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Happy Mother's Day in Norway. So I guess I'll be doing a two-for-one again today

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because I've been picking sugar cookies. They're really good. The reason I was actually showing

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the sugar cookies is because I had a super inspiring rest group with Renata and Ashley

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on Wednesday and I was supposed to jump on and share but I didn't. It was just really good in

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learning or getting perspective on how to be at rest in the here and now even though

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you're longing for slash have an inner drive slash have an inner knowing that

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you're made for more, created for more, and that more is to come but for right now

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you just need to like surrender and be free. So I was super inspired about that

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and I guess since Wednesday, no it's Tuesday, so I guess since Tuesday I've been trying to

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remind myself about that. Also Ashley was saying what brings you joy like do more of that.

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So cooking and baking in particular makes me happy but on the flip side I've always had

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a strenuous relationship with my body as most of us probably have and with an eating disorder way

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back and still like trying to navigate everything and I've had success in like counting calories but

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then since losing my dad I've gained weight whereas I was hoping I would lose weight because

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that's what happened when I had a previous crisis where I had called off a wedding. I dropped a lot

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of weight whereas this time around I gained weight and so I am now trying to not try and I'm

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navigating that in like how to just release and let go and try to be like that balloon

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with both my work and with the weight. So I think those are like my main two things.

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I am trying to find freedom in and rest in currently. So that's where I'm at. I guess

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that's my two for one. I did enjoy dinner at my mom's today because it's Mother's Day in Norway

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and I baked sugar cookies for her and my sister-in-law and my sister and then there's

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more to spare for Valentine's Day on Tuesday where I'll give out some Valentine's goodies to

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um like the swim community that I have where I live and possibly some of my co-workers although

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we're giving out love hearts to all of them. So yeah I guess that's where I'm at. I'm trying to

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let go and live in freedom and necessarily not being happy with nine to five and the job that I

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have but learning to be at peace where I am letting go of needing to understand and just

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trusting God that he will take me where I need to be when I need to be there because he's in control

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and same thing about um the weight trying to let go um and not control it.

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Probably will have to have another chat about that. Hope you're all having a great Sunday. I

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think it's Super Bowl Sunday so yay team whoever you're rooting for. I hope it's gonna be an

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amazing halftime show with Rihanna and that you're enjoying friends and family time with

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loads of snacks. So bye!