WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:08.640 Hey everyone! Sorry for the swinging. I'm on one of those couch swings at the lodge. 2 00:00:08.640 --> 00:00:16.440 Hopefully you can hear me okay. I've been struggling with allergies the past 3 00:00:16.440 --> 00:00:22.120 couple of weeks and so those of you who are here for the conference, you heard 4 00:00:22.120 --> 00:00:29.320 this all weekend. Anyway, I wanted to jump on here really quick to talk about a 5 00:00:29.320 --> 00:00:38.200 topic that we were not able to get to in the conference, but I had hoped to see 6 00:00:38.200 --> 00:00:43.080 if I could fit it in and it just didn't happen. But what that means is that you 7 00:00:43.080 --> 00:00:49.040 get a special video. So here we are. And that is about how to process grief in 8 00:00:49.040 --> 00:00:57.040 rest. That is something that the Lord has and began to talk to me about and 9 00:00:57.760 --> 00:01:05.120 helped me process through in my own life. And letting go of a living being, you 10 00:01:05.120 --> 00:01:18.640 know, with my little dog. And speaking of her, there she is. Yeah! So 11 00:01:18.640 --> 00:01:25.560 Dawsa is gonna go to a new home. The Lord told me that it was time for her to go 12 00:01:25.560 --> 00:01:34.040 on and get to bless somebody else. Yeah! Yeah! Get to bless somebody else and have 13 00:01:34.040 --> 00:01:40.360 them love on her. Give her an opportunity to be loved on by others. 14 00:01:40.360 --> 00:01:49.720 And she's been my companion for nine years. And I know baby, I know. And she was 15 00:01:49.720 --> 00:01:57.520 at, you know, rescue. And had been, had apparently come through some abuse. You 16 00:01:57.520 --> 00:02:15.760 want to go down? Okay. There you go. There you go little one. Get in your bed. Sweet pig. And she had had some trauma in her 17 00:02:15.760 --> 00:02:22.200 life. You know, gone through an abusive home. And so when I got her, she wasn't 18 00:02:22.200 --> 00:02:25.680 very socialized with animals or people. And so I prayed over her a lot. Spoke 19 00:02:25.680 --> 00:02:30.800 over her a lot. Spoke life. I don't remember. I think I'd had her one or two 20 00:02:30.800 --> 00:02:36.560 years before I began to realize, wait a minute. Instead of being frustrated with 21 00:02:36.560 --> 00:02:44.280 her, I need to speak always positive things over her. So I began to do that. 22 00:02:44.280 --> 00:02:51.240 And she began to change. She began to heal. She began to change. It was wild to 23 00:02:51.240 --> 00:03:01.040 watch. So I have actually been able to find, God has given me, a new home for her. 24 00:03:01.040 --> 00:03:07.440 It just came up yesterday. Sort of kind of the day before yesterday. 25 00:03:07.440 --> 00:03:12.240 Immediately after the conference, while I was having dinner, someone heard about 26 00:03:12.240 --> 00:03:17.760 her and heard that I was planning to, that I was needing to send her to a new 27 00:03:17.760 --> 00:03:22.880 home. Because the Lord had said that it was time for me to move in new seasons 28 00:03:22.880 --> 00:03:31.200 with him. And step out into new things. And that he had wonderful things for her. 29 00:03:31.200 --> 00:03:41.920 And that anyway, it was just, it was just time to, for me to learn to let go. So 30 00:03:41.920 --> 00:03:47.600 obviously after nine years of investing in her and in speaking over her life to 31 00:03:47.600 --> 00:03:53.400 heal her, so that I could watch over her, you know, physically heal and 32 00:03:53.400 --> 00:04:00.080 internally heal from traumas. And I've watched her gain new life. And I've 33 00:04:00.080 --> 00:04:13.760 watched her, I've watched her learn to, excuse me, learn to trust and to be able 34 00:04:13.760 --> 00:04:22.240 to receive love. There's a lot of me invested in her. And then there's a lot 35 00:04:22.240 --> 00:04:26.480 of memories invested in her. And then her in my life as well, you know, she's 36 00:04:26.600 --> 00:04:32.560 healed me. The Lord has used her to teach me some amazing spiritual lessons. And 37 00:04:32.560 --> 00:04:38.200 he has used her in my life to heal me. To bring me a tremendous amount of comfort 38 00:04:38.200 --> 00:04:47.760 in years where I spent feeling very rejected, very alone, very isolated. And 39 00:04:47.760 --> 00:04:55.440 he gave me a companion. So I've had her, like I said, for nine years. And so when 40 00:04:55.440 --> 00:04:59.800 he told me it was time for me to, for her to move on, that was very 41 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:04.240 because I just assumed that she would finish out her life with me. So the 42 00:05:04.240 --> 00:05:10.280 thought of giving her to another home especially after she has and try to 43 00:05:10.280 --> 00:05:16.800 get through this really quickly so I don't I don't cry but especially since I 44 00:05:16.800 --> 00:05:24.080 had spoken so much life over her and she has separation anxiety. She does not 45 00:05:24.080 --> 00:05:29.800 have it as severe as she used to but she still has it. This fear that every time I 46 00:05:29.800 --> 00:05:36.440 leave that I'm not coming back and I've always told her you know you know 47 00:05:36.440 --> 00:05:40.040 whenever I come back it's the baby you know I always come back and and I'm 48 00:05:40.040 --> 00:05:44.240 always here for you and and we're always gonna be together and things like that 49 00:05:44.240 --> 00:05:47.800 because I thought that that was true and so I was speaking all of that over her. 50 00:05:47.800 --> 00:05:52.200 Well this time one of the things that's very difficult for me to process it with 51 00:05:52.200 --> 00:05:56.320 the Lord that he's probably taking me through right now is the fact that when 52 00:05:56.320 --> 00:06:02.960 I do send her to her new home sometime within the next week week and a half 53 00:06:02.960 --> 00:06:11.600 that and that this time I I won't be coming back. Now I'm hope she is gonna go 54 00:06:11.600 --> 00:06:15.880 to some friends of mine so I will get to see her again so I'm very grateful for 55 00:06:15.880 --> 00:06:22.000 that. So not expect yes I am gonna come back but um but anyway that is something 56 00:06:22.120 --> 00:06:28.120 that the Lord is just gonna have to take me through but I I'm telling you what 57 00:06:28.120 --> 00:06:33.040 there's just been such a gift what the Lord has given me in the people that 58 00:06:33.040 --> 00:06:38.520 have are taking her. They are used to watching they adopt special needs dogs 59 00:06:38.520 --> 00:06:42.960 and so she's not special needs but she's a senior and so she's got health issues 60 00:06:42.960 --> 00:06:51.000 and everything so they are and they're going to excuse me they she's gonna be 61 00:06:51.000 --> 00:06:59.000 their tenth dog so they used to have 28 they are now down to nine. These are 62 00:06:59.000 --> 00:07:03.580 amazing people they're very sweet you'd never know that they watch after special 63 00:07:03.580 --> 00:07:07.920 needs dogs they're doing all kinds of other things. They have a they have a 64 00:07:07.920 --> 00:07:14.600 health store you know and anyway they they're down down to nine and also will 65 00:07:14.600 --> 00:07:19.840 add to their family and be number ten. So they're friends of mine I will get to 66 00:07:19.840 --> 00:07:27.280 see her again but anyway the Lord just couldn't have given me a it's just the 67 00:07:27.280 --> 00:07:31.760 most perfect situation. I'm extremely grateful they because they believe like 68 00:07:31.760 --> 00:07:36.440 I do and for those of you who were here at the conference they were Joe and 69 00:07:36.440 --> 00:07:47.400 Adrienne and they are anyway so they're they're gonna they're gonna take her and 70 00:07:47.400 --> 00:07:54.480 they believe like I do in speaking life over a being that speaking inner healing 71 00:07:54.480 --> 00:08:01.600 over being and speaking physical healing over being. She also is very good at 72 00:08:01.600 --> 00:08:08.120 knowing how to bring dogs back to health and she's got some special diets and 73 00:08:08.120 --> 00:08:11.960 some special things that she does with all of her dogs. She did some of her 74 00:08:11.960 --> 00:08:19.760 dogs are blind you know their dogs there's Joe and Adrienne and some of 75 00:08:19.760 --> 00:08:24.400 their dogs are blind and some of them I don't know there's all kinds of issues 76 00:08:24.400 --> 00:08:28.600 with different ones of them and they just have a heart they just have a heart 77 00:08:28.600 --> 00:08:33.679 for animals and just taking God's creatures and look out after them. So I'm 78 00:08:33.679 --> 00:08:39.440 very very grateful that they opened their hearts to DASA. It's been I wish I 79 00:08:39.440 --> 00:08:46.400 could tell you this story of how amazing and just perfect that God 80 00:08:46.400 --> 00:08:53.080 lined everything up. It was a better gift to me than I had asked for from the Lord. 81 00:08:53.080 --> 00:08:58.760 It was in absolute abundance that she would go to this home because I believe 82 00:08:58.760 --> 00:09:06.360 that with them she will get to actually live several years longer and she'll be 83 00:09:06.360 --> 00:09:09.680 with all these other dogs that I think that she'll finally be able to play with 84 00:09:09.680 --> 00:09:13.560 which was a really big dream of mine that she'd be able to enjoy other dogs 85 00:09:13.560 --> 00:09:21.200 and have fun with them. So the Lord is loving on me and on DASA by giving 86 00:09:21.200 --> 00:09:26.160 her such a good home so I'm very grateful for that. But it was through 87 00:09:26.160 --> 00:09:31.480 that actually that the Lord began to talk to me about grief because I'm very 88 00:09:31.520 --> 00:09:38.400 familiar with grief related to loss of dreams, loss of things like that, but I'm 89 00:09:38.400 --> 00:09:42.880 not very familiar with it related to loved ones. I have lost three of my 90 00:09:42.880 --> 00:09:51.800 grandparents and that obviously was very hard but and then now 91 00:09:51.800 --> 00:09:58.600 my little dog and which is you know kind of like in a way it's kind of like 92 00:09:58.600 --> 00:10:01.720 my tile that she's 93 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:02.240 you know, shouldn't have anybody else to look out for. 94 00:10:02.240 --> 00:10:04.120 I'm responsible, I'm looking out for her, 95 00:10:04.120 --> 00:10:05.960 I take her everywhere, she's always with me, 96 00:10:05.960 --> 00:10:08.360 you know, we're always together. 97 00:10:08.360 --> 00:10:10.960 And so this living being, you know, 98 00:10:10.960 --> 00:10:13.840 that's been with you 24-7 for, 99 00:10:13.840 --> 00:10:15.340 well not, you know, while I was working, 100 00:10:15.340 --> 00:10:17.240 but you know, all through the time for nine years 101 00:10:17.240 --> 00:10:18.800 and now you're gonna be gone. 102 00:10:18.800 --> 00:10:22.200 There's a grieving that goes on. 103 00:10:22.200 --> 00:10:25.400 So it's not the same as a human being. 104 00:10:25.400 --> 00:10:28.160 My point is that it was through this personal, 105 00:10:28.160 --> 00:10:29.680 it was through this experience 106 00:10:29.680 --> 00:10:31.800 that God began to talk to me specifically 107 00:10:31.800 --> 00:10:33.440 about how to grieve and rest 108 00:10:34.640 --> 00:10:36.540 and grieve from a place of rest. 109 00:10:36.540 --> 00:10:38.840 Because when I lost my grandparents, 110 00:10:38.840 --> 00:10:42.160 I did not know yet about rest. 111 00:10:42.160 --> 00:10:47.160 And so I went through it from different perspectives 112 00:10:48.040 --> 00:10:50.300 and from a different place. 113 00:10:52.480 --> 00:10:55.520 And thankfully they were all healthy, 114 00:10:55.560 --> 00:10:58.320 but, oh sorry, I just placed three of my grandparents. 115 00:10:58.320 --> 00:10:59.840 I'm sorry, I don't know why I said three. 116 00:10:59.840 --> 00:11:01.080 The number just came out. 117 00:11:01.080 --> 00:11:02.200 Lost two of my grandparents, 118 00:11:02.200 --> 00:11:03.760 the other two were still alive. 119 00:11:03.760 --> 00:11:05.520 I think, I don't know who I was thinking of, 120 00:11:05.520 --> 00:11:08.800 that number just popped out of my mouth. 121 00:11:08.800 --> 00:11:11.320 But no, it was of the last two grandparents. 122 00:11:12.200 --> 00:11:16.200 But anyway, so this is a grief that I've gone through 123 00:11:16.200 --> 00:11:17.480 after I've learned about rest. 124 00:11:17.480 --> 00:11:21.240 And in it, I was just feeling so much pain 125 00:11:21.240 --> 00:11:25.040 and saw that, okay, this type of pain, 126 00:11:25.040 --> 00:11:27.120 it's more than just a loss. 127 00:11:27.120 --> 00:11:30.040 There's something here that doesn't feel right. 128 00:11:30.040 --> 00:11:32.200 And so while I was going through this, 129 00:11:32.200 --> 00:11:35.560 God began to kind of explain to me some things about grief 130 00:11:35.560 --> 00:11:37.200 and then had me walk it out, 131 00:11:37.200 --> 00:11:42.200 had me walk out actually shifting into rest 132 00:11:42.560 --> 00:11:44.240 in the middle of my grief. 133 00:11:44.240 --> 00:11:46.920 And then he also has begun over the past few weeks 134 00:11:46.920 --> 00:11:49.880 to explain other things to me about grief 135 00:11:49.880 --> 00:11:51.720 and the loss of a loved one. 136 00:11:51.720 --> 00:11:55.040 And so I wanted to share this with you. 137 00:11:55.040 --> 00:11:57.400 I have been, it's been interesting 138 00:11:57.400 --> 00:11:58.640 since this thing with DASA, 139 00:11:58.640 --> 00:12:01.720 I have now come in contact with three people, 140 00:12:01.720 --> 00:12:06.720 like very close contact that have lost people very recently. 141 00:12:11.000 --> 00:12:16.000 And anyway, so I thought that maybe the things 142 00:12:16.800 --> 00:12:20.800 that I have learned would help you. 143 00:12:20.800 --> 00:12:22.800 There was somebody even that I was counseling 144 00:12:22.800 --> 00:12:27.240 at this Interest Rest Conference 145 00:12:27.240 --> 00:12:31.280 that had lost a spouse in the past six months. 146 00:12:31.280 --> 00:12:33.560 And I was walking them through that. 147 00:12:33.560 --> 00:12:36.360 And I thought, oh my word, Lord, 148 00:12:36.360 --> 00:12:40.240 the preparation that you gave me to be able to, 149 00:12:41.320 --> 00:12:45.880 to be able to get an understanding of the principle 150 00:12:45.880 --> 00:12:48.720 of grief, not comparing an animal to a human 151 00:12:48.720 --> 00:12:50.000 or anything like that. 152 00:12:50.000 --> 00:12:51.920 Talking about how God was talking to me 153 00:12:51.920 --> 00:12:54.600 about the principle of it. 154 00:12:56.280 --> 00:13:01.080 Anyway, so when we're grieving, 155 00:13:01.080 --> 00:13:06.080 there's grief is just, is very normal, obviously. 156 00:13:08.760 --> 00:13:13.760 But there is an element of a type of sadness 157 00:13:13.920 --> 00:13:18.920 and a type of pain that we can actually be 158 00:13:18.920 --> 00:13:23.920 without that the Lord was highlighting to me 159 00:13:24.360 --> 00:13:26.400 as I was grieving my dog, 160 00:13:26.400 --> 00:13:29.680 I was trying to discern what aspects of this 161 00:13:29.680 --> 00:13:31.960 that I was feeling that were good 162 00:13:31.960 --> 00:13:33.360 and then which ones weren't. 163 00:13:35.480 --> 00:13:40.360 And so some of the things that he began to talk to me about 164 00:13:40.360 --> 00:13:45.360 were, you know, as far as the good things go, 165 00:13:46.200 --> 00:13:47.920 that there is a, 166 00:13:50.160 --> 00:13:51.760 there is a, 167 00:13:54.000 --> 00:13:57.640 it's like a connection that we, 168 00:13:57.640 --> 00:14:02.640 in this flood that we feel inside of the special memories 169 00:14:02.680 --> 00:14:05.560 that we have with the person and the special things. 170 00:14:05.560 --> 00:14:07.800 And it just comes in a bit of a flood 171 00:14:07.800 --> 00:14:10.960 and it comes in a bit of overwhelm. 172 00:14:10.960 --> 00:14:12.960 And we can, 173 00:14:13.920 --> 00:14:16.320 and therefore we can, 174 00:14:16.320 --> 00:14:18.560 it comes across, it comes as grief 175 00:14:18.560 --> 00:14:22.120 and it comes as tears. 176 00:14:22.120 --> 00:14:26.600 But there is, and so things like that, 177 00:14:26.600 --> 00:14:28.080 you know, that's good, 178 00:14:28.080 --> 00:14:33.080 where there is a release of some, 179 00:14:34.560 --> 00:14:39.200 of things that have been enjoyed about someone 180 00:14:39.200 --> 00:14:40.920 that need to come, 181 00:14:40.920 --> 00:14:43.960 that need to just kind of come up and out. 182 00:14:43.960 --> 00:14:46.840 Not a release as in giving them up, 183 00:14:46.840 --> 00:14:49.600 but a release as in kind of like giving way to them. 184 00:14:50.560 --> 00:14:52.880 It's a, as odd as it is, 185 00:14:52.880 --> 00:14:54.560 it's almost like a, 186 00:14:54.560 --> 00:14:58.200 an aspect maybe of enjoyment, 187 00:14:58.200 --> 00:14:59.040 of, 188 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:05.800 things because you know we store memories in the body and those memories 189 00:15:05.800 --> 00:15:11.320 can come flooding even if we can't articulate the exact memories just the 190 00:15:11.320 --> 00:15:17.920 just the place of where those memories are and they're coming up and out and 191 00:15:17.920 --> 00:15:29.000 and it can just be very overwhelming. So a release is in not a there is an 192 00:15:29.000 --> 00:15:34.040 aspect of letting go but it's in letting go of the ownership of the 193 00:15:34.040 --> 00:15:41.680 memory so that you can finally enjoy it and by not holding on to it and and 194 00:15:41.680 --> 00:15:46.600 holding it down deep but that it becomes like a bit more like the river where it 195 00:15:46.600 --> 00:15:51.200 comes up and out and then we give it a bit of release and freedom all of those 196 00:15:51.200 --> 00:15:55.160 wonderful beautiful memories and it's like keeping those those hands in the 197 00:15:55.160 --> 00:15:57.920 river you know how we talked about the hands keeping open hands in the river of 198 00:15:57.920 --> 00:16:01.320 the spirit it's like keeping open hands in a river like that you get to 199 00:16:01.320 --> 00:16:06.280 experience experience that you know the memories and enjoy them without holding 200 00:16:06.280 --> 00:16:10.320 on to them because when we hold on to things it actually ends up bringing pain 201 00:16:10.320 --> 00:16:16.720 and it actually ends up stifling things and bringing death so it's very 202 00:16:16.720 --> 00:16:23.440 important that even with our memories we allow them to we allow them to be free 203 00:16:23.440 --> 00:16:28.120 as opposed to holding them stamping them down oh we can't forget replaying 204 00:16:28.120 --> 00:16:33.960 them over and over and over and over and over and things like that it's because 205 00:16:33.960 --> 00:16:41.080 we will be able to enjoy the the we'll be able to receive the benefit of the 206 00:16:41.080 --> 00:16:47.200 memories more oh good I'm so glad Susan and we'll be able to enjoy the memories 207 00:16:47.200 --> 00:16:50.360 more we'll be able to enjoy the person more in that which we're going to be 208 00:16:50.360 --> 00:16:54.600 talking about just in just a second how we can actually receive more of a person 209 00:16:54.600 --> 00:17:02.840 in the Lord after they die then but then while they lived but then then the other 210 00:17:02.840 --> 00:17:09.720 thing about the about about some of the the aspects of the pain that we can 211 00:17:09.720 --> 00:17:20.400 learn to let go of is is there is an aspect of of loss and lack that we 212 00:17:20.400 --> 00:17:29.800 understand is actually and that where we can have accusation against God of you 213 00:17:29.800 --> 00:17:36.960 know God you you you took them or you allowed it and and it's something in us 214 00:17:36.960 --> 00:17:41.080 even though logically we can walk ourselves through why whatever situation 215 00:17:41.080 --> 00:17:46.680 of the loved one that were that that we've lost why it's best that they left 216 00:17:46.680 --> 00:17:50.640 maybe they were maybe they had cancer and they were really really really 217 00:17:50.640 --> 00:17:55.640 suffering or maybe it was their age and they were very very uncomfortable and in 218 00:17:55.640 --> 00:17:59.960 a lot of pain or I don't know whatever it is sometimes in certain situations we 219 00:17:59.960 --> 00:18:03.120 can kind of talk ourselves through the fact that like well you know this is 220 00:18:03.120 --> 00:18:09.000 best well and so all of that's good but there's still an element of the grief 221 00:18:09.000 --> 00:18:14.200 that that where it's triggering something within us that we believe that 222 00:18:14.200 --> 00:18:21.640 what it is that we're experiencing in other words what has happened that what 223 00:18:21.640 --> 00:18:30.800 has happened is wrong that it shouldn't be that they they that they shouldn't be 224 00:18:30.800 --> 00:18:35.760 gone that the situation shouldn't be what it is and of course we can hear 225 00:18:35.760 --> 00:18:42.160 that that phrase that shouldn't be that's giving us pain that oh I wish 226 00:18:42.160 --> 00:18:47.760 they were here I will oh you know oh if only and and whatever there's something 227 00:18:47.760 --> 00:18:54.400 within us that knows that death shouldn't and and and removal at the 228 00:18:54.400 --> 00:18:57.640 time of death you know in other words you don't get to see them anymore 229 00:18:57.640 --> 00:19:04.760 there's something about that that feels very very wrong to us and I want us to 230 00:19:04.760 --> 00:19:10.880 know that that is actually true that is a true it's a true thing that we're 231 00:19:10.880 --> 00:19:16.840 feeling out of our spirit it's something that we do know it is wrong in other 232 00:19:16.840 --> 00:19:24.800 words it's not the natural way of things however what we have done so so 233 00:19:24.800 --> 00:19:28.640 thankfully let me let me back up real quick and read and I'm kind of close 234 00:19:28.640 --> 00:19:36.440 that a little bit bring us a bit of relief and comfort is we're right there 235 00:19:36.440 --> 00:19:41.960 shouldn't be that aspect of loss and lack at the at the end of death and we 236 00:19:41.960 --> 00:19:48.400 shouldn't have that but Jesus died removing this sting of death meaning 237 00:19:48.400 --> 00:19:53.280 there's always life after death always life after death after every form of 238 00:19:53.280 --> 00:20:01.000 death that is it that happens in Christ there is always life always 239 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:05.680 So that aspect in which the manifestation looks to us 240 00:20:05.680 --> 00:20:10.720 like loss and lack, like I used to see them, now I can't, 241 00:20:10.720 --> 00:20:15.280 that aspect, yeah, God didn't design us to die, yeah, 242 00:20:15.280 --> 00:20:15.780 correct. 243 00:20:18.200 --> 00:20:27.200 That aspect is actually of a, sorry, 244 00:20:27.200 --> 00:20:28.400 I lost my train of thought. 245 00:20:28.400 --> 00:20:32.320 But anyway, that we shouldn't have that, 246 00:20:32.320 --> 00:20:37.000 that God did die for us, and there any died, 247 00:20:37.000 --> 00:20:41.440 any conquered death, so there's no lack after death, 248 00:20:41.440 --> 00:20:43.200 there's actually life. 249 00:20:43.200 --> 00:20:45.560 So the fact that we're sensing from the other, 250 00:20:45.560 --> 00:20:47.480 this is where I left off, the fact 251 00:20:47.480 --> 00:20:49.840 that we're sensing from the manifestation 252 00:20:49.840 --> 00:20:53.200 that there's loss and lack, something rises up within us 253 00:20:53.200 --> 00:20:56.360 like that is wrong, and that is true. 254 00:20:56.360 --> 00:20:58.160 However, we remember that in the spirit, 255 00:20:58.160 --> 00:21:00.520 God says, regardless of what creation 256 00:21:00.520 --> 00:21:04.680 looks like in the manifestation, remember what my word says. 257 00:21:04.680 --> 00:21:06.520 Because remember, we always choose this word 258 00:21:06.520 --> 00:21:08.120 over the manifestation. 259 00:21:08.120 --> 00:21:12.760 And God says, receive my word, that whatever it is that I say 260 00:21:12.760 --> 00:21:17.520 is true, and I have said that they have eternal life. 261 00:21:17.520 --> 00:21:22.360 People that pass away in the Lord have eternal life. 262 00:21:22.360 --> 00:21:26.680 And so that is something that's true, 263 00:21:26.680 --> 00:21:28.360 that's coming up within us. 264 00:21:28.360 --> 00:21:31.400 But what we unfortunately can do that 265 00:21:31.400 --> 00:21:34.360 causes a tremendous amount of pain 266 00:21:34.360 --> 00:21:40.120 is to take that true understanding of what 267 00:21:40.120 --> 00:21:45.640 the situation is, and we end up turning it against God 268 00:21:45.640 --> 00:21:47.640 unintentionally and subconsciously, 269 00:21:47.640 --> 00:21:50.520 but we turn it against God, and we accuse him. 270 00:21:50.520 --> 00:21:53.080 It shouldn't be like this. 271 00:21:53.080 --> 00:21:57.560 Your character says otherwise, so fix it, 272 00:21:57.560 --> 00:22:01.600 and why is it like this, and whatever. 273 00:22:01.600 --> 00:22:04.680 Even if we understand that they passed away from cancer, 274 00:22:04.680 --> 00:22:06.320 Lord, why did they have cancer? 275 00:22:06.320 --> 00:22:11.000 Why, of all the ways for them to die, did they die of cancer? 276 00:22:11.000 --> 00:22:16.160 We could have all kinds of accusations, 277 00:22:16.160 --> 00:22:18.920 and that creates a tremendous amount of pain. 278 00:22:18.960 --> 00:22:20.920 Remember what that pain is revealing. 279 00:22:20.920 --> 00:22:26.400 There's that pain is revealing a warring within us, 280 00:22:26.400 --> 00:22:30.640 where we know and trust the Lord in our spirit, 281 00:22:30.640 --> 00:22:35.560 but then our soul is in antagonism against it, 282 00:22:35.560 --> 00:22:39.320 and it's at war against it, and like, no, this isn't right, 283 00:22:39.320 --> 00:22:41.320 and no, that's not true. 284 00:22:41.320 --> 00:22:44.160 And the spirit says, yes, it is, and believe it and receive it, 285 00:22:44.160 --> 00:22:46.760 and the soul's like, no. 286 00:22:46.800 --> 00:22:48.480 That warring and that struggle 287 00:22:48.480 --> 00:22:50.680 causes a tremendous amount of pain. 288 00:22:50.680 --> 00:22:52.520 Remember Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane 289 00:22:52.520 --> 00:22:55.960 and how the extent of the amount of stress and pain 290 00:22:55.960 --> 00:22:58.040 that he went through when his spirit 291 00:22:58.040 --> 00:22:59.920 and his flesh were warring. 292 00:22:59.920 --> 00:23:03.280 Now, remember, he always chose his spirit, 293 00:23:03.280 --> 00:23:08.520 but there was a struggle in which it was a process 294 00:23:08.520 --> 00:23:11.440 in which he was overcoming his soul 295 00:23:11.440 --> 00:23:15.960 and choosing in his soul to submit it to the spirit, 296 00:23:15.960 --> 00:23:21.160 but so that's where all of that pain comes in, 297 00:23:21.160 --> 00:23:24.760 the fact that you know what is true, 298 00:23:24.760 --> 00:23:29.440 and then the soul is fighting it a bit. 299 00:23:29.440 --> 00:23:32.760 The spirit knows, so you already know the truth. 300 00:23:32.760 --> 00:23:34.640 You're already standing in the truth. 301 00:23:34.640 --> 00:23:36.600 There's an aspect in which the flesh is like, 302 00:23:36.600 --> 00:23:40.000 you know, the manifestation doesn't seem to back it up, 303 00:23:40.000 --> 00:23:42.640 and there's that frustration. 304 00:23:42.640 --> 00:23:47.720 Then, so anyway, there is that, 305 00:23:47.720 --> 00:23:51.680 and there was one more thing that I wanted to talk about 306 00:23:51.680 --> 00:23:55.000 before I get to the end. 307 00:23:55.000 --> 00:23:58.360 I'm trying to think of what it was 308 00:23:58.360 --> 00:24:00.360 before I mentioned the last thing. 309 00:24:03.200 --> 00:24:08.560 I don't know. If I think about it, I'll say something, 310 00:24:08.560 --> 00:24:13.480 but one of the last things that I wanted to mention 311 00:24:13.480 --> 00:24:18.280 is the fact that, oh, that's what it was, 312 00:24:18.280 --> 00:24:22.240 so in that warring, what do we do with the warring? 313 00:24:22.240 --> 00:24:24.040 We're in a place of judgment, right? 314 00:24:24.040 --> 00:24:25.600 We're saying it shouldn't be like this, 315 00:24:25.600 --> 00:24:27.000 and it should be different. 316 00:24:27.000 --> 00:24:28.680 Do we hear that phrase that we talk about 317 00:24:28.680 --> 00:24:31.080 in the practical shifting tools? 318 00:24:31.080 --> 00:24:35.360 We need to get to the place where we release judgment. 319 00:24:35.360 --> 00:24:38.200 We release our judgment of the situation, 320 00:24:38.240 --> 00:24:41.640 and we stop holding, we stop taking ownership. 321 00:24:41.640 --> 00:24:45.560 We release our ownership of what is going on 322 00:24:45.560 --> 00:24:47.800 and stop holding God, 323 00:24:47.800 --> 00:24:50.480 and choose to stop holding God accountable 324 00:24:50.480 --> 00:24:54.480 to reconcile the situation before we believe Him, 325 00:24:54.480 --> 00:24:56.800 before we believe His word, 326 00:24:56.800 --> 00:24:59.320 and it's more than just believe His word, 327 00:24:59.320 --> 00:25:00.520 like, oh, well, I know. 328 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:06.640 what God says, I know about what God says, where they're going, and the fact that for me, even 329 00:25:06.640 --> 00:25:12.560 though Doss is not passing away, she's moving on to another home. In other words, just this loss 330 00:25:13.200 --> 00:25:21.120 somewhere. We can all tell ourselves all of the things that we were supposed to believe, 331 00:25:21.120 --> 00:25:29.120 but internally we have to actually choose. We have to choose to release judgment 332 00:25:29.120 --> 00:25:36.160 and stop thinking that and stop requiring that the situation should be different than what it is. 333 00:25:37.360 --> 00:25:43.760 Stop holding God accountable to reconcile the fact for us that they shouldn't have died, 334 00:25:44.320 --> 00:25:47.440 they shouldn't be gone, they should still be here. 335 00:25:51.040 --> 00:25:54.320 Even if someone, like I said, has passed away because of a really serious illness, 336 00:25:54.320 --> 00:25:57.520 well then we have a tendency to go all the way back and say, well God, 337 00:25:58.240 --> 00:26:03.120 thank you for in your mercy taking them in their serious illness so they wouldn't hurt anymore, 338 00:26:03.120 --> 00:26:08.000 but there's an accusation in us of like, God, why on earth did they have to have that sickness? Why 339 00:26:08.000 --> 00:26:12.160 on earth did they have to have that illness? And of all ways for them to die, why did it have to 340 00:26:12.160 --> 00:26:18.160 be that one? We have a tendency to pick something or the aspect of, you know, God, if I'd only had 341 00:26:18.160 --> 00:26:25.600 one more day with them, if I'd only had one more opportunity to reconcile this, that, or the other 342 00:26:25.760 --> 00:26:31.360 memory that we have in our mind. Those types of accusations are things that we grieve. All of 343 00:26:31.360 --> 00:26:37.440 these regrets and worries and whatever that we bring up, it's very important that all of those 344 00:26:37.440 --> 00:26:45.680 things we release judgment. We stop judging them, stop saying that they should be something 345 00:26:45.680 --> 00:26:50.880 different. The fact that I wish that I had told them this before they passed away, I wish that 346 00:26:50.880 --> 00:26:56.720 we'd reconciled this, or I wish that they had said this to me. All of those things we have to 347 00:26:56.720 --> 00:27:03.600 let go of, and by the letting go, we're not saying that they're not valuable. We're saying 348 00:27:04.400 --> 00:27:11.040 that we're holding on to this thing, and we have to choose, and we have to stop being in judgment 349 00:27:11.040 --> 00:27:18.560 that it should be different than simply just what it is, and we just choose to let it go. 350 00:27:18.560 --> 00:27:24.880 Just open our hands is all it is. We don't have to do anything. We just have to stop 351 00:27:25.680 --> 00:27:34.000 doing something, and because those are actually, the pain in there is the accusation against the 352 00:27:34.000 --> 00:27:42.560 Lord that something's not right, and it needs to be righted, and we're accusing Him of not fixing it. 353 00:27:42.560 --> 00:27:51.040 We're accusing Him of the fact that it doesn't reconcile with what He's declared His character 354 00:27:51.040 --> 00:27:59.920 to be, and we need the manifestation. We're requiring that the manifestation match His 355 00:27:59.920 --> 00:28:06.480 character, who we're declaring His character to be, and so we're saying, well, then the fact, 356 00:28:06.480 --> 00:28:10.160 Lord, that you're allowing it to be this way, when your character isn't that way, 357 00:28:10.160 --> 00:28:15.680 is actually reflecting of your character that you're not that way, and whatever. We have all 358 00:28:15.680 --> 00:28:21.440 of these accusations against the Lord, and we just have to let go of ownership of that. 359 00:28:22.080 --> 00:28:28.560 We have to let go of the ownership. We have to release it, and not believe that it should be 360 00:28:28.560 --> 00:28:33.760 different than what it is. That will immediately shift us into rest. We're not saying it's okay 361 00:28:33.840 --> 00:28:38.320 that they died. We're not saying it's okay. We're not saying that it's right. 362 00:28:39.440 --> 00:28:45.600 We're not releasing judgment at all, is the point. We're stopping holding God accountable to it. 363 00:28:46.160 --> 00:28:52.400 Then, once we have shifted into rest, we all remember, once we've shifted into rest, 364 00:28:52.400 --> 00:28:59.920 and we've released judgment first, meaning like, let it go, then we shift into the Spirit. 365 00:29:00.560 --> 00:29:04.880 Then we remember who it is that we are. We stop accusing God of being afraid, 366 00:29:05.680 --> 00:29:10.240 and we choose Him instead, and now from that place, now that we're shifted into 367 00:29:11.680 --> 00:29:18.240 remembering that we are Spirit, and that we are the new man, the new man sees things according 368 00:29:18.240 --> 00:29:23.920 to the eyes of the Father, and now we can view the situation more accurately. We can view the 369 00:29:23.920 --> 00:29:29.760 situation from the eyes of the Father, and be able to see God's character actually manifested, 370 00:29:29.840 --> 00:29:35.760 in the situation, in love, and goodness, and righteousness, and holiness, and care, and 371 00:29:35.760 --> 00:29:41.840 tenderness, and fondness, and anything else that you find when you're in the heart of the Father, 372 00:29:41.840 --> 00:29:49.200 looking back through His eyes, through His desires, back on the situation. From that place, 373 00:29:50.000 --> 00:29:57.760 now you're in a place of, when now you're seated on Christ's throne with Him, 374 00:29:57.760 --> 00:29:59.920 and that throne is the throne of 375 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:03.640 righteous judgment. Now you're in the position as a righteous judge 376 00:30:04.480 --> 00:30:09.580 looking at things through the eyes of the Father, you can make a righteous judgment of the situation 377 00:30:09.920 --> 00:30:15.720 because you're seeing it through the eyes of righteousness. You're seeing it through through the eyes of the Lord and 378 00:30:16.920 --> 00:30:19.920 and that's when you can look at the situation and discern 379 00:30:20.400 --> 00:30:25.680 was this right, was this wrong, was this reflective of the character of the Lord or not? 380 00:30:25.960 --> 00:30:29.240 But we can't make that judgment 381 00:30:29.880 --> 00:30:37.440 until we let go of the judgment first, we let go of the ownership of that judgment first, then we shift into the place. 382 00:30:37.920 --> 00:30:39.920 Now we have 383 00:30:43.000 --> 00:30:48.560 what's the word for that? It's not that we've earned the place of judgment 384 00:30:48.560 --> 00:30:56.040 but of having given it up first, but it's that we have 385 00:30:58.120 --> 00:31:00.600 we've proven that we're trustworthy 386 00:31:02.120 --> 00:31:06.280 to be a righteous judge. If we release our 387 00:31:09.320 --> 00:31:17.080 requirement that we be the judge, if we release that first, we've proven to the Lord so to speak 388 00:31:18.080 --> 00:31:25.920 that we actually are worthy to be a righteous judge. Yes, go laboring. 389 00:31:27.680 --> 00:31:33.760 Excuse me, go laboring. And the last thing that I want to say is 390 00:31:35.560 --> 00:31:39.760 that the more that we release about something, 391 00:31:40.800 --> 00:31:45.880 someone, the more that we release judgment, meaning that's what I mean about releasing someone, 392 00:31:45.880 --> 00:31:48.840 the more that we release judgment about the situation and 393 00:31:49.400 --> 00:31:55.680 start letting and shift into the Father, shift into the heart of the Father about the situation. 394 00:31:55.680 --> 00:32:02.280 It's what I had to do with my dog. I had to shift into the heart of the Father about the situation and when we do that 395 00:32:04.120 --> 00:32:06.120 we actually have an opportunity 396 00:32:06.800 --> 00:32:10.800 because we're letting go of the things that are keeping us enslaved, 397 00:32:11.520 --> 00:32:13.520 that are weighing us down. 398 00:32:13.640 --> 00:32:19.480 Those things, remember, everything that we're holding, whenever we're holding on to things, we're resisting. 399 00:32:20.200 --> 00:32:24.680 We're resisting something that God wants to give us. Every time we're in resistance, 400 00:32:24.680 --> 00:32:27.280 there's something God's wanting to give us and we're resisting it, right? 401 00:32:27.440 --> 00:32:34.800 That's what resistance is. It's pushing away and keeping at bay the fact that God is sending something. 402 00:32:35.520 --> 00:32:40.280 So when you're releasing your resistance, what is it that you're receiving? 403 00:32:41.280 --> 00:32:46.000 You're actually receiving more of that person 404 00:32:47.680 --> 00:32:49.440 after they've died 405 00:32:49.440 --> 00:32:51.440 than you had of them 406 00:32:51.560 --> 00:32:53.560 while they were on earth. 407 00:32:53.800 --> 00:32:58.680 There's a special connection that you have had to them on earth, 408 00:32:59.600 --> 00:33:01.600 but you have something 409 00:33:02.400 --> 00:33:04.280 more of them 410 00:33:04.280 --> 00:33:08.400 after they've died and this is a principle that we see in Scripture 411 00:33:09.320 --> 00:33:13.880 with Jesus and the fact that he kept telling him, 412 00:33:13.880 --> 00:33:18.280 I have to die and he also kept telling him later, I have to go away. 413 00:33:18.280 --> 00:33:19.880 I have to go back to heaven, 414 00:33:19.880 --> 00:33:24.440 because you'll have more of me because if I don't leave, the Comforter can't come. 415 00:33:24.440 --> 00:33:30.240 Well, the Comforter is the Holy Spirit. That's an extension of Jesus because he's the Holy Trinity, right? 416 00:33:30.280 --> 00:33:32.280 It's another part of the Trinity. 417 00:33:32.960 --> 00:33:38.240 But also when Jesus died and rose again, how did he come back? 418 00:33:38.880 --> 00:33:40.880 He came back as a spirit being. 419 00:33:41.160 --> 00:33:48.200 His body, well, he's our spirit being, he came back as a spiritually transformed body, 420 00:33:49.000 --> 00:33:53.360 which is more than what the disciples had of him earlier. 421 00:33:55.040 --> 00:33:58.720 Remember that he could appear to people on the walk to Emmaus and 422 00:33:59.000 --> 00:34:03.600 then he could disappear from the table and then appear somewhere else. 423 00:34:05.520 --> 00:34:09.440 People could, even in a physical sense, 424 00:34:10.159 --> 00:34:13.760 experience and have more of him than they could 425 00:34:14.480 --> 00:34:16.000 before he died. 426 00:34:16.000 --> 00:34:23.239 So it's the principle that when someone has died, 427 00:34:23.520 --> 00:34:31.320 they have cast off an aspect of the flesh that we interacted with that limited our ability to interact, 428 00:34:32.199 --> 00:34:34.199 limited our ability to connect. 429 00:34:35.040 --> 00:34:38.960 We can connect more in the spirit and in the metaphysical 430 00:34:39.480 --> 00:34:43.600 than we can in the physical. Now when all of our bodies are transformed, 431 00:34:43.600 --> 00:34:47.480 then we're going to even be able to enjoy that to a 432 00:34:48.199 --> 00:34:49.280 deeper level. 433 00:34:49.280 --> 00:34:55.159 But I wanted to point that out. God desires to give us more of the people that are, 434 00:34:55.440 --> 00:34:58.520 you know, our beings that are passing 435 00:34:59.160 --> 00:35:01.160 on. 436 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:08.680 on, he wants to give us more and allow us to experience more of them after than we 437 00:35:08.680 --> 00:35:13.760 could when they were here because the things of their flesh that were so 438 00:35:13.760 --> 00:35:19.880 limiting have now been broken off. They've now been freed of them and so 439 00:35:19.880 --> 00:35:24.560 there's an aspect about them that's been transformed that you can get to choose 440 00:35:24.560 --> 00:35:31.360 to take part in and be connected with. It's very interesting how that works but 441 00:35:31.360 --> 00:35:40.760 you can have more of somebody after they've died than before. And then, you 442 00:35:40.760 --> 00:35:46.200 know, because they're still living. Christ proved that. You know, he died and rose 443 00:35:46.200 --> 00:35:54.200 again and meaning that we too, you know, are risen again. Yes, God is so good. So 444 00:35:54.200 --> 00:35:59.200 it's very, very precious that God allows all of this, that he allows that 445 00:35:59.200 --> 00:36:03.200 connection. The other thing that I did want to talk about related to connection 446 00:36:03.200 --> 00:36:10.000 is the more that you let go, you know, it feels, it hurts. By letting go, I'm 447 00:36:10.000 --> 00:36:14.040 talking about the no judgment, the releasing ownership. That's what we're 448 00:36:14.040 --> 00:36:18.560 doing. We're releasing ownership. That's the letting go. We're not saying, okay, 449 00:36:18.560 --> 00:36:23.360 it's okay for him to be gone now. It's, you know, I'm actually allowing, 450 00:36:23.880 --> 00:36:27.560 I'm allowing something to be removed from my life because I finally released 451 00:36:27.560 --> 00:36:32.240 my stranglehold. No, no, no. We're not doing that. We're releasing ownership of 452 00:36:32.240 --> 00:36:38.360 it so that we can fully enjoy it more out here. We can fully enjoy it, meaning 453 00:36:38.360 --> 00:36:43.680 like fully enjoy it more with hands open than we can with hands closed. This 454 00:36:43.680 --> 00:36:52.200 brings death. This is life. Constant movement, which is spirit. But the other 455 00:36:52.200 --> 00:36:59.720 thing is, once we choose that God is good and God is loving to the 456 00:36:59.720 --> 00:37:03.840 extent that he says that he is, instead of holding him accountable 457 00:37:03.840 --> 00:37:08.600 to the manifestation that we're seeing and what it is that we're 458 00:37:08.600 --> 00:37:14.560 experiencing and what feels like a loss or a lack or whatever, if we choose him 459 00:37:14.560 --> 00:37:19.880 instead, I promise you, what ends up happening is there are some connections, 460 00:37:20.000 --> 00:37:28.880 especially that are made in the soul, that need to be, that create a 461 00:37:28.880 --> 00:37:35.640 tremendous amount of pain when that person is no longer there. It's like 462 00:37:35.640 --> 00:37:41.840 these, like our connections are, it's like, I don't know, kind of 463 00:37:41.840 --> 00:37:46.480 think of it like the connections have been severed and they're just live on 464 00:37:46.600 --> 00:37:50.240 the edges and they're raw because they're used to being attached to the 465 00:37:50.240 --> 00:37:54.080 other person. Now they're just alive and raw and it just 466 00:37:54.080 --> 00:38:00.560 really, really hurts. Well, the neat thing about releasing judgment, releasing that 467 00:38:00.560 --> 00:38:05.080 pain, in other words, releasing the struggle that it shouldn't be this 468 00:38:05.080 --> 00:38:09.920 way and it should be different, what ends up happening is when we 469 00:38:09.920 --> 00:38:16.560 let go, let go of our accusation against God and choose him and his 470 00:38:16.560 --> 00:38:21.000 character and his word and what it is that he says, immediately, as 471 00:38:21.000 --> 00:38:25.200 y'all all know this from practice, from personal experience, immediately you 472 00:38:25.200 --> 00:38:34.520 shift into rest. I did this, by the way, in a moment with DASA 473 00:38:34.520 --> 00:38:39.840 because I thought, yep, put my money where my mouth is. 474 00:38:39.840 --> 00:38:45.240 God wants me to shift into rest in various areas and now he's 475 00:38:45.240 --> 00:38:49.360 teaching me how to shift into resting, even going through grief. So here we go, 476 00:38:49.360 --> 00:38:52.800 right in the middle of it, my eyes were so red and so swollen that they were 477 00:38:52.800 --> 00:38:59.720 shedding because I've been crying for 24 hours and because I just 478 00:38:59.800 --> 00:39:07.960 basically set aside 24 hours for grieving. Anyway, I shifted 479 00:39:07.960 --> 00:39:12.720 into rest in a moment when I let go of the fact that it shouldn't be 480 00:39:12.720 --> 00:39:19.080 like that. I just let it go and as soon as I did, I shifted into rest. It was 481 00:39:19.080 --> 00:39:26.160 amazing and I could finally enjoy the time that I have, me 482 00:39:26.240 --> 00:39:29.840 personally, because I still have her. I can enjoy the time that I have left with 483 00:39:29.840 --> 00:39:36.920 her, but if the person is already gone, it's still the same 484 00:39:36.920 --> 00:39:40.800 thing in the fact that those raw connectors that are just now cut 485 00:39:40.800 --> 00:39:48.640 off, they now go away. They now heal and you feel more 486 00:39:48.640 --> 00:39:54.280 whole because those connectors actually are removed from you completely. 487 00:39:54.320 --> 00:39:57.880 So it's not just kind of like, oh well, you just have this edge, this connector 488 00:39:57.880 --> 00:40:02.000 that's still floating out there, but then you know it kind of... 489 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:10.320 It kind of gets a, what would you call it, like a salve or ointment or balm on the end 490 00:40:10.320 --> 00:40:14.120 of it, you know, to kind of close it off, you know, so it'll stop hurting. 491 00:40:14.120 --> 00:40:16.760 No, no, no, the connector is removed. 492 00:40:16.760 --> 00:40:23.240 That's very important because God ensures, always wants to ensure that we stay whole, 493 00:40:23.240 --> 00:40:24.240 that we feel whole. 494 00:40:24.240 --> 00:40:28.760 And if we have all these connectors out there, raw or not, there's nothing that they're hanging 495 00:40:28.760 --> 00:40:34.280 onto and it will feel, I'm talking about how all this feels in spirit with me, with Doss, 496 00:40:34.280 --> 00:40:37.000 it feels like there are all of these connections. 497 00:40:37.000 --> 00:40:38.960 And anyway, so that's why I'm using that. 498 00:40:38.960 --> 00:40:43.960 And also when I have forgiven people in the spirit, I've seen connections between me and 499 00:40:43.960 --> 00:40:47.000 them like, like, like cords or whatever. 500 00:40:47.000 --> 00:40:50.080 So there's like soul ties and things like that. 501 00:40:50.080 --> 00:40:55.860 Anyway, so that's why I'm using this, this picture is in the spirit. 502 00:40:55.860 --> 00:40:59.420 This is how sometimes people see it. 503 00:40:59.420 --> 00:41:06.900 Anyway, the connector itself is just removed because that connector isn't needed anymore 504 00:41:06.900 --> 00:41:12.100 because now you can experience the person so much more than simply just the way in which 505 00:41:12.100 --> 00:41:14.740 you had been connected in the limited way. 506 00:41:14.740 --> 00:41:16.500 It's just these connections. 507 00:41:16.500 --> 00:41:21.140 Now their spirit, and since you're a spirit, and they've been spirit before, but what I 508 00:41:21.140 --> 00:41:25.740 mean is that now that the limitations of their flesh have been broken off and you now get 509 00:41:25.740 --> 00:41:28.980 to experience more of them, you don't need the connectors. 510 00:41:28.980 --> 00:41:33.340 You now get to experience so much more of who it is that they are within the body of 511 00:41:33.340 --> 00:41:39.740 Christ, as well as the fact that they have joined, you know, the cloud of witnesses. 512 00:41:39.740 --> 00:41:47.400 And they do still have duties and responsibilities related to the body of Christ. 513 00:41:47.400 --> 00:41:52.180 They're just doing it from the spirit realm. 514 00:41:52.180 --> 00:41:57.180 And they just don't have this fleshly, earthly limitations anymore. 515 00:41:57.180 --> 00:42:02.300 Anyway, so you'll notice that those connectors end up healing. 516 00:42:02.300 --> 00:42:07.820 And so the connections that we've had with these things, we're no longer attached to 517 00:42:07.820 --> 00:42:09.180 them. 518 00:42:09.180 --> 00:42:11.620 Again, freedom. 519 00:42:11.620 --> 00:42:15.300 We have freedom now to enjoy someone. 520 00:42:15.300 --> 00:42:21.900 We have freedom to enjoy the memories more than the memories, freedom to enjoy them still 521 00:42:21.900 --> 00:42:23.860 because they are still in existence. 522 00:42:23.860 --> 00:42:26.060 They are still alive. 523 00:42:26.060 --> 00:42:32.020 And we have an opportunity to, and having released that resistance, we have an opportunity 524 00:42:32.020 --> 00:42:49.740 to release, in having released that resistance, we have an opportunity now to receive more 525 00:42:49.740 --> 00:42:51.700 of who that person is. 526 00:42:51.700 --> 00:42:56.020 Anyway, it's just very fascinating how all of these things work. 527 00:42:56.020 --> 00:42:57.860 But we have to let go. 528 00:42:57.860 --> 00:43:01.860 We have to let go of that accusation in order to receive more of that person. 529 00:43:01.860 --> 00:43:04.020 We're hurting because we're feeling a loss. 530 00:43:04.020 --> 00:43:09.820 But what we don't understand is that giving up that accusation actually allows us to finally 531 00:43:09.820 --> 00:43:14.240 receive more of them, which brings comfort. 532 00:43:14.240 --> 00:43:16.700 Because it's not just a comfort at that moment. 533 00:43:16.700 --> 00:43:21.820 We actually get to, and in a way, it's like we don't even need to be comforted. 534 00:43:21.820 --> 00:43:29.620 Because why be comforted of the loss of something that you no longer feel the loss of? 535 00:43:29.620 --> 00:43:30.620 Because you have it. 536 00:43:30.620 --> 00:43:36.220 And you now have more of it and more of them than you did before. 537 00:43:36.220 --> 00:43:41.820 I hope this doesn't sound as esoterical, extremely esoterical. 538 00:43:41.820 --> 00:43:45.220 I tried to articulate it as best as I could. 539 00:43:45.740 --> 00:43:49.220 But I haven't had much practice articulating it. 540 00:43:49.220 --> 00:43:51.740 It's just some things that the Lord has begun to teach me. 541 00:43:51.740 --> 00:43:56.540 And so I've begun to walk different people through this, this path of grief. 542 00:43:56.540 --> 00:44:03.380 I knew someone whose mother passed away a few days before the conference. 543 00:44:03.380 --> 00:44:08.620 A gentleman whose wife passed away six months ago. 544 00:44:08.620 --> 00:44:13.420 And then obviously, you know, Susan's grandfather passed away. 545 00:44:14.420 --> 00:44:17.340 Was that two, three days ago? 546 00:44:17.340 --> 00:44:24.740 And anyway, so all of a sudden, I'm just kind of surrounded by all of this. 547 00:44:24.740 --> 00:44:30.860 And I didn't know I was going to when I went through my own grief. 548 00:44:30.860 --> 00:44:35.540 And again, we're not comparing the intensity and the type of grief that it is. 549 00:44:35.540 --> 00:44:43.740 You know, losing a wife versus losing, you know, a dog, you know, a grandfather or a mother. 550 00:44:43.740 --> 00:44:45.060 We're not comparing them. 551 00:44:45.060 --> 00:44:48.660 We're talking about the principle of grief. 552 00:44:48.660 --> 00:44:50.220 And then we're just specific. 553 00:44:50.220 --> 00:44:59.740 We're just specifying about the loss of an actual loved one versus like the loss of a... 554 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.000 of a dream or the dying of something that we wanted, 555 00:45:05.000 --> 00:45:06.160 you know, that kind of thing. 556 00:45:06.160 --> 00:45:07.240 Because there's that kind of grief too, 557 00:45:07.240 --> 00:45:08.840 that I'm very familiar with. 558 00:45:08.840 --> 00:45:10.520 But it was the things about living beings 559 00:45:10.520 --> 00:45:13.600 that I had yet to learn about how to process grief and rest. 560 00:45:13.600 --> 00:45:16.920 So yeah, yeah, God prepared me. 561 00:45:19.040 --> 00:45:23.120 So I had no idea, I had no idea. 562 00:45:23.120 --> 00:45:28.120 But I was able to heal very fast, very fast. 563 00:45:30.960 --> 00:45:33.800 And I still have opportunities to shift into rest 564 00:45:33.800 --> 00:45:37.800 when all of the sudden the realization hits me. 565 00:45:41.680 --> 00:45:44.320 So it'll just teach me a new measure. 566 00:45:44.320 --> 00:45:48.600 But the major threshold, the Lord already took me through. 567 00:45:48.600 --> 00:45:50.640 And I'm very grateful for that. 568 00:45:52.640 --> 00:45:55.440 Because He already dealt with the accusation. 569 00:45:56.480 --> 00:45:59.120 He dealt with just, and I'm just telling you all this 570 00:45:59.120 --> 00:46:00.720 in case it's helpful for y'all. 571 00:46:03.760 --> 00:46:08.120 First, He had to take me through her health 572 00:46:08.120 --> 00:46:09.720 and what I wanted to do about that. 573 00:46:09.720 --> 00:46:12.400 Because she's not, she's got some health issues. 574 00:46:14.280 --> 00:46:18.960 And He had to process, help me process through this, 575 00:46:21.200 --> 00:46:25.360 these terrible accusations that I had against God and myself 576 00:46:25.360 --> 00:46:30.360 about what to do when a dog gets old 577 00:46:30.640 --> 00:46:34.400 and there are medical ways to keep them alive longer. 578 00:46:35.240 --> 00:46:40.240 How long do you keep delaying death? 579 00:46:43.200 --> 00:46:45.280 How long do you keep doing it? 580 00:46:45.280 --> 00:46:47.240 How long do you find new solutions? 581 00:46:47.240 --> 00:46:51.080 And how much do you continue to pay for? 582 00:46:51.080 --> 00:46:54.680 And where is that? 583 00:46:54.720 --> 00:46:55.680 If it's a living being, 584 00:46:55.680 --> 00:46:59.680 I didn't understand how I couldn't, how I could not pay. 585 00:46:59.680 --> 00:47:02.520 How I could not fix the problem for her 586 00:47:02.520 --> 00:47:05.280 to make sure that she stayed around longer. 587 00:47:05.280 --> 00:47:09.400 So the Lord had to process me through that. 588 00:47:09.400 --> 00:47:13.960 And then He took me through letting her actually go 589 00:47:13.960 --> 00:47:16.560 and sending her onto a new home 590 00:47:16.560 --> 00:47:19.800 when I thought that I would have her until she passed away. 591 00:47:20.760 --> 00:47:23.560 And then it's this idea of, 592 00:47:24.560 --> 00:47:26.480 that when she does pass away, she'll belong, 593 00:47:26.480 --> 00:47:28.920 she'll be with someone else. 594 00:47:28.920 --> 00:47:33.920 And then also just the thought of, 595 00:47:37.200 --> 00:47:38.720 Lord, it feels like abandon. 596 00:47:40.080 --> 00:47:43.480 And when that's something that I've always promised her, 597 00:47:43.480 --> 00:47:45.080 I would never do. 598 00:47:45.080 --> 00:47:46.880 So Lord, I don't understand. 599 00:47:46.880 --> 00:47:49.160 Can you reconcile these things for me? 600 00:47:49.400 --> 00:47:52.800 So that is what He's doing right now, 601 00:47:52.800 --> 00:47:54.760 is reconciling that part. 602 00:47:54.760 --> 00:47:58.280 And I'm very grateful that the people that are taking her 603 00:47:58.280 --> 00:48:02.040 have very generously given me time 604 00:48:02.040 --> 00:48:06.600 to already have the home for her. 605 00:48:06.600 --> 00:48:08.480 And I'm gonna get to go see it. 606 00:48:08.480 --> 00:48:10.280 I'm gonna get to go see where she is 607 00:48:10.280 --> 00:48:13.560 and where she's gonna be because she's with friends. 608 00:48:14.400 --> 00:48:16.240 That means I'm gonna get to see her again. 609 00:48:16.240 --> 00:48:17.960 I'm so grateful for that. 610 00:48:17.960 --> 00:48:20.320 The Lord has provided her with a home 611 00:48:20.320 --> 00:48:25.320 that knows, that spends a lot of time actually, 612 00:48:28.160 --> 00:48:33.160 that has all kinds of, at least has a machine 613 00:48:33.320 --> 00:48:36.160 and all kinds of other health remedies 614 00:48:36.160 --> 00:48:40.760 to actually help Dassa live several more years, 615 00:48:40.760 --> 00:48:43.200 not just the one or two that the vet told me 616 00:48:43.200 --> 00:48:47.360 about last October, but several more years. 617 00:48:47.360 --> 00:48:49.680 And I'm grateful for that. 618 00:48:49.680 --> 00:48:51.920 And they can speak life over her, 619 00:48:51.920 --> 00:48:56.280 life over her internally as well as physically. 620 00:48:56.280 --> 00:49:01.280 And anyway, and then they very graciously, 621 00:49:04.320 --> 00:49:07.800 they very graciously allowed me 622 00:49:07.800 --> 00:49:12.040 because I was offered to stay, 623 00:49:12.040 --> 00:49:14.160 the owner, Linda, very kind, 624 00:49:14.160 --> 00:49:15.440 and said, Ashley, why don't you, 625 00:49:15.440 --> 00:49:17.560 you're welcome to just stay here for a little bit, 626 00:49:17.560 --> 00:49:20.560 for a bit longer until we have the next conference 627 00:49:20.560 --> 00:49:21.600 in a couple of weeks. 628 00:49:21.600 --> 00:49:24.400 And well, I didn't know, but what that was doing, 629 00:49:24.400 --> 00:49:27.400 it was giving me time to be here 630 00:49:27.400 --> 00:49:29.720 because the people that are gonna take her 631 00:49:29.720 --> 00:49:31.440 are here in Missouri. 632 00:49:31.440 --> 00:49:34.200 And so because I'm not leaving, 633 00:49:34.200 --> 00:49:36.840 then I get to, and I'm here for a bit, 634 00:49:36.840 --> 00:49:39.160 I get to have time with Dassa 635 00:49:39.160 --> 00:49:44.160 and get to process letting her go. 636 00:49:45.480 --> 00:49:47.200 While already knowing where she's going, 637 00:49:47.200 --> 00:49:49.520 so all of that's taken care of, 638 00:49:49.520 --> 00:49:54.000 but while that getting to enjoy her a bit longer 639 00:49:54.000 --> 00:49:55.920 instead of just having to say a sudden goodbye. 640 00:49:55.920 --> 00:49:59.020 So I'm very grateful for all of that preparation. 641 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:04.000 And God has blessed me abundantly through that, 642 00:50:04.000 --> 00:50:05.780 and I'm grateful. 643 00:50:05.780 --> 00:50:09.640 But even in all of that, I still get those waves. 644 00:50:09.640 --> 00:50:14.640 And the major threshold of the grief is over. 645 00:50:14.640 --> 00:50:19.320 Those major accusations, I worked through. 646 00:50:19.320 --> 00:50:21.240 There's now this accusation, though, 647 00:50:21.240 --> 00:50:23.640 I'm just being real with y'all so that y'all can hopefully 648 00:50:23.640 --> 00:50:26.120 gain some encouragement through all of this 649 00:50:26.120 --> 00:50:30.520 and understanding that when I talk about things, 650 00:50:30.520 --> 00:50:32.120 I don't want it to sound like, oh, 651 00:50:32.120 --> 00:50:34.160 everything's just easy for me. 652 00:50:34.160 --> 00:50:37.320 And I just know these things are, 653 00:50:37.320 --> 00:50:41.440 I want you to know these things are lived out. 654 00:50:41.440 --> 00:50:43.480 And they're lived out continually, 655 00:50:43.480 --> 00:50:48.360 and God just continually moves us into greater measures 656 00:50:48.360 --> 00:50:50.440 and helps us release more and more. 657 00:50:50.440 --> 00:51:00.440 So I will, excuse me, so now I am processing with the Lord 658 00:51:00.440 --> 00:51:06.160 and having him help me reconcile the fact 659 00:51:06.160 --> 00:51:09.120 that it feels like I'm in a position 660 00:51:09.120 --> 00:51:16.800 where I have told her that I won't ever leave her 661 00:51:16.800 --> 00:51:22.840 and that I always come back and that we'll always be together. 662 00:51:22.840 --> 00:51:24.920 Those are things that I've always told her. 663 00:51:24.920 --> 00:51:27.080 And so now I'm actually, it feels 664 00:51:27.080 --> 00:51:30.080 like I'm going back on my word. 665 00:51:30.080 --> 00:51:37.040 But, forgive all of the tears, but the Lord 666 00:51:37.040 --> 00:51:41.760 is going to explain that to me. 667 00:51:41.760 --> 00:51:46.320 And he's going to help me heal and reconcile that as well. 668 00:51:46.320 --> 00:51:50.320 And I'm looking forward to that. 669 00:51:50.320 --> 00:51:53.240 All of these things, by the way, the reconciliation 670 00:51:53.240 --> 00:51:55.040 of all of these things, and I want 671 00:51:55.040 --> 00:52:01.600 you to know this in case you're looking for words 672 00:52:01.600 --> 00:52:07.880 to articulate from the Lord, that an explanation, 673 00:52:07.880 --> 00:52:09.800 when you shift into rest, and this 674 00:52:09.800 --> 00:52:18.160 is what I mean about reconciling, 675 00:52:18.160 --> 00:52:22.240 something that doesn't feel right, 676 00:52:22.240 --> 00:52:30.040 that is the fact that, like including her health, 677 00:52:30.040 --> 00:52:31.880 the Lord had just relieved me. 678 00:52:31.880 --> 00:52:36.520 And he said, Ashley, relieved me meaning like released me. 679 00:52:36.520 --> 00:52:38.360 That's the word I was looking for. 680 00:52:38.400 --> 00:52:41.240 Released me, and he said, Ashley, 681 00:52:41.240 --> 00:52:47.160 he said, you don't need to be looking for health solutions 682 00:52:47.160 --> 00:52:49.040 for DASA. 683 00:52:49.040 --> 00:52:55.960 Allow her to, allow me to just walk her through a natural, 684 00:52:55.960 --> 00:53:00.520 just take her when I say that it's time. 685 00:53:00.520 --> 00:53:03.880 And of course, this is before. 686 00:53:03.880 --> 00:53:07.960 I was planning on the Lord showing me 687 00:53:07.960 --> 00:53:10.640 that it was time for her to move on to another home. 688 00:53:10.640 --> 00:53:15.680 God was having me deal with this other first, the health. 689 00:53:15.680 --> 00:53:23.880 So understand that when I received peace about it 690 00:53:23.880 --> 00:53:29.120 and he reconciled it for me, I shifted into rest, 691 00:53:29.120 --> 00:53:31.600 and that's all I needed. 692 00:53:31.600 --> 00:53:36.480 He didn't give me an explanation of, OK, well, Ashley, 693 00:53:36.760 --> 00:53:38.960 logically, this is why it's OK. 694 00:53:38.960 --> 00:53:42.680 This is why it's OK that when a dog gets this age 695 00:53:42.680 --> 00:53:48.200 and the bills are like this and the situation's like this, 696 00:53:48.200 --> 00:53:51.240 he didn't explain that to me. 697 00:53:51.240 --> 00:53:53.680 All he did is I shifted into rest, 698 00:53:53.680 --> 00:53:55.520 and I chose him over everything. 699 00:53:55.520 --> 00:53:58.400 I chose him over DASA, him over my desires, 700 00:53:58.400 --> 00:54:04.080 him over everything, and everything in me went still. 701 00:54:04.080 --> 00:54:05.920 And it was all OK. 702 00:54:05.920 --> 00:54:07.800 And in that place of quietness, I 703 00:54:07.800 --> 00:54:11.880 could hear what God wanted me to do and what was OK to do. 704 00:54:11.880 --> 00:54:13.760 He's like, Ashley, this is OK. 705 00:54:13.760 --> 00:54:14.920 This is all right. 706 00:54:14.920 --> 00:54:17.200 So it's going to be the same thing for this other 707 00:54:17.200 --> 00:54:18.360 that I'm battling. 708 00:54:18.360 --> 00:54:19.640 Like, God, I don't understand. 709 00:54:19.640 --> 00:54:21.000 I don't understand. 710 00:54:21.000 --> 00:54:24.000 My heart hurts that I've made her promises, 711 00:54:24.000 --> 00:54:26.800 that now it looks like I am going to actually trying 712 00:54:26.800 --> 00:54:29.680 to heal her from people who did this to her and saying, 713 00:54:29.680 --> 00:54:31.640 I'm never going to do that to her. 714 00:54:31.640 --> 00:54:35.800 And it looks like I'm going to do it to her, right? 715 00:54:35.800 --> 00:54:38.720 I believe that God, I don't know if God 716 00:54:38.720 --> 00:54:41.920 is going to articulate that for me in words 717 00:54:41.920 --> 00:54:43.280 that I can explain to y'all. 718 00:54:43.280 --> 00:54:47.000 Hopefully, he will, so that we can all benefit 719 00:54:47.000 --> 00:54:49.800 from maybe some articulation. 720 00:54:49.800 --> 00:54:57.920 But what I'm fully prepared for possibly happening 721 00:54:57.920 --> 00:55:01.560 is that I just don't know. 722 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:02.040 just finally shifting to rest. 723 00:55:03.040 --> 00:55:05.280 I'm shifting to rest more and more 724 00:55:05.280 --> 00:55:07.040 about that, about this issue, 725 00:55:07.040 --> 00:55:10.760 about the fact that I've always told her 726 00:55:10.760 --> 00:55:11.880 I'm not ever gonna leave her 727 00:55:11.880 --> 00:55:14.120 and that I'm always coming back, 728 00:55:14.120 --> 00:55:16.000 but then this time I really, 729 00:55:16.000 --> 00:55:17.120 it's like her worst fear 730 00:55:17.120 --> 00:55:18.200 and then I'm making it happen 731 00:55:18.200 --> 00:55:20.920 is what it feels like to me. 732 00:55:20.920 --> 00:55:23.640 That right there, I am fully prepared 733 00:55:23.640 --> 00:55:27.880 that God may just fully, 734 00:55:27.880 --> 00:55:30.360 after I choose to fully shift into rest 735 00:55:30.360 --> 00:55:32.440 because I'm choosing it more and more. 736 00:55:32.440 --> 00:55:34.760 It's hard, as we all know. 737 00:55:34.760 --> 00:55:36.240 It's hard for me, too. 738 00:55:36.240 --> 00:55:37.080 So I don't just tell her, 739 00:55:37.080 --> 00:55:39.400 yeah, y'all just shift into rest, that's easy. 740 00:55:39.400 --> 00:55:41.400 I'm fully aware of the fact that, 741 00:55:41.400 --> 00:55:43.280 okay, well, I've shifted a little bit more 742 00:55:43.280 --> 00:55:45.720 into rest today, but I haven't gone all the way 743 00:55:45.720 --> 00:55:47.200 in this one area. 744 00:55:47.200 --> 00:55:52.200 I'm fully aware that I've got more to go in it 745 00:55:52.680 --> 00:55:55.700 and when I shift into rest in this area, 746 00:55:56.700 --> 00:56:00.220 I don't know that I'm going to have, 747 00:56:01.460 --> 00:56:04.100 be able to say that God has articulated 748 00:56:04.100 --> 00:56:06.940 and explained to me how it's okay. 749 00:56:09.820 --> 00:56:12.740 I just know that in that place of rest, 750 00:56:13.900 --> 00:56:15.180 everything's still. 751 00:56:16.220 --> 00:56:17.420 We know all things, 752 00:56:17.420 --> 00:56:21.940 even if her soul doesn't know how to articulate it, 753 00:56:21.940 --> 00:56:23.180 we know it's right. 754 00:56:23.180 --> 00:56:28.180 We know it's okay in this situation 755 00:56:30.300 --> 00:56:32.180 and that's all we need to know 756 00:56:33.940 --> 00:56:35.740 as opposed to, oh, well, 757 00:56:35.740 --> 00:56:37.220 being able to explain to someone else 758 00:56:37.220 --> 00:56:41.420 why it's okay that, or how God worked it out. 759 00:56:41.420 --> 00:56:42.820 If we need to shift into rest, 760 00:56:42.820 --> 00:56:44.380 we abide in Him and we rest in Him. 761 00:56:44.380 --> 00:56:46.660 As soon as we rest in Him, it's all okay. 762 00:56:46.660 --> 00:56:48.700 Whatever He decides to do is okay 763 00:56:50.020 --> 00:56:52.820 and we don't have accusation anymore against Him. 764 00:56:53.300 --> 00:56:54.380 We're not battling. 765 00:56:54.380 --> 00:56:55.420 We don't have to know. 766 00:56:55.420 --> 00:57:00.420 We don't have to have an explanation of why, right? 767 00:57:00.540 --> 00:57:04.580 So for any of you who are battling some struggles 768 00:57:04.580 --> 00:57:07.660 like that, maybe if you, 769 00:57:07.660 --> 00:57:09.380 and I know I keep going back to this example 770 00:57:09.380 --> 00:57:11.380 because it's a very hard one for us. 771 00:57:11.380 --> 00:57:13.740 If someone passes away from cancer, 772 00:57:13.740 --> 00:57:16.780 Lord, why did they have to pass away like that? 773 00:57:16.780 --> 00:57:21.780 Why did they have to pass away young or whatnot? 774 00:57:22.620 --> 00:57:27.500 There, we may not, 775 00:57:27.500 --> 00:57:30.340 when we go to the Lord, we may not get an art, 776 00:57:30.340 --> 00:57:34.060 a way, we may not get an answer that we can articulate 777 00:57:34.060 --> 00:57:36.020 of, oh, apparently this is why, 778 00:57:37.700 --> 00:57:40.740 but in Him is that peace that we, 779 00:57:40.740 --> 00:57:42.700 that we should, when we shift into rest, 780 00:57:42.700 --> 00:57:45.580 we have that stillness and just that knowing that, 781 00:57:46.740 --> 00:57:48.900 that it actually is okay.