WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:06.000 Hello, beautiful people. 2 00:00:06.000 --> 00:00:11.000 Hello, hello, and welcome to the Kingdom creative chat. 3 00:00:11.000 --> 00:00:14.000 I know a whole bunch of you are just hopping on. 4 00:00:14.000 --> 00:00:16.000 So, so glad that you're here. 5 00:00:16.000 --> 00:00:18.000 Welcome, welcome, welcome. 6 00:00:18.000 --> 00:00:23.000 We're just going to give you a few minutes as everybody starts logging on and jumping in. 7 00:00:24.000 --> 00:00:26.000 You beautiful people. 8 00:00:26.000 --> 00:00:30.000 Hello, hello, welcome as you jump all in. 9 00:00:30.000 --> 00:00:32.000 Welcome, welcome, welcome. 10 00:00:32.000 --> 00:00:34.000 Oh, it's so good to see all your faces. 11 00:00:34.000 --> 00:00:37.000 This is so great. 12 00:00:37.000 --> 00:00:39.000 Awesome. 13 00:00:39.000 --> 00:00:41.000 Oh, Zylan and Phi, you're here. 14 00:00:41.000 --> 00:00:43.000 Yay! Awesome. 15 00:00:43.000 --> 00:00:44.000 Hi, hi, hi. 16 00:00:44.000 --> 00:00:46.000 Oh, hi. 17 00:00:46.000 --> 00:00:48.000 Yes. 18 00:00:48.000 --> 00:00:51.000 We're doing it. 19 00:00:52.000 --> 00:00:53.000 Awesome, man. 20 00:00:53.000 --> 00:00:54.000 So good. 21 00:00:54.000 --> 00:00:56.000 So good. 22 00:00:56.000 --> 00:00:58.000 Oh. 23 00:00:58.000 --> 00:01:03.000 Hey, Phi, what's up, bro? 24 00:01:03.000 --> 00:01:05.000 Your mic is mute, bro. 25 00:01:05.000 --> 00:01:11.000 Unmute the mic. 26 00:01:11.000 --> 00:01:13.000 Hi, hi. 27 00:01:13.000 --> 00:01:15.000 Hi, guys. 28 00:01:15.000 --> 00:01:17.000 This is amazing. 29 00:01:17.000 --> 00:01:21.000 So for all of you that are logging on, we're so glad that you're here. 30 00:01:21.000 --> 00:01:27.000 We are going to be probably just letting the next few minutes people log in from around the world. 31 00:01:27.000 --> 00:01:33.000 If you were here last time, we had probably a good 50 people join on the chat, which was amazing. 32 00:01:33.000 --> 00:01:38.000 So who knows who's going to jump on today, but it is so good to see all of your faces. 33 00:01:38.000 --> 00:01:40.000 We are so glad that you're here. 34 00:01:41.000 --> 00:01:55.000 And we've got Phi and Zylan, our amazing, beautiful kingdom creative team, and our brilliant artists that are going to be speaking today and just sharing more of their heart on finding inspiration and how we can just continue to create this atmosphere, 35 00:01:55.000 --> 00:02:06.000 environment, community within raising royalty of our kingdom creatives to champion you, to serve you, to support you in your journey of expression of art. 36 00:02:07.000 --> 00:02:08.000 Your journey as an artist. 37 00:02:08.000 --> 00:02:12.000 How do we bring light and color and inspiration to the world? 38 00:02:12.000 --> 00:02:15.000 How do we release heaven through the art that we create? 39 00:02:15.000 --> 00:02:17.000 And how do we do it as a family? 40 00:02:17.000 --> 00:02:31.000 How do we do it as a community that's encouraging one another, that's releasing truth, releasing revelation, insight, wisdom, tools, different things that have changed our lives, all part of the process. 41 00:02:31.000 --> 00:02:46.000 And so our heart in this chat is to create a really open dialogue, to be vulnerable, to be real, and for us, hopefully, just to be able to give you some gold, some wisdom, some input that's really going to serve you in your personal journey as an artist. 42 00:02:46.000 --> 00:02:54.000 And also in your relationship with the Lord, because this is all integrated very much in our relationship with God. 43 00:02:54.000 --> 00:02:56.000 So, so good to see you. 44 00:02:56.000 --> 00:02:58.000 Look, people just keep popping on. 45 00:02:58.000 --> 00:02:59.000 This is amazing. 46 00:02:59.000 --> 00:03:01.000 Oh, this is so great. 47 00:03:01.000 --> 00:03:06.000 So I'm just going to hand it over, like, Zylan and Phi, how are you guys doing today? 48 00:03:06.000 --> 00:03:08.000 So we've got Zylan in India. 49 00:03:08.000 --> 00:03:11.000 We've got Phi in Madagascar, which is just amazing. 50 00:03:11.000 --> 00:03:13.000 And all you beautiful people from around the world. 51 00:03:13.000 --> 00:03:16.000 Isn't technology such a gift? 52 00:03:16.000 --> 00:03:18.000 Like, this is just crazy. 53 00:03:18.000 --> 00:03:22.000 I know it's so normal in our day, but it never ceases to blow my mind. 54 00:03:22.000 --> 00:03:25.000 Like, 50 years ago, this was not happening. 55 00:03:25.000 --> 00:03:26.000 You know what I mean? 56 00:03:26.000 --> 00:03:29.000 Imagine going through COVID without technology. 57 00:03:29.000 --> 00:03:34.000 But yeah, Zylan and Phi, how are you guys doing? 58 00:03:34.000 --> 00:03:35.000 Talk to us. 59 00:03:35.000 --> 00:03:38.000 Hello, everyone. 60 00:03:38.000 --> 00:03:40.000 This is Zylan. 61 00:03:40.000 --> 00:03:45.000 And I'm actually checking out all the people, you know, how they're doing this video thingy. 62 00:03:45.000 --> 00:03:46.000 Look at Jim. 63 00:03:46.000 --> 00:03:49.000 What kind of camera are you using? 64 00:03:49.000 --> 00:03:52.000 Are you using a DSLR? 65 00:03:53.000 --> 00:04:02.000 I have a special diffuser in the background that is part of the Zoom app to blur out the background 66 00:04:02.000 --> 00:04:09.000 and keep the close app looking good just for security purposes. 67 00:04:09.000 --> 00:04:12.000 Oh, that's amazing. 68 00:04:13.000 --> 00:04:21.000 For me, each time when I go live on Zoom, right now it's 1030 here in the night. 69 00:04:21.000 --> 00:04:24.000 And there's no light. 70 00:04:24.000 --> 00:04:31.000 I have to literally stay in a place where I have enough light and stuff. 71 00:04:31.000 --> 00:04:35.000 It's 12 noon. 72 00:04:35.000 --> 00:04:40.000 I'm near Washington, D.C., so this is like noon here. 73 00:04:40.000 --> 00:04:42.000 Awesome, awesome. 74 00:04:42.000 --> 00:04:43.000 Yeah. 75 00:04:43.000 --> 00:04:44.000 Hello, everybody, again. 76 00:04:44.000 --> 00:04:48.000 And I'm doing good, actually. 77 00:04:48.000 --> 00:04:54.000 For the last couple of weeks, the state I'm staying here, it's called Kerala. 78 00:04:54.000 --> 00:04:55.000 It's very south of India. 79 00:04:55.000 --> 00:04:57.000 We were having, like, heavy rain. 80 00:04:57.000 --> 00:04:59.000 Some part of my state was flooding. 81 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:19.000 So it's quite unusual to have this kind of weather during November, December and yeah, so it was a crazy week and yeah, so it was really so nice to be here and I'm so, so excited. 82 00:05:20.000 --> 00:05:42.000 We've been having and crazy flooding to I'm in Vancouver, BC and our provinces under a state of emergency and we've had highways underwater and people like mudslides people being like hours away from their home people evacuated from cities being helicoptered out it's crazy like our whole city. 83 00:05:43.000 --> 00:05:53.000 Underwater bridges have been completely wiped out from flooding. It's just wild. Isn't it like it's happening all over the world with just the crazy. 84 00:05:55.000 --> 00:06:07.000 Yeah, I've lost power the last few weeks for four days, just like power outages everywhere. It's just, I mean it's happening all over the place, but I didn't know that was happening in India, and I'm sure many of you. 85 00:06:08.000 --> 00:06:14.000 Yeah, a lot of a lot of natural calamities were happening here. Yeah, it's crazy. Yeah. 86 00:06:15.000 --> 00:06:20.000 Talk to us, brother. How are you, you're a new dad. You've got a baby. Yes. 87 00:06:25.000 --> 00:06:29.000 Are you alive. Yes, it is. Are you awake. Talk to us. 88 00:06:30.000 --> 00:06:52.000 I'm gonna try to be very present today, tonight, because it's 8pm here, and my wife and my boy, they are almost sleeping I mean my boy is sleeping, praise God, because as a newborn baby is like waking up every two, two hours or three hours or so. 89 00:06:53.000 --> 00:07:03.000 So yeah, it's a new season and it's beautiful but it's also challenging and it's testing your passions and you're sleeping. 90 00:07:06.000 --> 00:07:13.000 My, everything is just changing you know and it's, it's a new season, but it's beautiful. 91 00:07:14.000 --> 00:07:27.000 And I am so excited to be with you tonight or today I don't know but it's gonna be amazing. And, yeah, I'm glad to be with you all. How many are we. 92 00:07:28.000 --> 00:07:30.000 I think we've got 17 so far. 93 00:07:31.000 --> 00:07:44.000 So I know, I know last time we had probably about 2030 and and people just kept adding on it got to 4050 so depending where people are joining in from and people schedules. 94 00:07:44.000 --> 00:07:49.000 Last time I believe we did it on a Saturday morning, so it was a little bit. 95 00:07:49.000 --> 00:08:07.000 I know with different people they might be at work today, because it is a Friday, depending again what time. And so, yeah, well, um, I'm just going to kick it off just with a quick prayer just inviting the Holy Spirit to come with us he's already on the inside of us he's 96 00:08:08.000 --> 00:08:18.000 already all around us so we don't actually have to invite him to come but we're just going to welcome his voice and his just leading in this because we, our hearts is that this wouldn't. 97 00:08:18.000 --> 00:08:33.000 I mean yes we want to just chat and want to connect we want community we want your hearts to feel loved and seen and known and celebrated. And in addition to that, we really want to make room for the miraculous, we want to make room for the Holy Spirit to come 98 00:08:34.000 --> 00:08:48.000 and do something in each of us just tuning our hearts to heaven, just saying Holy Spirit would you come and speak with you come give enlightenment, would you illuminate our, our understanding would you give us eyes to see ears to hear would you awaken 99 00:08:49.000 --> 00:09:03.000 in every fiber of our being that would resonate the creativity of our Lord, you know, so I'm just going to quickly pray so father we just thank you for each person here God I look at each one of their beautiful faces and I see their names. 100 00:09:03.000 --> 00:09:13.000 I thank you for these sons and these daughters I thank you for these ones that your hand is so richly upon I thank you for your presence and your love God. 101 00:09:13.000 --> 00:09:30.000 Thank you that you are the ultimate creator you are the master craftsman, and we are your handiwork we are your sons and daughters we are made in your image we bear your name we bear your DNA and I just ask in this time father, that you would release so much grace 102 00:09:30.000 --> 00:09:46.000 so much love so much wisdom that that our hearts that there would just be resurrection life, there would be abundant life that life flow. That is the creative life flow of Jesus of the Holy Spirit that pulses throughout our world. 103 00:09:46.000 --> 00:10:00.000 Your breath, your name your voice your presence, everything you do is creative, everything you touch gives light and color and shape and form, and we just worship you we honor you King Jesus we honor you father we love you. 104 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:06.080 love you. We want everything that we do to be an expression of love and devotion and worship to 105 00:10:06.080 --> 00:10:11.920 you. And so we just welcome you to come lead us in this time of conversation. I pray for personal 106 00:10:11.920 --> 00:10:18.160 encounter for everyone here that you'd be speaking to them. You'd be awakening the creator inside of 107 00:10:18.160 --> 00:10:23.920 them, the artist, you would be waking up dream and desire things that you've spoken to them. 108 00:10:23.920 --> 00:10:29.600 We just welcome the prophetic spirit. We welcome you Jesus to come and walk into the room. 109 00:10:29.600 --> 00:10:34.640 Holy spirit that you would just like literally be popping things awake, that they're just being an 110 00:10:34.640 --> 00:10:41.600 awakening of your beauty, of your goodness, of your voice of possibility to him who is able 111 00:10:41.600 --> 00:10:45.760 to do exceedingly abundantly more than we could think, hope, dream, or imagine. 112 00:10:45.760 --> 00:10:50.640 Father, we ask God just for the miraculous to happen in our lives. We make room for that. 113 00:10:50.640 --> 00:10:55.040 We yield to you. We surrender to you. And we just thank you that you are the most fun, 114 00:10:55.040 --> 00:11:00.320 playful, joyful person in the universe. And we ask for joy, God, where there's been heaviness 115 00:11:00.320 --> 00:11:06.880 in the season, weariness, tiredness, fatigue, depression, hopelessness, where we felt stuck. 116 00:11:06.880 --> 00:11:11.680 God, I pray that there would just be a shift right now in Jesus name. I pray for new joy, 117 00:11:11.680 --> 00:11:17.920 a new song, a new light that you would put a new countenance on our face, radiance of love and joy 118 00:11:17.920 --> 00:11:27.760 in Jesus name. Amen. So beautiful people. I am going to, we're just going to be kind of like 119 00:11:27.760 --> 00:11:32.320 dialogue. Zylan and Fi are going to just talk to us and share some really good tools, 120 00:11:33.520 --> 00:11:40.080 things that have helped them in their creative process as artists, as songwriters, as creators. 121 00:11:40.640 --> 00:11:46.080 These two men, if you don't know them are incredible songwriters, singers, artists, 122 00:11:46.960 --> 00:11:53.440 digital design. There is so much gold that they have produced and not just produced, 123 00:11:53.440 --> 00:11:57.840 but they have created, they have released in the world. So we have, I have so much to learn from 124 00:11:57.840 --> 00:12:03.680 them and I'm so glad that they're here and just going to be talking to us about finding inspiration. 125 00:12:03.680 --> 00:12:08.480 How do we find inspiration? How do we get tuned in? What are the things that are very simple 126 00:12:08.480 --> 00:12:13.920 in our daily lives? What are things that we have to be intentional about and actually make time for? 127 00:12:13.920 --> 00:12:19.280 What are things that are based on our personality that might not be for everyone, but for us and how 128 00:12:19.280 --> 00:12:24.640 the father has made us, that's how we're wired. That's how we're tuned in. And that's how we 129 00:12:24.640 --> 00:12:31.040 become kind of awakened to inspiration. The beautiful thing is that we are all individual 130 00:12:31.040 --> 00:12:36.480 and the father's fingerprints are all over us. And it, it looks different. Creativity looks 131 00:12:36.480 --> 00:12:40.880 different for each of us because it's a real intimate thing in our relationship with God and 132 00:12:40.880 --> 00:12:46.640 who he's made us to be. And so I'm really looking forward to hearing how that looks and is expressed 133 00:12:46.640 --> 00:12:52.400 through Zilan and Fi. So Zilan and Fi, I'm handing it over to you brothers. Love you guys so much. 134 00:12:52.400 --> 00:12:57.600 And so looking forward to just seeing what you share. So as they share, they might share a little 135 00:12:57.600 --> 00:13:02.880 bit of their life and inspiration. And then if you have a question or if you want to pop in maybe 136 00:13:02.880 --> 00:13:08.400 with the reactions, I don't know if you can see at the bottom of the reactions, there's like 137 00:13:09.360 --> 00:13:15.520 a raise a hand. If you just pop the little raise a hand, it'll put an emoticon in the, in the like 138 00:13:15.520 --> 00:13:20.320 top box of raise a hand. And then we can go to you with your question or if you want to 139 00:13:20.320 --> 00:13:25.600 share something. Sound good? Okay, Zilan and Fi, take it away, my friends. 140 00:13:29.760 --> 00:13:33.040 Hey Fi, do you want to start bro? Or do you want me to start? 141 00:13:33.840 --> 00:13:35.680 You, you can start. 142 00:13:36.880 --> 00:13:46.800 All right. So thank you, Diana. Diana is working so hard for this Zoom meeting. We really appreciate 143 00:13:46.800 --> 00:13:56.080 for your effort and work and putting things together. And yeah, and I know that, I mean, 144 00:13:56.080 --> 00:14:02.320 there are a lot of artists here. Last time when we had Zoom and a lot of unexpected faces, 145 00:14:03.920 --> 00:14:10.400 came and, you know, we just realized that they were like working as an artist for like 15, 146 00:14:10.400 --> 00:14:19.360 30 years, you know, like making life out of it. And that was like, kind of like a big thing for 147 00:14:19.360 --> 00:14:27.120 me, you know, from the last Zoom meeting. So I'm thinking that, I mean, we have all the creatives 148 00:14:27.120 --> 00:14:33.520 here who have a different journey and different levels of, you know, some might be super pro, 149 00:14:33.520 --> 00:14:40.400 or maybe amateur or beginners, intermediate, I don't know how to categorize. But I was actually 150 00:14:40.400 --> 00:14:51.200 kind of looking for something to say, you know, in the language to articulate that everybody can 151 00:14:51.200 --> 00:14:59.680 understand. And, and, yeah, I just wrote down a couple of points. And Phi, you can jump in and 152 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:04.280 You can, anytime you want to add stuff, please do it. 153 00:15:04.280 --> 00:15:08.440 And if you want to talk something and just please say it, 154 00:15:08.440 --> 00:15:12.020 I'll just start with, is that cool? 155 00:15:12.880 --> 00:15:13.720 All right. 156 00:15:15.000 --> 00:15:15.840 All right. 157 00:15:16.720 --> 00:15:18.800 I was actually looking for this thing 158 00:15:18.800 --> 00:15:20.800 called what is inspiration? 159 00:15:20.800 --> 00:15:21.840 What is inspiration? 160 00:15:21.840 --> 00:15:26.120 Inspiration is something that helps us to generate an idea 161 00:15:26.120 --> 00:15:31.120 in a very simple way to put it together, you know, 162 00:15:32.480 --> 00:15:36.880 just something that inspire us to generate an idea. 163 00:15:36.880 --> 00:15:41.880 And an idea can come from everywhere, you know, 164 00:15:42.600 --> 00:15:46.440 from everything, from mundane to extravagant stuff 165 00:15:46.440 --> 00:15:49.440 and existing or imagination, 166 00:15:49.440 --> 00:15:54.440 or it can come from anything, you know, anytime. 167 00:15:55.240 --> 00:15:56.640 So to find an inspiration, 168 00:15:56.640 --> 00:15:59.480 first thing we had to do is to look for, 169 00:16:01.280 --> 00:16:03.440 to look for, you know, 170 00:16:03.440 --> 00:16:07.000 to live in a place of expectation, you know, 171 00:16:07.000 --> 00:16:09.160 a complete awareness. 172 00:16:09.160 --> 00:16:11.320 There are a lot of people we're talking about 173 00:16:11.320 --> 00:16:13.000 like finding inspiration, you know, 174 00:16:13.000 --> 00:16:16.840 there are two schools of thoughts actually. 175 00:16:16.840 --> 00:16:19.120 And one sets say that, you know, 176 00:16:19.120 --> 00:16:24.120 that creativity is not productivity, 177 00:16:24.960 --> 00:16:27.880 is not, is equal to productivity. 178 00:16:27.880 --> 00:16:31.480 You know, most of the time we live in a modern age 179 00:16:31.480 --> 00:16:36.000 and, you know, we frame everything 180 00:16:36.000 --> 00:16:38.520 in this very industrialist way 181 00:16:38.520 --> 00:16:41.640 because we always look for product, you know, 182 00:16:41.640 --> 00:16:44.520 because what we want is the end product. 183 00:16:44.520 --> 00:16:47.840 It's a very, you know, sometimes it's really hard 184 00:16:49.120 --> 00:16:54.120 to apply the same template on a creative mind 185 00:16:54.360 --> 00:16:57.400 because all the, most of the great artists 186 00:16:57.400 --> 00:17:00.480 who actually created great, great art stuff, 187 00:17:00.480 --> 00:17:05.280 a creator, you know, in our human civilization 188 00:17:05.280 --> 00:17:09.960 for this years, you know, 189 00:17:09.960 --> 00:17:12.319 they did, most of them, 190 00:17:12.319 --> 00:17:16.599 they don't care about end product actually, you know, 191 00:17:16.599 --> 00:17:20.800 and they just enjoy the process of creating, you know, 192 00:17:20.800 --> 00:17:24.240 just they fully immerse themselves to create. 193 00:17:24.240 --> 00:17:27.040 They actually, you know, 194 00:17:27.040 --> 00:17:30.080 most of them actually destroyed their final products, 195 00:17:30.080 --> 00:17:32.200 you know, if you go and find out 196 00:17:32.200 --> 00:17:36.040 because nobody, most of them were not satisfied 197 00:17:36.040 --> 00:17:37.080 with their final products. 198 00:17:37.080 --> 00:17:40.240 You know, I read Da Vinci said about Mona Lisa 199 00:17:40.240 --> 00:17:42.240 that, you know, he actually took around four years 200 00:17:42.240 --> 00:17:44.920 or something like that to create that stuff. 201 00:17:44.960 --> 00:17:47.960 And somebody asked him and like, you know, 202 00:17:47.960 --> 00:17:51.680 and he was saying that, I mean, I could have done better. 203 00:17:51.680 --> 00:17:55.360 The thing is never being satisfied, you know, 204 00:17:55.360 --> 00:17:58.720 it's just like being in that moment of creating something 205 00:18:01.080 --> 00:18:03.520 that that's what they enjoy. 206 00:18:03.520 --> 00:18:06.920 In other side, other school of thought is somebody, 207 00:18:06.920 --> 00:18:09.720 you know, who wants to leave as an artist 208 00:18:09.720 --> 00:18:12.360 who works in an agency or do something, you know, 209 00:18:13.360 --> 00:18:16.840 what we need to do, what we have to do is we have to, 210 00:18:16.840 --> 00:18:19.520 you know, put a structure and create something 211 00:18:19.520 --> 00:18:22.520 because we'll be having clients and, you know, 212 00:18:22.520 --> 00:18:26.480 and we have to make a living out of it. 213 00:18:26.480 --> 00:18:30.480 So in that scenario, you know, 214 00:18:33.000 --> 00:18:36.080 that we care so much about the end product. 215 00:18:38.000 --> 00:18:40.600 Yeah, so basically you, 216 00:18:42.600 --> 00:18:46.680 inspiration is in this two scenario, 217 00:18:46.680 --> 00:18:48.480 inspiration is needed, you know, 218 00:18:48.480 --> 00:18:51.280 whether if you're looking for an end product 219 00:18:51.280 --> 00:18:55.760 or looking for an experience of creating something. 220 00:18:55.760 --> 00:19:00.760 And just as I said that, you know, generating an idea, 221 00:19:05.240 --> 00:19:10.240 you know, I actually did a live session 222 00:19:10.440 --> 00:19:14.360 on Kingdom Creative about a book called 223 00:19:15.560 --> 00:19:18.160 The Techniques to Produce an Idea. 224 00:19:18.160 --> 00:19:23.040 So, you know, because an idea is, 225 00:19:26.880 --> 00:19:29.880 let me put it this way, you know, just idea is, 226 00:19:35.600 --> 00:19:38.000 because most of the time when we think about idea, 227 00:19:38.000 --> 00:19:40.640 we think about this, you know, just being original, 228 00:19:40.640 --> 00:19:44.440 you know, being unique and all those kinds of stuff. 229 00:19:44.440 --> 00:19:48.440 But actually they say that originality is a mirage. 230 00:19:48.440 --> 00:19:51.720 There is nothing called original idea, you know, 231 00:19:51.720 --> 00:19:56.720 because every new idea is a combination of existing ideas. 232 00:19:59.520 --> 00:20:00.360 You know? 233 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:03.760 all the existing ideas, we put it together, 234 00:20:03.760 --> 00:20:07.480 put our twist in it, put our personality, 235 00:20:07.480 --> 00:20:11.040 flavor and perspective into it 236 00:20:11.040 --> 00:20:14.820 and make it authentic and personal and new. 237 00:20:14.820 --> 00:20:17.440 It's not original, but it's new. 238 00:20:17.440 --> 00:20:19.360 You know what I'm saying? 239 00:20:19.360 --> 00:20:24.360 So creating, so that's what actually, 240 00:20:24.360 --> 00:20:27.000 you know, people define idea, you know, 241 00:20:27.880 --> 00:20:32.880 and to find idea, you know, 242 00:20:35.360 --> 00:20:39.160 it's, there are a lot of ways you can do it. 243 00:20:39.160 --> 00:20:40.880 There are a lot of ways people do it 244 00:20:40.880 --> 00:20:44.340 and there is no right way or wrong way, you know? 245 00:20:44.340 --> 00:20:47.640 Like even when Diana started, 246 00:20:47.640 --> 00:20:51.160 she said that, you know, we are all individual. 247 00:20:51.160 --> 00:20:53.580 We have our own personality, you know, 248 00:20:53.580 --> 00:20:56.640 and as an artist, we have our own journey, 249 00:20:56.640 --> 00:20:59.580 our own, like the way we evolve 250 00:20:59.580 --> 00:21:02.040 is quite different from each other. 251 00:21:03.060 --> 00:21:07.540 So this is not the right way or wrong way. 252 00:21:07.540 --> 00:21:10.660 This is, there are a couple of ways that people do it. 253 00:21:10.660 --> 00:21:13.220 One of the things people say that, you know, 254 00:21:13.220 --> 00:21:15.620 if you want to create inspiration, 255 00:21:15.620 --> 00:21:18.820 you have to stay away from distraction. 256 00:21:21.460 --> 00:21:26.460 You know, what distracting you that you have to define? 257 00:21:26.660 --> 00:21:29.300 You know, you have to define your distraction 258 00:21:30.460 --> 00:21:35.460 and it might be internet, online, smartphone, job, 259 00:21:38.800 --> 00:21:43.800 and whatever it is, you know, like, you know, 260 00:21:43.800 --> 00:21:46.480 once you define your distraction, 261 00:21:46.480 --> 00:21:49.600 it's easy for you to, you know, 262 00:21:49.600 --> 00:21:54.020 create an ambience, atmosphere, you know, 263 00:21:54.020 --> 00:21:58.940 because that's what, it's more like, you know, 264 00:21:58.940 --> 00:22:03.940 just creating an atmosphere so that, you know, 265 00:22:05.980 --> 00:22:10.140 an idea can happen, an inspiration can happen, you know, 266 00:22:10.140 --> 00:22:13.380 can happen anytime from anywhere. 267 00:22:13.380 --> 00:22:15.220 Yafi, you want to add something, bro? 268 00:22:15.220 --> 00:22:16.060 Yeah. 269 00:22:19.940 --> 00:22:22.940 Yo, my friend, that's deep. 270 00:22:22.940 --> 00:22:24.460 Whatever you shared. 271 00:22:29.620 --> 00:22:34.620 Yo, I guess I'll just jump in how I find my inspiration, 272 00:22:38.780 --> 00:22:41.020 because you've already explained a lot of stuff 273 00:22:41.020 --> 00:22:42.380 about inspiration already. 274 00:22:45.220 --> 00:22:47.980 But I guess as a, I'm a songwriter 275 00:22:47.980 --> 00:22:51.660 and I'm a professional artist in my country, 276 00:22:53.220 --> 00:22:55.100 just for a little bit of information. 277 00:22:55.100 --> 00:22:57.500 So you may know a little bit about me also. 278 00:23:00.180 --> 00:23:05.180 So for me, I have a, as a Christian, 279 00:23:06.500 --> 00:23:11.500 I have a goal in what I do. 280 00:23:11.980 --> 00:23:15.140 And if you, if we have goals, 281 00:23:15.140 --> 00:23:17.620 we have to set some disciplines also 282 00:23:17.620 --> 00:23:20.340 so that we can reach the goal. 283 00:23:21.260 --> 00:23:26.100 And as an artist, one of my first discipline 284 00:23:26.100 --> 00:23:31.100 is just to be in touch with God. 285 00:23:31.740 --> 00:23:33.580 It's just to be always, 286 00:23:33.580 --> 00:23:36.180 try to always be present in his presence. 287 00:23:37.140 --> 00:23:41.140 And be, how would I say it? 288 00:23:41.140 --> 00:23:43.900 Pay attention to details, to small things 289 00:23:43.900 --> 00:23:46.380 and all those things. 290 00:23:47.340 --> 00:23:48.180 I don't know. 291 00:23:48.180 --> 00:23:50.100 I might go in totally, you know, 292 00:23:50.100 --> 00:23:54.100 we might go in many direction in this discussion, 293 00:23:54.100 --> 00:23:56.380 but that's, we are artists. 294 00:23:56.380 --> 00:23:57.900 We go to many directions. 295 00:23:59.780 --> 00:24:00.820 It's mostly that much. 296 00:24:00.820 --> 00:24:02.460 Just kidding. 297 00:24:02.460 --> 00:24:06.220 Anyway, but yeah, like for me, I'm like, 298 00:24:06.220 --> 00:24:08.740 if we want to release heaven on earth, 299 00:24:08.740 --> 00:24:12.100 like we must be in touch with whatever God wants to do. 300 00:24:12.100 --> 00:24:15.900 If, because how can we release what we don't know 301 00:24:15.900 --> 00:24:18.980 or what we are not in touch with or what we, 302 00:24:21.940 --> 00:24:23.540 if we don't even know what he wanted to do, 303 00:24:23.540 --> 00:24:26.700 how can we release it here? 304 00:24:26.700 --> 00:24:30.940 And that's why it's very important to have that, 305 00:24:31.940 --> 00:24:35.100 to be present in his presence for me. 306 00:24:35.100 --> 00:24:40.100 So that's how I find inspiration. 307 00:24:42.020 --> 00:24:47.020 I keep being open to whatever is coming to my life also 308 00:24:48.820 --> 00:24:52.060 and try to put words in everything. 309 00:24:52.060 --> 00:24:56.700 Try to write down, journal, all those things. 310 00:24:56.700 --> 00:25:00.060 So there's no, not. 311 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:06.960 a low, I guess, as Zailin explained, like there's no like a low, this is the low to 312 00:25:06.960 --> 00:25:18.920 find inspiration, because, yeah, but we just keep being open to whatever is coming and 313 00:25:18.920 --> 00:25:26.240 we write down and we allow ourselves to feel, we allow ourselves to, you know, and then 314 00:25:26.240 --> 00:25:37.240 we pray, help us to see more clearly, to feel, yeah, to feel more sincerely, to feel more 315 00:25:37.240 --> 00:25:51.320 sincerely and so that we can write pure and simple but maybe meaningful and powerful thing 316 00:25:51.320 --> 00:25:57.360 also. Yeah. 317 00:25:57.360 --> 00:26:01.200 That is so good, Phi. I just want to hop on what you're talking about, because Zailin 318 00:26:01.200 --> 00:26:07.560 and Phi, you've just like laid the foundation of some of like, just the technique and the 319 00:26:07.560 --> 00:26:14.040 reality of the building blocks of finding inspiration, but then also understanding kind 320 00:26:14.040 --> 00:26:18.280 of how we do that and getting in touch with God and our own relationship with him. And 321 00:26:18.280 --> 00:26:22.880 I just want to add in a few things that we can maybe open up for the dialogue and we 322 00:26:22.880 --> 00:26:28.040 can kind of like, yes, a little bit more. One thing that you were talking about is if 323 00:26:28.040 --> 00:26:34.280 we want to produce art that actually releases heaven, then we need to be in touch with heaven. 324 00:26:34.280 --> 00:26:40.040 And the reality is, is even in the natural, what we eat, is what we digest is what we 325 00:26:40.040 --> 00:26:47.040 poop out, right? So in the natural, as is in the spirit, what we are looking on what 326 00:26:47.040 --> 00:26:52.840 we are listening to, what we are engaging in the hours of our day, in the internal realm 327 00:26:52.840 --> 00:27:00.680 of our heart, is going to absolutely color and taint and texture what it is that we produce. 328 00:27:00.680 --> 00:27:10.560 So our relationship with God, walking in purity and integrity, having the Lord be an active 329 00:27:10.560 --> 00:27:15.320 presence in our life, not just I'm a Christian, I love God, I go to church, but actually having 330 00:27:15.320 --> 00:27:20.560 a personal connection with him, actually getting to know his nature and character, 331 00:27:20.560 --> 00:27:25.760 hearing his voice, being aligned to his word, doesn't mean we have to be perfect. Lord knows 332 00:27:25.760 --> 00:27:30.600 we are not perfect. Lord knows that we have our own process and our journey and struggles 333 00:27:30.600 --> 00:27:35.800 and weakness and sin that we overcome. We're not defined by any of that. We're not defined 334 00:27:35.800 --> 00:27:42.520 by unhealthy behavior or mistakes or guilt or shame, none of that. In Jesus, there's 335 00:27:42.520 --> 00:27:49.600 no condemnation, no guilt, no shame, no blame. There is so much love. There is so much healing 336 00:27:49.600 --> 00:27:55.680 and forgiveness and renewal and rebirth. And so out of that, we've been given a new nature. 337 00:27:55.680 --> 00:28:01.080 We are sons and daughters of the light. We, and I think as artists and creatives, that 338 00:28:01.080 --> 00:28:07.120 is a world that we really get affected by because we are very sensory. We're very visual. 339 00:28:07.120 --> 00:28:14.640 We're very sensitive because the realm of creativity is all about our senses. And so 340 00:28:14.640 --> 00:28:21.080 as we are walking out our humanity, what we are engaging with in our lives and our relationships 341 00:28:21.080 --> 00:28:26.680 and our work and what we look on and what we eat and what we do in our life, it all 342 00:28:26.680 --> 00:28:34.440 has a massive effect on what we produce because what we behold, we become. And so I think 343 00:28:34.440 --> 00:28:40.640 it's so good what Fia and Zion were talking about within goals that we have as artists 344 00:28:40.640 --> 00:28:45.680 or within just dreams or desires, whether creativity is something that we want to do 345 00:28:45.680 --> 00:28:50.880 just because we want to be creative or whether we feel called to it or whether we actually 346 00:28:50.880 --> 00:28:56.680 want it to be part of our calling and purpose that we make a living from, whatever place 347 00:28:56.680 --> 00:29:03.480 you find yourself in that journey, I think the bedrock of that is we are all creative. 348 00:29:03.520 --> 00:29:10.600 It doesn't even matter. Every human is born a creator. Every human is creative. When you're 349 00:29:10.600 --> 00:29:16.620 a kid, you hear music, you start dancing, you finger paint, you sing, you, we want to, 350 00:29:16.620 --> 00:29:22.280 we are born to create. Now we get into our adult years or our teenage years and the enemy 351 00:29:22.280 --> 00:29:27.520 comes in and culture and society comes in and begins to bring judgment to our creativity, 352 00:29:27.520 --> 00:29:33.040 whether that's good or bad, whether it's worthy of celebration or whether it's worthy of 353 00:29:33.360 --> 00:29:38.560 attention. And then we get all in the mixture and we can find ourselves in an identity struggle, 354 00:29:39.520 --> 00:29:45.200 but we are all born creative. And that creativity comes from the breath of God, 355 00:29:45.200 --> 00:29:50.560 Yahweh, it comes from the very nature. So what Fia was saying is if we want to produce art that 356 00:29:50.560 --> 00:29:56.320 releases heaven, we have to be in touch with heaven, not in a striving performance way, 357 00:29:56.320 --> 00:29:59.760 but in a way of that. We need water every day. We need 358 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:01.780 food every day to nourish us. 359 00:30:01.780 --> 00:30:03.580 We need breath, we need sleep. 360 00:30:03.580 --> 00:30:06.780 There are things that we need that actually nourish 361 00:30:06.780 --> 00:30:08.900 and nurture our humanity. 362 00:30:08.900 --> 00:30:11.020 And we need the breath and the voice 363 00:30:11.020 --> 00:30:13.420 and the presence of God and the word of God. 364 00:30:13.420 --> 00:30:14.260 Amen. 365 00:30:14.260 --> 00:30:16.020 Can I get like a little hands raised? 366 00:30:16.020 --> 00:30:17.540 Like, yeah, you know. 367 00:30:17.540 --> 00:30:21.620 And so part of the journey of that is like, 368 00:30:21.620 --> 00:30:22.940 okay, so what does that mean? 369 00:30:22.940 --> 00:30:23.980 What does that look like? 370 00:30:23.980 --> 00:30:25.900 Because we all come from different cultures. 371 00:30:25.900 --> 00:30:28.860 We all come from different backgrounds, different churches. 372 00:30:28.920 --> 00:30:31.120 We all come from very different experiences 373 00:30:31.120 --> 00:30:34.040 of what our relationship with God looks like, 374 00:30:34.040 --> 00:30:35.520 what being a Christian looks like, 375 00:30:35.520 --> 00:30:37.080 what following Jesus looks like. 376 00:30:37.080 --> 00:30:39.060 And yet it's very simple. 377 00:30:39.060 --> 00:30:40.600 It's to love the Lord your God 378 00:30:40.600 --> 00:30:43.360 with all of your heart, soul, mind, and strength. 379 00:30:43.360 --> 00:30:45.160 And it is to follow Jesus. 380 00:30:45.160 --> 00:30:47.240 And it is to have the word of God 381 00:30:47.240 --> 00:30:49.360 as a roadmap to his heart 382 00:30:49.360 --> 00:30:52.520 that shows us what his nature and character is like. 383 00:30:52.520 --> 00:30:55.440 And then we do that in community so there's accountability. 384 00:30:55.440 --> 00:30:58.040 So we're not lone rangers just doing our own thing. 385 00:30:58.060 --> 00:31:01.300 We're actually in this living, breathing community 386 00:31:01.300 --> 00:31:03.820 of lovers of Jesus that go, hey, we want to do this. 387 00:31:03.820 --> 00:31:06.100 So I want to just say a few things 388 00:31:06.100 --> 00:31:08.280 that helped me with finding inspiration. 389 00:31:08.280 --> 00:31:10.860 And maybe, I see Anita, your hand up. 390 00:31:10.860 --> 00:31:13.160 I'm going to go to you right after this, baby. 391 00:31:14.440 --> 00:31:17.580 One thing that is really helpful for me is solitude. 392 00:31:17.580 --> 00:31:19.700 I don't know if this is something 393 00:31:19.700 --> 00:31:21.300 that you've practiced in your life. 394 00:31:21.300 --> 00:31:24.340 I think we all have had a lot of isolation this year 395 00:31:24.340 --> 00:31:26.780 because of COVID and lockdown. 396 00:31:26.780 --> 00:31:31.280 Everyone's like, listen, I've done solitude, get me out. 397 00:31:31.280 --> 00:31:32.640 I know that's how I feel. 398 00:31:32.640 --> 00:31:36.440 I'm like, I've been in this state 24 seven, 399 00:31:36.440 --> 00:31:39.280 living alone, working alone for 18 or a year. 400 00:31:39.280 --> 00:31:40.720 Get me out. 401 00:31:40.720 --> 00:31:44.020 So I know the feeling of isolation 402 00:31:44.020 --> 00:31:45.880 is actually not the same as solitude though. 403 00:31:45.880 --> 00:31:48.780 I just want to make that differencing. 404 00:31:50.240 --> 00:31:53.500 Solitude is actually a practice and a discipline 405 00:31:53.500 --> 00:31:56.000 of bringing stillness and quiet 406 00:31:56.020 --> 00:32:00.220 to tune into your own heart and to God 407 00:32:01.140 --> 00:32:03.480 and finding a rest and a presence 408 00:32:03.480 --> 00:32:05.220 and abiding rest and a presence 409 00:32:05.220 --> 00:32:07.740 and actually becoming self-aware 410 00:32:07.740 --> 00:32:10.300 to what is happening on the inside of you 411 00:32:10.300 --> 00:32:14.260 and tuning into the spirit of God, the voice of God, 412 00:32:14.260 --> 00:32:16.780 turning your attention and affection towards him. 413 00:32:16.780 --> 00:32:20.700 It's actually creating time and space in your day 414 00:32:20.700 --> 00:32:23.780 to have solitude where just as Zilin said, 415 00:32:23.780 --> 00:32:26.800 you have to be aware of your distractions. 416 00:32:26.800 --> 00:32:29.160 Zilin's distractions are going to be different than mine, 417 00:32:29.160 --> 00:32:30.640 going to be different than Alexander's, 418 00:32:30.640 --> 00:32:34.480 than Jim's, than Janice's, than Fee's, than Jodit. 419 00:32:34.480 --> 00:32:37.040 I'm sorry if I said your name wrong, you beautiful woman. 420 00:32:37.040 --> 00:32:39.800 Zoe, Diana, Helen, all of our distractions 421 00:32:39.800 --> 00:32:40.720 are going to be different 422 00:32:40.720 --> 00:32:43.760 because we all are different in our personality, 423 00:32:43.760 --> 00:32:45.640 in our strengths and our weaknesses. 424 00:32:45.640 --> 00:32:48.800 So solitude, I want to just give that as an encouragement 425 00:32:48.800 --> 00:32:50.760 in finding inspiration. 426 00:32:50.760 --> 00:32:53.200 Solitude is really good because what do we do? 427 00:32:53.660 --> 00:32:55.180 We drown out the noise, 428 00:32:55.180 --> 00:32:58.340 we just like settle everything down, our busy mind. 429 00:32:58.340 --> 00:33:01.180 We actually are like tuning into like, 430 00:33:01.180 --> 00:33:03.400 sometimes putting a hand on your chest, 431 00:33:03.400 --> 00:33:06.220 quieting down your thoughts, closing your eyes, 432 00:33:06.220 --> 00:33:07.600 maybe being in silence, 433 00:33:07.600 --> 00:33:11.580 maybe having some like quiet instrumental music 434 00:33:11.580 --> 00:33:15.260 and actually just doing some deep breathing, 435 00:33:15.260 --> 00:33:17.020 actually calming your nervous system 436 00:33:17.020 --> 00:33:20.220 and actually getting into a place of rest. 437 00:33:20.240 --> 00:33:25.240 Deep breathing is really, really an incredible tool. 438 00:33:25.520 --> 00:33:27.160 Breathe in for four seconds, 439 00:33:27.160 --> 00:33:29.640 hold for seven and release for eight. 440 00:33:29.640 --> 00:33:32.240 Do that 16 times in your central nervous system, 441 00:33:32.240 --> 00:33:34.120 just kind of like, ooh. 442 00:33:34.120 --> 00:33:36.580 And I think with stress, with anxiety, with worry, 443 00:33:36.580 --> 00:33:38.120 sometimes like thoughts, 444 00:33:38.120 --> 00:33:39.960 sometimes just taking five minutes, 445 00:33:39.960 --> 00:33:42.920 doing some deep breathing, quieting yourself, 446 00:33:42.920 --> 00:33:46.440 having some soaking music, whether there's lyrics to it, 447 00:33:46.440 --> 00:33:49.040 whether it's instrumental and just dialing down, 448 00:33:49.060 --> 00:33:52.660 having a journal, as they said, journaling some thoughts. 449 00:33:52.660 --> 00:33:56.020 Another thing that's really good is getting out in nature. 450 00:33:56.020 --> 00:33:57.060 Go for a walk. 451 00:33:57.060 --> 00:34:01.420 There is, creation speaks 24 seven. 452 00:34:01.420 --> 00:34:04.760 The amount of inspiration that I get from going to the beach, 453 00:34:04.760 --> 00:34:08.219 I live right on a river, on like a forest. 454 00:34:08.219 --> 00:34:10.179 I'm looking out right now at the forest 455 00:34:10.179 --> 00:34:12.679 and like the trees speak to me every day. 456 00:34:12.679 --> 00:34:14.739 The grass, the sun, the cloud. 457 00:34:14.739 --> 00:34:17.880 I live in Vancouver, it rains like nine months of the year. 458 00:34:17.900 --> 00:34:21.260 The rain, the clouds, like just going for walks, 459 00:34:21.260 --> 00:34:24.340 being in a grocery store, taking notice of people, 460 00:34:24.340 --> 00:34:27.219 being observatory of what's happening, 461 00:34:27.219 --> 00:34:30.100 hearing a lyric from a song in the grocery store 462 00:34:30.100 --> 00:34:31.659 that just caught my attention, 463 00:34:31.659 --> 00:34:33.860 seeing the way like someone just interacted 464 00:34:33.860 --> 00:34:35.080 with someone on the street. 465 00:34:35.080 --> 00:34:36.420 Literally, just as they said, 466 00:34:36.420 --> 00:34:39.219 you can find inspiration everywhere, 467 00:34:39.219 --> 00:34:41.500 but nature is always speaking. 468 00:34:41.500 --> 00:34:43.380 Creation is always speaking. 469 00:34:43.380 --> 00:34:46.580 In the Psalms, it says, the trees clap their hands, 470 00:34:46.580 --> 00:34:49.159 the winds, the waves, you know what I mean? 471 00:34:49.159 --> 00:34:51.860 Finding inspiration while you're cooking, 472 00:34:51.860 --> 00:34:53.679 finding inspiration in a smell, 473 00:34:53.679 --> 00:34:56.280 like washing my hair and like smelling something, 474 00:34:56.280 --> 00:34:59.240 like that smell took me back to like coconuts 475 00:34:59.240 --> 00:35:00.240 and took me back to. 476 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.760 a beach somewhere and that it took like thoughts go on a trail, you know, um, 477 00:35:05.520 --> 00:35:08.800 finding inspiration in like the things that you love. 478 00:35:09.200 --> 00:35:12.400 One of the things that's been a game changer for me in my spiritual life is 479 00:35:12.440 --> 00:35:15.400 actually knowing that God delights in the things that I like. 480 00:35:16.040 --> 00:35:20.800 I thought I had to be so spiritual and so hardworking and that God 481 00:35:21.160 --> 00:35:24.480 like permitted me to like some of the things, 482 00:35:24.520 --> 00:35:28.840 but to know that God actually radically enjoys and 483 00:35:28.880 --> 00:35:33.240 loves it. When I do the things that make me come alive, he's right there in it, 484 00:35:33.480 --> 00:35:34.760 beckoning me to do it. 485 00:35:34.760 --> 00:35:38.640 And it's actually worship for me to do the things that make me come alive. 486 00:35:39.200 --> 00:35:43.400 That I want to say to you in finding inspiration is a game changer 487 00:35:43.600 --> 00:35:48.200 because God, Jesus came that there would be life and life abundant. 488 00:35:48.480 --> 00:35:51.440 He came that there would be abundant life and joy. 489 00:35:51.680 --> 00:35:54.920 And so many of us get caught up in striving and performance. 490 00:35:55.040 --> 00:35:57.520 We don't even realize there's legalism and religion. 491 00:35:57.520 --> 00:36:02.320 We don't even realize that we think that he he's not playful and the most 492 00:36:02.320 --> 00:36:06.880 joyful person in the universe, but God is the most joyful, beautiful, 493 00:36:07.120 --> 00:36:10.720 loving, attentive. Like I want to connect with you, 494 00:36:10.720 --> 00:36:14.720 enjoy and love and delight person in the universe. He made us, 495 00:36:15.600 --> 00:36:19.280 we actually do things when we make a meal that we love. 496 00:36:20.000 --> 00:36:23.680 I find so much inspiration in the color and the texture of food and the smell of 497 00:36:23.680 --> 00:36:27.200 it. And I put some music on and I light a candle and I have a glass of wine and 498 00:36:27.200 --> 00:36:30.760 I'm just like dancing in my little kitchen. And I'm like, Woo. Yay. Hey, 499 00:36:30.800 --> 00:36:34.960 you know, I'm just vibing by myself or with a friend on the phone. 500 00:36:35.360 --> 00:36:36.400 And there's inspiration. 501 00:36:36.400 --> 00:36:40.480 And I might get inspired with something or I might be out for a walk, 502 00:36:40.800 --> 00:36:43.360 feeling super bummed out, alone, 503 00:36:44.080 --> 00:36:46.240 frustrated with some of the things that are going in my life. 504 00:36:46.760 --> 00:36:48.720 And I see something and it inspires me. 505 00:36:48.720 --> 00:36:53.280 And I just begin to speak poetry and song to the Lord, like whatever emotion, 506 00:36:53.280 --> 00:36:55.200 whatever circumstance, wherever you're at, 507 00:36:56.160 --> 00:36:59.040 finding, inspiring, allowing life, 508 00:36:59.360 --> 00:37:03.040 allowing his voice to come but doing things that make you come alive, 509 00:37:03.760 --> 00:37:07.520 playing a card game with people that you love dancing, eating, seeing a movie, 510 00:37:07.560 --> 00:37:10.160 whatever it is, the activity. 511 00:37:10.760 --> 00:37:15.000 I really want to encourage you be intentional to create space for 512 00:37:15.000 --> 00:37:19.600 solitude and create space for nature and create space for 513 00:37:19.600 --> 00:37:21.880 joy, create space in your day. 514 00:37:22.040 --> 00:37:25.800 Even if you're tired or you're married kids, 515 00:37:26.520 --> 00:37:29.960 work things take five minutes a day and go, 516 00:37:29.960 --> 00:37:33.000 I'm going to be intentional about doing something that makes me come alive. 517 00:37:33.360 --> 00:37:37.000 Because when you are feeling alive, when you are feeling joy, 518 00:37:37.280 --> 00:37:41.240 the life force in that carries so much power. 519 00:37:41.560 --> 00:37:46.480 It carries so much empowering grace for something to spark on the inside 520 00:37:46.480 --> 00:37:49.720 of you. That is buoyant. That's like a fountain of life. 521 00:37:49.760 --> 00:37:53.000 That is bringing up like, Oh my gosh. 522 00:37:53.000 --> 00:37:55.800 It's like your batteries just get recharged. You're like, you know, 523 00:37:55.800 --> 00:37:59.680 like those heart things in a hospital that you put on the heart and it's like, 524 00:37:59.680 --> 00:38:03.840 someone's in heart failure and it's like, and it's like a, like, 525 00:38:04.120 --> 00:38:08.920 you know, revives it. Joy revives the heart. It refreshes, 526 00:38:08.920 --> 00:38:12.480 it renews, it nourishes, it comes to bring life. 527 00:38:13.240 --> 00:38:16.680 And so yes, finding inspiration in solitude, 528 00:38:16.920 --> 00:38:19.640 finding inspiration in nature, getting outside, 529 00:38:19.800 --> 00:38:23.480 being observatory of the everyday mundane, 530 00:38:23.600 --> 00:38:24.920 normal things of life. 531 00:38:25.240 --> 00:38:29.640 You could be crossing a street and you could see a sign and something just 532 00:38:29.640 --> 00:38:31.680 speaks to you. The spirit of God speaks to you. 533 00:38:31.720 --> 00:38:35.720 I always ask every day, like God speak to me, 534 00:38:36.080 --> 00:38:39.120 speak to me in a, in a billboard, in a sign, in a song, 535 00:38:39.120 --> 00:38:43.760 I hear in an interaction that I see in a car that drives by in like my 536 00:38:43.800 --> 00:38:48.200 everyday mundane life, just here, speak to me, open up my eyes. 537 00:38:48.200 --> 00:38:51.720 Like God, you're in everything. And you're always speaking. 538 00:38:51.800 --> 00:38:53.040 He is always speaking. 539 00:38:53.040 --> 00:38:57.640 So tune my attention to be aware of how you're speaking to me. 540 00:38:57.680 --> 00:39:01.600 You know, so many times I'm on Instagram and like a post speaks to me, 541 00:39:01.640 --> 00:39:06.200 a picture, a word. And it's like a timely word, prophetic word for me. 542 00:39:06.560 --> 00:39:08.280 They're not even Christian or being prophetic. 543 00:39:08.520 --> 00:39:12.040 It's just a timely thing that God like goes speaking to that. 544 00:39:12.040 --> 00:39:15.800 Or I'm just like, wow, I'm watching other people's creativity. 545 00:39:16.000 --> 00:39:20.080 I was watching Zylan's music video. When we were doing the talent quest, 546 00:39:20.600 --> 00:39:24.760 I literally got so lit up with joy. He's dancing on a beach, 547 00:39:24.760 --> 00:39:27.960 all these amazing indie kids. I was here in my living room and be like, 548 00:39:29.400 --> 00:39:33.720 like I was fully getting lit up. I watched Fee was like, yeah, 549 00:39:33.720 --> 00:39:36.720 last night it just got inspired with a song. And I just wrote the song. 550 00:39:36.720 --> 00:39:39.080 So today I'm just singing it to you. And I'm like, Fee, 551 00:39:39.760 --> 00:39:43.200 you like literally got inspired last night by this scripture and you wrote a 552 00:39:43.200 --> 00:39:46.640 song and then you just made a music video and you put it on Facebook. 553 00:39:46.640 --> 00:39:50.000 I'm like, Holy spirit do that to me. 554 00:39:50.120 --> 00:39:53.760 I want to just like get inspired and write a song and be like, Hey everyone. 555 00:39:55.120 --> 00:39:57.760 You know? So let other people's art, 556 00:39:58.200 --> 00:39:59.920 even if it's not in your. 557 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:08.320 sphere of art, if it's painting, poetry, dance, sculpture, architecture, digital design, whatever 558 00:40:08.320 --> 00:40:15.440 it is, let other people's art inspire you. Look at it as the great museum, as if you're going 559 00:40:15.440 --> 00:40:21.680 to a museum every day. Every day is a museum, and we are all his handiwork. There is so much 560 00:40:21.680 --> 00:40:29.120 art that we get to gaze on. Statues, paintings, humanity. Humanity is this walking museum of art. 561 00:40:29.200 --> 00:40:32.240 I'm going to stop talking, because I could just keep talking for a long time. 562 00:40:32.240 --> 00:40:37.040 I'm going to stop, but I'm going to just wrap it up again of seeing the solitude, 563 00:40:37.040 --> 00:40:43.520 the nature, other people's creativity, and then finding joy, being deliberate and intentional to 564 00:40:43.520 --> 00:40:49.280 do the things that make you come alive, because that is a life force that actually creates a 565 00:40:49.280 --> 00:40:53.840 cadence. It connects you to the rhythm and the heartbeat of the father, because the more that 566 00:40:53.840 --> 00:40:59.840 we're in joy, the more we're alive, and the more we are alive, the more we will create life, 567 00:40:59.840 --> 00:41:07.840 and the more we are alive, we crave the light. We crave good things that cause us to be alive. 568 00:41:07.840 --> 00:41:15.440 The more we feel disconnected, hopeless, depressed, isolated, we return to things that give us, 569 00:41:17.040 --> 00:41:21.200 that meet our needs in an unhealthy way, and then we get in these shame spirals. 570 00:41:21.760 --> 00:41:27.520 We actually go to things that aren't life-giving. Then we feel the effects of the disconnect of sin. 571 00:41:27.520 --> 00:41:33.200 We feel frustrated. We feel like, oh, this isn't who I am, and we get in those things. 572 00:41:33.200 --> 00:41:38.960 I've been there. We've all been there, and so there's no shame and no blame. It's just going, 573 00:41:38.960 --> 00:41:43.760 hey, every day is a new start. Every day is a reset. There's new mercy every day, 574 00:41:43.760 --> 00:41:48.400 and we get to go, hey, what are the things that are affecting my life that I'm aligning to? 575 00:41:48.400 --> 00:41:53.600 Maybe what are the behaviors, the things that I'm looking on, engaging with, feeding with, 576 00:41:56.080 --> 00:42:01.200 even good things sometimes that just aren't timely for us anymore, even relationships, 577 00:42:01.200 --> 00:42:06.080 good things that were good for a time that, hey, that's not feeding me, or things that we're giving 578 00:42:06.080 --> 00:42:09.760 our time and attention to that are no longer appropriate for the season that are actually 579 00:42:09.760 --> 00:42:15.360 becoming a distraction. It doesn't just have to be wrong things or sin. It could just be things 580 00:42:15.360 --> 00:42:19.520 that go, that's not a life-giving thing anymore, so I'm going to bring some rearranging to where 581 00:42:19.520 --> 00:42:25.280 I'm giving my time and attention and my focus. Holy Spirit, help me rearrange some things so 582 00:42:25.280 --> 00:42:30.960 that I can be in alignment with the life-giving power, because we live and we move and we have 583 00:42:30.960 --> 00:42:36.000 our being in Jesus, in the Holy Spirit, in God the Father. Holy Spirit, what are the things that 584 00:42:36.000 --> 00:42:40.240 are life-giving that are going to continue to allow that life flow, and what are the things 585 00:42:40.240 --> 00:42:46.400 that maybe cause me to be a bit anxious or fearful or feel shame or not the best version 586 00:42:46.400 --> 00:42:50.720 of myself? What are the things that aren't producing the best version of myself that I just need to go, 587 00:42:50.720 --> 00:42:59.600 yeah, no more of that, shifting focus, reset, woo, here we go. So I want to go to Anita, 588 00:42:59.600 --> 00:43:06.480 and I also want to just open it up just to say what's maybe one thing, just because we have a 589 00:43:06.480 --> 00:43:10.160 lot of people on here, so we just want to be mindful just to take maybe one minute or two 590 00:43:10.160 --> 00:43:15.920 minutes so that we create space for everyone, but maybe what's one thing that brings inspiration to 591 00:43:15.920 --> 00:43:25.440 you in your life? And Zylan and Phi, always chime in at any time. Before we get into this 592 00:43:25.440 --> 00:43:35.760 question-answer thing, can I say a few points? Absolutely. All right, so I just wanted to add 593 00:43:35.840 --> 00:43:41.920 what Diana said. Diana actually covered a lot of things, so I'm trying to like structure it, 594 00:43:41.920 --> 00:43:52.960 because Diana told me that, hey, put down some notes, so actually I did it, 595 00:43:52.960 --> 00:43:59.920 and you actually covered most of the stuff, so I just wanted to like add that thing, 596 00:43:59.920 --> 00:44:06.160 especially the thing that first get rid of, define your distraction and create a mood, 597 00:44:06.160 --> 00:44:12.960 so the inspiration can pop up. Once it comes, it can come in unexpected times, 598 00:44:12.960 --> 00:44:17.920 you just need to record it, just journal it, write it down, voice note, take a picture, 599 00:44:18.960 --> 00:44:25.280 just record it, because the next moment you will miss it, because many times I'm a 600 00:44:25.680 --> 00:44:32.880 songwriter, I write like almost every day, and most of the time, in early my days, I mean, 601 00:44:32.880 --> 00:44:40.160 I didn't like record it and stuff, and sometimes there are really beautiful melodies, and words 602 00:44:40.160 --> 00:44:47.520 come, and after two days, it's gone, I can't remember and stuff, so always journal it, and 603 00:44:47.520 --> 00:44:59.840 other thing is, also Diana shared, just get inspired by other artists, so this is one of 604 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.000 the things that I always actually look for. 605 00:45:03.000 --> 00:45:08.000 I mean, I just wanted to like create a circle 606 00:45:09.560 --> 00:45:14.560 because it can be virtual or like a physical thing, 607 00:45:14.880 --> 00:45:16.560 you know, you can create, 608 00:45:16.560 --> 00:45:21.160 because we live in a really, really blessed time 609 00:45:21.160 --> 00:45:25.200 of information, you know, we got a lot of technology, 610 00:45:25.200 --> 00:45:29.520 lot of resource, you know, even though if you are in a room, 611 00:45:29.520 --> 00:45:32.000 you know, in a pandemic situation, 612 00:45:32.000 --> 00:45:34.720 you can still connect with the entire world. 613 00:45:34.720 --> 00:45:39.720 You know, it's a crazy, crazy opportunity to grow, 614 00:45:39.840 --> 00:45:43.680 you know, you can create a circle of artists 615 00:45:43.680 --> 00:45:45.880 who inspire you, you know, 616 00:45:45.880 --> 00:45:50.080 and maybe, you know, you can go to the museum 617 00:45:50.080 --> 00:45:53.160 or read books, watch movies and, you know, 618 00:45:53.160 --> 00:45:57.520 and just always, you know, try to build a circle 619 00:45:57.600 --> 00:46:02.600 of artists or people who you can look up to, 620 00:46:03.680 --> 00:46:06.360 who you can get inspired to. 621 00:46:06.360 --> 00:46:09.680 Another thing is always put yourself into a new experience 622 00:46:09.680 --> 00:46:12.760 because new experience bring new knowledge 623 00:46:12.760 --> 00:46:15.800 and new knowledge often bring new ideas. 624 00:46:15.800 --> 00:46:17.520 So that's other thing, you know, 625 00:46:17.520 --> 00:46:21.400 whatever Dana said, if you are a nature person, 626 00:46:21.400 --> 00:46:23.240 I am not a very good nature person, 627 00:46:23.240 --> 00:46:25.560 I love chaos, I love cities, you know, 628 00:46:25.560 --> 00:46:28.000 I love a lot of chaos and stuff. 629 00:46:28.000 --> 00:46:31.360 I mean, I love solitude and stuff for sure. 630 00:46:31.360 --> 00:46:35.000 And just being aware, just quieting yourself down 631 00:46:35.000 --> 00:46:37.680 because all the great artists, scientists, theologians, 632 00:46:37.680 --> 00:46:41.680 all the big people, the great minds always did that thing, 633 00:46:41.680 --> 00:46:44.000 you know, just silencing yourself down, 634 00:46:44.000 --> 00:46:45.880 just being in that quiet place, 635 00:46:45.880 --> 00:46:49.840 just in solitude and bringing the idea 636 00:46:49.840 --> 00:46:52.080 because idea comes from within, you know, 637 00:46:52.080 --> 00:46:54.480 it doesn't come from up above, you know, 638 00:46:54.480 --> 00:46:57.480 because that's what the Bible says, you know, 639 00:46:57.480 --> 00:47:02.480 the river actually comes from inside out. 640 00:47:02.720 --> 00:47:05.760 So if you wanna hear that thing, 641 00:47:05.760 --> 00:47:09.440 if you wanna tap into that source, you need to quiet down. 642 00:47:09.440 --> 00:47:14.440 And other thing is, 643 00:47:15.360 --> 00:47:18.480 so already Dana, Dana, you covered everything. 644 00:47:18.480 --> 00:47:20.520 The other thing is just being aware 645 00:47:20.520 --> 00:47:23.840 because most of the people, you know, 646 00:47:23.840 --> 00:47:25.600 all the artists, you know, 647 00:47:25.600 --> 00:47:28.800 what we actually do is, you know, just being aware. 648 00:47:28.800 --> 00:47:31.880 All the artists, we actually have deeper perception, 649 00:47:31.880 --> 00:47:35.000 you know, we see things in multi-layer 650 00:47:35.000 --> 00:47:36.600 and we just, you know, 651 00:47:36.600 --> 00:47:41.600 and if you can cultivate a deep sense of awareness, 652 00:47:44.400 --> 00:47:47.040 you're set and, you know, 653 00:47:47.040 --> 00:47:49.600 that's what we have to do with our lives. 654 00:47:49.600 --> 00:47:53.160 You know, that's what I always trying to do with my life, 655 00:47:53.480 --> 00:47:57.440 just try to be aware of what's going on, you know, 656 00:47:57.440 --> 00:47:59.480 like Dana said that, you know, 657 00:47:59.480 --> 00:48:04.480 just having a childlike mindset, you know, 658 00:48:07.520 --> 00:48:12.520 because if you see it, this phone and your brain tells you 659 00:48:13.640 --> 00:48:15.680 what it is, how it is, you know, 660 00:48:15.680 --> 00:48:17.280 lot of information comes out, 661 00:48:17.280 --> 00:48:22.080 if you really spend observing it, you know, to anything. 662 00:48:22.080 --> 00:48:27.080 The thing is, we live in a very busy age and time, 663 00:48:28.680 --> 00:48:31.080 we don't look, we don't observe, you know, 664 00:48:31.080 --> 00:48:35.800 because we are always chasing after the next big thing, 665 00:48:35.800 --> 00:48:38.160 you know, so if you can slow down, 666 00:48:38.160 --> 00:48:41.160 pause and observe and solitude, 667 00:48:41.160 --> 00:48:44.280 always lot of ideas that the spirit of God 668 00:48:44.280 --> 00:48:46.160 can speak to you, you know, 669 00:48:46.160 --> 00:48:51.160 and yeah, and look for inspiration anytime, you know, 670 00:48:51.560 --> 00:48:55.160 every day it can come to you and like they said, 671 00:48:55.160 --> 00:49:00.160 personally for me, I use my social media, 672 00:49:01.720 --> 00:49:05.080 always I actually edit, I unfollow stuff, 673 00:49:05.080 --> 00:49:08.480 I always make sure that my algorithm is something 674 00:49:08.480 --> 00:49:12.160 that every day when I wake up, 675 00:49:12.160 --> 00:49:14.680 I wanna see the things that inspire me, you know, 676 00:49:14.680 --> 00:49:18.880 if any reels that not my thing, 677 00:49:18.880 --> 00:49:22.640 I unfollow it immediately, 678 00:49:22.640 --> 00:49:26.120 so I always edit my algorithm and try to make sure 679 00:49:26.120 --> 00:49:29.320 that all my feeds are pretty inspiring 680 00:49:29.320 --> 00:49:31.840 and, you know, I love little funny stuff, 681 00:49:31.840 --> 00:49:35.160 but still most of my social media thing 682 00:49:35.160 --> 00:49:40.160 is a great percentage is to inspire me and build me, 683 00:49:41.400 --> 00:49:45.480 give me positive vibe, you know, something like that, 684 00:49:45.480 --> 00:49:48.120 I mean, that actually really helps me 685 00:49:48.120 --> 00:49:49.760 and always look for, as a musician, 686 00:49:49.760 --> 00:49:51.520 I always look for new music 687 00:49:51.520 --> 00:49:54.960 and if I listen to some people talk about, 688 00:49:54.960 --> 00:49:56.680 the first thing when I meet an artist, 689 00:49:56.680 --> 00:49:58.880 I ask them, you know, what you listen to 690 00:49:58.880 --> 00:50:00.280 and who is your favorite? 691 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:02.100 every artist, you know, I just wanted to know that 692 00:50:02.100 --> 00:50:04.060 how these people are doing this stuff, 693 00:50:04.060 --> 00:50:06.740 where this thing comes from, you know? 694 00:50:07.580 --> 00:50:11.120 And then you can just go and dig deeper into it 695 00:50:11.120 --> 00:50:16.120 and, you know, just find your own inspiration and stuff, 696 00:50:16.220 --> 00:50:19.100 you know, and always other thing is just create, 697 00:50:19.100 --> 00:50:19.940 create, create. 698 00:50:19.940 --> 00:50:22.020 And sometimes, you know, it's easy. 699 00:50:22.020 --> 00:50:24.500 I mean, it's okay to take rest. 700 00:50:24.500 --> 00:50:27.100 It's okay to not create anything, you know, 701 00:50:27.100 --> 00:50:30.180 just take break. 702 00:50:30.180 --> 00:50:34.380 That's also a really good point, you know, 703 00:50:34.380 --> 00:50:36.540 if you want to find inspiration. 704 00:50:36.540 --> 00:50:39.980 So, yeah, I'm done. 705 00:50:42.940 --> 00:50:44.500 That was brilliant. 706 00:50:44.500 --> 00:50:45.340 I'm so sorry. 707 00:50:45.340 --> 00:50:47.500 I didn't mean to take away your notes, beautiful man. 708 00:50:47.500 --> 00:50:50.340 No, no, no, no, no, no, no, that's really nice. 709 00:50:50.340 --> 00:50:52.820 I mean, you put it in a really nice, nice way. 710 00:50:52.820 --> 00:50:55.020 So it's easy for me to just add it. 711 00:50:55.020 --> 00:50:55.860 Thank you. 712 00:50:55.860 --> 00:50:58.580 Well, I'm so glad you did because even, 713 00:50:58.580 --> 00:50:59.900 I was just writing a whole bunch of notes 714 00:50:59.900 --> 00:51:01.140 of what you were saying in the chat, 715 00:51:01.140 --> 00:51:03.020 just so that this is being recorded. 716 00:51:03.020 --> 00:51:04.940 So for you that want to re-watch this, 717 00:51:04.940 --> 00:51:07.040 or for people that are going to be watching this later 718 00:51:07.040 --> 00:51:08.820 because they can't join us live, 719 00:51:08.820 --> 00:51:09.660 I was trying to just, 720 00:51:09.660 --> 00:51:11.860 I'm going to keep taking notes and just fill it in the chat 721 00:51:11.860 --> 00:51:14.220 just for key points and reference things 722 00:51:14.220 --> 00:51:16.940 for what you and Fi have shared. 723 00:51:16.940 --> 00:51:19.300 But I love that you even just brought that thing of, 724 00:51:19.300 --> 00:51:20.820 Dana might like to get out in nature, 725 00:51:20.820 --> 00:51:22.100 but I like to get out in the city. 726 00:51:22.100 --> 00:51:24.660 And I'm like, oh, this is the beautiful thing 727 00:51:24.660 --> 00:51:26.940 about a collective of people speaking into this, 728 00:51:26.940 --> 00:51:29.340 because yes, I love that. 729 00:51:29.340 --> 00:51:30.260 I'm a city girl. 730 00:51:30.260 --> 00:51:32.580 I'm like, get me out in the city, big, 731 00:51:32.580 --> 00:51:36.080 like just to see the life force of all of these people, 732 00:51:36.080 --> 00:51:37.380 the statues, the buildings, 733 00:51:37.380 --> 00:51:39.660 the life that is happening in the city. 734 00:51:39.660 --> 00:51:42.100 Because I live on a little forest right now, 735 00:51:42.100 --> 00:51:43.640 it takes me a bit to get into the city, 736 00:51:43.640 --> 00:51:44.940 but I'm like a city girl at heart. 737 00:51:44.940 --> 00:51:45.940 But I love that he said that, 738 00:51:45.940 --> 00:51:47.420 because I'm like, yes, 739 00:51:47.420 --> 00:51:51.700 depending where you live is going to drastically affect 740 00:51:51.700 --> 00:51:54.940 what your landscape looks like. 741 00:51:54.940 --> 00:51:55.780 You know what I mean? 742 00:51:55.780 --> 00:51:58.420 If you live in a high rise, if you live in a big house, 743 00:51:58.420 --> 00:52:00.460 if you live in the country, if you live in the forest, 744 00:52:00.460 --> 00:52:03.660 if you live in a high rise in a tiny little apartment 745 00:52:03.660 --> 00:52:06.500 or wherever you live, the climate you live, 746 00:52:06.500 --> 00:52:09.260 the atmosphere you live, the culture you live in, 747 00:52:09.260 --> 00:52:12.740 dramatically affects what is your normal 748 00:52:12.740 --> 00:52:14.480 and what actually gives you life. 749 00:52:14.480 --> 00:52:15.640 You know what I mean? 750 00:52:15.640 --> 00:52:18.440 Someone that is raised in the desert 751 00:52:18.440 --> 00:52:20.680 is not gonna be like, yeah, I just wanna go to the beach. 752 00:52:20.680 --> 00:52:21.660 No, they're in the desert. 753 00:52:22.500 --> 00:52:23.700 So the desert is gonna be their landscape 754 00:52:23.700 --> 00:52:26.020 of what inspires them compared to, 755 00:52:26.020 --> 00:52:29.260 or someone's in like weather that's like summer, 756 00:52:29.260 --> 00:52:30.620 90% of the year. 757 00:52:30.620 --> 00:52:33.980 And I'm like in winter, 90% of the year. 758 00:52:33.980 --> 00:52:36.580 It's gonna be different of what the culture 759 00:52:36.580 --> 00:52:38.180 and like, and the landscape. 760 00:52:38.180 --> 00:52:41.620 So what you shared, Zylan, was absolutely brilliant. 761 00:52:41.620 --> 00:52:43.620 I'm gonna just continue to take note 762 00:52:43.620 --> 00:52:45.020 of the share of what you said. 763 00:52:45.020 --> 00:52:45.860 So good. 764 00:52:45.860 --> 00:52:47.820 And Fi, love you so much, brother. 765 00:52:47.820 --> 00:52:50.060 Please chime in anytime. 766 00:52:50.060 --> 00:52:51.500 I just wanted to go to Anita 767 00:52:51.500 --> 00:52:53.500 because she put her hand up about 20 minutes ago. 768 00:52:53.500 --> 00:52:55.760 Thank you for being so patient, Anita. 769 00:52:55.760 --> 00:52:56.700 Are you still there? 770 00:52:56.700 --> 00:52:59.060 And do you want to say something beautiful? 771 00:52:59.900 --> 00:53:02.580 Well, I actually raised my hand 772 00:53:02.580 --> 00:53:04.480 because you said, raise your hand. 773 00:53:05.740 --> 00:53:07.660 And I'm actually in bed 774 00:53:07.660 --> 00:53:08.980 because I didn't feel that great. 775 00:53:08.980 --> 00:53:11.500 Had no intention of being on a Zoom, 776 00:53:11.500 --> 00:53:14.660 but I felt Holy Spirit when it popped up in my, 777 00:53:14.660 --> 00:53:16.740 you know, this is on. 778 00:53:16.740 --> 00:53:18.780 I don't usually just pop on things. 779 00:53:18.780 --> 00:53:21.060 And so I popped on and lo and behold, 780 00:53:21.060 --> 00:53:22.460 I'm a songwriter. 781 00:53:22.460 --> 00:53:24.780 No idea what this was. 782 00:53:24.780 --> 00:53:28.260 I have my own children's musical theater company 783 00:53:28.260 --> 00:53:31.420 and I just left BC just in time. 784 00:53:32.780 --> 00:53:34.620 I did not know that it was coming. 785 00:53:34.620 --> 00:53:35.840 So I hope you're okay. 786 00:53:37.340 --> 00:53:38.180 Yes. 787 00:53:38.180 --> 00:53:43.100 But very, it was everything you guys have said. 788 00:53:43.100 --> 00:53:46.340 I really appreciate because sometimes I thought I was crazy 789 00:53:46.340 --> 00:53:49.380 because I would write all these musicals 790 00:53:49.380 --> 00:53:51.860 and all these things for my kids. 791 00:53:51.860 --> 00:53:54.340 And I'd be like, who do I think I am? 792 00:53:54.340 --> 00:53:56.700 But God gave me this and God gave me that. 793 00:53:56.700 --> 00:54:00.180 And I wasn't around a lot of spirit-filled type people. 794 00:54:00.180 --> 00:54:02.620 So I didn't get confirmation so much. 795 00:54:02.620 --> 00:54:06.060 People liked what I did, but I called it cheating. 796 00:54:06.060 --> 00:54:08.460 When Holy Spirit would give me music, 797 00:54:08.460 --> 00:54:11.620 I'm like, I'm cheating again because he gave it to me. 798 00:54:11.620 --> 00:54:13.260 And so I just, thank you. 799 00:54:13.260 --> 00:54:17.020 I accidentally came to this, so thanks. 800 00:54:17.020 --> 00:54:17.860 Amazing. 801 00:54:17.860 --> 00:54:20.140 I love that you accidentally came to this. 802 00:54:20.140 --> 00:54:21.900 I'm so glad you're here. 803 00:54:21.900 --> 00:54:23.020 Like, welcome. 804 00:54:23.020 --> 00:54:26.260 And I just wanna be like, wow, you write musicals? 805 00:54:26.260 --> 00:54:28.180 You genius, beautiful woman. 806 00:54:28.180 --> 00:54:32.820 I grew up as a kid, my greatest dream was to be on Broadway. 807 00:54:32.820 --> 00:54:35.620 And that's what I did all throughout high school 808 00:54:35.620 --> 00:54:36.860 was musicals. 809 00:54:36.860 --> 00:54:38.940 And I actually got a performing arts scholarship 810 00:54:38.940 --> 00:54:40.380 and I thought that's what I was gonna do, 811 00:54:40.380 --> 00:54:42.700 but my life took a turn and I went a different way 812 00:54:43.140 --> 00:54:45.260 into ministry and missions. 813 00:54:45.260 --> 00:54:48.660 But you write musicals, you beautiful, amazing woman. 814 00:54:48.660 --> 00:54:51.020 And you just feel the inspiration of the Holy Spirit. 815 00:54:51.020 --> 00:54:54.580 Like that is exactly what we were created for, 816 00:54:54.580 --> 00:54:56.980 is that we have the divine advantage 817 00:54:56.980 --> 00:54:59.860 that God has literally created us. 818 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:02.720 uniquely with the gifts and the skills and the talents 819 00:55:02.720 --> 00:55:05.320 and the abilities he's given us. 820 00:55:05.320 --> 00:55:06.800 And then we have the divine advantage 821 00:55:06.800 --> 00:55:09.040 that we have the Holy Spirit on the inside of us 822 00:55:09.040 --> 00:55:11.800 inspiring us to do the very thing that he created us to do. 823 00:55:11.800 --> 00:55:13.400 So you're like, I'm cheating. 824 00:55:13.400 --> 00:55:16.200 I'm getting Holy Spirit to like give me these songs. 825 00:55:16.200 --> 00:55:18.240 I'm like, girlfriend, you are not cheating. 826 00:55:18.240 --> 00:55:20.960 You are living the divine kingdom life. 827 00:55:20.960 --> 00:55:24.000 You are doing what you were born to do. 828 00:55:24.000 --> 00:55:26.600 And the Holy Spirit's like, hey, what about this melody? 829 00:55:26.600 --> 00:55:28.000 What about this scene? 830 00:55:28.000 --> 00:55:29.480 What about this orchestra? 831 00:55:29.480 --> 00:55:30.680 What about this moment? 832 00:55:30.680 --> 00:55:32.880 What about this idea you could write into that? 833 00:55:32.880 --> 00:55:37.680 Like, I'm just losing my mind right now. 834 00:55:37.680 --> 00:55:40.600 You're doing what you're created to do. 835 00:55:40.600 --> 00:55:44.920 Literally, like I failed music theory back 100 years ago 836 00:55:44.920 --> 00:55:47.720 when I was in college, 837 00:55:47.720 --> 00:55:52.720 but it was during the Olympics in Vancouver 838 00:55:53.360 --> 00:55:54.720 and I was walking my dog 839 00:55:54.720 --> 00:55:58.120 and I heard a complete orchestration. 840 00:55:58.120 --> 00:56:00.320 And I went home and I wrote it 841 00:56:00.320 --> 00:56:02.000 and I don't know how to do that. 842 00:56:02.000 --> 00:56:04.360 I mean, I read music and I can write, you know what I mean? 843 00:56:04.360 --> 00:56:05.640 But I'm not like, 844 00:56:05.640 --> 00:56:07.800 some of you guys are probably grand musicians, 845 00:56:07.800 --> 00:56:09.760 but literally I could hear the cell. 846 00:56:09.760 --> 00:56:12.680 I heard all the parts and I wrote it best as I could. 847 00:56:12.680 --> 00:56:14.680 Then I took it to my friend who is a good, 848 00:56:14.680 --> 00:56:15.840 like can literally, 849 00:56:15.840 --> 00:56:18.280 and I had a mini orchestra play it. 850 00:56:18.280 --> 00:56:19.640 And I'm like, who am I? 851 00:56:19.640 --> 00:56:21.480 I don't know how to do this. 852 00:56:21.480 --> 00:56:23.200 And I'm doing it. 853 00:56:23.200 --> 00:56:26.800 And so now I'm in Texas now. 854 00:56:26.800 --> 00:56:29.200 We left BC and we're in Texas. 855 00:56:29.200 --> 00:56:32.200 And so, yeah, sometimes God, 856 00:56:32.200 --> 00:56:33.680 like I'm in bed, not feeling that great, 857 00:56:33.680 --> 00:56:35.600 but it's the way he can get me to be quiet. 858 00:56:35.600 --> 00:56:37.600 So he can, I wouldn't have watched your thing 859 00:56:37.600 --> 00:56:38.680 if I wasn't feeling well, 860 00:56:38.680 --> 00:56:41.320 I'd be busy working on music like I needed to, 861 00:56:41.320 --> 00:56:44.200 but I needed to connect with you guys, so. 862 00:56:44.200 --> 00:56:49.200 Wow, Anita, thank you so much for raising your hand. 863 00:56:49.280 --> 00:56:50.840 Thank you so much for sharing that. 864 00:56:50.840 --> 00:56:52.080 I'm buzzing right now. 865 00:56:52.080 --> 00:56:53.520 I'm just like, ah, 866 00:56:53.520 --> 00:56:56.360 like this is what we love to hear and see. 867 00:56:56.800 --> 00:56:58.760 So good, so good. 868 00:56:58.760 --> 00:57:00.640 Yeah, I just bless you, Anita. 869 00:57:02.160 --> 00:57:04.120 Wow, father, thank you for Anita. 870 00:57:04.120 --> 00:57:05.560 Thank you for your hand in our life. 871 00:57:05.560 --> 00:57:08.800 We just say, increase the melodies, the songs, 872 00:57:08.800 --> 00:57:12.640 the orchestras, the inspiration of everything 873 00:57:12.640 --> 00:57:14.840 that you've created her to do with musicals, 874 00:57:14.840 --> 00:57:17.880 with songs, with sets, with everything. 875 00:57:17.880 --> 00:57:21.240 God, increase that revelation, that inspiration. 876 00:57:21.240 --> 00:57:23.240 Let her hear from the throne room. 877 00:57:23.240 --> 00:57:25.200 Let her hear from the father's heart. 878 00:57:25.240 --> 00:57:27.120 Just increase that inspiration, 879 00:57:27.120 --> 00:57:30.520 release more beauty, more strength, more fruit. 880 00:57:30.520 --> 00:57:33.320 I just declare fruitfulness all over you, Anita, 881 00:57:33.320 --> 00:57:35.000 in Jesus' name. 882 00:57:35.000 --> 00:57:37.080 And I'm so glad that you're in Texas. 883 00:57:37.080 --> 00:57:39.240 You escaped Canada. 884 00:57:39.240 --> 00:57:41.160 I mean, I love my city and I love my country, 885 00:57:41.160 --> 00:57:42.960 but it's a little crazy right now. 886 00:57:42.960 --> 00:57:45.360 So you're living the dream in Texas. 887 00:57:45.360 --> 00:57:47.720 So it's so good to see you, bless you. 888 00:57:49.360 --> 00:57:50.200 Yeah, bless you. 889 00:57:50.200 --> 00:57:51.920 Helen, you've got your hand raised. 890 00:57:51.920 --> 00:57:53.880 We wanna go to you, lovely one. 891 00:57:53.880 --> 00:57:55.720 What is your question, my dear? 892 00:57:56.880 --> 00:57:59.120 Hi, I'm Helen. 893 00:57:59.120 --> 00:58:03.760 And I'm so glad, like Anita, randomly hopped on this call. 894 00:58:03.760 --> 00:58:05.840 And I was like, taking notes crazily. 895 00:58:05.840 --> 00:58:07.680 I was like, oh, this is so good, this is so good, 896 00:58:07.680 --> 00:58:09.480 this is so good. 897 00:58:09.480 --> 00:58:13.120 And I think it's more like what you guys were sharing 898 00:58:13.120 --> 00:58:16.320 gave me the value, what God has been taking me through, 899 00:58:16.320 --> 00:58:18.160 especially in the last five years. 900 00:58:18.160 --> 00:58:22.840 I was like, I don't like this, I like to be busy, you know? 901 00:58:23.000 --> 00:58:27.720 And I was like, I don't have anything to do. 902 00:58:27.720 --> 00:58:29.520 I'm like, oh, wait on God. 903 00:58:29.520 --> 00:58:32.640 So like the things that you guys were sharing, 904 00:58:32.640 --> 00:58:34.160 I think I took notes about, 905 00:58:34.160 --> 00:58:37.400 especially about write things down, 906 00:58:37.400 --> 00:58:42.400 like to process feeling deeply and put words on it. 907 00:58:44.400 --> 00:58:47.280 And, you know, a little bit of my background 908 00:58:47.280 --> 00:58:50.160 is I grew up super goal oriented, 909 00:58:50.240 --> 00:58:53.680 performance oriented, result oriented. 910 00:58:54.880 --> 00:58:59.880 But it wasn't really my God-given makeup. 911 00:58:59.920 --> 00:59:02.960 So God had to kind of take me 912 00:59:02.960 --> 00:59:06.000 completely out of the false identity. 913 00:59:06.960 --> 00:59:11.000 And then he started to speak to me about my desire. 914 00:59:11.000 --> 00:59:13.320 So, you know, I was like, what, you know, 915 00:59:13.320 --> 00:59:16.040 I don't know how to write, you know, write songs, 916 00:59:16.040 --> 00:59:19.280 like what, album, write books. 917 00:59:19.280 --> 00:59:20.400 You know, I don't know how to do it. 918 00:59:20.400 --> 00:59:22.320 I'm like freaking out, like, you know, 919 00:59:22.320 --> 00:59:26.360 and I was like, how do I even start with this thing? 920 00:59:26.360 --> 00:59:31.120 So I think hearing all you guys talking about things, 921 00:59:31.120 --> 00:59:36.120 I made me understand all God is already doing in my life. 922 00:59:36.640 --> 00:59:41.640 So I just need to pulling more with a practice. 923 00:59:41.760 --> 00:59:45.640 And I think the question would be, you know, 924 00:59:45.640 --> 00:59:48.760 Dana shared about, you know, going to the natures, 925 00:59:49.560 --> 00:59:51.600 you know, the breathing, the solitude, 926 00:59:51.600 --> 00:59:54.440 and also paying attention to the detail. 927 00:59:54.440 --> 00:59:58.960 My question is like, how to cultivate it, 928 00:59:58.960 --> 01:00:00.040 it becomes a life? 929 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:07.600 style so that you know because I think when it becomes a habit you know we just do it in a rhythm 930 01:00:07.600 --> 01:00:17.440 we we don't go out of rhythm. My question is how can I cultivate that kind of you know like 931 01:00:18.320 --> 01:00:26.400 rhythm to a point that I create something that is you know that would speak to other people. 932 01:00:27.360 --> 01:00:32.640 Yeah oh that's so good Helen I love you beautiful girl thank you so much for being here you 933 01:00:32.640 --> 01:00:38.480 beautiful woman and your heart and your journey is incredible. All of you people like this is no 934 01:00:38.480 --> 01:00:43.440 but this is the beautiful thing right of our humanity like like just seeing you Helen you're 935 01:00:43.440 --> 01:00:49.440 so radiant and joyful and beautiful in your spirit and here in your heart like we're all this divine 936 01:00:49.440 --> 01:00:56.880 reflection of the father so unique so I think it's brilliant I think developing the rhythms 937 01:00:56.880 --> 01:01:02.720 and the routines look different for all of us because depending on what our lives look like 938 01:01:03.840 --> 01:01:08.880 whether you're single you're married you have kids what does your work schedule look like are 939 01:01:08.880 --> 01:01:16.240 you a morning person are you an evening person what does your free time look like I think being 940 01:01:16.240 --> 01:01:23.120 aware of your responsibilities and the rhythms of your life and then going when do I feel most 941 01:01:23.120 --> 01:01:30.400 inspired or creative or when what are the things that are life-giving to me and making sure that 942 01:01:30.400 --> 01:01:35.840 something isn't too lofty like okay I need to do an hour every morning or an hour every night 943 01:01:36.400 --> 01:01:41.840 on top of all the other things you're juggling and and doing depending on your season right it really 944 01:01:41.840 --> 01:01:47.760 has to be unique to your season right now with fee I can imagine not only is he working he's a 945 01:01:47.760 --> 01:01:53.360 husband he's got a newborn baby his rhythm and routine of creativity is going to look different 946 01:01:53.360 --> 01:01:58.960 in the season that it has the last year because he's in a new season so really knowing your season 947 01:01:59.520 --> 01:02:05.840 knowing what are the things in life that I'm responsible to do as an adult adulting is real 948 01:02:05.840 --> 01:02:15.120 hallelujah and then going so it is the creativity can I can I take 15 minutes a day can I take 949 01:02:15.840 --> 01:02:22.400 five minutes in the morning for solitude getting quiet and 10 minutes maybe you read something for 950 01:02:22.400 --> 01:02:28.480 five minutes and then you journal about it maybe you just put on some music in the morning for 10 951 01:02:28.480 --> 01:02:35.120 or 15 minutes and you just do five things you just journal five things how am I feeling this morning 952 01:02:35.120 --> 01:02:40.800 what am I grateful for what's one thought that I want to carry into my day what's one 953 01:02:41.760 --> 01:02:47.040 attitude what's one focus what is what's something that I want to bring my attention to or maybe 954 01:02:47.040 --> 01:02:53.280 once a week let's say on a Sunday afternoon or a Sunday night you take 30 minutes and you get 955 01:02:53.280 --> 01:02:59.440 quiet and you get still maybe you've been inspired by something and you set an intention for the week 956 01:02:59.440 --> 01:03:06.080 you just set a theme this week maybe it's one scripture maybe it's a song maybe it's a picture 957 01:03:06.080 --> 01:03:12.080 maybe it's a goal maybe it's an intention of your heart that you go god I really want to 958 01:03:14.240 --> 01:03:20.240 experience this or this is in my creativity or in my creativity I actually just want to get more in 959 01:03:20.240 --> 01:03:26.640 tune with my heart what does my heart feel where am I at emotionally and maybe I want to go god I 960 01:03:26.640 --> 01:03:34.800 want to experience your joy every day this week like the joy of the lord is my strength so joy is 961 01:03:34.800 --> 01:03:39.520 going to be my focus for this week and so maybe every day you take five minutes and you tune 962 01:03:39.520 --> 01:03:48.640 yourself into the resonance of joy you take five minutes and you're like it's like a tuning fork 963 01:03:48.640 --> 01:03:54.400 right it's an internal tuning fork it doesn't have to be this I have to do an hour quiet time 964 01:03:54.400 --> 01:04:00.080 and then an hour of creative focus and then like all of that can come for people that actually have 965 01:04:00.080 --> 01:04:06.160 the time and the space for hours to be dedicated to their craft and their creativity songwriting 966 01:04:06.160 --> 01:04:12.560 or poetry or writing or doing musicals they might take four to six hours a day to devote that 967 01:04:12.560 --> 01:04:17.680 but depending on your season depending on your responsibilities your work your life 968 01:04:18.640 --> 01:04:24.880 I would say start small baby steps I don't know if you've ever heard of the atomic habits by James 969 01:04:24.880 --> 01:04:31.440 Clear a brilliant book but he talks about it's always the small incremental changes so it's the 970 01:04:31.440 --> 01:04:38.080 one percent change that you make today and those one percent changes by the end of the year result 971 01:04:38.080 --> 01:04:43.920 in a 37 percent change which is massive but often what we do is we're an all or nothing person 972 01:04:44.480 --> 01:04:49.040 that's who I am I'm like you know what I'm gonna get healthy I'm gonna do this I'm gonna change my 973 01:04:49.040 --> 01:04:53.920 life I'm gonna write a whole album I'm gonna write two books I'm gonna ace this and I literally put 974 01:04:53.920 --> 01:04:59.840 all of these goals and these expectations on myself and what ends up happening I don't know 975 01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:04.200 Because I put way too much on my plate. 976 01:05:04.200 --> 01:05:12.240 So as I bring it back down, do something that is very beautiful, a very small intention. 977 01:05:12.240 --> 01:05:14.440 Start five minutes a day. 978 01:05:14.440 --> 01:05:19.980 Let that five minutes, if you do that for a week, let that five minutes grow to 10 minutes. 979 01:05:19.980 --> 01:05:22.280 Let it just develop over days and weeks. 980 01:05:22.280 --> 01:05:28.520 And as you do that, you strengthen a muscle internally that actually creates hunger for 981 01:05:28.520 --> 01:05:32.880 more rather than a discipline and a goal that you have to produce. 982 01:05:32.880 --> 01:05:38.760 Allow it to come from the place of hunger and desire and delight. 983 01:05:38.760 --> 01:05:43.160 Allow it to come from a place of you're feeling the longing, the love. 984 01:05:43.160 --> 01:05:46.360 You're feeling that life giving pull. 985 01:05:46.360 --> 01:05:52.120 Because when it comes from that place, when discipline comes from delight, it's sustainable. 986 01:05:52.520 --> 01:05:57.560 When discipline comes from, I have to produce, it becomes striving and performance. 987 01:05:57.560 --> 01:05:58.560 Wow. 988 01:05:58.560 --> 01:06:07.360 Let it be something that actually pulls you into, oh, like, I love spending time with 989 01:06:07.360 --> 01:06:10.240 God, not because I have to do it. 990 01:06:10.240 --> 01:06:15.640 I love, Sophie and Zylan, I'm going to speak in just 30 seconds. 991 01:06:15.640 --> 01:06:18.600 But that came from learning the disciplines. 992 01:06:18.600 --> 01:06:23.600 But the more I experienced his pleasure and his delight at night, I just put on smoking 993 01:06:23.600 --> 01:06:26.560 music and I'm like, father, what are you, what are you feeling over me? 994 01:06:26.560 --> 01:06:27.720 He might come and speak something. 995 01:06:27.720 --> 01:06:32.240 I just burst into tears because I'm experiencing his heart rather than have to fast and pray 996 01:06:32.240 --> 01:06:34.080 and have to read this much scripture. 997 01:06:34.080 --> 01:06:35.720 And I have to journal this much. 998 01:06:35.720 --> 01:06:39.440 Like I go into striving and performance in two seconds. 999 01:06:39.440 --> 01:06:40.440 Every day. 1000 01:06:40.440 --> 01:06:45.040 It's an intentional thing for me to say, Dana, this is relationship with your father. 1001 01:06:45.040 --> 01:06:46.680 You're not having to prove your love. 1002 01:06:46.680 --> 01:06:50.720 You're not having to produce anything for a heart connect. 1003 01:06:50.720 --> 01:06:57.440 And the more I connect my heart, the more I go, oh, I'm giving you four hours tonight. 1004 01:06:57.440 --> 01:07:00.920 Not because I'm a good, wow, look at what I'm doing for you. 1005 01:07:00.920 --> 01:07:02.360 I'm like, you're my lover. 1006 01:07:02.360 --> 01:07:03.360 You're my best friend. 1007 01:07:03.360 --> 01:07:05.280 You're my father. 1008 01:07:05.280 --> 01:07:06.280 You are my everything. 1009 01:07:06.280 --> 01:07:08.000 And I am craving you. 1010 01:07:08.000 --> 01:07:09.160 I am looking to you. 1011 01:07:09.160 --> 01:07:11.840 I want your presence more than anything. 1012 01:07:11.840 --> 01:07:18.040 So when it comes to creativity, allow it to be a desire that brings you into discipline. 1013 01:07:18.040 --> 01:07:20.960 Fee, talk to me, brother. 1014 01:07:20.960 --> 01:07:21.960 Yes. 1015 01:07:21.960 --> 01:07:22.960 Thank you, Diana. 1016 01:07:22.960 --> 01:07:25.320 What I shared was amazing. 1017 01:07:25.320 --> 01:07:29.480 And it's like, it's so true. 1018 01:07:29.480 --> 01:07:37.960 Like for me, like right now, I don't have like time to like a simple time to do to, 1019 01:07:37.960 --> 01:07:40.080 you know, to sit and create stuff. 1020 01:07:40.120 --> 01:07:47.560 But like what I do is I just keep being awake, try to be awake, try to be present, you know, 1021 01:07:47.560 --> 01:07:49.520 try to be present all the time. 1022 01:07:49.520 --> 01:08:01.040 And then I always walk around with a little pencil and the paper or, you know, a notebook. 1023 01:08:01.040 --> 01:08:06.160 When I talk to someone and he's saying something interesting or something true, I write it 1024 01:08:06.160 --> 01:08:07.160 down. 1025 01:08:07.480 --> 01:08:11.440 And, you know, I just go with the flow. 1026 01:08:11.440 --> 01:08:19.920 I don't really like, you know, and then and then when I have free time, I just put them 1027 01:08:19.920 --> 01:08:23.359 together, like read my notes and like, wow. 1028 01:08:23.359 --> 01:08:32.279 And then and then put put like a theme and then join the notes together or what suits 1029 01:08:32.279 --> 01:08:35.880 those theme in the notes I took. 1030 01:08:35.920 --> 01:08:41.080 And then it brings something and it's, you know, and wow, actually, it's beautiful. 1031 01:08:41.080 --> 01:08:47.080 And then I play, I start playing with the words and then start create something. 1032 01:08:47.080 --> 01:08:48.080 I don't do that. 1033 01:08:48.080 --> 01:08:54.680 Like I don't do like five minutes a day or two hours a week or whatever it is. 1034 01:08:54.680 --> 01:09:00.720 For me, it just goes with the flow and I just take time in the evening and sometimes I take 1035 01:09:00.720 --> 01:09:04.520 time, sometimes I don't. 1036 01:09:04.520 --> 01:09:09.160 You know, I know the pressure behind it because I'm a professional musician and I, you know, 1037 01:09:09.160 --> 01:09:14.960 the pressure of like always having to bring songs on the table as a songwriter for you 1038 01:09:14.960 --> 01:09:17.279 for a band, right? 1039 01:09:17.279 --> 01:09:23.000 Because it's kind of the heartbeat of a band also, the song as a musician. 1040 01:09:23.000 --> 01:09:29.120 And then if you don't bring songs, put songs on the table, it's like, oh, failure. 1041 01:09:29.120 --> 01:09:32.439 But like for me, I just like God, you are divine. 1042 01:09:32.439 --> 01:09:38.200 I am the branch and I can do anything if I'm separated from you. 1043 01:09:38.200 --> 01:09:44.120 So I may not have time to do stuff, but even if I have a lot of time, I can still do anything 1044 01:09:44.120 --> 01:09:49.640 if I am not one with you. 1045 01:09:49.640 --> 01:09:53.880 So for me, the key is just, you know, trying to be present all the time. 1046 01:09:53.880 --> 01:09:59.120 I know it's hard, but like try to be present in God's presence all the time. 1047 01:09:59.120 --> 01:10:00.120 Like, what happened? 1048 01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:07.000 to me also is that when I sleep at night I receive songs and I my wife is like oh what 1049 01:10:07.000 --> 01:10:11.920 are you doing and I just wake up in the middle of the night and write down stuff on my phone 1050 01:10:11.920 --> 01:10:19.480 or whatever I can grab on my bed or something to write on like that's how I just go super 1051 01:10:19.480 --> 01:10:25.600 flow because I lean on him I don't lean on like my capacity to create or like you know 1052 01:10:25.600 --> 01:10:32.960 on my capacity to put things together in my head or my imagination or whatever I just 1053 01:10:32.960 --> 01:10:41.840 go with the flow and I say God if you have songs just you know I don't have so I'm open 1054 01:10:41.840 --> 01:10:50.400 I'm open to whatever you bring so I open up my heart and then I just write down and as 1055 01:10:50.400 --> 01:10:56.720 Dylan said if you I sometimes I have melodies and I just record it on my phone and then 1056 01:10:56.720 --> 01:11:03.000 put the songs together put the notes together I took the theme that I that I found and then 1057 01:11:03.000 --> 01:11:12.560 a song you know so yeah just relax as Diana says like if you put too much pressure on 1058 01:11:12.560 --> 01:11:19.240 yourself also it's like you do things you give what you don't have anymore you do things 1059 01:11:19.280 --> 01:11:24.560 for because you have to do it not because it's really what's what you're supposed to 1060 01:11:24.560 --> 01:11:36.920 do right and also like your shadow will always represent what overshadows you wow so it's 1061 01:11:36.920 --> 01:11:45.600 like wow it's so you have to be you know just be with God just know that he is with you 1062 01:11:45.600 --> 01:11:54.240 trust what he puts inside you trust whatever he speaks to you and it's it's gonna be beautiful 1063 01:11:54.240 --> 01:12:02.520 at the end and one thing also is your emotions what you feel what you when when when stuff 1064 01:12:02.520 --> 01:12:09.120 happens what you feel is real what you feel is important and write them down and people 1065 01:12:09.120 --> 01:12:17.560 may need it at some point and you know we we we are all different but at the same time 1066 01:12:17.560 --> 01:12:27.000 we are all the same also so you know right somehow it will speak to people it will speak 1067 01:12:27.000 --> 01:12:34.480 to them and your doubt your questions your freedom your your anger your frustration your 1068 01:12:34.640 --> 01:12:41.920 you know your freedom whatever comes whatever you feel write them down be sincere about 1069 01:12:41.920 --> 01:12:52.280 it and let it out it's gonna heal people it's gonna touch people wow yeah so beautiful thank 1070 01:12:52.280 --> 01:12:58.680 you because I just hear the way that you share you just your desire is to connect with God 1071 01:12:58.680 --> 01:13:04.720 and everything flows from that and you don't worry about you know what comes out you just 1072 01:13:04.720 --> 01:13:11.240 focus on connect with the source and it's so beautiful to hear your quiet trust it's 1073 01:13:11.240 --> 01:13:20.760 just like wow I can't help just let's say wow I'm glad you're blessed by it yeah just 1074 01:13:20.760 --> 01:13:26.200 sharing your heart sharing your journey it's just so beautiful thank you so much 1075 01:13:28.360 --> 01:13:34.440 thank you thank you Aylan that was so good that was so so good thank you so much and 1076 01:13:34.440 --> 01:13:42.200 Zylan you've got your hand up you go for it yeah I think I had similar doubt and insecurities and 1077 01:13:42.200 --> 01:13:50.920 you know confusion just like Helen and sometimes I often get this writer's block 1078 01:13:50.920 --> 01:13:59.080 and I feel really stupid you know I mean I feel very useless and you know when you can't produce 1079 01:13:59.080 --> 01:14:05.960 and come up with a good songs or something something like that and one of the workshops 1080 01:14:05.960 --> 01:14:13.400 that I've attended long years back they set a concept called you know it's something related 1081 01:14:13.400 --> 01:14:22.440 self-awareness you know like just being aware of yourself and this they call it you know every 1082 01:14:22.440 --> 01:14:28.760 artist creative people have this creative cycle you know we have a creative cycle it's a cyclical 1083 01:14:29.400 --> 01:14:36.760 thing going on going on you know for example you know some people produce good art when they are in 1084 01:14:36.760 --> 01:14:43.800 certain moods you know for me when I am depressed and sad and I'm super creative I can write like 1085 01:14:44.440 --> 01:14:50.840 five songs a day you know and I didn't know this kind of thing and when I realized 1086 01:14:50.840 --> 01:14:59.880 yeah when I realized this thing I started 1087 01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:09.280 to like less worry about my conditions, you know, sometimes you don't, you know, even if you are 1088 01:15:10.000 --> 01:15:15.840 Paul McCartney, you know, you don't write songs every day, you know, sometimes, 1089 01:15:16.400 --> 01:15:23.440 you know, you just be normal and, you know, just do your thing, you know, and for me, 1090 01:15:23.440 --> 01:15:29.520 that really helped, you know, when I realized that, you know, that there's a season coming that 1091 01:15:29.520 --> 01:15:35.120 I'm going to write a great song, I'm going to, you know, improve my musicianship or whatever, 1092 01:15:35.120 --> 01:15:42.240 you know, it's all about just being aware of that creative cycle of yourself, you know, 1093 01:15:42.800 --> 01:15:49.920 so right now when I'm not afraid of sadness anymore, because I'm thinking that if I'm a 1094 01:15:49.920 --> 01:15:58.160 little sad, it's going to be something good coming out. That's super helpful, like what do you share? 1095 01:15:58.160 --> 01:16:09.040 How can I make you sad? How can I make you sad? Now basically a lot of psychologists and all 1096 01:16:09.040 --> 01:16:14.880 these like big minds are thinking about, you know, how to get into that space, you know, 1097 01:16:14.880 --> 01:16:19.600 how to hack ourselves, you know, they are actually producing different techniques and talking about, 1098 01:16:19.840 --> 01:16:25.040 you know, a lot of TED talks are there, you know, just getting into the flow, you know, just basically 1099 01:16:25.040 --> 01:16:32.400 hacking our psychic and just being in that place of, you know, more potential of our 1100 01:16:32.400 --> 01:16:39.120 creativity, you know, our thing, you know, basically it's a really crazy thing, you know, we 1101 01:16:39.920 --> 01:16:45.040 literally spend time with ourselves, who we are and, you know, just getting to know ourselves, 1102 01:16:45.120 --> 01:16:51.600 self-awareness, it brings a lot of answers, you know, so that really helps me, so yeah. 1103 01:16:52.960 --> 01:17:00.400 Yeah, very insightful, I think what do you share and what teachers shared about how we feel is 1104 01:17:00.400 --> 01:17:09.280 important, like not to discount, you know, the moment feeling angry, feeling frustrated, like I 1105 01:17:09.280 --> 01:17:13.680 tend to just run away, it's like, oh that's not healthy and I need to be happy and joyful and 1106 01:17:13.760 --> 01:17:19.760 positive and you just run away or it's like and what do you guys were sharing like, wow, I may 1107 01:17:19.760 --> 01:17:26.080 just miss the moment that I actually need to tune into Holy Spirit and to process it and 1108 01:17:26.640 --> 01:17:32.720 have words with it and it will be actually helpful, it's not just for me to process but 1109 01:17:33.600 --> 01:17:41.760 as I put into words, I might help someone else to process their deep feeling, that's just super 1110 01:17:41.760 --> 01:17:48.560 valuable, so thank you guys for sharing that. Oh, Helen, thank you so much for coming online, 1111 01:17:49.840 --> 01:17:55.920 and Phi and Zylan, thank you so much for that gold and that wisdom, I love just what you said, 1112 01:17:55.920 --> 01:18:00.720 Zylan, like I actually want to get sad and hopeless and depressed, I actually create more, 1113 01:18:00.720 --> 01:18:08.320 I was like, it's amazing, like the power and the key of self-awareness is so important in our life 1114 01:18:08.320 --> 01:18:14.880 with activity but in all things, we need to understand what our subconscious is driving, do 1115 01:18:14.880 --> 01:18:20.640 you know that 80 to 90 percent of your life is driven by your subconscious, it's not 1116 01:18:20.640 --> 01:18:25.920 living your life by your conscious mind, we all think, I know what I'm doing and why I'm doing it 1117 01:18:25.920 --> 01:18:30.880 and it's consciously I'm making all these decisions, so many of your patterns of communication, 1118 01:18:30.880 --> 01:18:37.520 of behavior, of activity, your life is driven by your subconscious, which is also why it's so 1119 01:18:37.520 --> 01:18:44.240 important, what are you feeding yourself, what are you observing, because everything that we're 1120 01:18:44.240 --> 01:18:52.480 digesting is actually feeding into our conscious and our subconsciousness and our life is constantly 1121 01:18:52.480 --> 01:19:00.960 picking up data, information, but emotional health is really important, I want to highlight a book, 1122 01:19:00.960 --> 01:19:06.800 I'll put it in the chat, I think it's called emotional spirituality, it's by Peter Levine, 1123 01:19:07.840 --> 01:19:13.520 understanding our hearts and our emotional world is one of the most critical things we can do as 1124 01:19:13.520 --> 01:19:21.680 humans because we are driven, we live by emotions and there's so many things, you know, 80 percent 1125 01:19:21.680 --> 01:19:28.240 of 90 percent of people actually aren't self-aware, a lot of humans are not self-aware, they don't know 1126 01:19:28.240 --> 01:19:34.000 why they do what they do and they live and they express and they get into these patterns 1127 01:19:34.000 --> 01:19:38.960 and ways of thinking and believing and when actually you sit down and you go, okay, so what's 1128 01:19:38.960 --> 01:19:44.320 happening here, can you help me understand why is it that you're behaving this way, they're not even 1129 01:19:44.320 --> 01:19:49.120 aware of some of their behaviors, which is the beautiful thing about marriage and family and 1130 01:19:49.120 --> 01:19:54.880 community and friendships, is because we actually have other people that say, hey, you're acting, 1131 01:19:54.880 --> 01:19:59.760 behaving, communicating in this way, it's like, no, I'm not, I'm doing this, it's like, actually. 1132 01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:08.000 No, I need to bring a mirror to you and allow you to see how you're affecting me and our emotions 1133 01:20:08.000 --> 01:20:15.840 are data. They are not directives. So emotions tell you what's going on inside of you. Emotions 1134 01:20:15.840 --> 01:20:23.360 aren't meant to direct you in what you do. But when we look at emotions as information of what 1135 01:20:23.360 --> 01:20:30.080 is happening on the internal world, then we can tune in and go, okay, let's be an investigator. 1136 01:20:30.080 --> 01:20:37.200 Let's be a direct detective here. Why am I feeling this? Did something trigger that? 1137 01:20:37.200 --> 01:20:42.320 Is this a childhood wound? Did something happen in my conversation today at work with a loved one? 1138 01:20:42.320 --> 01:20:47.440 Did I just see something, smell something, experience something? Am I just tired? Do I 1139 01:20:47.440 --> 01:20:54.160 need water, sleep, food? What is happening? And we begin to ask questions. And the other thing is 1140 01:20:54.160 --> 01:21:00.640 to not be afraid of our emotions. A lot of times in the church, we're told don't feel, don't live 1141 01:21:00.640 --> 01:21:06.400 by your emotions, just live by the spirit. And we're like, what the flip is that even about? We 1142 01:21:06.400 --> 01:21:13.280 are meant to be very in tune. Emotions are a gift. God is the most emotional person on the earth. 1143 01:21:13.280 --> 01:21:19.040 So what Xylan just said was pure gold. Actually, when I get sad and depressed, and a lot of 1144 01:21:19.040 --> 01:21:26.400 artists actually are very melancholic, melancholy, because I'm a very deep feeler. 1145 01:21:26.400 --> 01:21:33.760 I feel so deeply. It is a beautiful thing. I'm very intuitive. I am an observer. I can look at someone. 1146 01:21:33.760 --> 01:21:39.440 I can be in a room in an atmosphere, and I just am very intuitive, can read people, read myself. 1147 01:21:39.440 --> 01:21:44.480 But also I'm very human. And sometimes I'm not very discerning. And sometimes I make really dumb 1148 01:21:44.480 --> 01:21:49.920 decisions. Hello, we're human. Sometimes I don't pick up on things. Sometimes I think I'm really 1149 01:21:49.920 --> 01:21:55.520 intuitive and wise. And I've just deceived myself or I've missed something, which is why we need 1150 01:21:55.520 --> 01:22:00.720 one another, why we need to journal, which is why we need God, and which is why we need healthy 1151 01:22:01.360 --> 01:22:06.720 environments and safe, trusted people in our life to say, hey, this is what's going on in my world 1152 01:22:06.720 --> 01:22:11.680 right now. This is what I'm feeling. Can I dialogue this with you? Can you pray for me? Or 1153 01:22:11.680 --> 01:22:16.240 I'm really feeling God say this or this, or I've just written this song, or I've written this out, 1154 01:22:16.240 --> 01:22:24.720 or I've produced this. What do you think? It's really, really important. But the whole realm 1155 01:22:24.720 --> 01:22:31.360 of our emotions, I just really want to encourage you. I don't know where all of you are at in your 1156 01:22:31.360 --> 01:22:37.280 emotional journey, but I used to look at emotions as weakness because I had an internal core belief 1157 01:22:37.280 --> 01:22:43.680 that was an ungodly belief that said that I always had to be strong and I always had to be okay. 1158 01:22:43.680 --> 01:22:48.640 And I always had to be the one that had it all together. So everybody else could feel emotions 1159 01:22:48.640 --> 01:22:53.600 and not be doing well, but I had to be the sister, the daughter, the friend, the pastor, the leader 1160 01:22:53.600 --> 01:23:00.160 that always was okay. And that is just such a fallacy. And it was an ungodly belief that didn't 1161 01:23:00.160 --> 01:23:06.560 allow me to truly feel human. It didn't allow me to truly feel the depth of my humanity and what I 1162 01:23:06.560 --> 01:23:11.840 was going on. So the last 10 years, I have gone on the most deep inner healing journey with the 1163 01:23:11.840 --> 01:23:17.920 Lord. And it has set me free. I'm constantly daily being set free just by the love of God, 1164 01:23:17.920 --> 01:23:24.480 validating what is happening on the inside of me and allowing emotions to be data, 1165 01:23:25.360 --> 01:23:31.520 information, and not directives. And then emotions can be portals, can literally be like, do you know 1166 01:23:31.520 --> 01:23:36.960 the Chronicles of Narnia? C.S. Lewis, the Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe. And they go into the 1167 01:23:36.960 --> 01:23:42.960 wardrobe and it literally brings them into Narnia. Emotions actually can be a gateway that can be 1168 01:23:42.960 --> 01:23:51.360 very healthy, that open us up to experiencing God and inspiration. So much of art, so much of art 1169 01:23:51.440 --> 01:24:05.520 comes from pain. Someone says that emotions is emotion, energy in motion. Yes, yes, I love that 1170 01:24:05.520 --> 01:24:13.680 quote. Yes, me too. It's energy. Basically, it's emotion. That's how you create stuff, you know? 1171 01:24:13.680 --> 01:24:17.600 Yeah. And when you think of it, even when you create, I mean, I don't want to get too 1172 01:24:18.240 --> 01:24:24.320 descriptive or graphic, but when you create life, that is coming from a very emotional, 1173 01:24:24.320 --> 01:24:30.400 passionate exchange of life. When we create art, there is passion, there is an exchange, there is, 1174 01:24:30.960 --> 01:24:36.480 our whole being is involved. It's not just one aspect. Our mind, our heart, our soul, our spirit, 1175 01:24:36.480 --> 01:24:42.880 our body is involved. We are holistic beings. So to create life, to create art, to create 1176 01:24:43.280 --> 01:24:52.320 beauty, to create, actually let your emotions lead you. It doesn't have to spiral you. It can 1177 01:24:52.320 --> 01:24:57.520 actually go, wow, I am feeling super sad and hopeless and depressed, or I am feeling anxious. 1178 01:24:57.520 --> 01:24:59.840 Okay, God, I tune in right now. I 1179 01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:02.040 into what's happening in my heart. 1180 01:25:02.040 --> 01:25:03.300 I want to be healthy with this. 1181 01:25:03.300 --> 01:25:06.340 I want to invite you into this space, 1182 01:25:07.240 --> 01:25:09.060 but let it be a portal. 1183 01:25:09.060 --> 01:25:10.440 Let it be a gateway. 1184 01:25:10.440 --> 01:25:15.440 Let it be a highway into me writing, producing, painting, 1185 01:25:15.800 --> 01:25:20.800 making clothing, writing a book, architecting something, 1186 01:25:21.280 --> 01:25:24.720 making some food or hospitality. 1187 01:25:24.720 --> 01:25:28.520 Let it be a creative expression to something. 1188 01:25:28.880 --> 01:25:30.960 I even wanted to say this, 1189 01:25:30.960 --> 01:25:35.960 our sexuality is a very powerful creative force in our life. 1190 01:25:37.600 --> 01:25:40.840 And our sexuality doesn't have to just lead 1191 01:25:40.840 --> 01:25:43.760 to actual sexual activity. 1192 01:25:43.760 --> 01:25:45.920 The sexual energy as male and female, 1193 01:25:45.920 --> 01:25:47.920 as the masculine and the feminine 1194 01:25:47.920 --> 01:25:50.280 actually has such a creative force in us 1195 01:25:50.280 --> 01:25:55.280 that allows us to express that part of our humanity 1196 01:25:55.760 --> 01:26:00.760 in creating art, in creating work, in our purpose, 1197 01:26:00.880 --> 01:26:04.120 in our passion, in our calling, in our destiny. 1198 01:26:04.120 --> 01:26:09.080 It can be an incredible life creative force in what we do. 1199 01:26:09.080 --> 01:26:11.960 And so I just want to encourage you to, 1200 01:26:11.960 --> 01:26:15.240 don't let that be something that ever shuts you down 1201 01:26:15.240 --> 01:26:19.600 or something that makes you feel like, 1202 01:26:19.600 --> 01:26:23.960 I think again, the church hasn't always known 1203 01:26:23.960 --> 01:26:25.560 how to speak into this thing. 1204 01:26:25.560 --> 01:26:28.720 It's like sexuality can be a very black and white thing 1205 01:26:28.720 --> 01:26:29.880 and it's not always understood. 1206 01:26:29.880 --> 01:26:30.880 It's either like this. 1207 01:26:30.880 --> 01:26:32.880 It's a creative energy. 1208 01:26:32.880 --> 01:26:35.800 Yeah, it's a creative energy in our humanity. 1209 01:26:35.800 --> 01:26:39.040 And there are so many beautiful, holy, pure, 1210 01:26:39.040 --> 01:26:42.640 God honoring ways to allow that creative life force 1211 01:26:42.640 --> 01:26:47.640 in your humanity to create business, to make money, to, 1212 01:26:48.800 --> 01:26:53.080 like really our sexuality is all about creating connection 1213 01:26:53.560 --> 01:26:55.960 with humans in a beautiful God honoring way. 1214 01:26:55.960 --> 01:26:58.400 So friendship, family, community, 1215 01:26:58.400 --> 01:27:00.560 getting out in church, the workplace, 1216 01:27:00.560 --> 01:27:04.960 it's all about connection and creating life and experience. 1217 01:27:04.960 --> 01:27:09.640 And so in all of your process of your humanity, 1218 01:27:09.640 --> 01:27:13.520 allowing the whole experience of what you experience 1219 01:27:13.520 --> 01:27:17.520 in life to be something that constantly flows you 1220 01:27:17.520 --> 01:27:21.320 into love, honor, beauty, life. 1221 01:27:23.240 --> 01:27:28.240 I wanna add something onto like emotions things, emotions. 1222 01:27:28.280 --> 01:27:29.720 I think we, it's true. 1223 01:27:29.720 --> 01:27:34.040 We shouldn't be afraid of our emotions or like, 1224 01:27:34.040 --> 01:27:35.960 you know, if you read the Psalms, 1225 01:27:35.960 --> 01:27:40.960 it's all about like ups and downs and honesty. 1226 01:27:42.680 --> 01:27:44.600 It's all, and you know what, 1227 01:27:44.600 --> 01:27:47.760 what the good thing about it is that I'm not saying 1228 01:27:47.760 --> 01:27:52.320 that David always have the right attitude in every season, 1229 01:27:52.320 --> 01:27:54.400 but if we read the Psalms, 1230 01:27:54.400 --> 01:27:58.080 we can see that God used his attitude somehow 1231 01:27:58.080 --> 01:27:59.920 to teach us something. 1232 01:27:59.920 --> 01:28:03.280 So even our mistakes, maybe, 1233 01:28:03.280 --> 01:28:08.280 or our small thinking or whatever is not, God can use it. 1234 01:28:08.400 --> 01:28:12.160 God can use it to touch other people. 1235 01:28:12.160 --> 01:28:15.800 So even we might explode or whatever, 1236 01:28:15.800 --> 01:28:18.160 but at the end of the day, 1237 01:28:18.160 --> 01:28:21.160 God can use it for something beautiful 1238 01:28:21.160 --> 01:28:26.160 and to teach others, to heal others or to touch others. 1239 01:28:26.720 --> 01:28:28.880 We shouldn't be afraid of our emotions. 1240 01:28:28.880 --> 01:28:30.440 Should let it go. 1241 01:28:30.440 --> 01:28:31.280 Wow. 1242 01:28:31.280 --> 01:28:32.120 Wow. 1243 01:28:32.120 --> 01:28:32.960 So good. 1244 01:28:32.960 --> 01:28:35.080 And I, even with what you saying with David, 1245 01:28:35.080 --> 01:28:39.440 I think in our humanity and our emotions, 1246 01:28:39.440 --> 01:28:42.000 one of the things that the enemy uses to shut us down 1247 01:28:42.000 --> 01:28:42.840 is shame. 1248 01:28:44.040 --> 01:28:48.320 Every human deals with shame in some aspect of their life 1249 01:28:48.320 --> 01:28:50.080 of overcoming that. 1250 01:28:50.080 --> 01:28:51.840 It could be related to anything. 1251 01:28:51.840 --> 01:28:54.160 It could be just related to something that you grew up with. 1252 01:28:54.160 --> 01:28:55.840 Maybe you never felt worthy enough. 1253 01:28:55.840 --> 01:28:58.720 Maybe you didn't feel much or enough. 1254 01:28:58.720 --> 01:29:01.440 Maybe you grew up with a lie in your family. 1255 01:29:01.440 --> 01:29:03.520 Maybe there's pain or trauma or wounding. 1256 01:29:03.520 --> 01:29:06.120 Maybe there's just a struggle in your life. 1257 01:29:06.120 --> 01:29:08.880 Maybe there's feels like there's obstacles. 1258 01:29:08.880 --> 01:29:11.360 Maybe you just are like intimidated 1259 01:29:11.360 --> 01:29:14.360 or you feel insecure, whatever it is. 1260 01:29:14.360 --> 01:29:16.240 Maybe you've made a big mistake 1261 01:29:16.240 --> 01:29:19.880 and now you're feeling hostage by the guilt of your past 1262 01:29:20.680 --> 01:29:23.200 or maybe you've done something. 1263 01:29:23.200 --> 01:29:26.560 The Lord, like, I just want to say this. 1264 01:29:26.560 --> 01:29:31.040 There is no shame in Jesus and he never shames you. 1265 01:29:31.040 --> 01:29:34.520 And he actually comes to liberate you from shame. 1266 01:29:34.520 --> 01:29:38.320 He comes, he wants to, I want to say this so clearly 1267 01:29:38.320 --> 01:29:41.720 that you are not defined by a mistake 1268 01:29:41.720 --> 01:29:46.720 or by a pattern of thinking or by feeling overwhelmed 1269 01:29:46.800 --> 01:29:48.880 or depressed or hopeless 1270 01:29:48.880 --> 01:29:53.200 or chained to an old version of yourself 1271 01:29:53.200 --> 01:29:56.960 or felt that you're in hostage or you're imprisoned. 1272 01:29:56.960 --> 01:30:00.000 You're held hostage to an old version of yourself. 1273 01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:02.440 or something that you did that haunts you 1274 01:30:02.440 --> 01:30:05.840 or that makes you actually feel stuck 1275 01:30:05.840 --> 01:30:07.480 in your creative process. 1276 01:30:08.520 --> 01:30:10.200 I know in my own life, 1277 01:30:10.200 --> 01:30:14.120 sometimes the lies of the enemy that come to say, 1278 01:30:14.120 --> 01:30:15.960 this is what you did, this is who you are, 1279 01:30:15.960 --> 01:30:17.040 or you're not enough, 1280 01:30:17.040 --> 01:30:20.480 or all the lies that are just BS. 1281 01:30:20.480 --> 01:30:23.480 But sometimes that really feels 1282 01:30:23.480 --> 01:30:25.320 like it blocks my creativity. 1283 01:30:25.320 --> 01:30:28.120 Like the lie of the enemy of like, 1284 01:30:28.120 --> 01:30:32.000 oh, you have this dream and desire, 1285 01:30:32.000 --> 01:30:33.640 but it's actually not gonna be fruitful. 1286 01:30:33.640 --> 01:30:35.400 It's actually not gonna come to pass or whatever. 1287 01:30:35.400 --> 01:30:37.320 And each of us will have different lies 1288 01:30:37.320 --> 01:30:40.200 or different things that we have to overcome 1289 01:30:40.200 --> 01:30:42.520 and that we have to just surrender. 1290 01:30:42.520 --> 01:30:44.960 But I just really wanna say, 1291 01:30:44.960 --> 01:30:47.960 the only remedy for shame is love. 1292 01:30:47.960 --> 01:30:50.680 And I really wanna encourage you 1293 01:30:50.680 --> 01:30:54.560 that in your process of creatives 1294 01:30:54.560 --> 01:30:57.520 is allowing love into every part of your life 1295 01:30:57.520 --> 01:30:59.760 and allowing the voice and the presence of Jesus 1296 01:30:59.760 --> 01:31:04.440 to speak to every part of your core heart 1297 01:31:04.440 --> 01:31:07.760 to liberate you from any lie, any mistake. 1298 01:31:07.760 --> 01:31:11.040 Because the beautiful thing is that God sees the heart 1299 01:31:11.040 --> 01:31:12.520 and God sees who you are 1300 01:31:12.520 --> 01:31:15.720 and God gets to define who you are. 1301 01:31:16.560 --> 01:31:19.600 And so insecurity or a lie 1302 01:31:19.600 --> 01:31:23.200 or anything that is blocking your creative process, 1303 01:31:23.200 --> 01:31:24.600 one of the best things you can do 1304 01:31:24.600 --> 01:31:27.440 is talk about it with a safe, trusted person. 1305 01:31:28.200 --> 01:31:30.400 So that you can have life come and speak into that thing 1306 01:31:30.400 --> 01:31:31.720 that can unblock you 1307 01:31:31.720 --> 01:31:34.400 so that you get into the creative life flow 1308 01:31:34.400 --> 01:31:36.160 and nothing holds you back. 1309 01:31:36.160 --> 01:31:39.800 Because whom the sun sets free is free indeed. 1310 01:31:39.800 --> 01:31:40.800 You know what I'm saying? 1311 01:31:40.800 --> 01:31:42.200 Wow, wow. 1312 01:31:42.200 --> 01:31:47.200 I was actually speaking that thing all of myself 1313 01:31:47.520 --> 01:31:49.520 the last two, three weeks. 1314 01:31:51.280 --> 01:31:53.760 The God was actually speaking to me about freedom, freedom. 1315 01:31:53.760 --> 01:31:56.240 And I was singing that Newsboys song. 1316 01:31:56.320 --> 01:31:57.920 I am free to dance. 1317 01:32:01.000 --> 01:32:01.840 Me too. 1318 01:32:03.120 --> 01:32:04.400 Oh, wow. 1319 01:32:04.400 --> 01:32:05.720 Not that song, 1320 01:32:05.720 --> 01:32:07.920 but I've been on this whole freedom journey myself. 1321 01:32:07.920 --> 01:32:11.120 I was saying the Kim Walker, 1322 01:32:11.120 --> 01:32:14.080 the dance, like the weight has been lifted. 1323 01:32:14.080 --> 01:32:15.840 Grace is waiting for you. 1324 01:32:15.840 --> 01:32:17.960 Where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. 1325 01:32:17.960 --> 01:32:20.360 That Jesus culture song. 1326 01:32:20.360 --> 01:32:22.280 I've been like dancing that like, 1327 01:32:22.280 --> 01:32:23.400 just because sometimes 1328 01:32:23.400 --> 01:32:26.200 when you're actually entering into new territory, 1329 01:32:27.040 --> 01:32:30.240 the enemy is actually trying to hold you back. 1330 01:32:30.240 --> 01:32:31.920 And sometimes we stumble and fall, 1331 01:32:31.920 --> 01:32:34.920 but the righteous may fall seven times, but they get up. 1332 01:32:34.920 --> 01:32:37.440 So if there's nothing that you stumble, 1333 01:32:37.440 --> 01:32:39.080 you make a wrong decision. 1334 01:32:39.080 --> 01:32:41.240 You're like, oh, I crossed the line or a boundary, 1335 01:32:41.240 --> 01:32:43.440 or that isn't in alignment with who I am, 1336 01:32:43.440 --> 01:32:45.520 or I violated my conscience, 1337 01:32:45.520 --> 01:32:48.080 or I wasn't, you know, or God. 1338 01:32:48.080 --> 01:32:49.920 We just reset every day. 1339 01:32:49.920 --> 01:32:51.440 We have an internal reset. 1340 01:32:51.440 --> 01:32:52.680 Every moment we turn, 1341 01:32:52.680 --> 01:32:54.800 we receive the grace and mercy of Jesus. 1342 01:32:54.800 --> 01:32:57.000 And we step back into the life flow 1343 01:32:57.000 --> 01:32:58.800 and we step into freedom 1344 01:32:58.800 --> 01:33:01.640 because who sets free is free indeed. 1345 01:33:01.640 --> 01:33:03.320 That is who we are. 1346 01:33:03.320 --> 01:33:05.320 And I'm so passionate. 1347 01:33:05.320 --> 01:33:09.520 I'm actually going to put another link of Abby Stumball. 1348 01:33:09.520 --> 01:33:10.360 I was watching this. 1349 01:33:10.360 --> 01:33:12.840 She was talking to the worship university 1350 01:33:12.840 --> 01:33:16.200 at Bethel church on shame and performance. 1351 01:33:16.200 --> 01:33:18.240 And the reason I wanted to bring up shame 1352 01:33:18.240 --> 01:33:21.000 is because with creatives, gosh, 1353 01:33:21.000 --> 01:33:22.640 the enemy is so crafty 1354 01:33:22.680 --> 01:33:25.360 at trying to shut down your creativity 1355 01:33:25.360 --> 01:33:27.560 by telling you who you're not. 1356 01:33:27.560 --> 01:33:30.440 Because the enemy will come and try to define you 1357 01:33:30.440 --> 01:33:31.280 by what you did. 1358 01:33:31.280 --> 01:33:34.720 Religion says what you've done is who you are. 1359 01:33:34.720 --> 01:33:35.760 It's your identity. 1360 01:33:35.760 --> 01:33:40.080 But relationship in Jesus is you are pure, holy, thriving, 1361 01:33:40.080 --> 01:33:42.880 beautiful, perfect, flawless in my son. 1362 01:33:42.880 --> 01:33:44.720 You are righteous and holy. 1363 01:33:44.720 --> 01:33:47.320 Who you are as a son and daughter, this is who you are. 1364 01:33:47.320 --> 01:33:50.600 You are not defined by any mistake, any choice. 1365 01:33:50.640 --> 01:33:53.280 There is no condemnation in Christ Jesus. 1366 01:33:53.280 --> 01:33:55.360 There is nothing that can hold you back. 1367 01:33:55.360 --> 01:33:58.080 God does not define you. 1368 01:33:58.080 --> 01:34:01.040 Any mistake, anything you've done, there's no fault. 1369 01:34:01.040 --> 01:34:02.240 There's no shame. 1370 01:34:02.240 --> 01:34:03.080 There's no blame. 1371 01:34:03.080 --> 01:34:04.520 There's no condemnation. 1372 01:34:04.520 --> 01:34:06.160 It literally is lifted. 1373 01:34:06.160 --> 01:34:07.520 There's so much freedom. 1374 01:34:07.520 --> 01:34:09.520 And I'm so passionate about this too 1375 01:34:09.520 --> 01:34:12.800 because the amount of people that I've dialogued, 1376 01:34:12.800 --> 01:34:15.680 especially in this last year or two, it's been hard. 1377 01:34:15.680 --> 01:34:17.880 And sometimes we haven't made the best decisions, 1378 01:34:17.880 --> 01:34:20.560 but God looks at the heart 1379 01:34:21.400 --> 01:34:23.160 and he sees the heart of David in each one of you. 1380 01:34:23.160 --> 01:34:25.240 He sees the heart after God. 1381 01:34:25.240 --> 01:34:27.720 He sees the heart to do the best that you can, 1382 01:34:27.720 --> 01:34:30.680 to love him with all of your heart, soul, mind, and strength. 1383 01:34:30.680 --> 01:34:33.440 And so in our journey, we're not perfect, 1384 01:34:33.440 --> 01:34:35.400 but God's not looking for perfection. 1385 01:34:35.400 --> 01:34:37.160 He's looking for the heart. 1386 01:34:37.160 --> 01:34:39.400 So Zylan, back to you, bro. 1387 01:34:39.400 --> 01:34:41.000 Wow, that's amazing, man. 1388 01:34:41.000 --> 01:34:42.680 That's really, really amazing. 1389 01:34:42.680 --> 01:34:44.040 So whatever you said that, you know, 1390 01:34:44.040 --> 01:34:46.960 one of the stuff that really the spirit of God 1391 01:34:46.960 --> 01:34:51.960 is leading me to do is just radical acceptance of myself, 1392 01:34:53.200 --> 01:34:55.440 you know, just radically, you know, 1393 01:34:55.440 --> 01:34:59.360 because the enemy comes to condemn you, right? 1394 01:34:59.360 --> 01:35:00.200 And- 1395 01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:02.440 you accept that, okay, I have this flows, 1396 01:35:02.440 --> 01:35:04.280 I have this thing, you know, 1397 01:35:04.280 --> 01:35:07.680 and then he doesn't have anything to claim, 1398 01:35:07.680 --> 01:35:09.720 you know what I'm saying? 1399 01:35:09.720 --> 01:35:14.720 You know, and it's not like I'm just saying that, 1400 01:35:14.840 --> 01:35:18.440 you know, we have to, you know, 1401 01:35:19.920 --> 01:35:22.000 you know, just stay in that place, you know, 1402 01:35:22.000 --> 01:35:24.960 because when we give, 1403 01:35:24.960 --> 01:35:27.600 accept our brokenness and our imperfection, 1404 01:35:27.680 --> 01:35:31.240 you know, Rumi said that your wound is your glory, 1405 01:35:31.240 --> 01:35:34.040 you know, so, yeah, 1406 01:35:34.040 --> 01:35:38.640 so, and even Leonardo Cohen wrote this song, 1407 01:35:38.640 --> 01:35:41.560 it's that, this one of my favorite lines, 1408 01:35:41.560 --> 01:35:44.840 you know, ring the bell that still can ring, 1409 01:35:44.840 --> 01:35:46.880 forget the perfect offering, 1410 01:35:46.880 --> 01:35:48.360 there's a crack in everything, 1411 01:35:48.360 --> 01:35:51.400 and that's how life gets in, you know, 1412 01:35:51.400 --> 01:35:54.000 it's in that imperfection thing 1413 01:35:54.000 --> 01:35:57.920 that makes us who we are, you know, 1414 01:35:57.920 --> 01:36:01.120 eventually that's the place where 1415 01:36:01.120 --> 01:36:04.120 God is gonna use you more, heal you more, 1416 01:36:04.120 --> 01:36:07.640 and the moment, you know, sometimes as a creative, 1417 01:36:07.640 --> 01:36:12.520 we feel useless and weary and tired and, you know, 1418 01:36:12.520 --> 01:36:16.240 confused and, you know, the moment you accept it, 1419 01:36:17.760 --> 01:36:19.880 and, you know, there are so much freedom in it 1420 01:36:19.880 --> 01:36:23.480 and God, the spirit of God will come and minister to you, 1421 01:36:24.360 --> 01:36:27.560 it may take some time, but, you know, just, 1422 01:36:28.960 --> 01:36:32.160 you know, it's not a race, you know, it's a journey, 1423 01:36:32.160 --> 01:36:36.280 it's a process and everybody have their own way of evolving 1424 01:36:36.280 --> 01:36:40.880 and, you know, patterns and, you know, 1425 01:36:40.880 --> 01:36:45.040 just accept it and acknowledge it 1426 01:36:45.040 --> 01:36:48.280 and don't be, don't freak out actually, 1427 01:36:49.280 --> 01:36:52.200 you know, and don't condemn yourself, 1428 01:36:52.200 --> 01:36:54.360 when you accept that love and love, 1429 01:36:54.360 --> 01:36:58.400 you know, self-love is a really great thing 1430 01:36:58.400 --> 01:37:01.760 that I'm learning, you know, not in a selfish love, 1431 01:37:01.760 --> 01:37:06.040 you know, but self-love because if I love myself 1432 01:37:06.040 --> 01:37:10.800 in a right way, I can easily, I mean, love others, 1433 01:37:10.800 --> 01:37:14.280 you know, that's a biblical pattern as well, you know, 1434 01:37:14.280 --> 01:37:17.360 you love yourself, love your neighbor as yourself, 1435 01:37:17.360 --> 01:37:21.400 you know, first you have to love yourself in the right way, 1436 01:37:21.400 --> 01:37:25.000 so you can love others, so that's beautiful, 1437 01:37:25.000 --> 01:37:27.600 I think, it's so, so good. 1438 01:37:30.000 --> 01:37:34.440 Oh, I'm just loving this because I love openness 1439 01:37:34.440 --> 01:37:36.360 and transparency and vulnerability 1440 01:37:36.360 --> 01:37:38.240 and getting really real with people 1441 01:37:38.240 --> 01:37:41.960 because we're all human, we're all on the journey 1442 01:37:41.960 --> 01:37:45.480 and we all have a different path to walk, 1443 01:37:45.480 --> 01:37:50.480 sorry, my voice is getting a bit croaky, but that's it, 1444 01:37:50.560 --> 01:37:53.760 our humanity is in process, healing is a journey, 1445 01:37:53.760 --> 01:37:56.480 it's not a destination and the thing is, 1446 01:37:56.480 --> 01:37:59.000 is that it is all about our heart to just continue 1447 01:37:59.000 --> 01:38:01.480 to walk in the light, to walk in freedom, 1448 01:38:01.480 --> 01:38:04.360 to walk in humility, to own our process, 1449 01:38:04.360 --> 01:38:07.960 you know, if you make a mess, if you say something, 1450 01:38:07.960 --> 01:38:10.440 do something wrong, the biggest thing you can do 1451 01:38:10.440 --> 01:38:13.680 is take ownership, take responsibility, 1452 01:38:13.680 --> 01:38:16.920 clean up your mess and then say no to the lies 1453 01:38:16.920 --> 01:38:19.520 that failure doesn't define you, 1454 01:38:19.560 --> 01:38:23.120 the Lord's voice and his love defines you, 1455 01:38:23.120 --> 01:38:26.160 nothing you've done ever is what defines you, 1456 01:38:26.160 --> 01:38:28.480 now, what defines you is how you recover, 1457 01:38:28.480 --> 01:38:33.480 what defines you is how you move forward in life 1458 01:38:33.480 --> 01:38:36.000 and so humility and grace and mercy, 1459 01:38:36.000 --> 01:38:39.640 like love covers a multitude, love empowers, 1460 01:38:39.640 --> 01:38:42.560 the grace, the empowering presence of Jesus to, 1461 01:38:43.680 --> 01:38:44.800 I love what Graham Cooke says, 1462 01:38:44.800 --> 01:38:46.720 we're gonna wrap up in just a few minutes, 1463 01:38:46.720 --> 01:38:48.800 but Graham Cooke says something powerful, 1464 01:38:48.800 --> 01:38:52.880 he says, grace is the empowering presence of Jesus 1465 01:38:52.880 --> 01:38:57.680 for you to become everything that he has called you to be, 1466 01:38:57.680 --> 01:39:02.000 grace is the empowering presence for you to be the person 1467 01:39:02.000 --> 01:39:04.840 that God sees when he looks at you, 1468 01:39:04.840 --> 01:39:09.400 so when God looks at you, he sees you in the fullness 1469 01:39:09.400 --> 01:39:10.920 of who he's created you to be, 1470 01:39:10.920 --> 01:39:12.840 now, we're not the fullness yet, 1471 01:39:12.840 --> 01:39:16.360 but when he looks at us, he sees Jesus on the inside of us 1472 01:39:16.360 --> 01:39:18.960 and he sees the fullness of who he's created us to be 1473 01:39:18.960 --> 01:39:21.600 and so grace is the empowering presence 1474 01:39:21.600 --> 01:39:25.000 for us to come into agreement with who he says that we are 1475 01:39:25.000 --> 01:39:28.040 and for us to live that out in the fullness, 1476 01:39:28.040 --> 01:39:30.080 be holy as I am holy, 1477 01:39:30.080 --> 01:39:34.680 now, that is a journey that we are gonna walk on daily, 1478 01:39:34.680 --> 01:39:36.760 he doesn't expect perfection, 1479 01:39:36.760 --> 01:39:39.920 but there is a real journey that we go on, 1480 01:39:39.920 --> 01:39:42.840 actually, I wanna quickly read something 1481 01:39:43.800 --> 01:39:48.120 and then we can have some final thoughts, 1482 01:39:48.120 --> 01:39:49.720 but the agape love of God, 1483 01:39:49.720 --> 01:39:54.080 I was in this online workshop with this brilliant therapist 1484 01:39:54.080 --> 01:39:56.160 who was speaking to a bunch of us 1485 01:39:56.160 --> 01:39:59.360 and he said, agape love, 1486 01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:07.280 is a radical acceptance of who you are and where you are at any given moment or time in your life 1487 01:40:08.000 --> 01:40:13.280 balanced by an invitational expectation that you become all that you're meant to be. 1488 01:40:17.040 --> 01:40:21.760 Agape love. I'm going to type it into the chat as well, but agape love. So sometimes we're like 1489 01:40:21.760 --> 01:40:28.320 God's love is unconditional. It's unconditional. Yes, it is unconditional, but there is an 1490 01:40:28.320 --> 01:40:35.040 expectation and an invitation to it. So agape love is a radical acceptance of who you are 1491 01:40:35.840 --> 01:40:44.400 and where you are at any given moment or time in your life balanced by an invitational expectation 1492 01:40:44.400 --> 01:40:50.560 that you become all that you're meant to be. So the grace of the Lord Jesus, the mercy of Jesus 1493 01:40:50.560 --> 01:40:57.680 to cover you, to meet you right where you're at, to just be like I see you, I know you, I love you, 1494 01:40:57.680 --> 01:41:02.400 I lift off guilt, shame, like you are not defined by any of that. You're actually defined by my 1495 01:41:02.400 --> 01:41:08.080 love. You're defined by my voice and my presence. That is who you are. You're covered. You're not 1496 01:41:08.080 --> 01:41:13.680 defined by your humanity. You're defined by who I say you are, but there's also an invitation for 1497 01:41:13.680 --> 01:41:18.240 you not to stay there. We're not going to stay in those cycles, those thought patterns, those 1498 01:41:18.240 --> 01:41:23.840 behaviors, that lifestyle. We're not going to stay there. It's balanced by you are fully accepted. 1499 01:41:23.840 --> 01:41:28.320 So there's nothing you could say or do that will ever make God love you more or less, 1500 01:41:28.320 --> 01:41:33.600 but it's balanced by an invitation that you go on the journey of becoming everything that you've 1501 01:41:33.600 --> 01:41:38.960 been called to be, everything that you're meant to be in Jesus. And that is the journey of 1502 01:41:38.960 --> 01:41:44.960 sanctification. That's the process of discipleship. That is the process of us becoming Christ-like. 1503 01:41:44.960 --> 01:41:52.080 And the more we yield and surrender to love, the more that love transforms us. And so that is 1504 01:41:52.080 --> 01:41:57.440 initiated by our heart because it's all free will. We're not robots. God does not control us. 1505 01:41:58.640 --> 01:42:06.320 God has no control over us. We are free spirits and beings. God is in charge of the cosmos. God 1506 01:42:06.320 --> 01:42:13.760 is in charge of the universe, but he does not control humans. He intervenes. We pray. He has 1507 01:42:13.760 --> 01:42:18.720 his sovereign purposes in our life. He speaks to us. There is a loving relationship, but it is a 1508 01:42:18.720 --> 01:42:25.360 two-way street and how we yield and surrender and invite and engage in that relationship 1509 01:42:25.360 --> 01:42:32.960 changes everything. God also, his reckless love is pursuing you like he is daily coming after you. 1510 01:42:32.960 --> 01:42:38.560 Psalm 139 says, where can I go from your spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I make my 1511 01:42:38.560 --> 01:42:44.400 bed in the depths below, if I go to the highest of Heights, wherever I am, he is, if I'm in hell, 1512 01:42:44.400 --> 01:42:52.560 if I'm in utter torment, Jesus is there. If I'm in heaven, you know, wherever I am, wherever you 1513 01:42:52.560 --> 01:42:58.160 are, he is there. You cannot escape the love or the voice of God. You can't, he is everywhere. 1514 01:42:58.800 --> 01:43:04.240 But the more we just say in our humanity, God come, I yield to you. I surrender to you. I don't 1515 01:43:04.240 --> 01:43:10.160 know what it fully looks like, but you have my yes. He's like, and he just invades that space. 1516 01:43:11.120 --> 01:43:17.600 So yeah, perfect. Love casts out fear. Amen. We get so, there was something that I was just going 1517 01:43:17.600 --> 01:43:22.320 through this last season that I was terrified to talk to anybody about. And I recently just 1518 01:43:22.320 --> 01:43:28.560 got the courage to talk to a few people and the shame and the brokenness that came off my life. 1519 01:43:28.560 --> 01:43:33.840 Like literally fear was just like, so intimidating me. And then I just talked about a few people and 1520 01:43:33.840 --> 01:43:37.760 it totally lifted. And I was like, yeah, that wasn't so hard. Why didn't you just talk about 1521 01:43:37.760 --> 01:43:43.120 that? Perfect. Love casts out fear, but fear is real guys. And we don't want any room for that. 1522 01:43:43.120 --> 01:43:49.360 We don't want any room for fear or anxiety, crazy stuff because it just holds us hostage and we 1523 01:43:49.360 --> 01:43:55.280 blocks our life. It blocks the abundant life of God. There's no shame. There's just love. 1524 01:43:55.280 --> 01:43:57.840 So Helen, you've got one more question. Then we're going to wrap it up. 1525 01:43:58.160 --> 01:44:06.000 Oh, I can't hear you. Love, you're muted, Helen, my darling. Oh, sorry. 1526 01:44:06.000 --> 01:44:12.080 That's okay. Yeah. And I think it's so good that you talked about God doesn't really control us. 1527 01:44:12.080 --> 01:44:20.880 In a sense, it reminds me the fruit of Holy Spirit is self-control. So He gives us strength 1528 01:44:21.680 --> 01:44:29.520 to somehow regulate our internal life or our life as a whole to come in alignment with Him, 1529 01:44:29.520 --> 01:44:37.280 but He doesn't control us. And I don't know. I feel like there's a lot of responsibility 1530 01:44:37.280 --> 01:44:43.760 that, you know, it has a freedom, but it also carries a responsibility for us to grow. 1531 01:44:44.320 --> 01:44:49.680 Absolutely. Oh, my gosh. Yes, like the responsibility is huge. 1532 01:44:49.680 --> 01:44:58.880 Like I've been actually getting so sobered because for a while my 1533 01:44:59.920 --> 01:45:05.600 co-workers were not in the safe zone and now it's all completely different, 1534 01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:03.200 really was like, well, whatever God wants to do in my life, he'll just do. 1535 01:45:05.880 --> 01:45:07.160 Yes and no. 1536 01:45:07.160 --> 01:45:12.120 There's actually so much responsibility on my life to steward my life. 1537 01:45:12.920 --> 01:45:14.960 They call it being intentional, right? 1538 01:45:15.240 --> 01:45:19.560 Yes. And when you look at the parable of the talents. 1539 01:45:19.840 --> 01:45:22.640 Right. What they did with each of the talents. 1540 01:45:23.440 --> 01:45:25.880 Then Jesus, like you lazy, wicked servant. 1541 01:45:26.720 --> 01:45:31.400 Like I sometimes get really like, Oh Jesus. 1542 01:45:31.400 --> 01:45:36.240 Like there are some things that God has spoken to me for years 1543 01:45:36.240 --> 01:45:38.000 about that I've still not done. 1544 01:45:38.640 --> 01:45:43.280 Not because I'm trying to be disobedient, but because I was like, I felt 1545 01:45:43.280 --> 01:45:48.080 disqualified. I felt like, you know, so many pathetic words about writing songs 1546 01:45:48.080 --> 01:45:53.320 and albums and I wrote all these songs and do things, but then I'd get 1547 01:45:53.320 --> 01:45:56.920 busy and I was so busy and serving and ministry and all these things. 1548 01:45:56.920 --> 01:46:01.480 And I'd always, I have like thousands of voice notes, thousands of songs 1549 01:46:01.480 --> 01:46:03.080 that are started, but they're not finished. 1550 01:46:03.320 --> 01:46:06.440 And there's not been a creative, like, yes, this is my 10 songs. 1551 01:46:06.440 --> 01:46:07.080 This is my album. 1552 01:46:07.440 --> 01:46:10.160 Because I sometimes felt like, I don't know if I have enough. 1553 01:46:10.160 --> 01:46:11.200 I don't know if I'm good enough. 1554 01:46:11.200 --> 01:46:15.640 And I was leading worship and touring with other bands and other worship 1555 01:46:15.640 --> 01:46:16.400 expressions. 1556 01:46:16.400 --> 01:46:22.120 And I was so involved in doing my thing, but actually crafting my own songs 1557 01:46:22.120 --> 01:46:25.120 from start to finish, putting that before the father. 1558 01:46:25.120 --> 01:46:30.760 And I'm like, God, I do not want to end my life feeling I was in disobedience. 1559 01:46:30.760 --> 01:46:33.440 And I actually, it doesn't matter what comes of it. 1560 01:46:33.760 --> 01:46:35.000 No one could ever hear it. 1561 01:46:35.520 --> 01:46:37.880 It could never, like, I could share it with 10 of my friends. 1562 01:46:37.880 --> 01:46:38.960 They could be like, wow, great. 1563 01:46:39.080 --> 01:46:40.280 The issue is obedience. 1564 01:46:40.280 --> 01:46:42.440 The issue is what's inside of my heart. 1565 01:46:43.080 --> 01:46:45.160 Am I actually being faithful to steward it? 1566 01:46:45.840 --> 01:46:49.080 We're just called to be faithful to steward with what's in our heart and 1567 01:46:49.080 --> 01:46:51.560 what's been given to us and what he's invited us to do. 1568 01:46:53.120 --> 01:46:58.240 Rest up to God, what he does with creativity, who it reaches is not up to 1569 01:46:58.240 --> 01:46:58.720 us. 1570 01:46:59.360 --> 01:47:02.400 What fruit is not up to us. 1571 01:47:03.320 --> 01:47:05.280 What harvest is not up to us. 1572 01:47:05.680 --> 01:47:07.160 The lives changes. 1573 01:47:07.800 --> 01:47:12.600 Not up to us that we predict it's not up to us. 1574 01:47:12.880 --> 01:47:19.160 Our responsibility is to be faithful, a good steward to take responsibility 1575 01:47:19.200 --> 01:47:21.680 with what's been entrusted to our lives. 1576 01:47:22.560 --> 01:47:27.360 Dreams and the desires that are in our heart are not there by mistake. 1577 01:47:28.400 --> 01:47:33.120 Like we each have different dreams and desires that I wouldn't have the same as 1578 01:47:33.120 --> 01:47:38.720 you guys, but the dreams and desires that are in me are very personal because God 1579 01:47:38.720 --> 01:47:40.480 is the author of dream and desire. 1580 01:47:40.800 --> 01:47:41.280 Wow. 1581 01:47:41.400 --> 01:47:45.680 When God is on it, then I have to go, okay, God, I actually have to get real. 1582 01:47:46.280 --> 01:47:52.720 And I have to defeat the giants on the inside that are keeping me from, from 1583 01:47:52.720 --> 01:47:56.760 being people that are keeping me distracted, that are keeping me in a 1584 01:47:56.760 --> 01:48:00.800 place of insecurity that are keeping me in a place of compromise. 1585 01:48:02.000 --> 01:48:03.560 And I have to call it for what it is. 1586 01:48:03.600 --> 01:48:07.200 I can't just, well, I've been busy and this and this, you know what? 1587 01:48:07.280 --> 01:48:08.320 Yeah, you have been busy. 1588 01:48:08.560 --> 01:48:11.720 You've also been a little bit lazy, unmotivated. 1589 01:48:12.240 --> 01:48:15.760 You've also felt, you've also felt intimidated. 1590 01:48:17.080 --> 01:48:17.920 I just got to own it. 1591 01:48:18.240 --> 01:48:22.120 When I take ownership and I can take responsibility and then I can move in 1592 01:48:22.120 --> 01:48:27.200 obedience, not out of shame and performance, but out of like, God, this 1593 01:48:27.200 --> 01:48:31.600 feels big and I don't, I don't always know what to do or I won't make time for 1594 01:48:31.600 --> 01:48:31.760 it. 1595 01:48:31.760 --> 01:48:33.840 Like, but I want to give you an offering. 1596 01:48:33.880 --> 01:48:35.080 I want to love you in this. 1597 01:48:35.080 --> 01:48:37.080 I want to create space in this. 1598 01:48:37.680 --> 01:48:39.280 I actually want it to be worship. 1599 01:48:40.080 --> 01:48:42.240 And worship is costly. 1600 01:48:42.400 --> 01:48:44.000 There's sacrifice in worship. 1601 01:48:44.400 --> 01:48:45.520 It doesn't always feel good. 1602 01:48:45.520 --> 01:48:46.920 It's not always convenient. 1603 01:48:48.040 --> 01:48:49.760 Love is rarely convenient. 1604 01:48:50.600 --> 01:48:52.440 Love is a choice in marriage. 1605 01:48:52.680 --> 01:48:55.880 I can't wait to be married and love my husband with all my heart and soul. 1606 01:48:56.000 --> 01:48:58.160 There's going to be a lot of times it's not convenient. 1607 01:48:58.840 --> 01:49:02.800 It's going to be a lot of times that I might not feel it, but I choose it 1608 01:49:02.800 --> 01:49:04.800 because I go, I chose you. 1609 01:49:04.840 --> 01:49:05.760 I love you. 1610 01:49:06.160 --> 01:49:07.040 And I might be tired. 1611 01:49:07.040 --> 01:49:09.920 I might have a whole bunch of things, but I'm going to intentionally tune 1612 01:49:09.920 --> 01:49:13.760 my heart to you every day to know how I can love you, bless you, 1613 01:49:13.760 --> 01:49:15.600 serve you, and bring life to you. 1614 01:49:16.120 --> 01:49:18.600 Now with the Lord, that's what we do. 1615 01:49:18.640 --> 01:49:19.680 We yield ourselves. 1616 01:49:19.960 --> 01:49:21.920 Father, what can I do to bless you today? 1617 01:49:21.960 --> 01:49:23.240 What, how can I love you? 1618 01:49:23.600 --> 01:49:27.800 How can I take with what you've entrusted in my life and bear fruit? 1619 01:49:28.160 --> 01:49:29.120 How can I steward it? 1620 01:49:29.120 --> 01:49:33.840 Well, how can I bless your name, glorify you, love you, and create 1621 01:49:33.880 --> 01:49:38.480 something of worth that releases heaven on the earth? 1622 01:49:39.200 --> 01:49:39.680 Wow. 1623 01:49:40.600 --> 01:49:41.100 Yeah. 1624 01:49:42.000 --> 01:49:45.120 Fee and Zion, do you have any more thoughts, you beautiful men? 1625 01:49:48.360 --> 01:49:52.640 I think, um, it's on a perfect note, actually. 1626 01:49:52.840 --> 01:49:54.480 I don't have, I don't have anything to add. 1627 01:49:56.280 --> 01:49:57.200 It's so beautiful. 1628 01:49:57.440 --> 01:49:58.200 It is so good. 1629 01:49:58.400 --> 01:49:59.000 It's so good. 1630 01:49:59.240 --> 01:49:59.760 It's so good. 1631 01:50:00.000 --> 01:50:09.520 We've got an hour and 15 minutes. So thanks for doing the long haul. I think last time we almost 1632 01:50:09.520 --> 01:50:18.160 did two and a half hours. So we won't go past two hours today. But yeah, I just wanted to 1633 01:50:19.920 --> 01:50:21.440 Can I add one last thing? 1634 01:50:21.440 --> 01:50:22.640 Yes, final thoughts. 1635 01:50:23.200 --> 01:50:31.760 I think comparison also can really block you from being creative. 1636 01:50:34.000 --> 01:50:43.120 Because you shouldn't compare yourself to others when it comes to creating something. 1637 01:50:43.120 --> 01:50:49.520 Because otherwise you're gonna create something just to please others or just to 1638 01:50:50.240 --> 01:50:52.800 yeah, you know, reach a certain 1639 01:50:56.800 --> 01:51:02.400 I don't know how to explain it. But like, you know, the purity of whatever we create, 1640 01:51:02.960 --> 01:51:11.680 depends a lot on that also, that we don't compare to others. And then we just go 1641 01:51:12.560 --> 01:51:18.720 as ourselves. And God is the one who is defining the good and the bad. 1642 01:51:20.640 --> 01:51:28.560 At the end of the day, he is the one, you know, our good is not his good. And he is the one who 1643 01:51:28.560 --> 01:51:40.640 is defining what is good. You know, in Apocalypse, it shows like, it tells a lot of like, the 1644 01:51:41.280 --> 01:51:49.840 images of divine creatures, like we have a lot of eyes and all those stuff. If we define what is 1645 01:51:49.840 --> 01:51:53.920 good and what is beautiful, we would say, oh, those are not beautiful, because they're not 1646 01:51:54.560 --> 01:52:04.240 good. It's scary. But it's not us. It is God who is defining what is beautiful and what you know, 1647 01:52:04.240 --> 01:52:10.320 our beautiful is so our point of view of what is beautiful is so little, 1648 01:52:10.320 --> 01:52:16.160 though, that that's why we need to trust him to realign our perspective with his perspective. 1649 01:52:17.120 --> 01:52:25.680 And, and, you know, cast comparison out of our creation, creating process. 1650 01:52:27.280 --> 01:52:31.280 So yeah, I just wanted to add that also, because it can block us a lot. 1651 01:52:34.400 --> 01:52:43.200 Wow. That's awesome. Amazing. Yeah. 1652 01:52:44.400 --> 01:52:49.200 That is really good. So I was just looking at, I just wanted to put a few links in that was 1653 01:52:49.200 --> 01:52:55.280 really good. Comparison is the thief of joy. We've heard it sometimes, right? And it's just, 1654 01:52:55.280 --> 01:53:01.440 it's a waste of our time and attention. Because we're all such a unique expression of the Father 1655 01:53:01.440 --> 01:53:07.200 and just think about like, if Xylan and fee weren't the incredible artists and singers and 1656 01:53:07.200 --> 01:53:11.440 songwriters and musicians they are, and they actually shut down their gifts, because they 1657 01:53:11.440 --> 01:53:17.680 thought it wasn't as good as whoever, and we miss out on the unique expression and the beauty and 1658 01:53:17.680 --> 01:53:23.920 the sound of the resonance of who they are. And that's the thing. The enemy uses comparison to 1659 01:53:23.920 --> 01:53:29.120 shut down the beauty of who you are, that who you are is going to touch and heal and release the 1660 01:53:29.120 --> 01:53:34.160 Father like nobody else. You are a revelation of the Father that has never been on the earth 1661 01:53:34.160 --> 01:53:41.840 before. Never. And when we actually, Bill Johnson says something, I'll put this in the chat too. And 1662 01:53:41.840 --> 01:53:48.240 yes, Alexander, I was just looking for that, that book link to put in, but then I just needed to 1663 01:53:48.240 --> 01:53:54.080 come back on the chat. So I'll put that in there. But Bill Johnson says, when you know who God's 1664 01:53:54.080 --> 01:53:59.200 made you to be, you'll never want to be anyone else. When you get a revelation of the beauty of 1665 01:53:59.200 --> 01:54:04.160 who God has created you to be, your unique identity, you'll never want to be anyone else. 1666 01:54:04.800 --> 01:54:10.640 And that has been something that has been an invitation for me my whole life, to actually 1667 01:54:10.640 --> 01:54:17.840 fully fall in love with who I am. Body, soul, mind, and spirit. To be like, D, you are unreal. You are 1668 01:54:17.840 --> 01:54:24.720 unlike anybody else. And the beauty of that sets me free to then radically celebrate every other 1669 01:54:24.720 --> 01:54:30.160 person in my life. And one of the things that really breaks comparison is if you live a life 1670 01:54:30.160 --> 01:54:36.800 of celebration, live a life of constantly celebrating the gold in other people, live a life 1671 01:54:36.800 --> 01:54:43.040 of constantly looking at the beauty, the delight of who they are, who the Father's made them to be 1672 01:54:43.040 --> 01:54:48.960 in their humanity, their masculinity, their femininity, their creativity, their personality, 1673 01:54:48.960 --> 01:54:54.480 what they've been called to do, how their mind works, what their soul loves. Just be a radical 1674 01:54:54.480 --> 01:54:59.840 celebrator. Because there's no competition in the kingdom. There's room for everyone. 1675 01:55:00.000 --> 01:55:05.680 to shine. There's room for everyone to have abundance. There's room for everyone to fully 1676 01:55:05.680 --> 01:55:13.680 come alive and be the powerful force that they're called to be in the world. In the world, there's 1677 01:55:13.680 --> 01:55:19.440 only so much room. Not everybody's shine. There's only so much money. There's only so much room for 1678 01:55:20.080 --> 01:55:25.760 whatever prestige or leadership or position or power. And it's just awful. So people are cutting 1679 01:55:25.760 --> 01:55:31.920 each other, fighting each other, rumors, gossip, pushing people down in order to try to lift 1680 01:55:31.920 --> 01:55:38.320 themselves up. And it's so dark and it's so not necessary. In the kingdom, there's room for 1681 01:55:38.320 --> 01:55:44.880 everyone to shine, fully come alive, be empowered, be celebrated, and to literally set the world 1682 01:55:44.880 --> 01:55:51.680 ablaze with love and light and glory. So every time you feel that nagging thing of comparison, 1683 01:55:51.680 --> 01:55:57.600 say, God, I say yes to the grace of celebration. I say yes to the gift of calling out the golden 1684 01:55:57.600 --> 01:56:02.960 people and literally lay your hands on yourself and just say, I bless the gold, the beauty, 1685 01:56:02.960 --> 01:56:09.120 the creativity, the wonder, the fingerprints of God, who you've made me to be body, soul, 1686 01:56:09.120 --> 01:56:14.640 mind, and spirit. I am unique. I'm a unique revelation of the father, and I'm here to 1687 01:56:14.640 --> 01:56:21.040 release heaven. So anytime you feel that move in the opposite spirit, begin to declare, 1688 01:56:21.040 --> 01:56:26.960 and it will shift what you feel. It will shift the thoughts, the cycles, you know? 1689 01:56:28.000 --> 01:56:33.760 So, oh, just love you guys so much. I'm going to quickly, Zailin, if you want to say anything 1690 01:56:33.760 --> 01:56:37.280 more, I'm going to quickly just link that other book. So it's just going to take me a minute 1691 01:56:37.840 --> 01:56:46.240 to do that. I think this all stuff, whether you are a creative or non-creative or whatever 1692 01:56:46.240 --> 01:56:52.720 stuff that you do, you know, that inner works is very essential. Like, you know, 1693 01:56:52.720 --> 01:57:00.160 work on your identity because it's actually grow from that place. You know, if your identity is not 1694 01:57:00.800 --> 01:57:06.720 fixed, you know, if you don't know who you are in Christ and how much you're loved and 1695 01:57:06.720 --> 01:57:14.640 celebrated by father, you always actually feel that often, you know, you compare yourself, 1696 01:57:14.640 --> 01:57:19.280 you know, the moment you realize who you are, you're the unique masterpiece of his. 1697 01:57:21.120 --> 01:57:26.320 And it's easy for you to do whatever you want to do, you know, 1698 01:57:26.320 --> 01:57:31.520 with full conviction and celebration. I think that's really beautiful. 1699 01:57:35.760 --> 01:57:41.600 Yeah, man. One of my friends, actually, he's a music producer. He told me that, 1700 01:57:42.560 --> 01:57:47.920 you know, if somebody plays a music, we can literally, if you observe and listen to it 1701 01:57:47.920 --> 01:57:57.840 carefully, we know what kind of person who played it. Literally. And I was like, yeah, 1702 01:57:57.840 --> 01:58:03.920 it's really, really good, you know. So like, the way somebody plays an instrument, 1703 01:58:05.280 --> 01:58:09.920 whatever it is, I mean, we can understand who that person is, what kind of person he is, 1704 01:58:10.800 --> 01:58:16.720 you know, the moment we actually try to work on our identity, our thing, you know, 1705 01:58:16.720 --> 01:58:22.960 most of the time, you know, we don't spend much time to self improvement. You know, like 1706 01:58:22.960 --> 01:58:27.680 Dana said in the beginning, you know, if you spend time with us, I mean, with ourselves, 1707 01:58:27.680 --> 01:58:34.960 and, you know, just be kind to ourselves, love ourselves, and discipline ourselves, 1708 01:58:35.680 --> 01:58:39.680 and teach ourselves, train ourselves, you know, it's a journey, you know, 1709 01:58:39.680 --> 01:58:45.440 then whatever comes out of us will be, you know, a byproduct of that thing, you know. 1710 01:58:49.040 --> 01:58:58.720 Yeah, man. Yes. It's so good. Yeah. So good. I think we've come to like, around two hours now. 1711 01:58:59.280 --> 01:59:05.200 Yes, to our mark. So we're gonna, we're gonna say goodbye. The other person I want to encourage you 1712 01:59:05.200 --> 01:59:11.920 so the book is called Emotionally Healthy Spirituality by Peter. So I'm sorry, I said 1713 01:59:11.920 --> 01:59:17.440 Peter Levine. Peter Levine is also someone I think that speaks into trauma and emotional health. But 1714 01:59:17.440 --> 01:59:22.720 this book that I was meaning was emotional, emotionally healthy spirituality by Peter 1715 01:59:22.720 --> 01:59:31.120 Scazzaro. So I've put the link. And then I've also written the title of the book. Another person 1716 01:59:31.120 --> 01:59:37.840 that I want to encourage you to listen to who's brilliant is Paul Scanlon. He's an Englishman. 1717 01:59:37.840 --> 01:59:45.120 He's actually one of my mentors. I'm part of his mentorship tribe. He has a lot of brilliant stuff 1718 01:59:45.120 --> 01:59:52.320 on creativity. If you go to his Instagram page. He's Paul Scanlon, but he also now has like an 1719 01:59:52.320 --> 01:59:59.760 online platform. It's free to join. You can be part of his mentorship tribe. It's totally free. 1720 02:00:00.000 --> 02:00:03.520 Um, but he has some incredible, if you look at him on YouTube, put Paul 1721 02:00:03.520 --> 02:00:08.420 Scanlon in YouTube and even creativity, he's got so many online courses and all 1722 02:00:08.420 --> 02:00:13.320 this stuff, but he has so many sermons, so many incredible tools and stuff on 1723 02:00:13.320 --> 02:00:14.080 creativity. 1724 02:00:14.400 --> 02:00:18.800 I will try to find some of those and I'll link them in the kingdom creatives 1725 02:00:18.840 --> 02:00:23.440 guides of the raising royalty Facebook page, just cause he's, he's brilliant. 1726 02:00:23.840 --> 02:00:26.160 Um, I'll just put that. 1727 02:00:27.800 --> 02:00:29.000 Uh, yeah, I just put it there. 1728 02:00:29.000 --> 02:00:29.800 Paul Scanlon. 1729 02:00:29.800 --> 02:00:37.880 So you can, um, right now you can find him on YouTube, Instagram. 1730 02:00:39.120 --> 02:00:46.320 Also, he has a private, cause I say a personal platform, basically just look 1731 02:00:46.320 --> 02:00:46.680 them up. 1732 02:00:47.000 --> 02:00:48.240 Um, he also has a website. 1733 02:00:52.640 --> 02:00:54.720 I think it's Paul Scanlon.com. 1734 02:00:55.600 --> 02:00:59.160 So beautiful people, we have come to the two hour mark. 1735 02:00:59.960 --> 02:01:02.040 Thank you for giving your time and attention to this. 1736 02:01:02.040 --> 02:01:03.240 Thank you for joining us. 1737 02:01:03.240 --> 02:01:04.520 Thank you for being with us. 1738 02:01:04.680 --> 02:01:06.200 Be Xylan. 1739 02:01:06.400 --> 02:01:09.440 Thank you so much for everything that you've shared with us today. 1740 02:01:09.880 --> 02:01:11.480 Thank you for your time. 1741 02:01:11.480 --> 02:01:12.640 Thank you for your brilliance. 1742 02:01:12.640 --> 02:01:18.080 Thank you for your, um, just the way that you have shared so much from your lives 1743 02:01:18.080 --> 02:01:22.600 as being professional artists and the wisdom and the grace and the tools that 1744 02:01:22.600 --> 02:01:26.320 you've had and the things that you have, um, done in your life that have 1745 02:01:26.320 --> 02:01:28.080 actually borne a lot of fruit. 1746 02:01:28.080 --> 02:01:32.080 You two are very fruitful men that have so much to say in this space. 1747 02:01:32.080 --> 02:01:33.840 And I learned so much from you both. 1748 02:01:33.840 --> 02:01:34.640 So thank you. 1749 02:01:35.160 --> 02:01:39.200 And thank you, Fee, in the middle of you being so exhausted with a newborn baby. 1750 02:01:39.200 --> 02:01:44.200 Thank you for joining us and thank you Xylan for being up late. 1751 02:01:44.200 --> 02:01:45.640 It's so late for you. 1752 02:01:45.680 --> 02:01:46.760 Thank you so much. 1753 02:01:46.760 --> 02:01:48.400 I know it's like, you're so tired. 1754 02:01:48.440 --> 02:01:49.200 So much. 1755 02:01:49.200 --> 02:01:50.760 It's almost tomorrow where you are, right? 1756 02:01:50.760 --> 02:01:57.840 Yeah, I started another day, basically, um, yeah, Dana, thank you. 1757 02:01:57.840 --> 02:01:58.520 Thank you. 1758 02:01:58.560 --> 02:01:59.120 Thank you. 1759 02:01:59.120 --> 02:01:59.920 You're amazing. 1760 02:01:59.960 --> 02:02:01.080 Thank you, Diana. 1761 02:02:01.960 --> 02:02:05.520 Yeah, you actually, thank you for facilitating beautiful things. 1762 02:02:05.520 --> 02:02:06.000 Yeah. 1763 02:02:06.200 --> 02:02:06.720 Yeah. 1764 02:02:07.280 --> 02:02:07.600 Yeah. 1765 02:02:07.600 --> 02:02:11.920 You put it, everything together so well, such a joy. 1766 02:02:11.920 --> 02:02:13.160 I just love this. 1767 02:02:13.160 --> 02:02:19.160 I love, I love the, the, the, the, the, the, the, the, the, the, the, the, the, the, 1768 02:02:19.160 --> 02:02:21.280 the, the two people I'm sharing the joy with. 1769 02:02:21.480 --> 02:02:25.120 I love just doing life with people and creating conversation. 1770 02:02:26.200 --> 02:02:29.080 For people to be seen, and known, and heard and empowered and encouraged. 1771 02:02:29.880 --> 02:02:30.560 That's awesome. 1772 02:02:30.920 --> 02:02:31.280 Beautiful. 1773 02:02:31.280 --> 02:02:31.720 It's like my deepest place. 1774 02:02:31.720 --> 02:02:33.320 Thank you all for joining us. 1775 02:02:36.080 --> 02:02:36.920 Thank you. 1776 02:02:36.920 --> 02:02:38.360 Everyone. 1777 02:02:40.360 --> 02:02:42.800 Thank you everyone. 1778 02:02:42.840 --> 02:02:43.840 Thank you, Alexander. 1779 02:02:46.240 --> 02:02:46.400 Yes. 1780 02:02:46.400 --> 02:02:48.600 All you beautiful people. 1781 02:02:49.560 --> 02:02:52.280 So we're going to wave goodbye. 1782 02:02:52.920 --> 02:02:58.440 Um, have an amazing night, morning, afternoon, whatever it is for you. 1783 02:02:59.480 --> 02:03:01.800 Um, but yeah, thank you so much. 1784 02:03:03.200 --> 02:03:04.200 Thank you everyone. 1785 02:03:04.320 --> 02:03:05.200 God bless you. 1786 02:03:05.440 --> 02:03:05.840 Well, yeah. 1787 02:03:05.880 --> 02:03:07.160 God bless you guys. 1788 02:03:07.200 --> 02:03:08.640 Bye bye everyone. 1789 02:03:09.160 --> 02:03:09.920 God bless you. 1790 02:03:11.400 --> 02:03:12.800 Oh, we got from New Zealand. 1791 02:03:12.800 --> 02:03:13.640 Amazing. 1792 02:03:13.760 --> 02:03:15.160 Kyoto from New Zealand. 1793 02:03:15.200 --> 02:03:16.000 Love you all. 1794 02:03:17.000 --> 02:03:17.560 Beautiful. 1795 02:03:17.560 --> 02:03:18.760 Amazing people. 1796 02:03:19.200 --> 02:03:19.840 Bye. 1797 02:03:20.560 --> 02:03:20.760 Bye. 1798 02:03:20.760 --> 02:03:20.960 Bye. 1799 02:03:20.960 --> 02:03:21.160 Bye. 1800 02:03:21.160 --> 02:03:21.400 Bye. 1801 02:03:22.400 --> 02:03:23.360 Bye. 1802 02:03:23.840 --> 02:03:24.160 Bye. 1803 02:03:24.160 --> 02:03:24.320 Bye. 1804 02:03:24.320 --> 02:03:29.400 So we will be doing, we will be doing this stuff, uh, twice a month, Diana. 1805 02:03:29.800 --> 02:03:30.120 Right. 1806 02:03:30.640 --> 02:03:31.960 Are we doing it twice a month now? 1807 02:03:32.000 --> 02:03:32.640 Okay. 1808 02:03:33.120 --> 02:03:34.640 Not just once in a month, right? 1809 02:03:34.960 --> 02:03:35.120 Yeah. 1810 02:03:35.120 --> 02:03:35.760 Once a month. 1811 02:03:37.800 --> 02:03:38.120 Okay. 1812 02:03:38.120 --> 02:03:39.000 Are we doing it twice? 1813 02:03:40.200 --> 02:03:41.640 You're being creative now. 1814 02:03:41.640 --> 02:03:42.640 You're being creative. 1815 02:03:43.520 --> 02:03:45.320 I'm like, we can do it twice a month. 1816 02:03:45.360 --> 02:03:45.680 Yeah. 1817 02:03:46.640 --> 02:03:53.760 Um, but yeah, um, be and silent and me will be praying and dialoguing and just 1818 02:03:53.760 --> 02:03:59.640 going, Holy spirit, what's the next thing that we can, um, dialogue in this space 1819 02:03:59.680 --> 02:04:05.800 and how we can serve you and how we can help, um, yeah, we will be posting this 1820 02:04:05.800 --> 02:04:07.880 video on, on our page, right? 1821 02:04:08.400 --> 02:04:08.840 Yes. 1822 02:04:09.880 --> 02:04:10.200 Yes. 1823 02:04:10.200 --> 02:04:12.360 That, that was in the email to everyone too. 1824 02:04:12.360 --> 02:04:17.920 So, um, I put the link to the Facebook group of the, the kingdom guides. 1825 02:04:17.920 --> 02:04:19.160 So to go, it'll go right there. 1826 02:04:19.160 --> 02:04:25.040 So it'll take a little bit of time for this to download to my laptop to Facebook 1827 02:04:25.520 --> 02:04:26.880 and we'll be all good. 1828 02:04:27.400 --> 02:04:29.080 So awesome. 1829 02:04:29.280 --> 02:04:29.480 Yeah. 1830 02:04:29.480 --> 02:04:30.120 Very nice. 1831 02:04:30.560 --> 02:04:31.280 So fun. 1832 02:04:31.720 --> 02:04:32.440 So fun. 1833 02:04:32.440 --> 02:04:32.760 So 1834 02:04:39.600 --> 02:04:41.400 wish they could just give you all a big hug. 1835 02:04:42.360 --> 02:04:48.560 Oh, yeah. 1836 02:04:48.680 --> 02:04:49.360 Love you all. 1837 02:04:49.360 --> 02:04:50.920 And I love you guys. 1838 02:04:50.960 --> 02:04:51.520 Take care. 1839 02:04:52.480 --> 02:04:52.840 Okay. 1840 02:04:52.840 --> 02:04:53.200 Bye. 1841 02:04:53.480 --> 02:04:53.720 Bye.