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I am on the floor in the corner between the dresser and the bathroom.

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I was in my friend's apartment and have been for, I think, 10 months, and this is really,

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really neat story. There we go. Anyway, so they let me, I've been staying there for 10 months.

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Well, the Lord talked to me about traveling at the same time that he began, that her parents

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decided because the apartment was always intended for my friend's parents to eventually move in

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there. Well, none of us are talking to each other and all of a sudden we all get the same idea of

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now it's time. And so the Lord tells me to start traveling, that my friends and parents approach

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her and say, okay, we're selling our house and we're going to go ahead and move in. And my

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friend and her husband felt like, yes, now is the time where we're sensing that from the Lord.

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And because there was a time in which like back in December, like months ago that we had all

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planned that I would go ahead and move on, but none of us felt that it was time. But this time

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without talking to each other, we all knew from the Lord, it's time. So when we all got together,

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we found out we were all getting the same message. That's great.

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So anyway, I'm in the apartment and I am in my friend's and her husband's guest bedroom

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in their house until I start traveling at the end of July. So I'm waiting for all of the birthdays

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of my family to go through and my nephew's first birthday. And so I had to stay for that.

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So anyway, I am not leaving until around after July the 18th is the plan, after July 18th,

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because that's his birthday party. And so anyway, so I'm in the guest bedroom for now.

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And I don't know if I'll be here the full three weeks or if I'm going to be here like part of the

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time and then go stay with my brother and sister-in-law for a week. I don't know. So

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anyway, that's where I am, but my room is a wreck because Hey, Amy,

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your house is a pretty backyard. You want to see my pretty backyard? Hold on.

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Yeah. Can I flip the camera around?

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Yeah, you should be able to at the top.

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Oh, I see.

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I think if you like kind of tap on it, you can do this.

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Okay, so there's the back.

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It's so pretty.

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And this is my canopy frame that I'm going to put up.

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Oh, nice.

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Got a swing set back. There's a fire pit over there.

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Oh, that'll be cozy.

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Right over there.

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And then there's a swing set, which may go. I don't need a swing set.

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And then there's...

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I know. And his mom's definitely needs a swing set.

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Oh, it's just beautiful.

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It is very nice. I like it so much.

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I'm excited for y'all. The boys like it.

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Yeah, Buddy likes it because he can see out the windows now.

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The window frames are low enough for him to look out the windows and he was going crazy.

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Oh, sweet thing.

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Well, good. I'm excited.

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Yeah.

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Hey, now.

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Hi.

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How are you doing?

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Good. I'm just moving.

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Good.

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I'm going to go into my bedroom so Skylar can watch TV.

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I'm sure.

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Glad you could make it.

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How did the move go? We're all talking about our moves.

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What is the whole move thing?

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You know, Amy just moved.

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She was just showing us her backyard that she moved into.

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Wednesday and...

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Sorry, Monday and Tuesday.

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And y'all just moved. I don't know.

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Stephanie, y'all need to move.

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Actually, we got our floodplain stuff taken care of.

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So we are out of the flood zone.

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We have a FEMA letter.

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So we won't be moving, but we will have an updated house.

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So yeah.

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You're going to get your front porch, big front porch.

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Y'all been building your house for 10, 15 years?

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But all by hand. It's very impressive.

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They're all doing it themselves.

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And she gets the lumber from her father-in-law.

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So it's all very special.

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Very hands-on.

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That would take a lot of patience, I feel like.

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And now her four girls will know how to build a house.

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Are you four girls?

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Four girls, yep.

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How old are they?

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14, 12, nine and four.

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Oh, that's fun.

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I bet, does she love having older sisters?

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That would be kind of fun.

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Never a dull moment.

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Yeah, I bet not.

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Yeah, about 10 years apart, wow.

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Yeah.

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That's fun.

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Yeah, Chloe will be starting to drive

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and Emma's in a booster seat.

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So they're spread out a little bit.

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Yeah, that's like my first four,

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they were 10 years apart.

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Oh, mosquitoes.

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I'm gonna have to go in there.

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It's different.

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But yes, to answer your question,

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move went well.

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We just decorated today.

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So we actually got things on our walls and stuff finally.

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So, but.

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How does it feel like to be in that floor plan

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that you've been dreaming about for a long time?

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Oh, I love it so much more.

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And I could go into,

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so we made the other room his office.

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So, I mean, I could go in there,

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this is comfier for a zoom like this.

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So I'm like gonna use my room

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and then every once in a while I'll use his office,

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but we got to decorate like all his movie stuff

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and everything.

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Oh yeah, that'll be fun.

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Well, I'm on the floor between the dresser

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and the bathroom wall.

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So you've got.

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I've been there, I've done that before too.

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I've been in my closet leading a training before

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at our old place,

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because it was the only place I had lighting

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in our bedroom and with him working.

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So at least now we have a little more space

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and I have lighting.

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I know, I know I had to get a ring light

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in order to make sure that no matter where I am,

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I can get some lighting.

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So it's not very big.

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It's like what?

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Eight inches maybe,

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like from outward rim, outside rim to outside rim.

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Yeah, I need to look into getting that

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because I had one as a little one though,

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but you could always see the rings in my glasses.

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So I hated that.

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And so I'm wondering if a bigger one,

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I don't know if they would do that too or look better.

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So we have to play around with it.

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Yeah, that's something I hadn't thought about.

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I'm sure that you could,

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have you Googled it to see what to do

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with ring lights and glasses?

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Because I haven't yet,

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but that'd probably be a good idea

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just to see what other people have said.

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Yeah, to see if there's like some,

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like if you have to get,

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you have to make sure that it's a certain size.

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Right.

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Be able to avoid it or like what all,

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in other words, why reinvent the wheel?

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Right, exactly.

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What did everybody else figure out?

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We had, as long as I'm a little permanent,

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I mean, I literally had a book under my computer.

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So it'd be the level I needed.

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And then we had bought this like big, tall,

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like what's the, like the lantern, that type of paper

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that you know when people have lanterns go.

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So it was one of those lights

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and we'd put it like at the end of our kitchen table.

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So then the lighting would be good enough for there,

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but he's using it right now in his office.

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And so we might all either take it back

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or we'll get like some similars

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and see how that works out.

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Yeah, I've noticed that if I don't get this light that,

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and if I just use like the overhead lights and stuff

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that I've noticed on these Zoom calls,

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my camera isn't the best on the computer.

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And so I look really grainy.

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So anyway.

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Yeah, I kind of look, I think I still look dark,

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but these are more casual, I assume.

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So I wasn't too worried about lighting for this.

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Oh yeah, they're very casual, yeah.

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Natalie should have seen me at the first meeting.

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What were you doing?

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Why, what were you saying stuff about the first meeting?

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Yeah, you should have seen me

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because I thought it was a Facebook Live

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and I show up straight out of the shower

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in my nightgown with wet hair.

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Which I think is hilarious

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because Stephanie's always saying,

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oh, I'm so sorry you're seeing me with wet hair.

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I'm like, I really can't tell, I'm sorry, no big deal.

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She was like, oh, I'm so embarrassed.

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I'm like, why?

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I don't see anything.

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It was all good.

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I know, but you know, we just feel self-conscious

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if we know.

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Like we're, yeah.

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Yeah, like I feel like I have to confess to y'all

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that I'm sitting on the floor.

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Nobody needed to know that, but I don't know.

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We just find all that really important.

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So what time is it?

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It is 8.10.

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So now we just, the way that it goes

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is everyone just comes on here

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and if whoever has a question, ask the question.

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And then sometimes people don't have questions for a while.

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And then eventually, you know,

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it's one person asks a question

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with another people come up with one.

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So the thing is I've realized

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that sometimes I have to come prepared

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with something to talk about.

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Like a question from a client, you know,

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from earlier on the week or whatever

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that I did on private session.

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And I'll bring up that question.

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And I won't say, you know, who came up with a question,

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but I'll just say, oh, you know,

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talking to someone today or a couple of days ago.

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they had this question, so might as well answer it for everybody else.

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So, but I always, I always like it when, uh, if someone has a question,

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but I suppose it's a really good thing if everyone doesn't.

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So, but, uh, does anyone have anything, how would,

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how would the, um, have the, uh, teaching sessions been going, Natalie,

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have those been going all right?

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Oh yeah, those have been going really well.

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I have one person that definitely,

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I think it helps that I am a teacher by trade because she is my needier

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student, I guess I would say,

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like I probably needed to put more parameters in place,

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but she's an older lady too.

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So I just want to like love on her as much as I can and help her as much as I

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can. But it's been like constantly my messenger,

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like everything's blowing up.

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So I've just had to almost just kind of put boundaries in for myself.

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And then I let her know, like, I will, I I'm letting you know,

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I see your message, but I'm doing this.

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I will get back to it this time just so she knows that I'm not like ignoring

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her. But yeah, so I've had to like be a little more patient with, Oh, okay.

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So that she, you know, I think everybody probably runs into that.

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Maybe sometimes it's different clients,

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but it's all good and I'm happy to hear, be here to help her. So.

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What do you do Natalie?

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I am a, so I do code. I'm in a network marketing company,

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but then I also do coaching and some affiliate training.

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And so right now we're running a five week mastermind.

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And so those who came in get,

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we do training within a private group and that like weekly.

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And then I touch base with the people, like we do a coaching college week.

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So that was kind of the parameter set up with like them joining. And I,

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I do let them know, I'm like, if you need me to be a messenger,

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if something comes up, like, you know,

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and so she's been one where it's like all day, every day,

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or she'll like try and video chat me like without it being scheduled or

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something. So I've just, or she'll be like, can you call me real fast?

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I have a lot of grace and I've like, she's new or, you know,

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and she just wants to learn a lot. So it's good, but I am, but yeah,

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I've had to just kind of say, Hey, I can't right now,

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but I promise you, you know, check in with you later. So, and give her so,

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but that's what I've been working on right now.

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Yeah. I know she appreciates that. That's sweet. I know different,

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different people need to be loved on in different ways.

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Right. So I just think of like my, and I am a teacher,

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so a fifth grade teacher. So I just kind of think of as like my students,

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they all have different needs and different ways of having those needs met.

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So yeah, I think that's one of my strengths.

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So I just try and use it to the best of my ability. Yeah. Yeah.

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I know you've got lots of irons in the fire. So you basically have,

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don't you essentially have like three jobs then that I work marketing and the

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coaching or, and the, and the, uh, and the teaching.

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Yeah. And right now the teaching obviously was a summer.

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We haven't had to do very many things with that, but in like three weeks,

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apparently we are going to go back full time as of right now.

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So that'll be coming to the full screen soon.

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And I'll have to rearrange my schedule to be kind of sad because I've been

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enjoying the like daytime and then evenings we like usually watch movies or just

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have our time or whatever. So I'll have to constrict my timeframes,

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but that's also why I'm like, I kind of knew that was coming. And so,

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and that's why I was like, well,

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if I'm going to do the rest of intensive,

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I better do it now because I have more flexibility and time to do different

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things. So, and then, yeah,

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our core with the thing that I was doing with Girl Power Alliance,

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that launches in August. Um,

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and we're the goal is to launch our program. I like with that.

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So we'll have that going on, but yeah, so

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yeah, I'm glad.

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I'm glad that you've got all of these things that you really enjoy doing.

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and this is why this was going to be good for me is I do also need to

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physically, like if I have, don't,

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I felt like sometimes I still have too much time on my hands. And so,

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but I'm still not like feeling at rest or like,

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I feel like I waste time almost when you have too much time,

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you like end up wasting a lot of time.

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So I'm trying to still like figure out that bounce.

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Cause I am used to just having something every hour of the day planned out.

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And now I have a little more flexibility.

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but also like learn how to be more in a restful state.

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I think too, when I am working.

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So I'm excited for see like go through more of your trainings and stuff and

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get myself into that,

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that state cause I still feel myself get worked up easily or like stressed

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about things easily.

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like more so in my just my body I can feel it shift changing and so that's something I would

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like to work on of just having this is the way I work and this is my flow and I you know and just

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feeling at peace with that and not so tied to like I think it's hard I don't know if anybody

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else here is in like network marketing but I think sometimes that is the struggle is because you feel

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like it's a very go go sometimes and so finding that balance and really working at the way I want

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to and not being worried about what someone else is doing compared to like what I'm doing that day

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yeah correct yeah and um and you're right so rest is just a it's a place it's a state of um

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and so we we just abide in there and then we just flow and it doesn't matter if we're doing

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something that the world would label as business or not because for us it's no difference it

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doesn't matter whether we're working in network where we're doing something um in that's directly

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related to the network marketing or directly related to teaching fifth grade or directly

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related to coaching or for washing the dishes we do it all exactly the same and we we we're always

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just flowing in the spirit we're always just and uh just uh we're we are flowing in relationship

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and are in partnership with the lord where we're doing it together we're not actually switching

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gears in the way that the world has to switch gears we just because we operate the same and

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implement ourselves the exact same way in everything and um the nice thing is it doesn't

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matter what it is that you're doing you're always keeping an even keel and you're not

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in you and we don't move it's hard to describe but um to to just explain very simply

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we find that we do not feel as much like we're moving in and out of seasons there there's still

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an element of seasons um with the lord um however we're not we don't we don't well okay so seasons

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we we all right so let me let me rephrase that because i thought okay how do i word this we do

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move in and out of sort of kind of of seasons however what we don't have as much of is the

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emotional um ups and downs that we tend to associate with seasons well i'm just going

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through a season and when we say that we're almost always referring to an emotional change

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from the last season we were in that we're we're we're measuring how uh we're measuring

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our life in that moment by how we feel because and then we assume that we feel a particular way

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because we're affected by as a victim by whatever it is that we're going through whether we're in a

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busy season in our business or whether um god is taking us through something or you know whatever

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it we we kind of are allowing ourselves to be pushed and pulled too much by our environment

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and by things around us what i always refer to as the wind and the wave which is in reference

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obviously to when peter walks out on the water and then and he was fine when the lord said come

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and he walked out on the word come and um he didn't walk out on the water he worked out walked

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out on the word come and with the word come came all of the provision that peter needed to to step

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forward however he he was doing it he was operating it he was looking at the lord he had complete

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faith if the lord says it then i believe it and therefore it's true and therefore i can walk out

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on it and then all of a sudden he looked at the wind and the waves and he thought well wait a

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minute maybe not and so when i refer to the wind and waves i'm referring to the fact that our

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environment um if we're affected by our environment and we're looking at our environment to tell us

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what's true then that's going to affect our emotions but if we look at god who's ever

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who's ever unchanging and we use that by which we um uh that we use that to affect our emotions

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and since he never changes our emotions stay the same it doesn't mean that we don't get happy and

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sad and and whatever but we don't have this this emotional turmoil and chaos and then peace and

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emotional turmoil and chaos and peace you know we we don't have that as much we'll still have that

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sun as we're learning to operate more and more in rest you know because there are elements in which

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we still aren't operating rest and we aren't believing them and then we're believing them

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and then we're not believing them and then we're believing them so we do have an element of that

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but it's not the same um i was telling somebody this the other day um that um i may have been

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on a q a no no it wouldn't i mentioned it on a q a call but it was uh someone was asking me

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so actually you know how are you doing yeah and i'm thinking back to okay when's the last time

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me out they asked me that and how have i changed since then and i thought

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Well, all kinds of different things have happened that, that used to would have had me doing

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this an emotional rollercoaster, but I realized when they asked me, so how are you doing?

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I thought, well, even though the, the, the wind and the ways around me majorly changed

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since the last time they talked to me, I don't feel any different.

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And I, and I haven't felt any difference since the last time they talked to me.

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I mean, just consistently, I'm just doing this always happy, always at peace, always

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joyful, but I just, I don't, I'm not, I'm not riding this, this victim rollercoaster

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of, of, you know, well, what season am I in?

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And that's going to affect me.

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No, no, no.

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I'm a son of God and creation listens to me.

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It doesn't affect me.

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And so I, so I noticed that as long as I kept my eyes on the Lord and then, and focus and

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He was the focus of my, of my life, my attention.

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Then he also became the focus of all of my emotions.

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And I noticed that the, that the environment around me could change.

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I can move from business to relationships to, um, and all of the seasons that that was

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going through in the seasons that the relationships were going through and whatever.

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And that me, I wasn't changing.

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I was fine because I was just, my focus was on the Lord and he will, he wasn't changing.

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And I was always operating in rest.

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The wind and the waves around me could do all kinds of things, chaos, peace, chaos,

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peace, chaos, peace.

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But I was just always peaceful.

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And so anyway, that's one of the things that, uh, one of the benefits of moving into rest

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is that, uh, when we, when we sh we, we don't feel as much like we're shifting gears, whether

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we're talking about seasons emotionally or shifting gears between business versus, okay,

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now let's look at my personal finances.

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Oh, okay.

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My marriage.

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My parenting, my, um, you know, dealing with wounds, my, you know, whatever it is that

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we're, that we feel that we're shifting between, or in your case, multiple different types

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of businesses, we don't feel as much like, um, that we're having to shift gears because

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we don't realize how shifting gears is related to emotions.

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Especially too.

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Like when I am teaching during, like, I feel like I almost have to, like I do, I feel like

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I have to switch gears and mindsets and everything.

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Like I'm going from this way of thinking and working to like, okay, now I'm putting

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this hat on.

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And so I would like to just be able to transition in and out at any time, you know, and not

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really worry about what time of day it is or, you know, who I'm with or whatever, and

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just kind of, yes.

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I mean, to work on lobby, the same, I'll be the same.

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And the nice thing is it won't, it won't even be something that you have to work on.

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It'll just come.

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And what we, what we do is that comes as a natural result.

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We don't have to work for it.

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We don't have to be necessarily even intentional about it.

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It's going to naturally happen because we just have to believe that God is who he says

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that he is and that we are who he says that we are.

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And then we don't realize what a route that is for everything else.

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And once we deal with that route, all of a sudden, all of these things in our lives start

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settling down.

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Old wounds start healing that we didn't, that we did not, we're not even focusing on

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and they start healing.

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We didn't even know we had them and they start healing and we didn't know how we were acting

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as a result towards, towards our, our spouses or our parents or our friends or our students

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or whatever.

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But as the, as the root of however it is that we were acting gets taken care of, we act

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differently and we didn't have to focus on our behavior because God doesn't focus on

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our behavior.

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God's interested in our belief, but our behavior is always contention on our belief.

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So if we shift our belief, our behavior will naturally change because it's a result of,

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because we will begin to, our behavior will follow our new man as long as we shift into

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rest, which is where our new man is.

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So in which we operate of our, out of our new man, which you'll get into this and all

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of the teachings.

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Cause so I know I'm touching on it very, very quickly here, but as we shift into that new

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man in that new nature, you don't have to work hard to be yourself.

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You naturally are.

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We're actually, and you'll, and you'll discover this in the teachings.

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I refer to it as we're in a state of resistance against who we naturally are.

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So as soon as we stop resisting who we naturally are, we suddenly start being the person that

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we've always desired to be and that we always heard that God wanted us to be.

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We find that it's actually very easy for us and we're actually working really hard against

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it.

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And as soon as, as soon as we stop acting hard against it, we naturally start being

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this person that we've always tried really hard to be.

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So, but the trying is actually getting in the way.

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So we stopped trying and then we naturally become, we naturally show that we already

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were the person that God has always said, you already are that, why are you working

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so hard?

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So anyway, so that's nice.

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That's nice.

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It's not something that we're going to have to.

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to have to try for. So, yeah. Did anyone have, that was a good, that was a good way for us

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to jump into that. So thanks. Does anyone have any questions or any thoughts or anything

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that's been going on this past week that y'all have been thinking about or going through

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with the Lord or anything? Everything been going good for you, Amy? Oh, I think she's

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frozen. Oh, muted. There we go. Yeah, it's been good. You know, moving has been really,

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not really stressful. It's been intense. Like, it's been tiring. Like, I've been working

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morning to night for like five straight days. Sorry, I'm going to come in here so I'm not

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bothering my boys are eating dinner. They're sitting with them. Oh, it's this idle plugin,

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but yeah, it's been good. I've been having, I was going to talk to you about it, but I'll

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mention it now since you're asking. Well, if I can get a light on in here, sorry. Everything's

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half put together in the house. So, just like, there's a lot of just junk that, I mean, I

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shouldn't say junk. I don't, I'm not a stuff person. I like to get rid of stuff and I like

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to travel light and I move a lot. So, that usually helps. And of course, when you move,

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you sort through a lot of things, but I feel like I have a lot of things that are dragging

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me down. I try to get rid of a lot of things. I'd love to get rid of more. Just, it just

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feels like stuff I've been dragging around with me for years. And a lot of it is, I mean,

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seriously, probably about a third of the boxes were bins full of pictures and keepsakes from

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40 years of raising eight kids. And so, it doesn't mean anything to me. I never look

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at it. I just want to throw it all in the trash. And I mean, literally, and then I look

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at boxes of journals and books and stuff. And I'm just like, I don't know. I just feel

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like I want to toss it all. And anyway, that's kind of how I've been feeling. I don't know

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if there's anything in there that you want to address or talk about that means anything

464
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or if it's just life and living in first world countries where we have way too much stuff.

465
00:27:39.160 --> 00:27:45.240
Well, so what's bothering you about it? The fact that you don't want to keep it

466
00:27:45.240 --> 00:27:47.160
or the fact that you feel like you have to?

467
00:27:50.040 --> 00:27:56.040
You're so good at nailing the actual problem. That's it. I feel like I have to keep it and

468
00:27:57.000 --> 00:27:58.760
I don't want to. And then other stuff,

469
00:28:02.120 --> 00:28:10.280
I don't, you know, it's like, I don't know. I don't know if practical stuff, if I should keep

470
00:28:10.280 --> 00:28:14.840
it or, you know, it's all that feeling like, oh, if I throw it away, I'm going to need it.

471
00:28:16.760 --> 00:28:19.240
But the bins of pictures and stuff is like,

472
00:28:19.800 --> 00:28:25.480
I feel like I have to keep it. I never look at them. You know, my son Jonathan likes to look

473
00:28:25.480 --> 00:28:30.920
at them, but I have so many. You never look at all of them. And this is back when we were printing

474
00:28:30.920 --> 00:28:36.040
pictures. And I have so many digital ones from the last how many years they've been digital that I

475
00:28:36.040 --> 00:28:42.280
haven't printed. And it's, it's just overwhelming. And I don't know what to do with it. I thought

476
00:28:42.280 --> 00:28:47.080
about talking to my kids and see if they want to go through them and maybe do something with them.

477
00:28:47.080 --> 00:28:51.640
Or take some of them. So that might be something I should do. Because literally,

478
00:28:51.640 --> 00:28:54.440
if I went in my closet and show you how many bins of pictures I had.

479
00:28:56.360 --> 00:29:05.880
And the most recent ones are probably at least 10 years old, if not more. So, which is a lot.

480
00:29:07.240 --> 00:29:10.760
Because we've had, yeah, been focused so much on digital photography since then.

481
00:29:10.760 --> 00:29:16.040
Been focused so much on digital photography since then. So you're saying, I'm sorry,

482
00:29:16.040 --> 00:29:18.920
you say you said that you don't want to keep them, but you feel like you should,

483
00:29:18.920 --> 00:29:21.320
so you feel guilty for wanting to get rid of them?

484
00:29:22.760 --> 00:29:33.560
Um, I guess I, I guess I, I, I feel definitely conflicted about what I, what I should do with

485
00:29:33.560 --> 00:29:43.480
them. You know, I just feel like I want a suitcase and a bed and that's it. You know, it's just,

486
00:29:44.600 --> 00:29:50.360
stuff is very overwhelming to me. I don't deal well with a lot of stuff. I've always been kind

487
00:29:50.360 --> 00:29:56.600
of a minimalist, you know, I have the five pairs of pants and 10 shirts and I don't even wear most

488
00:29:56.600 --> 00:29:59.960
of those, you know, so I'm not a typical woman that likes a lot.

489
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:05.840
I think I can't mentally, can't mentally have a lot of things.

490
00:30:05.840 --> 00:30:07.840
It's just overwhelming to me.

491
00:30:07.840 --> 00:30:10.000
So anyway.

492
00:30:11.720 --> 00:30:15.600
Well, it's funny that you should talk about this because I've been thinking for the past,

493
00:30:15.640 --> 00:30:21.520
I guess, couple of weeks that I should probably do a, um, uh, I should do, do a live on it,

494
00:30:21.560 --> 00:30:22.480
do a teaching on it.

495
00:30:22.520 --> 00:30:25.800
So we'll, we'll just touch very briefly here.

496
00:30:25.840 --> 00:30:26.280
Yeah.

497
00:30:27.520 --> 00:30:29.920
So, but I was like, Oh yeah, yeah, I should do that.

498
00:30:29.920 --> 00:30:34.520
And the Lord just kind of had it on my heart and I, um, then I was moving and, um, hadn't

499
00:30:34.520 --> 00:30:35.080
done it yet.

500
00:30:35.080 --> 00:30:40.200
So, um, hopefully that'll, that'll be coming soon, but just, just in general, I mean, like

501
00:30:40.200 --> 00:30:43.640
what, like, uh, you know, what you were smiling about.

502
00:30:43.640 --> 00:30:43.840
Yeah.

503
00:30:43.840 --> 00:30:51.360
There's nothing that we have to feel that we should want and should keep, um, uh, those

504
00:30:51.360 --> 00:30:55.400
things because we are, we're the sons of God.

505
00:30:55.720 --> 00:30:59.680
Those things aren't, and they serve us.

506
00:30:59.680 --> 00:31:00.840
We don't serve them.

507
00:31:01.160 --> 00:31:02.800
They serve a particular purpose.

508
00:31:03.280 --> 00:31:10.560
They express us, um, they fulfill a particular intention, um, that we have for them.

509
00:31:10.920 --> 00:31:14.680
And then we can, and then we can just let them go.

510
00:31:15.200 --> 00:31:19.960
Um, and there's no reason why we should feel like we have to keep them because, um, the

511
00:31:19.960 --> 00:31:26.080
thing is that most people have their, their focus and their value because, you know,

512
00:31:26.080 --> 00:31:29.960
wherever our heart is, there were, there were wherever our treasure is, there were

513
00:31:30.000 --> 00:31:32.440
where there's where our heart will be also.

514
00:31:32.840 --> 00:31:34.240
And your treasure is shifted.

515
00:31:34.280 --> 00:31:36.480
Your, your, your treasure is on people.

516
00:31:36.720 --> 00:31:39.920
I know you, your treasures on people and your treasures on the Lord.

517
00:31:39.960 --> 00:31:41.200
It's not on the things.

518
00:31:41.560 --> 00:31:44.040
And there's no reason to feel guilty that it's not on things.

519
00:31:44.040 --> 00:31:45.320
Those things don't mean anything.

520
00:31:45.320 --> 00:31:48.120
They don't have any value other than what we attribute to them.

521
00:31:48.680 --> 00:31:53.080
And if we don't have, and, um, so just because someone else attributes value to

522
00:31:53.080 --> 00:31:59.400
something that can burn, that can be stolen, doesn't mean that you have to, doesn't make

523
00:31:59.400 --> 00:32:02.240
it wrong for someone else to have value on those things.

524
00:32:02.720 --> 00:32:07.480
It just means that that just because they do that, that, that doesn't, that's not a

525
00:32:07.480 --> 00:32:09.360
measurement or qualifier for you.

526
00:32:09.440 --> 00:32:15.200
Um, so, uh, you should jet your home and your things should be a reflection of you and

527
00:32:15.200 --> 00:32:19.920
your spirit and your home reflects something very different than my home.

528
00:32:20.800 --> 00:32:25.760
It's not, not, and, and it needs that the Lord needed you and it needed your home in

529
00:32:25.760 --> 00:32:29.600
the earth and it needs me and it needs my home in the earth because we each perform

530
00:32:29.600 --> 00:32:34.360
different functions, different facets of the Lord's looking at a diamond from multiple

531
00:32:34.360 --> 00:32:35.360
different directions.

532
00:32:35.880 --> 00:32:39.600
And so it's the same diamond, but it's a different perspective of the same diamond

533
00:32:39.600 --> 00:32:40.880
and it's both necessary.

534
00:32:41.400 --> 00:32:49.320
Um, so it, it anyway, uh, I'm, I've gone from a 1400 square foot home.

535
00:32:49.560 --> 00:32:54.480
I mean, not, not now, but I, I, um, like this past February, I've pared down from a

536
00:32:54.480 --> 00:33:00.760
1400 fully furnished square foot, um, 1400 square foot home, two, two bedrooms, two

537
00:33:00.760 --> 00:33:05.320
bath, fully furnished, fully stocked kitchen, nice stuff.

538
00:33:05.360 --> 00:33:11.000
I mean, as if I, the only thing that, that, um, was different from than me from like

539
00:33:11.000 --> 00:33:14.600
someone else is the fact that I didn't actually own the home.

540
00:33:14.800 --> 00:33:20.120
Like, but other than that, I mean, I had the stuff that I bought was high quality.

541
00:33:20.120 --> 00:33:24.640
I was set up for a lifetime and now I'm getting rid of 90 to 95% of it.

542
00:33:25.480 --> 00:33:32.320
And I value was on all of those things and my value has shifted and my, my things now

543
00:33:32.320 --> 00:33:37.120
reflect who I now am, who the Lord has shifted me into.

544
00:33:37.120 --> 00:33:38.600
The Lord has shifted my treasure.

545
00:33:38.600 --> 00:33:42.760
I used to have my treasure so much in things and it was very hard to get rid of the

546
00:33:43.720 --> 00:33:48.280
until he just said, Ashley, you know, these things, you know, they don't, they don't

547
00:33:48.280 --> 00:33:49.920
reflect who you are anymore.

548
00:33:50.120 --> 00:33:51.840
You've matured, you've changed.

549
00:33:51.840 --> 00:33:58.400
And they, um, he's, and he also said I was being burdened by them, that I was being

550
00:33:58.400 --> 00:34:03.360
connected too much, um, uh, that my heart was being connected too much, uh, to the

551
00:34:03.360 --> 00:34:03.640
earth.

552
00:34:03.640 --> 00:34:07.320
And he wanted to sever the connections to give me more freedom.

553
00:34:07.360 --> 00:34:10.199
Not, not, not freedom is in like the fact that I'll be traveling.

554
00:34:10.199 --> 00:34:12.560
Cause there's that as well, but he was like, no, no, no.

555
00:34:12.639 --> 00:34:17.360
Spiritually, Ashley, you need to, I give you the opportunity to live in more freedom

556
00:34:17.800 --> 00:34:19.120
and you're being stifled.

557
00:34:19.320 --> 00:34:23.960
You're stifling yourself and you're in chaining and you're enslaving yourself

558
00:34:24.159 --> 00:34:28.080
because while some people can have a lot of things, could have a lot of things around

559
00:34:28.080 --> 00:34:30.400
them and it could all burn and they'd be fine.

560
00:34:31.040 --> 00:34:33.960
Me, my, my, uh, my treasures were in my things.

561
00:34:34.400 --> 00:34:35.960
Um, they meant something to me.

562
00:34:35.960 --> 00:34:41.520
They, they held an idea in a heart of a particular life, a particular lifestyle,

563
00:34:41.960 --> 00:34:42.800
um, et cetera.

564
00:34:43.080 --> 00:34:46.080
And, um, so the Lord wanted me to be free.

565
00:34:46.120 --> 00:34:50.960
So in other words, my, my, my, um, I now look at each, literally each individual

566
00:34:50.960 --> 00:34:56.719
article of clothing, each individual book, whatever, and think, okay, does this, does

567
00:34:56.719 --> 00:34:59.040
this reflect who I am?

568
00:34:59.280 --> 00:35:00.000
Does it reflect?

569
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:09.900
Like to what my desire and my treasure is or not. And if, and if the time for it is over. Well, then there's no need to keep it. Now the thing is, though, with your pictures.

570
00:35:10.900 --> 00:35:19.500
Some of that, obviously, you know, it might mean something to your kids, especially if your kids want pictures of them when they were children.

571
00:35:19.820 --> 00:35:29.580
Especially they now have children to be able to show them or be able to have pictures of, you know, with them when they were younger with all with you and their brothers and sisters and oh I remember this house and

572
00:35:30.000 --> 00:35:43.260
Oh, I've been looking for this picture. Well, it might be important to them. So it's nice to give them the opportunity, but you don't, but your things need to reflect you. There's no need to feel guilty or anything. So, yeah.

573
00:35:44.160 --> 00:35:47.720
Because you're the son of God. They aren't. Yeah, right.

574
00:35:48.720 --> 00:35:56.600
Okay. Yeah, because there's some things I like, but there's some things I have that I just don't like. So I was thinking,

575
00:35:57.480 --> 00:36:01.720
Well, maybe I shouldn't like any of my things, you know, because

576
00:36:03.240 --> 00:36:03.760
That's where

577
00:36:05.280 --> 00:36:13.520
Oh no, the Lord makes beautiful things we should love things we shouldn't be wish our hearts shouldn't be driven by them.

578
00:36:14.600 --> 00:36:19.360
We should love things we love dogs. We love. I love my dog.

579
00:36:20.320 --> 00:36:20.640
Dog.

580
00:36:21.960 --> 00:36:34.840
I love clothes. So, um, I don't know what else do a lot of love books. I cannot believe how many books I've gotten rid of, like, I don't know, like 90% of the books that I own, which is shocking.

581
00:36:35.640 --> 00:36:47.160
And and but I'm trying to think of what else I love. I love those. I love my sewing things and I like to so clothes and

582
00:36:47.760 --> 00:36:55.880
So my goodness, that's hard. I've got these quilts from, you know, my great grandmother and I've got all kinds of stuff. Okay, so even stuff like that.

583
00:36:56.320 --> 00:37:04.920
I've gotten rid of stuff you know that belongs to family members, you know, stuff with my great, great grandparents. But the thing is, I don't sell them.

584
00:37:05.360 --> 00:37:16.320
I offer them to family members first because it's family stuff. Hey, is this important to you. This is for somebody in yeah sure surely somebody else wants to keep it, but

585
00:37:16.800 --> 00:37:21.120
I've gotten rid of 90% of the stuff that I inherited from my great, great grandparents.

586
00:37:21.720 --> 00:37:31.200
Because it's not important to me. It does not reflect me and I am more important than it and if it's weighing me down. I, it's a problem. God even Jesus even said if if

587
00:37:32.080 --> 00:37:38.360
If you're, if you're, what did you say if your right arm causes you to sin. It's better that you cut it off.

588
00:37:39.480 --> 00:37:39.800
Right.

589
00:37:40.000 --> 00:37:42.960
My goodness, if you would say that about right arm.

590
00:37:44.960 --> 00:37:51.920
Yeah, I think that I think that things for my great, great grandparents need to go to if if if they're just

591
00:37:52.680 --> 00:38:01.320
If they're, they don't reflect me and they don't reflect who it is the Lord made me to be, but there's so much more I could say about this. I feel like I'm not really doing the subject justice tonight, but

592
00:38:01.680 --> 00:38:14.040
And there's, there's a lot more that I wanted to put into into a live because I figured it would be a good way for us to because we express so much of our, our identity struggles.

593
00:38:14.520 --> 00:38:27.160
And our, and our insecurity into our things. That's where they that's where they evidence themselves. They evidence themselves in our marriages and in our parenting and in our thing.

594
00:38:28.560 --> 00:38:37.640
And so if I thought if I could kind of highlight some some some principles of how things

595
00:38:37.760 --> 00:38:46.520
And so that we could actually see it come out in our possessions Luke, we could kind of look at our possessions of it differently.

596
00:38:46.800 --> 00:38:54.800
It would kind of highlight some things in us that, oh, wow. I didn't realize that I was struggling in this area or didn't realize that this meant so much to me or that

597
00:38:55.080 --> 00:38:59.480
This other thing doesn't mean a lot to me and I actually accumulated it out of guilt.

598
00:39:00.120 --> 00:39:10.440
And so and so was getting rid of it. And I thought, oh, you really can't get rid of something that valuable, you know, or I really don't want to keep this but it's apparent. Everybody else thinks it's really special. Well, then they can have it.

599
00:39:11.000 --> 00:39:22.080
Even if it could be a pearl necklace. But if it's not important to us, you know, the Lord that the Jesus wouldn't have kept it didn't wouldn't keep it, you know, so

600
00:39:23.200 --> 00:39:23.600
Anyway,

601
00:39:24.360 --> 00:39:25.040
I had a real

602
00:39:25.040 --> 00:39:41.680
Eye opener about this about a year and a half ago when Renee had a retreat and some friends of hers offered their lake house beautiful lake house fully furnished just let 12 strangers come in and stay there. And I'm just like, it was just like

603
00:39:42.640 --> 00:39:53.440
You know, amazing to me that I thought, wow, they're not attached to their stuff at all. And I've experienced that again since then with a smaller group and another lake house.

604
00:39:53.440 --> 00:39:57.760
Where people just say, yeah, sure. Go use it. It's fine. Everything's there.

605
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:06.640
if anything breaks, let us know, you know, they're just totally not even attached to it at all. And

606
00:40:06.640 --> 00:40:12.240
like, that's the way I want to be totally want to be not there yet. Because I've never had all

607
00:40:12.240 --> 00:40:18.400
this stuff. I want all the stuff that other people I want the lake house with all the fun stuff in it,

608
00:40:18.400 --> 00:40:23.520
you know, which anyway, but yeah, I think it'd be great if you do a do a live on that topic.

609
00:40:23.520 --> 00:40:28.560
It'd be wonderful. Yeah, yeah. Like I said, I don't feel like I'm doing the subject just

610
00:40:28.560 --> 00:40:33.360
justice tonight. So I've actually been helping somebody else move for the past two days. So

611
00:40:35.040 --> 00:40:40.720
now it's back to me. So I've been I was working on me for I don't know, a week. And then I was

612
00:40:40.720 --> 00:40:45.200
helping them for a couple of days. And then now it's back to me. And then the two of us

613
00:40:45.200 --> 00:40:51.760
together and have a garage sale. But everybody's moving. I don't know what the deal is. I don't

614
00:40:51.760 --> 00:41:01.280
know what the season is transition. So anyway, but yeah, did anyone have anything? And anything

615
00:41:01.280 --> 00:41:07.520
else? Steph, how are you doing? I hadn't asked you. I'm good. I'm actually sitting here smirking

616
00:41:07.520 --> 00:41:12.960
about the belongings because I got out of the car today when I got home from the store,

617
00:41:13.600 --> 00:41:18.960
madder than a hornet. Someone had scratched from the front of my car all the way back.

618
00:41:19.840 --> 00:41:25.680
And I literally this past weekend told Dan, well, it's eight years old, but it's only got 80,000

619
00:41:25.680 --> 00:41:30.720
miles on it. It's paid for. Chloe's gonna start driving. I'm not gonna look for a new vehicle.

620
00:41:31.280 --> 00:41:34.000
Like, there's nothing wrong with it. I'll keep it. I'll run as long as I can.

621
00:41:34.720 --> 00:41:39.200
And then I see that, which it goes back to the first week I had that car. Someone scratched it

622
00:41:39.200 --> 00:41:45.840
in a parking lot every dent and bump on it. I haven't done it. But it's like I said, I was so

623
00:41:45.840 --> 00:41:54.480
mad because even if it's not new or the best, I take care of what I've got. So even like I told

624
00:41:54.480 --> 00:41:58.880
you over the house where we're working on it's not finished, but it's a labor of love and we

625
00:41:58.880 --> 00:42:04.800
take care of it. And it does mean something. At the same time, we're trying to clean out because

626
00:42:04.800 --> 00:42:10.560
we are living here and working on it. And there's just too much junk, like way too much junk. So I'm

627
00:42:10.560 --> 00:42:14.560
just sitting here smirking because this whole discussion has been like the story of my life

628
00:42:14.560 --> 00:42:20.320
today. I came home from the store and everything. It's like, I'm done. I got a shower and I went to

629
00:42:20.320 --> 00:42:24.640
bed at like three o'clock and took a nap. I'm done with this day. We're resetting.

630
00:42:30.160 --> 00:42:32.160
Yeah, I did. I had to read it.

631
00:42:33.920 --> 00:42:35.120
Tomorrow's always fresh.

632
00:42:36.080 --> 00:42:36.320
Yeah.

633
00:42:41.840 --> 00:42:44.080
So you said, yeah, that's why I was working the whole time.

634
00:42:45.200 --> 00:42:45.440
Yeah.

635
00:42:46.800 --> 00:42:53.280
So the other things do get in the way. That's one thing we try to teach your girls is

636
00:42:54.480 --> 00:43:00.240
to take care of what you've got, things like that. So maybe we put too much weight on it,

637
00:43:00.240 --> 00:43:05.200
but at the same time, we had a minivan discussion. That was like my whole goal for a while was I'm

638
00:43:05.200 --> 00:43:09.120
going to work and earn enough and I'm going to buy myself that brand new van. Now I'm like,

639
00:43:09.120 --> 00:43:10.240
nah, I don't want a car payment.

640
00:43:12.640 --> 00:43:14.800
That's right. Priorities.

641
00:43:15.440 --> 00:43:20.640
Yeah. And it's just not a priority, but at the same time, it just, it made me, it made me mad.

642
00:43:20.640 --> 00:43:27.280
I was so upset. It's like, I'm trying to take care of my things. So yeah, not to let it be of great

643
00:43:27.280 --> 00:43:31.120
value to me, but I guess it was more important than I thought it was.

644
00:43:32.000 --> 00:43:37.040
Yeah, I know. Wait, I know that's the thing. Yeah. We, we think, we think we're good until

645
00:43:37.040 --> 00:43:43.840
something happens and then we write down and cry. I did. I did in the driveway.

646
00:43:45.520 --> 00:43:46.240
I'm sorry.

647
00:43:48.160 --> 00:43:51.680
It's a hunk of metal that's eight years old and gets me from point A to point B,

648
00:43:51.680 --> 00:43:56.400
but for some reason I was, I don't know, I guess a little attached. Of course I named,

649
00:43:57.040 --> 00:44:00.640
named my vehicle and just random weird stuff like that. So yeah.

650
00:44:01.360 --> 00:44:06.400
Yeah. I know. Yeah. It's kind of like a, kind of like an animal and you know,

651
00:44:06.400 --> 00:44:08.160
if you're going to butcher the animal, don't name it.

652
00:44:10.320 --> 00:44:16.880
Yes. I mean, I teach chicken. We're not going to do a chicken or we're not going to need a cow.

653
00:44:16.880 --> 00:44:22.400
It's a beef cow. We're not going to name it. We won't be able to kill it when slaughtering time

654
00:44:22.400 --> 00:44:26.320
comes. We name it and then come to find out the kids name it. And you're like, ah,

655
00:44:27.120 --> 00:44:33.040
they've already asked if they can have some pet chickens, but Dan's like, that's not how it works.

656
00:44:33.040 --> 00:44:34.320
I know. Yeah.

657
00:44:36.720 --> 00:44:39.840
You know, there's a girl in the church that grew up on a farm and she said

658
00:44:40.400 --> 00:44:45.040
that they got some, I don't know, bull or whatever. I'm probably calling it the wrong thing,

659
00:44:45.040 --> 00:44:51.200
but they named it freezer because they knew it was going to be butchered. So they named it freezer.

660
00:44:52.160 --> 00:44:55.760
There you go. Put it in the fruit, put it in the freezer. That's pretty cute. Yeah.

661
00:44:57.520 --> 00:44:59.840
It's interesting is that the

662
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.480
Passover lamb. I've heard this, I haven't verified if it's true or not,

663
00:45:04.480 --> 00:45:08.240
that they would take the lamb into their house and it would become

664
00:45:08.240 --> 00:45:11.440
like a pet and then they would have to butcher it

665
00:45:11.440 --> 00:45:18.640
on Passover. Is that true? Yes, yeah. I think so. In fact,

666
00:45:18.640 --> 00:45:25.760
weirdly, the, in fact, doesn't it even say in the

667
00:45:25.760 --> 00:45:29.840
Bible to do that? Isn't that part of like an

668
00:45:29.840 --> 00:45:35.040
instruction to take it into your home? I could be wrong, but I thought it's even

669
00:45:35.040 --> 00:45:38.000
in the Bible where it says take it into your home.

670
00:45:38.000 --> 00:45:44.720
And then, but also, you know, the Muslims do the same thing

671
00:45:44.720 --> 00:45:48.800
because they, that's what Ramadan,

672
00:45:48.800 --> 00:45:52.480
I'm trying to remember, is it Ramadan? Okay,

673
00:45:52.480 --> 00:45:56.400
yeah, in Turkish it's Ramazan, so it always confuses me

674
00:45:56.400 --> 00:45:59.760
as which language I'm in. So yeah, Ramadan, I guess, is the English,

675
00:45:59.760 --> 00:46:03.680
it's what they say in English. The, but yeah, they would get,

676
00:46:03.680 --> 00:46:07.920
they would get a lamb and they would keep it for a

677
00:46:07.920 --> 00:46:11.840
week. And of course, in the city, they didn't, you know,

678
00:46:11.840 --> 00:46:15.040
most people, at least in Izmir, were in,

679
00:46:15.040 --> 00:46:18.960
you know, apartments. And so they, the only place for the lamb

680
00:46:18.960 --> 00:46:24.480
was on the, was on the balcony. So they would get a sheep and then they

681
00:46:24.480 --> 00:46:27.120
would keep their sheep out on the balconies

682
00:46:27.120 --> 00:46:30.400
for like a week. And the kids, of course, would love it,

683
00:46:30.400 --> 00:46:34.080
name it, and all of that. Then come, come the end of the week,

684
00:46:34.080 --> 00:46:37.200
they would take it out in this, in the middle of the street, in the city,

685
00:46:37.200 --> 00:46:40.080
and slaughter it. You know, blood's running everywhere. It was very

686
00:46:40.080 --> 00:46:42.480
interesting. You know, hanging from the scaffold,

687
00:46:42.480 --> 00:46:46.960
dripping blood, it was lovely. Stunt to high heaven. Or they would go

688
00:46:46.960 --> 00:46:50.320
out into the really big parks and then they would have like massive,

689
00:46:50.320 --> 00:46:53.760
you know, killings and whatever. So, but they would do the same thing. They keep

690
00:46:53.760 --> 00:46:56.480
it for like a week and they name it and they

691
00:46:56.480 --> 00:46:59.200
get to know it and then make it a pet and all of that.

692
00:46:59.200 --> 00:47:02.880
And then it's time, time to kill it. So yeah,

693
00:47:02.880 --> 00:47:06.400
very interesting. Now, I don't know why the, why

694
00:47:06.400 --> 00:47:09.840
they do that, but they, you know, they do believe that till until,

695
00:47:09.840 --> 00:47:13.840
I don't know, some, they do believe in Moses and all, and a lot of the,

696
00:47:14.240 --> 00:47:18.720
a lot of the, what do you call it, the, the code,

697
00:47:18.720 --> 00:47:22.400
the law that was given to Moses, they do believe in a lot of that.

698
00:47:22.400 --> 00:47:25.600
But they just believe that Ishmael was the son of the promise, so.

699
00:47:25.600 --> 00:47:29.760
But anyway, but yeah, the, I think that is kind of funny that they,

700
00:47:29.760 --> 00:47:33.520
they do name it. I think they, I think that's even one of the things is they,

701
00:47:33.520 --> 00:47:36.720
they do name it. But yeah, but yeah, like what you were

702
00:47:36.720 --> 00:47:40.960
saying, Steph, we don't, we don't realize how much

703
00:47:40.960 --> 00:47:47.040
something means until something happens. And we don't, we don't realize that

704
00:47:47.040 --> 00:47:50.720
we think, oh, well, it's just a hunk of metal. We just realize,

705
00:47:50.720 --> 00:47:54.640
oh, well, it's, it just is this. And I just love it for its practical purpose

706
00:47:54.640 --> 00:47:58.560
until something happens. And then we realize that we have other,

707
00:47:58.560 --> 00:48:03.360
other things that we have that it actually means to us.

708
00:48:03.360 --> 00:48:06.800
And then it becomes much more evident when something happens. And so that's

709
00:48:06.800 --> 00:48:09.680
why I was talking about the fact that I figured that this live was

710
00:48:09.680 --> 00:48:12.640
important for me, that this teaching was important for me to do,

711
00:48:12.640 --> 00:48:16.240
because even though it seemed like totally,

712
00:48:16.240 --> 00:48:19.760
like at first glance, it might seem like totally irrelevant.

713
00:48:19.760 --> 00:48:23.440
It, it's actually through our things that we see, just like through

714
00:48:23.440 --> 00:48:26.960
how we operate in our marriages or how we operate in parenting,

715
00:48:26.960 --> 00:48:34.240
that the, that our things reflect our,

716
00:48:34.240 --> 00:48:38.240
not where our treasure is, they reflect our sense of identity,

717
00:48:38.240 --> 00:48:42.000
our sense of security, that kind of thing.

718
00:48:42.000 --> 00:48:47.840
We, we put our beliefs, our, that our possessions reflect our beliefs.

719
00:48:47.840 --> 00:48:51.360
That's what I'm trying to say. And we talk so much about in our

720
00:48:51.360 --> 00:48:56.560
Rest Intensive about our beliefs. Our, our possessions are what

721
00:48:56.560 --> 00:48:59.760
physically manifest what it is that we believe.

722
00:48:59.760 --> 00:49:02.960
Not just the sheer number, but what we buy

723
00:49:02.960 --> 00:49:06.160
and why we buy it and how we accumulate it

724
00:49:06.160 --> 00:49:11.920
and how stressed that we get about them. If we're trying so hard to save money

725
00:49:11.920 --> 00:49:15.840
that we will, that we will, you know, keep things

726
00:49:15.840 --> 00:49:20.160
that aren't of high quality because we're trying to save stuff.

727
00:49:20.160 --> 00:49:23.360
But then, you know, because that can evidence a poverty mentality. In other

728
00:49:23.360 --> 00:49:26.720
words, God's not providing for me. And then there are other people who are

729
00:49:26.720 --> 00:49:31.840
just like, they're just extremely, you know, extravagant and,

730
00:49:31.840 --> 00:49:35.360
and they're, when I say extravagant, meaning like they're,

731
00:49:35.360 --> 00:49:40.080
they're spending too much money on too many things and they're going into debt

732
00:49:40.080 --> 00:49:44.000
and that can also reflect things about what they believe. The

733
00:49:44.000 --> 00:49:47.280
problem is always the belief. It's not in the things.

734
00:49:47.280 --> 00:49:50.640
And so I thought, oh, maybe I should do one about, about things because that's

735
00:49:50.640 --> 00:49:53.680
when we can start seeing what it is that we really believe about ourselves.

736
00:49:53.680 --> 00:49:57.920
I can face-to-face with myself when, when I go through all of my things.

737
00:49:57.920 --> 00:50:01.920
That's the hard part, is you just get.

738
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.920
Or in that's why people don't like to do it is they come face to face with themselves when they go through all of their things.

739
00:50:07.860 --> 00:50:08.720
I think I will.

740
00:50:10.240 --> 00:50:14.760
I think that's the most frustrating thing for me is like, why do I have this crappy stuff.

741
00:50:15.320 --> 00:50:24.760
And why do I hang on to this piddly stuff like I was looking at. I mean, I used to have a sewing box, y'all are too young. Well, if you're any of you. So you may understand it.

742
00:50:25.640 --> 00:50:33.800
That one box and it had all this stuff in it. She would she had a sewing machine and she would so things now and then she was

743
00:50:34.760 --> 00:50:40.600
Far from a seamstress at all. But, you know, back in the day, everyone had a sewing machine. They

744
00:50:41.160 --> 00:50:52.640
You know, so to a certain degree. And, and so I when I got married. I got a sewing box, you know, and then eventually I was like, why do I have this box. So I just took what I needed and put it in like a little

745
00:50:53.280 --> 00:51:00.480
Like been like skinny been it's like three and a half, four inches wide and it's just got some needles and thread and stuff like that. And

746
00:51:00.920 --> 00:51:15.120
Well, even now that little been bothers me. I'm like, all I ever need is needle and thread. Why do I have some like throw things out of this pin. Why do I have rolls of elastic. I didn't never use this stuff and and I'm throwing it away and

747
00:51:16.120 --> 00:51:21.760
Teared it down. But I mean, the reality is all I ever uses a needle and thread and that's rare.

748
00:51:23.280 --> 00:51:29.200
It's just like that. It's just like, and then I have these, you know, you clean out your kitchen junk drawer.

749
00:51:30.600 --> 00:51:35.640
And I cleaned that way down, but even most of the stuff that's in there. I have all these flashlights

750
00:51:37.120 --> 00:51:41.120
And I'm like, we have flashlights on our phone. Now we don't need flashlights.

751
00:51:43.360 --> 00:51:43.800
Use me.

752
00:51:45.280 --> 00:51:45.800
Anyway,

753
00:51:48.520 --> 00:51:51.320
We're just stressing me out all the little crap that we have

754
00:51:54.240 --> 00:51:55.040
Sorry, I need to go.

755
00:51:57.960 --> 00:52:03.240
Yeah, well, and you know what we always talk about is that

756
00:52:04.120 --> 00:52:12.120
We need to learn to trust ourselves so you can learn to trust yourself in this as opposed to, well,

757
00:52:13.000 --> 00:52:19.920
You know, I probably should have all this stuff. And if everybody else has all this stuff and they value this stuff. There must be something I'm missing.

758
00:52:20.400 --> 00:52:34.360
And but really that again looking at wind and waves. It's not it and it's not trusting that we're that it's not trusting ourselves that we're actually hearing things in the spirit and

759
00:52:39.440 --> 00:52:40.320
She's frozen.

760
00:52:42.240 --> 00:52:42.840
Wasn't me this

761
00:52:45.720 --> 00:52:46.440
You're muted.

762
00:52:50.640 --> 00:53:02.040
There we go. Okay, so, um, it just, it kicked me out and then restarted, you know, you know, my zoom does that sometimes, um, what was I saying.

763
00:53:03.720 --> 00:53:18.920
Oh yeah, trusting ourselves so that you know you're just thinking, oh, you're, you're just resisted in it in that in a bad way, but you're just, you know, putting yourself in the shoes of somebody who's not going to trust you.

764
00:53:19.920 --> 00:53:37.920
And you're kind of pushing against all of this thing of, well, you know, why does it have to be this way. You know, I guess I have to be, you know, I guess that this is the way that that everybody else must know something. I don't. Well, we've all been following, but everybody else told us to do for our business.

765
00:53:40.560 --> 00:53:42.200
But she froze again.

766
00:53:43.760 --> 00:53:44.160
Look,

767
00:53:45.680 --> 00:53:46.440
You're still muted.

768
00:53:50.520 --> 00:53:59.560
I hope that my internet's not low. Well, it does show only two bars. Ooh, hopefully it's okay. Hopefully it'll last us another few minutes and

769
00:54:00.800 --> 00:54:09.160
But anyway, so we have been following what other people have told us to do for our whole lives about about church God businesses.

770
00:54:09.720 --> 00:54:20.800
And it's all gotten us to where we are now and is not a good place. So we decided to change. It's like, okay, the Lord is revealing something different. And there was something in our spirits that just told us

771
00:54:21.520 --> 00:54:28.360
I think that there's something different. And so we just stepped out into it and we're just waiting for God, you know, just kind of showing so you know the same thing.

772
00:54:28.720 --> 00:54:35.720
You know, for you, Amy, is that it doesn't matter whatever how everybody else what value that other people put on different things.

773
00:54:36.720 --> 00:54:37.040
Right.

774
00:54:38.160 --> 00:54:49.160
Trust, trust yourself and just ask the Lord, you know, okay, Lord, are you trying to reveal something me. Is there a particular way you desire me to live that I've never felt like I had permission for you or

775
00:54:51.640 --> 00:54:59.920
That's good. Yeah, that's really good. Yeah, because you. I mean, now that you're saying all this is exactly how I feel like

776
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:04.140
well I'm supposed to have all this stuff I mean this is and then it just makes me

777
00:55:04.140 --> 00:55:12.140
mad like I have to and and I see my son who lives with me who's you know he's

778
00:55:12.140 --> 00:55:19.140
got his room obviously he's never had to deal with a family himself yet but you

779
00:55:19.140 --> 00:55:22.300
know his life is so simple and he packed up his stuff and he moved it over and he

780
00:55:22.300 --> 00:55:26.980
unpacked it and I'm just slaving for days and I'm like oh why do I have to

781
00:55:27.920 --> 00:55:33.400
have to be responsible for all this stuff and so I think it's I think it's

782
00:55:33.400 --> 00:55:38.040
an opportunity for me to practice hearing just letting the spirit lead me

783
00:55:38.040 --> 00:55:42.200
like what do I need here what do I need a needle and thread and that's it okay

784
00:55:42.200 --> 00:55:48.240
cool it was the rest um yeah cuz it feels really good to me to throw out

785
00:55:48.240 --> 00:55:53.600
stuff it just feels really good that was what I loved about moving I was like so

786
00:55:53.600 --> 00:55:58.660
ready just to like release things but my I don't know if it's a problem or not a

787
00:55:58.660 --> 00:56:01.740
problem but it's funny that we put things in our little storage unit we

788
00:56:01.740 --> 00:56:07.700
have here connected to our place and I still have boxes of things because it's

789
00:56:07.700 --> 00:56:12.420
like sentimental value that I like and I don't know that I'll ever really look at

790
00:56:12.420 --> 00:56:16.500
it or need it in the future but part of me is like well Skylar painted that for

791
00:56:16.500 --> 00:56:20.820
me or like these are pictures from high school or things like that so I have

792
00:56:20.820 --> 00:56:24.960
this like attachment I don't know if that's good or bad or waste of space

793
00:56:24.960 --> 00:56:28.720
like I don't know but I've had that's the one things I struggled like parting

794
00:56:28.720 --> 00:56:32.400
with even though they've been in these boxes since high school most of the

795
00:56:32.400 --> 00:56:37.360
things but I just keep taking them with me to different places so dealing with

796
00:56:37.360 --> 00:56:41.920
that right now actually we have when we got married we built like a garage

797
00:56:41.920 --> 00:56:46.440
apartment just something small for us to start out we had Chloe there and it's

798
00:56:46.500 --> 00:56:51.540
like a time capsule because we finished the house enough to move in and we

799
00:56:51.540 --> 00:56:56.300
literally grabbed our stuff moved over here it's like oh we'll get that later

800
00:56:56.300 --> 00:57:01.380
we're cleaning it out like now so I go back which I mean it there's nothing

801
00:57:01.380 --> 00:57:05.340
perishable nothing gross we brought over the appliances all that but I go over

802
00:57:05.340 --> 00:57:08.740
and the pictures are still on the wall it's like walking into a time capsule

803
00:57:08.740 --> 00:57:14.160
that's eventually gonna be Dan's office and my workspace my sewing box is like

804
00:57:14.160 --> 00:57:21.600
an 8x12 room right now that's gonna be my whole studio yeah it's yeah it's

805
00:57:21.600 --> 00:57:26.760
legit so but part of me is like oh this is really comforting it's really cool

806
00:57:26.760 --> 00:57:30.600
and the other parts like oh my gosh I kept that why do I still have this this

807
00:57:30.600 --> 00:57:34.800
is from high school and I won't say how long ago that was so it is freeing to get

808
00:57:34.800 --> 00:57:37.760
rid of stuff but at the same time I understand yeah there's stuff that I

809
00:57:37.760 --> 00:57:41.160
don't know if I'll ever get rid of it it'll probably just go in a tote for

810
00:57:41.160 --> 00:57:44.340
another 10 years right I'm like me I'm just gonna trunk and that'll be my

811
00:57:44.340 --> 00:57:52.280
keepsake yeah yeah yeah I know you get the sentimentals are the hardest thing

812
00:57:52.280 --> 00:57:55.760
and they always say that that's the last thing that the last category that you

813
00:57:55.760 --> 00:58:01.400
want to do because you want to train yourself in practice on things that are

814
00:58:01.400 --> 00:58:05.160
easier so that you can and what it is that you're just is you're doing is

815
00:58:05.160 --> 00:58:10.800
you're not using some arbitrary measurement by which to tell yourself

816
00:58:10.800 --> 00:58:17.160
what you should and shouldn't keep it's what do you what what do and what

817
00:58:17.160 --> 00:58:24.160
reflects who you are now and who reflects the type of person you desire

818
00:58:24.160 --> 00:58:29.760
to be not who you used to be but who you are now and what you want to go with you

819
00:58:29.760 --> 00:58:35.520
into the future and and so they say that it's and so and it's true I've done

820
00:58:35.520 --> 00:58:40.280
it myself and it's easiest to go it's easier to do as things look like say for

821
00:58:40.280 --> 00:58:45.760
instance clothes first then books then whatever because it's easier for you to

822
00:58:45.760 --> 00:58:51.680
begin to discern what it is you want and what your what your insides are telling

823
00:58:51.680 --> 00:58:56.080
you what your spirit is telling you on certain things so that by the time you

824
00:58:56.080 --> 00:59:01.920
get to the sentimentals which is really hard anyway it's it's easier for you to

825
00:59:01.920 --> 00:59:07.760
know what your spirit is saying yes and no to but to start out with that one's

826
00:59:07.760 --> 00:59:13.600
really hard because we haven't learned to discern it to figure out and when our

827
00:59:13.600 --> 00:59:18.800
spirit is pulling towards something or when we're we're actually resisting

828
00:59:18.800 --> 00:59:23.440
something but we're afraid to get rid of it out of some kind of a fear so and it

829
00:59:23.440 --> 00:59:27.520
that's always the last one to deal with so I haven't even I've gone through a

830
00:59:27.520 --> 00:59:31.560
lot of sentimentals and but I haven't gotten rid of all of them I mean it's to

831
00:59:31.560 --> 00:59:34.720
the point where my mother's really concerned I'm getting getting throwing

832
00:59:34.720 --> 00:59:40.080
getting rid of some of my my baby things and and I didn't tell mom this but I was

833
00:59:40.080 --> 00:59:44.480
like well mom that they're mine and they're my toys and I'm ready to get it

834
00:59:44.480 --> 00:59:48.480
rid of my baby things and this is somebody he's just scrapbook like

835
00:59:48.480 --> 00:59:55.320
nobody's business because every tiny little scrap of anything that could

836
00:59:55.320 --> 01:00:02.000
possibly have a meaning I mean and so the Lord is

837
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:16.280
Taking me from that to, you know, to what and he's walking into now to the point where I like had this little painted shoe and like this little baby quilt and all of that. And I'm like, no, it's not me anymore. I can get rid of that. But I'm still keeping my pink bear.

838
01:00:19.920 --> 01:00:27.560
My stuffed pink bear. It was pinkie and I had a brown bear named brownie and a rabbit rabbit.

839
01:00:30.480 --> 01:00:36.360
I was genius when it came to naming animals.

840
01:00:41.360 --> 01:00:44.920
Yeah, we have brownie and blackie and I don't know what else.

841
01:00:44.920 --> 01:00:59.440
Nothing like interesting like a white bear named cloud, you know, I mean, that would be good. That would be clever. But no, I've got pinky brownie. Anyway, so I still in keeping. I got rid of brownie, but I've got I've got ostrich and rabbit.

842
01:00:59.840 --> 01:01:09.960
And and and pinky. Those are very important, but I'm getting rid of like my, my little baby Bible or my baby, my little like ceramic baby boot.

843
01:01:10.360 --> 01:01:15.080
I mean, and a quilt that I don't know who made I think maybe even my grant made that for me.

844
01:01:15.360 --> 01:01:21.280
Because they do not reflect who I am. And I've decided I am more important than those things.

845
01:01:21.600 --> 01:01:30.560
And I just had to get rid of them. But it just took me all these years to get to that point. So what what the thing is that the that the things reflect who it is that I am.

846
01:01:31.400 --> 01:01:39.240
And and I had to decide and discover who it is that I was and had to get very discerning about what my spirit was telling me

847
01:01:39.760 --> 01:01:45.320
Who, who is my spirit. Now what's going with me into the future and and and

848
01:01:45.880 --> 01:01:55.560
And to kind of stand up more in my identity. Who is it that God says that I am. And when I, the more that I know who it is that God says that I am the less I need the things to tell me who it is that I am.

849
01:01:56.440 --> 01:02:05.040
Because, oh, who was I when I was in elementary school, who was I in high school, you know, whatever. God's the one who created me who I am those things didn't

850
01:02:05.480 --> 01:02:13.560
And so the more that I have stood in my identity, the more I can let go of all of those things because they don't tell me who I am anymore. I don't have to look at them to remind myself.

851
01:02:13.800 --> 01:02:21.200
I'm even getting to the point where I can get rid of some of my journals where I wrote down all of my emotional and spiritual processing.

852
01:02:21.520 --> 01:02:29.920
Over the years and learning and those are very important to me to to a writer. It's very, very important. And I'm even getting to the point where I can get rid of those

853
01:02:30.320 --> 01:02:42.520
At least some of them because they no longer tell me who I am because I'm finding out who I am. And so that's why our possessions and that's why I thought that the

854
01:02:42.920 --> 01:03:00.040
The possessions and all that would be good to do because it's like it really is such a such an evidence to us that who it is that we are. Sorry, not who it is that we are, who it is that we what it is that we believe so that anyway, but yeah.

855
01:03:01.520 --> 01:03:04.280
I did that too, for the first time, got rid of journals.

856
01:03:05.240 --> 01:03:05.720
Sorry.

857
01:03:06.560 --> 01:03:12.320
As anyone in our Dubai. I just want to say bye because I have to hop off work scholar. We're finally eating. It's 10 o'clock, so

858
01:03:14.560 --> 01:03:15.760
But we're good to see you.

859
01:03:16.120 --> 01:03:17.120
See you next week.

860
01:03:18.520 --> 01:03:18.920
Bye.

861
01:03:20.440 --> 01:03:21.320
Good to meet you.

862
01:03:21.760 --> 01:03:22.280
Do

863
01:03:22.280 --> 01:03:28.680
We lost Ashley. That's weird. It has Ashley, but it has a new Ashley.

864
01:03:29.920 --> 01:03:32.080
There she is. You're muted.

865
01:03:33.400 --> 01:03:36.680
I know. Oh, sorry. Okay. So what were you saying, Amy.

866
01:03:38.240 --> 01:03:45.880
I said I did that for the first time. I never thought I would, but I would read my journals and they made me sick. I was like, oh, you know, that isn't who I am anymore.

867
01:03:45.880 --> 01:04:03.280
So you must be rubbing off on me. But I threw out tons of yeah I'm a writer to tons of stuff like I had notebooks and notebooks full of stuff, not just journals, but just thoughts and ideas and revelation and stuff like that. And I'm like, I don't, I don't need these. I mean, the revelation is in me. I have it. I don't, you know what I'm saying. It's like,

868
01:04:33.280 --> 01:04:35.040
And then when you unpack you get rid of more

869
01:04:35.280 --> 01:04:36.200
Yeah, so

870
01:04:38.080 --> 01:04:42.000
I'll be going through that stuff, probably with a fine tooth comb.

871
01:04:42.720 --> 01:04:43.920
Yeah, yeah.

872
01:04:44.040 --> 01:04:59.880
Well, I'm glad to hear that this is so timely for everybody that man, I should have jumped. Well, I say I should have remember this and I shouldn't have, you know, apparently it's just all in the Lord's in the Lord's perfect time because I didn't feel like there was a time I was supposed to

873
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:02.520
stop and do it, which is why I hadn't done it yet.

874
01:05:02.520 --> 01:05:05.480
But I just felt, I did feel like this was something

875
01:05:05.480 --> 01:05:07.400
that he wanted me to do.

876
01:05:07.400 --> 01:05:10.040
So as I kept testing for the time,

877
01:05:10.040 --> 01:05:11.840
it just wasn't like the time yet.

878
01:05:11.840 --> 01:05:15.640
And so that's good to hear that this is timely for everybody.

879
01:05:15.640 --> 01:05:16.720
So, and I didn't know you were going

880
01:05:16.720 --> 01:05:18.680
through your time capsule, Steph.

881
01:05:20.560 --> 01:05:23.560
Yeah, we were, I actually, Sunday,

882
01:05:23.560 --> 01:05:26.720
when I finally got to slow down on my birthday,

883
01:05:26.720 --> 01:05:28.240
we were over there doing some stuff

884
01:05:28.240 --> 01:05:30.280
and we have one giant bean bag,

885
01:05:30.280 --> 01:05:32.520
which that's a whole nother story.

886
01:05:32.520 --> 01:05:34.240
I replaced the girl's bean bags

887
01:05:34.240 --> 01:05:36.800
and I didn't look at the measurements very well.

888
01:05:36.800 --> 01:05:40.320
So for their bedroom, I bought two, four foot bean bags,

889
01:05:40.320 --> 01:05:42.320
literally four foot across.

890
01:05:42.320 --> 01:05:43.600
Huge.

891
01:05:43.600 --> 01:05:47.320
So one of them ended up over there because it's ginormous.

892
01:05:47.320 --> 01:05:49.040
So while Dan was working on stuff,

893
01:05:49.040 --> 01:05:50.440
I just literally just dropped.

894
01:05:50.440 --> 01:05:53.080
I just laid there and looked at all the pictures around.

895
01:05:53.080 --> 01:05:55.520
I mean, Chloe and Abby's baby pictures,

896
01:05:55.520 --> 01:05:56.360
all kinds of stuff.

897
01:05:56.360 --> 01:05:57.760
I was like, I remember taking that.

898
01:05:58.600 --> 01:06:00.640
It's literally like going back in time.

899
01:06:00.640 --> 01:06:02.880
So I'm excited to fix it up, but at the same time,

900
01:06:02.880 --> 01:06:03.720
I'm like, I don't know.

901
01:06:03.720 --> 01:06:06.040
I don't know if I want to change it too much,

902
01:06:06.040 --> 01:06:07.200
but that yellow's got to go.

903
01:06:07.200 --> 01:06:08.040
I don't know what I was thinking

904
01:06:08.040 --> 01:06:09.440
when I painted everything in that color,

905
01:06:09.440 --> 01:06:12.120
but you live and learn.

906
01:06:12.120 --> 01:06:13.760
It served its purpose.

907
01:06:13.760 --> 01:06:15.240
It did.

908
01:06:15.240 --> 01:06:16.560
It was nice for the moment.

909
01:06:16.560 --> 01:06:17.680
It's pretty nice.

910
01:06:17.680 --> 01:06:19.560
No longer who you are.

911
01:06:19.560 --> 01:06:21.240
Yeah, I'm gonna have to remember that

912
01:06:21.240 --> 01:06:23.800
because I have so much to clean out.

913
01:06:23.800 --> 01:06:26.360
So I'll remember that trick.

914
01:06:26.360 --> 01:06:27.200
Yes.

915
01:06:27.200 --> 01:06:30.560
Yeah, I'll get on and try to do that pretty quick.

916
01:06:30.560 --> 01:06:32.240
So yeah.

917
01:06:32.240 --> 01:06:33.080
Okay.

918
01:06:33.080 --> 01:06:35.640
Was there anything else before we jump off?

919
01:06:38.200 --> 01:06:40.920
Anything that y'all wanted to talk about or anything?

920
01:06:41.880 --> 01:06:43.280
Assuming no questions,

921
01:06:43.280 --> 01:06:45.800
but I think y'all would have asked it by now,

922
01:06:45.800 --> 01:06:48.280
but anything else?

923
01:06:48.280 --> 01:06:51.160
Well, I just want to comment that even though

924
01:06:51.160 --> 01:06:55.840
my move has been exhausting physically for me,

925
01:06:57.080 --> 01:07:02.080
I haven't been like stressed

926
01:07:02.640 --> 01:07:06.360
or like you were talking about earlier,

927
01:07:06.360 --> 01:07:09.000
emotional ups and downs and all that.

928
01:07:09.000 --> 01:07:13.120
It's been physically exhausting and it's kind of weird

929
01:07:13.120 --> 01:07:17.080
because even though I'm tired physically,

930
01:07:17.080 --> 01:07:20.720
I just, I feel better to keep going than stopping,

931
01:07:20.720 --> 01:07:22.520
which is odd.

932
01:07:22.520 --> 01:07:24.320
I don't know what that's all about,

933
01:07:24.320 --> 01:07:26.880
but I've never experienced that before.

934
01:07:26.880 --> 01:07:29.080
It's like, oh, I actually feel better when I keep moving

935
01:07:29.080 --> 01:07:31.200
than sitting still, I feel tired.

936
01:07:31.200 --> 01:07:32.840
I don't know, it was weird.

937
01:07:32.840 --> 01:07:37.840
But just the emotional, normally I think I just,

938
01:07:38.920 --> 01:07:40.160
when you were talking about it earlier,

939
01:07:40.160 --> 01:07:43.440
I thought that's interesting because it's been exhausting

940
01:07:43.440 --> 01:07:46.360
and I feel like I've been running a marathon for five days.

941
01:07:46.360 --> 01:07:50.080
One day, the day the movers came Monday,

942
01:07:50.080 --> 01:07:51.760
I got up and hit the floor running.

943
01:07:51.800 --> 01:07:54.320
I was like, I have to clean out the fridge.

944
01:07:54.320 --> 01:07:55.600
I was like, that was the first thing I was,

945
01:07:55.600 --> 01:08:00.320
I literally didn't even drink a cup of coffee all day.

946
01:08:00.320 --> 01:08:03.160
I got up and I hit, literally hit the floor running

947
01:08:03.160 --> 01:08:05.720
and did not stop until I went to bed that night

948
01:08:05.720 --> 01:08:07.280
at like midnight.

949
01:08:07.280 --> 01:08:09.360
And so then get up the next morning and do it again.

950
01:08:09.360 --> 01:08:10.560
And I had to go back to the house

951
01:08:10.560 --> 01:08:12.720
and load up the little stuff in my car

952
01:08:12.720 --> 01:08:14.960
and go pick up the lady that was helping me clean.

953
01:08:14.960 --> 01:08:18.479
And we had to clean the whole house and then go back.

954
01:08:18.479 --> 01:08:20.600
I mean, I went back and forth between where we are now,

955
01:08:20.600 --> 01:08:22.439
which is 20 minutes away.

956
01:08:22.439 --> 01:08:25.359
So I did like two hours worth of driving.

957
01:08:25.359 --> 01:08:28.080
I did three trips back and forth that day

958
01:08:28.080 --> 01:08:29.279
and cleaning and everything.

959
01:08:29.279 --> 01:08:34.279
But I didn't like ever feel depressed or frustrated

960
01:08:35.240 --> 01:08:38.200
or angry or, which, you know,

961
01:08:38.200 --> 01:08:40.479
I never like popped off at anybody.

962
01:08:40.479 --> 01:08:43.319
And anyway, it was-

963
01:08:43.319 --> 01:08:47.160
During your moves, you usually feel all this.

964
01:08:47.160 --> 01:08:50.160
I just thinking how easily I get overwhelmed

965
01:08:50.720 --> 01:08:53.279
and how that usually affects me emotionally.

966
01:08:53.279 --> 01:08:56.439
And I'm just thinking about how it didn't really.

967
01:08:58.200 --> 01:09:01.120
Now something else today did affect me emotionally,

968
01:09:01.120 --> 01:09:06.120
but the moving and all that, which was very exhausting.

969
01:09:07.279 --> 01:09:10.160
And today I got up and it was just like,

970
01:09:10.160 --> 01:09:11.560
I couldn't do it anymore.

971
01:09:11.560 --> 01:09:14.200
And I had a meeting, a Zoom meeting at 9.30

972
01:09:14.200 --> 01:09:16.000
and I got all dressed and ready for that.

973
01:09:16.000 --> 01:09:19.120
I did my Zoom meeting and then I went back to bed at 10.30.

974
01:09:19.160 --> 01:09:21.200
And I lay there like a rock.

975
01:09:21.200 --> 01:09:22.240
I didn't really sleep.

976
01:09:22.240 --> 01:09:25.319
I just didn't move until like noon.

977
01:09:25.319 --> 01:09:26.439
And then I got up and I was like,

978
01:09:26.439 --> 01:09:29.040
okay, I think I'm ready for the day.

979
01:09:30.160 --> 01:09:33.399
So anyway, but yeah, I think that was pretty significant

980
01:09:33.399 --> 01:09:37.359
that I didn't really go off the deep end

981
01:09:37.359 --> 01:09:38.800
during all of this.

982
01:09:38.800 --> 01:09:40.960
Yeah, that is, that's good.

983
01:09:40.960 --> 01:09:42.479
I'm glad to hear that.

984
01:09:42.479 --> 01:09:44.479
That's always exciting to get to hear, you know,

985
01:09:44.479 --> 01:09:48.920
different ways that we don't realize how we've shifted

986
01:09:49.720 --> 01:09:50.560
and what it is that we believe.

987
01:09:50.560 --> 01:09:54.960
And therefore it evidences itself in us behaving

988
01:09:54.960 --> 01:09:57.040
in a way that we aren't used to behaving.

989
01:09:57.040 --> 01:09:58.880
So, you know, our belief affects our behavior

990
01:09:58.880 --> 01:10:00.880
without us having to work on our behavior.

991
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.280
behavior. So, yeah, yeah, exactly.

992
01:10:06.640 --> 01:10:10.280
I'm glad. Well, it was good to visit with y'all.

993
01:10:11.040 --> 01:10:13.240
Yeah, you as well. Yes.

994
01:10:13.560 --> 01:10:15.560
All right. Well, y'all have a good night.

995
01:10:17.400 --> 01:10:19.120
Thanks. Bye.

996
01:10:20.160 --> 01:10:22.400
Good to see y'all. Bye bye.