WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:08.580 hi guys it's week five and it's my first resting rest or a sharing journey share 2 00:00:08.580 --> 00:00:16.260 and I just got back to my hometown in down south in Norway kind of where Annette 3 00:00:16.260 --> 00:00:22.080 lives and just wanted to do a quick journey share one more time in the 4 00:00:22.080 --> 00:00:26.780 moment I wrote in the last journey share that coming home is always a great joy 5 00:00:26.780 --> 00:00:33.860 and also a big challenge for me I love my family so much but there are things 6 00:00:33.860 --> 00:00:38.460 that are challenging in my family too and one of the things that is kind of 7 00:00:38.460 --> 00:00:45.020 hard is that one of one of my nephews that we love really much has fairly 8 00:00:45.020 --> 00:00:50.300 recently chosen not to follow the Lord which is the huge and he's been kind of 9 00:00:50.300 --> 00:00:55.100 like in rebellion against God and against the family and that's been 10 00:00:55.100 --> 00:01:05.060 really hard for us and it's just really broke my heart and so and and then there 11 00:01:05.060 --> 00:01:10.100 are things like that that are challenging and just living away and 12 00:01:10.100 --> 00:01:14.380 feeling the kids are getting older and they don't need me anymore they used to 13 00:01:14.380 --> 00:01:18.140 be little and wanted to be with me all the time and now they're getting older 14 00:01:18.140 --> 00:01:26.220 the littlest is 6 and the others are 13 and almost 15 almost 13 15 and 18 and a 15 00:01:26.220 --> 00:01:33.020 half so and there are other things going on in my family that are challenges 16 00:01:33.020 --> 00:01:38.780 challenging so I prayed coming back home and I just came in the door maybe like 17 00:01:38.780 --> 00:01:44.260 an hour ago and I bought food sitting down with my nephew the one that just 18 00:01:44.260 --> 00:01:50.060 rejected Jesus and I bought him food when I asked what he wanted and I 19 00:01:50.060 --> 00:01:53.900 started to have a talk and I can just tell like he's such and resistant towards 20 00:01:53.900 --> 00:02:01.260 me and oh I feel like pain is hitting my heart and I tried to ask questions I 21 00:02:01.260 --> 00:02:05.020 tried to listen to him and he doesn't want to talk and I can just tell like 22 00:02:05.020 --> 00:02:11.220 he's just not in the mood to talk that I bought him food it's not creating like 23 00:02:11.220 --> 00:02:17.220 a good atmosphere that I hoped and it doesn't work whether I ask questions or 24 00:02:17.220 --> 00:02:23.180 sit on silence or talk about my life it's just a closed door and all and I 25 00:02:23.180 --> 00:02:29.380 just walked in the door I just drove five hours went by two boats to get home 26 00:02:29.380 --> 00:02:35.660 and drove five hours and really tired and I already a little bit like what's 27 00:02:35.660 --> 00:02:39.820 gonna happen how is it gonna be to be home this time and this is just the 28 00:02:39.820 --> 00:02:46.220 start and then my sister and brother come home they're in a rush they barely 29 00:02:46.220 --> 00:02:49.580 greet me they're like oh the second oldest the 15 year old he has a soccer 30 00:02:49.580 --> 00:02:53.460 game sorry we can't say hi to you we just have to leave it's a soccer game 31 00:02:53.460 --> 00:02:58.900 and then the littlest one and the 13 year old they usually are very close to 32 00:02:58.900 --> 00:03:04.580 me they hug me and then they're like the the 13 year old is like I'm gonna go out 33 00:03:04.580 --> 00:03:09.700 with my friend bye and the six year old who always usually waits for days for me 34 00:03:09.700 --> 00:03:14.340 to come home he's like can I have screen time and then he turns to the 35 00:03:14.340 --> 00:03:24.020 screen and he just like starts watching something on his iPad and I was 36 00:03:24.020 --> 00:03:36.940 like oh okay all right well God didn't change the situation but he has he is 37 00:03:36.940 --> 00:03:43.020 changing me and he's changed me and normally this would have triggered a 38 00:03:43.020 --> 00:03:49.260 lot of things in me especially rejection and I could sense like it was coming up 39 00:03:49.260 --> 00:03:54.820 that I could get into I don't know being a victim or overcome with emotions or 40 00:03:54.820 --> 00:03:58.900 feeling rejected or like what am I gonna do how what is the right thing to do how 41 00:03:58.900 --> 00:04:04.660 to micromanage this and how to handle my emotions in the right way but I was like 42 00:04:04.700 --> 00:04:10.420 this is gonna be okay this was not a great way to come home and I am tired 43 00:04:10.420 --> 00:04:18.779 and I was hoping for something else but the situation has not changed but I can 44 00:04:18.779 --> 00:04:24.700 be at a different place and I am changed and I can be with God right now in the 45 00:04:24.700 --> 00:04:29.940 middle of chaos and people running away from me out the door and 18 year old in 46 00:04:29.940 --> 00:04:36.620 resistance are me and 16 year old 60 year old don't want to be with me I can 47 00:04:36.620 --> 00:04:47.540 still be at rest and I can be at that place in union with God and I'm safe 48 00:04:47.540 --> 00:04:54.180 with him and I'm loved by him and also I know that of course my family loves me 49 00:04:54.180 --> 00:04:59.980 and this doesn't indicate or tell me how this day this week is gonna be or 50 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:05.520 like who I am or how my family, what shape it's in. It's just right now they were at a different 51 00:05:05.520 --> 00:05:12.000 place and they had other things to do or were having a hard day or whatever. I came in the 52 00:05:12.000 --> 00:05:19.920 middle of it and it doesn't say anything about who I am or how my real relationship is with them. 53 00:05:22.160 --> 00:05:29.360 So I was like, I'm actually at peace. I'm okay. I can tell that I started to get triggered. 54 00:05:30.000 --> 00:05:37.920 But this can be a good week home with my family and I can be okay through this and I can have 55 00:05:37.920 --> 00:05:45.920 peace. But I'm really thankful to have you and I'm really thankful that you're there and 56 00:05:47.040 --> 00:05:54.240 really glad I could do this journey share and just like, that was rough in a way, but going 57 00:05:54.320 --> 00:05:58.320 through it with Jesus and knowing that I have the support from you. 58 00:05:59.520 --> 00:06:02.560 So I just want to share that in the middle of my emotions again. 59 00:06:04.880 --> 00:06:12.480 Yes, that was a little bit from me back in Stavanger. Okay, talk to you later in the week.