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There we go. Yeah, I'm trying to see if I can actually switch to my computer.

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Let's see.

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Hey, Chloe. Will you turn the light on in here.

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First, I had to leave it off because there's some really cool lightning but sitting in the dark.

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Just that one. Yeah, thank you.

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See how this goes.

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Yeah, I should be good. How have you been

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Doing all right. Dan's in Virginia. He left yesterday and be back tomorrow.

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So, oh, it's kind of a rush this evening to get here and now we have a pretty good thunderstorm and Bailey's afraid of storm. So we'll see how long I can stay

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Yeah, yeah.

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Okay, so let me switch over to my computer really quick. So I'm gonna put myself on mute.

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Okay, and then I'll get off the

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Okay.

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Well, that was pretty cool.

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So what I did is I wanted to think so in order to prevent feedback is I had to put myself on mute on my phone and

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And then and then come over here and make sure that I was on mute and then I had to assign myself as the host over here so that I would recognize me over here.

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Nice.

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But yeah, I forgot that I just logged on to my phone not thinking because I do so many of my calls nowadays on

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On so many of my zoom meetings I just do on my phone. Ooh, and I wasn't thinking about the fact that I do prefer to do these to do these

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Community Q AMP. A's on the computer, because then I have it has the panorama of me as opposed to just like this little box. So I'm not have to move a little setup. I've got here. Hey, Susan, you made it. Yay. How are you sure that you're that your team is okay at church. Yeah.

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We're actually we're having a really bad storm. So, oh, if we'll, we'll see how long my internet stays

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Well, same thing for steps. She's having a real issue said really cool lightning. And so she's hoping to see it. She's hoping that she'll be able to stay to so

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We had one. Well, when the bad storm, but we had a lot of rain. Yes. Day before yesterday, I think. So, hey, Catherine.

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So it must be for storms are there in the will not the East Coast because just on the East Coast, but she's West Virginia. So I don't know. I don't, I haven't looked at the radar. I don't know if there's like this line of squalls that

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Anyway.

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So if you can hear my dog in the background.

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But just barely just barely

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But just barely, just barely.

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Has been we we've set outside all day and I and I moved to my office outside for the day. So DASA is fully exhausted, having chased

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Having diligently protected the yard all day from squirrels and birds, including a baby bird that was learning to fly. So I had to try to protect it. It was awful cute. It fell out of its nest.

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And then, and then, and even in its attempt to fly ran into my leg and just kind of flew into my leg into the side of the side of the

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Not the house, but like this little washer dryer area shed it flew in there and that it in an abandoned my leg flew off and then it landed in a hole. I'm like, can you get out by yourself.

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I'm sure it can, but I thought I'll just keep an eye on it. Sure enough, I got it all. I know how they they are like like the second third attempt. It really takes off across the garden. I'm like, you did it.

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It was cute.

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Anyway, but yeah, cute little baby bird. He was terrified of me. He was just breathing really hard.

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He's just looking at me, you know, deer in the headlight look like, oh,

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what are you going to do with me? I was like, I'm just checking on you. We can be friends.

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Little thing. So we had fun outside today. So Doss is very,

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very exhausted from all of her vigilant security work.

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But did y'all ever read the Hank the Cowdog series growing up?

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Y'all ever heard of the Hank the Cowdog series? Okay, so you did hear about it? You've heard about

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it? Yeah. Hank the Cowdog was written by John R. Erickson, who is a Texas rancher. I think West

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Texas, which is where I'm from. And so while we were reading, Hank the Cowdog had ranch security.

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You know, so it's a dog who just takes his bull. He's this mutt of a dog. And his sidekick is

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another mutt. And they take their ranch security duties very seriously. And nobody else,

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including the ranchers, takes them very seriously. So anyway, they periodically get drunk with their

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nemesis's rip and snort, the coyotes. They get drunk with them periodically in the silage pit.

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Just stories like that are just hilarious. And they sing at the moon after they're drunk on

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silage. Which, you know, it's just all that fermented feed. It's stories.

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Anyway, we grew up on those kinds of stories, which is really weird to think of, like,

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you know, talking about, like, drunk cowdogs and children's stories.

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And it's not like alcohol, but it's silage. Well, it's, you know, it's a little different because

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kids can't eat silage. Yeah. Actually, it reminds me, we had a series like that,

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or book like that. I'm from North Carolina. So in the South, it was Uncle Remus.

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Yes. Did you ever read those?

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Yes, Br'er Rabbit. Br'er Rabbit, yeah. My mom could do the accents so well. But I think there

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was a lot of, like, moonshine drinking and stuff like that. And those as well. And I remember,

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yeah, it's just kind of like, why? That's right. Southern stories. Yeah.

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Yeah. In fact, there was a meme going around during the whole, you know, the whole meme fest

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the past few months. And it was a picture of these two bootleggers in there, you know,

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out in the hills of Kentucky or something, you know, when they're still. And it said

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something like, moonshine? Oh, no, officer. We're making, we're making a hand sanitizer.

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Yeah.

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I don't know the full story. But that was something that they always teach my grandma about

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was her family and the holler they're from. I guess a little bit of that went on back in my

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family tree. Oh, really? The moonshine still? Yeah. I have no clue, but. Now, what is moonshine

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again? Is that bourbon? That's bourbon, right? Isn't that what moonshine is? I'm trying to

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remember what moonshine is. There's another name for it that we know it for. And the Redneck

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version, you know, the cheap version is called moonshine. I don't remember what that is.

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I don't know. Google is helping me. Oh, you're gonna Google it for us? Yeah.

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Let's talk about alcohol. But I was I said something a friend of mine said the other day.

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Oh, you know, actually, that's whiskey. I didn't know that. Whiskey? Really? Oh, yeah. It's homemade

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unaged whiskey. I did not know that. Okay, there we go. Now we know. So I guess you know that you

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can light the good stuff, and it'll like burn clean. And oh, yeah, I've heard all kinds of stuff.

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Yeah. Yeah. And like, though, is it bourbon that the light on top of like certain desserts,

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you know, to get them to fling like certain? Is it bourbon? Okay. And you can call those

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flaming desserts that you can get in a restaurant. Yeah. I don't think I've ever had one of those.

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But oh, I've had bananas flambé one time. It was so good. That's right. I've heard it. Again,

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never had it. But anyway, I married into a family that uses hot toddies. So as medicine.

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Yes. Yeah, that was when I had a hot toddy was when my mom. And when my mom made me she could

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not believe that she was actually making me one. Hey, Renee, how you doing? You've landed

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Been on a really fun conversation.

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So she was shocked that she made this for me,

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but it was because I had a really high fever.

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I was an adult with a really high fever at like 103, 104,

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which, you know, is really high for an adult.

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It wouldn't break for days.

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And so, I mean, medicine wouldn't work,

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nothing would work, ibuprofen, nothing.

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So she got desperate and she's like,

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okay, what home remedies will work?

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And she's like, I've heard a hot toddy will work.

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So my own mother shocked me and herself

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by having to look up on the internet

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how to make a hot toddy.

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And I'm telling you what,

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within 45 seconds it killed my fever.

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Three sips in 45 seconds because the stuff tasted awful.

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I mean, it was like, what, lemon, honey, and bourbon.

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And it just, I gagged on it.

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Anyway, I could only get down three swallows,

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one every 15 minutes.

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And it knocked that fever.

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So anyway, but I didn't drink the rest of it.

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It's like, that was awful.

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We literally hid, yeah.

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We hid the ingredients in the sock door upstairs

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because we have kids.

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And I knew, it was Christmas,

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and it would just be like my mom to open a cabinet and go.

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I know.

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Where, mom?

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Dan was sick.

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That's so funny.

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Yeah, like medicinal purposes.

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The only thing that'll knock it when ibuprofen won't.

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He and his dad swear by it.

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Yeah.

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He and his dad swear by it.

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So like hot toddy and go to bed.

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It works.

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It really does.

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With nothing else works.

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I'm like, I need to function, so.

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That's right.

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That's right.

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Yeah.

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So anyway, after that fun conversation,

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does anyone have anything?

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We're about 16 minutes in, I guess,

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does anyone have anything that they've been,

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that they wanted to catch us up on

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about how Laura's been talking to them

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or any questions that they've had

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of something that they've been going through

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when they were wondering,

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okay, well, I know how to do this from one perspective,

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but I was just curious, you know,

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what about from a place of rest or, I don't know, anything.

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Carrie had her baby.

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Very exciting.

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Aw.

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Aw.

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Let's see.

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So funny.

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I know you're going to ask this question,

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but I never prepared.

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I know.

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Yeah.

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I know a lot.

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I think that a lot of people are.

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So eventually, sometimes I have to come up

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with something that someone's asked me throughout the week

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that I think, oh, I think that everyone would,

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and that other people would find this interesting.

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And then eventually it raises other questions

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and people are like, oh, I don't know.

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I don't know.

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It raises other questions and people are like,

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oh, okay, well, I've got a question.

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I just haven't thought of.

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Yeah.

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So I can come up with something.

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I'll sit and think too.

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I'll take on the homework assignment too.

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See if there's anything.

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I need to watch your spiritual warfare video.

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I didn't get to watch it.

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The girls and I were talking every Thursday evening,

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no matter how much I try to preempt it,

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everything falls apart.

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Like, it's crazy.

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It's like, I need to be there at nine o'clock.

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And it took like, yeah, the devil just said, let's go.

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It's like, where's Holly?

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She needs to hear this.

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But yeah, I need to watch your spiritual warfare video.

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I haven't got to yet.

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Yeah.

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But it's literally every Thursday evening

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that it falls apart.

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Really?

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Did it before these things started or not?

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I mean, did it or didn't it?

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No.

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It would like for different things,

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but this is like clockwork.

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And we were even to the point that,

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okay, except for before you get your shower,

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boom, boom, boom.

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And then Tonka was the one that threw the wrench

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in the plans this evening, but the dog.

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Yeah.

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So, oh, you're kidding me.

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Dan calls at 8.30 and said,

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I am literally still in the shower.

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I will talk to you later.

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No.

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So, I forgot what it's like to do

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the whole single mom thing, pipeline wife thing.

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So.

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Oh, that's right.

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Yeah, I'll have to watch that.

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So, I don't know if it, yeah.

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Yeah.

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Definitely feel unrattled.

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I'll watch the video later.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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So, someone had asked me about that.

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Their particular issue was related to

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someone that had,

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that they were wondering,

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that felt that they were coming against them.

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And so, the client was wondering,

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is there, is that spiritual warfare?

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Or is it just that person?

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Or like, is something coming against me

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through that person?

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Or is it?

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And then they began to think,

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well, is there such a thing as spiritual warfare?

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And because I was thought there was,

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and so I worked,

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so I watched.

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through that in a Marco Polo. And I thought, well, wait a minute, spiritual warfare. I need to,

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I need to just do a live about that. Because actually they, in the, and I mentioned it,

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I said, yeah, I should probably do a live about that. So then they got on there and they said,

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yes, please do a live because they said, otherwise I'm not going to know which,

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whenever I need to watch this again, which Marco Polo it was that you talked about that.

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And they said, I'm going to have to remember what was she wearing in that one.

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Amy's told me that before about something. And she wasn't the person who was asking me

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the spiritual warfare question, but she was talking to me about something. And she said,

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you know, it's the one where you're wearing red. That's a good way to remember. And so I thought,

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okay, so instead of thinking so much about what I title everything, I should think much more

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consciously of what it is that I wear and make sure I always wear something different in every

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video. So you don't get confused. Okay. No more purple. I've already worn purple.

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But anyway, so yeah, the spiritual warfare just kind of, just to touch on really, really quickly

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is just the idea that yes, obviously there is still spiritual warfare, but we can understand

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it from a different perspective. And the fact that we can understand that we're not threatened by it

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because everything is under Christ's feet. So we're not threatened by it. But of course,

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Satan can try to tempt us just like he tempted Jesus and Jesus obviously never sinned. And so

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in other words, Satan can come against us just like he did, or it can try to, to confuse us,

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et cetera. But the thing about spiritual warfare is we're the highest power in the universe outside

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of, you know, obviously God. And I mean, well, obviously, you know, God, the father, and then

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Christ who always has the preeminence because we're the body, but he's always the head of the

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body. So we're the highest power in the universe over even over Satan and all those other in other

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spiritual beings. So the thing that they have to do, because their power isn't powerful enough

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against us, they have to get us to use our own power against ourselves. That's what spiritual

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warfare is. And that's why with what say, if you look back and read back with how Satan

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talked to Eve, hey, Elizabeth, how Satan talked to Eve, he didn't, he had to ask her questions

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so that she would try to convince herself of something. He's like, well, did God say,

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and oh, that's not really what he meant. He meant this and wouldn't you like to be as wise as God,

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wouldn't you like to, like God, know the difference between good and evil. He had to

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convince her. He didn't force her into anything. He was not a threat. You know, he could not

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overpower her. She wasn't a victim to him. But she, but he used her own power, which is the power of,

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you know, our belief. He used our own power, he tries to get us to use our own power against us,

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against ourselves. That's why, again, it's the only thing that's getting in the way of us being

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able to live out who it is that we already are in Christ. Because we already have everything.

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The problem is we don't believe we do. And so anyway, that's in a nutshell, which I said in like

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30 minutes in this spiritual warfare video. But that in a nutshell summary, that's what it is

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that I'm saying is where it's not, it's not a threat. And because if something cannot actually

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overpower us, it can't be a threat. Now it can try to threaten us, but not actually a threat.

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Does that make sense? So that's another one. Is there, and I'll go watch the video, but is there

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still a space for like, cause you hear some people being like, speak to the spirit that's coming

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against you and like take authority over it and that kind of thing. Like, okay, as long as you're

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not doing it from a spirit of fear. Correct. Because if you're doing it from a spirit more of

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fear means that we're down, you know, in our soul, in our body, and we're trying to use a tool like

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a spiritual principle, which are very effective, by the way, God gave them to us to use kind of like,

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if, if the sun is going off to battle, you don't want, and they're like, no, I want to go up to

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battle. And God's like, okay, fine. Here's a sword, you know? So, okay. If you won't let me protect

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you, here's a sword, and then you can protect yourself and I'll teach you how to do it. So you

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can do it. But so that being said, we, so we can do that out of, out of fear and, but it's harder

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because we're going head to head and they know all the rules and we know all the rules and it's who

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knows the rules better. It works great when we know the rules, but what about when we find ourselves

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in certain spiritual situations in which they are smarter? They know more than we do about their

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strategies. That's why certain people who do, who have deliverance ministries, and we're talking

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intense stuff. I've had like,

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separate conversations with people who do deliverance,

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people who claim that their souls have been split

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in all kinds of wild things.

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They help, they have a deliverance ministry

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in which they, and there's a lot of people who do this,

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in which they try to help these people

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and they learn all of the spiritual laws.

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They learn all of the ways and the wiles of the devil

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and how to use it and how to use the weapons

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that God created against Satan,

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because Satan has them too and da, da, da.

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All of it works, but it's hard, it's exhausting.

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in order to try to overpower him

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if we're doing it out of fear or do it out of the spirit.

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Now, understand though, this is very important.

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When there's nothing wrong with tools,

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so even Jesus used tools.

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yes, we can command and yes, you can speak with authority.

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and we're speaking in a command,

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we are effortlessly using the tools that God created.

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So we're still using those same spiritual principles.

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We're not ignoring them.

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We're not nullifying them, none of it.

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We're using them and by using them,

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we're manifesting heaven down into the earth.

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We're telling the spiritual principles and spiritual laws,

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okay, I'm over you and I'm telling you,

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this is how I want you to operate.

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we don't have to micromanage

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and know exactly how they do what they do

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in order for them to work for us.

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So there's a reason why God created spiritual principles

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and they're not being nullified or not used

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just because we're operating in the spirit.

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It just kind of like when God put us in creation

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and he put us in the world

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where we're in the middle of things like the wind,

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we're in the middle of waves, we'll walk on ground,

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there is gravity and whatever.

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It's because it's a good thing.

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Jesus was walking and living completely out of the spirit

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and he interacted with the physical world.

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He interacted with physical laws.

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He wasn't always telling them that they were wrong

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and that they needed to do something different.

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He was like, no, God created you to function

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in a particular way and that's wonderful.

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but do not function in chaos,

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believing you're abandoned and alone

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and subjected to frustration.

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We're not getting rid of creation

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just like we're not getting rid of spiritual laws

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just because we're operating in the spirit.

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and submission to, or not submission,

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but into alignment with what truth is in the spirit

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and just manifest what it is that they were created to,

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how they were created to operate,

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how they were created to function.

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to frustration after Adam sinned.

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existed before Adam fell.

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after Adam fell and God gave them to us as weapons

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because, well, okay, you didn't have a need for them before,

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but now you do.

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There is a good reason and they existed.

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that we wanna operate more in the spirit

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and we wanna operate the way that Adam did before the fall,

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we still use spiritual laws, they still have a place.

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their original function and their original identity

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as opposed to the fact that currently creation

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is subject to frustration and tends to be upset

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and act in chaos, antagonism, and maliciousness

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towards us and towards itself.

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where the body turns in on itself.

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It's self imploding in a way.

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It is, it's self-destructing

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and we're trying to tell everything, no, no, no, no,

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this, I'm a son of God and I'm telling you

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this is who it is that you are.

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I'm restoring you back to the way

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that God intended you to operate.

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We're not getting rid of them.

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of spiritual tools and spiritual principles

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is not like, oh, well, only the people who are carnal

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and only when we're operating out of the spirit

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do we need them.

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We still use them when we operate out of the spirit,

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but we use them because we're governing them,

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not because we're in the middle using them out of fear.

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Like, oh my goodness, they're our only hope.

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only savior. I hope that makes sense. Yeah, it does. Yeah. So

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they're good things because God created all those things. It's

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how we use them and what we put our faith in. Do we put our

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faith in the spiritual principles that it says our

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spiritual principles that are going to save us from the fact

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that Satan's attacking us, or someone says attacking us? Or do

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we put our faith? Do we use the tools but you putting our faith

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in the Lord like no, the Lord's the one who's having the

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victory. And I'm discovering the spiritual principles to

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manifest the fact that God's already had the victory. Yeah.

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And it sounds like it's in context of relationship to like,

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everything out of us taking the tool and walking away with it

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and being like, I now have this tool, I can use it whenever I

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want to, it's more about, like, which tool is the Holy Spirit

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like leading us to pick up in any particular moment, if

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there's a tool at all.

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Um, and, um, so not to get really complicated. It's a I

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want to mention this because it's freeing. With a king does

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not have to know everything that his subjects know, in order to

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govern them, and for his subjects to be able to function

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the way they were intended to function, kind of like a

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supervisor at work. He doesn't have to know everybody at the

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ins and outs of every single person's job to be able to do it

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better than they can do it in order to be a good supervisor.

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No, he just needs to know how to provide and I say this from

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experience and having worked as turnaround business consultant,

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that the best supervisors are those who provide an environment

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in which everybody underneath them has what they need to do

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what they know how to do best. They know how to do their job

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better than the supervisor does. And as long as the supervisor

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can, you know, trust those people, the best supervisor just

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provides a covering and an environment in which, which

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facilitates them being able to function freely without

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hindrance, that they have whatever it is that they need

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not to micromanage them. And so it's the same thing for us. We

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don't have to know all the spiritual laws, principles and

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tools and know which tool to pick up and which ones to use in

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order to operate out of the spirit as a king. We just need

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to know how to govern. Everything else already knows

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how to function the way that God intended it to. We don't have to

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know all of the ins and outs of everything. Now, obviously, you

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know, we will, I believe that we will know everything if we're in

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God, then we can come to know everything and learn everything

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and appreciate all the wonderful things that God made. So there's

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nothing wrong with knowledge, there's nothing wrong, but we

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don't need it. We're not dependent on it in order for

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them to function how they should simply because we're governing

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them. So in other words, it's freeing because we don't have to

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know all things. So we don't even have to. So sometimes we

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may not even know which tool the Holy Spirit is telling us to

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use. He might tell us to use a particular tool. He's teaching

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us how to kind of like a how Joseph told, taught, taught his

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son Jesus, and how to, how to use different carpentry tools.

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Well, son, you want to use this tool for this kind of thing, and

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this tool for this kind of thing, and whatever, you know,

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the Lord does the same thing with us, but it's getting those

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things to serve us, not us serving those things. But we

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also don't have to know all the ins and outs of them, of the

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tools in order, and how, and everything that it, we don't

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have to know their job better than, than they do necessarily

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in order to be able to be an effective king and a governor.

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But because we're in Christ, we will come to know all things.

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because we're the creator, because we're in the creator.

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him. So there's an element in which he desires us to, to be

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creators, too. He's bothering us into all of that. But he's

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teaching us here on earth where we can mold clay, and we think

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we're really important. You know, it's like he's teaching us

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to be creators. Yeah, he'll give us bigger stuff later. Yeah.

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anyone have anything else? That was a big one from this week.

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I'll have to think I had anything else from someone else

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this week.

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This is hi to pretty I've kind of been a ghost. Not

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intentionally, but mine's Renee. So to Catherine, and then I

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00:29:56.360 --> 00:29:59.720
think I'm trying to see who else is on here. Elizabeth is new.

465
00:29:59.720 --> 00:30:00.040
And so

466
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:08.720
Susan. Anyway, so I'm in the Dallas area and it's nice to meet you guys. But, um, can you hear me. Okay. I don't know if these earphones. Can you hear. Okay.

467
00:30:11.240 --> 00:30:15.560
What is my question. Um, so I woke up the other night.

468
00:30:17.000 --> 00:30:19.320
So I, so I guess my question.

469
00:30:21.640 --> 00:30:25.920
Sorry, my dog scratching on my door. I don't want her to scratch off the paint. Um,

470
00:30:26.480 --> 00:30:26.760
Yeah.

471
00:30:29.640 --> 00:30:39.600
Come here. Get in. Are you coming in so annoying. Sorry. She scratched and then he left. Um, we have to, um, so

472
00:30:39.600 --> 00:31:05.120
I'm not getting into all the details, but so I, so like when you're making this transition from kind of 60 fold to a hundred fold or kind of, um, more charismatic, you know, teaching, whatever, into like, just better understanding your, um, beloved son of God, you know, um, at rest, that kind of thing.

473
00:31:05.840 --> 00:31:06.480
Um,

474
00:31:08.440 --> 00:31:15.200
And and how the gifts. I'm sorry. I'm kind of trying to put some context to what I woke up to the other night. Um,

475
00:31:15.680 --> 00:31:24.240
Oh, and by the way, everyone when she talks about 30 60 and 100 we touched on this just briefly in the three realms teaching, but just in case I didn't cover it very well.

476
00:31:24.240 --> 00:31:29.920
She was referring to the body as 30 fold the soul as 60 fold and the spirit as hundred fold.

477
00:31:30.280 --> 00:31:36.120
Referencing when the sowing of the seed when the when it said that the seed that fell on good ground.

478
00:31:36.360 --> 00:31:45.040
Some of it reached 30 fold some 60 and some 100. In other words, even though it's good ground, it can read different amounts, depending on the level to which they believe God is good.

479
00:31:45.040 --> 00:32:02.880
Yes. And then to, and to the, and that, that can be as you're reading scripture, you can extract the 30 fold. You can extract the 60 fold as, as the spirit gives revelation or, or the more, you know, from the body soul spirit. So, yeah. So I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make anything confusing, but, um,

480
00:32:02.880 --> 00:32:21.360
So what was I saying? So, and so, and there's a, like the gifts are, you know, in the, in the soul realm and, and these wonderful things that God's given us the Holy Spirit's given us. And so my question, I'm getting to a question. I'm sorry. I'm trying to tee it up a little bit.

481
00:32:23.520 --> 00:32:26.480
For me, like, you know, I didn't grow up.

482
00:32:26.480 --> 00:32:45.920
So over the last 10 years, like 10 years ago, kind of went from being more in the, the body kind of church. Then God transitioned me into more of the charismatic got baptized in the Holy Spirit had really over the last probably seven years, um, just a lot of, um,

483
00:32:45.920 --> 00:33:13.360
More kind of Bethel. I think that's where Catherine said she was more that kind of, um, love Bethel grown so much through their teachings and, but just very Holy Spirit, like feeling the manifestations of the spirit, that kind of thing. And then as the Lord's kind of transitioned me still transitioning me still long way to go into more of the rest that that's kind of been a journey, the last couple of years, um,

484
00:33:13.360 --> 00:33:33.600
The way that the Holy Spirit kind of interacted me with me and where there will be more physical manifestations like him just, just very, I don't want to say demonstrative, but some of you might know what I'm talking about. But anyway, he's just fathering me and teaching me different ways to hear and see and, and sense his presence.

485
00:33:33.600 --> 00:33:55.520
And since his presence, um, as I've kind of transitioned over transitioning, it's not, you know, into more of just this place of rest and intimacy. Um, like that is not, um, as it's just not as prevalent. And so here's my question. So the other night I woke up in the middle of the night.

486
00:33:55.520 --> 00:34:24.320
And it was like having this, this idea of like, when you're riding a bike, you first learned to ride the bike, you have the training wheels and the, and the training wheels come off and you're a little bit wobbly and you're kind of going. So it was like, I woke up. Um, I guess I was just thinking about, um, just this transition from relying so heavily on operating from the gifts of spirit to this transition of like knowing like, and just believing God for his word.

487
00:34:24.320 --> 00:34:53.320
And we should do that with the other, but I'm just saying like, it's just a different place of rest and not, no, not as much striving, not as much. Anyway, all this stuff that Ashley's teaching, um, and other people teach as well. But for this purpose, all the different videos that she's been teaching and talking about. And so my question, I know there is going to be a question. I promise, um, was, it was like, I woke up and it was like my, I was, it was like this sense. And of course I'm in the middle of the night.

488
00:34:53.320 --> 00:34:59.320
I'm asleep but in my sleep, I'm like this grieving. It's like this grieving. Cause it was like this.

489
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:08.720
was this grieving in a bad way, but just like missing like the way that the Lord would interact

490
00:35:08.720 --> 00:35:15.000
with me over the last, you know, seven or eight, I guess this transition's been, I've

491
00:35:15.000 --> 00:35:19.800
kind of been on this journey for maybe a year and probably two years, I think is when I

492
00:35:19.800 --> 00:35:25.640
kind of got introduced to some of this teaching. But, and so there was this grieving, but I've

493
00:35:25.640 --> 00:35:29.200
not, but anyway, so it was just, I was just curious. That was my question. Like, Ashley,

494
00:35:29.200 --> 00:35:34.440
has that been, or maybe any of you other girls, like, has there been this sense of like not

495
00:35:34.440 --> 00:35:39.200
grieving, like, cause this is where I want to be. And I, my intimacy with the Lord is

496
00:35:39.200 --> 00:35:46.960
far exceeds where I was with him. I mean, but it's all been sweet, right? He's good

497
00:35:46.960 --> 00:35:50.720
no matter what, but it was just interesting. I kind of woke up and like, that's what I

498
00:35:50.720 --> 00:35:56.360
was thinking about. Oh, training wheels off. And it's a little bit awkward, but then, you

499
00:35:56.360 --> 00:35:59.960
know, I don't really know what my question is. I guess it's more the grieving. Does that,

500
00:35:59.960 --> 00:36:03.960
does that make sense? Like, but that was just when I was in the middle of the night, totally

501
00:36:03.960 --> 00:36:07.280
asleep. And then during the day, like, I don't really think about it. I'm like, Oh, I'm not

502
00:36:07.280 --> 00:36:10.600
sad. Like, I love the place that the Lord has me right now. And the depth that he's

503
00:36:10.600 --> 00:36:13.800
taking me in the revelation that he's showing me and that kind of thing. But it was just

504
00:36:13.800 --> 00:36:17.600
interesting in the middle of the night waking up. And those are kind of the things going

505
00:36:17.600 --> 00:36:25.000
through my, that I was thinking about going, Oh, this is interesting. This, you know, whatever.

506
00:36:25.000 --> 00:36:31.240
So I don't know if any of that makes sense, but it does. I think it's a really fascinating

507
00:36:31.240 --> 00:36:36.440
point to bring up. It's the same way that we grieve when our parent, when our children

508
00:36:36.440 --> 00:36:44.480
go through are no longer babies and then grow up that it's not that you don't enjoy where

509
00:36:44.480 --> 00:36:48.640
your children are now. Oh my word. You can just relate to your, your, you know, that

510
00:36:48.640 --> 00:36:52.920
you're a 10 year old in different ways than you could when they were a baby. And yet the

511
00:36:52.920 --> 00:36:56.400
baby years are precious. So in other words, the grieving means that you, you treasure

512
00:36:56.400 --> 00:37:00.880
and then you valued what it is that the Lord had given because they go gives good things.

513
00:37:00.880 --> 00:37:06.600
So he had fathered you into, fathered all of this into the seasons that we, that we

514
00:37:06.600 --> 00:37:12.320
have been in on our journey because it's the kindness of God that leads into, it shifts

515
00:37:12.320 --> 00:37:18.680
us and calls us into new seasons. But just because he calls us to repent, in other words,

516
00:37:18.680 --> 00:37:23.920
to leave one season that he called us into, to leave one season and to begin a new season

517
00:37:23.920 --> 00:37:28.520
doesn't mean that we don't value the other season. It doesn't mean that it wasn't good.

518
00:37:28.520 --> 00:37:33.200
And so we can grieve it. And then the fact that we're like, well, I'm leaving that. And

519
00:37:33.200 --> 00:37:38.920
yes, I'm leaving it for something better, but the grieving means I appreciated it. I

520
00:37:38.920 --> 00:37:44.160
valued it. It was special and Lord, you know, this is my letting it go. And this is my,

521
00:37:44.160 --> 00:37:49.560
there's a grieving process. Like when we let loved ones go, it's, it's just this, it's,

522
00:37:49.560 --> 00:38:00.240
it's just, it's an acknowledgment of how much we valued and appreciated the gift of what

523
00:38:00.240 --> 00:38:05.040
it is that God had given us and how we had interacted with him in relationship. I think

524
00:38:05.040 --> 00:38:12.480
that that's really, really fascinating to, to bring out. Because yeah, I mean, it makes,

525
00:38:12.520 --> 00:38:18.400
it makes complete sense. And I found it neat that you, you did it when you were, you know,

526
00:38:18.400 --> 00:38:22.560
you encountered that when you were sleeping, but not so much in your conscious state. So

527
00:38:22.560 --> 00:38:27.000
apparently, you know, your soul, because a lot of times in our dream state, it's not just,

528
00:38:27.000 --> 00:38:31.320
it's not just things that we're experiencing in the spirit, but also things that in which

529
00:38:31.320 --> 00:38:35.440
our soul things that can come up out of our soul can evidence themselves in our dream state as

530
00:38:35.440 --> 00:38:39.920
well. And it might be just be something that, you know, your soul is going through that your

531
00:38:39.920 --> 00:38:46.200
consciousness wasn't aware of, but you became aware of the fact that subconsciously there's

532
00:38:46.200 --> 00:38:53.840
an element of you that's grieving and, and the, the transition and the law, I don't want to say

533
00:38:53.840 --> 00:38:59.200
the loss, but let's just call it a loss, the loss of one, the movement from one season into another,

534
00:38:59.200 --> 00:39:03.520
the letting go of one thing, which is always a good thing, but letting go the releasing of one

535
00:39:03.520 --> 00:39:10.080
thing in order to have another, but we just value the preciousness of what that was. I think that

536
00:39:10.080 --> 00:39:14.440
that's really sweet, really sweet. And I liked how you said that you didn't feel like there was this,

537
00:39:14.440 --> 00:39:18.120
I don't remember the word you use, but you're like, you didn't feel like it was bad or that

538
00:39:18.120 --> 00:39:22.600
there was like this heaviness or negativity to it, but you did acknowledge the fact that you

539
00:39:22.600 --> 00:39:27.760
could acknowledge the fact that this is grieving now. No, it was, it was a really sweet, it was

540
00:39:27.760 --> 00:39:34.840
like a, just a night kind of encounter where it was like, it was just this, it was a remembering,

541
00:39:34.840 --> 00:39:41.400
a fond remembering of, oh gosh, Lord, we had all these really sweet times together. And the way

542
00:39:41.400 --> 00:39:47.600
that you were fathering me and teaching me, cause it was, you know, just very, I felt like he put me

543
00:39:47.600 --> 00:39:53.800
in the microwave and, and press double high for the way he fathered me through several things.

544
00:39:53.920 --> 00:39:54.920
Oh, I'm sorry.

545
00:39:54.920 --> 00:39:59.880
And so, yeah, so it was, but it was interesting cause it was in the middle of the night and

546
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.200
And then, yeah, and then the very next night,

547
00:40:04.200 --> 00:40:08.080
I woke up again, just basically about the same time.

548
00:40:08.080 --> 00:40:11.720
And what he was talking to me about then

549
00:40:11.720 --> 00:40:14.120
was more about kind of what you were teaching

550
00:40:14.120 --> 00:40:15.640
a little bit on with the spiritual warfare,

551
00:40:15.640 --> 00:40:20.480
which was, he said, when you soar,

552
00:40:20.480 --> 00:40:25.480
when you fly above the turbulence or fly above the clouds,

553
00:40:25.600 --> 00:40:27.800
he said, fly above the clouds,

554
00:40:27.800 --> 00:40:30.600
you miss the turbulence below.

555
00:40:30.600 --> 00:40:32.120
And so it was just this,

556
00:40:32.120 --> 00:40:36.600
and which I've walked through all the turbulence

557
00:40:36.600 --> 00:40:38.160
in the middle with the spiritual warfare

558
00:40:38.160 --> 00:40:39.360
back at the 10 years ago,

559
00:40:39.360 --> 00:40:40.800
which I know I shared with you, Ashley,

560
00:40:40.800 --> 00:40:42.680
but anyway, it was just interesting.

561
00:40:42.680 --> 00:40:46.240
Again, he was just reminding me again,

562
00:40:46.240 --> 00:40:47.680
like, this is where you wanna be,

563
00:40:47.680 --> 00:40:49.800
living above the clouds.

564
00:40:49.800 --> 00:40:53.320
And so that's kind of, I woke up with that thought,

565
00:40:53.320 --> 00:40:56.680
like, live above the clouds

566
00:40:56.680 --> 00:40:58.280
and the storms and turbulence below.

567
00:40:58.280 --> 00:41:00.840
Like, if I'm hidden in him and living in him,

568
00:41:00.840 --> 00:41:04.520
then conscious of whatever.

569
00:41:04.520 --> 00:41:05.600
So I'm not gonna get into all that,

570
00:41:05.600 --> 00:41:06.560
but it was just interesting.

571
00:41:06.560 --> 00:41:07.800
That was kind of back to back.

572
00:41:07.800 --> 00:41:09.560
It was like kind of a grieving,

573
00:41:09.560 --> 00:41:12.120
but then this like excitement of this new,

574
00:41:14.280 --> 00:41:17.920
discontinued to this new place of living.

575
00:41:17.920 --> 00:41:18.760
So anyway.

576
00:41:18.760 --> 00:41:19.840
Yeah, which is perfect

577
00:41:19.840 --> 00:41:21.400
because it shows you can appreciate it.

578
00:41:21.400 --> 00:41:23.520
I'm sorry, were you gonna say something, Catherine?

579
00:41:23.520 --> 00:41:26.520
I was just gonna piggyback on that if I can.

580
00:41:27.840 --> 00:41:30.600
Cause I think I've experienced something similarly,

581
00:41:30.600 --> 00:41:34.040
even just in the couple of weeks that I've been in this.

582
00:41:34.040 --> 00:41:36.040
Like I, like her,

583
00:41:36.040 --> 00:41:37.560
I've been through a season where

584
00:41:37.560 --> 00:41:39.760
there was a lot of just like papa,

585
00:41:39.760 --> 00:41:42.600
just like, okay, step by step by step.

586
00:41:42.600 --> 00:41:45.920
And so much like handholding and experiencing him

587
00:41:45.920 --> 00:41:48.320
and manifestations and that kind of thing.

588
00:41:48.320 --> 00:41:50.960
And then as I've gotten to where

589
00:41:51.440 --> 00:41:55.120
he's like, okay, like you can go make your decisions now.

590
00:41:57.360 --> 00:41:59.400
I think it just finally sunk in for me.

591
00:41:59.400 --> 00:42:00.760
So I was just gonna throw this in there

592
00:42:00.760 --> 00:42:02.280
in case it helps anybody else too.

593
00:42:02.280 --> 00:42:04.200
But I think it finally sunk in for me the other day

594
00:42:04.200 --> 00:42:09.200
when I realized like that's the maturing process,

595
00:42:09.280 --> 00:42:11.800
is like we start out as kids.

596
00:42:11.800 --> 00:42:14.040
And so the grieving even feels like,

597
00:42:14.040 --> 00:42:18.720
I think like grieving how you were sort of babied

598
00:42:18.720 --> 00:42:20.560
when you were a kid and like,

599
00:42:21.120 --> 00:42:22.480
your mom like took care of everything

600
00:42:22.480 --> 00:42:25.200
and then you start growing up and it's like,

601
00:42:25.200 --> 00:42:26.960
now you have to figure out life on your own

602
00:42:26.960 --> 00:42:28.480
or you have to make your own decisions

603
00:42:28.480 --> 00:42:30.760
because they're actually like trying to teach you

604
00:42:30.760 --> 00:42:32.520
to be good decision makers.

605
00:42:35.280 --> 00:42:38.440
So it just, it really ministered to me the other day

606
00:42:38.440 --> 00:42:40.600
cause the Lord like just showed me the example

607
00:42:40.600 --> 00:42:45.400
of basically like he's a king teaching me how to be a king.

608
00:42:45.400 --> 00:42:50.000
And I can't like, I can't be a king or a queen

609
00:42:50.360 --> 00:42:51.960
if I'm constantly going back to him

610
00:42:51.960 --> 00:42:53.480
and asking him what to do.

611
00:42:53.480 --> 00:42:56.600
But there's like a, there's a more independence

612
00:42:56.600 --> 00:43:01.000
and there are moments now where he'll be like

613
00:43:01.000 --> 00:43:05.080
what feels like silent because he's actually waiting

614
00:43:05.080 --> 00:43:06.720
for me to show up with something

615
00:43:07.840 --> 00:43:09.560
because he wants my input.

616
00:43:09.560 --> 00:43:13.040
And that has been like a really interesting switch for me

617
00:43:13.040 --> 00:43:16.720
where it's like, oh, what do I want?

618
00:43:17.000 --> 00:43:18.520
You know?

619
00:43:18.520 --> 00:43:20.160
So I don't know if anyone else has felt that,

620
00:43:20.160 --> 00:43:25.160
but I can just so relate to the, like, it feels exciting

621
00:43:26.280 --> 00:43:28.880
but it's also like, oh, at first,

622
00:43:28.880 --> 00:43:32.080
but I wouldn't go back, you know?

623
00:43:32.080 --> 00:43:32.920
Yeah.

624
00:43:32.920 --> 00:43:33.960
So.

625
00:43:33.960 --> 00:43:34.800
And you're right.

626
00:43:34.800 --> 00:43:36.720
It is the maturing process.

627
00:43:36.720 --> 00:43:38.120
You know, we're being fathered into it.

628
00:43:38.120 --> 00:43:41.280
We're being taught by tutors and governors.

629
00:43:41.280 --> 00:43:43.280
You know, it says that, you know, when you're young

630
00:43:43.280 --> 00:43:44.920
you're taught by tutors and governors

631
00:43:44.920 --> 00:43:48.680
even though they, the tutors and governors are,

632
00:43:48.680 --> 00:43:51.640
even though you are a king

633
00:43:51.640 --> 00:43:54.840
and the tutors and governors are subject to you,

634
00:43:54.840 --> 00:43:58.040
they will teach you how to,

635
00:43:58.040 --> 00:44:00.080
it's really interesting how all that works.

636
00:44:00.080 --> 00:44:03.080
But anyway, that all aside, yeah,

637
00:44:03.080 --> 00:44:06.440
that whole thing of being fathered into how to be a king,

638
00:44:06.440 --> 00:44:08.160
how to start making your own decisions.

639
00:44:08.160 --> 00:44:09.840
You know, when we're really young,

640
00:44:09.840 --> 00:44:12.120
our parents teach us how to make decisions.

641
00:44:12.120 --> 00:44:13.520
It's like, okay, well, you know,

642
00:44:13.520 --> 00:44:15.200
we're gonna help you pick out these things

643
00:44:15.200 --> 00:44:16.040
when you're really young.

644
00:44:16.040 --> 00:44:19.040
But the, one of the stories that I've heard of

645
00:44:20.080 --> 00:44:22.800
is a way that I've heard it described is,

646
00:44:22.800 --> 00:44:26.680
you know, if you, you're really young and you get to,

647
00:44:26.680 --> 00:44:28.560
you know, your parents pick out your shoes for you.

648
00:44:28.560 --> 00:44:30.960
You know, when you're little and you've got your own,

649
00:44:30.960 --> 00:44:33.320
you've got your own room and they were gonna tell you,

650
00:44:33.320 --> 00:44:35.440
you're gonna wear these shoes.

651
00:44:35.440 --> 00:44:37.160
And you're like, okay, I'm gonna wear these shoes.

652
00:44:37.160 --> 00:44:39.440
And then you finally, you know, get to be four years old

653
00:44:39.440 --> 00:44:40.840
and they'll say, okay, you can wear these shoes

654
00:44:40.840 --> 00:44:42.520
or these shoes, which ones you want.

655
00:44:42.520 --> 00:44:44.400
They're teaching you how to make decisions,

656
00:44:44.400 --> 00:44:47.680
but in a limited, with limited options.

657
00:44:47.680 --> 00:44:49.960
And then as you get older, well then, you know,

658
00:44:49.960 --> 00:44:53.320
that you have the opportunity to pick your own shoes

659
00:44:53.320 --> 00:44:56.200
and then eventually you buy your own shoes.

660
00:44:56.200 --> 00:45:00.200
So it, it just, he fathers it.

661
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:09.040
In the same way he teaches us how to make decisions and he does it in a safe environment, but he just teach us how to make our own decisions.

662
00:45:09.880 --> 00:45:24.840
Independently, in a way. Now, yeah, it's not completely independently, but it's more like being learning to think for ourselves and have a desire and and and bring ourselves, you know, to the table with it. So yeah, you're right. Yeah, so

663
00:45:24.840 --> 00:45:37.840
I think that's a really, really interesting and experience that both of y'all have had about that, about that, leaving one and moving into the other and grieving. Grieving what it is that that you're leaving.

664
00:45:38.840 --> 00:45:53.840
So, because, yes, that that can happen, especially if what you've been given was such was such amazing revelation that it, you know, was, um, it just saved you. For me, I have not grieved it, but I think that's because I've learned a lot from it.

665
00:45:54.840 --> 00:46:09.840
Because I held on to it so long that I didn't want to leave it because it was my what God moved me into before he moved me into the the rest that I that he's moved me into now where I came from.

666
00:46:09.840 --> 00:46:21.840
And that place was was a freedom that I at one point moved into and I stayed in there, quote unquote, too long because I didn't want to leave someplace that was safe.

667
00:46:22.840 --> 00:46:34.840
Because that compared to what I'd left was safe and it was freedom. So, but the problem is I stayed in it too long that by the time God moves me out. I was burnt out and I had like I was on fumes.

668
00:46:35.840 --> 00:46:53.840
I had been in it longer than the grace had been provided for to sustain me in it. And so I didn't experience the grieving process and just because I used it all up, so to speak, I'd use that that I hadn't moved out of that phase and into the new one.

669
00:46:54.840 --> 00:46:56.840
Soon enough, so it's good to know that y'all have

670
00:46:59.840 --> 00:47:05.840
More responsive and when you were hearing the voice of the Lord. So that's good. I tried to be much more flexible.

671
00:47:06.840 --> 00:47:10.840
Don't let me fool you. I think I stayed in my last season, a little bit too long, so

672
00:47:12.840 --> 00:47:12.840


673
00:47:16.840 --> 00:47:17.840
Don't want to let go

674
00:47:17.840 --> 00:47:26.840
I know, I know, I know. We don't, we don't. But, but it is it's it's precious in so many different ways. Like, like what you were talking about running

675
00:47:27.840 --> 00:47:41.840
The fact that you can value so much what you have the Lord and what he called you into and what he revealed himself to you and that that he saved you into himself in that season.

676
00:47:42.840 --> 00:47:47.840
And then he's like, I will provide you a safety net and I will pull you into it.

677
00:47:48.840 --> 00:47:57.840
In that now he's like, okay, so let's leave that and let's go into something better. It's like, oh, but Lord, that was really good. So we'll just leave that one for a little bit to just acknowledge how precious that that was

678
00:47:57.840 --> 00:48:06.840
But you're moving into something even better. The best of both worlds. So to miss what you had, as opposed to be like, oh my word, I don't want to, you know,

679
00:48:06.840 --> 00:48:14.840
Make me I have very different perspective that I love. That's because I didn't move fast enough. Anyway, it's all according to and

680
00:48:15.840 --> 00:48:26.840
I don't know, you know, it all, it all works out for and for the best. And it, it has given me plenty of stories and content for the rest intensive

681
00:48:27.840 --> 00:48:29.840
Within the other entirely too long.

682
00:48:29.840 --> 00:48:40.840
So I can relate to pretty much I can really relate to almost anything that y'all have brought up. Oh my god. Yeah, I love that one because I wasn't it too long anyway.

683
00:48:41.840 --> 00:48:44.840
Hey, Elizabeth. It's nice to see your face. Lovely hat.

684
00:48:44.840 --> 00:48:50.840
I thank you. So good to see you girls. This is my first time with my girl Catherine on here too because I

685
00:48:50.840 --> 00:48:54.840
I had to miss last Thursday out of town. So this is really extra special

686
00:48:54.840 --> 00:49:02.840
Your explanation of I know I came in late. I have these prayer meetings for my house church that have been landing the same evening.

687
00:49:03.840 --> 00:49:15.840
So I keep coming in late, but I caught a lot of the spiritual warfare question, even though I didn't catch the initial question I caught on, I think. And it was really cool to that the timing of that because I feel like that's

688
00:49:15.840 --> 00:49:22.840
Yeah, that's like right where I'm at. And even I have this example of just two nights ago like it's still very fresh in my mind of

689
00:49:23.840 --> 00:49:32.840
Of that like that switch and what you're talking about with with governing and the way in which we, you know, have authority and even like

690
00:49:32.840 --> 00:49:46.840
We're trying to access these these things from a place of a fear of feeling like we're abandoned or it's up to us. And so it's like really timely and and cool like I

691
00:49:46.840 --> 00:49:50.840
I don't know if I'm saying this in the right way, but I just feel like it's like

692
00:49:51.840 --> 00:49:51.840


693
00:49:51.840 --> 00:49:51.840


694
00:49:51.840 --> 00:49:52.840
Yeah.

695
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.080
I can tell you real quick the example, but it was,

696
00:50:03.080 --> 00:50:05.240
so my youngest daughter just turned seven.

697
00:50:05.240 --> 00:50:07.200
We were on a trip in New Mexico,

698
00:50:07.200 --> 00:50:10.000
our first vacation since my divorce,

699
00:50:10.000 --> 00:50:11.880
and really that's like four and a half years

700
00:50:11.880 --> 00:50:12.960
since the separation.

701
00:50:12.960 --> 00:50:15.560
So it was a huge deal, total answer to prayer

702
00:50:15.560 --> 00:50:17.780
that we even got to go without complications

703
00:50:17.780 --> 00:50:20.280
because it's literally the first time that's ever happened

704
00:50:20.280 --> 00:50:22.080
where even on a weekend together,

705
00:50:22.080 --> 00:50:25.840
just normal weekend in town staycation,

706
00:50:25.840 --> 00:50:27.160
there hasn't been drama.

707
00:50:27.160 --> 00:50:28.940
And so that was a huge answer to prayer.

708
00:50:28.980 --> 00:50:31.860
Well, yes, Susan, you understand.

709
00:50:31.860 --> 00:50:33.620
Oh my gosh, she gets it, yes.

710
00:50:33.620 --> 00:50:36.580
I know Susan got to go similarly on vacation recently,

711
00:50:36.580 --> 00:50:40.180
and then I had you girls pray for my other friend, Layla,

712
00:50:40.180 --> 00:50:42.820
who has a similar situation with her ex-husband,

713
00:50:42.820 --> 00:50:45.340
and she got to go on her vacation last second,

714
00:50:45.340 --> 00:50:47.620
not open the door, so it's just beautiful.

715
00:50:47.620 --> 00:50:50.460
Anyways, the second to last, or the very last night

716
00:50:50.460 --> 00:50:52.140
that we were in New Mexico, you girls,

717
00:50:52.140 --> 00:50:56.720
it was late at night, we had five kids, ages one to eight.

718
00:50:56.720 --> 00:51:00.360
So it was nonstop, constantly somebody's needing something

719
00:51:00.360 --> 00:51:02.520
or fed or nursed or whatever.

720
00:51:02.520 --> 00:51:04.240
So we finally get the kids to sleep,

721
00:51:04.240 --> 00:51:07.040
and we had gone to this beautiful, amazing restaurant,

722
00:51:07.040 --> 00:51:10.440
New Mexican restaurant with the red chilies hanging down

723
00:51:10.440 --> 00:51:13.640
and the most beautiful architecture,

724
00:51:13.640 --> 00:51:16.040
and it was just the classic New Mexican place

725
00:51:16.040 --> 00:51:19.400
with amazing food while we put all the kids to bed,

726
00:51:19.400 --> 00:51:21.200
and I'm sleeping with my youngest.

727
00:51:21.200 --> 00:51:23.320
We lay down, she says, I'm feeling sick.

728
00:51:23.320 --> 00:51:25.680
Fast forward, she's gonna throw up, she thinks,

729
00:51:25.680 --> 00:51:27.280
so we go into the bathroom, and I'm like,

730
00:51:27.280 --> 00:51:29.560
I'm calm through all this, thinking like, okay, okay,

731
00:51:29.560 --> 00:51:32.740
but then it became this thing where then she starts saying,

732
00:51:32.740 --> 00:51:35.760
she starts shivering and going, I'm hot, I'm cold,

733
00:51:35.760 --> 00:51:38.000
I'm hot, I'm cold, and I'm gonna throw up,

734
00:51:38.000 --> 00:51:40.160
and I'm thinking, we fly out tomorrow,

735
00:51:40.160 --> 00:51:41.680
and of course I have this ex-husband

736
00:51:41.680 --> 00:51:44.180
that's always waiting on a chance to pounce on me

737
00:51:44.180 --> 00:51:45.600
for something, and I'm thinking, oh my gosh,

738
00:51:45.600 --> 00:51:48.520
so I start going into that, I'm exhausted,

739
00:51:48.520 --> 00:51:50.960
I'm starting to get anxious, like what if, oh my gosh,

740
00:51:50.960 --> 00:51:53.840
what if I brought her here and she's sick?

741
00:51:53.840 --> 00:51:55.400
I don't feel like she has a fever,

742
00:51:55.400 --> 00:51:59.000
but I'm just in my exhausted mom brain,

743
00:51:59.000 --> 00:52:01.440
and I flipped, like I got her back and forth

744
00:52:01.440 --> 00:52:02.760
to the bathroom, she never threw up,

745
00:52:02.760 --> 00:52:05.720
but she kept shivering in bed, and I'm just thinking,

746
00:52:05.720 --> 00:52:08.120
I cannot go here, I'm not gonna sit here and wonder

747
00:52:08.120 --> 00:52:11.320
if she somehow has COVID, or something happened

748
00:52:11.320 --> 00:52:13.440
on this flight and this trip, no,

749
00:52:13.440 --> 00:52:16.640
so I started decreeing and declaring what was true,

750
00:52:16.640 --> 00:52:18.560
and I was literally the rest of the night

751
00:52:18.560 --> 00:52:20.820
in and out of dreams and sleep, just going,

752
00:52:20.820 --> 00:52:23.400
I just align heaven with earth right now,

753
00:52:23.960 --> 00:52:25.600
I just bring heaven to earth, and I declare over her body

754
00:52:25.600 --> 00:52:28.160
that she's completely okay, she's gonna wake up

755
00:52:28.160 --> 00:52:30.160
in the morning, there's nothing, I was picturing Jesus

756
00:52:30.160 --> 00:52:31.880
and just eyes on him, and I was saying,

757
00:52:31.880 --> 00:52:35.680
you're the God of peace, and you bring order

758
00:52:35.680 --> 00:52:37.320
to the wind and the waves, and I don't care

759
00:52:37.320 --> 00:52:39.200
what's coming against your body right now,

760
00:52:39.200 --> 00:52:40.760
we just align it all with your word,

761
00:52:40.760 --> 00:52:43.060
and she is whole and healed, and I was just doing this

762
00:52:43.060 --> 00:52:46.000
in my sleep all night, I barely felt like I slept,

763
00:52:46.000 --> 00:52:48.160
and I woke up in the morning, and she popped up

764
00:52:48.160 --> 00:52:51.800
and it was like nothing ever happened and ran off to play,

765
00:52:51.800 --> 00:52:53.560
and so it was just this, I know it sounds small,

766
00:52:53.560 --> 00:52:55.760
but for me, it was like, I started to go

767
00:52:55.760 --> 00:52:58.100
into that old anxiety place, and of course,

768
00:52:58.100 --> 00:53:00.040
you're exhausted, it's the middle of the night,

769
00:53:00.040 --> 00:53:01.680
and you're thinking, I gotta fly out tomorrow,

770
00:53:01.680 --> 00:53:04.120
this can't be happening, and then it's like,

771
00:53:04.120 --> 00:53:07.100
no, no, no, no, uh-uh, I just completely flipped it

772
00:53:07.100 --> 00:53:09.160
with God's help to this decree and declaring

773
00:53:09.160 --> 00:53:12.980
with authority that heaven is here now,

774
00:53:12.980 --> 00:53:15.360
and this is what's gonna happen, and this is what's happening

775
00:53:15.360 --> 00:53:18.160
and it completely changed my whole demeanor,

776
00:53:18.160 --> 00:53:19.520
and then it happens.

777
00:53:20.400 --> 00:53:21.320
Yes!

778
00:53:21.320 --> 00:53:22.400
Even if it wouldn't have happened,

779
00:53:22.400 --> 00:53:25.720
I mean, there was just a peace on that ability

780
00:53:25.720 --> 00:53:29.120
to move out of anxiety that I've never experienced before,

781
00:53:29.120 --> 00:53:30.840
so that's a testimony.

782
00:53:30.840 --> 00:53:35.160
That's wonderful, that's perfect, because we choose.

783
00:53:35.160 --> 00:53:38.040
It's not just, oh, I feel anxious, and oh my goodness,

784
00:53:38.040 --> 00:53:40.200
well, what if, and we're looking at this situation

785
00:53:40.200 --> 00:53:44.880
and we're trying to extrapolate what could possibly happen

786
00:53:44.880 --> 00:53:47.840
in the future based off of what happened in the past,

787
00:53:47.840 --> 00:53:50.360
and therefore, what we should do in the present, uh-uh.

788
00:53:50.360 --> 00:53:53.020
Just all of that to the wayside, and we make a choice.

789
00:53:53.020 --> 00:53:53.960
What has God said?

790
00:53:53.960 --> 00:53:56.680
He says that I'm this, and therefore, I have the choice

791
00:53:56.680 --> 00:54:00.120
to step into it, believing that that's true,

792
00:54:00.120 --> 00:54:02.920
and then acting on it, because faith

793
00:54:02.920 --> 00:54:07.160
without actually acting on it isn't actually faith.

794
00:54:07.160 --> 00:54:11.240
So he says it, I'm going to do it, and we have to choose,

795
00:54:11.240 --> 00:54:15.280
and it's difficult, because we have all kinds of reasons

796
00:54:15.280 --> 00:54:19.560
why we believe what we do, why we believe all those lies,

797
00:54:19.560 --> 00:54:21.620
all the experiences that we've had in the past,

798
00:54:21.620 --> 00:54:23.320
all of the things that you've had in the past,

799
00:54:23.320 --> 00:54:26.720
of like, okay, well, I've been with my children before

800
00:54:26.720 --> 00:54:28.600
when they've been sick, and I know what sickness looks like,

801
00:54:28.600 --> 00:54:31.620
and I know that it usually lasts for X number of days,

802
00:54:31.620 --> 00:54:34.200
or X number of, or 24 hours at least,

803
00:54:34.200 --> 00:54:39.200
and all of these fears that we're used to,

804
00:54:39.280 --> 00:54:42.640
everything that could possibly go wrong goes wrong,

805
00:54:42.640 --> 00:54:46.040
and we choose that, nope, no, we're not gonna,

806
00:54:46.040 --> 00:54:49.160
we're completely ignore all of that, ignore my feelings,

807
00:54:49.160 --> 00:54:51.800
ignore what it is that, you know, my fears,

808
00:54:51.800 --> 00:54:53.680
and all of that, and make a choice.

809
00:54:53.680 --> 00:54:56.320
So that's, and the fact that I went into that mode,

810
00:54:56.320 --> 00:54:58.480
it was like, so the Lord, because it was like,

811
00:54:58.480 --> 00:54:59.880
that, it was like a flip.

812
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.840
it was like a switch because it was you can't have one and the other together. It was truly like a

813
00:55:05.840 --> 00:55:11.760
this has to like change but it was like automatic and something that would not have happened before

814
00:55:11.760 --> 00:55:15.600
this this time with you guys and the rest intensive I feel like it was definitely an

815
00:55:15.600 --> 00:55:20.960
evidence of being able to even know that I could do that and be able to so quickly do that and it

816
00:55:20.960 --> 00:55:27.360
was a complete opposite effect like yeah from here into here and this is how I do it and I felt so

817
00:55:27.360 --> 00:55:33.200
much confidence in him to to have that authority and to speak that and that became my only like

818
00:55:33.200 --> 00:55:40.160
that was my anchor you know through the night and it was just so cool yeah yeah so one of the things

819
00:55:40.160 --> 00:55:45.040
that you were saying um is really I'd like to point out is really good but well okay two things

820
00:55:45.040 --> 00:55:50.400
one is that not everything didn't just happen in that moment you had made all of these choices

821
00:55:51.040 --> 00:55:56.480
in which you had been uh you've been shifting interest and you've been choosing to believe

822
00:55:56.480 --> 00:56:01.920
what he says that you are etc so that when it came down to this you had all of this it was it

823
00:56:01.920 --> 00:56:08.080
was a lot easier for you because you've been doing it and and sure there have been times where you

824
00:56:08.080 --> 00:56:13.120
try to do it you're like oh my goodness okay I'm gonna try again oh my goodness but but when it

825
00:56:13.120 --> 00:56:17.840
came to this you had been doing this enough and we've been you know you've been practicing enough

826
00:56:17.840 --> 00:56:23.040
as we all do and I don't mean practices in like I know playing but yeah well playing sure there's

827
00:56:23.040 --> 00:56:29.200
nothing wrong with that but the point is that uh that you've been put that this is a culmination

828
00:56:30.080 --> 00:56:39.760
of of and a a compilation of what it is that you've chosen to step into and um and what you've

829
00:56:39.760 --> 00:56:45.920
committed to the lord yeah and then he also came through for you in the fact that he he helped you

830
00:56:45.920 --> 00:56:50.640
I'm sure you know do that as well and um and then there was something else I was gonna say oh yeah

831
00:56:50.640 --> 00:56:55.440
it was the fact that you you said you know the two cannot exist at the same time and in the same

832
00:56:55.440 --> 00:57:02.400
place and it's much more powerful and I and I say this repeatedly and I was even talking to

833
00:57:02.400 --> 00:57:08.400
a client about it today it is so much more powerful to overcome things just by switching

834
00:57:08.960 --> 00:57:12.880
to the truth and whatever is true and just declaring that and believing it etc

835
00:57:13.680 --> 00:57:21.360
and ignoring the um ignoring the negative like not even trying to battle why what it is that

836
00:57:21.360 --> 00:57:29.360
we're fearful of isn't true and in that that's a lie because it's because it's it's actually

837
00:57:29.360 --> 00:57:34.800
whatever it is that we focus on and pay attention to we feed so if we're feeding the enemy that

838
00:57:34.800 --> 00:57:40.080
we're trying to run away from we're strengthening the enemy we're trying to escape so it's actually

839
00:57:40.080 --> 00:57:50.640
faster we shift faster and easier if we don't even try to counter act or or address

840
00:57:51.280 --> 00:57:57.680
or um the lies and why that can't be true etc because it's acknowledging it

841
00:57:58.400 --> 00:58:02.480
that there's no reason to acknowledge it whatsoever just just focus on the positive and

842
00:58:02.480 --> 00:58:07.040
the positive will be so strong it'll completely overpower the negative without us even having to

843
00:58:07.040 --> 00:58:12.080
give it the time of day it's very fascinating and that's what it is in operating in the spirit

844
00:58:12.080 --> 00:58:18.720
versus fighting you know in the soul or the body which is just you it's who knows more and so it's

845
00:58:18.720 --> 00:58:24.160
fighting the lie with more knowledge but one of the problems is I don't remember who I was talking

846
00:58:24.160 --> 00:58:28.880
to somebody was asking how do you fight a lie where you don't when you don't know what the

847
00:58:28.880 --> 00:58:33.920
truth is like another you don't know the counter you don't need the counter to it they were like

848
00:58:33.920 --> 00:58:37.680
what do you what happens if you're presented with a lie you've never been presented with before

849
00:58:37.680 --> 00:58:42.480
or maybe you have but you've never found the truth that counters it in scripture I was like

850
00:58:42.480 --> 00:58:46.960
you don't even have to worry about that if you just fill up your life so much with truth you

851
00:58:46.960 --> 00:58:51.520
don't even have to know what the exact truth is that counters that in order to be able to recognize

852
00:58:51.520 --> 00:58:56.640
it as a lie and don't pay it any time and say you just focus on whatever it is true we don't have to

853
00:58:56.640 --> 00:59:02.000
worry about well I wonder if this is true and I wonder how much how much time and attention and

854
00:59:02.000 --> 00:59:06.400
effort and energy I should give into it and and while I'm trying to discern whether or not it's

855
00:59:06.400 --> 00:59:11.760
a lie if we think it's a lie just totally ignore it unless we're feeling the spirit on it I mean

856
00:59:11.760 --> 00:59:16.960
that's different but um but if we think that something is a lie just totally ignore it just

857
00:59:16.960 --> 00:59:23.680
focus on the truth and then it will come to light later on either right then or later on the more

858
00:59:23.680 --> 00:59:28.640
that we focus on the truth as to whether or not this really does align with the truth or not

859
00:59:28.640 --> 00:59:34.480
but we don't have to worry about countering everything tit for tat um so anyway but that's

860
00:59:34.480 --> 00:59:39.520
what you were evidencing and the fact that you were just like no just forget it and just what

861
00:59:39.520 --> 00:59:46.720
is true instead of trying to tell you're trying to talk yourself out of the lie just stop just

862
00:59:46.720 --> 00:59:50.960
stop whatever it is you know how I talk about you know whenever we get anxious or stressed and we

863
00:59:50.960 --> 00:59:57.600
have to release whatever it is I'm doing stop just let it go let it go and then just only focus on

864
00:59:57.600 --> 00:59:59.840
the truth and it's much more powerful

865
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.640
The other works, which is why there's all of these ministries and whatever the other

866
01:00:03.640 --> 01:00:04.640
does work.

867
01:00:04.640 --> 01:00:08.840
It's just a lot harder to battle that way, but at least it's harder.

868
01:00:08.840 --> 01:00:10.320
So that's exciting.

869
01:00:10.320 --> 01:00:12.120
I'm very excited for you.

870
01:00:12.120 --> 01:00:13.120
That's, that's huge.

871
01:00:13.120 --> 01:00:17.400
You know, when you said, Oh, I didn't know if you think this little, that is not little

872
01:00:17.400 --> 01:00:18.400
at all.

873
01:00:18.400 --> 01:00:24.000
That is bringing dominion and, and most, most Christians never bring dominion in their lives.

874
01:00:24.000 --> 01:00:27.000
So that really is huge.

875
01:00:27.000 --> 01:00:28.000
And I felt the difference.

876
01:00:28.000 --> 01:00:32.240
And I know it was like, it was almost like a moment that I trained for, like you said,

877
01:00:32.240 --> 01:00:37.640
maybe not even realizing it, you know, or counting all of what we've done the past month.

878
01:00:37.640 --> 01:00:42.040
And the choices that I've made toward that, because in the moment it was, it was, it was

879
01:00:42.040 --> 01:00:49.200
kind of automatic at some point, like I, I switched into that and it was a moment of

880
01:00:49.200 --> 01:00:50.200
desperation.

881
01:00:50.200 --> 01:00:54.400
Like I had to, or I was going to drive myself crazy all night and not sleep.

882
01:00:54.400 --> 01:00:55.400
Yeah.

883
01:00:55.400 --> 01:00:56.960
And sometimes desperation will do that for us.

884
01:00:56.960 --> 01:01:00.600
But the reason it felt automatic is because that is who you really are.

885
01:01:00.600 --> 01:01:03.800
We don't have to try to become something we already are.

886
01:01:03.800 --> 01:01:05.920
We have to just stop being the thing that we're not.

887
01:01:05.920 --> 01:01:08.920
And unfortunately we're in a habit of being what we're not.

888
01:01:08.920 --> 01:01:13.200
But once we let go of all of that, when we do just acknowledge that we're the new man,

889
01:01:13.200 --> 01:01:15.320
the new man can't help itself.

890
01:01:15.320 --> 01:01:16.800
It always believes its father.

891
01:01:16.800 --> 01:01:18.040
It knows who it is.

892
01:01:18.040 --> 01:01:21.640
It always has, it knows how to have dominion, et cetera.

893
01:01:21.640 --> 01:01:25.040
And, and it always has confidence, et cetera, et cetera.

894
01:01:25.040 --> 01:01:31.240
Our spirit beings have never known anything other than being one with God.

895
01:01:31.240 --> 01:01:35.960
They've never had the, so to speak, there's never been an option for it to rebel, so to

896
01:01:35.960 --> 01:01:36.960
speak.

897
01:01:36.960 --> 01:01:38.200
They've never known anything else.

898
01:01:38.200 --> 01:01:39.200
Our soul.

899
01:01:39.200 --> 01:01:40.200
Yeah.

900
01:01:40.200 --> 01:01:41.200
Our soul is just like, oh, well there's this or there's this.

901
01:01:41.200 --> 01:01:49.160
Our spirit, um, uh, for, for at least in the way that I've encountered it, it, it, because

902
01:01:49.160 --> 01:01:54.600
there've been some times that I've actually encountered, um, this spirit man, like I've

903
01:01:55.160 --> 01:01:57.760
encountered my own spirit man and spirit man of someone else.

904
01:01:57.760 --> 01:02:04.840
And when I did, I, that's how I learned, oh my word, that the way that they operate, you

905
01:02:04.840 --> 01:02:08.880
know, a being that knows that it's always, it's always been with God.

906
01:02:08.880 --> 01:02:17.080
It's never, it's never had, it's never contemplated not knowing God.

907
01:02:17.080 --> 01:02:19.800
It's never contemplated rebelling God or against God.

908
01:02:19.800 --> 01:02:27.200
It's almost never contemplated or, or considered that, that, um, that, uh, something that we

909
01:02:27.200 --> 01:02:31.720
have believed for so many years is, you know, that's actually a lie.

910
01:02:31.720 --> 01:02:32.980
It's never possible.

911
01:02:32.980 --> 01:02:35.520
It's never even considered that that could be the truth.

912
01:02:35.520 --> 01:02:38.340
It's almost like it's never been exposed to lies ever.

913
01:02:38.340 --> 01:02:40.240
It's never been exposed to anything but the truth.

914
01:02:40.240 --> 01:02:43.520
So it just recognizes anything that doesn't line up with truth.

915
01:02:43.520 --> 01:02:44.600
It's really, really fascinating.

916
01:02:44.600 --> 01:02:49.160
So when we shift over into, um, believing that we are who God says that we are, that

917
01:02:49.520 --> 01:02:52.760
we're the new man, that we're spirit and all of that, it's like, we've always done it.

918
01:02:52.760 --> 01:02:55.800
It's like, oh yeah, this is how you do it.

919
01:02:55.800 --> 01:02:57.680
And we just have to stop questioning ourselves.

920
01:02:57.680 --> 01:02:59.520
We have to stop acting like the old man.

921
01:02:59.520 --> 01:03:01.760
So it makes complete sense.

922
01:03:01.760 --> 01:03:02.760
That's a really big deal.

923
01:03:02.760 --> 01:03:04.880
I'm just so excited for you.

924
01:03:04.880 --> 01:03:05.880
Yeah.

925
01:03:05.880 --> 01:03:11.760
I'm looking forward to catching up about, um, about your, um, uh, your, uh, time with

926
01:03:11.760 --> 01:03:12.760
the girls.

927
01:03:12.760 --> 01:03:15.640
I know it was a real special time.

928
01:03:15.640 --> 01:03:16.640
Just real quick.

929
01:03:16.640 --> 01:03:18.840
Cause I know somebody else might have a quick question, but I was just going to piggyback

930
01:03:19.520 --> 01:03:23.960
on what she just said that it was, I guess, um, just a quick testimony.

931
01:03:23.960 --> 01:03:27.880
It was kind of fun, like immediate, um, just seeing God move.

932
01:03:27.880 --> 01:03:35.360
But, um, so I had COVID that I'm, I'm over it now, but whatever, I was quarantined and

933
01:03:35.360 --> 01:03:36.640
down for like three weeks.

934
01:03:36.640 --> 01:03:43.560
So I, and I have, um, three sisters and one sister in particular, we, it used to be super

935
01:03:43.560 --> 01:03:51.480
close than anyway, now not so much, um, because of some whatever, um, theological differences.

936
01:03:51.480 --> 01:03:56.680
And, um, so anyway, I was kind of have a little pity party for myself, um, during my quarantine

937
01:03:56.680 --> 01:04:02.800
and like, I don't, I think I talked to my, that, that particular sister, um, hadn't talked

938
01:04:02.800 --> 01:04:05.840
to her in months and I had reached out to her and hadn't heard from her.

939
01:04:05.840 --> 01:04:12.280
And I knew that she knew that I like had this, you know, COVID from the pandemic or whatever.

940
01:04:12.280 --> 01:04:18.000
And, um, so I was having a little pity party, like, gosh, like, does she just not even want

941
01:04:18.000 --> 01:04:20.040
to like call and not see how I'm doing?

942
01:04:20.040 --> 01:04:24.200
Cause I'm literally like got this, you know, thing that everybody's freaking out about.

943
01:04:24.200 --> 01:04:29.560
And so anyway, but I stopped in the moment and I chose and just said, you know what?

944
01:04:29.560 --> 01:04:31.920
I choose that, uh, she loves, you know, whatever.

945
01:04:31.920 --> 01:04:35.480
I can't remember exactly what I said, but just that just believing like, you know what?

946
01:04:35.480 --> 01:04:36.480
She loves me.

947
01:04:36.480 --> 01:04:41.200
Um, I can't, I said like a little two Senate, you know, I'm going to choose to believe that

948
01:04:41.200 --> 01:04:45.440
my family, my friends, they love me, they care about me, whatever I said.

949
01:04:45.440 --> 01:04:47.160
And I am not kidding you.

950
01:04:47.160 --> 01:04:54.040
It was probably within the hour, I got a phone call and it was that sister that I hadn't

951
01:04:54.040 --> 01:04:59.120
talked to in, I mean, I'm not like six, seven months.

952
01:04:59.120 --> 01:05:00.120
Oh no.

953
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:02.200
I saw her and, okay, I take that.

954
01:05:00.120 --> 01:05:00.120


955
01:05:02.220 --> 01:05:03.460
She just doesn't ever call me.

956
01:05:03.860 --> 01:05:07.700
Um, but I had called and I texted probably within the last month just

957
01:05:07.700 --> 01:05:11.580
to see how she was doing and, um, didn't, you know, crickets never.

958
01:05:12.220 --> 01:05:12.900
I hadn't heard from her.

959
01:05:12.900 --> 01:05:17.180
I hadn't talked to her since May and anyway, but it was just cool to see.

960
01:05:17.180 --> 01:05:19.060
Like I, I stopped my pity party.

961
01:05:19.060 --> 01:05:22.460
I just chose to believe this is, you know, this is the truth.

962
01:05:22.560 --> 01:05:27.540
And then literally saw the, you know, that truth manifest and her call and go,

963
01:05:27.560 --> 01:05:30.560
Oh my gosh, I heard you had COVID and are you okay?

964
01:05:30.560 --> 01:05:31.480
And blah, blah, blah, blah.

965
01:05:31.540 --> 01:05:34.140
So anyway, so that's great.

966
01:05:34.140 --> 01:05:35.180
Thanks for telling us.

967
01:05:35.200 --> 01:05:35.580
Yes.

968
01:05:35.640 --> 01:05:36.480
It's amazing.

969
01:05:36.480 --> 01:05:39.420
We just, we just choose like, Nope, this is how it is.

970
01:05:41.580 --> 01:05:43.040
It's like, no, that was a lie.

971
01:05:43.100 --> 01:05:43.660
Forget it.

972
01:05:44.020 --> 01:05:45.300
This is what the truth is.

973
01:05:45.340 --> 01:05:45.780
There we go.

974
01:05:45.780 --> 01:05:46.660
This is what I'm choosing.

975
01:05:46.660 --> 01:05:47.540
It's my reality.

976
01:05:47.660 --> 01:05:48.060
Yeah.

977
01:05:48.220 --> 01:05:52.460
Good things and truth and, and what sort of things are lovely and

978
01:05:52.460 --> 01:05:53.620
focusing on all of those things.

979
01:05:53.700 --> 01:05:54.620
That's great.

980
01:05:54.940 --> 01:05:57.860
And again, I'm so sorry that you were, you were sick.

981
01:05:58.340 --> 01:06:03.020
Um, did you, I didn't ask, did you, um, uh, I knew that you'd been sick with it.

982
01:06:03.140 --> 01:06:05.900
Uh, was, um, was it an extreme case?

983
01:06:06.500 --> 01:06:10.340
Or no, it was mild, but, but it was, I mean, but it was, yeah,

984
01:06:10.340 --> 01:06:12.220
it kind of went on and off.

985
01:06:12.260 --> 01:06:13.760
It was kind of sneaky.

986
01:06:13.760 --> 01:06:17.140
Like you'd feel really bad and then you'd be better the next day and you're like,

987
01:06:17.140 --> 01:06:17.820
Oh, I'm fine.

988
01:06:17.820 --> 01:06:20.060
And then like four days later you could hit again.

989
01:06:20.060 --> 01:06:21.780
And so it was just kind of back and forth.

990
01:06:21.780 --> 01:06:22.900
So, yeah.

991
01:06:23.420 --> 01:06:28.780
So yeah, I know you and Amy, so yeah, it's going to the prayer house together.

992
01:06:28.820 --> 01:06:33.460
Uh, and that, and the other girl that went with us too, I know she had it.

993
01:06:33.460 --> 01:06:34.860
She just didn't ever get tested.

994
01:06:34.860 --> 01:06:40.540
So, um, anyway, we were going to ask you what it was like with the waves of it.

995
01:06:40.580 --> 01:06:43.020
Like, I haven't wanted to freak myself out.

996
01:06:43.020 --> 01:06:45.020
So I've really like researched or read.

997
01:06:45.700 --> 01:06:46.140
Yeah.

998
01:06:46.180 --> 01:06:51.900
Well, it, I didn't know I had it for a while because it was, it was

999
01:06:51.900 --> 01:06:57.940
kind of a weird thing for a while because I was having some other menopausal and I'm

1000
01:06:57.940 --> 01:07:00.900
older than you girls, but, um, things.

1001
01:07:00.900 --> 01:07:03.340
So I kept thinking that's what was going on.

1002
01:07:03.340 --> 01:07:07.100
I had like a headache and I was having, um, I was waking up to the night, having

1003
01:07:07.100 --> 01:07:10.100
these night sweats and hot flashes during the day.

1004
01:07:10.100 --> 01:07:13.820
And so I was like, Oh, that's just, you know, whatever, whatever.

1005
01:07:13.860 --> 01:07:19.220
And then, um, but after that, Amy, the other Amy, um, well, there's two Amy's.

1006
01:07:19.900 --> 01:07:22.780
But they were all really cranky on the next day.

1007
01:07:22.780 --> 01:07:24.260
So it was just crazy.

1008
01:07:24.260 --> 01:07:26.260
I couldn't, I couldn't stop but cry.

1009
01:07:26.260 --> 01:07:29.060
So I just said, I just, I just lost a prayer on a Friday.

1010
01:07:29.060 --> 01:07:35.660
And then the other Amy started feeling bad on Sunday and then on Tuesday, I just low

1011
01:07:35.660 --> 01:07:40.500
energy had a stuffy nose and anyway, so it was just the stuffy nose, the headache.

1012
01:07:41.100 --> 01:07:46.740
Um, and then apparently the sweating is part of COVID that you don't see the,

1013
01:07:46.920 --> 01:07:48.460
um, that was not a symptom I saw.

1014
01:07:48.460 --> 01:07:55.080
Get up to go to the bathroom, just feeling very like lethargic and, um, and then just,

1015
01:07:55.120 --> 01:07:56.560
um, tightness in the chest.

1016
01:07:56.560 --> 01:08:00.920
Like when I tried to walk, like, um, just cause I was going stir crazy at the house,

1017
01:08:00.960 --> 01:08:02.800
I would try to walk and then just was really hard.

1018
01:08:02.800 --> 01:08:07.080
It was kind of hard to breathe, but, but that was it meant that was it, but it was

1019
01:08:07.080 --> 01:08:10.560
mild compared to probably some people, but it definitely is.

1020
01:08:10.640 --> 01:08:18.200
Um, but there was one night that literally like the, this, it was fear that was trying

1021
01:08:18.220 --> 01:08:21.660
to take grip because the more you think about, like when you start reading about

1022
01:08:21.660 --> 01:08:26.700
COVID, then it's like, you know, and I literally, it was the craziest thing.

1023
01:08:26.859 --> 01:08:30.460
I, I was going to have my husband take me in the emergency room

1024
01:08:30.460 --> 01:08:32.260
because my chest was so tight.

1025
01:08:32.779 --> 01:08:38.380
But I knew in my spirit, okay, this is, you're having anxiety and panic because

1026
01:08:38.380 --> 01:08:42.500
you just looked on the internet about whatever, but my body and soul were

1027
01:08:42.500 --> 01:08:47.819
literally in a whatever, and so I, it was just this, just trying to shift

1028
01:08:47.840 --> 01:08:52.359
and pray and like speak, you know, anyway, it, we didn't go to the emergency

1029
01:08:52.359 --> 01:08:54.080
room, but it was just crazy.

1030
01:08:54.080 --> 01:08:58.279
Cause it was like, I knew my spirit, this is what this is, but I was just

1031
01:08:58.279 --> 01:09:02.040
trying to shift my body and my soul into this place of, you know, his

1032
01:09:02.040 --> 01:09:05.439
perfect love drives out fear in peace.

1033
01:09:05.439 --> 01:09:07.960
But it was very interesting, um, way.

1034
01:09:07.960 --> 01:09:13.040
It was kind of shaken down cause it was like these two forces trying to one

1035
01:09:13.040 --> 01:09:14.640
going, no, this is who you are.

1036
01:09:14.640 --> 01:09:15.720
You're okay.

1037
01:09:15.740 --> 01:09:19.140
And then, you know, just trying to shift my soul and body into

1038
01:09:19.180 --> 01:09:20.420
where my spirit already was.

1039
01:09:20.420 --> 01:09:23.819
So, yeah, that's, that's really interesting.

1040
01:09:23.859 --> 01:09:24.260
Yeah.

1041
01:09:24.260 --> 01:09:28.380
And then we, if we eventually, you know, we can go wherever our peace is at,

1042
01:09:28.700 --> 01:09:30.720
but it sounded like wherever.

1043
01:09:30.740 --> 01:09:33.420
So in other words, if we ever feel that we need to go to the emergency room for

1044
01:09:33.420 --> 01:09:34.979
we knew whatever, that's fine.

1045
01:09:35.300 --> 01:09:39.899
But what's interesting is that we need to go wherever our peace is at, not

1046
01:09:39.899 --> 01:09:44.540
wherever our fear is that in your peace with indicates where our faith is at,

1047
01:09:44.540 --> 01:09:48.399
which is indicating, you know, the level to which we're agreeing with our spirit.

1048
01:09:48.600 --> 01:09:50.279
And you knew what your spirit was saying.

1049
01:09:50.359 --> 01:09:52.800
You knew your spirit was just like, we know what's going on here.

1050
01:09:53.040 --> 01:09:55.840
So soul and body, you, you get on the bandwagon.

1051
01:09:57.000 --> 01:09:57.840
That's great.

1052
01:09:57.840 --> 01:09:59.000
That's really, really neat.

1053
01:09:59.000 --> 01:09:59.320
Yeah.

1054
01:09:59.320 --> 01:10:00.000
I hope.

1055
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.360
hadn't I forgot that I hadn't been on here since since I had an issue with my

1056
01:10:05.360 --> 01:10:11.160
foot so I had an issue with my foot and I didn't tell anybody about it so I was

1057
01:10:11.160 --> 01:10:16.880
helping someone move some furniture and it lay it it shoved up on my on my foot

1058
01:10:16.880 --> 01:10:22.520
and it I mean it hurt like the dickens well and well I thought it was fine I was

1059
01:10:22.520 --> 01:10:26.520
like oh it'll probably just bruise it'll be fine well later on that day my entire

1060
01:10:26.520 --> 01:10:33.480
foot swelled up I mean it swelled up to at least 25% like my entire foot

1061
01:10:33.480 --> 01:10:39.000
swelled up 25% at least if not 50% it was it was huge and it was

1062
01:10:39.000 --> 01:10:43.080
turning purple because it was because the pressure was of the fluid was just

1063
01:10:43.080 --> 01:10:47.880
built up so much and I was walking on it because I didn't tell anybody that it

1064
01:10:47.880 --> 01:10:52.280
was hurt because I'm like no body I you know I understand that you think that

1065
01:10:52.280 --> 01:10:57.000
you're hurt I understand this but in the spirit which is what I am I my

1066
01:10:57.000 --> 01:11:01.080
identity is in this spirit and you know body you're one with the spirit and I'm

1067
01:11:01.080 --> 01:11:04.760
telling you we're healed you're healed and there's no reason for you to be

1068
01:11:04.760 --> 01:11:08.040
afraid there's no reason for you to fall threatened there's no reason for you to

1069
01:11:08.040 --> 01:11:12.080
think that you have to go through the normal processes of just letting this

1070
01:11:12.080 --> 01:11:16.120
thing work out and that I need to like you know put you in Epsom salt and I

1071
01:11:16.120 --> 01:11:19.560
need this and I might need to go get an x-rayed on my what if it's fractured

1072
01:11:20.040 --> 01:11:24.960
no we're not going to talk about that it's like you're just fine and you're

1073
01:11:24.960 --> 01:11:30.800
and and so acted as if it was fine I kept walking on it let me tell you

1074
01:11:30.800 --> 01:11:36.160
walking on a swollen foot like that's that that's swollen all over hurts so

1075
01:11:36.160 --> 01:11:40.560
bad because every time you put pressure on all the fluid you know is is is

1076
01:11:40.560 --> 01:11:46.080
continuing to press on the part that hurts oh my word it hurts so bad to walk

1077
01:11:46.080 --> 01:11:49.760
on my foot so bad and I couldn't and I was like no I'm not gonna tell anybody

1078
01:11:49.760 --> 01:11:53.240
because then they're all going to actually you need to and oh my goodness

1079
01:11:53.240 --> 01:11:57.480
because they didn't have the faith that I did like okay no time like the present

1080
01:11:57.480 --> 01:12:03.400
I'm going to tell my body that you know just declare healing that it is healed

1081
01:12:03.400 --> 01:12:07.640
not that it will be healed but that it is healed and sure enough within hours

1082
01:12:07.640 --> 01:12:15.080
trying to remember you know what oh I it was why it was the day it was last

1083
01:12:15.080 --> 01:12:19.600
Thursday last Thursday we were having the call and after the call my foot

1084
01:12:19.600 --> 01:12:26.760
finally started feeling and started evidencing healing and it just had a

1085
01:12:26.760 --> 01:12:30.760
little bit left to go the next day and then he's perfectly fine like there you

1086
01:12:30.760 --> 01:12:36.720
go that's what she needs to do I kept walking on it and it didn't like soak it

1087
01:12:36.720 --> 01:12:43.120
or anything and anyway so I just thought okay I just need to I need to practice

1088
01:12:43.160 --> 01:12:48.600
so but yes so just like you did you know if you're with a you know telling your

1089
01:12:48.600 --> 01:12:52.360
body you know nope we don't need to go to ER this is the saw from anxiety and

1090
01:12:52.360 --> 01:12:56.160
stress and there's no need for that that's good I know we we take advantage

1091
01:12:56.160 --> 01:13:01.160
of these times you know to and like what you did Elizabeth you know I'm taking

1092
01:13:01.160 --> 01:13:08.360
Dominion so well it was good to get to visit with everybody we went over a bit

1093
01:13:08.400 --> 01:13:13.760
today hey Alana I wanted to say hi real quick before we jump off good to see

1094
01:13:13.760 --> 01:13:27.800
you hello everyone's automatically muted sorry no that's okay nice to see

1095
01:13:27.800 --> 01:13:31.760
everyone Renee when when you said you were going through menopause like I

1096
01:13:31.760 --> 01:13:35.920
think my eyes almost popped out of my head I was like you do not like you look

1097
01:13:35.920 --> 01:13:41.920
so young I'm just I know I know she does well it is we're gonna be having

1098
01:13:41.920 --> 01:13:47.200
some talks with my body because I went to the doctor today and she was trying

1099
01:13:47.200 --> 01:13:52.520
to report some pretty crazy things from blood work that I had recently drawn and

1100
01:13:52.520 --> 01:13:57.480
I was like no I was that's what I was telling my body when I was you know she

1101
01:13:57.480 --> 01:14:01.200
left there I was like I'm sorry but you are young and you are vibrant and you

1102
01:14:01.200 --> 01:14:07.400
are so we're yeah but there was in the natural some negative things that were

1103
01:14:07.400 --> 01:14:13.240
shared with me today about some blood work but but I don't know if it was

1104
01:14:13.240 --> 01:14:17.320
because I got the blood work when I had COVID and I didn't know that I had COVID

1105
01:14:17.320 --> 01:14:21.600
when I went in for this blood work so I'm not sure if that like skewed the

1106
01:14:21.600 --> 01:14:26.400
numbers anyway so we don't have to go into all that but it is thank you I will

1107
01:14:26.400 --> 01:14:29.760
thank you for these well I'm in agreement I'm in agreement with the

1108
01:14:29.760 --> 01:14:37.520
health and vitality yes well I'll just be practicing I mean practicing meaning

1109
01:14:37.520 --> 01:14:41.680
like you know choosing to believe choosing to agree choosing to stand it

1110
01:14:41.680 --> 01:14:53.680
well choosing a lot of that today with my four-year-old getting out of the

1111
01:14:53.680 --> 01:14:58.520
physical realm of the tears and the tantrum

1112
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:03.800
So no, it's actually, she's giving me an amazing opportunity

1113
01:15:03.800 --> 01:15:05.640
to practice all of this, so.

1114
01:15:08.280 --> 01:15:11.240
Well, you girls believe with me that this baby,

1115
01:15:11.240 --> 01:15:14.040
my baby is gonna be totally whole and healed

1116
01:15:14.040 --> 01:15:16.520
and nothing's gonna come following this trip.

1117
01:15:16.520 --> 01:15:20.840
Specifically, that there's not gonna be any backlash.

1118
01:15:20.840 --> 01:15:23.720
Just believe with me, there'll be no backlash

1119
01:15:23.720 --> 01:15:27.840
because in the past, even the last time I took them

1120
01:15:27.880 --> 01:15:31.400
even nearby, just in a car trip out of town,

1121
01:15:31.400 --> 01:15:35.240
her dad came back the very night that they went back to him

1122
01:15:35.240 --> 01:15:37.120
just after the weekend and said,

1123
01:15:37.120 --> 01:15:39.280
I'm taking her in for testing for COVID.

1124
01:15:39.280 --> 01:15:41.320
She's got all these four symptoms

1125
01:15:41.320 --> 01:15:44.720
and listed like all these horrible symptoms.

1126
01:15:44.720 --> 01:15:47.120
And it turned out it was completely farce.

1127
01:15:47.120 --> 01:15:49.400
Like he had made it up to try to manipulate,

1128
01:15:49.400 --> 01:15:51.760
but it was one of those moments of like,

1129
01:15:51.760 --> 01:15:52.600
you know what I mean?

1130
01:15:52.600 --> 01:15:53.800
And then here we go on a further trip.

1131
01:15:53.800 --> 01:15:54.920
So I'm just believing that,

1132
01:15:54.920 --> 01:15:58.160
especially with that scare the night before we flew out,

1133
01:15:58.160 --> 01:15:59.720
that there is nothing

1134
01:15:59.720 --> 01:16:02.200
and that he won't even attempt a second round,

1135
01:16:02.200 --> 01:16:05.160
especially because, I mean, surely,

1136
01:16:05.160 --> 01:16:07.400
like he did that the first time and had to backtrack

1137
01:16:07.400 --> 01:16:09.480
and go, oh, I guess I was wrong.

1138
01:16:09.480 --> 01:16:12.600
So surely he wouldn't try to do it a second time

1139
01:16:12.600 --> 01:16:16.240
because that looks really bad to make up COVID symptoms.

1140
01:16:16.240 --> 01:16:18.960
Yeah, he doesn't wanna be wrong again.

1141
01:16:18.960 --> 01:16:21.400
No, I won't be wrong again.

1142
01:16:21.400 --> 01:16:23.320
Well, I'm agreeing with you 100%.

1143
01:16:23.920 --> 01:16:27.080
I will say amen to everything you said.

1144
01:16:27.080 --> 01:16:27.920
Amen.

1145
01:16:30.160 --> 01:16:33.400
The Lord is our protection and our provision

1146
01:16:33.400 --> 01:16:37.360
in the fact that he doesn't have to cause things

1147
01:16:37.360 --> 01:16:39.520
to happen in the physical.

1148
01:16:39.520 --> 01:16:41.960
And I know this might sound a little esoteric,

1149
01:16:41.960 --> 01:16:44.600
but he doesn't have to have things happen in the physical

1150
01:16:44.600 --> 01:16:46.360
in order for us to not be,

1151
01:16:46.360 --> 01:16:50.600
in order for us to be or not be in a state

1152
01:16:50.600 --> 01:16:52.320
in which we're protected and provided.

1153
01:16:52.320 --> 01:16:55.480
So in other words, it's a state in which we're existing.

1154
01:16:55.480 --> 01:16:56.840
It's almost like a substance

1155
01:16:56.840 --> 01:17:00.600
in which we are being suspended and sustained.

1156
01:17:00.600 --> 01:17:02.600
It's not something that we don't have

1157
01:17:02.600 --> 01:17:04.800
and then he gives us when we need it.

1158
01:17:04.800 --> 01:17:06.360
It's something that we're never out of.

1159
01:17:06.360 --> 01:17:09.520
It's almost like a baby in ambiotic fluid.

1160
01:17:09.520 --> 01:17:12.880
We are in a state in which we are always protected

1161
01:17:12.880 --> 01:17:14.240
and provided for.

1162
01:17:14.240 --> 01:17:19.240
And so anyway, so the point is it's a lot more,

1163
01:17:19.240 --> 01:17:23.800
it's a lot bigger and more powerful than whatever minor,

1164
01:17:23.800 --> 01:17:28.240
than whatever someone might threaten

1165
01:17:28.240 --> 01:17:29.880
or whatever things that,

1166
01:17:29.880 --> 01:17:32.440
whatever fears that could come out

1167
01:17:32.440 --> 01:17:36.560
or we can be tempted with based off of the past.

1168
01:17:36.560 --> 01:17:41.200
So yeah, we'll definitely be in agreement with you on that.

1169
01:17:41.200 --> 01:17:42.040
Thanks, sister.

1170
01:17:43.120 --> 01:17:44.840
All right, well, good to see everybody.

1171
01:17:44.840 --> 01:17:46.600
Y'all have a good night.

1172
01:17:46.600 --> 01:17:47.440
Bye-bye.

1173
01:17:47.440 --> 01:17:48.280
Y'all have a great night.

1174
01:17:48.320 --> 01:17:49.480
Good to see you.

1175
01:17:49.480 --> 01:17:50.320
Love you.

1176
01:17:50.320 --> 01:17:51.160
Bye.