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Hey everybody! So I was gonna try to do this video from the peace and comfort of my super

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cozy little room that I live in and we have spotty reception and it just wouldn't record

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so here I am in my car. Hi, my name is Catherine. This is my intro. I live in Redding, California,

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which is Northern California. I moved out here about 2 years ago to attend Bethel School

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of Supernatural Ministry and then found, through that I kind of rediscovered my original love

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which was performing arts and everything acting, dance, and writing. Yeah, so last year I attended

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Bethel's Conservatory of the Arts studying acting and dance and this year I'm going to be attending

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the conservatory again studying screenwriting. I'm a writer primarily, right now at least,

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although don't ask me to pick between writing, acting, and dancing because I can't and I'm

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told to learn that. But this is a season where he's really breathing on the writing and so I

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feel a responsibility to steward that well so I chose the screenwriting program. So yeah,

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I am called to the entertainment industry. I have a really really burning passion to create content

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that is just excellent and that tells stories of redemption and brings people into encounters

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with Jesus but is not Christian. So I have a very evangelistic heart and the entertainment

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industry is just how I express that. Also, I'm an entrepreneur by nature. I've always been a

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starter. I've always been like an income, like I started a catering business when I was like

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my mid-twenties and had that for about nine years and I've started a whole bunch of other

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things since then. But entrepreneurially, I feel very called to create a like an artist recovery

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program for artists who have been hurt, specifically for artists such as myself. So to tell you a

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little bit of my backstory, I grew up in a very abusive home. My mom is narcissistic so she was

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abusive verbally, sexually, emotionally, physically, financially, spiritually, all the ways. She kind

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of checked all the boxes all by herself, which has been hard to deal with. So because of that,

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I didn't leave until I was... I just feel like you guys can't see me. There we go. Because of that,

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I didn't leave until I was 34 years old, which was six years ago. And so a lot of my story is

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kind of being on hold for 34 years and then the last six years being God-like, restoring all the

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things that were stolen from me and all the time and all the life experiences that I should have

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gotten to have and kind of giving me my twenties in a weird way and a lot of healing. It's been

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the most beautiful six years of my life, but also the most difficult because it literally felt like

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I was in the intensive care unit for a long time. But the great thing is I know that I know that I

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know that God gave me that story so that I would have authority over it. And the industry, the cool

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thing is I just recently connected the dots and the industry that I'm called into is full of people

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who have been wounded the same way that I have been. And two years ago, that's actually what God

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told me that got me out to Bethel was that he was sending me to the people that had been wounded

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the way that I had. So anyway, my heart burns, especially for artists who have never been,

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oh say hi to that guy. Artists who've never been able to function in their art. It is a soul-crushing

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thing for an artist to not be an artist and it just makes you dead inside. And so I'm still on

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the journey of what that looks like. I'm working part-time jobs right now. I'm cleaning Airbnbs and

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doing some DoorDash and maybe some copywriting and whatever I can to pay the bills. But finding the

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joy of my art has been like the biggest restoration in the last couple of years. So what brought me to

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the rest intensive was a recommendation from my friend Elizabeth. But for the last couple of years,

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the Lord has really, especially since I got to Bethel, I have encountered the love of the

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Father in ways that I have never encountered before.

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I'm sorry. That was a little notification

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I have felt him physically in my body like whenever his he's present. I I have physical manifestations

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I just get this intense sweet heat in my back

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I've started to see visions like I he's just encountered me in

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So many beautiful ways in the last couple of years and just loved away

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like I just feel like I've been in a love bubble with Jesus and the father for the last couple of years and

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He's really been telling me especially the last two years so much like to rest like that is my job like resting is my

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job, so

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I

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haven't worked until

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Recently actually for about almost two years and the Lord just like supernaturally provided

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He literally like it was it was him giving me a chance to just sort of fall apart and actually

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process everything that had happened to me as a kid and

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Things that I had just never

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Never dealt with it was just like he was like, okay stop and this is your job for two years

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and recently I felt a really big shift like that season was done and

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Not that there aren't still things to process, but my legs not broken anymore if that makes sense

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and so I'm starting to work again and

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Just really have my eye on the prize like I

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My dream is opening a production company and Holly look prefer for preferably in Hollywood

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And just with a team of people and we produce

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movies TV shows dance shows

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Music hopefully like all kinds of different things that are again

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Not Christian just excellent and that we all kind of get to like shift in roles in the company

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The Lord actually said to me at the beginning of the summer. He was like what if play created well

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I was like, oh, I'm intrigued by that idea. And a lot of times we talk about acting and dance as play like

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They even call that the stage like the play space

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So yeah, I'm just that's my goal is opening that company getting my movies written and produced

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Those are long-term goals though. And so I'm very interested in how the Lord wants to get me from there to here to there

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some other ideas that I have though as well or like I have a call on a burn to do like consulting with women who

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And maybe even men I can basically like not to be arrogant

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But I can smell a narcissistic wound 50 miles away and I can really help you figure out like what's holding you back

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And just kind of like break mindsets off of people

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So I have a heart to do some consulting but also would love to come up with like a course or something that would walk

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people through

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Understanding what's happened on the inside of them because what happens with narcissistic abuse is you blame yours?

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well any kind of abuse really but you blame yourself so much and

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Decide that you're the problem

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That it it

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can sometimes keep you from seeing that every

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Unhealthy way that you're reacting is actually the normal reaction to a situation. That was completely non-normal

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And I just loved that light bulb a moment like I had it with a friend of mine the other day

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who like did not know that she had been in a series of narcissistic relationships her whole life and

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She just curiously asked me like well, what does that look like? And I start describing it and she's like, oh my god

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That's my ex-fiance. And

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Then I was just like, okay, but you don't normally fall for one unless there was one in your childhood

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So was one of your parents and she was like, oh my gosh dad and like three and a half hours later

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We've debriefed like I've given her all the information that's swimming around up here

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not all of it, but as much as I thought she could handle and she literally like pieces of her

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Life were making sense to her

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Areas that she struggled with and couldn't feel like she could get any traction and like all that

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So I just love that light bulb moment and I love being able to help people on the journey of recovering their power

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So I feel very called to do that in some sort of capacity

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I'm single. No kids never been married. So if you know of anyone

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What else

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I think that's about it. I love I'm a super outdoorsy person. I love being active

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I like walk slash run at least five miles a day normally today. I didn't um

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What else love to swim I love to dance I love to I'm like I love activity of any kind pretty much

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love hiking

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Love Southern California

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What else

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Yeah, I think I think that's me

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I oh, I guess my testimony like as far as like getting to know Jesus aside from the whole mom thing. I

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The way I came to know the Lord was in preschool. My mom sent me to

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Moody Bible Institute in Chicago

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Which was super ironic because she was not a Christian and she literally walked me in there and was like no

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I don't want you sending my daughter home with any Christian guilt trips

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And I they just introduced me to the father and introduced me to Jesus and I just believed like I don't have a very dramatic

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Testimony, I've just always believed and I used to feel like that was

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Not strong enough and recently I've come to really appreciate how amazing that is

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He's just always been a part of my life and he's my best friend. So

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Yeah, pretty in love with him

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That's it I'm super super excited to be here I can't wait to meet everybody and

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Yeah excited for the journey, okay, bye