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Hello everyone, I'm Chris and I am very excited about this R.E.S.T. Intensive.

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I heard about it through Lindsay on her podcast and the interviews that she had with Ashley.

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And I watched the foundational series and it was excellent.

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So I am really looking forward to meeting you all and being on this journey with you.

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I wanted to talk a bit about where I'm at at this moment in time and why I really wanted

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to take this class with you all.

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I'll just start off with a bit of background.

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My passion is cross-cultural ministry.

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I was a missionary in Japan for 17 years, came back in 1998, and from there I got working

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in the medical field, working administrative type in medical groups.

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So right now I'm working for a medical group in their IT department, which, you know, I

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didn't grow up with computers so this was quite a challenge.

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I had been hired by this company and was working in the quality department and then

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it came up they were going to change to a different EMR, electronic medical record system.

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So anyway, I passed a test, got the training back in Wisconsin.

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I live in California, by the way, in Pinole near San Francisco.

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Anyway, so I have been doing that job for about two years and it has been very challenging

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because I don't have an IT background, but it has been very good and it has taught me

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to really rely upon the Lord for everything, even, I mean, it was kind of a challenge to

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think that God wants to be with me in my, quote, secular, unquote, job, but where sometimes

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it seemed impossible to figure things out, either there would be a person that would

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help or God just showed me, you know, how to do it.

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Anyway, so I've been doing that and it is very time consuming.

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If we have meetings and all, I might work 10, 12 hour days, work on the weekends sometimes.

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So that has been going on and then God opened up the door to ministry in India on Zoom calls.

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I have one Zoom call actually to Bible school in India talking about missions, the heart

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of missions.

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So I was going to be doing some more talks like that.

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And then in August, I was diagnosed with breast cancer for the second time, 17 years ago,

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I had breast cancer and it has showed up again.

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And at the end of August, I had surgery and it seems to have gotten it all, but I still

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need radiation therapy.

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And then after that, there's hormone therapy.

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So anyway, at the beginning, I was really at peace in the Lord.

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There were a lot of people praying and, you know, I was really at peace.

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And then I went in for the first, well, not first surgery, for the surgery turned out

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to be the first try.

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And I had, I don't know what was going on with me, but I ate something too late beyond

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the time.

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when I was supposed to eat something.

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I got the times mixed up.

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So I couldn't have the surgery that day

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and wound up having it on August 31st.

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And it was just kind of rattled me.

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And then my, I've had Stanford healthcare.

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So I had an excellent surgeon.

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And then my health plan didn't renew

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or Stanford didn't renew their contract

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with my health plan.

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So then,

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anyway, I'm trying to get this situated, right?

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Anyway, so I've had to get another primary care doctor

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and I have an appointment on Thursday

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and I need referrals to get the radiation therapy.

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That's kind of been held up a bit.

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So I don't know how,

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I've been trying to put into words how I've been feeling,

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but it's really, I don't know.

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I get really emotional sometimes and I feel resistant.

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I really love the Lord,

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but like you would think cancer is like a wake up call.

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So you would start eating right, drinking your water,

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all that, but I'm not.

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And getting lots of sleep, but I've been binging on TV,

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not always eating what I should be eating.

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And just, I don't know, in the last month or so,

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just feeling sad, grieving, I don't know what it is.

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It's difficult to put into words, but just feeling emotional

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and the reason why I, I mean, I think,

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I mean, somebody might say,

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well, you're going to be having radiation therapy.

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Maybe this isn't a good time

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to go through the rest intensive,

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but actually I think it is probably the best time.

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I may be tired or I'm not sure when it's going to start,

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but I just, well, I want a closer,

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more intimate relationship with the Lord.

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And I read the song of Solomon in the Passion Bible,

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Passion Translation, and it really spoke to me

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how my prayer, what I do really affects him.

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And that's kind of amazing to me.

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But anyway, I'm wanting to experience my union with him

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and live out of that.

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I've experienced that, but it's not consistently.

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And I would just like to live in that union

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and that intimacy with the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.

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And that is kind of where I'm at at the moment,

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just kind of feeling I'm resisting what I really want,

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what I really want to do.

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I'm not reading my Bible as much as I should.

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I'm telling myself a lot of shoulds these days.

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And I guess what I'm doing is,

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how I'm coping with the cancer

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and my challenging job.

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I have a technical support gal,

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the company that has given us the, not given us,

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but the software is called Epic.

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And so I have a support person and she's known

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about the cancer and what's going on at work.

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And she said, one of them would be enough to deal with.

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And I love my job.

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So it's not like I don't wanna do it, but it's challenging.

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And I'm 72 and here I am working in IT.

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And I mean, I love it, but it is challenging

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and very, it's pressured.

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But I love the people I work with and I wouldn't change.

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I don't wanna do another job.

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And I think you're probably seeing my roof a lot in my car.

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But anyway, I'm looking forward to meeting you all

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and getting to know you.

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And anyway, I put off doing this video for quite a while.

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And I'm finally doing it.

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I think it's really important to share,

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like Ashley talks about being vulnerable.

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I know it's really important to share what's on our hearts

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and then God will be able to really work.

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And I really want a closer relationship with him.

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And I want to be able to share him with others,

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especially cross-culturally and with Indian pastors,

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missionaries and Bible school students.

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So I'm just looking forward to what God has for all of us,

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and prayers for all of us.

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Thank you, bye.