WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:14.920 Hello. Welcome. Hi everyone. Would love to see you all on screen if you're able to come 2 00:00:14.920 --> 00:00:20.800 on tonight. As always, we're practicing coming out of hiding. We're practicing being seen 3 00:00:20.800 --> 00:00:26.440 and heard. And y'all, I love that you turn your cameras on when you go into breakout, 4 00:00:26.440 --> 00:00:29.680 but I would love for you to turn them on so we can see beforehand. It's really great to 5 00:00:29.680 --> 00:00:33.720 see you guys. So if you haven't met me before, my name's Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the Master 6 00:00:33.720 --> 00:00:39.280 Heartwork Coaches here in the community and one of the success stories as well. And it's 7 00:00:39.280 --> 00:00:44.880 so great to be here with y'all tonight. If we have anybody new, this is your first live 8 00:00:44.880 --> 00:00:48.480 session ever in our community. Would love for you to put that in the chat for us so 9 00:00:48.480 --> 00:00:53.800 we can welcome you. I see some familiar faces, some ladies that have come back. Thanks for 10 00:00:53.800 --> 00:00:58.980 being here tonight. Hey, y'all, just as a reminder, you know, the more that we show 11 00:00:58.980 --> 00:01:03.740 up, the more I believe that we get connection. And some people aren't able to make it to 12 00:01:03.740 --> 00:01:08.340 the live, so if you're catching this replay, no guilt if you can't be here. We know everybody's 13 00:01:08.340 --> 00:01:13.500 schedules are different and times are different for everyone as far as maybe they might even 14 00:01:13.500 --> 00:01:18.460 be in a country where it's like the middle of the night there. But if you can be at live 15 00:01:18.460 --> 00:01:23.780 sessions, I really want to encourage y'all to make it a priority to be here because we 16 00:01:23.780 --> 00:01:29.260 get out of this program what we put into it. And I 100% believe that. And again, this 17 00:01:29.260 --> 00:01:34.540 isn't about perfection, but it is about like coming with an expectation of God. What do 18 00:01:34.540 --> 00:01:39.740 you want to say to me tonight? Like it's not about necessarily showing up for me. This 19 00:01:39.740 --> 00:01:44.100 is about you showing up for you and for you and God to have a divine connection. That's 20 00:01:44.100 --> 00:01:49.900 what we believe is going to happen for you. And so I just want to encourage y'all to come 21 00:01:49.900 --> 00:01:55.060 with a level of expectancy. You know, Jackie talked on Saturday. I didn't get to hear the 22 00:01:55.060 --> 00:01:59.020 full thing yet because we were out of town traveling, but I started listening to it today 23 00:01:59.020 --> 00:02:03.620 and just hearing what she was talking about, about, you know, God is being the great dot 24 00:02:03.620 --> 00:02:10.300 connector. 100% believe that. I talk about it. And I share even in my story, like how 25 00:02:10.300 --> 00:02:15.660 God even led me to this community. I just happened to be on a conference, a business 26 00:02:15.660 --> 00:02:20.100 conference and this woman in the chat, God just kept highlighting her to me. It wasn't 27 00:02:20.100 --> 00:02:25.420 Jackie y'all. It was someone totally different. Never met her before. I just kept seeing her 28 00:02:25.420 --> 00:02:30.940 and God kept highlighting her to me. And I just felt led to message her and say, Hey, 29 00:02:30.940 --> 00:02:34.380 like, I don't know why, but God just keeps highlighting you to me. Would love to connect 30 00:02:34.380 --> 00:02:41.140 sometime. And so we connected on Facebook. And from there, she sent me the link to what 31 00:02:41.140 --> 00:02:45.620 was called then married in 12 months or less. And we all, she sent it to me. I was like, 32 00:02:45.620 --> 00:02:52.220 yeah, no, thanks. That's what I did. I said, yep. No, that's not for me. No, thanks. And 33 00:02:52.220 --> 00:02:56.660 uh, just kind of went on my way for a few weeks. And then she circled back around something 34 00:02:56.660 --> 00:03:01.820 like back around to talk to me about something else that God had laid on her heart for me. 35 00:03:01.820 --> 00:03:06.100 And as I started sharing more of my story with her, she said, I know you said no to 36 00:03:06.100 --> 00:03:10.260 this before, but I feel led to send it to you again. I just want to encourage you. She's 37 00:03:10.260 --> 00:03:16.260 like, and then she shared a part of her story, how it had started impacting her. And as she 38 00:03:16.260 --> 00:03:21.860 was talking in the voice memo, I could hear her voice. I could hear her story. And then 39 00:03:21.860 --> 00:03:27.960 I was like, Whoa, this lady's like talking about parts of my life. This is kind of interesting. 40 00:03:27.960 --> 00:03:33.460 And so I just want to encourage you. I ended up saying, yes, obviously I'm here today because 41 00:03:33.460 --> 00:03:40.820 of it. But one of the other really cool things is after I finished the, um, initial back 42 00:03:40.820 --> 00:03:44.860 then we did the free challenge. Everybody kind of comes in a little different now, but 43 00:03:44.860 --> 00:03:50.340 we did free challenge for five days. And then Jackie talked about what was called her boot 44 00:03:50.340 --> 00:03:54.940 camp, bride boot camp back then. Literally that was even before married in 12 months 45 00:03:54.940 --> 00:03:59.140 or less fully, but it was bride boot camp and shifting into that. But anyway, saying 46 00:03:59.140 --> 00:04:06.900 all that to say this, when, um, she talked about the next launching boot camp date, it 47 00:04:06.900 --> 00:04:13.620 was January 11th was this was January 11th of 2021. You know, I do a vision board almost 48 00:04:13.620 --> 00:04:18.640 every year this year, for whatever reason, life got a little crazy. I haven't done it, 49 00:04:18.640 --> 00:04:24.780 but back then I normally would do it the November, December before the new like year coming up. 50 00:04:24.780 --> 00:04:32.220 So in November of 2020, I worked on this vision board and it's a very, uh, not just 51 00:04:32.220 --> 00:04:36.980 your normal vision board. Like I pray a lot over mine. It's a whole thing. I can explain 52 00:04:36.980 --> 00:04:42.820 some other time, but the reason I'm sharing this with you is on that board in the area 53 00:04:42.820 --> 00:04:50.100 about my relationship with God and my relationship that I believed he wanted to bring me, I felt 54 00:04:50.100 --> 00:04:57.060 led to cut out this circle that had the date January 11th. That was on my vision board, 55 00:04:57.060 --> 00:04:59.980 you all. And so I just want to encourage. 56 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:05.940 encourage you to keep paying attention to the little things that God is saying to you, 57 00:05:05.940 --> 00:05:10.360 and not dismiss the things that you're hearing even in this heartwork process. 58 00:05:10.360 --> 00:05:15.500 Even maybe before you got here, that God will start illuminating and saying, Oh yeah, this 59 00:05:15.500 --> 00:05:18.720 is why I told you that, or this is why I showed you this. 60 00:05:18.720 --> 00:05:22.800 And I just pray that you'll jot down those notes and keep them kind of close to your 61 00:05:22.800 --> 00:05:25.380 heart as you walk through. 62 00:05:25.380 --> 00:05:26.380 Why do we post in the group? 63 00:05:26.380 --> 00:05:27.820 I want to encourage you all. 64 00:05:27.820 --> 00:05:28.980 This is why we post in the group. 65 00:05:28.980 --> 00:05:31.420 This is why I believe you should post in the group. 66 00:05:31.420 --> 00:05:33.980 Is hurt in community healed in community? 67 00:05:33.980 --> 00:05:35.940 Hurt in relationship healed in relationship? 68 00:05:35.940 --> 00:05:38.540 Some of you have really not had good friendships. 69 00:05:38.540 --> 00:05:40.620 Some of you haven't had great community. 70 00:05:40.620 --> 00:05:45.060 This is an awesome time for you to get out of your comfort zone. 71 00:05:45.060 --> 00:05:49.540 Some of you are just really afraid to share in a group setting. 72 00:05:49.540 --> 00:05:53.380 Those are insecurities that are going to hold you back when you try to step into relationship 73 00:05:53.380 --> 00:05:54.380 one day. 74 00:05:54.380 --> 00:05:57.580 And even in, and that doesn't even mean romantic relationships, because we have people that 75 00:05:57.580 --> 00:06:00.460 come into this community that they just want heartwork. 76 00:06:00.460 --> 00:06:02.340 They don't even care if they meet a guy. 77 00:06:02.340 --> 00:06:03.340 And that's totally awesome. 78 00:06:03.340 --> 00:06:07.260 If that's where you're at, I believe that God might have more for you because he brought 79 00:06:07.260 --> 00:06:08.860 you here. 80 00:06:08.860 --> 00:06:11.100 But if that's where you're at right now, that's totally fine. 81 00:06:11.100 --> 00:06:16.740 But the reality is, is you need to be able to interact in healthy relationship with friends, 82 00:06:16.740 --> 00:06:18.900 church people in your jobs. 83 00:06:18.900 --> 00:06:23.680 Some people are losing jobs or things are happening where it's because they need healing 84 00:06:23.680 --> 00:06:27.340 in their heart and they don't even, they don't even recognize it. 85 00:06:28.100 --> 00:06:34.420 Because we have blind spots and filters to our own issues and things that need resolved. 86 00:06:34.420 --> 00:06:40.780 So come into the group, post, ask questions, tell us how you're doing. 87 00:06:40.780 --> 00:06:44.580 One of the activations tonight is going to be for this week is going to be your Jesus 88 00:06:44.580 --> 00:06:45.580 cares board. 89 00:06:45.580 --> 00:06:46.580 Some of you have already done it. 90 00:06:46.580 --> 00:06:50.580 Some of you have not done it yet, but those are the times where, yes, we're going to ask 91 00:06:50.580 --> 00:06:52.420 you to be transparent. 92 00:06:52.420 --> 00:06:55.300 We're going to ask you to be real and authentic. 93 00:06:55.300 --> 00:06:59.340 And you know, what's really awesome out of that from, from my perspective is that people 94 00:06:59.340 --> 00:07:01.980 in the community be like, thank you so much for sharing that. 95 00:07:01.980 --> 00:07:06.060 That really spoke to me or something about your board really stood out to him. 96 00:07:06.060 --> 00:07:11.140 Allow God to make a connection for you that could last a lifetime. 97 00:07:11.140 --> 00:07:16.580 I have friends out of this community that are now very close friends of mine. 98 00:07:16.580 --> 00:07:17.780 Distractions are also going to come for you. 99 00:07:17.780 --> 00:07:20.900 So I want you to know and be aware of that. 100 00:07:20.900 --> 00:07:24.620 Some of you that have just entered the heart work is going to be left and right. 101 00:07:24.940 --> 00:07:27.300 The enemy is going to try to send distractions anytime you can. 102 00:07:27.300 --> 00:07:30.860 For those of you that have been here for a while, you know it to be true. 103 00:07:30.860 --> 00:07:31.860 Don't you? 104 00:07:31.860 --> 00:07:32.860 Anybody else? 105 00:07:32.860 --> 00:07:34.860 Distraction, distraction, distraction. 106 00:07:34.860 --> 00:07:38.460 Sometimes I even try to get work done for last year single and the enemy is just distracting, 107 00:07:38.460 --> 00:07:40.360 distracting, distracting. 108 00:07:40.360 --> 00:07:42.940 So I want you to be aware that that's going to happen. 109 00:07:42.940 --> 00:07:44.260 Old guys may resurface. 110 00:07:44.260 --> 00:07:50.300 Hey, you all, if it's during heart work, that is not God's divine design for you. 111 00:07:50.300 --> 00:07:51.300 Okay? 112 00:07:51.300 --> 00:07:53.900 Most likely, I'm not saying it never happens. 113 00:07:54.180 --> 00:07:57.340 I'm just saying you still need to press pause on that person while you're here in the heart 114 00:07:57.340 --> 00:07:58.340 work. 115 00:07:58.340 --> 00:08:03.420 That is what we ask you to do so that you can literally be focused, laser focused on 116 00:08:03.420 --> 00:08:06.620 your heart healing process and journey with the Lord. 117 00:08:06.620 --> 00:08:07.620 All right. 118 00:08:07.620 --> 00:08:09.980 Um, I think that is all. 119 00:08:09.980 --> 00:08:11.140 Remember to stay focused. 120 00:08:11.140 --> 00:08:12.140 Don't give up. 121 00:08:12.140 --> 00:08:13.140 Just keep going. 122 00:08:13.140 --> 00:08:15.060 If you feel overwhelmed, shift in. 123 00:08:15.060 --> 00:08:17.140 Remember that we've all been there. 124 00:08:17.140 --> 00:08:18.140 Okay. 125 00:08:18.140 --> 00:08:19.140 Number one, we've all been there. 126 00:08:19.140 --> 00:08:23.220 I felt overwhelmed when I was in this process, but here's the reality. 127 00:08:23.220 --> 00:08:29.660 God's grace and his, the endowment of power of the Holy spirit that lives in you can enable 128 00:08:29.660 --> 00:08:32.860 you to take one step at a time. 129 00:08:32.860 --> 00:08:38.580 I tell people all the time, if you'll just, when the overwhelm sets in, if you will just 130 00:08:38.580 --> 00:08:45.660 commit to taking one step a day, maybe that's, you know, you watch one video and you journal 131 00:08:45.660 --> 00:08:46.780 about it. 132 00:08:46.780 --> 00:08:50.580 And then the next day you read a little bit in the book, as long as you're taking steps 133 00:08:50.580 --> 00:08:57.300 forward, you all, you're still making progress, which creates momentum, which creates acceleration 134 00:08:57.300 --> 00:08:59.220 in your healing process. 135 00:08:59.220 --> 00:09:02.140 Some people have been in the community and things have happened. 136 00:09:02.140 --> 00:09:05.260 They've, uh, I have a friend that's on tonight. 137 00:09:05.260 --> 00:09:06.500 Sometimes we lose loved ones. 138 00:09:06.500 --> 00:09:10.100 I've had a lot of people in this community that's happened to them. 139 00:09:10.100 --> 00:09:14.020 I want y'all to know that we understand. 140 00:09:14.020 --> 00:09:19.060 And sometimes those things can create what we would consider like, not we, the team I'm 141 00:09:19.060 --> 00:09:25.460 saying we people, sons and daughters of Christ, we tend to think that those are setbacks or, 142 00:09:25.460 --> 00:09:29.700 you know, if we struggle or things have happened that we've lost all this time. 143 00:09:29.700 --> 00:09:34.740 And we may have in the physical realm, but God can accelerate and catch you up. 144 00:09:34.740 --> 00:09:35.740 Okay. 145 00:09:35.740 --> 00:09:38.140 The point is that you're still here. 146 00:09:38.140 --> 00:09:39.140 You're still here. 147 00:09:39.140 --> 00:09:40.140 And that's amazing. 148 00:09:40.140 --> 00:09:44.980 And so I'm so glad that you are here and that you're continuing to move forward. 149 00:09:44.980 --> 00:09:49.620 As I mentioned earlier, a supernatural Saturday connecting dots, nothing will be wasted. 150 00:09:49.620 --> 00:09:50.620 Check it out. 151 00:09:50.620 --> 00:09:51.620 It's in the replay. 152 00:09:51.620 --> 00:09:54.300 I'm going to pray for us and jump right into our content for tonight. 153 00:09:54.300 --> 00:09:56.940 Father, thank you so much for who you are. 154 00:09:56.940 --> 00:09:57.940 God. 155 00:09:57.940 --> 00:09:58.940 Thank you that. 156 00:09:58.940 --> 00:09:59.940 Yes, Lord. 157 00:09:59.940 --> 00:09:59.940 158 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:06.320 of the supernatural. God, I pray tonight that you would give us an upgrade in the revelation of 159 00:10:06.320 --> 00:10:13.760 surrender and what that looks like for us. God, I pray that you would help us to, even like years 160 00:10:13.760 --> 00:10:19.680 ago, you showed me like, I had so many areas where I was mature, but I had so many areas where I 161 00:10:19.680 --> 00:10:25.680 felt like a little kid on the inside because I just would struggle internally. God, I pray that 162 00:10:25.680 --> 00:10:31.040 you would bring healing to the depths of our being tonight. God, that you would bring those things 163 00:10:31.040 --> 00:10:37.280 that are in darkness to the light so there can be revelation, so the light can come and remove 164 00:10:37.280 --> 00:10:42.000 all of the pain of the past. God, I thank you that we would set our hearts upon you, 165 00:10:42.000 --> 00:10:46.080 that we would lift our eyes up from, you know, to heaven where our help comes from, 166 00:10:46.080 --> 00:10:51.840 the maker of heaven and earth. God, you created all things. Nothing is too hard for you. Our 167 00:10:51.840 --> 00:10:58.800 healing process is not too hard for you. God, when we try to bear it alone, when we try to go 168 00:10:58.800 --> 00:11:04.080 the path of life alone, God, I pray that you would recenter us, refocus us, help us to know that your 169 00:11:04.880 --> 00:11:10.960 yoke is easy and your burden is light. Help us, Lord, to enter your rest tonight, to enter your 170 00:11:10.960 --> 00:11:15.440 freedom. We thank you for supernatural breakthroughs and healing that are going to happen tonight, 171 00:11:15.440 --> 00:11:20.160 as well as throughout this week. Lord, we just bless you. We thank you. Holy Spirit, thanks for 172 00:11:20.160 --> 00:11:25.600 being here. Just weave in and out of all the conversations, all of the coaching, and let your 173 00:11:25.600 --> 00:11:32.320 will be done on earth as you desire in heaven this night. In Jesus' name, amen, amen. All right, 174 00:11:32.320 --> 00:11:37.600 so you all, if you don't know what I'm talking about when I say Jesus Cares Board, the explanation 175 00:11:37.600 --> 00:11:42.800 of that is in your week one. It is a video that you can watch. Jackie's talking about this, 176 00:11:42.800 --> 00:11:48.400 the Jesus Cares Board. I'm going to show you a couple as well, just to give you all some additional 177 00:11:48.400 --> 00:11:54.160 ideas. Now, always remember, there is no expectation for you to do yours like this. 178 00:11:54.160 --> 00:11:59.680 I'm just, again, I love to plant seeds to get you all thinking. Here's a board that one of our 179 00:11:59.680 --> 00:12:06.080 sisters did. She chose to do heart post-it notes, and she put scriptures on there. She put some of 180 00:12:06.080 --> 00:12:11.280 the words of things she was casting cares. This is one a lady did on her fridge. This is, I'm trying 181 00:12:11.280 --> 00:12:15.760 to show you guys all the different ways this is very doable. So this was just on her fridge. 182 00:12:15.760 --> 00:12:20.880 She rotated them as the cares were being answered, or she was asking God for additional things. 183 00:12:20.880 --> 00:12:25.600 This one, again, like really cute, like tissue paper hearts in the background, and then she was 184 00:12:25.600 --> 00:12:30.800 adding hers as she goes. And so I want you all to know, it doesn't have to be finished when you 185 00:12:30.800 --> 00:12:37.040 post it either, okay? Some of you all need to just get some wins in your bag. And how do you get some 186 00:12:37.040 --> 00:12:40.560 wins in your bag? Well, you go ahead and post it before it's even finished, and you're going to 187 00:12:40.560 --> 00:12:45.200 start to feel some stuff shifting and changing. We're going to be coming alongside of you, 188 00:12:45.200 --> 00:12:49.360 praying for those. This one, I love all of these, you guys. Just, you know, there's no, there's no 189 00:12:49.360 --> 00:12:54.880 favoritism, but one of the things I love, the reason I love to show this one, is she put herself on there. 190 00:12:56.000 --> 00:13:02.640 That is a picture of herself, and I thought that that was so brilliant, because so many times, don't 191 00:13:02.640 --> 00:13:07.680 we think we need to take care of ourselves, but Jesus cares, and so she just put her whole self 192 00:13:07.680 --> 00:13:13.040 on there, and I love that. I think that's so awesome. This one here, what I wanted to show you 193 00:13:13.040 --> 00:13:16.800 is some people are like, well, I have kids around, and I don't want my kids to see what I'm writing 194 00:13:16.800 --> 00:13:21.040 on my Jesus Cares board, or people that come and go. If you feel like you don't have somewhere to 195 00:13:21.040 --> 00:13:26.160 put it in private, she put these little heart boxes down at the bottom. Heart box childhood, heart box 196 00:13:26.160 --> 00:13:32.000 adult. She tucked in her little, you know, her message of what was on there. God knows what it is, 197 00:13:32.640 --> 00:13:38.400 and then her kids wouldn't see that. But you all, one of the things I want you to understand 198 00:13:38.400 --> 00:13:44.560 is that your children, when they see you doing this, some of them automatically are going to be 199 00:13:44.560 --> 00:13:49.600 like, I want to do that too, and if they don't do it automatically, if they're open to it, I would 200 00:13:49.600 --> 00:13:55.440 encourage you on their level to do a Jesus Cares board for them. Kids carry burdens so much more 201 00:13:55.440 --> 00:14:01.360 than we, like, ever think that they do. I had a little girl in Sunday school class two weekends 202 00:14:01.360 --> 00:14:07.600 ago go, I think I said this last week, you know, she's carrying this burden that some kid made a 203 00:14:07.600 --> 00:14:13.280 comment about her skin color. And, you know, they just need to know that Jesus cares about 204 00:14:13.280 --> 00:14:18.560 every one of their needs, just like He cares about ours. This one I put because, just like the woman 205 00:14:18.560 --> 00:14:23.920 that did hers on the fridge, this lady was like, hey, I'm just going to use my door in my living 206 00:14:23.920 --> 00:14:28.800 room, because she had window boxes on there, and I thought that was cool. And, you know, some people 207 00:14:28.800 --> 00:14:34.400 will do different color post-its for different areas of their life that they're casting their 208 00:14:34.400 --> 00:14:40.880 cares. I will tell you all, the more specific you can get, the better, I think. But if that's hard 209 00:14:40.880 --> 00:14:46.560 for you, go ahead and get started with the general, and then we can ask you more questions and help 210 00:14:46.560 --> 00:14:51.120 you kind of pare that down a little bit more. Here's some other ones. All right, that's all. 211 00:14:51.120 --> 00:14:59.920 And what I mean by that is, for example, I might write on my board, I need Jesus. 212 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:06.200 those to help me with my finances. And that is great. Okay. But when I break it 213 00:15:06.200 --> 00:15:13.560 down, and I say, Jesus, I need your help to pay off $10,000 of school debt. Or 214 00:15:13.580 --> 00:15:17.800 Jesus, one of the things I put on my board, I needed dental work for several 215 00:15:17.800 --> 00:15:22.540 years. And this was before I met Brian. And I just said, Jesus, I need help to 216 00:15:22.540 --> 00:15:27.120 save money to get this dental work. I need it. And I don't, you know, want 217 00:15:27.120 --> 00:15:29.780 other health problems created because of this, but I don't have money right 218 00:15:29.780 --> 00:15:34.300 now. And but I need that. You know, and it was on there longer than I wanted it 219 00:15:34.300 --> 00:15:39.260 to. But here's the reality. What I want you to know is that when it was time, we 220 00:15:39.260 --> 00:15:45.900 were able to pay for that stuff in full. Okay, it matters what you put on that 221 00:15:45.900 --> 00:15:50.660 board, it matters that you continue to thank God for it, even before you see 222 00:15:50.660 --> 00:15:55.060 it. You know, if your kids need salvation, if your kids need healing, 223 00:15:55.060 --> 00:15:59.060 you know, whatever it is, I put on my board to some things like, I wanted to 224 00:15:59.060 --> 00:16:02.940 have fun in my spirit mate relationship. And I put that on my board, I didn't 225 00:16:02.940 --> 00:16:07.020 want to just have a spirit mate, I wanted to have fun. I wanted to dance, I 226 00:16:07.020 --> 00:16:12.100 wanted to love my life, you know. So again, just kind of be specific, lean 227 00:16:12.100 --> 00:16:16.580 into that. And and as you put it on the board, just keep thanking Jesus, Jesus, 228 00:16:16.580 --> 00:16:20.180 thank you right now that even as I put this on the board, I trust that you're 229 00:16:20.180 --> 00:16:26.020 going to work on this situation in this situation on my behalf. All right. So 230 00:16:26.020 --> 00:16:29.540 tonight we're talking about supernatural surrender, which goes so 231 00:16:29.540 --> 00:16:33.940 well with practicing the Jesus Cares Board and the principles of surrendering 232 00:16:33.980 --> 00:16:40.940 everything to Him. Y'all, I'm pretty good at this. I do this on a regular basis. 233 00:16:40.940 --> 00:16:44.260 But I'll tell you what we went on, my husband and I went on what's called a 234 00:16:44.260 --> 00:16:48.980 refresh retreat for some friends of ours started a foundation to sow into 235 00:16:48.980 --> 00:16:55.340 pastors and their wives where they can just come and literally be like, we had 236 00:16:55.340 --> 00:16:58.860 people cooking our food for us and serving us. And like there was just it 237 00:16:58.860 --> 00:17:05.859 was a lot of resting, unplug as much as possible, a lot of like, some guided 238 00:17:05.859 --> 00:17:12.020 devotion times, a lot of time as a couple, but a lot of rest. And y'all, I 239 00:17:12.020 --> 00:17:15.700 don't know if you know, but like sometimes ministry life is go, go, go, 240 00:17:15.700 --> 00:17:22.579 go, go. And so the reason I bring that up is because I take a lot of time to 241 00:17:22.579 --> 00:17:27.260 even do devotions even now at home. But there was just something about being 242 00:17:27.260 --> 00:17:32.340 away from all of the places and spaces I'm used to. We were in Savannah, 243 00:17:32.340 --> 00:17:37.340 Georgia, we were at this place, it was right on this river was just absolutely 244 00:17:37.340 --> 00:17:42.740 stunning. Got to see the sunrise every morning. Yes, I got up. I set my alarm. I 245 00:17:42.740 --> 00:17:47.060 wanted to see that come up. But here's the thing. This is why I'm saying it to 246 00:17:47.060 --> 00:17:54.660 you. It was not more than five minutes after I had stepped onto that property, 247 00:17:55.420 --> 00:18:00.820 that I started feeling this like, in my heart, this like, the only way I know 248 00:18:00.820 --> 00:18:07.060 how to explain it is this pressure. But what it was from is because I knew God 249 00:18:07.060 --> 00:18:11.340 was going to help me deal with some things I hadn't dealt with yet. Because 250 00:18:11.340 --> 00:18:15.740 2025 was a pretty rough year for us a lot of great ministry stuff, but we had 251 00:18:15.740 --> 00:18:19.820 some things happen one after the other after the other was so fast, that I felt 252 00:18:19.820 --> 00:18:24.620 like I just didn't have enough time to like really pause. Like I processed it as 253 00:18:24.620 --> 00:18:30.300 much as I could, but to really pause and really kind of just feel the grief of 254 00:18:30.300 --> 00:18:38.020 some of those things. And so in in going away, and taking that extra time, like I 255 00:18:38.020 --> 00:18:42.300 said, it was kind of immediate, like in the first night they did this, the leader 256 00:18:42.300 --> 00:18:46.300 did this devotion time. And y'all, I mean, like, literally, I was like, Okay, 257 00:18:46.300 --> 00:18:48.740 y'all, this is going to be what it's going to be like, I think this weekend, 258 00:18:48.740 --> 00:18:54.980 just tears, just tears, just my, my soul was releasing. So maybe y'all, that's 259 00:18:54.980 --> 00:19:00.580 what you need. If tears come, I don't want you to apologize for them. If it's 260 00:19:00.580 --> 00:19:04.460 during coaching, if it's when you're processing on your own, you know, I want 261 00:19:04.460 --> 00:19:11.780 y'all to feel the feels so God can heal the feels. For some of you, you've been 262 00:19:11.780 --> 00:19:15.540 numb for a while, you haven't even realized how numb you've been. And maybe 263 00:19:15.540 --> 00:19:19.300 you do realize it, but it's a whole nother ballgame when you might realize 264 00:19:19.300 --> 00:19:22.860 it. But then when you sit down and start kind of like just being honest with God. 265 00:19:23.660 --> 00:19:27.300 So one of the things I told the Lord this weekend was I was I was upset with 266 00:19:27.300 --> 00:19:36.380 him about some things. And I was just honest. He already knows it. So I was 267 00:19:36.380 --> 00:19:40.580 just being his daughter and talking to him. And because of that honesty, I felt 268 00:19:40.580 --> 00:19:46.140 like I was able to kind of recalibrate and breathe. Because here's the reality. 269 00:19:46.140 --> 00:19:51.180 I know he loves me. I know he's not holding out on me. But the devil is has 270 00:19:51.180 --> 00:19:56.180 been trying to convince me that that is the truth. And I coach it all the time. 271 00:19:56.180 --> 00:19:59.100 But y'all sometimes when it hits your own life, you know, 272 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:04.240 have to be willing to enter into that space. 273 00:20:04.240 --> 00:20:08.600 One of the questions was, why am I here? 274 00:20:08.600 --> 00:20:10.840 And that sounds like such a simple question, 275 00:20:10.840 --> 00:20:12.880 but when the leader asked it, he said, 276 00:20:12.880 --> 00:20:16.640 I want you to ask God, why are you here? 277 00:20:16.640 --> 00:20:19.280 Like, why are you on this retreat this weekend? 278 00:20:19.280 --> 00:20:21.680 What does God want to do in you? 279 00:20:21.680 --> 00:20:23.600 And so that's what I want to do tonight. 280 00:20:23.600 --> 00:20:27.120 I want to start there. 281 00:20:27.120 --> 00:20:28.320 I'd like to take a minute. 282 00:20:28.320 --> 00:20:30.960 I'm going to have, like, I'm going to do literally 283 00:20:30.960 --> 00:20:33.440 a minute of quiet time. 284 00:20:33.440 --> 00:20:36.680 If you don't have pen and paper, you can use your phone. 285 00:20:36.680 --> 00:20:38.720 Try not to get distracted if you're on your phone. 286 00:20:38.720 --> 00:20:41.800 I would prefer pencil and paper, pen and paper. 287 00:20:41.800 --> 00:20:44.320 But I want you just to ask the Lord. 288 00:20:44.320 --> 00:20:46.600 Some of you, even if you've been in heartwork for a while, 289 00:20:46.600 --> 00:20:48.680 doesn't matter. 290 00:20:48.680 --> 00:20:51.640 None of that matters. 291 00:20:51.640 --> 00:20:54.880 But I want you to ask the Lord, why are you here? 292 00:20:59.320 --> 00:21:01.200 And I want you just to write down anything that 293 00:21:01.200 --> 00:21:02.800 comes to your heart and mind. 294 00:21:05.760 --> 00:21:10.000 Lord, why am I in this heartwork process? 295 00:21:10.000 --> 00:21:12.480 Lord, why did you lead me to last year's single? 296 00:21:12.480 --> 00:21:15.840 Lord, why am I here tonight? 297 00:21:15.840 --> 00:21:17.720 Why am I here in this journey right now? 298 00:21:20.600 --> 00:21:22.800 Lord, what do you want to do in me during this time? 299 00:21:29.320 --> 00:21:36.320 Lord, how do you want to help me come out of the place 300 00:21:36.320 --> 00:21:37.920 I was never intended to be in? 301 00:21:58.320 --> 00:22:18.320 You know, there's this song that says, Jesus, lover of my soul, 302 00:22:18.320 --> 00:22:22.600 Jesus, I'll never let you go. 303 00:22:22.600 --> 00:22:25.640 You've taken me from the miry clay. 304 00:22:25.720 --> 00:22:27.480 You've set my feet upon the rock. 305 00:22:27.480 --> 00:22:31.680 And now I know I love you. 306 00:22:31.680 --> 00:22:33.680 But so often, life happens. 307 00:22:33.680 --> 00:22:36.160 And we know in our heads that we love him. 308 00:22:36.160 --> 00:22:40.080 But our hearts are saying something different. 309 00:22:40.080 --> 00:22:41.480 Our hearts are deceiving us. 310 00:22:41.480 --> 00:22:45.040 The enemy is trying to lie to us, kill, steal, and destroy. 311 00:22:45.040 --> 00:22:49.680 He wants to take everything he can from us. 312 00:22:49.680 --> 00:22:53.440 He wants us to live below the blessing that God has for us, 313 00:22:53.440 --> 00:22:55.760 the good, good life. 314 00:23:02.960 --> 00:23:05.280 All right, go ahead and finish that up. 315 00:23:05.280 --> 00:23:08.240 If you're just joining us, we're just doing a little activation 316 00:23:08.240 --> 00:23:08.880 real quick. 317 00:23:12.120 --> 00:23:13.640 And as you all are finishing that up, 318 00:23:13.640 --> 00:23:17.400 I want to kind of circle back to God's super. 319 00:23:17.400 --> 00:23:21.920 And tonight, we're asking God for you to bring your super 320 00:23:21.920 --> 00:23:25.440 and add it to our natural, that you 321 00:23:25.440 --> 00:23:28.440 would help us to release everything and relinquish 322 00:23:28.440 --> 00:23:31.720 control to you, that we will allow you to move 323 00:23:31.720 --> 00:23:34.000 in every area of our hearts, that we would take down 324 00:23:34.000 --> 00:23:39.560 do not enter signs, God, so that you can fully come in 325 00:23:39.560 --> 00:23:44.360 to every area, even the prickly areas, Lord, God, where, man, 326 00:23:44.360 --> 00:23:47.400 it just is so hard to let you come close because it just 327 00:23:47.400 --> 00:23:51.040 feels like we need to protect ourselves. 328 00:23:51.040 --> 00:23:56.560 God, help us to remember that in you, there is freedom. 329 00:23:56.560 --> 00:23:59.880 John 15, 4 through 5 in the NIV version says this, 330 00:23:59.880 --> 00:24:04.320 remain in me as I also remain in you. 331 00:24:04.320 --> 00:24:06.160 No branch can bear fruit by itself. 332 00:24:06.160 --> 00:24:08.240 It must remain in the vine. 333 00:24:08.240 --> 00:24:12.360 Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. 334 00:24:12.360 --> 00:24:13.680 I am the vine. 335 00:24:13.680 --> 00:24:15.760 You are the branches. 336 00:24:15.760 --> 00:24:22.560 If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit. 337 00:24:22.560 --> 00:24:26.520 Apart from me, you can do nothing. 338 00:24:26.520 --> 00:24:28.280 I'm going to ask you to do something else. 339 00:24:28.280 --> 00:24:29.480 I'm going to just follow the Holy Spirit. 340 00:24:29.480 --> 00:24:31.520 I just feel a couple of things coming up tonight. 341 00:24:34.160 --> 00:24:37.240 I want you, the part that says, if you remain in me and I 342 00:24:37.240 --> 00:24:39.760 in you, you will. 343 00:24:39.760 --> 00:24:42.680 It doesn't say maybe. 344 00:24:42.680 --> 00:24:45.120 It says you will bear much fruit. 345 00:24:45.560 --> 00:24:48.240 I want you just to write down, I want you to ask the Lord, 346 00:24:48.240 --> 00:24:53.480 Lord, what fruit can I bear right now? 347 00:24:59.320 --> 00:25:01.120 And then, of course. 348 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:06.720 that might change over time, but what fruit can I bear right now as I remain in you? Not independent 349 00:25:06.720 --> 00:25:14.880 of Him, not on our own, but in Him, He's the one that enables us to bear fruit. You know, last week 350 00:25:14.880 --> 00:25:19.760 we did, or maybe two weeks ago, I can't remember which week we did it, sorry y'all, I think it was 351 00:25:19.760 --> 00:25:24.880 two weeks ago, we did the roots, you know, versus the fruits activation, you know, asking us to kind 352 00:25:24.880 --> 00:25:29.360 of process what are the roots and what kind of fruit is coming out of those places. 353 00:25:31.200 --> 00:25:37.760 And we know, even myself, you know, when whatever is in the heart gets reproduced, so if I have, 354 00:25:37.760 --> 00:25:42.320 you know, grief in my heart that's not processed, well that's going to probably produce some 355 00:25:43.280 --> 00:25:50.880 fruit that's sad, or maybe stressed, or whatever that looks like for me or for you. So what kind 356 00:25:50.880 --> 00:25:57.920 of fruit are you, does He want you to bear in this season right now? Remember that God is a 357 00:25:57.920 --> 00:26:02.000 gentleman, so He's not going to force His way into your heart, He's not going to force His way into 358 00:26:02.000 --> 00:26:08.160 your life, and the reality is this, even myself included, if we start to step away from the Lord, 359 00:26:08.160 --> 00:26:16.240 He will let us, but He will still lovingly pursue us. We'll hear Him saying things to us, and 360 00:26:16.240 --> 00:26:22.400 speaking to us, to try to lead us back to Himself, because we were always intended to be in 361 00:26:22.400 --> 00:26:28.880 relationship with Him. Apart from Him, we can't do anything, that hole will never be filled, we will 362 00:26:28.880 --> 00:26:37.520 never be satisfied with anything or anyone other than the Lord. So we have to start to really 363 00:26:37.520 --> 00:26:43.680 recognize that we will, if we start to walk away from Him, there's going to be these voids that 364 00:26:43.680 --> 00:26:47.280 can, like they're just going to be empty, they're not going to be filled with anything, and even if 365 00:26:47.280 --> 00:26:54.000 we try, we will feel that deep ache. So tonight, I want to encourage you to give God permission, 366 00:26:54.000 --> 00:26:59.280 as I was saying, you know, let the do not enter signs come down. You might not even realize they 367 00:26:59.280 --> 00:27:04.400 are there right now, but subconsciously they're there, and God is going to show you as you're 368 00:27:04.400 --> 00:27:11.840 walking forward, like, hey, this is an area I'd really love you to surrender this to me completely. 369 00:27:14.160 --> 00:27:23.520 And literally give me the key to it. He wants full access, ladies. Full access. And I want you to know 370 00:27:23.520 --> 00:27:32.720 that if it feels painful, if it feels scary, that will pass. It will pass. Revelation 3.20 says, 371 00:27:32.720 --> 00:27:37.680 Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If any man hears my voice and opens the door, I will come into 372 00:27:37.680 --> 00:27:43.200 him and will sup with him and he with me. I love this scripture. I love that it talks about that 373 00:27:43.200 --> 00:27:48.240 God's going to come in and eat with us. He's going to have a meal. Y'all, guess what? Don't we spend 374 00:27:48.240 --> 00:27:53.760 time eating with people that we care about, that we're close to? Typically, yeah. Sometimes there's 375 00:27:53.760 --> 00:27:59.760 people we might be like, hmm, don't think I'm enjoying this meal in this conversation. Let's 376 00:27:59.760 --> 00:28:07.600 just be real, right? I have some of those, but a lot of the time we are spending time with people 377 00:28:07.600 --> 00:28:14.240 that we enjoy their company. In the heartwork book, I want to just touch on a couple things 378 00:28:14.240 --> 00:28:20.480 really quickly. Y'all, it's in chapter three in the supernatural surrender area. 379 00:28:22.160 --> 00:28:28.720 One of the main reasons we don't want to depend on anyone else is we don't want to be disappointed. 380 00:28:28.720 --> 00:28:34.320 For some of you, you don't even want to depend on God because you think God is going to disappoint 381 00:28:34.320 --> 00:28:40.880 you because you have been convinced by the devil himself that God has disappointed you in the past 382 00:28:40.880 --> 00:28:50.000 and he will always disappoint you. It's time for us to, I don't know how many of you are old enough 383 00:28:50.000 --> 00:28:55.120 to know cassette tapes, but it's time to literally, for those of you that are too young, you can look 384 00:28:55.120 --> 00:29:01.040 it up later. What is a cassette tape? Y'all, it's funny these days, people don't, like the young 385 00:29:01.040 --> 00:29:06.240 kids that things, you know, my grandparents had one of those phones. You would pick it up, like the 386 00:29:06.240 --> 00:29:11.280 little horn looking thing, and you talk into it. Yeah, I remember talking into one of those phones. 387 00:29:11.280 --> 00:29:17.520 Kids nowadays are like, what is that? All right, sidebar, but it makes me laugh, you know, 388 00:29:18.400 --> 00:29:24.480 but here's the thing. We have to choose to understand that God is not man. 389 00:29:24.480 --> 00:29:31.840 Yes, Jesus came in the form of a man, but he still was God. 390 00:29:34.000 --> 00:29:39.360 We believe that he disappointed us, but it's because we believed a lie of the enemy. 391 00:29:41.440 --> 00:29:45.600 All right, we're going to keep going. Being disappointed is painful, maybe even more painful 392 00:29:45.600 --> 00:29:50.720 than not trusting anyone to help us in the first place. I want some of you to be real honest with 393 00:29:50.720 --> 00:29:56.480 yourselves. How many of you have told yourself it's just easier being single? 394 00:29:58.480 --> 00:29:59.920 We have people in this community that 395 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:05.920 say they want to be married they say they want a spirit mate but yet they internally repeat the 396 00:30:05.920 --> 00:30:11.840 dialogue this is too hard it's just easier being single some people get married y'all they go all 397 00:30:11.840 --> 00:30:17.120 the way they get the wedding and you know how many people you are already counseling 398 00:30:17.120 --> 00:30:20.800 because they're saying i just should have probably not even gotten married 399 00:30:20.800 --> 00:30:31.040 yikes y'all the reality is is relationships are hard they're really amazing but even if you have 400 00:30:31.040 --> 00:30:37.760 a good friend sometimes isn't that hard and you have to work through things together well that's 401 00:30:37.760 --> 00:30:45.360 what marriage is too but so many people either they go in too fast full speed ahead and they 402 00:30:45.360 --> 00:30:51.520 don't listen to coaches which happens or they go in with their eyes kind of they're just so in love 403 00:30:51.520 --> 00:30:56.240 that they're not fully looking at the picture of what's they're about to enter and i've done that 404 00:30:56.240 --> 00:31:04.240 before no shame on that i've done it before but that's what this community is for if people will 405 00:31:04.240 --> 00:31:08.720 come into the community and tell us about the people they're dating get one-on-one coaching 406 00:31:08.720 --> 00:31:15.920 about things come into the simba's program that we do y'all we ask legit questions about the the 407 00:31:15.920 --> 00:31:20.240 spouses the people that are considering moving forward into marriage like we look at the 408 00:31:20.240 --> 00:31:25.200 assessments we look at what they've said we look at the red flag areas or the struggle and we talk 409 00:31:25.200 --> 00:31:31.520 to them about it why do we do that well it's because we're trying to help people step into 410 00:31:31.600 --> 00:31:36.080 marriage from the most healthy place that they can be 411 00:31:38.480 --> 00:31:45.440 so so many times people are convincing themselves it's just easier well the grass isn't always 412 00:31:45.440 --> 00:31:51.040 greener on the other side and if you're convincing yourself that you're just better off single 413 00:31:51.600 --> 00:31:58.320 that's a heart truly a heart wound that needs to be looked at all right so i want you to think about 414 00:31:58.320 --> 00:32:06.480 the times as well where um you've just convinced yourself that you can do it yourself i've got this 415 00:32:06.480 --> 00:32:13.760 i can do it myself god doesn't ever tell us to go figure it out he doesn't say hey good luck kid i 416 00:32:13.760 --> 00:32:22.320 hope you make it he's like i'm i sent the holy spirit when jesus ascended into heaven 417 00:32:23.120 --> 00:32:26.320 to be your comforter to be your counselor to be your guide 418 00:32:28.400 --> 00:32:34.400 to be your ever-present help in time of trouble i sent the holy spirit to take you by the hand 419 00:32:37.200 --> 00:32:43.040 so here are some practical ways that i do it myself or god i've got this tends to show up 420 00:32:43.040 --> 00:32:47.360 in our daily lives i'm going to read these really quick y'all might have to go back and listen to 421 00:32:47.360 --> 00:32:50.800 the replay if you want to take notes on this because i'm going to go fast so we have plenty 422 00:32:50.800 --> 00:32:56.320 of time for breakouts and coaching tonight here are some that show up in our relationship areas 423 00:32:56.320 --> 00:33:03.040 controlling conversations or outcomes during conflict rather than seeking god's wisdom first 424 00:33:06.240 --> 00:33:10.640 making major relationship decisions without prayer or godly counsel 425 00:33:13.360 --> 00:33:19.760 trying to earn love through performance instead of resting in god's unconditional 426 00:33:19.760 --> 00:33:23.280 love performance can show up in a lot of ways you all 427 00:33:25.120 --> 00:33:28.960 thinking we have to have the perfect clothes we have to act a perfect way 428 00:33:31.200 --> 00:33:34.880 you got to have the perfect job you've got to have all the things right in the house 429 00:33:35.520 --> 00:33:41.120 sometimes i go into people's houses and i'm like man i like i feel like the room i'm in right now 430 00:33:41.120 --> 00:33:44.960 it's decorated pretty cute and then i go into other people's house and i'm like oh man i wish 431 00:33:44.960 --> 00:33:50.480 i could do it like that that's how the that's how the enemy works isn't it and it's okay to admire 432 00:33:50.480 --> 00:33:55.280 things you know it's not wrong to do that but i think that it it's one of the things that i feel 433 00:33:55.280 --> 00:34:01.360 for myself at least that the enemy always wants me to compare myself to other people with the 434 00:34:01.360 --> 00:34:06.800 underlying statement i'm not good enough 435 00:34:07.440 --> 00:34:13.840 some of you are going to go into phase two and you're going to compare your dating journey 436 00:34:13.840 --> 00:34:17.199 to someone else's dating journey some of you in heartwork do that here 437 00:34:18.880 --> 00:34:23.040 some of you are going to go out on a date with a guy and you're going to see another woman on 438 00:34:23.040 --> 00:34:28.639 a date with someone and you're going to compare yourself to her y'all this stuff is legit happens 439 00:34:29.440 --> 00:34:36.719 to her y'all this stuff is legit happens all the time if that is happening you got like hopefully 440 00:34:36.719 --> 00:34:43.360 you're gonna ask the lord to reveal where that's coming from were you compared to your sisters 441 00:34:43.360 --> 00:34:50.560 constantly growing up was your mom jealous of you like these are legit things some some young 442 00:34:50.560 --> 00:34:54.639 girls grow up where their mom is jealous of them because the dad is paying the daughter more 443 00:34:54.639 --> 00:34:59.840 attention than the mom and it creates this whole dynamic that then the 444 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.640 a child carries into adulthood and well into life. 445 00:35:06.840 --> 00:35:09.720 Financial and career, I do it myself or I've got this, 446 00:35:09.720 --> 00:35:12.800 can show up in making financial decisions based solely on your own 447 00:35:12.800 --> 00:35:15.840 understanding without seeking God's direction. That's a common theme, 448 00:35:16.040 --> 00:35:18.600 doing things without seeking God's direction, 449 00:35:18.840 --> 00:35:23.760 hoarding resources out of fear instead of trusting God as our provider. 450 00:35:24.040 --> 00:35:27.560 Now y'all, I believe in saving. I believe that God blesses the storehouse. 451 00:35:27.560 --> 00:35:32.400 So I'm not saying don't save money, but some people will hoard things. 452 00:35:32.560 --> 00:35:35.240 They will hoard, hoard, hoard out of fear. 453 00:35:36.200 --> 00:35:40.320 And then they may not step fully into the partnership of marriage because 454 00:35:40.320 --> 00:35:43.920 they're trying to kind of keep things in that place. 455 00:35:44.360 --> 00:35:49.200 So parenting and family looks like trying to control our children's every 456 00:35:49.200 --> 00:35:53.680 choice instead of training them and trusting God with 457 00:35:53.680 --> 00:35:55.400 their hearts. 458 00:35:57.720 --> 00:36:02.280 A lot of people, um, if y'all have heard Andrea share some of her stories, 459 00:36:02.280 --> 00:36:05.920 she's our coach in the afternoons for heartwork and, uh, 460 00:36:05.960 --> 00:36:10.840 she's kind of in this place right now of trusting God with her daughter. Um, 461 00:36:10.880 --> 00:36:14.760 and just that surrendering their choices. 462 00:36:15.960 --> 00:36:20.200 How many of y'all have adult children? Anyone else? 463 00:36:21.040 --> 00:36:21.960 Man, it's hard. 464 00:36:22.400 --> 00:36:27.360 It is hard to let them make choices on their 465 00:36:27.360 --> 00:36:32.600 own. And, you know, sometimes seeing them make really bad 466 00:36:32.720 --> 00:36:36.200 choices, but I pray all the time, God, 467 00:36:36.440 --> 00:36:41.280 thank you that you were with me when I was making bad decisions. 468 00:36:41.880 --> 00:36:44.080 And I believe you can lead them to your truth. 469 00:36:44.080 --> 00:36:45.560 Just like you led me to your truth. 470 00:36:45.760 --> 00:36:49.760 I just keep praying that over and over and over because that's what I have to 471 00:36:49.760 --> 00:36:50.440 cling to. 472 00:36:50.440 --> 00:36:54.480 Like God brought me out of all of the mess of my life. 473 00:36:54.480 --> 00:36:58.680 And he led me to this amazing journey that I'm in. I love the Lord. 474 00:36:59.200 --> 00:37:00.840 I want that for my kids. 475 00:37:01.800 --> 00:37:04.880 So if you're struggling in that area, 476 00:37:04.880 --> 00:37:09.160 I want to encourage you cling to what God did in you and 477 00:37:09.160 --> 00:37:11.880 claim, God, thank you. You're going to do that for my kids. 478 00:37:12.160 --> 00:37:15.480 Now it might look different than your conversion and might look different than 479 00:37:15.480 --> 00:37:16.320 your path, 480 00:37:17.320 --> 00:37:22.200 but cling to the fact that he is more than able to do abundantly 481 00:37:22.200 --> 00:37:26.880 above anything we could ever ask, think, or imagine, including with our kids. 482 00:37:27.080 --> 00:37:31.480 Maybe we're trying to fix every problem for our kids rather than allowing them 483 00:37:31.480 --> 00:37:33.160 to learn and grow through challenges. 484 00:37:33.160 --> 00:37:37.880 Now I recently did help our, my youngest spiritual daughter. 485 00:37:38.480 --> 00:37:42.160 She parked her car somewhere that she shouldn't have. 486 00:37:42.160 --> 00:37:46.280 She wasn't fully where they said don't park, but she was kind of by there. 487 00:37:47.200 --> 00:37:49.760 But she knew the timeframe that she was supposed to be moved by. 488 00:37:49.760 --> 00:37:53.960 And they came early. She cut it a little close. At least that's what she told me. 489 00:37:54.000 --> 00:37:58.360 I'm going to trust her, but she doesn't ask me for money very often. 490 00:37:58.400 --> 00:38:00.720 But she asked if I could help her out that day, 491 00:38:00.720 --> 00:38:03.840 her car got towed and if she didn't get it within a certain timeframe, 492 00:38:03.840 --> 00:38:06.520 it was going to get taken somewhere else and cost a lot more money. 493 00:38:07.520 --> 00:38:10.200 But here's one of the things I said to her, cause she offered to pay me back. 494 00:38:10.200 --> 00:38:11.560 I said, no, that's fine. 495 00:38:12.080 --> 00:38:15.080 You don't normally come and ask me for money on a regular basis. 496 00:38:15.080 --> 00:38:19.240 So I trust you. Like, honey, sometimes I just want to do things for you. 497 00:38:21.000 --> 00:38:24.080 Cause sometimes that is, I just want to be that kind of mom. 498 00:38:24.120 --> 00:38:28.280 But if I bailed her out all the time, 499 00:38:29.360 --> 00:38:32.040 how is that going to help her? It's not, 500 00:38:32.840 --> 00:38:34.440 she hasn't come back and asked for anything else. 501 00:38:34.640 --> 00:38:36.640 But sometimes some of us that's what we're doing. 502 00:38:36.640 --> 00:38:40.720 We're constantly bailing our kids out because we don't want them to feel pain. 503 00:38:40.720 --> 00:38:43.880 Like we felt pain, but you know what? 504 00:38:43.960 --> 00:38:47.640 Pain is profitable if we allow it to be used for, you know, 505 00:38:47.840 --> 00:38:49.520 in the Lord's hands. 506 00:38:51.000 --> 00:38:55.640 Y'all some of the deepest pain I've had in my life as I've given that to the 507 00:38:55.640 --> 00:38:59.000 Lord, he has used it and turned it around for purpose. 508 00:38:59.800 --> 00:39:03.160 Hence I'm here talking to all of you. 509 00:39:04.960 --> 00:39:07.800 I literally gave everything of my life to him and just said, Lord, 510 00:39:07.800 --> 00:39:11.240 I'll do whatever. I'll go wherever I'll share wherever. 511 00:39:11.520 --> 00:39:16.080 And I've meant that from day one. It's not always easy though, 512 00:39:17.040 --> 00:39:19.640 especially when you're in the middle of feeling the pain, right? 513 00:39:21.880 --> 00:39:24.440 Personal growth. Maybe you're white knuckling things. 514 00:39:24.520 --> 00:39:27.360 Maybe you're white knuckling through bad habits right now, 515 00:39:27.680 --> 00:39:31.760 or in the past instead of inviting God into the transformational process that he 516 00:39:31.760 --> 00:39:33.720 wants to bring you into and through. 517 00:39:34.200 --> 00:39:37.480 Maybe you're trying to heal your own emotional wounds without letting God into 518 00:39:37.480 --> 00:39:41.320 the painful places. And Hey, you all, sometimes even the reality is this. 519 00:39:42.000 --> 00:39:44.240 I've had a lot of people ask me, you know, 520 00:39:44.240 --> 00:39:47.320 I've already done a lot of programs. I've already done a lot of this work. 521 00:39:47.640 --> 00:39:49.480 You know, why am I ever going to be free? 522 00:39:49.480 --> 00:39:53.320 Am I ever going to get to the point that I don't feel like I have to do all of 523 00:39:53.320 --> 00:39:55.840 this work over and over and over. 524 00:39:56.240 --> 00:39:58.400 And my answer for you is maybe 525 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.780 Maybe I don't think everybody needs to be in the ICU all the time 526 00:40:03.780 --> 00:40:07.600 I tell ladies in here, you know when they're here for over a year and 527 00:40:08.100 --> 00:40:12.260 They've been showing up consistently if they're done with the course and they're still there 528 00:40:12.260 --> 00:40:16.520 It's not that we don't want them here, but it's not healthy. I even this weekend 529 00:40:16.520 --> 00:40:22.000 I was reading a book about prayer and in that it was talking about a very similar concept 530 00:40:23.160 --> 00:40:27.560 We're not meant to be in an ICU long term in a hospital 531 00:40:28.560 --> 00:40:31.680 Right if we're in the ICU too long 532 00:40:32.600 --> 00:40:34.600 You know, there's different 533 00:40:34.640 --> 00:40:41.240 different things that they they look at, you know, and oftentimes at least from my experience my mom got moved to a 534 00:40:42.320 --> 00:40:45.160 Nursing home facility. She was in the ICU too long 535 00:40:45.160 --> 00:40:50.440 It wasn't good for her to just be in there, but she wasn't ready to go to a step-down room 536 00:40:51.440 --> 00:40:53.440 And 537 00:40:54.480 --> 00:40:59.440 So she went into a nursing home that had high level of medical care 538 00:41:01.080 --> 00:41:06.200 Sometimes we need those step-downs too, but if you're hanging out for too long some of you 539 00:41:06.200 --> 00:41:09.440 it's because you believe that life is always supposed to be hard and 540 00:41:10.440 --> 00:41:16.520 You need to go have fun. You need to laugh and you need to experience God's joy as well 541 00:41:17.240 --> 00:41:23.880 John 14 25 through 27 says this all this have I all this I have spoken while still with you 542 00:41:23.880 --> 00:41:28.440 But the Advocate the Holy Spirit whom the Father will send in my name will teach you all 543 00:41:28.800 --> 00:41:34.600 Things and will remind you of everything. I have said to you. Peace. I leave with you my peace 544 00:41:34.600 --> 00:41:42.600 I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives don't let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid 545 00:41:43.360 --> 00:41:48.160 You guys are gonna hear us talk about this over and over again about don't dig don't dig 546 00:41:48.440 --> 00:41:52.960 The goal is for you to ask the Lord to reveal areas for healing 547 00:41:53.760 --> 00:41:56.560 You know what? I mean by that for some of you 548 00:41:56.560 --> 00:42:00.320 It's okay to maybe talk to your mom or whoever a little bit 549 00:42:00.640 --> 00:42:06.640 but I would not encourage you all to get on the phone with all your aunts and uncles and all your parents and whoever and 550 00:42:07.000 --> 00:42:13.200 Just go diggin into your life and what happened because you know, what can happen is you can actually 551 00:42:13.880 --> 00:42:19.560 The enemy can use that to re traumatize you and and really create some problems for you 552 00:42:19.560 --> 00:42:25.440 So it's better for you to trust that the Lord will reveal things to you at the right 553 00:42:26.120 --> 00:42:28.120 appointed time 554 00:42:28.760 --> 00:42:33.680 Yeah living from the heart not just head yeah, of course 555 00:42:34.680 --> 00:42:37.640 If you're a very analytical thinker 556 00:42:37.640 --> 00:42:44.000 I'm gonna encourage you to ask the Lord to help you step out of that over thinking things a 557 00:42:45.960 --> 00:42:52.400 Lot of that overthinking can also drive anxiousness which can go into that whole anxious attachment style 558 00:42:53.560 --> 00:43:00.400 Those come from woundedness do am I saying that we will never feel anxious ever know what I am saying though 559 00:43:00.400 --> 00:43:02.400 there's a different level of 560 00:43:02.600 --> 00:43:09.000 Anxiousness and anxiety that stems from wounds of like we don't really believe God loves us 561 00:43:09.000 --> 00:43:11.000 We don't feel his safety 562 00:43:11.280 --> 00:43:14.560 It often comes out of a lot of abandonment neglect 563 00:43:15.480 --> 00:43:17.480 rejection as children 564 00:43:17.960 --> 00:43:21.160 yes adults to you, but typically when you're kids and 565 00:43:21.760 --> 00:43:25.640 You might have had good parents amazing parents and you can still feel 566 00:43:26.200 --> 00:43:32.360 Abandoned or rejected if you're a parent like I have a lot of women that their dad was like working all the time 567 00:43:33.040 --> 00:43:39.280 To provide for their family and they knew their dad loved them, but he was always busy 568 00:43:42.760 --> 00:43:50.240 For some people that is like a real massive wound because they believe that God is too busy for them 569 00:43:52.200 --> 00:43:54.200 See how that works 570 00:43:54.240 --> 00:43:56.200 Yeah 571 00:43:56.200 --> 00:43:58.880 So we want to trust what God brings up at the time 572 00:43:58.880 --> 00:44:03.360 He brings it up lean into the Holy Spirit, and I love to use the phrase pull the thread 573 00:44:04.080 --> 00:44:09.360 What I mean by that is that sometimes you're gonna have a memory pop up in your mind 574 00:44:09.720 --> 00:44:13.400 And you might think oh my gosh. I haven't thought of that in ages I 575 00:44:14.160 --> 00:44:18.720 Want you to pull the thread because the Lord is showing you that what I mean by that is Lord 576 00:44:19.680 --> 00:44:21.520 huh, I 577 00:44:21.520 --> 00:44:25.560 Had this memory pop up today, and I don't know what you're trying to show me 578 00:44:25.560 --> 00:44:28.800 Can you reveal to me what what it is you want me to know about that? 579 00:44:29.360 --> 00:44:31.360 It could be a good memory too 580 00:44:31.480 --> 00:44:38.440 Doesn't have to all be bad you all because what can happen to is when the hard stuff comes up a lot of times when 581 00:44:38.440 --> 00:44:42.640 We go through trauma unfortunately the good stuff gets taken down with the hard stuff 582 00:44:42.640 --> 00:44:47.200 And so when we're healing and we're processing this stuff some of the good stuff starts to bubble up 583 00:44:47.200 --> 00:44:51.960 And you're like oh my gosh. I forgot that my mom used to do that for me I 584 00:44:53.000 --> 00:44:57.120 Had that happen just recently regarding my mom like oh my gosh like I totally 585 00:44:57.760 --> 00:45:00.000 Did not remember that at all until this 586 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.640 thing happened and it was just like, oh my gosh, like my mom actually was, you know, 587 00:45:04.640 --> 00:45:10.640 really tried to teach me how to be responsible so I could take care of myself. You know, 588 00:45:10.640 --> 00:45:15.600 some little things that we sometimes take for granted. Alright, so here's your question for 589 00:45:15.600 --> 00:45:22.320 breakout sessions tonight. What are some things God is nudging you to surrender to Him this 590 00:45:22.320 --> 00:45:29.040 evening? What are some things that God is nudging you to surrender to Him, excuse me, tonight? 591 00:45:29.040 --> 00:45:37.680 Let me go ahead and get our breakout rooms ready. I've been liking doing three because I feel like 592 00:45:37.680 --> 00:45:41.760 you guys have a little bit more social, it feels a little more social hopefully for you in a good 593 00:45:41.760 --> 00:45:47.600 way. Arianne, you can just not, like if anyone isn't able to go into your room, just don't accept 594 00:45:47.600 --> 00:45:56.720 it. I'll move people around. I'll give you all, let's see here, if I do. Alright, we have plenty 595 00:45:56.720 --> 00:46:00.800 of time. So I'm going to give you all nine minutes. I know that might sound long, but it'll go really 596 00:46:00.800 --> 00:46:05.200 fast. It gives about three minutes for each person if there are three people in the room. 597 00:46:05.760 --> 00:46:09.600 And so you're going to answer the question, what are some things God is nudging you to 598 00:46:09.600 --> 00:46:14.320 surrender to Him tonight? Remember, short, brief, and powerful so that everybody in the room has a 599 00:46:14.320 --> 00:46:18.720 chance to share. If you have extra time left, share where you're from. Share what brought you 600 00:46:18.720 --> 00:46:24.320 to this community. Share something fun you did today. You get to pick, but if you have extra time 601 00:46:24.320 --> 00:46:29.440 after you guys, all the people in the group answered that question, I would encourage you to 602 00:46:29.440 --> 00:46:35.360 share. And if any of you are afraid to go into breakout, please step out of that comfort zone 603 00:46:35.360 --> 00:46:39.840 and that place and really get kind of bold, you know, trusting the Lord to empower you to do it. 604 00:46:39.840 --> 00:46:44.480 It really, really is good for you. Okay, that should be up on your screen. Go ahead and click to join 605 00:46:44.480 --> 00:46:50.480 that as quick as you can. I saw Sandra just came in. So once I get everyone situated, Sandra, 606 00:46:50.480 --> 00:47:04.240 I'll get you into a room as well. And as soon as I get everyone situated here, I will start to pray. 607 00:47:04.240 --> 00:47:08.000 Awesome. 608 00:47:20.880 --> 00:47:26.080 Trying to make sure people don't end up by themselves. All right, Father, thank you so 609 00:47:26.080 --> 00:47:30.560 much for all that you're doing tonight. Thank you for your Holy Spirit being here. 610 00:47:30.960 --> 00:47:38.240 Thank you that we are more than enough for you. Thank you that we're more than enough for the path 611 00:47:38.240 --> 00:47:42.560 that you have chosen for us, God. We thank you for revealings for healing that are happening now 612 00:47:43.360 --> 00:47:48.480 in the rooms here in this main space, in our group and community as people are sharing their 613 00:47:48.480 --> 00:47:57.040 posts. God, we thank you that you would help women to come alive, to awaken, to, yeah, Lord, 614 00:47:57.600 --> 00:48:03.920 remember the simple times and the moments of blessing where you met them on their journey 615 00:48:03.920 --> 00:48:07.440 and their path. And God, I thank you that tonight that you would help them to 616 00:48:08.000 --> 00:48:15.280 be reminded of your provision for them, God, that you have lovingly pursued them all along. 617 00:48:16.720 --> 00:48:21.440 I thank you, God, that you would, yes, Lord, just show them that you are their defender, 618 00:48:22.400 --> 00:48:27.600 that you are the one that looks out for them, that loves them, that leads them into all truth, 619 00:48:27.600 --> 00:48:32.240 that you'll anoint them for all of their lives and walk and calling, and that you'll lead them 620 00:48:32.240 --> 00:48:38.000 deeper into the revelation of who Jesus Christ is tonight. God, I thank you for a fresh revelation 621 00:48:38.000 --> 00:48:45.840 for each one of them of who you are as love. Yeah, Lord, that you would help them to understand who 622 00:48:45.840 --> 00:48:53.120 you are as love and the power and the security that standing in your love can bring them. 623 00:48:53.840 --> 00:49:01.520 God, I thank you that you would just continue to set our souls on fire for you, that you would 624 00:49:01.520 --> 00:49:07.360 fan the flames of hunger and thirst for your righteousness, for your word, God, that we would 625 00:49:07.360 --> 00:49:12.720 never be satisfied with less than your best for us. God, that we wouldn't become picky religious 626 00:49:12.720 --> 00:49:17.360 people, but God, that we would understand and recognize the blessings that you have in front of 627 00:49:17.360 --> 00:49:21.600 us. God, just like the picture, you know, some people don't love this picture, but it comes to 628 00:49:21.600 --> 00:49:26.720 mind. It was something that really spoke to me where the little girl, you know, she's got her 629 00:49:26.720 --> 00:49:31.840 teddy bear and she's holding it and she's standing in front of Jesus and he's got a big teddy bear 630 00:49:31.840 --> 00:49:37.200 behind his back. He's waiting to give her that big teddy bear, but she has to be willing to let go of 631 00:49:37.200 --> 00:49:43.520 the little one that she currently has in her hands. So God, we thank you that you give us the ability. 632 00:49:45.680 --> 00:49:52.240 Yes, Lord, to surrender whatever relationships need to be surrendered. If there's any 633 00:49:52.240 --> 00:49:56.560 situationships represented by anyone in this heart work group and community, God, 634 00:49:56.560 --> 00:50:00.000 we ask you to give them the courage to let go of unhealthy relationships. 635 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.440 that are not serving them, maybe unhealthy friendships, 636 00:50:03.440 --> 00:50:08.440 maybe even unhealthy work dynamics and situations 637 00:50:08.440 --> 00:50:10.760 based on the job that they are currently in. 638 00:50:11.920 --> 00:50:14.960 God, even as I was watching a little clip of a movie 639 00:50:14.960 --> 00:50:19.320 tonight before I came on, there was this young lady 640 00:50:19.320 --> 00:50:23.160 who started coming alive and she had kind of always 641 00:50:23.160 --> 00:50:25.360 had her path planned out for her, 642 00:50:25.360 --> 00:50:28.520 but someone was sent into her path 643 00:50:28.520 --> 00:50:29.920 and the way that he lived her life 644 00:50:29.920 --> 00:50:31.840 caused her to feel more free, 645 00:50:31.840 --> 00:50:35.280 caused her to experience life in a whole new way 646 00:50:35.280 --> 00:50:39.380 and she realized that she had never really thought about, 647 00:50:39.380 --> 00:50:40.920 God, what your purpose is for her. 648 00:50:40.920 --> 00:50:42.720 So Lord, I pray that you would help the ladies 649 00:50:42.720 --> 00:50:44.680 ask you that question too. 650 00:50:44.680 --> 00:50:47.040 God, what's your purpose and your plan for me? 651 00:50:47.040 --> 00:50:49.600 But God, that that wouldn't feel so heavy and big 652 00:50:49.600 --> 00:50:51.480 that they can't step forward. 653 00:50:51.480 --> 00:50:54.520 God, that you would show them, that you'll reveal to them 654 00:50:54.520 --> 00:50:57.200 day by day by day what your plan 655 00:50:57.200 --> 00:50:58.800 and your purpose is for them. 656 00:50:58.800 --> 00:51:00.680 God, I thank you that you would take them back 657 00:51:00.680 --> 00:51:05.460 to the original plan and design that you had for them 658 00:51:05.460 --> 00:51:06.300 when you created them. 659 00:51:06.300 --> 00:51:07.940 God, that you would give them glimpses 660 00:51:07.940 --> 00:51:10.440 of who you originally created them to be. 661 00:51:12.160 --> 00:51:13.720 God, and that you would help all of us, 662 00:51:13.720 --> 00:51:17.240 myself included, step further into those identities 663 00:51:17.240 --> 00:51:18.620 every day. 664 00:51:20.340 --> 00:51:21.920 Proverbs 13, 12 says, 665 00:51:21.920 --> 00:51:25.880 "'Unrelenting disappointment leaves you heartsick, 666 00:51:25.880 --> 00:51:30.280 but a sudden good break can turn life around.'" 667 00:51:30.280 --> 00:51:32.420 God, I thank you for sudden good breaks 668 00:51:32.420 --> 00:51:35.240 and sudden leaves happening in these ladies' lives, 669 00:51:35.240 --> 00:51:37.040 one after the other, after the other. 670 00:51:37.040 --> 00:51:39.900 God, that you would literally come in 671 00:51:39.900 --> 00:51:42.380 and fill their hope takes tonight, 672 00:51:43.280 --> 00:51:46.280 that they would fill up to overflowing. 673 00:51:47.800 --> 00:51:52.120 Yeah, Lord, that joy unspeakable and full of glory 674 00:51:52.120 --> 00:51:52.960 would be theirs. 675 00:51:52.960 --> 00:51:54.000 Sorry, I'm getting... 676 00:51:56.480 --> 00:51:57.900 Really dry. 677 00:51:57.900 --> 00:51:59.540 When I talk constantly too long, 678 00:51:59.540 --> 00:52:01.000 that's what starts happening. 679 00:52:02.900 --> 00:52:06.440 But yeah, Lord, so that we can receive 680 00:52:06.440 --> 00:52:07.720 all that you have for us, 681 00:52:07.720 --> 00:52:11.660 let us never underestimate the power of your glory, 682 00:52:11.660 --> 00:52:13.880 the power of your presence in our lives. 683 00:52:13.880 --> 00:52:17.120 Proverbs 3, 5 in the message translation says this, 684 00:52:17.120 --> 00:52:19.440 "'Trust God from the bottom of your heart. 685 00:52:19.440 --> 00:52:22.460 Don't try to figure out everything on your own. 686 00:52:22.460 --> 00:52:25.640 Listen for God's voice in everything that you do, 687 00:52:26.320 --> 00:52:27.360 everywhere that you go. 688 00:52:27.360 --> 00:52:29.880 He's the one who will keep you on track. 689 00:52:29.880 --> 00:52:33.680 Don't assume that you know it all." 690 00:52:35.240 --> 00:52:36.640 Don't assume that we know it all. 691 00:52:36.640 --> 00:52:39.400 So Lord, I thank you that we don't know. 692 00:52:39.400 --> 00:52:41.380 We don't know a lot. 693 00:52:41.380 --> 00:52:43.280 And Lord, if these ladies are anything like me, 694 00:52:43.280 --> 00:52:45.400 sometimes, man, we think of the future 695 00:52:45.400 --> 00:52:47.500 and we just wanna know all the details. 696 00:52:47.500 --> 00:52:50.440 We would love to know it in advance every single time. 697 00:52:50.440 --> 00:52:52.600 But God, I thank you that you would help us to grow 698 00:52:52.600 --> 00:52:54.320 in our ability to trust you. 699 00:52:55.160 --> 00:52:57.560 God, as we go, that you're the voice behind us, 700 00:52:57.560 --> 00:52:58.740 telling us the way to go, 701 00:52:58.740 --> 00:53:00.440 that you are the lamp unto our feet 702 00:53:00.440 --> 00:53:01.960 and the light unto our path, 703 00:53:01.960 --> 00:53:03.680 that we don't have to fear or be afraid 704 00:53:03.680 --> 00:53:05.600 because fear has to do with torment. 705 00:53:05.600 --> 00:53:07.920 So God, we lean into you. 706 00:53:09.200 --> 00:53:11.560 Yes, Lord, I thank you that your perfect love 707 00:53:11.560 --> 00:53:13.840 casts out all fear. 708 00:53:16.200 --> 00:53:19.120 Help us to center ourselves in your perfect love. 709 00:53:19.120 --> 00:53:21.560 God, I pray for a fresh wave of grace 710 00:53:21.560 --> 00:53:24.960 to wash over every one of these ladies tonight, 711 00:53:24.960 --> 00:53:29.280 those watching the replay all throughout the week. 712 00:53:31.480 --> 00:53:36.400 Help us to feel your grace kind of swirling around us, Lord, 713 00:53:36.400 --> 00:53:41.040 to envision our lives better today than they were yesterday, 714 00:53:41.040 --> 00:53:43.520 better tomorrow than they were today. 715 00:53:43.520 --> 00:53:46.840 God, I thank you that we will run the race 716 00:53:46.840 --> 00:53:49.940 in such a way as we will be able to win the prize 717 00:53:49.940 --> 00:53:52.500 that has set before us by you, God. 718 00:53:52.500 --> 00:53:54.420 I thank you that we... 719 00:53:54.420 --> 00:53:57.420 Yes, Lord, we allow you to enable us 720 00:53:57.420 --> 00:53:59.020 to lay aside every weight 721 00:53:59.020 --> 00:54:01.980 that typically would ensnare us in the past, 722 00:54:01.980 --> 00:54:04.500 but no longer will it ensnare us in the days to come. 723 00:54:04.500 --> 00:54:08.820 God, I thank you that you're literally cutting bondages 724 00:54:08.820 --> 00:54:12.420 of the enemy chains and shackles, 725 00:54:12.420 --> 00:54:14.900 chains and shackles, I said that funny, 726 00:54:14.900 --> 00:54:16.540 off of all of us tonight. 727 00:54:16.540 --> 00:54:19.460 God, I pray for minds being transformed right now 728 00:54:22.060 --> 00:54:26.000 where ladies look at the glass and they see it half empty. 729 00:54:26.000 --> 00:54:27.100 They actually see it very... 730 00:54:27.100 --> 00:54:28.500 What I keep seeing is a glass 731 00:54:28.500 --> 00:54:31.100 and it's just got a little bit of milk in it. 732 00:54:31.100 --> 00:54:33.380 Specifically, milk is what I saw in the glass. 733 00:54:33.380 --> 00:54:37.100 And I just heard the Lord say that some people's minds, 734 00:54:37.100 --> 00:54:38.740 that that's just how they look at life. 735 00:54:38.740 --> 00:54:42.220 And so, Lord, I pray for transformation in their minds. 736 00:54:42.220 --> 00:54:45.260 And milk, it's like the meat and the milk. 737 00:54:45.260 --> 00:54:48.060 The milk is the beginning stages of the word. 738 00:54:48.060 --> 00:54:50.980 And so, Lord, I'm asking you to fill them up 739 00:54:50.980 --> 00:54:53.660 with an understanding and a revelation of your word. 740 00:54:53.660 --> 00:54:56.300 Let it be exciting when they read your word. 741 00:54:56.300 --> 00:54:59.260 I pray that you would illuminate scriptures to them. 742 00:54:59.260 --> 00:55:00.580 God, that when they read... 743 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:03.360 devotions, that they would just sense you speaking directly to them. 744 00:55:03.680 --> 00:55:08.240 God, we thank you for intimacy, intimacy with you, that we get to be in 745 00:55:08.240 --> 00:55:11.640 relationship with you, Jesus, as you are in relationship with the Father, 746 00:55:12.240 --> 00:55:14.480 that you died so that we could have that. 747 00:55:15.280 --> 00:55:16.040 Thank you. 748 00:55:18.680 --> 00:55:24.960 Help us to not get so accustomed to who you are, Jesus, as the Messiah that we 749 00:55:24.960 --> 00:55:28.240 just, I was reading something today, ladies, where it was talking about, you 750 00:55:28.240 --> 00:55:31.320 know, we have shirts with Jesus on it and cups with Jesus on it and pens and 751 00:55:31.320 --> 00:55:35.480 all this stuff, and we've just really commercialized him, and I pray that he 752 00:55:35.480 --> 00:55:40.640 would encounter all of you in a fresh way, and that we would all have a 753 00:55:40.640 --> 00:55:46.120 revelation of the power of who Jesus is, that we would know him more as the 754 00:55:46.120 --> 00:55:50.360 Messiah, the Prince of Peace, Mighty One. 755 00:55:51.440 --> 00:55:54.520 And I thank you, God, for what you're doing in our lives, even right now. 756 00:55:54.520 --> 00:55:59.680 1 John 3.20 in the Passion Translation says this, wherever our hearts make us 757 00:55:59.680 --> 00:56:05.040 feel guilty and remind us of our failures, we know that God is much greater and 758 00:56:05.040 --> 00:56:10.480 more merciful than our conscience, and he knows everything there is to know about us. 759 00:56:12.640 --> 00:56:13.440 It's pretty awesome. 760 00:56:13.440 --> 00:56:15.680 He knows everything there is to know about us. 761 00:56:15.680 --> 00:56:20.960 He, you know, makes things whiter, as you know, the red, the crimson red, he 762 00:56:21.520 --> 00:56:25.120 makes it all white as snow, nothing, nothing is too hard for him. 763 00:56:25.440 --> 00:56:31.200 So as y'all are coming back, I've been praying and talking and reading scripture. 764 00:56:31.880 --> 00:56:36.560 What the Lord led me to right at the end was, you know, our sins that were red, 765 00:56:36.560 --> 00:56:41.760 you know, that crimson red, that scarlet, that he makes them all white as snow. 766 00:56:41.760 --> 00:56:48.400 And so I just want to remind you that, you know, even in those moments where we 767 00:56:48.880 --> 00:56:53.920 fall short of God's glory, where we fall short, even we stumble in the heartwork 768 00:56:53.920 --> 00:56:56.320 process, maybe some of us got distracted. 769 00:56:56.320 --> 00:57:00.560 Maybe some of us talk to a guy or, you know, we just do things that we know 770 00:57:00.560 --> 00:57:01.400 aren't good for us. 771 00:57:01.400 --> 00:57:06.760 And some of us, just like Paul, we're like, I want to do this good thing, but why am I 772 00:57:06.760 --> 00:57:07.720 not doing that? 773 00:57:07.720 --> 00:57:10.680 But I'm doing the things that I don't want to do. 774 00:57:10.680 --> 00:57:15.360 Anyone else ever, sometimes I'm like, man, I really want to just get in that room and 775 00:57:15.360 --> 00:57:19.440 pray extra today and then the busyness of life or something happens. 776 00:57:19.440 --> 00:57:22.320 Yeah, so we're not alone. 777 00:57:22.320 --> 00:57:28.560 And I just want to encourage you that you can start again, you can start fresh. 778 00:57:28.560 --> 00:57:30.400 Every day is new. 779 00:57:30.400 --> 00:57:34.560 All right, activations for this week, I'm going to go over those really quick. 780 00:57:34.560 --> 00:57:37.600 Number one activation is complete the permission slip. 781 00:57:37.600 --> 00:57:41.520 So if you haven't done that already, if you're brand new, the permission slip is 782 00:57:41.520 --> 00:57:43.440 going to be in your welcome section as well. 783 00:57:43.440 --> 00:57:47.520 As week one, I want to encourage you to print that out, fill it out. 784 00:57:47.520 --> 00:57:51.360 And for our ladies that have already printed that out before, maybe you've already done 785 00:57:51.360 --> 00:57:55.280 it, want you to get that back out because you're still here and you're hearing me. 786 00:57:55.280 --> 00:57:59.520 So let's get that back out, revisit it, make sure there's nothing else that you need to 787 00:57:59.520 --> 00:58:00.720 surrender to the Lord. 788 00:58:00.720 --> 00:58:05.760 And then I want you to put it up somewhere that you can see it every day. 789 00:58:05.760 --> 00:58:11.040 And that prayer that's on there, I encourage you to pray that out loud. 790 00:58:11.200 --> 00:58:14.080 That out loud over yourself. 791 00:58:14.080 --> 00:58:16.960 Okay, I'm really big on praying out loud. 792 00:58:16.960 --> 00:58:21.440 Some of y'all aren't used to even hearing your own voice, you know, practicing praying 793 00:58:21.440 --> 00:58:22.160 out loud. 794 00:58:22.160 --> 00:58:28.400 It's, it's one of the, for me, when the enemy is assaulting me, one of the quickest 795 00:58:28.400 --> 00:58:33.520 ways I have found to get him to flee is worship and praying the word of God out loud, like 796 00:58:33.520 --> 00:58:36.000 just declaring scripture out loud. 797 00:58:36.000 --> 00:58:39.120 He can't stay where the light is residing. 798 00:58:39.120 --> 00:58:40.320 You just can't. 799 00:58:40.320 --> 00:58:45.600 And you might have to do it for a while because some people get really assaulted by demonic 800 00:58:45.600 --> 00:58:46.560 spiritual things. 801 00:58:47.520 --> 00:58:50.880 Depending on what you're coming out of, you might experience different levels of that. 802 00:58:50.880 --> 00:58:53.120 But I want you to know it's not going to last forever. 803 00:58:53.760 --> 00:58:56.880 Okay, it shouldn't last forever like that. 804 00:58:56.880 --> 00:59:00.880 But if you really, really struggle with that, you know, hopefully you will seek additional 805 00:59:00.880 --> 00:59:05.440 help locally through your church and prayer ministries that are there. 806 00:59:05.440 --> 00:59:08.960 All right, number two, Jesus Cares Board that I talked about earlier. 807 00:59:08.960 --> 00:59:13.120 Okay, so go ahead and complete your Jesus Cares Board, work on it. 808 00:59:13.120 --> 00:59:16.000 You don't have to have it all the way finished to post about it. 809 00:59:16.000 --> 00:59:21.120 But I want to hear like, hey, how did this, like, how was that process for you? 810 00:59:21.120 --> 00:59:25.920 It doesn't have to be super long post, but like, was that hard to cast your cares? 811 00:59:25.920 --> 00:59:29.920 You know, were you like, I don't know what all to put on the board, whatever that is 812 00:59:29.920 --> 00:59:30.800 for you. 813 00:59:30.800 --> 00:59:32.160 Let us know how that goes. 814 00:59:32.160 --> 00:59:34.800 And then let's see, do I have anything else for you? 815 00:59:34.800 --> 00:59:37.760 Okay, I'm going to put these also up in the group. 816 00:59:39.120 --> 00:59:42.400 I created this maybe like a year or two ago. 817 00:59:42.400 --> 00:59:44.880 And I just think that this is helping a lot of people. 818 00:59:44.880 --> 00:59:47.200 So you don't have to write this all down right now. 819 00:59:47.200 --> 00:59:48.560 I am going to put it in the group. 820 00:59:48.560 --> 00:59:51.120 If I don't put it up tonight, I will put it up in the morning. 821 00:59:51.120 --> 00:59:53.840 I call them morning and evening surrender moments. 822 00:59:53.840 --> 00:59:58.800 Okay, they're very similar, but they are a little different in the morning. 823 00:59:58.800 --> 00:59:59.920 So I would encourage you all to. 824 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:04.060 kind of write this out and keep it like, again, preferably not on your phone. 825 01:00:04.060 --> 01:00:09.100 I'm really finding that when I turn my phone on, even to like look at prayer 826 01:00:09.100 --> 01:00:12.060 things, I get, you know, messages and then it gets distracting. 827 01:00:12.460 --> 01:00:17.360 So if I can keep my phone like out of the picture in the morning or at night 828 01:00:17.360 --> 01:00:20.900 before I go to bed for certain amounts of time, if I'm trying to kind of get 829 01:00:20.900 --> 01:00:24.660 into this place that I'm talking to you all about, it's been really helpful. 830 01:00:24.660 --> 01:00:29.020 So in the morning, here is the prayer before getting out of bed, place 831 01:00:29.020 --> 01:00:35.480 your hand on your heart and ask, Holy Spirit, what am I trying to roll today? 832 01:00:35.840 --> 01:00:36.040 Oops. 833 01:00:36.040 --> 01:00:36.240 Sorry. 834 01:00:36.240 --> 01:00:37.120 I got a little feedback. 835 01:00:37.120 --> 01:00:37.760 Hold on one sec. 836 01:00:39.880 --> 01:00:40.560 Holy spirit. 837 01:00:40.560 --> 01:00:42.480 What am I trying to control today? 838 01:00:42.480 --> 01:00:44.320 That belongs to you. 839 01:00:46.080 --> 01:00:49.520 Then whatever he said shows you, then you're going to speak it out. 840 01:00:49.740 --> 01:00:51.880 I surrender my need to control. 841 01:00:52.540 --> 01:00:54.280 Whatever that is today. 842 01:00:54.840 --> 01:00:58.080 So for example, we had a situation that over the weekend, while we 843 01:00:58.080 --> 01:01:02.420 were in the rest, you know, pattern come up with one of our staff members. 844 01:01:02.820 --> 01:01:07.020 And I felt myself getting upset by something that they said and the way 845 01:01:07.020 --> 01:01:12.060 they talked to me and here I am supposed to be resting, see how the enemy tries to 846 01:01:12.060 --> 01:01:12.540 work. 847 01:01:13.540 --> 01:01:17.100 And so I had to like, I worked on that a little bit to process it in my 848 01:01:17.100 --> 01:01:18.100 heart while we were there. 849 01:01:18.100 --> 01:01:20.060 And then I made the conscious choice. 850 01:01:20.460 --> 01:01:24.180 I'm not going to handle this until we get home on Monday. 851 01:01:24.840 --> 01:01:28.680 Like we got home last night, but I, I didn't work on it last night either. 852 01:01:29.720 --> 01:01:32.840 I worked on it today when I started my work week again. 853 01:01:33.360 --> 01:01:33.600 All right. 854 01:01:33.600 --> 01:01:37.840 So some of y'all need to like, the reason I'm saying that is I needed to surrender 855 01:01:37.840 --> 01:01:41.200 the need to control or respond to that very quickly. 856 01:01:41.200 --> 01:01:43.960 Y'all I don't like, I don't like any kind of angst. 857 01:01:44.200 --> 01:01:48.080 And so I tend to want to deal with that right away, but that's not always the 858 01:01:48.080 --> 01:01:53.800 best thing because sometimes sitting without a few extra days gives you a 859 01:01:53.800 --> 01:01:55.180 little bit more perspective. 860 01:01:55.500 --> 01:02:00.580 I still see it very similar, but I feel like I gained more wisdom in the waiting. 861 01:02:01.700 --> 01:02:04.980 I gained some clarity on some other things about, you know, kind of their 862 01:02:04.980 --> 01:02:08.860 approach and some things God was showing me about, you know, I don't 863 01:02:08.860 --> 01:02:10.500 think they had evil intentions. 864 01:02:11.580 --> 01:02:14.380 I think that people have different maturity levels and sometimes people 865 01:02:14.380 --> 01:02:17.100 just say things that they're not really being wise about, right? 866 01:02:17.580 --> 01:02:18.620 So I can extend grace. 867 01:02:18.620 --> 01:02:20.060 I can surrender that control. 868 01:02:20.080 --> 01:02:24.520 I did address the situation, but God gave me everything I needed to do 869 01:02:24.520 --> 01:02:26.040 that because I waited with him. 870 01:02:26.360 --> 01:02:26.760 All right. 871 01:02:26.760 --> 01:02:30.160 Here's the evening one before you go to sleep, same kind of hand on your heart. 872 01:02:30.160 --> 01:02:31.080 I believe in that. 873 01:02:31.240 --> 01:02:34.040 Y'all sometimes I'll even, I'm going to show you just cause I have my little 874 01:02:34.040 --> 01:02:40.480 Bible here, sometimes I'll even just sit with my Bible, like just on me and just 875 01:02:40.480 --> 01:02:45.440 kind of breathe the word of God in, if you will, like I feel super close to 876 01:02:45.440 --> 01:02:49.640 the Lord just by having the word of God close to me, you might not feel that 877 01:02:49.740 --> 01:02:50.700 way, but that's how I feel. 878 01:02:50.700 --> 01:02:52.300 Like I love the Lord. 879 01:02:52.300 --> 01:02:53.660 I love reading his word. 880 01:02:53.660 --> 01:02:55.300 I love getting to know him. 881 01:02:55.820 --> 01:02:58.900 And so I, when I hold it close, I think about that. 882 01:02:58.900 --> 01:03:04.580 I think about how I feel when I read and I hear him or I pray and I see 883 01:03:04.580 --> 01:03:06.260 something that he wants to say to me. 884 01:03:07.100 --> 01:03:09.100 So it reminds me just having it close. 885 01:03:09.100 --> 01:03:14.580 It reminds me of that feeling that I get with him, but whatever works for you. 886 01:03:14.580 --> 01:03:15.080 Okay. 887 01:03:15.300 --> 01:03:17.900 Sometimes I'll just do a hand on my heart and that's it. 888 01:03:17.920 --> 01:03:21.840 But a lot of times, even in worship, you know, people will see me all the time. 889 01:03:21.840 --> 01:03:23.600 I'm standing, I have my hand on my heart. 890 01:03:23.840 --> 01:03:26.920 I just feel this divine connection for some reason when I do that. 891 01:03:26.920 --> 01:03:28.600 So that's why I recommend it to people. 892 01:03:29.120 --> 01:03:30.520 Um, but here's what you're going to ask. 893 01:03:30.520 --> 01:03:34.960 And this is again, at the end of your day, before you go to sleep, what did I 894 01:03:34.960 --> 01:03:38.920 pick back up today that I had given to you? 895 01:03:40.120 --> 01:03:44.920 So maybe you put something on your Jesus cares board and then you took it back off 896 01:03:44.920 --> 01:03:47.560 there, you know, that Jesus take the wheel and then we take it back. 897 01:03:47.560 --> 01:03:48.460 Jesus take the wheel. 898 01:03:48.460 --> 01:03:49.220 We take it back. 899 01:03:49.220 --> 01:03:49.420 Yeah. 900 01:03:49.420 --> 01:03:51.060 That's that whole scenario. 901 01:03:52.380 --> 01:03:55.480 Then you're going to re surrender it to Jesus before you go to bed. 902 01:03:55.480 --> 01:03:58.100 Jesus, I place whatever it is. 903 01:03:58.100 --> 01:04:01.420 So for me, Jesus, I place Michaela back in your hands. 904 01:04:01.420 --> 01:04:04.620 I place for salvation and our faith walk. 905 01:04:06.380 --> 01:04:08.980 Ooh, man, it feels good to do that. 906 01:04:11.220 --> 01:04:12.380 He's the savior. 907 01:04:12.940 --> 01:04:14.100 I'm not her savior. 908 01:04:14.880 --> 01:04:16.920 It's not our job to save people. 909 01:04:17.760 --> 01:04:21.640 It's our job to plant seeds and share the gospel and the truth with them in love. 910 01:04:22.680 --> 01:04:26.160 God, God is the only one it is his job to save them. 911 01:04:28.920 --> 01:04:29.520 All right. 912 01:04:30.160 --> 01:04:33.360 So if you guys are taking a lot of things on yourself that were never 913 01:04:33.360 --> 01:04:38.400 intended for you to be carrying, this is how getting into the supernatural 914 01:04:38.400 --> 01:04:40.240 surrender is a really good practice. 915 01:04:40.240 --> 01:04:42.620 And this is not a tool that you're just going to use during heartwork. 916 01:04:42.660 --> 01:04:47.580 I hope that you will literally keep your Jesus cares board in practice. 917 01:04:47.580 --> 01:04:48.580 I still use mine. 918 01:04:49.540 --> 01:04:50.420 I don't use it enough. 919 01:04:50.420 --> 01:04:54.500 I realized that on the rest, the refresh retreat, I'm like, Ooh, I should've put 920 01:04:54.500 --> 01:04:57.760 all these things that I was writing down the day that I was there onto the list. 921 01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:29.840 board. All right. All right. I'm going to open it up for group coaching. I see Yasha already has her hand up, which is awesome. If anyone else is feeling open to sharing what you shared in the breakout with everyone, and we can do some group coaching. I do want it to be focused on the supernatural surrender. If you got coaching in the afternoon session, I want to make sure that we let people that are in the evening session that didn't get a chance to go to the afternoon, for them to get coaching first. So some of you I know you might have gotten 922 01:05:29.840 --> 01:05:39.520 that. So I'll do my best to get to you as well. But if you had coaching this afternoon, that might be why I wait on some of y'all. All right, Yash, go ahead. 923 01:05:40.360 --> 01:05:57.120 Thanks, Bethany. So when you asked us to surrender, what I've been thinking about, I think this morning, something really came up when I was praying. So I've been, of course, working through the heart work and heart healing, with all the problems and 924 01:05:57.120 --> 01:06:26.960 activations that y'all were doing. So something that Lord put in my heart was that my heart is so fearful about the cultural experience. I mean, I call it trauma. When I experienced as a very young person. So I was born in Sri Lanka and raised there. And then I moved to Hong Kong about six years ago on by myself. And I'm the only child in the family. My parents still live in Sri Lanka. So I was born as a Buddhist. 925 01:06:26.960 --> 01:06:56.720 I got to know the Lord about about 10 years ago. And my parents also go to church, but they also follow Buddhism as well. So I would say they're on the fence. So they've always in the past, they have bought, brought, maybe tried to arrange marriages for me when I was in Sri Lanka. These people are not Christians. They were always Buddhist. So I mean, at that time, I did not know the Lord as well. So I considered them, I considered talking to them, but I did not have peace at all. 926 01:06:56.960 --> 01:07:26.800 At one point, I remember a couple of cases, I couldn't even breathe when I was talking to me talking to them. So it was the anxiety was that much. So then fast forward right now, I told my parents, listen, you need to allow me to pray about it and allow the Lord to open the doors for that and be open to it. And I think today I realized in the morning that I sometimes think of God as the same way I think of my parents, that if he 927 01:07:26.800 --> 01:07:44.920 brings something to me that I do not have any peace or attraction, it means that I'm being disobedient. And it's just that I need to understand God is different than my parents. So if you have any helpful tips with any, I'm really all open to hear for it. 928 01:07:45.920 --> 01:08:11.800 Yeah, and honestly, Yash, sometimes it's just working it out on paper. Okay. So for example, sometimes I've had to literally write out, you know, whatever it is I'm processing, if it's a person, you know, I was considering talking to you or the situation or dynamic. And just that reminding myself that God, you are not my parents. 929 01:08:12.600 --> 01:08:19.000 I trust that you have good things in store for me. And you have my best interest at heart. 930 01:08:19.000 --> 01:08:47.640 So for example, when I was saying earlier tonight, how the enemy had been lying to me about, you know, some areas with the, you know, things in my own life, and not really having enough time to grieve. And I really think that's what opened the door to the Lord. And so, or excuse me, to the enemy, to come in further. And so for whatever it's worth, I kind of am thinking about that a little bit as you're talking about this dynamic with your parents, because I know that you have to be open to it. 931 01:08:47.640 --> 01:09:10.040 Because I know that you have good parents, we've talked about your parents quite a bit, I know they had good intentions for you, introducing you to those people to get married. But the reality is, is trust on some level was broken, which would, which is what causes you to struggle to trust that God would have something good in store for you. 932 01:09:10.040 --> 01:09:39.960 And so I want to encourage you, kind of what keeps coming to mind is like, I'm asking God to heal that, what I keep seeing is like a hole, but there's a bridge going over it. Like, you know, a lot of times we think it has to be like, you know, God is going to literally fill the hole, and He will, but sometimes He gives us a bridge to kind of go over that thing for now. 933 01:09:40.359 --> 01:09:53.720 Because sometimes until we're in a situation, it just might not be the fullness, like we might heal some, but then there will come a day when we're like, man, that just kind of helped me like really get over that thing. 934 01:09:54.200 --> 01:09:59.880 And so for whatever it's worth, I know that's not necessarily tangible things, but I'm just 935 01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.840 telling you, like, I feel like really asking God to heal the 936 01:10:05.840 --> 01:10:08.440 wounds of because you're saying, you know, they were sending 937 01:10:08.440 --> 01:10:11.520 non Christian people your way. And there's all this pressure, 938 01:10:11.520 --> 01:10:20.640 pressure culturally to marry. And so reminding you that Jesus 939 01:10:20.640 --> 01:10:26.760 is your bridge. Like, he's the bridge. He's the way, you know, 940 01:10:26.760 --> 01:10:33.400 and so he can enable you to almost just keep hearing to 941 01:10:33.400 --> 01:10:38.840 release your parents from from that, like, they were genuinely 942 01:10:38.840 --> 01:10:44.680 doing what they know to do. And so I think if you can release 943 01:10:44.680 --> 01:10:50.240 them, like just release them fully, and let go of any anger 944 01:10:50.280 --> 01:10:54.680 and disappointment. For doing that, I again, I'm just sharing 945 01:10:54.680 --> 01:10:57.080 as things are coming to me, if it doesn't resonate, you can 946 01:10:57.080 --> 01:11:03.960 just pitch it, but that you will be able to then bypass, if you 947 01:11:03.960 --> 01:11:08.600 will, that in the future, where it's not going to feel like this 948 01:11:08.600 --> 01:11:11.640 big, like, God, I don't think you have good things, I think 949 01:11:11.640 --> 01:11:15.120 that it's going to start to heal more. And you know, those things 950 01:11:15.120 --> 01:11:18.240 take time, especially when you're still in some of that 951 01:11:18.240 --> 01:11:22.720 cultural pressure, because, I mean, your parents are still 952 01:11:22.720 --> 01:11:27.840 your parents, right? Sometimes we go through things, and people 953 01:11:27.840 --> 01:11:32.680 are bringing something back up. And they don't mean to open a 954 01:11:32.680 --> 01:11:35.560 wound back up. But every time it happens, it kind of does that, 955 01:11:35.560 --> 01:11:41.000 right? And so I'm, yeah, those are the couple things that I 956 01:11:41.000 --> 01:11:43.360 have tonight. And I know, we've chatted about this before. And 957 01:11:43.360 --> 01:11:46.760 so I'm trying to really lean into something new, as well. 958 01:11:47.400 --> 01:11:51.040 Sorry, I just want to add one more thing. Because I mean, 959 01:11:51.040 --> 01:11:53.960 those days, whenever I told them, no, this is not the one, 960 01:11:53.960 --> 01:11:58.280 then they said, you're too choosy. You always say no. And 961 01:11:58.320 --> 01:12:02.000 I mean, I felt so disappointed, right? So I think I carried that 962 01:12:02.320 --> 01:12:07.840 into all those years. And even now that I have this fear of 963 01:12:07.840 --> 01:12:11.680 disappointing my parents and disappointing, disappointed 964 01:12:11.680 --> 01:12:18.120 about myself for, you know, not having the prompt to move 965 01:12:18.160 --> 01:12:22.200 forward with those options or any other options. So 966 01:12:23.520 --> 01:12:25.880 do you still need to forgive yourself for this? I feel like 967 01:12:25.880 --> 01:12:28.080 this, we've circled back to this, you know what I'm saying? 968 01:12:28.400 --> 01:12:31.720 And that's not bad, but I want you to kind of look at, I feel 969 01:12:31.720 --> 01:12:34.760 like what's happening is this lie still keeps coming up. And 970 01:12:34.760 --> 01:12:39.800 so I'm, I almost feel like when you say I'm really so 971 01:12:39.800 --> 01:12:42.520 struggling with disappointment in myself, like, should I have 972 01:12:42.520 --> 01:12:44.920 just gone with what they said? Should I have just picked that 973 01:12:44.920 --> 01:12:48.000 person? Again, that's what I'm kind of hearing you say. And 974 01:12:48.000 --> 01:12:51.360 so to me, that points back to forgiving yourself, like really 975 01:12:51.360 --> 01:12:56.120 forgiving yourself and letting, I keep hearing releasing, like 976 01:12:56.160 --> 01:13:02.200 letting it go. You can't change the past. You can't go back, you 977 01:13:02.200 --> 01:13:05.520 can't change it. All you can do is move forward, Yash. And I 978 01:13:05.520 --> 01:13:10.120 feel like the enemy just wants you to keep looking back. And if 979 01:13:10.120 --> 01:13:14.560 anything presents itself, that sounds similar. What I mean by 980 01:13:14.560 --> 01:13:17.040 that is sometimes the enemy is going to come and he's going to 981 01:13:17.040 --> 01:13:21.400 say something to you. And it's going to sound similar to what 982 01:13:21.400 --> 01:13:24.120 you've already processed and healed, but you have to choose 983 01:13:24.120 --> 01:13:28.760 differently now than you did before. So just like myself, I 984 01:13:28.760 --> 01:13:33.280 have the opportunity to partner with the enemy in a lie when 985 01:13:33.280 --> 01:13:36.680 it's presented. And again, God doesn't get mad at us if we make 986 01:13:36.680 --> 01:13:40.480 a mistake and partner with a lie. We don't mean to, it's 987 01:13:40.480 --> 01:13:47.000 because we have brokenness. But I have a choice. I can either 988 01:13:47.000 --> 01:13:49.960 choose to partner with that or I can say, you know what? No, 989 01:13:50.360 --> 01:13:54.280 like that isn't true. This is who God is. This is what God is 990 01:13:54.280 --> 01:13:57.520 saying to me. This is what God's spoken over my life. And this is 991 01:13:57.520 --> 01:14:00.920 the direction I'm going in, where we're resisting, you know, 992 01:14:00.920 --> 01:14:03.080 the things that the enemy is saying, and we're saying, okay, 993 01:14:03.080 --> 01:14:05.920 I'm not partnering with that anymore. And so I know that 994 01:14:05.920 --> 01:14:10.680 that isn't easy, necessarily, but it will be worth it. So when 995 01:14:10.680 --> 01:14:13.440 you hear lies, like you're too choosy, or this, you're that, 996 01:14:13.440 --> 01:14:16.200 you're, you know, it's going to come down to you're going to 997 01:14:16.200 --> 01:14:20.360 have to take authority over your thoughts, and tell you tell 998 01:14:20.360 --> 01:14:24.160 the devil where to go. I mean, ladies, I mean, literally, we 999 01:14:24.160 --> 01:14:27.160 have to do that. And if we don't, he's just going to keep 1000 01:14:27.160 --> 01:14:31.000 stomping all over us. And so the other the other picture that I 1001 01:14:31.000 --> 01:14:35.520 had is, and this is different than the silhouette that I have 1002 01:14:35.520 --> 01:14:41.640 you guys do. But I would like for you to do like, take a 1003 01:14:41.640 --> 01:14:44.000 picture of yourself, you can take one that's printed out, put 1004 01:14:44.000 --> 01:14:46.840 it in the center of a paper, and then around the edge, I want 1005 01:14:46.840 --> 01:14:49.600 you to write all of the negative things that you hear. So like 1006 01:14:49.600 --> 01:14:53.200 the too choosy, whatever, anything like when it comes to 1007 01:14:53.200 --> 01:14:55.480 picking someone, all the negative stuff you've been 1008 01:14:55.480 --> 01:14:59.920 hearing, but then I want you to literally like, one by one, 1009 01:15:00.480 --> 01:15:03.120 Lord, what is the truth to replace this lie? 1010 01:15:04.960 --> 01:15:10.000 And some of this, he might have to redeem in you, Yash. I mean, if there has been times where 1011 01:15:10.960 --> 01:15:14.640 I don't think you're too picky, but if there have been times where that's kind of 1012 01:15:14.640 --> 01:15:21.680 the fear in you is causing you to really hold back on even good guys, well then that's different 1013 01:15:21.680 --> 01:15:27.040 than being trying to be paired with someone that doesn't have godly principles. Because you know, 1014 01:15:27.040 --> 01:15:34.320 as a Christian, God doesn't want you to be yoked with an unbeliever, right? Yeah. Okay. So I want 1015 01:15:34.320 --> 01:15:39.440 you to one, but like, I think that'll be really powerful for you because it's, it's about you 1016 01:15:39.440 --> 01:15:44.080 personally, where you're working through the lies that you've been hearing and asking God, 1017 01:15:44.080 --> 01:15:50.400 okay, what's the truth about me? Because I think this goes back to identity for you 1018 01:15:51.200 --> 01:15:58.000 and really standing in who God is calling you to be and being confident in that. And again, 1019 01:15:58.000 --> 01:16:02.160 like, that's why it partners with, you know, telling the devil where to go, essentially, 1020 01:16:02.160 --> 01:16:06.240 and like, you're not going to listen to things that he's saying to you and that you're going 1021 01:16:06.240 --> 01:16:11.840 to choose to believe God's truth. But it takes work. It does. And just, but if you stay committed 1022 01:16:11.840 --> 01:16:18.080 to it, there will come a day where that will not be a battle for you. Not the same way it is right 1023 01:16:19.040 --> 01:16:24.960 now. Thank you so much. You're welcome. Thanks for sharing. I know there's a lot 1024 01:16:24.960 --> 01:16:29.360 of people that resonate with that kind of stuff. Appreciate you. Ailyn, go ahead. 1025 01:16:32.800 --> 01:16:42.720 Hi. Hi. So things that God has been asking me to surrender, the first thing that I talked about in 1026 01:16:42.720 --> 01:16:49.920 the breakout room was trauma. But after I came back, he also had said idols and pride. 1027 01:16:52.080 --> 01:17:01.360 And I can tell you right now, I've had a lot of idols. One of them being food and relationships, 1028 01:17:01.360 --> 01:17:10.320 specifically with men, romantically. And then pride as in, I can do it. I've got everything. 1029 01:17:10.800 --> 01:17:21.440 And we need to surrender that. I need to surrender. And I was telling my mom about it today, 1030 01:17:22.400 --> 01:17:29.440 is I was having some trouble with actually, like, seeing. And there would be times where 1031 01:17:29.440 --> 01:17:34.000 my vision would close in, like narrow, and then sometimes it would just go completely black. 1032 01:17:34.960 --> 01:17:43.600 And it's gotten better. And I think it's because there was, like, an idol that was doing that to 1033 01:17:43.600 --> 01:17:54.080 me. Because idols are deaf, mute, and blind, right? And so I think it was me actually working 1034 01:17:54.640 --> 01:18:02.000 healing myself. And in this heart work, I know there's still more I have to do. 1035 01:18:03.760 --> 01:18:12.480 But I haven't had as much of my vision going out. Thank God. And so, 1036 01:18:14.800 --> 01:18:21.040 yeah, I'm in that right now. Yeah. Well, I was gonna ask you even before you started sharing, 1037 01:18:22.000 --> 01:18:26.000 can you tell a difference in yourself from the first time you shared on here? Because I can. 1038 01:18:27.360 --> 01:18:32.320 I know some of our other ladies that have been here for a while. Your voice is getting stronger. 1039 01:18:32.320 --> 01:18:40.080 I feel like you're showing up a little more confident. I see more of that shining through 1040 01:18:40.080 --> 01:18:46.480 in you. So I'm so glad for you on that. The one thing I will say is, the way I would describe 1041 01:18:46.480 --> 01:18:55.280 it just to help you grow in as you're explaining this to people. So a spirit can have that kind of 1042 01:18:55.280 --> 01:19:04.640 influence versus like an idol. An idol is something that we put before God. So if you 1043 01:19:04.640 --> 01:19:11.600 were feeling some kind of physical affliction, that is going to be a spirit that the enemy is 1044 01:19:11.600 --> 01:19:15.840 using to assault you physically. I just want you to have that kind of 1045 01:19:17.840 --> 01:19:21.920 explanation as you're kind of walking in this. And that can be a very real thing. 1046 01:19:23.360 --> 01:19:27.760 So I'm glad that that's starting to lessen. That's what I heard you saying, right? That's getting 1047 01:19:27.760 --> 01:19:32.320 happening less. And I don't want people to get scared. Some of y'all won't have any of that 1048 01:19:32.320 --> 01:19:39.200 kind of stuff happen. If you do, always use wisdom to like, if it doesn't go away, you should 1049 01:19:39.200 --> 01:19:45.200 definitely go see a doctor, make sure nothing else is going on. But sometimes people will have 1050 01:19:45.200 --> 01:19:49.120 spirits of slumber that'll come on them, where they literally will not be able to, every time 1051 01:19:49.120 --> 01:19:53.920 they try to do heart work or try to do any kind of healing or read the Bible, like they will 1052 01:19:53.920 --> 01:19:58.320 literally feel like they can't keep their eyes open. Those are real things that can happen to 1053 01:19:58.320 --> 01:19:59.760 people. So don't be afraid. 1054 01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:05.280 know that greater is he that's in you than he that is in the world, and the Lord can help you overcome 1055 01:20:05.280 --> 01:20:12.240 that. Jesus lives in you. And so, Ailyn, I'm so glad that you're seeing a change and a transformation. 1056 01:20:12.240 --> 01:20:17.440 And, you know, I think it's important to just edify you. Heart healing will happen, ladies, 1057 01:20:18.240 --> 01:20:25.920 continuously. So don't feel like if you go to phase two, like you just have to be perfect. 1058 01:20:25.920 --> 01:20:29.840 That's not true. You're going to have heart healing that's going to happen there. You're 1059 01:20:29.840 --> 01:20:34.000 going to have heart healing when you get in relationship. There's, you know, the whole way, 1060 01:20:34.000 --> 01:20:38.960 as you continue to surrender to the Lord in the process, as you continue to stay in community, 1061 01:20:39.920 --> 01:20:46.880 a hundred percent, the people that I feel like have really felt confident in the process, 1062 01:20:46.880 --> 01:20:53.440 they really stay together. They stay in community. But just know that no matter what, anybody, 1063 01:20:53.440 --> 01:20:59.840 this is to all of y'all, you can always come back. You can always come back and revisit things 1064 01:20:59.840 --> 01:21:06.080 and reconnect and all of that. So, Ailyn, as you're looking at the pride aspect, I did want 1065 01:21:06.080 --> 01:21:10.000 to kind of bring this up for you. I love that you're recognizing that that's still showing up 1066 01:21:10.000 --> 01:21:16.000 at times. So is there a certain area that you are recognizing the I can do it is showing up still 1067 01:21:16.000 --> 01:21:28.640 for you? A lot of areas, I guess. I'm still thinking, sorry. That's all right. And if you 1068 01:21:28.640 --> 01:21:31.840 don't know right now, it's totally fine. But I just wanted to give you that opportunity. 1069 01:21:36.720 --> 01:21:44.320 I feel like part of it, it has to, like, it doesn't have to be right. But I think part 1070 01:21:44.320 --> 01:21:50.800 of it, because I'm a single mother, it's like, no, I have to do this. And I have to, like, 1071 01:21:50.800 --> 01:22:01.600 prove myself. And I, like, have this boundary struggle with my dad, because he grew up a 1072 01:22:01.600 --> 01:22:10.000 certain way. And so he has, like, his way of viewing things where I'm trying to parent and 1073 01:22:10.000 --> 01:22:19.760 do the things. But I'm also trying to, like, prove myself to him. And so maybe it's not exactly 1074 01:22:22.240 --> 01:22:24.240 pride, but it's also a little bit of pride. 1075 01:22:26.880 --> 01:22:34.480 But I don't know. That's I think that's what I've been feeling recently. Yeah. And that's 1076 01:22:34.480 --> 01:22:41.280 pretty normal, especially, sorry, ladies, little allergies are happening here in Florida. 1077 01:22:41.280 --> 01:22:46.880 And especially when we're trying to fill that connection that we didn't get in the past or 1078 01:22:46.880 --> 01:22:53.520 things that we wanted. We want someone, whether it's the mom or the dad, or some people can be 1079 01:22:53.520 --> 01:22:59.600 their sibling or siblings where we want them to be proud of us. We want them to recognize how 1080 01:22:59.600 --> 01:23:07.120 much we've achieved or how well we're doing. So that can be a natural kind of path and road that 1081 01:23:07.120 --> 01:23:13.520 we go down. I will say to you, and for anyone else, just as you're working on boundaries, 1082 01:23:13.520 --> 01:23:19.200 just know that it's okay for you to do things differently than how your parents did it, 1083 01:23:19.840 --> 01:23:24.560 even if they don't understand it. So back to like earlier, you know, how I was saying some parents 1084 01:23:24.560 --> 01:23:30.240 try to control everything for their kids, because they don't want their kids to hurt. They don't 1085 01:23:30.240 --> 01:23:34.960 want their kids to feel that, you know, pain. And so it's not that it's coming from a bad place, 1086 01:23:34.960 --> 01:23:40.480 but sometimes, you know, we, even as adults, our parents will still not know how to let go. And 1087 01:23:40.480 --> 01:23:45.040 not that that's the case here, Ailyn, but I just wanted to use that for anyone else that might be 1088 01:23:45.040 --> 01:23:50.320 kind of going through some of those things. But I feel like the more that you know who you are, 1089 01:23:50.320 --> 01:23:56.640 the more that you express your thoughts, your feelings. Again, I think that confidence is 1090 01:23:56.640 --> 01:24:01.360 starting to show through in you. And so these are good things that you're practicing. So 1091 01:24:02.400 --> 01:24:08.880 I think that the balance that I would encourage you to keep praying into is for the Lord to show 1092 01:24:08.880 --> 01:24:18.960 you when is it okay to stand in your strength, right, with a person, and when is it that He 1093 01:24:18.960 --> 01:24:24.720 wants you to surrender, and how does He want you to surrender. And He'll show you that as you keep 1094 01:24:24.720 --> 01:24:33.760 walking forward. Yeah. Because sometimes it's about asking people to help us, too. And we talk 1095 01:24:33.760 --> 01:24:37.840 about that in some of our sessions, like asking people to help us, receiving help from people. 1096 01:24:38.400 --> 01:24:44.480 So yeah, getting this kind of down pat a little bit more will be good for you. Yeah. 1097 01:24:45.280 --> 01:24:49.360 Thank you. You're welcome. Thanks for sharing. Appreciate you. Haley, go ahead. 1098 01:24:52.720 --> 01:24:56.960 Hello. So the thing that I shared in the group tonight was, 1099 01:24:57.680 --> 01:24:59.840 I am going to be graduating from Bible college. 1100 01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:09.000 Um, in a few weeks, and so I've realized that I've been very stressed out about, like, what my next steps are. 1101 01:25:09.000 --> 01:25:15.200 Needing to, like, know what the next thing is, because I don't have clarity from the Lord yet on what that is. 1102 01:25:15.200 --> 01:25:21.360 Thank you guys and so that was 1 thing that I shared with the other thing that I. 1103 01:25:21.360 --> 01:25:25.680 Realize as we were talking tonight to that, um, I've been going through. 1104 01:25:25.960 --> 01:25:37.240 A health journey for probably about a year, um, with the Lord really showing me how to, like, clean up my diet and there was just like, there was a scare of something that happened, but it kind of hit a plateau. 1105 01:25:37.240 --> 01:25:49.440 And so I've noticed myself being stressed about that, too, like, trying to latch on and get control of, like, what's going on because I'm not seeing the results and then. 1106 01:25:49.440 --> 01:25:57.960 You know, I'm like, I just did 2 years of faith school and I'm not in faith. So, um, just, you know, that kind of thing pops up. So, yeah. 1107 01:25:57.960 --> 01:26:11.000 Yeah, isn't that so real though? You know, we say a lot of times when we're about to preach typically the week before you preach a message, we get tested and tested and tested thing. It's real. 1108 01:26:11.120 --> 01:26:32.560 Well, I love that. Congratulations, by the way. That's awesome. Um, as you're stepping into the, like, areas of having that faith that God is kind of talking to you about, I would encourage you remember, like, you know, fear and faith are kind of opposites, but so are love and fear. 1109 01:26:32.640 --> 01:26:51.880 So typically if we're struggling with faith, there's probably an area that we need God to solidify, like, us in his love, like, what does that look like? And the more that we get solidified in the love, the more the fear will start to dissipate. 1110 01:26:51.880 --> 01:27:21.840 And the love is what enables us to, I feel like my faith has grown the more I understand God's love and his provision and all of the things that he is, like his character. And so, um, I would encourage you just to ask the Lord, is there any additional areas where I still, like, need to grow in the revelation of who you are is love to me, not just to other people, not just to God. 1111 01:27:21.880 --> 01:27:51.400 So that you can have a means to an ends like that faith for something, but just for you, if you never give, like, kind of like how I've said before, like, if we never served one day, God would love us the same, but what does it mean to abide in that love, you know, and really knowing what that looks like and sounds like, and allowing that to permeate, you know, 1112 01:27:51.400 --> 01:28:20.320 even the the revelation of K God, like, I'm struggling with this physical situation, and the enemy is like, coming against, you know, me in this, and it's causing me, you said, you know, to feel scared. Well, here is feeling the feelings of, you know, that scared feeling, you know, so if we look at what is the false evidence that's appearing real? And how can love counteract all of that? 1113 01:28:22.360 --> 01:28:36.160 Yeah, it goes back to love, ladies, it really, really does. Even in the supernatural surrender, a lot of times, the reasons that we don't surrender is because we don't really believe God loves us enough. And we don't believe we can trust him. 1114 01:28:36.160 --> 01:29:05.920 It really always goes back to that. Yeah. So I encourage you to pray into that Haley, and then, you know, come in the group and let us know how that goes. There might be some things that come up with that. And it doesn't mean that we don't like know it in our heads, ladies, that God loves us. Most of us know in our heads, God loves me, because someone told us that we went to church, we heard it, we, you know, worship about it, we sing the songs, God loves us. 1115 01:29:06.160 --> 01:29:28.280 But to know it, like in here, deep in our soul, in our heart down there. Super important. Amy, good night. Thanks for being here. So lean into that and let us know how that goes. And look forward to hearing more about that. Okay. Yeah, awesome. 1116 01:29:28.720 --> 01:29:54.600 Alright, so I'm probably gonna be able to do I'll try to Chrissy, Roseanne, Donna, I'll try to get to all three of you. But if I can't, just because my voice is starting to go a little bit too, I'm going to do my best. But I'm going to try to hang in and do as many but if any of y'all need to jump off at 930. It's 930. Now, excuse me, totally understand. I want to bless you all as you go. But Chrissy, go ahead. We'd love to hear what you have to say. 1117 01:29:55.000 --> 01:29:55.700 Are we live? 1118 01:29:59.120 --> 01:29:59.840 Yes. 1119 01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:01.000 Okay. 1120 01:30:01.000 --> 01:30:11.720 Um, so I, um, I wrote down, yeah, I can do it myself. 1121 01:30:11.720 --> 01:30:18.080 Like I just feel like, uh, I'm sure it's from movies, but I just feel like as a child, like 1122 01:30:18.080 --> 01:30:20.640 I can do it myself. 1123 01:30:20.640 --> 01:30:26.240 And, um, even when we were talking about the Jesus cares board, I was like, Oh yeah. 1124 01:30:26.240 --> 01:30:28.040 Like let me add some things to that. 1125 01:30:28.040 --> 01:30:34.960 And I started writing things down and I felt this, like you're writing it down, but you're 1126 01:30:34.960 --> 01:30:39.000 not giving it to me. 1127 01:30:39.000 --> 01:30:44.360 And um, and so I was like, Oh, okay. 1128 01:30:44.360 --> 01:30:53.760 And I didn't realize this until now, this evening, I can feel the symptoms of my heart. 1129 01:30:53.760 --> 01:30:56.120 And I felt it Sunday too. 1130 01:30:56.120 --> 01:30:59.200 I felt, I got very dizzy. 1131 01:30:59.200 --> 01:31:03.040 Um, I was getting very, like, it's like a tightness in my chest. 1132 01:31:03.040 --> 01:31:10.120 I can feel my heart beating and it's not beating properly, which is what the diagnosis was. 1133 01:31:10.120 --> 01:31:15.000 But, um, it's like a tightness in my chest and I almost feel like short of breath, but 1134 01:31:15.000 --> 01:31:17.880 I'm not short of breath. 1135 01:31:17.880 --> 01:31:18.880 Yeah. 1136 01:31:18.880 --> 01:31:20.880 I totally understand. 1137 01:31:20.880 --> 01:31:21.880 Yeah. 1138 01:31:21.880 --> 01:31:22.880 Okay. 1139 01:31:23.000 --> 01:31:29.000 And, um, I mean, even while you were talking to the other two, I was writing things down, 1140 01:31:29.000 --> 01:31:35.240 like God, you are not my parents. 1141 01:31:35.240 --> 01:31:44.800 And like that came to mind, the dream that I had before that started this heart issue. 1142 01:31:44.800 --> 01:31:50.080 Um, I was angry at them and I was angry. 1143 01:31:50.080 --> 01:31:54.600 And I was like, why are you making me do this? 1144 01:31:54.600 --> 01:31:56.200 And I would, yeah. 1145 01:31:56.200 --> 01:31:57.200 I forget. 1146 01:31:57.200 --> 01:31:58.200 Do you live with your parents? 1147 01:31:58.200 --> 01:32:00.120 I live with my parents now. 1148 01:32:00.120 --> 01:32:01.120 Yes. 1149 01:32:01.120 --> 01:32:02.120 My grandparents passed away. 1150 01:32:02.120 --> 01:32:07.680 Both sets of grandparents passed away a while back, but I do live with my parents and my, 1151 01:32:07.680 --> 01:32:08.680 my mom. 1152 01:32:08.680 --> 01:32:16.000 And I actually had a little bit of conversations this weekend, um, about like, because my sister 1153 01:32:16.000 --> 01:32:19.120 and my niece may be having to move back in. 1154 01:32:19.160 --> 01:32:22.480 It's just the reality of the situation we live in. 1155 01:32:22.480 --> 01:32:27.760 Um, and so we're having to talk about all that too. 1156 01:32:27.760 --> 01:32:35.880 And so I, I think I was just feeling a lot more like I'm probably holding it all in. 1157 01:32:35.880 --> 01:32:39.960 So I was trying to let go of some things and like have conversations with her. 1158 01:32:39.960 --> 01:32:45.600 Have you considered praying into, um, finding a roommate and living with like a friend? 1159 01:32:45.600 --> 01:32:52.120 Uh, I don't, I don't put it past, like, I wouldn't mind. 1160 01:32:52.120 --> 01:32:55.840 I just don't really have friends here. 1161 01:32:55.840 --> 01:32:56.840 Okay. 1162 01:32:56.840 --> 01:32:59.080 I'm starting to make them at church though. 1163 01:32:59.080 --> 01:33:00.080 Yeah. 1164 01:33:00.080 --> 01:33:04.240 Um, I think even if it's something you just pray into, because I'll tell you this, I want 1165 01:33:04.240 --> 01:33:06.040 to just sow a seed of faith in you. 1166 01:33:06.040 --> 01:33:08.320 I'm not saying don't live with your parents. 1167 01:33:08.320 --> 01:33:11.840 I'm not trying to tell you what you should do, but I'm hearing you say that you're having 1168 01:33:11.840 --> 01:33:17.320 physical symptoms showing up because of dynamics with your parents and not, of course you can 1169 01:33:17.320 --> 01:33:22.400 work through those a hundred percent, but I'm just trying to think for you going forward. 1170 01:33:22.400 --> 01:33:28.280 Um, I think you having some separation, not complete, like you never talked to them, but 1171 01:33:28.280 --> 01:33:34.480 just having some separation from them so that you can kind of establish yourself on your 1172 01:33:34.480 --> 01:33:38.440 own, I think is going to be really helpful for you. 1173 01:33:38.440 --> 01:33:43.480 Um, years ago I moved, this is when I first moved up to Cleveland. 1174 01:33:43.480 --> 01:33:45.040 I started going to a new church. 1175 01:33:45.040 --> 01:33:49.720 I didn't know anybody, but I wanted to move to that area. 1176 01:33:49.720 --> 01:33:55.040 The guy I was dating actually ended up marrying him at the time, like years later, but he 1177 01:33:55.040 --> 01:34:01.040 was the one that, uh, it didn't go well with, but I had no clue. 1178 01:34:01.040 --> 01:34:04.880 Um, I just happened to talk this one lady at the church. 1179 01:34:04.880 --> 01:34:09.840 I literally met her that day and I was just talking about my desire to move to that area, 1180 01:34:09.840 --> 01:34:11.160 but I'm like, but I don't know anybody. 1181 01:34:11.160 --> 01:34:13.760 And she's like, I want to get an apartment too. 1182 01:34:14.440 --> 01:34:16.520 What do you think about like, if we live together? 1183 01:34:16.560 --> 01:34:19.240 I literally had just met her that day. 1184 01:34:19.760 --> 01:34:25.360 Um, but anyways, um, we ended up talking it out and we decided to move in together 1185 01:34:25.360 --> 01:34:27.160 and it was amazing. 1186 01:34:27.480 --> 01:34:31.040 And so again, not that you need to do that, but I just want to plant a seed that 1187 01:34:31.040 --> 01:34:35.560 sometimes God does unexpected things like that as well, where we might not even know 1188 01:34:35.560 --> 01:34:38.280 someone super great, but God just provides. 1189 01:34:38.280 --> 01:34:43.400 And so I prayed over all of you tonight when you were in there about and suddenly is, I 1190 01:34:43.400 --> 01:34:46.920 don't know if I, maybe I prayed that when we opened tonight, but I remember praying 1191 01:34:46.920 --> 01:34:52.320 it at some point that, you know, God would just start to raise your level of expectancy 1192 01:34:52.320 --> 01:34:56.720 that he wants to do, you know, and suddenly unexpected things for you all to bring 1193 01:34:56.720 --> 01:35:00.080 solutions to, you know, scenarios and problems. 1194 01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:03.200 that you're facing, if you will, and bring peace to that. 1195 01:35:03.520 --> 01:35:10.560 Um, when you said that I can't do it myself, um, earlier when I was sharing 1196 01:35:10.580 --> 01:35:16.900 kind of what I was alluding to is sometimes I would have this inner tantrum 1197 01:35:16.900 --> 01:35:26.140 feeling like I was an adult and I knew I needed to make adult decisions, but on 1198 01:35:26.140 --> 01:35:32.080 the inside, I was feeling like a little kid and I was like thrown a tantrum 1199 01:35:32.080 --> 01:35:32.840 internally. 1200 01:35:33.360 --> 01:35:37.340 And so I know that that happens for people and it shows up in different ways 1201 01:35:37.340 --> 01:35:41.680 for everybody, but where you just feel that dissonance, if you will, where there 1202 01:35:41.720 --> 01:35:45.100 is just like, you're just like, I just want my way, God, like, I just want, you 1203 01:35:45.100 --> 01:35:50.480 know, like we're, we want it in our way and our time, you know, all the things. 1204 01:35:50.780 --> 01:35:54.040 And when it doesn't come that way, especially when there's something we 1205 01:35:54.040 --> 01:35:59.580 were believing for and we face disappointment, um, but see, God is 1206 01:35:59.580 --> 01:36:01.500 filling your hope tank week after week. 1207 01:36:01.500 --> 01:36:02.860 He's putting things in there. 1208 01:36:03.260 --> 01:36:09.780 Um, and so I want to encourage you to pray into that kind of little kid kind 1209 01:36:09.780 --> 01:36:14.240 of feel that tantrum feel that raises up that where you just want to figure it 1210 01:36:14.240 --> 01:36:17.440 out yourself, do it yourself, you know, whatever that looks like, feels like, 1211 01:36:17.860 --> 01:36:19.740 and just surrender all of that. 1212 01:36:19.740 --> 01:36:23.440 And if God is saying to you, Hey, you're putting these things on the board, but 1213 01:36:23.440 --> 01:36:25.600 you're not really giving them up to me. 1214 01:36:25.600 --> 01:36:29.320 I want to encourage you to ask him to show you how to give it to him. 1215 01:36:31.120 --> 01:36:31.940 Like, what is that? 1216 01:36:31.940 --> 01:36:33.700 He'll show you what it will look like. 1217 01:36:35.580 --> 01:36:39.100 And then you can walk some of those things out, but keep us posted on that 1218 01:36:39.100 --> 01:36:40.420 physical stuff that's going on. 1219 01:36:40.420 --> 01:36:43.740 Chrissy, did you say that you are going to see a doctor about that? 1220 01:36:44.460 --> 01:36:49.960 Um, so I have, I have my, um, I did my monitor and the echocardiogram. 1221 01:36:50.100 --> 01:36:53.620 Um, we still haven't heard back about a stress test, but I don't know about that. 1222 01:36:53.900 --> 01:36:57.100 Are you ever able to join ladies prayer on during the week? 1223 01:36:58.000 --> 01:36:58.540 I do. 1224 01:36:58.540 --> 01:36:59.700 I'm usually on there. 1225 01:36:59.740 --> 01:37:05.320 Um, I am working, so I can't always make sure you put in the chat when you go the 1226 01:37:05.320 --> 01:37:09.820 next time that you need prayer for healing physically, let's just keep that 1227 01:37:09.820 --> 01:37:11.580 before the Lord with the community. 1228 01:37:12.040 --> 01:37:14.820 Um, we have literally prayed people into healing in this community. 1229 01:37:14.820 --> 01:37:18.440 So I want to keep that in front of people and we're never going to get 1230 01:37:18.440 --> 01:37:20.000 tired of praying for you for that. 1231 01:37:20.000 --> 01:37:23.540 So just go ahead and put, make sure you, when you're on, there's no pressure. 1232 01:37:23.540 --> 01:37:24.660 You can put that in the chat. 1233 01:37:24.660 --> 01:37:27.300 You don't have to talk and the team will see it. 1234 01:37:27.300 --> 01:37:30.260 And we can kind of include that as we pray for healing for people. 1235 01:37:30.740 --> 01:37:31.540 All right. 1236 01:37:31.780 --> 01:37:32.240 Definitely. 1237 01:37:32.240 --> 01:37:32.740 Thank you. 1238 01:37:32.860 --> 01:37:33.340 Awesome. 1239 01:37:33.340 --> 01:37:34.180 You're welcome. 1240 01:37:34.220 --> 01:37:35.460 We're so glad you're here. 1241 01:37:35.660 --> 01:37:36.440 Roseanne. 1242 01:37:36.440 --> 01:37:37.020 Hi. 1243 01:37:41.060 --> 01:37:41.620 Hello. 1244 01:37:43.580 --> 01:37:43.820 Hi. 1245 01:37:43.820 --> 01:37:48.340 Um, so I don't, I've told the group. 1246 01:37:48.340 --> 01:37:53.640 I don't know that this is really an area of, I don't know, in my mind, it doesn't 1247 01:37:53.640 --> 01:37:59.080 fit description of surrender, but it kind of is because tonight when you were 1248 01:37:59.080 --> 01:38:04.440 talking about, um, your time away at the retreat and just taking that intentional 1249 01:38:04.440 --> 01:38:09.520 time to, you know, focus on the Lord and you'd have, you know, been through a lot 1250 01:38:09.520 --> 01:38:13.440 of things and not really taken the time to process it totally. 1251 01:38:14.380 --> 01:38:22.700 I just feel like there's been a lot going on in my life and I, I, I, I don't, I 1252 01:38:22.700 --> 01:38:29.180 wouldn't say that I knowingly was like, I'll just do this myself, you know, just 1253 01:38:29.220 --> 01:38:34.780 do it in my own energy or my own initiative, but it's what's been happening 1254 01:38:34.780 --> 01:38:36.940 because it's how life has moved. 1255 01:38:37.700 --> 01:38:42.880 Um, and you know, there have been some of the things that I have, you know, 1256 01:38:42.880 --> 01:38:48.820 prayed and asked the Lord for direction and wisdom, and I feel like I've gotten 1257 01:38:48.820 --> 01:38:52.660 some wisdom on some of the things, but I don't know if I've gotten total wisdom. 1258 01:38:52.700 --> 01:38:53.100 I don't know. 1259 01:38:53.100 --> 01:38:58.300 I just felt like I wanted to share, um, that, you know, the thing that came to my 1260 01:38:58.300 --> 01:39:02.180 mind, a couple of different music really ministers to me. 1261 01:39:02.180 --> 01:39:06.980 So like a couple of different songs or lines from songs and what the first one 1262 01:39:06.980 --> 01:39:11.060 was, I'm coming back to the heart of worship where it's all about you. 1263 01:39:11.720 --> 01:39:12.160 Yeah. 1264 01:39:12.520 --> 01:39:21.760 And then the other one is an old, old, see this gray hair, an old, um, Oh, I can't 1265 01:39:21.760 --> 01:39:23.440 even think darling Jack song. 1266 01:39:23.480 --> 01:39:26.640 Um, Lord, I give you my heart. 1267 01:39:27.160 --> 01:39:28.160 I give you my soul. 1268 01:39:28.160 --> 01:39:29.400 I live for you alone. 1269 01:39:29.400 --> 01:39:33.120 Every breath that I take every moment I'm awake, I live for you alone. 1270 01:39:34.120 --> 01:39:37.640 And so I just wanted to, I feel like being a share. 1271 01:39:38.120 --> 01:39:39.160 So I love it. 1272 01:39:39.180 --> 01:39:43.980 And Hey, just don't ever underestimate that because there might be some ladies 1273 01:39:43.980 --> 01:39:48.380 on here that needed to hear those words tonight or watch the replay seriously. 1274 01:39:48.740 --> 01:39:50.340 So thank you for sharing that. 1275 01:39:50.340 --> 01:39:52.460 I do want you to know that. 1276 01:39:53.900 --> 01:39:59.940 Um, that totally aligns with surrender, the recognizing that maybe you need to. 1277 01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:04.680 slow down, and just spend some time. When you were talking, I 1278 01:40:04.680 --> 01:40:12.040 wrote down, I heard the Lord say, she is strong. And I know 1279 01:40:12.040 --> 01:40:15.040 even if I'm not mistaken, you had some health things that came 1280 01:40:15.040 --> 01:40:18.920 up right when you came into this community. Yeah, yeah. But 1281 01:40:18.920 --> 01:40:23.240 here's the thing. God recognizes that you are strong. He's I know 1282 01:40:23.240 --> 01:40:26.000 that about you. But he's even saying that over you tonight. 1283 01:40:26.000 --> 01:40:31.280 But here's the thing. What I saw as I was saying this to you is 1284 01:40:31.280 --> 01:40:38.480 like, you know, those trust falls. Where, you know, people 1285 01:40:38.480 --> 01:40:41.960 will fall back into arms or even back into water, they'll just 1286 01:40:41.960 --> 01:40:46.440 kind of fall and they'll go all in. I, that's what I saw for 1287 01:40:46.440 --> 01:40:50.940 you, just that you would take some time to just go all in in 1288 01:40:50.940 --> 01:40:54.440 that like posture of, you know, maybe it is worship, maybe it is 1289 01:40:54.440 --> 01:40:58.480 going on a little retreat where, you know, even if you go, 1290 01:40:59.600 --> 01:41:01.640 I don't know what your finances look like. So I'm not trying to 1291 01:41:01.640 --> 01:41:04.720 tell you what but like, even if you could find like a cabin, if 1292 01:41:04.720 --> 01:41:07.560 a friend has a cabin, they can loan you or something. I don't 1293 01:41:07.560 --> 01:41:10.840 know if your soul gets fed by like being in the woods and being 1294 01:41:10.840 --> 01:41:14.760 in nature, but whatever ministers to you, right, you 1295 01:41:14.760 --> 01:41:18.920 find a peaceful center. I want to encourage you to try to 1296 01:41:18.920 --> 01:41:21.600 invest in that in the next few months here that you'll take 1297 01:41:21.600 --> 01:41:26.440 some time. And when you go, I don't want you to do a lot of 1298 01:41:26.440 --> 01:41:29.580 work. I don't want you to try to even work on yourself a lot. 1299 01:41:29.600 --> 01:41:33.360 Like maybe it's just about rest and going and seeing some new 1300 01:41:33.360 --> 01:41:40.080 places. And, you know, yeah, just exploring a new, like some 1301 01:41:40.080 --> 01:41:43.280 new aspects of yourself, like seeing a new area. And how does 1302 01:41:43.280 --> 01:41:48.680 that make you feel? What do you love about it? And just allow 1303 01:41:48.680 --> 01:41:53.600 yourself to enjoy that moment without having to fix something 1304 01:41:53.600 --> 01:41:54.440 in yourself. 1305 01:41:55.400 --> 01:41:56.000 That makes sense. 1306 01:41:56.360 --> 01:41:59.760 Yeah, definitely does. It's confirmation. I've been kind of 1307 01:41:59.760 --> 01:42:04.640 looking into a retreat thing that's coming up at the end of 1308 01:42:05.280 --> 01:42:09.040 or the first of May. I'm not sure I can arrange my work 1309 01:42:09.040 --> 01:42:11.120 schedule, but thank you for that. 1310 01:42:11.400 --> 01:42:14.600 Yeah, you're welcome. And if it's not that retreat, just know, 1311 01:42:14.880 --> 01:42:16.920 because sometimes, you know, like Jack even said in the 1312 01:42:16.920 --> 01:42:20.400 Supernatural Saturday, I think how sometimes like stuff starts 1313 01:42:20.400 --> 01:42:23.480 happening, we automatically think that's the Lord and it is 1314 01:42:23.480 --> 01:42:26.960 probably because he's trying to nudge you towards doing some 1315 01:42:26.960 --> 01:42:29.840 kind of retreat. So if you can't work out that one with your work 1316 01:42:29.840 --> 01:42:33.600 schedule, he might just be using that to confirm and now here I 1317 01:42:33.600 --> 01:42:36.760 am again tonight talking about a retreat. I had no intention of 1318 01:42:36.760 --> 01:42:39.240 telling you guys when I came on live tonight that we went on a 1319 01:42:39.240 --> 01:42:42.280 retreat, it just came up in my spirit as I was talking, because 1320 01:42:42.280 --> 01:42:46.360 it's fresh too. But you know, God seems to be nudging you in 1321 01:42:46.360 --> 01:42:49.480 that direction. So trust the timing of it too. 1322 01:42:50.200 --> 01:42:50.800 Thank you. 1323 01:42:50.880 --> 01:42:53.120 Yeah, you're welcome. Thank you for sharing. I appreciate you 1324 01:42:53.120 --> 01:42:56.840 sharing those songs as well. Donna B. Go ahead. 1325 01:42:56.840 --> 01:42:59.600 Hi, I don't know if you can see me. I'm not sure about this 1326 01:42:59.600 --> 01:43:04.040 technology thing. But anyway, when you asked about the 1327 01:43:04.040 --> 01:43:07.200 surrendering, the thing that came up for me is not controlling 1328 01:43:07.200 --> 01:43:11.680 the outcomes between my daughter and her ex Beyonce. I moved out 1329 01:43:11.720 --> 01:43:14.560 I moved from Florida to Washington State, which I really 1330 01:43:14.560 --> 01:43:18.640 don't like out here. But I get mad, I'm finding that I'm 1331 01:43:18.640 --> 01:43:22.440 getting mad at her when she doesn't have clothes for the 1332 01:43:22.440 --> 01:43:25.240 grandson or she doesn't have like holiday schedules. And like 1333 01:43:25.240 --> 01:43:28.680 I'm trying to protect her and trying to look out for her best 1334 01:43:28.680 --> 01:43:32.400 interests. But I'm finding it's affecting my health. Like I got 1335 01:43:32.400 --> 01:43:37.200 high cortisol levels gained 20 pounds. I mean, and I just don't 1336 01:43:37.200 --> 01:43:42.240 really know how to really like surrender that. So if you have 1337 01:43:42.240 --> 01:43:44.040 any suggestions, I'd really be 1338 01:43:46.040 --> 01:43:48.880 Well, so let me ask you this. Are you saying that you moved 1339 01:43:48.880 --> 01:43:53.200 from Florida to Washington State to be near your daughter and 1340 01:43:53.200 --> 01:43:53.880 help her? 1341 01:43:54.080 --> 01:43:57.320 Correct. She Yeah, she she didn't have any other help out 1342 01:43:57.320 --> 01:43:59.760 here. And I wanted her to keep custody of her three year old 1343 01:43:59.760 --> 01:44:03.400 son. So I came out here to like while she either would work or 1344 01:44:03.400 --> 01:44:06.240 be in school, she wants to get into nursing and unfortunately, 1345 01:44:06.240 --> 01:44:09.760 it's been rejected like six times very disappointed. But 1346 01:44:09.760 --> 01:44:12.720 she's still trying for this nursing school. So I'm out here 1347 01:44:12.720 --> 01:44:17.160 helping her. So while she has my help take care of him. 1348 01:44:17.840 --> 01:44:22.600 So when you feel mad at her, tell me what that what causes 1349 01:44:22.600 --> 01:44:26.920 that like, what is she doing that you feel mad about? 1350 01:44:27.200 --> 01:44:30.640 I get upset with her because I guess she doesn't assert 1351 01:44:30.640 --> 01:44:33.720 herself with her ex boyfriend. You know, like they don't have a 1352 01:44:33.720 --> 01:44:37.960 set schedule. Like, you know, she doesn't ask them. Hey, you 1353 01:44:37.960 --> 01:44:41.680 know, we need the clothes like this weekend, he had no clothes 1354 01:44:41.720 --> 01:44:44.920 for school today, with the exception of a pair of pants 1355 01:44:45.160 --> 01:44:49.600 from the daycare. Like all our clothes, it goes over to the ex 1356 01:44:49.600 --> 01:44:54.760 boyfriend's house or fiance, and we don't get it back. And, you 1357 01:44:54.760 --> 01:44:58.800 know, like, she needs to do that. And I, you know, we need 1358 01:44:58.800 --> 01:45:00.040 to have clothes over here. 1359 01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:01.500 And then the same thing with holidays, 1360 01:45:01.500 --> 01:45:02.740 like whether it's Easter or anything, 1361 01:45:02.740 --> 01:45:04.460 I said, you've got to have these things set. 1362 01:45:04.460 --> 01:45:06.080 It's like, you can't wait to that day. 1363 01:45:06.080 --> 01:45:09.620 Or then he plays games, you know, 1364 01:45:09.620 --> 01:45:12.300 saying he's not gonna, you know, for Easter. 1365 01:45:12.300 --> 01:45:14.620 We didn't know until Sunday just about 1366 01:45:14.620 --> 01:45:15.740 that we were getting him. 1367 01:45:15.740 --> 01:45:19.180 And then we only got him from 8 a.m. to 2 p.m. 1368 01:45:19.180 --> 01:45:21.860 Like it's, you know, but it shouldn't be my business. 1369 01:45:21.860 --> 01:45:24.660 I shouldn't even, but I guess I'm getting upset. 1370 01:45:24.660 --> 01:45:25.820 I'm like, why am I caring? 1371 01:45:25.820 --> 01:45:28.660 Why am I letting this bother me again? 1372 01:45:28.680 --> 01:45:30.720 Because you're a human being 1373 01:45:30.720 --> 01:45:34.100 and this stuff also impacts your grandchild 1374 01:45:34.100 --> 01:45:37.360 as well as your life and your daughter's life. 1375 01:45:37.360 --> 01:45:38.940 I think it would be, 1376 01:45:39.880 --> 01:45:42.940 I would be more shocked if it didn't impact you. 1377 01:45:42.940 --> 01:45:46.420 But here's the thing, you can't control, you can't. 1378 01:45:46.420 --> 01:45:48.680 Unfortunately, she's gonna have to make decisions 1379 01:45:48.680 --> 01:45:51.840 for herself and you guys might've thought of this, 1380 01:45:51.840 --> 01:45:53.560 but back in the day, 1381 01:45:54.760 --> 01:45:56.960 not that this is the letting go part, 1382 01:45:56.980 --> 01:45:59.740 but back in the day when I was married before, 1383 01:45:59.740 --> 01:46:02.360 my stepson, we would have the same stuff happen 1384 01:46:02.360 --> 01:46:05.860 when we would send clothes to his mom's house, 1385 01:46:05.860 --> 01:46:07.780 they wouldn't come back or things like that. 1386 01:46:07.780 --> 01:46:10.660 And so what ended up happening is we just decided 1387 01:46:11.500 --> 01:46:13.020 we weren't gonna send clothes anymore. 1388 01:46:13.020 --> 01:46:15.900 She had to have her own and we had our own 1389 01:46:15.900 --> 01:46:17.380 and that's just the way we did it. 1390 01:46:17.380 --> 01:46:19.420 And so I wouldn't maybe even talk to your daughter 1391 01:46:19.420 --> 01:46:22.500 about considering that, but again, you can't make her do it. 1392 01:46:22.500 --> 01:46:24.180 But that's just a suggestion. 1393 01:46:24.180 --> 01:46:27.040 And that was something that became very beneficial 1394 01:46:27.040 --> 01:46:30.640 because then it kept things kind of more, 1395 01:46:31.760 --> 01:46:34.160 kind of just cut right through 1396 01:46:34.160 --> 01:46:36.180 and we didn't have to worry about 1397 01:46:36.180 --> 01:46:37.560 where the clothes were coming from 1398 01:46:37.560 --> 01:46:39.040 because we always had our stuff. 1399 01:46:39.040 --> 01:46:41.320 And it's not saying we never ever sent, 1400 01:46:41.320 --> 01:46:43.560 but for the most part, we did not pack a bag 1401 01:46:43.560 --> 01:46:45.260 and send the bag back and forth. 1402 01:46:45.260 --> 01:46:47.400 She didn't send clothes to us, we didn't send clothes to her, 1403 01:46:47.400 --> 01:46:49.400 we bought our own stuff, all the things. 1404 01:46:50.540 --> 01:46:52.740 On the part about yourself, 1405 01:46:53.400 --> 01:46:54.800 you know, at the end of the day, 1406 01:46:54.800 --> 01:46:57.300 what I really, you have to look at 1407 01:46:57.300 --> 01:47:02.300 is what is really causing the upset in you? 1408 01:47:02.620 --> 01:47:04.360 It is sadness, right? 1409 01:47:04.360 --> 01:47:06.800 Maybe is there, let me ask you this. 1410 01:47:06.800 --> 01:47:09.640 So I know that you moved there to help her 1411 01:47:09.640 --> 01:47:11.360 because she needed help. 1412 01:47:11.360 --> 01:47:14.520 Do you resent her at all for that? 1413 01:47:14.520 --> 01:47:15.720 I don't know that I resent her, 1414 01:47:15.720 --> 01:47:18.240 but what I did have to do, I had a grief leaving Florida 1415 01:47:18.240 --> 01:47:21.120 because I waited 19 years to move to Florida 1416 01:47:21.120 --> 01:47:22.240 and I was there six years. 1417 01:47:22.740 --> 01:47:23.940 That's my happy place. 1418 01:47:23.940 --> 01:47:25.780 I love Naples, Florida. 1419 01:47:25.780 --> 01:47:28.300 And I don't really like Washington 1420 01:47:28.300 --> 01:47:30.340 except maybe in the summertime. 1421 01:47:30.340 --> 01:47:32.220 And then I came out here and then she said, 1422 01:47:32.220 --> 01:47:33.660 oh, well, you could help me as long as I want. 1423 01:47:33.660 --> 01:47:36.740 And now it's like, instead of like two years of nursing 1424 01:47:36.740 --> 01:47:38.440 because she's not into nursing school yet, 1425 01:47:38.440 --> 01:47:40.460 now it's like three or it could be four. 1426 01:47:40.460 --> 01:47:41.940 And I was like, I'm not planning 1427 01:47:41.940 --> 01:47:43.500 on spending my whole life here. 1428 01:47:43.500 --> 01:47:45.980 I'm praying she gets back with the ex-boyfriend 1429 01:47:45.980 --> 01:47:48.560 or meet somebody else so I can go back to Florida. 1430 01:47:48.560 --> 01:47:52.140 I mean, I feel like God has me here for now. 1431 01:47:52.920 --> 01:47:54.160 So let me ask you a question. 1432 01:47:54.160 --> 01:47:57.960 Why can't she keep her son on her own or your grand? 1433 01:47:57.960 --> 01:47:59.280 Is it a boy or girl? 1434 01:47:59.280 --> 01:48:00.360 It's a little boy. 1435 01:48:00.360 --> 01:48:01.880 He's so precious, Andre. 1436 01:48:01.880 --> 01:48:04.400 He's a blessing. 1437 01:48:04.400 --> 01:48:07.140 But the dad, and they actually have a thing. 1438 01:48:07.140 --> 01:48:08.280 They want to spend time. 1439 01:48:08.280 --> 01:48:10.880 He actually wanted the kid full-time. 1440 01:48:10.880 --> 01:48:13.840 And she said, no, that they got to do 50-50. 1441 01:48:13.840 --> 01:48:15.600 So we get them for two days. 1442 01:48:15.600 --> 01:48:16.720 He gets them for two days. 1443 01:48:16.720 --> 01:48:17.920 We get them for three days. 1444 01:48:17.920 --> 01:48:19.000 Then that's- 1445 01:48:19.000 --> 01:48:20.320 Here's my question. 1446 01:48:20.320 --> 01:48:21.280 Sorry, here's my question for you. 1447 01:48:21.280 --> 01:48:22.620 No, go ahead. 1448 01:48:22.620 --> 01:48:26.180 Why can she not, and I'm not saying she shouldn't. 1449 01:48:26.180 --> 01:48:27.100 I'm just asking you. 1450 01:48:27.100 --> 01:48:28.780 I want to hear what you have to say. 1451 01:48:28.780 --> 01:48:33.780 Why can she not take care of him on her own? 1452 01:48:34.160 --> 01:48:37.980 So what that might look like is going to school 1453 01:48:37.980 --> 01:48:39.940 and having daycare. 1454 01:48:39.940 --> 01:48:41.420 Because you're saying you had to. 1455 01:48:41.420 --> 01:48:44.060 You had to go there to help her, okay? 1456 01:48:44.060 --> 01:48:45.700 I want you to hear some of the verbiage. 1457 01:48:45.700 --> 01:48:47.060 Yeah, well, I chose to go there. 1458 01:48:47.060 --> 01:48:49.460 I didn't have to come out here. 1459 01:48:49.520 --> 01:48:51.000 I chose to come out here. 1460 01:48:51.000 --> 01:48:51.840 And I felt like, 1461 01:48:51.840 --> 01:48:54.180 because she didn't have anybody out here to help her. 1462 01:48:54.180 --> 01:48:55.560 And I was single. 1463 01:48:55.560 --> 01:48:56.920 I didn't have anything holding me back. 1464 01:48:56.920 --> 01:48:59.080 I was like, well, I might as well come here. 1465 01:48:59.080 --> 01:49:01.260 And plus I came out of a year long depression 1466 01:49:01.260 --> 01:49:03.480 and she wanted to quote unquote, help take care of me. 1467 01:49:03.480 --> 01:49:05.680 But I don't need her help for that. 1468 01:49:05.680 --> 01:49:08.960 I'm actually healthier than she is right now, I think. 1469 01:49:08.960 --> 01:49:10.200 Yeah, so the reason, 1470 01:49:10.200 --> 01:49:12.800 and it doesn't mean that I didn't think necessarily 1471 01:49:12.800 --> 01:49:14.200 that you chose to go there, 1472 01:49:14.200 --> 01:49:16.920 but I want, because this is what can happen. 1473 01:49:16.920 --> 01:49:17.760 Mm-hmm. 1474 01:49:19.380 --> 01:49:20.460 You said it really well. 1475 01:49:20.460 --> 01:49:24.660 I grieved, like I grieved leaving Florida. 1476 01:49:24.660 --> 01:49:26.540 Then when you were talking about it, 1477 01:49:26.540 --> 01:49:27.820 you're saying, 1478 01:49:27.820 --> 01:49:30.020 because she's going to go to nursing school for longer, 1479 01:49:30.020 --> 01:49:32.700 then you're like, well, I don't want to stay that long. 1480 01:49:32.700 --> 01:49:35.060 Which I think is really important for you 1481 01:49:35.060 --> 01:49:36.820 to kind of start establishing, 1482 01:49:36.820 --> 01:49:40.860 what is your plan apart from your daughters 1483 01:49:40.860 --> 01:49:41.680 and your grandkids? 1484 01:49:41.680 --> 01:49:42.660 If you want to stay there, 1485 01:49:42.660 --> 01:49:44.340 but you know, because your grandkid is there 1486 01:49:44.340 --> 01:49:45.820 and you want to be around him, 1487 01:49:45.840 --> 01:49:46.920 that's different. 1488 01:49:46.920 --> 01:49:50.480 But if you're staying because you're concerned 1489 01:49:50.480 --> 01:49:54.020 that your daughter can't handle being a parent, 1490 01:49:54.020 --> 01:49:55.800 that's different. 1491 01:49:55.800 --> 01:49:57.320 Well, I don't know that she can't handle. 1492 01:49:57.320 --> 01:49:58.400 She's a very good mom. 1493 01:49:58.400 --> 01:49:59.920 She is a really good mom. 1494 01:50:00.000 --> 01:50:06.720 The thing is, me, I had, when I got divorced, I had my daughter full-time and, or custody, 1495 01:50:06.720 --> 01:50:11.200 whatever, parental, I don't know, whatever it is, custodial custody, or I don't know, 1496 01:50:11.200 --> 01:50:17.600 whatever it was, but my ex-husband only saw her on weekends and, but her and Abe, her ex-fiancé, 1497 01:50:17.600 --> 01:50:20.800 they want to split the time 50-50. Yeah, which is normal. 1498 01:50:20.800 --> 01:50:24.640 Honestly, he really wanted to have the kid full-time so he didn't have to pay her any 1499 01:50:24.640 --> 01:50:31.040 child support. So why did you, again, I want to circle back, I'm pushing on this for a reason 1500 01:50:31.040 --> 01:50:36.400 tonight with you, and I mean this out of a lot of love, but I want you to kind of get to the root of 1501 01:50:37.120 --> 01:50:44.080 why are you still there? Are you there because you want to be there? Are you there because you 1502 01:50:44.080 --> 01:50:48.480 feel like you have to be there because there's something you think she cannot do? 1503 01:50:49.360 --> 01:50:54.000 Well, I promised her, I promised that I would come out here while she was in nursing to give 1504 01:50:54.000 --> 01:50:57.440 her help because I didn't want her to lose, this is the bottom line, I don't want her to lose 1505 01:50:57.440 --> 01:51:02.560 custody of Andre. I don't want the father to have custody for the whole year and have her. 1506 01:51:02.560 --> 01:51:06.640 Why would she lose custody of her child? Well, not lose custody, but when she's, 1507 01:51:06.640 --> 01:51:10.240 she's a nurse, if she gets into nursing school, which is what she's trying to get into and 1508 01:51:10.240 --> 01:51:18.320 unfortunately been like rejected like six times, even from like x-ray technician. So that's just 1509 01:51:18.320 --> 01:51:24.880 going to take a lot of her time. So she would need somebody here to either bring the kid to 1510 01:51:24.880 --> 01:51:31.360 daycare, pick the kid up from daycare, feed the kid when she's at school or in classes or in labs 1511 01:51:31.360 --> 01:51:37.680 for nursing school, or you know, if she was, you know, working or something, she would, 1512 01:51:37.680 --> 01:51:41.760 she would need somebody until she was either, I don't know that it doesn't seem like either one 1513 01:51:41.760 --> 01:51:47.040 of them want back in a relationship, I keep praying for it, but unless she's got somebody, 1514 01:51:47.600 --> 01:51:52.320 like she needs somebody to help her. And if it's not me, she has nobody. There's no friends. She 1515 01:51:52.320 --> 01:51:58.080 has no friends out here or very few. So I can help her. Okay. So here's the thing. This is 1516 01:51:58.080 --> 01:52:02.560 why I was kind of leaning into this. You started talking more and I'm hearing more of what is the 1517 01:52:02.560 --> 01:52:07.280 bottom line. Here's a couple of things. The two of those people should not be together if they 1518 01:52:07.280 --> 01:52:12.160 are not healthy to be a couple together. Okay. So I'm just going to say that if God wants them 1519 01:52:12.160 --> 01:52:18.480 together, cool. That's awesome. But I wouldn't try to encourage them to go back into relationship 1520 01:52:18.480 --> 01:52:25.040 with each other if they are not a healthy couple together. Okay. Establishing that number two, 1521 01:52:25.840 --> 01:52:34.480 I think that you're going to really have to sit down and decide why you are there 1522 01:52:35.360 --> 01:52:41.280 and what you're passionate about. Like, why are you passionate to stay there? Because if not, 1523 01:52:41.280 --> 01:52:47.760 I think it is going to create resentment and anger because if she does anything that you don't think 1524 01:52:47.760 --> 01:52:54.560 she should do, there's this, I don't want to say entitlement, but there's this sense of like, 1525 01:52:54.560 --> 01:52:59.920 I came here to do this for you. You know, again, I'm not trying to put words in your mouth. 1526 01:53:00.880 --> 01:53:05.680 You have to decide what's really fueling that stuff in you. I don't want her son taken away 1527 01:53:05.680 --> 01:53:08.800 from her. I don't want her to lose her son. I know, but I think it's more than that. I think 1528 01:53:08.800 --> 01:53:12.720 there's more to this for you. I don't know. I might have to pray on it because I don't, 1529 01:53:12.720 --> 01:53:18.640 I mean, that's really like what compels me to stay here is for that because otherwise I'd be in 1530 01:53:18.640 --> 01:53:23.440 Florida or be in Florida half the time and here half the time, but I wouldn't be here the whole 1531 01:53:23.440 --> 01:53:28.240 time. But the thing is she has nobody else. And I feel as a mom, like my mom was always there for 1532 01:53:28.240 --> 01:53:35.600 me when I needed her. I want you to be happy. I want you to be happy about that decision. That's 1533 01:53:35.600 --> 01:53:40.160 why I'm again, that's why I want you to pray into this. And I really want you to ask the Lord 1534 01:53:40.160 --> 01:53:45.920 kind of what is the root of the anger? What's caught? Like what is happening underneath the 1535 01:53:45.920 --> 01:53:52.000 surface in you that's causing you to feel, you know, those kinds of ways. And the reason I 1536 01:53:52.000 --> 01:53:57.120 pushed on this so much regarding you being there is not because I think you should leave. I just 1537 01:53:57.200 --> 01:54:04.400 want you to get to a place where you feel joy because you are there, not like you are, 1538 01:54:05.280 --> 01:54:10.720 you know, bound in chains. In fact, you know, it's funny you say joy because that's the one 1539 01:54:10.720 --> 01:54:16.320 thing I keep asking God to pray is restore my joy, restore my joy because I don't have joy here. 1540 01:54:16.880 --> 01:54:22.240 And I'm saying, you know, I say what I'm thankful for every time. And part of it is I don't have 1541 01:54:22.240 --> 01:54:28.240 friends out here. I don't like, I'm scared to drive around here because it's windy roads and 1542 01:54:28.240 --> 01:54:33.520 steep roads. And I mean, I'm trying to push myself to go, but I really only go like 30 minutes. I 1543 01:54:33.520 --> 01:54:38.880 can't even go like two hours, like say, Oh, I want to go out and check out this cute little town. 1544 01:54:38.880 --> 01:54:43.680 I'm afraid to go because of the windy roads and the steepness and no guardrails and the steep 1545 01:54:43.680 --> 01:54:48.640 drop-offs. So I'm like, I was like, God, I was like, I didn't, I was like, I don't even, you 1546 01:54:48.640 --> 01:54:53.680 know, go anywhere. Yeah. So is your daughter not moving? I'm going to assume this is the case, 1547 01:54:53.680 --> 01:54:59.680 but I'm asking for clarity. Is your daughter not moving to Florida because of the. 1548 01:55:00.000 --> 01:55:03.000 ad being there and he wants to have custody. 1549 01:55:03.000 --> 01:55:05.120 That might be part of it, 1550 01:55:05.120 --> 01:55:07.260 but actually I don't think that's it at all. 1551 01:55:07.260 --> 01:55:08.180 She hates Florida. 1552 01:55:08.180 --> 01:55:11.020 She can't stand the heat, the flatness. 1553 01:55:11.020 --> 01:55:12.100 She loves the mountains, 1554 01:55:12.100 --> 01:55:15.320 just like Florida is my happy place for the people. 1555 01:55:15.320 --> 01:55:17.160 Hers is this mountains out here. 1556 01:55:17.160 --> 01:55:19.720 She's been here 10 years and she just Colorado 1557 01:55:19.720 --> 01:55:23.560 and then here, she just loves it out here. 1558 01:55:23.560 --> 01:55:28.320 Okay, well, so I think if you're gonna be there 1559 01:55:28.320 --> 01:55:30.760 to help her, that's your decision you're making. 1560 01:55:30.760 --> 01:55:33.240 I think we're coming to a place of maybe 1561 01:55:33.240 --> 01:55:34.960 even if you moved a little further away, 1562 01:55:34.960 --> 01:55:36.400 just, I think there's some things 1563 01:55:36.400 --> 01:55:37.600 that might have to shift for you 1564 01:55:37.600 --> 01:55:40.480 because at the end of the day, 1565 01:55:40.480 --> 01:55:42.600 you're saying you can't go anywhere. 1566 01:55:42.600 --> 01:55:46.400 You, it's literally hindering your ability to make friends. 1567 01:55:46.400 --> 01:55:50.160 You're getting upset because she's not doing certain things. 1568 01:55:50.160 --> 01:55:52.240 You know, like this is a road 1569 01:55:52.240 --> 01:55:54.320 that doesn't sound super healthy, Donna. 1570 01:55:54.320 --> 01:55:56.140 And so that's why I'm kind of leaning into this 1571 01:55:56.140 --> 01:55:57.320 with you a little bit. 1572 01:55:57.320 --> 01:55:58.560 And I don't want you to think like, 1573 01:55:58.560 --> 01:55:59.800 oh, you're just doing this wrong. 1574 01:55:59.800 --> 01:56:01.280 I think it's amazing that you're there 1575 01:56:01.280 --> 01:56:02.200 and you're helping your daughter. 1576 01:56:02.200 --> 01:56:04.680 I wish my mom would have had the capability 1577 01:56:04.680 --> 01:56:06.840 to do those kinds of things when I was, you know, 1578 01:56:06.840 --> 01:56:08.600 had my, the girls when they were younger 1579 01:56:08.600 --> 01:56:09.440 and all those things. 1580 01:56:09.440 --> 01:56:11.560 I think it's wonderful and it's beautiful, 1581 01:56:11.560 --> 01:56:14.840 but I just want you to get to a place in your heart 1582 01:56:14.840 --> 01:56:19.840 that there is an inner peace and happiness 1583 01:56:20.600 --> 01:56:24.320 versus feeling like things were taken from you 1584 01:56:24.320 --> 01:56:26.200 and you're in this bondage there. 1585 01:56:26.200 --> 01:56:27.800 Does that make sense? 1586 01:56:27.800 --> 01:56:28.640 Yeah. 1587 01:56:28.640 --> 01:56:29.480 Yeah. 1588 01:56:29.480 --> 01:56:31.440 So I want you to pray into that. 1589 01:56:32.400 --> 01:56:35.720 And I would love for you to really pray into, 1590 01:56:35.720 --> 01:56:39.240 even though, you know, you're afraid of the windy roads, 1591 01:56:39.240 --> 01:56:41.360 maybe someone else can, like a friend 1592 01:56:41.360 --> 01:56:44.080 that you meet somewhere at a church or something, 1593 01:56:44.080 --> 01:56:46.360 maybe someone can come and pick you up. 1594 01:56:46.360 --> 01:56:48.120 Like, I just want you to pray into the potential 1595 01:56:48.120 --> 01:56:51.400 and possibilities that are out there as well. 1596 01:56:51.400 --> 01:56:52.680 So I'll be praying for you. 1597 01:56:52.680 --> 01:56:53.520 Pray into that. 1598 01:56:53.520 --> 01:56:54.360 I appreciate that. 1599 01:56:54.360 --> 01:56:55.180 Come in. 1600 01:56:55.180 --> 01:56:56.020 I know it can feel really hard. 1601 01:56:56.840 --> 01:56:58.420 I appreciate you hanging in there with me. 1602 01:56:58.420 --> 01:57:00.740 Sometimes when I'm kind of pushing, 1603 01:57:00.740 --> 01:57:03.260 I want you to know it really is out of a place of love 1604 01:57:03.260 --> 01:57:05.780 and support for you, for your family. 1605 01:57:05.780 --> 01:57:08.460 I want the best for your daughter, for your grandson, 1606 01:57:08.460 --> 01:57:09.300 all of them. 1607 01:57:09.300 --> 01:57:10.120 Yeah. 1608 01:57:10.120 --> 01:57:10.960 So we're going to be praying. 1609 01:57:10.960 --> 01:57:13.940 We're going to believe for God's, you know, 1610 01:57:13.940 --> 01:57:17.380 plan to get revealed to all of them, including you. 1611 01:57:17.380 --> 01:57:19.980 And so thank you for sharing your story with us 1612 01:57:19.980 --> 01:57:22.020 and coming alongside of you. 1613 01:57:22.020 --> 01:57:22.840 Yeah. 1614 01:57:22.840 --> 01:57:23.680 My pleasure. 1615 01:57:23.680 --> 01:57:25.140 Ladies, I'm going to go ahead and close this out. 1616 01:57:25.140 --> 01:57:27.100 It's been awesome to be here with you tonight. 1617 01:57:27.100 --> 01:57:31.940 And I hope that you continue to pray into this, 1618 01:57:31.940 --> 01:57:33.720 all the things that we talked about tonight, 1619 01:57:33.720 --> 01:57:35.900 even the things that I'm coaching, you know, 1620 01:57:35.900 --> 01:57:38.420 it's really important for us to really know 1621 01:57:38.420 --> 01:57:39.980 why we do what we do. 1622 01:57:41.380 --> 01:57:42.220 Okay. 1623 01:57:42.220 --> 01:57:45.340 So when we, a lot of times I'll talk to you all, 1624 01:57:45.340 --> 01:57:47.260 and this isn't necessarily about Donna, 1625 01:57:47.260 --> 01:57:49.020 but just it made me think about it. 1626 01:57:50.740 --> 01:57:53.220 We will say they are making me this way. 1627 01:57:53.220 --> 01:57:54.100 And she didn't say that, 1628 01:57:54.100 --> 01:57:56.140 but I want, I just feel like kind of that nudge 1629 01:57:56.140 --> 01:57:58.300 to say this before we close tonight, 1630 01:57:58.300 --> 01:58:01.140 that we have to be really good at, 1631 01:58:01.140 --> 01:58:04.740 like we have to practice owning our feelings. 1632 01:58:04.740 --> 01:58:05.580 Okay. 1633 01:58:05.580 --> 01:58:08.340 I feel mad because, 1634 01:58:08.340 --> 01:58:11.500 and really identify what is causing that. 1635 01:58:11.500 --> 01:58:15.660 And underneath mad is typically sadness and frustration. 1636 01:58:15.660 --> 01:58:16.500 Okay. 1637 01:58:16.500 --> 01:58:17.580 So pray into those. 1638 01:58:17.580 --> 01:58:19.780 If you have any of those kinds of things surfacing, 1639 01:58:19.780 --> 01:58:21.580 let's see what God wants to reveal to you. 1640 01:58:21.580 --> 01:58:23.620 Come in the group, share with us, 1641 01:58:23.620 --> 01:58:24.580 and we'll go from there. 1642 01:58:24.580 --> 01:58:25.860 Father, thank you so much 1643 01:58:25.860 --> 01:58:27.660 for everything that you've done tonight, 1644 01:58:27.660 --> 01:58:29.060 everything you're going to continue to do. 1645 01:58:29.060 --> 01:58:31.980 God, we thank you for continued revealings for healing. 1646 01:58:31.980 --> 01:58:34.500 We speak life and hope and truth, God, 1647 01:58:34.500 --> 01:58:36.660 where there's obstacles, where people feel stuck. 1648 01:58:36.660 --> 01:58:39.140 God, we thank you that you would remove obstacles, 1649 01:58:39.140 --> 01:58:43.100 that you would remove the things that we, yes, Lord, 1650 01:58:43.100 --> 01:58:45.620 the doubts, the fears, the unbelief, God, 1651 01:58:45.620 --> 01:58:48.540 all the reasons why something can't happen. 1652 01:58:48.540 --> 01:58:52.100 God, we know that you are the God of the impossible. 1653 01:58:52.100 --> 01:58:55.740 And I thank you that you are resurrecting stories, 1654 01:58:55.740 --> 01:58:57.100 you're resurrecting lives. 1655 01:58:57.100 --> 01:58:59.540 And I thank you that you're resurrecting us. 1656 01:58:59.540 --> 01:59:01.460 And we just ask you to continue 1657 01:59:01.460 --> 01:59:05.060 to accelerate the healing process in all of our lives. 1658 01:59:05.060 --> 01:59:08.540 Bless them all with Salem rest tonight in Jesus name. 1659 01:59:08.540 --> 01:59:09.380 Amen. 1660 01:59:09.380 --> 01:59:10.300 God bless you all. 1661 01:59:10.300 --> 01:59:11.940 Have a great night, everyone. 1662 01:59:11.940 --> 01:59:12.780 Bye-bye.