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Hi everyone, I'm taking a couple minutes here straight from the kitchen. I'm still

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in my old apron, but I just thought I would sit down and post a video because

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writing a post out just isn't working right now. So I've been really quiet here

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over the weekend because I have just been so exhausted. Eric has not been

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sleeping well and so I feel very behind in sleep and honestly I was just feeling

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so overwhelmed, super behind in everything, laundry, dishes, food, you name

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it, and I was just really struggling with knowing kind of what the right

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approach is or the mentality is to my feelings and my current state in life

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because I'm sure a lot of you moms can relate that a lot of times there just

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doesn't seem to be a time for rest. There's demands on us, there's

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expectations. If we falter behind, you know, then the whole ship sinks or so it

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feels sometimes and I knew that it wasn't about trying to enter into rest

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war or like trying to focus really hard to, you know, do more emotionally or like

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applying actions to more areas in my life as far as trying to enter into rest,

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but I was just really struggling because I was falling behind in sleep. I felt so

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overwhelmed with my housework and, you know, currently being pregnant and stuff.

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Everything just looks so much bigger and I was talking with Ashley this

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afternoon and she was just able to bring me so much wise counsel. She always does

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and what she had to say just really, really encouraged my heart and she just

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put into perspective so well the resistance, I think that was the word she

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used, of what is going on and how the expectations that are there in my life

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in the first place is what's bringing that feeling of overwhelm, you know,

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expecting Eric to sleep through the night, you know, having these

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expectations of my house being clean and the laundry being done and, you know,

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all those things are good and right, but when they become an expectation or a

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standard that we set for ourselves, that is when we feel overwhelmed and it just

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brought so much peace into my heart knowing that I can face reality, that I

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can accept the fact that Eric isn't sleeping well and that, you know, to be

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aware, basically to not deny reality and the fact that I'm falling behind, but to

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not set that standard for myself for just something else to do, something else

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to attain to and it was just really, really good. I can't remember all she

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said, but it was just so what I needed right now in the time of life that I'm

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in because a lot of times I feel like how can I enter into rest without trying

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to enter into rest, but at the same time how can I enter into rest when there's

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so many demands and so many things in my life that need my energy and my time

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and attention and need an action, but the things she had to say were just very,

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very good and I'm very encouraged. So, I'm sorry Eric is upstairs throwing

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something. So, anyway, that has just been a little bit of my weekend and the

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beginning of my week. It was super overwhelming and super hectic, but just

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talking to Ashley puts everything into perspective again. So, anyway, I just

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thought I would share and give a little update. I hope you all are doing well.