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I see people getting connected! What's up, Xavier? Yay! Hey, Marion! Hi! Hey, Susie! Hey, everybody! Hi, Xavier!

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I don't know what I would do without seeing all your faces once a week.

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Look, I'm with you, Susie. I do look forward to it too, Susie.

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Ditto. It's not the same when you look at it afterwards, is it? I'm with you. I'm with you.

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So, getting our thoughts together. So, while people are jumping on, and if you're streaming

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on Facebook, you're welcome to jump on the Zoom. The link will be there in the description.

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So, as far as I know... Hey, Amy. Hey, Amy. No one's booked a tech help call yet. So,

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I just want to remind you, because I know it's a new thing. So, it's unlimited. So, those tech

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calls, you can book any time, as many times as you need if you're stuck with tech, needing help

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with that. So, just don't forget that you have that access. I do need some help, but I haven't

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had the time. How do we actually book it? Is it on the Messenger Advancement site?

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Yes. You go on your Messenger Advancement site. I think it's under the Get Started section

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on that side. And you can just book a call, and it'll pull up a Calendly link. And so,

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you can just pick a time and date that works for you.

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I had that same question too, because I want to book a one-on-one with you. And then also,

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I have a new microphone. And so, anyway, I need to do that. So, I haven't forgotten.

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So, same place to book the one-on-one with me. So, you guys get two one-on-ones with me. Those

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are hour long. You can book any time during these four months. And then, the tech calls

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where you'll see in your Kingdom Advancement site is this under Get Started. And it's the

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same process as far as you just book. It's easy. You just find a date and time that works for you

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on Calendly. And if for whatever reason, you're not seeing a time, especially with my one-on-one,

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because we're trying to make sure that those calendars are synced. If you're not finding

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a time that works for you for your time zone, reach out to us at, what is the help email?

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Help at KMW.

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Help at KMWSupport.com. I was like, got it messed up in my head. And just say,

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hey, I'm having a hard time finding a time. And we'll open up that calendar a little bit more. So,

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sound good. I see Ashley has joined us today. And so, Ashley and Xavier are jumping in. And we,

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so this is what, week three. So, just a quick recap of what we've all been walking through.

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We talked the first week about steeping like a tea bag in our why. So, sometimes that why

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evolves over time. Our why behind doing something evolves. Like we think we're doing something for

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a certain reason. And a lot of times if we don't go through the layers. So, an example that we

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use, and I know Amy specifically said she went seven layers deep of, as you're discovering your

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why and you're wanting to get past the surface-y, you know, this is why I'm doing what I'm doing

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with my channel, reaching my who, is you kind of answer that question and then you ask why again.

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Okay, but why? So, for example, I wanted to start posture because I wanted to help people overcome

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anxiety. Why? So, it goes a little bit deeper. Well, because God promised us peace and there's

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Christians, there's sons of God who belong to heaven, who are filled with the spirit of Christ,

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who are not walking in perfect peace. Why? So, you can kind of see it goes a little bit further

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down and it's just a helpful exercise for you to begin to steep in that why. Because that being

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grounded in the why of why you're doing something gives you clarity as you partner with heaven in

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doing it, but also it stands up against resistance, right? So, inspiration is great. It's great when

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you, you know, hear someone speak from stage or you hear me on a coaching call and you walk away

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and you just feel so full of, you feel inspired, you feel motivated, but that doesn't always do

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well up against resistance. And when times get hard, what you're anchored in is that, okay,

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why am I doing this? What is the call? What is the purpose? What am I feeling in my partnership

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with the Lord that is, you know, significant here? And it's beyond just me showing up on social media.

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We know it's deeper than that. So, why? So, that's what we talked about in the first week.

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And then last week we talked about this revelation that I am currently walking in.

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So, I'm giving you guys the fruit off my life, literally as it ripens on the tree.

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And that was, I feel like the Lord is calling me into a deeper breakthrough from fear of man.

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So, what heaven has called me to do and what I desire to partner with the Lord.

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I have to fully break free of, I mean, we all do, right?

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But I know this for me.

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I began steeping in my wine.

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I realized I've got to break free of fear.

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Man, and there's been layers and levels to this process

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with the Lord for years.

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But I realized, you know,

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cause I was getting some feedback from people.

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So some of the feedback I get from people is,

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wow, I never knew you were an introvert

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because you're on stage and you get up on social media

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and you show your face.

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Like I would have never guessed you're an introvert.

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And I didn't kind of know what to even do

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with that feedback.

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You're kind of like, oh, thanks, you know.

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I love being an introvert, by the way.

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I don't think it's a disability,

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but I do think like, just like being an extrovert,

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there's perversions to those,

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that wiring if it's not fully submitted to God

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and we're not walking in the fullness,

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an awareness of the fullness of who it is

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that we are in Him.

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and the ways it was manifesting,

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I realized I could still show up and do things.

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I think I have a high pain threshold, quite honestly.

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So it was all of this operation out of I can't,

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I can't let God down.

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I can't let my spiritual leaders down

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who have given me these opportunities

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to speak on their stage or share their stage.

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but like, I can't fail.

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It would destroy me, right?

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you can operate out of fear for a while.

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We think that, and you know, I'm still marinating on this,

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but you guys are kind of the inner circle crowd.

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So I know that there's maturity in this room

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and I can kind of share things

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that haven't been fully, fully fleshed out,

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but there's a lot of talk in the world

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about doing it scared.

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And I understand where that's coming from in a way,

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but that will crush you if you keep doing it scared.

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Like you can do it scared a couple of times,

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but if you continue,

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because you're operating out of fear

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and you were not made for fear.

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And so I feel like the Lord had brought me to a new place

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of beginning to do things in faith.

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And it was about, I can, okay, I can do this.

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I can do, I might not want to always do this,

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but I can do all things through Christ

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who strengthens me, right?

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And I began to operate on that.

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And there's nothing wrong with operating out of faith,

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but it became really exhausting to me.

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So as I was doing this, why exercise with you guys,

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my why sounded like this, why am I so tired?

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I just went right off the script.

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I wanted to have this conversation with the Lord,

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but the Lord wanted to have this conversation with me.

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And so it was like, Lord, why am I so tired?

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Why is this not fun?

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Why am I struggling in something that I honestly feel

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is of you and something that I actually want?

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Like, I want to be pouring in the kingdom messengers.

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I want to be showing up on social media

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through the Posture Channel

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and breaking off fear and anxiety in people's life

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and walking them into a lifestyle of perfect peace.

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I know I want that.

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This isn't about like, I know, but it is,

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it's, it feels draining.

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And I realized I was like operating in a level

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of I was operating in faith, but it was strenuous.

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to start walking and operating out of love.

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And I loved actually the clarity.

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Oh my gosh, who was it?

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Was it, oh, it was Susie where she said,

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I feel like love, me operating out of love is I know.

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I know I'm beloved.

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I know I'm loved.

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And there's really, there's joy in that.

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So, you know, the way that Susie clarified it

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for those who haven't seen her video really quick,

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she said, I feel like when I'm operating out of fear,

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it was all about displeasing.

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I don't want to displease the Lord, you know,

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et cetera, et cetera.

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Out of faith, it was about my motivation was pleasing.

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I want to please the Lord.

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That's a great motivation.

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That's a good desire, wanting to please the Lord.

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So there's not, again, there's nothing wrong with faith,

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but there is a deeper, there's a better realm.

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There's the kingdom realm.

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And that is where we are fueled by love.

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And it's fuel that actually cast out fear.

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I mean, it's love, I'm sorry, that actually cast out fear.

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And so that's where I'm kind of starting to level up.

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And so anyway, so we were talking about that.

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So the homework assignment for this past week was,

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hey, just a self-evaluation.

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Where do you feel like you are?

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And I noticed that from much of your feedback,

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you guys have realized the same thing that I'm realizing

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is that in different areas,

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I might be operating out of different places, right?

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So in this area, I feel like I'm fully operating

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out of a place of love, but in this area of my life,

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so for me, relationships,

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I feel like I'm still operating out of fear.

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And so that is a joyful highlight for me

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that there's about to be an upgrade in that area.

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So what does that have to do with channels

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and ministry and all that stuff?

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Well, if we continue to be, you know, I noticed

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I'm not just in my own life, but when it comes to ministers of the gospel, sons of God walking

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the earth, if we're not aware of our operating system and the invitation of the highest level

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of operating system that we have, we can run ourselves into the ground. So if we're operating

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out of fear, it looks great externally. Oh man, you're doing all these amazing things. You're

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traveling to this country and you're doing that and you're building this ministry. But you guys

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all probably have a name in your head of someone you deeply admired, who was doing all the things

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for the kingdom and burnt out personally. And I think that is because there's not a full

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awareness of just how deeply loved they actually are, because what the fuel is,

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is not your love for you or your love for others or others love for you. It's God's love for you.

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It's walking in that delight daily. So today I wanted to get a couple of shares because

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at this level, I realized I don't want to do all the talking. I don't always want to do all the

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talking anyway, but I just want to invite some feedback. So if you guys can like unmute yourselves

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and just talk about this past week and where you've been as you've kind of just kind of made

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a self-diagnosis of, hey, I think I'm here. The second question, which is what I really wanted

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to hear from you guys. This is what I want to hear, because I already heard you've shared what

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it is that you want. That was the question. Now, what do you want? Because we're talking about the

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commingling of desires as sons of God. Like we don't have to deny just because we want something

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that it's not of God. We are one with Christ. There's a commingling of desires and this is fully,

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this is expressed in every areas of our lives, including our ministry and the output, right?

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We're talking about taking external territory, but more importantly, we have to take internal

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territory. And I'm just curious, was it hard for any of you to answer that question? This is what

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I want. When it taught, when I think about my ministry, when I think about serving my who,

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this is what I want. Was that an easy question for you guys to answer? Was it difficult? Like,

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what did that look like? Anyone jump in? For me, it was hard because I don't have a clarity on what

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it is I do want. I want to disciple people. I know I'm called to do that, but how and where,

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that's another question. And I don't feel I'm quite entering that door yet.

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You know, so for me, it was hard to figure out what is it exactly I want because God's led me

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through different things. And what is this season about? I'm doing this because he led me into it.

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But when I think of where it's going and what could happen with it, I don't have any joy in that.

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So for me, if there's no joy in it, then I need to wait till God drops something in me. And he

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said, it's going to happen. All of a sudden, I'll know what I'm meant to do and I'll just step into

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it. And so that's what I'm waiting for. So are you waiting? Do you feel like you're waiting in

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a place of like full love? Or do you feel like any tension because you don't know yet?

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No, not at all. I did when I was making the video, because I was trying to get something.

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And then I thought, I just don't feel that I'm connected. I could do all sorts of things

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and step into it. But I don't feel I'm meant to be there right now.

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Maybe at church. I'd like to do a disciple group there. That's where we've been heading for a few

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years, but I still don't feel it's the timing is right. That's clarity. I guess it is really,

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isn't it? Because I haven't really thought about it before.

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There's deep clarity when we come to a place of full reliance on God.

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Because that's what actually builds resilience in us. It feels very discombobulating, especially

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for those of us that are used to, this is what ministry looks like. We have a picture in our

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head because of what we've been a part of in the past. But I don't want you guys to forget

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that this is a group of pioneers. And so what we're doing might not be what's been done before.

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And that's a point of clarity. It doesn't mean if it has been done before, it's wrong. It's just that

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for some of us, we might not have a full picture because we don't have a model. And Miriam,

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I'm speaking specifically to you because you said the Lord told you you're a prototype.

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only when he elaborated on it and said, it's because I'm a prototype of what he can do in

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somebody. I thought, oh, I'm a prototype. I'm a picture of what everybody should be.

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be like. But that's not really it. You know, it's more I'm a

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picture of what God can do in somebody by his spirit. And I

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just want to say something about the fear too, Lindsay, because

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I've gone through a battle for six weeks, and I'm coming out of

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it. And it had to do with being attacked by fear in the middle

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of the night, in the day, for no reason. But he's taken me

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through it. And I've learned so much over the years of how to

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deal with fear. But this time, it wasn't working. And what he

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told me, stop striving and let me do it. So as soon as I'm

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afraid, I have to say, Okay, this is the fear. Now you do it.

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And he gives me songs. He is like, I have to let him lead me

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I can't go by how it happened before, because I'm in a new

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place. And he has to be the one that that comes in and leads me

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out of that. And I'm finding I I'm not I wouldn't say I'm

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absolutely fear of free, but but I'm just about free

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altogether. And mostly it's just a little anxiety now. Yeah.

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That's amazing. Praise God for that revelation. That's so

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confirming to me because I feel like and I had to attack it last

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night, which is odd. I haven't had that in a long time. And I

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think some of its physical related, but but I feel like the

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Lord is inviting me. So it's very confirming that you shared

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this to stop talking myself out of fear. Because I tend to go

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there even with scripture, like, okay, I'm just gonna like, use

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this to try to talk myself out of the fear. And the Lord's

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like, let me talk you into love. And that was a that was a flip

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for me because it was a it was to your point, it was him doing

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it. Not me. It wasn't talking myself into love. He said, let

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me talk you into love. So Susie, I see you waving your

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hand.

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So interestingly, yesterday was my birthday. And on Friday, we

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went out and celebrated and I fast on Monday. So I just said,

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Okay, fast on my birthday. Well, there's some part of my body

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that said, this is not celebrating. Are you kidding?

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And, um, and I just, ah, just was off all day and not just

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because I hadn't eaten. And, um, and you know, like you're

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saying, so what's going on my, you know, and all of that. And

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this morning, I kind of woke up with the Lord saying, so did you

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like your birthday present? And I was what is like, I knew, but

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I didn't do it when I want a better thought. I can ask for

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it. When I want to feel different. I can ask for it. I

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don't just sit in it and say, Yeah, I don't like this. I can

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ask for it. And so that that is that that big, big thing for me.

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The other thing I'm realizing is that what I really, really want

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is to not have answers to I want to, I want to show up and I put

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that in my I want to show up and that's enough. And I have a

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memory as a child of doing some sort of like, you know, brownie

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fly up thing when I was eight, and I was not prepared. I had

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this idea was kind of do this, not prepared, totally flopped,

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embarrassed, you know, you have to be prepared if you're going

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to do something. And to show up, apparently not prepared, is

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something I'm shifting with. And, but when I have

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conversations with people, I'm getting really good at being

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all right with that. But being on social media, how I show up

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just being myself, you know, what does that look like? So I

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guess that what I want want is to know how that how that all

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works. And I think and addressing Marianne, I'm really

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getting it that and I probably said this, to be comfortable

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with not knowing to realize how much does it talk about mystery?

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And, and, and do we know do we know in our knower? So we do

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know, it's just that our mind doesn't know. And to get

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comfortable with in what you're saying, Marianne, if it's okay,

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you know, you, you do have it, your mind just doesn't know that

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you have it. And we're going to learn how to be okay with that.

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Thanks for sharing, Susie, and happy related birthday. Hey,

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Tamara, are you raising? Oh, Amy, that was Amy's hand. Sorry,

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you just your picture switched.

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Okay, um, this is just following the line of thinking

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I guess, you know, like, in, in the week I came into this like, I am more myself, then I feel like I've ever been in my life, you know, I mean just like stepping into that and stepped into it in a new way and it's like being unfamiliar with something

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that is so familiar, you know, the newness of that. And I, as I was like reading comments and watching.

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You posted today Marian and Tamara, and just, you know, reading through that and and reading comments Kathy, your, your comments on on Susie and Marian, but particularly when Marian and Marian I don't know if you read my comments, but like, I was just like

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just exploding all over me through, through your words.

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And, and what I saw was, because, like, Susie talked about relaxing and Marian talked about you know being familiar with that. I feel like the Lord has told me, relax.

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And I thought, when we're relaxing into ourselves, like we, we find our home, you know, it's like me being fully me being totally one with him, and who he created to me to be.

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And I just had this like I mean it was a word for you Marian about like where you are right now. And, you know, as Lindsay said in that dependence on him, not knowing maybe what the next step is but just being at home and relaxing into that.

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And I identified in probably nearly everybody else does like maybe getting your face ready before you record or going through it several times until you just kind of like fully relaxing to who you are.

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And you're representing yourself and you're representing him. And it was this morning the Lord took me to Hebrews four about the word because I was just like I just could see like your heart and his just like being like this, you know, just one.

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And you're coming up out of your being that the you being completely you was his words, your words and their his words because you are doing you all are doing this together.

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And then back up above that, it's talking about in Hebrews, it's talking about it goes from his rest to his word. And before that it says today.

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If you hear my voice.

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And there's like, I mean that that place of of oneness.

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And that relaxing into us. I mean I just think it's a work, a defining work that he's doing, and all of us as a group right now.

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I like that word relax it because it gave me and it gave me another posture another visual of a posture. I'm just like leaning in.

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I'm glad that resonate thank you for sharing to the reference I was trying to find the reference you said Hebrews for Amy Hebrews for, I think it's for 12, or I think it is for 12, which is, you know, the Word of God is active and alive.

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It's like when we're our hearts are, and we're hearing from him. I mean, that's where he's leading us into rest, because that's just just precedes, you know, for the Word of God is alive, active and alive, sharper than a two edged sword, that it's

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like coming into that rest and that relaxing into.

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If we go back to what we, we talked about at the end of the intensive that, like we were fully us in the spirit.

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We're already completely at home with him, and who we were.

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He's leading us back to ourselves, which is, I mean like the word that God gave me for Marian was like, where you are.

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You and God together in your heart, your mind together in oneness is leading people to the same place that he's brought you.

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Sweet.

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Thank you, Amy.

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Hey Monica.

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How are you.

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As you're back to and healed healed whole and well.

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Thank you, Lord.

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Yes.

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That's great.

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It is.

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And I just wanted to share super quickly how literally in a week's time, almost a week,

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Thursday, he took me through each one of these steps of fear, faith, and love.

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And so, and I'll be super, super brief with it, the Cliff Notes version of my whole journey

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this week.

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So basically on Thursday afternoon, I had taken a shower and I was getting ready to

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put my other leg in with my clothes, and all of a sudden my back just locked up in like

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a halfway position.

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sit down.

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And I was kind of on my tippy toes, but I was in the bathroom by myself, of course,

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and the door was closed and the other door was closed to the bedroom and everybody was

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downstairs.

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I started, I was screaming.

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I was trying to see what I could grab, but I could barely move.

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So it ended up being close to half an hour that I was hanging there.

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I couldn't speak.

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So nobody, when Jared got there, he didn't know what was happening to me because I could

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barely, he's like, do I need to call 911?

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And so that was a fearful, that was a time of a lot of fear.

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And it wasn't just a fear of what's happening right now in my body.

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It was, Lord, what have I done up to right now?

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Let's say this was the end.

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What are the things that, that I am evaluating in my life that I have done to get closer

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to you?

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Like, have I achieved what you wanted me to achieve here in this space and time?

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And that, that was kind of running through my mind.

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And so there was this fear of lack of like, oh my gosh, kind of what you spoke over me,

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Lindsay, like, okay, you need to just settle down and know that you don't have to do, do,

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do.

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And so I was coming up and then, so that all passed, turns out I had a tear in my muscle

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in my back.

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And so it was very difficult to move, to breathe, to do all of the things, to sleep.

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But I knew that on Saturday at church, we have once a month, a Holy Spirit bootcamp

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where we pray in tongues for like four hours straight.

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You need to get there.

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You need to get there.

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And so I got out of bed with my PJs, no makeup, my hair was all curly, which I'm not used

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to.

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And I went in my slippers and I managed to get down the stairs.

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And I told Jared, my husband, I said, any chance you'd like to take me to the Holy Ghost

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Bootcamp?

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And he was like, are you serious?

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He was just, I convinced him though.

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I could barely get out of the car by the time I got there, I needed two people to get me

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But here's the story that went into faith.

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I got to the first row, the back row of seats in the church.

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I made it.

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I'm here.

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And he told me to come and I came and I came to see you.

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by people just praying over me.

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They could see by the state of how I looked.

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And our pastor's wife came over to me and she gave me a hug that I will never, not even

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my mother has given me a hug like this.

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It was a hug that just, I was able to be like engulfed in it.

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And I was just crying into her shoulder.

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And I literally felt like it was Jesus saying, you came, you came, just watch what I'm about

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to do.

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And so after that, she grabbed my hand and she said, we're going to walk.

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my side, holding my hand.

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And she's praying in the spirit, praying in the spirit, going.

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And I'm like, and I'm crying the whole time because it was very painful.

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all of a sudden. And I'm just, and she said, there is a fight going on in you and the enemy

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is trying to steal what the Lord has for you. She said, fight. So then I burst into tongues

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and we're both going at it like hardcore, go, go, go, go, go. Then someone else came

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up and I'll try to keep this short. Sorry. But someone else came up to the microphone

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and said, the Lord just told me that we should all sing in tongues over Monica.

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So I'm still like halfway going around the corner walking and all of a sudden I hear,

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I swear it sounded like just a legion of angels just singing all around me like a cloud. And

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it was so forceful that I was walking forward. So I'm like here walking forward and it literally

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stopped me in my tracks. And I had to start walking backwards because it was just like

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overpowering me in that moment. And I'm so happy I could stand up and do that right now.

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And by the end of that, I was on the floor on my face because it was just so powerful.

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But let me tell you what happened. There was a young lady, she's a campus minister at Duke

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university who came and she was in front of me and I heard her voice and she said, look

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up, look up. And so I looked up at her in the middle of my tears and she said,

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the Lord is telling me that you have an orphan spirit that you haven't dealt with yet.

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Come out of agreement with it, renounce it and tell it to go in the name of Jesus.

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So I did that and I just felt some, you know, some freedom lifting there.

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And then I had my head down again and then she said, look up again. And she said, there's more.

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What are you holding on to? And all of a sudden, just from within me, all of a sudden it came to

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my memory. And I had had this for, I mean, I'm 50 years old and I've had this for most of my life,

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but I didn't know what had happened to me. And this image of this female sexually abusing me

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came up out of nowhere. And so what came out of my mouth in that moment was fear of abuse,

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was what came out that I needed to release. And she said, in the name of Jesus, it's gone.

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And in that moment, I felt a peace that I had never in my life felt before.

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It was just, it covered me. It just, it engulfed me. It was love. It was his pure love. And then

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immediately I see a vision. And in this vision, I saw Jesus on the cross of Calvary. And he said,

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take that experience, take that memory and nail it to the cross while he was on it. And I literally

431
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was climbing up and I could see him next to me in agony and in pain. And he said, put it there,

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put it there. And so I nailed it onto the cross with him and I got down. And the moment that I

433
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got down, guess what happened? My whole countenance, everything, what I was wearing,

434
00:33:24.460 --> 00:33:31.340
everything was transformed into this beautiful regal white gown. I was a queen. I was a queen.

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And this long train, white train coming behind me. And I was walking with such a posture of just

436
00:33:40.300 --> 00:33:46.700
knowing. You guys have been talking about the knowing. It was the knowing who I was, the

437
00:33:46.700 --> 00:33:52.700
knowing that I was loved, the knowing and the authority that just bursted out of me just from

438
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the knowing. And it was just so incredible. I'm telling you, so incredible to go through those

439
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three things that you had to walk through in that particular moment. He said, from now on,

440
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from now on, because I saw a wineskin and I saw a big hand squeezing the wineskin. He said, you

441
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are going to be pressed. This is a season of pressing. And I saw the hand pressing it and

442
00:34:23.100 --> 00:34:28.620
there were drops of blood coming out of it. It was the blood of Jesus. He said, but every time you

443
00:34:28.620 --> 00:34:37.179
are squeezed, now that you know, the only thing that will come out is my blood. And it was just

444
00:34:37.179 --> 00:34:44.699
this. Okay, I'm done. I don't need anything else. I don't need anything else. I'm ready. Tell me

445
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where you want me to go. I'm ready. I'm equipped. I'm prepared. I know who I am. There's no stopping

446
00:34:52.940 --> 00:34:59.660
it. And so in my mind is like, what do I want to do? I want others to experience the same.

447
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:08.240
no way I can keep all of that to myself and I know that he has equipped me to go out and because I

448
00:35:08.240 --> 00:35:14.640
also had a sword when I got off of the cross um all of a sudden all these spider webs started

449
00:35:14.640 --> 00:35:20.000
engulfing me and I was like starting to get all tied up and I heard this voice that gets your

450
00:35:20.000 --> 00:35:26.480
sword out and I was like oh my gosh I forgot I have a sword it's the truth it's the truth of

451
00:35:26.480 --> 00:35:32.880
the word so I get my sword out I slice it up and then I got to walk free so it just reminded me

452
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that there will be more moments when the enemy comes to try to create division in my own mind

453
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about who I am but I have the truth right at my side and not only that but he's taught me

454
00:35:46.480 --> 00:35:55.280
the importance of community when I got there and if Vida is her name is the pastor if she had not

455
00:35:55.280 --> 00:36:01.920
taken me by the hand and made me push through the fire to get to where God wanted me to go

456
00:36:01.920 --> 00:36:07.440
I would have still been standing in the or sitting in the back crying and not being able to move and

457
00:36:07.440 --> 00:36:15.280
that's why I've kind of recommitted to this group because I know that you we're all getting breakthroughs

458
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in different areas and we're all doing this in such a profound way like what this is affecting

459
00:36:22.160 --> 00:36:29.680
is not just here in the physical this is he told me this is done he said you are done a a stranger

460
00:36:29.680 --> 00:36:35.520
came up to me during that time and he said I have a word from you from the Lord he said I have seen

461
00:36:35.520 --> 00:36:41.440
you you have been fighting you have been fighting non-stop he said it is finished in the spiritual

462
00:36:41.440 --> 00:36:49.680
realm now it's your time to rest and so I believe that we are all in that process of we've been

463
00:36:49.680 --> 00:36:54.400
fighting fighting fighting wanting to speak wanting to speak wanting to give the message

464
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and the message is already there now it's time to rest and let it flow just like when you stop

465
00:37:00.240 --> 00:37:03.920
posting Lindsay and all of a sudden your numbers go up that's what it looks like

466
00:37:05.840 --> 00:37:07.760
you can't stop it even if you wanted to

467
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so that is my story of going through the process I'm still in awe about it and I'm just so thankful

468
00:37:16.560 --> 00:37:20.080
for you guys here's what I want to point out you guys because we've been a lot of us have

469
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been journeying for a while together and so this is important when we hear each other's processes

470
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because it's testimony and in testimony there's invitation for the Lord to do it again so if

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you've been with us for a while you know that Monica is big on obedience that's like one of

472
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Monica's favorite words is obedience I I am here out of pure obedience and she has taken huge leaps

473
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and mega action all based on obedience and that's honorable

474
00:37:48.800 --> 00:37:51.520
but obedience is different for an orphan than it is for a son

475
00:37:54.000 --> 00:38:01.280
because when you're an orphan obedience is fear-based you obey because you can't trust

476
00:38:01.840 --> 00:38:08.560
what the outcome would be so you keep in line because that is your sense of control because

477
00:38:08.560 --> 00:38:14.800
you can't that's all you can do is just obey when you're a son obedience is based out of love

478
00:38:15.520 --> 00:38:21.760
you obey because you can trust Lord I trust you Lord you want me to go to this meeting

479
00:38:23.360 --> 00:38:29.760
I'll go because I trust you because I know you love me and my expectation is set on your love

480
00:38:29.760 --> 00:38:36.800
my expectation is not set on circumstances what I'm currently feeling that's huge another thing

481
00:38:36.800 --> 00:38:42.720
I want to point out is Monica got on two weeks ago and was talking about her why and she was

482
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talking about this word the Lord gave her about being a lie detector and breaking off lies from

483
00:38:47.760 --> 00:38:54.080
people and isn't it interesting that the father in his kindness and goodness Monica just walked

484
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her through that process that she said I want to do this for others that was prophetic

485
00:39:02.960 --> 00:39:08.160
hmm and the Lord said okay I'm going to walk you through that and guys that's for all of us that's

486
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available for all of us the and and I know that all of you are here because I watched your videos

487
00:39:13.760 --> 00:39:17.600
you're doing what you're doing based on the testimony of your own lives hey this is a

488
00:39:17.600 --> 00:39:22.560
victory this is a breakthrough that I'm walking and I want to share this with others that process

489
00:39:22.560 --> 00:39:30.640
doesn't stop there's no arrival point there's there's it's glory to glory that we're going

490
00:39:30.640 --> 00:39:36.960
so we can expect greater levels of awareness because again fullness is our starting point so

491
00:39:36.960 --> 00:39:41.040
we're not we're not striving for fullness we're not working for fullness we're not trying to get

492
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to a point to then feel full we are simply discovering and becoming more aware of how full

493
00:39:46.400 --> 00:39:51.440
the fullness is the fullness of Christ is in our lives so thank you for sharing okay we've got 20

494
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minutes I do want to hear from Tamara and and Susie are you able to just keep it brief I want

495
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or do okay all right go ahead Tamara

496
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Oh, you're muting, hold on.

497
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I got it.

498
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I got it.

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So for me, because the Lord had told me that the global impact, that I'm going to have

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global impact, for me, I was like, that doesn't feel humble.

501
00:40:18.600 --> 00:40:27.280
You know, like it doesn't feel humble to say that, you know, that, you know, this is going

502
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to be big and not just an online community or just one thing.

503
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Like he's given me vision for multiple things.

504
00:40:37.920 --> 00:40:45.760
And what you spoken to me on one of the prayers, um, that I'm smart, that I'm intelligent,

505
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intelligent, intelligent, smart is good to high IQ woman of depth.

506
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You have no idea.

507
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And I can talk with you offline about that, but you have no idea what that did for me.

508
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Because I've always felt like, how am I here?

509
00:41:05.400 --> 00:41:08.480
Or I don't qualify or I'm not good enough.

510
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And then the thoughts come with God, if you're telling me I'm going to be doing these businesses

511
00:41:13.880 --> 00:41:19.320
and I'm going to be my, I'm a be multifaceted in this, like, am I really smart enough to

512
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do that?

513
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You know, like I was beginning to doubt myself, like, am I qualified to do this?

514
00:41:27.240 --> 00:41:29.880
And I've always felt like, well, what do I have to offer?

515
00:41:29.880 --> 00:41:33.800
I don't have a background of high education or no education.

516
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If I could just be honest besides high school.

517
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And so for me, I'm like, but I've always been smart.

518
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I've always been smart in school.

519
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And so, but I guess the Lord is just like, let me show you what I've been tearing myself

520
00:41:52.200 --> 00:41:59.240
down for years about my intelligence.

521
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So for him to tell me this big vision of all of these things that I'm going to do businesses

522
00:42:06.720 --> 00:42:10.520
and all of these things, I'm like, Lord, how can I do that?

523
00:42:10.520 --> 00:42:18.720
You know, so, but the first step for me was getting past feeling like, oh, this is not

524
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humble.

525
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I'm going to have global impact, like, God, this is not humble.

526
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And be okay to say that, you know, to have global impact and television and, you know,

527
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not just, just having a community, just an online community, but it's going to be bigger

528
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than that.

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And just being okay with that, with verbalizing that and knowing that he's going to qualify

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me for everything.

531
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So that's it.

532
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I know we got to get going.

533
00:42:55.440 --> 00:42:56.440
No, I don't.

534
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I don't want you to feel rushed, but I thank you for keeping it concise.

535
00:43:00.160 --> 00:43:05.240
This is important for us, especially where we're heading into this next week, because

536
00:43:05.240 --> 00:43:11.600
be surprised as you start to dream and write the vision down, which we're going to be talking

537
00:43:11.600 --> 00:43:17.600
about a little bit today and pressing into that place of what it is that I want, how

538
00:43:17.600 --> 00:43:23.880
that lie of self-promotion, false humility is going to want to creep in to that conversation

539
00:43:23.880 --> 00:43:25.160
between you and the Lord.

540
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And it has no place in the conversation between you and the Lord, again, self-promotion is

541
00:43:31.480 --> 00:43:34.920
that fear it's fear-based.

542
00:43:34.920 --> 00:43:38.960
And many of it, many of some of that fear, I don't, let me say, I'm going to try to use

543
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my language.

544
00:43:39.960 --> 00:43:40.960
Right.

545
00:43:40.960 --> 00:43:43.960
It comes from a pure heart because we've seen it go awry.

546
00:43:43.960 --> 00:43:44.960
Right.

547
00:43:44.960 --> 00:43:49.400
And for whatever reason, we tend to let what has gone wrong, stick with us instead of what

548
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has gone.

549
00:43:50.400 --> 00:43:51.400
Right.

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00:43:51.400 --> 00:43:56.960
I know plenty of generals in the kingdom who have done this well and for long, like not

551
00:43:56.960 --> 00:43:58.920
crash and burn at the end of their lives.

552
00:43:58.920 --> 00:43:59.920
Right.

553
00:43:59.920 --> 00:44:04.040
But there's, you know, the few, and I know it seems like many, but in comparison with

554
00:44:04.160 --> 00:44:08.520
all is happening, not just in the public arena, but also behind the scenes, people will never

555
00:44:08.520 --> 00:44:16.400
know their names of that have gone to do big, crazy things for the kingdom, like far outweigh

556
00:44:16.400 --> 00:44:20.360
what has gone wrong, but the enemy wants to us to kind of stick with, well, that person,

557
00:44:20.360 --> 00:44:22.640
you know, they took it too far.

558
00:44:22.640 --> 00:44:28.920
And here's what I don't like ultimately about that is we become afraid of exaggerating the

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goodness of God.

560
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And you can't do that.

561
00:44:36.120 --> 00:44:41.120
So we start to not just put limits on ourself, which is brutal enough, but we start to put

562
00:44:41.120 --> 00:44:43.640
limitations on the Lord.

563
00:44:43.640 --> 00:44:46.460
He can't be that good.

564
00:44:46.460 --> 00:44:48.560
He can't be that kind.

565
00:44:48.560 --> 00:44:51.680
He can't be that big.

566
00:44:51.680 --> 00:44:59.200
So that's why I take that very seriously because he doesn't deserve it.

567
00:44:59.200 --> 00:44:59.960
So many times that.

568
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.760
I held him hostage in his vision for what he wants to do in this world through me.

569
00:45:04.760 --> 00:45:07.620
Remember when he was with us and he talked about that beautiful circle

570
00:45:07.620 --> 00:45:10.660
of from him, through him, to him.

571
00:45:12.760 --> 00:45:14.300
There's no room for fear in that.

572
00:45:14.320 --> 00:45:17.040
There's no room for self-promotion that cause he, he is the

573
00:45:17.040 --> 00:45:19.640
full circle and all of that.

574
00:45:21.320 --> 00:45:23.200
What we're receiving is from the Lord.

575
00:45:23.640 --> 00:45:29.240
It's happening through him in us and it's coming back to him.

576
00:45:30.400 --> 00:45:33.120
And so, uh, so thank you for bringing that up to Mara.

577
00:45:33.120 --> 00:45:34.240
Cause that's very real.

578
00:45:34.440 --> 00:45:35.240
It's very real.

579
00:45:35.700 --> 00:45:40.760
That conversation of this doesn't feel humble, but I, we have people in the

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00:45:40.760 --> 00:45:47.480
world who don't, don't run with that fear and they end up doing some incredible

581
00:45:47.480 --> 00:45:52.000
things that serve the earth and I believe that serve the vision of the Lord has

582
00:45:52.000 --> 00:45:55.780
for the earth, redeeming the earth, restoring the earth through technology

583
00:45:55.780 --> 00:46:00.740
and medical advances and, um, community service, and there's a lot because

584
00:46:00.740 --> 00:46:04.900
they, they're not stuck about whether or not this is humble or not.

585
00:46:04.900 --> 00:46:06.060
They just kind of go for it.

586
00:46:06.980 --> 00:46:11.620
And so now it's time for the sons of God to do the same and, and, and, and,

587
00:46:11.700 --> 00:46:15.140
and take these, these who are also sons of God, they just don't know

588
00:46:15.140 --> 00:46:18.420
it yet and make them aware, bring some awareness to what they're doing.

589
00:46:18.420 --> 00:46:19.820
So, um, okay.

590
00:46:19.820 --> 00:46:20.940
So Susie, we have heard from you.

591
00:46:20.940 --> 00:46:23.900
I just want to hear from Xavier and then we'll, I want to share a little bit

592
00:46:23.900 --> 00:46:25.420
about kind of what we're doing this week.

593
00:46:25.900 --> 00:46:31.700
I, if I could just really, really, really short that open the orphan spirit,

594
00:46:31.700 --> 00:46:37.780
obedience, the Lord just showed me that yielding and, um, you know, any, most,

595
00:46:37.780 --> 00:46:45.580
mostly yielding, I realized that there is yielding as in giving in, giving up.

596
00:46:46.060 --> 00:46:53.100
And then the Lord just showed me there's that yielding as in sinking into that

597
00:46:53.100 --> 00:46:58.260
gentle, totally, totally respond, you know, reliable thing.

598
00:46:58.260 --> 00:47:00.580
And, and it was just this morning.

599
00:47:00.580 --> 00:47:07.780
I realized I have been operating out of yielding means losing a part of myself,

600
00:47:08.300 --> 00:47:11.860
you know, giving up that bit of myself.

601
00:47:12.460 --> 00:47:14.580
And so I'm really excited.

602
00:47:14.580 --> 00:47:20.780
And so yeah, that orphan obedience versus son obedience and that just

603
00:47:20.940 --> 00:47:22.700
gentle, soft yielding.

604
00:47:23.700 --> 00:47:24.340
That's good.

605
00:47:24.580 --> 00:47:26.820
I'll only let you share because it's your birthday.

606
00:47:29.420 --> 00:47:30.500
It's it's okay.

607
00:47:30.500 --> 00:47:32.100
I'm going, I'm going to be quick.

608
00:47:32.300 --> 00:47:36.820
Um, because I've been on the road for the last three weeks.

609
00:47:36.860 --> 00:47:40.860
In fact, I just, I've had about an hour's worth of sleep after 13 hours

610
00:47:40.860 --> 00:47:44.500
of driving to get home, um, to everyone.

611
00:47:44.500 --> 00:47:49.660
And I just wanted to say what everyone has shared has resonated with me.

612
00:47:50.140 --> 00:47:50.420
Okay.

613
00:47:50.420 --> 00:47:53.620
Because the Lord has been taking me through all of this throughout this

614
00:47:53.620 --> 00:47:58.180
whole, this whole trip and things that have been happening, I'm not going to

615
00:47:58.180 --> 00:48:03.580
go into the stories and whatnot, but every single thing, and, you know,

616
00:48:03.620 --> 00:48:09.540
especially well, all of it, but what, what really strikes me is one of the

617
00:48:09.540 --> 00:48:13.460
things that I've been going back and forth with, with the Lord with, especially

618
00:48:13.660 --> 00:48:16.500
doing this trip and not being able to do what I wanted to do and get everything

619
00:48:16.500 --> 00:48:17.540
out and do all of this.

620
00:48:18.060 --> 00:48:20.340
And the Lord told me to stop striving.

621
00:48:21.420 --> 00:48:22.060
Okay.

622
00:48:22.660 --> 00:48:25.140
And, and just stop striving.

623
00:48:25.940 --> 00:48:26.500
Okay.

624
00:48:26.540 --> 00:48:30.940
And he showed me that what he's going to do in the next 30 days, just with, with

625
00:48:30.940 --> 00:48:34.860
me, and I know it's not just with me because hearing all the things that all

626
00:48:34.860 --> 00:48:36.820
of you are talking about, okay.

627
00:48:36.820 --> 00:48:43.340
Are, are aspects of what he's dealt with me almost every day while I've been gone.

628
00:48:43.740 --> 00:48:45.780
I have had those same lessons.

629
00:48:45.780 --> 00:48:48.580
I've had, you know, had similar experiences.

630
00:48:49.220 --> 00:48:52.980
And, you know, what, what the Lord is really doing when Lindsay, you said this

631
00:48:52.980 --> 00:48:57.140
was, you know, I didn't even realize that this was the third week, you know, and

632
00:48:57.140 --> 00:49:00.500
when you said, well, we had this, our seven levels of why, well, one of the

633
00:49:00.500 --> 00:49:04.060
first things that Lord dealt with me was the, the, why, you know, I've been kind

634
00:49:04.060 --> 00:49:07.940
of focused on the who and, and what this is, but then we get to the why.

635
00:49:08.540 --> 00:49:13.860
And so the Lord has dealt with me on, on the why, you know, and, and the, this

636
00:49:13.860 --> 00:49:16.460
fear of, I have to do, I have to go, I have to keep on going.

637
00:49:16.460 --> 00:49:17.460
I got to make it happen.

638
00:49:17.700 --> 00:49:18.940
I'm not doing all this.

639
00:49:19.420 --> 00:49:21.500
I had to release that, that as well.

640
00:49:22.060 --> 00:49:22.420
You know?

641
00:49:22.420 --> 00:49:27.620
And so everything that, that each of you has talked about, the Lord has,

642
00:49:27.620 --> 00:49:29.300
has been affecting in my life.

643
00:49:29.340 --> 00:49:34.460
And I have a sense that we are all going through shades of this, of, of all of

644
00:49:34.460 --> 00:49:42.220
these things, because it's just kind of how the spirit moves and I am Monica.

645
00:49:42.260 --> 00:49:47.820
When you said, I am, you know, reaffirming my, or, and, and getting back into this

646
00:49:47.820 --> 00:49:52.100
group, it was the same thing that really wasn't my plan either, you know, but

647
00:49:52.100 --> 00:49:56.220
step by step by step, all of these things, the Lord has brought me back.

648
00:49:56.220 --> 00:49:59.580
And really, you know, he had told me yesterday.

649
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:18.000
or did yesterday, day before, I don't know, I'm so tired, I can't, I can't even think straight. But what was going to happen in the next 30 days, you know, and then Bruce came out and said something about the 30 days. And so I knew that was the resonance. And that was the confirmation, you know, for me to get back.

650
00:50:18.000 --> 00:50:39.000
So I am very, very encouraged. Okay. And I am, I know that God is with all of us. And I know that He has things for us that we can't even comprehend. And if we have started to comprehend it, then we're going, ah, you know, that fear wants to set in, but we're not going to allow that.

651
00:50:39.000 --> 00:50:58.000
And I just, it's just incredible to me, just how the Lord is moving and how He is acting. And we each have our spheres of influence that we are going to be, you know, putting His Word forth and putting His love forth and His grace and His mercy to people who need something.

652
00:50:58.000 --> 00:51:26.000
What the Lord showed me, most of all, in terms of what I'm doing, my why has to go with because people are missing this aspect of their Christianity, or an aspect of their faith. Okay. And they don't even know that it's missing. Okay. And so as the Word goes forth from us, from the Lord, through our mouths, people are going to start to recognize, wait a minute, no, that's true. This is missing, and I want that.

653
00:51:27.000 --> 00:51:43.000
Okay. And just like you said, Monica, you have to share this, you can't help but share this, because there are people who are absolutely in the same position, who the Lord is ready to set free. And it's for each and every one of us. So I think that that's just fantastic. And I'm going to shut up now, because I'm really tired.

654
00:51:43.000 --> 00:52:08.000
It's important that we do process out loud. Especially if you're an internal processor, there's power in us releasing the process verbally, and also writing it down. So I'm curious, for the people who did the homework from this past week, were we talking about, you know, what is it that I want, who wrote it down?

655
00:52:09.000 --> 00:52:35.000
Just wave your hand. Okay, I see Susie and Kathy. Amy kind of, yeah. Okay, so I want to read, because that's part of our homework for this week. So, and I know that some people are catching up on this call, that's okay, too. The big picture is, part of this advancement, this four months, is we've spent a lot of time with the with, right, going wide, casting our net into the social media world, gathering our who.

656
00:52:35.000 --> 00:53:01.000
I want us to start thinking about the depth. How, what, what is the next layer or layers that we want to bring our who in? Because ultimately, our goal is discipleship. We want to disciple people. Not our only goal, but you know, my goal as coaching you guys as Kingdom Messengers, because if you remember, I say it a lot, but I'm wanting to leverage the digital landscape to disciple nations, not just reach nations, but disciple them.

657
00:53:02.000 --> 00:53:27.000
And so there's a depth involved. And so that's part of what we are spending our time doing is thinking through. Now, some of you guys on this call already are doing things like online communities or local Bible studies, or you have curriculum, or you've worked on courses. And so you've, you've done some things. Maybe those are things you want to continue doing, or maybe there's some things you just want to clarify and, and structure and, you know, sharpen what you do.

658
00:53:28.000 --> 00:53:53.000
But we can't just focus on the external territory if we're not also focusing on internal territory. And because at some point, the external territory that we're taking will outweigh the internal territory that Lord's wanting to take within us. And we can be crushed by that. And so that's why you're hearing from all of you that have shared, like, it's not just what the Lord is doing outside of me. It's what he's doing inside of me. And I'm beginning to realize those are very deeply connected.

659
00:53:54.000 --> 00:54:10.000
And I'm only going to be able to go as far as he's as I'm allowing like that awareness to build of what he's doing on the inside. So in the homework for this week, I want you guys to write down the vision. And for people like Marianne, who are like, I'm in the waiting, that is a vision.

660
00:54:12.000 --> 00:54:13.000
Okay, that's a plan.

661
00:54:14.000 --> 00:54:15.000
So wait with the Lord.

662
00:54:16.000 --> 00:54:34.000
But some of you guys are like, I don't like to write things down. It's very important to take some time to do this. So I want to read a few scriptures Proverbs 2918 says where there's no revelation or where there's no vision, some translations say the people cast off restraint, but happy is he who keeps the law.

663
00:54:35.000 --> 00:54:45.000
And Lord brought me back to this verse in the last couple weeks and you know it's a familiar verse maybe all of you know it. But what I was captured by was the, you know, the people casting off restraint.

664
00:54:45.000 --> 00:54:59.000
And I realized that restraint is not always a bad or negative thing. Right. Boundaries are good. David writes in Psalm 16 that he does have boundaries indeed but his boundaries fall in pleasant places.

665
00:54:59.000 --> 00:55:00.000
So,

666
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:06.820
But I, what I want us to, um, what we're breaking free of in this next week is

667
00:55:07.280 --> 00:55:13.620
the lack of restraint, because if we don't know what the vision is or the plan

668
00:55:13.620 --> 00:55:17.580
is, and I'm using the, I hate, I almost hate to use that word because we have

669
00:55:17.580 --> 00:55:18.600
preconceived ideas.

670
00:55:18.600 --> 00:55:22.140
Like it has to be a business, it's a business proposal or it's a ministry

671
00:55:22.140 --> 00:55:26.260
outline, or it's a, it doesn't have to be that it can be that if that's what you

672
00:55:26.440 --> 00:55:34.540
have, but this is about marking the moment with the Lord and taking it out of just

673
00:55:34.540 --> 00:55:37.100
the internal dialogue and writing it down.

674
00:55:37.100 --> 00:55:41.080
I think that there is, you treasure something when you're willing to

675
00:55:41.080 --> 00:55:42.480
take the time to capture it.

676
00:55:42.780 --> 00:55:43.060
Right.

677
00:55:43.060 --> 00:55:44.420
Why do we take photos of things?

678
00:55:45.540 --> 00:55:46.960
Cause we want to remember it.

679
00:55:48.100 --> 00:55:50.540
We want to revisit that memory at a later date.

680
00:55:50.660 --> 00:55:51.100
Right.

681
00:55:51.780 --> 00:55:54.600
Uh, it's the same with the conversations that we have to the Lord.

682
00:55:54.600 --> 00:55:54.920
It's okay.

683
00:55:54.920 --> 00:55:58.260
If you're not like a mega journaler, but for the vision that the Lord is starting

684
00:55:58.260 --> 00:56:03.680
to give us for our lives and for ourselves, when we, when we have the

685
00:56:03.680 --> 00:56:09.600
vision and we treasure the vision, there's some boundaries that form so

686
00:56:09.600 --> 00:56:11.440
that we can be intentional with the vision.

687
00:56:12.840 --> 00:56:16.440
I think I've shared this with you guys before, but Graham cook has shared with

688
00:56:16.440 --> 00:56:21.880
many people that he says, when you start to do intentionally what you've always

689
00:56:21.880 --> 00:56:29.640
done by intuition, you'll experience acceleration and that's very key for

690
00:56:29.640 --> 00:56:35.880
these next four months because there's a lot of us who are very good kind of

691
00:56:36.000 --> 00:56:40.240
feeling it out, which is not bad being an intuitive person, being prophetic,

692
00:56:40.300 --> 00:56:44.760
kind of going with the flow, being spontaneous, but spontaneity

693
00:56:45.120 --> 00:56:47.000
is the fruit of intentionality.

694
00:56:47.720 --> 00:56:50.960
That's when things that's, that's where I've, I believe that's where their

695
00:56:50.960 --> 00:56:54.520
safety and trust in the spontaneity is when, you know, that it's kind of

696
00:56:54.520 --> 00:57:02.480
founded in a place of intentionality preparation, some of us are breaking

697
00:57:02.480 --> 00:57:04.080
free from being bound to that.

698
00:57:04.080 --> 00:57:06.200
So there's freedom in that as well.

699
00:57:06.920 --> 00:57:09.320
But what's going to happen as we write this vision down is there's

700
00:57:09.320 --> 00:57:10.640
going to be some boundaries that form.

701
00:57:10.640 --> 00:57:14.000
Some of that might have to do with your, your, um, time management.

702
00:57:14.000 --> 00:57:16.280
Some of that might have to do with your mind management.

703
00:57:16.360 --> 00:57:17.720
What am I going to be thinking of?

704
00:57:17.720 --> 00:57:19.480
And what am I going to give my energies to?

705
00:57:19.480 --> 00:57:23.920
And what am I like no longer going to waste my time thinking about what, what

706
00:57:23.920 --> 00:57:26.880
are some things that I need to start taking action in and what are some

707
00:57:26.880 --> 00:57:30.480
things that I know you don't have to get there this whole week is just about

708
00:57:30.480 --> 00:57:34.120
taking some time and space to write the vision down, and that is going to

709
00:57:34.120 --> 00:57:36.560
require some dreaming with the Lord.

710
00:57:37.120 --> 00:57:41.000
And that's why I love that to me, what Tamara shared is like, go big.

711
00:57:41.000 --> 00:57:41.360
Okay.

712
00:57:41.360 --> 00:57:43.680
Don't be afraid to exaggerate the goodness of God.

713
00:57:43.680 --> 00:57:45.280
He's a very, very big God.

714
00:57:45.760 --> 00:57:50.920
And I guarantee you, whatever you dream and decide and process with him this week,

715
00:57:51.240 --> 00:57:54.280
he can even, he can go far beyond that.

716
00:57:54.320 --> 00:57:54.680
Right.

717
00:57:55.080 --> 00:57:57.680
So that's exciting because we trust him.

718
00:57:59.680 --> 00:58:03.400
So even if he can take us far beyond what we could ever hope, ask, think, or

719
00:58:03.400 --> 00:58:06.800
imagine, we know that there's safety in that because there's safety in him.

720
00:58:06.800 --> 00:58:09.640
So I want us to spend time this week, writing it down.

721
00:58:09.640 --> 00:58:10.880
What is it that I want?

722
00:58:10.920 --> 00:58:15.640
How speaking of this depth of discipleship, even like where, where is it?

723
00:58:15.640 --> 00:58:18.360
I want to take my, who we're don't want to take them.

724
00:58:18.800 --> 00:58:23.360
What's some of the internal territory even that I want to partner with them

725
00:58:23.360 --> 00:58:25.760
and their journey and taking ground in.

726
00:58:27.440 --> 00:58:28.280
It could be external.

727
00:58:28.280 --> 00:58:29.280
It could be internal.

728
00:58:29.760 --> 00:58:31.000
What do I want that to look like?

729
00:58:31.000 --> 00:58:35.040
If it's not something I feel like I have a model for, this is a healthy

730
00:58:35.040 --> 00:58:36.400
conversation to have with the Lord.

731
00:58:36.800 --> 00:58:39.960
What, what do I not want to do?

732
00:58:41.240 --> 00:58:42.800
Like, what do I just marry and set up?

733
00:58:42.800 --> 00:58:44.320
What am I not feeling the joy in?

734
00:58:45.800 --> 00:58:48.720
That's, that's a branch of this conversation you can have with the Lord.

735
00:58:48.720 --> 00:58:50.600
Cause there's some clarifying things in that too.

736
00:58:50.600 --> 00:58:54.040
Like there's some things I know that I just like, I could probably do that

737
00:58:54.040 --> 00:58:56.680
would maybe be helpful for me, but I don't want to do that right now.

738
00:58:56.680 --> 00:58:57.800
I want to do it in the future.

739
00:58:57.800 --> 00:59:01.160
I've never stopped to ask him, Lord, why does that trigger me?

740
00:59:01.160 --> 00:59:03.600
Are there some things that I, maybe there's some healing that needs to take

741
00:59:03.600 --> 00:59:08.120
place, or maybe there's something in that, that is not pleasing to you and I'm your

742
00:59:08.120 --> 00:59:08.360
son.

743
00:59:08.360 --> 00:59:09.840
So can we have a conversation about that?

744
00:59:09.840 --> 00:59:14.600
Can you entrust me with what it is at knowing what it is that you want to do?

745
00:59:14.600 --> 00:59:16.640
And I'm not even willing to have that conversation with the Lord.

746
00:59:16.640 --> 00:59:20.000
I just, I'm like, I just know that I get triggered or put off or repelled by

747
00:59:20.000 --> 00:59:24.400
certain ideas of how the ministry could go and I've never stopped to ask him,

748
00:59:24.440 --> 00:59:26.080
Lord, why does that trigger me?

749
00:59:26.560 --> 00:59:30.280
What it is at knowing that I'm not going to, you know, blast people on the

750
00:59:30.280 --> 00:59:33.840
internet that might be operating in that model, but I just like, let's, let's

751
00:59:33.840 --> 00:59:35.280
keep this between you and me for now.

752
00:59:35.280 --> 00:59:38.880
You know, it's, I'm trying to, I don't want to put too many parameters on it,

753
00:59:38.880 --> 00:59:41.600
but I just want to give you some prompts and some dialogues of like, let's take

754
00:59:41.600 --> 00:59:43.720
some time to think about this.

755
00:59:43.760 --> 00:59:46.640
I think it's going to be a harder conversation to have with people who are

756
00:59:46.640 --> 00:59:49.240
already, um, have built some things.

757
00:59:50.560 --> 00:59:54.080
Cause it might feel like you're having to maybe deconstruct, but I also think it

758
00:59:54.120 --> 00:59:57.240
can be a really helpful thing because I know that there's things that maybe

759
00:59:57.240 --> 00:59:59.960
you're doing that you really love that you find life giving, or you.

760
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:02.640
really don't love, you don't want to continue to build.

761
01:00:02.640 --> 01:00:06.840
And that's like, allow yourself to dream with the Lord

762
01:00:06.840 --> 01:00:07.680
in those veins.

763
01:00:07.680 --> 01:00:08.720
Sometimes we just don't want to visit it

764
01:00:08.720 --> 01:00:10.640
because we're like, oh, that just seems like a lot of work

765
01:00:10.640 --> 01:00:13.600
to rebuild or redo or restructure,

766
01:00:14.480 --> 01:00:17.960
but it's a really safe conversation to have with him.

767
01:00:17.960 --> 01:00:20.800
You're not committing to the next 20 years of your life

768
01:00:20.800 --> 01:00:21.900
to do something.

769
01:00:23.280 --> 01:00:26.480
You're wanting to take, like, what is it, Lord?

770
01:00:26.480 --> 01:00:28.200
What is, like, let's match our hearts.

771
01:00:28.200 --> 01:00:30.960
Like, let's put our hearts together for a second

772
01:00:30.960 --> 01:00:35.440
and just dream about what it is that we want to do together

773
01:00:35.440 --> 01:00:37.240
and try to be specific.

774
01:00:37.240 --> 01:00:39.840
I know, Kathy, I loved hearing Kathy process

775
01:00:39.840 --> 01:00:42.720
because she had different layers and levels,

776
01:00:42.720 --> 01:00:44.640
and I know she's probably thought and dreamed about this

777
01:00:44.640 --> 01:00:45.480
with the Lord too.

778
01:00:45.480 --> 01:00:48.100
So if you're, I was very inspired

779
01:00:48.100 --> 01:00:49.560
by all of what you guys shared.

780
01:00:49.560 --> 01:00:50.800
I loved how Kathy shared,

781
01:00:50.800 --> 01:00:52.480
because she said, I've even seen some products,

782
01:00:52.480 --> 01:00:54.480
like, it was just really healthy for me

783
01:00:54.480 --> 01:00:56.440
because I could begin to dream about it.

784
01:00:56.440 --> 01:00:58.120
Like, oh, I haven't even thought about a product line

785
01:00:58.920 --> 01:01:00.080
in a long time, and, like, what could kind of come out

786
01:01:00.080 --> 01:01:00.920
of this?

787
01:01:00.920 --> 01:01:02.440
So she was talking about visual journaling and stuff.

788
01:01:02.440 --> 01:01:05.800
So those are things, like, it's really healthy

789
01:01:05.800 --> 01:01:07.300
for us to listen to each other's process

790
01:01:07.300 --> 01:01:10.360
because we're learning, we're practicing not to compare,

791
01:01:11.280 --> 01:01:12.800
you know, like, oh, she really has it together.

792
01:01:12.800 --> 01:01:15.440
I don't have it together, but we're also giving some space

793
01:01:15.440 --> 01:01:18.240
to see ourselves in each other's testimonies

794
01:01:18.240 --> 01:01:20.000
and experience the freedom and breakthrough that are,

795
01:01:20.000 --> 01:01:21.800
that's the beauty of community

796
01:01:21.800 --> 01:01:23.980
is that there's a collective breakthrough

797
01:01:23.980 --> 01:01:25.160
that's happening as well.

798
01:01:25.160 --> 01:01:30.160
So does anyone have any questions about that, that exercise?

799
01:01:32.600 --> 01:01:33.440
Is it good?

800
01:01:33.440 --> 01:01:34.260
Is it clear?

801
01:01:35.600 --> 01:01:38.200
So I have been really enjoying the lives.

802
01:01:38.200 --> 01:01:39.880
I hope you guys have been too,

803
01:01:39.880 --> 01:01:41.640
because I think that there's real beauty

804
01:01:41.640 --> 01:01:43.320
in, like, processing out loud,

805
01:01:43.320 --> 01:01:45.320
especially for some of us who aren't used to doing that.

806
01:01:45.320 --> 01:01:47.880
So what I would love for you guys to do this week

807
01:01:47.880 --> 01:01:49.320
as part of your live is, you know,

808
01:01:49.320 --> 01:01:50.520
you're going to be writing down a lot of things

809
01:01:50.520 --> 01:01:52.580
with the Lord, but just sharing some highlights,

810
01:01:52.580 --> 01:01:54.500
maybe some things that were surprising

811
01:01:54.540 --> 01:01:56.700
or confirming for you after you do this,

812
01:01:56.700 --> 01:01:57.540
after you do this.

813
01:01:57.540 --> 01:01:58.940
And I know it's probably going to,

814
01:01:58.940 --> 01:02:03.580
listen, it might not be one sit down session, okay?

815
01:02:03.580 --> 01:02:07.500
This is probably a multi-conversation with the Lord.

816
01:02:07.500 --> 01:02:09.380
What I'm wanting to set you free of

817
01:02:09.380 --> 01:02:11.260
is you do not have to come next week

818
01:02:11.260 --> 01:02:14.580
with like your full blown out ministry proposal

819
01:02:14.580 --> 01:02:15.840
or business plan.

820
01:02:17.260 --> 01:02:18.580
You just have to come saying,

821
01:02:18.580 --> 01:02:20.420
I had the conversation or the conversations

822
01:02:20.420 --> 01:02:22.540
and I wrote it down.

823
01:02:23.380 --> 01:02:25.780
Or I typed it out, whichever you prefer,

824
01:02:25.780 --> 01:02:27.900
but it is somewhere outside of myself.

825
01:02:29.660 --> 01:02:31.580
I had a mentor share this past week

826
01:02:31.580 --> 01:02:34.740
about he's been wanting to write a book for years.

827
01:02:34.740 --> 01:02:36.660
It's kind of become a joke within our community

828
01:02:36.660 --> 01:02:37.980
because he's like been writing a book

829
01:02:37.980 --> 01:02:39.620
for the last three years.

830
01:02:39.620 --> 01:02:43.780
And, but he's busy doing a lot of other things.

831
01:02:43.780 --> 01:02:46.820
This is not to sell you on the idea of doing a book,

832
01:02:46.820 --> 01:02:49.620
but this was his process and expression

833
01:02:49.620 --> 01:02:51.880
was he realized that there was something

834
01:02:51.880 --> 01:02:55.800
that he had been carrying into some conversations

835
01:02:55.800 --> 01:02:58.000
with people who had basically been,

836
01:02:58.000 --> 01:03:01.660
so what he does, people have kind of started to rip off

837
01:03:01.660 --> 01:03:02.880
and do their own version of it.

838
01:03:02.880 --> 01:03:05.260
Like no surprise, that happens all the time.

839
01:03:05.260 --> 01:03:07.280
And some of these guys have actually,

840
01:03:07.280 --> 01:03:08.680
so he was kind of standoffish

841
01:03:08.680 --> 01:03:10.240
because he was like, I need to like,

842
01:03:10.240 --> 01:03:11.600
do I need to get legal involved?

843
01:03:11.600 --> 01:03:13.180
Because there's some copyright things.

844
01:03:13.180 --> 01:03:15.480
Some of these guys actually reached out to him

845
01:03:15.480 --> 01:03:18.080
and were like, hey, like unbeknownst to them

846
01:03:18.080 --> 01:03:20.240
that he was having any of these struggles with them,

847
01:03:20.240 --> 01:03:22.320
like what you do really inspires me.

848
01:03:22.320 --> 01:03:24.740
Like almost came like a son and were like,

849
01:03:24.740 --> 01:03:26.840
you've really fathered me into some of the truths

850
01:03:26.840 --> 01:03:30.480
that you shared, like sons can be messy sometime

851
01:03:30.480 --> 01:03:31.600
in their expressions, right?

852
01:03:31.600 --> 01:03:32.840
But he had a really great conversation

853
01:03:32.840 --> 01:03:34.920
with the Lord afterwards about

854
01:03:34.920 --> 01:03:36.520
why this was so triggering to him

855
01:03:36.520 --> 01:03:38.240
because he realized after he had some conversations

856
01:03:38.240 --> 01:03:40.800
with the different people that some of the things

857
01:03:40.800 --> 01:03:43.120
were like kind of blown out of proportion

858
01:03:43.120 --> 01:03:44.320
in his own head and heart, right?

859
01:03:44.320 --> 01:03:46.120
Has any of us ever done that?

860
01:03:46.120 --> 01:03:47.960
And the Lord was telling him like,

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you haven't taken the time.

862
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And for him, it was the book.

863
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It doesn't have to be a book for you,

864
01:03:52.180 --> 01:03:55.740
but you haven't taken the time to write it down

865
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because he's really good at operating out of like spontaneity

866
01:03:59.140 --> 01:04:00.500
and like, we're just going to build it as they go.

867
01:04:00.500 --> 01:04:01.980
He's like super entrepreneurial and everything like that.

868
01:04:01.980 --> 01:04:03.800
He's like, you haven't taken time to write the book.

869
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And if you go tomorrow,

870
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if you're taken in a fiery chariot tomorrow,

871
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what is left of you here that someone could take

872
01:04:14.000 --> 01:04:16.820
and replicate and say, this is so-and-so's,

873
01:04:16.820 --> 01:04:18.740
this is what the Lord has given so-and-so

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01:04:18.740 --> 01:04:21.780
for the earth, for the generations.

875
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Like you haven't taken the time

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01:04:22.980 --> 01:04:25.420
to take that out of yourself,

877
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the things that we've been building.

878
01:04:26.820 --> 01:04:28.260
And yeah, there's different expressions

879
01:04:28.260 --> 01:04:29.360
and there's things that he's been building

880
01:04:29.360 --> 01:04:30.360
and businesses and stuff,

881
01:04:30.360 --> 01:04:33.540
but for him, it was meaningful for the book.

882
01:04:33.540 --> 01:04:35.000
For you, it could be something else,

883
01:04:35.000 --> 01:04:37.800
but this right, this assignment, it's not a paper,

884
01:04:37.800 --> 01:04:39.540
but just that's part of it

885
01:04:39.540 --> 01:04:41.380
is we have to take it outside of ourselves

886
01:04:41.380 --> 01:04:44.540
because all of us are very good hearing from the Lord,

887
01:04:44.540 --> 01:04:47.100
dialoguing with the Lord internally.

888
01:04:47.100 --> 01:04:49.420
And from that has come different expressions

889
01:04:49.420 --> 01:04:51.320
of what we've been doing and building,

890
01:04:52.180 --> 01:04:54.900
but it's time to write some, it's time to write it down

891
01:04:54.900 --> 01:04:58.820
and start getting good at that.

892
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:04.320
of capturing what the Lord is dreaming with us about.

893
01:05:07.120 --> 01:05:12.480
So that is the exercise. And then you go live in the group sometime this week before our next call

894
01:05:12.480 --> 01:05:17.760
and just share, share what the process was like, share some highlights. If you're like this sucked,

895
01:05:17.760 --> 01:05:21.440
share that too. Like it doesn't, I'm not looking for affirmation.

896
01:05:23.760 --> 01:05:28.480
I'm not, it's kind of a coach's worst nightmare, the freedom that I'm giving you guys to go dream.

897
01:05:28.480 --> 01:05:32.720
But I know that this is actually where the magic happens because, you know, if I was like,

898
01:05:32.720 --> 01:05:36.240
if I was a good coach, I'd give you this framework and I'd have you fill out like,

899
01:05:36.240 --> 01:05:40.400
okay, here, you'd put the title of your, what you're going to be doing. And then here's like

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01:05:40.400 --> 01:05:44.480
three bullet points. And there's no template. There's no worksheet for that. There's a time

901
01:05:44.480 --> 01:05:50.720
and place for that, but we have to get good at dreaming again. We got, we have to get good at

902
01:05:50.720 --> 01:05:55.520
pushing the boundaries, if you will, of the extravagance of God's goodness and allowing

903
01:05:55.520 --> 01:06:00.720
that to be the boundaries that we, that are set for us as we plan and build because our

904
01:06:00.720 --> 01:06:05.360
boundaries fall in pleasant places, but there are boundaries. And if there's no boundaries,

905
01:06:05.360 --> 01:06:18.080
if there's no restraint, we perish. All right. I love you guys.

906
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You guys seem like good to go. So if you have any questions, again, if you're ready,

907
01:06:24.080 --> 01:06:28.240
if you're feeling ready, you can always book a one-on-one call with me and start chatting about

908
01:06:29.200 --> 01:06:34.160
things one-on-one. And also you've got the tech helpline that you can book any time,

909
01:06:34.160 --> 01:06:37.600
as many times as you need. So, and that's all found in your Kingdom Messenger account. And if

910
01:06:37.600 --> 01:06:42.880
you can't get there, reach out to Tamara at help at kmwsupport.com and we'll get you all set up.

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So, all right. Talk to you later. Bye-bye.