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So, I haven't been able to watch everyone's videos, but I've watched most of your videos,

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I believe, and it's been really interesting to hear you guys process.

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I appreciate you taking the time to do that.

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I know that it requires a level of vulnerability, but I'm even learning in my own process with

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the Lord that vulnerability is a gateway to acceleration and transformation.

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So, I just appreciate you guys jumping on and doing that.

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And I'm going, I'm committing to watching, I want to watch all your videos.

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It's not homework for me to watch your videos because I've been enjoying hearing where you

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guys are.

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And I know Amy specifically said that their who hasn't changed, but their why has changed

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or it's developed over time.

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We're at a conference right now with a bunch of key entrepreneurs and the theme is for

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such a time as this.

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And I'm reminded again of how seriously the Lord takes timing and seasons.

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It's not, we know nothing's coincidence, but I think sometimes we don't realize the

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season that we're in.

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And so, things like the prophetic and community and things like that help us create a deeper

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awareness of like, oh, this is my season and this is now.

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So, we are going to process a little bit the process today.

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We're going to talk more about the why and we're going to talk about the what as well.

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Okay.

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So, we have the why, but what, and not just, you know, because there's a lot of good ideas,

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but what does the Lord have for me now in partnering with bringing this breakthrough

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to my who?

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And that's what we're going to be processing the rest of the week as well.

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So, okay.

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I don't want to jump into it until we're streaming in case people are joining on Facebook and

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they're unable to join us on Zoom, but let me hear some shares a little bit.

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If you guys don't mind, because I feel like what I, from the videos that I did watch,

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there was like some surprises like, oh, this wasn't, you know, I thought I was clear on

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this.

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And then the Lord brought deeper clarity.

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And I just want to hear about like, what was it like?

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Did you have to go layers with the Lord of like, but why, but why, but why?

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What was that conversation like?

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Can anyone share, willing to share?

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Hey, Amy, I see you.

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You know, I'm always willing to share.

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For me, I mean, I think I asked the question up front, I was like, okay, we're going seven

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level, you know, and, but there was already so much going on that, honestly, I saw those

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levels in retrospect, really unfold over a week's time.

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And so, which was a surprise for me to, like, not have to, like, gear through it, you know,

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like, but why, but why?

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I feel like he just kind of like, went down and, you know, and this is really the, probably

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the coolest thing for me is, I honestly feel like I fully stepped in to my identity, embrace

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my identity for the first time.

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I mean, like, in like, God had given me a name for myself.

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Like, I was like, how, how do you know me in heaven?

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Like, what, what is my seat next to you, Jesus say?

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And I don't know if I've shared this in this group, but he's, and immediately, it just

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came and it was beloved daughter of God, whose heart and mind are at rest, let her rejoice

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in who I am.

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And I know that's how I'm known in heaven.

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And so, this is just really cool, because I've referenced a period of time 26 years

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ago where the Lord was giving me prophetic dreams and visions.

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There was a lot going on in, in our lives and in our family.

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And he was aligning us and, you know, so much has unfolded since then.

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But I know that he was prophesying for now.

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And he gave me a dream and I've gotten layers of meaning, well, it was a dream and a vision,

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both and in the night and my spirit understood it.

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That's all I need to say when I try to describe this dream.

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But what I saw, I had a nightmare and I, I was panicked in the nightmare at what was

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going on.

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It was something I was having to stand by and watch and I could do nothing about.

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And I woke up.

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Until then, as I was going back to sleep.

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I saw a vision and I saw this like a stone wheel and it was, it was spinning like counterclockwise

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and it was coming into the field of, you know, it was like right there in front of me.

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And I panicked in the same way I had when I was powerless to do anything about what

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was, you know, what the dream was about.

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And then from behind, I saw another wheel and it came and it bypassed the first one.

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It was spinning in the opposite direction.

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And my, I said this because I understood it, Lord, you were there all along.

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And then he spoke to me, maybe the clearest I've ever heard him speak, he said, your rest

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has now begun.

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And I think I've, I've mentioned this and he said, I'm going to lead you there through

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your husband.

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Cause I had a lot to learn about God's order and, you know, getting underneath that.

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And my husband speaks that over me all the time.

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He was like, you know, he, it's, it's important to him that I walk in rest.

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And I feel like I stepped into that anointing last week.

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I mean, like the Lord just brought me there and he, when he took me back, it was like

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these fears that were deep seated.

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I didn't even know where they were coming from, but anyway, he marked it with a heart.

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Like each little scar coming up from the time I was three up until way into my adult life.

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And I think it's, there is a little three-year-old in a lot of people that share the same underlying

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fears that I did.

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And I love them.

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I love my, I love my who, but I understand my why.

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I mean, I understand in my spirit.

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And I could see my father there all along as he took me back and held my hand.

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It was a lot.

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It was a lot.

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That's huge.

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Breakthrough.

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I'm so glad.

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Thank you, Amy, for sharing.

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Cause I did, I did video and I can sense this is guys, this is what I want to talk about

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today.

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And we'll be talking about every single week that we get together.

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It's the external territory and the internal territory.

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Okay.

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So when we seek out what breakthrough do we want to bring to our who we are going to experience

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deeper breakthrough within our own identities and relationship with the Lord, like inevitably

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there's no, you can't outgive the Lord, right?

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So when you take the time and create the space to seek the Lord on behalf of your, who wait

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on the Lord on behalf of your, who, I mean, anyone, not just your specific family members,

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there is always a deposit for you in that space from the Lord.

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There's always a gift revelation, deeper awareness, deeper experience, deeper understanding, deeper

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encounter.

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What often happens with ministers of the gospel is we're not, we become so focused on the

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output that there's a, we press pause on the internal and we no longer, it's all about

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the output.

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We no longer come with that expectation that there's also going to be an internal deposit.

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And we go beyond ourselves or not aware there's a lot of burnout.

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There's a lot of frustration.

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There's a lot of forgetting why I'm doing what I'm doing.

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And it becomes about the production, the process or the production, the performance.

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And it's no longer about who we're becoming in him, the internal territory we're taking

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as sons, as daughters of God.

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And it just comes all about the other.

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And that's off balance.

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That's off balance.

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So I really appreciate you for sharing that, Amy.

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We're experiencing that in our own lives.

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Like no surprise, right?

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Like even this week, the Lord's been depositing some things in me, some awareness.

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Now here's what's interesting.

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Sometimes you get, you come to a level of awareness and it just, you're already changed

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because of it.

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And you're like, oh, that's, I'm aware now that that's what I'm dealing with.

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And it's like, you do step into it and then sometimes you become aware and you have to

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say yes to a process, process of healing or being set free.

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There's no formula for like which one you're in.

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It's just kind of, you know, there's, I don't know if you guys have experienced this, maybe

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some of you have like, yeah, there's been times where I just kind of dealt this instant

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like weight release because I just became aware of like, oh, that's what I'm dealing

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with.

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And then other times you're like, oh, this is what the Lord's doing.

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I have to step into this process.

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I have to like walk through this journey of healing.

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playing wholeness, deeper discovery and joint that I feel

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like I'm in a little bit of both right now. And I'm sharing this

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just because in case anyone else's I feel like it's my

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commitment to you is I want to share more of my process not

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because I'm like, what, this is the Lindsay show. But if you see

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some of yourself in the story, because I'm walking with this

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route, I'm asking the Lord why my why I don't know if any of

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you guys had this when you were talking with the Lord. I wanted

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to talk about the why, but there was so much external noise

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happening. That it was like I couldn't like it wasn't about

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the why I'm doing posture, the why I'm doing kingdom messengers

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it was like, Lord, why am I so tired? Right now? Why am I

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having a hard time focusing? Why is this not fun? I feel like

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this should be more fun than it is. And that's okay. I want I'm

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sharing that because I want to give you guys permission to have

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those conversations too. Sometimes we, you know, it's

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like we get we're given homework. And we're like, well,

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this is what Lindsay said we have to do. And we bypass a lot

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of like, what we're actually needing to dig through with the

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Lord to just get to the Okay, well, I need to find out the

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why. So I had to walk through that too with the Lord this

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week. And I realized that I am I'm dealing with a fear of man

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still, which is painful to admit, because there's been so

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much freedom from that. But there's a deeper level. And

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again, going back to timing and seasons with the Lord. I think

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in his kindness, he paces us and are in his revealing for

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healing. And if he had brought some of this stuff up, like,

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let's say four years ago, I think it would have crushed me.

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Again, his his yoke is easy, and his burden is light, he's not

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going to accelerate in or in a way that breaks my neck, because

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we're connected, right? So he he exercises patience, and self

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control, and gentleness and kindness so that he can bring

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all of this is true for all of you at a pace that you can

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handle. And it's not a comparison, like, oh, they're

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going faster than me, because we do that too. Oh, it only took

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you six months to heal and discover breakthrough. It's been

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six years for me. Or I've been living like this for 70 years.

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And we start to bring shame and condemnation on ourselves. But

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it's not about that. It's about what's happening between you and

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the Lord. And there's some things that you're going to

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accelerate in that others are going to take a longer process

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and vice versa. So I was having to deal with that feeling of

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shame. Like I can't believe I'm still terrified of people in

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many ways. Because like, I'm the I'm the peace girl. I wear that

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banner publicly, right? People come to me and talk to me about

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the testimonies of my testimony brought to them. Is this even

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real? Is this authentic? Of course it is. Because I'm not

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even the same person I was four years ago. But I'm there's

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deeper levels to this, there's more territory to take. And when

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the Holy Spirit reveals it in his timing, the only acceptable

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posture for me to take is to receive what he has for me. And

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so I was I'm dealing with this. And so I'm at a conference that

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I that I I love being at because this is like, it would be like

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being in room with you guys. These are my people. But it was

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like a terrifying thought. Because I thought this is going

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to be a little bit exhausting to like, connect with so many

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people and retired physically, because we've traveled all this

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stuff. And I had a mentor recently in love. I don't know

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if I've shared this year, in love, just point out. Sometimes

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you come across as aloof. And I had to literally look up the

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word. Like, I'm like, wait, I think I know what that means.

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And that's like cold and unfriendly. I'm like, Oh, my

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gosh, like it is someone I trust, right? Like they were

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they weren't it wasn't an accusation. So I needed to be

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teachable and just weigh the word with the Lord. And I went

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to the Lord with it. And like I, it resonates not from a place

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of shame or condemnation. But I can see where they're coming

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from. And they're pointing this out. Why is that? And Laura

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said, you're terrified. You show up in the room with people. And

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you feel overstimulated. You feel burdened. You feel like

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emotionally responsible for everyone in the room. You feel

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like you have to put on the show for people to feel

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accepted by you. Meanwhile, you're just trying to be

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accepted by them. It's exhausting. Because you walk in

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the room and you're strategizing. And so I wanted to

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process with the Lord because like part of that shifted me

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already, right? Like I'm already changed. Like, okay, there's

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some things like when I need to be aware, my body language, my

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facial expressions, you know, like, I just need to I need to

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be aware that sometimes I come across as a loop. And that can I

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can change that. But obviously, there's a deeper root there,

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right? I hope it is okay. I'm sharing this with you. Okay, so

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I said, because several people even so the these people we were

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in the room with in March, and I was hosting the event.

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So I was on stage and the comment was made at one point like, oh, I'm an introvert,

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which is not a bad thing. But people came up to me afterwards.

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You're kind of proud of being an introvert.

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I love being an introvert. I love being an introvert. But people were like, oh my gosh,

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like, I never knew you were an introvert. It was just made a comparison because our mentor,

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who's here, is like straight extrovert. We're like complete opposite. So it was like a fun

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thing. So people came up and like, I can't believe you're an introvert. I would have never guessed.

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You do all these things on social media. You lead things. You're on stage.

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And, you know, I kind of carry like, oh, you know, thank you so much. But I,

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I've struggled with that a little bit because, you know, the authenticity thing, like,

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it's hard. Like, you know, people are like, oh, it seems so easy for you. And I'm honest with

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people. I'm like, yeah, well, it's something I've been practicing, which is true. It's a creative

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rep. All the things I share with you guys, right? It's a creative rep I built. But I said, Lord,

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I need, I need some articulation. I need some understanding because it's starting to feel

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draining again. Like, I feel like I'm back to a place where I'm like, I'm struggling. I'm tired.

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This is not life-giving anymore. They said, Lindsay, you have a high pain threshold.

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So for a long time, because this has been something that I've carried like way back

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when, when I was like preaching on Sundays, Bruce can attest, like there would be Sunday,

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like I would be, um, you know, asked to preach Sunday, amazing opportunity, but like, I'd be

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sick the morning of, cause I'm just like nervous. Right. Like you just have to, but I would still

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do it. It's like you high pain threshold, but you were, you were operating out of fear. Yeah.

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Your why was fear-based. I'm afraid I'm going to miss out. I'm afraid I'm going to disappoint the

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Lord. I'm afraid I'm going to disappoint the leaders I love so much that have given me this

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opportunity. You know, I'm afraid, I'm afraid, I'm afraid. So my why was based in fear. There was a

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leveling up. There was some breakthrough. My why became, became faith-based. I do this because I

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can, I know I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. It might not be easy, but it

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is rewarding. And I operated out of faith. I faith so much in, and there was, there was a level of

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breakthrough because faith is a kingdom principle, right? So like there is this level of, I can live

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by faith. I don't always have to feel it. I don't always have to, you know, think that this is, you

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know, but I can give myself to, I can powerfully choose that I can do all things, but it's exhausting.

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It's exhausting to faith everything in there's results. You can do it, but is there a better way?

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Is there a better way than living by faith? And Lord revealed to me specifically this week,

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there is a better way. There's a higher level. And he said, Lindsay, now you're going to learn

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how to do this by love. You're going to learn to be fueled, not by your love for me,

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not by your love for other people or your who you're going to be fueled by my love for you.

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You're going to come to an understanding and a belief that I am so unconditionally delighted in

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you. And that is good. That's what's going to fuel you. And what has been hard, what has been

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exhausting, what has been draining is going to become life for you because it will be done through

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me and by me. So if you're feeling, if you've been feeling the pull either way, like I believe in my

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why, this is a beautiful thing. It feels very impactful. It feels very big. It feels like

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something the Lord wants me to do, but maybe you felt this resistance of man, I'm, but I'm, I'm,

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I'm afraid because there's been, maybe there's been this little pull of, if I can't pull this

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off, I'm going to disappoint the Lord, or I'm going to disappoint my mentor, or I'm going to

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disappoint myself, or I'm going to miss out. I'm going to miss my destiny. If I don't take action

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today, like whatever that is. Right. Or maybe you've gotten to a level where you're like,

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I can do this. I can do this, but it, but you're facing it then. Right. Cause there's still this

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dynamic of, I know I can do all things, but it's, it's hard and it's exhausting. Right.

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I believe there's an even better way. And I think it's the realm of the kingdom. Right.

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So I think the fear is kind of that natural realm. And maybe you guys have really high

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pain thresholds and you've been able to push through and that's, that's honorable. It really

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is because it's because so many people don't even do that. They just quit. They just stay afraid.

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They stay in, they stay paralyzed. And then maybe you've gotten to a place, which I think is that

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so it's our soul realms, like the medic metaphysical that we kind of, it's the, all

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the principles, it's the beautiful principles, right? Like heavenly principles, living by faith

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and sowing and reaping and all those things, but it's exhausting because it's.

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still sourced by, there's a layer that we can twist if we're not aware of earning, proving,

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performing. I don't think Jesus lived by faith. I think he lived by love.

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I think faith is part of the process. I'm not saying, I'm not being a heretic,

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but when I look back through the life of Jesus and the things he, I mean his intimacy with the

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father, that wasn't faith-based. It was love-based. And you look back and you look at Jesus'

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commissioning when he was baptized and the father, the dove, the Holy Spirit descends on him and the

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father says with a loud voice, this is my son in whom I'm well pleased. That's love.

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you know, results-based in this world.

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So that's where we're at. As we discover our why, that's the posture I would love for us to take

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and to practice. It is a practice. So like, I'm, I know that I'm stepping into a process.

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Like I, I feel changed. Like there's a repentance in me. I don't feel like I'm

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changed. Like there's a repentance in me, a change of mind. I'm walking in this direction,

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but it's also a process, like a practice of learning to live and operate in life.

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There's levels as well.

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Like, it just, it, Lord's going to continue to expand, right? Because the kingdom was always

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expanding. And so it's like, it's like even the context of, you know, you at a small kind of

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local church versus like conference versus like different things, like Lord's like

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upgrading your own thinking.

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Yeah. So this is, this is why it's important because as we continue to step out and take

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more territory externally, like there's a becoming that happens. And the Lord,

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I think sometimes we teach like the Lord's never going to give you more than you can handle,

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right? I get, I, I get that. And I, again, I, I agree to it for an extent, but what that doesn't

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mean is that you're not going to have opportunities at times that are bigger than where you are

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today and your understanding and your revelation. So I think we've all stepped into something

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bigger that feels bigger than us. But again, remember our starting place is fullness.

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So we're already there. We're already seated in heavenly places. There's a fullness, right?

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But there's a, a growth that happens in our impact and our influence. And I'm not just

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talking about numbers. I'm talking about in the spiritual realm, like a science, I think

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like in unlocking creation from frustration that we step into as we become, as we become

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more aware, discover more. And so like, for me in many ways, the things that used to

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terrify me as far as like, you know, like, okay, so guys, this is really interesting. And I,

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I probably shouldn't share this with you because I, it's like, it kind of negates like what we,

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well, it doesn't, it doesn't. So you guys know my journey, daily hustle content, daily long form

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content for like a year, right? So seeds were sown. So that's like the disclaimer of what I'm

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about to share with you. So for the last eight weeks, you obviously have been posting daily,

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even more than that, like our shorts and stuff. And then we had a situation where the person

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that was posting for me posted something that was not theologically correct.

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To be fair, because we love this person.

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They still work for us. And it's not to merit. It's the guy that I, it's the guy that you guys

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already know he is. And he's awesome. And he loves Jesus and everything. So sound, so mature.

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And honestly, like when we pointed it out, he was like, I can't even believe I like posted that.

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You want to say what it was? It was public. So he basically posted something with the title that's

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Jesus is a good father. I was talking about father God. And he, he was trying to SEO search

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and was like, Oh, we need to have the word Jesus as the first word. And he's like, I didn't even

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like, think about it. He's like, I posted it too quickly. And anyway, okay, so it happened.

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I caught it. I was not impressed. Okay, it was, you were, I wouldn't say not impressed as a little

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bit of a doubt. I was Lindsay was not happy. I was not happy. Now part of it is there was,

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there was some fear I was, because it guys, it takes a lot, you guys know this, it takes a lot

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to show up online. And when you are entrusting your branding and your message to someone,

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and I do trust him, obviously like this is one incident out of like the last year of him working,

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but I was afraid. Cause I'm like, if somebody, if the wrong,

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One person sees this, it wasn't even rational guys.

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Like, what are they going to shut me down?

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But it was just enough to be like, I can't even believe.

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And so it's what we had to do was we realized, okay, we have

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outstepped our process a little bit.

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We've got to reel it in because we're, we're pushing too hard.

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If something like this is happening, right.

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So it's fine when there's a mistake made it, you need to reevaluate.

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That's all it is.

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It's just a, it's a kindness of the Lord in many ways to be like, Hey,

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let's come up with some new processes.

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So, because of that, we have stopped posting daily because we're trying to

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figure out what, what can we do to make sure that there are some checks in the

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system where I can be a little bit more involved and before things go public.

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Because we had gotten, we were in a temporary process of me, of me, not

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really seeing what was going out because yeah, but just, just for the sake of

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like, when we will probably talk more about this later, but like, obviously

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once you're the channel grows to a certain size, like it's not possible

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for Lindsay to be watching every single thing that goes out.

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Um, like we have to start trusting team.

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Like even when Mara sends out stuff for other things, like if we don't trust

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our team, like, and we do, that's why we do check, but we're trying to

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figure out like, how do we fix that?

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So there's probably a bigger thing there.

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There is a bigger thing.

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There's bigger conversation.

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We're going to be sharing kind of our discussion.

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We're still pinpointing some things.

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Cause it's like, but I just want to take away the myth that like, Oh my gosh,

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you have someone posting for you.

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That's amazing.

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It's, it's just like a different set of problems.

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It's not like all your problems go away.

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It's a new process.

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So you have to kind of, you have to build around it.

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So anyway, so the process, the process for Lindsay had a mini meltdown about it.

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Came to terms with a little bit sphere based.

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We're learning how to live in love.

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There's a lot going on.

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Here's what's interesting.

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Stopped posting consistently, which I'm a big believer in what has

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happened to my Instagram channel.

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And I forget it's it's grown guys.

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Like 50%.

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It's 25,000 people, new people, 25,000 new people in the last two weeks.

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I'm not posting.

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We haven't even posted what is happening.

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And so that should be exciting.

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And it is, but I realized like the Lord's like lens, I can grow this

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thing whenever you want, whenever I want.

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But in my kindness, I'm pacing it at your pace.

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And that's not something to be ashamed of.

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I just want you to be aware that this is a partnership.

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This is not all on your shoulders.

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This is mine and you're mine.

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And what he's revealing to me specifically is like, you have, like

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we, you have your safety, your sense of safety, because that's part of it too.

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I did not feel safe.

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When that mistake happened, I'm like, I am vulnerable to the

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elements on the, on the internet.

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People are going to call me a heretic, all the things, right.

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People are going to call me a heretic anyway, because I don't

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always believe what I say, but the Lord said, I am your safe place.

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And I know that you know that, but you need to start believing it.

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So that's the journey I'm on.

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And so I'm sharing that because you might have gone with one

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question of why, and you might have come out with answers to questions.

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You didn't even know you had in your heart.

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Is this resonating with anyone?

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Yeah.

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That's good.

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And we found as well, just like as well, like about the difference between the

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more, the more we've invested in ourselves, in our own ministry business.

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And, um, and the, the kind of the next kind of master's mind or, or anything

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that you join, that's like a program or some sort of coaching, the more kind

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of the higher up we've gone in those things, the less tactical it is.

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Like this mindset stuff is literally all we're talking like that gets talked

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about the more, the bigger, the group that you join or the more expensive it

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is, it's because this is the stuff that actually holds you back.

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It's what you think about yourself.

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It's what you think about the Lord.

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It's what you think about your identity.

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It's that it comes back to those core things.

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And, um, that's why we know, like figuring out the execution, figuring

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out the technical stuff, figuring out all this stuff that's just like, it's

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kind of a known unknown, if that makes sense, like we know there's quick

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problems, but what Amy can do or Sydney or Marianne, like these are specific.

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Like that what's going to unlock you guys to go to like, to scale beyond

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is just how you're thinking about your own ministry, what you, what you think

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about how the Lord has called you to do, and you actually believing it

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and changing from these mindset shifts.

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And so that's what we're excited about in this next couple of months

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together is we really want to focus on that mindset stuff more than anything.

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Cause there's the width.

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And so this is about the depth.

437
00:30:04.320 --> 00:30:08.000
And so, and it's, again, it's happening in you.

438
00:30:08.000 --> 00:30:10.320
It's also gonna happen with you and your who.

439
00:30:10.320 --> 00:30:12.160
So something I wanna kind of just,

440
00:30:12.160 --> 00:30:13.240
I wanna talk about today

441
00:30:13.240 --> 00:30:15.080
and I wanna hear some feedback on,

442
00:30:15.080 --> 00:30:16.960
and it's okay if you don't,

443
00:30:16.960 --> 00:30:19.120
it's okay if you don't have the perfect answer.

444
00:30:19.120 --> 00:30:20.640
I just wanna hear what you're processing.

445
00:30:20.640 --> 00:30:21.760
Yeah, let's do some discussion.

446
00:30:21.760 --> 00:30:22.880
I wanna do discussion,

447
00:30:22.880 --> 00:30:25.040
because it can't be me just talking at you

448
00:30:25.040 --> 00:30:26.240
the whole time, right?

449
00:30:26.280 --> 00:30:29.080
So as we've talked about our why

450
00:30:29.080 --> 00:30:32.360
and the breakthrough we wanna bring to our who,

451
00:30:32.360 --> 00:30:35.920
there's another question once we kind of land with that

452
00:30:35.920 --> 00:30:37.760
or begin to land with that is,

453
00:30:37.760 --> 00:30:39.600
is what I'm doing on social media

454
00:30:39.600 --> 00:30:43.800
and through my channels bringing that breakthrough?

455
00:30:46.840 --> 00:30:48.520
Is what I'm currently doing

456
00:30:49.400 --> 00:30:51.760
bringing the breakthrough that I wanna bring?

457
00:30:51.760 --> 00:30:55.560
Is it supporting, is my why being supported

458
00:30:55.960 --> 00:30:57.760
with what I'm doing on social media?

459
00:30:57.760 --> 00:31:02.440
Now, for all of us, I don't wanna answer for you,

460
00:31:02.440 --> 00:31:04.960
but I wanna answer for you as like, yes,

461
00:31:05.920 --> 00:31:07.760
what you do on social media

462
00:31:07.760 --> 00:31:10.440
can bring elements of that breakthrough.

463
00:31:11.720 --> 00:31:15.960
If it's not, it could be because maybe what you started out,

464
00:31:15.960 --> 00:31:17.560
it might be a messaging issue, right?

465
00:31:17.560 --> 00:31:19.000
And you're like, I don't feel like it is

466
00:31:19.000 --> 00:31:21.320
because the why that I kind of discovered this week

467
00:31:21.320 --> 00:31:23.800
or the who has changed, that's fine.

468
00:31:23.840 --> 00:31:26.800
What I'm talking about is you showing up in people's screens

469
00:31:26.800 --> 00:31:29.560
is that going to help bring the breakthrough

470
00:31:29.560 --> 00:31:30.600
that you wanna bring?

471
00:31:30.600 --> 00:31:32.800
And if you disagree, like, let me know.

472
00:31:32.800 --> 00:31:34.840
Like, I don't think this is helping at all.

473
00:31:34.840 --> 00:31:36.560
I don't think this will ever help.

474
00:31:37.800 --> 00:31:39.200
I believe there's an element

475
00:31:40.120 --> 00:31:43.040
that yes, this is bringing the breakthrough.

476
00:31:43.040 --> 00:31:47.520
However, is it allowing us to disciple people

477
00:31:47.520 --> 00:31:48.520
in the breakthrough?

478
00:31:49.520 --> 00:31:54.520
Because as we advance wide scale, right?

479
00:31:54.880 --> 00:31:58.080
Growing our tribe, there's now a level of depth.

480
00:31:58.080 --> 00:32:00.040
Not everyone's gonna come with us, right?

481
00:32:00.040 --> 00:32:02.120
So people use this example all the time, right?

482
00:32:02.120 --> 00:32:04.120
Jesus had the crowds, then he had the 70,

483
00:32:04.120 --> 00:32:06.760
then he had the 12, then he had the three.

484
00:32:06.760 --> 00:32:08.400
And I do believe it's like similar.

485
00:32:08.400 --> 00:32:10.800
Why would it be different for us than it was for Jesus

486
00:32:10.800 --> 00:32:13.560
as it comes to his community, who he's pouring into, right?

487
00:32:13.560 --> 00:32:15.640
So there's, it's okay.

488
00:32:15.920 --> 00:32:17.200
It's okay.

489
00:32:17.200 --> 00:32:21.280
Like the 70,000 on Instagram have not come

490
00:32:21.280 --> 00:32:23.800
into the Kingdom Messenger community.

491
00:32:23.800 --> 00:32:26.480
And the 1,500 in the Kingdom Messenger community

492
00:32:26.480 --> 00:32:28.200
have not come into the membership.

493
00:32:29.440 --> 00:32:30.920
And oh, have you guys noticed

494
00:32:30.920 --> 00:32:32.760
that after the 12 month membership,

495
00:32:32.760 --> 00:32:34.400
not everyone came with us to advancement?

496
00:32:34.400 --> 00:32:35.400
Right.

497
00:32:35.400 --> 00:32:36.240
That's okay.

498
00:32:38.360 --> 00:32:40.120
It's not that they were wrong.

499
00:32:40.120 --> 00:32:40.960
They were wrong.

500
00:32:43.200 --> 00:32:44.040
Right?

501
00:32:44.040 --> 00:32:46.600
So it's because we gave everyone the, we hope,

502
00:32:46.600 --> 00:32:48.800
we gave everyone the dignity and the permission

503
00:32:48.800 --> 00:32:50.200
to make a choice for themselves, right?

504
00:32:50.200 --> 00:32:52.520
We don't wanna make that choice for them.

505
00:32:52.520 --> 00:32:56.640
But you can see, even within our own,

506
00:32:56.640 --> 00:32:59.040
we brought it in, we brought it in, we brought it in

507
00:32:59.040 --> 00:33:01.080
so that there can be deeper and deeper levels

508
00:33:01.080 --> 00:33:03.720
of discipleship connection.

509
00:33:03.720 --> 00:33:04.920
The things that I'm sharing with you,

510
00:33:04.920 --> 00:33:07.600
I'm not getting up and sharing with 70,000.

511
00:33:07.600 --> 00:33:09.160
That's wisdom.

512
00:33:09.160 --> 00:33:13.600
Also, they haven't asked for that,

513
00:33:13.600 --> 00:33:15.880
nor invested to have that, right?

514
00:33:17.080 --> 00:33:20.000
So let's not, and I'm gonna say this obviously with grace,

515
00:33:20.000 --> 00:33:22.280
let's not cast our pearls before swine.

516
00:33:22.280 --> 00:33:24.560
This is where a lot of people can get mixed up

517
00:33:24.560 --> 00:33:25.400
because they go out there

518
00:33:25.400 --> 00:33:30.360
and they share the depths of their soul on Facebook.

519
00:33:30.360 --> 00:33:32.600
And then three people like it and no one comments

520
00:33:32.600 --> 00:33:34.200
and it crushes them.

521
00:33:35.200 --> 00:33:39.000
And it was like, hey, that wasn't for the masses.

522
00:33:39.000 --> 00:33:42.480
That treasure within you wasn't for the masses.

523
00:33:43.760 --> 00:33:46.120
So all of you, there is something,

524
00:33:46.120 --> 00:33:48.480
I believe, deeper than just the channels.

525
00:33:48.480 --> 00:33:51.440
Again, the channels are the net, it helps us gather.

526
00:33:51.440 --> 00:33:53.680
I have been caught in people's net,

527
00:33:53.680 --> 00:33:56.920
like Pedro, my mentor, we're here now.

528
00:33:56.920 --> 00:33:59.440
I'm so grateful because Facebook ads, right?

529
00:33:59.440 --> 00:34:03.320
But there's deeper levels, he didn't just stop there.

530
00:34:03.800 --> 00:34:05.840
And so what I wanna kind of talk about today

531
00:34:05.840 --> 00:34:10.480
is are any of you sensing there's deeper levels

532
00:34:10.480 --> 00:34:12.000
to you serving your who,

533
00:34:12.000 --> 00:34:14.360
beyond just getting up and doing short-form content

534
00:34:14.360 --> 00:34:17.360
or even long-form podcast content on social media?

535
00:34:19.080 --> 00:34:20.320
You guys can unmute yourself.

536
00:34:20.320 --> 00:34:21.880
Feedback, questions, anything?

537
00:34:26.199 --> 00:34:27.560
Is this helping?

538
00:34:27.560 --> 00:34:28.719
Answer?

539
00:34:28.719 --> 00:34:29.920
Yeah.

540
00:34:29.960 --> 00:34:30.800
Okay.

541
00:34:30.800 --> 00:34:33.920
So for me, that's a question

542
00:34:33.920 --> 00:34:36.320
I've been talking to the Lord about.

543
00:34:36.320 --> 00:34:39.000
I know right now I'm kind of broad,

544
00:34:39.000 --> 00:34:41.320
just delivering God-mail messages.

545
00:34:41.320 --> 00:34:45.520
So it's kind of broad, kind of hitting lots of people,

546
00:34:45.520 --> 00:34:50.080
but I'm like, okay, Lord, how do I go in deeper?

547
00:34:50.080 --> 00:34:51.159
You know what I mean?

548
00:34:52.239 --> 00:34:55.920
Because we all have testimonies,

549
00:34:55.920 --> 00:34:58.760
as you've mentioned before, Lindsay,

550
00:34:58.760 --> 00:35:00.040
and this freedom.

551
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:06.920
that that can happen. And I believe the Lord is going to specifically drill me down, you

552
00:35:06.920 --> 00:35:14.240
know, to women and I'm trying, I'm trying to sit with him to know like the age range

553
00:35:14.240 --> 00:35:20.600
and the different things so I can know how to connect. But to share my testimony, and

554
00:35:20.600 --> 00:35:28.040
to not only share my testimony, but show them how I became free, and how you can stay free,

555
00:35:28.040 --> 00:35:32.960
you know, so this is so good that you're talking about this, Lindsay, because it's something

556
00:35:32.960 --> 00:35:37.960
that it's been in my heart. Like I like I said, I know that I'm delivering God now but

557
00:35:37.960 --> 00:35:43.920
I'm like, Okay, Lord, I think you're about to drill this down deeper. And how can I partner

558
00:35:43.920 --> 00:35:49.680
with you? And I'm glad that you talked about, you know, just sharing your heart and sharing

559
00:35:49.680 --> 00:35:54.400
your you know, your soul, you know, like everything that's within you, you know, because y'all

560
00:35:54.400 --> 00:35:59.920
kind of know me a little bit, I could be like an open book, right. And so it's like

561
00:35:59.920 --> 00:36:06.720
just having that wisdom of knowing, you know, how much is too much. And, and this is just

562
00:36:06.720 --> 00:36:14.280
for my those core women that the Lord is going to assign to me to help them, you know, to

563
00:36:14.280 --> 00:36:21.560
receive breakthrough in love and knowing what love truly means, etc, and how to stay free.

564
00:36:21.560 --> 00:36:27.880
So I'm on a process of asking the Lord, that's where I am currently, because right now I'm

565
00:36:27.880 --> 00:36:33.280
like, I know I'm broad with the God male. But God, I think you're about to zone it in

566
00:36:33.280 --> 00:36:40.000
because you have some women on your on your heart that you want to, to make free. So thank

567
00:36:40.000 --> 00:36:45.520
you for this conversation. Okay, I'm going to ask you a follow up question. Yes. What

568
00:36:45.520 --> 00:36:51.720
would you want it to look like?

569
00:36:51.720 --> 00:37:00.960
I would want it to look like a community where women can come look, they literally come in

570
00:37:00.960 --> 00:37:08.760
one way. And they leave, well, I don't necessarily want to say leave a different way. But when

571
00:37:08.760 --> 00:37:16.520
they joined the community, it's like they are, they turn into a butterfly. Like, you

572
00:37:16.520 --> 00:37:23.800
know, they are transformed in their thinking, and they're making better decisions. So it's

573
00:37:23.800 --> 00:37:29.120
not just they have this head knowledge, but the women are making better decisions about

574
00:37:29.120 --> 00:37:34.440
who they allow romantically into their life. You know what I mean? Making better choices

575
00:37:34.440 --> 00:37:40.320
in those areas where they're not staying trapped in negative cycles, because they keep

576
00:37:40.320 --> 00:37:48.280
making wrong choices on what love means or what love looks like. So it would be a want

577
00:37:48.280 --> 00:37:55.000
the woman that joins my community will will be healed, she will be made whole. And it'll

578
00:37:55.000 --> 00:38:02.880
actually play out in her life where she will now make, you know, she'll allow God to help

579
00:38:02.880 --> 00:38:11.840
her to make choices. So like a community of women that are growing together, that are

580
00:38:11.840 --> 00:38:18.080
whole that can, like, I want it to be a ripple effect. So now that woman who's joined my

581
00:38:18.080 --> 00:38:25.160
community is now sharing with other women, you know, and it just keeps going on and on.

582
00:38:25.160 --> 00:38:26.160
So hopefully.

583
00:38:27.120 --> 00:38:33.200
So you said some things. So you want it to be live interaction with you? Yes. Yeah. So

584
00:38:33.200 --> 00:38:44.760
it's, of course, now. Yes. Yeah. Yes. I see that. Not just a social media channel. Right.

585
00:38:45.600 --> 00:38:52.680
So you want some interaction mentoring with you? Yes. Action on a regular basis.

586
00:38:52.680 --> 00:39:03.520
I don't know. I don't know. I guess so. I don't know. No. If you didn't know, what would

587
00:39:03.520 --> 00:39:13.200
the answer be? Um, yeah, I would say on a on a regular well, like we can meet monthly.

588
00:39:13.200 --> 00:39:19.040
I'm thinking is that your question? Like, what is the live interaction? This is so this

589
00:39:19.040 --> 00:39:23.920
is what happens. And you're doing great. There's no wrong answer happens when we start

590
00:39:23.920 --> 00:39:30.960
to process these things. We we don't know. Yeah. And then it's like, Oh, my gosh, I don't

591
00:39:30.960 --> 00:39:37.960
I don't know. I don't know. And then we kind of just stay there sometimes. Yes. You get

592
00:39:37.960 --> 00:39:46.440
stuck there. I'll just I'm gonna wait for the Lord to give me more. But I don't know.

593
00:39:46.600 --> 00:39:53.400
Sometimes there's requiring for there to be a press. Yes. And some, and some trying some

594
00:39:53.400 --> 00:39:59.720
things right. And starting maybe to write things down. That was good. Didn't know.

595
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:01.720
would the answer be?

596
00:40:01.720 --> 00:40:05.080
That's kind of beyond just the, I don't, you're doing great.

597
00:40:05.080 --> 00:40:06.360
You didn't do anything wrong.

598
00:40:06.360 --> 00:40:09.440
I just, I wanted to, this is how the conversation goes

599
00:40:09.440 --> 00:40:11.240
when we're by ourselves and we're not on anymore

600
00:40:11.240 --> 00:40:12.400
with Lindsay and Bruce.

601
00:40:13.680 --> 00:40:15.280
It's like, we're like really motivated.

602
00:40:15.280 --> 00:40:16.360
Like, yeah, we're going to go deeper,

603
00:40:16.360 --> 00:40:17.880
but then we just don't know.

604
00:40:17.880 --> 00:40:18.720
Yeah.

605
00:40:18.720 --> 00:40:21.640
And that's me and I'll stay stuck there.

606
00:40:21.640 --> 00:40:22.600
You nailed it.

607
00:40:25.160 --> 00:40:27.360
But we, but even in just talking it out loud,

608
00:40:27.360 --> 00:40:29.440
we realized, okay, it's not a book.

609
00:40:29.440 --> 00:40:30.600
A book's a good idea.

610
00:40:30.600 --> 00:40:31.880
It's not what I want.

611
00:40:31.880 --> 00:40:33.440
I want some live interaction.

612
00:40:33.440 --> 00:40:35.880
I want to get hands on, right?

613
00:40:35.880 --> 00:40:37.400
So it's not a stagnant course.

614
00:40:37.400 --> 00:40:39.040
It's not me just coming up with six weeks

615
00:40:39.040 --> 00:40:40.800
or 12 weeks of teaching.

616
00:40:40.800 --> 00:40:41.640
No.

617
00:40:41.640 --> 00:40:42.480
Ongoing.

618
00:40:42.480 --> 00:40:43.440
Okay, and then we start to ask,

619
00:40:43.440 --> 00:40:45.920
like, what would it take for that transformation?

620
00:40:45.920 --> 00:40:47.920
What do we feel like the framework would be?

621
00:40:47.920 --> 00:40:50.560
And guys, we're probably not going to know.

622
00:40:50.560 --> 00:40:54.680
Bruce and I did not know what the finalized framework

623
00:40:54.680 --> 00:40:55.560
would be when we started doing

624
00:40:55.560 --> 00:40:57.840
our Kingdom Messenger Workshop.

625
00:40:57.840 --> 00:41:00.920
We didn't know because we hadn't done it before.

626
00:41:00.920 --> 00:41:01.880
We had to prove it.

627
00:41:01.880 --> 00:41:03.120
And we were open with people.

628
00:41:03.120 --> 00:41:05.000
When they joined our first 90 day intensive,

629
00:41:05.000 --> 00:41:06.440
we said, guys, you are early adopters.

630
00:41:06.440 --> 00:41:07.480
You're a case study group.

631
00:41:07.480 --> 00:41:09.280
We've never done this before.

632
00:41:09.280 --> 00:41:11.240
So we're going to try out some things

633
00:41:11.240 --> 00:41:13.520
to see if we can bring you

634
00:41:13.520 --> 00:41:16.800
from not having any social media presence

635
00:41:16.800 --> 00:41:19.160
or intentional ministry, social media presence

636
00:41:19.160 --> 00:41:23.240
to growing something, launching, growing.

637
00:41:23.240 --> 00:41:26.480
And we had to build kind of a framework as we went.

638
00:41:26.480 --> 00:41:28.960
We had some ideas, but we didn't know.

639
00:41:28.960 --> 00:41:30.600
So what we had to do was we had to say,

640
00:41:30.600 --> 00:41:32.680
well, if we did know, what would the answer be?

641
00:41:32.680 --> 00:41:33.720
I think it's this.

642
00:41:34.920 --> 00:41:36.160
We're going to do this.

643
00:41:36.160 --> 00:41:38.800
We're going to kind of break beyond the I don't know

644
00:41:38.800 --> 00:41:41.200
and just try it because we won't know until we get it.

645
00:41:41.200 --> 00:41:43.080
And then you guys know, I mean, you've been with us.

646
00:41:43.080 --> 00:41:45.000
We did the 12 month membership because we thought,

647
00:41:45.000 --> 00:41:46.360
because we did the 90 day intensives,

648
00:41:46.360 --> 00:41:47.520
we loved it so much.

649
00:41:47.520 --> 00:41:49.360
And we're like, you know what would be even better?

650
00:41:49.360 --> 00:41:51.880
If we just gave people more time and space,

651
00:41:51.920 --> 00:41:53.760
we'll do a 12 month membership.

652
00:41:53.760 --> 00:41:56.800
And then we realized it was too much space

653
00:41:58.200 --> 00:42:01.120
because people begin, they had the excuse of,

654
00:42:01.120 --> 00:42:02.720
oh, well, I can't make it this week,

655
00:42:02.720 --> 00:42:04.080
but I'm with them all year.

656
00:42:04.080 --> 00:42:05.320
So I'll just do next week.

657
00:42:05.320 --> 00:42:07.120
And some habits were formed.

658
00:42:07.120 --> 00:42:09.240
And I know there's some realities in people's lives

659
00:42:09.240 --> 00:42:10.200
where they couldn't make it.

660
00:42:10.200 --> 00:42:11.560
There's no shame, blame or anything.

661
00:42:11.560 --> 00:42:14.120
We just, as mentors, we realized,

662
00:42:14.120 --> 00:42:16.800
okay, I don't think this is bringing action.

663
00:42:18.840 --> 00:42:21.000
You know, we want to bring the action to people.

664
00:42:21.000 --> 00:42:22.480
What can we build?

665
00:42:22.480 --> 00:42:24.160
You guys have been with us on the journey

666
00:42:24.160 --> 00:42:25.320
and we appreciate it.

667
00:42:26.920 --> 00:42:28.160
But now it's your turn.

668
00:42:32.240 --> 00:42:34.560
Because if you remember,

669
00:42:34.560 --> 00:42:36.960
our desire is to leverage the digital landscape

670
00:42:36.960 --> 00:42:41.640
to disciple nations, not just reach nations,

671
00:42:41.640 --> 00:42:44.680
which we're definitely doing and it's exciting,

672
00:42:44.680 --> 00:42:46.040
but there's a deeper level.

673
00:42:47.840 --> 00:42:50.000
And to be quite honest,

674
00:42:50.000 --> 00:42:51.600
I knew that from the beginning,

675
00:42:51.600 --> 00:42:54.520
like a big critical, a big critique

676
00:42:54.520 --> 00:42:55.480
that I would get from people,

677
00:42:55.480 --> 00:42:57.200
which we've gotten from some people is

678
00:42:57.200 --> 00:43:00.480
you can't disciple people with short form content

679
00:43:00.480 --> 00:43:02.080
or a social media channel.

680
00:43:02.080 --> 00:43:05.600
And I feel like I've got some righteous challenge to that.

681
00:43:05.600 --> 00:43:08.120
However, I know, and I knew from the beginning,

682
00:43:08.120 --> 00:43:12.040
there's something deeper, but I couldn't start there.

683
00:43:12.040 --> 00:43:14.920
I couldn't do Facebook ads saying,

684
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do you want to build an online community

685
00:43:18.120 --> 00:43:20.040
and become a discipler, become a mentor,

686
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whatever language is meaningful to you.

687
00:43:22.920 --> 00:43:26.240
I had to start with, you have a message

688
00:43:26.240 --> 00:43:27.560
stirring in your heart,

689
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but you just don't know how to get it out there

690
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into the world.

691
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It's where I had to start, I had to pace it.

692
00:43:36.480 --> 00:43:40.520
And now we're in a place where we spent time,

693
00:43:40.520 --> 00:43:42.760
we've learned together, we're building a culture,

694
00:43:42.760 --> 00:43:45.280
we have an engine room, we've got you guys

695
00:43:45.320 --> 00:43:47.440
pressing in kind of this inner circle

696
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because we want to disciple nations.

697
00:43:54.560 --> 00:43:57.160
We want people to be marinated in the truth, right?

698
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Saturated, connected, not just inspired,

699
00:44:01.400 --> 00:44:04.200
not just motivated, but transformed.

700
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So let me hear from somebody else,

701
00:44:06.720 --> 00:44:09.920
like, what are you guys thinking for you?

702
00:44:09.920 --> 00:44:11.240
It doesn't have to be what Tamara said.

703
00:44:11.240 --> 00:44:13.040
It doesn't even have to look like Kingdom Messenger.

704
00:44:13.040 --> 00:44:14.920
It does not have to be an online community,

705
00:44:15.560 --> 00:44:17.360
but what do you feel like would be a deeper level

706
00:44:17.360 --> 00:44:19.720
for you bringing that breakthrough to your home?

707
00:44:21.960 --> 00:44:25.400
You've given me a lot to think about, Lindsay.

708
00:44:25.400 --> 00:44:29.280
And for me, I have one particular person

709
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who answered and sent me a message

710
00:44:33.440 --> 00:44:35.360
and he has some kind of disease

711
00:44:35.360 --> 00:44:37.280
and he's now a quadriplegic.

712
00:44:38.600 --> 00:44:41.400
And he, I can't remember what he asked me,

713
00:44:41.400 --> 00:44:44.560
but I just sent him a message back

714
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about sharing his concerns with God,

715
00:44:49.800 --> 00:44:51.840
sharing all of his fears,

716
00:44:51.840 --> 00:44:53.880
sharing all of that stuff with him,

717
00:44:53.880 --> 00:44:57.120
and then just waiting on him in his presence.

718
00:44:57.120 --> 00:44:58.720
And he wrote back something,

719
00:44:58.720 --> 00:45:00.520
and it was obvious from his message.

720
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.600
reply, he said, I'm just going to have to change the way I'm thinking and the way I'm doing things.

721
00:45:05.600 --> 00:45:10.880
And it's obvious he's been praying, but not the right way. And you know, there are people like

722
00:45:10.880 --> 00:45:20.560
that, that need help so badly. And there's other ladies who, this is where I'm at, and I don't have

723
00:45:20.560 --> 00:45:26.560
that faith, and I want that faith. You know, and there's so many that say they watch me regularly.

724
00:45:26.720 --> 00:45:37.120
And I don't know what the next step is. The thought of going live, I feel no desire to do that right

725
00:45:37.120 --> 00:45:46.960
now. And I know that God will show me, he'll make it really clear. But like you said, these people

726
00:45:46.960 --> 00:45:54.560
need more than what I can give them right now. And yet, I honestly believe that everybody who

727
00:45:54.560 --> 00:46:00.480
watches something all the way through, and likes it, has received something from it. I don't for

728
00:46:00.480 --> 00:46:07.200
a minute doubt that. I know that God is revealing to people that need to know. And I don't have that

729
00:46:07.200 --> 00:46:16.640
fear of, you know, even one day, and I've stopped doing the weekly thing. Because I found that my

730
00:46:16.640 --> 00:46:22.480
videos didn't have the quality, the quantity, no, I had the quantity, but not the quality.

731
00:46:22.480 --> 00:46:29.200
I wasn't satisfied with what I was producing. And so when I feel like doing videos, I do them.

732
00:46:29.200 --> 00:46:36.480
And like yesterday, I was sitting down to pray and didn't feel any peace, decided I'd go out and post

733
00:46:36.480 --> 00:46:43.360
a card to my sister-in-law. My brother died a few weeks ago. And I noticed this

734
00:46:44.000 --> 00:46:50.160
dress store over the road, and I thought, oh, I think I need to go in there. And I went in,

735
00:46:50.160 --> 00:46:55.840
I picked something out, etc. And I know the lady's a Christian, and I started talking to her.

736
00:46:56.480 --> 00:47:02.720
And it's like God just gave me a prophetic word for her. I talked about her carnal nature,

737
00:47:02.720 --> 00:47:08.320
she had no idea what that meant. I had to explain it to her, and went through this process,

738
00:47:08.320 --> 00:47:15.760
and I felt such a strong anointing. And I came home thinking, you know, it's so important that

739
00:47:15.760 --> 00:47:21.920
I'm doing what God wants me to do, and not what I think I ought to do. Even if it means not doing

740
00:47:21.920 --> 00:47:27.120
a video right at that moment. There's a time when I sit down, and I know I'm meant to do that.

741
00:47:27.120 --> 00:47:35.920
But other times, I'm just doing it. And it made me realize that it's listening to God's voice,

742
00:47:35.920 --> 00:47:40.800
and going with his spirit leading us. That's the answer in whatever we do.

743
00:47:41.760 --> 00:47:49.600
And so, with this thing with the online, I know I'm meant to be there. I did post something today.

744
00:47:49.600 --> 00:47:56.000
It was only this early this afternoon that I finally got something on. But

745
00:47:57.600 --> 00:48:02.160
I'm just absolutely confident God is going to show me what the next step is.

746
00:48:04.320 --> 00:48:09.200
The fact that you're talking about it, I really hadn't thought about that. I'm just doing it.

747
00:48:09.920 --> 00:48:14.800
And tuning in to what God wants, and sometimes it's unexpected.

748
00:48:16.000 --> 00:48:21.840
And sometimes, I'm not even the one that gets all the likes. But I know I'm doing what he wants,

749
00:48:21.840 --> 00:48:30.560
and it really doesn't matter. So, it's like you said, I'm needing to stay in a place of rest,

750
00:48:30.560 --> 00:48:35.920
because that's where I'm going to find out what's next. I'll figure it out with my mind.

751
00:48:36.880 --> 00:48:38.720
So, that's, yeah.

752
00:48:38.720 --> 00:48:40.320
By love, that's what you're doing.

753
00:48:41.040 --> 00:48:41.840
Yeah, yeah.

754
00:48:41.840 --> 00:48:47.920
A place of love. You're operating from a place of, I have to earn, I have to prove.

755
00:48:47.920 --> 00:48:53.520
You have total confidence in the Lord to give you what you need, when you need it.

756
00:48:55.840 --> 00:48:57.680
You're there. That's what you're operating in.

757
00:48:58.640 --> 00:49:06.240
Yeah, yeah. And every time I do a video, I have to wait for him, for that love to be there,

758
00:49:06.240 --> 00:49:14.160
before I say anything. Because otherwise, it doesn't, it's like I'm not tuning into the

759
00:49:14.160 --> 00:49:17.680
spirit otherwise. So, I find that makes a difference to me.

760
00:49:19.600 --> 00:49:24.560
You come with an expectation. So, this is what I used to do, before I understood this,

761
00:49:24.560 --> 00:49:30.160
is I would sit there to write, and I would feel frustrated, or I would feel no peace,

762
00:49:30.160 --> 00:49:36.560
or I feel like I was like, you know, striving, like, get it done. Because there was no

763
00:49:36.560 --> 00:49:41.280
expectation that when I sat down, love was going to meet me there and give me what I needed.

764
00:49:42.640 --> 00:49:49.200
I felt like I was still operating out of self, right? Just self. Not me and the Lord, just me.

765
00:49:50.080 --> 00:49:54.320
And so, that's what has been shifting in everything that I've been doing,

766
00:49:54.320 --> 00:49:59.600
and continues to shift. And kind of to a place, and with posture, where I got really comfortable.

767
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.620
Hey, I need, I need a renewed expectation because this is not,

768
00:50:05.760 --> 00:50:09.800
this isn't just becoming exhausting, but I am not showing up as myself.

769
00:50:09.880 --> 00:50:14.520
If Valencia is having a mini meltdown over one titled wrong.

770
00:50:15.400 --> 00:50:16.060
Now I get it.

771
00:50:16.060 --> 00:50:21.120
It was like, not theologically correct, but like fixable, deletable, right?

772
00:50:22.920 --> 00:50:29.520
Like something is off and being honest enough with ourselves.

773
00:50:30.240 --> 00:50:35.220
Because we are, I believe we're all places of maturity in the Lord, where

774
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there's a commingling of desires.

775
00:50:37.360 --> 00:50:39.280
Cause you even said, Marianne, like I'm not sitting down doing

776
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what I feel like I ought to do.

777
00:50:40.920 --> 00:50:41.140
Right.

778
00:50:41.140 --> 00:50:43.960
There's not this like obligate oppression of obligation.

779
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What I would love for us to be as we're discovering with the Lord, like, what is

780
00:50:50.800 --> 00:50:52.540
it like, what is the deeper level?

781
00:50:52.540 --> 00:50:54.200
Like, what is it that I want to do?

782
00:50:55.480 --> 00:50:57.240
What do I want to do now?

783
00:50:57.240 --> 00:50:59.000
Some of you are going to struggle with that because it's

784
00:50:59.000 --> 00:51:00.120
not going to feel humble.

785
00:51:00.440 --> 00:51:01.920
By admitting what you really want.

786
00:51:02.720 --> 00:51:04.320
Like, I want to write a book.

787
00:51:04.320 --> 00:51:05.800
I want to be a bestselling author.

788
00:51:05.800 --> 00:51:07.240
I want to like be on stages.

789
00:51:07.240 --> 00:51:08.280
I want to be speaking.

790
00:51:08.920 --> 00:51:12.640
Others of you are going to struggle because you don't think what you

791
00:51:12.640 --> 00:51:13.880
want is what the Lord wants.

792
00:51:15.600 --> 00:51:18.640
Cause there's been a conditioning or a teaching that you've been under where

793
00:51:18.640 --> 00:51:27.960
you are, I thought if I want it, it must be something else as mature sons of God.

794
00:51:29.240 --> 00:51:33.280
One with Christ filled with his spirit sourced by the father.

795
00:51:35.000 --> 00:51:36.520
He's involved in our desires.

796
00:51:37.880 --> 00:51:42.520
The old is dead, old, sinful, deadly, dead end desires are gone.

797
00:51:43.480 --> 00:51:45.400
So we're exercising at a different level.

798
00:51:45.800 --> 00:51:49.120
The level is seated in heavenly places with Christ.

799
00:51:51.760 --> 00:51:58.160
We want what he wants by default, but we're so afraid of getting it wrong.

800
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That we don't even enter into that conversation with him.

801
00:52:03.160 --> 00:52:04.160
We just shut it down.

802
00:52:08.320 --> 00:52:09.520
So there's a safety guys.

803
00:52:09.520 --> 00:52:14.320
There's a safety in Christ for us to try some things, to have the conversation.

804
00:52:14.400 --> 00:52:15.640
What do I really want?

805
00:52:16.520 --> 00:52:17.360
What do I really want?

806
00:52:19.200 --> 00:52:20.880
How do I want to be serving my who?

807
00:52:21.440 --> 00:52:22.760
What do I want that to look like?

808
00:52:25.520 --> 00:52:27.320
It doesn't have to look like what we did.

809
00:52:27.600 --> 00:52:28.480
It doesn't like have to look like.

810
00:52:28.480 --> 00:52:30.760
It might be something that hasn't been done yet before.

811
00:52:35.080 --> 00:52:36.200
Who else wants to share?

812
00:52:41.440 --> 00:52:47.120
And see, I feel like what we're talking about probably will be, I'm going to

813
00:52:47.120 --> 00:52:55.400
schedule one-on-one with you, you know, um, cause I have like so many ideas.

814
00:52:56.400 --> 00:53:03.120
And so to hone it in and, and a lot of them have been like prepped through

815
00:53:04.160 --> 00:53:09.400
things, the Lord's spoken to me, you know, prophetic visions that he's given me.

816
00:53:10.160 --> 00:53:21.720
And, um, like a year ago when I was like, it was like, literally I had just launched.

817
00:53:22.160 --> 00:53:29.880
I was like a day or two in and he was really unveiling some performance and

818
00:53:30.360 --> 00:53:32.640
the need to, you know, need for healing.

819
00:53:33.240 --> 00:53:40.640
But as I was going to sleep, I, I had a vision and I mean, and I was awake, but

820
00:53:40.640 --> 00:53:45.840
the vision was when I closed my eyes, I opened my eyes, I'm like, what's going on.

821
00:53:46.280 --> 00:53:49.400
But what I saw were the faces of people.

822
00:53:52.600 --> 00:53:58.160
I always, I mean, I've had a few more of those since, but Jesus is always there.

823
00:53:58.280 --> 00:54:02.960
Sometimes he's looking to, you know, it's a profile that I recognize him and

824
00:54:02.960 --> 00:54:08.600
some people I recognize, and then some of them, I, I know I recognize, but

825
00:54:08.600 --> 00:54:12.040
they don't look the same they're younger or whatever.

826
00:54:13.040 --> 00:54:21.920
And I was like, you'll tell me when, when I need to know, but I feel like what,

827
00:54:22.040 --> 00:54:32.200
what he has shown me is that there, he, he wants me to help people like

828
00:54:32.640 --> 00:54:46.280
identify the prophetic in people and like speak what's in there and like

829
00:54:46.520 --> 00:54:49.920
help them learn to, to hear God.

830
00:54:51.480 --> 00:54:58.040
And I mean, that's just one area because I don't know how that connects to, um,

831
00:54:59.320 --> 00:54:59.960
like putting a.

832
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:07.040
robe and a crown. God gave me a vision of that when I was when I was 40 years old and

833
00:55:08.400 --> 00:55:15.040
him doing that with myself and I received it, but really I think I just really got it last week,

834
00:55:15.040 --> 00:55:21.680
you know, but it was like he reminded me because I did this. I'm not an artist, but I like drawing

835
00:55:22.240 --> 00:55:29.040
and I had drawn this picture from my husband and had had my picture. He asked this for his

836
00:55:29.040 --> 00:55:35.280
40th birthday for portraits and I had to take my best friend with me to even look at the proofs

837
00:55:35.280 --> 00:55:40.720
because I couldn't stand to look at myself and she'd go, hey, that's a good one, you know,

838
00:55:40.720 --> 00:55:45.280
and then it was like the Lord led me to do these, which I didn't understand the prophetic,

839
00:55:45.280 --> 00:55:52.720
but these prophetic drawings, watercolors every so often in this little album that I did for my

840
00:55:52.720 --> 00:56:00.400
husband and last week when all that was going on, he said, go find that and, you know, at the very

841
00:56:00.400 --> 00:56:04.880
end, I couldn't stand because it was a self-portrait that I did on top of that. I mean, I was just

842
00:56:04.880 --> 00:56:15.760
being obedient. I was just laying it down and I've had just a dream of doing like young women and

843
00:56:15.760 --> 00:56:21.360
put, you know, like putting their crown on them and showing them who they are and putting that

844
00:56:21.360 --> 00:56:28.160
robe on them. I mean, like walking them through that and getting them there, you know. That's super

845
00:56:28.160 --> 00:56:34.800
cool. So anyway, but we do need a one-on-one, don't you, wouldn't you agree? Angela, we're going to go deep.

846
00:56:34.800 --> 00:56:41.040
I've got some ideas for you. That's exciting. So Cindy or Susie, I know Kathy's driving, so I'm

847
00:56:41.040 --> 00:56:44.800
going to let her pay attention. I don't even know if she's still on, but I know she was driving.

848
00:56:45.360 --> 00:56:46.960
Let's hear from you. What are you thinking?

849
00:56:47.360 --> 00:56:54.400
Cindy, you want to go for it? I haven't done anything. I don't feel like I'm at that point yet to have,

850
00:56:56.400 --> 00:57:02.480
I mean, you know that I want to do like an online course eventually sometime. That's my heart. I want

851
00:57:02.480 --> 00:57:11.440
to teach and do like all this stuff with TikTok and I want to get on YouTube and Instagram. That's

852
00:57:11.760 --> 00:57:20.400
my next goal I'm shooting for, so that I have all three. And then eventually do the online course,

853
00:57:20.400 --> 00:57:31.280
but I haven't really done enough like with my who to know yet. So that's why. That's where you're at.

854
00:57:31.280 --> 00:57:36.880
Yeah, that's where I'm at. Yeah, so because I think one of the things and what we're hoping to do in

855
00:57:37.840 --> 00:57:44.480
this four months is kind of what was that next thing for you guys, like starting a group or

856
00:57:44.480 --> 00:57:50.720
something or having something even where people would pay to be a part of it. And we didn't have

857
00:57:50.720 --> 00:57:55.600
a social media channel for Kingdom Messengers and we didn't have a course for Kingdom Messengers

858
00:57:55.600 --> 00:57:59.600
when we launched Kingdom Messengers. We just said we're doing this thing and a bunch of people

859
00:57:59.600 --> 00:58:05.280
showed up on a live Zoom call and then that was it. It didn't require a lot of extra preparation,

860
00:58:05.360 --> 00:58:11.360
if that makes sense. So I think hopefully we can help you guys launch this idea in the next

861
00:58:11.360 --> 00:58:16.320
four, you know, something like this. But I think obviously we're kind of laying the groundwork as

862
00:58:16.320 --> 00:58:21.760
far as the why and kind of a deeper thing, but what do you want to say? I'm just smiling because

863
00:58:21.760 --> 00:58:26.880
Bruce is like such a, he's like a man of action. Yeah, but yeah, that's all I'm saying is those

864
00:58:26.880 --> 00:58:31.920
things may not be so far out. That's all things like your expectations. Yeah, I'm like, oh,

865
00:58:31.920 --> 00:58:36.560
Samara wants to do a monthly group. Like I'm like thinking about, I'm pretty sure she could

866
00:58:36.560 --> 00:58:41.600
do that tonight if she wanted to. Like we could launch that tonight, right? But we want to help

867
00:58:41.600 --> 00:58:47.520
you guys with that because we've seen a lot of things like that launch. And we're really excited

868
00:58:47.520 --> 00:58:51.680
about having you guys launch your own groups where you're sitting on calls like this, helping your

869
00:58:51.680 --> 00:58:58.320
crew with these things that this. However, it might not be a group. Yeah, it may be one-on-one.

870
00:58:58.400 --> 00:59:02.720
It could be one-on-one coaching and mentoring. It could be a book. I mean, like we don't want to

871
00:59:02.720 --> 00:59:08.160
create a box for you. That's not the point. The point is what's the deeper level.

872
00:59:09.360 --> 00:59:16.560
Well, and you know, I did everything backwards. I built the website. I have the website all built

873
00:59:17.760 --> 00:59:22.800
for the online courses. It's right there, ready to go. I just don't have a course on it yet.

874
00:59:22.880 --> 00:59:28.560
But then now I'm learning to get your who first. Then you really know more. I like what you said

875
00:59:28.560 --> 00:59:33.360
when you were going to write a book and you were glad you didn't because now you know more what

876
00:59:33.360 --> 00:59:39.360
your who wants. And I think that's brilliant. And that just never occurred to me before.

877
00:59:40.240 --> 00:59:44.720
So like what Bruce is saying is like, you know, you don't know what God's going to do if I start,

878
00:59:44.960 --> 00:59:55.280
you know, bringing stuff out. I might get my ideas, you know, that the Lord will start revealing,

879
00:59:55.280 --> 00:59:59.280
but it could be six months from now or a year. I'm really good with either one because I've

880
00:59:59.280 --> 01:00:00.000
given everything to God.

881
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:07.280
him. But it's cool to just hear the vision and what you guys are saying is that that could be a

882
01:00:07.280 --> 01:00:11.360
potential thing you guys are going to help us with. It could happen in four months.

883
01:00:13.360 --> 01:00:18.160
Yeah, we launched Kingdom Messengers in like three weeks, like from like, you know, we've

884
01:00:18.160 --> 01:00:23.840
been thinking about it. And this will happen. This is about you. There's already there's already

885
01:00:23.840 --> 01:00:32.400
things that have been built within you, you and your walk with the Lord. What happened for us,

886
01:00:32.400 --> 01:00:37.440
which I believe, it's not that you're starting, you think you're starting from scratch.

887
01:00:39.280 --> 01:00:47.040
But you're bringing things from past experiences and past seasons into the present. And in many

888
01:00:47.040 --> 01:00:51.440
ways, like we I think for us pulled some of the future into the present prophetically,

889
01:00:52.400 --> 01:01:01.120
for Kingdom Messengers, because we didn't have a map for it. So yeah, yeah, just never know.

890
01:01:02.480 --> 01:01:03.760
Hey, Kathy, I see your hand.

891
01:01:06.640 --> 01:01:11.920
I just wanted to say hi, I have to go into a doctor's appointment. But I just wanted to share

892
01:01:11.920 --> 01:01:18.800
that the questions of going seven layers deep and asking those questions is just transformative.

893
01:01:18.800 --> 01:01:26.560
Like I have struggled with really putting in a nutshell my my why and my who it's it's like,

894
01:01:27.360 --> 01:01:33.840
so I just want to thank you for leading us down that path because it's been huge. And also,

895
01:01:33.840 --> 01:01:40.240
it just expands your why so much more because you just keep adding to it as you go through all of

896
01:01:40.240 --> 01:01:46.720
those layers. And so I'm super excited about that. And I have all of these ideas because I didn't,

897
01:01:47.440 --> 01:01:51.600
I never ever thought I would be doing short form content.

898
01:01:56.080 --> 01:02:02.080
But I have ideas for an online community. And I feel like that's what God's been leading me

899
01:02:02.080 --> 01:02:08.800
into. Did I disconnect you? No, we can still hear you. We just turned the video.

900
01:02:08.800 --> 01:02:16.000
You're just freezing. Okay, I I thought maybe I had done something accidentally. So I just

901
01:02:16.720 --> 01:02:20.960
I do want to talk with you about that one on one because that was the direction I was headed

902
01:02:20.960 --> 01:02:28.080
before I met you. But I didn't know how to make it happen. And so I'm excited that it looks like

903
01:02:28.080 --> 01:02:35.920
you're going to be leading us down that, that pathway. So I just wanted to thank you and say

904
01:02:35.920 --> 01:02:43.200
I'm super excited. And I just bless your time at the conference. And I'm gonna say bye for now.

905
01:02:43.200 --> 01:02:47.520
Thank you, Kathy. Okay. Bye. Bye, everyone.

906
01:02:49.120 --> 01:02:52.560
Okay, Susie, before we close out, I just want to hear from you what's going on in your head

907
01:02:52.560 --> 01:02:59.200
and your heart. I feel like there's this threshold that I'm about to cross. And that I've decided,

908
01:02:59.200 --> 01:03:03.840
yes, I am. You know, obviously, I am crossing it, even though I have no idea what it is.

909
01:03:03.840 --> 01:03:08.640
I just spent some time with a prophetic life coach that was very enlightening.

910
01:03:09.200 --> 01:03:15.360
And I have always wanted to be some sort of a life coach, but then thought now I can't do that.

911
01:03:15.360 --> 01:03:23.200
And now I'm starting to think that maybe that is what I would like to do. And I appreciate the fact

912
01:03:23.200 --> 01:03:27.920
that I've got the website that I can archive. I think that those Greek words are important for

913
01:03:27.920 --> 01:03:35.520
people who want the safety of if they're going to dive off this cliff, they need to know that

914
01:03:35.520 --> 01:03:42.640
it's scriptural. And so I'm thinking, yes, archiving that and having some sort of a

915
01:03:42.640 --> 01:03:54.560
community where people can talk. So I think that that is so what I was getting from this, this guy

916
01:03:54.560 --> 01:04:04.480
was that I'm seeking truth. I love excellence. I'm seeking connection with people. And but then

917
01:04:04.480 --> 01:04:10.480
there's that part that I know that that the bottom line is, is the joy for the joy of it,

918
01:04:11.200 --> 01:04:17.680
because I've spent so much of my life struggling to do it right, you know, to be excellent to do

919
01:04:17.680 --> 01:04:23.360
those things to avoid disconnection. That was a big part of the of the conversation

920
01:04:24.000 --> 01:04:32.560
was fear of wrong because of avoiding disconnection. So I am very much like being

921
01:04:32.560 --> 01:04:37.520
bombarded with thoughts. I didn't take notes during that session. I think I've forgotten it

922
01:04:37.520 --> 01:04:42.720
all. And then I'm realizing, no, it's inside of me. It's part of it. It will help. You know,

923
01:04:42.720 --> 01:04:48.160
it'll come open. I don't know about being online. I'm enjoying doing the tech talks. I'm thinking

924
01:04:48.160 --> 01:04:53.440
that probably I'm just going to keep throwing out dots. And people can. Well, you've talked

925
01:04:53.440 --> 01:04:59.760
about that before. God connects those dots. So, yeah, I

926
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.880
And I am thinking of something much more one-on-one,

927
01:05:03.880 --> 01:05:07.640
listening to people, knowing instead of trying to help

928
01:05:07.640 --> 01:05:10.640
people, you know, seeing their problems and fixing them

929
01:05:10.640 --> 01:05:13.200
to just listening to what the Lord is doing in them

930
01:05:13.200 --> 01:05:15.840
and then whatever he has to say.

931
01:05:17.080 --> 01:05:17.920
That's awesome.

932
01:05:18.760 --> 01:05:19.800
That's exciting.

933
01:05:20.760 --> 01:05:22.360
Okay, well, here's the homework for this week.

934
01:05:22.360 --> 01:05:23.800
And you'll have a little bit less time

935
01:05:23.800 --> 01:05:24.960
because we're meeting on Tuesday.

936
01:05:24.960 --> 01:05:28.720
So I'd like for you to get it done before our next call

937
01:05:28.720 --> 01:05:31.640
is I first would like for you just to report,

938
01:05:31.640 --> 01:05:33.440
like, where do you feel like you are on that scale?

939
01:05:33.440 --> 01:05:35.920
Like doing things out of fear, doing things out of faith,

940
01:05:35.920 --> 01:05:37.400
doing things out of love.

941
01:05:37.400 --> 01:05:39.200
Just share, just share where you feel like you're at,

942
01:05:39.200 --> 01:05:41.320
like honestly, as you can.

943
01:05:41.320 --> 01:05:46.200
And also the last, so that's the first thing.

944
01:05:46.200 --> 01:05:49.880
And then I want you to share the answer to this question.

945
01:05:49.880 --> 01:05:50.760
What do you want?

946
01:05:55.360 --> 01:05:56.200
What do you want?

947
01:05:59.120 --> 01:06:01.840
No parameters, just what do you want?

948
01:06:01.840 --> 01:06:04.400
So take some time to sit with that question.

949
01:06:04.400 --> 01:06:06.240
Do you want to go live or what do you want?

950
01:06:06.240 --> 01:06:08.560
Yeah, just like we did, post it in Facebook, go live,

951
01:06:08.560 --> 01:06:10.800
just like you did this last piece of homework.

952
01:06:12.240 --> 01:06:15.040
Those are, so just first, just kind of a self-evaluation.

953
01:06:15.040 --> 01:06:16.640
Here's what I think I'm operating from,

954
01:06:16.640 --> 01:06:20.840
fear, faith, or love, or something in between.

955
01:06:20.840 --> 01:06:22.320
And then what do you want?

956
01:06:22.320 --> 01:06:23.160
What do you want?

957
01:06:23.160 --> 01:06:25.560
When you think about going deeper with your who,

958
01:06:26.600 --> 01:06:28.080
what do you want that to look like?

959
01:06:28.120 --> 01:06:30.520
And if you don't know, if you didn't know,

960
01:06:30.520 --> 01:06:32.320
what would the answer be?

961
01:06:32.320 --> 01:06:35.320
Press in a little bit, share the process.

962
01:06:35.320 --> 01:06:37.240
It's awesome, all right.

963
01:06:37.240 --> 01:06:39.920
Thank you everyone for sharing.

964
01:06:39.920 --> 01:06:40.760
Thanks for being flexible.

965
01:06:40.760 --> 01:06:42.520
I'm gonna be watching the rest of the videos

966
01:06:42.520 --> 01:06:43.600
of you guys who have shared your why,

967
01:06:43.600 --> 01:06:44.440
who haven't been able to go through.

968
01:06:44.440 --> 01:06:46.760
I know I'll comment, so you'll know that I've watched it.

969
01:06:46.760 --> 01:06:48.720
And it's been good, it's been really cool

970
01:06:48.720 --> 01:06:49.840
to hear you guys share.

971
01:06:49.840 --> 01:06:51.440
So thank you for taking the time to do that.

972
01:06:51.440 --> 01:06:52.720
And don't forget, you can jump in

973
01:06:52.720 --> 01:06:55.280
and book a tech call anytime this week,

974
01:06:55.280 --> 01:06:56.720
where we got some slots open.

975
01:06:56.720 --> 01:06:58.000
If you guys are, if there's other things

976
01:06:58.000 --> 01:06:59.480
you're wanting to run into,

977
01:06:59.480 --> 01:07:01.320
that's why we're not doing that on this call,

978
01:07:01.320 --> 01:07:03.160
but those are available.

979
01:07:03.160 --> 01:07:05.360
And of course you can book, start working your one-on-one.

980
01:07:05.360 --> 01:07:07.720
So thanks for being flexible with the day.

981
01:07:07.720 --> 01:07:08.720
Yeah, we really appreciate it.

982
01:07:08.720 --> 01:07:10.160
We hate to switch the time on you guys.

983
01:07:10.160 --> 01:07:11.440
Especially on our second meeting,

984
01:07:11.440 --> 01:07:12.800
but you guys have been around for,

985
01:07:12.800 --> 01:07:14.720
like you're part of the family, so.

986
01:07:14.720 --> 01:07:16.200
So we appreciate that guys.

987
01:07:16.200 --> 01:07:17.880
All right, we will see you on Tuesday.

988
01:07:17.880 --> 01:07:18.720
Bye guys.