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Hey. You're on mute anyway. I can't hear you. You're on mute.

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It's your cute glasses.

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We are the only ones on so far. I know it's really a bit later for everybody.

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And so this is normal time for the eastern, you know, I'm on the east coast. So here in South

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Carolina. Yeah. And so usually people on the eastern seacoast are on at nine, which is,

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you know, your time. Okay. So here's Amy. So all of the central time people are coming in.

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I don't know. Hopefully the eastern standard time people, there's some we'll be able to jump on.

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We'll see. But it was the only time I was able to do, because I was invited to a dinner. So,

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and then I had to, I don't want to say that I had to cut it short, but I had to like,

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had to now, I'm sorry, I have to leave. So I had this call. So anyway, hey, Amy.

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Hey, how's it going? Great. I had to get settled. I had tea in one hand and my phone in the other.

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So I can unmute and say hello. Yeah. Where are you right now? Are you? I'm in South Carolina. Okay.

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Cool. I am sorry. So I just saw your, your post. It's so exciting. I know that you told me about

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it earlier, but I didn't know all the backstory and all of that. So excited for you. That's amazing.

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About the woman I met? Yes. Well, the, the spiritual backstory is that it's true what you

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say, Ashley, that when we show up authentically, it draws people to it. I've seen that happening

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so much lately. And, and when I met with her today for lunch, she said it astonished me how the whole

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thing felt like, cause we were just standing in line at Walmart and I struck up a conversation

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cause it was taking long. And that's what I do when I get bored, I talk to people. And so,

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and she just starts telling me about her personal life. And I like, I knew who her husband was when

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she identified him. He has a very identifiable characteristic. And I was like, and I said,

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his name, she, I go, that's your husband found out. They just moved to Allen where I live. They

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live about a mile, two miles from me. It's just incredible. But she said, and then she goes,

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I go, I would love to keep in touch with you, which was just kind of a, it was like I was

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prompted to say that she goes, Oh, let me give you my phone number. And I thought, okay. Yeah.

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And then just the, the, the way it all happened and I'm driving home and I could just feel the

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Lord on it. And she said the exact same thing. She goes, I don't know why I gave you my phone

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number. I never do that. And so she goes, but I just, there was something about you.

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And so then when she found out what I, yeah, she said, I was just, I knew, I knew we were,

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there was something we were supposed to connect over. And so then when she found out what I do

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and she saw my website, she was like, we have to get together. And so when I met with her today

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and she was asking me more about, you know, my, my work and ministry, she said, I, I,

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she, first of all, she signed up for my workshop next week. I don't know if I told you that,

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she's going to bring her sister too. Yeah. I better bring my a game. Cause like I have a

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pastor signed up. I have like all these, like really your authentic self. Okay. Thank you.

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But, um, uh, she, she, she said, I'll do whatever I can to help you promote what you're doing.

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That's great. I told my friend, I said, I didn't go for the jugular and say, well,

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your husband has an international podcast. He can interview me on, I think I just let that fall

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in place. It'll happen. Yeah. But he does. I mean, he has an international audience. He's,

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you know, been all around the world, 74 countries. Everybody knows who he is. I mean, if I, I don't

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want to name drop, I don't, but, um, yeah, he's very well known. I'm excited. Congratulations.

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Yay.

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It's just, it's just nice, you know, having, just operating according to the

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way the Lord created us to being who it is that we're called, just called to be

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meaning like, you know, just operate out of our identity, out of our spirit.

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And then we just let things happen.

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And, and, um, yeah, that's wonderful.

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I'm so excited for you.

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Uh, yeah, well just, it's like, it's like you just sit back

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and watch God do his thing.

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It's I know it's I'm starting to figure out how you live, girl.

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Isn't it wild?

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Why you always have a smile on your face.

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It used to irritate me.

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People like you always had a smile.

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No, not really.

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Not like that.

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It just, it was like, these people, Audrey, did I always irritate you?

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I asked my sister if I always irritated her with my smile.

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Always.

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Just a few times.

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We would probably, you know, when people aren't feeling well and then, I mean,

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meaning like not physically, but like emotionally or spiritually and then yeah.

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Smiling somebody else's face can just be aggravating.

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I'm sure I just had her ups and downs with me.

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Sorry, Dave, forgive me for interrupting.

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Go ahead.

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Oh no, that was all.

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It was just like, you know, it was just like, is she really always happy or is,

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yeah, is it just, she just puts that foot forward for the sake of

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now?

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I'm not always just like peach.

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It's, it's not that everything always feels.

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Uh, uh, how do I put that?

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That there's always a deep peace and joy.

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Um, now that has not always been the case, but I do always have this, this, this,

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um, solidity, this anchor, this piece in the story to go back to.

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And when things aren't feeling good, I just shipped out of that when someone

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else needs me, as opposed to just focusing on that, because it's, so it's

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not that I'm, it's not that I'm ignoring it and that I'm just acting like, oh,

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well, no, nothing's wrong to myself, but I am very private and I don't share

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that with everyone else.

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And I just don't feel that, you know, it's just needed to go, you know,

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spreading my mood around to everyone else, you know?

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So it's not that I'm like ignoring it, but I'm not, I don't share it.

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Um, so anyway, yeah.

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So yeah, I'm not really fake.

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I am being a genuine, but yeah, I get what you're saying.

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And that's really maturity to be able to own your own stuff and not.

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Like you said, just spread it everywhere and bring everybody into a bad now.

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Now I used to, I used to do that.

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Um, and it's a sign of tremendous amount of, um, of pain where someone is very

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desperately spreading themselves around because they're trying so hard to find,

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uh, to find relief and they're not, they're not finding it anywhere.

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And so they get very, very desperate and then they start talking more and they

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start becoming less private about their information.

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And I, and I know that not from just watching other people.

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I know it because I became that I didn't used to be like that.

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And then I became that.

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And then I began to think, why on earth am I doing this?

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And I realized I was just so desperately hurting that nothing was, um, nothing

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was, um, uh, I couldn't, I couldn't get relief.

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So I was, I was desperately acting reckless in trying to find relief.

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So, but now that I know where to go for that deep peace, I'm not desperate anymore.

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Oh, I'm sorry.

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No, I'm just almost like a cry for help.

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Like you're like, yeah, yeah.

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You're like, can't you see, I need help here on my mask.

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I can relate to that for sure.

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That that's what all of that is, is, um, you know, and like kids who are

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struggling with rebellion or attitude issues or whatever, all of it is just a

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cry for help and, and, uh, but yeah.

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Hey, Misty.

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I've got my, my Dallas people, my DFW people here.

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Yeah.

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Well, does anyone, um, we, I was telling Audra, so we may not get

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people from the East coast tonight, even though I'm on the East coast.

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So I'm representing tonight for the 10 to 11 o'clock, 8 PM.

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So, um, uh, invite I drove here yesterday and I, um, I forgot about the time change.

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So, um, anyway, I was telling a friend who was waiting up for me.

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It was like, okay, well I'll be in at nine.

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And then, and then it became 10 and then I suddenly realized, oh no, I forgot about the

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time change.

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And so now it's going to be 11 I got in at 11 last night.

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So I slept late and then I had a two hour, no, yeah, it was almost a two hour nap.

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So yeah, I know.

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So I think that I'll be able to sleep fine then.

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I think that I just had a lot of, not that you can catch up on sleep, but we'll just

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refer to it like that, you know, that I think that I just had a lot of sleep to catch up

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on.

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So anyway.

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So does anyone have anything to start us off with?

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Well, I could, I don't know.

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I don't know.

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I don't know if there's, I'm sure there's a question in here.

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I just don't know what it is.

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Like, I feel like I'm going through a really like a, I know I'm in a transition right now.

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Like I've, I've had a season that ended and it's, and it felt like, you know, kind of

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like right in the beginning of January, I can tell this, this other season was ending

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and something else was going to be beginning soon.

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And I had a lot of dreams and other things that were confirming this and just like, like

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it's very apparent to me, like, I'm just so ready for something new and different.

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And it's in every single facet of my being like, like my coffee, I don't like it anymore.

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I want it to be different.

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My clothes, I like pulled all this stuff out of my closet.

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I'm like, I don't want to wear that anymore.

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I want it to be like, there's just like in every single little area and it's all like

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discernment and prophetic for things that I know that's changing.

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Like half years, I've been in this really safe, secluded little bubble of just getting

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to know the Lord.

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And like, it's been this certain way.

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I haven't had any kind of like intimate relationships or any new big friendships.

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Just everything's been like this one way for a while and it's been wonderful and safe and

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I've loved it.

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And then all of a sudden it's like, I, there's no richness in it anymore.

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And there's like, it's not, like I can't like, I don't know, like I know his presence

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hasn't left me, but it's not like the engagement isn't where it was once was, you know, like

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every, like I'm having to just try and like different things and like break up my routine

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and whatever.

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So I don't know.

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And so maybe a year ago I would have been like, oh my gosh, something's wrong.

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What's wrong?

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And I know there's nothing wrong, you know?

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And it's interesting just being patient in the waiting and also being like, okay, Lord,

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is there something that you want me to do?

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But I've also been so off, like anti, like trying to make something happen that I don't

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It's just a weird little transition place.

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And so maybe like, what do you do in that time, you know, where, I don't know, I don't

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I know there's a question, like, like there's a part of me that still wants to know, like,

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okay, Lord, is there something I could be doing right now?

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Is there something you want me to be doing right now?

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And, and, and there's nothing wrong with that because sometimes he wants us to get equipped

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or, or learn, but I, and I'm, so I'm just like, like, Lord, I just need you to be really

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clear with me.

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So right now, as I can tell right now in this moment, I had, there's not anything he's told

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me specifically to do, but it's just like, okay, like, I just, I don't know.

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I don't even know.

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And so I thought at first, maybe I was like in a little bit of a funk and I realized like,

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I'm really not, there's nothing wrong.

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It's just a time of transition and being like patient and steadfast during that time.

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So I don't know what the question is, but will you talk about that?

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I think it's perfect.

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I love it.

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I, I, and I love your perspective that to just allow things to be.

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So one of the, the suggestion that I would make is that you just allow yourself to be

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open during this time.

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I've noticed that that is very effective.

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So in other words, you if God hasn't given you something specifically to do, but you're

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feeling like there's this shift, but Lord, I don't know what the shift is.

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I went through this in November and this past November, I went through this and it's like,

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okay, Lord, I'm feeling the shift now for me, I wouldn't happy about it.

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So it sounds like you're in a much more healthy perspective of it, but I was not happy about

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it.

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Yeah.

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it. And but, but what I did notice is that during the time I

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just had to let go, they had to have to release, you know,

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shifting into that rest, just let go and release and just

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allow things to be and, and it's not just allow things to be as

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in like, I'm just gonna lay here and allow things happen to

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happen around me and happen to me and whatever. It's just it's

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that it's it's different. It's this. Um, I don't want to say

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offensive person position, but kind of think of it like in an

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offensive position that as opposed to being defensive and

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just like, okay, well, I'm just gonna wait for things to happen

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to me and come upon me. It's more like this open position of

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anticipation, expectancy, and this position in which you're

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open and ready to receive. Now, it doesn't mean that you're so

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open that you absorb anything that comes at you. I just mean

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that you're open to receive an expectant. And because the word

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because that then, then you are, you're more likely to sense

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things when the Lord finally brings something and be open to

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to it. So it's this it's, it's putting your is positioning

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yourself internally, to explore, to discover, to

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investigate, without pursuing and trying to make something

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happen. So it's not that kind of an offensive, but it's like this

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open curiosity. Curiosity by the by, by the way, is the opposite

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of fear. Very interesting. So that if you can get a child to

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be curious, it will it will stamp down his fear. It was

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really defined really neat. But that anyway, so it's just kind

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of curious a discovery as opposed to a Oh my goodness,

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Lord. I don't want to miss something. No, we don't have to

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worry about missing something. We just need to be open to it.

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being mean and cruel and hiding something is they know I want

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you to work hard to find this thing. You know, you're going to

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be led by the Spirit, because the very being that is guiding

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you is in you and you are in him. So there's an aspect about

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you that already knows, because you're one with him. And so you

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just you just allow yourself to allow the thing to reveal itself

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to you. mysteries do that mysteries when we honor them in

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the Spirit, they reveal themselves to us. So anyway,

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that's, that's what I have to say about that. Hopefully,

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that's helpful.

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Yeah, I'll just continue to be patient and curious.

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things, things are going to be different. You're, you're,

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you're going to be open to them. And there's nothing left for you

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to do. So you get to so my point is, it's a perfect position,

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because you get to receive something, you're being given

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something, you don't have to work for it. And if, and you

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have permission to be curious to discover to investigate, to

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figure out to kind of look in because you're just because

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you're, you're when you're discovering things, you're

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big, because you're trying to figure them out and just trying

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to understand not figure them out, like desperately like, Oh,

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my gosh, I gotta make sure I don't miss something not like

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that. But just kind of like, this is interesting. Let's look

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into this. It's a perfect position to be in because you

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kind of get to play around a little bit in your

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in the metaphysical, in the metaphysical, you kind of get to

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play around a little bit, you know, kind of in your soulish

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realm, you know, the spirit realm, and you get to play

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around without having to be responsible for doing something

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with it. And for stepping out in something and making it happen

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or whatever. It's, it's a it's playtime. I like that. You

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know, yeah, it's, it's like kids, you know, just being

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thrown on the floor with all of these toys and just play with

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them. There's nothing that they have to accomplish. It's not

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school. It's kind of like kids who go to go to school and they

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come home and play and they get to make up their world. It

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because you're just exploring, they're just figuring it out

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and they're discovering.

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things and they're developing certain aspects about themselves. It's fun. There's no requirements.

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There's no stipulations. There's just, and then you just, and, um, so it's, it's like

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God's invitation for you to allow yourself to be open. Um, yeah, it's a, yeah. Does that

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make sense? Yeah. It's fun. Yeah. And it's, I just, I think it was just a really good

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time to get some reassurance on it, you know? Cause, um, yeah, I mean, like I could tell

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like immediately within days when the shift took place and I was like, that's interesting.

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And I like, I, I was ready. Whereas like a couple of, if you'd ask me a set of questions

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a few weeks ago, I wouldn't have been ready. And then it was like, suddenly I was ready

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and I was in it. Um, so, but then there's this like rational, logical side of me that

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wants to know how long will I be in it? Yeah. So it was just good to hear you, um, affirm

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some things. So yeah. Thanks. Yeah. No, it's, um, it is, it's like being out of school,

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getting to go home and play a little bit. It's not that you don't have the other stuff

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that, that just don't do, but it's in this like particular areas of your life. You just

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get to play. You have permission for it to not have to accomplish or mean something.

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You don't have to attribute a meaning to the discovery. It's just, I don't know what I

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think about this. As opposed to, well, you know, I'm going to take painting classes because

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God told me to, and I've got to do this. And well, then it's like this, this set trajectory,

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but it's kind of, but I don't know. There's, there's, um, I don't know. There's just like

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this special fun aspect of, uh, of permission that you have in a, in a shifting time in,

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in which it's, uh, you're internally being open. I don't know. Yeah. I keep trying to

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think of other ways to describe what I'm saying. I know I've already said it, but I'm just

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like, I don't know. How else would I describe this? It's fun. It's really fun. It's very

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special time. So, yeah. Thanks. So does anyone have anything else? Where did, where did Audra

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go? Uh, I don't know. She's, do you have a question Audra? I thought I was unmuted. Philip

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just finished work. So I just turned off my screen for a minute. Um, well, I know I've

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talked to Ashley about this a little bit before, but how you're, you know, you're in

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the middle of things that trigger you or, or just make you upset, like with my six-year-old

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and, and, you know, it just very strong willed child and she's amazing, but the strong will

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is there and forth. And it's like certain periods of time, it just gets so much worse.

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And when it just happens over and over and over and over and over and over and over again,

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especially in one day, it's like your mind just, you feel like you're just breaking, but it's

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happening right now. And I think that's one of the first times I've actually reverted a little

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bit back to the way I used to operate because nothing I'm saying is working, even though I'm

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trying to remain calm, I'm trying to say things, you know, she just, she talks over me, she

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interrupts me, she walks away. I mean, anyway, so it's just in the midst of, of it all. It's, um,

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um, rough. Yeah. I've been able to, you know, having conversations with my husband or something,

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if we disagree on something and he gets really, he gets really heated.

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I'm able to keep calm or as before, I could never keep calm.

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Because the passion and that.

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Perceived anger in his voice, which I I've told him before,

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I know you're angry.

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And he's like, I'm not.

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But you sound so upset.

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That I'm not, I'm just talking loud.

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That's not how you sound.

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So we've been fine. It's been, it's been great. It's just, you know,

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It is really.

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Really pushing it.

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And it's, it's been hard to say.

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I'm not.

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But you sound so upset.

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That I'm not, I'm just talking loud.

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That's not how you sound.

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That just rises up all my anxiety and everything.

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So we've been fine. It's been, it's been great. It's just, you know,

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Is really.

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Especially recently.

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No, there's not really a question.

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I almost called you the other day about it.

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Really.

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But there's no question. It's just kind of like.

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What else to do?

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Have you gotten to session 13?

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Yeah, I've watched all of the original ones.

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Or the foundation one.

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And now I'm in the other one.

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13 was great.

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Was great for that.

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That was really encouraging and eye-opening.

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To how.

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I should be treating her, which I have not.

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I think I mentioned in there.

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The Lord began to teach me how to,

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how to do that when I was teaching Nathan.

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Remember.

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He was my little sixth grader.

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And anyway, about how to,

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how to interact with a person like in that way.

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And the reason I mentioned that is he was a child. No, no, he was,

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he was in sixth grade. He wasn't six years old.

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He was in seventh grade.

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He was in seventh grade.

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He was in seventh grade.

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But anyway, my point is that God taught me this.

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In working with children. And it wasn't just Nathan.

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I would do it with it, with them, with other children as well.

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when I'm interacting with Cora or Kayla or Cole or whoever.

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personal relationships with other people.

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immediately it's like this process because there's, for one thing,

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themselves. So now to be.

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them.

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values.

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all of who it is that she is.

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And you know that I'm just know this. I'm just affirming it for you.

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It is all very, very good.

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How to handle what's in her.

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constant pushing of boundaries and it can be very exhausting for the

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parent.

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she's got the tenderest little tenderest most compassionate little

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heart.

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And so that's very normal thing for people to do.

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Even at, you know, regardless of how old they are.

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And then people that are very, very strong will.

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When their children, you know,

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just feel like they're doing it to a tremendous extreme,

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but everything it is that she's doing,

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she's not doing in order to, you know,

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To be mean and, you know,

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To be mean and whatever she's doing it either out of fear.

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Out of self-protection or out at,

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because she's believing something that isn't about herself.

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That's not true about the situation. It's not true.

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Or she's just trying to find out, okay, house.

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She's trying to figure out how safe am I.

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environment or whatever,

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then she'll try to create and try to create her own protective

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environment, which is why she'll try to, you know,

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Interact to you or push boundaries.

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Trying to see, can I trust that these boundaries are,

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we there and that I can rely on them or will they crumble?

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And then that's giving her, her sense of security. And so anyway,

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Just, just, I know that you and I've talked about this,

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but that's what's going on. So my point is don't be discouraged.

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encouraged in continuing to do it, that it's like, I feel like I'm doing so good and I'm

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operating in rest, and then I'm not operating in rest, you know, and then how do I reach

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my child and it's this process and it's this journey and as you gain freedom, they'll gain

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freedom. As you gain freedom, you will not only naturally interact with them different

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without having to think about it, without having to be so intentional about it, and

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try to be learning a new way of doing it. It's just going to come up out of who it is

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that you are, but also you will be, you having gained that freedom, will break off things

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in their world, in your family's world, that make it easier for them to then make their

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own decisions to step into their own freedom. You broke off the chains for them, so to speak.

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You're the one who hacked the jungle with a butter knife. They still have to walk the

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same trail that you did, but it's a lot easier for them to walk it because you pioneered

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it. And so in the spirit, that's what's happening. And then the other thing is obviously as an

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authority in your home, you changing the authority in which you operate and what authority

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from which kingdom you allow to come in, will change the atmosphere for everyone else. So

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anyway, you've got all kinds of things going on in this process. So I would highly recommend

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that the first thing that you do is you always release yourself from shame and condemnation

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that is vitally important, not just for you, but it's vitally important for Cora in this

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situation, even if she doesn't know it spiritually, that the immediate as well as the long-term

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ramifications are, rely very heavily on you, not shaming yourself or feeling condemnation.

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That will start really shifting the foundation of everything for you and make things easier

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for you to release other things, frustration, anger, whatever, is you can release yourself

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from shame and condemnation for how it is you feel, what it is that's happening, how

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it is that she's acting and what you think that that's saying about you, or you think

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that that's saying about the situation or whatever to release from all that. And also

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release yourself from the shame and condemnation of a feeling like, am I doing this right?

452
00:32:43.520 --> 00:32:48.080
Why is this taking so long? I'm still in process, releasing the shame and condemnation

453
00:32:48.080 --> 00:32:55.600
for how you're going through it and how your journey that will shift everything faster.

454
00:32:55.600 --> 00:33:02.080
I promise you the fastest way that we can learn is just like, like a, like a child learns

455
00:33:02.080 --> 00:33:09.360
and it's a little, it's, it looks and feels a bit reckless. And the fact that, okay, we're,

456
00:33:09.360 --> 00:33:12.960
if this is true, then we're going to stand out on it. And we're just gonna, we're just

457
00:33:12.960 --> 00:33:18.160
going to step out and we're just going to do it. So just releasing yourself from all

458
00:33:18.160 --> 00:33:24.160
of that shame and all of that condemnation can look in the middle of it. Like it's very

459
00:33:24.160 --> 00:33:32.480
messy, but you will shift faster. It might look messier, but you will shift faster. I

460
00:33:32.480 --> 00:33:37.040
promise. And I know that by experience. I know that because other people have lived

461
00:33:37.040 --> 00:33:41.120
their lives like that. And they told me, and I started living my life like that. And I

462
00:33:41.120 --> 00:33:45.760
discovered it is true. It looks very messy to people on the outside. It felt very messy

463
00:33:45.760 --> 00:33:52.000
to me. It was like, I don't know what's going on, but if I, if I if I operate like that,

464
00:33:52.000 --> 00:33:58.720
I discovered that I shifted faster. And then, you know, things such as if, if you want to

465
00:33:58.720 --> 00:34:05.920
act like your father, the fastest way is to simply act like you think that your father

466
00:34:06.720 --> 00:34:11.600
acts. So to speak in other words, and I, and I, this, this is going to sound really,

467
00:34:12.639 --> 00:34:18.719
um, I don't mean this to sound blasphemous, so don't take it this way, but the idea of

468
00:34:18.719 --> 00:34:23.360
like the fastest way to be like God, meaning like, you know, like our father, not being

469
00:34:23.360 --> 00:34:28.400
God himself, but being like God, the fastest way to be like God is to act like him is, is to,

470
00:34:28.400 --> 00:34:34.719
is to walk around and act like we are God. And I don't mean that we are God who made us. I'm

471
00:34:34.719 --> 00:34:38.639
not talking about anything blasphemous. I'm talking about the fact that the essence of who

472
00:34:38.639 --> 00:34:44.320
it is that we are is there. That's what I'm saying. And, um, the fastest way for us to

473
00:34:44.320 --> 00:34:51.120
learn is to act like it. Um, and, uh, anyway, so again, releasing shame and condemnation,

474
00:34:51.120 --> 00:34:57.440
as opposed to trying to work out and figure out, okay, how do I reconcile this? How do I resolve

475
00:34:57.440 --> 00:34:59.920
this? How do I understand what's going on? I'm.

476
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:05.700
trying to understand that it that's, that's the way that the

477
00:35:05.700 --> 00:35:13.060
world has wanted to, and has taught us to learn because it's

478
00:35:13.060 --> 00:35:19.300
the fastest, it's the way that they saw as easiest, because the

479
00:35:19.300 --> 00:35:22.500
pain doesn't feel as strong because it lasts over a longer

480
00:35:22.500 --> 00:35:26.940
amount of time. And it's not as acute, but it takes much longer

481
00:35:26.940 --> 00:35:32.740
to go through. And it just, it just looks nicer. So people

482
00:35:32.740 --> 00:35:37.660
felt like they weren't losing as much dignity and pride, because

483
00:35:37.660 --> 00:35:41.500
it doesn't look as as chaotic, it looks a little more

484
00:35:41.500 --> 00:35:46.220
organized and orderly, and you can hide your you're going

485
00:35:46.220 --> 00:35:51.300
through the process, but it takes a lot longer. And so what

486
00:35:51.300 --> 00:35:55.700
I began to do about a year and a half to years ago, is I thought,

487
00:35:55.700 --> 00:35:59.540
okay, forget it, forget what I look like, to my family, forget

488
00:35:59.540 --> 00:36:05.820
what I look like to my friends, I'm just going to go for it. And

489
00:36:06.420 --> 00:36:10.540
so I risked my reputation on it. And that is how I changed so

490
00:36:10.540 --> 00:36:16.780
fast. So anyway, and I and I still choose that. And usually,

491
00:36:16.820 --> 00:36:20.980
that is my choice. When I come against a threshold and

492
00:36:20.980 --> 00:36:23.660
something it is that I'm processing through and that I'm

493
00:36:23.660 --> 00:36:28.940
learning to operate in, is I will let it be ugly and, and

494
00:36:29.220 --> 00:36:34.100
chaotic and confusing and not pretty, in order to learn it

495
00:36:34.100 --> 00:36:38.660
faster. So but that that's usually my choice is not always

496
00:36:38.660 --> 00:36:41.460
my choice, but it is usually my choice. Every now and then my

497
00:36:41.460 --> 00:36:44.740
soul can't handle it. I still really struggles. And that's

498
00:36:44.740 --> 00:36:48.620
when I make that choice on that chart, which is, you know, that

499
00:36:48.620 --> 00:36:51.460
to declare the goodness of the character of the Lord, but to go

500
00:36:51.460 --> 00:36:54.780
where my soul finds peace, if something if I'm really

501
00:36:54.780 --> 00:36:58.660
struggling too much with my soul at that time. But anyway, so I

502
00:36:58.660 --> 00:37:01.700
just wanted to mention that if you're frustrated, you know,

503
00:37:01.700 --> 00:37:03.780
you're like, Oh, well, I'm trying. And sometimes, you

504
00:37:03.780 --> 00:37:07.260
know, sometimes I just lose it, release yourself from shame and

505
00:37:07.260 --> 00:37:12.780
condemnation. And from all of those different areas that I

506
00:37:12.780 --> 00:37:15.460
mentioned, you know, how you're feeling how she's feeling how

507
00:37:15.460 --> 00:37:18.020
you you know, what you think it's saying about you, what you

508
00:37:18.020 --> 00:37:20.140
think it's saying about the situation, and then the shame

509
00:37:20.140 --> 00:37:25.460
condemnation of, Oh, man, I was doing so good. And then it's

510
00:37:25.460 --> 00:37:28.700
all okay, you will get through it faster, you will you will

511
00:37:28.700 --> 00:37:31.620
learn it faster, you will shift faster, if you just release

512
00:37:31.620 --> 00:37:36.260
yourself in the whole process. Think of it like a drunk person

513
00:37:36.260 --> 00:37:39.820
driving, they're usually the one to survive, because they're so

514
00:37:39.820 --> 00:37:43.780
loose. There's, there's, they're, they're not, they're

515
00:37:43.780 --> 00:37:47.980
not so tight. And they're not so there's, there's fewer

516
00:37:47.980 --> 00:37:51.100
inhibitions. And it's not just not just psychologically

517
00:37:51.100 --> 00:37:55.940
intimidation. But physically, they're a lot more loose. And in

518
00:37:55.940 --> 00:37:58.500
other words, they they've released, there's, there's not

519
00:37:58.540 --> 00:38:01.820
restrained and constricted. And what's the word that's stiff,

520
00:38:02.180 --> 00:38:08.220
they're less stiff. And they survive. Because it can. Yeah,

521
00:38:08.380 --> 00:38:12.780
anyway, so I just wanted to mention that, because this is

522
00:38:12.780 --> 00:38:15.060
just all part of the process. And it's okay, and don't get

523
00:38:15.060 --> 00:38:18.060
discouraged in it. And that's the secret. That's the secret

524
00:38:18.060 --> 00:38:20.620
when you're in the middle of the process, is to just let the

525
00:38:20.620 --> 00:38:23.540
process be and to release shame and condemnation in the middle

526
00:38:23.580 --> 00:38:26.980
of how you're processing it. That's how you'll get through it

527
00:38:26.980 --> 00:38:27.500
faster.

528
00:38:29.700 --> 00:38:33.300
I know, it's not a question I haven't. Well, no, I've asked

529
00:38:33.300 --> 00:38:39.260
her, maybe not in so many words, what does she need? But you

530
00:38:39.300 --> 00:38:47.100
know, what is what is she trying to do? Or? I don't I don't know

531
00:38:47.100 --> 00:38:50.740
how I've worded it. But I think I've, you know, asked her

532
00:38:50.780 --> 00:38:55.060
basically that I know her teacher has. And she usually

533
00:38:55.060 --> 00:38:57.420
just said she doesn't know. She doesn't know why she does

534
00:38:57.420 --> 00:39:00.820
things. She doesn't know why she can't remember things. She

535
00:39:00.820 --> 00:39:05.340
actually came up to me today. And it made me feel so bad. But

536
00:39:05.340 --> 00:39:09.620
again, no condemnation. She asked me to take her to her to

537
00:39:09.620 --> 00:39:15.380
the doctor after school, because she said, she keeps forgetting

538
00:39:15.380 --> 00:39:17.900
all the stuff she's supposed to remember, and she thinks

539
00:39:17.900 --> 00:39:23.500
something's wrong with her. So anyways, and we really think

540
00:39:23.500 --> 00:39:27.540
about the way I say things and exactly what I say and how it

541
00:39:27.900 --> 00:39:32.940
anyway. Yeah, but there is a praise. I'm not about that. But

542
00:39:32.980 --> 00:39:38.940
you did do a great job today. So there's that. I have been

543
00:39:39.740 --> 00:39:47.300
because I do a lot of Zumba and working out. And I have this

544
00:39:47.300 --> 00:39:52.820
neuroma in my foot that hurts really, really, really bad. And

545
00:39:53.300 --> 00:39:56.220
I have a hard time cleaning. I have a hard time walking

546
00:39:56.220 --> 00:39:59.100
anywhere. Just everything hurts.

547
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.160
if I do it for about 30 minutes to an hour.

548
00:40:04.160 --> 00:40:09.160
But today I cleaned from eight o'clock to two o'clock

549
00:40:11.760 --> 00:40:13.820
on my feet the whole time.

550
00:40:13.820 --> 00:40:16.820
And then I went to work out and do yoga.

551
00:40:16.820 --> 00:40:21.820
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, wait.

552
00:40:22.560 --> 00:40:26.180
You cleaned your house from 8 a.m. to 2 p.m.?

553
00:40:26.220 --> 00:40:30.060
Well, that involves helping my husband wash the dogs

554
00:40:30.060 --> 00:40:34.460
and do laundry and do all the dog laundry, so yeah.

555
00:40:34.460 --> 00:40:36.460
Okay, well, I just wanted to give you props

556
00:40:36.460 --> 00:40:38.340
because that's pretty incredible.

557
00:40:38.340 --> 00:40:42.380
And if you have it on your foot,

558
00:40:42.380 --> 00:40:43.260
is that what you're saying?

559
00:40:43.260 --> 00:40:44.900
There's something on your foot that's painful?

560
00:40:44.900 --> 00:40:49.900
And that's, wow, that's pretty amazing.

561
00:40:50.300 --> 00:40:53.160
Well, all that to say is the praises.

562
00:40:53.160 --> 00:40:55.340
I've been telling my foot that it's fine

563
00:40:55.340 --> 00:40:58.520
and I've been telling it that for a couple of weeks.

564
00:40:58.520 --> 00:41:02.860
And so I've been able to do more and more each time.

565
00:41:02.860 --> 00:41:04.840
And I've never been able to vacuum the whole house

566
00:41:04.840 --> 00:41:07.160
without it hurting so bad.

567
00:41:07.160 --> 00:41:10.480
So, and then I went dancing, so.

568
00:41:10.480 --> 00:41:12.080
It's like above and beyond

569
00:41:12.080 --> 00:41:14.040
while you've got this thing on your foot.

570
00:41:14.040 --> 00:41:15.440
That's pretty amazing.

571
00:41:15.440 --> 00:41:17.920
Right, so it went really well.

572
00:41:17.920 --> 00:41:19.480
And it still hurts really bad.

573
00:41:20.460 --> 00:41:24.780
But you know, it's not impossible to walk

574
00:41:24.780 --> 00:41:26.140
the way it would be.

575
00:41:26.140 --> 00:41:27.860
It's better.

576
00:41:27.860 --> 00:41:28.700
Yeah.

577
00:41:28.700 --> 00:41:29.520
Yeah.

578
00:41:29.520 --> 00:41:31.220
It's listening.

579
00:41:31.220 --> 00:41:32.060
I know.

580
00:41:32.060 --> 00:41:33.740
You're taking it to the end.

581
00:41:33.740 --> 00:41:35.540
Before I did this and everything,

582
00:41:35.540 --> 00:41:37.860
I was planning on having surgery on it

583
00:41:37.860 --> 00:41:41.460
to get the neuroma taken out like I did on my other foot

584
00:41:41.460 --> 00:41:43.580
10 years ago or so.

585
00:41:43.580 --> 00:41:46.260
But now I'm saying we don't have to have surgery

586
00:41:46.260 --> 00:41:48.340
because it's going to go away.

587
00:41:48.360 --> 00:41:50.000
Yes.

588
00:41:50.000 --> 00:41:52.200
Yay, I'm so excited for you, Aja.

589
00:41:52.200 --> 00:41:54.080
That is huge.

590
00:41:54.080 --> 00:41:54.920
I know.

591
00:41:55.880 --> 00:41:58.800
Cause I was not looking forward to being on trenches

592
00:41:58.800 --> 00:42:02.100
for what, a fourth time in 10 years?

593
00:42:02.960 --> 00:42:03.800
So anyway.

594
00:42:05.680 --> 00:42:07.000
I know.

595
00:42:07.000 --> 00:42:08.120
That's wonderful.

596
00:42:08.120 --> 00:42:09.800
I'm so glad.

597
00:42:09.800 --> 00:42:10.640
Yeah.

598
00:42:11.520 --> 00:42:14.320
That's the first time I remember like really talking

599
00:42:14.320 --> 00:42:17.000
to my body was my foot.

600
00:42:17.000 --> 00:42:18.980
And it healed within hours.

601
00:42:18.980 --> 00:42:19.820
Yeah.

602
00:42:19.820 --> 00:42:23.420
Of course mine was a little different, but yeah.

603
00:42:23.420 --> 00:42:24.260
I'm so excited.

604
00:42:24.260 --> 00:42:25.080
That's huge.

605
00:42:25.080 --> 00:42:26.740
I always love hearing all of this stuff

606
00:42:26.740 --> 00:42:29.260
where everyone's like, okay, I've been doing this

607
00:42:29.260 --> 00:42:30.660
and I've been doing it for two weeks.

608
00:42:30.660 --> 00:42:32.020
And I'm like, oh good.

609
00:42:32.020 --> 00:42:34.000
That, I mean, because that people are understanding

610
00:42:34.000 --> 00:42:35.540
it's not like this one and done thing.

611
00:42:35.540 --> 00:42:37.380
It's like, we're changing.

612
00:42:37.380 --> 00:42:39.620
We're changing how we approach life.

613
00:42:39.620 --> 00:42:42.620
And therefore we've approaching life, you know

614
00:42:42.620 --> 00:42:45.080
from a different perspective for so long.

615
00:42:45.080 --> 00:42:47.540
It's not this one and done thing where, boom, you know

616
00:42:47.540 --> 00:42:49.620
I'm just going to tell you and it should fix itself.

617
00:42:49.620 --> 00:42:50.460
Oh, it didn't.

618
00:42:50.460 --> 00:42:51.580
Okay. Well, it doesn't work.

619
00:42:51.580 --> 00:42:55.420
No, it's like, it's, it's ourselves that we're overcoming.

620
00:42:55.420 --> 00:42:57.860
And so that, and we just continue to choose it.

621
00:42:57.860 --> 00:42:59.020
We continue to choose it.

622
00:42:59.020 --> 00:43:01.420
And then things, things start to shift.

623
00:43:01.420 --> 00:43:02.300
Things start to shift.

624
00:43:02.300 --> 00:43:03.180
So.

625
00:43:03.180 --> 00:43:06.500
Not only that, but the palpitations

626
00:43:06.500 --> 00:43:07.940
of my heart is going down.

627
00:43:07.940 --> 00:43:09.500
Cause I keep telling it to calm down

628
00:43:09.500 --> 00:43:11.580
and it's perfectly fine.

629
00:43:11.580 --> 00:43:14.580
And then my anxiety levels have gone way down.

630
00:43:15.080 --> 00:43:16.440
So there's been so many things that have happened

631
00:43:16.440 --> 00:43:20.080
in like the last month that would have sent me

632
00:43:20.080 --> 00:43:25.080
into a huge panic attack for days and it didn't.

633
00:43:26.160 --> 00:43:28.600
And I'm just, I'm so excited.

634
00:43:28.600 --> 00:43:30.120
That's huge.

635
00:43:30.120 --> 00:43:31.000
That's huge.

636
00:43:31.000 --> 00:43:33.440
Now you, you don't, you don't have to

637
00:43:33.440 --> 00:43:36.200
I always tell people this, you do not have to

638
00:43:36.200 --> 00:43:41.200
but if you could, I love the emoji, Misty.

639
00:43:41.660 --> 00:43:44.200
Yay, a little party, a little party horn.

640
00:43:45.300 --> 00:43:50.100
But if you could, if you would like to write those things

641
00:43:50.100 --> 00:43:53.560
down in, on a post and the rest intensive

642
00:43:53.560 --> 00:43:55.860
because not only would it encourage other people

643
00:43:55.860 --> 00:43:58.660
it will remind you of it.

644
00:43:58.660 --> 00:44:00.740
It will remind you of, okay, that's right.

645
00:44:00.740 --> 00:44:02.500
I've been doing all of these things because,

646
00:44:02.500 --> 00:44:06.900
and here's why is, is you're going to go

647
00:44:06.900 --> 00:44:10.420
through things in the future and it might be next week.

648
00:44:10.420 --> 00:44:12.000
It might be in two months from now.

649
00:44:12.000 --> 00:44:13.640
It might be in next year.

650
00:44:13.640 --> 00:44:18.120
And it's in, in, in the requirement of having to

651
00:44:18.960 --> 00:44:22.960
in choosing that the Lord is as good as he says that he is.

652
00:44:22.960 --> 00:44:27.380
And what it is, we forget how much we've already,

653
00:44:28.520 --> 00:44:31.240
what we forget what it is that we've overcome

654
00:44:31.240 --> 00:44:33.360
in those really difficult times we forget.

655
00:44:33.360 --> 00:44:34.920
And so that'll give you an opportunity

656
00:44:34.920 --> 00:44:36.920
to have something to look back on.

657
00:44:36.920 --> 00:44:39.120
You know, if you can look up your own posts or, you know

658
00:44:39.180 --> 00:44:40.940
or posts of other people, you know,

659
00:44:40.940 --> 00:44:42.780
that have gone through some really difficult things

660
00:44:42.780 --> 00:44:44.460
and you hear in the, in the rest intensive

661
00:44:44.460 --> 00:44:47.020
you can watch all their posts and all of their struggles.

662
00:44:47.020 --> 00:44:49.260
And then you hear their testimonies as well.

663
00:44:49.260 --> 00:44:52.100
And then you, and then we, you can hear yourself

664
00:44:52.100 --> 00:44:54.140
in your own posts as well as other people's

665
00:44:54.140 --> 00:44:57.300
of the struggles and then on the other side.

666
00:44:58.180 --> 00:44:59.980
And sometimes, yeah, there's a gap.

667
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.120
time in between. But the thing is that it reminds us of the faithfulness of God, because,

668
00:45:05.680 --> 00:45:11.840
you know, I can just see that in the future, you might need to remember these things. And so you'll

669
00:45:11.840 --> 00:45:16.960
have it documented. So anyway, if you want to, you do not have to, but I just always encourage people

670
00:45:16.960 --> 00:45:23.760
to do that. I can attest to that. Many times I've talked to Ashley, and she'd say, Amy, go back and

671
00:45:23.760 --> 00:45:36.160
read your own post. It's like, don't you remember? And I'm like, no, I don't remember. So yeah,

672
00:45:36.160 --> 00:45:45.200
it is helpful. It's very helpful. Yeah. And then one time I sent Amy and some videos of her and I

673
00:45:45.200 --> 00:45:50.400
said, can you go back and watch your first one? Didn't I say that Amy? Or was it? I just think

674
00:45:50.400 --> 00:45:56.480
of it. Go back and watch some of your beginning or beginning private consultations so that she

675
00:45:56.480 --> 00:46:01.120
could see some of the things that she was saying and how much, you know, she just shifted her

676
00:46:01.120 --> 00:46:08.240
vocabulary and their perspective and all of that. And I do that. I keep records of certain things on

677
00:46:08.240 --> 00:46:18.080
my iPhone. Certain ways that God, I have a list of my dreams. I have a list of provision stories

678
00:46:18.880 --> 00:46:26.400
of financial provision or, you know, just provision in other ways because God provides

679
00:46:26.400 --> 00:46:33.360
for us in a variety of ways. And I'll write them down so don't forget. And then I'll stop

680
00:46:33.360 --> 00:46:40.480
periodically and think and remember how, I don't know, just remember stories in order to kind of

681
00:46:40.480 --> 00:46:47.040
keep them alive as, you know, those rocks of remembrance. So anyway, I think that it would not

682
00:46:47.040 --> 00:46:51.200
only help you, you know, it obviously would be very helpful and encouraging to other people as

683
00:46:51.200 --> 00:46:57.280
well. So anyway, just no pressure. I won't ask you about it again. I'm encouraged by, I was very

684
00:46:57.280 --> 00:47:02.400
encouraged by hearing you talk about the shifts that have taken place with you talking to your

685
00:47:02.400 --> 00:47:13.600
body. Yes. I'm so excited for you, Audra. Can you share maybe a little bit about how you talk to

686
00:47:13.600 --> 00:47:20.320
your body? Because that's one area I haven't really, I've been discouraged in. I've had great

687
00:47:20.320 --> 00:47:29.280
success with my soul. But because, and that's a lot of times does seem to be instant. Like I'll

688
00:47:29.280 --> 00:47:35.440
go to bed at night and I'll tell my spirit to work on something in my soul. And I'll wake up and feel

689
00:47:35.440 --> 00:47:43.200
different. But with my body, I guess I expected it to be the same, that I would just say it one

690
00:47:43.200 --> 00:47:48.800
time or sometimes I'll repeat it periodically. But can you share a little bit more specifically

691
00:47:48.800 --> 00:47:53.520
about how you've been talking to your body? How often? And just, I don't know, whatever might be

692
00:47:53.520 --> 00:48:01.360
helpful. Are you talking to me or Ashley? Yeah. Yeah. I mean, you said talking to your foot and stuff.

693
00:48:01.360 --> 00:48:12.720
Yeah. Well, I just remember, well, at first I would do what I used to do, except I didn't,

694
00:48:12.720 --> 00:48:19.520
I didn't do it in the spirit. I did it in my soul where I would tell, you know, my heart to quit it

695
00:48:20.400 --> 00:48:27.280
and, you know, just kind of be mean, mean to my body and just kind of talk mean to it because

696
00:48:27.280 --> 00:48:35.680
it was doing what it was supposed to. But then the more I listened to Ashley talk about the way

697
00:48:35.680 --> 00:48:43.360
she talked to her foot and how she consoled it and that it's fine and you don't need to be afraid

698
00:48:43.360 --> 00:48:53.120
and you don't need to take all this on. And I realized that I was not speaking kindly to my body

699
00:48:53.200 --> 00:48:58.640
at all. And I started, I started doing that. It was a little bit hard because I still felt like

700
00:48:58.640 --> 00:49:07.680
it was its fault for whatever was going on. But I did start doing a lot nicer and telling it that

701
00:49:07.680 --> 00:49:16.080
it was fine and that it's already healed and it needs to start acting that way. And to just,

702
00:49:16.080 --> 00:49:22.320
like Ashley said, you know, just kind of leave it, leave it alone. Stop trying to heal itself

703
00:49:22.320 --> 00:49:27.600
and go and play so that the spirit can come and do it because that's the spirit's job.

704
00:49:29.120 --> 00:49:32.080
I would just kind of do that over and over again. And then

705
00:49:34.320 --> 00:49:40.480
anytime it hurt or anytime I was about to go do something like clean or go to the gym or

706
00:49:40.480 --> 00:49:49.840
anything that I knew would make it hurt in usual circumstances. That's helpful. It's like I,

707
00:49:50.800 --> 00:49:57.040
now that you say that, I think it's because you, you know, in church we, we hear how people like

708
00:49:57.600 --> 00:49:59.920
speak healing or command healing. And it's

709
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:02.160
It's not really nice.

710
00:50:02.160 --> 00:50:05.160
And so like you said that I just really recognize

711
00:50:05.160 --> 00:50:09.200
that when I talk to my soul, I'm really, you know,

712
00:50:09.200 --> 00:50:12.520
comforting because I've heard you, you know,

713
00:50:12.520 --> 00:50:14.640
Ashley teaches that I haven't really heard you talk

714
00:50:14.640 --> 00:50:15.800
about talking to your body,

715
00:50:15.800 --> 00:50:19.080
but I haven't been talking to my body the same way.

716
00:50:19.080 --> 00:50:23.080
So that's probably why I haven't seen much success here.

717
00:50:23.080 --> 00:50:23.960
So thank you.

718
00:50:23.960 --> 00:50:24.800
I can't wait.

719
00:50:24.800 --> 00:50:28.480
I've had digestive trouble like all my life

720
00:50:28.520 --> 00:50:31.400
and I've had people pray and I thought it was healed

721
00:50:31.400 --> 00:50:33.160
and then it comes back and all this.

722
00:50:33.160 --> 00:50:35.160
And, oh, it's related to this.

723
00:50:35.160 --> 00:50:36.560
It's related to that.

724
00:50:36.560 --> 00:50:39.800
It's, you know, all the spiritual roots

725
00:50:39.800 --> 00:50:41.080
and all that kind of stuff.

726
00:50:41.080 --> 00:50:43.320
And I've just been around and around

727
00:50:43.320 --> 00:50:44.360
and around the mountain with it.

728
00:50:44.360 --> 00:50:45.480
I'm just so tired of it.

729
00:50:45.480 --> 00:50:49.200
And I'm like, God, you know, can you just get rid of this?

730
00:50:49.200 --> 00:50:50.960
I'm so tired of it.

731
00:50:50.960 --> 00:50:54.080
And anyway, so yay.

732
00:50:54.080 --> 00:50:55.000
Thank you for that.

733
00:50:55.000 --> 00:50:56.480
I'm excited to try it.

734
00:50:56.480 --> 00:50:57.320
Try that.

735
00:50:57.320 --> 00:51:02.320
So I probably would not have started it this soon,

736
00:51:02.600 --> 00:51:07.160
but it's like ever since we came back,

737
00:51:07.160 --> 00:51:10.280
I came back to America in 2004 from Turkey,

738
00:51:11.280 --> 00:51:15.960
I've had ailments and surgeries and broken bones

739
00:51:15.960 --> 00:51:18.200
of what I've never had and sprained ankles

740
00:51:18.200 --> 00:51:19.600
like I've never had.

741
00:51:19.600 --> 00:51:23.560
And just things happening over and over and over again

742
00:51:23.560 --> 00:51:26.120
and tiny little accidents that caused me

743
00:51:26.120 --> 00:51:28.080
to be in a wheelchair for nine months

744
00:51:28.080 --> 00:51:30.200
and, you know, just ridiculous things.

745
00:51:30.200 --> 00:51:33.320
And then when Ashley said, you know,

746
00:51:33.320 --> 00:51:36.320
you can talk to your body and the spirit will heal it.

747
00:51:36.320 --> 00:51:38.560
I thought, well, I've got to do this

748
00:51:38.560 --> 00:51:40.960
because I can't look like this anymore.

749
00:51:40.960 --> 00:51:41.960
It's ridiculous.

750
00:51:41.960 --> 00:51:42.800
It's rough.

751
00:51:43.800 --> 00:51:45.400
It's rough.

752
00:51:45.400 --> 00:51:48.440
So yeah, I probably would not have started it that soon

753
00:51:48.440 --> 00:51:50.280
because it made me nervous.

754
00:51:50.280 --> 00:51:52.080
Cause what if it doesn't work?

755
00:51:52.080 --> 00:51:53.680
But I thought I'd better try it.

756
00:51:54.680 --> 00:51:56.720
I can't look like this anymore.

757
00:51:56.720 --> 00:51:57.560
Yeah.

758
00:51:58.800 --> 00:51:59.720
Yeah.

759
00:51:59.720 --> 00:52:01.280
And you know what you were saying, you know,

760
00:52:01.280 --> 00:52:04.160
the fact that the whole like talking mean to it

761
00:52:04.160 --> 00:52:06.200
and whatever and like, well, as you know,

762
00:52:07.320 --> 00:52:11.160
the, that is what that, that perspective

763
00:52:11.160 --> 00:52:16.160
and that attitude is why our body is afraid of us.

764
00:52:16.520 --> 00:52:18.520
It's a disassociation.

765
00:52:18.520 --> 00:52:21.160
It's like, it's, well, this is your fault.

766
00:52:21.200 --> 00:52:24.000
So the, in that disassociation,

767
00:52:24.000 --> 00:52:26.080
there's no wonder that the body thinks

768
00:52:26.080 --> 00:52:29.320
it's abandoned and alone because we even blame it

769
00:52:29.320 --> 00:52:32.160
as if we're outside of it and it's not us.

770
00:52:32.160 --> 00:52:35.720
So in other words, it's, we have to love us.

771
00:52:35.720 --> 00:52:40.280
We have to not think that because this body is in pain

772
00:52:40.280 --> 00:52:45.280
and is hurt that, how would I put that?

773
00:52:46.120 --> 00:52:47.760
How would I put that?

774
00:52:47.760 --> 00:52:52.760
That it's, that we're not safe with it either.

775
00:52:54.680 --> 00:52:57.000
So we think that we're not safe with it

776
00:52:57.000 --> 00:53:00.720
and that it is the cause of our, you know,

777
00:53:00.720 --> 00:53:04.120
our pain, you know, our insecurity,

778
00:53:04.120 --> 00:53:06.480
meaning like our lack of safety and whatever.

779
00:53:06.480 --> 00:53:11.040
So we try to distance it and then it thinks, okay,

780
00:53:11.040 --> 00:53:12.920
I really am abandoned alone.

781
00:53:12.920 --> 00:53:17.240
This affirms it and then it seeks to protect itself

782
00:53:17.240 --> 00:53:20.000
and then it can't and it's victim to its environment

783
00:53:20.000 --> 00:53:21.280
and victim to its circumstances.

784
00:53:21.280 --> 00:53:24.680
So it's important for us to, like what you were talking

785
00:53:24.680 --> 00:53:27.240
about, just to love on it,

786
00:53:27.240 --> 00:53:31.360
to absorb it back into us by intention.

787
00:53:31.360 --> 00:53:34.160
In other words, that we're choosing that it is,

788
00:53:34.160 --> 00:53:35.840
instead of separating ourselves from it,

789
00:53:35.840 --> 00:53:39.080
trying to protect ourselves from our own body

790
00:53:39.080 --> 00:53:43.880
to actually, you know, choose no, no, you're part of this.

791
00:53:43.880 --> 00:53:48.760
I received this, I received this as, I'm sorry,

792
00:53:48.760 --> 00:53:53.760
DASA, no, it's over there whining.

793
00:53:54.440 --> 00:53:56.400
No, baby, I know.

794
00:53:56.400 --> 00:53:57.520
I'm right here, baby.

795
00:53:57.520 --> 00:53:58.360
I'm right here.

796
00:53:59.600 --> 00:54:04.600
And we receive it into ourself and that we try to acknowledge

797
00:54:05.320 --> 00:54:10.320
that we are one in spirit, soul, and body,

798
00:54:10.480 --> 00:54:14.200
not just spirit, not just soul and body, but all, all one.

799
00:54:14.200 --> 00:54:17.760
And that will bring a lot of the healing

800
00:54:17.760 --> 00:54:20.080
and that, because we're presenting ourselves to it like,

801
00:54:20.080 --> 00:54:22.760
hey, look, I'm a King, I'm here.

802
00:54:22.760 --> 00:54:25.880
I protect you, I'm for you, I'm covering you.

803
00:54:25.880 --> 00:54:28.480
There's no reason to be afraid because I'm here.

804
00:54:28.480 --> 00:54:29.520
But if we're not there,

805
00:54:29.520 --> 00:54:31.440
then there's a reason for it to be afraid.

806
00:54:31.480 --> 00:54:34.800
So yeah, you made some amazing points, yeah.

807
00:54:35.840 --> 00:54:40.840
Yeah, that's, I'm excited now to implement that way

808
00:54:41.120 --> 00:54:46.120
because I can, I can perceive the difference

809
00:54:46.800 --> 00:54:48.480
and the power in what you're saying.

810
00:54:48.480 --> 00:54:52.200
And almost, it's almost like my body's already responding

811
00:54:52.200 --> 00:54:53.960
to just hearing it.

812
00:54:53.960 --> 00:54:56.240
And so I'm excited.

813
00:54:56.240 --> 00:54:57.080
This is-

814
00:54:57.080 --> 00:54:58.360
To be loving to it.

815
00:54:58.360 --> 00:54:59.680
Yeah, yeah.

816
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:01.100
I can see what you're saying.

817
00:55:01.100 --> 00:55:07.380
It's almost like talking to a child the same way, like, you know, getting down

818
00:55:07.380 --> 00:55:11.580
on them and they feel abandoned because you're blaming them or condemning them

819
00:55:11.580 --> 00:55:14.580
or judging them and calling them bad.

820
00:55:14.580 --> 00:55:18.380
Or, you know, sending that message, like you're not acceptable.

821
00:55:18.380 --> 00:55:20.040
And so then they withdraw.

822
00:55:20.080 --> 00:55:22.380
So your body would do the same thing.

823
00:55:23.140 --> 00:55:26.280
And that's, that's really kind of what I've been doing.

824
00:55:26.280 --> 00:55:27.580
It's like, no, you're healed.

825
00:55:27.580 --> 00:55:28.940
You know, stop that.

826
00:55:28.940 --> 00:55:30.940
Come on, do it with the program.

827
00:55:30.940 --> 00:55:38.940
I'm being that authoritarian parent that I hate, you know, like to my own body.

828
00:55:38.940 --> 00:55:42.840
It's like being demanding and yeah.

829
00:55:43.540 --> 00:55:50.440
It causes us to, uh, we can do the same thing in trying to lose weight.

830
00:55:51.040 --> 00:55:54.840
Just out of curiosity, you know, just for whatever help this might be.

831
00:55:54.840 --> 00:55:58.440
Maybe I'm the only one that's helpful too, but I'm going to say it

832
00:55:58.440 --> 00:56:02.340
because it's helpful to me and hopefully it'll be helpful to somebody

833
00:56:02.340 --> 00:56:07.040
who watches this, that, uh, when we're trying to lose weight and we get

834
00:56:07.040 --> 00:56:12.140
frustrated, like, oh my word, you know, I've gained more or I've, um, or

835
00:56:12.140 --> 00:56:16.640
we, or we, you know, we look at ourselves and think about how it is that we feel

836
00:56:16.640 --> 00:56:19.440
or think about how it is that we look and we don't like it.

837
00:56:20.140 --> 00:56:25.140
We, uh, again, out of self psychological self-protection, we try to separate

838
00:56:25.240 --> 00:56:28.740
ourselves from our own body and be just like, why is it?

839
00:56:28.740 --> 00:56:30.140
Why is it acting like this?

840
00:56:30.140 --> 00:56:31.140
I'm eating right?

841
00:56:31.140 --> 00:56:31.840
I'm doing this.

842
00:56:31.840 --> 00:56:33.040
I make good choices.

843
00:56:33.040 --> 00:56:39.840
I'm going to, and, and we have to, we have to choose to receive and love

844
00:56:39.840 --> 00:56:45.540
it unconditionally, regardless of how it acts and responds, because it's

845
00:56:45.540 --> 00:56:51.140
doing it, what it's doing out of trauma that we've either caused on it

846
00:56:51.140 --> 00:56:52.840
because of what it is that we ate.

847
00:56:52.840 --> 00:56:55.840
Not that we need to be receiving blame for that, because again, this

848
00:56:55.840 --> 00:56:59.140
is just going to create it more and more of a negative cycle, but just

849
00:56:59.140 --> 00:57:03.040
this idea that, you know, it's, it's experienced a lot of trauma, either

850
00:57:03.040 --> 00:57:07.940
psychological trauma that it is metabolizing and it is, it's, it's,

851
00:57:07.940 --> 00:57:14.640
um, it's manifesting into the physical, uh, or it is, um, receiving

852
00:57:14.640 --> 00:57:17.340
some kind of like a physical trauma, either something that's happened

853
00:57:17.340 --> 00:57:23.840
to it, or we have, um, um, uh, or we've ingested something or ingested

854
00:57:23.840 --> 00:57:28.740
some toxins or through a shampoo or I don't know, whatever, and it's,

855
00:57:28.740 --> 00:57:30.040
it's trying to survive.

856
00:57:31.140 --> 00:57:36.640
And, and, um, and so we have to, it, it, like what we talk about.

857
00:57:37.740 --> 00:57:40.440
People moving into the spirit.

858
00:57:40.840 --> 00:57:44.540
I mean, you know, um, acting according to who it is that they are in spirit.

859
00:57:45.240 --> 00:57:51.040
The only way to do that is if we, they feel safe with us, where they are,

860
00:57:51.540 --> 00:57:54.740
if they don't feel safe with this, where they are, then they're not

861
00:57:54.740 --> 00:57:58.140
going to feel safe to leave that place and go into the unknown.

862
00:57:58.940 --> 00:58:00.440
So it's the same thing with our body.

863
00:58:00.440 --> 00:58:05.940
We ha it has to feel safe with us now in order for it to feel safe, to

864
00:58:05.940 --> 00:58:08.540
change and lose the weight.

865
00:58:09.240 --> 00:58:11.140
It's really wild how that works.

866
00:58:11.740 --> 00:58:13.840
But anyway, so I just wanted to throw that out there since we were

867
00:58:13.840 --> 00:58:16.740
talking about healing, but it does in talking kindly to our body.

868
00:58:16.740 --> 00:58:17.840
It works for weight as well.

869
00:58:21.040 --> 00:58:26.540
Then a huge thing for me is the more we let go, even though my youngest

870
00:58:26.540 --> 00:58:26.940
is four.

871
00:58:27.940 --> 00:58:28.240
Yeah.

872
00:58:28.540 --> 00:58:34.740
The more we let go, then, um, uh, the, the more weight we lose because

873
00:58:34.740 --> 00:58:36.940
our, our, because, okay.

874
00:58:36.940 --> 00:58:37.540
Think about it.

875
00:58:38.340 --> 00:58:42.940
Our body manifests what it is that we believe in, what it is that we

876
00:58:43.040 --> 00:58:48.240
choose, which is if we're holding on to things, it will too.

877
00:58:49.540 --> 00:58:51.240
So we have to let go.

878
00:58:51.540 --> 00:58:55.340
We have to, we have to operate all of our life like that in our body

879
00:58:55.340 --> 00:58:58.540
will manifest the, the, what it is that our soul believes.

880
00:58:58.540 --> 00:59:03.140
And if our soul believes in letting go and then releasing and not

881
00:59:03.140 --> 00:59:06.540
holding on, our body will begin to manifest the same way.

882
00:59:07.840 --> 00:59:08.940
So yeah, interesting.

883
00:59:09.940 --> 00:59:13.740
And you believe you're fat or you're, you're going to manifest that

884
00:59:13.740 --> 00:59:15.540
you're telling your body that you're fat.

885
00:59:15.940 --> 00:59:19.840
I've noticed that, you know, I'm not extremely heavy, but you know,

886
00:59:19.840 --> 00:59:21.740
I'm at the age where you belly fat.

887
00:59:21.840 --> 00:59:27.740
And I noticed if I'm just like chill about it, like it almost just

888
00:59:27.740 --> 00:59:28.640
like evaporates.

889
00:59:28.640 --> 00:59:34.240
But if I get obsessed with it, it just seems impossible to, uh, to

890
00:59:34.240 --> 00:59:34.840
change.

891
00:59:34.940 --> 00:59:40.940
So yeah, there's something to be said about the whole idea of, of

892
00:59:41.040 --> 00:59:42.240
loving our bodies.

893
00:59:42.540 --> 00:59:51.240
And there's that thing that it's DASA, you know, or she is whining

894
00:59:51.640 --> 00:59:52.540
baby girl.

895
00:59:52.940 --> 00:59:54.340
No, uh-uh.

896
00:59:54.840 --> 00:59:55.940
No, get in your bed.

897
00:59:57.740 --> 00:59:59.740
There's a, you know, there's that whole thing.

898
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:12.640
about, you know, the non-Christians, talking about the, that, what was, what's that called?

899
01:00:12.640 --> 01:00:17.040
It's that whole, that whole trendy thing, you know, about like, oh, love your body just

900
01:00:17.040 --> 01:00:18.040
the way you are, whatever.

901
01:00:18.040 --> 01:00:21.320
Have you noticed though, that those people don't lose weight?

902
01:00:21.320 --> 01:00:23.240
But here's the interesting thing.

903
01:00:23.240 --> 01:00:28.400
There is truth in the fact that it's very important that we love our bodies, very important,

904
01:00:28.400 --> 01:00:33.880
that they're not, they're not going to the root of everything of why it is they're holding

905
01:00:33.880 --> 01:00:34.880
on to the weight.

906
01:00:34.880 --> 01:00:39.600
And so therefore they're still not losing it, but there's still a truth that they have,

907
01:00:39.600 --> 01:00:44.080
that a lot of them have learned, oh, they're as big as beautiful, yeah.

908
01:00:44.080 --> 01:00:50.240
There's, there's, there's a truth that, that we, that they don't fully understand how to

909
01:00:50.240 --> 01:00:55.000
operate in, but that they know to talk about and that they know is true.

910
01:00:55.000 --> 01:01:02.360
And that is the fact that, that we're supposed to love our bodies.

911
01:01:02.360 --> 01:01:09.880
And when we love our bodies and when we begin to release things, then we can actually make

912
01:01:09.880 --> 01:01:17.600
it feel safe enough to change and to release because it, it holds onto things due to trauma,

913
01:01:17.600 --> 01:01:20.140
due to fear.

914
01:01:20.140 --> 01:01:21.140
We do the same thing.

915
01:01:21.140 --> 01:01:26.220
Our body is a visible manifestation of how it is that we operate in the soul.

916
01:01:26.220 --> 01:01:33.100
It, it puts into physical form what it is that we do in the metaphysical.

917
01:01:33.100 --> 01:01:38.300
And if we're holding on in the metaphysical, our bodies will hold on because we hold on

918
01:01:38.300 --> 01:01:39.300
out of fear.

919
01:01:39.300 --> 01:01:41.980
We latch on and grab a hold of something out of fear.

920
01:01:41.980 --> 01:01:43.740
Our bodies do the same thing.

921
01:01:43.740 --> 01:01:47.260
If it thinks that it's not going to get to eat, it holds on.

922
01:01:47.260 --> 01:01:51.020
If it thinks that we're, that we're under stress and anxiety all the time, it thinks,

923
01:01:51.020 --> 01:01:54.740
oh my goodness, I'm going to need this for storage.

924
01:01:54.740 --> 01:01:55.740
And so it holds on.

925
01:01:55.740 --> 01:01:58.620
You know, just, just all kinds of things.

926
01:01:58.620 --> 01:02:00.740
And then it holds on for other reasons.

927
01:02:00.740 --> 01:02:07.220
The body's idea, when we're stressed about something, even if it doesn't feel necessarily

928
01:02:07.220 --> 01:02:12.900
physically threatened by like lack of food or whatnot, that's only one of the traumas

929
01:02:12.900 --> 01:02:15.780
that the body feels that can come to it.

930
01:02:15.780 --> 01:02:24.100
But regardless, it's go-to is to hold on and to, and to, to, to step.

931
01:02:24.100 --> 01:02:28.740
And because that's our, that's our go-to is to hold on to anything.

932
01:02:28.740 --> 01:02:34.700
That's why I talk about in the rest intensive about releasing, about letting go, and that

933
01:02:34.700 --> 01:02:37.380
we already are everything that we wanted to be.

934
01:02:37.380 --> 01:02:39.380
We're just holding on to things that aren't us.

935
01:02:39.380 --> 01:02:47.540
And so the whole process I recommend is focusing on just the letting go, not on getting somewhere,

936
01:02:47.540 --> 01:02:49.100
doing something, just letting go.

937
01:02:49.100 --> 01:02:51.340
And it's the same thing with our body.

938
01:02:51.340 --> 01:02:53.260
Our body is made to be healthy.

939
01:02:53.260 --> 01:02:55.820
Our body knows how to be healthy.

940
01:02:55.820 --> 01:02:58.100
It knows what to do.

941
01:02:58.100 --> 01:03:00.220
It knows what to do better than we do.

942
01:03:00.220 --> 01:03:05.220
Scientists are still trying to figuring out, to figure out the machine.

943
01:03:05.220 --> 01:03:07.060
And so, yes, Amy, go ahead.

944
01:03:07.060 --> 01:03:15.980
Yeah, we're, we're about to jump off here and, and bye, but anyway, so the, our body

945
01:03:15.980 --> 01:03:22.340
just needs to be told, needs, needs to feel safe enough with us to let go.

946
01:03:22.340 --> 01:03:26.300
So anyway, just thought I'd mention that.

947
01:03:26.300 --> 01:03:30.780
Well, it's good to get, you're welcome.

948
01:03:30.780 --> 01:03:36.900
Well, it's good to get to see y'all and I will see y'all I guess next week.

949
01:03:36.900 --> 01:03:44.020
So I don't know what next week is, so I don't know what day it is, but well, I know it's

950
01:03:44.020 --> 01:03:51.180
next week, but I don't know which day next week, Thursday lands on, but anyway, it's

951
01:03:51.180 --> 01:03:55.580
good to see y'all and hope y'all have a good night.

952
01:03:55.580 --> 01:03:56.580
Bye.

953
01:03:56.580 --> 01:03:57.260
Bye.