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Good morning, everybody, or it's morning here.

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I just wanted to jump on for my first journey share

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just to say at the most amazing rest group

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with Renata and Ashley yesterday,

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just so many things clicked into place.

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We were talking about weight and like losing weight.

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I mean, yeah, it was just, I don't know.

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I'm the bottom line is I woke up this morning

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and I'm just so happy and I'm driving into work,

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a work that I don't necessarily wanna be in,

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but I'm so filled with joy and I'm at rest and peace

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and just feel like invincible, not like that,

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but just in the sense that, wow,

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I'm really starting to grasp how good God is

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and how for me he is and how I don't have to work for things

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and he's gonna work it out all in his perfect timing

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and I just get to enjoy.

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So even today, like I started with looking myself

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in the mirror and just speaking kindly to my body

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because as y'all know, I go out for swims in the morning.

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So I was like, I love you body, like you are amazing.

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You, thank you for carrying me, like you're strong,

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you're healthy, you look good.

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I just wanted to like bless my body and I feel joyful

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and wanting to just like start this health journey.

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So I've gone from being super like tried every diet there is

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and just been really hard on myself

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and had an eating disorder.

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And then I started on getting a health coach

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and that was really great, but then I lost my dad

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and then I kind of fell off the wagon

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and I don't know, it's been like hard to get back.

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And then after last rest group, I was like, oh great,

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I can just command my body to like come into alignment

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and I will be free and I don't have anything

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and I won't have any struggles with food anymore.

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And then after yesterday's fire,

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like sorry, not fire chat, rest group,

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I was like, oh, it doesn't work like that.

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Like I'm not at that level of faith

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and also I'm telling my body this in kindness

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at the same time as I'm internally in my feelings

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condemning it and not liking it.

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So I'm like, oh, so Ashley brought that to mind

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that, oh no, that has to be aligned first as well.

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So I just feel a newfound sense of freedom

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in going on this health journey,

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continuing to go on the health journey,

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like getting back into eating healthy and exercising,

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but doing it with God from a place of rest

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and not towards it and not towards like,

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oh, I need this specific outcome,

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but probably the outcome will come

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just by me making good choices and hanging out.