WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:22.000 Hi everyone. 2 00:00:22.000 --> 00:00:24.000 Hey Ashley. 3 00:00:24.000 --> 00:00:26.000 Hey everyone. 4 00:00:26.000 --> 00:00:29.000 I'm sorry it's a little dark. 5 00:00:29.000 --> 00:00:31.000 I'm parked but I'm in the car. 6 00:00:31.000 --> 00:00:33.000 Hey everybody. 7 00:00:33.000 --> 00:00:38.000 Hey. 8 00:00:38.000 --> 00:00:43.000 So how is everyone doing. 9 00:00:43.000 --> 00:00:47.000 Hi guys. 10 00:00:47.000 --> 00:00:49.000 Thank you. 11 00:00:49.000 --> 00:00:54.000 Good. Oh, very excited we've got all four of us here. 12 00:00:55.000 --> 00:00:58.000 Puffing in. 13 00:00:58.000 --> 00:01:01.000 So, are you still on the road. 14 00:01:01.000 --> 00:01:04.000 No, no, I'm not. I'm sorry. 15 00:01:04.000 --> 00:01:09.000 I had a bit of a bit of a scheduling conflict. 16 00:01:09.000 --> 00:01:18.000 So I mean I knew that both things were happening but the point is like it was just so close and I'm like, okay, we're, I'm just gonna have to do it in the car so I was like, which I don't mind. 17 00:01:19.000 --> 00:01:27.000 So anyway, sorry, sorry that it's so dark, but I am here in present. 18 00:01:27.000 --> 00:01:36.000 So, all right, so it is a Tuesday so what I'm going to do is remember it's a rest group so what I'm going to do is I'm just going to pop off. 19 00:01:36.000 --> 00:01:49.000 You know on the off of the video and and microphone so I'm still here if anyone needs me, and then I'll pop on about like probably like 20 minutes till or based on the conversation, it might be a little longer. 20 00:01:49.000 --> 00:01:58.000 I'm just kind of make sure everyone has had time to get to visit, you know, get to update everyone about their, their journeys. 21 00:01:58.000 --> 00:02:16.000 So, anyway, and so, yeah, I'll just go ahead and do that so you'll have a good time and I'll be back on. 22 00:02:16.000 --> 00:02:19.000 How's everyone doing. 23 00:02:19.000 --> 00:02:24.000 Good. Sorry we missed I sorry I missed Sunday. 24 00:02:25.000 --> 00:02:38.000 I kind of freaked out because my laptop the laptop was like it was falling apart so I was like, yeah. 25 00:02:38.000 --> 00:02:41.000 Did you all meet anyway Rita. 26 00:02:41.000 --> 00:02:45.000 Yeah, yeah me Tammy and me. Oh good. 27 00:02:45.000 --> 00:02:48.000 Did you have a good night. 28 00:02:48.000 --> 00:02:52.000 Yeah, it's good. 29 00:02:52.000 --> 00:02:56.000 Did you have some good time with your hubby Karen. 30 00:02:56.000 --> 00:03:07.000 Yeah, let me turn I'm sorry I've got my CD players playing some heavenly music but it's kind of loud for this. 31 00:03:07.000 --> 00:03:12.000 Yeah, yeah it was just too many things. 32 00:03:12.000 --> 00:03:18.000 But, yeah, yeah pretty good, pretty good time with. 33 00:03:18.000 --> 00:03:22.000 And he got a new job he just started yesterday. 34 00:03:22.000 --> 00:03:34.000 But, yeah, and then my night was kind of felt kind of rushed tonight I just I just finished eating a little bite so but I'm here. So, so yeah. 35 00:03:34.000 --> 00:03:37.000 Yeah, Diana Did you get your computer going. 36 00:03:37.000 --> 00:03:48.000 Yeah, it's still, it's kind of kind of piece it together, but I need to get. I need to get another one. Yeah, so, but it's all good. 37 00:03:48.000 --> 00:03:59.000 Yeah, I thought I'll just, I'll just get on, on my, my phone, last resort but I kind of like to do the zoo. I'm not used to doing the zoom on my phone. 38 00:03:59.000 --> 00:04:03.000 I mean I, I have it, I'm just not used to it so. 39 00:04:03.000 --> 00:04:05.000 Yeah. 40 00:04:05.000 --> 00:04:10.000 Well I'm glad you guys are with us today. Who's starting us off. 41 00:04:10.000 --> 00:04:15.000 Thank you. 42 00:04:15.000 --> 00:04:17.000 Go ahead, Tammy. 43 00:04:17.000 --> 00:04:20.000 I really don't have that much to say. 44 00:04:20.000 --> 00:04:23.000 Community group. 45 00:04:23.000 --> 00:04:28.000 Always like, who's gonna pray or whoever said it first it was like tag your head. 46 00:04:28.000 --> 00:04:30.000 Yeah, that's so funny. 47 00:04:31.000 --> 00:04:37.000 I, I guess let me see. I've been really in a peaceful place. 48 00:04:37.000 --> 00:04:57.000 I guess Rita asked the question that I was thinking the same thing on Sunday just in regards to, you know, not wanting to get stagnant I guess I shared that in my, in my last journey share and just having all of these, you know, having experiences and feeling like 49 00:04:57.000 --> 00:05:00.000 God was just really speaking to me quickly and. 50 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:05.760 it was just felt so personal to just going to more of like, I don't know, I guess felt like more like 51 00:05:05.760 --> 00:05:11.520 regular life and kind of like feeling a little bit of anxiety, kind of like, oh no, like where did it 52 00:05:11.520 --> 00:05:21.920 go, you know? But I feel good and I really don't have any complaints. Let's see. 53 00:05:21.920 --> 00:05:32.000 I don't know, like overall, I think Ashley's response to that question really, really helped 54 00:05:32.000 --> 00:05:41.280 like kind of understanding like what normal, what the norm is and then like what's just extra 55 00:05:42.400 --> 00:05:47.920 icing and cherry on top type of situation with that and so that I can like recalibrate. So 56 00:05:48.640 --> 00:05:57.520 that was really good and I really just kind of, I'm just encouraged with my marriage. It's been 57 00:05:57.520 --> 00:06:04.960 going really, really great. We had a great two weeks and that was a big concern when I started 58 00:06:05.600 --> 00:06:16.480 and just, I just see God moving and let's see, any other praise reports? Oh, just 59 00:06:17.520 --> 00:06:22.400 things that have been on my heart that I was journaling to God about and I was like, okay, 60 00:06:22.400 --> 00:06:29.280 I didn't feel like I really heard like a really clear response. I just have learned though to, 61 00:06:30.160 --> 00:06:36.320 I don't know how to say it, like just give it to him and even if it doesn't go away as quickly as 62 00:06:36.320 --> 00:06:42.880 it has in the past, that as I, as Ashley had mentioned, like just really kind of settled 63 00:06:42.880 --> 00:06:50.880 myself into who he says I am and like express the emotions to God but like am able to kind of 64 00:06:50.880 --> 00:06:56.320 distance myself from it but like not in an unhealthy, I'm ignoring it way but in a more of a 65 00:06:57.120 --> 00:07:03.680 way like where you just get emotional distance where it just doesn't, it doesn't affect you the 66 00:07:03.680 --> 00:07:09.920 same way. Like you don't feel so emotionally tied to it. You can kind of release it. I have been 67 00:07:09.920 --> 00:07:16.640 seeing like God just, he's just uses, he's like, okay, well Tammy, you know how to address these 68 00:07:16.640 --> 00:07:24.320 situations. Like go to the person and ask and see if there's anything going on and so that's 69 00:07:24.320 --> 00:07:29.280 been really helpful. I did that with my husband. I did it with someone else and so that way I can, 70 00:07:30.080 --> 00:07:36.320 things that were like nudging at my heart that I thought like, oh, was there a fence or was I sad? 71 00:07:36.320 --> 00:07:41.120 Like am, you know, am I crazy or whatever is going on? I've been able to like give that to 72 00:07:41.120 --> 00:07:49.200 God and he has shown me how to like talk to whoever that other person is in a relationship to ensure 73 00:07:49.200 --> 00:07:55.120 that like the relationship continues and goes smoothly and so that's really good and it's like 74 00:07:55.120 --> 00:08:04.000 good real life stuff that, you know, you need and so I think that's really about it. It's nothing 75 00:08:04.000 --> 00:08:11.680 like crazy monumental but I'm in a really good place and I feel like I'm at rest. Oh, oh my God, 76 00:08:11.680 --> 00:08:17.600 something actually did happen really good today and then I'll be quiet. Okay, because I did not 77 00:08:17.600 --> 00:08:21.120 prepare for this at all and I was like, I would just think while other people are talking. 78 00:08:23.440 --> 00:08:29.600 Oh, okay. So, you know, I've just kind of been like, okay, Lord, he's been restoring. I've been, 79 00:08:29.600 --> 00:08:38.000 I was so burned out just from work for just grinding. I guess five years ago, I was in grad 80 00:08:38.000 --> 00:08:43.679 school and then Rita knows and I was like, then I got a promotion to like a coach and then the next 81 00:08:43.679 --> 00:08:50.160 year was an assistant principal and just it was, it was just an onslaught and I was just, I've been 82 00:08:50.160 --> 00:08:55.200 going, running crazy for five years and I feel like this has been my year definitely of rest 83 00:08:55.760 --> 00:09:00.320 and I was trying to make it into other things like, okay, well now I need to start on this 84 00:09:00.320 --> 00:09:05.200 next endeavor but I never really asked God about what that next endeavor was and so once I 85 00:09:05.200 --> 00:09:10.080 opened my hands and released that to God, I've really just been enjoying the last three weeks 86 00:09:10.080 --> 00:09:14.720 and just being at peace and where I am and like God has provided, don't worry, I'm not worrying 87 00:09:14.720 --> 00:09:21.120 about tomorrow because like I have enough, you know, for a minute and I have skills and if I 88 00:09:21.120 --> 00:09:26.720 need to go back to work, when I need to go back to work, I have skills and my degree is still good 89 00:09:26.720 --> 00:09:34.160 and it's fine, you know. So, but I really do have a desire in my heart like and I've had words of 90 00:09:34.160 --> 00:09:39.120 knowledge just about like being a business owner and start having multiple businesses and 91 00:09:39.120 --> 00:09:44.800 money not being an issue and so I always feel like I was trying to make that happen on my own 92 00:09:44.800 --> 00:09:49.600 and once I kind of released it and released that accusation against God, 93 00:09:50.800 --> 00:09:54.400 today I had a moment where I was just brainstorming things that just kind of give 94 00:09:54.400 --> 00:09:59.920 me joy and that were little bookmarks in my brain years and years ago about things that I was 95 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:04.880 wanted to do. And, like, I just had this brainstorming session, 96 00:10:04.880 --> 00:10:08.280 like, I'm like, it was so good. So I was thinking about the 97 00:10:08.280 --> 00:10:12.960 things that I'm that God has gifted me in. And one of those 98 00:10:12.960 --> 00:10:17.720 things I think is just is writing. One has been reading 99 00:10:17.800 --> 00:10:21.880 with in one has been, like, I think I have an eye for color. 100 00:10:22.080 --> 00:10:26.160 And I like love design and I like order. And so I just 101 00:10:26.160 --> 00:10:29.560 realized that it's like, I'd always just kind of honed in on 102 00:10:29.600 --> 00:10:36.880 that one academic thing. And that one, that one way of, like, 103 00:10:36.920 --> 00:10:40.040 being a teacher or being an educator, that's that one thing 104 00:10:40.040 --> 00:10:44.240 that it just kind of felt like easy to slide into academically 105 00:10:44.240 --> 00:10:49.240 to go into being in to being a job. But it's like, this time 106 00:10:49.240 --> 00:10:53.680 has been great for me to be able to start to guide to really 107 00:10:53.680 --> 00:10:56.920 reveal and remind me of those things, other things, gifts that 108 00:10:56.920 --> 00:11:00.680 he gave me, and other ways that I can co create with him. And so 109 00:11:00.680 --> 00:11:03.720 I had this brainstorming session, I was like, Oh, I want 110 00:11:03.720 --> 00:11:08.720 to write curriculum, like, and just things that give me joy in 111 00:11:08.720 --> 00:11:15.000 areas that I feel like are missing in that space. And it 112 00:11:15.000 --> 00:11:18.360 was just really great, because and then my our friend, Rita, 113 00:11:18.360 --> 00:11:22.120 and our friend had talked about how she sent a verse about, you 114 00:11:22.120 --> 00:11:27.160 know, but it was with the TPD of tea about his, anything that 115 00:11:27.160 --> 00:11:30.280 we do for God, we're just remember that it's, it's, it's 116 00:11:30.280 --> 00:11:33.800 going to be easy, he's going to be gentle with us, he it's not 117 00:11:33.800 --> 00:11:36.800 going to be like striving, right, that type of thing. And I 118 00:11:36.800 --> 00:11:40.120 just had that moment of just like that session of just like 119 00:11:40.120 --> 00:11:43.360 just journaling out some ideas, brainstorming some ideas. And I 120 00:11:43.360 --> 00:11:46.160 was like, Oh, my gosh, this is so cool. And like, there's a 121 00:11:46.160 --> 00:11:48.960 total need for this in the market and just different 122 00:11:48.960 --> 00:11:51.640 strategies. And I just really felt like I was co creating with 123 00:11:51.640 --> 00:11:56.960 God in that moment. And it's just really exciting. So I know 124 00:11:57.000 --> 00:12:01.600 when I really started talking to Ashley, at the very beginning, I 125 00:12:01.600 --> 00:12:04.080 was just kind of like, what does co creation mean? Like, what do 126 00:12:04.080 --> 00:12:07.400 I do for the business? Like, what? Oh, my God, I have a my 127 00:12:07.400 --> 00:12:10.920 lease is almost up, you know what I mean? And so like, those 128 00:12:10.920 --> 00:12:14.360 things have just been falling into place. And even with the 129 00:12:14.360 --> 00:12:17.240 whole lease thing, and like buying another home, just like 130 00:12:17.400 --> 00:12:20.520 able to have those conversations with my husband, where things 131 00:12:20.520 --> 00:12:24.360 have been like, before I was just really apprehensive, 132 00:12:24.360 --> 00:12:27.240 because I'm like, Oh, God, he's about to snap my head off, or 133 00:12:27.240 --> 00:12:29.920 he's not ready to have this conversation, or he felt anxiety 134 00:12:29.920 --> 00:12:33.240 about it. Like, we just been having those conversation. And 135 00:12:33.240 --> 00:12:36.760 guys also been giving me, like understanding about when to 136 00:12:36.760 --> 00:12:40.160 bring it to him and like the right timing so that like, he's 137 00:12:40.160 --> 00:12:43.720 in a better like he's in a good mental space. And so like, 138 00:12:43.720 --> 00:12:47.640 we've had those conversations, which, like two, two years ago, 139 00:12:47.640 --> 00:12:50.400 in my marriage, I'd be trying to have that conversation. And it 140 00:12:50.400 --> 00:12:55.640 was like, not good. And now is like, yes, we're like talking 141 00:12:55.640 --> 00:12:59.520 about the future together, building stuff together. So 142 00:12:59.760 --> 00:13:02.800 that's really a blessing, because that hadn't always been 143 00:13:02.800 --> 00:13:07.800 the case. So God is an amazing marriage counselor. And things 144 00:13:07.800 --> 00:13:10.560 like I'm all about real marriage counsel, like marriage counsel 145 00:13:10.560 --> 00:13:13.320 with a person, but it's like, I realized that it doesn't have to 146 00:13:13.320 --> 00:13:18.200 be just like, it doesn't have to come through a person or through 147 00:13:18.200 --> 00:13:22.040 a pre existing system. Like, I'm really understanding that, 148 00:13:22.040 --> 00:13:25.160 like, he can lead me to that, because that that person might 149 00:13:25.160 --> 00:13:28.800 be the answer that God wants to speak through a situation. But 150 00:13:28.800 --> 00:13:31.960 it doesn't always like God can speak directly to my husband 151 00:13:31.960 --> 00:13:35.880 about something or break down those strong, break down those, 152 00:13:36.440 --> 00:13:41.040 the stony heart or whatever. So it's great, because I realized 153 00:13:41.040 --> 00:13:45.160 that that can operate in that way in many facets of our life. 154 00:13:45.480 --> 00:13:51.680 And so I'm just recording those records. And it's good stuff. So 155 00:13:51.680 --> 00:13:53.200 those are my praise report. So 156 00:13:56.160 --> 00:14:01.160 that's awesome, Tammy. That's great. Yeah. Good for you. God 157 00:14:01.160 --> 00:14:03.640 is on the move. Yes, yes. 158 00:14:05.080 --> 00:14:08.040 Thanks for letting me talk through because that was like a 159 00:14:08.040 --> 00:14:10.640 whole little journey. I'm sorry. But yeah, 160 00:14:11.280 --> 00:14:14.760 thank you for sharing that journey. We I enjoyed it. I know 161 00:14:15.200 --> 00:14:18.160 Rita and Diana did too. It was awesome. Thank you. It's 162 00:14:18.160 --> 00:14:22.160 encouraging to and and I'll go next unless someone else wants 163 00:14:22.160 --> 00:14:28.400 to. Okay. Yeah, it's Yeah, that was good. Because you know, 164 00:14:28.400 --> 00:14:30.880 that's one thing you brought up at the end. I'll start with 165 00:14:30.880 --> 00:14:35.480 maybe is I feel like I haven't been. I know. I haven't been 166 00:14:36.200 --> 00:14:40.400 dreaming that much with God. And I think I might have brought 167 00:14:40.400 --> 00:14:43.160 that up before brought it up to Ashley. I'm not sure maybe to 168 00:14:43.160 --> 00:14:48.880 you all but you know, I've been asking him to open up those 169 00:14:48.880 --> 00:14:54.640 dreams again. And, and I'm not sure what all's blocked those 170 00:14:54.640 --> 00:15:00.120 dreams. But God knows. So. So yeah, so that's 171 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:05.520 one thing, you know, it's kind of like I've been just kind of staying, you know, feel like I've 172 00:15:05.520 --> 00:15:15.760 kind of been existing in the now and, and so not, not looking that far into the future. And so 173 00:15:15.760 --> 00:15:21.280 anyway, so I'm glad you said that, Tammy, that was encouraging. And, and with my, you know, 174 00:15:21.280 --> 00:15:25.840 and I've been, I feel like I have been more at rest and between, you know, the work I've been 175 00:15:25.840 --> 00:15:31.600 doing for quite a while. And then this I have felt more peaceful, more rest, which is great. 176 00:15:33.440 --> 00:15:39.440 And kind of more even driving along today. I, I got to go see Jesus revolution with two of my 177 00:15:39.440 --> 00:15:47.280 good, good friends. And, and then, then I went, how is it? It's good. It's good. I want to see it. 178 00:15:47.280 --> 00:15:50.880 It's worth seeing. I've already seen it twice. And I don't even go to movies, you guys. 179 00:15:51.840 --> 00:16:00.320 I saw it with Ken too Sunday. So then I went and got a massage today. And then I had real estate 180 00:16:00.320 --> 00:16:07.440 stuff too, but I felt myself just relaxed driving to this massage. Just as like, even putting off 181 00:16:07.440 --> 00:16:12.400 calls, people trying to call me and I'm like, no, I'm going to call him later. I'm just, 182 00:16:12.400 --> 00:16:18.480 I'm going to stay in this peaceful place. And because in the past I'd sometimes get anxious 183 00:16:18.560 --> 00:16:24.400 because, you know, too many things and calls. I get calls coming in from whatever real estate 184 00:16:24.400 --> 00:16:27.600 and different things. And I was like, no, I'll call him later. And it turned me into making 185 00:16:27.600 --> 00:16:35.600 some calls later tonight and doing, but, but it worked out. Okay. And it's kind of like, I can, 186 00:16:36.320 --> 00:16:42.640 I can kind of take control of that with God and I can stay in a peaceful place and more choosing, 187 00:16:42.640 --> 00:16:47.440 you know, choosing to know, I don't need to make those calls right now. I'm going to, 188 00:16:47.440 --> 00:16:53.200 I'm going to enjoy my, my time and go into my massage peacefully, you know, instead of 189 00:16:53.200 --> 00:16:56.800 rushed off the phone or whatever and getting off the phone or whatever. 190 00:16:56.800 --> 00:17:04.240 So that was just kind of a nice realization, you know, realizing more that, you know, we can, 191 00:17:05.440 --> 00:17:09.760 you know, we kind of, as it's saying in our lives or what we've made it, you know? And 192 00:17:11.440 --> 00:17:16.240 so that, that was kind of, that's, that's been kind of good is just, and real estate, 193 00:17:16.240 --> 00:17:23.440 you know, real estate's still been kind of as, as it can be a little challenging. However, 194 00:17:23.440 --> 00:17:28.160 I have a closing in the morning, praise the Lord. And I still believe it's going to happen. And, 195 00:17:29.440 --> 00:17:35.040 and I've had some difficult clients, but even Ken reminded me the other day, he said, you know, 196 00:17:35.040 --> 00:17:41.520 they needed you to pray for them. And because they were, they were really stressed in this client 197 00:17:41.520 --> 00:17:46.240 calling me three or four times a day because their closing was going to be late, but they were, 198 00:17:46.240 --> 00:17:50.800 he reminded me that they lost a son a few years ago. And they told me that when I met him, but 199 00:17:50.800 --> 00:17:55.600 he reminded me it was on Valentine's day. So this month had been extremely hard for his wife. 200 00:17:56.160 --> 00:18:02.320 So I just immediately prayed and just released peace. And Ken even just reminded me. And it 201 00:18:02.320 --> 00:18:08.320 reminded me when Ken said that, that many of my clients have been for a, I mean, they're all for 202 00:18:08.320 --> 00:18:14.800 a reason by, from God, but many of my clients, God's used me to pray for, you know, and speak a 203 00:18:14.800 --> 00:18:18.800 word to or whatever. I mean, my whole time I've been in real estate, that's what he's done. 204 00:18:19.520 --> 00:18:26.240 So it kind of brought me back to full circle, but Oh yeah, this may be difficult, but they needed me. 205 00:18:26.960 --> 00:18:31.600 These people needed me to help them. They, they were a four cell by owner that I called and they 206 00:18:31.600 --> 00:18:38.080 were struggling so bad. They called me back and said, we need your help. And it has been a difficult 207 00:18:38.080 --> 00:18:43.280 one and they've been a little difficult, but they needed, you know, they needed help with this 208 00:18:43.280 --> 00:18:47.200 and God, I was able to be a vessel. So we're going to see it through. And I'm 209 00:18:48.000 --> 00:18:53.840 and they're still gonna, they're still packing tonight and moving stuff. I just came out from 210 00:18:53.840 --> 00:19:00.640 there and got my real estate sign and stuff, but, but it brought me back to, yes, God has 211 00:19:00.640 --> 00:19:06.880 done this many times over my whole time in real estate. And, and so, so that's been good to kind 212 00:19:06.880 --> 00:19:13.520 of come back to that truth of that, you know, that it's not, it's always been about 213 00:19:14.400 --> 00:19:20.160 me being a blessing to them and they back to me, but it's, it's this reciprocal thing. So anyway, 214 00:19:20.160 --> 00:19:30.080 that was really good. And, and to, to see that again and know that, and also staying more at 215 00:19:30.080 --> 00:19:36.240 rest, you know, knowing God's, God's got me no matter, no matter what I'm starting to see more, 216 00:19:36.240 --> 00:19:40.320 you know, he's going to take care of me. I've had, I worried so much in the past, you guys, 217 00:19:41.200 --> 00:19:49.520 I really did. And so I'm really coming to a place with, like Ashley's taught us to choose God 218 00:19:49.520 --> 00:19:54.240 and I'm choosing good. I think I said this last week, I'm choosing someone else said it. I'm, 219 00:19:55.440 --> 00:19:59.840 I'm choosing to expect good, expect good, you know. 220 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:02.880 And even with my relationship with Ken, I don't know. 221 00:20:02.880 --> 00:20:05.200 I don't really know what else can happen. 222 00:20:05.200 --> 00:20:09.800 And we're not, you know, we're not totally living together. 223 00:20:10.440 --> 00:20:14.880 Cause he, when he moved out, when we split up last year, his kids bought a house and 224 00:20:14.880 --> 00:20:16.240 he kind of bought a house with them. 225 00:20:16.240 --> 00:20:21.320 So, um, and he just got a new job, which he started yesterday and he likes. 226 00:20:21.400 --> 00:20:23.600 Um, but he's also taking a part-time job. 227 00:20:23.600 --> 00:20:26.160 So he got a new full-time job and another job. 228 00:20:26.160 --> 00:20:28.520 He just told me tonight on the phone. 229 00:20:28.960 --> 00:20:30.200 He's going to take it too. 230 00:20:30.200 --> 00:20:34.440 So, you know, I just have to, I'm learning to just leave, leave that to the Lord, 231 00:20:34.680 --> 00:20:41.360 you know, and, uh, work on me and leave the relationship up to him too. 232 00:20:41.360 --> 00:20:44.760 But, you know, but we aren't really planning much together right now. 233 00:20:44.760 --> 00:20:45.400 You know what I mean? 234 00:20:45.400 --> 00:20:52.360 In a way, I'm just kind of trying to be at peace and, you know, you know, it's, 235 00:20:52.520 --> 00:20:56.680 it's, it's going to work out or it's not, I mean, it's not up to me though. 236 00:20:56.760 --> 00:20:57.680 You know what I'm saying? 237 00:20:58.000 --> 00:21:00.400 I don't have to try to figure it out or make it work. 238 00:21:00.840 --> 00:21:04.880 And that's the one big thing in the sessions I did with that ministry. 239 00:21:04.880 --> 00:21:08.000 I did, um, is found out that I had this thing. 240 00:21:08.000 --> 00:21:10.880 I don't know if I told you all this, but I had this thing and it was way back in 241 00:21:10.880 --> 00:21:16.280 my generational line that I felt like I kind of needed to be the linchpin, which 242 00:21:16.280 --> 00:21:22.280 means that's when I guess kind of holds everything together and, uh, and I don't 243 00:21:22.280 --> 00:21:26.680 know if I told you all that, but so I've let that go so I don't have to be the 244 00:21:26.680 --> 00:21:33.800 linchpin in ministry that I'm involved with or in, you know, real estate or in 245 00:21:33.800 --> 00:21:41.760 my relationship and so, you know, um, so that's freeing, so that's, that's freeing, 246 00:21:41.760 --> 00:21:46.400 you know, on the other hand, it's a little, you know, it's a little scary 247 00:21:46.400 --> 00:21:48.120 cause I don't, I don't know. 248 00:21:48.240 --> 00:21:51.360 I mean what the real, it's not scary, but it's a little like, okay, yeah, I can, 249 00:21:51.360 --> 00:21:55.400 maybe you can say the word a little scared to just, okay, the Lord, the Lord's got 250 00:21:55.400 --> 00:21:58.120 it all, you know, it's scary, but it's also good. 251 00:21:58.280 --> 00:21:59.080 You know what I mean? 252 00:21:59.720 --> 00:22:02.640 Um, but I, I, I'm also trying to find a balance in there. 253 00:22:02.640 --> 00:22:06.720 What I mean by scared, a balance of still of, of starting to set healthier 254 00:22:06.720 --> 00:22:11.120 boundaries too, and still stay connected. 255 00:22:11.760 --> 00:22:16.680 Cause I found out from that book that Danny silk book, keep your love on about 256 00:22:17.080 --> 00:22:21.280 my past had where I disconnected a lot, connected, disconnected some with my 257 00:22:21.280 --> 00:22:27.520 family and people and about, um, commute kingdom and communication, trying to 258 00:22:27.520 --> 00:22:29.760 learn that and, and have boundaries. 259 00:22:29.760 --> 00:22:35.160 So, you know, but like Tammy said, there's lots of help and God's the best teacher. 260 00:22:35.160 --> 00:22:41.880 Holy spirit's with us and, and, um, and also working on my health and, um, or, 261 00:22:41.880 --> 00:22:50.720 you know, you know, coming into truth and that and, and, and, um, so I'm just 262 00:22:50.760 --> 00:22:54.240 kind of trying to roll with it, you know, and roll with this relationship. 263 00:22:54.240 --> 00:23:00.760 Ken and I have been enjoying some time together and, um, and I don't have to, 264 00:23:01.760 --> 00:23:02.760 I don't have to figure it out. 265 00:23:02.920 --> 00:23:08.200 So that's probably one of my best takeaways is, is I'm not the 266 00:23:08.200 --> 00:23:11.840 linchpin anymore and I don't have to figure it all out. 267 00:23:12.280 --> 00:23:17.200 So, um, so yeah, yeah. 268 00:23:17.760 --> 00:23:24.360 And, and for that, I like that, Karen, I don't have to be the linchpin. 269 00:23:24.360 --> 00:23:24.920 I like that. 270 00:23:27.720 --> 00:23:28.400 Do you like that? 271 00:23:28.400 --> 00:23:28.960 So yeah. 272 00:23:29.600 --> 00:23:29.920 Yeah. 273 00:23:29.920 --> 00:23:33.440 And I'm going to dream again, but God, you guys, I'm going to start, I know. 274 00:23:33.600 --> 00:23:33.920 Yeah. 275 00:23:34.040 --> 00:23:37.960 So anyway, I'll, I'll stop there and let someone else, I'll, I'll tell 276 00:23:37.960 --> 00:23:40.160 you a dream again, uh, really quick. 277 00:23:40.320 --> 00:23:45.880 Um, if you don't mind Rita, since she's talking about dream again, um, when I 278 00:23:45.880 --> 00:23:50.920 was, uh, I got divorced, you know, I was married 20, almost 22 years and I 279 00:23:50.920 --> 00:23:54.880 got divorced and I went and moved with my mother because I really couldn't 280 00:23:54.880 --> 00:23:59.520 afford to live on my own and, uh, my mom lived by herself. 281 00:24:00.120 --> 00:24:04.080 So one day I was driving close to downtown here, San Antonio. 282 00:24:04.880 --> 00:24:09.840 And I heard the Holy spirit said, you know, park, like get off, right. 283 00:24:10.840 --> 00:24:16.800 And in this area that I now live in, and I said, what did I hear the Lord? 284 00:24:16.800 --> 00:24:17.080 Right. 285 00:24:17.080 --> 00:24:19.320 Did I hear, is it you God you're telling me? 286 00:24:19.320 --> 00:24:22.560 And I knew it was because no way I would have thought that. 287 00:24:22.560 --> 00:24:23.000 Right. 288 00:24:23.560 --> 00:24:29.760 So I parked my car and I get off and I just, I just felt like to walk around. 289 00:24:29.760 --> 00:24:36.320 So I start walking around this neighborhood and, uh, as I was walking, I saw this 290 00:24:36.360 --> 00:24:41.680 house, beautiful house, because this area is a historical district. 291 00:24:42.760 --> 00:24:45.760 These houses are from the 1800s, 1900s. 292 00:24:46.440 --> 00:24:49.200 And so I get off and I saw this beautiful house and I heard the 293 00:24:49.200 --> 00:24:50.720 Holy spirit say, dream again. 294 00:24:52.920 --> 00:24:59.480 And what was weird and weird, but is that I had forgotten that. 295 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:05.000 When I was a teenager, I used to walk this area. 296 00:25:05.000 --> 00:25:16.000 And I used to dream looking at these houses because I used to like to read novels, 18th century novels, I used to love those novels. 297 00:25:16.000 --> 00:25:29.000 And so I wouldn't imagine like I want to live there I would imagine like, how was it I would be thinking novelish, you know, how is it like, how are these houses in the end those days you know something like that. 298 00:25:29.000 --> 00:25:38.000 But anyway, God reminded me. So, I was walking around this neighborhood when I saw for rent sign. 299 00:25:38.000 --> 00:25:47.000 So I get off, and I'm like, Okay, I don't plan on moving, but I'm just going to see, call the number, call the lady. 300 00:25:47.000 --> 00:26:04.000 The landlord. She's, she comes over she goes let me show it to because I only live like two blocks away. She comes we talked for an hour, she, she doesn't know me only an hour have I been talking to her, and she says, it's yours if you want it. 301 00:26:04.000 --> 00:26:06.000 All she knows is my name. 302 00:26:06.000 --> 00:26:09.000 She knows nothing about me. 303 00:26:09.000 --> 00:26:13.000 And then, no way. 304 00:26:14.000 --> 00:26:26.000 And then, and then what is what is of the Lord, because when I got divorced my ex husband was supposed to pay all these bills with my in the divorce, where there was some that he didn't pay. 305 00:26:26.000 --> 00:26:29.000 So, it lowered my credit rating. 306 00:26:29.000 --> 00:26:37.000 So I thought, you know, how am I going to get a good apartment with you know my credit not being as good as it used to be. 307 00:26:37.000 --> 00:26:39.000 She didn't even. 308 00:26:40.000 --> 00:26:53.000 And what I couldn't believe when I moved in here, because these are like million dollar houses in this area. And I live in a little part, my building is like a 1900, it's like 100 years old. 309 00:26:53.000 --> 00:26:56.000 It's redone, right. 310 00:26:56.000 --> 00:27:08.000 But I walk around and literally I'm just like, you know, so, yeah, I mean, and I have been dreaming. He got me to dream again. 311 00:27:08.000 --> 00:27:18.000 Not in a way like, oh I want those houses not like that, just, but to, to just have a dream like to have something bigger than me. 312 00:27:18.000 --> 00:27:32.000 You know what I'm saying like, because I have, I was in a rut, I was, you know, after the divorce, I thought, you know, imagine that many years, and he wanted me to dream again. 313 00:27:33.000 --> 00:27:48.000 And just real quickly before we go to Rita, I just wanted to say that I was thinking because we only have a week left and I was thinking to myself, how just about these weeks, and just what God has done. 314 00:27:48.000 --> 00:27:59.000 And because I'm such a doer, a striver, like striver, that I'm, I'm never usually still enough. 315 00:27:59.000 --> 00:28:04.000 I don't know how to rest, like I've had two jobs, like I'm just doing, doing, doing, doing. 316 00:28:04.000 --> 00:28:09.000 But during this time, I've actually taken a physical rest. 317 00:28:09.000 --> 00:28:14.000 And since I had my fall, I had, I took a little bit of more rest. 318 00:28:15.000 --> 00:28:33.000 And God has really been speaking to me and it, a lot of things have come up to the surface like, I think I mentioned I had like grief and discouragement and disappointment, just things from my past. 319 00:28:33.000 --> 00:28:37.000 Had I not taken the time. 320 00:28:37.000 --> 00:28:41.000 Had I not rested, had I not been still. 321 00:28:41.000 --> 00:28:48.000 Those things would have been floating up for me to deal with, or for God to deal with me and God to do. 322 00:28:48.000 --> 00:29:02.000 And so, and like this past week it has been a lot of disappointment, a lot of disappointment, but it's, it's good because even in the disappointment and the discouragement that God is showing me that I had over certain things. 323 00:29:03.000 --> 00:29:24.000 He's still good, like he's still, you know, just with me like he's like I feel him like he's still here. He's like, Okay, we have to process these things but it's okay I'm with you, you know, and so, and if it had not been for this for Ashley and this group. 324 00:29:25.000 --> 00:29:38.000 And up to this level, like I don't, I don't think I would have been here. I would have not known what this kind of rest feels like I've never had it in my entire life. 325 00:29:38.000 --> 00:29:41.000 You know, at all. 326 00:29:41.000 --> 00:29:45.000 So yeah, amazing. 327 00:29:45.000 --> 00:29:49.000 It's amazing what God is doing. I could cry. 328 00:29:49.000 --> 00:29:53.000 I could cry. So, yeah. 329 00:29:53.000 --> 00:29:56.000 That's so good. 330 00:29:56.000 --> 00:29:59.000 Diana. Yeah. 331 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:05.280 She has a lot of freedom to but yeah, thank you for sharing your dream. It's very encouraging. Yeah 332 00:30:06.400 --> 00:30:09.600 And you're processing stuff with the lord. So I imagine you're crying a lot 333 00:30:10.640 --> 00:30:13.200 Diana, yeah, as it is i'm a cry baby, so 334 00:30:16.000 --> 00:30:19.440 I think I thought it was like hormones. I thought maybe it's my age 335 00:30:19.520 --> 00:30:22.640 Maybe it's the hormones, but i'm like no i've always been a weeper. So 336 00:30:22.640 --> 00:30:35.280 Yeah, i'm probably a weeper but i've been avoiding it so but thank you for yeah sharing that and 337 00:30:36.160 --> 00:30:38.160 Yeah, like ashley said I can 338 00:30:39.200 --> 00:30:42.720 Deal with her or stay stay where i'm at. And yeah 339 00:30:44.240 --> 00:30:46.240 Thanks for sharing 340 00:30:46.800 --> 00:30:50.640 Um, so for me i've just 341 00:30:51.520 --> 00:30:53.520 Tried to stop 342 00:30:53.840 --> 00:30:55.840 Working or you know chasing? 343 00:30:57.440 --> 00:31:02.880 The thing or the feeling or the experience with the lord and just um 344 00:31:04.080 --> 00:31:08.720 Try to see you know, just try to look for him, you know when i'm not too busy 345 00:31:08.720 --> 00:31:13.520 I notice like I work all day and then i'm like, oh my gosh, I forget again that 346 00:31:14.640 --> 00:31:19.760 You know jesus is here with me and we could have been doing this together. But um 347 00:31:21.520 --> 00:31:23.520 you know, but when I am 348 00:31:24.140 --> 00:31:26.560 Intentional about seeking him. I just feel like 349 00:31:29.680 --> 00:31:35.760 I guess beautiful or that he brings beauty to my life and he shows it. Um 350 00:31:38.000 --> 00:31:41.280 And he shows up a lot I feel like in nature or just when I 351 00:31:41.840 --> 00:31:47.920 Look, I just like oh, that's beautiful. I just accept it as a gift and even on my screen. I was like 352 00:31:48.640 --> 00:31:52.080 Lord I I was just there last last year 353 00:31:52.880 --> 00:31:55.600 You know, like, you know how they have those beautiful. Um 354 00:31:56.560 --> 00:31:58.560 You know screensavers. I was like 355 00:31:58.800 --> 00:32:03.520 I've been there and yeah, it was just a beautiful reminder that you know, he 356 00:32:05.680 --> 00:32:07.920 He takes me to places that i've you know 357 00:32:07.920 --> 00:32:15.200 I've never been and I guess that was something I did start doing was start dreaming because I never thought I would ever go anywhere 358 00:32:16.160 --> 00:32:22.480 Like especially growing up like traveling. We just always went to family's house or friend's house and 359 00:32:23.760 --> 00:32:26.960 or, you know just someplace and not to just 360 00:32:28.400 --> 00:32:30.000 um 361 00:32:30.000 --> 00:32:31.120 I guess 362 00:32:31.120 --> 00:32:37.680 Enjoy nature or just go out there and see what the world's like and not just go somewhere to do something 363 00:32:37.920 --> 00:32:40.480 um, I don't know if i'm explaining that well, but 364 00:32:41.200 --> 00:32:44.320 yeah, so just that picture reminded me of 365 00:32:45.840 --> 00:32:53.120 if I remember dreaming and you know, he's taken me to a lot of places that i've never like imagined I could go and 366 00:32:54.080 --> 00:32:56.080 yeah, and for you to say to 367 00:32:56.400 --> 00:33:00.720 Start dreaming again, like like everybody today. I just really felt like 368 00:33:01.760 --> 00:33:03.520 um 369 00:33:03.520 --> 00:33:09.520 What is it the connection, uh when y'all spoke I could really feel the presence of the lord and 370 00:33:10.880 --> 00:33:12.880 Yeah, I love that 371 00:33:12.880 --> 00:33:17.860 So, thank you all for sharing everything and yeah, it's very encouraging 372 00:33:21.120 --> 00:33:23.120 Thank you, I have to tell you rita 373 00:33:23.200 --> 00:33:24.800 Thank you for sharing 374 00:33:24.800 --> 00:33:26.960 Yes, the way you were sitting there earlier 375 00:33:27.520 --> 00:33:30.320 Your head was over to the left a little bit 376 00:33:30.800 --> 00:33:35.840 And I don't know what that is back there, but it looked like you've had a crayon on your head tonight. Oh 377 00:33:36.480 --> 00:33:37.920 the whole time 378 00:33:37.920 --> 00:33:39.920 the whole time 379 00:33:40.400 --> 00:33:42.480 It's like rita has a crayon on 380 00:33:43.600 --> 00:33:49.200 So I just wanted to share that you've got to put a crayon on your head. Yeah. Thank you 381 00:33:49.840 --> 00:33:51.280 your crowned one 382 00:33:51.280 --> 00:33:53.040 so yeah, and 383 00:33:53.040 --> 00:33:58.480 One quick thought came to me to rita when you said that was another thing I learned in some of the healing 384 00:33:58.480 --> 00:33:59.840 I was just doing 385 00:33:59.840 --> 00:34:01.340 right kind of 386 00:34:01.340 --> 00:34:05.360 Consecutively with this was one other thing that came up and I may have already said this but 387 00:34:06.160 --> 00:34:08.639 if I did maybe i'm supposed to say it again, but 388 00:34:09.440 --> 00:34:16.000 For you for somebody or for me too is that I had an expectancy of things not working out 389 00:34:17.679 --> 00:34:19.679 So that was something else I found out that 390 00:34:19.920 --> 00:34:25.840 because of past or I don't know if it was just my past or bloodline or whatever, but I kind of had an expectancy of 391 00:34:27.360 --> 00:34:28.400 of 392 00:34:28.400 --> 00:34:31.040 Not good of things just not working out. So 393 00:34:31.840 --> 00:34:33.440 If you expect that 394 00:34:33.440 --> 00:34:35.440 You probably create it, you know 395 00:34:36.400 --> 00:34:39.840 You co-create, you know, so this has been so good to 396 00:34:41.040 --> 00:34:46.719 even from the beginning to start out how we did choosing god and choosing god is good and 397 00:34:47.360 --> 00:34:54.159 You know and and then start just saying i'm expecting good and then getting free from some of those things that were holding me back 398 00:34:54.880 --> 00:34:56.480 so 399 00:34:56.480 --> 00:35:00.000 So yeah, we can you know, we can keep 400 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.880 keep moving forward. And thank you, Rita, for, for your share. 401 00:35:04.880 --> 00:35:07.960 That was I do feel like, like you said, we were all connected, 402 00:35:07.960 --> 00:35:13.240 very connected here. And, and I do feel God's presence too. It's 403 00:35:14.360 --> 00:35:19.400 it's a thank you. Thank you all. Thank you, Karen. Thank you. 404 00:35:19.680 --> 00:35:23.400 Thank you, God for helping us all dream again. Yeah. And go 405 00:35:23.400 --> 00:35:27.480 create with you, God. I mean, I kind of have an expectancy like 406 00:35:27.480 --> 00:35:32.880 I loved I love to see, you know, and pray for children to 407 00:35:32.880 --> 00:35:35.800 come out of bad, you know, bad situations. And I know 408 00:35:35.800 --> 00:35:39.360 trafficking is one thing that's on my heart a lot. But yeah, 409 00:35:39.360 --> 00:35:43.040 just to dream again, even, you know, about my life and about 410 00:35:43.060 --> 00:35:46.480 whatever God wants me to dream about. So thank you all for 411 00:35:46.480 --> 00:35:52.880 sharing tonight. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you, Karen. 412 00:35:53.880 --> 00:35:58.280 Hey, everyone loved hearing all of y'all's and y'all's updates 413 00:35:58.280 --> 00:36:02.800 and loved hearing the connection and I noticed Oh my word. Okay, 414 00:36:02.800 --> 00:36:05.920 it's a theme of dreaming tonight with the Lord. That's wonderful 415 00:36:05.920 --> 00:36:09.280 because it's believing. Remember, it's not just that, 416 00:36:09.320 --> 00:36:13.880 oh, you know, I like to dream. The root of that is, is set is 417 00:36:13.880 --> 00:36:17.360 choosing to believe God is good, choosing to believe he's more 418 00:36:17.360 --> 00:36:20.480 good than we've been believing that he was, that we actually 419 00:36:20.760 --> 00:36:24.040 that we actually can expect like you're talking about Karen that 420 00:36:24.040 --> 00:36:27.360 we can actually expect good things. Not sure God's the one 421 00:36:27.360 --> 00:36:29.720 who gets to choose what they look like God's one who gets to 422 00:36:29.720 --> 00:36:34.480 choose the outcome. And he fuels it. He provides for it. He he 423 00:36:34.480 --> 00:36:39.320 provides the energy for it. But, you know, we he he's always 424 00:36:39.320 --> 00:36:43.960 good. And he's love and everything moves toward in his 425 00:36:44.400 --> 00:36:47.960 everything in his efforts moves towards more love, more freedom, 426 00:36:47.960 --> 00:36:54.360 more openness, etc. And so anyway, that's exciting. Well, 427 00:36:54.360 --> 00:37:00.480 does anyone have? I don't know any questions or, or thoughts 428 00:37:00.480 --> 00:37:05.080 about anything that was said? I don't know that you're maybe 429 00:37:05.080 --> 00:37:08.720 wondering connections between certain things that were said 430 00:37:08.720 --> 00:37:12.920 and like, well, how do we then therefore do this? Or I'm 431 00:37:12.920 --> 00:37:15.720 assuming everyone understands what it means to do with what it 432 00:37:15.720 --> 00:37:18.280 is that y'all have all been talking about to do it and rest 433 00:37:18.280 --> 00:37:22.240 and, or and then like Diana said, I mean, remember that 434 00:37:22.240 --> 00:37:26.720 today is is the next to the last today is in the next to the last 435 00:37:26.720 --> 00:37:30.400 week of the rest intensive. And I want to make sure that 436 00:37:30.400 --> 00:37:36.320 everyone I do my best to make sure that everyone owns the 437 00:37:36.320 --> 00:37:42.240 understanding of what rest is to the point that you can own this 438 00:37:42.240 --> 00:37:47.200 for yourself, that we don't have to have talked about every 439 00:37:47.200 --> 00:37:52.400 example, every situation for that you can come into an 440 00:37:52.400 --> 00:37:56.320 unknown situation, you can come into one that we've not talked 441 00:37:56.320 --> 00:37:59.120 about at all and know, okay, this is how this is how I 442 00:37:59.120 --> 00:38:02.200 operate in rest in this in this area, or this is how I shift 443 00:38:02.200 --> 00:38:06.600 into rest. And then from that place of rest, I have access to 444 00:38:06.600 --> 00:38:09.120 obviously the Lord's heart, the Lord's will, the Lord's 445 00:38:09.120 --> 00:38:11.520 understanding, the spirit of wisdom, spirit of knowledge, 446 00:38:11.520 --> 00:38:14.360 spirit of understanding all the spirits of the seven spirits of 447 00:38:14.360 --> 00:38:17.960 God, and therefore from him, I can then know therefore what to 448 00:38:17.960 --> 00:38:24.440 do. So, but anyway, so so just thinking about not trying to 449 00:38:24.440 --> 00:38:26.560 like get everybody to think about Oh, yeah, we'll think 450 00:38:26.560 --> 00:38:30.880 about towards the end. But just just keep that in mind of like, 451 00:38:31.960 --> 00:38:38.280 of what questions do y'all have of how to continually own this 452 00:38:38.280 --> 00:38:42.240 and live this out? Does anyone know have anything that's been 453 00:38:42.240 --> 00:38:47.840 coming up? Maybe y'all are all good, but you got it. But is 454 00:38:47.840 --> 00:38:48.640 there anything? 455 00:38:49.040 --> 00:38:53.080 Well, you know, at the beginning, when I started this, I 456 00:38:53.080 --> 00:38:56.200 wanted I think I told you that I wanted like the striving to 457 00:38:56.200 --> 00:39:00.960 stop. And so when I heard you say in the video, just stop. He 458 00:39:00.960 --> 00:39:04.280 said something about like, just stop, you know, and I thought, 459 00:39:04.280 --> 00:39:08.840 well, that's the answer. I need to just stop, right. So for for 460 00:39:08.840 --> 00:39:13.840 the first few weeks, I wasn't such a major striver. Like I was 461 00:39:13.880 --> 00:39:17.320 I was raised in church. So yeah, and then I went to Christian 462 00:39:17.320 --> 00:39:26.880 school. So I mean, it was years upon years upon years of reading 463 00:39:26.880 --> 00:39:31.440 the Bible, praying and fasting and, you know, just just can't 464 00:39:31.480 --> 00:39:36.880 get holy enough and clean enough and pure enough. And of course, 465 00:39:36.920 --> 00:39:40.640 after my divorce, you know, I was left with so many things. 466 00:39:40.640 --> 00:39:45.600 But anyway, the point being is that I got into the striving 467 00:39:45.600 --> 00:39:50.600 again, when I went back and just fasting, fasting, praying, 468 00:39:50.600 --> 00:39:54.760 praying, and which is not a bad thing. But then when I 469 00:39:54.760 --> 00:40:00.000 encountered your on Facebook, and I just stopped like 470 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.580 I completely stopped my routine or what, 471 00:40:04.580 --> 00:40:06.640 call it what you will in the morning, 472 00:40:06.640 --> 00:40:09.560 getting up and reading my Bible and praying and doing that. 473 00:40:09.560 --> 00:40:13.800 I just said, you know what, God, if you're in the, 474 00:40:13.800 --> 00:40:16.940 if I can find you in the morning, I can find you at night. 475 00:40:16.940 --> 00:40:20.880 I'm gonna change it up to break up the monotony, you know? 476 00:40:20.880 --> 00:40:24.200 And I just completely stopped. 477 00:40:24.200 --> 00:40:26.120 And it was such a blessing 478 00:40:26.120 --> 00:40:29.060 because it took me out of the religious rut. 479 00:40:29.060 --> 00:40:34.060 So my, I say all that to say that, do you still struggle? 480 00:40:35.260 --> 00:40:39.860 Do you ever find yourself trying to go back 481 00:40:39.860 --> 00:40:43.660 to that religious, how do you completely break free 482 00:40:43.660 --> 00:40:46.460 of that religious thing? 483 00:40:46.460 --> 00:40:47.820 I don't even know what to call it. 484 00:40:47.820 --> 00:40:48.660 Yeah. 485 00:40:48.660 --> 00:40:50.220 Do you ever find yourself? 486 00:40:50.220 --> 00:40:52.100 Oh, heck yeah. 487 00:40:52.100 --> 00:40:54.620 I've married a husband who continually reminds me, 488 00:40:54.620 --> 00:40:56.780 Ashley, you remember what you teach, right? 489 00:40:56.820 --> 00:40:59.660 Okay, now's a really good time to apply it. 490 00:40:59.660 --> 00:41:01.000 Like, dang it. 491 00:41:03.540 --> 00:41:05.100 So, yes. 492 00:41:05.100 --> 00:41:09.620 So really what this is, is this is a lifestyle, 493 00:41:09.620 --> 00:41:11.140 you know, that I choose. 494 00:41:11.140 --> 00:41:15.220 I choose, okay, I choose to live the way Jesus lived. 495 00:41:15.220 --> 00:41:17.220 So that's how I'm living. 496 00:41:17.220 --> 00:41:21.360 And what Jesus did is he continually was in situations 497 00:41:21.360 --> 00:41:23.680 where he had to choose the father. 498 00:41:23.680 --> 00:41:26.260 Do I choose something else or do I choose the father? 499 00:41:26.540 --> 00:41:31.540 Do I choose to provide for and protect myself? 500 00:41:32.020 --> 00:41:35.980 Or do I choose to do what I see the father doing? 501 00:41:35.980 --> 00:41:38.300 And he always chose to do what the father did. 502 00:41:38.300 --> 00:41:41.140 So that's what I'm doing, is I'm always in that situation 503 00:41:41.140 --> 00:41:42.740 where I have to choose. 504 00:41:42.740 --> 00:41:45.900 And so that's living how Jesus lived. 505 00:41:45.900 --> 00:41:49.900 And so I'm learning how to live the rest of what he lived, 506 00:41:49.900 --> 00:41:53.740 which is to always make the choice towards the father 507 00:41:53.740 --> 00:41:56.060 as opposed to towards self-protection 508 00:41:56.820 --> 00:41:57.660 or self-provision or whatever. 509 00:41:57.660 --> 00:41:59.660 You know, striving, sweating, you know, 510 00:41:59.660 --> 00:42:01.340 working towards my own, 511 00:42:01.340 --> 00:42:06.340 working towards creating my own predictable outcome. 512 00:42:10.380 --> 00:42:14.620 And which technically we can't do, 513 00:42:14.620 --> 00:42:17.060 but you can get yourself, 514 00:42:17.060 --> 00:42:19.500 you've got a high enough, 515 00:42:19.500 --> 00:42:22.820 you've got a significant probability 516 00:42:22.820 --> 00:42:25.860 or a significant possibility of doing so 517 00:42:26.660 --> 00:42:28.180 by following the principles that God created, 518 00:42:28.180 --> 00:42:30.140 you know, that the kingdom of this world operates in, 519 00:42:30.140 --> 00:42:31.900 you know, you follow these business principles, 520 00:42:31.900 --> 00:42:35.060 you know, get you this result and you do that. 521 00:42:35.060 --> 00:42:38.580 But anyway, but obviously there's a higher reality than that 522 00:42:38.580 --> 00:42:40.420 and that's the principles of the kingdom of God. 523 00:42:40.420 --> 00:42:44.140 And that's the one that I choose to always default to, 524 00:42:44.140 --> 00:42:47.860 meaning like that I choose in general to always default to, 525 00:42:47.860 --> 00:42:50.340 meaning like, hey, that's my intention, 526 00:42:50.340 --> 00:42:52.940 but do I always end up doing that in every situation? 527 00:42:52.940 --> 00:42:53.780 No. 528 00:42:53.780 --> 00:42:55.620 And so, yeah, I obviously still struggle 529 00:42:56.380 --> 00:42:57.980 because like I was trying to say, 530 00:42:57.980 --> 00:43:01.060 trying to make it a point of earlier is I've chosen, 531 00:43:01.060 --> 00:43:03.620 this is the lifestyle that I choose, 532 00:43:03.620 --> 00:43:06.660 which is a lifestyle of overcoming. 533 00:43:06.660 --> 00:43:08.660 That's what Jesus did. 534 00:43:08.660 --> 00:43:10.860 It says that he learned obedience 535 00:43:10.860 --> 00:43:12.100 by the things that he suffered. 536 00:43:12.100 --> 00:43:14.180 He wasn't born like that. 537 00:43:14.180 --> 00:43:15.820 Now he never sinned, 538 00:43:15.820 --> 00:43:20.820 but he continually had to make a choice. 539 00:43:21.460 --> 00:43:22.420 He continually did. 540 00:43:22.420 --> 00:43:25.180 And every time he did, he overcame. 541 00:43:25.700 --> 00:43:27.580 And then he chose again, all right, 542 00:43:27.580 --> 00:43:28.700 I'm in this situation again, 543 00:43:28.700 --> 00:43:30.740 do I choose this or do I choose the father? 544 00:43:30.740 --> 00:43:32.100 He said, I choose the father. 545 00:43:32.100 --> 00:43:33.540 Who does God say that he is? 546 00:43:33.540 --> 00:43:35.500 Who does my father say that he is? 547 00:43:36.780 --> 00:43:38.780 To what degree does he say that he is that? 548 00:43:38.780 --> 00:43:39.900 Who does he say that I am? 549 00:43:39.900 --> 00:43:42.260 And to what degree does he say that I am that? 550 00:43:42.260 --> 00:43:47.260 And that always choosing God is what overcomes the flesh. 551 00:43:47.300 --> 00:43:52.220 And even Jesus went through the process of overcoming. 552 00:43:52.220 --> 00:43:54.180 So what it is that we're doing 553 00:43:54.180 --> 00:43:57.660 is we're aiming to live the way that Jesus did, 554 00:43:57.660 --> 00:44:01.500 which is to live the process of overcoming, 555 00:44:01.500 --> 00:44:03.980 not to cross one main threshold of, 556 00:44:03.980 --> 00:44:07.300 I was out, now I'm in, or whatever. 557 00:44:07.300 --> 00:44:08.620 That was salvation. 558 00:44:08.620 --> 00:44:11.060 And we're confusing it with salvation. 559 00:44:11.060 --> 00:44:12.540 So we've already done it. 560 00:44:12.540 --> 00:44:13.940 We've already crossed in. 561 00:44:13.940 --> 00:44:15.700 We've already crossed the threshold. 562 00:44:15.700 --> 00:44:18.180 So now it's the process of overcoming. 563 00:44:18.180 --> 00:44:22.660 Now it's the working out of our salvation. 564 00:44:22.660 --> 00:44:24.260 So we've already been saved. 565 00:44:24.260 --> 00:44:25.740 We already have the salvation, 566 00:44:25.740 --> 00:44:27.180 but now we're working it out. 567 00:44:27.180 --> 00:44:30.300 We're bringing it from the spirit down into our soul, 568 00:44:30.300 --> 00:44:33.660 down into our body so that every aspect of us 569 00:44:33.660 --> 00:44:38.260 is expressing the fact that we already have the salvation. 570 00:44:38.260 --> 00:44:39.780 We're not becoming saved. 571 00:44:39.780 --> 00:44:41.900 We're not becoming more and more saved. 572 00:44:41.900 --> 00:44:45.140 It's just working it out so that it actually gets, 573 00:44:45.140 --> 00:44:49.100 it's gone from the inside towards the outside. 574 00:44:49.100 --> 00:44:51.380 Okay, now you can see it in this realm, 575 00:44:51.380 --> 00:44:53.620 the realm of the soul, and pushing it further out. 576 00:44:53.620 --> 00:44:55.140 Okay, now you can see it in this realm, 577 00:44:55.140 --> 00:44:56.420 the realm of the body. 578 00:44:56.420 --> 00:44:58.220 So yes, I absolutely, 579 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:10.000 struggle every day, because I'm always given all kinds of wonderful opportunities, but 580 00:45:10.000 --> 00:45:16.880 what it is that I've chosen is that, okay, I'm going to follow my father. 581 00:45:16.880 --> 00:45:21.280 I'm going to have faith in my father, but what I have to learn is, God, what does it 582 00:45:21.280 --> 00:45:23.440 look like to see you? 583 00:45:23.440 --> 00:45:25.120 Where are you? 584 00:45:25.120 --> 00:45:26.120 What do you look like? 585 00:45:26.120 --> 00:45:27.120 What do you sound like? 586 00:45:27.200 --> 00:45:33.440 What does it look like to follow you in this particular situation? 587 00:45:33.440 --> 00:45:39.200 By situation, I don't necessarily mean in a particular life circumstance. 588 00:45:39.200 --> 00:45:45.680 I'm talking about in what's going on in my heart and what the external situation is triggering 589 00:45:45.680 --> 00:45:58.200 in me, Lord, mature me to see, to make sure that I am operating out of my union with you 590 00:45:58.200 --> 00:46:04.280 so that I operate out of always faith instead of self-preservation, self-protection or whatever, 591 00:46:04.280 --> 00:46:07.600 and then Lord, show me, how do you express that into the physical? 592 00:46:07.600 --> 00:46:12.960 So Lord, right now, I'm engaging with this other person, or Lord, right now, because 593 00:46:13.120 --> 00:46:17.200 we had the international rest intensive earlier today, and that's one of the things that we 594 00:46:17.200 --> 00:46:22.800 were talking about, so I'll get that uploaded, and that's one of the things that you'll see 595 00:46:22.800 --> 00:46:28.480 that we were talking about is, well, how do we engage with other people when we find ourselves 596 00:46:28.480 --> 00:46:29.280 in those situations? 597 00:46:29.280 --> 00:46:33.440 Or maybe it's about finances and we're finding ourselves in a particular financial situation. 598 00:46:33.440 --> 00:46:40.160 Okay, Lord, I have X bill due or whatever at such and such a time, at such and such a 599 00:46:40.160 --> 00:46:46.480 deadline, and Lord, I haven't seen the physical manifestation of your provision yet. 600 00:46:46.480 --> 00:46:54.160 What does it look like to have faith in you when you haven't promised me X amount of money? 601 00:46:54.160 --> 00:46:58.000 You just promised me that you are my provider. 602 00:46:59.120 --> 00:47:01.440 You didn't promise me that I'd meet the deadline. 603 00:47:02.160 --> 00:47:04.640 You promised that you're my provider. 604 00:47:04.800 --> 00:47:12.640 What does it look like, Lord, to trust in you as my provider and not be anxious about 605 00:47:12.640 --> 00:47:17.120 whether or not I'm going to see it manifested in a particular way? 606 00:47:17.120 --> 00:47:21.200 If I don't see it manifested in a particular way, what do I do? 607 00:47:21.200 --> 00:47:25.760 How do I handle the soul part of not being anxious, having faith in you to the point 608 00:47:25.760 --> 00:47:28.880 where I'm not anxious about the physical manifestation? 609 00:47:29.360 --> 00:47:36.000 And then, Lord, if I pass the deadline and I didn't see any physical manifestation, what 610 00:47:36.000 --> 00:47:46.560 do I then do to partner with you to help meet these obligations that I have? 611 00:47:46.560 --> 00:47:52.720 If you tell me I'm not to sweat for it, in other words, I'm not supposed to be anxious, 612 00:47:52.720 --> 00:47:54.640 stressed, work for an outcome. 613 00:47:55.360 --> 00:48:04.720 How do I partner with you to help physically manifest money or whatever without being anxious 614 00:48:04.720 --> 00:48:08.880 about it, without being stressed about what it could do to my reputation or to my credit 615 00:48:08.880 --> 00:48:10.240 or to my whatever? 616 00:48:10.240 --> 00:48:13.840 So what I'm talking you through are situations I've been in, I don't know how many times. 617 00:48:14.400 --> 00:48:22.400 So God has, the majority of the time, he has met me on or before the 11th hour. 618 00:48:22.400 --> 00:48:27.840 But there have been times where he's allowed the 11th hour to come and go and be very long 619 00:48:27.840 --> 00:48:28.160 gone. 620 00:48:29.120 --> 00:48:35.280 So I'm walking you through what I have to walk through with the Lord. 621 00:48:35.280 --> 00:48:39.680 It's like, Lord, how do I follow you? 622 00:48:39.680 --> 00:48:42.720 Who do I say that you are in this situation? 623 00:48:42.720 --> 00:48:48.480 How do I truly live at rest when everything did go to hell in a handbasket? 624 00:48:49.440 --> 00:48:50.480 Not, oh, it could. 625 00:48:50.480 --> 00:48:51.120 No, it did. 626 00:48:51.840 --> 00:48:56.400 Now, Lord, who do I say that you are and how, and now am I anxious? 627 00:48:56.400 --> 00:49:01.360 Now that it's happened, now that it's not a potential, now that it's here, who do I say 628 00:49:01.360 --> 00:49:02.080 that you are? 629 00:49:02.080 --> 00:49:05.360 And now, Lord, how do I act like your son? 630 00:49:05.360 --> 00:49:08.560 If you were in my situation, what would you do? 631 00:49:09.360 --> 00:49:10.720 You know, how would you feel? 632 00:49:10.720 --> 00:49:12.240 How would I have faith in you? 633 00:49:12.240 --> 00:49:14.080 You know, what do I believe about you? 634 00:49:14.080 --> 00:49:17.200 And then, and then, therefore, Lord, all of that can be good. 635 00:49:17.200 --> 00:49:19.760 And I can, I can have faith in you. 636 00:49:19.760 --> 00:49:26.640 Now, how do I partner with you in the physical sense, you know, to, I don't know, to, to 637 00:49:26.640 --> 00:49:29.200 meet this financial obligation or whatever. 638 00:49:29.200 --> 00:49:31.200 And I'm just giving that as an example. 639 00:49:31.200 --> 00:49:33.840 So yeah, I absolutely, I absolutely do. 640 00:49:33.840 --> 00:49:40.240 But what it is that I choose is, and this is something I was talking to somebody about. 641 00:49:40.240 --> 00:49:41.040 I don't remember who. 642 00:49:41.040 --> 00:49:42.800 It was in one of the, it was one of the groups. 643 00:49:42.800 --> 00:49:45.520 Maybe it was the last Fireside Chat we had, I don't remember. 644 00:49:45.520 --> 00:49:49.680 But I said, what's important is that we don't choose rest. 645 00:49:49.680 --> 00:49:50.960 What we choose is God. 646 00:49:51.600 --> 00:49:53.040 Rest is the byproduct. 647 00:49:53.920 --> 00:49:56.560 And so we have to choose God. 648 00:49:57.440 --> 00:49:59.840 And then from that, we'll receive the rest. 649 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:08.000 as opposed to chasing the manifestation, which is rest, so to speak. 650 00:50:08.000 --> 00:50:15.000 The manifestation or the place where all the benefits, what we want to choose is God. 651 00:50:15.000 --> 00:50:19.000 And so that's what sustains me through it all. 652 00:50:19.000 --> 00:50:24.000 So when I say that what it is that I've chosen and how is it that I live, 653 00:50:24.000 --> 00:50:29.000 I live always choosing God, not choosing rest. 654 00:50:30.000 --> 00:50:33.000 Rest, remember, is simply my union with him. 655 00:50:33.000 --> 00:50:35.000 It's the place of my union. 656 00:50:35.000 --> 00:50:44.000 So in order to actually get to that, I actually have to choose that intimacy. 657 00:50:44.000 --> 00:50:47.000 In other words, that being. 658 00:50:47.000 --> 00:50:50.000 And so anyway, is that helpful? 659 00:50:52.000 --> 00:50:54.000 Yes, thank you. Very helpful. Yes. 660 00:50:54.000 --> 00:50:56.000 Okay, good. 661 00:50:57.000 --> 00:51:04.000 So anyway, like I said, if you if we focus on choosing God and I'm not trying to say that, oh, rest, 662 00:51:04.000 --> 00:51:12.000 you know, trying to devalue rest or something, I'm saying that's how you that's how you sustain this is. 663 00:51:12.000 --> 00:51:16.000 It's not a it's not a oh, this is just nice during the rest intensive. 664 00:51:16.000 --> 00:51:20.000 Now, how do I keep it or how to because a lot of people, you know, get very. 665 00:51:21.000 --> 00:51:32.000 Well, I don't want to say everyone, but I would say at least most people get concerned about how do I maintain or what will happen after the program is over? 666 00:51:32.000 --> 00:51:40.000 You know, we just remember because a lot of times, you know, they have this they have this feeling of and I'm not saying this is you. 667 00:51:40.000 --> 00:51:47.000 This is just this what you're talking about prompts me to mention this because this is this is something that other people bring up is. 668 00:51:48.000 --> 00:52:05.000 They there can they get a sense of security in the community or in me, you know, in other words, having a person to bounce things off of or be able to articulate maybe a milestone that they're going through or whatever. 669 00:52:05.000 --> 00:52:08.000 So just what it is that you're doing it. 670 00:52:09.000 --> 00:52:15.000 You know what it is that we're doing is we're choosing that God is that being that is giving us that security. 671 00:52:15.000 --> 00:52:20.000 In other words, he is he's not a he's not a concept. 672 00:52:20.000 --> 00:52:22.000 He's that he's the relationship. 673 00:52:22.000 --> 00:52:35.000 He's the connection with something outside of ourselves with a living being outside of ourselves that will that we continue to do this with. 674 00:52:35.000 --> 00:52:38.000 He's the community that we keep doing it with. 675 00:52:38.000 --> 00:52:40.000 So that's what keeps me going. 676 00:52:40.000 --> 00:52:44.000 It's not the rest that I keep pursuing. 677 00:52:44.000 --> 00:52:46.000 Like I said, it's the byproduct. 678 00:52:46.000 --> 00:52:54.000 I bet it's something if I if I worded as rest that more people can relate to and understand but really once people get a rest intensive they understand. 679 00:52:55.000 --> 00:53:06.000 Oh, so what we're really talking about is giving up everything giving up our lifestyle giving up everything that is that we've been holding on to and choosing God instead and when we do that what happens is we're in this place of rest. 680 00:53:07.000 --> 00:53:30.000 So if you just choose God that's a stabilizing thing that whole that you call on to no matter what the ways the circumstances and situations come look like as opposed to always looking for rest or always being concerned that you're shifting out of rest and always trying to get back in. 681 00:53:31.000 --> 00:53:48.000 And if you do that, then that can feel like they're you've traded these old principles for of like oh well I used to do this in order to get this now though I know better and I'm more spiritual and I now know instead I need to be pursuing this in order to get rest. 682 00:53:48.000 --> 00:53:56.000 We're not trading what we're doing is we're releasing everything it is that we did and we felt obligated to do and now we're just choosing God. 683 00:53:57.000 --> 00:54:07.000 And whatever it is Lord I just choose to have faith that you are who you say you are to the degree you say you are that and that I am who you say that I am to the degree you say I am that and that's it period. 684 00:54:07.000 --> 00:54:24.000 And that like I said is will keep you through this will keep you in this lifestyle, as opposed to trading in oh I used to follow all these rules now I'm just always trying to shift into rest. 685 00:54:25.000 --> 00:54:46.000 The whole shifting into resting is just a way that I phrase it because it's easier for people who are doers to be able to grasp that concept, as opposed to giving up doing in order and choosing God, because they're like that is like saying okay trade yellow for an apple. 686 00:54:46.000 --> 00:54:59.000 It's like, I don't understand, you can trade people understand okay trade yellow for orange or trade apple for for a banana, but what they don't understand is no trade yellow for. 687 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.520 an airplane. It's like that that doesn't compute because in their mind there's no connection, 688 00:55:05.520 --> 00:55:10.560 but really that's what it is that we're having to do is we're having to choose something totally 689 00:55:10.560 --> 00:55:18.480 other because God isn't a thing we can do. He's not a he's not a even a principle we can follow. 690 00:55:18.480 --> 00:55:24.400 It's not a formula that we trade our old formulas or old principles or rules for and instead we 691 00:55:24.400 --> 00:55:31.520 choose well how do we do God like he does God you know how do we do stuff like that it's no you're 692 00:55:31.520 --> 00:55:39.680 choosing a being that you that you that you get to live your life by flowing in and out of him 693 00:55:40.720 --> 00:55:44.880 by in and out I don't mean like you're you're popping out of him you're popping in of him 694 00:55:44.880 --> 00:55:49.520 into him I'm talking about you're in him and you're flowing you're flowing through him and 695 00:55:49.520 --> 00:55:56.080 he's flowing through you and then out of that state of being you start you start expressing 696 00:55:56.080 --> 00:56:01.200 yourself and that expressing in the in the not in the principles of the kingdom of God 697 00:56:01.760 --> 00:56:07.200 phrase but the principles the king of the world phrase is called doing there's no such thing as 698 00:56:07.200 --> 00:56:12.080 doing in the kingdom of God that's just the only it's it's it's like the kingdom of God doesn't 699 00:56:12.080 --> 00:56:17.360 have that word and it speaks Greek but if you have to translate Greek into English which is 700 00:56:17.360 --> 00:56:24.080 the kingdom of this of this world well then you would call it doing but technically that word 701 00:56:24.080 --> 00:56:30.480 doesn't exist over here you know so anyway I know that that was a lot but is that helpful okay good 702 00:56:31.200 --> 00:56:37.040 good but the reason I tell you that is that is sustainable the other isn't sustainable someone 703 00:56:37.040 --> 00:56:41.680 already was talking to us um I think it was Renata she was mentioning it in a previous 704 00:56:41.680 --> 00:56:47.280 rest group I believe last week about her struggle and so I had talked to I had um I'd mentioned that 705 00:56:47.280 --> 00:56:51.920 to her hoping it would be helpful that if you stop trying because she was saying you know it's 706 00:56:51.920 --> 00:56:57.200 interesting she said if I'm not careful she said I find shifting into rest now the hard work and 707 00:56:57.200 --> 00:57:02.800 the effort and strife and the sweat that I need to put into things and I said yeah you said it's 708 00:57:02.800 --> 00:57:10.800 helpful if you stop because that that's exhausting I said so it's helpful if you stop thinking about 709 00:57:10.880 --> 00:57:17.440 always trying to shift into rest and all you're doing is you're choosing God but but see now 710 00:57:17.440 --> 00:57:23.360 y'all can understand that see at the beginning it's hard for me to explain from where we went 711 00:57:23.360 --> 00:57:27.920 as so performance driven and so doing and the formula and whatever and say oh no just choose 712 00:57:27.920 --> 00:57:32.800 a being and we're like okay what again that's whole yellow to apple thing it's like hey there's 713 00:57:32.800 --> 00:57:37.360 no comparison so how can you say like go with yellow and choose apple those are two different 714 00:57:37.360 --> 00:57:43.680 categories of things so what I do is kind of like a stepping stone as I say hey instead of doing this 715 00:57:43.680 --> 00:57:48.640 shift into rest you know and so it's like okay I got that a little bit better bit better but if 716 00:57:48.640 --> 00:57:54.320 you grab a hold of shifting into rest is the new thing to do it's not sustainable for the same 717 00:57:54.320 --> 00:58:00.240 reason that the other wasn't we still try to compute it as something to do and we can't do 718 00:58:00.240 --> 00:58:07.200 anymore we have to be and the only way that we can be is to choose being a relationship you know 719 00:58:07.200 --> 00:58:12.640 choose a being and have the relationship with that being assuming that's a very long explanation 720 00:58:12.640 --> 00:58:20.480 there you go I'll probably like talk that into some little teaching somewhere just like okay 721 00:58:20.480 --> 00:58:30.640 let's start good hopefully that'll be helpful all right so it is nine o'clock but does anyone have 722 00:58:30.640 --> 00:58:35.680 I always I always open it up for like one one more question if anyone has anything does anyone 723 00:58:35.680 --> 00:58:42.320 have anything before we go I always like to open it up are you shaking your head no she's she 724 00:58:42.320 --> 00:58:47.840 understands she can teach the class now next next rest intensive read is teaching I nominate Rita 725 00:58:49.360 --> 00:58:53.680 that was helpful though Ashley I think Rita I think Rita's holding back 726 00:58:54.560 --> 00:59:00.560 I know I know sometimes I hear her response to people I'm like people listen to Rita 727 00:59:01.120 --> 00:59:11.760 yeah that was a good that's probably should be the closing of every rest group is what you said 728 00:59:11.760 --> 00:59:18.400 because I was like yes Renata that was that's exactly what I was feeling but didn't know that 729 00:59:18.400 --> 00:59:24.720 was happening that I was trying to shift and not choose the being so yeah I needed it yeah 730 00:59:24.880 --> 00:59:30.640 good I'm glad it was helpful okay so again feedback like that lets me know okay how to 731 00:59:30.640 --> 00:59:37.840 how to better explain this earlier in the rest for other people I'm always learning I'm always 732 00:59:37.840 --> 00:59:43.120 learning every rest intensive I'm learning how to how to explain things better and more succinctly 733 00:59:43.120 --> 00:59:48.240 it's so much better now that you know that it used to be so anyway because I'm always trying 734 00:59:48.240 --> 00:59:55.680 to learn and like make things a little more concise and so which interestingly I end up not 735 00:59:55.680 --> 00:59:59.840 necessarily I do make things more concise but that what that kind of means is that I 736 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.640 then jam pack more and more. 737 01:00:03.900 --> 01:00:07.560 I don't want to say more information, but kind of like more information into it. 738 01:00:07.560 --> 01:00:12.000 Like for instance, a lot of times what I end up talking about these days is in 739 01:00:12.000 --> 01:00:15.120 addition to all of the other stuff, I've started talking about stuff about like 740 01:00:15.120 --> 01:00:18.880 the importance of like choosing yourself or the important and owning oneself 741 01:00:18.880 --> 01:00:20.860 or losing weight and rest or whatever. 742 01:00:20.860 --> 01:00:24.960 So that's what ends up filling up the rest intensive as I become more and more 743 01:00:24.960 --> 01:00:31.320 concise, I end up being able to touch on more subjects, like, kind of like expand. 744 01:00:31.320 --> 01:00:34.200 If anyone's ever played chicken foot and dominoes, it's like chicken foot. 745 01:00:34.520 --> 01:00:37.400 It's like, okay, well now you can make this branch and you know, you can include 746 01:00:37.400 --> 01:00:40.480 that in there's enough time to include this branch in anyway. 747 01:00:41.840 --> 01:00:42.340 All right. 748 01:00:42.340 --> 01:00:44.320 I didn't know, but y'all, I don't like chicken foot. 749 01:00:44.580 --> 01:00:46.600 I don't know what my deal is. 750 01:00:46.800 --> 01:00:51.000 I don't know if I got burned out on it, but my family loved playing chicken foot. 751 01:00:51.000 --> 01:00:54.120 They got on this kick and I'm like, I don't ever want to play chicken foot again. 752 01:00:55.240 --> 01:00:56.240 I don't know what my deal is. 753 01:00:56.240 --> 01:00:57.080 I don't know why. 754 01:00:57.720 --> 01:00:59.800 It seems like something I'd like, but it's not. 755 01:01:01.880 --> 01:01:04.920 So anyway, total side note, nobody needed to know that. 756 01:01:05.040 --> 01:01:05.760 It's very negative. 757 01:01:08.520 --> 01:01:09.280 Okay. 758 01:01:09.440 --> 01:01:10.040 All right. 759 01:01:10.080 --> 01:01:14.320 Well, I will talk to y'all later then let's see tonight is Tuesday. 760 01:01:14.320 --> 01:01:16.080 So I will see y'all Thursday night. 761 01:01:16.760 --> 01:01:18.040 I hope y'all have a good one. 762 01:01:18.120 --> 01:01:19.080 Thank you. 763 01:01:19.240 --> 01:01:19.640 Thank you. 764 01:01:20.920 --> 01:01:22.440 Oh, sorry. 765 01:01:23.360 --> 01:01:23.680 Sorry. 766 01:01:23.680 --> 01:01:27.120 I forgot about a couple of things to let y'all know about. 767 01:01:27.120 --> 01:01:29.480 First of all, I've tried to update several things. 768 01:01:29.480 --> 01:01:32.480 So all of the fireside chats are up to date. 769 01:01:32.800 --> 01:01:35.040 I'm trying to get the rest groups posted there. 770 01:01:35.120 --> 01:01:37.640 I was having some trouble doing some uploads this afternoon. 771 01:01:37.640 --> 01:01:40.160 So some of them aren't posted, but I'll try to finish getting 772 01:01:40.160 --> 01:01:41.720 the rest groups all caught up. 773 01:01:42.360 --> 01:01:46.600 And now that I'm in one place, my husband got, got his internet today. 774 01:01:46.600 --> 01:01:48.120 Today's our first day with internet. 775 01:01:48.120 --> 01:01:48.840 I'm so excited. 776 01:01:49.400 --> 01:01:54.840 Um, and Dan, um, and then I also, Tammy, I had posted the ultimate choice that 777 01:01:54.880 --> 01:01:59.680 we had talked about on Sunday or Thursday, whenever that was, I've got, 778 01:01:59.680 --> 01:02:04.000 it's an article, it's just this write up and it's posted now in the rest 779 01:02:04.280 --> 01:02:06.240 retreat and supportive teachings. 780 01:02:06.880 --> 01:02:12.040 And then the last thing is y'all have, um, y'all all have transformation 781 01:02:12.040 --> 01:02:15.560 sessions, and I think a few of you also have personal ministry sessions. 782 01:02:16.160 --> 01:02:20.000 Um, I'm opening it up for, uh, I think transformation sessions 783 01:02:20.000 --> 01:02:21.320 first for y'all to schedule them. 784 01:02:21.560 --> 01:02:25.600 So I will let y'all know when the Facebook messenger chat, when, um, I 785 01:02:25.600 --> 01:02:30.520 get that link posted for y'all to go into the calendar and pick a convenient time. 786 01:02:30.520 --> 01:02:32.680 So anyway, those are my updates. 787 01:02:32.680 --> 01:02:34.520 So now I will officially let y'all go. 788 01:02:34.720 --> 01:02:35.960 I hope y'all have a good night. 789 01:02:37.600 --> 01:02:38.080 Bye.