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Good morning! I had a few minutes before heading off to work and thought I would hop on and

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do a journey share. We just finished a large conference here for work and typically that's

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a very, it was a very very full busy time, but typically the trend is that we run really

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hard at conference and then everyone crashes really hard after, which is not a cycle that

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I want to be on. And it was interesting because a couple of different friends who I don't

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work with but know the trend of cycle, the cycle of conference season, when I told them,

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oh we just finished conference, they said, oh wow, like you look unusually rested or

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you seem to be unusually well in comparison to how people typically do after conference.

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So because two separate people said it, it made me think like, oh wow, like maybe I came

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out of that having managed my inner world a little better than usual. So I felt like

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that was a huge victory for me. I feel like I've been sleeping better, which is a huge

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win. And I think, I think I've been keeping really close inventory of what's bubbling

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up and processing it real time instead of stifling it. And that's really helped to

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not let things get backlogged. And so I, yeah, I found myself the other day just trying to

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schedule a time to get away. And so typically traveling has been exhausting because I do

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it so much. But I was like, well, maybe I'll get away here. Maybe I'll get away here

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for the weekend and go here and there. And all those things were fine. But I really realized

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that I think I was just running or wanting to escape, having to just go through the process.

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And it just felt really hard some days. So I'm like, maybe I'll just get away

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and take a brain break and go somewhere. And again, not a bad thing, but I think I've just

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been super aware in this season of what's happening in my body, in my mind, in my spirit.

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And so that's a really good, like, that's, that's a huge win, I think. I think Lindsay

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might have said at one time, but use the term like this low grade anxiety. So,

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I mean, I know when I'm anxious, and I know when I would consider myself not anxious,

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but I realized it was this, there's this like low grade anxiety that just lingers about the

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littlest things that have no significance, but concerned about how it's going to play out,

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or what's going to happen, or I need to know this before I can do this, or so I can move forward,

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so I can make plans. And I know that physically wears on me mentally, emotionally, spiritually,

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all the things. So just continuing to practice releasing it, surrendering it, going back over

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the videos, again, I just finished, finished all the videos. And just really captured some

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bullet points, like a little go to, to remind me in those moments of when I'm feeling overwhelmed,

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to just think through like, okay, no shame and condemnation, just release this, and

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partner with the truth. So still really diving in, like, okay, God, what is your truth? Like,

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it's almost like easy for me to identify the lie that I've been believing, or

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to see where I haven't been aligned with the word. But like, I know what's wrong thinking,

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wrong thinking, and wrong belief systems, but I'm like, what is actually the truth?

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And so really just been looking in scriptures for what does your word actually say about these

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circumstances? And there's unlimited scriptures to apply, but to not just apply them and to

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declare them, but to believe them. So I think that's kind of where I'm at right now.

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Definitely been some high moments and some super low moments, but overall making progress,

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which I'm super grateful for. So excited to see you all tonight in our breakout rooms.

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Okay, hope you have a great day. Bye!