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Hi, it's Annette. I just wanted to do a quick post. I'm kind of, well, I'm not as

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happy as I was earlier, but that's okay. I am realizing I'm working on some

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things and I can't really pinpoint it, so I'll probably do it on our rest group. So

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I feel like, obviously, weight, wanting to start a business, but not being, but kind

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of being afraid of it, and also not knowing what I would do are two areas

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that I've mainly been having unrest in, and also wanting to get married. So those

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are three big ones, but now I feel like I've been listening to some of the

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teachings when it comes to negative emotions. I was just listening to that

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and I realize what I've been feeling the past few days, or especially yesterday

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and also today, is kind of like a feeling of being out of time. Not like

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running out of time, but just kind of on a parallel track. I don't know. Okay, I'll

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give an example. So today, well, yesterday I was meeting some friends out and

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everything was fun and all of that. Well, I went and had my morning coffee with my

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swim crew before swimming, as I always do, but then I ended up going by myself

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because they're being so late and I needed to catch a train to go meet my

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friends. Anyways, I ended up missing my train, had to take another one, so I was

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30 minutes late. And when I got there, there was a run and I realized my sister

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had been there with her kids and yadda yadda. Anyways, I came home that night and I

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was like, oh man, I wish I should have, I would have just gone for my swim early,

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gotten myself ready, just went had coffee and then gone in earlier to the others. I

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would have had more out of my day. And then today, we have something called

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fastelabens, which we make buns and probably Renate can tell more about

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what it is. I think it has to do with eating before fasting or something.

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Anyways, it's a time where you normally go to your family's house and I remembered

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I had told my mom earlier this week that, oh, that would be fun, and then she said

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she didn't know if she would be making buns because they were going to a

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birthday party yesterday. And I had said, oh, well, I can make it and come over, but

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then I never heard anything. Anyway, so today as well, I was gonna wake up and

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like do the buns and bring them to swim club. Didn't do that, but I went and had

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coffee with them, went and had my swim, continued cleaning in my house, and then

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went to visit some of our other friends that have moved out just to check their

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house out, their new place out. And then I was supposed to go back home and then I

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ended up going to this like garden place with two of my friends and then I came

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back and I started making buns because I just really wanted to. Anyways, I talked

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to my sister and I was like, oh, did you guys have buns today? And she said, yes, we

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went to mom's place. And I just never knew because nobody told me. So obviously

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if I would have known, I would have gone there and I realized I could have asked,

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but also people could have let me know. And so I think I'm definitely, I feel

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like God is trying to tell me something with these things, but I'm just not sure

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what because it's definitely making me uneasy and having negative emotions, but

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I'm not quite sure what to release and what unbelief is there for me to like

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let go and live and rest in kind of not having fear of missing out or being off

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track on time or anything like that. So sorry for the long post. This is me

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externally processing, but anybody has like thoughts on that? It's not like,

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yeah. If anybody has thoughts, please let me know. Okay. Have a great Sunday. Bye.