WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:13.000 Hey, how are you doing? 2 00:00:13.000 --> 00:00:14.000 Good. 3 00:00:14.000 --> 00:00:15.000 How are you? 4 00:00:15.000 --> 00:00:18.000 Doing good. 5 00:00:19.000 --> 00:00:20.000 What do you have for us today? 6 00:00:20.000 --> 00:00:34.000 I have from the American pie. 7 00:00:34.000 --> 00:00:39.000 All of a sudden, I was on a very long client call. 8 00:00:39.000 --> 00:00:45.000 If the client is going through a lot, 9 00:00:45.000 --> 00:00:50.000 I can make myself an omelet and then I'm on another call. 10 00:00:50.000 --> 00:00:52.000 It's a busy day. 11 00:00:52.000 --> 00:00:54.000 How are you? 12 00:00:54.000 --> 00:00:56.000 Thank you. 13 00:00:56.000 --> 00:01:01.000 We're maintaining. 14 00:01:01.000 --> 00:01:03.000 Are they having fun? 15 00:01:03.000 --> 00:01:05.000 Having daddy home all the time? 16 00:01:05.000 --> 00:01:10.000 They like it. 17 00:01:10.000 --> 00:01:17.000 I have a book for them to read. 18 00:01:17.000 --> 00:01:19.000 They're enjoying it. 19 00:01:19.000 --> 00:01:24.000 That's fun. 20 00:01:24.000 --> 00:01:29.000 We'll be talking about this stuff for years. 21 00:01:29.000 --> 00:01:33.000 I don't know why I had so much trouble with that link. 22 00:01:33.000 --> 00:01:37.000 It kept doing weird things. 23 00:01:37.000 --> 00:01:41.000 I'm going to show you an example. 24 00:01:41.000 --> 00:01:46.000 It will change the default setting. 25 00:01:46.000 --> 00:01:51.000 It will automatically post things in order of most recent. 26 00:01:51.000 --> 00:01:56.000 Recent activity or whatever. 27 00:01:56.000 --> 00:01:59.000 If someone is commenting on an old post, 28 00:01:59.000 --> 00:02:04.000 it will put that one up to the top. 29 00:02:04.000 --> 00:02:08.000 I don't know how to do that. 30 00:02:08.000 --> 00:02:13.000 Do you want to see the most recent post? 31 00:02:13.000 --> 00:02:18.000 I constantly have to go in there and click most recent post. 32 00:02:18.000 --> 00:02:23.000 I don't know how to set that to the default. 33 00:02:23.000 --> 00:02:27.000 I'll know that now. 34 00:02:27.000 --> 00:02:31.000 Right after I posted that, 35 00:02:31.000 --> 00:02:35.000 I posted it in the announcements post. 36 00:02:35.000 --> 00:02:39.000 It lists all of the stuff. 37 00:02:39.000 --> 00:02:43.000 People can click on that for the private consultations. 38 00:02:43.000 --> 00:02:46.000 I also posted that permanent Zoom link. 39 00:02:46.000 --> 00:02:49.000 Next week, 40 00:02:49.000 --> 00:02:53.000 y'all can always check that out. 41 00:02:53.000 --> 00:02:58.000 I posted it in the announcements post. 42 00:02:59.000 --> 00:03:04.000 I posted it in the Zoom link. 43 00:03:04.000 --> 00:03:07.000 Next week, 44 00:03:07.000 --> 00:03:11.000 y'all can get it out. 45 00:03:11.000 --> 00:03:15.000 I edited it. 46 00:03:15.000 --> 00:03:19.000 Under group sessions. 47 00:03:19.000 --> 00:03:23.000 I added it in the middle. 48 00:03:23.000 --> 00:03:27.000 I didn't add it to the end. 49 00:03:27.000 --> 00:03:31.000 If you have any questions, 50 00:03:31.000 --> 00:03:35.000 let me know. 51 00:03:35.000 --> 00:03:39.000 You can let me go close that. 52 00:03:39.000 --> 00:03:42.000 Hi, 53 00:03:42.000 --> 00:03:45.000 Steph. 54 00:03:45.000 --> 00:03:49.000 Are we the only two on here? 55 00:03:49.000 --> 00:03:55.000 Cheryl said she won't make it tonight. 56 00:03:55.000 --> 00:03:58.000 I didn't know it was Cheryl's birthday. 57 00:03:58.000 --> 00:04:01.000 That's so cool. 58 00:04:01.000 --> 00:04:04.000 I feel bad. 59 00:04:04.000 --> 00:04:07.000 I didn't know it was Cheryl's birthday. 60 00:04:07.000 --> 00:04:10.000 I don't know how I would know that. 61 00:04:10.000 --> 00:04:13.000 Is it on Facebook? 62 00:04:13.000 --> 00:04:16.000 I think Facebook told on her this morning. 63 00:04:16.000 --> 00:04:19.000 I forgot about it. 64 00:04:19.000 --> 00:04:22.000 I didn't know it was her birthday. 65 00:04:23.000 --> 00:04:27.000 I'm going to text Cheryl for her birthday today. 66 00:04:27.000 --> 00:04:31.000 Don't you love Siri? 67 00:04:31.000 --> 00:04:34.000 I just tell my virtual assistant to do 68 00:04:34.000 --> 00:04:37.000 whatever it is I need her to do. 69 00:04:37.000 --> 00:04:40.000 So, 70 00:04:40.000 --> 00:04:43.000 tonight, 71 00:04:43.000 --> 00:04:46.000 did we finish our conversation 72 00:04:46.000 --> 00:04:49.000 before I jumped over to explain the post? 73 00:04:50.000 --> 00:04:53.000 I think so. 74 00:04:53.000 --> 00:04:56.000 I don't think we left anything hanging. 75 00:04:56.000 --> 00:04:59.000 There was 76 00:04:59.000 --> 00:05:02.000 . . . 77 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:14.000 I was just, I think I was just saying that, you know, we're gonna look back and remember all of these memories really fondly, you know, when the kids are older and just like, oh, you remember, remember when, during the coronavirus, how did y'all manage or what did y'all do? 78 00:05:02.000 --> 00:05:05.000 . . . 79 00:05:05.000 --> 00:05:08.000 . . . 80 00:05:08.000 --> 00:05:11.000 . . 81 00:05:11.000 --> 00:05:14.000 . 82 00:05:14.000 --> 00:05:17.000 . 83 00:05:14.000 --> 00:05:24.000 Well, you know, I had a lot of time to wrap my meetings and read a book. It's the kind of things that you tell when the boyfriend comes over. 84 00:05:25.000 --> 00:05:27.000 Yeah. 85 00:05:27.000 --> 00:05:37.000 I'm to the point today though I told Dan I wanted to take a toy out in the yard and shoot it. So, certain toys. 86 00:05:37.000 --> 00:05:41.000 I don't blame you. You had a battery. 87 00:05:41.000 --> 00:05:45.000 And you think that may need to lose the battery tonight. Yeah. 88 00:05:45.000 --> 00:06:05.000 Yep, exactly. Yeah. And in fact it's really cute. I heard, I heard a woman say once that she, she would work all day long, and then go pick up her son who was like a year old or something like that go pick up her son from daycare or babysitter who was washing them, then she would go back to work to an empty office. 89 00:06:06.000 --> 00:06:23.000 And she would take her son and she put him out on the floor with all of this with with it with a blanket and all of his toys. And she said she would take the batteries out of all of his toys, so that he would be occupied longer to figure out why it wasn't working. 90 00:06:24.000 --> 00:06:25.000 She's hilarious. 91 00:06:29.000 --> 00:06:39.000 Because you go to toy to figure out. Okay, why isn't this working. Let me try something else. Let me get it from a different direction. It's you said it kept him occupied. 92 00:06:43.000 --> 00:06:44.000 I know I wouldn't work here. 93 00:06:47.000 --> 00:06:51.000 Emma would be after us in five minutes. Will you fix this. Will you fix this. 94 00:06:51.000 --> 00:07:01.000 Correct. That's why it only works when you're like one year old, you know, you know, because then you're still trying to figure it out by the end of age. She knows what's what she knows how to 95 00:07:02.000 --> 00:07:08.000 Battery. She knows how to ask for help to get it fixed. So, hey, Gary. 96 00:07:09.000 --> 00:07:14.000 Hey everyone finally got on here. I was having some major difficulties. 97 00:07:15.000 --> 00:07:21.000 I couldn't open it on my computer at the my phone wasn't working, but we are here. I just 98 00:07:23.000 --> 00:07:29.000 Intellectually blessed with the ability to figure out things electronically, but I'm here. 99 00:07:30.000 --> 00:07:31.000 Yeah. 100 00:07:33.000 --> 00:07:39.000 Yeah, so I was telling them that this is the permanent zoom link now and it's now in the announcements. 101 00:07:40.000 --> 00:07:46.000 Post as well. So if you just go to the announcements post, you know where everything else is posted that's pinned at the top. And if you open it up. 102 00:07:46.000 --> 00:07:58.000 Information there so that we all know that the same thing. So I've never done a recurring meeting before. So anyway, I it somehow came to mind that actually set up a permanent like a zoom link. 103 00:07:59.000 --> 00:08:01.000 Yeah, yeah, for sure. 104 00:08:01.000 --> 00:08:18.000 Anyway, because all my clients are we set a different time every time. And based on what works on their schedule. So I've never made always said they always just go into Calendly and set their time. So I don't even usually set up zoom calls and then send 105 00:08:19.000 --> 00:08:19.000 106 00:08:20.000 --> 00:08:21.000 Anyway, just me. 107 00:08:22.000 --> 00:08:35.000 So this whole I just wanted to spend on answering questions that anybody had. And then we can just go from there. So in other words, it's the exact same thing that I do in the private session just 108 00:08:37.000 --> 00:08:50.000 Excuse me, just as a group so that everybody can hear each other's each other's questions. So does anyone have something that they want to start with, based off of I don't know how many of you have questions. 109 00:08:51.000 --> 00:09:03.000 In the lives that you've been able to watch, whether you watch them live or watch them after the fact, but and did any of them raise any questions that anybody wanted to ask anything that was just raised. 110 00:09:10.000 --> 00:09:15.000 This is what always happens when you get women together. No, no one's going to be the one to go first. Oh no, I'll let her go first. 111 00:09:22.000 --> 00:09:23.000 Well, I'll share something 112 00:09:24.000 --> 00:09:25.000 Yes, please do. 113 00:09:26.000 --> 00:09:29.000 I just finished listening to the one you posted last night. 114 00:09:30.000 --> 00:09:32.000 And it was so good. 115 00:09:35.000 --> 00:09:48.000 Good. I'm like, this is so good. I'm telling you, girlfriend. You know, you talked about. We're always looking for that person or that key. I'm like, but actually 116 00:09:52.000 --> 00:09:54.000 It's harder than all of us are 117 00:09:58.000 --> 00:09:59.000 No, it was 118 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:01.960 It was so good. 119 00:10:01.960 --> 00:10:05.440 So I've been today, my youngest son is 17. 120 00:10:05.440 --> 00:10:09.680 He has special needs and he has had these stomach issues 121 00:10:09.680 --> 00:10:11.960 off and on for years. 122 00:10:11.960 --> 00:10:14.640 And in the past, when it first started, 123 00:10:14.640 --> 00:10:16.960 it was only when we'd go on road trips in the summer. 124 00:10:16.960 --> 00:10:19.760 So I thought it was like car sickness. 125 00:10:19.760 --> 00:10:23.440 And then it just got more and more frequent. 126 00:10:23.440 --> 00:10:26.720 And then last year we started going to this natural doctor 127 00:10:26.720 --> 00:10:28.280 and he found he had parasites. 128 00:10:28.280 --> 00:10:29.680 And so we cleared those up 129 00:10:29.680 --> 00:10:31.480 and then it was another different parasite. 130 00:10:31.480 --> 00:10:32.720 And then it was something, 131 00:10:32.720 --> 00:10:34.640 it was just like one thing after another. 132 00:10:34.640 --> 00:10:36.880 And then last week I took him 133 00:10:36.880 --> 00:10:38.920 and oh, he has an overgrowth of yeast. 134 00:10:38.920 --> 00:10:41.940 And so I'm like, okay, so we'll do this. 135 00:10:41.940 --> 00:10:44.440 And I really struggle with taking him 136 00:10:44.440 --> 00:10:49.200 because I really believe that healing is ours. 137 00:10:49.200 --> 00:10:51.200 We are healed. 138 00:10:51.200 --> 00:10:55.640 And so, but sometimes the Lord uses earthly things. 139 00:10:55.640 --> 00:10:57.400 So I was kind of glad I took him 140 00:10:57.400 --> 00:10:59.280 because he also found out 141 00:10:59.280 --> 00:11:01.920 what was causing his acne that he's had. 142 00:11:01.920 --> 00:11:02.760 And I was like, okay. 143 00:11:02.760 --> 00:11:03.920 And it was really simple. 144 00:11:03.920 --> 00:11:07.040 It was like a dietary, really simple dietary shift. 145 00:11:07.040 --> 00:11:10.420 And so I started giving him this stuff. 146 00:11:10.420 --> 00:11:14.400 And after a few days, he starts having trouble again. 147 00:11:14.400 --> 00:11:16.960 So I called the doctor today and he said, 148 00:11:16.960 --> 00:11:18.180 I can't do anything else for him. 149 00:11:18.180 --> 00:11:19.600 Take him to a medical doctor 150 00:11:19.600 --> 00:11:22.120 because this guy's a natural doctor. 151 00:11:22.120 --> 00:11:24.120 And I was like, right. 152 00:11:24.120 --> 00:11:27.200 And so I texted all my friends 153 00:11:28.280 --> 00:11:30.960 that I know that know how to pray, 154 00:11:30.960 --> 00:11:35.240 as a son of God, not the old begging prayers. 155 00:11:35.240 --> 00:11:37.760 And I texted him and I said, great for Jonathan 156 00:11:37.760 --> 00:11:40.040 because he couldn't eat anything. 157 00:11:40.040 --> 00:11:42.800 He can't drink a drop of anything or eat. 158 00:11:42.800 --> 00:11:44.760 And he has no fever. 159 00:11:44.760 --> 00:11:46.440 He has no other symptoms. 160 00:11:46.440 --> 00:11:49.000 It's just his stomach will not receive anything. 161 00:11:49.000 --> 00:11:53.560 And so, that's kind of concerning 162 00:11:53.560 --> 00:11:55.280 because all day long, I'm looking at him going, 163 00:11:55.280 --> 00:11:57.400 you need to drink something. 164 00:11:57.400 --> 00:12:00.480 And so this evening, right after I finished listening, 165 00:12:00.480 --> 00:12:01.880 and I told him, I said, you know what? 166 00:12:01.880 --> 00:12:03.080 I prayed over him. 167 00:12:03.080 --> 00:12:04.020 I said, you're healed. 168 00:12:04.020 --> 00:12:06.380 You're a son of God, you're healed. 169 00:12:06.380 --> 00:12:08.200 And I told him to say that over himself. 170 00:12:08.200 --> 00:12:09.960 And so he's in there, he's like, father, 171 00:12:09.960 --> 00:12:12.820 I'm a son of God, I'm healed. 172 00:12:12.820 --> 00:12:16.640 And so, and my friends were praying. 173 00:12:16.640 --> 00:12:19.560 And then I was listening to your message 174 00:12:19.560 --> 00:12:24.560 and I realized that I was trying to make it happen, trying. 175 00:12:25.880 --> 00:12:28.760 And when you remind, you were just summarizing 176 00:12:28.760 --> 00:12:32.480 at the end saying, stop trying, 177 00:12:32.480 --> 00:12:35.640 just release it and receive, 178 00:12:35.640 --> 00:12:37.200 then you'll automatically receive, 179 00:12:37.200 --> 00:12:40.860 like that's the old man trying to make something happen 180 00:12:40.860 --> 00:12:43.080 when we already have it. 181 00:12:43.080 --> 00:12:48.080 And so, it's just, I was like, oh yeah. 182 00:12:48.880 --> 00:12:50.920 And you said, if it's hard, stop doing it. 183 00:12:50.920 --> 00:12:53.840 And I was like, always feel like I'm trying, 184 00:12:53.840 --> 00:12:57.640 like I'm trying to believe, I'm trying to decree, 185 00:12:57.640 --> 00:13:01.600 I'm trying to declare, I'm trying to, 186 00:13:01.600 --> 00:13:04.120 you know, and it's just like trying to make it be so, 187 00:13:04.120 --> 00:13:05.840 and I know it already is. 188 00:13:05.840 --> 00:13:10.180 And so then I just, I was like, wait a minute, stop trying. 189 00:13:11.200 --> 00:13:13.560 And I don't even remember what I said to him, 190 00:13:13.560 --> 00:13:15.600 but I said something like, 191 00:13:15.600 --> 00:13:17.500 oh, that's your old man that's sick. 192 00:13:17.500 --> 00:13:18.780 You're healed. 193 00:13:18.780 --> 00:13:22.300 And it was so easy and instantly, 194 00:13:22.300 --> 00:13:24.740 I was able to start thanking God, 195 00:13:25.680 --> 00:13:28.740 really thanking him, not thanking him in the old way 196 00:13:28.740 --> 00:13:30.780 where you're like, thanking him, 197 00:13:30.780 --> 00:13:34.860 hoping that if you thank him enough, it'll be so, 198 00:13:34.860 --> 00:13:38.420 but just like, I don't have to do anything. 199 00:13:38.420 --> 00:13:39.800 I don't have to do anything. 200 00:13:39.800 --> 00:13:43.460 I just have to release my effort 201 00:13:43.460 --> 00:13:47.700 and my unbelief that it's not already done 202 00:13:47.700 --> 00:13:49.040 and just release it. 203 00:13:49.040 --> 00:13:53.940 And he like really shifted. 204 00:13:53.940 --> 00:13:55.620 He got up, he was, I mean, 205 00:13:55.620 --> 00:13:57.940 this boy has been sitting for three days. 206 00:13:57.940 --> 00:14:01.540 For two days, he sat in his room on the edge of his bed 207 00:14:01.540 --> 00:14:04.360 with his hands folded, which we never pray like that. 208 00:14:04.360 --> 00:14:06.780 So it's weird, but he has hands folded and his head down. 209 00:14:06.780 --> 00:14:08.700 And every time I peeked in there, he'd just say, 210 00:14:08.700 --> 00:14:11.640 I'm praying and he's fine. 211 00:14:12.640 --> 00:14:14.280 You know, he wasn't depressed, 212 00:14:14.280 --> 00:14:15.440 kind of had a smile on his face. 213 00:14:15.440 --> 00:14:16.920 I was like, all right, Lord, 214 00:14:16.920 --> 00:14:17.940 I guess you're keeping him busy. 215 00:14:17.940 --> 00:14:21.320 Well, today he sat on the couch watching movies all day. 216 00:14:21.320 --> 00:14:26.320 He did not get off that couch until I just released it. 217 00:14:26.720 --> 00:14:28.280 And I said, you know what? 218 00:14:28.280 --> 00:14:31.400 I just released all the fear I have, all the worry, 219 00:14:31.400 --> 00:14:35.840 all the anxiety that I'm not praying right, 220 00:14:35.840 --> 00:14:38.360 that my prayers don't work, 221 00:14:38.360 --> 00:14:43.360 that my son is sick and I don't know what's gonna happen. 222 00:14:43.920 --> 00:14:47.760 And, you know, this has been going on forever. 223 00:14:47.760 --> 00:14:49.320 And I just released it all. 224 00:14:49.320 --> 00:14:52.580 I was like, no, that's the old man. 225 00:14:52.580 --> 00:14:57.160 And I just received what is mine, which is healing. 226 00:14:57.160 --> 00:15:00.240 And, you know, he got up and he wanted to eat. 227 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:05.360 which was a first and he walked over the table and he was gonna eat and then he saw the food 228 00:15:05.360 --> 00:15:11.280 and he was like no i'm like that's okay you know it's fine you're fine whenever you want to eat 229 00:15:11.280 --> 00:15:19.120 you can eat but um you know whether or not he is completely healed today or not 230 00:15:19.760 --> 00:15:26.800 i felt such a difference and so much weight lift off of me because as a mom you feel like 231 00:15:27.760 --> 00:15:32.080 okay i'm going to be negligent if i don't take this child to the doctor but if i take him to 232 00:15:32.080 --> 00:15:35.760 the doctor he's going to give me all this stuff to put in his body that's not good for him and 233 00:15:35.760 --> 00:15:41.840 i know it and i've tried everything else that's natural and nothing's working and i'm just like 234 00:15:41.840 --> 00:15:48.640 i don't know what to do i'm like i'm the mom and i don't know what to do and so it was just 235 00:15:49.520 --> 00:15:58.080 incredibly freeing i was like wow now i get get it what it is to live from rest i get it ashley 236 00:15:58.080 --> 00:16:15.120 it's like i didn't realize i was trying i know so i know it was amazing yeah it's all we know 237 00:16:15.200 --> 00:16:22.480 is to try and so when there's something else that we learn about the lord we think yeah and that he 238 00:16:22.480 --> 00:16:31.040 says oh this is yours okay now i've got to try to get it stop stop trying stop trying yeah i know 239 00:16:32.000 --> 00:16:37.920 it's our nature and we naturally receive it it's very effortless yeah me and my girlfriend used 240 00:16:37.920 --> 00:16:43.840 for years we've always talked about we know we have this but how do we access it what's the key 241 00:16:46.000 --> 00:16:53.120 i know and that's and it's that thinking that is getting in the way of us being able to receive it 242 00:16:53.120 --> 00:17:00.320 the belief that we have to access it we don't have to access it it'll it's already come and 243 00:17:00.320 --> 00:17:04.800 it's already coming it when god's a good father we just asked him for it so he sent it he sent 244 00:17:04.800 --> 00:17:09.200 it in his word he sent it out of his mouth he probably did it 2 000 years ago and it's just 245 00:17:09.200 --> 00:17:14.480 hanging right there above us and we have it but we won't let it in so we have to release the other 246 00:17:14.480 --> 00:17:20.400 thing that isn't of the old man that doesn't uh that isn't natural for us anymore and then it just 247 00:17:20.400 --> 00:17:24.800 naturally flips down into us and we're like oh wow that was easy yes because it's our nature 248 00:17:24.800 --> 00:17:30.400 but yeah it all we understand is everything according to the old the old man so i know 249 00:17:30.400 --> 00:17:36.160 it's so effortless so i was so glad when you said that that the first post that i did 250 00:17:36.240 --> 00:17:46.720 night before last was um was uh and you didn't use this word but what i heard was it was frustrating 251 00:17:47.280 --> 00:17:54.240 and i knew exactly because that's how i have felt so many times because i'm like okay so 252 00:17:54.240 --> 00:17:59.520 i don't have to so i have to uh don't i don't have to do anything but now i have to do something 253 00:18:00.640 --> 00:18:05.840 so i don't have to do anything oh wow isn't that nice and then someone will drop a bomb like okay 254 00:18:05.840 --> 00:18:10.640 you need to believe you're like well dead gum and i gotta do something but it's in our old paradigm 255 00:18:10.640 --> 00:18:15.680 of how we understand that we're supposed to believe we think we're supposed to try to believe 256 00:18:15.680 --> 00:18:20.320 that's that old man that's the only way that it understands belief that's the only way it 257 00:18:20.320 --> 00:18:25.440 understands how to believe but the new nature naturally is belief so believing according to 258 00:18:25.440 --> 00:18:29.440 new nature means a very different thing but if we use that word we can use that word in this 259 00:18:29.440 --> 00:18:35.120 paradigm or in this paradigm and if we're only hearing it in this paradigm well then we can't 260 00:18:35.120 --> 00:18:41.200 receive that someone is actually speaking freedom so i loved how you that you expressed that because 261 00:18:41.200 --> 00:18:48.160 that's exactly i i heard myself in that i was like lord that is how i have felt for years amy is 262 00:18:48.160 --> 00:18:55.840 talking how i have felt for years so it gave me the opportunity to think okay how do i word it in 263 00:18:55.840 --> 00:19:00.160 a different way that it'll finally get through so it forced me to kind of like think okay let's use 264 00:19:00.160 --> 00:19:04.560 a different word and then the whole thing of like the whole trying thing and it's like oh it's the 265 00:19:04.560 --> 00:19:09.520 trying to believe and that the only end is so i was really really grateful that that um you were 266 00:19:09.520 --> 00:19:15.680 willing to jump in and say hey look ashley appreciate the effort but it didn't work 267 00:19:17.120 --> 00:19:23.600 because that's just normal so good that that's how we all um and if i don't know that that's what 268 00:19:23.600 --> 00:19:28.720 people are thinking and struggling with well then all i know is to just keep doing the same 269 00:19:28.720 --> 00:19:33.920 so keep doing more of the same so i needed to change how i worded it because it didn't change 270 00:19:33.920 --> 00:19:39.200 what i was saying it changed how i worded it so i really appreciate that because you're just 271 00:19:39.200 --> 00:19:42.720 voicing what we've all felt all these years hey holly 272 00:19:45.280 --> 00:19:51.600 so anyway thank you very much for that like i said there's not a question or a frustration 273 00:19:51.600 --> 00:19:54.720 or a thought that someone could come up with that i have 274 00:19:57.680 --> 00:19:59.840 so everything that everybody is 275 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:07.280 Asked everything, you know, Carrie, you were talking about Sony and everything. I've asked that question. All of these questions I've asked. I've asked all of you already. 276 00:20:08.280 --> 00:20:22.120 Anyway, yeah, I appreciate that. And for those of y'all who don't know, Amy and I met and a few weeks ago, there was supposed to be a conference. She was hosting a conference and unfortunately 277 00:20:23.560 --> 00:20:24.120 I was saying 278 00:20:24.120 --> 00:20:33.720 And then, um, but she lives just, um, we found out later. She said, Well, where do you live? Because we're thinking, Oh, well, DFW is very large. 279 00:20:35.320 --> 00:20:45.040 I told her where I live. And she's interested. Oh my word. I live a mile from you as the crow flies. It's not even that far. It's not even that far. 280 00:20:45.040 --> 00:20:57.160 And DFW is huge. Is it 15 million people? It's huge. It's very, very large. It's very large. It's millions. 281 00:20:59.680 --> 00:21:08.160 Fair. So, so in other words, I know Jonathan. He's really got an extremely sensitive spirit to the word and 282 00:21:08.480 --> 00:21:12.200 He's got an extremely sensitive spirit to the word and 283 00:21:13.560 --> 00:21:20.640 Does it's really special his 18th birthday coming up. Oh, and somebody wanted me to do something with them. By the way, Amy. 284 00:21:21.080 --> 00:21:30.960 Wanted me to do something with them today client and mine was talking to me about something. And I said, Well, I'm afraid I can't do it until after April the 28th because I have a birthday party. 285 00:21:31.360 --> 00:21:40.120 Jonathan through 18 on the 28th. I don't know if the birthday parties on the 28th or somewhere around there. Don't have to let me know what it is. I can make sure not schedule anything around it, but 286 00:21:42.000 --> 00:21:42.520 Did 287 00:21:43.600 --> 00:21:52.440 So did anyone else have a have another question or something else that's been going on this week that you wanted to like like 288 00:21:52.680 --> 00:22:10.440 I love the post that y'all been doing about the shifts that you feel that you were even, you know, some of the frustration frustration or the shipping part of the process. So don't condemn yourself for it because that's normal. Remember, taking off the training wheel transitioning 289 00:22:12.080 --> 00:22:16.640 That it's gonna you you feel like you that you're operating worse. 290 00:22:16.640 --> 00:22:26.240 Than you did under the train wheels. So that's normal. That's part of the process. A lot intended for it to look like. Yeah. And anyway, it's 291 00:22:28.080 --> 00:22:38.000 Not fun doesn't feel good, but there's no need to think that something's out of place and it shouldn't be like this. This is normal. 292 00:22:38.000 --> 00:22:41.400 And if someone has a question that you've asked in the 293 00:22:43.360 --> 00:22:52.760 In the group that I haven't answered yet, then you know it like in a comment or that I haven't clarified that you have to clarify remember that there's a time for that. 294 00:22:52.760 --> 00:22:54.520 I'll be right back. 295 00:23:23.400 --> 00:23:25.720 And while y'all are thinking I didn't get any water. 296 00:23:27.720 --> 00:23:29.520 But I am right here so I can hear anybody 297 00:23:51.400 --> 00:23:52.040 Everybody's 298 00:23:53.720 --> 00:23:54.400 Yes. 299 00:23:55.800 --> 00:23:56.440 For 300 00:23:59.480 --> 00:24:05.680 There was one thing that you said in the video where you use the whiteboard about 301 00:24:06.920 --> 00:24:10.800 And train to rest. I loved that visual 302 00:24:12.280 --> 00:24:13.080 Let me find 303 00:24:14.040 --> 00:24:14.440 Is 304 00:24:15.920 --> 00:24:22.160 Not sure I'm going to be able to find it without my like real Bible, which is downstairs and 305 00:24:26.360 --> 00:24:33.120 I think it's Hebrews for but I'm having trouble finding it. But basically what 306 00:24:34.320 --> 00:24:36.800 The author of Hebrews is saying is like 307 00:24:37.800 --> 00:24:48.440 The work of Christ is finished. And so now the only work that we have is to is to enter into his rest and so 308 00:24:49.560 --> 00:24:53.680 That is what I have been doing for the last 10 years since I've been 309 00:24:55.080 --> 00:24:59.880 More under like living in the tree of life instead of the tree of the knowledge of God. 310 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:05.000 good and evil is putting forth effort and work towards rest. 311 00:25:08.160 --> 00:25:13.160 And what I mean by that is not striving, 312 00:25:15.380 --> 00:25:18.340 but what you were talking about in the video, 313 00:25:18.340 --> 00:25:21.560 I think was even like a little bit of just like, 314 00:25:21.560 --> 00:25:23.120 quit everything. 315 00:25:23.120 --> 00:25:28.120 And scripturally, I was more to the understanding, 316 00:25:29.080 --> 00:25:34.080 sorry, that quit everything except trying to rest. 317 00:25:37.720 --> 00:25:41.000 Can you do that a little bit more? 318 00:25:41.000 --> 00:25:44.320 And what like trying sort of looks like, 319 00:25:44.320 --> 00:25:48.880 because when I was coming out from under works and the law, 320 00:25:48.880 --> 00:25:51.800 I was a lot of like your story, Ashley, 321 00:25:51.800 --> 00:25:54.680 I so wish we would have kept in touch the last 10 years 322 00:25:54.680 --> 00:25:57.320 because I'm like, to have a friend, 323 00:25:57.320 --> 00:26:01.000 to walk through that with would have been so helpful 324 00:26:01.000 --> 00:26:02.080 and relieving. 325 00:26:02.080 --> 00:26:04.520 But I remember being like, how do I rest God? 326 00:26:04.520 --> 00:26:06.600 Just tell me what to do, God, and I'll do it. 327 00:26:06.600 --> 00:26:09.120 And then being like, no, that's not it. 328 00:26:09.120 --> 00:26:12.520 You know, like, you're just your old pattern of thinking 329 00:26:12.520 --> 00:26:17.520 of like, I will work as hard as I can to, you know, rest. 330 00:26:17.720 --> 00:26:20.760 Sorry, I don't know how to rest. 331 00:26:20.760 --> 00:26:25.760 And how many months it took me to receive God's word 332 00:26:27.360 --> 00:26:30.440 to rest and my prayer really just became, 333 00:26:30.440 --> 00:26:33.640 okay, Lord, show me how to rest in this moment. 334 00:26:33.640 --> 00:26:35.880 Or like, okay, I have these 10 things 335 00:26:35.880 --> 00:26:38.760 that I'm responsible for that need to get done. 336 00:26:38.760 --> 00:26:41.880 And so I just receive, I bless my time 337 00:26:41.880 --> 00:26:45.680 and I just receive whatever timeline you can get it, 338 00:26:45.680 --> 00:26:48.240 help me get this done in whatever break I need, 339 00:26:48.240 --> 00:26:49.440 whatever comes through. 340 00:26:49.440 --> 00:26:52.120 And he will always, he will always do that. 341 00:26:52.120 --> 00:26:57.120 So that is what I'm thinking of as working to rest 342 00:26:57.320 --> 00:26:58.600 and I'm like, can you clarify, 343 00:26:58.600 --> 00:27:00.240 what does that look like for you? 344 00:27:00.240 --> 00:27:03.440 Does that still sound like striving to you? 345 00:27:03.440 --> 00:27:05.160 Because that is, to be honest, 346 00:27:05.160 --> 00:27:08.880 that is still an area where I feel some stress. 347 00:27:08.880 --> 00:27:11.280 And I'm not sure if it's because I'm raising 348 00:27:11.280 --> 00:27:13.240 little wild Indians that get it, 349 00:27:13.240 --> 00:27:16.800 that like, I have no, that interrupt me all the time. 350 00:27:16.800 --> 00:27:18.600 And so I'm like, you know, 351 00:27:18.600 --> 00:27:21.160 which is every young mom's thing, 352 00:27:21.160 --> 00:27:23.600 like you're focused and then, you know, 353 00:27:23.600 --> 00:27:26.360 jolted out of any train of thought. 354 00:27:26.360 --> 00:27:31.200 But, well, I'm not sure if I'm like trying to refocus. 355 00:27:31.200 --> 00:27:32.040 I don't know. 356 00:27:32.040 --> 00:27:33.360 I think in all of this, I'm like, 357 00:27:33.360 --> 00:27:36.600 do I still have some leftover junk here, 358 00:27:36.600 --> 00:27:41.600 some wrong thinking or is my life just crazy in this season? 359 00:27:42.680 --> 00:27:44.520 And you just gotta walk through it. 360 00:27:44.520 --> 00:27:46.240 I don't know. 361 00:27:46.240 --> 00:27:50.320 Well, you know, rest is a place 362 00:27:50.320 --> 00:27:55.320 and actually it's, so that's often why I capitalize it 363 00:27:56.200 --> 00:27:58.840 when I write it out and I'm talking about it. 364 00:27:58.840 --> 00:28:00.600 Also, when I talk about love, 365 00:28:00.600 --> 00:28:02.880 I'll capitalize the L in love 366 00:28:02.880 --> 00:28:04.280 or I capitalize the R in rest 367 00:28:04.280 --> 00:28:07.080 because rest is actually a place. 368 00:28:07.080 --> 00:28:08.440 If you talk to certain people, 369 00:28:08.440 --> 00:28:11.000 they actually believe it's like a realm. 370 00:28:11.000 --> 00:28:13.200 Like you've got heaven, you have, 371 00:28:13.200 --> 00:28:15.480 and I don't wanna say that rest is outside of heaven, 372 00:28:15.480 --> 00:28:16.960 but I'm talking about the fact that we understand, 373 00:28:16.960 --> 00:28:19.760 oh, heaven is a realm, earth is a realm. 374 00:28:20.840 --> 00:28:24.560 Some people believe that rest is a realm 375 00:28:24.560 --> 00:28:27.120 in which we can coexist in rest 376 00:28:27.120 --> 00:28:29.360 at the same time that we're existing in the physical world 377 00:28:29.360 --> 00:28:31.280 and the same time that we're existing in heaven. 378 00:28:31.280 --> 00:28:36.120 So the reason, anyway, so that's just something 379 00:28:36.120 --> 00:28:40.920 that I wanted to explain about what rest actually is. 380 00:28:40.920 --> 00:28:44.400 So yes, when we think that, okay, 381 00:28:44.400 --> 00:28:49.400 everything is done except rest, 382 00:28:49.640 --> 00:28:51.080 you know, by reading in Hebrew. 383 00:28:51.080 --> 00:28:54.280 Okay, so everything's done except, 384 00:28:54.960 --> 00:28:55.800 but that's the thing. 385 00:28:55.800 --> 00:28:57.680 It's like, no, because everything's done, 386 00:28:57.680 --> 00:28:59.440 acknowledging that everything's done, 387 00:28:59.440 --> 00:29:01.160 we naturally abide in rest. 388 00:29:02.320 --> 00:29:04.120 And that's how we're not able to enter rest 389 00:29:04.120 --> 00:29:06.520 is if we think there's still something left to do, 390 00:29:06.520 --> 00:29:08.280 including entering rest, 391 00:29:08.280 --> 00:29:11.080 that that's something that we actually have to attain to. 392 00:29:11.080 --> 00:29:13.600 And we don't, it's our natural state. 393 00:29:13.600 --> 00:29:18.200 It's our very nature for rest. 394 00:29:18.200 --> 00:29:22.440 So if we feel like, say for instance, 395 00:29:22.440 --> 00:29:25.800 when you say that, okay, you're trying to abide in rest, 396 00:29:25.800 --> 00:29:26.720 you're trying to do something, 397 00:29:26.720 --> 00:29:28.360 and then you get interrupted. 398 00:29:28.360 --> 00:29:32.440 Well, then we can, we can, we can jolt it out, 399 00:29:32.440 --> 00:29:36.440 try to be patient, and we can do that sometimes 400 00:29:36.440 --> 00:29:38.000 out of a place of rest. 401 00:29:38.000 --> 00:29:40.280 And then we're trying to go back to, oh my goodness, 402 00:29:40.280 --> 00:29:42.400 I've got to, I've got to try to get back 403 00:29:42.400 --> 00:29:44.560 into a place of rest. 404 00:29:44.560 --> 00:29:49.360 If there's anything that feels kind of tight 405 00:29:49.360 --> 00:29:54.360 or anything that feels like, how would you put it? 406 00:29:56.320 --> 00:29:57.360 Anything that, well, yeah, 407 00:29:57.360 --> 00:29:59.880 just anything that kind of feels like a. 408 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:09.620 Little bit of a tightness or a what's another word that I could think of to describe that that might because that word might not resonate with some of you, but just 409 00:30:11.340 --> 00:30:16.140 I don't know, like a heaviness and it doesn't have to be much, but it is a little bit 410 00:30:17.040 --> 00:30:34.000 That means that we think that that rest or that God is requiring something of us that we're not doing or that God is offering something to us that for whatever reason we're falling short of stepping 411 00:30:34.620 --> 00:30:45.180 And that's a problem. And so we feel this tightness. In other words, we feel that we're not already there and that God is providing us an opportunity and we're not taking it. So whether or not we're 412 00:30:45.540 --> 00:30:47.940 What regardless it's always self condemnation. 413 00:30:48.940 --> 00:30:55.980 And we feel that as this tightness or as this this anxiousness or this slight heaviness or this 414 00:30:56.380 --> 00:31:03.980 Another way that some people might refer to it as is just you feel slightly dark in here. There's this whole thing of 415 00:31:04.340 --> 00:31:13.260 Oh my goodness. Okay, now this is what I really want for myself or, you know, got to get back into it or if ever we have this thing of I'm not already there. 416 00:31:13.500 --> 00:31:40.460 Whatever it is you're feeling when you think I'm not already there that right there is is the thing that we that means that we're striving. Yeah, it's it. So we have to understand, you know, rest is my nature rest my home rest owns for me. Also, remember that Sabbath was made for me and not man for the Sabbath. So Sabbath is rest. So for me, I'm not, not 417 00:31:41.020 --> 00:31:51.820 Not man for rest. So we don't have to work or rest. We don't have to strive for it. There's nothing we have to do for it. There's nothing we have to do to get there. Nothing. We have to 418 00:31:52.700 --> 00:32:00.140 Settle into it. It's our now. What we have to do is to release everything that's standing in the way 419 00:32:01.900 --> 00:32:06.860 And it and that's the thing that we have to do. And it's actually not something that we're doing. 420 00:32:06.860 --> 00:32:11.500 So that's the whole thing. We've got to stop that and 421 00:32:13.500 --> 00:32:22.620 We've got to stop that, you know, we've got this container here and this is us and then we've got filled with whatever. Sorry, I'm going to use a different marker so it doesn't 422 00:32:22.620 --> 00:32:42.940 So that y'all can see that the difference when it's filled up with something else. If we're not striving to get rest. Really, what we have to do is all of that angst and anxiety in us is the frustration that we feel when because this thing doesn't belong in here. It's not natural for this thing. 423 00:32:42.940 --> 00:32:53.420 It's not natural for this to fill. And so when we're finally acknowledging that when we're finally acknowledging our nature. That's when that said that feeling of being upset or that feeling of 424 00:32:54.300 --> 00:33:06.140 Of work or whatever. That's what that thing is. It's us finally recognizing the fact that this and this are not playing nice. And so we have to instead 425 00:33:06.140 --> 00:33:11.260 You know, just release it just stop doing whatever it is we're doing. Just, just, you know, just 426 00:33:12.060 --> 00:33:22.540 Just stop just release it. And if we release it and we'll let go of it because the only thing that's holding it there is the fact that we're pulling it down. If the, if we just open our hands, so to speak, and release it. 427 00:33:22.540 --> 00:33:31.740 It's not our nature, so it'll naturally be drafted anyway. And then what's going to settle down in is everything out of heaven that this container was made for effortlessly 428 00:33:32.020 --> 00:33:46.260 And this container. It's the very essence and the very nature of it is rest itself. So you will naturally it will naturally allow your, your nature to shine forth because rest is not something that you're attending to the rest is something that you 429 00:33:46.260 --> 00:34:02.820 In a way, it's something that you are. Yeah, you want yourself that would really like lead open you up to more like spirit led product production, instead of just like, okay, here's the list that I need to 430 00:34:02.820 --> 00:34:19.300 Get done, but it's more spirit led. So you're working out of a place of rest and his timing and whatever and not doing your, the extra tasks like I'm talking about like on a practical day is, is that what that would flow out as 431 00:34:20.540 --> 00:34:24.100 Well, so you're wondering how it will evidence when you're in a place of rest. 432 00:34:24.420 --> 00:34:24.739 Right. 433 00:34:24.739 --> 00:34:33.260 So it's, it's interesting. I'm trying to think of how to go at this because there's like this process and when 434 00:34:34.179 --> 00:34:45.540 Basically, what it is that we want to eventually get to what God is doing is he's maturing us as a parent. So when we, we are spirit led 435 00:34:45.540 --> 00:34:56.219 But we have to remember that we're that we abide in in God. Oh, and this is something I haven't gotten into. Let me just cover really quickly because I don't know if I'm going to be able to get to it, but 436 00:34:57.420 --> 00:35:05.660 I'm going to go ahead and I'm going to go ahead and I'm going to go ahead and I'm going to go ahead and I'm going to go ahead and I'm going to go ahead and 437 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:03.680 way. So remember that we're one with Christ, so 438 00:35:03.680 --> 00:35:07.680 you know, we were taken out of Christ, we've been reinserted back into Christ, 439 00:35:07.680 --> 00:35:11.520 I abide in Christ, Christ abides in me, we abide in the Father, and the Father 440 00:35:11.520 --> 00:35:14.880 abides in us, so we're all one. Therefore I'm always about my Father's 441 00:35:14.880 --> 00:35:18.080 business. So the Father is constantly moving. 442 00:35:18.080 --> 00:35:22.960 That's the essence of who the Father is, is it's always flow, He's never stagnant. 443 00:35:22.960 --> 00:35:26.400 So He's flowing, and as He's flowing, if we're in Him, 444 00:35:26.400 --> 00:35:30.320 then what's flowing through Him, His very essence, is flowing 445 00:35:30.320 --> 00:35:34.720 through us. Therefore we're always in the 446 00:35:34.720 --> 00:35:38.400 Father's heart. We always know what the Father's heart is. 447 00:35:38.400 --> 00:35:42.080 So operating out of that place, we're always going to be 448 00:35:42.080 --> 00:35:46.080 operating according to the Spirit. We're just allowing the Father to flow 449 00:35:46.080 --> 00:35:49.120 through us, because we're in that place of rest, where we're not having to do 450 00:35:49.120 --> 00:35:53.200 anything to try to please the Father. We're sitting in His heart, and we feel 451 00:35:53.280 --> 00:35:57.280 Him flow through us, and then we let Him, as He flows 452 00:35:57.280 --> 00:36:01.600 through us, we allow that to flow out into the 453 00:36:01.600 --> 00:36:05.440 earth. Then, because again, we're in a place 454 00:36:05.440 --> 00:36:07.920 of rest, then we're not, that means that we're 455 00:36:07.920 --> 00:36:12.080 going to manifest physically by the things that we do, by the things that on 456 00:36:12.080 --> 00:36:16.400 our to-do list, or the things that we decide that we want to do, or whatever. 457 00:36:16.400 --> 00:36:19.680 We can co-labor with God to make decisions. 458 00:36:19.680 --> 00:36:23.600 Spirit, what do you want me to do, and I do that. 459 00:36:23.600 --> 00:36:28.160 You're feeling the Father heart of the Lord. You're feeling what He 460 00:36:28.160 --> 00:36:31.600 desires. You're feeling the way He's feeling in a particular 461 00:36:31.600 --> 00:36:35.440 situation, when you're interacting with a particular person, or 462 00:36:35.440 --> 00:36:38.400 you're in a particular environment, you're in a particular room. You're 463 00:36:38.400 --> 00:36:42.160 feeling how the Father's feeling, and you act accordingly. Without the 464 00:36:42.160 --> 00:36:45.360 Father always saying, talk to this person, don't talk to this 465 00:36:45.360 --> 00:36:49.280 person. Don't offer to be part of this committee. Don't 466 00:36:49.280 --> 00:36:52.960 offer to be part of this committee. Eventually, as we mature, we get to the 467 00:36:52.960 --> 00:36:56.960 in the Lord, we get to the point where we just feel the Father's heart, 468 00:36:56.960 --> 00:37:00.160 and we co-labor with Him to make decisions. He's like, well, what do you 469 00:37:00.160 --> 00:37:04.400 want to do? That's what He asks me now, and I'm, and by 470 00:37:04.400 --> 00:37:07.360 no means as mature as I'm going to be, but the point is that He's brought me 471 00:37:07.360 --> 00:37:12.800 far enough along in this process, where now He'll, I'll ask Him, Lord, 472 00:37:12.800 --> 00:37:16.240 what should I do in this situation? He'll turn back around, and He'll 473 00:37:16.240 --> 00:37:19.760 throw it back at me. It's like, what do you want to do? 474 00:37:19.760 --> 00:37:22.720 I'm not used to being asked that question, Lord. 475 00:37:22.720 --> 00:37:26.480 It's like, well, I don't know. What do you want me to do? Well, I don't know. What do 476 00:37:26.480 --> 00:37:29.120 you want to do? I don't know, Lord. I want you to, I want 477 00:37:29.120 --> 00:37:32.000 to do whatever you want me to do, and He says, well, I want to do whatever you 478 00:37:32.000 --> 00:37:35.200 want to do, and then nothing ever happens. Right. He 479 00:37:35.200 --> 00:37:38.640 wants me to co-labor with Him, so that's how we can build our to-do 480 00:37:38.640 --> 00:37:42.560 lists. That's how we can decide what it is that we are and aren't going to do, 481 00:37:42.560 --> 00:37:45.680 is it's from the place of our identity, and 482 00:37:45.680 --> 00:37:48.800 in resting in that and understanding this is who I am, 483 00:37:48.800 --> 00:37:52.160 as opposed, and this is who the Father is, as opposed to 484 00:37:52.160 --> 00:37:56.160 these are all of the things outside of Him. If I knew myself outside of Him that 485 00:37:56.160 --> 00:38:00.480 I could do that He would be pleased with, all of these lists of do's and don'ts, 486 00:38:00.480 --> 00:38:03.280 that's a tree of knowledge of good and evil. 487 00:38:03.280 --> 00:38:06.400 If I just understand, no, I can rest and abide in Him, 488 00:38:06.400 --> 00:38:09.440 well, what is He doing right now? How does He feel right now? 489 00:38:09.440 --> 00:38:12.320 What according to this Father's heart does it sound like? 490 00:38:12.320 --> 00:38:17.680 What do I desire, because I'm in the Father and I feel His heart, 491 00:38:17.680 --> 00:38:20.800 what do I now desire being in Him and with Him? 492 00:38:20.800 --> 00:38:24.400 What do we desire to do in this situation? I desire to be part of this 493 00:38:24.400 --> 00:38:27.440 community. I desire to raise my hand and offer to 494 00:38:27.440 --> 00:38:33.760 help somebody with such and such. I desire to do these things today. 495 00:38:33.760 --> 00:38:37.440 We can make those decisions because we're in the Father's heart, as opposed 496 00:38:37.440 --> 00:38:42.240 to, as opposed to our old method of 497 00:38:42.240 --> 00:38:46.320 God would be pleased if I did all of those things. Right. It's now out of 498 00:38:46.320 --> 00:38:49.520 understanding we're abiding in Him. That's what 499 00:38:49.520 --> 00:38:53.760 being in rest is. Being in rest is just resting in the Father. We're just one 500 00:38:53.760 --> 00:38:58.000 and we operate from the Father's heart. I tried to, I know that I probably said 501 00:38:58.000 --> 00:39:02.880 that really quickly, so I don't know if that made sense at all. 502 00:39:02.880 --> 00:39:06.320 Yeah, yeah, because I feel like that's how I walk 503 00:39:06.320 --> 00:39:13.520 most of the time, but I've asked the Lord to stir up, you know, 504 00:39:13.520 --> 00:39:18.160 like when we started the stay-at-home orders and all that, I was like, 505 00:39:18.160 --> 00:39:22.000 okay, God, let's do something wild during this time. 506 00:39:22.000 --> 00:39:26.560 So here comes Ashley with her April Intensive. 507 00:39:26.560 --> 00:39:33.280 So I was excited about it, but I think, it's funny because I think that 508 00:39:33.280 --> 00:39:37.360 this week, like what we talked about last week, there was that one phrase that you 509 00:39:37.360 --> 00:39:39.840 used that I had shared with the group that was 510 00:39:39.840 --> 00:39:45.280 so huge for me, and I have had zero, and I feel 511 00:39:45.280 --> 00:39:50.080 like I have fought for it, like zero opportunity to sit down with 512 00:39:50.080 --> 00:39:54.000 the Lord and like think about it and meditate on 513 00:39:54.000 --> 00:39:58.400 it, which is what I want to do. Like I want time to like go over it and 514 00:39:58.400 --> 00:40:01.760 get it deep down in me. 515 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:05.760 and praise him for what he's doing and and stuff like that and then it's like 516 00:40:05.760 --> 00:40:10.560 anything that can't that can get in the way does get in the way and so I have 517 00:40:10.560 --> 00:40:17.240 felt this week more like fight in me to be like can you just leave me alone can 518 00:40:17.240 --> 00:40:21.560 the phone stop ringing can somebody stop asking me for a favor you know like we're 519 00:40:21.560 --> 00:40:24.400 all supposed to stay home and take care of ourselves right now why is everybody 520 00:40:24.400 --> 00:40:30.280 calling me you know type of a thing and I've just have felt that more this week 521 00:40:30.280 --> 00:40:35.720 and I'm like you know I haven't felt this for a long time and so it might it 522 00:40:35.720 --> 00:40:40.800 most likely it's just more that I need to to release and I need to pay 523 00:40:40.800 --> 00:40:46.440 attention to to release but I feel like I can't get the time and the moments to 524 00:40:46.440 --> 00:40:55.480 release it so this is perfect yeah this is real life this is where the rubber 525 00:40:55.480 --> 00:40:59.600 beats the road this is where rest applies yeah and it's not like I can 526 00:40:59.600 --> 00:41:04.960 neglect my children and be like no right on the wall if you want to like 527 00:41:04.960 --> 00:41:08.600 what don't who cares if you get lunch like it's not like I can like there's 528 00:41:08.600 --> 00:41:13.480 not things that I can throw off you know to do and I don't want to like I don't 529 00:41:13.480 --> 00:41:19.400 want to treat my that's not what I'm saying but it's like I'm like Lord can 530 00:41:19.400 --> 00:41:23.920 you like hide me somewhere so I can get this done how can we talk you know and 531 00:41:23.920 --> 00:41:29.240 it's just been kind of an interesting time so no no I think that this is 532 00:41:29.240 --> 00:41:33.240 perfect now I think that you're in a very interesting situation the fact that 533 00:41:33.240 --> 00:41:37.400 it's a little bit of a I don't want to say a bit of a pressure vice situation 534 00:41:37.400 --> 00:41:41.480 in order to learn this but this is exactly where it does apply in other 535 00:41:41.480 --> 00:41:45.560 words that sometimes like learning it in the in the situation in which you're 536 00:41:45.560 --> 00:41:50.200 in right well like oh my goodness Lord couldn't we have learned this a little 537 00:41:50.200 --> 00:41:56.040 easier you know and but you can absolutely learn it in this and I'm 538 00:41:56.040 --> 00:42:01.560 actually having to learn to rest and in my in the middle of a lot of a trauma 539 00:42:01.560 --> 00:42:06.040 that I'm trying to heal from so I feel I'm not in a toxic relationship but I 540 00:42:06.040 --> 00:42:09.840 feel the way I explained it to a friend of mine is I said I feel like I'm in a 541 00:42:09.840 --> 00:42:13.880 toxic relationship trying to heal from the toxic relationship as opposed to 542 00:42:13.880 --> 00:42:18.520 being able to get away from it heal from it and then come back and like test it 543 00:42:18.520 --> 00:42:23.880 you know slowly but slowly I said I'm in it and I'm having to heal from it and so 544 00:42:23.880 --> 00:42:28.520 just FYI I mean you absolutely can do it and I'm having to do it and learn rest 545 00:42:28.520 --> 00:42:33.560 in a particular area of my life like that and and that is the thing that for 546 00:42:33.560 --> 00:42:37.920 it so for one thing one of the things that we've been taught and that we have 547 00:42:37.920 --> 00:42:44.960 to get rid of is is the idea that we have to we have to get away from the 548 00:42:44.960 --> 00:42:50.880 Lord and we have away from Lord away with the Lord or like even have five 549 00:42:50.880 --> 00:42:55.120 minutes for ourselves you know to be able to focus on him or to meditate on 550 00:42:55.120 --> 00:42:58.760 something that all of those things that in other words that what it is that 551 00:42:58.760 --> 00:43:04.040 we're seeking for the magic sauce the thing that the vestibule in which in the 552 00:43:04.040 --> 00:43:09.360 vessel through which God in which God can transition me and shift me into 553 00:43:09.360 --> 00:43:16.080 something new is if I have time yeah quiet or if I have whatever and that's 554 00:43:16.080 --> 00:43:21.360 not true I mean God uses it absolutely but that's one of the things and here's 555 00:43:21.360 --> 00:43:25.720 what here's that and here's one of the ways that I know that God never leaves 556 00:43:25.720 --> 00:43:32.760 us in a place of lack or some people have time and others don't that's good 557 00:43:33.760 --> 00:43:42.400 some people are there there's some people that can okay like some of these 558 00:43:42.400 --> 00:43:46.240 people that say oh you can only be saved if you confess your with your mouth the 559 00:43:46.240 --> 00:43:52.080 Lord Jesus because you know there's that verse well some people can't talk God 560 00:43:52.080 --> 00:43:58.080 would not create somebody that literally is mute I don't know maybe they were 561 00:43:58.080 --> 00:44:02.560 born without a tongue maybe whatever and then and say oh you know what they can't 562 00:44:02.600 --> 00:44:06.360 become a Christian because they can't say the name of Lord Jesus God does not 563 00:44:06.360 --> 00:44:13.320 leave us in a place of lack if someone says okay well you have to let some 564 00:44:13.320 --> 00:44:17.160 people say oh well no the only way that you can break through in this area is if 565 00:44:17.160 --> 00:44:22.840 you fast long enough but then there are some people who literally cannot do that 566 00:44:22.840 --> 00:44:27.880 well so it brings condemnation to them because they're thinking okay well sure 567 00:44:27.880 --> 00:44:33.680 so-and-so can do that but I can't in my situation I'm sick I can't afford to I 568 00:44:33.680 --> 00:44:39.200 can't afford to fast I will die you know or whatever this case may be God God 569 00:44:39.200 --> 00:44:45.880 doesn't restrict the ways that we get to him and say well this is the only way 570 00:44:45.880 --> 00:44:49.600 that didn't work it just happened to work you know in somebody else's life 571 00:44:49.600 --> 00:44:58.680 like that so I just wanted to that that frustration that we feel that Lord if 572 00:44:58.680 --> 00:45:01.760 only I had 573 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.280 then I would do this for you because I'm willing. 574 00:45:04.280 --> 00:45:06.580 I'm willing, but Lord, I don't have the time, 575 00:45:06.580 --> 00:45:08.700 or Lord, I want to be able to meditate, 576 00:45:08.700 --> 00:45:12.260 but I can't think or whatever. 577 00:45:12.260 --> 00:45:17.260 We think that God is requiring us to do those things 578 00:45:17.620 --> 00:45:20.820 or that it's some principle that God has put into place 579 00:45:20.820 --> 00:45:24.280 that is required of us in order for us 580 00:45:24.280 --> 00:45:27.120 to be able to step into and be able to receive 581 00:45:27.140 --> 00:45:30.100 the inheritance that the Lord brings. 582 00:45:30.100 --> 00:45:32.980 And what that does is that type of belief 583 00:45:32.980 --> 00:45:36.420 and that type of faith, meaning like our faith 584 00:45:36.420 --> 00:45:38.380 that that's the way that it works, 585 00:45:38.380 --> 00:45:41.760 brings self-condemnation, and that is a big issue. 586 00:45:41.760 --> 00:45:44.620 Anything that brings self-condemnation is wrong. 587 00:45:44.620 --> 00:45:45.720 It's a problem. 588 00:45:45.720 --> 00:45:46.860 Yeah. 589 00:45:46.860 --> 00:45:50.100 So anyway, so I just want to relieve you of that. 590 00:45:51.220 --> 00:45:53.220 God isn't upset that you don't have the time. 591 00:45:53.220 --> 00:45:55.300 God isn't upset that, oh my goodness, 592 00:45:55.300 --> 00:45:56.740 you chose to give the kids lunch 593 00:45:57.240 --> 00:45:58.080 instead of spending time with me, 594 00:45:58.080 --> 00:46:00.640 or you chose to pick up the phone when your friend calls 595 00:46:01.560 --> 00:46:04.720 instead, even though you and I had set aside this time. 596 00:46:04.720 --> 00:46:06.640 God's not upset by things like that. 597 00:46:06.640 --> 00:46:08.360 That's not a problem. 598 00:46:08.360 --> 00:46:12.200 The way that we actually shift, you do not have, 599 00:46:12.200 --> 00:46:14.240 and here's basically what I'm trying to get down to. 600 00:46:14.240 --> 00:46:15.640 For one thing, I want to relieve us 601 00:46:15.640 --> 00:46:20.440 of any self-condemnation, and the second thing 602 00:46:20.440 --> 00:46:25.440 is that the, wow. 603 00:46:26.380 --> 00:46:28.260 Sorry, I went down a little rabbit trail in my mind 604 00:46:28.260 --> 00:46:30.380 thinking, oh, I should tell them about this, 605 00:46:30.380 --> 00:46:33.420 and it seems I did a lot of everything I was about to say. 606 00:46:33.420 --> 00:46:36.860 So because I lost that, let me go down the rabbit trail. 607 00:46:36.860 --> 00:46:39.020 I've said this before. 608 00:46:39.020 --> 00:46:42.100 If ever you find yourself in any situation 609 00:46:43.020 --> 00:46:45.540 that you're not happy with, you're frustrated with, 610 00:46:45.540 --> 00:46:47.540 you think God wants something, 611 00:46:47.540 --> 00:46:49.700 that we think God wants something of us, 612 00:46:50.900 --> 00:46:54.700 or we've done something that we think hurts somebody else, 613 00:46:54.700 --> 00:46:57.440 we've actually done something wrong. 614 00:46:57.440 --> 00:47:01.480 We have yelled at somebody, we've, I don't know. 615 00:47:01.480 --> 00:47:04.520 We didn't trust God with something, 616 00:47:04.520 --> 00:47:08.600 and that in our minds, this is one of the list of the don'ts 617 00:47:08.600 --> 00:47:11.280 or this is one of the things you don't do. 618 00:47:11.280 --> 00:47:12.120 You don't do and we do them. 619 00:47:12.120 --> 00:47:13.800 The very first thing we have to deal with, 620 00:47:13.800 --> 00:47:15.840 very first thing, and I tell all my clients this, 621 00:47:15.840 --> 00:47:18.320 ignore what it is you did and deal with the fact 622 00:47:18.320 --> 00:47:20.240 that you feel condemned for it. 623 00:47:20.240 --> 00:47:22.480 Deal with the shame, deal with the condemnation, 624 00:47:22.500 --> 00:47:26.700 and understand that we have to get rid of that first, period. 625 00:47:26.700 --> 00:47:29.780 After we understand, okay, look, okay, okay, 626 00:47:29.780 --> 00:47:30.860 I did that, whatever. 627 00:47:30.860 --> 00:47:32.620 I'm gonna ignore that, I'm gonna deal with that in a minute. 628 00:47:32.620 --> 00:47:34.140 What I should do to bring restitution, 629 00:47:34.140 --> 00:47:35.740 what I should do to bring reconciliation 630 00:47:35.740 --> 00:47:38.700 to the relationship, I will deal with that in a second. 631 00:47:38.700 --> 00:47:41.500 First of all, I need to understand that God says 632 00:47:41.500 --> 00:47:43.700 that there is therefore now no condemnation, 633 00:47:44.800 --> 00:47:48.140 that if I think God is requiring something of me 634 00:47:48.140 --> 00:47:52.220 and therefore that's a problem, that's wrong. 635 00:47:53.080 --> 00:47:54.800 That's a wrong way to think and deal with that shame first. 636 00:47:54.800 --> 00:47:57.760 Get rid of that shame, get rid of that condemnation. 637 00:47:57.760 --> 00:48:01.280 Remember that God doesn't hold any of that against us, 638 00:48:01.280 --> 00:48:04.200 that I've done that or I haven't done that, whatever. 639 00:48:04.200 --> 00:48:06.800 Get rid of that first and then deal with, 640 00:48:06.800 --> 00:48:08.320 okay, well, now that I've dealt with that, 641 00:48:08.320 --> 00:48:09.640 what should I do now? 642 00:48:09.640 --> 00:48:11.880 Now that I'm in the Father, I know I'm in the Father, 643 00:48:11.880 --> 00:48:16.840 everything's fine, what is in the Father's heart 644 00:48:16.840 --> 00:48:18.480 for me to bring reconciliation? 645 00:48:18.480 --> 00:48:23.380 What is in the Father's heart for me to do with my time? 646 00:48:23.380 --> 00:48:26.060 Did I do it the way that I should have 647 00:48:26.060 --> 00:48:29.500 or is it good if I made a different choice 648 00:48:29.500 --> 00:48:31.660 or could I make a different choice next time? 649 00:48:31.660 --> 00:48:35.660 Then you're able to make a decision from a healthier place. 650 00:48:35.660 --> 00:48:38.940 We can't make a decision about how to govern our lives 651 00:48:38.940 --> 00:48:41.420 and how to govern because God gives us the increase 652 00:48:41.420 --> 00:48:42.820 and we govern the increase. 653 00:48:42.820 --> 00:48:45.900 We cannot govern the increase from a healthy perspective 654 00:48:45.960 --> 00:48:48.680 if we're doing it from a place of shame and condemnation. 655 00:48:48.680 --> 00:48:51.520 So we have to deal with the shame and condemnation first. 656 00:48:51.520 --> 00:48:53.440 We have to come to a place to understand 657 00:48:53.440 --> 00:48:56.040 that we're resting, that we rest in freedom. 658 00:48:56.040 --> 00:48:59.400 Then we can make a decision about whatever it is 659 00:48:59.400 --> 00:49:00.520 we're trying to make a decision about. 660 00:49:00.520 --> 00:49:02.520 So I don't know if you felt like 661 00:49:02.520 --> 00:49:04.280 that was a really strange rabbit trail, 662 00:49:04.280 --> 00:49:06.520 but my first and foremost, 663 00:49:06.520 --> 00:49:10.800 I'm trying to release this all into freedom 664 00:49:10.800 --> 00:49:12.400 and all from condemnation 665 00:49:12.400 --> 00:49:14.520 and that's the root of all of these things. 666 00:49:14.540 --> 00:49:16.220 So I highly recommend that's what we do first. 667 00:49:16.220 --> 00:49:19.460 So don't ever feel bad or frustrated 668 00:49:19.460 --> 00:49:21.700 if something didn't work the way that you wanted to 669 00:49:21.700 --> 00:49:26.700 because that frustration, that stress, that anxiety, 670 00:49:26.780 --> 00:49:29.000 that shame, that condemnation is the first thing 671 00:49:29.000 --> 00:49:31.380 that has to be dealt with before the action. 672 00:49:31.380 --> 00:49:32.280 What should I have done? 673 00:49:32.280 --> 00:49:33.660 What shouldn't I have done? 674 00:49:33.660 --> 00:49:34.940 That's secondary. 675 00:49:34.940 --> 00:49:39.940 God's more concerned with our attitude towards it first. 676 00:49:40.500 --> 00:49:42.300 We can stand in the place of freedom 677 00:49:42.320 --> 00:49:44.000 and we can approach together. 678 00:49:45.520 --> 00:49:47.600 And what was the other thing I was gonna say? 679 00:49:47.600 --> 00:49:49.640 I was gonna say that was very important. 680 00:49:51.000 --> 00:49:54.720 Because you were talking about the time 681 00:49:54.720 --> 00:49:58.000 and oh shoot, that was really important. 682 00:49:58.000 --> 00:49:59.160 Sorry, I don't remember. 683 00:49:59.160 --> 00:50:00.360 Maybe I'll remember it. 684 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:08.800 second. Did I leave any part of your question unaddressed? Like, is it still confusing? Is 685 00:50:08.800 --> 00:50:12.320 there a part like, okay, well, you answered this, but you didn't answer my bigger question. 686 00:50:12.320 --> 00:50:14.960 Yeah, no, I think it's good. I think even while you were talking, 687 00:50:16.080 --> 00:50:25.200 condemnation was the first thing that the Lord used in my freedom. And so that resonates with 688 00:50:25.200 --> 00:50:30.560 me a lot. And while you were talking, I remembered something that somebody had said to me three or 689 00:50:30.560 --> 00:50:44.080 four years ago that has popped up this week and feeling like, oh, because I'm not getting these 690 00:50:44.080 --> 00:50:51.120 things done or whatever, or I'm being available for others, which I want to do. That's my first 691 00:50:51.120 --> 00:51:03.600 instinct to do. And that shows irresponsibility on my part. And it's like, I'm not a responsible 692 00:51:03.600 --> 00:51:13.920 person because I didn't also do, I did list A, but I didn't do list B. But Jesus is always in 693 00:51:13.920 --> 00:51:22.800 scripture. And I think always to me now, it's not the Pharisees that are like, well, the widow 694 00:51:22.800 --> 00:51:29.440 tithed to might, but we tithe even on, what did they say? Like their herbs and their spices and 695 00:51:29.440 --> 00:51:36.160 stuff. And Jesus is like, you have completely missed it. You have, hello. And so I think that's 696 00:51:36.160 --> 00:51:44.240 how, when that person said it to me, it came off as I was like, you have totally, no. And I rejected 697 00:51:44.240 --> 00:51:50.080 it like in the minute, but it kind of, as they say in the South, like got in my craw. And so every 698 00:51:50.080 --> 00:51:56.400 once in a while, it will, I will hear that voice again of like, this is because you're irresponsible. 699 00:51:56.400 --> 00:52:01.360 And I'm like, I don't know a soul in my life that would call me irresponsible. But then it's, 700 00:52:01.360 --> 00:52:07.200 but then I'm like, but it probably, I probably am. I'm probably lazy too. I don't know. 701 00:52:07.200 --> 00:52:12.720 You know, so I think, I think even while you talk, the Lord's like, there is another voice here that, 702 00:52:12.720 --> 00:52:22.560 that needs to be released and sent away. So yeah. Yeah, exactly. Yeah. In fact, there were 703 00:52:22.560 --> 00:52:30.480 people that had said some things to me, not even a year ago. I have been called, to my face, 704 00:52:30.480 --> 00:52:38.480 I was called prideful. I was called, what was it? I was called rebellious. I was called disrespectful 705 00:52:38.480 --> 00:52:44.160 of others. I was called selfish. I was told that my relationship with God was wrong. I mean, 706 00:52:44.160 --> 00:52:49.600 I'm not kidding. Those were the exact words. I'm not paraphrasing. I'm not saying, well, 707 00:52:49.600 --> 00:52:57.600 the context, no, no, they use those words. And that's not even true, but it hurt because there 708 00:52:57.600 --> 00:53:03.920 was a slight niggling in there wondering, well, what if God showed me that they weren't true? 709 00:53:03.920 --> 00:53:08.400 So this is interesting. And just in case it's helpful to anybody else, because this is a total 710 00:53:08.400 --> 00:53:15.840 side note, but I asked the Lord later, I was like, Lord, where were you when the, those people were 711 00:53:15.840 --> 00:53:20.320 saying those things to me? Because it was actually, it was actually two people together that, 712 00:53:20.320 --> 00:53:24.560 that were tagged to me and were saying those things over me. I'm like, I'm just like, 713 00:53:24.560 --> 00:53:29.920 Lord, I'm just shocked. Because like you Holly, I was like, I don't know anybody that would call 714 00:53:29.920 --> 00:53:35.120 me that. So I had to turn it off some family members and ask, am I really like this? And I'm 715 00:53:35.120 --> 00:53:39.840 like, oh my word, Ashley. I'm like, well, I just had to check. Because, you know, there's this 716 00:53:39.840 --> 00:53:44.880 like little seed that it kind of plants me of like, oh my word, am I irresponsible? I think, 717 00:53:44.880 --> 00:53:48.560 I don't remember if they use that word. There have been people that call me irresponsible. I'm like, 718 00:53:48.560 --> 00:53:54.160 that doesn't make any sense. But anyway, so I asked the Lord when those things, I mean, 719 00:53:54.160 --> 00:54:01.200 where he was when I was just being like tag teamed. And, and, and at first I didn't want to 720 00:54:01.200 --> 00:54:06.160 know. I didn't want to ask the Lord that because I thought that means then that he was there and 721 00:54:06.160 --> 00:54:10.640 he didn't do anything about it while I was being abused. Right. And I was like, I really don't 722 00:54:10.640 --> 00:54:16.560 want to know that he was there. But I thought, okay, Ashley, you know, just ask him, just ask 723 00:54:16.560 --> 00:54:20.320 him. I know that it sounds like it might hurt, but just ask him. So I did, I asked him, okay, Lord, 724 00:54:20.320 --> 00:54:24.240 where were you? Cause in my mind, I'm like, I cannot think of a possible scenario 725 00:54:24.240 --> 00:54:29.520 in which he was there and it would be okay there and it would feel, it would feel okay. 726 00:54:30.240 --> 00:54:35.040 And, uh, this is actually relevant. I know this sounds like I'm going off on a rabbit trail, 727 00:54:35.040 --> 00:54:41.200 but this is actually relevant to our identity. Um, he, so I asked him to give me a picture. 728 00:54:41.200 --> 00:54:47.280 And so what it was is in this, in this, um, in the situation I was in, I was sitting in a chair 729 00:54:47.280 --> 00:54:54.640 when people were coming at me. So I, I, I put myself back in the, in the, in the situation 730 00:54:54.640 --> 00:54:58.720 and, and I, and I was sitting in the chair cause I'm seeing it in my mind's eye. And I asked the 731 00:54:58.720 --> 00:54:59.920 Lord to show me. I was in the chair and I was sitting in the chair and I asked the Lord to show me 732 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:10.960 Where, where he was and I was shocked. He was sitting in my chair and I was in him. My arms were in him. My legs were in him. I was totally inside of him. 733 00:55:11.680 --> 00:55:21.720 And my head was in him everything except for the fact that there was like this much of a gap between my skin and his so I was so far into him that there was even 734 00:55:22.520 --> 00:55:28.720 There was like a buffer, if you will, a layer of him between me and the out and anything on the outside. 735 00:55:29.000 --> 00:55:40.360 So when these words I saw these words in my mind. I saw these words that were people were saying as like chunks, like, in other words, objects or arrows that were being thrown 736 00:55:41.320 --> 00:55:53.400 And at first I thought, oh, okay, so I'm in Christ and Christ is showing me that that they hit him and not me and they bounced off of him. And that's not what the picture showed 737 00:55:54.160 --> 00:56:07.720 Christ said instead that that that because those things were not true with him. And since I was in him and those things that were being said of him or being said of me weren't true with him, then they weren't true with me. 738 00:56:08.120 --> 00:56:19.000 And then he said they didn't bounce off of me, Ashley. He said, Ashley, they couldn't even didn't even have any force and power to come out of their mouths, because it wasn't true. 739 00:56:19.000 --> 00:56:20.320 It wasn't true. 740 00:56:21.480 --> 00:56:28.680 So what I saw was them them in there. I don't want to say their wickedness, but 741 00:56:29.120 --> 00:56:39.400 That the wicked things that they were saying did not even have the power evil didn't have the power to come forth beyond their perimeter beyond the perimeter of their mouth. 742 00:56:39.640 --> 00:57:00.880 To because because it those those because there was a greater truth that was present. And so those things that wanted to come out didn't even have power to come out when truth when it was in the presence of truth because it would have come out into the presence of truth and it didn't have any power to do that. So I say that 743 00:57:02.240 --> 00:57:05.640 I know that that was kind of like taking the like this thing that you actually meant 744 00:57:06.080 --> 00:57:06.480 No, it's 745 00:57:07.760 --> 00:57:16.280 Is a totally separate and point that you were trying to make that my point in bringing it up is the fact that God through that picture. 746 00:57:16.840 --> 00:57:28.960 Showed me an interesting layer to our identity and how that affects us that I am so one with him that not only could these things not can 747 00:57:29.400 --> 00:57:43.960 Hit me and and they didn't even deflect off of Christ, because they didn't even have the power to come out of the person's mouth. Now the person was saying them, but there was no there was no in the picture, like in the visual picture of everything. 748 00:57:44.280 --> 00:57:53.080 It not of their mouths. It stayed inside of them with them saying those things because it was almost like they were poisoning themselves. 749 00:57:53.560 --> 00:58:04.000 It didn't have any power to come out because the power of the Lord and the truth of the Lord is so pervasive that it will fill up an entire environment. Right. That is my identity. 750 00:58:04.760 --> 00:58:11.280 So, and so it didn't even matter if I've done those things or not. If it's not true Christ. It's not true me 751 00:58:11.720 --> 00:58:25.040 Because that old man has died. It was that old man that is the new man. Those things aren't true anymore. So anytime that we feel that we're irresponsible. Any time that we feel or like, oh, I wonder, I wonder if I'm like 752 00:58:25.880 --> 00:58:31.280 One of the biggest things that I fell with my whole life is feeling like I must be lazy and 753 00:58:32.240 --> 00:58:40.320 Then we think, okay, well, is it true Christ. No, it's not. Then it's not true of me because I'm a new man. This new man. 754 00:58:42.400 --> 00:58:42.720 Sorry. 755 00:58:44.040 --> 00:58:49.400 Okay, sorry. Someone's downstairs and opening something. Sorry, scared me and 756 00:58:50.840 --> 00:58:57.440 And if it's not true Christ and it's not true me because I am the new man and the new man is never send rather 757 00:58:58.040 --> 00:59:09.080 We've never sent at all. I'm not a sinner saved by grace. I have literally never sent. It's not my answer. Excuse me. So that's, that's, again, it's just my identity. 758 00:59:10.120 --> 00:59:12.880 There's no more always anything else that God 759 00:59:14.880 --> 00:59:15.200 Is 760 00:59:16.840 --> 00:59:22.120 I don't have to. So it doesn't matter if I complete everything on list. 761 00:59:22.720 --> 00:59:27.200 It doesn't matter if I complete everything on list. I could complete that. 762 00:59:28.680 --> 00:59:38.280 And it doesn't change who I am and it doesn't change how much he loves me and he's not. I'm not going to incur the wrath of God. I'm not going to incur his displeasure. 763 00:59:38.280 --> 01:00:03.160 And so doing or not doing anything has no bearing whatsoever on anything. It changed, whether or not I get blessings. It doesn't change on whether or not God looks favorably on me. It honestly, it just doesn't change anything because God gives me things based on what I've done and I'm not going to incur the wrath of God, I'm not going to incur his displeasure. 764 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.600 off of his nature, not on mine. 765 01:00:03.600 --> 01:00:09.120 And so anyway, I just wanted to mention that. So if we're 766 01:00:09.120 --> 01:00:14.640 wondering, oh Lord, you've provided me the opportunity to learn something new 767 01:00:14.640 --> 01:00:21.120 and I'd like to meditate on it. And so don't think that I 768 01:00:21.120 --> 01:00:26.160 am ignoring you, Lord. Don't think that I'm not trying. Don't 769 01:00:26.160 --> 01:00:29.440 think that I'm not willing. I'm just waiting for time. I'm just waiting for 770 01:00:29.440 --> 01:00:32.400 whatever. God's just like, no, I can give that to 771 01:00:32.400 --> 01:00:34.640 you. I can give that to you while you're 772 01:00:34.640 --> 01:00:39.840 going about your daily tasks. Right. And that, okay, finally I'm back to 773 01:00:39.840 --> 01:00:42.960 what it was that I knew that I was wanting to say, 774 01:00:42.960 --> 01:00:48.480 is that the Lord showed me back in 775 01:00:48.560 --> 01:00:52.080 December. He showed me this that I thought was so cool. 776 01:00:52.080 --> 01:00:58.000 So I saw a vision of a spirit man in the heaven. Okay, well first of all, 777 01:00:58.000 --> 01:01:01.360 I saw this soul that was trying to do something. It heard 778 01:01:01.360 --> 01:01:06.960 from the Lord, hey look, you can fix it. So the soul man went in and he's trying 779 01:01:06.960 --> 01:01:09.920 to fix it and he couldn't figure out how to fix it 780 01:01:09.920 --> 01:01:12.640 because God kept saying, no, that's not right. That's not right. That's not right. 781 01:01:12.640 --> 01:01:14.800 So the soul man's like, okay, apparently I don't know what I'm 782 01:01:14.800 --> 01:01:17.920 doing. So he stopped. Then all of a sudden that 783 01:01:17.920 --> 01:01:22.880 soul's spirit man came out of heaven and 784 01:01:22.880 --> 01:01:26.880 started doing the thing while the soul stood back and was watching 785 01:01:26.880 --> 01:01:30.800 his own spirit man because you know we're spiritual. 786 01:01:30.800 --> 01:01:33.840 The soul is watching the spirit man do it and he's like, 787 01:01:33.840 --> 01:01:38.480 huh, so that's how you do that. So in other words, 788 01:01:38.480 --> 01:01:42.400 the spirit can do things and we don't have to be 789 01:01:42.400 --> 01:01:47.120 conscious of what it is that the spirit is doing in order for it to happen. 790 01:01:47.120 --> 01:01:51.040 So in order for us to heal from traumas, in order for us 791 01:01:51.040 --> 01:01:54.800 to learn new things of the Lord, we, the soul, 792 01:01:54.800 --> 01:01:58.240 we've always done it backwards. We're always taught we have to learn all of 793 01:01:58.240 --> 01:02:01.600 these things. We have to go to more teachings. We have to 794 01:02:01.600 --> 01:02:06.000 hire a coach. We have to be part of an April Intensive. 795 01:02:06.000 --> 01:02:10.080 We have to listen. We have to read the Bible. 796 01:02:10.080 --> 01:02:14.160 We have to do all of these things in order to 797 01:02:14.160 --> 01:02:18.480 progress in our spiritual maturity and while it works, 798 01:02:18.480 --> 01:02:22.080 it's a much more exhausting way to live. It's 799 01:02:22.080 --> 01:02:26.080 going through the back door. God allows it, but it's going through the back door. 800 01:02:26.080 --> 01:02:31.120 It's still operating in worse. So God can, if we just, 801 01:02:31.120 --> 01:02:36.560 if we just allow our soul to stop doing everything, that's why I keep saying 802 01:02:36.560 --> 01:02:40.960 just to stop doing, stop, stop, then the soul will stop and 803 01:02:40.960 --> 01:02:45.680 that gives the spirit the chance to come in and do things and while it's doing it, 804 01:02:45.680 --> 01:02:49.520 the soul, so that's apparently how you do it. 805 01:02:49.520 --> 01:02:53.760 Or maybe the soul will realize it after the fact, 806 01:02:53.760 --> 01:02:58.480 but so in other words, you can't, so it's like learning things through 807 01:02:58.480 --> 01:03:02.080 osmosis. So you don't have to sit and meditate on 808 01:03:02.080 --> 01:03:05.680 anything in order to learn it. You can meditate 809 01:03:05.680 --> 01:03:08.640 on it and the Lord loves it. He talks about that. He talks about that in 810 01:03:08.640 --> 01:03:11.360 scripture. He talks about sowing and reaping in scripture. He talks about all 811 01:03:11.360 --> 01:03:14.560 of these things. They're not bad and they're not wrong, 812 01:03:14.560 --> 01:03:19.200 but we've grabbed him and thought that it was the only way that it 813 01:03:19.200 --> 01:03:23.360 could be done and it was the, that going in through the back door 814 01:03:23.360 --> 01:03:27.680 that our soul had to be conscious of it in order for anything to happen, 815 01:03:27.680 --> 01:03:31.280 to change in our subconscious. We had to work for it 816 01:03:31.280 --> 01:03:35.120 in order for anything to happen, even anything spiritual. 817 01:03:35.120 --> 01:03:39.920 Right. We can do it. It's going to take 10 times as long 818 01:03:39.920 --> 01:03:43.760 and it's going to be a lot harder. So we just wanted to again release all of us 819 01:03:43.760 --> 01:03:47.040 to know we don't have to have, we don't have to 820 01:03:47.040 --> 01:03:50.240 set aside the time. People don't have to be posting anything 821 01:03:50.240 --> 01:03:53.440 on Facebook, you know, for the April Intensive. They 822 01:03:53.440 --> 01:03:56.880 don't have to do the lives. They don't have to live. You honestly 823 01:03:56.880 --> 01:03:58.400 don't even have to listen to the teachings. 824 01:03:58.400 --> 01:04:04.080 You don't have to do any of it. God can, the problem is we don't know how to stop 825 01:04:04.080 --> 01:04:07.600 doing what we're doing. So that's what I try to explain in the teachings 826 01:04:07.600 --> 01:04:11.200 is to teach us how to stop and to start thinking from a different mindset. 827 01:04:11.200 --> 01:04:15.520 But as soon as we start realizing, oh, that's how I stopped working. 828 01:04:15.520 --> 01:04:20.720 That's how I stopped trying. Then our spirit will naturally come in and do 829 01:04:20.720 --> 01:04:24.000 what it's naturally created to do and it will 830 01:04:24.000 --> 01:04:27.840 be the problem. We'll learn all of those things by 831 01:04:27.840 --> 01:04:31.200 osmosis. We'll change through osmosis. We will change 832 01:04:31.200 --> 01:04:34.240 and we'll start bearing the fruits of the spirit like love, joy, peace, patience, 833 01:04:34.240 --> 01:04:39.440 kindness, goodness and all of that without knowing that that's what we're 834 01:04:39.440 --> 01:04:42.960 learning. The spirit is working behind the 835 01:04:42.960 --> 01:04:46.560 scenes while our mind is on, okay, my child just 836 01:04:46.560 --> 01:04:50.560 asked me for lunch. My child is about to hurt himself so I better go take 837 01:04:50.560 --> 01:04:53.520 care of that. Or I mean I'm getting a call from a friend 838 01:04:53.520 --> 01:04:57.680 at the umpteenth time. In the background, as long as we're in a 839 01:04:57.680 --> 01:05:01.760 place of rest, 840 01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:01.760 The spirit is healing us. 841 01:05:01.760 --> 01:05:04.400 The spirit is having it, is teaching us. 842 01:05:04.400 --> 01:05:05.840 We don't have to, 843 01:05:05.840 --> 01:05:08.360 I say we're already in the place of rest. 844 01:05:08.360 --> 01:05:11.480 The spirit can teach us how to be in a place of rest 845 01:05:12.520 --> 01:05:14.120 while we're going about our day. 846 01:05:14.120 --> 01:05:16.080 So we don't have to stop 847 01:05:16.080 --> 01:05:18.800 and learn something in order to implement it. 848 01:05:18.800 --> 01:05:21.880 We can, and it works, 849 01:05:21.880 --> 01:05:24.080 but it's more exhausting. 850 01:05:24.080 --> 01:05:25.040 Every now and then though, 851 01:05:25.040 --> 01:05:27.520 that's the way that our soul needs to learn 852 01:05:27.520 --> 01:05:30.360 because we're struggling to gain this new perspective. 853 01:05:30.360 --> 01:05:32.400 We can, what some people call, 854 01:05:32.400 --> 01:05:34.240 drop that down into our soul. 855 01:05:34.240 --> 01:05:35.680 We can find our soul again. 856 01:05:35.680 --> 01:05:38.280 Okay, now I feel like I'm on sure footing again. 857 01:05:38.280 --> 01:05:39.560 Okay, now I know this. 858 01:05:39.560 --> 01:05:41.880 It's kind of like putting the training wheels 859 01:05:41.880 --> 01:05:43.080 back on for a second. 860 01:05:43.080 --> 01:05:44.880 I just, okay, Lord, 861 01:05:44.880 --> 01:05:46.960 it's a little scary to cross the street right now 862 01:05:46.960 --> 01:05:50.680 and I can ride it on the sidewalk and be all wobbly, 863 01:05:50.680 --> 01:05:52.120 but I'm about to have to cross the street 864 01:05:52.120 --> 01:05:53.720 and that's really scary, 865 01:05:53.720 --> 01:05:56.680 feeling like without my training wheels. 866 01:05:56.720 --> 01:05:58.720 So let me stick my training wheels back on 867 01:05:58.720 --> 01:06:00.160 just to cross the street. 868 01:06:00.160 --> 01:06:01.440 And after I crossed the street, 869 01:06:01.440 --> 01:06:03.640 okay, now I feel a bit better to try again 870 01:06:03.640 --> 01:06:06.040 and take the training off and we could go again. 871 01:06:06.040 --> 01:06:07.440 That's okay. 872 01:06:07.440 --> 01:06:10.040 And I wanted to, again, relieve us of the fact 873 01:06:10.040 --> 01:06:12.160 that we don't have to worry that, 874 01:06:12.160 --> 01:06:14.640 oh, I thought I wasn't supposed to do this. 875 01:06:14.640 --> 01:06:17.000 No, we can do it whenever we need to. 876 01:06:17.000 --> 01:06:18.880 God's just providing us an opportunity 877 01:06:18.880 --> 01:06:21.000 to move into something else. 878 01:06:21.000 --> 01:06:23.440 And we might bounce back and forth. 879 01:06:23.440 --> 01:06:24.800 You know, today we're doing this. 880 01:06:24.800 --> 01:06:26.240 Tomorrow we do this. 881 01:06:26.800 --> 01:06:27.640 Today we're doing this again 882 01:06:27.640 --> 01:06:28.520 because this is what our soul needs. 883 01:06:28.520 --> 01:06:32.000 And then the next day, oh, but I want to try this again. 884 01:06:32.000 --> 01:06:34.040 There is for now no condemnation. 885 01:06:34.040 --> 01:06:37.160 We're not vilifying this anymore. 886 01:06:37.160 --> 01:06:39.640 I mean, as if like, oh, well that used to be okay 887 01:06:39.640 --> 01:06:40.560 and it's not anymore. 888 01:06:40.560 --> 01:06:41.520 We're not vilifying it. 889 01:06:41.520 --> 01:06:42.520 We're not saying it's evil. 890 01:06:42.520 --> 01:06:44.560 We're not saying it's not of the Lord. 891 01:06:44.560 --> 01:06:46.280 We're just saying, hey, there's another option. 892 01:06:46.280 --> 01:06:47.880 Do you want to move into that? 893 01:06:47.880 --> 01:06:49.800 And it depends on the day, depends on the moment, 894 01:06:49.800 --> 01:06:50.840 depends on the area of life 895 01:06:50.840 --> 01:06:52.200 that we're operating in at the moment 896 01:06:52.200 --> 01:06:54.800 as to which one we feel the most peace at, 897 01:06:54.800 --> 01:06:56.440 where we feel that our faith is at. 898 01:06:56.440 --> 01:06:58.080 And sometimes our peace is here. 899 01:06:58.080 --> 01:06:59.680 Sometimes our faith is here. 900 01:06:59.680 --> 01:07:01.280 And sometimes our faith is here. 901 01:07:01.280 --> 01:07:03.280 God wants us to operate wherever our faith 902 01:07:03.280 --> 01:07:05.800 and our peace is at and he'll meet us there. 903 01:07:05.800 --> 01:07:06.640 Yes. 904 01:07:07.840 --> 01:07:09.640 Okay, thank you. 905 01:07:09.640 --> 01:07:11.560 And thank y'all for your patience 906 01:07:11.560 --> 01:07:13.320 and all my talking and question. 907 01:07:19.200 --> 01:07:22.360 So it is actually 8.39. 908 01:07:22.360 --> 01:07:25.720 So if someone has another question, 909 01:07:25.720 --> 01:07:27.440 I can answer a question. 910 01:07:27.440 --> 01:07:32.440 Otherwise, we can, y'all can all go off to your evening. 911 01:07:32.440 --> 01:07:35.440 So it's just whatever y'all want to do with your time. 912 01:07:35.440 --> 01:07:39.120 So does anyone have anything before we get off? 913 01:07:39.120 --> 01:07:40.760 Maybe I should read it like that. 914 01:07:43.760 --> 01:07:45.560 Everybody's good? 915 01:07:45.560 --> 01:07:46.400 Okay. 916 01:07:49.440 --> 01:07:51.360 Does Carrie have something? 917 01:07:51.360 --> 01:07:52.760 Carrie, did you have something? 918 01:07:52.760 --> 01:07:56.560 No, I was just thinking that I don't have any questions 919 01:07:56.560 --> 01:07:57.640 as of right now. 920 01:07:59.280 --> 01:08:02.760 But yeah, I think I might sign off and head to bed. 921 01:08:02.760 --> 01:08:04.880 I didn't get to bed until after midnight last night 922 01:08:04.880 --> 01:08:07.080 because I was too engrossed in your teaching. 923 01:08:08.680 --> 01:08:10.200 I noticed how many people were on. 924 01:08:10.200 --> 01:08:12.400 I was like, I hope they know that I'm here. 925 01:08:12.400 --> 01:08:15.520 But I was like, I can't stop. 926 01:08:16.520 --> 01:08:20.200 I'm sorry I'm late because I had a client call. 927 01:08:20.200 --> 01:08:24.200 And then today I had a five-hour client call. 928 01:08:24.200 --> 01:08:25.720 Oh, my life. 929 01:08:25.720 --> 01:08:27.720 Yes, that is not normal. 930 01:08:27.720 --> 01:08:30.840 But for my one-on-one, 931 01:08:30.840 --> 01:08:33.319 the longest client call I've had was eight hours. 932 01:08:35.200 --> 01:08:37.080 And it was supposed to be like an hour, 933 01:08:37.080 --> 01:08:39.880 and we went eight because that's what the person needed. 934 01:08:41.600 --> 01:08:45.319 Anyway, I'm sorry that I was really late last night. 935 01:08:46.120 --> 01:08:48.479 Y'all could jump off at any time. 936 01:08:48.479 --> 01:08:51.359 Honestly, in the late hours of the evening 937 01:08:51.359 --> 01:08:54.240 is sometimes when my mind is just, 938 01:08:56.520 --> 01:08:58.279 there's no kids, there's nothing around. 939 01:08:58.279 --> 01:09:00.840 It's just silence and darkness, 940 01:09:00.840 --> 01:09:03.399 and I can just sit there and listen without any distraction. 941 01:09:03.399 --> 01:09:05.520 So it actually worked out really good. 942 01:09:05.520 --> 01:09:08.680 Late evenings, as much as I pay for them the next morning, 943 01:09:08.680 --> 01:09:12.399 it's where it works best right now for my season of life. 944 01:09:12.399 --> 01:09:14.279 So it worked out perfectly. 945 01:09:14.279 --> 01:09:15.840 Good. 946 01:09:15.840 --> 01:09:18.040 Well, it sounds like nobody has any questions 947 01:09:18.040 --> 01:09:19.439 unless you correct me. 948 01:09:19.439 --> 01:09:22.560 So good to get to see everybody. 949 01:09:22.560 --> 01:09:24.720 I was just gonna offer something real quick 950 01:09:24.720 --> 01:09:27.319 to tag onto what you shared, Ashley, 951 01:09:27.319 --> 01:09:30.319 that might be helpful for Holly as far as rest. 952 01:09:32.240 --> 01:09:36.080 It sounds like you're perceiving rest as inactivity, 953 01:09:36.080 --> 01:09:38.080 and when you have a bunch of little kids, 954 01:09:38.080 --> 01:09:40.160 that that isn't possible. 955 01:09:40.160 --> 01:09:42.680 And so I've had a bunch of little kids, 956 01:09:42.680 --> 01:09:43.680 and mine are grown now, 957 01:09:44.080 --> 01:09:45.920 but even without little kids, 958 01:09:45.920 --> 01:09:48.800 I could get really busy and focused on a list, 959 01:09:48.800 --> 01:09:51.439 and thinking that if I did certain things, 960 01:09:51.439 --> 01:09:53.040 I was more spiritual. 961 01:09:53.040 --> 01:09:55.840 And so I work as an independent contractor, 962 01:09:55.840 --> 01:09:58.680 so I can work as much or as little as I wanted. 963 01:09:58.680 --> 01:10:00.160 So I always felt like, well, 964 01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.920 I'll just work a couple hours, and then I'll do all these spiritual things the rest of the day and I 965 01:10:08.160 --> 01:10:12.440 Well first of all I was going to say so I would have a list or even just yeah things 966 01:10:12.440 --> 01:10:14.440 I was going to go do this happened yesterday and 967 01:10:15.320 --> 01:10:18.680 When I stopped at the first stop to pick up something from a friend 968 01:10:18.760 --> 01:10:23.320 She was out in the yard working and this woman is older and she's sick 969 01:10:23.320 --> 01:10:28.720 And so me and my son stopped and I said let's we can hit why didn't you tell me? 970 01:10:28.720 --> 01:10:31.080 I would have come early and helped you she goes well 971 01:10:31.080 --> 01:10:35.160 There's still plenty to do so I ended up spending an hour helping her in the yard 972 01:10:35.160 --> 01:10:38.840 And then the next thing on my list I realized I don't have time to do this 973 01:10:38.840 --> 01:10:42.880 I used to stress over things like that if they didn't go like I would plan out my day 974 01:10:42.880 --> 01:10:46.320 And I want to get all these things done. I'd feel really good about myself 975 01:10:46.600 --> 01:10:49.960 But I realized that if I surrender that list to the Lord 976 01:10:50.480 --> 01:10:55.280 Then there comes rest because I allow him to direct my day 977 01:10:55.280 --> 01:10:58.520 And so I ended up helping this friend when I got back in my car 978 01:10:58.520 --> 01:11:00.920 I didn't have time to do the next thing on my list 979 01:11:00.920 --> 01:11:02.920 I had to go home and get ready for dinner and 980 01:11:03.040 --> 01:11:08.200 It turned out like that next thing on my list would have been a waste of time and I see that all the time 981 01:11:08.800 --> 01:11:10.120 that 982 01:11:10.120 --> 01:11:16.040 Things I thought I had to do but they get interrupted is really the Lord directing my day 983 01:11:16.040 --> 01:11:20.960 and so I've just realized I just go oh guess I didn't need to do that today and 984 01:11:21.800 --> 01:11:25.360 It's really brought a lot of peace and so I feel like you know 985 01:11:25.360 --> 01:11:28.840 The rest is not being able to get away from that list 986 01:11:28.840 --> 01:11:32.960 but in the middle of that list allowing the Lord to direct you and 987 01:11:33.400 --> 01:11:38.200 Knowing that he is guiding you and that he's leading you in a place of rest 988 01:11:38.280 --> 01:11:41.000 He eliminates the things you don't need to do 989 01:11:41.000 --> 01:11:47.480 So even in the natural brings more quote-unquote rest because he's kind of sifting your list for you 990 01:11:48.320 --> 01:11:51.840 But on then the other thing I was going to share about that was that 991 01:11:52.200 --> 01:11:56.200 So I had this mentality that like if I just work two hours a day in my job 992 01:11:56.200 --> 01:12:00.880 then I can have all this time to work on other stuff that I thought was more pleasing to God or that would make 993 01:12:00.880 --> 01:12:05.680 me closer to God or that would make you know, make me feel more loved or more whatever and 994 01:12:06.840 --> 01:12:08.840 Just recently. I 995 01:12:09.760 --> 01:12:16.480 Mission that God as a father hasn't gets the most pleasure out of us enjoying ourselves 996 01:12:16.640 --> 01:12:24.600 and I admitted to myself how much I loved my job and I started doing it more and 997 01:12:24.840 --> 01:12:30.560 I was like, of course, you're pleased with this. I'm pleased when my kids are enjoying what they're doing 998 01:12:31.160 --> 01:12:34.120 Instead of trying to do all these things that they think are gonna please me 999 01:12:34.440 --> 01:12:38.640 It's like no, you're the happiest as a parent when your kids are happy 1000 01:12:38.640 --> 01:12:40.320 and so I was like 1001 01:12:40.320 --> 01:12:41.200 I love my job 1002 01:12:41.240 --> 01:12:45.600 And so I've been working like all day and sometimes into the late evening 1003 01:12:45.600 --> 01:12:51.760 yes, but I've been like like shooting to the top of the sales team and 1004 01:12:52.200 --> 01:12:59.160 Just making sales every day and people are calling me people that have been in my industry for way longer than me 1005 01:12:59.160 --> 01:13:02.720 What are you doing? What are you doing? You know what? I'm just enjoying 1006 01:13:03.440 --> 01:13:08.840 Myself and I just allowed myself to enjoy what was right in front of me instead of thinking 1007 01:13:08.840 --> 01:13:13.240 I had to do all these other things and I know that the father is taking pleasure in that 1008 01:13:13.240 --> 01:13:18.640 I don't I used to be like you I get up in the middle of the night to spend time with the Lord and 1009 01:13:19.400 --> 01:13:26.080 I'm not I know if I sacrifice and then quote and Ashley that it's painful that God will meet me there 1010 01:13:26.080 --> 01:13:31.720 Right, and you know, there was a time in my life where that was true, but I wasn't doing it out of striving 1011 01:13:31.720 --> 01:13:33.360 I would jump out of bed and go 1012 01:13:33.360 --> 01:13:37.240 I'm gonna spend time with the Lord because I wanted to in the middle of the night 1013 01:13:37.240 --> 01:13:42.120 But but I started doing it as a work like oh this used to be really so satisfying 1014 01:13:42.120 --> 01:13:47.800 Let me do this now because God will meet me there now and it was really just not working 1015 01:13:48.120 --> 01:13:53.360 So I gave up on and I was like, you know what? He's happy with me when I'm in my cozy bed 1016 01:13:53.960 --> 01:13:56.080 enjoying a good night's sleep and 1017 01:13:56.840 --> 01:14:02.880 You know just started learning all this stuff listening to Ashley and so that that's when I got the revelation 1018 01:14:02.880 --> 01:14:07.480 You know what? I really love my job. So I would just encourage you to 1019 01:14:09.640 --> 01:14:15.920 You know in the midst of that what you have to do just to enjoy what you're doing and 1020 01:14:16.440 --> 01:14:18.560 And know that the father's pleased 1021 01:14:19.320 --> 01:14:24.520 With it. He's just pleased with you being a mom and the other thing about speaking to you 1022 01:14:24.520 --> 01:14:27.720 I because when my kids were little I never had time to sit with the Lord very much 1023 01:14:27.720 --> 01:14:31.560 I'd go in my room shut my door for two seconds before you get interrupted, but 1024 01:14:32.360 --> 01:14:35.720 Because I've been a Christian for a long time 27 years, but um 1025 01:14:36.240 --> 01:14:38.240 But I would ask the Lord a question 1026 01:14:38.680 --> 01:14:43.360 Like your question might be how do I enter that rest that Ashley's talking about? 1027 01:14:43.360 --> 01:14:49.880 They don't feel like I'm there and I would know I just leave it with him and like at some point washing dishes 1028 01:14:50.120 --> 01:14:54.800 Changing the diaper it would just come to me and the Lord just reveal the answer to me 1029 01:14:55.040 --> 01:14:59.920 So and I you know, it wasn't like hours of meditation or even spending 1030 01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:03.840 quote-unquote spending time with him. He would just and I got to the point where 1031 01:15:03.840 --> 01:15:06.080 I knew that would happen if I asked the Lord a 1032 01:15:06.080 --> 01:15:09.600 heartfelt question like Lord show me the answer to this 1033 01:15:09.600 --> 01:15:12.720 and then it was I just got to be like a game and I 1034 01:15:12.720 --> 01:15:17.360 I would know within 24 to 48 hours he would drop the answer in my spirit 1035 01:15:17.360 --> 01:15:21.120 when I wasn't even thinking about it. So it's true what 1036 01:15:21.120 --> 01:15:24.320 Ashley's saying like he is in the midst of everything you're doing 1037 01:15:24.320 --> 01:15:27.520 he's not separate from that you don't have to you're not 1038 01:15:27.520 --> 01:15:31.040 lacking time with him you're he's with you all the time 1039 01:15:31.040 --> 01:15:34.560 so I know sometimes you want like that time just to be alone 1040 01:15:34.560 --> 01:15:38.000 and you can ask him for that but also ask him just to 1041 01:15:38.000 --> 01:15:43.520 just speak to you in the middle yeah did it seem like from what I said 1042 01:15:43.520 --> 01:15:50.560 that I um didn't know how to do that or that I am 1043 01:15:50.560 --> 01:15:55.120 struggling to rest is that what you heard me say 1044 01:15:55.120 --> 01:15:59.120 well you were just asking about time away so he could be with the Lord and 1045 01:15:59.120 --> 01:16:02.320 all and the rest so I just thought maybe that would be helpful to you 1046 01:16:02.320 --> 01:16:09.600 yeah if not no that's fine I just I was wondering what you heard me say 1047 01:16:09.600 --> 01:16:13.920 also so that's good feedback 1048 01:16:13.920 --> 01:16:17.040 yeah yeah no no Holly don't worry you um 1049 01:16:17.040 --> 01:16:20.720 no you weren't struggling with rest you were just asking specifically about 1050 01:16:20.720 --> 01:16:24.160 like you know the uh what would you say is 1051 01:16:24.160 --> 01:16:27.520 that you were talking about you know well in entering into his rest 1052 01:16:27.520 --> 01:16:30.320 I feel like I'm entering into his rest but you were wondering if there was 1053 01:16:30.320 --> 01:16:34.400 still an element of striving right in entering is that you were 1054 01:16:34.400 --> 01:16:37.200 wondering about it did I understand correctly 1055 01:16:37.200 --> 01:16:43.920 yes yes that's fine yeah yeah the striving of entering 1056 01:16:44.560 --> 01:16:47.840 into his right and in entering into the rest and so 1057 01:16:47.840 --> 01:16:51.440 um because yeah and then anyway so hopefully I answered 1058 01:16:52.320 --> 01:16:56.880 no yes absolutely I'm fine yeah that was good 1059 01:16:56.880 --> 01:17:01.680 yeah by the way a total side note but it reminded me um I don't know if y'all 1060 01:17:01.680 --> 01:17:04.080 know that well no I think you may know 1061 01:17:04.080 --> 01:17:07.200 because I think that that any of you may have mentioned this 1062 01:17:07.200 --> 01:17:11.280 she gave me this book oh I love it she wrote this book was it six years ago 1063 01:17:11.280 --> 01:17:14.880 I think something like that I don't know if you can like backwards 1064 01:17:14.880 --> 01:17:18.400 however eight amazing kids in spite of myself 1065 01:17:18.400 --> 01:17:23.120 oh cool yeah so she's she's really uh she's really fun 1066 01:17:23.120 --> 01:17:27.920 she is actually a parenting coach so she's a lot of fun for for me to talk to 1067 01:17:27.920 --> 01:17:31.600 you and get to hear like what she um how she raised her eight her eight kids I 1068 01:17:31.600 --> 01:17:34.800 think there's our oldest is like 40 and 1069 01:17:34.800 --> 01:17:40.720 their youngest is 17 is that right amy almost 42 almost 42 there you go 1070 01:17:40.720 --> 01:17:46.800 there you go really fun to talk to but yeah anyway thank y'all so much good 1071 01:17:46.800 --> 01:17:51.440 to see y'all yeah thank you ashley yeah 1072 01:17:51.440 --> 01:17:58.480 good stuff bye thanks for sharing holly yes thank you amy 1073 01:17:58.480 --> 01:18:01.760 you're welcome y'all have a good night praying for all y'all thanks for your 1074 01:18:01.760 --> 01:18:07.120 prayers absolutely appreciate it 1075 01:18:07.120 --> 01:18:12.240 bye