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All right, let me just tag those who aren't yet here.

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We are tagging in gray.

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Okay, come on, why are things moving slowly.

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We are tagging.

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See,

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my background makes it look like my head's partly here and partly.

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What made you your alien member

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or the little teeny member.

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I got it on like this background but I'm not sure how to get it off so. Oh, that's easy. So see where your video thing is and there's a little carrot.

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I don't have a carrot. I'm on an iPad.

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Okay, so you'd go to settings if you assume you would go to settings. I mean it's not a big deal we don't mind do we want, but you would go to settings and then backgrounds, and

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Oh, meeting settings.

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Where do you find settings.

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So, if you press.

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If you press your zoom button.

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If you press your zoom app, and it'll bring up.

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And if you just go to home.

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And the little you just find the little gear.

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And then you press that, and it will bring you to settings.

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If you press down here on the video, you can go to, you know, choose video settings or virtual background or something like that.

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Hi Jill Hi Ingrid.

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Aaron was trying to.

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Well I got backgrounds and effects, there it is. There you are.

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She was trying to come out of the lawn.

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That's a beautiful background.

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Oh, okay sorry guys. All right, cancel.

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I gotta get rid of this.

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I have a green screen.

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Hmm. All right, let me find my, my slide presentation, guys.

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I have never like done a slide presentation for these things.

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I like it because, I mean, I always like, you know, spend time with the Lord and he'll kind of highlight where I'm going, and I'm, it's kind of unfolding.

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For me with you, you know, I mean a lot of times he'll start bringing it to life as you saw like in the Daniel passage where we were, and.

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And so, but this.

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Because there are so many places I could go, as you know, like, you know, the scriptures that we're on, you know this verse we're on. For example, well we'll just go there.

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And you know what, let's. All right, I have to press slideshow.

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And then

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I can't get out of my screen now that I'm changing my background.

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What do you mean you can't get out of your screen, I'm stuck in my settings and the background.

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Oh, so I can't you guys.

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So, how do you.

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Okay, I got out, I got out.

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Oh, but I got out.

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Yeah, we were, we were admiring carries.

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of lights to tell you might be stunned to learn it is two

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dimensional. It's just beautiful. It sounds like an

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amazing beyond. I like it. Um, so okay, you know what we'll do?

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We'll go to this next. We'll just sort of sit here for a

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moment. Reflecting on Hey, Devin. Reflecting on starting to

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imagine ourselves tonight. At the feet of Jesus. I was just

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going to go see if my mom.

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Your mom is so sweet, Hillary.

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Yes.

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She's sweet. Thank you all. How's your dad doing? My dad.

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My dad is the perfect target for healing. He's either so super

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sweet. I mean, he doesn't remember anything. He remembers

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us. So he knows all of us. But he's either super sweet and kind

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as he's always been thankful, always telling us how much he

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loves us. Or if it comes to something, you know, personal,

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like we have to take care of, you know, his help him

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personally. I'm sure it's just the inside like that just

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shouldn't be. And so he just it becomes it can get vulgar,

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violent, you know, stuff like that. So um, so it kind of, you

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know, one thing, one thing it did for me was helped me

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realize, like, if you don't deal with that undercurrent of

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negative thoughts, you know, you know, that thing that's just

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buzzing in the background, or like poking at you, if you

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don't deal with it. And if there is a time or situation, God

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forbid it, in Jesus name, that all those nice, appropriate

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boundary lines are not in place. That's still there. So purifying

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purging, heart healing, like, you know, I just highly

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recommend it's, it's been, you know, big for me to be like,

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okay, I can't be messing around with that. You know, it's just

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not something you swat away. But to go before the Lord bring

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every thought captive. And so I was just gonna see if my mama

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had written anything. And so just say,

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yeah, it's like they say, kids and older people can't hold

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back. And I guess if it's not dealt with, then you don't have

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the strength to hold it back anymore. But you shouldn't have

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to hold it back if it's dealt with.

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Exactly, exactly. Exactly. And that's exactly it's, it's really

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where it's, you're dealing with a toddler, you're dealing with a

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toddler who has a tremendous amount of strength, you know, a

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lifetime of subconscious, you know, fortitude. And so anyway,

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you know, God has an awesome plan for everything. He works

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everything together for good. So I'm just believing that, you

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know, this is my parents greatest opportunity there. You

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know, everybody's still here. Thank you, Jesus. And so there's

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something God is, you know, he just knows how to work

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everything together for good. And that's one thing that I'm

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seeing, like more and more, in these verses, more and more, in

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his presence, more and more that there's, there's just no guile

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in him in any place in us, that, you know, wants to be devoted to

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him yet is still in this space, somewhere else inside of us,

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it's like, but if I don't do this, right, then I could miss

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it? Or where was he when this happened? Or what about my

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dashed dreams? Or you know what I'm saying? There's like, more

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and more, it's just so safe to bring all of those things to

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him. And, and as that came to life in me that, you know, Psalm

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22, my God, my God, how have you forsaken me? I cry out in the

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night, call out in my anguish, and yet, you do not hear. And

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that's like Jesus, Jesus went into every place that we go

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every place that befalls us every place we could suffer

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every physical, mental, emotional, relational,

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financial, just in any way he went there and, and bore the

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anguish, the grief, the sorrows, the torment, the guilt, the

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challenges, and just so he could say it is finished. It is

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finished. You are no longer under this oppressive, dark

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dominion. You are no longer subjects of the law of sin and

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death. I have swallowed it up. I have taken away the keys. Come,

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come enter in. And so here's this this lamb here sitting here

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in this picture, who is God's offering. God's offering for us

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his bread and wine to eat. Like, like, Melchizedek, you know,

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just offered to Abraham the bread and the wine and said,

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blessed is Abram, you know, of the Most High God, and he was

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the priest of the Most High God. And so then Abram gave him a

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tithe. And so I think it's helpful if we just kind of enter

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in for just a couple minutes in the Spirit, in tongues, praying,

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singing, just welcoming him, just however in the Spirit, you

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pray, however you connect with him. And you don't need to mute

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yourself. We can be on the outside of cacophony and yet, a

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worship. So Lord, we welcome you and we thank you, Holy Spirit

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for guiding us in the Spirit.

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Thank you.

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Thank you.

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Thank you.

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Thank you.

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Thank you, thank you, thank you.

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Holy Spirit.

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Come to the feet of our Savior.

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Thank you, thank you, thank you.

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Thank you, Abba, that this means just as much to you, and even more than we could imagine.

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Thank you for all of your prayers and all that you have planned.

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We welcome you to enlarge our hearts, the capacity of our hearts, to give us a spirit of understanding and wisdom, that we may hear the voice of the Good Shepherd.

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And the words that we read, that we may know you, the one true God in Jesus Christ, whom you've sent.

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That we may know the power.

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The power of you in us.

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The same power that raised Jesus Christ from the dead, and caused him to be perfectly seated at the right hand of God.

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Placing the blood on the mercy seat.

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We come, not by any merit of our own, not because we're better than anybody else, not in any goodness of our own.

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But we come, we come because you have entirely made the way.

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And so Lord, we ask you to sanctify this space also, as holy ground.

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Baptize us in the Holy Spirit and in fire, in fire.

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Help us to get so much nearer than we've ever gone before.

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Deeper, farther.

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Take any veil away from our eyes, our hearts, our ears, so that we can clearly observe you, connect, hear, see, dance, do whatever you want.

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We are here to hear from you, in Jesus' name.

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Amen.

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Amen.

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Thank you, thank you.

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That was right.

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So we have.

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We have Matthew five, four.

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We know we've gone deeper into Blastar the poor in spirit night. I just love that bow that the Lord used Ingrid to tie up upon us and for us last night.

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I just really loves the poor. It actually took me into a study today about how God loves the poor, and loves those who minister to the poor, what, what that means to him, and that here, whenever we're whenever we have a sense of our poverty instead of trying

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to defend ourselves justify ourselves, you know, concentrate satisfy in any way bolster ourselves and instead, in all humility, we'll just come to the one who is always exalted, always full of all the wisdom and value and righteousness and perfection.

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He loves that because he gets to come with all that he is.

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us there. That's all place given to him and now he can come with

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all he is. Whatever insufficiency we're willing to

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bring him, he's like, I got you there. It's just like if a

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student enters a classroom and knows everything, the teacher

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has nothing. If somebody walks into a doctor's office and they

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have multiple medical degrees and they're fit and if they're

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just here to give, there is nothing that the doctor can do

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for them. All the doctor's strength and ability means

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nothing. All the teacher's know-how and desire to impart is

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nothing. Just like a parent that wants to train up children,

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that wants to love and nourish and if there's old offensiveness

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and know-how, personal know-how, there's nothing that parent can

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give. All my capacity can only be given to my children to the

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degree that they actually perceive I can give them

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something they don't already have. It's easier to change

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direction, posture, mind, heart when there is no money

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attached. I know it all leaves no room for wisdom to correct

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and build. Do you want to explain that, Jill?

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Sorry. The first one, right now in business, I'm finding it's a

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lot easier to change direction when you don't already have a

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huge amount of money into something. For example, if I've

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got a hundred clients, it's harder to change direction than

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if I don't. So God can move me and shape it before there's a

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lot of investment. I don't know. I don't know if I'm

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explaining that.

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idol. It reveals a stronghold for us. It reveals an

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entitlement for us. If we are so free that we do all that we do

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as unto the Lord, that everything we give, everything we

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have, everything we've been given, everything is just all

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for his glory, then if we are headed in a direction and he

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says, stop, go over here. He might just say, sit, be still.

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Or he might just say, hey, come. Or he might say, like he said

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to us in Massachusetts, walk away from everything into my

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plan and destiny. Purge, purify, and prepare to be equipped.

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Climb into my hands unattached, unencumbered, unhindered, and

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unlimited, and then I'll tell you where to go because I

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already know.

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Can I add to that? I think of those who already have a success

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in business, let's just take that one, or finance or

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whatever, but maybe not with kingdom principles and kingdom

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practice. And then God enters in. They somehow meet him and

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have this. Now they have to change direction to be more

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honorable for him. That's harder to do when all this business is

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already heading in this direction. So I guess I'm saying

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that I'm actually thrilled my business isn't really doing

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much right now so that all the change that's going on in me can

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head me in the right direction from the beginning, like the

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right foundation, the right principles. I don't know if

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that makes sense. An idol is anything you have to ask

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permission to in order to obey God. This is so, so awesome.

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Everyone that comes to the Lord has to walk through that

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process because we're totally built up on idolatry.

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Everything we're built up on is whatever the culture, whatever

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is acceptable in our attitudes, whatever financial, whatever

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possessions, whatever relationships we have. We're

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entangled completely. You know what I'm saying? I was 30 when

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I came to the Lord. That was a process.

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First of all, I just, I just, I thought my sister was ridiculous, but then when he revealed himself

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to me and all these things, you know, began to be taken away until I could see clearly enough

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and come to my knees right next to my bed and say, you are Lord. I don't even know what that

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meant, but it came out of my mouth and I was in the presence of a tenderness I'd never known.

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And, and then, yeah, you still have your, yourself, your affections, like your reputation.

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I was taught that's the one thing people can't take from you. Well, that's, that's something

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God wants. What do other people think of me? Right. And, um, and all the performance and

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the possessions and the, you know, it's, it's, I'm still, I still have construction tape all

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over me, but you know, that's been just, that's a huge part. That's what Jesus says. Like it's

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impossible for a rich man to go through the eye of a needle. And you know, the, I have a needle,

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the eye of the needle is also was a gate, a very small gate into Jerusalem and a, um,

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a camel, you could barely get your animal through that gate. But if the animal had

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possessions on it, you know, like people that traveled with stuff, that animal could not,

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could not get through that gate. You couldn't get through with all your stuff.

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So, um, that is one of the, you know, applications to that scripture. And why is that not because

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God doesn't welcome the rich and the poor because they all stand before him. He made them all right.

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It's because it's to walk away. Right. Yeah. Yeah. It's difficult for them to, to make that

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exchange. You know what I mean? I didn't, I didn't come to the Lord for a lot of years. Cause I'm

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like, I really don't want to live like a librarian. Then you get saved and you're like,

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this is the best thing ever. These are the best people. This is the best. Like,

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it's just nothing like this. You're with people from all over the world all the time with all

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sorts of rich things to give. And you're, you're, you know, you don't have to be at a, at a party

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or you don't have to be performing or you don't have, it was just like, man, I just couldn't

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believe the life and the quality of life and relationships. So, okay. So, um, so that's

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interesting that you brought that up because you actually have to go through a morning.

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You have to die to those things, right? You have to go through a morning for everything you did

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live for everything you did give your soul for give your gifts for perform for give your body

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for give your mind for, you know, a claim pay, whatever. And so that until that becomes something

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that like, oh my goodness, that, you know, that doesn't compare it to God until that's not better

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than God. You, you can't walk away because you still need that thing. But when you realize,

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oh my goodness, what I've been trusting in what I've been giving everything you gave me for what

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I've been worshiping. He told me the thing you fear is the thing or person or whatever to whom

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you ascribe power over your life. So you either fear the thing that haunts you, that threatens

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you, or you fear the God who delivers you. The thing you fear, you will worship. You'll wrap

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your calendar around it, your money around it, your thoughts around it, your devotion. It's

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first thing you think of. It's the, you know, whatever it is, people who love their boats, who

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love, you know, their, their sports, or who worship a person who fear losing a person, who fear

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losing a job, who

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fear, you know, whatever, they'll sacrifice everything

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else. When push comes to shove, there's shove, there's only room

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for one, you can only serve one master. You know, there's only

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room for one at that ultimate place. So anyway, I love that

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you recognize that Jill, because that's so fitting for where we

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are today. So um, all right, who wants to start on the right?

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Like Hebrew from right to left. So who wants to start on the

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right? And just read the beige screen.

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Blessed and immovable happy with a happiness produced by the

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experience of God's favor, and especially conditioned by the

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revelation of his matchless grace, are those who mourn, for

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they shall be comforted.

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Blessed, enviably happy, with a happiness produced, not by the

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thing, not by the achievement, not by the attention, not by the

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notoriety, but by the experience of God's favor, able to come to

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him. And especially conditioned by the revelation of his

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matchless grace, are those who mourn, for they shall be

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comforted. This is a profound blessing. Like I'm only just now

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I think beginning to understand this one after a long time in

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these scriptures. Okay, so we have

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can I share something I heard this week? Yes, ma'am. Like

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you're saying more like, oh, I've lost it. I don't know. I

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was gonna reference there it is. Okay. The verse. Um, I it

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was it was a just an encouragement to embrace

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mourning and not despise it and not. What's the word not try to

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avoid it because he he shared he kind of put it in this context

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of you know, the exchange in Isaiah, he gives joy for

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mourning. So if you want to experience joy, you've got to

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have that morning. It's part of the dance with the Lord. I was

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like, Wow, I've never Wow, like I've never thought to embrace

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it as part of my dance with the Lord. It's like, yeah, it's

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uncomfortable. So it was is he was just saying like, if you if

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you want the joy, the first step of the dance is mourning. And

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here in obviously here for this verse, if you want the comfort,

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Mourn. Yeah, we don't if we don't need comfort. We're not

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looking for it. No. You know, and so what's what's cool about

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what you're saying is like, it's important to understand the

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type of mourning. Like when I, I got married with a pile of

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dreams. I was like, okay, here's what I think married life should

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look like. Here are the things I you know, in every category, I

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completely had written, I had the vision written down. Here's

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what it looks like in finances and relationship with children.

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And you know, you name it serving the Lord like

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everything. And, and yes, yes, yes, exactly. So then, you know,

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let me see if we've got some kind of so if this was my if

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this was my nice, this was my beautiful presentation of

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everything we could agree upon beforehand. That was it

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afterwards. So I'm not saying this to throw anybody under the

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bus. It was that that was my level of mourning at the time. I

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was mourning all like, what have I done, right? I was mourning

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the life I had, I was mourning the the just like the

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relationships I had, I was mourning just all sorts of, you

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know, so called freedoms and and whatever. And, and that kind of

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mourning led me to resentment led me to you know, that was

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an entitlement, right? It was like, like we talked about last

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night, how could you do this to my life, right? So, so, um, and

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that that's true, like all all humans, we go through this where

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it's like, oh, you're gonna, you're gonna take that from me,

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you know, and then, but that's the mourning isn't for the thing

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being asked to sacrifice or the thing that's been sacrificed

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willingly or unwillingly, knowingly or unknowingly. It's

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for what it cost. What did it cost me to, to mourn all of

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that? Or what did it cost me to live, you know, in a way that

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wasn't godly? Or what did it cost me? You know what I'm

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saying? So if we're mourning a thing, if we're mourning a

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position, if we're mourning a relationship or for mourning,

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anything, we're not, it's more like, am I mourning for a

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person? If I'm mourning, am I mourning because a person is

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caught up in sin? And I'm mourning or am I mourning for my

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nation? Not not mourning it because, oh, my life was so much

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better. It was so much freer. What the heck with this, like,

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Homeland Security, like, enough already, you know what I'm

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saying? Like, you know, or am I am I mourning for the cost for

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what's being stolen from people made in the image of God? So I

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don't know if this makes sense. But that's just what I felt

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like. Yeah, what you were, what you were saying, or how it was

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illuminated to me, Devin, is it matters the type of mourning. I

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don't mourn my business. I mourn that my business wasn't

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glorifying God. I don't mourn, you know, if it's stuff that

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comes and goes, because God has me in a different direction. I

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don't mourn that. I don't mind. I don't mourn stuff. I don't. I

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mean, I'm just saying ideally. No, for real. So like, it's

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just not about this stuff. It's it's about the cost. Wow, what

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did that cost me all those years? What did it cost me when

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I when I could have been raising my kids? What did it cost me

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when I could have been out evangelizing people? What did it

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cost me when it could have is known you and lived so

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selflessly and made such an impact? Not self centered

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mourning, mourning with that heart like Daniel. Exactly. So

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speaking of which, perfect. Okay, so who would like to read

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that first Daniel three through five. This is his position of

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godly sorrow before God. And I set my face unto the Lord to

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seek by prayer and supplications with fasting and sackcloth and

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ashes. And I prayed unto the Lord my God and made my

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confession and said, Oh, Lord, the great and dreadful God,

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keeping covenant and mercy to them that love him and to them

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that keep his commandments. We have sinned and have committed

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iniquity and have done wickedly and have rebelled even by

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departing from thy precepts and from my judgment. Yeah, so and

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then that colon indicates Daniel goes on in that vein, speaking

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about the sins of fathers, the sins of the whole nation, the

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sins of the people, the sins of he just goes on and on about we

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how we and he includes himself. He does not say like, Oh, that

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that those people, though, that political party or, or that,

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you know, generation or, or Yeah, those people. I love that

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Karen exactly. So he goes on about but first he like he, but

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I set my face to the Lord to seek by prayer and supplication

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with fasting and sackcloth and ashes. He literally divested

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himself of what brought him comfort. Not the food, not the

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clothes, not the you know, the the being anointed and cleaned

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and like in every way made himself discomforted for the

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purpose of having no attachment to those comforts and to self

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and came separated to do some serious business with God. Okay,

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so here and he goes on in that vein, as I said, Alright, so

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here's God's answer to that posture. God isn't like pick

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yourself

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up, you dirty complainer." No, no, no, no, no. No, no, no, no. He's actually clearing

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out all the obstacles that allow God to enter in. Mourning the lack of righteousness in

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God's family, God's bride, God's lost children. Yeah. Okay. So who would like to read 20-23

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of the same Daniel line? I can read it. And whilst I was speaking and praying and confessing

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my sin and the sin of my people Israel and presenting my supplication before the Lord

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my God for the holy mountain of my God. Yay. Whilst I was speaking in prayer, even the

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man Gabriel, whom I had seen in the vision at the beginning being cast to fly swiftly

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touched me about the time of the evening oblation. And he informed me and talked with me and

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said, Oh, Daniel, I am now come forth to give the skill and understanding at the beginning

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of thy supplications, the commandment came forth and I'm come to show you for thou art

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greatly beloved. Therefore understand the matter and consider the vision. I'm sorry.

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I did that for you in King James. I didn't even, I was like, Oh, I didn't even. Yeah.

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That was a little different. I didn't mean to do that. So I was like, Oh, good job, Ingrid.

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And so, um, I can read it in another way. Well, yeah, that's, that's good. Actually

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you can do that. Yeah. So the, the oblation is the evening sacrifice. And what he's saying

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is essentially, you know, while I was yet praying, while I was in the middle of confessing

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the sin. Yes. While I was offering this supplication to the Lord, while I was mourning before him,

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even the man Gabriel came to me whom I had seen previously in another vision. And he

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touched me at the time of the evening sacrifice. And he said to me, Daniel, I have come forth

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to give you a skill and understanding at the beginning of your supplication. When

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you started pouring your heart out in mourning, I was sent forth with a message for you because

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you are greatly beloved. Therefore understand the matter. He bestows upon him understanding

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and consider this vision. And so the, you know, here he is Daniel who carries so much

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authority, like ultimate authority, almost in the Babylonian and then men is in Persian

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and you know, these, these, these massive empires, uh, as we saw yesterday, he, he sought

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not to defile himself before the Lord and the Lord gave him the kingdom, gave him this

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massive empire kingdom. And, um, and even though that means the kingdom of God, that's

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like that was Daniel would represent God. And so, so this is so beautiful because here's

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this person that has served all these years, all these, um, this was actually during Darius.

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So these decades, these different rulers, so faithfully, this was the time of the, you

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know, uh, you remember, okay. I had a really bad joke. As my husband said, um, Hillary,

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you remember those lions in, uh, in the cave, they were also on a Daniel fast.

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That's really funny.

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No, he just, he just told me tonight, my son was like, why are you laughing? That's not

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funny. I'm like, actually that one is so funny. Oh, anyway.

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You know, I have a question about that since we're talking about the past, it says here

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that, um, you know, that he, Daniel nine, three, the first verse up top, it says with

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fasting and suck sackcloth and ashes. So does that mean that the Daniel fast?

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was truly a fast a short term fast to get close to the Lord or was it a lifestyle of eating like being

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so okay so no you can tell when Daniel fasted he was in particular turning from things so in the

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beginning of Daniel as we read yesterday they purpose not to defile themselves they're freshly

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in Nebuchadnezzar's kingdom freshly changed freshly like you know brought into this place

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and told who they are and what they shall do but his purpose first was I'm not going to defile

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myself so they were offered all of the king's dainties his meats as they were they were invited

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into his feasts because he took the choice people from Israel and and these young men and they were

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going to be trained up and after a certain number of days presented before Nebuchadnezzar to determine

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you know who among them were truly like abundantly wise and intelligent and you

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know were useful for the king's purposes and so he didn't they they didn't want

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to do this the way of this pagan kingdom so for that and in that way they did not eat meat

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sacrifice to idols and and stuff like that in the next chapter Daniel 10 Daniel is reading in

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the book of Jeremiah this is such great questioning Ingrid in the book of Jeremiah

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he's reading about how you know and also it refers to the Pentateuch about how God had said

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you know if you obey me if you walk in my ways like here's the life I have for you the land I

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have for you the blessings the abundance the the victory over enemies the the prosperity the the

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the joy in my presence but but apart from me if you follow other ways if you follow after

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the ways of these nations then this is what will be following you'll lose everything your your sons

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will become castrated your children will be be be slaves of foreign kings you'll you'll lose your

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land the you know like it's just like he said to Isaiah tell these people that um you know here's

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what you're going to tell them and Isaiah said what how long am I going to tell them that and he

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said until until the people are driven from the land and the land lays desolate so you know so

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when when Daniel was reading that it should be 70 years in exile that God spoke that to Jeremiah

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and it was 70 years in in Daniel 10 then Daniel he said I I I turned myself to seek the Lord you

435
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know he went into partnership with this word this is part of you know that first day we were talking

436
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about and I I I I ate no meats and he did this for three weeks he said so 21 days you know I I ate no

437
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meat I drank no wine I I I partook of no rich or fancy food so in other words it was it was you

438
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know there was so it's like a no the vegan comes in because there's no animal products and no

439
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no nothing you drink for pleasure or eat for pleasure nothing with sugar or or you know

440
00:48:38.560 --> 00:48:44.080
richness you're in other words you're separating you'll you'll eat but it but none of it is for

441
00:48:44.080 --> 00:48:50.320
comfort or pleasure he's entirely turning to seek the Lord so that he can partner with this word and

442
00:48:50.320 --> 00:49:01.520
people can go back to Israel the exile can be over so he he lived a fasted life in that you know three

443
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times a day he turns toward Jerusalem and prays to the Lord and he would partake in no evil ways

444
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to not compromise his life but there are times he specifically fasted in different ways here it just

445
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says with fasting in sackcloth and ashes so this part doesn't give us um doesn't give us specifics

446
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except like he went into such deep pouring himself out that I I can't even think of him

447
00:49:32.560 --> 00:49:42.560
getting up from this and walking over and having like you know cheese and crackers and then going

448
00:49:42.560 --> 00:49:50.080
back to like sackcloth and ashes you're you're you're abstaining from sometimes from food and

449
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water but that's an entire like I am I am not even putting on the clothes that give me comfort

450
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I am in like a potato state

451
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back. And, you know, does that help? Is that?

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Yeah, I was just always wondering whether this was a

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short term fast, you know, or whether this was his lifestyle,

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because we know that, you know, Paul said, you know, have a

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little wine, he told Timothy, and that, you know, clearly,

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it's not the vegan style is not necessarily encouraged in the in

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the New Testament, or maybe elsewhere mentioned in the

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Bible. And I was just wondering if this was a, you know, better

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way of eating, or if it was just a short term fast, or if it was

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his way of, of, of also maybe avoiding the the meat that was

461
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presented to the idols. And just trying to, you know, figure it

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out, not that it makes that much of a difference, because I do

463
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think it's different in the in the New Testament. I mean, it

464
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says we can eat anything, you know,

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I think what Paul says, my favorite way of summing all that

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up, is whether you eat or drink, whatever you do, do it for the

467
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glory of God. And so if I'm, if I'm gluttonous, or if I'm eating

468
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contrary to my health, which you know, I'm, I'm right now, like,

469
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like, God, I need to walk away from, you know, a whole lot in

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that in that area. And so it's like, because I, it's like, Oh,

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you got some of that, you know, it's just like, stupid. It's not

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glorifying God. So that's what I think. I think Jesus has set us

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free from checking boxes, to really living a fasted life

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where it's, it's fine to have whatever. It's really cool to

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walk away from whatever unto the Lord for a time or because

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he says, you know, hey, actually, this is hurting you.

477
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And then if he says this is hurting you, it doesn't mean you

478
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go tell everyone else, hey, don't eat corn, because of the,

479
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you know, micro toxins, and you know, all that stuff. He's just

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might be telling me no more corn, you know, stuff like

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that. So I think we're free. We're free to just follow the

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Lord, instead of follow the law. But that's a good question.

483
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Okay, so I'm okay. So now I've got let's go pretty quickly

484
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through these scriptures because I've got actually two pages of

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these because this issue of mourning just as we've seen

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unfold here. The books on the books on this have a Daniel fast

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only raw veggies, fruit, nuts, water, or any for any length of

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time, the Daniel diet brings back some meats and other

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ingredients, but health foods. Okay, thank you, Jill. So. So

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anyway, as we can see, like, just as it took us some time to

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really understand what does this poverty of spirit mean? Let's

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just read through these scriptures. And and then we'll

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go into God's presence. I mean, we are in God's presence, but

494
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we'll just, you know, take it in encounter to him and ask him to

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take us deeper.

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Do you want us to read them out loud or to ourselves? No, please

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read them out loud.

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Okay, I'll read the second Chronicles 3427, because your

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heart was tender, and you humbled yourself before God when

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you heard his words against this place and its inhabitants.

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And you have humbled yourself before me and have torn your

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clothes and wet before me. I also have heard you declares the

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Lord.

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Isn't that awesome? You heard, you heard that this was behavior

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I despised, because of what it does to my children, right? You

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heard that I'm holy, and that this is not acceptable in the

507
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earth I created in the people that I created. You heard my

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words, and your heart was tender to my words, and you humbled

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yourself. And, and you came before me tore your clothes with

510
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mourning, you were like, Oh, this is what we've done to God

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to his testimony to his nation to ourselves, right? He said, I

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I've heard you too.

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That awesome. Okay, Isaiah six, five through seven.

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Okay, then said I woe is me for I am undone and ruined. Because

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I am a man of unclean lips. And I dwell in the midst of a people

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of unclean lips.

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clean lips. For my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts,

518
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then flew one of the seraphim heavenly beings to me having a

519
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live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from off

520
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the altar. And with it he touched my mouth and said,

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Behold, this has touched your lips, your iniquity and guilt

522
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are taken away and your sin is completely atoned for and

523
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forgiven.

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Okay, so Isaiah, in the year King Uzziah died, right? He's

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like, what's the nation gonna do? He was king for 52 years

526
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crying out to God. What are we gonna do? The king is dead. And

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then he behold, he sees the Lord high and lifted up, seated on

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the throne and his train filled the temple. The king is not

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dead. But behold, he's like, but I have seen the king and he

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sees him and all his holiness and the angels are crying out.

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Holy is the Lord. He's just like, overwhelmed that he can

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see the distinction between him and this people and this Holy

533
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God. And he's undone, right? Whoa, is me. I'm undone. I'm

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ruined. I I'm gonna perish. I'm just a man of vulgar among a

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people of vulgar speech of unclean lips. For my eyes have

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seen the king the Lord of hosts. And then God just another words

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like, he comes in that morning. Oh, we haven't lived for you.

538
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Here I am crying out because the king is dead. You're the king.

539
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We we say so many things that are just so perverse, compared

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with your purity and your holiness. And so he comes in

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morning. And the Lord like has one of his angels grab a coal

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from the altar, the fire of the altar and touch his lips and

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cleanse him.

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That's amazing.

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That's amazing.

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Yes, we can receive that today. Just like your your iniquity

547
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and your guilt are taken away from you because you came to me.

548
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You came to me. All I can give you is forgiveness. I don't have

549
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unforgiveness. So when you come to me with your sin, you know,

550
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if you come to me all puffed up, I what can I give you? Right? If

551
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that's what Jesus said, if you come to me saying I see, I can't

552
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give you sight you already see you know, you're all good. So

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here Yes, your sin is completely, completely atoned

554
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for and forgiven. So those who come morning, oh, they find Wow,

555
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I'm not punished. I'm not rejected. I'm not ostracized.

556
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I'm not imprisoned. I'm not condemned. I'm actually

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comforted.

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Psalm 126, five and six someone quickly.

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Oh, go ahead. No worries. Oh, I lost it. Whoops, whoops, whoops.

560
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I'm sorry. Go ahead. Those who sow in tears shall reap with

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shouts of joy. He who goes out weeping bearing the seed for

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sowing shall come home with shouts of joy bringing his

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sheaves with him. Come on. Okay, this is big because now he takes

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that morning, and he calls it sowing. And, and so he's pouring

565
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out into your you're pouring out into you're actually cultivating

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something. And what you're going to bring in is an abundant

567
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harvest of joy. That's the promise of God. Okay, Jill,

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second Corinthians seven, nine through 10. Nine and 10.

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Yeah, now I'm happy. Oh, I'm sorry. The other Jill. I'm

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sorry. I feel good.

571
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Jill went to go read the last verse. I should have said Jill

572
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Cook. Sorry. We're next Jill. Okay. Go ahead.

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Jill, now I am happy. Not because you were made sorry, but

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because your sorrow led you to repentance. But you became

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sorrowful as God intended and so we're not harmed in any way by

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us. Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to

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salvation and leaves no regret but worldly sorrow brings death.

578
00:59:41.640 --> 00:59:45.060
Okay, this is so cool. So Paul had written the whole first

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letter of current Corinthians, which was pretty harsh

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statements against their pretty wicked behavior and thoughts and

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the things they were doing. And so he set them straight in a lot

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of ways.

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And so apparently they were like, ouch, Paul, you know, but at the same time, apparently it caused them to change.

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And so he says that, you know, he was like, I didn't mean to write harshly towards you, but now I'm happy.

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Not because you were made sorry, but because your sorrow led you to repentance.

586
01:00:28.000 --> 01:00:36.000
For you came sorrowful as God intended so that you were not harmed by us.

587
01:00:36.000 --> 01:00:41.000
Instead, you were brought to conviction, not to condemnation.

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01:00:41.000 --> 01:00:50.000
Your godly sorrow by realizing what you were doing was sinning, sinning against yourselves, against your family, being perverse.

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01:00:50.000 --> 01:00:57.000
You were sinning against the poor. You were sinning against the Lord who gave you all those gifts and brought you into salvation.

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01:00:57.000 --> 01:01:04.000
And they were awakened by it. And they turned and repented like Nineveh, right?

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And so it brought them a salvation with no regret, whereas if they had been condemned, it would have brought death to their relationship with God, to their hope, too.

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01:01:17.000 --> 01:01:22.000
So, okay. All right. Jewels.

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01:01:22.000 --> 01:01:26.000
Second Chronicle. Didn't I just read Second Chronicles?

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Second Chronicles. Okay. Yes. 7, 12, 14. Then the Lord appeared to Solomon by night and said to him, I have heard your prayer and have chosen this place for myself as a house of sacrifice.

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01:01:38.000 --> 01:01:45.000
When I shut up heaven and there is no rain or command the locusts to devour the land or send pestilence among my people.

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01:01:45.000 --> 01:01:55.000
If my people are called by my name will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land.

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01:01:55.000 --> 01:02:05.000
Isn't that like, you know, what's so cool about this is that the Lord knows we're under the dominion of darkness and live in the law of sin and death.

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But he's like, but if you come to me, you know, like, because if you choose to live under the dominion of darkness, you choose to go that way, you will live the consequences of your sin.

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01:02:17.000 --> 01:02:36.000
Yes. You know, this is what's going to happen. But if you come to me, if you humble yourself, if you turn from your wicked ways, it doesn't say if my people called by my name would come and tell me about how bad, as Karen said, those people are.

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No, no, I mourn for myself. Lord, I've allowed myself such a liberty with my tongue or liberty with my mind or liberty with my possessions or my, you know, whatever.

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01:02:51.000 --> 01:03:06.000
I haven't honored you. I see that I've been the fool here. I see that I've I've torn my house down with my own hands or I've I've been so dishonorable to my parents or to my husband or, you know, whatever it is.

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01:03:06.000 --> 01:03:26.000
And so, but he says, like, so if you're under the law of sin and death and you reap all the death from your sins, but if you turn to me, if you come to me and seek my face, sorry for your sin, turning from your wicked ways, repent, I will hear you.

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01:03:26.000 --> 01:03:31.000
I will give you what I have. I'll give you forgiveness and healing.

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01:03:31.000 --> 01:03:39.000
So awesome. Okay, Isaiah 12123.

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And in that day, you will say, Oh, Lord, I will praise you, though you were angry with you, your anger is turned away, and you comfort me.

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01:03:50.000 --> 01:04:05.000
Behold, God is my salvation, I will trust and not be afraid for a the Lord is my strength and song. He has, he also has become my salvation. Therefore, with joy, you will draw water from the wells of salvation.

607
01:04:06.000 --> 01:04:14.000
Okay, so this is a very messianic, you know, in, in

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But this is talking about the messianic reign and it's like in that day, you will say, Lord, I praise you, you were angry with me because I lived under sin and death.

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01:04:27.000 --> 01:04:31.000
I was separated with you, your wrath was my portion.

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01:04:31.000 --> 01:04:34.000
But now you are my salvation.

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01:04:35.000 --> 01:04:55.000
Jesus Yahweh is salvation. I will trust in you and not be afraid. You are my strength, and my song you have become my salvation, not, not the health club, not the job, not this person.

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01:04:55.000 --> 01:05:01.000
Or not like whatever, whatever could a person could think is going to happen.

613
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.440
You know, what is, you know, Pedro said,

614
01:05:03.440 --> 01:05:06.360
look for a savior, you'll find an oppressor.

615
01:05:06.360 --> 01:05:11.240
So therefore with joy, you will draw from the water,

616
01:05:11.240 --> 01:05:14.280
the water from the wells of salvation.

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01:05:14.280 --> 01:05:19.280
So now we're invited to just drink from salvation,

618
01:05:20.860 --> 01:05:25.860
that we mourn for things that are contrary to God

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01:05:25.960 --> 01:05:27.520
so that we can draw more.

620
01:05:27.520 --> 01:05:30.400
Like if we cry out for our nation,

621
01:05:30.400 --> 01:05:32.440
he'll comfort us and give us a vision,

622
01:05:32.440 --> 01:05:34.480
give us a word, give us a...

623
01:05:34.480 --> 01:05:36.720
Yeah, look for a rescuer, find an oppressor.

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Yeah.

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So there we go.

626
01:05:42.160 --> 01:05:43.200
Okay.

627
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Oh.

628
01:05:47.160 --> 01:05:49.880
Okay, so here I'll just go through like,

629
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you know, this was to really help us really come in

630
01:05:54.600 --> 01:05:59.440
and continue to identify with being at Jesus's feet.

631
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So I'll just read these quickly.

632
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You know, when we're pursuing him, Luke 10 40,

633
01:06:04.640 --> 01:06:08.360
Lord, don't you care that my sister has left me

634
01:06:08.360 --> 01:06:10.520
to do all the work by myself?

635
01:06:10.520 --> 01:06:14.240
That's Mary, she's pursuing excellence or attention

636
01:06:14.240 --> 01:06:17.280
or, you know, self-righteousness.

637
01:06:17.280 --> 01:06:19.280
But Jesus replies, Martha, Martha,

638
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you're worried and upset about many things,

639
01:06:22.840 --> 01:06:27.840
but few things are needed or indeed only one.

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01:06:28.280 --> 01:06:31.280
Mary has chosen what is better

641
01:06:31.280 --> 01:06:34.080
and it will not be taken from her.

642
01:06:34.080 --> 01:06:36.000
And that's what we're here for,

643
01:06:36.000 --> 01:06:41.000
is to turn aside from all the things we are worried about

644
01:06:41.400 --> 01:06:43.880
and seek for the one thing.

645
01:06:44.760 --> 01:06:48.880
Matthew 9 14, let the little children alone

646
01:06:49.720 --> 01:06:53.320
and do not hinder them from coming to me

647
01:06:53.320 --> 01:06:56.880
for the kingdom of heaven belongs to these.

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When we come as children, we come excited,

649
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we come humble, we come full of anticipation.

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There's just tons of space for the Lord to meet us there.

651
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And then this kind of goes over under the,

652
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the, you know, Mary at his feet there

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and standing behind him at his feet weeping,

654
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she began to wet his feet with her tears

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and wiped them with the hair of her head

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and kissed his feet and anointed them with the ointment.

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Micah 7 18, who is a God like you who pardons iniquity

658
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and passes over the rebellious acts

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of the remnant of his possession.

660
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He does not retain his anger forever

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because he delights in unchanging love.

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He doesn't want to attach people to their sin.

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That's why the church is so confused, you know,

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like, oh, we have to, you know, accept these,

665
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this behavior and these people of this and the,

666
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and that because they don't know,

667
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they, all they know is people are attached to their sins.

668
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They don't know how to attach people to a savior.

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We're either identified by our sin

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or we identify others by their sin and judgment

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or we are identified and identify others

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by a savior, by the savior.

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Psalm 34 18, the Lord is near to the brokenhearted

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and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

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And then we come, we come for his purpose.

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Come to me, all you who are laboring,

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heavily burdened, spinning, I will give you rest.

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Take my yoke, my purpose, my assignment,

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my presence, my life upon you and learn from me.

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For I am gentle and lowly in heart

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and you will find rest for your souls.

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For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

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And, and in this, in this space,

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we see Jesus has been living these beatitudes,

685
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that all the rewards, you know, what is,

686
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what does Hebrews 11 say?

687
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Like it's impossible to please God without faith

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for he who comes to God must believe that he is

689
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and that he's a rewarder of those who diligently seek him.

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We are out spinning for the rewards of the world.

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under the dominion of darkness, under the law of sin and death. But he wants to give

692
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the kingdom, he wants to give righteousness, he wants to give all the provision that you

693
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need like he does for the birds, like he dresses the flowers. That's the God who is our Father.

694
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So let's take all this into God's presence so that we can say to him, be it done unto

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me according to thy word. So Lord, I thank you so much for all these words. All these

696
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words, Lord. These examples of how you respond to those who will believe that you're the

697
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truth, you're the way, you're the life, and repent from every other wisdom or religion

698
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or possession or personal right to oneself. All that's not you. And Lord, I ask you to

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help us even just as we sit here in your presence. And would you make it real to us? Would you

700
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show us where you are in relationship to us as we sit here in your presence? Jesus.

701
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Lord, what is it you see in me as we're together in this space?

702
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May I see your eyes in a new way. May I behold your eyes in a more intimate, deeper way.

703
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Lord, what is it you see in me as we're together in this space? May I see your eyes in a new

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way.

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All right. May I see your feet? Will you show me your feet?

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May I see your feet?

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Jesus.

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Jesus.

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What do you want me to know?

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Jesus.

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Jesus, please help me give you what keeps me from your feet.

712
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Please help me give you all that distracts me from being in this place when it matters

713
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and making this my most precious place.

714
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What keeps me from running here to you, Lord?

715
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Jesus, please help me give you all that distracts me from being in this place when it matters.

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Lord, would you help me to receive your rest, like your invitation to come away from those things, to see them on you, to see you carry them away, just like you took away Isaiah's sin and you took away Israel's sin and you took away the sin of Daniel,

717
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you took away the sin of anyone who would come to you, you took it away.

718
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Would you take those weights, those mindsets and fears and attitudes away and help me know your rest in place?

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Jesus, please help me receive what does it look like for me to let you give me rest?

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Lord, I ask you to seal all of this precious revelation, this personal revelation from

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your Word, all the words that have been spoken that we be washed, all the jewels you have

722
01:20:46.180 --> 01:20:52.220
just given us, the treasures you have just given us, and there's so much more we don't

723
01:20:52.220 --> 01:21:01.060
yet see. Help us to go deeper in that place of rest and light, and Lord, through this

724
01:21:01.060 --> 01:21:12.400
weekend till we come together again so that we don't leave this place here. We actually

725
01:21:12.400 --> 01:21:21.260
come back having been with you more, more than what you just showed us, more than what

726
01:21:21.260 --> 01:21:36.440
you've taught us. Help us to come to you just like this, Friday, Saturday, every day.

727
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I thank you that this is your desire. We're looking for your will in us, as in heaven,

728
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in Jesus' name. Amen. Wow. I know we've gone over, but I think it was important to come

729
01:22:00.480 --> 01:22:11.140
to this point with the Lord before we're not together for a number of days. I'd love to

730
01:22:11.140 --> 01:22:30.560
hear if you are willing to share what the Lord taught you. Can you turn the slide deck

731
01:22:30.560 --> 01:22:36.700
off so we can see each other? Oh, I'm so sorry. That's okay. You know what I just noticed

732
01:22:36.700 --> 01:22:41.580
too? There's a bar in the middle, and you can pull it all the way to the left, and then the

733
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faces are bigger, and the slide is really small. You pull it to the right. Earlier, I just figured

734
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it out when we were trying to read, and then you read again, but I was like, oh, that's pretty

735
01:22:53.580 --> 01:23:02.940
cool. Oh, I didn't even know that. So the whole time, I've seen all of you like this. So that's

736
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okay. But thank you, Ingrid, because now I can move it. But I'm glad you said something because

737
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we're finished with it. Yeah, that's good. Okay. So who has it on your heart to share what happened

738
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with Jesus? I think for me, it's the abiding, the constant, the moment-by-moment abiding,

739
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not just, oh, I'm coming to your presence now, now I'm leaving your presence, now I'm coming

740
01:23:42.460 --> 01:23:50.140
into your presence. No, my joy and strength and peace and rest lie in the abiding and the trust

741
01:23:50.140 --> 01:23:59.820
in him. I mean, he's calling me into that for quite some time, but to remain conscious of him

742
01:23:59.820 --> 01:24:07.980
has been my challenge. So sometimes I set my alarm on my phone to just say, oh, to train myself,

743
01:24:08.540 --> 01:24:12.300
what do you want to say to me now about this? Or what do you want to say about that? Or how do you

744
01:24:12.300 --> 01:24:17.100
want to deal with this? Or how do you want to deal with that? And it is working, but honestly,

745
01:24:17.100 --> 01:24:25.420
this has been like a 15-year process. Because as soon as I leave the presence of the Lord,

746
01:24:26.300 --> 01:24:30.380
then this is on my mind, and then that's on my mind, and then this is on my mind.

747
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It's like Brother Lawrence, you know, doing dishes, you're in the presence of the Lord,

748
01:24:37.820 --> 01:24:46.460
sweeping the floor, you're in the presence of the Lord. It's not separate. It's never

749
01:24:46.540 --> 01:24:53.340
separate. I'm learning to try and keep it one with him, as opposed to compartmentalizing everything.

750
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Wish me luck. Wish me growth.

751
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The Lord. This is what we're doing, right? This is the whole

752
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way. That's what Mary discovered. She found his feet

753
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once she found his feet. It's like that. She didn't need

754
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anyone else or anywhere else. Yeah. Anyone else? That's so

755
01:25:27.240 --> 01:25:30.960
good, Karen. Thank you. That's exactly I think what brought us

756
01:25:30.960 --> 01:25:32.040
all together, right?

757
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But remaining in that place with him is and maybe that's where

758
01:25:41.920 --> 01:25:44.840
the growth continues. Please help me to remain in this place

759
01:25:44.840 --> 01:25:49.600
with you. Not just for this 10 minutes or hour or two hours or

760
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whatever. But all day long.

761
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So that's, yeah, I'm sorry. Yeah. Well, what you just said

762
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was something he had said to me in 1997. He said, Hillary, I saw

763
01:26:03.080 --> 01:26:05.760
his hands and he said, hold on to my hands. I'll keep your feet

764
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off the ground. Yeah. In 2014, he said, I want you to teach

765
01:26:10.720 --> 01:26:13.560
that to your children, to your family, actually, he said.

766
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Knowing I hadn't even learned how to do it in those 17 years.

767
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But that's true, right? It's like, you know, it here, but

768
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that the living and abiding in him is a journey of a lifetime,

769
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I think.

770
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So he had told me, this is what I want you to focus on always

771
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like, just hold on to my hands. And when he said that to me, I

772
01:26:38.960 --> 01:26:45.120
was just like, like, I hadn't even been working at that all

773
01:26:45.120 --> 01:26:47.760
these years, you know what I'm saying? Especially since I had

774
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spent so many of them disgruntled, you know. And so I

775
01:26:54.120 --> 01:27:00.440
said, Lord, how do I even do it? And he said, moment by moment.

776
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Oh, yeah, he wasn't even mad at me. He wasn't like you

777
01:27:05.440 --> 01:27:08.680
knucklehead. Like, I know you haven't done anything like to

778
01:27:08.680 --> 01:27:12.440
try and, you know, it was, it was a good story I could share,

779
01:27:12.440 --> 01:27:15.600
but I hadn't like and he, he showed me like, you know,

780
01:27:15.600 --> 01:27:19.960
translations, all sorts of stuff like he would. And he's

781
01:27:19.960 --> 01:27:22.920
shown me so many things over the years, like being having my feet

782
01:27:22.920 --> 01:27:26.800
on the ground is to be earthly minded. And and connecting with

783
01:27:26.800 --> 01:27:29.920
him is to be heavenly minded, you know, is to have an

784
01:27:29.920 --> 01:27:36.160
orientation that's coming from above, moment by moment. So what

785
01:27:36.160 --> 01:27:41.840
he told me was like, you know, when I said, Lord, where are you

786
01:27:41.840 --> 01:27:48.160
when I was looking down? And he just reached over and took my

787
01:27:48.160 --> 01:27:57.760
chair. Oh, look at me. And and so then I said, you know, what

788
01:27:57.760 --> 01:28:04.320
do you see? And he said, I see my light. I see myself. I see a

789
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mirror of the glory of me. And I saw like this mirror and he

790
01:28:10.960 --> 01:28:15.040
could see himself and it just delighted him. It's just like

791
01:28:15.040 --> 01:28:24.800
that's just the light. Yes. And then um, so I was like, I was

792
01:28:24.800 --> 01:28:32.400
honestly wanting to see his eyes of fire. And, um, but instead, I

793
01:28:32.400 --> 01:28:41.440
saw eyes so filled with emotion, like tearing up. And he said,

794
01:28:41.440 --> 01:28:47.520
you evoke such emotion in me. And so it was a whole different,

795
01:28:47.560 --> 01:28:55.240
you know, it wasn't the fire. And then when I said, May I see

796
01:28:55.240 --> 01:29:00.680
your feet. And then so I saw like, so I saw his, you know,

797
01:29:00.680 --> 01:29:06.440
his Jesus robe. And there was feet and he took my feet and put

798
01:29:06.480 --> 01:29:12.160
our feet together. And I'm like, pressing in to try to figure

799
01:29:12.200 --> 01:29:18.440
out. And he said, we are never separated. When we sit together

800
01:29:18.440 --> 01:29:25.360
like this. There's so much more I will show you. This is just

801
01:29:25.520 --> 01:29:31.960
the beginning. So we're always with him. It he's with us moment

802
01:29:31.960 --> 01:29:37.080
by moment. It's just like you're saying like, becoming aware. And

803
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so he took my feet to show me like separation between my feet

804
01:29:42.440 --> 01:29:49.720
and your feet. And then I said, you know what I asked what what

805
01:29:49.720 --> 01:29:57.720
keeps me from this place? And he said, fear. Yes, bingo. regret

806
01:29:58.480 --> 01:29:59.560
the past.

807
01:30:00.560 --> 01:30:05.600
all those, you know, times that you allowed what was happening

808
01:30:05.600 --> 01:30:10.080
in your life, to separate you from the habit of coming to me,

809
01:30:10.320 --> 01:30:16.800
you're still carrying the weight of that. Oh, coming to me. And

810
01:30:16.920 --> 01:30:22.240
so I said, Lori, Lord, I'm so sorry, I just give you that. And

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then it was, you know, help me know your rest. What does your

812
01:30:26.640 --> 01:30:28.000
rest look like in that?

813
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It is finished. It's finished. Like, that's all gone. It is

814
01:30:33.040 --> 01:30:36.920
finished. Come and just see yourself that that painting when

815
01:30:36.920 --> 01:30:41.840
I painted that he said, See yourself, see yourself coming to

816
01:30:41.840 --> 01:30:46.000
me undistracted. Fear sees something else. Regret sees

817
01:30:46.000 --> 01:30:50.680
something else. The past sees something else. I'm sorry,

818
01:30:50.680 --> 01:30:55.400
chill. I see you sleeping over there. So we're almost okay,

819
01:30:55.400 --> 01:31:05.360
almost finished. All right. Anyone else want to share? Okay.

820
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All right. Like to write Jill, did you want to share? Jill

821
01:31:14.720 --> 01:31:19.760
love? Okay, I thought she was talking to us. So did you want

822
01:31:19.760 --> 01:31:24.120
to? Yeah. Did you want to kill before we? Oh, I'd love to. I

823
01:31:24.120 --> 01:31:34.040
didn't even realize I was unmuted. Sorry. Well, he and I

824
01:31:34.040 --> 01:31:39.560
said, Where was he? I looked around. I was looking around the

825
01:31:39.560 --> 01:31:42.240
room because I'm in my office. That's like got lots of first

826
01:31:42.240 --> 01:31:46.200
lots of stuff on it. And I'm like, Okay, I don't see you

827
01:31:46.200 --> 01:31:49.520
here. I don't see here. And then I looked over and he's just

828
01:31:49.520 --> 01:31:54.280
sitting on top of my piles on my desk. His feet like just

829
01:31:54.280 --> 01:31:59.600
sitting right on. So what do you see in me? He said, You have a

830
01:31:59.600 --> 01:32:05.040
child's heart open to what I'm teaching you right now. Trust

831
01:32:05.040 --> 01:32:09.960
me. So then what may I see your eyes? He said, Yes, you can

832
01:32:09.960 --> 01:32:14.400
trust them. May I see your feet? Yes, you can trust them. I'm

833
01:32:14.400 --> 01:32:18.480
like, Is there a theme here? What do you want me to know? You

834
01:32:18.480 --> 01:32:22.680
can trust me. I have so many great, abundant, extravagant

835
01:32:22.680 --> 01:32:27.960
things for you. I said, What keeps me from remaining here?

836
01:32:28.000 --> 01:32:31.680
He said, You believe I could, but you don't believe I will

837
01:32:31.680 --> 01:32:35.600
for you. Oh, you believe it for others. But when it comes to

838
01:32:35.600 --> 01:32:42.200
you, you just don't think I will. And then how do I stay in

839
01:32:42.200 --> 01:32:52.840
this place where I can believe you will? Excuse me. Um, when

840
01:32:55.040 --> 01:33:02.320
when you are inclined to think I won't believe I am. Because my

841
01:33:02.320 --> 01:33:07.760
ways are not like yours. You can trust. So.

842
01:33:08.120 --> 01:33:11.880
Wow, I mean, that's, that's like, that's what faith is, is

843
01:33:12.360 --> 01:33:15.800
really trusting in that relationship. That's beautiful.

844
01:33:15.800 --> 01:33:19.080
I thought I had some. I mean, I thought I had a lot, but I'm

845
01:33:19.440 --> 01:33:23.720
realizing that it's getting tested. Like I, the end of my

846
01:33:23.720 --> 01:33:27.120
challenge last night in my offer, I got off the call just

847
01:33:27.120 --> 01:33:30.640
crying. I'm like, I blew it, Lord. I'm nothing's gonna come

848
01:33:30.640 --> 01:33:34.960
from this. Oh, and he's like, Trust me, Jill. Trust. I'm like,

849
01:33:34.960 --> 01:33:41.240
and so it was. But I have always said, I believe you could.

850
01:33:43.000 --> 01:33:48.880
But I don't want to hold on to believing you will. Oh. So how I

851
01:33:48.880 --> 01:33:51.560
do that. And so I want to believe I believe you could and

852
01:33:51.560 --> 01:33:55.120
I believe you're good. But believing you will do this or

853
01:33:55.120 --> 01:34:01.080
something for me is where I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm

854
01:34:01.080 --> 01:34:07.320
not sure how to have faith. So. Oh, my goodness. Well, I love

855
01:34:07.320 --> 01:34:12.360
that. But I love that he was sitting on your piles, because

856
01:34:12.360 --> 01:34:18.000
it's, you know, trust, trust, trust, eyes of trust, feet of

857
01:34:18.000 --> 01:34:24.200
trust. Trusting I will, I will, I will, I will. That's

858
01:34:24.200 --> 01:34:24.920
beautiful.

859
01:34:25.840 --> 01:34:30.880
Trusting I will, I will, I will, I will. That's beautiful.

860
01:34:31.160 --> 01:34:36.920
Well, and he ended with believe I am. I will, it was believe I

861
01:34:36.920 --> 01:34:41.760
am going I am doing good things for you, but my ways aren't like

862
01:34:41.760 --> 01:34:42.760
yours. So.

863
01:34:44.000 --> 01:34:46.680
Oh, that's so good. Thank you for clarifying that.

864
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I just feel him pouring out so much love towards you, Jill,

865
01:34:50.360 --> 01:34:53.600
like, like a river of love coming to you from him, just

866
01:34:53.600 --> 01:34:56.400
pouring out on you. And that's causing the weeping, I think,

867
01:34:56.440 --> 01:34:58.960
but he so loves you. Oh, my God.

868
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:03.540
you feel it to the degree he's pouring it out upon you.

869
01:35:06.720 --> 01:35:07.920
So good.

870
01:35:07.920 --> 01:35:08.760
Thank you guys.

871
01:35:08.760 --> 01:35:12.280
Oh, oh, my mom.

872
01:35:12.280 --> 01:35:14.620
Hey, mama, I don't know if you're still here.

873
01:35:14.620 --> 01:35:18.940
She said, oh, the camel had either to be unloaded to get in.

874
01:35:18.940 --> 01:35:21.540
Okay, that was back when,

875
01:35:24.680 --> 01:35:27.000
once the gate was closed.

876
01:35:27.000 --> 01:35:28.640
Oh, the first pass was 10 days.

877
01:35:28.680 --> 01:35:30.920
Okay, so then she's talking about the past.

878
01:35:30.920 --> 01:35:33.840
Okay, oh, I miss seeing she was there

879
01:35:33.840 --> 01:35:35.000
because I had the,

880
01:35:37.600 --> 01:35:38.860
I had our,

881
01:35:41.880 --> 01:35:43.760
the slide deck you had up.

882
01:35:43.760 --> 01:35:46.480
Yeah, okay, all right.

883
01:35:46.480 --> 01:35:50.160
All right, I love you all so very much.

884
01:35:50.160 --> 01:35:53.560
Any, well, I don't want to hold anybody longer,

885
01:35:53.560 --> 01:35:57.000
but you can put it in the chat or whatever, or go live.

886
01:35:57.000 --> 01:35:58.040
That's really helpful.

887
01:35:58.440 --> 01:36:00.200
Especially since we're not going to see each other

888
01:36:00.200 --> 01:36:02.880
for a few days.

889
01:36:02.880 --> 01:36:06.440
And so just kind of like what God's showing you,

890
01:36:06.440 --> 01:36:10.600
what's he putting on your heart?

891
01:36:10.600 --> 01:36:11.600
What have you learned?

892
01:36:11.600 --> 01:36:16.600
And yeah, would anyone like to pray for us?

893
01:36:22.960 --> 01:36:24.260
So it's like pray through.

894
01:36:26.120 --> 01:36:27.160
I'll pray.

895
01:36:27.160 --> 01:36:29.200
Oh, okay.

896
01:36:30.840 --> 01:36:34.840
Lord, we just thank you so much for this time together

897
01:36:35.960 --> 01:36:39.980
and for all the revelations that you gave us,

898
01:36:39.980 --> 01:36:43.360
bringing us just closer and closer to you

899
01:36:43.360 --> 01:36:46.920
to where we can be better Christians,

900
01:36:46.920 --> 01:36:51.460
better witnesses, more effective for your work.

901
01:36:53.040 --> 01:36:56.840
Lord, I thank you for the breakthrough that Jill had

902
01:36:57.520 --> 01:37:00.840
and the journey that it seems like it's,

903
01:37:00.840 --> 01:37:04.200
that you have her on now, that she has seen this

904
01:37:04.200 --> 01:37:09.200
and she will have different expectations.

905
01:37:10.420 --> 01:37:12.200
And we thank you for that.

906
01:37:12.200 --> 01:37:17.200
And we just, we ask for your full revelation in that area

907
01:37:20.900 --> 01:37:25.900
and for that trust that you have in her

908
01:37:26.840 --> 01:37:31.840
that faith, that belief to keep growing

909
01:37:32.120 --> 01:37:37.120
and keep getting closer to you in everything,

910
01:37:37.560 --> 01:37:41.360
in a personal life and for work.

911
01:37:42.400 --> 01:37:46.300
And Lord, for all of us, we really, that's what we want.

912
01:37:46.300 --> 01:37:49.660
And that's what we're asking you for.

913
01:37:49.660 --> 01:37:53.600
And also for Karen, this is what she's sharing.

914
01:37:53.960 --> 01:37:56.960
We wanna be close to you all day long.

915
01:37:57.880 --> 01:38:00.280
And so we ask that you will continue this work

916
01:38:00.280 --> 01:38:03.680
that you have started in us, especially the next few days

917
01:38:03.680 --> 01:38:06.880
that you will keep giving us those revelations

918
01:38:06.880 --> 01:38:10.400
that you've given us tonight and that we will keep,

919
01:38:13.320 --> 01:38:15.880
yeah, keep on that journey, Lord.

920
01:38:16.760 --> 01:38:20.480
And that you will bring us safely together

921
01:38:20.520 --> 01:38:21.960
on Sunday night again.

922
01:38:21.960 --> 01:38:24.200
And let us have a good couple of days

923
01:38:24.200 --> 01:38:27.720
in between staying close to you.

924
01:38:27.720 --> 01:38:30.040
And Lord, we thank you, we pray this to you, son,

925
01:38:30.040 --> 01:38:31.240
Jesus Christ.

926
01:38:31.240 --> 01:38:33.200
Jesus, amen.

927
01:38:33.200 --> 01:38:34.040
Thank you.

928
01:38:34.040 --> 01:38:34.880
Thank you.

929
01:38:34.880 --> 01:38:36.760
Thank you so much, we love you.

930
01:38:36.760 --> 01:38:37.800
Bye.

931
01:38:37.800 --> 01:38:38.640
You're amazing.