WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:22.000 I'm going to share my screen. 2 00:00:22.000 --> 00:00:28.000 Hey, Alicia. 3 00:00:29.000 --> 00:00:33.000 I don't think you can hear me, but I'm eating my dinner here. 4 00:00:33.000 --> 00:00:40.000 No, you're good. 5 00:00:40.000 --> 00:00:46.000 I'm hoping y'all are going to be able to hear me because I'm trying to talk quietly. Can you hear me okay? 6 00:00:46.000 --> 00:00:50.000 So far so good. 7 00:00:50.000 --> 00:00:51.000 Okay, good. 8 00:00:51.000 --> 00:00:53.000 You're not at home, I guess. 9 00:00:53.000 --> 00:00:55.000 Hey, Diane. 10 00:00:56.000 --> 00:01:04.000 No, I'm not. I'm on the road. I'm actually visiting some old friends of mine, which is really fun in North Carolina. 11 00:01:04.000 --> 00:01:16.000 So, I'm way up in the mountains, like as in you can only get through get here through like mountain passes. So it's a lot of fun. It's like old Cherokee land. 12 00:01:16.000 --> 00:01:30.000 And anyway, it is beautiful. It is literally in the middle of the mountains, like you would not have believed like the drive to get here was like this amazing stream that we were going by stream. 13 00:01:30.000 --> 00:01:35.000 We're talking about like a big river. It has all these rocks in it. 14 00:01:35.000 --> 00:01:49.000 So it's like tumbling and then of course I it's kind of, it was extremely foggy today during my travels. And so I discovered this is why they call it the Great Smokies. 15 00:01:49.000 --> 00:01:55.000 Anyway, lovely. Hey Steph. 16 00:01:55.000 --> 00:01:57.000 Hey Renee. 17 00:01:57.000 --> 00:02:00.000 Everybody's here. Hey Diane. 18 00:02:00.000 --> 00:02:03.000 Hi. 19 00:02:03.000 --> 00:02:06.000 How you doing. 20 00:02:06.000 --> 00:02:09.000 Me. 21 00:02:09.000 --> 00:02:12.000 Yes. 22 00:02:12.000 --> 00:02:17.000 Still wondering how to do this zoom thing. 23 00:02:17.000 --> 00:02:28.000 Oh, you're doing great. So I can hear you I can't see you. I don't know if that's on purpose or not. So, just actually it is. 24 00:02:28.000 --> 00:02:32.000 Oh, okay. That is fine. You can you can be. 25 00:02:32.000 --> 00:02:49.000 You can just be the little, the white person, the white shoulders, which is, which is reference to old, what is, no it's not Elizabeth Taylor who was she, I was gonna say the old Elizabeth Taylor scent, but that I think she's white diamonds. 26 00:02:49.000 --> 00:02:58.000 So I don't remember who did white shoulders but my grandmother had white shoulders. So whenever I small white shoulders I always, I always hear you know that scent. 27 00:02:58.000 --> 00:03:02.000 I always think of my grandmother. 28 00:03:02.000 --> 00:03:07.000 I could submit and put that video out if you want me to. 29 00:03:07.000 --> 00:03:22.000 No, you don't have to I was just joking about the fact that that the default is like this white circle with like white shoulders. Yeah. So some people choose to not be and be visual but so glad that you're here. 30 00:03:22.000 --> 00:03:27.000 Thank you. I'm glad to be here. See here. 31 00:03:27.000 --> 00:03:34.000 Oh, this is strange. So, it looks like we've lost some people. 32 00:03:34.000 --> 00:03:41.000 I think Steph and Renee were on here and then they're off so hopefully everything's okay. 33 00:03:41.000 --> 00:03:51.000 But, um, so, and how are y'all doing does someone have a question that they'd like to start us off with. 34 00:03:51.000 --> 00:04:05.000 Give me a chance. 35 00:04:05.000 --> 00:04:19.000 Hey Steph, able to get back on. 36 00:04:19.000 --> 00:04:29.000 Okay, so no one has a question. Oh my, let's see if I can come up with the answers with no questions. 37 00:04:29.000 --> 00:04:34.000 I know I totally agree. 38 00:04:34.000 --> 00:04:51.000 I was thinking about when I went through the class. Yeah. But there's something I, I guess I'm might want to do but I don't know if I'm led to do and then when there's a cost to get into it. 39 00:04:51.000 --> 00:05:00.000 How do you like way that the risk of it or the investment and. 40 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:04.640 I guess that's my question. I'm just throwing it together here on the spot. 41 00:05:07.360 --> 00:05:09.120 Yeah, that's all right. Go for it. 42 00:05:11.280 --> 00:05:18.240 So you're talking about how, so what's your question exactly? The, how to make a decision or? 43 00:05:20.800 --> 00:05:26.240 Um, I'm so tired. My brain's not working right. Um, 44 00:05:26.240 --> 00:05:31.600 um, yeah. What's your situation? What are you talking about? 45 00:05:34.080 --> 00:05:37.280 How to know for sure if you're being led and something for one, 46 00:05:37.280 --> 00:05:46.400 or if you just see the benefits of it, like, um, whatever. And then how do you weigh the risk and 47 00:05:46.400 --> 00:05:56.000 make the decision of the risk being, um, not safe, but at least God led versus just something I want 48 00:05:56.000 --> 00:06:04.160 to do, you know, cause there's a monetary investment in starting it. So there is a 49 00:06:04.160 --> 00:06:11.840 monetary investment. So it kind of like gives you pause for a second. Yeah. Um, $2,000 pretty big. 50 00:06:14.720 --> 00:06:20.080 Oh, wow. Yeah. Yeah, that is, that's very significant. Now God can do anything, 51 00:06:20.080 --> 00:06:25.680 but it just, it does make you stop and think about that for a second. Um, the, uh, 52 00:06:26.160 --> 00:06:39.120 so in, in making decisions, um, I, uh, I, it depends on what it is for something like that. 53 00:06:39.920 --> 00:06:47.440 Sometimes not necessary. Uh, I know where I'm going. I'm just trying to think about how to, 54 00:06:48.160 --> 00:06:57.360 how to get there, how to say it. Um, the, the important thing is to make sure that, uh, you 55 00:06:57.360 --> 00:07:06.160 know, obviously to, to, to shift into rest when trying to make the decision. So to shift into it, 56 00:07:06.160 --> 00:07:13.520 because then we're more likely to very clearly hear the Lord and more likely able to recognize 57 00:07:13.600 --> 00:07:22.720 what is our own fear versus what is, um, out of, um, uh, versus the Lord's, 58 00:07:22.720 --> 00:07:32.000 the Lord's voice, um, what it is we actually want to do. Um, you know, et cetera, there are, 59 00:07:32.000 --> 00:07:38.800 there are things that, because, because also as we're learning to shift into rest, 60 00:07:39.280 --> 00:07:46.320 remember that rest is the, is in God and that, that union with him is our identity. 61 00:07:46.320 --> 00:07:52.000 So what we're doing when we're learning how to shift into rest is part of that process is we're 62 00:07:52.000 --> 00:07:57.920 learning who we are. We're learning our identity in the Lord. We're learning our, the uniqueness 63 00:07:57.920 --> 00:08:06.320 of our relationship with God, where it's not just, well, who am I? Remember that who we are 64 00:08:06.320 --> 00:08:15.040 is defined by our union with him. So we can't define ourselves apart from who, but, um, apart 65 00:08:15.040 --> 00:08:25.920 from, um, our connection with God. And so there's always this other aspect of ourselves, which is 66 00:08:25.920 --> 00:08:30.800 him and our connection with him that we're considering when we're making a decision. 67 00:08:30.800 --> 00:08:35.520 And when we're trying to figure out who it is that we are, because who it is that we are is what the 68 00:08:35.520 --> 00:08:40.559 two of us are together. So what do you want to do? What does he want to do? What did the two of 69 00:08:40.559 --> 00:08:45.360 you want to do together? And something that the Lord has been talking to me about, about decisions 70 00:08:46.560 --> 00:08:59.680 is the, the, the ease with which we can make decisions when we're making them from a place of 71 00:08:59.680 --> 00:09:05.920 yes, rest and, and union. Um, in other words, union with him, where we understand whatever it 72 00:09:05.920 --> 00:09:11.120 is that we're deciding on, whatever it is that we're thinking about, we're thinking about it in 73 00:09:11.120 --> 00:09:17.600 terms of what are the two of us going to do together. So say for instance, if you and your 74 00:09:17.600 --> 00:09:23.040 husband, if you thought about where you wanted to live in the world, well, you can't imagine 75 00:09:23.040 --> 00:09:27.680 trying to figure out where you wanted to live in the world without considering your husband and 76 00:09:27.680 --> 00:09:33.680 that aspect, because the two of you were going to go together, right? So your husband has to like 77 00:09:33.680 --> 00:09:37.440 it too. Your husband has to be on board with leaving where it is you are and maybe there's 78 00:09:37.440 --> 00:09:44.880 other places. Um, and, uh, so it's the same thing with the Lord. It's not when we're going to do 79 00:09:44.880 --> 00:09:50.240 something, it's not like, okay, Lord, this is what I want to do. And I'm looking at you and asking if 80 00:09:50.240 --> 00:09:55.760 you're going to give me a blessing so that I can go and do this thing. Cause that's thinking of 81 00:09:55.760 --> 00:09:59.840 ourselves in terms of like separation from the Lord. So. 82 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:04.240 It's important that whenever we're making a decision that we, that we always view it 83 00:10:04.240 --> 00:10:07.400 from the perspective, I'm unified with him. 84 00:10:07.400 --> 00:10:10.240 It's what, it's not, what do I want to do? 85 00:10:10.240 --> 00:10:14.120 It's what Lord, what do we want to do together? 86 00:10:14.120 --> 00:10:15.960 I think this is a really good idea. 87 00:10:15.960 --> 00:10:17.160 Do you want to do it too? 88 00:10:17.160 --> 00:10:19.840 Should we do this together, et cetera. 89 00:10:19.840 --> 00:10:27.760 And so doing it more from that perspective is we're more likely to yes, hear the Lord 90 00:10:27.760 --> 00:10:34.720 more clearly because we are, we're trusting in his, in his character, as opposed to thinking 91 00:10:34.720 --> 00:10:39.120 that we're, that we're abandoned, which is going to create, which is going to cause us 92 00:10:39.120 --> 00:10:43.680 to make decisions from a place of fear, either fear that, oh, I don't know that I should 93 00:10:43.680 --> 00:10:48.880 spend that money or fear of, I'm afraid of missing out. 94 00:10:48.880 --> 00:10:54.560 I'm afraid of missing this opportunity, whatever, regardless, doing things from a place of fear 95 00:10:54.560 --> 00:10:55.560 isn't healthy. 96 00:10:55.560 --> 00:10:57.560 And not only is it not healthy. 97 00:10:57.560 --> 00:11:01.960 It actually squelch, it squelches our ability to be able to hear what the Lord's actually 98 00:11:01.960 --> 00:11:04.840 saying and it can actually squelch. 99 00:11:04.840 --> 00:11:08.920 And this is a really big thing because we all understand what I just said, you know? 100 00:11:08.920 --> 00:11:09.920 Oh, okay. 101 00:11:09.920 --> 00:11:10.920 Well, yeah, that makes sense. 102 00:11:10.920 --> 00:11:15.120 So we wouldn't be able to hear what the Lord is clearly, but it also makes it harder to 103 00:11:15.120 --> 00:11:19.920 hear us, our true selves and what we really want. 104 00:11:19.920 --> 00:11:27.160 In other words, who we really are in our union with the Lord, who we really are, you know, 105 00:11:27.160 --> 00:11:32.040 which is that our identity, that connection with him and that, who it is that we really 106 00:11:32.040 --> 00:11:35.720 are, our union with him, what the two of us want to do together, that is what needs to 107 00:11:35.720 --> 00:11:38.440 drive our decisions. 108 00:11:38.440 --> 00:11:43.000 So it's a different way of making decisions than we used to. 109 00:11:43.000 --> 00:11:50.760 So in order to make a decision, there's prep work that we need to do, as opposed to simply, 110 00:11:50.760 --> 00:11:55.800 as opposed to simply going through the checklist of all of the things that we used to do before, 111 00:11:55.880 --> 00:11:59.160 which is, okay, well, let's think about how much money it would be. 112 00:11:59.160 --> 00:12:01.960 And let's see about, well, how long have I been thinking about this and how long have 113 00:12:01.960 --> 00:12:05.040 I wanted this and how badly do I want it? 114 00:12:05.040 --> 00:12:09.320 That's that old checklist that we're trying to like check things off of, like, does it 115 00:12:09.320 --> 00:12:11.000 meet this criteria? 116 00:12:11.000 --> 00:12:18.000 And instead we have to do prep work on ourselves in order to let go of the fear, to remind 117 00:12:18.000 --> 00:12:21.400 ourselves of who it is that we are, understand that we're unified with him. 118 00:12:21.400 --> 00:12:25.600 And then from that place in the father's heart where we're like, okay, Lord, because 119 00:12:25.600 --> 00:12:31.040 I'm with you, whatever I end up doing, I'm going to enjoy whatever I end up doing, whatever 120 00:12:31.040 --> 00:12:38.640 the two of us end up doing together is going to, um, it's going to lead to amazing opportunities 121 00:12:38.640 --> 00:12:42.520 that I can't even fathom right now. 122 00:12:42.520 --> 00:12:48.120 And so now that I am in a place of no fear that I'm, Oh, you know, I'm going to miss 123 00:12:48.120 --> 00:12:49.120 out. 124 00:12:49.120 --> 00:12:50.120 I'm not going to miss out. 125 00:12:50.120 --> 00:12:53.240 Cause as long as I'm with the Lord, I already have everything that I used to think something 126 00:12:53.240 --> 00:12:55.440 like that could give me. 127 00:12:55.440 --> 00:12:58.440 And now I think I'm going to miss out if I don't have it now. 128 00:12:58.440 --> 00:12:59.440 I have it in the Lord. 129 00:12:59.440 --> 00:13:00.640 So now I have it in the Lord. 130 00:13:00.640 --> 00:13:04.520 I I'm not going to make a decision from a place of fear now that I have everything that 131 00:13:04.520 --> 00:13:05.520 I need. 132 00:13:05.520 --> 00:13:09.600 And that thing can't give me something I don't already have now. 133 00:13:09.600 --> 00:13:11.720 Now I'm in a healthy place. 134 00:13:11.720 --> 00:13:12.720 Now what do I want to do? 135 00:13:12.720 --> 00:13:18.440 So it there's, so that's what I recommend in making decisions from a place of rest and 136 00:13:18.760 --> 00:13:23.960 in order to hear the Lord's heart is doing it from that place is doing this prep work 137 00:13:23.960 --> 00:13:30.120 in our relationship with the Lord and in our, in, in our choosing that his character is 138 00:13:30.120 --> 00:13:31.480 who he says that he is. 139 00:13:31.480 --> 00:13:40.120 And that I am in relationship to him, who he says that I am, um, that, that starts, 140 00:13:40.120 --> 00:13:44.440 that starts getting, um, getting rid of all of the fear. 141 00:13:44.440 --> 00:13:48.400 And that puts us in a healthier perspective to get to hear what God's actually saying 142 00:13:48.400 --> 00:13:51.120 and what we actually, truly want. 143 00:13:51.120 --> 00:13:55.560 So does that help? 144 00:13:55.560 --> 00:13:56.560 Okay. 145 00:13:56.560 --> 00:14:06.520 So it's not as clear as like another, other of those old formula answers that we used 146 00:14:06.520 --> 00:14:14.960 to, um, look for of like, well, if God, if, if God's voice comes in this form or, Hey, 147 00:14:14.960 --> 00:14:18.800 if the opportunity comes, well, then that's obviously the Lord. 148 00:14:18.800 --> 00:14:21.400 I had a friend who was talking to me about that the past few days. 149 00:14:21.400 --> 00:14:26.800 Oh, well, you know, actually all the synchronicity and they were, they were saying that I happened 150 00:14:26.800 --> 00:14:32.640 to be with a friend of mine, um, at a place and for several days, like five days. 151 00:14:32.640 --> 00:14:35.280 And we were meeting all of these people and whatever. 152 00:14:35.280 --> 00:14:38.760 And they were saying, Oh my word, actually, I cannot believe everything that has happened 153 00:14:38.760 --> 00:14:40.000 since you've been here. 154 00:14:40.000 --> 00:14:42.840 Actually, these things don't usually happen. 155 00:14:42.840 --> 00:14:46.000 You know, I've been here for, I don't know how many years and I've never had this happen, 156 00:14:46.000 --> 00:14:48.760 you know, and all of these things happen and you met all these people and there was all 157 00:14:48.760 --> 00:14:51.880 of this connection and blah, blah, blah. 158 00:14:51.880 --> 00:14:55.600 And he said, Ashley, God might be talking to you about something. 159 00:14:55.600 --> 00:14:59.720 You know, God might be, they didn't say that God might be telling you to move here. 160 00:14:59.720 --> 00:15:00.000 They didn't. 161 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:03.820 say it like that, but they were just saying, you know, God might be like trying to build 162 00:15:03.820 --> 00:15:07.580 some kind of like connection where there's going to be some, something, I don't know. 163 00:15:07.580 --> 00:15:11.420 And I told them, I said, you know, actually, what I've discovered is this kind of thing 164 00:15:11.420 --> 00:15:14.820 that you're talking about is so amazing. I've discovered this has been happening everywhere 165 00:15:14.820 --> 00:15:20.480 I go, everywhere I go, there's been this type of so-called synchronicity. It's these types 166 00:15:20.480 --> 00:15:26.800 of connections where people are like, actually, God, you know, God told me that, that, um, 167 00:15:26.800 --> 00:15:32.000 it was important that you were going to be coming. Or God told me, you know, such and 168 00:15:32.000 --> 00:15:37.480 such or right before you came, God started talking to me about rest or, you know, the, 169 00:15:37.480 --> 00:15:43.680 you know, whatever. And, uh, they were saying, this is like, it was odd. And I'm like, no, 170 00:15:43.680 --> 00:15:47.800 because I have a good father and this is how he just does things in the world. I come to 171 00:15:47.800 --> 00:15:57.160 expect really fun, interesting connections and events and whatever all the time. So he 172 00:15:57.160 --> 00:16:02.720 was looking at it as actually, you know, maybe you're supposed to be making a decision. Maybe 173 00:16:02.720 --> 00:16:07.240 all of these things are you supposed to be making decisions? No, this is just God being 174 00:16:07.240 --> 00:16:12.040 a good father. Now, yes, I can look at all of these things and I can then choose in my 175 00:16:12.040 --> 00:16:15.320 relationship with the Lord. And I was talking to him about this just yesterday, actually 176 00:16:15.320 --> 00:16:19.000 about making decisions. There are some decisions that I was trying to make in my own life. 177 00:16:19.000 --> 00:16:22.760 And I was asking him this very question, Lord, how do you want me to make decisions with 178 00:16:22.760 --> 00:16:26.920 you right now? Um, I you've crossed me into multiple thresholds of how to make decisions. 179 00:16:26.920 --> 00:16:30.680 And so here's a new one, Lauren, what do you want me to do? And how do you want me to make 180 00:16:30.680 --> 00:16:35.080 this type of decision? That's what I asked him. Um, do you want me to just like go with 181 00:16:35.080 --> 00:16:41.640 something, you know, or what? And, and then he began talking to me about the union about, 182 00:16:41.720 --> 00:16:46.360 um, actually it's, it's, it's, um, always make a decision from the understanding and 183 00:16:46.360 --> 00:16:51.160 the perspective that we're doing it together. This isn't you asking me for permission to 184 00:16:51.160 --> 00:16:56.600 do something you want to do. It's you in union with me as a married couple, what do we want 185 00:16:56.600 --> 00:17:03.880 to do? And therefore you're going to know and lean on and desire my opinion too. Um, 186 00:17:03.880 --> 00:17:07.960 and so he was talking to me about making a decision from that place, as opposed to what 187 00:17:07.960 --> 00:17:11.960 my friend was, was talking to me about, which was, Oh, I'm worried. You have to look at all 188 00:17:11.960 --> 00:17:19.960 of these. This is just so coincidental. Sure. God can talk through through coincidences, 189 00:17:19.960 --> 00:17:25.160 but, um, uh, anyway, I, he was good. The Lord is talking to me about the fact that actually, 190 00:17:25.160 --> 00:17:30.280 how do you hear me in coincidences? How do you know if that's me or not? It's like, you know, 191 00:17:30.280 --> 00:17:34.520 you need to do prep work on yourself and make sure you're positioned in a particular place, 192 00:17:35.400 --> 00:17:44.200 um, to be able to, um, hear me and to know in your spirit, what those, if those are coincidences 193 00:17:44.200 --> 00:17:50.680 that I am using as presenting opportunities for you to step into, or they're just really cool, 194 00:17:50.680 --> 00:17:56.840 fascinating things to have happened. Um, but he said, actually the answer doesn't lie outside 195 00:17:56.840 --> 00:18:01.160 and try to figure, okay, well, is this synchronicity happening or is it not? And 196 00:18:01.160 --> 00:18:06.200 that's, what's going to tell me that's using a formula outside of me and outside of God to tell 197 00:18:06.200 --> 00:18:12.280 me what to do. Um, and, and God's like, no, no, no, Ashley, I confirmed to you in my spirit, 198 00:18:12.280 --> 00:18:15.960 what it is that I want you to do. What do we want to do together? Um, excuse me. 199 00:18:17.800 --> 00:18:20.920 Anyway, he was talking to me about all this recently, actually. 200 00:18:21.560 --> 00:18:37.480 So yeah. Um, does anyone, um, have anything else? Hey, I have a question. This is Diane. 201 00:18:38.600 --> 00:18:43.880 Should I just, is that what I do? I just tell you, I have a question. Am I supposed to do something on 202 00:18:44.120 --> 00:18:52.200 this thing first? No, no, that's perfect. Actually what people do is, um, is because this is being 203 00:18:52.200 --> 00:18:58.280 recorded in order to prevent feedback in the recording, I just have everybody, um, automatically 204 00:18:58.280 --> 00:19:05.080 muted. Um, and then when they want to ask a question, they unmute themselves. And that's how 205 00:19:05.080 --> 00:19:10.520 I know that someone needs to ask questions. So you're, you're doing it just right. Okay. Um, 206 00:19:10.520 --> 00:19:15.640 my question is it's, it's kind of a, as I was listening to, you know, your answers and the 207 00:19:15.640 --> 00:19:22.840 question about the decisions it brought to mind, um, two times that I was in a similar situation 208 00:19:22.840 --> 00:19:28.920 and, and purchasing a program, you know, and one was very expensive and one wasn't quite as 209 00:19:28.920 --> 00:19:34.520 expensive, but it was, it was both times. It was more than was comfortable for me for sure. 210 00:19:35.480 --> 00:19:44.280 And I feel like, and I made the decision to do both. I have not used that information and I 211 00:19:44.280 --> 00:19:50.440 probably shouldn't have went forward with it for that reason, or I would have used it. But at the 212 00:19:50.440 --> 00:19:56.760 time I had told myself that it was an opportunity that I thought God was giving me and in both, 213 00:19:56.760 --> 00:19:59.800 both times, but in afterthought. 214 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:03.960 as I'm listening now, I'm thinking, why did I do that? 215 00:20:03.960 --> 00:20:05.960 You know, what made me, you know, 216 00:20:05.960 --> 00:20:08.880 what was so motivating for me to spend money 217 00:20:08.880 --> 00:20:12.480 that I really didn't have to spend on that? 218 00:20:12.480 --> 00:20:16.860 And I realized that both times I made those purchases 219 00:20:16.860 --> 00:20:21.140 with the hope that they would make me become 220 00:20:21.140 --> 00:20:23.920 something I wanted to be, you know, 221 00:20:23.920 --> 00:20:28.680 and rather than realizing who I am 222 00:20:29.440 --> 00:20:34.200 and out of confidence and knowing that I can do anything, 223 00:20:34.200 --> 00:20:35.560 do I want to do this? 224 00:20:35.560 --> 00:20:38.200 Is this something the Lord wants me to do? 225 00:20:38.200 --> 00:20:43.200 Instead, I was trying to, you know, 226 00:20:43.520 --> 00:20:45.360 it was more out of an insecurity. 227 00:20:45.360 --> 00:20:47.560 It was like wanting to want this 228 00:20:47.560 --> 00:20:49.560 because it would make me better 229 00:20:49.560 --> 00:20:52.920 rather than believing I'm enough the way I am. 230 00:20:52.920 --> 00:20:54.200 Does that make sense? 231 00:20:55.760 --> 00:20:57.400 And I didn't ask myself those questions then. 232 00:20:57.400 --> 00:20:59.720 Fascinating insight, very impressive insight. 233 00:20:59.720 --> 00:21:02.840 I mean, today I would, but at that time, 234 00:21:02.840 --> 00:21:07.320 I didn't look at it as making that decision 235 00:21:07.320 --> 00:21:08.160 out of weakness. 236 00:21:08.160 --> 00:21:09.360 I didn't do it out of strength. 237 00:21:09.360 --> 00:21:10.780 I did it out of weakness. 238 00:21:13.240 --> 00:21:17.280 Yes, yeah, that's a really, really great insight 239 00:21:17.280 --> 00:21:19.160 into what you had done and why. 240 00:21:19.160 --> 00:21:22.520 So you're right, if God doesn't like us 241 00:21:22.520 --> 00:21:26.040 to reach out of ourselves, to try to think 242 00:21:26.040 --> 00:21:28.200 that we rely on something else 243 00:21:28.200 --> 00:21:29.920 in order to get us somewhere, 244 00:21:29.920 --> 00:21:32.120 but that we use him as our source 245 00:21:32.120 --> 00:21:35.400 and that we just get to use the tools, 246 00:21:35.400 --> 00:21:36.920 but we don't need the tools. 247 00:21:36.920 --> 00:21:39.160 Yeah, so yeah, that's really fascinating 248 00:21:39.160 --> 00:21:41.880 that you noticed that about the decisions that you made. 249 00:21:41.880 --> 00:21:43.840 Yeah, that's great. 250 00:21:43.840 --> 00:21:45.240 I wish I had known it then. 251 00:21:45.240 --> 00:21:50.240 I know, I know, we all look back and think, 252 00:21:51.360 --> 00:21:53.760 oh, well, what would life have been like 253 00:21:53.760 --> 00:21:55.520 if such and such happened? 254 00:21:56.040 --> 00:21:56.880 But now we know. 255 00:21:57.720 --> 00:21:59.640 It was a valuable lesson I learned. 256 00:21:59.640 --> 00:22:02.360 That we so often, yeah, yeah, 257 00:22:02.360 --> 00:22:04.280 it's all of that stuff is not wasted. 258 00:22:04.280 --> 00:22:05.720 It's all very, very valuable. 259 00:22:06.560 --> 00:22:10.300 So does anyone have another question? 260 00:22:15.760 --> 00:22:20.160 Something new, is this a quiet night? 261 00:22:23.440 --> 00:22:24.280 Let's see. 262 00:22:26.240 --> 00:22:29.320 Sorry, I missed something of the first question. 263 00:22:32.480 --> 00:22:34.800 You missed the what of the first question? 264 00:22:34.800 --> 00:22:36.480 Of the gist? 265 00:22:36.480 --> 00:22:37.440 Well, all of it, 266 00:22:37.440 --> 00:22:39.720 but you don't have to repeat everything, obviously. 267 00:22:39.720 --> 00:22:41.960 I was just wondering what y'all were talking about. 268 00:22:43.680 --> 00:22:46.360 It was about making decisions. 269 00:22:46.360 --> 00:22:51.360 So making decisions, knowing when something is the Lord 270 00:22:52.200 --> 00:22:56.280 versus something that we want to do 271 00:22:56.280 --> 00:23:01.280 or an opportunity that presents itself or something. 272 00:23:01.600 --> 00:23:04.200 In other words, I'm not trying to put words 273 00:23:04.200 --> 00:23:05.760 in Alicia's mouth, it was Alicia's question. 274 00:23:05.760 --> 00:23:09.280 So that's what I was thinking of in my head 275 00:23:09.280 --> 00:23:10.680 when I was answering the question 276 00:23:10.680 --> 00:23:15.680 is to try to think that when we have opportunities that come 277 00:23:16.680 --> 00:23:18.400 or something that it is that we think, 278 00:23:18.400 --> 00:23:21.200 oh, we might like to do or whatever, 279 00:23:22.040 --> 00:23:23.440 or something that we don't want to do 280 00:23:23.440 --> 00:23:26.800 and that something presents itself 281 00:23:26.800 --> 00:23:29.200 or someone asks us to do something or whatever, 282 00:23:29.200 --> 00:23:31.400 how do we know if it's the Lord? 283 00:23:31.400 --> 00:23:32.960 That's what we were talking about. 284 00:23:35.960 --> 00:23:38.600 So yeah, and I was just talking about the fact 285 00:23:38.600 --> 00:23:43.600 that it needs to be that instead of looking for formulas 286 00:23:44.920 --> 00:23:49.920 of like, is God doing, oh my word, 287 00:23:50.360 --> 00:23:53.240 everything is just providing such a great opportunity 288 00:23:53.240 --> 00:23:55.920 and yes, there's something to be said about opportunities. 289 00:23:55.920 --> 00:23:58.480 I step into opportunities, absolutely. 290 00:23:58.480 --> 00:23:59.840 But if it's something that, 291 00:23:59.840 --> 00:24:03.080 because Alicia was talking about the fact 292 00:24:03.080 --> 00:24:08.080 that hers would require an investment of $2,000. 293 00:24:09.440 --> 00:24:12.160 So if it's something like that, 294 00:24:12.160 --> 00:24:17.160 then what I was saying was that to kind of expound on it 295 00:24:18.000 --> 00:24:21.920 is that not just looking at something as an opportunity 296 00:24:21.920 --> 00:24:26.200 or looking at like synchronicity, 297 00:24:26.200 --> 00:24:30.880 I don't know what exactly what her situation looks like. 298 00:24:30.880 --> 00:24:33.560 I just am just talking to situations 299 00:24:33.560 --> 00:24:36.640 that have been in myself where we look at opportunities, 300 00:24:36.640 --> 00:24:38.520 we look at synchronicity, we look at, oh my goodness, 301 00:24:38.520 --> 00:24:40.520 this is just all kind of coincidence. 302 00:24:40.520 --> 00:24:42.320 Surely this is the Lord talking. 303 00:24:42.320 --> 00:24:45.920 Well, that's looking at things kind of like as a formula 304 00:24:45.920 --> 00:24:49.280 and how instead it's healthier to make a decisions 305 00:24:49.280 --> 00:24:51.760 from a place of rest from, in other words, 306 00:24:51.760 --> 00:24:53.200 from the fact that we're unified with God 307 00:24:53.200 --> 00:24:55.200 and we're always gonna do it together. 308 00:24:55.200 --> 00:24:59.560 And in other words, doing prep work on ourselves 309 00:24:59.560 --> 00:25:00.400 by shifting. 310 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:05.700 shifting ourselves into our, our, the identity that God declares us to be, and then making 311 00:25:05.700 --> 00:25:09.340 a decision from there, because there, we're not going to be making a decision out of fear, 312 00:25:09.340 --> 00:25:12.500 fear of missing out or fear of making the wrong decision. 313 00:25:12.500 --> 00:25:15.620 We're actually going to be making it from a very healthy place. 314 00:25:15.620 --> 00:25:20.280 And we're more likely to clearly hear the voice of the Lord when we're not in fear. 315 00:25:20.280 --> 00:25:25.540 So if we shift into our, into our identity and to who it is that God says that he is 316 00:25:25.540 --> 00:25:30.940 and who it is that he says that we are, then, um, uh, we, we don't have that fear. 317 00:25:30.940 --> 00:25:33.620 And we can hear when we hear the word's voice more clearly. 318 00:25:33.620 --> 00:25:34.780 So that's what I've seen. 319 00:25:34.780 --> 00:25:41.460 So it's decision-making from a perspective of preparation of our, of shifting ourselves 320 00:25:41.460 --> 00:25:45.860 into our identity, as opposed to needing something outside to try to figure out is, is God like 321 00:25:45.860 --> 00:25:46.860 calling me on the phone? 322 00:25:46.860 --> 00:25:51.280 You know, something, again, it's something outside of us that we're relying on to tell 323 00:25:51.280 --> 00:25:53.560 us something when God's like, no, no, no. 324 00:25:53.560 --> 00:26:00.240 It's who it's, it's who I am in you that, um, by which you'd make the decision. 325 00:26:00.240 --> 00:26:01.240 That's the synopsis. 326 00:26:01.240 --> 00:26:08.700 So, uh, so it's really interesting, Elisa, that you brought up that question because 327 00:26:08.700 --> 00:26:14.240 that was the thing that I was going to talk about before you came up with a question because 328 00:26:14.240 --> 00:26:17.160 I was trying to, I was wracking my brain thinking, what have I been talking to the Lord about 329 00:26:17.160 --> 00:26:18.160 lately? 330 00:26:18.160 --> 00:26:21.840 What have I been talking to, like on like a client call or whatever lately? 331 00:26:22.120 --> 00:26:26.440 Um, cause that's usually what I write my brain for when someone doesn't have a question and 332 00:26:26.440 --> 00:26:31.520 it was, and I had thought about that because God had talked to me about that yesterday 333 00:26:31.520 --> 00:26:35.760 or day before yesterday, maybe it was day before yesterday, told me that. 334 00:26:35.760 --> 00:26:42.840 So when I asked him about my own decisions, I think if there was something else, um, so 335 00:26:42.840 --> 00:26:46.640 does anyone else have a question while I look at my notes and see if there's anything else 336 00:26:46.640 --> 00:26:49.720 the Lord and I've been talking about lately that I could use? 337 00:26:51.600 --> 00:26:52.280 Um, 338 00:26:59.520 --> 00:27:00.080 okay. 339 00:27:00.520 --> 00:27:00.800 Yeah. 340 00:27:03.000 --> 00:27:05.760 So does anyone have anything else? 341 00:27:12.800 --> 00:27:14.280 Um, let's see. 342 00:27:14.280 --> 00:27:14.960 What else? 343 00:27:15.920 --> 00:27:20.320 The other thing that happens, I think, I think this one was yesterday. 344 00:27:20.880 --> 00:27:26.760 I was again, concerned about decisions and ask the Lord about, was asking a lot about 345 00:27:26.760 --> 00:27:32.800 him and he was telling me, actually, don't be so concerned about making the right decision, 346 00:27:32.800 --> 00:27:34.280 the quote unquote, right decision. 347 00:27:34.760 --> 00:27:40.280 He said, actually, that's when you're doing that, he said, you are, he said, you're, you're, 348 00:27:40.760 --> 00:27:50.160 you're default that you, that you go into is, is you start to lock down and you start 349 00:27:50.160 --> 00:27:53.680 to get rigid because you're trying so hard to do the right thing and to not do the wrong 350 00:27:53.680 --> 00:27:53.960 one. 351 00:27:54.520 --> 00:28:01.120 And, uh, he reminded me that that's stifling that stifling the spirit because it's, it's, 352 00:28:01.120 --> 00:28:06.600 um, bringing a restriction and it's bringing death as opposed to spirit, as opposed to 353 00:28:06.600 --> 00:28:10.160 spirit, which is life and free flowing and movement. 354 00:28:10.680 --> 00:28:16.360 Um, so he said, actually, you're a lot safer making decisions. 355 00:28:16.480 --> 00:28:18.800 Uh, in other words, um, how did he put it? 356 00:28:19.280 --> 00:28:26.400 Um, in letting go and not being so worried about making the right decision, because he 357 00:28:26.400 --> 00:28:31.880 said, even if you make the wrong decision, you know, in other words, one that's not as 358 00:28:31.880 --> 00:28:33.160 wise as another. 359 00:28:33.960 --> 00:28:39.240 Um, the thing is that we're going to be able to, um, uh, he didn't tell me this 360 00:28:39.240 --> 00:28:42.600 yesterday, but this is just something that I, that I've known and that I've walked out 361 00:28:42.600 --> 00:28:49.200 with him is that the fastest way to become like God, in other words, to look like him. 362 00:28:49.240 --> 00:28:51.320 I don't mean that we're becoming God himself. 363 00:28:51.560 --> 00:28:55.240 I'm not trying to say that I'm saying that we look like him because he's our father. 364 00:28:55.240 --> 00:28:55.520 Right. 365 00:28:55.520 --> 00:28:58.200 And we, and we want to reflect his character. 366 00:28:58.200 --> 00:29:00.640 If he is a particular way, well, then we want to be like that. 367 00:29:00.640 --> 00:29:02.480 If he's patient, then we want to be patient. 368 00:29:02.800 --> 00:29:04.920 The son is supposed to look like the father. 369 00:29:05.280 --> 00:29:11.000 And the fastest way to do that is to act like we are him. 370 00:29:12.080 --> 00:29:14.960 I don't mean that in a disrespectful or blasphemous way. 371 00:29:15.000 --> 00:29:18.640 I'm not saying that we, that we act like we're the creator who created everything. 372 00:29:18.960 --> 00:29:26.040 I mean, that we start acting like who he looks like to us, who it is that we believe 373 00:29:26.040 --> 00:29:28.400 in our spirits, that he actually is. 374 00:29:28.680 --> 00:29:30.560 And we start acting like that. 375 00:29:31.120 --> 00:29:37.160 We start, we think, okay, well, I think that, that God would, if he were here, he 376 00:29:37.160 --> 00:29:42.520 would do this thing, not based off of what we read in the Bible and what it is 377 00:29:42.520 --> 00:29:46.800 that we think with our head, but who it is that we know based on our relationship 378 00:29:46.800 --> 00:29:52.320 with him, what do we feel that he would be doing in this situation, even if we 379 00:29:52.320 --> 00:29:59.040 don't like it, and then we start doing it because even if we do things, even if we 380 00:29:59.040 --> 00:29:59.880 step out. 381 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:02.560 do something because we think, Oh, I think God looks like this. 382 00:30:02.880 --> 00:30:07.740 And he corrects us while we're in the middle of it or afterwards. 383 00:30:07.740 --> 00:30:10.320 And he said, no, no, that's not quite what I look like. 384 00:30:10.360 --> 00:30:11.920 That's not quite what I would do. 385 00:30:12.200 --> 00:30:19.480 Even if we get corrected, we actually progress and learn faster and become like 386 00:30:19.480 --> 00:30:25.120 God faster, meaning like, you know, his character, then we do, if we're trying 387 00:30:25.120 --> 00:30:31.200 so hard to learn exactly and make sure, make sure that we know exactly how he is 388 00:30:31.240 --> 00:30:35.440 and exactly what he looks like and exactly what he would do before we do something. 389 00:30:36.880 --> 00:30:39.860 Um, and children do this, you know, when they learn to walk or when they do 390 00:30:39.860 --> 00:30:45.720 anything, they make all kinds of mistakes and they just, um, uh, they, 391 00:30:45.720 --> 00:30:48.720 they do all kinds of wild things. 392 00:30:48.720 --> 00:30:50.200 You think of little boys. 393 00:30:51.160 --> 00:30:55.480 And how does endow just, they'll just trial these very, very risky. 394 00:30:55.920 --> 00:30:58.280 Um, actions there. 395 00:30:58.360 --> 00:31:01.760 They actually, yes, that there are very big risks, but they 396 00:31:01.760 --> 00:31:04.720 actually learn faster that way. 397 00:31:05.440 --> 00:31:06.840 People learn faster that way. 398 00:31:06.840 --> 00:31:08.200 And we can do the same thing. 399 00:31:08.200 --> 00:31:10.560 So that was one of the things the Lord was talking to me about 400 00:31:10.560 --> 00:31:12.080 yesterday, about my own decisions. 401 00:31:12.080 --> 00:31:15.240 He's like, actually, don't be so worried about trying to make the right decision. 402 00:31:15.640 --> 00:31:16.080 Yes. 403 00:31:16.280 --> 00:31:21.600 Try to make, you know, the best decision that you understand based off of what 404 00:31:21.600 --> 00:31:26.520 you think that I'm saying and who you think that I am and what you, you know, 405 00:31:26.520 --> 00:31:34.160 what you think reflects my character, but don't agonize over it to the point 406 00:31:34.160 --> 00:31:38.280 where don't agonize over it, period, because that's just going to delay it. 407 00:31:38.280 --> 00:31:42.600 And you just start locking down and that brings death to the situation. 408 00:31:43.560 --> 00:31:45.600 Do the best you can and get moving. 409 00:31:46.280 --> 00:31:47.360 They're doing something. 410 00:31:47.720 --> 00:31:52.120 And yes, I've had to bear serious consequences of things, but I've also, 411 00:31:52.680 --> 00:31:57.440 I've also progressed faster than, um, than I would have if I, uh, 412 00:31:57.480 --> 00:31:59.440 then the prior 34 years of my life. 413 00:32:00.040 --> 00:32:00.360 Yes. 414 00:32:01.480 --> 00:32:02.160 Oh, sorry. 415 00:32:02.640 --> 00:32:03.560 I hope it's going to chat. 416 00:32:03.560 --> 00:32:04.680 I didn't think you could see me. 417 00:32:05.080 --> 00:32:07.120 Um, what was I going to say? 418 00:32:07.400 --> 00:32:16.360 Oh, so you're saying that reminds me of, uh, at least me watching Brendan, 419 00:32:16.560 --> 00:32:22.600 our, our younger brother learn how to roll a blade and he would just take off. 420 00:32:22.680 --> 00:32:27.600 I mean, he would fall down so many times, but he would just, he would 421 00:32:27.600 --> 00:32:32.080 just take off and go so fast and then have a crash and get up and do it all 422 00:32:32.280 --> 00:32:35.040 over again, over and over and over again. 423 00:32:35.800 --> 00:32:37.120 And he learned how to roll a blade. 424 00:32:38.240 --> 00:32:42.400 And I never did because I was afraid of falling down and I would still, you 425 00:32:42.400 --> 00:32:46.520 just hold on to the rail constantly trying to do it correctly and trying 426 00:32:46.520 --> 00:32:52.480 not to make a mistake and never learned how to do it anyway. 427 00:32:52.560 --> 00:32:52.800 Yeah. 428 00:32:53.480 --> 00:32:53.880 Yeah. 429 00:32:53.960 --> 00:32:55.600 That's actually a lot. 430 00:32:55.880 --> 00:32:57.000 Um, yes. 431 00:32:59.720 --> 00:33:00.320 Yes. 432 00:33:01.040 --> 00:33:01.360 Yeah. 433 00:33:01.360 --> 00:33:02.800 We learned faster that way. 434 00:33:02.800 --> 00:33:04.360 And, and I'll verify for you. 435 00:33:04.880 --> 00:33:10.400 I am with a very, very, very, very cautious, very cautious. 436 00:33:10.920 --> 00:33:15.000 And, um, uh, yeah, there are certain ways I'll just more cautious than me, 437 00:33:15.480 --> 00:33:21.160 but in like certain in, in the majority of things, she was, uh, she was much 438 00:33:21.160 --> 00:33:26.640 more, um, a much more willing to take risks, less scared than I was. 439 00:33:26.880 --> 00:33:29.520 I was just, I was so very cautious. 440 00:33:29.680 --> 00:33:33.920 Her older daughters, very, very cautious, always worried about making a mistake. 441 00:33:34.320 --> 00:33:36.200 And you learn a lot slower that way. 442 00:33:36.520 --> 00:33:39.120 We think that we're not only protecting ourselves. 443 00:33:39.120 --> 00:33:43.440 We think that we're actually emotionally protecting ourselves from our authority 444 00:33:43.440 --> 00:33:46.080 figure who in our case is God. 445 00:33:47.280 --> 00:33:50.200 We think, Oh, you know, he, we don't want his wrath. 446 00:33:50.760 --> 00:33:55.240 Cause we think that we're always having to avoid his wrath, um, which we're now 447 00:33:55.240 --> 00:33:58.960 learning from the Lord is not the way that he interacts with us, but we're 448 00:33:58.960 --> 00:34:01.440 always trying to avoid his chastisement. 449 00:34:01.720 --> 00:34:04.640 Um, because we, we think so. 450 00:34:04.680 --> 00:34:07.280 Um, we don't see the value in mistakes. 451 00:34:07.280 --> 00:34:09.600 We don't see the value in quote unquote failure. 452 00:34:09.920 --> 00:34:15.440 We don't see the, the, the value in, in hurt, pain, correction, whatever. 453 00:34:15.840 --> 00:34:18.280 And God's just like, that's not the end of it. 454 00:34:18.600 --> 00:34:22.080 It's just like, that just lets you know, okay, that's not the direction 455 00:34:22.400 --> 00:34:23.880 and just make a different direction. 456 00:34:23.880 --> 00:34:32.040 But people who are more willing and open to, um, to trying by doing what it is 457 00:34:32.040 --> 00:34:36.639 that they think God is saying, not just, Oh, I'm just going to do this, you know, 458 00:34:36.840 --> 00:34:40.560 just because I want to, you know, just blindly, this is just what I want to do. 459 00:34:40.600 --> 00:34:41.000 No, no, no. 460 00:34:41.440 --> 00:34:45.320 Actually making decisions because we think, I think this is what God looks like. 461 00:34:45.639 --> 00:34:49.280 I think this is who he's telling me he is and stepping out like that. 462 00:34:49.280 --> 00:34:53.520 I'm, I'm always telling the Lord that I'm always stepping out into new 463 00:34:53.520 --> 00:34:57.000 things in the Lord, whether it's in finances or whether it's in my travels 464 00:34:57.360 --> 00:34:59.040 or whether it's in a relationship. 465 00:34:59.360 --> 00:34:59.880 And I'll tell. 466 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:17.520 Lord. Okay, God, I don't know for sure if I'm doing this right. I don't know if this is what you look like. And if this is reflective of your character, but I think that it is and and I'm doing this because and I'm making this decision because I think this is you. 467 00:35:19.520 --> 00:35:25.160 So anyway, God was just talking to me about it is at a deeper level yesterday. 468 00:35:27.200 --> 00:35:29.360 Or whatever that might be helpful to others. 469 00:35:31.000 --> 00:35:48.000 So I think that in the conference. I'm going to be talking about a whole but possibly a whole section will see on a whole session on because I have multiple sessions. Currently, I think that there's like nine maybe sessions that will be doing, which are at least an hour long, maybe 470 00:35:49.720 --> 00:35:53.360 And I think that I might be doing one of them just on making decisions. 471 00:35:53.360 --> 00:36:14.440 So in the Lord. So anyway, this is so I think that that Lord was giving me some more insight and able being able to articulate some things because he has me walk it out. First, it's like, actually, you have to own this before you tell anybody else about it. You have to put your life on the line. First, it's like, okay, so here I go. 472 00:36:15.920 --> 00:36:16.480 So, yeah. 473 00:36:17.160 --> 00:36:17.840 So, yeah. 474 00:36:19.440 --> 00:36:32.600 So does anyone have anything else. No one has anything we can get off early. I don't think we've ever gotten off early before, but if we need to. 475 00:36:34.000 --> 00:36:35.920 Because I've gone through my material. 476 00:36:37.880 --> 00:36:38.520 Think 477 00:36:39.560 --> 00:36:42.200 After I think I have anything else. 478 00:36:43.000 --> 00:36:45.160 So, fit to sunny, buddy. Have anything 479 00:36:57.400 --> 00:37:08.280 I talk about at a, at a client quote yesterday and I'm trying to remember it was anything in there. It would be helpful. Not sure and 480 00:37:08.280 --> 00:37:20.600 I think that all this stuff that I talked about in the client call, you know, I've, I've already, you know, talk to all of y'all about and things like 481 00:37:22.120 --> 00:37:22.680 If 482 00:37:23.560 --> 00:37:24.840 Things like 483 00:37:26.280 --> 00:37:26.680 If 484 00:37:28.840 --> 00:37:38.360 Someone that I was talking to yesterday. It's not somebody who's in our group. It was because now I charge for private consultation. Yeah, private consultations. 485 00:37:39.160 --> 00:38:05.720 So if it's a, you know, so after the first four weeks that someone's in the program, then I charge for for the consultations or if someone doesn't join the program and they just want they just want to connect with me. I charge for that. So anyway, that and so she's one of those people. She's, and anyway, she, it was very interesting talking to this person because 486 00:38:06.680 --> 00:38:19.040 They by listening to them. I realized that they were at the point where. And so this brings up a subject for all of us that they were at the point where they couldn't 487 00:38:19.800 --> 00:38:30.080 Shift into they couldn't grab a hold of anything that I was saying about rest because they have to ask me, actually, how do you shift and trust. So I would explain some different things different concepts and like 488 00:38:30.360 --> 00:38:37.080 Okay, so I'm really gonna have to think about that. It's, it's really going deep. And I thought, wow, this is. Well, yeah, it is deep, but it's it's basics. 489 00:38:37.560 --> 00:38:46.480 So I thought, okay, what is it, what do they need. And so I told him, I said, okay, here's what I recommend that you focus on. Don't worry about shifting into rest. 490 00:38:46.480 --> 00:38:57.680 Shifting into rest. Don't worry about any of this other stuff said you need to focus on believing in or choosing that God loves you. 491 00:38:58.560 --> 00:39:11.280 In everything that you do. So you get up in the morning, you know, and choose God says that he delights in me that he delights in me being me not because I'm doing something or not doing something or about to do something. 492 00:39:12.120 --> 00:39:24.200 That that he just delights in me being me. So get up and just just choose that as you walk across the room and then choose that as you're taking your shower and choose it as you're getting ready and putting on your make it that on my work. 493 00:39:25.000 --> 00:39:35.760 You know, God delights in me. He says all throughout the song of Solomon and he says it throughout Hosea and he talks about it all throughout the New Testament that he delights in me and he calls me his bride and 494 00:39:36.720 --> 00:39:43.720 And I'm not saying that we just have to like reiterate all of these and think about all these Bible verses or that we have to think about 495 00:39:45.320 --> 00:39:59.760 That we have to think specifics of. Okay, so he says on the apple of his eye and he's this is that and saying that we have to think specifics. I'm just saying that we need to choose that if he says he loves us. 496 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:05.180 unconditionally, just by our insistence, not related to our 497 00:40:05.180 --> 00:40:09.520 behavior, or any actions or any decisions, then we're going to 498 00:40:09.520 --> 00:40:14.400 take him at his word. That's what I'm talking about. And so I 499 00:40:14.400 --> 00:40:17.040 told her I said, while you're putting on your makeup, while 500 00:40:17.040 --> 00:40:20.960 you're getting ready, then while you go make breakfast and do 501 00:40:20.960 --> 00:40:23.920 breakfast, because you can tell that this is my morning routine, 502 00:40:23.920 --> 00:40:27.160 I get up and and I get ready. And after I'm all ready for the 503 00:40:27.160 --> 00:40:30.640 day, you know, then I go get my breakfast and I go do whatever. 504 00:40:31.120 --> 00:40:38.020 So, but, and then, you know, when you, when you stop and I 505 00:40:38.020 --> 00:40:40.280 don't know, spend some time with the Lord, you take time with 506 00:40:40.280 --> 00:40:43.480 your children, or I don't know, you go to work, whatever it is, 507 00:40:43.760 --> 00:40:46.960 that I would have to constantly remind myself and I still do 508 00:40:46.960 --> 00:40:51.640 this, remind myself, okay, you know, I am chosen by God, and I 509 00:40:51.640 --> 00:40:56.600 choose him. I and I choose that he that if he says that he loves 510 00:40:56.600 --> 00:41:01.240 me unconditionally, that he really does love me. And that 511 00:41:01.240 --> 00:41:06.400 it's really true. And so I just focused on that and nothing else 512 00:41:06.400 --> 00:41:11.080 sometimes, like not trying to shift into rest or anything. And 513 00:41:11.080 --> 00:41:15.800 would you know that it was the it was allowing the love of God 514 00:41:15.800 --> 00:41:19.800 to pervade me to pervade my life. It was me choosing it 515 00:41:19.800 --> 00:41:23.520 because I didn't feel it and I didn't believe it for him to for 516 00:41:23.520 --> 00:41:27.680 me choosing that he loved me. And focusing on that, would you 517 00:41:27.680 --> 00:41:32.120 believe that was healing me from traumas that I was not focusing 518 00:41:32.120 --> 00:41:37.160 on? I was not thinking about in order to heal from the traumas, 519 00:41:37.160 --> 00:41:39.720 I wasn't thinking about the lies that I had believed that had 520 00:41:39.720 --> 00:41:43.640 created the trauma in me. And then what it then what truths I 521 00:41:43.640 --> 00:41:49.920 needed to, to combat them with, I didn't, I was just choosing 522 00:41:49.920 --> 00:41:54.480 that if God says he loves me unconditionally, to an extreme 523 00:41:54.480 --> 00:41:59.160 degree, then it was true. And I began to heal. I began to heal 524 00:41:59.160 --> 00:42:03.120 from traumas. It was wild. And so I told her I told her that I 525 00:42:03.120 --> 00:42:08.120 said, Don't worry and focus about on how to shift into rest 526 00:42:08.160 --> 00:42:13.720 or am I at rest? Or am I not? It because when we if we really did 527 00:42:13.720 --> 00:42:16.360 believe that God loves us to the degree that he says that he 528 00:42:16.360 --> 00:42:20.200 loves us, everything will be fixed. Everything in our life 529 00:42:20.200 --> 00:42:23.440 will be fixed. Everything eventually comes down to 530 00:42:23.440 --> 00:42:27.040 accusation against God's character that he does not and 531 00:42:27.080 --> 00:42:34.040 and, and the root of God's character is his love. And all 532 00:42:34.040 --> 00:42:40.760 his other characteristics are subject to his love. So that 533 00:42:40.760 --> 00:42:42.520 really is the root of everything. So I told her I 534 00:42:42.520 --> 00:42:45.000 said, Don't worry about the rest of it. Because she was 535 00:42:45.000 --> 00:42:49.760 striving, she was striving to enter his rest. That said, just 536 00:42:49.800 --> 00:42:54.000 receive that he loves you and choose it and go throughout all 537 00:42:54.000 --> 00:42:56.200 of your day. So I gave her homework. So I go throughout 538 00:42:56.200 --> 00:43:00.080 your whole day, you know, for days, just doing that and 539 00:43:00.080 --> 00:43:03.520 releasing yourself from shame and condemnation. You know, 540 00:43:03.520 --> 00:43:08.240 choosing that God loves you, regardless of what you're doing. 541 00:43:08.400 --> 00:43:10.440 Because there were certain things in their life, they were 542 00:43:10.440 --> 00:43:12.960 like, Oh, I feel guilty for doing this or feel guilty for 543 00:43:12.960 --> 00:43:17.320 not doing this. I told him, I said, I didn't tell him to stop 544 00:43:17.320 --> 00:43:21.720 doing those things, or to do things or to not do things. I 545 00:43:21.720 --> 00:43:25.080 just said, release yourself from shame and condemnation, and 546 00:43:25.080 --> 00:43:28.280 choose the God loves you. And then you will discover that you 547 00:43:28.280 --> 00:43:30.960 will naturally want to change, you will naturally want to do 548 00:43:30.960 --> 00:43:33.840 the things you didn't want to do. And you will naturally want 549 00:43:33.840 --> 00:43:36.280 to stop doing the things that you haven't previously wanted to 550 00:43:36.280 --> 00:43:40.920 stop doing. But it has to be based on his love, not on the 551 00:43:40.920 --> 00:43:44.040 fact that Oh, my goodness, he's he's over me like a taskmaster 552 00:43:44.040 --> 00:43:48.560 with a whip. It's a it's a very, it will get us to change our 553 00:43:48.560 --> 00:43:53.200 behavior. Sometimes, sometimes not, but sometimes it does. But 554 00:43:53.480 --> 00:43:57.600 that her behavior is supposed to man is actually manifest our 555 00:43:57.600 --> 00:44:02.280 beliefs. A friend of mine and refers to it like this. He said 556 00:44:02.280 --> 00:44:06.120 you can think that a muzzled dog, a dog who's always had a 557 00:44:06.120 --> 00:44:11.560 muscle on you can think that that is a wonderful dog. That 558 00:44:11.560 --> 00:44:15.720 dog has never bit anybody. Well, of course not. It has a muscle 559 00:44:15.720 --> 00:44:19.200 on it. Take the muscle off and find out what the dog will 560 00:44:19.200 --> 00:44:22.960 really do. And so that's kind of what it is that we're doing 561 00:44:22.960 --> 00:44:27.400 here. We're taking the muscle off. And we're choosing that 562 00:44:27.400 --> 00:44:31.160 because the restraining the behavior doesn't change the 563 00:44:31.160 --> 00:44:34.480 belief. We're trying to go back to the root of why it is that 564 00:44:35.440 --> 00:44:39.280 have tendencies to do the things that we do, why we've created 565 00:44:39.280 --> 00:44:43.280 these coping mechanisms, why we were these wounds and these in 566 00:44:43.280 --> 00:44:47.880 these pains have come from, and we're fixing it from that place, 567 00:44:48.120 --> 00:44:55.040 because that will change our behavior. And anyway, so that 568 00:44:55.040 --> 00:44:58.080 was something that I talked to her about. And it goes for all 569 00:44:58.080 --> 00:44:59.720 of us regarding it goes for me too. 570 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:06.320 been spending the past few days up in a place called Moravian Falls. For those of you who 571 00:45:06.320 --> 00:45:13.280 don't know, Moravian Falls was, is a place where the Moravians came over through Count 572 00:45:13.280 --> 00:45:22.240 von Zinzendorf in the 1600s. And I think it was the 1600s. Yeah, I don't think it was 573 00:45:22.240 --> 00:45:27.680 the 1800s. Yeah, in fact, I was told it was the 1600s. And they settled in Pennsylvania 574 00:45:27.680 --> 00:45:31.920 for a little bit, but then they came down to North Carolina to Moravian Falls. And they 575 00:45:31.920 --> 00:45:39.720 prayed over the land 24 seven for 100 years. So for those who see in the spirit, those 576 00:45:39.720 --> 00:45:45.720 who can see things, you can see things like angels and whatever, they say there is more 577 00:45:45.720 --> 00:45:52.440 spiritual activity in Moravian Falls than any other place they've been outside of Israel. 578 00:45:52.440 --> 00:45:56.680 So I was just there. And I was just spending some time with the Lord. I didn't see I was 579 00:45:56.680 --> 00:46:02.280 not aware of having seen any angels. So that I've told the Lord, Lord, I would like to 580 00:46:02.280 --> 00:46:07.240 see one day, I would love to see angels and into the spirit one day. But anyway, so I 581 00:46:07.240 --> 00:46:12.200 was there and I was just taking some time with the Lord. And, and one of the things 582 00:46:12.200 --> 00:46:20.960 that I did was spent time choosing that he loved me. Because it doesn't matter to what 583 00:46:20.960 --> 00:46:26.720 degree that we've shifted into interest and in what areas, the reason we haven't shifted 584 00:46:26.720 --> 00:46:32.120 into rest further than we have, is because we have accusation against the character of 585 00:46:32.120 --> 00:46:41.680 God. And ultimately, it comes down to accusations we have against his love. So, so it's always 586 00:46:41.680 --> 00:46:47.120 something that I have to always go back to, I always have to choose that he loves me. 587 00:46:47.200 --> 00:46:52.480 People saw me in Moravian Falls, there was a lady who saw me who had seen me last time I was there, 588 00:46:52.480 --> 00:46:57.840 which was in October. And she said, Ashley, she said, there is such a difference in you, 589 00:46:57.840 --> 00:47:05.120 but from now, now than when I saw you in October, there is so much more peace exuding from you. 590 00:47:05.840 --> 00:47:13.120 And it's because I go, because I have learned since October to even shift into greater levels 591 00:47:13.120 --> 00:47:18.480 of his rest. In other words, choosing that he's more love than I believed he was in October. 592 00:47:19.120 --> 00:47:24.640 And I believed he was in October so much more than I believed that he was, you know, 593 00:47:24.640 --> 00:47:31.600 in May and, you know, and then in January and whatever. And so I'm always having to, 594 00:47:31.600 --> 00:47:34.960 we're all having to do that. And that was just something that I was telling her. 595 00:47:34.960 --> 00:47:39.440 So it doesn't matter if we're at the beginning stages where we have no concept of rest, 596 00:47:39.440 --> 00:47:43.680 or if we're where we all are, which is we're getting a concept of rest and we're moving 597 00:47:43.680 --> 00:47:48.240 into particular measures. There's, we always need to go back to the love. The love thing 598 00:47:48.240 --> 00:47:56.080 has not been conquered. We always have to go back to that and choose that he loves us 599 00:47:56.080 --> 00:48:03.040 to a greater degree than we have been believing thus far. So, which is nice because it means that 600 00:48:04.000 --> 00:48:10.880 there's always more and we haven't ever reached the end of it. So we, as opposed to thinking of 601 00:48:10.880 --> 00:48:16.240 it kind of aggravatingly like, oh, you know, I've done all this work to believe that God loves me. 602 00:48:17.680 --> 00:48:24.720 You know, it's more like, instead it's this whole idea of you mean that God loves me even more than 603 00:48:24.720 --> 00:48:30.640 this. You mean that God loves me even more than that. So it's really nice. 604 00:48:34.080 --> 00:48:41.920 So that is all that I have. Does anyone have another question before we jump off? 605 00:48:41.920 --> 00:48:52.720 I don't think I missed anything in the chat. 606 00:48:56.640 --> 00:49:02.960 Okay. It was good to get to see everybody and I guess, I guess I'll see y'all next week. 607 00:49:02.960 --> 00:49:10.000 Usual time. So unless, unless I'll know otherwise, don't know where I'll be. 608 00:49:11.360 --> 00:49:18.800 Not very sure yet. Anyway, I love all you and I'll see y'all later. Bye. 609 00:49:21.680 --> 00:49:24.080 Welcome. Bye.