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Good. You are the first person tonight. I've never had this happen, where I know you, especially stuff decks is usually the first person on here. And so I have literally never and never been where

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People it's what almost like eight after and there's like nobody

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Weird. I know people are going to eventually jump on because

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Anyway, so kind of strange.

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That's funny. That's so funny.

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I can't believe you made it. That's wonderful.

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It was great. Great.

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Marco Polo. Perfect. Yes. Good.

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Excellent.

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So excited.

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How to have dominion and how to do that. But so it's not like, oh, this is like this magical formula and it works like this every time. It's that God's like, okay, I want them to to trust me. I want them to know that I come through. And so he starts talking. He's, he's, we're gaining. He's gaining our trust, so to speak, and then eventually so that we trust.

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Not on how it manifests, but right now when we're young, when we're like first stepping out in it like, I don't know, that's gonna work.

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He like shows that he's like, see, I told you, I'm going to be there and like, oh, wow, you really and then eventually we don't have to actually see it in order for it to us to still believe his character is so now I'll ask him for things. Hey, Amy.

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And now I'll ask him for things and

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And it's really, it's really interesting that sometimes things haven't worked out exactly the way that I had anticipated. And hey, Carrie.

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But I'm still learning I and I don't try. I don't question his character. So because my mom. I'm now all

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The whole how it worked out and having

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I no longer I no longer and hold his character hostage.

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And so whatever happens happens. I'm like, oh, well, it didn't change the fact that I know for sure that God's good like isn't I still feel it isn't I still trust it. I still have faith. It's not like, oh, well, I know God's good, but I'm hurt. No, I'm like, I'm not hurt. Okay, well, I don't understand. And so I'll ask, okay, so

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So is this me. So is there something in some way that I wasn't believing. Is there some way that I was thinking that your character wasn't something that it actually is, you know, it is again this whole journey. But anyway, but yeah.

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Time I tell someone, hey, look, step out in faith and just do it. Okay. And they do it. It works every single time.

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No, I want them to know. Anyway, yeah.

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No, I want them to know. Anyway.

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Yeah, so this is Carrie I was telling Susan, it's her first time to be on here with all of you, but she watches the replays because normally she's with her.

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First preparing for worship you prepare for you like

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Yeah, well, I, I'm my title is producer.

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Which means everything. I'm like, you know, coordinating everything, putting it all together. So

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She doesn't usually

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Hasn't been able to make it the past several times. So excited. Yeah.

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Well, and I have

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Have one question to start out with. So carries. I appreciate that. By the way, how you feeling.

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I'm feeling good. Yeah, I'm just very, very pregnant.

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Very pregnant.

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August nine

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August nine on my word. So, well, a month and a half.

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Yeah, yeah, month and a half. Yeah.

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Well, um, okay. So anyway, so your question. And so what carried asked in in the Facebook group. She asked this day, which I appreciate having a question like start the ball rolling

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And that is, and she was she was as well.

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I hate to reword it. How would you, how would you word it, Gary?

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I was just wondering how to know

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For sure, or if there is a way to know that God promised you something versus I want this

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And I'm just hoping that he's this good that he's going to show up in this area. I was thinking specifically about the house. We've been looking at and stuff.

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So I think most of you guys saw that post

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So that's kind of a little bit of the background story like how and Josh and I have still been working through all that like how

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do we know that if if that's a house that God promised us versus just

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that has always been a dream of mine and

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I really hope and I believe that God's gonna come through for us in that. So yeah, that makes sense. Yes

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First of all, I wanted to mention something that I didn't mention last time and that is the fact that

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That you know how everything was just seemed like it was just

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There was God's hand in it the whole time. You're like, oh my word is just so obvious

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You know all of these things that shouldn't happen are happening. But then when it finally came down to it, it didn't happen

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You know, you know that at that time and in that moment

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So what on earth is going on and then it can kind of if we're not careful just kind of we can kind of write off

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Everything that happened over that point

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But a lot of times what God is doing is and I hadn't mentioned this last time is it's the fact that

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That he's trying to prove. Hey, look you thought I couldn't do it and look not just once but how many things I made sure

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Happened so that you could know I can do it at any time

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So mean that the fact that you don't that I haven't manifested that

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for you

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Doesn't mean that I can't at a moment's notice

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So he's trying to build the faith in his character in fact that on my word

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It's so obvious. He really can't really do whatever and so it's not reflective of some kind of like meanness in his character

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We're like a tease

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It's the opposite. He's trying to prove his goodness not prove the fact that oh look I could do anything

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But I'm not going to it's just so that so that you know, you know that okay

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So if we don't have it yet, if there's if it hasn't manifested yet, there's some

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God God's very aware of it. He's very hands-on and

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And he's in there. Y'all are still taking taking your journey

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Now what what y'all are gonna learn in that journey and an old purpose of the fact of well, it'll come eventually

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But it's not right now that I don't know, you know

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We just it's all part of like taking this journey and trusting Lord

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So I just wanted to mention that is that it's still evidence of God's goodness. God's like you look I'm proving

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then as far as like something actually

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That yet this is something that God has for y'all

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Again, you don't have to have he did it's not like you have to know what it is

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Exactly that God's promised in order to be able to focus on that thing and bring it into the manifestation

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Like Lord, I need an object. I need something to believe you for we don't need to believe God for anything specific

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We need to believe his character that he is that good that he is that love and then just allow him to manifest it

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however, he desires and

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so we can't we don't have to worry that oh what if this is what God wants for us or

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What if it isn't and I and I really need to know because I need to believe in for things and that may not be

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What you're asking but I do know that that's what a friend of mine has talked to me a lot about recently

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Well, you know Lord

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I've been asking Lord for a specific amount because I need to believe him for something and and I and they're not asking my opinion

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So I didn't tell them my opinion, but I'm thinking no, no, you don't need to believe him or anything

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You don't need a specific dollar not to believe him for or you just you just need to believe his his character

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In fact that he will provide and then back off and just focus with our full expectation on him

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and not on what it is that we are

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I mean lack of a better phrase of vision or a picture

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Um, so we don't have to have that weight of

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Is it okay to latch on to this house?

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Is it okay to or is it wrong to latch on to this house? We don't want to

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latch on to anything and

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We want to focus on we want to expect

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have our

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in the Lord. We can desire things, but to attach ourselves where we're

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subconsciously obligating God. God, I'm holding you accountable to come through

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in this way and give this thing to me. That is an unhealthy attachment. Desiring

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something and enjoying it and all that, there's nothing wrong with that. That's

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perfectly fine. I just wanted to make that distinction.

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So as far as how do we know whether it's something that we just really, really,

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really, really want or it's something that's promised to us, that's something

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that we really honestly just have to journey with the Lord to

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understand. But I can say that in the journey, in learning how to do it, you're

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going to have kind of have two things going on at one time where there's an

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element of what it is that we're used to operating in. Like say for instance, we'll

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just make it easy and just say the soul, that we're used to operating in the soul

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and we're trying to learn how to operate in this spirit. And we can have a bit of

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both going on where it's best to like completely abandon one and move into the

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other, but we're learning how to do it. And so there's God's very

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understanding, and I don't mean that he turns a blind eye to it, but he's very

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understanding of the fact that there's going to be a transition phase of like

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trying to understand, okay, so Lord, I'm still trying to understand what this is

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but all I know is this. So I kind of need this to give myself a

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baseline of what this might possibly be because this is different than this one.

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And so you've got to have a kind of a way of comparing and you're like, okay,

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well, my part of my faith is here and part of my faith is here and I'm

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learning to, I'm learning to transition. So that's okay. And me, so in other

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words, there are ways we're like, okay, well, anyway, I just want to

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mention that. Hopefully that wasn't, that didn't confuse what I'm

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about to say. What you can do as far as practically, like how to begin to shift

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into this spirit when you're used to operating in the soul.

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So say, hey Jonathan, hi. Are you going to join us tonight? I'm so glad. How are you doing?

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He's never joined us for a Zoom call before. He's my friend. We've been in church together, so he's watching.

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I said, who is that? I said, it's Ashley.

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So for those of y'all who don't know, Jonathan is, he just graduated. It's a very big year for him.

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He graduated, he had his birthday all, right? What was it? Was it April part?

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He had a birthday parade led by the police and the fire department. Very exciting.

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And then they are about to move like on Monday. So it's a very big couple of months for him.

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Yeah, we've been busy. Sorry.

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But yeah, so Jonathan is very, very special. He senses the spirit. He's very, very sensitive to the spirit.

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So I like being around Jonathan. He's very, very peaceful because he knows the Lord.

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So anyway, what we can do as far as like practically in learning how to,

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and when we're learning how to shift is to look for where your peace is at.

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And so be okay with the fact that your peace might be here sometimes and your peace might be here sometimes.

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I know how to believe him like this. I know how to believe him for something.

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And Lord, my desire is for a house. My desire is for this specific house.

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And so to what level that you have peace, you can operate there.

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And if there's a measure of peace in which you believe, yeah, but God,

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I can believe your character without having to believe for a specific thing,

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without having to have an object on which I'm focused, then you can operate.

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You can believe him according to what measure of peace that you have here.

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So your peace may not be all in one camp or all in another.

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There can be a transition period in which you're just trying to learn.

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You're just trying to understand what is this? How does this feel?

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How do I know that I'm here versus here?

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And God's not just going to be like, well, until you get it perfect.

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And until you understand, it's just not going to work.

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No, he's very aware of that. It's the way that he created the world to work.

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And he wouldn't create the world to work in a way that.

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condemned us because, well, we weren't fully believing in one area or another, you know

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what I'm saying? So wherever you're filling your peace at, and remember that the peace is in your

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spirit. So, or when I say it's in your spirit, your peace is indicative of how much your soul

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believes, to what degree your soul believes God. So if your soul believes God, that God is

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X good, but he's not Y good, well then just believe that he's X good. God, I believe that

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you would give me a, this specific house, or a specific house, or I don't know, that would give

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me two-thirds of the things that I asked for, and I believe that you'd give me that much.

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And then there, but then there are other days in which you believe, no, I believe that he'd give

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me 100% of what I've asked for, and I believe specifically he'd give me this house. Then

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believe him for that. The point isn't him manifesting in a specific result, the point is

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you learning to, to trust how big that he is, and that's a journey to discover

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how much we're believing him, and to what extent that he says that we can believe him, etc. It's

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not this formula anymore that, oh, well, if this is how I feel, then this is what it means.

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Where we all have to learn that in our own relationship, I mean, that would be like,

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that would be like a marriage counselor thinking that they could make your, that, that your

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marriage is cookie cutter to everybody else's marriage, and they can tell you exactly what to

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say to your husband, and exactly what he needs to say to you in order to get the marriage to work.

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He doesn't. A marriage counselor can't do that. They can give you like general ideas, but then

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you have to figure out between the two of you and your relationship how it needs to work.

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It's the same thing with the Lord. It's all based off of relationship, and so therefore,

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I can give you kind of general, general direction, but you eventually, you have to

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ultimately work it out because you know the feelings between the two of you. I had to do

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the same thing, and, and I still do. I remember asking this to someone before, and like, okay,

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so how do I know if I'm out claiming God, and, and they gave me the same answer I'm giving you,

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which is that's something you have to work out, and, and just figure out with the Lord in

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relationship, the two of you on your own, but the general idea is to understand that He gives us

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grace to, to, to, to operate wherever our peace is at, and an element of our peace we feel in our

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soul, and we can reside there, and then the other element of our peace we feel in the Spirit

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because we're trying to learn to shift. They're both okay to abide in simultaneously in the

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transition as you're learning. Does that make sense at all, at least in a general direction?

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Yeah, that makes a lot of sense. Yeah, I, I feel like, I feel the contradiction

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majorly, like the past couple days to where there's things in my spirit that I have peace about,

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and at the same time, it's the, the only, the way that I know how to sum it up with the phrase that

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keeps coming to my mind is that I, I believe God is that good that He can give us that house,

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but His love for me isn't based on Him giving me that house,

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so at the same time, it's kind of, it's almost contradictory. You know what I'm saying?

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Um, yes, and yes, so, um, you believe, okay, yeah, yes, I do. However, be encouraged that

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it's not contradictory. Okay. No, in fact, that's perfect, because think about it. God,

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think about what the Israelites, the Israelites, God gave them a specific promise, and He said,

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um, okay, how did I, how did I read this? He gave them a specific promise, but the thing was that

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He was trying to express His character, but it, His character, but God would still be good even

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if He didn't give them the promised land. He could have given them something else. He could have not

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given them anything, and yet He would still not only be good, He would show them goodness,

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but He wanted them to see it in terms in which they understood, so He gave them an object that

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made sense in their world that if God would do this for me, that means He's good, so He was

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language, but you're right. He doesn't have to speak our language in order for God to speak His.

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to be speaking mine in order for him to still be loving me.

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or not he gives me that house, that doesn't change his love for me.

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loving you.

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mean he's not loving you and for you to get over the fact that, well, he has to speak

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my love language in order for me to love, for you to get over that and choose to receive

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love from him based off of how he wanted to communicate it as opposed to restricting

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him to how he wanted to receive it, that is, that's the maturity that he wants us to go

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in the other thing.

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I know he's so good that he would give me that house.

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I know that he would choose to also speak my love language, not just speak mine.

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So that's perfect.

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That's exactly how it needs to be.

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That is to trust him for a way for him manifesting himself in a specific way that's so easy for

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us to receive and we just love it, but to not hold him accountable to and obligated

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to or we refuse to receive, it's actually not a contradiction.

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It's exactly the way it should be.

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When I first started feeling that way, I felt like it almost put a fear in me that is my

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rest or my lack of resistance, is that just me basically giving up and dying on the floor?

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Is the assurance and the knowledge that God's just going to work everything out, is that

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my way of not having enough faith to manifest his promises sound injured?

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Does that make sense?

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You mean like letting go and kind of like, oh, well, God's going to provide all my clients

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so therefore all I have to do is put on the couch.

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That's been one thing.

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I know where our peace, I mean, we know where our peace is at very specifically.

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I need to just call.

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We need to have another one-on-one session.

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I can update you on everything.

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I feel like I'm going to bore all the other ladies here.

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But just to make it short, like Josh and I are still very much, our peace is very much

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that we're going to get the house.

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The house is under contract and we're like, okay, we don't know what to do.

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I was like, literally, like I have more peace going and starting to pack up our stuff than

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trusting him that even if we don't get the house, he still loves us and he's still good.

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So then I'm left between this, like not doing anything because I trust him and then trying

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to do something because I trust him.

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That's perfect.

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I don't know if that made any sense.

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Oh, it makes a hundred percent sense.

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I think of probably like one time out of a hundred, will somebody actually say something

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where like, I'm sorry, that doesn't make sense.

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Can you erase it?

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It sounds that confusing in all of our heads.

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So when someone says that, I'm like, I totally understand.

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Cause I thought nobody else would understand me that we all think like that.

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So yes, so the thing is that what, yeah, you're right.

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Stopping all activity, so to speak, unless God just gives you a piece for no activity,

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that usually it's indicative of the fact that we've given up.

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oh, well, I know God's got it.

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So I don't have to do, but really what we're saying is we're trying to make it really sound

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spiritual to us, but really you do not believe that anything, uh, that it's actually going

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to turn out.

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We don't believe that it's going to come through.

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do anything anyway.

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that it can often.

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How would I live my life? What activities would I do?

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We've associated doing things with a result.

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He didn't intend for it to be connected to a result.

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When God gave him dominion over creation, and yet he just told him, he said, I want you to govern it.

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I want you to have dominion over it.

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But that God would have still provided for the earth.

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It wasn't like, you know, and God still provides the increase and then Adam just governs it.

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We don't see value in activity and in doing things unrelated to actually using them,

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like grabbing creation and using it for our purposes in order to get a result.

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How do we have the opportunity to do things without that weight and burden of a responsibility

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that what it is we do makes or breaks the result?

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I said, I'm afraid that my action is trying to force God's hand into doing something if it's not actually what he wants.

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My actions would be in a way manipulating him into being like, basically another way to just hold him accountable.

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Like, look, don't you see all the things that I did?

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And you still didn't come through.

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Yeah, correct. So again, we want to abide in the Father.

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And abiding in the Father, okay, what do we want to do?

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God's going to provide the result regardless of what it is that I want to do.

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I mean, regardless of what it is that I do.

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You know, do we dance or do we, and I'm just, you know, making stuff up.

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Do we dance or do we go to a movie together?

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Meaning like not work on it, but like, do we do a Facebook post?

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What sounds fun for me to live and be without thinking that?

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Because see, when I interact with my clients, when I get on here, I do this because this is how I live my life.

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I don't do it because I'm serving my client.

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I don't do it because I'm making people happy and, or I'm trying to make people happy.

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I do it because this is how my spirit flows.

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This is how I've chosen to live my life with the Lord, abiding in my Father.

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What do I want to do today?

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I'm going to do this and I'm going to do that.

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I don't, I don't think that these things are getting me any kind of result or not getting me any kind of result.

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They're totally detached from a result.

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I am now living where my Father provides for me all the time.

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So if my Father provides for me all the time, what do I want to do with my life?

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What do I want to wake up and do since I'm not obligated to do anything?

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You're sensing your heart together.

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What, what activities do we want to do?

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Because God's taking care of the result.

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So what I do has no bearing on the results.

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So because I'm totally free of any obligation, what do I want to do?

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And, and then sometimes it's doing dishes.

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And I mean, it does all kinds of things because I'm no longer, I'm no longer trying to get a result.

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Because that's a burden that we put on the whole list.

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Like that's why it feels weighty and heavy and burdensome.

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is not manipulative.

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He laid in God or forcing his hands.

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It's when we're outside of relationship with him and we're looking at him separate from us. And okay, God, we're expecting. Okay, I'm learning that God's going to provide the result.

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So therefore, I don't want to do anything. And God's like, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. The whole purpose is

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Abide in me. Let's live life together. Let's do things together. So just focus on abiding me don't focus on doing anything focus on abiding in me. Okay, now that you're buying me. What do we want to do

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I'm taking care of the result. What do we want to do together, you know,

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That so you don't no longer have to worry about, am I doing something is my activity manipulating God, where is your piece that when you're abiding with the Lord. So just only focus on abiding with the Lord. Don't focus on what it is you're doing and should be doing

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And am I doing it right spirit and just forget all that it's it's complicated. It's burdensome. Just let it go and just think I want to abide in the Lord. Okay, abiding in the Lord sensing his heart sensing my heart.

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And his spirit flowing through mine. I remember that that remember what I always walk myself through Christ, I believe that I was taken out

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Me, me, my father and the father abides in us. Therefore, I'm always about my father's business. So for us all flowing together. What does it feel like we want to do today. And I just go and I do that.

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And in the end, and that's all God wants God wants us to live life abiding in him. And when we abide in him. We're going to do all of these activities that we decided together with the Father's heart to do

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So fun to do

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So, so trusting the father is not inactivity abiding rest is not inactivity abiding and rest means that the results are not attached and to my action and I'm

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My, my actions are totally detached and and there's no they're not dependent. That's what I was looking for. They're not dependent on my actions and it leaves me free to let my spirit flow and to do the things that make me feel a lot because I'm not obligated to do anything else.

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I'll be taken care of regardless

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That makes sense. I feel like

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That makes sense.

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Which is very typical

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But no, I think a lot of sense. It's, it felt like a really complicated question. And it's, it's, yeah, you made a lot of sense.

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Of the different all the different avenues that I was wondering

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That people crazy until I came to understand why God gave me that kind of thing is because it enables me to foresee because as a turnaround consultant, what I would do is I would see things and

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I would anticipate, and this is what I would be paid to do I it's kind of risk that what they refer to incorporate and corporate role is risk management where you anticipate all of the possible ways that something could go wrong and you plan for them and you mitigate the risk.

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So I say it's risk management, it's risk mitigation is what it is and you plan for all possible scenarios. And so I do that when I answer questions because I think not just the simple answer. I think, you know, what are all of the things that someone

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Before someone even has to ask. I mean, before they have to ask this question. So, yeah.

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Very cool picture and it gives people assurance that what it is that that are spoken in the Bible can be on any

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Settings like this, but when

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Your, your family. It doesn't always go over it.

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One thing. That's one thing I've always enjoyed about our conversations is that you make me feel very normal because you just come at it at all these different angles and you answer all these things before I even had to ask them, and I always enjoy that about you because you just add the next thing I was going to ask you is usually what you answer before you can get a chance to ask you.

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Thank you so much ladies, so much.

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Bye bye.

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Bye bye.

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They'd be like, Ashley, shorten the story, bullet point.

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I'm like, then it's not a good story.

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I don't want to tell it.

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They want like a sketch.

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I'm like, no, no, no.

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I want to make it like colorful and 3D,

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and no one would appreciate it.

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But God was preparing me for people

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like you who think it's important, so I appreciate it.

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So did you have any part of the question,

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though, honestly, that I didn't answer that it created a new one?

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you just take one day at a time right now and stuff like this.

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I mean, it feels like a whole different dynamic

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of a relationship that I, with the Lord,

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that I've never had to walk in before.

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And it's just, every day you just wake up,

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and you just live your day, and you kind of just, I don't know,

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float around in and out.

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It's been a very interesting experience,

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but I know you answered all of my questions, so thank you.

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So something, again, thinking and anticipation

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I encourage you, encourage all of us,

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to not condemn ourselves for how we journey as well,

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because it's not just the thing that we're struggling with.

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And I'm not saying that you're thinking this about your journey.

422
00:36:23.480 --> 00:36:24.880
But I have talked to other people

423
00:36:24.880 --> 00:36:27.760
that get concerned and think this about their journey,

424
00:36:27.760 --> 00:36:30.840
that they think, oh, it's not just the struggle that,

425
00:36:30.840 --> 00:36:34.040
you know, that I have, the thing that was triggered,

426
00:36:34.040 --> 00:36:36.520
the record that apparently it is that I had an accusation

427
00:36:36.520 --> 00:36:38.680
against God that I'm needing to deal with,

428
00:36:38.680 --> 00:36:41.040
but actually learning how to shift out of that.

429
00:36:41.040 --> 00:36:44.800
Oh, my word, Ashley, it's so messy, and it's so ugly,

430
00:36:44.800 --> 00:36:48.280
and I think badly about, you know, I shouldn't be like this,

431
00:36:48.280 --> 00:36:51.280
and it's probably very unhealthy.

432
00:36:51.280 --> 00:36:54.640
What we don't understand is also how we're journeying

433
00:36:54.640 --> 00:36:57.880
and how we're shifting are also things

434
00:36:57.880 --> 00:36:59.400
that are being triggered.

435
00:36:59.400 --> 00:37:05.200
The records of accusations that we've had against God,

436
00:37:05.200 --> 00:37:08.440
how we're journeying out of it, how we're shifting,

437
00:37:08.440 --> 00:37:11.320
and whether it's, quote, unquote, healthy or not,

438
00:37:11.320 --> 00:37:14.840
is also evident of accusations we have against the Lord.

439
00:37:14.840 --> 00:37:17.560
And we need to be okay with it.

440
00:37:17.560 --> 00:37:21.240
We need to be okay with the fact that not just what it is

441
00:37:21.240 --> 00:37:24.080
that we're trying to journey and shift from,

442
00:37:24.080 --> 00:37:27.400
but actually the process of the transition,

443
00:37:27.400 --> 00:37:30.240
we can sometimes condemn ourselves for thinking,

444
00:37:30.240 --> 00:37:32.600
I bet you this is not a healthy way to transition,

445
00:37:32.600 --> 00:37:34.880
but I don't know how to transition the other way.

446
00:37:34.880 --> 00:37:36.600
You know, and this is probably really bad.

447
00:37:36.600 --> 00:37:39.440
It's probably really unhealthy, and da-da-da-da-da-da.

448
00:37:39.440 --> 00:37:43.560
I was talking to someone the other one time

449
00:37:43.560 --> 00:37:45.360
who was talking to me about that,

450
00:37:45.360 --> 00:37:47.320
and I just wanted to assure them,

451
00:37:47.320 --> 00:37:51.240
like I want to assure us, that to have grace for ourselves,

452
00:37:51.240 --> 00:37:52.960
like we're learning to have for the struggle

453
00:37:52.960 --> 00:37:54.400
and where it is we're coming from

454
00:37:54.400 --> 00:37:55.960
and what it is that was revealed to us

455
00:37:55.960 --> 00:37:58.560
that God's like, hey, you've got this accusation against me.

456
00:37:58.560 --> 00:38:00.160
How do we journey out of that

457
00:38:00.160 --> 00:38:03.200
and the process of the shuffling and the,

458
00:38:03.200 --> 00:38:06.000
I'm in, I'm out, I'm operating in soul,

459
00:38:06.000 --> 00:38:08.280
and I'm operating in spirit, and I bounce back and forth,

460
00:38:08.280 --> 00:38:13.280
and I'm trying to, I'm battling the idea

461
00:38:13.680 --> 00:38:16.240
of spiritual warfare and clinging to that

462
00:38:16.240 --> 00:38:18.240
and trying to remember not have to cling to that,

463
00:38:18.240 --> 00:38:20.920
and actually this is probably just nothing unhealthy,

464
00:38:20.920 --> 00:38:22.160
and it's a problem.

465
00:38:22.160 --> 00:38:25.600
No, it's fine, so we need to have,

466
00:38:25.600 --> 00:38:28.160
we need to release the journey as well,

467
00:38:28.160 --> 00:38:30.720
not just release the struggle of the thing

468
00:38:30.720 --> 00:38:33.480
that was created in us like jealousy

469
00:38:33.480 --> 00:38:36.960
or hurt or anxiety or whatever,

470
00:38:36.960 --> 00:38:39.120
but anything that wells up in us

471
00:38:39.120 --> 00:38:41.480
that's in a state of resistance

472
00:38:41.480 --> 00:38:46.480
against how we are transitioning and shifting as well,

473
00:38:46.800 --> 00:38:49.080
we need to release that as well.

474
00:38:49.080 --> 00:38:50.400
Does that make sense?

475
00:38:50.400 --> 00:38:52.000
So you talked about the fact that you're like,

476
00:38:52.840 --> 00:38:54.400
oh, this is just so new, and I'm trying to figure it out.

477
00:38:54.400 --> 00:38:59.240
The figuring it out is still okay,

478
00:38:59.240 --> 00:39:01.680
and that's if you find yourself struggling

479
00:39:01.680 --> 00:39:03.520
against how you're figuring it out,

480
00:39:03.520 --> 00:39:05.080
you're thinking, I'm probably not figuring it out

481
00:39:05.080 --> 00:39:06.200
in a healthy way.

482
00:39:06.200 --> 00:39:07.560
No, let that go too.

483
00:39:08.880 --> 00:39:09.720
Is that helpful?

484
00:39:11.640 --> 00:39:12.840
Yeah, that makes a lot of sense.

485
00:39:12.840 --> 00:39:15.800
I was actually really enjoying the Facebook Live

486
00:39:15.800 --> 00:39:20.800
that you had about the spirit healing the soul.

487
00:39:21.120 --> 00:39:21.960
Oh, yeah.

488
00:39:21.960 --> 00:39:24.080
Yeah, because I hadn't gotten a chance to watch it

489
00:39:24.080 --> 00:39:25.240
until this week,

490
00:39:25.240 --> 00:39:27.440
and it has just been exactly what I needed this week

491
00:39:27.440 --> 00:39:29.360
because there's been times and days and nights

492
00:39:29.360 --> 00:39:31.000
when things just didn't make sense,

493
00:39:31.000 --> 00:39:34.200
and I had no idea what I was feeling, what was going on,

494
00:39:34.200 --> 00:39:37.240
and I could feel this tension building up inside of me,

495
00:39:37.240 --> 00:39:39.360
and I literally had no idea where it was coming from

496
00:39:39.360 --> 00:39:40.560
or what was going on,

497
00:39:40.560 --> 00:39:43.920
and that teaching was just so timely, so incredible.

498
00:39:43.920 --> 00:39:45.480
So I guess there was a reason why I waited

499
00:39:45.480 --> 00:39:48.440
like three weeks to watch it, two weeks,

500
00:39:48.480 --> 00:39:52.040
but it was, yeah, it's been an extremely helpful teaching

501
00:39:52.040 --> 00:39:53.400
through this time.

502
00:39:53.400 --> 00:39:54.240
Good, good.

503
00:39:54.240 --> 00:39:57.680
I think because you are the Lord,

504
00:39:57.680 --> 00:40:00.040
and the Lord knows when you need to hear what.

505
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:07.080
And so, you know, we think, oh, man, I'm behind or I'm, because people have told me that I'm

506
00:40:07.080 --> 00:40:08.080
behind.

507
00:40:08.080 --> 00:40:09.080
I'm like, no, you're not.

508
00:40:09.080 --> 00:40:10.080
You're not, you're not behind.

509
00:40:10.080 --> 00:40:11.960
It's that your journey is your journey with the Lord and the Lord knows when you need

510
00:40:11.960 --> 00:40:12.960
to hear what.

511
00:40:12.960 --> 00:40:18.680
And so, yeah, he just, he just guides us and, and, and we need to stop thinking it's got

512
00:40:18.680 --> 00:40:23.480
to happen a particular way and put this stranglehold of control on how we journey in life.

513
00:40:23.480 --> 00:40:28.080
And God's like, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no,

514
00:40:28.080 --> 00:40:29.080
no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.

515
00:40:29.080 --> 00:40:31.280
And so, yeah, that's good to know.

516
00:40:31.280 --> 00:40:33.400
That's good timing.

517
00:40:33.400 --> 00:40:37.240
So did anyone have any other questions?

518
00:40:37.240 --> 00:40:38.240
It's 8.48.

519
00:40:38.240 --> 00:40:39.240
Oh, it worked.

520
00:40:39.240 --> 00:40:41.480
How long was I talking?

521
00:40:41.480 --> 00:40:44.880
I'm thinking I just come on here and take up all the group sessions for the past two

522
00:40:44.880 --> 00:40:45.880
weeks.

523
00:40:45.880 --> 00:40:46.880
So I'm going to mute myself, not eat my eggs.

524
00:40:46.880 --> 00:40:47.880
Eggs and watermelon.

525
00:40:47.880 --> 00:40:48.880
Oh, we've got to be on camera.

526
00:40:48.880 --> 00:40:49.880
The half of the watermelon is in the fridge.

527
00:40:49.880 --> 00:40:50.880
So that's after my eggs.

528
00:40:50.880 --> 00:40:51.880
I'm going to be on camera.

529
00:40:51.880 --> 00:40:52.880
I'm going to be on camera.

530
00:40:52.880 --> 00:40:53.880
I'm going to be on camera.

531
00:40:53.880 --> 00:40:54.880
I'm going to be on camera.

532
00:40:54.880 --> 00:40:55.880
I'm going to be on camera.

533
00:40:55.880 --> 00:40:56.880
I'm going to be on camera.

534
00:40:56.880 --> 00:40:57.880
I'm going to be on camera.

535
00:40:57.880 --> 00:40:58.880
I'm going to be on camera.

536
00:40:59.680 --> 00:41:02.040
I just had my dinner and it was really good.

537
00:41:02.040 --> 00:41:03.760
It was really good.

538
00:41:03.760 --> 00:41:05.560
Amanda's mom made it for me.

539
00:41:05.560 --> 00:41:07.000
My best friend, she made me some.

540
00:41:07.000 --> 00:41:11.000
I call her, I call her Mama Janet.

541
00:41:11.000 --> 00:41:12.000
Her name's Janet.

542
00:41:12.000 --> 00:41:13.640
I call her Mama Janet.

543
00:41:13.640 --> 00:41:17.120
And so she made me some.

544
00:41:17.120 --> 00:41:21.700
Well, she had dinner and so she said, hey, you want dinner.

545
00:41:21.700 --> 00:41:25.180
I was like, I was not coming over here for dinner, but absolutely.

546
00:41:25.180 --> 00:41:31.420
I was coming to borrow the vacuum, but I will take it.

547
00:41:31.420 --> 00:41:37.180
So does anyone have anything else they wanted to cover?

548
00:41:37.180 --> 00:41:38.180
How are you doing Steph?

549
00:41:38.180 --> 00:41:41.300
I didn't get to say hi earlier.

550
00:41:41.300 --> 00:41:43.060
I'm actually just happy to be here.

551
00:41:43.060 --> 00:41:45.860
I was having some major technical difficulties.

552
00:41:45.860 --> 00:41:52.820
I was going to say it was eight minutes before someone came on and Susan jumped on and is

553
00:41:52.820 --> 00:41:58.220
she, oh, I think she's still on here, but I think that she's has her video off, but

554
00:41:58.220 --> 00:42:02.580
I told her, I said, so I was sitting here by myself for eight minutes and she popped

555
00:42:02.580 --> 00:42:05.580
on and she was like, the ghost is coming here.

556
00:42:05.580 --> 00:42:07.780
I'm like, I know, it's never happened before.

557
00:42:07.780 --> 00:42:10.780
I said, if anyone's on here, it's always Steph.

558
00:42:10.780 --> 00:42:17.500
Steph gets on and then I get on and it's routine and I was like, I don't know if Steph's not

559
00:42:17.500 --> 00:42:18.500
on here.

560
00:42:18.500 --> 00:42:21.940
Oh, I tried for like 15 minutes and it's like, okay.

561
00:42:21.940 --> 00:42:24.940
So I restarted the computer and it's like, before I start crying, I'm going to punch

562
00:42:24.940 --> 00:42:28.940
the screen one more time and it actually worked like, oh, okay.

563
00:42:28.940 --> 00:42:29.940
Hey, exactly.

564
00:42:29.940 --> 00:42:30.940
Have dominion.

565
00:42:30.940 --> 00:42:31.940
Yeah.

566
00:42:31.940 --> 00:42:32.940
So anyway, did anyone have anything?

567
00:42:32.940 --> 00:42:33.940
No.

568
00:42:33.940 --> 00:42:34.940
Well, I had.

569
00:42:34.940 --> 00:42:35.940
Oh, you didn't get my thing to unmute.

570
00:42:35.940 --> 00:42:36.940
I was, the screen kept flipping.

571
00:42:36.940 --> 00:42:54.260
I'm just kind of a follow up to that.

572
00:42:54.260 --> 00:43:00.780
First of all, I wanted to say thank you to Carrie for asking that question because it's

573
00:43:00.780 --> 00:43:08.300
exactly what I needed to hear too, again, because I've been talking to Ashley about

574
00:43:08.300 --> 00:43:09.300
that.

575
00:43:09.300 --> 00:43:13.780
So you don't have to apologize for taking all the time because that covered what I was

576
00:43:13.780 --> 00:43:22.180
needing to hear too, but I wanted to follow that up with just some like cobwebs that linger

577
00:43:22.180 --> 00:43:30.140
in my head on this topic from things that you, that I've heard all my life about, you

578
00:43:30.140 --> 00:43:37.300
know, from, from typical Christianity about God's plan for your life and God's promises

579
00:43:37.300 --> 00:43:38.300
and all that.

580
00:43:38.300 --> 00:43:44.700
So the questions are, can you miss God's promise or plan?

581
00:43:44.700 --> 00:43:49.860
Like from what I've learned from this group, basically.

582
00:43:49.860 --> 00:43:57.180
So can our resistance, obviously our resistance would prevent us from receiving what God has

583
00:43:57.180 --> 00:43:58.700
for us.

584
00:43:58.700 --> 00:44:05.740
So I guess that would be a way that we could like miss it, but will God, I mean, it's,

585
00:44:05.740 --> 00:44:07.140
it's still this thing in my head.

586
00:44:07.140 --> 00:44:13.180
It's like, okay, so am I big enough to mess up God's plan for my life or any, not just

587
00:44:13.180 --> 00:44:18.140
my big major plan, but just any plans that God has for me?

588
00:44:18.140 --> 00:44:24.020
I think the answer is yes, but I just would like to hear your response to that.

589
00:44:24.020 --> 00:44:25.020
Yeah.

590
00:44:25.020 --> 00:44:26.460
So I don't know.

591
00:44:26.460 --> 00:44:27.460
I don't know.

592
00:44:27.460 --> 00:44:34.900
It's like, because I know like our, it always comes down to our will and God's sovereignty

593
00:44:34.900 --> 00:44:36.780
and I have trouble balancing those.

594
00:44:36.780 --> 00:44:40.580
And we already talked about that one, but I need you to talk about it again.

595
00:44:40.580 --> 00:44:41.580
Yeah.

596
00:44:41.580 --> 00:44:42.580
No, no, no, no.

597
00:44:42.580 --> 00:44:46.420
I'm more than happy to readdress questions, you know, when, when we just have to kind

598
00:44:46.420 --> 00:44:47.420
of be reminded, I'm the same way.

599
00:44:47.420 --> 00:44:48.420
I'm like, okay, I've heard this before.

600
00:44:48.420 --> 00:44:49.420
Can you tell me again?

601
00:44:49.420 --> 00:44:50.420
It's why I rewatch teachings, you know, from, from people I'm like, okay, I've already learned

602
00:44:50.420 --> 00:44:51.420
this, but I need to watch it again.

603
00:44:51.420 --> 00:44:59.940
I'll watch the same teachings multiple times.

604
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:06.560
But, um, uh, you know, other people's teaching, but, uh, yeah, so what I was talking to Amy about,

605
00:45:06.560 --> 00:45:11.760
and I don't remember if I mentioned this, I don't remember if I mentioned this somewhere

606
00:45:11.760 --> 00:45:20.240
in the group, but, uh, when, uh, when God gives us a promise, it's important for us to be, it's,

607
00:45:20.240 --> 00:45:27.840
God will always fulfill it. However, what we can do is by our own free will choose to not receive

608
00:45:27.840 --> 00:45:32.000
it. Cause remember what a promise is, the whole point of a promise, we've, we've, we've really

609
00:45:32.000 --> 00:45:36.400
gotten it backwards. And we thought that the whole point of a promise was actually the thing

610
00:45:36.400 --> 00:45:40.160
that we're, that we think we're supposed to believe God for. We think the point of the

611
00:45:40.160 --> 00:45:45.280
promise is the manifestation. And the point of the promise is an invitation in order to believe

612
00:45:45.280 --> 00:45:52.320
that God's character is what it is, that he's declaring it to be, that he's giving us a promise

613
00:45:53.200 --> 00:46:00.160
in order to help us in order to, um, uh, show us the manifestation of the extent of his character.

614
00:46:00.160 --> 00:46:06.720
So the whole point of a promise is an invitation to believe he's as big as he's declaring he is

615
00:46:06.720 --> 00:46:12.880
when he stated that promise. Um, so that's the whole point of a promise. It's not the manifestation

616
00:46:12.880 --> 00:46:25.520
of it. Um, so therefore we, we can, uh, um, we can not, we can see it not fulfilled in our lives

617
00:46:25.520 --> 00:46:29.920
because we've chosen to not receive it. So that's what she and I were talking about the other day.

618
00:46:29.920 --> 00:46:36.640
And then I also posted that thing. Was it today? I think it was today. I posted that, that a little

619
00:46:36.640 --> 00:46:41.040
short write-up about the Israelites talking about how, you know, the first generation,

620
00:46:41.680 --> 00:46:46.160
God promised it to them, but they didn't have, they didn't receive it because they said, no,

621
00:46:46.160 --> 00:46:51.040
God, you're not that good. And so the second generation, Moses said, Hey, look, your parents

622
00:46:51.040 --> 00:46:57.840
did not believe God. You have the opportunity to receive the promise if you choose to actually

623
00:46:57.840 --> 00:47:03.040
believe God. So are you going to do it? You have the choice and the free will as to whether or not

624
00:47:03.040 --> 00:47:13.280
you get to receive it is, um, now, so we do have that power because God is not going to, uh, usurp

625
00:47:13.280 --> 00:47:21.600
our free will. Um, but, um, so I'm trying to think if, uh, if there's another way to answer,

626
00:47:21.600 --> 00:47:26.240
I mean, like an additional help that I can give you to answer the question you're talking about,

627
00:47:26.240 --> 00:47:31.600
talking about, you know, am I so powerful to mess up God's, um, God's, um, you know, destiny,

628
00:47:31.600 --> 00:47:37.440
so to speak, it's calling on my life and whatever the focus, uh, and the point is relationship with

629
00:47:37.440 --> 00:47:45.360
him. And we can choose to reject that. And that is a journey into developing and maturing that

630
00:47:45.360 --> 00:47:53.600
relationship. So if he's like, okay, if you were to work in, in a full blown, if you, uh, engage

631
00:47:53.600 --> 00:47:58.720
with me, believe that I'm as big as I declare that I am in journey and mature to the point

632
00:47:59.280 --> 00:48:04.480
where, you know, you believe me to X extent, well, then these types of things you're going to watch

633
00:48:04.480 --> 00:48:09.760
manifest, and you're going to have this type of dominion over creation, but, but we start all the

634
00:48:09.760 --> 00:48:17.360
way back here. And if we can, and we're only going to attain, we're only going to journey to the point

635
00:48:17.360 --> 00:48:24.000
to which in the extent to which we do believe that God is, he says that he is. So it's that

636
00:48:24.000 --> 00:48:29.520
I'm saying the same thing, but to address the whole, to address it in light of the picture of

637
00:48:29.520 --> 00:48:36.400
our entire lives of can I miss God's calling? Well, God's ultimate calling is relationship with

638
00:48:36.400 --> 00:48:43.520
him and receiving him, receiving who he is, receiving his love and his goodness, et cetera.

639
00:48:43.520 --> 00:48:49.600
And we're given multiple opportunities along the way to do it. The point of our life is not that

640
00:48:50.400 --> 00:48:55.360
we have all of these dreams that are in our heart and we see them fulfilled and manifested,

641
00:48:56.320 --> 00:49:02.720
that that's not the point. Those are ways through which God will evidence his goodness and his love

642
00:49:02.720 --> 00:49:10.000
and a picture that helps us grasp and consume it. Is there an element of what you're talking

643
00:49:10.080 --> 00:49:22.000
about, Amy, that I still haven't addressed? No, you make it very simple and it just gets

644
00:49:23.120 --> 00:49:28.800
complicated in my mind. So when you say it again, I'm like, Oh, what was I even thinking?

645
00:49:30.480 --> 00:49:34.720
I probably just needed to hear it again. And I might need to hear it again

646
00:49:35.600 --> 00:49:42.960
to unravel that twisted thinking that's been ingrained in my head from wrong teaching.

647
00:49:43.520 --> 00:49:50.160
Well, I'm glad that you mentioned that because we continue to try to talk ourselves out of it.

648
00:49:50.160 --> 00:49:56.640
And that's a really big point that you just made. We make it too complicated. When someone

649
00:49:56.640 --> 00:50:00.080
says something, a pastor says something, and in our mind we're

650
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:09.080
We're going through all of the things that have happened in our lives and everybody that we know and all the other scripture references that we read that that we think make what he just said, not true.

651
00:50:09.480 --> 00:50:18.240
We're looking for why it can't be true. Why we can't believe something as opposed to receiving something

652
00:50:18.520 --> 00:50:24.960
And by faith that, oh, well, that is true. And I don't mean swallowing everything whole. I'm not referring to that again. I'm just talking very simple.

653
00:50:25.320 --> 00:50:34.520
Okay, think about it in terms of business complexity is the enemy of business. There's a reason for that. It's because complexity is usually anything

654
00:50:35.280 --> 00:50:41.920
Usually complexity is an indication and hard and strive difficult and challenging

655
00:50:42.920 --> 00:50:51.360
And all of these moving parts that everything in which everything has to be just perfect and just so is a big red flag usually

656
00:50:51.760 --> 00:50:56.120
Or something of this world, a formula, a strategy, all of these

657
00:50:56.600 --> 00:51:09.400
These things that have to work just so in order to actually get a result. And that is an end. That's usually a big red flag for us that that's operating that's operating out of the soul or body in which

658
00:51:09.800 --> 00:51:26.240
We and the way the kingdom of this world works, where there's all of these intricacies that have to be understood utilize manipulated and so whenever we try to take something that is being said, like if God says, well, you can heal.

659
00:51:27.440 --> 00:51:31.680
We think we immediately think of all the people that we've prayed for that had cancer.

660
00:51:31.920 --> 00:51:43.400
Instead of just saying, instead of believing God said we heal. Therefore, I can and I go to a, I go to a church that is known around the world for its healing ministry.

661
00:51:43.760 --> 00:51:51.320
And he said that the youngest person that has gone to his to his healing trainings was sitting there on the front row taking notes and he was eight years old.

662
00:51:52.080 --> 00:51:58.360
And so he went to his little Sunday school class because they didn't go to that church. They went to another church. They were just there for that training.

663
00:51:58.360 --> 00:52:05.320
And he and his parents, you know, went back to their, their church and this little boy went around Sunday school praying for all of the kids and they were all healed.

664
00:52:06.040 --> 00:52:11.840
This is a little eight year old boy. He doesn't know enough to talk himself out of everything that we're saying he was just thought

665
00:52:12.200 --> 00:52:22.000
A man up there goes around raising people from the dead around the world. And he's telling me this. Therefore, this that's what he internalized. So, again,

666
00:52:22.400 --> 00:52:32.080
That's what he internalized. So then all of the parents started finding out from their kids that they were being healed and because so and so in Sunday school prayed for them.

667
00:52:32.440 --> 00:52:40.960
So prayed for him. So they went and so the guy is the boy was asked by the pastor. It got around to the pastor. The pastors went and talked to him.

668
00:52:41.240 --> 00:52:46.400
And then the boy said, well, would you like me to pray for everybody in the adult in the adult service tonight.

669
00:52:46.960 --> 00:52:53.960
Pastors that will serve the little boy had to stand on a chair and pray for people to be killed and they were killed.

670
00:52:55.080 --> 00:53:07.960
And this is just it's we make it too complicated. We're always trying to talk ourselves out of out of why it can't be true. And of all of the exceptions. Well, what about this. What about this. What about this. So anyway,

671
00:53:08.760 --> 00:53:18.280
It really is actually very simple. We are just trying to unlearn all the complicated reasons that we've come up with a white can't be true.

672
00:53:18.960 --> 00:53:31.760
We've made it complicated and we just have to unlearn them. So we can choose to walk ourselves back through addressing every single lie and why it's actually not true or can scrap the whole thing.

673
00:53:32.480 --> 00:53:38.720
And very quickly and just believe this, of course, you know, if we're not manifesting. We just choose to do that. We're not in we

674
00:53:39.560 --> 00:53:44.240
Want to scrap everything I abandoned it and I'm now I just believe this and we're still not seeing the manifestation.

675
00:53:44.520 --> 00:53:54.280
It means that subconsciously we actually haven't scrapped this is too much in our DNA and to we have too many records of it. We don't, we still actually believe them.

676
00:53:54.920 --> 00:54:08.240
Then we have to go through this whole process of dealing with things and like releasing them and and like really truly getting the record out of our soul and our body. So it's just that we eliminate the

677
00:54:08.960 --> 00:54:14.360
The consequences of the lot that the lies have had on us that what that is, is that's overcoming

678
00:54:14.880 --> 00:54:19.680
It's, it's not a fun part of the process that we enjoy. We wanted to just like

679
00:54:20.200 --> 00:54:25.080
We want somebody to touch us and boom, we, we now know and we never go back and

680
00:54:25.520 --> 00:54:30.320
Kind of like the difference between an alcoholic who has to who's just instantly healed.

681
00:54:30.640 --> 00:54:40.320
He prays, ask the Lord to remove his alcoholism where he doesn't desire it more heroin addict. Let's use that one because it's very extreme heroin addict, you know that I'm there. There's an addict.

682
00:54:40.720 --> 00:54:49.840
I mean, they have to have it or they're going to go through extremely severe withdrawals only where the withdrawals that heroin addicts go through is wild.

683
00:54:50.240 --> 00:54:58.640
And so some of these people with what we want. I mean, everyone wants to just be touched and instantly that addiction be removed and any results like any like

684
00:54:58.640 --> 00:55:00.960
Withdrawal symptoms

685
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:02.960
that they would normally go through. They don't want to have to go through this.

686
00:55:02.960 --> 00:55:08.480
Everybody wants it that way, but then there are other heroin addicts that God

687
00:55:08.480 --> 00:55:14.840
God saves, and they actually have to walk it out. They're overcoming. They are

688
00:55:14.840 --> 00:55:19.760
telling their soul and telling their body in a very deliberate, intentional

689
00:55:19.760 --> 00:55:23.640
process, look we are now believing something different, and they have to

690
00:55:23.640 --> 00:55:27.240
actually walk it out, and they have to go through the withdrawal symptoms, etc.

691
00:55:27.240 --> 00:55:31.760
And those people are not to be disregarded because those people

692
00:55:31.760 --> 00:55:37.920
actually internalize it and own it in a very interesting unique way, and when

693
00:55:37.920 --> 00:55:41.760
they, because they've overcome it for themselves, they now have it to be able

694
00:55:41.760 --> 00:55:47.200
to give other people as well. So, well, I mean, so does the person who

695
00:55:47.200 --> 00:55:52.000
was instantly healed, but there's just an interesting difference between the two.

696
00:55:52.000 --> 00:55:56.720
Neither one is better than the other, but they both have very

697
00:55:56.720 --> 00:56:02.320
interesting purposes, and they're both extremely valuable. So, yeah, we

698
00:56:02.320 --> 00:56:13.200
just make it more complicated. Sometimes we have to unlearn things. So does anyone

699
00:56:13.200 --> 00:56:17.320
have anything else?

700
00:56:21.920 --> 00:56:26.000
Oh, and I'm sorry, Amy, did that answer your question? I thought that it

701
00:56:26.000 --> 00:56:33.280
did, but I just went on. It did? Okay. Okay, well, if there is, one more time, is there

702
00:56:33.280 --> 00:56:41.520
anything else I missed? I'm sorry. Okay, so I wanted to catch everyone up on what I

703
00:56:41.520 --> 00:56:46.960
mentioned in the post about the new season that the Lord has invited me

704
00:56:46.960 --> 00:56:52.560
to move into. Hey, Susan! The new season the Lord has invited me to move

705
00:56:52.560 --> 00:57:01.440
into, where Amy found out in a very surprising way. Like, I'm sorry, Amy, that's

706
00:57:01.440 --> 00:57:06.000
not the way a friend should have found out. But what the Lord did is, so we've

707
00:57:06.000 --> 00:57:10.600
laughed over it many times, and I was telling Renee about it as well, about how

708
00:57:10.600 --> 00:57:15.880
funny that that was, that that's how you found out. But, so a few weeks ago, maybe

709
00:57:15.880 --> 00:57:19.480
about three weeks ago or so, I started feeling it on my heart to start

710
00:57:19.480 --> 00:57:25.000
traveling. A year and a half ago, the plan was for in 2020, I was going to move

711
00:57:25.000 --> 00:57:31.400
to London. So, but anyway, things have just shifted in my relationship with the

712
00:57:31.400 --> 00:57:35.280
Lord to the point where I abide so much in Him. The thing that I was going to

713
00:57:35.280 --> 00:57:40.800
London for to give myself, I now have in Him. So it doesn't matter where it is

714
00:57:40.800 --> 00:57:45.120
that I live and what it is that I'm doing. I have what it was that I was

715
00:57:45.120 --> 00:57:50.120
going to London for. I have it in Him, so I don't need to go to London anymore. I still think that I

716
00:57:50.120 --> 00:57:54.640
probably will at some point, you know, for about like six months or so. Because you

717
00:57:54.640 --> 00:58:03.000
can go to, you can, Britain and the United States have a program

718
00:58:03.000 --> 00:58:09.000
where people from each country can stay in the other without a tourist visa for

719
00:58:09.000 --> 00:58:13.560
six months. So the plan is that I could, I'd go over and stay with a friend of

720
00:58:13.560 --> 00:58:17.640
mine who lives in London and live there for six months, because I love London.

721
00:58:17.640 --> 00:58:22.520
I named my car London, so that's how much I love the city. It's one of my

722
00:58:22.520 --> 00:58:28.160
favorite places in the world. And I had that on my heart, but that desire and

723
00:58:28.160 --> 00:58:31.760
that dream just started to fizzle. I was like, I don't really care anymore because I

724
00:58:31.760 --> 00:58:36.400
have what I want in the Lord. But so a few weeks ago, I was very surprised when

725
00:58:36.400 --> 00:58:41.640
all of a sudden I thought, I want to start traveling. Where would I travel to? What

726
00:58:41.680 --> 00:58:45.560
would I do? And I thought, well, I'll start traveling around the United States. So

727
00:58:45.560 --> 00:58:52.760
anyway, this, the desire grew stronger and stronger. And, and it started to, the way

728
00:58:52.760 --> 00:58:56.400
that it felt there, it was like there was some weight to it. And all of a sudden, I

729
00:58:56.400 --> 00:59:01.200
thought, wait a minute, I know that feeling. It's like, Lord, is that you? As opposed to

730
00:59:01.200 --> 00:59:03.880
me just wanting something. You know how you were talking about Carrie, well, how

731
00:59:03.880 --> 00:59:07.360
do I know if this is the Lord or if this is me wanting it? I have to, I'm having to

732
00:59:07.360 --> 00:59:13.160
figure that out too. I figured it out in certain, in certain times, but it's still a

733
00:59:13.160 --> 00:59:17.800
process in order to understand my relationship with him. So him talking to

734
00:59:17.800 --> 00:59:23.040
me and what's me and what's him and whatever. So I asked him, I said, okay,

735
00:59:23.040 --> 00:59:30.680
Lord, I believe that this is you. And I desire to step out in faith, thinking that

736
00:59:30.680 --> 00:59:38.720
this is you that's inviting me to sell 90 to 95% of all that I own, get in my

737
00:59:38.720 --> 00:59:43.640
little car with my little dog and start traveling around the United States. And

738
00:59:43.640 --> 00:59:49.920
move out of this apartment and not have a house, not have a, not have a home that

739
00:59:49.920 --> 00:59:56.600
I'm staying in. But, you know, this is what I'd like to step out in Lord. But is

740
00:59:56.600 --> 01:00:00.000
this, if this isn't you Lord, I'd like you to.

741
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:06.160
invite me. I'd like you as my lover to invite me to go on this adventure with you. Like a bridegroom

742
01:00:06.160 --> 01:00:12.160
would do to a bride, right? And so I just told him as a little, that would be very special.

743
01:00:12.160 --> 01:00:17.200
Would you, if this isn't you, would you please invite me to go with you on your adventure,

744
01:00:17.200 --> 01:00:22.000
as opposed to my adventure that you're okaying, that you're going to pay for.

745
01:00:22.000 --> 01:00:28.160
Now then Lord, your adventure. So two nights later, so this is, I've been having this desire

746
01:00:28.160 --> 01:00:34.640
for a few weeks and I finally realized this might be the Lord. So I asked the Lord about it. Two

747
01:00:34.640 --> 01:00:42.320
nights after I asked the Lord about it, I had a dream. I had a prophetic dream and, and he,

748
01:00:42.880 --> 01:00:49.520
I didn't know he was going to tell me in a dream, but he did. So he, the dream was that I was

749
01:00:49.520 --> 01:00:54.800
standing on a map, like a very large map and like kind of like an Atlas or something. I'm standing

750
01:00:54.800 --> 01:01:03.120
on a map and I was standing on the state of Texas and God was walking from Texas across the map

751
01:01:03.120 --> 01:01:08.400
towards the state of Florida. And I don't know why that was in the dream, but it was in the dream

752
01:01:08.400 --> 01:01:12.480
that way. And I didn't know why I was thinking in those terms, but I just, it's kind of like I knew

753
01:01:12.480 --> 01:01:15.760
his intention of where he was going. He's going to Florida. So anyway, he's walking across Southern

754
01:01:15.760 --> 01:01:23.040
United States to Florida. And he turns, he turns around, looks at me, gestures and said, you want

755
01:01:23.040 --> 01:01:33.040
to come with me? I jolted awake. I was like, that is it. I asked for God to invite me and he just

756
01:01:33.040 --> 01:01:39.680
did. I was so excited. So then I knew this is what the Lord wanted me to do. And he was inviting me

757
01:01:39.680 --> 01:01:44.800
to go on this adventure with him to travel, travel around. That meant that he was going to, because

758
01:01:44.800 --> 01:01:49.600
it was his, it's his invitation. It was something I could kind of grab a hold of, of knowing,

759
01:01:49.600 --> 01:01:56.640
okay, God himself told me that this is his adventure and he's going to sustain me. He is,

760
01:01:56.640 --> 01:02:02.240
that's a promise. In other words, I'm playing, that's God's promise to me that he will sustain

761
01:02:02.240 --> 01:02:12.480
me. So I, so anyway, I, that's what I'm going to do. So as you might be able to tell my poor

762
01:02:12.480 --> 01:02:20.720
little apartment is so empty. I'm all moved out. And as soon as I finished this, this call,

763
01:02:20.720 --> 01:02:26.800
I'm going to finish cleaning the apartment and like mop the floors, clean the bathroom. And

764
01:02:26.800 --> 01:02:36.480
I'm not even staying here tonight. So this is, so I am out. This is very serious. So I plan to start

765
01:02:36.480 --> 01:02:42.080
maybe traveling. It's all, it's all very up in the air, all very flexible. I don't know when I'm

766
01:02:42.080 --> 01:02:49.440
going to be where I, I don't know. But I'm probably going to be here until around the end of July,

767
01:02:49.440 --> 01:02:53.360
at least July 18th. And then I'm going to start traveling. I think the first place I'm going to

768
01:02:53.360 --> 01:03:00.240
go is Houston. And then from there, I don't know where I'm going to go. But I, for anybody who

769
01:03:00.240 --> 01:03:07.200
would like me, who would like to, for us to meet in person, you know, please feel free to let me

770
01:03:07.200 --> 01:03:13.440
know. And we can, you know, I can let you know when I'm going to be in that area. Not that I know

771
01:03:13.440 --> 01:03:21.040
now when I'm going to be in your area, but, and then we can, I can swing by and need and, and,

772
01:03:21.040 --> 01:03:27.520
and whatever. So I don't know when, I don't know where I'm going to be when all I know is I'm just

773
01:03:27.520 --> 01:03:34.000
heading out. That's all I know. But all of this has happened very fast. My own family didn't even

774
01:03:34.000 --> 01:03:42.400
hear about it until Sunday. So it's all happened very quickly. So okay, yes, I know I'm going to

775
01:03:42.400 --> 01:03:49.360
have to come to Mississippi. Yeah, I, I haven't mentioned this to Cheryl. And so, so I thought,

776
01:03:49.360 --> 01:03:55.120
oh my goodness, Cheryl and Priscilla and Carrie, they're all Lancaster. And I was talking to

777
01:03:55.120 --> 01:04:01.920
another friend of yours the other day. I'm like, oh, she's a Lancaster too. So anyway, I plan to

778
01:04:01.920 --> 01:04:08.400
just go around. And I don't know when and where I might go across the Southern United States,

779
01:04:08.400 --> 01:04:15.120
up the East coast, you know, Georgia, Carolinas, Virginia. I have a cousin in Washington, DC. I'll

780
01:04:15.120 --> 01:04:21.040
probably go visit him, have him show me around and then go like across the Northern United States

781
01:04:21.760 --> 01:04:27.360
to Seattle. I've got multiple friends in Seattle, down at California, across Arizona. So,

782
01:04:28.000 --> 01:04:32.160
because I've got people in all of those places. And it's always been a goal of mine to go to

783
01:04:32.160 --> 01:04:37.920
Montana. So that is on my list. The problem is I've got to make sure I go at the right time of year

784
01:04:38.640 --> 01:04:46.000
in order to see Glacier National Park before it gets too cold and before all the snow piles. So

785
01:04:46.000 --> 01:04:50.720
we'll just see. I don't know what I'm going to do when. But I wanted to just let everybody know,

786
01:04:50.720 --> 01:04:57.760
here I go on a new season, an adventure with the Lord, where he told me something that I'm

787
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:04.960
just walking out in relationship with him in. I don't know what it's gonna look

788
01:05:04.960 --> 01:05:09.160
like and where I'm gonna go and what what's gonna happen when and what he's

789
01:05:09.160 --> 01:05:13.560
gonna ask of me next. All I know is this is the direction. So remember what I talk

790
01:05:13.560 --> 01:05:19.160
about is when God gives us something we get a general goal and then we let go of

791
01:05:19.160 --> 01:05:22.840
the goal because the whole point of the goal is the direction. So I've got a

792
01:05:22.840 --> 01:05:27.560
direction and I'm actually making movement and so God can now, God can't

793
01:05:27.560 --> 01:05:32.520
move. He's not gonna move a parked car. He's gonna move one in motion. So no

794
01:05:32.520 --> 01:05:38.320
pun intended. In fact, I will be in a car but you know what I'm saying. So that is

795
01:05:38.320 --> 01:05:44.720
something that I, that's all very fast, all very new and I thought about

796
01:05:44.720 --> 01:05:49.920
mentioning it last week that it was still so new that everything was still

797
01:05:49.920 --> 01:05:56.160
changing and that I didn't, I didn't really, I asked the Lord, okay Lord is it

798
01:05:56.160 --> 01:06:00.960
time to tell people and he said no. Even my family didn't even know until Sunday

799
01:06:00.960 --> 01:06:06.600
and but what here's that one of the interesting aspects of the story. I've

800
01:06:06.600 --> 01:06:12.920
been in this place for ten months. Well the original plan was for me to be here

801
01:06:12.920 --> 01:06:17.320
three months and then they were gonna have some some grandparents come in and

802
01:06:17.320 --> 01:06:23.440
stay here. Well they felt from the Lord without talking to me, no we don't feel

803
01:06:23.440 --> 01:06:28.080
like we need to let Ashley know, hey look as agreed upon, yeah the

804
01:06:28.080 --> 01:06:31.400
grandparents are here. They told the grandparents I'm sorry the

805
01:06:31.400 --> 01:06:35.360
apartment's unavailable because they didn't feel that it was time from the

806
01:06:35.360 --> 01:06:41.000
Lord that it was time for me to go on. I didn't feel that as well so but I

807
01:06:41.000 --> 01:06:45.120
didn't, I didn't tell them that. I mean it's their place and whatever so none of

808
01:06:45.120 --> 01:06:51.200
us had felt that. However, God started talking to me about traveling and and he

809
01:06:51.200 --> 01:06:57.440
began to tell me okay Ashley now it's time and after he told me it was time

810
01:06:57.440 --> 01:07:02.600
they came to me and they said by the way Ashley our parents we plan to move here.

811
01:07:02.600 --> 01:07:06.480
That our parents have planned to move here and we've invited them to come you

812
01:07:06.480 --> 01:07:10.560
know however long ago saying that well eventually at some point we'd like you

813
01:07:10.560 --> 01:07:17.320
to stay here. Well they they came to me and maybe a few weeks ago and he said

814
01:07:17.320 --> 01:07:21.440
Ashley we were not expecting it to happen this fast but they'd like to move

815
01:07:21.440 --> 01:07:25.080
within the next 60 days. They weren't planning on them moving here for another

816
01:07:25.080 --> 01:07:31.000
like year maybe at least at the earliest and all of a sudden their parents

817
01:07:31.000 --> 01:07:36.160
notified them 60 days and they felt this time yeah we believe from the Lord that

818
01:07:36.160 --> 01:07:40.200
this is time for them to move. Well God had already been talking to me about the

819
01:07:40.200 --> 01:07:43.680
fact that Ashley it's time for you to move. So he had talked to their parents

820
01:07:43.680 --> 01:07:49.520
them and me all at the same time and when we all converged we're like God's

821
01:07:49.520 --> 01:07:55.680
all been talking to us on the same the same way. So oh and the funny thing is it

822
01:07:55.680 --> 01:08:00.560
was gonna be 60 days is in the end of July so by the time it was gonna be it

823
01:08:00.560 --> 01:08:04.880
was a month and a half out plans changed due to their realtor and it would move

824
01:08:04.880 --> 01:08:12.400
to a week and a half. Then it moved to no it's actually a week. Then I realized no

825
01:08:12.400 --> 01:08:16.399
I'm watching my nephew this weekend meaning that instead of being out Sunday

826
01:08:16.399 --> 01:08:21.800
I now need to be out Thursday. So I suddenly found out I need to be out in

827
01:08:21.800 --> 01:08:28.439
five days. So instead of a month and a half which was fine and I knew I could

828
01:08:28.439 --> 01:08:32.760
do it. It was one of those things though where you know I know I can do this. I

829
01:08:32.760 --> 01:08:38.080
know this is overboard but I don't know how. I don't know how to pack up all of

830
01:08:38.080 --> 01:08:41.560
this stuff and what needs to go where and what decision I'm going to make and

831
01:08:41.560 --> 01:08:46.000
literally where I'm going to be living. I've got to ask somebody can I stay with

832
01:08:46.000 --> 01:08:49.680
my brother and sister-in-law? Can I stay with Mike and Amanda? Can I stay with my parents?

833
01:08:49.680 --> 01:08:54.160
Where am I going to stay? And not all of those options were available

834
01:08:54.160 --> 01:08:57.880
understand. So I'm like where what am I gonna do? I didn't know how. All I know is

835
01:08:57.880 --> 01:09:02.279
I know kind of like what you were talking about Kerry. You just you just

836
01:09:02.279 --> 01:09:07.960
know but you don't know the how and we need to we need to remove our feel we

837
01:09:07.960 --> 01:09:15.760
need to remove our focus on the how to determine to us that yes we are

838
01:09:15.760 --> 01:09:19.080
actually hearing from God. Just because we don't know the how doesn't mean that

839
01:09:19.080 --> 01:09:24.840
it's not actually true. So I was like I don't know how but I know that

840
01:09:24.840 --> 01:09:29.359
absolutely it can happen and sure enough honestly no problem. I've been able to

841
01:09:29.359 --> 01:09:36.600
work and visit with clients and do calls and I've been able to be

842
01:09:36.600 --> 01:09:42.000
active on Facebook and all kinds of stuff while moving everything out and

843
01:09:42.000 --> 01:09:46.960
selling things. People are coming to pick them up off the porch you know and I'm

844
01:09:46.960 --> 01:09:53.240
negotiating stuff online with them and clean and all of that in five days. So

845
01:09:53.240 --> 01:09:58.040
anyway I just wanted to encourage everybody with the fact that I really am

846
01:09:58.040 --> 01:10:00.960
living this.

847
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:03.560
new extended measures all the time.

848
01:10:03.560 --> 01:10:07.560
So, I'm sure I'll have more stories about as I travel,

849
01:10:07.560 --> 01:10:11.480
about how, and how the Lord is calling me

850
01:10:11.480 --> 01:10:13.280
to move into greater measures of the cross,

851
01:10:13.280 --> 01:10:17.520
but, and hopefully I get to, you know, see y'all.

852
01:10:17.520 --> 01:10:19.840
So, but anyway, that's my story.

853
01:10:19.840 --> 01:10:23.760
So, but that is all I have to say about that.

854
01:10:23.760 --> 01:10:28.180
Does anybody have anything before we go?

855
01:10:29.180 --> 01:10:32.420
Oh, you claimed West Virginia first.

856
01:10:32.420 --> 01:10:34.100
I'm not seeing that.

857
01:10:34.100 --> 01:10:36.020
That's cute, that's fun.

858
01:10:36.020 --> 01:10:39.180
That's right, I know, I've never been to West Virginia.

859
01:10:39.180 --> 01:10:40.100
That would be fun.

860
01:10:41.980 --> 01:10:44.580
Okay, so I guess we can shut it down for the night

861
01:10:44.580 --> 01:10:47.940
unless somebody has something that I've missed.

862
01:10:47.940 --> 01:10:49.060
Is everybody good?

863
01:10:52.300 --> 01:10:54.740
All right, well, it's good to see y'all.

864
01:10:54.740 --> 01:10:56.900
As always, thanks for tuning on.

865
01:10:58.740 --> 01:10:59.580
Bye.

866
01:11:00.940 --> 01:11:01.780
Bye.

867
01:11:02.740 --> 01:11:03.580
See ya, everyone.

868
01:11:03.580 --> 01:11:04.420
Bye.