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Hey, Archer!

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I leave everybody on mute because we notice that even when everyone's quiet, if there's

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someone talking, then they're in the recording, there's a there's a there's feedback.

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So I guess I'll keep everybody on mute, and less they have a question, and if they have

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a question, then they unmute themselves when it's time for someone else to ask a question,

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and then that's how I know who has a question, or you can raise your hand virtually.

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I don't know if you're on your phone.

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Well, yeah, there's a there's a yeah, I don't know how to do it on here.

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Well, I figured I would just raise my hand.

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Oh, okay.

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Well, you you could do that, too.

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It's like sometimes people raise their hands like five minutes before, you know, it's like,

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in other words, when they think of something, as opposed to like way down opening, or they

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think it's pretty close to the opening, and then I know, okay, then so and so's next.

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But I don't know how to do it on the phone.

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So, oh, my word, I should probably do this on my tablet.

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Yeah.

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Hey, Steph.

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Hey, Alicia.

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It's so late.

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Well, for ever for for Central Standard Time, it's really not that that late, but it is

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for people on the East Coast.

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Okay, I'm going to try to do this on my tablet.

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Okay.

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Linda, you found your way here, hello.

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I did.

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I did.

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Yeah, I'm gonna have to fix that because I have several, several weeks worth of those

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posts that go out automatically.

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So I forgot that it wasn't automatic.

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I'm so used to that thing being posted automatically and everybody always having the, the link

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without me having to think about it, and that I forgot that it Facebook will only let

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you go so far into the future and I ran out of the future to create a new future.

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You like how that stuff is trying to be clever.

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It's late.

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So thanks.

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See here.

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You know, sometimes you just got to entertain yourself.

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I'm very good at that.

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Hey, Ilana.

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Oh, okay, so I just, we, today was my fourth day of my second Rust Impact, so I jumped

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straight from there to here, I tried to wrap it up as close to nine as I could, so, hopefully

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everybody else is able to find the post, the new link that I put in.

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If I yawn too much, I'll just turn my camera off in case I fall asleep.

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That's funny.

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Sure.

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It's been a long week.

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Oh, I'm sorry.

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I know.

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I know.

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How is everybody?

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Amy particularly?

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Everybody's doing fairly well.

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We took Abby Monday for some, a follow-up appointment.

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She had a ton of tests and blood work and it finally, they listened to me and that was

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the whole thing with my, my gut just kept saying, no, you're going to pursue this.

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And she's got cysts all over her, her thyroid, so it's causing all kinds of issues with her.

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did finally refer her to a pediatric endocrinologist.

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So she's gonna finally get some answers.

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And she's also positive for mono on top of it all.

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So, I mean, the poor kid is just completely exhausted.

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Yeah, I'm so sorry.

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But at least we have answers.

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Yeah, yeah, I had mono, it was not fun.

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Yeah, we had it together the last time, yeah.

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Oh, so she's having a relapse.

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Yeah, yeah.

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Just a second, let me, I don't know.

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Let me share it.

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There we go.

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I realized I'm out in the open.

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I didn't want y'all to feel uncomfortable asking questions.

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So now only I can hear you.

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Of course, everybody else is probably in bed.

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I forgot about that.

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Everybody else is in the house is probably asleep.

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So, you know, whenever I'm here in town,

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I stay at my parents.

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And then of course my grandmom lives here as well with them.

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So anyway, all right.

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So does someone have a question to start us off with tonight?

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It has been so long since we've gotten together.

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It has been three weeks because we didn't get together

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for Christmas Eve or New Year's Eve.

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I'm sorry, but not sorry

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because I didn't think anybody on here

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would want to get on with me

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on New Year's Eve or Christmas Eve.

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So anyway, it's just one of those things.

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But so does anyone have anything to start us off with?

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If you do, just feel free to unmute yourself.

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Can now.

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So dear, I'm going to have to pull a rabbit out of a hat.

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Am I the only one that is distressed

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over what happened yesterday?

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Because I am having a very hard time resting

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with all of the commotion that happened.

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So that's been my, God, there's been more praying

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in this particular situation than any time I ever,

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in my 61 years of life, I've seen.

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Yeah, yeah, so it's very understandable, very understandable.

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The thing with that is, and I don't mean this in any way

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to sound obviously belittling or devaluing of the situation.

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It's the fact that it's the truth of, well,

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okay, let's think of it like this.

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Remember of the time when we were in the hospital

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and let's think of it like this.

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Remember of the time when Jesus was on earth

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and Jesus, of course, had the Romans in there

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who had occupied Israel and everybody was so excited

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when they finally discovered who Jesus,

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when they realized who it is that Jesus was,

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all of the zealots specifically,

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and I don't remember their names,

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but there was a group of them.

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Anyway, they were zealots and they thought

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and were hoping that the whole,

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that when the Messiah would come

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and when they realized that Jesus was the Messiah,

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they was like, oh, this is it.

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They're going to, it's going to release us

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from the oppression that we in the government

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that we're feeling in the taxes

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and the way that we're being treated

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in the lack of comfortability that we have in our life

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and again, the oppression that we're feeling.

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And Jesus never addressed any of those things.

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The closest that he ever got to addressing anything

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about anything related to the government

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was given to Caesar, the things that are Caesar's.

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And then this wasn't related to the government,

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but it was related to the religious government

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of like the temple tax.

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And he said that the sons of God are,

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the sons of the king are exempt from paying a tax

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that a king would, that a king would exact on the people.

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He said how, he said, it's actually for everyone else.

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He said, however, so we do not offend them.

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if the world is requiring something,

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then God will provide it.

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So go and pull out a fish and the fish will have the coin

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that it is that you need in order to pay for yours

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and my tax, because the king's sons are exempt.

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So if the world is making a particular man,

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God is going to take care of it.

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So in the same way, you know, in this type of situation

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that if we, if we understand that we can,

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if that all of, where is it?

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That if we're seated here, oh, this,

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is this backwards for y'all or is this right side?

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Is it, okay, good.

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So this is backwards for me when I look at it.

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But, you know, if we're operating up here

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and up here, we're in with Christ.

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guys, with all power and the authority, whatever happens down here, whatever

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power and authority that has, um, that, that looks like it has governmental

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control or, you know, let's just, or, you know, whatever mandates and, and

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decrees and determinations come out of, well, what happened yesterday?

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And will the people did this?

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And so therefore martial law or therefore Biden this and whatever,

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whatever, whatever's determined, if all of that is down here and we

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understand that we're up here, then it's easier for us to, to, to under,

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if we shift into our identity in that place and choose that God is our

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protection and provision, it doesn't matter what happens down here.

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What can make us feel at a sense of unrest is the fact that we're

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still learning who this is.

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We're still having to learn how to, how to pray from here.

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How do you, how to intercede from here, how to quote unquote

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do spiritual warfare from here.

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And so that feeling of I'm still in the middle of learning Lord, do I have to

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learn in this type of a situation?

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Because Lord, the sticks are so high and God's like, no, no, this is, this

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is exactly where we, where we need to be.

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The other good thing is that there are people all along, um, the, the.

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The, the road.

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So there are some people who are very new at, at, um, at being Christians

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at praying and interceding and all of that, and they don't know very much.

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more mature in the faith that the Lord has revealed much more to of how to

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shift into the spirit, how to ascend, how to, um, you know, uh, do, do whatever,

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whatever the Lord would reveal to them, how to intercede in the way that God

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says, according to his laws, he's created for us to step into in order to declare

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the power and the authority declare from that seat that we hold the power and the

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authority that he says it is that we have, we're relying very heavily on those

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people and then there's all kinds of people in between, so we're not alone.

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We don't have to worry that well, Lord, there's only so much that I know and

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I'm trying so hard and I'm doing my best and I, and I'm operating according to.

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However much that you have revealed to me so far about what it

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means to stand in my authority.

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and this stuff still happens, but it's not just us.

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We're not just one person.

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There are people all along the path.

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on and they've been interceding as well, and they've been standing in the Lord

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and this stuff is still, is still happening.

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Um, as far as the fact, so that's, as far as how to consider the unrest that

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we feel of Lord, I've done everything.

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And why is this still happening?

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We're, we're, we're concerned because we're still learning and we're learning

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in the middle of a very difficult situation, we're learning in the middle

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of a very high risk situation.

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If we quote unquote fail or quote unquote, do it, do it right.

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And I only saying fail and do it right.

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Because of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, it's not according

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to the tree of life, but according to this idea that we think of, like

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everything has standards and judgments and you fail and you do it right.

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And you don't do it right.

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If we're, if we fall into that trap again, out of habit and out of fear,

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I was just addressing that if we're thinking according to those terms,

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but, um, God says, no, no, no.

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If we operate according to the tree of life, if he says he's going

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to provide for and protect us.

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And, um, just like Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, we say, okay, Lord,

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I'm going to, if you say so, then I'm going to stand on that.

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My God is going to deliver me from the fire.

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And even if he doesn't, I will not bow down to the golden image.

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What we were saying is even if he doesn't manifest his character

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in the way that I thought he would manifest his character, if he really

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was loving and if he really was good.

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And if we really did everything we were supposed to do, and it still

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doesn't manifest in the way that I think that it should manifest.

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If that was true, I'm still not ever going to renounce my confession

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that God is that love and he is that good because he's declared it to be.

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So I still hold on to that and I don't hold his character hostage to my belief

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of what the manifestation should look like.

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So that is, that is what I've had to do with all of this.

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Um, uh, and because yes, it can look very, uh, it can look scary.

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It can look just horrific and it can be kind of like, how

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on earth did we get here?

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I mean, this is embarrassing.

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I mean, is that this like acting like a third world country or whatever it

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is that we're saying to ourselves or, Oh my goodness, what is, what is it

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going to look like on January 21st?

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Whatever, whatever fears that we have, or this whole idea of like, I don't

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want to say shame or condemnation, but frustration, aggravation of how much

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time, effort, and energy that certain people have put into all of these

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months leading up to now, and it's still now, and it's still looking like this.

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six and getting all those people there and how excited that they were, et cetera.

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Um, someone on this group, Cheryl Reese, she, you know, she went that, um, she

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went yesterday as well, and she was heartbroken.

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If y'all read her, if y'all read her, her post, I haven't talked to her,

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but that's, it's all public.

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It's all on her post and she was heartbroken at what had happened.

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She's like, Hey, look, this is not what we were there for.

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months, and now they had to actually walk through living that experience

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live and being so disappointed.

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and protection and that no matter what happens, he's teaching us how

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to live above our circumstances.

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He's teaching that we don't have to rely on food.

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He's teaching us that we don't have to rely on our government, that we

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don't have to rely on our housing.

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He's teaching us that we don't have to rely on that, that we are in a place

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above having to rely on all of those things in order to have what it is that

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we need, and we're in the middle of, of risk of those things being taken away,

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so to speak, and while we're trying to learn how to live without relying on

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them, we're right in the middle of the fire, having to learn it's, it's trial

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by fire, it's not learning before the fire is in the middle of it.

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But God always knew that.

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So I know I covered that from a lot of different angles.

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Did, did that address any of it at all for you?

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So I, I think disappointment, it's like, I have a hard time

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resting when it's not comfortable.

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not say we're Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego in the middle of the fiery furnace.

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I mean, that, that analogy is not what it's helpful.

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No, well, it's not peaceful.

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for us to determine what's peaceful.

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isn't, and God's like, no, no, no.

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What it is that I declare is true, regardless of the manifestation.

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That's where our peace is.

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And so we have peace regardless of the manifestation.

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This is how, and I'm not trying to compare our situation to, to other

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things like literally being burned alive.

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attacked by lions in the Coliseum or being covered with tar and pitch and then,

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uh, and, uh, being lit on fire for Nero's, uh, palace parties or, you know,

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whatever, you know, being boiled alive in oil, things like that, the way that

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people were able to sustain things like that is to understand that the

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manifestation, just like Meshach and Abednego going through the fire,

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understanding that the manifestation that they were experiencing does not

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change reality, that we're actually, that our peace is actually found in the

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character of God and, and we stand in, not in how the, how something

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is currently manifesting on earth.

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Here's another thing.

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true or what's actually going on.

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We're so used to looking at proof in order to try to figure out who it is that God

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is and, and, and try to understand how he works and what his love looks like,

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et cetera, and God's like, no, no, no.

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Y'all have it backwards.

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He said, no, no, no.

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You have to come for the perspective of being in my love.

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And then through you aligning with and agreeing with who it is that I

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declared that I am, that will manifest something different into the earth.

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So he's like, you were supposed to create the proof on earth of who it

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is that the character of God is instead of us looking at proof in order to tell

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us who it is that God is so that we can in turn believe in we're responsible

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for creating the proof we're responsible for creating the manifestation.

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of lies that have built up.

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with God based off of his word, because we don't see proof yet until we

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will align with the Lord.

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That thing doesn't come into the earth until we come into agreement

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with what God says, it doesn't prove.

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So we're like, okay, we have to come into a line with nothing, but God's

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word, because we don't have any proof to back it up in order to let us know

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whether or not it's true other than the fact God said it.

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So once we come into alignment with the fact that God said it, all of a

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sudden we will see a different manifestation than the world has ever seen.

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Currently it's manifesting things that are opposite.

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of God's character, and it's manifesting lies,

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because that is things that not only us,

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but not only Christians, but non-Christians

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have allowed to manifest into the earth

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because they believed things,

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they believed lies as opposed to believing.

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our belief in the lies,

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as opposed to belief in God's truth.

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So as far as like how to actually shift interest,

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you know, and deal with all of the disappointment,

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nothing gives me peace other than,

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I mean, in other words, lasting peace.

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There are all kinds of gimmicks we can use,

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all kinds of little tricks to kind of shift ourselves

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into kind of like feeling better in the moment.

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And it'll only last for a few hours,

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it'll last maybe for a day,

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but to actually have,

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or it'll last until you get a new trigger.

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But the thing that actually helps me truly shift

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and to have peace is when I choose God's character.

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in very extreme circumstances,

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very extreme, by the way, for me, it's trial by fire.

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And where there's literally nothing around me

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to sustain me that I can grab ahold of.

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I can't grab ahold of a relationship,

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I can't grab ahold of finances,

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I can't grab ahold of anything

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to fix whatever situation I'm in.

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That is actually pulling at,

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it actually is in their very dire situation.

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So what I've had to do,

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because I don't even believe God's character,

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I don't even feel, I don't feel like it,

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I don't feel that whatever he's saying is possibly true

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because the exact opposite, and I told God this,

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I say, God, the exact opposite looks like it's happening.

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Instead of love, it looks like hate.

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It looks like you are out for vengeance against me, Lord,

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you know, all of these things.

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But, and I told him,

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I went through a really big threshold shift.

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Again, I do these often,

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and I went through one at the beginning of December.

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And I literally had to, I remember exactly where I was,

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I was lying there on my bed and I told him,

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I said, okay, God, nothing around me proves this to me,

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proves that what you're saying is true,

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and I don't believe it.

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But I am committing to you,

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I am choosing that if you say

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that you are my provision and your protection,

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you say that you are more love

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than I have acknowledged this far,

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if you say that you are more good

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than I have acknowledged this far,

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that is what I am going to choose.

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And I intentionally chose it, and I thought, okay,

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then how would I act?

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Then I came to believe it.

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that is what allows it to manifest into the earth.

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I am the manifestation of what happens in the earth.

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I'm the manifestation of the events.

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So, and it doesn't mean that we're currently responsible,

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that we here are currently responsible for what just happened.

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I'm just saying that we have that much power and authority

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because of who it is that we are

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and where it is that we are.

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Honestly, the only thing that helps me

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and comforts me in these types of situations

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is looking at God's character and declaring it to be so,

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because you're right, there is no proof.

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Otherwise, it's just disappointment.

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Now, the proof comes in all kinds of other areas

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of our life where, or areas of politics,

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where we have seen the Lord come through.

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I'm like, the Lord is faithful, the Lord is faithful.

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But if we look in our current situation,

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we're like, Lord, this looks like the exact opposite

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of everything that all the prophets have been talking about

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and what I thought my spirit and what I felt my spirit

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and all kinds of things.

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This looks like the exact opposite manifestation.

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Like the manifestation does not declare truth to me.

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Whatever you say, God, I'm choosing that that's true.

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It's very difficult to make that shift.

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I'm not making light of it at all.

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I've had to walk through this through tears.

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It's hard when everything in my life was on the line.

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Relationships, finances, everything,

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all at the same time, by the way, was on the line.

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And it was near the beginning of December.

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You and I were going through that conference at the time.

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That was when I was going through

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a very major threshold shift.

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It was bad, it was so bad.

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And I was essentially alone having to do it.

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So, anyway, that was my most recent one.

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I just mentioned this to tell you, I really do live this

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and I know it's not easy.

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I'm fully aware it's not easy,

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but it's the only thing that has finally given me peace.

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And it's something that I've had to learn.

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Sorry, it's not any better than that,

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but I promise that that is sustainable enough.

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I promise.

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Thank you.

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Welcome.

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Hey, Alana, did you have something?

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I did.

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I've been thinking a lot lately

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and I've been working with some of my clients around this,

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around the idea of the ego versus the soul

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versus the spirit,

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but mostly the difference between.

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ego in the soul and I was wondering if you could speak to that at all. I don't really remember what

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people talk about when they talk about the ego I always have to be reminded so can you give me like

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what they're talking about when they talk about ego. I think with ego it's kind of like um that

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part of us that's all about us the part of us that feels like we can control things that doesn't

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necessarily see it from God's point of view they you kind of it kind of goes toward the negative

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right and then yeah yeah and I was curious how does that relate to the soul are they in a sense

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kind of not opposites but in a sense kind of opposites or are they one in the same more or

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like what would you I just wanted to unpack that a little bit so I can help describe it to my

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clients a little bit better well so the way that I see it is you know that usually that the people

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who come up with the ego the the id things like that I do not believe they're believers and so

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what they're trying to do is they're trying to to to figure out how to describe certain aspects of

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us and those are the words that they chose um now the aspect of the ego you know that's looking out

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for us you know whatever it's a way to describe the the way that I see it is the way to describe

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the fact that in our soul we're in we're we're trying to operate according to the tree of the

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knowledge of good and evil and the fact that we are trying to provide for and protect ourselves

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we do we believe that we're abandoned and alone and it's up to us and we're and we're just looking

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out for us we can remember that the way that God created us meaning that as the um you know as as

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believers as one with Christ we are the new man we no longer have to worry that we're someone that

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we're the old man so and the new man is perfect the new man isn't selfish the new man is not looking

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out for himself he's one with Christ and he has no problem whatsoever sharing perfect complete union

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and fellowship the that the aspect of our flesh you know whenever um whenever our soul is afraid

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and it feels like oh my goodness you know the I don't I feel that God's going is um is uh has left

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me in lack etc then we tend to operate in those very selfish things of like trying to look out for

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me but that's the part of us that I mean that's the that that's our flesh it's the it's the it's

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the flesh part of us that we're trying to over time manifest overcoming we're trying to overcome

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there's nothing wrong with our soul there's nothing wrong with our body what we're trying to

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overcome are the manifestation of all of the lies that the soul has believed and that the body is

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is currently manifesting um and um so yeah but uh the soul in trying to look out for in in um how

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would I word this in trying to protect a person and trying to provide for a person whatever all

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of those are good intentions right God doesn't create bad things God created the soul and it's

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a very good thing that's why psychologists counselors trauma therapists whatever you

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know Christians non-Christians recommend you know acknowledging the soul and valuing it and affirming

478
00:28:15.920 --> 00:28:20.320
it because it's trying to do a good job that's what Eve did when she chose from the tree of the

479
00:28:20.320 --> 00:28:25.920
knowledge of good and evil the only one who cares to know about what's good know the difference

480
00:28:25.920 --> 00:28:30.720
between good and evil is somebody who wants to do good an evil person has no desire to do it

481
00:28:30.720 --> 00:28:34.960
to learn how the difference between good and evil but she wanted to know she wanted to know the

482
00:28:34.960 --> 00:28:43.280
difference um and uh so we can we can know that our our soul just because it desires a good thing

483
00:28:43.280 --> 00:28:50.080
does not mean that it's actually walking it out in wisdom um and it was sometimes in its desire to

484
00:28:50.080 --> 00:28:54.400
see as provided for and protected because it knows that that's what we were created for we were

485
00:28:54.400 --> 00:28:59.680
created to be covered just like a woman a woman was meant to be covered by a husband woman was

486
00:28:59.680 --> 00:29:04.000
meant to be provided for and protected you can just tell literally physically psychologically

487
00:29:04.000 --> 00:29:10.320
whatever anybody can tell you know and let's not talk about all of the all the other corruption

488
00:29:10.320 --> 00:29:15.120
that's going on right now with all of those types of ideas about feminism and like gender

489
00:29:15.680 --> 00:29:21.440
you know uh transgender and all of that just talking about like normal average common sense

490
00:29:21.440 --> 00:29:27.600
human people uh that traditional thinking is a better way to describe it i'm not trying to to

491
00:29:27.600 --> 00:29:32.640
to devalue anybody i was trying to just quickly be able to say it but yeah looking at traditional

492
00:29:32.640 --> 00:29:37.200
thinking um we can very clearly understand we were meant to be covered and provided for

493
00:29:38.080 --> 00:29:44.480
we remember are described as in the female sense when we're talked about compared to christ we're

494
00:29:44.480 --> 00:29:51.520
the bride bride is meant to be covered so just like our spirit kind of um our soul interacts

495
00:29:51.520 --> 00:29:55.520
with our spirit kind of similarly to how we interact with the lord and the fact that we're

496
00:29:55.520 --> 00:30:00.000
afraid of it because our spirit is is one with christ and we're we're afraid of christ

497
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:01.080
I swear like, Oh my goodness.

498
00:30:01.080 --> 00:30:03.360
I don't know that he's going to provide for and protect me.

499
00:30:03.680 --> 00:30:04.560
I might be in lack.

500
00:30:04.800 --> 00:30:06.400
The soul is doing the same thing.

501
00:30:06.400 --> 00:30:10.080
If it doesn't feel covered, it feels like it needs to provide the covering

502
00:30:10.280 --> 00:30:13.960
because it knows it was meant to be protected and provided for.

503
00:30:13.960 --> 00:30:16.720
And if no one else is stepping up to the plate, it's going to do it.

504
00:30:17.400 --> 00:30:19.920
It's trying to do a good thing, but it's due.

505
00:30:19.960 --> 00:30:23.260
But the problem is the accusation that has against cross character

506
00:30:23.260 --> 00:30:24.640
that he's not doing his job.

507
00:30:25.400 --> 00:30:27.160
That's where the problem comes in.

508
00:30:28.000 --> 00:30:33.600
So that's how I, that's the best way I can think of to describe the, the, um,

509
00:30:33.640 --> 00:30:35.960
my, my, my thoughts on that.

510
00:30:35.960 --> 00:30:38.440
And I might change how I would express that.

511
00:30:38.440 --> 00:30:43.640
If I like listened to more to maybe Sigmund Freud or someone else's

512
00:30:43.640 --> 00:30:46.560
idea about, Oh, well, this is what the eco is versus this is the ed.

513
00:30:46.560 --> 00:30:48.840
Cause I don't remember it from the psychology one-on-one.

514
00:30:49.200 --> 00:30:54.320
What was that 16 years ago, but, um, just generally from your description,

515
00:30:54.320 --> 00:30:56.200
that's how I would, that's how I describe it.

516
00:30:56.200 --> 00:31:00.360
It's just people's psychologists way of describing that aspect of ourselves

517
00:31:00.360 --> 00:31:04.280
that feels that it has to look out for ourselves, if God, you know, a higher

518
00:31:04.280 --> 00:31:08.600
power, whatever someone might, a non-Christian might describe it as what

519
00:31:08.640 --> 00:31:12.880
God, if God isn't looking out for us, um, what it feels that it has to do.

520
00:31:13.560 --> 00:31:14.440
Those are my thoughts.

521
00:31:14.880 --> 00:31:19.800
So you will, you would kind of equate, um, the ego and the soul together.

522
00:31:20.480 --> 00:31:23.320
Then I don't think of the, okay.

523
00:31:23.320 --> 00:31:33.520
Well, for, so the Lord never talks that I'm aware of, of this thing called the ego.

524
00:31:33.960 --> 00:31:35.840
He only says your body, soul, and spirit.

525
00:31:35.920 --> 00:31:38.240
So he says, we're trying being just like that.

526
00:31:38.240 --> 00:31:43.280
So as far as like an ego is like this entity or the being that is a way for the

527
00:31:43.280 --> 00:31:47.600
non-Christians or the psychologist to describe it, and they like to talk about

528
00:31:47.600 --> 00:31:50.800
it as if it's like this, not this being, but this entity.

529
00:31:51.080 --> 00:31:53.640
So I would just, I don't know.

530
00:31:53.640 --> 00:31:58.120
I just think it's their kind of way to just describe it, describe this feeling

531
00:31:58.120 --> 00:32:02.960
that we have, this desire that we have, this intent, this, um, whatever, this

532
00:32:02.960 --> 00:32:05.960
intention that we have to provide for and protect ourselves out of fear.

533
00:32:06.560 --> 00:32:12.320
Um, so as far as like saying it's the same, maybe, I mean, it's, it's

534
00:32:12.320 --> 00:32:13.600
things that our soul does.

535
00:32:13.720 --> 00:32:15.200
It's things that our flesh does.

536
00:32:15.960 --> 00:32:18.960
Our flesh looks to provide for and protect itself and thinks it's abandoned.

537
00:32:19.240 --> 00:32:19.920
Sounds like the ego.

538
00:32:20.560 --> 00:32:20.920
Yeah.

539
00:32:20.920 --> 00:32:22.000
It's, it's interesting.

540
00:32:22.000 --> 00:32:26.920
Cause when I first created my program, I hadn't understood a lot about the spirit

541
00:32:27.000 --> 00:32:30.640
and the soul and the body and that the three, all of this that I've been learning.

542
00:32:31.080 --> 00:32:37.160
And, um, so when I designed the program, I designed it with my current level of

543
00:32:37.160 --> 00:32:44.640
knowledge at the time, which included the ego and kind of like, I looked at the

544
00:32:44.640 --> 00:32:49.160
soul as being very different from the ego at the time.

545
00:32:49.480 --> 00:32:51.440
I thought the ego was this like negative thing.

546
00:32:51.440 --> 00:32:53.800
And I thought the soul was the part of us that was more

547
00:32:53.800 --> 00:32:55.360
connected to God in the spirit.

548
00:32:55.360 --> 00:32:59.040
I thought the soul was like that metaphysical part of us that.

549
00:32:59.520 --> 00:33:04.800
You know, the mind, the heart, which could be transformed by God and that, you

550
00:33:04.800 --> 00:33:06.600
know, you hold your thoughts captive.

551
00:33:06.600 --> 00:33:08.840
He transforms you by the renewing of your mind.

552
00:33:08.840 --> 00:33:13.120
So I looked at the soul as that and the ego as the part of us that was very

553
00:33:13.120 --> 00:33:16.760
self-serving, but the soul as the part of us that was more connected to God.

554
00:33:17.480 --> 00:33:21.040
And now I'm wondering if I was even accurate in thinking that.

555
00:33:22.680 --> 00:33:24.880
Well, I don't, I don't know.

556
00:33:24.880 --> 00:33:29.680
I, I, um, I think that the, um, I do, I do know this.

557
00:33:30.560 --> 00:33:34.920
Um, what if you, if it, because I don't know necessarily.

558
00:33:35.360 --> 00:33:39.800
I, um, I think that you would be better equipped to answer this

559
00:33:39.800 --> 00:33:41.360
question for yourself than me.

560
00:33:41.360 --> 00:33:44.720
So I'm just going to give you some direction to go in and then you can

561
00:33:44.720 --> 00:33:48.120
figure out because you know, much more in depth than what you have been believing

562
00:33:48.120 --> 00:33:50.160
about the ego and what you've been teaching about it.

563
00:33:50.560 --> 00:33:53.200
So I believe that you'll be able to answer your question better than me,

564
00:33:53.200 --> 00:33:55.280
but this is kind of the direction.

565
00:33:55.520 --> 00:33:56.240
Think of it.

566
00:33:56.280 --> 00:34:00.920
Um, so that you can, you can take this before the Lord and, and

567
00:34:01.000 --> 00:34:02.680
have him resolve this for you.

568
00:34:03.200 --> 00:34:06.680
Um, which obviously everybody on here knows that you should

569
00:34:06.680 --> 00:34:07.600
do with everything I say.

570
00:34:08.320 --> 00:34:10.719
So everything that I teach about spirit, soul, and body, it's

571
00:34:10.719 --> 00:34:12.520
just what I believe so far so far.

572
00:34:12.760 --> 00:34:14.080
I could change it tomorrow.

573
00:34:14.360 --> 00:34:15.840
I could change what I believe tomorrow.

574
00:34:16.000 --> 00:34:18.600
So far, this is what, this is what I understand what I believe.

575
00:34:18.800 --> 00:34:23.600
So to each his own with the Lord about what they believe about what it is that

576
00:34:23.600 --> 00:34:24.920
we've talked about in rest intensive.

577
00:34:25.239 --> 00:34:30.239
But, um, so my thoughts are things like, uh, you said, you know, that the soul

578
00:34:30.239 --> 00:34:32.400
could be, you didn't use this word.

579
00:34:32.400 --> 00:34:35.520
So I'm not trying to put words in your mouth, but I'm just trying to get an

580
00:34:35.520 --> 00:34:38.639
idea across that the soul can be redeemed and the soul can, you know,

581
00:34:38.639 --> 00:34:40.960
that the soul can be renewed, et cetera.

582
00:34:41.120 --> 00:34:48.000
Well, if, if, um, I don't know then how far down you would go, you would take

583
00:34:48.000 --> 00:34:53.280
yourself along the path of then what would happen to the ego because the ego, uh, I

584
00:34:53.280 --> 00:34:59.320
mean, because Christ, when he died, he brought full reconciliation so that we

585
00:34:59.320 --> 00:35:00.040
have, so that.

586
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.240
Our identity, which is in our spirit, is fully reconciled with the Lord, fully one with the

587
00:35:04.240 --> 00:35:09.640
Lord, and that we are simply manifesting into the soul, into the body, the victory that's

588
00:35:09.640 --> 00:35:13.920
already been won so that they actually look like it, so that they come into alignment

589
00:35:13.920 --> 00:35:15.180
with it or whatever.

590
00:35:15.180 --> 00:35:20.560
So through the blood of Christ and through his act, when we come to agreement with that,

591
00:35:20.560 --> 00:35:25.440
that redemption and that reconciliation will fully manifest into absolutely every part

592
00:35:25.440 --> 00:35:26.440
of us.

593
00:35:26.440 --> 00:35:31.880
So when that, in the way that you've been believing the ego is, which I don't know,

594
00:35:31.880 --> 00:35:40.160
that's why I'm leaving it up to you to take this before the Lord and figure it out, would

595
00:35:40.160 --> 00:35:45.520
the way that you've been believing, would the ego be able to be redeemed?

596
00:35:45.520 --> 00:35:49.400
Or in other words, have you believed this an aspect of us that could be redeemed and

597
00:35:49.400 --> 00:35:57.300
then would just switch its thinking or was it sole purpose to the point that it can no

598
00:35:57.300 --> 00:36:03.120
longer have any place and it has to die and be extracted from us?

599
00:36:03.120 --> 00:36:07.200
And if that's the case, when we think about the fact that when God says that he reconciled

600
00:36:07.200 --> 00:36:09.520
us, he already did all the work.

601
00:36:09.520 --> 00:36:15.560
Everything is already, we already have power over all aspects of death.

602
00:36:15.560 --> 00:36:19.520
There's not a part of us that somewhere that he says, isn't dead yet.

603
00:36:19.520 --> 00:36:22.600
He says that the old man has already died.

604
00:36:22.600 --> 00:36:27.600
So there's not something else coming that needs to die again.

605
00:36:27.600 --> 00:36:31.040
It's just not an alignment and in manifestation of who it is that we are.

606
00:36:31.040 --> 00:36:33.040
So it's still manifesting lies.

607
00:36:33.040 --> 00:36:34.920
It still doesn't look healed.

608
00:36:34.920 --> 00:36:37.020
It doesn't look, it still looks rebellious.

609
00:36:37.020 --> 00:36:44.120
It still looks like it's selfish, but there's nothing else that like needs to be like that

610
00:36:44.120 --> 00:36:48.520
was bad and God says, okay, well, I only create good things and I absolutely didn't

611
00:36:48.520 --> 00:36:49.520
create that.

612
00:36:49.520 --> 00:36:51.360
And so that's gotta go, you know?

613
00:36:51.360 --> 00:36:53.880
So I don't, I don't fully know.

614
00:36:53.880 --> 00:36:56.920
Those are just some of the ideas that came up that came to mind when you were talking.

615
00:36:56.920 --> 00:37:03.400
I have no idea if that's how that might help you, but maybe it'll give you a direction.

616
00:37:03.400 --> 00:37:04.400
Yeah.

617
00:37:04.400 --> 00:37:05.400
No, it does for sure.

618
00:37:05.400 --> 00:37:10.160
I think the way I saw it was like the ego was very fear-based and the soul was more

619
00:37:10.160 --> 00:37:11.160
faith-based.

620
00:37:11.160 --> 00:37:16.600
And the soul was more spirit-focused and the ego was more earthly focused.

621
00:37:16.600 --> 00:37:22.680
And so I saw them as almost opposites back then, at least in the earthly realm, at least

622
00:37:22.680 --> 00:37:24.440
in the physical realm, right?

623
00:37:24.440 --> 00:37:30.600
Like, you know, keeping, cause when I start them on this process of going through my course,

624
00:37:30.600 --> 00:37:36.920
I start them with like, you know, you, you go right to like the high level stuff right

625
00:37:36.920 --> 00:37:37.920
away.

626
00:37:37.920 --> 00:37:41.760
And then when they're with me, I sort of ease them into that and I get them to the high

627
00:37:41.760 --> 00:37:44.000
level stuff eventually, but I kind of ease them in.

628
00:37:44.000 --> 00:37:49.160
And I think when I first started off, this is like one of the first lessons where they

629
00:37:49.160 --> 00:37:53.160
kind of learn a little bit about almost like the physical realm, like what they're experiencing

630
00:37:53.160 --> 00:37:55.320
in the physical realm.

631
00:37:55.320 --> 00:37:59.800
And so when I looked at it that way, I wasn't thinking about as much the spiritual realm.

632
00:37:59.800 --> 00:38:05.520
I go into more of that later, but I go into their identity in Christ and I go into, you

633
00:38:05.520 --> 00:38:09.400
know, their ego being that fear-based part of them and the soul being the part of them

634
00:38:09.400 --> 00:38:15.920
that wants more of God's spirit to come and heal kind of like everything.

635
00:38:15.920 --> 00:38:21.360
So I just don't know, because when I created it, I felt confident about what I was teaching.

636
00:38:21.360 --> 00:38:26.600
And now that I've learned a lot of what's been taught here, I just want to feel aligned

637
00:38:26.600 --> 00:38:29.520
and feel like I'm teaching the right thing.

638
00:38:29.520 --> 00:38:34.440
And I think in some ways I could be because it's the physical realm, but then the way

639
00:38:34.440 --> 00:38:39.640
you explain it, I'm like, if it's already done and the old man is already dead, am I

640
00:38:39.640 --> 00:38:43.640
teaching something incorrectly?

641
00:38:43.640 --> 00:38:48.800
You know, I have actually struggled with that, with my own teaching and the rest intensive

642
00:38:48.800 --> 00:38:53.080
periodically, things will come up and I'm like, well, wait just a second.

643
00:38:53.080 --> 00:38:54.960
Does that change what it is that I've been teaching?

644
00:38:54.960 --> 00:38:57.040
Does it change what it is?

645
00:38:57.040 --> 00:39:01.840
And what I've come to understand is I'm like, it doesn't matter what it is that I hear from

646
00:39:01.840 --> 00:39:03.200
different people.

647
00:39:03.200 --> 00:39:06.200
What matters is what it is that I have owned.

648
00:39:06.200 --> 00:39:12.360
So do, what is it that I actually have internalized in my relationship with the Lord and I'm walking

649
00:39:12.360 --> 00:39:14.960
out and that is what I teach.

650
00:39:14.960 --> 00:39:23.680
So until that shifts, then I just let some of this, I let the stuff just be because I'm

651
00:39:23.680 --> 00:39:25.040
like, well, I don't know.

652
00:39:25.040 --> 00:39:33.200
This is just new thought and a new idea that has come, um, that, that if it's true, would

653
00:39:33.200 --> 00:39:38.760
change some of the things that I have taught, but I'm like, yeah, but is it true?

654
00:39:38.760 --> 00:39:43.600
Because I fully this, I mean, and, and so anyway, what I decide, I thought, well, what

655
00:39:43.600 --> 00:39:44.600
should I do?

656
00:39:44.600 --> 00:39:46.920
Should I, should I take it down until I know for sure?

657
00:39:46.920 --> 00:39:51.080
And I thought, no, actually you're responsible in your relationship with the Lord for what

658
00:39:51.080 --> 00:39:54.760
it is that you own in your relationship, what somebody else says and not what sounds like

659
00:39:54.760 --> 00:39:59.440
it might plausibly be true, you know, you and your relationship with the Lord, what,

660
00:39:59.440 --> 00:39:59.960
what do you own?

661
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:06.320
own in your life, not what you heard. What, what do I own? Meaning like what do I,

662
00:40:06.320 --> 00:40:11.920
what have I internalized to the point that has become one between me and the Lord and I live it,

663
00:40:12.560 --> 00:40:16.400
not that I live it because somebody else believes it and I trust them.

664
00:40:17.680 --> 00:40:24.880
So until I shift in what it is that I own, I'm keeping it because this is what it is that I,

665
00:40:24.880 --> 00:40:28.480
what I teach all and what I have up in the rest intensive is what I currently

666
00:40:28.480 --> 00:40:34.080
live. And until that changes or until God tells me I need to do something different, you know,

667
00:40:34.880 --> 00:40:41.040
on it, I'm, I'm keeping these things up. Now, I don't mean that I've questioned all of this stuff.

668
00:40:41.040 --> 00:40:47.040
There's just been like, in fact, I can only think of one thing that I have, like that someone said

669
00:40:47.040 --> 00:40:50.320
something one time and it all of a sudden it started my wheels turning thinking, wait a

670
00:40:50.320 --> 00:40:55.360
minute. I remember mentioning in one particular video that dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah,

671
00:40:55.360 --> 00:41:00.960
and I'm like, yes, that is that possibly wrong? I mean, I, I, I knew that I knew that I needed to

672
00:41:00.960 --> 00:41:06.240
do my relationship with the Lord, you know, and I thought, actually rest, relax. It's okay.

673
00:41:06.240 --> 00:41:11.040
Until God tells you and you have owned it differently. This is your walk with the Lord

674
00:41:11.040 --> 00:41:17.840
and your teaching reflects your walk with the Lord. Um, so that's what I would recommend to you

675
00:41:18.480 --> 00:41:25.120
put on your own oxygen mask first. If it is, if, if you need to change something,

676
00:41:25.920 --> 00:41:31.440
you need to own it differently than you owned it than the person of what it is that you owned,

677
00:41:31.440 --> 00:41:38.160
when you taught that, but until that changes and unless God puts something on your conscience and

678
00:41:38.160 --> 00:41:41.840
on your spirit, then obviously that's different, but just giving you some general rule of thumb

679
00:41:42.640 --> 00:41:48.160
that your, your course needs to reflect you and what it is you've owned in your

680
00:41:48.160 --> 00:41:52.800
relationship with the Lord, because that's what he's holding you accountable to. Um, so.

681
00:41:54.960 --> 00:41:59.440
Yeah. And it's interesting. Cause I feel like I'm in this, um, in between phase where I'm still

682
00:41:59.440 --> 00:42:04.000
trying to figure out in some ways, how to articulate for myself, everything that I've

683
00:42:04.000 --> 00:42:08.480
learned. Like I listened to you and I'm like, yup, makes sense. Totally ingesting it, feel at rest.

684
00:42:08.560 --> 00:42:12.960
We all do that with people. Yeah. And I'm like, I want to be able to share it. And I'm like, well,

685
00:42:14.160 --> 00:42:18.240
I know got to own it for us. Got to own it. I do the same thing. I don't know how many

686
00:42:18.240 --> 00:42:22.720
conferences that I've been to, you know, how many, you know, I feel like every time I get on here,

687
00:42:22.720 --> 00:42:26.000
I'm telling you y'all, Oh yeah, I've been such and such a conference. I go to conferences all

688
00:42:26.000 --> 00:42:31.760
the time. I've listened to so many people, but until I own it, I can't. And then in fact,

689
00:42:31.760 --> 00:42:34.560
some people have asked me, Hey, Ashley, you know, when you get done with such and such a

690
00:42:34.560 --> 00:42:37.360
conference, can you tell us, you know, can you teach us then the stuff that you've learned?

691
00:42:37.360 --> 00:42:41.840
And I said, no, not until I've owned it, not until I've owned it, because otherwise I'm

692
00:42:41.840 --> 00:42:46.960
regurgitating what somebody else said. And even if I think it sounds good and plausible, if I

693
00:42:46.960 --> 00:42:52.480
haven't owned it, if there's an aspect of it in which I don't want to say that it's not authentic,

694
00:42:52.480 --> 00:42:58.000
but it's that y'all are supposed to receive an aspect. What I'm responsible to Lord for

695
00:42:58.000 --> 00:43:03.760
is if I'm a life giving spirit, God's my relationship and my spirit is supposed to flow

696
00:43:03.760 --> 00:43:11.520
out and into the rest intensive. And if that aspect and that life giving spirit of the Lord

697
00:43:11.520 --> 00:43:17.360
and I together is something that the Lord and you together resonates with, then he will draw

698
00:43:17.360 --> 00:43:25.760
the, then he will draw y'all to, to to join the rest intensive, et cetera. But y'all, you need

699
00:43:25.760 --> 00:43:32.480
me. I have to, in other words, I have to put on my own oxygen mask first. And so if I want,

700
00:43:33.200 --> 00:43:37.600
as opposed to me thinking, what is it that y'all need? And have y'all tell me what it is that you

701
00:43:37.600 --> 00:43:42.400
need? No, no, no. Y'all, the Lord put us all together because he said, Ashley, I'm telling

702
00:43:42.400 --> 00:43:48.000
you things and I'm having you live things and own things so that when you speak, because you live it,

703
00:43:48.000 --> 00:43:53.840
when you speak it, you impart it. And it's the same thing for you that what it is that you own,

704
00:43:53.840 --> 00:43:59.520
you impart. So if you are simply regurgitating something that, that if we're regurgitating

705
00:43:59.520 --> 00:44:04.800
something that we haven't owned yet, it doesn't bring life because there's no spirit in it.

706
00:44:06.160 --> 00:44:09.440
Because it does not have your spirit. And it's more of the tree of the knowledge of good and

707
00:44:09.440 --> 00:44:14.480
evil. It's knowledge. It's not owned. And it's not, you're not pulling it from the spirit

708
00:44:14.480 --> 00:44:19.200
and operating from that. So it can't, so it's not operating in a life giving spirit way. It's

709
00:44:19.200 --> 00:44:24.400
simply, it's simply information, simply knowledge. Sure. Could somebody's life be transformed by you

710
00:44:24.400 --> 00:44:28.240
saying it? Sure. But that's something that the Lord does in their spirit. But what he wants us

711
00:44:28.240 --> 00:44:32.960
to do is to understand, no, no, no, no. The power to manifest things on earth is you operating as a

712
00:44:32.960 --> 00:44:37.120
life giving spirit, coming into alignment, being in alignment with me and agreeing with me.

713
00:44:37.920 --> 00:44:43.040
That whatever I say that is true, really is true. That is what is going to transform the world.

714
00:44:43.040 --> 00:44:47.920
Not information that we learn about and regurgitate where we're trying so hard to get it right.

715
00:44:47.920 --> 00:44:54.960
You remember so often that I have, I've come on here and, and when I teach like, like right now,

716
00:44:54.960 --> 00:44:59.840
I'm just talking and I'm going to have to go back and look at what it is that I said.

717
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.280
you know, when we talk just out of the spirit, I'll say, it's like, we just,

718
00:45:03.400 --> 00:45:10.120
we just know things that we didn't know that we knew. Right. And so that is what

719
00:45:10.120 --> 00:45:15.360
God, that's what God calls. That's what God calls us to do is to operate from

720
00:45:15.360 --> 00:45:18.600
that place. Anyway, that's what I'm encouraged of you as well, and to just

721
00:45:18.600 --> 00:45:30.000
release yourself from, from, from the, from the oppressive feeling of, oh, my

722
00:45:30.000 --> 00:45:35.520
word, I've got to get right. Live it, own it, be, you know, whatever it is you

723
00:45:35.520 --> 00:45:39.160
live and own in your relationship with the Lord, and that you be changed first,

724
00:45:39.360 --> 00:45:43.560
if the Lord desires you to change something, you be changed first that you

725
00:45:43.560 --> 00:45:47.400
live and own it, because when, and, and this is, this is very, very, very

726
00:45:47.400 --> 00:45:52.120
important. Part of the reason that y'all are able to shift, and I haven't shared

727
00:45:52.120 --> 00:45:56.560
this with y'all so far, because, you know, you have to be at a certain point,

728
00:45:56.560 --> 00:46:01.840
maybe to be able to hear it, hear it in the heart in which I mean it. But part of

729
00:46:01.840 --> 00:46:05.200
the reason that y'all have that y'all have shifted and that people shift when

730
00:46:05.200 --> 00:46:08.760
they're in the rest intensive, yes, you can do it on your own with the father,

731
00:46:08.760 --> 00:46:13.160
absolutely, no question. But when someone has already blazed the trail in

732
00:46:13.160 --> 00:46:16.480
you, and when they're giving you a life giving spirit, when they're speaking out

733
00:46:16.480 --> 00:46:20.680
of a life giving spirit and out of the spirit, it imparts something to others so

734
00:46:20.680 --> 00:46:24.800
that they can get down that road faster. There are many of y'all that have

735
00:46:24.800 --> 00:46:28.960
shifted faster than I did. Why? Because I blazed the trail first. And for me, it

736
00:46:28.960 --> 00:46:34.240
took, it was longer and harder. So that you, those who could come behind me

737
00:46:34.360 --> 00:46:38.320
could pass through faster. And there are those that have gone before me that have

738
00:46:38.320 --> 00:46:43.440
blazed a very long, arduous trail. And I have in things that have taken them

739
00:46:43.440 --> 00:46:47.560
years, they have told me, Ashley, you're moving in months through things that

740
00:46:47.560 --> 00:46:53.640
took me years, because I'm learning from them. And they have an end. And by

741
00:46:53.680 --> 00:46:57.280
learning from them in their life giving spirit, and the fact that they owned this

742
00:46:57.280 --> 00:47:02.000
and they have like embodied what it is that they have learned from the Lord, it

743
00:47:02.000 --> 00:47:06.080
actually being me learning from them, it imparts something of what it is that

744
00:47:06.080 --> 00:47:10.480
they've accomplished to me. That's how we're able to be, you know, in one with

745
00:47:10.480 --> 00:47:16.240
the spirit, how one in spirit, you know, with the Lord, with with Christ, how we're

746
00:47:16.240 --> 00:47:20.520
able to benefit each other, each of us dies that the others might live. So what

747
00:47:20.520 --> 00:47:25.200
your people need is you, because they need you to impart something to them,

748
00:47:25.680 --> 00:47:30.320
that you can impart to them, but you can only impart it to them. If you are a

749
00:47:30.320 --> 00:47:34.280
life giving spirit that is operating from the place that you've owned it in

750
00:47:34.280 --> 00:47:37.240
your own relationship with the Lord doesn't mean that you're going to do all

751
00:47:37.240 --> 00:47:40.840
the work for them, they have that benefit. And when they come into your,

752
00:47:40.920 --> 00:47:44.640
you come to your presence to choose to receive it when meaning like you're

753
00:47:44.640 --> 00:47:48.520
teaching to choose to receive it from their own Lord, they don't receive it

754
00:47:48.520 --> 00:47:52.200
from you, they receive it from the Lord, but they have the benefit kind of like

755
00:47:52.200 --> 00:48:00.520
Elisha of receiving like a portion, like the old charismatic way of referring to

756
00:48:00.520 --> 00:48:06.000
it is, is this is this idea of like the charismatics refer to it as and is like

757
00:48:06.000 --> 00:48:09.280
an anointing or something, you know, that's how that so that's for those of

758
00:48:09.280 --> 00:48:12.440
you who are charismatic, you know, you might be able to resonate with Oh, that

759
00:48:12.440 --> 00:48:18.640
that word. In other words, this idea that, that someone else has done some work for

760
00:48:18.640 --> 00:48:23.160
you that you don't have to do all of it yourself. They've done some of it and you

761
00:48:23.160 --> 00:48:28.560
get to benefit. So you know, I could like if I start a puzzle, you know, and I get

762
00:48:28.560 --> 00:48:31.400
three quarters of the way through, but you finished the puzzle, you got to

763
00:48:31.400 --> 00:48:34.760
finish the puzzle, but I did three quarters of the work for you so that you

764
00:48:34.760 --> 00:48:38.480
didn't have to, but you're the one who finished it and you're, you still did the

765
00:48:38.480 --> 00:48:42.640
work and you had to choose to step into it and to do it. You had to exercise your

766
00:48:42.640 --> 00:48:46.960
brainpower. You had to do whatever you did it, but you got to benefit from

767
00:48:46.960 --> 00:48:51.280
someone else's work. And so your clients will do the same thing from you. We, we

768
00:48:51.280 --> 00:48:56.520
impart our spirits, an aspect of our spirits into others. After we've owned

769
00:48:56.520 --> 00:49:01.120
it, you can own it for only a day, but it has to be owned. It has to be real. It

770
00:49:01.120 --> 00:49:07.200
has to be from the, from the spirit. So anyway, so you were, you were released,

771
00:49:07.280 --> 00:49:10.720
you were released. It's got to be just right.

772
00:49:12.200 --> 00:49:13.920
That's not me at all. What are you talking about?

773
00:49:16.080 --> 00:49:20.200
It's good. It comes from a wonderful heart, but it's oppressive and it's

774
00:49:20.200 --> 00:49:20.960
exhausting.

775
00:49:21.960 --> 00:49:26.000
You know, when God gives us this like ability to speak into other people's

776
00:49:26.000 --> 00:49:31.680
lives based on his word and who he is, it's such a big responsibility that I

777
00:49:31.680 --> 00:49:37.400
really want to make sure that I'm giving them the right information, the right

778
00:49:37.400 --> 00:49:42.480
spirit, the right words, the right, you know, I don't even know how to explain

779
00:49:42.480 --> 00:49:45.760
it, but you know, those unsaid things, I want to be able to, like you said,

780
00:49:45.760 --> 00:49:49.520
impart them onto them, but not, I don't want to lead them astray. I don't want

781
00:49:49.680 --> 00:49:52.840
to lead them in any wrong direction. I want to keep them on the straight and

782
00:49:52.840 --> 00:49:56.680
narrow path. So when I questioned these things, like I was up in the middle of

783
00:49:56.680 --> 00:49:59.560
the night thinking about it, cause I had a group coaching call last night and I

784
00:49:59.560 --> 00:49:59.960
was like,

785
00:50:00.880 --> 00:50:05.120
you know, was it just something I believed back then, but now I'm shifting. So this belief is

786
00:50:05.120 --> 00:50:09.040
shifting and is this belief right? Or does that still work in some way? And I was saying,

787
00:50:10.000 --> 00:50:14.880
you know, because it is a big responsibility, right? It is. It is. It is a big responsibility.

788
00:50:14.880 --> 00:50:21.760
Yeah. So let your spirit carry it, not your soul. Yeah. Cause your soul and all your soul can carry

789
00:50:21.760 --> 00:50:28.240
it to the degree that it has matured to be able to handle that weight. But the, whatever aspect

790
00:50:28.240 --> 00:50:33.520
of the weight that that carries that your soul can't quite handle yet. Let your, give it, give

791
00:50:33.520 --> 00:50:41.440
it to your spirit and then your spirit will only carry however much. Do y'all remember me talking

792
00:50:41.440 --> 00:50:46.400
about this, you know, about the mantle that God gives us. Okay. About the fight. And then for

793
00:50:46.400 --> 00:50:52.480
those of you who are on here that may not have heard it, you know, the Lord gave me a vision of,

794
00:50:52.480 --> 00:50:58.000
I was about, even though I was a full grown adult, I looked about to be the size of like a four-year

795
00:50:58.000 --> 00:51:02.320
old. I was very, very short, but I was a full grown adult that I was, I was as short as four-year

796
00:51:02.320 --> 00:51:07.680
old. And so Jesus gave me this mantle, a full mantle that was as big as like Elizabeth II's

797
00:51:07.680 --> 00:51:14.400
coronation mantle, which is like, I think it's six yards long. It's like, it's very deep plush

798
00:51:14.400 --> 00:51:19.200
velvet and ermine extremely heavy. So heavy that if I'm not mistaken, I don't think she can pull

799
00:51:19.200 --> 00:51:25.760
it by herself, which is why the maids carry it anyway. So I had that on me and because I was

800
00:51:25.760 --> 00:51:30.880
four, what it showed me is even though God gave me the full thing, the only thing that I was

801
00:51:30.880 --> 00:51:35.920
responsible for carrying was everything from my shoulder down to the ground. In other words,

802
00:51:35.920 --> 00:51:42.000
it was based on my height and the strength that that height could carry. That is all that I

803
00:51:42.000 --> 00:51:48.080
carried and that I was responsible for. God gave me all of it, but the floor supported it. And

804
00:51:48.080 --> 00:51:53.840
I was only operating it and operating in the area of responsibility of what I had been given,

805
00:51:53.840 --> 00:51:59.840
according to my maturity at the time. And as I grew, it naturally pulled at more and more at

806
00:51:59.840 --> 00:52:04.320
the mantle. And I was carrying more and more of the responsibility. So I just mentioned that to

807
00:52:04.320 --> 00:52:08.800
relieve us from the fact that, oh my goodness, I've got this huge responsibility. God will only

808
00:52:08.800 --> 00:52:15.680
give us what it is that we can, um, that, that, uh, there's an aspect of the fact that God will

809
00:52:15.680 --> 00:52:21.440
only give us what it is that we can carry, but understand that there's also a strengthening that

810
00:52:21.440 --> 00:52:26.480
he does where we're like, oh Lord, I can't, I can't carry this. This is too heavy. Sorry. I

811
00:52:26.480 --> 00:52:33.360
don't know if you could see me there for a second. My battery says that it's low. Um, but, uh, anyway,

812
00:52:33.360 --> 00:52:38.480
that, uh, there's an aspect in which just like in weights, when we're, when we are trying to

813
00:52:38.480 --> 00:52:44.160
strengthen ourselves and we're trying to strengthen our, our muscles, there's, there's an aspect in

814
00:52:44.160 --> 00:52:49.680
which it's, we, we were pushing our boundaries. And so the same thing with, with the weight of

815
00:52:49.680 --> 00:52:56.000
responsibility, it's like, oh my goodness, this is new territory. This feels very heavy. So, um,

816
00:52:56.000 --> 00:53:01.200
there, God won't give us more than we can bear, so to speak. But at the same time, there's a,

817
00:53:01.200 --> 00:53:06.800
there is a strengthening exercise that does go on in which we feel at times that it's more than

818
00:53:06.800 --> 00:53:14.800
what it is that we can, we can bear. So, so is it, is it possible then to like in meeting someone

819
00:53:14.880 --> 00:53:22.640
where they're at, to help them understand their soul maybe, and like heal parts of their soul

820
00:53:22.640 --> 00:53:28.160
before they're able to really understand God's spirit and really trust him and really have faith

821
00:53:28.160 --> 00:53:33.200
in him. Like my example would be going to church for almost a year and never, never hearing my

822
00:53:33.200 --> 00:53:38.240
pastor talk about Jesus until the one day that I was like, my heart was open and I became a

823
00:53:38.240 --> 00:53:42.640
Christian that day was the first time I ever heard him talk about Jesus, but he talked about Jesus

824
00:53:42.640 --> 00:53:47.520
every week. I just wasn't ready to hear it. I was listening to the rest of the life application

825
00:53:47.520 --> 00:53:53.760
stuff that he was saying. So is it possible that with some of the women that come into my sphere

826
00:53:53.760 --> 00:53:59.680
and come into my program because of all their trauma and all of their negative belief systems,

827
00:53:59.680 --> 00:54:05.360
is it possible that, and I'm open to whatever answer, but that they might need some healing

828
00:54:05.360 --> 00:54:10.800
in their soul before they can really get to a place of accessing that trust faith in God's

829
00:54:10.800 --> 00:54:23.920
protection and provision? Well, okay. It depends. So remember that when we're young in the Lord,

830
00:54:23.920 --> 00:54:30.480
God will show us proof first before, you know, and saying, Hey, look, look, see, I'm healing you.

831
00:54:30.480 --> 00:54:34.400
I'm healing you. So don't you see that I'm love? Don't you believe that I'm love? And now can't

832
00:54:34.400 --> 00:54:40.320
you choose that I'm love and act like it. But then over, but then in, um, there are times where,

833
00:54:40.320 --> 00:54:46.080
where we just really, truly have to cast ourselves and abandon ourselves onto him,

834
00:54:46.080 --> 00:54:51.360
choosing that whatever he says is true before we're healed, because we're no matter what we're

835
00:54:51.360 --> 00:54:57.360
trying, we're not getting healed. So it depends. I mean, I've seen it work both ways and not only,

836
00:54:57.360 --> 00:54:59.680
not only others' life, but my own life.

837
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:03.320
multiple times God has handled it from different directions.

838
00:55:03.320 --> 00:55:05.360
He's handled it from both of the areas that you,

839
00:55:05.360 --> 00:55:08.200
both of the directions that you've mentioned.

840
00:55:08.200 --> 00:55:11.040
So, because ultimately what he's trying to get us to

841
00:55:11.040 --> 00:55:13.160
is to choose him even before we heal,

842
00:55:13.160 --> 00:55:17.760
because it's by, it's being in him that heals us

843
00:55:17.760 --> 00:55:20.400
as opposed to we get healed and that brings us in.

844
00:55:20.400 --> 00:55:22.440
Because the idea of like getting healed

845
00:55:22.440 --> 00:55:25.720
and then that healing is enough to be able to trust him

846
00:55:25.720 --> 00:55:29.680
is falls similar, I believe similar to that idea

847
00:55:29.680 --> 00:55:34.480
that, well, you know, you need to fix up your life first

848
00:55:34.480 --> 00:55:36.040
before you can become saved.

849
00:55:36.040 --> 00:55:38.120
Well, we all know that that's not true,

850
00:55:38.120 --> 00:55:40.720
but sometimes, you know,

851
00:55:40.720 --> 00:55:42.520
we'll still allow ourselves things like,

852
00:55:42.520 --> 00:55:44.800
well, I need to heal first before I trust God.

853
00:55:44.800 --> 00:55:46.160
And God's like, no, no, no,

854
00:55:46.160 --> 00:55:48.600
it's in me that you get your healing.

855
00:55:48.600 --> 00:55:51.080
But when someone can't quite do it,

856
00:55:51.080 --> 00:55:52.920
there are certain ways that God will interact

857
00:55:52.920 --> 00:55:55.560
in people's lives in very, very different ways

858
00:55:55.560 --> 00:55:58.360
where he will come meet them fully where they are

859
00:55:58.360 --> 00:56:01.280
and it's by their healing and by their transformation

860
00:56:01.280 --> 00:56:02.520
that they're healed.

861
00:56:02.520 --> 00:56:04.360
I mean, and sorry, not that they're healed,

862
00:56:04.360 --> 00:56:06.480
that they're healed and then they believe

863
00:56:06.480 --> 00:56:07.320
and they trust God.

864
00:56:07.320 --> 00:56:12.200
So God will father and govern each son differently.

865
00:56:12.200 --> 00:56:13.960
So there's no hard and fast rule.

866
00:56:13.960 --> 00:56:17.280
It works both ways because it's based on relationship.

867
00:56:17.280 --> 00:56:20.640
That is a God who is having relationship with his son

868
00:56:20.640 --> 00:56:22.960
and he's gonna do it in a variety of ways.

869
00:56:24.080 --> 00:56:25.400
We can get very frustrated with it.

870
00:56:25.400 --> 00:56:28.080
Well, Lord, you know, why did you heal them before?

871
00:56:28.760 --> 00:56:29.600
You know, they trusted you

872
00:56:29.600 --> 00:56:31.080
and see the Lord that worked for them.

873
00:56:31.080 --> 00:56:33.760
They got the proof and then they have the faith.

874
00:56:33.760 --> 00:56:36.920
But me, you're not healing me until I have the faith.

875
00:56:36.920 --> 00:56:40.320
You know, like, Lord, that's just not fair.

876
00:56:40.320 --> 00:56:42.040
God's like, no, this isn't about fair.

877
00:56:42.040 --> 00:56:43.160
This isn't about a formula.

878
00:56:43.160 --> 00:56:44.720
This isn't about a standard.

879
00:56:44.720 --> 00:56:46.200
This is about a relationship

880
00:56:46.200 --> 00:56:47.640
and I'm a being and you're a being,

881
00:56:47.640 --> 00:56:49.160
we're having a relationship.

882
00:56:49.160 --> 00:56:51.920
And so I'm fathering you into things

883
00:56:51.920 --> 00:56:55.360
and I'm going to handle every son differently

884
00:56:55.360 --> 00:56:57.840
according to my unique relationship with them.

885
00:56:58.600 --> 00:56:59.440
I know their background.

886
00:56:59.440 --> 00:57:00.280
You don't know their background.

887
00:57:00.280 --> 00:57:03.480
You can't, you can't declare judgment against them.

888
00:57:03.480 --> 00:57:06.440
So it's both.

889
00:57:06.440 --> 00:57:07.280
Yeah.

890
00:57:07.280 --> 00:57:08.840
No, that's a good relationship.

891
00:57:08.840 --> 00:57:09.760
Yeah.

892
00:57:09.760 --> 00:57:10.600
It is.

893
00:57:10.600 --> 00:57:12.840
Yeah, I think because I've always come at this place

894
00:57:12.840 --> 00:57:15.280
with my program of getting into that,

895
00:57:15.280 --> 00:57:16.680
those healing areas,

896
00:57:16.680 --> 00:57:20.320
those programs that have been running for so long in them

897
00:57:20.320 --> 00:57:22.240
that it's like, now I'm learning

898
00:57:22.240 --> 00:57:24.440
about just accessing the spirit directly

899
00:57:24.440 --> 00:57:28.520
without having to know all the information, right?

900
00:57:28.520 --> 00:57:30.160
But yet some of my program

901
00:57:30.160 --> 00:57:31.720
is giving them information on things

902
00:57:31.720 --> 00:57:33.960
so that they understand more.

903
00:57:33.960 --> 00:57:37.680
And so I'm just, I'm just shifting.

904
00:57:37.680 --> 00:57:38.520
Yeah.

905
00:57:38.520 --> 00:57:39.720
It's using tools.

906
00:57:39.720 --> 00:57:40.560
Tools are great.

907
00:57:40.560 --> 00:57:41.400
Tools are gifts from God.

908
00:57:41.400 --> 00:57:42.960
Everything that you're doing is a gift from God

909
00:57:42.960 --> 00:57:46.440
to those people that God just doesn't want us

910
00:57:46.440 --> 00:57:48.040
to eventually grow and mature to the point

911
00:57:48.040 --> 00:57:49.920
where we realize they're not our source.

912
00:57:49.920 --> 00:57:52.000
But if that's where his people are looking,

913
00:57:52.040 --> 00:57:54.640
then that is where y'all often appear.

914
00:57:56.080 --> 00:57:58.440
If God's like, hey, I want you to see me over here.

915
00:57:58.440 --> 00:57:59.760
But if you're like, no, Lord.

916
00:57:59.760 --> 00:58:00.840
Oh, they're four years old.

917
00:58:00.840 --> 00:58:01.680
No, Lord.

918
00:58:01.680 --> 00:58:02.520
You know, where are you?

919
00:58:02.520 --> 00:58:03.360
Where are you?

920
00:58:03.360 --> 00:58:04.200
Why aren't you showing me yourself?

921
00:58:04.200 --> 00:58:05.160
And God's like, I am, I am, I am.

922
00:58:05.160 --> 00:58:06.080
He's like, okay, fine.

923
00:58:06.080 --> 00:58:06.960
You can't see me.

924
00:58:06.960 --> 00:58:08.200
So I'm gonna put myself here.

925
00:58:08.200 --> 00:58:09.040
Okay, you see me now?

926
00:58:09.040 --> 00:58:10.360
Yes, Lord, I can see you.

927
00:58:10.360 --> 00:58:12.200
Well, he put himself where we were looking.

928
00:58:12.200 --> 00:58:15.920
Now he's like, okay, so now let's, let's, you know,

929
00:58:15.920 --> 00:58:16.760
keep your eyes on me.

930
00:58:16.760 --> 00:58:18.880
Okay, now we're gonna walk over here to this unknown,

931
00:58:18.880 --> 00:58:20.520
this unknown place in the direction

932
00:58:20.520 --> 00:58:22.280
that you've never seen me before.

933
00:58:23.280 --> 00:58:25.800
And anyway, so there's nothing wrong with tools,

934
00:58:25.800 --> 00:58:27.280
nothing wrong with what you're using,

935
00:58:27.280 --> 00:58:29.120
nothing wrong with your tools.

936
00:58:29.120 --> 00:58:32.720
You are, understand that we're all, when we teach,

937
00:58:32.720 --> 00:58:35.240
we are all meeting people in different,

938
00:58:36.600 --> 00:58:39.800
we're all meeting people, what do you call it?

939
00:58:41.280 --> 00:58:43.640
In different, in different places.

940
00:58:43.640 --> 00:58:45.800
God has called us to different people.

941
00:58:45.800 --> 00:58:47.360
God has called us to, you know,

942
00:58:47.360 --> 00:58:49.320
if you like that path that I was talking about

943
00:58:50.320 --> 00:58:51.560
with Linda, I said,

944
00:58:51.560 --> 00:58:54.600
we're all on this different path of maturity.

945
00:58:54.600 --> 00:58:58.680
Well, God gives pastors and gives caregivers

946
00:58:58.680 --> 00:59:02.560
and caretakers to the various groups of people

947
00:59:02.560 --> 00:59:03.400
along the path.

948
00:59:03.400 --> 00:59:05.360
We're not all university professors.

949
00:59:05.360 --> 00:59:08.320
Some of us are elementary school professors,

950
00:59:08.320 --> 00:59:09.440
elementary school teachers.

951
00:59:09.440 --> 00:59:12.000
Some of us are pre-K teachers.

952
00:59:12.000 --> 00:59:13.880
Some of us, some of us, you know,

953
00:59:13.880 --> 00:59:18.080
do Mother's Day out and, you know, for newborn babies.

954
00:59:18.120 --> 00:59:23.120
You know, where God provide, lovingly provides care

955
00:59:23.160 --> 00:59:26.200
and sends people to care for people

956
00:59:26.200 --> 00:59:27.880
along the different maturity paths.

957
00:59:27.880 --> 00:59:31.400
So if your people are to the point

958
00:59:31.400 --> 00:59:33.560
where that is where they see God,

959
00:59:33.560 --> 00:59:35.360
if they're looking for God in a particular place,

960
00:59:35.360 --> 00:59:37.160
so you're using those tools

961
00:59:37.160 --> 00:59:40.280
because that's the only thing that they'll grasp ahold of,

962
00:59:40.280 --> 00:59:42.600
then you are an absolute God sent to them

963
00:59:43.480 --> 00:59:46.120
because they may not be able to make the leap

964
00:59:46.160 --> 00:59:48.680
to this group that you're in, you know,

965
00:59:48.680 --> 00:59:50.800
and how it is that we talk about things.

966
00:59:50.800 --> 00:59:52.640
And God doesn't, is a good father

967
00:59:52.640 --> 00:59:56.040
and he doesn't want to leave them abandoned and alone,

968
00:59:56.040 --> 00:59:56.880
you know?

969
00:59:56.880 --> 00:59:58.760
Yeah, and I think that was my experience.

970
00:59:58.760 --> 01:00:00.360
So I think that's what I teach.

971
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:02.960
because it was my experience, but as I'm growing

972
01:00:02.960 --> 01:00:05.840
and learning and understanding more about the spirit,

973
01:00:05.840 --> 01:00:08.520
it's like, my experience is changing,

974
01:00:08.520 --> 01:00:10.360
but sometimes I forget where I used to be

975
01:00:10.360 --> 01:00:13.680
and I forget where they still are, right?

976
01:00:13.680 --> 01:00:16.960
Yeah, it's important, you know, when we remember,

977
01:00:16.960 --> 01:00:18.440
when we learn who it is that we are,

978
01:00:18.440 --> 01:00:22.920
it's a lot easier for us to see where everyone else is

979
01:00:22.920 --> 01:00:24.760
and then to have compassion on them.

980
01:00:24.760 --> 01:00:27.320
There's like, but that's not who they really are.

981
01:00:27.320 --> 01:00:28.760
They really are in the spirit,

982
01:00:28.760 --> 01:00:30.720
but they think that they're like this.

983
01:00:30.720 --> 01:00:33.320
So I can have compassion.

984
01:00:33.320 --> 01:00:34.880
That's just what they are.

985
01:00:34.880 --> 01:00:35.720
They're fine.

986
01:00:35.720 --> 01:00:36.680
There's nothing wrong with them

987
01:00:36.680 --> 01:00:38.920
because they're in the spirit, so they're just fine.

988
01:00:38.920 --> 01:00:41.480
It gives us compassion for other people,

989
01:00:41.480 --> 01:00:43.680
understanding they're just on a process and a journey

990
01:00:43.680 --> 01:00:48.680
of overcoming things that, and they are meant to die

991
01:00:50.040 --> 01:00:55.040
in ways that I might live, and I need to honor that in them.

992
01:00:55.240 --> 01:00:57.920
And as opposed to thinking, well, I'm more mature

993
01:00:57.920 --> 01:01:00.840
because I'm more spiritually da-da-da-da-da-da.

994
01:01:00.840 --> 01:01:03.720
No, they are meant to die in ways

995
01:01:03.720 --> 01:01:06.960
that I'm currently feeling enslaved.

996
01:01:06.960 --> 01:01:09.800
They're meant to die and overcome in certain areas

997
01:01:09.800 --> 01:01:11.760
that will then bring me freedom.

998
01:01:13.000 --> 01:01:17.080
And as a, you know, and so we're each given things to,

999
01:01:17.080 --> 01:01:19.440
because everything, every area in which we die

1000
01:01:19.440 --> 01:01:21.600
in the whole body of Christ, because we're one,

1001
01:01:21.600 --> 01:01:25.000
the whole body of Christ gets to benefit from, so.

1002
01:01:25.920 --> 01:01:28.520
Sorry, I apologize, it's late here.

1003
01:01:28.520 --> 01:01:31.200
I'm yawning, it's not because I'm bored.

1004
01:01:31.200 --> 01:01:32.640
No, you're fine, I know.

1005
01:01:32.640 --> 01:01:34.160
I know it's very late, I'm sorry.

1006
01:01:34.160 --> 01:01:36.880
I know we had that, we had that other teaching.

1007
01:01:36.880 --> 01:01:38.280
So I'm trying to figure out what to do

1008
01:01:38.280 --> 01:01:41.240
because I'm having to do the rest impacts at the time

1009
01:01:41.240 --> 01:01:44.320
that I normally do the calls.

1010
01:01:44.320 --> 01:01:46.080
So I'm trying to figure out if,

1011
01:01:46.080 --> 01:01:47.600
what to do about all of that.

1012
01:01:47.600 --> 01:01:51.520
But Audra, did you have a question or not?

1013
01:01:51.520 --> 01:01:53.760
Was that heart a raised hand

1014
01:01:53.760 --> 01:01:55.400
because you couldn't find a hand

1015
01:01:55.400 --> 01:01:56.840
or was that just a heart?

1016
01:01:56.840 --> 01:01:58.120
I just had to make sure

1017
01:01:58.120 --> 01:02:00.880
because I don't know where the hand is on your either.

1018
01:02:00.880 --> 01:02:05.720
Yeah, if you just-

1019
01:02:05.720 --> 01:02:07.520
I can click on myself here.

1020
01:02:07.520 --> 01:02:09.040
I'm not used to doing this on my phone.

1021
01:02:09.040 --> 01:02:10.640
You may not have a question.

1022
01:02:10.640 --> 01:02:12.480
I just, I don't mean to like call you out,

1023
01:02:12.480 --> 01:02:16.520
but you had a heart and I was like, maybe I put the hand.

1024
01:02:16.520 --> 01:02:17.440
You had said something,

1025
01:02:17.440 --> 01:02:19.480
but now a lot of things have been said.

1026
01:02:19.480 --> 01:02:20.840
That's what my heart was for.

1027
01:02:20.840 --> 01:02:22.040
That was really good.

1028
01:02:22.080 --> 01:02:23.080
Oh, okay.

1029
01:02:23.080 --> 01:02:25.040
I'm glad no one's ever given me a heart.

1030
01:02:25.040 --> 01:02:26.680
My sister will give me a heart.

1031
01:02:26.680 --> 01:02:27.520
That makes sense.

1032
01:02:27.520 --> 01:02:28.360
I doubt it.

1033
01:02:28.360 --> 01:02:33.000
So, oh, by the way,

1034
01:02:33.000 --> 01:02:35.760
Audra's little sister, little sister,

1035
01:02:35.760 --> 01:02:37.920
little daughter, Kayla,

1036
01:02:37.920 --> 01:02:40.680
is spending the night here at the house tonight.

1037
01:02:40.680 --> 01:02:41.960
She's in the other room.

1038
01:02:41.960 --> 01:02:44.840
She's very, she had a really great time, Audra.

1039
01:02:44.840 --> 01:02:45.680
Oh, yay.

1040
01:02:47.280 --> 01:02:49.840
So Kayla is four, almost five, everybody.

1041
01:02:50.040 --> 01:02:50.960
She's cute.

1042
01:02:50.960 --> 01:02:52.760
She's a little redhead in the family.

1043
01:02:52.760 --> 01:02:54.800
She's a doll.

1044
01:02:54.800 --> 01:02:56.600
She's like the skimmy.

1045
01:02:56.600 --> 01:02:58.600
She's so cute.

1046
01:02:58.600 --> 01:03:01.840
Anyway, so did anyone have anything

1047
01:03:01.840 --> 01:03:03.720
before we go for the night?

1048
01:03:08.120 --> 01:03:09.360
Are we good?

1049
01:03:10.520 --> 01:03:12.000
It's so good to see everybody

1050
01:03:12.000 --> 01:03:15.000
since I know that we've been missing three weeks.

1051
01:03:15.840 --> 01:03:18.120
I mean, because we missed two weeks in there

1052
01:03:18.120 --> 01:03:19.880
and so that makes it three

1053
01:03:19.880 --> 01:03:21.840
that we had to go through before

1054
01:03:21.840 --> 01:03:22.680
and we could get together.

1055
01:03:22.680 --> 01:03:25.600
So I'm glad that we're hopefully back on track.

1056
01:03:25.600 --> 01:03:28.640
So, all right.

1057
01:03:28.640 --> 01:03:30.720
Well, it was so good to see everyone.

1058
01:03:30.720 --> 01:03:33.240
I will see y'all all next week.

1059
01:03:33.240 --> 01:03:37.560
And yeah, anyway, I will talk to you all later.

1060
01:03:37.560 --> 01:03:38.400
Bye.

1061
01:03:38.400 --> 01:03:39.240
Bye.

1062
01:03:39.240 --> 01:03:40.080
Bye, thanks.