner dialogue, I think,

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with most men especially is kinda like,

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yeah, well, I'm not that great.

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I'm not that special.

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I'm not that whatever.

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And it's all about that identity piece.

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And so I'm just saying that for,

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I'm kinda like, yeah, I get it.

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But as you know,

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we don't really focus on that here in this group.

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We don't focus on your inconsistencies.

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We don't focus on your insecurities.

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We don't focus on your shortcomings.

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We focus on identity, focus on what you want.

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We focus on your wins.

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We focus on your successes.

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We focus on trying to get to the next set of downs, right?

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That's what we're focused on here in this group.

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And that's what we should be focused on.

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We can wallow and complain

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and share all of our downs and outs all we want to,

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but none of that is going to really change

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the trajectory of our life.

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Now, I'm not saying that we're not honest

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and we're not real because we are that as well.

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But I just want you to be encouraged to know that it's not just showing up to Monday nights

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here that I think about you guys, or that I'm talking about you guys.

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I'm talking about you, I'm thinking about you.

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I've got people that want to rally around this group, this community, that have a passion

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and had an energy and have a desire to connect.

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Because people ask us, what do you do?

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Obviously in this master's mind, everybody knows what me and Jackie do for business and

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what we do for our ministry.

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But a lot of people don't, and we're always introducing that.

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We're always like, what do you do?

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What do you guys do?

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Meet people on a plane, meet people traveling, meet new people, and they're like, what do

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you do?

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And everybody's always interested in the whole last year single and the singles thing and

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the love and the relationship.

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Like, wow, that must be amazing.

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What's that like?

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And da, da, da, da, da.

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And always the question comes up is, do you have something for men?

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And I'm like, yes, we do.

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It's not big, it's not huge, because men and women react differently in an online situation.

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They just are.

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The genders are just different.

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You know, women flock to come and share all their stuff and like talk about all their

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inner healing and talk about their feelings and all that kind of stuff.

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Men?

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Eh, not so much.

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But you guys are faithful.

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You guys are men that are working on yourselves.

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You guys are men that are putting forth the effort towards growth, towards development,

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towards what's next, what's the better thing.

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You guys are showing up and your passion for the things of the Lord.

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That is a huge differentiator.

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And that stands out because every time I'm like, yeah, man, you got to see the guys that,

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you know, I'm able to talk to almost every Monday night.

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Like they're incredible individuals, incredible people, you know, and some of them I tell

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your stories, stories of your wins and all kinds of stuff.

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And it's an awesome thing.

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So I'm saying that to encourage you, I'm saying that to tell you this as well.

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My coming to myself, because I was just kind of recounting this to one of my fellow mastermind

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people the last night we were there.

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And he was like, he goes, yeah, it seems like you've kind of come alive more like in this

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group, like you've become stepped into more of an authority and kind of like been contributing

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more and stuff.

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Because that's a really good thing.

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I feel like I'm like the little junior kid in this group, right?

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I feel like everybody in this group is like infinitely more successful.

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I feel like I'm like the kid that's like, I'm just, I'm very scraped by to even be here.

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And so he was just encouraging me.

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And he says, you know, what happened?

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I said, well, what happened was, is I really feel like the Lord's been leading me.

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Like I can go back all the way to like years ago when I lost my identity because I lost

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my ministry vocational thing.

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And I had a huge, big, like, like paradigm shift of what ministry looks like and all

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that kind of stuff.

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And then I'm trying to blend my family, trying to figure out who I am for 10 years.

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And then we start this business and that's been going great, but I'm still kind of taking

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the back seat in a lot of ways and just kind of like doing kind of like what I can do kind

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of really good, but kind of like halfway there's like, but there's more, but there's more.

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And everybody I talk to and every time I'm in a leadership thing, people will set, pull

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me aside and they'd be like, I feel like there's more for you.

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I feel like the Lord's like highlighting you.

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I feel like there's like, there's more happening with you.

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I feel like there's, there's this, this, and there's that.

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And a couple of years ago I was like stiff arming all that because like, I don't want it.

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I don't, I don't want, I'm good.

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I don't want to do more.

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I'm okay.

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Like my wife's great and she does the things she does and it's awesome.

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And I'm helping her.

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I've been there, done that.

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And like, I always thought that doing more at this season of my life for me was just

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me being leaning into ego, leaning into accomplishment.

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And I'm just not, I'll be honest with you.

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I'm just not a very ambitious person.

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I'm just not, I'm not one of those guys out there trying to like, Oh, I got to do this

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and I got to make a million dollars and I got to do, you know, all these things.

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And I got to like have all these people.

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That's why I don't have a big church.

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I don't have an ego that drives me to like minister to thousands, you know, and have it credited to,

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you know, what God has done through me, blah, blah, blah, blah. That's not me.

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And so I'm reluctant thinking that's about ego. But God starts tapping me on the shoulder about

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a year and a half ago, earlier this year, maybe end of last year, 2024. It's like, hey, man,

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like I don't need you to be more than what you, to be the most of what you can be because of you

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for your sake. I actually need you to be who you're called to be to 100% for other people.

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I have a mission for you. I have purpose for you. This isn't about you. This isn't about,

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you know, you just trying to make it through your life, make it to heaven.

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This isn't about you just trying to struggle with, you know, whether you're egotistical or not.

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I'm like, oh, okay. So he starts getting my attention that way. It's just like, I have need

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of you. And I'm saying that to each one of you men in this group, I've said it before,

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the Lord in this world, the culture, your work environment, your family,

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your family that is to be has need of you.

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You are needed. And whether you, and here's the other thing.

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Some men and some women in our master's mind have really been tested

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this year as well. Not the least of which is kind of like, okay, you know, business and this

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and that, and things didn't go perfect and all that kind of stuff. No, no, no. I'm talking about

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00:32:02.740 --> 00:32:11.340
tested in their beliefs, tested in their morality, tested in their faithfulness,

459
00:32:11.340 --> 00:32:20.100
tested in their commitment, tested in their allegiance, tested.

460
00:32:21.700 --> 00:32:28.060
Some of you probably have felt like in the last year or season or whatever it is that you're

461
00:32:29.020 --> 00:32:37.600
not doing well, not understanding that you literally are just being tested.

462
00:32:38.960 --> 00:32:44.240
It's not about there's something wrong with you. It's not about that, you know,

463
00:32:44.240 --> 00:32:51.360
you're just not worthy. There's a season of testing, trying.

464
00:32:53.480 --> 00:33:00.360
I'm not saying the Lord's bringing bad things to you, but I will say that he watches what you do

465
00:33:00.360 --> 00:33:09.940
with the circumstances of your life and sees, hey, I'm testing you, but I'm testing you in love,

466
00:33:10.180 --> 00:33:17.880
not in condemnation. I'm testing your convictions. I'm testing because I want you to be

467
00:33:18.820 --> 00:33:28.000
tried in fire, like metal is, to be hardened, to be used in a productive way.

468
00:33:28.920 --> 00:33:34.320
If you felt like you have been failing, if you feel like you have been not doing well

469
00:33:35.940 --> 00:33:42.620
emotionally, spiritually, morally, whatever it was, bro, you're just being tested. That's all it is.

470
00:33:43.800 --> 00:33:46.540
It's not about like, oh,

471
00:33:48.240 --> 00:33:53.900
you know, I'm not worthy. Of course you're not worthy. That's what Jesus did for you.

472
00:33:55.220 --> 00:34:00.340
Of course you're not worthy. Jesus did what he did to make you worthy,

473
00:34:01.640 --> 00:34:05.040
not because of anything you did, not because of anything you accomplished,

474
00:34:05.280 --> 00:34:15.139
not because of any sin that you put off or whatever. Your worthiness is not tied to you.

475
00:34:15.219 --> 00:34:21.040
Your worthiness is tied to what Jesus did. Therefore, anything that you've been enduring,

476
00:34:22.880 --> 00:34:31.260
that's hardship, is meant to fashion you into the better and greater version of yourself.

477
00:34:31.960 --> 00:34:39.020
And it is okay. It is normal. As a matter of fact, if you weren't being tested, I would question

478
00:34:41.380 --> 00:34:51.020
what's going on with you. Because lots of times the testing is an indication that something is

479
00:34:51.020 --> 00:34:59.180
happening, that something's changing, that the molecular structure of you is being evolved.

480
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:03.820
and transformed into who God wants you to be.

481
00:35:06.020 --> 00:35:07.100
That's powerful.

482
00:35:08.520 --> 00:35:09.940
That is masculine.

483
00:35:12.500 --> 00:35:17.000
That is easily understood when you accept the truth of that

484
00:35:17.000 --> 00:35:19.140
and you get the attention off of yourself

485
00:35:20.200 --> 00:35:23.060
and you get the attention off of, hey, I need you.

486
00:35:24.240 --> 00:35:25.600
I need you to stand up.

487
00:35:25.680 --> 00:35:27.120
I need you to say yes.

488
00:35:27.120 --> 00:35:29.840
I need you to say no to the things

489
00:35:29.840 --> 00:35:31.400
that you're supposed to say no to.

490
00:35:32.080 --> 00:35:33.380
I need you to do better than that.

491
00:35:33.420 --> 00:35:35.600
I need you to, are you gonna do it perfectly?

492
00:35:35.880 --> 00:35:39.740
No, but I need you to excel.

493
00:35:41.100 --> 00:35:43.180
I need you to push forward.

494
00:35:45.140 --> 00:35:47.020
Maybe it's just showing up on time.

495
00:35:48.440 --> 00:35:51.580
Maybe it's doing something with your health.

496
00:35:52.540 --> 00:35:57.720
Maybe it's doing better job at the work that you do.

497
00:35:59.340 --> 00:36:02.040
Maybe it's simply just taking yourself seriously enough

498
00:36:02.040 --> 00:36:03.760
to go, man, I matter.

499
00:36:03.880 --> 00:36:06.760
And what I say and what I do affects people

500
00:36:07.300 --> 00:36:10.400
because God's called me to say this.

501
00:36:11.280 --> 00:36:12.340
God's called me to do this.

502
00:36:13.480 --> 00:36:20.280
God's called me to be in this place, you know?

503
00:36:22.760 --> 00:36:25.940
Proximity, where you live and where you're at matters.

504
00:36:26.660 --> 00:36:27.760
What you do matters.

505
00:36:28.440 --> 00:36:29.780
Who you're around matters.

506
00:36:32.920 --> 00:36:35.460
And so I'm saying all of this,

507
00:36:36.420 --> 00:36:38.560
not with any amount of condemnation whatsoever,

508
00:36:39.280 --> 00:36:41.460
because there is no condemnation

509
00:36:41.460 --> 00:36:42.520
for those who are in Christ.

510
00:36:42.640 --> 00:36:46.240
There's only uplift and inspiration,

511
00:36:47.820 --> 00:36:50.340
convincing by power of Holy Spirit

512
00:36:50.940 --> 00:36:54.400
that you are more than what you think you are.

513
00:36:54.840 --> 00:36:58.200
You are more than who you perceive yourself to be.

514
00:36:59.040 --> 00:37:03.860
There's more to you than what you sort of

515
00:37:03.860 --> 00:37:06.400
kind of experience on a daily basis.

516
00:37:08.340 --> 00:37:11.920
And so I hope to just inspire you tonight.

517
00:37:12.180 --> 00:37:17.260
I hope to increase your faith tonight

518
00:37:17.260 --> 00:37:18.160
that said, you know what?

519
00:37:18.160 --> 00:37:19.240
I can do it.

520
00:37:19.860 --> 00:37:23.920
I can accept what God's trying to do in me.

521
00:37:25.720 --> 00:37:27.940
And instead of looking at like your shortcomings

522
00:37:29.180 --> 00:37:32.760
as a polar opposite to what God wants you to do,

523
00:37:33.740 --> 00:37:34.840
that's just the devil.

524
00:37:35.700 --> 00:37:38.160
That's the enemy trying to get you to understand that,

525
00:37:39.020 --> 00:37:41.040
oh, your shortcomings overshadow

526
00:37:41.300 --> 00:37:42.980
what God's trying to do in your life.

527
00:37:43.160 --> 00:37:45.600
If you would just let God do what he wants in your life,

528
00:37:45.720 --> 00:37:46.880
these shortcomings would go away.

529
00:37:47.880 --> 00:37:51.280
Well, to be honest with you, they go hand in hand.

530
00:37:53.080 --> 00:37:55.060
The shortcomings and what God's doing in your life

531
00:37:55.060 --> 00:37:55.800
go hand in hand.

532
00:37:56.380 --> 00:37:59.360
It's not about failure, it's about progress.

533
00:38:00.280 --> 00:38:02.120
I said it several weeks ago,

534
00:38:03.020 --> 00:38:06.820
if you can sit in the most darkest, worst,

535
00:38:07.680 --> 00:38:09.440
sinful moment of your life

536
00:38:10.340 --> 00:38:13.620
and actually have a conversation with God in that moment,

537
00:38:13.960 --> 00:38:16.220
not aside from it or not the next day,

538
00:38:16.220 --> 00:38:18.860
but in the moment, like while it's going on,

539
00:38:19.180 --> 00:38:21.340
and you can actually have an honest conversation with God,

540
00:38:21.460 --> 00:38:22.740
you're actually getting somewhere.

541
00:38:26.220 --> 00:38:32.700
Those guys that are doing this and feeling bad

542
00:38:32.740 --> 00:38:34.820
and then like come out of that and be like,

543
00:38:35.160 --> 00:38:37.460
oh, I gotta like clean myself up

544
00:38:37.460 --> 00:38:39.080
and then I'm gonna go talk to God

545
00:38:39.080 --> 00:38:44.000
and then I'm gonna go do God's work, that's false.

546
00:38:46.220 --> 00:38:47.380
That's a lie.

547
00:38:49.000 --> 00:38:51.740
God is a both and kind of God.

548
00:38:54.080 --> 00:38:57.360
He's not an either or kind of God, he's a both and.

549
00:38:59.220 --> 00:39:00.640
Ecclesiastes tells us that.

550
00:39:05.460 --> 00:39:06.320
Ecclesiastes talks about,

551
00:39:09.240 --> 00:39:10.720
it actually says this word,

552
00:39:10.880 --> 00:39:13.340
it's good to grasp the one and not let go of the other.

553
00:39:15.160 --> 00:39:17.740
You can seek that out as Ecclesiastes 7, 18,

554
00:39:17.860 --> 00:39:21.120
you can get a little bit more idea of that.

555
00:39:21.560 --> 00:39:24.820
Mercy and justice, to act justly and to love mercy

556
00:39:24.820 --> 00:39:26.380
and to walk humbly with your God.

557
00:39:27.260 --> 00:39:28.540
Lots of times justice and mercy,

558
00:39:28.680 --> 00:39:30.520
they don't seem like they're the same thing.

559
00:39:31.240 --> 00:39:35.660
But in scripture or in biblical precedent,

560
00:39:36.080 --> 00:39:37.240
mercy and justice, they go together.

561
00:39:38.520 --> 00:39:39.940
They kind of seem opposite.

562
00:39:40.860 --> 00:39:42.620
In Corinthians, the scripture says,

563
00:39:42.920 --> 00:39:45.620
my power is made perfect in weakness.

564
00:39:45.900 --> 00:39:48.420
What do power and weakness have to do with each other?

565
00:39:50.500 --> 00:39:53.160
You can be at your weakest moment

566
00:39:54.060 --> 00:39:57.880
and yet be in full power because of what Jesus did.

567
00:39:59.260 --> 00:39:59.940
I've known.

568
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:02.960
people that have been totally high and strung out on drugs

569
00:40:03.640 --> 00:40:05.960
and literally have an encounter with Holy Spirit.

570
00:40:06.020 --> 00:40:07.340
You're like, oh, how can that be?

571
00:40:07.480 --> 00:40:08.000
That's not holy.

572
00:40:08.400 --> 00:40:09.580
Well, of course it's not holy.

573
00:40:09.800 --> 00:40:11.420
It actually is kind of holy.

574
00:40:13.440 --> 00:40:15.820
It's not holy in a religious context,

575
00:40:17.300 --> 00:40:20.920
but it is holy because of the reality of that situation.

576
00:40:27.260 --> 00:40:34.440
Anyway, there's a lot of other truth scriptures

577
00:40:34.900 --> 00:40:38.780
talking about the both and of God.

578
00:40:38.780 --> 00:40:43.520
So I will tell you, if you don't know who Heidi and Roland Baker are,

579
00:40:44.960 --> 00:40:49.480
they are missionaries to Mozambique, Africa.

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00:40:50.340 --> 00:40:53.680
Mozambique, years ago, short story, I don't know their whole story,

581
00:40:53.740 --> 00:40:55.000
but I've heard about them for years,

582
00:40:55.040 --> 00:40:58.520
but I'm not really familiar with their whole personal stories.

583
00:40:59.740 --> 00:41:05.340
But they responded to the call of Lord years ago

584
00:41:06.060 --> 00:41:09.560
to go to the poorest nation on earth.

585
00:41:10.040 --> 00:41:12.840
Not the second poorest, not almost poor,

586
00:41:13.580 --> 00:41:16.900
literally the poorest nation in the world.

587
00:41:17.720 --> 00:41:22.400
And they began ministry, this is some odd 20, 25 years ago now.

588
00:41:23.060 --> 00:41:27.000
They have since then seen, I don't know how many dead raisings,

589
00:41:27.160 --> 00:41:30.320
I don't know how many healings, I don't know how many miracles,

590
00:41:30.860 --> 00:41:33.040
I don't know, they have been stoned.

591
00:41:33.760 --> 00:41:36.700
I don't mean like threatened to be stoned.

592
00:41:36.900 --> 00:41:41.000
I mean, literally stoned by Islamist extremists

593
00:41:41.080 --> 00:41:44.280
that are in the Muslim country, they're in that country.

594
00:41:45.220 --> 00:41:51.980
They have been left for dead out in the dark in the bush of Mozambique.

595
00:41:53.160 --> 00:41:55.520
They have built schools in villages,

596
00:41:55.780 --> 00:41:58.540
countless villages have schools because of their work.

597
00:41:59.000 --> 00:42:00.500
They own land in Mozambique.

598
00:42:00.900 --> 00:42:02.540
They actually have citizenship there.

599
00:42:02.800 --> 00:42:08.000
They actually fully adopt people, children into their care.

600
00:42:08.400 --> 00:42:10.900
And they have a whole ministry to do this in Mozambique.

601
00:42:11.860 --> 00:42:16.120
The whole ministry is predicated on pure love.

602
00:42:17.400 --> 00:42:20.800
Like just literally like love is the only thing.

603
00:42:21.420 --> 00:42:23.780
Like, let me hug you, let me embrace you,

604
00:42:23.860 --> 00:42:27.300
and let this love, love, whatever's there,

605
00:42:27.520 --> 00:42:28.720
let me love it out of you.

606
00:42:30.500 --> 00:42:32.920
And I just heard a piece of music,

607
00:42:32.960 --> 00:42:36.340
they played a piece of music on a YouTube video.

608
00:42:36.620 --> 00:42:39.420
She's like, hey, call this up on YouTube, play this song.

609
00:42:41.640 --> 00:42:44.440
And several weeks ago or a month ago or whatever it was,

610
00:42:44.560 --> 00:42:48.860
there was a tsunami, not a tsunami, she called it a tsunami,

611
00:42:49.960 --> 00:42:51.500
some sort of weather event.

612
00:42:53.660 --> 00:42:57.540
And it ripped apart the university that they had built.

613
00:42:57.780 --> 00:42:59.060
It ripped apart the building.

614
00:43:00.640 --> 00:43:05.420
And of course, there's nothing there in Mozambique to begin with,

615
00:43:05.740 --> 00:43:07.940
except what they have built for the last 25 years.

616
00:43:08.540 --> 00:43:10.560
And it was pretty good for what it was.

617
00:43:10.640 --> 00:43:13.460
But then when you have nothing and you built something,

618
00:43:13.520 --> 00:43:16.560
and then it gets ripped down to shreds just because of a weather event.

619
00:43:17.400 --> 00:43:24.020
And this video was the community and the villages and the students

620
00:43:24.160 --> 00:43:28.540
and the music program recording a song that they had written.

621
00:43:29.840 --> 00:43:34.800
And it was just the most beautiful music that you could,

622
00:43:34.800 --> 00:43:37.900
I mean, that I've heard in a long time.

623
00:43:38.240 --> 00:43:40.280
And it was just adoration to the Lord.

624
00:43:40.480 --> 00:43:43.720
And in the environment, you can see the remnants of the walls

625
00:43:43.800 --> 00:43:46.100
that was torn down by the tsunami.

626
00:43:46.340 --> 00:43:49.160
And there's literally this fabric just waving in the air

627
00:43:49.340 --> 00:43:54.220
that's acting as a covering temporarily for this school that they built.

628
00:43:54.960 --> 00:43:56.820
And the music was just incredible.

629
00:43:57.060 --> 00:43:59.620
And on that music, as she was sharing,

630
00:44:00.720 --> 00:44:03.420
she shared with us some things that were on our heart.

631
00:44:04.980 --> 00:44:07.020
And then we just started, like, the presence of the Lord

632
00:44:07.020 --> 00:44:09.020
started just really getting strong in that place,

633
00:44:09.080 --> 00:44:10.880
in that moment, that living room that we were in with them.

634
00:44:11.740 --> 00:44:14.180
And we just felt compelled to start praying for them.

635
00:44:14.180 --> 00:44:15.480
So we started praying for them.

636
00:44:16.000 --> 00:44:18.100
And we're like, and people are at their feet,

637
00:44:18.200 --> 00:44:21.960
like, laying hands on their feet, like, praying the prayer from,

638
00:44:22.740 --> 00:44:27.340
like, blessed are the feet of those who bring good news, you know, type of thing.

639
00:44:27.340 --> 00:44:29.000
And we're just, like, weeping and wailing.

640
00:44:29.000 --> 00:44:31.580
And then all of a sudden, they start laying their hands on people.

641
00:44:31.680 --> 00:44:34.760
And people start really being touched by the Lord and weeping.

642
00:44:35.240 --> 00:44:38.080
And just, like, there's all this emotion.

643
00:44:38.800 --> 00:44:42.680
And this is a group of, like, business leaders and millionaires.

644
00:44:43.400 --> 00:44:47.460
This isn't just, you know, like, average normal people.

645
00:44:48.500 --> 00:44:51.100
And here we are, just, like, all over the place,

646
00:44:51.160 --> 00:44:53.020
all over this living room, just being, like, laid out,

647
00:44:53.120 --> 00:44:55.800
just being, like, the Holy Spirit just, like, literally,

648
00:44:55.800 --> 00:44:59.440
like, just changing things and healing people and delivering.

649
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.480
And all of a sudden, Roland, her husband,

650
00:45:04.900 --> 00:45:06.760
he says, I've got something to say.

651
00:45:07.520 --> 00:45:10.280
I goes, what are we doing this all for?

652
00:45:11.320 --> 00:45:12.560
What is the point of this?

653
00:45:13.220 --> 00:45:15.240
What do we get at the end of all of this?

654
00:45:15.980 --> 00:45:17.820
And we're like, I don't know.

655
00:45:17.920 --> 00:45:18.840
We're like, what?

656
00:45:18.840 --> 00:45:19.380
I don't know.

657
00:45:19.440 --> 00:45:19.860
What are we doing?

658
00:45:20.000 --> 00:45:22.180
He's like, we're speechless, right?

659
00:45:22.900 --> 00:45:28.800
He's like, it's only because of the joy, the joy of the Lord.

660
00:45:30.000 --> 00:45:31.920
And so he starts laying hands.

661
00:45:32.060 --> 00:45:34.860
And then we all start having this breakout

662
00:45:34.880 --> 00:45:37.480
of joy in the room.

663
00:45:39.100 --> 00:45:43.620
Now, I'm not of those ministries that all the whole laughter

664
00:45:43.620 --> 00:45:47.220
and silliness that's been, I don't know.

665
00:45:47.420 --> 00:45:49.860
I'm not necessarily about the kind of manifestation

666
00:45:50.880 --> 00:45:51.760
of that kind of stuff.

667
00:45:52.920 --> 00:45:57.760
But something came over me, the spirit of joy and laughter

668
00:45:57.760 --> 00:45:58.520
and excitement.

669
00:45:59.800 --> 00:46:01.840
And Roland said something so profound.

670
00:46:02.020 --> 00:46:05.700
He goes, if I get to heaven, he goes, what do I do?

671
00:46:05.740 --> 00:46:07.360
Why do I do what I do in Mozambique?

672
00:46:07.780 --> 00:46:08.900
Because it's fun.

673
00:46:09.020 --> 00:46:10.880
I'm like, bro, you've been stoned.

674
00:46:11.360 --> 00:46:12.500
You've been left for dead.

675
00:46:12.860 --> 00:46:14.880
You've been seriously robbed.

676
00:46:15.200 --> 00:46:18.280
You have literally been at gunpoint multiple times.

677
00:46:18.640 --> 00:46:21.100
You're like, how can you say what you do is fun?

678
00:46:21.160 --> 00:46:22.760
It scares the hell out of me.

679
00:46:24.620 --> 00:46:26.540
And he goes, we do it because it's fun,

680
00:46:26.540 --> 00:46:28.020
because it's the joy of the Lord.

681
00:46:28.140 --> 00:46:30.280
And the joy of the Lord is our strength.

682
00:46:30.320 --> 00:46:31.220
And I'm like, whoa, bro.

683
00:46:31.280 --> 00:46:32.400
That's another whole level.

684
00:46:35.380 --> 00:46:36.640
And I'm like, wow.

685
00:46:37.320 --> 00:46:41.040
He's like, if I get to heaven and there's no joy there,

686
00:46:41.700 --> 00:46:42.880
I'm going somewhere else.

687
00:46:42.880 --> 00:46:44.140
I'm like, bro, that's bold.

688
00:46:44.500 --> 00:46:46.500
Like you're in heaven, what are you talking about?

689
00:46:46.700 --> 00:46:49.500
What do you mean if you get to heaven

690
00:46:49.500 --> 00:46:50.760
and there's no joy there?

691
00:46:51.480 --> 00:46:54.680
And so there was this revelation from these individuals,

692
00:46:54.680 --> 00:46:59.420
these people, and their experience, and who they are,

693
00:47:00.720 --> 00:47:03.280
and where they're coming from, and the things

694
00:47:03.280 --> 00:47:05.260
that they're doing and still doing.

695
00:47:06.080 --> 00:47:08.800
And they're like, yeah, we do this because it's joyful.

696
00:47:09.120 --> 00:47:10.100
I'm like, wow.

697
00:47:11.660 --> 00:47:14.160
That is profound.

698
00:47:15.380 --> 00:47:16.320
That is profound.

699
00:47:16.340 --> 00:47:18.400
I mean, I'm being blown away.

700
00:47:19.200 --> 00:47:22.520
I'm thinking it would be like heavy, and it's serious,

701
00:47:22.520 --> 00:47:25.340
and woe is me, and the African people,

702
00:47:25.540 --> 00:47:26.480
and look what they're going through,

703
00:47:26.560 --> 00:47:27.580
and look nothing what they have.

704
00:47:27.620 --> 00:47:30.640
No, they literally have nothing, some of them.

705
00:47:31.840 --> 00:47:38.500
And they're the most happy, joyful, Jesus-loving, healed

706
00:47:39.120 --> 00:47:40.940
people in the world.

707
00:47:41.280 --> 00:47:45.600
And I'm like, that is some other right there.

708
00:47:47.280 --> 00:47:57.880
And if your yes has brought about that kind of reality

709
00:47:59.020 --> 00:48:01.340
to the poorest country in the world,

710
00:48:01.440 --> 00:48:04.820
how can I not say yes to what God's asked me to do?

711
00:48:06.340 --> 00:48:15.180
How can I not say yes to the simple task of whatever

712
00:48:15.180 --> 00:48:15.580
He's put on my life?

713
00:48:15.580 --> 00:48:16.580
What's on my heart to do?

714
00:48:20.840 --> 00:48:22.780
And do it with joy.

715
00:48:24.540 --> 00:48:27.240
Not from a heart of like, oh, this is a burden.

716
00:48:27.940 --> 00:48:29.220
This is a thing.

717
00:48:29.500 --> 00:48:31.280
Because Jesus paid the price.

718
00:48:31.700 --> 00:48:32.500
Jesus took the burden.

719
00:48:33.500 --> 00:48:34.880
His yoke is easy.

720
00:48:40.420 --> 00:48:44.640
So I've shared a lot tonight, and I

721
00:48:44.640 --> 00:48:45.540
know we haven't had a discussion,

722
00:48:45.640 --> 00:48:47.500
but it's just on my heart to share it because of where

723
00:48:47.500 --> 00:48:48.220
I've just come from.

724
00:48:48.320 --> 00:48:50.420
I literally flew in this afternoon back here to Austin.

725
00:48:52.600 --> 00:48:55.920
And I just want to challenge you with some of these words.

726
00:49:00.320 --> 00:49:02.340
What is God asking you to surrender?

727
00:49:06.260 --> 00:49:09.180
Doesn't have to be super, super deep.

728
00:49:09.620 --> 00:49:10.780
Maybe it's just something simple.

729
00:49:11.440 --> 00:49:13.100
What is God asking you to surrender?

730
00:49:15.060 --> 00:49:16.160
What do you want?

731
00:49:16.820 --> 00:49:19.640
That is a paramount question.

732
00:49:21.020 --> 00:49:22.020
What do you want?

733
00:49:24.140 --> 00:49:25.980
Maybe right now you can't answer the question,

734
00:49:26.080 --> 00:49:29.480
what do I want in my life, big 5, 10 year type thing.

735
00:49:29.780 --> 00:49:34.080
Maybe all you can answer is, what do I want in this season?

736
00:49:34.740 --> 00:49:35.580
What do I want?

737
00:49:36.320 --> 00:49:37.640
What do I want next?

738
00:49:38.360 --> 00:49:42.440
Like this is the thing that's really holding me back.

739
00:49:44.940 --> 00:49:50.140
And in the process of surrender, because sometimes it

740
00:49:50.140 --> 00:49:54.060
requires to put down something in order to pick something up.

741
00:49:56.100 --> 00:49:57.820
So sometimes it requires you like, you know what?

742
00:49:57.820 --> 00:49:58.920
I'm just going to surrender that.

743
00:50:01.360 --> 00:50:08.240
And I'm going to get clarity on what I want.

744
00:50:09.280 --> 00:50:10.360
I want a breakthrough.

745
00:50:12.780 --> 00:50:22.320
I want an increase in pay, or I want to be recognized for my value.

746
00:50:23.360 --> 00:50:28.180
I want to obtain a certain position.

747
00:50:29.280 --> 00:50:32.100
I want my spirit mate.

748
00:50:32.640 --> 00:50:34.500
I want to meet the love of my life.

749
00:50:36.200 --> 00:50:40.240
Whatever it is, guys, get clear on the what is it you want.

750
00:50:41.900 --> 00:50:49.660
And then also understand that God is inviting you to do what you do in this process.

751
00:50:50.520 --> 00:50:57.960
Do it with joy and allow joy to be your strength because there isn't anything else that's going

752
00:50:57.960 --> 00:50:58.820
to give you strength.

753
00:50:59.760 --> 00:51:04.060
Your grit and determination isn't your strength.

754
00:51:05.800 --> 00:51:12.940
Your white knuckling it, holding on to righteousness isn't your strength.

755
00:51:15.780 --> 00:51:25.800
Your being true to yourself and being kind of like, you know, this I'm unique, that is

756
00:51:25.800 --> 00:51:26.700
not your strength.

757
00:51:29.060 --> 00:51:33.620
The joy of the Lord is your strength.

758
00:51:38.240 --> 00:51:40.480
The joy of the Lord is your strength.

759
00:51:43.180 --> 00:51:50.620
Allowing the joy to come to you, allowing the joy to be found in what it is that you're

760
00:51:50.620 --> 00:51:51.380
going after.

761
00:51:52.700 --> 00:51:59.840
And putting aside all the things, all the excuses, putting aside the yeah, but this,

762
00:52:00.900 --> 00:52:11.120
and yeah, but so-and-so, and yeah, but I can't, I can't, I can't, putting aside all that.

763
00:52:11.660 --> 00:52:18.640
Maybe the surrender in some of you is just general negativity.

764
00:52:21.100 --> 00:52:24.940
It was like, you know what, I really don't have anything to be negative about.

765
00:52:26.400 --> 00:52:29.940
I mean, I can think of some things, I mean, you know, I get it.

766
00:52:29.940 --> 00:52:35.840
We can all think of something to be negative about, whine and complain about, but maybe

767
00:52:35.840 --> 00:52:40.400
there just isn't that much to be negative about, and I should just count it all joy.

768
00:52:43.360 --> 00:52:48.840
And maybe I should just walk in this season and allow the joy of the Lord to be my strength

769
00:52:49.940 --> 00:52:55.800
as I'm putting down this, and I'm getting clarity on what I want.

770
00:52:57.600 --> 00:53:01.220
And then let your focus be what you want.

771
00:53:02.180 --> 00:53:06.820
And trust me, when you get clarity on what you truly, truly want, it's not going to be

772
00:53:06.920 --> 00:53:11.700
about something selfish or something egotistical.

773
00:53:12.800 --> 00:53:16.880
Others may criticize you, like, oh, you just want that because, no, no, no, no, no, I'm

774
00:53:16.880 --> 00:53:22.840
actually trying, I'm actually clarifying this because I really feel that this is what I'm

775
00:53:22.840 --> 00:53:25.920
being called higher to do and to be.

776
00:53:28.020 --> 00:53:32.440
Just like I was telling you earlier, I was resisting a lot of things because I thought

777
00:53:32.440 --> 00:53:38.000
it was ego, and the Lord's like, no, no, no, bro, it has nothing to do with you, like,

778
00:53:38.000 --> 00:53:38.700
get over yourself.

779
00:53:38.800 --> 00:53:39.680
Like, it's not ego.

780
00:53:40.620 --> 00:53:43.360
Like, it is like, literally, I have need of you.

781
00:53:44.340 --> 00:53:45.660
There's a greater calling.

782
00:53:46.900 --> 00:53:53.420
And those of you that that you're responding to that, let that be the motivation of your

783
00:53:53.420 --> 00:53:53.780
heart.

784
00:53:54.000 --> 00:53:55.400
Like, God has need of you, man.

785
00:53:55.960 --> 00:54:09.360
God has need of your unique story, circumstance, your skill set, all of the story of your life

786
00:54:09.360 --> 00:54:21.320
so far to this point, all has meaning, all has purpose, all has resonance with who you

787
00:54:21.320 --> 00:54:23.340
are and what you bring to the table.

788
00:54:25.500 --> 00:54:28.460
Every negative experience has caused you to learn something.

789
00:54:31.720 --> 00:54:36.260
Every positive experience is to give you encouragement that you can do that, you can do this.

790
00:54:36.720 --> 00:54:37.520
I did that.

791
00:54:37.520 --> 00:54:40.420
You know, that's what you go by, like, what does your resume say?

792
00:54:40.560 --> 00:54:43.320
It's based on all the experiences that you did good.

793
00:54:43.560 --> 00:54:45.520
I did so many of this, I did that.

794
00:54:46.120 --> 00:54:47.760
Why do you put that on a resume?

795
00:54:47.760 --> 00:54:51.340
Because you're showing somebody else what you did, you're, this is what I can do.

796
00:54:52.760 --> 00:54:54.040
I'm a professional at this.

797
00:54:54.120 --> 00:54:55.160
I'm really good at this.

798
00:55:03.440 --> 00:55:10.860
Anyway, man, it's such a heart for your guys' success

799
00:55:10.860 --> 00:55:12.240
and breakthroughs and all the stuff.

800
00:55:13.620 --> 00:55:15.280
Such a heart for that.

801
00:55:16.620 --> 00:55:20.780
And we're going to be doing some more things this next year

802
00:55:20.780 --> 00:55:21.960
with Last Year Single.

803
00:55:22.840 --> 00:55:24.340
We've got more resources.

804
00:55:24.560 --> 00:55:27.960
We've got more people that want to speak to our community, that

805
00:55:27.960 --> 00:55:30.100
want to be resources for our community.

806
00:55:31.700 --> 00:55:37.160
I need you guys to give us some feedback of like,

807
00:55:37.160 --> 00:55:39.260
hey, what are some things that you would

808
00:55:39.260 --> 00:55:43.480
like to see in our community?

809
00:55:48.360 --> 00:55:49.720
Like maybe it's a resource.

810
00:55:49.900 --> 00:55:51.600
Maybe it's let's talk about this.

811
00:55:52.500 --> 00:55:54.260
Can we do this?

812
00:55:54.340 --> 00:55:55.460
Can we organize this?

813
00:55:55.460 --> 00:55:57.120
Can we facilitate this?

814
00:55:59.680 --> 00:56:04.340
I want you guys to be thinking in that

815
00:56:04.460 --> 00:56:06.640
and respond to us in that way.

816
00:56:06.680 --> 00:56:08.940
And I don't know, maybe some of you have some ideas right now.

817
00:56:10.200 --> 00:56:11.880
I'm going to open up the floor for a few minutes,

818
00:56:12.080 --> 00:56:13.260
even though right at the hour.

819
00:56:13.340 --> 00:56:15.660
I'm going to open the floor for a few minutes for you

820
00:56:15.820 --> 00:56:16.240
to respond.

821
00:56:16.740 --> 00:56:19.800
Maybe some of you want to just articulate, hey,

822
00:56:19.800 --> 00:56:20.900
this is what I'm laying down.

823
00:56:21.460 --> 00:56:22.680
Maybe some of you want to articulate,

824
00:56:22.680 --> 00:56:25.240
hey, this is what I feel God's calling me up to.

825
00:56:27.720 --> 00:56:31.440
Maybe you just want to say, hey, I just want to say yes to God.

826
00:56:33.360 --> 00:56:34.180
I don't know.

827
00:56:35.980 --> 00:56:37.240
Who wants to go?

828
00:56:39.280 --> 00:56:40.400
I'll go quick.

829
00:56:40.880 --> 00:56:43.660
That word was so from the Holy Spirit.

830
00:56:44.080 --> 00:56:46.460
It has been a doozy for me.

831
00:56:47.840 --> 00:56:51.080
I had a situation where I couldn't control it,

832
00:56:51.080 --> 00:56:52.760
and I got so sick this week.

833
00:56:52.900 --> 00:56:56.100
I'd be waking up, fever, throwing up,

834
00:56:56.620 --> 00:56:58.280
screaming every single night.

835
00:56:58.480 --> 00:57:00.180
And then it got to the point where

836
00:57:01.160 --> 00:57:03.600
I had a really bad episode on the weekend

837
00:57:03.600 --> 00:57:05.040
where I just disassociated.

838
00:57:05.640 --> 00:57:07.700
I didn't even know who I was.

839
00:57:08.200 --> 00:57:10.360
I looked in the mirror and had no idea

840
00:57:10.360 --> 00:57:11.860
that that was even David Wright.

841
00:57:12.580 --> 00:57:15.320
And so that's really serious for me.

842
00:57:17.800 --> 00:57:19.960
And yeah, so this is just kind of like,

843
00:57:20.600 --> 00:57:22.240
are you saying you had a physical manifestation

844
00:57:23.220 --> 00:57:25.120
of like an illness that was something

845
00:57:25.120 --> 00:57:26.280
that wasn't really an illness?

846
00:57:29.240 --> 00:57:30.180
What do you mean?

847
00:57:30.820 --> 00:57:30.840
Sorry.

848
00:57:31.680 --> 00:57:34.060
Are you saying that you had a physical manifestation

849
00:57:34.060 --> 00:57:36.840
of illness that was really quite an illness,

850
00:57:36.860 --> 00:57:38.820
but it was something that's happening in you?

851
00:57:40.520 --> 00:57:42.740
Yeah, so that's exactly what it was.

852
00:57:42.940 --> 00:57:44.820
Is that like, is that neurologically

853
00:57:45.100 --> 00:57:47.780
my body was just shutting down with like,

854
00:57:48.120 --> 00:57:49.640
because I was OK mentally with it,

855
00:57:49.640 --> 00:57:51.300
but then when I was sleeping,

856
00:57:51.440 --> 00:57:52.880
my body was waking up screaming

857
00:57:52.880 --> 00:57:55.140
and having like this reaction

858
00:57:55.140 --> 00:57:58.080
where I was just like waking up with a fever

859
00:57:59.860 --> 00:58:00.900
and like vomiting.

860
00:58:01.560 --> 00:58:02.240
And so what happened?

861
00:58:02.600 --> 00:58:03.640
To the point where like, I think.

862
00:58:04.600 --> 00:58:05.280
What happened?

863
00:58:05.400 --> 00:58:05.740
Pardon me?

864
00:58:06.600 --> 00:58:07.820
So what, so what happened?

865
00:58:13.020 --> 00:58:14.720
Like what happened to lead me to that?

866
00:58:14.940 --> 00:58:15.080
Well.

867
00:58:15.080 --> 00:58:15.740
How'd you come out of that?

868
00:58:15.740 --> 00:58:17.820
It was because I got a like a.

869
00:58:19.200 --> 00:58:19.960
Pardon me?

870
00:58:20.600 --> 00:58:21.420
How did you come out?

871
00:58:21.500 --> 00:58:22.620
How did I come out of it?

872
00:58:25.800 --> 00:58:27.700
I looked in the mirror and I said,

873
00:58:27.820 --> 00:58:29.180
this is ground control to Dave,

874
00:58:29.660 --> 00:58:32.220
to to Major Tom, like David Bowie,

875
00:58:32.280 --> 00:58:34.500
and just prayed and, you know,

876
00:58:34.500 --> 00:58:36.420
like the Lord brought me out of it

877
00:58:36.420 --> 00:58:38.480
and I talked to my parents about it.

878
00:58:40.220 --> 00:58:42.860
And yeah, so this, this was a real blessing

879
00:58:42.860 --> 00:58:44.300
hearing, hearing this and.

880
00:58:44.860 --> 00:58:45.340
Okay.

881
00:58:45.720 --> 00:58:46.200
Yeah.

882
00:58:46.720 --> 00:58:47.500
Good stuff.

883
00:58:47.620 --> 00:58:49.860
But I think I'm just kind of walking into what,

884
00:58:49.880 --> 00:58:51.700
like I was like, Lord,

885
00:58:51.740 --> 00:58:54.120
maybe I can't handle meeting somebody,

886
00:58:54.240 --> 00:58:56.520
but maybe it's just trusting God with.

887
00:58:57.040 --> 00:58:57.680
Who I am.

888
00:58:57.880 --> 00:58:58.160
I think what happened there,

889
00:58:58.200 --> 00:58:59.200
let me just tell you, Dave,

890
00:59:00.100 --> 00:59:01.100
let me cut this short here.

891
00:59:01.180 --> 00:59:03.040
I think actually what happened with you

892
00:59:03.040 --> 00:59:05.580
is you learned that you actually had

893
00:59:05.580 --> 00:59:07.160
a certain authority in your life.

894
00:59:08.800 --> 00:59:10.500
To me, the things that sticks out

895
00:59:10.500 --> 00:59:11.720
is that you looked in the mirror

896
00:59:12.100 --> 00:59:14.060
and you started speaking to yourself

897
00:59:14.060 --> 00:59:18.160
in a way that you were able to come

898
00:59:18.160 --> 00:59:19.560
in a level of authority

899
00:59:20.720 --> 00:59:22.840
and bring yourself out of a situation

900
00:59:24.580 --> 00:59:29.760
and, and like bring that back to a basis of normality.

901
00:59:31.180 --> 00:59:35.400
So try that on for size and see what that does.

902
00:59:36.920 --> 00:59:38.940
I mean, in terms of just like understanding

903
00:59:38.940 --> 00:59:39.760
what I'm saying there,

904
00:59:39.800 --> 00:59:41.420
that's the thing that stood out to me

905
00:59:41.420 --> 00:59:42.220
and what you're saying.

906
00:59:43.140 --> 00:59:43.860
Yeah, amen.

907
00:59:45.340 --> 00:59:45.340


908
00:59:45.640 --> 00:59:46.500
Who else?

909
00:59:51.260 --> 00:59:53.040
Again, maybe you have something that you want to.

910
00:59:54.060 --> 00:59:54.340
What's that?

911
00:59:54.740 --> 00:59:55.620
Matthew Zando?

912
00:59:55.800 --> 00:59:56.380
Yeah, Matthew.

913
00:59:57.320 --> 00:59:58.420
Sorry about that, bro.

914
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:01.640
Are you there, Matthew?

915
01:00:05.100 --> 01:00:05.940
How about now?

916
01:00:06.260 --> 01:00:06.520
Can you hear me?

917
01:00:06.600 --> 01:00:07.820
Yeah, you can hear me now.

918
01:00:08.280 --> 01:00:08.640
Okay.

919
01:00:08.820 --> 01:00:09.140
All right.

920
01:00:09.900 --> 01:00:10.340
Sorry.

921
01:00:14.660 --> 01:00:16.960
You had your hand up, Matthew, so we were just calling on you.

922
01:00:18.700 --> 01:00:19.860
Can you hear me now?

923
01:00:20.260 --> 01:00:20.660
Yeah.

924
01:00:21.380 --> 01:00:21.680
Okay.

925
01:00:21.700 --> 01:00:22.060
I'll stop.

926
01:00:22.480 --> 01:00:24.000
I won't touch the phone anymore.

927
01:00:26.020 --> 01:00:26.460
Yeah.

928
01:00:26.460 --> 01:00:29.480
It's been really crazy since Thanksgiving.

929
01:00:29.480 --> 01:00:33.820
And I just felt these blessings this week, I mean, these last few days.

930
01:00:36.120 --> 01:00:39.340
So I have two daughters that are 30 and 35.

931
01:00:40.700 --> 01:00:45.300
And you know my story, I've been looking for work for the last, it's going on two years

932
01:00:45.380 --> 01:00:45.860
now.

933
01:00:46.380 --> 01:00:49.760
I'm doing whatever I can, hustling and everything else.

934
01:00:50.000 --> 01:00:53.420
And they just came after me, you're never going to find a job.

935
01:00:53.480 --> 01:00:54.260
What are you going to do?

936
01:00:54.300 --> 01:00:58.060
I'm not going to take care of you when you get old and can't take care of yourself.

937
01:00:58.060 --> 01:01:01.400
And it's just going on and on.

938
01:01:03.740 --> 01:01:08.120
And they're saying, well, you need to go back to school and train for another career.

939
01:01:08.560 --> 01:01:09.920
After this is like my second.

940
01:01:10.740 --> 01:01:13.420
So I prayed about it and I thought about it.

941
01:01:14.100 --> 01:01:19.360
And that's something that I might do, but they were just so nasty that it was just so

942
01:01:19.360 --> 01:01:19.680
frustrating.

943
01:01:19.820 --> 01:01:27.000
I just felt, God, I still feel that God knows when he didn't bring me this far just to let

944
01:01:27.000 --> 01:01:27.580
me go.

945
01:01:29.740 --> 01:01:29.740


946
01:01:30.840 --> 01:01:31.120
Yeah.

947
01:01:32.540 --> 01:01:33.040
Yeah.

948
01:01:33.040 --> 01:01:33.420
Yeah.

949
01:01:33.420 --> 01:01:38.340
And I just felt like there was abusive relationship with my marriage.

950
01:01:38.560 --> 01:01:43.920
And the way they were talking to me was like their mom would talk to me.

951
01:01:43.920 --> 01:01:46.040
And that's where they get it from.

952
01:01:47.260 --> 01:01:47.260


953
01:01:48.280 --> 01:01:53.060
And I think if I'm going to give up anything, it's not to let them get away with it.

954
01:01:53.060 --> 01:01:54.480
I need to stick up for myself.

955
01:01:55.080 --> 01:01:55.640
Yeah.

956
01:01:55.640 --> 01:01:57.720
Not just to kind of shut down.

957
01:01:57.880 --> 01:02:06.860
But in the last two days, starting with Supernatural Saturday and what Jackie was talking about,

958
01:02:06.960 --> 01:02:11.980
that you need to see what other things you've been praying about, what other goals and dreams

959
01:02:11.980 --> 01:02:13.820
you have that you may have let go.

960
01:02:14.100 --> 01:02:16.580
And I was applying every anywhere and everywhere.

961
01:02:16.580 --> 01:02:24.820
But one thing I did when I was in film school is I had a 300 page book of story of Pixar.

962
01:02:25.340 --> 01:02:28.240
And it was something I was really focused on every day.

963
01:02:28.260 --> 01:02:29.680
I didn't have a car back then.

964
01:02:29.680 --> 01:02:32.840
I was taking the train and the bus and reading through it.

965
01:02:33.000 --> 01:02:36.700
And I applied for a job at Pixar, just like I applied everywhere else.

966
01:02:36.700 --> 01:02:41.760
But I reached out to the guy that is I'm doing the short film for because I know somebody

967
01:02:41.760 --> 01:02:42.280
over there.

968
01:02:42.280 --> 01:02:45.360
Send me your resume and send to the person that's doing the hiring.

969
01:02:45.360 --> 01:02:46.040
Right.

970
01:02:46.160 --> 01:02:46.340
Right.

971
01:02:46.640 --> 01:02:49.400
And I feel like I haven't heard anything.

972
01:02:49.480 --> 01:02:51.840
And I'm glued to my phone checking the email.

973
01:02:51.840 --> 01:02:57.580
But it just feels like I woke up at four in the morning, just fired up that this is it.

974
01:02:57.580 --> 01:03:01.140
And it requires me to move from L.A. to Northern California.

975
01:03:01.800 --> 01:03:03.080
But it doesn't matter.

976
01:03:03.180 --> 01:03:05.440
I just feel like this is it.

977
01:03:06.360 --> 01:03:10.320
I just feel so blessed and so fired up about this.

978
01:03:10.320 --> 01:03:10.800
OK.

979
01:03:11.520 --> 01:03:13.200
So that's where it stands right now.

980
01:03:13.980 --> 01:03:14.580
Yeah.

981
01:03:14.580 --> 01:03:14.580


982
01:03:14.580 --> 01:03:16.520
I mean, I could use prayer.

983
01:03:17.080 --> 01:03:17.540
No, no, no.

984
01:03:17.540 --> 01:03:18.380
I understand that.

985
01:03:18.620 --> 01:03:20.580
No, I think it's significant to what you said.

986
01:03:21.400 --> 01:03:22.660
I think it's significant what you said.

987
01:03:22.740 --> 01:03:24.580
So I'm just I'm just prophetically processing.

988
01:03:24.600 --> 01:03:25.680
That's kind of what I'm doing here.

989
01:03:25.880 --> 01:03:30.260
Just kind of like I'm hearing the things that are being said in the spirit.

990
01:03:30.640 --> 01:03:36.220
And you said that God's not brought you this far to to leave you.

991
01:03:36.900 --> 01:03:39.800
And that is true for every man on this call.

992
01:03:40.560 --> 01:03:44.100
And I mean, of course, you as well, Matthew, that's true for all of you.

993
01:03:44.100 --> 01:03:45.140
And all of us.

994
01:03:46.540 --> 01:03:49.140
God's not brought you like that is.

995
01:03:50.100 --> 01:03:50.800
Really profound.

996
01:03:53.100 --> 01:03:58.360
God didn't bring you this far just to, like, leave you half baked.

997
01:03:59.760 --> 01:04:01.940
That makes no sense whatsoever.

998
01:04:02.980 --> 01:04:03.540
Right.

999
01:04:04.280 --> 01:04:06.520
Especially in the sense of like God.

1000
01:04:07.820 --> 01:04:10.760
The maker and the creator of all things.

1001
01:04:11.420 --> 01:04:13.480
The perfect God that we say we serve.

1002
01:04:14.280 --> 01:04:18.500
And he's going to bring us this far and just basically kind of leave us to our own devices.

1003
01:04:19.160 --> 01:04:20.480
That's messed up, bro.

1004
01:04:21.820 --> 01:04:23.540
That's a that's a terrible dad.

1005
01:04:25.160 --> 01:04:26.660
That's a horrible dad.

1006
01:04:27.640 --> 01:04:29.200
OK, fend for yourself now.

1007
01:04:31.260 --> 01:04:32.620
I mean, like.

1008
01:04:33.700 --> 01:04:34.920
How many of you.

1009
01:04:36.480 --> 01:04:44.060
Like, I'm not even going to go the father thing, but it's just it's a how many would you how many guys do you want to be that kind of dad?

1010
01:04:45.120 --> 01:04:46.760
You may have had that kind of dad.

1011
01:04:46.800 --> 01:04:48.280
You may have had that kind of experience.

1012
01:04:48.380 --> 01:04:53.320
There's all kinds of different stories that we can share on this call about our dads.

1013
01:04:53.500 --> 01:04:53.900
Right.

1014
01:04:54.900 --> 01:04:56.560
But nobody wants to be that kind of dad.

1015
01:04:57.380 --> 01:04:59.980
Well, you're just like, all right, I brought you this.

1016
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:08.600
fire now just go do your thing make shit up like don't get hurt on the way out like you know like

1017
01:05:08.600 --> 01:05:17.760
no that's terrible that's a bad dad and god didn't bring you this far in order to leave you

1018
01:05:19.660 --> 01:05:24.800
that is that is reality that's that's a good word right there thank you for sharing that matthew

1019
01:05:24.800 --> 01:05:29.560
and we're going to be praying believing yeah that i i'm there's something on that

1020
01:05:29.560 --> 01:05:36.860
that this is it thing that's the michael jackson movie this is it yeah and for him it's the end

1021
01:05:37.520 --> 01:05:43.440
because he died in the making of that movie yeah but the this is it moment is like this is it

1022
01:05:46.900 --> 01:05:54.120
so praise god good for that who else who else on this call i i i would say hi i just want to

1023
01:05:54.120 --> 01:05:58.560
say hi to everyone i haven't been on here for a long time can you guys hear me okay yes we can

1024
01:05:59.540 --> 01:06:06.860
okay uh i've been doing well but i just i've been really busy with uh my four kids and sports and

1025
01:06:06.860 --> 01:06:12.360
hunting and business and i have a prayer meeting that's also monday nights that i like to try to

1026
01:06:12.360 --> 01:06:19.680
go to but um i'm glad to uh to come and see you guys this evening and i really appreciate what

1027
01:06:19.680 --> 01:06:25.720
you shared david um that what what uh roland baker said about doing it for the joy i love that

1028
01:06:26.980 --> 01:06:34.700
um just today i was meditating on the proverb of the day proverbs 15 verse 15 says a cheerful

1029
01:06:34.700 --> 01:06:40.800
heart has a continual feast and i just feel like the lord is just like wanting to give us

1030
01:06:41.880 --> 01:06:51.220
like to live in that place of like feasting on his the joy that he has over us like he enjoys

1031
01:06:51.220 --> 01:06:58.620
each one of us immensely and like he wants us to abide in that like he said abiding my love

1032
01:06:58.620 --> 01:07:06.660
you know we're abiding my joy so i just anyhow i just wanted to say hi and and um good to see you

1033
01:07:06.660 --> 01:07:13.360
and yeah i'm glad you're here jesse thanks for sharing that because um yeah i know what it's

1034
01:07:13.360 --> 01:07:17.300
like and get busy and doing all that stuff but i'm glad you're here and i'm glad that you you

1035
01:07:17.300 --> 01:07:24.060
made time and uh i love that thanks for sharing that proverbs 15 i'll look that up and and see

1036
01:07:24.440 --> 01:07:34.000
it's 15 15 15 15 all right good yeah so good thank you man it's good to hear that i love that

1037
01:07:34.560 --> 01:07:35.360
who else

1038
01:07:39.380 --> 01:07:47.880
who else what's up david what's up everybody i uh i was just kind of sitting back listening and

1039
01:07:47.880 --> 01:07:52.420
appreciate you guys the meeting and the time and everything uh i know this is only my second

1040
01:07:52.640 --> 01:08:00.480
week online with the group so i'm kind of uh just soaking it in and seeing what what this is about

1041
01:08:00.480 --> 01:08:10.340
and just kind of being present um i think i have several thoughts one i've this week this i would

1042
01:08:10.340 --> 01:08:20.680
say this past couple months has been um for me it's been i guess more so exhausting from a from

1043
01:08:20.680 --> 01:08:27.040
like a spiritual and emotional standpoint um and and and reason being is i've i've been

1044
01:08:27.840 --> 01:08:32.840
i would say for the last year i've been trying to get planted trying to find a place specifically

1045
01:08:32.840 --> 01:08:39.359
like community or church and it's just been that's been challenging um and and it's interesting you

1046
01:08:39.399 --> 01:08:46.240
mentioned ecclesiastes i was i was actually i'm going through that right now and i think it's in

1047
01:08:46.240 --> 01:08:50.899
chapter 1 verse 18 i don't remember off the top of my head but it's it talks about how knowledge

1048
01:08:50.899 --> 01:08:58.899
brings can bring grief like more knowledge and and in other words it's like knowing more may not

1049
01:08:58.899 --> 01:09:05.120
always be the best and the reason i bring it up is because you know several years back this is prior

1050
01:09:05.120 --> 01:09:09.460
to coming to seminary this is you know i was kind of a i was kind of like a baby i'm like a deer in

1051
01:09:09.460 --> 01:09:13.220
the headlights kind of you know excited it was like this joy i don't know anything you know lord

1052
01:09:13.220 --> 01:09:19.120
leads me to this church i'm just kind of like yeah excited to be a part of it i felt like i was

1053
01:09:19.120 --> 01:09:23.800
and i started to get involved more i started to learn things more more things about the church's

1054
01:09:23.800 --> 01:09:31.180
community and and i kind of in a sense got uh i wouldn't say discouraged but it was like

1055
01:09:31.180 --> 01:09:37.399
i started to learn deeper things and the lord brought me deeper things and then it almost felt

1056
01:09:37.399 --> 01:09:47.740
like as i was spending time with him uh it kind of feels like it's harder to find like-minded people

1057
01:09:47.740 --> 01:09:56.540
um and and and what i do and what i what i what i'm pursuing and i know it's unique in in my sense

1058
01:09:56.540 --> 01:09:59.040
and so that's that's been challenging i would say

1059
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:02.200
Um, and I'm still in that process.

1060
01:10:02.200 --> 01:10:04.980
You know, I visited two different churches over the two weekends.

1061
01:10:04.980 --> 01:10:08.340
I met with, I'm meeting with one of the pastors this week, just connecting.

1062
01:10:08.880 --> 01:10:15.040
And, uh, so, uh, as I'm doing the heartwork and because of those things, I

1063
01:10:15.040 --> 01:10:18.540
think I got discouraged and I was like, I didn't really press in this week into

1064
01:10:18.540 --> 01:10:21.120
chapter, into part two for the heartwork.

1065
01:10:21.640 --> 01:10:23.500
Uh, so I slacked on that.

1066
01:10:23.500 --> 01:10:26.140
I, I'm just admitting and holding myself accountable.

1067
01:10:28.300 --> 01:10:31.460
Um, and yeah, so that's kind of where I'm at this week.

1068
01:10:32.020 --> 01:10:37.040
Uh, so I can kind of, I feel, I feel the, kind of the, the wrestling and

1069
01:10:37.040 --> 01:10:38.320
the challenges are people going through.

1070
01:10:38.440 --> 01:10:39.600
I can kind of feel that too.

1071
01:10:39.660 --> 01:10:40.400
I'm with you guys.

1072
01:10:40.460 --> 01:10:46.260
And then I guess a thought or a suggestion I had in mind while we're just on here

1073
01:10:46.580 --> 01:10:51.860
was, it might be helpful, maybe, I don't know if you guys do this or not, but

1074
01:10:51.860 --> 01:10:54.900
just going through the questions, like where everybody's at in their books or

1075
01:10:55.420 --> 01:11:00.380
or maybe just doing like heart check-ins, like literal, like, Hey, what was your

1076
01:11:00.380 --> 01:11:03.860
ups, downs this week, you know, maybe just kind of like talking about those

1077
01:11:03.860 --> 01:11:08.320
things and cause I know I've done those in smaller group settings and since we're

1078
01:11:08.320 --> 01:11:11.660
all dudes here and it seems like it's a smaller group, I think it wouldn't be

1079
01:11:11.660 --> 01:11:15.720
bad for us just to kind of provides the opportunity and a place for us to really.

1080
01:11:16.440 --> 01:11:19.980
You know, everybody can be as vulnerable as they want and just really share.

1081
01:11:20.180 --> 01:11:20.820
Hey, what was my highs?

1082
01:11:20.860 --> 01:11:21.440
What was my lows?

1083
01:11:21.440 --> 01:11:25.820
And I think that kind of opens up the doors for maybe other people to start

1084
01:11:26.480 --> 01:11:31.000
sharing and, and, and when we, when I've noticed, when I do that, at least it

1085
01:11:31.000 --> 01:11:34.460
helps me get to the root of things, like just talking to what other people, maybe

1086
01:11:34.460 --> 01:11:38.060
just being heard or just maybe hearing a different perspective from someone.

1087
01:11:38.120 --> 01:11:39.740
It's like, Oh, I didn't think of it that way.

1088
01:11:40.780 --> 01:11:41.580
Maybe helpful.

1089
01:11:42.120 --> 01:11:42.380
Some thoughts.

1090
01:11:42.500 --> 01:11:44.660
I don't know, but that's good.

1091
01:11:45.180 --> 01:11:49.460
No, the original idea of heart check-in is, is that, is that we

1092
01:11:50.900 --> 01:11:53.620
process the heart work in, in order.

1093
01:11:53.840 --> 01:11:57.040
We've done that from time to time.

1094
01:11:57.780 --> 01:12:05.980
And but we're not in a regular liturgy of doing that, you know, weekend a week

1095
01:12:05.980 --> 01:12:10.620
out or month after month, because at some point everybody's like different.

1096
01:12:10.920 --> 01:12:12.160
Parts of their heart work journey.

1097
01:12:12.160 --> 01:12:13.220
Some people just starting out.

1098
01:12:13.380 --> 01:12:16.360
Some people done it a year ago or half a year, whatever.

1099
01:12:17.460 --> 01:12:22.140
So for scheduling it, it's challenging, but at the same time, we probably should

1100
01:12:22.140 --> 01:12:26.180
take the time to go through it another time, another season.

1101
01:12:26.500 --> 01:12:29.180
So beginning of the year, actually, it might be a good way to do that as well.

1102
01:12:29.300 --> 01:12:35.220
So take, take several weeks straight in a row, try to do heart work questions

1103
01:12:35.220 --> 01:12:37.560
and just process that and do heart work all over again.

1104
01:12:38.040 --> 01:12:39.420
So, yeah, that's a good suggestion.

1105
01:12:39.480 --> 01:12:39.940
I like that.

1106
01:12:40.060 --> 01:12:40.620
Thank you so much.

1107
01:12:42.160 --> 01:12:43.400
Good to see you, Lewis, man.

1108
01:12:46.600 --> 01:12:47.980
Thank you so much for sharing.

1109
01:12:49.280 --> 01:12:49.760
Who else?

1110
01:12:49.840 --> 01:12:50.680
Anybody else wants to share?

1111
01:12:52.220 --> 01:12:53.380
I'll go ahead and share.

1112
01:12:53.780 --> 01:12:53.960
Go ahead, David.

1113
01:12:55.440 --> 01:12:58.900
I just wanted to say that over the past few weeks, it's been good.

1114
01:12:59.280 --> 01:13:03.260
I think it was two or three supernatural Saturdays ago.

1115
01:13:04.660 --> 01:13:09.040
And when I say good, I mean more emotionally good and spiritually good.

1116
01:13:09.900 --> 01:13:14.600
Started going to a new church finally locally after being out of any

1117
01:13:14.600 --> 01:13:16.760
local connection for over a year.

1118
01:13:18.680 --> 01:13:22.800
And then within the past few days, I felt a lot of breakthrough, like

1119
01:13:22.800 --> 01:13:24.700
my spark is back, so to speak.

1120
01:13:25.440 --> 01:13:27.600
It's like just coming through the dark night of the soul, getting

1121
01:13:27.600 --> 01:13:31.820
out of that depression, getting out of the, you know, but I

1122
01:13:31.820 --> 01:13:32.920
mean, it's all God doing it.

1123
01:13:33.640 --> 01:13:44.560
And I think the biggest takeaway I can say is just to keep it short here is I

1124
01:13:46.700 --> 01:13:53.220
don't, I grew up in a very cerebral academic kind of household because my

1125
01:13:53.220 --> 01:13:54.760
dad was very academically gifted.

1126
01:13:55.680 --> 01:14:00.260
And the thing that's really hitting me is, and I've seen a lot of my negativity

1127
01:14:00.260 --> 01:14:08.200
go away is I've heard it said that, you know, it doesn't say in the, does it

1128
01:14:08.200 --> 01:14:10.640
say anywhere in the Bible that we're supposed to figure everything out?

1129
01:14:11.480 --> 01:14:18.460
And especially, especially like as men, like usually when you're trying to

1130
01:14:18.460 --> 01:14:19.780
figure everything out, you're really not.

1131
01:14:20.060 --> 01:14:22.380
Most of the time I would argue then not, you're not really

1132
01:14:22.380 --> 01:14:23.660
inviting God into it at all.

1133
01:14:24.140 --> 01:14:27.340
And it's not, and it's unhealthy and it's not real surrender.

1134
01:14:27.900 --> 01:14:30.000
And it just brings in a lot of chaos.

1135
01:14:30.000 --> 01:14:36.780
And I mean, over this weekend, I think one of the things that might may have

1136
01:14:37.040 --> 01:14:41.800
helped attribute to like the breakthrough I've had financial breakthrough over

1137
01:14:41.800 --> 01:14:46.420
the last four days, like, like I have not been, I have not been able to work

1138
01:14:46.420 --> 01:14:50.920
for over a year, as many hours as I've put in, in the last four days, because

1139
01:14:50.920 --> 01:14:54.820
I was just so at rock bottom, dark night of the soul, whatever you want to call it.

1140
01:14:54.820 --> 01:14:55.440
Yeah.

1141
01:14:55.920 --> 01:14:57.880
So, but what I did, like, uh,

1142
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:07.820
Yeah, it's just no joke like I literally went on Facebook and I unfriended about 50 people

1143
01:15:07.820 --> 01:15:12.980
that like I don't even know who this is or this is not healthy, I'm unfriending this

1144
01:15:13.000 --> 01:15:19.260
person, I'm unfriending that and literally I tell you, I literally tell you like the

1145
01:15:19.260 --> 01:15:25.500
same day like these people have not reached out for me, to me for a long time and one

1146
01:15:25.500 --> 01:15:30.500
of them that was not the healthiest reached out to me and it's like I mean did you get

1147
01:15:30.500 --> 01:15:34.600
an alert like the Facebook says they don't get an alert when you do that but it's almost

1148
01:15:34.600 --> 01:15:41.000
like in the spirit like they did and then another one was just it wasn't like a bad

1149
01:15:41.000 --> 01:15:46.020
connection but was just mainly like through a friend of a friend of a friend on Facebook

1150
01:15:46.020 --> 01:15:50.580
that was some ministry in some country I've never been to even though I've been to some

1151
01:15:50.760 --> 01:15:56.180
foreign countries and done missionary work but you know on a very short term you know

1152
01:15:56.180 --> 01:16:02.800
perhaps but you know and then that you know so it was just two things like the very like

1153
01:16:02.800 --> 01:16:10.240
within not even an hour or two of just you know letting go and unfriending them so I'm

1154
01:16:10.240 --> 01:16:14.300
just like okay let's see what's going on here.

1155
01:16:14.300 --> 01:16:20.740
I love it that's that's something you're surrendering you're cutting out like hey in order to

1156
01:16:20.740 --> 01:16:26.160
get clarity on what you want sometimes you have to cut out the noise matter of fact not

1157
01:16:26.160 --> 01:16:33.240
sometimes every time you have to cut out noise you have to cut out the noise and that could

1158
01:16:33.240 --> 01:16:40.680
be social media that could be friends that could be certain associations that could be

1159
01:16:40.680 --> 01:16:50.920
certain activity yes you gotta make room yeah gotta make room but yeah definitely absolutely

1160
01:16:52.380 --> 01:16:56.320
all right guys we're well past the hour I want some more input but I think I'm gonna

1161
01:16:56.320 --> 01:17:04.600
reach out probably in like texting or some sort of like I'm either in email or some sort

1162
01:17:04.600 --> 01:17:11.420
of like it's like a written form to you to everyone this week I've written everybody's

1163
01:17:11.420 --> 01:17:14.760
names down that was here tonight and some other guys and I think I'm just gonna reach

1164
01:17:14.760 --> 01:17:19.300
out we're gonna have some more conversation we're gonna continue into next week doing

1165
01:17:19.300 --> 01:17:24.680
this I want everyone to think and this is for recording sake as well I want all the

1166
01:17:24.940 --> 01:17:30.360
guys on here that were on here before tonight and record here listen to this recording I

1167
01:17:30.360 --> 01:17:41.840
want you to be thinking about what is it you're surrendering what do you want and really

1168
01:17:42.360 --> 01:17:48.700
contemplating stepping into the joy of the Lord being your strength and putting aside

1169
01:17:48.700 --> 01:17:55.060
everything else that you find your strength in and just really going after that joy because

1170
01:17:55.600 --> 01:18:02.860
if you know at the end of the day if we're not approaching what we're doing in our life

1171
01:18:02.860 --> 01:18:08.020
which is godly and what we're doing for God which is obviously godly and we're not doing

1172
01:18:08.020 --> 01:18:14.140
it with joy then you know it's like we're doing it wrong and again that's not condemnation that's

1173
01:18:14.140 --> 01:18:21.800
just like man they're the only reason that we do what we do is for the joy of the Lord you know

1174
01:18:21.800 --> 01:18:31.020
and that's powerful so what are you surrendering what do you want and really going after the goal

1175
01:18:31.020 --> 01:18:38.100
being the joy of the Lord and we'll end it with that so god bless you guys have a great great

1176
01:18:38.100 --> 01:18:42.040
week and I'll be reaching out later on this week see you soon