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I mute myself. And I know Jill's going to tell me to record this.

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Jill Wolf.

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There she is.

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There we go. Got it.

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We are here. You are so welcome. So that's gonna be the link we

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always use. So when God opens our calendar to show us where we

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are going to be meeting.

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Is anyone else like heart? Is anyone else's heart palpitating?

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I'm like panting for what God is going to do. So, um, so whenever

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that is, you could just take this link and put it in your

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calendar. And but what would we what would we what would be

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pretty neat? We'll open in prayer and then I love like, you

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know, a couple of you guys know each other. But not you know, I

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don't think anyone here knows everyone. I don't think so.

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So, um, so we'll make some introductions. And let me just

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pray. And and you know what, I'll pause when I finish

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praying in case God's got a prayer on your lips that needs

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to be released for the Sweet Secret Sisters. And oh, yeah,

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we're just waiting on Devin. Hang on one sec.

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I mean, it's a miracle. We're all here. So it is possible,

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right? Okay.

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All right, Jill. Jill, are you running Facebook ads to your

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challenge?

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Jill Wolf. Jill? Yes. Not this one. Okay. Organic. Yeah. But I

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will in the future. Just not now.

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That's gotten to be a whole nother animal, hasn't it? Like

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it's, it's really got to there's just, we're kind of in

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transition on how, okay, how do we, how do we Lord, how do we

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communicate with the people who should hear, even if it's just a

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seed, even if it's just an encouragement to know that

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something like this does exist, there is help. There is help.

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And actually, the two Jill's what you guys don't know about

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each other is Jill Cook is a children's book writer as well.

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And Jill Wolf is too and helps people do that. Isn't that cool?

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So there's just lots of lots of amazing talent here. So okay, I

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sent a note out to sweet, sweet, awesome Devin if you don't know

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her. It's in our name. Yeah. Jack and Jill. Okay, so again,

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I'll just start to pray. And then if there's a prayer on your

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heart, please, please feel free to jump in or a word to be

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released or a question to ask the Lord. Thank you so much,

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Holy Spirit for hovering over this time. Like, like a deeply

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attentive wife, knowing the great heart and honor of the

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potential in her husband and what he wants to do. And I pray

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you make this your womb. To birth your son ever more

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profoundly.

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And you

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your spirit, the spirit of the bride in us. We are ready to

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have you make us wise virgins. We are ready to say as Mary be

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it done unto us according to your word. It is your word that

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you have hidden the sweet secrets of success and they are

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sweet. They're not bitter. They're not harsh or hard.

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They're not out of reach. They're not. They're not tricks

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or hoops. They're so sweet. You lived them, Jesus. You know

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them. And you shared them and you share them still. And we

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want to say be it done unto us according to your word. And I

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pray for each of your remarkable daughters that are called here

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to this holy ground to draw so near to your fire that there's a

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burning within us, a deep burning that touches the

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longings we can't reach. The hunger, the thirst, those

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frustrations that know there's so much more. And we want to

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meet that fourth man in the fire. We want to sit with you

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to see you face to face, to hear your voice in every fiber of our

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beings, to know what you want, and to partner, to come

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together, to be transformed. I just thank you. You've got a

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plan and we say, Yes, Lord. Bless Jill. Bless Jill. Bless

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Ingrid. Bless Carrie. Bless Karen. Bless Devon. Bless Betsy,

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my mom. I know she'll join us at times. Bless Jenny Pitts. Bless

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anyone else you're wanting to come. And I pray this in Jesus

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name. Amen.

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Just hearing that song. Welcome Holy Spirit. We are in your

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presence. Fill us with your power. Live inside of me.

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You're the living water. The ever flowing fountain. Comforter

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and counselor. Take complete control. Welcome Holy Spirit.

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We are in your presence. Fill us with your power. Live inside of

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me.

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Well, y'all, you need to unmute, you need to unmute, just be here with me, because I'm

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not, it's going to be different than a lot of the stuff I've, I've done before.

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Um, where yes, I'll be teaching, but I'm asking the Lord, as I was just explaining to Jenny,

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and actually, as Jill and I were talking about the other day,

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is to have the Lord just like encapsulate in a laser focus what he's bringing to life. And

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instead of me explaining the revelation I'm seeing, bringing us into encounter with that word,

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with the living word, that he's communicating right to your heart, right to your soul,

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right even to your body. I'm, I'm believing for healing in absolutely every level,

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and liberty in every level of our lives. I, I think when Mary found Jesus's feet,

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it didn't matter what anybody else said.

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It didn't matter the sister that was entitled to her didn't matter. Whatever the men were that

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caused those other religious people to say to Jesus, if he knew what sort of woman she was,

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when she was anointing his feet, none of them had her attention when he had her attention

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she had found the one thing. And no one could take it from her.

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And I don't know about you guys, you gals, you women, I'm sorry for saying that. I try to correct

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myself, you guys. And, but he's just been taking me so much deeper before heading into this time

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and space with him, into such a profound awareness of myself,

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into also my need for the antidote to myself, which is him. Meet with me, I'm the antidote to

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self. None of my ideas or purposes have any room for self. Then he, you know, is explaining to me

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and why rest is so vital. And how vulnerable also I'd been to, did God really say,

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you know, and whatever it was a big one, did God really say that death and life is in the power

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of the tongue and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof? Because God knows, right?

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God knows that, you know, they're acting like idiots and they need to hear it. Or God knows

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you're hurting and they need to hear it. Or God knows you need this, you know, just like how many

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times did God really say, and God knows. And he just brought me like how many times. Hey, Devin.

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Hello. I'm so sorry. I didn't realize I wasn't not on mute. I'm listening.

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Hi. So glad you're here. Okay. We are all in the house. We are all in the house. I got to take,

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okay. Well, when Devin, when you can get on the screen, we'll take a, a family photo and,

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and so anyway, I'd love to hear sort of what, what, what God's bringing you through,

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what things have been being highlighted in you as we approach this time, even this morning,

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just how many times I have read Psalm 22. And he's been talking to me lately, Psalm 22,

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Psalm 23, Psalm 34. And, and this morning when I just went to read verse one again of Psalm 22,

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my God, my God,

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Why have you forsaken me?

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And I saw that Jesus had to go there

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because we've all been there.

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The deep pits of disappointment, right?

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Anguish, isolation, sense of failure, broken dreams,

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unanswered prayers.

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So there are so many places he's going to take us.

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You know, and of course the end, I mean, Psalm 22, y'all.

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Like, I just think what I, my life would be amazing

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if all I could do is be in his word.

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I mean, but doesn't he finish the Psalm

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with it is finished, you know?

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It's his walk, it's what he's accomplished.

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And so that's, again, whatever's coming to the surface,

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whatever's being revealed in us

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or these needs being exposed or these hindrances heretofore,

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he wants us to be assured that he hears those deep cries,

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even in our, even though we worship, even though we work,

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even though we progress, even though we're excited,

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even though we rejoice, he hears the, my God, my God,

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but why have you forsaken me?

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I cry out and you hear not.

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And I just think, again, he's showing us,

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I know, I've been there.

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And he's not only been there for us,

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he's been there before us.

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So he's already in those places and wants to meet us there.

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Sweet secrets of success, those are his words.

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So he means to bring success.

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So I'd love for you, whoever wants to start,

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to go ahead and introduce yourself

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and just share what are your anticipations?

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What are your questions?

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Where do you live?

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Cause not everyone knows.

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And I could just go around,

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Jill Cook, you're in the top corner.

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So I could just start with Jill Cook in the top corner.

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Hey, so I am a retired nurse and I live on an acreage

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in Saskatchewan, which I think Karen is from Saskatchewan too.

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Amazing.

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And we have a little Christian retreat here.

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We just offer for whoever of the Lord sends our way.

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It's not used very much, but it's available

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to who he sends.

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And I have a son who lives close to us.

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And when your granddaughter,

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we've just come back from Australia

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with see our eight month old grandson.

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We were there for six weeks

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and I met Hillary through 100X.

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She was my coach, written a couple of children's books.

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It hasn't gone well,

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but Mother Teresa gave me a quote last week

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that said that God does not ask you to be successful.

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He asks you to be faithful.

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And that really helped me a whole lot.

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So anyway, so I'm here with my husband and I live here

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and yeah, I think my hopes and aspirations are,

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yeah, he's been calling me to be quiet for so long,

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to be near him, to be still.

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My biggest temptation and my biggest sin

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is to go running off in a different direction,

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even just to help someone who I shouldn't be,

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you know, just off the path.

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And I'm looking forward to quiet learning,

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to be quiet with him and hearing his voice louder.

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Being with you all.

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I wanna write that down.

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That's so good, Jill.

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And, you know, I just felt like the Lord smile at you.

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Actually, I see him winking.

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And just, I think if anyone were to assess

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whether or not Jesus was successful, right?

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Right, while he was doing,

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while he was about his father's business,

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I think there were likely a lot of opinions about that.

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thing, like, you know, even his own followers, obviously. And I,

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I have observed you, I always consider you immensely

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successful. And, you know, because not only have I seen

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this work being done in you, as you've walked through this

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process, but your degree of faithfulness, and your heart for

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the people that could be touched, even the few that are

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keeps you steadfast. And if that's enough for you, that

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surely is enough for God. I'm so glad he cares for the one. And

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so I just want to tell you, there's nothing. There's

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nothing. I mean, people hid their faces from Jesus. And

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there's nothing that would cause someone to hide their face from

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you, in my estimation, Jill. You're a treasure. Okay,

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interestingly, Jill Wolf, you are next.

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Hello, I'm Jill Wolf. I'm in Vegas, Nevada, and I'm married,

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have one son who's six, who in case you see things throwing

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across behind me, or children jumping, that's him. And I don't

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remember what else you're supposed to share, except that

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what we're looking, what we're hoping and, and waiting on him

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for in this season, or in this Sweet Secrets. Well, I was, as

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Hillary's kind of had us position ourselves at his feet,

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listening, I realized, I'm more that four and five and six year

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old kid that's asking a million questions. Well, how come? Well,

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why is this? Why is the sky blue? What you do here? And what

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is the Holy Spirit? And what do you mean by spiritual language?

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And what do you mean? And so even Hillary can attest to our

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conversations, all I'm doing is asking questions, questions,

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questions. And as a mother of a little one who's asking

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questions all the time, there are times that I kind of roll my

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eyes going, Oh, my goodness. And I know he never does that. I know

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he's like, thank you for asking. And I welcome these questions.

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And I'm going to meet you right where you're at, which is all

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of this together. And then there's times I'm like, I know,

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I'm supposed to be still, I'm supposed to be still, I'm

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supposed to be quiet. It's like you're, you're just supposed to

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be here with me. So ask your questions, listen, but ask your

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questions. So that's so I'm just excited to see what, what

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question I'm excited to be able to ask him questions about the

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Sermon on the Mount and hear what he has to say in a in a new

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way for me.

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So does that answer your question?

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Yeah, I love that. I love I love Jill's questions, because I

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think Jill asks the questions that other people are thinking,

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but won't ask because, you know, even a couple of times on screen

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when Jill asked a question, I got, you know, private messages

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or sometimes other, you know, comments on another post or

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something that just said, I'm so glad that that question was

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asked, or I'm so glad that you know, that was, that was just so

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good to hear that that was so good to even have that

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discussion. And, you know, one thing that I, I learned more and

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more about the Lord is to be curious is key. When we get a

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word or when we see something or when, when a word jumps off the

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page, sometimes we freeze in that moment thinking that's the

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holy moment. That's a wow. You know, this is what the Lord said

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or this is what jumped out at me. But I, I'm, I'm really more

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and more aware that if if I don't dig, that's where I am.

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And it's sometimes my impressions of what happened or

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I'm like stuck there. But when I'll get curious, and I'll just

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start, you know, journaling my conversation with him, so much

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more unfolds, like just things that need to be dealt with, or

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things that need to be done. You know, so many times people say,

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well, you know, like

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if I, I would tell a pastor, like, did you hear that missionary? This is it. We're being called

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all to these pews. This is the time. And it's like, well, God knows we need to make money.

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We need to take care of our wives. We need to, I mean, and isn't it like, that's what the devil

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said? Did God really say like, hey, unless you take up your cross and deny yourself, right?

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Right. You can't be my disciple. Did God really say that? Because God knows that you have to get

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these things done, right? Well, that's always my, I mean, I'm just seeing it just these past weeks.

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Again, just like Genesis is a place I, I go a lot to the beginning of the book. I spend a lot of

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time there. And I, I think I'll plumb the depths there. I just think, I mean, although you take

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me to any scripture, like this is my favorite one, except things like, you know, Paul saying,

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you know, I just want to know the fellowship of his suffering and the power,

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like, you know, like you say so many good things, like put a, put a sock in it right there.

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And so, but, you know, then you, but when you get curious in those scriptures,

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you find out so much more and that that's, that's actually where, when I'll spend time and

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sometimes it's years asking questions on those ones I'm wrestling with. Like, what the heck,

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God? Like, I mean, one of the, one of Christian's favorite, one of our favorite things to say is he

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suffered, so I don't have to, but I'm, I'm like, well, he did say in this world, you will have

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tribulation. He didn't say like, if your name begins with J, like Jesus, or if, you know,

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sometimes on every first Tuesday of the month, give or take, like, he didn't say that. He said,

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you will. And here's the answer. Just like James says that we didn't want to hear, count it all

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joy. And that's another one. It's like, but so if God knows that we need to make money, that we need

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to be practical, that we need to accomplish things, then I think the answer is in those first

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two words. God knows. And that's one thing Jesus kept, kept trying to convey. You are a heavenly

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father. He, he already knows. So the devil uses that to keep you from him. And God reminds us,

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that's why you draw all the near to him first. So I love those questions. I, I just think the

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more curious we are, the more curious we help each other be, the, the deeper well, like, like

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never, if you're seeing something, as we walk through this process at his feet, and something

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jumps out to you, I love this about, about Devon, she'll introduce herself in a little bit here.

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She's like, she's like that little child in the, in the candy store. Like,

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this is what I saw. And that, do that. Don't ever keep that to yourself. Or even if it just

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comes out later. Like, this is why we have our own private group. But share this process. We

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are journeying together. None of us were born wise virgins. And, and none of us have, I don't

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think, unless, you know, please unmute and tell me. None of us know people who are really purely,

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in particularly wise virgins. Personally, I mean, Mother Teresa, God talks to me a lot to

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Jill Cook through Mother Teresa. It's always, it always tightens my belt. And it's good.

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Ingrid de Decker, you're next.

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Well, it's nice to be here. Oh, what I'm hoping for as well, the Lord tells me

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that I should work on control this year. I thought I had already worked on that, but

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I guess there's a lot more room to go. I'm in the Akron area of Ohio,

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originally from Germany. People always wonder where my accent's from, so I better say it.

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I have a ministry, Pedro's favorite word. It's about, I help Christian moms who have kids in

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public schools, elementary schools especially. I have two daughters, one is still in college,

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so a husband. Really what I want is, I want some of what you have, Hillary. I mean,

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you look at things differently. I'm like, sometimes I think that has never even crossed

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my mind, like ever, you know, and when you said something this summer, we're in the same,

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I'm in her family group, 200x, about my family and said the really tough thing,

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and then I implemented it, and now my father, who's 89 years old, he is nice to me for the

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first time in my life, even though I did the tough thing, and I had never even considered

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that before, so I just really want what you carry. What I need it for is, I want to have

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finally a breakthrough in my ministry. I want to reach more people, and for that, I need to hear

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God. I need to listen. I need to hear God so that I know exactly which way to go, so I want to learn

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more of hearing that, and then standing in faith, watching my words, and so I just,

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and I want to reach more people, even though I don't want to be seen, and I don't really want

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to be heard, and I don't want to write, so I don't, but I do want to reach people really badly,

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so that is a little problem that I have that I need to work through as well, so those are my

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things. Well, I love that. I love you, Ingrid, and I love that, and I had forgotten all about

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that. I mean, that was so cool, because when you brought that question to the group, and that was

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so courageous of you, and then you said, after you brought the question to the group, you were

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like, but that's neither here nor there, and I was like, wait a second. That's everything

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right there, and I'm so glad you let it out, and that you didn't erase it. You kind of

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needed to express it, and then we're like, well, just pretend that's under the rug, but the fact

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that you were in possession of the fear of the Lord, to be able to hear wisdom,

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and you and your husband walk in that, which you thought was not only not an open door,

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wasn't even a consideration. There was no signpost pointing to that way, yet it was the desire of

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your heart. That's what we do, right? When we learn how to be the bride of the king,

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we can steward his heart, and we can minister that, but just like we've talked about before,

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a lighthouse, and this is what we're learning to be, it doesn't pursue the ships.

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Its concern is the source of the light, and as it just concerns itself with the source of the light,

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it shines. It doesn't concern itself with what time of day it is, if there's a storm,

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what ships are out there, who's paying attention, what they're doing, because none of that defines

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the lighthouse. The fact that a ship just came to say, thank you for that,

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this is how that mattered, that feels so good for the lighthouse, and that's who you are.

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The same thing, as Jill Cook was saying earlier, I'm doing this, I'm learning obedience.

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I'd love for it

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to be more successful, right?

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I think I've shared this with some of you,

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but here, this was in, this is handy here

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because God brings this conversation

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to my mind so many times.

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This is from 26 March, 2020.

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Ooh, that's like when all this stuff

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was hitting the fan, right?

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♪ All to Jesus I surrender ♪

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♪ All to him I freely give ♪

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So I just wrote it in my journal,

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it says 2,100 hours.

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what would you like me to freely give to you?

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And he said, failure.

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Do you know how many times

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I still need this conversation like right now?

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So I said, please show me.

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And he said, who defines you, Hillary?

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Now that,

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I mean, I had completely defined myself a failure

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on so many levels and so many fronts.

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And he's asking me who defines me.

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He knows exactly the question and that I was wrong.

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That was the first one.

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And then he said, who defines your situation,

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your effectiveness, your capacity, et cetera?

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I was just like, with every word, I can still feel it.

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I still feel my skin crawling and every hair standing up

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and my gut is like, could power boot.

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And then he clinches it by asking me,

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and who defines how others are doing?

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My marriage wasn't good enough.

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So if my marriage isn't good enough,

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it's not what, it doesn't look like what it ought to be.

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That's what I'm conveying.

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My family should be serving the Lord.

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We shouldn't be so self-centered.

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We shouldn't fall short here.

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We shouldn't fall short there.

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We should look like this.

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That's what I'm conveying to my whole family.

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And I just,

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I'm not gonna lie to you.

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And I just saw him carrying this heavy sack called failure.

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It's been so heavy all my life.

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And so I just got down on my knees

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and I handed him this heavy sack and I still do it.

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And he said, my view of you is success.

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My view of you is glorious.

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My view of you is me.

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So his, it's just like if any one of the precious clients

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that Cary takes care of,

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or any one of the children represented here,

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any one of those we ministered to,

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were to come and go on and on about how they fall short

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based on some standard out there

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that's measured or talked about,

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we would have none of it, right?

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We just wouldn't have any of it.

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And he can't see you apart from himself.

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And he can't see you apart from himself.

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And so that, well,

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that's his word on more success.

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And the other thing on that, Ingrid,

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the other reason for the lighthouse

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is because as long as it's about me

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me coming on the screen for you all, I'm hiding.

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What do I have?

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I don't know, I don't have the answer.

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Just what I'm saying.

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I don't have, my gosh, I don't have it.

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But if it's because we're all in need of the Holy Spirit

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of the author of everything,

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then we have every bit of hope and healthy expectation

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that we're all in need of the Holy Spirit of the author.

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that our obedience to come is well-rewarded.

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It's well-advised and it's well-rewarded.

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And so now part of sweet secrets of success

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is to learn God's measurement of things.

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The one who looks on the heart, right?

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And it's entirely different.

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Otherwise, Jesus was, I mean, that was a bust, right?

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Crucified and not much changed.

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Anyway, I mean, thank God he didn't see it that way.

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Thank God he didn't confess it that way.

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Thank God he's like, when you sow the kingdom,

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even it's the tiniest little seed,

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but it grows up to be bigger than the whole jungle.

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Anyway, okay.

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So I pray that was successful, my friend,

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because when it's about Ingrid,

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yeah, you're gonna be like, I don't wanna do that.

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I don't wanna do that.

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But when Jesus Christ is at stake in you,

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everything changes.

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Yeah, okay.

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That's why he said, I must be about my father's business.

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I just must be.

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All right, Carrie McFadden, Colorado, in the house.

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Yo, yo, yo, yo, yo, yo.

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Yeah, I live in Denver and I am a functional nutritionist,

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which I just launched my business last September.

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So I'm a new entrepreneur.

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And so what I'm expectant for

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and what I desperately need to have happen

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is this next chapter in my life to be totally

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and completely connected to the Lord.

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And to hear his voice and to be guided

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in my steps to be totally directed by his.

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And I'm not good at being quiet.

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I can't sit for literally less than five minutes

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and my head is already in a million different directions.

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So I need to learn the discipline of being silent

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and having that solitude with him.

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I'm just not very good at it.

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And so that's what I'm really expectant for

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in all of this.

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I love that, Carrie.

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I love that like, you know,

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you came into the Enjoying Your Life Challenge

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because that was one of the things we learned

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was that we're not alone when we're like, you know,

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little distracted toddlers

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trying to have a life of prayer and devotion.

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But if we come together and there's this strength together,

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there's this activity together.

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And it doesn't mean that we ought not learn that.

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I'm not saying that.

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All I'm saying is like, oh, this is,

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we all need to learn this.

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And you know what's so amazing?

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Like, if we think somebody famous

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is going to be somewhere, you know,

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that a famous that interests us,

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we'll go, right?

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We'll go try to make that connection

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because there's a reason that person is famous.

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It interests us, it excites us.

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00:43:36.520 --> 00:43:38.920
And so we'll go, we'll pay for that.

462
00:43:38.920 --> 00:43:41.360
We'll pay attention to that and whatnot.

463
00:43:41.360 --> 00:43:45.160
If we think someone has wisdom,

464
00:43:46.060 --> 00:43:49.260
well, we need that wisdom.

465
00:43:49.260 --> 00:43:53.180
Like I can't see past my present step.

466
00:43:53.180 --> 00:43:55.500
So where am I?

467
00:43:55.500 --> 00:43:58.740
And I need that wisdom.

468
00:43:58.740 --> 00:44:00.960
If we think somebody's rich,

469
00:44:02.300 --> 00:44:05.540
we're like, hey, I need some of that to rub off on me.

470
00:44:05.540 --> 00:44:10.100
Let me go see how this person operates

471
00:44:10.100 --> 00:44:12.080
or if somebody's influential.

472
00:44:15.160 --> 00:44:16.700
Who's more famous?

473
00:44:19.060 --> 00:44:20.460
Who's more generous?

474
00:44:20.460 --> 00:44:23.240
We love to be around generous people.

475
00:44:23.240 --> 00:44:24.660
Who's more wise?

476
00:44:26.340 --> 00:44:29.780
Who's more influential?

477
00:44:29.780 --> 00:44:31.100
Who's more rich?

478
00:44:32.940 --> 00:44:37.940
And so we just don't think of him that way, right?

479
00:44:37.960 --> 00:44:41.980
We don't think of him as that person we so want to know

480
00:44:42.000 --> 00:44:47.000
because there's so much benefit for us there.

481
00:44:47.840 --> 00:44:50.600
Like, if I could just get alone with you,

482
00:44:55.040 --> 00:44:58.880
I will have like, here's the thing I feel like I need.

483
00:44:58.880 --> 00:45:00.120
I'll not only have that.

484
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:01.400
I'll have so much more, right?

485
00:45:01.400 --> 00:45:02.680
Don't seek the thing you need,

486
00:45:02.680 --> 00:45:06.600
but the kingdom and his righteousness,

487
00:45:06.600 --> 00:45:09.080
not only will he give you the thing you're seeking,

488
00:45:09.080 --> 00:45:10.700
the kingdom and his righteousness,

489
00:45:10.700 --> 00:45:14.960
but all those other things that you forsook seeking

490
00:45:15.840 --> 00:45:17.920
in favor of him.

491
00:45:18.920 --> 00:45:20.920
So I love that, Carrie.

492
00:45:20.920 --> 00:45:23.560
I think that's exactly why all of us are here.

493
00:45:26.840 --> 00:45:28.800
These scriptures that haunt me,

494
00:45:30.160 --> 00:45:34.200
well done, thou good and faithful servant, right?

495
00:45:34.200 --> 00:45:38.440
Like, okay, five wise virgins, five foolish virgins,

496
00:45:38.440 --> 00:45:42.440
like, you know, just these, these haunt,

497
00:45:42.440 --> 00:45:47.440
and preeminent among all of them

498
00:45:48.120 --> 00:45:51.160
is this Sermon on the Mount, right?

499
00:45:51.160 --> 00:45:56.160
Most famous, least understood, least adhered to,

500
00:45:57.160 --> 00:46:00.080
and yet so rich.

501
00:46:00.080 --> 00:46:02.920
And Jesus wants, he's like,

502
00:46:02.920 --> 00:46:04.880
I think that's what brought us all here, right?

503
00:46:04.880 --> 00:46:09.880
Like, yes, sweet, yes, I need something sweet.

504
00:46:10.280 --> 00:46:14.160
And I, you know, speaking of which I've been looking up,

505
00:46:14.160 --> 00:46:16.640
like, I keep hearing the words, Daniel Fass,

506
00:46:16.640 --> 00:46:20.400
and I'm like, you know, when you're like, la, la, la, la,

507
00:46:20.840 --> 00:46:25.680
it's like, because you think like,

508
00:46:25.680 --> 00:46:27.840
those words are coming very close.

509
00:46:30.800 --> 00:46:34.920
So I think that I'm going to be in a place like that

510
00:46:34.920 --> 00:46:39.440
through this process, and I feel that strongly.

511
00:46:39.440 --> 00:46:44.320
So some consecration, okay.

512
00:46:44.320 --> 00:46:45.160
Thank you, Carrie.

513
00:46:45.160 --> 00:46:50.160
Karen Jensen, Canada with green grass and a scarf.

514
00:46:50.920 --> 00:46:51.920
Yes.

515
00:46:51.920 --> 00:46:54.320
Well, it's a little bit better, right, Jill?

516
00:46:54.320 --> 00:46:56.440
It's not 40 below anymore.

517
00:46:56.440 --> 00:46:58.680
Thank God she was actually down under

518
00:46:58.680 --> 00:47:00.480
in summertime for all that.

519
00:47:00.480 --> 00:47:02.240
She's just gotten home.

520
00:47:02.240 --> 00:47:03.640
Yes.

521
00:47:03.640 --> 00:47:04.480
Anyway.

522
00:47:08.320 --> 00:47:12.960
Well, I'm here because of course I'm seeking the Lord

523
00:47:12.960 --> 00:47:15.960
in a deeper, more intimate way.

524
00:47:15.960 --> 00:47:19.280
And it seems like lately what he's been saying to me

525
00:47:19.280 --> 00:47:22.640
is just sit here quietly for 10 minutes.

526
00:47:22.640 --> 00:47:25.240
He's start me out slow, 10 minutes,

527
00:47:25.240 --> 00:47:27.960
and let's just adore, adore.

528
00:47:27.960 --> 00:47:32.680
So an adoration, not talking, not asking questions,

529
00:47:32.680 --> 00:47:36.400
just sitting and adoring him,

530
00:47:36.400 --> 00:47:38.920
and him looking adoringly at me,

531
00:47:38.920 --> 00:47:42.680
which I've never done ever.

532
00:47:42.680 --> 00:47:44.760
And then I can see there's going to be heart healing

533
00:47:44.760 --> 00:47:47.520
because the other day he was saying to me,

534
00:47:47.520 --> 00:47:51.480
I am in control, but you get to choose,

535
00:47:51.480 --> 00:47:53.680
meaning you're still in control

536
00:47:53.680 --> 00:47:56.640
in the sense that you can choose to be wise or foolish.

537
00:47:56.640 --> 00:47:59.640
I leave that to you, which helped me quite a bit

538
00:47:59.640 --> 00:48:01.960
because I've always struggled with control

539
00:48:01.960 --> 00:48:06.960
and being controlling, but also being controlled.

540
00:48:08.800 --> 00:48:12.120
And so I think that he's going to reach deep into me

541
00:48:12.120 --> 00:48:13.520
around those things.

542
00:48:15.200 --> 00:48:17.240
To heal that and not be,

543
00:48:17.240 --> 00:48:19.440
so not to block my relationship with him

544
00:48:19.440 --> 00:48:22.040
because you know, with the word obey, obey, obey,

545
00:48:22.040 --> 00:48:24.000
which I believe calls on obedience,

546
00:48:24.000 --> 00:48:25.440
but at the same time,

547
00:48:25.440 --> 00:48:27.240
there's that little rebellious child in me

548
00:48:27.240 --> 00:48:28.760
that's going, maybe.

549
00:48:30.360 --> 00:48:34.000
And so I don't want to live that way,

550
00:48:34.000 --> 00:48:37.120
but there's a part of me that does live that way.

551
00:48:37.120 --> 00:48:39.680
And so now I feel like I've been set free

552
00:48:39.680 --> 00:48:42.760
because I can still choose if I'm going to be foolish

553
00:48:42.760 --> 00:48:44.720
or just trust that the Lord knows best,

554
00:48:44.720 --> 00:48:47.400
which, so as long as I feel like I have a choice,

555
00:48:47.400 --> 00:48:49.120
I feel good, right?

556
00:48:49.120 --> 00:48:52.440
That takes away that little rebellious fight in me.

557
00:48:52.440 --> 00:48:54.000
So I'm really happy about that.

558
00:48:55.280 --> 00:49:00.280
And I really desire like all of you

559
00:49:00.400 --> 00:49:03.000
that close intimate relationship with him.

560
00:49:03.000 --> 00:49:05.960
And so every day he's saying something different to me

561
00:49:05.960 --> 00:49:07.800
or taking me somewhere different.

562
00:49:09.360 --> 00:49:10.760
I get super distracted,

563
00:49:10.760 --> 00:49:12.600
but I came across this book called

564
00:49:12.600 --> 00:49:15.600
A Hundred Days in the Secret Place.

565
00:49:15.600 --> 00:49:17.680
And one of the things, the readings was,

566
00:49:20.360 --> 00:49:21.200
keep meeting with me.

567
00:49:21.200 --> 00:49:23.360
Don't worry if you're distracted, just keep coming.

568
00:49:23.360 --> 00:49:24.760
Don't worry about it.

569
00:49:24.760 --> 00:49:26.400
Distraction will happen.

570
00:49:26.400 --> 00:49:29.040
And so then that made me feel really well

571
00:49:29.040 --> 00:49:31.880
because some days I have the concentration of a gnat

572
00:49:33.240 --> 00:49:35.600
and a bazillion things are going through my mind.

573
00:49:35.600 --> 00:49:37.440
I'm thinking, oh, that was just a waste of time.

574
00:49:37.480 --> 00:49:41.120
I'm sorry, but actually it's never a waste of time.

575
00:49:42.000 --> 00:49:46.880
And so I think that this will be really good for me.

576
00:49:46.880 --> 00:49:48.800
I think God's gonna do heart healing.

577
00:49:48.800 --> 00:49:52.400
I think he's answering my prayer to come closer.

578
00:49:52.400 --> 00:49:55.520
I think that the heart healing in myself

579
00:49:55.520 --> 00:49:59.600
around that close relationship so I can listen and follow

580
00:49:59.600 --> 00:50:00.600
is really important.

581
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:04.960
I really laughed at Ingrid because I was thinking the other day, and that's where Hilary can

582
00:50:04.960 --> 00:50:09.800
come in and do heart healing with me, is I want to reach people, but I don't want to

583
00:50:09.800 --> 00:50:11.760
be seen or heard.

584
00:50:11.760 --> 00:50:16.480
So that made me laugh out loud because I thought, yeah, I think that's part of my issue, too.

585
00:50:16.480 --> 00:50:26.480
So I look forward to getting to know all of you and being part of the group, and I mean,

586
00:50:26.480 --> 00:50:27.480
it's a journey.

587
00:50:27.480 --> 00:50:28.480
It's a journey.

588
00:50:28.480 --> 00:50:29.480
What can I say?

589
00:50:29.480 --> 00:50:30.480
I'm a mess.

590
00:50:30.480 --> 00:50:31.480
It's a journey.

591
00:50:31.480 --> 00:50:36.120
It's cleaning up the mess a little bit at a time.

592
00:50:36.120 --> 00:50:38.680
I love you, Karen Jensen.

593
00:50:38.680 --> 00:50:39.680
I love you.

594
00:50:39.680 --> 00:50:45.120
You're so playful, and you have such a massive call on your life.

595
00:50:45.120 --> 00:50:54.760
So if you're not going to be heard, who will?

596
00:50:54.760 --> 00:51:03.560
But he has promised to hide you in that, which is part of where actually you want to

597
00:51:03.560 --> 00:51:04.560
be.

598
00:51:04.560 --> 00:51:10.760
And I love that you talked about control and being controlled because I think they go hand

599
00:51:10.760 --> 00:51:13.200
and in hand.

600
00:51:13.200 --> 00:51:20.520
I think that the author of Liberty, he never crosses that line.

601
00:51:20.520 --> 00:51:24.240
We actually have to come to him.

602
00:51:24.240 --> 00:51:26.200
We actually have to cross the line.

603
00:51:26.200 --> 00:51:33.760
He stands and knocks, but it's in our hands.

604
00:51:33.760 --> 00:51:40.520
So when we're trying to control a situation, and he likewise has told me all of those backup

605
00:51:40.520 --> 00:51:46.320
plans that you have, all the places you say, well, all right, I'm believing for this.

606
00:51:46.320 --> 00:51:53.160
But if that doesn't work, at least what I could do is, at least what I could say, he's

607
00:51:53.160 --> 00:51:57.840
like, those are all places you don't trust me.

608
00:51:57.840 --> 00:52:03.920
And so I really haven't yielded them to him because I'm not standing on the word.

609
00:52:03.920 --> 00:52:12.560
I'm standing in the boat because that way I'm in the boat.

610
00:52:12.560 --> 00:52:22.240
So yeah, that way I'm not driving the boat, which means someone else is really driving

611
00:52:22.320 --> 00:52:26.320
me from storm to storm.

612
00:52:26.320 --> 00:52:29.680
Unbelievable.

613
00:52:29.680 --> 00:52:32.080
So yes, thank you for sharing that.

614
00:52:32.080 --> 00:52:37.280
I am so, so happy to have you here, my friend.

615
00:52:37.280 --> 00:52:38.280
Okay.

616
00:52:38.280 --> 00:52:41.280
Devon from Houston.

617
00:52:41.280 --> 00:52:43.600
There she is.

618
00:52:43.600 --> 00:52:44.600
Are you in the car?

619
00:52:44.600 --> 00:52:45.600
I am.

620
00:52:45.600 --> 00:52:46.600
Yes.

621
00:52:46.600 --> 00:52:47.600
Hello.

622
00:52:47.600 --> 00:52:48.600
Can y'all hear me?

623
00:52:48.600 --> 00:52:49.600
Yes, we can.

624
00:52:49.960 --> 00:52:50.960
Can y'all hear me?

625
00:52:50.960 --> 00:52:51.960
Yes, we can.

626
00:52:51.960 --> 00:52:52.960
My gorgeous friend.

627
00:52:52.960 --> 00:53:00.280
Oh, no, you're cutting out for the first time.

628
00:53:00.280 --> 00:53:01.280
We can hear you.

629
00:53:01.280 --> 00:53:02.280
Am I good to share?

630
00:53:02.280 --> 00:53:03.280
Yeah.

631
00:53:03.280 --> 00:53:04.280
Okay.

632
00:53:04.280 --> 00:53:05.280
Okay, good.

633
00:53:05.280 --> 00:53:06.280
Well, hi, everybody.

634
00:53:06.280 --> 00:53:10.160
I'm so, so, so excited to be here.

635
00:53:10.160 --> 00:53:11.760
So excited to meet everyone.

636
00:53:11.760 --> 00:53:18.960
I may be the only one who's done this before, but, oh, yes.

637
00:53:19.320 --> 00:53:26.640
Like, there's just, what do I say?

638
00:53:26.640 --> 00:53:28.640
I'm Devon from Houston, Texas.

639
00:53:28.640 --> 00:53:31.640
I've got my two little lovebugs.

640
00:53:31.640 --> 00:53:40.640
You can't even see us, but sweet family, homeschooling mama, and I'm also a nutritionist.

641
00:53:40.640 --> 00:53:44.640
So carry it, Dakota, to chat.

642
00:53:45.320 --> 00:53:52.320
And, anyway, I am just so in awe of God.

643
00:53:52.320 --> 00:54:02.320
Like, I don't even, I don't know how to explain my anticipation other than, like, tears just

644
00:54:02.320 --> 00:54:07.320
peeling back, like, all the things that I thought I needed in life.

645
00:54:07.320 --> 00:54:13.320
It's like, like, he is the one thing that I want my life to be about, and I think that's

646
00:54:14.000 --> 00:54:26.000
why we're all here, and it's, like, I just can't wait to be Mary's together, and Esther's,

647
00:54:26.000 --> 00:54:31.000
and, like, I just can't get enough of Jesus.

648
00:54:31.000 --> 00:54:34.000
I don't know what to say.

649
00:54:34.000 --> 00:54:35.000
Amen.

650
00:54:35.000 --> 00:54:40.000
Sorry, I feel like the movie is really loud beside me, but hopefully you can hear me.

651
00:54:40.000 --> 00:54:42.000
It is, and we can.

652
00:54:42.680 --> 00:54:45.680
And I'm so happy that you jumped on.

653
00:54:45.680 --> 00:54:46.680
Sorry, okay.

654
00:54:46.680 --> 00:54:47.680
No, it's okay.

655
00:54:47.680 --> 00:54:48.680
It's okay.

656
00:54:48.680 --> 00:54:56.680
And, yeah, maybe, maybe, actually, you could do a piece, if anyone else is interested in,

657
00:54:56.680 --> 00:54:59.680
you know, letting God,

658
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:06.240
walk us into a fast during this time, which we haven't really

659
00:55:06.320 --> 00:55:11.400
done as a group during one of these sweet secrets before. But

660
00:55:11.400 --> 00:55:15.840
if that's something that you are also interested in, then, I

661
00:55:15.840 --> 00:55:25.000
mean, Devin, she's a fasting machine. I just have been in

662
00:55:25.000 --> 00:55:33.000
total awe of of what how she's able like, you know, I'll never

663
00:55:33.000 --> 00:55:37.440
forget when God was when you were like, Oh, but chocolate and

664
00:55:37.440 --> 00:55:41.600
the Lord was like, I'll be your chocolate chip. And it's just

665
00:55:41.600 --> 00:55:47.080
like, that's what he said to her. And she's like, Okay,

666
00:55:47.080 --> 00:55:54.280
Jesus, and it's just so beautiful. And then she's just

667
00:55:54.280 --> 00:55:58.520
walks through this fast. So I, I am ready for something like

668
00:55:58.520 --> 00:56:02.520
that. I'm ready to come to the end of myself in that area.

669
00:56:02.520 --> 00:56:06.440
Before I was married, I fasted on a very, I fasted weekly, and

670
00:56:06.440 --> 00:56:09.480
then I would fast at seasons. And the whole beginning of the

671
00:56:09.480 --> 00:56:14.760
year, I fasted for at least three weeks. And, and then I

672
00:56:14.760 --> 00:56:21.000
don't know what to say, like, it's been a lot. I haven't, you

673
00:56:21.000 --> 00:56:24.600
know, been able to make it happen. So I'm feeling like

674
00:56:25.120 --> 00:56:32.240
there's an anointing here for that. So if anyone else is

675
00:56:32.240 --> 00:56:39.200
interested, Devin, maybe we could have you like, yeah. Show

676
00:56:39.200 --> 00:56:45.760
us and then be our cheerleader. Okay, Jenny Pitts, it's so funny

677
00:56:45.760 --> 00:56:48.520
you were up here and then I'm thinking you must have put

678
00:56:48.520 --> 00:56:55.480
yourself last. Because Jenny y'all, like she came in here

679
00:56:55.520 --> 00:57:03.040
because we jumped on the phone right before here and and

680
00:57:03.040 --> 00:57:09.080
Jenny's one of the people that I've, I've seen, like among us.

681
00:57:09.840 --> 00:57:16.120
And and so when she said, Hey, hey, do you have time? Let's

682
00:57:16.120 --> 00:57:21.080
chat. I was like, Lord, is this? Is this because you're having

683
00:57:21.080 --> 00:57:28.400
Jenny come into the to the deep dive? And so anyway, I said,

684
00:57:28.400 --> 00:57:30.320
Alright, let's pray and find out, you know, what's on your

685
00:57:30.320 --> 00:57:33.040
heart. And she said, Well, I don't really even know why I

686
00:57:33.040 --> 00:57:38.400
called you. I was like, the Lord was saying call Hillary and, and

687
00:57:38.400 --> 00:57:42.440
I thought, yeah, that seems right. So I was like, I think I

688
00:57:42.440 --> 00:57:48.760
know why the Lord told you so. So Jenny really hasn't known

689
00:57:48.760 --> 00:57:54.400
much. And and what's cool is so Ingrid and Jill are in one of my

690
00:57:54.400 --> 00:57:58.400
family rooms, and Jenny and Jill are in another family room. And

691
00:57:58.400 --> 00:58:08.520
everyone here has been a client and just about and and so um, so

692
00:58:08.520 --> 00:58:13.920
it's so awesome to have like, some of my incredibly most

693
00:58:13.920 --> 00:58:21.760
favorite people right here. And so Jenny, like, you can ask any

694
00:58:21.760 --> 00:58:25.920
questions, definitely introduce yourself. You're such a special

695
00:58:25.920 --> 00:58:30.240
gal, such a little mighty Joan of Arc.

696
00:58:32.160 --> 00:58:37.760
Oh, thank you. Yeah, well, I've it's ironic. I've been teaching

697
00:58:37.760 --> 00:58:40.440
the Bible since I became a believer, basically. I mean, I

698
00:58:40.440 --> 00:58:44.600
was like, a leader from the get go. And the Lord is like,

699
00:58:44.680 --> 00:58:49.120
unpeeling things. And like, I was really upset with a friend.

700
00:58:49.120 --> 00:58:56.200
And he said to me, will you lay down your life? I've been a

701
00:58:56.280 --> 00:59:00.000
Christian for like 20 years. And he's like, will you lay down

702
00:59:00.000 --> 00:59:04.480
your life now? And so I've been on a journey of like laying down

703
00:59:04.480 --> 00:59:07.560
my life. So I find it really interesting, Hillary, when you

704
00:59:07.560 --> 00:59:10.560
speak, because you're constantly talking about that.

705
00:59:10.560 --> 00:59:15.880
It's like your, your message is like being co crucified with

706
00:59:15.880 --> 00:59:22.400
him. And your journey is like what I need. Really? I mean, I

707
00:59:22.440 --> 00:59:28.600
it's like, until that happens, we're selfish. For all the

708
00:59:28.600 --> 00:59:32.440
right world reasons. Like I wanted to like, build my

709
00:59:32.440 --> 00:59:36.560
business and help the poor and do Christian things. And the

710
00:59:36.560 --> 00:59:38.920
Lord is telling me and then I get mad at a friend and he's

711
00:59:38.920 --> 00:59:42.840
like, lay down your life. And I realized like, those were all me

712
00:59:42.840 --> 00:59:47.400
centered. Oh, my gosh. Oh, and he's been calling me into

713
00:59:47.400 --> 00:59:53.680
ministry my whole life, too. And I'm like, No, no, no, I know how

714
00:59:53.680 --> 00:59:57.600
hard that is now. And now I'm like, okay, I'll do it. You

715
00:59:57.600 --> 00:59:59.480
know, basically, that's where I'm at.

716
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:06.280
okay, I'll do it. But I'm scared to death. It's like, so

717
01:00:06.280 --> 01:00:10.800
gratifying. Getting out of your closet, Karen and Ingrid, y'all

718
01:00:10.800 --> 01:00:14.320
are like the most precious women. When y'all both talked,

719
01:00:14.320 --> 01:00:17.640
I was like, Oh my gosh, they're so precious to me. You guys

720
01:00:17.640 --> 01:00:23.640
should be on a platform. But it's more comfortable to be in

721
01:00:23.640 --> 01:00:28.360
the shadows. And I've been getting out of my shadows. I

722
01:00:28.360 --> 01:00:30.320
mean, I've always been like a small group leader, but that's

723
01:00:30.320 --> 01:00:38.520
not like there's no risk in that, right? So now I'm like

724
01:00:38.520 --> 01:00:44.280
going live on Facebook, and I have a very heterogeneous group

725
01:00:44.280 --> 01:00:48.880
of people in my friend group, which are my neighbors that are

726
01:00:48.880 --> 01:00:56.440
all super liberal, my Christian friends, my high school

727
01:00:56.440 --> 01:01:00.040
friends. I mean, it's crazy. And I'm talking about Jesus

728
01:01:00.040 --> 01:01:08.880
every day right now. But it's like, shaping me. But it

729
01:01:08.880 --> 01:01:11.640
doesn't, I guess I woke up. So like, I did that all last week.

730
01:01:11.640 --> 01:01:15.880
That was my first week doing it. And then on Saturday, I woke up

731
01:01:15.880 --> 01:01:18.480
and I was like, Where am I going? Oh my gosh, I don't know

732
01:01:18.480 --> 01:01:21.640
where I'm going. I mean, I'm glad I'm getting free on

733
01:01:21.640 --> 01:01:26.360
Facebook. And Hillary, you came into my mind like over and

734
01:01:26.360 --> 01:01:32.680
over. And I was like, I need to get in touch with Hillary. So

735
01:01:34.160 --> 01:01:41.280
that's all. I have a seven year old and a nine year old. I

736
01:01:41.320 --> 01:01:44.840
owned my own business for a year, the Lord almost audibly

737
01:01:44.840 --> 01:01:50.520
told me I hate this project. I stopped working for two years. I

738
01:01:50.520 --> 01:01:56.320
joined 100X in the middle of that. And I just kept not

739
01:01:56.320 --> 01:02:00.560
having grace to do anything. And now I'm done. I'm done with

740
01:02:00.560 --> 01:02:06.680
being unproductive. I want to start really producing for the

741
01:02:06.680 --> 01:02:09.520
king and the kingdom. And I'm just like this really driven

742
01:02:09.520 --> 01:02:13.800
person. So I'd love to learn how to sit at the feet.

743
01:02:15.560 --> 01:02:19.960
So glad you're here, Jenny. I just love you. I love that

744
01:02:19.960 --> 01:02:24.360
you're someone who chomps at the bit. And like, I think I

745
01:02:24.360 --> 01:02:27.200
might have shown you I know, Jill, and I know a few people

746
01:02:27.200 --> 01:02:30.040
have seen this, but this is what God was showing me the other day

747
01:02:30.640 --> 01:02:36.960
was like, so there's the tree of life. There's life and he and

748
01:02:36.960 --> 01:02:41.240
the tree of life is God God. And in there is wisdom and

749
01:02:41.240 --> 01:02:45.160
understanding and there's light and truth. And the roots are

750
01:02:45.160 --> 01:02:50.960
love, that our faith that works by love, that access is grace,

751
01:02:51.280 --> 01:02:55.360
that puts us in total shalom. It's the foundation for every

752
01:02:55.360 --> 01:02:59.800
good relationship, every good and pleasant thing. It's free,

753
01:02:59.840 --> 01:03:07.560
it's generous. That's life in God. And this is the tree of the

754
01:03:07.560 --> 01:03:12.600
knowledge of good and evil. It is utterly chaotic. It's a

755
01:03:12.600 --> 01:03:18.080
constant argument of what's good, what's evil, what's a

756
01:03:18.080 --> 01:03:20.920
blessing, what's calamity, what's to be hated, what's to be

757
01:03:20.920 --> 01:03:24.480
loved, what's to be let go of what's to be adhered to what's

758
01:03:24.480 --> 01:03:31.520
up, what's down, what's you know, it's death. And it's, it's

759
01:03:31.600 --> 01:03:37.160
all twisted root systems of pride, and fear and failure and

760
01:03:37.160 --> 01:03:42.520
control. And, and it's the foundation for everything

761
01:03:42.520 --> 01:03:47.320
contentious, everything divisive, and it's entirely

762
01:03:47.320 --> 01:03:56.040
self. And in that self is lack, and judgment and fear, regret,

763
01:03:56.880 --> 01:04:04.400
being bound, hiding, right. But see, prodigal's life was was all

764
01:04:04.400 --> 01:04:07.600
this, it was probably all the condemnation from his brother,

765
01:04:07.600 --> 01:04:11.040
it was all the lies about his father, it was, you know,

766
01:04:11.040 --> 01:04:14.000
everything. So he just went off, well, I'm, I'm just, I'm just

767
01:04:14.000 --> 01:04:18.400
gonna live in that, in that, you know, chaotic spin, I'm gonna

768
01:04:18.400 --> 01:04:25.880
find, I'm gonna find what's good and right for me. And until he

769
01:04:25.880 --> 01:04:31.200
came to the place in the midst of that pig pen, where, you

770
01:04:31.200 --> 01:04:34.040
know, of all the people he could blame, because he clearly blamed

771
01:04:34.040 --> 01:04:40.960
his father, he so much has said, there were, you know, it's

772
01:04:40.960 --> 01:04:45.640
better if you're dead. So just give me like, give me what you

773
01:04:45.640 --> 01:04:49.920
would give me if you were dead. And then I can go have my life

774
01:04:49.920 --> 01:04:53.640
and come out from under the likes of you, because I can't

775
01:04:53.640 --> 01:04:59.360
stand it here anymore. I've got better plans for my life. And so

776
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:07.000
So then, all blinded in all that, you know, bitterness and woundedness,

777
01:05:07.000 --> 01:05:12.000
and he's just tossed around, and even sitting there saying,

778
01:05:12.000 --> 01:05:16.000
okay, I feed pigs, but nobody feeds me.

779
01:05:16.000 --> 01:05:21.000
And then the Bible says, then he came to himself.

780
01:05:21.000 --> 01:05:25.000
And when he finally came to himself,

781
01:05:26.000 --> 01:05:30.000
then he could realize it was just himself,

782
01:05:30.000 --> 01:05:34.000
and there was nobody left to blame.

783
01:05:34.000 --> 01:05:39.000
And once there was nobody left to blame, he could come to the end of himself,

784
01:05:39.000 --> 01:05:43.000
and he could see clearly his father.

785
01:05:43.000 --> 01:05:45.000
His father was good.

786
01:05:45.000 --> 01:05:51.000
When people lived in and among his father, like even if they were slaves,

787
01:05:51.000 --> 01:05:54.000
they had a good life.

788
01:05:54.000 --> 01:05:59.000
That's so much wiser to be near the goodness of my father,

789
01:05:59.000 --> 01:06:03.000
even if I can't be a son anymore,

790
01:06:03.000 --> 01:06:09.000
because this is me.

791
01:06:09.000 --> 01:06:13.000
And so when he realized he had been prodigal and could come to the end of himself,

792
01:06:13.000 --> 01:06:17.000
then he could begin his journey home to the father,

793
01:06:17.000 --> 01:06:21.000
which is free and generous.

794
01:06:21.000 --> 01:06:22.000
I love that song.

795
01:06:22.000 --> 01:06:27.000
Grace is the collision on the way back home to the arms of the father

796
01:06:27.000 --> 01:06:30.000
who won't let go.

797
01:06:30.000 --> 01:06:32.000
But it's free.

798
01:06:32.000 --> 01:06:36.000
Like Karen said, I actually have the choice.

799
01:06:36.000 --> 01:06:37.000
Here, I don't have a choice.

800
01:06:37.000 --> 01:06:39.000
I'm totally controlled.

801
01:06:39.000 --> 01:06:43.000
The Lord has told me, Hillary, if the enemy can keep you in that spin,

802
01:06:43.000 --> 01:06:45.000
he can keep you deceived.

803
01:06:46.000 --> 01:06:49.000
Be still and know.

804
01:06:49.000 --> 01:06:53.000
I am God.

805
01:06:53.000 --> 01:06:56.000
So, you know, just.

806
01:06:56.000 --> 01:06:59.000
Coming to the place where.

807
01:06:59.000 --> 01:07:01.000
You know, it's another one of those.

808
01:07:01.000 --> 01:07:03.000
Verses did.

809
01:07:03.000 --> 01:07:09.000
Did God really say when you wait on the Lord,

810
01:07:09.000 --> 01:07:13.000
Then you mount up as on wings of Eagle use you run and not grow weary.

811
01:07:13.000 --> 01:07:17.000
You walk and not faint because like God knows.

812
01:07:17.000 --> 01:07:21.000
Get some stuff done.

813
01:07:21.000 --> 01:07:23.000
I mean, this is still years ago. I said to him,

814
01:07:23.000 --> 01:07:25.000
how am I going to get all this done?

815
01:07:25.000 --> 01:07:29.000
And he said, sleep.

816
01:07:29.000 --> 01:07:34.000
I just had to have that conversation with him again the other day.

817
01:07:34.000 --> 01:07:37.000
Like, I'm so sorry. I'm still thinking.

818
01:07:37.000 --> 01:07:39.000
That.

819
01:07:39.000 --> 01:07:41.000
If I'm up all night.

820
01:07:41.000 --> 01:07:45.000
I can get more stuff done and.

821
01:07:45.000 --> 01:07:48.000
I am not increasing in productivity.

822
01:07:48.000 --> 01:07:50.000
It's not, it's not happening.

823
01:07:50.000 --> 01:07:53.000
My way is not his way.

824
01:07:53.000 --> 01:07:58.000
So, you know, it's all those scriptures, you know, God.

825
01:07:58.000 --> 01:08:00.000
He said, sleep.

826
01:08:00.000 --> 01:08:02.000
Sleep to his beloved.

827
01:08:02.000 --> 01:08:04.000
And it's sweet.

828
01:08:04.000 --> 01:08:06.000
God makes rich.

829
01:08:06.000 --> 01:08:08.000
And he adds no.

830
01:08:08.000 --> 01:08:09.000
Sorrow.

831
01:08:09.000 --> 01:08:10.000
To it.

832
01:08:10.000 --> 01:08:13.000
His ways.

833
01:08:13.000 --> 01:08:16.000
Are so much better. And so.

834
01:08:16.000 --> 01:08:20.000
It's just high time.

835
01:08:20.000 --> 01:08:23.000
It's high time.

836
01:08:23.000 --> 01:08:25.000
To no longer.

837
01:08:25.000 --> 01:08:28.000
I don't know.

838
01:08:28.000 --> 01:08:32.000
I'm on my own understanding.

839
01:08:32.000 --> 01:08:35.000
I know I've been saying this for a long time, but I am like,

840
01:08:35.000 --> 01:08:38.000
I'm getting there layer by layer. So I love how.

841
01:08:38.000 --> 01:08:40.000
Jenny Pitt says, you know, you're doing it, Hillary. I'm like,

842
01:08:40.000 --> 01:08:41.000
in Jesus name.

843
01:08:41.000 --> 01:08:45.000
I'm doing.

844
01:08:45.000 --> 01:08:48.000
Like, that's just the goodness of God.

845
01:08:49.000 --> 01:08:54.000
I'm like, I'm such a mess.

846
01:08:54.000 --> 01:08:57.000
I just, I saw myself as pig pen from the peanuts.

847
01:08:57.000 --> 01:09:01.000
You know, like there's just this dust cloud everywhere he goes.

848
01:09:01.000 --> 01:09:04.000
And I said, I'm just such a mess.

849
01:09:04.000 --> 01:09:07.000
And he said, you're in me.

850
01:09:07.000 --> 01:09:12.000
I'm bigger than your mess.

851
01:09:12.000 --> 01:09:15.000
And I saw that I was like little pig pen inside him.

852
01:09:15.000 --> 01:09:17.000
And there was Jesus. And so even when I'm at work.

853
01:09:18.000 --> 01:09:19.000
I'm like,

854
01:09:19.000 --> 01:09:21.000
I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what I'm doing.

855
01:09:21.000 --> 01:09:22.000
I don't know.

856
01:09:22.000 --> 01:09:26.000
Really he's at work in me.

857
01:09:26.000 --> 01:09:29.000
He, he causes other people to see something.

858
01:09:29.000 --> 01:09:30.000
That's him.

859
01:09:30.000 --> 01:09:31.000
That's.

860
01:09:31.000 --> 01:09:33.000
Yeah.

861
01:09:33.000 --> 01:09:36.000
That's the goodness of God. That's.

862
01:09:36.000 --> 01:09:38.000
That's where I can say I'm a witness.

863
01:09:38.000 --> 01:09:45.000
It's not me.

864
01:09:46.000 --> 01:09:50.000
I don't find myself there.

865
01:09:50.000 --> 01:09:51.000
I'm just desperate.

866
01:09:51.000 --> 01:10:00.000
Don't find myself there.

867
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:01.000
But, you know,

868
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:06.560
crowns they've ever gotten, they easily lay at his feet. And so

869
01:10:01.000 --> 01:10:05.000
it just helps me understand more and more like all the good things that

870
01:10:05.000 --> 01:10:07.000
happen. I understand why, when they see him.

871
01:10:06.560 --> 01:10:12.000
the crowns of all the people that you shall touch, Joe, even

872
01:10:12.000 --> 01:10:17.480
in your process, because you're not the only one that's walking

873
01:10:17.480 --> 01:10:23.080
through this process, so unique. And you have so many different

874
01:10:23.100 --> 01:10:28.360
components to your process. And people will need that.

875
01:10:30.360 --> 01:10:35.600
And Jill Wolf, and Ingrid, and Carrie, and Karen, Devon, and

876
01:10:35.600 --> 01:10:42.200
Jenny, and to be able to see through the eyes of the Father,

877
01:10:43.760 --> 01:10:50.480
how he sees you is going to change everything about how you

878
01:10:50.480 --> 01:10:57.480
see him and how you see others. And you will find such a level

879
01:10:57.480 --> 01:11:04.880
of freedom that I mean, that's actually what, you know, Devon's

880
01:11:04.880 --> 01:11:08.120
been walking with me for a little while. And that was what

881
01:11:08.120 --> 01:11:11.840
the Lord said, I want to set my daughters free that I may cause

882
01:11:11.840 --> 01:11:22.560
them to blossom. And so anyway, here we are now. Oh, gosh, I

883
01:11:22.560 --> 01:11:25.480
wanted this to be an hour in here. I'm seeing the time. So

884
01:11:25.960 --> 01:11:31.760
does this is does this time work? I mean, I know it does for

885
01:11:31.760 --> 01:11:37.480
you guys, as we get farther west. Does this work for you,

886
01:11:37.480 --> 01:11:41.480
Ingrid? You and I? Oh, wait, Jenny, if you're coming in like

887
01:11:41.480 --> 01:11:47.600
it? Yes. That's good. Look at that. Pretty good. Okay, praise

888
01:11:47.600 --> 01:11:51.160
the Lord. Okay, are we going when we meet? How long is it

889
01:11:51.160 --> 01:11:57.600
going to last normally? So in Jesus name, we're going to like,

890
01:11:57.880 --> 01:12:02.040
seek one hour. And just pray for me.

891
01:12:05.200 --> 01:12:09.840
Legit pray for me because I get very excited with the word. Like

892
01:12:10.360 --> 01:12:16.640
I get so excited with him. So he said you tell them if they'll

893
01:12:16.640 --> 01:12:20.520
sit at my feet one hour a day seeking the one thing that's

894
01:12:20.520 --> 01:12:24.200
needful. I'll give it to them in a way no one can take it from

895
01:12:24.200 --> 01:12:27.920
them. And I'll go in and change their root systems. So he said

896
01:12:27.920 --> 01:12:30.360
one hour, which means it's possible.

897
01:12:33.280 --> 01:12:37.360
So I like on Mondays, I can't make it because I coach coach

898
01:12:37.360 --> 01:12:40.680
volleyball and it starts at eight. It's different. It's

899
01:12:40.680 --> 01:12:45.160
either eight or nine or 10. It's a huge leak. And so but other

900
01:12:45.160 --> 01:12:49.840
than that, I think I'll be fine. Yeah. Okay, so well, that's

901
01:12:49.840 --> 01:12:55.200
helpful. That's helpful. Because we could, I was thinking we

902
01:12:55.200 --> 01:13:01.040
would do like Sunday through Thursday. But we could either we

903
01:13:01.040 --> 01:13:11.240
could skip Monday or Mondays are always a very big day for me.

904
01:13:12.200 --> 01:13:14.240
You know, when you have it in your head, like this is how it

905
01:13:14.240 --> 01:13:22.200
should work. It should be consecutive. Okay, so so I have

906
01:13:22.200 --> 01:13:27.400
work meeting on Monday evenings. Okay, so there it is, then. We

907
01:13:27.480 --> 01:13:34.840
don't meet on Mondays. Okay. So Sunday night. Tuesday night.

908
01:13:35.840 --> 01:13:46.120
Yeah. Tuesday night. Okay. Joe Wolf. Are you good? Tuesday, it

909
01:13:46.120 --> 01:13:54.320
would be nine for East Coast, therefore 6pm for West Coast. I

910
01:13:54.320 --> 01:13:59.840
potentially could have something Tuesdays and or Wednesdays. Oh,

911
01:13:59.840 --> 01:14:07.440
at your 7pm. Okay, so we could this week, I have my challenge

912
01:14:07.440 --> 01:14:12.680
five to six, so I might be a little late. Okay. Okay. So,

913
01:14:13.000 --> 01:14:21.320
alright, so let's say and when you find out, Carrie, I just

914
01:14:21.320 --> 01:14:26.960
believe like God, I just prayed I said, God, show us the place

915
01:14:27.040 --> 01:14:32.440
in our calendar that's that's that you've cleared up. So if

916
01:14:32.440 --> 01:14:36.960
something happens, then I believe he's a he knows about it.

917
01:14:37.360 --> 01:14:45.640
And we can, like either shift or, you know, or he'll change

918
01:14:45.640 --> 01:14:50.880
it. Are you starting this week? So does that work for everybody

919
01:14:50.880 --> 01:14:55.240
to start this week? So I have two nights that I won't be here

920
01:14:55.240 --> 01:14:59.200
on this that this tell me tell me about that. Is it all? Is it

921
01:14:59.200 --> 01:14:59.840
the Tuesday?

922
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:05.000
When say no in. Yeah, no, it's Tuesday and Friday this week.

923
01:15:05.000 --> 01:15:12.000
And then next week, there's not a single evening that I'm booked at all. It's just, yeah, so it's not regular.

924
01:15:12.000 --> 01:15:15.000
Just this week.

925
01:15:15.000 --> 01:15:18.000
Okay.

926
01:15:18.000 --> 01:15:23.000
All right. Are you, if we did.

927
01:15:23.000 --> 01:15:27.000
What if we did

928
01:15:27.000 --> 01:15:31.000
Sunday,

929
01:15:31.000 --> 01:15:35.000
Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday,

930
01:15:35.000 --> 01:15:45.000
Sunday, or, I mean I don't know what what Saturdays are like we could but what if we did Sunday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and it's going to draw it out a little longer but what if we did that.

931
01:15:45.000 --> 01:15:53.000
What if we did one weekend night and three week day night so then carry you'd only miss one.

932
01:15:53.000 --> 01:15:56.000
This week, and you could listen to the replay.

933
01:15:56.000 --> 01:15:58.000
Does that work for everyone.

934
01:15:58.000 --> 01:16:00.000
At this point.

935
01:16:00.000 --> 01:16:02.000
Okay.

936
01:16:02.000 --> 01:16:11.000
Why don't everybody on mute, and just let's make sure. So let me understand we're going to meet at this time that on Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday this week.

937
01:16:11.000 --> 01:16:18.000
So what you're saying. So it would be Sundays, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and I know things are going to come up.

938
01:16:18.000 --> 01:16:21.000
Yeah, like I have family.

939
01:16:21.000 --> 01:16:25.000
So, you guys have stuff going on.

940
01:16:25.000 --> 01:16:29.000
So, you know, we're not.

941
01:16:29.000 --> 01:16:36.000
I mean we used to meet as we met 30 straight days, every single morning.

942
01:16:36.000 --> 01:16:38.000
And we did it.

943
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And God was faithful.

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And then we had a pastor was part of our group, and so we met every day but Sunday.

945
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And then now we're just going to take a little longer so we're just adapting to the fact that things aren't what they used to be.

946
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But, but we found a time for now, Carrie Are you okay with this.

947
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So, in general for right now Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Sunday at your 7pm. Is that okay. Yeah. And how long does it go through.

948
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So we are looking for, it's always been 30 days. Okay, so because it was, I did it for a month. But now we're like, we're gonna be like eight weeks.

949
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But it's gonna be amazing.

950
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Okay, so we will meet Tuesday night at 9pm Eastern, and 6pm Pacific and everything in between.

951
01:17:48.000 --> 01:18:07.000
And I am so excited. And I think like even just this week, just, I mean he might bring us right in but I've been like in so much of what came before.

952
01:18:07.000 --> 01:18:15.000
I get more and more interested each time like what was before that sermon on the mouth.

953
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I need to know him. But anyway. All right. How's everybody, who's any questions.

954
01:18:25.000 --> 01:18:33.000
Joe cook Where are you from in Saskatchewan, oh we're just out of Saskatoon. Where are you from. I'm Regina. Okay.

955
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How far are you.

956
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Oh, two and a half hours. Hey, yeah.

957
01:18:39.000 --> 01:18:52.000
Where in Saskatoon are you on. We are West Pike Lake. Oh okay I know exactly where you are. I live in Saskatoon for 20 years. Okay. Yeah. Oh, that's so neat.

958
01:18:52.000 --> 01:18:57.000
Wow. The neighbors here in Canada, is that crazy guys.

959
01:18:57.000 --> 01:19:02.000
Otherwise we're all like coast to coast.

960
01:19:03.000 --> 01:19:08.000
Okay, excited about this I'm really looking forward to it.

961
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You still have to send me the link, because I haven't I'm not officially in yet.

962
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I would do that and how to do the payment and all of that, but, yeah.

963
01:19:19.000 --> 01:19:31.000
So I just let you in thinking you had the link and. Okay, so I don't know I didn't, was it out there I'm sorry I didn't say no no it's quite I brought it up. Yeah.

964
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Okay, awesome. I will send that to you.

965
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I just am so blessed. Oh, oh, everybody, we have to take a.

966
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We have to take a before shot.

967
01:19:47.000 --> 01:19:55.000
Okay. All right. Ready. Oh good. Come into the light Devin.

968
01:19:55.000 --> 01:19:57.000
Okay, oh good idea.

969
01:19:57.000 --> 01:20:00.000
Oh no wait I don't know.

970
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:09.840
Okay, we have our we have our before shot. So exciting. And

971
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there is still time if God put somebody on your heart that you

972
01:20:13.840 --> 01:20:18.360
really feel like, um, you know, should be here, you feel like

973
01:20:18.360 --> 01:20:22.680
they're hungry, and God's calling, but I am just like, so

974
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honored to be embarking on this journey with each one of you. I

975
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just think you're some of the most stellar, amazing, powerful,

976
01:20:33.840 --> 01:20:42.600
beautiful people and friends and sisters in my life. And so we'll

977
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all be in the chat. So we'll do life together. And there too, we

978
01:20:46.880 --> 01:20:52.720
have the Facebook group. And eventually, I also have a a

979
01:20:53.080 --> 01:21:00.640
group, I mean, a web site where all of these will be you'll be

980
01:21:00.640 --> 01:21:03.800
able to access these all the time. So but for now, it'll just

981
01:21:03.800 --> 01:21:10.280
be in the Facebook group. And I just love you all. Does anyone

982
01:21:10.280 --> 01:21:16.000
have a prayer on your hearts of benediction here for us?

983
01:21:16.000 --> 01:21:25.400
You know, I'll pray, but I would love it.

984
01:21:27.680 --> 01:21:31.080
Yeah, what is the word benediction? What does that

985
01:21:31.080 --> 01:21:32.720
mean? It's a blessing.

986
01:21:33.960 --> 01:21:35.200
Oh, just means blessing.

987
01:21:35.840 --> 01:21:37.720
I think so. Hang on one second.

988
01:21:40.040 --> 01:21:44.520
Order, you know, that benediction. That's only you

989
01:21:44.520 --> 01:21:45.800
can do that, you know.

990
01:21:47.160 --> 01:21:50.840
Oh, funny. It's a blessing. It says a blessing. Number one

991
01:21:50.840 --> 01:21:56.640
definition. Number two, an invocation, a divine blessing,

992
01:21:56.640 --> 01:22:01.040
usually at the end of a church service. A short service

993
01:22:01.040 --> 01:22:03.960
consisting of prayers, the singing of the Eucharistic hymn

994
01:22:04.000 --> 01:22:06.600
and the blessing of the congregation with the host.

995
01:22:07.440 --> 01:22:11.520
The Lord bless you and keep you. The Lord make his face shine upon

996
01:22:11.520 --> 01:22:15.000
you and be gracious to you. The Lord turn his face towards you

997
01:22:15.040 --> 01:22:18.240
and give you peace. There goes your benediction.

998
01:22:18.440 --> 01:22:24.760
Amen. In Jesus name. And, you know, have these handy during

999
01:22:24.760 --> 01:22:31.360
our, our time, because there will be times that I think

1000
01:22:31.360 --> 01:22:37.320
things will be like sealed in, in this covenant meal, where

1001
01:22:37.320 --> 01:22:40.680
we're bringing him to our remembrance together. But this

1002
01:22:40.680 --> 01:22:46.560
is holy ground. And thank you so much all for showing up

1003
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tonight. I love you, Jenny. God so good.

1004
01:22:54.120 --> 01:22:55.280
Where is that woman?

1005
01:22:57.320 --> 01:23:02.240
Love it. I love this. Okay, I'll see you soon. And just you guys

1006
01:23:02.240 --> 01:23:07.160
I'm I am you have access to me. Okay. And we have access to each

1007
01:23:07.160 --> 01:23:14.040
other. So we're all here to grow together. And just whatever

1008
01:23:14.040 --> 01:23:17.560
questions, whatever struggles, whatever, we're journeying

1009
01:23:17.920 --> 01:23:22.720
together. And we know, as, as sometimes we're heading into

1010
01:23:22.720 --> 01:23:26.600
something a new season crossing a threshold, a different level,

1011
01:23:26.600 --> 01:23:32.680
we've never been to there. There appears to be more pressure. But

1012
01:23:32.680 --> 01:23:37.920
you must know the devil's a liar. And so, so be open, be

1013
01:23:38.160 --> 01:23:42.480
reaching each other be let's be vulnerable, I will need you all

1014
01:23:42.480 --> 01:23:48.760
just as much. And to to just know that the enemy cannot

1015
01:23:48.760 --> 01:23:53.280
afford for you to gain confidence in this area. This is

1016
01:23:53.280 --> 01:23:59.560
going to change everything. And he told me, Psalm 23 for 2023.

1017
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And, you know, as I shared with some of you guys, I was like,

1018
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Oh, that must be me. That's like, so cliche, right? And then

1019
01:24:06.960 --> 01:24:11.400
he said, Good Shepherd. And I heard my sheep hear my voice in

1020
01:24:11.400 --> 01:24:14.880
the voice of another that will not follow. And I realized that

1021
01:24:14.880 --> 01:24:20.120
Psalm is the Psalm of a seriously mature Christian. So

1022
01:24:20.120 --> 01:24:26.280
like he's, he's actually saying it's time to move into this

1023
01:24:26.320 --> 01:24:30.560
place, where you trust that I know, where all those pastures

1024
01:24:30.560 --> 01:24:33.640
behind Karen's head, where they all are.

1025
01:24:36.400 --> 01:24:37.320
Behind that

1026
01:24:37.440 --> 01:24:42.160
wash pastures, there's plenty for all those still waters of

1027
01:24:42.160 --> 01:24:48.520
rest where you need restoration. I am he the path of righteousness

1028
01:24:48.520 --> 01:24:54.640
in this situation, for my name's sake, like moving away from it

1029
01:24:54.640 --> 01:24:58.560
being about us, the typical hindrances and whatnot, that you

1030
01:24:58.560 --> 01:25:00.040
will walk that we will

1031
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:04.520
a walk through the valley of the shadow of death, but fear no

1032
01:25:04.520 --> 01:25:08.000
evil, the feast is already prepared before us, even in the

1033
01:25:08.000 --> 01:25:12.640
presence of our enemies that our cup does overflow, that we are

1034
01:25:12.640 --> 01:25:16.360
anointed for what we're doing, that there's goodness and mercy

1035
01:25:16.360 --> 01:25:20.040
he causes to follow us everywhere. So it's also the

1036
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aroma we leave when we've been in a situation and or somebody's

1037
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company, that we understand we dwell in his presence forever.

1038
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And so this is where so, so imagine he's helping us start

1039
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this year in this place, where we're going to live following

1040
01:25:44.280 --> 01:25:48.360
the Good Shepherd. My son said the other day, Mama, I needed

1041
01:25:48.360 --> 01:25:53.320
him to, to agree on something. He's a member of my board of

1042
01:25:53.320 --> 01:25:56.840
directors for this ministry. And he said, Mom, I need a

1043
01:25:56.840 --> 01:26:01.800
roadmap, I need a clear roadmap. And I said, son, the Lord

1044
01:26:01.800 --> 01:26:08.560
doesn't give us a roadmap. He says, follow me. And so in this

1045
01:26:08.560 --> 01:26:16.360
instance, you're learning how to be in your position. That's

1046
01:26:16.360 --> 01:26:22.040
what we're learning to be positioned at his feet. Okay. I

1047
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love you all. Thank you so much. That was awesome. Yes, link.

1048
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Yes, yes, ma'am. Send you the link. Okay. Love you. Nice

1049
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meeting you. See you Tuesday.