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I'm going to go ahead and start it Monday, February 2nd,

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men's heart check-in 2026.

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We're just trying to get to know each other.

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So go right, continue on guys.

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Wherever you're going to go next there, Mike.

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I think Jonathan has been on before,

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but Jonathan, are you there?

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Hey, how's it going?

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All right. Have you been on before?

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I vaguely, you may, it may be somebody else,

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but you seem like you've been here before.

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First time.

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Oh, see, okay, well, there you go.

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First time. Okay.

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All right, cool.

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So you just look familiar.

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Okay. So where are you from?

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Where are you at?

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What do you do?

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I'm in Orlando.

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Currently have two jobs.

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First job, I work for a ministry based in Colorado.

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I work from home.

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They have a 24 seven phone per line.

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So I work as one of the prayer ministers.

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And then I also have a job working

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for a phone insurance company,

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doing a little bit of tech,

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customer service and sales kind of combined.

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So yeah.

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Sweet.

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Yeah, that's cool.

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I see Mr. Henshaw and Silverman.

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They're old G's here.

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Yeah.

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You know, David, I don't know what you had rolling.

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You ready to rock and roll?

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Yeah.

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So guys, how's it going?

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Want to hear from you new guys a little bit.

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I know you've introduced yourself,

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kind of got around the room,

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but I know you might have also said

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how you heard about the program,

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which is kind of interesting.

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So we'll probably cover that just one more time.

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So I'm just curious.

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I might've missed that.

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I apologize.

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I was on here three minutes later,

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had to get Jackie set up in the studio

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over for another event of ours.

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That's the heart work for couples, you know?

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She just rewrote the heart work book.

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So if those of you that are familiar with

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and going through the heart work book,

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she rewrote it last year for couples

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and literally rewrote the entire thing.

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And so now we've been releasing in sort of a beta

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December of last year, the heart work for couples.

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And we're kind of going through it step-by-step

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doing some new check-ins for that and some new videos.

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She's teaching that tonight.

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And that's helpful for those who are not just newly married,

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but it's a way for us to also serve people

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that are already married or have been married for some time

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and are experiencing the realities of marriage

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and wanting to do their heart work.

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So it's just kind of a new thing that we started offering.

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Anyway, so tell me a little more about you guys.

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We usually go around and just kind of open the floor

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on these heart check-ins.

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Everybody is inevitably at some point

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in different stages of their heart work.

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So this is intended to be kind of support

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for the heart work material, the course or the book.

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As folks are going through it,

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the heart work is intended to be a four

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to five week process initially.

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Heart work is a protocol that once you learn it,

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you can begin to use it as a tool throughout.

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Anytime any kind of pain point comes up,

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it's like, hey, this is kind of like, this sucks,

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like this hurts or I had this situation happen.

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And what we say is that any kind of pain,

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any kind of memory or situation that creates a new

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or elicits any kind of pain or shame or guilt

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or frustration or anger,

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any of the negative side effects of just life in general

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gives us an opportunity to discover,

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hey, is there something there?

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Why am I feeling this way?

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Why am I reacting this way?

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Why did I, especially in a relationship?

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Okay, it's one thing if you're just like,

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you trip on a rock.

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No joke, the other day I was, it snowed here in Texas.

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It actually didn't snow.

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It just kind of like drizzled

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and then it became ice immediately.

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So it wasn't really snow accumulation

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that turned into ice eventually.

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And last Monday I was around on the property.

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We had kind of like locked in for 48 hours,

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Saturday and Sunday,

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got a bunch of food and had the kids over,

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my adult kids and they're married.

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And I was like, just spending the night for the weekend.

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So we decided to go family time and it was great.

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But Monday morning came around, I was like,

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well, we got to get back to doing stuff.

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And I was like, I can get that.

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truck out, you know, it's just like, just a little bit of pack

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snow or something on the driveway. I moved my truck

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about five feet, and it started to slide off into the ditch. And

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I was like, Oh, Lord said, I don't want to wreck my truck.

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I'm trying to turn this thing around. I have an F 150. And

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I'm like, this is not good. And so I was so mad. And I was

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irritated. So like, I have to now basically wait this out for

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another day, temperature to come up and melt this off. Later that

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afternoon, it actually did melt off enough to where it's like to

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kind of move it. And so, you know, I grew up in Columbus,

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Ohio. So I know what snow and ice and bunch of stuff is. And

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that's why I live in Texas now because I'm trying to avoid

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that. But it will be every once in a while Texas gets it. But

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I'm out and about on my property on Monday. And I slip and fall

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on the ice three times. Now I'm not talking about like, I'm not

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talking about Oh, I slipped a little bit. I'm talking about

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movie like walking up like both legs up in the air, fall on your

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back. Three unique, separate and individual different day parts

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time of the day. I'm not I'm talking about like, not just

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like all slip three times in a row. I'm talking about like,

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three separate incidences like and I'm 54. And I'm like, man,

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falling like that on ice and rock and ground and all that

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that's, that is not good for the body. It was definitely sore the

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next day. So I'm not talking about when stuff like that

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happens, because that's just like life. But when in

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relationship, if you're feeling any kind of trauma and pain,

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it's an opportunity for you to go, why do I feel this way? Why

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do I why am I reacting this way? Why does this piss me off? You

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know, why does it when I in you, it could be somebody in

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your in relationship with that, you know, somebody that's close

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to you, or somebody that's kind of just casually in your world

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in your sphere, it could be a complete stranger. You know, and

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it's just like, why I don't even know this person. Why does this

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person tick me off so much? Why does this, you know, so it's an

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opportunity for you to take that and go, Okay, Lord, I'm not

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what's wrong with me. Don't go to the self deprecation. Don't

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go to the something's wrong with me. I'm bad. I'm not good. It's

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an opportunity to be curious. It's an opportunity for you to

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to investigate. Us guys, we're not inquisitive enough about our

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makeup, our emotional makeup. We're not inquisitive enough

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about are curious enough about what makes us tick. What makes

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us think and react and behave. Lots of times we just go and do

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because we feel something and we just do it. We don't even we

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don't even check with our emotions. They're there. They're

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inside, they're operating at all times, but we don't really check

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with them. We just kind of do what's next. You know, we're

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famous for that. We're famous for just kind of going with

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whatever and maintaining a level of happiness and peace

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however we can. And the problem with that is is that doesn't

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really give us the level of awareness emotionally,

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especially in relationship and then furthermore in ultimately

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in love relationships for us to be present. Because trust me,

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our female counterparts, they want you to what? They want you

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to feel, they want you to talk, they want you to express, they

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want you to relate, they want you to put down your agenda and

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be relational. My wife tells me all the time, you are

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prioritizing your agenda right now, over your our

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relationship, meaning that I, I just want to get done what it

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is I need to get done in the moment. And I had this in my

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mind, and I was going after and now, you know, she's stopping me

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from going about my agenda. And so if we were more aware, guys,

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of these things, in our life, we would also discover not just the

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things that we're uninterested in, like, I mean, again, I get

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it. The things that excite the feminine, in terms of emotional

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are not usually the same things that excite the guys emotionally unless it's sex or unless

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it's something that's very base like that.

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We're interested in other things.

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And I guess what I'm trying to say is being curious about your feelings, being curious

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about what makes you tick is what gets you to not only relationally where you want to

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be, but it gets you where you want to be in life, in your goals.

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If there's an area in your life where you feel like you're lacking, you would like to

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be better at, you would like to be more successful with, you would like to be at a different,

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and it's not just about financial success, but in a different station or achievement,

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or you want to feel better about yourself.

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Maybe it's a physical thing.

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Maybe it's a number of different things.

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If you're paying attention to your emotional state and you're paying attention to things

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that are hurting you and the traumas that they're based it, and you go through heartwork

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to heal from the trauma, we all have trauma.

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We all have insecurities.

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We all have things that we're needing to fix.

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When we pay attention to that, we give ourselves a much better opportunity to be the very thing

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that we've always wanted to be.

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It gives us the opportunity to put away excuses, to say, oh, I can't be that, or I can't be

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this, or I can't be what I want to be because of my childhood, because my dad did this,

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or because I grew up here, or because I've always been a loser in this area.

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I've always been overshadowed, overlooked.

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I've always been not rewarded or understood for who I am and what I bring to the table.

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These are very common male emotions.

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These are very common male deficiencies where all of us feel insecure.

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We don't feel manly enough.

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We don't feel worthy enough.

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We don't feel in charge enough.

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We don't feel a bunch of different things.

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I don't know if you're struggling with some of these things tonight, guys, but I usually

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just open up the floor and let people share and just say, hey, this is what I'm dealing

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with as I'm going through the hard work.

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We even have moments where guys are like, hey, this is a win.

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I was here last week, or two weeks, or a month ago, and I've been doing some work,

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and now I'm here with this.

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We got some wins on here.

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I want to just open the floor for everyone to share something that's been going on.

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You can pose it as a question.

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You can pose it as like, hey, here's me, and what do you all think?

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What we do is we try to support each other.

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We try to go around, and we try to be there for each other.

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We try to help out.

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We try to render some sort of understanding about, hey, if nothing else, it's like, yeah,

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that's me too.

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You're not the only one.

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Or hey, that happened to me, and this is what I did about it.

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So I want to open that up for you guys tonight to share.

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So anybody have an idea, any bold enough, brave enough to go first on this?

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Go ahead, Mike.

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So if you can't figure out how to raise your hand like Mike did, that's okay.

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No worries.

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Sometimes I can't do it myself, kind of shout out.

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It depends on what platform you're on too, if you're on a laptop or iPad, I don't know.

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So here, I've been dating this gal for two and a half months, and then I have a tendency

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to attract avoidance.

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So now she's balanced, which I'm like, okay.

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So there's attachment styles, where there's anxious attachment, where you're anxious and

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you're always wanting connection, and when somebody pulls away, you get anxious and you

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keep going, hey, where are you?

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How are you doing?

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There's avoidant attachment was when, when, um, because love has never been

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safe, they bounce and they leave.

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Uh, and then there's secure attachment where you're like watching the anxious

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and these, uh, watching both the other styles and going, okay, you

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just do what you're going to do.

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So my, I guess my question is, is, um, I've never really successfully

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navigated a avoidant relationship.

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And I'm just wondering, anybody have any insight when, what to do when

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somebody like disappears after you guys got real close, so, so anybody,

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anybody have that issue where they had somebody run away and then

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when you say real close, Mike, um, like we were, we were, it was pretty intense.

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Okay.

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And so, uh, like you were, like, you were level three is what you're saying.

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Yeah.

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We were dating in like a level three context.

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Um, and level three just means exclusive guys.

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Yeah.

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And so, um, and it was going great and we were supposed to go out on a date.

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She got real sick, um, which wasn't a big deal, but then something happened in that,

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you know, she said something to the point of, Hey, I can't make it tomorrow.

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Please don't hate me.

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And I was like, I'll never hate you.

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That's just not in my nature, you know?

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And so, um, and then she, but this is a person that when you, when they left,

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you never saw them again, or you're in proximity to them where you saw them.

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I have, I haven't seen her for two weeks now.

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Okay.

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It was her birthday last week.

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So I wished her happy birthday.

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Cause so I just, I just had never, huh?

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She ghosted.

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I wouldn't say ghosted.

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Cause she's checking on my Instagram and everything else, right?

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You know, like, so she's not, she's like chiming in and hearting things and doing

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stupid crap like that, but not actually returning calls, read to text.

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I mean, at best, I mean, at, this is going to sound weird, but at best she's

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immature because it seems an immature way to handle a relationship.

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A hundred percent.

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Um, and at worst she's just truly not interested and she doesn't know how to.

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Say that she doesn't know how to deal with that.

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She doesn't know how to, like, for some reason she has decided this is not for

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me and she's not handling that well, either.

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I mean, those are, those are extremes.

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There's going to be some other things in there, but I mean, bottom line, I mean,

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do you feel that that's either of those as possible?

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I really, I really feel like I, when we connected and that she took

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off because she was scared, right?

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Right.

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Yeah.

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I mean, if, if you're talking about Mike, that's what I was going to say is that

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she, she might have issues with people get, once they get too close

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that she starts pulling away.

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And so like, and we are in community together, so I've been,

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I don't want to pee in the pool.

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And, and, and we had, and dude, when we're hanging out, it's amazing.

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It's absolutely phenomenal.

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But, um, so anyways, no, I just, I'm like, do I just, well, cause I, I mean,

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I was at a conference this weekend and it was, it's not that I'm not

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looking for other options, right.

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But do you hold the door open for that?

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Or are you just kind of let it go?

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I mean, the thing about it is, is, is, um, obviously with avoidance and, and,

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um, being in, in that situation, that proximity, if there's a reason to go

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forward in the relay, if the relationship is worth it, but if it's worth it,

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then you might give it time.

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I mean, of course there's, you know, avoidance, if she's going to be that,

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then it's, it's, it's time.

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Um, but if it's some point where, you know, you're deciding you're discerning

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like, oh, she's just not into this and she's not going to be because it's being

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avoided, like permanently avoidant that you want to move on and protect your

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heart.

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There's no reason to, you know, hold a flame for somebody who just isn't going

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to.

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No, not yet.

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No, I have my gut is that she back around shortly.

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Right.

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But I just, I, I haven't navigated this well before.

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So I'm like any insight into how, like how to, how to walk, walk it.

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Right.

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But yeah, no.

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So that's that, at that point, that's where you lean into all the things that

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other things you've got going for you.

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This, this is why as a man, this is why we have to be, we have to have a greater

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life purpose.

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Yeah.

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Like I have, like, I mean, you have children.

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I mean, that's, that's, that's a good purpose.

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But what I'm saying is I'm about like a greater life purpose.

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Oh, yeah, no, I mean, I've been ministry for 24 seven, right?

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Yeah, and I get it. That's why I'm saying this for the for the record for listening.

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It's kind of like, you know, this is this is where, you know, I understand it can be very high

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emotionally, especially if you feel like you're connecting with somebody and it's going on, this

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may go somewhere and it's like kind of exciting and so forth. But at the same time, you know, when

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somebody pulls away, it's just like, your life has to be in such a way that's like, this is not my

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entire life. Like, I have things to do. I have business to take care of. I have like, a life

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purpose. I am about doing that. That's a part that especially from a man's point of view, that's

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something that makes makes you the most attractive. Because you're, you're doing stuff, right? You're

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taking care of your business, you're taking care of what you got to do, you're living your life.

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Like in an old school sort of Hallmark romance way, you know, you you're out on the farm with

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your shirt off, and you're bailing hay, and you're just taking care of the animals, and you're doing

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stuff, you know, I'm, you get my analogy, like, you're out there just like getting shit done,

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you know, type thing. That's kind of like the the response. So you lean back into that part.

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And you be that. So that, you know, if there's a if there's a if there's a hope for the relationship,

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you know, she she understands, man, this guy's doing stuff. This guy is, you know, like, I'm

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missing out. Like, why would I not want to be with this guy? This he's over here, being this doing

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this, all that, like, that's attractive. So it's kind of simple and kind of silly, but just like,

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at that point, you'd be attractive. I mean, it's kind of simple advice, but it's just like, okay,

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what you got to do to be attractive, just be attractive.

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Well, yeah, so cool. Yeah, no, that's kind of what I figured. But just, you know, I'm just

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living my life. And I'm leaving the door open a jar. Yeah, I don't know, like fully open, you

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know, like, well, and when she comes back, we're gonna have a conversation. We'll have a convo.

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Hey, you know, you can have your space, but I need you to actually engage to leave like,

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I'll leave the light on for you. Yeah, I'll leave the light on for you. So but cool. Thanks. Yeah,

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I got the gun show going, you know, I gotta get those guns back going. I gotta get to where you

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I've been a little flabby because of the holidays. So we got to get back in.

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So all right. Go ahead, Christopher, I think you were next.

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I was told very specifically, last week to mention that I completed week two this week

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of the artwork. So awesome. I guess the big thing that hit me from the artwork was

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talking about the process of the lies. Like first, we believe the lie, then we speak the lie,

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and then we become the lie. And just the example of the abandonment that was in the book,

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I was like, Oh, that hurt really badly, because that was very similar to what I was,

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what I'm dealing with right now. So and just for context, I, I was married.

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My wife passed away from cancer in 2016. So yeah, and Mike, I will tell you, I wanted to like pop,

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you know, pop in with some insight for you. But all I can offer is commiseration,

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because I've been there. So sorry. But yeah, that's, that's what hit me from the artwork.

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I mean, I have a ton of things from the artwork, but that definitely got triple highlights for me.

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Wow. What lie were you believing? You might have said it, but I'm just I'm just trying to

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get drilled down to that. Like, what did you feel like there was a certain lie or lies that

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you were believing that would now be different? I mean, like, or, or and kind of what did you

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either replace that with? Or what? What did you realize that wasn't true?

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Oh, and the abandonment thing is definitely me in some seasons. But the one I also wrote down was

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the lie of like, I'm not really worth anything to a woman anymore. Like I'm pushing 40.

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I'm widowed. I'm like, like, I'm just like, I don't have anything else to offer. I'm, I'm short.

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I'm not that particularly attractive. Like, what's the what's there for a young,

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attractive, kind Christian woman to latch on to in like, who's in her 30s or 40? Like,

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shoot, she's those people have found somebody. And I guess that was the lie I started to believe

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about myself. There's just no point in like, investing in that part because I'm not I'm too

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old to have kids. I'm too old to do that kind of stuff. That's definitely the lie I've been living

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out. You

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You do have kids, did you say that before?

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No, no, no, no kids.

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We were trying to have kids when she was diagnosed,

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but we did not.

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And when you say that you felt abandoned,

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where did that part come from in your history?

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I did a really good thing about switching

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into a different church in a different way,

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at Walk with God.

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I kind of had a crossroads where I could abandon

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after my wife died or push in farther.

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And I ended up pushing in,

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which was the best decision I made.

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But-

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Are you saying the abandonment was,

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you felt the abandonment when she passed?

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Like as in just like not, she wasn't there anymore.

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Or was this more of a root from childhood

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or something else that happened in life?

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I think lately it's been just,

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now that I've had so much time in between my crisis,

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because everyone was there for me in the crisis,

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I was really lucky.

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But now it's like, I'm just kind of adrift.

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Everyone's living their life.

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I have a new job.

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No one knows.

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I mean, very few people in my current life

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know my history now.

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Yeah, life has gone on and now your life around you

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does not aware of this pain that you're still carrying.

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Yeah, I get it.

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And nor should they.

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And I don't think they should, it's like done.

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Yeah, yeah.

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No, but it's real.

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That's the thing, you know?

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And wow, you know, I, yeah, I'm sorry that that's,

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that's happened.

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I will give you a little information that,

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I mean, you seem like, you seem like a good dude.

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You seem like, you know, you've got things together.

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You're like, you know, you're not destitute and,

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or, you know, like floundering in, you know,

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you're in a good community, you're working,

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you're doing your life, you're managing.

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That is like, you know, when they said that old thing

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back in the day, it was like, knowing is half the battle.

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Like you've got like 80% of the battle.

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And then the odds are in your favor

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because I would say there's probably eight, nine, 10 women

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for every one of you that's out there

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that just needs a good man, you know?

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You're not perfect.

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None of us are perfect, but it's not about being perfect.

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It's being conscientious.

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It's being like, I am showing up, I'm trying, I'm doing.

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Like you've had a massive trauma.

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And so you're in the process of having been healed

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and are healing from that.

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But at the same time, in terms of your worthiness

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or like your availability, bro,

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the odds are in your favor for sure.

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And like, we've been preaching out here to the ladies.

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We've been like, look, ladies, some of their hangups

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are like, well, he's gotta be so such and such height.

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He's gotta be this and that.

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I don't wanna take care of some old man, whatever.

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Like ladies, like you're passing up

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all of the actual good guys for this fantasy dude

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that doesn't exist.

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And you yourself don't measure up even to the standards

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that some of you are out there doing.

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So it's like, look, you know, go for the guy that,

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you know, if you wanna put a number on it,

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go for the guy that's a seven and is gonna love Jesus,

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is gonna try hard, is gonna show up for you,

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is gonna actually be there through this relationship

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and give it a chance.

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And he's got some life experience.

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I mean, you're a guy that you've been through hell,

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you know, and you can't tell me

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that there's an immense amount of experience

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and maturity and substance that you've been through

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that you can give in relationship

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because of what you've been through.

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Now, you may not have realized that yet.

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You may not have understood that yet

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and it might take some time,

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but there's a wealth of depth, you know,

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when you get to, you know,

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through your level of like healing through this

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that, you know, is gonna be, you know,

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you're gonna be compassionate.

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You're going to be understanding.

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You're going to be like, you're just a different person.

473
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And I think in a good way, you know?

474
00:29:23.780 --> 00:29:24.620
So take that-

475
00:29:24.620 --> 00:29:26.820
I wouldn't choose it, but I wouldn't change it.

476
00:29:26.820 --> 00:29:27.660
I do.

477
00:29:27.660 --> 00:29:28.980
Oh, of course, yeah.

478
00:29:28.980 --> 00:29:29.860
Yeah, that's-

479
00:29:29.860 --> 00:29:30.700
Yeah.

480
00:29:30.700 --> 00:29:31.620
I couldn't do the job I do now

481
00:29:31.620 --> 00:29:33.020
if I hadn't gone through what I've gone through.

482
00:29:33.020 --> 00:29:35.940
It just gave me a different level of understanding

483
00:29:35.940 --> 00:29:37.940
of how to deal with crisis.

484
00:29:37.940 --> 00:29:38.780
So-

485
00:29:38.780 --> 00:29:40.580
Yeah, yeah, absolutely.

486
00:29:40.580 --> 00:29:44.260
And, you know, turning that tragedy

487
00:29:44.260 --> 00:29:48.460
into the rest of your life,

488
00:29:48.460 --> 00:29:51.580
being, you know, being skilled at something

489
00:29:51.580 --> 00:29:52.420
that you're like,

490
00:29:52.420 --> 00:29:54.060
hey, I didn't have that before this happened.

491
00:29:54.060 --> 00:29:54.900
And you're right.

492
00:29:54.900 --> 00:29:55.740
I love how you say that.

493
00:29:55.740 --> 00:29:56.700
Like, I wouldn't choose it,

494
00:29:56.700 --> 00:29:58.580
but you're like the same time.

495
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:04.240
you know, I've been immensely transformed by this in a good way.

496
00:30:04.240 --> 00:30:09.920
So that's, that's something that pops up in my personal, like pain is like,

497
00:30:09.920 --> 00:30:14.160
I would be so much better of a husband to my wife, my late wife.

498
00:30:14.160 --> 00:30:14.720
Wow.

499
00:30:14.720 --> 00:30:20.240
Of how I am now. And sometimes I feel like I robbed her because she was a really great wife.

500
00:30:20.240 --> 00:30:23.120
I'm like, Oh man, I wish she had seen me now.

501
00:30:24.160 --> 00:30:29.280
Oh, well, that's, that's, that's a really good thing. And that's real. That's super real.

502
00:30:30.000 --> 00:30:36.640
That is super honest and super real. And that's powerful. That's going to be,

503
00:30:36.640 --> 00:30:42.000
that's going to be a redeeming thing for you. And I just, man, I believe with you

504
00:30:42.000 --> 00:30:46.480
and for you that you are going to find somebody that you're going to be able to just

505
00:30:46.480 --> 00:30:52.400
be that great husband to when you're ready. And when, when the time comes.

506
00:30:52.960 --> 00:30:56.560
That's why I'm, I'm doing this programs because that kind of stuff doesn't

507
00:30:57.520 --> 00:31:00.640
write well on a dating profile on Bumble.

508
00:31:00.640 --> 00:31:07.120
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. No, no, you got it. Yeah. She has to meet you to be like, Oh, this dude is like,

509
00:31:07.120 --> 00:31:11.280
there's another level to this guy, you know? And that's going to be, that's going to be a bonus.

510
00:31:13.040 --> 00:31:13.440
Yeah.

511
00:31:13.440 --> 00:31:18.160
Your tragedy is going to be turned into a bonus in your next relationship.

512
00:31:19.600 --> 00:31:23.920
Thank you, man. That's good. Thanks for, thanks for showing up. Thanks for being here.

513
00:31:24.720 --> 00:31:26.240
I think Chris you're next. Go ahead.

514
00:31:28.640 --> 00:31:31.040
And then we have Kevin, I think Kevin's after, after you.

515
00:31:32.320 --> 00:31:39.600
Hey David. I was highly encouraged when I heard you utter a cuss word. So I know this is real

516
00:31:39.600 --> 00:31:50.960
here. So I, I found this I found this group through two women that have gone through this

517
00:31:51.040 --> 00:32:02.880
program. And so that's kind of how I, how I got here. I'm on week one, I've completed the work

518
00:32:02.880 --> 00:32:17.120
for week one. And so I, I kind of wanted to throw out my engine lights that I, that I went over and

519
00:32:17.120 --> 00:32:24.240
been praying about. And I had an incident last night, lo and behold, that we might want to talk

520
00:32:24.240 --> 00:32:34.800
about too. So the, the engine lights for me are overthinking. This is a terrible habit of mine.

521
00:32:34.800 --> 00:32:47.200
I have a tendency to overthink things. I do deal with some anxiety and I've also recently

522
00:32:48.240 --> 00:32:55.680
had an experience where I approached one very passively and I learned from that experience.

523
00:32:56.960 --> 00:33:02.880
And I'm a natural leader. I, that was recognized me when I was a little boy

524
00:33:03.600 --> 00:33:12.800
and pointed out to me, but I am a natural leader, but I, I can be a passive at times

525
00:33:14.000 --> 00:33:15.680
and I need to kind of overcome that.

526
00:33:20.080 --> 00:33:26.080
Okay. Oh, so these are just things kind of like just lighting up on the dashboard for you,

527
00:33:26.080 --> 00:33:31.760
is what you're saying? Yes, sir. Yeah. And what, how do you think, how do you think

528
00:33:33.760 --> 00:33:38.480
when you say you're passive, like, what does that look like? Just as an example,

529
00:33:39.120 --> 00:33:44.080
I mean, are you, are, what is your, what's your relationship history? Like, have you,

530
00:33:44.080 --> 00:33:49.840
have you been married before? I've been married twice. Okay. First marriage was a 12 year marriage.

531
00:33:49.840 --> 00:33:56.640
Second marriage was in and out one year. I've been single for 17 years. Okay. And only have,

532
00:33:56.640 --> 00:34:01.360
and I've only been in one serious relationship since then. And that ended seven years ago.

533
00:34:01.920 --> 00:34:06.400
Okay. Any children? I have two daughters and eight grandkids.

534
00:34:07.440 --> 00:34:11.760
Oh, wow. That's awesome. Yeah. I have a relationship with them. You see them and

535
00:34:13.120 --> 00:34:19.600
in their lives. Okay. Awesome. And what, what happened on the first marriage?

536
00:34:21.440 --> 00:34:30.239
First marriage, my college girlfriend got pregnant. We got married 12 year marriage,

537
00:34:30.239 --> 00:34:34.880
seven years into a 12 year marriage. I told her, sat her down and say, Hey, this isn't right.

538
00:34:34.880 --> 00:34:46.000
Something's got to change. She is a alcoholic. And that wasn't why I left. I left because of

539
00:34:46.000 --> 00:34:52.400
the infidelity that she made some bad decisions. So I stayed, so I sat her down at seven years.

540
00:34:52.400 --> 00:34:59.040
I stayed another five terribly painful years for my kids. And when my daughter's got old enough to

541
00:34:59.040 --> 00:34:59.840
see that our relationship.

542
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:07.120
ship wasn't right. That's when I felt comfortable leaving. Now, that all being said, I have a great

543
00:35:07.120 --> 00:35:13.440
relationship with her now. We go to family, you know, gatherings, I get text messages from her

544
00:35:13.440 --> 00:35:19.520
like, Hey, do you remember that Jimmy Buffett concert and blah, blah, blah. So I do have a

545
00:35:19.520 --> 00:35:26.240
really good relationship with her. And were you, were you a believer at the time throughout,

546
00:35:26.320 --> 00:35:28.560
throughout all that? Or is that something new or something?

547
00:35:29.280 --> 00:35:35.360
No, I came to the Lord. I was one of the guys that was drug in the church by my daughters

548
00:35:36.720 --> 00:35:42.640
and I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior at the age of 62. I accepted Jesus at

549
00:35:44.080 --> 00:35:51.120
about 35 years old. Okay. Yeah. Okay. Wow. Yeah. That's some, that's some life man. And

550
00:35:51.200 --> 00:35:59.120
um, so when you say like you're, you're passive, like what, what makes you feel that way?

551
00:36:00.400 --> 00:36:09.440
I'll give you an example. Um, so if I, so a woman I went out with not long ago, um,

552
00:36:09.440 --> 00:36:19.360
that ended, I don't know, a little over a month ago. Um, so she's extremely busy. Um,

553
00:36:19.360 --> 00:36:26.000
and so I would, you know, approach her about getting together in the context of,

554
00:36:27.680 --> 00:36:31.280
Hey, do you have time to get together this weekend? What, what, what works for you

555
00:36:32.320 --> 00:36:42.400
instead of the approach of, can I take you out on Saturday night? Um, so that, I guess that's

556
00:36:42.400 --> 00:36:48.960
an example of what I think is a passive approach versus a, you know, a more,

557
00:36:50.720 --> 00:36:58.080
you know, a lead leader type approach. Yeah. I mean, you know, that, that to me, I mean, passivity.

558
00:37:00.400 --> 00:37:05.120
Yeah. I'm sure you could use that word for that. To me, I think it's a little bit more

559
00:37:06.080 --> 00:37:13.920
what I'm hearing you say. I would just on it, just on kind of how you shared it. I feel like

560
00:37:13.920 --> 00:37:19.360
it's more like just a little bit of a confidence thing and I'm not ridiculing. I'm just saying

561
00:37:19.360 --> 00:37:24.880
that like, Oh, you know, you could have played that hand a little stronger. I don't know if

562
00:37:24.880 --> 00:37:32.640
it's passivity. Passivity usually is as a, as a, as a personality trait or as a problem trait for

563
00:37:32.880 --> 00:37:40.800
men, especially passivity is a greater problem than just, Hey, I didn't really play that hand

564
00:37:40.800 --> 00:37:46.160
very well. You know what I'm saying? Like I did, um, I could have been a little bit stronger in

565
00:37:46.160 --> 00:37:52.560
the ask. I could have been a little bit more like leader. So I would just, in that case, it'd be

566
00:37:52.560 --> 00:37:56.800
more like, okay, um, Hey, I just gotta go work on my game a little bit. You know, Hey, if I, if,

567
00:37:56.800 --> 00:38:01.360
if I feel like somebody who's, you know, like I'm interested in really wanting to ask them out,

568
00:38:02.160 --> 00:38:07.440
you know, I should like level up my game just a little bit in order to like, you know, and you

569
00:38:07.440 --> 00:38:13.360
are, you even said it to yourself. So like, if it were me, I would just kind of rehearse it to

570
00:38:13.360 --> 00:38:18.880
myself and the mirror to, I don't know, just kind of like, you know, kind of get your game up and

571
00:38:18.880 --> 00:38:24.880
then get the confidence and then do it, do it the way that you like know that you can do it. Um,

572
00:38:24.880 --> 00:38:30.640
and that's good thing, you know, um, then you can feel good about it and shoot your shot.

573
00:38:32.000 --> 00:38:36.880
And if it goes like you want it to go, then that's great. You did, you get a good job.

574
00:38:37.520 --> 00:38:44.320
If it doesn't go the way that you want it to go, you least did your best try. I mean, you did,

575
00:38:44.320 --> 00:38:50.720
you did, you put it out there, you know, and you can't control that part of it, but you can control,

576
00:38:50.720 --> 00:38:54.960
you know, how you show up. So yeah, I mean, it's just more of a confidence thing that I would say

577
00:38:54.960 --> 00:39:04.240
than like passivity. Um, but, um, yeah, man, I mean, like if you're, um, I love it that you're

578
00:39:04.240 --> 00:39:10.480
just starting out getting the heart work, you know, go through it, um, see what the Lord reveals

579
00:39:10.480 --> 00:39:17.920
and helps you out with. And, you know, um, I wish you the best in, in this journey, because it's,

580
00:39:18.880 --> 00:39:23.600
uh, as long as you're open and long as you're just like, okay, Lord, I give you permission

581
00:39:24.400 --> 00:39:28.800
to start revealing things. We don't really dig for things. We don't really try to look for things.

582
00:39:28.800 --> 00:39:34.720
We don't try to, you know, turn over stones to try to like find stuff in our life. We just allow

583
00:39:34.720 --> 00:39:42.480
Holy spirit to kind of reveal it to us through the season of this, you know, 30 days or, or,

584
00:39:43.120 --> 00:39:48.880
you know, 40 days of heartwork, right? We just allow that, allow God given permission.

585
00:39:48.880 --> 00:39:53.760
That's one of the first things we do in heartwork is give permission for Holy spirit to have his

586
00:39:53.760 --> 00:39:58.800
way and to start just revealing you some of the things he wants to fix. So good start, man.

587
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:05.200
Thank you for shit is Kevin. Yeah Kevin saw on here. Good. Yeah, I'm still on here

588
00:40:06.120 --> 00:40:10.220
So this is my first week today. I just started

589
00:40:11.760 --> 00:40:13.760
The first heart course

590
00:40:14.960 --> 00:40:20.720
Watch the first video not quite through with the first phase of the e-book. I'm about halfway

591
00:40:22.120 --> 00:40:23.720
I

592
00:40:23.720 --> 00:40:29.320
Heard about this through Kingdom Seekers when Jackie was on a few years ago

593
00:40:30.160 --> 00:40:36.000
I kind of joined one of the Facebook groups on there last year and posted a video and stuff, but

594
00:40:36.520 --> 00:40:40.800
Never can I really had any response and every time I kind of looked at the stuff

595
00:40:40.800 --> 00:40:43.760
it was always using words like her and and

596
00:40:44.360 --> 00:40:49.520
Stuff and I was like, well, that's more geared towards the female than the guy. I don't know. I don't know

597
00:40:50.680 --> 00:40:55.400
But I did some heart work on on Kingdom Seekers, you know, they had some back

598
00:40:56.080 --> 00:40:59.920
Some breakout rooms and some heart healing rooms

599
00:41:00.560 --> 00:41:02.560
that that I did and I just

600
00:41:03.160 --> 00:41:06.720
I've been I'm divorced. I've been divorced almost 21 years

601
00:41:07.720 --> 00:41:09.280
and

602
00:41:09.280 --> 00:41:12.160
And pretty single most of those 21 years

603
00:41:13.240 --> 00:41:15.080
especially the last

604
00:41:15.080 --> 00:41:17.080
10 to 15. I

605
00:41:17.560 --> 00:41:22.640
Just kind of gave up on it, even though I'm a companion person

606
00:41:23.600 --> 00:41:29.400
And I get that and I feel you know, I even though I have a huge family

607
00:41:31.160 --> 00:41:36.600
I've got I mean that live right by me. I got six grandkids and two daughters

608
00:41:37.160 --> 00:41:43.280
And two sisters and a brother that all live in the same town and it's a little town of 3,500

609
00:41:43.880 --> 00:41:48.120
Which I attribute to part of me being single for so long

610
00:41:48.680 --> 00:41:50.160
There's there's no

611
00:41:50.160 --> 00:41:57.360
Yeah, yeah, the closest city is 260 miles away, you know, and we're you know, we're

612
00:41:58.120 --> 00:41:59.400
we're

613
00:41:59.400 --> 00:42:04.760
35 3,500 in winter and 15 20,000 in the summer, you know

614
00:42:06.160 --> 00:42:07.160
so

615
00:42:07.160 --> 00:42:09.160
No

616
00:42:09.480 --> 00:42:13.640
Bigger part it's a destination town people come there for like what it were

617
00:42:14.320 --> 00:42:18.640
Why is it so hot in the summer in the summer is for halibut fishing?

618
00:42:18.640 --> 00:42:23.280
Oh, okay. Yeah, I live in Valdez, Alaska. Wow. Wow

619
00:42:23.920 --> 00:42:30.960
And and it's the snow capital the snow capital of North America as far as towns go. Oh, okay

620
00:42:31.840 --> 00:42:36.080
30 miles way up in the past. They get six to nine hundred inches of snow

621
00:42:36.720 --> 00:42:42.920
You know, oh geez in 98. I seen it snow 15 feet three days in town

622
00:42:42.920 --> 00:42:47.080
And we can still drive to the stores we have an outstanding story movable

623
00:42:47.840 --> 00:42:49.840
thing here, I mean

624
00:42:49.920 --> 00:42:56.760
Usually it snows feet here not inches, you know. Yeah, the last two snows was two feet apiece, you know, so

625
00:42:57.520 --> 00:42:59.520
But I've lived here since

626
00:43:00.200 --> 00:43:03.880
1998 in Valdez and I've lived in Alaska since I was 16

627
00:43:06.600 --> 00:43:10.440
So, I don't know if you can hear my grandkids screaming in the background

628
00:43:10.600 --> 00:43:14.440
But I'm a truck driver by trade I'm in a teamsters union

629
00:43:15.240 --> 00:43:19.560
Think the heaviest load off hold is about 250,000 pounds. I

630
00:43:20.120 --> 00:43:23.000
Do I do low boy? I do a lot of low boy work

631
00:43:23.640 --> 00:43:25.640
I've worked for the same company for

632
00:43:27.800 --> 00:43:29.800
About

633
00:43:30.680 --> 00:43:32.200
18

634
00:43:32.200 --> 00:43:37.720
18 years with all the time off in between there's a company that I've been working with for

635
00:43:37.720 --> 00:43:43.320
18 years with all the time off in between there's a few years when I was a few years that I took off

636
00:43:44.720 --> 00:43:48.080
After my divorce to go so the kids could be around their grandparents

637
00:43:50.480 --> 00:43:58.200
You know us down in the States but for the most part I've worked for the same company the whole time yeah

638
00:44:01.880 --> 00:44:03.880
I love that you're serving your family

639
00:44:04.240 --> 00:44:07.200
Yeah, you I love that that's very honorable and very

640
00:44:07.960 --> 00:44:15.860
Very good on you. That was another thing in before my kids. All my kids are are my youngest ones 20 now

641
00:44:17.080 --> 00:44:19.080
my oldest one is

642
00:44:20.240 --> 00:44:22.240
34 now

643
00:44:23.240 --> 00:44:25.240
I'm staying with her

644
00:44:25.560 --> 00:44:27.560
for the winter I

645
00:44:28.520 --> 00:44:30.920
Usually get laid off to do in the winter and

646
00:44:31.480 --> 00:44:36.760
sometimes I'll do some odd jobs like go up and work on a North Slope for a different company for a couple months, but

647
00:44:37.440 --> 00:44:44.160
I stay in my travel trailer here. I've got a cabin in 20 acres about 500 miles away from here

648
00:44:45.840 --> 00:44:49.600
But it's it's it's a lot colder there in the wintertime and

649
00:44:51.400 --> 00:44:57.200
You know after the divorce my when I let my kids when they started staying back with their mom

650
00:44:57.560 --> 00:44:59.920
When the girls got into that

651
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.680
puberty age. I wanted all the kids together so they all went and stayed with their mom

652
00:45:05.680 --> 00:45:13.240
because the girls definitely wanted to and I felt they needed to. So I'd travel back and forth to

653
00:45:13.240 --> 00:45:18.240
the States in the winter, stay down there two or three months. And most of the time I'd be at her

654
00:45:18.240 --> 00:45:28.840
mom at their mom's house. I'd usually do couch crashing. But anyway, I just figured if at the

655
00:45:28.840 --> 00:45:33.440
very least, even though my heart's desires to be with some defined, you know, love my life and be

656
00:45:33.440 --> 00:45:42.000
with them. Even if that didn't happen, the heart work part of it is, is something I'm really

657
00:45:42.000 --> 00:45:51.080
interested in. Wow, I don't know if I'm I don't know if I'm numb to that kind of stuff. Because I

658
00:45:51.080 --> 00:45:58.480
mean, like watching, watching movies and, and, and other people's lives and seeing things

659
00:45:58.480 --> 00:46:03.640
happen, you know, that relate to something that happened to me, I'll get tears in my eye, I'll get

660
00:46:03.640 --> 00:46:07.120
choked up, I get choked up really easy. But

661
00:46:07.400 --> 00:46:13.920
that's man, when we pass a certain age, we just, you know, think we get emotional. I cry at movies

662
00:46:13.920 --> 00:46:20.600
too. I mean, I've got adult kids. And when a father and daughter like scene comes on, and it's

663
00:46:20.600 --> 00:46:24.320
real sentimental. I mean, I yeah, I get it. Oh, yeah. Yeah.

664
00:46:26.320 --> 00:46:31.880
Even as a dog member watching the land before time one, and where Littlefoot's mom dies, I it's

665
00:46:31.880 --> 00:46:33.480
still the emotional thing.

666
00:46:33.760 --> 00:46:37.120
Like it's you under under, you're an emotional mess. It's all right.

667
00:46:38.120 --> 00:46:47.120
Yeah, yeah, I, I, I mean, even even watching like Gold Rush or something, you know, somebody gets

668
00:46:47.120 --> 00:46:52.880
treated unfairly. I'm like, that's just not right. You know, but I can feel it. I can feel but when it

669
00:46:53.280 --> 00:46:59.320
a lot of times when it happens to me or stuff that's happened to me, I'm just oblivious to it. And I

670
00:46:59.320 --> 00:47:05.200
you know, sometimes that that just doesn't make sense to me. You know, I'm just like, or, or it

671
00:47:05.360 --> 00:47:11.920
might be bugging me. I just don't know. That's what's bugging me. You know, it that stuff that's

672
00:47:11.960 --> 00:47:15.760
really close doesn't always get to me. You know?

673
00:47:16.160 --> 00:47:24.160
Yeah, no, I get it. Because yeah, we can we can see it. It's funny, because that's what men do.

674
00:47:24.240 --> 00:47:33.240
We're designed that way in a way because when it comes time to fight, or when it comes time to get

675
00:47:33.240 --> 00:47:41.520
stuff done, and it becomes time like, hey, there's a there's a need for a power and strength to

676
00:47:41.520 --> 00:47:48.240
accomplish something because, you know, we don't have time to be emotional. You know, we do really

677
00:47:48.240 --> 00:47:53.080
good in those ways, because we are able to compartmentalize our emotions to the point where

678
00:47:53.080 --> 00:47:57.600
like, hey, I can't worry about that right now. I've got something to do. Like I've got a task about a

679
00:47:57.600 --> 00:48:06.920
job, I have a duty, you know, like, we're really wired that way. But when there's no demand for our

680
00:48:06.920 --> 00:48:13.960
strength, our mental, our physical, our determination, strength, then it can be

681
00:48:13.960 --> 00:48:20.080
challenging, you know, in the relationship. So that's kind of why the things that are close to you

682
00:48:20.080 --> 00:48:26.800
emotionally, sometimes can miss like you don't realize it. But you see it in another instance,

683
00:48:26.800 --> 00:48:31.200
like a movie scene, or you see it in something else, just because it's kind of kind of the way we're

684
00:48:31.200 --> 00:48:36.600
wired. But the heartwork process, again, I was telling Chris, like, you know, it's it's an

685
00:48:36.600 --> 00:48:45.480
opportunity for us to just give God permission to bring things to the surface that we don't look for,

686
00:48:46.160 --> 00:48:52.720
and allow him to just to kind of take this take this season. And to bring things to our remembrance,

687
00:48:52.720 --> 00:48:57.440
we just got it, we just got to be paying attention, we just got to say like, Oh, you know, like, this thing

688
00:48:57.440 --> 00:49:02.440
happened, and it's kind of unique. And it's kind of like that usually doesn't happen. That's probably a

689
00:49:02.440 --> 00:49:07.840
moment where Holy Spirit's, you know, taking a situational opportunity to show you something. So

690
00:49:07.840 --> 00:49:09.520
that's just kind of where we need to pay attention.

691
00:49:09.520 --> 00:49:16.880
Right? That's, that's, that's, I mean, the, the dating aside, because, I mean, I've got a little bit of hope

692
00:49:16.880 --> 00:49:24.880
there, you know, as far as finding somebody, there's a little bit of hope there, but not a lot. Okay, but the

693
00:49:24.880 --> 00:49:32.480
relationship, I probably need to fix the most is the one in between me and God. You know, so so I can, so I

694
00:49:32.480 --> 00:49:38.080
can, so I can hear him better and know when I'm getting direction from him, and correction from him.

695
00:49:38.480 --> 00:49:46.720
And, you know, guidance from him on what because I'm, I'm in a limbo place. Right now, the, the

696
00:49:46.720 --> 00:49:55.520
company that I work for here, he just sold. He's got a skeleton crew going right now, but by by this

697
00:49:55.520 --> 00:49:59.920
fall, it'll be totally dissolved. You know, he'll be done.

698
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:02.600
And he's like in his 80s, he needs to retire.

699
00:50:02.600 --> 00:50:07.200
So he sold the company and he's not really just a boss

700
00:50:07.200 --> 00:50:10.400
to an extent he's kind of a friend as much as a friend,

701
00:50:10.400 --> 00:50:14.780
I mean, as I have, you know, he's a multimillionaire,

702
00:50:14.780 --> 00:50:18.480
you know, so talking to him sometimes it's kind of hard

703
00:50:18.480 --> 00:50:20.240
because he's so used to everybody

704
00:50:20.240 --> 00:50:22.120
wanting something from him.

705
00:50:22.120 --> 00:50:22.960
Oh, sure.

706
00:50:22.960 --> 00:50:26.260
You know, especially guys, women,

707
00:50:26.260 --> 00:50:31.260
women, he'll take care of them and their needs.

708
00:50:35.100 --> 00:50:37.780
And, you know, he's really keen on their needs.

709
00:50:37.780 --> 00:50:41.740
The guys, his mindset is, well, if that's what you need

710
00:50:41.740 --> 00:50:42.560
or that's what you want,

711
00:50:42.560 --> 00:50:45.060
you better go work a little bit harder, you know.

712
00:50:45.060 --> 00:50:49.460
And you're just trying to be a friend to a guy like that.

713
00:50:49.460 --> 00:50:50.860
So that's right.

714
00:50:50.860 --> 00:50:54.780
Well, he is, I mean, I have two son-in-laws

715
00:50:54.820 --> 00:50:57.700
that work for him and a daughter,

716
00:50:57.700 --> 00:51:00.860
and I've had, my daughters have worked,

717
00:51:00.860 --> 00:51:02.620
I have one daughter that worked for,

718
00:51:02.620 --> 00:51:04.300
since she was 18 until last year,

719
00:51:04.300 --> 00:51:08.600
now she's going to, she's in nursing school in college.

720
00:51:10.700 --> 00:51:13.660
And he paid for that, you know.

721
00:51:13.660 --> 00:51:17.020
But he used to fly my kids out.

722
00:51:17.020 --> 00:51:18.740
He even went down to the States one year

723
00:51:18.740 --> 00:51:21.400
when I was working on working

724
00:51:21.400 --> 00:51:22.940
and took them out Christmas shopping

725
00:51:22.980 --> 00:51:25.420
before I got done with my job

726
00:51:25.420 --> 00:51:27.260
and I could be there for Christmas, you know.

727
00:51:27.260 --> 00:51:28.460
What a guy.

728
00:51:28.460 --> 00:51:31.900
Yeah, I mean, my sister's been his executive secretary

729
00:51:31.900 --> 00:51:34.560
for about 23 or 24 years,

730
00:51:34.560 --> 00:51:37.620
but I mean, he has spoiled my family.

731
00:51:37.620 --> 00:51:39.780
I mean, he's taking us out on his yacht

732
00:51:39.780 --> 00:51:43.180
and fishing and fishing trips and stuff like that.

733
00:51:43.180 --> 00:51:48.180
So, I mean, he's just that kind of guy.

734
00:51:48.660 --> 00:51:51.980
He's probably the best boss that anybody could ever have.

735
00:51:51.980 --> 00:51:55.740
If he fires you, if he fires you, you definitely messed up.

736
00:51:55.740 --> 00:51:56.980
There ain't no question about it.

737
00:51:56.980 --> 00:51:57.820
You deserved it.

738
00:51:57.820 --> 00:51:59.540
You for sure messed up.

739
00:51:59.540 --> 00:52:03.180
Because I'll push the limit on some things in my,

740
00:52:03.180 --> 00:52:05.980
you know, going through my divorce and other things

741
00:52:05.980 --> 00:52:08.660
that, as far as I'm concerned,

742
00:52:08.660 --> 00:52:12.220
if anybody deserved to get fired, it was me, you know.

743
00:52:12.220 --> 00:52:13.380
But he never did.

744
00:52:13.380 --> 00:52:16.220
He always let me have my space,

745
00:52:16.220 --> 00:52:18.780
take time off work to fix my personal problems

746
00:52:18.780 --> 00:52:21.020
and stuff like that.

747
00:52:21.020 --> 00:52:21.860
I can feel it.

748
00:52:21.860 --> 00:52:23.780
You're a good man.

749
00:52:23.780 --> 00:52:28.580
You know, and that's what I want to say to everyone on here.

750
00:52:28.580 --> 00:52:30.740
And like I said, before beginning this call,

751
00:52:30.740 --> 00:52:32.140
earlier in this call,

752
00:52:32.140 --> 00:52:34.500
and for those of you that are watching this in replay

753
00:52:34.500 --> 00:52:36.700
and were here and maybe had to jump off

754
00:52:36.700 --> 00:52:38.260
or some of the other guys

755
00:52:38.260 --> 00:52:40.180
that just weren't able to be here tonight,

756
00:52:40.180 --> 00:52:45.180
is that, you know, you guys are good guys.

757
00:52:46.100 --> 00:52:48.620
You guys are great guys.

758
00:52:48.620 --> 00:52:51.380
You guys are conscientious.

759
00:52:51.380 --> 00:52:53.380
You're heartfelt men.

760
00:52:53.380 --> 00:52:54.860
You're doing the work.

761
00:52:54.860 --> 00:52:56.060
You're showing up.

762
00:52:56.060 --> 00:52:57.700
You're trying to be there for your family.

763
00:52:57.700 --> 00:52:59.860
You're trying to do the right thing.

764
00:52:59.860 --> 00:53:01.980
I was on a podcast the other day for a guy

765
00:53:01.980 --> 00:53:06.420
that he has a brand called Next Third Best Third.

766
00:53:06.420 --> 00:53:08.660
He's in his sixties.

767
00:53:08.660 --> 00:53:10.220
He got divorced.

768
00:53:10.220 --> 00:53:11.860
His wife left him a few years ago

769
00:53:11.860 --> 00:53:14.860
and it was one of the hardest things, you know,

770
00:53:14.860 --> 00:53:16.260
that's ever happened to him.

771
00:53:16.260 --> 00:53:18.420
And he's a changed man from it,

772
00:53:19.220 --> 00:53:20.780
but he's still, you know, without a wife.

773
00:53:20.780 --> 00:53:22.460
And he's just like, you know what?

774
00:53:22.460 --> 00:53:23.660
I'm going to talk to men.

775
00:53:23.660 --> 00:53:24.980
I don't really want to talk to men,

776
00:53:24.980 --> 00:53:26.420
but I'm going to start this podcast.

777
00:53:26.420 --> 00:53:28.340
I don't know what I'm doing, but I'm going to do it.

778
00:53:28.340 --> 00:53:29.420
And his idea is,

779
00:53:29.420 --> 00:53:32.980
is that the next third of your life is the best third.

780
00:53:32.980 --> 00:53:35.660
And he comes from the premise of kind of like, you know,

781
00:53:35.660 --> 00:53:38.300
your first 30 years is your getting years.

782
00:53:38.300 --> 00:53:41.340
Your next 30 years is your using years.

783
00:53:41.340 --> 00:53:44.700
And your next 30 years is your giving years.

784
00:53:44.700 --> 00:53:47.740
And it doesn't necessarily have to be 30, 60, 90,

785
00:53:48.100 --> 00:53:50.700
but what I'm saying is, is like the next third

786
00:53:50.700 --> 00:53:54.940
or the next stage of your life is the best stage.

787
00:53:54.940 --> 00:53:57.620
And so wherever you're at, you're young guy, middle,

788
00:53:57.620 --> 00:54:02.620
you're, you know, you know, beyond 50, 60, whatever,

789
00:54:04.580 --> 00:54:07.500
the next, the next third of your life,

790
00:54:07.500 --> 00:54:10.700
the next stage of your life is the best stage

791
00:54:10.700 --> 00:54:13.460
because there's always more.

792
00:54:13.460 --> 00:54:18.460
There's always a good God that is on your side.

793
00:54:18.980 --> 00:54:20.620
It's not over.

794
00:54:20.620 --> 00:54:22.700
There is so much to do.

795
00:54:22.700 --> 00:54:25.580
There's so much to accomplish.

796
00:54:26.700 --> 00:54:29.260
You feel like some of us old guys are like, you know,

797
00:54:29.260 --> 00:54:30.860
well, you know, I don't know.

798
00:54:30.860 --> 00:54:33.500
I'm seeing, you know, less years in front of me

799
00:54:33.500 --> 00:54:34.340
than behind me.

800
00:54:34.340 --> 00:54:36.700
And I kind of, and I feel like I, you know,

801
00:54:36.700 --> 00:54:39.540
didn't make as much of it as I could have.

802
00:54:39.540 --> 00:54:42.420
There's a whole 20 years of my life

803
00:54:42.420 --> 00:54:44.700
that I spent in vocational ministry

804
00:54:44.700 --> 00:54:45.700
that I felt like, man,

805
00:54:45.700 --> 00:54:47.900
I wish I would have had those 20 years back.

806
00:54:48.820 --> 00:54:50.700
But there's part of those 20 years

807
00:54:50.700 --> 00:54:53.260
that really meant something and taught me a lot of things.

808
00:54:53.260 --> 00:54:57.460
And so I have an opportunity to really ball all that up

809
00:54:57.460 --> 00:54:59.540
and put that to good use.

810
00:54:59.540 --> 00:55:00.380
And I'm talented.

811
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.320
on you. You're a group of great guys, good guys, the odds are in

812
00:55:05.320 --> 00:55:10.660
your favor. They really are like legitimately, it's like not even

813
00:55:10.660 --> 00:55:14.460
a joke. It's not even like, like, like, I'm not trying to

814
00:55:14.460 --> 00:55:18.180
make you feel better. I mean, literally, there are more women,

815
00:55:19.200 --> 00:55:24.400
probably eight, nine, 10 to one or more that are doing their

816
00:55:24.400 --> 00:55:32.200
preparation, and looking for a good man to connect with. So be

817
00:55:32.200 --> 00:55:36.320
encouraged, be lifted up, continue to do the hard work.

818
00:55:37.840 --> 00:55:43.440
Continue to show up like you are in your life. And make steps

819
00:55:43.440 --> 00:55:47.520
make progress. I was on the pod, I didn't finish telling you

820
00:55:47.520 --> 00:55:50.120
about the podcast. I was on the podcast. And he said, I want to

821
00:55:50.120 --> 00:55:55.800
talk about risk and reward. And he told this short story of a

822
00:55:55.800 --> 00:55:58.640
guy that recently just climbed a building, he was watching this

823
00:55:58.640 --> 00:56:02.480
video, and this guy scaled the tallest building in the world.

824
00:56:02.960 --> 00:56:06.440
Like, you know, outside with no ropes, or I don't know what it

825
00:56:06.440 --> 00:56:08.040
was. I don't know all the details. But it was just like

826
00:56:08.040 --> 00:56:14.520
ridiculous, how he did it, like free hand or whatever. And some

827
00:56:14.520 --> 00:56:18.760
guy was asking the host of this podcast, my friend, he's like,

828
00:56:18.920 --> 00:56:23.640
in that amazing, like, what do you think of that? And yes, I

829
00:56:23.960 --> 00:56:28.040
think my friend was just like, thank you. But I think that guy

830
00:56:28.040 --> 00:56:33.200
is crazy. You know, I think that guy is nuts. Like, like, that

831
00:56:33.200 --> 00:56:37.160
doesn't make any sense. And what he was saying was, he was just

832
00:56:37.160 --> 00:56:42.880
like, there are some things that seem inspiring. That seemed

833
00:56:42.880 --> 00:56:48.360
like, wow, that's amazing. But to what advantage to what like

834
00:56:48.360 --> 00:56:53.720
his risk, he risked literally his life, climbing up this

835
00:56:53.720 --> 00:56:59.440
building, for what, as some sort of line item, in some sort of

836
00:56:59.440 --> 00:57:03.520
history book or some journal someday. I'm not disparaging the

837
00:57:03.520 --> 00:57:07.120
guy. I'm just like, that's interesting. That's amazing.

838
00:57:07.120 --> 00:57:10.520
That's kind of cool. But it lasted about five seconds for

839
00:57:10.520 --> 00:57:15.120
me. It did not have longevity to where it was just like, man,

840
00:57:15.120 --> 00:57:19.040
that guy's inspired me to change the world. So what I'm

841
00:57:19.040 --> 00:57:24.920
trying to say is, is that the things that are truly risky for

842
00:57:24.920 --> 00:57:32.160
men, especially, especially good men, is to keep on doing the

843
00:57:32.160 --> 00:57:37.800
right things and do right things better. Keep on being further

844
00:57:37.800 --> 00:57:42.400
relational. Keep on doing the things that scare you, that

845
00:57:42.400 --> 00:57:44.960
scare the hell out of you, the things that feared you fear the

846
00:57:44.960 --> 00:57:48.560
most. I don't know if it might be scaling building. I don't

847
00:57:48.560 --> 00:57:51.200
know. But I mean, like, hope it's something a little bit more

848
00:57:51.200 --> 00:57:56.920
worthy than scaling a building, that facing your fears, and

849
00:57:57.160 --> 00:58:00.120
facing the things that scare you. Some of you guys have

850
00:58:00.120 --> 00:58:02.520
shared stories tonight, I can already tell what your where

851
00:58:02.520 --> 00:58:06.000
your fears are at. You're like, Oh, I put myself out there

852
00:58:06.000 --> 00:58:10.880
again. If I try harder, you know, I might get rejected, I

853
00:58:10.960 --> 00:58:18.320
might fail, I might be worse off than before. No, man. There is

854
00:58:18.320 --> 00:58:22.000
only try there is only moving forward, there is only facing

855
00:58:22.000 --> 00:58:28.360
your fears. Take the risk. And the reward is the tremendous

856
00:58:28.360 --> 00:58:32.200
payoff. It's the growth. It is the better version of yourself.

857
00:58:32.440 --> 00:58:37.240
It is the relationship you didn't realize you could have. It

858
00:58:37.240 --> 00:58:41.120
is the job that you could step into in the career like I never

859
00:58:41.120 --> 00:58:44.080
thought I could, like there was a day when I was making $10 an

860
00:58:44.080 --> 00:58:47.040
hour. And it was my first day job, like nine to five, and I

861
00:58:47.040 --> 00:58:50.280
was just getting married. And I was making $10 an hour. And

862
00:58:50.280 --> 00:58:52.920
there was a time in my life where I thought, I cannot

863
00:58:52.920 --> 00:58:58.920
believe somebody is paying me $10 an hour to work a job. And

864
00:58:58.920 --> 00:59:03.280
now that's like, I mean, like the minimum wages, I don't know

865
00:59:03.280 --> 00:59:08.120
whatever it is. But I mean, I believe that $10 an hour,

866
00:59:08.120 --> 00:59:13.040
somebody was paying me to do a job. And now, obviously, to me

867
00:59:13.040 --> 00:59:16.280
$10 an hour to probably all of us on this call, like, Oh, okay,

868
00:59:16.280 --> 00:59:21.040
well, $10 an hour is like nothing. But it's all relative

869
00:59:21.040 --> 00:59:25.120
to the point where it's just like, you don't realize the

870
00:59:25.120 --> 00:59:30.360
life you could live. If you continue to take the emotional

871
00:59:30.400 --> 00:59:34.760
and the spiritual, like good risks, the things that are make

872
00:59:34.760 --> 00:59:37.280
you feel uncomfortable, things that make you feel scared, the

873
00:59:37.280 --> 00:59:41.520
major things that make you feel like, man, I feel so unworthy.

874
00:59:41.800 --> 00:59:46.640
But I'm gonna just be worthy. I'm gonna just trust Jesus. I'm

875
00:59:46.640 --> 00:59:49.640
gonna trust Jesus that his worthiness is greater than mine.

876
00:59:49.640 --> 00:59:52.640
And that's all I need. I don't need myself to be worthy. I just

877
00:59:52.640 --> 00:59:55.440
need his worthiness. And that's gonna get me through that's

878
00:59:55.440 --> 00:59:59.560
gonna be that's gonna get me to the to the next step. That's

879
00:59:59.560 --> 01:00:00.200
gonna get me

880
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.120
to the next thing. So I want you to be guys, I want you guys to

881
01:00:03.120 --> 01:00:07.360
be lifted up. I want you to be encouraged tonight that you got

882
01:00:07.360 --> 01:00:12.360
a lot of things going for you. I you're paying attention, ie you

883
01:00:12.360 --> 01:00:18.400
love God, ie, you know, you show up. I eat, you know, you

884
01:00:18.400 --> 01:00:23.680
actually have a concern. You're trying. You know how many guys

885
01:00:23.680 --> 01:00:26.040
are not trying? You know how many guys are giving up? You

886
01:00:26.040 --> 01:00:31.200
know how many guys are just like, whatever? You know, and

887
01:00:31.520 --> 01:00:35.320
some, a lot of those guys are married. They have an

888
01:00:35.320 --> 01:00:39.680
opportunity to actually develop in a relationship that they're

889
01:00:39.680 --> 01:00:43.760
already in. And they're screwing it up because they just don't

890
01:00:43.760 --> 01:00:48.240
give a shit. Because they're so wrapped up in their own failure,

891
01:00:48.360 --> 01:00:51.480
their own emotions, their own medication, their own

892
01:00:52.200 --> 01:00:57.560
selfishness. And here I got a lot of guys on this call in this

893
01:00:57.560 --> 01:01:03.520
community that aren't selfish, that aren't unto their own

894
01:01:04.680 --> 01:01:11.760
person, love God, and are trying and showing up. So that's a lot.

895
01:01:13.080 --> 01:01:18.360
That is that's a that's a huge, huge advantage. So be

896
01:01:18.360 --> 01:01:23.840
encouraged, be lifted up, guys. Um, I'm just gonna I'm just

897
01:01:23.840 --> 01:01:27.480
gonna pray us out. And it's gonna this is gonna be our, our

898
01:01:27.480 --> 01:01:32.560
time tonight. So we're getting 10 minutes past the hour here. I

899
01:01:32.560 --> 01:01:37.320
thank you for all these guys. I bless them. I speak life, health,

900
01:01:37.320 --> 01:01:41.240
wealth, prosperity over them. I thank you right now, Lord, that

901
01:01:41.240 --> 01:01:44.800
you're working in their lives. Lord, give us give us the

902
01:01:44.800 --> 01:01:48.960
boldness. Give us the strength to allow you to work fully,

903
01:01:48.960 --> 01:01:53.000
fully in our lives, to bring us to where you want us to be to

904
01:01:53.000 --> 01:01:59.400
where we could be to really step into our full potential in you

905
01:02:00.000 --> 01:02:05.680
and bring you glory and have the benefits of it. In Jesus name.

906
01:02:06.480 --> 01:02:11.520
Amen. Amen. All right, guys, God bless you. Have a great, great

907
01:02:11.520 --> 01:02:14.960
week. And we'll see. Thank you for you. Some of you know, new

908
01:02:14.960 --> 01:02:17.360
guys being on here. So awesome to see you. And I like four or

909
01:02:17.360 --> 01:02:20.040
five new guys on tonight. So it's really awesome. It's good

910
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or great meeting you and looking forward to getting to know you

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a little bit better. Thank you. Thank you, guys. Have a great

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week. Bless you too.