WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:02.100 So now we know, all right, I'm so glad. 2 00:00:02.100 --> 00:00:04.059 Thank you all so much for speaking up. 3 00:00:04.059 --> 00:00:05.700 You felt the same way as me. 4 00:00:05.700 --> 00:00:07.540 That's what I would want in your situation. 5 00:00:07.540 --> 00:00:09.160 Let's all be together. 6 00:00:09.160 --> 00:00:12.380 Okay, so I'm just gonna jump off microphone and video 7 00:00:12.380 --> 00:00:14.420 and y'all just catch up with each other. 8 00:00:14.420 --> 00:00:17.860 And, you know, remember that this is basically a, 9 00:00:17.860 --> 00:00:19.020 basically a journey share. 10 00:00:19.020 --> 00:00:21.180 Remember, you're just keep catching people up on, 11 00:00:21.180 --> 00:00:23.120 hey, you know, this is how I'm feeling. 12 00:00:23.120 --> 00:00:25.740 This is what I'm walking through with me in the Lord. 13 00:00:25.740 --> 00:00:28.740 And, and then you just kind of, you know, 14 00:00:28.740 --> 00:00:30.600 we can ask each other questions like, 15 00:00:30.600 --> 00:00:32.720 so why do you think that, you know, 16 00:00:32.720 --> 00:00:34.520 because basically what you're doing 17 00:00:34.520 --> 00:00:37.960 is you're trying to recognize unrest 18 00:00:37.960 --> 00:00:42.120 and how we get into unrest in those situations. 19 00:00:42.120 --> 00:00:45.000 And then how it is that we can, 20 00:00:45.000 --> 00:00:46.880 and not really necessarily how we get into 21 00:00:46.880 --> 00:00:48.440 those situations of unrest, 22 00:00:48.440 --> 00:00:51.280 but basically recognizing them. 23 00:00:51.280 --> 00:00:53.120 What exactly is going on? 24 00:00:53.120 --> 00:00:54.680 Like, and you work kind of like together, 25 00:00:54.680 --> 00:00:55.920 you just kind of discuss together, 26 00:00:55.920 --> 00:00:57.920 throw out ideas like, oh, what do you think about this? 27 00:00:57.920 --> 00:00:59.500 Do you think the reason that you felt that way 28 00:00:59.500 --> 00:01:03.340 is because this happened or, you know, was it, 29 00:01:03.340 --> 00:01:06.260 is it fear that you're actually feeling, you know, 30 00:01:06.260 --> 00:01:09.620 or is it whatever, because remember that this is, 31 00:01:09.620 --> 00:01:13.540 even though we all have our individual experiences of, 32 00:01:13.540 --> 00:01:15.820 and our lives look very unique, 33 00:01:15.820 --> 00:01:18.180 everything that we're dealing with at the root 34 00:01:18.180 --> 00:01:19.660 is the same thing. 35 00:01:19.660 --> 00:01:21.940 We're all dealing with the same spiritual issues. 36 00:01:21.940 --> 00:01:24.540 We're all dealing with fear from fear of God. 37 00:01:24.540 --> 00:01:27.620 We're all dealing with fear of man. 38 00:01:28.320 --> 00:01:29.960 We're all dealing with anxiety. 39 00:01:29.960 --> 00:01:33.120 We're all dealing with wounds from parents 40 00:01:33.120 --> 00:01:37.000 or from school teachers or from, you know, 41 00:01:37.000 --> 00:01:41.240 spouses or from, I don't know, 42 00:01:41.240 --> 00:01:43.600 I don't know, anxiety or struggle with children. 43 00:01:43.600 --> 00:01:45.320 I don't know, whatever it is. 44 00:01:45.320 --> 00:01:49.520 And so, but the thing is that we're all facing 45 00:01:49.520 --> 00:01:51.440 the fact that we're insecure, 46 00:01:51.440 --> 00:01:53.180 that we don't feel that we can trust God, 47 00:01:53.180 --> 00:01:55.880 that we tried before and we saw how that went. 48 00:01:55.880 --> 00:01:57.400 And so now we're afraid. 49 00:01:58.060 --> 00:01:58.900 We all don't want to admit it, 50 00:01:58.900 --> 00:02:01.700 but really that's, we're all dealing with the same thing. 51 00:02:01.700 --> 00:02:04.240 We just all have individual situations 52 00:02:04.240 --> 00:02:05.740 that are triggering it. 53 00:02:05.740 --> 00:02:09.020 And sometimes because the situations look so unique, 54 00:02:09.020 --> 00:02:12.740 we have a difficult time discovering 55 00:02:12.740 --> 00:02:15.980 and finding the common root of it. 56 00:02:15.980 --> 00:02:20.900 So anyway, we can all, we're all in the same position. 57 00:02:20.900 --> 00:02:25.180 We're just all expressing our various unique triggers. 58 00:02:25.480 --> 00:02:27.960 And then we, and then together, you know, 59 00:02:27.960 --> 00:02:29.920 y'all just talk about, okay, well, 60 00:02:29.920 --> 00:02:33.040 how would we shift out of rest 61 00:02:33.040 --> 00:02:35.920 when we're feeling fear of the Lord, 62 00:02:35.920 --> 00:02:38.320 when we are struggling to feel safe with Him, 63 00:02:38.320 --> 00:02:42.200 if we don't feel His love and we don't, you know, 64 00:02:42.200 --> 00:02:44.720 how, what is it that we could do 65 00:02:44.720 --> 00:02:46.360 to try to develop that intimacy? 66 00:02:46.360 --> 00:02:48.260 You know, that kind of a thing. 67 00:02:48.260 --> 00:02:49.760 So, all right. 68 00:02:49.760 --> 00:02:52.760 Well, I hope that y'all have a good time, 69 00:02:52.760 --> 00:02:54.120 you know, catching up 70 00:02:54.120 --> 00:02:56.580 and y'all just decide who gets to start. 71 00:02:57.420 --> 00:03:00.420 If y'all can't decide, start alphabetically by first name. 72 00:03:15.420 --> 00:03:17.140 Hey guys. 73 00:03:17.140 --> 00:03:20.140 Hi, putting on my headphones so I can hear my work. 74 00:03:20.140 --> 00:03:24.060 I work from home and I'm putting on my work headphones. 75 00:03:24.880 --> 00:03:25.720 I really like them. 76 00:03:25.720 --> 00:03:27.760 They're really, I can hear very well, so. 77 00:03:30.320 --> 00:03:32.480 Well, I'm on my computer rather than my phone tonight 78 00:03:32.480 --> 00:03:34.400 so I can hear a little better, so. 79 00:03:43.200 --> 00:03:45.360 Well, Diana, you started talking about your headphones. 80 00:03:45.360 --> 00:03:48.360 I thought you were going to transition it to earphones. 81 00:03:51.480 --> 00:03:52.640 She does start with a D, 82 00:03:52.640 --> 00:03:54.540 so she'd have to go first anyway. 83 00:03:54.540 --> 00:03:56.640 Yeah, we're starting alphabetical order. 84 00:03:58.380 --> 00:03:59.940 Okay, I'll share. 85 00:03:59.940 --> 00:04:01.500 I haven't really done my journey, sure, 86 00:04:01.500 --> 00:04:04.220 because it's been a hard week and I had to, 87 00:04:04.220 --> 00:04:06.740 I saw this meme on Facebook. 88 00:04:06.740 --> 00:04:09.500 It said, it's been a long week 89 00:04:09.500 --> 00:04:11.660 and it's just only Tuesday, right? 90 00:04:11.660 --> 00:04:15.460 It feels like we should be further along in the week. 91 00:04:15.460 --> 00:04:18.420 And, but I'm trying to think, 92 00:04:18.420 --> 00:04:22.620 I've been just listening to some of her videos 93 00:04:23.440 --> 00:04:26.800 and I'm trying to really shift 94 00:04:26.800 --> 00:04:30.800 into more intimate relationship with God, right? 95 00:04:30.800 --> 00:04:34.440 Which is what this is to me all about, right? 96 00:04:34.440 --> 00:04:37.000 Which is what I think we all desire 97 00:04:37.000 --> 00:04:40.520 is to get closer to him and have a, to really know him. 98 00:04:40.520 --> 00:04:41.840 And so that's my desire. 99 00:04:41.840 --> 00:04:43.040 And I've just been like, God, 100 00:04:43.040 --> 00:04:46.360 I'm trying to shut out distractions 101 00:04:46.360 --> 00:04:49.920 and not people per se, not responsibilities 102 00:04:49.920 --> 00:04:54.920 and all of that, but yeah, just try to stay focused. 103 00:04:55.580 --> 00:04:58.700 And I'm thinking to myself, okay, so this is six weeks 104 00:04:58.700 --> 00:05:00.600 and of course I don't want this just. 105 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:03.240 to be six weeks, but, you know, if I'm not doing it now, when, 106 00:05:03.260 --> 00:05:06.240 you know, it's like, that's the reason I signed up. It's 107 00:05:06.240 --> 00:05:11.240 because I wanted something to shift in my life, I wanted a 108 00:05:11.240 --> 00:05:14.700 breakthrough, I wanted, I want to get closer to God, I went and 109 00:05:14.700 --> 00:05:19.200 so trying to not trying to do or strive or doing all that, 110 00:05:19.200 --> 00:05:22.560 because that's what I'm trying to get out of. But trying to 111 00:05:24.200 --> 00:05:28.360 just spend time with God, like last night, I watched her video 112 00:05:29.080 --> 00:05:36.320 about where she talks about the the those releasing exercises 113 00:05:36.320 --> 00:05:39.240 where you put on the instrumental music, and that was 114 00:05:39.240 --> 00:05:45.880 so good, because I needed it, where you go into that the data, 115 00:05:46.160 --> 00:05:51.480 you know, and you so I did that last night, and I just felt real 116 00:05:51.480 --> 00:05:54.880 at peace. And I did it right before I went to sleep. And so, 117 00:05:55.480 --> 00:06:00.680 you know, just trying to not give God not feeling pressured, 118 00:06:00.680 --> 00:06:04.720 or because sometimes I would feel guilty of Oh, God, I didn't 119 00:06:04.720 --> 00:06:08.520 spend time with you today, or I'm not giving you the first 120 00:06:08.520 --> 00:06:12.840 hour of the day, or I'm not, you know, doing what I should and 121 00:06:12.840 --> 00:06:17.200 all that. Shouldn't shouldn't, like says, shouldn't shouldn't 122 00:06:17.240 --> 00:06:21.120 and, and I don't want to get into that legalism, I want to be 123 00:06:21.120 --> 00:06:25.880 free from all of that. But at the same time, I want to not 124 00:06:26.960 --> 00:06:29.920 draw closer. So how do I do that? How do I get out of the 125 00:06:29.920 --> 00:06:36.120 religious monotony, but yet, you know, stay, you know, draw 126 00:06:36.120 --> 00:06:40.840 closer to him. So that's, it's not really a struggle. It's a 127 00:06:40.840 --> 00:06:44.680 joy because I've been thinking about it today. And, and it's, 128 00:06:44.720 --> 00:06:49.320 it's, it's a joy really to to know him and to experience him. 129 00:06:49.320 --> 00:06:56.720 And so that's, so that's, that's what I've been doing. I 130 00:06:56.720 --> 00:07:01.280 don't know. That's just what I've been thinking about today 131 00:07:01.280 --> 00:07:05.640 and focusing on and trying to not make it about the 132 00:07:05.640 --> 00:07:10.520 shouldn't shouldn't but make it about God. And, and so it's 133 00:07:10.520 --> 00:07:14.800 kind of hard when when you've been in church and for a long 134 00:07:14.800 --> 00:07:20.920 time and you like I'm talking about me when I I just 135 00:07:20.920 --> 00:07:24.160 automatically revert to okay, I'm gonna pray and I know I'm 136 00:07:24.160 --> 00:07:27.840 gonna fast and I'm gonna read my Bible and it's just like, those 137 00:07:27.840 --> 00:07:34.120 are all good things, like she said, but not do it. Like, like 138 00:07:34.120 --> 00:07:39.480 a out of obligation or just because I do a checkmark 139 00:07:39.520 --> 00:07:43.760 checkmark checkmark, you know, so that's that's been a struggle 140 00:07:43.760 --> 00:07:52.560 for me. So thank you for sharing. That was 10 minutes. 141 00:07:57.120 --> 00:08:00.840 That's good. That was good. Thank you. 142 00:08:03.400 --> 00:08:03.960 Next. 143 00:08:14.000 --> 00:08:14.400 Oops. 144 00:08:16.040 --> 00:08:21.360 I mean, can I ask, I know you asked Ashley earlier about 145 00:08:21.360 --> 00:08:26.480 breathing and getting into that calm theta, like you're, I guess 146 00:08:26.480 --> 00:08:29.960 getting practice and being successful. Is that kind of what 147 00:08:30.040 --> 00:08:31.440 you said when you 148 00:08:33.679 --> 00:08:38.760 me? Yeah, yeah. Yes, I was just because I have such a stressful 149 00:08:38.760 --> 00:08:43.520 job. You know, I deal with customers all day. And the 150 00:08:43.520 --> 00:08:46.960 elderly, I work with people with Medicare. And I don't know if 151 00:08:46.960 --> 00:08:52.280 you know, but they're like over 65. And mostly, mostly over 65. 152 00:08:52.600 --> 00:08:56.240 And so I, my job requires a lot of patience and a lot of 153 00:08:56.240 --> 00:09:03.280 compassion. And so I, it's hard sometimes, you know, because 154 00:09:03.280 --> 00:09:06.920 they get upset and like that, but it's stressful. And so at 155 00:09:06.920 --> 00:09:11.880 the end of the day, I want to be able to just kind of relax 156 00:09:11.880 --> 00:09:18.320 and, and go into that, that she talks about. And I'm telling 157 00:09:18.320 --> 00:09:22.280 you, I listened to that video. And that song she played, I 158 00:09:22.280 --> 00:09:25.560 have to I have to ask what song is that in the video, but 159 00:09:25.640 --> 00:09:30.360 immediately, I was just like, just feeling that just such a 160 00:09:30.360 --> 00:09:33.080 peace came over me. I was like, I don't know, it's just not the 161 00:09:33.080 --> 00:09:37.880 song, but that the music was so relaxing. It was just so good. 162 00:09:37.920 --> 00:09:43.400 Yeah. I think I'm gonna make it I'm gonna try to do that. You 163 00:09:43.400 --> 00:09:47.000 know, at the end of the, you know, the day just, you know, 164 00:09:47.560 --> 00:09:48.000 sleep. 165 00:09:49.720 --> 00:09:52.520 I think I need one of those video or you know, the that 166 00:09:52.520 --> 00:09:54.040 soundtrack or whatever, too. 167 00:09:54.440 --> 00:09:55.600 Yeah, yeah. 168 00:09:59.040 --> 00:09:59.560 Well, 169 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:05.000 Do you want me to go? 170 00:10:05.000 --> 00:10:06.000 Okay. 171 00:10:06.000 --> 00:10:09.000 I listened to that too. 172 00:10:09.000 --> 00:10:11.000 I think it's. 173 00:10:11.000 --> 00:10:14.000 Well I listened to part of. 174 00:10:14.000 --> 00:10:20.000 I think it's a rest group one and the rest group. Is it three or four the one that King's Kings and. 175 00:10:20.000 --> 00:10:22.000 And, yes, that one. 176 00:10:22.000 --> 00:10:27.000 Yeah, I in fact I saved them so I could get back to me easier. 177 00:10:27.000 --> 00:10:38.000 Yeah, it's one in four I think but one of them does the meditations like you're talking about. And that is that music and that you guys yeah that is so good. 178 00:10:38.000 --> 00:10:49.000 It is so good. And I did I did it yesterday. I did the 10 minute one yesterday and then today I went back and did the 10 minute and then she does another 10 minute. 179 00:10:49.000 --> 00:10:53.000 And it was a different music but they're both really good. 180 00:10:53.000 --> 00:11:00.000 And yeah, yeah because that's when I heard her talking about. 181 00:11:00.000 --> 00:11:12.000 Well, several things have opened up for me in the last couple of days I will have to tell you that but when I heard her talking about meditation helps traumas all the way back to age three that the theta, when you drop down to theta, you can actually 182 00:11:12.000 --> 00:11:20.000 help heal traumas, even things that sleep can't do because your body's busy when you sleep, I guess. 183 00:11:20.000 --> 00:11:35.000 And that you can heal traumas I'm like whoa this and now I understand why so many people are kind of teaching on meditation you know and I've done a tiny bit of it but I was like, I really need to go back and listen to that video so I did and I did it 184 00:11:35.000 --> 00:11:52.000 yesterday and today and then I also did the other one which was what I'm why am I having a hard time remembering the other one was, what's the other one is it in the exercise in it besides the meditation is the gosh I'm having a hard time remembering now, but the 185 00:11:52.000 --> 00:12:04.000 exercise but there's, there's a kind of exercise in it to all think of it in a minute, but really to be honest and I finally did a short video you guys were tonight right before we came on. 186 00:12:04.000 --> 00:12:07.000 I saw that. Yes, that was good. 187 00:12:07.000 --> 00:12:10.000 Did you listen to it. 188 00:12:11.000 --> 00:12:25.000 And I did a short discussion the other night because she actually said that's important so, but I have really realized what she talked about you guys about the fact that we have the walls up. 189 00:12:26.000 --> 00:12:40.000 The walls are walls up from letting God's love in oh that's the other one is practicing letting God's love in where she, she did that and I've been trying to practice that some at night with not huge success but I still say it's just, I guess I'll say it's 190 00:12:40.000 --> 00:12:52.000 just because I'm still practicing. And so we'll call it a success but boy I tell you it's been yesterday I just really realized that I have not been vulnerable either with the Lord. 191 00:12:52.000 --> 00:13:06.000 When Ashley was talking about that and so I sat down and wrote yesterday and, and just avoid some things just kind of came out that I, you know, and I just embrace the feelings with the Lord. 192 00:13:07.000 --> 00:13:17.000 That's one thing I've been learning to do this last year is it's not stuff feelings but embrace them with the Lord, and then write them out if you can and let them go to the Lord. 193 00:13:17.000 --> 00:13:27.000 So you get them out you don't stuff them, but boy did I did I embrace some things, just to get transparent that, 194 00:13:27.000 --> 00:13:35.000 you know, and it was it was, it was, it was good you know but I. 195 00:13:35.000 --> 00:13:43.000 I didn't realize all this so this is a real eye opener you know, and, 196 00:13:43.000 --> 00:13:53.000 you know, and then today I really kind of did it again. I did some more writing today, 197 00:13:53.000 --> 00:14:02.000 feeling like I just need to keep keep this journey on and being vulnerable with the Lord and, and, 198 00:14:02.000 --> 00:14:05.000 you know, and it's. 199 00:14:05.000 --> 00:14:20.000 I just also realize it is it's kind of hard because I realized to I've been on this healing journey for a long time I don't know about you guys but I started on it like over 20 years ago and really got started getting more inner healing. 200 00:14:20.000 --> 00:14:22.000 Gosh over 15. 201 00:14:22.000 --> 00:14:38.000 Over 15 years ago so it's kind of like another thing hit me a while ago it was kind of hard was, you know, wondering how much how much progress have I really made because, because here I find myself here after doing it you guys I do more work than hardly 202 00:14:38.000 --> 00:14:40.000 anybody I know. 203 00:14:40.000 --> 00:14:46.000 I've done, you know, a lot of different stuff. 204 00:14:46.000 --> 00:14:59.000 I'm still doing in fact I have another session tomorrow with with the Oaks rising, which has been real helpful too but but this thing. This is really, I think this is really. 205 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:16.000 Really good stuff to the two things of not being vulnerable with the Lord and then the one that hit me again after reading some Ashley's comments I think is where I read them maybe even her comment back to my discussion was that we have accusations against the Lord. 206 00:15:16.000 --> 00:15:23.000 And I didn't realize that. So I went today you guys and I wrote the accusations. 207 00:15:23.000 --> 00:15:37.000 And they just came out things I didn't even know even like came out of me was like, Lord, I guess I have an accusation why you, why, why, you know, why didn't you heal my mother, who had mental illness most of my life, and it came out. 208 00:15:37.000 --> 00:15:40.000 And why didn't you heal their marriage. 209 00:15:40.000 --> 00:15:44.000 And these things just started coming out. 210 00:15:44.000 --> 00:15:51.000 And, and, and, you know, those are the first two things I remember. 211 00:15:51.000 --> 00:16:05.000 And, wow, you know, although it's it's really hard kind of hard stuff to, to do this stuff but it's. 212 00:16:05.000 --> 00:16:14.000 I can see where it's it's freeing, you know is going to be freeing to get these things out because these must be buried so far in there. 213 00:16:15.000 --> 00:16:24.000 Because I didn't know I still had accusation against the Lord about my mother and, and my mom and dad's marriage I didn't know that. 214 00:16:24.000 --> 00:16:34.000 And many times as I've forgiven my mother and layer these onions and onions and my father and, and it's like whoa. Okay. 215 00:16:34.000 --> 00:16:48.000 So, so it was kind of good. I didn't have a lot of my calendar today and then I ended up with a couple things later but I, I had, I had the whole morning and, and then, 216 00:16:48.000 --> 00:17:05.000 I've prepared some food this week even some extra foods are foods ready and I still think I, and I got to do my meditation and then I finally did these accusations so. 217 00:17:05.000 --> 00:17:16.000 So anyway, I just feel like this is a really, you know, a really going to be really helpful. 218 00:17:16.000 --> 00:17:26.000 Although I also you know my relationship with my husband just to be vulnerable with you all has been on again off again it's not been good. 219 00:17:26.000 --> 00:17:37.000 So, it's just even from the start it's kind of a long story but he was married 30 years and his wife passed, and I knew both of them and then we started dating. 220 00:17:38.000 --> 00:17:42.000 Shortly after his wife passed and Ashley met him. 221 00:17:42.000 --> 00:17:57.000 He was at the address rest conference with me. First conference we went to together. And then we ended up getting married pretty shortly after and it was just, it just was really pretty hard out of the shoot off and on. 222 00:17:57.000 --> 00:18:14.000 And, you know, good in ways but hard in ways and then the next year turned out to be like the most last year was the most stressful year, or actually they know the year we got married all kinds of things happened and my whole family turned against me sued me. 223 00:18:14.000 --> 00:18:19.000 And I didn't fight them, but so I lost really connection with my family and all these. 224 00:18:19.000 --> 00:18:26.000 Anyway, other stuff happened. And so finally Ken and I split up. 225 00:18:26.000 --> 00:18:41.000 And actually and I don't even know if Ashley knows this, but actually actually I'm just going to be vulnerable actually, I was so hurt by some things and just miscommunications and stuff that I divorced, I filed for divorce. 226 00:18:41.000 --> 00:19:04.000 And then about six months later, we got back together last fall, and we kind of both agreed to do whatever it took. But, you know, that's kind of not, it's kind of like we've done some things and the hard part is I think we do love each other but it. 227 00:19:05.000 --> 00:19:19.000 So some things we agreed to do just aren't aren't all hat aren't really happening. And so I just kind of feel like this is a time I need to just work on this journey here of letting God's love in more. 228 00:19:19.000 --> 00:19:38.000 So, I don't know what's going to happen with my relationship and kind of even in these last couple of days I've just kind of been like, you know, I think I was trying to control things I was trying to probably codependence showed up again in my life which I didn't, I thought 229 00:19:38.000 --> 00:19:42.000 I'd done work on and so I'm just facing a lot of things. 230 00:19:42.000 --> 00:19:49.000 Right now, and in some financial stuff. 231 00:19:49.000 --> 00:19:55.000 But I, I'm hopeful, because this is I think going to be. 232 00:19:55.000 --> 00:20:00.000 I'm really glad I took I'm really glad that I'm on this journey with you guys. 233 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:07.000 isn't the rest intensive. So I feel like I'm on the right path. 234 00:20:08.880 --> 00:20:14.440 And I just gonna have to let things go to God and let their 235 00:20:14.440 --> 00:20:18.440 relationship go to God. And, and you know what, it's, it's, it's 236 00:20:18.440 --> 00:20:26.920 in, it's really in his hands. So. So anyway, thanks for 237 00:20:26.920 --> 00:20:31.920 listening. Thanks for sharing. Yes, thanks for sharing that, 238 00:20:31.920 --> 00:20:38.200 Karen. Yeah. Oh, can I ask, um, so when you brought up, when 239 00:20:38.200 --> 00:20:40.560 you're having your time with the Lord and the accusations were 240 00:20:40.560 --> 00:20:45.680 coming up, like, how did you, I guess, engage the Lord with that? 241 00:20:45.680 --> 00:20:51.120 Or did you just ask him if there's accusations or? Well, 242 00:20:51.400 --> 00:21:06.560 let's see, I am. Um, what I did, I'm looking here. I just I 243 00:21:06.560 --> 00:21:10.800 write that's I learned a long time journal. I journal a lot. I 244 00:21:10.800 --> 00:21:14.840 took a class or I heard a class like 20 over 20 years ago. I 245 00:21:14.840 --> 00:21:18.240 still remember a lady named Linda Makovitz taught a class. 246 00:21:18.800 --> 00:21:21.640 If you don't know if you're hearing from God, or want to 247 00:21:21.640 --> 00:21:24.480 hear from God, just write it down, ask him a question. And 248 00:21:24.480 --> 00:21:27.240 you're more apt to stop and listen, if you do it on paper, 249 00:21:27.600 --> 00:21:29.760 that if you just ask him a question, you'll go on to the 250 00:21:29.760 --> 00:21:33.160 next thought. And it was like a 30 minute class changed my life 251 00:21:33.160 --> 00:21:36.480 forever. And I've passed that little tip on to so many people. 252 00:21:37.320 --> 00:21:39.920 And I just start would start asking him questions. But you'd 253 00:21:39.920 --> 00:21:43.800 be amazed, you know, sometimes I'd get one word, sometimes two 254 00:21:43.800 --> 00:21:46.360 words, and next thing you know, you get longer, blah, blah, blah. 255 00:21:46.640 --> 00:21:52.160 So I learned, I write. And so I just said, I believe I'm holding 256 00:21:52.160 --> 00:21:59.240 accusations against you, God. And I'm so sorry, forgive me, 257 00:21:59.280 --> 00:22:03.920 this came up in my heart. And then, and then it just flew out 258 00:22:03.920 --> 00:22:06.880 of me. That's all I said. And it flew out of me, you didn't hear 259 00:22:06.880 --> 00:22:14.680 my mom, or their marriage. And I've felt alone, and not love 260 00:22:14.680 --> 00:22:18.280 most of my life. I took on codependency tendencies, 261 00:22:18.280 --> 00:22:20.320 because I took on taking care of my mom, because she had mental 262 00:22:20.320 --> 00:22:26.320 illness. And to maybe to have someone to love me or care for, 263 00:22:26.360 --> 00:22:32.040 I guess. And, you know, and I feel like I've done it again. So 264 00:22:32.040 --> 00:22:34.760 it just came out of me. But that's how I've learned is by 265 00:22:34.840 --> 00:22:41.560 writing. So that's how I started it. And I have this beautiful 266 00:22:41.560 --> 00:22:46.040 journal, my friend paints prophetic journals in Kansas 267 00:22:46.040 --> 00:22:51.560 City. Yes, you just give her your name, and she'll, the Lord 268 00:22:51.560 --> 00:22:54.240 will show her a journal that's for you. And then she she gives 269 00:22:54.240 --> 00:22:56.640 you a prophetic word inside of it. And this is they've been 270 00:22:56.640 --> 00:22:59.560 really good, because they just draw, then they just draw you to 271 00:22:59.560 --> 00:23:05.560 them. So writing is how I that's how I started it. So thank you. 272 00:23:05.560 --> 00:23:07.320 Yeah, appreciate that. 273 00:23:09.560 --> 00:23:10.080 Sure. 274 00:23:12.240 --> 00:23:13.360 Oh, it's my turn. 275 00:23:18.160 --> 00:23:19.640 Rita, Rita. 276 00:23:22.440 --> 00:23:25.120 I know. I'm always like, what am I going to share? I need to, 277 00:23:25.320 --> 00:23:31.960 okay, I need to write it down. Um, but so I do need help, 278 00:23:31.960 --> 00:23:37.960 because my dad's older. And I was like, I, um, you know, I've 279 00:23:37.960 --> 00:23:41.000 had conversations with him recently, and they're just 280 00:23:41.280 --> 00:23:45.680 unpleasant. And, you know, you forgive them. And you don't 281 00:23:45.680 --> 00:23:50.800 want to, you know, have hard, hard feelings. But I just have 282 00:23:50.800 --> 00:23:54.440 this thing, like, I don't even want to talk to him. And like, I 283 00:23:54.440 --> 00:24:05.120 need to, I guess, process that with the Lord. But today, I 284 00:24:05.120 --> 00:24:09.240 guess, let me just start from the beginning. So I needed to 285 00:24:09.240 --> 00:24:12.680 start back to the beginning. I mean, actually keep saying, 286 00:24:12.680 --> 00:24:18.440 like, love is foundational, and no condemnation, you know, so 287 00:24:18.440 --> 00:24:22.720 you can receive freedom a lot sooner. And today, when I was 288 00:24:22.720 --> 00:24:26.560 getting anxious about work, and I'm like, why am I feeling 289 00:24:26.560 --> 00:24:32.560 anxious? And it's because, you know, I'm, I'm kind of a 290 00:24:32.560 --> 00:24:35.440 supervisor. Well, that's my title. I'm a supervisor. So 291 00:24:35.440 --> 00:24:38.440 they're asking me questions, we got new tasks, everybody had to 292 00:24:38.480 --> 00:24:41.000 be done by the end of the day. And I was like, but I have my 293 00:24:41.000 --> 00:24:43.960 own stuff to do, and get done by the end of the day. And I just 294 00:24:43.960 --> 00:24:49.160 like, I could feel the panic coming on. Or the anxiety, I 295 00:24:49.160 --> 00:24:54.880 don't do panics. Yet. I don't want to. But and then I just 296 00:24:54.880 --> 00:24:59.440 said, Lord, you love me. And I just, all I care is that you 297 00:24:59.440 --> 00:25:00.080 love me. 298 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:05.000 And I just realized, like, at the beginning of this, 299 00:25:08.600 --> 00:25:11.120 today, you know, us logging in, I was like, 300 00:25:11.120 --> 00:25:13.780 Lord, I did get all my stuff done before. 301 00:25:15.920 --> 00:25:17.560 Yeah, before the end of the day, 302 00:25:17.560 --> 00:25:18.840 because yesterday I didn't, 303 00:25:18.840 --> 00:25:23.160 and I was feeling, you know, unhappy about it. 304 00:25:23.160 --> 00:25:26.080 But just today I was like, oh my gosh. 305 00:25:26.080 --> 00:25:28.100 I mean, the anxiety went away too, 306 00:25:28.100 --> 00:25:30.340 and I didn't, you know, really realize that. 307 00:25:30.340 --> 00:25:34.060 But because I'm, you know, trying to receive his love, 308 00:25:34.060 --> 00:25:35.100 and then I still have to get up 309 00:25:35.100 --> 00:25:36.860 because someone's calling me or something. 310 00:25:36.860 --> 00:25:40.920 And I just, you know, but I'm just grateful that, 311 00:25:43.740 --> 00:25:46.780 yeah, I can just always turn to him. 312 00:25:46.780 --> 00:25:51.780 And yeah, I need to see that more in my journey. 313 00:25:51.780 --> 00:25:56.780 But yeah, that's kind of it for now, yeah. 314 00:26:05.220 --> 00:26:06.500 Thank you, Rita. 315 00:26:06.500 --> 00:26:07.660 Yeah, thank you, Raze. 316 00:26:10.060 --> 00:26:11.420 What do you do during the day? 317 00:26:11.420 --> 00:26:13.540 Like, when you're, what did you do to, like, 318 00:26:13.540 --> 00:26:17.900 shift out and shift into rest during the workday? 319 00:26:17.900 --> 00:26:21.060 Is there a specific thing that you do or a tool that you use? 320 00:26:21.980 --> 00:26:26.980 Um, yeah, I mean, definitely acknowledging where my state, 321 00:26:30.700 --> 00:26:33.820 I mean, in the beginning of the day, I try to, you know, 322 00:26:33.820 --> 00:26:38.820 I do the exercise of I'm abiding and, you know, 323 00:26:39.020 --> 00:26:42.500 trying to, you know, be in my union 324 00:26:42.500 --> 00:26:45.940 and just be reminded of that in the beginning of the day. 325 00:26:45.940 --> 00:26:47.540 But then once you get to work, 326 00:26:47.580 --> 00:26:51.220 I feel like I go into autopilot 327 00:26:51.220 --> 00:26:54.580 until something triggers my emotion. 328 00:26:54.580 --> 00:26:59.580 And then when I'm, yeah, when I'm not happy, 329 00:26:59.700 --> 00:27:04.260 then I'll just, like, why am I feeling like this? 330 00:27:04.260 --> 00:27:06.580 And I'm like, oh, I just need to turn to your love. 331 00:27:06.580 --> 00:27:08.860 And I just say, like, Lord, you love me 332 00:27:08.860 --> 00:27:10.540 and you delight in me. 333 00:27:10.540 --> 00:27:14.180 And you love that I'm doing this with you and whatever. 334 00:27:14.180 --> 00:27:17.900 And then my tasks are very tedious or menial. 335 00:27:17.900 --> 00:27:21.580 I mean, I just, they're not fun, 336 00:27:21.580 --> 00:27:23.380 just a lot of data entry and stuff, 337 00:27:23.380 --> 00:27:27.300 but just telling him he's doing it with me 338 00:27:27.300 --> 00:27:28.860 and that he loves me while I do it. 339 00:27:28.860 --> 00:27:32.180 So that's pretty much how I get 340 00:27:33.100 --> 00:27:36.460 over the mundane-ness of my job. 341 00:27:36.460 --> 00:27:38.100 Yeah. That's good. 342 00:27:38.100 --> 00:27:39.820 I love that, Rita. 343 00:27:39.820 --> 00:27:40.860 Sorry. 344 00:27:40.860 --> 00:27:41.860 That's from Ashley. 345 00:27:42.820 --> 00:27:43.660 Hey. 346 00:27:43.660 --> 00:27:44.500 Thanks for sharing. 347 00:27:44.500 --> 00:27:45.340 Yeah. 348 00:27:49.260 --> 00:27:50.860 Okay. I guess it's my turn. 349 00:27:52.700 --> 00:27:53.940 So I don't know. 350 00:27:53.940 --> 00:27:56.940 Should I start with, okay, I'll start, 351 00:27:56.940 --> 00:27:58.020 like, I'll do a mixture. 352 00:27:58.020 --> 00:28:00.220 Start with the praise report from last time. 353 00:28:00.220 --> 00:28:04.100 So I was, I guess I mentioned, shared with you guys 354 00:28:04.100 --> 00:28:07.580 that I was just like, I was triggered by my husband. 355 00:28:07.980 --> 00:28:10.980 And so I asked Ashley just about like, 356 00:28:12.260 --> 00:28:13.500 okay, what do you do? 357 00:28:13.500 --> 00:28:15.780 Because I was realizing that I self-soothed. 358 00:28:15.780 --> 00:28:18.740 And so she talked about like, it's okay to like, 359 00:28:19.980 --> 00:28:24.620 she used the Bible verse or area about wrestling with God, 360 00:28:24.620 --> 00:28:26.060 about Jacob wrestling with God. 361 00:28:26.060 --> 00:28:27.100 And it's like, okay. 362 00:28:27.100 --> 00:28:29.340 Cause I think for me, I realized it's like, 363 00:28:29.340 --> 00:28:34.180 if I have feelings that aren't pretty, 364 00:28:34.180 --> 00:28:35.020 you know what I mean? 365 00:28:35.020 --> 00:28:37.260 Like, it's like, no, I'm offended. 366 00:28:37.940 --> 00:28:38.780 You did this to me. 367 00:28:38.780 --> 00:28:40.660 And no, I don't feel like forgiving you. 368 00:28:40.660 --> 00:28:41.500 You know what I mean? 369 00:28:41.500 --> 00:28:42.860 Like, I'm over your nonsense. 370 00:28:42.860 --> 00:28:44.980 Like, that was the state that I was in. 371 00:28:44.980 --> 00:28:47.300 And so, like, I was like, 372 00:28:47.300 --> 00:28:49.140 I didn't feel like I could really bring that to God. 373 00:28:49.140 --> 00:28:50.500 Cause I'm like, it wasn't loving. 374 00:28:50.500 --> 00:28:52.500 I know it wasn't Christ-like, you know what I mean? 375 00:28:52.500 --> 00:28:55.020 Like, but I was like, that's how I was feeling, you know? 376 00:28:55.020 --> 00:29:00.020 And so having her say, like, it's okay to like, 377 00:29:00.020 --> 00:29:01.940 bring, you know, your feelings to God, 378 00:29:01.940 --> 00:29:03.420 like that helped me to like, 379 00:29:03.420 --> 00:29:06.500 I talked it out with him in my head and I was like, 380 00:29:06.500 --> 00:29:07.740 okay, okay. 381 00:29:07.740 --> 00:29:09.500 So then I felt better about it. 382 00:29:09.500 --> 00:29:11.340 And then I brought it to my husband 383 00:29:11.340 --> 00:29:13.460 and he received it really well. 384 00:29:13.460 --> 00:29:15.660 It was a good conversation. 385 00:29:15.660 --> 00:29:18.340 You know, they've been getting, you know, 386 00:29:18.340 --> 00:29:20.380 it could be, girl, you never know what you're gonna get. 387 00:29:20.380 --> 00:29:23.940 So anyway, it was a good conversation. 388 00:29:23.940 --> 00:29:25.020 God's been working on them. 389 00:29:25.020 --> 00:29:27.100 So it's definitely improvement overall, 390 00:29:27.100 --> 00:29:29.860 as far as progress, but still. 391 00:29:29.860 --> 00:29:31.020 So that was good. 392 00:29:31.060 --> 00:29:36.060 And I guess, but even, I think just being in that like, 393 00:29:36.940 --> 00:29:39.460 place of like, not wanting to deal with the world, 394 00:29:39.460 --> 00:29:42.100 like I kind of like, realized that I try to self-suit 395 00:29:42.100 --> 00:29:43.420 by just like, escaping the world. 396 00:29:43.420 --> 00:29:45.380 Like, nope, I don't want to deal with it. 397 00:29:45.380 --> 00:29:47.140 Like, I'll just turn the show on 398 00:29:47.140 --> 00:29:50.660 and I'll live in this fantasy world and whatever. 399 00:29:50.660 --> 00:29:51.660 You know what I mean? 400 00:29:51.660 --> 00:29:53.500 And before when I had like a nine to five, 401 00:29:53.500 --> 00:29:54.860 it was like, okay, well you got to get up. 402 00:29:54.860 --> 00:29:56.740 Like, you just got to get to moving, you know? 403 00:29:56.740 --> 00:29:59.740 And now I'm like, okay, I don't have to go nowhere. 404 00:29:59.740 --> 00:30:00.580 Like. 405 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:06.480 You know, no one's telling me I'm so it's bad. But anyway, um, it's good, though, because I like, 406 00:30:07.360 --> 00:30:13.680 it's good, though, because I realized that this has still been like my mode of operating for a 407 00:30:13.680 --> 00:30:19.520 really long time. And because I had those things in place, like, you got to go to work at a certain 408 00:30:19.520 --> 00:30:25.200 time, like that would cause you to like, it would cause me not to dwell on it and to be able to like 409 00:30:25.200 --> 00:30:30.640 move on, so to speak, but it wasn't like moving on in a healthy way. You know what I mean? It was 410 00:30:30.640 --> 00:30:37.040 still like, I really wasn't dealing where you just move past it, you know? So I'm glad that I'm, 411 00:30:37.680 --> 00:30:43.360 I have this time because I can, like, I can't blame my unhealthy habits or unhealthy choices 412 00:30:43.360 --> 00:30:49.840 on anybody, but me, they're my choices, you know what I mean? So, um, it's good, because I'm having 413 00:30:49.840 --> 00:30:57.520 to come to terms with that, because I've realized that, like, I guess, I know I isolate from people, 414 00:30:58.480 --> 00:31:03.840 but I guess I just realized, too, like, while one hears that, I also isolate from God. Like, 415 00:31:03.840 --> 00:31:08.640 I don't want to talk to him either, you know? It's like, I don't feel like, I feel loved. I don't feel 416 00:31:08.640 --> 00:31:14.320 like he loves me, just doesn't love me. I don't feel that. I do just, just feel like I guess I 417 00:31:14.320 --> 00:31:19.760 have to figure things out on my own, and then that's where, like, the, the mind, the, like, 418 00:31:19.760 --> 00:31:24.400 negative, like, the circling, looping thoughts or whatever will go on until, like, I'm 419 00:31:25.920 --> 00:31:32.000 broken out of that. So my wonderful, delightful friend, Kim, who told me about this program, 420 00:31:33.200 --> 00:31:40.880 and she's, she's been through this, and so she just, like, God just puts me on her heart, 421 00:31:40.880 --> 00:31:47.520 and she will be like, Tim, are you okay? Like, I just, like, what's going on? And so she called 422 00:31:47.520 --> 00:31:53.840 me, and I had opened up to her before, just about just really, like, feeling really dark feelings, 423 00:31:53.840 --> 00:31:58.960 and she was just really, like, it was really great, and God used her to kind of help to transition me 424 00:31:58.960 --> 00:32:04.720 out of that, and I wasn't quite in that same place, but I definitely was going there again, 425 00:32:04.720 --> 00:32:08.480 and I'm just, like, I'm so thankful for my friends, but also, I'm like, okay, Timmy, 426 00:32:08.480 --> 00:32:12.480 you need to choose better, like, enough's enough, like, you can't have your friends be, like, calling 427 00:32:12.480 --> 00:32:15.920 you all the time, because you need to get your stuff together, and I know that might sound like, 428 00:32:15.920 --> 00:32:20.400 oh, well, it's not work, I just need to choose better, like, if you know better, choose better, 429 00:32:20.400 --> 00:32:28.000 like, period, you know, and so that's kind of, like, so her and her husband interceded for me 430 00:32:28.000 --> 00:32:35.440 that night, and I felt a lot better after we talked, and then that evening, and in this morning, 431 00:32:35.600 --> 00:32:44.400 that was, like, yesterday, so I felt better. I, today, I went to volunteer at a school, I was, 432 00:32:44.400 --> 00:32:50.560 like, really excited to volunteer at the library at a school, so that was great, so it was good to, 433 00:32:50.560 --> 00:32:55.600 like, have a purpose, and have somewhere to go, and, you know, and so that's good, so I'm going 434 00:32:55.600 --> 00:33:04.240 to make sure that I integrate that more, so I just, I've definitely had a much better day, and 435 00:33:05.440 --> 00:33:10.080 you know, even my friend Kim, she was, like, you know, you just got it, your job is to choose to 436 00:33:10.080 --> 00:33:14.960 believe, and I was, like, okay, okay, so I texted back, I choose to believe, so, like, that was a 437 00:33:14.960 --> 00:33:23.840 declaration, so I'm looking forward to just being, like, going, progressing, and just getting out of 438 00:33:23.840 --> 00:33:33.120 these loops that I recognize about myself, and just being more consistent about choosing God, so 439 00:33:33.840 --> 00:33:39.440 thanks for listening, and Karen, thank you so much for those tips about, like, journaling, I wrote 440 00:33:39.440 --> 00:33:44.480 those down, like, and I realized, too, there's, like, I don't feel like I really have accusations 441 00:33:44.480 --> 00:33:48.800 against God so much, it's, like, I have accusations against myself sometimes, it's, like, well, you 442 00:33:48.800 --> 00:33:52.480 should have known better, you know what I mean, it's, like, so it's just, so that was really helpful 443 00:33:52.480 --> 00:33:58.160 for me, because I think that'll add another layer, and just consistency on, like, doing those things 444 00:33:58.160 --> 00:34:02.640 so I can be aware of my feelings, and then I can present them to God, and we can just keep this 445 00:34:02.640 --> 00:34:11.199 process moving in a positive way, so thank you, yeah, thank you, thanks for sharing, and that's 446 00:34:11.199 --> 00:34:16.320 good, thank you, and I didn't think I had accusations, really, either, but then once she said it, I thought, 447 00:34:17.760 --> 00:34:23.280 once I read that, in that discussion, I thought, I wonder if I have accusations, 448 00:34:24.560 --> 00:34:31.199 and that's why, that's why I found journaling to be so, so helpful, it's, I get so much more 449 00:34:31.280 --> 00:34:38.239 out if I, if I write my feelings out, or anything, and it's, it's, it's, it's become a habit, 450 00:34:39.199 --> 00:34:45.280 it changed my life, I remember always wanting to spend time with God, talk to God, and, you know, 451 00:34:45.280 --> 00:34:50.320 but then work got in the way, you know, everything in the world, and then, but when I started writing, 452 00:34:50.320 --> 00:34:56.800 is really when I started hearing from God more, and even, I remember one time, he wrote, like, 453 00:34:56.800 --> 00:35:00.080 trust, trust, and obey, he said it every, 454 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:02.360 day for like two weeks to me, that's it, trust and obey, 455 00:35:02.440 --> 00:35:05.320 trust and obey, trust and obey. And then I get believe and 456 00:35:05.320 --> 00:35:08.440 receive, believe and receive, believe in us, and be over and 457 00:35:08.440 --> 00:35:11.320 over and over. And then, you know, and then one day, I'd get 458 00:35:11.320 --> 00:35:14.120 like two paragraphs and go, whoa. And then, you know, like 459 00:35:14.120 --> 00:35:16.760 this lady said, if you find out you're not really hearing from a 460 00:35:16.760 --> 00:35:19.560 God, and it's just you. So what have you lost? You're, you're at 461 00:35:19.560 --> 00:35:22.400 least, but you'll find some patterns and see some things 462 00:35:22.400 --> 00:35:26.520 where it really was God after a while. And so it really has been 463 00:35:27.440 --> 00:35:31.800 helpful. And it doesn't hurt to have a nice journal. Y'all 464 00:35:31.800 --> 00:35:32.960 should get yourselves one. 465 00:35:35.720 --> 00:35:38.280 What is that painting behind you? What is that painting? 466 00:35:38.720 --> 00:35:41.800 But any journals work? I believe me, I have a ton of just, you 467 00:35:41.800 --> 00:35:45.840 know, $2 general journals work. Um, yeah, that is the seven 468 00:35:45.840 --> 00:35:52.480 spirits of God. Painting a pastor painted. Yeah. Wow. I 469 00:35:52.480 --> 00:36:02.160 like I've been really thank you. Thank you. Yeah. Yeah. So 470 00:36:02.160 --> 00:36:06.960 it's, it's something funny that I just read. Yeah, we're talking 471 00:36:06.960 --> 00:36:12.280 about your significant other. It says female dragonflies will 472 00:36:12.280 --> 00:36:16.840 fake their own death to avoid mating with unwanted males. I 473 00:36:16.840 --> 00:36:18.280 thought that was so funny. 474 00:36:21.240 --> 00:36:24.920 flies will fake their own death to avoid mating with unwanted 475 00:36:24.920 --> 00:36:25.400 males. 476 00:36:28.920 --> 00:36:31.600 Oh, you went you went you're you're muted now, Diana. 477 00:36:32.520 --> 00:36:36.360 I said that to me was like, well, that's a smart dragon. 478 00:36:38.480 --> 00:36:41.280 That's the funniest thing I've heard. Oh my gosh, girl. 479 00:36:47.520 --> 00:36:52.360 Oh my word. Well, I have just been over here to thank you, 480 00:36:52.360 --> 00:36:58.120 milord. I'm like, Lord, they're doing it. Y'all have made a 481 00:36:58.120 --> 00:37:05.520 huge transition for the last time. Excellent. Great. So I'm 482 00:37:05.520 --> 00:37:09.800 so excited. Okay. And let me put my other camera back on just a 483 00:37:09.800 --> 00:37:16.680 second. Let's see. Oh, my word. Oh my goodness. Here we go. 484 00:37:17.640 --> 00:37:23.720 Right. So that's great. I am so excited for all of the 485 00:37:23.720 --> 00:37:27.160 breakthroughs that y'all have been receiving from the Lord, 486 00:37:27.160 --> 00:37:30.080 you know, Rita, you said that you're choosing the Lord, 487 00:37:30.080 --> 00:37:34.320 you're like, Okay, I am doing mundane tasks, and the Lord is 488 00:37:34.320 --> 00:37:39.040 delighting in me while I'm doing them. That's great. Seriously, 489 00:37:39.040 --> 00:37:42.880 that will, that will transform everything to understand that 490 00:37:42.880 --> 00:37:48.440 God delights in us. And in us when we're when we feel when we 491 00:37:48.440 --> 00:37:52.480 have when we struggle to and to connect what we're doing with a 492 00:37:52.480 --> 00:37:55.080 contribution. And I understand that you know that you're 493 00:37:55.080 --> 00:37:57.840 contributing, but there's a reason why you feel that it's 494 00:37:57.840 --> 00:38:01.960 mundane, meaning like, it's not bringing life to you. And so 495 00:38:01.960 --> 00:38:04.080 that's what I'm talking about. It's not like you can't like 496 00:38:04.120 --> 00:38:08.480 have a have a definitive outcome that you can point to. It's that 497 00:38:08.640 --> 00:38:11.560 in you, you don't feel like life is coming out of you. So 498 00:38:11.560 --> 00:38:16.320 emotionally, we have a difficult time connecting that with God 499 00:38:16.440 --> 00:38:21.760 being, you know, God, the lighting in us, with we feel 500 00:38:21.760 --> 00:38:27.080 happy, if we feel alive, it's easier for us to translate at 501 00:38:27.080 --> 00:38:30.840 that as Oh, God is happy with me too. But when we're struggling, 502 00:38:30.840 --> 00:38:34.720 because we don't have that that fire within us. And who was I 503 00:38:34.720 --> 00:38:38.680 talking to? Oh, I was talking to Annette, she in the in the 504 00:38:38.680 --> 00:38:42.040 rest intensive, you'll the rest intensive in the rest group that 505 00:38:42.040 --> 00:38:45.840 y'all see when I get that uploaded earlier this afternoon, 506 00:38:45.840 --> 00:38:48.800 she was talking about the same thing about this idea, or I was 507 00:38:48.800 --> 00:38:52.040 talking the same thing about talking this about the same 508 00:38:52.040 --> 00:38:59.400 thing to her, this idea that of, of, of connecting with the fact 509 00:38:59.400 --> 00:39:03.880 that God delights in us, regardless of what we're doing, 510 00:39:03.880 --> 00:39:07.680 and just bringing it back to that point. And oh, you know 511 00:39:07.680 --> 00:39:10.840 what, I'm wrong, it was related to something that Renata said, 512 00:39:10.880 --> 00:39:15.040 but it was, I was obviously Annette and Renata, Renata were 513 00:39:15.040 --> 00:39:17.200 both on the call. And so I was talking to both of them about 514 00:39:17.200 --> 00:39:21.480 this and kind of like trying to encourage them. And I encourage 515 00:39:21.480 --> 00:39:24.800 all of y'all to watch it when I get it uploaded, because it's 516 00:39:24.800 --> 00:39:29.120 basically simplifying what it is that we should focus on right 517 00:39:29.120 --> 00:39:32.480 now, if we're having a difficult time letting things go, just 518 00:39:32.480 --> 00:39:39.240 focus on you, and, and choosing God, and on choosing to believe 519 00:39:39.240 --> 00:39:44.880 what he says about you choosing to that God delights in you, and 520 00:39:44.880 --> 00:39:49.120 therefore you delight in the thing that God delights in. And 521 00:39:49.120 --> 00:39:53.080 by doing that, you'll be shocked at how easy it is to let things 522 00:39:53.080 --> 00:39:56.440 go, because you'll effortlessly let things go by trying to 523 00:39:56.440 --> 00:39:59.880 choose this. And anyway, so Rita, you're 524 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.120 Doing it, that's wonderful, I'm so excited for you. 525 00:40:03.120 --> 00:40:05.440 So I've been with Rita for a while now, you know, 526 00:40:05.440 --> 00:40:09.280 so I always get really excited when I see these new ways 527 00:40:09.280 --> 00:40:12.120 in which she's going deeper and deeper and deeper. 528 00:40:12.120 --> 00:40:16.120 And see, you know, she's going through the rest intensive, 529 00:40:16.120 --> 00:40:19.280 you know, for, it's the rest intensive specifically, 530 00:40:19.280 --> 00:40:21.040 she's going through the second time, why? 531 00:40:21.040 --> 00:40:24.480 Because you can use the exact same principles 532 00:40:24.480 --> 00:40:26.200 to go deeper than you did before. 533 00:40:26.200 --> 00:40:28.160 You know, use them to go to this level. 534 00:40:28.160 --> 00:40:29.680 And once you hit this level, you're like, okay, 535 00:40:30.360 --> 00:40:32.840 I'm going to use the exact same principles to go deeper. 536 00:40:32.840 --> 00:40:35.400 And now, because now you can, 537 00:40:35.400 --> 00:40:39.000 now you can see a deeper level to which they apply. 538 00:40:39.000 --> 00:40:41.040 I mean, Karen, oh, my word, 539 00:40:42.120 --> 00:40:44.760 just like open up the floodgates. 540 00:40:44.760 --> 00:40:47.520 I'm so excited, seriously, 541 00:40:47.520 --> 00:40:51.240 complete transformation is now available. 542 00:40:51.240 --> 00:40:53.440 It's all the difference in the world 543 00:40:53.440 --> 00:40:58.120 in being able, in what we have accessible to us 544 00:40:58.120 --> 00:41:01.760 simply by being vulnerable to the Lord. 545 00:41:01.760 --> 00:41:04.000 We don't have to be vulnerable to other people 546 00:41:04.000 --> 00:41:05.680 in order to do that. 547 00:41:05.680 --> 00:41:09.760 But we don't, if we're not vulnerable with other people, 548 00:41:09.760 --> 00:41:12.240 typically it means that we're not vulnerable to the Lord. 549 00:41:12.240 --> 00:41:14.840 There's no way to be vulnerable to the Lord 550 00:41:14.840 --> 00:41:16.360 and not vulnerable to other people. 551 00:41:16.360 --> 00:41:18.320 There's just no way whatsoever. 552 00:41:18.320 --> 00:41:20.600 So I think that it's wonderful. 553 00:41:20.600 --> 00:41:23.040 I'm so excited for you because after last time, 554 00:41:23.040 --> 00:41:26.600 I was like, Lord, I really hope that she has the courage 555 00:41:26.600 --> 00:41:30.200 because it's like, everything's on the other side. 556 00:41:31.280 --> 00:41:32.920 Freedom's on the other side. 557 00:41:32.920 --> 00:41:35.920 Everything she wants from God is on the other side. 558 00:41:35.920 --> 00:41:38.360 So I'm so excited because each of us here, 559 00:41:38.360 --> 00:41:42.720 we're on our own journey of what we want with our father. 560 00:41:42.720 --> 00:41:44.760 The rest of us just have the privilege 561 00:41:44.760 --> 00:41:48.920 of getting to be part of someone else's journey, 562 00:41:48.920 --> 00:41:51.520 get to be encouraged by someone else's journey. 563 00:41:51.520 --> 00:41:55.920 But each of us is on our own individual relationship 564 00:41:55.960 --> 00:41:58.720 with the Lord where the Lord is very jealous of it. 565 00:41:58.720 --> 00:42:00.760 It's he and us. 566 00:42:00.760 --> 00:42:02.480 The rest of us are just honored 567 00:42:02.480 --> 00:42:05.560 to get to just have like a front row seat 568 00:42:05.560 --> 00:42:08.400 and to be encouraged by being allowed the privilege 569 00:42:08.400 --> 00:42:12.040 of access to watch someone else's journey 570 00:42:12.040 --> 00:42:15.560 and to hopefully be pushed further along the path 571 00:42:15.560 --> 00:42:17.520 and encouraged further along in the path 572 00:42:17.520 --> 00:42:18.920 by simply being, like I said, 573 00:42:18.920 --> 00:42:23.120 being exposed to the courage that someone else has. 574 00:42:23.160 --> 00:42:27.400 And so anyway, I'm excited for the breakthrough 575 00:42:27.400 --> 00:42:28.720 that you had with the Lord. 576 00:42:28.720 --> 00:42:30.280 I think that that was great, 577 00:42:30.280 --> 00:42:33.360 what you were talking about a lot about riding the step down 578 00:42:33.360 --> 00:42:37.640 and how things just naturally just started flowing out 579 00:42:37.640 --> 00:42:39.200 of you between you and the Lord. 580 00:42:39.200 --> 00:42:41.560 Like, okay, Lord, I'm gonna be honest. 581 00:42:41.560 --> 00:42:44.960 And the Lord's like, okay, see, I always knew it was there, 582 00:42:44.960 --> 00:42:47.040 but now we can deal with it. 583 00:42:47.040 --> 00:42:48.960 Now you can be free. 584 00:42:48.960 --> 00:42:51.600 You know, now you don't have to be 585 00:42:51.600 --> 00:42:53.200 under that bondage anymore. 586 00:42:53.200 --> 00:42:55.280 Oh, they're excited for you. 587 00:42:55.280 --> 00:42:58.200 That's huge, that's huge. 588 00:42:58.200 --> 00:43:01.880 And Diana, oh my word, you know, 589 00:43:01.880 --> 00:43:04.080 everything it is that you've been going through this week, 590 00:43:04.080 --> 00:43:06.400 I'm so sorry, you know, it's just been a big, 591 00:43:06.400 --> 00:43:09.920 it's been a lot, it's been heavy, 592 00:43:09.920 --> 00:43:13.200 but you've also been experiencing the deeper, 593 00:43:13.200 --> 00:43:16.080 more intimate communication, you know, with the Lord, 594 00:43:16.080 --> 00:43:17.080 the deeper intimacy, 595 00:43:17.080 --> 00:43:20.320 because you were wanting to hear more from him 596 00:43:20.360 --> 00:43:22.400 and go deeper into his heart. 597 00:43:22.400 --> 00:43:24.520 And boom, already, immediately, 598 00:43:24.520 --> 00:43:26.800 he just started opening himself up to you. 599 00:43:26.800 --> 00:43:28.360 He's like, I'm excited. 600 00:43:28.360 --> 00:43:31.040 I'm excited for what you're experiencing. 601 00:43:31.040 --> 00:43:34.880 And speaking of that, I'd forgotten, 602 00:43:34.880 --> 00:43:35.800 let me write that down. 603 00:43:35.800 --> 00:43:40.080 There was, you were talking last time 604 00:43:40.080 --> 00:43:42.800 about the fact that God was processing with you 605 00:43:42.800 --> 00:43:47.800 through grief, you know, some stuff. 606 00:43:48.320 --> 00:43:53.120 And there was a post that I made about the time, 607 00:43:53.120 --> 00:43:55.320 actually, that I, in fact, it was, 608 00:43:55.320 --> 00:43:58.400 it was the time that I did this recording 609 00:43:58.400 --> 00:44:00.400 for the Interest Rest Conference, 610 00:44:00.400 --> 00:44:01.840 you know, that y'all were watching. 611 00:44:01.840 --> 00:44:03.520 I was going through the grieving process 612 00:44:03.520 --> 00:44:06.480 of having to let my dog go to another home. 613 00:44:06.480 --> 00:44:08.240 So I let her go to a friend, 614 00:44:08.240 --> 00:44:12.120 a mutual friend of Karen's and mine, Adrienne Kimmons. 615 00:44:12.120 --> 00:44:16.440 She and her husband take in special needs dogs, 616 00:44:16.480 --> 00:44:18.440 or in my case, just a senior dog. 617 00:44:18.440 --> 00:44:20.000 And I'd had her for nine years. 618 00:44:20.000 --> 00:44:21.800 This was my little child. 619 00:44:21.800 --> 00:44:24.000 In fact, I even had a dream about her. 620 00:44:24.000 --> 00:44:26.640 And I don't know how to express to you. 621 00:44:26.640 --> 00:44:29.320 I have a picture of her next to, on my nightstand. 622 00:44:29.320 --> 00:44:31.640 And it's the only picture on my nightstand. 623 00:44:31.640 --> 00:44:35.320 I mean, I, you know, I loved my little girl. 624 00:44:35.320 --> 00:44:37.040 She was so special, and the Lord healed me 625 00:44:37.040 --> 00:44:38.600 so much through her. 626 00:44:38.600 --> 00:44:42.000 So when the Lord tells me that while she's living 627 00:44:42.000 --> 00:44:44.000 to pass her on to someone else 628 00:44:44.000 --> 00:44:46.800 because he wants me to go travel overseas, you know, 629 00:44:46.800 --> 00:44:51.760 with him, it, it, I struggled so much. 630 00:44:51.760 --> 00:44:54.720 And it broke my heart to such a degree 631 00:44:54.720 --> 00:44:59.720 that it wasn't until, I think it was, 632 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:07.320 It wasn't until she passed away a week before my husband and I got married that I finally 633 00:45:07.320 --> 00:45:09.640 could talk about her without crying. 634 00:45:09.640 --> 00:45:14.680 I mean, just talk about her, you know, and I'd, and I'd been separated from her for a 635 00:45:14.680 --> 00:45:16.280 year by that point. 636 00:45:16.280 --> 00:45:20.460 And I up to that point had not been able to even talk about it without crying or think 637 00:45:20.460 --> 00:45:22.000 about her without crying. 638 00:45:22.000 --> 00:45:24.360 So I was, she meant a lot to me. 639 00:45:24.360 --> 00:45:34.960 And so the Lord had me let go of a being, no, it's not a human, but a being that while 640 00:45:34.960 --> 00:45:39.240 she was still living and I, and she wasn't with me anymore. 641 00:45:39.240 --> 00:45:45.000 And that was a very unique kind of a grief for her to still be existing, but me to not 642 00:45:45.000 --> 00:45:50.480 get to have her, me to not get to access her and me not having been married at the time 643 00:45:50.480 --> 00:45:55.840 or having children for nine years, being with this little companion would, and then 644 00:45:55.840 --> 00:45:57.760 all of a sudden be separated from her. 645 00:45:57.760 --> 00:45:58.760 Oh my word. 646 00:45:58.760 --> 00:46:04.080 It was, I was shocked at how hard that it was and how attached I was to an animal. 647 00:46:04.080 --> 00:46:05.760 It wasn't even a human. 648 00:46:05.760 --> 00:46:10.160 I mean, and I thought I was doing a good job of being like separated and understanding 649 00:46:10.160 --> 00:46:11.160 she's an animal. 650 00:46:11.160 --> 00:46:14.280 You know, I didn't like people calling her by my last name and stuff like that. 651 00:46:14.280 --> 00:46:15.280 I'm like, no, no, no. 652 00:46:15.280 --> 00:46:19.320 She didn't have my last name, but I am telling you what I was connected to her. 653 00:46:19.320 --> 00:46:25.360 So I did, so the Lord kind of watched me through this process of how to grieve with 654 00:46:25.360 --> 00:46:29.440 grieve over something with the Lord in rest. 655 00:46:29.440 --> 00:46:38.280 And I did a video, um, I think just, uh, maybe just a few days after I finished this conference, 656 00:46:38.280 --> 00:46:41.960 you know, the NRS rest conference where I did this, the, um, the, of the recordings 657 00:46:41.960 --> 00:46:43.520 that we're watching. 658 00:46:43.520 --> 00:46:47.560 And so I'll try to find that and post that for you, um, just for you to watch. 659 00:46:47.560 --> 00:46:53.240 It may not, you might be able to find some kind of, uh, of meat in there of like a principle 660 00:46:53.240 --> 00:46:58.480 because the whole point is the principle of how to grieve something with God in rest, 661 00:46:58.480 --> 00:46:59.480 in rest. 662 00:46:59.480 --> 00:47:04.520 It's, it's an animal, it's not a person, but the whole point of it, what, or that's what 663 00:47:04.520 --> 00:47:05.520 prompted me. 664 00:47:05.520 --> 00:47:11.400 But remember, we all go through our own unique situations and it was the principle of, of 665 00:47:11.400 --> 00:47:19.120 like the accusations that came up between me to God, because I was grieving to anyone. 666 00:47:19.120 --> 00:47:31.600 I'll try to post that in the group, um, you know, and, um, yes, we look at you, like I 667 00:47:31.600 --> 00:47:37.600 said, just like I was telling all of the others you're doing it, you are, you're facing it, 668 00:47:37.600 --> 00:47:44.700 you know, and you have decided that, okay, you know, maybe I can trust God with my emotions. 669 00:47:44.700 --> 00:47:49.720 Maybe I can trust God when I feel the most vulnerable, when I feel the most, like my 670 00:47:49.720 --> 00:47:50.720 feelings aren't. 671 00:47:50.720 --> 00:47:52.880 And I thought that, yeah, I loved how you worded it. 672 00:47:52.880 --> 00:47:54.280 They're not pretty. 673 00:47:54.280 --> 00:47:59.400 You know, when I don't feel like I've got something beautiful and put together, you 674 00:47:59.400 --> 00:48:03.200 know, to give to the Lord, to offer to the Lord is like, okay, Lord doesn't take me as 675 00:48:03.200 --> 00:48:04.200 I am. 676 00:48:04.200 --> 00:48:12.760 And, and you're choosing to trust that he's safe, that he's a safe place when you're the 677 00:48:12.760 --> 00:48:17.640 most vulnerable, because we're the most vulnerable when we feel like we don't have anything that 678 00:48:17.640 --> 00:48:24.040 we're, we feel like we're coming with nothing, but us, nothing was just our raw selves. 679 00:48:24.040 --> 00:48:28.120 We're not, we don't, we don't even have it almost like it's like, we don't even have 680 00:48:28.120 --> 00:48:29.340 a sense of self. 681 00:48:29.340 --> 00:48:35.100 We don't have a sense of like, of anything valuable that we can contribute. 682 00:48:35.100 --> 00:48:40.540 And so the Lord, what the Lord does when we come to him in that most vulnerable state 683 00:48:40.540 --> 00:48:47.220 is he proves to us experientially, in other words, by actually experiencing the fact that 684 00:48:47.220 --> 00:48:53.020 he finds value when we've brought nothing that we understand as value. 685 00:48:53.020 --> 00:48:58.540 And then he shows us, no, the raw essence, that's where the value is. 686 00:48:58.740 --> 00:49:02.780 And we can tell ourselves that all we want, but it's not until we actually come to him 687 00:49:02.780 --> 00:49:10.180 with nothing, but our raw selves, that we find out that he really does value the raw 688 00:49:10.180 --> 00:49:13.860 self and not the other stuff. 689 00:49:13.860 --> 00:49:20.820 I mean, like he doesn't even value the other stuff at all that, that other stuff that he 690 00:49:20.820 --> 00:49:27.300 talks about that we keep attributing value to is the, is the stuff that he says is supposed 691 00:49:27.300 --> 00:49:34.780 to come naturally out of, in other words, be the expression of our raw selves. 692 00:49:34.780 --> 00:49:38.340 All he cares about is the raw self, not the expression. 693 00:49:38.340 --> 00:49:43.260 The expression is just something that he talks to us about of something we can expect to 694 00:49:43.260 --> 00:49:51.900 see when we are our raw selves, but it's our raw self that has the value, not what it expresses, 695 00:49:51.900 --> 00:49:57.900 not the goodness that it expresses, not the obedience that it expresses, but the raw self 696 00:49:57.900 --> 00:49:59.700 that the obedience comes out of. 697 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.000 That is what has the value. 698 00:50:03.000 --> 00:50:06.000 So anyway, but I'm excited for everyone. 699 00:50:06.000 --> 00:50:07.000 That's great. 700 00:50:07.000 --> 00:50:10.000 Does anyone have let me check the time really quick. 701 00:50:10.000 --> 00:50:11.000 Oh, we are almost done. 702 00:50:11.000 --> 00:50:16.000 So you have just a few minutes, but does anyone have any questions? 703 00:50:16.000 --> 00:50:23.000 You know, anything kind of like they've been running into kind of any 704 00:50:23.000 --> 00:50:26.000 obstacles or hurdles or just wondering. 705 00:50:26.000 --> 00:50:28.000 Oh, and while y'all are thinking of that. 706 00:50:28.000 --> 00:50:29.000 So be thinking of that. 707 00:50:29.000 --> 00:50:30.000 Are you thinking of that? 708 00:50:30.000 --> 00:50:32.000 I heard y'all talking about really enjoying that. 709 00:50:32.000 --> 00:50:36.000 Song. 710 00:50:36.000 --> 00:50:39.000 I don't know which song that y'all were referencing. 711 00:50:39.000 --> 00:50:43.000 And I'm trying to remember if it was two or three that were in that, 712 00:50:43.000 --> 00:50:44.000 in that session. 713 00:50:44.000 --> 00:50:46.000 But. 714 00:50:46.000 --> 00:50:48.000 How many were there? Were there two or three? 715 00:50:48.000 --> 00:50:49.000 Do you remember? 716 00:50:49.000 --> 00:50:52.000 No, I don't know. 717 00:50:52.000 --> 00:50:54.000 The second one, I'm going to have to go back and, 718 00:50:54.000 --> 00:50:57.000 and remind myself of it. But the first one. 719 00:50:57.000 --> 00:51:00.000 The first one is called a finding rest. 720 00:51:00.000 --> 00:51:02.000 That's the name of that song. 721 00:51:02.000 --> 00:51:07.000 Finding rest. 722 00:51:07.000 --> 00:51:12.000 Yeah. So I'm going to try to find that and put it on a playlist. 723 00:51:12.000 --> 00:51:14.000 And give y'all access to the playlist. 724 00:51:14.000 --> 00:51:16.000 So it's something I've been meaning to do for a while. 725 00:51:16.000 --> 00:51:18.000 And with everything that I have going on, in other words, 726 00:51:18.000 --> 00:51:21.000 multiple things that I'm trying to add to the platform to make it more 727 00:51:21.000 --> 00:51:22.000 robust. 728 00:51:22.000 --> 00:51:24.000 That's one of the things on the list. 729 00:51:24.000 --> 00:51:27.000 I'll try to bump it up on the list is, is creating that playlist. 730 00:51:27.000 --> 00:51:30.000 And so anyway, that one very. 731 00:51:30.000 --> 00:51:31.000 Absolutely. 732 00:51:31.000 --> 00:51:34.000 It's called finding rest and the, and another one, and I don't. 733 00:51:34.000 --> 00:51:39.000 I think that. 734 00:51:39.000 --> 00:51:43.000 I think that it was the one that accompanied. 735 00:51:43.000 --> 00:51:46.000 On the love affair when, you know, where it's like, I said, you know, 736 00:51:46.000 --> 00:51:49.000 look for, look for Jesus, you know, ask Jesus where he is. 737 00:51:49.000 --> 00:51:50.000 You know, the very first session. 738 00:51:50.000 --> 00:51:52.000 And I had an instrumental going. 739 00:51:52.000 --> 00:51:54.000 And I was like, you know, I don't know. 740 00:51:54.000 --> 00:51:55.000 I'm not sure. 741 00:51:55.000 --> 00:51:59.000 I'm not sure. 742 00:51:59.000 --> 00:52:02.000 But I think that that one was the one that's called be still and no. 743 00:52:02.000 --> 00:52:04.000 Again, the whole, you know, letting go, whatever. 744 00:52:04.000 --> 00:52:06.000 So all of these things were just very. 745 00:52:06.000 --> 00:52:07.000 Absolutely. 746 00:52:07.000 --> 00:52:08.000 And no, I didn't write these songs. 747 00:52:08.000 --> 00:52:13.000 They were great. 748 00:52:13.000 --> 00:52:16.000 And then what I would do is I found these songs and I've listened to 749 00:52:16.000 --> 00:52:17.000 them and I thought. 750 00:52:17.000 --> 00:52:21.000 That if it sounded like what. 751 00:52:21.000 --> 00:52:25.000 If I felt like it had this spirit of what its title implied, 752 00:52:25.000 --> 00:52:27.000 then I included it. 753 00:52:27.000 --> 00:52:29.000 And there were some that talked about rest. I'm listening to, 754 00:52:29.000 --> 00:52:34.000 and I'm going, that doesn't sound like rest. 755 00:52:34.000 --> 00:52:37.000 You know, then I didn't play it at the, at the, at the conference, 756 00:52:37.000 --> 00:52:39.000 but if it did. 757 00:52:39.000 --> 00:52:41.000 And that thought, okay, no, that has, 758 00:52:41.000 --> 00:52:43.000 that has what it is that I'm looking for. 759 00:52:43.000 --> 00:52:47.000 That really does have that note of rest within it. 760 00:52:47.000 --> 00:52:50.000 Anyway, so. 761 00:52:50.000 --> 00:52:51.000 Okay. 762 00:52:51.000 --> 00:52:55.000 So we really are at time, but. 763 00:52:55.000 --> 00:53:04.000 Does anyone have any question before we jump off? 764 00:53:04.000 --> 00:53:06.000 I have a quick question. I don't know if it's possible, 765 00:53:06.000 --> 00:53:09.000 but you know how we were supposed to all meet one Saturday. 766 00:53:09.000 --> 00:53:11.000 And it was before it really kicked off. 767 00:53:11.000 --> 00:53:12.000 And. 768 00:53:12.000 --> 00:53:17.000 Was Norway there too. 769 00:53:17.000 --> 00:53:19.000 I was just wondering if there was a time we could all be here. 770 00:53:20.000 --> 00:53:21.000 Yeah. 771 00:53:21.000 --> 00:53:23.000 Well, we can do that. 772 00:53:23.000 --> 00:53:27.000 And. 773 00:53:27.000 --> 00:53:35.000 Yeah, I can put that together and see if. 774 00:53:35.000 --> 00:53:38.000 And see if that's possible for everyone's schedules. Yes. 775 00:53:38.000 --> 00:53:41.000 So the one that we were all that we all met together was the. 776 00:53:41.000 --> 00:53:43.000 Not last weekend, but the one before. 777 00:53:43.000 --> 00:53:44.000 Was that right? 778 00:53:44.000 --> 00:53:45.000 Yeah. 779 00:53:45.000 --> 00:53:47.000 Yeah, not last weekend, but the one before, 780 00:53:47.000 --> 00:53:48.000 but the one before. 781 00:53:48.000 --> 00:53:49.000 Yeah. 782 00:53:49.000 --> 00:53:50.000 Yeah. 783 00:53:50.000 --> 00:53:57.000 I know where it was like several hour when that. 784 00:53:57.000 --> 00:54:01.000 Annette and Renata were there for all of Saturday in the part of 785 00:54:01.000 --> 00:54:06.000 Sunday. 786 00:54:06.000 --> 00:54:08.000 So, and so they were there during the discussion groups, 787 00:54:08.000 --> 00:54:11.000 but I suppose we all just come split out and then we very rarely were 788 00:54:11.000 --> 00:54:13.000 all together. We were a little bit, but not much. 789 00:54:13.000 --> 00:54:15.000 So what I can do is I can see. 790 00:54:16.000 --> 00:54:19.000 So I can see if I can see if we can all get together. 791 00:54:19.000 --> 00:54:20.000 That's kind of a good question. 792 00:54:20.000 --> 00:54:22.000 I'm going to go back to my, my minutes. 793 00:54:22.000 --> 00:54:24.000 I'm going to go back to my last rest intensive. Maybe they can, 794 00:54:24.000 --> 00:54:30.000 you know, even though it's very late. 795 00:54:30.000 --> 00:54:31.000 They could jump in. So we'll see. 796 00:54:31.000 --> 00:54:34.000 So that is really good to know that everybody wants to see if we can 797 00:54:34.000 --> 00:54:36.000 all get together because they are really a lot of fun. 798 00:54:36.000 --> 00:54:37.000 The two of them. 799 00:54:37.000 --> 00:54:38.000 And so it would be fun. 800 00:54:38.000 --> 00:54:40.000 So, but yeah, I'll look into that. 801 00:54:40.000 --> 00:54:41.000 See if we can do that. That would be fun. 802 00:54:41.000 --> 00:54:42.000 Yeah. 803 00:54:42.000 --> 00:54:43.000 Yeah. 804 00:54:43.000 --> 00:54:44.000 I'm going to look into that. 805 00:54:44.000 --> 00:54:46.000 Yeah. 806 00:54:46.000 --> 00:54:48.000 On one of the weekend days. So, oh, okay. 807 00:54:48.000 --> 00:54:49.000 Yeah. Not just, yeah. 808 00:54:49.000 --> 00:54:56.000 Not just to like. 809 00:54:56.000 --> 00:54:58.000 But I don't know if that was available. I've just, 810 00:54:58.000 --> 00:55:01.000 I just put it out there and y'all can think about it or if it doesn't 811 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:09.080 Everyone wants to see if we can do that, because it is the most fun if we're all there. Otherwise, you know, I get to meet with everybody, but everybody's kind of segmented. 812 00:55:01.000 --> 00:55:02.000 fit the schedule, then it's fine. 813 00:55:02.000 --> 00:55:03.000 Okay. All right. 814 00:55:03.000 --> 00:55:04.000 Well, that's good. 815 00:55:04.000 --> 00:55:05.000 All right. Well, I will look into that. 816 00:55:10.520 --> 00:55:11.120 All right. 817 00:55:11.240 --> 00:55:16.520 Oh, good. All right. Well, I will look into that. Anything else before we jump off? We're all good? 818 00:55:18.040 --> 00:55:24.400 Okay, y'all are easy. Okay, well, don't forget the journey shares, everyone. 819 00:55:24.440 --> 00:55:25.680 Okay, I'll work on it. 820 00:55:26.600 --> 00:55:34.720 A little something to do, have to do, but I am telling you what, it makes all the difference. I promise you, I promise you, I promise you. 821 00:55:35.120 --> 00:55:47.320 And so if I were to show you the number of posts and how vulnerable they were for certain people that have gone the farthest, the fastest, you know, you would, you would all want to do 822 00:55:48.160 --> 00:56:01.000 journey shares. So I'll try to say again, I'm going to continue as we talk about stuff. I'm going to try to share other people's journey shares that I think would be especially encouraging. 823 00:56:01.400 --> 00:56:12.320 And then you can see how other people have like opened themselves up. And then these people are people that have like really transitioned very far, very fast and have owned it 824 00:56:12.600 --> 00:56:17.840 between them and the Lord. And they're people that I still have connection with or, you know, 825 00:56:19.080 --> 00:56:37.640 and seeing what it is that they're doing. And they really have owned it. So it really is. It's very real. It's not inspirational. It's them owning it and then actually transforming their relationship with the Lord. So anyway, okay, well, love you all. And I will see you on Thursday. 826 00:56:38.720 --> 00:56:39.720 Thank you. 827 00:56:40.640 --> 00:56:41.560 Okay, Shalom. 828 00:56:41.560 --> 00:56:43.080 Shalom.