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Hi! Just hopping on to do my homework. I have been listening to some of the

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replays from the previous sessions, the previous intensives. I watched the one

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today that Ashley reposted from 2020 and I recall her saying that the sooner we

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become authentic and vulnerable about where we're at, the sooner we can find

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healing and freedom. So, here we go. Things have felt super overwhelming

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within the last week. Specifically, I think I've mentioned briefly, I have a

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pretty full schedule with my job that requires a lot of travel and

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simultaneously I've been battling some pretty intense health problems for

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quite some time, but it seems that they've just progressively gotten worse

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and I've worked in health care for over 15 years, so I have a very strong

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opinion about medical interventions and all those things and I know that the

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stress and the unrest and the fear and anxiety is at the root of all of it, I'm

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convinced, but when I'm experiencing anxiety it's, you know, sometimes you go

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through all the motions but yet it still stays and I'm like, how do I make

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this stop and go away? So, I think my greatest challenge or question that I've

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been asking within the last month even is, is it possible for me to walk this

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out? I know that rest is not stagnance or like not, that doesn't mean that I'm

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not moving forward and, you know, that I'm just laying on the couch, but I've been

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questioning for a while, like, is it possible for me to walk this out and get

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breakthrough in this area while working this job or is it going to require me to

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find another position in the interim while I'm walking this out? So often I

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feel like I'm trying to, you know, just apply all of the things and, but just due

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to the pace and the demands, I just can't seem to get on top of it, I can't seem to

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get a handle on it and I don't know what it's going to take, but I know that it's

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a priority of mine, so whatever, whatever we need to do to get there, I'm willing

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to do. I guess it feels overwhelming to make big decisions right now. I think I

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started just today, I'm like, okay, what can I do today? I can ask my boss if I

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can work from home while I'm not traveling and so, yeah, I guess I've just

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been taking one day at a time, but I'm looking forward to my one-on-one and for

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Ashley to kind of speak into that, but yeah, I don't really have much else to

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say. It's been, it's been a challenging week for sure, but super grateful to be

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walking this out with you gals and to be learning together. So I'm excited for

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tonight's class and I'll see you soon. Okay, bye!