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Hi everyone, welcome, happy Monday, it's good to see you all, so glad to have you here joining

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us tonight.

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I'm going to go ahead and do our housekeeping and then I'll do my little welcome because

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then I think we might have some new ladies on if they're not on already, but we'll go

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ahead and kind of wait for that.

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If you've not met me before, my name is Bethany Cooper, I'm one of the Master Heartwork Coaches

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here in the community and I love what I do, I love that I get to be here with all of you

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and I'm expecting God to do some really supernatural things, I always am, but I just felt like

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led even in my reminder post tonight, like if we expect big, I think it pushes us out

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of our comfort zones or invites us out of our comfort zones is maybe a better way to

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say it, to believe that God, you know, the God that created heaven and earth, He created

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everything, nothing is too hard for Him.

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And I know it can be tough, we can feel the obstacles in the physical realm and feel discouraged

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and look at what's not working, but I want to invite you tonight, even before we get

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into the content and the housekeeping, just to start to open your heart to letting go

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of focusing on the things that aren't working and allow God to show you what is working.

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Allow God to show you the things that are shifting, allow God to show you even the growth

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within yourself since you started this journey.

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So often we look at again, even in ourselves, like, I'm not this, I'm not that, I wanted

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to do this, or I should have noticed this, or, and we look at what we didn't see or what

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we're not doing or what we haven't accomplished versus what we have.

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And so I want to encourage you to do that starting tonight a little bit more every day

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in the days ahead.

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We encourage you all, don't just sign up for this program, but show up and even myself,

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okay?

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I have a program I signed up for and haven't started it yet.

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I signed up like three or four weeks ago.

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So I'm guilty too.

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And I want to encourage you all to kind of continue to come out of that.

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Those of you that come every week, I know you're showing up, want to encourage all those

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that might watch this replay, or you might even be afraid to post in a group because

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you're like, I don't know these people.

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I don't want to confess things to people I don't know.

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The reality is, is you're confessing them to the Lord in the group for group accountability.

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It raises the bar a little bit when we confess our sins one to another.

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And that's a different session, but we want you to not just sign up, but to show up and

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you're not shining, showing up for us.

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You're showing up for yourself.

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And it's basically like you acknowledging that you matter.

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Every post you make matters.

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Every shift in your heart matters.

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And when you show up and post in the group, here's the reality is that between you and

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God, you're saying, this is what God is doing in my life, or this is the area I'm still

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struggling and I want to have revelation.

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I want to have insight to break free.

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And I'm not willing to settle for less than that.

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And I'm willing to get out of my comfort zone.

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For those that might even be kind of, you've been here for weeks and maybe you're just

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not sure that you want to post or can you post, that's not my thing.

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I hear that a lot, you all.

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That's just not my thing.

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Well, here's the reality.

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At some point, we believed that and we partnered with that.

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And that's why we lived that out.

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But what if I said to you tonight that it is your thing and that you can choose to allow

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God to help you come into community with other people in this group, your sister squad.

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See, back in the day, we used to be like, hey, this is your sister squad.

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This is your bridal party.

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We used to talk about it all the time.

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And people, we've really gotten away from that.

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Like these are people that you can connect with if you desire to and grow on your journeys

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together into your plan and purpose.

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Some of the people that were in my bridal party, I was in their wedding.

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You know, like we're friends today.

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We walk on this journey together.

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And so I want to encourage you all to keep showing up.

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Come out of hiding, post in the group, turn your cameras on.

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Yes, I want to invite some of you tonight to turn your cameras on.

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I want you all to come expecting to turn your cameras on every single week.

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You don't have to have makeup on.

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I don't care what you look like.

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If you're not driving, you're not eating, you're not exercising, preferably while you're

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doing this.

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That's kind of distracting, but I love that you listen in.

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You know, again, we can't make you all do these things, but I'm telling you that if

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you will do them here, then you're going to be more comfortable doing them in future

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sessions on Supernatural Saturday when you're dating online.

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If you're sick, yeah, you know, totally understand.

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Don't want anyone to feel like, okay, because she said it, I'm guilted into doing it.

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No, but I want you to understand it's an invitation.

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This is just an invitation between you and the Lord.

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And it is amazing to see your faces.

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I love it.

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It's one of my favorite things when we're on here

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and I can see you all.

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I actually was looking over some old videos today

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from way back when I started coaching.

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And as soon as I like pushed play

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and I saw some of those faces of those ladies,

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I mean, this was back in 2021, you all.

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And I was like, oh, I remember her.

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I remember things we talked about.

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I remember things we coached on.

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And just to see where they are now,

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like genuinely, we love to see you all.

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All right, so that's enough on that.

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Heart posture while you're in this course is also key.

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What do I mean by that?

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I mean, come in with your heart completely open,

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be teachable, be able to allow God to soften your heart.

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I say this especially for, well, for everyone,

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but especially those that maybe you are

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from counseling professions,

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maybe you're from ministry backgrounds,

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or just people that have gone through a lot of healing

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and counseling and deliverance programs and SOZOs

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and all of that stuff, which is amazing.

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But what I want you to believe for while you're here

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is that God has something new to say to you

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while you're here.

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That's why he brought you here.

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We believe there is a supernatural grace upon our community

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that people get breakthroughs here

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that even though they've been in counseling for,

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you know, some people had gone through,

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they'd have been in counseling for years,

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and it's not discrediting the work of the counselor,

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everybody plays a part.

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But when they've come through,

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there's just this breakthrough

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and this revelation and dots are connected.

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So I want you to believe for those things

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no matter how much you know

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when you enter the door, so to speak.

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All right, Supernatural Saturday from this past Saturday,

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do you believe that I love you was the message.

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So powerful because, you know, if you guys remember,

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and even tonight we're gonna talk a little bit about this

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and kind of the flip side,

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but I have been saying for weeks,

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the more we know the love of the Father,

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the more freedom we will experience,

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the more truth and revelation we will experience.

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So when I saw that Jackie actually wasn't on live on Saturday

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because we were out of town,

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but when I saw that she did a message on that,

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and I read through all the notes of the session,

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I was like, man, I hope people really dial into this.

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So ladies, I wanna encourage you, listen to the replay,

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maybe listen to it more than once, you know,

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really let that soak in and really get to the root of,

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do you really believe that God loves you

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and that he has good things for your life?

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All right, let me pray for us.

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Father, thank you so much for this night.

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God, thank you for everything you're doing already.

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God, we're just asking you to come in

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and just till the ground of our hearts.

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Lord, I pray that you would soften our hearts,

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that you would remove calluses, that you would remove pain.

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God, we ask you to remove bondages and chains from the past

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and fears and anxieties that we have lived in.

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God, even ones we don't even acknowledge or know are there.

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God, I pray for revealings, for healing.

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God, that you would bring things

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from the darkness into the light.

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God, you are more powerful, more able.

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You are a mighty God, everlasting father.

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God, you are the prince of peace.

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We ask for your peace to come where there's been tremors,

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where there's been, you know,

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even just in the physical or supernatural realm,

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just like a physical earthquake can happen.

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God, sometimes we have these quakes in our soul

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from things that we've been through.

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God, I thank you that you would just repair the breach.

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God, that you would mend the foundation of their hearts,

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their minds, their bodies, their spirits, their souls.

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God, that you would literally set them free

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in ways they never could have asked for,

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thought of, or imagined.

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God, that you would, yes, Lord,

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that you would, any words that they've heard

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that have caused them to fear or trauma that they've seen

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or experienced that has caused fear or anxiety,

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God, we just say peace to those areas.

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In Jesus' name, we thank you, God,

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that you administer hope and life and truth.

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Jesus, you are the light of the world,

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and we ask you to bring your light tonight

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in a supernatural way.

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Let it be powerful, let it be known.

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Help them to know you more, Jesus, amen.

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All right, I forgot my new,

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because I was like, I'm gonna go into housekeeping,

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and then I kind of got on a roll there.

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So I wanna say hello to all of my first new ladies.

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Anybody new, you've never joined a live session here before.

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Cindy, hi.

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Anyone else joining this as your first live session,

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you can put that in the chat.

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I see Jennifer McFarlane, I think,

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waving her hand as well.

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If anyone else I didn't see,

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put that in the chat for me.

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Welcome, we're so glad that you're here.

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Is that Janelle?

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I think it says.

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And then for all of my ladies returning, hello.

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It's so great to see you all again.

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So glad to have you joining.

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Let's see, Rachel, looks like. Oh, she'll be on in a few. Okay. Awesome. Ari, welcome, welcome, welcome.

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We are so glad that you are here. We've been praying for all of you.

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Consistently, you all, we pray for God to draw people into our community,

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for God to bring healing to lives across the world, across the nation.

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And so know that you are here at this appointed time for what God has for you.

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Looks like Kim's is new. We have a lot of new ladies tonight. That's awesome.

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All right. So tonight's session is on overcoming fear and anxiety.

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We're going to work on overcoming fear and anxiety.

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And we're going to talk about the different ways that this shows up in our lives and holds us back.

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Sometimes they're known things. Sometimes they are unknown things.

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But before we talk about that, I just want to remind you all that your hearts are highly impressionable.

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Okay. So everything that you sow into your heart, remember what is put into our hearts is going to get reproduced.

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So wouldn't it be important for us to guard our hearts, to protect what's going in there?

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You know, a lot of times back in the day, at least when I was growing up in my faith and in my walk with the Lord,

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people will be like careful little eyes, what you see, careful little ears, what you hear,

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you know, really paying attention to things that are coming into our minds, into our ears, you know,

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and really thinking about what we're thinking about. And so I want to start there tonight.

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I want you to be thinking about what have you actually been thinking about?

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What has been, you know, having the priority real estate spot in your mind?

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Let's just think about the last week. Okay.

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I want you to put in the chat for me. What is a fear? If you've had more than one, totally fine.

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But what's the first one that comes to mind, fear or anxious thought that you've had in the last week?

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And what was it about fear or anxious thought that you've had in the last week?

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And what was that about for you? As those come in, I'll start to kind of read those out.

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As you guys are writing those, I want to read the scripture Proverbs 423.

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And this is what it says. Keep your heart with all vigilance for from it flows the springs of life.

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Vigilance in the, you know, the definition is the quality or state of being vigilant.

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So I look at that, you know, these words all go together, but vigilant means alertly watchful standing on watch you all.

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It's like having a guard dog or a guard literally at the door of your house.

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And we know that the heart represents the house, so to speak. And, and oftentimes we don't have anything guarding it.

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We're just letting everything in even our minds. What's what about the mind gate, right?

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To avoid danger, being vigilant means we're like on guard, we're watching to avoid danger.

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So how often is, you know, the stuff coming into our minds and, and you all this isn't to shame you or guilt you.

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I have it happen to where the enemy just comes in and sends these thoughts and I start thinking on them.

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We start thinking on them. And before we realize it, we're down the road.

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And sometimes we're around the block. We're like on a two hour drive, maybe two or three days in.

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And then it's like, oh my gosh, I didn't even realize I was believing the lies that the enemy said to me.

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All right. So let me look at some of these things that are coming in.

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Thanks for sharing for everyone that puts them in.

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Fear of failing at work. That I will continue to be alone. That I might have to have a root canal.

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Valid. Yes. Dental work. Y'all, it's not my friend either.

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But I actually have a lot of fear and anxiety when I go to the dentist.

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Anxious about sharing the news of my divorce with people. Yes. Okay. We'll be praying for you about that.

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What's my next step? Will I ever feel better?

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Did I miss God earlier? And if I did, how can I catch up now?

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I'm turning 40 soon. Will I be able to have children?

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Fear of being misunderstood. Fear of not being liked by people.

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And the fear of being stuck in areas of struggle. Fear of not being good enough.

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How will the dating process work after heart work?

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And how my heart will process all without being hurt? Yes.

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Fear I will run out of money before my pension funds are in my account.

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Fear I will never marry and or be alone.

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My son, Bradley, finances around school. Not losing weight to look better.

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Fear I am falling behind in LYS.

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And, sorry, I don't know why I can't do to a deadline in another area of my life that needs attention.

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And this deadline came on quickly.

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Same as Jennifer. Getting married late. Not being able to have bio children.

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When will the other shoe drop? Yes. These are so good, ladies.

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These are so good and real.

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When will the other issue come up? Letting people down and them having a lesser opinion of me.

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Fear that I'm not really who God says I am.

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Fear of not finding fulfilling work, bad decisions and mistakes that I made in my life,

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having chronic anxiety, is it ever going to go away? Can I trust again? Will I ever be loved?

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These are real. These are things that like literally the enemy sends an onslaught of

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thoughts on a regular basis to our minds. And so I want you just even right now,

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just extend some grace to yourself tonight. Sometimes it's hard work to resist the enemy

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and the thoughts that he sends our way. And I want you to really center yourself. I want you

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to kind of imagine God just coming up to you. I know it can be hard for us to imagine this stuff,

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especially if we didn't have good relationships with our fathers. But some of you did have good

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relationships with your father. So hopefully we can all just kind of imagine this right now.

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Maybe even just if it helps you imagine somebody that, you know, was kind of like a fatherly

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figure or a friend that's a guy when they hug you, just it just feels kindness. It feels loving

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and thoughtful. And I want you just to imagine obviously God is not man, but I want you just

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to imagine that same feeling, but like multiply it by like a million trillion. God hugging you

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right now, just right in the middle of these fears and just saying, daughter, it's OK. I've

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got you. I've got you. And I'm not going to let you fall. Yeah. Ladies, he's not disappointed in

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you. I feel the Holy Spirit, so I'm going to linger here for a minute. The father has you

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and he's not going to fail you. Now, some of you might be like, well, I'm afraid I'm going to fail.

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I saw that in the chat. What if we make a mistake again? Well, is God not big enough

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to help us get back on track? Do we think that we can miss the promises of God?

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I think we do often think that. But you know what? Here's the truth.

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Y'all, I still think back all the time to the fact that I dated my spiritual daughter's dad

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for six years. When I ended that relationship, man, I was like, I lost all that time.

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And I was so disappointed, like I felt like I missed things with God because of that.

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But here's the reality. God is the redeemer of our timelines.

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Y'all, I healed. I grew. I learned things. And God used all of that. He worked it all together

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for good. And he led me to Brian, who I'm now married to. I've been married for almost four

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years. And we are having an incredible journey. If God can do it for me, He can do it for you.

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If God can do it for me, He can do it for you. It doesn't matter what your age is. It doesn't.

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So it starts with our hearts. What do we believe? Fear is false evidence appearing real.

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So when we have these fears that y'all wrote in the chat, I want you to maybe note that on your

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paper, whatever you wrote down in the chat, put that down on your paper, even if you have to

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scroll back up because maybe you already forgot what you wrote in there, I'm not sure,

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but that you would jot it down and then write next to it or under it, fear,

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false evidence appearing real. So where is the enemy trying to convince me of something that

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isn't real in this thing that I'm afraid of? Sometimes we got to work it backwards, right?

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We got to start with, okay, what are the thoughts that I'm having? And then how is the enemy making

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that look real and enlarging that versus God being bigger than my fear? Anxiety is fueled by fear.

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So they partner together a lot of the time, you all. So people that tend to struggle with a lot

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of fear tend to also have anxieties. And some people now will feel anxious more than others,

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but there are still people that struggle with anxiousness and anxious thoughts,

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but they just know how to control it a little more.

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But at the root, those things go together a lot of the time. And anxiety, anxious thoughts are

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fueled by a lot of what if, what if this, what if that, what if this, what if that.

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So tonight I want to just encourage you to allow God to quiet all of those things.

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Again, kind of helping you guys.

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Some of the things that I did even as we started to have you pause and just imagine God hugging you and saying, I've got you.

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I'm doing some of those things as the Holy Spirit was leading,

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but I feel like God is giving that to all of us,

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myself included, as a tool that we can literally all week long center ourselves in.

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When something comes up and we start to feel that fear rising or we're triggered or whatever that looks like for you,

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that you would just pause and, yeah, Lord, I remember.

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I remember that you've got me.

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Maybe for you it's God taking you by the hand versus a hug.

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Maybe that's where you're at.

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But whatever is safe for you, whatever feels believable for you, start there.

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And connecting with God in that way will enable you to kind of downshift out of fear mode.

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Trauma that happened to us isn't what stops us from living an amazing life,

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but it's the lies we believe as a result of those traumas.

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That's the thing that we have to get to.

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So in this community, in this program, a lot of times we're going to ask you,

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okay, I want to encourage you to pray and ask the Lord to reveal the root.

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What that means, it's the root lie that we're believing because of the trauma that we've been through.

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Fears and anxiety feed off of the lies.

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So when you guys read the HeartWork book, some of you aren't this far in,

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but it's going to talk about Beezlebub and how he's the Lord of the flies.

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And this is in another session, so I'm not going to go into it too far,

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but it just came up in my spirit again, so I'm just going to mention it.

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But the flies look for a source of food, right, an open wound.

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And so the enemy is always looking for the open wound.

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He's trying to figure out how can he get you to believe his lie and eat of the fruit, if you will.

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Yes, the weak spots. He wants to get you off track.

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Y'all, I can't tell you how much resistance we have experienced in the last year and a half, two years,

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and last year single, same thing here in our church.

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And yes, there's always resistance, but I'm telling you, when you're going in the right direction,

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understand the enemy will want you to not go in that direction.

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He will try to distract you from going in the right direction.

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I just did this little exercise with our kids here at the church yesterday.

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I taped a green line down on the floor, and the green line was the line that represented going home,

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going to the Lord, being on track with the Lord and what he has for their life.

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And then offshoots of that were red tape.

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And when they would get to the red tape, I would have them stop, and I would give them a scenario.

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The red tape represented temptation.

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So I want you to kind of even be thinking about this in regards to fear.

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The red lines tonight are like the fears, the anxious thoughts.

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So we're walking down the path towards God, and we're going on our way, and then all of a sudden we're disrupted

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because the fear is coming in, anxious thoughts are coming in, but here's the reality.

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In that moment, we have a choice.

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We have a choice to partner with the lie or to resist the lie and say, you know,

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not today, devil, not today.

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And I know that sounds so simple.

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I'm not trying to say it's easy.

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I'm just trying to say that we do have the ability to resist the devil, the Bible says, and he will flee from us.

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And then we can keep going on the path that God has for us.

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When we have problem areas and areas that we constantly feel stuck, even when it comes to lies we believe, fears, anxious thoughts,

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if you tend to see the same fears coming up over and over, even if they look a little different, sound a little different,

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but the common, like, thread is similar, that is a signal to you that that is an area you are believing lies.

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And the enemy is trying to just keep you stuck in there, going around the same mountain over and over and over.

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But when we get revelation of truth, guess what?

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The truth of the word is what sets us free.

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That's what brings liberty.

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That's what brings transformation.

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So soaking in the truth of God's love for you truly will start to cause these ripple effects in the spirit,

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and you will start to see things differently.

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I'm just going to read a couple things very briefly from the HeartWork book.

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This is just from chapter, I try to always tell you, from the HeartWomb chapter in chapter 5.

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Five, and this is what it says.

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Not everyone sees the dysfunction in their life

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as a problem.

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The biggest lie that you might believe in life

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is that your life is normal.

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Many people that live broken lives

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believe it's reasonable to live that way.

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They have inherited an emotional debt or trauma

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from their family, and they think it's normal.

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Normal to be overweight, normal to be unhappy,

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to be unfaithful, normal to be in a relationship

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where someone mistreats you.

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Normal to be sick all the time.

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They think it's okay to have massive amounts of debt

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and spend all of their energy trying to figure out

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how to pay the bills.

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that it's normal to abuse and hurt others or yourself.

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When they are confronted, here's another one, sorry,

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they thought it was normal to be molested by family members

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because it's all they had ever known.

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they said that happens in everyone's family, doesn't it?

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No, it doesn't.

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So maybe some of you have been confronted by friends,

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coworkers, people in the community, coaches like myself,

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that are saying, hey, I wanna encourage you

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to really look at this area of your heart and your life.

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I know most of you have come in

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because you're trying to learn how to walk

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in a healthier path to meet your spirit mate,

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and that is what led me here as well.

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But I'll tell you what, man,

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God upgraded every area of my life as I allowed him to.

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He wanted to heal my view of money.

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He wanted to heal my view of my limiting belief systems

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and the way I was looking at God's provision for me.

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He wanted to heal my job and career area

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and how it's functioning in there.

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He wanted to work myself to death, work myself to the bone

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and always feel like I could never get ahead,

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never get ahead, everybody always holding me back.

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There was a lot of things that I needed,

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a higher revelation, a higher understanding,

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so that I could receive everything that God had for me.

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So my question for you tonight as well is,

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what area are you trying to convince yourself,

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well, this is just normal?

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My family's always been in debt,

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so this is just how it goes, you know?

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Well, you serve a God of the kingdom.

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I'm not saying that every person is meant to,

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you know, live a certain way.

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Some people, you know, you go as a missionary,

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there's all different, you have to raise funds.

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to shift the way that we look at our finances,

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how we approach them, how we steward them, and that matters.

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Maybe it's your friendships.

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Maybe you just think it's normal that your friends

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kind of like, don't really act like they care about you

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and mistreat you.

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like keeping the peace.

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No, like God wants good friendships for you.

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But sometimes we have to let go of the old

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so that we can receive the new.

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All right, we're gonna keep going.

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So I want you to, as you're going through

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some of these things in your life

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and these lies are entering in and these fears are there

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and they're evident and they're present,

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I want you to ask yourself two questions.

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And this is how you kind of get to the root

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of the false evidence appearing real as well.

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Number one, what are the facts in this situation?

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What are the facts?

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And if you're not sure, these are the kind of things

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you can even come into the group and you can ask us like,

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hey, this is something I'm processing.

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Like I'm having a hard time looking to see

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what the facts of this are.

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We can help you with that.

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Number two, what is true?

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Like what's really true about this?

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And again, you're looking at it also like

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where's the enemy tricking me

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and making something false look real?

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This is gonna help your discernment levels grow, ladies.

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Okay?

459
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We can overcome fears the more that we heal

460
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and the more rooted we become in God's love

461
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and faithfulness to us,

462
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which is what I've been alluding to tonight already.

463
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Are you someone who is always waiting

464
00:29:26.500 --> 00:29:27.580
for the other shoe to drop?

465
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Someone mentioned that in the chat earlier.

466
00:29:29.500 --> 00:29:32.340
Always thinking something bad is gonna come

467
00:29:32.340 --> 00:29:34.980
and it might be right around the corner.

468
00:29:34.980 --> 00:29:36.900
You tend to think of the worst case scenario

469
00:29:36.900 --> 00:29:38.980
instead of the best case scenario.

470
00:29:40.260 --> 00:29:42.940
What comes to mind, and I don't say this all the time,

471
00:29:42.940 --> 00:29:44.540
but it just came up in my spirit.

472
00:29:44.660 --> 00:29:47.660
Some of us have the Eeyore spirit.

473
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That's what I call it.

474
00:29:49.100 --> 00:29:51.940
You know, like Winnie the Pooh and Eeyore.

475
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Eeyore was never happy.

476
00:29:54.300 --> 00:29:56.060
It didn't matter what was going on.

477
00:29:57.020 --> 00:29:59.620
Pooh's bouncing around, or Tigger's bouncing around.

478
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:05.680
all over the place full of joy and then you have poo. Isn't that the total opposites, right?

479
00:30:09.040 --> 00:30:14.320
But God didn't intend for us to constantly always, I mean obviously he wants us to have joy, but

480
00:30:14.320 --> 00:30:18.960
I feel like poo was kind of like the middle, that middle person, if you will, and then you

481
00:30:18.960 --> 00:30:25.440
have piglet there too. But we were never intended to be eeyores, which some people turn into that

482
00:30:25.440 --> 00:30:31.920
when fears that are based in lies are unresolved because they start to turn into hopelessness and

483
00:30:31.920 --> 00:30:39.440
you know that depression and despair. God does not want that for his kids. Okay, let's keep going.

484
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Are you someone that you hear a siren and you think something happened to someone you love?

485
00:30:43.760 --> 00:30:49.200
And here's the reality ladies, this stuff happens because something happened to us or someone we

486
00:30:49.200 --> 00:30:54.640
loved and it got stored in our subconscious that we need to be afraid when we hear a siren.

487
00:30:56.400 --> 00:31:01.760
And it's not just because COPS TV is on shows. This is typically, I mean yeah that can do it to

488
00:31:01.760 --> 00:31:05.520
you, but typically this happens because of things that you have experienced.

489
00:31:08.160 --> 00:31:12.800
Let's go this direction as well. Someone doesn't respond to a text message that you sent in the

490
00:31:12.800 --> 00:31:18.240
time frame you think that they should have responded to you by. What are the first thoughts

491
00:31:18.240 --> 00:31:27.440
that you have? I want you to think about it. These are some things I wrote down. Are they mad at me?

492
00:31:29.200 --> 00:31:35.120
I guess they really don't care about me because if they did they would have responded by now.

493
00:31:35.120 --> 00:31:40.560
Are they ignoring my text? He must be talking to someone else.

494
00:31:41.280 --> 00:31:44.880
I'm not pretty enough or good enough to get his attention.

495
00:31:47.120 --> 00:31:56.080
It can go on and on and on. They're avoiding me. People don't like me. I'm not important.

496
00:31:58.720 --> 00:32:03.600
What are the things that you tend to believe if you text someone? In our modern society literally

497
00:32:03.600 --> 00:32:09.280
we have turned into a group of people that if someone texts, if we text someone and they don't

498
00:32:09.440 --> 00:32:15.040
respond immediately or even within an hour, let's say that, we'll stretch it a little bit.

499
00:32:17.040 --> 00:32:21.920
We have some people that they will just continue to message and continue to message and continue

500
00:32:21.920 --> 00:32:28.480
to message. Whether it's a friend or it's a guy they're dating or whatever that scenario is. Maybe

501
00:32:28.480 --> 00:32:34.880
it's their parent and that you all is called anxious attachment. It's called not being able

502
00:32:35.440 --> 00:32:42.800
to trust that when that person is able to respond to you they will. We've turned into a very

503
00:32:42.800 --> 00:32:48.640
self-centered like everything is about me when I want it and how I want it versus,

504
00:32:49.360 --> 00:32:56.960
huh, I bet they're in a meeting or something. Or maybe they're just having a bad day.

505
00:32:58.400 --> 00:33:04.000
Or maybe they're really busy and they just feel overwhelmed. You know, like we think the worst.

506
00:33:05.120 --> 00:33:11.280
Why don't we think the best? The Bible says that we should believe the best in each other. Like,

507
00:33:11.280 --> 00:33:15.120
you know, you believe the best in me, I believe the best in you. Same thing kind of happens in

508
00:33:15.120 --> 00:33:21.120
the group. People will post and because they're already afraid to post, if the post isn't responded

509
00:33:21.120 --> 00:33:25.840
to in the time frame that they want it to be, they will delete it or they will email us and

510
00:33:25.840 --> 00:33:31.840
ask why their post wasn't responded to. No joke you all. In the time frame they thought, now we do

511
00:33:31.840 --> 00:33:38.560
our best to respond to you all within like 12 to 24 hours. On the weekends it's going to be a

512
00:33:38.560 --> 00:33:46.960
little bit longer because we do give our team some breaks. But here's the reality. What is going on

513
00:33:46.960 --> 00:33:53.680
inside of us that causes us to believe that they're just not responding to us? Because even in

514
00:33:53.680 --> 00:33:58.480
our app, unfortunately, there's so many things I love about our app, but the notifications,

515
00:33:58.480 --> 00:34:03.760
seeing when somebody responds to you, it is, it's just not great. Okay. We're just going to call it

516
00:34:03.760 --> 00:34:08.480
out what it is. But sometimes we actually do respond to people and then they never even see

517
00:34:08.480 --> 00:34:13.679
our comments back as coaches or you guys, I comment to you, then you come back. But let's

518
00:34:13.679 --> 00:34:19.920
just really like get to the root of, okay, what's really getting stirred up in me? Even when things

519
00:34:19.920 --> 00:34:30.320
like this happen and allow God to heal us to such a place to know that, hey, I really believe this

520
00:34:30.320 --> 00:34:35.520
coach has my best interest in mind. I believe this sister in Christ has, you know, my best, whatever

521
00:34:35.520 --> 00:34:40.719
that scenario is, my coworker. Now, someone that's super unhealthy, y'all, that's different. We're not

522
00:34:40.719 --> 00:34:48.159
talking about that right now. Okay. We're talking about in a healthy, safe context. Okay. All right.

523
00:34:48.159 --> 00:34:54.880
Let's keep going. So where are your thoughts rooted? Are they rooted in fear, doubt, unbelief,

524
00:34:54.880 --> 00:34:59.920
insecurity, pain, wounds, or are they rooted in?

525
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:03.600
in love. 1 John 4.18 in the amplified version says this,

526
00:35:03.600 --> 00:35:08.600
there is no fear in love. Dread does not exist. But perfect,

527
00:35:08.600 --> 00:35:13.080
complete, full grown love drives out fear, because fear involves

528
00:35:13.080 --> 00:35:17.760
the expectation of divine punishment. So the one who is

529
00:35:17.760 --> 00:35:22.000
afraid of God's judgment is not perfected in love has not grown

530
00:35:22.020 --> 00:35:26.120
sufficient, excuse me, grown into a sufficient understanding

531
00:35:26.120 --> 00:35:30.760
of God's love. Basically, it's saying like, if we are afraid,

532
00:35:31.660 --> 00:35:35.240
we have not grown into a sufficient understanding of

533
00:35:35.240 --> 00:35:40.600
God's love. Again, that's 1 John 4.18 in the amplified version, I

534
00:35:40.600 --> 00:35:43.480
encourage you guys to meditate on that this week and really,

535
00:35:43.760 --> 00:35:47.600
like ask the Lord like, God helped me to grow more in the

536
00:35:47.600 --> 00:35:53.480
understanding of your love for me. God that you have my back.

537
00:35:53.480 --> 00:36:02.960
That he had just us in on every side. John 3.16 for God so loved

538
00:36:02.960 --> 00:36:05.160
the world that he gave his only begotten son that whoever

539
00:36:05.160 --> 00:36:08.560
believes in him should not perish but have everlasting

540
00:36:08.560 --> 00:36:14.520
life. He sent his one and only son for us. What makes us think

541
00:36:14.520 --> 00:36:18.360
he won't pour out a blessing that which we could not contain

542
00:36:18.360 --> 00:36:23.320
in other areas of our lives. He gave his son he literally gave

543
00:36:23.320 --> 00:36:30.160
his son up for us. I'm going to read a couple lyrics from a song

544
00:36:30.160 --> 00:36:33.760
called fear is a liar. This is so powerful. This song if you

545
00:36:33.760 --> 00:36:36.240
guys get a chance, definitely encourage you to listen to it.

546
00:36:36.240 --> 00:36:40.840
But this is what it says. And this is talking about fear lying

547
00:36:40.840 --> 00:36:43.400
to us. That's the name of the song. But I want you to

548
00:36:43.400 --> 00:36:46.240
understand that in the context of what I'm about to read to

549
00:36:46.240 --> 00:36:51.440
you. So when he when I when I'm referencing he right here, this

550
00:36:51.440 --> 00:36:55.800
is when fear when he when he told you you're not good enough

551
00:36:55.840 --> 00:36:58.360
when he told you you're not right. When he told you you're

552
00:36:58.360 --> 00:37:01.600
not strong enough to put up a good fight. When he told you

553
00:37:01.600 --> 00:37:04.560
you're not worthy when he told you you're not loved. When he

554
00:37:04.560 --> 00:37:09.120
told you you're not beautiful, you'll never be enough. Fear he

555
00:37:09.120 --> 00:37:12.920
is a liar. He will take your breath, stop you in your steps

556
00:37:12.920 --> 00:37:17.480
fear he is a liar. He will rob your rest steal your happiness

557
00:37:17.520 --> 00:37:22.760
cast your fear in the fire. Because fear he is a liar. When

558
00:37:22.760 --> 00:37:26.240
he told you you were troubled you'll forever be alone. When he

559
00:37:26.240 --> 00:37:29.360
told you you should run away you'll never find a home. When

560
00:37:29.360 --> 00:37:32.440
he told you you were dirty and you should be ashamed when he

561
00:37:32.440 --> 00:37:36.680
told you you could be the one that grace could never change.

562
00:37:37.040 --> 00:37:40.400
Oh fear he is a liar he will take your breath stop you in

563
00:37:40.400 --> 00:37:46.200
your steps fear he is a liar. He will rob your rest steal your

564
00:37:46.200 --> 00:37:52.720
happiness cast your fear in the fire. Because fear he is a liar.

565
00:37:53.360 --> 00:37:56.400
You know, there's that song it just came to mind about, you

566
00:37:56.400 --> 00:38:02.640
know, how there's another man in the fire. Like I want you all to

567
00:38:02.640 --> 00:38:06.720
even just imagine like, you know, it's you and your fears.

568
00:38:07.240 --> 00:38:15.720
And the fears are the fire. And God is right there with you in

569
00:38:15.720 --> 00:38:18.360
the midst of all of that says different version of what I was

570
00:38:18.360 --> 00:38:23.080
saying earlier. Hebrews 12, one says, therefore, since we are

571
00:38:23.080 --> 00:38:26.240
surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off

572
00:38:26.280 --> 00:38:30.200
everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles

573
00:38:30.200 --> 00:38:38.240
and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. You

574
00:38:38.240 --> 00:38:40.280
know, some of the fears that I've had to work through and

575
00:38:40.280 --> 00:38:45.720
anxieties. Years ago, I was really, really afraid of the

576
00:38:45.720 --> 00:38:50.040
dark was huge, massive one for me. It came out of all the the

577
00:38:50.040 --> 00:38:52.600
sexual abuse. I didn't understand this until many years

578
00:38:52.600 --> 00:38:56.560
later, but all the sexual abuse. A lot of it happened in our

579
00:38:56.560 --> 00:39:00.560
basement. And I would feel this deep fear when I would be in the

580
00:39:00.560 --> 00:39:03.120
basement having to come up the stairs and the lights were off

581
00:39:03.120 --> 00:39:06.560
and just to like run up the stairs really fast. And then

582
00:39:06.560 --> 00:39:11.960
even like, in our house, we had this kitchen that kind of came

583
00:39:11.960 --> 00:39:14.960
up from the stairs and went around to the living room. But

584
00:39:14.960 --> 00:39:17.680
off of there was this other room that had all these windows and I

585
00:39:17.680 --> 00:39:20.080
had a lot of fear of people looking in the windows at me,

586
00:39:20.080 --> 00:39:24.080
which it all makes sense again, now hindsight. But as a young

587
00:39:24.080 --> 00:39:27.640
girl, I I had no clue why I thought people were looking in

588
00:39:27.640 --> 00:39:31.040
the windows at me. But I was literally afraid when it would

589
00:39:31.040 --> 00:39:33.400
get dark out at night that people were looking in the

590
00:39:33.400 --> 00:39:37.560
windows at me. And so I would run from one side of the kitchen

591
00:39:37.560 --> 00:39:41.440
to the other. I would hide literally and sit in front of

592
00:39:41.760 --> 00:39:45.840
chairs at night. Excuse me sit in front of chairs at night just

593
00:39:45.840 --> 00:39:48.600
trying to like huddle down so that if someone looked in the

594
00:39:48.600 --> 00:39:53.120
window, they couldn't see me. These are real things like this

595
00:39:53.120 --> 00:39:58.800
is how I live for a long time. Until, you know, I got a little

596
00:39:58.800 --> 00:39:59.760
older gave my life to

597
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:05.920
faced and started learning that this was a spirit of fear that had been coming against

598
00:40:05.920 --> 00:40:09.940
me and that I had to take a stand against it.

599
00:40:09.940 --> 00:40:16.000
And you all literally, I, you know, I had to learn, um, when that fear would come on

600
00:40:16.000 --> 00:40:20.580
me that I could not continue to give into it.

601
00:40:20.580 --> 00:40:25.360
So even as a doll, after I got married the first time, I remember I was living in a duplex,

602
00:40:25.360 --> 00:40:27.760
but again, this happened a lot of times at night.

603
00:40:28.160 --> 00:40:30.920
Um, I'm not saying it never happened in the day, but mostly at night.

604
00:40:30.920 --> 00:40:32.800
But I would feel that fear come on me.

605
00:40:32.800 --> 00:40:35.160
And that just like, Oh my God, I gotta run up the stairs.

606
00:40:35.160 --> 00:40:35.560
I gotta run.

607
00:40:35.800 --> 00:40:39.440
Like, just like something was near me, but nobody was in the room.

608
00:40:39.560 --> 00:40:45.440
This was all spiritual warfare against me and I would resist it.

609
00:40:45.700 --> 00:40:48.160
And I just kept praying that scripture over myself.

610
00:40:48.460 --> 00:40:49.800
I don't have a spirit of fear.

611
00:40:49.800 --> 00:40:53.160
I have a spirit of love and power in a sound mind, but I would put my name in it.

612
00:40:53.200 --> 00:40:55.960
My name used to be Bethany Cooper or Bethany Stanko back then.

613
00:40:56.800 --> 00:40:58.640
I, Bethany Stanko, don't have a spirit of fear.

614
00:40:58.640 --> 00:41:01.400
I have a spirit of love and of power and of a sound mind.

615
00:41:01.400 --> 00:41:02.800
But here's the other thing I did.

616
00:41:03.560 --> 00:41:06.680
I made myself walk slow.

617
00:41:08.360 --> 00:41:13.240
I know these sound like little things you all, but these were things that set me

618
00:41:13.360 --> 00:41:17.720
free because eventually I didn't feel that anymore.

619
00:41:18.640 --> 00:41:23.320
The enemy figured out that he could no longer control me or manipulate me through

620
00:41:23.320 --> 00:41:25.040
that spirit of fear anymore.

621
00:41:25.400 --> 00:41:31.040
And he left many years later when I was dating my spiritual daughter's dad.

622
00:41:31.040 --> 00:41:33.120
This is long after my divorce.

623
00:41:34.120 --> 00:41:36.920
And I found out he was cheating on me with multiple women.

624
00:41:37.280 --> 00:41:42.400
Um, I had what I now know as a panic attack and, you know, was praying and just

625
00:41:42.400 --> 00:41:44.560
angry with God and all kinds of things crying.

626
00:41:44.560 --> 00:41:50.200
And I remember that, that anxiety and that panic entering back in.

627
00:41:50.200 --> 00:41:54.640
And I started like, it was like worse than it used to be before.

628
00:41:55.720 --> 00:42:00.080
And I remember one day asking God, why did you make me this way?

629
00:42:01.800 --> 00:42:03.080
And he said, I didn't.

630
00:42:05.040 --> 00:42:06.040
That's what he said to me.

631
00:42:07.800 --> 00:42:08.920
I said, yes, you did.

632
00:42:08.920 --> 00:42:10.960
I've been like this as long as I can remember.

633
00:42:10.960 --> 00:42:15.680
And he said, no, Bethany, when I made you, I did not put that in you.

634
00:42:16.320 --> 00:42:20.120
That's there because of what you went through and what you believed, because

635
00:42:20.120 --> 00:42:22.800
you didn't know how to defend yourself as a kid.

636
00:42:23.480 --> 00:42:28.880
And the reason it entered back in when I went through those betrayals is because,

637
00:42:29.320 --> 00:42:33.200
um, those betrayals, it was the current situation, but it linked right back to

638
00:42:33.200 --> 00:42:38.600
when my dad was cheating on my mom and he left us and, you know, my dad leaving us.

639
00:42:39.160 --> 00:42:43.440
Opened a massive door for the enemy to use my brothers to sexually abuse us.

640
00:42:43.440 --> 00:42:44.640
Because nobody was around.

641
00:42:44.840 --> 00:42:47.160
And even when my mom was around, she wasn't paying attention.

642
00:42:49.640 --> 00:42:51.880
So I don't know what your situation is.

643
00:42:51.880 --> 00:42:53.600
Maybe it's none of those things.

644
00:42:53.880 --> 00:42:57.400
Maybe you don't really struggle with fear, anxiety, and that's totally okay.

645
00:42:57.840 --> 00:43:00.520
But you might come across someone one day that does.

646
00:43:00.560 --> 00:43:03.680
So I hope that you're tucking this information away if that's the case.

647
00:43:04.360 --> 00:43:09.920
But for some of you, maybe it's just the constant, like nagging thoughts.

648
00:43:10.280 --> 00:43:13.240
That nothing is ever going to change for you.

649
00:43:13.280 --> 00:43:15.680
You're always going to attract unhealthy guys.

650
00:43:15.880 --> 00:43:19.000
You know, these are all different kinds of fears that we can experience.

651
00:43:20.600 --> 00:43:23.840
So I'm going to open up the breakout rooms for you here in a moment.

652
00:43:24.080 --> 00:43:26.720
Here is your question to talk about in the room tonight.

653
00:43:27.600 --> 00:43:29.960
What fear are you going to ask God to help you with?

654
00:43:30.240 --> 00:43:32.360
So it could be the one you put in the chat already.

655
00:43:32.360 --> 00:43:34.120
It could be something totally different.

656
00:43:34.120 --> 00:43:36.000
It could be something that you're not aware of.

657
00:43:36.000 --> 00:43:37.720
It could be something that you're not aware of.

658
00:43:37.720 --> 00:43:39.720
All right, let me get these rooms ready for y'all.

659
00:43:47.720 --> 00:43:48.720
All right.

660
00:43:51.720 --> 00:43:53.920
I'm going to give you guys nine minutes.

661
00:43:54.480 --> 00:43:56.680
That should be about three minutes, two and a half minutes.

662
00:43:56.680 --> 00:44:00.520
So I'm going to give you guys nine minutes to think about what you're going to ask God to help you with.

663
00:44:00.520 --> 00:44:03.120
And then I'm going to open up the breakout rooms for you here in a moment.

664
00:44:03.120 --> 00:44:06.760
So I'm going to give you guys nine minutes to think about what you're going to ask God to help you with.

665
00:44:06.760 --> 00:44:08.720
Three minutes, two and a half to three minutes each.

666
00:44:09.120 --> 00:44:10.840
Make sure you talk about this first.

667
00:44:10.960 --> 00:44:11.960
Okay.

668
00:44:12.040 --> 00:44:13.720
Talk about what the fear is.

669
00:44:14.280 --> 00:44:18.320
Maybe even talk about like, where do you think this fear entered for you?

670
00:44:20.200 --> 00:44:21.560
Okay, let's focus there first.

671
00:44:21.560 --> 00:44:27.320
If you have extra time after all two to three people in your room have shared, then get to get to know each other a little bit.

672
00:44:27.320 --> 00:44:28.760
Where did you know? Where are you from?

673
00:44:29.040 --> 00:44:31.240
What led you here? What are you believing for this week?

674
00:44:31.240 --> 00:44:32.440
Let's talk about a positive.

675
00:44:32.680 --> 00:44:37.280
But first talk about what fear are you going to ask God to help you with tonight?

676
00:44:37.320 --> 00:44:40.240
And when do you think that fear entered your life?

677
00:44:40.520 --> 00:44:45.240
Okay, those are on the screen for you to go ahead and accept to join those rooms.

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And as you all are joining those, I'll move people around if needed.

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And then I'll start to pray.

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All right, Lord, we just thank you for this day.

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We thank you for everything you're doing tonight.

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All right, we got two there.

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We thank you for the healing that is happening.

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God, we ask for greater revelation and truth to enter into every breakout room, even into

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this room as I'm praying.

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Those that are going to watch the replay, God, we know that you're renewing us from

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the inside out.

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God, that you're transforming us and shifting.

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We thank you that shackles are falling off of our minds, our hearts, our bodies, our

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spirits, our souls.

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I thank you, God, that you're inviting us into greater revelation, greater truth.

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Yes, Lord, we just ask you to breathe over these ladies and help them to receive an upgrade

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of the revelation of your love for them tonight.

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We thank you that you'll lead them into all truth, God, that you'll anoint them for all

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of their lives and walk and calling, and that you'll lead them deeper into Jesus right now,

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Lord.

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We just thank you, God, that you are redeeming their timelines, that you're going into the

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deepest places of their souls, God, in your breathing life, and you're speaking hope.

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God, we thank you, God.

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Yes, Lord, no longer will they die in these areas.

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No longer will they be stuck.

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God, we thank you for dislodging things that need dislodged.

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We thank you, God, that even people that I just saw in the spirit, like a revelation

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of a ship getting hooked to the dock, but the person didn't even know it was hooked

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to the dock.

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So every time they tried to pull away, they just have felt held back, but it was like

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this mysterious thing hooked them.

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So Lord, we just thank you that nothing is mysterious to you, that all things are known

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by you.

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So we thank you that you would bring the revelation of what they need and how they need it to

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them.

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We know that the enemy, he tries to be sneaky, and he tries to come in in different ways

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and hinder us, but God, we thank you that you are the one that raises up a standard

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against him, and that when the enemy comes in like a flood, you cause him to flee in

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seven ways, God, that you are greater than anything the enemy could ever bring against

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us, God.

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We thank you.

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Yes, Lord.

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Yes, Lord.

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We just declare life and hope and truth.

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Yeah, Lord.

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I just continue to see little plants and sprouts coming up through the earth.

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God, we know that Isaiah 43, 19 says, you know, behold, I'm doing something new.

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Can you not perceive it?

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I'm bringing streams in the wastelands and rivers in the desert.

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God, we thank you for new life.

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We thank you for sprouts coming up, Lord, where we didn't even know that they could

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come up.

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We thank you that you are the one that enables us to see ourselves in ways that we've never

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seen ourselves before.

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God, I thank you that you would just, yeah, Lord, just remove, like I literally saw caps

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for minds being removed, and so Lord, we just thank you that you would help us to, as caps

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are being removed, those are representing negative thoughts, negative perceptions, orphan

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mentalities, limiting belief systems.

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We just say go in Jesus' name, and we thank you for the revelation of heaven that is coming

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tonight.

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Yes, Lord, we thank you for divine oil flowing from heaven, washing over every one of those

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here in this HeartWork course live tonight, those catching the replay.

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We thank you, God, that just like it came down the beard of Aaron, so it will be so

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for them, that it will go into every area.

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And we know, Lord, just like the examples that Jackie gives in the HeartWork book where

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the gold goes in and it fills all the cracks, and God, that that is your glory being revealed

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in us and through us.

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God, we thank you that you would help them to, Lord, receive your truth in the full measure

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of grace that you have set aside for them.

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We know, Lord, that, yeah, Lord, that you would just guard their hearts and their minds

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through Christ Jesus and help them to partner with you in that.

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God, that they would, yes, Lord, help them to be able to quickly, quickly, quickly discern

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the lies of the enemy, that they will start to pick up on those things faster and be able

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to cast those things down and choose rather to believe what the Word of God says about

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them and about their lives.

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And, God, we know that greater is he that is in us than he that is in the world.

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So we thank you for the same power that rose Jesus Christ from the dead is living in us

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and operates through us, that his blood covers every pain, every broken area.

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Yes, Lord, we thank you that we can be in relationship with you because Jesus came and

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he died so that we could be in relationship.

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So we thank you for intimacy with you, God.

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I thank you that these ladies will no longer hide or resist intimate time studying your

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word, reading devotions, worshiping God.

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They will have a friend.

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hunger, and thirst for your righteousness, for your word, God.

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Let it be new. Let it be fun.

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Let it bring revival in their hearts, God, and we thank you for a place of rest.

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Then in the midst of it all, God, that you would teach them your rest.

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God, that they can rest in you because they can trust you.

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You are trustworthy, God. You're not a liar.

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Yes, Lord. Yes, Lord.

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Where parents or people in authority have lied to them, God, we just ask for healing in those areas.

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God, help them to forgive people that have betrayed them and deceived them in any way.

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We thank you, God, that you would help them to walk into the fullness of all that you have for them.

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God, including forgiveness, including healing, including, yes, Lord, complete restoration.

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Complete restoration, nothing missing, nothing lacking, nothing broken.

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Yes, Lord, I thank you that we are not too broken for a spirit mate.

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Lord, help them to receive it.

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Yes, Lord, we thank you.

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We thank you that we're not too broken.

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Yes, Lord, to be a daughter of the King.

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Lord, where they feel like they're still on the outside, like an orphan in those orphan mentalities, begging to get in and the gate is closed.

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God, we thank you that you give them the revelation that the gate is open to them.

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And that they can walk right in and they can sit with you and they can dine with you, God.

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And help them to understand what that means.

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God, that they have full access to you.

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So, Lord, if there's women that have at any time been ignored by fathers, been ignored by even bosses, like I was talking about earlier, where they work and they work and they work and they feel like nobody notices or that they miss out on the promotion or the things that they're trying so hard for, God, I speak favor with God and man over their lives.

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I thank you that you will help us to not partner with the lie that we're not seen, that we're not heard, that we're not loved.

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I thank you, God, that we will see the truth in every situation, God, that you will lift veils of deception off of our minds, off of our hearts.

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Yes, Lord, we thank you for truth that illuminates the darkness, that darkness cannot remain where the light is.

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So, God, we thank you for bringing the light.

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Jesus, thank you that you are the light.

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Holy Spirit, we thank you that you're here.

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We thank you that you're moving and just coming in and speaking truth to us in love.

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Yes, Lord, help us to hear through new ears, to see through fresh eyes.

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Thank you, Lord.

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Thank you, Lord, for the upgrade and reminder that we are princesses, God, that we are heirs of the kingdom.

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Thank you, Lord.

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Yes, Lord, I thank you that we will hear.

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Yeah, I just keep hearing, hear and see truth, hear and see truth.

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And so, Lord, help us to continue to partner with that and to know that you're working all things together for good, to save many people alive and to heal our lives.

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Isaiah 40, 31 says, but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.

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They will soar on wings like eagles.

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They will run and not grow weary.

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They will walk and not be faint.

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I thank you, Lord, that you, yeah, I just ask you to continue to breathe on every fear, every anxious thought, and that you would just bring calm.

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That you would bring resolve in their spirits.

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Yes, Lord, that's a word that he would bring resolve into our spirits that we would not quit.

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Before we receive the promise.

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Proverbs 23, 23 in the Passion Translation says, embrace the truth and hold it close.

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Don't let go of wisdom, instruction and life-giving understanding.

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Welcome back, ladies.

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Praise in the Lord.

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That was really good.

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So glad you guys are here.

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Um, okay.

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I think I saw that.

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Okay.

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So welcome back.

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I'm going to go over the activations for this week really quickly.

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And then we're going to do the group coaching.

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So if you are willing to share with the whole group what you shared in the breakout,

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we'd love for you to go ahead and raise your hand.

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If you're someone that shared in the afternoon session, I'm going to ask for you to hold your

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share so that the ladies tonight that may not have already gotten a chance to share can go ahead and.

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share. But here's the activations for this week. Number one, we're going to practice receiving.

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Okay, we're going to practice receiving. Here are some practical ways that I want you to practice

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this in your lives, okay? And you don't have to remember all of this because I'm going to put it

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in the group for you guys so you can grab it from there. But I'm just going to read these for you.

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Accept physical assistance from someone. So let someone carry something for you. Grocery bags

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maybe help you move furniture. Reach something off of a high shelf when you're at the store.

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Even if you could manage to do these things by yourself. This builds comfort with receiving

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practical support and allows others to feel helpful and needed as well. You're going to

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practice accepting physical help. All right, number two, ask for skill-based help. So you're

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going to ask people for skill-based help. Request a friend to teach you something that they're good

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at. Okay, doesn't mean you have to learn it all, how to do it all. But this is somebody that knows

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something and you're like, wow, that's really awesome that they know how to do that. I would

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love to learn how to do that. Whether it's a new recipe, maybe it's how to change the oil in your

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car, maybe it's how to run a new software program. We have ladies all the time, okay, that come into

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the program and they tell us, I'm not techie. Y'all, here's the thing. We don't all have to be

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tech mastermind people, but we can learn how to grow, right? There's this awesome search engine

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00:56:31.840 --> 00:56:38.160
called Google. And guess what? These days you can say, tell me how to do this and it will tell you

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step by step how to do it. There's no reason we can't learn, okay? But if in this case, you're

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going to ask a person, okay? So maybe you know someone who's really techie and they can show you

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how to do it. Maybe it's a craft technique. What this is going to do is going to help you practice

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creating meaningful connection while practicing being vulnerable because you're going to admit,

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hey, I don't know how to do this. Can you teach me? Can you help me? Here's another one. Let other

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people handle logistics for you. Ooh, this is a good one because guess what? Some of y'all are

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going to meet a spirit mate one day and they're going to want to plan a date or whatever. And for

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the control freaks in the room, you're not going to want to let anybody plan anything for you.

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You got to be in charge of everything. I've been there too. I like to know where we're going, when

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we're going, how we're getting there. I want to plan things. So I have a hard time letting other

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people, but it's good things to practice. So allow friends or family to pick you up from the airport,

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maybe bring you dinner when you're overwhelmed. Maybe it's helping you plan an event that you're

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hosting. These are acts of service and they require all of us to release control and trust

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other people to care for us. Again, there's so many other examples, but those are just a few.

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Accepting emotional support. When someone offers to listen or ask how you're doing,

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actually share what's on your heart instead of deflecting with, I'm fine. Now, here's the caveat

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to this one. If they are not a safe person and they don't tend to be someone who is willing to

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actually listen, like you kind of know they don't really care, even though they're asking you how

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00:58:30.320 --> 00:58:36.000
you're doing, I wouldn't recommend it to share with them how you're really doing because you're

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going to probably end up feeling rejected. So let's share with people that are safe and

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actually do tend to be caring. Let them pray for you, offer encouragement, or simply sit with you

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in a difficult moment without feeling you need to reciprocate immediately. I want some of y'all to

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really practice because you're going to need this if you have chivalrous men, because guess what

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chivalrous men want to do? They want to fix it. Whatever your problem is, they want to fix it.

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They want to help you. So my husband and I have learned this. I tell him, hey, I just want you

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to listen, okay? Like, I don't need you to fix this. I just need to share something

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that I'm going through and I just, you know, need you to pray for me, but I don't need you to fix it.

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And that is, you know, if he has a dream and he doesn't want me to interpret it for him,

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he tells me, hey, I had a dream, but I don't need you to interpret it. Like literally because

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what happens is because God gives me interpretation of things a lot, I start interpreting it and he

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might not want that. He might just want to share about his dream. But see, this is how we start

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practicing vulnerability and letting people in. The key is to start small, recognize that you can

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receive gracefully and know that it's a gift to you.

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as well as it is to other people, okay?

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Activation number two, letting go.

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So the first one is receiving, okay?

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It's receiving and being vulnerable.

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The second is letting go.

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So I want you to lean further

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into that supernatural surrender

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that we worked on starting last week, right?

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We're surrendering, we're casting our cares on Jesus,

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we're letting them go.

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And this is what I want you to ask,

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the Lord specifically.

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What do you, Lord, not want me to take

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into the rest of 2026 with me?

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What do you, Lord, not want me to take

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into the rest of 2026 with me?

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Here are some examples.

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Old mindsets, old heart postures,

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a relationship that is not healthy for you.

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It could be romantic, it could be friendship,

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it could be a coworking relationship,

893
01:00:55.380 --> 01:00:57.940
it could be a business partnership.

894
01:00:58.380 --> 01:00:59.220
Old habits.

895
01:01:02.060 --> 01:01:06.780
Y'all, it could be photos in your phone

896
01:01:06.780 --> 01:01:09.020
of evidence you have that you don't need

897
01:01:09.020 --> 01:01:12.120
because you're not in a court case that you need it for.

898
01:01:12.120 --> 01:01:13.820
But you're keeping that evidence of that thing

899
01:01:13.820 --> 01:01:16.340
that person said wrong, did wrong,

900
01:01:16.340 --> 01:01:18.140
whatever that looks like.

901
01:01:18.140 --> 01:01:20.220
Maybe it's old photos of boyfriends.

902
01:01:20.220 --> 01:01:21.700
We went through this a couple of weeks ago

903
01:01:21.700 --> 01:01:25.680
and Tatiana, God brought something to her mind right away

904
01:01:25.680 --> 01:01:27.400
when I was coaching her.

905
01:01:27.400 --> 01:01:30.400
And she went and got rid of that thing that God brought up.

906
01:01:30.400 --> 01:01:32.200
I don't know what's happened since then or how that went,

907
01:01:32.200 --> 01:01:35.840
but you could just kind of feel it when that came up for her

908
01:01:35.840 --> 01:01:37.480
and then how God used that.

909
01:01:37.480 --> 01:01:38.760
And so here's the thing,

910
01:01:38.760 --> 01:01:40.360
when we do the letting go practice,

911
01:01:40.360 --> 01:01:43.920
y'all, I do believe in caring for the environment.

912
01:01:43.920 --> 01:01:46.760
So I hope the balloon thing doesn't offend anyone.

913
01:01:46.760 --> 01:01:49.680
You can totally pick something different.

914
01:01:49.680 --> 01:01:51.720
Because I had people complain before

915
01:01:51.720 --> 01:01:53.360
when I brought up the balloon thing.

916
01:01:53.360 --> 01:01:55.240
If that's not your thing,

917
01:01:55.800 --> 01:01:56.640
I'm giving multiple options.

918
01:01:56.640 --> 01:01:59.880
You can pick the other option if that's what you prefer.

919
01:01:59.880 --> 01:02:02.600
So option number one,

920
01:02:02.600 --> 01:02:05.080
write a list of the things that you're gonna let go of.

921
01:02:05.080 --> 01:02:09.960
Maybe you're gonna let go of an offense or whatever.

922
01:02:10.880 --> 01:02:13.700
You're gonna write that list out.

923
01:02:13.700 --> 01:02:15.880
You're gonna pray and you're gonna thank the Lord

924
01:02:15.880 --> 01:02:18.520
for helping you let these things go

925
01:02:18.520 --> 01:02:20.920
and helping you release them to him.

926
01:02:20.920 --> 01:02:24.520
And then in a safe place, you're gonna burn that thing.

927
01:02:24.520 --> 01:02:25.740
You're gonna burn it.

928
01:02:25.740 --> 01:02:28.440
You're gonna get rid of it and you're gonna let it go.

929
01:02:30.240 --> 01:02:32.720
I had a lady that did this activation

930
01:02:32.720 --> 01:02:34.900
and literally she was standing there recording it.

931
01:02:34.900 --> 01:02:37.560
She's praying as she was setting it on fire

932
01:02:37.560 --> 01:02:39.340
and she put it in this bowl.

933
01:02:41.200 --> 01:02:43.640
And literally as she came to the part,

934
01:02:43.640 --> 01:02:45.360
she said, Holy Spirit,

935
01:02:45.360 --> 01:02:46.960
and literally the wind picked up

936
01:02:46.960 --> 01:02:49.560
and like it literally blew the thing away.

937
01:02:49.560 --> 01:02:50.800
It was so cool.

938
01:02:50.800 --> 01:02:53.720
So I encourage you all to record this process for yourself

939
01:02:53.760 --> 01:02:55.000
so that you can remember it.

940
01:02:55.000 --> 01:02:57.040
It could be a photo, could it be a video.

941
01:02:57.920 --> 01:03:01.140
And just hold onto that as a memory for yourself

942
01:03:01.140 --> 01:03:03.080
that you were letting those things go.

943
01:03:03.080 --> 01:03:06.600
Number two, this is still part of the letting go.

944
01:03:06.600 --> 01:03:08.320
Balloon release.

945
01:03:08.320 --> 01:03:11.080
Get a balloon or balloons, whatever you feel led.

946
01:03:11.080 --> 01:03:13.140
I always encourage people to pray even.

947
01:03:13.140 --> 01:03:14.440
Is there a certain color of balloon?

948
01:03:14.440 --> 01:03:16.120
Does it represent something for you?

949
01:03:16.120 --> 01:03:18.460
I had a lady buy heart balloons

950
01:03:18.460 --> 01:03:20.080
because she was letting go

951
01:03:20.080 --> 01:03:23.560
and releasing her husband that had passed away.

952
01:03:24.360 --> 01:03:26.720
Because she wanted to believe for a spirit mate,

953
01:03:26.720 --> 01:03:30.840
but she really hadn't fully let him go.

954
01:03:32.760 --> 01:03:33.820
That's real.

955
01:03:35.760 --> 01:03:36.960
That's really real.

956
01:03:38.620 --> 01:03:41.200
Tie something on it that represents what you're letting go.

957
01:03:41.200 --> 01:03:43.200
I don't encourage you to write your list

958
01:03:43.200 --> 01:03:44.480
and attach it to the balloons

959
01:03:44.480 --> 01:03:45.760
because if your balloons pop

960
01:03:45.760 --> 01:03:47.040
and they fall in your neighbor's yard,

961
01:03:47.040 --> 01:03:50.240
you might not want your neighbor to have that, okay?

962
01:03:50.240 --> 01:03:52.480
I know, like Karen's laughing,

963
01:03:52.520 --> 01:03:55.360
this stuff happens to people, so that's why I say it.

964
01:03:55.360 --> 01:03:57.360
But maybe you still burn that list

965
01:03:57.360 --> 01:03:59.000
or you rip it up or whatever.

966
01:03:59.000 --> 01:04:01.440
I've had people also go to like a lake

967
01:04:01.440 --> 01:04:04.600
and pick up a stone and skip a stone.

968
01:04:04.600 --> 01:04:06.240
This is about you praying.

969
01:04:06.240 --> 01:04:07.520
I'm giving you ideas,

970
01:04:07.520 --> 01:04:09.880
but if God is showing you something different to do,

971
01:04:09.880 --> 01:04:12.720
go with what God is showing you and trust that

972
01:04:12.720 --> 01:04:14.760
because there's something in that for you.

973
01:04:14.760 --> 01:04:16.720
Okay, awesome.

974
01:04:16.720 --> 01:04:20.000
So excited to hear what God has to say to all of you tonight.

975
01:04:20.000 --> 01:04:22.640
I'm gonna get through as many as I can tonight.

976
01:04:22.640 --> 01:04:24.000
Cherish, go ahead.

977
01:04:25.160 --> 01:04:27.560
Okay, I think I'm gonna try to move quickly.

978
01:04:27.560 --> 01:04:29.080
I see there's a lot of hands up,

979
01:04:29.080 --> 01:04:31.140
so I want everybody to have time.

980
01:04:31.140 --> 01:04:33.160
I wanted to speak because

981
01:04:36.360 --> 01:04:37.800
when you started talking about fear,

982
01:04:37.800 --> 01:04:39.500
I had just had a situation today,

983
01:04:39.500 --> 01:04:40.840
so I had to go off camera

984
01:04:40.840 --> 01:04:42.480
because I just started boohooing.

985
01:04:43.480 --> 01:04:48.480
I have wrestled with fear since I was a little girl,

986
01:04:48.600 --> 01:04:53.480
specifically job fear has really set in in 2022,

987
01:04:53.480 --> 01:04:57.120
have a very, I would say aggressive boss

988
01:04:57.120 --> 01:04:59.360
that likes to go off on people.

989
01:04:59.360 --> 01:05:00.200
And being.

990
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:05.360
single parent, there's like a real fear of failing and, you

991
01:05:05.360 --> 01:05:11.240
know, losing that income. And I've was just more frustrated

992
01:05:11.240 --> 01:05:14.760
than anything tonight, because I've had so much freedom in

993
01:05:14.760 --> 01:05:17.680
this. I've even had God show me in dreams of that he's setting

994
01:05:17.680 --> 01:05:21.000
me free from this. And then over the weekend, I was on my

995
01:05:21.000 --> 01:05:24.800
birthday trip on the weekend and in the hot springs and relaxing

996
01:05:24.800 --> 01:05:28.320
and in the evening, I had a nightmare that was so egregious.

997
01:05:28.320 --> 01:05:34.360
My friend was scared, I guess I was screaming in my dream, or in

998
01:05:34.360 --> 01:05:38.000
real life. And she was like, ma'am, that is not normal. And

999
01:05:38.000 --> 01:05:41.200
so just today, I was just so frustrated, because I'm like, I

1000
01:05:41.200 --> 01:05:45.960
will, you know, take an authority, and I have, you know,

1001
01:05:46.120 --> 01:05:50.920
worked really hard to operate in peace. And even the stress and

1002
01:05:50.920 --> 01:05:54.400
the anxiety of my job, just letting that, you know, just

1003
01:05:54.400 --> 01:05:57.280
putting that at the feet of Jesus. And so to have another

1004
01:05:57.280 --> 01:06:00.640
experience was very frustrating for me. So when you first

1005
01:06:00.640 --> 01:06:03.840
started talking about overcoming fear, I just texted her, I was

1006
01:06:03.840 --> 01:06:08.640
like, well, guess what we're talking about tonight. So yeah,

1007
01:06:08.720 --> 01:06:13.800
just not sure. I feel like I've had so many, like breakthroughs,

1008
01:06:13.960 --> 01:06:18.200
and then something else happens. And I'm right there again, where

1009
01:06:18.200 --> 01:06:22.800
I'm afraid of being homeless, or not having food in the fridge,

1010
01:06:22.800 --> 01:06:25.800
or something like that, or just failing miserably at work.

1011
01:06:26.400 --> 01:06:30.600
So let me ask you a question, Cherish, when this happens, and

1012
01:06:30.600 --> 01:06:35.600
you struggle with the fear on one in one way or another, what

1013
01:06:35.600 --> 01:06:39.000
is it that you're hearing about yourself? Like, because it

1014
01:06:39.000 --> 01:06:41.920
sounds like you struggle to give yourself grace when this stuff

1015
01:06:41.920 --> 01:06:44.680
happens, like you feel like you're failing, even in the fact

1016
01:06:44.680 --> 01:06:47.120
that you're facing fear again? Is that correct?

1017
01:06:47.400 --> 01:06:49.840
Yes. Okay, fear again.

1018
01:06:50.200 --> 01:06:53.720
Okay, here's the thing, though. That's not true. Okay. Fear has

1019
01:06:53.720 --> 01:06:57.840
to do with torment. Okay. And it's the enemy that is

1020
01:06:57.840 --> 01:07:03.480
tormenting you. So sometimes it is because, you know, there's a

1021
01:07:03.480 --> 01:07:06.800
shift happening, something's getting unearthed. It's

1022
01:07:06.800 --> 01:07:09.520
sometimes just he attacks us, because he's trying to keep us

1023
01:07:09.520 --> 01:07:12.600
from moving forward, or, or leading us to believe we're not

1024
01:07:12.600 --> 01:07:15.680
making progress, which is what it sounds like you're kind of

1025
01:07:15.680 --> 01:07:18.040
teetering back and forth with every time something like this

1026
01:07:18.040 --> 01:07:23.000
happens. It's like, Oh, my gosh, I guess I'm not free from this

1027
01:07:23.040 --> 01:07:26.920
thing again. You know, and I get that I totally do. Here's what

1028
01:07:26.920 --> 01:07:31.080
came to me when you were talking, though. Um, you know, I

1029
01:07:31.080 --> 01:07:34.560
have a feeling that this is a generational thing. This isn't

1030
01:07:34.560 --> 01:07:38.880
just a you thing, which is why it seems stronger and harder to

1031
01:07:38.880 --> 01:07:41.920
break. But once you break through this thing, it's not

1032
01:07:41.920 --> 01:07:44.440
like it's never going to come back. That's the reality. I just

1033
01:07:44.440 --> 01:07:47.440
want you to know that but it may not come back in the same way.

1034
01:07:47.600 --> 01:07:50.240
You may not have the same experiences forever with this.

1035
01:07:50.480 --> 01:07:53.800
But the reality is, is the enemy will always come back and see if

1036
01:07:53.800 --> 01:07:57.920
he can get back in the door, like he will. And so just know

1037
01:07:57.920 --> 01:08:01.240
that, okay, upfront, I don't think it's going to do you any

1038
01:08:01.240 --> 01:08:04.040
good to try to convince you that you're never going to battle

1039
01:08:04.040 --> 01:08:07.720
this again, because I have had fear, try to come back, anxiety,

1040
01:08:07.720 --> 01:08:11.000
try to come back after we moved to Florida, I've been fine for

1041
01:08:11.000 --> 01:08:16.040
years. And so it's realizing the enemy, you know, the Bible talks

1042
01:08:16.040 --> 01:08:19.800
about how he'll go away, right? When we clean the house, he goes

1043
01:08:19.800 --> 01:08:22.479
away. Well, guess what he does? When he comes back, he brings

1044
01:08:22.479 --> 01:08:25.720
spirits with him. He sees what what's in the house, he sees if

1045
01:08:25.720 --> 01:08:29.560
the house is clean, can I get in here, basically, he wants to

1046
01:08:29.560 --> 01:08:34.479
know if he can come back and inhabit the house. And so when

1047
01:08:34.479 --> 01:08:38.520
this happens, when we start beating ourself up, then because

1048
01:08:38.520 --> 01:08:41.760
of it, it actually opens the door more to him.

1049
01:08:44.880 --> 01:08:47.880
Okay, and it's not your fault. But that's what's happening

1050
01:08:47.880 --> 01:08:54.359
subconsciously. So understand that you are, you're trusting

1051
01:08:54.359 --> 01:08:58.240
the Lord to break, not just this, this spirit of fear battle

1052
01:08:58.240 --> 01:09:01.319
in your life, I really believe somebody in your family line

1053
01:09:01.319 --> 01:09:05.880
also battled this. And, you know, it got passed down. And

1054
01:09:05.880 --> 01:09:08.359
that's why the weight of it feels bigger. Now, I would

1055
01:09:08.359 --> 01:09:11.680
encourage you to come into the group and put in there what the

1056
01:09:11.680 --> 01:09:15.920
nightmare was. And if you can get that in there tonight, I'll,

1057
01:09:16.160 --> 01:09:18.439
I'll see it first thing tomorrow morning. And I'll make a point

1058
01:09:18.439 --> 01:09:22.279
to go in and look for it. Because I feel like some other

1059
01:09:22.279 --> 01:09:26.439
things are going to be revealed through whatever is in that

1060
01:09:26.439 --> 01:09:30.279
dream. Okay. A lot of times, ladies, I'm not saying dreams

1061
01:09:30.279 --> 01:09:34.920
are always like, everything, okay. But the reality is, is,

1062
01:09:35.279 --> 01:09:37.840
you know, sometimes the enemy is just assaulting us in a dream.

1063
01:09:37.880 --> 01:09:43.560
Okay, there's that. But a lot of the time, dreams that we have

1064
01:09:43.560 --> 01:09:47.439
are actually were like our spirit and our soul is trying to

1065
01:09:47.439 --> 01:09:53.160
resolve stuff within us. Okay. So whatever was in the dream,

1066
01:09:53.160 --> 01:09:56.480
even though it was a nightmare, again, it could have been the

1067
01:09:56.480 --> 01:09:59.240
enemy. Once I see what happened in the dream, I'll know if this

1068
01:09:59.240 --> 01:09:59.960
was just the enemy.

1069
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:07.280
attacking you or if this is something that's like something that's disrupted in your spirit and it's

1070
01:10:07.280 --> 01:10:13.760
trying to bring forth revelation so you can be free from it. So go ahead and do that for me.

1071
01:10:13.760 --> 01:10:18.480
I'll be praying for you about this. We'll be praying for you. Ladies will be praying for her

1072
01:10:18.480 --> 01:10:23.360
right. We're going to all agree to pray for her to break free from this. But I really want you to

1073
01:10:23.360 --> 01:10:28.560
work on not condemning yourself. Yeah, somebody just wrote it in there. Not condemning yourself

1074
01:10:28.560 --> 01:10:35.520
for like when it happens. Just know like, hey, if the enemy is warring against me,

1075
01:10:36.160 --> 01:10:43.440
I'm moving forward. Praise the Lord. Okay, kind of just saying that over yourself. If the enemy

1076
01:10:43.440 --> 01:10:50.560
is warring against me, I'm moving forward. Praise the Lord. Okay. Thank you. You're welcome. Ladies,

1077
01:10:50.560 --> 01:10:56.240
I want you to think about what I was saying to to cherish here. And I want you to think about

1078
01:10:56.240 --> 01:11:03.840
people that, you know, go to war. You know, there's different platoons. Let's just say I'm

1079
01:11:03.840 --> 01:11:09.520
not versed in this stuff, but I know enough that there's different, you know, if you will, platoons,

1080
01:11:09.520 --> 01:11:14.720
different people, different groups that once the first group goes out, if they're not victorious,

1081
01:11:14.720 --> 01:11:19.600
the second group is sent out, right? And then if they're not victorious, what happens? There's

1082
01:11:19.600 --> 01:11:23.840
another group sent out. Even back in the Bible, when you read, that's how they fought.

1083
01:11:24.160 --> 01:11:31.200
So why would we think the enemy is any different? We don't have to be afraid of him,

1084
01:11:31.760 --> 01:11:37.440
but we need to be alert and mindful and understand innocent as doves, wise as a serpent.

1085
01:11:38.960 --> 01:11:43.600
God can give us the wisdom. We don't have to focus on the devil. We focus on the Lord. We

1086
01:11:43.600 --> 01:11:49.440
worship him. We speak truth. We break free. But we don't need to condemn ourselves and beat

1087
01:11:50.400 --> 01:11:56.880
ourselves up when we struggle. Okay. Everyone good on that? All right. Awesome. Thanks for sharing

1088
01:11:56.880 --> 01:12:04.560
church. Appreciate you, Karen. Go ahead. Okay. So what I shared in our breaker room,

1089
01:12:05.120 --> 01:12:10.640
when you asked about what to ask God for help with. So the first time I shared in the group

1090
01:12:10.640 --> 01:12:15.520
here about a month ago, it's like my first time actually speaking out about the abuses in my

1091
01:12:15.520 --> 01:12:21.760
families. And one specific one that I shared was about my granddaughter, something happening to

1092
01:12:21.760 --> 01:12:28.320
her, because it was their first time being left alone with her older brother. And so I chose not

1093
01:12:28.320 --> 01:12:33.600
to go on this trip because of that. So this time, I'm going to be going on this trip next week.

1094
01:12:33.600 --> 01:12:40.160
And so I feel like I'm processing a lot from the last call. And I'll get this with this call. So

1095
01:12:40.240 --> 01:12:47.120
like the last one, what I got from it was like, I have to learn how to just relate in health

1096
01:12:47.120 --> 01:12:54.960
relationships, and that God does want me to enjoy myself. And so being able to just truly enjoy that

1097
01:12:54.960 --> 01:13:01.280
and to not feel guilt, because this was like a bucket list of my mom's to go also to Europe.

1098
01:13:01.920 --> 01:13:09.600
And also, you talked about performance and like this past week or so I've just been consumed with

1099
01:13:09.600 --> 01:13:14.880
my outfits when I shouldn't even be like so overly consumed with that. And so when you talk

1100
01:13:14.880 --> 01:13:20.240
about the activation for this week with receiving, it's like going to help you prepare for the trip

1101
01:13:20.240 --> 01:13:25.680
as well. So I feel like there's a lot of connection in the past couple of calls. So I think that's

1102
01:13:25.680 --> 01:13:32.240
the main thing is like, not just with the trip, I think in general, just to have let go that fear

1103
01:13:32.240 --> 01:13:38.720
that I have over my granddaughter. Yes, Karen, this is awesome. I feel like just so much confidence

1104
01:13:38.720 --> 01:13:43.120
is coming forth and what you're saying. I feel like you're positioning yourself for purpose,

1105
01:13:43.120 --> 01:13:49.840
like you're already kind of like prepared mentally to go on this trip and go in with a different

1106
01:13:49.840 --> 01:13:54.480
heart posture, I guess is what I'm trying to say to you, which is a huge win. I love that. I love

1107
01:13:54.480 --> 01:13:58.960
that you're already kind of saying, Okay, I'm going to go on this trip, I'm not going to receive

1108
01:13:58.960 --> 01:14:03.440
guilt, I'm going to enjoy it, I'm going to, you know, so that's all ladies, this is how we give

1109
01:14:03.440 --> 01:14:10.400
ourselves permission, right? We give ourselves permission to enjoy life. I literally was just

1110
01:14:10.400 --> 01:14:16.240
coaching someone through that's about to do a session with me this week. So I sent her some

1111
01:14:16.240 --> 01:14:22.400
prep questions. And one of the things that I addressed in there was that the guy that she's

1112
01:14:22.400 --> 01:14:31.280
dating, she said that he often says he feels guilty for like, about to step into good things

1113
01:14:31.280 --> 01:14:36.560
because his parents are getting older and dying. And so he's really wrestling with that. And so I

1114
01:14:36.560 --> 01:14:40.960
want to encourage all of you, if that's something you wrestle with, that you would give yourself

1115
01:14:40.960 --> 01:14:46.480
permission to live. And here's one of the other things I just that the Lord brought to mind.

1116
01:14:47.440 --> 01:14:55.040
So when Brian asked me to marry him in May of 22, he asked me to marry him on the 19th.

1117
01:14:55.040 --> 01:14:59.840
On May 26, my mom passed away.

1118
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:08.080
just a few weeks later. And when that happened, I started feeling this inner turmoil of feeling

1119
01:15:08.080 --> 01:15:13.120
guilty when I would be planning my wedding and feel happy because the enemy was trying to tell

1120
01:15:13.120 --> 01:15:19.280
me I shouldn't feel happy. Your mom died. You should be sad. And so through that, I prayed a

1121
01:15:19.280 --> 01:15:25.600
lot. And what God taught me is that it could be both and. I could feel joy and sadness at the

1122
01:15:25.600 --> 01:15:33.840
same time and be good. And so the reason I bring that up is that you can feel both and. Not guilt,

1123
01:15:33.840 --> 01:15:38.800
but if there is any grief or sadness you feel, remember, feel the feels so that God can heal

1124
01:15:38.800 --> 01:15:43.200
those. But hopefully you experience tons of joy and those things don't come. But I do want you

1125
01:15:43.200 --> 01:15:48.320
to know or anyone else on here that sometimes we do feel both and, and that's totally okay too.

1126
01:15:48.880 --> 01:15:54.960
And so on the outfits, totally ask someone for help. That's a great opportunity for you.

1127
01:15:54.960 --> 01:16:00.640
I'm excited. So when are you going on your trip? It's going to be the 28th and I come back on the

1128
01:16:00.640 --> 01:16:06.000
ninth. So it's a long trip for me. I mean, like I've been in conferences for like three days.

1129
01:16:06.000 --> 01:16:10.160
So to be with women, it's like, I can't go hide in the room. Like to really.

1130
01:16:10.960 --> 01:16:15.440
That's awesome. So we can't wait to hear how that goes. That's exciting. We'll be praying

1131
01:16:15.440 --> 01:16:20.560
for you about that as well. Karen, thank you so much for sharing with us. Thank you.

1132
01:16:20.560 --> 01:16:22.160
You're welcome. Lisa, go ahead.

1133
01:16:25.680 --> 01:16:27.360
Okay. I'm probably going to cry.

1134
01:16:32.160 --> 01:16:33.600
Sorry. It's all right.

1135
01:16:36.400 --> 01:16:37.200
We're not rushing.

1136
01:16:37.200 --> 01:16:53.200
I've been so excited about what God is doing to me while I've been in this community

1137
01:16:54.720 --> 01:17:03.040
and I had on my Jesus care board. So I was, I was born with a very rare birth defect.

1138
01:17:03.840 --> 01:17:10.240
And one of the components of it is I was born without a right breast and I never had

1139
01:17:11.280 --> 01:17:18.720
surgery. And so I had put on the Jesus care board last fall, you know, the decision of whether I

1140
01:17:18.720 --> 01:17:24.560
would ever have surgery or not. And there's a lot behind why I would think I didn't at all, but

1141
01:17:25.840 --> 01:17:28.400
so that I had been sitting on my Jesus care board.

1142
01:17:28.480 --> 01:17:32.320
And over the last several months, the Lord has been just

1143
01:17:35.680 --> 01:17:41.760
preparing me. Like I've been increased interest in my movement, getting a little more weight,

1144
01:17:41.760 --> 01:17:49.040
just very all healthy, just out of pure love. And I wasn't even, I hadn't even thought about

1145
01:17:49.040 --> 01:17:57.120
this on my Jesus care board and Easter Sunday during worship. I felt the Lord save me.

1146
01:17:58.400 --> 01:18:05.200
It's time. And I knew exactly what he was talking about because I had not even made a decision

1147
01:18:05.200 --> 01:18:13.920
whether to have breast surgery or not. And so I was so excited. I had, it wasn't even in my,

1148
01:18:13.920 --> 01:18:21.440
I hadn't even asking him or seeking him. And so Easter Sunday, I was excited. I shared it

1149
01:18:21.440 --> 01:18:29.840
with dear loved friends and all. And the next week I started making phone calls because not

1150
01:18:29.840 --> 01:18:37.440
every surgeon knows how to hand, this is a very rare, and I reached out to, there's a few here

1151
01:18:37.440 --> 01:18:48.960
on the East coast and I'm not hearing back from them. And so I'm like, Oh God, Lisa, who's going

1152
01:18:48.960 --> 01:18:56.640
to do surgery on you at your age? And so now I'm sort of like angry that I even let myself get,

1153
01:18:57.600 --> 01:19:02.560
you know, and so just I'm, I'm letting the fear,

1154
01:19:05.120 --> 01:19:09.680
you know, not hearing back from all these plastic surgeons that specialize in this birth defect

1155
01:19:10.640 --> 01:19:12.800
and I'm just letting it go to my head.

1156
01:19:19.200 --> 01:19:25.440
Thank you for sharing that with us and trusting us with the vulnerability of that. And I think,

1157
01:19:25.440 --> 01:19:30.080
yes, a hundred percent, the enemy is trying to convince you this isn't going to happen

1158
01:19:30.720 --> 01:19:34.160
and that you allowed to get your hope up and it's just not going to work.

1159
01:19:34.880 --> 01:19:40.400
Um, you know, it's crazy. Sometimes you don't hear from doctors and then all of a sudden it's like

1160
01:19:40.400 --> 01:19:46.560
the floodgates open. And so, um, just even ourselves, you know, we were, um, you know,

1161
01:19:46.560 --> 01:19:50.320
I'll share vulnerably with you. We were going and talking to fertility doctors and all kinds of

1162
01:19:50.320 --> 01:19:56.080
things. And it took me a while to hear back from the doctor we ended up seeing. And so I want to

1163
01:19:56.080 --> 01:19:59.920
encourage you, let's keep, you know, knocking on the

1164
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:04.020
door, let's keep trusting the Lord. And walking this out

1165
01:20:04.020 --> 01:20:07.440
either way, he's going to heal you grow you teach you and show

1166
01:20:07.440 --> 01:20:12.860
you some things. But I'm the fact that you was a Lisa, who's

1167
01:20:12.860 --> 01:20:16.940
going to do surgery on you at this age. Now, that's that's

1168
01:20:16.940 --> 01:20:20.460
partnering, even kind of like the other thing that's probably

1169
01:20:20.460 --> 01:20:24.580
going to trail behind that if you're not careful is how are

1170
01:20:24.580 --> 01:20:26.900
you going to find a spirit mate at this age?

1171
01:20:27.060 --> 01:20:30.760
But see, that's not that. That's the thing. This is the first

1172
01:20:30.760 --> 01:20:33.220
time I've let my age I've been so excited.

1173
01:20:33.220 --> 01:20:36.180
No, I'm saying to you, I'm saying the enemy is going to try

1174
01:20:36.180 --> 01:20:41.220
to start out to you. Yeah. And so just be careful on that. And

1175
01:20:41.220 --> 01:20:44.700
so I love that you're recognizing this. Remember to

1176
01:20:44.700 --> 01:20:48.340
use the revealing for healing cycle. Okay, so revealing for

1177
01:20:48.340 --> 01:20:51.780
healing, you want to go all the way to the truth. Okay, he's

1178
01:20:51.780 --> 01:20:54.780
trying to break the enemy is trying to bring up old trauma.

1179
01:20:55.260 --> 01:20:58.420
So I don't know if there's things that you encountered over

1180
01:20:58.420 --> 01:21:02.260
the years because of you know, the struggle there. So just make

1181
01:21:02.260 --> 01:21:05.020
sure maybe this is another revealing for healing. So

1182
01:21:05.060 --> 01:21:09.340
additional healing happens there. But definitely go all the

1183
01:21:09.340 --> 01:21:13.180
way through to the truth. You know, you might need to call

1184
01:21:13.220 --> 01:21:16.820
those doctors again. Maybe they're not the right doctors.

1185
01:21:16.820 --> 01:21:20.580
You know, you just never know why, but just let's keep walking

1186
01:21:20.580 --> 01:21:23.420
it out. But thank you for trusting us. We're going to pray

1187
01:21:23.420 --> 01:21:25.900
for I'm going to before everyone gets off, I'm going to

1188
01:21:25.900 --> 01:21:29.740
pray and for fear to be gone and whatnot. But I would encourage

1189
01:21:29.740 --> 01:21:33.380
you if you have time Lisa to listen to when you guys were in

1190
01:21:33.380 --> 01:21:36.980
the breakout, the time that I was praying and some things that

1191
01:21:36.980 --> 01:21:40.060
I saw in the spirit because I feel like there's some things in

1192
01:21:40.060 --> 01:21:43.220
there that might minister you specifically in this area as

1193
01:21:43.220 --> 01:21:47.420
well. Thank you. I will. You're welcome. You're welcome. Ladies,

1194
01:21:47.420 --> 01:21:50.740
this is real, right? These are the things we battle and then

1195
01:21:50.740 --> 01:21:54.580
the enemy tries and tries to assault us in those areas. Okay.

1196
01:21:54.900 --> 01:22:02.820
So another great example of that. Lisa, other Lisa medics, I

1197
01:22:02.820 --> 01:22:04.420
forgot earlier, there's two leases.

1198
01:22:06.500 --> 01:22:09.020
That's okay. I realized really quickly when she started talking

1199
01:22:09.020 --> 01:22:13.700
I was like, Oh, that's not me. Um, yeah. So thank you everybody

1200
01:22:13.700 --> 01:22:18.940
for sharing. I know that's, it's, yeah, it's vulnerable. So I

1201
01:22:18.940 --> 01:22:22.180
kind of think I figured things out as I was sitting here, but I

1202
01:22:22.180 --> 01:22:26.940
will say it anyway, because I'm always open to coaching. Um, so

1203
01:22:26.940 --> 01:22:31.820
the thing that is really repetitive with me that I'm

1204
01:22:32.060 --> 01:22:37.860
really catching on to is that I go into striving mode. And I

1205
01:22:37.860 --> 01:22:41.820
know what it comes from. It comes from staying back in first

1206
01:22:41.820 --> 01:22:49.060
grade, and being very traumatized by that. And there's

1207
01:22:49.060 --> 01:22:52.420
just this thing, like, I don't think of it consciously, but I

1208
01:22:52.420 --> 01:22:57.860
know the driving force behind it is I cannot fail. So I have to,

1209
01:22:58.420 --> 01:23:00.860
I have to work really hard and just make sure this thing gets

1210
01:23:00.860 --> 01:23:03.740
done. So the current thing that's happening that brought

1211
01:23:03.740 --> 01:23:09.580
this up for me during the session is that I am getting

1212
01:23:09.580 --> 01:23:13.260
together a resume because a friend of mine has a contact

1213
01:23:13.300 --> 01:23:18.780
that is doing exactly what I want to step into. Aside from

1214
01:23:18.780 --> 01:23:21.420
my coaching business, this is just stability, okay, for

1215
01:23:21.420 --> 01:23:27.220
housing. It's a long story. But anyway, I'm basically applying

1216
01:23:27.220 --> 01:23:31.500
to be a home steward. So because I have a lot of experience and

1217
01:23:31.500 --> 01:23:34.380
not from dog sitting, and then I lived with a family for three

1218
01:23:34.380 --> 01:23:37.580
years, I was their dog nanny, and they were semi retired, so

1219
01:23:37.580 --> 01:23:40.660
they would travel every other month. And I did that for three

1220
01:23:40.660 --> 01:23:43.060
years. And then I came back two years later, when they sold

1221
01:23:43.060 --> 01:23:45.620
their house, and then I oversaw contractors and all sorts of

1222
01:23:45.620 --> 01:23:49.980
stuff, right. So I am primed for this position. And it's going to

1223
01:23:49.980 --> 01:23:54.180
take the the pressure off of my financial situation so that I

1224
01:23:54.180 --> 01:23:57.780
can watch my launch my coaching business. So I'm just saying all

1225
01:23:57.780 --> 01:24:02.220
of that to tell you that I feel like this is like, I'm amazed

1226
01:24:02.220 --> 01:24:06.740
because I learned that I could literally make 90 to $140,000 a

1227
01:24:06.740 --> 01:24:11.100
year, being a home steward in this town an hour away from

1228
01:24:11.100 --> 01:24:14.900
where I live. It's like a place I've always loved. And it's

1229
01:24:14.900 --> 01:24:18.220
exciting. So there's a lot to all of that. I feel like it's a

1230
01:24:18.220 --> 01:24:20.780
breakthrough, like I'll finally build a breakthrough financially

1231
01:24:20.780 --> 01:24:24.020
for the first time in my entire life. I have hope you guys like,

1232
01:24:24.300 --> 01:24:27.140
if you knew all these years that I've been going through, it's

1233
01:24:27.140 --> 01:24:31.660
all been hand to mouth. I'm 61. It's been my hope got deferred,

1234
01:24:31.660 --> 01:24:36.660
and it really affected me. And so for this to come up is just

1235
01:24:36.660 --> 01:24:40.140
like an amazing opportunity, like amazing. I can't even

1236
01:24:40.140 --> 01:24:43.660
believe it can happen. I'm so excited, right? So of course,

1237
01:24:43.660 --> 01:24:46.500
there's a lot of drive in me to really get this thing polished,

1238
01:24:46.500 --> 01:24:51.140
you know, this resume, and it's exciting, but I'm like, I turned

1239
01:24:51.140 --> 01:24:55.260
it into my friend. And I only reconnected with her a year ago.

1240
01:24:55.260 --> 01:24:57.700
Before that, I had not talked to her for 45 years. I didn't even

1241
01:24:57.700 --> 01:25:00.020
know where she lived. So we grew up on the same street.

1242
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:05.200
yeah, and she lives where I want to go. So anyway, she was just

1243
01:25:05.200 --> 01:25:09.560
making some suggestions to the resume. And saying that, you

1244
01:25:09.560 --> 01:25:13.320
know, I've got all these dog sitting things, which help

1245
01:25:13.920 --> 01:25:17.280
because it shows trust and longevity. But there's a lot of

1246
01:25:17.280 --> 01:25:20.980
repeating kind of phrases that are used with that during these

1247
01:25:20.980 --> 01:25:24.400
other two homes that actually lived in longer term. Yeah. And

1248
01:25:24.400 --> 01:25:29.720
so, but I'm concerned that by taking her, she wants me to kind

1249
01:25:29.720 --> 01:25:32.760
of put it under all one title, but I'm afraid it's gonna, it's

1250
01:25:32.760 --> 01:25:35.600
gonna not work well, because it's gonna come across like I

1251
01:25:35.600 --> 01:25:37.920
lived in these other homes, and I didn't. So I'm trying to

1252
01:25:37.920 --> 01:25:41.600
figure that out. So anyway, I put a lot of pressure on myself

1253
01:25:41.640 --> 01:25:45.040
to get that done. Because I know she's got this friend that she

1254
01:25:45.040 --> 01:25:48.720
had texted like a week ago, saying, Hey, I have this girl,

1255
01:25:48.720 --> 01:25:52.160
Lisa, but she hadn't heard back from her yet, two days after she

1256
01:25:52.160 --> 01:25:53.800
had reached out, but I don't know if she's heard back from

1257
01:25:53.800 --> 01:25:57.200
her before yet since then, but I've literally spent over a

1258
01:25:57.200 --> 01:26:01.920
week. Yeah, let me hear you. Oh, yeah, go ahead. So how does

1259
01:26:02.520 --> 01:26:06.200
how does the putting pressure on yourself show up for you? In

1260
01:26:06.200 --> 01:26:11.520
like a brief, abbreviated way? Yeah. Okay. Um,

1261
01:26:14.440 --> 01:26:18.840
the pressure showed up in this situation, because I've been

1262
01:26:18.840 --> 01:26:21.720
working on already for eight days. And then I didn't know how

1263
01:26:21.720 --> 01:26:25.920
to fix it yet. And then I had to be on this call. And so I felt

1264
01:26:25.920 --> 01:26:27.920
like I was putting more pressure on myself. I'm like,

1265
01:26:27.920 --> 01:26:31.640
well, do I give up the call? I don't know. And then I'm like, I

1266
01:26:31.640 --> 01:26:34.360
just literally asked chat GPT helped me with a quick text

1267
01:26:34.360 --> 01:26:37.320
message to send to my friend that addresses these things,

1268
01:26:37.320 --> 01:26:40.960
because I couldn't even think, you know, is that pressure? I

1269
01:26:40.960 --> 01:26:44.240
think, I think one of the things too, is for anyone that

1270
01:26:44.240 --> 01:26:47.000
struggles with, you know, just kind of like that, you're

1271
01:26:47.000 --> 01:26:48.840
looking at something, you're afraid it's not going to be

1272
01:26:48.840 --> 01:26:53.800
perfect, because underlying, you know, here's the reality, you

1273
01:26:53.800 --> 01:26:59.560
want that you really want that job. And so there's this fear

1274
01:26:59.560 --> 01:27:05.240
of if it's not perfect, what is the fear? I'm not going to get

1275
01:27:05.240 --> 01:27:09.000
the job. Right? Yeah. And I don't want to misrepresent

1276
01:27:09.000 --> 01:27:11.920
myself. Like, it's like, you know what I mean? But here's the

1277
01:27:11.920 --> 01:27:14.560
thing. I don't think you're going to intentionally

1278
01:27:14.560 --> 01:27:18.160
misrepresent yourself. And most people would understand why you

1279
01:27:18.160 --> 01:27:21.120
categorize those things together. But I want you to kind

1280
01:27:21.120 --> 01:27:24.280
of look at what is the motivator? What's the fear

1281
01:27:24.280 --> 01:27:28.640
driving the actions or the inactions or the over analysis,

1282
01:27:28.640 --> 01:27:33.960
paralysis, if you will, and partner with Lord, thank you

1283
01:27:34.120 --> 01:27:37.160
that you're going to show me how to do the resume, and you're

1284
01:27:37.160 --> 01:27:41.560
going to enable me to trust you when I send it. Okay, if this

1285
01:27:41.560 --> 01:27:45.480
job is the job you have for me, that you're going to give me

1286
01:27:45.480 --> 01:27:49.360
favor with God and with man, and by the time it reaches those

1287
01:27:49.360 --> 01:27:53.800
people, there'll be favor all over it. I know that sounds

1288
01:27:53.800 --> 01:27:58.160
simple, but like literally, we, we can partner with these things

1289
01:27:58.160 --> 01:28:02.080
and choose to believe again, believe the best and not the

1290
01:28:02.080 --> 01:28:07.520
worst. And understand that no matter what God has his best

1291
01:28:07.520 --> 01:28:10.400
plan for us. And so I want to encourage you to partner with

1292
01:28:10.520 --> 01:28:13.960
God, thank you, that you're going to show me how to do this

1293
01:28:13.960 --> 01:28:16.680
that I'm going to be able to do it without striving, I'm not

1294
01:28:16.680 --> 01:28:21.520
going to have stress, because ultimately, I trust that you are

1295
01:28:21.520 --> 01:28:27.560
going to go before me in this situation. Okay, so you're doing

1296
01:28:27.560 --> 01:28:31.200
great. I'm excited. I can't wait to hear what happens with that.

1297
01:28:31.600 --> 01:28:38.520
And I would say, set a deadline, give yourself a deadline, don't

1298
01:28:38.520 --> 01:28:41.680
keep pushing this pressure on yourself. You know, you do it to

1299
01:28:41.680 --> 01:28:44.960
the best of your ability, and send that thing on like just

1300
01:28:44.960 --> 01:28:48.560
don't overanalyze it. And let's see what God wants to do with

1301
01:28:48.560 --> 01:28:51.760
that. Because sometimes ladies, this is how we fight. Remember,

1302
01:28:51.760 --> 01:28:54.960
I said earlier, I had to war against that fear come on me.

1303
01:28:55.280 --> 01:29:00.880
Well, what I wanted to do was run. And the Lord was like, go

1304
01:29:00.880 --> 01:29:06.040
slow, go slow and declare this over yourself. So you're wanting

1305
01:29:06.040 --> 01:29:10.080
to go slow and overanalyze and I'm not saying do it super fast.

1306
01:29:10.080 --> 01:29:14.360
So it's not good, but like, it might be a good practice for you

1307
01:29:14.840 --> 01:29:18.320
to go ahead and kind of button that thing up and just get it on

1308
01:29:18.360 --> 01:29:24.000
into the mail, email. Yeah, yeah, I was literally feeling like

1309
01:29:24.000 --> 01:29:26.320
they said, you just have to have good enough. Do you know what I

1310
01:29:26.320 --> 01:29:30.560
mean? Set a timer. Ladies, this for myself too. Sometimes I have

1311
01:29:30.560 --> 01:29:33.280
to set timers for myself, because myself when I'm doing

1312
01:29:33.280 --> 01:29:37.480
things because if I don't, then I can get into perfectionism and

1313
01:29:37.480 --> 01:29:40.800
things like that in that over analysis as well. So we can war

1314
01:29:40.800 --> 01:29:43.440
against those things. We can resist the devil and his

1315
01:29:43.440 --> 01:29:48.160
temptations to get us kind of swirling around. Right. And and

1316
01:29:48.160 --> 01:29:52.120
step into God, thank you. Thank you that you are providing

1317
01:29:52.120 --> 01:29:55.360
your, you know, you've brought this opportunity in my lap. I

1318
01:29:55.360 --> 01:29:58.040
trust that if this is your will for me, God, that you're going

1319
01:29:58.040 --> 01:30:00.000
to give me favor with these people.

1320
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:04.560
And Jesus name, you know, so love that.

1321
01:30:04.560 --> 01:30:05.960
Can't wait to hear how it goes.

1322
01:30:05.960 --> 01:30:07.840
Appreciate what you shared tonight

1323
01:30:07.840 --> 01:30:11.200
and keep us posted on that, okay?

1324
01:30:11.200 --> 01:30:12.040
Okay, I will.

1325
01:30:12.040 --> 01:30:13.320
Thank you so much, Bethany.

1326
01:30:13.320 --> 01:30:14.560
Awesome, you're welcome.

1327
01:30:14.560 --> 01:30:15.700
Renee, go ahead.

1328
01:30:16.760 --> 01:30:18.040
Yes, can you hear me?

1329
01:30:18.040 --> 01:30:19.560
Yes, ma'am.

1330
01:30:19.560 --> 01:30:22.700
So the group was good.

1331
01:30:23.880 --> 01:30:26.840
As the person I was paired with was talking,

1332
01:30:27.680 --> 01:30:30.640
her situation made me think of another one.

1333
01:30:30.640 --> 01:30:32.160
I went in thinking one thing,

1334
01:30:32.160 --> 01:30:33.400
I was going to school as one thing

1335
01:30:33.400 --> 01:30:35.840
and then started talking about another thing.

1336
01:30:35.840 --> 01:30:38.520
But basically the situation was,

1337
01:30:38.520 --> 01:30:40.360
I have an Amazon business

1338
01:30:40.360 --> 01:30:43.480
and I got flagged for one of the products

1339
01:30:43.480 --> 01:30:45.680
and basically they shut me down.

1340
01:30:45.680 --> 01:30:49.240
And so I could prove whatever.

1341
01:30:49.240 --> 01:30:52.700
And I did not want to tell anybody

1342
01:30:52.700 --> 01:30:56.280
that my business got shut down, basically.

1343
01:30:56.280 --> 01:30:59.720
And I felt like ashamed.

1344
01:30:59.720 --> 01:31:01.120
And I really was like,

1345
01:31:01.120 --> 01:31:04.120
I really don't want to share this with anyone.

1346
01:31:04.120 --> 01:31:05.840
One person in particular.

1347
01:31:05.840 --> 01:31:08.200
And I was so excited about the business.

1348
01:31:08.200 --> 01:31:10.360
I did all the right things.

1349
01:31:10.360 --> 01:31:13.840
And I mean, there's another aspect of the door closing

1350
01:31:15.240 --> 01:31:17.000
on me as well.

1351
01:31:17.000 --> 01:31:20.280
And feeling fear of failure.

1352
01:31:20.280 --> 01:31:21.240
I think it was fear.

1353
01:31:21.240 --> 01:31:24.280
I think I was afraid to show people that like,

1354
01:31:24.280 --> 01:31:26.200
I don't know if it's fear of man so much

1355
01:31:27.040 --> 01:31:29.280
as presenting myself as a failure.

1356
01:31:30.160 --> 01:31:32.400
I'm that do it, just do it person.

1357
01:31:32.400 --> 01:31:33.720
I'm accomplisher.

1358
01:31:33.720 --> 01:31:34.680
I'm a striver.

1359
01:31:34.680 --> 01:31:35.960
I'm all the things.

1360
01:31:37.560 --> 01:31:41.720
And I really, I felt ashamed.

1361
01:31:41.720 --> 01:31:45.240
That's the only emotion I could associate with how I felt.

1362
01:31:45.240 --> 01:31:47.160
And I did not want anyone to know.

1363
01:31:47.160 --> 01:31:49.660
And I thought, this is strange.

1364
01:31:49.660 --> 01:31:54.400
This is really like, what is this about, Lord?

1365
01:31:54.400 --> 01:31:58.760
And so he said, oh, I just said to the person,

1366
01:31:58.760 --> 01:32:00.400
oh my gosh, I'm going to have to sit back

1367
01:32:00.400 --> 01:32:02.200
and think about this a little bit

1368
01:32:02.200 --> 01:32:06.000
because this is not anything to feel ashamed of.

1369
01:32:06.000 --> 01:32:07.680
It's just, it's business.

1370
01:32:07.680 --> 01:32:08.720
It happened.

1371
01:32:08.720 --> 01:32:09.640
You got to move on.

1372
01:32:09.640 --> 01:32:11.880
You got to recalibrate and move forward.

1373
01:32:11.880 --> 01:32:15.680
I know all this, but I still don't want to share it.

1374
01:32:16.920 --> 01:32:17.760
Well, look at it.

1375
01:32:17.760 --> 01:32:19.480
You're sharing it out loud.

1376
01:32:19.480 --> 01:32:21.280
I know.

1377
01:32:21.280 --> 01:32:22.240
Praise the Lord.

1378
01:32:22.240 --> 01:32:23.640
So you're warring against that.

1379
01:32:23.880 --> 01:32:25.120
And I think that's amazing.

1380
01:32:25.120 --> 01:32:26.160
Because here's the reality.

1381
01:32:26.160 --> 01:32:27.600
It's exactly what you just said.

1382
01:32:27.600 --> 01:32:29.040
Mistakes happen.

1383
01:32:29.040 --> 01:32:31.080
Okay, business things happen.

1384
01:32:31.080 --> 01:32:33.920
It doesn't, I think the thing that you really want

1385
01:32:33.920 --> 01:32:36.400
to look at here in this share, Renee,

1386
01:32:36.400 --> 01:32:40.800
is what is it that you think people would believe

1387
01:32:40.800 --> 01:32:42.240
about you that's, you know,

1388
01:32:42.240 --> 01:32:44.880
like a negative thing if they knew?

1389
01:32:44.880 --> 01:32:46.800
It's kind of like, sometimes I'll talk to you guys

1390
01:32:46.800 --> 01:32:50.320
about if they really knew everything about me,

1391
01:32:50.320 --> 01:32:52.200
would they still love me?

1392
01:32:52.200 --> 01:32:55.120
Would people think I'm a good business owner?

1393
01:32:55.120 --> 01:32:57.720
Would people think I, you know, I don't know.

1394
01:32:57.720 --> 01:33:00.120
I'm not trying to say what your fears are

1395
01:33:00.120 --> 01:33:01.400
or thoughts that you were having,

1396
01:33:01.400 --> 01:33:03.800
but a lot of times those will fuel things like that

1397
01:33:03.800 --> 01:33:06.880
where the enemy will try to get us into shutdown

1398
01:33:06.880 --> 01:33:09.320
instead of actually, you know, talking to people

1399
01:33:09.320 --> 01:33:11.600
and learning how to work through it, right?

1400
01:33:11.600 --> 01:33:13.680
But here you are, you're talking about it

1401
01:33:13.680 --> 01:33:14.720
on the coaching session.

1402
01:33:14.720 --> 01:33:16.960
So I feel like you're just like, no devil.

1403
01:33:16.960 --> 01:33:18.320
I'm not going to stay in this place.

1404
01:33:18.320 --> 01:33:19.200
I'm going to share this.

1405
01:33:19.200 --> 01:33:20.680
I'm going to learn, I'm going to grow

1406
01:33:20.680 --> 01:33:21.880
because that doesn't define you.

1407
01:33:21.880 --> 01:33:24.120
I don't think anything negative.

1408
01:33:24.120 --> 01:33:27.720
Like you had a product that they were like, hey,

1409
01:33:27.720 --> 01:33:29.000
and they're looking it out.

1410
01:33:29.000 --> 01:33:32.040
You know, sometimes I have friends

1411
01:33:32.040 --> 01:33:34.920
that have literally gotten their Facebook accounts taken down

1412
01:33:34.920 --> 01:33:36.760
and we still, to this day, don't know why.

1413
01:33:36.760 --> 01:33:39.680
They were not doing anything wrong legitimately.

1414
01:33:39.680 --> 01:33:42.840
And so, you know, there's that too.

1415
01:33:42.840 --> 01:33:45.320
So just keep pushing through

1416
01:33:45.320 --> 01:33:48.000
and let's see how God helps you work through this.

1417
01:33:48.000 --> 01:33:50.160
And I'm so glad that you shared

1418
01:33:50.200 --> 01:33:52.960
and that God is giving you those revelations,

1419
01:33:52.960 --> 01:33:55.960
but definitely asking the Lord, what is this about?

1420
01:33:55.960 --> 01:33:57.360
I think that's a great start,

1421
01:33:57.360 --> 01:34:00.440
but asking him what are the lies that I was believing

1422
01:34:00.440 --> 01:34:02.520
that were keeping me from sharing it with people?

1423
01:34:02.520 --> 01:34:03.520
Because you did it tonight,

1424
01:34:03.520 --> 01:34:05.160
but let's look at what were the lies

1425
01:34:05.160 --> 01:34:08.000
that were actually keeping you from doing that,

1426
01:34:08.000 --> 01:34:09.320
you know, initially.

1427
01:34:10.440 --> 01:34:11.280
Okay.

1428
01:34:12.920 --> 01:34:13.880
Thank you.

1429
01:34:13.880 --> 01:34:14.760
You're welcome.

1430
01:34:14.760 --> 01:34:15.600
Thanks for sharing.

1431
01:34:15.600 --> 01:34:16.480
Appreciate you.

1432
01:34:18.120 --> 01:34:19.960
We are at 934.

1433
01:34:20.760 --> 01:34:21.600
So I am going to do, let's see.

1434
01:34:21.600 --> 01:34:24.560
I have Kaylee, Wendy, Amanda, and Arianne.

1435
01:34:24.560 --> 01:34:27.800
If y'all need to jump off, totally understand.

1436
01:34:27.800 --> 01:34:29.960
Don't want anyone to feel like you have to stay,

1437
01:34:29.960 --> 01:34:33.320
but definitely want to go ahead and let these ladies share.

1438
01:34:33.320 --> 01:34:36.280
And so if I have to, if we get too far into the night,

1439
01:34:36.280 --> 01:34:38.440
then I'm going to probably do like a quick,

1440
01:34:38.440 --> 01:34:40.360
I might even have you all share quickly.

1441
01:34:40.360 --> 01:34:42.080
And then I might just do like a round robin

1442
01:34:42.080 --> 01:34:44.120
and coach you all kind of at the same time.

1443
01:34:44.120 --> 01:34:45.800
We'll see how it goes here.

1444
01:34:45.800 --> 01:34:47.560
But Kaylee, go ahead and share.

1445
01:34:47.560 --> 01:34:49.880
I also don't want y'all to feel super rushed either.

1446
01:34:50.640 --> 01:34:52.040
So.

1447
01:34:52.040 --> 01:34:52.880
Okay.

1448
01:34:52.880 --> 01:34:54.640
Hi, I'm Kaylee.

1449
01:34:54.640 --> 01:34:59.520
It's my first time like being like fully present on the Zoom.

1450
01:34:59.520 --> 01:35:00.360
So it feels.

1451
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:05.840
really good to be here because sometimes I'm like just getting to go leaving the gym or doing this

1452
01:35:05.840 --> 01:35:14.480
and that but I'm like no I'm gonna like lock in like let's do this. I love it. But like my comment

1453
01:35:14.480 --> 01:35:19.840
it's well does it have to be answering your question or can it be something like that's on

1454
01:35:19.840 --> 01:35:26.320
my heart that I want to share? Um yeah it normally we do what you shared in the breakout but it's

1455
01:35:26.320 --> 01:35:38.160
okay for you to share. Okay um so uh I feel like I lost my train of thought or I guess

1456
01:35:39.120 --> 01:35:47.120
maybe two things um the the fear I think well the one that I shared about I feel like I have

1457
01:35:47.120 --> 01:35:57.040
a lot of fears but um like feeling like I'm stuck in uh stuck in certain things like um

1458
01:35:57.040 --> 01:36:04.480
with a struggle of weight loss with um feeling struck like financially and with um just like

1459
01:36:04.480 --> 01:36:17.200
um I'm just like afraid that that I won't get to do the dream to do and um

1460
01:36:22.240 --> 01:36:29.440
yeah um and like that I won't be able to move forward in certain areas

1461
01:36:30.320 --> 01:36:36.800
um and I guess the other thing that uh is heavy on my heart um

1462
01:36:38.480 --> 01:36:46.560
uh like there there's someone a friend that I have that like uh a while ago like we were

1463
01:36:46.560 --> 01:36:54.400
talking and like like talking to get to know each other a guy friend um and then we never like went

1464
01:36:55.360 --> 01:37:02.560
out on a date and then we you know kind of stopped talking and then like he recently reached out to

1465
01:37:02.560 --> 01:37:08.400
me and I was like hey like it's good to hear from you and like I told him about how I'm doing this

1466
01:37:08.400 --> 01:37:16.080
program and like uh that I would be interested to reconnect but like I kind of have to put a pause

1467
01:37:16.800 --> 01:37:21.760
for a few weeks and then like I want to come back and like he's like yeah that's great like I respect

1468
01:37:21.760 --> 01:37:32.400
that um you know uh let's like re-re-center and then uh the next that was Friday and then Saturday

1469
01:37:32.960 --> 01:37:38.640
he messages me like hey like you know I know we we taught we said that we're not going to talk

1470
01:37:38.640 --> 01:37:47.920
but I wanted he wanted prayer because his sister had this really um uh bad health thing happen to

1471
01:37:47.920 --> 01:37:59.120
her and um and she passed away yesterday and um and um it's like

1472
01:38:02.960 --> 01:38:12.800
like she's around my age and um she has um she has four kids and and before she passed

1473
01:38:12.800 --> 01:38:17.200
away like she was pregnant and they were able to save her baby and

1474
01:38:22.400 --> 01:38:23.520
I don't know it's just

1475
01:38:26.880 --> 01:38:36.880
it's a lot I just I feel like the Lord has me on assignment and that the Lord has given me

1476
01:38:37.520 --> 01:38:48.000
prophetic like gifting and like intercessory gifting and like mercy and and so I I want to

1477
01:38:48.000 --> 01:38:55.680
like honor us like not talking or not like pursuing dating but also like be willing to provide a

1478
01:38:55.680 --> 01:39:02.080
little bit of like support for him and like yeah prayer and a little bit of scripture here and

1479
01:39:02.080 --> 01:39:10.400
there but um but it just feels really heavy and like heavy in my spirit because like his family's

1480
01:39:10.400 --> 01:39:18.240
really close and um he he told me like you know his sister's one of his best friends and they

1481
01:39:18.240 --> 01:39:25.760
were really close yeah yeah that's really hard and I you know I think you know I wrote in here

1482
01:39:25.760 --> 01:39:31.440
balance when you were talking I think that it sounds like if you can kind of keep that balance

1483
01:39:31.440 --> 01:39:35.760
in your heart I normally wouldn't recommend for people to stay connected especially if you had a

1484
01:39:35.760 --> 01:39:42.080
romantic interest but this is kind of a special situation you know his sister passed away but I

1485
01:39:42.080 --> 01:39:46.080
think setting really healthy boundaries for yourself because what can happen is that can

1486
01:39:46.080 --> 01:39:53.680
turn into a tricky situation because if you're being his emotional support um you guys could

1487
01:39:53.680 --> 01:39:59.920
easily get connected emotionally through this trauma okay versus through

1488
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:04.200
who, um, him actually pursuing you from a healthy place.

1489
01:40:04.640 --> 01:40:05.160
Okay.

1490
01:40:05.640 --> 01:40:11.320
Um, what I would really recommend is for you, like you can pray for him, but I

1491
01:40:11.320 --> 01:40:15.400
would just not try to fill that void for him.

1492
01:40:15.460 --> 01:40:23.240
And I know that can be really, um, because it sounds like you're a helper.

1493
01:40:24.240 --> 01:40:30.200
And oftentimes people that have mercy gifts and helper gifts, they can get very

1494
01:40:30.200 --> 01:40:34.080
overextended and, and not realize it.

1495
01:40:34.080 --> 01:40:37.720
And then they get very entangled with people.

1496
01:40:39.960 --> 01:40:44.360
And so what I want you to ask yourself as you're processing this again, it doesn't

1497
01:40:44.360 --> 01:40:49.440
mean you can't say anything kind to him or send him a prayer, but you can do that

1498
01:40:49.760 --> 01:40:53.720
without, you know, him thinking he can just come and text you anytime.

1499
01:40:53.760 --> 01:40:54.240
Okay.

1500
01:40:54.800 --> 01:41:03.720
Um, but what I want you to ask yourself in this is, um, what do I want for myself

1501
01:41:03.720 --> 01:41:04.840
in a relationship?

1502
01:41:09.400 --> 01:41:09.920
Okay.

1503
01:41:10.840 --> 01:41:17.560
And, you know, just thinking about, you know, do you want someone to lovingly

1504
01:41:17.560 --> 01:41:19.800
pursue you when the time is right?

1505
01:41:20.200 --> 01:41:26.800
Do you want someone that, you know, is marriage minded, which means that they

1506
01:41:26.840 --> 01:41:31.000
know they want to get married and they want to date with intentionality.

1507
01:41:31.600 --> 01:41:36.240
You know, do you want someone that has the capacity and space in

1508
01:41:36.240 --> 01:41:37.720
their heart and life right now?

1509
01:41:38.160 --> 01:41:42.600
You know, and I say those things because what can happen, and this is how, and

1510
01:41:42.600 --> 01:41:45.880
I'm not saying this would happen, but I feel like it's important kind of this,

1511
01:41:45.880 --> 01:41:48.800
with this dynamic brought up for me to talk about it for a moment.

1512
01:41:49.320 --> 01:41:54.480
Um, situationships can happen out of stuff like this, because you guys were

1513
01:41:54.480 --> 01:41:59.200
kind of close before, and then you stopped talking and then he popped back up.

1514
01:41:59.200 --> 01:42:03.200
And I'm not saying you guys, you know, maybe there is more to this one day,

1515
01:42:03.800 --> 01:42:10.080
but it sounds like, you know, you're in this place of healing and then this

1516
01:42:10.080 --> 01:42:13.120
situation is happening and it is a very sad thing.

1517
01:42:13.120 --> 01:42:14.280
It's very sad.

1518
01:42:14.320 --> 01:42:15.440
It's very hard.

1519
01:42:15.880 --> 01:42:20.760
Um, and I could see the enemy really using that to pull you right in.

1520
01:42:21.120 --> 01:42:21.640
Okay.

1521
01:42:21.960 --> 01:42:24.320
And so that's why I'm saying to you just, you know, it doesn't mean I'm

1522
01:42:24.320 --> 01:42:27.800
saying you can't talk to him at all, but just have very good boundaries

1523
01:42:28.320 --> 01:42:30.920
and keep that perspective in your mind.

1524
01:42:31.360 --> 01:42:33.880
You do not have to be his savior.

1525
01:42:33.960 --> 01:42:36.160
You do not have to be his lifeline.

1526
01:42:36.800 --> 01:42:40.360
You don't even have to be the person to comfort him in this season.

1527
01:42:42.240 --> 01:42:45.440
You don't, you know, and again, I'm not saying, and then that might

1528
01:42:45.440 --> 01:42:48.040
sound harsh to people already.

1529
01:42:48.160 --> 01:42:48.680
Yes.

1530
01:42:48.680 --> 01:42:49.160
Yes.

1531
01:42:49.480 --> 01:42:55.960
And, and the reality of this is that people need to get their main source from the

1532
01:42:55.960 --> 01:43:03.320
Lord and then, you know, counselors and other people, and, and oftentimes

1533
01:43:03.360 --> 01:43:05.680
ladies and gentlemen do this too.

1534
01:43:05.880 --> 01:43:12.520
Unfortunately, we will, we will feel that deep need to help someone and

1535
01:43:12.520 --> 01:43:17.760
we'll just lay aside our own needs to go help them.

1536
01:43:18.280 --> 01:43:22.200
And again, just that balance is going to be key for you because you're in a season

1537
01:43:22.200 --> 01:43:24.400
of taking care of yourself right now.

1538
01:43:25.120 --> 01:43:28.720
And so of course the enemy would want to draw you away from that

1539
01:43:28.720 --> 01:43:30.480
to go take care of someone else.

1540
01:43:31.160 --> 01:43:32.120
Does that make sense?

1541
01:43:32.960 --> 01:43:33.460
Yeah.

1542
01:43:34.840 --> 01:43:35.520
Feel that a lot.

1543
01:43:35.520 --> 01:43:36.020
Yeah.

1544
01:43:36.340 --> 01:43:42.740
And it like, and like, I can't keep moving forward in what I, my goals are.

1545
01:43:42.740 --> 01:43:45.860
If I keep like taking detours on this.

1546
01:43:46.180 --> 01:43:47.940
Yeah, that's right.

1547
01:43:48.580 --> 01:43:49.080
Yep.

1548
01:43:49.180 --> 01:43:51.940
And, and you matter just as much as everybody else.

1549
01:43:51.940 --> 01:43:55.180
So like, I don't remember if I said it last week or the week before, but just

1550
01:43:55.180 --> 01:43:59.860
that reminder of when we're on airplanes, you know, they remind us all the time,

1551
01:43:59.900 --> 01:44:04.660
put on our oxygen mask first before we would put it on our kids or whatever.

1552
01:44:04.700 --> 01:44:06.140
And there's a reason for that.

1553
01:44:06.140 --> 01:44:10.060
So you're in this place right now where it's going to be really important for you

1554
01:44:10.060 --> 01:44:16.300
to put that oxygen mask on yourself to really lean into, okay, the lies where

1555
01:44:16.300 --> 01:44:19.180
the enemy is saying you want, you're, you're probably not going to get to

1556
01:44:19.180 --> 01:44:20.220
accomplish your dreams.

1557
01:44:20.220 --> 01:44:24.380
Like, what are the lies that are fueling that in your life, in your mind?

1558
01:44:24.380 --> 01:44:25.740
And where did those begin?

1559
01:44:25.740 --> 01:44:27.260
What's the root of that?

1560
01:44:27.820 --> 01:44:31.700
Um, and, and lean into that a little more, but I feel like I've given you, I

1561
01:44:31.700 --> 01:44:33.460
don't want to give you too much.

1562
01:44:33.540 --> 01:44:37.260
Um, I feel like you shared very courageously and you were

1563
01:44:37.260 --> 01:44:38.980
very honest about this guy.

1564
01:44:38.980 --> 01:44:42.100
A lot of, there's a lot of women that would never even say that happened.

1565
01:44:42.540 --> 01:44:44.980
Um, and again, we're going to just be praying for you.

1566
01:44:44.980 --> 01:44:48.860
I really am sorry about him and his sister and his family.

1567
01:44:49.300 --> 01:44:52.100
Uh, it's heartbreaking, uh, for her kids.

1568
01:44:52.460 --> 01:44:55.860
Um, but believing that God will, will see them through.

1569
01:44:55.900 --> 01:45:00.020
And I'll try to try to remember to cover that before we close tonight as well.

1570
01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:03.480
Oh, thank you so much for sharing with us. And hey, I

1571
01:45:03.480 --> 01:45:09.320
also just say, I love absolutely love that you said tonight, I

1572
01:45:09.320 --> 01:45:13.760
decided I'm gonna lock in. And I'm gonna be all here. Ladies,

1573
01:45:13.760 --> 01:45:20.440
did you? That was powerful. I'm gonna lock in. Even that even

1574
01:45:20.440 --> 01:45:24.200
that you said something really powerful. Not that it's bad that

1575
01:45:24.200 --> 01:45:26.520
you were coming from the gym, it was still good that you were

1576
01:45:26.520 --> 01:45:31.360
listening in. But even that the enemy tries to keep us so busy

1577
01:45:31.360 --> 01:45:35.360
so that we're not fully engaged in a course or something. Just

1578
01:45:35.360 --> 01:45:38.600
like I said, I bought a course I haven't worked on it yet. Why?

1579
01:45:38.880 --> 01:45:41.880
Because I've been sick. Like literally, the enemy has been

1580
01:45:41.880 --> 01:45:44.560
just sending constant things. So I were against this stuff too.

1581
01:45:44.600 --> 01:45:48.880
So ladies, I'm right there with you. Let's all lock in. Let's

1582
01:45:48.880 --> 01:45:52.520
lock in this week and keep showing up way to go. I love

1583
01:45:52.520 --> 01:45:56.720
that so much. Thank you so much. You're welcome. Wendy, go

1584
01:45:56.720 --> 01:45:57.240
ahead.

1585
01:46:06.120 --> 01:46:08.000
When if you're talking, we can't hear you.

1586
01:46:13.160 --> 01:46:16.320
I see you moving slightly, but I don't hear you.

1587
01:46:16.920 --> 01:46:18.960
Okay, we'll come right back to you. We'll come right back

1588
01:46:18.960 --> 01:46:21.640
because I can't hear you. Amanda, go ahead.

1589
01:46:22.760 --> 01:46:28.640
So, um, there's some things that I've been working through. And I

1590
01:46:28.640 --> 01:46:38.280
know that they are lies. Um, like, uh, my roots and fruits

1591
01:46:38.280 --> 01:46:42.040
tree, like there was some clear prophetic things. The Lord

1592
01:46:42.040 --> 01:46:45.080
to me through drawing lately, like even tonight, I was just

1593
01:46:45.120 --> 01:46:48.160
drawing and writing out scriptures and stuff. So that's

1594
01:46:48.160 --> 01:46:52.000
been really powerful. And so I know that, like, he keeps

1595
01:46:52.000 --> 01:46:58.360
speaking to me in truth. Um, I still feel overwhelmed.

1596
01:46:58.400 --> 01:47:02.160
Hopelessness is one of the things. Okay, I have some

1597
01:47:02.160 --> 01:47:07.800
hopelessness there. Um, but I'm not going to lie. I'm not going

1598
01:47:08.400 --> 01:47:16.600
to have some hopelessness there. Um, so, and it's kind of like,

1599
01:47:16.600 --> 01:47:19.680
I think what I feel like that, like, I was one of the ones it

1600
01:47:19.680 --> 01:47:22.920
was like, waiting for the other shoe to drop. Like, I've been

1601
01:47:22.920 --> 01:47:26.320
through this before. I've been through all of these things

1602
01:47:26.320 --> 01:47:34.160
before. How many layers do I have to get through? Um, to have

1603
01:47:34.160 --> 01:47:38.520
freedom? It's kind of the thing, like, when will I be

1604
01:47:38.520 --> 01:47:44.000
able to break free? And so like I said, I know, like, the Lord

1605
01:47:44.000 --> 01:47:48.240
has just been speaking so much through drawing really has been

1606
01:47:48.240 --> 01:47:50.760
one of the things just come out through writing, my hand is just

1607
01:47:51.000 --> 01:47:59.120
flowing. I still war within my mind of just hopelessness. And

1608
01:48:00.120 --> 01:48:02.440
it's a big battle. So.

1609
01:48:03.600 --> 01:48:09.600
So interesting. As you were sharing, I saw two things very

1610
01:48:09.600 --> 01:48:13.920
similar, but I want to share both. I saw a balloon with a

1611
01:48:13.920 --> 01:48:16.520
hole in it, but the balloon wasn't deflating. It just had a

1612
01:48:16.520 --> 01:48:18.880
hole in it. So it was a slow leak is what I heard the Lord

1613
01:48:18.880 --> 01:48:23.040
say. It was a slow leak. And then I saw a tire with a hole in

1614
01:48:23.040 --> 01:48:28.160
it. Very similar slow leak. And so I'm just going to pray for

1615
01:48:28.160 --> 01:48:31.680
you. And because I feel like this ties, it was as you were

1616
01:48:31.680 --> 01:48:35.160
talking about the hopelessness, I feel like there's kind of been

1617
01:48:35.160 --> 01:48:39.640
this hole that's causing this slow leak. So when you get hope

1618
01:48:39.640 --> 01:48:43.000
filled up, then it's like the slow leak that keeps leaking out.

1619
01:48:43.280 --> 01:48:46.520
And we need to understand what the hole is. We need to God to

1620
01:48:46.520 --> 01:48:49.520
reveal like what's creating that hole. It's not something you're

1621
01:48:49.520 --> 01:48:54.040
doing intentionally, Amanda. It could even just be like, it

1622
01:48:54.040 --> 01:48:58.440
makes me think up to like how the glory of the Lord is our

1623
01:48:58.440 --> 01:49:01.000
rear guard. Like sometimes things come in through the

1624
01:49:01.000 --> 01:49:05.680
backside. And we don't even know or the side, you know, when they

1625
01:49:05.680 --> 01:49:07.920
didn't have the protectors on the side of the armor, and

1626
01:49:07.920 --> 01:49:11.240
people would kind of stab through the side. It makes me

1627
01:49:11.240 --> 01:49:16.000
think of like something unknown, like you didn't even know it, it

1628
01:49:16.000 --> 01:49:20.120
hurt you when it happened. But I feel like it's what's draining

1629
01:49:20.160 --> 01:49:23.680
that in you. And so let me just pray for you. And let's see if

1630
01:49:23.680 --> 01:49:27.000
anything comes up. And even if you think it's small, let's just

1631
01:49:27.040 --> 01:49:29.760
you know, want to encourage you to share you see something you

1632
01:49:29.760 --> 01:49:33.400
hear something you know, and if nothing comes up tonight, and it

1633
01:49:33.400 --> 01:49:35.640
comes up in the days ahead, totally fine to share it in the

1634
01:49:35.640 --> 01:49:41.080
group, then. So Father, we just thank you so much that you know

1635
01:49:41.080 --> 01:49:45.160
the source of all the hopelessness that she has been

1636
01:49:45.400 --> 01:49:49.600
Amanda has been battling God, Lord, the balloon, the tire,

1637
01:49:49.600 --> 01:49:52.440
they had these slow leaks, God, and I believe that you're just

1638
01:49:52.440 --> 01:49:55.920
trying to say there's a source of the the leak of the hope in

1639
01:49:55.920 --> 01:49:58.880
her. So God, I thank you that you would reveal the source God

1640
01:49:58.880 --> 01:50:00.080
that you would show that

1641
01:50:00.000 --> 01:50:07.040
that wound or that area, that the brokenness from the past that has come in God and it's

1642
01:50:07.040 --> 01:50:12.080
created this hole that she doesn't even recognize is there. So Lord, I pray that you would reveal

1643
01:50:12.080 --> 01:50:18.240
these things, make them known to her, God, if it's a situation like, I don't know, even Lord,

1644
01:50:18.240 --> 01:50:22.240
maybe something happened in high school and she's long forgotten it or something in elementary

1645
01:50:22.240 --> 01:50:29.840
school, God, but whatever is causing her hope to fall short or to leak out God or for her to

1646
01:50:29.840 --> 01:50:34.720
feel like she can never actually walk in the fullness of the full measure of your hope, God,

1647
01:50:34.720 --> 01:50:39.200
I thank you that you would restore all the broken and fallen places in her that lead her to that

1648
01:50:39.200 --> 01:50:44.560
place and we just believe it, God, in Jesus' name and we declare supernatural healing and breakthrough,

1649
01:50:44.560 --> 01:50:50.320
break her anointing, be upon Amanda Morrison tonight, that she will no longer continue to

1650
01:50:50.320 --> 01:50:55.840
fight hopelessness, that she will be someone that walks in victory in the fullness of your hope

1651
01:50:56.400 --> 01:51:03.760
from day to day in Jesus' name, amen. And I just want to see if there's anything, and again,

1652
01:51:03.760 --> 01:51:09.040
no pressure if nothing came up, but is there anything that came to mind while I was praying

1653
01:51:09.040 --> 01:51:14.880
for you? Some things that came to mind, I want to do some revealing for healing kind of stuff,

1654
01:51:15.520 --> 01:51:22.800
some generational things came up, things that I may not have realized, there's some stuff that

1655
01:51:22.800 --> 01:51:29.920
I know and there's some little glimmers of things like things that were spoken out when I was young.

1656
01:51:33.120 --> 01:51:39.520
My grandmother, safety in men has been coming up lately and some other revealing like,

1657
01:51:40.320 --> 01:51:44.960
I think it's a message in my mind that's a block there that no man is safe.

1658
01:51:47.680 --> 01:51:52.720
Okay, so you're saying a lot of really important things here, Amanda, so I would encourage you

1659
01:51:52.720 --> 01:51:58.480
to continue kind of pulling this thread because I think the Lord's leading you into revelation here

1660
01:51:58.480 --> 01:52:01.360
because you were very confident. You're like, I think this is generational,

1661
01:52:02.560 --> 01:52:07.440
and knowing that your grandma must have been saying things to you that you heard,

1662
01:52:08.000 --> 01:52:11.040
is there any other things that you were going to say? I couldn't tell there.

1663
01:52:11.040 --> 01:52:15.920
Well, it was like, and then I'd have some like revealing for healing things like where my mind,

1664
01:52:16.800 --> 01:52:21.520
I realized like my dad wasn't safe in some ways, like he didn't ever physically harm me, but

1665
01:52:21.520 --> 01:52:25.920
he would go through bouts of depression and so neglect, like he just wasn't available.

1666
01:52:26.560 --> 01:52:32.880
That wasn't safe. Okay. Abandonment, you know, kind of thing. It could be that. Yeah. Okay, so

1667
01:52:32.880 --> 01:52:38.720
I also want you to pray and ask God to, I'm not saying that's not true about your dad, but I feel

1668
01:52:38.720 --> 01:52:45.040
specifically led to ask you to pray and ask the Lord to show you his perspective of your dad.

1669
01:52:45.600 --> 01:52:51.200
Okay. And just see what he shows you. I think that there's a new revelation he wants to bring

1670
01:52:51.200 --> 01:52:58.240
you about your dad. And it might even be before you were old enough to recognize that he wasn't

1671
01:52:58.240 --> 01:53:05.760
safe in some of those ways before some wounding came into his life that caused him to kind of

1672
01:53:05.760 --> 01:53:11.520
be in that depressive state. I feel like there's something God wants to show you about who your dad

1673
01:53:12.480 --> 01:53:17.920
really is and was before that stuff entered his life. It doesn't mean that he wasn't walking in

1674
01:53:17.920 --> 01:53:24.000
those things, but there is additional identity factors that, that the Lord wants you to understand

1675
01:53:24.000 --> 01:53:30.160
about your dad. And I feel like it's, it's going to bring connection in this generational stuff

1676
01:53:30.160 --> 01:53:39.600
that you're talking about as well. Yeah. And you can come in as God has shown you more stuff,

1677
01:53:39.600 --> 01:53:44.560
just come into the group and talk to us about it and let's see where this continues to unfold.

1678
01:53:44.560 --> 01:53:50.160
And I want you to really partner with Amanda. I can tell this has been a battle for a while,

1679
01:53:50.720 --> 01:53:54.480
but I want you to know there's going to come a day where this is going to come to an end for you

1680
01:53:56.080 --> 01:53:59.840
as far as like, you're not going to feel hopeless all the time.

1681
01:54:03.120 --> 01:54:08.480
Is that hard for you to believe when I say that to you? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

1682
01:54:09.120 --> 01:54:12.320
So what I want you to do is ask the Lord when you were a kid,

1683
01:54:14.240 --> 01:54:16.400
when was a time that you were full of hope?

1684
01:54:19.600 --> 01:54:24.800
That something happened that it depleted your hope kind of like it could have been something

1685
01:54:24.800 --> 01:54:29.040
fast that depleted your hope or like that slow leak that I've been talking about

1686
01:54:29.920 --> 01:54:32.240
and see what God shows you regarding that as well.

1687
01:54:33.360 --> 01:54:36.960
Because we got to get to the root of when you lost hope for the first time.

1688
01:54:38.800 --> 01:54:44.400
Okay. Definition. That was one of the pictures that I drew like the self portrait. It's a girl

1689
01:54:44.400 --> 01:54:51.200
dancing. Yeah. That was a hopeful girl. It is. And I think, okay, so here's the thing. That's

1690
01:54:51.200 --> 01:54:57.680
a prophetic message for you. That's how God sees you. And that's what he wants to help you walk

1691
01:54:57.680 --> 01:54:59.840
into more and more and more.

1692
01:55:00.000 --> 01:55:06.000
And again, it's kind of like what I was saying earlier, it doesn't mean we're not going to have to fight the enemy regarding these things again.

1693
01:55:06.000 --> 01:55:11.000
But the reality is, is you're going to gain knowledge and wisdom as you're figuring this thing out.

1694
01:55:11.000 --> 01:55:16.000
And I'm just going to speak this over you. I heard it twice, so that's why I'm going to say it.

1695
01:55:16.000 --> 01:55:18.000
I feel like God's confirming the word to speak over you.

1696
01:55:18.000 --> 01:55:26.000
I think you're going to help other people break free from hopelessness as well, Amanda, because you're gaining really important revelation in this process.

1697
01:55:26.000 --> 01:55:33.000
And the things that you've been walking through over the years, so really just continue to believe that God has greater for you, that he has greater for you.

1698
01:55:33.000 --> 01:55:38.000
And that each step of the way, he's giving you a nugget. He's giving you a nugget. You're learning something.

1699
01:55:38.000 --> 01:55:43.000
And it's not your job to save them, to break them out. He's the breaker.

1700
01:55:43.000 --> 01:55:50.000
But even when I prayed over you, specifically, that God would bring his breaker anointing, it's him doing it in you.

1701
01:55:51.000 --> 01:56:00.000
He is your hope of glory. He is your hope. But it's learning how to live in that hope, too.

1702
01:56:00.000 --> 01:56:07.000
So I gave you a couple things. You might even want to go back and listen to this part of the replay so you can catch several of those things.

1703
01:56:07.000 --> 01:56:12.000
But definitely pray into those. Let's see what happens, what else starts to unfold, okay?

1704
01:56:12.000 --> 01:56:13.000
Okay. Thank you.

1705
01:56:13.000 --> 01:56:14.000
You're welcome.

1706
01:56:14.000 --> 01:56:19.000
Arianne, hi.

1707
01:56:19.000 --> 01:56:26.000
You're still muted.

1708
01:56:26.000 --> 01:56:33.000
You might be having connection issues. I'm not having a storm here, but maybe.

1709
01:56:34.000 --> 01:56:44.000
I might have lost her.

1710
01:56:44.000 --> 01:56:51.000
Shoot. All right, well.

1711
01:56:51.000 --> 01:56:53.000
Wendy, is your thing working?

1712
01:56:53.000 --> 01:56:56.000
I'm ready. I'm ready. I got it together. I'm sorry.

1713
01:56:56.000 --> 01:57:01.000
It's all right. Go ahead.

1714
01:57:01.000 --> 01:57:07.000
Say to Arianne, because I can tell she's not frozen. You froze on us, so I'll come right back to you, okay?

1715
01:57:07.000 --> 01:57:09.000
I don't know if she can hear me. Go ahead, Wendy.

1716
01:57:09.000 --> 01:57:15.000
I've been having trouble with friendships. I got depressed this last week about something.

1717
01:57:15.000 --> 01:57:22.000
And I think I didn't do some good things, you know, like against somebody that hurt me.

1718
01:57:22.000 --> 01:57:25.000
And I figured out what it was.

1719
01:57:26.000 --> 01:57:30.000
I tend to run away from things a lot.

1720
01:57:30.000 --> 01:57:35.000
And I was planning a trip, because I said, I'm burned out. I better go and go on a trip.

1721
01:57:35.000 --> 01:57:39.000
And the next morning, I was like, oh, that's what it was.

1722
01:57:39.000 --> 01:57:46.000
It was because you felt like this person didn't want to take responsibility for some advice that they gave you.

1723
01:57:46.000 --> 01:57:52.000
And you took their advice, and then she doesn't want to acknowledge it.

1724
01:57:53.000 --> 01:58:04.000
And I guess I'm just learning that I really need to just focus on myself and what I want and just move on.

1725
01:58:04.000 --> 01:58:09.000
You know, maybe this is not the right friend or the right person to be in my life.

1726
01:58:09.000 --> 01:58:14.000
Not because they're a bad person, but because it's just not my direction.

1727
01:58:14.000 --> 01:58:18.000
Yes, that could be true.

1728
01:58:19.000 --> 01:58:26.000
God could also be using this to reveal to you the importance of forgiving people, even if they make mistakes and giving advice.

1729
01:58:26.000 --> 01:58:29.000
But yeah, definitely pray into that.

1730
01:58:29.000 --> 01:58:36.000
I feel like this kind of parallels in the past, like, you know, entanglements or things that you had with siblings.

1731
01:58:36.000 --> 01:58:39.000
And now you have friendships.

1732
01:58:39.000 --> 01:58:44.000
You said plural, so I don't know if you're having some struggles in multiple friendships.

1733
01:58:45.000 --> 01:58:52.000
Okay, so if you see any of us, if any of us see similar patterns showing up over and over in different areas,

1734
01:58:52.000 --> 01:58:58.000
so not just familial relationships, but friendships, then that's something that we need to pay attention to.

1735
01:58:58.000 --> 01:59:04.000
So, for example, even though people were doing things that were mistreating me,

1736
01:59:04.000 --> 01:59:08.000
like my ex-husband, like my spiritual daughter's dad, like another guy I dated,

1737
01:59:08.000 --> 01:59:14.000
the reality was, is I was attracting the same kind of person.

1738
01:59:14.000 --> 01:59:16.000
Okay?

1739
01:59:16.000 --> 01:59:20.000
I was choosing to allow those people to mistreat me.

1740
01:59:20.000 --> 01:59:24.000
And so I had to look at, I was the common denominator there.

1741
01:59:24.000 --> 01:59:26.000
Right?

1742
01:59:26.000 --> 01:59:27.000
Yes, I'm doing.

1743
01:59:27.000 --> 01:59:31.000
Yeah, and I had to look at, okay, where do I need to heal and grow?

1744
01:59:31.000 --> 01:59:36.000
And it might be like, you might need to like shift some of the friends that you have, Wendy.

1745
01:59:36.000 --> 01:59:43.000
You might have to shift how you react when someone does something that ends up hurting you in some way, shape, or form.

1746
01:59:43.000 --> 01:59:47.000
You know, do we retaliate when people do something?

1747
01:59:47.000 --> 01:59:48.000
Do we love them?

1748
01:59:48.000 --> 01:59:49.000
Do we forgive?

1749
01:59:49.000 --> 01:59:53.000
Or do we hold offense and, you know, react versus respond?

1750
01:59:53.000 --> 01:59:57.000
And so really looking at what's the common thread?

1751
01:59:57.000 --> 01:59:59.000
What is God trying to show you?

1752
01:59:59.000 --> 02:00:00.000
I love that.

1753
02:00:00.000 --> 02:00:06.880
you saw that you were running. And so hopefully you're resisting that desire or urge to run.

1754
02:00:07.520 --> 02:00:18.000
And instead, you know, maybe God's asking you to process this and stay, you know. So whether that

1755
02:00:18.000 --> 02:00:23.520
means stay in the friendship or stay in the moment, you'll have to kind of flesh that out

1756
02:00:23.520 --> 02:00:28.800
with the Lord. But I want to encourage you to keep looking at, you know, that similarity there and see

1757
02:00:28.800 --> 02:00:34.800
what the Lord might be trying to heal in you and grow in you so that you don't have those same kind

1758
02:00:34.800 --> 02:00:42.720
of struggles in friendships and relationships. Okay. I've just started the forgiveness. I've

1759
02:00:42.720 --> 02:00:49.200
started thinking about doing a forgiveness parachute on her. So I've started that process

1760
02:00:49.200 --> 02:00:54.800
in the mindset. That's awesome. That's a great start. Let us know how that goes for you. Okay.

1761
02:00:54.800 --> 02:00:59.120
Okay, thanks. All right. You're welcome. Thank you for sharing. Arianne.

1762
02:01:02.320 --> 02:01:08.240
You froze on us. There you go. Yeah, you told me. Okay. I don't you heard anything I said,

1763
02:01:08.240 --> 02:01:14.160
or I start over? No, we heard nothing. You heard nothing. That's bad. Okay. Um,

1764
02:01:15.120 --> 02:01:18.320
yeah, I think I said it in the past too. I don't feel competent.

1765
02:01:18.880 --> 02:01:25.280
Um, I get stuck in certain situations that happen, I get a lot of stress. And then I,

1766
02:01:26.240 --> 02:01:32.320
I don't know how to get out of it. And how to, I think it's a thought of while we were talking,

1767
02:01:32.320 --> 02:01:37.440
like, the fear of there is no backup. There was nobody I could lean on. And I don't know how to

1768
02:01:37.440 --> 02:01:46.320
get out. The last time it happened, okay, I'm now in the States. I had a trip with three with three

1769
02:01:46.320 --> 02:01:51.920
flights. I'm at my son's place. But there's so many red flags. And I, I don't know how to handle

1770
02:01:51.920 --> 02:02:01.680
it. I'm just I need some duct tape, something like that. Um, I had three flights coming here.

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And then there was two delays and two changes. And and I had like 37 hours. So my my thing is,

1772
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is this a medical situation? Because I have bills for stress, but I'm just recently so I

1773
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or is it spiritual? Probably both because, you know, it's hanging in the situation like I feel

1774
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incompetent when I don't know how to respond, right? I don't know how to get back on track.

1775
02:02:32.720 --> 02:02:41.920
Um, yeah, I get blinded. And then I feel incompetent for anything, actually,

1776
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because it's so basic. And so primarily.

1777
02:02:48.480 --> 02:02:54.320
Okay. It's okay. I was just making sure you were you were not gonna didn't have anything else you

1778
02:02:54.320 --> 02:03:00.720
wanted to say? Well, we know, number one, we know that you're not incompetent. Okay,

1779
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because you're really smart. We have conversations on a regular basis,

1780
02:03:05.440 --> 02:03:11.120
you hold very healthy conversation, you know how to process things that are emotional,

1781
02:03:11.120 --> 02:03:16.160
people that were incompetent would not be able to do those things are on Okay, so we can reject

1782
02:03:16.160 --> 02:03:22.320
that lie right out of the gate. Okay. And I know that you guys I never try to minimize because for

1783
02:03:22.320 --> 02:03:27.920
some people, these are these are very hard things because they've been told by other people in their

1784
02:03:27.920 --> 02:03:33.120
life that they are incompetent. But that's not true. So this is a part of you learning how to

1785
02:03:33.120 --> 02:03:37.680
have a new tape system in your, you know, and back in the day, there used to be cassette tapes,

1786
02:03:37.680 --> 02:03:41.680
we were talking about that a couple of us this weekend, there's, there's no more cassettes. But

1787
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for those of you that know what cassettes are, you got to put a new cassette tape in your tape

1788
02:03:46.000 --> 02:03:52.400
player so that you hear a new message, right? Um, you know, here's the reality, I think,

1789
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you know, when you have all those flight delays, and all that time, pretty much,

1790
02:03:59.520 --> 02:04:05.280
everyone would be really tired with that. Okay. And so I don't want you to believe the lie that

1791
02:04:05.280 --> 02:04:10.960
you're like this. Like you have all these physical failures, like your body is terrible. Like,

1792
02:04:11.680 --> 02:04:16.560
you are Yes, I think that your body endures stress just from things that you've talked to me about

1793
02:04:16.560 --> 02:04:22.720
before during sessions. And you are learning how your body is learning how to be stronger.

1794
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As you're, you know, processing emotional wounding and the things from the past you've been through

1795
02:04:27.280 --> 02:04:34.400
so much. So it's very common for our bodies, you know, to not know how to handle stress,

1796
02:04:34.400 --> 02:04:41.280
like some other people. But the reality is, that's a long time, I would be exhausted if that was me.

1797
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So I want you to know, like, I don't think there's something massively wrong with you,

1798
02:04:46.000 --> 02:04:52.400
because you're tired. And is it attacking of the enemy, it might be, it could just be that,

1799
02:04:52.400 --> 02:04:58.320
you know, you had a really rough trip. And unfortunately, things didn't go like peacefully.

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Like they

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might have at other times. But I want to kind of encourage you for whatever reason, because a lot

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of times I might be like, Yeah, I think the enemy, you know, was warring, but I just feel led to

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02:05:09.600 --> 02:05:16.720
actually ask you to not partner with that. Because I think this was just the mishaps of travel that

1804
02:05:16.720 --> 02:05:23.680
happens sometimes. And sometimes we need to not make everything I mean, everything is spiritual.

1805
02:05:24.400 --> 02:05:29.440
Okay, you guys, everything is spiritual. But I think there are times we need to not over

1806
02:05:29.440 --> 02:05:36.400
spiritualize something because it actually gives the enemy more authority than he needs to be given.

1807
02:05:37.600 --> 02:05:44.000
Okay, but I like to have a grip on it. Like, yeah, it became a drama in the airport. Really?

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I mean, oh, I, I can imagine I if that again, if that were me, and I had three flights,

1809
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and there were a bunch of delays, I think that would have felt like some drama for me too.

1810
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And so I think it's just our yarn, like, reminding yourself that even though those

1811
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are things that you went through that you can return to a place of peace inside of yourself

1812
02:06:10.320 --> 02:06:15.120
in your mind, you're not going to partner with I'm incompetent, because that's not true about you.

1813
02:06:16.080 --> 02:06:22.080
Right. I think I have a problem to go back to there. As now I am here.

1814
02:06:25.680 --> 02:06:34.080
I say this nice. I asked for help, and then I get like, dismissed or no time. Actually,

1815
02:06:34.080 --> 02:06:42.320
that's a lot of stress. There's a lot of stress here. Okay. So yesterday, I just took,

1816
02:06:42.320 --> 02:06:46.880
I don't want to be here. That's it. It's the same thing as before I think come back,

1817
02:06:46.880 --> 02:06:49.840
like, I want to disappear. And it's a mistake. And there's no place.

1818
02:06:51.440 --> 02:06:57.040
I don't know how to be me. Maybe I don't know. So I just took a walk. I got lost here. But

1819
02:06:58.080 --> 02:07:03.440
and I missed church. But do you and your son get along?

1820
02:07:03.920 --> 02:07:10.320
Basically, yes. But he also has a lot of pain from the past from my, my raising him. Yeah,

1821
02:07:10.320 --> 02:07:18.400
by myself. Yeah. So it's gonna be normal to not feel comfortable when you are with someone that

1822
02:07:18.400 --> 02:07:23.120
they they've been hurt by choices that have been made. And you guys have to process things. That's

1823
02:07:23.120 --> 02:07:30.000
gonna be hard for anybody. But it's it I do think it probably is a good thing you're there. I think

1824
02:07:30.000 --> 02:07:35.760
that allowing God to continue to heal you in this process versus kind of like what I was saying to

1825
02:07:35.760 --> 02:07:42.320
Wendy, instead of us running, we feel it. Remember, we feel the feel so that God can heal the field.

1826
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So we feel what's happening in this moment in this situation. And we say, Lord, what are you

1827
02:07:48.240 --> 02:07:54.480
trying to show me through this right now? Is it that I need to forgive my son because he's upset

1828
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Is it that I need to forgive my son because he's upset with me? And he you know, I don't know what's

1829
02:08:00.720 --> 02:08:08.240
happening. But just is it that I need to give my son grace because of what happened and give myself

1830
02:08:08.240 --> 02:08:15.760
grace as well. I don't need to disappear. I matter and God you created me and you wanted me to be on

1831
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the earth. And so I'm not going to partner with that lie and go into hiding. While I'm here in

1832
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this tough situation. Do you all see how that works? Like the enemy will want us when we're in

1833
02:08:27.600 --> 02:08:32.640
a difficult situation. I even feel this when people we have issues with people in the church.

1834
02:08:32.640 --> 02:08:38.240
I don't want to see those people. I will even like, I don't want to have to get up on the stage

1835
02:08:38.240 --> 02:08:44.160
and talk today because you know, I have all these but I have to resist that stuff. I have to decide

1836
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that I'm not going to go into hiding. I'm not going to allow the enemy to intimidate me or even

1837
02:08:49.360 --> 02:08:52.960
my own internal thoughts about myself or other people to intimidate me.

1838
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Am I kind of out of balance that I only have because I'm so limited that I know I go with

1839
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the family and that's not supportive. Okay, he lives together.

1840
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I think I think the tough thing is that your family has a lot of brokenness, Arianne,

1841
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and it takes time to heal. It takes time for reconciliation. And not every family is going to

1842
02:09:17.680 --> 02:09:25.200
be back like is going to know how to become like a happy family, if you will. So for example,

1843
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I don't spend a lot of time with my siblings. My both of my parents are already passed away. I

1844
02:09:31.600 --> 02:09:35.920
don't have any grandparents left. I have my two brothers and my sister and all three of those

1845
02:09:35.920 --> 02:09:43.680
people abused me in my life repeatedly. I don't feel like I've prayed a lot through this. I go

1846
02:09:43.680 --> 02:09:48.320
around them at certain times, like when my dad passed away, my niece is going to get married,

1847
02:09:48.320 --> 02:09:54.480
most likely I'm going to go for her wedding. But I don't feel called to be around them all the time.

1848
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That's just something between me and the Lord. Everybody's walk is

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different. And so I think it is important for you to pray and ask the Lord what his plan and

1850
02:10:05.840 --> 02:10:14.320
direction is for you, and then be confident in walking that out. But if you just feel like running,

1851
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we have to remember that our feelings don't belong in the driver's seat.

1852
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Okay, so you can remember, I'm saying that we can stand in the midst of hardship,

1853
02:10:27.040 --> 02:10:37.040
feel it, but not partner with, I need to disappear. I shouldn't be here. I can't handle this. We need

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to say, you know, God, I thank you that you're going to give me the grace to walk through this

1855
02:10:44.240 --> 02:10:51.520
and learn how to become stronger as I go. This is about you learning how to become stronger

1856
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and heal. Yeah. He also lives now with a, I mean, engaged, but she's controlling. He just follows

1857
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me where I go, what I eat, where I sleep, anything. It's, and he, he loves her. Okay.

1858
02:11:12.080 --> 02:11:15.360
Yeah, you might have to set some boundaries there if she's following you into where you sleep. But

1859
02:11:15.360 --> 02:11:21.120
if she's just trying to get to know you, that's different, you know, unhealthy, controlling.

1860
02:11:21.680 --> 02:11:26.640
Okay. Well then maybe just, you know, you might need to set some healthy boundaries with her in

1861
02:11:26.640 --> 02:11:33.680
a kind way. Okay. And, uh, we will be praying for you about that. I I'm trusting the Lord will show

1862
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you how to navigate this. How long are you visiting? Um, 20 days. So I have another big week.

1863
02:11:42.000 --> 02:11:47.120
Yeah. Okay. All right. Well, let's, let's believe that God is going to give you the grace

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and the courage to be there and walk this out and be a light for, for Christ while you're there.

1865
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Okay. Yeah. All right. You're welcome. We're going to be praying for you. I'm going to go

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ahead and pray us out. Ladies. Father, thank you so much for this night. We thank you God,

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for everything that's already been accomplished, the things that are still going to be accomplished

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in the days to come. God, we thank you for revealings, for healing happening one after

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another, after another, after another God, we thank you that you would bind the strong man in

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our hearts, in our lives, that you would break every spirit of fear off of us in Jesus name.

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And by the power of your blood, Jesus, that we would not be attacked by anxious thoughts or

1872
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anxiety attacks, despair, panic, dread, worry. We just say be gone in Jesus name.

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And we declare that we will be filled with a spirit of love and of power and of a sound mind.

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And we thank you Jesus for loosing that into our lives. We thank you Lord for lifting up this

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family where he lost his sister and those kids have lost their mom. We ask you to comfort them

1876
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and keep them to be near to them. Your word declares that you are near to the brokenhearted

1877
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and those who are crushed in spirit. So God, thank you that that's the truth for that family

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tonight. Be close to us as well. Protect us and keep us safe in Jesus name. Amen. Amen.

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We went extra long tonight. We won't always do that, but I just felt led to go ahead and

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let everybody go tonight. Bless you all. We'll be back again. Live next week.

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We'll be from eight to nine 30 next week. Okay. Have a good night, everyone. Bye-bye.