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So, it is March 16th, the day before St. Paddy's Day.

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We're green tomorrow, guys.

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Actually, it doesn't matter.

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If you want to get pinched, that's fine, too.

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We're here.

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Man's heart check-in.

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Sorry.

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I guess the first poll of the day is, I'm going to be doing corned beef and cabbage.

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Is that something you guys grew up doing?

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And I don't do the green food coloring, just because I can't.

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I know there's green Guinness, like the beer.

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As an Irish, my ancestry being Irish, I don't like the cultural appropriation, so I'm going

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to act offended all day.

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That's what I do.

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Are you?

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Sweet.

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You know, at least you have a legitimate reason, right?

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And so, what do you guys, I love you some corned beef and cabbage, but you know.

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We did that.

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We're growing up.

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We for sure did.

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Yeah.

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I mean, I don't make it myself.

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I don't pretend to be any kind of good cook.

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Oh.

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Yeah.

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You know, like the things when you have kids, though, like, you know, we would do green

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milk in the morning, just like, just to be fun, like, and have something different, right?

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You know, like, well, and then one of my sons was like, Oh, great.

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The other one's like, Oh, what did you do to my milk?

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You never know what you get with the kids, right?

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So those kids, do they still do like the leprechaun traps?

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We used to do that when we were kids.

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Like, what is that?

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Like, explain, explain the leprechaun trap.

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That sounds like fun.

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We used to do.

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It was like fourth, fifth grade.

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We used to create these elaborate traps that we would leave overnight in the classroom

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or the weekend.

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And it would, you know, and the teacher would go, I did this when I was a teacher briefly

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as well.

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And you'd, you'd sprinkle like green glitter in there or something, just see it.

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Oh no, you escaped your trap or whatever, or gold coins.

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They were in there.

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We used to do it.

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It was kind of a, an engineering project.

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You tried to explain how your trap worked and how it lured it in.

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And I guess, I don't know if they still do stuff like that.

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Kind of wins.

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Leave some, leave a trail, a trail of lucky charms up to it.

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That'd be kind of fun.

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They're magically delicious.

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So, you know, any wins for you guys and, you know, you know, we all, like there's power

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in the testimony.

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How are you guys doing?

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Anybody have, have any, any breakthroughs?

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I got something crazy weird.

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Crazy weird?

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Yeah.

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I'll, I'll, I'll lead off with and share with you guys.

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So I've got the physical hard book.

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I don't, have you all got the physical hard book?

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I did, but then I gave it to somebody.

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So now I think I have the PDF.

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Okay.

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So, I don't know.

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I mean, for me, this is better because I turn over the pages and write all in it and it's

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super good.

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Yeah.

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And it's cheaper than printing out the PDF.

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That's true.

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So I'm on week two.

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I was here.

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I've missed three, three weeks in a row.

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I was in Minnesota for work and just.

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There you go.

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Yeah.

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Some other crazy stuff came up, however, well, what can you, can you do me a favor

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and just refresh me?

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What is week two about week two or like, or is that what you're, it's like, is that that

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you were going to talk about or not?

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Not right off.

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Oh, okay.

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Like, you know, I want to contextualize just so I know where it's been.

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It's been a wee little bit since I've read the book.

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You know what I mean?

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Yeah.

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I should not be a leprechaun, like an Irish, a terribly Irish person today.

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I mean, I've got some points out of week two, but this is crazy weird.

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What is crazy weird?

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So in the physical book, this page that I'm holding up is the one that has the verse about

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writing Lord into your heart and in examining your heart and revealing to you your anxious

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cares and worries.

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Is that like David was saying, Lord exam, you know, okay, that, that verse, Lord, you'd

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look at my heart, you know, examine it.

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Is there any unrighteous way in me, yadda, yadda, yadda.

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Yes.

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Okay.

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So this page came out, it came out of my book.

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How many more general?

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No, I mean, it was, I mean, it was never found in the book.

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Oh, that's interesting.

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It's the only page in the whole book that's that way.

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It's the only page in the whole book.

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Well, you know, a lot of people would say that, you know, that's a God wink potentially

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and like a sign, but, um, yeah, I live in the prophetic.

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Not everybody lives in the prophetic, I do.

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So what page was that Christopher was asking?

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It's page 34, and the verse is Psalm 139, 23 through 24. I'll read you the whole verse.

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God, I invite you, I invite your searching gaze into my heart, examine me through and through, find out everything that may be hidden within me.

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Put me to the test and sift through all my anxious cares, see if there is any path of pain I'm walking on, and lean back to your glorious ways, the path that brings me back to you.

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But this page, I mean, it was like never bound in the book, and the rest of the book's like perfectly fine.

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Yeah, well, it does seem like a prophetic sign, you know, I mean, it was interesting because, I mean, we have such a different, like, does everybody here know what, like, the whole, okay, so prophetic sign.

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If you're not into the prophetic, God's, you know, Jesus says, my sheep hear my voice. Can we all agree with that, right?

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You know, and then, like, so if you, and there are things that happen, people say, I don't know if you've ever been where somebody says something and it just stands out to you, you know, a lot of times that's God speaking through another person.

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I mean, he spoke through a donkey to Balaam so he can use anybody, right?

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So I just, just for context, and sometimes, I mean, I had a thing last week, Renee was on, right, and she was leading, and she's like, Mike, I see your wife being an hour and a half away, right?

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And it stood out to me, right?

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Like, it was just, and guess what?

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I just matched with somebody this morning who was an hour and a half away and looks like an amazing, it's everything that I'm looking for.

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And so, you know, I'm just like, huh.

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So, you know, some people say that was coincidental.

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I don't believe in coincidence.

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I just don't, right, you know, and I have to be diligent with my thing.

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So anyway, so that page is out, and the Lord's saying, hey, you know what?

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That is my, you guys, that is my prayer constantly.

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Lord, look at me, make sure that I'm square, right?

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You know, look at, in the end, you know, because I, was it, sorry, I have a lot of conversations.

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I'm trying to remember if it was Renee last week.

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If it wasn't Renee last week, it was somebody else, but the Lord wants us to be, we're all becoming something, right?

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Or, well, you're either going one way or the other.

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You're becoming, you're going backwards or forward.

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But, you know, the best thing is to become the best you, you know?

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And people are like, how am I going to meet my spirit mate?

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Well, you listen to people around you.

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You be obedient with what God gives you.

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You ask him, hey, what do I need to be ready for this?

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And then you just, he'll bring it in in time, right?

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Sorry, I'm talking a lot.

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But, so, but Chris, I was trying to over, the overarching thing is prophetic.

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The prophetic, if you were to say it, is God speaks and you hear it, right?

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You know, I mean, if you want to take the prophetic end of the world.

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So, yeah.

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So, I mean, for me personally, I mean, we all know the ways that the Lord commonly speaks to us through the word, through other believers.

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So, I have a lot of dreams.

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I mean, like, you know, I have a dream journal that was written by one of the guys out of Bethel.

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Ben Armstrong, yeah.

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Yeah, from Ben Armstrong, exactly.

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I've been out to Bethel for a prophetic conference and activation.

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And I, being that we're bringing up Ben.

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Okay.

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So, you guys, there's some, there's some things that came out about Ben.

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I haven't been keeping up with it, right?

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I just, right now there's a purge in, there's a house cleaning in the house of the Lord right now, right?

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And people who have done things in the past that were not right or not made right or their victims were never heard are now coming out everywhere.

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And I actually really, it breaks my heart that the things happened, but I'm happy that the house of the Lord is being cleaned up, right?

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So, I just, but I do, I've known Ben, right?

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Like, you know, like Ben's somebody who I've spent time with, and I'm very disappointed, to say the least.

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But the anointing, look at David, right?

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Anointed to be king, massively amazing in so many different ways.

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Terrible as a dad.

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Terrible as a husband, right?

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You know, like, so, so Ben is really gifted in dreams, right?

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Like, the dude's, the dude, so you can take whatever Ben did about dreams and you can, and you can put your, you can, you can hold on to it.

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Because the dude.

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is legit in that. Now his personal life, that's a whole other thing, and it's been untrained.

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And I don't fully know what has come out, but I just know he was put on leave of absence.

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And I'm sorry, I don't know who's going to be watching this, but I don't want anybody being

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like, hey, I don't abdicate what Ben did in any way, but God gives gifts to broken people,

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and you can learn from those gifts even though the person does stupid stuff. Does that make sense?

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Yeah. Well, I don't know what you're talking about, Ben, but I do know the whole

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shebang with Bethel right now. So it's Sean Bowles, it's Ben, and there's a bunch of others,

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and there's a couple others that they platformed. And they have a third party working into it,

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which is really good. Right. Okay. Well, you're talking about the same thing. I didn't know Ben

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Johnson was in the middle of that. Ben Armstrong. Well, I thought it was Valentine, but anyway,

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I mean... So anyway, so you got your dream journal. I'm sorry, when you mentioned Ben,

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I wanted to address that, because there's going to be some people be like, who is that? That guy's

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a clown. And he did make some mistakes, but he is actually legitimately gifted.

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So the Lord communicates to me through dreams. Sometimes I'll do as the prophet said, I'll say,

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Lord, what does this dream mean? Sometimes I'll get an answer right away, and sometimes I won't

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find out for years. And I also had visions, and I've had this really crazy out of body experience.

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And so I live in a different world where some people would think I need to be in a quiet room

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in a straitjacket. But anyway, I've been having these experiences for decades and didn't know

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what they were. And finally found it, you know, leaned in on a friend that I knew

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lived in that world. And he kind of explained it to me and turned me on to

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a book written by James Gall.

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So okay, so you had the page, how does the dreams like, so what is the Lord showing you in this

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whole thing? Can we sum it up into like a, you know, to tie it up into, so you had the page that

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was out of the book, and you've had these dreams, which the prophetic God often speaks through

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dreams, right? What is the Lord showing you? Right, so the dreams are not really related to what

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has happened to me recently. But

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so I got about this freaking close to sexual immorality in the past couple weeks. I mean,

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I was like, that close to it. I mean, it was breathing on me. You know, I mean, it was.

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Yeah, no, I mean, like, when you're about ready for a breakthrough, when you're walking into what

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your God's calling, you know, you're like, dude, I've had some of the craziest experiences, right?

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So yeah, I mean, Jezebel was right in front of me. Yeah. Yeah. And so you're still here. You're

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still here. And you didn't make it. And you didn't go down that road, right? Yeah. You know why?

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Because the Lord pulled me out of it. Yeah. I credit it all to God, because

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I was right in the midst of it, you know, fixing to do the dirty deed, and the Lord

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pulled me out of it. Yeah, no, like, there always is a way of escape. And it may be stupid. And you

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may be almost there. But like, the fact is that you escaped, right? And like, the enemy

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really likes to bind things, right? Like, and he'll bring, I can't tell you how many people I

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know who have given in and ended up with kids, right? Like, just so I don't, I mean, you know,

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the enemy doesn't play fair, right? You know, so I'm glad that you didn't fall for that. So that,

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you know, and hey, a win is a win. Right? Yeah. Now, my encouragement is like, I would look at

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how you got there and make sure that path, like, you know, put a gate on that path.

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Yeah, exactly. I don't want to tie up too much time here, because I know there's quite other

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people who want to talk about it. That's kind of, you know, what's been going down with me.

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Yeah, you guys, a near miss is still a win. Right? Like, you know, I mean, I've had so many things

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where, I mean, it was just, there was something stupid happened that changed the whole outcome.

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Because, you know, and so I don't want to pretend like I got everything together,

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you know, I mean, I have, but when in those places I have built.

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I've stopped running down them, I've deleted apps, I've gone through all kinds of things

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to make sure.

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You know, it's this flea temptation, right?

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It doesn't say play with it, you know, even though we want to, how close can we get without,

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you know, so.

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Well, Chris, I'm glad, thank you for sharing, and I'm glad that you didn't get eaten.

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And you guys, it's a counterfeit, it's, you know, like, so.

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I think it's hard, because, you know, you talk about, I avoided Jezebel.

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For me, it's funny, because I'm going through this, this dating one-on-one part of Love

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Story Accelerator, that's where I'm at, which, you know, side note, I don't really know what

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I'm doing after the artwork, I'm kind of just going through what's available to me.

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And it's, I feel a little bit like I'm behind enemy lines, because it's, it, the replays

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are very, or when she was teaching her women's group, so I'm really, like, getting some insider

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information, which is helpful.

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About how it works.

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That's what's amazing about this group.

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And like, and, Jack, you'll share, I mean, Bethany, like, you know, any of the ladies

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are up, they're like, they're giving us, like, privileged, privileged in the way of, like,

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helpful information, not like they're sharing other people's information, right?

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Yeah, and, but this week, I, you know, talked about the sex, you know, talking about sex

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too early, or talking about things that, on first Zoom calls or dates that you shouldn't

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really be talking about, and I know in my past I've done it, certainly, I got in conversation

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with a woman from work, who I've known now for a couple years, I mean, we've been, you

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know, cordial work friends.

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And we did get into one of those conversations, just having to be sitting next to each other

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on some downtime.

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And she's been throwing out, you know, throwing down hankies, as they say, which, and she's

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not a believer, she's not, we don't share a lot of like, that kind of stuff, but she's

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super nice.

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And she's fun.

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And, and I tell you, I had that conversation with her.

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And I walked away from that.

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And then did went through the dating 101 that just happened to mention that very soon after.

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And I was like, and it was very tempting, because it's not that she's a Jezebel, she's,

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she's actually quite kind.

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And I think she would be a very attentive girlfriend and all of that kind of stuff.

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And certainly very open to some very tempting things.

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And so I tell you that temptation, it wasn't necessarily just like, a bad Jezebel trying

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to like, lure me, it was more that I could just finally lay down the discipline for a

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bit, you know, just back it off.

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Can I put my Christian card away?

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Can I put my card, can I just put it like, yeah, no, I mean, dude, it's, it doesn't matter

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if it's overt, or it's covert, or, dude, I think it's, for me, when somebody's coming

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up and like, hey, they're like, really, like, hey, let's, let's sleep together, it doesn't

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really bother.

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I have no problem with that, because I'm like, see you later.

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But it's the ones that are kind and nice and warm.

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And you're like, oh, man.

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And so yeah, I think I think both ways.

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I think that's a lot harder for me is the ones that are kind, right?

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Any attacks and saying attacks, you were your weakest because it was what got me was she

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was just sharing some of the stuff that her ex had gone through with some sexual dysfunction,

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and stuff like that.

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And it really pulled on my white knight syndrome, be like, Oh, this girl had been taken care

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of.

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And I realized that that thought train was going down a bad, bad track.

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Oh, man, I have not gotten that far off of the path in a while.

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Well, it's good that you're recognizing it, right.

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And like, you know, and, and you guys, just so you know, like, even if you're on the apps,

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right?

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Like, just, just the just scrolling through the apps is going to get your toss testosterone

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up.

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Right?

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Like, it's, you know, like, be aware of that, like, you know, being with a beautiful, your

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testosterone is coming up, you know, you know, and like, being aware of that.

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And like, dude, I steer free, like, unless we're like, level three, is it stage three?

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Like, yeah, I think three or four, I think for like, you need to keep those conversations

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out out until you're like, way down the road, right?

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Like you guys are in, you know, in the first couple of dates in the first couple of times

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is like, hey, let's have some fun.

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Let's just be like, see the light things and you know, getting into trauma bonding and

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all that stuff's not really good in the first.

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Well, you could do it, but you're you're creating a false intimacy, right, which, which is also

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creating soul ties, which then which, you know, it's a whole connect.

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It's just a whole snowball.

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Yeah, Jackie says the late late level three as which says if you're gonna have it. Yeah, but yeah

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I would say I would say four would be the bet if you can delay it till four

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Right, because you know, it's like don't wake in love until it's time, right?

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Like, you know, I thought it's like, you know, the longer you can prolong. Okay

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Sorry, I'm getting all crazy here. But like, you know, I guess this is how it's rolling today

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I was I had a whole nother idea but so

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um

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People go can

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The the longer you can delay the physical

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Right, the better you are off right and for a physical touch person, that's hard for me, right? But but because

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once you start it it

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Like steps up there's their state levels, right? Like, you know, so like if you're just day one you guys are making out well

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What's the next levels?

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Yeah, so did you can't get to level four so you're already kind of setting yourself up for disaster or a lot of pain

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You know, and so and especially when you've been married before and it's you have to well, I mean I guess

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Maybe you guys I always think like everybody knows this

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So when you've been when you're used to you've been in a marital relationship before it's just a natural progression

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But but it was with your you know X or whatever or whoever so when you come into a new relationship

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You have to retrain your system because your system is used to going eight from A to Z

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Right, and if you're not aware of that you could get in a lot of trouble really quickly, right?

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And it's not always you don't know what you don't know. But then what you don't know can really get you so

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Yeah

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That's uh, I don't know if I would wait to have the at least talking a little bit about sex

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You know nuts and bolts

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Not necessarily doing it. I'm not saying but I don't know if I would do ring and a date before you have that conversation

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Well, I mean like to the point where you actually know that this is person some person that you're gonna go forward with

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Yeah, right, you know because yeah, cuz that opens a whole door, you know, you understand

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I'm just saying is wrong the longer you can keep that door closed

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Is is better

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For purity and actually getting to know each other and not having that

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I I mean you're gonna always have your chemicals working

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but like when you get that door open the chemicals seem to be a lot more and and your heads a little more swirly versus

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on point

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Yeah, did you want to say something Dave David? I

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Was gonna say real quick that the issue is you can get really

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Emotionally connected with someone super fast way way way way before you

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Yeah, it's a danger yeah, yeah, especially

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Especially if it's long distance or you haven't met them yet and you're falling through the trap of

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Like texting too much, you know texting too much like every day or multiple times a day before you even have that first in date

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Meeting like that's very very dangerous

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Like that's where the emotional connection can like go at Mach 10

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But like you barely even know the person yet, and that's very very dangerous. Yeah

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Yeah, and you know, I don't know okay so you guys if you really like somebody like

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You may not be a love bomber but they may feel love bombed and that might kill it

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Does that does that make sense? Like when you build that?

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Really steer away from trauma bonding I swear, you know, just like hey, what do you what are you doing?

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Like you keeping it show and like I mean you can have those conversations once you kind of figure out

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Yeah, Christopher Jesse welcome back we were just talking about you

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So, how are you

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Pretty good. Yeah tired today, but

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We were down in Florida for a week with the family on a family vacation that was really a good time except my son

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had to get his

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Appendix removed in the middle of the trip, but besides that it was good

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That's exciting

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Excitement that we don't like right, you know, right

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Yeah, so I'm gonna catch up with the conversation here. Cool

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I'm gonna get on that away. So well, we were just talking about like how

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The enemy tries to bring the foot like there's the Jezebel or there's the one that's not

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Or the one that's kind which is even harder to say no to a lot of times right, you know

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Kind and available right when you're like when you're looking at the you know

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What you're not when there's nothing that is and you're like, hey, this would be really easy

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You guys I could have been married a half a dozen times

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in the last several years, right?

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Two beautiful women, right?

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But like, and you can do it.

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You guys can do that, right?

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But like, but we didn't have, we weren't,

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we didn't have, what I love that Jackie says

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is complimentary opposites, right?

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I'm looking for somebody who's a complimentary opposite,

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who is walking within the ministry like I am.

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I mean, dude, I'm a full-time minister

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without being a full-time minister.

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I work full-time in tech, right?

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But just, you guys, but if you find somebody

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that actually fits for you, that's great too, right?

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But I'm just saying like,

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be the best you can be and figure out what you like.

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Oh, here's a major thing.

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You know, that's why Jackie wants you guys in the apps

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and like doing some reps is to see what you want, right?

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And then develop a list, develop a,

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I mean, like, I'm not talking like God's gotta be first,

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like, you know, like the things that matter,

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not like, you know, she's six foot,

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she's got this and that blonde.

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That's not the list I'm talking about.

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I'm talking about, hey, I like somebody who's like me,

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for me personally, I need somebody who's intelligent,

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like highly intelligent,

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because I like to have crazy deep conversations.

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And people, and if I can't,

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I need to connect intellectually

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as well as emotionally and physically.

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So I need somebody who can actually,

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I need somebody who's strong,

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because I go through a lot, right?

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And if somebody is not strong, they can't really support.

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So like part of dating is this,

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hey, Thomas, good to see you.

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Part of dating is finding what you like and what you want.

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And then if somebody comes along and they fit your top,

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you're like, go, have some fun, right?

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But if you don't have a list or a metric,

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or, and I mean, like I said, everybody has a list.

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I'm not talking about the list of,

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I wanna, you know, like the worldly lists.

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I'm talking about what you need, what you want.

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Somebody who would be a great,

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like I need somebody who is administrative,

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because I suck at administration.

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I'm great at coaching, I'm great at all that stuff,

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but if you need to get a team on the field,

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do not ask me.

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So does that make sense?

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Yeah, and just be careful,

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because the enemy brings a lot of counterfeits.

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You know, he knows your calling better than you do,

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and he'll bring somebody that's great,

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or seems great to keep you from getting there.

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And that's why having, I also,

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and you guys will hear me beat this drum quite often,

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people in your circle.

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Okay, you need people who hear from the Holy Spirit well,

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in your core group.

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I'm not saying like, you go to everybody in your circle,

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like if there's 50 people, and you do a freaking pull.

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The people who you have a track record with,

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that hear from God, you trust, you develop a circle.

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And I have a couple right now.

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I mean, like I've had for like three years, right?

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And they actually pushed me into something

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that I didn't wanna be in.

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So like, the other thing about making that circle

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is come under their authority.

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Because God, when you're in the dating realm,

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you're not thinking clearly most of the time.

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You know, and having somebody who loves you,

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and is outside of it,

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and hears from the Lord is really important.

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So, does that make sense?

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The circle thing, I just wanna comment real quick on that.

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I have, like Jesus did, a circle of three,

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and a circle of 12.

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Yeah.

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So, you know the three, Peter, John, and James.

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Right.

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So, depending on what issue I'm dealing with,

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I may have a circle of three

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that looks a little different, you know.

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But yeah, I have a circle of three

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that's walking this out with me at the moment.

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That's amazing.

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And so, see guys, that's super valuable, right?

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I mean, I don't move, well,

450
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for the most part, I'm submitted to authority.

451
00:29:23.840 --> 00:29:25.240
I don't always like it, by the way.

452
00:29:25.240 --> 00:29:27.160
Just, I just want you to know.

453
00:29:28.440 --> 00:29:31.480
I mean, Jackie's a matchmaker and a matchbreaker,

454
00:29:31.480 --> 00:29:33.800
and she broke a match once.

455
00:29:33.800 --> 00:29:36.040
Because Jackie's also my authority, right?

456
00:29:36.040 --> 00:29:38.080
You know, and it was somebody in the group.

457
00:29:38.080 --> 00:29:41.080
So like, and that one sucked.

458
00:29:41.080 --> 00:29:43.560
But I knew it was true, and I trusted her.

459
00:29:43.560 --> 00:29:44.400
Does that make sense?

460
00:29:44.400 --> 00:29:46.360
Like, you know, I'm not saying it's fun, right?

461
00:29:46.360 --> 00:29:48.320
You know, hopefully it is.

462
00:29:48.320 --> 00:29:51.680
And the other thing is, is this is not,

463
00:29:51.680 --> 00:29:53.680
I know this is vomitous before I even say it.

464
00:29:53.680 --> 00:29:56.000
Okay, Eli, I just want you guys,

465
00:29:56.000 --> 00:29:57.600
I just want to understand this,

466
00:29:59.280 --> 00:30:00.120
is

467
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:06.800
Um, I have a half a dozen people that I've said, Hey, if you, if there's somebody that

468
00:30:06.800 --> 00:30:12.400
you think is a good match for me, you know, um, you have absolute power and I will, I

469
00:30:12.400 --> 00:30:13.640
will in, in that.

470
00:30:13.640 --> 00:30:16.080
And I will go on at least a date or two.

471
00:30:16.080 --> 00:30:17.080
Right.

472
00:30:17.080 --> 00:30:23.400
And so I, I've opened up my life to, that's why it's so, so powerful to be in community.

473
00:30:23.400 --> 00:30:24.400
Right.

474
00:30:24.400 --> 00:30:29.840
And you never know, you might meet, you know, okay, so, so can I, can I share a story?

475
00:30:29.840 --> 00:30:35.360
So one of my best friends, right, his, she's, she's Brazilian, right.

476
00:30:35.360 --> 00:30:41.560
Um, but like, he met her through another friend, like, he's like, Hey, I think you should meet

477
00:30:41.560 --> 00:30:42.560
her.

478
00:30:42.560 --> 00:30:43.560
He's like, yeah, no, I'm good.

479
00:30:43.560 --> 00:30:44.560
Like, I'm so good.

480
00:30:44.560 --> 00:30:47.560
Like, you know, I didn't know Brazilians or whatever.

481
00:30:47.560 --> 00:30:49.520
Like, he just was like, all right.

482
00:30:49.520 --> 00:30:51.800
And then one day he finally conceded it.

483
00:30:51.800 --> 00:30:52.800
Right.

484
00:30:52.800 --> 00:30:58.820
Well, he had a dream and he never met her, but it was of her.

485
00:30:58.820 --> 00:31:01.300
And she had a dream of him.

486
00:31:01.300 --> 00:31:02.300
You can call that unreal.

487
00:31:02.300 --> 00:31:03.300
Right.

488
00:31:03.300 --> 00:31:06.780
But like he, if he hadn't submitted, he never would have met her.

489
00:31:06.780 --> 00:31:07.780
Right.

490
00:31:07.780 --> 00:31:09.620
Like, and it's a wild God story.

491
00:31:09.620 --> 00:31:10.620
Right.

492
00:31:10.620 --> 00:31:14.260
Like, like, like, you know, I mean, not every story and I hope that's kind of a story for

493
00:31:14.260 --> 00:31:17.460
you, but the whole thing is, is be under authority.

494
00:31:17.460 --> 00:31:19.860
Listen, be the best you.

495
00:31:19.860 --> 00:31:20.860
Right.

496
00:31:20.860 --> 00:31:26.580
Um, I mean, like I had conversations with Jackie that I didn't want to have, you know,

497
00:31:26.580 --> 00:31:30.700
I used to pay, you know, I paid her for coaching because I needed it.

498
00:31:30.700 --> 00:31:31.700
Right.

499
00:31:31.700 --> 00:31:34.100
You know, um, I don't know if she does that anymore because she's gotten really busy,

500
00:31:34.100 --> 00:31:35.900
but this is several years ago.

501
00:31:35.900 --> 00:31:42.060
Um, and you guys, that's why tonight, like if you guys have questions, I'm fully, I mean,

502
00:31:42.060 --> 00:31:44.940
I mean, I'm kind of in a circle.

503
00:31:44.940 --> 00:31:51.140
Well, I, I, you know, on that same lines, I was actually going to ask just the group

504
00:31:51.140 --> 00:31:57.020
if you guys are farther along with me or behind, but, um, one of the things that they

505
00:31:57.020 --> 00:32:02.740
challenged in that replay, um, and the dating 101 was to go on social media and post, Hey,

506
00:32:02.740 --> 00:32:09.260
this is my, you know, if you've been hiding any girls out there, you know, uh, you know,

507
00:32:09.260 --> 00:32:13.660
this is my last year single, you know, I'm, I'm ready, I'm looking for marriage.

508
00:32:13.660 --> 00:32:16.780
And I was like, okay, that's a, that's a challenge.

509
00:32:16.780 --> 00:32:17.780
Okay.

510
00:32:17.780 --> 00:32:19.140
I tried to do it.

511
00:32:19.140 --> 00:32:20.460
I tried to bring myself.

512
00:32:20.460 --> 00:32:25.260
I tried to pray, but I tried to talk, but I can't, I can't, I, and this is no judgment

513
00:32:25.260 --> 00:32:26.260
on everybody.

514
00:32:26.260 --> 00:32:27.260
Do not hear judgment in my voice.

515
00:32:27.260 --> 00:32:31.100
This is all me, but I can't bring myself.

516
00:32:31.100 --> 00:32:36.700
I feel so just pathetic, like coming to the, to the altar of social media and being just

517
00:32:36.700 --> 00:32:40.580
like, Oh, please, I'm, I'm desperate here.

518
00:32:40.580 --> 00:32:43.180
It just, it feels like a desperation move for me.

519
00:32:43.180 --> 00:32:46.820
And I don't know if that's, I'm thinking it's me.

520
00:32:46.820 --> 00:32:47.820
I just don't know.

521
00:32:47.820 --> 00:32:48.820
No, it's understandable.

522
00:32:48.820 --> 00:32:49.820
Okay.

523
00:32:50.180 --> 00:32:56.260
So did I tell you, I gave absolute power to like, that's five, sorry.

524
00:32:56.260 --> 00:33:01.100
You know, my numbers and me there, I've, you know, there's a, there's several people.

525
00:33:01.100 --> 00:33:05.820
Let's just say every single time, these are people who I know love me and have my best

526
00:33:05.820 --> 00:33:06.820
interest.

527
00:33:06.820 --> 00:33:07.820
Right.

528
00:33:07.820 --> 00:33:12.900
Every single time I wanted to puke, I just have to tell you like when I gave them permission.

529
00:33:12.900 --> 00:33:16.980
So Christopher and you guys, if you guys are struggling with that, how about this?

530
00:33:17.140 --> 00:33:19.220
I've been like, would this be helpful?

531
00:33:19.220 --> 00:33:20.220
Right.

532
00:33:20.220 --> 00:33:25.220
I would, I mean, cause you go social, like pick people you trust on your Facebook, right.

533
00:33:25.220 --> 00:33:27.140
And message them.

534
00:33:27.140 --> 00:33:31.220
Don't post it on your, I mean like, you know, Jackie can Christify me.

535
00:33:31.220 --> 00:33:32.220
That's okay.

536
00:33:32.220 --> 00:33:38.940
But like, if you can't do it on your page, do it in messenger to select you.

537
00:33:38.940 --> 00:33:41.860
Like take a baby step, take a jump, take a look, take a leap.

538
00:33:41.860 --> 00:33:45.860
I know somebody, dude, most people meet through other people.

539
00:33:45.860 --> 00:33:51.540
I mean, now it's apps, you know, but like most of the people that I talk to around,

540
00:33:51.540 --> 00:33:52.540
right.

541
00:33:52.540 --> 00:33:57.260
They, they, they met somebody through a barbecue or whatever.

542
00:33:57.260 --> 00:33:59.980
And you know, and they ended up and I'm like, Lord, where is that?

543
00:33:59.980 --> 00:34:05.420
I'm going to go to every barbecue and church meeting ever, you know, but you know, but

544
00:34:05.420 --> 00:34:07.060
so Christopher, does that sound better?

545
00:34:07.060 --> 00:34:13.139
Like just the select few that you trust versus I do broadcast to get like, Hey, I need a

546
00:34:13.139 --> 00:34:14.139
date.

547
00:34:14.139 --> 00:34:15.620
Like I could, I feel like how pathetic that sounds.

548
00:34:16.380 --> 00:34:20.900
It doesn't feel very masculine, but you know, maybe, maybe the baby step would be, I need

549
00:34:20.900 --> 00:34:28.420
to make a Facebook account because I'm on Instagram, been on Instagram, but I have been

550
00:34:28.420 --> 00:34:29.420
on Facebook.

551
00:34:29.420 --> 00:34:31.340
Well, no, do it on, do it on Instagram.

552
00:34:31.340 --> 00:34:32.340
Yeah.

553
00:34:32.340 --> 00:34:33.340
You can, you can message people.

554
00:34:33.340 --> 00:34:34.340
Hey Thomas, what's going on?

555
00:34:34.340 --> 00:34:35.340
What's shaking?

556
00:34:35.340 --> 00:34:42.540
Oh, I was just going to ask you, Christopher, I really appreciate your sharing.

557
00:34:42.540 --> 00:34:47.540
I'd love to hear what about it feels difficult.

558
00:34:47.540 --> 00:34:52.060
Is it that it feels embarrassing for other people to know that you want to date?

559
00:34:52.060 --> 00:34:53.060
Is it embarrassing?

560
00:34:53.060 --> 00:34:57.380
Does it feel embarrassing to ask for help?

561
00:34:57.380 --> 00:34:59.900
It's the, it's the, Hey, like.

562
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:07.400
I feel like a desperation move, like I'm just going to throw it out to the entire world

563
00:35:07.400 --> 00:35:15.560
that could conceivably stumble across my social media, my Instagram account, like, hey, you

564
00:35:15.560 --> 00:35:17.160
know, and I'm trying to do it with some humor.

565
00:35:17.160 --> 00:35:22.560
I think that's the answer is I need to do it with some humor, so I'm like, hey, if you've

566
00:35:22.560 --> 00:35:27.800
been hiding those single sisters, you know, maybe send them my way, you know, or something

567
00:35:27.800 --> 00:35:28.800
like that.

568
00:35:28.800 --> 00:35:29.800
That's great.

569
00:35:29.800 --> 00:35:35.880
Well, I mean, different people will have different styles, I'm sure.

570
00:35:35.880 --> 00:35:41.320
I feel like it's interesting to me that it feels desperate.

571
00:35:41.320 --> 00:35:46.280
Can you help me understand, like, what about it feels desperate?

572
00:35:46.280 --> 00:35:52.480
Like, again, is it is it that that you are like asking people for help?

573
00:35:52.480 --> 00:35:58.640
Is it that you feel like only lame people put out their romantic business on social

574
00:35:58.640 --> 00:35:59.640
media?

575
00:35:59.640 --> 00:36:00.640
Like what?

576
00:36:00.640 --> 00:36:02.960
What's what about it feels desperate?

577
00:36:02.960 --> 00:36:07.800
If again, I asked first, no one should be feel judged by what I'm saying.

578
00:36:07.800 --> 00:36:13.840
But capital P, in my mind is I struggle with pride.

579
00:36:13.840 --> 00:36:15.680
And that has been a downfall of mine.

580
00:36:15.680 --> 00:36:17.120
I know it's a downfall of mine.

581
00:36:17.120 --> 00:36:18.520
I've been rebuked for it.

582
00:36:18.520 --> 00:36:19.520
I've been healed from it.

583
00:36:19.520 --> 00:36:26.880
I've been but you know, I know it's pride that it feels like, hey, you know, you've

584
00:36:26.880 --> 00:36:31.840
been I mean, my wife died nine years ago.

585
00:36:31.840 --> 00:36:38.600
So it's kind of like a I feel like it would it would go out there to some of my friends

586
00:36:38.600 --> 00:36:44.000
who don't know me as well aren't as close to me I should say acquaintances because really

587
00:36:44.000 --> 00:36:45.000
they're not friends.

588
00:36:45.000 --> 00:36:48.680
And they're just like, God, he's not remarried yet.

589
00:36:48.840 --> 00:36:51.400
My God, it's been nine years.

590
00:36:51.400 --> 00:36:53.280
What has he been doing?

591
00:36:53.280 --> 00:37:00.600
I mean, who can't get who can't manage to get another wife in nine years, but a decade.

592
00:37:00.600 --> 00:37:01.800
So it's pride.

593
00:37:01.800 --> 00:37:02.800
I know it's part.

594
00:37:02.800 --> 00:37:06.800
So you're projecting judgment onto other people?

595
00:37:06.800 --> 00:37:08.920
Yeah, exactly.

596
00:37:08.920 --> 00:37:09.920
And yeah.

597
00:37:09.920 --> 00:37:10.920
All right.

598
00:37:10.920 --> 00:37:11.920
All right.

599
00:37:11.920 --> 00:37:15.080
Look, I didn't invite you to this to bring me wisdom.

600
00:37:15.080 --> 00:37:16.080
Okay.

601
00:37:16.080 --> 00:37:17.080
I need you to sign on my BS.

602
00:37:17.080 --> 00:37:18.080
Okay.

603
00:37:18.480 --> 00:37:20.640
You know, that's not what this is about.

604
00:37:20.640 --> 00:37:21.640
But but here.

605
00:37:21.640 --> 00:37:22.640
Okay, you guys.

606
00:37:22.640 --> 00:37:23.640
Sorry, I'm late.

607
00:37:23.640 --> 00:37:25.440
Hey, that's all right.

608
00:37:25.440 --> 00:37:26.440
So you guys.

609
00:37:26.440 --> 00:37:31.840
Gosh, I'm so I see all these statistics and then I I'm ballparking.

610
00:37:31.840 --> 00:37:32.840
Okay.

611
00:37:32.840 --> 00:37:33.840
Right.

612
00:37:33.840 --> 00:37:38.480
So if you're in like college, you have all these opportunities around you, right?

613
00:37:38.480 --> 00:37:41.200
Because you're in classes with people, right?

614
00:37:41.200 --> 00:37:45.200
After college, then you have work, which is not a great place.

615
00:37:45.800 --> 00:37:48.680
You have minimal opportunities there, right?

616
00:37:48.680 --> 00:37:52.000
So that's why apps have become like the major connecting point.

617
00:37:52.000 --> 00:37:53.200
And I hate apps with a passion.

618
00:37:53.200 --> 00:38:00.760
So just like, but like, it's not, you know, I remember back, like, if you were in college

619
00:38:00.760 --> 00:38:04.840
and you couldn't find a date that, you know, like, you and I understand, I always felt

620
00:38:04.840 --> 00:38:05.840
pathetic, right?

621
00:38:05.840 --> 00:38:09.520
You know, like, in that era, because there were so many people available, and I just

622
00:38:09.520 --> 00:38:11.520
couldn't bring myself to do things right.

623
00:38:11.520 --> 00:38:18.800
But now, I mean, like, in my circle, I mean, there's 10, like, I mean, it's a lot of times

624
00:38:18.800 --> 00:38:20.080
it's a numbers game, right?

625
00:38:20.080 --> 00:38:23.840
That's why in any way you can increase your numbers, you get more opportunities, right?

626
00:38:23.840 --> 00:38:27.560
And so it's not pathetic when there's no opportunity.

627
00:38:27.560 --> 00:38:31.240
And Christopher, it's been eight and a half years, right?

628
00:38:31.240 --> 00:38:34.080
Since my ex and I were done, right?

629
00:38:34.080 --> 00:38:44.960
So I do feel, it feels dumb, like, you know, like, you know, to be honest, and it's like,

630
00:38:44.960 --> 00:38:45.960
why should it feel dumb?

631
00:38:45.960 --> 00:38:49.240
You know, in eight and a half years, I've grown a hell of a heck of a lot, right?

632
00:38:49.240 --> 00:38:52.000
You know, and I've gotten ready.

633
00:38:52.000 --> 00:38:58.440
So it's not pathetic to have waited and not have, I hadn't been on a date in like three

634
00:38:58.440 --> 00:39:01.480
and a half years, and I'm in a matchmaking group.

635
00:39:01.880 --> 00:39:06.480
Explain to me that, like, seriously, you want to talk about, like, pathetic, you know, and

636
00:39:06.480 --> 00:39:08.840
I've been on a couple recently.

637
00:39:08.840 --> 00:39:15.320
But like, so, and is it pride or is it fear?

638
00:39:15.320 --> 00:39:16.320
Both?

639
00:39:16.320 --> 00:39:17.320
Can it be both?

640
00:39:17.320 --> 00:39:18.320
Why not both?

641
00:39:18.320 --> 00:39:19.320
Yeah, don't kick us for me.

642
00:39:19.320 --> 00:39:21.320
For me, it is both, right?

643
00:39:21.320 --> 00:39:22.320
Yeah.

644
00:39:22.320 --> 00:39:23.320
Yeah.

645
00:39:23.320 --> 00:39:26.800
So like, it's, you guys, it's not about how long it's been, it's that you're back in the

646
00:39:26.800 --> 00:39:27.800
game.

647
00:39:27.800 --> 00:39:30.760
I'm actually interested in Jesse's take on this.

648
00:39:31.040 --> 00:39:34.040
I know, I know what his story is.

649
00:39:34.040 --> 00:39:35.040
I don't know.

650
00:39:35.040 --> 00:39:36.040
Can you guys hear me okay?

651
00:39:36.040 --> 00:39:37.040
Someone said I was muffled.

652
00:39:37.040 --> 00:39:38.040
It's a little muffled.

653
00:39:38.040 --> 00:39:39.040
Yeah, a little bit, yeah.

654
00:39:39.040 --> 00:39:40.040
But I can hear you.

655
00:39:40.040 --> 00:39:41.040
I think my, I have the wrong earbuds.

656
00:39:41.040 --> 00:39:51.200
But why, like, I was gonna just ask you, Chris, like, I mean, I'm sure there's good reason,

657
00:39:51.200 --> 00:39:56.560
or there is a reason why it has been nine years, and it's nothing, it's just the reality

658
00:39:56.560 --> 00:39:58.160
of what it is, right?

659
00:39:58.160 --> 00:40:00.400
I don't know what that reason is.

660
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:10.520
for you but it's just everyone has a different like story and everyone has a

661
00:40:10.520 --> 00:40:16.720
different journey and that's just how your journey has taken you and it's

662
00:40:16.720 --> 00:40:22.840
nothing to be ashamed about and I if it was me like I totally hear what you're

663
00:40:22.840 --> 00:40:28.960
saying about being not willing to put that out there but if I were to put it

664
00:40:28.960 --> 00:40:34.600
out there myself I think maybe I would just tell the story a little bit about

665
00:40:34.600 --> 00:40:41.520
here's where I'm at and on my journey here's why like and now I'm ready I feel

666
00:40:41.520 --> 00:40:46.360
ready to I wasn't ready before maybe you were I don't know like I don't know

667
00:40:46.360 --> 00:40:52.680
what your backstory is but like just telling the story of why you're at where

668
00:40:52.680 --> 00:40:57.520
you're at and here's where I'm at you know I maybe people enjoy hearing about

669
00:40:57.520 --> 00:41:02.680
that you know you know that's your testimony really like what God's done in

670
00:41:02.680 --> 00:41:08.320
your heart etc and I know part of it is I needed to the heart work needed to

671
00:41:08.320 --> 00:41:13.920
happen you know I said it a few weeks ago where I was kind of reluctant and

672
00:41:13.920 --> 00:41:17.920
then I realized I did have some more work to do not that I wouldn't have

673
00:41:17.920 --> 00:41:22.320
been ready but I certainly would have had to go through some things and a

674
00:41:22.320 --> 00:41:28.560
harder way than I would now if I meet my spirit mate now um have you dated at

675
00:41:28.560 --> 00:41:39.920
all oh yeah yeah um I had I've actually the soul tie thing a bonus one in

676
00:41:39.920 --> 00:41:43.680
hard work I had to kind of do some prayer about her because I'm I was ready

677
00:41:43.680 --> 00:41:51.840
to ask her to marry me and when I when my god's been a few years now but she

678
00:41:51.840 --> 00:41:57.480
wrecked me for about a year like I didn't date for a year after but yeah

679
00:41:57.480 --> 00:42:03.280
no I've dated and I know there's people out there so it's not that I think you

680
00:42:03.280 --> 00:42:10.560
and Tom have really um hit it on the head it's the projecting onto other

681
00:42:10.560 --> 00:42:17.960
people and then you telling me like tell the story that actually just I think I

682
00:42:17.960 --> 00:42:20.160
have it like this is why I brought it to you guys because I knew you guys have

683
00:42:20.160 --> 00:42:27.120
good ideas and you would also call me out and I think I think that's what I'm

684
00:42:27.120 --> 00:42:31.040
gonna do I popped in my head as soon as you said that I I think I have an

685
00:42:31.040 --> 00:42:37.920
approach so that's good but it's amazing and you guys like you know I probably

686
00:42:37.920 --> 00:42:42.560
heard said this a million times and I'll say it another million I always say I

687
00:42:42.560 --> 00:42:46.960
have to fix the crazy in me so I'm not attracted to the crazy and others like

688
00:42:46.960 --> 00:42:52.240
by doing the hard work so let me actually there's some new people in

689
00:42:52.240 --> 00:42:57.880
for the context of that okay so it's like the broken parts of you right like

690
00:42:57.880 --> 00:43:02.320
there's broken parts of you are drawn to the broken parts like they want to be

691
00:43:02.320 --> 00:43:05.880
fixed they want to connect with somebody and that's why if somebody you come in

692
00:43:05.880 --> 00:43:09.920
and you have this massive amount of attraction be careful because that could

693
00:43:09.920 --> 00:43:14.400
be your brokenness is like like melding and like oh look I found my connection

694
00:43:14.400 --> 00:43:19.240
point for my trauma right like you know and so most good love is a slow burn

695
00:43:19.240 --> 00:43:24.440
it's not a for it's not a flash fire right but like as you get more healed

696
00:43:24.440 --> 00:43:30.440
there were things that my ex loved on me right like so and I've had people love

697
00:43:30.440 --> 00:43:36.160
on me recently and is nauseating to me because I got healed now had I not done

698
00:43:36.160 --> 00:43:39.840
the heart work and got healed I would have been in the same stupid circle with

699
00:43:39.840 --> 00:43:43.920
it you know like and and so I'm really proud of you guys for actually doing the

700
00:43:43.920 --> 00:43:49.680
work right and you have you your picker is getting better with every heart work

701
00:43:49.680 --> 00:43:55.360
that you do right and and you won't be attracted to the things that are not

702
00:43:55.360 --> 00:43:59.600
good for you right you'll be like hey wait no she's trying to trauma bond and

703
00:43:59.600 --> 00:44:04.520
she's trying to pull me into a soul tie you know well let's let's put a put some

704
00:44:04.520 --> 00:44:07.360
boundaries on this and see if she listens open up she's that's the only

705
00:44:07.360 --> 00:44:10.640
way she knows the connect well we need I need to disconnect because this isn't

706
00:44:10.640 --> 00:44:15.320
right I don't want to dominate all the time here but I just do want to do a

707
00:44:15.320 --> 00:44:22.120
word of encouragement for everyone here and that I am more excited about this

708
00:44:22.120 --> 00:44:28.200
than I have been in a very long time I was extremely discouraged for years and

709
00:44:28.200 --> 00:44:32.040
going through all this and even though I have not had a date since I started this

710
00:44:32.040 --> 00:44:36.920
all but um but I've been doing a lot of the work and I'm kind of excited about

711
00:44:36.920 --> 00:44:40.600
it whereas before it was just like it honestly felt like I was gonna sign up

712
00:44:40.600 --> 00:44:45.760
for a second job where I'm just like all right let's go dig for a wife you

713
00:44:45.760 --> 00:44:50.400
know let's um go through and and message 60 girls and get three of them message

714
00:44:50.400 --> 00:44:56.520
me back and it'll be it'll be fantastic let's fire up bumble again and and I but

715
00:44:56.520 --> 00:45:02.160
I'm more encouraged by by what I'm hearing from you guys and stuff

716
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:01.700
So it has been encouraging in that way.

717
00:45:01.700 --> 00:45:03.700
And I just want to encourage people that way.

718
00:45:03.700 --> 00:45:09.860
And to reflect what you said, Mike, I

719
00:45:09.860 --> 00:45:14.820
think that those of us who have had successful relationships,

720
00:45:14.820 --> 00:45:18.820
because my wife is great.

721
00:45:18.820 --> 00:45:24.700
And I do have a better idea of what

722
00:45:24.700 --> 00:45:26.620
that looks like in my life.

723
00:45:26.620 --> 00:45:31.540
And so it's difficult. But instead of feeling like, oh,

724
00:45:31.540 --> 00:45:35.340
I'm never going to find a girl that I would want to marry

725
00:45:35.340 --> 00:45:37.140
that's going to be a caliber of someone I want to marry,

726
00:45:37.140 --> 00:45:40.460
having been in a marriage, a successful marriage,

727
00:45:40.460 --> 00:45:43.140
now I'm more of the, there's so many great girls out there.

728
00:45:43.140 --> 00:45:46.380
Why did I, why was I so negative about all of this?

729
00:45:46.380 --> 00:45:47.420
Yeah.

730
00:45:47.420 --> 00:45:49.300
Well, and the cool thing is, is you're

731
00:45:49.300 --> 00:45:51.720
like part of a community where there's all these ones that

732
00:45:51.720 --> 00:45:55.180
are being, that are marriage minded and are hearing,

733
00:45:55.180 --> 00:45:56.740
and there's a commonality because they're

734
00:45:56.740 --> 00:45:58.780
hearing the same, they're going through the same things.

735
00:45:58.780 --> 00:46:00.180
They're going through the same process.

736
00:46:00.180 --> 00:46:01.240
They're in the same group.

737
00:46:01.240 --> 00:46:02.660
They're in the same community.

738
00:46:02.660 --> 00:46:05.420
And a lot of, and they're vetted, right?

739
00:46:05.420 --> 00:46:07.940
You know, I mean, like, that's the crazy thing.

740
00:46:07.940 --> 00:46:11.780
And it's like, what, like 11 to 1 ratio or something

741
00:46:11.780 --> 00:46:12.740
stupid like that?

742
00:46:12.740 --> 00:46:16.940
Like, you know, like, it's a, like, dude, it's like fishing.

743
00:46:16.940 --> 00:46:19.140
It's like fishing at the fishery, right?

744
00:46:19.140 --> 00:46:25.020
You know, like, you know, it's, you know, and so, but no.

745
00:46:25.580 --> 00:46:28.060
And Christopher, to your point, like, yeah, having been,

746
00:46:28.060 --> 00:46:30.260
I mean, I was married for almost 20 years, you know,

747
00:46:30.260 --> 00:46:31.700
so I learned a lot in that.

748
00:46:31.700 --> 00:46:34.020
And that's kind of why I try to share some things,

749
00:46:34.020 --> 00:46:38.340
but I look back at where I missed going into it, right?

750
00:46:38.340 --> 00:46:39.580
But I'm glad that you have hope.

751
00:46:39.580 --> 00:46:41.140
I mean, I hope you all have hope, you guys.

752
00:46:41.140 --> 00:46:44.460
I do, and I got, and I renewed it.

753
00:46:44.460 --> 00:46:47.020
Sweet, that's amazing.

754
00:46:47.020 --> 00:46:48.980
It's okay if I share it, or you got it.

755
00:46:48.980 --> 00:46:49.820
So what do you, what do you share?

756
00:46:49.820 --> 00:46:52.300
What do you, what do you want to share, Hunter, your hope?

757
00:46:52.340 --> 00:46:55.140
Yeah, it's been 17 years.

758
00:46:55.140 --> 00:46:57.700
I made a goal, a goal to marry.

759
00:46:57.700 --> 00:47:01.020
And then finally, I watched a video about,

760
00:47:01.020 --> 00:47:04.140
about some woman trying to wait for her husband.

761
00:47:04.140 --> 00:47:05.860
And she tried to wait and she kept crying,

762
00:47:05.860 --> 00:47:08.820
thinking, God, you left me, you forgot about me.

763
00:47:08.820 --> 00:47:12.180
But then she came, someone came to her and said,

764
00:47:12.180 --> 00:47:15.500
you know, what if God says that it's not my will

765
00:47:15.500 --> 00:47:17.540
for you to marry, will you still follow me?

766
00:47:17.540 --> 00:47:20.540
Yeah, and yeah, because if not,

767
00:47:20.540 --> 00:47:23.660
then that means you made it an idol, and so on.

768
00:47:23.660 --> 00:47:26.300
So she kept doing that, and she was too bitter

769
00:47:26.300 --> 00:47:29.300
about being single that she looked at all the other people,

770
00:47:29.300 --> 00:47:31.340
exhausted people who are married.

771
00:47:31.340 --> 00:47:34.180
Some say, husband isn't there for the kids,

772
00:47:34.180 --> 00:47:38.260
or he's not, I don't get to see if they felt trapped,

773
00:47:38.260 --> 00:47:40.820
or that's, or they felt trapped,

774
00:47:40.820 --> 00:47:44.020
or they thought marriage was going to be all honeymoon,

775
00:47:44.020 --> 00:47:48.340
24 seven, or maybe I guess, I guess we were not happy

776
00:47:48.380 --> 00:47:51.620
because of this, am I not happy based on circumstance,

777
00:47:51.620 --> 00:47:53.420
or my husband's not letting me to the degree

778
00:47:53.420 --> 00:47:55.820
I want him to, that sort of thing.

779
00:47:55.820 --> 00:47:57.940
So she goes, yeah, you know, her,

780
00:47:57.940 --> 00:48:00.700
why am I, marriage doesn't make you complete.

781
00:48:00.700 --> 00:48:03.100
So she goes out and make herself complete.

782
00:48:03.100 --> 00:48:05.580
And then she goes, she stops praying for her husband,

783
00:48:05.580 --> 00:48:08.500
and then some guy comes along saying, I'll marry you,

784
00:48:08.500 --> 00:48:11.580
but remember, I'm not your savior, Jesus is,

785
00:48:11.580 --> 00:48:13.940
but she, I'm just someone helping you along,

786
00:48:13.940 --> 00:48:15.580
I'm just a close friend, companion,

787
00:48:15.580 --> 00:48:17.980
your close companion along the way to help you.

788
00:48:18.900 --> 00:48:21.660
Yeah, well, I mean, if you're taking the place of Jesus,

789
00:48:21.660 --> 00:48:23.380
that's, that relationship's never going to work,

790
00:48:23.380 --> 00:48:27.780
but no, like in both your lives, but yeah, no,

791
00:48:27.780 --> 00:48:30.660
and another story that just comes to mind, okay.

792
00:48:30.660 --> 00:48:32.140
Can I finish?

793
00:48:32.140 --> 00:48:33.620
So what, oh, you weren't, okay,

794
00:48:33.620 --> 00:48:35.780
so yes, finish up, Connor, sorry.

795
00:48:35.780 --> 00:48:37.940
I've been like this since 20 as a goal

796
00:48:37.940 --> 00:48:40.300
to go make it happen, and I was,

797
00:48:40.300 --> 00:48:43.260
though I was open to growth on how to obtain it,

798
00:48:43.260 --> 00:48:44.780
because I always wanted to be a man

799
00:48:44.820 --> 00:48:46.380
and grow like everybody,

800
00:48:46.380 --> 00:48:48.460
a form of growing up like a person,

801
00:48:48.460 --> 00:48:50.260
and that sort of, so I figured,

802
00:48:50.260 --> 00:48:51.940
I want to marry as a firm sign

803
00:48:51.940 --> 00:48:53.740
that I can be grown up like everybody.

804
00:48:53.740 --> 00:48:55.100
That's what you want to do in high school

805
00:48:55.100 --> 00:48:56.580
when you get out of high school and go to college,

806
00:48:56.580 --> 00:48:58.660
you want to be grown up and do stuff

807
00:48:58.660 --> 00:49:00.580
rather than lolly and idle.

808
00:49:00.580 --> 00:49:03.180
But you know what, and I said, God, help me,

809
00:49:03.180 --> 00:49:04.820
if not, I'm not worshiping you,

810
00:49:04.820 --> 00:49:07.260
because you're nothing but a big piece

811
00:49:07.260 --> 00:49:10.460
of medieval superstition, that's how I saw it then.

812
00:49:10.460 --> 00:49:12.700
But nowadays, I, this last week,

813
00:49:12.700 --> 00:49:14.180
I just shattered this whole thing.

814
00:49:14.740 --> 00:49:16.420
I'm not, I'm going to abandon the goal.

815
00:49:16.420 --> 00:49:19.380
My goal is to grow, but it's not to go make it happen,

816
00:49:19.380 --> 00:49:21.780
because to go make it happen is just me going out

817
00:49:21.780 --> 00:49:22.820
and trying to make it happen,

818
00:49:22.820 --> 00:49:26.620
call upon God to pray to God to rubber stamp my plan.

819
00:49:26.620 --> 00:49:29.220
But really, it should be the other way around.

820
00:49:29.220 --> 00:49:30.980
No, I mean, Jesus is the goal,

821
00:49:30.980 --> 00:49:34.460
and if he brings somebody, great, right?

822
00:49:34.460 --> 00:49:36.220
And it really is, dude, I have to say,

823
00:49:36.220 --> 00:49:39.860
like, it is easy to make relationships and idle.

824
00:49:39.860 --> 00:49:41.540
Just being honest, you know?

825
00:49:41.580 --> 00:49:44.900
Like, if you're, I'm thinking about apps and stuff

826
00:49:44.900 --> 00:49:47.020
more than I'm thinking about my relationship with Jesus,

827
00:49:47.020 --> 00:49:47.860
you know what I mean?

828
00:49:47.860 --> 00:49:49.460
Like, and it's easy to get down there,

829
00:49:49.460 --> 00:49:52.780
and then I constantly am laying things on the altar.

830
00:49:52.780 --> 00:49:55.980
I mean, but it's just interesting,

831
00:49:55.980 --> 00:49:57.700
in the right time, right?

832
00:49:58.940 --> 00:49:59.980
So for,

833
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.520
So last week, Renee was on and she's like, Mike, I just see your wife being an hour and

834
00:50:05.520 --> 00:50:06.520
a half away.

835
00:50:06.520 --> 00:50:07.520
Right.

836
00:50:07.520 --> 00:50:12.620
So, um, which, so I had, uh, I, I, it stood out to me.

837
00:50:12.620 --> 00:50:17.640
And so then I had a choice and I do, I don't know about you, but I hate apps.

838
00:50:17.640 --> 00:50:18.640
Right.

839
00:50:18.640 --> 00:50:21.360
So I was like, you know, if she's an hour and a half away, I think I need to get back

840
00:50:21.360 --> 00:50:22.360
on the apps.

841
00:50:22.360 --> 00:50:23.360
Right.

842
00:50:23.360 --> 00:50:25.160
And so, um, so I did.

843
00:50:25.160 --> 00:50:27.600
And yesterday I connected with somebody who was an hour and a half away.

844
00:50:27.600 --> 00:50:29.040
That is everything I'm looking for.

845
00:50:29.040 --> 00:50:31.720
And so, um, I'm like, Laura, this is you.

846
00:50:31.720 --> 00:50:32.720
Great.

847
00:50:32.720 --> 00:50:33.720
That's amazing.

848
00:50:33.720 --> 00:50:37.400
But like I listened and I got on the apps, even though I didn't want to, and made the

849
00:50:37.400 --> 00:50:39.400
profiles on seven of them.

850
00:50:39.400 --> 00:50:48.080
Um, and, uh, well, you know, um, there's not a lot of people in my area, well, there's

851
00:50:48.080 --> 00:50:53.680
a lot of people, but not a lot of, um, quality like Christian ladies.

852
00:50:53.680 --> 00:50:57.240
Um, there's nobody in the group that's really in our, like in Jackie's group, that's in

853
00:50:57.240 --> 00:50:58.240
my area either.

854
00:50:58.440 --> 00:51:00.440
Did you get on the holy app, Mike?

855
00:51:00.440 --> 00:51:01.440
Yeah.

856
00:51:01.440 --> 00:51:02.440
That's actually where I connected with her.

857
00:51:02.440 --> 00:51:08.480
Um, and I got on ARC too, cause we're, um, we're, uh, whatever partnered with them or

858
00:51:08.480 --> 00:51:09.480
Jackie.

859
00:51:09.480 --> 00:51:12.200
I actually really liked ARC and I really like holy, right.

860
00:51:12.200 --> 00:51:13.200
I'm on upward as well.

861
00:51:13.200 --> 00:51:14.200
Holy is good.

862
00:51:14.200 --> 00:51:15.200
Holy is good.

863
00:51:15.200 --> 00:51:18.200
There's not many people in there, but I like the quality of people.

864
00:51:18.200 --> 00:51:19.200
The quality.

865
00:51:19.200 --> 00:51:20.200
The quality.

866
00:51:20.200 --> 00:51:21.200
I'm serious.

867
00:51:21.200 --> 00:51:23.200
So are these, are these apps a holy ARC?

868
00:51:23.200 --> 00:51:24.200
Yeah.

869
00:51:24.200 --> 00:51:25.200
I've never heard of it.

870
00:51:25.200 --> 00:51:26.200
ARC.

871
00:51:26.200 --> 00:51:27.200
Yeah.

872
00:51:27.200 --> 00:51:28.200
I got holy.

873
00:51:29.160 --> 00:51:32.160
But the problem is I see more Christians who aren't surrendered and they're using the app

874
00:51:32.160 --> 00:51:35.160
as a technical device to manipulate and make happen.

875
00:51:35.160 --> 00:51:36.160
Which app?

876
00:51:36.160 --> 00:51:37.160
Which app?

877
00:51:37.160 --> 00:51:38.160
Dating ARC.

878
00:51:38.160 --> 00:51:39.160
The ARC.

879
00:51:39.160 --> 00:51:40.160
Okay.

880
00:51:40.160 --> 00:51:45.160
I, on the holy app, the first question that they ask is, who is Jesus to you?

881
00:51:45.160 --> 00:51:46.160
Yeah.

882
00:51:46.160 --> 00:51:48.160
And it's, it's completely like a separate app.

883
00:51:48.160 --> 00:51:50.160
It's not connected to anything else.

884
00:51:50.160 --> 00:51:51.160
Yeah.

885
00:51:51.160 --> 00:51:53.160
They vet, they vet the people that come on there.

886
00:51:53.160 --> 00:51:56.160
Like you put your information on, it doesn't go live for a day.

887
00:51:57.120 --> 00:52:02.120
So they can verify like what you said and make sure you're putting good pictures up

888
00:52:02.120 --> 00:52:03.120
and not like, yeah.

889
00:52:03.120 --> 00:52:04.120
Yeah.

890
00:52:04.120 --> 00:52:05.120
Garbage.

891
00:52:05.120 --> 00:52:06.120
No.

892
00:52:06.120 --> 00:52:09.120
And like, I have to say, you know, I don't have a ton of people in my area, but all the

893
00:52:09.120 --> 00:52:12.120
ones that were on the app were pretty solid.

894
00:52:12.120 --> 00:52:13.120
Right.

895
00:52:13.120 --> 00:52:16.120
Like, you know, like, you know, well, cause it's hard to know what, like if you're on

896
00:52:16.120 --> 00:52:20.120
Bumble or you're on Hinge or you're on other things, you don't know just because they say

897
00:52:20.120 --> 00:52:21.120
Christian.

898
00:52:21.120 --> 00:52:22.120
I mean, most of them aren't.

899
00:52:22.120 --> 00:52:23.120
Right.

900
00:52:24.080 --> 00:52:28.080
But you know, like you actually have answers to like biblical questions.

901
00:52:28.080 --> 00:52:32.080
You're like, oh, so you could tell if they're even like theologically similar in some ways,

902
00:52:32.080 --> 00:52:33.080
you know?

903
00:52:33.080 --> 00:52:34.080
And so, yeah.

904
00:52:34.080 --> 00:52:37.080
No, Jesse, I really, that's, that's, that's who I've connected with.

905
00:52:37.080 --> 00:52:41.080
I got one on Upward and one on, on Holy, on Holy.

906
00:52:41.080 --> 00:52:42.080
Nice.

907
00:52:42.080 --> 00:52:45.080
And Holy, they let you message as much as you want.

908
00:52:45.080 --> 00:52:46.080
Oh yeah.

909
00:52:46.080 --> 00:52:49.080
That's the other thing, you know, I paid for it just because I wanted to support them,

910
00:52:49.080 --> 00:52:50.080
but like.

911
00:52:50.080 --> 00:52:51.080
Yeah.

912
00:52:51.080 --> 00:52:52.080
It's not much.

913
00:52:52.080 --> 00:52:53.080
It's hardly anything.

914
00:52:54.040 --> 00:52:55.040
You know?

915
00:52:55.040 --> 00:52:56.040
Yeah.

916
00:52:56.040 --> 00:52:57.040
But you can write whoever you want all the time.

917
00:52:57.040 --> 00:52:58.040
No extra charge.

918
00:52:58.040 --> 00:52:59.040
Yeah.

919
00:52:59.040 --> 00:53:07.040
So you guys, like, um, I guess I just shared that story because, I mean, I had a decision

920
00:53:07.040 --> 00:53:11.040
and like, I honestly, I have to say, I wrestled with getting back on the apps cause I absolutely

921
00:53:11.040 --> 00:53:14.040
hate them with the passion.

922
00:53:14.040 --> 00:53:16.040
And then I got on Bumble and it's horrible.

923
00:53:16.040 --> 00:53:17.040
Right.

924
00:53:17.040 --> 00:53:19.040
And I'm like, man, I'm like, I'm done.

925
00:53:19.040 --> 00:53:20.040
I'm like so done.

926
00:53:20.040 --> 00:53:22.040
But then somebody mentioned Holy.

927
00:53:23.000 --> 00:53:24.000
So, you know, I was, I forgot about Holy.

928
00:53:24.000 --> 00:53:25.000
I used to be on it.

929
00:53:25.000 --> 00:53:26.000
Right.

930
00:53:26.000 --> 00:53:27.000
Um, years ago.

931
00:53:27.000 --> 00:53:30.000
And then, um, but I really do like what they're doing on Holy.

932
00:53:30.000 --> 00:53:37.000
So I, if you, even if you guys got on, just got on Holy or, um, Arc this week and got,

933
00:53:37.000 --> 00:53:44.000
you know, work on your profile, um, like you never know, like I said, but it would have

934
00:53:44.000 --> 00:53:45.000
never happened.

935
00:53:45.000 --> 00:53:49.000
I mean, when, when, when she said an hour and a half away, I was like, oh, that means

936
00:53:49.960 --> 00:53:53.960
I'm like, there's no way I'm going to connect with anybody an hour and a half away on anything

937
00:53:53.960 --> 00:53:55.960
but a dating app.

938
00:53:55.960 --> 00:53:56.960
Right.

939
00:53:56.960 --> 00:53:59.960
So I gave the Lord an opportunity to connect.

940
00:53:59.960 --> 00:54:00.960
Right.

941
00:54:00.960 --> 00:54:04.960
Um, you know, and so I just share that because take, take a swing.

942
00:54:04.960 --> 00:54:10.960
I mean, if you, if, if what you're doing isn't working, change the game.

943
00:54:10.960 --> 00:54:11.960
Right.

944
00:54:11.960 --> 00:54:16.960
Like, you know, if you want a different outcome, change what you're doing.

945
00:54:17.920 --> 00:54:22.920
So, um, and you know, you guys are all amazing and I'm super thankful for you all.

946
00:54:22.920 --> 00:54:24.920
Um, any other wins or anything?

947
00:54:24.920 --> 00:54:26.920
So, so I'm excited.

948
00:54:26.920 --> 00:54:27.920
Um, we'll see.

949
00:54:27.920 --> 00:54:28.920
She came at me pretty hard.

950
00:54:28.920 --> 00:54:31.920
She's a nurse, you know, cause I said, we have a lot in common.

951
00:54:31.920 --> 00:54:32.920
She's like, do we?

952
00:54:32.920 --> 00:54:36.920
And I'm like, wow, freaking kitty cat time.

953
00:54:36.920 --> 00:54:40.920
I was like, I say, um, well, let me rephrase that.

954
00:54:40.920 --> 00:54:44.920
You know, we have some things in common from what I know, cause I know I don't know you,

955
00:54:44.920 --> 00:54:46.920
but I really want to get to know you better.

956
00:54:46.920 --> 00:54:47.920
Right.

957
00:54:47.920 --> 00:54:48.920
Like, but I like fire kittens.

958
00:54:48.920 --> 00:54:51.920
Like, I'm like, oh, she's got, she's got some spunk and she's smart.

959
00:54:51.920 --> 00:54:52.920
Right.

960
00:54:52.920 --> 00:54:57.920
So like, you know, but you guys, you can't get better at apps unless you're on them.

961
00:54:57.920 --> 00:54:58.920
Right.

962
00:54:58.920 --> 00:54:59.920
And you know, I.

963
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:06.440
Tell you I'm do not ask me for any dating like like talk to any like I will not be the app and

964
00:55:06.800 --> 00:55:11.020
The dating guru. I if you guys have relational questions and that kind of stuff

965
00:55:11.020 --> 00:55:13.840
I will do that, but I'm still learning more on the apps

966
00:55:14.920 --> 00:55:16.920
okay, so it's

967
00:55:17.520 --> 00:55:19.520
Holy

968
00:55:19.600 --> 00:55:21.000
And

969
00:55:21.000 --> 00:55:25.000
Holy you have to have iOS Apple. Oh, is it?

970
00:55:25.840 --> 00:55:27.840
Yeah

971
00:55:27.920 --> 00:55:29.920
Holy is done by a couple

972
00:55:30.000 --> 00:55:35.680
If I remember right and like they yeah, it's a married couple. They met on apps. I think there's something like that. Yeah

973
00:55:37.080 --> 00:55:42.360
And and an arc, I don't know. I mean Jackie mentioned that there was a

974
00:55:43.640 --> 00:55:46.280
That we're partnering with them. So we might you might actually get a

975
00:55:48.240 --> 00:55:50.240
Discount

976
00:55:50.240 --> 00:55:53.920
Hearing I don't know where to go for the discount, but I don't either

977
00:55:55.360 --> 00:55:57.360
Okay, holy I lost oh it did

978
00:55:57.720 --> 00:55:59.720
Yeah

979
00:55:59.720 --> 00:56:05.560
You know, it's going to just absence that are the single cities thing. Is that still a thing we do? Yes, we do

980
00:56:06.560 --> 00:56:12.000
Yeah, well, it depends on where you're at. Like I'm in Rio Vista, which is 15 minutes outside of Sacramento

981
00:56:12.040 --> 00:56:17.280
So you either you would be the Reading one. Let's go. Let's just go one's fledgling

982
00:56:18.200 --> 00:56:22.620
Like it's it just it was as a few hours away from me. I would

983
00:56:23.480 --> 00:56:25.480
well

984
00:56:25.480 --> 00:56:27.480
Reading reading has quite a bit

985
00:56:27.800 --> 00:56:30.080
You know, I've been to the Reading one several times, right?

986
00:56:31.280 --> 00:56:37.640
Yeah, cuz it's it says Reading sack. So I was like, uh, could I do so? Okay, so you guys understand that the

987
00:56:38.600 --> 00:56:40.600
They're regional. They're not like

988
00:56:41.160 --> 00:56:44.640
Like so yeah, they're like within three hours of each other

989
00:56:44.640 --> 00:56:51.160
I think is what Jackie says like so I'm on both SF Bay and Reading and I'm four hours from writing

990
00:56:51.800 --> 00:56:53.680
Right, you know and so

991
00:56:53.680 --> 00:56:57.320
And I and I've been to the Reading one several times. I have some friends in that so

992
00:56:57.840 --> 00:57:02.880
Any questions you guys is this helpful like, you know, like I know we kind of talked about a lot of things

993
00:57:02.880 --> 00:57:06.320
But like you guys are doing great. Keep doing your heart work. Yeah

994
00:57:07.440 --> 00:57:09.720
Keep getting you guys the best you can be

995
00:57:10.360 --> 00:57:12.920
Get ready get ready for somebody in your life

996
00:57:13.560 --> 00:57:15.560
you know, I'm not I

997
00:57:16.400 --> 00:57:22.960
Think I hate people say this like I like it's some formula and I don't think God's formulaic like this

998
00:57:23.000 --> 00:57:25.360
like when you get ready show I'm

999
00:57:25.960 --> 00:57:27.960
God I'll bring somebody into your life

1000
00:57:28.120 --> 00:57:30.120
right, like I

1001
00:57:30.400 --> 00:57:33.040
Think God will bring it people into your life whether you're ready or not

1002
00:57:33.040 --> 00:57:33.800
I've seen a lot

1003
00:57:33.800 --> 00:57:38.380
I mean you got to be close right because a lot of times in the growing together is what bonds you

1004
00:57:38.640 --> 00:57:43.520
Right, like, you know, I mean, you know most like they're everybody who's on this call

1005
00:57:44.200 --> 00:57:47.200
You guys aren't 20 year olds that I'm happy that I'm gonna have to

1006
00:57:52.480 --> 00:57:58.420
Right, but you guys are all established studs that have had some life skills and you're you're not

1007
00:57:58.960 --> 00:58:05.160
you're looking for a partner now not what you know, and so that gives you guys you have a

1008
00:58:06.400 --> 00:58:09.160
Maturity about you. Well, I hope so, you know, you know

1009
00:58:09.160 --> 00:58:11.160
Yeah, oh

1010
00:58:14.920 --> 00:58:18.720
Good job. Yeah, go to the Facebook account, right?

1011
00:58:19.680 --> 00:58:26.480
Okay. Oh, oops. Sorry. I just lost lost you. I hate my phone sometimes but you guys just take a swing

1012
00:58:26.760 --> 00:58:31.120
You miss a hundred percent of the shots. You don't take you guys I have probably

1013
00:58:33.000 --> 00:58:34.400
400

1014
00:58:34.400 --> 00:58:37.760
Messages out right now. I was on seven apps. Okay, so I'm an overachiever

1015
00:58:38.960 --> 00:58:44.920
You know, I mean well and and honestly you guys got to realize do not be discouraged because a lot of I was on the

1016
00:58:44.920 --> 00:58:51.680
Apps two years ago, right and I see a lot of the same profiles and they haven't been on for two years

1017
00:58:51.680 --> 00:58:57.120
I could tell you two years, right? So if you're messaging somebody, you know, see if they've been on recently

1018
00:58:57.120 --> 00:59:02.080
There'll be like sometimes there's like a check mark or something on it, right or I'll say on recently

1019
00:59:02.080 --> 00:59:06.280
So don't be like, oh my gosh, she's amazing. And really, you know, some of those are old

1020
00:59:07.560 --> 00:59:10.960
I've seen a lot of old profiles, you know, so

1021
00:59:11.520 --> 00:59:17.340
Just take swings and give the Lord a chance you could you know, give me the Lord's seeds to water

1022
00:59:18.080 --> 00:59:21.960
Right, but like I say the gal who connected with me she sought me out

1023
00:59:23.200 --> 00:59:24.880
right

1024
00:59:24.880 --> 00:59:30.400
You know, and so and she's an hour and a half away, which still blows my mind. I googled it

1025
00:59:31.160 --> 00:59:37.080
She's like I've been conquered I'm like, oh, but you know, listen to the people around you empower them to help

1026
00:59:37.680 --> 00:59:39.680
Listen to the good people around you

1027
00:59:40.120 --> 00:59:42.560
right and power them to be

1028
00:59:45.200 --> 00:59:49.880
Code like, you know, like maybe them at your maybe your matchmaker is one of your friends, right?

1029
00:59:49.880 --> 00:59:51.880
You know like you never know

1030
00:59:52.000 --> 00:59:53.720
so

1031
00:59:53.720 --> 00:59:56.960
Lord Jesus, I thank you for all these men. I just pray Lord that

1032
00:59:56.960 --> 00:59:59.960
They would take the next step whatever that

1033
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.080
That you would reveal the next step and that they would take it Lord

1034
01:00:03.080 --> 01:00:07.320
I just pray for their spirit mates whether it be in last year single or wherever Lord

1035
01:00:07.320 --> 01:00:12.600
Would you just get their hearts minds and spirits ready and their spirit mates hearts mind ready and Lord?

1036
01:00:12.600 --> 01:00:14.840
I just pray that this would be a season of

1037
01:00:15.660 --> 01:00:17.200
intersecting where

1038
01:00:17.200 --> 01:00:23.520
They would actually run across their spirit mates and Lord is you say seek your kingdom and everything else will be added unto us

1039
01:00:23.860 --> 01:00:29.920
So Lord, we just hey Lord we put you first. We seek your kingdom. We want to delight ourselves in you

1040
01:00:30.120 --> 01:00:35.320
Would you work out the whole spirit mate thing while we pursue you Lord in Jesus name? Amen

1041
01:00:36.480 --> 01:00:38.480
You guys are all amazing

1042
01:00:39.280 --> 01:00:44.560
Great talk. I never know where we're gonna go right like but you know, it's good to see you and

1043
01:00:46.240 --> 01:00:48.240
Jesse and Chris and David and

1044
01:00:48.960 --> 01:00:50.780
You know, it'll be cool

1045
01:00:50.780 --> 01:00:54.740
When you're like, hey, I met her right, you know, like we all get to go

1046
01:00:55.740 --> 01:00:57.140
And

1047
01:00:57.140 --> 01:01:01.580
Rejoice and you know, it doesn't matter how long you've been out of the game. It just matters that you get back in

1048
01:01:02.420 --> 01:01:04.420
All right, so blessings to you all

1049
01:01:04.780 --> 01:01:06.780
Talk to you later. Yeah