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Welcome to Supernatural Saturday.

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If it's your first Saturday with us, welcome.

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We're so glad you're here.

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This is the session every week where we lean into heaven.

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What is God saying?

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What is on his heart for his people, his children, and what is the current prophetic reality?

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So we have a good time, lots of revelation, lots of activation on Saturdays.

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I am currently in Austin, Texas, where the whole city is shut down because it's going

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to get a little cold, right?

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It's going to get below 32 degrees and it's raining, which means there might be a little

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ice.

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And people, I'm telling you, the grocery stores are cleaned out.

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It looks like COVID, right?

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There's no toilet paper.

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There's no meat.

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There's no bananas.

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Why?

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Why?

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What are people doing with these bananas?

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I want to know what's going on.

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There's no bananas in the entire city.

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I want to know why bananas, why?

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Why are people stockpiling bananas?

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What's happening?

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And you guys, the hilariousness of this is that it's one day and then the next day it's

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going to be 55 degrees.

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You know what doesn't survive in 55 degrees?

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Snow, ice.

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Coming from the Midwest where this is called Thursday, I'm just really confused as to what's

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going on here.

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So we all get a snow day, I guess.

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And because everything was going to be closed, we were forced to go out and, you know, make

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sure that we have enough food.

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And so that's what's up.

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All right.

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You guys, we're going to have fun today on Supernatural Saturday.

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Now I want to be, I want to be sensitive to the fact that there's some more scandals,

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some more church scandals that are hitting the news and the media right now.

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You guys, we've had so many.

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We've had so many.

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It started all the way back.

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Remember Hillsong, Australia based church and big church, mega church, and obviously

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there's some Hillsong branches here in the States, but they had that big scandal.

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They made huge documentaries about, you know, I think the pastor's name is Brian something,

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you know, they made a huge documentary about that and about all of the scandals with that

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whole organization.

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And a lot of good music comes out of that church, Hillsong music.

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And so a lot of people were shook with that.

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And then it just, it keeps going, right?

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Because you know why it's going to keep going, because we are in, we're in a season, we're

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in an era.

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Okay.

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And I believe we started in this era in 2010.

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God spoke to me at the beginning of the year in 2010 and told me that the shaking was beginning.

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And I'm like, well, what does that mean?

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And he said, it means that everything that's out of alignment is going to start to shake.

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All the industries, all the spheres of influence, it's going to start shaking.

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Why?

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Because the rest of the scripture says, so that what cannot be shaken has room to remain.

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It's a good news, friends, not bad news.

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It's not doomsday.

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It's God putting things into alignment.

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And honestly, in a lot of ways, friends, what it is, is it's God hearing the cries of the

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victims out there.

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The ones that we don't know about, it's him hearing their cries and it's him bringing

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them justice.

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That's really what's happening.

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And so what did we start seeing starting in 2010?

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We saw governments toppling.

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We saw all kinds of industries in this country starting to fall apart.

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We saw the healthcare industry starting to fall apart.

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We saw a lot of economic industries starting to fall apart.

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We saw Hollywood, remember, Hollywood started falling apart.

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Remember the Me Too movement?

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Remember all that?

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There was a reckoning.

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There's a reckoning, friends.

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There's a reckoning.

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And it's okay.

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For those of you that get afraid when you see these things, you shouldn't be afraid

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when you see these things, because Jesus said, when you see these things, just know that

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we're in the end days.

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We're in the end days.

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How long do the end days last?

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Well, I don't know.

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They've definitely been lasting for a long time.

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The signs that Jesus talked about with his disciples, they were like, how will we know?

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Well, obviously, they're not going to know, because they're not going to be alive on earth

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anymore.

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But he said, for the purpose, in my opinion, for perpetuity, that all of us coming after

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would see his words, he said, this is what will be a sign.

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that the end of the age has come.

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And there's a whole list of things.

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And friends, that list has been accurate

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of our society for generations.

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Wars and rumors of wars

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and children being disobedient to parents

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and scoffers and rebukers and all the things, friends.

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It's definitely been true for many, many, many,

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many, many, many, many, many, many, many, many decades.

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And so that being said,

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this is just more of that.

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But the good news is that in the shaking,

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the people that have built their house

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on the solid rock, friends,

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those of you that have founded your lives on Jesus

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and on his words and on his grace and on his mercy

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and on his power, the power of the Holy Spirit,

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yeah, we're gonna see the shaking.

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We're gonna be in the shaking,

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but we are not going to be fully shaken.

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I wanna remind you that it says

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that the storm beat against that house,

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just like it did against the house on the sand.

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It's not that there's not gonna be wind.

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It's not that there's not gonna be rain.

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It's not that there's not gonna be storms,

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but the house doesn't fall.

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That's the part of the story that you need to focus on.

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So guess what?

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When everyone else's house is on the sand

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and it's in shambles because they've never been taught

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how to build their house on the rock

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and they see your house still standing

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after storm, after storm, after storm, after storm,

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people are gonna start getting curious

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as to why your house is still up.

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And so that creates an opportunity for you to do what?

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To be a witness.

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That creates an opportunity for you

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to show people the love of God.

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That creates an opportunity for you to be blessed,

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to be a blessing.

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Amen?

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Doesn't it?

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It does.

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And so we're not gonna worry about this,

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but Hillsong turned into IHOP, turned into Morningstar,

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turned into Gateway, turned into,

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the list goes on and on of,

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my husband would call it Church Incorporated,

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but Church Incorporated just starting to shake.

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Businesses, churches that have become businesses,

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but a lot of people have held Bethel Church

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as kind of like the sacred Holy Grail.

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Like, oh, Bethel, that's a culture of honor.

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That's amazing.

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It's incredible.

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You know, nothing can ever touch that.

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And it's being touched, y'all.

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There's some stuff circulating.

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There's some voices beginning to get louder and louder

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saying, hey, I was victimized.

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This happened to me.

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Nobody did anything about it.

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And so I just want to tell all of you

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something that I learned the hard way 20 years ago.

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When my pastor went to prison, people fail.

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Now, this is not an indictment against Bethel.

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I actually know the leaders that are being accused

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of apathy, being accused of inaction.

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I know them personally.

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I've been on Chris Allison's podcast.

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I know him.

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I consider him a friend.

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And I just want to say this.

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People are not perfect.

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I have no idea what the truth is in this situation.

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I have no idea what the truth is in the accusations.

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I don't know.

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But I do know that a lot of people

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have felt spiritually abused in their lifetime.

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Just raise your hand if you've ever felt spiritually abused,

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if you've ever felt like you poured into something,

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people made promises to you,

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people used spiritual language to try to get you

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to do something that wasn't good for you.

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Whatever it is, whatever happened,

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you felt ostracized, you felt rejected

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by what's supposed to be the family of God,

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whatever, for whatever reason,

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maybe even felt spiritually abused by your own family

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because they used religious language to try to control you,

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to try to get you to do what they wanted you to do,

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try to get you to be obedient by threatening you with God.

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Raise your hand if you've ever felt

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any kind of spiritual hurt

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coming from people that you trusted.

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It's a lot of hands up, you guys.

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And tomorrow night, just to remind-

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to you is our last Sunday of the month. Can you believe it? January is already over and we're

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going to be having our community night. That's a community ministry night, and we will be talking

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more about spiritual abuse. I was going to do Supernatural Saturday on it, but I felt like

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Holy Spirit was taking me in a different direction. But we will do some ministry for those of you that

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have your hands up, because I believe that the Lord wants you to be fully free from this. Because

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once again, I learned 20 years ago the hard way, you guys. I had a nervous breakdown.

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I had a nervous breakdown. And I want to let you know that I have a book that's going to come out

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sometime this year called My Pastor Went to Prison, how I had to lose my religion to find my faith.

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I'm writing that book, and my husband is writing a companion book to that book called Church

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Incorporated. So we want to minister to people. I saw people literally lose their lives because

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my pastor went to prison. I made it out. I was on leadership. I was very close to the family.

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When I tell you that I was shooketh, I was shooketh to the core. But thank God my house was on the

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rock. Friends, I want to tell you that I don't even know if we know our houses are on the rock

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until the storm comes. I don't even know if there's any other way to test whether or not

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your house is on the rock. But what I do know is that I'm still standing.

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There were some things I think that needed to be rebuilt. There were probably some parts of

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my house that were on sinking sand. Because when we put people on pedestals, friends,

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we're setting them up. We're setting them up for failure. We're setting them up for a fall.

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And with the fall, we will fall too. Understand? So people do not belong on pedestals.

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Remember, God is always the source. He's the head of the human resource department,

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and he will send human resources for seasons, for reasons, sometimes for life.

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Not very often. You're going to have very few lifers, very few witnesses to your life.

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Your spouse will be one of those people, and hopefully you'll die a day apart from each other.

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Wouldn't that be beautiful? But even losing them is a very huge probability, not just a possibility.

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The one constant that we have is God. And we experience God through people. So this is where

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the rub comes in. We experience God through people. Yes, we experience God in our prayer

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time. We experience his presence. We experience him through worship. Yes, we do experience him

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supernaturally, spiritually. But a lot of times we experience him through people.

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He sends someone with a word. He sends someone with a comforting hug. He sends someone with

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encouragement or help. We experience him through people, right? And so we need to have people.

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You know what happens when you've been spiritually abused or you have felt spiritually rejected or

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hurt? You will pull away from that. And it is a lifeline. And that is what the enemy wants you to

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do. And so we will talk more about that tomorrow, about coming back into community or common unity

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with the people of faith. You have to trust again, but you don't have to trust people.

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You have to trust God. And when you trust God, God will put you in a place where you can trust people.

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We don't worship people. People fail.

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We don't give people blind trust just because they have the word pastor before their name.

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We are discerning and we allow God to give us the right amount of trust that's appropriate for the situation. Amen.

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Amen. Amen. Amen. Amen. So we'll talk more about that tomorrow night in ministry for those of you

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that are hurting with that. Remember, you guys, people have agendas. And so there's all kinds

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of people talking about this Bethel thing right now. Like I said, Bethel is the church that's being focused on right now. I will tell you one thing that I learned when my pastor went to prison, that just because someone does something wrong, doesn't mean that you forget everything that they did right.

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People fail. People miss the mark. Once again, I don't know what's true in this situation. I'm not privy to it. So I have no idea. But I have learned to take everything that I've learned and I'm not privy to it.

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But I have learned to take everything with a grain of salt. I have learned to take everything

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into consideration. I have learned to live a non-judgmental life because I

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know the word declares that I will be judged by the same measure I judge others.

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But it's important because I'm not part of it

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and I don't know the truth.

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And the truth is oftentimes in people's memories,

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very relative, and as they recount what has happened,

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because you remember, we see through filters

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and blind spots and lenses that are oftentimes dirty.

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And so it's important to take all that into consideration.

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There's always a why behind the what.

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And I do know that showing up with mercy and grace

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is always the right response.

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So that's what I have to say about that.

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So if you are hurting, I promise you,

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we will do more ministry tomorrow night.

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All right, but tonight, today,

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I wanna talk about something super fun,

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and that's shame.

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Doesn't that sound fun?

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This is what was on my heart.

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This is what I felt like God wanted us to go after.

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Because you guys, I don't know if you noticed,

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but since this year started, we've been building,

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we've been going somewhere.

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We got some incredible words at the end of last year

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about the siege being over,

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about it being a season

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where we don't have to make do anymore,

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that there's going to be an abundance, a free flow,

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that hose is unkinked.

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And we've started seeing breakthroughs.

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A lot of people have testimonies

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of long-awaited prayers being answered,

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including myself with my homeless brother,

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and other things that have happened,

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and just so excited about those testimonies.

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And then it being a season of firsts.

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And you guys know that I didn't even tell

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one of my closest friends that word,

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the season of firsts word that God gave me.

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And in my birthday card on January 16th,

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or I think it was like the 13th that I had dinner with her,

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she wrote that she felt like this year

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was gonna be a season of first fruits for me.

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She totally confirmed that word.

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And that's not just a Jackie word,

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that's an all of us word.

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So you guys, the season of firsts.

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And remember, you have to activate that.

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You can do that by just doing some silly things

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that you've never done before.

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Just go out and, you know,

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go someplace you've never gone before,

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do something you've never done before,

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just by, that's a way of just activating and believing,

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saying, hey God, I believe you,

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that this is a season of first times.

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And good, good first times, not bad first times.

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And so exciting stuff.

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Exciting, exciting, exciting, exciting.

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So as we move forward into this word,

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I just wanna let you know that God's building.

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Oh, and then last week, last week was powerful.

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If you didn't hear it, you guys,

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there's been a lot of really powerful

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supernatural Saturdays.

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Remember Kizazad?

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Is someone trying to Kizazad you?

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The story of the prodigal son?

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If you didn't hear that supernatural Saturday,

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you definitely need to go find that one,

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because that one's really, really powerful.

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So I'm just remembering all the different ones

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that have happened,

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and Holy Spirit has just been pouring out upon us,

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pouring out upon us.

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And so last week was really powerful,

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because it was about how our gifts have been overextended

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and they've become weakness,

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but how God wants to, and this is the year

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that he is going to make them gifts again.

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Like they're going to be gifts in our lives

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and not liabilities any longer.

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So if you haven't heard that one,

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please go listen to that as well.

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So building on that, what we have to get rid of,

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or what we have to allow to be removed from our lives

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is shame.

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I know you've heard this saying,

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but I'm going to go ahead and say it now.

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Guilt tells you that you've done something wrong.

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You know, you feel guilty when you've made a mistake,

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you sinned, you've done something wrong,

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but shame tells you that you are wrong.

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Guilt tells you that you've done something bad

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and shame tells you that you are bad.

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Those are very different things.

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And what I know about shame,

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because I carried shame all of my life.

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I carried shame all of my life,

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because when I came into this world,

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I was born into a very broken place

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with broken people doing very broken things.

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And when those things were done to me,

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specifically being sexually abused

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by the time I was two or three years old

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and going forward for almost a decade of my life,

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I was always carrying shame.

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I was always carrying, you know, I'm bad, I'm bad.

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And you know what you do when you think you're bad?

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You do bad things.

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So that's what happens.

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You get in trouble.

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I was always in trouble as a child.

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I was always up to something.

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I was always doing something

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that I wasn't supposed to be doing.

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I was lying, I was manipulating, I was mischievous.

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I was rebellious.

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I obviously didn't trust any adults.

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I mean, why would I?

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I was being raised in an environment

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where adults were not trustworthy

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and that they were dangerous and unsafe people.

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And basically from a very young age,

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I realized that nobody was driving the bus.

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And so what happens then is that you become very independent.

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You become very self-sufficient.

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You don't ask anyone for anything.

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And deep down inside, you don't think

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that you deserve anything anyway.

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Anyone else relate to any of that?

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So I know all about shame.

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And shame will definitely lead you down

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some very dark alleys,

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doing some things that cause more shame.

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The one thing that I learned about shame

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after I became a believer is that shame

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likes to reproduce itself.

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So we have shame because of whatever

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the thing is in our lives.

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We're carrying shame.

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We feel like we're bad.

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We feel like we're damaged.

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We feel like we're disqualified, unredeemable.

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And it's funny because you can think

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the opposite about everybody else.

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You can think that they're qualified,

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they're loved, they're redeemed.

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You can even be a minister and hold high levels of shame.

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You believe the finished work of the cross works,

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it just doesn't work for you.

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And it's unconscious.

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It's not like a conscious thought always, right?

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So we're carrying these levels of shame

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and they like to reproduce themselves.

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So shame reproduces itself

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over and over and over and over again.

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So if you have it, it likes to draw in more of itself.

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So if you're operating in shame,

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oftentimes you'll end up doing things

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that you're ashamed of.

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And that's where we have to break out of that.

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So today's Supernatural Saturday

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is just about that very thing,

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how shame is a thief.

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God really put this on my heart

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because I was watching someone who was living in regret.

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And you guys, regret's not necessarily a terrible emotion,

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but if you stay there, if you stay in regret,

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oftentimes it is going to turn to shame.

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It's good to see that, hey, this wasn't my best decision.

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It's good to be able to be self-aware that way.

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It's good to know that, hey, I could have done better.

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I shouldn't have done this.

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This didn't turn out right.

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I did this for the wrong reasons or the wrong motivations.

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That's good, that's self-aware.

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And that awareness should lead to repentance.

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But it doesn't lead to repentance

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if you don't believe God is good.

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I can prove that to you in the Word of God.

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The Bible says it's the goodness of God

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that leads people to repentance.

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And we all make mistakes, friends, we all sin.

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There's not one person on this call this morning

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or in the world walking around that has not sinned.

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And that does not on a regular basis,

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make mistakes or do something that I call unworthy of you.

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By the way, that's what I call sin.

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Doing something that's unworthy of who you are.

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Oftentimes sin is born out of fear.

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Fear of what?

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Fear that God's not good.

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Fear that you have to go get it yourself

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if you're gonna get it.

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And then we go about it in ways

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that cause us to feel ashamed.

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I wish I wouldn't have done that that way.

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Guys, I know people that are still carrying their V cards,

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they're still virgins, okay?

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They're now upwards in their 40s.

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They've never been married, obviously.

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And they've never even really been close to being married.

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And they are so angry about it

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that in order to punish God

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for not giving them what they've been praying

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for all their lives,

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they go out and punish themselves by being promiscuous.

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Oh, okay, God, you're not gonna give me a husband or wife?

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Oh, I'm gonna show you.

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I'm gonna go out and have sex with a bunch of people.

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How do you like that?

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A lot of people do that, friends.

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They do very self-destructive things

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because they've been waiting for such a long time

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because unfortunately the church age teaches you to wait,

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teaches you to go sit in some dark room

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and hope that heaven pulls your number from the holy lottery.

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It's bad teaching, you guys.

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And can I tell you that I think bad teaching

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actually leads to sin

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because it gets people so frustrated and so messed up

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and so turned upside down.

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They literally think that God's holding out on them

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because they're fed the steady diet of,

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he's almost here, it's almost here, it's almost here.

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God, God, you're waiting.

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Don't give up, don't give up.

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No, you're not waiting on God.

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You're not waiting on God.

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Everything has been available

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since the finished work of the cross.

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We have to take action.

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We have to take imperfect action.

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That's not striving.

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I wish this theology of striving never was a thing

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because what it's doing

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is it's keeping people from acting in faith

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because faith without works is dead.

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Now, there are some heart motivations that come into play when we talk about this.

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There are people who are desperate.

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There are people who have idolized something as the magic bullet of happiness, and they're

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striving continually to get it, and they get themselves in bad places.

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Let's just take this area, love life.

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They're looking for love in all the wrong places because they just want it at any cost.

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That's what we do in the first phase of Last Year Single.

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We help get that out of you.

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When you come in here, we help put you back into alignment with the understanding that

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you've been created to have this desire.

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That's why you have it.

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It's not a bad thing.

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It's nothing to be ashamed of.

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You don't have to strive.

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You don't have to try to make it happen yourself.

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You do have to participate in your love story.

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But oftentimes, people are doing one or the other.

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They're either going full throttle, 100 miles an hour down a dead-end road because their

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heart is super codependent and just looking, looking, looking for anyone who will take

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them in.

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Or they're on the whole other side of the spectrum where they're just sitting in the

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dark waiting room, just waiting sorrowfully, not understanding why this is happening for

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everyone else but them because they've been faithful and they love God and they're a good

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person and they've done everything right, everything the way that they're supposed to

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do it, and they haven't tried to make it happen themselves, and yet it's still not happening.

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And then everybody else is in the middle somewhere.

501
00:26:36.760 --> 00:26:40.400
Those are the two spectrums, and then everyone else is in the middle somewhere.

502
00:26:40.400 --> 00:26:43.600
No, you guys.

503
00:26:43.600 --> 00:26:45.520
These theologies are theologies of man.

504
00:26:45.520 --> 00:26:49.000
They're not theologies of God and they're not biblical.

505
00:26:49.000 --> 00:26:55.080
The waiting theology was taken from one scripture in the Bible out of context.

506
00:26:55.080 --> 00:26:59.720
It's not a thing.

507
00:26:59.720 --> 00:27:03.320
You have a very limited amount of time on earth, and I know today's Supernatural Saturday

508
00:27:03.320 --> 00:27:07.320
is about shame, but I'm just going to follow the Holy Spirit and this is where he's going.

509
00:27:07.320 --> 00:27:10.560
You have a very limited amount of time on earth.

510
00:27:10.560 --> 00:27:13.680
Most people are only going to live 4,000 weeks.

511
00:27:13.680 --> 00:27:17.080
Please take that in.

512
00:27:17.080 --> 00:27:21.320
Somewhere around 4,000 weeks.

513
00:27:21.320 --> 00:27:26.640
That's about 80 years old, in case you're trying to do the math.

514
00:27:26.640 --> 00:27:28.360
That's it.

515
00:27:28.360 --> 00:27:30.040
Somewhere around there.

516
00:27:30.040 --> 00:27:33.780
The human lifespan, somewhere around there.

517
00:27:33.780 --> 00:27:36.100
Some less, some a little more.

518
00:27:36.100 --> 00:27:40.180
Some people make it all the way up to 100, whatever, they're the anomaly, but you understand

519
00:27:40.180 --> 00:27:41.180
what I'm saying.

520
00:27:41.180 --> 00:27:45.700
You have a limited amount of time on earth.

521
00:27:45.700 --> 00:27:52.620
God isn't going to sit you for decades and decades and decades in some waiting room.

522
00:27:52.620 --> 00:27:57.740
This is your only earth experience and the things we're talking about today, right now,

523
00:27:57.740 --> 00:28:05.180
specifically marriage, relationship, it's only for earth.

524
00:28:05.180 --> 00:28:06.820
And you know what it's for?

525
00:28:06.820 --> 00:28:12.940
It's to help you to understand the love of God.

526
00:28:12.940 --> 00:28:16.060
You know what you will not need help understanding in heaven?

527
00:28:16.060 --> 00:28:21.380
The love of God.

528
00:28:21.380 --> 00:28:22.500
It is to refine you.

529
00:28:22.500 --> 00:28:29.560
I call it God's maturity plan for mankind.

530
00:28:29.560 --> 00:28:35.460
If marriage is doing what it's supposed to be doing, it will make you a better person.

531
00:28:35.460 --> 00:28:37.760
It will make you more patient.

532
00:28:37.760 --> 00:28:51.120
It will make you more kind, loving, caring, selfless, right?

533
00:28:51.120 --> 00:28:52.480
It'll teach you how to partner.

534
00:28:52.480 --> 00:28:54.880
It'll teach you how to play well with others.

535
00:28:54.880 --> 00:29:03.920
That's why it really just gets on my nerves that people put such an emphasis on sexual

536
00:29:03.920 --> 00:29:06.160
attraction when it comes to getting married.

537
00:29:06.160 --> 00:29:12.360
Yeah, sex is good friends, but sex is the purpose of sex is to cause there to be a deeper

538
00:29:12.360 --> 00:29:20.080
intimacy with you and the person that you have partnered with.

539
00:29:20.080 --> 00:29:21.440
That's the whole purpose of it.

540
00:29:21.440 --> 00:29:31.040
And of course, babies, it creates a deeper intimacy.

541
00:29:31.040 --> 00:29:32.740
It's not the first thing.

542
00:29:32.740 --> 00:29:34.800
It's not the main thing.

543
00:29:34.820 --> 00:29:38.820
It's actually a tool for all the main things to get better.

544
00:29:48.320 --> 00:29:49.320
We're not going to get into that.

545
00:29:51.320 --> 00:29:53.960
All right, so shame is a thief, you guys.

546
00:29:53.960 --> 00:29:54.960
It's a thief.

547
00:29:54.960 --> 00:29:55.960
What's it stealing?

548
00:29:55.960 --> 00:29:56.960
It's stealing a lot of stuff.

549
00:29:56.960 --> 00:29:57.960
It's stealing your voice.

550
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:03.500
A lot of times, I see it steal people's boldness,

551
00:30:06.280 --> 00:30:07.880
and I don't mean boldness with humans,

552
00:30:07.880 --> 00:30:09.240
I mean boldness with God.

553
00:30:10.160 --> 00:30:11.000
Because once again,

554
00:30:11.000 --> 00:30:12.440
the thing that brings people to repentance

555
00:30:12.440 --> 00:30:13.380
is the goodness of God.

556
00:30:13.380 --> 00:30:14.680
They believe that God is good,

557
00:30:14.680 --> 00:30:17.240
and that is why they come to Him in repentance.

558
00:30:17.240 --> 00:30:18.800
They realize they've been on their own road,

559
00:30:18.800 --> 00:30:19.640
doing their own thing,

560
00:30:19.640 --> 00:30:20.600
and they want to turn around,

561
00:30:20.600 --> 00:30:22.160
they want to do things God's way,

562
00:30:22.160 --> 00:30:24.260
because they know that He's a good Father.

563
00:30:24.260 --> 00:30:29.260
But shame will keep you hiding from God,

564
00:30:31.860 --> 00:30:33.220
and we're gonna visit that in a second.

565
00:30:33.220 --> 00:30:34.500
We'll visit it from the very beginning,

566
00:30:34.500 --> 00:30:36.380
because shame entered the earth.

567
00:30:36.380 --> 00:30:38.420
The ability to feel ashamed entered the earth

568
00:30:38.420 --> 00:30:40.540
with original sins, so we'll look at that.

569
00:30:40.540 --> 00:30:42.300
So it might steal your voice,

570
00:30:42.300 --> 00:30:45.340
your voice meaning speaking up for yourself,

571
00:30:45.340 --> 00:30:47.660
using your voice, using your gifts, your talents,

572
00:30:47.660 --> 00:30:49.060
that's what I mean when I say voice.

573
00:30:49.060 --> 00:30:50.180
It might steal your boldness,

574
00:30:50.180 --> 00:30:52.340
your boldness specifically with God,

575
00:30:52.380 --> 00:30:54.820
and it might steal some of your blessings too,

576
00:30:54.820 --> 00:30:56.480
because God is always blessing us.

577
00:30:56.480 --> 00:30:57.980
One thing that I know about the Father

578
00:30:57.980 --> 00:30:59.720
is He's always blessing us,

579
00:30:59.720 --> 00:31:02.220
and so if you do not feel blessed,

580
00:31:02.220 --> 00:31:03.740
if you feel like it's been a long time

581
00:31:03.740 --> 00:31:04.580
since you've been blessed,

582
00:31:04.580 --> 00:31:06.320
you're probably dealing with some kind of

583
00:31:06.320 --> 00:31:07.820
inability to receive.

584
00:31:11.700 --> 00:31:14.180
Guys, this is all food for thought.

585
00:31:14.180 --> 00:31:16.180
I know Supernatural Saturdays are a lot,

586
00:31:17.380 --> 00:31:18.620
a lot to take in.

587
00:31:19.500 --> 00:31:21.580
But first and foremost, we just have to remember,

588
00:31:21.580 --> 00:31:22.740
and this is the one thing that I want you

589
00:31:22.740 --> 00:31:25.100
to really, really take in right now.

590
00:31:26.860 --> 00:31:27.900
Go ahead and close your eyes

591
00:31:27.900 --> 00:31:30.580
if that's what helps you really listen and focus.

592
00:31:31.660 --> 00:31:33.620
Shame is not an emotion.

593
00:31:36.500 --> 00:31:38.460
I was, I think I went on a rabbit trail,

594
00:31:38.460 --> 00:31:41.660
but I was talking about how I see a lot of people,

595
00:31:41.660 --> 00:31:43.700
they're choosing regret and shame

596
00:31:44.620 --> 00:31:47.340
over God's bigger picture.

597
00:31:47.340 --> 00:31:49.340
God's bigger plan.

598
00:31:50.580 --> 00:31:53.140
You guys, for every mistake that you have made in your life,

599
00:31:53.140 --> 00:31:55.140
any mistake, it doesn't matter how recent it is,

600
00:31:55.140 --> 00:31:56.640
God has a bigger plan.

601
00:31:57.740 --> 00:32:00.380
When we release those mistakes in repentance,

602
00:32:00.380 --> 00:32:02.140
we get to be part of the bigger plan.

603
00:32:02.140 --> 00:32:03.620
God will use it to your good.

604
00:32:03.620 --> 00:32:05.840
Romans 8, 28 is a real thing.

605
00:32:07.220 --> 00:32:08.300
It's a real thing.

606
00:32:09.140 --> 00:32:12.260
But when we hold on to regret,

607
00:32:12.260 --> 00:32:16.060
when we hold on to guilt and we let it turn into shame,

608
00:32:16.060 --> 00:32:18.420
that is blocking God's plan.

609
00:32:18.420 --> 00:32:22.140
It's not that he doesn't want to, Romans 8, 28, you,

610
00:32:22.140 --> 00:32:24.380
it's that you're not allowing him to.

611
00:32:27.420 --> 00:32:28.300
You're not.

612
00:32:28.300 --> 00:32:29.220
So close your eyes.

613
00:32:29.220 --> 00:32:30.620
Shame is not an emotion.

614
00:32:31.460 --> 00:32:32.620
It's a strategy.

615
00:32:34.420 --> 00:32:36.460
A strategy of the kingdom of darkness

616
00:32:37.660 --> 00:32:38.940
from the very beginning

617
00:32:40.700 --> 00:32:42.660
to keep us from doing and being

618
00:32:42.660 --> 00:32:44.660
what God created us to do and be.

619
00:32:45.660 --> 00:32:46.900
It's not an emotion, you guys.

620
00:32:46.900 --> 00:32:47.980
It's not an emotion.

621
00:32:47.980 --> 00:32:50.820
Not like happiness or peace or joy.

622
00:32:50.820 --> 00:32:52.820
Shame is a strategy.

623
00:32:52.820 --> 00:32:54.300
It's a demonic strategy.

624
00:32:55.700 --> 00:32:57.620
And it doesn't just make you feel bad.

625
00:32:59.180 --> 00:33:00.820
It does make you feel bad,

626
00:33:00.820 --> 00:33:02.740
but it also makes you feel small.

627
00:33:03.580 --> 00:33:04.500
It makes you quiet.

628
00:33:04.500 --> 00:33:06.380
It makes you hesitant.

629
00:33:06.380 --> 00:33:09.300
It makes you ashamed to ask or receive anything from God.

630
00:33:09.300 --> 00:33:10.980
It makes you ashamed to hope.

631
00:33:14.740 --> 00:33:15.940
These are things,

632
00:33:15.940 --> 00:33:17.780
if you're carrying shame around with you,

633
00:33:17.780 --> 00:33:18.740
you're not going to ask.

634
00:33:18.740 --> 00:33:20.500
You're not going to ask for help.

635
00:33:20.500 --> 00:33:21.860
You're not going to receive

636
00:33:21.860 --> 00:33:23.740
because you don't think you deserve it.

637
00:33:23.740 --> 00:33:24.580
You're not going to hope

638
00:33:24.580 --> 00:33:26.340
that things are going to get better.

639
00:33:30.340 --> 00:33:31.900
That's why it's a strategy of the devil.

640
00:33:31.900 --> 00:33:32.740
Think about it.

641
00:33:32.740 --> 00:33:34.660
The devil doesn't have to come after you.

642
00:33:34.660 --> 00:33:37.020
The kingdom of darkness doesn't have to come after you

643
00:33:37.020 --> 00:33:38.820
and try to destroy you

644
00:33:38.820 --> 00:33:40.940
because you're just going to destroy yourself.

645
00:33:41.340 --> 00:33:42.860
You're just going to self-limit.

646
00:33:45.860 --> 00:33:46.940
The prison door is open,

647
00:33:46.940 --> 00:33:48.420
but you're just going to sit in the cell

648
00:33:48.420 --> 00:33:50.460
because that's what shame tells you to do.

649
00:33:51.980 --> 00:33:54.020
It's been unlocked since the finished work of the cross.

650
00:33:54.020 --> 00:33:55.340
The door is open.

651
00:33:55.340 --> 00:33:57.700
But when we have shame, we will self-punish.

652
00:33:57.700 --> 00:33:59.060
Does that make sense?

653
00:33:59.060 --> 00:34:00.740
And you'll see it in your decisions,

654
00:34:00.740 --> 00:34:02.460
the people that you choose to be around,

655
00:34:02.460 --> 00:34:03.660
the things that you put up with,

656
00:34:03.660 --> 00:34:05.740
the things that you eat and put in your body.

657
00:34:05.740 --> 00:34:08.500
Yes, friends, that's not fat

658
00:34:08.500 --> 00:34:10.100
that you're carrying around with you.

659
00:34:10.100 --> 00:34:11.260
That's not fat that you're carrying around.

660
00:34:11.260 --> 00:34:12.300
That's shame.

661
00:34:15.219 --> 00:34:17.260
You're continually punishing yourself.

662
00:34:17.260 --> 00:34:19.780
You're doing bad things to yourself.

663
00:34:19.780 --> 00:34:21.580
You're killing yourself slowly.

664
00:34:26.620 --> 00:34:28.060
By the people that you date,

665
00:34:28.060 --> 00:34:29.699
by the relationships you entertain,

666
00:34:29.699 --> 00:34:32.139
by the friends that you have.

667
00:34:32.139 --> 00:34:33.820
You want to have a shame indicator.

668
00:34:33.820 --> 00:34:36.300
Do you have friends that are users?

669
00:34:36.300 --> 00:34:37.780
Are you surrounded by takers?

670
00:34:37.780 --> 00:34:39.540
You're the only giver in the group?

671
00:34:40.620 --> 00:34:41.659
That's shame.

672
00:34:48.380 --> 00:34:51.020
That's you trying to prove that you're a good person.

673
00:34:53.139 --> 00:34:54.500
Well, I'm just so loyal.

674
00:34:54.500 --> 00:34:55.860
No, you're shamed.

675
00:34:59.220 --> 00:35:00.060
Well, I'm just so.

676
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:10.040
Jackie, you don't understand. No. You don't love yourself. I hope this is

677
00:35:10.040 --> 00:35:15.160
hidden for someone. God wants to break you out of this. Prison door is open and

678
00:35:15.160 --> 00:35:22.220
this really matters. Let's look at Genesis. Before the fall, before original

679
00:35:22.220 --> 00:35:25.720
sin, before the eating of the fruit, before the whole debacle, you see that

680
00:35:25.720 --> 00:35:32.560
they were naked and unashamed. They were free, you guys. They had no burden of

681
00:35:32.560 --> 00:35:37.320
guilt upon them. They had, you know, they were the, you know, the eternal sunshine

682
00:35:37.320 --> 00:35:44.200
of the spotless mind. They were fully seen. They were fully provided for by God.

683
00:35:44.200 --> 00:35:49.400
They were in full connection with Father, Son, and Holy Spirit in the garden,

684
00:35:49.400 --> 00:35:58.360
walking with God and talking with God. Can you even imagine? But then after sin,

685
00:35:58.920 --> 00:36:05.360
their eyes are opened, right? That's what the Bible says, but not in a good way.

686
00:36:05.360 --> 00:36:08.680
This is why God didn't even want them to eat from that tree, you guys, because he

687
00:36:08.680 --> 00:36:13.920
did not want them to experience this.

688
00:36:14.400 --> 00:36:19.880
Shame entered, and what happens then? Hiding begins, doesn't it? Immediately

689
00:36:19.880 --> 00:36:28.440
when shame enters, people begin to hide, don't they? They begin to hide. So sin did not

690
00:36:28.440 --> 00:36:33.560
cause God to withdraw. God was still, he met them. He still came like, hey, let's

691
00:36:33.560 --> 00:36:40.280
have our evening stroll, right? Sin didn't cause God to withdraw from them. Shame

692
00:36:40.360 --> 00:36:44.680
caused them to withdraw from God. It caused them to hide.

693
00:36:49.240 --> 00:36:53.880
Caused them to hide, you guys. And this really matters, and the reason why it matters is

694
00:36:53.880 --> 00:37:00.040
because God came looking for them. He came looking for them, and he's looking for you

695
00:37:00.040 --> 00:37:06.200
right now, but shame convinces us to run and hide. Convinces us that we're not worthy

696
00:37:06.280 --> 00:37:11.800
of God looking for us. It convinces us that what we've done is unredeemable or what's

697
00:37:11.800 --> 00:37:15.800
been done to us. A lot of us are carrying secondhand shame because of something that

698
00:37:15.800 --> 00:37:24.080
someone else has done to us that now has become our identity. When we're in relationship

699
00:37:24.080 --> 00:37:31.120
with the abusers, users, losers, beaters, cheaters, a lot of times we take on the identity

700
00:37:31.200 --> 00:37:37.600
of the lied to, the cheated on, the abused. We take on the identity of that. And so it's

701
00:37:37.600 --> 00:37:39.680
their shame, but now we've taken it on.

702
00:37:46.800 --> 00:37:48.000
It's really important, you guys.

703
00:37:51.880 --> 00:37:56.240
This is why a lot of people will cut and run from a potential relationship because they're

704
00:37:56.240 --> 00:38:00.240
carrying shame that won't allow them to go any deeper and let anyone actually really

705
00:38:00.320 --> 00:38:04.240
see them because you're convinced that if they really see you, they're not going to

706
00:38:04.240 --> 00:38:08.320
like you. And that might really be an unconscious thought, not something that you consciously

707
00:38:08.320 --> 00:38:14.560
think, but it's there. It's there. A lot of people are carrying shame around like a low

708
00:38:14.560 --> 00:38:22.640
level fever, like a low grade fever. You don't really know what's wrong. You just know that

709
00:38:22.640 --> 00:38:29.120
you're tired, right? When we have a high fever, a lot of times we're, you know, if it's acute,

710
00:38:29.120 --> 00:38:34.640
it's dramatic, right? But a low grade fever, it's not acute, it's not dramatic. We're not

711
00:38:34.640 --> 00:38:40.240
having a full breakdown. Low grade fevers don't usually send us to the ER, but they

712
00:38:40.240 --> 00:38:51.040
just slowly drain our strengths, don't they? Slowly drain our strength. And friends, for

713
00:38:51.040 --> 00:38:54.640
those of you that have a high grade fever, like you're dealing with not low grade shame,

714
00:38:54.640 --> 00:38:59.120
you're dealing with high grade shame. You usually look for medication. So you're always

715
00:38:59.120 --> 00:39:07.280
doing something to try to medicate it instead of allowing it to just be taken away. But

716
00:39:07.280 --> 00:39:12.240
let's talk about that low grade shame because I think that more people have that than anything

717
00:39:12.240 --> 00:39:18.360
else. And what happens with that is we just adapt to it. We learn to live with it. Remember,

718
00:39:18.360 --> 00:39:23.280
it's not sending us to the ER. We're not having a nervous breakdown. We're not in the psychiatrist

719
00:39:23.280 --> 00:39:30.040
office, but we're constantly living with self-doubt. We're muting our desires. We're

720
00:39:30.040 --> 00:39:34.200
just convincing ourselves that we don't deserve to want those things. So we don't want them

721
00:39:34.200 --> 00:39:39.160
or at least we don't go after them. We might have those desires, but we don't go after

722
00:39:39.160 --> 00:39:45.080
those desires. We lower our expectations for sure. Anytime there is an opportunity or an

723
00:39:45.080 --> 00:39:51.440
open door, we hesitate. Instead of running through it, we hesitate. We become indecisive

724
00:39:51.440 --> 00:39:59.520
because we have a difficult time receiving love, money, favor.

725
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:01.000
Rest.

726
00:40:01.000 --> 00:40:02.000
Come on.

727
00:40:02.000 --> 00:40:03.560
I want to see it in the chat right now.

728
00:40:03.560 --> 00:40:04.560
Am I talking to you?

729
00:40:04.560 --> 00:40:06.280
You're like, man, I didn't know it was shame.

730
00:40:06.280 --> 00:40:11.640
Jackie, you're diagnosing me right now, but I do have a difficult time receiving love,

731
00:40:11.640 --> 00:40:15.760
favor, rest, opportunities.

732
00:40:15.760 --> 00:40:18.000
If something comes, I always think that it's too good to be true.

733
00:40:18.000 --> 00:40:24.480
I don't act upon it immediately because I'm afraid of being disappointed.

734
00:40:24.480 --> 00:40:31.360
Guys, when we have this chronic shame, we don't necessarily feel broken because we've

735
00:40:31.360 --> 00:40:32.440
learned to adapt to it.

736
00:40:32.440 --> 00:40:35.840
We just feel tired.

737
00:40:35.840 --> 00:40:36.960
We just feel hopeless.

738
00:40:36.960 --> 00:40:37.960
We feel small.

739
00:40:37.960 --> 00:40:39.760
We feel a little bit behind everybody else.

740
00:40:39.760 --> 00:40:53.800
We feel disconnected, and if we don't allow God to heal it, then we'll just continue to

741
00:40:53.800 --> 00:40:55.480
medicate it, you guys, and what do we do?

742
00:40:55.480 --> 00:40:56.480
How do we do that?

743
00:40:56.480 --> 00:41:00.800
We just stay busy, so you don't have to think about it, right?

744
00:41:00.800 --> 00:41:01.800
I see people nodding their heads.

745
00:41:01.800 --> 00:41:04.080
You just stay busy.

746
00:41:04.080 --> 00:41:09.880
Years ago, God gave me an acronym for the word busy, B-U-S-Y, and it's being under Satan's

747
00:41:09.880 --> 00:41:14.240
yoke because I was always busy.

748
00:41:14.240 --> 00:41:19.720
I was always busy, you guys, because I didn't want to be alone with my thoughts.

749
00:41:19.720 --> 00:41:24.960
I always stayed busy so I wouldn't have to worry or think or be anxious.

750
00:41:24.960 --> 00:41:25.960
I didn't know how to rest.

751
00:41:25.960 --> 00:41:29.200
I didn't know how to meditate.

752
00:41:29.200 --> 00:41:30.600
I didn't know how to do those things.

753
00:41:30.600 --> 00:41:31.600
Busy, busy, busy.

754
00:41:31.600 --> 00:41:32.600
Calendar's full.

755
00:41:32.600 --> 00:41:39.840
I don't want to even take one moment to even think about what I'm thinking about, so we

756
00:41:39.840 --> 00:41:41.720
medicate like that sometimes.

757
00:41:41.720 --> 00:41:43.520
We overfunction.

758
00:41:43.520 --> 00:41:47.920
So many of us overfunction, and we wonder why we have nervous breakdowns and physical

759
00:41:47.920 --> 00:41:54.280
breakdowns, especially when we get into midlife and our hormones start going nuts.

760
00:41:54.280 --> 00:41:57.000
Gentlemen, that's for you, too.

761
00:41:57.000 --> 00:42:00.360
Overfunctioning, you will hit a brick wall eventually.

762
00:42:00.360 --> 00:42:02.280
Perfectionism is another way we deal with shame, you guys.

763
00:42:02.280 --> 00:42:06.840
If I'm perfect, then people have to accept me, and they won't know just how messed up

764
00:42:06.840 --> 00:42:08.520
I am.

765
00:42:08.520 --> 00:42:13.240
So we go into the realm of perfectionism, trying to get everything done, doing too much

766
00:42:13.360 --> 00:42:18.160
for too many people, trying to do it perfectly, trying to achieve.

767
00:42:18.160 --> 00:42:29.760
Some other symptoms of low-grade chronic shame are self-deprecating talk, humor.

768
00:42:29.760 --> 00:42:33.400
You have a lot of spirituality without intimacy with God.

769
00:42:33.400 --> 00:42:35.960
You do all the things, but you don't really feel God's presence.

770
00:42:35.960 --> 00:42:37.200
You don't feel Him close to you.

771
00:42:37.200 --> 00:42:40.280
You're spiritual, but you're not intimate with God because you're not letting Him get

772
00:42:40.280 --> 00:42:42.160
close.

773
00:42:42.160 --> 00:42:46.200
A lot of people pride themselves, especially women, pride themselves on being low-maintenance.

774
00:42:46.200 --> 00:42:47.760
Oh, I don't eat a lot.

775
00:42:47.760 --> 00:42:49.400
Yeah, that's called shame.

776
00:42:49.400 --> 00:42:52.200
Oh, no, no, you don't understand, Jackie.

777
00:42:52.200 --> 00:42:55.360
I'm just a low-maintenance woman, no?

778
00:42:55.360 --> 00:42:57.960
You don't think that you deserve a lot.

779
00:42:57.960 --> 00:43:01.920
And the problem with this is that when you see other people not being low-maintenance,

780
00:43:01.920 --> 00:43:03.200
you're going to start judging them.

781
00:43:03.200 --> 00:43:05.640
Well, why does she have to have that car or that purse?

782
00:43:05.640 --> 00:43:08.120
Or why does she have to have her hair done every month?

783
00:43:08.120 --> 00:43:09.120
You know, why does it...

784
00:43:09.120 --> 00:43:12.720
Because she loves herself, that's why.

785
00:43:12.720 --> 00:43:16.160
She thinks that she's worth it in a lot of cases.

786
00:43:16.160 --> 00:43:21.600
I mean, sometimes people are trying to compensate for shame that way with labels and expensive

787
00:43:21.600 --> 00:43:23.080
things.

788
00:43:23.080 --> 00:43:29.880
But a lot of people just like to treat themselves because they like themselves.

789
00:43:29.880 --> 00:43:33.880
And if it's been a long time since you treated yourself because you like yourself and you

790
00:43:33.880 --> 00:43:38.440
think that you're worthy of being treated well, then we need to talk about that because

791
00:43:38.760 --> 00:43:41.800
that's chronic shame probably.

792
00:43:41.800 --> 00:43:48.760
People that never ask for help, these are all symptoms, you guys.

793
00:43:48.760 --> 00:43:51.100
These are medicators for chronic shame.

794
00:43:51.100 --> 00:43:55.680
And medication is not going to cure this low-grade fever.

795
00:43:55.680 --> 00:43:59.760
It's just going to keep you functional, probably enough to survive in the moment, but it's

796
00:43:59.760 --> 00:44:02.120
never going to make you well enough to thrive.

797
00:44:02.120 --> 00:44:03.120
Please take that in.

798
00:44:03.280 --> 00:44:08.640
It might keep you functional enough to survive, but it is never going to make you well enough

799
00:44:08.640 --> 00:44:12.480
to thrive.

800
00:44:12.480 --> 00:44:15.200
We don't want to survive anymore.

801
00:44:15.200 --> 00:44:19.640
We want to thrive, don't we?

802
00:44:19.640 --> 00:44:22.800
And chronic shame is not going to ruin your life overnight.

803
00:44:22.800 --> 00:44:28.280
A lot of people carry chronic shame.

804
00:44:28.280 --> 00:44:33.200
But it does something even more dangerous.

805
00:44:33.200 --> 00:44:45.400
It quietly makes you negotiate your destiny by settling.

806
00:44:45.400 --> 00:44:56.120
Come on, y'all, take it in.

807
00:44:56.120 --> 00:44:58.040
A lot of you are getting an aha moment right now.

808
00:44:58.040 --> 00:45:00.040
You're like, oh my gosh, I see that.

809
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.840
this. I see this happening to me. Jackie, you're putting a name on it. It's shame.

810
00:45:12.240 --> 00:45:16.720
That's why the scripture in the New Testament said that he would be our God and we would be

811
00:45:16.720 --> 00:45:19.360
his people and we would never be ashamed again.

812
00:45:19.360 --> 00:45:30.720
Shame is a choice, you guys. It's a choice. We're all going to mess up. We're all going

813
00:45:30.720 --> 00:45:36.560
to make mistakes. You do not have to beat yourself up, punish yourself up chronically for that.

814
00:45:38.720 --> 00:45:43.120
Jesus died for that on the cross. Repentance leads to change.

815
00:45:43.120 --> 00:45:53.520
The word itself means to turn around. It leads to a turnaround. Shame doesn't.

816
00:45:56.880 --> 00:46:01.360
Shame leads to you going down, negotiating your destiny downward.

817
00:46:01.920 --> 00:46:06.160
You're going to settle for less than what you're capable of, less than what God created you for.

818
00:46:06.160 --> 00:46:08.400
You're probably going to stay silent when you should speak up.

819
00:46:08.400 --> 00:46:14.400
You might pass on opportunities, especially opportunities that require people to get to

820
00:46:14.400 --> 00:46:17.840
know you and see you. Anything that requires visibility, you're going to pass on that.

821
00:46:19.760 --> 00:46:23.920
Because remember, you're hiding. You're hiding in plain sight, but you're still hiding.

822
00:46:29.920 --> 00:46:32.000
You're going to downplay yourself constantly.

823
00:46:32.560 --> 00:46:34.640
You're going to always think that you're disqualified

824
00:46:36.000 --> 00:46:38.080
instead of just giving it a shot, just trying.

825
00:46:45.440 --> 00:46:49.040
And you guys, oftentimes we'll see someone living some big, bold moment.

826
00:46:50.320 --> 00:46:54.320
They'll be doing something and we'll have secondhand embarrassment for them.

827
00:46:54.320 --> 00:47:00.080
And I really thought about this because this is what came into my spirit. God showed me that,

828
00:47:00.080 --> 00:47:06.080
like, hey, someone will be doing something super bold, super scary. They'll be asking for a favor.

829
00:47:06.080 --> 00:47:10.400
They'll be asking for this or that. And we're just happening to be standing around, like,

830
00:47:10.400 --> 00:47:15.600
seeing them, like they're asking for something that they're not supposed to be asking for.

831
00:47:16.640 --> 00:47:20.720
They're asking for a free upgrade at the car rental company.

832
00:47:20.720 --> 00:47:25.840
They're asking for a free upgrade at the car rental counter or they're doing whatever they're

833
00:47:25.840 --> 00:47:32.480
doing. And oftentimes when someone's doing that or someone's wearing some bold outfit that we

834
00:47:32.480 --> 00:47:37.440
think is too young for them or whatever, and we see them walking by, the thought that comes into

835
00:47:37.440 --> 00:47:44.000
our minds and the thought and the saying that people say to describe that is, that person has

836
00:47:44.000 --> 00:47:55.360
no shame. You guys ever thought of that? That person has no shame. Oh my gosh, that person has

837
00:47:55.360 --> 00:48:13.840
no shame. As if that's a bad thing. Right? Wow. We say it like it's a sin. We say it like it's

838
00:48:13.840 --> 00:48:18.000
an insult. Oh, they have no shame. What we actually mean is that they're not self-policing

839
00:48:18.000 --> 00:48:21.120
themselves. They're not shrinking. They're not apologizing for existing.

840
00:48:24.560 --> 00:48:27.840
Yeah, some of those people are cracked for sure, but that's not the point.

841
00:48:31.200 --> 00:48:32.160
That's not the point.

842
00:48:36.080 --> 00:48:43.520
Romans 8 tells us what? There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus.

843
00:48:43.520 --> 00:48:47.920
Condemnation is just an ugly stepsister of shame. Same thing.

844
00:48:52.880 --> 00:48:56.480
Maybe I should say an ugly stepbrother. Gentlemen, we'll let you in on that.

845
00:48:59.280 --> 00:49:02.400
Why can only women be ugly? Men are certainly very ugly as well.

846
00:49:06.640 --> 00:49:11.920
And when I say ugly, I mean inside. You guys, tell me in the comments if you think I should

847
00:49:11.920 --> 00:49:20.640
do this or not, but, and gentlemen, please weigh in, but there's a lot of men acting badly

848
00:49:20.640 --> 00:49:25.840
on my Instagram and they comment the most atrocious things. And I don't know if you

849
00:49:25.840 --> 00:49:31.200
guys remember this Jimmy Kimball skit from years ago where he had celebrities read mean tweets

850
00:49:31.200 --> 00:49:36.880
about themselves. I was thinking about just doing, you know, reading mean comments from men

851
00:49:36.880 --> 00:49:41.520
on a reel on my Instagram. And I don't want to offend men. I'm not trying to say all men are

852
00:49:41.520 --> 00:49:47.120
like this, but I am kind of putting on a warning, like, Hey, stay away from men like this. But also

853
00:49:47.120 --> 00:49:52.240
I think that good men are not threatened by bad men. I think that good men should actually be

854
00:49:52.240 --> 00:49:56.720
even more angry that men are acting like this. What do you guys think? Gentlemen, especially you

855
00:49:56.720 --> 00:49:59.840
guys, please put it in the comments. And of course it's not going to be super serious.

856
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.360
I'm going to make it funny, but gentlemen,

857
00:50:05.120 --> 00:50:08.720
how do you feel about your counterparts acting? I mean, you guys,

858
00:50:08.760 --> 00:50:11.320
these comments are crazy

859
00:50:13.800 --> 00:50:16.520
and I would do it for women too, if I had crazy comments for women,

860
00:50:16.520 --> 00:50:18.680
but I don't, I have some religious comments from women,

861
00:50:18.680 --> 00:50:20.200
but not any crazy ones.

862
00:50:22.760 --> 00:50:25.040
Brandon's like, you're just going to attract more bad men.

863
00:50:25.360 --> 00:50:26.200
Yeah.

864
00:50:27.440 --> 00:50:28.240
But I think even,

865
00:50:28.240 --> 00:50:32.640
I think good men should be even more mad about this than women should be.

866
00:50:33.800 --> 00:50:36.360
I mean, in my opinion, I'm not a man, so I don't know.

867
00:50:37.800 --> 00:50:39.320
All right, I'm going to read the comments in a second.

868
00:50:40.760 --> 00:50:43.320
I want to get through this because this is important, you guys.

869
00:50:46.400 --> 00:50:48.720
So we say that that person has no shame.

870
00:50:48.720 --> 00:50:52.920
Sometimes what we're saying is that, you know, that person's bold, you know,

871
00:50:52.920 --> 00:50:55.760
they're taking up space. They're living out loud.

872
00:50:57.760 --> 00:51:00.720
They're not over explaining or pre apologizing. You guys,

873
00:51:00.720 --> 00:51:04.440
these are all signs that you're carrying shame for existing when you're

874
00:51:04.440 --> 00:51:08.840
constantly over explaining yourself or apologizing all the time.

875
00:51:09.400 --> 00:51:12.160
If you're one of those people who's constantly throughout your day,

876
00:51:12.160 --> 00:51:15.480
you're going down the aisle and you know, someone's trying to get by and you're

877
00:51:15.480 --> 00:51:20.040
like, Oh, I'm sorry. Why are you sorry? You're allowed to be here.

878
00:51:20.400 --> 00:51:23.920
You're allowed to take up space. You're not sorry.

879
00:51:24.560 --> 00:51:27.880
Stop saying you're sorry. Stop it. It's not polite.

880
00:51:29.920 --> 00:51:32.920
It's minimizing of self and women,

881
00:51:32.920 --> 00:51:37.440
especially have been taught to be as small as you can be.

882
00:51:42.080 --> 00:51:43.320
Stop saying you're sorry.

883
00:51:43.320 --> 00:51:48.320
If you bump into someone accidentally, don't say, I'm sorry. Say,

884
00:51:48.320 --> 00:51:53.320
I didn't see you there. I didn't mean to bump into you.

885
00:51:56.320 --> 00:52:00.320
I didn't mean to do that. You don't have to say I'm sorry all the time.

886
00:52:03.320 --> 00:52:08.320
Yes. Excuse me. Pardon me.

887
00:52:09.320 --> 00:52:11.760
Excuse me. Pardon me.

888
00:52:15.880 --> 00:52:20.360
I want you to take I'm sorry out of your vocabulary unless you really are sorry

889
00:52:20.360 --> 00:52:24.800
and need to be sorry. Who's going to have a hard time with this?

890
00:52:24.800 --> 00:52:28.640
Who am I talking to that says I'm sorry continuously?

891
00:52:30.560 --> 00:52:33.320
Always over apologizing and pre apologizing

892
00:52:33.320 --> 00:52:37.000
for all kinds of things.

893
00:52:50.080 --> 00:52:53.760
God wants us to walk in confidence, you guys, in sonship.

894
00:52:54.160 --> 00:52:57.720
Yes, ladies, you too, in faith, in alignment.

895
00:52:57.720 --> 00:53:08.040
Not going through life cautiously and sheepishly and full of all kinds of self-hatred,

896
00:53:08.040 --> 00:53:08.960
but boldly.

897
00:53:16.200 --> 00:53:23.440
Boldly. Oftentimes, you guys, we call bold people entitled or arrogant,

898
00:53:24.440 --> 00:53:26.680
maybe shameless, maybe we use the word shameless.

899
00:53:27.080 --> 00:53:30.600
When the truth is that they're just not negotiating with their worth.

900
00:53:30.600 --> 00:53:35.960
A lot of these bold people, they just believe that they have a mission in life.

901
00:53:35.960 --> 00:53:40.840
They believe that they can have certain things and they're going after those things.

902
00:53:42.000 --> 00:53:44.920
Religion is one thing that will keep shame on you.

903
00:53:45.880 --> 00:53:49.960
Religion will keep shame on you because the kingdom and the kingdom.

904
00:53:49.960 --> 00:53:52.360
Remember, Jesus didn't come to teach about the church.

905
00:53:52.960 --> 00:53:56.480
When I'm talking about the church, I'm talking about the Jews, their temple,

906
00:53:56.480 --> 00:53:57.360
their synagogues.

907
00:53:57.600 --> 00:53:59.320
He didn't come to teach about the law.

908
00:54:00.560 --> 00:54:04.800
OK, so in our in present day, the church age would kind of be the law,

909
00:54:04.800 --> 00:54:06.600
would be the synagogues, it would be the temple.

910
00:54:06.800 --> 00:54:09.280
He had served its purpose for a certain amount of time, but you guys,

911
00:54:09.280 --> 00:54:11.040
there's new information available.

912
00:54:12.000 --> 00:54:16.840
Jesus came to talk about and preach and demonstrate the kingdom of God.

913
00:54:18.160 --> 00:54:20.200
There was a new operating system available.

914
00:54:21.080 --> 00:54:22.920
There was a lot of shame tied to the law.

915
00:54:22.920 --> 00:54:25.720
There was a lot of regret and guilt tied to the law.

916
00:54:26.000 --> 00:54:29.840
And a lot of us are still living under that in our current church systems.

917
00:54:29.840 --> 00:54:31.080
We're still living under that.

918
00:54:34.240 --> 00:54:37.840
And so if you go to church and you leave church and whatever was said there,

919
00:54:37.840 --> 00:54:41.840
you leave feeling kind of guilty and ashamed, you're in the wrong place, friend.

920
00:54:42.400 --> 00:54:44.760
You should leave feeling free.

921
00:54:45.560 --> 00:54:50.560
You should leave feeling empowered to go and do good works, whether you deserve

922
00:54:50.560 --> 00:54:51.640
to do them or not.

923
00:54:52.920 --> 00:54:57.240
Because Jesus preached a kingdom that said, ask and seek and knock.

924
00:54:58.920 --> 00:55:00.000
Shame whispers, don't.

925
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.000
Don't be a bother, don't bother.

926
00:55:05.000 --> 00:55:10.240
But faith tells you that God is generous.

927
00:55:10.240 --> 00:55:17.840
You're not putting God out by asking him to bless you.

928
00:55:17.840 --> 00:55:24.000
He's not like your family that only has money to buy one kid a new pair of shoes and the

929
00:55:24.000 --> 00:55:28.120
rest of you are going to have to wear the shoes from last year's school year.

930
00:55:28.120 --> 00:55:32.040
It's not your turn for a new pair of shoes, it's your sister Sally's turn for a new pair

931
00:55:32.040 --> 00:55:33.040
of shoes.

932
00:55:33.040 --> 00:55:37.960
You guys, that's not our father in heaven.

933
00:55:37.960 --> 00:55:42.640
There's an endless amount of resources.

934
00:55:42.640 --> 00:55:47.800
Everyone gets a new pair of shoes.

935
00:55:47.800 --> 00:55:54.760
And I've always said that if God was a woman, he would not be wearing sensible shoes.

936
00:55:54.760 --> 00:55:59.880
He would not be wearing sensible shoes.

937
00:55:59.880 --> 00:56:01.600
He'd be wearing extravagant shoes.

938
00:56:01.600 --> 00:56:02.600
God's extravagant.

939
00:56:02.600 --> 00:56:06.000
You guys, all you have to do to understand that is look at nature.

940
00:56:06.000 --> 00:56:13.600
God is extravagant, is he not?

941
00:56:13.600 --> 00:56:14.600
He's extravagant.

942
00:56:14.600 --> 00:56:17.640
All right, let's do an activation.

943
00:56:17.640 --> 00:56:31.560
Put your hand on your chest, put your hand over your heart, shame, get off me.

944
00:56:31.560 --> 00:56:39.200
People have said shame on you and now we're saying shame off you.

945
00:56:39.200 --> 00:56:43.560
Shame you're not my identity.

946
00:56:43.560 --> 00:56:48.960
I do not need to punish myself.

947
00:56:48.960 --> 00:56:54.680
Jesus took my punishment for me.

948
00:56:54.680 --> 00:57:02.320
I agree with the blood of Jesus.

949
00:57:02.320 --> 00:57:16.560
I receive as of right now, everything that God has been trying to and wants to give me.

950
00:57:16.560 --> 00:57:25.480
Friends, you don't ever have to feel worthy.

951
00:57:25.480 --> 00:57:30.320
God already said you are, and he's waiting for you to agree with him.

952
00:57:30.320 --> 00:57:32.040
It's not a feeling.

953
00:57:32.040 --> 00:57:35.680
It's a confession.

954
00:57:35.680 --> 00:57:44.480
It's a declaration.

955
00:57:44.480 --> 00:57:46.200
It's a mindset.

956
00:57:46.200 --> 00:57:47.200
Let that sit.

957
00:57:47.200 --> 00:57:49.840
All right, so here's your homework.

958
00:57:49.840 --> 00:57:53.760
I want you to pray into this, okay?

959
00:57:53.760 --> 00:57:56.680
Because if shame is still speaking louder than the cross, you're listening to the wrong

960
00:57:56.680 --> 00:57:58.960
voice.

961
00:57:58.960 --> 00:58:05.120
And one thing we need to understand is we cannot do what we've been called to do and

962
00:58:05.120 --> 00:58:08.720
really honor the finished work of the cross in Jesus while we're partnering with shame.

963
00:58:08.720 --> 00:58:10.400
One of those things has to go.

964
00:58:10.400 --> 00:58:13.120
So here's the question that I want you to leave Supernatural Saturday with and I want

965
00:58:13.120 --> 00:58:14.640
you to pray into.

966
00:58:14.640 --> 00:58:22.200
What have I been refusing to receive because I decided I don't deserve it?

967
00:58:22.200 --> 00:58:28.400
Remember, it's an unconscious thing oftentimes.

968
00:58:28.400 --> 00:58:33.640
What's God been trying to give me that I'm not receiving because I'm operating with low-grade

969
00:58:33.640 --> 00:58:35.640
chronic shame?

970
00:58:35.640 --> 00:58:39.840
All right, y'all.

971
00:58:39.840 --> 00:58:49.520
Father God, we thank you that Jesus came and he died so that we can live shame-free.

972
00:58:49.520 --> 00:58:50.520
He took our shame.

973
00:58:50.520 --> 00:58:57.840
In fact, he said on the cross, it says that when he was on the cross, he endured.

974
00:58:57.840 --> 00:59:05.120
He endured the cross, despising the shame, which means he did not partner with it.

975
00:59:05.120 --> 00:59:06.920
He did not agree with it.

976
00:59:06.920 --> 00:59:08.400
He overcame it.

977
00:59:08.400 --> 00:59:09.400
Woo!

978
00:59:09.400 --> 00:59:11.660
Come on, Jesus.

979
00:59:11.660 --> 00:59:16.400
You endured the cross, you endured the punishment, but you did not come into agreement with the

980
00:59:16.400 --> 00:59:18.720
shame.

981
00:59:18.720 --> 00:59:20.100
You despised it.

982
00:59:20.100 --> 00:59:23.600
You did not partner with it.

983
00:59:23.600 --> 00:59:26.760
You did not partner with it.

984
00:59:26.760 --> 00:59:28.840
Thank you, Jesus.

985
00:59:28.840 --> 00:59:31.920
And we are not called to partner with it either.

986
00:59:31.920 --> 00:59:35.680
You guys, a death on a cross was a shameful death.

987
00:59:35.680 --> 00:59:40.440
Jesus endured it for our sake, but he did not accept the shame of it.

988
00:59:40.440 --> 00:59:43.600
Do you understand what that scripture says?

989
00:59:43.600 --> 00:59:46.080
You want to know why he didn't accept the shame?

990
00:59:46.080 --> 00:59:49.960
Because he's Jesus.

991
00:59:49.960 --> 00:59:52.840
And he died for you and also as you.

992
00:59:52.840 --> 00:59:57.160
So guess who else is not supposed to be accepting shame?

993
00:59:57.160 --> 00:59:58.160
You.

994
00:59:58.160 --> 00:59:59.160
Lil' ol' you.

995
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.480
I love y'all.

996
01:00:03.480 --> 01:00:04.480
Go in peace.

997
01:00:04.480 --> 01:00:05.480
Shalom, shalom.

998
01:00:05.480 --> 01:00:06.640
Answer the question.

999
01:00:06.640 --> 01:00:07.640
Pray into it.

1000
01:00:07.640 --> 01:00:08.640
There's freedom available.

1001
01:00:08.640 --> 01:00:09.280
I'll see you soon.